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I'm officially 24 hours without a drink.,-0.19866666666666788,2.1045378000000032,2.3500000000000014,90.08833333333334,96.0,4.666666666666667,26.66666666666667,6.42735559955562,1.185166666666667,76,4,16,1,3,26,18,20,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,9,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4872685532136509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4898447530460186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5410349360820808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.47948167107932205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,wolsinyourarea,2019/10/19,Feeling like a failure Broke my 2 week streak and I feel terrible about it. But gonna go for 3 weeks this time. Thanks for reading,1.0377777777777766,3.3422631481481524,1.905185185185185,97.43333333333337,84.18518518518519,5.0814814814814815,23.814814814814817,6.42735559955562,0.4823925925925927,103,4,23,1,3,32,26,27,0.287,0.498,0.215,-0.5106,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,5,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,2,3,4,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,10,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38619717475349,0.2728272782088231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21704085406824544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18657557364941169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3820003258926431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3515994289207123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22268719967442735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6126694420011598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,glitterONeverything,2019/10/19,"help! withdrawals are crazy!! I feel lije shit and I just wanna drink to make it go away!!!! I am on day 1 and I feel insane. I am anxious, out of it, my chest is so tight it feels like someone is standing on it, i feel my heart pounding. also i keep twitching, is that a withdrawals thing?? what did you guys do to push through it?",-0.188804347826089,1.9021642318840613,1.4549094202898551,99.99366847826089,87.84057971014492,3.45,20.219202898550726,3.1291,-0.6778275362318835,248,8,58,0,8,80,49,69,0.17300000000000001,0.754,0.073,-0.8024,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,0,4,2,1,0,1,0,8,5,3,1,0,12,15,4,0,1,1,0,5,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,8,3,1,2,4,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,5,10,1,9,14,0,8,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,2,41,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20234743366125305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2858510784109773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23772934936125364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16318296096331655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2478723772280892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5117568515313267,0.18076417699990813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14380237789483166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2505387806177449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2998409297024343,0.1696002010218344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2249040610187504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12361733123037462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16889901743653074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2597309324505714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21439089828215135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1681014185896345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Collector420,2019/10/19,"God damn I (M17) wrote messages to almost 20 people I barely know while being drunk... Title says it all, I am normally a very shy und quiet person but the alcohol made me contact all these people and I even asked 2 girls to go on a date with me, what the hell? I guess it's a common action taken by people who consume alcohol and I just had to tell anyone, because I think this is too messed up to tell a friend or family member...",5.092808988764047,4.536881202247193,6.599191011235956,79.45339325842697,68.43820224719101,8.917752808988762,25.665168539325844,8.238735603445708,1.5292498876404492,333,7,67,4,5,115,68,89,0.146,0.7879999999999999,0.066,-0.799,0,0,2,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,2,0,6,0,4,3,0,1,2,15,12,5,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,2,6,3,3,0,2,1,0,2,0,3,0,0,4,2,9,1,8,7,2,7,1,0,0,0,11,2,2,3,3,43,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4477348729335123,0.2097611716398952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1464713391331853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19583291843534695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12769536580753774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1383577247082892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19747647506101887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16184157647647066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11905072854034755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2307627687047601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11512319891798438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1982124055329773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20524319422001194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43567537517626176,0.18290742399705492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16658468896001946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36618463752732894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342245408853894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17284064038814104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,engineerkoala,2019/10/19,"How to have as much fun as before Today was my second sober tailgate. It’s just not that fun anymore. Everyone else is getting giggly and im just standing there with my diet cherry pepsi, wishing i was buzzing with them. These are legit good friends, not just drinking buddies, so it’s fun being with them, but they are 100% having more fun than me. Time draaaaags on and my feet hurt and i kinda just want a nap instead of tailgate....",2.2430457516339857,4.724178611764707,2.9474509803921585,90.75241830065364,80.52941176470588,4.248366013071895,24.73856209150327,5.033348758259628,0.4532875816993469,342,13,64,1,9,107,63,85,0.05,0.746,0.204,0.8512,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,3,0,8,7,0,0,1,0,8,3,1,1,0,17,11,8,0,2,7,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,6,2,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,9,6,9,8,2,4,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,1,2,48,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2910130152112695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24969529934663345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2874588786289761,0.0,0.0,0.2451309484730635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2803939024317633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22671053689692636,0.0,0.1533099646623285,0.0,0.0,0.24612302960800614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3141329250937414,0.0,0.3169648845942627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21571170769346848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17110686211670206,0.0,0.27814622104909703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.173078148936303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3374408050522996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,dan123mccart,2019/10/19,Sleep paralysis after a heavy one? Does anyone here get sleep paralysis a few times and a weird buzzing head the day after drinking?,5.568749999999998,7.947925041666673,4.823333333333334,81.855,69.41666666666666,8.133333333333335,28.66666666666667,8.841846274778883,2.453066666666667,107,4,18,2,2,32,19,24,0.09300000000000001,0.907,0.0,-0.264,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,0,4,3,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,10,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2362254216920367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21787870225637992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2956458585656788,0.0,0.0,0.3309543567345887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1765073355111494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3467210698304076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2289289708764162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6761675057999662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19699708617383746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,gaiyuka,2019/10/19,Another Friday Night Sober! This Sunday will be two weeks sober! I can’t recall the last time I’ve been sober for this long. 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I know my 2 older brothers have had issues. They're still alive and well. As far as i know, they've gotten over it. I'm the baby of the family- the youngest child who's supposed to be perfect after learning from my older siblings' mistakes. I turned 21 around a month ago & i've been buying alcohol on a weekly basis. I don't know if thats normal, dumb, freshly-21 year old behavior or if i have a legitimate problem. I try to keep myself under control by drinking only on the weekends, but thats the thing- now I only live for the weekends. I go to school full time, I have a job, I try my best to maintain a social life with my other busy friends. But all I ever look forward to is friday-sunday when I can stay locked up in my room and drink peacefully alone. I prefer to be alone. I've had 2 ex boyfriends tell me about how ""out of hand"" I get when i drink hard liquor. Now I'm self conscious, because I don't want to be an annoyance or inconvenience to anyone with my drunk behavior. SO I stay alone & just enjoy the feeling myself. I don't know if playing the blame-game is necessary either, but I really feel like my indulgence in alcohol is a result of being raised by highly strict evangelical parents who tried to convince me everything was a sin- including drinking. I wasn't a ""normal"" teenager who got into trouble doing ""normal"" teenage things, like partying and drinking. because I wasn't allowed to. because I was always threatened by my parents. And now that I'm semi-independent, i'm finally being dumb the way I should have a years ago.",4.5908061318884625,5.6859321033434655,5.877449451566013,78.40180124223606,69.91185410334347,8.396511166908947,30.413770318488172,8.716276077567194,2.4748328531782744,1318,53,244,22,23,443,185,329,0.149,0.708,0.14300000000000002,0.4558,5,3,8,0,0,0,48.0,1,0,0,3,15,17,3,0,19,0,26,12,1,4,4,47,45,19,0,11,12,4,4,2,1,1,4,0,1,2,11,10,10,2,9,10,1,3,7,7,1,0,9,5,37,10,36,30,4,42,2,0,1,0,14,16,2,5,24,159,48,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15967049292939434,0.2887492602360199,0.0,0.279833727085718,0.0,0.0,0.07493947221195146,0.1951660327399364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06297401040543467,0.0,0.0,0.08017499480103027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16470435805419106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09451536204402668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10101309895159064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4411363297701862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059485636213986226,0.08146696730622657,0.0,0.0,0.08094264581595648,0.0,0.16980640265756433,0.0,0.09107692504660936,0.06434088903927401,0.0,0.09865940547541023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06958230314118909,0.0,0.04705410071235095,0.0,0.05118477008705003,0.0,0.07203145608092623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08067858709447956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09515630293505148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09400217397356052,0.08937344142185907,0.08005196314144084,0.0,0.0,0.197984658827374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06361402576134166,0.08800027886088026,0.0,0.07952711073788156,0.0,0.07563007700784323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0718872752232706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26472729323590904,0.0,0.0,0.0945057682825669,0.0,0.0,0.13699364988677373,0.0,0.0,0.2000081832740484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08617794535911304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05769654189931098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0911483713487767,0.0,0.0,0.0939551521855143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09180769231841912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19198994319001514,0.0719242759352309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08488313202116363,0.0,0.0,0.07238907468671253,0.07871886510502897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11966745735053165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05251634843401679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18344020713784812,0.09796247445340374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05312137843807905,0.07148766603246616,0.07224295320532165,0.0,0.08097728176990461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11599499287215835 alcoholism,Loopy1832,2019/10/19,"Is AA for me? I have been drinking too much and embarrassing myself and hurting others. I don't know if i'm really an ""alcoholic"" but my therapist wants me to try going. I'm afraid I won't belong, I'm afraid that they'll make me talk, and I'm afraid to see anyone there who knows me. Any advice?",2.140000000000001,3.4104528412698443,4.308126984126982,86.61742857142859,76.14285714285714,7.5796825396825405,20.536507936507935,8.238735603445708,0.8425136507936508,231,5,51,4,5,80,45,63,0.073,0.927,0.0,-0.4606,0,0,2,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,0,2,5,0,4,1,0,6,2,0,1,0,9,16,5,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,2,1,0,1,2,5,1,0,1,1,10,0,3,13,1,1,0,1,1,0,3,0,0,1,0,30,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2879131780985701,0.0,0.31487440812339523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2003613927202294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20601511744854212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2886293955341956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16744743352330982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3154120572640957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3238465557357215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1966706490419745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21659007402437894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18875024441409072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2347853499828664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23681584875349398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3420930719557225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2000373147323396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17378291373682087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,BLACKLABELSLUSHIE,2019/10/19,"My recovering alcoholic brain reminds me of a Boeing 737 Max 8 Works great most of the time and then BOOM a sudden trigger and I'm spiraling towards the ground at 700 Mph with only seconds to respond and correct. Before, I was like those pilots who were not trained or informed about this emergency scenario and so they could not know the right moves to come out of the spin.",10.325833333333335,7.629101027777783,9.175555555555556,72.02500000000003,59.55555555555557,11.822222222222226,42.05555555555557,9.725611199111238,4.056688888888889,302,13,55,4,3,94,60,72,0.040999999999999995,0.87,0.09,0.5574,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,1,2,2,0,0,6,0,3,2,1,1,1,16,6,7,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,7,1,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,2,1,4,2,10,3,1,10,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,2,4,37,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3457224492460039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2752741411214418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3611322899716553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2786660668196737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2582879274142185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3566592027979051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17778679616439338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15804545395500033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3438286392711604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2460358519946963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2762666985301697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18863508697363526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23551139773170696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,boogereyes,2019/10/19,"How can I have a conversation about my partner's drinking problem? I know it seems rather obvious but this is something I've been trying to discuss for weeks. I know my partner has a drinking problem but he refuses to address it... even after forgetful nights of binge drinking then lying about it. He thinks I cant tell when hes been drinking and denies it when I ask. I dont want to sound crazy and tell him what to do but I think its seriously affecting our relationship but I just cant seem to start the conversation in a way he will take seriously.",3.606747474747476,5.404728927272728,5.0530303030303045,80.60398989898991,73.36363636363637,8.161616161616159,30.40404040404041,8.841846274778883,2.5533737373737373,442,20,86,9,9,148,69,110,0.22899999999999998,0.7709999999999999,0.0,-0.9715,0,0,5,0,0,0,8.0,1,0,0,0,8,4,0,0,4,0,12,4,0,2,1,22,22,10,0,4,6,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,2,7,2,4,1,6,4,0,0,3,4,0,0,2,1,13,0,11,19,0,9,0,0,0,0,16,1,0,2,7,59,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15432510635646834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1934695099042225,0.6468521142329526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10903208077295216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18144446867323047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15491397849845825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3159135985514651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17723137341695228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30056057139820186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12708466490317982,0.0,0.0,0.11684264939501407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12411767768823982,0.0,0.2885698869425101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2115498937899404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11207673400747424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09736694088293868,0.13103077437186514,0.13241515112697486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,BasedMeatMerchant,2019/10/19,"I used to be a highly functional drunk. Something changed. Been trying to ween myself off of alcohol but I have intense nightmares, pin-needles, cold sweat, etc. When I’m not, at least, buzzed I feel like a balloon tied around the neck of some guy I don’t even know. I know I can beat this but I have extreme fear of incarceration, so rehab will probably just break me. I’m not necessarily asking for advice, I just had to put my thoughts out somewhere.",3.12409090909091,5.2961132272727305,4.120454545454546,85.11318181818183,75.81818181818181,6.672727272727273,26.90909090909091,7.645422480735847,1.5259045454545457,356,14,70,5,8,115,68,88,0.076,0.866,0.057999999999999996,-0.3483,0,0,2,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,6,2,0,1,3,0,8,5,2,1,0,14,16,4,0,0,6,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,2,2,0,4,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,3,2,11,1,11,11,3,8,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,1,2,46,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23882746761244825,0.0,0.2611921343952281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21757019914188291,0.2284835113058998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585456259071777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2725735900798188,0.1614256633165666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2750209599112993,0.12357733710365335,0.17460132147162616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2419970754259033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2582248471679159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2686346394846039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11940280285529195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2635074229853815,0.0,0.0,0.2456921951231054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18815312139258492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1940284257039376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1659333748494238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21108544206054214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,igottherose,2019/10/19,"Anonymity in AA Hey y’all. Came here assuming some of you are familiar w the Traditions. Is it okay to tell someone in AA that someone they haven’t met is in AA too? Thanks!",-0.036666666666665286,2.3026219999999995,1.9680000000000002,93.77700000000004,92.88888888888887,6.213333333333335,23.86666666666667,7.554174236665415,1.3780066666666675,136,6,30,3,5,45,30,36,0.0,0.8590000000000001,0.141,0.6239,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,1,0,2,2,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,3,0,2,0,3,2,5,5,1,4,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,2,0,18,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.475263977258513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7041668212098762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3631979206833705,0.38257092184178587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,CherryTofu,2019/10/19,"I wish I wasn't me Long read for anyone witb some time.... Ive known I've had a problem since I was young, in my teenage years I learned what a complete disgrace I could be. I had partners for a long time that encouraged my drinking because everyone thought drunk me was more fun, including myself. Now here I am 33 with a good life, a one year old healthy son, I get to be a stay at home mom I have a husband a good house but still I drank. I'm 4 days clean now, my major ones have been alcohol and weed doesn't seem like much but it's been harder then ever to quit with my son being around because I hate the first week of recovery. It's not so much the physical withdrawals for me but the mental ones.... My husband says he understands but he doesn't. This morning I snapped because he was supposed to give me a day odd yesterday after my mental breakdown of crying for hours feeling worthless and depressed. I'm on medication and will go see a therapist next week...and well everything is a mess in the kitchen so I'm cleaning and complaining because it's my only way to vent....and he freaked out started yelling at me that I didn't let him clean last night ....no he just didn't think about it. He's asked me about 10 times what is wrong.... How can he keep asking ...I've told him that question sets me off time and time again, I'm having mental withdrawals all I want is to be high so I can forget about what an awful person I've been my entire life. But he doesn't understand I never feel like he even tries to see how it feels. When he quit smoking he was awful but he doesn't seem to see it the same way. He's stomping around upstairs after I had to excuse myself for an hour for some alone time too unwind... Normally I have some sort of way to relax usually exercise when I quit drinking since I usually keep smoking pot. But without pot I have no appetite when I eat I immediately feel so full and nauseous so u have zero energy I've lost 4 lbs by just existing. I'm at my wit's end I wish he could just be patient with me. Just give me some lead way to bitch and complain because this is so hard for me. I want to be a good mom and in my opinion I just need a good week of me being able to complain when he leaves all of his garbage around his house. Normally it's fine I get it it's my job but I just can't right now. I used to take time off work when I quit drinking but I can't. My son had a fever and is teething so he has been screaming and yelling all week and I was alone with him for most of that. I just feel so fucking alone. I have no friends left because of what drinking has done to my life. So here I am writing my heart out to strangers. I don't expect anyone to read this or anything. But this has made me feel alot better just being able to vent, putting this just out there in the world. Thank you Reddit for giving me some sense of sanity.",1.872405281285879,3.4997060016583745,3.119896351575456,93.34848593570612,77.70646766169155,6.097831356040312,24.1998022706978,6.844919456158928,0.6605601734915171,2241,76,506,22,52,725,252,603,0.127,0.764,0.109,-0.9472,1,3,5,0,2,0,60.0,0,1,0,9,43,28,3,0,23,2,56,18,2,5,5,93,101,39,0,11,22,7,7,2,2,1,7,4,5,2,22,21,9,2,15,10,0,3,16,14,1,5,22,14,72,14,61,67,16,74,0,3,3,1,46,21,2,13,46,317,94,6,0.12107451507310107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06469591775094151,0.0,0.18809502517872048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08465811606180604,0.0,0.04981700484395127,0.16167298155433718,0.11318832773520815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22141770184662776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05354028478302659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06347216275755023,0.0,0.0,0.09666814836291443,0.0,0.06649733479328089,0.07808304597742663,0.0,0.05214065121011855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06195063254677961,0.0,0.2372138624446928,0.0,0.06194472760280328,0.0,0.0,0.05361804176738709,0.0,0.0,0.039984287662418086,0.054759415265211456,0.0,0.057845943843352135,0.05440698360895193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18365673810928654,0.043247828880027706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051492960335117535,0.0,0.0,0.04677093500357878,0.05596571910816898,0.06325643695937047,0.17421856093120774,0.03440471853966906,0.2031031178037146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054229492023566125,0.05976800875020481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07173694165634315,0.0,0.06396093631344107,0.060723805215436015,0.0,0.1192340087431867,0.13970373461879673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060073887052950074,0.1076165920349049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0493459446924204,0.0,0.06410021484125755,0.06577390744308713,0.06190344735580676,0.12827776589239467,0.059150892354735335,0.0,0.0,0.1071471358468966,0.0,0.0,0.06608356777648837,0.0,0.0,0.05728181681073581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06098491812556889,0.18302195124574036,0.0,0.0,0.14180100874218846,0.0,0.0,0.08900369959098256,0.04488760939854723,0.04669006501573519,0.0,0.06438206017033454,0.056810115291760964,0.1186273182180314,0.0,0.0,0.06352366832179103,0.0,0.12306483726991772,0.046041312269847263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05285879825004063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057925979727266624,0.0,0.0608566643269603,0.06781558304317542,0.25755530027376944,0.1211072795563708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05169848716625857,0.0,0.04814165698066589,0.0,0.0,0.14472106941442742,0.1102216912817802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10015409001798556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042848582467925035,0.06452466179554754,0.04834513206785273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04551648371282845,0.0,0.0,0.05573457330259977,0.0,0.07028842190865217,0.0,0.03878983024209758,0.0,0.0480598204067356,0.24709833188104285,0.0,0.0,0.057845943843352135,0.0,0.04110082409736837,0.0,0.0,0.12604284011320624,0.0,0.052284753633911336,0.1333464730743726,0.0,0.07141288592263312,0.1922066290204653,0.19423734577894808,0.0,0.0544302647577177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13922971712454515,0.05835575598816176,0.0,0.04407184448186626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0661879878183204,0.0,0.07796801812317236 alcoholism,newtogroom,2019/10/19,"Anyone been to William Booth House, Sydney, Australia? I’m going into long-term rehab here, and there’s very little I can find about the place’s facilities. I’m sure they will be very run down and poor. But I was wondering what sort of facilities the place has? A gym? TV rooms? Are showers private? Anything else available? And what’s the sleeping arrangements like? They told me it’s 2 - 4 in a room, but you get moved into rooms with less people as you progress. Do you ever get your own room? Thanks all. (Not trying time sound fussy, just wondering what to expect.)",1.4754434250764523,4.1863918348623885,2.1834495412844035,92.35107645259941,89.36697247706422,4.741529051987769,19.193272171253824,6.42735559955562,0.16448207951070382,446,13,87,5,15,138,82,109,0.02,0.867,0.113,0.8708,1,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,4,2,1,5,3,0,0,5,0,8,2,1,0,3,18,17,6,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,5,0,4,6,0,0,3,2,1,3,1,0,0,0,3,1,9,3,10,12,3,16,0,0,0,0,7,11,0,3,3,49,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13674683520470393,0.0,0.16093714504145826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16337333412995975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17690393038538574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17874710229142016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20435412368979766,0.0,0.11114672981793212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22566109977513646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09554544449275118,0.1960121510986924,0.0,0.17307297173509792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.207859570436328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1355833595945636,0.0,0.408657284986008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19571087189537806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18432206542709664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1800542432352471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11403822622418767,0.0,0.0,0.18687516609116195,0.0,0.1327789438526387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32273085926170325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4241738509251015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,protruding_feature,2019/10/19,"Think I'm finally done I've reached a final tipping point in my life I think. After years of being a terrible human being, with every year worse than the last, almost losing my family multiple times, wrecking multiple cars, being unfaithful, gambling my ass off, I could go on... It's been rough. I've done things like take a month off to prove to myself that I'm in control, but it's time. Today's actually day 3, and it's easy so far because of how bad the last incident was. All of the stuff I've done has kind of been crashing down on me mentally. I've tried to find a therapist in the past but had a hard time. I think I need to come clean with my SO but I really can't lose my family right now, and that would do it for sure. I'm nervous about handling friends and work (yes that sounds weird but our office is pretty pro-alcohol). Anyways, I don't really have any questions (unless someone has advice on therapists), there's just nobody to talk to about this stuff in my life yet. Venting anonymously online seemed like a good idea. It's been somewhat helpful reading some of these alcoholism-related subreddits, so maybe I will see some of you around.",5.521894409937887,5.7898122826086995,6.259751552795031,79.44434782608695,67.47826086956522,9.875776397515526,30.341614906832298,9.784248007369934,2.7299440993788813,915,32,179,19,14,301,143,230,0.081,0.769,0.15,0.9605,0,0,2,0,0,0,32.0,1,1,0,4,12,12,0,1,10,1,21,3,1,2,3,32,33,12,0,3,6,0,2,2,1,2,2,1,1,1,13,7,0,1,8,1,1,3,2,6,0,0,8,4,17,6,31,19,4,33,0,2,1,1,7,14,1,6,18,112,30,2,0.0,0.0,0.10744831078155563,0.0,0.0,0.10759504765157454,0.0,0.1176706365788482,0.11025601126252604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07487636981273693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09801835684252468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09193454211146886,0.06712005649367044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09484722078970943,0.0,0.0,0.12349408943995388,0.08791128521085971,0.0,0.0,0.07100974872595844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3380323189620004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09276969080931066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20759770064395056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2412331384806233,0.10063558024696702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08506820656669573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06257620685533967,0.09235232296694673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0986340262198032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07380223760702455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12429712530217304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11465924270702155,0.0,0.1795034038127465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15554331603610205,0.1075851985651342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24636259152996345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1106170357724154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11096171267918868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08788616217260764,0.0,0.0,0.08164276442856203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10510935745684216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10408647408427267,0.0,0.0,0.11201815496205617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12334476585333028,0.0,0.11013655246836104,0.0,0.14107441469752782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09403056802495903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08774082897535691,0.10023705535683207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09329309706281404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25209178565652834,0.0,0.0,0.10377431448557617,0.0,0.08278657756951527,0.08849963971623709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2556848604251663,0.07315003615610641,0.21165589001819146,0.0,0.0,0.1926124046648148,0.0,0.10436833025854472,0.0,0.0,0.07475525973788688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08015902974511449,0.0,0.11220819106409892,0.07821668035692797,0.0,0.0,0.14181028176559635 alcoholism,homegrowninidaho2,2019/01/18,"(long) Small step, huge win for me today. Almost caved. Been battling alcohol for a lot of years at this point. Thursday last week was my last drink, here's what happened. I left work early and went to the grocery store and bought a pint of vodka around 8pm. I came home and drank it alone standing in the kitchen. I decided that wasn't enough so I walked down to the 711 a few blocks away around 930. A homeless guy asked for a cigarette so I told him to hold on let me run in real quick. I went in and got a few earthquakes (10 % beer),and the guy some taquitos. I asked him if he was hungry and if he wanted to have a beer with me and he said fuck yeah thanks man. So we walk down the block and hung out at a playground and drank the beer. Then we go back to 711 and that's it. The next thing I vaguely remember is falling down a lot and trying to get up. I make it home and pass out on the front steps, it's probably about 20°f, and my SO wakes me up around 2:30 am or so I'm told. I still have my wallet but not my phone. Anyway, that made me make a huge decision to stop drinking. Today I went in for my first alcohol and drug class as ordered by the court for a dui I have been dealing with. It's supposed to be 16 one hour classes. I failed the ua for thc, I live in a legal state and do not have to do ua for my probation officer. Well, the guy tells me that I have failed to comply and now I need intensive outpatient treatment. This infuriated me a little bit. I tried to plead my case to no avail. On the way home I have my lady stop at the grocery store because I was hellbent on buying some beer. I went in, grabbed the beer, and some lady walked past carrying doughnuts. I don't eat sweets, ever. But something in my head told me that I have come to far to let a bit of bad news destroy what progress I have made so I put the beer down and went to the bakery and loaded up a box of a dozen doughnuts, brought them home and had coffee and sweets instead. I really still want that beer, but I am happy with the decision I made. Thank you for reading.",1.3685279934133163,3.035660961009178,2.7080733944954107,95.55892143025171,79.29816513761469,5.847941660785698,21.500588096918374,6.67199483983844,0.19356805457539394,1593,45,374,15,39,515,214,436,0.113,0.821,0.066,-0.9692,0,1,15,0,0,0,47.0,2,1,1,6,20,13,3,0,33,1,24,18,2,5,1,66,57,34,0,5,8,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,5,4,16,32,14,5,4,10,4,19,5,6,1,3,25,4,50,7,60,29,10,79,0,2,0,1,22,34,1,9,22,240,66,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1734160546408833,0.08124440824613076,0.08403079693951945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21668052311363525,0.15169947277665302,0.0,0.0762284644318435,0.06238736581084445,0.06774385709855538,0.04945879330144549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1771555601025291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09279616940105503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0698901242536525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08364603106931663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15896169944464988,0.09409017620648713,0.08302077349019472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08383355112221609,0.0,0.0,0.07339073375766847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06901290169089244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07500746987036379,0.04238938912020511,0.0,0.04611056429516863,0.0,0.06489061260303475,0.0,0.0,0.2410075143657873,0.07174690535924275,0.08636910564463382,0.0,0.0,0.08326732882037402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3255377801048091,0.0,0.07990106676769072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1322707728489136,0.0,0.0,0.08815279173413385,0.16593089614154832,0.0,0.0,0.08131801008159181,0.07164318500701561,0.07180141425681051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13795517594661386,0.0,0.23031406816626546,0.10831571934914253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06016014916214564,0.0,0.0,0.08628738297965399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05497878713803104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07745199059830858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07669825795953808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08747663433379814,0.0,0.0,0.08156250806127915,0.0,0.0,0.08115638257813683,0.09234873988665793,0.05197679114964253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09190948895674188,0.0,0.07717741915072829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06246124535070489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12958811553728147,0.13566402694277807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07091506486196943,0.14939535824251135,0.0,0.0,0.053902107763859036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1538118989503873,0.2325822642375199,0.0,0.11016989951194933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09571037368151633,0.0644007312193742,0.06508114294508947,0.0,0.07294959323152002,0.3760621308512722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05906682876200954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052247910537186366 alcoholism,ItsAlexBalex,2019/01/18,"Employee is an alcoholic and in denial about it. How can I help? Hi everybody, I run a small business that has two full time employees and one part time. One of my full time employees has been working here for almost 3 years. For the most part, she’s very valuable to our store. She’s knowledgeable, works hard, and is good with customers. However, within a few months of her first starting, the other full time employee asked me if I ever noticed the smell of alcohol on her. I hadn’t, but I did notice her hands seemed to shake a lot. A few days later, I started noticing the smell. A few weeks later, a customer actually pulled me aside and said they noticed these symptoms. After the customer pointed it out, I told her what happened and she acted to confused as to how they came to that conclusion. I simply told her “Whatever may have led the customer to believe that, do your best to make sure it doesn’t happen again.” Things were good for a while after that, probably close to a year. Then we started noticing the smell again. There’s been several incidents over the last year of her clearly being drunk at work, oversleeping (I assume from being in an alcohol induced coma), and consistently catching wiffs. My other full time employee and I had another sit down with her about it and she again feigned ignorance as if she was shocked to hear this was an issue. After a little more prodding, she admitted she drinks a lot, but claimed it never happened at work. I suggested AA to her, but she claimed her mother (who was also an alcoholic) tried that and it “made things worse.” We told her that she’s a really good worker and it would be unfortunate to have to let her go, but this behavior wouldn’t be tolerated. Since that talk, nothing seems to have changed. She hasn’t appeared blatantly intoxicated while at work since, but I still smell it and she calls in sick from time to time, usually the day after she already had a day off. This leads me to believe that her sick days are usually alcohol related, but they may be legitimate. As I said, she’s a really good worker, and truth be told, we’d have a hard time finding an adequate replacement if we ever lost her, but I think she knows that and possibly feels that losing her job isn’t a real threat. I don’t think she believes she has a problem, but it’s clear she does. She recently separated from her husband and lived in my basement for a couple months until she could find her own place. While she was living there I saw several pints of liquor that would show up in the trash day after day. I’ve never had anyone in my life with alcoholism, so I’m not sure how to handle this. I’d really appreciate some input with people that are more experienced with this problem. Thank you for reading, I appreciate it. TLDR: Employee continues to drink before and possibly during work despite warnings. How can I get through to her?",5.0011413043478266,6.437398425724638,5.6535942028985495,79.1084347826087,69.27173913043478,9.143188405797103,30.10434782608696,9.516144504307137,2.793936086956521,2289,90,423,50,40,742,253,552,0.091,0.81,0.1,0.6385,8,0,8,0,0,0,65.0,5,2,3,14,17,19,1,2,32,0,44,17,1,9,10,86,75,40,0,9,12,2,4,0,0,5,12,3,0,0,34,26,10,1,13,6,1,10,9,9,1,4,22,13,72,10,64,39,17,85,0,2,1,0,64,25,0,15,49,314,106,11,0.0,0.0,0.05674398744355935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3728546912988031,0.05822674803494138,0.0,0.0641676818360529,0.04650087509165076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060973169999481214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04065838158403172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0543604610402236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049479601885955474,0.1965383997377008,0.06102266047212562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059375533362361885,0.06650573609883233,0.0,0.0,0.06151279514183676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04642638704943227,0.06433957368185511,0.0,0.22500360931320101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050885641541886864,0.0,0.0,0.11392565987715858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10519625546809844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029401338331516893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10629230111432247,0.04946059580792318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030379891157307014,0.0,0.03304680613624402,0.1950868847244652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15426005570685056,0.0,0.10417823983669304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06553693821032211,0.0,0.03897532882200006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060691327017910926,0.05770284378290855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03195657920848016,0.04739832026179752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0594601935654205,0.04107159948761725,0.0,0.058279497456357764,0.1026913672430584,0.0,0.0,0.06505265507970506,0.06347532971626978,0.09887057390613764,0.0,0.05502097315789983,0.03881419186203691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09282623889590508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0896945298526178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05579450286854333,0.3310089934701788,0.0,0.0,0.07880507852933417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12593707389512615,0.0,0.040312450102326966,0.0,0.060752206093775685,0.0,0.054968584759698194,0.1311060984484927,0.0,0.0,0.06269329860669325,0.11127942349487943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05816366125147485,0.06618506953038036,0.11175315030049984,0.0,0.057414061509020224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11062398596744118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1058713751603028,0.0,0.1313812095512416,0.0,0.09620112987583647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12347220306985285,0.0,0.04643700849449853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10960746344547158,0.06043795913834124,0.0,0.0467370999905912,0.0,0.05353479746952794,0.0,0.0,0.07726179598256723,0.07451768562445242,0.0,0.0,0.27125218423071257,0.0,0.0,0.22225133913014766,0.0,0.03947862455027845,0.0,0.05680207408421616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12808344993608145,0.04797812836093115,0.0,0.0,0.04664275848510718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2539942942383867,0.0,0.059257703899601076,0.08261323599723433,0.0,0.0,0.1123360728895134 alcoholism,Alej915,2019/01/18,"Just quit after 8 years of heavy substance abuse 33m. Tobacco was easy. Cocaine was somehow easier and I was using so much of that daily. Alcohol has been the hardest. Just quit 3 days ago, and the withdrawals today have been crippling to say the least. Holy fucking shit. Was drinking a handle of vodka every two days with beers or wine intertwined. Finally fed up with out I feel daily. Luckily my work is very supportive, and I can work from home when I need to. I knew the nausea would be a thing but the pain was not expected. My 'why' is my girlfriend. I finally have love, real love, and I want to share a better life with her. I'm doing this without support groups bc I do not like many folks. Lucky for me the cravings have subsided and today will stick in my mind forever. Anyone who reads this and is considering doing the same I will say this: stop making excuses. You're not convincing anyone except yourself. And you can't trust yourself. I'm lucky. Good luck to all you people going through this shit. 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I've been doing CBT and reading, making some progress and now reading *This Naked Mind* by Annie Grace which gives a good overview of how alcohol can end up changing neurochemistry and conscious/unconscious beliefs so things become boring without it. Going to try to continue letting my brain naturally re-program to not think joy and excitement depend on booze. The gist: * alcohol increases cravings (but not pleasure) by releasing dopamine via the ventral tegmental area of the brain (VTA) * alcohol artificially activates the pleasure centre of the brain, the nucleus accumbens. The brain tries to compensate for this overstimulation, leading to tolerance and the eventual numbing of the pleasure centre * alcohol damages the prefrontal cortex, responsible for decision-making, decreasing one's ability to exercise self-control and making it more difficult to abstain [A diagram](https://imgur.com/gallery/KdCXmGx) from Annie Grace's *This Naked Mind* captures the vibe of this.",9.481247672253259,12.860031463687156,8.049474860335195,58.60646554934823,61.17877094972067,11.253780260707636,45.45288640595904,11.072351349416056,6.611426517690876,948,60,109,29,15,288,119,179,0.069,0.762,0.16899999999999998,0.9621,0,0,6,0,0,0,48.0,0,0,0,2,4,14,0,0,14,0,5,13,4,5,0,21,10,9,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,8,6,7,1,2,5,0,3,3,4,0,1,1,0,2,10,24,8,3,14,1,1,0,0,1,4,0,2,7,69,10,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4960613947975415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12573322396428918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12816107157911835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5181722733379606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12275877306114345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13015279775381053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22735715706713575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10278021206776916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.111319623323397,0.06595026881026314,0.09733189068174808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2470612026217358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0945910460918076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186624732502956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15492004742612628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2343419707324963,0.0,0.18524983572062795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10889908517384764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07863416650911158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23215006489337114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12105881363158763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07709423102503099,0.07435607207834515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1575720141072753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11186191770782647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,newskyrim,2019/01/18,"Anyone have experience with Naltrexone/The Sinclair Method I have been trying to quit drinking for very long time but I just keep getting worse and i fear it will just keep getting worse. I never go to the doctor for anything but I was just randomly youtubeing other alcholics stories and found out about Naltrexone and it sounds amazing. I guess i'm wondering if you take it and alcohol dont give rewards anymore does your depression just get even worse?",3.4526067907995603,6.631057349397594,3.559956188389922,82.97877327491788,83.93975903614458,6.391675794085432,29.232201533406357,7.686295010490155,2.4674433734939765,372,18,60,7,11,114,59,83,0.258,0.688,0.053,-0.968,0,0,3,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,2,6,4,0,1,1,0,6,3,0,0,1,20,18,7,0,1,7,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,4,6,2,2,2,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,3,1,8,2,7,14,0,5,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,4,3,39,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18014222140435054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1671688655496986,0.1178629318312679,0.0,0.13871270751345166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14518277290105375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17253102612011206,0.1475103205435317,0.0,0.1975541832742876,0.16512723528089654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11133404782210916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1648866270729285,0.0,0.18967985680691085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18482025734864088,0.0,0.0,0.2642010995775562,0.16170066400395225,0.0957980447605171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18569077498712908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2996524761232154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14917265060586282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13000591570286038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17928713873568228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1267381431717078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09829024315992206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11444298205881236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13908184861487816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1827990154263983,0.0,0.0,0.5153392567356273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,chubbybunny789,2019/01/18,"Day 2 and it’s a Friday! Thanks for the support I received yesterday. I’m still figuring out how I’m going to do this. I’m going to have a look for AA meetings in my area at the weekend and research SMART more. I also found a YouTube series help with alcohol addiction, which gave good advice on giving up. Today is day 2. Yesterday I got through the night without having a single drink, which I’m really pleased about. (Although it would never be a single drink would it?). I’m nervous about today. It’s a Friday and I’m going into work. Alcohol is readily available after 4pm in the office. Additionally, on the way home I have to go via the same pubs and shops I would get beer from at the train station. Driving to work isn’t an option for me, I can only go via train. I’m hoping and so determined to stay strong today. But I am nervous that after a long day at the end of a long week I will fall at my first hurdle and give in to temptation. 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I’m 24 years old, and alcohol is taking over my life. I want to get some help, but I just can’t go anywhere. I’d really like to know some resources online that could help me. I really need help, I can’t live like this anymore",0.1769398907103792,1.916645737704922,2.689754098360656,93.88632513661207,83.42622950819674,6.689617486338799,18.36338797814207,7.793537801064563,0.3692928961748625,214,5,52,4,6,74,42,61,0.024,0.6990000000000001,0.278,0.9432,0,0,2,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,4,3,0,0,1,12,14,3,0,3,4,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,6,3,4,13,2,6,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,2,5,25,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4855962528795306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22531246166562266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1813935571582128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11869794040263665,0.0,0.12911790252790006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4568440914154698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12485825293840708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1604717489927407,0.2219881306307147,0.0,0.20061384890692807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16845927596673846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2383987767587929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29108879303286866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16080698605841434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21412486464102315,0.0,0.1708193863196262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13400316054268885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14630357973592872 alcoholism,msiquer,2019/08/01,"I'm alone Family history of drinking addiction. I drink as a hobby. I live in a foreign country where I have no friends. I come home from work and I drink 3-6L of beer. Once I finish my beer I lie in bed and watch YouTube until I sleep. I wake up exhausted and dehydrated and with terrible breath. On the weekends I start drinking whiskey at 9am (I tell myself I can keep whiskey just as a hobby) and don't finish until I either pass out in the afternoon from drunkenness or in the evening blacked out. I've tried sobriety so many times. Here's attempt 50 I haven't drank since 10pm last night, it's currently 9:30 pm here and I am completely sober and I am so fucking bored. I tried playing the game that I love but it doesn't give me anything. My family support system is thousands of miles away and I'm in a country that speaks a language I don't know very well. What can I even do. I don't have hobbies unless watching videos counts... It doesn't in my book. My family thinks I'm successful and happy. I'm happy normally but I'm most happy when I'm drunk. I feel so fucking hopeless.",0.8577230769230759,3.2020532355555567,2.7841111111111125,90.51534615384618,85.53333333333333,6.128205128205129,24.209401709401718,7.468242284971852,1.2634786324786318,858,35,180,15,26,286,127,225,0.09,0.77,0.14,0.9417,1,1,8,0,0,1,24.0,0,0,0,3,11,15,2,0,9,0,14,18,3,0,0,25,32,21,0,1,6,0,1,0,1,0,2,1,2,0,6,13,10,1,3,14,0,2,7,6,1,1,1,5,28,9,23,31,2,29,0,1,3,3,6,14,2,2,12,107,34,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13695266791434887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301123448552691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10338084127032134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11803130058473958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10821708564080226,0.13171818746784872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4922690301701714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.165951739133398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35529166741579626,0.0,0.0635211080706794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09705960088960633,0.2322814525612136,0.0,0.12051347694353848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40119886759722173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1260147631912305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11166361620959914,0.0,0.0,0.06904166397402108,0.10240329163828844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11093150527742653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11338384742879486,0.0,0.0,0.12736670611194664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1178930272890402,0.1230884112105674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13378933360539422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10392047971527152,0.0,0.12571836400527803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08891988823195347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14256075397159895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10980409219961763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08049711731410737,0.0,0.0,0.07325448553840531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1705858385263943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1036559575037005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1129543331407731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09145841611999904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,amsulilie,2019/08/01,"I went out tonight and did not drink, and I don’t think I will ever again. Today something changed. My friend who is visiting called me up to have dinner, I knew he will want to drink and go out after. Normally I start a huge conversation in my head, panicking about having to drink, not wanting to do so because I have too much stuff I want to do, but also wanting to see my friend, also kind of wanting to drink. And I spent hours pondering about what I should do, normally ending with me drinking. Not today, I didn’t think. I decided to meet up straight away. And did not drink. I said cheers, I had shots and they were all just water. I was part of the night, the action, ate loads of delicious food and didn’t drink a single sip. I loved it. It was so much easier than I expected, so much more fun. I liked being the sober one, I liked being the one drinking water, I liked being able to have fun, joke around despite not drinking and I am so happy that I will not be suffering from a hangover tomorrow and be pained with guilt. And I love that connection that automatically happens with all the other sober people around. This was so easy, my last excuse to be drinking disappeared. All my socializing always involves alcohol, always. To me, I thought, I just have to change all my friends and habits to be able to stop drinking. But no, I can just simply not drink! I really don’t know what happened and how this happened today but I feel like a switch in my brain flicked over. I am so excited for all my upcoming appointments, because I know I will not drink and it makes me feel good and I don’t need to get stressed out because of drinking. I won’t be feeling guilty, I won’t be anxious. But I will also not miss out and still have fun. Today was a really good day, and I did not drink!",3.8546539532890516,5.0025441086351,4.750431754874652,85.59735108206556,71.70194986072423,7.974330404971074,26.89961431326334,8.384062270229773,1.6759581315620316,1401,47,290,22,26,455,160,359,0.071,0.674,0.255,0.9977,0,0,17,0,0,0,46.0,0,0,1,0,21,24,0,2,10,0,44,26,2,2,6,72,74,30,0,10,17,0,3,4,3,8,2,1,0,0,13,25,21,1,11,16,1,5,18,5,0,2,17,5,48,19,40,40,11,36,0,2,1,2,16,14,0,0,21,216,61,0,0.10992815932554847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0587398855154954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318642639450366,0.09146903472009436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06209376511566516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09785936792292033,0.0,0.0,0.05164056215003846,0.0,0.0,0.10051677841285228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061358090616179174,0.056124470688205766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116289416612671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03544728431762957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8076580953877273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04868186037805351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04971815680792598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08337447048992372,0.039266349493428325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0664627833020328,0.0,0.12739533480949405,0.0,0.02871646306507105,0.0,0.031237353120067486,0.0922025245360767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14581366237239185,0.058510284853931525,0.0,0.0,0.05640900287137299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05412854679711564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057236630868320676,0.06041364149559283,0.04480306088315069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10741069192131468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09921445567319598,0.0,0.03668894997797508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1212147684006023,0.04075516862262254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051580065394644936,0.10770625618083916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0744901657221161,0.0,0.058485656016946524,0.0,0.0,0.05952074206432231,0.0,0.03810517221512682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07042279373533936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052283426406893034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04379925526784785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056028957426430624,0.0,0.04231403382637798,0.0,0.0,0.03890385848387709,0.0,0.043894385018687636,0.0459524317266481,0.06296116754946739,0.0,0.06292072117302991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07043752579128237,0.0,0.04363533970496671,0.0,0.0,0.208398082956656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16209619127651825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05095225250894213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,mikek1014,2019/08/01,"Need some guidance. Hi all. Need some guidance. Was doing very good limiting my drinking to a few drinks a night. Previously I was a heavy binge drinker, once I started I could not stop. This seems to be coming back around again. I tried AA once and almost felt out of place. My problem is starting to interfere with my marriage. I found myself last night hiding drinks and I could say that it is the first time I have done that. I'm nervous to go back to AA as I dont want to look like the guy that showed up for two meetings and then bailed. Looking for some help.",1.622894736842106,3.933640149122809,2.1921929824561417,96.26618421052632,81.71929824561403,4.852631578947369,21.780701754385966,5.985473137389443,0.0617333333333332,443,14,96,3,12,136,79,114,0.07400000000000001,0.8340000000000001,0.092,0.4694,1,0,4,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,2,4,4,0,1,5,0,11,3,0,0,1,25,24,5,0,6,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,5,7,3,3,3,4,0,2,2,2,2,2,5,4,12,2,14,16,5,18,0,0,2,0,6,4,0,5,13,62,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14645098697487216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13019594067359402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2249186496646235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12598378027119572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2335418148712905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14966732478502556,0.17140711505839712,0.4298160010780928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14042556016739938,0.0,0.0,0.12440250085903437,0.0,0.16035857399433898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08311879914907687,0.12266985439666846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448132005191926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09803012474999948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11921549833292723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07145169833976509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2456309237983505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2168890982542508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2744965669245205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3115087771540681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15280297876149884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13994411461069567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1163060442615152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1331429961991773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2070368758208348,0.0,0.0,0.12227383441925499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0852811453505848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09929600612984876,0.0,0.14286766980119292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12067382240630994,0.0862636518129815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Neskimo42,2019/08/01,"2nd day sober after who knows how long of drinking everyday This is hard. I can’t sleep, insomnia has been the worst this time around. I’ve tried to quit so many times. I have so much anxiety right now, made an appointment last week and talked to my doctor about it all, asked to try gabapentin to help me sleep which worked the first night and I felt much better the next day but ended up drinking again a couple days after and everyday until 2 nights ago. I’m trying to quit for good. Alcohol has very recently cost me my relationship with my boyfriend who moved out and has me stuck paying all these bills that I just cannot afford, making me super anxious. I am scared of the future and don’t know what I’m going to do. I have naltrexone but I’m so scared to try that again cause it caused my insomnia to worsen and the last time I took it I drank while I was on it and it made insomnia so bad. I’m exhausted. I hate the way I feel. I’m jumpy, alone in a town where I have no family. I’m lucky my boss hired me back so I could at least keep some sort of income around. I’m so distraught and emotionally shot/exhausted/anxious but I’m determined to quit for good. Sorry for this post but have any of you guys gone through terrible insomnia? What could help? I don’t feel like going back to the doctor again but I may have to. I’m tired of having to see doctors about this. I need to work in an hour and have basically had no rest, tried CBD weed, only have 2 gabapentin left but it’s been making me confused, extremely forgetful, and hard to get words out. I’m such a mess. Help.",1.8011933504848583,3.822904478527608,2.989817929942607,92.35744805066295,79.3680981595092,6.783138729467644,20.0253314862458,7.831003766801068,0.5946464674450822,1244,31,276,21,31,400,172,326,0.207,0.7,0.094,-0.9906,2,1,3,0,0,0,31.0,0,1,0,8,20,16,1,4,12,0,25,15,2,8,2,48,56,25,0,3,7,0,5,1,0,1,10,0,0,1,18,15,4,1,5,2,3,5,6,10,0,1,11,6,28,6,38,42,8,51,0,0,1,0,10,13,0,5,32,165,46,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07867906485131979,0.0948558553517523,0.0,0.09192704950062204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06035883131695392,0.0,0.06790001817242278,0.1002718536198622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15802778584002747,0.0829772265113388,0.0,0.0,0.13649963284853048,0.07410964945797381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07849969032700654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18235888144575246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1417328977932444,0.0982096044971348,0.0,0.1717256908659716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2725442918893112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17389910063650646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09984137860033104,0.07861369605592257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08367362511225951,0.0,0.08975794037749578,0.06340909818010182,0.08522209000445596,0.0,0.0,0.07549794433684102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04637265876174978,0.0,0.1008870147813648,0.1488928562544326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08788488074228143,0.0,0.0,0.15902038428418566,0.08763065413952162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1784788774486657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08740925455214438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07889264301659064,0.0,0.0,0.09755871310758447,0.14470006623784792,0.0,0.0,0.09643638218966638,0.0,0.0,0.04336292523685696,0.0,0.0,0.07854848939908476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1679708988935598,0.11849399097655455,0.08998719922008956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09433625078042857,0.13049543692500126,0.06581331144549052,0.0,0.0,0.09439568367010594,0.16658770030519354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06750484742617217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08500611866999136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28321680668356697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08763832196428176,0.09529342414943832,0.0,0.07579928364917089,0.0,0.0,0.17772550764075878,0.0,0.0707290418723318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17764522319393727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09935788659105474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0713407292394521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15526740508109935,0.10201485179078053,0.0,0.0,0.09861397186084407,0.3013060144247704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07323506733412903,0.0,0.07045237487085437,0.07119672390321746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292345066144762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,divorceddudes,2019/08/01,"Divorced Dudes - Join our chat group Scientific evident says that divorced males are the loneliest the most, depressed and highest risk takers of any social demographic. We are here to prove that is not true. We invite any male that has been divorced to show that there is solidarity among us and we are here to create Version 2 of oneself. [CLICK HERE TO JOIN](https://chat.whatsapp.com/EzvkrF1pqejLbsQ9YEA7dv) Positive feedback and constructive criticism welcome douchbags will be banned immediately",10.494069264069264,13.736523103896106,7.957857142857144,60.86630952380955,58.22077922077922,10.32813852813853,40.10606060606061,10.504223727775694,5.112681385281387,417,21,52,10,6,121,57,77,0.198,0.664,0.138,-0.6877,0,0,0,0,3,0,15.0,5,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,2,0,9,0,0,0,2,11,9,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,4,6,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,6,2,7,6,2,1,0,1,1,0,15,1,0,1,0,37,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5691677552861031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3604401717484848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3327957497201425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4265923474844019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5033854457256957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,hdautodetail48169,2019/08/01,"Looking for advice on helping a friend. I myself am a recovering alcoholic celebrating 9 years of sobriety. I have a lifelong friend, an Army vet who served in Afghanistan, who is currently suffering with PTSD, Alcoholism and I believe some other drug addictions that he isn't honest about (Possibly crack). He is 31, essentially homeless, 100% disabled due to mental illness and has Cirrhosis of the liver. I have been able to do nothing but basically watch him ruin his life from the sidelines. I have tried to be active in his life, be a part of his support network, take him essentials like body wash, deodorant etc.. I have offered to take him to meetings but he will just not give up alcohol. He has little/no basic life skills so anytime he gets sober, he gets back out and goes immediately back to drinking because honestly, it's all he knows. I am lost, I have no idea how to help him as he isn't necessarily trying to help himself. I feel like I should be able to help him since I have experience sobering up but this is way beyond anything I can do. I can no longer sit on the sidelines and just watch him die and continue to put unneeded stress on himself and his family... Please Reddit, help me out here!",5.936753623188405,6.862706704347827,6.653478260869568,74.6707971014493,66.73913043478261,9.959420289855073,34.02898550724637,10.047579312681364,3.4906028985507254,962,43,174,22,15,317,141,230,0.11900000000000001,0.713,0.16699999999999998,0.9089,1,0,5,0,0,0,31.0,0,0,0,2,9,11,0,1,8,0,25,13,2,1,1,23,35,12,1,2,6,0,1,2,2,2,10,0,0,0,6,9,4,0,3,1,0,1,5,4,0,0,2,4,27,7,28,28,4,19,0,3,3,0,32,10,0,1,8,117,33,0,0.23815966423594545,0.0,0.0,0.1298145938519697,0.0,0.1163634337674972,0.0,0.3817803781340207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09799255557383436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18313008107869808,0.0,0.07258996040007418,0.0,0.0,0.13416219297717888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1322708488565344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12358606545755345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11665290131005268,0.13809479991225926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1328054901435832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11648292543968372,0.1122578678871636,0.0,0.06021034106746578,0.08507065585835523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1840015658081008,0.0,0.12442859488563762,0.11423222563943244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3990835068677261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13442663601420932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06544316152538916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523288211018183,0.11635278203637495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09999706795701638,0.0,0.1299897034785514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12000446289949547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.114260310518027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12895185393883687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13071389666307964,0.0,0.13424461863946074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13919795135986066,0.1197081213488876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09850406766501847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13640554536238195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13513038232762115,0.0,0.0,0.1790664281695141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616947788052651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09452002802530096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07668350769831928 alcoholism,Mijeelan,2019/08/01,"Sober over 2 years.. is that enough... From age 16 to maybe 33, I'm 35, I drank pretty much every day. In my younger years I was sloppy drunk and in my later years I drank after work and during the weekends. I hardly ever got drunk though, but I was always drinking. 2 years ago I decided to quit and I did... A few questions have been popping up in my head lately... Has 2 years been long enough? Am I quitting till I die? Can I handle social drinking while at a show or say the coast? Could I have only a few and then stop?",0.6793160967472858,2.6289278073394517,2.347939949958299,95.8781901584654,82.8532110091743,4.3306088407005845,17.248540450375312,4.851557810540192,-0.7587504587155962,397,8,89,1,11,130,73,109,0.124,0.855,0.021,-0.8862,0,0,2,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,5,0,12,7,1,0,1,11,16,10,1,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,6,1,2,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,2,14,0,11,7,5,24,0,0,0,0,3,6,0,2,18,58,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384836497572555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12999135196986622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12473260208526303,0.0,0.0,0.10075191951482644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16213643254591156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.306081194421361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.322843471725802,0.0,0.0,0.141314061981509,0.13162593291107078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12494705505577795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13994652353259346,0.0,0.16033147324579694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17622811262860685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1382538228620276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1569485723449255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11484302982115807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11881582051780305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589365451283549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17500726512621678,0.3323281073243676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12423604352803155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1592512689701265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13061073060909192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15348984073734673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1137333430714424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5030174853160408 alcoholism,salllleh,2019/08/01,"My couples therapist and my partner don’t believe have a problem. They think I’m hiding behind this! To avoid being responsible for my actions. Detail I got really drunk, blacked out and got angry and changed into a horrible person that was saying really mean things (some of which have no foundation inside me) I have no memory of any of it. My partner is angry understandably after I accepted when I had done said sorry 100x and said I’m going to change to fix this damage. (He has said he’s not leaving me so I have to believe that) but when I said I have an alcohol problem and I’m going to a support centre he was like ok. I found out in therapy that he doesn’t think I have an issue. Because he drinks more then me i don’t have an issue. I hide my drinking in the week like 3cans in the day to take the edge off 2-3 times a week. I then drink a lot on the weekend in social setting. I also drink to numb myself and escape. My mother struggled with alcoholism and it eventually killed her after she lost everyone including me. This blackout explosion was my wake up call to change who I am or end up like her which is terrifying. But I keep getting told they can’t see it they don’t see an issue. I’m just hiding behind it. It isn’t there. He’s angry because I lied about my drinking habits (which I responded with ino it’s a terrible thing for me to do but this is why it’s a problem for me. I can’t control myself and it’s going to get out of hand) he just went well I can’t see it. So o don’t know what to do. I feel like just running away from everything I scared and really alone. I’m scared of turning out like my mother or putting him though what I did as a child (I live with him in his home city I have no one here)",1.2693542074364004,3.189999575342465,3.5100195694716234,88.47191780821915,80.64383561643838,6.472798434442272,22.20939334637965,7.554174236665415,0.9118352250489234,1355,43,290,21,35,465,172,365,0.204,0.7170000000000001,0.079,-0.9927,0,2,7,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,3,2,13,21,1,4,16,1,31,11,2,1,0,42,64,23,1,3,9,2,2,5,2,0,3,5,1,4,24,17,8,3,8,7,0,7,13,12,1,1,16,11,50,9,44,47,3,35,0,2,4,0,32,15,0,4,17,201,74,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17556769693775814,0.0,0.08507340062064682,0.0,0.06568820295911637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05585876045751386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0771742614552911,0.0,0.0,0.10014489663298196,0.0,0.0,0.1850897682503768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08387524059763142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26068315685859145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09212822118910667,0.0,0.09088755783599356,0.0,0.05297421007657928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08405885763879696,0.0,0.402335001949551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07275262825432043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07848933511435062,0.07382311853374271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04153300504095458,0.058681613755407536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09006346951087671,0.0,0.0,0.08583066242447375,0.0,0.14004802948436998,0.0,0.13139147273518026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08239421436150797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25720188270563,0.0,0.07301077824026841,0.09087694996904044,0.0,0.04514259692507658,0.0,0.0,0.08697555799593952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2006499463867448,0.0,0.07253209063610022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08966670698306513,0.06983342047466973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08947573153149731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0556609309227114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07172243469351032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23579379983595955,0.0,0.08257448669582522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15786506391097846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3125399609385181,0.0653218946162956,0.16447512885668972,0.0,0.19636745051885976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08373250076038359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09195022941233852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08587170588396352,0.0,0.0,0.09321273972041677,0.0,0.0,0.06175987988090621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09393549931895002,0.09537214081573127,0.10914178551448313,0.10526539226831767,0.08070320751203514,0.0,0.047897132300554035,0.0,0.0,0.07848933511435062,0.0,0.0,0.08934592254218998,0.0,0.08551177540814645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13177726139149104,0.0,0.0738547079895613,0.07614561680092369,0.07411956083891952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,flyingcrazyguy,2019/08/01,"Never again Drunk now, and I feel terrible!",2.5874999999999986,5.490152750000004,3.7550000000000026,82.39000000000001,84.0,8.200000000000001,20.5,8.841846274778883,2.0501,34,1,6,1,1,11,8,8,0.325,0.479,0.195,-0.3304,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,5,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5482695327060859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8363016916796534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,A_known_unknown,2019/08/06,Really want to relapse probably wont but it sucks I used to be addicted to the point I was never sober I used to go school drunk and bring my flasks in my bag but after a while I was able to quit but now is the hard part I've gotten to a point where I can drink and not relapse but right now I really just want to get pissed and never go sober again I feel like shit the alcohol was the only thing that made each day bearable I haven't felt like this in a while but I just want to go back to being too out of it to give a 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alcoholism,splashsplash121,2019/08/06,"Should I be worried about alcohol withdrawal or is this anxiety? * Age: 26 * Sex: Male * Drinking history: Weekend drinker through college until now. Can definitely put down a lot of beers,10-15 in an evening but generally keep it to just weekends with the occasional midweek splurge Appreciate in advance for any insight into this. What I’m really trying to understand is if I’m going through alcohol withdrawal and need to seek a medical detox or if this is a case of really bad hangover drawn out from being run down and partying a little too hard over summer This all began 2 weeks ago (July 22) coming out of probably the biggest bender/binge of my lift. I spent 5 days (Wed-Sun) drinking heavily at night. Probably somewhere around 10-15 each night with Saturday into Sunday drinking the entire night, no sleep and then drinking all day Sunday. Each day I was quite hungover but battled through it until around 5 or 6 when I’d start sipping beer again and then end up getting very drunk and minimal sleep. This wasn’t just a decision to drink a lot, I was kind of obligated to drink with a mix of work parties and friends in town with pre-planned activities. If I didn’t *have* to I would have probably taken some days off to relax. Come Monday I was hit with one of the worst hangover I’ve ever had, which I expected. But this hangover was different, I wasn’t vomiting but felt very nauseous, and achy all over. 24 hours later (Monday night) I had some of the worst anxiety ever and could barely sleep. When I’d sleep for an hour I’d wake up in full panic delirious and sweating. The sweats and overall uneasiness and anxiety continued for the next 3-4 days and I honestly don’t feel great still. That Monday night my head/brain felt so much like mush like I was going to pass out or brain was about to seize my anxious mind looked up alcohol withdrawal and I brought myself to the ER to get checked out in case I was withdrawing. I was so scared of having a seizure or serious DT’s. The ER took my blood pressure, heart rate, and everything was fine. Loaded me up with fluids and sent me on my way. I scheduled an appointment with my GP and told him how I still haven’t been feeling great after a bender and was incredibly anxious all the time and he said you were probably withdrawing after a bender but it would get better over time. I put my body through a lot over those 5 days. Fastfoward to this past weekend I felt a bit better and drank Thursday, Friday, and Saturday moderately but was hit again with awful anxiety and general nausea the past three days. I’m very worried that I’ve kindled my brain and scared that if I ever drink heavily again I’ll have a seizure or serious withdrawals. I just turned 26 and have drank a lot since college, but nothing out of the norm of what my peers do (espeically living the city i'm in). Essentially a weekend warrior type that drinks heavily on weekends and then has no problem staying off booze during the workweek (maybe a few drinks here or there). I’ve done this the past 2 years and battled the classic Sunday scaries but never had withdrawals lasting days at a time. I will say I can drink a lot, anywhere from 10-15 beers on a night (weekends). Did I do myself in with this bender and somehow rewire or kindle my brain drinking heavily 5 days in a row? I want to be able to drink socially without having the fear of going through terrible withdrawals. I never wake up thinking I need a drink and quite honestly hangover keep me away from drinking unless I’m forced into a social drinking setting. Hoping this was just a serious tax on my body from 5 days of drinking in a row and probably more drinking than I should have over summer. Curious to know if I’m in withdrawal territory or just need to start moderating on weekends so it doesn’t tax my body terribly.",5.4456734693877555,6.561838172789121,6.020823129251702,78.07858163265307,67.95238095238095,9.199727891156462,33.339455782312925,9.439034500452443,3.1415610884353735,3047,137,554,61,50,989,315,735,0.127,0.775,0.098,-0.9735,1,0,24,0,0,0,71.0,0,1,0,6,29,29,2,5,44,1,49,46,16,1,9,125,94,62,0,17,29,0,6,2,1,5,6,2,0,1,22,51,26,2,10,28,4,13,11,16,2,2,35,9,47,13,101,48,20,137,0,0,1,1,11,46,0,23,77,366,69,6,0.04053730188461471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035933872239874966,0.1299661426017858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02756675536485108,0.0,0.12404369994502296,0.09159122529075488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0721735861687814,0.0,0.0,0.038086129526973635,0.0,0.033846953829422384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07170389857609205,0.044256234588860084,0.1350834117397695,0.0,0.1810121415755228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0698385923111666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032365737004589404,0.0,0.0,0.2614320614826413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042352852544527315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041483734078561284,0.0,0.6750890932935482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03590401736111253,0.0,0.0,0.02677450557838857,0.1100049310768964,0.0,0.0,0.03643231307357701,0.0,0.0,0.04561573466096554,0.04099375568499966,0.0,0.1167665007212097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03131901887892823,0.0,0.06353720135783045,0.0,0.0691148485305452,0.0,0.0,0.08938503687406996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03631346015107026,0.0,0.041602966745491535,0.0,0.0,0.0480368979127672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040262687461920764,0.07984215347741967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07206283298311668,0.0,0.04221336186474522,0.022278240973753458,0.03304331147757058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039608956165226465,0.04062902601970142,0.03579518024191352,0.0,0.0340411240027109,0.0,0.0,0.1723168221733293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04072516832679625,0.0,0.0,0.040837066908293314,0.0,0.0,0.04093111901768181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029799581166927137,0.09017368710346413,0.06252973251761193,0.0,0.04311188043995085,0.228249070479426,0.0,0.038896634455365516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.027469124870633625,0.0,0.0,0.047561789511977516,0.0,0.0,0.11609232462054672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2185303384144382,0.03878872322137372,0.0,0.08150236974389449,0.0,0.0862328207788127,0.0,0.0,0.05193846720844585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03856025704099425,0.03223688950680574,0.08116982195198041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03353287501987242,0.0,0.1622663097569324,0.08264534857712579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0573850218365561,0.04320737014935841,0.06474628329844173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.025974666223151567,0.0,0.0,0.07091288016379553,0.0,0.0,0.03873512913865723,0.04503843395457889,0.027522167041272368,0.04409294387119141,0.0,0.04220076088661884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10034255839350216,0.023909950936821748,0.03217662337991797,0.032516578399482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03907651243977742,0.0,0.0295116385689348,0.08233519558257192,0.0,0.05759307237363976,0.0,0.0,0.02610469334604287 alcoholism,TheGudu,2019/08/06,"I need help. I’m currently going through a long alcohol binge and need help. I trust Reddit and just need someone to help. I can’t find a doctor and just need some assistance. I’m hoping to get naltrexone but it’s been difficult to obtain. Please. I will pay whatever! I just need a doctor’s prescription. I know someone will help. Please. Juan Munoz 3523625056",1.1041304347826078,3.5955688695652204,2.21481884057971,89.42483695652174,99.43478260869566,6.357971014492755,21.692028985507246,7.492282038375204,1.5579942028985512,288,11,54,7,12,91,41,69,0.07,0.65,0.28,0.9098,1,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,3,0,4,3,0,0,0,16,15,4,0,6,4,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,2,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,6,2,4,12,1,3,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,2,26,7,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17460911604103396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3344634003692569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14933113493802647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0853620361635594,0.0,0.09285558812193777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43805468705110495,0.0,0.0,0.16227839327438354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0897922463228385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1445907819762162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6057403674562974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3586958250003192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27687154050454943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,dtownknight,2019/08/06,"Day 8 and I'm still going through it. I went on a bender that lasted about a month. I'm on day 8. The detox has been hell. I went to the hospital and stayed for 3 days. I was put on ativan at the beginning but now I'm solo. I had every test done known to man. My heart came back normal but the doctor said I had done mild to moderate liver damage. At this point it's still difficult to sleep. I still feel like my liver is in the shitter. If I smoke a cigarette I can feel it and I feel shitty all day. Anyone else have any experience? I've been through detox before but it's never lasted this long as far as I can remember and I've never felt my liver like this. Any advice? Experience?",-0.6772448979591843,1.4931754761904763,2.1268401360544225,92.90536224489796,93.55782312925173,5.1168707482993225,14.832993197278912,6.742157984588678,-0.2696174149659867,533,11,119,8,20,185,83,147,0.11199999999999999,0.8420000000000001,0.046,-0.8831,0,0,2,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,6,5,1,0,8,0,12,8,5,0,3,19,25,10,0,2,4,0,4,2,0,0,3,1,0,1,8,5,0,0,6,0,0,5,2,3,0,0,12,5,13,2,16,13,1,30,1,1,0,0,2,8,1,1,18,73,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13380742003945034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1862355951364364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09574536162938728,0.14030202441092512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1052915116346476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11651822308907432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15661262217363148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3532367513954477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14015471388246126,0.0,0.2802559750812467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11438830692831738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11537030054811928,0.0,0.0,0.26788964930124504,0.0,0.0,0.2077093328312387,0.09782355687624958,0.13147526471650522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07782106126559662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16226393264074962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2232341346254495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1337951715124494,0.0,0.0,0.12117965466801275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1092970436294358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21121930736882974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341633384992611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12944408559882098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13765350812411506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15511616655148394,0.0,0.13025276866279328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1370299223113653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14595026123941393,0.3280598979649653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2538728776972617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ham_mah,2019/08/06,"Non-alcoholic Beer Hi all! I’m new here and just starting my journey into sobriety. Tackled my cocaine use first, 435 days clean! :) Been cutting down on alcohol use since then too, but I really want to stop completely as it’s effecting my mental health and I’m worried I’ll slip up and fall into a binge. 10 days sober so far! My question is around non-alcoholic beer. In the UK non-alcoholic beer counts as anything below 0.5%, so it’s not completely free of alcohol but it is very low - and basically impossible to get drunk on. I find this a nice alternative for social occasions, I like the taste and it feels like a closer substitute than coke or orange juice etc, neither of which i partially enjoy. So, does this ‘count’ as sobriety, since it’s very low alcohol, or is it better to try and move away completely? Any thoughts/experience with this?",3.922566137566136,6.069058981481483,5.238906525573197,78.11222222222223,73.38271604938272,9.566843033509699,29.47266313932981,9.957137785484203,3.2674589065255724,673,29,124,20,14,224,105,162,0.115,0.738,0.147,0.7648,0,0,10,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,3,7,9,1,0,5,0,4,10,0,3,1,25,12,17,0,1,6,0,1,2,0,0,4,0,1,0,10,10,9,1,4,4,1,3,2,3,0,1,1,2,8,7,21,11,3,24,0,2,0,0,3,14,0,3,9,70,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7116468295589685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07547271029168177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0913301147577836,0.09879900785446673,0.0,0.0,0.10427282361949007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0981560486969331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34909284049072875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1431505882799284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09712256897510084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.123776143853481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10856333815799878,0.0,0.0,0.05611668485524495,0.07928676537279825,0.0,0.0,0.10143707570238857,0.09440266413759116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057984393730259286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11797046529027487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10844204310768034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11184544891064782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11795809113280285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10718873270833444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1243271248663043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0710989892850276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18361369904627334,0.0,0.0,0.1131338884022154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07855482211871886,0.0,0.0,0.0927873285809277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07535063565564612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19170853665030654,0.0,0.1831463233963579,0.06546105177267103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11270931745082392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,OTFJunkie92,2019/08/06,"Need Advice for My Boyfriend Hi everyone, I am posting this to figure out how to help my boyfriend through quitting his heavy drinking. Apologies in advance as I am posting from mobile. He just turned 30 and made the decision to quit drinking, he has been drinking since he was 14 years old. We have only been together for a couple years, but during that time I have observed him drinking at least a 6 pack during the week, and over 30 beers from Friday through Sunday morning, and then probably another 12 pack for the rest of Sunday. At times, he wouldn’t have enough money for the last few days of his paycheck, and I would observe him go through a very rough detox, night sweats, dry heaving, throwing up, and just being overall miserable. Because of this, every time he would ask me to buy him a beer, and because I hate seeing him in pain I would cave and buy him one. I don’t want to be an enabler but would rather help him go through quitting healthily. He says he is not drinking for the rest of August, but I am afraid of a few different things. First, I’m afraid that the detox he is currently dealing with (I can hear him throwing up in the bathroom as he’s getting ready for work) will push him to have a beer this evening once he gets off. I am also afraid that after the end of the month, he will pick up right where he left off. I am also afraid that he will be scared of disappointing me and will begin drinking behind my back. He tells me that he wants to change for us, but I know that he is going to need my support and I am just not sure of the best things to do for him. I will gladly take any advice as I know these next few days are going to be very rough for us.",7.480882352941176,5.634510235294119,6.9616176470588265,82.99977941176472,64.29411764705883,9.558823529411764,34.19117647058823,7.413659706084162,2.185352941176471,1320,44,279,9,16,411,165,340,0.07,0.865,0.065,-0.5917,3,0,9,0,0,0,32.0,3,0,0,8,11,13,1,6,17,0,35,13,1,3,1,39,57,20,0,10,10,0,2,0,0,10,3,2,0,0,12,12,9,0,4,9,3,8,4,9,0,2,4,5,36,4,51,39,8,48,0,2,1,0,39,15,0,0,23,187,48,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17150327004378912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14035277064420526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05967534079020651,0.09201712147911673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08203761010361782,0.0,0.0,0.06747697006590422,0.0,0.1069873514203503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09209180958920546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09283149200106497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0970974998913164,0.0,0.1131874038564213,0.0904699318722458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09168365575060076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5157897129800321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07772349133600896,0.09067274994016386,0.0,0.05796031211264222,0.0,0.07393604855434625,0.08385216182711662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07464302172456973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09169508933742657,0.0,0.19948918350556216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08663834331026575,0.0,0.0,0.0989044920039402,0.0,0.11763854714895138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09645397905697717,0.07153075678159773,0.0,0.0,0.09534435717489584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08303441613766788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07004394966676887,0.0,0.0,0.1301361110992382,0.0,0.0,0.09332676708993616,0.08235064836632187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09208246182991542,0.09345453773012573,0.059463994444333264,0.06674043693778756,0.09337583534016328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16808705504076266,0.0,0.09461303838832254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2800097199961629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07494094873482514,0.0,0.06978504876158671,0.08785649095723717,0.0,0.06992812129400244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0725905431379773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09958155109860567,0.0827065681427226,0.0,0.06597965742291252,0.0,0.07670036467673706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11659895765109655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15350919011619538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09545053152362566,0.0,0.0,0.21111314014906465,0.0,0.0,0.14481153811638858,0.10351849186076044,0.0,0.07039050739336218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06388554131851493,0.0,0.0,0.24935007225653935,0.0,0.0,0.11302066210049673 alcoholism,hawktoshrimp,2019/08/06,"I'm not sure what to do I'm kinda freaking out a bit at the moment. I've never seen this sub. I just thought it might exist and came for help. Please tell me if I'm in the wrong place. My dad has been an alcoholic my whole life. There are downs and ups. My mom does a good job of keeping him in check. She can be really cold to him when he gets drunk. The worst parts are when she's away. Then he gets the courage to drink. Last year my grandmother on my mom's side was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. Yesterday my mom left for a cruze with my gma. It may be the last vacation they have together. It's been 24 hours and my father is already shitfaced. My parents run an inn and if he's drunk he won't be able to operate my family's only source of income. I love my father and I'm worried if I tell my mother that this time it will be the straw that breaks the camel's back and they'll get a divorce. I'm equally worried I'll pull my mother away from her much needed time with her mother. There are no good options here. Maybe this is too much of an issue but anything you got is gonna help at this point.",1.1171581359816685,2.8589893025210102,2.7097631779984748,94.9032849503438,80.34453781512605,6.007944996180291,19.641711229946523,6.980632752743323,0.10211932773109256,866,21,203,10,22,284,140,238,0.081,0.852,0.067,-0.0218,3,0,2,0,1,0,19.0,0,1,2,0,8,8,0,0,14,0,22,8,0,0,2,26,38,13,0,4,6,10,0,0,0,6,4,0,0,0,11,11,4,1,1,4,1,3,4,3,0,0,7,2,26,5,23,21,7,31,0,0,1,1,29,14,0,7,13,123,37,1,0.12101553603609905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12932880484799836,0.0,0.0,0.1335436532577694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09958547496578952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2273961593875241,0.09305347736851603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13211762260237947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13840953431864694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12282822171961905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1059015110944966,0.0,0.0,0.11854915421963833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1140826772679361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18967686854042068,0.0,0.0,0.20300418016772293,0.0967871791476734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16222832581395585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.119175926272162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12630877879836375,0.12008924651229035,0.10756416875689444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1972876271957139,0.0,0.0,0.13148373398990126,0.0,0.0854768519568779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10922124603455598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12157637154183908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12837835980771833,0.0,0.42519579962062415,0.0,0.0,0.17792068642514222,0.08973148658847814,0.09333464176219212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09203776832435732,0.0,0.0,0.13437343154494436,0.1310480326491979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12643547831384114,0.13283871828420532,0.11439879723214552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07752565116462448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1140557105539818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21154582494242996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09607281804611396,0.1411302644876219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13510952427036424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24579430215713524,0.0,0.0,0.13231149131836342,0.0,0.07793003755704675 alcoholism,bakerman44,2019/08/06,"I think I’m a functioning alcoholic. I used to be chief of operations at a small but very successful brewery. I met and got married while working with this company. I think that set a precedent for our marriage. A sixer each night is normal. I got a new job as a facility director in charge of 35 people or so in the public sector. I’m wildly successful in my work but just enjoy the chill of drinking quality beer and relaxing. Wife never says a thing but I can’t help but wonder what life would be like minus booze. Sometimes I wonder if I’m only able to function because I can numb myself enough to slow down and rest. I’m a workaholic to an extent but my mind races constantly unless I slow myself down. Also as a side note, I’ll go a week without booze and never notice the absence. So am I a functioning alcoholic or just crazy?",3.1768605645851165,4.991768401197606,5.031005132591961,80.23887724550902,74.56886227544909,7.885201026518392,26.89863130881095,8.634040054169528,2.1589182207014552,661,25,123,13,14,226,107,167,0.038,0.8009999999999999,0.162,0.9735,1,0,4,0,0,0,13.0,1,0,0,4,5,6,0,0,15,0,7,8,0,1,2,28,20,19,0,3,12,1,0,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,4,6,6,0,4,3,0,1,4,1,0,0,3,1,15,5,19,14,4,20,0,0,0,0,7,8,0,5,11,83,19,7,0.16356571214290652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3496040055426214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308034409060182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0997081399602636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1767564270426862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16023212778308202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16900710451452802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0929581635841293,0.0,0.2616368840256981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10963464903215292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1623137306984159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1155312996993209,0.07990994492977478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651547419211475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523039214218256,0.15797278403008455,0.0,0.15349534060090464,0.16025966961106836,0.0,0.1862206473809397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1243990946379534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11339586995607535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13007401934301152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16177067167376444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10866579118328376,0.20961260769437454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14126825876087462,0.0,0.1349588425050353,0.0,0.0,0.13120254814937532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15767150964971252,0.3547600751456753,0.23815557299653106,0.0,0.0,0.1161923889767766,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,EducationalAssBrains,2019/08/06,"I need to vent and cry, but the problems seem so minor from the outside looking in. I'm just gonna let it all out here. I don't care if it doesn't get seen. I got out of a halfway house about 3 weeks ago. A week and a half ago, my girlfriend broke up with me (i'm still madly in love and was very blindsided by this), and two days ago I lost my job. I've been talking to my sponsor and a couple other about it but it's SO HARD. Everyone experiences breakups and they suck for everyone, but my emotions were already really sensitive due to moving out of the halfway. But i've seen people deal with break ups yet somehow power through. I don't get it. I feel broken and lost. It doesn't help that this is my first sober relationship and I lost my virginity to her. And she seems to have moved on SO fast. I wake up every day feeling sick to my stomach, and ho estly, even in the worst parts of my addiction, I never felt this bad. I see now why they say to not get into a relationship in early recovery. This girl became my new drug. I'd rather go through withdrawals all over again than have to feel the withdrawals from her. And THEN I lost my job! And it was because I made an honest mistake that it was comoany policy that I get fired for! As if I don't feel rejected enough already. Fuck. I feel broken. I feel lost. Last night I didn't get a second of sleep and it's almost midnight and I still feel like I won't be sleeping for a while. I'm trying to make the most of it though. I've been calling people in my network now more than ever and have built up my bond with my sponsor through this process. God I need prayers and encouragement right now. I don't know that I can make it through this. And yet my problems seem so small. But they FEEL significantly worse.",1.669862531969308,3.546985570652176,3.1246547314578024,91.93824808184144,79.16304347826087,6.0685421994884905,23.05179028132992,7.048011613610866,0.6340419437340148,1382,45,307,16,34,452,185,368,0.217,0.721,0.063,-0.9965,3,1,1,0,0,0,38.0,0,0,3,7,21,20,3,0,14,0,21,11,4,3,4,62,63,32,0,8,10,0,11,1,1,2,3,1,0,1,22,24,0,0,13,0,0,3,10,15,0,4,17,16,43,5,47,42,7,47,0,7,4,4,17,17,2,8,27,205,65,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08971107500917135,0.0,0.0,0.21884225971242932,0.0,0.08240414639899563,0.0,0.1816238490574532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06871087916684845,0.05016480188498485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08402993999895711,0.0,0.08390278475725317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09105519074750597,0.09039455105793974,0.10614383130253124,0.08484005162606588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09543328362165668,0.0,0.0,0.0925680926982282,0.0,0.0850302484682296,0.0,0.05435348264485646,0.07443836319879457,0.06933506024118484,0.1572682015150767,0.0,0.08049794827631873,0.0,0.0,0.3328768677574538,0.058789846059149435,0.07901379606394045,0.0,0.0,0.0699980389681358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07607817770658791,0.21497242100915487,0.0,0.04676877797187152,0.0,0.0658169055113482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07371800089145382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0551589915389016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09495460540818326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1633254044643456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04522585788109694,0.06707944808416562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08414975352113466,0.0,0.04020400498534786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06910505358448944,0.0,0.4491604407930489,0.0,0.07427227958694865,0.07786724280734343,0.1098618918796094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17492800939784015,0.0,0.12203783241116685,0.06346912216983855,0.07947870070835626,0.0,0.07722602542361473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08911486064864478,0.0,0.11410264704945933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15748579844035096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052718743353628215,0.0,0.0,0.17670289901560982,0.0,0.07027742619003137,0.0,0.06544237424673957,0.0,0.0,0.06557654347606498,0.22474826242066373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16470405075075056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13143794477465062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06614367038973262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08085205641903341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05587126993800013,0.0,0.08038790738911747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06790000896205735,0.0,0.0,0.13202031122717972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07425626687524925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08386318439904572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Thatonegamerguy,2019/08/06,Stupid question from a stupid person So I come here every so often to ask a dumb question like this because I get paranoid. So I've been drinking two days every weekend for the past few weeks and have been fine with very minor withdrawal symptoms for about 2-3 days afterwards during the week. Had my 2 days of moderate/heavy drinking these past two nights but I wanna say fuck it and drink tonight. Will I be okay yall think? Or will I go into full on alcohol withdrawal? I used to be an alcoholic but Im not sure if I every fully went through withdrawal due to being pumped with medicine and vitamins in the hospital after my first panic attack a couple years back,4.319541984732826,5.908872595419853,5.01212977099237,82.46063740458015,71.13740458015265,7.9880916030534355,28.367175572519088,8.548686976883017,2.1536406106870225,534,20,99,9,10,172,94,131,0.179,0.748,0.073,-0.9544,0,0,5,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,1,7,10,5,1,7,1,9,8,0,1,1,19,17,10,0,2,5,0,0,1,0,2,4,1,0,1,3,7,5,0,3,4,0,3,1,6,0,3,4,1,10,4,16,8,2,23,0,0,0,1,6,4,2,5,17,64,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2861272280262114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12514801391516756,0.1522935731589311,0.0,0.10293582148596407,0.0,0.08160436735900514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11531497219514425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1481218096453369,0.0,0.2590003312191884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3934174709367764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3383673520580939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1138676018189449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12375831914588555,0.06994022803601106,0.0,0.07607996832716891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14459983965659315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06540088406308657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12562555241010154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15706463299513132,0.0,0.0,0.25558329557085513,0.0,0.1168879115240681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29992440740733983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10645678539946347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12616850646585018,0.13913955854150614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08577686961258978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2615381334842565,0.0,0.0,0.1156185130791094,0.0,0.1104546827020952,0.0,0.0,0.21476081976629174,0.0,0.0,0.12409648609401305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08620626183155143 alcoholism,Brittnae518,2019/08/06,"I just had a couple sips of wine. Did I just ruin my sobriety? Well, to say the least I used to drink. A lot. It caused a lot of issues for me during my early 20’s. Then again who doesn’t party when they’re younger?!? I just started forgetting how to stop. Which was the problem. Along with my cocaine and occasional meth use. Well after I found out I was pregnant I stopped. Everything. Cold turkey. No hesitation. My son was worth it. But tonight I had a couple sips of wine. I was upset. My bf and I argued tonight. He said some hurtful things and I felt myself again wanting to drink. I left after putting my kid to sleep and went to the bar. I sat in the parking lot for like 30 minutes. Just sitting. Nerves on edge. But I left and went back home. I got home and went into my cobbled where I had some left over wine I had used for a sauce and took a couple sips. I feel guilty but still in control. Idk did I fuck up my 2 year sober streak?",-0.3781764928193496,1.8728460765306136,1.3288662131519295,98.46481103552534,93.33673469387756,3.92411186696901,17.973544973544985,5.5874745759252304,-0.5307926681783828,725,21,165,5,27,234,114,196,0.146,0.81,0.044000000000000004,-0.9408,0,0,7,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,0,1,13,9,2,1,10,0,11,8,1,6,0,37,27,13,0,2,7,1,2,1,1,0,0,2,2,1,5,11,6,3,3,6,1,5,2,6,2,0,19,5,29,3,23,8,6,32,0,2,0,1,8,11,1,5,16,109,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08903245739333003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11894434441908518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12986409308479718,0.0,0.3843457559058665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268528338876753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10406119008199792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05854499265386474,0.0,0.11117293049003173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12695361570145278,0.0,0.10704249616280216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09260481872761693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23228604189650395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12395154502588533,0.0,0.0,0.12085073319972164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3774062058318921,0.0,0.0,0.056567299311123184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2953119152817617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11079177685000813,0.0,0.11639713312910405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11013921156885888,0.09207785077618497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11586984107637548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0819540836335809,0.0,0.09246702617831508,0.19360493172947726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07692322075990382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12864275258279084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3000063590399268,0.0,0.0,0.06829371344781225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20821143726241748,0.32200496245129995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07456253054338728 alcoholism,sa252,2019/08/06,"2 years of marriage to an alcoholic, feels like a million years. I’ve been with my husband 4 years and married for 2. The whole 2 years that we dated, there were no alcohol problems. When we first met, he told me he had issues with alcohol and didn’t drink, I’ve never been interested much in alcohol so it wasn’t an issue for me. Almost immediately when we got married and bought our home, he began drinking. Sometimes alcohol, sometimes cough syrup. Last August he showed up at work drunk and after much trying his employer had to let him go. He was unemployed for 2 months and finally agreed to 60 days in rehab. He did great in rehab and I thought he was gonna be okay. January of this year he luckily gets another great job, things seem to be ok until June. He stops going to work, drinking again, cough syrup when not using alcohol and of course loses his job again. He ends up in a rehab and gets diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety. The doctors get him on medication and things seemed to be looking up. He did try to drink alcohol on the medication but it made him sick and I could tell he wasn’t having urges or downward spirals. A few weeks ago he unknowing to me stopped his medication and is back full on drinking alcohol and cough syrup daily. The further he gets in the worse it gets every time until something drastic happens. We’ve been through rehabs, hospital stays, jail, and dui’s all in the last 2 years. At what point do you just give up on a person and get away? I’ve told him that I want out of this cycle with or without him but he’s too far gone again to even understand what I’m saying. I feel trapped, I feel like there may be more I can do, but at the same time how much until enough is enough?",3.888466010733453,5.31142619186047,4.868837209302324,83.72088550983902,71.96511627906976,8.19928443649374,27.474955277280856,8.730908602173464,1.995818336314848,1366,49,273,25,26,446,180,344,0.09,0.857,0.053,-0.9159,6,1,14,0,0,0,34.0,4,1,0,4,14,10,0,0,13,2,26,27,0,3,2,52,56,28,0,3,8,1,3,2,0,2,21,1,1,1,11,23,14,2,7,7,1,3,7,3,0,2,22,5,23,7,45,26,11,63,0,2,1,0,37,24,0,7,37,168,34,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060027465218247436,0.5789551839371064,0.06780928014047745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07100768813444071,0.0518036911961989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06362280692201938,0.05207056653890355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054066902095511404,0.0,0.0,0.043672176137393035,0.0,0.0583249711909284,0.06873182252585623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06931171603159134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33168677826396725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059977592700068964,0.13994052946993113,0.0,0.044726760634469384,0.0,0.0570549023187101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1027199863315599,0.09675477060433446,0.0,0.07418119556062204,0.0,0.05760045872803592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21227754799771745,0.0649607827508029,0.07697081532686273,0.0,0.05415985941033594,0.14931753405735018,0.0,0.0,0.05988234894859872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06792615948583587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1413589229948137,0.13439831112084166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1103975779272981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06924571711037464,0.0,0.06616668592428579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056865632888716676,0.0757585450167072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06407592229308115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20465472775288213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054051451009268524,0.0,0.149340430951197,0.0,0.052227899608911256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059128296512768214,0.0,0.0,0.06401491219566623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06479648835194222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05385166259557561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12329491134889525,0.0,0.07650148380525028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052132228855402536,0.1339486497432241,0.0,0.0,0.07217782963936925,0.0,0.1132297004377065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05918806725550156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08997697698649416,0.0,0.0,0.05376011951534798,0.07897322094211348,0.0,0.0,0.12941391907743705,0.0,0.09195145537182006,0.0,0.0,0.07049629078087644,0.0,0.0584861653747599,0.0,0.0,0.03994152755509058,0.0,0.054318882358727776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07560415443367326,0.0,0.06527723969381248,0.0,0.09859827217643538,0.0,0.06900990317711392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2616470434472814 alcoholism,dfgjkhfdds,2019/08/06,"Can you be an alcoholic and go to AA meetings when you only drink a few times in a year - is mental alcoholism a thing Whenever I feel even slightly upset, I want to drink. When I'm bored, I want to drink. I feel like drinking would solve all my problems. I always forbid myself to go out if I'm sad because I know I'd buy a drink. I forbid myself from keeping any alcohol at home because I know I'd jump to it the moment I feel sad. I have an history of addiction to self-harm and I see the similarities. I feel like I'm recovering from an alcohol addiction even tho I've never physically had one, it feels like it is mentally here. Can you even go to AA meetings if you aren't an actual alcoholic? I'm so scared I'll stop controlling myself someday and yield once, because I know I won't be able to stop then.",2.7571085972850686,3.968786864705884,5.1276470588235314,81.59133484162895,74.47058823529412,8.760180995475114,27.19457013574661,9.265573868473778,2.2723438914027145,637,24,134,15,13,225,90,170,0.163,0.767,0.07,-0.9454,0,0,10,0,0,0,15.0,0,4,0,1,8,11,0,2,10,0,11,12,0,1,2,27,30,10,0,6,2,0,5,3,0,2,7,0,1,0,4,4,10,7,8,5,1,4,3,8,2,1,1,6,22,3,14,25,2,16,0,2,1,0,6,3,0,2,12,79,26,0,0.09719909190759926,0.0,0.09485229256424456,0.2119227146082088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5193813455889964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08087743092403024,0.0,0.0,0.06609871559605236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17775499277255585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10901704658091507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4760905299434239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19259725049550286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2457339068720941,0.2083171520402574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16572145165512206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0974986143128584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08639501891597721,0.0,0.0,0.16025423680967962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14245969977083398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1959076463449204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07496593181308525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10351386064640432,0.06586462020885964,0.07392428935455805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09300640393147784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09731324751818764,0.0,0.07745509184150441,0.0,0.10139985119389196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16252558624396354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0645747576680853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0566775721457125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11466108549747228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06904744611297202,0.0,0.0,0.06259302839108608 alcoholism,Bahss23,2019/08/06,"Its hard, but it is getting easier Coming up on a year sober from everything. Mainly drinking, but recreational pill and marijuana use as well. Obviously it was really hard at first. Every day was boring, especially weekends. Sitting at home and doing nothing made me think about how having drinks and making ""doing nothing"" fun. (Sidenote, I picked up watching Nascar as a hobby so I'd have something to do) After a couple weeks the cravings and impulses lessened in frquency, but never lessened in intensity. This still holds true tonight. I haven't had an urge in about a month, but this one is hitting me hard. I miss how drunkeness feels. I miss going straight to sleep. I miss the personality I had when I hadn't drank too much. But I really miss the head rush, the intoxication, and the warmth. I totally ruinee drinking for myself and it sucks. Its tough, but I know how badly I impacted my friends, spouse, and family when I did have too much. How embarrassing it was to hear what I said and did. How disappointed I was in myself the next day hearing who I was the night before. I can't let them down or myself. I am a better me sober. But damn I want a drink.",2.872573443008225,5.4478256306306365,4.332906384645519,81.18939482961224,78.72972972972974,7.104112808460636,24.517038777908343,8.18289091462,1.7611407755581672,918,33,168,18,23,304,131,222,0.16399999999999998,0.726,0.11,-0.8361,0,0,5,0,0,0,34.0,0,0,1,2,14,16,2,1,14,0,22,10,2,9,4,35,42,26,0,1,8,1,4,0,1,0,2,3,1,1,10,9,6,1,3,6,0,3,4,11,1,2,13,8,26,5,20,27,4,30,0,5,1,0,8,11,2,1,15,127,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10666399695586352,0.0,0.0,0.10870388718473108,0.0,0.0,0.11298246303032748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11004333558674036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1413504048627212,0.0,0.16477340177011407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5005764641064289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10763295047560023,0.0,0.114811399287491,0.0,0.12042916623592036,0.0,0.06459307761682903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10866213190612134,0.0,0.0,0.09869755934901048,0.0,0.06674290283620253,0.0,0.07260196422618366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3433105521871476,0.0,0.1311059996908363,0.0,0.28796189403737665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281413631925395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07020679732014116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306306826844617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12087796649487866,0.08527258450992065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10196699868342636,0.0,0.18781852280674607,0.0,0.09852690485120888,0.0,0.13586113264973088,0.11988256649570232,0.0,0.2451547350493873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08656515048141633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1115443678216303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16367690091502773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12151732059452268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12783996203306205,0.0,0.0,0.09834642385736113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10201948156772016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0818555706052172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1103330000658849,0.0,0.0,0.07534890574770296,0.0,0.1024715026615627,0.0,0.11486052793035108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08226533311176812 alcoholism,lightshow001,2019/08/06,do i have a problem? I drink every night or every 2nd night. i do it because i numb my pain and i love getting drunk. my friends started telling me i have a problem.. But its not like i get any withdrawels i think :(?,-0.5146666666666668,1.6830156444444455,1.2327777777777804,99.5825,92.55555555555556,3.0,25.277777777777786,3.1291,-0.0038888888888886095,164,8,37,0,6,53,31,45,0.268,0.585,0.147,-0.6085,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,2,0,4,5,0,0,0,7,9,3,0,2,3,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,1,2,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,11,3,0,9,0,3,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,4,23,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16317596941076218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1462728536740136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23506215831958285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.404340762448954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1853867529538576,0.0,0.2507306182874208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11722870055012236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2165665541541578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.45035844624735377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2553264422022603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4592043880451501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1698396572956344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2097291141459142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15375191185858425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Sleepwalker93,2018/12/30,"Over 2 months sober... still not any less depressed. Still not in any less pain. Somehow I thought I would feel better. I still have widespread joint pain, migraines and gastric system upset. I feel like it's gotten worse since I stopped drinking entirely.... I am so disappointed. And now I can't even blame my health problems on my addiction and I have to accept that I will always have chronic pain. There is something wrong that is out of my control. I hate this. Nothing brings me joy anymore. How do you cope? How do you find things that make you happy? I don't know what I'm even saying anymore. Depression is stupid.",1.8159745762711883,4.603691847457629,2.08625,93.24090042372885,88.15254237288136,4.3059322033898315,23.47669491525424,5.985473137389443,0.5252186440677971,490,19,93,4,16,148,81,118,0.29100000000000004,0.593,0.11599999999999999,-0.9762,0,0,2,0,0,0,21.0,0,3,0,2,11,16,2,1,0,0,13,8,0,4,0,20,22,6,0,2,2,0,2,1,0,2,7,1,0,0,7,4,1,2,6,1,0,1,4,11,0,0,2,3,18,5,6,18,2,12,0,3,0,0,4,4,0,1,7,62,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15936861546586184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12164174295924494,0.0,0.0,0.19882834755282244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28996228054613515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12929312389405842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1639644509829701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2518263660399476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14321048828345453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1931141561724228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1478360546055623,0.10443812393218968,0.0,0.0,0.133614958735087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15562191188425392,0.0,0.14433230214515425,0.0,0.15539307243010286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08034216904690318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07142102142954446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0975829216154395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11668741714670088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14027319232475588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4666692170385389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13988403132171068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11625610968807848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12092983088966752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11254415971542588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3502424300947183,0.12222133764831787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971221017306436,0.0,0.0,0.11605848454777312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14898004047847865,0.10384914055882727,0.1598357525361069,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Patric74747,2018/12/30,"Please help me to tell if my mother is drinking again or not. my mother had problems with alcoholism for a long time. She would go to rehab then bounce back after some time. My parents divorced 2 years a go after 20+ years of marriage. She hasn't been drinking for one year now but I am confused about this day. It's 22:41 now. I think I heard her sneak into kitchen and open hidden alcohol drink. After that she went back to sleep. She is very sad at this time, during the last days because of certain events. I don't want to confront her. I am back home from college for few weeks of holidays. I really don't want more drama. Thought this is very important. What should I do? how can I get 100 % proof that she drank? I want to find it in secret and then talk about it with father. Are there place I need to search for, maybe try to smell her room in the morning? 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I have an alcoholic in the family that is not able to walk well anymore. Meaning, she is not that able to go to the store anymore. She gets help from third parties to get her wine, but it gets harder and harder for her to get her wine. Meanwhile, putting her on a regime of 3 glasses of wine a day went really well. I am willing to help if we could control the intake and bring it back to moderate drinking, however in principle, she lives alone and people have jobs and live in other cities, even other countries. I would like to buy a machine that can contain wine for a week or so (as long as possible) and only allows the user to take 3 servings of wine for the day. I imagine that the machine unlocks 1 serving at 17:00, 1 at 18:00 and 1 at 19:00. If it is time, the user can press the button and 1 glass of wine is filled up like a coffee machine does. Only at 18:00 the button works again and the user can go for glass of wine nr 2. Is there something like this? Or is there something like this with a bit of creativity? Cheers ",4.254887955182074,4.495066365546221,5.174470588235298,86.22445098039215,70.21848739495799,7.6912044817927185,28.0515406162465,7.3011,1.3844612885154053,897,29,191,8,15,294,118,238,0.01,0.838,0.152,0.9878,2,1,13,0,0,0,30.0,1,0,0,2,9,7,0,0,21,0,18,11,0,2,0,27,28,17,0,4,8,0,1,4,0,2,1,1,0,0,12,10,11,3,2,10,2,7,2,0,2,1,1,2,12,7,34,23,2,29,0,0,0,0,11,10,0,5,15,124,24,2,0.25258345886309663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13496745099486007,0.0,0.1308001440983061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.250494919992148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971105444096346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1378778592681014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416469133612041,0.10083366949953844,0.0,0.0,0.3257908705170001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1105187434904941,0.0,0.0,0.12371781507937428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0834144962038701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11905660283197855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26392886451631004,0.0,0.14354900045999153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16930136824512804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12437191395845508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12532505432727714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291418498702132,0.0,0.24679903903438494,0.0,0.22303582171959904,0.111764206377961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10736871212771967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13756871704010432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28815165346792976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08755478357612967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14237494925303393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1269580700884351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08090571575840255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1004322522228202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1944510867441161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0949556633328711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14728344608544147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10130360755030156,0.0,0.2271028635718709,0.11707369844573975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09194188315340523,0.0,0.0,0.08971402110143699,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,faeli112,2018/12/30,"Stuck. So, I've struggled with abusing substances since I was 14/15, and I'm 22 now. I've gotten sober a few times over the last 2-3 years, but I've never been able to maintain it. But over the last year or two, I've noticed that my drinking has gotten more and more out of control. Blacking out daily has become quite common. On top of that, I've somehow turned into such an angry drunk. I'm not normally an angry person, but when I start drinking I get consumed by this blinding rage. I've tried to work AA and NA, I've tried to just figure things out on my own. I desperately want to get sober, but I feel like I don't have the self control to do it. Each attempt at sobriety just ends up with me wasted and with my drinking continuing to increase. I'm exhausted from the constant anxiety from my actions from the day before and always scheduling my time and life around when I can get another drink. ​ Basically, I'm just looking for some helpful tips to get sober and stay that way.",5.460733333333337,5.590572139999999,6.0139999999999985,81.63033333333334,67.6,8.466666666666667,31.66666666666667,8.07648339933343,2.177316666666667,788,30,156,9,12,256,120,200,0.166,0.768,0.066,-0.9694,0,0,4,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,6,10,4,1,1,8,0,8,8,0,2,1,34,24,15,0,2,9,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,0,2,7,16,5,2,2,5,0,2,3,3,1,1,5,4,13,1,28,19,7,33,0,0,3,0,3,12,0,3,18,94,20,1,0.1267158585728683,0.15013757167831604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10543774532841177,0.1372965798223763,0.15397363790791854,0.0,0.1328726262728945,0.09693728497168724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1128039794519609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1399477102343399,0.10782586258152738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13693482648379054,0.28424522051525475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08172124583807297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4965332006808695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11223263943610602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06407134547998428,0.09052583468348284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26481522440052985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08493496894573223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20658067455447607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08950315834316316,0.061906967833454764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10640940699672287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09773108191628606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12415463707716586,0.0,0.14426684485226626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1106434000473155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13477791335558426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321922761933802,0.0,0.0,0.10482066765702823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08969013690082096,0.1350622451572102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13247092834293436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08418438587703105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14777807231156126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17206350024713166,0.13783046675249672,0.12378298129130465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07474029648096597,0.10058115039742206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09225065421963988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15397363790791854,0.163201716756621 alcoholism,seaofbeercans,2018/12/30,"Partner drinks at least 6-8 beers daily...am I making a problem where there isn’t one? I have been with my partner for about a year and a half now. We went to grad school together 6 years ago, reconnected, and started dating. We were doing the long distance thing up until about a month and a half ago when we moved in together. Before moving in together, we were together on weekends and sometimes through the week when once of us had the time to take from work. I knew that, when he drinks, he never drinks one or two. I also understood that he is a frequent drinker but he has repeatedly said he drinks less than he used to and that he wants to continue to cut back. Since moving in together, I’ve come to understand that he drinks daily. I’ve never seen him drink less than 6 beers in an evening and usually it’s well more than that. A night isn’t complete without a trip to the bar or to the gas station or grocery store for a beer run. On most days, he stops at the bar after work and has 2 or 3 craft beers before coming home or going back out to have 5 or 6 more. He easily spends $350-400 a month on beer alone. His younger brother is an alcoholic but has historically been violent, has had a challenging time managing depression, and can’t be around alcohol in general. My partner doesn’t manage the same sorts of issues so does not define himself as an alcoholic. I don’t know enough to know whether it matters how he classifies himself but I do know that this is a real problem whether or not he chooses to accept it as such. I’m genuinely worried about his health. I get frustrated at the daily routine and it manifests in me taking out my frustration with it in other ways. I pick fights where there is no problem, I’m short with him for no reason related to anything but this stuff, and I often feel defeated and useless. I dated someone else in the past who also struggled with alcohol abuse and I became the receiver of his own frustration of unwillingness to deal with it. Because of this, I’m afraid to talk to my partner about this at all. I’m afraid of driving a wedge but I don’t know how to be supportive without also enabling. I don’t know what I’m looking for in posting this. I don’t know if I’m making a problem where there is none but, no matter how I come at it, I can’t pretend like the amount of alcohol he consumes is safe. TL;DR - Partner drinks at least 6-8 beers daily but does not believe he has an issue with alcohol because he compares himself to his younger brother with “real” challenges. Not sure if real problem...also not sure how to be supportive without enabling.",4.491281310211948,5.507694423892096,5.49300096339114,81.3581526974952,70.07899807321772,8.541233140655107,31.372350674373802,8.841846274778883,2.562884778420038,2062,88,399,36,36,680,228,519,0.154,0.795,0.05,-0.9955,0,1,20,0,2,0,51.0,5,0,0,7,29,26,6,3,29,0,33,22,0,9,5,98,67,44,0,7,26,2,1,1,5,0,7,1,1,5,23,29,21,2,13,17,2,12,23,16,1,5,11,4,35,10,74,53,13,73,0,3,2,0,42,26,0,12,34,275,58,8,0.0,0.07492340144853407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1121084233203135,0.4054753474617444,0.0,0.06549262246239239,0.0,0.20227674667986986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0520372022707996,0.056292756989435866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09724796965602046,0.0,0.07709521259136579,0.0,0.10761703813938836,0.07124444435768612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16341464159462726,0.06630093042176924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04078148887287879,0.06519274043352452,0.054464406723191264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1106751432475624,0.0,0.0,0.4336251269068232,0.0,0.0,0.05282491640811457,0.0,0.0,0.06533889137432199,0.0,0.041766269796039736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031973629818856965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03303779517953615,0.0,0.03593803568333288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06721608727385503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06343008666511492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1320022919640855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20851455584121567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030893536851557525,0.0,0.0,0.055961184321168485,0.05310166288953887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.084420007573909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10094750675866,0.20162711053306584,0.0,0.0,0.09754180785742672,0.0,0.0,0.05934197508912972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06734345096201155,0.08569965014286089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06036517757729595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06056186581958554,0.0,0.0,0.30253785160751234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21592659036523304,0.0,0.06501634321949601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060151179795408065,0.0,0.0,0.06399742377349818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05230883166138992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053579001025146886,0.0,0.06254125454906306,0.0,0.04475821779902095,0.0,0.0,0.0528674796734708,0.0,0.06610718711877986,0.07238920384982038,0.0,0.14351716815497595,0.11919690260605205,0.0,0.09509003911573363,0.050826078631399776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042010673732470236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0737459365655153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061771626489708666,0.06583009944397875,0.07606418985304032,0.05461493136830204,0.06964466664751108,0.0,0.03729777413493784,0.050193178330656466,0.05072348328900796,0.0,0.05685606161435934,0.05861968719866344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18286950133996915,0.0,0.092071994008229,0.06421844060469044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08144282343826045 alcoholism,ButstheSlackGordsman,2018/12/30,"Today im 1 week sober and im celebrating with a drink Of water after hitting the gym. I know i have a long journey of sobriety ahead but i will take it 1 day at a time until i get to a month, a year, and ever longer.",0.3629999999999996,1.2357219000000017,3.916999999999998,89.24350000000004,80.0,6.6000000000000005,20.5,7.1686216300943375,0.3452000000000002,165,4,41,2,4,62,37,50,0.0,0.9390000000000001,0.061,0.3291,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,0,2,2,0,0,1,6,6,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,8,4,0,13,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,11,25,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18839772561924745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2861732121903705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2642455647846575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15262428232330927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6310945037322422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16054534040123333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25852317167554656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2331729567248956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21964312232802605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17034158274496106,0.0,0.2769022056854619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23432663081337934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18812018795594174 alcoholism,retrievingsunflower,2018/12/30,What non alcoholic drinks do you order? I’m 73 days sober. Usually I’m ordering lemonade or ginger ale. But I like variety. And want to be more informed in the event I have to be at a bar or a restaurant with a fine wine and cocktail menu. I also feel a little weird asking the waitress to serve it in a nondescript glass. What do you guys think?,1.6190342052313866,3.7249517887323975,3.489657947686116,88.10901408450707,80.40845070422536,6.874044265593561,24.227364185110666,7.957251820313856,1.4311674044265592,271,10,56,5,7,91,52,71,0.022000000000000002,0.8859999999999999,0.09300000000000001,0.5504,0,0,3,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,7,0,5,4,0,0,0,10,11,6,0,1,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,3,5,0,3,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,2,7,9,1,9,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,2,4,34,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3669501768455233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2745869327095836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3209976635556673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22144045966205386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3363646107834327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17361443831102186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3399829394910638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1677496136131771,0.34413951167277196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22001287812225825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3781653740869589,0.0,0.20252414703536728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,MoLoLu,2018/12/30,"Question about head / ear buzzing when sober I've (finally) given a half assed shot at sobering up. My last was 5 months ago. This one was much less of a pain on the withdrawl. Barely any sweats or shakes, only minor craving, made a plan and stuck to it. I feel better... except one thing. My goddamn head and good ear (had an infection decades ago in the other) won't stop rushing / buzzing like I'm standing by a busy highway or next to an electrical generator. It kinda pulses and throbs. Gets worse the calmer I am. Even worse when I'm not in a slightly dissociative state. White noise does no good. Effectively I have to wait to pass out to sleep. Should have had meds but the order got messed up. So until next year I gotta make do. Now I've tried to sober up several times. Came a bit more prepared this time. Tapered. Chose a quiet period. I never had this issue before. It started 3 months ago, just after a traumatic flashback broke me to bits. At the time I didn't notice. But during the tapering it started. I got through that. Found a good therapist. Went to the doc. Admitted my booze issue. But this buzzing is driving me insane. I'm honestly worried I've internally damaged my brain or ear in some way. Or is this really is all anxiety? It doesn't feel like it. Then again I'm so used to anxiety I wouldn't know what it feels like. I can just vaguely remember (over a decade ago, long before I started drinking) my head and ear did smth similar too. That was after a similar breakdown (same root cause) but it was nowhere near this persistent. So I guess what I'm asking is: is this common? Does it sound like my body is just under too much stress with no way to cope? Or should I start freaking out? Going dry with meds wasn't that hard. But with 20h+ awake per day on no hope of sleep I'm a bit worried to say the least. Especially when I go back to work. The last time I went 4 days sober my body cleared itself up. This time things don't feel like they're getting better except on the booze end of things. The last months have been be as close to breaking for life as I've ever been. Too much at once. Finding a job. My first real, stable one in a while. Fears of being inadequate. Dealing with 20yrs of repressed memories. Dealing with alcohol. Fears about future. A question of people I probably need out of my life. Utter inability to take pressure. Trauma flashback that kicked all this off - my first in 8 years. Even in getting help I lie about how bad it is. I downplay everything but the alcohol. That bit is easy to admit. And I feel getting out of my addiction is the only way to deal with the rest. I'm just so lost and confused. I lack the strength to be strong and don't have the guts to break down again. If I crumble, I don't think I can get back up. I feel positively insane for the first time in my life. Barely able to deny it or excuse myself as I used to. Like all those fears I had as a kid were true. I can pretend to be sane and composed all I want. Somewhere deep in my head shit is all broken and time won't heal it. I know that's just anxiety. But I can't make it stop. I can't calm down. Not really. I'm not even sure how one does that. To be calm means dropping one's guard. That only invites abuse. Learned that the hard way. Objectively, things are better than at any point in the past 5 years. Practically I feel like I'm living on time borrowed against the next burnout. I'm 28. I should not be burning out every half decade. This is just stupid. I'm better than this. And the worst part is my thoughts are clear enough to realize that while my body is screaming at me to put on the breaks - and I simply don't know how to. I know. I know. I'm answering my own question here. 99% chance this is just my body under way more pressure than I want to admit. I guess I still need to get this out though. I'm so sorry for wasting your time.",0.8125045901285262,3.2042032335025428,2.2646408899449213,93.75724106274978,86.46192893401016,5.23136407819419,20.31191273355654,6.713214463763918,0.2891974943298412,3020,94,649,37,94,974,335,788,0.177,0.701,0.122,-0.9947,2,0,3,0,1,0,109.0,0,1,0,15,36,43,2,9,40,0,58,32,19,11,11,123,126,45,0,11,27,0,9,7,0,7,10,8,0,1,45,25,5,5,28,2,1,10,20,21,0,10,25,18,60,22,99,88,24,122,0,3,1,1,15,40,2,16,67,401,105,4,0.049173948757679824,0.058263088294244265,0.0,0.053606862493319855,0.0,0.0,0.17435895434957555,0.10510399293840038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0668799428035523,0.0,0.11285380861382552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04597100409328971,0.0,0.0,0.07562346253589057,0.04105819321545085,0.0,0.0,0.08368681712064628,0.0,0.0,0.17396144639043407,0.214740864409274,0.2184846863862632,0.0,0.0548943896148334,0.0,0.05624189728936285,0.0,0.05051519096173247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06342625777884422,0.15208854584497128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12909736180571574,0.0,0.0,0.048171749064713665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04355352299804339,0.05080983409175746,0.0,0.09743678815167443,0.04448065191301781,0.041431172683364506,0.0,0.04419437438888275,0.0,0.0,0.16600309057176602,0.17404678202607085,0.14051951527162407,0.0,0.05386765726041205,0.044944098303324485,0.12548200707827728,0.0,0.053916696685010895,0.0,0.0,0.1541481518759958,0.0,0.05589337658616652,0.1237343255272358,0.07865779789445104,0.0,0.10834129695317482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08810039867801375,0.0,0.2018666324397582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03296026130991967,0.0,0.0,0.04884082654870524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10264965342008776,0.04879755647722951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13512358113680709,0.12024999419106408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1041990427619509,0.16816735243635975,0.0,0.043421497661535816,0.043517397236621465,0.0,0.0,0.05367917391374556,0.0,0.0,0.04652957929085645,0.06564798527544245,0.0,0.0,0.05356484603416923,0.1092423431931316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11775053025463054,0.0,0.10844553109186712,0.07292371984595465,0.037925980759704665,0.0,0.1568911571102344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05598486658335637,0.0,0.052368650562855036,0.1666077015500022,0.11219701167963472,0.05232454849934362,0.0,0.0,0.05325059453824271,0.04694209823748655,0.03409102449100545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04648527600089011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05301783376593442,0.0,0.0,0.049433400437250564,0.16525822978636906,0.0,0.0,0.05597071923368045,0.06300418149018171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05570449805403429,0.0,0.0,0.039105097749889836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05555256528814605,0.05047635175112679,0.0,0.0,0.09841892319076127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05504620970374123,0.13922229611044415,0.0,0.03927037899846223,0.0822232460501794,0.05632859216049201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04634586475433387,0.0,0.03697268969234397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05709474458943565,0.1306759461345033,0.0315086808068956,0.04831315498464561,0.03903862253021999,0.25806352470321403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03338588334369346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08494100660075495,0.0,0.0,0.05800813806072017,0.19515995832467664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09116948630216072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03579922035449401,0.09987706384739868,0.10022490966409604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0949992323061186 alcoholism,the-manhimself,2018/12/30,"How serious is my drinking problem? Should I be worried? Im only 20 years old and im 5'10 weighing about 150 pounds. I drink from 1-3 times a week, being a university student, its typically just a weekend binge (mainly Thursday, saturday/Tuesday, Friday). Ill drink on average around 10 drinks, sometimes like 15 if it gets crazy (mix of beer and liquor) when I go out, and I rarely go out two nights in a row because my hangovers kill me. I know that this lifestyle won't continue as I grow older when others around me arent getting so drunk, and dont feel as though I am addicted. Im worried that this may cause liver problems or cirrhosis if I continue like this for the next few years. Can somebody just tell me straight what the state of my consumption habits is?",5.931733333333334,6.178557240000004,6.25,79.93833333333335,66.6,9.333333333333334,34.66666666666667,9.150863307647796,2.9856666666666665,606,27,117,10,9,195,109,150,0.165,0.789,0.046,-0.9498,1,0,5,0,0,1,21.0,0,0,0,0,10,6,1,0,6,0,11,11,1,2,0,21,17,14,1,5,5,0,1,2,0,3,2,0,0,0,9,8,8,0,2,8,0,3,3,4,0,1,0,1,14,2,13,12,2,25,0,0,0,0,1,7,0,4,16,70,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14578481474183552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2380950848047392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08152021752738721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13737695909590514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15672989259427028,0.5240157089264156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06761761646053975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13973621236048991,0.0,0.1520030304315112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4333521880528366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479517974211337,0.0,0.07349419580650728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13066688629178894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14222276284619306,0.12549600825181267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403265380285728,0.0,0.0,0.10170725538694704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25592200235867724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1322618228527021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11688541364691088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313884831425798,0.0,0.07797870436451705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.130634218629174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10726967998347056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2716174491981496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17223473311947612 alcoholism,Senshi420,2018/12/30,"I'm right at the threshold of Alcoholism No, that's not correct, I think I just passed the threshold. I had a week in January 2017 where I drank every day. But the whole time, until a few weeks ago, I never craved it. I have severe Bipolar, anxiety, depression... the usual. I was in the middle of three months of intense anxiety, couldn't leave the house or even work. But I found that if I drank a beer, it helped. And so I used it as a bandaid. One beer always removed the panic attacks, but didn't always take away the deeper anxiety. So I played with it. No relief after 45 minutes? Another beer. 45 more minutes, a third beer. This was the crucial step. If I still had anxiety after 3 beers, I would make it a ""drinking night"" and binge a little. Get tipsy. Fast forward to September and my anxiety ramped up again, ongoing to two weeks ago. From September to mid-November I drank every day. And when the anxiety went away, I didn't stop. I craved it. My routine had become 4 cups of coffee, 1 liter of water, and then start drinking. Now it's at the point where I have no control. I craved it at 9am this morning and had to talk myself down. I went from zero to addicted in under 3 months. I'm so resilient and self-aware. I know that I need help but it feels like adding more manure to an already shitty situation (mental health)",1.3121303258145396,3.71854763157895,3.039428571428573,89.0639047619048,83.96240601503759,5.952681704260652,22.02456140350877,7.3011,0.933296140350877,1034,35,207,16,30,342,149,266,0.115,0.81,0.076,-0.7054,0,0,8,0,0,0,48.0,0,0,0,2,11,6,1,1,19,0,12,16,0,3,2,30,29,21,0,5,9,0,1,1,0,1,5,0,0,0,14,8,12,2,4,8,0,6,8,3,0,5,14,1,24,3,29,13,4,47,0,1,0,0,3,18,0,3,26,138,38,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1155808411620327,0.0,0.0,0.1879661825980553,0.11330646253380774,0.0,0.0,0.11699914000027545,0.0,0.17643944424750255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11117447676007106,0.4866443407147894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12061659535380795,0.1992244066915852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11709419686729465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11891393490421626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13675227172178306,0.0,0.09131755059988557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2077245717501106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07002726523493573,0.0,0.17865808839938851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05360847082544705,0.07574293205836895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11624886937392202,0.0,0.0,0.05539269982961774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11269760968759406,0.0,0.0,0.1421301135687858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12233643576520215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05826752935061071,0.0,0.0,0.1122631665769094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0517975368572276,0.10626301101952867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07077125022634836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10684635951592723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16925327220063205,0.0,0.0,0.07861479378232752,0.08177155972610743,0.0,0.0,0.09949550796431103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07184400426949739,0.0,0.0,0.12439527741986743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1002261100899471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09054315794249586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1106052281027266,0.11977593774514933,0.0,0.0,0.1191744195491065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07504370403584028,0.0,0.08467019382004863,0.08864006863614501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07971618512828367,0.0852173609602602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06793532884004927,0.0,0.0,0.061822928945904514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10356917419995146,0.0,0.0,0.09156992720184312,0.1167694785131704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551360345512105,0.0,0.0,0.19656897316882266,0.0,0.11837101771483315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07718608791986277,0.0,0.0,0.07531577647616926,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,lost_civilizations,2018/12/30,"White coat on tounge. Anyone else experience this from excessive drinking over the years? I have been binge drinking for many years and have had stomach related issues to drinking in the past. In the past year I have noticed a white coat on my tongue and wondering if it relates to internal organ damage. It is not oral thrush as this was checked by a doctor. Has anyone had a similar experience with color changes of their tongue due to excessive drinking?",6.426305220883535,8.200898879518075,6.1543975903614445,75.57729919678718,66.22891566265059,9.388755020080325,34.315261044176715,9.725611199111238,3.556246586345381,369,17,61,8,6,115,57,83,0.044000000000000004,0.956,0.0,-0.5514,0,0,4,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,6,0,9,6,1,0,0,6,10,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,3,4,0,1,4,1,0,1,1,0,0,4,3,4,0,14,6,0,11,0,1,3,0,1,5,0,2,6,41,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298445870768356,0.16840325378684126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17386800025594468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16822643828888584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6440294776072831,0.0,0.0,0.13729925254304826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32154552856639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17154609276252555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16663228473560746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1871216277156303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31379486517154065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1782382449084231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31752171730888645 alcoholism,moosekun,2019/04/14,Tactics I've been drunk or hungover everyday for the past couple years. Trying to fix myself. I've lost jobs and ruined a good relationship over it. What would you guys recommend for quitting tactics? It's been two days since my last drink and I feel grumpy.,3.4634693877551044,6.1394533061224505,3.644244897959183,86.39004081632655,77.16326530612245,6.3689795918367365,24.08571428571429,7.554174236665415,1.2651926530612252,208,7,38,3,5,64,41,49,0.149,0.747,0.10300000000000001,-0.34,1,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,2,0,3,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,0,0,5,5,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,2,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,1,3,1,4,1,4,1,0,6,0,2,0,0,3,1,0,1,5,20,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3000994374157673,0.0,0.17491426791567194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2656920498526497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13713682866766008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2274862149479765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26855014235272595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2691437006121218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2210802532723228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2960683393991003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25890989111371576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28847553416532423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2911884547656726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22435573708690512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18414037177290268,0.0,0.26494223541194145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19266669195274655,0.0,0.0,0.17465659337614886 alcoholism,Scottsummers76,2019/04/14,Opinion I dont think im some kind of fucking villain. I think my gf’s going one way and im going another. Shes got 15 sober months. Which is wonderful and im truly happy for her. But im not ready to stop yet i guess.,-2.2718487394957982,-0.4928822745098049,1.5965266106442575,96.59294117647059,97.23529411764707,4.4829131652661065,17.089635854341733,6.1826913282559595,-0.3193775910364147,168,5,42,2,7,62,39,51,0.113,0.6579999999999999,0.22899999999999998,0.7339,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,11,11,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,3,0,0,2,2,2,0,1,1,0,6,2,3,10,1,6,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,4,3,19,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18364492348841646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20525759263062715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1619100194139371,0.0,0.0,0.1990671695264886,0.0,0.14007192036337204,0.0,0.19293158370964408,0.0,0.0,0.1864350790108743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7567059089887306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18237675350395413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13979154716657352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11867639994067362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14642118494358666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22443961295030054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13901446962578434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18992706314690766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,LowCelery,2019/04/14,"I need to quit Drank heavily this past week. I had a bit less last night, maybe 7 units? Currently sitting in the shower at 3am unable to sleep because I feel sick as a dog. I have an amazing girlfriend and I will not lose her over this.",2.152799999999999,3.470065280000004,3.4450000000000003,92.6275,76.2,6.6000000000000005,24.5,7.1686216300943375,0.7986,184,6,42,2,4,60,43,50,0.07,0.802,0.128,0.4133,2,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,4,0,3,3,1,0,0,4,6,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,6,1,6,3,2,9,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,5,24,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19410966659054368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3476389577134905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16100586314545992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2595598669471155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3562374869780775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3199019347524333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2361090054245252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2988214342291173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3039738551682823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33868547804320565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.318656180987625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25542230441019714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,tulip_press105,2019/04/14,"Can you have alcoholism and not drink much? I don't drink everyday or even every week but when I do drink I can't help but get absolutely black out drunk. I can go weeks or even months without it but as soon as I have one drink I totally lose it and just do completely stupid stuff. Could just be one day I drink or could be 3 days (rare). Is this maybe not alcoholism but an alcohol problem? Like a completely different person when drinking, absolutely leave a trail of destruction behind and have lost jobs over it.",4.00230198019802,5.724351148514852,4.638700495049509,84.29191212871288,72.16831683168317,9.406435643564356,26.48638613861386,9.827888789773867,2.4215435643564365,410,14,84,11,8,131,64,101,0.259,0.7120000000000001,0.028999999999999998,-0.9795,2,0,9,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,2,7,6,2,0,3,0,14,10,0,0,1,20,17,14,0,3,12,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,5,4,10,0,0,7,0,1,5,5,0,2,1,1,8,1,7,12,2,12,0,2,1,0,3,2,0,3,10,60,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3743943590704701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2448750041789023,0.0,0.0,0.18647240149005007,0.0,0.0,0.15062182679248085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12200615303170935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6863766299328753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1542590039955803,0.0,0.09838888709913114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06101068402197205,0.0,0.06636653952029746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0782725474261473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1158822443101971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12364901159173375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05705089594898289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13064256758877868,0.1274748900335796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11731727193339345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09320955596748397,0.0,0.08584385800957704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15826099312154665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10196437209657508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.111738941226594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13368067749930038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18734146117331146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11256797760341236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,sellardoore,2019/04/14,"Keep going. Being sober makes you feel better about yourself than being drunk. I promise. It’s been about a month since my last sober day. I’m not messing up too bad, but I still wish I wouldve just. Stayed. Sober. If you’re wondering if it’s worth it? The one drink, or four, or the handle... it’s NOT. I genuinely wished I would’ve never picked up another glass. If i could go back, I’d stop myself, for sure. It IS an addiction. It’s dangerous. I don’t have control like i thought i did. Just... Leave it alone... please. For the sake of those who love you. Leave. It. Alone. Good luck to all.",-1.245715350223545,0.5999553524590162,0.4038748137108801,102.04406855439643,106.13114754098362,3.8575260804769,13.742175856929956,5.852544927426893,-0.9328000000000004,451,10,106,5,22,143,84,122,0.12,0.638,0.242,0.9601,0,2,1,0,0,0,34.0,0,2,0,2,7,10,1,0,5,0,8,4,0,3,3,25,19,6,0,6,10,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,10,0,2,3,3,2,1,2,4,3,0,2,3,1,13,7,9,13,1,12,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,7,8,62,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18131059931627166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3445094948994797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.174398376126915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12788787365108858,0.1388681462128908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1470942927638486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18653919272238306,0.1327909720116162,0.0,0.0,0.1072610135661607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16292780973937174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08409511365438592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1890441099385505,0.13949920883191275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14783061538783912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13557094185641444,0.0,0.3522123875992029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08125431824401373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15010801646417302,0.0,0.11101820737670932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13275302338350348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12827429141290128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11270102674821425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1825666455496796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13757953565529787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17727230124206406,0.1328213519766351,0.1390488579791909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15675225379001193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1320374988989128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3825137810742134,0.0,0.1803642091825314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11814716378228204,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,renichka80,2019/04/14,"Weird withdrawal symptom I'm sober close to 5 months now, but one of the withdrawal symptoms I had when I would come off a heavy binge was a shock type feeling. I've tried to describe it, and I wonder if anyone knows what I'm talking about. It's like a jolt through my body, it lasts just a moment, but I imagine it feels like being hit with defibrillator paddles. It's frightening and extremely uncomfortable. One night I drank heavily and in the middle of the night this jolt hit me from my spine to my brain, and felt for a moment like my brain was shocked. I didn't know what happened but my brain had a buzzing to it and I was absolutely terrified. I ended having a lot of neurological issues beyond tremor and that scared me enough to finally quit. I've mentioned these symptoms to my doctor and no real answer. I don't know if it was some type of seizure or what. Anyone experience this?",4.957424242424242,5.96855140909091,5.6175,80.91083333333336,69.0,8.593939393939394,29.43939393939393,8.841846274778883,2.2114712121212117,712,26,140,12,12,231,102,176,0.159,0.765,0.076,-0.9567,0,0,0,0,1,0,15.0,0,0,0,1,5,7,0,1,10,0,11,11,5,0,0,30,25,14,0,3,7,0,3,3,0,1,5,0,0,0,14,10,1,0,9,0,0,1,3,4,0,2,9,3,17,3,18,12,3,16,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,6,13,92,31,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19260096231356816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15298136181621882,0.0,0.4612397482815241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11863784185069405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409673132314932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12198341898169025,0.14230668046494094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1347214198453341,0.0,0.0,0.13927573689211836,0.09839072551750053,0.13223754171428093,0.15087094115105512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1217897106663352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14374905655772527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22707007760806897,0.11226420898728333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20185634855571935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11708881992425213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10993073409937516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2584910551600218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18665196902361567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1464874278724581,0.0,0.1567611349211707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13788669245912508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4294468435587332,0.0,0.11069809081467027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09350619457742942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14935682378705664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0978358467123192,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Hautpotato,2019/04/14,"Boyfriend withdrawal My love has decided to quit drinking. He is 25 and healthy. He drank pretty heavily the last 5 days, but has only been drinking on and off for 4ish years. It was this last year that he turned to drinking everyday, maybe sometimes just a beer or two. Anyway, it is two days since he drank and he stayed up all night last night and he just starting vomiting. He is fine now and he feels fine, but is that normal? Or is that from Drinking? Should I be worried about DTs? Omg I am a walking anxiety case.",1.6138235294117642,4.1800979313725515,2.301470588235297,93.70161764705885,84.39215686274511,5.752941176470588,24.18627450980393,7.1686216300943375,1.026003921568627,407,16,84,6,12,126,67,102,0.046,0.8370000000000001,0.11800000000000001,0.6898,0,0,5,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,1,5,3,0,0,3,0,12,9,0,0,1,16,18,9,0,2,6,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,5,7,0,2,5,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,1,3,3,8,12,1,17,0,0,0,1,9,3,0,2,12,48,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1154853438655256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19471571087400444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5915402668645856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07633080879915308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3691619830883015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1362488949243406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516613925668438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2833347968281692,0.14791048624421232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1148132316813954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15358239583699326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16056642883998398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1248771394012273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1493050545117732,0.0,0.10685152059254227,0.16090516491962836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1642030602848741,0.29493543507643033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15330900929757596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19442886588568384 alcoholism,tamsyndrome,2019/04/14,"It’s so quiet at work I can go in massively hungover and no-one really cares. Since I got married and had a kid (3 y/o daughter) I’ve been going to the pub less, and I don’t mind that, I love my family. But since it’s got quiet at work (like update your resumé quiet) I’ve been drinking more after work. Like 6 cans on a Monday, Tues, Weds, Thursday.. then it FINALLY gets to Friday and I feel like ‘going for a drink’, and then realise I’ve had a weeks’ worth of booze by Weds, and yet here I am, drinking gin at 1.30 am, just cos WHY THE FUCK NOT.",0.40472116119175183,1.9696000756302536,2.908082505729567,93.481436210848,81.85714285714286,5.671810542398777,18.38120702826585,6.574015621080383,-0.1277966386554623,415,9,98,4,11,144,79,119,0.037000000000000005,0.833,0.13,0.8564,0,0,3,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,0,3,4,6,1,0,6,0,9,6,0,1,0,12,19,10,0,0,3,1,1,3,0,0,0,3,0,1,4,6,4,0,1,4,1,3,2,1,0,0,6,4,8,5,11,13,2,17,0,0,0,2,6,5,1,0,12,54,12,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17889400743741102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5156544368018667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16540885250702664,0.0,0.08871826636719007,0.12534925018970305,0.0,0.1922087600150465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16221070764031434,0.09167104046454304,0.0,0.2991552952102225,0.0,0.2806641047283392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2571638922714343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15836024722257444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17716541746608616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1124046989963541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29028601925920466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14074409214720807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1583261055886092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3832127163380229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,MakeWMGreatAgain,2019/09/14,"I relapsed I planned it out all in my head. How I was gonna tell my mom, my sponsor. I was working the steps everyone had so much faith in me and I fucked it all up and nobody knows yet. I don’t know where the fuck to go from here.",-0.4892452830188674,0.9334861132075504,1.679849056603775,101.898641509434,84.09433962264151,4.994716981132076,20.033962264150947,5.6839178017228535,-0.47551018867924494,176,5,48,1,5,59,40,53,0.149,0.7929999999999999,0.057999999999999996,-0.7024,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,5,3,2,0,2,0,4,3,1,1,2,8,10,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,3,0,10,1,6,6,3,8,1,0,0,2,2,5,2,0,1,34,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3003402949652928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5811560662026926,0.0,0.0,0.17863176962561744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3225766269952171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3454772767847772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3681205108117479,0.0,0.0,0.2310568002879089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2747241054852225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288241818163265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,hitherebuddd,2019/09/14,"Guys am I an alcoholic? Okay so first of all.. I don't want people coming in here and downing me. Let's think logically here. Please make sure you understand the definition of alcoholic before commenting. ​ I am a 23 year old male. I am about 6'1 and weigh about 200lbs. ​ So here's some info on my drinking habits.. Throughout the week, I barely drink if ANY. Monday-Friday. I realize drinking can interfere with my work. I can't go to work on a hangover so I do not drink heavily. ​ But do I have a different opinion on heavy drinking? I can easily drink a 6 pack of Budweiser (5%abv) beers. And not be drunk, and be able to show up to work the next day. So it can be 6 or so buds (5%) or i can have about half a fifth (750ml) of 40% bourbon. Seems like i get more of a buzz from beer than liquor, so these amounts are equivalent to me. ​ Keep in mind this is on weekdays (monday-friday) now on the weekends is when I really put one in. ​ I'm married, and I have been so since June of 2019. My wife thinks I drink too much, and doesn't like me drinking in general I feel liike. But she says she doesnt like me drinking the way i do.. ​ So on the weekends, (this could be every weekend, or every other weekend. Sometimes I promise my wife I wont drink one weekend) ​ When i want to get really wasted I will drink about 12 beers (6%abv) in one night. (about 3hrs) Or a 750ml of 40% in the same time. But when i drink like this, i get very drunk. Like blackout drunk. Sometimes i will even end up pissing the bed from drinking so much. ​ So am I really drinking that much? I DONT crave drinking, but I DO enjoy the feeling it gives me when i do drink. I can go easily throughout the week without it, i dont get any withdrawals. But I definitely go hard at it on the weekends. Do I have a problem?",1.6865274446169032,3.916162493297588,3.043519825031748,90.72505679413011,80.90348525469169,5.963849301538027,24.293001269930862,7.1686216300943375,0.9995243967828428,1442,54,300,19,38,468,170,373,0.033,0.8640000000000001,0.102,0.9567,1,0,21,0,0,0,98.0,0,1,0,4,25,11,1,0,20,1,38,27,1,1,2,44,58,30,0,5,13,2,3,5,1,3,2,1,1,2,10,8,26,2,9,30,0,5,10,2,0,5,1,4,44,9,39,48,8,45,0,0,0,0,11,17,1,8,27,201,54,3,0.04109320554808741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08783227897816276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3561957683423422,0.3994619409313076,0.0558895778375228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03496729126382018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035398157938590726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03280958084557957,0.0,0.0,0.02650171802244137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04293365355479282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09632186171226638,0.6440911534461252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03639638300600034,0.0,0.0,0.02714167470525997,0.0,0.06924559601937215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041555918875575616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03495385964672937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08587801535745487,0.039420347215187314,0.07006264711881466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04068873415717941,0.0,0.0,0.036811440642934505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03652552920988333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04202058682277605,0.0,0.10038032266403668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02743003379731892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0414924232474683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09062470296802466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04370309029264363,0.0385631896767932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043120406601501786,0.0,0.08353745873970783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028488854609931637,0.0,0.0,0.04510799963377405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03932064795088745,0.0,0.04131002159535943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07897607917731111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0326789664123385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03740971097811408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03399272427484699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0812844620752071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038729859910960736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0526617336885975,0.0,0.0,0.023961778617894943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04277947620528957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033906198205807064,0.048475674641010436,0.032617873832796934,0.06592498157345544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039612383733896604,0.0,0.0897490291701708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3994619409313076,0.02646267707930175 alcoholism,HesserGaming,2019/09/14,"My father might die Hey guys! I don't know if this is the right place, but I'm really helpless with the things as they are right now. My father is an alcoholic, I've tried everything to save him. His wife probably cheated on him (and they got divorced recently), because she was fed up with him being drunk almost every single weekend for a few years (she never admitted it, but it was kinda obvious to me and my sister). I came back from abroad trying to organize an intervention, but it turned out into me trying to convince my sister and mother to help him - my mother hasn't taken part, she just sat there and watched us do it, sister reluctantly has. During the intervention, we didn't attack him at any point, we just pointed out all the things that changed and assured him that we love him. We came up with an ultimatum that if he doesn't start a therapy, my mother and sister will move out to live with our granddad. After some time they actually did. My father felt attacked, left alone and at this point I have no idea what to do. I remember that he's always been drinking, his father was an alcoholic and well, they even drunk together from time to time and after he died (Parkinson's disease, he was unable to move life for a few years until he passed) my dad was broken. He started to drink even more, but he underwent a therapy and everything seemed sorted for a couple of years. Then he started again and you know the rest of the story. I know that my story is chaotic af, but I hope you'll manage to understand it. Please share your thoughts. I'll be extremely grateful...",6.240815295815295,6.333100902597405,6.714502164502168,77.39968975468977,65.94805194805194,9.701587301587304,30.42279942279942,9.444778638647367,2.599679076479076,1250,41,235,22,18,408,165,308,0.127,0.7709999999999999,0.102,-0.8198,0,1,4,0,1,0,40.0,6,3,4,0,9,11,3,0,15,0,24,9,0,0,4,55,45,21,2,3,9,14,1,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,15,25,7,0,10,5,0,5,6,4,1,0,16,2,42,7,35,24,8,40,0,1,1,1,54,16,0,9,19,168,57,1,0.0,0.0,0.09735696157050404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21323845037776426,0.0999009679475149,0.10332720900898262,0.0,0.0,0.08301307982681355,0.0,0.0,0.06784411784022963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22699584214284,0.0,0.07671368856940232,0.0,0.06081626330961407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22821083555442015,0.0,0.0,0.10553891438585936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11038888320348304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20708215452499665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19546486932359144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13178864814030267,0.0,0.0840569307915074,0.0,0.1793260112510343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09579074661819932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07979176843914194,0.0,0.0,0.09878375832268804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0668708661705428,0.0,0.0,0.09908988114770263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11262336618739152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16448590912046862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10839575807895764,0.0,0.07046748586239761,0.0,0.0,0.08809496780825657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09004246687391276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10583567419343004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21207036567506035,0.0,0.0,0.07694548170968286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10803656401222096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10423395430005854,0.10951281298232274,0.2829325873172676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10756433127388113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06391248159410905,0.0,0.09850662302327652,0.0,0.11301512446891665,0.17039877744136767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09082297409175052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21184409257903766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281816149509058,0.0,0.13255983657871565,0.0,0.0,0.07920284606223713,0.17452259921589855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20320314660760086,0.10851646631340507,0.0,0.10385964385890972,0.12000588993908692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08970137308561672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19273757844677256 alcoholism,RGB_0-0-0,2019/09/14,"Just passed my 6 month mark, do the cravings ever really go away and should they come up randomly? So I just hit my 6 month mark, like around a week ago, and while it's been manageable I find strong cravings still rear their ugly little heads from time to time. I know cravings are beyond normal, but oddly enough mine pop up at times when you wouldn't expect them to. For instance, and while I wouldn't recommend it, I still go out to bars and such socially (it was too hard to socialize professionally and personally to not). Had someone accidentally order and hand me a drink last night and I just stood there continuing to talk with it until someone else finished theirs so I could give it to them. Yet it wasn't last night I find I have problems with, but completely random moments. Like walking down the street with my dog, or in the middle of an unrelated conversation, or shortly after starting up a video game or a few pages into a book. It always seem to be these little, almost meaningless, moments. I kind of understand the concept of triggers, but it seems like these cravings come at times inconsequential and not directly related to anything which previously caused me to drink. I was wondering if anyone has dealt with something similar and if so does it ever really stop? It's really fucking annoying.",6.488862244897959,7.562324465306122,6.805548469387755,73.54342474489796,65.57142857142857,10.043367346938776,31.6390306122449,10.125756701596842,3.2424744897959177,1054,40,184,24,16,341,149,245,0.09699999999999999,0.8420000000000001,0.061,-0.8389,0,0,3,0,0,0,25.0,0,1,5,1,17,8,2,0,10,0,14,6,2,2,2,53,28,24,0,9,13,0,2,3,0,3,0,0,0,1,13,18,3,1,7,6,0,6,5,3,0,0,6,2,23,5,33,16,3,52,0,0,0,1,13,17,1,11,31,131,36,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10216759872459903,0.0,0.11541235829312085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0959023271628468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08058976091501413,0.0,0.09484596862384953,0.1026023850280293,0.0,0.0,0.1082869213902032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11839978689772035,0.0,0.1985658886720349,0.12084385193867052,0.0,0.0,0.09202263559676704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10086140977825728,0.0,0.0,0.22581424380136406,0.0,0.0,0.09628170127457013,0.0,0.0,0.1190903847781137,0.0,0.0,0.2085115232589182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2106840164359665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10655242833590543,0.0,0.1105641752619328,0.13100542135551668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1032468474382591,0.0,0.11828603340693038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12002151582839235,0.06334175089459504,0.18789824625836746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.168924959396604,0.2310338278737417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.183992675256878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21632012720788316,0.1129265291729491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10063720081169177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11028454386063227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2215080707431312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2098496909986084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23497820534110575,0.19531227769252624,0.08872979425255888,0.0,0.0,0.08157887695295064,0.0,0.18408737713504544,0.09635927950618788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0926385056994529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2688270883292352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11998568858249578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.092451509585119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12499034870270577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Alice_In_Wonderland1,2019/09/14,"Day 1 down. That was hard. But I did it. Now for day 2 and I've just woken up and all I can think about is a beer or the liquor store and looking through their many selections. I got this. Day 2 will be mine.",-2.3394528875379947,-0.5662157659574465,-0.16717325227963364,108.22000000000004,100.27659574468085,3.5367781155015194,13.097264437689967,5.288315135182226,-1.574073556231003,157,3,44,1,7,51,39,47,0.036000000000000004,0.9640000000000001,0.0,-0.1027,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,6,2,0,0,1,8,10,5,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,5,0,5,4,1,6,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,1,4,29,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7146645472063565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2954293772803828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33089466799623163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3101887393334395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3744964464005952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23668575014516635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Intplmao,2019/09/14,"A friend is destroying her life My friends wife (lesbians) recently gave birth. A week before the birth, my friend started drinking after 4 years sober and ended up in detox for a week. She got out just in time for the birth. One week later, she has relapsed again. She says she hated the baby. I’ve got the wife / baby a safe place to stay for a week since friend won’t leave their apartment. What the hell can I do? Sorry if this is the wrong place to post.",0.977470355731228,3.414053347826087,1.6522529644268786,98.11330039525691,86.17391304347824,4.21501976284585,17.059288537549406,5.565023196281405,-0.6649695652173917,356,8,77,2,11,109,62,92,0.17,0.682,0.14800000000000002,-0.34,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,0,2,9,3,0,11,0,6,4,0,0,0,5,11,2,0,1,2,2,0,0,4,1,2,1,0,0,2,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,1,3,1,9,5,10,7,0,24,1,0,0,1,14,7,1,1,15,43,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1339723436317766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15423413964322824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13944771112650706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4865600919773036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2518429996839829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15544230531512124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667093378961781,0.0,0.0,0.11120660292991567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10668740913675223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3289887194300192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15078681292183674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15545590676964846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12520494323376405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13023842490888154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17624447854014655,0.11143892154975853,0.16781322297514334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0918062430059234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5051649107528041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17213913640068573,0.0,0.10138808981046682 alcoholism,Budlightyear931,2019/09/14,"This is just for research purposes and data collection but at your worst, what was the scope of your drinking? How much were you drinking? How much inspired you to get clean? I just want to gather an average. My own use used to span a pint of vodka per day. 7 days a week. I eventually tapered to 6 pints a week, 5 pints, 4 pints, etc. Then once I got to just one pint a week I tapered off with low alcohol beer until the cravings were gone. So I too am an alcoholic, I judt want to know what your habits were. It helps me in the ever going struggle that is alcoholism. Keep in mind, ive noticed tapering isnt for everyone. Some people need medical intervention. I was lucky. I was able to do it through sheer willpower and willpower usually doesn't mean shit when it comes to alcoholism. I did go to a few AA meetings but intimately it came down to my own decision and strength to get sober. Thats my story, what was the absolute most you were drinking per day and what did you do about it?",2.126138587675218,4.2436500402010084,3.61533985718064,87.79717535043638,78.74874371859295,7.405554086220577,26.05157365776249,8.371475516178862,1.7904211055276382,774,31,162,16,19,255,121,199,0.055,0.813,0.132,0.9408,2,0,9,0,0,0,23.0,0,7,0,1,10,7,1,1,11,0,18,10,1,4,1,29,34,12,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,1,0,12,7,8,1,4,5,0,5,2,4,1,1,13,0,21,3,24,21,9,23,0,1,0,0,10,7,1,3,11,111,33,1,0.12492951250732495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5340466215179432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14288608070650016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.107615713010037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2417076012195611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3671500832851041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13932943007088833,0.0,0.11300589641244667,0.0,0.11937550293739092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13054102801920192,0.0,0.14200064191931658,0.0,0.09991754368026792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08373761883255752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11104309088087587,0.0,0.0,0.06865799288501871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13608486346204954,0.0,0.1258533405998189,0.0,0.0,0.12614319423165746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18367513253365375,0.09263365054807636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14223307801682314,0.0,0.1330458535620888,0.0846554708761597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08661039387997968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282383493034344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306034515779153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21579797463095732,0.13759220811823505,0.0,0.14737332657775576,0.0,0.3006327579040434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Curmugdeonly,2019/09/14,"Could there be a connection between trying to stop drinking and obsessive worrying? My SO has an alcohol problem. Most of the time she limits herself to 2+ glasses but very occasionally many more and to the point where she has blackouts. She's trying to control her intake now and she's having a tough time. She makes lists of things that she insists need doing in order to not be unhappy. She tells me she feels totally overwhelmed buy all these things that she needs to have done. To me it's irrational because none of the things on her list is critical in any normal world. Yet she believes that buy buying things, fixing things, anything, cleaning things, she would then be calmer and happier. What I'm wondering is if this kind of mindset could be being exacerbated by her limiting her alcohol intake. Could her thinking be connected?",5.6923160173160205,7.742129551948054,5.889025974025973,75.69877705627707,68.41558441558442,9.029437229437232,32.31385281385281,9.516144504307137,3.3039151515151506,677,30,112,15,12,215,101,154,0.09,0.833,0.077,0.371,0,0,3,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,3,5,5,0,2,6,0,18,3,0,2,2,26,25,8,0,9,3,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,13,4,3,4,3,1,3,0,2,4,0,0,1,1,20,1,16,14,5,13,0,1,0,0,18,6,0,3,6,91,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3069352981844867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09765478272077036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1181728134323721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08753889310456718,0.0,0.0,0.16179110451328438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16106267573760816,0.3439652914841162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14695545356249812,0.0,0.14067600811238204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07260985653449993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14954014813332447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0958559393054558,0.1455906318222598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2129592137261452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407001884966211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13575099909747085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13740842141433549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12005831481064345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12551511810285024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5724196489258155,0.09201483281926684,0.0,0.0,0.1674718167552684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19499365861875126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11848729393881645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1557310381495526,0.0,0.14583554590432712,0.0,0.10201126128975926,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,allalong11,2019/09/14,Swollen feet (mostly the left) -- is my liver fucked? title,1.7940000000000005,4.1530844000000045,1.6999999999999993,91.78000000000004,105.0,2.0,15.0,3.1291,-1.031,44,1,7,0,2,13,10,10,0.306,0.6940000000000001,0.0,-0.6597,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,4,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,4,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6480375427156662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.761608392306073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Gcra,2019/09/14,"How do I even start I've been trying to go sober every day in months. I wake up with a strong tought of ""not today, today I won't drink at all"", which disappears by the time I make my way back from work and I pick up beer because I'm not strong enough... Any tips on how to beat day one will be much appreciated, I don't know how to start the road to sobriety",4.900189873417721,3.2433701265822776,5.854272151898737,88.26723101265827,69.25316455696202,9.418987341772151,24.813291139240505,8.07648339933343,0.8798582278481013,276,4,71,3,4,92,58,79,0.031,0.8390000000000001,0.13,0.8176,0,0,2,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,4,5,2,0,0,3,0,6,3,1,5,1,11,12,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,2,0,2,4,0,0,1,1,0,7,2,13,8,3,18,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,9,42,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1672681117905052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1891358343800282,0.0,0.14994109812009745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3172607490938707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24095706933746694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2541528791040083,0.0,0.16246094010511408,0.0,0.20724042914835292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13979048383197973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351787416536149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16418696068757566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19633099782871088,0.0,0.180816335037213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16667571460031028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3481978245396418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14342715116615154,0.0,0.4663018139563972,0.0,0.0,0.16699756110021882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1952396270551145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17906917204930325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,asdasd55,2019/05/06,"Am I dealing with an alcoholic (30M) Been on and off dating a man. I don’t drink or ever dated a man I drink so I am not sure if this counts as heavy drinking. Our few dates were at bars and he did not seem happy when I’d suggest other places to go to. His dreams included buying his favorite bar and going brewery hopping. Alcohol is always in our discussions. I said I bought a dress for 50 usd, he’s like that’s my beer consumption for a week. I say I’d love to go to Ireland. He said he’d love to go to distillery tours. Ever since he’s known that I don’t drink, he stopped hanging out in the weekends. He always asks me out during the week, because weekend is for “drinking and partying”. A couple of times he texted me hungover and several times he flaked on me because he was so “tired and sick and in bed”, He mentioned twice that he’d like “to stop parting too hard and is quitting on this all and getting back to the healthy lifestyle.” Only to mention his drinking plans again over the weekends. He’s also sick and sniffing. I have been dismissing all of this as him not wanting a non-drinker around him. Until I saw him two weeks ago— he told me he lost his ID somewhere he can’t remember. I said a bar? He said he does not even know. The problem was that he’s not consumed with the ID loss as much as with the access to bars. He was asking what’s the fastest way to get an ID to access them. No remorse or anything. Red flags? Or am I just overthinking?",1.6920582706766891,3.5621762697368418,3.083759398496241,92.29131578947369,79.0657894736842,5.658646616541352,25.330827067669173,6.5431188927421005,0.8079458646616544,1142,44,246,10,28,372,161,304,0.11,0.8109999999999999,0.079,-0.7455,0,0,10,0,0,0,29.0,2,0,1,4,12,9,0,0,17,0,19,18,0,0,5,39,40,23,0,3,10,0,1,2,0,0,5,5,1,2,9,16,13,2,4,15,2,5,9,3,0,2,15,8,29,6,37,23,5,39,0,2,2,2,47,13,0,5,22,147,38,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0798927440440979,0.19263814553521344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07207506746569095,0.14998688768066135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07416739543135903,0.08023273706818244,0.1685144156628426,0.0,0.0,0.0693026172202786,0.0,0.10988198574497758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09972455582166292,0.0,0.0,0.09291767327968736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07887133392517545,0.0,0.0,0.6180356524339604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05952847794421035,0.16305128011155665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0941759784282597,0.0,0.20488653403626456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0959425837323527,0.0807366920502832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04953181199029645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08806365692063642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09838500163040076,0.0,0.16268748724517254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0662542098134569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06854615655824724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09759948688635198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09416423549596044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08624001096891945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09586187417671717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1020970840697576,0.0,0.34292822387588,0.07167314295972622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08204884846064317,0.0,0.10181861656868084,0.0,0.07455454238668249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1507015404093666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08494426510259435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10510834172535248,0.10358850169634032,0.0,0.0861208538042208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08804164037218593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05315963661112759,0.07153915165987876,0.2168849483783352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,FuckRhino,2019/05/06,"First it was Magic, then it was Medicine, then it was Misery. The three M’s of alcohol in my experience. Happy to add the fourth M (now it’s a Memory).",-1.3034375000000011,0.7068980312499988,2.3934999999999995,89.3015,99.9375,6.3100000000000005,15.775,7.554174236665415,0.5682050000000003,115,3,26,3,5,42,23,32,0.111,0.778,0.111,0.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,1,3,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5373324066474167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4918276651546389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4276751495942109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5352320982289842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Annie_Alright,2019/05/06,Shall I tell others or keep it private I don't know if I should I tell my husband that I am trying to stop drinking more seriously and I have joined this community. Or would this hurt my motivation?,2.1744999999999983,4.465879450000003,4.240000000000002,82.47500000000002,79.5,7.0,25.0,8.07648339933343,1.5777499999999995,158,6,32,3,4,54,31,40,0.207,0.732,0.061,-0.6997,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,1,0,10,8,4,0,3,3,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,1,1,2,2,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,8,0,1,5,1,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,3,1,25,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3481341149514885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3804383721811691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31587535935765243,0.0,0.0,0.19530587633404464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2971110406813691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6212302316520067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2412776196711564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2524495871095844,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,leanmeanketo,2019/05/06,cirrhosis How possible is it for a someone who is 28 years old to have cirrhosis. Binge drinking since 21. Not daily since 24 years old but have had multiple binges that landed in ER for anxiety/panic withdrawal violent vomiting. Never any DT’s or seizures. Going on a year and a half of sobriety now. This person also drank about a half pint of vodka from 21-23 sometimes more sometime less.,4.722342342342344,6.749865378378381,5.803783783783783,75.41936936936938,70.89189189189189,9.798198198198195,31.25225225225225,10.125756701596842,3.6522684684684688,314,14,53,9,6,104,61,74,0.075,0.909,0.016,-0.7351,0,0,2,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,4,0,5,3,0,1,1,6,7,5,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,1,2,0,0,2,0,1,2,1,1,2,2,0,0,0,9,5,2,11,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,7,34,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17655038659481054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15013176353170932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2162714062341662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254691742376524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17027210659700825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4633237850611584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19276860992134884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24888598677334026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3652478934420322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18705844343688596,0.0,0.4366960750554876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42650760997715975 alcoholism,ArwenNew,2019/05/06,"How To Stop A Drunk From Talking I love my husband but he's got a drink problem. I rarely drink myself so I've come here for some advice from some drinkers. It's the talking. It won't end. He goes on for hours until he sobers up. Nothing in particular. Sometimes he gets ranty and will get overly aggressive about something or another. I just had to go upstairs for a bit simply to make it stop. But I can still hear him talking! To himself! I went down to grab something and he said ""I remember in 1982...."" I said politely that I need to go and watch a film, made a excuse about the snooker being on. I have told him about this when he's sober and he agrees. But then he gets drunk and here we go again. It's exhausting. Any tips on how to stop it without causing a massive argument? Just now I said I needed some space and he brought up the time I left him 6 years ago and ranted! Help!",0.4623695976154991,2.780054901639346,1.9688450074515664,95.7625372578242,87.4153005464481,4.857327372081472,21.43293591654248,6.351523495107088,0.2408819672131144,689,24,152,7,22,222,107,183,0.121,0.81,0.069,-0.8556,0,0,5,0,0,0,24.0,1,0,0,0,14,4,1,0,9,0,6,6,0,5,0,31,26,17,0,3,7,1,1,0,0,2,1,4,0,0,7,9,4,3,1,5,0,6,2,3,0,0,9,6,19,1,26,14,4,31,0,0,1,1,26,11,0,4,14,93,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13063613935356022,0.11850432554322753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.090910874567583,0.14018113475492527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14595018304807028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13733206090707484,0.0,0.11515841131003073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2619222238145013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11840586879333152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20953581466399,0.0,0.2279300281210965,0.0,0.10692068351716533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15067352356396338,0.0,0.08960672082099062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13165350626005062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14524992703981832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12065658265330205,0.12649666160805334,0.08923625686284667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1982525364111113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12827505483585466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12791918035849886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15143986143395755,0.0,0.3814972032164503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20583559865848455,0.13221859641694053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10676158948990673,0.33530174645171845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3223545558755381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07795321899479901,0.0,0.0,0.12774243540368213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12392800271902267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12886826447049993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08608922127387053 alcoholism,lookalive_sunshine,2019/05/06,"Is this normal? I am scared. I think I might be experiencing DTs but I can’t really find that much info about what I should be expecting but I feel really rough. My last drink was roughly 12 hours ago, I typically have a 6-pack a day occasionally more, have only had beer for last couple weeks. I have dried out before from heavier stuff and had very few side effects so this is scary. I started off okay, started to notice some shaking which has gotten progressively worse. If I lay down my trunk keeps lifting me up and my neck keeps jerking forward. I’ve never had a seizure so it’s alarming me quite a bit. Have had the shakes before but not to this extent. I have also completely and utterly cleared my guts out to the point I am just throwing up bile. I’m not necessarily nauseous but several times I have gotten a very strong urge to just hurl and when I do it lasts for awhile and it hurts. I have not eaten for about 10 hours and have no desire to try, trying to drink water but I think it triggers the puking. I have anxiety from hell as it is but I have gotten to the point of hyperventilating several times tonight and my breathing is shallow even when I try to take a deep breath. It isn’t helping. Has anyone experienced this? Does it sound like DTs? Like I said I’ve been trying to find info but I didn’t realize it was actually this bad and I’m thrown off because it was just beer and I’ve drank much heavier before. My mom died a month ago from problems related to alcohol and it was very sudden and if she knew she was sick she never told anybody, and she would be disappointed if I did the same thing. I am a 24 year old female, average height and weight. I know I should probably see a doctor but I am broke and uninsured and honestly just scared. Thank you for reading my post I’m sorry it’s long.",2.4448939247830275,4.536295363387982,3.9546833815493407,85.88259402121504,77.60655737704919,6.81954355512697,23.33301189328191,7.827709963407826,1.1531648344583738,1437,46,293,23,34,476,188,366,0.171,0.753,0.077,-0.9903,0,0,5,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,0,4,12,18,2,5,14,1,42,15,4,2,3,62,64,32,1,10,18,1,4,2,0,4,3,2,0,0,21,17,9,2,11,5,0,4,9,12,0,0,20,9,40,6,28,37,8,40,1,3,1,0,9,13,1,5,26,193,61,2,0.0,0.0,0.09459740411332238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1718591937685984,0.1035971313067118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.077521201291033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0741572259535442,0.0,0.0,0.06778123157319407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08093909498281981,0.059092442329309214,0.0,0.2474610318649703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10583107694187537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10163754079242844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10725993935683756,0.0,0.06251692415966817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10060623267331677,0.0,0.0,0.09922004529591813,0.08483100700830115,0.0,0.0,0.18992446903728696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06402656679383116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04901471343347948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1771989635491819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06497542906535457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19092860398929531,0.0,0.10377402376665493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.172325713945972,0.0,0.0,0.05327453310310353,0.2370519728045756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09471792000498384,0.0,0.0,0.08578698847894074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10283578985804204,0.0,0.11353249349241128,0.07737490462659077,0.0,0.14252101637704906,0.0,0.14952896455614892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09497855729713052,0.0,0.11036443835247847,0.10172001630073213,0.0,0.0,0.07372563893621055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18327529172047247,0.0,0.0928397093154918,0.0,0.10451544860842696,0.09275647577915742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10310538589126428,0.09696412987523788,0.0,0.1242017982425396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09221013870057457,0.0,0.19410349190711892,0.0,0.07724695339970403,0.0,0.0,0.2190244629032772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10851403938492583,0.13722628501306014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11097069999490967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07288523455174381,0.0,0.0,0.08924739163575672,0.0,0.0,0.0644012314463596,0.12422778056648445,0.0,0.0,0.1130505347100284,0.0,0.0,0.09262831486478476,0.0,0.2632578758505776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23995175180493974,0.0,0.0,0.0777577338526743,0.11804424345062857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0987879987847844,0.0688619008182397,0.0,0.0,0.062424827500903834 alcoholism,Lapazpax,2019/05/06,"How do i do Monday? Right now I’m conflicted because I messed up and let Sunday be an all night party. Right now I’m conflicted because I know I could take my first call from home while I’m still in the comfort of my own home but I can’t decide whether I should just show my face or if that’s worse than just staying at home and hiding it .thoughts?",5.340600000000002,4.3374574266666714,5.567833333333336,88.53975000000001,68.06666666666666,8.566666666666668,29.416666666666664,7.1686216300943375,1.3690666666666669,277,8,64,2,4,88,54,75,0.126,0.8240000000000001,0.05,-0.7514,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,6,2,0,0,2,0,7,1,1,1,1,17,13,8,0,3,6,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,2,2,0,2,3,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,9,1,6,8,2,14,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,2,8,42,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2593467597732781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21721298444114334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16984123790994585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1809412567649689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6401326449125632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11690646886557328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21752269610735325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19962522237906102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3633269161388986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267333888290479,0.1698800942477549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15994049891329906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1688775368069657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21678192996782736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,jacobxv,2019/05/06,"Some honest words I wrote to myself tonight Drinking myself to sleep so that I don’t have to think But nothing numbs the pain of your constant absence We are toxic but I can’t help but love you Because it gives me something to be broken over and that’s how I function How else would the pretentious words flow from the mouth so smoothly I’m not fucking original I’m just a capitalist of pain I engendered my own hole to sink into because I least I know what to expect What a pointless loop of existence It’s not living its surviving on a constant choice to breathe Alcohol isn’t the problem, I am, and it’s the gasoline for this broken engine to make it another mile If I’m fucking honest I enjoy the misery But at this point I don’t know how else to exist in a space where I have the freedom to do so The world is full of pain and everyone has it but you just have to come to point and admit that you aren’t the only motherfucker refusing to admit that you are the administrator of your own pain Grow the fuck up. I certainly need to.",3.5797711267605656,4.888772760563383,4.892015845070425,83.70027728873241,72.56807511737087,7.766314553990611,27.86649061032864,8.278499904357787,1.8556856807511741,830,31,167,13,16,276,113,213,0.14800000000000002,0.659,0.193,0.8417,1,0,3,0,0,0,4.0,1,6,0,1,9,14,3,0,15,0,16,14,3,5,1,37,33,16,0,5,10,0,1,0,0,1,6,0,0,0,14,7,2,1,5,1,0,3,7,9,0,0,1,1,23,5,27,30,5,20,0,0,0,4,14,13,3,2,4,121,37,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1464115378317419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14365664363782027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1670280874873444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11801353216597045,0.0,0.296097068622502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342080288946412,0.0,0.0,0.2288921571847217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13090955179023667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3799634019582516,0.0,0.13142306506863513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09182833897756287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15058344223452616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12097367701927005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236480195932614,0.0,0.09144869011176658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10158390436522108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1314553764484259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1041948173479877,0.5831114421413384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590189223281804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13109067878020772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13709912909349412,0.0,0.0,0.1054694388662037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08778418941116369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0973210036768862,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,jasoncb123,2019/05/06,"What does AA consider a relapse? So I’ve been doing really good for about the last month or so. Tuesday would actually be 30 days sober for the first time in over 22 years . For some strange reason tonight I had a couple of drinks and a beer by myself. I stopped to get gas and said fuck it, I need a break from all of this and bought 2 white claws and a can of bud light . no one was put at risk or an uncomfortable situation. Just me watching some tv and doing laundry As much as I would like to say that I enjoyed it I really didn’t but was just really curious to see how I would handle it. So I guess my question is what constitutes a relapse? I’m not drunk. I didn’t blackout or anything like what life used to be. I still feel proud of all my progress but the idea of telling anyone seems pointless. Thought??",2.4007142857142867,3.9930252619047657,3.5590476190476217,90.91928571428572,76.14285714285714,6.942857142857143,25.095238095238088,7.7094869923839395,1.1025309523809526,636,22,142,9,14,206,112,168,0.06,0.7959999999999999,0.14400000000000002,0.9513,0,0,2,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,3,8,7,1,1,10,0,15,5,0,3,2,31,27,16,0,4,8,0,1,2,1,3,1,2,0,0,8,5,3,1,6,4,1,1,4,2,1,2,9,7,14,5,20,13,5,15,0,0,3,1,5,3,1,8,12,93,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.16461890288430034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11795325762173307,0.0,0.13881901180063544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18665431367658966,0.0,0.10879228202221053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14762336699586276,0.0,0.0,0.165253782684922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08529566351463368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1434891939168491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15595288889093611,0.08813452450860466,0.0,0.0,0.14149071283720033,0.0,0.0,0.18583308152721087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1904325554313744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13750636554783466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11915203622374902,0.16482862527627706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13464821820214104,0.0,0.12400791318670575,0.12508286273569166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11430995735110773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16958189336782994,0.188973469043886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3242049391511469,0.17344330830187607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16046457098879288,0.1341505228874201,0.0,0.0,0.13442555680048604,0.15357071657218727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18961669737811632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13471752226078273,0.14103393273276807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14744410457020268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1339224788217895,0.09836556916590623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14569558837258215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35950153187014305,0.0,0.0,0.10863201492960683 alcoholism,lifewithjesse,2019/05/06,"My dad needs help Hello and thank you for reading. My dad is 67 years, retired and has been a daily drinker (2-3 beers) for years now but started drinking heavier these last couple years, even prior to retirement The family had an intervention about 3 months ago while he was still living in his own home with my mother. Unfortunately after almost 3 hours trying persuade him to check into a center for help we were unable to. After about 3 weeks he got drunk again. Fast forward to a couple weeks ago and couple more incidents including ending up in the hospital with a bruises and a cut near his eye after apparently falling, my mother told him to leave the house. He is now living with me. Its just my 16 year old son and me. The plan was to stay with me and start a program or start attending AA meetings which he has not and I also told him should he drink while living with me, I would have to ask him to leave the house. Well after just about 10 days, he is drunk in my living room. I can't talk to him now for obvious reasons. Here is my plan, he just to renovate a neighbor's laundry room a couple days ago. Tomorrow I plan to talk him and tell him that he will have get help starting tomorrow or he will have to go once he is done with the renovation. I have tried to find some help for him on my own but can't seem get any specific information on where get started. If anyone reading this can direct me to a center, a telephone or someone I can ask I would really appreciate it. I live in South East section of Los Angeles by the 710 and 5 freeway.",5.713198438054667,5.528672952076678,6.497736954206605,79.4485365637203,67.08306709265176,9.383670571529997,29.848952786652468,8.998388855275968,2.253061199858005,1226,39,246,19,18,406,165,313,0.053,0.8759999999999999,0.071,0.7743,1,0,4,0,0,0,25.0,1,1,0,3,16,3,1,0,18,0,26,6,1,1,1,38,43,18,0,5,10,5,0,0,1,5,0,0,4,0,6,17,5,0,4,7,1,4,3,1,2,0,9,1,33,2,43,29,5,58,1,0,1,0,43,18,0,7,37,162,39,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2321149650811632,0.0,0.08740192862694875,0.0,0.0,0.0698006724231308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059355848767605024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06103073046707485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16319678829099266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38631062297727853,0.0,0.11258141699296574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08932143858403366,0.0,0.17100941971525094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07730737246476717,0.0,0.0,0.057650002073314874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08228322069260363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07977563945365122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13680625322053114,0.0,0.04960528775426947,0.0,0.0698086774674678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23401745918340375,0.0,0.08755257880609559,0.0,0.08595677518740939,0.20142713703996984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07114779279915964,0.0,0.1848414832195085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3853651394456847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06966894580665342,0.0,0.0,0.06471969181345917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09158946737715493,0.0929541974072166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17461446297268032,0.0,0.05591611642435995,0.08974208948290371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07945972158572924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07395512060975913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3088989466275129,0.09303271619340624,0.06970480473423643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14031052103946787,0.0762897234584323,0.08035902236343308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16680646211119374,0.0,0.11851968525403216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14002729623962418,0.0,0.07847844890038827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12400754635890968,0.0,0.0,0.22483113589030776 alcoholism,dissectedcreation,2019/05/06,"Alcoholic memory One beer won't hurt right? And with that I'll have a cigarette. Ok make it three beers I got an ash tray ready I'm feeling fine I'm alright Let's go for a beer run and call it a night I turn the volume up As I turn numb Like I said I'm alright I'm almost done This is a habit Why would I quit? After all I'm able to forget",-2.9709821428571423,-1.5015715624999968,0.35607142857142904,102.6875,108.375,3.7857142857142883,11.964285714285715,5.773587663045528,-1.2445714285714289,265,5,70,3,14,93,58,80,0.057,0.7070000000000001,0.235,0.8843,0,0,5,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,0,7,0,0,6,3,6,5,0,1,1,9,18,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,4,3,4,0,1,3,0,2,1,2,0,2,3,2,5,5,6,12,1,6,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,1,3,32,9,0,0.2265393154507943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2421016332117496,0.2268464008876521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23132196968915034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2318283724765315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11454508463674475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12874751357125966,0.0,0.18118418532631006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2425150225876415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23165179855664506,0.0,0.11067566658643943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15121675217001893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2125918013564768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15350890303302372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.240952447257442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19346333760518808,0.2154907659749525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4928194456168818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2044164962578701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16092702996575384,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,avarnell,2019/05/06,"3 🅨🅔🅐🅡🅢 Today! ♡ Today is my 3 year anniversary!♡ I am so happy to have made it this far - I really never thought I would be here. ❤️ ♾ 🙏🏻 ☯️👁‍🗨 🌟",-7.0120454545454525,-6.614314931818183,0.5004545454545449,101.2706818181818,118.77272727272728,4.0181818181818185,10.045454545454547,5.985473137389443,-1.3103999999999996,109,2,38,2,8,52,38,44,0.0,0.818,0.182,0.745,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,1,4,7,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,4,1,1,3,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,15,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3722617582862868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3308942448565175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2697099126015822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22402653725576926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2776224440291517,0.0,0.0,0.6629487190039155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24841658345453324,0.0,0.0,0.2251950960727129 alcoholism,arodd101,2019/05/06,Alcoholic:( I tell you a little bit dont rely feel like typing a whole lot but I drink every day til the point where its ruining my life relationships friends my job. PM me,1.2467142857142832,3.665213600000005,3.3310714285714305,86.76517857142859,84.42857142857143,6.928571428571428,20.17857142857143,8.07648339933343,1.1128571428571423,136,4,28,3,4,46,32,35,0.115,0.767,0.11800000000000001,0.2721,1,0,2,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,6,2,1,2,3,5,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,1,3,16,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2790950995071001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2851134445276156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1684232656748286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30607152509361485,0.25583231850243604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22003421448577085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13204773289067587,0.18656906841022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20176757997491995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2591558798093934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1844613853077583,0.12758706238028736,0.2617457554600683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2220245042367756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2468757345629517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2803825614848401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2282608392307155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2915700501903918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,daltonc92,2019/05/06,"Hangover/Withdrawal symptoms or something worse? Hi there, 26/m here, 27 in couple days.... Shorter in stature, although not sure if that matters. I drink probably average to excessive for someone my age, and have been probably since the age of 20...I have never had any heart related issues in my life and any crazy hangovers have always just been that, headache, lightheaded, tired, dehydrated, some shortness of breath etc... The last 2 weeks or so where I live the summer weather is here and of course everyone gets out and about and hits it hard after a long ass winter...I basically went 4-5 nights in a row going too hard and probably drink the most I ever have, essentially binge drinking ...also smoking a little... Come the day after this bender where I decided to lay off and clean up (Sunday) I noticed a pain/sensation in my chest (left side) and the best way I can describe it is that my heart felt ""weak"" I also noticed throughout the day while talking to people, I had shortness of breath (having to take deep breaths all the way in). I shrugged it off as being hungover/tired/dehydrated and chilled out that night, next day (Monday) I awoke at 6am to a constant pain in my chest with that same sensation and some shortness of breath as I got up and went about the morning...I had coffee, drank a ton of water, ate something, and went about my day to just this constant heaviness/pressure/pain basically in my heart or very near it, and shortness of breath all day...it got to a point in the afternoon where I started to somewhat have some concern medically as folks usually do when it comes to their chest/heart....I started googling and of course every sign pointed to heart attack...I debated with myself for about an hour what to do, and I decided that I was going to take myself to the ER because your heart is nothing to play around with...I started having a mild panic attack once I made the decision to go as it became somewhat surreal. Fast fowardard, ER, doc, CT scan for blockage etc...no heart attack, no signs of one, no blockage, heart operating normally, they IV'd me, said they weren't sure what it was but it was nothing serious, and to rest, hydrate, and take it easy on the alcohol. The next 2 days I did just that and started to feel better by the second day, however still had slight sensations/pain and some breathing issues...me being stupid, thursday night, I went to a get together and it turned into a deal and drank way too much...the next day friday was the worst shortness of breath, pain, hangover I have ever had... Saturday and sunday (today) I have taken it easy, hydrated, tried to sleep best I can as I have pretty much decided to quit the alcohol for awhile because this has been a wake up call....however I slept absolutely terrible last night and awoke at 2am to a mild panic attack that lasted for maybe 20 minutes...my heart/chest still has that pressure/pain sensation, shortness of breath comes and goes however is worse in the mornings...and I have slight pain in my shoulder, left arm, armpit areas etc... I have done a ton of research (good and bad) and have results that this is just typical heavy alcohol withdrawal symptoms as my blood pressure is high, heart rate maybe up? lack of sleep, anxiety all coming back full force and I just need to ride it out for a week and all will be good. However I also have seen sites/medical issues while I am googling phrases like ""heart pain"" ""shortness of breath"" ""arm/shoulder pain"" etc etc...and there are multitude of extremely bad medical cases such as angina, heart attack, artrial fibrillation, coronary heart disease, heart failure etc etc...angina and heart attack seem to happen randomly and within 15 minute window, so those are the least of the possibilities as this is somewhat of a constant deal... It has only been 2 full nights since my last go around and I'm going to ride it out for 2 more as I have to fly to the east cost wednesday early morning, I absolutely HATE flying and it triggers all kind of anxiety the week leading up to the flight and I am semi-worried this is something serious and the last thing I want to have is to get on a plane and have some anxiety attack/heart attack/panic and shortness of breath etc...and I can't really bail on these flights unless obviously there's something serious happening here... This has been a huge wake-up call for me and I am only 27 years old and would hate to think that I have done some irreversible damage to my heart and/or brought on a slow death of coronary heart disease or failure...I am hoping that these are not super typical but semi-typical symptoms of a binge/heavy drinking couple of weeks that need at least a week or more to clean out. Any advice would be great, thanks.",6.80337568681319,6.972706459821431,6.7755357142857155,77.17523351648353,64.75892857142857,9.794093406593406,33.86023351648352,9.516144504307137,3.0775694368131865,3732,149,682,65,52,1188,350,896,0.14,0.794,0.065,-0.9969,4,0,11,0,0,0,175.0,0,1,3,6,34,39,8,3,45,0,68,60,36,4,11,114,118,65,1,9,16,0,4,1,0,3,16,1,3,0,41,52,11,0,8,5,1,17,7,25,2,2,34,7,53,14,116,76,34,142,0,1,2,1,10,59,1,19,64,441,94,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029594944730770182,0.0,0.09709896678319638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07265865815208944,0.025200221524760927,0.0,0.0,0.06178617161148391,0.0,0.06950568928669426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05392158685126948,0.0,0.2756358645713822,0.0,0.02328791980689804,0.050574775550048634,0.03692389948446256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0635661818985322,0.02678533934564116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06185039991427944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10435418054661848,0.0,0.0981846098215936,0.0,0.0,0.0670213493199464,0.0,0.17578658788519794,0.06244668414478712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061985800866291574,0.0,0.118674262358157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27021348638407233,0.0,0.05479050125308868,0.025517102618728287,0.028939391000480617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.015313416409427068,0.0,0.029079128732929532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04746925992136408,0.0,0.08606062378178234,0.05080460399656748,0.04844466064176353,0.03339021437661276,0.0,0.0,0.053563286626495635,0.0,0.05426027718303994,0.059801938031342226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6459989894724996,0.0,0.03199862292409,0.0,0.030080644652552325,0.029825423965057787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.063221037939604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03153801243506033,0.0,0.12343489386301724,0.0,0.0,0.06581124617067417,0.0,0.02139176449940349,0.01479611782735006,0.0303543397452992,0.026742926640190453,0.02680199036298813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028657167361515808,0.0,0.0,0.06085233719246101,0.0,0.033640709410679225,0.06101953822544327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04452711273806575,0.044913091330281575,0.023358285085420115,0.0,0.09662791315487736,0.14210591356783553,0.029673665231798107,0.05812010638081017,0.06896119482888392,0.031779864813467354,0.03225340109557764,0.020522449847184116,0.046067449139062175,0.2900361511285989,0.07106774930026162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.020996368530593158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05725976269317101,0.03414270222530933,0.0,0.030811558499239045,0.09795968232667683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03221268875417177,0.0,0.0,0.019401866521864916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028808742358746968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0275710655649046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05010547289498348,0.0,0.060615367609224334,0.0,0.025661070017621343,0.093261990075135,0.0,0.0,0.08574581375756239,0.0,0.04837257677634908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057088038319749686,0.09443566392648707,0.06831348396870854,0.02434258828135555,0.0,0.027883106435547356,0.0,0.0,0.020120547593457282,0.019405925284203613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0348090853878346,0.02870740831536031,0.0,0.0,0.02056207816777481,0.0329422663981052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033355542899295404,0.02498896648348509,0.017863356450577687,0.07211840304443595,0.12146725688352933,0.0,0.0,0.1123010036644736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030756711944031637,0.06172765913233205,0.0430283434546855,0.0,0.0,0.019503069809953068 alcoholism,skateJump,2019/09/13,"So hard dealing with stress without alcohol I am 1 month sober and I am dealing with a really difficult situation at work. I can't sleep and the entire situation is stressing me out. It seems so nice to have some drinks and get my mind off of it! But I need to develop better coping mechanisms. Yes what I am going through is stressful but it is my fault for letting it get to me. I need to learn to control what I can and let go of the other stuff.",1.5637634408602177,3.5908307526881766,3.792688172043016,86.2756989247312,80.18279569892474,7.1440860215053785,25.387096774193548,8.167268648758528,1.6597225806451623,352,14,74,7,9,121,61,93,0.139,0.7959999999999999,0.066,-0.6982,0,0,2,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,3,2,7,0,3,3,1,11,3,1,1,0,17,18,8,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,8,7,2,1,2,1,0,2,2,5,0,0,0,1,11,2,15,16,1,6,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,2,1,57,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16591025126922002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13730204949829722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17412105521768936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3201026355056193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15208151028265005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16221875684222747,0.0,0.17645921709427229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13906949558190762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31749813163701096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15675372304680438,0.0,0.12391549559922915,0.0,0.0,0.2302251768916036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09945425753875907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14132969383228527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34900494552737743,0.15535763979771194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5334996673893755,0.0,0.17771898205528674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14965114454783834,0.0,0.11302058995488952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,vancitysq,2019/09/13,"Well I went on another 8 day bender Lost my job, don’t remember much of anything, didn’t shower in those 8 days, slept in my car in a forest so I could keep drinking. My addiction to alcohol is so severe and I am not a functioning alcoholic. How does a couple drinks at the airport flying home from work turn into an 8 day, round the clock bender? Ugh I’m sick of this",0.9991233766233768,3.117362857142861,3.4884253246753225,87.19549512987015,82.76623376623377,6.966883116883117,21.313311688311693,8.07648339933343,1.2100142857142862,288,9,60,6,8,100,60,77,0.159,0.812,0.027999999999999997,-0.8647,2,0,4,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,4,3,0,0,6,0,5,7,1,1,0,7,11,4,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,2,0,2,2,4,1,1,2,0,2,3,2,1,0,4,1,6,1,10,6,1,12,0,1,1,0,0,6,0,0,4,36,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20529964019316024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4025195829322587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19747286702567232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15497361124017564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15036042502584235,0.2083755868076652,0.0,0.3643578628319646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16480254390254842,0.0,0.0,0.36896928081524266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18890311474885374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18688131185310514,0.16738994997041584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20557657318093026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384389204304509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21333301140425684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21275115041259196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20484111887125736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16932480619188764,0.17457711442039014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1371012351056571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,MuzzledSpaceboy,2019/09/13,"I'm newly sober and currently looking for sober housing Hi, I'm newly sober in the the Greater Boston area and I've been looking at living in a sober home. I had been in rehab until the end of August with plans to live with a sober friend. However that fell through and I've been couch surfing ever since. Money is really tight right now as well because i had left my job before going into rehab and couch surfing has prevented me from finding a new one. I've called several places and they've seen affordable, but some had restrictions that I don't think I would mesh well with. I was wondering if all sober homes required sharing rooms and had restrictions on what can be in bedrooms. I was also wondering if anyone here could possibly help me with finding more houses or a resource that will. Thank you!",5.934615384615384,6.72657194871795,6.076051282051285,79.2856153846154,66.69230769230771,9.060512820512821,30.98461538461539,9.120678840339163,2.640627692307692,648,24,117,11,10,206,102,156,0.0,0.868,0.132,0.9508,4,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,2,6,5,0,0,7,0,17,2,0,0,2,30,27,13,0,4,4,0,1,0,1,2,2,0,6,0,4,11,0,5,5,0,1,2,1,0,2,1,10,4,10,5,18,13,4,21,0,0,3,0,6,12,0,6,7,77,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1202479758701018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10513970066150162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09166197712343872,0.0,0.1279507527958954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1535409320568607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1200553550584365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13318002156729558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13601504019248242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27486437694733945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116172727074265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0854567046108881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10078744519280336,0.0,0.3016595691176108,0.0,0.0,0.347005332091034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14921547504574328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16337356089650654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2655526165039464,0.0,0.2525398527556606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14522483040664733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10189218119830927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15710091042418814,0.0,0.0,0.16951555139107685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09632858230629424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12841210549369153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16987126032321787,0.0,0.12438466073150467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13843720191585013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09634873370881857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2703949489910553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32613194775543497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10681599420620497,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,YUNGDURTY87,2019/09/13,Scared of withdrawal symptoms and depression I’ve been an alcoholic for about 7-8 years only 25M I want to stop or drastically cut down. I generally drink 12 light beers daily and once in a while I’ll have a couple more. I’m just super scared of the withdrawal symptoms and the bad depression that could follow. The longest I’ve made it sober was 2 days. I also do have prescribed generic Xanax which I know benzos or commonly used to fight withdrawal symptoms but I already take them daily as it is so would I maybe up my dose for withdrawal symptoms if I tried stopping?,3.556696428571428,5.7593612767857145,4.686928571428575,81.40807142857145,74.625,8.051428571428572,28.164285714285718,8.841846274778883,2.44389,461,19,85,10,10,151,81,112,0.166,0.759,0.075,-0.8647,0,0,3,0,1,0,6.0,0,0,1,1,4,8,2,2,6,0,8,9,0,2,0,17,15,11,0,4,5,0,0,0,0,1,7,0,0,0,4,3,3,2,1,2,0,1,0,7,0,0,3,1,9,1,11,10,1,10,0,2,0,0,2,3,0,3,6,50,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16700358155119907,0.0,0.0,0.17244625753474685,0.12496792235901605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13047773214515498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12476774083859755,0.17290820511741106,0.0,0.1007803026062446,0.0,0.2691877880154174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1530837106846693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08588112162435707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14786510335906544,0.0,0.0,0.15699278674499126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16642093150782086,0.0,0.11884929243885348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3129042081687729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2612950506113175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6496915312024929,0.11749451996217407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10609610416827968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1349658745239485,0.0,0.0,0.09217125386410782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11100871157350674,0.0,0.0,0.10063183834214247 alcoholism,unfxty,2019/09/13,HELP! Does anybody know of programs for college / university that pay well in the future and aren't the most expensive? Recently i've been dealing with substance abuse within my family and i need to start thinking about ME and not them.. growing up for 19 years and dealing with that shit has been rough and traumatic.. i need to focus on myself and my future. So if anybody knows please let me know.. thanks! 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Every joint feels the pain of the years of abuse. It’s been mostly hard at work. I was always amazed when I would come in semi people would take it as your in a good mood. When I’m trying to do the right thing I can barely function. Been fighting off tears trying to make it through the day. Trying not to lash out at others because I’m sick. Hopeful today goes well. Thanks.,1.356457516339869,3.6173831294117673,2.253333333333334,95.72888888888893,82.41176470588233,3.7777777777777786,17.6797385620915,3.1291,-0.8437712418300656,326,7,68,0,9,102,64,85,0.196,0.66,0.14400000000000002,-0.6412,0,0,0,0,3,0,9.0,0,1,0,1,4,9,1,0,5,0,9,2,0,1,0,9,18,4,0,3,1,0,2,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,3,1,0,3,2,4,5,13,11,1,14,0,1,0,0,2,7,0,2,6,43,10,1,0.0,0.2480984281165725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17423312890781567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1276450393964667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1803749559640125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2700844619972251,0.0,0.18035131127365306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17642402966793067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10587623020143584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10940006585406528,0.0,0.0,0.17563030365719068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18757648339950647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20797614148862395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13977255954578502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22281067850430025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14516788994066382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1788218929933395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1574387226023259,0.0,0.0,0.19278246713671124,0.0,0.0,0.13911250578103562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1984816509928249,0.0,0.0,0.4264956812976841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18827094396016028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15244180419846004,0.0,0.0,0.2974959130602765,0.0,0.0,0.13484329385584315 alcoholism,hopelessromantic_99,2019/09/13,I think I’m an alcoholic already at 20 I didn’t get drunk until I was 18 but I’ve gone through some rough shit with a girl and it was a stupid reason to start drinking in the first place but now I get drunk every night because it’s the only happiness I feel anymore but I just don’t know how to get out of this I can stop for a night but I’ll just feel worse if I do. I just wanna stop so I can lose weight honestly but I can’t because it’s the only way I can feel happiness anymore,-0.92832167832168,1.01473,1.6554545454545462,98.26472027972031,89.9090909090909,4.83916083916084,18.46153846153846,6.297961479604792,-0.25395804195804184,380,11,94,4,13,130,65,110,0.23800000000000002,0.645,0.11699999999999999,-0.9219,0,0,2,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,2,6,6,2,0,7,0,9,6,1,2,0,23,20,10,0,2,9,0,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,3,5,2,6,3,0,1,3,3,0,1,4,5,12,3,11,16,1,14,0,1,0,0,1,4,1,2,8,58,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17589442123252094,0.0,0.0,0.18162685123905215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3264539609285757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2006625243696601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16123349236526158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13867241265317326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2496617775757228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1399983920247093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25797116931781977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3504137810352839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09045321089886273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18413177114695886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3089092077761479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2503530440874748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1719593350252339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16922378338664076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16894712425239888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1164961697095631,0.0,0.0,0.2752057247593201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10546128685286638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13064222188932706,0.0,0.20042373393628815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16772914125898072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,SomeoneHelpMe1348,2019/09/13,Anybody else? Does anybody else get closed eye hallucinations when withdrawing from alcohol? 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I'm a minor and about three years back I had alcohol for the first time. Then I had a rough patch and kept myself from drinking but I had really bad cravings. Now I'm fine! But even talking about alcohol gets me flushed, sweaty, and antsy. Not sure where to ask this, but what's happening? If this is the wrong place to post I'll delete it",0.4462666666666699,2.756962160000004,1.8200000000000005,96.85666666666668,87.4,6.0,19.0,7.3871296695380915,0.35780000000000056,282,8,65,5,9,90,54,75,0.16,0.81,0.028999999999999998,-0.8973,0,0,3,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,6,4,0,0,4,0,4,4,0,0,1,12,10,9,0,1,7,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,3,3,1,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,2,4,1,5,2,6,6,0,9,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,6,40,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25578738883678565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5015081028736486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21935257077753928,0.0,0.0,0.18042025887322166,0.195910887980902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22985351755103056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1549745714059502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1995808835143777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.122587393443301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20748744669737326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2534466634380165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2451442157051612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.224716002764146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15031354494194427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2211412341166419,0.0,0.0,0.1885911715509048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13681787921188493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2565371460651933,0.0,0.1510976048144915 alcoholism,winterwritings,2019/09/13,Relapse Three years is a long time. I remember that day. The last day I used the last day I drank. My fiancé at the time was in Texas visiting family and I was home. I worked as a hostess at a fancy pizza restaurant. June fifth 2016 I got drunk off of vodka shots and a few Smirnoff ices with friends. I had fun. I was supposed to be sober. I relapsed. The next day I was hungover and had to work. So what else was there to do except snort some Adderall. I was angry at myself. My fiancé at the time was angry with me. That was a long time ago. Things are different now. I’m different now. What have I done.,-0.8604761904761915,1.2489179523809568,1.101920634920635,98.38335714285715,99.63492063492063,4.107301587301588,16.617460317460313,5.985473137389443,-0.4406082539682537,466,13,105,5,20,152,75,126,0.076,0.87,0.054000000000000006,-0.3818,2,0,2,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,10,0,16,3,0,1,0,9,20,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,5,5,3,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,13,1,16,2,14,6,2,25,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,1,18,71,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15191076782293989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4420825557373914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3580941294933087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17537285862122914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14315915564723258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1615540888971172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13240143376698588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13706168998296436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17189989624316274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2793817924470796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3033173146756551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822558619957543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19413085154465792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11385181442119525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3997131175587358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1480102192687358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24952143452801298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11035782571685243 alcoholism,Cany7,2019/01/06,"Is this a form of alcoholism? Hi everyone, I am concerned I may be putting myself at risk for alcoholism or if anything alcohol abuse. For reference: I'm female and weigh about 135lbs 5'6"" I drink heavily on the weekends or most times I have time off and don't have to work the next day. By ""heavily"" up to 6 drinks in a day. Usually, have my first drink in the afternoon and gradually over several hours into the evening. So, I have my first drink at like 1pm and my 6th by like 8pm. I drink a lot of water during this time and eat and snack a lot, so I stay hydrated and don't make myself sick. I never get ""trashed"" or ""drunk"". It's more like I get a buzz or tipsy and then maintain that buzz throughout the afternoon\evening . I do this regularly about twice a week, so like Friday and Saturday or Saturday and Sunday. Is this a problem?",2.4301972386587782,4.327085668639056,4.095124260355031,85.7697475345168,76.92899408284023,8.293648915187378,26.05956607495069,9.029198982220553,2.108549980276134,654,25,137,16,15,219,98,169,0.059000000000000004,0.8590000000000001,0.08199999999999999,0.3893,0,0,8,0,1,0,25.0,0,0,0,3,6,6,0,1,12,0,12,14,0,1,1,25,16,20,0,2,6,0,0,4,0,1,4,0,0,0,6,11,13,0,1,7,0,1,3,2,0,3,0,0,15,4,19,14,5,29,0,0,0,0,1,9,0,10,22,94,21,1,0.0,0.14657529736603522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3966228740270606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1018022173242938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15956453505859405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6059401115285508,0.0,0.12658550310819106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16341765848497414,0.0,0.0,0.11820954240256472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2104541433242495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12926601193046672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.121828746113331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2417524705584071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21034645450085612,0.0,0.0,0.08257692172644117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09541224247636404,0.0,0.13156624935153974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11837309760773065,0.0,0.12436202029510494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13975630223090138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318576591158603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21640767182171228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13624832197226758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0992321424653222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09006184743300936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Bokson1,2019/01/06,"Alcohol effect on teen brain Hey Im a 17 year old boy, 180cm and 60kg. Started drinking when I was 16, 162cm and around 50kg. Probally been drunk like 30 times in my life. Drank like 6-10 beers everytime. Had some vodka shots sometimes too. Had a blackout once. So I am really anxious about brain damage due to alcohol abuse. Do yall think I might have developed brain damage? Thanks in advance",0.5164886363636363,2.988865762500001,2.1438636363636405,92.64568181818186,91.375,5.40909090909091,21.022727272727273,6.980632752743323,0.7177500000000001,311,11,64,5,11,101,66,80,0.18600000000000005,0.7190000000000001,0.095,-0.8251,0,0,5,0,1,0,11.0,0,1,0,2,5,5,0,0,2,0,8,10,3,1,0,7,12,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,3,6,0,2,4,0,1,0,2,0,0,5,0,5,3,6,6,1,11,0,2,0,0,3,4,0,2,8,27,5,0,0.0,0.21596121285337044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3895843226860217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2059142370921875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1622597458105191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6104238192898556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1785560919933504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19688385122145935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1287433279619804,0.17809671100892596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1933606222218422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1912626496230228,0.19411256117993625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11676740667038825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18027058201655224,0.0,0.12901228206612608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16781055702677444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1167918337610523,0.0,0.0,0.106283628317625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11737648443531636 alcoholism,FooFrancine,2019/01/06,"Anyone else not bathing? I find it so hard to get through my work day that when I finally get off work and commute home, I don’t have the energy to shower. Anyone else feel this way?",2.503859649122809,3.835432894736844,3.6342105263157904,91.56780701754387,75.3157894736842,7.171929824561403,23.19298245614036,7.793537801064563,0.8728666666666669,142,4,32,2,3,46,31,38,0.051,0.8809999999999999,0.068,0.1515,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,5,3,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,4,5,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,18,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33618153031727543,0.4926290785307298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15503580229307942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4016407209616807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12155165218808488,0.0,0.0,0.26334252574498296,0.21971797116238168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2511944131132577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21534797211292933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2411372082637617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19081548730085926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3500229112351616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,RobertAntos1,2019/01/06,"Combating my alcohol addiction: Day 7 Hey everyone and happy new year 2019. I am new to this app having just signed up. First thing I did is search for this section so I could reach out to anyone willing to listen or give support. So as the title says I’m trying to tackle my alcohol addiction. I’m on day 7 now having started from day one of the new year. Cravings are kicking in. Hoping to meet some people on here. Thanks for listening and hoping this helps me out in some way, shape or form. Cheers, R.A ",1.7211071107110705,4.146924891089114,3.4126912691269133,86.9491179117912,82.26732673267327,6.445004500450046,22.05310531053105,7.686295010490155,1.177724752475248,398,13,77,7,11,132,70,101,0.0,0.794,0.20600000000000002,0.9656,0,0,2,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,5,6,0,0,2,0,8,4,0,0,0,13,18,7,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,4,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,6,6,17,15,4,21,0,0,0,0,7,9,0,6,11,52,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35335687271824606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34640358088054324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11332196672479955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12939839913437914,0.0,0.0,0.31356205699988376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15486326481905718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13785526560495318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15547074029913635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1725247845979868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10863100654231307,0.0,0.0,0.3219409032262498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4695799007058453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1098217161987794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11235779564047377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12888326611135195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11471282051894605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18391325617425808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14921077281254516,0.0,0.0,0.10767101803276614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11003377909622844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286423217960657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20873342253215774 alcoholism,mishy101,2019/01/06,"family member with stage 4 cirrhosis relapsing... what to do? A family member in her late 40s just got out of their her first stint in rehab (90 days) and came out to living alone for the first time in her life in a apartment and it appears she is drinking again... lying about it to everyone after 14 days out of rehab. She actually went to an AA meeting two days ago and was asked to take a breathalyzer because they suspected her of drinking. She declined very angrily and left, not to return. We found out about it and now no one knows how to handle getting her back into rehab. She says she's not drinking and that everyone riding her will drive her to drink... I wasn't helping with the last placement in rehab but I was around for the holidays this year during this relapse and have since done a lot of research regarding rehab programs. I have come to realize that that the aftercare part of her first release was nonexistent. I called a different and more comprehensive rehab program (as compared to her last rehab) that utilizes a sober house w/ outpatient intensive for months following a patient's release. My research leads me to believe that for someone in her situation to have a chance of success this part of the equation must be part of her aftercare plan. Am I misreading this? I understand that interventions are controversial, but she has stage 4 cirrhosis and is on the transplant list... a relapse appears to be potentially deadly, and quickly. Is my medical research about this accurate? She is livid at all of us for doubting her veracity about relapse, but she keeps lying about things... a hallmark of her drinking behavior in the past, and she recently smelled of alcohol or mouthwash (?). My family is out of their depth, as am I, and we could definitely use some advice regarding the use of a professional intervention specialist. Also, her children (teens) are not living with her and will not be involved in an intervention... and she is separated from her spouse. What should we do? The professional intervention specialist is ready to go but everyone is confused about the best plan of action. She claims her therapist says she should not return to rehab and there is a theoretical planned phone call between her therapist and my family today. She set it up, so let's see. Her therapist predates her stint in substance abuse and my family doesn't know him. But he does exist because I spoke with him briefly once before. I'm really confused on how to proceed. Help? ​ ​",6.517243131868131,8.131826995604403,6.864323489010992,71.17395776098903,65.85714285714286,10.34684065934066,35.317651098901095,10.481140341803084,4.135583791208791,2013,96,328,53,32,652,220,455,0.079,0.858,0.063,-0.544,1,1,6,0,1,0,68.0,4,0,3,9,17,5,0,3,24,0,35,16,0,5,2,69,56,29,1,4,12,1,0,0,0,5,11,3,0,1,18,33,6,1,6,6,0,11,8,3,1,5,10,5,56,2,70,36,8,61,0,0,1,0,56,23,0,8,24,255,74,9,0.0,0.09153984502974792,0.07539410337776965,0.0,0.0,0.07549706539426917,0.06848586355439465,0.08256688331554989,0.0,0.08001751648872167,0.0,0.06178437472875557,0.0,0.16742121908009944,0.18775743866374325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06877731324905087,0.07222718042869981,0.0,0.0,0.05940776779792021,0.0,0.0941933184653508,0.0,0.06574212331114626,0.08704497219354006,0.08107905311726872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15778112544116707,0.08836425793371269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06655219721277378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06168540461036171,0.0,0.0,0.14947791074608593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08071970816674744,0.0,0.0,0.06761028774491952,0.07906326746157055,0.0,0.3784243655198943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2214742194698552,0.0,0.0,0.3641667884187906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19715061144642385,0.0,0.08471102723110192,0.0,0.0,0.04036488723668945,0.0,0.04390834043200277,0.0,0.0617914604292491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10357079587722803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08914706179315983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06867177177677349,0.0,0.0,0.08491957456604529,0.1259535686068959,0.08715205366905726,0.0,0.08394264630370933,0.07900304829639425,0.05457065245440795,0.0,0.0,0.1364430648379899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06568324333492749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07783079356361601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06166777633003453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08227882004350168,0.05235302016133034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2509934495999364,0.07375291155747445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04949439841491461,0.0,0.07628441150798998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12287967193979628,0.0,0.0,0.06156579923967319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0639098365983822,0.08684288762588012,0.0,0.0,0.06546170296418936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05808951059507215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2691126178551521,0.05132776260441484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04505062152989701,0.0,0.07323294916078532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07547128142583867,0.08042983880722643,0.09293363644526406,0.13345476198645026,0.0,0.06374715864150148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07162030791599812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18775743866374325,0.049752569238628384 alcoholism,Soberisminthecity,2019/01/06,"How do you deal with all the booze marketing? Persuasive and pervasive How did us ladies all suddenly go from cava to prosecco? Why are all the men donning beards and drinking over-priced, amusingly-named beer out of tiny, stylishly-illustrated cans? We're manipulated by the advertising industry and we don't even realise. It’s no accident that ‘I fancy a drink’ pops into our heads as we go about our otherwise sober days. Once we notice the pervasive, insidious power of alcohol marketing, it all starts to feel a tad sinister. Even those who don’t describe themselves as alcoholic, or having a problem with alcohol, can find themselves drinking when they hadn’t planned to thanks to the pusher marketeers. But, for those of us struggling with our alcohol (ab)use, this mental product placement mixes with our addictive voices. This spells double trouble for our resolve. No wonder we were all fucked until we stopped. The mindset of lack The problem with all this ever-present alcohol and drinking malarkey is we can feel like we’re *giving up* something pleasurable. But, for those of us who stopped for January because we were sick of it, it was never that nice. The first 30 minutes may or may not give us a bit of relaxation. But then, if you’re anything like me, you’re locked into throating the grog for whatever is left of the day. And probably the next… and the next… as you try and drink your way to a better state of mind over and over again. When I was a drinker, if I was forced to stop after a couple of bevvies by circumstances beyond my control (moving on from a pub midway on a walk, for example), I’d spend the rest of the time until I could drink again in a foul mood. There’d be descending dehydration and a headache in the post. My addictive voice would be chuntering on about possible pub stops, the likelihood of coming across a tearoom that sells booze (you’d be surprised how many places now do), or even better, an off licence just past that field of friesians. Despite this alcohol-isn’t-very-nice scenario playing out in various versions throughout my pisshead life, when I’ve stopped in the past I’ve felt left out, deprived and sulky. No wonder my scarce sober stints ended in a sozzled me. That’s what I am giving up. [Gaining a life not giving up drink](https://soberism.co.uk/2019/01/06/gaining-life-not-lack/)",7.173706299757702,8.146353637850469,6.582876427829699,76.10051055728626,64.02336448598129,9.892142609899619,35.711664935963995,9.906371001090498,3.6090978539286946,1879,85,322,38,27,580,231,428,0.13,0.7979999999999999,0.07200000000000001,-0.9711,1,0,16,0,1,0,73.0,16,4,1,8,16,18,1,1,32,0,27,22,2,5,7,71,42,30,0,7,11,0,3,2,0,3,10,2,0,1,19,28,14,6,7,11,2,5,9,6,0,1,8,5,31,11,63,26,12,57,0,1,0,1,29,24,1,9,27,220,50,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14372979236472522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4227045114873767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05424832928251811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04018554319078964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1166056051698611,0.07196993635286135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05678611262686676,0.0,0.0,0.07393731954716838,0.05263348890554012,0.07294162765595849,0.0,0.08502869256861308,0.06796286301986902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4520504109194798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05838747621203474,0.0,0.0,0.130622915410047,0.059630377216185214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0666644601584973,0.04709481168502251,0.06329562153311556,0.0,0.06025166943841945,0.056073364441344434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060943984252427426,0.0,0.2529542108530341,0.07493017719787459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06765516534741313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14324926198784502,0.0,0.13968833545000514,0.06441248517179933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0668347338625707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06643404267417483,0.0,0.06656259977651721,0.0,0.0,0.0700648344336413,0.0,0.0,0.05084324176312496,0.0,0.14021795212087196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07505282789675838,0.0,0.07020495997837929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12586034173664312,0.0,0.0,0.0688746372191142,0.0,0.0,0.07431734210536392,0.063135216644576,0.0,0.0710752493652735,0.12615722812323088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050750107417560086,0.0,0.0,0.04666005148824928,0.0,0.0,0.2755694311483598,0.0,0.06891616570964249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06069227755484353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03843974767546908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044756826437099946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3964812708687056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05232595041616109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05948450522228215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14297956343199064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04682921843219731,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,inrilatasanasurimbor,2019/01/06,"I'm drink I wanted to change that to ""drunk"" but fuck it! I love you all and I want to stop. Please send positive vibes. God help",-2.145,-0.5047683571428561,-0.34171428571428564,107.4867142857143,107.57142857142857,3.6685714285714286,9.17142857142857,5.6839178017228535,-1.8208228571428573,98,1,26,1,5,31,23,28,0.16699999999999998,0.354,0.478,0.9329999999999999,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,6,5,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,1,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,3,5,1,2,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,0,1,12,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3864653365141217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3578793516088691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3377370118312615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2448696004499761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3297200133569954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4010170690887082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30542800038341955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.430956218951476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Dredd3Dwasprettygood,2019/01/06,"I can't tell if I have a problem with alcohol I've been drinking heavily for 4 years. People in my life tell me I drink too much or I'm an alcoholic because of the amount I drink, not because of my actions under the influence. Because of this I'll occasionally take a break for one or two days. I crave it but I don't get any physical symptoms. I go back to drinking because I kind of feel like Instead of living I'm just waiting to die. Is this depression or alcoholism and depression ? 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Any thoughts? Please give me some encouragement or ideas. I'm so stuck with my nightly bar drinking. (7 to 10 drinks a night, every night). I suppose I must go to a meeting and try. I can't afford rehab and I'm not changing on my own, clearly. Any free rehab in Ohio or real support from the state? Addiction rules me though I'm somehow functional, to a degree. This bullshit could go on for years if I don't stop it. So frustrated. And I'm truly terrified of sobriety, though I know there isn't a reason to be. I wouldn't wish addiction on anybody. I feel so out of control and insane in a way. I'm such a good faker, to my own detriment. 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So for the last year my wife has been hiding alcohol around the house and drinking when she thinks I'm not looking. The longest she has gone without a drink that I know is 4 days. She drinks every night to ""unwind"" and if she doesn't, I have noticed she makes a cash withdrawal to hide her spending in the liquor shop. I have asked her to stop and to seek help as her drinking and subsequent binge eating has made her put on 30kgs and it contributes to poor self image. I have tried everything from organising and trying to take her to a counselor to getting her family involved to help (they are mostly useless) ok only her sister is any help. I have begged her to stop, tried motivating her physically to get out and about to get endorphins flowing. Her mother is an alcoholic and she hates the childhood she has and that she has to even talk to her mother, taking her mother to the hospital after she collapsed and pissed and shit herself still wasn't enough to wake her up. Any ideas on what I do next?. Just to add we have 2 kids and she can hold down a job, but dodges most of her responsibilities elsewhere.",5.10702702702703,6.0902608738738735,5.3838018018018055,82.82381081081084,68.63963963963964,8.442522522522522,27.86306306306307,8.648137234880735,1.892217657657658,902,29,178,14,15,286,132,222,0.077,0.8759999999999999,0.047,-0.6868,1,0,7,0,0,0,20.0,1,0,1,1,7,5,3,0,12,1,20,12,3,3,0,32,34,17,0,1,5,6,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,4,16,9,3,4,7,4,3,4,4,0,0,4,1,35,1,31,30,3,21,0,1,1,0,41,7,2,3,11,125,39,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3891280893946241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650737435333579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10804648475513913,0.11346609194862507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07827466181168348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4755919707658275,0.0,0.1241934799912394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254093405323568,0.0,0.08016481824906366,0.0,0.10226083467070064,0.0,0.10908099674840246,0.0,0.11441837284553075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1902350048628308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11982935894771565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24405853956459195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14004656765409498,0.0,0.13701379911566106,0.0,0.0,0.12044261680422495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06670267480163403,0.09893407933122593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1019216026485221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11484477283622788,0.08101650682231486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12908010755700486,0.1138990546867467,0.0,0.0,0.13818240747118826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0923085953468123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12201201322389675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12661708233934926,0.0,0.12458623608485647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09692754209271846,0.2029442380181967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1825127247473736,0.09755392032125217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07777004101019742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24721011324274364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1169979220856472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07815935167901676 alcoholism,AltheaGarcia,2019/01/06,"I don't know how to do anything sober I've been drinking more than half my life, I'm 48. I don't know how to do anything sober. How to have fun with friends, how to clean my fucking house, how to just be alone with myself. I keep picking up various hobbies and then I discover that they're more fun when I'm drunk. I'm so tired of feeling like this. How do I get better?",1.1023809523809511,2.5484074567901267,2.616684303350969,96.91222222222223,79.37037037037038,5.616225749559083,23.917107583774253,6.1826913282559595,0.3128292768959437,288,10,70,2,7,94,50,81,0.08800000000000001,0.685,0.22699999999999998,0.8994,0,1,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,9,6,1,0,0,0,8,5,0,7,0,15,17,10,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,2,0,1,0,2,3,2,1,3,2,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,1,8,5,10,15,3,3,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,3,43,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28290992695890754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44957250267483134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2415865817227171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26759143324273044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1381171945261198,0.1951445568210195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21104165503191485,0.252530722012196,0.1427140931254212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3151883468422675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2427959125705193,0.0,0.0,0.3002416432312993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19293999585893826,0.13345149309290905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3139556248746808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,hopefullyhelpfultou,2019/01/06,Please checkout my website I made a website where people can share their stories and advice about addictions[Here](http://handstoaddicts.com),19.755000000000006,22.73444005555555,11.752222222222226,42.86500000000001,37.33333333333334,9.422222222222222,45.77777777777778,8.841846274778883,4.8140444444444475,123,5,11,1,1,31,17,18,0.0,0.757,0.243,0.5423,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5196773539976114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5032102963184578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3686892251632669,0.0,0.0,0.5837663065556636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,azolal11,2018/12/04,"How can one person story help another? what one person can do to help those suffering from alcohol addiction I had to share this. one youth, through her personal experience trying to start a conversation most of us go out of our way to avoid. drinking is fun, but how often do you talk about the potential cost of drinking, short term or long term. please take a look at this blog. 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Gut feeling... My dad was an alcoholic growing up. He has been sober for a long time now, approximately 10 years. Tonight he came home from a Christmas function and I had this horrible gut feeling that he had been drinking. His words weren’t slurred, I don’t know how to explain it but it just came over me all of a sudden. He slightly stumbled a couple of times and there was just something about him that made me think he’s had a few drinks. I don’t know if I should trust this gut feeling... maybe he’s just tired. 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Would you guys consider my situation alcoholism?; I can go for weeks without a drink, but once I have 1 drink, I will literally not stop until I run out of money, everywhere is closed, I black out or get punched in the face. The stuff literally lights my brain up like a Christmas tree after only a couple of drinks and I could no longer give a shit about anything. I become absolutely fucking insane after 6-7 drinks to the point that I have zero control over what I am doing (e.g. at the weekend, I nearly got arrested for throwing glasses off the wall of a nightclub). I always tell myself that this is the last time, but in a couple of weeks time, I find myself in the same situation again. Some very dangerous situations at times. I know that I have a serious problem with alcohol, but I just can't seem to stop this binge drink spiral. All of my friends drink (most of them more than me), but they don't seem to go on like such an idiot as I do. The culture in the country I live in (UK) is heavily focused on drinking and everyone does it. I struggle to stop for these reasons. I think that I am becoming a joke and my life feels like it is on a spiral. I have completely lost all self respect and I don't know what to try next. I need help :( ​",5.035568181818181,5.145905814393942,6.131363636363638,80.49204545454549,68.50757575757576,9.327272727272726,30.893939393939394,9.188382445141503,2.4688757575757583,1021,38,210,18,16,342,153,264,0.14400000000000002,0.726,0.13,-0.7808,0,0,9,0,0,0,39.0,0,1,2,2,4,14,4,1,19,0,20,14,3,2,2,38,35,11,0,5,8,0,1,3,1,2,3,0,0,2,12,8,9,4,8,9,1,4,6,8,0,1,2,3,34,6,38,30,6,42,0,1,1,1,12,19,2,5,22,144,46,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1807406323379752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07036177815793038,0.09162213646749397,0.10275123883673486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0695867472762506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18678263103119547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0943983802461917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08866091734583638,0.0,0.09484269170424424,0.06751531962694851,0.1871309467681342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07400016610090343,0.0,0.0,0.5798651887868593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616038976165898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042756735577956,0.06041061175692958,0.0,0.0,0.07728749898173579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06533185293180375,0.07817556201768816,0.04417979067665942,0.08111890714377236,0.09611627441793803,0.0,0.067631398828434,0.0,0.0,0.08372898467576807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11335931784573065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09294536131563222,0.0689287481890078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059728149081340214,0.12393714386323992,0.0,0.07466917978090028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09230865132057058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254022693992218,0.0,0.0,0.08993190506396741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1774657255053968,0.09005502790901802,0.0,0.06431268140717633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07993776396040744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08091374671433994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08694310314564724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15396286869537545,0.08821588116038845,0.0,0.08680096234744973,0.0,0.2851513426437142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21209110712901505,0.0,0.08840183411935104,0.09680246081663592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07391030600934442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05418346852446807,0.0,0.0,0.14792512740393532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0574115739849918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06977193094827829,0.0,0.0,0.1356599532094361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0815140785116032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06006992346648704,0.0,0.10275123883673486,0.10890941335719596 alcoholism,AsSeenOnScreens,2018/12/04,"Thinking of Going to Al-Anon Because of Ex-girlfriend Tomorrow Hi All, ​ I ended a relationship at the beginning of the year with a woman I loved very much but had major reservations about her frequent daily use of alcohol and pot. We were together for a year and a half which I know isn't a long time comparatively but we lived together for almost a full year of that and that year was painfully tumultuous for much of it. As I look into reentering the dating scene I realize just how damaged I was during our relationship. Over the Thanksgiving break I had some talks with friends who had been going to Al-Anon because of close family members with serious problems and the more they talked about the meetings the more it made sense to me to check one out. ​ I just worry that given my situation that I might come off seeming like a tourist. I mean I'm aware having an immediate family members with a drinking problem has to be so much harder and I haven't seen my ex in months but I still feel haunted by that relationship. Am I being too self-conscious or should I skip the meeting and just go to counseling and try to figure out things on my own?",6.880246153846152,7.028286884444448,7.260444444444445,73.83569230769234,64.6,10.47863247863248,34.641025641025635,10.214889679676881,3.5163128205128213,939,39,170,20,13,307,139,225,0.113,0.8420000000000001,0.045,-0.9446,0,0,2,0,0,0,20.0,3,0,1,0,9,8,0,0,17,0,16,4,0,3,1,42,33,14,0,3,7,1,1,1,1,2,2,0,0,1,10,18,2,0,7,1,1,4,2,5,0,2,10,3,23,3,33,19,10,28,0,1,2,1,18,10,0,5,14,128,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12336359966223773,0.11559025113823833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25014489364492537,0.28052934259853524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14073471546223176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09943597582849176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11308115325612775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10224006195767774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2176413791717763,0.0,0.058366784961113326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08918384810340013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1968110232592505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06343938380365273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05639511160661676,0.0,0.10193013803751348,0.10215525825336634,0.09693529813506946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1041834886377694,0.10922622883516347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1257412213825494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12245699326787825,0.0,0.0,0.09213813778297313,0.0,0.2545713194857706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0782209132880651,0.0,0.12282967512687168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.220909065719635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3717980229145008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10508657323423168,0.12042260233959765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1297523994171903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0921855617072501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1855625913418172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0766890707656989,0.0739653019124634,0.0,0.0,0.06731036240897488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07837195585129507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0996977188045022,0.0,0.09524495345429006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1172286016491446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28052934259853524,0.2973422654342099 alcoholism,stairwaytoMARS9,2018/12/04,"How bad is drinking a pint of vodka a night? ( 80 proof of course) I've been consuming around a pint of vodka a night for about 5-6 months, im wandering how bad this habit is for me. As i cant find a answer online anywhere. I drink at night so that i can sleep and be relaxed. Also how likely will i experience withdraw symptoms if i quit? im talking physical symptoms not mental cravings.. There's times where i consume a fifth a night, but mostly its a pint or a little more. I dont get hangovers oddly enough.",1.5991509433962283,3.540589858490569,3.572301886792456,88.33071698113207,79.66037735849056,5.749433962264153,23.807547169811322,6.742157984588678,0.8109049056603777,399,14,82,4,10,135,73,106,0.055999999999999994,0.92,0.024,-0.4137,0,0,4,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,9,4,0,0,9,0,8,5,1,3,1,13,9,10,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,2,2,0,2,5,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,8,2,9,6,3,10,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,3,7,52,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12390010388644075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379234846026792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2587256675550477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18158067350053192,0.30355130019146004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1600875149908471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1515544965887352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416062291778032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08094625451736802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3347091009765247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07569258430649832,0.15528386885322915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15613632551280787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236662817626764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5815776256283998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.164790635470414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15504519079152002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3220700428181602,0.0,0.1245295176224532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09034285306289754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,justanotherone129,2018/12/04,Don't Know What to Think 19 and my friends already consider me a drunk. Honestly it has gotten to the point where I believe them. I spend a hundred dollars worth of beer a week just on myself and a 1.75L of Jim beam each week. Not to mention I'm already pretty thin. I don't know what to think at this point every night I find myself with a drink in my hand. It's the only thing that quiets everything...,2.3446428571428584,3.9230270357142882,3.5590476190476217,90.91928571428572,76.26190476190476,6.2285714285714295,23.904761904761905,6.868970318607317,0.7193761904761904,317,10,68,3,7,103,59,84,0.028999999999999998,0.795,0.17600000000000002,0.9001,0,0,2,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,7,0,3,4,1,0,0,11,9,2,0,0,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,7,4,3,0,5,3,3,0,3,0,0,0,1,3,10,2,10,8,1,10,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,0,3,43,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4707147128193622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24029104616578106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20893104884499172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1796957455703871,0.0,0.1916803349140007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1949320458613872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16477789965646725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2344238029860895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20014676799388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1622073779938858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4032329180187149,0.0,0.0,0.21698019792586834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14169229379659698,0.273319605641182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34215717378595306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Sweetbabyjeebus81,2018/12/04,"Co worker on a spiraling path because of me, looking for any ideas or suggestions to help my long time friend I was about 18 at the time and I had gained a new job, about six months in I gained a very good older friend that was a coworker and somewhat of a mentor. I had some knowledge about alcoholism but not a large amount. But I really enjoyed my drinking. We would spend time repairing a project car and hanging out. He had his no alcohol drinks and I would have the odd one. He had a responsible girlfriend who kept him sober for a few years at that point. But I could see the resentment inside. One day, we headed out to go fishing for a day, and near the spot, he snuck a drink of Kahlua in the pick up and mixed it into his coffee, I was aware he shouldn't be doing it but my thought at the time was it wasn't my responsibility . I had a few beers that day too while fishing and he had some of the non alcohol ones. Then his lady decided to go on a trip far far away, and things got worse. He invited me over and he had already been drinking 7% drinks. I wanted to have a drink so I had some as well. My thought at the time was it's his choice and I'm just there doing it too. I regret it cause he's a great friend and I didn't know it but I sent him down a very bad path by just simply doing it and not caring about his disease. We would go out and play pool and get pretty liquored up on the weekends. His step daughter had caught him and gave him and I heck which was fair. He tried to stop at that point because the gf was coming home from the trip soon. She came back and we kept it on the very low, the daughter never said anything about it. Several weeks after we decided to go out for a night and drive too. I didn't think we would have as much as we did. He didn't have his license (banned for life from drunk driving fines) we borrowed his GFS truck (she would let him drive it occasionally) and we went and played pool and got wayyy to smashed. I'm lucky I made it home, and so is he. We drove back and the next day she found him on the kitchen floor passed out with her keys in his hands. They fought really bad. Occasionally we would go out, eventually the resentment grew so bad between them they split up and she found someone else. My only thought was he wasn't happy with her, and he's responsible for his own drinking, I'm just doing it too. The reality was I'm the responsible one, and I enabled his drinking addiction again. He would come over several nights a week and come and drink and being the enabler I am I did it too, and I started to resent it. I like to drink but not that much, but I just couldn't say no. We would go out fishing and play pool the odd time but more and more it was just about drinking . Eventually things changed in our work relationship and we didn't have the same days off. I started a more serious relationship so our days hanging were cut down significantly. The odd time but not a whole lot. Lately (three years after it started) I've been seeing his drinking, and he's a great guy, but I'm worried about him. I've cut my habit down to only really weekends but he asks me to go out (and others) to drink and most of us decline most of the time. I like dont mind having the odd few with him but he can't just have a few. I'm watching him spiral downwards and I'm worried about him. He doesn't have much for family, and his friends including me have been stepping back due to his drinking. I want to see him get on a better path, but the more I include myself in his life the worse things get. I'm a trigger for him, and everything we enjoyed doing together is now a trigger like fishing or pool, gaming and working on cars. TL;DR I enabled a friend with previous alcohol addiction to start again without fully understanding how bad things can really get. 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I am hoping for guidance or just shared experiences with a happy ending. It’s a long one. He wasn’t always this way. I’m the one that has always enjoyed a few beers anywhere I go, family events, birthdays, BBQ’s I show up with a 6 pack or a punch to share with everyone. He would have 1 or 2 with me, but that would be it, it used to be a rare occasion that one of us would over-do-it. Close family friends of mine opened a bar a few blocks away and, he has become an everyday whiskey drinker. I noticed red flags that started about 2 years ago, but they have gotten progressively worse. He lies about where he has been if he comes home obviously buzzed or drunk, when I ask him if he had been drinking he lies about that as well (this is a few times a week). He hit a stop sign while driving home drunk and did about $7,000 worth of damage last year, I covered for him, told my insurance and our friends that I side swiped a tree in my yard while moving brush. He has lost a fantastic paying job because he had a 3 day hangover and wasn't able to function. He hasn’t contributed to bills in months and our our financial situation is dire, I am about to lose my home 12 years into a 30 year mortgage. The icing on this shit show, he recently stole my debit card out of my purse and spent about $200 at the bar a few nights ago (of course he denied it was him). Besides him ruining his own life and our financial future, we’ve got a 6 year old who has seen more of this than anyone should. He’s depressed and lately when I confront him, he threatens suicide, so I feel like I can’t even be mad at him. I got the name of a therapist this evening, which I am setting up an appointment to see, but I am terrified that even after all this, he won’t want to change or even go see her and I’ll have lost everything, my best friend is gone, is my family, home, credit, and everything else next? ​",3.992814280626779,4.398980266826925,4.800138888888891,88.09023148148151,70.85096153846155,8.374501424501425,26.705484330484328,8.401726058763845,1.4693877492877483,1565,47,352,23,27,507,222,416,0.17800000000000002,0.716,0.107,-0.9892,2,0,4,0,0,1,53.0,5,0,1,6,18,23,3,0,24,0,36,10,2,2,3,51,60,27,1,9,13,1,1,1,3,5,1,0,5,0,20,21,7,3,1,10,6,6,6,9,1,3,17,6,41,14,43,34,8,54,0,6,4,0,42,17,1,8,30,211,61,3,0.08875093309875781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15734469453433705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14769577205436474,0.0961615989327559,0.10784209798870416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062056715984629876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08297014195202458,0.0,0.0833844231483486,0.0,0.0,0.054101745060623985,0.09801843280089374,0.0,0.0,0.09313862878970236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09388671926471598,0.0764510703199047,0.0,0.0,0.09954171811527507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057237009667193264,0.0,0.0764410486299439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08694212660366941,0.0,0.0,0.14828003266603132,0.0,0.0786069840529305,0.0,0.0,0.234476617126978,0.0,0.0,0.08480531991354527,0.15952723195192325,0.08681544253944792,0.2509994432842117,0.0,0.0448751384418984,0.06340368433902753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20570625226767564,0.0,0.04636869948442311,0.0,0.10087840109215987,0.0,0.14196445750222114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09447701860052282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3560976888272993,0.08814970200730929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08807160660688408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07234385590473437,0.100114918253944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06268740872456527,0.043359222929262496,0.0,0.0,0.07854178296340851,0.0,0.09928959252802212,0.19376425498354471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0708401480661367,0.09432819639258944,0.0,0.06580769233373898,0.0,0.0,0.09438762420791268,0.08328673856009451,0.0,0.0,0.10104352557015968,0.09312917477325493,0.0,0.18041978747976065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.087630839442676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.141446006115332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09110155744069623,0.0,0.09975976732133246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06281836724584652,0.0,0.0,0.07419975407427996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09707911595070684,0.0,0.08364670412142916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1030466738052288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051751382805983584,0.0,0.0,0.08480531991354527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1067564449036351,0.07665231067077358,0.0,0.0,0.05234759979903427,0.07044635967789617,0.07119064515806438,0.0,0.07979774741436263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09044478303197112,0.18913834945406607,0.0,0.10784209798870416,0.28576345550979426 alcoholism,brahah,2018/12/04,"I think I need help before it eats up more of me I guess I should start off by saying that this is only a new problem in my life. None of my parents are actual alcoholics. Alcohol was never a problem in my life either, I’ve had sips and in high school I can handle myself. But recently things have changed. I quit smoking cigarettes and I’m trying to completely get rid of cannabis. I guess the only reason I can come up with is that alcohol has turned into a replacement for them. My problem isn’t so much the large quantities but at least right now it’s the dependency. I never thought I’d be craving it. I was wondering if what are things I can do to get my mind off it? I’m pretty much out of my zone TL;DR: I began having a dependancy on alcohol and I’m sort of looking for replacements and to rid cravings. 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Dont know how much I drink after I have blacked out. Nou Im 3 nights clean and Im fucked. Havent slept in 3 days. 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I'm depressed right now, but I don't drink and haven't done it this year. Even on the new year's eve party I could hold on to not getting drunk as I usually do at a party. Many times I've blacked out, fell and lost my stuff. Not anymore! Whatever life makes me want to go through I'm not drinking. I'm not hiding anymore. No more feeling sick the next day. No more wasted money of drinks. No more acting like a fool. 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I have been drinking on average 750ml vodka a day lately (depends on the day. Work days usually half a fifth). I get really bad withdrawl symptoms if I don't drink. I will hallucinate if I don't sleep drunk. Tho I'm very high functioning with work and such and my roommates have said they new I drank alot (I have been open with my drinking problem), But they say I seem rather coherent and am suprisingly nice / helpful considering the amount I drink.. But If I don't drink I obviously become cranky and on edge. I am currently attempting to taper. I have beer for withdrawals. My anxiety is rising but I'm trying to wait a bit longer to have a beer. I'm resisting the urge to go pick up a 750ml.. Sorry if this post is all over the place. My mind is jumbled. I desperately need support and guidance.",2.010737704918032,4.517147819672137,3.711833333333335,84.74775000000002,81.73224043715847,7.375846994535519,26.089890710382512,8.395991825355821,2.076410054644809,733,31,144,17,20,244,107,183,0.067,0.8690000000000001,0.065,-0.0845,2,0,9,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,2,3,4,5,0,0,11,0,17,11,1,2,2,30,32,15,1,8,10,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,2,10,9,1,1,9,0,4,3,2,0,1,4,3,22,3,15,26,4,22,0,0,1,0,5,8,0,8,8,87,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09770615474643686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1066416338764083,0.0,0.1410577223878269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1394381659737738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11002026399813056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2471082832862033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325541511516764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6255893921084952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06672890957810426,0.0,0.07258674256244584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08560864090240758,0.13494416508257825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14407476167907113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10725340605046887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12896172076321255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09470344435165703,0.0,0.12335366108956043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13344117811715256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446426734105775,0.0,0.0,0.1222116720208752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08182129228022532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1214918433803436,0.10156880248143957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11627232934115027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12781315921945965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1429731140556207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2898723744934069,0.0,0.13275094007232874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08671412133251956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14066654987308472,0.10538313559274287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1859647028339356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,throw_me_away_1977,2019/01/03,"No withdrawals? Background: 30, male, 205 LBS ... run 4-6 miles per day on average, so physically pretty healthy. In the last couple months, I've increased my alcohol intake a little. Im roughly up to 6-8 standard drinks a day (all at night after work, around 8 PM) - definitely starting to cut back though. Each morning though, and throughout the day (all the way up to 24 hours since last drink), I don't experience any withdrawal symptoms whatsoever - no shakes, no sweats, no nausea, no itching, no headache - I've taken the CIWA protocol and scored no higher than 4. Has anyone else experienced this? Also, do people only experience seizures if they are exhibiting serval withdrawal symptoms (vs. it just coming out of nowhere)? Gracias!",5.000512820512824,7.701243846153848,5.608846153846155,74.1453205128205,72.07692307692308,8.025641025641027,32.371794871794876,8.841846274778883,3.227025641025641,580,28,91,12,12,187,100,130,0.14800000000000002,0.7709999999999999,0.081,-0.6414,0,0,3,0,0,0,36.0,0,0,1,1,7,2,1,1,6,0,4,7,2,0,2,12,7,7,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,2,6,3,0,0,2,0,4,8,2,0,0,1,2,3,0,13,6,4,25,0,0,0,0,2,9,0,1,11,47,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17073785601872374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12776226076415864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10864418872864168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1117098708346764,0.16369587787924214,0.0,0.14222277183447427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12284773867399702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1376215137250346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1767745095978184,0.0,0.3091013851813681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3130134612793084,0.0,0.0,0.13346132673687233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3125573668751347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15733418525493595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1725712493279827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26045602544620433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16012430597376473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12752115004502487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14992657376671378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1215068155537199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11075941585753918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1625362126819034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13215744668007484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11308093861777745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33210946160764826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3139322976782904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1268122815641752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11630922783400753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,QuesadillaQueef,2019/01/03,"53 hours 22 minutes in. Im on mobile, forgive me. Was drinking 6-12 beers a night for 2 months with periodic breaks in between, usually only 2 or 3 days a week sober just because I felt awful. I went cold turkey almost 54 hours ago and the withdrawals set in 24 hours into it. Crazy Mood swings, incredible depression, thoughts I never imagined before, thinking horrible things, considering quitting my dream job which is insane, topped with the worst insomnia. Its crazy how one moment my brain says “this is fine, you’re over thinking and it’s going to be okay” then 5 minutes later I’m having a conversation in my head with my boss about quitting. That can’t happen. I need to get it together. It’s 2:30am PST and I just bought 1 beer at the store to help me sleep. I have no intentions of going back but I also had no idea the withdrawals would be so intense after 2 months of heavy drinking. I could handle this if I could just sleep. They are minor. I wish I could do this cold turkey like I intended but the lack of sleep is making me an insane moody bitch. I have hot/cold chills, zero hand shakes or DT’s but I feel better now after this one can and am not craving more beer. This one was enough to let me sleep. 32/f I do not have a family. I have a wonderful job and a golden retriever puppy who my heart is aching for because we have not been on walks, just for her to go to the bathroom. She doesn’t deserve this and is wondering why we aren’t playing yet is faithfully at my side sticking it out with me. I have sustained long term sobriety before. This is why I got her, I was in a good place. She is my life. I want to give her the best life I can. I live in an amazing place in Tahoe alone. We go hiking and she has more pup friends than I could wish for. I’m not in need of medical attention. I have a background in the medical field and know that I’m okay. *What can I do to speed this up?* Continue with another beer tomorrow before bed and maybe a 3rd night if needed? Surely just one is far better than what I was doing before and I have the ability to stop thankfully now that I see how serious this has become. I didn’t even realize that I haven’t eaten or showered since my at home detox started. Food sounds awful. So does a shower. I slightly saw moving objects in my room but that very well could have been the sleep deprivation. So far my plan tmw is to wake when my dog does (I work from home) and take her on a hike because she deserves it then back to bed. Would love advice on how to deal. I know I need to eat and attend AA. So if there is any advice outside of those two areas I’m already planning on tackling I would love to hear them. I had no idea it was possible to get addicted so fast. 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I’ve been full blackout drunk 3 times and partial way more times than I can count. I have a history of alcoholism in my family and apparently my drinking behavior is getting to be too much even for high school parties. My friends have approached the school counselor about my drinking who has subsequently talked to me and my parents. I’m scared because once I start drinking it’s hard to stop until I blackout. I’m tired of waking up in the morning with almost no recollection of the night before or how I got where I am, wearing someone else’s clothes thinking “not again”. Even my dad (who has been drinking for 40+ years and drinks more than average I’d say (although he can control it he’s not an alcoholic)) told me that I’ve been way worse than he ever has been. Is this a problem or normal hardcore youth drinking? 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Sorry if this is not the right place for this question. Im a 22 yr old university student and i love getting myself drunk and playing video games because i (genuinely) find it fun. My family is concerned that this is a huge sign of alcoholism. I have never let alcohol interfere with school/my 2 part time jobs, a steady girlfriend, and having many friends. You could say that i might have a bit of a tolerance to alcohol, but have gone multiple months without drinking to deal with my school schedule (so i don't think im addicted) Now that you have more information, i want to know if this is normal behaviour, why i like it so much, or any other general comments you may have. Tldr; i drink alone to play video games, family is concerned, i never let it interfere with life, am i an alcoholic?",3.7515512708150713,5.82666992638037,4.949487291849255,80.31443251533744,73.66257668711657,9.074320771253287,29.43426818580193,9.606745405546679,3.0083728308501305,670,29,125,18,14,221,102,163,0.044000000000000004,0.828,0.128,0.9038,1,2,8,0,0,0,22.0,0,3,0,0,3,6,0,0,8,0,20,12,0,0,2,30,26,10,0,5,7,0,0,1,2,2,7,1,0,0,11,7,9,2,5,10,0,1,6,0,0,0,1,1,17,6,11,19,4,11,0,0,0,1,13,3,0,6,8,85,28,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11881207640514732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5823705706074208,0.0,0.2257556292056351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07411499670716354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06643755270794131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1189857361670878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0870173678320747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11236096206608027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3202977341469792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2054867635559951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09961227710800023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08420319875740652,0.0,0.05694128558224961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2354496402497909,0.0,0.10815292555649124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05989648526124443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2228934820768841,0.07698084445512211,0.053245614453106715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09836515453824254,0.0,0.0,0.110495859982141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11561813896407135,0.0,0.0,0.0869925002550009,0.0,0.08011809263841482,0.0,0.1681152119030915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10678426306002538,0.0,0.0,0.11436367626796552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11802245855529453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11386837099004316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12209054656266705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09307442731227436,0.0,0.08667095303832864,0.0,0.22060162088977345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12200218720037305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06983456254170413,0.0,0.0,0.06355128136862592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06428344255597375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09834394752979138,0.0,0.0,0.105059719668506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Geoguybri,2019/01/03,"Work found out So I went back to work today, after a 3 week binge in December. I missed work. A LOT of work in December. I've missed work before, being ""sick"" but never like this. I still don't know how I even still have my job, thankfully someone in upper management has known about my issues since 2015 and can relate. Anyway, apparently one day on my bender (I don't really remember this) A Coworker texted me and asked where I was. Apparently totally blitzed instead of saying ""the flu"" or just ""sick"" I told them I was drunk in a bar. Apparently that got out and now it seems everyone at work knows I was pretty much drunk for 3 weeks, not really at work. A few days here and there. Half days because the withdrawals were so bad. Anyway, fast forward to today. Everyone is treating me different. Seeming to give disapproving looks, conversations cut short because they don't want to talk to me. It's like I have now become a lesser person, some kind of piece of shit in some of their eyes.. Has anyone else ever been ""outed"" at work? Did your colleagues treat you different? Did it last or eventually go away with time? This just sucks..",3.0325862822193086,5.407885045871558,4.209947575360419,83.36897553516822,76.9816513761468,7.638619484491046,22.766273481869806,8.563005593585519,1.603539274792486,892,27,170,19,21,291,139,218,0.149,0.8009999999999999,0.051,-0.9649,6,0,0,0,0,0,38.0,0,2,3,8,19,12,3,0,8,0,17,8,2,1,3,29,34,10,0,1,6,0,0,2,0,0,3,1,0,1,7,8,3,0,7,3,0,3,5,6,0,2,11,3,21,6,27,22,7,37,0,2,2,0,12,17,2,7,21,116,28,10,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07308203534243599,0.10709195027435572,0.0,0.0,0.09771104948587064,0.0,0.09819893403714078,0.08036857184087352,0.08726890413213656,0.12742748570798593,0.11543289805956412,0.08893787388672758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20221810469776744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21839998051570286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08731211776143986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06903373852433982,0.09454331629165096,0.0,0.199744549443556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11459956382968745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10026403940595983,0.05940049160619173,0.0,0.08359330119174173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1090905622235661,0.10371886692011856,0.0,0.0,0.10884033606791813,0.11488169278507307,0.08519684211693347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10212529658584453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08776954056528306,0.0,0.0,0.0888582193268252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07683340737664153,0.0,0.08061140834103743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07082470218768054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0912618598563638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10633328237595012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13391494958237227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11839952320592938,0.0,0.0,0.08311761330327433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19030013689124103,0.0,0.0,0.1072871345992743,0.0864591026457551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08855851301128266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16693783489526778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08400832153773721,0.0,0.0962269477606254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060945803000332324,0.0,0.19814336589006332,0.09987227472177798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061647947009510685,0.0,0.16767749188600609,0.0,0.0,0.0968900545395326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6087279511258958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,edmundgrant11,2019/01/03,"I'm not okay with being okay I sometimes think I want to live the rest of my life as an alcoholic. I've been 6 months sober but really miss drinking, anyone else feel this way?",2.4309909909909915,3.889397324324329,3.5713513513513497,91.4247747747748,75.75675675675676,7.095495495495496,20.44144144144144,7.793537801064563,0.5449711711711704,139,3,31,2,3,45,33,37,0.147,0.82,0.034,-0.4321,0,0,2,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,2,2,3,0,0,0,6,7,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,3,2,4,5,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3506873248002293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22944668903711496,0.3362234412033445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3214572793700275,0.0,0.0,0.2741231307983067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16592002609557935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2317785939515445,0.0,0.0,0.2897581419702656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2619222942557873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2102181586095336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3245439021349681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21026213507664893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1935484864507368,0.2604663125714612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,swn215,2019/09/01,Binge drinking problem I don’t need to drink everyday. But when I do it’s like I’m trying to win a drinking contest. Anyone else a binge drinker that has been able to just stop? I’m making a commitment to my wife and daughter to stop.,0.5321088435374115,2.8956981632653047,2.2847959183673474,93.22746598639458,87.77551020408163,4.899319727891157,24.493197278911573,6.42735559955562,0.795160544217687,186,8,39,2,6,61,35,49,0.142,0.68,0.17800000000000002,0.4215,0,0,4,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,3,0,4,3,0,1,1,9,8,3,0,2,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,2,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,2,5,7,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,21,5,0,0.2405628652703667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16820714876225762,0.24648508387367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7069800741769472,0.0,0.0,0.20095940558073594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11752686467142012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1605775805692325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17837431643697912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2301861733391376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4022426541161669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16332639455737816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,mr_shoes305,2019/09/01,"Been in bed all day. Don’t feel bad But i woke up at 7 am for my Saturday run, kept sleeping Woke up around nine, figured I’d be at d gym running on the treadmill but kept surfing redit an IG. No alcohol, a hand full of candy, handful of nuts, and a protein bar, oh and a diet coke day. Two showers, thinking “k, I’m headed out now” Nope. Been in bed 24 hours :(. Need some ideas to get out. No alcohol has involved yesterday nor today. Does it happen to anyone else?",0.5605154639175254,2.546769226804124,3.034237113402064,90.58537628865984,83.5360824742268,5.5294845360824745,24.13298969072165,6.742157984588678,0.8546750515463909,353,14,76,4,10,122,78,97,0.109,0.848,0.043,-0.6705,1,0,2,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,5,0,6,9,4,0,1,16,16,5,0,1,2,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,1,5,5,2,4,2,0,2,5,1,0,2,6,3,2,0,15,9,3,20,0,0,0,0,1,11,0,1,7,43,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4884681667795191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15979677000221684,0.2341607984355523,0.0,0.20344432761492853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19081692151300872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.294771939645291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19999224861123532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1909114098280972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11555400672819616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11939994389405754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20209247295763785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23454252575255305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22506063633246,0.0,0.0,0.25798784938004865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16945557800441274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286997365341824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14643580249520774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21662416569434426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22324518621885367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,kbengtsson901212,2019/09/01,"Alcoholic father trying to stop drinking, being alone seems to be the hardest for him. So my father has been attempting to stay sober for the past 10 years and its worked well for the most part. He sees a counselour regularly and it seems to help him alot. He's also really open to talking about the problem with the family, something we do quite regularly. He's retired since two years past and is keeping himself occupied, when he and my mother are together he doesn't seem to have a problem staying sober but as soon as he is alone, say my mom spends a weekend away golfing or something, he can't resist the urge to drink and can't seem to understand why. He's tried by keeping busy, seeing friends or me and my sister but nothing seems to work. Wondering if there is anybody that has experience from a similar situation? Or any tips on what could help dad stay sober when he's by himself.",7.592845215157354,6.893116479768789,7.594527938342968,74.85045600513808,63.39306358381503,10.694669235709696,36.56326268464997,9.994966539143718,3.52820411046885,713,30,133,13,9,230,107,173,0.054000000000000006,0.882,0.064,0.5859,0,2,5,0,0,0,14.0,1,0,0,4,8,4,0,0,11,0,15,3,0,0,0,30,26,18,0,4,6,6,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,4,9,3,3,7,4,1,0,3,2,1,1,1,3,10,2,21,22,3,15,0,0,2,0,25,3,0,12,9,83,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1181284488043246,0.0,0.2289621388241741,0.0,0.08839491154292461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0751676856286125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10385140264800384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0882533149839366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21656471211482425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10812457697511103,0.10420269264024094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08539917498921709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14817874875630827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19649742247463747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12945742006542155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10606144800341344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11969878507655465,0.2110365969317436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21153440181480945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11756772745614873,0.0,0.0,0.0708116411141799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08790197990371948,0.0,0.0,0.17616439113456026,0.5031352003471796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09143581006748414,0.12424612862917014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17019070209951856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3534472562955847,0.0,0.0924123264970206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08884395855558662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15009220871995047,0.0,0.10797677042061647,0.1150709789973408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09938436561933336,0.0,0.09974077123154784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11987064424396365,0.16094179681105245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1423620122786462 alcoholism,lizzieisafox,2019/09/01,"Advice on stopping the feeling I have it under control? Hi i (22f) have been relatively sober for quite a few months now. I went from drinking every single day to maybe drinking every 1 or 2 weeks. My problem is that I don't want to drink at all. I know I have a problem and 99% of the time I can handle it and say no to drinking but there's another 1% where I'm feeling vulnerable or I feel like I can handle myself and not take it to excess. But two days ago I went out with my friend and blacked out winding up in the ER cause I guess I was feeling suicidal. Which isn't like me sober. I guess I'm mainly hoping someone can give me advice on how to navigate those feelings of being better cause I'm obviously not. And I don't miss alcohol most of the time but then there's times the cravings are so strong I can't control myself and it makes me scared.",1.1540000000000001,3.1919117333333347,3.1911111111111166,89.99500000000002,81.66666666666666,5.555555555555557,22.777777777777786,6.691623216298621,0.6089444444444445,672,23,143,7,18,227,105,180,0.11699999999999999,0.726,0.157,0.8836,0,0,5,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,5,6,10,0,1,7,0,15,5,0,6,2,38,34,14,1,4,7,0,5,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,7,9,5,3,6,4,0,2,7,4,1,1,4,7,22,6,19,29,5,22,0,1,1,0,4,9,0,6,13,97,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2296907399027348,0.10418000084199774,0.12559990524910522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12323660482311342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1039424886380932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24146383105169275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26363154621143403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.151589520904255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.460524244536188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1980420046054664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2971242198218195,0.08396083398139825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09080055139608967,0.0,0.0,0.11274196531654022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.258937006129903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1167301643887236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06458939765551802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11483485718148985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07844973820569026,0.0,0.11807099558471901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09380839572657867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2249136519931476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12500371907282942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09346165516322033,0.11766435944966712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0995796784326338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0982572747662309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12855473025533684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08836517419247056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2055916452826574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11480614764017225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06932007472231393,0.0,0.09427253323614276,0.0,0.0,0.2178961716111422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Stellaeono,2019/09/01,"Sober for 2 months now, drinking again because I can’t vomit I have eating disorder, which causes me constantly self inducing vomit. Today is a bad day, I binged a lot and need to purge, but after days of vomiting I just can’t do it anymore. Now I’m crying and drunk, FUCK",2.396181818181816,4.3874089818181865,4.361818181818183,83.38272727272731,77.36363636363637,7.309090909090909,23.72727272727273,8.238735603445708,1.5845636363636362,214,7,41,4,5,73,45,55,0.301,0.6990000000000001,0.0,-0.9531,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,2,0,5,7,0,2,0,8,8,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,2,3,0,1,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,5,0,4,8,1,9,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,9,26,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25423155420050153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21404258412940952,0.15626934130370726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2633433467104181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2770246284422247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2815898084010313,0.3306506948662574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2938007392302037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25112662892249865,0.0,0.26231132467718016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23699259781893725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21794066368764728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20461712027491108,0.0,0.0,0.1900812020423174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2674302596041043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2429910085669935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,stacyr33,2019/09/01,"Anyone else clean up after an alcoholic every day? I wake each morning only to have to clean up after an alcoholic. It’s so normal that I just get up and do it and go about my day. I have a plan and will eventually get out , but that takes time. So I just keep living an ignored life and cleaning up. I do my best to stay positive. Here’s to a new month and fresh time. 😀",1.0636607142857135,2.5572781875000032,3.4696428571428584,90.54250000000002,79.625,6.571428571428572,20.17857142857143,7.447530270364453,0.4404821428571433,285,7,66,4,7,99,49,80,0.035,0.759,0.20600000000000002,0.9371,0,0,2,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,6,2,0,0,5,0,5,4,1,0,0,13,10,8,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,3,0,4,7,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,1,12,9,2,15,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,8,46,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4787356907305904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15661290185581064,0.2294952654134164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350545093820184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2888987609253583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18710759854624995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18871386821596375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23404192330558266,0.0,0.12729370930239506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19908483144267855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15820458486084005,0.0,0.0,0.19777955236900666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1787797014473152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2163224925352205,0.0,0.0,0.21945407492809055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17034783799266354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23873421699315525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1684060295254988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.261210542894452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,CucumberAvocado,2019/09/01,"6 a.m. drunk That's all. Just here to not feel so guilty about it. Got up at 4 a.m. with my baby and couldn't fall back asleep. My S.O. will wake up with him at 7 when he gets up again. So after an hour and a half laying awake I got up, fed the dogs and let them out and now I'm almost finished with my first 16 oz glass of wine. Hoping for a nice long nap real soon.",-1.0633333333333326,0.6286336190476192,0.8333333333333321,105.71166666666667,87.80952380952381,3.733333333333334,10.523809523809524,3.1291,-2.1575619047619052,280,1,77,0,9,91,68,84,0.073,0.8590000000000001,0.068,-0.1069,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,1,10,2,0,0,4,0,3,5,2,0,1,16,10,7,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,8,3,0,1,3,0,1,2,0,0,2,3,1,6,2,15,4,1,18,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,2,10,47,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3092390698158096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23746386229015326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15614889760840045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2626825154480447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16134593807219855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4939838473645647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30672838615911485,0.3041259343003254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31578983147409323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27329637861314776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3515052794119196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Canidae_Cyanide,2019/09/01,"17 y/o, sober 1 month. Probably won't last. Since about 14-15, I've had a problem with alcohol. When I drink, it's nearly always to the extreme, with blackouts being fairly common. At one point, I was passing out almost every night. I've been told that a couple times, I even stopped breathing for short periods. Anyways, I've been able to stop fully a few times, but it never lasts. Hopefully it'll be different this time.",2.5407530120481923,4.795972397590365,3.952635542168675,85.20317018072292,78.03614457831327,6.559638554216868,24.832831325301214,7.645422480735847,1.4578927710843377,331,12,62,5,8,109,68,83,0.10800000000000001,0.892,0.0,-0.6991,1,0,2,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,4,0,8,3,1,0,1,10,10,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,5,3,2,2,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,1,5,0,3,1,9,1,1,19,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,2,13,35,8,0,0.20040149867376966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21416825609478016,0.20067315298527286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667501007259181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22174044658510253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20937691282936072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19631717505293286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13236329984247724,0.0,0.16884690587841555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19904390605396613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32670793730169634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15995856429958186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15456199013772226,0.0,0.0,0.18806323093550653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13579724193289675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1894441917355132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21606671035282055,0.19175716941722715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16577419059488838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3350892525527481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3505671763885113,0.0,0.0,0.19149222000034186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,WSIDPlz,2019/09/01,"My mom’s an alcoholic and I don’t know how to help her Ever since my family [my dad (51), mom (46), brother (17), and myself (18)] moved into a new house 3 years ago, my mom rapidly deteriorated. It started with her having shouting matches with my dad, and it somehow escalated to her instigating arguments with everyone (my brother would just leave). It got to the point that I couldn’t talk to her normally anymore because all discussions that extended beyond 5 minutes would end with me crying or yelling at my mom. When I was living there (I started college a month ago), my mom was drunk almost every evening. I was in denial about most of this stuff until recently because she was rarely to the point of slurring her words or stumbling though she showed other signs of inebriation. Anyway, today was the last straw for me. I’m visiting my parents right now, and some of my younger cousins came over (ages 7-13). My mom is already clearly drunk even though it’s only 2 pm, and she starts talking about wildly inappropriate things (radiation poisoning, Chernobyl the DocuDrama on Prime, and politics) with one of my cousins. I was just pissed off, so I didn’t say anything. Late afternoon, my cousins leave, and my mom is already starting an argument with me. We go through the usual routine of her yelling at me and my dad when my brother says he’s going to take a walk, and I join him because my mom keeps saying the N-word even though she’s white. I come back, and I ignore my mom for the rest of the evening until she goes to sleep. It’s just me, my dad, and a football game. I tell him about how I’m tired of arguing with her and how much I hate it and how I’m starting to resent her too when I bring up my best friend’s dad. My friend’s parents got divorced when she was in high school because her dad would come home drunk everyday, and I thought my mom was like that too. Then I say that I think she’s an alcoholic, and my dad tells me he’s been looking for a councilor for sometime. It hurt when we put our evidence together like how she’s always repeating conversations and how she doesn’t have the best memory anymore. She made the same excuses to him that she did to me like: I work out everyday so that I can drink on the weekends, I can put it down anytime I want to, or I’m a good drunk, etc. My dad even said that their shared New Year’s resolution was to be sober for all of January, but my mom broke that promise halfway through. I made him promise me that he would go see an advisor by the end of this month before confronting my mom (which he has done on multiple occasions, but she always denied her problem), and he agreed. I don’t know what to do. My parents might divorce over this, and I haven’t talked to my brother about it yet. My dad said he’ll take the brunt of her wrath, but I want to help too. I just don’t know how.",7.970086218510038,5.846197756567433,7.936821366024523,77.275386972922,63.553415061295965,11.236454263774753,37.5482284790516,9.757249324022393,3.341680264044188,2233,89,465,35,26,724,253,571,0.07200000000000001,0.866,0.062,-0.5423,4,0,3,0,4,0,75.0,3,0,1,3,41,21,6,0,23,0,33,11,2,9,4,79,69,44,0,9,10,31,0,3,2,6,4,9,1,0,26,32,7,2,5,8,0,12,7,10,0,1,21,12,94,11,62,40,10,69,0,2,3,0,92,19,1,8,41,310,120,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0897703839985538,0.1082276025462349,0.05070399936715745,0.0,0.1117547590758376,0.0,0.08426535264835239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1004333431539488,0.0,0.0,0.04166858735238016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038935466758628634,0.0,0.12346738333841185,0.0,0.043086962390672605,0.0,0.10627737396923433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05791336309978985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08723575917230021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055620565953609855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05181755410420106,0.0,0.049603376294070405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08969580022108492,0.0,0.05647181190977307,0.16722089057773407,0.045802582581814334,0.042662475181390984,0.048384256973455116,0.0,0.0,0.047734511531580384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07824150796917083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08633172694514085,0.042470538083605854,0.08099544698241873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04999193551051311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06787962971037094,0.053499038536441536,0.05079139522567136,0.0,0.0,0.058426407686008035,0.0542062007759158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04500703504574868,0.0,0.0,0.08348360985183052,0.04127457709155107,0.0571188922654083,0.10723107138961532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07421363847872292,0.0,0.04471195108285948,0.0,0.04252095005328568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09582480500214144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05371611574520136,0.0,0.7116422680895388,0.0808333234651736,0.05381737488584861,0.037222816212144884,0.0,0.0,0.09780789357143588,0.0,0.0,0.04961190247216176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03431183078850933,0.0385104734446371,0.0,0.0,0.16867372692934565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09573356510299172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0484512016288125,0.0,0.10180504594468083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049996309886177405,0.0,0.0,0.04324232127605944,0.0963316466019983,0.1610690843795893,0.0,0.05124568820890845,0.04034982660716328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04188609353056372,0.0,0.05067192884080473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050079666365296184,0.0,0.17919984421817214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05796537347047395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07614297902903591,0.12209635442410274,0.08851507399721803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03363988361718817,0.03244509449915458,0.1492469540666469,0.04019882028296843,0.0,0.05819789823455372,0.04799640120102138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055767695978875695,0.0,0.0597320951846446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0368631455729947,0.0,0.0,0.14387962945170565,0.0,0.0,0.06521502414755942 alcoholism,Nowhere96,2019/09/01,"How to stop? I literally just threw up at my parents home 2 times. I’m really drunk rightist now. E I want to stop drinking for myself and for my family. How do I do it?",-1.9253153153153164,-0.09872024324324258,2.1231081081081093,90.824481981982,102.78378378378378,5.709909909909912,16.977477477477482,7.1686216300943375,0.4757963963963969,129,4,30,3,6,48,28,37,0.20800000000000002,0.755,0.036000000000000004,-0.7313,1,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,0,7,5,3,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,2,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,0,6,4,0,7,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,4,20,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3467451429876717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3336811173565841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35504981547342906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3930296680857924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22675524912211464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5918512771931762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2063963849500912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2087742350738805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,falsaredhead,2019/09/01,"RELAPSE I just had the best 2 weeks of my life. I travelled abroad with my parents and my little sister. We stayed at a 5-star hotel and ate at fancy restaurants for the entire 2 weeks. We only went to the hotel to go to sleep at night because during the day, we were out exploring this beautiful, foreign country. I just came back home a few hours ago after being sober for a month and I am already drunk. I feel great and I miss being drunk. I am ashamed to admit that every morning of my trip I woke up, I thought about going to the hotel pool to have a cocktail (since we unknowingly payed for free-pool-cocktails package all 2 weeks). I feel so much shame. I come from a muslim family so telling my family about my problem is not an option. When my dad found out I have a guy friend, he beat the shit out of me with a hose and a metal pipe, so that is not an option since alcohol and drugs are very haram. I feel sad, lost, and broken.",3.3104241071428566,4.366849432291668,4.447113095238095,87.60562500000003,72.90625,6.735714285714287,24.130952380952376,6.868970318607317,0.7850077380952376,729,20,152,6,14,239,115,192,0.12300000000000001,0.765,0.111,0.1488,1,0,2,0,0,0,23.0,4,0,0,3,9,10,1,2,16,0,11,8,2,0,1,34,26,11,0,1,4,3,3,0,1,0,3,0,1,1,3,18,5,0,7,8,1,8,2,7,0,0,9,3,25,3,25,15,4,28,0,3,0,0,12,8,1,3,11,100,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13216741436235008,0.15934166429991434,0.0,0.0,0.16453463705779378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11464805516621335,0.0,0.09088946758981158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15647037583085882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1705297252165139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12843572920357926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0961566272817022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17290769648820434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12562247778985136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2811148480808726,0.0,0.22616705448777205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16347953951432556,0.11519364564891588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16947298384375128,0.0,0.0,0.16438235667265025,0.0,0.14763161549010184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1495586201110901,0.0,0.14683264458377218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1053131501983188,0.0,0.1494365338986708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1627593523430403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11900953166112765,0.0,0.10960504244079897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13991946685890347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1133966342648067,0.0,0.0,0.16555697893618496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14266776539871312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15304815109215292,0.2466727414138431,0.0,0.1492068434451622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15891987247900224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13031924273035148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11836808311530275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12302242672171357,0.0,0.0,0.3587950718710353,0.0,0.0,0.13821642046719015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,PocketSand89,2019/09/01,"Anyone else get hangover horniness? Seriously. I find when I'm hungover, I'll ""get intimate with myself"" like 5 times a day. Just curious if this is normal..",2.171896551724138,5.056870241379312,4.327155172413793,76.95211206896555,87.9655172413793,7.037931034482759,27.9396551724138,8.07648339933343,2.7672,123,6,20,3,4,42,26,29,0.062,0.764,0.175,0.4767,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,4,2,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2826808651854657,0.4142310078818432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2607261302283293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3377227368440229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3695031438899105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4224375679508416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1975100109140348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39610700672836696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23573799280263225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,OpticNeuritis,2019/09/01,"Im not giving up Relapsed yesterday after quitting 3 days. I got a little less drunk today- Its 8 pm and im not passed out on saturday, which is unheard of for me any day of the week. Tommorow is sunday, alcohol sales are banned in my area. Going to attempt to quit again... wish me luck!!",1.2888700564971742,3.4141636779661013,3.4450000000000003,87.87789548022602,81.71186440677967,5.967231638418079,23.39265536723164,7.1686216300943375,1.0176079096045192,223,8,45,3,6,76,51,59,0.122,0.785,0.09300000000000001,-0.1898,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,0,0,7,7,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,2,1,0,1,1,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,10,6,1,17,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,1,9,26,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2504221638728845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15934903640032164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30224048155138106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22478589341173744,0.13317229840233755,0.0,0.1874111097353732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5062224240911317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23485521093925785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4984669655648344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22211270256561771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879613819767708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2694621874904216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,bad_toe_tattooes,2018/11/25,"Let’s talk about withdrawals for a sec. So I’ve been a heavy drinker for 15ish years. In recent months I’ve gone between cutting back, quitting completely, and going all out on a few pints of vodka. For the holiday it was pretty much a 2 day binge. I felt fine on Friday but then drank a shit ton on vodka that evening. I woke up yesterday feeling slightly feverish, nauseated and have a headache that won’t stop. Today has been more of the same. Also very fatigued and haven’t really left my bed. I am still feverish today - I go from freezing cold to sweating my ass off. No shakes. My appetite is ok. Not great but I am craving chicken and stars. Now, I have Valium that the dr prescribed me for withdrawals because we have no detox centers around here AND the er won’t take me. I have tried twice. I know the emergency DT signs to look for. I think I am ok for now. My question is has anyone else gotten fevers while detoxing? I don’t have a thermometer but I just know when I start getting the chills that’s what it is. Especially when I take some ibuprofen and 45 minutes later I know it’s broke, and I just start sweating. I get very nervous when I am sick. I am never sick. Ever. I feel like I’ve done irreparable damage to my body. I’ll definitely get to the ER if things start to get worse. But in the condition I’m in right now, they just won’t take me. I’m not “sick” enough. This sucks and I never want to drink again. I have some wine in the fridge just in case I need to take a few sips as not to get too sick. But the thought of having to do that pisses me off. I know going cold turkey is bad but like I said I have medication. Also I have plenty of my bp meds (wonder why I have such high bp 🙄) I’m drinking tons of water and Gatorade as well. But yeah, anyone else get low grade fevers while detoxing? And please try not to scare me too much. I’m already a wreck here. 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I am going on 2 and a half years sober largely thanks to my ex- girlfriends love and support. We were together for 3 years. She has recently broken up with me It's overall going terrible for me and my everything We were living together for the past year and I can't afford the place by myself so now living at the folks again and all I can see is a void that I just want to wash away. I hate AA meetings so much and I just don't know how to start finding what I lost in her or anything if it's possible. There is a ton more to my drinking history including out and in patient stays. I just had a great friend for so long by my side. Anything thoughts I'd be interested in. ,1.0802702702702691,3.3281134459459487,2.8472297297297287,91.1246283783784,83.45945945945945,6.132432432432432,24.114864864864863,7.413659706084162,1.1249108108108108,562,22,120,9,16,186,100,148,0.08,0.778,0.141,0.8478,1,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,2,1,0,1,12,9,1,0,8,0,11,3,0,1,1,23,23,14,0,2,5,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,4,12,1,0,3,1,0,2,2,3,1,1,5,1,20,6,20,17,4,24,0,1,1,1,10,11,0,2,10,88,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2947308396779803,0.1594168288385769,0.0,0.0,0.16824908707533995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17542765035900726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16094319613997748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16367347492955986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13835473438546916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20354759616409265,0.0,0.0,0.19743343625409449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17680183162364074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09841624108387828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3162572029344118,0.1584778401279218,0.0,0.0,0.19548410709045266,0.0,0.16162432104430116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13164247427694406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17094961583523122,0.0,0.0,0.18709774041509009,0.0,0.0,0.20188283151798575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17681730207145924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14270148128876806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1267518865229019,0.19087265292755248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20321488104990695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16487038552422814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14216743125786274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10562447450291193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34595987135496264 alcoholism,DailyRecovery,2018/11/25,"Feeling Great Sober- Started a Youtube Blog for people in recovery to raise awareness for chemical dependence. 73 Days Sober today. Went to church, feeling great, having some buddies over for sober sunday sports. Hitting 2 meetings tonight. Growing strong. Been doing a video blog on youtube. Daily Recovery. The goal is to grow, reach out to new people who are in recovery or those who are still struggling with addiction of all types. Check out the channel- like subscribe and help spread the message. People are dying and being arrested everyday because they arent getting help they need early enough. This is todays video. Visit the channel and check out the playlist documenting my own sobriety since day 50. 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I drank heavily for over 20 years and I was throwing up everyday...my teeth hurt so bad that crunchy food was out of the question until the pain subsided. It's been two years since my last drink or line of coke. I'm so glad that I had a moment of clarity.,1.965737704918034,3.3655931147540983,3.482754098360658,91.8224918032787,76.86885245901641,7.50295081967213,23.67540983606557,8.238735603445708,1.1345121311475412,224,7,52,4,5,74,48,61,0.17,0.73,0.1,-0.6833,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,3,0,5,6,1,0,0,4,7,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,4,0,1,1,0,1,0,3,0,1,5,0,5,1,8,2,0,11,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,2,7,29,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21322715881823545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2501699267299601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3088000304316286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27338383572977504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20816441738942174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20383760259318268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2717366240257119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.286078043942584,0.2716223661398559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4224970851751476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2420653001637841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24946391755958006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32890579294373146 alcoholism,andrey2k07,2018/11/25,"Denial alcoholic father My father is depressed and drunk all times besides working hours. He has stress at work place, needs to wash and care of his old mother and became very jelous,thinks that his wife cheats. Don't think that is true but this is not the point. He justifies drinking and denies that he should stop drinking, that he is the same sober that i would drink too in his place.He is always bitter and very sensible when we talk to him to reduce drinking and paranoid stuff. He think that everythink you say to him is an attack and reacts with passive agression or drunken ironies. He says a lot of stuff meant to make us feel bad that he will find a solution that me and my mom will be happy and he won't be a problem. Never says what that means.He often says stuff like we don't care and that we use him but he is barely functional. It's a bit of a venting out but i'm too pushed too far.He usually drinks until paranoid and bitter but sometimes drinks until he can't talk stand.The worse is when he wakes up still drunk. What can i do to help him and save his life. My mother kinda let it go and she does not really care anymore.He won't stop drinking even that after the last big episode( yesterday) he felt ashamed and promised that he'll try to never do it again.Now he is drunk again aftar a day of ""pause"" this meant that he drank less and more in the afternoon and less in the morning. I'm keen to listen to your help sorry for the long post. 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When I say hard time... I mean I can’t. I drink every night until I pass out. I feel sad for myself, but I can’t seem to pull myself out of it. It affects me daily. But I am in a lot of pain, I suffer from bipolar disorder. It’s nice to not have to feel and worry about my mood swings it’s nice to just feel at peace and calm... finally. I need help but I have bad anxiety and have a hard time around people and new things so AA wouldn’t be an option. I’m just lost. 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I felt really good. I wasn't short tempered and easily annoyed. I lost some weight. I was actually enjoying being sober. The urge to drink was constant and there everyday, but I wasn't drinking and I was so happy about it. Yesterday I met up with an old friend. We went to a house party and then I had a glass of prosecco in my hand. I drank lot last night. I feel terrible today. I can feel it's poison that I am willingly pouring down my throat. I genuinely didn't enjoy being drunk last night. Yesterday is gone. Today I start again. 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We used to drink together, have fun, and make big plans. He was my favorite person to kick back and have drinks with. I miss those times. Fast forward to today, been married 15 years. I still socially drink but he became a daily drinker. We have kids and I make an effort to rarely drink in front of them. A few years back I told him to hide his drinking from the kids too. No more cracking cans of beer and watching TV after work, pour it in a plastic glass so no one knows what you are drinking. Another bad decision to train him to hide his drinking. Now as soon as he is home from work he drinks. I don't notice he's drunk until he slurs or stumbles. I feel like I've created a monster. I have no interest in being around him when he is drinking and I definitely don't want my teenage kids to see him like this even though I know they have on occasion. I have confronted him multiple times and he cringes when I refer to his drinking as a problem. I don't want the kids to notice. I've become the non drinker out of obligation to safety, security, and family stability. I don't like him drinking at all. I am a full time babysitter as soon as I hear that first beer crack because he can't stop himself until he falls asleep or passes out. When talking to him he only remembers about half of what has happened on any given day. Forgotten commitments, forgotten bad decisions, and forgotten promises. The best thing I can do is isolate him into our bedroom to minimize drunk interactions with the kids, but he is not always cooperative. The hardest part is that I don't want to walk away from this man. I truly love him and I know he aspires to be better. I just have no idea how to help him, and I am selfish and just want him to get his shit together. Also I'm pretty sure he thinks I'm just a bitch and that he's fine to be drunk and act a fool. I was trying to think bigger picture with hiding it from the kids but now as teenagers I know that they notice even with the attempts to hide. I want the opportunity to relax too and not always be forced to be the one in charge. Is there any hope for us? 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As time goes by I have learned there is always an excuse! There is always a desire! There is always a “need” and there is always a reason! I am a father of one daughter and three adopted. Yet they are all mine! Despite how frustrated they make me at times. They still suffer from a lack of a true father (from bio dad and me) they still suffer from psychical and mental abuse (bio dad) and it gets to me at times! All the time! It turns into my excuse to drink but how is that fair to Abigail (my daughter) . She has never known abuse and never will so why should she have to suffer daddies rants when he drinks, why should my other children suffer because I feel unable to adapt, to coop with them. I love my family very much and I see how I can be when I drink. Yet I admit I can’t seem to stop. There has been many drunken nights many hungover mornings where I say OMG no more, this is it! Yet that six pack swings in my arms as I walk into my kitchen feeling triumphant and deflated all at the same time. There is no way I will conquer this on my own! Yet my mother’s pushing gives me a sense of “who is she to tell me An adult what I can or can not do”. This drink will confuse you, it will enlighten you, it will make you feel joy, happiness , sadness, despair and hopelessness. But it’s biggest hook, the largest barb that will snag you and simply just won’t go is desire, you will not stop without help with out support without a desire, and yet I feel the desire you have to struggle for. Since we are on fishing analogies the desire is you pulling up on the rod to drag that fish in, all the while hoping weak fishing line doesn’t snap. 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I know people who have had hallucinations after just a weekend of heavy drinking. Am i just paranoid or should I be concerned that I will have withdrawals? Hallucinations are one of my biggest fears. ,4.5872881355932185,6.805739254237295,5.212000000000003,78.71223728813561,71.71186440677965,7.431864406779661,30.444067796610174,8.238735603445708,2.278468474576272,252,11,46,4,5,81,44,59,0.094,0.9059999999999999,0.0,-0.5859,0,0,3,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,4,0,8,4,0,0,0,5,10,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,4,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,5,0,6,5,0,9,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,6,30,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6729663350392694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2576763666493881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12584640436293712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6446721905212176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551689202050745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15875218881662778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,KonundrumK,2018/12/09,"Lighthearted lol I know how serious alcoholism is but I just want to share something that gave me a little smile on day 4 of sobriety For the last 10 years I thought I was suffering from some kind of skin condition, dry, red, scaly patchy skin and spent a fair bit of money on top of the line skin products to try and rectify “the condition” Wake up day 4 of sobriety, look in the mirror and realised that there is absolutely nothing wrong with my face LMAO Vanity : 1 Alcohol: 0",5.463870967741934,6.1890884516129026,6.315215053763442,77.39282258064519,67.70967741935483,11.361290322580645,32.704301075268816,11.20814326018867,3.842836559139784,378,16,74,12,6,125,70,93,0.073,0.677,0.25,0.9556,0,0,3,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,3,5,0,0,6,1,3,7,5,1,0,11,9,5,0,1,2,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,2,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,4,5,6,2,14,5,2,10,0,1,2,0,2,6,0,1,4,39,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5386207426402724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2751177206253377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3250371095583076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2624182559599088,0.13849210022453748,0.205412878435676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525692737669415,0.0,0.0,0.21161575380630493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24179990708135754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19400119802461194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20005911546294844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17109082897374606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1486355823786654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2755214269454445,0.0,0.16227914095508045 alcoholism,2manyalcohol,2018/12/09,"Massive Blackout Haunting Me I am just going to throw it out there that I am not new to drinking. The only times I have ever blacked out for an entire night was when I was under the influence of alcohol AND drugs. Other than that it's just been ""brown"" outs or fuzziness here and there on occasion. The other night I blacked out HARD. There are a few things that I remember that are extremely, extremely vague. I only had four drinks and I was not on an empty stomach. The drinks were decently strong I will admit, but as I said this was not my first rodeo. I went from being kind of tipsy to completely obliterated and blacked out after one more drink. There was never a second where I felt like I was too drunk, and usually I start to feel sick before things even get fuzzy these days. I lost probably about 4 to 5 hours. No idea how I got home. Then there was a moment where it felt like I literally snapped out of it. Does this sound normal for a blackout? I am asking because I am entertaining the idea that someone may have slipped something in my drink. I have been drugged before and it was a similar feeling, but I don't remember leaving my drink anywhere this time. Maybe I'm just getting old and can't handle alcohol the way I used to?! (Though I'm not actually that old yet) Please be nice. I am regretting my decision to drink the night I am talking about and have no idea how I let it get this bad. I did extremely embarrassing things that I don't even want to mention. :(",3.6731410825199617,5.243952897959186,4.56664596273292,85.08922360248448,72.74149659863944,7.970186335403727,27.408459035788226,8.587818076936951,1.9164698609878736,1168,43,236,21,23,378,156,294,0.147,0.774,0.079,-0.9706,0,0,12,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,0,3,22,10,0,1,14,0,33,14,1,4,2,45,52,17,0,3,10,0,5,2,0,2,5,2,1,0,23,14,10,0,11,9,0,3,10,4,0,4,19,11,32,6,29,28,2,36,0,2,4,0,5,12,0,2,22,176,55,0,0.0,0.0,0.08378319696109117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1835081826659105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0802638908440991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07168628146153355,0.052337099321007496,0.0,0.14611448426992496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09001851772435382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05537010047333231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07513327701963067,0.0,0.0,0.5887442442190906,0.19913170413343226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11341432688795194,0.07766178399270514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08682287697174366,0.0,0.16487069566464538,0.0,0.0,0.07302917942645401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13456885138822242,0.0,0.04879401663836007,0.0,0.06866698942909294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07691022767812339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0861206976191418,0.0,0.08455099261697642,0.0,0.0,0.2907633574266589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0894059464058227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09090924391317116,0.0,0.08779370878353178,0.0,0.08388993569015736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09372210680608536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08625402137976887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06621753950979453,0.08292038434468398,0.0,0.2417104829016865,0.08412077739018088,0.0,0.0,0.18018312955819074,0.0,0.05817833495156389,0.1305949097857941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09424424747701776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09256742823245634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945165148997461,0.0,0.08166883948850084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0727456194468689,0.06609624261775343,0.0,0.0,0.0607694099708856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0690079042787884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17111699129745794,0.0,0.0843532107793937,0.0,0.10012679845654517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07415212933086728,0.09455839637745453,0.0,0.050640169311145136,0.06814859888778135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07958949169371475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,KhalRiker,2018/12/09,Question about minimal steatosis I was told I have minimal steatosis earlier this year. I was told that if I drink occasionally that Is be ok as long as long as I don't do it all the time on a consistent basis. Anybody have experience with this? How long does it take to progress? I usually drink about once a week nowadays.,3.1085714285714303,5.460749619047622,4.612936507936507,80.69178571428574,76.61904761904762,8.644444444444442,31.13492063492064,9.2995712137729,3.1117111111111107,258,13,50,7,6,86,42,63,0.0,0.907,0.09300000000000001,0.6553,0,0,2,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,3,1,8,2,0,1,1,5,11,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,1,2,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,6,1,8,6,1,8,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,7,34,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18730885595175656,0.0,0.0,0.4193576885057828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20937331954112184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5682590564779402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279468430833122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23977507770051726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16093230979005882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1248091179631856,0.0,0.0,0.4090509896779636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23573609123246506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17169090268986628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1378354853318652 alcoholism,Pukaria,2018/12/09,"Seizures This is about a friend, not me. They were in the hospital for a whole host of alcohol related problems a couple months ago, including jaundice and seizures. They say they have not drank since, but they still have seizures. Everything talks about ACUTE withdrawal and seizures. Does anyone have information about long term? Hoping there is something they can do besides just staying sober and waiting. They lost their job because of this (probably illegally, but that's another story), live alone, it's not safe to drive since it's unpredictable, etc. Any information on where I can look into this is appreciated. TIA",6.14943925233645,9.184728289719628,5.125056074766351,77.37636915887852,69.8411214953271,9.139813084112149,33.12990654205608,9.642632912329526,3.66815214953271,505,24,82,13,10,150,77,107,0.08800000000000001,0.769,0.14300000000000002,0.8196,1,1,2,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,7,1,7,5,0,0,4,0,10,2,0,0,0,16,15,5,0,2,6,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,6,4,2,2,2,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,3,2,9,3,10,12,3,11,0,1,1,0,12,4,0,1,5,53,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17439517045480624,0.2102516481857728,0.0,0.2037598374785395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13378766887817814,0.2062955320665972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13756284053979687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11992883623655948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21768536203299366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1721655688317174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2194133705400055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17681421601646566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15199824832145584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1954038851147953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19523076887837948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17372206697005674,0.17410574494761735,0.1652092372148597,0.0,0.2147612944682387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570333176291698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21211538440904226,0.18825040487591246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15645288108509467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3254851809953847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15145748540891552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20969509302534012,0.1571141434016827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1581294675984667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21964944466027367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,CrimsonLemur,2018/12/09,"Scared to go to a meeting I drink every day, but I don't think I have that big of a problem. My boyfriend, however, doesn't want me alone with his kids due to my consumption. I have decided that his kids are more important to me than alcohol, but I'm terrified to go to a meeting. What's it like? 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I've only just found the sub and have almost definitely not read enough posts or lurked long enough. I just wrote this and I want someone to read it, but I'm not sure I'm ready to share it with my family. With that said, here we go. Drinking while you're also dealing with advanced stages of withdrawal is an odd thing. You wake up shaking and seeing tracers of light from every motion, and the first couple of drinks don't really have much effect, even if you can keep from vomiting them up. You probably can't, by the way. Trust me. Your brain craves the drink and your body hates it, and initially the body usually wins. And if the hallucinations don't get you, the sense of crushing guilt and failure definitely will. You may be too miserable to focus on it at first, but by the third time or so that you vomit in a given morning, it gets pretty clear. Even if you can get enough drinks down, you don't get drunk in the classic sense. You're chasing a feeling that doesn't exist for you anymore. Other people can have it, but you never can. You might achieve brief moments of numbness, but the relaxation you started drinking for is completely unobtainable, an idea you can chase but can't ever catch. Drinking doesn't help anymore, but the alternative of stopping seems so much worse you feel like you have almost no choice. After all, being anxious or shaking while you're drunk may make you miserable, but it probably won't kill you. The thing you don't really know when you start drinking is that you're conditioning your body and brain to need the thing you're poisoning yourself with so desperately that if you stop ingesting the venom you may literally die. You want to stop so badly, and yet you know that while the drinking is inevitably killing you, without help the alternative is just as inexorably a death sentence. Which might not be such an issue without the aforementioned guilt and shame, which prevent you from asking for the help you so desperately need. It's a vicious cycle, beating you in the head over and over like your humanity has been reduced to nothing more than a shoe tumbling in a dryer. I've asked for help before, and I didn't know if I could do it again. My past lies ate at me and made me question whether the people I love would ever be able to forgive the fact I'd put myself in the same place yet again. I'm not even a good liar. Except for one very specific lie. ""I haven't bought any vodka and everything is fine."" I've practiced it for so long it's almost as natural as truth. But finally, I was pushed to the point where I had to be honest. First with myself, and then with my family. I broke down and asked for help. It was the hardest thing I've done since the last time I was faced with the same choice. I haven't had a drink in 36 hours, and that isn't a lie. My muscles won't stop twitching and even with the Ativan I was prescribed, the anxiety is almost unbearable. When I close my eyes, sometimes shadow people move in unnatural ways. My thoughts feel scattered and unclear, and my stomach feels like it will never be settled again. And even though my family knows about my failure now, I feel alone and scared. But I believe I can get through this, because I have to. There are people who love and rely on me, and I'm out of other options.",5.659509005589676,6.345689271513352,5.7719846801463,81.59816541301498,67.26409495548961,8.70300186322545,30.06610999930993,8.70740988407696,2.1986708025671104,2755,97,534,41,43,871,298,674,0.19,0.6940000000000001,0.11699999999999999,-0.9962,0,1,10,0,0,0,70.0,1,31,1,10,35,33,6,8,41,0,62,31,11,4,9,123,107,62,4,14,30,0,5,3,0,11,6,1,0,1,33,36,13,7,16,15,1,12,24,17,0,5,17,9,68,16,69,71,9,79,0,3,2,2,52,24,0,24,40,375,101,3,0.0556447832506059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22288085021277826,0.057631213859045426,0.0,0.044499113061603084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03784036075133557,0.05834840699628949,0.04256810688024409,0.06286276641534191,0.11036934557061323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15606108253718276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04646106973010679,0.033920543393363985,0.0,0.04734961211432287,0.06269261566681637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854264299189746,0.0,0.12423596188478399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058342496551955836,0.0,0.0,0.04442783156838633,0.06156989428610288,0.0,0.0,0.057367328177141436,0.0,0.0,0.0577504998358393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056943932721467465,0.0,0.4905963305582497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17248780765812702,0.0,0.18376427269287796,0.10066778434827116,0.046883129828457965,0.0,0.050009943189307966,0.0,0.1573708481693495,0.0,0.14067837175084968,0.07950528854517254,0.0,0.06095614015552134,0.0,0.14199427262044406,0.0,0.06101163271248445,0.0,0.0,0.14536051297354294,0.0,0.031624212655852565,0.046672204141748566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05493770328491443,0.057107601135478116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1864876263559547,0.0,0.0,0.05526782525592261,0.05479890271383382,0.0,0.0,0.06281618718363806,0.0,0.058078696745078165,0.0,0.04945964007649018,0.12312541641252946,0.0,0.12232367055092777,0.04535792515953111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08155569110903067,0.0,0.0,0.09848776427514916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10044317880211702,0.05265243934629567,0.0371433249086027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11806064311342378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05914159839700535,0.08181063652003137,0.08251980341567174,0.08583337446988422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053392670277059684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0377063452289201,0.04232036511205155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053119241951169134,0.1543083454974179,0.0,0.058136955108488576,0.0,0.05260230615525149,0.0,0.15987696214587574,0.0566107492265493,0.11998897557973025,0.0,0.0,0.0559383763591208,0.06233489214757685,0.0591850764387767,0.1113196830384329,0.0,0.07129494603289235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05293093139847408,0.0,0.0557101353447805,0.0,0.04434168789635907,0.05065692079944968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04602993972222512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047147644274091564,0.0,0.055034113468272736,0.0,0.07877132797381294,0.0,0.0,0.18608612162385746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05244454968473604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1478716857691169,0.0,0.054670717019724265,0.04417574231837644,0.06489384119384305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061284867314779085,0.04591277377488573,0.06564146973565718,0.08833647778573317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10727917072972633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05670678799919626,0.03952845749440415,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,eitherchance,2019/07/25,"Alcohol has ruined my relationship I was in a very happy relationship for two years. I've always had a self control issue with drinking, often getting blackout. Leading to major anxiety after and worry. Four months ago, I got black out drunk and came back to my flat and hung out with my sober flatmate, I found out the next day we had had sex. I didn't remember any of it. Me and my boyfriend broke up, then got back together. Everything was fine and I thought I had a control over my drinking until i accidently blacked out a week ago, and asked a guy to stay over at my flat. I asked him what happened and he said we cuddled platonically for a second then he left. My boyfriend is now unsure if we should stay together and we're meeting in a few days to discuss if we should break up. I'm so anxious and feeling so down. I've decided today to completely give up alcohol, but I don't know if that's enough that he'll want to stay with me. :(",2.901289473684212,4.6700010631578985,4.381250000000001,84.80187500000002,75.21052631578948,7.486842105263157,28.190789473684212,8.278499904357787,1.951815789473684,742,31,151,13,16,247,112,190,0.091,0.872,0.038,-0.8116,0,0,4,0,0,0,19.0,4,0,0,3,6,4,0,0,8,0,12,7,0,3,0,38,28,18,0,6,4,0,1,0,0,3,2,1,0,2,4,21,5,2,6,3,0,2,2,2,0,3,13,4,23,2,27,12,3,36,0,2,2,2,18,14,0,4,16,100,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2156858483107237,0.2600318860861348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10122962195112682,0.0,0.0,0.0827319551919071,0.0,0.09306842326804103,0.13743948184029486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22746855881407915,0.0,0.0,0.18709576150067686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13914491943029192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12755662775625215,0.0,0.2729007161956101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15691934222978962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23835803788552304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1257057569482323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1093388196343138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061514195515437665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13339227120281094,0.0,0.0,0.06356154754986225,0.11670592356010713,0.0,0.0,0.19460284019717086,0.0,0.0,0.12046104699138267,0.10758221411530708,0.1295077407155592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12697987126215696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06686033265797932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321823215610223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09710665793543877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12938520016558133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2612314097141997,0.13781537016354206,0.0,0.1157250976939988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12691635336315274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3890153371892312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09658326351775492,0.0,0.0,0.11531803750634405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1188426816323968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10038100766642263,0.07175733826361105,0.0,0.09758711431705744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12355011718824828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07834408843621125 alcoholism,0CCULT15T,2019/07/25,"Almost 24 hours cold turkey... Question about Seizures and support groups So.. I’ve been tapering off for the last few days... and I know.. its way too fast. Last time i went to a detox program that my insurance said would be fully covered... minus a 100 copay... and went a few months sober.. no issues... Then got the $2,000 bill in the mail... They covered most of it, but i still had to pay 2k... Anywho... went about 4 months sober... then.. a bunch of deaths happened all at once.. stress from my two jobs... and an interaction with a Christian cult (that i was born into and got out) sent me spiraling. So I tried tapering... ran out of money to buy anymore.. so had to kind of.. spread out what i had left into a new schedule... basically 2 beers a day for a while (which is nothing compared to the handle of 101 proof rum I would go through every other day). But the last beer I had was Exactly 21 hours and 16 minutes ago.. and i feel like shit. The usual stuff.. shakes, vomiting, twitches, stomach pain, chest pain, mindfuckery, and all that... but I am DREADING seizures and DTs... Going to a doctor or treatment center is not possible... I literally can’t afford anything. I can manage most of the withdrawal symptoms... but seizures freak me the hell out. Can you tell when they are going to happen? Is there enough notice to chug an emergency beer or 2 (only have 6 left).. and would that even help? None of my doctors will prescribe ativan or anything like that... but i do have seroquel.. i heard that helps with symptoms... i mean.. itll knock you out... but still. Anything I can buy over the counter to help? Also are there any other support groups that aren’t AA? Not bashing it.. i see it works for others.. but the 12 steps and the “higher power” thing... literally makes me want to drink.. Also I can’t find it in me to follow the ‘never touching another drink again’ philosophy. In witchcraft and occultism.. (the path i follow at least) it’s pretty much a requirement for most rituals and ‘holidays’. But its usually this really gross wine or liquor with herbs floating around in it that makes you gag, lol. So I’m looking for a group that basically never mentions God or a higher power... and has everyone just bitching about the stupid crap we did when we drank... does that exist? Sorry if this is long or doesn’t make sense..",2.3315599294947127,4.772437340090093,3.2698433215824534,88.81101645123384,79.87837837837839,5.932941637289463,23.165687426557003,7.1686216300943375,0.9235732079905992,1785,60,349,23,46,568,248,444,0.133,0.785,0.081,-0.9811,5,0,6,0,0,0,133.0,2,3,2,4,20,17,5,3,28,1,32,21,4,3,6,68,61,40,1,5,18,0,2,2,0,5,9,2,0,0,28,27,8,1,5,9,5,12,10,12,1,1,18,7,33,5,47,37,12,61,3,0,2,0,21,19,4,12,31,233,61,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0782642496729991,0.0,0.08841023707673408,0.0,0.0,0.1412118495321557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06004060486849161,0.09258034489130766,0.0,0.0,0.08756050597066925,0.0,0.0,0.21796681124503534,0.07859731244662649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17082031123018887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1807382480348836,0.07726365947519903,0.0,0.0,0.17298226225546245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09122774464976934,0.0,0.0583150787499266,0.0,0.07438860034993948,0.08436540870926969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04464235733554641,0.06307478998238193,0.0,0.0,0.08069596755866908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15053267082926894,0.0,0.14122804432050332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15615009203134286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1775378933696702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17389682337804266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09215240059319764,0.08761475217175645,0.0,0.0,0.09194102629587836,0.04852217991442233,0.21590575840865125,0.0,0.0,0.19185589222534355,0.0,0.0,0.086268610683215,0.0,0.0,0.0781343626463269,0.07414182947812914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17680389272668645,0.0,0.0,0.09617429742802723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14094535698273408,0.0,0.06490371661117986,0.0,0.13619023758629742,0.08527156798826102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08471716852925222,0.10051938181286788,0.0,0.09402655935804673,0.0,0.06714894544162882,0.18789475048441284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0995343346247084,0.0,0.08982323524758014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0989056276061165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0565611902065474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08398453593772494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07035614114998379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0906289857213044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09883404763183833,0.0,0.0,0.1410179022077362,0.0,0.10113653220788582,0.0,0.10107156190297448,0.0,0.20038215056776384,0.0,0.1835353845503522,0.0,0.0,0.0771698364491107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058656321452933986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05148293251116345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059943491157345485,0.0,0.08624704290925148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19447914500840047,0.0,0.05207605674381079,0.07008093280427165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2455386865032119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06427657542165457,0.0,0.0,0.18815723082651,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,midlifesuicide,2019/07/25,"10 Days In, Almost Relapsed Glass of wine was poured. Looked at it for about 5 minutes and poured it away. Onto day 11.",0.625,3.0402148333333368,1.2966666666666669,100.015,88.16666666666666,3.2,16.333333333333336,3.1291,-1.181566666666666,92,2,20,0,3,28,22,24,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,7,1,0,6,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,1,2,11,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4854841012314306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4555108264291911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6253464757909081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4071324841783037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,lennox815,2019/07/25,Day 10 Im a solid ten days in. My health is returning. Im feeling more energized. A fellow redditor sent me some good reads. Im doing awesome at work. I think i have got ahold of this time. Life is too short to drink it away. 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How the hell am i getting subtle mild euphoria and relaxation from this drink? its gotta be psychological..... Anybody?",4.7789285714285725,8.321723321428575,5.682857142857145,66.7871428571429,83.64285714285714,8.514285714285714,32.0,8.841846274778883,4.200042857142858,135,7,18,4,4,44,28,28,0.19,0.586,0.225,0.3094,0,0,3,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,2,4,0,1,0,2,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,4,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6935011754222716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6356973444026051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3390354052416996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Throwaway6737472,2019/07/25,"Not sure if I am an alcoholic.. I’m a 27 y/o female. After I lost about 40 pounds at 20 years old, my tolerance when it comes to alcohol diminished. After having my children it almost seems non-existent. I’ve blacked out more times than I can count, and the anxiety that ensues is horrible. My issue though is that most people say I don’t have an “alcohol problem” because I drink very infrequently, never at home, and don’t need alcohol to function... but it sure seems like a problem to me when I can’t even meet up with friends for drinks without getting shitfaced drunk and ruining the next few days of my life.. I feel like I have no self-control, so I should just completely abstain from drinking, but it’s absolutely ingrained in the lives of everyone around me. I’m very lost.",6.094705882352944,6.208754156862747,6.7733333333333325,76.78000000000003,66.25490196078431,10.460130718954249,35.30065359477124,10.25414643259724,3.5896222222222214,618,28,118,14,9,204,107,153,0.14800000000000002,0.757,0.096,-0.6149,0,0,7,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,2,8,10,0,0,7,0,11,9,0,0,3,26,21,10,0,5,6,0,1,2,1,1,5,1,1,1,6,7,8,1,3,4,0,1,7,5,0,0,2,3,15,5,19,18,3,17,0,3,1,0,4,6,0,5,12,76,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.523265660242661,0.1225734520658201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09364141967759172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10896864693754016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07461848957779503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10544324194135872,0.12834195845330526,0.0,0.13729044502016285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07894272549859144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3597383130938376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08084901416636603,0.0,0.0,0.11696563341939395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0618929213166176,0.08744795854078438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09457174824781768,0.0,0.06395287832836552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12278472557891587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12776165102981105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08646005317076923,0.11960426491319355,0.0,0.1080880849879084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2672445412775027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0907636269225954,0.0944082275456858,0.0,0.13018178887462556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12844610371476667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08486196356540716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2342549350940312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09734337497978088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2228704223798731,0.1276977420687603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23073528266815505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12026476937114615,0.0,0.07137681075199369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2019980512505116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11799648357898401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07882643120948657 alcoholism,tempaccounthehe2,2019/07/25,"Highschool grad, odd behavior? Howdy yall, ​ So basically, graduated highschool a few weeks ago. Never really drank alot, usually a 40/60 split between at home listening to music and chilling at parties. Had a few drinks the night before graduation, as a sort of celebration? Then after that, holy shit. The parties! Probably a solid 12 in the past three weeks, at them i'll have maybe 6ish drinks, sometimes more. However, other then a 5 day break a few days ago, i've been having a few drinks every night. Not enough to get shitfaced or even drunk, just maybe 4ish? Just for a nice buzz. Today I woke up with a headache and just felt really stupid, kinda in a daze? I guess my main question is, is it normal to go on a bit of a bender after graduation? After today I'm completely done with this bender, the headache and daze really sold me on how horrible alcohol is for you.",4.650981114693689,6.43645053293413,5.6714970059880265,77.28118378627362,70.61676646706587,8.970796867802855,27.81621372639337,9.466822959209583,2.6207811146936897,697,25,125,16,13,230,112,167,0.125,0.816,0.059000000000000004,-0.8717,1,0,4,0,0,0,32.0,0,2,1,0,6,5,2,0,18,0,8,7,1,1,1,19,17,9,0,1,5,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,4,5,6,0,2,4,1,1,2,4,0,1,7,2,7,1,22,10,9,28,0,0,0,0,5,8,1,6,18,81,11,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2406442516954944,0.14506092804479734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1470703291617204,0.16493457913257142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11550167617086672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14818898982557233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14231702949274053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1750774934154984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13890546053915892,0.0,0.3989099802686229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14025198246221254,0.0,0.08965260988876073,0.0,0.11436376851934625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13032822718344986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07091666498540368,0.0,0.0771421223159294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1495289440698551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13615467320323255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2727309094815503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10468827705216233,0.0,0.0,0.2547588266165325,0.13299284924297022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295757495852846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14634679338050827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15205582908666426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.260868634449266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1393314606729635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13424676715018696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2573244657454643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14949446431948615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2177590999491028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16493457913257142,0.0 alcoholism,Jamers18,2019/07/25,"Young man falling into it Just finished my freshman year, now working at a church camp for the summer. I drank my freshman year away. Went to sleep hammered every night with few exceptions. Finally realized it was a problem late in the semester so I applied to work at a Lutheran summer camp cuz I knew I would have no access to it here. My plan worked, aprox. 3 months sober, I'm busy enough here to avoid the temptations made lots of friends who like me for who I am, even met a wonderful girl here who I am dating. The problem: I will be leaving this camp in about 3 days to move back home/college. I feel like I'm looking down the barrel of ""relapse"". I know once I go back to college I'll be drinking like a fish again. Everything else will fall to the side and alcohol will be #1 in my world again, everything else will come in second (my girlfriend, my restored faith, my health). What I'm most worried about is my gf and my faith. I love my gf so so so much and she is truly different than any other girl I've ever dated. The thaught of losing her makes me physically sick, however, I know that's where I'm headed.... Any words of comfort or advice in such a scary time for me Also, I never post on Reddit so sorry if Im doing it wrong and I've never really told anyone about my drinking habit, just desperate and feeling very alone in this fight.",3.323406593406596,4.710366249084252,4.435311355311356,86.418021978022,73.32234432234429,7.2512820512820495,26.553113553113555,7.793537801064563,1.4734717948717946,1058,37,215,14,21,346,162,273,0.12300000000000001,0.759,0.11699999999999999,0.0958,2,2,3,0,1,0,35.0,0,0,0,5,23,14,1,1,13,0,15,9,2,3,3,33,35,14,0,4,5,0,2,3,4,5,3,0,0,3,12,8,4,1,7,2,0,6,3,6,0,1,7,3,29,8,32,20,5,44,4,1,1,1,16,15,0,5,25,138,41,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11662376799393526,0.0,0.1275448389084796,0.0,0.12360671543585496,0.0,0.09544114789611018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16231907642342008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08344966847032079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11212972450946453,0.1835397890638579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10280622123119393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0769684538598987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12469142301909257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2338277662961685,0.0,0.0,0.1993969447209131,0.0,0.0,0.1233165729107534,0.0,0.0788270683230119,0.10795551004641699,0.10055435760249723,0.0,0.21452141653246976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12069009344496025,0.08526098028131537,0.0,0.1307379762761849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09220661176173844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06782722057868654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12248367733572273,0.12685947607521553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11971401323849322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1289144230167612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13117914862801958,0.0,0.1346277611482718,0.12637043974553014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17491963864832286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100220786512664,0.13351791901248644,0.0,0.10146390845495366,0.10771464444625202,0.11292830137499694,0.07966454434828042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09526103301972533,0.1268461695316674,0.08773322120795929,0.0,0.18409436106876215,0.0,0.0,0.11199836489149052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1270998544043604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11430071102931505,0.0,0.0,0.2283964741445393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0764562596916324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11943243403957705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335983487002414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06959175440591511,0.0,0.0,0.1140404502400298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09847314992780347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11063516350509167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12942591022487288,0.2606564602644065,0.12120190359023167,0.0,0.08478014724935781,0.13048638210007046,0.0,0.15371013592876526 alcoholism,EmpireBayResident,2019/07/25,"Questions about alcoholism coming from someone that lacks knowledge of the disease. Is there forms of it? For example, after reading through this page I came across stories of blacking out for a week or so at a time. I am not trying to sound ignorant, but I do get a little concerned for my own health. I don’t binge to the point of not being able to remember, instead I have like a glass or two of whiskey a night to the point of where I’m dizzy and feeling good then I lay down till I fall asleep. I drink alone mostly, but I don’t do it because I feel sad, but more like I’m just enjoying Netflix or a tv show. I feel as if it is getting a bit excessive so I have tried starting to skip a day or so in between because I have people chirping in my ear about it (usually those who never drink). So I’m confused, could this be a start of a problem or is a problem. I don’t know for sure what qualifies it.",3.963245614035092,4.147867552631581,5.117631578947371,86.57258771929827,70.84210526315789,8.017543859649122,31.62280701754386,7.793537801064563,1.984543859649123,705,30,154,8,12,234,113,190,0.113,0.782,0.105,-0.0945,0,1,4,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,10,10,0,1,14,0,15,7,2,0,2,32,28,17,0,5,12,0,3,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,11,4,4,1,7,7,0,3,6,5,0,1,1,6,16,5,30,24,7,24,0,1,1,0,2,10,0,9,13,114,27,2,0.15493342947650568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1655767178457232,0.0,0.1604643074600997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18889196113755324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16914717758192055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17720256858455954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.133461430750615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1237017363890928,0.0,0.0,0.0999192446895218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30355155422868624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350169915160117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16189264451998656,0.0,0.0,0.1299508098781199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16468699051973756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08514736098106343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15138529530482206,0.15528399880781446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11949421215523838,0.0,0.0,0.14539452808535233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10741133206094458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2929243395306954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29650073558463835,0.0,0.0,0.17356089919475112,0.0,0.1549753566628747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17550937312983206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13127459201746108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21932535764291175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14602292371978418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09034292866938576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21037925703427016,0.0,0.15134744789074325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17063728373832682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12427825168565225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,lifeandeverything,2019/07/25,"3 years ago today, my friend shot himself I’m not sure I really stopped drinking since then. I will make up a reason everyday that I have to have a few beers. The longest I have gone without a drink could be measured in tens of hours. I really feel like an asshole.",2.112222222222222,4.107948,3.4812592592592613,89.3396666666667,78.25925925925927,6.542222222222222,25.61481481481481,7.554174236665415,1.3233525925925926,208,8,43,3,5,68,44,54,0.039,0.8029999999999999,0.158,0.7095,0,0,3,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,5,0,6,3,0,2,1,8,10,1,0,1,2,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,2,3,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,1,7,3,5,6,1,10,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,8,28,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2252173607243378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20285389276758406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4977829432988364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12846521799714156,0.1815073649517759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19629353400329416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2502073664743811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12412556750117353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16959342335768407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3255269687237704,0.2612258524411766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21016898927731653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2124135526585224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2394575805847299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24082826253555104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24491401703801036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16361248514124554 alcoholism,Tomfray,2019/07/25,"My struggles with alcohol Hello, I’m Tom and I’ve been drinking a decent amount of alcohol (only at night) for about three years now, but I have been trying to quit for a while now. I used to go through about 12-15 beers a night, but throughout the last year I’ve gotten down to around 7 drinks on average (beers and shots) a night. I started tracking what and when I would drink in journals in order to help me stop drinking, (I have 3+ journals full now) and it has helped but I still struggle with trying to quit. I am afraid to quit all at once because I’m worried that my body partially relies on alcohol, and I’ve heard of people even losing part of their eyesight from cutting too much alcohol out too fast. I’ve tried to drink one less drink every 2-3 days until I’m not drinking much, but I always go back to drinking more. The lowest I got down to was 4, and when I was that low I remember getting really sad for no reason and then just going back to drinking a good amount again. I don’t really know why I am posting this, I just really wanted to get it out there, if anyone has any advice or any words of encouragement I will gladly listen, and to anyone else who is struggling with alcohol I wish you the best, we are not alone! To anyone who may have read this, thank you for listening.",4.962533018867923,5.0224853924528325,5.7418278301886785,83.39613797169814,68.66037735849056,8.587264150943396,27.88325471698113,8.278499904357787,1.7204764150943401,1019,30,210,13,16,334,151,265,0.122,0.772,0.106,-0.3009,1,1,16,0,0,0,29.0,1,2,1,5,18,13,1,4,8,0,17,17,1,2,1,36,36,19,0,4,10,0,0,0,0,3,5,3,0,0,9,15,16,1,3,12,0,3,4,8,0,2,7,3,23,5,40,26,10,40,0,3,0,0,13,13,0,3,22,141,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07109374559046858,0.0,0.3887561036961303,0.0,0.07535054416117905,0.0,0.0,0.06053662725857638,0.0,0.0,0.0989495651034578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15261253178202366,0.07454441933307747,0.0,0.06476591884716022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11188569271842372,0.0,0.04434977561264227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07635016732018221,0.0,0.0,0.08081258667934232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04691990124596141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6414353957814429,0.0,0.0,0.06077610037536476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048052910975146336,0.0,0.061297847260231665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07602126013790686,0.0,0.12404224062235315,0.06102207022541169,0.05818751158709281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09753009304725807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03998334636135092,0.05930370217694584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08139240507592004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10696418775828466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2048223118779225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07747995857996194,0.04929956253007972,0.05533221195188063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07878480378694064,0.0,0.05043802231148359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06967761212406008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23214647500520316,0.07277305240621239,0.0,0.1398230044050294,0.07480257556905978,0.0,0.0,0.0824153793453953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05149520571996349,0.0,0.058100930719387635,0.06082507024533309,0.0,0.2281728384853711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06698152313627154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14818427613597385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06283554762660636,0.0,0.0,0.042911819246238415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06564859523018488,0.0,0.08366277847146679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0738845729917809,0.0,0.051681902611667864,0.0,0.0,0.0937015626091266 alcoholism,PutItOnThePoll,2019/07/25,"Anybody who's gone thru DTs or had seizures, did you feel fine the day before I thought I was going thru withdrawals the past two days but throughout the day today I've gotten to feeling 98% back to normal. To anybody who's gone thru the above, did this happen to you or were you sick all the way thru? Also, any advice on proactively tapering tonight just to be safe? I really don't want yo drink ever again but I want to go thru DTs way less Thanks and good luck with sobriety everyone!",5.336360544217683,5.6071414795918395,5.46979591836735,84.93829931972793,67.87755102040815,8.574149659863947,28.578231292517003,8.344100000000001,1.7953210884353739,387,12,79,5,6,122,68,98,0.07400000000000001,0.754,0.172,0.8901,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,3,0,0,5,5,0,0,5,0,7,2,0,0,2,17,19,6,0,3,5,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,1,1,3,1,0,4,1,0,0,1,9,2,7,5,13,9,2,16,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,3,9,48,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.203182063454646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16627767822610692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14139624131968512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15988161636984838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17692899982920965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4022835879470431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20368750241167335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18808021443510928,0.0,0.198681404276623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2102664203574376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2363373242457339,0.17439776230239476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1838675355063048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20372251365587268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.198488095898535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13320218404346176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19142955503511075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16506935444860735,0.0,0.0,0.1970887430610916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20311267214940254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2452792973173281,0.3300826335246205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Dimenticare7,2018/12/02,I think I may have a problem. I’m 19 in college Anyone on here than I can talk to for support/guidance? ,0.7026086956521738,2.0780446956521783,3.2602173913043515,92.17119565217396,80.30434782608695,4.6000000000000005,28.89130434782609,3.1291,0.7443217391304344,80,4,18,0,2,28,20,23,0.14400000000000002,0.856,0.0,-0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,5,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,13,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3611325067445579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4941984357239893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5860916214687356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4151243955121439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3309374052523823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,throwaway55894127,2018/12/02,"How to support my dad We have all been worried about dad’s drinking for years. He has often stopped for a short time after a big night or if we’ve got at him about it. But has slowly started again numerous time. Out of the blue he has quit a week ago and the other night stayed sober at a big party for the village. The type he would normally have gotten very drunk at. He told me on the phone just now that around midnight he went to his hotel room and watched a film cause he was bored. This isn’t the usual “stopping drinking “ behaviour for him. He might mean it this time. What’s the right thing to say?",2.187498181818185,3.9859879680000003,2.718618181818183,95.8113090909091,77.32,5.505454545454546,21.763636363636365,6.1124844417494595,0.06532000000000028,476,13,106,3,11,147,86,125,0.084,0.873,0.043,-0.4754,0,0,2,0,0,0,9.0,1,0,0,1,8,2,0,0,12,0,10,3,0,2,1,19,17,6,0,3,4,2,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,8,5,3,2,1,5,0,1,1,1,0,0,6,3,6,1,17,9,1,28,0,0,2,0,16,11,0,4,15,64,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15699192772622525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15766002544777855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18193449801587608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3469888094167408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14164617318582526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19291807452349866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878792578394241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3324000387626916,0.17352422615003246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18837180525611796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15124576890736482,0.0,0.1408401352848013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12535505693059454,0.18876920044818246,0.0,0.2961335928969873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20097541489887305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11765996628984708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3098121372285426,0.0,0.0,0.1692303727694012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19505493252016834,0.14612927110498014,0.0,0.0,0.14206207146055624,0.0,0.0,0.1641770961265316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17985761439703846,0.0,0.12580953418068333,0.0,0.0,0.11404910953486196 alcoholism,kippy1234,2018/12/02,"DUI and Your Career Hey Guys, ​ Already cross posted to r/stopdrinking. But I want to keep gathering people's perspectives on this situation. ​ I recently got a DUI conviction and have been in communication with everyone from r/dui. However I want to post here under r/alcoholism to gather more people's perspectives on this situation. ​ I want to hear from others who got a DUI Conviction and how you overcame it in terms of INTERVIEWS/GETTING EMPLOYMENT. My main concern has been getting a job and interviewing with this black mark on my record. I have no other priors or anything on my record. Please let me know if your interviews and job securing have gone well. Has this affected your ability to get employment? ​ I work white-collar, college degree required, desk jobs. Some are boring and others are fun. In all cases I sit behind a desk, and work from a CPU. 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She's a 57 year old chronic alcoholic, and I mean chronic. She is high functioning, holding a senior position at a major company. She works ungodly hours but is indeed ""slowing down"". She gets plastered at least 3-4 times a week. When she's not drunk, she's out cold by latest 10pm because of the exhaustion. How is it, that when she drinks, she's able to regularly pull 3-4am in the morning? And then wake up at 6-8am the next day to meet calls? .......................................... What can I do about this? She won't shut the fuck up. I just want some rest. She stays up until 3-4AM in the morning, screaming... crying.. wailing.. sobbing. It's insufferable. I haven't got a good night's rest in years. 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I have decided to get sober again after a 6 month relapse and the beginnings of chronic liver and kidney pain due to excessive drinking. I went to an AA meeting the other night and I was reminded of how much of a distaste I have for the concept of ""giving up to a higher power"". As a pretty religious person myself, I find time with God to be special and meditative. Something I do on a specific day of the week in a certain state of mind especially reserved for it. I reflect on my own by myself when I need it, and to be completely honest it feels like a bit of a betrayal to take on a different form of this in the presence of people who I know believe in something different. While I respect their right to not believe what I do, it still just doesn't sit right with me. I enjoy every part of AA except for this one aspect. As a former teacher, teaching and talking is very therapeutic for me. I enjoy it a lot. Is there something similar to AA that maybe takes it in a little different direction? I don't know maybe I'm just a prude after all.",4.191335388994304,5.0502946088709715,5.943766603415562,78.43197343453511,70.65322580645163,8.738519924098673,30.717267552182165,9.007467420416297,2.634394876660344,965,40,184,18,17,333,138,248,0.055,0.768,0.177,0.9856,4,0,4,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,1,2,8,11,2,0,22,0,14,6,2,1,3,36,28,15,0,2,9,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,14,9,1,1,8,1,0,2,4,3,4,1,3,1,21,8,44,21,11,30,0,0,0,1,7,12,0,6,15,146,35,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08697110129688734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28027285570443394,0.0,0.0,0.2715868419455096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13041263268105982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0802163905503688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3898595613751338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12184744841617698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10479757896222834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06289150415418113,0.0888588473584584,0.0,0.0,0.11368330621063928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06498469659373393,0.11931898019467745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367146836230334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060766982424097414,0.12466389165866965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10574551130005176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2499177789598473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13195012378952167,0.12559081736820568,0.0,0.09928088516434598,0.0,0.0914354126103375,0.09222801086492498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1167245037231977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08428476737716055,0.0,0.13235169675090186,0.0,0.0,0.2693881454216138,0.0,0.08623112983799035,0.10860595796107164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265416682693204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2124438659112105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11323311128945344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.287267061089652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09933198549362847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2805603691518346,0.0999739020404312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07252840703636271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10262854789459716,0.0,0.0,0.09977209900965897,0.0,0.0,0.1153037775772728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,daisybleux,2018/12/02,"Finally finished 25 years old. Been doing this since I was 20. Up up to at least 10 units per day - sometimes a little more. My physical appearance is changing and I’m also not sleeping. Everything in my life is suffering - I originally thought alcohol cured my anxiety and now it’s the cause of it. Spent all of today vomiting and shaking. I wasted yet another day, but I’m hoping things will start to look up soon. 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Hi Reddit - I'm 24yrs old, never had an account before. I made this post to try and figure out what's going on w me. In May of 2018 I got a DUI - one of the requirements is that I don't drink through my entire alc class period (26 weeks). What I've been doing instead is drinking Fri-Mon - I get. Tested every Friday night so I have to take 80 hours or so to get the alcohol out of my system I don't consider myself an alcoholic, but some of my friends/family disagree. When I do drink, I usually start as early as the liquor stores open (around 10-11am). I spend a lot of time by myself on my laptop drinking. I also usually go to bars alone. I'm mostly posting this for support. I was supposed to work at 5:30 today and just woke up on the floor about an hour ago. Am I an alcoholic? Do I have a problem?",0.7952332657200785,2.66518491954023,3.3891210277214334,88.99445233265725,81.98850574712644,6.392968221771468,21.154834347532123,7.510576382923642,0.7900193373901283,632,19,137,10,17,221,115,174,0.064,0.914,0.023,-0.7536,0,1,8,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,2,8,2,0,0,12,0,15,10,0,1,1,18,27,10,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,5,6,10,1,1,6,3,2,3,1,0,1,6,0,21,1,25,20,3,31,0,0,0,0,1,11,0,5,15,93,26,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10956109747733682,0.5283495239364258,0.0,0.12800900023626388,0.0,0.09884030880120408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1100273476894059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10517176548031422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4843112040556464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10413562677972146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11651605435994995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12914844365474487,0.0,0.14048580879228914,0.0,0.098851644237193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2434358841581528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10507757151853632,0.0,0.11695027172609115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09532546442339268,0.0,0.0,0.11598721531675987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12969404053328107,0.0,0.08375238403138206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2367431202028772,0.0,0.0,0.1182654365081906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08748244454708817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14025617330263146,0.0,0.0,0.09292940473273917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07207028254716273,0.0,0.11715530571042634,0.0,0.0,0.08391410772174775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2722488064806102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0991418901885512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0899799355990099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,throwaway712347,2019/01/13,"How should I bring up my gf's drinking problem? [M24] [F24] TLDR; My gf isn't an alcoholic, but whenever she does drink, she drinks until she is stumbling drunk and can't control her emotions. How do I bring this up? She doesn't get drunk too regulary, maybe twice a month. However whenever she does drink, she always gets far too drunk. Last night she got thrown out of a bar for drinking too much. She then cried for hours, kept getting annoying and angry, she really can't control her emotions when drunk. I even had to carry her up the stairs as she couldn't walk without falling. I don't have a drinking problem, I don't like getting drunk but on the odd occasion that I do get drunk, I'm able to control my emotions. I've considering giving up alcohol completely, maybe lead by example and hope she follows? She's relatively insecure and takes any criticism I say to heart. If I address it, I know it will make her cry but it's became an issue that needs addressed. I don't exactly know how to approach this. Any advice? Thanks",3.2076457645764584,5.314975089108913,4.266864686468647,84.45929592959297,75.33663366336634,7.657205720572058,28.54895489548955,8.515128840125781,2.2397713971397137,816,35,157,16,18,265,113,202,0.249,0.703,0.049,-0.992,1,0,8,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,0,4,8,7,1,1,7,0,15,16,1,8,1,28,34,15,0,7,5,0,0,1,2,2,2,1,2,0,7,5,15,4,2,13,0,7,9,4,0,1,3,1,29,3,17,28,1,22,0,0,0,0,20,8,0,2,8,94,36,1,0.09766867464870817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09544069849195612,0.0,0.20875622051762802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08126816138212194,0.0,0.0,0.1328360959253695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10240374714487377,0.0,0.32863117066349895,0.0,0.0,0.21456890586792332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17094103072533667,0.0,0.0,0.5740687098177292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3295923394067469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06450923847026308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.255139256890316,0.09369269238910556,0.0,0.0,0.07811456131980014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1157378497150529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09700703153342924,0.0961839706726752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10194072121494444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10735229866084743,0.07961300550305336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04771598099804337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0651945987377006,0.0,0.1962426224934996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07795820429108995,0.0,0.07179771376853789,0.07242008469673428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09165543490034292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18691146239236928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06256905392930928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07767005021420878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07343468831929477,0.0,0.0,0.0899201934162538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09414911704657207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,onAndAnon,2019/01/13,"Is there any point in saying “it’s me or the booze”? My boyfriend is a recovering alcoholic. A few times now he has promised to quit cold turkey, but it always ends with him relapsing. Am I setting myself up for heartbreak if I give him an ultimatum?",3.535,5.3033118367346965,4.840561224489797,82.17676020408162,73.48979591836735,8.16530612244898,28.5765306122449,8.841846274778883,2.2676897959183675,196,8,39,4,4,65,44,49,0.11,0.8540000000000001,0.036000000000000004,-0.6868,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,4,0,4,2,0,0,0,4,5,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,7,1,5,5,1,7,0,1,0,0,5,3,0,2,3,28,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4039586124575298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31451971708909543,0.0,0.0,0.2570475977253878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3347888167909692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36260447637024784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3573247232201809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4020411385545274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3005944985614357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22041023995075715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,throwaway011319,2019/01/13,"Alcoholic or not? How to approach. Trying to figure out if my friend is actually an alcoholic. Friend drinks about 5 nights a week, not often in large quantities, but still most nights of the week. Claims to be a beer/liquor snob, but will drink anything that is around when alcohol is available. I even once saw him take a drink when the bartender had no idea what he was asking for and just whipped something together. He complained about how awful it was to me, but still drank it. I am concerned that he makes every social function involve alcohol. I know that he is not with friends 5 nights a week, so drinking that much means solo drinking occurs. I know my friend goes to bars alone and also has planned for guests to come drink, when the guests don't show, he still drinks as planned. Alone. My friend does well in all other aspects of life and has no known personal or professional problems due to alcohol. What makes things more concerning is that my friend is now dating someone that works in the mental health industry who cannot drink at all. When I questioned this, he half-jokingly expressed excitement in having a dd. I feel like he is a budding alcoholic, at the very least, and worried about how this relationship will work as all of social gatherings with friends involve alcohol. I have not directly addressed the problems that I see. I feel that it is going to ruin him eventually and certainly crumble this budding relationship. I also wanted to see first if others outside of those who know me think that his drinking is an issue or not. Is drinking, even just a beer or two, 5 nights a week alcoholism? I have seen him drink upwards of 8 drinks over 6 hours and only have a buzz.",6.186429317808628,7.24541880877743,5.833345275414243,80.2962904911181,66.24137931034483,8.960203015375429,32.431855500821015,9.107695989026183,2.7642520077623525,1356,55,247,23,21,419,164,319,0.135,0.777,0.08800000000000001,-0.9420000000000001,0,2,23,0,0,0,34.0,0,0,0,5,24,16,1,0,17,1,25,25,0,5,4,52,44,27,0,5,16,0,2,1,11,2,10,0,1,1,23,11,23,0,11,15,0,3,9,5,1,2,6,6,21,11,32,35,7,32,0,1,4,0,36,9,0,9,21,169,44,3,0.0,0.0,0.05391378283047607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4723438907426662,0.0,0.11443990480239592,0.0,0.08836312688148641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04546414733562488,0.04918216364472728,0.05164913893304169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0475909991188842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04834763207304582,0.0,0.0,0.6494605221261693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07298116581229616,0.0,0.046548567652327816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055869791360976084,0.03946896587433457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04699366296220685,0.0,0.0,0.2987896363263755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03139853946715426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05872571855880845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05440785287973432,0.0,0.0,0.062367925295891836,0.0,0.05766424200963426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09108806848467936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03902308235701935,0.02699123415260784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0737565336899076,0.0,0.0,0.06018093860059118,0.0,0.0,0.0556766843179668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04061341427787028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20738488472913968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058836994362096724,0.0,0.042018363229960574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04824015813780321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10572916959300632,0.0,0.0,0.06189006482393108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11863070170529365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08805052335090507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1126361394510808,0.046811194499397225,0.042532376415033435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13236264690208338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04153939258696448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036704115073336055,0.035400493521736284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037509559802554895,0.0,0.053968972299366286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045585136145689466,0.032586523190413955,0.0,0.17726548061724834,0.0,0.04967431470867351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08044196302659093,0.0561067182305852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,buns_crystal,2019/01/13,"My boyfriend said he doesn't trust me. So I have been sober for not even a month, and my boyfriend and his buddy are going to be drinking tonight. He asked if I was going to have a problem with that i told him no. My problem is being alone with alcohol I dont trust myself if I am alone. He told me he doesnt trust me either. I feel like i just go jabbed in the heart because he said something true to me. But the truth hurts. I hurt him emotionally when I ended up in the hospital twice last month in the same week for extreme alcohol intoxication. I know that broke my trust with him but it still hurts and I dont know how to deal with that feeling. 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I had a relapse last night. It wasn't too bad but I do feel some guilt. My family came over and was concerned because I have some liver damage and if I keep drinking to much it can become life threatening. The doctors told me if I keep drinking I will destroy my liver and die. I don't know why I thought it was a good idea. Ill only have a few I told myself. But it always seems that alittle turns into more and more. Before I knew it I was staggering around outside, empty beer cans were everywhere. But I'm back on the path of sobriety. I hope I can be strong enough not to have another relapse. Rome wasn't built in a day! Keep at it everyone and I will too! 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I haven’t had a drink since. I’m 22 and I can see this will be an issue for me as long as I drink. I don’t know what my social life will be like without but I have to try. I don’t remember the last time I went over a week without a drink in maybe 4 years. I’m going to go to my first AA meeting this week but I am wary the god stuff may not make it work for me. Does anyone have any recommendations on other ways to start this journey? I’m scared, disappointed in myself and so I would really appreciate any words of wisdom. 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I need practical advice from people who have done it ,3.654444444444444,6.608847037037041,4.527407407407409,78.63333333333334,78.62962962962962,8.044444444444443,23.814814814814817,8.841846274778883,2.40017037037037,118,4,19,3,3,38,21,27,0.057,0.84,0.10300000000000001,0.29600000000000004,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,4,7,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,2,0,3,0,4,5,0,4,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,13,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6156547939731583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2142198783153936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32236802441060697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26795019214292903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2111468063839175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2980732457571511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4671568107524314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21839059101953645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Naima_,2019/02/24,"My dad appear to have relapsed I can tell when he drinks. He talks more, starts talking about how he is a man, etc. I straight up asked him if had a drink and he confirmed my suspicion. I recently moved here with him 3 weeks ago. A year ago, before he went for help, I was skeptical of living with him because of his drinking. I was NC for work but it wasn't working well there. I'm from MD but can't return until I have a job or car( mother lives in shit area for work). I suspect it's due to srress/ work. He hasn't been able to make his AA meetings, but he also refuses to use his off days and continues working. If this continues or worsens, I may have to return to my grandparents...How can handle this situation in a way to help?",1.5197759103641495,3.3203296470588266,3.3257376283846867,90.68367647058822,79.3267973856209,6.462931839402429,24.00046685340803,7.447530270364453,0.9878780578898224,568,20,125,8,14,190,96,153,0.11800000000000001,0.836,0.046,-0.8927,2,0,3,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,5,7,3,2,0,5,0,14,4,1,3,0,18,21,13,0,2,7,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,4,3,1,1,3,0,4,3,2,2,0,6,0,17,1,21,14,2,25,0,0,0,0,24,6,1,6,14,78,21,6,0.1428311147696884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2532223306140091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11422199087785935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13352781152644386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08706852185312472,0.0,0.12153875866031767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09211425290314007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4197603483029732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.159294448668272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1914733709588785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14173784220635724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2522449822579269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0953408782105498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15180687092016862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14102849456099045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14661408677281346,0.0,0.16054815739024694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10109659818169868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2296044794108152,0.12484068984492765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12336022394937847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11337269066302545,0.11457050482821315,0.0,0.12842232550525098,0.13240587435520668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5199137633134995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09197855500963392 alcoholism,Sour_Pickel,2019/01/12,"Heineken 0.0 after 1.5 years sober So I decided to get Heineken 0.0 last night since it finally came out. For those who don't know its 0.0% Alcohol. I have avoided near beers for their tendency to cause relapses. Had 3 last night and 2 today. It's taste is amazing and i find it gives me physical symptoms of drinking, blushing and thirst for it. I don't want alcohol but I'm concerned at how much I love the drink. Afraid it could trigger a relapse. Is it possible for it to trigger DT's since it has 0 Alcohol?",1.7717210944395418,4.159191873786412,3.1841482789055604,88.91149161518095,81.71844660194174,7.240600176522506,28.7811120917917,8.296473431620573,2.264774757281553,405,20,83,9,11,132,71,103,0.028999999999999998,0.885,0.085,0.812,0,1,6,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,0,2,4,0,2,2,0,8,10,1,4,0,16,15,6,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,11,5,8,1,3,3,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,1,7,2,12,12,1,12,0,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,8,47,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.542440246171289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1935090999423303,0.0,0.17380546545446254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13508501519566868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3314849695130594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18534015342394505,0.15463724428871348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0883951631699879,0.16230314637803622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09298278979544074,0.2758260213527594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1527012219119888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1243746395822258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3175480411042748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1907371047665451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2799126082604953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758539302208714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16037301064483214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09979306465878617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1089532704547541 alcoholism,plsthrowthisfaraway,2019/01/12,"How do I help my dad? My dad is a 56yo narcissist with a drinking problem. He’s been drinking for as long as I can remember. He’d usually start drinking with his friends in the evening and would only end when he’s drunk. He’s gone through ‘sober’ phases where he’d go months of staying at home at night with only 2 cans of beer max and ESPN. Despite his drinking behaviour he’s pretty functional I’d say since he’s quite established in his work. However things are getting worse where he would lie about his schedule and go drinking and every night it worries my mom and I so much because he’d only come back at dawn. I’m convinced his behaviour has a lot to do with his social circle since he only drink when there’s company. The family dynamic had gone stale because of all the lying and hiding and on top of that I’m worried for his physical and mental health. However he’s too stubborn and old school to get help so I don’t think sending him for therapy is achievable in near future. I’m so hurt and I’ve considered to go no contact with him but I feel bad for my mom to have to handle this on her own. I’m leaving for college tomorrow so I really want to know how I can handle/manage this. 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For those of you in soberity what are small changes and big changes you notice when you stopped drink and doing drugs? ,6.5500000000000025,9.172894000000003,4.331666666666667,85.38000000000002,67.33333333333334,8.133333333333335,37.0,8.841846274778883,3.2614,112,6,20,2,2,31,19,24,0.08900000000000001,0.9109999999999999,0.0,-0.3094,0,0,2,0,0,0,2.0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,2,0,5,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,13,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7426800565234889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2292485526031581,0.2713865891578986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5328620978521512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19564953020508527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,buddy5072,2019/01/12,"Aa and 161 straight meetings The first 20 meetings were a chore boring as hell why and whey an I here the next 20 were the same but I still went. The next 20 I began to notice people in the meeting and I started to here what people were saying. After the red chip I started talking to the regulars and guess what no one bite me. Next set I’m talking in meetings and no laugh at me and I feel good about it. Oh all the time I gave out my phone number to new people but I was hoping no one would call me how can I help anyone. Now I’m in 100 straight days and I’m chatting away speaking up being involved and I love going to meetings, somewhere I started to love the meeting just happened, got sponsor book work not a ton so I’m moving on. Now I know a lot of nice people who care about my sobriety ( everyone cared from day one I just did not see it) so now I love meetings talk a lot and as I tell my sponsor and the group I get more out of the meeting than the book and sponsor it’s cool. I have more but I’m dyslexic as fuck and I have no idea how how this will read but it’s still getting better as of this morning ",-0.08443687018375813,2.0364832697095423,1.8190678719620657,97.35103215767636,87.67219917012449,3.940782454060463,20.640337877889745,4.999035159303659,-0.32086496739774706,872,29,198,3,28,287,122,241,0.076,0.71,0.214,0.991,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,3,16,14,2,0,17,1,11,4,0,3,1,35,38,25,0,2,8,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,9,14,0,0,3,4,0,3,6,3,1,4,9,6,24,11,27,26,7,33,1,0,2,4,25,11,2,4,18,135,33,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08124555512374669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10916809953396346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10276416157205198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11864707794193716,0.0,0.2369350791578083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14987105102971096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11102835824456833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058751183914888976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09883456759981306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1074194921494185,0.1214131515084108,0.0,0.06603573494574268,0.09745802482351204,0.0929309662508263,0.0,0.12800080450048434,0.0,0.10274998143921353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0778823972550252,0.0,0.0,0.11540687192262172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311688968292214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0638571904856302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19756798843076429,0.3146088981565646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12349584663223034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11222090123812148,0.37072095117712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1322876532596632,0.0,0.0,0.2362082098049163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.322217192063366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11622545616182495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09240214235610182,0.0,0.0,0.09259158420277433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2467281600973021,0.0,0.18558537681211654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2801770374771351,0.10155868830639816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0677536630448675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10771301360381667,0.10484702337921847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08459062489986315,0.0,0.0,0.08254089264832504,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,theboyinthewindow,2019/01/12,"The Secret Confessions of an Alcoholic on the Edge So I have been wanting to write about confessing my feelings for a long time. I don't know if this will help me in anyway, do me harm or nothing at all but I wanted to get it out there. Maybe it will help someone out there who knows. There is so much spilling out of me this may seem all over the place. ​ For over 8 years I have been an alchoholic. It took me a long time to admit it. I love alcohol and hate it at the same time. I have been to rehab, and given it up more times then I can count only to have it re-enter my life. I'm drawn to it but also go out of my way to avoid it. I lock myself away from the world because of my fear and what I become when I drink. ​ I mean it is around every corner out there, and every corner in my mind. There is nowhere to hide. My family keeps a close eye on me because of my past so its like a prision but I feel like I deserve it too for my past mis deeds. Torn between, I have existed in a weird paradoxical purgtory. When I don't drink, I feel like I'm not really here, I don't enjoy much and life seems pointless. I think about drink from time to time, more frequently lately but i mostly feel like im floating through life. When I do drink, I feel happy for about 10 minutes before I drink too much and forget what happens. All that is left when I come to is pain, shame and the hurt that I have caused those I care about. ​ I haven't drank in two months now, I go month periods without drinking, But I feel misrable. At first I feel great and after the illness wears away from the excess I'm at my peak. But over time i whittle away back to where I am now. I'm reaching my usual cycle where I reset with drinking. I don't want to and try to stay strong but its hard and everyday gets more bleak. ​ I miss interaction, I used to have friends. I used to have a girlfriend. Since I locked myself up I haven't seen any of them. I'm scared to go out there. They want to go to pubs and bars. Places which are danger zones for me. ​ I miss sex. God... that one is an itch I wish I didn't have. I get anrgy at being horny and get horny every few days. I wish I never had experienced how great sex can feel. I think how long its been since i had sex. I can't even remember. Maybe two years now, who knows. Your guess is now as good as mine. How sad. ​ When was the last time I went on a date? I laugh in my head but it ain't funny. I think about seeing a prostitue. I have done so in the past and it was nice to just feel something. Even a good cuddle with a woman would be more than enough right now. But who am I kidding. I miss sex bad. I hate porn and masturbation. I want to feel close to someone. I just want to feel. I used to think drink made me horny and wanting sex but when the drink left the feeling is still there, I hate it. Why can't we have a damn off switch for sexual desire. I would shut that thing down in a heartbeat. ​ I could try go out, clear out my system. Do all the things I know is wrong but people will ask ""where are you going? what are you doing"". I can't tell them the truth. They want to keep me locked up anyway or follow me everywhere. ""Can I go with you?"" F No! I know it is with good intentions but it drives me crazy. I want to cry but I'm trapped and there is no escape for me. Do i want to escape? Or is it better I'm trapped here, safe but misrable. What a miserable state of affiars with no light at the end. ​ In the end I guess if you made it this far, learn from me. If you have any of the things I don't, appreciate them. If you have a girlfriend, a lover, a friend.. love them like no one else could. Alchohol has taken one of the most important things I ever had in my life, my freedom... and in turn happiness. ​ ​ ​ ​",0.5689926544762223,2.676158447466012,1.936922552320876,97.73807581376188,84.42645241038319,4.9061904152991485,18.198726965318325,6.129581340695534,-0.3970430615347458,2980,72,694,24,87,953,309,809,0.145,0.698,0.157,0.9622,0,3,12,0,0,0,149.0,1,7,6,3,49,45,5,5,37,0,71,35,4,10,8,138,156,55,0,21,25,0,13,5,5,6,10,0,0,2,41,35,13,4,30,11,0,12,19,20,0,6,19,18,112,25,102,127,16,116,2,6,3,11,36,54,1,14,51,473,153,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06712103819076734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02511316407519326,0.0,0.40830484046030896,0.4579005663682233,0.042710567597032435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0279555463635776,0.029357795409562126,0.0,0.08851314861733246,0.02414715737757217,0.02622039827234107,0.03828625395647717,0.034682417419491164,0.02672184895635113,0.0,0.0,0.027773618681016302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032017701696867844,0.0322597835435571,0.0,0.02705111535896369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05014587244187842,0.0,0.03449499059142022,0.02025249541740222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03213642311345119,0.0,0.2768690271858024,0.0,0.0,0.02623338203307915,0.0,0.05562790905969602,0.03244794721108442,0.0,0.04148309495432941,0.028406033418289806,0.0793757662165573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029604185033666294,0.03533738180173365,0.1905410937994736,0.06730345456491803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02671158457411939,0.0,0.0,0.0485241391377808,0.0,0.0656275985960487,0.0,0.1249303167128412,0.07901865720829418,0.0,0.06924437803879037,0.06918843068781691,0.0,0.027769786278783102,0.0668586775368742,0.028131139735835368,0.0930126104714752,0.0322287897125177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042097867004108884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03361782379779068,0.0,0.03392089395658601,0.0,0.0,0.05582529497257158,0.0,0.0,0.08629201228608349,0.025597836412261432,0.03542422874536983,0.0,0.06823943622593097,0.0,0.08872416398446234,0.07671019754376968,0.0,0.0,0.08337265217680086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05668531024426374,0.05942902036866126,0.0,0.0,0.0630975619618973,0.034207340518920194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03170832588908714,0.0,0.050131541896391366,0.0,0.06925499622361009,0.0,0.024220118872994613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03013226100089354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06383895560562247,0.023883583281979873,0.03341526729814602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08993385352352075,0.02177105638759367,0.0,0.06561941540050205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.020117723188970614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035573755446890495,0.02681820006673325,0.0,0.0,0.03144012707911477,0.0,0.025024320866141796,0.05717667054709701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051954178368239685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05321573599792792,0.024175752604391032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033471681360933044,0.02507867241605681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.027447820715088708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08345168366961324,0.0804877268181368,0.0,0.0,0.14649187988213866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03489016121814295,0.04264148465335474,0.03415771342760003,0.06135281555354335,0.0,0.0,0.0813669641174281,0.03458623829360099,0.0,0.1852244782189605,0.024926434571703626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029111123187805236,0.02833654459519247,0.0,0.07222436503940258,0.030271608027969462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04461592919041038,0.03433451918269506,0.4579005663682233,0.04044532100348582 alcoholism,bloodyrainbows_,2019/01/12,"Been trying to cut back drinking the past few weeks, but I’m used to drinking daily anywhere from 5 to 10 drinks, depending on the night. I’ve become somewhat of a raging alcoholic over the past 6ish months and I’m now trying to finally kick the habit. I never thought it would be this hard. I am really used to going to the bar late at night with all the other regulars, and I am having so much trouble focusing on more important things because all I ever want to do is get wasted! Now that I’ve decided to take a step back from drinking, people don’t seem to be as interested in me or want to talk to me. It makes me feel like shit, and I’m wondering if I’m really that awful as a sober person or if they feel like they can’t relate to me as well because I don’t want to drink anymore. It hurts, especially when you thought you had a close, trustful friend but once the drinks are gone, so are they. I’m not sure how to cope with the loneliness... I have never felt so alone in my life.",4.850129449838184,4.567920825242723,5.998203883495147,82.63413430420714,68.90291262135922,9.390938511326864,28.331715210355988,9.075114841892004,2.013567637540454,774,23,167,13,12,260,119,206,0.155,0.722,0.12300000000000001,-0.8817,0,1,7,0,0,0,19.0,0,2,3,0,11,12,3,0,12,1,16,10,1,5,6,37,38,17,0,6,7,0,4,2,1,1,2,0,0,1,8,6,8,0,8,7,0,3,6,5,1,0,6,4,16,7,28,29,6,26,0,1,0,0,8,7,1,8,18,109,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11397946187916615,0.0,0.11046018820204344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10577096912520452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16401891734659105,0.0,0.1300291753809202,0.11778969398259333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6268751413916951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09647360918155873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10785377144796636,0.15238563527808005,0.1024034617884695,0.11683298446770822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08239972765848562,0.0,0.05572171240215167,0.0,0.060613272700634685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09554000520746378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11417408220446365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12030906072716645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0753320623400231,0.10421039092790522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07119160581778973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0851292876651233,0.0,0.07840211668136914,0.0,0.1645145063428467,0.0,0.0,0.20017295048431616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11358180490803252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20362442746484305,0.07393965762407527,0.09312515518077433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13664909394254884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09709274940709886,0.0,0.0,0.10947761829731488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10051904932136224,0.0,0.08018967039299041,0.08572352121676201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07085541474000387,0.0,0.0,0.16934089996395096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448205690950303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842276388015615,0.0,0.0,0.1887198433454841,0.0,0.08555048339352077,0.0,0.09589372100583457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11566046675740105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07576312490740722,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Invisiblemonk,2019/01/12,"Pressing Question Hello all hope your evening is going well. So I've heard a lot about people using alcohol to deal with anxiety, but my story is a little different and was wondering if anyone can relate. I am 22 years old and started drinking around 17. Before I started drinking I had ZERO problems with anxiety. I never really had it unless there was a reason like a presentation or something like that. After 5 years of drinking pretty much every weekend in excess, I have developed anxiety pretty bad. Since I did not use alcohol to cope with it when I first started, I'm wondering how this sickness became a part of my life due to alcohol consumption. Will it go away for good if I stop hard cold? Or will I have to now deal with this phenomenon for the rest of my life because of my dumb decisions as a reckless teen? Thanks all and much love:)",4.924059304703481,6.442212975460127,6.2130214723926365,74.71172034764828,69.5521472392638,9.114314928425358,31.37474437627812,9.516144504307137,3.1772989775051137,677,29,115,15,12,228,107,163,0.145,0.708,0.147,0.3632,1,0,7,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,1,9,10,1,0,7,0,13,10,0,4,3,30,27,13,0,4,7,0,2,2,0,2,6,1,0,0,6,8,6,1,5,4,0,2,2,3,1,2,6,4,14,7,21,19,7,21,0,0,0,1,7,4,1,9,17,87,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3692098969515117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2642889953338329,0.0,0.0,0.08052186133190158,0.0,0.0,0.102515939069006,0.0,0.0,0.10819568601817264,0.0,0.09615296788312852,0.07019986708069495,0.0,0.09799184046674804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2374477770658466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12031666102054984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3384359815631511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0760614437547267,0.0,0.09702643746351602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09795419989375533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13089504488343726,0.09658991865545352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10315985849798744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11437888661783235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1626804368386458,0.11252175629254436,0.11541958705303712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979040769911297,0.1039355077438194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1693102537566304,0.0,0.08881773220726437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12084001510656453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12470599179864393,0.0,0.07983676158825832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23431623868500745,0.0,0.11019162542450747,0.0,0.0,0.1290044529211588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07377381424870526,0.11840264780831848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0952607277766887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08865503641768002,0.0,0.0,0.244530432018962,0.0,0.0,0.09627809357346877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10602294952059203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1989208301686666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10354178512264273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2497700802631432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14831726090039193 alcoholism,Smigao,2019/01/12,Ohh i got completely sh**faced last night and order 150$ of china bar. FML Godamnit was sober for nearly a week. Full of regret and back at square one. 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Got on anxiety medications then went on a bender. Boyfriend is about to break up with me and I have to pick up the pieces Tomorrow I have my second AA meeting I plan on attending. Drank all week after a 40 hour sobriety stretch and I feel like garbage but feel the need to keep drinking so I don’t get sick. I stopped drinking 2 hours ago, been anxious ever since. My therapist just prescribed me anxiety meds. I wanna do anxiety meds right by not drinking so I can actually feel a positive effect. Long story short I’ve been sleeping like crazy after work and I’ve been avoiding my bf bcuz I don’t want him to see me like this. He does not support me going on meds but I’ve always lived with anxiety but it’s gotten worse the past 3 years. Probably because I drink. I just want to stop but I’m struggling. I made an attempted and I failed so hard. How do I stop? How do I make myself feel normal again. The thing that keeps repeating in my head..... in the documentary about Amy Winehouse. She says being sober is so boring. I related so much. How do I change? I’m so lost. 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I just am scared of fucking my gaba receptors or something if I don’t wait like two days between drinking, even if it’s only 2-3 beers. How many days in a row would I need to drink to actually fuck up my receptors? I have a 3 day weekend and this info word be very helpful for that.",4.316666666666666,3.4615951111111163,6.18,82.81500000000003,70.1111111111111,8.866666666666667,31.88888888888889,8.07648339933343,2.1080722222222223,256,10,58,3,4,90,57,72,0.121,0.775,0.10400000000000001,-0.2983,0,0,5,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,2,1,3,0,7,6,0,1,1,15,11,6,0,4,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,4,1,2,5,0,0,2,3,0,1,1,0,7,1,8,8,1,7,0,0,0,2,2,3,2,5,5,39,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.19508907624177524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3867876427933336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5875244077914789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1320425638295261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3696380488254431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13399941101542154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09766880862385262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20268334046230665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14823510372884466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15204504743248415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22395155637677008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20015068746548076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15390502371660555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19528878143660308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16495155105293488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1420145166223558,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,nomnombubbles,2019/05/18,"I am never going back to rehab Some people benefit from it but I did not. I have extreme social anxiety and PTSD from childhood. I HATED living there. They told me I could only see a Therapist more than once a week. I owe 14,000 dollars for just being there for there for two weeks. It was my choice but I hated 'living' there. They would have kicked me out for not going to classes. Rehab DID NOT help me,",0.9948148148148128,3.4851233580246936,2.719617283950619,89.99127777777781,87.02469135802471,4.721481481481481,16.741975308641976,6.2581,-0.14574172839506214,316,7,61,3,10,104,53,81,0.204,0.773,0.023,-0.9561,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,2,0,6,3,2,0,2,0,9,2,0,0,1,12,16,3,0,2,6,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,4,2,0,1,4,1,13,1,10,9,2,8,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,1,5,52,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16057967948364735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16140693244582133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675951193572092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2385920495118992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41448302175512175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14069746325413132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3707066830707826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1618946292367378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2235460519852808,0.0,0.15964512315388174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14552435190115975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.245372187893944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16727015956318786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21397561651597047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24372032895438586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20057688136036084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20505042478849664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3367524019104826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14911320939856645,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,trowtrowtree,2019/05/18,"How do I tell my recovering bf [M/30] that I need a break from him Im sorry if this is not the place for this post but I was looking for advice. I figured I would be better understood on here. My ex bf of 2 years and I have been trying to work on things after a year of not speaking. In that year I moved to a different state, and we didn’t speak. He had a different girlfriend and was mostly not sober during that time. He’s now been sober since mid February but he was struggling for the last week. Last night he went out, ignored all my calls and texts for nearly 12 hours and drank. I felt completely helpless and scared because there is so little I can do from 400 miles away. My point is that I really do not want to live like that and need him to be sober long term, on his own before I continue a relationship with him. I’m nervous that my telling him this will set him off and continue a bender. I’m not sure what I’m looking for, I just don’t have anyone in my life I can talk to.",2.4249285714285698,3.532380004761912,3.801130952380955,91.18741071428572,75.14285714285714,7.154761904761906,22.648809523809533,7.645422480735847,0.704452380952381,771,20,178,10,16,254,121,210,0.115,0.851,0.035,-0.935,2,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,1,0,0,2,6,8,0,3,8,0,22,2,0,1,2,32,34,13,0,5,9,1,1,1,3,2,1,2,0,0,11,11,1,1,3,0,0,2,7,5,0,0,11,5,26,3,25,19,4,35,0,1,2,0,22,14,0,2,16,117,37,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14146953914915744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10122796016383363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1360180752529008,0.0,0.0,0.08825167762901225,0.0,0.12319032321249565,0.0,0.0,0.12803908396023672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14782841548892614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15179070506229714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3025118885076839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.139003839274935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14257127430543964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15637862099267055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2360170320787319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10225675678223044,0.07072829462173391,0.1450995936640385,0.12783634305469474,0.12811867903202587,0.2431440644560545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1538697424646241,0.0,0.2146932319036502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1358587305075093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15125594425384195,0.0,0.13685635019231562,0.0,0.13865157327603328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0927446609700178,0.0,0.0,0.15543096647517254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14494204435646058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11975690821165867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16206041998826898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513471451850107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13644591239306314,0.0,0.0,0.11636226312261234,0.2530742472868262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09618009499154803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0844177271385892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09829069622554937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08539028633808798,0.0,0.11612737924905744,0.0,0.0,0.13420510985008582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10539575235291043,0.0,0.0,0.10284188692126693,0.0,0.0,0.2796852965708617 alcoholism,Appolion,2019/05/18,Anyone else steal steak for nourishment? What a piece pf shit I am.,1.0223076923076917,3.6190070000000034,1.468076923076925,96.11442307692309,94.3846153846154,5.676923076923077,14.192307692307693,7.1686216300943375,-0.06896923076923045,53,1,11,1,2,16,13,13,0.43,0.57,0.0,-0.7783,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3854781964349666,0.5648667507826112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4605361293496152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5658962692024178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,senormcrib,2019/05/18,"Has anyone done the online MADD victim's impact panel? I got a dui in a state that requires a MADD VIP course. but because I live in a state that doesn't have MADD the prosecutor said I can do the online class that's available. Has anyone done this? I can't find any information online about how the online class is going to work. I'm not even sure if this is the right place to post this, but I figured it was worth a shot",3.6623970037453226,4.270505595505622,4.646685393258426,88.16793071161051,71.69662921348315,6.832209737827719,21.5749063670412,6.42735559955562,0.2322119850187265,334,6,73,2,6,109,56,89,0.031,0.903,0.066,0.4183,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,3,2,1,0,10,0,12,0,0,1,1,10,16,4,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,7,0,0,1,3,0,1,1,3,1,0,0,5,1,5,1,5,11,0,8,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,0,45,12,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17526953565824396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3604304550248709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15711366836322738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5275074787067734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17023240849689228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2355663270628201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.146477490110958,0.0,0.20613527965110906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2275858923826316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2692795978719449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2468401495244667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2201054089111572,0.24516626120805365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2429134312818348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876351104811666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,smashed_avocado_,2019/05/18,"I think I need help I never thought that I had a problem with drinking, and I don't drink every day. But when I do drink I don't even think about stopping or slowing down. I keep going until I'm blackout drunk, make it home somehow and then wake up the next day with no idea what happened at the end of my evening. ​ I'm also nasty by the end of the evening. I nearly always end up arguing with my partner, upsetting her and saying horrible things. I don't even remember this part the next day. ​ I'm really at a bad point right now, I think my partner will probably leave me because of my behaviour. I don't know how to fix this. I feel like my life is falling apart and I think it's because of my relationship with alcohol. I don't know what I expect from this post, but I think I just need to share where I am right now. Because right now I don't have any perspective on the future, I've literally just woken up after a heavy night of drinking. I feel low, ashamed, depressed and empty. Honestly I feel done and a bit scared. I've been with my partner for nearly 10 years and I think I've destroyed everything good we have with my drinking.",3.3573839662447216,4.677560877637131,4.431919831223631,86.73918776371309,73.1350210970464,7.460759493670888,28.356540084388186,7.984000788550335,1.736466666666666,916,36,190,13,18,299,124,237,0.18,0.759,0.062,-0.9690000000000001,0,0,6,0,0,0,30.0,1,0,0,0,15,13,2,3,10,0,15,9,1,2,1,43,37,15,0,4,5,0,3,1,3,1,2,1,1,3,9,14,7,2,14,6,0,2,8,9,0,0,5,4,34,4,28,31,2,40,0,2,0,0,10,16,0,2,22,124,43,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09648563757849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07219970705821263,0.0751231301883387,0.1956443360635996,0.21940874418549985,0.061395896979819335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0753829771726254,0.1651080074022521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09856623253518143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17467622541979286,0.0,0.07776107288767446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09239139790361496,0.0,0.4422174450121957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2398932324703515,0.0,0.0,0.2385256827537016,0.0,0.07606776869689083,0.0,0.08114101607524977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13695019784924833,0.06449857252877722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051310211206643815,0.07572554226261588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07983742822664944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06051514768054703,0.0,0.09056174278195653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.101919117059569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08024815055939863,0.0,0.0,0.09923493495068032,0.0,0.0,0.09559722333155893,0.0,0.0,0.06376992789003733,0.04410797281023356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06026495795223201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13388818839748268,0.06963222484866599,0.0,0.19203511875557355,0.08472497779434178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09776826592053928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0853471189355601,0.0,0.08646666594837031,0.0,0.0973409163804968,0.08638914603329312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0578379417493099,0.0,0.0,0.09693072453988663,0.10227364080988366,0.23130492631463986,0.0,0.07179708750320518,0.09038956454026974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07548107447805742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05998036623760576,0.34710024674615997,0.0,0.07167503878224413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21940874418549985,0.058139633850669586 alcoholism,elmoelmoelmoelmoelmo,2019/05/18,"Sliding backwards due to ptsd (20 yr old f) first time poster. I was doing really well with my sobriety by me self the past three months. Just finished my degree and moved states for my first proper job. The last 2-3 weeks I have fallen backwards into the deepest pits I have been in due to realisations that I was abused as a child and memories that have resurfaced that were previously repressed + my mother told me the she had gone through the same experience recently (we have been so inter-generationally abused, a recent realisation) and have been informed she and my sister have tried to kill themselves. I am really struggling atm because I have been so stone hard in my conviction not to drink because my reasoning has always been ‘I can handle the shitty feelings, the noise will not help’ but at the moment I feel like I can’t apply that mantra. It has been 4 weeks of drinking (only at night, but at very large amounts so higher functioning) and it is taking a toll but no body is noticing and I don’t know what to do because I have no support network e.g. psych and friends and family to support me and nobody can tell I’m not okay because my drinking does not effect my performance but I am worried for my life honestly. I have gone to AA but find the religious aspect difficult considering my history of sexual abuse in the church and I’m just struggling. I just don’t know what to do and my alcoholic brain keeps justifying the drink",5.583661409842295,6.792946324909747,6.113117993539808,77.20126733802014,67.70036101083032,9.152878586357593,30.824434733041983,9.414487439383343,2.785451985559566,1160,45,211,23,19,376,157,277,0.13699999999999998,0.794,0.069,-0.9396,1,0,5,0,3,0,21.0,1,0,0,4,7,12,1,3,14,1,34,8,2,2,0,37,47,20,1,0,12,2,3,1,1,1,2,0,0,2,8,14,5,2,8,4,1,5,9,5,2,3,13,3,31,7,23,33,2,31,1,0,0,0,12,9,0,0,17,143,39,2,0.0,0.38146021000977454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11468951267129222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08929655654328572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2616784201577918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11920528187005533,0.0,0.119801553058087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09391405660058756,0.0,0.0,0.4205202310815173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10497687192698604,0.10116916084915326,0.0,0.10852566140592737,0.0766674713145967,0.0,0.0,0.09808603056365267,0.1825680114647069,0.0,0.0,0.08291304813684433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0961351848587698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07193249659636893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10649582029111612,0.09538851078164737,0.11873064677379302,0.0,0.11795751797983844,0.08747788957667076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07580135382162116,0.05242979197198215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08565961231434678,0.1140612626297328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10070997775616486,0.0,0.0,0.122181410732428,0.11261141067610858,0.0,0.0,0.08161961141510701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1024464669725838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12544813291085727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13750036833705406,0.11034001597668512,0.2119256929398951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11195530622283677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2243826004865989,0.0,0.0,0.24356470762569915,0.0,0.0,0.08068922301452529,0.0,0.09380001461704256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06257755677971244,0.0,0.0,0.10254624001076862,0.0,0.07286137441101656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08854797789607796,0.0,0.0,0.17216686387935692,0.0,0.0964911041785354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10898588587791504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Fiskeslam,2018/11/05,"6 pint a day-oholic Hi! I don't know if what I've been doing on and off for some time would count as heavy alcoholism or not. But I'd say I'd classify myself as a binge-drinker. I've never been on the booze or wine, but I really like drinking beers. So for a couple of years now, I've been on the a-sixpack-a-day train. I haven't been drinking every day, but there has rarely been a week without a sixpack one of more nights. And there are always six beers or more. I've decided to stop it. And I do notice it is hard. It is sort of like being hijacked in the brain, and the voice is making all the excuses. I may become a bit obsessed right before eight o' clock (I live in Norway). Today I was at my sister's, and I said I was going home. Then I went to the store, but I didn't buy. But that was my urge. But I feel pretty determined to stop this bad pattern. I'm curious as to your stories and experiences. I wouldn't consider myself a heavy alcoholic, but I am definitely an alcoholic in some sense. I CAN buy three beers instead of six, but I do want the six. Those six have slowly become 7. What I mean is, I possess a kind of self-control and self-awareness, but I will gladly sometimes tell myself I don't care. ""Today I'm getting drunk"". ""Because I didn't yesterday"". Or because I want to ""chill out"". All the usual bullshit. I am positive though. And I don't think I'll end up like a fucked up alcoholic, but I know I have to be careful.. That voice creeps in even though I tell myself I'll keep away. Christmas is coming up, and all my family members drink. They don't drink like me though. I want more. They don't have that thing. They don't want to drink more, I do. But I'm tired of having a glass of wine and already looking forward to the next one. Or going to get more when my parents have gone to sleep. And that has happened. And I've been sleeping on the bathroom floor more than once. Goes without saying, that is not something I feel proud of. - (I don't live at my parents place, for the record). Like I said, it's always been the beer. Luckily I have never gone to the store and bought booze, and I have never felt the urge. I can stop if I want - but it doesn't mean I don't feel the urge to get those beers. And the voice has a tendency to come back every day. And I have to fight it. Last break was eleven days. Then Halloween came about, and I allowed myself to drink ""just tonight"". Ofc that turned into four nights. Then I resisted today. And I plan to keep resisting. Does anyone feel the same? What is your story with abstaining? What I'm most curious about is, what happens once you go sober for a month/two months? I hope this is not the wrong subreddit for talking about withdrawals and detox:P ",1.1047088465845505,3.164606010638302,2.6005076521089983,94.04184210526316,81.97872340425532,5.5891004106009685,20.355729749906683,6.757970130089065,0.21188226950354586,2106,59,468,23,57,685,240,564,0.079,0.807,0.114,0.9478,4,0,19,0,1,0,94.0,0,3,3,2,15,16,2,1,31,0,58,25,3,2,6,89,103,49,0,10,25,3,6,5,0,4,5,7,1,0,22,25,20,6,11,14,5,10,21,5,0,10,21,14,59,11,56,76,14,62,0,0,1,1,19,21,1,13,37,308,81,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2754342065667761,0.0,0.0,0.07110266390444353,0.0,0.10722569844348803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045052574098816016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06053628270481561,0.04954447452251653,0.053798293267464166,0.07855468467982457,0.14232086364047455,0.054827156013077034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07034340222532869,0.0,0.0,0.0719277747011503,0.0,0.07369340556254958,0.13138608252608286,0.0,0.0,0.11100547155522647,0.0,0.0,0.07226632218860289,0.0,0.07129313312181709,0.0,0.2077675702227423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05638515471634074,0.0,0.0,0.4418339864235525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05706790824390773,0.0,0.0,0.042556937633346996,0.0,0.10857401185378092,0.0,0.0,0.06302716951536264,0.060741054039041266,0.0,0.13031566158602376,0.0,0.0618651285555723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059566638720699075,0.10098967869513648,0.0,0.10985511160388198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1139545700781141,0.0,0.057718700140909886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0646308673354652,0.06399582895196188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1145408074844224,0.0,0.06709634293385118,0.07082063262941964,0.05252093793602237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15739187716374706,0.0,0.11378983254571165,0.0,0.05410691849793587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043009071852403984,0.0,0.0,0.1403713641587313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10285852125050238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14908252474677655,0.0,0.06852449998629344,0.12093072928179875,0.0,0.0,0.07335661983922465,0.0,0.13723662929919755,0.08732201089873741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14308892572206264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06731805743545198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06555083011804277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04127699208656122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05502484657594126,0.12257977643807433,0.10247832903712567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13443391737484506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12895769828693046,0.0,0.0,0.04960314542379241,0.06372520893901147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.161604906036603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0517882556672362,0.11263336987072238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042805968325597216,0.0412856270032455,0.18991327262513144,0.0,0.037571002132311335,0.0740554698938304,0.18322290762954566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07008385857595725,0.06294101122437802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07096309413043161,0.0,0.1900192494415336,0.0,0.051683718115547686,0.0,0.0,0.05972940328121841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12422090842794957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04577086926856599,0.07044662376987926,0.0,0.041492299583746665 alcoholism,killerkennyAU,2018/11/05,Did I have withdrawals? My drinking habits are usually inconsistent and moderate but following a messy break up over the last three months I have been drinking 2-3 standard drinks every evening with the odd maybe 8 drinks plus day every couple of weeks. While not out of control I realised this was impacting my health and wallet and stopped cold three days ago. Yesterday I got a stonking headache and started sweating a fair bit for no apparent reason. I've also noticed a drop in appetite. Nothing serious but does this sound like withdrawals and can I expect more? Slight headache right now. ,6.701037735849056,8.813815283018872,5.496367924528303,79.25606132075474,65.98113207547169,8.318867924528304,36.83490566037736,8.841846274778883,3.4535132075471697,484,25,78,8,8,143,82,106,0.133,0.797,0.07,-0.78,1,0,4,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,6,0,7,6,1,2,0,16,10,10,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,8,4,2,1,4,0,1,2,1,0,2,4,2,7,1,9,6,2,20,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,13,47,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14468186578277936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13052443450434012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17819049809308649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1830615457707548,0.0,0.18059631038174384,0.0,0.21052269668156665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1428321418372163,0.0,0.0,0.6395613975733476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10780317235597127,0.0,0.2750344259752572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13053940361350475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.173491850645577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13304349512634311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07973949539084277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16397323668614275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13027811105890608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15661094379436705,0.18582343494995135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16781407792157918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1393862751684218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11552570749785915,0.0,0.0,0.1364565725188459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17976027160049848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13092269044382418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ILY-and-IDEKY,2018/11/05,M(25) Day four mindset First time posting here. I averaged ten drinks everyday for a little less than two years. It’s now my fourth day sober and I was expecting all the withdrawal symptoms to come along by now. It’s difficult falling asleep but when I sleep it’s deep and I have some very vivid dreams. I’m having cravings right about now surprisingly for the first time since sober. Wondering if things are gonna get worse before they get better from here and if anyone has had a similar experience regarding duration and quantity of alcohol consumption compared to withdrawal symptoms. Part of the reason I continued to drink was because I didn’t want to experience the nasty withdrawals and so far they haven’t had much effect on me. ,4.241186974789915,7.137199904411768,4.59710084033614,79.4058823529412,75.69117647058823,8.885714285714286,28.831932773109244,9.424239791934726,3.1709932773109246,601,26,103,17,14,189,96,136,0.08800000000000001,0.8079999999999999,0.10400000000000001,0.0432,0,0,3,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,2,4,8,3,0,0,6,0,10,7,2,2,1,17,17,10,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,4,7,3,0,3,3,0,2,2,1,0,5,5,1,10,2,14,11,5,21,0,0,1,0,2,5,0,4,13,69,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1795975720081175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11750658019887593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1024435622155694,0.0,0.14300074377539795,0.0,0.0,0.14862924100825198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14476279776166054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2167605926316726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3292559656216825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3287762041352368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2858916288134061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17560153540942933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16843327685466158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12353830737680295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1819850458519158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1609483406411803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17278649549715855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.143516362304293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13901519616089592,0.0,0.1681743875808183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34934287179473383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1116469602604687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1959861367978352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16416338314018986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13866134283736228,0.09912202630134988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18224633336992185,0.0,0.0,0.17126038628193824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10822063613900024 alcoholism,allofher,2018/11/05,"Withdrawals symptoms from dentist. Gilberts syndrome. Hi, I have a Gilberts syndrome, a heredity seamless harmless enzyme disorder which affects how fast my liver can process drugs. I didn't know it until a bachelor party in Vegas when I binge drank for 3 days. I had withdrawals for a week. Ever since then if I had few beers I noticed withdrawal symptoms for a few days. It got so bad where on my wedding I just had our champagne toast and I woke up in the night with symptoms. I don't drink anymore but even when I did it there were weeks and months of gap between a few beers. I definitely think it's because of my Gilberts processing the alcohol slowly. I haven't touched alcohol in over a year and I went to the dentist and they numbed my mouth and sure enough I got withdrawal symptoms for days. My doctor said anything in the mouth will process through the liver and I'm out of luck if I need any dental work. I wanted to know if anyone has been able to fix the withdrawal symptoms for sustained absence or something? Feeling pretty down about this.. Is there any tests or specialists? 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Maybe you guys know? I and my roommate noticed a strange behavior pattern of mine when I used to drink. I'm sober now, but I'm trying to track down if this is something to do with a drinking problem or a mental problem of my own. Whenever I'd drink and watch movies and tv shows I'd have **strong** opinions on what I was watching. Only I couldn't always remember what I watched due to drinking too much. So I'd go back and watch it sober. Only my reaction tended far more often than not to be 180 degrees opposite of what it was when drinking. We became aware of this when watching a movie I railed on about being horribly stupid and awful, driving my roomie up a wall with my drunk bitching. And when I was rewatching it, laughing and enjoying it, he kind of lost it on me. There were times before when I'd notice things like that, but after that moment it became something which I was laser focused on. I started making a point of redoing things I did drunk when I was sober. And the results were very fucking scary for me. It was poignantly clear that I'd love some things sober and hate them drunk. While hating other things sober and loving them drunk. Outside of the simple result of my love/hate of things altered when drunk/sober, there was no other definable pattern. I've tried asking some questions of people I knew who had drinking or drug problems, but they'd never experienced this to the same degree. And googling this didn't get me anywhere either. **To be clear I'm not talking about simple stuff, like how some food tastes great drunk but not so much sober. I'm talking about drastic shifts (love/hate) on how I feel about stuff. Politics, religion, movies, tv shows, etc...** It didn't matter if I was blackout drunk, fun party drunk, angry drunk, etc... 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I’m fucking turning 30 in a few weeks... I should have a better handle on my life than I do now. I am a total failure and let down to everyone who has stayed in my life... so many have left. I’m alone. I’m broken. I drink myself to sleep every day. Last night I woke up at 3 am covered in piss and shit. I have to buy a new bed now. I’m thinking about just getting a sleeping bag and sleeping on the floor like the degenerate I am. I hate this cycle. Every day is exactly the same.",-1.0338795986622067,0.7949112173913093,2.02,96.33615384615385,89.0,4.5819397993311055,18.411371237458194,5.8734145424116955,-0.3802709030100333,390,11,96,3,13,138,71,115,0.166,0.785,0.049,-0.9186,0,1,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,1,5,7,5,0,9,0,11,10,6,0,2,9,22,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,1,0,2,3,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,5,0,0,2,0,13,2,16,18,4,21,0,0,0,1,1,12,4,0,9,62,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1838380158914708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15698564672973778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22894755829315636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17388388836579724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2991053281482523,0.1696102839523856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16409727076528444,0.09273720438851488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17524597684571994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1446874082277076,0.0,0.0,0.19285589233862965,0.181507303469413,0.2507491087788358,0.08671826390707807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17995865471718242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17143204876058385,0.0,0.166573127618017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18220273258533004,0.0,0.0,0.532889049664592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1891929750288307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11373579000877698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930706543798714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14238099157366935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,1curiousrover,2018/11/05,"Bruising easily and broken capillaries in legs? I am writing to check in about someone I love. I am worried that alcohol may be taking a toll on their body. Lately one foot will have random days of swelling, not severe, but for not apparent reason. They bruise very dark, vary easily. And the ankles have a lot of what looks like small broken veins making their ankles look redish in places. Is this related to heavy alcohol use? 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So my friend who is trying to get sober uses a BACTrack breathalyzer to report his BAC to his family. Well, I just found out that he has been cheating the system by sucking air into the breathalyzer rather than blowing. This is clearly not a good thing and is hampering his efforts to get clean. Is there a breathalyzer on the market that is cheat-proof? /u/bactrack any help here? I feel like this is a major flaw in your product. He obviously needs to have some personal responsibility and consequences for his actions but a working breathalyzer would certainly help things.",5.833292929292928,8.184294854545456,6.34030303030303,71.374898989899,68.63636363636364,9.252525252525249,31.313131313131308,9.725611199111238,3.3476464646464645,494,21,81,12,9,160,76,110,0.036000000000000004,0.8,0.16399999999999998,0.9057,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,2,7,7,2,0,9,0,11,0,0,1,3,17,18,4,0,3,4,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,1,1,7,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,2,1,8,5,12,15,2,7,0,0,0,0,12,5,1,1,1,59,15,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1825633454038464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2530820526054595,0.0,0.1357424383005895,0.1917892848523189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2943546931208573,0.20741305190358764,0.0,0.2805205977020986,0.0,0.0,0.22517316315987126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3598887988166336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13115695789679513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19906114892286092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.234410636951304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3567084074847716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18226805517433836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2318649460056112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413795518189806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19544351136672208,0.0,0.0,0.19070768078175526,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,chachacha69,2018/11/05,"Day four of sobriety dinner consists of... Gummy worms, ice cream cake, chicken sandwich, and chocolate covered pretzels...I used to never eat and hate sweets..welcome to sober life I suppose ",3.9953125000000007,7.321730406250005,3.499749999999999,81.37025000000001,88.6875,3.8100000000000014,34.525,5.6839178017228535,2.40383,151,9,20,1,5,45,28,32,0.0,0.903,0.09699999999999999,0.4585,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,1,4,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,4,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,9,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31182751939248304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4947571013920074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4773714876080149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3415213211414168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3729169878526372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4176021778766938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Aridedede,2018/11/05,"Use to have a problem.. might again? When I was a teenager from about 13-17 I had a problem with alcohol. I would black out every time I drank. I was telling my boyfriend today, I can’t tell you how many times I have blacked out, but I CAN tell you how many times I haven’t. When I was a teenager I was dealing with a lot more than most kids should, and I think alcohol helped me forget about all that. It made me “fun” and “cool”. I am also very shy and socially awkward so when I drank I was always the life of the party. I would say most of the times I had sex I was probably raped. I lost my virginity to a 20 year when I was 14 because I was so drunk I didn’t know what was happening. That has happened more than 10 times. Having black drunk sex was pretty normal for me. I always hated myself the next day, but continued on. Now at 17 I met my now boyfriend. I quit drinking COMPLETELY. If I drank a sip of alcohol I would start having an almost anxiety attack. FROM A SIP! I didn’t want anything to do with alcohol for 3 years! When I was 20(I’m 22), my son was stillborn at 9 months. Immediately afterwards, I stopped being afraid of alcohol again. It makes me more depressed, but no anxiety from a sip. I’m blacking out again. I’m hating myself so much again. I’m waking up in the morning crying about how I know I shouldn’t drinking because I have no control. I went to my best friends birthday dinner last night and black out from wine. Wtf? I can’t even go to a dinner and be a normal functioning human being? What happened? What is wrong with me? 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I keep trying hard to quit and face-planting. This is years of this, and, ultimately, I see now I’ve chipped away at my problem bit by bit, but I’ve seen to have plateaued. I quit cocaine maybe a year and a half ago and have relapsed maybe only once of twice within the past 6 months. Alcohol, however, has been more difficult. I can’t seem to shake an every other day habit and I drink until I sleep and I start after work. I took on another job and two side jobs and somehow I find time still. I’m facing two deadlines suddenly that I don’t know if I’m capable of meeting because of alcoholism. I feel like this is a good, but flawed strategy. I feel most vulnerable when driving sense I justify it as “I’ll have one and take a leak and leave” which, as you know, is not the case. Recently I went out past 11pm for no reason, which kind of has me alarmed. I feel like there’s a part of me that’s afraid of going sober. Should I prioritize mental health or alcoholism? I feel like it’s a chicken and the egg thing. I did really well when I was regularly going to the gym but I literally don’t have the bandwidth at this point.",2.8658886971527195,4.209784959016396,4.313503019844692,87.0100992234685,74.40983606557377,7.923727351164797,25.547023295944786,8.532816995589336,1.5610524590163934,926,31,202,17,19,308,150,244,0.095,0.818,0.087,0.2983,3,0,5,0,0,0,26.0,0,1,0,3,7,11,0,3,13,0,17,8,2,1,0,32,35,21,0,3,6,0,5,3,0,1,4,0,0,0,13,12,5,1,9,2,0,6,5,5,1,5,6,7,24,6,25,28,5,34,0,0,2,0,3,9,0,5,22,125,37,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10332351269453348,0.09372814632468776,0.3389972989751411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1108728972553635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09934198845633838,0.0,0.0,0.06445538303621054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2308715745207882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06819065406877797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10358054192046408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08908672411246883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21385219525428575,0.2266123997700788,0.0,0.0,0.0966403368939544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12018384943386985,0.08868592581830914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09471824477681384,0.0,0.0,0.1123918984281234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20985234883274545,0.0939825759568154,0.0,0.11010725844695668,0.11621893771456705,0.0,0.0,0.11195863381759424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15497108192682524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.107199207206997,0.2124510551242936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1065565207586722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08439707208756804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11260486302162018,0.07164911529987747,0.08041661691254652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11450124911280032,0.30280951400314826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0999542298749862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10117459931875633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2249254516739289,0.0,0.0,0.06773687263505099,0.10871371035808453,0.1044010561162702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08425750863386987,0.0962576334847948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10581186688522183,0.0,0.08958935108144775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07484013534135125,0.0,0.08444051164964501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07949994154136718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0702459718578919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12331044766395048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174760376435358,0.14357493578186395,0.0,0.20657645072035552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09506891818842564,0.0980178733504356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07697670764802735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13618039833647072 alcoholism,JuicyLucyUK,2019/06/24,"Will I get withdrawal? I don't know if this is the correct place to ask. I'm not a full time alcoholic, I just have difficult periods of mental health where I drink a lot. I'm just wondering how long you have to go drinking like 5 or 6 pints of 6% cider (15 - 18 UK units) every night before I need to worry about withdrawal? It's been going on for a while lately, I've not had to worry about withdrawal since I was a teenager and I was drinking a large amount every day. I just don't want to cut back down and start the DTs, that was a nightmare last time.",3.188389830508473,3.719512881355936,4.662500000000001,87.90612288135594,72.72881355932203,8.272881355932205,24.91949152542373,8.472884824447931,1.3423016949152538,432,12,98,7,8,145,79,118,0.095,0.833,0.073,-0.6449,0,0,4,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,0,8,3,1,0,8,0,11,5,0,1,1,16,22,6,0,3,7,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,2,4,0,2,3,0,2,4,2,0,0,5,0,9,1,12,16,3,18,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,4,12,58,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842733073845373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611970912089598,0.0,0.0,0.13258664269326564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1467236985405924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1112019245813226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5067419766547954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29055639108432396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09008661795894413,0.0,0.19598983970968284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1832831138406446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09476202951229674,0.14055199695122078,0.19450652041176567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08423970899458487,0.0,0.0,0.1525935312896973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14659228982657946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17376707038332054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12785332571211827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1618121853995544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18015076986925427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14263438913372775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12204556767399345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20108854048217936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10170262001304374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18699102795923414,0.0,0.35021841459065045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,pisces-venus,2019/06/24,"60 Days Sober I felt it appropriate to post about this since I posted about my 30. The past few days have been hard motivation wise, and I'm still experiencing some really annoying PAWS symptoms that came back after being gone for a few weeks (horrific nightmares, extreme lethargy, etc). I'm also struggling with a lot of anxiety the past few weeks. But, I'm still sober. Still working with my sponsor, will be on step 2 tomorrow when I work with her, and going to my meetings. I plan on picking up my 60 chip at my home group tonight. Any advice or similar experiences you would be cool. Thank you all! And here's to the next 60.",3.8574590163934417,5.727172614754102,4.836852459016395,82.1142950819672,72.85245901639344,8.158688524590165,27.77377049180328,8.841846274778883,2.1709055737704914,497,19,97,10,10,162,87,122,0.094,0.823,0.083,0.077,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,2,0,4,9,5,1,1,5,1,7,1,0,2,1,16,15,7,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,3,7,0,0,2,0,0,4,0,2,0,0,4,4,12,3,15,6,7,25,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,3,15,61,15,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16359112845414212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338777279610385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11384455046557193,0.0,0.12806820272665514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1287279674017784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19147245783524494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2159312194914879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1867064187956501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16375911745945906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1607398671347142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.095142969098309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14996649014483632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16792589413229764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1423260075285581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17804244944509093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31962360299587583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3206650346157369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10724714194612124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13848329380552055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4010815610435997,0.0,0.0,0.17501329556905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17400310501889896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15412864893292325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26857243092798433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24375296852430034,0.0,0.0,0.11892327093866505,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,glitterwitch18,2019/06/24,"So my friend thinks I could (eventually) have a problem I'm going to keep this short, because there are a lot of people on this subreddit who are actually struggling with addiction and who are going through worse things than I am. So sorry in advance if this is all for nothing. But anyway... the other day my friend said that he was worried about when I drink. He sees alcohol as a purely social thing, whereas I never drink socially. I only drink to relieve my anxiety, to make me feel better, and sometimes to get to sleep or to make me feel better before going to college (UK, not US). I can't go to parties without knowing there's a ready supply. And I don't drink much, because I'm young I'm still a bit of a lightweight and because I can't buy alcohol (I'm 17) I'm limited in what I can drink. So I'm probably overthinking this, but my friend did make me wonder. Is my behaviour concerning, or is it normal? I haven't had clear answers from the web and I can't talk to friends.",3.4516247906197637,4.749728266331665,5.06038190954774,82.41154438860973,72.86934673366835,7.919731993299832,29.347068676716923,8.447377352677275,2.195196716917924,771,32,152,13,15,261,116,199,0.11,0.8109999999999999,0.079,-0.2362,0,0,7,0,0,0,27.0,1,0,0,4,9,9,0,1,8,0,18,9,1,3,4,32,40,15,0,4,7,0,2,0,4,0,3,1,0,0,12,6,7,2,6,5,1,5,8,2,0,0,4,4,20,7,22,35,4,14,0,0,1,0,13,4,0,5,5,103,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.10413070531902066,0.1163264542621762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280748071917937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08163061466035544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1951429140086075,0.0,0.09079985519899693,0.0,0.0,0.18874745970668,0.11649648095446012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08519691066264594,0.0,0.0,0.06881723096041238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5226615123207159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10790859915613893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3297664629841628,0.0,0.055750038660431225,0.0,0.2425763423785346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09484614459558256,0.0,0.0,0.058643413733870275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09071853301094587,0.0,0.0,0.21368338869392134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07844197257436022,0.0,0.08229906883175132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1045502702133912,0.10238830928835238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08115553333077004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07397724501593153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11504826672930488,0.10210425260950737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10150285698065252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08503171748371345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10678413018957594,0.21754883500444305,0.0,0.0,0.10553601837031212,0.1194498259659639,0.0,0.0,0.08521640204166397,0.0,0.0,0.11155339566628072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08576709896227518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14178286850005595,0.0683735802893071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12835546385395674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10286180533653272,0.11571926301675613,0.0,0.10836620685395157,0.10874361814612872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,PastBox,2019/06/24,"I'm having withdraw problems I'm super shakey and been using the restroom like crazy. I'm going to see my Doctor on Wednesday. Any advice?",1.4827777777777769,4.206388296296296,3.212870370370372,84.05041666666669,91.96296296296295,2.7,21.564814814814817,3.1291,0.11619259259259265,112,4,17,0,4,37,23,27,0.162,0.635,0.203,0.3182,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,3,8,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,2,2,7,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,7,1,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4235379907118435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2947439302687965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4436289548746224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2463254721881375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21174961034530865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4147292846423816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3453836883641209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3743401246623753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ThinkTide,2019/06/24,"I'm going to try to give up drinking. Where do I start? For a long time I've suspected I had problems with how I perceive alcohol. Even when nothing necessarily bad is happening in my life, I still feel so *relieved* when I have a drink. Lately I've noticed I've been having very defensive thoughts when I think about giving up alcohol. I know this isn't rational. I want to give it up. It's not good for me physically and I'm really trying to remind myself it's not good for me mentally. The smell of it alone, even something similar to it, can make me drive down to a Wine and Spirits. How do I start, mentally? Obviously starting is by just stop drinking. But mentally, how do I keep myself from drinking again?",1.6484859154929588,4.1363775633802815,3.909278169014087,82.84236795774649,83.22535211267606,7.493661971830987,26.480633802816897,8.472884824447931,2.29002676056338,562,25,109,14,16,193,87,142,0.11599999999999999,0.8340000000000001,0.05,-0.7738,0,1,8,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,0,14,6,1,0,4,0,11,8,0,4,1,23,28,10,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,6,3,7,3,6,5,0,2,3,3,0,0,3,2,16,3,19,25,0,20,1,0,0,0,3,6,0,0,12,74,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26851662400678344,0.0,0.1301129007549216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10489427777013696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4922711333693961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16595244815539142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0635213794620062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3615419754972656,0.07139738636786774,0.21074190387040226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11109257934562784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1116640932878158,0.0,0.0,0.06904195895169636,0.0,0.1417140522129045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08873489453940354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11117698067273413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08385778164175006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3798109538907122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1205436211319528,0.14302850871939315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12020919603095558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08048062513652272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0967147059570842,0.0,0.0,0.2667608044155779,0.0,0.10032682201059727,0.10503077869369327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08049746123473682,0.0,0.0997347373266156,0.07325479851518782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17058656734738714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10365640036952403,0.07409875191950555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,COB98,2019/06/24,"Need info about wds, is it normal I experience confusion etc? I’m on day 4 of sobriety ( no benzo ) and I have the shakes like crazy but i’m more worried about what’s going on in my head, I feel confused and I feel like i’m losing touch with reality like derealization it’s scary and panicky.. will this pass at some point ? Is it normal ?",0.3559420289855062,2.7515915507246405,3.1333333333333364,86.25333333333334,90.01449275362317,5.965217391304349,19.26086956521739,7.3871296695380915,0.7062869565217396,263,8,55,5,9,92,49,69,0.252,0.64,0.10800000000000001,-0.8773,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,2,7,0,3,1,0,4,1,1,0,0,14,11,4,0,3,1,0,3,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,3,0,0,3,1,4,0,0,0,3,5,3,8,10,3,9,0,1,0,0,0,5,0,3,4,31,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16519897070635295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2856808596917736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25056902574618045,0.0,0.0,0.2590396222308529,0.18299739019736744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14557895427999085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26288922811183874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3754336070415143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28657224727244873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1899359016361264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5019555941231901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2421495455438712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2601381308399749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,allykatt1194,2019/06/24,"Book Suggestions Hey everyone. My boyfriend and I have been together almost two years and I’ve been struggling with his alcoholism for the last two years. I want to understand and I want to help him, but I just don’t know how to anymore. I’m reaching out to the reddit people because of some recent events that’s happened this past weekend and I don’t know where to go or what to do from here. Does anyone have any book suggestions or suggestions in general that could give me a little guidance? Thank you in advance. It’s really appreciated.",3.0883304195804198,5.776453759615389,3.9818881118881135,83.35402097902099,78.71153846153847,7.627972027972027,26.762237762237763,8.575989854853784,2.2958,437,18,80,10,11,140,73,104,0.019,0.8420000000000001,0.139,0.8799,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,1,4,2,0,1,3,0,8,1,0,1,0,20,18,8,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,6,1,0,3,3,0,2,2,1,0,2,2,0,10,1,13,15,1,14,0,0,0,0,9,5,0,4,7,53,15,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2146508438269976,0.20112533205037766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13658697216477342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19919227026351136,0.14044113354591145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12243816454947175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16036482933261273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17576787124650878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1919237115662364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19267656246963494,0.1141494258509508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17761370259782708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1346275760822731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22076718420348027,0.1637220559795559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2013075377420208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19173697812968465,0.13924622593948294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12867161697104054,0.0,0.19831817120257156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20997523405904386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1849185173598776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39240852003215015,0.20909512477127914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2369366840489907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586855780620568 alcoholism,SoDifferentDude,2019/06/24,"I'm getting drunk ATM with 8 beers and I want to know, how do I know my liver is or has been damaged? I know it probably won't come with ""occasional"" heavy drinking (quotation marks are there for a reason) but let's say I was drinking heavily for past month or so, not saying I did, would I know if my liver was in critical state in that case?",1.9708333333333317,3.4563721944444485,4.003888888888889,87.73,77.05555555555556,7.5777777777777775,24.5,8.344100000000001,1.4168166666666666,266,9,59,5,6,91,55,72,0.107,0.875,0.018000000000000002,-0.7013,0,0,3,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,11,6,2,2,0,17,19,7,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,2,4,4,0,5,4,1,1,2,1,0,0,4,2,8,0,7,12,0,6,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,3,2,38,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2037061376669813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4633197347500335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12355077098447816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5198517636274848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24181629617613215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18875566939646446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22574642737992065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2549648824714117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24314029697525846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3761159573532041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13948172767990374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16798824176376226,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,givingupbeer,2019/06/24,"Close of day 2 Woke up this morning with the alarm, not before (5:15am) - tired, but good tires and no hangover. Can't wait to do this at the weekend when I can sleep in a little longer sober. No hangover sweats driving to work - sunday is normally a pretty boozy afternoon/evening for me, so nice to not deal with the fallout from that. Average day at work. Treated myself to some chocolate and a bag of chips at lunch, then an apple crumble and ice cream for dessert - I'll be good tomorrow. As a benchmark, I weighed in this morning, and went cycling this evening - my normal 12km/7.5 mile route - it has been a couple of weeks. Weight was 81.5kg (179 lbs.) Cycling pace was 3min 10sec per 1km (1100 yards) A bit slower than my recent pace of 2min50, but it has been a couple of weeks, and I went with a mate, and we were chatting on the way around. So a good second day. A couple of times, I'm thinking about ""How am I gonna cope when I do this....."" and pick out some random event in the future, but then I just go back to thinking about getting through today. Bizarrely, one of my fave times to drink is when I fly (I have family overseas). I love sitting at an airport, excited to go away, and having a few beers while waiting for the flight, but it only happens every year or two, so seems pointless mourning the loss of something like that, doesn't it? Hope you're all doing ok out there.",6.115108695652175,5.492785221014493,5.8657101449275375,85.78073913043481,66.35507246376811,8.229565217391304,31.80579710144927,6.742157984588678,1.7069510144927529,1075,37,224,6,15,334,174,276,0.06,0.797,0.14300000000000002,0.98,1,0,3,0,0,0,55.0,1,0,0,3,14,13,0,1,20,1,19,11,2,2,1,38,35,24,1,3,8,0,1,1,1,1,2,0,1,0,11,16,6,2,3,5,0,5,6,3,0,3,8,2,15,10,40,25,5,45,0,2,1,1,5,16,0,6,23,143,26,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1094602959536246,0.0,0.0,0.11552478492620273,0.09454850063068282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10462973812599548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13424026137653836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4081580584047597,0.0,0.2378967071532392,0.12676616040000666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12045379817578693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16242758384036493,0.0,0.10359893940915242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11591556155285522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06424142343367396,0.0,0.13976178223524455,0.30939855338141176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1087329499882291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12212683114190193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06007195006384752,0.12323802788526785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11097602520200008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24094900524797386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08332074648182593,0.09351647292018778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12509432711695953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12140797402300242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11193798894737812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12304860567521,0.0,0.0,0.0946604656035632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15757535702514994,0.0,0.0,0.1433977028937027,0.28264841677875524,0.11655151837160388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.120113863287406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09759977035691768,0.19726187842089504,0.14973191762483168,0.0,0.22796994329763426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17903240580439891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07918208339417239 alcoholism,BurntOrange1229,2019/06/24,"30-Day Challenge: DAY 2 Hello! Back at it again after my mishap at day 2 again. Just finished meditating and now that first cup of coffee. Feeling thankful today. I like this saying: ""You only fail when you stop trying."" Here's to a sober day!!",0.4775120772946835,2.568898586956521,2.0511594202898564,89.46026570048313,106.6086956521739,2.9140096618357485,15.980676328502414,5.033348758259628,-0.5358570048309179,189,5,33,1,9,61,40,46,0.113,0.6920000000000001,0.195,0.4898,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,0,3,7,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,4,3,5,2,0,15,0,1,0,0,4,2,0,0,14,22,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21679003170280015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7272970569492153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1425544254877814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2398131248373715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13773883109643215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21442369782564732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22420542769821694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2357096530652213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2595671738076133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2672406986281684,0.0,0.0,0.19141484575822745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,FataIity,2019/06/24,"My drinking is getting out of control It's the only thing that makes me feel normal. I hate my damn life. I go to work wanting to die and then come home and drink myself to sleep. I recently moved back in with my parents and I've been hiding my habit of drinking 10+ beers a night. ​ How much worse is this going to get if I don't stop? I'm so scared about where my life is headed. I'm only 23 and already feel so hopeless and melancholy about my future. I've been meaning to go and see a therapist but I don't want anybody to find out how hard I'm struggling. I hope this ends",1.09,2.940813476190481,2.646269841269841,94.79178571428574,80.90476190476191,4.834920634920637,22.404761904761905,5.46131890053228,0.05869523809523836,462,15,103,2,12,151,81,126,0.18899999999999997,0.769,0.042,-0.9224,1,0,4,0,0,1,13.0,0,0,0,2,8,6,2,2,3,0,7,8,2,4,0,25,25,13,1,5,2,1,3,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,5,10,4,2,4,4,0,5,2,5,0,0,2,4,14,1,14,23,1,16,0,1,1,0,1,4,1,2,7,59,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1561328839305962,0.0,0.0,0.15329959444609784,0.17192049705252227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10879369724350127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12187732114570002,0.0,0.0,0.15868813733234924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14683972081164098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4158060877693178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1253142513195082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14307874661414727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1293152801982174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14784077854041835,0.0,0.2412285904264087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12674331192199373,0.13968774357487546,0.14520504984014201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14192159834663126,0.14052713056190455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19987093478078916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0944427403243102,0.0,0.0,0.15411930231495155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15037680750221075,0.10400819958417816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13277465626303675,0.13862585315056808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21521235713509204,0.0,0.0,0.15710302121409214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1396999664796271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14165177346793456,0.0,0.1127457093796019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14158778471119884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11828830150319675,0.0,0.14791147468598642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16427569298642256,0.09399674944808324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16690375177788447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1030032058886959,0.0,0.14418591945691472,0.0,0.0,0.17192049705252227,0.0 alcoholism,S_Seaborn,2019/06/24,"Alcohol Recovery Discord Recently started up a new alcohol recovery based discord [here](https://discord.gg/rRPXEy). Getting sober, or making the decision to *consider* getting sober, was difficult for me at the beginning. But I found it easier and more comfortable to do so anonymously online in real time. Hope this becomes a resource that people with 24-hours and a few 24-hours pick up and utilize.",9.18234375,12.113798796875002,8.392625000000002,57.68987500000003,61.03125,13.245,47.175,12.340626583579946,7.71250375,329,22,38,13,5,103,51,64,0.113,0.755,0.132,0.3384,0,0,2,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,5,0,2,2,0,2,0,12,9,6,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,4,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,2,8,7,2,9,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,2,5,28,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5049325829447376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26090601519927165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590224801161095,0.0,0.0,0.24684892967076796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23463737212007946,0.4652931599279812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15769052080483098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281598740594444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1637774985538782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2688902585128285,0.0,0.0,0.23325626083002715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16721028291414206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1377521215462462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ScarredWolf_,2019/06/24,Been free from alcohol for three months now.. It feels great to be honest. Been taking the time to do work regarding underlying issues that I have.,3.4800000000000004,6.391074777777781,4.0903703703703735,81.7666666666667,79.0,8.044444444444443,20.11111111111111,8.841846274778883,1.6775777777777776,117,3,21,3,3,37,25,27,0.0,0.682,0.318,0.8934,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,0,0,1,7,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,4,5,4,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,16,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4447066001973366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21040318680366005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4587746669366222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4343220186756958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3321436640481093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3128710655715957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24264339324485995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3029409088747531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,PunishingLaughter,2019/06/24,"lied to my parents.. again i feel fucked because i had a casual talk with my parents about my drinking.. dad mentioned the incredible amount of beer cans in my appartment.. yet its june 23rd and in in quebec, Canada so st jean huh ? can't seem to stop myself this is out of hand i need help",1.6748850574712648,3.948209706896552,3.0317241379310365,90.54402298850576,81.24137931034483,5.935632183908046,21.73563218390805,7.1686216300943375,0.6576459770114944,225,7,47,3,6,73,48,58,0.11,0.7390000000000001,0.151,0.1501,2,0,2,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,2,1,4,4,1,0,0,7,8,2,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,2,1,2,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,8,1,10,7,1,8,0,0,0,1,6,4,1,1,4,30,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18771110641009867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30165390709919243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15569852465564715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2846760751434797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20639880835115187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283259943726303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6838390522931899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2803276628066546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2574430439726685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475022542568413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,lizardobignardo,2019/06/24,Court ordered AA experience? Just would like to talk to people who experienced this. I need some advice.,3.5500000000000007,6.7072873333333325,4.450000000000003,73.84500000000001,92.33333333333334,6.844444444444445,22.66666666666667,7.793537801064563,2.0782000000000003,84,3,13,2,3,27,17,18,0.0,0.865,0.135,0.3612,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4695238133616145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4700059595459741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23474041693418535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3562731085171971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3331073975272581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3861951755926245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34132234550977386,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,sunshinefox2016,2019/06/24,"Sometimes I wish my alcoholic mother would go into liver failure. Am I a monster? My mother has probably always been an alcoholic, but I never really recognized it until 2014. Then it got worse last year when my grandma died. I could technically leave home if I wanted to, but I'm unwilling to leave my younger brother behind to deal with it alone. Besides, during the day when she's not drinking she's wonderful. During the day, my mother is my best friend. She's kind, caring, generous and hard working. But then she drinks at night and becomes unbearable. One minute I'm the best daughter and the next I'm an ungrateful bitch who only cares about herself. She doesn't remember it in the morning, but I do. I'm depressed and cry myself to sleep, so hard some nights that I make myself physically sick. I can't talk to anyone about it because I don't want others to see my mother that away. but deep down, I know they already do. She embarrasses me and herself in front of my friends. In front of our relatives. She doesn't know that she's the joke of the family or that there's a reason I hate having people over. I don't think she recognizes when she's drunk. She had gastric bypass surgery years ago before I was born so I think her body is more sensitive to alcohol. Alcoholism runs heavily in her side of the family, and she bashes them without recognizing she's exactly the same way. She doesn't know that's the reason I refuse to touch alcohol. I know without a single doubt in my mind that the only way for her to stop drinking is if it were a life or death situation and she \*had\* to quit drinking. Sometimes this horrible, horrible thought crosses my mind that I wish she would just go into liver failure or something so I could give her my liver and all of this would just end and have it all go back to normal. I feel like a gross, disgusting selfish monster for even thinking it. I would never want anything bad to happen to her. I don't want her to die. I just want her to stop drinking. I want her to stop before it gets to that point, but I know she won't. I hate myself on nights like tonight, I really fucking hate myself for even thinking it.",3.4067382253447818,5.306742918032789,4.5388778298204535,83.64702608639085,74.15222482435597,7.554748894093156,26.615209471766853,8.344100000000001,1.8694189955763725,1714,63,328,30,36,561,199,427,0.24600000000000002,0.639,0.115,-0.9964,0,1,11,0,0,0,47.0,1,0,2,4,15,22,6,2,18,0,28,19,5,3,5,74,67,29,3,17,17,6,4,2,2,5,7,0,1,0,22,12,11,4,15,7,0,7,13,12,0,1,7,5,72,10,44,53,8,49,0,1,1,1,43,15,2,8,27,231,94,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060051993722074135,0.3619948483659342,0.0,0.07016355125638674,0.07475846477990138,0.0,0.05636939715339464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047368988573151735,0.0,0.05574849153219937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06364880455922392,0.05209184368405643,0.05656437595445956,0.041296818610237165,0.07481920287972953,0.11529227701775675,0.0,0.14218872439048053,0.0,0.0,0.07524959681125293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13814140404494107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10817798997198576,0.0,0.07441487333992464,0.08738004304185784,0.06984228166429762,0.05834880401934865,0.0,0.1406175537174771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3318223125628142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06000210082491999,0.0,0.0,0.08949007388749063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12772820875387686,0.0,0.03425398663698826,0.0483971533346203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046794797145115,0.06262930554673912,0.03539404818929762,0.0649873271134958,0.11550340086790625,0.0,0.05418199028516081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059906818154819526,0.0,0.12137270742555792,0.20065295014088602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06795391556477112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0705461555817605,0.18615483159787527,0.055221344367269734,0.0,0.14346467819507605,0.0,0.0,0.04785040749320172,0.06619372304476044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0452204180087443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368065921690298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10449848208743094,0.0,0.0720477424821987,0.19072272055736905,0.06637586970434277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045905871297991264,0.1030464884529716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046965961601453436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06404107005545671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07304073673409513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07205531284629546,0.0,0.0,0.08679856392639629,0.13930660762907868,0.0,0.0,0.0767420561774045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05398411872982932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07614839430876237,0.0677940812346846,0.0,0.0,0.05215353119709438,0.13400338402120607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16991395276600374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054450990648040286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17363344340438353,0.0,0.053782087047917634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397470910958161,0.10754590389310638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15580717328273208,0.1306078267351368,0.07346673240160566,0.04931928076772058,0.0,0.0690381020968585,0.19249686187612555,0.0,0.0,0.08725131933839657 alcoholism,pikapotts,2019/06/24,"Should I feel guilty for reporting my friend? A friend of mine regularly drink/drug drives and has been for YEARS. Not just one or two drinks, but more like 7-8. It's common knowledge among a lot of people, yet everyone always seems to look the other way. I don't know if it's because no one wants to cause an issue, or that they drink that much/often they aren't ever obviously drunk. I've often thought about reporting them to the cops, but I feel guilty about it.",3.723434650455928,5.014879063829792,4.2088449848024325,88.80500000000002,72.19148936170212,7.499088145896658,21.939209726443767,7.957251820313856,0.7551507598784197,368,8,79,5,7,116,69,94,0.09,0.797,0.11199999999999999,0.2602,0,0,4,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,3,0,6,3,0,0,5,0,5,3,0,1,2,21,12,6,0,3,7,0,2,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,6,1,3,0,6,3,0,1,4,0,0,3,2,3,8,3,10,9,2,7,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,6,5,51,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16024000681150352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1173935296379043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1978302635634196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5659582572499323,0.22332889971274456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17419748245812125,0.0,0.1840161685277793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19474606184258636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2975699828194425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20100100191814832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10583562354610514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09408369760197474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16171669878612493,0.0,0.0,0.1637226057809805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14156670887661832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2609911583571065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13350907384100874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17531543242902647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15288511905570756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18812035199999708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11358726971921093,0.1528591509102459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12401367329733255 alcoholism,TinselHave,2019/06/24,I'm planning to have a few drinks during a party I'm going to attend in 2 months. I've had no alcohol for almost 4 months. Either talk me out of it or let me know if it's possible to have a few every now and then and be ok. I've done very embarrassing things while blackout drunk (everytime I drink) and I use to drink faster the drunker I got but everyone at this party gets absolutely shit faced drunk and I feel like if I'm responsible and only have one or two drinks I'll be alright. Can someone recovering from alcohol be responsible enough to limit how much they have? I would really like some help or stories from people in this/ have been in this same position. Thank you.,2.7845652173913042,4.677109268115945,4.6283333333333365,82.36250000000003,75.88405797101449,8.078260869565218,23.818840579710145,8.841846274778883,1.7453362318840575,541,17,109,12,12,184,91,138,0.092,0.7120000000000001,0.196,0.9372,0,0,6,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,1,2,2,7,1,1,4,2,14,10,2,2,0,22,24,14,0,3,7,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,6,6,8,1,2,6,0,2,1,2,0,2,4,1,9,5,14,15,7,13,0,0,0,0,4,5,1,7,8,72,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3286453302927847,0.1539684168099898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15734985145092115,0.0,0.6025050025048043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15887516963312587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12954942100936093,0.14692425721265606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07774566960672408,0.10984616573057036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08033324721386491,0.0,0.0873853442471282,0.0,0.12297590817636922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10306207844152626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08450246791114102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1572300046876996,0.0,0.15023872626609466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2454595099944738,0.0,0.11303128259948275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1041917468108239,0.1169413991180069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1065978150842688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1733412829455589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09850258518628673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15783241748908874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13028033836504574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12358645355779158,0.0,0.14156153810410824,0.0,0.0,0.10215130338546202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1502011655025329,0.0,0.0,0.13279926094752406,0.0,0.12686809266432145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1092266834686626,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,MindlessSomewhere3,2019/06/24,"I don’t do drugs, except for when I drink. I’m wondering if I may have a problem even though I only drink once maximum per week. The thing is when I drink, I drink a lot. I binge drink and I always end up doing a bunch of blow. I’m a 22 year old male. Also, I get terrible hangovers and usually wake up depressed. Anyone else?",-0.2335714285714268,1.8172604285714336,2.488214285714289,92.80803571428574,87.57142857142857,5.785714285714287,18.75,7.1686216300943375,0.3280000000000003,250,7,57,4,8,87,48,70,0.151,0.8490000000000001,0.0,-0.8442,0,0,6,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,5,0,6,7,1,0,0,8,10,7,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,2,5,0,1,5,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,9,0,5,9,2,9,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,4,7,36,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12574440279227228,0.13083589291854694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1099455419001857,0.16111048975157505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1354301848186618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7701744341226918,0.18234794537175425,0.0,0.13135345857233152,0.0,0.13926756067754628,0.0,0.0,0.1038552327653506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08215116947671601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13367943339832694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16499644598819296,0.16745497764190687,0.0,0.11958775514466692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1504570034741601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10446296306615817,0.0,0.15448704904193633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17317713793603706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12612807390687292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1705195730125557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10125710802703644 alcoholism,Galpuder,2019/05/16,"I am a 28 year old female, and I’ve been drinking on and off for roughly two years... In the past three months I’ve been drinking every other day ~6 units a day. I am a well educated, financial stable woman with a loving partner and a great job that I enjoy and is fulfilling. I believe I mostly drink out of boredom as I don’t have many hobbies, but as my biological clock is “ticking” I am starting to really want a child, I am great with children and I adore them. I know I need to talk with a professional regarding my issues, but I was hoping there were some people on this subreddit that may be dealing with the same issues or similar issues and are willing to share.",6.6341904761904775,5.661791318518523,7.839576719576719,73.20666666666669,65.44444444444444,10.380952380952381,34.1005291005291,9.606745405546679,3.114608465608465,528,20,101,9,7,182,89,135,0.012,0.768,0.22,0.9789,1,0,3,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,0,2,8,0,0,9,0,16,4,0,0,0,22,22,11,0,3,3,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,4,11,3,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,1,2,4,1,15,8,16,15,3,14,0,0,0,1,9,5,0,5,9,76,19,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17567248109322964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20111562094600444,0.16075036537201398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4582372457942703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13137234187439753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3438125968991701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15486729791167486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4882311248629042,0.15473009468389556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08569152233301433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407271194651913,0.0,0.0,0.1580820379036801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1244567147119324,0.0,0.0,0.11561535956960953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16361556903144364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14884670113218335,0.10809777841695238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09988863860433443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1103635131265768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12532546808268166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1523146820000524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09196776788157436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14019402493812125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20081934794531844 alcoholism,noboozin,2019/05/16,"Trying to ring in 30 years old the right way Drank socially from 17 until the last 12-15 months or so. It escalated very quickly into blackouts most weekends. Then trickled into weekdays. Not surprising given the amount of addiction in my family. I found myself getting through most days by looking forward to drinking. I would wake up with crippling anxiety after drinking before giving in and start drinking again, and there's the cycle. Girlfriend of 4 years left because of these issues. I had a ring and the full proposal was planned a few weeks from then. I may not agree with the way she up and left, or the way she approached any of this, but I am choosing to use it as an opportunity to better myself. It was a fork in the road; I could say fuck it and keep doing shots of whiskey without any outside interference, or I could get my shit together. I'm choosing the latter. I strung together a few 30 day stretches sober after this and felt mostly great; back to the gym, re-motivated at work, more confident. Yet each time ended with a 3-5 day bender. This recent one I managed to ruin a good thing I had built up with a really awesome new person over a few months in the span of 2 drunken days. It's crazy how much alcohol takes from you. I'm trying to get a hold of it before it takes my career, friends, family, my life. I see myself as lucky to still have all that I do to be honest. I'm back on day 10ish. I'm trying to keep the first 5 days after the most recent relapse fresh in my mind because it is by far the worst I have ever felt, mentally and physically. I've been to a few AA meetings, which I mostly enjoyed, but I just started being active with SMART and that seems more my speed. Anyways, just wanted to share my story with some likeminded people. Here's to making this sobriety stick.",5.144483010595542,5.779476352941183,5.998492266471808,79.70228352210451,68.38375350140056,8.44959201071733,29.52734137133114,8.456263369488248,2.1476857630008532,1426,50,270,20,23,470,202,357,0.073,0.7659999999999999,0.161,0.9890000000000001,0,0,5,0,0,0,40.0,0,1,0,5,14,15,2,0,25,0,17,11,2,3,2,55,43,20,0,4,10,0,2,0,2,2,3,3,0,1,17,17,6,4,6,6,0,2,3,4,1,2,10,7,28,11,53,27,18,63,0,1,2,1,11,23,2,12,37,190,45,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10544191646244112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10336704973790277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315493765930392,0.0,0.0739925282377802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14874742613977035,0.0,0.11792240476821235,0.0,0.1646076261400744,0.0,0.0,0.08554328422163927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15445025972685766,0.0,0.0,0.3742684721611271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28425399125144657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08566751941837616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08749113387846191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1823629281852189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1857377382469809,0.0,0.0,0.0822721985736803,0.0,0.10605134423787876,0.07472764484792843,0.08941848994154518,0.15160070741851253,0.09278513636861796,0.0,0.08112633227014608,0.0,0.10663701369551118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10095327050867964,0.0,0.17194299127681387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07884183263341972,0.0,0.0,0.2101787871160343,0.0,0.06831803648112578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08122262815871209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06456309003537887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09747363664364092,0.0,0.0976622587382369,0.0,0.15440612136880896,0.0,0.07110224386873748,0.0,0.0,0.0934152948203677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10149410366556016,0.0,0.06554174048527386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06705527593500869,0.08445444809720165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061962977615972775,0.0,0.19100380786900786,0.0,0.0,0.08260057635879517,0.0,0.07691769781738858,0.0,0.0,0.07707539362773211,0.08805262712850016,0.0,0.0,0.09928436429821533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09859651543809868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13692151558036067,0.0,0.07724279745564759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14544672366966802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06425820107305184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05639972891561582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1970048996799172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08353727587907746,0.0,0.07980627890195635,0.05704949854416873,0.23032170582691744,0.07758503967508272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09323713986008722,0.0,0.0704152085474031,0.0,0.0,0.06870896362807248,0.0,0.0,0.1245723731492529 alcoholism,richi0003,2019/05/16,"Question about alcoholism This past year i have been drinkin 3-5 days a week (drunk level drinking), however it's been 2 weeks since i had a drink, however after the first week i felt i could control and today i am having a drink just for fun and i don't think i need it at all. I do work out and try to keep healthy, my only bad habits are drinking and smoking. My question is, when to know if i am becoming an alcoholic, because i can't stop smoking for more than a day, but i managed stopping alcohol juat for the simple fact that i wanted to. All answers are appriciated.",5.042527472527475,5.043828393162396,6.2584859584859585,79.9623076923077,68.48717948717949,9.07887667887668,33.808302808302805,8.841846274778883,2.751081562881564,450,20,91,7,7,152,81,117,0.040999999999999995,0.905,0.054000000000000006,0.0757,2,0,8,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,0,7,0,14,8,0,1,3,24,20,7,0,4,3,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,5,8,4,6,5,0,0,2,1,0,1,4,1,14,1,11,15,3,16,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,3,13,62,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4378718792761601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11403453995301507,0.08325493974392953,0.15083651567040035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15318063649163302,0.10904413874758477,0.0,0.0,0.17615933776720685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5351665831471134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13113355546235075,0.0,0.0,0.11617074716744168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12139426266178875,0.0,0.0,0.07505812703877647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10126873825961023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1038715508323561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303764281309532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3059908344927124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1129763699109924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283658705480329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08751183719863745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12945726658720982,0.0,0.0,0.09272555730948298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08055555809011959,0.0,0.32865702573870503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09942833096379618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08794991452799034 alcoholism,mmnhtsd,2019/05/16,"How to help my mom? So long story short, I moved away from my mom because her drinking was causing me problems. I'm 26 and she is in her 60's. Her drinking has just gotten worse since I moved. We used to talk everyday on the phone but now there are times where I don't hear from her for like 3 days and when she does call it's only because she ran out of alcohol and is getting more. Like if she continues this I know she'll die. Are there any programs that she can enter or hotlines I can call to get more information? I live in California and so does she.",1.3366872110939916,3.1666108813559326,2.8936363636363645,93.42308936825887,80.01694915254237,5.985824345146379,22.59167950693375,6.980632752743323,0.5061423728813561,436,14,100,5,11,143,81,118,0.081,0.845,0.07400000000000001,-0.2073,0,0,3,0,0,0,9.0,1,0,0,0,9,3,0,0,1,0,10,3,0,3,0,16,18,11,1,2,4,2,0,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,6,3,0,2,2,0,4,1,1,0,0,3,1,21,2,12,14,2,18,0,0,0,0,21,7,0,2,9,64,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17295691200671226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11005622202447976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15205327837088195,0.0,0.0,0.1973113776278841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3305118848310524,0.0,0.0,0.1662534637155261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10437291085601233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16796356339529575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2832531910779843,0.0,0.0,0.3170816533707956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16910862974628352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1824045675662133,0.0,0.10847742042377216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08894260504986776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1581329400643302,0.0,0.1429069998253524,0.1432226204579442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3790882863104421,0.0,0.3440189657194908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12308602260787388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15485828050481054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338750784944308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13008023789155218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09436975299183488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13977712733538636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16492799556923826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,sickdoughnut,2019/05/16,"four weeks and i'm on the edge It's been just over a month since my last drink and I can't stop thinking about getting pissed. I don't want to but I really fcking do. I got out of rehab around this time last year following years of physical dependency and I ended up going back to binging between every ten days-two weeks, which is a cycle I find it really hard to get out of, so now I've hit four weeks I feel like it's a real achievement, but I'm craving hard again and I'm desperate not to drink because it just sets me right back into days of recovering and damage control, feeling like an idiot for whatever I said or did, never mind the horrendous hangover... and half the time I binge I end up in hospital for self harm, which wastes resources for people who are actually unwell. So I know rationally that drinking is about the worst possible thing I could do, yet my head just keeps screaming to do it and it's like all my nerves are being scraped raw with a cheese grater and I don't know how to get rid of that feeling.",3.356404028436021,4.666883606635075,4.596726895734597,85.59471119668248,73.12322274881518,7.7394549763033185,25.50977488151659,8.278499904357787,1.4857319905213269,815,26,170,13,16,269,128,211,0.16,0.754,0.086,-0.9523,0,0,3,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,2,14,9,2,0,9,0,14,7,2,3,2,38,33,14,0,2,7,0,5,3,0,0,2,2,0,1,13,13,3,3,7,3,0,2,5,6,0,4,4,7,17,3,27,26,2,33,0,1,0,0,3,10,1,2,23,110,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.12499536241515567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11402543183557015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19698345450092475,0.0,0.07808122552813758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14366152760706252,0.10226780556516474,0.0,0.0,0.08260613138027978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37643228259809697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268958105896923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1079196223701102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19429534858969588,0.18301211432803105,0.0,0.0,0.11707006590734055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20076200191875584,0.0,0.07279533384522595,0.0,0.10244363477360617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22948328855304084,0.0,0.13145519020495788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11385045535881518,0.0,0.0,0.1407875752011851,0.2088175500491888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18773190737955975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12933231585832086,0.0,0.1022385797611624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09878932350970604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08880005684117938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14439991820020118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14579212926569135,0.1641128414617237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10938640954791322,0.1218409724163549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13362366692654046,0.0,0.0,0.1059556759695294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10708726170503637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0850959425374587,0.08207358647673149,0.0,0.0,0.1493782275502956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12512331536713314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07554959162934517,0.0,0.3082332823378431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.164968880706953 alcoholism,jkday3,2019/05/16,"I have a problem and I want to stop I want to quit drinking, but I can't seem to. That's where I decided I have a problem. I don't drink as much as other people, Wednesdays and weekends only, but when I drink I drink for the sake of being drunk. And I can't NOT drink once the thought comes in my mind. I drink at home alone normally. When I'm around other people I'm not comfortable enough to get drunk normally. It hasn't affected my life too much yet, but my girlfriend definitely doesn't like it. I told her I wasn't going to drink last night but I did. Something like 6 or 7 shots of vodka. I want to stop. I don't want to lose my job, and I don't want to lose her. Any advice for how to quit drinking would be great. Things to do to distract myself. I've thought about changing my room around so that my environment is different. Any advice at all is wanted.",1.635963114754098,3.2681746557377096,3.2498599726775943,92.1341342213115,78.39890710382514,6.323633879781423,22.36646174863388,7.1686216300943375,0.5668035519125683,674,20,153,8,16,223,94,183,0.165,0.7070000000000001,0.128,-0.8357,2,1,10,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,4,10,9,0,1,4,0,17,11,0,2,1,35,32,15,0,11,7,0,0,2,1,1,1,0,2,0,7,7,10,2,4,12,0,2,10,5,0,0,5,0,26,4,23,24,4,18,0,2,0,0,4,7,0,2,11,99,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17333905424456136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09185893887874523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12062822046081326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15791069983731282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09382516743539432,0.07640094924560749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09266504465737213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6950810210145827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09164331803334497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046338300315095615,0.0,0.05040613276942902,0.0,0.0,0.09778406808524198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08896605808371938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08801386714660253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07229642750691632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06264631106226916,0.08666159352605109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1984489971849467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08955439229653024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13039875019993688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08323213604382004,0.1738001241104446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09445488229388613,0.0,0.06745483171085365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.122976768389747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16973396376228236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1886713103916393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08074254696219166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06828001075713136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14830221791125572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0589235209333977,0.0,0.0,0.14082427010723228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08474972182024977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3138796852920535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06300478365474588,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Cobanman,2019/05/16,"So, I am sure that I am an alcoholic. Since I was 22 (about 6 years ago), I have been abusing alcohol on a regular basis. My favorite is rum. These days I do not even count my pours, I just wait until 5/7 of my cup is filled, then top it off with soda. I have owned a house for 5 years, been married for 4 years, and been in nursing school for 2 years. I can not believe I have held my life together for anywhere near this long whilst being addicted to alcohol. Every time I slip, I feel it down to the bone. I am entirely conscious throughout all of this, but feel completely powerless to control any of it. My wife loves me to the end of the earth. She knows, but chooses to tolerate it and I have no intentions of testing her patience, although addiction will, inevitably, run it's course. My employer is unaware, but I only can assume they have their suspicions. I am however, their ""golden boy"" so I feel even if they knew they'd work around it (not that I want to find out). I've tried every form of will-power to work my way of this and have failed. Small steps, aromatherapy, I sing in the choir at my church, even self-hypnosis. Nothing has worked. I am to the point the I NEED support. I need people in the same boat as me. That is why I am here. If anyone. Even bystanders feel like commenting on this post I promise I will read everything and take it to the heart. I just seriously need to know that someone, anyone out there is rooting for me. Thanks in advance, reddit.",2.1190435835351096,4.212706355932202,3.4389285714285727,89.17243644067798,78.66101694915254,6.926150121065376,24.773002421307503,7.957251820313856,1.3957578692493953,1145,42,239,20,28,373,170,295,0.07400000000000001,0.8390000000000001,0.087,0.4214,4,0,3,0,0,0,50.0,0,0,5,7,12,8,0,0,11,0,29,10,2,3,2,41,46,15,0,6,10,1,4,1,0,2,6,1,0,1,16,8,4,3,11,4,0,4,4,2,0,0,6,5,43,6,39,36,4,34,1,1,0,1,11,16,0,3,13,166,59,8,0.0,0.13377622759419805,0.0,0.24617039870252405,0.0,0.0,0.10008516473739457,0.3619894540101673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07678057164418127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1578942756415084,0.0,0.0,0.10051108899662747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12720742543653527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11838074868907635,0.0,0.12663470205074462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07281561743877861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10000201114795657,0.0,0.0,0.2982958010967353,0.0,0.19025788534906168,0.0,0.10147345188384788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22835650795156126,0.08066072022078262,0.0,0.0,0.10319487173898248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13379523389459905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1302794168366818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1241013717104064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07974949073086565,0.05516061386885373,0.0,0.0,0.09991906380988227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10190289591667093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2511571329825567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10833722681508096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08587079406686411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07827543621093387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10673352621935282,0.0,0.10813361097834506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11293746583320136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11426782237118173,0.0,0.0,0.11778653290150952,0.0,0.0,0.09339776403941688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0956656598183592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12812542529828308,0.1064134280028918,0.0,0.08489194609928158,0.0,0.0,0.10394951469718312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06583692813861622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07665638158525999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06659542179034454,0.08962025105934973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1018809261898398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24659272912129926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2908333971376039 alcoholism,38918392929,2019/06/08,"Fuck AA and the single point that’s wired my brain to enact what idea I ne’er thought’d be an occurrence repeatedly proven true. It gets worse. No matter how long you’ve been sober or clean. It truly gets worse. Even sharing these thoughts will be regretted tomorrow. Account deleted, likely. After all, I punched in a bunch of numbers an aeon ago to have an account so I could post something to delete.",2.541599999999999,5.498385626666668,2.439000000000004,90.9345,86.06666666666666,5.133333333333333,24.83333333333333,6.742157984588678,1.0867333333333329,322,13,59,4,10,96,64,75,0.16899999999999998,0.688,0.14300000000000002,-0.4939,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,3,5,1,0,5,0,6,2,1,1,2,10,10,4,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,1,2,1,0,2,0,4,3,6,4,3,8,0,1,0,1,1,2,1,1,6,35,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2187097694454247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2754304037046837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19699248750458714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1629617287826417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280963566346897,0.2578107283181193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2785262420429239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12053899469895753,0.0,0.0,0.21834679961212125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332380125744052,0.0,0.2362975290936285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1899435152256808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3917494534147353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5028744744907062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Hoghead1000,2019/06/08,"Alcoholic wife. Leave or stay? So married with one 3 and a half year old daughter. She has been on and off the wagon for most of our childs life. She has been going to counseling but still drinking. Torn between what would be best for daughter, not having a mom in her life or having one that just wants to sleep all the time and not really there for her. I don't want her growing up and the cycle repeating. Also dealing with my own feelings of anger and resentment toward my wife, and don't like our daughter seeing that side of me. My wife says I don't understand, and I don't, but I have been there for her and supportive, but at what point dose my responsibility as a father outweigh those of a spouse? Thanks.",4.344154929577464,5.4279517253521155,4.90574647887324,85.1825633802817,70.47887323943661,7.933521126760564,26.171830985915488,8.238735603445708,1.4938878873239432,563,17,115,8,10,180,88,142,0.124,0.7929999999999999,0.083,-0.4914,0,0,2,0,0,0,15.0,2,0,0,1,6,6,2,0,7,0,14,6,1,0,1,25,22,16,0,3,8,9,1,1,0,1,4,1,0,1,5,10,2,0,2,1,0,2,6,2,0,3,3,3,17,4,20,17,4,16,0,0,1,0,20,8,0,3,6,91,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21650275292225196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16200789807257254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2126014389707774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2088572022357368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19845708985961868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10243353515867172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11513425477676592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21450925280116445,0.0,0.0,0.28618487245037383,0.09897325424695458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23726619721218306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21257985890752226,0.0,0.2745549434245759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1915091890075356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1297817367055887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16110446576671733,0.0,0.0,0.16143476035430834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20273223894482975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21592965052126492,0.1617853884285866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298921169313969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1865139095701953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11812948715534573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2108991016689865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2389808651589583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14391123490156016,0.0,0.0,0.1304586993304782 alcoholism,robihl,2019/06/08,"Liver swollen after drinking more than usual, is this a normal thing? I've only been drinking alcohol for \~6 months, probably 15 drinks per week on average so I don't think there should be any way I have a serious liver issue yet, but I just wanted to get some opinions on swelling/bloating. I had more than usual 5 nights ago (not even a crazy amount, 5-6 drinks) and ever since then my liver has been swollen and is showing no signs of shrinking back to normal yet. A couple days ago I stopped by urgent care and the doctor said this swelling of the liver can happen after drinking and it will return to normal after a few days, and it is not a serious problem, but searching on the internet I haven't found anything to support this - everything I find seems to imply that the swelling means there is a bigger issue to worry about. I'm probably just being overly paranoid considering the amount of drinking I've done is nothing compared to most people who get serious liver issues. Has anyone else experienced this, is the doc right that it's probably nothing and will just recover in time?",6.3837019230769245,7.084941120192307,6.704807692307693,75.49019230769231,65.68269230769229,8.9,32.82692307692308,8.841846274778883,2.8652961538461543,875,35,148,13,13,283,121,208,0.09300000000000001,0.8440000000000001,0.063,-0.4719,0,0,7,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,0,12,6,0,0,13,0,21,15,5,0,1,30,33,10,0,6,7,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,0,11,6,7,1,5,7,0,0,5,4,0,0,6,2,8,2,23,22,7,28,0,0,0,0,2,7,0,4,20,104,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1722826826169811,0.10385241139310568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06608353441008291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06794825549010798,0.09956908238912372,0.07996819986916524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07472293604346059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09907819122327688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10752424519465613,0.0,0.12534195194342826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0994645395344715,0.0,0.09944557247149724,0.0,0.5711774209369332,0.0,0.0,0.08117872001290323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0641843386094835,0.08790194991377012,0.0,0.0,0.08733621286843259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0888178052269548,0.0,0.0,0.10654931004135586,0.0,0.0,0.10154170066272836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0859330947988674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3042818946733229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10585398843618038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07756556890550131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09119381360787426,0.28563779946982604,0.1864874590750698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07390731083426108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06737013506855685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31431897473151754,0.09298504273706278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08298842870210843,0.09243735939555872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0884660796644526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08038562648799127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08124412913488828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11027504445712548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06455992649631062,0.062266948954633625,0.0,0.0,0.05666455475565761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21405296131436213,0.0,0.057317375388018926,0.07713439504158251,0.07794934148471322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0986877247327288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Rvlallax,2019/06/08,"Is this ‘brain haze’ because I stopped drinking? So I (22) just graduated college a month ago, and I told myself I was going to slow down with my drinking. I always studied during the week and times on the weekend, but I’d be heavily drinking Thursday-Sunday’s. Drinking never really affected my studies. It was always a social thing, but most of the time we’d always drink to the point of passing out. Like I said, I wanted to slow down all together when I graduated and I’ve been pretty successful, but for the past few weeks I’ve had this haziness throughout my head. I can go through everyday activities (working out, work, socializing, etc.) perfectly fine, but there’s just this obnoxious fog over my head that makes me lightheaded. Driving long distance does make the feeling worse. I thought for the longest time it was allergies because of dogs and pollen (which I have to take medicine for). That changed once I visited my girlfriend for the weekend and we got drunk together and the haziness feeling went away. I didn’t know if this was normal after someone slows down with drinking, and if it gets better with time. I was tempted to visit an ENT, but still not sure. I really just want peace of mind more than anything.",5.399922938607758,7.088412886462888,5.585800154122786,79.00776778833806,68.60698689956332,8.357667608528129,33.994605702543026,8.841846274778883,3.0481993835088623,977,47,170,17,17,309,140,229,0.066,0.78,0.154,0.9691,0,0,6,0,0,0,32.0,2,0,0,5,7,6,0,0,12,0,13,10,3,3,4,41,29,16,0,5,11,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,11,13,7,1,4,9,0,7,3,0,0,0,13,3,24,6,27,14,5,37,0,0,0,0,9,9,0,3,22,114,35,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09186063127947224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586822561455135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0852776287283151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09736261870094856,0.0,0.0,0.1263422441868336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0916512050862402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11568395331414598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10962547324445428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09068621451056434,0.0,0.0,0.6091003188811032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11557344550538952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10479561597488517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05414174299112085,0.0,0.11778920966117915,0.0,0.08288137533964289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21270598185624556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05695164901750423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05062777110924725,0.0,0.0,0.09170817975383988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1383459861209548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10463549285309494,0.0,0.08271547687763314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07992487790434079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1015341692231551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11036123307583176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09892536448763148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09796266132867323,0.0,0.0,0.10542769052130706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13277445730331364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09857466878155664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21127291381033825,0.08780430072468387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08275805091490332,0.0866382723639595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09766886729523487,0.0,0.07791592070297414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.068846334561578,0.0,0.0,0.08226964937440888,0.2417070220619782,0.0,0.0,0.09902170830953326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12224583937159884,0.0,0.16624945950079226,0.0,0.0,0.09606488633042287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15088592350621688,0.0,0.10560654605915114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,jcurious91,2019/06/08,"Numbers of a dry drunk Did some counting the other day which was pretty revealing to me. I haven’t had a drink in nearly two months (after nearly 7 years of mostly on, sometimes off heavy drinking). I had tried and given up on AA ( X 2) in the past three years. In any case, I was feeling pretty good lately, hadn’t had the old cravings and able to suppress any remnant urges. Made me question why I didn’t get my act together sooner. Then I had a day where I was able to unexpectedly work from home. I didn’t drink, but I did have two separate, hour long porn viewing sessions and also called a phone sex line. Toward the end of the day after a nice long nap where I remember looking forward to not thinking, I took four sleeping pills and ended up smoking weed with a friend because I was so worried about not being able to sleep that night once I realized the pills weren’t immediately knocking me out. I had a moment of clarity at the end of the day (while high on the amalgam of chemicals)and realized that wasn’t the day of a normal, sober person and had a better insight into what the dry drunk could be all about. I realized that my porn/“legal”/“semi-legal” substance use had sneakily escalated the last several weeks and I was not so subtly replacing the escapism provided by alcohol with other activities. Not sure what to do. I feel like AA might work but feel a bit like a phony because the actual urge to drink again is pretty minimal and I’ve long since lost any support system that I may have had. Realize I’m whining a bit, but it’s nice to shout into the void.",6.541182126696832,6.049935535256418,7.300980392156862,75.40676470588238,65.44230769230771,10.033484162895927,33.09653092006033,9.478462496947786,2.93479766214178,1245,46,236,21,17,416,171,312,0.053,0.8140000000000001,0.133,0.9764,1,0,5,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,0,4,8,11,0,0,27,0,30,13,2,2,2,42,43,15,0,2,7,0,3,2,1,2,3,1,1,1,10,12,7,1,12,7,0,3,10,2,2,4,24,6,22,9,39,14,5,50,0,2,2,2,5,20,0,5,30,157,32,3,0.2749439181667933,0.0,0.08943520099792714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09794381091182157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07329085067449433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18697129258211026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11173550705152796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08105518417933749,0.20011169919176955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09358282700706994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07317344875531515,0.0,0.0,0.2955268027912336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3591204900808093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24351870381732185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13901990616553328,0.06547333002491654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07080699638259559,0.0,0.047882283116804376,0.0,0.0,0.07686997131082103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09683111500393804,0.0919303891593747,0.0,0.09025479205317563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07470532986062005,0.10338290513542343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08954914030836822,0.0,0.0,0.2433167155970744,0.0769612149549534,0.0,0.100044588463771,0.0,0.0,0.08671952774508193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09722401604928743,0.0,0.0,0.07315253745424947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08600541399590926,0.08979555456073786,0.0,0.0,0.09616913052360597,0.09760209988295418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08748836014767128,0.0,0.08002347475398107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2797168088984469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10266670407282454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10381928738977372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10353612261786653,0.0,0.07581215009987535,0.0,0.18342831958421546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09064218845491408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1040010333676126,0.0863771296815285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0587243203374818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1018242698606774,0.0622229575474892,0.0,0.17905350475674514,0.0,0.0,0.07915442274433868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07351447559730513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08269804045157611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1334416313277911,0.09307296499792167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11803657927264412 alcoholism,pricklepickles98354,2019/06/08,"Trying to figure out how to drink in parents’ house I’m so fucking angry being home. It sucks, all my friends are gone, I’m alone. It makes me fell good, brings me temporary joy, I don’t fucking know. How long can I hide this? It’s absurd. Like if I’m not drinking I’m just crying in my bedroom from crippling depression. I hate being here I feel so vulnerable and exposed. I honestly don’t know how I’m going to make it through the summer here. How does one exist alone and depressed without alcohol? I’m curious. It seems like a shitty time to quit but this is also the time I planned to quit so I don’t know. I talked to a friend last night and she seemed to minimize the problem so now I’m questioning whether or not I was crazy and overreacting. She told me that everyone gets fucked up sometimes, just change your behavior. Just change your mentality. I felt like shit after, like I was creating a problem out of nowhere. When we were having drinks I had to stop at 2 because I was driving and then I became so hyperfocused on getting another drink that I barely remember the rest of our night. All I could think about what that I wanted another drink. I feel like a crazy person because my friends either overreact or underreact and I’m like what the actual fuck is happening.",2.3870842201276967,4.817453067193679,3.82950592885376,84.93850638491945,79.59288537549408,7.2124657950744915,26.33155974460323,8.263242389622931,1.9650280936454847,1018,42,197,21,26,335,143,253,0.19699999999999998,0.655,0.14800000000000002,-0.8883,1,2,6,0,0,0,24.0,2,2,0,3,18,23,7,0,9,0,16,11,1,6,2,46,49,23,0,5,12,1,3,6,3,0,1,0,2,1,12,9,6,1,12,5,0,5,6,11,0,1,8,3,30,12,22,38,4,24,0,2,0,4,14,7,6,6,18,125,42,0,0.0,0.0,0.0894737141849188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09798598813356683,0.0,0.18992107019897034,0.0,0.0733224116729078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19228454788829846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11178362334610402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1939863058340946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0732049591973256,0.0,0.10071434619803997,0.0,0.0,0.15794051335416054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08023629555401977,0.0,0.0,0.4490939211980837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08761127694068753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09271984790088376,0.06550152459007746,0.08803431974682127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2125124633009694,0.33905423891075576,0.09580580501437268,0.0,0.052108084401007816,0.07690307357420395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08107889931770501,0.0,0.0,0.09052236369394824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09196997684105268,0.0,0.0,0.10579499417003924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1511670555724302,0.07473749997156175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2687631076820132,0.0,0.0,0.08114049809183592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12240415471107935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09239937318243124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17208490044996833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06212978141223347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10180805029710564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08005793500019884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17546499252183748,0.0,0.0,0.10271091509854656,0.1950417543616618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1038639947486656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1669376014662225,0.0,0.0,0.09411583833185874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09068122140295183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0766548043184062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07369489023924368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058749608598757885,0.0,0.0,0.106927365776127,0.0,0.0,0.08761127694068753,0.0,0.062249752415421085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05407962693671705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08838341911763246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ChallengingGravity,2019/06/08,"Pls help If anyone can answer fast, its not exactly alchoholism but i didnt know who to aks. I drank too much and now my puking system feels like absolute shit and im shivering a bit and a bit problems with breathing. Should i not panick and just go through this or go to the hospital?",2.722758620689657,4.559711965517245,3.9891724137931033,87.12306896551725,75.89655172413794,7.398620689655173,25.393103448275863,8.238735603445708,1.5945199999999995,226,8,46,4,5,74,47,58,0.192,0.71,0.099,-0.836,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,3,0,3,3,2,0,1,17,8,7,0,3,6,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,5,1,0,3,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,2,1,4,1,4,5,3,5,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,3,30,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.202009073517924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6308188065112472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14607903426410326,0.2063937694370124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3283827063559733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19364691260807296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31206694567007864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15877461687364824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1411443759699893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21237839595811173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2764430403525696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2965568016714435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,cgregorski,2019/02/01,"Drinking to cope with social anxiety? Or social conditioning? 29M Hey everyone 👋 I have a troubled history with alcohol since around age 15. I have begun to drink with less frequency over the past few years and to less excess. I can enjoy 1 or 2 glasses of wine or a beer at home or out to dinner with my girlfriend or close friends/family. (rarely even catching a buzz). This moderation, for me, doesn’t even require a little will power. However, when I am out at a bar or a more busy place (even if I’m with people I know). I drink to excess (blacking out, hung over, etc). My behavior becomes erratic as it always has when I have had too many in the past (anger, risky behavior, rarely verbally abusive toward others). As a result, I try very hard to avoid these busier settings where I know alcohol is part of the environment. I would estimate I’ve had about a dozen or fewer of these incidents over the past 3 years- with declining frequency I know this is entirely because I accept more drinks- but I can’t decide whether it is my response to social anxiety (which I don’t think I have when sober) or if it is just a conditioned response to situations that make me feel like I’m back at a college house party? Any shared experiences?",4.039789473684209,5.768263733333337,5.364649122807016,79.09894736842108,72.08333333333334,9.052631578947368,29.298245614035093,9.549672527348893,2.840291666666667,976,40,183,24,19,326,145,240,0.045,0.877,0.078,0.8771,2,1,8,1,0,0,34.0,0,0,0,2,12,7,1,1,14,0,18,10,0,2,0,37,26,18,0,3,13,0,2,1,1,2,2,0,1,0,10,12,10,2,7,7,0,1,3,3,0,1,2,3,20,4,33,22,7,29,0,0,1,0,6,16,0,10,12,126,30,2,0.0,0.14058526411807865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2536094985642805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09872940603281602,0.0,0.0,0.08068860318350339,0.0,0.18153955280205653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10562697309906373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09123739202116823,0.0,0.0723302106875224,0.1310437193440805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4649419221371139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1323302703239281,0.2351090029409521,0.0,0.0,0.1133787209616991,0.0,0.11606611289104216,0.11185617392349896,0.0,0.05999488952707751,0.08476624629146727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10629043344309083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11901936263496048,0.0,0.0,0.13691047022713712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1956269559220253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05796821759088445,0.11892220592692272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07920228414736771,0.12029625575976285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12849042364174035,0.3398052251699357,0.08225955441839071,0.0,0.12396789057779845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09815158912500896,0.13337176056714367,0.0,0.3628575968431555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07602851724712391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08055809201161379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09790175121533326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08428820333351035,0.0,0.0,0.15281821997169767 alcoholism,dontaskagain88,2019/02/01,"A heartfelt thank you I just wanted to thank everyone in this forum for giving me the hard truth. I posted in here about 2 months ago asking for advice on my alcoholic tendencies. At that time I was in a dark place I had been drinking every day for 3yrs. My story was about a functional alcoholic with a good job but a stressful one and that i was stuck in a rut that seemed to repeat every day. What I didn't tell you is that I was on the edge of losing everything my wife my job and my health. In fact I didn't even know I was that close until looking back. 2 months ago I didn't know what to do i scrolled this sub and others, I posted. You ppl commented, and i didn't receive the comments I expected I was surprised most comments were a harsh truth. But also made me feel like I wasn't alone. The booze creeps on you one day it's a couple and before you know it it's too late. I posted right at the too late point. If I were to explain how the multiple comments hit me in a few words its "" your in deep god speed, and there is no such thing as a functional alcoholic"" I received alot of help and I'm so happy I posted. I'm a month sober and I also quit smoking ( 8 yrs smoking). It has not been easy but my method has been hitting the gym as soon as I get off work even if it's just slowly riding a bike. And after I get a sweat I still have a "" mind craving"" but my body doesn't want the alcohol and that's enough for me. I'm sorry for the long winded happy Story, but I feel like I've been reborn, it really is amazing how fast I felt like a different person ( clear minded and my stressful job is not as stressful) a fresh chance to rebuild and I had no idea that a depressing post on a Reddit sub would get me here so again thank you! And if anyone needs a random guy to vent to, get in touch I won't touch the stuff again and I'd like to help if I can thanks to the sub that somehow changed my life in 2 months",2.506642335766422,3.370094883211685,3.9646788321167885,91.03898905109492,74.62043795620437,6.93985401459854,22.45912408759124,7.1686216300943375,0.536880875912408,1491,36,342,15,30,495,190,411,0.09,0.735,0.175,0.9889,4,1,6,0,1,0,30.0,0,7,0,3,24,21,0,3,31,0,31,10,2,3,4,57,60,34,0,9,13,1,6,4,0,2,6,0,0,2,22,16,6,0,9,3,0,3,11,5,0,2,22,7,50,16,41,34,4,52,0,2,1,0,22,21,0,9,27,229,72,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07510917330814887,0.13626798784832578,0.32857067045321664,0.0,0.07960639903356119,0.0,0.12293387259499948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05374406709248868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07185608849890407,0.0,0.0,0.059102540000488035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06540435058814087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08537694178251723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08131036357944392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08504692587217473,0.0,0.1487099166747216,0.0,0.066201583196981,0.0,0.0,0.08030498296082972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07529601609128919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0794195386227138,0.0,0.10153395037543772,0.0,0.12951999068403094,0.07344543988377356,0.06907908452025302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07772800777287184,0.10982121148246554,0.0738000810449473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16062999509671164,0.07373354115753368,0.0,0.06446864221480765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07610598755635742,0.0,0.1636431817507845,0.06885372822561582,0.0,0.0,0.08170127357581028,0.0,0.0,0.10303866536507957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08676843897367792,0.0,0.0,0.22882259845635355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12672490665748828,0.0,0.1734085601607291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054290276997283324,0.15020459585812584,0.0,0.0,0.06802091902824188,0.06454516564453758,0.08598950875411376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0727291829553183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15521848554719658,0.0,0.24540374785228755,0.0,0.0,0.0569925909850322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10416807710252687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06711339518834793,0.08030498296082972,0.0,0.07265993362767358,0.0,0.36806527784250265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08175276028959766,0.0,0.0,0.04924010395522707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06564017939674174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06997275922099222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08604130786385461,0.0,0.0,0.06138251457315678,0.0,0.2641373002266313,0.0,0.0879892059704842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06718123779018745,0.28305875786409496,0.0,0.0,0.05106404860694301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04481915849918199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09067102153542438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055956836199707365,0.0,0.0,0.05460093497556637,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Hot_Lips_Hannigan,2019/02/01,"Question about urine. I checked into a detox program 9 days ago at the VA hospital, and it took 5 days to withdraw and recover enough for discharge from the hospital. My water intake has neither increased nor decreased since was released, but the color of my urine has changed dramatically since I stopped drinking alcohol. It was still that nasty orange color that scared me for the first couple days, but it eventually got lighter until my last one was clear. Why the change in color without an increase in h2o intake?",9.140967741935487,9.162647827956992,8.031741935483872,70.60761290322583,59.96774193548386,10.020645161290323,41.18064516129033,9.3871,4.091371612903226,420,21,66,6,5,129,68,93,0.149,0.8170000000000001,0.034,-0.8898,0,0,2,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,7,0,5,6,2,0,1,9,7,6,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,3,3,1,1,1,1,3,3,1,0,2,5,3,6,0,12,2,4,16,0,0,3,0,1,4,0,1,9,45,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17660106743706372,0.2129110880947916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4215075669219833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22043882981503088,0.0,0.3854512044672465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19516479292672512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20585282747025885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16946080363798952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15933854526975935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16239508059804494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13500011190925226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22317775336443166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19945912180999653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32960219167093724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15910145540060958,0.1665611390567205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22134646271843045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17976970277074442,0.0,0.0,0.19204592709951715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,twistygoldring,2019/02/01,"Worried for boyfriend’s safety My boyfriend has a history of severe depression and suicidality. He is on several antidepressants, including Trazadone for a sleep medication, which you’re not supposed to drink alcohol with. But he drinks 10+ beers every night. When he drinks he turns into a different person, hostile and with poor judgment. I have always been quite forgiving of it, because I am the only support system he has and I’m afraid that if he loses me he will lose his will to live and kill himself. Last night, he told me he was going to go meet a friend at a bar. He was already drunk enough that he couldn’t walk in a straight line. But from past experience I knew that any attempt to stop him would be met with hostility. When I try to stop him from doing stupid things like this, he gets defensive, hostile, and tries to tell me that he’s fine. So I let him go, as long as he would take an Uber there and not drive. He promised me he would Uber. I didn’t trust him and tried to take his car key as an extra safety measure, but he got hostile and claimed that he needed it for the next morning. I argued but eventually decided to trust him and gave in. He left and I watched him out the window to make sure he got in an Uber. I see him walking out the door and towards his car, which was parked down the street. I immediately opened the window and started screaming to get his attention. He turned around once, vaguely acknowledged me, but then turned around and kept walking to his car, ignoring my screams. I called him and thankfully, he picked up. He was in his car now but hadn’t driven away yet. My body was now halfway outside our 2nd story apartment building window in order to have eyes on his car. I screamed at him in desperation to please get out of the car, that I would give him money for an Uber. He immediately got very angry with me and claimed ‘I’m fine! Relax!’. I knew he wasn’t fine. I kept screaming and begging him to please get out of the car. I told him that if he drove off I would call the cops and report a drunk driver. He got angry that I would do this and told me that I didn’t care about him if I would do that to him. I didn’t back down. Kept screaming. I couldn’t have gone after him because by the time I got downstairs and all the way down the street to his car, he’d have had plenty of time to make his escape. About 5 minutes later I leaned outside the window again and his car was gone. He had driven off in the middle of my desperate screaming and even after my threats to call the cops on him. He said that he intended to get an Uber but saw that they were $90 so decided to drive. I checked the price to his destination from my phone. $8.51. So this was definitely a lie. After 15 minutes I finally convinced him to come back and get an Uber, which he did. Until yesterday, his behavior at night had been limited to just hostility towards me, and even pushing me out of his way one time when I tried to stop him from locking himself in the bathroom. But driving drunk and lying to me about it crossed a line, since this was no longer just between us, it was a matter of life and death. The next morning, he didn’t even remember which friend he had gone out to meet. Proof of the mental state he was in when he had gotten behind the wheel. He was disgusted with himself for attempting this, and is aware (in his sober state) of the danger of it, but this rationality goes away at night when he drinks, so he is bound to do it again. What if I’m not around to forcibly stop him next time? I don’t know what to do. I know my forgiving attitude is enabling, but he is suicidal and without me in his life, I am afraid his risk of suicide will go up big time. He’s said that he’s attempted suicide multiple times during this recent bout of depression. But he is a threat to the safety of himself and others now because of his drinking. He is unwilling to go to any kind of inpatient treatment, not to mention that we can’t afford that. He has recently started seeing a therapist and a psychiatrist, so we do have those two resources. I’ve never had anyone with an addiction in my life so I don’t know what I’m supposed to do. Advice is appreciated. Thanks. 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I am 22. In college and very stressed because I am going through some medical/legal stuff regarding my (at one time) very promising career that I am skilled in and put in a shit ton of loans for. Currently fighting for my future for some other shit unrelated to the alcohol. I apologize I am drunk while I write this. but... I have been downing half a liter of rum half a night at this point. I only drink during the night so I guess I have some self control. I use it as an escape. I could def not go a night without it though. The point I want to discuss though is that I don't feel like a normal drunk. I can get extremely shitfaced, even kill a fifth and still be the same person. I have gone to kickbacks and parties where I drink way more than everybody where they start acting all weird and I am still my normal self (with less anxiety of course) I dunno. I feel like alcohol def does effect me but it does not make me act crazy like it does everyone else. I am a normally quiet dude and I can get shitfaced and still seem completely sober. I feel like that is my problem though. Alcohol is the perfect solution for me. It makes me forget about my underlying problems (described above) but I don't engage in reckless behavior. ​ Am I in danger of becoming a lifelong alcoholic? ​",2.790150309460653,5.221771417624524,3.8774904214559385,85.1425132625995,78.11877394636016,7.233775419982318,27.279840848806373,8.263242389622931,2.078258355437666,1064,45,201,21,26,344,142,261,0.235,0.6829999999999999,0.08199999999999999,-0.9927,1,0,6,0,2,0,38.0,0,0,1,4,11,17,5,1,15,0,20,10,2,5,2,42,35,17,1,8,7,0,3,4,0,0,4,1,0,3,13,8,8,1,5,5,1,6,5,10,0,3,2,4,35,7,26,31,8,31,0,0,0,0,8,13,2,6,15,144,48,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3694186016254728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18726791587443356,0.21001486204480987,0.0,0.0,0.06610959774329113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05267966191867178,0.09544198428281857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09060771692854368,0.0,0.09692522951413904,0.06899780819136744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268751430773713,0.0,0.0,0.16931364527482176,0.0,0.0,0.0721912202774892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05707832947089685,0.0,0.0,0.08257618265259782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1310867395695166,0.1852112894862489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09029976425753863,0.0,0.09822677731515414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09519926241572213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09560880607055153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16887804283653735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11536948426972232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2432925532108879,0.25401412214710817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05855913025369847,0.06572484704987888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0754569376707266,0.0,0.0,0.16338604439592974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2480713061874863,0.0,0.08687404328122887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07867177806113825,0.18030581744613294,0.0,0.17741384278316966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06116716466513165,0.0,0.20704078060217002,0.0,0.09899162327570284,0.0,0.09892803086445948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2547159863612811,0.0,0.0503910797514585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07463747808682564,0.0,0.14260793951093448,0.05097162497396255,0.06859465266922983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0833039491646685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21001486204480987,0.0 alcoholism,kidcudilove91,2019/02/01,"Food binge is making me tempted to drink I struggled with an eating disorder for many years which transferred itself into a drinking problem. I have been sober for 3 weeks. Tonight I went on a food binge and made myself throw up which I have not done in a very long time. This ""out of control"" behavior is making me feel like I want to drink because of the ""fuck it I already binged on food...who cares at this point?!"" It's just an out of control feeling. Any words of encouragement would help....I start therapy next week.",3.2542794279427945,5.3731914356435695,3.5074587458745903,89.90385038503851,75.23762376237623,6.073047304730473,26.073707370737075,6.937597516519254,1.0714545654565455,409,15,81,4,9,126,73,101,0.114,0.777,0.109,-0.3595,0,0,3,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,2,1,6,1,1,6,0,7,7,0,5,0,18,17,1,0,3,2,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,5,6,2,2,3,0,2,1,3,0,0,4,2,9,3,17,12,0,19,0,0,0,1,1,9,1,0,9,49,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15236660444675468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0938941378084708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08416780687806527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407742703772964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30972043867527904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15824322079979194,0.0,0.0,0.1412962603988136,0.0,0.4057759013140537,0.0,0.1412827924733475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13962736254705888,0.09863912989914067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5008739951763159,0.0,0.0,0.1276459415413309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09254718792828956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06745532325812663,0.0,0.0,0.12218995178280193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13064768141140798,0.18432913420414768,0.1399839973739871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14684183138841195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.130523284797443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321168804728489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09772853346632533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14434351425055242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1578981102681197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08051127350524351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11392439771695655,0.08143882725923572,0.0,0.22150710541682211,0.0,0.0,0.1279947313341287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09808285020657123,0.0,0.0,0.08891426074780133 alcoholism,GarthbrooksXV,2019/02/01,Is drinking every day unhealthy if within limits? I drink 2 standard drinks every night as I wind down. Am I at risk for health problems with this habit? Not worried about becoming an alcoholic etc.. Just wondering if I am at greater risk for heart disease or cancer etc with this habit.,4.22075471698113,6.813337113207549,4.12890566037736,84.34015094339625,74.09433962264151,6.504150943396226,29.467924528301893,7.554174236665415,2.0335464150943405,229,10,39,3,5,70,40,53,0.249,0.6779999999999999,0.073,-0.8927,0,0,4,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,2,1,0,3,7,1,0,0,11,4,4,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,2,4,1,1,3,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,4,0,10,4,3,6,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,4,2,28,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.210533273577688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21757121378726485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12704881429945794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5789555129747166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4394145355349222,0.0,0.0,0.3319622849458593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.209401971973402,0.0,0.2334461537666608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1848713173950801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1885025603025588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2136382843759496,0.0,0.20006323850554766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,j0n5n0w91,2019/06/26,A message to whoever... I've been sober after 2.5 years now. Mainly heroin and methamphetamine were my DOC... idk if this is even the right place to post this. Recently I started drinking again... I have no one to Express this to without feeling shame and embarrassment so... I guess I'm sharing with yall. I dont feel like I'm back in a destructive habit as alcohol was never my thing but... thanks for anyone listening,1.881,4.6081750999999995,3.1650000000000027,86.62000000000002,85.5,6.2,25.5,7.554174236665415,1.6902250000000003,328,14,61,6,10,106,65,80,0.203,0.6990000000000001,0.098,-0.7861,0,0,3,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,0,0,5,6,1,2,3,0,6,2,0,0,1,10,14,6,0,1,3,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,3,2,0,2,1,0,0,4,3,0,1,3,3,7,3,10,11,1,12,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,2,9,43,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2681987069528679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1754762746256256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19297187766511875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29412192263559056,0.24584414825012746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1657559645536674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2537846868675385,0.17928506445792752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2764594849357243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1226058258089818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19355494906142326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17005622288884273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2621986017468744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2403492227847225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24779160488488794,0.0,0.0,0.2143175008783024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17762997747247475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23104920699744694,0.0,0.0,0.16672591974529888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2419153919345135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.161609282094219 alcoholism,CodrinSpadasin,2019/06/26,"3 days sober - harder than expected I keep wanting to congratulate myself with a cold one but I remember the reason why I want to quit. It’s hard. Did Sober October last year and it was ok but now I am just very iritated and shitty. I fear the nightmares. I read somewhere that if withdrawal is really bad I can take a benzo to at least be able to sleep. I am very irritated. I need to quit. Any tips?",0.16080931263858034,2.5305811341463453,3.0026385809312655,86.81253880266077,91.3170731707317,6.884257206208426,19.64966740576497,8.00094639256281,1.208960975609756,311,10,66,8,11,109,61,82,0.23600000000000002,0.679,0.085,-0.9540000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,1,4,1,7,1,1,1,0,14,12,5,0,5,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,2,10,1,8,9,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,41,13,1,0.21178719054225773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14402255206095374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17683345774592638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13658521718263006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23831946970386786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18971972348219587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18824618598756165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17263482715171655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15703751824133688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1435124814070059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4505234930845311,0.21184450316380388,0.0,0.1356762973823224,0.2177525049842158,0.0,0.0,0.2399136014389752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2119401407184151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.159237610046708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3494932246925203,0.2498351443974417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19110499807416295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13638400699341802 alcoholism,fernandfauna,2019/06/26,"I'm sad and scared for my sister My sister has.. unbelievable trauma... and she drinks to forget all that she's been through. I'm worried for her. My whole family is. She took the hardest step and sat us down and told us she has a problem, but she's so stubborn and resistant to change that she's flaked out on counseling and she can't afford to get in-patient treatment. I just don't even know what to do or how to help or if she even wants to hear jack shit from me. I live too far away to visit, and she leaves texts on read like nobody's business. I don't know what to do... any guidance or ANYTHING would be helpful :(",2.6056923076923084,3.8143889538461546,3.640000000000004,92.12000000000003,74.84615384615384,6.430769230769231,23.76923076923077,6.742157984588678,0.5489846153846156,484,14,109,4,10,156,83,130,0.161,0.754,0.085,-0.8586,1,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,2,0,0,0,6,7,2,1,2,0,11,2,1,1,1,23,21,14,0,4,6,2,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,4,8,1,1,2,2,0,3,3,6,0,0,4,1,19,1,17,15,2,9,0,1,0,0,19,6,1,4,1,73,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12747052994673333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15425308145524164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1761128232237818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19829429249047004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18362690290500536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24761422735231614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1767085462542432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09793343009507403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2112666277713783,0.0,0.25128382592666404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2060321677774444,0.0,0.0,0.1984795290720402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09157723798456216,0.0,0.1655193197235457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17936166369764495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874979348592837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876673566214024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19241186633168286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17911384105637065,0.2082607462567488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4509518252795071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11056122044755287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20927811470312266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19036173962570144,0.0,0.1331571191379506,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,TillTheFatLadyDrinks,2019/06/26,"VERY heavy user but don't quite know if I'm an alcoholic...my first time with DSM-V Lately I've been thinking that I might possibly be an alcoholic with a problem, so I figured I'd give DSM-V a try. This is the first time I've ever heard of these questions so not sure what I'm in for. I'm a 24 year old male, and have been drinking heavily for at least the part 4-5 years. I'm usually drunk at least 4/7 nights, sometimes I'll do every night. *Have you in the past year...* **Had times when you ended up drinking more, or longer, than you intended?** Yes definitely. Well, I mean I already know I'm gonna be drinking a lot...I dont think of a set amount, I just drink until I know I'm drunk and then I stop. But I often say ""shouldn't have had that last drink"", so this is a yes. **More than once wanted to cut down or stop drinking, or tried to, but couldn't?** No, not really. I like drinking. I also like the amount I drink, which is a lot. Sometime's I'll say ""Alright, no more drinking for the rest of the week"" and it's no big deal. Then comes next week so I'm allowed to drink again. I feel like this is definitely not the answer they were looking for with this question, but it's the truth. **Spent a lot of time drinking? Or being sick or getting over aftereffects?** Yes, I do spend a lot of time drinking. I'm doing other things too. I'm dancing to music, or I'm playing video games, or I'm playing with my dogs. Or I'm writing in my journal, or watching TV. I had already planned to do these things anyway so I just drink while I do it. I don't really feel sick the next day, just like a headache but I drink some water and then go to work and I'm all good. I'm gonna leave this overall answer as a yes although I wish I could do half a point. **Wanted a drink so badly you couldn't think of anything else?** No. I'm not thinking of the drink, I'm thinking of the activity I'm going to do along with it, like playing video games or writing. For example, if I got home from work all excited to play video games and get drunk but my PS4 breaks...then I'm not playing video games AND I'm not drinking. Simple as that. Besides, how can I not think of anything else? I'm usually thinking about my friends, my family, my job, my bills, sex, video games, TV shows, that embarrassing moment from 3rd grade, that really kickass moment I had in college, etc. **Found that drinking, or being sick from drinking, often interfered with taking care of your home and family? Or caused job troubles? Or school problems?** No, because I revolve my drinking around my responsibilities. If I had a client meeting at 8am on Wednesday, then I am not drinking Tuesday night. But I will be getting drunk the majority of the rest of the week cause I don't have anything serious going on. Imake sure to get dinner with my friends/family on a regular basis because I love them. **Continued to drink even though it was causing trouble with your family or friends?** Yes. Nothing severe at all but I can think of 2 incidents in particular in one year that I was not proud of my actions during social gatherings, and someone asked if my relationship with alcohol was okay. This was during my 1st year of heavy drinking, so I quickly decided to make sure I don't ""blackout"" anymore and to never lose control. This is also why I mainly drink alone now, because even though I'm a happy-lovey drunk, I don't like the risk of doing something I might regret later or maybe hurting someones feelings. **Given up or cut back on activities that were important or interesting to you, or gave you pleasure, in order to drink?** No, I just do those important/interesting activities while I'm drinking, like writing or playing video games. Or if I can't drink while doing them (like driving since I love to drive), then I just don't drink. For example, I'll be like ""Can't wait to get drunk tonight!"" after work and then a friend texts ""hey wanna go for a walk?"". So I change my plans and hang with them, and then usually get home and it's probably time for bed. There are so many other nights I can drink, I'll just reschedule my drinking to another night... **More than once gotten into situations while or after drinking that increased your chances of getting hurt (such as driving, swimming, using machinery, walking in a dangerous area, or having unsafe sex)?** Yes, not recently, moreso my first year of drinking. I was young and stupid and needed to learn from my mistakes. I'm 24 now, I can't afford to be taking these kinds of risks. I've got bills to pay, friends to lookout for, family to watch over, dogs to love. This is why for the past couple years I only drink alone and only drink in my home, where I know I will remain for the rest of the night. Life is awesome, why would I risk endangering myself when it's really easy to avoid most of these situations? I'm still going to leave this as a yes though. **Continued to drink even though it was making you feel depressed or anxious or adding to another health problem? Or after having had a memory blackout?** No...I drink because I'm happy. Because I'm celebrating something, like a birthday or a holiday. Or I'm celebrating the fact that I have nothing to do the rest of the night so I can get drunk and play video games. Or I'm celebrating the hard work I put in at my job the week before and now it's a slow period. Or I'm watching a really bad horror movie and think it would be funnier if I watched it while drunk. **Had to drink much more than you once did to get the effect you want? Or found that your usual number of drinks had much less effect than before?** Yes, holy god yes. I remember twice during my first year of drinking, I woke up and wondered how much I drank of the 750mL vodka I had just bought and found out I drank ALMOST THE ENTIRE THING. Like...jesus. My tolerance has dwindled a bit since then, likely because I'm getting older. It's still higher than what it used to be, and definitely higher than the ""average"" # of drinks, but that's mostly because nowadays I start to feel bloated from all the liquid and make the conscious decision that I dont want pooping problems the next morning. **Found that when the effects of alcohol were wearing off, you had withdrawal symptoms, such as trouble sleeping, shakiness, irritability, anxiety, depression, restlessness, nausea, or sweating?** No. I've never experienced any sort of ""withdrawal"". It honestly sounds really scary, like having to go to the hospital for a proper detox. Never had any of these symptoms before, or anything even close. **Score: 5** Moderate...one step away from Severe. Idk how I feel about this conclusion. On one hand, I really feel like I belong in the ""Severe"" category, because although alcohol no longer ""impedes"" on my life like it did in my first year, I drink SO MUCH. The questions confused me because on some of them I didnt know if I was supposed to answer about my current drinking status or over the entire course of my relationship with alcohol. I feel like I answered ""yes"" mostly to how I used to drink, but I drink more responsibly now, regulate myself, and take precautions. Except it's not really that responsible cause I'm literally getting drunk every time. Now I'm just more confused. Thanks if you read the whole thing, feel free to question/comment on anything I said.",1.9746586657727119,4.491818138947373,3.418159794390437,86.72220985584984,81.99649122807017,6.156889037881327,24.30450329645771,7.4544012854818655,1.3109655827466755,5708,217,1102,90,157,1868,466,1425,0.14800000000000002,0.71,0.142,-0.7387,6,3,53,0,0,0,277.0,0,15,5,19,60,77,4,9,65,12,89,81,5,20,13,232,207,121,0,27,71,0,11,15,4,9,14,5,5,1,56,42,62,5,46,82,7,19,37,30,1,9,42,22,118,48,157,144,39,160,0,6,5,5,55,42,0,62,112,697,174,13,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10279879962298262,0.019264254768284472,0.039849897748550016,0.042459612205653134,0.03076952551690398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.026165239385675228,0.04034581083577109,0.0147171523289096,0.02173366346203706,0.019079101588596003,0.0,0.0,0.07915690010744107,0.017126055772931782,0.01798509802010316,0.0,0.01807490005910752,0.014792970190160815,0.032126147517234936,0.10554672422796668,0.0,0.04911081360712445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.021003106042044348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.019614603050508158,0.07905162646500492,0.02035143979551335,0.016571985549215202,0.0,0.0,0.02157725074675512,0.015360118472605447,0.02128667632865709,0.0,0.012407032277193107,0.019833715176969063,0.03313962637701542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04509399904758812,0.8292279104172672,0.0,0.0,0.03214205567425328,0.0,0.01703931414356395,0.0,0.0214556521267466,0.05082653642908462,0.017402032007616888,0.032417986793849385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09068020302749644,0.0,0.08754660051189576,0.04123127130477078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08181991531307871,0.0,0.08437466998391159,0.05945346961917045,0.0,0.11056268486941864,0.018455011854810043,0.06560099413122092,0.016136069659204458,0.030773054299757224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0204793965660565,0.017233627338428408,0.0,0.0,0.02044928195125209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07718983826729364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04118973157152606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057272764889157474,0.0,0.0,0.02003360032485925,0.052863993282399734,0.015681681493942747,0.02170150099433284,0.040740902179477484,0.0,0.0,0.027176985937651884,0.150380820109326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.016155222961496275,0.02152259851532056,0.0,0.06542243862464582,0.0520896160706425,0.0,0.03852489650666985,0.019504491371577764,0.019327334033137838,0.02095601402138807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040817330064440174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056569093061977035,0.014264864073433184,0.04451300302823273,0.0,0.06138005672855965,0.12637607759558836,0.0,0.03691909832520255,0.0,0.0201872299772224,0.061464090167064174,0.02607257250418221,0.02926300019502125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.020833070351379625,0.03673003253778143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.01818629507571693,0.02168815336099417,0.0,0.0,0.020742008052703167,0.07363334677000176,0.0,0.0193396809546898,0.08620464196097967,0.02046216873111367,0.019243382576203928,0.0,0.09859574765674424,0.0,0.018995378335880896,0.04130920364673107,0.021793103662242838,0.0,0.018299911304346456,0.0305979401576806,0.0,0.019470061647088345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0652009903861112,0.0,0.03182803672657145,0.043249032761069485,0.019252070033393284,0.01961089817257091,0.03260088895581485,0.02962097625069744,0.038054096860716265,0.0,0.013616880311385549,0.0,0.030727265131763267,0.03216795388551004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05439526089586598,0.039991663000567716,0.04339414341489616,0.0,0.0,0.01771192814688222,0.0,0.0,0.05112395838318918,0.1109434200048266,0.0756056427478486,0.0,0.07852554779112912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0261229179682722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049846822788795625,0.08475253365304886,0.015873510358088178,0.04538869966244722,0.0,0.0617268188849195,0.0,0.0172974310428515,0.0,0.05207838582418566,0.021478736974256733,0.022122953487343302,0.0,0.020862981717003515,0.056022486331798765,0.0,0.0,0.02733249716312676,0.0,0.0,0.11149879398280252 alcoholism,RolandLovecraft,2019/06/26,"On Cape Cod. Looking for ways to get into INpatient care asap. Hi all. I’m in the process at the moment to try and get into a recovery program with Gosnald and I have no health insurance. Was referred to Community Action Connector but got a voicemail so I left a message. Any advice for.....whatever, to help me? Thanks.",0.8460655737704919,3.3501812295081983,3.425065573770496,81.37136885245904,97.36065573770493,6.374426229508197,27.41147540983607,7.554174236665415,2.507215081967213,249,13,43,6,10,86,49,61,0.026000000000000002,0.818,0.155,0.836,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,5,0,2,1,0,0,1,8,9,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,3,2,11,7,1,9,0,0,1,0,3,6,0,0,1,27,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3155208379739224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21957381369693854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3292041882337654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.337389618500586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2582417379066641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3432131278614344,0.0,0.0,0.216423937368628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.350817001497722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2711432419549825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2972704016815718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21921866024761336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2562921828815247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Serg_888,2019/06/26,Pot Does smoking pot a bit like once or twice a day instead of drinking still count as being sober? I'd guess not really cause I'm high/stoned ofcourse but at least I'm not drunk. Trying to quit smoking too but just going cold turkey makes me lose my mind.,1.9990566037735853,4.039822490566042,2.7930566037735858,93.9175094339623,78.81132075471699,4.994716981132076,20.033962264150947,5.6839178017228535,-0.1670196226415097,204,5,43,1,5,64,45,53,0.068,0.8490000000000001,0.083,-0.0634,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,2,0,10,6,4,0,0,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,1,2,1,4,5,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,3,20,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2941922988386201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2768207196368565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17378635998340752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2358156950275949,0.0,0.0,0.2639787752631069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15314645391757026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2968524439676754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2847106734605849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1316498113440862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30146887424782626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17987383775728372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2720886697595375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2869775855386259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2866153437581806,0.0,0.0,0.17262988150886585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2151997125577843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18295297071953115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,needmorerageahol,2019/06/26,"Am I an alcoholic? I’ve been drinking since I was 13. I’m now weeks away from turning 29. I can never just have one. When I start, I can’t stop and I drink until I blackout. I lash out at the people around me, I make fun of my friends and say hurtful things to my girlfriend. I know I obviously have issues in my life, which are what lead me to drink, but when I don’t drink I just can’t live with myself. I feel bland, empty and boring. Drinking makes me feel ok about that. I’ve had therapy. I used to take a ton of drugs but I stopped that, I also quit smoking just over a week ago but since then I have been drowning myself in alcohol everyday since. I haven’t been able to leave the house without drinking for the last 3 years at least, but that’s because since moving into a city I don’t really need to drive anywhere. I like to drink when I go into town because it makes me feel good, less anxious, more confident and carefree. I drink before I go to work, drink on my lunch break, drink on my way home. I don’t necessarily *need* to drink; I don’t have any physical urge to do it. But everything is just so much better when drinking is involved....",1.8486607142857137,3.5372533541666686,3.3221428571428615,91.60000000000002,77.95833333333334,6.238095238095237,23.095238095238088,7.07126945348624,0.6438988095238098,895,28,199,10,21,294,133,240,0.065,0.8170000000000001,0.11800000000000001,0.9432,0,0,15,0,0,0,33.0,0,0,0,4,13,8,0,0,7,1,22,17,0,5,2,34,38,17,1,2,10,0,3,1,2,0,4,1,1,0,8,9,15,2,4,12,0,5,9,2,0,1,5,4,37,6,29,33,5,37,0,1,0,0,4,13,0,0,18,131,45,2,0.07036516084157983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06237446949519921,0.15039791505553604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056270993702778965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047850722296454234,0.0,0.0,0.07949260310424575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06263991142942088,0.0,0.0,0.06611038489011696,0.0,0.0,0.08578789788643325,0.0,0.05987556923720187,0.0,0.0,0.06223226660023426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8271728319388433,0.08160124711617986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0632396693926489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10673621867407287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054363948717876184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07998028494407547,0.05901895846147314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07058199354863587,0.0,0.0,0.08119194820384618,0.07532736000778324,0.0,0.0,0.07344294647589025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03867085219059925,0.05735699759879995,0.0,0.07450654540407046,0.0,0.0,0.04970099404743752,0.03437686330563406,0.0,0.062133726172622514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14090787376854924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07478703016761391,0.05172648953773532,0.10434975034063168,0.0542699499155942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04768125405093043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04878234272754423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07484200997387068,0.0,0.0,0.045077723838034704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05595720015198002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.232827152726654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04980482301116546,0.0,0.0,0.11765685041378912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052905843900553064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08046869380692125,0.0,0.046747486220759804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0765370891310524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060772906615256965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05585258944740409,0.11288537533208533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06782950406466269,0.0,0.05122667513769102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045312856569558135 alcoholism,SHThrowAway213,2019/06/26,"It's happening again. I'm relapsing + other fucked up ramblings I can't keep clean for too long. I just can't. I just get bored too easily... I can't stand being stuck in my head, I always need to escape it. I have plenty of alcohol left from when we went to the music festival. They also say LSD is supposed to help addicts and people with mental health problems, it doesn't for me, it just makes me want to escape even more. I've always been a sort of addict. When I was younger, it was caffeine and self-harm. Now it's alcohol. I'm very grateful for the fact I've never been able to get my hands on stronger drugs, but at the same time, resenting it. I know I'm going to mess up my stomach again. My husband and I had an argument about this a few weeks ago... I'm not supposed to drink on my medication, as that medication stops being effective as I drink. He said I'm going to end up like my Nan if I'm not careful. She's an alcoholic with the beginnings of liver failure. I can hide it from him pretty well. I wish my attempts worked. Sorry for the ramblings.",1.4997328162034052,3.4438276696832584,3.5179056237879784,88.58500754147812,79.99547511312217,6.5624649859943975,22.74100409394527,7.62386473244151,1.0032234863176042,829,27,176,13,21,281,131,221,0.12,0.735,0.14400000000000002,0.5312,0,0,6,0,0,0,32.0,1,0,1,3,14,9,2,0,9,0,14,16,4,2,2,26,37,10,0,5,7,1,1,1,0,0,9,2,1,0,11,6,5,2,2,2,0,3,7,5,1,0,8,3,25,4,29,27,3,25,0,0,0,1,9,8,1,2,14,112,36,1,0.13265733161139118,0.0,0.0,0.2892321448279849,0.0,0.0,0.11759272038812367,0.4253110314656138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1060860201618557,0.2207630537158886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13525299072550515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2599073636111203,0.15384038875382625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11749502102560867,0.0,0.0,0.08761891640823234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12263956546296804,0.13861596107500876,0.0,0.15078443728832053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11730844023638773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361446938743838,0.14100854016641878,0.0,0.0,0.0889174130825776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11791193157240967,0.0,0.0,0.07290500016468436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14413257894589027,0.0,0.0,0.0648096714446816,0.0,0.0,0.11739756399330326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08854979895166548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.267276610678724,0.13368738892689905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09836373049490114,0.10231351220378927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09196789062357068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13496019742037335,0.0,0.12693515058813468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12618750058570344,0.10549443457279448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13839052835968094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484990219232482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11090746922922436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07735355686460382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10945619157906383,0.07824473121734511,0.0,0.1064097096517671,0.0,0.11927487262370312,0.12297467544069332,0.0,0.0,0.1525493845141519,0.0,0.0,0.0965761173542869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Abhorrence_,2019/06/26,"This is it. The first day. I've posted here before, but deleted it as I get terrified of admitting to being an alcoholic. I've woken up this morning after drinking 7 days out of the last 8 (heavily, I am a bad binge drinker) and just feel awful. I have a pain in my chest and it's really scaring me, I'm assuming I'll be fine as it's not debilitating but still a bit scary. Anyway, I'm not going to drone on. This is just to have it in black and white that I start sobriety today. I don't believe this will be an easy road and also know I'm gonna fall off the track at some point. But, today is the first day.",0.7914411027568917,2.3522972105263165,3.549041353383462,89.35834899749375,80.65413533834587,6.8393483709273175,20.8577694235589,7.793537801064563,0.7298626566416035,471,13,109,8,12,167,87,133,0.19699999999999998,0.759,0.044000000000000004,-0.9757,0,0,3,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,2,6,4,0,1,9,1,11,4,1,0,0,17,22,10,0,0,7,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,10,5,2,0,4,1,0,2,3,3,0,2,1,3,7,1,15,16,2,23,0,0,2,0,1,9,0,2,11,70,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2173882169575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16267048626248304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16984259427393028,0.0,0.0,0.1730907404000151,0.2291784616351765,0.0,0.0,0.22207592840551707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3935565348571683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19926874981885154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1028524730712944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3460485057560396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10627567024104803,0.0,0.11560513674225538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11179127852719477,0.16580995066899054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21644734863774545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1922924330864069,0.0,0.19481484300173674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13031252469204027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20365338054577656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14397781599941925,0.0,0.16244706658717142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38562628505087704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,warmramses,2019/06/26,"18 year old male, alcohol has finally lost its grip on me. I’ve been drinking exessively since I was 15. At one point I would body 10 shots easily everytime I went out. Once college came, I drank everyday for 8 months. I was diagnosed with depression 6 months ago as well as alcohol use disorder. I had withdrawl symptoms, especially hallucinations for a while too. That was awful, terrifying, and damaging. Every weekend I relapsed, I felt it was only a matter of time before I had a seizure. It’s almost miraculous that I’ve been sober without cravings. I have literally no desire to drink. I’m free. I thank God, a Catholic seminarian I know, and my psychiatrist. My friends are still all steeped in alcohol use, one of them is severely depressed. Please pray for them. I’m so glad I beat this while I’m young and the damage I’ve done to my body and mind can mostly heal. The posts on this thread helped me a lot. God bless you all, fight the good fight.",2.4707608695652183,5.077794119565219,4.030608695652177,82.55134782608697,80.63043478260869,8.027826086956521,26.591304347826085,8.841846274778883,2.4274791304347825,754,32,146,20,20,250,125,184,0.17600000000000002,0.648,0.17600000000000002,-0.4649,0,0,5,0,2,0,27.0,0,1,2,2,4,14,2,0,8,1,15,11,2,2,2,21,27,9,0,2,1,0,2,0,1,1,6,0,0,1,7,7,6,0,2,3,1,2,2,7,1,2,14,2,21,8,16,12,4,22,2,5,0,0,8,6,0,3,13,84,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11576791542898815,0.4187110508134791,0.1307757870511753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11112992049172336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.290131548338865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1493701825237322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22496903068220891,0.13255498609717664,0.0,0.0,0.1496774864819032,0.0,0.0,0.13364786812917734,0.0,0.2558741186579632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11003508281462053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12539528433594466,0.1430645512493298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10090027327673448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10954003853132034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08753759181633723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07177365967517793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14256396728521836,0.11103039028572777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13186751189020549,0.0,0.20848535871053012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13704142311285664,0.13908341059067825,0.17699419109099018,0.09932623732434663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14335821368092844,0.12345803565613825,0.0,0.1250775053787261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14753941841718987,0.0,0.10803263877260694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10429633354289168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357421106420082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12023778606872412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07615318362970111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22559078322743475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11742396401009494,0.12106635325160207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12589253830451355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.092773607688854,0.0,0.0,0.08410131564476439 alcoholism,lordscoby,2019/07/22,"Day 2 - I feel like a zombie 6 years nearly every day use Day 2 1:55 in the middle of south tx",4.770454545454548,1.830202409090912,6.935454545454544,84.52318181818181,70.36363636363636,8.8,22.0,3.1291,0.12794545454545458,71,0,18,0,1,26,19,22,0.0,0.75,0.25,0.6124,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,3,2,0,8,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,5,6,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.752048503626344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32750107511888915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19654113606729487,0.2776912246628259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18990183048785364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3357166739646441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25031354171811165 alcoholism,xHD_Dreams,2019/07/22,I quit drinking but my GF did not So basically I have a terrible family history of alcoholism so I have completely abstained from drinking. Last weekend I went to a country music festival with my girlfriend and some of our friends and of course the entire trip revolved around drinking. I didn’t have a single sip of alcohol all weekend because when I have 1 shot I black out before I know it and wake up the next day to videos of me acting like a complete idiot. I chose not to drink and I’m fine not drinking but girlfriend continues to drink and get hammered and be annoying as fuck when she drinks and I feel like it’s not fair for me to have to put up her drunk bitchy attitude when I have to be sober. If anyone has been in a similar situation or has any advice to give me I would really appreciate it because I feel like I need to break up with her if she isn’t willing to quit drinking with me but maybe I’m wrong. Please let me know what you think. Thank you.,5.187978003384097,5.379083868020307,6.0866116751269015,80.66446912013538,68.18781725888326,9.612351945854483,32.15270727580372,9.516144504307137,2.7781407783417937,770,31,157,15,12,255,112,197,0.145,0.7140000000000001,0.141,-0.4308,0,0,10,0,0,0,7.0,1,2,0,2,6,12,3,0,7,0,17,13,1,0,1,32,30,19,0,4,10,0,2,3,4,2,2,0,0,0,4,12,11,1,5,12,0,4,6,5,0,0,4,3,28,7,27,21,3,20,0,0,1,1,12,6,1,4,12,108,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09661649881694803,0.0,0.21132803354715435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06723629807625067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06913354742111172,0.0,0.0,0.08801697350032625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12054281308214645,0.0,0.08413272417866939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20733066021530874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06376421083980012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7748547485414188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09320764959191813,0.0,0.0999852300360312,0.14126824303790142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07638820241733284,0.0914054995765914,0.05165649895904273,0.09484695781152136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10867484627049943,0.0805938134730617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10110324000544883,0.0,0.1449114820351673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09933013590410797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07331227807406522,0.0,0.0,0.10515141174663503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10853168073005667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09939359118426462,0.0,0.21032492090936628,0.0,0.0,0.06333988560915829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11113618397945173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09102798280079062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0633531359601984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09165526314034382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07023577729750785,0.1081009265834636,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Curvysexycute,2019/07/22,"Anyone ever made a quit plan and set a quit date with their spouse? Am I kidding myself that this will work? I feel hopeful for the first time in a long time but am hoping to hear others’ experiences with this... (xposted in r/stopdrinking) So I’ve been struggling with evening binge drinking for over a decade now, still working full time but certainly not “functioning” well in any capacity. I’ve wanted to cut down + eventually quit drinking for years now. One big barrier for me is that my husband is also a heavy drinker and loves to drink with me all day/night on weekends as well. I’d even say that our relationship’s foundation was us enabling each others bad drinking habits. At this point I desperately want to start a family but can’t if I’ve not had sobriety for any period of time and have not made complete sobriety part of my every day life. I’ve been bringing this up for a couple of years now to my husband (even before he was my husband). Finally we came to an agreement. He acknowledges that our drinking is out of control. He does not want to quit completely but has agreed that once I quit, he will not bring alcohol into the house, will cut down to only special occasions and will sleep at a friend’s place if he goes out and feels intoxicated. He rarely goes out, so those nights where he is intoxicated may be once a year if that. We made a plan to wean down using alcohol we don’t enjoy (honey brown beer ugh) that has a low alcohol percentage as to avoid mild withdrawal. I don’t think either of us are at risk of DT’s, but still want to reduce the severity of feeling shaky and having uncontrollable mood swings/insomnia which are inevitable at this point. and we have a firm quit date of August 10th. I especially feel great about this! I feel hopeful for the first time in a long time! Am I kidding myself though? I don’t want to miss out on having a child and raising them in a healthy sober home.",5.501540671971707,6.131391641909815,5.935719496021223,80.48467561892132,67.5941644562334,9.36025641025641,30.031940760389038,9.408791572840183,2.4781972590627768,1527,54,302,29,24,492,192,377,0.099,0.7609999999999999,0.14,0.9481,0,1,11,0,0,0,37.0,8,0,2,14,17,24,2,5,20,0,30,14,1,5,3,64,55,22,0,11,14,4,5,0,2,5,6,2,1,3,17,23,9,3,7,7,0,3,9,11,2,3,9,9,27,12,55,40,5,60,0,2,1,1,30,28,0,8,28,194,44,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2291942128072011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05716828410741843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09722748815981122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049985508985853376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05968882190052436,0.0,0.0,0.06083033776381869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08176230680772055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14990592795865204,0.0,0.08017896800324928,0.0,0.07909922168873103,0.0,0.0922066537246824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06255892619055592,0.0,0.0,0.35015117877598395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14164985448886744,0.0646642607024466,0.06023104510347992,0.0,0.0,0.06992819414164966,0.06739176535882982,0.0,0.18073036900506434,0.0,0.0,0.07831072798413485,0.0,0.12161394329446645,0.0,0.0,0.05523082961570636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07881488498841396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08057126442789739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07170748541192222,0.2130087445915433,0.0,0.08248662511042612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05049352003863227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12652783621533487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06451998463949601,0.20292873752319307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13417177988371615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15226305941980672,0.04844157351440141,0.05436923322283143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0774136659353558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0746889036233428,0.0,0.13515701217800807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4562125892379805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07675049421968297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0568494868429183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08076018246106327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07153882231432514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050599004646356284,0.0,0.11417953272835292,0.0,0.0,0.0747339378703737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045806108104521216,0.07023580624209591,0.0,0.2501085501449542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17198058747904402,0.06174198397429472,0.0,0.0,0.2108249992467024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12855114735428164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10408705890705892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1381062295666872 alcoholism,m_baum,2019/07/22,"Advice on alcoholic mother My mom is an alcoholic and she’s been for the past 8 years or so. She drinks 5-6 glasses of wine every night and is always drunk after 6pm. Although concerning, I have sort of given up on trying to help because it’s emotionally draining and no one else in my family is willing to help. I’ve pretty much been ignoring it for the past year but today I noticed something and I feel like I can’t ignore it. In the washer, here underwear was in there covered in shit. I’m pretty sure she’s getting so drunk to the point where she shits herself and doesn’t even realize it. I really don’t know how to handle this. I’m leaving to study abroad tomorrow for 5 months and really don’t want my last conversation before I leave to be about her shitting herself, but I also don’t want to ignore it. I know if I tell my dad about it that he won’t do anything. I’m really concerned and don’t know what to do. I feel like if she continues her drinking at the rate she’s at she won’t be able to live for much longer or lose it completely mentally. Any advice would be appreciated.",3.2150168437419038,4.414910563876654,5.108395957501943,82.22097175434051,73.31718061674009,8.336771184244624,26.128271572946357,8.841846274778883,1.9139553770406843,866,29,177,17,17,298,125,227,0.13699999999999998,0.745,0.11699999999999999,-0.6823,0,0,6,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,1,10,10,3,0,6,0,22,10,3,1,1,28,34,18,0,5,6,3,2,2,0,4,2,0,0,0,10,7,7,3,6,5,0,0,9,7,0,1,4,2,25,3,27,23,2,22,0,1,0,0,19,11,3,5,13,116,35,0,0.11568959832547655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261010730851227,0.0,0.2472739943128574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09251692998338294,0.09626301350728984,0.0,0.0,0.07867289402669153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09520268202925004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0705233053471809,0.0,0.09844332723343807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1212983427575446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22666352573778226,0.0,0.0,0.0966438144359172,0.13013522672193178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07641188859938958,0.0,0.09747347624067544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10906185719067896,0.0,0.11699227399370385,0.16529734431919038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06044304021297915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1550885982509926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1907399330859196,0.09430246352026256,0.0,0.2449971607347573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130401880689946,0.0,0.10215603485309192,0.0,0.0,0.12942706827301947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11658790462815727,0.0,0.0,0.1354942593296896,0.09234233364024592,0.0,0.1700903323700328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10856685100014088,0.0,0.0,0.13171337447904988,0.0,0.0,0.07839426589568063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2208776243051552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1093640646004048,0.0,0.0,0.2353958253167409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2223411572663112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3562611305307049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0890635048733428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10903607729160388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10111780816192384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1096602119828798,0.0,0.0,0.07854564319831844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13647344501300426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08218257135368559,0.0,0.0,0.14900061657826558 alcoholism,jeroli08,2019/07/22,"Most Embarrassing moment of my life This is not about me specifically. I deal with some personal problems with alcoholism and seeing the amazing people fighting the good fight is inspiring. I'm married and my wife's Sister from out of town is staying with us. I grew up around drug and alcohol addiction and my wife's family is very ignorant to addiction believing it's bad choices rather than a crippling disease so seeing my sisters in laws highs and lows I think I noticed the drug and alcohol abuse way before they did. Today I could tell she was on one, probably popped an adderall or two. Then spent most the day drinking and smoking weed. Then my sister showed up with her 4 boys. My sister in law was pretty obliterated and I kept telling my wife to keep her away from my family. My nephews were downstairs playing with my 2 month old son. My 14 year old nephew is obsessed with him. I really think it resembles the relationship I had with him growing up. My son started crying so my nephew who was with his girlfriend brought my son upstairs. My sister in law who was off the deep end kept trying to talk and whisper in my 14 year old nephews ear. I was getting pretty upset and told my wife to get her out of the room. Sister in law then says, ""I dont know what the big deal is, everyone knows (my 14 year old nephew) has a giant dick."" I dont know what the fuck to think. Obviously my sister left right away with her kids. I just really feel bad for my wife as she has been pretty uninformed about addiction and could fuckin believe what happened. I've been with my wife since my nephew was born so it's pretty much just as much her nephew as mine. Tomorrow is going to be pretty crazy. Sis in law finally passed out. We'll see what tomorrow holds.",4.563837209302324,5.91021343023256,5.178144186046513,82.44592558139539,70.22093023255813,8.527255813953488,28.29488372093023,8.954980946260402,2.206776651162791,1396,50,270,26,25,449,178,344,0.11599999999999999,0.805,0.079,-0.9097,1,0,6,0,4,0,29.0,2,0,1,0,9,16,4,3,12,0,26,14,2,0,1,55,49,21,0,4,5,24,1,0,1,1,9,3,1,3,10,25,4,5,8,3,1,5,3,12,0,2,16,7,49,4,45,29,5,53,0,1,3,3,53,26,3,4,20,170,59,0,0.0,0.09579125271645314,0.0,0.2644076376367287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2592046725593473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07197155503657984,0.0,0.0,0.15191806935964944,0.0,0.13500883243673684,0.0,0.0,0.06879540102091844,0.1821752467764909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291005502582528,0.0,0.08880735441720009,0.052140050121170615,0.1667007678084553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18950570273177256,0.07919992440406573,0.18751522835382745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07160702685596533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0772534004928736,0.0,0.0,0.1524319506943764,0.0,0.04087900435679399,0.0,0.0,0.08856465595877397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07474235572753861,0.08447912737681199,0.0,0.04594758635777883,0.06781117853108057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0714933156921396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08541998799954417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07186111187557488,0.0,0.0,0.13329527308877726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0878412154090207,0.0,0.0571050907772803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06453182813421146,0.0,0.11886466004374448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09204559284772744,0.3393440620783488,0.0,0.054784464438560464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05604958538909622,0.07059305526832868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4112556598913547,0.0871674478891851,0.07736028861299125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10358615802924216,0.0,0.0,0.08680012675414266,0.0,0.0690434569577803,0.0,0.06429330148349441,0.0,0.0,0.1932753446897831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06687801696270486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05722438743346661,0.08617284476950443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06498228388777982,0.1413288306755436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15541174151423565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07663412515011628,0.0772534004928736,0.0,0.05489025182439048,0.0,0.07897641283473535,0.0,0.0972497763317634,0.0,0.0,0.06670778371319593,0.0,0.0641731066283295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1561897203894603 alcoholism,Hjr2020,2019/07/22,Ultrasound Would a damaged liver always show up on an ultrasound? Had one done after fullness on right side and after 10 years of pretty hard drinking. Doctor said ultrasound was fine and liver wasn’t even fatty. Just wondering if anyone thought there still could be a problem. Thanks in advance for any answers.,5.821636363636363,8.663664254545456,5.434545454545457,75.69181818181819,70.0909090909091,7.309090909090909,31.0,8.238735603445708,2.8251090909090912,254,11,36,4,5,78,47,55,0.115,0.755,0.13,0.2263,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,4,4,0,0,3,0,7,4,2,0,0,10,11,3,0,4,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,3,2,0,1,1,2,0,1,6,2,0,2,8,2,1,12,0,1,0,0,1,7,0,2,4,27,0,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21607455209566734,0.0,0.0,0.1765912962780867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18157428509153695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20733333963284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2657934707471602,0.0,0.2657427861361279,0.0,0.2543875265057393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17151618261614893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23262226241527734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17596588007288055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2641879038861223,0.0,0.24847867744957994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22176529042234253,0.2470151341919517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2073807734267936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23907844334530595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061569035060928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28161186919227554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18446921250780385,0.0,0.0,0.16722539798054895 alcoholism,YuiaZzZ,2019/07/22,"I want to ask questions about alcoholism My mom drinks a lot of beer and she's a lot of time Drunk, she did many bad things. She's drinking a lot and everyday. We have a good financial life but since she started to drink everything change. She cheat on my father since she started to drink. It's been around 8 years I want to know if she is alcoholic or not. And i don't know how did this begin. Thanks for helping !",0.333276955602539,2.7035139767441905,1.5916490486257937,97.57628964059198,89.4651162790698,5.452854122621565,19.446088794926006,6.980632752743323,0.25161860465116304,326,10,74,5,11,103,58,86,0.09300000000000001,0.772,0.135,0.3699,0,0,7,0,0,0,8.0,1,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,4,0,6,9,0,1,0,18,15,7,0,3,4,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,5,8,0,3,6,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,13,2,10,12,3,8,0,0,0,0,13,2,0,6,6,47,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3171855424752885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13210604867765774,0.1387324825994924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1239064751396322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15698584262091658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5814957902895146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13337092362522676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12446954699482585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09946832723892177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16311177220146475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1048181868257706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3784890684762297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15045269738284367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17380242620014313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16624018364369314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2455133992825329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21007431916657754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13662531951141976,0.0,0.0,0.09858931070163114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08653230723387471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17505845614785054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09556371168319057 alcoholism,mooseasaur66,2019/07/22,My schedule might change So I found out Saturday that one of my coworkers might be transferring to another store which pisses me off cause that shorts us one person and then one of my managers is about to have a baby...and she’s not coming back after she has the baby....one thing that I really try to make a priority is my training sessions and I was hoping to make an aa meeting that happens on Wednesdays a priority (cause it’s one I can go to with my personal trainer because ngl I probs wouldn’t go without him) I’m starting to drink cause I don’t know what to do I’m getting stressed cause I don’t want my managers to know I’m trying to go to AA cause I feel like if they know that I won’t be considered for the position of the manager who’s about to leave...,2.5629711538461533,4.065165162500001,4.328750000000003,85.94894230769232,75.5,7.6730769230769225,27.30769230769231,8.384062270229773,1.8426586538461536,606,24,128,11,13,205,91,160,0.034,0.92,0.046,0.2023,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,1,0,1,0,4,4,1,1,7,0,15,2,1,7,0,25,34,5,0,4,3,0,1,1,0,4,0,0,0,2,10,5,1,0,5,1,1,4,6,2,2,4,2,1,21,2,23,26,0,15,0,0,0,0,9,4,1,4,8,87,31,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12890302514187854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0945257298760106,0.0,0.0749371042492906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6314158510287238,0.13004384352630635,0.10589347571160343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12042478847315495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06215719888246991,0.0878213539651769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13478661081500606,0.0,0.0,0.0642259517373166,0.0,0.2095921836903984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1087067630967136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12209741851142893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2026776564115431,0.0,0.0,0.13016532396190794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06005748252995264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16411371590148302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2608190151358167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3332027191323958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21467580461290972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07875222901587718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08701062285139405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14081611997947466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08166935744141476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16692306248845604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14786988538101484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07250741244935237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11850031863469035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,theotheranony,2019/07/22,"Smart meeting? I deal with a whole slew of issues. One is overeating, and I went to an OA meeting. Which a lot of the people there had been/were going to AA at the time as well. I just couldn't deal with the religious aspect/12 steps of it all... I heard about Smart and am thinking about giving it a try. I've relapsed again, and it feels harder than ever to stop. The fact I'm on my own doesn't help. The only one tomorrow is about 20-ish minutes away. I want to go just to go and get this started. The one that is much closer to me is Tuesday, and I want to go to that too. Seeing as I'm hoping to go to that one frequently ideally. Should I feel bad about going to this one tomorrow knowing that I'm not going back to that one, but rather the one closer to me? I'm assuming, ""hell no,"" as I need to do something right now, and it's not dishonest... I just need outside help. These forums are truly great.... But I think I need much more...",1.5783308450283648,3.1357897055837576,3.245147805315021,92.43639295312036,78.34010152284263,6.259659599880563,21.232905344879068,7.048011613610866,0.3936189310241862,720,19,163,8,17,239,107,197,0.077,0.833,0.09,-0.4983,0,0,1,0,0,0,38.0,0,0,0,1,15,8,1,0,11,0,11,0,0,0,3,36,39,11,0,10,8,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,13,8,0,1,6,0,0,9,5,2,2,7,3,4,14,6,31,34,7,27,1,0,1,0,8,7,1,3,11,116,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1107472200166223,0.0906384167542649,0.0984205034534879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24304740953121165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10662447157005253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11920204380282345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061584698553949865,0.11307621351212817,0.4689366095728535,0.0,0.0,0.12995734231638945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15801793785996684,0.0,0.0,0.1170762364720696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1230306277229124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06478088704068045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10021290824146016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17330302726401053,0.26220792948479305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5591249301114543,0.08964906888410477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08171951883131832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10066440352542316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09393092479549887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0907457513794162,0.0,0.0,0.08343236393305342,0.0,0.0,0.09854857993109824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15105877708242274,0.0,0.0,0.06873372221550489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08002922655859115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13905117846703138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10598356810608088,0.10927108621620818,0.0,0.13160296331312735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,cassieka,2018/12/20,"Just replacing alcohol with something else? Comfort eating/other self-medicating methods. When attempting to stay away from alcohol, all I've found myself doing is resorting to other comfort dopamine releasing methods such as overeating, over use of social media and even sometimes nootropic and codeine dependancy. It's completely counter- intuitive and all I'm doing it replacing one problem with another. When abstaining from alcohol, what do I do that's remotely healthy in order to relax, wind down and not think about how fucking shit my life is? I feel like theres a bigger problem than the alcohol, like I can't imagine life without it. I can't think of anything else to replace it with other than abusing dopamine releases of bad things such as the ones listed above. Are there any healthy things anyone has used to kick in their shitty habits? When you feel like shit and have an urge to drink and self-medicate, what do you do? At this rate I feel like I'm just going to end up overweight or dependant on another drug in order to cope.",9.031413612565444,8.755430806282725,8.416068062827229,68.74274083769636,60.30890052356021,11.828481675392673,41.61308900523561,11.20814326018867,4.936268691099476,848,43,136,20,10,268,118,191,0.129,0.758,0.113,-0.754,0,0,9,0,0,0,20.0,0,2,1,1,12,13,3,0,4,0,13,12,2,5,2,31,25,13,0,2,5,0,3,4,0,0,8,0,0,0,12,9,6,1,7,2,0,1,4,6,0,2,1,3,10,7,32,24,2,19,0,0,0,1,4,11,3,3,8,94,22,0,0.0,0.13258665204425682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4783607236818023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07609781737325436,0.23467992014147165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07824511783874145,0.0,0.09208656170761864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10513646930291924,0.0,0.09343425720810324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11732807403411866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10962225173081667,0.1297718509243275,0.0,0.18696104756751336,0.0,0.0991127653563394,0.0,0.0,0.07391081789630123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16974442361496414,0.2398303877575305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1226957669433647,0.0,0.10345243882704863,0.0,0.0,0.0635970036087219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15808067200571224,0.21868044118458932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2485978167222881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15165661828115465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21415194764672324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334782843583364,0.0,0.22973346185465776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1140709263664378,0.0,0.08614832862477585,0.11067484117100453,0.0,0.0,0.11927361487731765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1486866445629268,0.1434057349455718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932963736763638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10787041375995277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,pooptyscoop93,2018/12/20,"It snuck up on me. I need advice but I refuse to get professional help I've come to the realization that my drinking has gotten out of control. Not in the sense of quantity but frequency. I was consuming 4-5 drinks (usually glasses of wine) a night whether with friends or alone. I've never been bad enough to drink at work or even during the day but I've realized I can't sleep without it. This has been going on for about 2 years now starting right when I started working a corporate job out of school. I am now 72 hours sober and the withdrawal is real. Sweating uncontrollably, headaches, loss of appetite, insomnia, anxiety. I've always prided myself on having strong will power and I know I can stay sober. Can anybody offer any advice for getting through this alone or advise on how long these acute withdrawal symptoms will last? Thank you",3.8325208333333336,6.304508043750001,4.42625,82.32708333333333,74.8125,7.5166666666666675,28.791666666666664,8.447377352677275,2.3585291666666666,677,29,121,13,15,215,115,160,0.096,0.7759999999999999,0.128,0.7525,2,2,4,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,7,6,7,0,1,6,0,13,8,2,2,1,23,23,11,0,1,9,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,6,6,4,2,2,4,0,2,4,3,0,0,4,0,12,4,23,17,1,26,0,1,0,0,6,10,0,3,13,77,18,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2910500442194451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3084769135164351,0.0,0.0,0.12391517632225367,0.0,0.0,0.10127218315642283,0.0,0.11392505332936365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1243437924461288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12828326399524778,0.0,0.0,0.1670288780796534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09604248038269002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43766109746025134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15387641222727275,0.0,0.09836168954125588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11505690003076716,0.0,0.15561137580379591,0.0,0.08463590179034244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09981939219255576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14665834051834467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1477822758211268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08184373062538956,0.12139144588332786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13179143518058922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11042390293872872,0.1148579591691808,0.0,0.0,0.13975336938122682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1695060340072222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12717872048474047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15071718780224647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14902972098390144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21081575850877898,0.15873121974494006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15478715712957414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1371075268913056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16401673198108518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14355565871060766,0.0,0.21683422853674408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09590099563017572 alcoholism,big--tuna,2018/12/20,"I’ve drank every night for the last three years and have done nothing to fix it, even though I know I have a problem. I’m 20. My family has a history of alcoholism. I’m 20 years old and I’ve drank almost every night since I was 17 years old. It started with a toxic relationship, which obviously lead to a nasty break up, and here I am. I started drinking when I was 14 and realized that it eased my anxiety (what I called “being nervous” back then) and immediately loved it. I had to drink at any party to feel comfortable. Down the road, around 16yo, I realized how drinking made me feel like a normal human being (I never binge drank, but I drank until I would feel comfortable talking to strangers) and that evolved to me drinking alone to calm my mind of all the shit that would go on in there. After that I knew I needed to see someone. Got prescribed zoloft, took it for a week and got upset that I didn’t immediately feel normal like I did when I drank (yeah, I’m a fucking idiot). Stopped taking it. I’d been offered xans and whatnot, but I had always vowed to myself to never take a pill or snort anything. Bad break up happened at 17, been drinking almost every night since then. Got prescribed to lexapro at 18, stopped drinking for a little and felt amazing after I finally took a month for the meds to set in. Then something triggered my anxiety for a day and I thought a drink would cool me down. One thing lead to another. The meds stopped working when I drank every night. It began again. I just refilled my lexapro after not taking it for a year. I stopped drinking for a week last month and felt great, but had a glass of wine and beer on Thanksgiving and you know how it goes. Please cross your fingers for me as I try to rebuild myself. My anxiety and depression has taken over my life and alcohol is their asshole roommate, I hope to sign over an eviction notice in a month. 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I would just be sitting there watching tv and just thinking about how alone I am in this world. I’m trying to ween myself off alcohol for this month. However, now I don’t know what to do with my self, I’m trying to work out and play guitar but I’m just so lazy. If anyone has tips to get my self moving and being productive that would be greatly appreciated -The Lonesome Hobo",4.86330357142857,5.186912294642855,5.7160714285714285,82.57892857142858,68.91071428571428,8.185714285714287,27.607142857142854,7.957251820313856,1.5710035714285722,435,13,89,5,7,143,77,112,0.1,0.784,0.11599999999999999,-0.0562,1,1,2,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,4,8,3,0,0,5,0,12,3,0,2,0,22,21,8,0,5,5,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,4,6,3,0,5,5,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,2,10,2,17,14,0,15,0,0,1,0,3,5,0,2,6,61,14,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.190275331250553,0.0,0.1844003169836338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12449279364673273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19700275706103698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1744157429980587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09002460509350041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09302085753315384,0.0,0.10118674321800318,0.0,0.0,0.19629459441796412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11933941734307625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17533788296566066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09784855338706504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1888769865810319,0.0,0.0,0.28422670440007963,0.18923303468845576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17036445828080207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3714783066148562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281673420842825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2417609392266073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3888553605449668,0.0,0.0,0.37943292898548797,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,SonSaito,2019/02/08,"Binge drinking I’m pretty good with my drinking for the most part. I usually don’t go out, but when I do I have a problem saying no shots, and end up getting way to drunk. I’m trying to not go out at all, I’m usually better about it when I’m in a place I don’t live. But when I’m in a more familiar setting I let loose and more times than not drink way to much and blackout. Any advice out there",1.173996789727127,2.1542892247191037,3.4225040128410957,93.17044943820228,78.10112359550561,6.434028892455858,22.82664526484752,6.868970318607317,0.4590308186195817,307,9,75,3,7,106,55,89,0.142,0.767,0.09,-0.6705,0,0,3,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,5,3,0,0,4,0,5,4,0,0,1,14,13,8,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,7,4,0,0,4,0,2,5,1,0,0,0,1,6,2,14,12,6,20,0,0,0,0,1,8,0,1,7,48,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806035740210368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256836656803438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1634579169245571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5431585390977914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1636953081663372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09656061281099301,0.0,0.21007447560879747,0.1550179117071247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18899056283012095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631990927821915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13586367155758206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2001416161758008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19309714507070447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880279769651054,0.0,0.1768473966921228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14697596397266258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10776979499372802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12548037646912746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40710535639293904,0.0,0.0,0.29340239154589315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,doctorwho2x,2019/02/08,"Looking for similar experience Hello friends. I'm hoping to find similar experiences to hopefully help my current condition. Food and alcohol go hand and hand with me. I'm overweight but I drink because it depresses me. I drink at night.. I start the day doing perfect keto ..even dinner is keto.. then I drink and I eat crap... Obviously waking up the next day feeling like crap. Was wondering how this was overcome.. Thanks",2.5598245614035093,5.5226509473684215,4.424736842105265,74.61982456140352,92.15789473684212,7.796491228070176,30.017543859649123,8.344100000000001,3.5644596491228078,336,18,52,10,12,113,56,76,0.10400000000000001,0.614,0.282,0.9231,1,0,4,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,1,2,9,2,0,2,0,4,13,5,1,2,13,14,6,0,2,1,0,3,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,4,8,0,3,3,0,1,0,3,0,0,2,4,8,6,6,12,0,10,0,1,1,0,3,2,2,3,8,29,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897352075641962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1082261320309396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22899594674280846,0.0,0.15291408830413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.521761917049938,0.0,0.18166672887261784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11726284103644273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3473344357403017,0.0,0.0,0.08976905740244483,0.12683390350596704,0.0,0.0,0.1622674378387264,0.0,0.21468087440822167,0.0,0.1371661979514373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10089951020467378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11900065537325402,0.0,0.0,0.35267259040316834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08673659195730174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14908805322081198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1888147502112098,0.1666083331273451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.125663024360838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16345406637216736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19253348195705525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,LionVenom10,2019/02/08,"Alcohol is my valentine. It is the one thing that loves me back, all my friends let me down, they never invite me when they’re out, and if I ask them to go out they either refuse or agree but never come anyway. My friends from back home rarely wanna call. Alcohol is the only friend that makes me happy, the only one that never lets me down, without alcohol I’m always lonely, but it’s warmth is really what gets me through the day. Call me a sad loser all you want, but as long as I have a drink by my side your words will never hurt me.",4.1483928571428565,4.294434910714287,4.978571428571431,87.86642857142859,70.42857142857143,7.828571428571429,23.142857142857146,7.447530270364453,0.7316285714285717,418,8,92,4,7,136,72,112,0.11,0.6759999999999999,0.214,0.9318,0,2,4,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,3,1,4,9,0,0,6,0,8,5,0,1,6,22,16,9,0,3,7,0,0,0,3,1,3,0,1,0,7,4,4,1,0,1,0,2,5,4,0,2,0,0,19,5,12,13,3,16,0,4,0,1,13,5,0,2,9,71,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4455698387039456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11563932153019145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12992397533308067,0.0,0.0,0.2137282201010131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28382045274604545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11971568013194825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08962814401884073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361437554101363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32211797420980315,0.0,0.07260932217670163,0.0,0.07898337032324784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14794273633152208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13940444794621729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1487768835814349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2842251362208873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12298955301600592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12543143562348288,0.0,0.09276768462882046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4287480150494268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18834772338282185,0.21139530689575126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08903170469367845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09232960393769396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08197175640567589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13396808581333636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,jypsymoon26,2019/02/08,"Is it true that relapse/ withdraw gets worse ? Is it true that after sobreity, a relapse can lead to more consumption than before sobriety & worse withdraw etc with each subsequent relapse/withdraw?",10.227272727272727,11.627105212121213,8.366212121212126,64.4693181818182,57.48484848484848,11.44848484848485,46.80303030303031,11.20814326018867,6.078648484848486,164,10,21,4,2,49,25,33,0.168,0.6890000000000001,0.14300000000000002,-0.2406,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,1,2,5,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,4,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,15,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3938315420650795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3092955832542843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4053774281809344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.189903835046176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7408364413351977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,zantaspots,2019/02/08,"Assaulting my partner while blackout- how do I deal with something I can't remember? According to my partner, I've physically assaulted him a few times during our relationship. How do I apologize properly when I can't remember what I did? Should we not be together if I'm abusive like this? How can I deal with something that doesn't even feel like me? Is there anyone else dealing with this? 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Hi everyone! Recently I broke up with someone and a lot of that decision came from him turning to alcohol and party life style. I strongly believe he’s an alcoholic, but then wonder if I was just “overreacting”. So I wanted to get your opinions. I still worry about him but know there’s nothing I can do and there’s no getting back together. I just want to ease my mind. First my ex has always had mental and emotional issues since I met him when he was 18. He used to socially smoke but quit because I will not date a smoker. I mention this because he occasionally say how he wanted a smoke when stressed. Once he turned 21 he started mentioning buying alcohol often. We were on an extremely tight budget so I often said no. When we did splurge he would drink most of it in that day/night making himself sick. The last 3 months of our relationship he had some traumatic events happen and met some new friends (that like to party and encouraged him to drink to forget his problems). He started to want to hang out with them more and more and constantly asked if we could buy beer. He was severely depressed and suicidal at the time and I told him drinking was not good in that state. But he didn’t care and said it was me causing his stress/problems. Now he’s with someone that supports his drinking lifestyle. He post about drinking often as well as angry and depressed post. I’m pretty certain he has an addictive and avoidant personality and is using alcohol to run away from his problems. I’m sad that the new people in his life are encouraging this too. I feel good about my decision to end the relationship but feel bad for him because I think he’s screwing up pretty bad.",4.389837685250534,6.229191951070337,5.156590214067284,80.49327628793226,71.38532110091744,8.211197365325805,30.61973653258057,8.841846274778883,2.6165465537520576,1356,59,249,26,26,439,180,327,0.195,0.669,0.13699999999999998,-0.9827,0,1,13,0,0,0,27.0,4,1,1,3,21,23,1,2,10,0,19,15,0,5,2,67,50,30,1,10,11,1,3,1,1,2,8,3,0,1,10,22,10,2,7,6,3,3,5,11,1,1,16,7,36,12,35,31,6,35,0,4,1,1,52,9,1,11,21,161,46,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08872741650349013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3479258185941187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06772323120336927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07608892290193724,0.0,0.07646884523622767,0.06258409973810898,0.13591496464700006,0.14884427380484794,0.0,0.0,0.0916989717572278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09308879523329046,0.08298281263710662,0.08361023532711889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08795397592076612,0.0,0.06498351406927691,0.0,0.0,0.05248999595809701,0.0,0.1402026540851329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3986574334115411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09155310773981597,0.07208762825325372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0777718983813118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08230673996179777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06923052875376179,0.0,0.0,0.06288192676305165,0.0,0.08504612182472653,0.0,0.0,0.13653260703579467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07197315389974365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08495030420851431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04472996816205252,0.06634393945652245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11497672047189465,0.03976317857163869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06834733472160669,0.0,0.0,0.0691951036769891,0.0,0.0,0.05432864246508566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08202225686661195,0.0,0.08218097885982363,0.0,0.06496494326456398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1572144750285431,0.0,0.07637926222564695,0.0,0.0780961666968792,0.0,0.0,0.08667798960991596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056425770663617085,0.07106685124185874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15589877564273727,0.1656063457957955,0.0,0.2336385116916701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08656857901179282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0803630803722292,0.17476539788124634,0.0,0.0,0.15484158482676097,0.06472481570613355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.091947847139401,0.0,0.06732687889443684,0.0,0.0,0.0829671385400618,0.13792343658738568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11521691513939045,0.0,0.06499838102035292,0.0,0.1864645765568544,0.0,0.0,0.08902775378198949,0.09236072277613784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052151603645472284,0.0,0.0,0.047459325532671834,0.0,0.0,0.0777718983813118,0.0,0.0,0.17705850096990575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14059013567208956,0.0,0.0,0.1920243784812757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07317963435895437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08826428444233196,0.0,0.08265577792617618,0.0,0.057817318177469726,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,cantthinkofone89,2019/02/08,Im very scared I'm a 29 year old female and was just broken up with because I'm an alcoholic and I just had to call an ambulance for my mom and she's not doing good. I'm not able to deal with this at all. 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My boyfriend got drunk alone tonight. He spent the last month doing “dry January” with me. I asked him to do this with me because he got drunk alone during the day the day before I was leaving town for three weeks. I know that this isn’t as big of a deal as many people are working through on here, but I am wondering when he qualifies as an alcoholic. I would appreciate any insight. 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I didn’t drink much last week. I drank some this week. Over the past 1:5 years, I drank about 5-6 drinks each night. When I say quit, I don’t want to quit entirely - I just want to break the bad habit of daily drinking and reserve this activity for the weekend. I know I am in a different position than many of you, but I feel in control of my situation. To me, this is a bad habit that needs to be broken. So here’s how my week went: Sunday - 3 drinks Monday - 5 drinks Tuesday - 4 drinks Wednesday - 3 drinks Thursday (today) - 5 drinks (I went out with a friend) Next week I’m going to nail it to a T and taper fully. Is it likely I’ll feel withdrawal symptoms when I hit 0 drinks? I’m going to do this... Sunday 4 Monday 2 Tuesday 0... Wednesday 0... etc. For example, Wednesday of this week I drank 3, only to stick to the script and attempt to avoid withdrawal. I really had no desire to drink that day. Any advice and insight is appreciated. I’m 22yo, healthy, white, male, 5 feet 11 inches, 185 pounds Thank you",1.5630281690140857,3.4773901267605685,3.410448356807514,89.58017957746479,79.65727699530518,6.325727699530518,21.917605633802815,7.365786028017652,0.7104687323943653,799,24,173,11,20,268,120,213,0.084,0.802,0.114,0.2472,1,1,10,0,0,0,47.0,0,2,0,5,7,6,0,1,8,0,10,15,1,2,0,22,29,9,0,5,2,0,2,1,1,1,1,1,0,1,9,7,13,2,4,11,0,4,3,3,0,0,7,4,19,3,25,19,4,35,0,0,1,0,6,5,0,1,26,87,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07906581532374247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05502261820541577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13511550368000325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09074916627066748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052181246270118886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08453533267245243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7926250071296568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09023774924562797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08182260617939117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06251205103886501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09196777961206082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05423329620162655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04446686347969877,0.0659536999407337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039529288879842715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08203159666994611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05947928784247721,0.05999487779151545,0.0,0.0,0.08605033512901282,0.07592999426611056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06153686819151225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07723921525079876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25817813041601784,0.0,0.0,0.05183400101973265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0643440999851862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09094795512051207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08409806507960235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07449247039117109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0766946742064917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14317115862511734,0.0,0.32451176334346826,0.0,0.0,0.15001160666426974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05210437559075911 alcoholism,throwawayforalanon,2019/07/05,What does being an alcoholic feel like? Why is it so hard to stop?,-0.7721428571428568,1.3918989285714325,1.4685714285714295,97.00142857142859,95.42857142857142,5.6571428571428575,14.142857142857142,7.1686216300943375,-0.1988857142857139,51,1,12,1,2,17,14,14,0.258,0.605,0.13699999999999998,-0.2937,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4673843550726495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3827199170540112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22113266977782944,0.3124363841193039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3917714909451607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21366264392151207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3656365258136858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3946320848902828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,MrNyeer,2019/07/05,"Am I am alcoholic? Hi all, I am living with my parents who vehemently oppose alcohol, due to my dad being a previous alcoholic. I just turned 21 a few months ago and decided that getting tipsy now and then at home would be fine. Well I got caught multiple times with alcohol. I've been brought to a counsellor, told I'm an alcoholic by my parents, and been told ""I'm actively disobeying."" And ""you're choosing alcohol."" For context, tipsy to me is 3 drinks of 1 shot. I've tried telling my parents that, while I've paid for school myself , having a few drinks every now and then is not indicative of alcoholism, however they are adamant I am an alcoholic. Am I an alcoholic and do I need help?",5.014666666666667,5.876778022222222,6.517777777777778,75.05000000000003,68.77777777777777,11.333333333333336,35.0,11.20814326018867,4.312111111111111,543,27,103,18,9,186,82,135,0.0,0.924,0.076,0.8053,4,0,11,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,1,0,4,2,0,0,7,0,15,11,0,0,1,16,26,9,0,2,2,4,0,0,0,1,9,0,1,0,3,8,11,1,2,2,1,2,1,0,1,0,8,0,14,2,11,15,3,12,0,0,0,0,11,1,0,0,9,67,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0802498484495018,0.8707463958576099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1773708990816788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0762758721816855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047298463001094734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07240553126678696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06068070286023644,0.0,0.0908094983633921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0799401125061204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07226060164624272,0.0,0.0,0.06712723746070151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3015703046053741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0916217248780305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0791276694760225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05278907737592671,0.0,0.0,0.17301159320089685,0.0,0.06146428415285271,0.09847121511800122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08139781459509897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06431028778185835,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,drpvn,2019/07/05,"For long-time drinkers who stopped: how do I stop drinking? I'm late 40s. Have been drinking hard for maybe 25 years now. Never been a ""black out"" drunk, and for the most part I've always ""held my liquor"" well enough to be high-functioning. But I've basically gotten bombed nearly every night for 25 years. Weekends are the worst and worsening -- it's an all day affair starting at noon. I fucking hate it and I want to stop, but I've never gone more than a day or so without drinking. I've tried AA half-heartedly a couple times but couldn't deal with it, just went to a single meeting each time. It's not my thing, at least not yet, so I don't plan to go back at this time. I've also tried naltrexone and stopped soonafter because I hated how it made me feel when I drank (I know, that's the point). I'm im reasonably good shape in terms of outward appearances, but this is not good for my health and I know it's a matter of time until the other shoe drops on that issue. How the fuck do I stop drinking? I know this post sucks.",2.221032863849768,3.838019765258217,3.1517605633802823,93.54247652582157,76.69953051643192,6.047887323943662,22.161971830985927,6.691623216298621,0.3310450704225354,802,22,179,7,18,255,127,213,0.161,0.784,0.055,-0.9655,0,0,5,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,0,1,12,9,5,0,11,0,10,11,1,5,3,41,31,18,0,2,10,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,14,8,7,6,5,7,0,4,8,6,2,0,8,3,14,3,22,21,10,42,0,0,1,2,4,10,3,3,26,107,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08669852349837749,0.09020901515090704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.083363565222211,0.0,0.06608808189943187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1199578723999855,0.0,0.1398359397954848,0.11176992770888848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4248172310934185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11202049671364102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09134335166372898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054817304345234734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20045373050849966,0.0,0.0,0.06161409420150695,0.18186480175021666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09711752259177217,0.21407248061777245,0.0,0.1152388619578536,0.0,0.12847094435158982,0.0,0.11454519387185352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1171055711249882,0.11315590150162205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1787442641438573,0.0,0.12229555459823956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09594285321474763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1025838142794494,0.0,0.0,0.1089162927073693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16723090240293906,0.0,0.0,0.10173906207513768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11740164393566355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10248613876767516,0.0,0.10383050811420733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1114675028724894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0767358870712961,0.0,0.0,0.4531942009156849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07202535028985041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25286797100228303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14721178693991901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06394530266779086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09747707880034416,0.10050073301019002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10450709086630236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13962994081195446 alcoholism,windysea,2019/07/05,"Why I drink whenever I can Closing on 50. Living with mom. Haven't had a friend of the same sex in 25 years. I'm disabled, and finding an apartment as disabled is difficult. I try to hold on until my mom dies...",0.3113636363636374,2.4855474090909127,2.5919999999999987,92.15300000000002,86.27272727272728,5.3381818181818215,24.70909090909091,6.742157984588678,0.938178181818182,162,7,35,2,5,55,38,44,0.125,0.875,0.0,-0.6283,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,4,2,0,0,0,6,5,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,4,1,8,4,1,7,0,0,0,1,3,5,0,0,2,21,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3070410208941125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2898160547137121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2703975152622408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285695737730176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26123708161647563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6929815734131877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20085974002735726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2669546347615828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19051486429528075 alcoholism,Mikeofwy,2019/07/05,"Is it wrong that I have no pity for alcoholics? My dad has always been kind of a drunk and its gotten him in some trouble over the years, but he is pretty good at controlling himself when he needs to. He can get mean when he drinks sometimes, nothing violent, he's just a dick. My brother on the other hand completly loses his mind when he drinks and has on a multitude of times, become violent and downright scary. He can't control how much he drinks when he does and often goes on long benders. I've gotten so sick of it. I listened to my dad talk shit about me to one of his girlfriends for a couple of hours last night on the phone, and he was piss ass drunk, and this woman has threatened my life in the past. I'm so sick of drunkards, (my dads still drunk/drinking and I just heard him mumble ""I'd like to bite her pussy and her titties, num num"" to himself. Lol.) anyways, I no longer feel pity for people who drink, even my own family. I stay away from alcohol because it runs in my family. When I see a drunk anywhere I feel repulsed by their incoherent drunken ramblings and just being in the same room as one infuriates me. I can have a certain amount of respect for recovering alcoholics, but I still don't pity their struggle. Is it wrong that I feel this way? Is it common for family members of alcoholics to feel this what impact does this kind of attitude have on alcoholics?",4.165109090909091,5.417128883636366,4.8765,84.59075000000001,71.07272727272728,7.972727272727273,27.93181818181818,8.395991825355821,1.8673454545454549,1093,39,218,17,20,352,150,275,0.237,0.6629999999999999,0.1,-0.993,1,0,10,0,0,0,31.0,0,0,2,3,17,18,4,1,11,1,17,20,5,3,1,28,30,20,0,1,5,4,5,1,1,0,8,2,1,1,15,9,12,2,5,7,0,1,4,12,0,2,5,8,29,6,36,24,5,31,0,4,1,2,31,13,4,2,16,143,44,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5049212509110425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07862572258216649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08877925794277723,0.0,0.0,0.057602038828599066,0.10436006390900676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0990740835950353,0.0,0.21196380654696045,0.0,0.10455467650422907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16538287357731027,0.0,0.0,0.4628356947501188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06241171698349174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2672386937207449,0.0,0.19111394385319494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04936867794449986,0.0,0.0,0.07925622193054982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09305654350172947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1967997792460275,0.0,0.0770243841888198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06674318078595118,0.046164493214601234,0.0,0.0,0.08362330691655287,0.0,0.10571346557613136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10293054833903913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09541096504919742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06946320710093883,0.07006534160369306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08867525332260717,0.0,0.09066855535879936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1280617669813465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09020423411069496,0.06550952918002215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09613332361007276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07529866483304562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09699567810917313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0934559657295215,0.0,0.0,0.10071693572333837,0.1509244193930892,0.0,0.0,0.0987845712145266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07594987176049897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05509961200851474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07500412308239933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2066264627896082,0.0,0.060850376052102764 alcoholism,Basic_biatsch,2019/07/05,"Excessive binge drinking makes you look like a human wreck So today i had to go to the urgent care due to a severe UTI and while i was waiting a 20 something dude walked (more like stumbled) in with his parents. A grown ass man had to go to the hospital with his parents due to alcohol poisoning. Let me tell you he did not look good. All sweaty, red swollen eyes, saliva welling up on his lips and throwing up constantly. The sounds he made were making me gag and in that moment i was thanking god that it werent me in his place. Ive found myself in his situation several times before and those were some of the worst moments of my life. I know that you know already, but i still wanted to give a reminder to try and drink reaponsively even if you otherwise dont have troubles with alcohol. Stay safe.",5.300754716981132,5.7838043899371065,5.602194968553462,83.21725471698116,67.9937106918239,8.875723270440252,30.99433962264151,8.841846274778883,2.346310188679246,634,24,127,10,10,202,105,159,0.08800000000000001,0.805,0.107,0.4708,3,0,5,0,0,0,13.0,0,4,0,0,4,10,1,0,9,0,11,10,3,3,1,22,26,9,0,2,3,2,0,2,0,0,5,1,0,2,5,8,4,2,3,2,0,5,2,3,1,0,9,5,20,7,20,16,4,23,0,0,4,1,17,8,1,2,11,81,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31205175989219197,0.0,0.0,0.16111079071092402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12423228572095744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14885318272066214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15777037235404812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17110683460051215,0.28604201710089155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09642932480783648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16007764898134638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14005316572872767,0.16594637408545018,0.12245495456573455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16047173896195754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1492913336907725,0.10312165999885883,0.14265305061091085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24520061396994136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13814543766443538,0.19490762211655235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3242237167940693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15253529005783528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32986902362219056,0.0,0.0,0.16410620596037498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11239525415976316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.155612865306761,0.1165930097944576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1276073938994429,0.13441398074659458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08513174512664366,0.0,0.138387630427941,0.0,0.0,0.09912205389818868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08611253037991609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13126840532992196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Cryandude,2019/07/05,"Can you stop someone who really doesn’t want to stop drinking? AKA my brother. My family has tried for YEARS and there’s nothing to do. Just asking on here as a personal experience question. He keeps saying he’ll go see a doctor, and never does, he try’s to hide the drinking and it’s getting worse. We’ve came to the conclusion he doesn’t want to. Was your quest for sobriety forced or self-motivated?",1.1052386363636373,3.7238471375000017,3.0288636363636385,86.30068181818184,90.125,6.40909090909091,22.272727272727273,7.686295010490155,1.4453750000000003,321,12,62,7,11,107,59,80,0.16,0.8,0.04,-0.8557,0,0,2,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,4,0,6,3,0,0,1,14,15,5,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,2,4,2,3,2,2,0,2,3,0,0,0,2,2,4,0,9,12,0,7,0,0,1,0,12,1,0,2,4,33,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18488770866980564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261955275105833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20242537925577148,0.17306935020126235,0.0,0.0,0.3874774755460173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19345643951718025,0.1864394060096473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1033263581329162,0.0,0.11239691769472708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1757865454354416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15253196705225894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18976509018389007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17268462724093395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22154700951659165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1266961531740462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15727417886313386,0.0,0.0,0.15759662063902807,0.0,0.20631663460109206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16756938585772602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3306881775034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2685449054280683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332990532137148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20154393258225364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12735702089390627 alcoholism,apfelschaf,2019/07/05,"How can i best adress my cousin's drinking problem? Hello! I never used reddit before so i hope i'm doing this right. I have a very good connection with my cousin (male, 25), we're almost like brother and sister. He's a lovely person, extremely social and smart, super funny, you just immediatly like him when you meet him! He was always a bit of a party animal and would be able to drink quite a lot when he was out with friends but in my country a lot of people are like this and because his worklife was always in control nobody really minded anything. But for the past year or so it started to get out of hand and i'm very worried about it. His job is very very stressful, it's one of those jobs where you have to make a certain amount of sales or you get no money or get fired, huge company. And he's doing great and earning the big bucks! But it seems like to balance out this high stress he developped a habit of excessively drinking every weekend. Pretty much once work is done for the week he gets wasted and that's his only hobby. Recently he was controlled by police and had 2.5‰ while still coming across fairly sober. That really shocked me. Him partying every weekend is the thing i know about but i have no idea of knowing if he maybe drinks a little over the week too, we don't live together or anything. Everyone in my family including his mom and brother kinda know and kinda... bring it up but don't do much else with it? It's always like ""Yea \[name\] didn't want to come to the family meeting today again because he got drunk last night and will sleep till 2pm. He drinks way too much it's shocking! Haha anyway...."" It feels like one of those situations where literally everybody deep down knows there is a problem but nobody is going to adress it before it's too late and then they'll all act like no one saw it coming. I don't want it to get this far because we're family and he doesn't deserve this. He's such a wonderful person and it hurts me to see that there's clearly something wrong... ​ Does anyone have ideas how i can bring this topic up to him or his family more firmly to make sure something gets done? He has a girlfriend who i haven't met yet but maybe i should bring this up to her aswell? I've brought it up again and again but everyone just shrugs their shoulders and it's worrying me so much. I think he just kinda sees me as the little naggy sister type and getting the whole family on board would probably help but it would also really... corner him and leave him standing there alone you know? I just don't know what to do. Thank you for reading",3.7159971098265916,5.211686281310215,4.5897105009633945,85.26653106936419,72.50674373795759,7.270924855491331,24.15033718689788,7.822599999999999,1.198774527938343,2056,58,405,27,40,665,253,519,0.109,0.742,0.149,0.9667,2,1,7,0,0,0,58.0,1,6,2,7,29,27,0,2,20,2,38,10,3,7,5,89,79,46,0,10,19,7,3,7,2,6,0,0,0,3,32,29,6,2,12,9,3,9,11,8,0,3,12,6,41,19,46,60,12,59,0,1,3,1,56,25,0,15,30,256,73,6,0.06315188913169517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06323749469390766,0.06540631152717845,0.0,0.050502542922467517,0.1576422922497912,0.06842504548961112,0.07673645761373266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044157269235440784,0.0,0.10393724773141072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11549041638011515,0.0,0.10747521258931056,0.0,0.06627401148177584,0.0,0.0689455067359264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16319928190962174,0.0,0.0,0.14166042715064792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05526464375221735,0.12925261689862594,0.0,0.30932404586885315,0.0,0.0,0.05275529989611124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10641638062419476,0.12068867276017654,0.0,0.0,0.29766990349580164,0.0,0.031931492646942145,0.045115722214027126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04879099288811343,0.0,0.23095978901246225,0.0,0.035890673929398514,0.05296880838258016,0.050508334773479706,0.0696251807134475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042329380100284635,0.06672343814694726,0.0,0.06272407527212216,0.0,0.0,0.06760540345391773,0.14258159191063888,0.0,0.0,0.12533701093371513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20823976021319346,0.051477218412693634,0.07123808164322598,0.06686873217751647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2159697617322849,0.1265895670130306,0.055764275099530435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10737895561368148,0.05699704555572385,0.0,0.08430875275572461,0.0,0.1268891216472191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06376540544307688,0.07396272929478569,0.0,0.0,0.1856956194451589,0.0,0.048706630088835697,0.0,0.0,0.05926376992380247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06725470087055807,0.12838006337812036,0.0480298574177668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060285623961405174,0.04378156835951976,0.11028358741575783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06424817476089839,0.06808841763935072,0.12085565810022017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06716980761124328,0.06316897892977248,0.0,0.1213701518229128,0.0,0.062354871816876836,0.0,0.0,0.05393136826240777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10064775867062456,0.05749110804641468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07098536934445675,0.06319749667076603,0.0643753980648354,0.0,0.09723481915146273,0.0,0.0,0.044699232168403366,0.0,0.05043318023719255,0.0,0.1446805512647916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05951990813471389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058141774788575525,0.0,0.0,0.041955309015003016,0.04046518059406968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05986060674026885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054542955844558885,0.0,0.2084276893380559,0.07449724083780321,0.05012703011425902,0.10131327239643093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07050682893155875,0.0,0.0,0.0684855298840917,0.04597532742324356,0.1282676177577683,0.0,0.13458387036881955,0.06904667701586692,0.07673645761373266,0.040667746084795175 alcoholism,mcasey8,2019/07/05,"Drinking is gonna kill me Been drink everyday for the past 5 years, and I’m. Only 21. Ibe done a lots of drugs in my day. Even meth and heroin a couple of times, nothing hits the spot like a strong drink. My body hurts without a drink at 5am now. I’m sweating constantly at work and people have comment I smell like alcohol. I don’t remember what it’s like to be clear headed at this point. Been on a “drug” called phenibut for the past 2 years daily to help with hangovers. I don’t know what to do anymore. No one knows how much I actually drink daily, from morning to night. I think drinking will kill me, and I’ve come to accept this fact. At the same time though I think it’s just my drunk ass thinking stupid shit.",1.954630769230772,3.6256078066666646,2.9913333333333334,94.16746153846157,77.6,5.948717948717951,22.205128205128197,6.67199483983844,0.3140974358974353,561,16,127,5,13,179,99,150,0.191,0.693,0.11599999999999999,-0.9337,0,0,10,0,0,2,16.0,0,0,0,2,5,10,4,0,9,0,10,15,5,1,2,20,20,6,2,0,2,0,0,3,0,2,3,0,0,0,6,6,8,0,7,7,0,1,4,5,0,1,3,1,11,5,18,13,3,19,0,1,0,1,3,7,2,1,14,68,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.10788846828519744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11815266941186113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10964363353172456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12280479647086184,0.0,0.0,0.11289187871144153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09523575845611386,0.0,0.11947370945239465,0.0,0.0,0.12233010698379874,0.0,0.0713006371867086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11313901806499704,0.0,0.6498273471574011,0.2564239050934554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07302238666793921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11346420255374665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07410456538148655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11835441550345158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446316586508932,0.0,0.12151935518690253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16203887523576993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09399229114645473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08127270668521372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10375100940923693,0.0,0.10608319443903373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0749168290656457,0.08408419166182034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2110798670723563,0.07664686058041842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10451285996472597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12524043966986784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11348599677013314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2125229295044696,0.10862248083173008,0.0,0.12893428887410455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10657377753093504,0.0,0.08048739785225663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14239120164380262 alcoholism,sushiphone,2019/07/05,"The lowest of the low please help It's the 4th of July right now, I try to give a crap, but the fireworks going off everywhere are destroying me because I remember what it was like a few years ago when I would go watch shows with my friends, and when there was a time when I could just laugh and smile at stuff like this. Right now I just sit by myself and listen to them, thinking about the friends I had, that are living their thriving lives cracking jokes with one another, and how I've spent my whole twenty-two years trying to fit in with the people I've looked up to and my family who have never given me an ounce of hope or belief that I would ever be something more than my childhood dream. I want to be an interior designer so fucking bad but at this point I have no idea how to better my life when I have no mother, father, or role model to help me with any of this. I'm completely lost and I have spent my entire life giving up any time I get the motivation to do something good with myself. I'm not the best writer but I hope someone reads this and thinks they might be able to give me some guidance because this has been the hardest thing I've ever typed in my life. I wish I never picked up that drink and I don't know why this disease has to exist I hate it so fucking much, it's going to kill me I know it.",6.1296080453842166,4.758557981949458,6.482385250128933,83.8275902527076,66.65342960288808,9.213924703455387,28.810985043837032,7.7094869923839395,1.5408970603403809,1039,25,228,9,14,337,150,277,0.127,0.672,0.20199999999999999,0.9685,1,0,3,0,0,1,16.0,0,0,3,4,16,20,6,0,14,0,21,7,1,4,4,45,47,21,1,7,8,2,0,2,2,3,3,1,0,0,18,13,1,0,8,5,2,3,6,9,0,1,8,3,35,11,31,32,6,34,1,2,2,2,15,14,3,6,18,159,53,3,0.10856067418068957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09623248748491957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14764996229402202,0.1138353324580068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09064362835848593,0.13235515871360085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1139277298912882,0.09601309422320876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11382380142519323,0.0,0.0,0.08667686467082475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10634813121676714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19639869002465007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10234134196497503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1677474151512099,0.2007251879132985,0.05671847158282126,0.31242387248980025,0.1850925987558124,0.09105554287646232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1071811903676353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14553186308503435,0.0,0.0,0.21565048940030404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1225517870993214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12010630137890592,0.0,0.11932421484560897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23003884408313324,0.10607452358644402,0.0,0.19172212845060027,0.0,0.09116362460732318,0.0,0.11850679997767295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1151657196046272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07980458667407284,0.0,0.1674573689628445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07356352239716599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0752623024132458,0.0,0.0,0.11916702009178565,0.10262492701166122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10859005224089324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12297808120805885,0.18542044516972545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09198310694059493,0.1671506215579282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12427599902315085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07212288808383317,0.1391225930541737,0.0,0.0,0.12660520427315164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14741114331775812,0.0,0.1060480041916157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06403189834185112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09795912291537286,0.12120411579755867,0.12483941767515175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1542367763601099,0.0,0.0,0.1398190297416984 alcoholism,itsmyfriday,2019/07/05,"Resentments, motives, feelings, and solutions. I’ve been having a very rough time for a few months with some interpersonal relationships. Mainly feeling left out and like a certain couple of people have decided I’m not that good at parenting because of where my drinking was at up until a month ago. Those same feeling were creeping up tonight in my interactions with them and I was having a hard time processing it. I decided to get out my journal and make a list of my resentments, then a list of my motives and feelings attached to each one. Finally, I took some breaths, centered myself, and reached out to my higher power for a solution. I discovered that every single resentment stemmed from feelings of inadequacy within myself. My solution is to double down on my efforts to love myself and to be of help and service to my children’s emotional well being. Most importantly I made sure to remind myself that this has to be about my children and me, and that none of my motives should be “I’ll show them” or “I’ll have the last laugh” This is not something I could have ever done before AA and IOP. I can’t believe how much I have learned and grown in the last 33 days. I am no longer overwhelmed by how far I have to go to be who I intend to be. I am a work in progress and I’m in the right track. Thanks for reading.",5.8444406614785995,6.379923898832686,6.468927529182881,77.29265199416344,66.82101167315176,9.226556420233463,34.35043774319066,9.188382445141503,3.0567200389105054,1050,47,195,18,16,344,145,257,0.066,0.7759999999999999,0.158,0.9593,2,0,2,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,2,7,6,12,3,1,12,0,26,3,1,8,3,47,40,18,0,2,3,1,7,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,9,19,1,0,11,3,0,3,5,4,2,1,7,7,30,8,42,25,11,35,0,1,0,1,10,19,0,4,14,154,39,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13728762928532792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09441055946060356,0.0,0.1317874928510236,0.17449145346859798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12365534317511535,0.17136659923373693,0.0,0.09988177088329517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584912270943295,0.0,0.15171885498608692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17421389283820896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14009359652297013,0.13048913942913876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3915480842091345,0.0,0.0,0.1696583462093825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08091596407619639,0.0,0.088019215220598,0.12990207300582368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13873786888337333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10380966444181483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.252488118520016,0.0,0.0,0.16827249170655378,0.0,0.0,0.07566425981161297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13978102583351418,0.14654677544528233,0.1033804807954281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24724001060230574,0.0,0.11385118266111385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10494752713700448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1719707180430738,0.0,0.0,0.10737104841531953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15491723456133624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16627813653708098,0.0,0.13226267970248035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11923059024559185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14596815914700215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14258838935401774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18061809274720714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17207218256557888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.127788361412957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13925151524491353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11275107977254288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Redd575,2019/07/05,"Is it normal to feel like shit during your first week sober? Hey guys. Started going to meetings a few weeks ago and stopped drinking last Sunday. I feel like shit. Physically and mentally. Suicidal thoughts, general apathy towards life and the like. Is this me or me withdrawing from alcohol?",3.915798319327728,7.231627862745099,4.3729971988795535,76.68705882352941,84.09803921568627,8.404481792717089,30.81512605042017,8.841846274778883,3.7425831932773104,235,12,36,7,7,74,42,51,0.25,0.634,0.11599999999999999,-0.8645,0,0,2,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,1,0,5,2,0,2,0,2,5,2,0,0,10,7,4,1,1,1,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,3,2,1,3,1,0,1,0,2,0,1,1,2,4,3,4,6,1,10,0,0,0,0,4,1,2,1,11,20,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1845119338111196,0.22244846627668155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20390722365021904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2104932383887772,0.2974040260528968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1770518210235328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11829613270643985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20610068674762547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1696695880574803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14702211655256586,0.30507393064262883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2097656944719568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20394227266165416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4273248509925292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14732925636534647,0.0,0.0,0.17402226561337522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22768172094712566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16524741762173262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33392987659991635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,loChatt,2019/07/05,"130 days in recovery & today has been harder than all 130 combined My family isn’t huge, just my mom, dad and I. today we hung around and grilled had good conversation and nobody drank. My mom is a heavy drinker and to my surprise she didn’t today, not one glass of wine. Surprising yes and I think she did it to support me. But for some reason, maybe all the photos of people having a good time with alcohol or just the fact that I haven’t been sober on July 4th in 6+ years made this day a hard one. Ive has more cravings and obsessive thoughts than ever. I’ve always known the sober road isn’t an easy one but dang. Staying sober today because I don’t want to wake up tomorrow wondering what happened, who i yelled at or hurt. I don’t want to come-to in a jail cell or as I’m getting taken to the hospital for alcohol poisoning. I know I can be strong and I can do this today.",2.3800720720720747,3.8258313675675697,3.9540540540540574,88.68099099099098,75.86486486486487,7.311711711711713,23.684684684684683,8.021203637495839,1.1409171171171164,693,21,151,11,15,231,117,185,0.069,0.8109999999999999,0.11900000000000001,0.47100000000000003,0,0,4,0,0,0,19.0,1,0,0,1,4,9,1,1,9,1,19,6,1,2,4,32,32,13,0,2,8,3,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,6,10,4,0,6,1,0,0,7,3,0,3,9,2,18,6,20,22,4,21,0,1,0,0,9,9,1,5,11,94,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2756108286132549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10729445686870424,0.13971431118987546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1147904070807669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07860505783187997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1110766537580502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1663206408581494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11664018643125758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12156000841880912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06736962551721626,0.0,0.0,0.21630970136057254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11402764338888287,0.0,0.11551142445671116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380407175280845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07086604632448623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1220130229580816,0.0,0.0,0.1295448625687884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30204296404050324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.262134018282968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08939579977468147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13257926781716145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1374406308905177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463278318263948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08262420278160769,0.0,0.10236972737829236,0.07519018903707765,0.0,0.611134664089809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15211287935176046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13983781180945304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08303781299998671 alcoholism,thatkaelinchick,2019/07/05,"Celebrating my independence from alcohol I’m laying down feeling good about today. I’m 36 days sober and had a relaxing and sober Independence Day. At first, I was a little anxious about old habits. I busied myself with stuff I’ve neglected around the house. I caught up on some tv shows. Took in a couple online meetings. Cooked some food for when my daughter got out of work later in the day. Talked to my mom on the phone who lives several states away. I watched the town fireworks from my porch drinking iced tea and feeling rather celebratory about my own independence. Anytime I felt guilty about “wasting time “ with tv or whatever I thought back on how much wasted time I had being wasted. I put my head on the pillow and shut my eyes now knowing I completed 24 hours sober. Here’s to tomorrow.",3.9257710501419107,6.37722725827815,4.480004730368972,82.15372516556293,74.43046357615893,7.493093661305583,26.67975402081363,8.418075326091056,1.9938681173131507,640,24,117,12,14,203,103,151,0.111,0.8059999999999999,0.083,-0.6378,0,0,2,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,2,11,3,0,0,8,0,4,7,2,4,0,22,14,7,0,1,2,2,3,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,2,8,5,1,5,6,0,3,0,1,0,1,8,5,17,2,24,5,4,33,0,1,2,0,6,15,0,3,14,71,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18185388632946176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19223722354946848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1514823038413411,0.0,0.0,0.15987496122622294,0.13084584301095215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.178414030938276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18828356126729529,0.0,0.3292256882907523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16669623168056055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17208036579340372,0.0,0.16338441323372874,0.0,0.0,0.14474166657004686,0.20576334689244735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14272574136912405,0.136095935438026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1746376641034288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16757755841769456,0.1963467553932198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09351784904645584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1705493322696031,0.15025819436991034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19929437143528028,0.0,0.0,0.12509033978488202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17855880803319008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17106212109873334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19223722354946848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19479741193825575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13677161855388373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1350914465871945,0.1984483433983894,0.0,0.16129585951984912,0.0,0.18905879835015788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12388163697729428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,tarentin,2019/07/05,"“Gotta keep going” Ever started drinking in the middle of the week and then you realise you went to far and then realise you have to keep it going until it’s Friday or Saturday before you can detox. That’s me right now. If I stop drinking tomorrow I will face 3 days of drinking in hangover. I’m drunk but I still know that everything has its cost. My weekend starts Sunday, see you in 2 days!!",1.8212499999999991,4.024890625000001,3.3550000000000004,88.82000000000002,80.25,5.5,23.75,6.6274283507984215,0.8126250000000002,310,11,61,3,8,102,57,80,0.053,0.9470000000000001,0.0,-0.4374,0,0,3,0,0,0,7.0,0,5,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,4,6,1,0,1,10,15,8,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,5,2,4,3,1,5,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,10,0,8,12,0,25,0,0,1,0,5,6,0,2,16,39,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17511389721814416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2654377252657132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6047936584116097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1861507122696052,0.0,0.0,0.1849526460827892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2339127556631683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3658349009444579,0.0,0.0,0.1130979416498839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17574530631217314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1639896385637602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2913213776120976,0.0,0.16434581570333656,0.17205138817761387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16507398814884494,0.0,0.0,0.19077131384662085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,KateWaitLinn,2019/07/05,"Big leap So I took a sep today.my bf was threatening to call my dad so I called him First, he then said alcoholism run in my family ... I feel really happy I did this",-1.4227619047619058,0.46255019999999897,1.8564285714285689,92.14273809523813,104.14285714285714,6.904761904761906,14.404761904761903,7.793537801064563,0.7140476190476188,127,3,29,4,6,45,30,35,0.09300000000000001,0.797,0.11,0.1513,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,5,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,4,2,7,1,2,1,0,6,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,0,2,17,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3116116021030881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5954739637252462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2748767830759191,0.0,0.14743220383594505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2480187997151217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3103935842372724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18679436798234408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27736047020032123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2763848615614218,0.0,0.3239574156740637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,yanpinkpanther,2019/09/15,"Is beer 0% a solution ? Hello guys For a long time I have come to realize that my relationship with alcohol is not at all controlled and much less healthy,my problem is not with spirits, because I only drink beer, the problem is that I love beer a lot, but I can't drink just one, I always overdo it, always end up drinking more than everyone else, and in the end getting drunk. Today is my birthday, and yesterday, I had a barbecue with my friends and family, with lots of beer,i drunk wildly a huge amount, and got drunk again, today I decided I want to definitely stop, I can not control myself when I drink , wanted to be normal, and be able to drink only one or two beers, I will try to be without drink from now on, the problem is that every Friday gives me an uncontrolled desire to drink beer, I need help .. I wonder if beer No alcohol would help at least a little at first. A hug to all, have a great week. * I apologize for the horrible English, I'm from Brazil",6.547512953367878,5.5458037772020745,7.344253886010362,76.78332383419692,65.6321243523316,10.62155440414508,33.289637305699486,9.888512548439397,3.028592124352332,751,27,150,14,10,252,113,193,0.135,0.6859999999999999,0.179,0.8834,0,0,16,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,0,3,4,8,0,1,13,0,16,20,0,2,2,38,26,10,0,10,8,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,4,11,18,3,3,16,0,1,6,4,0,4,2,0,19,4,24,19,9,22,1,0,0,2,9,8,0,5,13,105,23,0,0.09677316284328298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2068421609626901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16104604764410632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058992021853242066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08336151090804662,0.0,0.0,0.21707866183560187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6636060036098019,0.0,0.0,0.08084155989452921,0.0,0.17142459696528106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08153556348775494,0.09247090421954213,0.0,0.0,0.09122912533771196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08231520287790335,0.0,0.0,0.07476670555651073,0.0,0.05055998342061526,0.09283363586542184,0.0,0.0,0.07739833872244133,0.10669275367399604,0.0,0.0958206458698387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12973002232625722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0969921323910509,0.0,0.08564120384246532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16454616481661408,0.08734155774259772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07113940955264142,0.07175607404000038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09481715269843756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311519993034962,0.14720070221609366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2777965420197113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10389816054850376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08090669735237235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056429209483078877,0.0,0.18345928597301056,0.0,0.0,0.06570262521334555,0.0,0.0945333184073562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11415863750232175,0.0,0.07762559396568378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09328587562255553,0.10494636703679283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0687448783261836,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,FLcitizen,2019/09/15,"Mild hangover reminding me not that’t I shouldn’t drink but can’t drink anymore. I only had two glasses of wine last night and I’m hungover today, nothing too bad. This is just a reminder not that I shouldn’t drink but I can’t drink. I use to be a heavy drinker and now I can’t have any alcohol. A typical night out would be 3 double jack and comes followed by 3 or 5 beers and I would be fine the next day. I have health issues that cause me too have anxiety later after I drink and bad hangovers and anxiety the next day. Now it’s come down too not being able to have any alcohol. I have not drank in a while because I know the hangover is not worth it. Sometimes I just can’t escape wanting alcohol to help me escape. Long story short I had been on benzos for years and it has changed the chemistry in my brain. Since the change alcohol does not work on me anymore, it will give me a short buzz but then it’s only anxiety and almost breaking down. Anyone else? They don’t drink because they can’t?",2.2953623188405814,4.066400106280195,3.4312318840579716,90.9451086956522,76.92270531400966,6.339130434782609,24.54347826086957,7.1686216300943375,0.9269304347826076,790,27,168,9,18,255,109,207,0.043,0.8640000000000001,0.09300000000000001,0.8912,1,0,13,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,2,1,7,3,0,0,10,0,26,15,1,2,0,32,35,14,0,5,12,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,0,0,8,11,13,0,1,8,1,3,14,2,0,1,4,0,21,1,14,22,1,29,0,0,0,0,4,9,0,2,16,108,29,1,0.09589095441083999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40991307185512,0.09602093942278976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1304182744806198,0.0,0.22006895297762544,0.0,0.1901961202149292,0.06704918489980223,0.09825161466262963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16012988313041968,0.11690847156237487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10704601816515262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09850642455899686,0.2028798301597174,0.1652031329191402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12368346546852148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08391482040266461,0.0,0.0,0.5636197755300419,0.0,0.0,0.0801045879517366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09198734114931913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10192760047554043,0.0,0.0,0.06427368544701771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1000852431528278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05269916077909202,0.07816392624003134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08486047714123365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2039622357501756,0.17997432976635044,0.0,0.09200995695054294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14585878368267885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07932198839842801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09483860583767614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09089341254647376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09367152895875833,0.0,0.0,0.08281899661649382,0.0,0.0,0.05655896936047367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06980975686684658,0.0,0.0,0.13623636553514518,0.0,0.0,0.061750630732145664 alcoholism,MangoLazer,2019/09/15,"Why it's got to be like this? Whenever I get to know someone on nights out and meet up for a coffee or something while sober I was ""weird and quiet and not my usual self"" My parents called me once when I was was home alone drunk (obviously I didn't tell them) and my dad was happy to hear that I ""sounded happy and normal"". When I get to know someone in class in university or anywhere else I have to be sober and go out with them to drink I hear ""Oh you're one of those guys who is so much more fun to hang out with drinking"" Even when I'm alone it feels like I accept myself so much more if I'm having something to drink. How do I snap out of legitimately dangerous drinking habits when it feels like drinking makes me an objectively more open and interesting person",5.382904360056262,5.028463943037977,6.044008438818567,82.99838959212377,67.79746835443038,8.7943741209564,28.31504922644164,8.167268648758528,1.6018711673699015,605,17,131,7,9,198,95,158,0.068,0.784,0.14800000000000002,0.9339,1,2,7,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,2,0,8,10,1,0,2,0,11,6,0,2,1,27,24,18,0,2,4,2,2,3,0,0,0,4,1,3,7,14,6,0,5,6,0,2,2,2,0,1,6,6,18,8,21,16,5,18,0,0,0,0,13,9,0,3,10,85,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25176366656701515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12410893389117288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5953290602002974,0.0,0.0,0.10153353264056476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08027796740553693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1229115276499164,0.17366060521089893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12700234220222795,0.0,0.06907565533848987,0.0,0.09720899449804277,0.0,0.0,0.12034662230365567,0.0,0.2587694453363023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2739754599638076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12191748161132898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13359364545556746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17813922740926091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08113085810018933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1786960957029338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11405981825164205,0.1190862779114152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12943926732516947,0.08236064358190356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13495905431654087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10612660950318878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12679579684746792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20596588198670365,0.18713939080160916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10623388920931744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13386238001145387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10967360106100253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Big_fan_of_rocks,2019/09/15,"Beginning to see a problem forming I’m a freshman in college (18M) and am beginning to think I have a problem. I have a family history of alcohol and drug problems. I wouldn’t go so far as to call myself an alcoholic yet by any stretch of the word, I am however beginning to see a dependency form. I have severe depression that has been under control for a while, but some events over the summer combined with moving and stresses on my relationship have made me go downhill again. I have been drinking to help me cope and I don’t like it. I didn’t drink much until senior year of high school, and had only been drunk a handful of times before coming to college. I have mostly just been drinking a couple of beers at parties or sitting in my room when I feel down, but Friday I had a really bad day and all I wanted to do was get hammered and forget about everything. The circumstances didn’t allow me to, but last night my friends and I went to a bar to go dancing, neither of them were drinking but I drank way too much and ended up throwing up four times throughout the night, falling off my bunk bed and hurting my arm, and almost passing out on the floor of a dorm bathroom in my underwear. I’m worried about this continuing. How can I stop this so I don’t grow more dependent on drinking when I’m depressed.",8.182849872773538,6.183919969465648,8.508206106870231,72.9505025445293,63.04580152671755,11.32875318066158,39.39058524173028,9.928628108626363,3.8370218829516536,1040,46,198,17,12,346,154,262,0.151,0.785,0.064,-0.9637,1,0,9,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,1,1,11,10,0,1,17,0,24,14,2,6,1,40,43,24,0,5,6,0,2,1,1,1,3,0,3,0,4,14,11,2,2,9,0,11,6,8,0,1,13,4,27,2,38,29,9,54,0,3,2,0,5,19,0,6,23,146,31,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2381268922194676,0.11156105751525856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07576264462644894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09302272613250673,0.0,0.0,0.09480173456567882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11376210274464585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09596988075769047,0.0,0.0,0.12495582832214945,0.0,0.1232730853476708,0.0,0.07185025624496923,0.0,0.19191460083714573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5456971032622544,0.12920027096009562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09867622329830608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10012815624403666,0.0,0.10502746633210913,0.0,0.05633226150049811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08607511714631212,0.0,0.05820714532561193,0.0,0.1899506720441646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07467579844538093,0.1177108194554158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1192667473556853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09081404872001214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05442931585987281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1054188694743948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11841123638955615,0.16379839034996407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2091015425909128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08473235240847338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3198130734691018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.071372121627583,0.0,0.0,0.11961268420125057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127529039333756,0.17755874814751568,0.0,0.0,0.12586162863135292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0931437783795763,0.12761981937391434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07138705227762993,0.0,0.0,0.12992817539776802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06571252553617464,0.08843210055544318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10327821917813652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11314229913189608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07174441021014794 alcoholism,X015,2019/09/15,"I'm drunk now because my life is shit Why stop when there is no hope?",-1.5337499999999975,0.3452831250000017,0.06750000000000256,108.8275,92.75,3.2,14.25,3.1291,-1.7923999999999998,54,1,15,0,2,17,15,16,0.446,0.429,0.124,-0.7579,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,2,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,7,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28982592829124765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4722226461316037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33581978558013703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4880358928245572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3974920324559389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4290137839655945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,DARKKNT420,2019/09/15,"Not drinking leads to boredom. Yes, but now drinking leads to boredom. When first going sober, youre bored as shit yeah? What about when drinking is something you just do everyday and you sit there buzzed and think, ""I want more"" I know if I drink more after this point ill be miserable. I stop myself, but im bored even when drunk. I long for a higher feeling. I know alcohol really plays with many peoples emotions. But, with me, I just feel numb. Its like going through life numb. I dont care about shit. I could kill over now and Id be fine with that. Not suicidal, dont get that wrong. Im too much of a pussy to do that. Id rather go through life numb than die. My life is just neutral. Not good, not bad. Im happy with my family, I have a good support system. My son is my life. But, whatever happens happens. My liver quits, my heart quits, my mind deteriorates to shit, whatever. Anyone ever been to this point? I do care about some things. My son, my job, money, etc. The needs to survive. But I don't give a fuck about anything else. I hate alcohol but I love it. Literally the most fucked up abused substance on Earth and I could go grab it as I type and nobody would bat an eye. Its so accepted. Thats just my thoughts right now. In the morning ill read this and regret I even posted. But, thats my thoughts. Just like I regretted the night before, ill regret every day on this shitty substance.",0.13083290088220068,2.520330237588656,1.612297180418615,95.7537804878049,94.1418439716312,4.595191143400796,18.58017644006227,6.345904618129536,-0.017011520498183774,1085,33,233,13,41,347,152,282,0.326,0.5539999999999999,0.12,-0.9979,1,0,7,0,1,0,52.0,0,3,0,6,22,30,7,1,9,2,16,26,6,2,1,51,40,20,3,10,18,2,3,2,0,1,12,0,0,0,15,10,7,1,8,7,1,6,7,18,0,1,3,4,34,12,27,32,6,31,0,4,1,3,7,8,5,3,16,144,49,5,0.0,0.10608250372141748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1913680693634834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06260387359008351,0.0,0.0736784048350525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07475669522659037,0.0,0.0,0.07618637587317492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18257064921347813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14297035705073136,0.0,0.0,0.057741671647059935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09292159092526286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2098650852263064,0.3508348011775067,0.0,0.0,0.0747937130870481,0.10071308615837073,0.0,0.0,0.09985346958059363,0.1182720054190706,0.08098813606075074,0.07543579750131259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08440417323210182,0.0,0.09054161019574164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07615711120349992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16554447310724565,0.04677753495332191,0.08588864854667085,0.20353570342031965,0.15019282857006602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1583482773822251,0.09531002786386612,0.0,0.08839575078181827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10609757542712543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29013448670620634,0.0,0.08884813898722163,0.0,0.09905550262690148,0.0,0.09841049088510233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25296050873556314,0.08748304734334032,0.0,0.0,0.07923429034496188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08080743888290286,0.0,0.0,0.09077287068002587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09040326657190216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0658173913789403,0.06638792251167291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08402108248586511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06207122448041062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16927610975413052,0.0,0.08574830069074328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19045970086345296,0.0895576841640409,0.0,0.05735742399753064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07646108148667348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2757144152112238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06892722797526543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07485397753938544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09793506805484817,0.10160150387289588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05948204921829835,0.05736942285094525,0.0,0.14215912479360246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05280915157313038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06360199769080112,0.09789077799782354,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,SoleWilson,2019/09/15,"Sorry... again I am tired of saying sorry. I am in an abusive relationship and to keep afloat I keep it all in. I’ve lost control of my drinking, I drink to black out now. But before I do I hurt people. I told some their sister was a piece of shit. I revealed peoples secrets. I yelled. I say I got my drink spiked but I probably drank myself into a stupor. Some guy was all over me apparently. So now maybe I’m a cheat too? But I keep it all inside on the surface. Because if I let myself feel it I’d drown. So I’m day one of being sober for a month. I need help for sure.",-1.4245878136200716,0.5785830645161312,1.5611827956989262,96.1395519713262,97.38709677419355,3.723297491039427,15.759856630824373,5.46131890053228,-0.7679358422939067,436,11,101,3,18,152,79,124,0.177,0.769,0.055,-0.9081,1,0,3,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,1,2,6,5,2,0,6,0,7,6,1,1,4,21,18,7,1,2,4,1,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,3,3,4,4,3,3,0,0,0,4,0,1,6,5,21,1,14,10,6,12,0,2,1,0,9,7,1,3,5,69,24,0,0.0,0.17813553695244347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09164958361413547,0.0,0.12793345272344553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16862592892850006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09696079299176692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4418458051302192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07601950266517407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12024550597680055,0.0,0.0,0.14886627072141306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10077381783957744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16094860346396692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40090354975876935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15373906766593926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16412052207045974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510428595978288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12000481807287296,0.0,0.0,0.11147972388387782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1018784044750131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2084621028770314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16209851833211375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1614154398069957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2391224972515773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1543281052521147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3366002870720274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14169941459066412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17280071857666982,0.0,0.14366213602963462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,HeartsetHovercraft,2019/09/15,"A turning point. I got some really good news concerning my job today. I’ve been drinking pretty heavily every day for almost two months now but have been drinking since I was 14. This news has made me take a look at things and really consider if I want this disease to take any more of a hold on me. I’m going to try to get sober, go after that girl I’ve been taking to, work on myself. Things can get better everyone, don’t stop trying. This will be hard for me to overcome but I really feel like I can do it. I hope everyone finds something like this for themselves. We can all beat this. I’d be here for anyone that needs help.",2.340860139860144,3.993861100000004,3.9052447552447553,88.11339160839161,76.46153846153847,7.18881118881119,21.048951048951047,8.00094639256281,0.8729999999999998,493,12,104,8,11,164,87,130,0.033,0.785,0.182,0.9649,1,0,3,0,0,0,13.0,1,0,0,3,2,5,0,0,3,0,14,2,0,1,1,18,30,4,0,4,3,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,10,2,2,2,2,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,6,3,12,5,14,21,3,12,0,0,1,0,3,4,0,4,8,63,22,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15120851618876258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10268777772149576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1055853839934294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13355061016964542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09738497354328338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2958525173948114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12722723354435245,0.28858124783706146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07635207002123169,0.1078771612599109,0.0,0.0,0.1380147584761303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1577865300365345,0.0,0.17163790489005226,0.12665484233024904,0.12077155164401107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13526976515509992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10121467947354988,0.0,0.0,0.1499808681086726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1498479939674747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14754568075361216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12680517996097995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1428834683584806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12052981078739322,0.0,0.0,0.1119674213263274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14274742140025407,0.0,0.0,0.1536251747551866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2902107468927852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12491192274277862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11625012025651785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12624595745755052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34060824651527044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20064046031889385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1431339677064581,0.0,0.0,0.20504336721118646,0.16424879748831306,0.1475087932708234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08906596712730265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10993258152636667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Justaquestion171,2019/09/15,"How do I help a family member who doesn’t want to discuss treatment? I (30f) have been concerned with my sister’s (34f) relationship with alcohol for quite some time, as I have noticed all her daily activities must include alcohol, and she hides how much she drinks from loved ones including her spouse. She recently opened up to me about her struggles with alcohol addiction after being hospitalized twice for alcohol withdrawal syndrome in the course of a few months. I don’t feel qualified or knowledgeable enough to know how to be helpful. I feel that she needs professional help. She has tried to quit drinking a few times, which has resulted in hospitalization and/or secret binges. I spoke to her husband after her most recent hospitalization, and he thinks I may be overreacting to feel that we should talk to her about rehab. He thinks she may still be able to control her drinking with a little willpower and can still drink socially, whereas I do not. I don’t mean that condescendingly. I am just concerned for her well-being, and now that she has confided in me, I feel responsible for what I do with this information. But she is very defensive/self-conscious about it, which I understand. She tells me how humiliating it is to have to confide in me about this, but that she doesn’t know who else to tell. She doesn’t like talking about treatment or even the fact that she needs treatment. I am so torn between showing tough love and just being a listening ear. (I’m the past, if I have said anything about not knowing how to be helpful or asking her what I can do, her answer has been that she doesn’t know.) Does anyone have any advice on supporting a family member in this situation and/or resources you can point me to? TIA!",7.890314009661836,7.981995388198758,7.620828157349898,72.28709454796413,62.50931677018633,11.006487232574193,34.9696342305038,10.62613485830676,3.675773775017253,1393,55,248,31,18,443,164,322,0.031,0.8590000000000001,0.11,0.9772,1,0,8,0,0,0,39.0,1,1,0,3,18,6,0,1,9,0,38,13,1,7,3,56,61,18,0,6,10,3,4,1,0,4,6,4,0,0,18,12,8,1,16,5,0,0,8,2,0,2,4,8,47,4,42,47,7,21,0,0,0,2,51,10,0,8,12,188,65,2,0.0968457613491326,0.0,0.0,0.10557617484182652,0.0,0.09463655713965152,0.0,0.41399466482193137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06585843870007392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06771680811142351,0.0,0.07969580979668535,0.0,0.09053771364463424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10862075631528753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0847503783886949,0.0,0.0,0.3794879062229438,0.0,0.0,0.08090220663052977,0.0,0.0,0.10006755997749447,0.0,0.0639657119969736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18259512949585088,0.0,0.1958725073106508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25965468964515515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.212895590808076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04731394712682708,0.09706489516622403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17481416145712386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10549342541701036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07730136274641958,0.0,0.07119277780773205,0.14361980982439113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1102595411853718,0.0,0.0,0.06562519427817591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09245023753405933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09155054779137854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2060147763503968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19124701154512908,0.1039761041745539,0.0,0.0,0.0921224964992224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10103125036287977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10885869343476216,0.0,0.09872205762113062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15468230022837434,0.0,0.0,0.10124421723126607,0.0,0.0,0.10989942230480064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15568190904038656,0.16929492813772745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12410970682414582,0.0,0.0,0.11294308451132305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06575191483332637,0.0,0.0,0.10081985301366198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07990789562165977,0.05712213923087341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08707597016124094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,soggypierogies,2019/09/15,"Need help on how to approach boyfriend about his alcoholism I’m not sure if this is the right place to post this so feel free to tell me to take this down, but I originally wrote about this situation on the relationship advice sub and most, if not all the people that answered told me to leave him, which is not what I want to do at this time. My boyfriend who i’ve just recently moved in with has been drinking excessively (we’re talking a 12 pack a day during weekdays, even more on weekends) and it’s starting to affect me. When he’s drunk, he is NOT the man I originally started dating. He’s moody, rude, and once pushed me on to the ground when I tried to get him off of someone’s property when he was stumbling home. When I brought this up a few months ago he was very apologetic and felt horrible, said that he’ll work on it but he does realize that he has a problem and even said that he shouldn’t be allowed to date anyone. I comforted him and said that I’ll stick by him no matter what, even through the bad times. However, recently I’ve tried to bring this up again and he immediately shut me down saying I should’ve known better than to get attached to “an alcoholic piece of shit”, which honestly broke my heart when I heard this. I’m getting really worried about him. He’s losing a LOT of weight and I’m not sure if it’s because his job (restoration stone mason) is physically demanding or there’s something actually wrong with him. I know this isn’t the best situation but I do love him very much and I just wanted advice on how to get through to him without sounding confrontational or condescending to get help or at least slow down a bit on the drinking. I just want him to feel supported, I know he can get over this but I’m not sure how to bring it up without him getting angry at me and not trying to see it from my POV.",5.470570314404097,5.453304442359247,5.985811601267367,82.3451712161833,67.57908847184987,9.462783329271264,30.895564221301484,9.218907990703514,2.347172654155496,1459,52,310,25,22,473,183,373,0.14400000000000002,0.753,0.102,-0.9326,3,0,5,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,4,21,19,3,0,15,0,15,9,2,7,4,63,51,29,0,9,22,0,4,0,0,2,2,6,1,1,25,12,6,0,8,4,1,6,12,9,0,0,11,11,34,11,53,37,10,51,0,2,1,1,39,23,1,8,21,196,59,2,0.0,0.0,0.0917005153974816,0.0,0.0,0.18365149255672888,0.08329814539887925,0.200849281723327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06570554369644267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0784604693469069,0.057282834222408326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0986150192879086,0.08310824017777202,0.10259017561427733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06060244697242673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08223319801703784,0.0,0.0,0.18410834695261466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18619757790897146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09502743814250053,0.0,0.09022529764178393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34366569246315026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11135411402750413,0.12597132848017342,0.0,0.09425890446426237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09325006495280536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10328617764737966,0.0,0.0,0.09949995731369128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10512764906972792,0.0,0.07988936796039964,0.0848109933465718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07500542641307117,0.0998745314111529,0.06907827323195932,0.06967707097596798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10007427459519902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06514650481684167,0.0,0.09817795437577384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08999664708964253,0.0,0.0,0.08991596244240765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06019916201131208,0.0,0.1855667628813227,0.10088789839275566,0.0,0.08024929836762816,0.2681590680940825,0.07472818658173236,0.0,0.0,0.07488139348044229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09645817166213276,0.0,0.2112509386575416,0.0,0.0,0.07961991232305035,0.07234218475453649,0.0,0.0,0.1330239574724982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10663528739541604,0.26569495753248834,0.0,0.07065324504311607,0.07552899171183115,0.08213334036681412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1095885494537636,0.0,0.0,0.08979172624362461,0.0,0.19139702979342413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1550690847336034,0.1662766447479063,0.0,0.0,0.11442933414072365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18116617063483048,0.0,0.06841079480842663,0.09543042073645026,0.0,0.0,0.1027407159072916,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,littletinylotus,2019/09/15,"I need advice Please, someone help me. My boyfriend is a severe alcoholic. He has never been abusive, or even remotely aggressive when he's drunk. He's the fun loving drunk, that's the life of the party. He's scared though, and so am I. He knows he's an alcoholic, and he wants to stop, but he doesn't know how. We don't have the money for any kind of rehab. He comes from a long line of drinkers, and he's afraid that he will have to cut ties with his family, should he go sober, for the sole purpose of keeping alcohol out of his life. His family is wonderful, and fun, but also alcoholics. Every family get together, involves obscene amounts of alcohol. He has watched several beloved family members drink themselves to death. His favorite uncle in the entire world died at 58 years old due to alcohol abuse. He does not want to end up like that, but he doesn't know how to stop. I am not a drinker. I never have been. I am always the sober one at family events, and it is so hard watching him go through this, and not knowing how to help, or what to do. He has tried to quit multiple times, but has never made it longer than a week. If you have been in his shoes, what helped you make that first step, and continue to be successful in your sobriety? What did you do when you wanted alcohol, but managed to curb the craving? If you have been in my shoes, what can I do to help? How can I be as loving and supportive as I can be? What are some things I can do to help him keep a focused and clear mind, while he fights this? I love this man more than anything. He has been nothing but loving and nurturing since the beginning of our relationship. The only thing that concerns me (and him) about his drinking, is his health. I can't bear the thought of losing him prematurely due to alcoholism. We are making plans to get married, and start a family, and I could not be more excited to spend the rest of my life with him... I just don't want that time to be cut short. I'm sorry for the wall of text, but we are just at a loss. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.",3.474316842431765,4.708125992788464,4.450279156327543,87.05762406947892,72.72596153846153,8.252357320099255,25.91935483870968,8.748949900417786,1.6813603598014888,1607,52,344,30,31,522,199,416,0.121,0.7020000000000001,0.17800000000000002,0.9889,0,0,12,0,2,0,60.0,4,6,0,6,14,21,4,2,21,0,49,23,2,7,4,69,78,37,2,10,17,0,1,1,0,3,13,0,0,1,18,20,12,5,6,4,2,4,12,8,0,2,8,3,40,13,48,60,5,38,0,2,2,4,53,12,0,6,23,227,58,2,0.0,0.16096849085059398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1327580211241874,0.0,0.5807598471341984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054322451359860836,0.056522010295224974,0.0,0.0,0.09238751134245468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05589942364917553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05851444660327934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05423543422217622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.070499129139879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059444747698324085,0.0,0.0,0.1330882721049734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06016454906076672,0.0,0.0,0.04486617857402952,0.0,0.05723274835115781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38422205104649626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057780005316245386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0709797463578052,0.0,0.07721074132031516,0.0,0.0,0.07489148612841726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06085065447833678,0.0,0.0,0.07220489139689182,0.0,0.0,0.22765543659067936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1207560648955807,0.0,0.07073715053631159,0.14932705814750533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14393986958570396,0.03318646716439036,0.0,0.0,0.06011464517249745,0.0,0.07599469223820221,0.0,0.0,0.24523273923928604,0.06427565357106313,0.0906856933484413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06858848951311591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05036817251916277,0.1571720981237812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0651792931262117,0.0,0.0712796053956395,0.0,0.04603015574311636,0.051662737011148714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07456516919694547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07225039365670607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07292986057199125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06800834689286009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15347989368760176,0.0,0.05619121347871246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057555655306337335,0.0,0.0,0.07604047058325852,0.04808019012070335,0.0,0.0,0.11358264912677095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07708453407886959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0902574445312338,0.0,0.06673947325649685,0.053927695368975966,0.07921938864100313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046119038784966176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.160264117712577,0.0,0.05448819993393859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07366563445516687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048254505805485834,0.0,0.0,0.043743770724536 alcoholism,puddlewonderfull,2019/09/15,"What type of alcoholic am I? Hi, I'm looking to get help but feel like I need to better understand my problem in the first place. I started drinking secretly at around 15. About once a month I'd get pass out drunk alone just to fall asleep. This continued into my 20's but increased to weekly. Once I got married, it started to affect my marriage so I tried to control it. I'd have a bit too much sometimes but only got drunk about every 3 months. Especially when my wife wasn't around I'd sometimes go on 3 day benders. I kept working at it and now I don't drink at all except every 8 months or so I get passed out drunk. I will drink as much as possible. Always alone. I always linked it with my depression but I can't figure out the thought patterns that lead up to it. It just seems like something inside me snaps when I have the opportunity and I go for the alcohol without thinking. Anyone out there with some insight?",1.6316310160427818,3.988210064171128,3.137783422459893,89.21961631016045,82.04812834224599,5.665133689839572,24.323262032085555,6.961326702584282,0.9911007486631016,730,28,147,9,20,239,114,187,0.122,0.7809999999999999,0.09699999999999999,-0.6917,0,2,6,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,6,13,6,0,0,6,0,7,9,1,3,1,37,25,13,0,2,9,1,1,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,9,11,8,2,9,6,0,7,4,2,0,1,5,2,19,4,30,19,6,33,0,1,1,0,5,14,0,3,14,92,28,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2556053266468737,0.0,0.2477131583301437,0.0,0.0,0.19901275166374294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08361835708317149,0.0,0.0,0.21291644922253208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10576542119253726,0.1305585716993976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13412754442399155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07712404107735431,0.0,0.10300053424892572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35145065312752993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20151524468344506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06046703069689994,0.08543333035480981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10172106219391784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874385911074192,0.0,0.13592865865787776,0.0,0.1912900886260176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0801569771324099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1168488189625084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10042337695748574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2863607928408309,0.0,0.1758211375431199,0.08867261228816847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2547135586184567,0.0,0.09095167880058216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12494347942110155,0.0,0.0,0.1348169323118494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11442908211401563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10886796409670027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0920642962019824,0.23655018088753374,0.0,0.16928928901252194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07662683809338065,0.0,0.09493911301285288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08119205920616725,0.0,0.0,0.1244947998213029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09592587511854113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1152780777336007,0.0,0.08706112067290141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Dionysus1295,2019/10/12,"I hate myself so fucking much I searched and tried writing a thread that would fit in other subs but I just lost whatever I wanted to express along the way.I just broke my laptop screen because am a fucking retard and can't control myself and I was supposed to gift my mother this laptop before I left in England with my parents money mind you and now she is going to have to pay to have it repaired because her son is a a fucking alcoholic cunt with mental issues that can't get over the fact his ex of 3 years married her rebound and nobody in the entire fucking world is on my side on anything not even my best and only friend of 16 years and typing all this shit on a phone is making me want to smash it into million pieces and I feel so stupid and such a burden like I want to end it all but even that would end up being a burden to the very few loved ones I have,please don't FUCKING tell me to call a suicide hotline,I just want a group of people that feel me...",9.05341133004926,5.249183571428574,8.838269704433499,76.89218288177341,63.039408866995075,10.54408866995074,36.705049261083744,5.985473137389443,2.482724630541872,767,23,158,2,8,250,118,203,0.21899999999999997,0.6809999999999999,0.1,-0.9867,1,0,1,0,0,1,6.0,0,1,0,3,9,17,9,0,13,0,14,8,1,2,3,34,31,13,1,6,6,4,2,1,1,2,1,0,0,0,10,13,1,1,2,0,2,1,4,13,0,2,2,3,24,4,24,26,6,19,0,2,1,6,17,13,7,0,6,114,34,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.135296300076562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10418055219851466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15434768721487133,0.0,0.10772679900223442,0.0,0.13285830177886304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12927218296785026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1419920369968762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.224259054378202,0.0,0.0,0.1672354723445705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12802496156441534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09781041334734727,0.5851957116992298,0.06614298223248069,0.0,0.0719493792716926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12499073709683348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13213692385615514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13755066205082814,0.0,0.0,0.06185009162889744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13819824382794965,0.0,0.1142609374268566,0.0,0.08450610930122826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12758245907502264,0.0,0.12782934501765367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09306515516282718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08578705700433857,0.09628457895535918,0.0,0.0,0.14057369615368814,0.0,0.0,0.08776811138194794,0.0,0.0,0.13896816808822374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299525059393901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384792395057276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11065349070918064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08595270959566248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10445779661595242,0.29868651930457396,0.1004887428012367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1798652198073635,0.0,0.0,0.16305177734670956 alcoholism,young_buckk,2019/10/12,"Need answers Hi, so I have trouble figuring exactly what is alcoholism, i am afraid of being one or on the path to one. Because I drink every day and when I don't drink for a couple of days I always want to drink or feel sick maybe its just in my head or not. Thanks you in advance, also sorry if theres any mistake english isn't my first languages",3.5486301369863007,4.242247698630141,4.9752328767123295,85.39682191780824,72.01369863013699,7.4838356164383555,28.298630136986297,7.554174236665415,1.5847501369863015,274,10,57,3,5,92,58,73,0.17300000000000001,0.809,0.018000000000000002,-0.8774,0,0,4,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,2,5,4,0,1,2,0,6,6,1,0,1,14,10,8,0,4,6,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,4,0,3,3,0,1,3,3,0,3,0,1,8,1,8,9,0,8,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,4,4,40,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22083302683506367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16524821980162255,0.1719392506612175,0.0,0.0,0.1405208288568106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259645198477841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286408587530186,0.0,0.26652864642986884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6072792968085177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17410130696663215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10448230940799484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1757660558318055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2120700565810089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2075955016422171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15321935286600027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28004631983017697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23131416352182285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19024437630138916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12188036201938475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,borderroadkill,2019/10/12,"Stopped drinking....when does the beer gut go away? Lol. One liners - fire away!! Yes, I have been exercising for over a year. Steady changes from fat to muscle but didn’t stop drinking until oct 1 this year. At first, when I started exercising and quit beer, nothing changed with my weight. So I said screw it, not drinking doesn’t change anything. Now, I’ve decided to stop drinking for other reasons. Just hoping for some faster change!!",2.0974583333333316,4.9709651625000015,1.9075000000000024,93.26083333333335,91.125,4.166666666666667,24.16666666666667,5.985473137389443,0.6190416666666665,343,14,64,3,12,101,62,80,0.145,0.765,0.09,-0.5401,0,0,6,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,2,4,2,1,0,2,2,4,11,2,1,0,12,8,5,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,2,7,3,2,7,0,1,3,1,0,2,3,3,4,1,12,5,1,16,0,0,0,1,1,4,1,2,11,35,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11883247694206253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2713452827976609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6110426246999465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12636922080845125,0.0,0.0,0.4243838664266745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12283026731271585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08206832055379548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14342610356102575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13855986952800586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09785212554806184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15359180252285298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14847172348509244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1373616062000839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1022101429836966,0.0,0.0,0.3621855106615521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17584559693272692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18598333530614009 alcoholism,agoodperson44,2019/10/12,"Once a week, my friend gets drunk to make himself feel better when he's depressed. Is he becomming an alcoholic? So I've been a bit concerned about one of my friends behaviours. He gets drunk once a week usually on Sat, whether with friends or by himself, because he feels depressed and he says it makes him feel better. I did tell him I'm geting concerned because it looks like he's becoming an alcoholic. But he repeatedly tells me that he only does it once a week and that he has a good full-time job, lots of friends, exercises 4-6 times a week, and is generally in good shape. This is mostly true, so I'm not sure what to say. Should I be concerned?",5.237958015267175,5.462899618320613,5.658845419847327,83.65712309160308,68.08396946564886,8.992748091603053,33.16889312977099,8.841846274778883,2.5268694656488546,514,22,108,8,8,165,81,131,0.094,0.7,0.20600000000000002,0.9445,1,0,2,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,2,4,13,0,0,8,0,8,5,0,2,2,19,19,9,0,1,4,0,3,1,4,1,3,2,0,0,7,4,4,0,3,3,0,0,1,2,0,1,3,6,9,11,9,14,3,11,0,2,1,0,21,3,0,3,9,54,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2577880510969022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14704389349863958,0.2664056765179683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21333719574893414,0.1316734678181423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2077602007305042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1055454899832772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18295015448373536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37272794332922177,0.0,0.12602614021077752,0.0,0.0,0.2023217180096428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11968552888308055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05892332078614021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10128093561291376,0.0,0.0,0.1025372074680556,0.0,0.0,0.1610144934504332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.385333001813315,0.0817275794754655,0.09172835452832796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1918257652267532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11367227654635832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.210834647369122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07032790544189714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13283344842104744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38698011064122706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,VerlanderFan_23,2019/10/12,"SSRI or Gabapentin for anxiety? Which one has helped you more and which is better for anxiety in general? An SSRI like Celexa or Lexapro, or Gabapentin?",4.352222222222224,7.479936074074079,3.653333333333337,84.90000000000002,77.14814814814815,8.044444444444443,31.222222222222207,8.841846274778883,3.1186888888888893,122,6,21,3,3,36,20,27,0.105,0.711,0.184,0.5484,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,2,4,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,3,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,3,1,15,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7403979516926429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4279896492739671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32436269002616275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23641982645160545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32791804497964105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,smolnessy,2019/10/12,"I’d rather drink than go back to him I’m sure I’ll get downvoted for this It’s unhealthy It going back to him is worse Atleast I’m enjoying myself at the moment Just need to focus on health coping mechanisms. I have therapy next for anyone who is worried",-0.17876310272536955,2.0287013962264204,2.068930817610063,90.71815513626836,101.07547169811322,5.374423480083859,19.09643605870021,6.937597516519254,0.753395807127883,206,7,41,4,9,69,41,53,0.154,0.745,0.10099999999999999,-0.4588,0,0,1,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,1,4,9,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,8,9,0,8,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,4,24,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19812526045399845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43575809441210345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2775756210180842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14803894335207632,0.0,0.3220692421996249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3011883354263881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21010080821434227,0.0,0.0,0.3013464752865517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2670544964751496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3240359952869677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2877561907256161,0.28875837063877025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,MorGlaKil,2019/10/12,2 40oz beers a night for over a year. Trying to ween myself off and still be able to enjoy a night out with friends every once in a while. Advice? I use alcohol to go to sleep with weed every night for a year. I have existing anxiety issues which I've been medicating with weed for many years. The past couple years alcohol has become a problem. It's been over a year since i spent a night completely sober and I have got to quit for my own well being. Any advice?,1.7620833333333332,3.719823541666672,3.442916666666669,89.37708333333337,79.20833333333334,6.766666666666668,19.0,7.793537801064563,0.5417999999999998,364,8,78,6,9,121,62,96,0.05,0.851,0.099,0.6553,0,0,3,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,9,0,7,5,1,1,0,8,11,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,2,6,3,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,1,0,4,0,6,3,17,5,1,18,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,12,47,8,0,0.13558252950245922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26497935731315075,0.0,0.28979298151587585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09220076938471658,0.0,0.1037202639636787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14974025165711746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14215570261775698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1500194900735451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2284682574647395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10475072596659384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07705467601686608,0.0,0.1084377345428998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14151293535352572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13745940439601506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365851344681867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5089400773024964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1443909689850436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12942886589308872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1297341699132824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14420870930930205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11215526947563502,0.0,0.1356804455837773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1082763831997571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0920516376611923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1170997736033638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12190497682991724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4365535187587076 alcoholism,grasaprocky,2019/10/12,"30 days It’s been difficult, but I’m already starting to feel like myself again and I wouldn’t trade that for anything. Very thankful.",2.649102564102563,5.435423653846158,2.7669230769230784,90.66141025641028,81.69230769230771,5.005128205128205,27.89743589743589,6.42735559955562,1.2971435897435892,109,5,20,1,3,33,25,26,0.059000000000000004,0.644,0.29600000000000004,0.8397,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,6,2,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,2,2,2,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,11,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4773187102334203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35594361326106483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27895255452124706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2187052499012222,0.30900670414597176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2113172240915764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3061540796064097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39822477218438784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35689084743881444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,erikaallyson,2019/10/12,Should I drink with my friend who’s an alcoholic? My friend is an alcoholic. She has calmed down on the drinking a lot but drinks wine all throughout the day. She used to get so drunk everyday and says she can’t quit. When she drinks at her house I don’t drink even when she asks me to except once when I had a couple shots because I was nervous to talk to someone I liked and then my friend took a shot and I felt really bad. But usually I NEVER We are suppose to go downtown for Halloween and she says she’s gonna be really drunk and of course I want to be drunk too but I feel bad to even drink with her but she is my only friend and then my other friend and we do want to go downtown. I never drink and the last time I got drunk was in July.( and not with her) I want to drink but maybe I drink before I get with her To go Downtown so I’ll be drunk but not with her? I feel really bad . It’s not out of control anymore but she still drinks wine all day. I am meeting someone for the first time. And I’m terrified. If I do drink with her it will only be this time I don’t think she plans on stopping anytime soon. She never goes out either anymore. This is the first time I’m going out since April.,0.03879909466116517,2.1128236640926694,1.7432964984689114,98.47115830115831,86.49034749034746,4.807935028624684,17.425242976967116,6.129581340695534,-0.4852059379576614,935,22,222,8,29,304,113,259,0.16699999999999998,0.737,0.096,-0.9796,1,0,15,0,0,0,17.0,2,0,0,5,10,11,0,1,10,0,20,20,0,2,5,51,40,25,0,5,13,0,3,1,5,3,2,2,0,0,6,21,20,2,4,18,0,5,9,4,0,2,6,5,43,7,29,27,4,36,0,0,0,0,30,8,0,2,24,150,49,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14992215980843102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13912517110400616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06557383815348995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17569835833829586,0.04275826208032857,0.0,0.059686164242940626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07867086110308978,0.0,0.07761142401564068,0.0,0.0904723149799236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.755843208767603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09265701721441434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07093238594206593,0.0,0.06734787087985766,0.0,0.0,0.11932647525134372,0.0,0.0,0.2709598934429767,0.0,0.07329319979077559,0.0,0.15945456499821553,0.0,0.056099424086687964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0809351128922237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05717555962769681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034268118625957966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059632708106232335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07046764340182056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1622948317010284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07469955212108544,0.0,0.10669317656923516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07460526148612863,0.0,0.0,0.13480538705374953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11156038034861984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05802266205940754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11886315068502692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05601595021604621,0.05864233265394414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056377944040591925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04494452919645794,0.0,0.0,0.16360279592150626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07793098061179661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06058066306458437,0.07725213561042575,0.0,0.12411572245822015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,edgarjungle,2019/10/12,"Living a double-life like spiderman and superman This week, i attended an AA meeting and they wants me to show up on almost a daily basis. Besides from my drinking problem, is that i have to admit that i have a problem and at the other side, i have to hide it altogether. My own parents and my Fioncee knows about this. I feel like a total piece of trash, ready to be throwned out in the garbage because i have to hide everything to my parents in law, my collegues and everyone else because being an Alcoholic is considered too shamefull to admit, even if i want to. But i cannot live up to this double-standard. I once lied to my parents because i felt ashamed and got used to lie to show ""im okay, dont worry"" Now even my own parents dont belive me anymore because i was training myself to lie about my Alcohol problem, since they dont want anyone else to know about it. Should i focus on the AA meetings or my family? Yes, ive been drinking tonight *dont tell anyone*",6.749384615384617,5.688701194871798,7.44576923076923,76.4117307692308,65.25641025641025,9.851282051282054,37.44871794871795,8.841846274778883,3.2573487179487177,763,35,146,10,10,255,108,195,0.09,0.8009999999999999,0.10800000000000001,0.1295,4,0,4,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,2,0,7,7,0,1,9,2,17,4,0,1,1,27,28,9,0,8,3,4,2,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,8,7,4,0,6,4,0,1,5,4,2,0,4,2,27,3,27,21,4,13,0,0,0,0,11,9,0,3,5,104,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22122716605290352,0.10364363455942308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1026474917693713,0.14474387063980235,0.10605139364581093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523786785746789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4852205303893413,0.2027877196947985,0.0,0.0,0.17292750289907008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13672594738131064,0.0,0.0,0.09890186791525933,0.0930221195998108,0.0,0.09757372851846977,0.0,0.05233439387274486,0.07394280005348723,0.09937942885485236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0827810686809492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11180135829646344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11376544729118016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.101132998340904,0.0,0.18279067435742924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11022766909364894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4597127993014459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2971161268296865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08561902463685159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09046647302845952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08939364550583352,0.0,0.0,0.18314683818006627,0.0,0.08302412857357071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10511265638401916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,hoorayhenrietta,2019/07/24,"Big fight with boyfriend. Please stop me from drinking all the alcohol in the house and buying cigarettes. I set off the fire alarms in the house while searing steak for our dinner. He was trying to call his dad to ask about surgery. The pan I was using set off the fire alarms (they are super sensitive)! He started banging doors and so forth and I told him it wasn't my fault the alarms went off--the pan was already emitting smoke when he said he was going to call his dad, so it's not as if I chose that moment to cook. I would have waited till his call was over if he had said something literally 5 minutes before ​ About half an hour ago he drove off somewhere. No idea where. He hasn't done this before (we've only been living together 3 months; dating for 3 years). I guess I need talking down because the last time there was a fight this big, I fell off the wagon after 2 years 7 months of sobriety and I bought cigarettes, also 2 years 7 months after quitting. I need you to please remind me why I should not do that--even if it's a cliche. I just need to feel less alone. Thank you!",3.8170945945945967,4.924038040540541,4.066295045045045,90.6221452702703,71.74774774774775,6.8112612612612615,23.78490990990991,6.9077264865688965,0.6300801801801801,863,22,184,7,16,268,135,222,0.107,0.833,0.06,-0.7912,0,1,6,0,2,0,29.0,1,2,1,2,9,8,2,3,12,0,16,4,0,1,1,23,33,14,0,8,6,2,3,0,0,2,1,2,1,0,6,5,4,2,2,2,2,4,5,6,0,1,16,5,23,2,25,15,2,36,0,0,0,0,27,11,0,4,19,103,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10730128661153444,0.12936294224028128,0.0,0.12536868231032994,0.13357890319364804,0.09680162528167813,0.0,0.1311548930028312,0.1470859363809039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11316305272499726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07378941972101037,0.0,0.20600497824656505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3708090301600662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12387359787907655,0.0,0.11858044623526592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07995071830195823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06120524248926136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06879407189761322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13334744521271294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11920738372938207,0.2793450774099264,0.0,0.13664786992397698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09866985143656604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10688714171435654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.289856828808013,0.0,0.0,0.2692655158374688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09206206244356628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2657475642935026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12874889402318224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23028774438502095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09318826323539656,0.0,0.0,0.08567802871604598,0.0,0.0,0.1012011126526063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.097293378482115,0.0,0.11144425548899506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07058375848568903,0.0,0.0,0.11566605363030368,0.0,0.08218329252556973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10454615684453412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1122122258237588,0.10922652213270634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08598865611183948,0.0,0.1470859363809039,0.2338518234771552 alcoholism,thom92Pf3105,2019/07/24,"My older half brother gets offended when you ask into or about his drinking. I don't want to talk to my older half brother. he is a narcissistic asshole as far as i know. but my mom wants us to reconnect. and i have zero reason for that. ​ Any advice? ​ thank you so much in advance! ​ i am 27 years old. i was diagnosed with PTSD from a childhood of a lot of alcohol abuse. yeah that is my deal.",0.9478246753246752,3.4940841071428608,2.8405627705627694,88.29837662337661,88.88095238095238,5.435497835497836,24.303030303030305,6.980632752743323,1.2238238095238096,331,14,64,5,11,110,63,84,0.10300000000000001,0.826,0.071,-0.3925,0,0,2,0,1,0,22.0,1,2,0,1,3,2,1,0,3,1,6,3,0,1,0,10,12,7,0,2,2,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,2,1,0,1,1,1,0,3,1,0,13,1,13,11,2,10,0,0,0,0,11,3,0,2,6,47,15,0,0.0,0.15760890911252803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12998722156587772,0.0,0.14215969454565114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4323867222999279,0.4849076116952945,0.09045928679185264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12435729066333615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13713948516928998,0.0,0.1350141795694233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13031057986128064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0694983243827581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07310522267819505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11309025403775205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1557933544327946,0.0,0.0,0.09778622196840883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1395838500940602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15549519603455106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13676841589138725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1069177673822659,0.0,0.12246846774523852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1600086722370834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15691923698288082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4849076116952945,0.0856615844247659 alcoholism,CorradoLifestyle,2019/07/24,"Having a difficult time I’m 21 and I drink anywhere from 6 up to 12 or more beers a night, what are some things you did to stop drinking?",-0.8810000000000002,1.2256939000000031,1.1016666666666666,100.5225,93.33333333333334,4.333333333333334,17.5,5.985473137389443,-0.5129999999999999,107,3,26,1,4,35,27,30,0.17,0.83,0.0,-0.5719,0,0,3,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,3,3,0,0,0,4,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,1,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,4,3,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,3,17,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7868729416524858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3768948582898887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33577381321988226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26681968200890777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23418890481458216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Leftover-Craic,2019/07/24,"Something changed in me, and I don't really understand what's going on I've been an abject alcoholic for years. It's the standard story so I won't bore you with too many details, but basically my life revolved around alcohol. If I could afford either food or booze, I'd buy booze (food is always obtainable if you're resourceful enough). I've lost so many jobs, relationships, and opportunities. My life slipped away from me. I got into quite a lot of debt, I spent most of my time alone, blah blah. I would lie, cheat and steal. I went to rehab last year. 30 days sober, for the first time in about 15 years. The day I got out, *the very fucking day that I got out*, the first thing I did was buy a few cans of beer to drink on the train home. After leaving that place, I managed about 45 minutes before I was drinking again. That night, I got absolutely shitfaced. I was back to square 1. I must have tried to quit 50 times. I have managed to stay sober for a week here, 10 days there... but every single time, it was because I ran out of money. As soon as I got hold of more money, I was drinking again. Sometimes I would stay sober for a couple of days because I was chainsmoking weed, but it would never last. And then 8 days ago, something changed and I don't know what it is. I just found some willpower. I don't really want to believe it; experience has taught me that I'll fuck up again. But something beautiful seems to have happened. I had £10 in my wallet a few days ago, and *I didn't spend it on booze*. I know it sounds really trivial, but for me, this is utterly unheard of. I can't remember the last time I had money and I had access to alcohol, but I wasn't drinking. Now I have £14 in my wallet, and I haven't spent it on booze. I wish I could explain it. I wish I understood what happened, what changed. Maybe I just reached a tipping point? Maybe all of the miserable self-reflection has finally had an effect? Maybe it's because I started reading all these alcoholism subreddits? I dunno. But I've managed 8 days sober and it's crazy. I'm too confused and scared to be happy about it. I've betrayed myself so many times, and now I'm deeply cynical and suspicious of myself. But wow. I hope I can keep it up. Edit - I wrote this just to get it off my chest, but I guess my message would be that you never know when all your work will start paying off. Just because you have 99 failures, doesn't mean that attempt \#100 won't be a success. Again, let's not get too ahead of ourselves, I might fail again this time. But it feels different. It *is* different. This has never happened before.",1.664868713681038,3.854276674904945,2.9969158476217816,91.25285852643664,80.73003802281369,6.023043259918215,23.04239902432025,7.206552242816932,0.8120427290336472,2025,69,429,27,53,656,238,526,0.133,0.8029999999999999,0.064,-0.9882,7,1,12,0,0,0,87.0,0,4,0,13,26,16,4,3,17,0,49,21,1,1,7,77,89,32,0,13,19,0,1,2,0,9,7,1,1,0,32,18,15,2,12,6,10,3,14,11,0,2,28,3,62,5,52,46,12,71,0,3,1,2,8,20,2,12,46,278,94,11,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11129784494264763,0.2683624240016485,0.0,0.06501909066083479,0.0,0.0,0.05223633750550145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05588574304451165,0.0,0.0,0.058982011599836626,0.048272418464215004,0.0,0.15307558098998855,0.0,0.10683893385783054,0.07072932511494948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1992324473441568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10024627333633106,0.06946267951872782,0.0,0.3238930093333351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311793280699888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2459942193629556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06486647109580856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052893185214452236,0.0,0.0,0.061408944807314174,0.0,0.0,0.031742450642314554,0.0,0.0,0.06877024684574362,0.0,0.10679789494408848,0.15182284980896582,0.06883285312020128,0.0,0.11607452651558554,0.06559784352033975,0.0,0.035678192633203966,0.0,0.2510465673026112,0.0,0.0691570611567455,0.0,0.16654317395839335,0.06682836429893056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06297146763166986,0.062352733880131524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06229749306128483,0.055799984190005716,0.0,0.0,0.10350346573866956,0.15351738323686392,0.0,0.06647285343431109,0.0,0.06419477365795997,0.08868393709405269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06852961922360842,0.05337162337315563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19094116137272574,0.18920686195917047,0.06838366231923063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06659755316661056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1452548258839127,0.0,0.0,0.058912914359608964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0655896640349944,0.0,0.059345515804027776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13354429286022326,0.06279500360268091,0.0,0.12065161175789782,0.0,0.0,0.06740009407254814,0.07111525312999811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0628517447084995,0.0,0.0,0.05715074706067803,0.06549116100073843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1449887489643515,0.0620890620451624,0.0,0.08886920423939389,0.13382602217655148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04170692364170836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2562445576768847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0426221513144646,0.0,0.0,0.06535412758005893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051798437004310215,0.03702809975763914,0.0,0.050356736905674285,0.0,0.0,0.05819584883271825,0.0,0.0,0.14438323807557013,0.0,0.0,0.04570314258817816,0.0,0.0,0.17838280261093134,0.0,0.0,0.12128095016764695 alcoholism,funkassblastlast,2019/07/24,"Lost my mom to a relapse Three years ago my mom nearly drank herself to death. This woman with a masters degree, who taught children all over the world and was good at everything she put her mind to, couldn’t stop drinking. She went through multiple medically induced detoxes and eventually ended up in a coma before being released to the psych ward and ultimately admitted to a locked nursing home for 8 months. She was 60 at the time. She was diagnosed with cirrhosis and a slew of other health issues that would never go away. And she stopped drinking. For three years I had my mother back, albeit she needed a lot of support. She was there though. She answered my calls and listened to me. I was grateful to have my mom back. Last weekend I took her camping for the first time in our lives. We sat under the stars around a fire and talked. It was beautiful. She told me that she had tried having a drink, because, “she needed to know for herself that she couldn’t do it.” She said it was as just one, then she said it was a few. I had just been reading about Relapse Prevention (Marlatt, UW) for my own work in addiction (4 years sober) and was supportive of her, so as not to shame her. We talked about the most common triggers and that a lapse doesn’t always mean relapse. Things seemed ok. She said she was done and it was over. Yesterday she was found dead in her apartment. I’m completely lost. I wish I would have done more to get her help. My heart is broken. I’m heading across state to clean out her apartment this morning. Just a reminder that this disease kills and is progressive. My mom used to scoff at anyone drinking cheap wine and ended up not being able to get off the couch surrounded by cans of steel reserve. Take care of yourself to get support and ask for help if you are triggered or in a high risk situation. DO NOT BE AFRAID TO ASK FOR HELP. Pick up the phone. My mom never asked for help and I had know idea things were where they were. Now she’s gone and I’m just lost.",3.5830612244897964,5.363310316326533,3.8471938775510215,89.29869897959185,73.38775510204081,6.6346938775510225,25.77040816326531,7.292943589461545,1.1132510204081636,1572,53,318,17,32,487,208,392,0.075,0.8190000000000001,0.106,0.9017,0,0,5,0,0,0,43.0,3,1,1,7,14,13,1,3,20,1,38,14,2,5,3,59,77,22,3,8,9,6,1,0,0,2,6,4,3,2,17,21,6,3,9,7,1,5,8,7,0,4,35,5,50,6,56,35,6,54,0,3,0,0,58,26,0,5,22,225,67,4,0.07675749452568942,0.0,0.0,0.08367699886472428,0.0,0.0,0.06804088761481816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06386838436005722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053670624873003836,0.0,0.0,0.06833044366172011,0.21527368764421484,0.0,0.07211619280909531,0.11804355066575263,0.0,0.046790656225553666,0.0,0.06531497438475656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07837798391309828,0.0,0.07825938128778566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08047877263773946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07790724121100821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15709913306533266,0.0,0.30077249100725706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13596871463671895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06898468672787125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06528988563196718,0.0,0.08416063088682994,0.0,0.0,0.1203078685227511,0.0,0.043623053016104786,0.06438054467348682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07877533392106413,0.08158962733854618,0.0,0.09095800058586892,0.20579572240810398,0.08109850724527337,0.0769940254328285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08664986836515856,0.0,0.08011488206167057,0.0,0.0,0.08492079512372845,0.0,0.08436782321883553,0.06256760272476093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06777827392867337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25136961756712883,0.06525647697176151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08361141376906447,0.0,0.0773251004366476,0.0,0.0,0.07750318836889494,0.4494872494717063,0.06126709982119186,0.0,0.0,0.11382941920023422,0.1184002234553021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05201286479017915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07716248256056271,0.0,0.0,0.07677826619381213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.219041863749938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06987714020630502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0862786398598259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12834540479313025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.261310485510868,0.0,0.0,0.05771208329526084,0.1233895331550654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10198853736036316,0.0,0.07541384865240369,0.0,0.08951582465069857,0.0,0.0,0.07334507538945978,0.08528040069253542,0.05211330028867442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06629383051270361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07115496642574494,0.0,0.0,0.08826733060667744,0.0,0.0,0.05588037019204955,0.0,0.0,0.1090526436618885,0.0,0.0,0.14828792964369722 alcoholism,machinist-girl,2019/07/24,"Coworker gave me homemade moonshine... I haven't had a drink since Sunday and if I can make it through today without a drink it will be the longest stretch of time I've been sober in over a year! It's been rough but I'm excited to hit the 3 day mark. Today though, a coworker brought in a Mason jar of homemade moonshine for me. It was super nice of him and I didn't want to be rude and reject his gift. My coworkers don't know that I'm an alcoholic and quitting drinking. I know that if I have the moonshine in the house it will be an issue... I don't want it to go to waste and it's calling my name. Just wanted to vent and hoping to stay strong! I might go directly to my dad's house after work and give it to him, I think he would appreciate it and I wouldn't have a chance to drink it.",1.616616541353384,2.9236781345029246,3.3887761069340026,92.5217105263158,77.59649122807018,6.523141186299082,23.910192147034248,7.1686216300943375,0.7226086883876359,615,20,144,7,14,206,91,171,0.091,0.747,0.161,0.9456,0,0,5,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,4,2,7,1,0,12,0,19,5,0,1,0,25,35,12,0,8,5,1,1,0,0,5,1,0,0,0,12,8,5,0,3,4,0,3,6,2,0,0,7,1,17,5,20,19,0,16,0,1,0,0,9,5,0,4,7,93,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16089450867798286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15373062199463433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09709370973747083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5899353340433914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14442338217547462,0.17112456173678078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1495322978944497,0.0,0.3474340348413018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15713737500600805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16547909619805168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10049475801344873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597120854122532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16013078929680774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.124538329972912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16046860633732254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0964677663671264,0.1479167654171541,0.0,0.08778819455966362,0.0,0.285411751082657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2663987526546453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.145126941770772,0.0,0.1096037897126693,0.0,0.0,0.10694795849105572,0.0,0.0,0.0969506763689222 alcoholism,dietyofgallows,2019/07/24,"Over and over again New here, but alcoholic since 16, 21 now. I work in the entertainment industry so drinking isnt frowned upon, almost encouraged, unless you get blackout drunk like me and pass out on the job. I wasnt always like this(at work, anyways) but I've had alot of personal life stuff happen and I feel like I've let myself spiral out of control again. It's been 6 days since my last drink, but I think the only reason that is is due to being terribly sick with strep for the past week. I've been good about drinking in moderation, the last time I binged was over 8 months ago, but when things get tough I tend to just go overboard. I'm hoping this week of not being able to drink jump starts a lifestyle of sobriety again. I'm tired of letting drinking control my life, I'm tired of waking up and thinking of all those regrettable choices I made, or just trying to remember everything. Its time I stop making excuses, and work and stick to sobriety. It's hard, but not as hard as waking up the next morning not knowing what happened the last day, or last couple days. I'm at a good position in my job, I do good, and I think that's why my managers let it slide as much as they do, but I'd like to see better for myself because I know I can be better. I guess I just needed to get this off my chest. Thanks for the listen.",5.2356872693726935,5.168965435424358,5.820053044280447,83.503216097786,68.07749077490774,8.841420664206643,29.114621771217713,8.472884824447931,1.9054739852398528,1047,33,218,14,16,340,149,271,0.109,0.7340000000000001,0.157,0.9429,2,0,6,0,0,0,30.0,0,1,1,7,12,15,0,0,11,0,17,15,3,5,1,44,43,22,0,2,15,0,3,4,0,0,6,1,0,1,12,10,7,3,8,7,0,4,5,2,0,0,6,5,24,13,38,31,3,42,0,0,1,0,6,14,0,6,28,133,36,6,0.08832122686212644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07829143861538553,0.09438853131535446,0.08844095072763207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07349033601525617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05383980012716258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15622589562236042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1981195320644601,0.0,0.09772575762635977,0.0,0.17087965407982808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4326058904132176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07937742371809542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0446578660574298,0.0630967021177187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13843258713376227,0.0,0.05019498858921822,0.22223896415917666,0.0,0.0,0.0972957888117937,0.0,0.1562043384576948,0.0,0.15823694242308345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08772290675696992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1752903789435749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09707807296759367,0.28797435187900955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2709433152381673,0.12476778900341873,0.17259716066937925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08357168037486958,0.05895510475603569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07049716064769418,0.0,0.06492626411427327,0.06548907060406478,0.0,0.08530119126784168,0.09393062675034423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0671722729355555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08431260479502918,0.0,0.07711868858747824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09080893109382772,0.0,0.0,0.10005073284058506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0703805828213248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1461204630934521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06251421895987297,0.0,0.0,0.07384050041948455,0.0,0.0,0.10110667408874216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0813143193635861,0.0,0.0,0.058676698615575264,0.16977802775524714,0.0,0.0,0.10300163528759562,0.2030245154013564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059964315481789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14169192146903864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07969616975501928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19289671516908935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,throwawaykid6103,2019/07/24,Newbie Child of addicts. Married to an alcoholic. Found out 3 years ago... I'm an alcoholic too. Been fighting for my life for about 18 months. Haven't made it past 60. What works for you?,-0.3290347490347472,1.6442618108108142,0.8227799227799224,98.57810810810813,106.56756756756758,4.276447876447877,18.7992277992278,6.1826913282559595,0.06769034749034697,145,5,31,2,7,45,33,37,0.07,0.93,0.0,-0.3612,0,0,2,0,2,0,9.0,0,1,0,1,2,1,1,0,2,0,2,4,0,1,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,2,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,2,0,7,2,0,5,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,16,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3196354362262539,0.0,0.0,0.25990749057746554,0.6266914172821271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3214828487106409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20709852519177374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27743653857582673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340324873424657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2798962175670032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21345586893831733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18881364342179988 alcoholism,rummatumtum,2019/07/24,Ahh crap Ran out of weed today so figured I'd stop at the liquor store (sober June 3rd mostly). Kinda sad but we'll see where it goes from here.,-0.5382258064516137,1.6248150967741957,0.7550806451612893,103.45262096774192,91.58064516129032,3.1,10.975806451612904,3.1291,-2.008877419354839,112,1,27,0,4,35,31,31,0.17300000000000001,0.8270000000000001,0.0,-0.5323,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,1,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,6,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,1,1,1,1,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,4,1,1,7,0,1,1,0,1,3,1,2,3,12,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5333303863835629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5595489699120119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6344002279557962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,thatdarnnumber117,2019/10/21,"How to handle cravings? I don't want to drink, but my body and mind craves it. I'm almost two days without a drink and I'm fine with it, but the cravings are eating away at me.",-0.13038461538461732,1.6686989743589784,1.827884615384616,99.3233653846154,84.8974358974359,3.9,17.442307692307693,3.1291,-1.0140307692307693,136,3,33,0,4,45,30,39,0.031,0.9059999999999999,0.062,0.2707,0,0,2,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,2,4,1,1,0,10,5,5,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,3,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,6,5,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,21,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.293103411462956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27500751692188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32513108316401684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18877156320437047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5734821313243414,0.0,0.2995119597468211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29555025794665085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2859318484052117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17264595585126175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2821587488542067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,alaWife,2019/10/21,"Book Recommendations Does anyone have any good recommendations for books or sites that accurately explain how the alcoholic brain works or their thought process in terms of behavior and denial, from the alcoholic's point of view?",21.51108108108108,13.911199027027026,17.018378378378376,38.950270270270266,45.21621621621621,21.28648648648649,61.32432432432432,17.122413403193686,9.129508108108107,192,9,28,6,1,57,32,37,0.0,0.9229999999999999,0.077,0.4404,0,0,2,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,1,3,1,1,0,6,3,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,5,2,1,4,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,2,1,14,2,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6663357112482114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21200190882549627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2179841013931525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3480181021188627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27281609383288097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2614826119699375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2947062103033166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2474960996493278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22695901735173665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,comradquestion3816,2019/10/21,"Two weeks off alcohol It's nice waking up with energy again and seeing through my own rationalizations when I was drinking. ""It's not a problem, I only drink for a few hours after work, never during the day"". That mindset really just became only existing between my next drink and feeling like I was only living when I was drinking. I'm not sure if I'm going to allow myself to drink socially yet but I feel great and just wanted to get that off my chest, losing 6 pounds so far has been a huge plus too. I think I'm going to drop some money on a bike today, I deserve it.",5.042527472527475,5.043828393162396,6.661904761904763,77.07000000000002,68.48717948717949,8.736996336996338,26.970695970695967,8.418075326091056,1.838602930402931,450,12,86,6,7,156,80,117,0.066,0.7759999999999999,0.158,0.8224,0,0,6,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,8,6,0,0,5,0,5,8,2,1,2,20,16,9,0,3,6,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,5,6,0,3,6,1,2,3,2,0,1,4,3,11,4,14,12,3,20,0,1,1,0,1,6,0,2,12,60,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1547252104715235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09337077317323596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7091437541471459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14640968830968365,0.10343047379989193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07564129130910133,0.0,0.16456300497217544,0.0,0.0,0.1596198636792733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14257860263435676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07073193013813972,0.0,0.12784291399104944,0.0,0.0,0.16197118047050466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11166284346253996,0.0,0.1539745961838579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3303339057076867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13853438851541913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09274942815319832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11537048345158984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1475844250329298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13645292587127106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09276883081662247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13723399766766922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414284932924103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08539467549787952,0.0,0.1161333483310872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10540116981686642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,nerdyIlluminati,2019/10/21,"Could use some support today I’ve realized I can’t use alcohol in moderation. I had 43 days sober under my belt and I lapsed yesterday. I didn’t have any dangerous behavior and the amount I consumed wasn’t the most I’ve ever had. But still, I feel awful. I lied to my wife when she asked me if I had been drinking. I know she’s fed up and worried about me. I’m trying to be kind to myself today, but I keep replaying my error over and over in my head. I’m nauseated thinking about it. I wasn’t able to focus at work and went home and got in bed. I know it will get better, but today is rough.",1.3515411931818164,2.833189992187503,3.8825568181818175,87.95221590909092,78.765625,7.154545454545455,21.79261363636364,8.00094639256281,0.9403656250000004,461,13,104,8,11,162,80,128,0.09300000000000001,0.84,0.067,-0.2732,0,0,2,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,2,5,4,1,0,2,1,13,4,1,2,1,22,28,11,0,2,4,1,2,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,2,6,3,1,5,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,10,2,21,3,14,15,3,17,0,0,0,0,4,8,0,3,8,67,23,1,0.1835244644863428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19613183918226385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1248029291727588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17157060031309435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16231247488075645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14652935137075504,0.0,0.0,0.11835809699355478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17978410670327444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16600838510177807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09279548353745892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09588395800118092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14678127952862033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18834904737227387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18409000154999253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16312497647524365,0.0,0.19111248825704136,0.2017204922046165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1465628744070086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2082613874358025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11759506644976345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5218792001420138,0.0,0.0,0.1246010645239862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3170124251390297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17012901723177046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13360799591188027,0.18637800217538364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,whatamithinking4,2019/10/21,"One full week with no booze. First time in over 30 years! A week ago today I decided it was time to stop. After 3 days of heavy drinking and waking up with a legendary hangover that lasted 3 days, my 51 year old body said enough and my brain finally agreed. It’s time. I have drank heavily for well over 30 years. The usual weekend binge drinking in College continued into my 20’s and got worse in my 30’s and started to become an even bigger problem in my 40’s. Alcoholism is absolutely a progressive disease. Drinking never put me in jail and I wasn’t stupid enough to drink and drive (much), but man have I pissed off my fair share of family and friends over the years. I have ruined too many parties and events over the years to count. Too soon to look back and laugh at all of the dumb shit I have done drunk over the years, but I could likely write a great book. I truly have done some amazingly stupid and unbelievable things over the years. I’m hoping one day I will be able to laugh vs. being the usual very uncomfortable when my wife, kids or friends start telling one of my drinking stories. “Remember the time you...” 🙄 Maybe I’ll post about some of my legendary exploits here in the future if it will help others realize how stupid drunks can be. Many of the stories here have helped me a lot and I have been reading This Naked Mind which is excellent. I will not be going to AA or rehab at this point as I am confident that I can do this on my own and with the support of friends and family. I wasn’t a morning or day drinker, but man I could pound them back on weekends and week nights. Wine, bourbon, vodka, tequila, coolers and beer. Lots of beer. I loved my high ABV craft IPAs but they really didn’t like me. What a great way to hide your intake from family. “I only had 6 beers. No idea why I am so drunk. Maybe I’m getting the flu”. LOL. 6 tall cans of 8% IPA and maybe a few quick tequila shots on an empty stomach in a couple of hours will do that to you. The benefits of not drinking for only a week have been substantial. First, I obviously feel much better after 3 days of hangover hell. Also, I am already losing weight, looking healthier, eating better and DOING THINGS.... like cleaning the house, getting back to neglected hobbies and spending real time with the family. My daughter wanted to go for ice cream on Saturday night and I drove her. No fucking way I would drive ANYWHERE on a Saturday night previously as I would always be hammered. In any case, thanks for reading my ramblings. I’m glad I found this sub and looking forward to continuing my sober journey.",3.4629579831932773,5.258942231372551,4.1849299719887965,86.68647058823532,73.74509803921569,7.053221288515406,26.064425770308123,7.793537801064563,1.4329131652661062,2038,71,404,28,42,650,265,510,0.132,0.6809999999999999,0.187,0.9898,0,0,15,0,0,0,59.0,0,3,2,7,16,34,8,0,28,1,41,28,6,1,3,62,65,34,0,8,11,2,2,3,3,6,3,1,1,3,15,25,18,2,6,21,1,8,9,12,2,5,14,7,47,22,62,38,12,94,1,3,4,2,21,30,5,9,58,259,62,5,0.0646435187058263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05730257896598556,0.06908426214713345,0.0,0.0,0.07133573035480209,0.05169539855398926,0.053788586047561315,0.0,0.0,0.04395980944067279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14912062703551088,0.0,0.0,0.0713936876272576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11434387819095312,0.0,0.07180437644404762,0.0,0.07216354577091386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10322517919122312,0.07152682390862042,0.0,0.2084486087019267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13230552677275148,0.0,0.3799562297226564,0.0,0.06614645790819712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335880702497982,0.0,0.04269643443765332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24376062524007466,0.0,0.032685705378076815,0.0,0.0,0.0708138149920012,0.0,0.10997148797603803,0.0,0.0708782816667643,0.14983026659082002,0.059761891391753474,0.06754714092190421,0.0,0.07347680278198851,0.0,0.0517013272068672,0.14253941516968413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08665837592324553,0.06829942668816327,0.0,0.0642056000051482,0.06366084448000614,0.0745899413815647,0.0,0.07297466418273771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052693095600757724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09474467390823757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1628528244800457,0.07231956226011671,0.0,0.10991521585917736,0.05834329948348399,0.0,0.0,0.13107676353249284,0.19482930965839731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06527152609715592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09504084845474924,0.0,0.04985706677245201,0.0,0.0,0.18199068970009813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0678324986714684,0.0,0.13141236378744453,0.09832861784859284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061109019808781015,0.0,0.06191062180116151,0.0,0.0,0.06185511710357936,0.0,0.06498459095902764,0.0,0.0,0.1293220243201008,0.07357847655453753,0.041412293374850834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07322850519284865,0.0,0.061490789506073076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06635564299920561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09151003051669734,0.0,0.0,0.054044876183229236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07335669896701692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05650128462731487,0.059515066893681925,0.0,0.0,0.08589256284841305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884707780338706,0.0,0.06127449716487698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1423914061738705,0.053337672949258536,0.0381284221885138,0.10262203248112524,0.20741252587549813,0.07871839071836273,0.05812228669103819,0.0,0.05833072097587096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06587726821154354,0.09184180195091876,0.0,0.0,0.2913981463787731 alcoholism,nthat1girl,2019/10/21,"Partner going to rehab treatment Hello all! I am reaching out for some support and to ease my mind. My significant other is getting sent to a rehab center, as she’s in the military, and had an evaluation performed and they suggested a rehab program. She will be gone for 4 weeks. But I am so happy for her, but scared. I am being extremely supportive of her and haven’t shown her otherwise, besides admitting I will miss her, and look forward to being there for her in 4 weeks and along the way. Has anyone experienced this? If so, how successful are these programs? What can I do to be more supportive of her and of me? How can I be of more use and help with the results?",3.3743181818181824,5.208449007575759,5.0915151515151535,79.93227272727273,74.07575757575758,8.133333333333335,28.66666666666667,8.841846274778883,2.453066666666667,527,22,99,11,11,179,83,132,0.040999999999999995,0.7709999999999999,0.188,0.9629,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,1,2,5,7,0,1,6,0,18,3,0,4,1,22,29,16,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,1,4,11,0,0,1,0,0,4,1,2,0,0,3,2,18,5,19,19,4,11,0,1,1,0,15,5,0,2,3,85,22,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15282413684084972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11419000123846113,0.0,0.12421423151535073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23266408139447595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1464979852432142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18353763979009935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2206860436768983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21881941298505134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7440671594593026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18876801695434564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17348491521886214,0.3506356636764041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,LoveMeSomeSand,2019/10/21,"I feel like I’m at the tail end of my alcoholism. I need the motivation to quit completely. Hello- this is my first post admitting my addiction to alcohol. I drank at parties and casually growing up. But when I hit 27, I began drinking liquor (bourbon mostly) on a regular, then a daily basis. Work stressed me heavily, and I just enjoyed getting drunk every day. I drank about half a fifth (750 ml) each day. Sometimes more, sometimes a mix of whatever alcohol I could find. When I didn’t have bourbon, I’d drink gin leftover for a party. If I couldn’t find liquor, I’d go buy the strongest wine I could find. I drank this way for 6 years. Then I quit cold turkey, and had a brief stint of sobriety. While I’ve never gone back to drinking liquor that way, I’ve continued to drink beer in heavy amounts (to get drunk) off an on for the past 5 years. I’ve had brief periods of sobriety, but it seems like I always drift back in when I’m around friends that are drinking. I wish I could just have a couple of beers on Friday, but it doesn’t end there. That means Saturday I’ll drink 3, and then 4 and so on. I’d really appreciate advice from anyone on ways to change my habits for good. I don’t want to drink anymore.",3.19441591784339,4.572937577235777,4.473294822421909,86.05195763799743,73.6341463414634,8.105776636713736,26.768506632434743,8.6894789155246,1.8397186991869925,948,34,200,18,19,313,138,246,0.015,0.835,0.15,0.9794,0,0,13,0,0,0,36.0,0,0,0,5,11,7,0,1,12,0,13,22,0,1,1,30,31,17,0,8,6,0,1,2,1,0,4,0,0,0,7,7,21,0,8,16,1,6,5,1,0,2,8,2,22,6,30,18,4,44,0,0,0,0,3,12,0,3,24,112,29,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1008638482144426,0.0,0.09041251351616117,0.0,0.29663720363577656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.076986640453118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09175806468364503,0.06469431067331319,0.0,0.0,0.0823651850738967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14228912292005838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09787718360272334,0.0,0.09700872184649588,0.0,0.0,0.22161652703818396,0.10237506280862918,0.0,0.11933950505334387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6344619759354648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16389602855143068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07795471173866943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04678246506932734,0.0660985291822028,0.0,0.0,0.2536933425249284,0.07870011118547965,0.0,0.0,0.07148312625794366,0.0,0.09667901378170736,0.0,0.0525830163337978,0.07760399600860034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09040423729266997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1007847922585227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06860471465469076,0.07135952728454148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0883237789207177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08861156485170492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19681943547273215,0.0,0.0,0.05927267427274618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08422956558016964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1830154457225807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1059849113631133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054572528221438224,0.22032161740243728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10639701181203773,0.0,0.0,0.0673579269534946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11916370034411132 alcoholism,MakeupMua16,2019/10/21,"I don’t know if this helped my dad realize his problem or not or if he is just going to go back to his old ways. So my dad had some health problems last week and finally had the nerve to tell someone to take him to the hospital. Come to find out he has some mild liver problems and I’m 99.9% sure it’s due to all the drinking he’s done. (Which I wasn’t too surprised would be why he was in the hospital in the first place) So he’s stayed in the icu then moved to the regular floor doing lots better yesterday and now he said today they might be letting him go home. So from what I understand they had like one more last test or small procedure to do and he might have to stay another night or two. So I guess he didn’t like what the doctor said or didn’t want to do what test or something they were going to do so guess what... he freaking checked himself out of the hospital. So now my mom has to go pick him up. Now idk if she can put him back in if they will even let him if since he checked him self out or if he will even agree to going back if he can or what. I’m just so nervous that this supposed wake up call isn’t going to do squat for him and he will just fall back into the trap and start drinking again. But he hasn’t had a drink in a week almost since he’s been in the hospital and he seemed to take it fine except the first few days obviously if some non drinking side effects he had like shaking etc. so yeah. Anyone else ever been in a similar situation like this? How did it work out for you? Did it end up being that wake up call for them or did they just not care and fall back into their old ways again?",2.6202000000000005,3.3708794771428607,3.7602857142857142,93.03871428571428,74.22857142857143,7.2,23.142857142857146,7.404127859558343,0.5853999999999999,1267,32,304,14,25,412,160,350,0.06,0.868,0.07200000000000001,0.4703,0,0,5,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,7,5,27,15,0,2,15,1,41,9,3,3,4,66,63,36,0,13,25,3,0,4,0,6,2,2,1,1,15,15,4,0,6,4,2,13,8,6,0,4,18,2,26,9,39,34,8,66,0,0,0,0,46,21,0,27,32,204,41,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08423552192777102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08820871801761752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05881970244009066,0.08619240856321538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3234211704056285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07439862274270775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17179489534661832,0.0,0.08576746649373451,0.0,0.0,0.07246321588395056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054251402507647206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0861019105870933,0.0,0.08608549166666242,0.0,0.32962814323614104,0.0,0.0,0.07027271150944472,0.0,0.07450667245832827,0.0,0.09381769899413228,0.11112290289405466,0.07609270466972362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09215098158142827,0.07688551879881543,0.14310739456851507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33465727347220703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1853386125885456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08941721125116046,0.0,0.0,0.05638486222272807,0.0,0.08438071433563092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04623097149504397,0.1371404854468678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1720398479373718,0.0,0.1643900454780398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0715170834483488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17847921671679615,0.0,0.09852207358159212,0.0,0.08940783210147235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07894232077191672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17654270812560538,0.0,0.05700289939336752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08788905376446132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24147871813880714,0.0,0.0845653329822497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16003760316660465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07658104603821653,0.08775706134460283,0.0,0.0,0.13917233331096385,0.09455608045367392,0.0,0.0,0.07127586635283377,0.06476083358790127,0.0,0.0,0.059541624311673085,0.17932463340387853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07928350974510745,0.0,0.1264977843897788,0.0,0.0735258909523071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07973733741487676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08217447339137976,0.08757343885080253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049617034913590416,0.1335434480699154,0.13495437192495202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07590656138051705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0612414473413696,0.0,0.0,0.05975749365388855,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,proaxiom,2019/10/21,"I think I moved the goalposts? So I'm using an old account, I don't feel comfortable attaching this to my main. I'm not really sure what I hope to gain by posting this but I guess I want to talk to people who have more experience than me? I'm 28, I'm going to try to be honest and I don't feel big or clever. I think I'm slightly above average intelligence, but I've struggled to achieve much since high school. I worked for a supermarket chain for 7 years, started in my 2nd last year of high school and continued on while I went to uni. While at this course, 2 of my closest friends died in a car crash at age 18. I think it may have changed how I felt about life, I decided I didn't want to spend my life in an office. Anyway year 2 of my course was essentially dropped, I had the chance to move to a hybrid, but instead I chose to leave. I got more hours at the supermarket and I was making more money than I ever had before. This was still obviously pretty meager, but a lot of money for a teenager. I regret this decision deeply. I also met my (now) wife during this period. We moved in together after a year. I ended up going back to college. I did a HNC (basically year 1 of uni) in business management and got an A. I was still working at the supermarket part time, and it was around this time I started using cannabis. I began year 2, but I quit as soon as it started to get difficult. I think this was partly down to my cannabis use. I found an alternative way to supplement my income, I worked part time at the supermarket for another 2-3 years. I got through it without getting into debt. Eventually I got into fitness, I lost about 46lbs in 6 months, quit the cannabis and alcohol, I stopped eating anything refined or premade. I felt like a king. I joined the police. I did well at first, passed all my exams. But I couldn't keep up with the fitness. I started drinking again, probably most nights. Even during training I'd come home at weekends and drink 3 litres of lager a night. I lost my job before my 2 year probation was up, I got to 8.8 instead of 9.2 on a bleep test. 6 months later they lowered the pass mark to 5.4, a jog. It was such a kick in the teeth. I struggled to get employment, worked as a temp doing horrible manual labour, then was unemployed for 3 months. I got a job in a call centre and I ended up off sick for months with anxiety. At some point I was back on the cannabis, and I don't think I ever really stopped drinking. When I was thrown out of the police I got my pension contributions back which along with the temp job allowed me to continue my lifestyle and begin to pay down debt. I'm still paying down debt, and that was over 3 years ago. I now have a stable job, I work 37.5 hours a week, 4 on 4 off, minimum wage. I can pay all my bills and in 18 months my debt should be gone. When I'm not working, I can't be at home at night sober. I don't touch alcohol when I'm working, even though I have access to a bar and nobody would know if I did sneak some. I just can't be not busy and not drink. It's like an itch, it dominates my thoughts when I know I don't have responsibilities. I'm on medication for depression complicated by anxiety. I don't need alcohol to fall asleep. Thank you for reading this, I think it's been therapeutic just to write it all out. Sorry if it's unusual, I'm new here. Do you think I am unable to be happy because of my drug and alcohol use? Is there something else underlying? Am I just unfulfilled with a crutch to lean on?",2.9480378787878787,4.200825758333334,4.576843434343433,85.5652272727273,74.05555555555556,7.9585858585858595,26.146464646464647,8.52124585384065,1.6489388888888894,2726,94,589,49,55,919,313,720,0.095,0.805,0.1,0.6615,16,0,10,0,0,1,89.0,1,2,1,15,35,18,0,2,38,0,47,18,3,7,7,94,108,39,1,10,18,1,5,2,1,3,10,0,2,0,23,27,10,3,17,8,13,13,15,7,1,1,36,5,86,11,101,63,15,128,0,4,0,0,11,48,0,11,66,375,109,27,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04774305494860012,0.23023701782999564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04307129449126432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05647621374732174,0.0824044948867373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044321647451731484,0.04794623116723206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12424352304897435,0.0,0.0328321535707179,0.0,0.09166066229678993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05499640765868848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0569760398984528,0.046395052111095715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04638897035414938,0.0,0.055897491305134314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21104659372579213,0.062459734831763626,0.05511155050178298,0.044992567231490865,0.0,0.09540677733277617,0.0,0.0,0.07114717181145372,0.0974377125100227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0526847690138466,0.0,0.0,0.05446580087872093,0.0,0.10342682474953273,0.0,0.0,0.0458127268262733,0.0,0.059053986004493325,0.04161159224063958,0.0,0.08441784607730114,0.0,0.061219007869615476,0.0,0.3015336386609685,0.0,0.059332134824202916,0.0,0.0,0.05733426861037672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11381069893089693,0.10805061826244874,0.053494476939217966,0.10608120091374476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21378833603957847,0.04787265580366388,0.0,0.0,0.059199369100432185,0.04390255035767476,0.0,0.05702926405699836,0.0,0.0,0.07608488886593227,0.05262590566442333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.117587663189179,0.04578928457623994,0.0,0.0,0.035951527467714135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05425761844777716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21495005546249654,0.1717318633552381,0.03959281180721486,0.03993601793093352,0.0,0.0520176858914085,0.0,0.15163002530205544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05651631688854933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17497324898985686,0.0,0.037339284617752884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05091448488413677,0.0,0.0515823593264345,0.05479431124688531,0.05806947765166879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11457207487500007,0.05387391479224482,0.0,0.06900734430527725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1090170543584245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04455300235864256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041463551022638816,0.0,0.06029112125388885,0.15248767138038052,0.0,0.12903641474818228,0.09005763928488572,0.0,0.11261095192077032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050761790258739024,0.0,0.0,0.04329009708730965,0.0,0.04958644375607114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2415762308998101,0.05291652778663924,0.04275829956725107,0.09421744229575872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036566956229613125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18606870685395896,0.0,0.0,0.06353526799309317,0.04275103690002936,0.04320271355404404,0.0,0.04842601462799274,0.04992814748628138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05191848148615895,0.0,0.2744716852918127,0.0,0.0,0.03826012961584118,0.0,0.0,0.3121528402130078 alcoholism,ChickenWithATopHat,2019/10/21,"I’m fucking done. Sick of all the money I spend and shit that I fuck up because of my binge drinking problem. I’m gonna start with a little background. I’m a college student and I binge drink HEAVY on the regular. I’m 6’5” 260 pounds so I’m a big guy and I can usually drink about double what the average guy can. My biggest problem is that I break shit all the time when I’m drunk. Car windows, normal windows, electronics, basically anything. I’m not coordinated when I’m sober so when I get drunk I’m this giant lumbering drunk that’s constantly falling and breaking shit. But last night I went out and got blackout drunk at some lame party and ended up breaking their glass door and going home early. Uber took me home and right when I got to my bedroom I fell on my TV and destroyed it. As I got into bed I fell onto my side table and shattered my lamp. So now I have to pay to get that dude’s door fixed and I have to buy a new TV and lamp, all because I decided that I needed to drink 4 cans of 4loko! And to top it all off when I woke up I threw up all over myself and my work clothes, so I had to call in and take unpaid time off because I threw up all over my only clean clothes. And I’m fucking done. I’m sick of it. It’s not even fun anymore, I drink like a fish at parties because I get bored and I end up fucking myself over. It’s not worth the money and the relationships I keep ruining.",0.5066241638796001,2.5855630100334466,2.616604306020065,92.94507368311041,84.45150501672241,5.209071906354517,22.387228260869566,6.4784943948869325,0.4223920568561872,1096,39,244,11,32,369,143,299,0.192,0.7659999999999999,0.042,-0.9911,0,0,5,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,1,2,12,15,8,0,11,0,9,18,3,0,6,38,41,29,0,4,4,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,9,2,12,21,9,1,1,11,6,9,3,13,0,0,11,0,35,2,33,29,8,55,0,2,0,4,5,26,7,1,18,141,47,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09936269234335288,0.0,0.0,0.08244877439019888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24430236492851584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1023063597141958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10827103273627436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2050606511643673,0.0,0.4907458880806455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1774792299445245,0.0,0.0,0.06617530545961353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3705003914056009,0.1570372119699271,0.0,0.056940935845521574,0.0,0.2403960306506036,0.0,0.0,0.1984099684972308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20099977234700264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08905449198643745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0816691544134572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048948331940179515,0.1004178471011805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07429046350355918,0.0,0.09676523087350676,0.0,0.09402260118695804,0.0981660481888682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07619987953623923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19173878673858205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10756779279776088,0.0,0.08556268924712344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3085343075324143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07091580716070958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07533127108764373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11684452316330612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1113160471120926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1103463898389366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09287819394123563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0729403458523364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,hann89,2019/10/21,"I’m (21F) starting to think my boyfriend (22M) is an alcoholic We’ve been dating for 5 years. We’re currently in a long distance relationship. I truly can’t remember the last time I’ve talked to my boyfriend while he’s sober. He’s still in college while i work in a different city. I understand that drinking a lot can be the norm in college, but this has gotten out of control. I don’t feel close to him anymore. He never asks how I’m doing or cares to see what I’m up to because he drinks every night with his friends to the point they get black out drunk. Last week, he chugged a four Loko before he went to class because he said “it was just sitting in his fridge.” He has done things drunk that are super embarrassing. Such as picking fights with people and even doing something’s that could have gotten him arrested that I can’t really go into detail about. I’m too afraid to tell him my opinion on his drinking because I already know he will think that I’m “being controlling.” I truly just want him to get the proper help he needs before this gets even worse. Is there any advice you guys have here? Do you think this is just normal college guy behavior or something more?",5.678910411622276,5.764105389830513,5.8342857142857145,83.25805084745768,67.13559322033899,8.607263922518161,30.41646489104116,8.192908349453996,1.9991498789346247,936,32,188,11,14,297,144,236,0.08900000000000001,0.81,0.102,0.4956,2,0,6,0,1,0,20.0,0,2,1,4,12,6,1,2,9,0,22,6,0,4,1,31,47,8,0,4,6,0,1,0,1,1,1,1,0,2,11,7,6,2,7,5,0,2,4,3,0,1,7,4,20,3,25,36,2,29,0,0,2,0,30,12,0,4,14,108,31,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11907813166958392,0.0,0.13022903806460456,0.0,0.0,0.1344732252326352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08286755216071573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12085029475695527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11392068892076924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22285033835494295,0.0,0.2073841989751548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12424225266515918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27334799814145544,0.09729361921452624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1273155716346554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12470294207927025,0.0,0.3581230570144304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16097199022729272,0.0,0.10267053826594988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061615016757136175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09414711293448756,0.0,0.19099717315224032,0.0,0.0692546540193313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413169632395998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08167878316981797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06696991617284886,0.1986609088512256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10784040877537276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10359923074461018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0903560904027432,0.09398432645442382,0.0,0.0,0.11435538630530742,0.11939487124358128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0844809260234768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11519510550491753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0780652924796389,0.0,0.0,0.13082978288313393,0.13804124837959614,0.0,0.11591477014191795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09710497103323787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18762433305692047,0.0,0.0,0.08625165035468642,0.0,0.09731587808275746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09794476586847443,0.10650917760051606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08095697550354859,0.2342448699111697,0.0,0.0,0.0710563227102716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12685837370809014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07187494792889396,0.0,0.09774705876494916,0.0,0.0,0.11296349615311993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08871400409993828,0.0,0.12418361292245846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0784724937288383 alcoholism,might-gffrfgvhh,2019/10/21,I’m good I’m so good at hiding my alcoholism that no one has noticed. It’s been 16 years. Having my 3rd pint of vodka for the day as we speak. When does it end? I just wanna die...,-2.3899186991869925,-0.6267538536585349,0.8896341463414643,100.8552642276423,99.73170731707316,3.7089430894308943,11.711382113821138,5.46131890053228,-1.4192959349593497,136,2,35,1,6,48,35,41,0.107,0.759,0.133,0.2815,0,0,2,0,0,1,7.0,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,3,5,3,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,4,2,5,4,0,5,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,21,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35292373330403504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21297603505827836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34273465665376945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2889932888650435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29249263525166624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5539755294678776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3759778781136601,0.0,0.0,0.223777652530072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2126622899166324 alcoholism,ConRS42,2019/10/21,"Be brave enough to admit to yourself. I have always struggled with substance abuse... namely alcohol and weed... Ever since high school I've found drinking and drugs to be an easy way out from my emotions and stress. Recently I was doing well I thought. I'd quit smoking weed and cigarettes, no easy feat for me. However at the same time my drinking had ramped up to compensate for the lack of my other habits. Somewhere inside me knew I had a problem. I was getting black out drunk too much and the weekends were always a mess. But I ignored my heart and as always learned the hard way. Two weeks ago now I got blind drunk again and thought that my need for a bit of Kentucky fry was greater than the risk of driving drunk and killing someone or myself. Well, thankfully no one was hurt but me. The cops got me and took me back to the station where I blew 1.17, the night was young were it any later I would have been slapped with a DUI for sure. Learn from my lesson, don't drink and drive. Thankfully no one was hurt and this isn't another horror story of someone losing their life because of one reckless moment.",4.074518839793985,5.752951626728112,3.96150718351857,89.395874220656,71.90322580645163,6.580536730821363,27.972079154242344,7.048011613610866,1.3229915424234218,881,33,174,8,17,268,135,217,0.18,0.7140000000000001,0.105,-0.9145,1,0,6,0,1,0,24.0,0,0,1,3,8,16,1,3,13,0,19,11,1,0,2,35,31,15,1,4,3,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,4,15,7,1,8,7,0,3,5,10,2,4,18,3,22,6,24,10,6,24,0,3,2,0,3,6,0,1,13,116,26,3,0.0,0.13804362685089755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10327783480507352,0.1245122495777591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29083343914674586,0.0,0.0,0.07922983606324724,0.1221694145900678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08958791362685628,0.0,0.0710225547238642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12719720419918704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34240218707912184,0.1351129747115758,0.0,0.0,0.13105648148311494,0.0,0.12038451759192935,0.0,0.0,0.1053886893834957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12774565468672452,0.0,0.0,0.06087092926330965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18636512446127204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10436881151152844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380632394434153,0.0,0.12309772149990765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24944970934894825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12889949202240958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0822934622838639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13034330983094353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0856472188823308,0.08638964278854429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10933541867324496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368477063945091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11148298525732983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12392122618623636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1150381763627318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11791291260149254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09637710914435008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19743469948143813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13346019555244745,0.12180007440073128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1098079667167498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21453091145189665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1849896117459021,0.06793709543481449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12944532976545134,0.0,0.0,0.1138119625144862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18495819052468465,0.09345616275223917,0.0,0.20951042803617465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0827643591374625,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,hybridiostros,2019/10/21,"Experience as a Lyft driver I’ve dealt with alcoholism in my past. I still drink, but a much more aware of how much I have drank. And I recently decided as a way to occupy my time, is to drive for Lyft. It’s mainly to supplement a lot of other expenses I have to deal with. And I on the whole I love driving. I am love just zoning out and taking people to where they need to go. Some people like to talk which I am all for. I am more than willing to have an honest conversation with someone. But there are some people who are harder to tolerate. I did not realize how strong it was, but when somebody comes into your vehicle, who is even had one or two drinks, it is something that is very hard to ignore. I can smell it on you, and though I know that you were out here to have fun, having fun at two in the afternoon on a Thursday, it’s not reasonable. I have been in that place. I would never want anyone to be in a place where they have to pay to get home safely. Especially on a workday. And on the flipside, I have absolutely no issues with taking people to AA meetings or to methadone clinics, because those are the people who are looking for help. Those are the people I respect And it’s interesting that people say that you can smell it on someone when they have had a few drinks, But when you were the one who has had a few, you do not realize how much you smell like alcohol. So I just want to make sure that those who read this post know that even if it is only one or two drinks, others can smell it on you. And others will make their first impressions based off of that smell. I am very happy that you are asking for a ride home instead of driving yourself. But I really do hope that the next time I see you you are going towards someone who will help you avoid seeing me another time.",4.221637148047228,4.742346498637605,5.228245912806539,84.81477577202546,70.38964577656675,8.405495004541327,25.91836966394187,8.472884824447931,1.5120663941871018,1403,39,298,21,24,462,169,367,0.05,0.784,0.166,0.9949,0,1,8,0,0,0,33.0,0,12,4,2,18,17,0,1,18,0,44,10,0,6,3,54,65,26,0,6,14,0,1,2,0,4,3,1,2,0,33,15,7,3,6,5,2,7,5,2,1,7,9,10,39,15,49,51,13,44,0,0,3,2,32,21,0,8,16,242,72,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18979367668087474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09311124990364332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06208882904367082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08301307727376801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05412974158776506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07649063215774889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09154566345822976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34794846937923163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11729897694828867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08686036772421964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0755305636346907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04639269432141326,0.0,0.10093060356531412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09452590849145877,0.0795445449534488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1190373268128522,0.0,0.1781409809852053,0.08819531764358794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09268085154497503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09760086388067693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08676332084953296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0745669982214503,0.0,0.0,0.07549191484688553,0.1602852657683523,0.0,0.11854518695041864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19582772728338202,0.06584174644497788,0.06848561247650363,0.0,0.09443646783911086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1805131509650106,0.06753401326298841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08476665031012642,0.4309239344151696,0.0,0.185547638210161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08504284602632267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0888208895509781,0.0,0.05688554219961441,0.09129796103180868,0.08767618657837567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07061482700534928,0.0,0.0,0.14151920147982106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257118736070474,0.06836016094199439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07091328698746761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08368998955001512,0.0,0.1335283754177387,0.07137155238988772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08724246396578791,0.0,0.15533448920871598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602248881833951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14653341788730184,0.10474937718501706,0.07048281420294898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09913852291457707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06307874153789772,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ghostman1010,2019/10/21,"Reason to quit? I can’t seem to find good one. So i am having thoughts about quitting since i am binge drinker, like i can’t sleep if i am not wasted but i don’t see the reason as to why i should do it. Alcohol helps me numb my emotions and plus it feels good. Only upside i see right now is i wouldn’t waste $10 a day on vodka and make fool of myself in other peoples eyes but besides that i don’t see really the point. I would appreciate if someone can give me other perspective.",1.4215277777777793,2.9532181826923107,3.4397435897435926,90.98303418803421,78.71153846153845,6.160683760683763,21.170940170940174,6.937597516519254,0.37583888888888906,377,10,85,4,9,128,71,104,0.102,0.741,0.157,0.5667,0,0,3,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,3,5,0,0,3,0,14,4,2,3,0,18,22,9,0,5,5,0,1,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,5,3,1,0,6,1,0,0,6,2,0,1,1,5,15,3,9,18,0,6,0,0,4,0,2,4,0,3,3,56,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1889679240399085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11403494697972895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1988998778981394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08940603400989694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16161123315652526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1696228599519405,0.0,0.2966182092442949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11851942026976675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08638583176463067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1180294216050708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11981851730187455,0.13448037375711533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12258544982652728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16715304259579686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37614189666164216,0.0,0.0,0.11327609017681213,0.3636029706988832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15100420761354086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4227104429889915,0.1609712398382553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1462681969182625,0.0,0.17694874458767085,0.0,0.1498198989295059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14037615985221094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15955349175020248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256085982201495,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Dana213Scully,2018/11/03,"Long term success? Is there hope for long term success with quitting drinking? I’m psychically dependent on alcohol and I’ve been through AA, treatment, etc. The last few years have been extremely difficult for me. I haven’t been able to stop and I’ve been kicked out of a few programs for chronic relapsing and losing my job. Not an excuse, but my father was dying from cancer and I just turned to alcohol to cope. He’s dead now, I’m all right with it, I just have to get off the alcohol. I’m worried I’m gonna put my body through too much and I won’t be able to get well. For reference I’m a 27 year old woman who’s been drinking heavily since 14, physically dependent for around two and a half years. 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She has a habit of getting drunk and using me as a therapist. I told her about a month ago to stop calling me when she is drunk because all she is doing is hurting me. She is now doing it again but instead of using me as a therapist, she is being very accusatory with me. What should I do? 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Hopefully im sharing this in the right sub so that i can help someone going thru bad times. I wish the best of luck to everyone having mental issues related to addiction",6.325308219178082,5.835604989726027,7.045308219178088,77.05645547945207,65.88356164383562,9.765753424657532,35.71575342465753,9.188382445141503,3.1708178082191782,1155,51,220,18,16,384,150,292,0.171,0.664,0.165,-0.1975,0,2,5,0,1,0,20.0,0,0,0,3,11,22,2,1,15,0,30,7,1,3,1,45,54,15,0,9,7,0,3,2,2,1,3,0,0,1,23,14,3,3,7,2,0,5,4,12,0,0,7,4,29,10,33,45,4,39,0,2,1,1,8,13,1,5,23,156,52,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09549117778850767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09361211987750201,0.0,0.09072171608094952,0.0,0.07004946852069817,0.07288582679513457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06700972351438486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07208299366496268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0731379350638193,0.05339693025676743,0.09674148984070872,0.0,0.0,0.09192525786593042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07545509789661656,0.0918414007483129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07544520676502196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10266036325522952,0.17161896221384607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07380233225151972,0.08370051183658066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0885810479850424,0.06257768777845228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13535093176027027,0.08097991014445846,0.13729388264790618,0.0,0.09956419966668903,0.07347029794263582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1549194489342469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08989745711323059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058712896564193075,0.0,0.0,0.08700132472556586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3784693296776506,0.09142613322956344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19762132632422572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08558871438054713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09799608943298853,0.0,0.07446990127401804,0.0,0.0,0.058470157940840026,0.0,0.0,0.0954163328715664,0.0,0.0,0.08827487851803052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06991727238054736,0.0,0.0,0.06495037736705014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08220171392297225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1865710429169394,0.0,0.13323946837309444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4190816010312892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14961083005960962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0797429462017398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07245926023554515,0.0984601389866351,0.0,0.08929178927035647,0.14843744947594575,0.13486939486835198,0.0,0.0,0.18599998785132255,0.0,0.0,0.1464662217063032,0.0,0.0,0.10027500124552936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17458212565461587,0.05612716172649621,0.0,0.0,0.10215437506815636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09118919607726383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07227482032708031,0.051665637262643366,0.0,0.1405264066872448,0.0,0.0,0.08120118600908062,0.0,0.09779638029946083,0.10072960878419517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Al42non,2018/11/03,"Poll: How many here have been hit by cars as pedestrians? I'm in al-anon. I heard a fishy story, the same one I've heard occasionally multiple times over the years before. I can barely guess what might be the truth behind it. The results are the same whether it's truthful or not. I'm just wondering what might be going on, or is this just something that happens to alcoholics?",2.8866602316602297,5.158175581081082,3.681505791505792,87.49689189189192,76.97297297297297,6.93127413127413,24.08494208494209,7.957251820313856,1.3013266409266415,299,10,60,5,7,95,57,74,0.0,0.919,0.081,0.6868,0,0,2,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,6,0,9,1,0,2,2,16,18,5,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,6,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,3,2,2,2,7,10,2,7,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,6,2,41,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2999219106447651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2388064371761181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15949582722261868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3091597937955809,0.0,0.2481715892194007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2845278514813561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5954355335491669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19017089181871746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.216052615031854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16364513158795999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30434525311867383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1807248260601977 alcoholism,tashabanana,2018/11/03,"May I have some advice? Hey ya'll, So my father is a recovering alcoholic. He has maintained sobriety very well over 10 years, but will relapse for around a week every few years or so (usually triggered by emotional pain or severe physical pain). Right now, his father (my grandfather of course), is terminally ill. My dad is taking it very, very hard. He ended up drinking and is now (hopefully) detoxing himself right now. I am terrible with consoling people. My dad lives alone (55 y/o) across the country from me, so I can only talk on the phone. I talked to him today and he said he's sad about his dad and he doesnt know how to cope. To summarize; I told him that I can't even imagine what he is feeling, this is a very difficult situation, and that if he needs me he should call anytime. Is there anything else I should be saying or doing? Like I said, I'm bad with consoling. My dad is one of those emotional tough guys, so he doesnt really like to talk about his feelings. I'm his only child (25 y/o woman) so I dont really know anyone to ask. I hope that my words are making sense here... Thanks for your time. Concerned Daughter",2.6791333333333363,4.644364146666668,4.21616666666667,84.87225000000002,76.42222222222222,7.7,24.583333333333336,8.548686976883017,1.7109333333333332,883,30,177,18,20,294,140,225,0.159,0.7659999999999999,0.075,-0.9724,0,1,2,0,0,0,41.0,0,1,0,0,16,13,0,0,5,0,23,6,0,3,0,28,39,15,0,6,5,7,3,2,0,4,5,3,0,3,7,7,2,0,5,1,0,0,4,7,1,1,3,6,26,6,20,31,2,17,0,1,0,0,38,7,0,8,12,106,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11501712074794315,0.0,0.12578773941068708,0.0,0.12190386881756125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08230003849066031,0.0,0.09685879173482603,0.10477981496861824,0.11003556614111568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09827632927106136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12018699443376388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379459736394539,0.1153032391806566,0.0,0.0,0.09832499353360304,0.26479801942032016,0.10424911648230342,0.0,0.0,0.0777411207978266,0.0,0.09916908782007207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11902742716700256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11654357483736705,0.0,0.0,0.10543795417346867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23380946777585304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12937198168855185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11500659225625982,0.0,0.10393310244401742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07856705947892655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0872746088173546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07975798277680224,0.17903548759353788,0.2504866461267466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08159980957966463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15080594640615425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20103388459935545,0.22392328342666606,0.093601426698898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329698598635723,0.0,0.0,0.1323020814120824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08849732396101184,0.2838134459595534,0.0,0.1083642712936278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06863303559170361,0.0,0.11156781938961832,0.11246939162597977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12963222402211988,0.3884662061773024,0.0,0.0,0.09441351743677164,0.0,0.10582831494493887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15159257472474152 alcoholism,motoleo,2018/11/03,"Vague, dull right upper quadrant pain It's really stressful because bloods come back noraal, ultrasound normal but the pain is there. You feel weighed down. It's also coupled with withdrawal symptoms, so your eyes are constantly red, sleep is disturbed and diet is questionable and mood is inconsistent. One thing I learned is that even 1 drink can bring it all back. And so I don't know if it's really pancreatitis, the liver isn't really showing anything. I think if I just stop drinking the vague pain that I don't know what it is will go away.",5.127888349514564,7.018964932038838,5.24095873786408,80.41930218446602,69.58252427184465,8.645145631067964,29.379854368932037,9.188382445141503,2.601098058252428,440,17,79,9,8,138,70,103,0.25,0.74,0.011000000000000001,-0.9746,0,0,2,0,0,0,11.0,0,2,0,0,8,7,0,2,3,0,12,12,4,0,1,18,19,9,0,3,4,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,9,5,4,1,6,3,0,3,3,6,0,1,0,3,7,0,3,18,1,11,0,1,2,0,3,4,0,3,4,50,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1326146983238409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13646448232985228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15580333972035218,0.2550270433002296,0.0,0.10108881547513857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14284840778769056,0.0,0.17920400324871988,0.0,0.0,0.1834884426860117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3249017784326939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10952956995852592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0838489513469687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09424537103198156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822723595133134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16247881242069387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11237112952128796,0.0,0.5293664604212209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1857682625214612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3187060519749356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14161845559522032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1659503951846964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13864183566556915,0.1899584312889277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17236152443674838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11017050481299408,0.10625757450155936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,AN_HONEST_COMMENT,2018/11/03,"I just suffered a 4 day bender I’ve been an alcoholic for nearly a decade. My longest term of sobriety was 13 months in that time. And ever since then, my terms of sobriety range between 2-7 months. My drinking is not a regular thing. I don’t drink socially. I go to the liquor store and buy 1.5L of rum and down it within a 24 hour period. Monday I bought 1.5L and returned Wednesday to buy another. I threw up last night which I haven’t done in over a year. I don’t even remember *anything*, just the few hours in midday where I’m sober enough to go buy more. And I’m not in a good place mentally when I come to. I ruminate on death and the meaninglessness of everything. I usually browse /r/depression on days like today, the first day sober after a bender because I’m afraid of my thoughts and feel overwhelmingly alone. I used to go to AA, but moved and just didn’t get hooked on it in my new state. I don’t know what I expect to gain from this post, but I felt I needed to say something. I’m an addict and it feels fucking endless. It’s like the simplest fucking thing to do, *not* drink and I keep messing up. I used to take pride in just admitting my addiction because my parents live in denial of their alcoholism, but knowing I’m an addict is clearly not enough to fix myself.",2.6634385843164488,4.358926912213743,4.052255378209576,87.22131852879944,75.6793893129771,7.511727966689799,25.64954892435809,8.296473431620573,1.5942534351145032,1009,36,211,18,22,333,148,262,0.038,0.894,0.068,0.882,1,1,6,0,0,0,33.0,0,0,1,3,8,10,2,2,15,0,11,11,0,2,2,37,37,15,1,2,11,1,3,2,0,0,5,2,0,0,10,11,6,1,8,5,5,6,9,6,1,1,8,5,26,4,37,29,6,51,0,2,0,2,5,18,2,0,27,130,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36021251624917405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2354162135422771,0.0,0.11407370602109132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1154932992175564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09063733121097592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342828594446811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09487742325741526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21309708168085068,0.0,0.09486498612453816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127133198485276,0.0,0.3236911495218845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22761188073231906,0.0,0.07274763176641595,0.09962957977621116,0.0,0.0,0.09898836369231194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11138202476096892,0.0,0.1057534174596294,0.0,0.0,0.09368657380240672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20364867117792868,0.057544553771068624,0.0,0.1877883995195076,0.0923817309773106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21693500795403184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09789910821232843,0.0,0.0,0.12106212501419705,0.0897802817936467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10761945722298663,0.0,0.09725724285094103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11099704652994226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758282960216167,0.11706332137403952,0.0,0.0816687621640311,0.0,0.1063756537954212,0.0,0.10336063462591462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12229945406273802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11507475692300055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10548541527038767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12476920850038145,0.0,0.0,0.08758919414103654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09111044971018828,0.0,0.0,0.11227571257839984,0.0,0.08479255224695617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.082812939532625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14634665905637442,0.0,0.0,0.08744030023061927,0.06422457959181058,0.0,0.10440156455996018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19025433372582606,0.12130565139069058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07092771940655311 alcoholism,FrankenweenieForever,2018/11/03,"Do you feel like you have no interest in connecting/communicating with friends/family if not tipsy/drunk? It may sound strange, but often times my family members and friends responded to me better when I had been tipsy while communicating with them. (they weren't aware). Do you ever find that while sober it is hard to find any interest in sharing thoughts with your closest? Is that the definition of alcoholism?",7.4843835616438374,9.15554784931507,7.238246575342469,69.17216438356168,63.65753424657535,11.31945205479452,35.14794520547945,11.20814326018867,4.418174794520548,335,15,55,10,5,106,56,73,0.055,0.706,0.239,0.9545,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,4,2,1,3,6,0,0,1,0,9,1,0,0,1,14,11,6,0,1,3,0,2,1,1,1,1,1,0,0,4,4,1,0,4,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,3,9,6,8,6,0,8,0,0,0,0,9,3,0,3,6,41,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29112538646467656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18524937684176204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24092611467221395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24641208419108326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5136112337477755,0.0,0.13773959964712465,0.1946110563718379,0.0,0.0,0.4979589308478614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.210464693934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2440274807433894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13308665364942754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2162645538656144,0.15884552106976668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Bartobolas,2018/11/03,"Just made 6 Months sober and feeling very fatigued. Hi, I've abused alcohol for about 15 years. Last 5 pretty heavily. I'm 41 yo. During the whole time I've stayed in fairly good shape playing tennis and going to gym regularly with exception of binges which were more common last 5 years. I've had a problem with fatigue, as long as I can remember. Can't remember prior to abusing alcohol but I was a much younger man. I'm not overweight, and I don't smoke. I made 6 moths Oct 20th, but the fatigue hasn't improved. I work part time, somewhat physically, but on a day I have to put in a full 8hrs, I come home and crash... passing out in my armchair in front of TV. And we're not talking about digging ditches for 8hrs. I've had a bunch of blood work done and everything seems to be checking out. My PCP issues the necessary referrals I ask for, but senses everything is probably OK and suggests patience. He knows my history of abuse. Curious if anyone else has gone through this and has any insight on what could help and how long this could last. 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The answer is: Every day you don’t drink makes you a bit further from dead or in horrible pain in comparsion if you would drink now. You ask yourself: Wouldn‘t I feel empty? You will feel empty at the beginning, but this empty feeling is just the feeling of demons leaving you, leaving space behind, you can fill this space with things that don‘t destroy everything you love. THIS is a sign to stop TODAY. Right now, this isn‘t a joke. You asked for a sign and here it is, clear as day, or bright as a computer screen. Start your journey, don‘t get discouraged. Some people need 30-40 attempts. But you? You will kill it. You will suceed. Don‘t poison your mental and physical health, there is only one ,,you.“ Are you worth the fight? Are the people around you worth the fight? Stupid question. Look in the mirror. One you. One body. Alcohol= poison for your inside and outside, for body and mental health. Will you show to the world what you are made of? Then put away your drink, or are you too weak?! Say out loud: Challenge accepted! Or just drink till you need a new liver but nobody gives it to you or you start taking shits in your pants because you became mentally ill. I‘m not gonna lose nothing, you are the one who loses when you don‘t grab a terin planner and start NOW. You heard right, now. Goodbye. Go to: r/stopdrinking ",2.1642794855025045,4.883258244604316,2.339339437540879,93.29518530630043,83.46043165467627,5.096315674732941,19.57532156093307,6.574015621080383,0.1920225419664265,1144,31,223,12,33,345,151,278,0.195,0.6990000000000001,0.106,-0.9867,0,0,6,0,2,0,59.0,0,31,0,5,13,20,8,0,17,0,25,17,4,2,1,42,49,20,2,5,12,0,5,0,0,7,8,3,0,0,14,9,5,3,7,6,3,4,8,13,2,4,2,11,32,7,24,40,2,37,1,3,3,1,43,14,1,8,18,146,46,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012198735560246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08431505067214927,0.26563287034927896,0.0,0.08898640379219062,0.0,0.0,0.057736439853541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10340255653064127,0.21041058204997468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12216467924808687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3711324917720731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07980016635040317,0.0,0.08512234145380329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19155986400562214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049483868327526284,0.0908577713587026,0.05382783615068569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2013519361129265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1047863991550165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20057573543121052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07953544357664133,0.21192024695887413,0.0,0.0,0.08548258623624258,0.08962015620464191,0.06322196315303168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2863466414432484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1404576457217674,0.0,0.09147483994069368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09088010944643307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25672113894641185,0.07203384646691349,0.10078178830149102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13132476100683627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09070930362029568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09521317700337764,0.1061007398825934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06067586116994269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16176953711829212,0.0,0.07531993674036097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09722199507325842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20111600160715612,0.0,0.0,0.1583693699142868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07121272695849966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06292340744989784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17955455157148806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554762977908425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0672817172225902,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,salmonallard,2018/12/16,"Just ruined 60 days of sobriety I just woke up after a night of drinking and its all hitting me now that I had 60 days of no smoking, no drinking, and clean eating that I've just ruined. I'm lucky my wife and son were here this morning because I woke up still drunk and was scheming to get more when they left but luckily fell asleep and sobered up. I feel like scum and I need to tell someone what a huge piece of shit I am but I feel like if I tell my wife she won't understand.",4.347119741100322,3.9399755728155337,4.9671359223300975,90.0263673139159,69.97087378640775,8.031715210355989,28.81715210355987,7.1686216300943375,1.2761404530744334,376,12,88,3,6,121,67,103,0.127,0.7120000000000001,0.161,0.6956,0,0,2,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,7,6,1,0,2,0,5,6,2,0,1,18,14,10,0,2,6,3,2,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,5,6,4,0,3,3,0,1,3,3,0,0,5,2,13,3,10,7,3,13,0,2,0,0,7,5,1,2,9,56,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.135056399768618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2857661781707989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4340743757585386,0.0,0.22670360567134834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2240472883190658,0.3165544227565884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1157520816990618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407175324436585,0.0,0.0,0.21647880448326395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16427843489551874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20791209314583176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2274205452609199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1877207867629862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17693218100362992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3872934501754495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2306440550190424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,tanggy,2018/12/16,"Alcohol messes with my head Im 20 and I have an alcohol problem where I can't stop my self from drinking once I start and I've blacked out more times than I can remember. The last time I drank was on Friday for a friend's birthday but while everything was fine meaning I didn't embarrass myself too much or anything like that, when I woke up after drinking I felt depressed like always and, which lasts for a few days. I was a month sober before this but now I feel like shit that I fucked up again like countless other times before where I swore I wouldn't drink or I wouldn't get drunk but I can't fucking stop myself. I'm getting help for my problems and I thought I was finally passed this stage but apparently not. How can I control myself is there any advice for someone like me. I want to change this behaviour but once I'm at the bar/pub and the beer is flowing and the music plays all of my common sense leaves and I find myself filling up on beer one after another. I fucking hate myself for being so stupid and reckless. 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I know i have issues and need to find a way out. My drinking is destroying my relationship, driving a wedge between me and happyness, and an on going issue. Most meetings i see are closed to public, and i have an interest in attending one. Any suggestions? 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We tried to get him admitted last night after I found him passed out on the toilet, but by the time he got there, he was coherent enough to refuse evaluation. After he got back last night, I heard him drinking more in his room. This morning he bought more cheap vodka and passed out drunk in his room. I went to check on him and found him unresponsive to his name being shouted or being shaken. Two friends and I had a small intervention and he agreed to go with us to the hospital and enter 72 hr detox. My concern is how to help when he returns from the hospital. 3 days might get him medically safe, but it doesn’t break the habits. I’ve already discussed not having alcohol in the house and encouraging AA attendance, but outside of that the only thing I know to do is to watch for reclusiveness and secret drinking. Does anyone have any tips or advice on how to help him turn his life around? I can’t force anything, but I’m worried this ride isn’t over.",5.886384260900389,6.108666663594472,6.0914285714285725,81.12087912087914,66.69585253456222,9.073236440978377,30.51719248493442,8.841846274778883,2.2612994682736627,874,30,173,13,13,279,130,217,0.045,0.8440000000000001,0.111,0.9393,1,0,4,0,0,0,18.0,2,0,0,0,9,3,0,0,10,0,14,8,0,2,0,35,32,16,0,0,9,0,0,0,1,1,5,2,2,0,5,13,4,3,6,4,4,7,4,0,2,1,10,4,23,3,33,18,3,37,0,0,2,0,30,16,0,3,13,111,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2740657886038816,0.0,0.14986514952777588,0.0,0.0,0.15474928100884572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09536243437047873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09805333677454273,0.0,0.1153988248332105,0.12483603498506413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2156592000722877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09043791144628244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1227177952664718,0.0,0.0,0.2747475590514966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14489693818017962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3075138664038608,0.10834274265725546,0.0,0.14653065777666358,0.0,0.07969696493459992,0.0,0.33646854834200995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18798884234895574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13810007779690062,0.16180867206207927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07706773120851652,0.2286152708549009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09904986916670894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11775939571564385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14126878776203072,0.0,0.14876378167513926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26319609393796856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10665260479553623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09316377836667268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08177029168092309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09520818875743184,0.15253193241156793,0.1369860944455203,0.0,0.16868159197437554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12999628572676164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1424122023285848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,bipolar-bear-babbles,2018/12/16,"Won’t be forgetting tonight. Ever. I’ve had problems drinking forever. I always allow it to seduce me into thinking “I’ve got control this time.” My problem is I don’t have an off switch. Where most people can stop at a beer or two, I want a case. I did not get black out drunk tonight. I wasn’t mean. I wasn’t bitchy. That didn’t stop my husband from comparing me to his abusive alcoholic father though. I’m young & find that pre-kids people my age all want to have drinks out or have parties with. In the past, I’ve become black out drunk & I’ve said very out of character hurtful things. I once threw a shoe & a phone towards my husband in an argument. Tonight we went out with friends for dinner and prior to going out I had had three beers between 12 - 6. At dinner I had two margaritas. When we got home my husband and I argued about something unrelated to my drinking and he said the following “I hate it when you drink because it reminds me of my father.” (Backstory: his father was an abusive POS who drank and did heavy drugs and left the family when husband was 6.) That really hurt. I haven’t been black out drunk in a long time. I wasn’t tonight. I do feel I’ve been in more control. I certainly don’t think it was a fair comparison. I get that he wants me to quit drinking but being cruel like that wasn’t the way. That really hurt. He says he thinks of the shoe incident anytime I am drinking and it makes him not want me to drink. I truly get that. I don’t think he handled this correctly though. 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It makes me want to kms,3.185384615384617,4.538062923076922,3.0953846153846136,96.0246153846154,73.61538461538461,5.2,28.384615384615394,3.1291,0.5270615384615382,100,4,22,0,2,30,22,26,0.064,0.884,0.052000000000000005,-0.0772,0,0,2,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,4,1,1,0,3,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,5,6,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,14,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8140911942502255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2773588657804938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3473883649221331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2821067759637895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2450809619069639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,chelseabelsey,2018/12/16,"How do you know if you're an alcoholic? I'm so sorry if this asked 100 times per day... I really do not know when this becomes an issue. I really enjoy drinking and it's a social thing where I live (Wisconsin). I feel like I have way better tolerance than a lot of people in my life, I enjoy it and will drink a few times per week but not to excess. At what point should a person become concerned??",1.1788253012048209,3.0957745180722926,3.5261295180722922,88.26100150602413,80.92771084337348,6.559638554216868,17.60391566265061,7.645422480735847,0.4021096385542169,307,6,65,5,8,106,61,83,0.018000000000000002,0.845,0.136,0.7883,0,0,3,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,1,4,4,0,0,6,0,5,4,0,1,0,13,10,8,0,3,5,0,1,1,0,2,2,0,0,1,6,2,3,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,8,4,5,8,2,10,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,3,6,43,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20807019502173288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820139372372212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.430051593408834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1721922786412801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12556244017558324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3814547836753383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0984438550990812,0.13909044808631596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2032114366820364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21399902396209225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13751913409711405,0.09511834854356173,0.0,0.17191962424998575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1655230850621733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13497729089115484,0.1700005323804272,0.0,0.0,0.1840501045248204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24945374506427914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1984674637390374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21794558452174745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12934698690653465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22705693205717975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15454016333270146,0.15617292335319466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,BlackLabel6661,2018/12/16,"On a week long binge Location: California I used to be an alcoholic a few years back, just because I had friends that loved to drink. Now, I’ve cut ties with those people, and have been dating my boyfriend for about 5 years now. The thing is, is that he’s an addict himself. Was opiates for awhile (he went to rehab), and i decided if he wanted to be with me, he had to do random drug tests (he agreed to it). But now it’s some type of amphetamine (he denies it completely, though MULTIPLE drug tests say otherwise) and alcohol. Which has led me to a week binge. I’ve been drinking beer, but the last few days it’s been tequila, and I’m worried this is only going to get worse. My dad was an alcoholic and it runs in my family. I don’t want alcohol to take over my life like it did a few years ago. But with this stress, I get a strong urge to drink. Idk what to do",1.622,3.324664255555557,3.28527777777778,91.54625000000004,78.66666666666667,7.166666666666668,21.805555555555557,8.07648339933343,0.8855555555555559,666,19,153,12,16,221,105,180,0.09,0.826,0.084,-0.2903,0,0,11,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,1,7,6,1,1,10,0,18,14,0,2,0,20,28,10,0,3,5,1,0,1,1,0,9,1,0,0,14,8,8,0,1,5,0,4,1,2,0,0,9,1,12,4,21,17,4,21,0,0,0,1,11,3,0,3,15,94,26,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1419360279163894,0.0,0.0,0.11541347628355295,0.5565721469965821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10011492363469096,0.0,0.07936804591896197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13651107801145662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08396752464156969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3826360881062117,0.3019787959712086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12273994315643767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10059135343048986,0.0,0.13604711144745454,0.0,0.07399503991176498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10612948752332728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0919633392345635,0.06360860989981022,0.0,0.0,0.11522193655328013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11750959787060075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.099022136602259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09026352930945432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10353939752756763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1491424093394535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0978933754418192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08649836921932684,0.0,0.12791976615837256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11245005325235492,0.0,0.0,0.15358937867684666,0.0,0.20887542121143607,0.0,0.0,0.12069569222148467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1322233111872377,0.13268381056411793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2515314842445234 alcoholism,Lundy_Alex,2018/12/22,"Any faced cirrhosis type symptoms. Scared to death to go to the Dr. I’m almost 1 year sober (Jan 15) but had a good 8 years of hard, black out almost nightly drinking. I feel like I am experiencing symptoms of cirrhosis but am scared to death of going to the Dr. Father passed with pancreatic cancer 15 years ago - it all started when he felt similar symptoms to what I have now and 8 weeks later he was gone. Looking for any thoughts or similar stories of encouragement. Thank you. 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My (38M) sister 40F) is in a bad way. I’ve never had to deal with addiction, I’ve never lost my will power and sunk that deep, although I have had a few close calls, my life was never ruined by it. My sister is bipolar and an alcoholic and has been for many years. She manages to hold down a job and pay rent, and even support her lazy boyfriend. But she stopped going to therapy because she couldn’t afford it. I’m not sure about her meds situation because she lies a lot. She gets a lot of negative energy from her bf, or that’s her excuse for a lot of things. Everyone hates this guy but he’s never been mean or anything around me. I know my sister isn’t easy to be around a lot of times. She has shut herself in and lost a lot of her social skill. Her friends and I want her to break up with her boyfriend. As god as my witness (and I’m an atheist), that will happen this weekend. She simply can’t move on without doing that. He just sleeps there, takes advantage of her. They don’t even have sex. He spends all his money on weed and concerts. What I also want to happen this weekend is for her to attend an AA meeting. There’s one within walking distance from her place in the center of town that meets several times a day. But I’m not sure if pressuring her to go there is the right thing to do. I’m kind of a tough love person. I don’t know how to deal with an addict. I’m looking for some ways to approach this. I’m well read on The Four Agreements and Dale Carnegie. I’m kind of a self-help reader for fun, have been since a bad breakup in my 20s. I’m a very logical person. I see a problem and a way to fix it and I know it will take time and effort but nothing is ever impossible. I don’t know how to deal with someone who convinced themselves that their stuck and can’t get out. The way I see it, I can help her work out her finances. She has a car she never uses and she walks to work. She doesn’t need TV so that bill can be canceled. Then she breaks up with him. Next she starts tracking her drinking so she can progress to having less and less. But I honestly don’t thing she has the will power to pull this off. I love my sister but I can’t see her do this to herself. I want to help but I refuse to enable her or to give her any sympathy until she acknowledges how much pain she is causing everyone around her. I am capable of patience but we’ve all already been so generous. And I will keep supporting her but I don’t know how to convince her to help herself, enough to keep my hope alive for her. 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I haven't drank since September and it's Irish cream whiskey. My health is currently fine but I used to binge drink a lot in the past on and off. Will there be any immediate next day consequences to drinking? Such as seizures? Should I take it slow and try not to get shit faced? Any suggestions other than just not drink.,1.5766666666666684,4.168126400000002,1.6626666666666698,97.98466666666668,85.0,6.0,20.333333333333336,7.3871296695380915,0.4435333333333338,300,9,67,5,9,89,59,75,0.024,0.895,0.081,0.6281,1,0,5,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,3,0,6,10,2,1,0,12,11,6,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,3,3,7,0,0,6,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,1,6,1,9,6,1,10,0,0,1,0,1,4,1,3,6,38,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2564059723729753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12158257482017272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7387281532895582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1969923274174932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2003925110622341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16027661493274273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19999448601588588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2004977277653722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17996777268731706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17821639634239164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19351748087769846,0.15594924596919985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14174680860083225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12799562205689807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16282446185531935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Katanafatal,2018/12/22,"Still can't kick the habit Im been trying to quit drinking due to a fatty liver but only seem to go a week to two weeks and then drink again and its so annoying to think every drink may get closer to killing me, shits depressing af. Shit i went to video game rap concert which was fun and drunk 2 drinks named after games and felt like shit a few hours after. I've calmed down alot from my normal 4-6 shots of tequila a day to 2-4 glasses of wine a few times out of the week, plus i never drink at home. My liver function test came back normal again and Alot of people are proud of me and see that im trying to change but i keep relapsing over (probably over 15 times) and im definitely not proud of myself at all ;i don't think this is normal at all. I just want to a least quiet for a full month so today im trying again and im going to AA Monday. Sucks as being young and going tru this but hey i want to grow old with saggy boobs so ima just throw this alcohol out of my life. If anyone has any advice that would be ideal:)",2.412455357142857,3.111536049107144,4.040535714285717,91.0294642857143,74.66964285714286,6.671428571428571,19.357142857142858,6.6274283507984215,-0.036342857142857454,801,12,186,6,16,269,136,224,0.142,0.752,0.106,-0.9133,0,0,8,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,4,10,13,6,0,11,0,11,15,6,0,3,40,26,19,1,8,7,0,1,1,0,2,2,2,1,0,7,14,8,1,4,13,0,7,4,7,1,1,5,4,12,6,34,17,8,39,0,1,1,1,4,10,5,5,23,108,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09177001065769888,0.0,0.10036368595614524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06386358299664839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06566566229708015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07221276026417679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10741065033439058,0.0,0.0,0.09934675890591084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06056566300787696,0.0,0.08088652461422248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4599914960340931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07912516142797846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09017053344799718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049065299592280426,0.0,0.16011756940605404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0942016919856657,0.0,0.09248469628997044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5072069860919985,0.0,0.0,0.08347356542835822,0.10390004341833524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06633303335944953,0.04588080508549565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07495990024896307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07243095368939341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27604233756961305,0.0,0.0,0.09854515895074054,0.0,0.0,0.07142453444201309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06510696273820556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012533409892037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0998872887642169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07483594260080248,0.08549422895541807,0.0,0.0,0.28919887287238083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07499848245518902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12035041702931595,0.0,0.0,0.10952203231593244,0.0,0.0890178775808435,0.0,0.0,0.19128085723091925,0.0,0.09173866910759614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11078381303056596,0.0,0.2259923421415933,0.0,0.0,0.08705764106769819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06671260198898257,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,mobuckets1,2018/12/22,"My 56 year old dad gets blackout drunk 3 times a week He goes to the pub and meets people there (all his friends are heavy drinkers). He will bender for 2-3 days at a time most weeks. He comes home at around 3am... When I say blackout drunk I mean he is completely not there mentally. Hes walking and talking but absolutely incomphrehensible. He does the most retarded shit like use a leaf blower on the balcony at 3am. And we live in an apartment complex. Play the electric guitar really loud. Yell random words that dont make any sense. Get aggressive and start yelling random phrases. He will speak complete gibberish sentences - which have links to real life scenarios some times. Sometimes hes absolutely smashed by 7pm on a Sunday night. Not knowing where he is. Not speaking English AT ALL. Not able to string a sentence together over text message. Its fucked. He's been doing this since as long as I can remember. Not every single week but hes never really stopped for a long time. He can never ever go out to his weekly trip to the bar and not come back absolutely blind drunk. To the point hes speaking gibberish. **Hes dealing with depression currently.** I know he was taking depression medication previously but I have no idea what it was.So the drinkings only gotten worse I dont know what to do!!! We have arguments about it because he wakes me up for work and stuff but they never go anywhere. How the fuck do I stop him from doing this?? I have no idea how to go about this. He gets defensive and even when I try to talk about this. **TLDR: My [22M] dad [56M] binge drinks at the bar until hes absolutely incomprehensibly drunk 2-3 nights a week. He speaks absolute gibberish, can't understand a word your saying. Doesn't know where he is. A walking zombie. Does shit like use a leaf blower at 2am on an apartment balcony. Then start yelling gibberish words. Hes been doing this since I can remember. Hes dealing with depression and was previously on meds. His drinkings only worsened recently. I have no idea how to communicate this and try to end these behaviors. He wont listen. Please help with any useful strategies. Thank you.** ",1.6601733703190007,4.410602111650487,3.088994452149791,86.01992718446604,88.5631067961165,6.24382801664355,23.619278779472953,7.5804360353943165,1.521352149791956,1698,67,320,34,56,552,212,412,0.195,0.748,0.057999999999999996,-0.9968,3,0,4,0,2,0,64.0,2,2,1,1,16,14,6,0,21,0,36,17,3,7,6,66,62,22,0,0,10,2,0,2,1,3,3,11,1,0,15,18,9,3,13,12,0,8,17,9,0,0,5,12,31,5,40,54,6,61,0,3,1,2,49,20,4,5,35,179,46,1,0.07948308254960305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10810244344953628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.070756794861221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06111758428275765,0.0,0.048452149386938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13693527540675607,0.16667299964866136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0512600127731347,0.16388713603639574,0.205375987596814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1391123623323978,0.0,0.1863071615780494,0.2335894841191551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07039841931016108,0.0,0.0,0.052497826401208016,0.07189699865846949,0.06696792512528127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06140843241151221,0.146961658087558,0.12457989026674432,0.0,0.1355162025038867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053275834801525535,0.0,0.07972801245167764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2691801764533276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1747272940283036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056141251798794485,0.07766283857631798,0.0,0.07018501808887652,0.1406800537393106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053055574798110995,0.0,0.0,0.08658037816061555,0.08828778653428435,0.08007084362433735,0.08010025258947066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839067597165952,0.0,0.0,0.14917897728225354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08340412464218512,0.0,0.0,0.12090093184769148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055103561586478035,0.0,0.0,0.08724855631773895,0.07513720421207358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0904691490027327,0.10183779592384654,0.0,0.0784799551072068,0.0,0.18007767645552475,0.0,0.0,0.1264162749215605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631764840691598,0.13149845448108685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07861080101871568,0.0,0.11251706985157957,0.0,0.0,0.13290283205661946,0.0,0.0,0.09098911335840362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059761386285629076,0.1277709819754302,0.0,0.07317734352275156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1853888984827664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10792759128923006,0.0,0.0,0.08274469205559623,0.0,0.20594359035808898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31878267237829905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057864630735055364,0.0,0.08100005154775904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05118449920671921 alcoholism,throwaway104914,2018/12/22,"Not sure if alcohol withdrawal or something else. Feedback wanted. I drink daily, starting when I wake up until I go to bed. I do other drugs on occasion. Tonight I woke up after around maybe 4 hours of sleep and started getting this uncomfortable burning sensation in my neck. Then my face got clammy. My hands aren't shaking that much. My vision will sort of pulsate, when I look at things the lights sort of flicker to me when they're not actually doing that. And I also get this thing where, normally when you look at a light and then look away it leaves a trace in your vision, but mine take forever to go away. I also get small tingling sensations in my wrists and hands every few minutes. I thought it was withdrawal so I drank about two beers in a short amount of time. The symptoms are still sort of there, but they've also quieted down. I'm not sure if the drinking was the reason for that or if it would've happened either way. Is this relatable to any of you guys? If it's alcohol withdrawal, that's fine, I know I need to quit and that I am an alcoholic and suffer from alcoholism. But sometimes I get afraid that my alcoholism is masking symptoms of other disease(s) that I should see a doctor for. If these are relatable symptoms to you, I'd like to know, or if they sound different from what you experience with withdrawal I'd like to know as well. I know that I should see a doctor regardless, but I'm... hesitant to, I guess. Sort of like how when you know you should start a paper but you keep waiting until the last minute to do so because of the discomfort you know it will cause, and it never seeming like the right time. I want to get better and I want to quit. There's always a 'but' attached to the end of that sentence. But I'm not really looking for people to tell me to go see a doctor but to let me know if these experiences are normal under alcohol withdrawal or if it could be something else. Thank you. 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I have had similar bouts before and managed to stop and don’t remember any major effects. This time though, it is very difficult mostly because I am very worried about major withdrawal symptoms and keep telling myself that another night drunk is better than having a seizure or dying. I wake up each morning hating myself so it’s not a good or sustainable choice. Reasons I am especially concerned: -Mainly, I have GAD / panic disorder( and am on meds for it). This makes me think every I’ll feeling is the start of a symptom. Also makes me unsure if any physical symptom I have (ie shaking, sweating, tachycardia) is real or if it’s my anxiety in overdrive. -I live alone and am very socially isolated. Thus, I worry that if anything happens I’m screwed. -this is the 4th time I’m trying to quit after repeated daily use. I’ve read that it gets harder and more risky. Background info: - last time I went a night sober was 3 weeks ago (because I had food poisoning). Thus it’s hard for me to gauge the effects. - I drink 12-26 oz of vodka per night. Depends on how much I have eaten, - I never drink in the day or feel the need to. I feel mild tiredness / hangovers the morning after but no cravings. - I went to an addiction clinic which gave me meds (gabapentin) which should hopefully help with cravings and side effects. I take nightly. -I have been going to AA since March as a first attempt to stop. It’s not enough. Thanks for reading. In sum- I’m scared. I want to stop. How worried should I be? What do I do? Anything is helpful and appreciated.",2.294213956721993,5.049352202572352,3.4720309376901035,85.14081254888329,83.2443729903537,5.934509429043193,27.376466498653002,7.329194593529364,1.8274898931085417,1289,59,229,20,37,416,181,311,0.156,0.774,0.07,-0.9573,0,1,4,0,0,0,56.0,0,0,0,7,8,11,3,3,12,0,27,15,2,12,1,52,52,22,1,8,10,0,4,0,0,2,6,0,0,0,17,12,6,4,10,7,0,4,5,7,1,1,9,4,27,4,29,40,8,37,0,0,0,1,5,9,1,10,24,144,44,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0945512020483352,0.0,0.0,0.07688310766041165,0.0,0.0,0.08982868895323122,0.0,0.06935993046549413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11796211699178966,0.09094656440528157,0.0663501074543684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14274687685515175,0.1544205856416137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1057426258297988,0.0,0.07380294971881943,0.0,0.0,0.07670782760477841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0559352724211812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09001461776139599,0.0,0.09940293271141053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25489442397829315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08961783372139735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07307585255474375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315636390657494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07377460056951539,0.1048772553789176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045314139445053865,0.0,0.04929206539014362,0.07274708665454935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07669724291096545,0.0,0.07769526333481833,0.08563036468840446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11626990208831905,0.0,0.0,0.08614491959475869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07709181061214936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07069854472759754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07658636614199897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1157892036792488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19268045886428248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06375835011039176,0.06431103266051305,0.06689343309616315,0.0,0.0,0.4069627708993337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10176187412147178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09225066532687028,0.17351189594043562,0.09872054690225213,0.0,0.08917543155787214,0.0,0.0,0.09825098887599368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08683434001005774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07174600118534152,0.0,0.0,0.08841283775195946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061389693580799126,0.0,0.0,0.21753670301062514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27044475840828164,0.06521202866156997,0.0,0.0758080077256554,0.07985161188154649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05557466911294304,0.08521421821907604,0.0,0.20229761912839453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05888565856629036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07490901261286988,0.0,0.21469013048162414,0.05115706205441842,0.0,0.06957156137104052,0.0,0.0,0.16080375009958325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2642431212516864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0558528715070878 alcoholism,bananas2910,2018/12/22,"I can’t be sober at work or when with people i’m 19, live at home, and have had addiction issues in the past. I’m at a low point. One day I was working with two really upbeat people and i just couldn’t handle it, so i drank a bit on my break before going back to work. After that I decided that work was a lot more tolerable if i’ve been drinking, so it’s become a daily habit. I’ll be mixing my drinks in the back room, even if someone is sitting there. No one seems to have noticed? However if it’s a particularly long day then i will end up drinking all day and then be fairly drunk at the end of the day. Yesterday I saw some friends after work but was skulling drinks back on the way there. I was totally gone, making a right dick of myself, drunk in a setting where no one else was intoxicated. I came home and spewed on my carpet, and my parents are furious that I keep coming home plastered. i need to get better but i’m just so broken at the moment, even now i’m hungover and feel horrible, I still feel like i need a drink to be able to handle all the shame. 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I look at him and I think ""this is it."" This is my soul mate. This is the person I am supposed to be with. And still I drink. How dare I? How lucky am I to have him? A medical detox is not possible due to my occupation and the level of background checks. I'm trying to taper but am having a hard time staying in control. But being sober is impossible too. My body's in pergatory and all I feel is sadness for him. Why am I like this?",-0.3464682539682542,1.8688184537037067,2.168571428571429,93.255,91.3148148148148,5.307936507936508,20.67724867724868,6.868970318607317,0.44612486772486815,395,14,90,6,14,135,66,108,0.052000000000000005,0.8690000000000001,0.079,0.4291,0,0,2,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,4,4,0,0,5,0,16,7,1,3,1,15,21,8,0,0,3,0,2,1,1,0,4,0,0,1,5,5,2,1,2,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,18,3,11,19,1,8,1,1,1,1,6,4,0,1,4,67,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.278200832981682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2891546745613348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.291968833936649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2550125897470373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13162463027264334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2331938455716554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18387034074121336,0.1271782524829992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21860160339305415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23494720810126604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2622430535287682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22729968465990225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2934694934664443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27746441017325857,0.20789033496151807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16680129843915134,0.0,0.0,0.15179355127238373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17673887159526486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23489655472252466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,88olr,2019/07/14,"Side effects? So I am not a regular drinker. In some periods, however, I do drink on an almost daily basis. I've had some thoughts about alcohol being an issue (kinda supported by the people close to me) but always brushed it off as PMS or part of my psychological spectrum as my therapist told me that I should just keep an eye on it but nothing more. Recently, though, I have been experiencing symphtoms much like nicotine withdrawal, I feel anxious, really depressed at times, can't enjoy a night out without alcohol and have difficulty in relationships due to that; I feel like I cannot connect with people otherwise, I fight a lot, especially with my family and lately I've felt the urge to drink, also. I feel completely off and I'm starting to think that drinking is affecting my daily life, it's hard for me to determine how alcohol is influencing it really as I am not, myself, that stable; I think I'm getting more and more nervous and aggressive by the day, has anybody experienced this kinda thing? Sorry for the long post. TLDR I've been getting aggressive, nervous, depressed. Usually like that and not a regular drinker, could it be side effects from alcohol?",6.201805555555552,7.6510996435185215,7.507481481481483,66.8856666666667,66.45370370370371,11.315555555555555,36.62222222222222,11.20814326018867,4.81643,937,48,151,30,15,320,128,216,0.17300000000000001,0.7709999999999999,0.055,-0.9793,1,0,9,0,1,0,30.0,0,0,0,2,6,12,3,2,11,0,17,10,1,5,0,39,32,16,0,2,8,0,5,3,0,1,6,0,0,0,12,10,7,1,9,3,0,0,6,7,0,0,6,9,19,5,26,22,8,22,0,2,1,0,3,11,0,7,13,110,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.50714315240844,0.11879680171142412,0.0,0.0,0.09487315407612217,0.09871464297344586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13402489428312125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12438757277918495,0.0,0.0,0.09472118025859086,0.0,0.0,0.07651039560001646,0.0,0.20436199950918574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3486542993474832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11183944801170724,0.0,0.17995775538024458,0.08475357115062658,0.1139091498870164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1239648109375264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10627453977936437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12382514539577825,0.0,0.10544911416617246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13382655812403452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0837961044531208,0.17387864871958758,0.0,0.0,0.10498911317348868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10086007170084237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08721109916152282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11133183498788568,0.0,0.1138344269180943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12847121040194742,0.0,0.1644945082089758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11362047929577015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1520024992512455,0.0,0.11713872250673513,0.12737064925441088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13280327196347644,0.08397116056329641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13462670949997824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1377455220659945,0.07881647667925426,0.1520342973268922,0.11655925258743845,0.09418372005744004,0.0691775967045879,0.0,0.0,0.11336176738265788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13066077634492698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11436085568390968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Trine3,2019/07/14,"How Do You Deal With Hurt And bitterness? I'm in pain and don't know how to process it. I don't want to post this anywhere else. The other sub seems like it's too uppity for low level shit like this. Sober is painful, not always waking up feeling fantastic. This sucks. I can't pray it away, I'm athiest.",0.65674107142857,2.828783156250001,2.172589285714285,95.770625,84.625,5.5321428571428575,20.080357142857142,6.868970318607317,0.22024821428571384,238,7,54,3,7,77,48,64,0.308,0.56,0.132,-0.9115,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,0,3,9,3,0,1,0,5,4,2,2,0,10,12,4,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,7,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,7,0,0,0,2,3,2,7,12,0,6,1,2,0,0,2,5,2,1,2,29,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2250446158163752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2541063323814436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.278832668763682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22593485595703905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13675284200615312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2895333193320419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14863789458419993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26426645882918703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5755776052247301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25902618235541025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2462168775621868,0.0,0.0,0.2776235867736071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1595244782138621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,seeker994,2019/07/14,"I have a prescription for Librium I made a post about my problem with alcohol and this community helped me so much. Yesterday I went to the ER because I’ve been very sick this week, and was worried I was having withdrawals. I told the doctor what I’ve been going though and he was so kind to me. I’m getting the prescription filled tomorrow and I’m going to my first AA meeting next Sunday at 2pm. I would have went today but I’m still deathly sick with a flu like virus. Thanks again for the support and inspiration. It really has helped me and unlock all the other times, I really am ready to let Alcohol go. Much love. -Billy",2.4730952380952367,4.667436388888891,4.144682539682542,84.04892857142859,77.96825396825399,7.692063492063491,23.99206349206349,8.59863814320734,1.7764730158730158,499,17,98,11,12,167,79,126,0.10099999999999999,0.703,0.19699999999999998,0.9465,0,0,2,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,6,7,0,0,8,0,12,7,0,1,1,14,26,10,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,6,0,0,0,5,8,2,0,1,0,0,6,0,1,2,1,9,0,12,6,10,15,3,18,0,0,0,1,6,1,0,0,11,63,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.362731394990033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10345211189303323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1737028090797671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14435310591333098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08866516009828773,0.0,0.28934603566896605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22750270907766965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17672423751931488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17353740850006785,0.0,0.08291050828483759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15316763726080804,0.1605813321893818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495090666786399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18048584292304776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1625328657546318,0.0,0.0,0.16238715024898165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2174379298370988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13552862224985127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19258205068109027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15624385761906942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16673674913779052,0.0,0.09895780327722503,0.0,0.16086285894312685,0.16216278116333607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14002645402220226,0.0,0.0,0.1361291134024718,0.0,0.0,0.31464109043211363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1723461958201171,0.0,0.12055533309852905,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,pattmeballs,2019/07/14,"Tomorrow is a year and a half no alcohol I went cold turkey after watching my dad destroy his life and after seeing I was going down the same path. Found AA to be a chore, and not for me. Its too much. I have friends, not desperate for certain friends who don’t drink, and The last thing I need in this life is more weird rules Ive posted my story here before, multiple dwi when I was only 21, bar fights, typical alcohol problems I love smokin reefer like cheech and chong I also realized regardless of what the fuck I do, if im making good money, getting laid all the time, I am still a short fused, restless, irritable, discontent fucking asshole I was seeing a shrink for awhile, that helped but she moved, work season picked up and I havent sat down to find another. Who here is not an AA nazi and has some decent suggestions they’d like to share on how to release this demon fuck",5.222670454545455,5.635537289772728,5.8022727272727295,81.96090909090908,68.14772727272728,9.127272727272727,29.06818181818182,9.095868883498916,2.2319045454545448,697,23,139,12,11,226,125,176,0.12,0.778,0.102,-0.2784,0,0,3,0,1,0,18.0,0,0,1,1,7,16,5,1,10,0,15,10,0,3,2,25,28,12,0,4,5,1,0,2,2,0,4,0,1,0,8,7,4,0,3,2,1,3,6,8,2,1,6,4,18,8,15,20,5,19,1,0,3,4,13,6,3,2,11,90,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3454009735295063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12923088727151308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16945093706859174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13750908646257615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15830577467520912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14769881594767098,0.0,0.0,0.1771852714997461,0.24970240850917175,0.44818779614481496,0.0844289549762838,0.0,0.09184059590403916,0.135541810548124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10831659222409784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17455495492034215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13172498303609845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2282847035882127,0.15789849278525225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.145849661082,0.0,0.1078687754407098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17175446227253774,0.11879406597491893,0.11982381983788153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12290353575168055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1547674417973469,0.0,0.0,0.1546286882232007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25754741053063857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1290533951920473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10735938224107232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0942298407647733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14980415322283264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11764620178879892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10406463923884136 alcoholism,Fuckrightoffplsandty,2019/07/14,"I can only be vivid and chit chatty with alcohol on get togethers. I recently posted a post on AITA and i guess i got what i bargained for. I used to be adamant on never drinking alcohol. Now I hardly ever do, but when i do i always get shit faced quick. I think of alcohol as a means for me to be more open and be funnier in mates reunions, i become more witty, more relaxed, more daring, just overall much better than my normal self that just stays on the phone and says: haha yes, cool. Yesterday i drank a gallon and half of cheap wine on a friend's mother new house he was thrilled for me and others to finally check out. They were cool and took it pretty well, but i feel utterly embarrassed. A year ago i payed an expensive resort for my parents and i and i only got shit faced during the whole stay. I drank till i needed to be delivered in a wheel chair to my room 4 times and the other 3, my dad helped me walk to it. In retrospective i am not proud of that, i was alone on the resort, and my parent's weren't there to nanny me so they left me to do me, which is fair. I don't know how to just drink a bit and be happy, i don't know when to stop, and most of all, I don't know why I am so reserved without it, i either not drink a drop or get shit faced, there's no in between, and yesterday experience makes me feel terrible, what can i do?",4.6841783216783215,3.9869166748251774,6.069361888111888,83.38558129370631,69.31468531468532,9.2479020979021,27.31555944055944,8.660442795831766,1.6889797202797199,1043,27,233,15,16,356,152,286,0.111,0.722,0.16699999999999998,0.9526,2,1,7,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,2,2,14,15,3,1,13,4,22,15,6,3,3,45,41,24,0,2,10,4,3,0,2,0,3,1,1,1,10,17,9,1,7,5,5,2,9,5,1,1,9,7,40,10,35,26,10,37,0,0,1,0,13,14,3,3,16,165,50,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0963609571338873,0.3485196867319563,0.0,0.11258621963941128,0.0,0.0,0.09045176897706698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12005679669607845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09614127098381774,0.11867836273409225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31947031552272315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09833044040133876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1063349375949576,0.0,0.0,0.10992963708308233,0.0,0.0,0.11908167335682658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08398567834609498,0.0,0.17038257095084414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17388360051659413,0.0,0.11975147603378647,0.0,0.0,0.11571913455926187,0.09737886731609813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07286307351532073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12543166946036774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17922526766609376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11810895449616846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07256183335867057,0.0,0.0,0.11841226857172693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07991112519868115,0.08060382638027387,0.08384046164716935,0.1049885476700732,0.0,0.0,0.10650840944442416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16535101736288274,0.0,0.0,0.2414094128640248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2082198351685104,0.11059267746746504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10733366750156934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08644705772755812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11340365055752248,0.0,0.3347542145232315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2317314156980937,0.0,0.0908827506749692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06965416033618224,0.0,0.0,0.06338711063560536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12077592347141078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09388673758107463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09773939109587354,0.0,0.09808989760968903,0.12136592238301555,0.0,0.10478832103078428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07000284354882158 alcoholism,mymain123,2019/07/14,"I can only chit chat and be vivid with alcohol during reunions I recently posted a post on AITA and i guess i got what i bargained for. I used to be adamant on never drinking alcohol. Now I hardly ever do, but when i do i always get shit faced quick. I think of alcohol as a means for me to be more open and be funnier in mates reunions, i become more witty, more relaxed, more daring, just overall much better than my normal self that just stays on the phone and says: haha yes, cool. Yesterday i drank a gallon and half of cheap wine on a friend's mother new house he was thrilled for me and others to finally check out. They were cool and took it pretty well, but i feel utterly embarrassed. A year ago i payed an expensive resort for my parents and i and i only got shit faced during the whole stay. I drank till i needed to be delivered in a wheel chair to my room 4 times and the other 3, my dad helped me walk to it. In retrospective i am not proud of that, i was alone on the resort, and my parent's weren't there to nanny me so they left me to do me, which is fair. I don't know how to just drink a bit and be happy, i don't know when to stop, and most of all, I don't know why I am so reserved without it, i either not drink a drop or get shit faced, there's no in between, and yesterday experience makes me feel terrible, what can i do?",5.273894736842107,4.118900178947372,6.476842105263156,82.46789473684213,68.26315789473685,9.564912280701755,28.47368421052632,8.648137234880735,1.819168421052632,1041,27,232,14,15,354,151,285,0.111,0.721,0.16699999999999998,0.9526,2,1,7,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,2,2,14,15,3,1,13,4,22,15,6,3,3,45,40,24,0,2,10,4,3,0,2,0,3,1,1,1,10,17,9,1,7,6,5,2,9,5,1,1,9,7,40,10,34,25,10,36,0,0,1,0,14,13,3,3,16,164,50,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971475343577968,0.3513645904753525,0.0,0.113505240773369,0.0,0.0,0.09119011055705807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12103679881172225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09692605494905493,0.11964711294033815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3220780944549748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0991330941642027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10720293063389992,0.0,0.0,0.1108269730097279,0.0,0.0,0.12005371571540722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08467123838707549,0.0,0.11451558222845112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17530298118534046,0.0,0.12072898587158153,0.0,0.0,0.11666372911625,0.09817375355840187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0734578417263874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12645554569913725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18068825140648312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11907305672501378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0731541426003248,0.0,0.0,0.11937884669901312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08056342539253382,0.08126178096973055,0.0845248363102613,0.1058455503693498,0.0,0.0,0.1073778185029852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16670074808449856,0.0,0.0,0.24337999463743304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2099194963672071,0.11149542567394262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10820981299375354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08715270956731735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11432934423357015,0.0,0.3374867531839449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2336229977150632,0.0,0.09162461028132254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07022273476404785,0.0,0.0,0.06390452825990442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12176179569004444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0946531181941878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09853722022918092,0.0,0.0988905878648532,0.12235661065702895,0.0,0.10564368931588766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07057426421526326 alcoholism,pvtpigpyle,2019/07/14,"My bfs dad is fucking horrible First off, I live with them. The family. A Mexican family with a white step dad. Family of angry alcoholics. His dad hates that im trying to get him to stop drinking because he's angry and got physical once. His dad says the woman punching him the face or him pulling her hair when they are drunk is normal for an adult relationship stuff. Wtf is that? Told me when my bf grabbed my hair when I was walking away that I was being dramatic and he didn't do anything. What do I do",2.0112621359223297,4.161017359223301,3.7784563106796116,86.31836407766991,79.29126213592235,7.6151456310679615,23.89223300970874,8.548686976883017,1.6975483495145631,400,14,82,9,10,134,71,103,0.2,0.8,0.0,-0.9670000000000001,0,0,2,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,2,1,3,2,2,0,6,0,11,7,3,0,0,7,16,6,0,1,1,4,3,0,1,0,1,1,0,2,5,4,3,1,0,2,0,3,1,2,0,1,5,5,16,0,8,10,0,10,0,0,1,1,20,2,1,1,5,53,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2150056246814364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16555814676693434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18901996874067145,0.0,0.0,0.12264053373591575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19708474835444806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5689780552789884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17112789320292554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18599232866470253,0.10511088037987856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16090605598851387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1986285766402368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21731436793812084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776500771915226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19711862467072125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21425550282546416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21599744276518795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15999041967646982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16819970284778155,0.0,0.0,0.23030873898528545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19224092838757545,0.0,0.1365914367888833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ivoryglade,2019/07/14,"Supporting my(28F) alcoholic husband(29M) Creating a separate account to speak freely about personal issues I’m facing with my alcoholic husband. Just to clarify, I am not looking for people to give me relationship advice and ask me to leave my husband. I love him with all my heart and he really truly is a wonderful human being. With that out of the way, let me begin. When I(28F) met my husband(29M), he had just been out of a long term relationship. The reason why that relationship failed is because he was an alcoholic, along other reasons. He was honest with me from the start. After that failed relationship, he has tried his best to not be an alcoholic. In fact, when he describes to me the things he did back then, it makes me think how I could never be with a person like that. He realized that too and tried his very best to make changes. However life had its own plans and served him a lot of bad deals. He broke up with me after a few months of us dating because he couldn’t carry the guilt with him. He came clean and told me he wanted to break up with me. I was heartbroken, but found out eventually that it was because he knew he destroyed his last relationship since he was an alcoholic and didn’t want to do the same with me. Instead of crying my eyes out, I looked up how to care, support and help an alcoholic. I never gave up on him and decided I wanted to stay friends and make him better. This made us realize how much I love him and vice verse. The fact that someone cared enough to care about him and help him get better opened his eyes and made him fall in love with me too. We got married early this year. Before we got married, I told him that I am very aware of who I am marrying. I understand that we will have good nights and bad nights. Sometimes, those bad nights are going to be terrible. But I will always stay by his side as long as I know he is working on himself and true to his word. So far, he has been true to his word. We have had our fair share of ups and down but he has worked his way through them all. Like I said before, we have good nights and we have bad nights. I will be by his side as long as his alcoholism never leads to abuse or anything violent (which it never has and knowing his nature, I am confident it never will) What I need advice for is that the bad nights are starting to get to me. I try my best to be calm and patient and have an open mind. He wants to play video games with his friends and drink - that’s fine. But when he drinks way too much and passes out on the couch, I get frustrated. And when I try to help him and get him to bed, I need to listen to a lot of name-calling. They’re never things that would hurt me deeply. Just things that he says when he’s drunk because that’s how he talks to his friends and loved ones. It’s getting harder for me to cope with this. I want to do my best, but some nights, I feel like I’m losing it because I don’t know what to do anymore. I want to scream or cry or leave the apartment and stay at a hotel just to be away (I could do that for maybe 2 hours and then regret it and come home). I feel like it’s getting harder and harder for me to maintain my sanity on bad nights. For all those who have been through this, or have been on the other side and been an alcoholic, what advice would you have for me? If you were an alcoholic, how would you have wanted me to help you and deal with you? I am trying to hold it all together, but some nights are just plain hard. What do I do?",4.080970391310821,4.605955241958046,4.684517184942717,88.57250409165304,70.7062937062937,8.043148341020682,25.142835887516732,8.058908269544373,1.1505045380151755,2718,71,602,35,47,869,269,715,0.10300000000000001,0.711,0.18600000000000005,0.9968,1,0,11,0,1,0,78.0,9,5,1,13,23,49,3,1,26,0,66,21,4,13,14,142,125,58,0,17,18,2,3,4,3,7,10,5,4,3,43,59,12,1,15,7,1,6,11,18,0,1,28,12,96,31,95,79,19,78,0,6,4,4,102,27,0,10,42,417,139,5,0.0,0.05288407001668223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13084767920681162,0.0,0.4293021856449297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03713911876965679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04426500029488849,0.0,0.0,0.03673003354301215,0.0,0.04172682688787177,0.0,0.04193517460616191,0.03432084193215576,0.22360548625214632,0.1360425628644681,0.0,0.07596060603122455,0.0,0.1873627957550736,0.07895040908794276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05104948126162999,0.1365222160671072,0.0,0.0472169239398707,0.03844829599635672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07127334015830207,0.0,0.09805685207807814,0.0,0.09203152507789293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08744878532695391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04611892198495009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045136650107627865,0.06377317184771457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04893894996019315,0.1034525068438398,0.0,0.13991674481075614,0.04281706354997464,0.025366568503232125,0.07487387442288762,0.07139588053074633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03998335643191408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05289158353787535,0.119669095333838,0.0,0.044771607795547994,0.0,0.04395556451379876,0.0,0.04778169117904858,0.0,0.0,0.046586368982369605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07358914676463878,0.03638272131055854,0.0,0.09452206324361327,0.0,0.04564135690070378,0.03152636105421741,0.08722380107331269,0.0,0.0,0.11849923252176528,0.07496274872628797,0.049934103301639714,0.0,0.0758925741750657,0.1611359500705081,0.08446766558742501,0.08938075764781228,0.0,0.0448409188820306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045067683278670834,0.0,0.035626485932446474,0.0,0.06562234886800702,0.06619118929525343,0.20654726146527008,0.0,0.0,0.3769744291344952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030245198502322542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03094364165898265,0.07794549025373773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028593725828979788,0.09178250801681252,0.0,0.2396014171727464,0.0,0.0,0.042457218204001335,0.03549480104745281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03692176092635092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037818299581394633,0.0,0.04414423291734454,0.0,0.06318444379574144,0.14272192795567504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10130041912895832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035875171829494304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08895867118267699,0.028599707477054058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08529952631030158,0.0,0.15151800599721124,0.0,0.0,0.046465637182688826,0.10737857236002728,0.0,0.0,0.07365555840445576,0.1842843013636204,0.1062853329885835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04027530250241261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048403741002532835,0.06498826379434215,0.0,0.0,0.09512028037858546,0.0,0.0,0.028742875348657337 alcoholism,Maysa69,2019/07/14,So I called for an ambulance. I SHOULD have gone with them. I am stupid. I had to pee and they came as I was in bathroom. Now just want to drink and sleep.,-2.3887254901960766,-0.7884837941176457,-0.5388235294117649,109.01862745098042,107.52941176470587,3.443137254901962,11.549019607843142,5.46131890053228,-1.6731215686274503,117,2,32,1,6,37,28,34,0.107,0.852,0.040999999999999995,-0.4767,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,2,0,3,1,1,0,1,0,5,3,2,0,0,7,8,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,4,0,7,0,6,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,24,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4730316028569284,0.5298363343368733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4538101339598804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4635860808934491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2732377525750023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,adams4365,2019/07/14,"Ways to support my (21F) boyfriend (23M) cutting back on alcohol I’m posting looking for strategies on how to help my boyfriend cut back on alcohol and manage difficult situations where alcohol is present. He has been a heavy drinker since I’ve known him, and I’ve been his sober driver for over 6 years now, back when I was too young to drive and he was too young to drink. He had cut back some, but was still consuming 3-4 30pks of beer a week. He has told me before he suffers with social anxiety and also depression, and I think this is how he copes. On the 4th of July we had an incident that pushed me over the edge and made me put my foot down. I wrote him a letter expressing my hurt and told him he has a month to seriously cut back or I’m moving out. My father is a functioning alcoholic that has been emotionally and verbally abusive in the past, and I told bf I am not marrying someone like my father. He took it extremely serious, and called a helpline and started a plan. He has been doing great and I’m super proud of him, yet I don’t think the deeper issues have been resolved. We have some social events that we cannot miss going on next week, and he made a comment about us taking turns for driving home from the events. I brushed this off, but now it has me concerned that if he doesn’t solve the deeper issues, he will go back to abusing alcohol. What are some good strategies that we can start working on for him to cut back, especially when at our age, alcohol is a huge part of the social scene? TLDR: Boyfriend abuses alcohol, I feel as if he hasn’t resolved the issues making him abuse it. Needing strategies to help.",4.946688443670151,5.4836913140243935,5.575209059233451,82.91032520325206,68.78658536585365,8.93054587688734,30.25319396051104,8.976282227363876,2.3104376887340297,1293,48,263,22,21,419,170,328,0.15,0.747,0.10300000000000001,-0.953,0,0,10,0,2,0,33.0,6,0,0,6,21,20,5,0,18,0,31,10,1,5,0,41,55,24,0,3,6,2,1,1,1,1,7,0,1,0,11,19,9,0,6,2,0,8,5,12,0,0,17,3,31,8,33,37,4,52,0,4,1,0,42,15,0,6,28,166,42,2,0.0,0.35583815204314223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5616765305478021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060042809012503785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057437295612971666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4041323538494405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06388899736182753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07666681116570967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06466775889045565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07355148289301652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08445680769203273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037963563882870734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08534132165904144,0.06297496841332872,0.0,0.0827778402061172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10065136279893644,0.0,0.07531306770140128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08037651359513989,0.0,0.0,0.23509736642608675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03668112649319004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06304971887191703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14208824141440907,0.05011761831048648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05992949726634943,0.07979996572807348,0.0,0.05567212979478249,0.0,0.0,0.0798502405961135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08130616532027721,0.07167397909589097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07190751487814259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07547784702024464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062108358783973035,0.08439497751181776,0.0,0.22960901614666435,0.06361648144806338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10628642855522484,0.0,0.05996034325486953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08520182432222373,0.0,0.0,0.05645209497712081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09621864442732064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21523134804231925,0.08341853221537165,0.0,0.08166733022953186,0.0,0.0,0.09031404150997127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0595963593384819,0.12045202306485076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054660372409347686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04835015367220346 alcoholism,Adreng666,2019/07/14,"I’m not sure if I have a problematic alcohol use or not? I usually don’t drink often especially not lately because I have tried to limit my drinking for half a year now. I thought after a while away from drinking that I would be able to control my drinking, but when I get slightly intoxicated something in my brain just says “time to get shit faced”. And than I will drink everything I can find. I do not usually throw up so eventually I’m so drunk that I have several times had what seems to be some sort of psychosis. One time believing I was held captive by my boyfriend and escaping and another time trying to convince everyone I was with that there was aliens in the house (which I firmly believed and felt threatened by). Before my break from drinking I only drank once a week so the amount of times I drank per month wasn’t very concerning. I’m just a bit scared that one day when I decide to drink that amount again I just won’t wake up again because I have died of intoxication or harmed myself during one of those psychosis like episodes. Since I am only 19 it’s hard to totally stop drinking because it’s such a big part of socialising and meeting new people. I know it sounds like alcohol isn’t the best for me, but I would like to hear some of your advise. Like if I am to young to know if I can have a healthy relationship to alcohol yet and if my reckless drinking is normal for a teen my age.",6.676382978723402,5.9780042269503575,7.056893617021277,77.95300000000002,65.24113475177305,10.356879432624114,34.402836879432634,9.725611199111238,3.0321543262411343,1120,44,227,20,15,366,150,282,0.132,0.777,0.091,-0.9126,0,0,13,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,3,15,10,1,1,11,0,24,21,4,2,2,43,39,20,1,7,15,0,2,4,0,4,5,3,0,0,11,7,15,4,7,10,0,1,8,3,0,4,10,5,33,7,32,23,8,32,0,0,0,0,6,6,1,11,28,154,44,1,0.07866293214306333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2522002546069831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08248494309940516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07390641417378888,0.0,0.0,0.1438565799344167,0.0,0.06693636145502986,0.17725237422022755,0.08255189416690045,0.0,0.08587954837942173,0.0,0.0,0.08781384766526655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08822716724333136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05073108361026685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08163970428917343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6935375358824718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0751658026885957,0.07069717119504007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07552875085240579,0.0,0.0718964948795866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08219627070391491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07046653622567864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08865884157300083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09076646220565747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08646218058485554,0.0,0.08873521377352765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15372294090768354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06278800194844444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07597315004352671,0.0,0.0,0.07707297177828436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08377345545198453,0.15991211589847448,0.11965340916455905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08518428986416032,0.0,0.054534972561150113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08445455034110556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06255592093907293,0.07875531793467133,0.0,0.0,0.07161177904993013,0.0,0.08886672280822365,0.08074636942814489,0.0650707903490533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06055856828688056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0657657335645383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07413888260727447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06244958138680608,0.22934494161581706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1068139347093223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06793951682958095,0.1732722126804803,0.06490515726672952,0.0,0.0,0.06309865929024353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11175978008930128,0.0,0.0,0.050656349234594944 alcoholism,Alexcape92,2019/07/14,"Finally reached my limit. Checking into a program this Monday. Hello everyone. Sorta new to reddit and just found this community today. I’m 26 years old and have been drinking since I was 14. Considered myself an alcoholic by 18 and full blown by 21. I’ve lost a lot in the past 4 years including my career, the love of my life, my privilege to drive and countless amounts of money due to my DUI fees and alcohol expenses themselves. I finally agreed to check into a 30 day program on Monday which includes detox and intensive therapy. I’m extremely nervous and don’t really know what to expect or what will become of me because drinking is all I’ve ever known. The past 5 years have been a blur and I’ve pretty much forgotten who I was before this substance has taken me over. If anyone has experience with programs or any words of encouragement please let me know.",4.755244755244753,6.634722090909094,6.023030303030307,74.48685314685316,70.51515151515152,9.198135198135198,30.87412587412588,9.661875296680813,3.280244755244756,695,30,117,17,13,233,112,165,0.04,0.848,0.11199999999999999,0.8981,0,0,4,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,2,2,5,0,1,8,0,12,7,0,0,2,27,20,11,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,7,11,4,1,4,2,5,1,1,2,0,0,7,0,12,3,17,11,5,22,0,1,0,1,4,6,0,6,15,73,19,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3307752714261744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10523972788920344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10820934416053224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09433812695471064,0.17091639737518366,0.1316863844749364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09980514082200294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30320491023196194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13998611564039,0.0,0.14787646918734368,0.0,0.15138155397276878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3390563660478209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16968251616129915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17010025205340898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15824900792163887,0.10930909374721873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1689350026088765,0.1315684434837469,0.13967378475756625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11376383515987955,0.0,0.0,0.1494647935580625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16239091554444268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2954651836095138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16987616621063667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15744299805587098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09914097766776996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12801617730223236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17697754669980276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14669106827867834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2989743393455212 alcoholism,hillomunkki007,2019/07/14,"My fathers heavy drinking and how it's affected me. Advice needed My father has been drinking heavily for more than 20 years now. Me, my mother and sister have all suffered from his crazy actions while he's drunk. He shouts at me and my mother almost every night, even if we haven't done anything wrong. He threatens to kick us out of the house, threatens to kill us or take his own life (because of us ruining his life expectations). He often hits me, pulls my hair and keeps me up all night, shouting at me. Same goes for my mother. I'm getting conserned about myself and my mental health, as I've become progressively more agressive towards my dad as he yells and tries to argue with me. A few months ago I lost total control of myself, as my father started to pull my mothers hair in my room as I tried to sleep. My mother always defends me from him, so out of instinct I for once defended my mother. I punched my dad several times and broke his nose, after which I ran out of the house and spent the night with my mother and sister as they escaped from home after me. A few days ago I experienced a sort of panic attack as my father was once again shouting at me. I became hysterical and pushed my hands into my face, sobbing for hours, not moving. I was twitching and my body went ice cold. I have no choice of leaving home yet and my mother cannot divorce my dad, as she fears of how my dad might respond. I hope someone reads this, I need help. I don't know how much longer I can take this.",5.87331497147354,5.623413943143816,6.226602400157387,81.74748967145389,66.75919732441471,8.239307495573481,29.96281723391698,7.285733465282438,1.7159201652567382,1175,37,232,9,17,379,165,299,0.145,0.8290000000000001,0.026000000000000002,-0.9855,0,0,2,0,1,0,32.0,4,0,1,3,11,12,3,2,6,0,12,14,7,5,3,41,27,26,1,5,3,18,3,0,0,1,4,4,3,0,4,19,3,2,1,4,1,7,5,11,0,0,8,10,58,1,43,17,10,35,0,5,0,0,38,11,1,7,17,159,62,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10645199945317513,0.19313219849194424,0.0,0.10908469401524476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09064433106322377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0896458890445255,0.0,0.0,0.12393159191357205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06640699895685884,0.12031238470160388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12100447601332122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12218213596692384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07025536860232258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11148039808742316,0.0,0.2134336223058005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07195187720613717,0.0,0.09178414147167717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12258443874469725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056915099038719864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11579496281145014,0.0,0.0,0.07301819116087456,0.0,0.21854543530893614,0.10819904538545567,0.10728102534072284,0.25139739998365485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09682823263994793,0.12052267713478362,0.0,0.059868939660499124,0.0,0.0,0.11534857957417595,0.0,0.0,0.15389088396744505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11891763069888285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10978289833282592,0.11556496771235385,0.0,0.0,0.08695249355561932,0.11578281684677355,0.08008124738810228,0.16155084651199195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3066900534067495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23202875133060716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12781412633935602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10896650430513556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12306782987991728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1090156974154152,0.0,0.09230198725945134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07710618656555389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1638141699364973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06352205497552796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14792217750596526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39311348187066536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10098571301141987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1191055349599564,0.0,0.07015187207245481 alcoholism,usernamedunbeentaken,2019/01/20,"How long does it take to develop alcohol dependency? If someone had been sober for 7 months, totally clean, could they develop an alcohol dependency in one month? One month in which they were functional enough to maintain employment?",8.016153846153845,10.568679333333336,7.936410256410259,61.3169230769231,63.35897435897437,14.430769230769231,41.20512820512821,13.023866798666859,7.074497435897436,190,11,28,9,3,61,31,39,0.0,0.9129999999999999,0.087,0.5473,1,0,2,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,4,2,0,3,1,6,5,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,2,0,5,1,2,6,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,3,4,20,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5233983818670302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19551447058070026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21429363554885875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25302354556733425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21670856320426965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5863757910261216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33187017528045376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20748360619822626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1841171340615595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,trydryforlife,2019/01/20,"Concerned Hi - I am 40, 7 months out of rehab I fell off the wagon last week. I drank heavily for two days. About 15 hours after my last drink I started diarrhea. That was Friday afternoon. It’s Sunday afternoon, and I’ve had constant runs since then. Imodium hasn’t fixed it. I am not jaundiced or in pain or lethargic or dehydrated, but I am worried about this diarrhea. I had a high fever and sweats last night but it passed. I have been around folks who are sick with various things late last week, too. I don’t want to overreact, but I’ve not had the runs this long after alcohol, and I’m paranoid now about hurting my body with alcohol. If I’m having pancreatitis or liver failure or something, but other than the runs I’m not having other issues, so I’m tempted to just deal with it instead of going to the doc. Anyone have post-bender experience relevant to this? Needless to say, I am back on the wagon again.",3.417311233885819,5.23413010497238,4.827602209944754,81.94313443830572,73.9171270718232,7.920589318600367,26.983793738489872,8.648137234880735,2.080833959484345,723,27,138,14,15,241,112,181,0.13699999999999998,0.855,0.008,-0.9704,0,0,4,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,0,11,2,0,0,6,0,16,11,3,0,0,23,24,15,0,2,14,0,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,12,8,4,0,0,1,0,6,5,2,0,1,6,1,12,0,22,18,1,35,0,1,0,0,4,6,0,6,23,94,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3342310274145533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10933985517929434,0.0,0.0,0.1392054001977424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12024142410474525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17369549710643611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16898399696796446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10084784940048754,0.16121401770638824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1531863132135381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15296310421809378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08887055648310033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16521698896625606,0.0,0.0,0.15399621270698788,0.0,0.16740086402481413,0.0,0.0,0.1632131100216691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5098604785786311,0.1763959063815809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13838545979245268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12481568525717004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14674575971393627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16639222844928395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1497624067287998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12435433357657875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12935361909289025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1203838148110936,0.0,0.0,0.1106818346456132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10388747970902873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15275400328996278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09223303054624576,0.0,0.2508664761967493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15880468825018673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,rrr_rrr,2019/01/20,"""I went to a wine bar on the weekend."" ,""I was a bit tipsy"" etc... Any reference to alcohol from other people makes me feel quite uncomfortable, which affects my socializing. How can I cope with this? I've been sober for 7 years, but still fall for traps some days like once in several months or so. sign sigh sigh sigh. And intense cravings are pains. I fight against temptation every day. When I socialize, people naturally mention booze. I feel really frustrated and even annoyed with any reference to booze... I don't know what to do... Should I try to change the topic? 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It's a good start, trying to keep at it.",1.7177777777777798,2.4781380000000013,2.3490740740740783,102.26583333333336,76.4074074074074,5.4,13.5,3.1291,-1.6455777777777785,94,0,25,0,2,29,21,27,0.0,0.888,0.11199999999999999,0.4404,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,1,5,2,0,9,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,6,14,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30152875335886103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28409862918592765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30106604571501594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27609847440254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3205009516188104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5407192238485702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23974469074300025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3950156557806268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22996570236325026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,questionman1234321,2019/01/20,"Hey any advice on a friend being enabled by other toxic people? What is the best most compassionate “non-enabling” way to handle this situation? I have an alcoholic friend who stays over my place for recovery and sometimes goes to see an enabler to get drunk. (But never admits it). This person is aware they are endangering my friend but their clingy obsession with my friend means they are happy to be an enabler, consciously, to keep my friends company. My friend will probably not live through the year if the addiction continues and has expressed the desire to stop but still lies about drinking when she is away. I can’t afford to worry about her 24/7 but I also don’t want her to feel like help isn’t there anymore and she only has the enabler to turn to. What is the best way to deal with this situation without being judgy or making things worse? 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I’m 21 now but have been drinking since I was 12 (also have been using a wide range of substances). Up until this point in my life, there have never really been any problems that arose from my substance abuse. It has always seemed “normal” to me. What I’ve started to realize is my behavior is not normal at all, and that realization came through the destruction of relationships. I’m in my senior year of college, and my academics have never suffered from my substance abuse, nor have I ever gotten fired from a job as a result. This makes me think that I’m a functioning alcoholic. My girlfriend of six and a half years can’t stand my drinking, and I feel like every time I try to curb back on it I last for a week or two and then binge. I tell myself things like “you’ve been good”, or “you haven’t drank in a week, you deserve it”. But it always spirals out of control. One week I’ll drink two 30 racks and sneak several nips, and the next week I’ll have 5 beers total because I realize it’s getting out of hand. Drinking is comfortable for me, but it reeks havoc on my relationships. It seems as though I’m incapable of having just 1 drink. I will drink until the sun comes up or I pass out, which I’ve only recently realized is a serious problem. I guess I’m here to ask for any advice or similar issues that others can relate to. 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I am 100% sober. I posted here a few weeks ago about wanting to quit. I make it a day or so before withdrawal scares me off. I've been researching detox facilities but I want to do outpatient if possible so I don't lose my job. I've looked up meeting locations but I'm drunk when the meetings come up. For the last week I've been trying to taper off. I've been keeping track of how many drinks I have in a day and at what time. I was averaging 15 a day and now I'm at 9. This is a hump I can't get over for some reason. I got as low as 8 but bounced back to 10. Am I doing this wrong? Should I leave detox to the professionals and just check myself in somewhere? I guess I'm looking for reassurance. I am serious about getting well, it's just hard and I feel so defeated whenever I fail.",-0.20665714285714287,1.8508595771428595,2.5219285714285697,92.56632142857143,87.51428571428568,6.242857142857144,20.17857142857143,7.554174236665415,0.6316571428571427,626,20,148,12,20,218,107,175,0.166,0.764,0.07,-0.9531,1,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,4,14,9,0,1,8,0,15,5,0,4,0,23,30,17,0,4,7,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,5,5,2,1,2,2,1,1,2,7,1,0,5,4,19,2,23,24,2,24,0,4,2,1,3,11,0,4,11,93,24,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1547686700398343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342534172007153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1485681929436369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1503988489926665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33779960192997033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1710374454595716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08828089838123401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18243823147439692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13964023601539682,0.0,0.1923369924118203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15640357083167558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17325942210074738,0.15518879715561767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14231890559850746,0.0,0.1848717758206833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29323305060979865,0.19532807546943448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11654407322843167,0.17701276915557107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19683056641480276,0.16721454375016254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18570415813565366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1795135935893859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17480088573557342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10180823336063016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11853910875948245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20596228998127414,0.0,0.2801004890059877,0.0,0.15698262055858986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19089313313962344,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,delcio89,2019/02/02,I’ve gotten very good at hiding my drinking. According to what my wife believes I haven’t had a drink in almost a month. I’ve had a pint and a half of gin today. I want to stop. Some days are better than others but I continue to drink daily.,0.7984615384615381,2.612188076923079,3.216000000000001,90.529,81.69230769230771,5.6984615384615385,18.09230769230769,6.742157984588678,0.027533846153846568,188,4,41,2,5,65,39,52,0.073,0.813,0.114,0.2179,0,0,3,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,4,0,4,3,0,0,0,6,6,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,1,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,5,2,7,3,1,7,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,5,26,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24976329901723734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2810167764169103,0.0,0.2205963117850804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16085861352222214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7330251889533544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2092060159986014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19908880750210006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2085306278835832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2364259161908799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2058019041851288,0.14711743981473674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ClemTheParrot,2019/02/02,"Charities/Organizations to Help Alcoholics? Hi everyone, On Thursday, January 31st, my mother died from complications of liver cirrhosis from decades of alcohol addiction. To say we are heartbroken and devastated is an understatement. Despite being an alcoholic, she was an amazing mother. She was only 61. We're in the process of planning her funeral and my sister and I are throwing around the idea of setting up some kind of a donation box at her memorial where people can donate money to some kind of organization that would help people struggling with alcohol addiction. But we're not sure what, if any, legitimate organizations there are that would help with this. We know we don't want to set anything up with AA as the chapters in our local area are a little loosey goosey and my mom had some bad experiences with them. We are in Southeastern Wisconsin outside of Milwaukee. Any and all suggestions are greatly appreciated. If you are struggling with alcoholism, we wish you the best in your journey to wellness.",8.675285053929121,9.899401644067796,8.818787878787882,60.49594761171035,60.80790960451978,12.764047252182849,40.94966615305599,12.24349002098031,5.8282248587570615,829,44,123,28,11,272,114,177,0.13,0.746,0.12300000000000001,-0.1004,0,0,5,0,0,0,19.0,6,3,1,2,4,10,0,2,9,0,16,8,1,0,2,31,19,9,2,6,4,4,0,0,0,2,7,1,0,0,4,16,5,0,2,0,3,2,2,3,2,0,3,1,18,7,29,13,5,18,0,0,0,0,24,13,0,5,1,93,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2647677358288725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6488942120130103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16516216585766094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09993201186977099,0.1081043602301258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10139452627202306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274402670189749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12603206527190766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11603791847541906,0.0,0.11878834080302625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13388432996554106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2441892703693365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13708719103323727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2529151574582551,0.06673840432116238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12171142097225555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422251310888519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0923580407666532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16837775886799827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09657129431791768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2539038964259664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11445260089195895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07162647961303194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10918612792722847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13964614881904394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17253021702648152,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Repulsive_Sea,2019/02/02,"Can I Plan A Day To Quit? Full disclosure: I'm literally drunk around the clock and I know I need to quit again. My life will quickly fall apart. ​ My question is: Can I set a date to quit, like after the super bowl or something? Or do I need to quit today? Like mentally will I be able to quit on a specific day or do I need go into this thinking: I can not drink today. ​ Thanks.",0.816775067750676,3.0371056097561,2.641382113821141,92.35307588075884,84.3658536585366,5.595663956639567,21.30623306233063,6.937597516519254,0.5021582655826561,308,10,67,4,9,102,50,82,0.03,0.815,0.155,0.8732,0,0,2,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,7,3,4,0,0,5,0,9,3,0,0,0,13,17,4,0,3,4,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,3,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,10,4,9,14,1,17,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,4,11,42,11,0,0.12505067077522622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27098469907867845,0.3039005049397927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11132160927174503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612946749322865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12250205007214365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07106917799539995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06872457830049479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08832698695623485,0.1221868823748228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1260216639097672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2781704636056029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14008537045871214,0.665033905803872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09627011578578122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11512985656235017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08012742050798648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2370668282075417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3039005049397927,0.0 alcoholism,Throw15away1515,2019/02/02,"How do I [M24] talk to my gf [24] about her excessive drinking? Tlrd, concerned about my gf when she gets extremely drunk. How can I address this? We've been together 4 years. Whenever she goes out with her friends to a club and has a few drinks, she doesn't stop drinking until she can barely stand. Last week she got thrown out of a club for being too drunk. I don't have an issue with her going out and drinking... it's the amount that worries me. I'm concerned about her safety, being that excessively drunk is never safe, especially in a club. She gets very emotional when drunk. Often cries, often gets angry and tries to start a fight with me. Often shouts, sweats excessively etc... it's not nice being around her like that. Even if it wasn't directed at me, which is usually is, it's extremely unattractive. I don't understand why she repeatedly does it. Everyone drinks too much the odd time, but this isn't the odd time, this is the norm. She doesn't go out drinking that much, but when she does, she doesn't stop until in a bad state. She'll undoubtedly get very defensive. I'm not sure how to approach this. I'm thinking using the ""I feel _ when you _"", I'm not great at difficult conversations.",3.0653657548125612,5.149692225531915,4.038966565349547,86.03666666666668,75.68085106382979,7.54002026342452,23.9564336372847,8.418075326091056,1.4900901722391078,943,30,190,18,21,304,121,235,0.157,0.78,0.064,-0.9636,0,0,6,0,1,0,43.0,0,1,0,0,17,10,2,0,12,0,21,11,1,4,3,34,37,15,0,1,6,0,1,1,3,1,0,1,1,0,14,11,10,4,3,13,0,3,11,4,0,0,3,2,27,6,23,30,5,31,0,0,0,0,23,9,0,4,18,123,41,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10418154019553524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09771518828592332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1285519947314222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20482753912828194,0.0,0.0,0.6878692647609322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.131643034071966,0.0,0.0,0.13051942105648168,0.07729723233115518,0.0,0.0,0.11182721068899333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059173900485910313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09041711233773043,0.0,0.24457344571804376,0.0,0.13302172816990834,0.0,0.09359960740454598,0.1290260233182556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1221489479431603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.095395095785975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057174962169410065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17206107818404132,0.0,0.0902607752712372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08283445892664833,0.0,0.0,0.19568469384691745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11029942006896327,0.0,0.0,0.0940643066196299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07498811897373582,0.0,0.0,0.13648230545893214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07945570960470856,0.0,0.0,0.12183239049005908,0.0,0.10107637237755013,0.12889204625568362,0.19312406538219626,0.0,0.0,0.09387443244471122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1056014009296158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11884967816388335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07536350356106479 alcoholism,NewFapstronaut427,2019/02/02,"A Shorter Friday Night Post Details aside I had a stressful week and was feeling miserable, but hey. I’m at least warm, well fed, employed, and have a place to sleep. AND I’m fucking sober. Not much to brag about but hey-just one less thing to feel ashamed of later too :)",0.3488888888888866,2.790868611111112,1.027685185185188,99.71708333333336,94.37037037037035,3.4407407407407407,21.564814814814817,5.148860815047168,-0.1915851851851849,211,8,45,1,8,64,43,54,0.141,0.687,0.172,0.2144,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,3,6,1,3,3,0,3,3,1,0,0,8,9,5,0,0,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,4,1,1,3,3,1,2,6,6,3,6,0,1,0,1,1,2,1,0,3,26,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32021823849152264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2927403182680675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2327761687019637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29715710789336114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2145720642570114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33083467494690594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3032657552860998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3168813823509832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36272459748628944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21036998327477696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25399969538930783,0.0,0.2847088053633832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,NeonTrex,2019/02/02,"I don’t want to explain myself As the title says, I don’t want to go into details about why I stopped drinking, it’s not painful I just don’t like talking about it because it does make me feel bad. How do you avoid the long explanations or invasive questions and if you do get them how do you approach the answer. I’ve started with a simple I just don’t want to drink. I went to my first affair where alcohol was heavily involved and I ended up having to dodge a lot of people that I knew where going to offer me alcohol.",3.228646788990826,4.3063540091743135,4.879713302752292,84.34507454128442,73.12844036697247,7.2848623853211025,28.303899082568808,7.645422480735847,1.6745678899082566,413,16,84,5,8,140,71,109,0.075,0.838,0.087,-0.2008,0,1,4,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,1,1,8,4,0,1,5,0,9,5,0,3,0,23,21,7,0,4,5,0,1,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,4,4,2,5,2,0,4,5,3,0,1,3,2,16,1,13,18,1,13,0,0,0,0,11,4,0,4,6,60,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4198945661564084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16402908914670689,0.11975522450292178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17191633800604145,0.0,0.0,0.3848960464590159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17399802930955055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09933195819630844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16710184345216025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1026379834965264,0.0,0.22329622744608865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09597645085842592,0.0,0.0,0.1738537054785024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16701633788489514,0.0,0.0,0.13113313550527855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20903861953502126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361949773579752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22007103238089265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15622639630653634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13904963072824356,0.0,0.0,0.16424254332776042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1579005557548228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3476171734810665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18211283333443173,0.17726723870619018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,AcJunkie,2019/02/02,"Weird form of alcoholism. I started drinking everyday when I was 21. Now I’m a 120 pound, 5’4, surprisingly fit bricklayer. My work is intense physical, and im the featherweight. So the construction helped to my addiction for obvious reasons. I’ve had my time and trouble but I’ve always been a happy person. As the years went on, I got worse. I’m now 29. I can now legit drink 10 beers, sleep at 10pm, be up for 5:30 am and feel no troubles whats so ever. Remeber, I’m a midget. I have no physical pains whats so ever or hangovers. Weekends I can climb to 14. I started dating a really respectable girl 9 months ago. She’s really cute, and I’m a short dude. I haven’t changed any of my habits. My only rules are when I have a responsible thing to do, I do not drink or smoke till that is taken care of. I always wait till I’m home, safe and have nothing to do, and I don’t get withdrawal or anxious at all. I can stay up without drinking easily. My girlfriend also had a conversation with me about it. She says she really dosent mind cause I’m still fully functional all night, I just get a little funny. I rollerblade, skateboard, blew up a four wheeler this year. I am a little worried for my health, but I just don’t feel like it’s a problem for me. Yet im severe. I know it’s a problem cause I have friends who drink like me and they ALL have problems. Im to the point where I’m starting the just get bored of it and drink water and eat lol. Anyone else have a similar story? 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Hi all, I i posted a day or 2 ago and shared my story, but for those who didn't see it heres a quick rundown! I'm 21 and started drinking everyday about a year ago. 2-3 IPA's per night (7%ABV) and it slowly ramped up to about 6-8 IPAs (7%ABV) per night. The other day i dropped down to 6 4.5% ABV Pacificos per night. So, its now been 17 hours without a drink and i feel normal, if not better than normal. Im thinking a lot more clearly. How long does it generally take for withdrawals to kick in? Is it possible that i just wont have any? Im not sure if i was physically addicted if that makes any difference, it kinda just got to the point where i was drinking because i was afraid of feeling the withdrawals. Google is saying it could take up to 24 hours for them to kick in, while other sources say they generally start around 6 hours after. My Questions are: Is it possible that i just wont have withdrawals If i do have withdrawals, will they just hit me like a freight train out of nowhere Thanks so much for reading and shoutout to all that commented on my last post! You were all very helpful and encouraging. 3cupsofmilk ",3.101628010704726,4.688793025423731,3.90421052631579,89.19458073148975,74.25423728813557,7.002319357716324,27.25156110615522,7.669130373188453,1.4073084745762712,918,35,195,12,19,293,139,236,0.038,0.862,0.1,0.9338,0,0,4,0,1,0,32.0,0,1,3,1,14,8,0,1,9,0,18,5,0,2,5,42,32,17,0,7,14,0,3,1,0,3,2,2,0,0,16,9,4,0,5,4,0,0,7,1,0,0,7,6,19,7,27,20,6,34,0,0,1,0,13,10,0,8,22,122,35,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1168152542552079,0.0,0.0,0.18997367721862066,0.11451658507217047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14573875731198185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09539106633854172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06532096607088429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09477028520944772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08555490532174873,0.0,0.0,0.1382127974718783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11195463551592273,0.0,0.0,0.09377245400804478,0.0,0.0,0.31491463143998544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16254304139200015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08570200001296531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0718240375607909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4221061229334319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2314925420231524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08734599136672644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05235073890220277,0.0,0.0,0.0948291988428588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09109972934831258,0.0,0.0,0.07152709312402472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07877158320240639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30167438504297656,0.20997917412495373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10129653336537216,0.2416033327754249,0.20525059595379536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12003862461120468,0.0,0.10718444504927392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17042862513721574,0.0,0.0,0.08538901800642891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516903541982335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1009927409131552,0.0,0.1611351213642943,0.0,0.0,0.09865433905179287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06866088385908359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08841446621861064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20658805462178936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06900459480830891 alcoholism,stringerhye,2019/02/02,"Perspective needed please Brother (59), lifer, recently divorced, now living with mother in her condo in Colorado. Has relapsed 4 or 5 times in the last 6 months since he moved from CA to CO. Mother often rescues. Has myriad medical issues but often complains of back pain, had scripts for Morphine and Oxycontin, as well many other maladies, some real and some imagined. While not drinking is addicted to narcotics. Mother is 90, has health issues of her own, has little experience with addiction, is protective. Relapsed last weekend, told mother he had cancer, went to ER and spent 6 days hospitalized for pneumonia, Afib, infected colon, etc. Will be discharged tomorrow and will be back to condo with mother. Family tried to get him into rehab (again), no success. Family feels brother is endangering mother. Suggestions? Brother has been to AA, detox, rehab, sober living, many times. Thank you.",6.68001018848701,9.493625304635763,6.75721854304636,67.30498726439124,67.47682119205298,9.149465104431993,32.807437595517065,9.661875296680813,3.9585492613346918,715,32,94,17,13,228,105,151,0.122,0.795,0.083,-0.8689,0,0,1,0,1,0,36.0,0,1,0,1,7,5,0,0,1,0,16,12,1,0,0,19,23,8,0,1,3,9,1,0,0,2,10,0,2,0,1,8,1,1,2,2,1,2,2,2,3,0,6,1,4,3,19,13,4,21,0,0,0,0,19,5,0,5,14,61,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32490602942591035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22917326067196264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0961051095782584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14598216525979105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16619589218804456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14576945348563275,0.2809642355668266,0.0,0.07534862709241262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07785642490519612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584005295395586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3110748303803695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2429412102227027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14935647049321762,0.2631735143740988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30216432723873715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15012125015648814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11894577008865542,0.15838391459198378,0.0,0.11049591024409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15856702391922034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16357842325501198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1696165687051138,0.0,0.0,0.14713856429680466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12327029094986748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13719693455842705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17378868477981196,0.0,0.0,0.1423943111371526,0.0,0.10117431138063523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1339862320541731,0.13814236844641956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,SlorpThemSoupGood,2019/02/02,"I can't live like anymore. My mom's an alcoholic. Every night I hyperventilate wondering if she's going to come downstairs completely out of it. I constantly walk on eggshells around her, afraid that if I say the wrong thing it'll set her off as it has done in the past. My dad and I have grown closer due to this because we talk about it. I'm starting to not love her anymore. I can't love someone who puts me through pain everyday. Right now I'm going through a period of time where I'm very mentally fragile due to the things going on in my life. It hurts that even with everything going on, she still continues at our expense. She won't stop lying. She always has excuses. She makes promises, and then breaks them. She told me she loved me enough to quit, and she proved herself wrong. Countless times it has happened, and I still get my hopes up only to have them crash down. It gets harder and harder to tell her I love her, to smile at her, to laugh at her jokes and hug her. It feels like she's broken me. She's caused me to cry myself to sleep. She's ruined holidays, burnt bridges, and I don't think she will ever stop. She's been given every opportunity, but frankly she just doesn't want to stop. It's getting harder and harder. When she's drunk, sometimes I just want to die, and that's not at exaggeration. I can't keep living like this. I don't want to end each day paranoid and upset. I'm not old enough to move out yet, and I don't know how to help her change. If any of you have any tips on how to deal with an alcoholic family member, please share them. I'm at the end of my rope and each day is painful because of the abuse she's put me through. Thank you for reading this. 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First off, I've never had an opiate addiction. This Friday I'm having a major surgery and will certainly be prescribed an opiate. I'm hopeful that this would be a good opportunity to detox from alcohol. Does anyone have any relevant experience with this?",5.00436781609195,8.104656103448278,5.880000000000003,70.12333333333335,74.17241379310346,8.694252873563219,30.356321839080447,9.2995712137729,3.5612666666666666,266,12,39,7,6,87,45,58,0.0,0.765,0.235,0.9254,0,0,2,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,4,0,8,4,0,0,2,7,12,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,5,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,4,6,7,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,26,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3057084109591721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5993854736539825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19070096708291887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19608209744277486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24540483252223355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27431284097878894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.238532302293996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1593739546072935,0.2352100849199416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18796528356999556,0.0,0.0,0.278528732697196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21628371392864587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19920832998963592,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,bambambud,2019/08/19,"Dating and booze. This scenario has happened a few times. I tell a woman I am a recovering alky and she says she drinks one or two a few days per week and is that OK with Me. I can tell she isn’t an alcoholic by how she talks about booze. I say “it’s fine if you drink but it’s hard for me to be around it I wouldn’t want to be around it a lot and I’m around it enough because it’s everywhere and my parents drink.” To which she replies “I like having a drink I wouldn’t want to not drink because of someone else.” At that point I’m losing interest fast. I don’t want to ask someone to quit drinking for me but someone has to get this is not easy and say something like “if it’s important to you I won’t drink around except for special occasions” not what this woman said. What y’all think of this in your life?",0.3988320707070692,2.3206428352272748,2.03469696969697,97.89010101010102,83.7159090909091,5.2747474747474765,20.005050505050505,6.42735559955562,-0.09668964646464673,633,18,153,6,18,206,93,176,0.048,0.809,0.14300000000000002,0.9162,1,0,9,0,0,0,9.0,0,4,0,2,6,7,0,0,7,1,14,11,0,1,0,28,24,12,0,7,9,1,1,2,0,3,2,4,0,2,16,11,10,0,1,7,0,0,8,1,0,2,1,5,22,6,23,18,4,12,0,1,0,0,20,7,0,4,7,103,38,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10838647133609618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3611389938289238,0.09481342769478113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12364862281260172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06540710850758638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6954666568358763,0.0,0.0,0.08472287635647156,0.0,0.0,0.10479332844387153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05298743900437679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08968482090400254,0.0,0.0908518417716977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07163550591388049,0.0990967702690597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11346234175956105,0.0,0.08622312827014737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06872439519593009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11261421694568767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09587409372304057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10787199231815636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.096473053154125,0.24195827986370205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2577969292418689,0.0780775919835165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08151705423069837,0.17729001298930944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06498544220135066,0.0,0.0,0.0591384548265237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0990719953628134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17945933025199431,0.0,0.08135250740129961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,throwaway33333777777,2019/08/19,"Alcohol stops me from performing at work Hey, I stared a new job in research today. I was drinking about 400ml it liquor yesterday, quickly got some anti vomiting medicine on my way to work today. I have to think a lot at work but my brain is just empty, I can’t think a single thought. I could do so much better. Despite wanting to stop this mess it somehow has gotten a ritual for me to slow down by enjoying one too many drinks. What do you recommend me to stop this? I know I only and simply do it because it’s a habit so I gotta replace it. At work I feel my brain is slow af and lagging. It’s like I’m a different person",0.4184090909090941,2.619180386363638,2.770787878787882,90.87118181818184,86.04545454545455,5.944242424242425,22.43636363636364,7.3011,0.9365872727272726,489,18,105,8,15,167,87,132,0.08800000000000001,0.7609999999999999,0.151,0.8865,2,0,3,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,6,7,4,0,0,6,0,10,7,2,0,0,17,20,5,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,9,2,4,3,5,3,0,0,1,1,0,1,4,2,16,3,15,14,4,17,1,0,1,0,3,6,0,3,11,70,25,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16508392362950608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09416488770998102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13661820701344854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3448843747801169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1233335717037331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16139068841279308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3026481153141222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07810584238301609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1235456193189829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15328993431324284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08489394294280568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07546736900539723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313268357847694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15661067910456608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11355492322239638,0.0,0.0,0.14919032162624113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10467443646936564,0.11748315415847235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13487926467091793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3874373092411409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19795924057958827,0.0,0.12263376110091362,0.0,0.0,0.2928433798383606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09111177192971373,0.12261293126890352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4498307319274407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,philipweiss83,2019/08/19,"What did you substitute with alcohol? For those that quit drinking or at least cut back significantly, what did you ""substitute"" alcohol for? New hobbies, exercise, religion etc? I am cutting down significantly and I found rigorous exercise and studying for professional cert tests keep my mind and body away from the bad stuff. What about you!?",5.613007518796991,9.242838421052637,5.803258145363412,67.95947368421056,77.0701754385965,10.976441102756894,34.45864661654135,10.290406445055957,5.2243804511278205,278,15,42,11,7,88,43,57,0.17,0.83,0.0,-0.8574,0,0,3,0,0,0,11.0,0,3,0,1,2,3,2,0,1,0,3,6,1,0,0,8,5,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,6,4,3,1,1,3,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,0,6,0,9,2,2,5,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,2,32,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.525184646926186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2308553222552956,0.18893802395559026,0.20515997636665875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2729315977219773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407050609313751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2740347924314981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26941147068065585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2184008816013296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24809994579272315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2373110132877813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26134587416892885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28128244074361997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,dribbledooble,2019/08/19,"Looking for advice- When i drink alcohol, anxiety and paranoia skyrocket I am not sure if this is the right subreddit for this but i have seen a couple older related threads relating to this. I have had issues in the past with alcohol. My father was an active drinker till i was about 14-15 (now 29) and i began drinking regularly after highschool (18). He has been sober since then. At about 24-25 i was living in a household full of active drinkers my age and after a while and a coke binge i lost my shit and decided to contact him for help. He immediately put forth motion to have me to go to rehab, to which i was there for 20+ some days. I entered a sober house as directed by the rehab on my release and lived there for 1 year while attending AA 3+ times a week. After moving out i immediately relapsed and have been drinking almost every night. On a good night i will have 2 big boys, on a worse night a 6 pack, and on a bad night(s) - liquor. One of the main reasons for entering rehab and seeking help was because i was having extreme anxiety and paranoia. Having a relationship with a diagnosed borderline personality disorder SO, for 3 years and being cheated on - i developed a serious paranoia about being taken advantage of, cheated on .. etc. While living in the house i spoke with a house psychologist who said i exhibited Schizotypal traits. I have been drinking like so for 2.5 years and i am not really seeing the end of the paranoia. It is only getting worse. I am paranoid my current girlfriend is cheating on me, and while trying to hide it from me, deliberately dangling little clues to it happening. I make these connections in my head and hold on to the 'what-ifs'. I have these feelings, to a lesser degree when i do not drink - however when i do drink it becomes so much worse and it causes me to drink more just to numb myself. Has anyone had anything similar to this happen to them? Besides the obvious - stop drinking - is there anything i can do?",6.163184955141476,6.5871877063492095,7.146020243846332,73.10131469979298,66.11640211640211,10.065976535541754,34.68875086266391,9.971965246562196,3.5248004140786744,1555,69,278,33,23,523,199,378,0.175,0.765,0.06,-0.9918,2,0,12,0,0,0,48.0,0,0,1,2,14,12,4,0,25,0,36,19,2,3,2,36,50,30,0,1,6,1,1,1,1,1,7,2,0,2,13,19,12,2,3,9,0,7,3,8,1,1,17,6,37,4,53,30,6,54,0,1,3,0,15,18,1,3,30,207,50,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07799377378376676,0.0,0.1705947849949804,0.07992265990305597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12211569816460195,0.0,0.0,0.055808131369439164,0.0,0.13136101203733347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0666417464080295,0.04865415850247424,0.0881488085146768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0819914439040177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0883131900582312,0.0,0.05147372857261312,0.0,0.0,0.08101000430724423,0.0,0.0,0.0914742944162606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6255023387622058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07069192790781738,0.0,0.08901422912800039,0.0,0.0,0.0672471311356446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040356592862689035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04169976498430341,0.0,0.04536040113599165,0.0669445884648391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14115933982192785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08191267000413686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10699591013330144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27628553777578874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08330556749291299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038993317176378016,0.07999506432559758,0.21143291089058264,0.0,0.06702405081017776,0.0,0.08712691950619393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053276776744254635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08483014759311044,0.05867281709308673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2996018834154948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0540843487099265,0.060702499018549315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07619194030745016,0.0,0.06969091432687419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08023558461861685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051131191568533435,0.08206256554526703,0.0,0.08569086823330507,0.0,0.0681611190418988,0.07592183580551855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06360179688627157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08192840379871424,0.06602335219495946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06672846858320894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07522419093826252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04654045777900653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05418878419036746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06402235139610701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2440132829964207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15419370051382136 alcoholism,baradd54,2019/08/19,What should I do It’s been the hardest and loneliest two weeks. Today I haven’t stopped crying. I’m really thinking about relapsing,2.0422000000000007,4.86618752,2.895500000000002,85.43525000000002,93.8,5.7,26.25,7.1686216300943375,1.9576,108,5,18,2,4,34,23,25,0.331,0.669,0.0,-0.8126,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,4,6,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,1,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,12,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4806555676562778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28032173639008423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36583227587850303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28038037813494393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4147699159331931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4274471724966072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3509962541568753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,rockclimbermama,2019/06/16,"i dont understand tolerance. My hubby drinks 24 (12 oz.) cans of budweiser daily on weekends & then half that after work every day. Is this a lot? I just dont understand tolerence. Even after drinking 24 beers in 11 hours, he is completely functional & acting ""normal"". I just dont get it. If i drank that i would be dead or completly disoriented. Is it still harming his body the same or is he just filtering it out faster than occasional drinkers?",2.8997545219638248,5.511071430232562,4.601782945736434,79.08959948320414,78.88372093023256,8.938501291989663,26.997416020671835,9.444778638647367,2.9883865633074937,357,15,65,11,9,120,64,86,0.14800000000000002,0.852,0.0,-0.9127,0,0,4,0,0,1,18.0,0,0,0,1,5,1,0,0,2,0,10,5,1,0,0,13,14,4,1,3,6,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,1,4,0,2,4,0,1,3,1,0,1,1,0,7,0,7,11,2,12,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,4,8,44,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3561433335781504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1825542729020181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34463281341235324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10599126706063612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5778460943481502,0.3219981691304539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10855071696567348,0.0,0.1384708050671893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08586537345127647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1618502903570492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13972332402103785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16102675822315315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1312490244186137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3421854298917089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11964775656120627,0.0,0.0,0.11674854798179216,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,DriveShafted,2019/06/16,"Regrets after drinking... think this may be the breaking point I'm a 20 y/o female living in New Zealand. Was brought up in a super religious household that barely even let me and my sister try a sip of wine. In high school I wasn't allowed to go to parties if there was drinking, it was that serious. When I turned 18 and legally could drink, my parents couldn't stop me. I moved cities to go to college and lived for a year in the halls/dorms. There was an insane drinking culture there. Drinking 3 nights a week (sometimes more), drunk hookups etc. Everyone had their fair share of embarrassing drinking stories, it was a point of conversation and connection. I've made a lot of shitty and drunk mistakes while drinking. I sort of can become a different person, someone more confident, who doesn't care about the consequences. I've had many drunk hookups, many turning into awkward morning situations. I've hooked up with friends, my friends brother, some people I would never consider hooking up with normally. I've gotten drunk injuries, had hangovers from hell (I get insane hanxiety), and definitely strained some of my friendships. I'm normally someone who overthinks a lot so drinking has become an easy way to make social interaction smoother, like so many other people. I am capable of drinking responsibly. I have nights out where nothing goes wrong, I have a good time, and don't make a fool out of myself. I also can drink a glass of wine at dinner and that's that. When I can drink healthily I can convince myself that everything is fine. Two nights ago me and a friend went out. It was great in the beginning, but then we got a club where I had a few drinks bought for me and it went from 0-100 really quick. I can't remember much except messily hooking up with this random guy, and then at the end of the night when we got on the bus I vomited all over my friend, in the bus, and in the Uber home (having to pay a $150 fine). I got home covered in vomit and took a fully clothed shower. When I woke up after 3 hours of sleep I had lost my favourite ring and cracked my phone. It felt like an all new low. ​ I want to stop this. The shame and guilt and regret and anxiety that I self-inflict feels too much. I also don't want to feel like a friend who causes more harm than good, I don't want to be a liability. I feel like when I have nights like that my whole life gets out of control, and I go back to square one. Any progress I've made with being able to drink responsibly and have my life together goes out the window. I suppose I just want to know anyone else's experience with the negative side of alcohol. Have you ever tried to cut back, have you ever worried you have an issue with alcohol? Has the bad ever outweighed the good?",5.105832817975673,6.004266686456404,5.486272418058134,82.3958938878582,68.59183673469389,8.363656977942693,30.742166563595127,8.515128840125781,2.250192290249434,2180,85,424,32,36,696,265,539,0.124,0.732,0.14400000000000002,0.6965,4,0,17,0,0,0,71.0,2,3,1,4,24,37,2,5,37,0,41,27,1,7,6,78,77,33,0,13,4,3,4,5,5,2,6,1,4,2,19,33,22,3,7,20,2,8,9,17,0,2,26,6,48,20,64,43,14,73,1,4,1,0,25,30,1,8,38,274,67,4,0.05262296804881743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046647086087071486,0.11247589835536201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08416513707296919,0.0,0.057016963895249864,0.06394266605019441,0.03578542279166078,0.0,0.04025642652194783,0.0,0.0,0.036795202804683784,0.05391844946066993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08092762841514943,0.043937980257918716,0.0,0.1162358676665853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053652623062742884,0.054058283849819984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05902113328854484,0.0420151580170991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05497980138320003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6701561738907196,0.0,0.0,0.04395973737301125,0.0,0.046608330366829216,0.0,0.05868851962782137,0.03475697409721222,0.14280146196579807,0.0,0.05028350107839817,0.047294130533709504,0.05147536030763439,0.0,0.0,0.07982326136627389,0.07518771777728271,0.050526301710248765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20328187288800048,0.0,0.054986657745194255,0.0,0.08972053631675256,0.1324129467586187,0.1262621842447701,0.05801700804921809,0.0,0.05210501173958025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05559905494500607,0.10557025513503572,0.0,0.05182302343839092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05492470676664782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02892020703012376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053810550145081584,0.07433831715786494,0.12854462049932336,0.0,0.09293408976914593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057444185897492825,0.08947633123991816,0.0,0.099586249475857,0.07025247959325859,0.16005429030020651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055929887062103285,0.07736787278437551,0.0,0.04058607706232477,0.10164718091203433,0.0,0.24691545368098256,0.10311867154760557,0.05049315709213697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035658685042996116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05843157850980586,0.0,0.0,0.07296428039090334,0.04594834593772831,0.0,0.0,0.0994914281051412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033711620820179984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05961156456476464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053257253071585096,0.0,0.0,0.05489723231780359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059150420902801926,0.05266097172700203,0.05364248895913912,0.08917454011955431,0.0,0.0520454609660893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08799031517868279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03371867310336147,0.0,0.0,0.03068487585196453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05846605375233657,0.0714550820856072,0.11447735634288178,0.05140499336737631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12415355987712615,0.04176966263960684,0.04221097080026029,0.0,0.0,0.09756403717642112,0.0,0.058751664551974725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053441178433230055,0.0,0.037381846675167286,0.05753495466946215,0.06394266605019441,0.03388746611165948 alcoholism,atok12,2019/06/16,"Do I have to worry about it? I drink every Friday and Saturday for almost a year... almost every Saturday I have blackout...sometimes drink in the week... Do I have to worry about it? 19y",1.6483333333333334,4.104466055555555,3.9811111111111153,82.55000000000003,82.8888888888889,5.822222222222222,20.11111111111111,7.1686216300943375,0.8750777777777778,142,4,25,2,4,49,22,36,0.18,0.82,0.0,-0.7319,0,0,2,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,5,2,0,0,0,3,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,6,5,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,4,20,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4878768451377617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4772865856062553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4105008294621229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24093473825339115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19540780333963545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4947919030307917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15687569340586882 alcoholism,Ghoatz,2019/06/16,"Sober 20 days, then drank at a birthday party. Hello r/alcoholism I wish I had a 3-week sober update for you all, but to be honest I do not. I made it 20 days before I caved to peer pressure and drank at a friends birthday party. Attempting to curb the damage I purchased a single 12 case of beer instead of my usual top shelf or RTD mixes, and ate fortifying foods leading up to the party. Long story short I eventually spewed heavily of 9 beers after 6 hours. My body's tolerance for alcohol must have dropped considerably in the last 20 days, because this would have been a mere warmup in the past. I'm right back on the sober train as of the following day as I feel guilty as hell for letting myself succumb to the peer pressure. Sober attempt 2, day 2 begins... ​ Side Notes: * Since drinking 2 days ago alcohol & carb cravings have increased. (very strong) * Sleep hours have been longer but the quality of sleep has decreased. (lethargic) * No. of cigarettes per week is at 60-80 now. (Smoked 25 at the party) * Mentally feeling guilty, less optimistic and depressed. ( though this will eventually pass with sobriety ) * Flatulence since drinking (2 days) is 10x the norm. ​ I hope this experience assists others in their journey.",3.4986842105263167,6.382753394736844,3.958905263157895,82.92293684210529,78.64912280701752,6.805894736842105,27.979649122807018,7.9765259561132025,2.185434175438597,986,43,170,18,25,309,149,228,0.121,0.733,0.146,0.2973,0,0,9,0,0,0,52.0,0,1,1,5,4,9,1,2,15,0,16,13,3,2,2,19,27,11,0,4,4,0,2,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,5,4,10,1,3,4,1,5,2,5,0,0,7,2,14,4,28,15,4,40,1,2,0,0,4,13,1,2,21,94,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0932962438835376,0.33743518805422856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3421093801533989,0.2557763438962564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08092942551055382,0.0,0.06415837046986601,0.0,0.08955852860038478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11690710501190076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4751350047378516,0.0,0.09065018349425533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20620647862007732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10295300675994548,0.0,0.0,0.10643337858383817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12726662973726055,0.0,0.08131455480267423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10453528313838856,0.20729669692403027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08579138996632248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10762349014624244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09314140982113556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09958846090840212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10606550473797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10047138586961102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0898814502548306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1741249184104679,0.0,0.2106485645090764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10340589405448264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11591610357714376,0.08684084788938093,0.0,0.0,0.168847632582711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12103032003121568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07476535356814114,0.0,0.2557763438962564,0.0 alcoholism,sharpmoloko,2019/06/16,"Vanilla Extract Cocktails? I’m sure some of y’all have resorted to vanilla extract from time to time. It’s a hell of a lot better than cooking wine and yellow listerene (however original yellow listerene is the safest and by far cheapest alternative before brewing homemade sugar wine). Just wondering if y’all have any cocktails you make with this stuff. If you try to do this stuff in shots it’s disgusting, so here’s my cocktail: (part = fl oz) >2 parts vanilla extract >3 parts coffee >2 parts milk Now you can put half and half in there too if you want it creamier, but this is my crackhead White Russian that actually doesn’t taste bad at all. I could drink it just as fast as a regular White Russian. Anyone else make extract cocktails when they’re down on their luck? Please share haha",5.4901264298615295,7.081872245033113,5.236484045755571,81.96936785069236,68.27152317880795,7.610114388922335,32.93257074051776,8.00094639256281,2.4675509933774835,643,29,114,8,11,198,103,151,0.062,0.797,0.141,0.8628,1,0,3,0,0,0,21.0,0,6,1,1,8,8,2,0,4,1,8,7,0,3,2,21,13,11,0,5,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,10,4,11,0,1,8,0,1,1,3,0,2,0,6,10,5,16,12,7,13,1,0,4,0,8,6,1,7,6,72,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.1535107257646212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10697539857970956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1099939913737601,0.16118148597644122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13134630204714506,0.0,0.0,0.13385822777457418,0.0,0.0,0.13912687634753046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12559830021949742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15410276505815987,0.0,0.0,0.13141134182807812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13373834163656872,0.0,0.0,0.2100097307625793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6814005319433319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17267785611065015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1581388228891963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3601619485122325,0.0,0.0,0.14826171036596172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18345608734279092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10680236937755268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09278482351786284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17059471551859828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Rjg0423,2019/06/16,"Wanting to get sober. It’s my first time posting in this sub, I’ve been drinking since I was 13 i’m now 32 my alcoholism has increased considerably the last 5 years, it’s now affecting my relationship with my wife i’m afraid she’s going to leave me. I joined this sub after a graduation party where I got super intoxicated and said some horrible things I shouldn’t have said to her, last night we were at a bbq I got drunk and she caught me sneaking shots. This is a normal for me I leave the house to go to the store or to pick up food stop at the nearest gas station to buy miniatures. I’ve noticed if I’m not drinking I’m in a foul mood, I don’t like this! I feel guilty I feel selfish it’s not fair to my wife or my kids! They deserve a better me, a sober me! I’m scared! I don’t want to lose my family! I need help I just don’t know what to do. I can do AA but I’ve tried it before and it just wasn’t for me. I wish I had the will power to just quit cold turkey. Any advice on what I can do to keep my family intact. I’m over saying “I’m sorry” it’s been said too many times.",-0.7987367178276301,1.1366807024793388,1.9212101534828816,96.68233471074379,89.08264462809917,4.944746162927982,16.49409681227863,6.367922702773337,-0.5025589138134596,838,19,208,9,28,290,130,242,0.09,0.825,0.084,0.6171,1,0,3,0,0,0,19.0,1,0,1,6,7,8,0,2,11,0,19,6,0,2,0,29,43,7,0,7,9,2,2,1,0,2,2,4,0,1,13,5,5,2,4,3,2,4,7,4,1,1,12,7,35,3,23,29,2,25,0,1,0,0,14,9,0,4,12,119,48,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13056133908171902,0.0,0.14278757449955828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09085882037978604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11369156680135405,0.0,0.0,0.11816645729664635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.261772251122109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25190967779606144,0.0,0.13511362636552124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11364789565793575,0.16156074426947187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06980527921161825,0.0,0.151866345896232,0.0,0.2137189247112168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08955541337184691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15416704877378185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11875797335256852,0.0,0.0,0.07342810817673427,0.21781861975109,0.0,0.2829456485127473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06527469384800721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14947449047076972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13545873225218635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09906951000797667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12538315942558467,0.13090862319124813,0.0,0.15211493083433925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1279606562768237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14210980346229712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14344625167943909,0.0,0.0,0.381278763704624,0.1062513783191363,0.1337660920805658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1105228899057581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14956453221711222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1117032525859068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0887639987422567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15581716832806994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09071185921480833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15761230574332555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15364395697272645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08603992789161237 alcoholism,redditispoison12345,2019/06/16,"Made it through a concert with mo drinking. I'm only on day 13, so I thought it may be too soon to put myself in that position. Rock n roll and beer, right? But I bought one Dr. Pepper and enjoyed the show. The best part? I can actually remember the whole thing! I know I have a long way to go, but the was huge for me.",0.01770186335403423,1.8196740000000036,2.277474120082818,96.2908695652174,84.3623188405797,5.681987577639752,21.45134575569358,6.868970318607317,0.2747084886128368,242,8,60,3,7,82,56,69,0.0,0.872,0.128,0.8101,0,0,2,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,6,0,5,3,0,1,0,10,11,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,4,3,2,0,3,5,1,2,0,0,0,1,4,1,7,2,7,5,3,10,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,3,40,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.26161035142696765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28133658507872983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1728913668703997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2626192946579358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1523577555320877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14733141419519916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2372450324001676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2536666309890372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18165998916444592,0.2038892133675736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2903077809975749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2694974753342228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3036857965977574,0.22894143022776675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17810244317939872,0.0,0.0,0.2128279689311446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2127918192542523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2993051127105761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Posting52525252,2019/06/16,"After recently going sober, I'm doing this weird ""tick"" or something with my eyes (more in text below). I constantly have to like ""stretch"" my eyes. Like widen them up and down. It isn't even a dry eyes thing because constantly putting drops in doesn't help. I'm like constantly stretching and shifting them. Anyone have similar experience? For my sports fans, this is like the New York Jets' Adam Gase introductory press conference from earlier this year.",5.521640211640212,8.06530469135803,5.0932275132275135,79.1566666666667,69.98765432098766,9.073015873015876,30.08994708994709,9.606745405546679,3.0682613756613755,364,15,63,9,7,111,61,81,0.05,0.83,0.12,0.7066,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,2,0,1,5,0,0,2,0,6,3,3,0,0,4,9,3,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,4,6,4,10,9,1,17,0,0,3,0,3,7,0,1,11,34,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15002606941093952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1307944197647915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6955927868264103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1417155447165744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20988187018453505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12193998477187737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14381574374962486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4192947490422206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2072243914496648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2156931094419636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2118531442112086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651795726927483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.142544822436401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1381702764356425 alcoholism,xsirspikemonx,2019/06/16,Passing out randomly I am starting to think i may have a drinking problem. I take up to 10 shots of jim beam after work or events and feel fine but then will randomly wake up at 2 am or the next day. Just never even realize i had passed out till i wake up. Its getting embarrassing 🥺,3.6673728813559294,4.31746383050848,5.162500000000001,84.32137711864408,71.71186440677965,8.611864406779661,30.00423728813559,8.841846274778883,2.2212,222,9,48,4,4,75,47,59,0.096,0.878,0.026000000000000002,-0.5927,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,1,2,0,6,3,2,0,1,15,11,6,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,3,1,0,2,1,2,0,0,1,1,5,1,11,8,0,16,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,5,8,33,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2439507845040197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3705574437717304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2498416454168853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19126305324616436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1976287839184532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2917426656850731,0.0,0.40229101951475216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3619502292908977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2677391788982562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2844095480808721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2423780834849373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27538272620662324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,bbgunbuster,2019/06/16,"sobriety is HARD I’m 22 and a week away from being five months sober. Family wise, while I am genetically prone to addiction, the people I actually have solid relationships with never had a difficult time maintaining sobriety. My friends all still drink, they just don’t around me or keep it light and hold me accountable. My boyfriend went sober with me, but he never had an issue with drinking to begin with. So... nobody told me it was going to be this hard. I wish I could explain how difficult it can be, how some days are easy but the hard days last forever. I wish they understood how it feels, it’s like a constant buzzing in my head and while some days it’s just background noise, others it’s deafening. I’m almost tired of hearing that I’m doing great, because I want someone to listen and understand how much of a struggle it is to continue doing great. Ugggghhh. I just needed to vent after a particularly hard day. Being young and sober is a wild ride when you still try to maintain relationships with people that drink and have to explain to anyone new you meet that no, I don’t want a beer. thanks though.",4.390738714090286,6.199584976744188,5.1488645690834485,80.67358413132695,71.32558139534882,8.407660738714089,27.065663474692197,9.007467420416297,2.18972777017784,890,31,167,18,17,288,125,215,0.081,0.737,0.182,0.9753,0,0,4,0,0,0,24.0,0,2,2,0,13,9,0,1,10,0,20,7,1,4,3,41,41,18,0,6,6,0,5,1,1,0,2,2,0,0,13,12,4,2,5,4,1,3,5,3,0,1,6,8,19,6,21,30,4,27,0,0,0,0,14,3,0,4,22,114,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.11034660889575268,0.12327036212202948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11323004395970565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07906590165962432,0.0,0.0,0.10066229248680797,0.0,0.0,0.10623934083499913,0.0,0.0,0.06893054501364257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12219580924458252,0.0,0.090282593892122,0.0,0.0,0.29170062938929203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.332316536077751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1065987083183994,0.0,0.057175008807877514,0.08078206188108703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08736282637855693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06426413010888576,0.0,0.0,0.24933506019003085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4051782754302119,0.0,0.11604938119771754,0.0,0.1274457297544104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11802276201458214,0.0,0.10050782226908654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0921726537714059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05524359453716336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09025679318798707,0.0,0.08312443137839001,0.08384498676653993,0.17442354074217656,0.10921024206103733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15678637915587376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24280425072868414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09580957410482603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806064975510559,0.0,0.0,0.11821238399248366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10410589077052672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1110973452504732,0.0,0.06593596968136238,0.12996510448304754,0.0,0.10804969257732053,0.0,0.07677169933334135,0.0,0.0,0.1177168978579077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13339120874049906,0.0,0.090703358368929,0.0,0.0,0.10482329190919566,0.0,0.0,0.2600653932395517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Ketchup2019,2019/06/16,Bumped Into a Two-Years Sober Friend He works from home in my neighborhood as well and now I have a sober lunch buddy. I’m ecstatic right now.,1.7560919540229882,4.049586448275863,2.421379310344829,94.91988505747128,81.06896551724137,6.625287356321839,16.563218390804597,7.793537801064563,0.15126666666666644,113,2,25,2,3,35,25,29,0.0,0.7090000000000001,0.29100000000000004,0.8225,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,4,2,0,5,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,13,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34415105145521857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4468194063611326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3804090877283212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4351367454976696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4005101212092753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3242905367798309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2868531002738788 alcoholism,mtol115,2019/06/16,Had to hide the keys so my drunk dad doesn’t drive to the airport to pick up my family Life is fun huh,0.2700000000000031,1.3330926666666691,2.3649999999999984,99.48,80.66666666666666,6.466666666666668,16.166666666666668,7.1686216300943375,-0.5194333333333336,80,1,22,1,2,27,20,24,0.158,0.723,0.11900000000000001,-0.0202,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,3,2,0,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,4,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,12,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8002866447150072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.599617616728191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,JosephL55,2019/06/16,"I’m stupid and a narcissistic I lost my wife today. She found crap on my phone...and she told to pack my stuff and drove me back to my sober house. I am a total loser and hope that I can deal with my narcissistic self, I can’t say much more...except that I truly want repent. I’m not a bad person. I kid want to feel better about me.",1.0415525114155244,2.2260244109589067,3.2180136986301378,93.66117579908678,78.86301369863014,5.962557077625571,14.906392694063928,6.42735559955562,-0.777308675799087,254,2,63,2,6,87,49,73,0.156,0.655,0.18899999999999997,0.1154,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,3,2,7,2,0,3,0,3,1,1,0,1,11,13,3,0,3,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,3,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,5,0,0,4,2,15,2,6,9,2,4,0,2,0,0,9,1,1,1,2,37,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1944468424014448,0.21114177419908114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2236492010277519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26070513491714953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12786223466423846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27726663317330075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2511639690701857,0.0,0.29178616395772505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2760451722318881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1858937282712008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2208024862739708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20109798002589896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2638059137484177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2894837221247974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2396978754108105,0.2416348582322685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29830687200128936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Beesnectar,2019/06/16,"Just sad. Need to vent I guess. I'm sure it's not a very unique story but my brother is an alcoholic. He has lost everything. Wife, kids, job, retirement, credit, health. Basically everything but his life and his family. Somewhat. He was an engineer. I do a similar job, development and every time he says that he can ""Just get a job when he needs to."" I just feel bad. He has completely messed up his mental faculties. Even when he is sober, he just isn't as sharp as he used to be. He couldn't do what he used to do, not without a lot of effort. Not to mention how fast his industry moves. I honestly think he knows that and mainly says it to feel like he still has some sliver of worth. My mom is retired. Already saw my dad die from alcohol. I think she just feels resigned to taking care of him. I wish she could enjoy her elder years, but I know nothing I can say will stop her from trying to assist her son, even though she even has her breaking points. He recently totalled his car and somehow managed to avoid a DUI. I'm actually sort of happy he doesn't have a car anymore, less of a chance he hurts anyone else. I told my mom to lock her keys up at night because I just don't trust he won't take her car. I'm not even angry at him. It's beyond anger at this point. I just feel sad for him. I can't imagine how it must feel to lose everything. I'm sure any time he is sober, those thoughts haunt him. I'm sure a large part of why he drinks is to escape that. I also am pretty sure he is terrified of death and again, it's a way to escape that fear. A few months ago, he managed to go a couple weeks without drinking. I was really proud of him. When he messed up, he lashed out at me and said I was a terrible brother. Said I had my part to play in him being like that. I know he didn't mean it. I know he's just angry in general. So when I came to visit he was scared. He is just so weak from the disease. He knows I could have harmed him and I think part of him thought I would. Part of me wanted to. Instead I just told him I was proud of him for making it that far and thought he should try for a few more weeks next time. I hoped it might give him something to feel proud of. I don't think it did. Anyway. There are two things that make me so angry. 1. The system exists only to do as little as possible to keep alcoholics alive and out of their hair. He would end up in a hospital, and theyd do just enough to keep him alive then dump him on the street. They'd put him in rehab, then just let him leave two weeks later. There is no care. There is no true effort to help these people. It's all lip service. I understand he needs to help himself too. I do. But honestly I sort of wish they'd keep him in jail at this point. But to them it's just wasted money. They don't see him as anything but a distraction to ignore until he hopefully just disappears one day. 2. I just wish I could help. I wish I could take this burden off of my mom. I wish I could stop her from having to see her son like this. I can't. She's not mad I can't. She is actually really proud of the person I have become, and I try my best to keep her company and keep in touch because it seems to make her happy. I just wish I could do more. Anyway. I'm not really looking for solutions. I'm not sure there are any. I just have bented to friends more than I probably should and figured just writing this might help me a bit. Thanks for listening.",0.5567355371900824,2.5482320785124024,2.455723415977964,94.69740330578516,83.58677685950414,5.855471074380168,18.63316804407713,7.087006719466742,0.098688837465565,2643,65,614,36,75,878,290,726,0.14300000000000002,0.6559999999999999,0.201,0.9938,3,1,6,0,0,0,89.0,0,0,6,9,45,49,3,4,22,0,69,11,2,7,9,131,140,38,2,24,33,9,9,3,1,9,7,6,0,2,28,16,5,9,23,3,3,9,22,21,0,3,18,19,98,28,83,100,19,66,0,6,4,0,104,27,0,12,30,392,126,7,0.0,0.0,0.10129308838539952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04600588321480829,0.1663947358220385,0.0,0.0,0.057272523138865584,0.04150410874228782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07058704497308257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051470478906359265,0.036289422236100544,0.05317729567032114,0.04270896654492471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04333401629133283,0.06327505537679833,0.057319054648548924,0.0,0.0,0.05446545104768482,0.0,0.056660945039007066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059359341035873085,0.10583024655324796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05441576594654255,0.0,0.0,0.2486257490182785,0.0574259442916079,0.0,0.03347096246374038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053863613456519584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10168374179537684,0.0,0.0,0.0433554743368401,0.0,0.045967660224072206,0.053626182884822265,0.0,0.1371168426882417,0.0,0.04372766971524484,0.0,0.13993210049723406,0.0,0.048926344413836656,0.058401503393817535,0.15745204891843076,0.03707710013003725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040097519001791884,0.0,0.027115410273174226,0.04978684630294015,0.029495751053301007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05717328454465762,0.0,0.0,0.11049622479060824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05516687095744785,0.0,0.0,0.1391488897795097,0.0,0.0,0.1030960696315927,0.0,0.0,0.05555961846961483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15450709895576278,0.2306538421616705,0.0,0.0,0.1426133740371735,0.0,0.0,0.05495420569247969,0.0,0.05307087952028233,0.0366582376781943,0.07606660087035237,0.05201705548781945,0.0,0.0,0.04358261099486156,0.058062401300645584,0.05665456793671516,0.04412320244215719,0.0,0.0,0.10393020152486863,0.0,0.0,0.05653390295347744,0.0,0.0,0.052302611777018934,0.11011459404102228,0.0,0.1823526291085936,0.04142578290924443,0.05516108439428743,0.0,0.11544873567305453,0.0,0.0,0.05519583649240632,0.04870427921167432,0.0,0.0497990867852226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0351685268533073,0.03947200100802716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22480893098578889,0.0,0.035980662931985145,0.04531674782812678,0.0,0.0,0.1471857539097673,0.058509025432946574,0.0,0.05280057354465493,0.05595657022919365,0.0,0.0,0.05217345460485755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09974467992749607,0.0,0.051244615235953486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0987368503076274,0.1238179868808882,0.05196057530846539,0.0,0.08271455809554401,0.047247466404537815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03995486438964666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041447104950682136,0.08678081534586146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24457389634286644,0.0,0.11706616964768216,0.0,0.0,0.04778219874985939,0.0,0.0,0.034479802538820235,0.13302072794480385,0.05099111483557598,0.1236075072158167,0.0907892603798222,0.0,0.0,0.09918462533442696,0.0,0.10570930911093164,0.0,0.10139677822975376,0.05402933655369927,0.0,0.08964921920758477,0.0,0.042822623290826325,0.030611741565958358,0.04119550399638553,0.1248922380314779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046831336136623616,0.0,0.3580920219526324,0.10005876660024876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07373600440042341,0.0,0.0,0.03342165479465762 alcoholism,WeirdShyGuy,2018/12/18,"My parents are calling me an alcoholic and I feel bad Ahhhh!!!!! I sneaked in an 18 pack of beer, and right when I opened the door to enter my house, my dad said ""I SEE YOU BOUGHT beer"" and he told my bro I'm up to ""shanigans"" and he told my mom, and now my mom keeps calling me an alcoholic over and over and keeps saying stuff about it and I said I'm 31 years old and she said Well I am an alcoholic and its gonna get worst and worst. I just got the 18 pack to save it for the weekend. They usually buy me a 12 pack every friday and I sneak in an extra 18 pack, but this time my dad caught me and my mom keeps calling me an alcoholic and saying its going to get worst and worst and she keeps teasing me about it. I feel so bad... I don't want my mom and dad to think I'm ""becoming an alcoholic and its just gonna get worst and worst."" My dad literally drinks over 3 cups of Scotch every single night and my mom says ""its ok cuz he's in his sixties and that I can drink as much as I want to when I'm that old but right now I'm an alcoholic and that's very bad cuz I'm 31."" And she said before that she's proud that she smoked while pregnant with me and that the commercials are wrong about it doing damage. I feel so bad..",-0.007291752719265077,1.7543020557620856,2.025667079719124,98.28467437697924,84.20446096654275,5.620872917527193,17.397907200881182,6.775458762138228,-0.3346201018862729,939,20,237,11,27,313,111,269,0.155,0.807,0.038,-0.9882,1,0,11,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,1,1,12,17,1,0,13,1,6,10,0,2,0,43,38,35,0,2,4,11,3,0,0,2,6,7,1,0,16,26,10,4,4,5,2,3,1,13,1,0,9,11,39,4,22,27,9,25,0,1,1,0,35,10,0,0,12,143,55,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4969965133860188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2588646197418087,0.0,0.08560177751470195,0.0659538157757574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23743378117681066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1518571633011153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306080945386115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11757150692200648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12148459172902028,0.0,0.04404972717667854,0.0,0.061990431589463685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08943411916632253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.275571591341789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4538836541613584,0.0,0.0,0.05697748522746016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07273624623879266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16266374948601034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08606374407212583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13238325158771155,0.2949123967364636,0.1849130246526911,0.0,0.0,0.06176404376115172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08872840764639793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04966415979900962,0.0,0.0,0.04519568646883717,0.0,0.0,0.1481249173213925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08536439198195697,0.06395242723407353,0.09143275327668224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06968922910871482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08474310878051962,0.0,0.049912774651420036 alcoholism,thrwawy10003,2018/12/18,"Alcoholic MIL Hi guys, I just found out that my MIL will be moving in with my husband and I and our two babies in a years time. I grew up with an alcoholic and abusive mother and I would never want my kids to go through what I went through. When my MIL is not drinking she is pleasant and tolerable, but its rarely the case that she is sober. Shes almost always drunk and when we do see her she is not careful with the kids and cannot be left alone with them. I do not want to have to go through living with an alcoholic again let alone involve my kids. Ive spoken to my husband about this and he says that he has already told her if she brings drinks into the house he will throw them out. He seems to think that he will keep doing this till she stops. He says we have no other choice because she has nowhere else to go except between her two sons. My question is, would this even work? I doubt it because I've been trying to get my mother to stop all these years doing similar things but to no avail. If anyone has any light to shed on this or any advice/similar situations it would be helpful to hear. Im just lost and scared to go through this again. TLDR: Alcoholic MIL moving in; scared husbands plan wont work.",5.509611428571431,5.026858544000003,5.581485714285716,86.85160000000002,67.56,8.422857142857143,28.65714285714286,7.447530270364453,1.396954285714286,956,27,209,8,14,301,131,250,0.128,0.833,0.038,-0.9662,0,2,6,0,0,0,19.0,3,0,2,4,8,6,0,3,6,0,29,7,0,0,2,46,47,17,0,7,11,6,0,0,0,7,4,3,0,4,16,19,7,3,4,3,0,10,8,4,0,2,5,5,31,2,33,31,1,30,0,1,1,0,39,9,0,7,11,143,47,2,0.0,0.12564048949514414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4532995935259866,0.10618410536006992,0.21965167051706644,0.11701817667547068,0.0,0.08823407616255771,0.0,0.0,0.14422216530660045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07414588689201725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292824412725714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10811521660002324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20775837016266704,0.0,0.0,0.08858311591225071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07003865921871275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11626778397421805,0.0,0.0,0.055401712655138005,0.0,0.241060726419342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10499663033405994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11951519510801477,0.0,0.07107661962497216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1223563408601644,0.0,0.0,0.11454178791794666,0.0,0.0,0.09425354628608773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1152131639253752,0.1084334549216444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09363558267381714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1157555818558321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22540824693930636,0.0,0.0,0.081784864598457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11878947427000465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16865510452308058,0.21232980313657396,0.0,0.08450043967322207,0.09653516325427394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11919381015929845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17730898213723356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07044850486925706,0.06794638244941263,0.0,0.0,0.0618329880199965,0.0,0.0,0.1013261104520655,0.0,0.07199444533982602,0.0,0.2071720514293351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1250907062091107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0983004782391178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15439729340016775,0.0,0.0,0.2259840928262691,0.0,0.0,0.13657303332228582 alcoholism,Alextheruiner666,2018/12/18,"Please... I'm so tired guys. I can't do this anymore. 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I never thought I was a problem drinker until I started dating someone who doesn’t really drink. She always hated my consumption habits, but I kind of pushed it aside once I quit drinking liquor. But night after night of Miller lite 6 packs from the gas station pushed her to the limit, and she gave me an ultimatum: stop this behavior, or she’s gone. In the past I’ve ruined relationships and jobs with drinking, but I always gave excuses. I looked in the mirror and decided I chose her. I’ve set a goal of going sober for 90 days for now, but I can see this being an indefinite break from alcohol. I’ve been drinking a ton of ginger ale, something I didn’t use to do, but it’s helping with the desire for booze. The real rest will be Christmas with my family, and golf with my buddies, all of whom drink. But I’m hopeful I can do this. And believe me, if I can put alcohol away, any of you can as well. Thanks for reading. This has been more for me than anything else, but I guess I needed to admit to my alcoholism, and this was the best way I could think of. 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I love my fiance, but he's struggled with alcohol abuse on and off for the past few years and I think I'm enabling him. He only admits he has a problem when his alcoholism hurts someone, then usually returns to drinking shortly after. His family and I had an intervention 2 years ago because he was drinking at work in the morning (works at a bar/restaurant). Things were better for a while but he went back to drinking socially and then moderately on a weekly basis. It started getting bad again but he'd get mad anytime it was brought up. He got his first DUI back in February. Me and his friend picked him up and he was belligerent in the car because we were visibly upset with him (he called me a c\*\*\* and our friend a d\*\*\* and told us his dad would pick him up). He had an ignition interlock installed which costs us a bunch of money a month and the DUI's costs us thousands. He returned to drinking since then and has had to call off work on occasion because he can't drive in the morning after drinking alcohol the night before. Three months ago, he, a friend, and I attended a Ren Faire where he got hammered and walked out with a beer. A security guard stopped him and he got angry and shitty with him, and the guard called the cops. He continued to scream with the cops there and the cops threatened to arrest us all. Our friend also has a prior DUI and would've had to be jailed for a year (remainder of his sentence) and I would've lost my scholarship (any arrests make it void). He promised me he wouldn't get drunk after that. I asked him to limit his drinks to 4 a day and he reluctantly agreed after a fight about it. This week, he got drunk again, slept the whole day, and ruined our plans we've had for 2 weeks. I don't really know what to do anymore. I feel betrayed, hurt, upset, angry, and a host of other emotions that I can't even describe. We're supposed to make a promise to each other on our wedding day next year but I can't even trust his word anymore because he breaks his promises. I love him and want to be supportive, but his drinking is hurting me, his family, and his friends. I've told him this and he turns it around and brings up ""shitty things I've done to him"". I think he's bored and I think he's depressed but he won't face it. I drug him to an AA meeting and asked if he would go on naltrexone which he refused. I just want a good life. I want us to be around our families. I finally got myself back in school and am getting my life together, and he seems determined to flush his life down the toilet. How can I help him? What can I do? I feel like there's no where to turn and I have no idea how to help. I am ready to walk away which would break my heart (and also since he'll just blame that on me), but this is affecting me so much now and I am at a loss.",2.5142384105960254,4.101139536423844,3.597690066225166,90.78472715231787,75.82119205298014,6.8187549668874174,24.33165562913907,7.554174236665415,0.9825409006622507,2296,74,501,30,50,741,254,604,0.187,0.684,0.129,-0.992,1,1,13,0,2,0,75.0,11,0,0,10,26,32,2,3,36,0,39,23,3,9,1,91,83,56,0,10,12,1,3,1,5,6,8,1,0,0,22,44,14,6,11,10,4,9,10,16,1,3,22,4,73,16,64,51,6,82,0,7,0,2,89,30,0,3,42,315,95,5,0.0,0.06751842120724627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10102829823897827,0.24360039515719956,0.0,0.059019723929918916,0.0,0.09114246229293507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038752049374053486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130284765792942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1014582361144057,0.1065473770293569,0.0,0.053539691282556284,0.1314548442110238,0.0475804572790415,0.13895116708980856,0.0,0.048490407333967055,0.0,0.0,0.05039898568323683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17456549903424193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11025267232704626,0.058749480444624226,0.04908147098026811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0583158841131609,0.0,0.3907682165851981,0.06608501200126844,0.0,0.04760401806811506,0.06410094345227713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07527668370159599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16116238738765365,0.0,0.08644064326619245,0.0407104055831729,0.0,0.06242475774692807,0.0,0.0484717812248134,0.0,0.0,0.2201340255463352,0.0,0.11909014954281932,0.0,0.032386135489258304,0.047796678556588784,0.2278822872661149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06752801390857402,0.07639227069409933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.183012257755722,0.06432961892796467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06263540868380463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12075149231813515,0.02784020470770895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06220633303990757,0.0,0.10286315846206992,0.0,0.07607643966364037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09097045982134733,0.0,0.04189085096968986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06060465576400241,0.053476969703384565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0433399905758644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05439904498614873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05452736448438715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036506328347961255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04866524944901459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057672301723859176,0.0,0.05187739907813922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09427788009327667,0.0,0.0,0.05808947382832374,0.04828357347823172,0.0,0.0,0.06379052812768198,0.04033458363360372,0.0,0.0,0.047642374635258534,0.0,0.05957354869663827,0.0,0.0,0.06466639542930447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07571718073204536,0.10954189580514312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10890404888240947,0.0,0.0,0.18595136591110487,0.0,0.0,0.342732304593334,0.0,0.06276140493668032,0.0,0.1008344566096074,0.0,0.1371308340355508,0.0,0.0,0.05282606842182843,0.0,0.06362220222409981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12445822438618658,0.0,0.0,0.2024040873406921,0.0,0.0,0.14678700515189833 alcoholism,SeeBZedBoy,2018/12/18,"Does anyone else feel their heart skipping beats? I've tried to quit a few times. Made it a month here, a month there, but always end up drinking again. This last relapse has me feeling fine when drinking, but once I stop I'll start feeling my heart skipping beats. It's a very uncomfortable feeling that causes a ton of anxiety. How common is this?",3.6260199004975133,5.8588235671641815,3.5590298507462705,89.4351616915423,74.52238805970148,5.6606965174129344,26.092039800995025,6.42735559955562,0.9187830845771146,277,10,53,2,6,84,51,67,0.134,0.7559999999999999,0.11,-0.5573,0,0,2,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,3,5,1,0,0,5,0,2,4,2,3,0,10,8,4,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,2,1,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,4,1,3,7,2,11,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,10,28,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15526127214885102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14274400629946174,0.0,0.0,0.1304709611539464,0.19118774701164604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1916835814075488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1632897892697386,0.0,0.0,0.3655824399589036,0.0,0.0,0.15587546065656555,0.0,0.16526702388407005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3773904146575224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4422299084149025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15209912841361242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17655988683907758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2978753245262261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19871666922872566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1984658361194761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13207229262207734,0.0,0.0,0.15600105609609624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10880454353103107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12668517263691476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1539597071437928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,stonedcollegekid94,2018/12/18,"I've wrote here before So, I am currently in Colorado visiting family for the holidays. I'm staying @ my moms house & I had ended up drinking to the point I blacked out. Don't remember nothing but when I woke up I had the worst hangover. I literally thought I was gonna die. I have been an alcoholic for 4 years now. Drinking every damn day and I have been trying to stop for the past 8 months ....but I think I finally had my wake up call.....i woke up and first thing my mom says is "" your eyes look yellow"" and I just broke down crying...she doesn't know I drink really heavy until now. I broke down and told her about my alcoholism and how I'm struggling with it and how I ruin every relationship with new friends and potential boyfriends :( I cried and let it out....she started crying and said please stop I don't want to bury you i cant lose you to drinking you're scaring me since you been here in Colorado I've seen you drink every day and i been here a month now....idk just seeing my mom cry over my addiction just made me realize this shit actually hurts others more than it does to me ....seeing her cry just made me so sad.....I'm 24 and having her hold me and hugging me like when I was a little girl....and telling me to stop and asking if she wants to take me to rehab......a mothers love is like no other....just seeing her cry over my own selfish desires woke me up. I don't want her to bury me ...its the other way around. ....she scheduled a doctor's app today because shes so concerned on my liver kidneys and just my well being. I am scared to find out tbh but maybe I need to see what I'm doing to my body.....I love you all and I hope we can get through this disgusting disease together. Happy holidays. Thanks for the rant. 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He recently went to Mexico to sort out some family affairs and while he was out there he was drinking with some of my uncles and they got him back onto alcohol. Its been affecting his relationship with our family and especially my mother, who usually sees the worst of it. There's no physical violence, but he does say a lot of ignorant things aboh leaving my mother and moving back to Mexico where he feels he has more freedom. My sisters and I plan on staging an intervention with my mother and talking things out with him. I know I'm not supposed to be yelling at him or making him feel like we're attacking him, but my family and I are at our ropes end and I don't know what to do at this point. If anyone has any advice on what to do in this situation I would greatly appreciate it",6.01048484848485,6.43314186666667,7.246262626262628,72.25590909090911,66.44444444444444,10.98989898989899,31.919191919191928,10.832165505486646,3.5760555555555538,736,28,135,20,11,251,109,180,0.07,0.8390000000000001,0.091,0.7031,0,0,3,0,1,0,10.0,2,0,1,1,6,5,1,0,4,0,13,3,0,2,0,35,24,13,0,3,5,6,3,1,0,1,1,2,1,0,10,17,3,1,4,2,0,2,3,3,0,0,5,6,23,2,27,16,5,26,0,0,1,0,27,12,0,6,12,103,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1477722235240444,0.0,0.16161014833187526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10283603100829937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10573782063742716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17203666437471302,0.0,0.2325605080476459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13233524377393344,0.0,0.0,0.2962796481506436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13393765765330698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4276754528978535,0.0,0.1529246033845684,0.10803290660840996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1209459129933448,0.16672260304127196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1013608060062072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16621512755240087,0.0,0.0,0.16012208480418302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07387934834012343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12856339336084815,0.0,0.0,0.10094174675429307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1607248748657919,0.0,0.11212907190047436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14295350994238545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29862663005215473,0.16235565379421288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12025766997446218,0.0,0.0,0.12050422091468495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1699796745039993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1070355906397383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12154637994394535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2009301307000053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16654948289042668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14018415278730995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.107423650300726,0.0,0.0,0.09738190145579048 alcoholism,richdegraff,2018/12/18,"Time to admit it. I’m an alcoholic. I’m a 22 year old male, a New Jerseyian, a powerlifter, a personal trainer, a future nursing student and an alcoholic. Which one of those do you think hurt to realize? Still, it feels good to finally say it. Now the work can begin. I suppose I’m gonna become a regular around here.",1.2454910714285743,3.5637645312500013,4.016339285714288,82.55187500000002,83.375,8.032142857142857,27.892857142857146,8.841846274778883,2.749466964285715,246,12,48,7,7,87,48,64,0.059000000000000004,0.861,0.081,0.0772,1,0,2,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,1,4,2,0,0,9,0,2,2,0,0,0,6,10,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,2,5,2,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,2,1,5,9,0,10,0,1,0,0,5,1,0,0,9,28,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.532573706769322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2218140444922393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2751885862123038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12598779179618574,0.0,0.0,0.272953454004082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.208991896369606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2667415391076302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24064984904560785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2614619027120059,0.0,0.1688439776837122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21756555203196115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19814991114982156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1989874097524032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15965801549113984,0.0,0.0,0.14529297665714666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1813986600377659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16045725087774682 alcoholism,CharlyOwl,2019/02/20,"My husband is at the start of his sobriety journey. How do I support him? My husband has been struggling with his addiction to alcohol for over a year and has now been sober for 10 days. I'm incredibly proud of him and want to support him as much as I can. The one thing I know is a contributing factor to his drinking is loneliness. My husband's closest friends are 200 miles away or in another countries. His family are nearby but they're not the closest. I would like him to be able to reach out to others when he needs it but he's pretty reclusive. My husband doesn't have any social media at all (weird for a 32 year old I know). He's going to AA meetings but says he's the youngest guy there by a significant margin. Does have any suggestions on how I can have other support networks in place for him? 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My ex is telling people she broke up with me because I'm an alcoholic. Is this something I have a right to keep private? I'm not sure it's any different from outing someone with depression...,3.220714285714287,5.600746071428574,4.519285714285715,81.36321428571429,76.38095238095238,8.009523809523811,34.3095238095238,8.841846274778883,3.3979809523809528,173,10,31,4,4,57,34,42,0.128,0.872,0.0,-0.6276,1,0,3,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,4,2,0,0,1,5,7,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,5,1,5,7,0,2,0,2,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,19,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6119659565962066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1947035837109576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17453457707529688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24660213970675915,0.0,0.0,0.2991375684827813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2544893595288161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19849432767230865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2445109000159111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2425932290661641,0.22041878325735492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2698478969803447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.250251371450046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,potholesofamerica,2019/02/20,"Mentally Disabled Alcoholic Parent(Advice?) I'm a 31/M and I've been dealing with my father's alcoholism/mental illness my entire life. It started when I was old enough to remember things. Some of my earliest memories consist of my alcoholic father. I remember being 3/4 wondering why dad wouldn't come in the house, why he was in the garage for so long... why my mother wouldn't let me out there. Soon after, my mother divorced my father and things only continued to get worse. Between the ages of 7-11 I was dragging my father in from the garage and laying him on the floor. Constantly hearing about my mother and all the bad things she's done. As a child, you cannot hear these things. I repeated them to my mother and felt the wraith. My mother kept me away from my father only allowing me to see him during allotted times by the judge. I was lashing out because I could not see my father and my mother consistently grounded me. High school was a whole new level of turmoil. When I was in high school, I was coping by playing video games. I played this game called ""Starsiege Tribes"" and my father went on my computer. Loaded up Starsiege Tribes and saw that I was playing a female character. He couldn't wrap his mind around the fact that the hitboxes on a female character were smaller. Meaning, that you were harder to shoot. So my dad thinks something is 'sexually' wrong with me. Anyways, after a solid night of drinking and going through my computer. He loads up AIM, continues to 'flirt' with people on my friends list. Whom are my high school buddies... now I spend the next 3 years in high school with people thinking I'm gay... So, I turn 18. Figuring now that I'm an adult, all that is behind me. It only gets worse because now you're an adult, your drunken parent can start having 'manly drunk' talks with you. Telling you how the world really 'is' in their eyes. This is the WORST thing you can do to the aspirations of a young adult. During these years, 18-30, I've enabled my father. I've lived with him, cared for him, bought him his beer, listened to his 'false sense of reality bullshit.' I've tried getting him help more then once, I've enrolled him into different programs and different psychiatric treatments. He continues to manipulate everyone around me. Getting them to do his bidding, he says things like 'if you don't watch this movie with me I'm going to kill myself.' My father is completely dependent on others and 'the system.' He's enrolled in a government sponsored program for his mental disabilities, which basically lets him bask in their system. They do his taxes for him, they do his social security paperwork, they do his stated funded assistance. When their not able to do it, someone else has too. The funny part about that though, is when you start talking about his problems... he suddenly turns into a genius out of self preservation. This next part is why I've turned to Reddit. During this last year I went 'all in' on helping him. It's not working out, instead he's blaming his situations on others yet again. He's been getting more intoxicated and doesn't eat during the day so he can get a 'better buzz going.' During this period he's been talking more about suicide but more like murder suicide. Then randomly in November at 3:30AM the police came to do a wellness check on him. Apparently he was screaming at them and told them to leave. Then he comes down drunk, telling me it's my fault he had to talk to the police because I was sleeping. He proceeds to tell me that if 'those crazy cops' shot him, it would be on me. So I call the police station to find out some more information, they had gotten a tip from the government run facility he goes to. Saying that one of his co-workers, a 26 y/o female, that my dad maybe has a crush on sent them screen shots. The screen shots say things along the lines of, ""People will be sorry when I come around."" Just alot of cryptic alcoholic threatening bullshit. He says things like, ""I'm going to blow my brains out infront of a bus full of children."", ""I'm going to run my car into a bus full of kids and take them with me."", ""I'm going to shoot up (x) and then kill myself."" This has me fearing for my own safety, I'm starting to get weird vibes from him. I think he definitely knows this because these things have completely changed my outlook on helping him. I feel like I've seen something that has completely ruined our relationship forever and I've lost all respect for him as a parent. My fathers sickness/alcoholism was determining factor in my 'divorce' from my previous relationship. It was the most stable I've ever been. This left me financially in the whole, so now I'm living with my grandmother... whom my father lives with. I sleep every night with two firearms and a knife, whenever he's around me... I have my hand on my knife in my pocket and I won't turn my back to him. I've given this the best shot I could, I cannot carry him anymore. Any advice on how to 'get out.' I cannot simply pick up and leave, I'm financially fucked.",4.099636884854276,5.9504188012422405,4.8878260869565215,82.07765886287626,72.16770186335404,7.728173275999364,27.08440834527791,8.423722925485528,1.94276773371556,3966,142,739,67,78,1281,403,966,0.10099999999999999,0.8370000000000001,0.063,-0.9914,6,0,9,3,2,4,140.0,1,8,13,5,37,30,4,2,47,0,64,18,5,6,6,96,127,42,5,9,7,22,3,4,1,5,6,8,0,8,45,49,8,2,13,10,5,16,12,15,1,2,34,19,129,15,124,80,24,125,0,2,8,2,133,59,1,10,51,492,174,12,0.049688576767559126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09711020428656447,0.0,0.2124079092135578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033789936095840495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049277716434549715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17693347165261752,0.0,0.0,0.046684053521047916,0.038207448441451214,0.04148788610767374,0.12115878081923412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052145095775979984,0.04394550825154513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05546888467156014,0.10147518479121484,0.056830494634198626,0.05066081558457293,0.0,0.05256392574991875,0.12840692747395402,0.1562925821281555,0.05369569929543982,0.0,0.0793445707052121,0.0,0.0,0.03204502138168125,0.051226740829269236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10382797409526504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05084866553858935,0.0,0.048675888593465805,0.0,0.05084381880000199,0.04150842999038504,0.0,0.0,0.051341582394701206,0.0,0.0,0.04494616241096324,0.041864768977411884,0.04747956445858013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055913463110139526,0.025124037388360942,0.035497529170991325,0.04770882590623789,0.0,0.045414458981081686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038389271152772235,0.045936288550549376,0.20768184432538744,0.0,0.1694349795042289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11200527454560152,0.0,0.09991561685114668,0.2099948377883832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05733394627374404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10994609643636337,0.0,0.027307542322905914,0.04050282191155849,0.0,0.10522605666547827,0.05398678404476644,0.10161987249780613,0.03509651123671975,0.09710131496668284,0.0,0.13162777086804436,0.043972826830965615,0.0,0.0,0.054240951178762965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04991885396165942,0.0541254268052986,0.0,0.0,0.10014879700743733,0.0,0.050171297914232464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04798953707122845,0.1056887301938245,0.09325872659970502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05213980279926854,0.052916712597735206,0.033670265568172236,0.11337120505425315,0.0,0.0,0.16551985276129216,0.10761577304561708,0.0,0.103343408266039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04754525737768278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031831774626022866,0.0,0.0,0.10669387203522293,0.11257494253698523,0.0,0.0,0.15805740239600682,0.0,0.20114996974111185,0.07919072496404753,0.0,0.051836022244492366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05585204215649247,0.09944892252690804,0.05065124658450401,0.04210096984962663,0.07650538791977851,0.0,0.055622293627585376,0.14067932152711776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1087024764027182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03735962590952715,0.15975118334371355,0.13029001862256334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29709794264525363,0.09551530096757392,0.048818774391442915,0.0,0.02897380869811323,0.0,0.0,0.04747956445858013,0.0,0.03373528198133174,0.2161876123564008,0.04853851946931652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044675997872211055,0.09212361694415176,0.17934484787601182,0.1109510429592077,0.0,0.0,0.05388514193164107,0.07234775134975233,0.0,0.10127380948003184,0.03529733930076027,0.05432665845186682,0.0,0.0959934430029792 alcoholism,AwkwardAccount100,2019/02/20,"Numb lips etc - question/help please Hey guys, not a very interesting title! This isn’t my normal account because some Real Life people know me on there. Getting to the point, I’ve probably been a heavy drinker/alcoholic for about 10 years now (28yrs, now 38yrs female). You’ll all laugh at this but it’s never really caused me any issues. My industry is very drug and drink friendly. Late to work because you had a big night last night? Hilarious! One guy even got a certificate for ending up in the hospital after a work party. But when I think about it - I have had issues with digestion and err, toilet things. I just chalked it up to undiagnosed food intolerances. It still didn’t put me off the wine. The thing that has scared me is, about three weeks ago I started getting numb little toes not just in the morning - all day. Now numb fingers and for the last week a numb mouth/lips/lower cheeks. Of course I’ve done online sleuthing and discovered alcoholic neuropathy and it all pretty much says it’s irreversible. I know you aren’t doctors (unless any of you are?) but could stopping drinking within a month of the first symptoms be considered ‘early’ enough to reverse the damage? When it says vitamins is a good multi vitamin enough? I can’t imagine never feeling my lips again or feeling the cat’s fur when I pat it. Yes I know I need to go to the doctor but it’s on my mind now. (Also I posted this to crippling alcoholism but got no replies.) 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She's been a hardcore alcoholic since before I was born (she didn't drink during the pregnancy, obviously). My entire childhood I had to deal with her drunken rampages and then the hangovers that made her shut herself in her room and refuse to care for us. Hell, it was my big sister who got me up and cooked for me every day since she was nine. I probably wouldn't have made it to school most days without her. About seven months ago my Mom's completely disgusting personality coupled with her addiction FINALLY got her kicked out of the house. Thanks, CPS. Please don't get me wrong, it's a sad situation, but I've been praying for her to be removed for the longest time. I even went to CPS when I was eleven and she told them I was crazy (I'm still angry that they believed her then). Mom's now been living with her parents in colorado for seven months, chugging whiskey and smoking all day every day. She won't get a job, she won't leave the house. Her dad is an alcoholic as well and her stepmom is too polite to tell her to get a fucking grip. They had to take her to the hospital a few days ago because she was stumbling around and rambling like she was drunk, but she was actually sober. There was no alcohol in her blood. Mom gets sweaty and shaking when she has withdrawls but this was apparently different. She was acting completely demented, like telling her dad to ""feed the chickens"" even though they don't have chickens. They kept her at the hospital for like three days because they didn't know what the hell was wrong with her. She already has awful bone problems, skin problems and allergies, and now her brain is literally deteriorating because she won't stop drinking all the time. Her liver must be a useless hunk of meat at this point. I've never loved that nasty witch, but she's my mom, and I don't want her to die when I'm a college student. There's no way to make her take care of herself, especially from two states away. It just feels like I'm going to break down the next time I see her (maybe when my sister gets married, I don't know) because it sounds like she's literally dying to me. 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Hello, first time poster. I’m sure some iteration of this question gets asked often, but here goes. My brother will be coming out of rehabilitation in just a few days. This was a huge step in the right direction for him and our family could not be prouder or happier for him. We all are looking for the best ways to support him and make his continued recovery easier. But no one quite knows how best to handle this? Drinking is a big part of most of our family gatherings. No one wants to put him in an uncomfortable position by exposing him to this early after rehab. On the other hand we don’t want him to feel like he’s burdened his family into having to change their habits around him. Before going into rehab he had a lot of unrealistic fears about being abandoned by his family or friends because he’d be sober. What’s the best way for us to show him we support him while also showing him that nothing has changed?",5.755784313725492,6.511698192513372,6.830815508021393,73.84465463458113,67.07486631016042,9.869696969696973,30.556595365418893,9.928628108626363,3.0010146167557936,770,28,139,17,12,259,123,187,0.11199999999999999,0.662,0.226,0.9828,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,6,0,1,5,8,12,0,1,9,0,15,4,1,3,2,32,29,10,0,3,6,2,2,1,1,1,2,0,0,0,7,10,1,1,3,3,0,4,4,3,0,3,2,3,24,9,28,20,9,24,0,1,1,0,30,11,0,7,8,110,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09743748425933628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10846574731110517,0.11390638469700715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07427411886577433,0.0,0.10367907959621718,0.0,0.3835988789993642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2577866328995885,0.10495661236053264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09728140273556134,0.0,0.0,0.07857839806791539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11935936333602737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4594494432627385,0.13710680075051754,0.06160728019062533,0.08704437873210906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10363925444399257,0.0,0.0,0.09413529154029894,0.0,0.0636577303245621,0.0,0.06924595819702682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06696150722908861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05952614050003265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10231709826998002,0.0,0.0,0.10358622251412818,0.0,0.0,0.08133088250795371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11691126208477105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.165127399938683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13194366376049646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12248546748424355,0.13649159847362893,0.1295946044117215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1040529157951572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4147966202514559,0.11483520980115368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07104740066503655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14656164731054294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14373184618923687,0.1934259712515382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,inagreenshade,2019/04/15,"I have questions about medical detox Hello. My sister is married to an alcoholic who has been repeatedly dishonest with her. (Just for background: there are several alcoholics in my family, and my dad has been involved in AA for 30 years.) My brother in law had alcohol withdrawal seizures 2 years ago, but he never stopped drinking. He is currently in a treatment center receiving a medical detox. He told my sister he was being released today. Then he called and said the doctor ""forgot to sign his release papers."" That sounds like a lie to me. Then he also said the doctor said he still had elevated enzyme levels. That sounds like the truth. So, what does it mean to have elevated enzyme levels? Does this mean he is not done with withdrawal? Does this mean he has liver damage? I can't find an answer with my Google skills, and my sister does not have access to his medical records. I would appreciate any help because my heart is breaking for my sister.",4.46215909090909,6.966525443181819,5.260227272727274,76.94159090909096,72.97727272727272,8.263636363636364,28.04545454545455,9.017664075816787,2.703006818181818,762,30,126,17,16,247,105,176,0.036000000000000004,0.85,0.114,0.9125,1,0,4,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,1,6,4,0,0,8,0,20,13,2,0,2,23,28,8,0,1,4,6,0,2,0,1,10,5,0,0,7,6,4,2,6,1,0,1,4,1,1,0,11,5,16,3,16,15,0,20,0,1,0,0,29,7,0,1,13,81,23,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10378005305662504,0.3753531788820417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09362495199214302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07961511398675811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07136792237532072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11954681389549038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2396627457465141,0.4098129970292935,0.11980852202403765,0.0,0.11468907214809942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11036802826774808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10700456248778924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13873461175527368,0.07847300255415911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11439400532468305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3825874673864423,0.0,0.3538226781234618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09029557008183037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13115095747353422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33409582147543754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1322615909126541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0934963628617128,0.09788006436959143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11097354921082447,0.11187031918881944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08316682469858942,0.0,0.0,0.15078511118392526 alcoholism,mrkeyrose,2019/04/15,"Trying to resist my cravings right now. I think I was drunk everyday from the middle of March til last Thursday. I was blacking out all of last week. My withdrawal hit a point where I would fall asleep and wake up every 20 minutes. I would hear voices while trying to sleep and have the most vivid dreams. And my body felt like pins and needles. And I could think of speak correctly. This went on for two days. I tapered it out with beer so I don’t have any withdrawals anymore, so I have a few days with sobriety. I’ve been drinking nothing but water non stop, it’s working like a charm. I barely drank water during my bender. I honestly feels pretty good being sober after the withdrawals go away but I noticed the slightest inconvenience will make me want a fucking drink. Typing this did help a lot though. Gonna see a doctor soon for a physical though cause narcolepsy after binge drinking is weird as fuck. Plus I’ve been wondering if I’m bipolar or not.",2.8111884550084905,5.3284854838709705,3.390260328239957,88.1922325976231,78.56989247311827,5.851273344651951,23.76796830786644,7.0608816371341465,0.9970688172043012,764,26,143,9,19,239,130,186,0.077,0.7709999999999999,0.152,0.9215,0,0,4,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,1,7,8,2,0,11,0,15,16,4,2,2,31,32,17,0,5,5,0,2,2,0,4,2,3,0,0,4,10,8,1,5,6,0,3,2,3,0,1,8,8,17,5,20,17,4,27,0,0,3,2,3,9,2,5,17,90,21,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09567179647960293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1395234262750255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13217980805410254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15627123449592872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1445240191970514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11232690110362427,0.0,0.0,0.18146259614797733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14399882312934295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4134582877371421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11853463249862704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07113543467343496,0.0,0.13508131739095744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26012521815792783,0.0,0.0,0.07995550721412252,0.1180013490158455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15856416242657434,0.0,0.09429934535738496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2293569140694073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13746485369260394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11960682149774465,0.0,0.0,0.09390948053015538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13499270574657793,0.16017276741498954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13299442787858098,0.0,0.0,0.1431289758084324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12014569335351315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11210910402942732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407883259844544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1176204005603195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18029274375144788,0.27644798348918576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910341009669616,0.0,0.13743048648918094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08298067471449988,0.0,0.11285040367191215,0.0,0.0,0.13041800236388634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525687505752073,0.10242161043539927,0.0,0.0,0.19987962405584586,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,cwalker216,2019/04/15,"Tapering Off Whiskey After 10 Years - Help! ​ Hey Guys, So I'm sort of new to this Sub in the sense that I've read a lot of posts but never actually posted. Anyway, to make a long story short, I'm about to start an alcohol taper. ​ To make a short story long, here's my story. ​ Brief History: 35 years old, very active, married, 2 kids. ​ **My Drinking Habits:** I've been drinking daily for about 10 years now. I won't get into the history to much, but I used to (like 2 - 3 years back) drink to blackout about once or twice a week, and then just in moderation (ie about 10 drinks / daily) the rest of the weekdays. ​ For the last year or so, I've been drinking around 7 - 8 a night. A drink for me is really about 3 drinks, with about 2.5 shots of whiskey mixed with diet coke. ​ In total, it's about 350 ml of whiskey per night, spread out over 4 hours or so. ​ There are days that I will have an occasional couple of beers during the day, almost exclusively on the weekends. ​ Compounding this problem has been Adderall use. I'm prescribed 10 mg Adderall XR, which I take daily. ​ When I think about it, my ADHD was caused by my drinking, which is why I started taking the Adderall in the first place. ​ I've put myself in a constant cycle of dependency with the adderall / alcohol....I wake up hungover, and Adderall lifts the fog. I struggle to fall asleep at night because of the Adderall, so I drink whiskey. ​ Hence the cycle.... ​ Other than my hangover (which I realize is technically 'withdrawal'), I do not experience any other alcohol withdrawal symptoms. (such as shakes, raised BP, etc.). With that said, I haven't gone through a period of more than 16 - 18 hours or so until I have my next drink. ​ I'm ready and willing to get myself out of this cycle, which is where the taper has come in. ​ My Plan: I am going to do a quick taper off of the adderall. I've tapered off it before in the past, and while the first week sucks, life does seem to get normal eventually. ​ As for the whiskey, I was thinking about doing it over the course of about 2 weeks, dropping by about 50 ml every few days. ​ My biggest concern is, given my history of drinking everyday for close to 10 years, is an at-home taper safe? ​ Is a 2 week taper realistic? Should I make it shorter / longer? ​ Note: I have access to Ativan and clonidine, but I don't plan on taking either unless absolutely necessary. ​ Any help would be appreciated, thanks for listening! ​ **TLDR:** Been drinking for nearly 10 years, caught in a cycle of adderall / alcohol. Drinking 350 ml of whiskey a night for the last year. About to start a 2 week taper, but wondering if safe.",4.000174191976612,6.3327622194656525,4.453886633100538,82.98791375669971,73.75190839694656,6.673314926100375,28.32450868929673,7.616502295504843,1.8414112879649185,2209,90,392,29,47,697,240,524,0.021,0.917,0.062,0.9662,0,0,24,0,0,0,185.0,0,0,0,4,28,8,1,2,36,0,31,29,2,7,2,51,62,26,0,5,13,0,0,1,0,5,5,2,0,2,17,15,25,2,5,22,0,8,5,4,0,3,10,2,29,4,85,46,8,87,0,0,0,0,7,28,1,11,49,242,46,1,0.0,0.0,0.02199503747798496,0.0,0.027087774819124846,0.0,0.0,0.09635033041596756,0.022569783389360432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.488424932892365,0.5477526378272664,0.030654899053644595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02006469358708536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0173312768592983,0.0,0.013739705606950956,0.0,0.01917922491717477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.023153998264562492,0.0,0.01941555116853899,0.0,0.024356900777317367,0.0,0.0,0.024939229655962483,0.0,0.04360781681449729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.019724232350050445,0.0,0.0,0.28703824432086983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.025137199793234703,0.0,0.0,0.018990273661167026,0.0,0.0,0.02204769220091815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03834371560725471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03532745272334128,0.0,0.012809564012704795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02231738163839744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030215141965811262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04439320338360613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036744961978173465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.015920124945563108,0.011011529438221665,0.0,0.0,0.03989301914579769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.01916204761516289,0.0,0.0,0.04513533379368289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.016568927688853072,0.0,0.017383643929155118,0.021768529102526715,0.023970727156823444,0.08460616325750665,0.02208366019064069,0.0,0.0,0.02365113072358351,0.024003544699422823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.021516245716047256,0.0,0.0,0.023548698463109703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043172704472804656,0.0,0.0,0.02156699943525245,0.0,0.02265815185777668,0.0,0.0,0.022545329764769948,0.0,0.014439208098698003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.021439969474634845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02051886877717981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047860149706822085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.023562897331380582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.023426890428928142,0.05084008849662162,0.0,0.0,0.02075109504579329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028884457401108614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03893331653272285,0.0,0.018597225520534545,0.0,0.0,0.09039805512231217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.020338149618856348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.024442833832543247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.016011222543570392,0.0,0.5477526378272664,0.11611620283316065 alcoholism,Belsoe,2019/04/15,"Emotionally abusive alcoholics love text messenges/digital communication? I am really wondering if I am the only one experiencing this. My family is dysfunctional and one of the many problems is alcoholism and related behavior. Since the smartphone, I notice that the ability to connect anytime is attractive for some who like to conduct manipulative and/or hurtful communication and emotional dumpstering. Drunk late night phonecalls are proverbial - has anyone noticed how texting/digitals have become a similar tool? In fact I think it has gotten much worse with that but Maybe it’s just me/us.",8.806874999999998,11.990322604166673,9.125416666666666,51.01125000000002,62.54166666666666,13.55,43.25,12.38480682065935,7.373587500000002,494,30,60,21,8,163,79,96,0.111,0.794,0.095,-0.3632,0,0,2,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,5,0,9,4,0,2,1,14,13,6,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,6,4,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,1,5,3,6,12,2,3,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,3,3,42,11,0,0.0,0.2024750200989558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3652558370268443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11948926654966845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18873300750603053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3844532967980274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1610985419092747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18293975631580767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19276975848684408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08348752691432068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15423361287670664,0.0,0.0,0.17325419527845745,0.17168054480358222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12562276694852606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16036735341142686,0.0,0.0,0.3891155556140426,0.0,0.0,0.23159704511104715,0.12996846351014665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16351728939323135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10947559841934283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1413607969903513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1094985001043622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20555791744031213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18532137237661386,0.0,0.0,0.17415005960693813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,naddk,2019/04/15,"Anxiety thinking about withdrawals.. It’s pretty crazy. I’ve been diagnosed with anxiety in the past, so unfortunately these thoughts are much more severe. I can’t believe how powerful the mind is. I haven’t drank in a few weeks and have felt fine, but I just imagined myself going out and drinking this weekend. I pictured waking up in the morning relieving the withdrawal I experienced a while back after a bender. Within minutes, I feel sick. Anxious, tingly, pressure in my face, and it feels like my heart is skipping. Am I going through PAWS? I don’t really think so. I think I’m so mentally wrecked from experiencing withdrawals once, and my anxiety kills me. The second I think back to those times, I feel sick. I drank a can of coke, some special non caffeine edition I’ve never seen before. Thought to myself “it looks like beer.” The result? Tingly hands. Yikes. Not sure why I post this. Just random stuff I’m not comfortable sharing with other people I suppose. But boy do I feel traumautized.",3.2914105534105538,6.203456637837843,4.046795366795369,81.73981981981984,79.91891891891892,6.550836550836553,27.72844272844273,7.793537801064563,2.1121685971685973,798,35,136,14,21,254,120,185,0.19899999999999998,0.6990000000000001,0.102,-0.9578,1,0,2,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,0,1,9,10,1,1,10,0,11,12,4,2,2,32,30,11,1,0,6,0,6,2,0,0,3,0,0,1,9,7,5,0,12,3,0,2,6,2,0,1,7,10,21,8,16,23,4,19,0,0,2,0,2,7,0,2,11,90,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3368564508938009,0.16581841774650138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.225727882000959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12489806302561028,0.16536959677491903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14897752949582194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14378747711398265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2968633592833668,0.10485890059256188,0.14093079574615167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16683570272505746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1739337448551262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16238914462506074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1434175472390222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12325733829901575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479186438481664,0.0,0.14820488252144426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10789940592938156,0.0,0.11320496341508116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15631477557895962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401171019747992,0.10175803243530836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1405736464199281,0.1493269450181152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09403034434077344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16581841774650138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16802676418390414,0.0,0.0,0.13833740931306432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.376200059858899,0.0,0.2330521582716287,0.08558797744565708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11773720820124055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13244515896184605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Stella-tundra,2019/04/15,"Is my boyfriend an alcoholic? I've been in a relationship for 9 years. Alcohol has always been part of my partner's life since we first met. However, it's really only a ""weekend thing"". In the past, he could drink on weekends without becoming fully drunk. Lately it's increased, and he gets drunk every weekend. He becomes a different person and creates chaos when he drinks. During the work week he's normal and we have a normal relationship, but as soon as he arrives home on Friday nights he starts to make himself a drink. It's gotten to a point where I dread the weekends because we can't have a normal time together without him needing alcohol there.",5.400421146953407,6.9462625725806495,6.1510752688172055,75.50216845878137,68.43548387096774,8.736917562724015,33.132616487455195,9.150863307647796,3.1788057347670264,525,24,88,10,9,172,83,124,0.055,0.889,0.055,-0.4583,2,0,6,0,0,0,15.0,3,0,0,2,4,1,0,1,11,0,8,9,0,1,0,15,14,7,0,5,3,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,1,2,4,6,8,0,0,9,0,1,3,1,0,1,4,0,8,0,12,9,2,21,0,0,0,0,17,6,0,0,14,53,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4202599846083886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1090706220774822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07990629531450047,0.2895392682389902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10465821223196786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13695266168682793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3852310070153237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1104421345465156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11149817726875012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06848487031610187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13148580998801654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14786606632415447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09258700599089573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08749817049481247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09719555056298376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1230114614548396,0.3852972232372326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09969367392630396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1419488985170806,0.1251324834337089,0.0,0.11445563857933272,0.0,0.0,0.12391474278939735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08397440669022684,0.0,0.0,0.28146575888094805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10843228288236482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09278042692886593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08708497424920128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07643489637524442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10514597466783628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2527165027403793,0.0,0.09542916733899012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0844124308392295 alcoholism,alkitx,2019/04/15,"Hurting is difficult. How do you manage? The desire to drink right now is at an all time high. I’m starting a new manager position and the people at my company seem to be completely distant and unwelcoming. I truly feel as if I may have made the wrong decision but I will give it time because who doesn’t love a job with great pay and benefits. In addition it seems as if my “fiancé” doesn’t give two shits about any important decisions that have to be made because she literally gave no input to this choice I had to make which put thousands of miles between us. She said yesterday in so many words, after I had to be a pushy ass person, that “my mind wandered and didn’t really put much thought into the job offer you received.” It hurts so much to know that she doesn’t care to resolve any issues that I constantly bring up and basically immediately wants to get off the phone. Like I’m realizing I may be unable to effectively do my job since my mind wanders why I’m still in the shitty engagement with a person who doesn’t take care of me emotionally & mentally. I was doing completely fine with not drinking before these two issues. Keeping my hands busy isn’t enough right now. I know I’m grown and will make whatever decisions comes up but Damn. I’m just hurting and she doesn’t even see it & doesn’t care. At least I’ll have the job to put all of the effort and love into once this relationship goes to shit.",4.874011530593271,5.752951699646642,5.93838199739632,79.01648874837272,69.10600706713781,9.63280639761949,29.029012460479823,9.811843763644266,2.638085512367492,1133,40,224,26,19,377,156,283,0.13,0.6970000000000001,0.17300000000000001,0.9520000000000001,4,0,2,0,0,0,20.0,1,2,0,3,9,20,3,0,13,0,27,8,4,6,2,48,59,17,0,4,6,0,2,1,0,4,0,1,0,2,14,15,2,1,12,2,1,7,10,9,0,3,9,4,23,11,34,42,6,32,0,3,1,3,21,15,4,6,11,142,37,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19200296277592285,0.0,0.1205063674174403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10802332176538977,0.0,0.07539475894558542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2710104647365659,0.0,0.0,0.07632377254394848,0.1857974444731632,0.09574853367108313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1735947205871351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09966662367844566,0.0,0.0915507441964393,0.0,0.05852154821897421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044800417377883504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04629149150952296,0.16999243970124014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.097685291146943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09361409787264954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28455452977633633,0.0,0.0,0.18495734792489948,0.3516998384517743,0.07875455520309113,0.0,0.0,0.09738795359356976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04328702599829752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15993561331040368,0.1676768951275194,0.11828658790953675,0.08982969232073731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08929114052155987,0.0,0.17892785719137852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13026702741978485,0.0,0.0,0.08557347918764213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0943594683449364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06142627147599554,0.15472971466710914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2672119292901831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05676144988484993,0.0,0.0,0.09512662962870068,0.0,0.1513332204435852,0.08428189029126415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07060524301898358,0.16132196915905986,0.0,0.0,0.18189973062268106,0.07329344538784971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06271376912307157,0.0,0.07075859400943542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06661854573595659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07034100797477924,0.10333042437707553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1731048157202069,0.0,0.10657868600571048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05226043642770175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07995056601790991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09687364079934356,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Anon2608,2019/04/15,"""Just one more night"" How on earth do you stop this train of thought. It's always just ""one more night"".",1.5385714285714265,3.50079928571429,0.8669047619047632,107.54892857142859,79.95238095238095,4.2,15.261904761904766,3.1291,-1.6160666666666668,79,1,20,0,2,22,17,21,0.10400000000000001,0.8959999999999999,0.0,-0.29600000000000004,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,5,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,2,1,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,13,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3062739439539162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6908405716168914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4988441588196041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3077332682532776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2922162156429343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,infectedwithinsanity,2019/03/13,Seizures I get seizures when I come off of alcohol. 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I posted this in stop drinking but i think this might be the better sub Not sure if this is the place to post but i had to get this off my chest. Last weekend an old friend and i went to my cabin to ride snowmobiles. He drank a 5th one day and on the way home killed the better part of a gallon of whiskey straight in like 4 hours. Tried to fight me and a stranger at the restaraunt. When we got back to my place (i was driving his truck) he passed out for 4 hours then tried to fight me again in my own house when i took his keys. I kicked him out and the next day he said hes going to rehab. The problem is the rehab is within walking distance of his house and an outpatient facility. I am a recovering meth addict myself and my red flag radar was going off. He has talked about just killing himself and i fear that if he dosent get a medical detox in an inpatient rehab he will die. Im lost and dont know how to get through to him. I know from my own recovery that you cant help someone when they dont want it. Im scared for my friend but i had to back away from him for my familys sake. Thanks for letting me vent. 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Well now here we are, she’s still drinking around ~0.5l of vodka most days (even more the past couple of weeks, her excuse being work). I just don’t know what to do anymore, i get phone calls from her once or twice a week, only when she’s drunk, and i can’t stand it. I’ve worked hard to get through uni, and i would love her to be able to see me graduate, but it will crush me that she’ll inevitably start drinking during it, but it’ll also crush me if i can’t have her there for it. 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I went to the doctor Monday to address some problems with depression/anxiety/eating disorder/alcoholism and she had me put my arms out forward, flat...the shaking was amazing, intense. She asked how much I'm drinking--couldn't tell her cause I really don't know. A SHIT-TON. I drink all day so I don't feel ""symptoms,"" yet I feel pretty much sober. I'm really losing everything, honestly; my mind, my job, my relationships, mySELF...I'm just GONE.",2.5232246376811567,5.4571751630434795,3.945652173913043,80.42942028985509,85.41304347826087,7.41449275362319,27.231884057971016,8.344100000000001,2.701866666666666,393,18,66,10,12,129,72,92,0.12,0.72,0.16,0.5687,1,0,3,0,0,0,34.0,0,0,0,1,4,6,0,1,2,0,5,4,1,2,1,13,15,3,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,3,1,0,3,1,0,5,2,3,0,0,4,2,13,3,5,11,4,10,0,1,0,0,6,3,0,1,4,35,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21717846493864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1899815948290374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2087610817142051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13105893426223153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20800245003612136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19907648078442455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1826394244474872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2055064669961716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10617312771735124,0.0,0.0,0.1704497937515562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2016627173183129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11168341414203994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22734919688706925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20519246209494174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2987775353221286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20674597883743506,0.0,0.19445238269382875,0.0,0.2042904312864932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26037357931344424,0.0,0.0,0.2181803063055656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20860057325200587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21122153207674552,0.0,0.0,0.17762167360617287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1676763067954377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18838531753928794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Beaky1505,2019/03/13,"4.5 months and I want to have a drink I'm just struggling with anger and I'm pissed off at my boyfriend. my brother who sexually abused me as a child has moved in to my mum's house. I'm moving house because I've just had enough of living in a toxic environment. I feel like I'm not being a good enough mother to my child and want to take full responsibility for him. Had various health things crop up recently and doctors worried about ovaries. And I'm just fucking fed up and finding it difficult to find the right sponsor. I know there's no excuse to drink or use drugs now. I'm just struggling with everything. And I just want that release. Maybe I could eat aload of food...??? Or cook a hearty meal. I just really want a drink",2.218349420849421,4.32387239864865,3.2828571428571434,90.35500000000003,78.3918918918919,6.390733590733591,23.40926640926641,7.447530270364453,0.8638266409266406,577,19,124,8,14,185,91,148,0.18,0.759,0.061,-0.9668,0,0,4,0,1,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,9,8,3,2,7,0,6,13,1,1,0,28,22,10,0,5,9,3,1,1,0,0,3,0,0,2,4,9,8,0,4,4,0,2,2,6,0,0,3,1,12,2,19,17,4,13,0,0,0,1,8,8,2,2,4,71,16,1,0.0,0.15908100815171095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08184615157341411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10719896183430933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13742499964979296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3945831209776221,0.15570373454987466,0.1373856974108984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2774614208748165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12066791923064185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0678879651419362,0.09591830268894284,0.0,0.0,0.2454299172214933,0.0,0.1623526874424863,0.0,0.0,0.12412500059860268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11261436027579053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1427164640260397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3098454986287142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07378804022112334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06559465924800137,0.0,0.11855766362004985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13488633873966802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10716832681842617,0.28540298842277706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08601302301908366,0.0,0.13256960490819436,0.0,0.0,0.11466081116649204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2807239866212737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10094989679631336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08919910470275005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11596107723664995,0.0,0.0,0.31676978869019623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1363517148956777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,peppermintsheet,2019/03/13,"I need help Today I woke up at home and started remembering the night before. For the first time in my life i went out alone because none of my friends were up to going out on a tuesday. I got extremely drunk and behaved accordinly. I can remember that i wanted to go home from the last bar i was at. After that i remember that i sort of ”woke up” very far from my actual home and hitched a ride to the nearest train station. I have no idea how i ended up there at 6 in the morning. All i remember is coming home. I feel extremely low, scared and embarrased of my own behaviour. What scares me the most is not remembering how or why i went so far from my home and that i let myself get to this state. What happened over there i will never know. The reason i’m posting this is that i need someone to hear me and tell me that i’ll be ok. I need someone to encourage me to completely stop drinking so i don’t endanger myself like this ever again. It’s not like this was the first time this happened. I need to hear from someone that they’ve been through the same and have ended up ok. 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How do I go about seeking help? It's only just now begun to affect my life and I believe it's starting to affect my health as well but I've been well aware that this behavior is not normal for a while now. I don't really know where to go from here.,0.4587142857142865,2.323933728571429,2.3014285714285734,96.37357142857144,83.14285714285714,5.142857142857143,17.142857142857142,6.1826913282559595,-0.4798571428571426,251,5,59,2,7,83,50,70,0.026000000000000002,0.88,0.09300000000000001,0.5187,0,0,0,1,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,11,2,0,0,1,0,6,3,0,3,0,10,11,6,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,1,1,0,2,2,0,2,1,2,0,5,2,9,9,0,12,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,9,40,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2975313475607099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3001691509267373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28070810579900063,0.0,0.0,0.17700941070306767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451332272169578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1865297828566844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2587454780742182,0.0,0.0,0.27711090794011634,0.0,0.0,0.20084718315102604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16917846816417378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18691945703583507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.257970925820226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4748850463114061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3401218610826373 alcoholism,drugresearch1,2019/03/13,"Short survey on AA group Do you belong to an AA group? We are trying to recruit participants for a short online survey, exploring the psychology of how AA works - takes 10 minutes, just click the link to take part :-) ​",4.258170731707317,6.983201097560978,4.812378048780489,78.81661585365855,74.60975609756099,7.0268292682926825,24.88414634146341,8.07648339933343,1.7600195121951223,179,6,30,3,4,57,33,41,0.0,0.946,0.054000000000000006,0.3182,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,0,2,0,0,1,0,5,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,0,6,4,1,4,0,0,1,0,4,3,0,0,0,17,2,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3705089170121615,0.4155136705043249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37030475865757145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5142163407626257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2321655106644416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2489478618680902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4155136705043249,0.0 alcoholism,TheGroovyTurt1e,2019/03/13,10 Years Sober! 3650 days. It gets easier. I'm thinking cake. :-),-1.4824999999999982,-2.6338142499999986,0.3300000000000001,98.04000000000002,149.83333333333334,4.533333333333334,11.333333333333336,5.985473137389443,-0.405066666666666,47,1,10,1,4,15,12,12,0.0,0.65,0.35,0.6588,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5241068477833212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4245880954280961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.52072803768729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5233347610217736 alcoholism,ResearchLSBU1,2019/03/13,"Short Survey on AA Do you belong to an AA group? We are trying to recruit participants for a short online survey, exploring the psychology of how AA works - takes 10 minutes, just click the [link](https://lsbupsychology.qualtrics.com/jfe/form/SV_bfRU6TRqHvAO9p3) to take part :-)",11.026428571428575,13.865013547619052,8.131904761904764,61.69642857142858,56.38095238095239,9.40952380952381,30.66666666666667,9.725611199111238,3.134609523809525,227,7,30,4,3,65,35,42,0.0,0.943,0.057,0.3182,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,0,2,0,0,1,0,4,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,0,6,4,1,4,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,0,17,2,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5147990302281877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7148654381643456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32275734229223835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3460882283329882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,wooofofwallstreet,2019/03/13,"Its been 5 days, and I remember why I drink. So I've gone through the hard part of the withdrawals, the shivering, waking up with a start every 15 minutes to gulp down some more water. Even got some hallucinations, and I think I was delirious for at least a day there but I can't remember that part too much (thankfully). ​ I can't really sleep much still, but I can feel like that is improving with time. ​ But now the depression is coming back, which I've finally realized, was the real reason I drank so much in the first place. The crushing loneliness and feeling like there is no point. If any of you guys are religious, send a prayer out for me. I don't know if there is a God, but I hope he can redeem me, fix me, give me a purpose to live and let me be reconnected with my family. I will never take them for granted again if I can help my dumbass from doing it. ​ I started cleaning my wreck of a room today, found some unopened whippets lying around, but I put them in that whip dispenser and released that gas into the air, so I wouldn't be tempted to do them. ​ I have to figure out how to live now. I know I can't go back to drinking or drugs. Next time the withdrawals might be bad enough to give me full blown seizures. I don't think I can quit smoking yet though, still need to chain smoke for a bit yet. ​ Respect to all you bastards who have put up with this and gotten further through this than I have. Hope to get to where some of you sober bastards have fought to get, I look up to you guys. And I understand those who are still lost like me. But until then, I guess I gotta keep gulping down water like a fish and applying to jobs in my home state of Texas like my life depends on it. God bless.",4.248593896713615,5.022688839436622,4.671144366197186,87.91835974178404,70.46478873239437,7.832159624413147,27.749413145539908,7.937092434478242,1.4972934272300469,1378,46,294,17,24,436,188,355,0.133,0.74,0.127,-0.7506,1,0,4,0,0,1,58.0,0,4,3,3,22,16,3,0,17,0,31,11,2,3,2,56,62,25,0,7,10,0,3,5,0,4,2,0,3,2,13,17,7,1,13,2,0,6,8,6,0,1,10,4,44,10,46,44,15,51,1,2,1,0,17,21,2,13,28,208,57,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37946489565319147,0.4255575085530879,0.04763253178647138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062354284931760276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10771949951047237,0.0584840719488824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07647024370126848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06033696973321745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09034556888368804,0.0,0.060329060381506476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13723351261078068,0.08122916040841377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07237449483322304,0.0,0.04626360524299369,0.0,0.05901535100255272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0660315403875207,0.0,0.07083301407325912,0.10007933615397277,0.0,0.07673011635958034,0.0,0.0595796531340016,0.0,0.07679996904943254,0.0,0.0,0.07319052056833991,0.13438576667870378,0.03980779476313163,0.0,0.05602083227652339,0.0,0.07716170281526516,0.1387097557778966,0.0,0.0,0.06274594242338974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04694922360046524,0.0,0.07026015261439518,0.1391396060186326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06950816829587092,0.062258599847193626,0.0,0.0,0.07698904040640354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07162505121583775,0.0494743666379142,0.17110055559664272,0.0,0.12370081557363065,0.0,0.05881957813482053,0.0,0.07646163709285357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07430594244047913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15447187872175527,0.051936967316988686,0.05402248890600971,0.0,0.07449291685770383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1517023209449648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07318139434164891,0.0,0.06621451197167252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1408277530713223,0.0,0.07450074414671823,0.0,0.07972575786558071,0.04487217769199845,0.07201721512929937,0.0,0.0,0.1586930946996737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07009489378667985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09915544432125367,0.0,0.1678124260427756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05266460296399586,0.0,0.0,0.06448738863195329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08976312940294673,0.06881817758936896,0.0,0.0816867992809201,0.0,0.06639381451016099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07291859552351089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06320409383850241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4255575085530879,0.0 alcoholism,Brosiusaurus,2019/03/13,"My wife I’m 25 years old, been married to my wife for 4 years. Ever since we were dating I knew she had a problem with alcohol, but know it’s worse than I could of imagined. She’s dealt with severe depression since she was 12 & has been through so many different medications & treatments. Her meds has been less & less effective over the years, so she’s turned to alcoholism. She drinks every night until she blacks out, wakes up late and then goes right back to it. Her health is declining, she’s gained over 100lbs in 4 years and the doctor has already found red flags to do with her liver (I’m sure her antidepressants make it even worse). I spend so many nights wondering if it’ll be the last time I see her alive... I love her dearly, and I honestly don’t know what to do. I feel so alone & that know one around me will be understanding. I don’t what to do but pray. 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I feel that the gym is so good for my mind. I am sober 2 months now. I highly recommend joining the gym. ,1.419347826086959,2.9728046304347875,3.2602173913043515,92.17119565217396,78.78260869565217,6.339130434782609,22.369565217391305,7.1686216300943375,0.5264956521739137,167,5,39,2,4,56,32,46,0.0,0.782,0.218,0.8843,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,5,0,5,1,0,0,0,3,7,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,6,1,5,5,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,4,25,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3082157668859116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.326676333168629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34061439828203605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17580796416319971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29163492195169344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3673649695078481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3510786745530327,0.0,0.5550628987430153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ScottySauceOG,2019/03/13,Can't get a prescription from my doctor so I'm desperately trying to stop drinking now after months of drinking. As a current occasional smoker can anyone recommend I stop or continue to ease the withdrawal symptoms? Thanks in advance,5.981341463414633,9.134366097560974,7.11481707317073,62.30929878048782,70.95121951219512,9.953658536585364,37.079268292682926,10.125756701596842,5.156360975609756,194,11,25,6,4,65,36,41,0.161,0.64,0.19899999999999998,0.1832,1,0,3,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,3,0,2,4,0,0,0,3,5,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,7,5,0,9,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,7,17,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20645900973528886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.302220420346966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5785025868052549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15426591024633465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23568096679267175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4937163530397594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3068976360589918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27184410301955714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20046832689383007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,S4NEMAN,2019/02/23,"I'm an alcoholic and I don't complain about it It's fine, it's okay. The thing I complain about is not being able to buy alcohol sometimes. There are things in life makes you keep on going. Whether they are healthy or not. Whether they heal or destroy us. No matter what the consequences are. Alcohol is one of the few things that makes my life enjoyable. So, Why should I quit drinking? I'm seriously asking.",0.9788333333333306,3.57450055,2.055000000000004,92.20333333333336,93.5,5.666666666666668,24.16666666666667,7.1686216300943375,1.303791666666667,324,14,65,6,12,102,57,80,0.08800000000000001,0.738,0.174,0.6393,0,0,4,0,0,0,11.0,1,1,2,1,4,7,1,0,4,1,8,7,0,2,0,12,15,6,0,1,6,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,0,8,1,4,1,0,1,1,1,4,4,0,1,0,0,8,3,6,13,1,3,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,2,0,46,16,0,0.19314656327296006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6192448095541759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18056596379072312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18921010034289293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10976964297232056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17167753998552282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2728502593243523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2578536615846888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308811099461043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20543514492120324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910268898217923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38495398278920906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2323315341082857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.174284731327721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,rkg1989,2019/02/23,"Naltrexone Not sure if this is the right sub to discuss medication, but just wanted to share my story. It might possibly convince people that are in doubt about trying naltrexone: I've had a habit of daily drinking for I'd say around 5-6 years, with the intake ranging from 2 to 6 beers. Not a hardcore alcoholic, but the habit was definitely there, I was aware of it, and I wanted to get rid of it. I had a hard time quitting, simply because I enjoyed my evenings much more after downing a couple of beers. I tried a couple of times to quit drinking, usually by allowing myself to only have one drink a night or only at social occasions. However, these 'regimes' never lasted for me. In the end I always got back to my original drinking, and it was just because I liked it too much. My situation now: 4 months ago I started the Sinclair-method ([https://cthreefoundation.org/the-sinclair-method](https://cthreefoundation.org/the-sinclair-method))and taking naltrexone. In short, the pill blocks the receptors in your brain that make drinking feel good. To me, that was exactly what I needed, and the results have been spectacular. Within a month, I completely got rid of my drinking habit. Now, I only drink at social occasions (let's say once every two weeks), and I don't drink anything at home anymore. The naltrexone just made drinking boring and annoying, by taking away the pleasure. Im not tempted to drink anymore during the week. My life got much better, and I'd really recommend naltrexone to anyone with a drinking problem. Not drinking has allowed me to do more sports, have better evenings, and feel less guilty in general. Just thought I'd share my experience, since I've turned to Reddit myself to get an idea of what naltrexone did to others. Feel free to ask me questions!",7.110696874103818,8.781359646687697,6.817558072841988,71.84825853168914,64.5205047318612,9.170576426727846,32.705620877545165,9.457814108942452,3.193127444794952,1436,58,229,27,22,451,172,317,0.066,0.79,0.14400000000000002,0.9831,2,0,18,0,0,0,64.0,0,1,0,4,13,15,1,1,20,0,18,19,1,6,3,45,37,11,0,5,12,0,4,1,0,1,4,3,1,0,13,10,15,1,6,15,1,0,6,4,0,2,13,7,26,12,43,22,6,33,0,0,0,0,10,14,0,5,20,155,39,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05784841856658377,0.06974232896957783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0543009528703944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12943934990641387,0.04563080937391335,0.0,0.05370283104230854,0.05809459935561896,0.061008622049498626,0.0,0.061313246391871815,0.05018036189250885,0.0,0.07956290875169213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11543306855426383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07285094451826743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06842311863461019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444163150374201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7671510570937617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05780035646207762,0.0,0.0,0.08620628443673366,0.0,0.0549837621596752,0.0,0.0,0.06383610293220551,0.0,0.0,0.09899116584145727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06819056579191311,0.0,0.0,0.0547363919897691,0.15658143511234127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058459501063428475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06546038369720589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07366978929351048,0.07049122626913709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053195027255074266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06673204028822652,0.046094562889272266,0.03188239024082785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061749913300075135,0.043561079434472634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06574186393753258,0.0,0.06922978846675155,0.0,0.0,0.10417867723539542,0.0,0.14391924974957446,0.048388932874916,0.0503319836419044,0.0,0.0,0.061241418117451124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06949900861308017,0.044221380389137255,0.14889788064570822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045242571257118634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07357003836584411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062444322214833,0.0,0.0,0.0731053344056169,0.13882256488501718,0.0,0.0,0.04180676898281609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055731072755764895,0.0,0.10379360537743704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053983154861277236,0.07335417051319851,0.0,0.1330472453721683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0461908577580171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061506103730439465,0.0,0.09813372129162867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051808582698042116,0.07610642768273901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.088613541464993,0.07098336232361585,0.06374883882731157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07187388258319058,0.0,0.07698323411774669,0.0,0.10469412397581992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04202483988236769 alcoholism,Treelo81,2019/02/23,I wonder where I would be... Me and alcohol have butted heads for 24+ years. It has been with me through a lot of life changing decisions (those decisions affected other’s live’s as well). I naturally question all of those decisions. I am at peace where I am now but can’t help but to ponder the serenity of having gone wherever with only sober decisions. Anybody?,3.8489047619047625,5.938528271428575,5.311428571428575,77.76190476190479,73.42857142857143,9.80952380952381,30.23809523809524,10.125756701596842,3.496380952380953,289,13,53,9,6,97,54,70,0.02,0.889,0.09,0.6705,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,9,3,1,1,1,17,11,5,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,7,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,0,7,1,10,7,2,6,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,3,2,42,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3297711326596648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3264297529365787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31668534260571185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20683025261087973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.217954525437172,0.0,0.0,0.27247597479985103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2623380789188647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2346839835368731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34567284010432114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2774445542177471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.334634700828548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21920169741666548,0.0,0.0,0.1987111593863559 alcoholism,ExecutoneDooDah,2019/02/23,"Living Without: Every time I have gone through the process of of breaking an addiction, of any kind, there was a period of withdrawals. Most addictions effect all of our senses and so each of our senses experiences it's own set of withdrawals. We are fighting the belief that we cannot live without something and if we allow ourselves to obsess, our chances of success are slim. At the core of the emotional attachment, there is this longing sensation, a deep desire and even a feeling of dread with the thoughts of living without something. This is why it is imperative that we surrender before entering into any form of recovery, without it the likelihood of us talking ourselves back into a sickness is almost 100 percent. The one thing I have found to create profound results was the act of internally talking back to my Ego. Whenever I feel the longing of addiction coming up, I calm my thoughts by saying ""it's only addiction, just a feeling, we can live without anything"". I have become my own parent, I am teaching my Ego coping skills it has never had before and it is only possible through the mind calming act of surrender, it clears my mind and make my awareness of reality keen. The emotion healing comes after the attachment is broken, has been replaced and I have consistently honored myself with a changed behavior. There will be slips, and again as a parent I will calm my Ego... ""it's okay, we are still learning, just a mistake it is not who we are"". We need this form of validation and it is far too much burden to place it on a loved one or peer. Be the parent you never had and you will learn that there is nothing you cannot live without, including life. Namaste.",7.97019545198271,7.802315111821088,7.989949257658335,70.57197895132495,62.4185303514377,10.431798534110133,39.817515504604394,9.916854025145753,4.154629167449729,1342,67,221,24,17,435,159,313,0.055,0.8059999999999999,0.138,0.9724,3,0,2,0,2,0,37.0,12,3,0,4,13,14,1,2,23,1,33,8,0,4,4,59,45,13,0,4,11,3,3,0,0,3,7,1,0,0,19,24,0,0,10,0,0,6,11,5,0,2,9,4,31,9,40,31,9,27,1,0,0,1,24,8,0,4,11,183,50,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3677919996564119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08445887472914552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11471436098172222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06940837100149305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12971149221092226,0.0,0.0,0.09315191942929632,0.1435419850281224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08922534117835887,0.14531070818464045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18975251335680055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055708774162493715,0.0,0.07106391393090583,0.0,0.0,0.08250514599718861,0.0,0.0,0.12794140329736395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09247943624344504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08783186064361494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059575043998141,0.0,0.0,0.3723888768672705,0.1492845300496173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07612424169906365,0.0,0.05630063637113261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17032788589864395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062002942780957165,0.06254040876732403,0.13010342010111672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08093086231642914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11430808829535573,0.12829564898296636,0.0,0.0,0.2809638953658412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08812209400590815,0.0,0.0,0.09508579749673987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06707416471157819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12986509743586808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06735765976282151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13558589502337004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05603476553700525,0.0,0.0,0.13392028908622172,0.04918198040658429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10145609830777516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0761078297141018,0.0,0.0,0.4878307687569528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,arcabarka,2019/02/23,"I need help I'm on a nasty edge and I need someone to talk to. Idk if this is the right forum, but please push me to the right place. 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Since late last year I've been drinking a lot less, off it for weeks at a time, a lot due to the fact I moved town and got away from a lot of my alcoholic friends. But wouldn't you know it, in my new town I've fallen in with some new people, who are lovely, but also love a drink. And wouldn't you know it, I've started drinking more. I have an issue where two days after even a minor binge I fall into a severe depression, like suicidal thoughts, the whole shebang. When I'm completely sober I don't ever get to that place. I'm not currently at the point where I'm a danger to myself but I am considering putting myself in self-imposed 'rehab' and just not leaving the house AT ALL if I think I might drink. Honestly it sucks being lonely, and bored, but it sucks more being depressed and wishing I was dead. I feel like there's no way around this: I have to choose between having friends and being sober. Anyone else dealing with this?",3.640750773993808,4.919388013157897,4.131816305469556,89.32732198142416,72.37719298245614,6.592776057791537,24.815273477812177,6.794906146795322,0.8016137254901965,889,26,184,7,17,280,134,228,0.201,0.682,0.11699999999999999,-0.9726,1,2,7,0,0,0,23.0,0,2,0,0,10,16,3,1,18,1,16,12,0,0,3,40,32,16,2,4,10,0,1,2,2,3,4,0,0,1,9,13,7,0,6,5,0,4,7,8,0,2,5,1,17,8,25,21,11,38,0,3,0,2,10,17,2,7,18,124,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1107767075311078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0828936413060748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0724786639492164,0.10620779018033434,0.0,0.09227578913749088,0.0,0.0,0.09738819542860257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10868131181364514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06684952504019122,0.10686475296756236,0.1785574691689337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5077169390254486,0.0,0.0,0.08659126161817804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06846379020807555,0.09376275876881786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052411572658960695,0.07405184527471219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1601686897090968,0.0,0.054155965786621546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08290314790896093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1196050716093654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10818990142221424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1139332199256848,0.0844934498662232,0.1169284484571836,0.10975670488958827,0.0,0.0,0.14643055336412805,0.10128214159987242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26437379531937066,0.18710711882590225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1099626029518902,0.0,0.0,0.16547441173232352,0.110169891184179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2002231624001469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07186199770144375,0.0,0.10829842600950068,0.0,0.09798839568486142,0.0,0.0,0.10545538590752028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1042028792515023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10813578264603732,0.11710174096115335,0.0,0.0857452890665978,0.0,0.0,0.10566420713338448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07336822867935601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10836372537571666,0.0,0.11338280651559135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06641855976836546,0.0,0.08229126124603182,0.06044262935588068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2025136406701094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0822772837480552,0.0831465662478374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2314563762087823,0.11919924927040823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06675104582070082 alcoholism,bedbugfucklove,2019/02/23,"Going through 1.75 liters of vodka every 3 days, how serious is this? Howdy folks. I’ve been really depressed for a while, keep in mind I’m 21, so who isn’t. I’ve been drinking pretty regularly for about 5 years. Anyway, I’m drinking about 3.5 liters of either vodka or gin a week. I don’t really wanna die young. How serious is this? Am I like, at a kind of normal level for someone who considers themselves an “alcoholic”? I don’t have a problem admitting it to myself that I have a problem, just trying to figure out how serious it is. Anyone else out there drink about this much? How does it treat you? Thoughts? Thanks! 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How has worked out for you? Is it any different than before you got sober? I have a bit over a year sober right now and I absolutely hate it. I have extreme anxiety, stress, depression, and negative and obsessive thoughts. I've tried everything suggested to me: AA, therapy, medication, prayer, meditation... Obviously there's a lot wrong with how much I was drinking before I quit, which is the reason I quit. But I'm just not sure my life sober is really better than my life drunk.",4.469749999999999,6.575959808333337,5.511666666666668,76.92000000000002,71.75,10.133333333333336,27.833333333333336,10.355215969177356,3.230733333333333,507,19,93,16,10,167,81,120,0.23,0.745,0.025,-0.9771,1,0,4,0,0,0,19.0,0,3,0,4,10,8,2,2,5,0,9,8,0,3,2,16,16,8,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,6,6,5,0,2,4,0,2,2,6,1,0,5,0,12,2,11,10,3,11,0,1,0,0,6,3,0,1,6,62,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1511283673777311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19233249439230535,0.0,0.10818118558167597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2174769979518934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24066549117490674,0.0,0.0,0.12506903232051045,0.1543872660788287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12179951634247065,0.0,0.0,0.1477473439784059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4155951217274879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.127093623409465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1131015506164731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2792337414119131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19976952698223147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12022497314504235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14245954662027654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10395542931738903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09803853744318676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3008220100509326,0.0,0.0,0.090593314491505,0.14539695986661225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12076662999686005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16198905354414944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1332808522153223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16171902802732252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11226677736449944,0.0824595359273197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1920214028843944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26218405665305583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10295094552194968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1546138131544528,0.0,0.0910658639390034 alcoholism,TakingItMellow,2019/10/08,"I'm really scared. I know a have a problem with alcohol. It has all come to a huge incident and I don't know how to move on from here. This might not be the place to post where I am going through but I have no support system and I am grasping at straws. Sorry. I binge drink. I binge drink so much until I black out. I know it's bad. I do it to try and drown out my depression/anxiety/general shit life. I know the whole borderline personality disorder doesn't help with it either. I have been passively suicidal for a long time. I'm already on a med to help supposedly curb alcohol cravings. But on Saturday night I was invited out for drinks. I said fuck it sure why not. I don't remember anything after my FOURTH drink. That is so unlike me. Not to toot my own horn, but that is small numbers. I might have been drugged. I honestly don't know. Long story short. I could have possibly been sexually assaulted. Via what my roommate has told me. So I went the ER and got checked out. Got all the std meds, shots, plan b, etc. I don't want to file a police report because I was so far gone I have no memory of what happened and I don't want to potentially ruin someone's life over he said she said. But man. I fucked up so bad. I have been just roaming around the house doing absolutely nothing since then. Called out of work until friday. I don't know how to handle anything. This is such a small town. Rumours are probably already spread and it is just another thing for me to be ashamed about. I feel like I can't even leave my house because I will just be judged to oblivion. I know I can't drink anymore. I just am so lost as to how to go forward from here.",0.5616089002995288,2.8993384385964944,2.602936813578662,91.25788831835688,87.12865497076024,6.260561974040795,22.08415347311368,7.590005382236693,1.0202774782484667,1294,47,282,25,41,433,178,342,0.223,0.73,0.047,-0.9966,0,0,8,0,0,0,41.0,0,0,0,3,20,15,4,2,12,0,41,14,1,3,3,50,69,23,2,4,12,0,1,1,0,3,6,3,0,2,13,15,7,1,10,5,1,7,14,11,1,0,15,5,41,4,40,47,7,38,0,2,1,3,12,21,3,2,11,188,54,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1857432224928385,0.0,0.0,0.19179662665805766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09112412968593638,0.0,0.0,0.08618324883975029,0.0,0.0,0.14302557775404914,0.07736103922232096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14511877055025055,0.10594907913735832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0887364688817974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0748582184399313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06938402766951332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09959700831789696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4256534720636309,0.10077851540160547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09691849470332388,0.057397828933264484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043940168554202345,0.06208267369294944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16067865450643606,0.0,0.0,0.09877660774700482,0.0,0.13900663948769768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07684698762701925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11649690898991034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20054605270671808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3343127522639966,0.0,0.0,0.09201647399866417,0.0,0.0,0.12276264324621194,0.04245583701892712,0.0,0.0,0.15381074250848598,0.0,0.0,0.09486359618455384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19305665075210876,0.0,0.0,0.1843781845587801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09236287603370212,0.06388283276023643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08155146608402351,0.0,0.08338463483526855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07587931252369069,0.09079390011775758,0.0,0.0,0.09796873869063427,0.08322791647822697,0.0,0.09369485419118044,0.08315330019752876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055671527661982766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0984428154120312,0.0,0.24799057791545245,0.0,0.08700387652916858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08920346384395901,0.07188607903126833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07363162547851436,0.0,0.0,0.09727946665529473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0950564804048448,0.09861514934147828,0.08190393179193951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057733704159909326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05067314692192335,0.0,0.0,0.08303840791753538,0.0,0.05900062770842609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1025138835640855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08055885273885276,0.07841537093726089,0.09702277252522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06326555600292054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Berry_Seinfeld,2019/10/08,"This week I will celebrate 7 years without alcohol I quit drinking in NYC the week of Hurricane Sandy. I’ll never forget the utter rawness and excitement of putting it down. Anyone trying to do it now, please know you CAN do it. You needn’t be a slave to liquid. My biggest piece of advice is PLEASE don’t try and quit cold turkey. This is deadly af - on the same level of quitting Benzos cold turkey. This is how Amy Winehouse died. I myself had a seizure from it. Call a hotline. They’ll direct you to where you need to go. Once that poison is safely out of your system, LIFE BEGINS.",2.040316091954022,4.4044050431034485,3.3368965517241382,88.356091954023,80.4655172413793,5.2459770114942526,20.873563218390807,6.42735559955562,0.4095425287356321,459,13,87,4,12,149,80,116,0.059000000000000004,0.8,0.141,0.8401,0,0,3,0,0,0,14.0,0,5,1,3,3,3,1,0,6,0,12,4,0,1,1,12,16,3,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,8,3,2,1,1,1,0,2,4,1,0,0,1,2,11,2,15,12,2,16,0,0,0,0,7,7,0,0,6,60,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17595853020200092,0.0,0.19243592258444367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12590641909842507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18386764294253424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1868802056392522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17639624746145388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10233572663621393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09895963139750588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12718602700510684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335167476945464,0.1388780938454174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1917645429792885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3953170577583313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810161869911797,0.0,0.5745674558883775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24450615368364306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2888763629509029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17357731572686685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11595667873028165 alcoholism,wouldnotbeme,2019/10/08,"21, good life but still drinking hi everyone, im young and my life is good, i think. but i drink, preferably 3 times a week. Since a year ago, i have started to think that my drinking habits is very different from that of my friends. And just now i have realised that im addicted. I am drunk for the 4th day in a row while writing this. Scrolling this sub makes me believe that maybe im not that bad, but then again, why am i drinking so much more than my peers. I want to stop, but i dont want to stop. I am not depressed, i have had a good upbringing, and have a good life, which makes it hard for me to find a reason for why i am drinking so much. it is embrassing for me to drink, because my life isnt bad, does anyone else feel like this. Reading the stories of people on this sub, it makes ""sense"" why they drink. But why the fuck do i do i then? Sorry if this post isnt relevant. thanks for all answers in advance.",1.7487371134020648,3.1265077268041246,2.8243170103092767,96.40956829896908,77.40206185567008,6.087113402061857,23.980670103092784,6.6274283507984215,0.439825773195877,705,23,169,6,16,225,99,194,0.096,0.733,0.171,0.9459,1,0,7,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,1,1,6,11,1,0,9,0,17,14,0,4,1,28,28,14,0,4,9,0,2,1,1,0,5,0,0,0,14,3,8,2,7,9,0,1,5,4,0,0,1,2,22,7,17,27,4,20,0,1,0,1,4,3,1,1,16,103,36,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09550385787205737,0.0,0.0,0.0776577476297809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0612564001974111,0.08976306329167053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1462952938094642,0.05340402072892027,0.0,0.0,0.09870236180461313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056498851327309564,0.0,0.0754552249839544,0.0,0.0,0.09152999466209688,0.0,0.0,0.07666491141929849,0.0,0.10267399532065656,0.6007461290406026,0.0,0.0,0.07318386800008314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0837116262610523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04429640524310047,0.06258599734513427,0.0,0.0,0.08007062112772148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06768445237063088,0.08099066330564315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2939202156694168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07847808622324337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28388968940032205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475158367788419,0.0428000397678393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17543376623041645,0.0,0.08801235845084349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12880150172997065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06073521572182164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08390267122691482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08763006228379483,0.0,0.0,0.0900739235110798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07246888195657751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09806814171593564,0.06200822880657414,0.0,0.06996254807709222,0.1464856706645363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08065616117806064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11226922948131,0.0,0.0,0.05108396997220925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07228441755670413,0.10334499567968672,0.0,0.07027253345462844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3162044354964361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05641562017828535 alcoholism,cheesetowncp,2019/10/08,"It's consuming my dad and affecting my parents marriage Hi everyone. First time here and I'm not sure where to begin. My dad's always been a heavy drinker and now it's becoming a theme where he overdrinks, starts to throw up and misses work because of it. My mother isn't working because of a recent surgery and I'm currently doing what I can to find a full time job after school. I've said stuff before, I've cleaned up his cans, but in the end I realize I might not have much power here. My grandma confronted me about it today concerned and pretty much emplored me to fix it else my parents marriage is at stake as currently they aren't talking right now so I'm the only one helping my mom post-op. This is just a lot to take on and needed to vent to an outlet. I just want advice on how to confront him about it without coming off as super aggressive. I love him. He's worked his ass off his whole life at a not-so-desirable job... But now that there's been an increase in his drinking and isolation I just don't know what to do or how to confront it.",2.5900456621004544,4.159126109589046,4.026232876712331,87.86665525114157,75.57534246575342,6.875799086757993,26.778538812785392,7.594959193182576,1.4431936073059362,834,32,173,11,18,276,126,219,0.08900000000000001,0.8079999999999999,0.10300000000000001,0.8029999999999999,7,1,3,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,1,6,16,8,4,0,10,0,13,4,1,3,1,29,26,16,0,2,9,6,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,12,9,1,0,3,1,0,3,6,5,0,2,3,1,22,3,28,22,6,31,0,1,0,2,22,14,1,3,14,119,34,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14150762311042767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12049434395859925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17655087041207207,0.15993236085114734,0.12322348636214828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12474184514555872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418596397413264,0.0,0.0,0.12097100011553848,0.0,0.1282595546544898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13837310635297614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13235462107143378,0.12317615382292114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09706375388038813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2874051250585603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0795843327792577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10228428456233304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1231131249137926,0.1306975719612026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1536215757319037,0.0,0.16960088089129788,0.0,0.0,0.21290547912335145,0.1073755139350163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09812767432738527,0.11013528306493914,0.0,0.0,0.32159093357097673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13868889863369302,0.14732483696859214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1429833821553126,0.0,0.0,0.12366779393066807,0.1377484125438638,0.0,0.0,0.14655645261955907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10249796381513883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16577393742804247,0.0,0.0,0.13648264398117968,0.0,0.10887984226974516,0.11639358814104905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16888090521269716,0.0,0.13726388588736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08541327362126791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616762984500552,0.0,0.13959262643419074,0.0,0.3162723754759142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,dubberducker,2019/10/08,"Hey 19f and I'm an alcoholic I'm drunk right now I was always a big binge drinker. I still am. But I never drank every single day til I split with my ex. I drunk like 3-4 times a week in huge quantities. My poison is rum. I love it. I've had some very not so classy moments. Like pissing the bed. Or just being emotional. But yeah, I split with my ex and now I can't sleep without drinking. Or feel okay about being by myself at night without being drunk. I moved out of home a week after being 18. He moved in with me almost Instantly. We lived together for a year. I miss him everyday. Drinking also stops the nightmares which is nice. I wish I could stop drinking but I can't I wish I could feel okay sober again",-0.6253090909090879,1.5759779600000032,1.4650909090909108,96.70254545454547,96.06666666666666,4.327272727272727,16.81818181818182,6.1124844417494595,-0.3453999999999997,554,15,123,6,22,183,98,150,0.109,0.737,0.154,0.7433,0,0,5,0,0,0,18.0,1,0,0,0,8,9,2,0,7,3,13,12,2,0,1,27,22,10,0,4,9,2,2,2,0,0,2,0,2,0,2,7,8,2,2,7,0,2,6,3,0,0,3,2,22,6,15,13,2,26,0,1,0,1,7,7,1,4,19,77,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1579030077480017,0.14795327285396778,0.0,0.0,0.11815800972183226,0.12294232080431287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359374735002057,0.0,0.0,0.09528845283118144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4342250291247236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16620222252213349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12448826344902647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14941669865623713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14820829225011806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14436929157953035,0.0,0.13046859381827167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13335283875166665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3140760827607521,0.0,0.0,0.11395621167808605,0.0,0.0,0.13865616853312596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12618024294824834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14785969168886726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11799572567895475,0.2470562248902687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08615595447997132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1219116876001348,0.0,0.0,0.2370370664927941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33981728470880523,0.2848572123333116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09514807887256886 alcoholism,30smthngThrowAway,2019/10/08,"This is hell I didn’t think I’d ever truly understand what hell was, or how deep into the psyche you could go before you hit the icy layer beneath the 8th level. Jung was right. You can delve deep into your shadow and come back. It’s what you do with the knowledge that changes you. I’m Luke in the cave... I hate alcoholism. I make too much money for public assistance yet I’m absolutely broke because of all this crushing credit card debt. Somehow I still have a job. I am hourly so I can’t take 28 days for a rehab program. I can’t miss work. I’m already on probation for OVI. I just have made a fucking mess of my life. I know I’ll start to shake about 7 tonight. I have $15 to my name until Friday. Everything else is maxed out. I really could use a friend. Not law enforcement. Not a “wellness check.” I’m not a threat to myself or others. I just wish someone would come sit and talk to me. Nothing more. Being alone and male is a killer.",0.10443877551020364,2.414751015306127,2.036987755102043,94.42229795918371,89.86734693877554,4.768653061224491,18.04408163265305,6.360717304075467,-0.10359077551020412,733,20,159,8,25,242,134,196,0.172,0.745,0.083,-0.9570000000000001,2,1,1,0,0,0,26.0,0,6,0,1,12,12,5,1,12,0,18,4,0,4,2,33,38,8,0,4,7,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,1,7,9,1,0,4,0,4,4,6,9,1,0,4,0,22,3,18,29,3,24,2,2,0,1,11,10,3,3,9,99,29,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.187702824973451,0.0,0.1819072403991797,0.1938200929268564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1350542177839037,0.0,0.10706684847241,0.0,0.14945437891963062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1858009410569484,0.3025919090899059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2804641338039858,0.0,0.0,0.11327150786327275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14672240027699834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15887396448634392,0.0,0.0,0.15785145147795515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356969177038012,0.1623738242452104,0.0,0.0,0.09981870706546034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1734054400254353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17296732971748902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17429288738717452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09652564927679907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12405779672208694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16619222987729168,0.11723924035158168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12911360119064613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16852869577583646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11251773144126093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1499932673544803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14881688735896842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1243169624132949,0.0,0.1402641492433033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13205736733878606,0.14117058313642486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11254126952355292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1828445903496092,0.0,0.15169420732088226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15791899727595726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20197419043608256,0.0,0.0,0.12786602306011044,0.0,0.0,0.12476767603108113,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,missingsack,2019/10/08,I need to know how I can get medication to detox I know some have just asked their doctor but I go to the free clinic and they don't give out benzos. I don't have health insurance and can't afford an inpatient detox stay. My income is too high to qualify for state assistance. I lost my job yesterday due to my alcoholism and I'm just fed up with it but I'm terrified of withdrawals and I can't taper to save my life,1.6494662921348322,3.407425674157306,3.7307724719101145,88.1296418539326,78.7752808988764,8.045505617977529,21.2373595505618,8.841846274778883,1.3171224719101118,331,9,74,8,8,113,59,89,0.135,0.815,0.05,-0.8147,3,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,2,1,4,3,0,0,2,0,8,9,0,1,0,16,19,7,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,0,1,6,2,0,2,0,1,1,4,1,0,0,2,0,13,3,11,17,1,8,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,1,2,46,14,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2918341849546616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2552883127661087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2795038886199632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1426704447894254,0.2619584743562029,0.15519484602214706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2902660124942506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2885187870713597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2709848546031477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3001498159433511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1928809862013645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2980936790353664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2750943876276207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20248169218061066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29106167342845635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,applepies666,2019/10/08,"Getting sober is hard. I am only 20 years old, I have been to the hospital many of times in the past 4 years, been to rehab twice, and today my best friends staged an intervention on me because they were extremely worried... I will be unconscious for days, I am a 110lbs girl, and can’t believe my body has gone through this abuse. It’s bad. I WILL die, if I continue my ways. It’s embarrassing and pathetic. But I’m terrified to get sober.. I can’t imagine a life where I can’t just go out for dinner with my friends and grab a beer or two.... it’s gotten so out of hand, and I know what it means to be an alcoholic. I know it’s a disease. And I’m terrified to completely remove it out of my life... I don’t know what to do",1.4674275724275745,2.8919405779220786,3.5884415584415583,90.43453046953049,78.28571428571428,7.595604395604397,24.83316683316684,8.384062270229773,1.3906119880119885,555,20,131,11,13,190,91,154,0.17800000000000002,0.7340000000000001,0.08800000000000001,-0.9353,0,0,2,0,1,0,26.0,0,0,1,1,3,5,0,1,8,0,17,8,2,0,0,19,28,10,1,1,4,0,3,0,2,2,4,0,0,1,9,10,3,0,5,1,0,3,4,2,0,2,5,3,18,3,18,19,1,19,0,0,0,0,4,6,0,2,8,85,27,0,0.0,0.21833665459468185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1969347564174728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15386257084572008,0.11233279907898484,0.0,0.0,0.20761568934105687,0.19338605182886348,0.0,0.0,0.20468883860408701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19320963897705012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1188426269729751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19124915599198256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.284742005757023,0.0,0.19255296837101524,0.0,0.10472816679569914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650748945770826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3038194320898505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2603188522347296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1868267076753692,0.0,0.20073033595328785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19336642221934,0.0,0.0,0.14015002696010473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17591207381707274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10745268346316696,0.0,0.1746718832730398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18001065109009548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1462695289897871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18714098951509525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2373351084770197 alcoholism,jhawki01,2019/10/08,"How to help an alcoholic get sober Hello, I dont have an issue with alcoholism but have a good friend that does. Im scared for him. Please tell me how i can help him?",-0.05249999999999844,1.98118652777778,1.6866666666666674,99.00000000000004,86.5,5.822222222222222,14.555555555555555,7.1686216300943375,-0.4813111111111117,129,2,32,2,4,42,29,36,0.085,0.551,0.364,0.9127,0,0,2,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,3,0,4,2,0,2,0,4,5,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,5,2,3,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,0,0,19,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5463330286048921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2236837081966832,0.0,0.2995699021040297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19748159899019205,0.0,0.13354428681191546,0.0,0.0,0.2143913119371136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34265642782212496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2760997926703129,0.2667876570165469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28058010495612024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2559075412099057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22341208396179424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,supkiwi,2019/10/08,I finally decided to get sober. I'm now 1 day sober. :) I finally decided to get sober. Today was day 1 of many. Wish me luck! I think I can do this with the reddit community. Thanks for everyone's support! Here's my original post: https://www.reddit.com/r/alcoholism/comments/dd17ab/it_feels_like_getting_sober_isnt_possible/?utm_medium=android_app&utm_source=share,12.146041666666667,17.238103187500002,8.614999999999998,42.79666666666671,79.625,8.8,24.08333333333333,8.515128840125781,3.1529833333333337,315,9,37,8,9,90,35,48,0.0,0.664,0.336,0.9449,0,0,1,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,1,0,7,10,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,3,5,9,0,8,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,7,18,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679227843625178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3189443430395189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2362822341991184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.541756211312556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2583823732345139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2506984364932756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23682147269420775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2806051849575947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22765795883173665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584440869117336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23438815884919745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2843544978554229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,silentravens,2019/10/08,"Is drinking a six pack once every 4 days for about six years going to kill me? I'm a 26 year old maie. Really short too, like 5'3",-0.5177011494252888,1.2110376896551749,2.014482758620691,97.83712643678163,85.89655172413794,5.2459770114942526,13.114942528735632,6.42735559955562,-0.9632160919540232,99,1,25,1,3,34,27,29,0.154,0.755,0.091,-0.4472,0,0,1,0,0,1,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,1,3,3,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,10,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255511724545668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3426087195186037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2946681674799188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987633680897927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3869317274383353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1708636357014223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3669897271358265,0.3724580622587286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2240502199294305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4504378045580955 alcoholism,Heartshapedfetus,2019/08/05,"Helpful anecdote Figured I’d share this as it somehow helped me. 2 years sober next month. The last time I was recovering from alcohol, I was laying in bed feeling awful and my mind wouldn’t shut down. I was in withdrawal and hearing audible hallucinations but I was starting to hear my own thoughts clearer and I came up with this for whatever reason. S.H.I.T.P.A.N.T.S SEIZURE HALLUCINATIONS INSOMNIA TREMORS PALPITATIONS ANXIETY NAUSEA TINGLING SWEATS now, sometimes when I feel a craving to drink I think to myself “Do I really want to shit my pants again?” Do I want to shit my pants at work, with my kids, in my relationship, with my family? My pants have been not full of shit for a while, so. No. I’d rather stay sober than shit my pants again.",2.9891705459162097,5.961259597122304,3.558535759627592,84.11286077020739,82.52517985611509,7.0115954295387235,26.881506559458323,8.124751697461798,2.140091493863733,600,26,110,13,17,188,93,139,0.20199999999999999,0.735,0.063,-0.9816,0,0,2,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,1,7,5,4,0,3,1,9,9,5,1,0,21,19,8,0,4,3,0,2,0,0,1,3,3,1,1,3,7,2,0,6,1,0,1,3,4,0,0,7,5,20,1,20,11,2,21,0,0,0,0,7,8,4,1,11,71,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1648088578324325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11797399749652547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17638079382999974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15107191879568255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14538010894860254,0.0,0.15595140205262387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3476228627721996,0.0,0.20673403049606534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12570574877271662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15571311512514194,0.0,0.12309288390088508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16400932501521498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09879403150886767,0.1585586300157128,0.0,0.1655691188991038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6331976281454428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525225066455264,0.0,0.1091541194834468,0.1643725938549411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0988146986696238,0.0,0.1224294265266939,0.08992396443750969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18191991971944296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1122703039716794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09930935722873667 alcoholism,throwawaytrash6990,2019/08/05,"Need some advice I truly and honestly don’t want to drink anymore. I stopped for 2 days, but it hurt so bad. I don’t think I can stop without a medical detox, but I have no insurance and basically no money I can use to have it done...nor can I not work for however long it takes. What do I do? I feel trapped. I’m just drinking to not hurt at this point. I laid on my buddies couch and sweated and writhed in pain for 2 days and it never let up. And I just couldn’t take it anymore.",0.4171428571428564,2.100834761904764,2.6650000000000027,94.65750000000004,82.33333333333333,6.104761904761905,23.833333333333336,7.1686216300943375,0.7285047619047624,370,14,90,5,10,126,65,105,0.303,0.652,0.045,-0.9864,1,1,2,0,0,1,13.0,0,0,0,1,3,5,0,0,1,0,11,6,1,1,1,23,19,9,0,3,7,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,7,6,2,2,2,2,1,0,9,4,0,0,0,1,12,1,11,17,1,11,0,2,0,0,0,5,0,1,6,59,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17547878630334113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35618064796642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14993777335659628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2316222687588365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.183767754983308,0.0,0.3518306202883678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09079860598252916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38447788572702574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18362778681418576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15891838225063673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1809031002760798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13315271961928446,0.13849944827419472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19108065113124487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16975658770141405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3002657804794997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27003637195551444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11506452358482745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15509529766147176,0.0,0.0,0.10591809303134847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17310406411428456,0.0,0.13073286882568025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Bruiseviolet_,2019/08/05,"Being sober at the weekends is the hardest thing for me It was my first weekend sober in a long time & the cravings got to me more than any other day, does anyone else find this? I’m hoping it will get easier. I’m only 6 days sober so far",2.09846153846154,3.1811742307692303,3.77615384615385,91.14384615384618,75.92307692307692,5.9692307692307685,20.69230769230769,5.985473137389443,0.02725384615384608,188,4,42,1,4,63,44,52,0.0,0.8909999999999999,0.109,0.6808,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,4,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,9,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,3,1,5,5,1,10,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,7,24,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3140447289083636,0.0,0.19710315372324752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2026649386514925,0.2969783672652917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3738494655653277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2536435298098188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24212660343600495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2649112168906458,0.24654027594191905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15143098514409972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23181389486922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28787946100601625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25650190109641785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22043863389992246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19255878533370813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16900976236161558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,fromthecheese,2019/08/05,"I’m 16M and I need someone to explain the negatives of alcohol to me. Last night, I drank 4 shots of vodka mixed with other things (non alcoholic) and 4 shots of just tequila. I was with friends. If anyone could help me and explain to me if this is a lot, the health effects on my body, if any of you have ever drunk this much or any other warnings and things I should know, I would greatly appreciate it. I have already done research and I know the gist of what it did to me, but I want to hear it from adults and experienced drinkers. I already feel disappointment, shame and regret and I am looking to see what you think. Keep in mind that I am a 16 year old boy, and I currently live in a country that has no age limit on alcohol. Thank you for your time.",2.853269230769232,4.123458044871796,4.154358974358973,88.43230769230772,74.3205128205128,7.2512820512820495,27.102564102564106,7.793537801064563,1.415971794871795,589,22,129,8,12,194,96,156,0.11900000000000001,0.813,0.068,-0.8691,1,0,6,0,0,0,17.0,0,4,0,2,2,6,0,1,6,0,12,7,1,1,1,35,27,14,0,9,6,0,1,0,1,2,4,1,0,2,13,11,5,2,7,3,0,0,2,3,0,0,4,5,21,3,19,20,2,12,0,2,2,0,11,4,0,5,8,91,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.50016648656431,0.0,0.0,0.3443113333306003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21217783186905104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1090824942845045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1732866578183012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12455749350236946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15964752902774104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14111567515462636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07888093907220517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12052926494334215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1719963328515013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16582627981118375,0.17582924871163774,0.0,0.10456702696529024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13866462935455656,0.0,0.0,0.1714728050184081,0.12716509604217127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1377554890767997,0.0,0.13100511448819413,0.0,0.0,0.1326300801069968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1575208248885754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1146818049299028,0.1156759120906344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14640035391506573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16370126123722545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12431598183074333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13218273744201747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14362866920618872,0.0,0.0,0.2072859049064791,0.0999618614851147,0.0,0.0,0.09096791265182476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09201593518580617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11082164971160577,0.0,0.0,0.10046226265046954 alcoholism,kookyboy85,2019/08/05,How did you go about telling your friends you were an alcoholic and that it would support you if you could do non-drinking activities together? Has anyone lost friends through converting to a completely sober life?,10.224324324324325,10.568904540540542,7.889864864864865,71.4466891891892,57.64864864864865,12.80540540540541,48.229729729729726,12.161744961471696,6.1260378378378375,176,11,29,5,2,51,33,37,0.054000000000000006,0.728,0.218,0.7882,0,0,2,0,0,0,3.0,0,5,0,1,2,4,0,0,2,0,6,2,0,1,0,5,9,3,0,3,1,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,5,3,3,4,0,1,0,1,0,0,8,0,0,1,0,21,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3181299471897129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20814514213712504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31211236331495523,0.0,0.0,0.23767367403311745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29161358303437823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4599744651581353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16917870048984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2102605558826932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32495345390685193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3378043282663488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2601858967004174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21146370169103848,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,joeydmitri,2019/08/05,"21 year old alcoholic I never drank much or have been to parties before I turned 21 and was able to drink whenever I wanted, I find myself going to the liquor store 3 times a week and drinking on the weekdays, I grew up with my mother in AA and never thought I’d be drinking everyday, I feel myself getting more lazy and less motivated to do things that I enjoy, I’ve gained 40 lbs in the last 6 months and hate the fact I feel I need it to relax but still do it everyday because “why not” I can’t find a reason to kick the beer. It doesn’t affect my love life or friends or work, I have the best job I’ve had all my life. Been in a healthy relationship for 2 years and drinking hasn’t effected anything other than my health and the occasional slight embarrassment within my life that I need it to feel okay, what do I do; I know I need to stop but I can’t find a reason that’s worth it to me, which makes me think ever more where my priorities are at. I don’t feel like kicking it would make my life improve other than the feeling of being slightly healthier.",8.64347913524384,5.2100107737556565,8.830105580693814,75.49120160884868,63.43438914027149,11.813172448466569,36.3202614379085,9.444778638647367,3.0563449974861743,835,26,180,11,9,278,127,221,0.049,0.7609999999999999,0.19,0.9842,1,0,6,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,5,3,9,1,1,12,1,19,14,0,7,5,43,39,12,0,5,6,1,5,1,1,1,6,0,0,0,14,8,8,1,15,7,2,2,8,2,1,0,6,5,28,7,21,30,6,24,0,0,0,1,4,8,0,3,15,118,42,3,0.11508385257154327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1229896391645212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09470420488664616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07015404835791203,0.0,0.09792788221212377,0.0,0.1207734031643643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4509534505594143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10409993332586308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2909492687151991,0.08221592727195158,0.0,0.0,0.31555366899183257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08891349901893489,0.0,0.06012656305778302,0.0,0.0654048055248313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11362147853080977,0.0,0.1223287537199882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11420296594749227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06324707567056485,0.09380869988299817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3251485140205661,0.0562241572565254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1038676701194099,0.0,0.15363873046453172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.091858833158608,0.0,0.08459987335787572,0.2559996553787949,0.1775195235952809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1207611440860982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2366507352642517,0.0,0.1235569887323206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0919061133235072,0.09621525386360948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07645659795239353,0.07374108584554682,0.0,0.09136372395072924,0.06710631991429364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12517818443766304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06787943796650098,0.0,0.09231332478191603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10384527679762467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08378241531415243,0.0,0.0,0.08175226694978614,0.0,0.0,0.1482204557675089 alcoholism,YEET_SKEET_REPEAT,2019/07/30,I’m worried for my mom She gets upset and she gets drunk. Today she’s talking about splitting up with my dad and it feels like this might really drive her over the edge. She’s in her 60s and taking enough meds as it is. I’m worried she’s gonna damage her body more than it is. She lives with rheumatoid arthritis and I just want her to take care of herself. I don’t know what to do. It’s not a problem. She’s just an ex alcoholic and idk she started drinking here and there just a few years ago and she just ends up in great pain the next day and I hate to see her in pain,-0.4459523809523809,1.6297031349206357,1.1717142857142877,101.62328571428571,89.0793650793651,3.9949206349206334,17.13015873015873,5.2151,-0.8858374603174606,449,11,110,2,15,144,78,126,0.179,0.722,0.098,-0.8733,0,0,2,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,7,9,1,1,5,0,5,6,1,0,0,20,19,9,0,2,5,3,1,1,0,2,3,0,0,0,6,10,3,0,2,2,0,1,2,6,0,0,0,2,20,3,16,17,3,14,0,1,1,0,19,6,0,1,8,70,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15351101792243455,0.1850736144165858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19236067761896847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17656555792566594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1116848794025222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16964759307289984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1533834766210636,0.17893819978428185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08756352671456183,0.12371772879565107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1809557361602653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1909283239219945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17097649728790734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0951735851503123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08460556573446203,0.0,0.15291851985702618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19236067761896847,0.0,0.0,0.183713497471906,0.0,0.20282288379356656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18417577172613056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3685452109955527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16570706173483554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11094166135610513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13799969833167153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12257561691132557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26041519926175644,0.1391931638431691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16415160717372113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10214431893910872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3517394284798997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1115203510869384 alcoholism,ReallyBigBoots,2019/07/30,"My best friend needs help I want him to quit this goddamn habit man. I've known this kid since birth and I don't want to give up on him. He has burned every single bridge since his downward spiral a couple years ago. Ruined everything that he had; his job, his girl kicking him to the curb, gave himself a couple of DWI'S, you name it. I'm literally the only one that gives a shit about him at this very moment and it's hard for me to just let him continue down this path. I know he needs help, and he's attempted before and has told me that it doesn't do jack shit for him. That right there is the wrong mindset to have, if it's even possible to have it when you've been on a bender the last week. I love this dude to death but I'm clueless as to what or how to deal with him now. I miss the old kid I grew up with. How can I deal with this?",1.4187137681159427,2.654269385869565,2.725521739130439,97.37020289855072,77.96739130434783,5.993623188405797,18.244927536231888,6.42735559955562,-0.4196111594202896,653,11,163,5,15,211,109,184,0.11,0.816,0.07400000000000001,-0.7588,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,3,8,8,2,0,9,0,12,3,2,2,0,21,25,11,1,5,4,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,16,7,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,5,0,1,4,1,22,3,23,20,2,19,0,2,0,1,31,8,2,2,10,99,38,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13354058930382726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281905700449038,0.0,0.15809605036047766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3333788596655694,0.0,0.0,0.3106234738829602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09950175225727527,0.0,0.1269276530436728,0.0,0.1353929385920234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11639046884762674,0.0,0.0,0.28903106864965794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13495124699791733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20195270086835204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1494951486229049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08279234167773229,0.12279843535393085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15404804844024236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13596593269526208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22340754585925154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15808000285494958,0.0,0.10208315703906436,0.11457478712019495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1698332732669582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16023296386292876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286527874530075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3092765397176358,0.2492355881555243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14395086444917288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12430058832023612,0.17771248904178122,0.0,0.12084094396017801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16471021872164535,0.0,0.09701253763455783 alcoholism,Gunch_Bandit,2019/07/30,"I was caught drunk at work. I got caught drunk today at work. It's been a problem for me for a while, but today I am facing the facts. I was driven to the clinic for a drug screen and breathalyzer, and then sent home in a taxi. I smoke weed too. Luckily for me the company does not want to lose me but I have to go through their treatment plan. Does anyone have advice for me?",0.7973734177215199,2.7872789113924057,2.4511234177215178,95.07769778481016,82.67088607594937,5.468987341772152,17.469936708860754,6.6274283507984215,-0.2773177215189877,290,6,67,3,8,95,50,79,0.087,0.8170000000000001,0.09699999999999999,0.5795,0,0,2,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,5,1,2,0,0,7,0,6,5,1,0,1,8,13,6,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,0,5,1,2,0,0,8,1,11,0,12,5,0,12,0,1,1,0,2,3,0,0,4,45,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24391811309806125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1745346255061655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4368745652995823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28947085809237433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418603424054997,0.0,0.19963764624181068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25038134784024546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27925215786201524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2388451255257129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4732062811347614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14722771874254478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36344124957341495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Ignjriley,2019/07/30,"Fun in Sobriety podcast: Ep12 - Recovery Movie Review: 28 Days The second Fun in Sobriety Movie Review was just released you guys! (these reviews are secretly my favorite things) Check it out: [Kaz Gable](https://www.facebook.com/kaz.gable?__tn__=%2CdK-R-R&eid=ARA6Xe2bgQi1lejOEkO4NvtbaJ_Cu5D5OeBlaoUefidimZOCMSTFUq16cZyYQqRMqQAt6ANBKHpa2icl&fref=mentions) and I discuss the qualities and deficiencies of the [2000 Sandra Bullock movie 28 Days](https://fun-in-sobriety.pinecast.co/episode/7b1e22acc3e84f1c/ep12-recovery-movie-review-28-days) \- a review centered around how accurately the film portrays recovery from drugs and alcohol. Listen now! ​ https://i.redd.it/bkcdmhqa3hd31.jpg",18.48375,25.334649875000004,9.655,40.09,50.25,11.7,44.25,10.577609850970193,7.436724999999999,610,29,45,17,10,150,63,80,0.0,0.861,0.139,0.8802,0,0,2,0,0,0,63.0,0,1,0,0,4,2,0,0,5,0,2,2,0,1,0,8,3,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,3,5,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,3,2,6,2,0,7,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,0,2,26,6,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2396659365832385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7289574523733318,0.27250067206631057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19963911114964164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2892585343250608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600706174581993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2220528419305008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14898850245195647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27250067206631057,0.0 alcoholism,_Fruity666_,2019/07/30,"Dating a recovering alcoholic Hello!, I am currently seeing someone who is a recovering alcoholic and I’ve realized I don’t know much about alcoholism and sobriety. I’ve come to this sub to look for some resources I could use to educate myself more on the topic but I am also looking to share some of my current concerns and maybe receive some guidance about how I should feel or what questions I should be asking. Anyway, this person opened up to me about their recovery after a couple of dates. I knew he was sober but I wasn’t sure what that meant for him before he opened up to me about it. I just let him do the talking because I’m fairly ignorant to the topic so I didn’t even know what to say or what to ask. I know now it was veeery severe, to the point where he’s almost died multiple times because of it. He’s been sober under a year, I am a social drinker. The first couple of time we hung out he didn’t drink but now he has started to have a beer here and there. I’m honestly not sure what to think about it because he acts like it’s no big deal and like he is ready to drink responsibly and just enjoy life without worrying about there being drinks around him. I’m really not sure what to think of this especially since it started right after he opened up to me about it. From what I’ve read, this is not a good sign at all and I am worried about him even though he hasn’t gotten to the point where he’s been drunk yet. What can I do?",3.3646818181818148,4.470893449999998,4.556848484848487,86.68009090909092,72.83333333333334,7.721212121212122,24.63636363636364,8.150884317080207,1.2686000000000006,1145,33,244,17,22,377,149,300,0.07400000000000001,0.818,0.10800000000000001,0.8814,2,0,8,0,0,0,18.0,1,0,1,1,26,10,0,0,13,0,27,9,0,2,4,50,48,16,1,3,11,0,1,2,0,2,4,1,0,1,21,14,8,1,10,6,0,3,10,1,0,1,10,5,25,9,43,32,6,35,0,0,3,0,29,17,0,7,17,169,46,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3500383950569597,0.10932729509471667,0.0,0.0,0.08731064441820979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09719272174381782,0.2041358092697528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1996640583773312,0.0,0.09290354036788684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09404829702663724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0871707847068661,0.2416096311600075,0.0,0.0,0.11255906122810043,0.0,0.0,0.1133108731664056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3208624383962553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14422379203511074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05520433306734624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09286785430998812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0915744144022161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18000625914639656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11164322837357724,0.07711656633305686,0.10667897937417764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18336622405349665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10968527859763083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08025934567436684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09533115095614406,0.0,0.0,0.20641945118955224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12230579956976055,0.0,0.10920884253424597,0.0,0.06994305339609701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09323852314873776,0.0,0.08682375916291739,0.0,0.0,0.08700176427028257,0.0,0.0,0.12334152903309965,0.0,0.09031424276064093,0.0,0.0,0.11129454408560173,0.0925072641037299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1545553368120097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30870058620212204,0.0,0.0,0.08775418334330454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1399153701860698,0.10726810503368167,0.0,0.12732665223155554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09429585814269573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10524494629922997,0.0,0.0,0.2217537517192447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07030788772657924 alcoholism,LifeRanger24,2019/07/30,"Well, it’s safe to safe I have a problem. Thank you in advance for listening to this. I’ve been drinking mostly every day for about 2 years now. I’m 34 and up until a couple of years ago, I would have a drink maybe once a month with friends and most of the time, I’d never even finish it. My wife has been a wine enthusiast for as long as I’ve known her and enjoys having a glass in the evenings. I would always pick up her wine and one day roughly 2 years ago, I decided to pick up some beer for myself. Long story short, every evening (with the exception of maybe 5 evenings) for the last 2 years, ’ve been drinking a 6 pack of craft beer (7-9abv). Some nights, I’ve walked to the gas station to get more (at least I didn’t drive drunk). Two days ago, my wife and I decided we were no longer going to drink. I made it through the first night, but yesterday I stopped at the liquor store and purchased 4 pocket rockets of vodka. I felt that having them on hand would help me. In the event I had a craving, I could shoot one of those and be good. Well, it’s now 7am and I drank all 4. I used to be the guy that would wonder how someone could possibly drink in the morning. The truth is, I had one and I couldn’t stop. Knowing they were there and available was enough to make me finish them off in order to chase the buzz. While I am buzzed, I’m also thinking clearer than ever. I recently questioned whether or not I really had a problem, or if I just enjoyed drinking. On this day, at 7am, I finally have my answer. I am indeed an alcoholic.",2.684855072463765,3.72381702484472,3.8244875776397538,91.53944358178056,74.40372670807453,6.733126293995857,24.59679089026915,6.996647511020387,0.7475834368530014,1190,36,269,11,24,387,174,322,0.055,0.83,0.115,0.9520000000000001,0,0,12,1,0,0,43.0,1,1,3,2,14,12,0,0,22,0,28,15,1,6,4,57,42,21,0,10,8,2,3,0,1,4,1,1,0,1,9,13,14,4,9,13,2,4,5,2,2,5,13,4,34,10,43,20,8,53,0,0,0,0,14,15,0,9,33,181,43,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2374748640637993,0.0954336090880933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07141247954197484,0.07430402720856494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1425961730329102,0.09880778545003836,0.0,0.23036219734618124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5248748871445007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09226986927862108,0.0,0.2359249245450606,0.08077617277848582,0.1504767317543426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08574116582467052,0.09782282864352222,0.0,0.07595779174705017,0.0,0.0,0.06899228394903173,0.0,0.0466551081346885,0.0,0.0507507517327532,0.07489987089939143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08842017524812344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05985532243548183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04907646478607538,0.07279070704257208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15805383450446145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08449699306247152,0.0596078606439748,0.0,0.1794259512366047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07127771115110178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06887299180394559,0.0,0.0,0.16760236266760514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09510065577081447,0.1815341984593182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1006713481717055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17089440872044298,0.0,0.0,0.1000354592253906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05720730734533781,0.0,0.08817211471512204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07566286046004571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1493161373251698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08221463835984584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057219274795185474,0.0,0.0,0.05207103903666584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08723227133867742,0.0,0.0,0.07712577412959486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16058127900577954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09684109390842628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25374215061204786,0.0,0.0,0.23002283982073726 alcoholism,Iwishididntthinkit,2019/07/30,"The only time I'm not borderline suicidal is when I'm a few drinks in. Sober me hates everyone and everything, especially about myself. After a few drinks I relax and realize the loud kid nextdoor is just playing, laundry does need to get done, the yard needs mowed, my life is actually pretty great and I'm lucky to have an amazing wife and friends that really do care about me and I care about them. When I'm sober I feel completely worthless with no desire to do anything including even being here. After a few drinks I don't feel drunk at all just in a better place mentally, when I am drunk I couldn't be happier. Am I an alcoholic? Probably.",4.0196062992125965,5.712979188976378,5.251188976377954,80.03426377952758,72.07086614173228,9.489448818897637,28.44803149606299,9.888512548439397,2.8749754330708654,515,20,99,14,10,171,80,127,0.078,0.633,0.289,0.9828,1,0,4,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,1,10,11,1,0,9,0,13,7,0,0,1,18,25,8,1,4,3,1,2,0,1,0,2,1,1,1,1,6,6,0,3,8,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,3,12,9,12,21,4,10,0,1,0,0,4,4,0,1,6,65,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.1648814366481761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18056778621554995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1390403999706875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14943215944224725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3445337361249889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1771522580383695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14785879632684715,0.17290563241854928,0.0,0.4965519868599609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11159706141588033,0.0,0.0,0.16144935236182054,0.15185113568917866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17086338559839187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1305387493742554,0.0,0.08827508120070524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1862799561413352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16681387947973028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11934205955639915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17027281737990188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2505646890676045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12850235563594228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17652814811879716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1718939477640658,0.18216839542279928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1082406600924517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1848157687993855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09852244229928543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,persnicketypeacock,2019/07/30,"26F, daily drinker for 1 year. Am I naive to think I don't need to ween off? # **Note:** I originally posted this on /stopdrinking and it was removed because it was too medical and they suggested I go to a health professional immediately. I'm hoping that this group can help me out a little, since I'm not in a state of having critical symptoms of withdrawl. Just looking for advice from those with experience in my early stages of alcohol addiction. Thank you @shyguy993 for pointing me in this direction. 26F, 160 lbs. For about 1 year I have been drinking pretty much nightly, typically between 2-6 units of vodka. I've switched to a glass of wine here and there and occasionally won't drink for a few days without withdrawal. If I had to estimate, I would say that I average about 36-50 units of alcohol a week depending on if I binge drank at an event or party on the weekends. Generally speaking I have not experienced any major physical red flags that I won't be able to easily stop. On the occasional night-off from drinking, I can't say that I necessarily \*crave\* alcohol, I just miss my more relaxed self. I find myself longing for the same social freedom that a few drinks give me. I occasionally suffer from anxiety after higher-volume drinking nights, especially if I invite other substances to the evening. I have a great job and have many healthy relationships. Drinking has never left me unable to attend work, although it has affected my performance after heavy nights. Due to wanting to loose about 20 lbs through intermittent fasting, I am extremely motivated to transition to a bi-weekend, or even once-a-month drinker. I really do think I can make the switch since I have an intention far more purposeful than being drunk. I believe my drinking problem is mainly a problem with excess and social anxiety. I've always over-ate, overdrank, overslept. I'm just an all around very indulgent person and haven't given up hope that I can learn moderation management in the same way I have with previous habits. I do however, think I can slip into dangerous territory if something doesn't change VERY soon. (Like, now - I just accidentally had a 3 day bender over the weekend.) I'm hoping to learn from anyone with experience with stopping drinking at the frequency I've been drinking. Should I anticipate any seizures? Should I stock up on any specific supplements? I went two weeks sober a few months ago and did not experience any problems beyond anxiety and occasional chills, however now that more time has been added to the behavior, I'm curious how I should prepare myself for the shift. Thank you in advance for the help!",6.133540372670808,7.851058254658388,6.869018633540375,70.39445962732921,66.86749482401656,10.323312629399588,34.91801242236025,10.483121756834826,4.111863105590063,2119,102,352,58,35,699,263,483,0.084,0.81,0.106,0.9535,3,0,18,0,0,0,68.0,0,2,1,4,18,14,1,0,26,0,39,19,0,7,2,63,62,17,0,16,14,0,0,1,0,6,7,3,0,2,15,17,15,2,7,15,0,5,11,6,0,1,11,6,45,8,66,43,12,61,0,2,2,0,16,24,0,10,29,236,60,8,0.06905626125497367,0.0,0.0,0.07528151785491899,0.0,0.06748097927122704,0.06121420898615479,0.22140042579440625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05746034134588724,0.0,0.0,0.1878425027739309,0.0,0.1584835525342676,0.0,0.0,0.048285743507526915,0.0,0.0,0.06147471329451424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04209605590398825,0.0,0.0,0.07780275873746324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07305236787428593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08907115125500517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6088396143297587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09122201854759797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2026508230949804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06311617172738998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06624505827047722,0.039246264673366664,0.0,0.0,0.07613477182362673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07340357649767855,0.0,0.0,0.09257391255139084,0.0,0.0,0.20576534709526428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06852768373964707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07502982990942234,0.0,0.0,0.03373740108269018,0.06921251550825287,0.0,0.061112618136839526,0.057989867190355614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046095590618351626,0.07001221010375172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06956691812723356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1102400977971154,0.0,0.050764297737663125,0.05120434271185383,0.05326044586330357,0.0,0.0,0.2592184927534503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06029726370367625,0.0,0.0,0.06528048784216628,0.0,0.06613680936853991,0.07025504387036711,0.0,0.19823254730764425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0442392092465654,0.0,0.0,0.074140581003514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10983262133065642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07204074109990118,0.0,0.0,0.11424810583565555,0.0,0.0,0.14078832377880665,0.0,0.05316288369775397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11546825308769605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07177589661410612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271554547245557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13274539152770826,0.0,0.0,0.04026726127351751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06745793297889631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11395729538418105,0.04073117207421804,0.054813645879817005,0.11078553473854638,0.0,0.0,0.06401584602843689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06656777157136504,0.0,0.050273780649722905,0.0,0.0,0.04905558667460479,0.0,0.0,0.08893993629948482 alcoholism,dreyn_su,2019/03/07,"I'm 27 years old and I'm finally admitting that I have a problem. My name is Sam, ​ .. And I'm an alcoholic. I'm writing this while drunk, so excuse me for my spelling errors. I've been drinking for the last four years. Slowly building up my dependency. It started with the downfall of my business. Long story short. I got fucked over. I want to stop, but every time I try to quit. I get roped back in. Two nights ago was the last time I drank. Tonight I was sure I wasn't going to drink. As soon as I was with in that bar I conviced myself that could have just that ""one"". ​ Please give me some advice",0.012857142857143344,2.3718740952380983,1.5622222222222213,96.33000000000004,93.76190476190477,4.06984126984127,19.698412698412696,5.82211442006289,-0.116425396825397,480,16,103,4,18,154,85,126,0.08,0.8490000000000001,0.071,-0.0334,0,0,3,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,0,1,4,3,1,0,5,0,9,7,0,1,1,16,22,7,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,4,6,1,1,4,0,1,1,2,0,3,7,0,17,1,14,14,1,23,0,0,0,1,5,5,1,2,17,63,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14505588285458634,0.13158494769381518,0.15863943970990213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3216738639499278,0.3607467506936037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141427969596513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11851892226896545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2908334523865705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12506885489812447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1626110431653191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1372323112636034,0.0775548602302132,0.14239916960237178,0.08436305507746744,0.0,0.11872269204942296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24200021547255876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313665698561412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13930283660917306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15576499261794513,0.0,0.10058819531523386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16294482783750874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1420390232959791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1578864244844559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10506806845593036,0.0,0.0,0.12410422591817855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1399049039327644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17311554151250744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1007824285223448,0.0,0.14500634296472906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0875549849562866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3607467506936037,0.19118366568301068 alcoholism,stop_tempting_me,2019/03/07,"1 day sober Got a notification on my phone giving me a ome day sober badge. So thankful i saw a psychiatrist earlier this week. This app almost makes it a game too by telling me how much money I've saved so far. Cmon day 2",1.8820212765957445,3.4490886382978765,4.056329787234045,86.90875,77.51063829787232,7.253191489361702,22.388297872340427,8.07648339933343,0.921514893617021,174,5,40,3,4,60,37,47,0.0,0.797,0.203,0.8479,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,4,5,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,4,2,2,3,1,6,0,0,1,0,4,2,0,1,4,18,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32408449431290826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6261742532752226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31047051943849785,0.0,0.0,0.2588490928187774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21603606875355347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2379168846556332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28288067364996755,0.2979695475289888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25960911964264205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,sideofcoleslaw_,2019/03/07,"Did you quit cold turkey? Obviously half of this is the addict in me asking, but damn, this withdrawal is bad. I had the shakes for most of the morning—not aaas bad now. Now I’m having crazy pain in my lower abdomen. Didn’t even know that was a thing until this time around. High body temperature and anxiety as well. My girlfriend staying the night, so I know I’d be in a controlled environment if I actually got **A** beer (tall boy or something sold individually) from the store. She understands the gravity of my situation. She’s not afraid to say no to me, either (thank god). But then again, I know it’s a slippery slope. Or I might get pissed at myself and say fuck it, you already ruined it, just start tomorrow.... which I cannot do bc I have soooo much shit to catch up on tomorrow, thanks to my weeklong bender. I did that yesterday and ended up “going to get us food” but stopped at the liquor store. Almost forgot to grab the food too, haha, obviously wasn’t in the trip for the sandwiches. Addiction is *almost* funny for how stupid it makes me sometimes. By no means am I trying to promote/“seek permission” for the use of alcohol. I’m half venting and getting my thoughts out. Half looking for advice on how you guys did it and how it worked for you. 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Drinking daily. A lor of booze. Former med student. Falling down. Hate it. I need it. Dont know how to deal with it. Won’t visit a doc. Need some good girl by my side atm. Broke up with mine ex almost 4years ago. From then single. Lonely. Have a good friends. Drinking too. Taking bloody fcked up friends home at late night, cuz alcohol was stronger than them, while I drank a lot more but still thinking and functioning normally, because of high tolerance. I am a good person. I need someone good by my side. I just want someone or something to get me through my troubles. Something to give me other thoughts and I love my mom. Best person I knew,I know and I will know. Also love my dad. Tell me how to feel good without alc. What to do in free time. How to get through heroic alcoholic case. 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I’m coming to you guys because I don’t know where to go from here. My SO and I have recently moved in together and things have seemed to be changing. I’ve suspected for a while, but more recently it’s been quite obvious that he has an alcohol problem. He’s drinking 15+ beers a night, daily, and if not that, then he’ll drink a half a fifth or more plus more beers. Says he can’t sleep. Tried confronting him about it and he doesn’t see a problem because this is entirely “normal” in his family and friend group. He got extremely defensive despite my efforts to seem calm and caring and nonjudgmental. He’s started to tell white lies to skirt the fact that he’s drinking, or has intentions of drinking. He’s started sleeping in the couch because he passes out drunk and leaves me to sleep by myself. He says he wants to marry me and has plans to get us a house this summer, but I can’t help but worry about this. For perspective, the alcohol is the main problem, but I’m growing more concerned about the lies and deceitful side of it as well. He would usually never try to mislead me and this is happening more frequently, which isn’t the guy I know. I love him, deeply. He’s been the best man I’ve ever met, and the last thing I want to do is leave. When he’s sober he’s a dream. Any advice on the situation, past experiences, what to do moving forward? I can’t imagine leaving, but I know if I’m intelligent and respect myself and the future I’ve worked for I can’t allow myself to marry an alcoholic. Depressed, stressed, confused. I’m afraid i already know what to do and don’t want to. He’s making me feel like I’m overreacting or something, but my guts telling me otherwise. Any advice would mean the world. 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Will I always feel this horrible? I've been drinking for about 6 years. I would have 4 drinks a night on weekdays and on weekends I would lose count sometimes. I've been having trouble sleeping and I feel like I have a hangover all day which is pretty aggravating. I'm starting to lose my appetite and feel depressed. Looking back I'm ashamed of all the silly things I've done and the crazy angry outbursts towards my husband. When will this end? I know 4 days isn't that long but I need some sort of time line for motivation. I wish I put this addict to rest a long time ago. 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You’re supposed to miss them. To love them unconditionally. To think of them in pivotal moments. Reminisce on past times. Talk to them. Celebrate them... But I don’t. I am angry...And the older I get, the bigger the feeling. What happened that made alcohol #1? Genetics? Moving away from family and your support system? A miscarriage? Traveling spouse? An abusive prior relationship? All of these are BIG, I know. If they happened to me, I don’t know how I’d cope, but that’s not my point. The point is, I can’t help the way I feel. I can’t control the anger I have toward my mother. I’m now a mother too, and never could I let something take control and wedge itself between me and my child. My son asks, “who is your mom?” And I have to brush the question off because I truly don’t know. My only positive memories are breakfast: sausage and jelly biscuits, cinnamon sugar toast, or cheese toast. I’m sure it’s because it was the only time you were remotely sober. Every other memory is littered with alcohol... Like when you took me to pick up my sister from soccer practice. We made it a mile down the road before you pulled over and passed out. I was probably 7 or 8. I was terrified and embarrassed. I sat and cried until someone found us and took me home. They left you there. I wonder if you awoke in a panic. I wonder if you even remembered I was with you. I wonder if you cared. Or when the ambulance came in the middle of the night and a paramedic shut my bedroom door before they took you out on a stretcher. That night you couldn’t find any alcohol in the house, so you went for the mouth wash. One of many times. The next day at school I’d dread the question from my neighbor, “what was going on last night- is everyone okay?” I’d make up a lie, anything but the truth. How about when you had visitation and we’d get in the car with you, but Dad told us if we stopped ANYWHERE to call him. Sure enough, you stopped at the gas station down the street and wouldn’t let us go inside with you. You bought some cheap liquor and downed it in the bathroom. My sister had to call my dad and tell him, then she had to break it to you that we weren’t getting back in the car. You were so pissed. If we did make it to your apartment you’d pass out shortly after and we’d search everywhere for Tupperware cups filled with vodka and dump them out. It was like hunting Easter eggs- and if I’m being honest, it was fun. I don’t think you ever confronted us. I don’t even know if we were doing it to help or hurt you? I’m sure you made promises of fun things we could do with our time together, but instead you’d pass out and we’d sit around bored, so I’m guessing it was our version of revenge. Then there’s the time you were pulling into dad’s driveway after a visitation weekend and you pulled directly in front of an oncoming car. My sister was in the front seat. We surprisingly walked away without a scratch, but you walked away with two counts of child endangerment. I’ve heard you went to multiple rehabs. California, Florida, Ohio. I can only assume they didn’t work because you weren’t ready. Alcohol was #1. Nothing could change that but you. But you made your choice, which definitely wasn’t your children. I don’t recall seeing you too often when the cirrhosis really set in. We came to the hospice center in your final days. You were sitting in bed, talking, smiling, seemingly happy. Sober. Weird. I wasn’t used to it. Your skin was so yellow it looked like it was painted on. You said your goodbye without startling us too much. I remember waiting in the hall and hearing you apologize to Dad, which was weird considering you two seemed to be enemies for the majority of the previous 5 years. On the way home, Dad was fighting to find the way to tell us that’d probably be the last time we saw you. You died 2 days before the start of my freshman year of high school. You never met a boyfriend. You didn’t come to my high school games. No homecomings, proms, graduations. No knowledge of my career, house, wedding, grandchildren. You don’t even truly know me. You’re missing out on so much. People say that it surely hurts you far worse than it hurts me, but I’ll probably never understand because at some point you had a choice- and you chose wrong. You let your pain manifest into mine, and I’m angry. 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Reading the success of others and also seeing similar struggles/stories, makes you feel less like a piece of crap. 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I’ve decided to end my life while I have some semblance of dignity. My depression has robbed me of any and all joy in life. I hope others that read this will seek help before they have fallen to where I am. I hate myself and I look forward to the peace of death. May others have more hope than I do. Peace and love.",0.6932792207792211,2.7355543506493563,2.4156980519480515,94.88640422077923,83.41558441558442,5.927922077922077,17.41720779220779,7.1686216300943375,-0.010245454545454448,283,6,65,4,8,93,52,77,0.196,0.541,0.263,0.765,0,0,1,0,0,1,7.0,0,0,1,0,1,6,1,0,2,0,8,6,0,0,1,10,15,5,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,0,4,4,1,0,1,1,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,11,4,9,13,3,6,0,1,1,1,3,3,0,4,3,43,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401435303969698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15280851972013482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19120917435378487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19353987846648465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1990237760064102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22185171993888733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506164188911399,0.0,0.0,0.4463696644440969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31743451151921004,0.0,0.0,0.19842046818670894,0.0,0.1886973530115304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2028069125661626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22476788861238786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5165354647030572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,justafewnightcaps,2019/03/07,"I did not drink today. I promise I won't over post. Yesterday I posted for the first time about being on day 2. This morning I found out an old friend passed away from liver failure after relapsing. She was 33. What I am doing for myself is more real than ever. Today is day 3. 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The Sober me might be the worst me...Drinking is an escape...,-1.032,0.6251738000000024,-0.2666666666666657,105.88000000000004,111.0,2.0,11.666666666666668,3.1291,-2.0083333333333333,57,1,13,0,3,17,12,15,0.24,0.76,0.0,-0.6249,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,3,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,8,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6784223886292845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7346720782815529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,lindaholahola,2019/03/07,"Is he a functioning alcoholic? F(28) M(35) My parents would rarely drink when I was growing up so I'm not sure what a healthy amount of drinking looks like. My mother's dad was an alcoholic so that turned her away from alcohol completely. I have been dating this guy for 8 months and I did see a future with him but lately I have been questioning if he is a functioning alcoholic. I moved in with him about 4 weeks ago and I noticed that he drinks everyday after work. He doesn't get drunk but he will have 3-5 beers on weekdays. If there is no beer, he will have a little bit of whiskey. He holds down a good job and he's a driven and passionate guy. However, last Saturday he had to work from home. There was a 12 pack and a 6 pack in the fridge and by the time Sunday came around, only 4 beers were left. He will drink more during the weekends and I have seen him get drunk a couple of times when we go out. ​ I brought up my concern last night and he mentioned that he actually used to drink more in the past but that he's controlled it and he mainly does it because he loves the taste of beer. I asked him if he has a dependency and then he said that he thinks he does but that ""everybody that climbs the corporate latter needs to function somehow."" Then I felt he started to deflect the convo. I told him that the excessive drinking is a deal breaker for me. He said ""ok"" and I started crying. HIs cold response is what got to me. I told him I don't think this is going to work out and I started packing. He left his apartment before I could say goodbye. I texted him and he texted back ""if you want to leave, feel free. I had enough of a bad day as it is."" I left him a note explaining my fears. ​ I talked to somebody older about this (who grew up with an alcoholic) and he mentioned ""ah 3-5 beers a day is not bad at all. I think you're exaggerating."" ​ What do you guys think? ​ Summary: What defines a functional alcoholic? 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Have been at the trying to get sober thing since 24. In that time, I got a grad degree, at near top of my class, at a top 20 program for my field in the US. But I was on the older end in my class. And, because the need to build sustained sobriety got massive, I listened to people (in rehab and people with long term recovery in AA) who told me that delaying licensing in my field multiple times was the right call. Now after going through that I know it was the wrong call. As was living in sober living for a month, I love my freedom and actually getting to use my car. But now I'm working in a restaurant and in a below my pay grade job in my field. And I've relapsed but I want to get sober without delaying the career again or moving into sober living. Everyone just says take suggestions but I'm so jaded on that since the suggestions literally ruined my life. I mean I take responsibility for taking them but this makes me not want to take any more of them. 28, almost 29 is old as balls especially when you don't have a real job. Halp? 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Have since reformed, but still feel crushing shame from it, especially around holiday season. I come back to my small home town every year to see my dear mom for Christmas. Now I think of it as the place where I got my horrible DUI arrest last year. Now, I know it’s terribly self-indulgent to look around and assume everyone is thinking about *me*, and judging me, and their lives revolve around talking about my horrible mistake... in my rational brain, I know that’s not true. And even if some people are thinking that, it doesn’t matter; I’m sober now and they can think what they will. But when I come back here, my default is to hang my head in shame. Hang my head in anticipation of their judgment, which I will accept of course. It’s just kind of all crashing into me now. In previous times, you better believe I’d be drunk as H to forget all this; this year, I refuse to succumb. I will be sober and sit with this. I’m sorry for rambling. If anyone might have any experience to share, or advice, or anything, I would be so very grateful. 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I realized half way thru that theres alcohol in it haha and even though I kept it a couple inches above the tether, does anyone know if this would have been detected when I rinsed the nair off? Some prolly got in there. The tether company (home confinement inc) won't tell me if it did and I'd like to get an ETG but only if absolutely necessary cuz they're expensive! I'm out on bond so I don't have a p.o to call, just a case manager that never picks up.. so just straight back to jail I'd go. 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I think I’ve finally realized just how much I’m hurting my significant other. We never really fight unless if I’m really drunk. I end up saying things that I don’t mean and then apologize a million times the next day. Usually he would still be mad about it, but yesterday he wasn’t mad. He just said, “It’s okay, I know you were just drunk.” and just carried on like nothing happened. That really broke my heart. He has gotten so used to it that he just accepts it now. I’m a shitty person who doesn’t deserve him, yet he stays with me. 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I haven't drank in over a month now, but my stomach gets full after only a bite or two of food. If I were to finish a meal without smoking a good deal of marijuana before hand, I really couldn't finish it. Even after smoking, I can't stomach as much as I was used to before my most recent binge episode which lasted about 2-3 months before realizing I had been entirely self-destructive each time I drank for the last 3/4 years. I rarely drank beer, I was mostly into hard liqour. I had a greater appetite from drunk-munchies than weed-munchies, but now that I've stopped drinking I really just don't have much appetite. I smoked weed all through any binge drinking episode, but less than I would if I were sober. It's become concerning and slightly frustrating, given that it's the holiday season, and I'm also in hard labor so I need proper nutrition. tl;dr ---- stopped drinking entirely, used to have a large appetite but now I can barely finish a few bites of dinner even after trying to induce the munchies. is it possible I've caused harm to my stomach or intestines?",6.3667809523809495,7.027451217777783,6.463634920634924,77.34650000000002,65.71111111111111,9.095238095238095,34.2936507936508,9.04235418022936,3.0530317460317464,944,41,166,15,14,301,125,225,0.107,0.84,0.053,-0.8191,0,0,6,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,0,0,9,5,1,0,10,0,17,17,6,5,1,30,26,16,0,5,10,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,8,6,11,2,2,6,0,0,5,4,0,1,11,3,21,1,25,13,10,24,0,1,0,0,1,5,0,6,19,112,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10292184734485668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.087520841759963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14213973438438568,0.3285442707445923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13221099927140706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.132684698345701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5043104823910844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1700111046739469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15562531270740665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06724076727336949,0.0,0.0,0.10794798231764992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23058097027195865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2098163818539946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20545523004484134,0.0,0.18921954312760614,0.0954298864150146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09788262861804227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2901812454905458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16489783834340538,0.0,0.12707634560495792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13426282569633524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21519897909260852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07504637235946603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08737927966603408,0.0,0.12572181461627194,0.0,0.0,0.22231204411980404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12406281466601825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09142523497905776,0.0,0.0,0.08287898612995577 alcoholism,leoexec,2019/01/21,"Interesting form of alcoholism... I never crave alcohol, except after the occasional night of binge drinking, then it’s on I could go months without a drink. I generally do not crave alcohol at all. There are situations where everyone is drinking, and I’ll say no. Why do I say no? Is it because of fears of alcoholism? Nope, I generally just don’t enjoy it However, this month we had my birthday party. All my friends know I’ve been going through a rough time, so they through a celebration for me, with a bunch of alcohol. I really do have great friends. I ended up drinking so much I had a brutal hangover, and now I had kept this hair-of the-dog thing going for a while (currently sober), It’s just strange. I get momentum and I can’t stop, and I don’t even like alcohol, but I know situation will make this happen again once it goes away. Am I an alcoholic? I don’t really understand, because I don’t really drink very often. I suppose I’m just prone to alcoholism,",2.7125672514619907,4.946541110526319,4.860350877192985,79.01690058479534,77.36842105263158,9.064327485380117,28.450292397660817,9.586721724236666,3.0232573099415205,761,34,147,23,18,263,112,190,0.064,0.847,0.08900000000000001,0.6237,2,0,13,0,0,0,32.0,1,0,1,0,11,8,1,1,8,0,19,13,0,1,3,26,30,9,0,1,7,0,1,1,2,1,8,2,0,0,9,6,13,2,3,5,0,3,11,2,0,0,5,3,22,6,18,23,5,21,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,1,14,104,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7360629374816631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08088776377367682,0.0,0.0,0.10496370926310372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06873872776528908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4216947202589116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07625336863843914,0.0,0.0,0.056864005591533213,0.0,0.0,0.08226611667881756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09687922651750996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330313913314768,0.0,0.044980348472470164,0.0,0.14678691719600484,0.0,0.0,0.09491848918975304,0.0,0.0,0.07613227913543615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0946295733149658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04206098032809665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0574681412316981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1374381676124706,0.0,0.06328869622411447,0.0,0.06640068570283117,0.0,0.0,0.08079300401399164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09168686575931834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16546127888953244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1369301599091539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1935456093243889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07197809798297006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05719675704086408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0502018658799635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0896264655942183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07103622990474487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0776860758378679,0.0,0.0,0.08299115049454647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,LiamBCool,2019/01/21,"Is it possible to have drank very little (2-3 drinks every weekend) for years and be an alcoholic? Okay, so I drank a crapton in college, which I dropped out of during junior year. Mostly at parties, sometimes alone After college, I became a much more restricted consumer of alcohol. But when I dropped out, I slowly crept into a suicidal depressive phase that honestly lasted for 3 years and gradually tapered off..sort of..in the last 2 years Anyway, my question is...can I benefit from alcohol-specific treatment if it's just been like 5 years of on and off drinking? If I can control myself when drinking, am I an alcoholic? Starting to become very confused and annoyed. Thank you for any responses. 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I decided to stop drinking and the first few days have been really tough due to anxiety and feeling like I’m going to have panic attacks. Is anyone else familiar with this feeling or have any advice? I would appreciate it! 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I was diagnosed with MDD around 6 or so months when I was really down and went to a psychiatrist and for therapy. I quit the zoloft and therapy about a month or two in, deciding I hadnt been sober long enough and that there were many things I could do to improve my life to change my thinking. Most of the past 3 years since has been very routine, I had the same job and apartment for almost 2 years. But since then, I started college, moved around a couple times, worked 3 different jobs, and many other life shit kinda things happened (car accident, losing friends). Through that, Ive worked a program in AA, which has had a lot of ups and downs, and definitely mostly downs lately. So the point I'm at right now is I really just need a freaking rocket, something big needs to change, and I know im working hard to have the lifestyle changes with my education, but my patience and faith has been worn really thin. Ive never been so ready to relapse since Ive been sober, because I feel if I could just drink sometime and smoke a little weed to really get outta myself, that could be all I need. Before I do that, I'm seriously considering trying therapy again, I never gave professional help a fair shot in my life, and it just doesn't make sense I could be so worn out and depressed when I've worked so hard to be where I'm at today. I dont have a gratifying sense of accomplishment like a lot of people seem to get. For a solid length of time AA worked great, I sponsored a lot of people, and truly felt i had tapped into something. Now I do a meeting at rehab, or uphold a position at my home group, or get a sponsee, and it feels fruitless. I'm cynical about the whole experience, probably because a lot of my inner circle in AA has given up on the program, saying theyre not alchoholics and it's not a real thing, all the great mental obsession stuff ya know. Young people groups in AA are a tough lot man. I have been using a meditation app the past couple days, and I'm hoping to rekindle that fire I had, but make it brighter then it was. I want this to work, I want to continue to inspire others and be something different from most of the world Anyways, that's where I've been at lately. It's tough to say you're having a hard time when there's people who cant even get sober, nevermind pursue a college degree and other goals, I feel guilty and ungrateful, but something needs to change for me internally ",7.1179799999999975,5.8746852380000005,7.432000000000002,77.40100000000005,64.62,10.4,32.2,9.3871,2.6225,1969,61,396,30,25,645,235,500,0.105,0.7929999999999999,0.102,0.6416,4,0,6,0,0,0,52.0,0,1,0,10,26,16,2,1,31,0,45,8,1,3,4,81,80,41,0,12,14,0,9,1,1,0,6,2,1,1,22,26,1,0,10,1,0,3,8,9,4,2,25,11,40,7,53,47,13,62,1,2,0,0,12,30,1,18,30,260,62,15,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13024753859168478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11579096295386672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07929020874535048,0.0,0.05534051422788404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2751962089420112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20770257117106097,0.1439213314999347,0.0,0.04194258835261177,0.0,0.056015075814930065,0.06600977541987997,0.0,0.13589674118466338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07622125085878897,0.06371013873438752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06719917050776747,0.0,0.04295540720791143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06361730618448018,0.0,0.0,0.09865187593896038,0.0,0.06244438479032063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05024635115512733,0.0,0.13591368844943982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05201491863690417,0.14340397980379582,0.0,0.0,0.05751077536500473,0.0,0.17477739747805662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04359199866203009,0.0,0.0652360197652,0.06459503538349806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07024961924204087,0.0,0.12907561603739676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07148374113589533,0.0,0.14672600223863028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13780972456358392,0.03177311409497961,0.06518276694325949,0.0,0.0575544685242806,0.0,0.07275821241039343,0.0,0.27645475071641296,0.0,0.0,0.08682354970986833,0.13187180211160526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06554059859815642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10382160725909,0.0691225613347579,0.0,0.19289232376312496,0.1003189438935461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12416769784197965,0.2254375170186973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06147967305784205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0701193876121603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06917337689758529,0.0,0.07402476257714498,0.16665390904505525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05554005580914528,0.0,0.1034378552259062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05920597700936056,0.0,0.0,0.06675811933982033,0.1613943865869115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20027036050664013,0.06432188149834195,0.0,0.04603253967486545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07445021410842836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22312166470833256,0.0,0.12962030888102513,0.04167219302849253,0.0,0.0,0.11376836202646293,0.0,0.06164615410733509,0.0,0.0,0.04415491031349853,0.0,0.06353034117526198,0.0,0.0,0.05616988608305157,0.0,0.05366118954039125,0.07671937588579557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060288662270187685,0.0,0.07260993629405471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2840801930156713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12564240218374356 alcoholism,Jessicada95,2019/01/21,"Not drunk Ever get that feeling where everything is going great , but it feels like a dream & it's like you're going to wake up and find out that you're actually drunk ? I've been feeling this way alot. It's scary.",2.093,3.9126493555555584,3.219722222222224,92.01625,77.66666666666667,6.277777777777778,20.13888888888889,7.1686216300943375,0.2575555555555553,171,4,38,2,4,55,35,45,0.081,0.5670000000000001,0.35200000000000004,0.884,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,2,3,1,0,1,10,8,2,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,2,0,4,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,3,3,7,1,7,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,3,18,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.28451560396951264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31589969990897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2637281719900911,0.0,0.0,0.262030817188061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.442256875649985,0.2082869365538308,0.0,0.0,0.2664759705063987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15232544399081238,0.0,0.331394828975279,0.0,0.0,0.3214403956344505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2848780732362476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2314227730082627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Aldehyde-NaBH4,2019/10/24,"What are the consequences of alcoholism at 16? Just if anyone knows, a question. I drank my first beer with 11 and gradually started drinking more and more, but as I can legally purchase alcohol since June, I’ve kind of fallen into alcoholism. If I continued like this, what would be the physical consequences and how much could I continue to drink daily without severely shortening my life expectancy? I’m female, 170cm (5’7”) and 65kg (143lbs) if that’s of any help. Thank you for taking the 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alcoholism,RagnarTheWhore,2019/10/24,"Question about withdrawal For serious alcoholics who have gone through uncomfortable or near fatal withdrawal, how long after the last drink did the withdrawal start and how long did it 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alcoholism,sommeilparadoxal,2019/10/24,"I relapsed I bought some beers today, not that much but I was feeling like shit about myself, idk why im doing this, sorry 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alcoholism,KemoSays,2019/10/24,"Completely sober for three years today. I wanted to share something with you all. Before sobering, I was a sad drunk for over ten years. At the time I was traveling abroad a lot. I was on a three-week binge drinking streak. I woke up and had a beer. This was the end of an era for me. I couldn’t think straight. My head was throbbing. I just wanted to have one more drink. I closed my laptop and went outside. A tear ran down my face for the first time during my travels. It’s really difficult to explain how I felt exactly. I was dizzy and my hands were shaking again. I admitted in front of myself that I have a major alcohol problem, and I can’t carry on like this for much longer. Having the opportunities that most people can only dream off, I reduced my life to a series of blackouts. It’s a vicious circle. When you’re living on the road among other vagabonds, nobody treats you seriously when you say you have a problem with alcohol, and you need help. Everybody thinks you’re just a drama queen. Until you can party and you’re not particularly violent, everything is just fucking dandy. Sure, you can always say no, but what are you going to do then? Hang out with these drunk bastards sober? I started thinking about death again. I wrote up a page in my journal. I’m copying it here without any corrections. >I’m dying. With every particle of my body and every particle of my soul. >I was bumming around the world just like that. Maybe because I’m an exile. Not an American, not an Englishman, not a Pole. I cannot feel the ground under my feet, the land—as they say—my own, my family, my motherland. >When I’m writing, it gets better. So I write. I can write for several hours. >Who has planted this seed of constant doubt and anxiety inside of me? >I would be lying if I said that I don’t often think about suicide as a means to free myself from my mind. But it’s not clear what I should do. There is not a single obvious thing in my head. I am looking for a place in this world that I care for, and I can’t find it, although I would love to. >I’ve traveled half of the globe. I’ve been to so many places. Me-the-nobody felt good everywhere. Me-whatever-his-name-is felt decent here and there. I, the-shadow-of-me, didn’t feel right anywhere. I can’t find my place. >How hard it is to take this first step. I’ve been getting up for a long time now and telling myself: “I’m going to be perfect from now on!” But I never changed anything. >I’m dying. >All these people who wished me the worst all my life can relax now. I won’t be coming one day to take their women away anymore. I’m done. Fuck me. >— Heard about this bald fucker that drank himself to death? He traveled so much. Didn’t work a day in his life. And then just died in some piss-stained alley in Saigon. Wonder how he fucking looked like then. >And this will be the end of all my popularity and recognition that I craved so much. A few people will come to my funeral and forget about me while doing the dishes next week. The next morning I decided to change something. I knew this line of thinking would push me into real depression and eventually kill me. I needed a long, sincere talk with myself to decide what I’m doing next. I really wanted to get better. I wasn’t mature enough to address the root of my problems, but I could at least fight with the symptoms. I’ve decided to spend some time outside of my usual crowd and take up on new hobbies. Little did I know that actually getting better would take years. 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I admit that I'm not in control,-2.2940000000000005,-0.5382613999999961,1.495000000000001,97.7025,96.33333333333334,3.0,14.166666666666668,3.1291,-1.3723333333333332,49,1,12,0,2,18,13,15,0.282,0.581,0.13699999999999998,-0.2509,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,5,4,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,1,3,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,8,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6320866708924114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6151983569776396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4711660238728607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Veloci-RKPTR,2019/10/24,"Aching muscles. Hello everyone. I can’t say I’m an alcoholic since I only drink on occasions and do not have cravings nor dependency, but I do have a drinking related question. Last night I was drinking quite heavily, more than the usual amount I drink when I do. Needless to say, I woke up with a pretty bad hangover, and it still lasts up until now. What worries me is that I’m also experiencing muscle pains, especially on my legs. It feels like the type of pains after a long marathon, which is weird because I was mostly sitting last night when I was drinking. Google gave me pretty scary results of my symptoms, but I know better not to trust google diagnostics. This has never happened to me before. Does anyone here probably know what’s going on with me? Any help and advice would be much appreciated.",5.434617224880384,6.97001155263158,6.179354066985649,75.37138755980862,68.34210526315789,8.422009569377991,30.92344497607656,8.841846274778883,2.666321052631579,644,26,111,11,11,211,103,152,0.161,0.701,0.13699999999999998,-0.4859,0,0,6,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,2,6,7,0,0,6,0,14,10,1,2,1,18,23,10,0,1,4,0,1,1,0,1,4,2,0,0,7,5,6,0,4,6,0,1,5,4,0,0,5,4,16,3,15,16,4,21,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,3,15,76,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11885305541675165,0.0,0.12998288485841494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09726552515885667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08271091955437393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08504482612608061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10155394199621597,0.07414303881207464,0.0,0.10349610523679643,0.0,0.0,0.10756970322347137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10643710764285436,0.0,0.0,0.5957435809100889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11622035701019726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061498554759492674,0.08689076153660817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06912375191497917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10755485998768012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08152439752239468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13368666515919025,0.2974281130941025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05942108789473175,0.0,0.0,0.10763657357263028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08941025985939646,0.0,0.09380668140972304,0.0,0.0,0.22827847355654154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09250324903868903,0.25884062337554964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2474779326740268,0.13113509371387966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13625071609992068,0.12936589395423126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1934462536044676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10061158418853787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09713193588553916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12641761737889898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13395558683182654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12351870302093745,0.0,0.08640073728189168,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,daddylia,2019/10/24,"help I’m in my third year of uni and alcohol has gotten the best of me. I grew up in a very conservative family and I was the genius child, always at the top of my class and constantly heard from everyone that I had a very promising future. I started drinking when I entered uni and moved away from home. At first I was fucking up ironically, in spite of my reserved past and was just trying to show everybody how I was letting loose to the opposite extreme. But now I’m a full-blown alcoholic on antidepressants, often showing up to class drunk and making worse choices by day. I don’t know what I should do or when this will come to an end.",6.3321926910298965,5.748446759689922,7.056057585825028,77.29744186046514,65.89922480620154,10.472203765227023,33.157253599114064,9.957137785484203,3.030985825027685,508,19,102,10,7,169,86,129,0.08800000000000001,0.821,0.091,0.1263,0,0,3,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,3,6,4,2,0,8,0,11,5,0,2,0,16,20,11,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,1,1,3,7,4,1,1,4,0,4,1,2,0,2,7,1,13,2,21,10,1,26,0,0,0,1,3,11,1,2,11,73,16,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4264337332203285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16600935466353672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18744740060336126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20937476333356225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17186128852046553,0.0,0.2156007993601495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286682605135624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19544508457883286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17670776235721328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19064156319519207,0.0,0.0,0.188081464219488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16970417975059107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18444494924341234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13372819514615591,0.0,0.20012606555060108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10964617335525856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20401378535789136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1331753183525919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21204890013974312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1904560772333246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14121509996456058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1354550524018014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32923537561414074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2033190233542288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284787131703173 alcoholism,wontwasteme,2019/10/24,"I keep slipping because I don't know if I really want to stop. I just want to be able to control my life like an adult. My SO/now roommate, I guess, found my stash where I'd been sneaking wine last night. I keep trying to stop, but then on my way home, I decide to get something. I just don't seem to want to stop. Everyone around me says I have to, because I hurt them because I don't want to stop. Like I have to stop for them. But I don't think I want to stop for myself. I don't know how to convince myself to stop for *me.* I've been able to stop for months at a time, then I go back. I don't know what's wrong with me. Why can't I convince myself to stop?",0.2009705730511122,1.46718534899329,2.1846979865771807,99.81361899845122,81.41610738255035,5.1215281362932386,18.844088797108927,5.369823440869387,-0.6382951987609711,503,11,132,2,13,168,69,149,0.20199999999999999,0.6559999999999999,0.14300000000000002,-0.9159,0,0,2,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,2,1,6,6,0,0,2,0,12,2,0,2,0,33,28,6,0,6,5,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,1,1,2,1,12,7,1,0,1,7,2,0,0,3,1,30,4,23,24,0,22,0,1,0,0,4,4,0,3,18,78,31,0,0.20285310330391432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09029113464792778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07799075753295533,0.0,0.18548605343944932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1137585021524108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0969174166428267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11120897872516493,0.0,0.0,0.052991187011607266,0.0,0.05764304667960731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11173278157517336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10173910112244823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10857922129725732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18030515875360945,0.0,0.0,0.1672241407633065,0.08267617681786363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07164057297126558,0.09910377976826296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08095770586284541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09518194790232253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06497644616353067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08065846483733101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0923349233090694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07808311471465412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7631742488524358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06499003887391727,0.0,0.0,0.059142637918978315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06886197075797157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2991200401783181,0.08050767568394719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09152168697496728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1108940120245908,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Mr9millimeter,2019/10/24,"Quitting isn't worth it I've been drinking 10-14 beers a night for a few years, after I get home at night within a 3 hour period every time, which I've heard is worse than keeping an even flow, but whatever. I'm a 22 year old guy that has absolutely nothing going for him, college dropout, unattractive, no friends/relationship/purpose, I live with my parents yet I never speak to them outside of small talk when I pay them rent, and I was diagnosed with depression, OCD,GAD, BPD and tourette's syndrome, though I've never liked or trusted doctors so I cancelled my health plans around 18 because I didnt want to pay for that unless I came down with cancer or something. Though I've observed some issues from my excessive consumption like premature aging/wrinkles, constant tiredness, a really noticeable decrease in mental capability or interest in anything other than drinking, and gaining 60 pounds from just beer, I don't really want to stop. I think about stopping all the time, I even scratched it into my walls 6 times, so I would keep seeing it and not forget I guess, ""stop drinking"" but what is life without it honestly. People may say that there are endless opportunities, that I'm still so young, that I havent even really tried, but I didnt lose anything from drinking, I never had anything to begin with, it's only opened me up to a world of happiness that does some damage sure, but it's not the emptiness i'dfelt constantly till now so I'm so thankful for it and I cant ever part with it. My saving grace and my best friend, where everything and everyone else fails me, when I fail myself, it will be there, and it's all I need until I decide to end myself once and for all",12.83499163413274,7.477783012269943,11.641187953151144,64.38660624651422,57.834355828220865,14.431232571109872,46.200780814277756,11.022393298168332,5.007531288343556,1346,54,246,21,11,433,199,326,0.171,0.685,0.14400000000000002,-0.5388,2,0,7,0,0,0,40.0,0,0,2,9,22,18,0,0,9,0,17,11,0,0,8,55,34,28,0,4,12,1,1,2,1,3,5,3,2,1,19,18,6,5,2,6,4,3,13,5,0,0,7,5,33,13,37,23,8,46,0,5,1,0,10,13,0,7,32,165,52,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23787953431496736,0.08577770155197127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05873801968865181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10112018762968293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12135762135288175,0.0,0.0,0.110206150645235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20825426080291312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08299170044174266,0.09779980528765488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09862494668307092,0.08432221047987272,0.0,0.0,0.3775706930338113,0.0,0.0,0.0804934800939564,0.0,0.08534324672508665,0.0,0.0,0.190927651287863,0.08715995835459545,0.08118449551336855,0.09207275190850908,0.08659899676774051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07444478227851427,0.0,0.05034228711479222,0.0,0.054761611689893436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10614753296542803,0.09540807056391136,0.0,0.1025732713882747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10242243908483634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0966534121680514,0.0,0.09489172945122656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1005711374768551,0.0,0.17129214464028075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06805943586048924,0.0941498240860732,0.0,0.08508454271925835,0.0,0.0,0.1077982611143877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971046748843446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07144711364915295,0.22294818722782345,0.0,0.0,0.18084807001565525,0.0,0.0924566473359377,0.10970249827801727,0.10110992344682518,0.10261651315431744,0.0,0.07328344980667162,0.0,0.0,0.1069924749942911,0.10434468477186017,0.0,0.06680145517453442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1024869839147486,0.0,0.0,0.18518529738238185,0.0,0.0,0.10345080585803533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07662654535724718,0.0,0.0,0.07678364425004848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0741799306915195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07695041441318044,0.24167501126762614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09081484798817084,0.0,0.0,0.07744769375426756,0.0,0.0887121066658268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06174134570481697,0.18933951708600896,0.0,0.1685587260872965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06541972917928575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11366710423864755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09288421428616714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09819549148580622,0.06844888325175162,0.0,0.0,0.12410083598762114 alcoholism,greendogufo,2019/10/24,"Coming up on my first weekend... looking for suggestions Hey all, I’m on my 5th night sober. This is the longest I’ve not drank since I’ve been 21. I’m coming up on the weekend (without work) and am looking forward to not wrecking myself, but am a little worried about caving because of the excuse of the weekend. Any suggestions on activities to do to appreciate a sober weekend, especially the nights, are welcomed ! Thanks and have a great night.",5.475357142857142,6.935189154761907,6.165238095238099,75.79642857142859,68.16666666666667,7.980952380952381,35.42857142857143,8.344100000000001,3.0611571428571422,355,18,60,5,6,116,54,84,0.026000000000000002,0.778,0.196,0.948,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,0,8,0,7,1,0,0,1,9,15,3,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,4,0,3,3,0,0,1,2,2,3,3,14,13,1,18,0,0,2,0,5,8,0,0,9,40,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466095026033822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1314224784382378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3714256953981512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18338188174450384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23769021095971055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2160791582894535,0.0,0.0,0.36208485126696816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.606953597726276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17833938243574765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19848753817883213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20782235618397712,0.0,0.15695306155323058,0.21894346852485064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Thrwwy038474,2019/10/24,"Finally sought help but feel like it’s pointless After drinking almost daily for the past 10 years, I finally made an appointment with my PCP to get help. She gave me a referral to the local Behavioral Health department. It took me a month to get the courage to call for an appointment. They’re booked out to April. What the fuck am I supposed to do until then?! Keep drinking?! I’m at a turning point in my life. I’m ready to leave alcohol and leave my husband, but this was such a blow that I feel like what’s the point in changing anything. I have a great career and 2 amazing dogs; what does it matter if everything else sucks?",3.5846400000000003,5.257539984000001,4.294599999999999,86.53630000000004,73.16,7.88,27.7,8.548686976883017,1.9636400000000005,498,19,100,9,10,159,83,125,0.076,0.6920000000000001,0.23199999999999998,0.9749,0,0,3,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,1,7,2,0,12,0,4,6,0,1,0,13,17,7,0,1,3,1,2,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,8,4,3,1,2,3,0,2,0,2,0,0,4,2,10,5,16,13,0,18,0,0,0,1,6,7,2,2,11,57,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1676691484373639,0.15710403254341854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12910821996591565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16020361844775532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1659702541519326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13729668502166714,0.0,0.0,0.3073876041665767,0.0,0.0,0.13106259809680512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14100383653071882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15865796974554808,0.22416643560090935,0.0,0.34373362871047297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14504353274152046,0.1639385186402289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17297327652831046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16676817742507186,0.0,0.0,0.21032194083610745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13945224808223014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33225059047653194,0.0,0.0,0.11081700627760928,0.15329838566644838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14845439680715214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1252291854564337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14977055423489674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2966260909426377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1743120719814209,0.0,0.17065274546843934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10103289093438217 alcoholism,coyjewishpartygirl,2019/10/24,"Staying sober and motivated between detox and rehab Hi all, 20f here. I’m currently chilling in a hospital after coming down from a bender and having pretty bad withdrawals yesterday. I’m getting released tomorrow (Thursday) and checking into an inpatient rehab Saturday. Tomorrow afternoon my boyfriend is going to pick me up and take me to my apartment to get my car and school supplies, and then we’re headed to my parents house right after since my roommates will most likely be partying. I’ll be with him until Saturday with not much to do, and all I want to do as soon as I get out is have a drink. I know he and my parents, who will be meeting us at their house Friday evening won’t let me so I’m not in danger of serious temptation, but I need to think of something to do so I’m not miserable. However, I’m completely blank on what to do during the next few days. I can do some homework and maybe do a little skin and hair care and stuff if I have the motivation but I’m not sure if I will. Other than that I have no idea what I’m going to do with myself, please help me brainstorm!",6.276917808219178,5.775195561643834,7.260833333333334,75.51125000000002,65.986301369863,10.40502283105023,34.688356164383556,9.928628108626363,3.346810958904109,864,36,165,17,12,292,132,219,0.044000000000000004,0.8320000000000001,0.124,0.9546,4,0,2,0,0,0,18.0,1,0,1,2,5,7,1,1,7,0,22,7,3,3,3,39,41,22,0,4,8,2,2,1,0,4,3,0,1,0,6,18,1,0,5,1,1,4,6,4,0,0,0,2,22,3,31,33,6,31,0,1,0,0,10,11,0,4,16,121,28,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330702086093601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16249189656622492,0.0,0.0,0.13728615128361155,0.1671000739341305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1027827175644652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15612534783208445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1052646882400243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2497982146857706,0.0,0.1811512562955099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16356318182992333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10682469209773944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3677912232618569,0.0,0.17991327322269374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08758750311083931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1629701932395931,0.0,0.07786183782252104,0.1597341076920497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1601120937561951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11715785421456425,0.11817342474802275,0.0,0.0,0.16949551657139353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.353930804103028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17494423502394105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16214013695486584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13610409118660272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612944822360165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13183539932881974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12269350026418807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.169870936930193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1824445183255852,0.0,0.0,0.1502076299041713,0.0,0.11982903155022152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10212009831941403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19170668748276676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09400261468246678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,everythingisfine666,2019/10/24,"Hiccups happen right? So I had been sober a little over a week until last night. I had been doing okay and even though a bunch of shit in my personal life has been stressed me out I had been holding it together pretty well. I decided to take myself to go see Joker finally and had a good time. After the movie I was just feeling so depressed and started to walk through downtown LA before going home. I just kept feeling lower and lower and then said “fuck it” and went to go have a beer. A bunch of beers and shots later I’m basically blacked out and spent way too much money. I woke up this morning feeling like a piece of shit. I now realize how much power alcohol holds over me. Why can’t I be normal like everyone else? Now I’m stuck stressing out about making 20 bucks last a full week before I get paid again. My drunk self hates me sooooo much I don’t know why I do this to myself I hate it. But hiccups happen sometimes right? No use and being upset now because all I can do is just move forward and be better. I hate this shit. I hate alcoholism. I hate depression. This shit sucks.",2.075162680456799,4.162180506787333,3.4111182934712367,89.35061840120666,78.77375565610859,6.019478560655031,22.74100409394527,7.07126945348624,0.7701465632406803,856,27,174,10,21,279,132,221,0.261,0.642,0.096,-0.9923,3,0,4,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,2,15,22,11,3,9,1,21,13,4,3,1,31,52,17,0,1,4,0,3,2,0,0,5,1,1,2,7,13,5,3,6,3,4,7,3,16,1,0,16,6,24,6,19,33,8,35,0,2,2,1,3,12,6,0,19,115,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20735070131087685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059137059128011676,0.0,0.16509858222618726,0.0,0.0,0.08579842425979861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16711101675447776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0810403162545739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06407490902389723,0.0,0.0,0.09269825238497456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14715516361491918,0.06930474101139121,0.0,0.10627090559220363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08968518810661358,0.05068428975861409,0.0,0.16540091165566367,0.0813682983777075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17157317036108896,0.0,0.0,0.4788918281528373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09731003157075163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05331475718296442,0.15815397005744167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06852180076950172,0.0947894352479455,0.09723059640896656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06475565488024303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1031074343582906,0.2139429368692772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09103833485016896,0.09505026933009003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08470634059006428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0986951531250065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16569387904662775,0.0922797604835735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07730527747016648,0.0,0.1012037226425056,0.0,0.3983219530525264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09594644709812196,0.0,0.06866494775686137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2222517482314433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07294026537650232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09531290190353274,0.0,0.056567945849518235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08378643282867845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07700288656043723,0.15563288715941453,0.0,0.08722461912896523,0.08993025095623505,0.17507483653160474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,TheDud3_,2019/03/17,Blacking out for the first time I’m in college (18M) and last Friday was my first time blacking out. My friends tell me that I was unconscious and pale and unresponsive. They tried snapping their fingers at me and one even said they slapped me like 5 times to try to wake me up. This was without success as I was completely unresponsive. They took me to the hospital but decided not to admit me because they saw I was still breathing (kind of weird logic but I’m glad it worked out). I was in this state for about three hours until falling asleep. When I woke up and they told me all this I was worried and embarrassed. The next morning I kept throwing up and couldn’t eat the entire day as my stomach felt horrible. It was something I never want to go through again. I guess what I’m asking is if this caused me irreversible damage or if I will be good as long as I don’t drink as much anymore. I don’t even feel like wanting to drink again. ,4.345850202429148,5.2300083947368465,4.704736842105267,87.36354251012148,70.31578947368422,7.740890688259107,29.878542510121456,7.882392219407189,1.7800607287449388,745,29,156,9,13,235,113,190,0.135,0.789,0.076,-0.8615,0,0,3,0,1,0,15.0,0,0,6,4,7,10,0,1,4,0,14,8,5,1,2,30,31,19,0,5,7,0,3,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,8,10,3,1,5,2,0,4,6,3,0,4,15,7,29,7,27,13,2,30,0,1,3,0,12,9,0,4,18,108,37,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15707363997625587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14806697255786466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09654896825241034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16270324178057094,0.0,0.0,0.1660618399309939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10214410317131847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3103106050220224,0.0,0.1620656204679603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20922130550093646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0800833376427026,0.11314903612582312,0.1520727721634481,0.0,0.0,0.2694414485104696,0.0,0.0,0.1223665176126888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09001285941411859,0.13284436819586012,0.0,0.0,0.17447702262816991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15597561209529207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16493179777060502,0.0,0.12910350006596608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.154756126012408,0.0,0.0,0.14016420544890965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11642992354932692,0.0,0.12215493794700445,0.0,0.16844239909190642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1073245993203528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506587543689396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12193117526373153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1264850799800347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13843395459014973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27706366642819064,0.0,0.0,0.151341997024189,0.17596963503409396,0.21506368069921275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18683710647127694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15267581549055567,0.0,0.11530490321823413,0.160845893662039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,N1kes,2019/03/17,"I think college turned me into an alcoholic I would get off at 11am some days and would stop by the 76 and get a 40 oz and a 24 oz Mike's harder. I would do this about 3-4 times a week. Most days I would go back several hours later and get 3 tall boys (24 oz Budweiser). Finish those. I would use alcohol to write papers that I would read over once sober.... I've had 9-12 beers or more a night for the past 2 weeks and yesterday I had a Mike's harder, 4loko, 2 12 oz double IPAs, shot of tequila, and 2 tall boys. This was over the course of about 10 hours..... am I an alcoholic even though I'm a great employee (graduated/got a job) and still get things done?",1.062738927738927,2.35750258741259,3.0029545454545463,94.75776515151516,79.06993006993007,7.004428904428905,18.909673659673658,7.793537801064563,0.2257184149184153,502,10,126,8,12,169,89,143,0.018000000000000002,0.948,0.034,0.4404,2,0,5,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,12,0,12,4,0,1,0,21,21,9,0,6,1,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,0,2,5,8,4,1,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,9,1,12,11,4,23,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,3,15,66,14,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4254287150184089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.102033524424844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17115335387301944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357920711494996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08764316056042243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2773086322166114,0.0,0.07541307966935534,0.0,0.10612754393332537,0.14629564522709074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2613537962904388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13167835758192362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12452436562104315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14131481969012605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1266714738113149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13272994678321431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14990649296177558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10596963006846774,0.11093815732345373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08815602257914665,0.0850249815308099,0.13037121850451008,0.0,0.07737496059204017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14433300917436048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11460504426857898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21287830643204608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5655722240434439,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,justbrowsing0127,2019/03/17,"Would AA be appropriate? Is abstinence necessary? A friend of mine in his 30s/40s has a problem with alcohol. He sometimes seems to recognize it, but other times he does not. His daily intake isn’t terrible - 1-2 drinks daily - and he doesn’t get withdrawal symptoms if he doesn’t drink. He doesn’t need an eye opener and it hasn’t affected his work life, to my knowledge. However...when he drinks even slightly above that 1-2 drink minimum, things get very ugly and he seems like he might be willing to get help. He is not Christian, so I don’t know that AA is appropriate. He is adamant that he is “not an angry drunk and is not a violent person.” Things got particularly bad this week, when he screamed at his girlfriend in a crowded bar during a celebration for her, then took a Lyft home and drove drunk to a hotel. He is blaming much of his behavior on some issues with anxiety, but as an outside observer it seems like alcohol is a problem. He feels terrible, She was heartbroken, and many at the event are angry/concerned as well. This happens rarely, but the events that have been out of control are (in my opinion) significant, and sometimes criminal. Many years ago he got drunk and slashed the tires on a car belonging to a man his ex was cheating with. A few years ago he got belligerent with his SO who was so terrified that she locked herself in a room an almost called the cops. After that happened, he agreed to not exceed 2-3 drinks in one sitting if he’s with her, though he gets argumentative if she asks him to stick to it. When you bring up these instances, he typically says it was a long time ago or it was an isolated event. He has generally stuck to responsible drinking, but there have been a few minor instances beyond that...typically just saying mean things. He has tried cutting ties with friends whose social life revolves around drinking. He has tried some things and is interested in counseling (for personal issues but not for drinking)...but I don’t understand how he denies being an angry drunk. Is this someone who could benefit from AA? And if he can drink responsibly sometimes....should he try to abstain all the time? Tl;dr: Is someone who can’t control themselves with alcohol only in social situations appropriate for AA, and should such a person be advised to stop drinking entirely?",6.086537422532972,7.231854585253456,6.4239710789766375,75.66112903225806,66.51152073732719,9.765008739869698,33.85952645796917,9.921728534948242,3.4193773399014766,1846,82,330,41,29,595,214,434,0.157,0.727,0.115,-0.9796,2,0,13,0,0,0,65.0,0,1,0,3,14,16,3,0,26,0,44,22,1,4,1,65,66,31,0,10,17,1,1,2,3,4,7,3,2,4,25,21,17,4,8,15,0,4,14,9,5,1,13,5,20,7,44,44,6,40,1,0,1,0,62,17,0,13,20,206,45,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1883055225983092,0.22702203498827825,0.07090566452896638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05416921019822502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0630356263424774,0.06619749074506116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059123123781963986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07230459869223092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15883815089754996,0.056535766404875565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06196602678798215,0.0,0.0,0.6242987461775357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046769124793023295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035803501016167916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1094147638360838,0.0,0.14798053770984165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1698989053266577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1252335295982969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04746223485983614,0.0,0.0710278809517802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1478138147357079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03891514744203278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10002993995781677,0.06918806430950937,0.0,0.0,0.06266433717598298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14357979985585184,0.0,0.07713249839859655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07511787887279436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05205326112541879,0.05250447934312856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04798247068535128,0.05385395126613636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854848398929224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13551059843784807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11262139678871648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19338741550099856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07959304538495153,0.0,0.1443630998096338,0.1199936215260584,0.0,0.14006516516802814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05920006183017153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07359836844927305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881712158665592,0.0,0.06957014955493697,0.0,0.1238690788184058,0.08138530885165424,0.0,0.0,0.07867215818185848,0.14422537079078754,0.0,0.0,0.07371537250196349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058425400509168175,0.0,0.0,0.0567992528771479,0.0,0.063666404825406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05155028924945627,0.0,0.0,0.05030116394064323,0.0,0.0,0.09119822266821956 alcoholism,octacatt,2019/03/17,drinking 1 to 2 pints a day ive been doing this for a 2 or 3 months now off and on throught the week. the past week ive drank 1 to 2 pints of 40% vodka everday. i know i need a break. is it possible i will have withdrawls? 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This is the first time I am actually trying to talk about this openly (even if it's on an anonymous forum) and not just having a monologue in my head. So that's a step forward right? This is kind of a venting post, but I also want to maybe ask for an advice, idk. It might be too long to read, sorry about that. Three years ago after I finished 'high school', I moved out from my parents' house to live on my own in a different city to study in university. Shortly before I passed my leaving exam, I went through the roughest period in my life (abusive relationship, depression, anxiety, insomnia which led into hospitalization in mental health clinic). Anyway, I was 'free' of my problems (not really but maybe you know what I mean? I felt better and hoped it would be okay forever) when I moved there and was out to live my best life. It turned into excessive drinking ride instead. It started innocent, it was fun and I mean, everyone had a night when they went a little too far with the alcohol. But it got worse over the time. Everyone in my surroundings was also drinking and partying a lot (with the difference they also knew when to stop, most of the time). At one point, I was falling asleep very drunk at least 5 nights a week. I didn't have blackouts at first, nor did I behave 'weird' when drunk but that was about to change. I never knew when to stop drinking even before it became a problem. I always drank until I couldn't take any more or the party ended (which was mostly happening in the early years before I moved). First thing that started happening was me getting suddenly very anxious and saying some depressing stuff when I was drunk (suicidial thoughts rants) even though I wasn't thinking about that when I was sober. But at least I remembered it even though I couldn't control it. The next thing that started happening was blackouts. Memory loss. Which happens to people all the time. The trouble is that usually, when I have a blackout, I do something incredibly stupid. The first time the blackout happened to me was when I was at a party. I drank a LOT and the last thing I remember before it gets blank is taking like a tenth shot of herb liquor. The next thing is me waking up from a drunken sleep/passing out, idk. There's a guy on top of me, having sex with me. I don't know how that happened (maybe I initiated it and then passed out or he saw his chance and he took it). I didn't know where I picked him up at all or who he was. I never had this issue before. This experience didn't stop me from drinking more and it became more usual. It escalated to the point where I was just doing really stupid shit for which there is no apology even though I don't remember it or have it very hazy. I'm talking mild drug usage, being very rude and other things I'd rather not mention here because I am just so ashamed. I usually vomited all over the place. Because my tolerance increased, I could drink a lot and be aware of my surroundings until I wasn't. The blackouts started to happen more often until it started happening every time I drank (because it never stayed at one beer or one shot). Each time I did something embarrasing I told myself I'm done with alcohol. But each time (so far) I did it again. And the blackout and stupid behavior happened again. And I told myself I won't repeat doing that but I ended up in the same position some time later anyway. Endless circle. I don't think I'm physically addicted to alcohol. I never suffered withdrawal symptomps even after going weeks without a drink (after the blackouts and shameful situations started to happen more than often and I tried to quit I went even weeks without alcohol but...). But I have some mental issue with it. I don't believe I can have fun without it (because honestly I don't, when I go to a party and don't drink, I don't have a fun and struggle with communication). I also have a hard time saying no and my friends and acquitances keep pressuring me and shaming me when I decline a drink and I am not good at saying no. Oh, what now. How do I get rid of the shame I feel? I am scared I'll drink again because I miss it and I'll screw up again and maybe worse than before. I don't even know if I have a problem. I just feel lost... Do you think I have a problem or am I exagerratjng? What should I do now? PS1: I am at 15 day without alcohol now. I miss it but I don't physically need it. Ever since then my tobacco usage increased by 50%. I am a petite woman, 22, from a country where drinking is a social norm and at my worst, I could do about 15! shots of hard liquor (vodka, whiskey) without puking. It's terrible. PS2: This post was triggered by me seeing a young woman in the pub today who got very drunk, passed out on the table, then fell down from the chair, peed herself and people were taking shots of her to share online. Poor thing. I don't want to end up like her but I worry it will happen if I won't stop. 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Everywhere I glanced people were getting shitty. I am not supposed to drink because of my pancreas but beer is like an old friend to me. My favorite thing in this world to do is drink a few beers and listen to music. I am smoking weed to stay sane. It has been a week for me with no booze. When do the cravings get better? I've decided to replace my beer habit with coffee drinks. I gave up cigarettes this past Wednesday. iwndwyt,3.063714285714287,5.404751038095242,3.788809523809528,86.60035714285715,76.71428571428572,6.104761904761905,28.595238095238088,7.1686216300943375,1.6886952380952382,429,19,79,5,10,136,75,105,0.046,0.8140000000000001,0.139,0.9062,0,0,8,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,5,0,10,8,0,0,0,8,16,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,4,4,8,0,1,7,1,1,2,0,0,0,5,2,11,3,14,11,2,11,0,0,1,0,3,4,0,1,6,52,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13676612736870308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19842579920906825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6593542193949087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17333789305473848,0.0,0.2344348579699801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10960964381290353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19074055294566808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2354252448698055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2141744289345264,0.31108220451566204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14372903105949272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2391350295830942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490530205810349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17996589263872598,0.0,0.0,0.2079814643801583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,crazy_cat_lady_4444,2019/06/12,"Question and possible trigger Does anyone else have voices that only alcohol silences? I don’t mean a voice telling you to have a drink. I mean the gut wrenching feeling in your stomach with the voice telling you to leave town, to pack up and go. No thoughts for anyone you love, to disappear. To make life easy for everyone. I have a voice. It goes away with alcohol. I drink to be at peace. I want to be at peace all the time. I want this to stop. But is drinking to silence it making it worse? Am I stuck in a loop? Is it the voice of alcoholism or something else???",0.820375939849626,3.2598321403508805,2.076942355889724,94.67526315789476,87.24561403508774,5.3624060150375925,23.932330827067666,6.868970318607317,0.8564857142857152,440,18,94,6,14,140,69,114,0.10400000000000001,0.737,0.159,0.8205,0,0,7,0,0,0,17.0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,8,0,9,10,2,3,1,18,20,4,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,6,4,6,1,5,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,6,11,1,20,16,1,11,0,0,0,1,8,7,0,2,2,60,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4643663217180964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20254950299720914,0.14840460587498985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13608094787508696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1267495286636208,0.0,0.0,0.4256610486153177,0.0,0.0,0.2419886908642843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13839980997594492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07323491780155376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08231530496002594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15336351979097024,0.0,0.0,0.1023040236651296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13072279433841572,0.0,0.19336222851481027,0.0,0.0,0.3155441238832398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11015653727503848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16328413752623908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16225275590627306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1115040888745964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1210918356844966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531912276330421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11498593626171175,0.0844567481573349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17085951381986322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14760324939168165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,woodstein72,2019/06/12,"Resources other than Adult Children of Alcoholics? My mom is an alcoholic. At 25, I’m just starting to realize all the negative effects her drinking had on me. I want help, and was initially intrigued by ACA. Until I learned it was a 12-step program. I hate 12-step programs. I hate their non-scientific, non-medical approach to treating addiction. I hate their propaganda about addiction being outside of your control. I hate their forcing religion on you. I’m just not open to their methods. The problem is, any research I do about resources for children of alcoholics always leads back to there. Have any of you encountered programs targeted toward children of alcoholics that DO NOT utilize the 12 steps? I’m looking for a good CBT therapist in my area but I’m also interested in something specifically targeted at people like me. Thanks.",5.175698198198198,8.255745533783788,5.79854054054054,71.06357657657658,73.39189189189189,9.081801801801802,40.27207207207208,9.558583805096642,5.0150445045045045,681,45,99,19,15,220,95,148,0.1,0.794,0.106,0.4329,0,0,7,0,0,0,22.0,0,3,4,3,7,10,4,0,6,0,9,7,0,3,1,15,21,4,0,2,5,1,0,1,0,0,6,0,0,4,3,2,5,1,3,1,0,3,3,5,0,0,3,1,19,5,23,17,1,15,0,0,1,0,14,9,0,0,4,71,22,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2957448338279381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5798504422842037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10847477697506483,0.112867006320102,0.0,0.0,0.18448568570230509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10430217009975767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15213672769854408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13287987078259048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1137720863829839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.535683046365751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09091958147375556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06626900175030648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1139071323519768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15067034858948006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15886508085416956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09403874713216953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12979337078850142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10442568543388443,0.0,0.0,0.09600980386013587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12488313831657305,0.0,0.15749360217784972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08000658103043061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,EatingMyL,2019/06/12,"Cold Turkey after citation So I made the mistake a few nights ago of driving drunk. Ended up hitting someone's fence. Barely and damage to it, but they want a new fence so it's gonna run me $1000 for the spool, not including paying someone to do it. They're not pressing charges so I'm not gonna argue about just fixing the fence. I got cited for public intoxication. Anyways, this happened 3 nights ago. Decided my best bet is to cut alcohol out of my life. I was doing 8-13 shots every night for the last 54 days. How dangerous is this gonna be for me to to cold turkey? I went cold turkey off 5 Xanax a day for a month a little over a year ago and ended up having a seizure which led to me having 2 compression fractures in my spine. Need help because I definitely don't want that, or possible something worse to happen. I take kratom daily for back pain, not sure if that would assist with alcohol withdrawals.",3.118396396396399,4.747537740540544,4.591891891891894,84.10801801801802,74.29729729729729,7.095495495495496,25.30630630630631,7.793537801064563,1.4057279279279276,722,24,142,10,15,241,121,185,0.124,0.7659999999999999,0.109,-0.4138,0,0,3,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,1,1,8,8,3,0,11,0,10,8,1,3,1,26,24,9,0,6,8,0,1,0,0,4,6,0,0,0,8,4,3,3,1,1,2,4,5,6,0,0,4,4,13,2,24,14,2,27,0,1,0,0,4,7,0,3,16,84,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.383553797872902,0.30827619044870513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11090403079532866,0.0,0.08792131971133564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513605734920149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18603294295335865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554900870098423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12152006525704173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1153539727943403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25508437158755193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09667438418606028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11756676752336885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10187397279277532,0.0,0.14455643345557107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1364739915768275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1151230759662547,0.0,0.0,0.10694477878036017,0.0,0.13929831261453732,0.0,0.406050486566618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15347097695688794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1625977472625029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24441136203435254,0.11103536409746982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13593514604046025,0.0,0.10844307252606436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17014127928386122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1337027316310789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1469827761796895,0.10245691257827408,0.0,0.0,0.09287944448201828 alcoholism,yrg1983,2019/06/12,"Coming off a relapse and looking for some encouragement All I can do is keep trying — and I’m going to keep trying — but it’s hard not to feel like this is just never going to happen for me. Maybe I’m just one of those unfortunates who is incapable of being honest with himself, or maybe it’s just that alcoholism is a brutal SOB and sometimes it takes literally dozens of attempts. I am just so tired of this. My therapist and I have been discussing folding in naltrexone/TSM, maybe that’s next up for me. Sighhh.... once more into the breach.",2.9321698113207546,5.2046986320754725,4.3515471698113215,82.74392452830193,76.83018867924528,6.881509433962264,23.807547169811322,7.908726449838941,1.4202445283018863,429,14,80,7,10,142,72,106,0.21899999999999997,0.727,0.054000000000000006,-0.9662,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,5,5,1,0,3,0,10,2,0,0,2,20,21,7,0,0,7,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,9,7,1,2,1,0,0,3,2,2,0,2,1,3,7,3,15,19,3,9,0,1,1,0,4,4,1,2,3,62,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20164116706949695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16253081354344512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0954021013481812,0.13479278124103547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2144619889540239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1668487933279482,0.0,0.16901990792237764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33541428838675624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09217934749397264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584433876743321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5686622127510667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14552137951836264,0.0,0.20066295065264625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2009376717692848,0.12785421540739492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18660900056499788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14186361699182964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21907161870236497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2168595043208869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2562021971901265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ryarbles12,2019/06/12,"Surviving alcohol withdrawals by ""butt chugging"" enough to only stay not sick?? Ok. I have been drinking heavily, daily, for a long time. I'm tired of feeling the way I do and have tried to wean myself off by only drinking a shot or two when I start shaking (or other uncomfortable symptoms) I've been looking into plugging alcohol, but it is hard to find a good answer because most of what I find is about party's and how to get super drunk. I'm not looking to get super drunk. I just want to feel better while also reducing how much I drink. And suggestions on this? I've considered just using an oral surgeon and trying a little bit of beer to see how it goes. There is clearly alot of risks when plugging anything. And I know you are CLEARLY not supposed to put beer in your ass... But has anyone done this to wean off and feel better?",4.256454545454545,5.5311623575757585,5.219772727272732,82.12965909090909,70.87878787878788,7.4393939393939394,28.90151515151515,7.793537801064563,1.88969696969697,659,25,123,8,12,216,104,165,0.092,0.7040000000000001,0.204,0.9765,0,0,7,0,0,0,21.0,0,2,0,5,10,8,0,2,7,1,11,15,2,4,2,32,25,17,0,1,9,0,4,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,6,7,9,0,7,7,0,2,3,2,0,1,3,7,10,6,22,22,5,16,0,0,3,2,3,6,2,4,6,83,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30732748902057544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11498579081353502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10053867051800447,0.0,0.11832381038442401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08765074713986397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2543344596665008,0.15697731552332414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14714322793234538,0.0,0.4225672765010278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14856960513501788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21810790435852132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.262836006353249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15024473421917514,0.0,0.0,0.12060106220140406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12880421357204844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0790211479835619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1441115697291022,0.0,0.12724628291981374,0.2414884281496117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10569941837033536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21871180412922503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14454486842410205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11457900389410867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10177262890568403,0.15325698265744822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14944894075608628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08384290309642843,0.16526111185969902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19524281447165584,0.0,0.14045824719533756,0.0,0.0,0.12418513104820696,0.0,0.0,0.08480883986685639,0.11413081134688212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,redrum1529,2019/06/12,Wife is going sober My wife is trying to quit drinking. She has always had a drinking problem where she can’t stop once she starts. When we first started dating it was occasionally but now it’s every night she’s not on call. Her job is very stressful so that’s always been her way to wind down. I’m posting to see how I can be supportive and there for her when she goes from drinking every night to not drinking at all. I know it can be emotional during detox and we’re going to have to change a lot of our weekend plans (not going to bars) but any other tips would be awesome.,2.0670741023682204,4.0448416050420155,3.3047211611917504,90.6377387318564,78.32773109243698,5.335676088617267,21.742551566080976,6.1124844417494595,0.2280016806722691,457,13,95,3,11,148,80,119,0.069,0.846,0.085,0.4607,1,0,4,0,0,0,8.0,2,0,0,3,7,3,0,1,2,0,15,6,0,1,1,15,24,8,0,2,5,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,3,5,1,1,6,0,3,4,2,0,1,3,1,13,1,13,17,2,20,0,0,1,0,13,4,0,1,11,65,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2444966928203593,0.0,0.0,0.09990993271094736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1500206874550622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15542078179141894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5756986033030579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16526405830070173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475711252977164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12496919463034598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2504922967763781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14579440052510634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08074281964441854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12490524822702224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.275746987885903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1564639003734333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14070775412697714,0.0,0.0,0.14058160547730986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15626640145817722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11707539162027415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2079799959924495,0.0,0.0,0.12283083142398801,0.16829517540072522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667218978185751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0997483316683334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1212235308369749,0.0,0.11661743408700452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10436701580055817,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,need_help6284,2019/06/12,"Can’t stop my unhealthy habits I’ve (30f) been drinking for 10 years. It started as me just doing what everyone else at my age was doing. Getting drunk with friends typical college shenanigans. But the older I got the more I realized, that I have become an alcoholic. I don’t know the last time I went more than a day or so without drinking in excess. I smoke cigarettes too. Can’t seem to quit those. I have waves of wanting to quit and have quit before but lately it just doesn’t feel like a priority to me. I even went to the doctors and got prescribed to Chantix and have yet to start taking it. I have terrible sleep anytime I don’t drink enough. I know they say alcohol messes with your sleep but I can’t sleep well without it. I can usually fall asleep after a while but end up waking up several times a night I don’t and just lie awake not able to fall asleep unless I drink. It’s not healthy and I am fully aware that I need to make changes to my life. I can’t fully quit drinking. It’s too socially acceptable to go out and my bf likes to drink too but definitely is more in control of his drinking. He’ll go out and we’ll drink but there’s nights I want to drink a lot and he’ll be fine with just drinking one or two drinks. How do I get my shit together? TLDR; been drinking too much and in excess every time. What are tips to drink less and get my body to sleep on nights I don’t drink too much?",1.5706122448979618,3.540798272108848,2.9539795918367338,92.58566326530615,79.8843537414966,6.104761904761905,22.744897959183675,7.1686216300943375,0.6763142857142856,1108,36,244,14,28,360,152,294,0.063,0.857,0.08,0.5751,0,0,18,0,0,0,23.0,1,1,1,5,15,9,1,0,10,0,26,28,9,3,0,46,48,23,0,3,17,0,1,2,2,3,4,1,0,0,11,15,17,2,6,15,0,6,13,3,1,2,7,2,33,6,35,37,8,35,0,0,0,0,10,9,1,4,22,160,44,2,0.0590239843336477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12615737782561331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06518735341757917,0.05022506334607129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06556234058989771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06243954912397125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0662004173414443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03806558696280953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060413549025853386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8094944757403514,0.0,0.0,0.049306965118517135,0.0,0.052277730872898304,0.060987553922212875,0.0,0.03898478498392025,0.0,0.049730252484668315,0.056399946448080066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029844299951387824,0.04216674620150763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04560178388085253,0.0,0.09251278706764987,0.0,0.06708938101012946,0.0,0.09441374443040276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06487607635845744,0.04811242505817071,0.06658162523215112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041690385681449206,0.05767227465762266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05018008076281327,0.0,0.0,0.039398967871459536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08677883974382268,0.043765536493209904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1661700327083243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03999617933720063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.251117090978699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046938241391378636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05373321855153408,0.0,0.06668030178783191,0.06058727172104311,0.0,0.0,0.236266442996963,0.06016751896253503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08355495981227194,0.0,0.0,0.049346693821995545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0443786905934193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10325207976977537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05765785617361178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06500657989781658,0.0,0.06962775043737547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0530696504115024,0.10943164962657237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1137940292436872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0380095107335276 alcoholism,NWbySW,2019/06/12,"Drink less, not not at all I drink 4-8 drinks every night. Luckily I get zero hangovers and it doesn't affect my life on the day to day to much. I know my life could be better if this was better moderated however. Beer and whiskey is a hobby of my families and SO. It's fun and bonding. How do you drink less (home alone on a work day) without having to give up alcohol entirely?",1.7412115732368894,3.45951541772152,4.046871609403259,86.14962025316456,78.36708860759494,7.552260397830018,23.943942133815554,8.418075326091056,1.5156423146473776,294,10,63,6,7,102,59,79,0.021,0.8140000000000001,0.165,0.9127,1,1,7,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,3,2,3,0,0,3,0,7,9,0,2,1,13,10,7,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,3,4,7,0,1,6,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,0,7,3,9,7,4,8,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,4,43,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1831327336599451,0.0,0.17747825698175002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30310965680999025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13681776905690493,0.0,0.0,0.3315408953016951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6714739445967373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14437898504367253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16154384613603553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08952901994955402,0.16438503090956605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17188899754304812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0941754926856406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2420746032859013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259700099988764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16081063650674354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16518583382719304,0.0,0.12475280725548835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,johnnabear11,2019/06/12,"Is it common for binge drinking to cause health problems before age 30? I am deeply concerned about my boyfriend. We have been dating on and off for 3 years now and his alcohol consumption has been an issue for us. I rarely drink, other than a bit of wine here and there. My boyfriend drinks every single night and gets agitated if he can't. He refuses to prove to me that he could actually go a month without drinking, further signifying he is dependent on it. He drinks 4-7 beers on average a night, which I know isn't that much and says I am ignorant and everyone is ignorant when trying to discuss my concerns and the general guidelines that are set by people who research and have qualifications regarding this sort of stuff. I'm ignorant, scientists and doctors are ignorant, and he has it under control... Is it possible to develop health issues earlier in life or is it most common after 40 or 50 years old? I worry so much about him. That I'm just gonna find him in an alcohol induced coma one day. He already seems to be developing symptoms similar to arthritis and he is only 26! People think he is in his 30's or 40's because he has aged so much in the last few years. I feel like I had a coworker tell me once that her friend died from liver disease due to alcohol consumption in his early 30's but I would think the level of consumption would have had to be insane, right?",6.701776960784315,6.367970819852943,7.576852941176469,73.03775490196078,65.06617647058823,11.223921568627453,35.41274509803922,10.793553405168565,3.842260980392157,1101,47,206,27,15,371,159,272,0.071,0.914,0.015,-0.8964,0,0,10,0,0,0,23.0,2,0,0,1,9,7,0,0,9,0,28,17,1,4,1,42,38,19,1,5,7,0,1,1,1,3,9,1,0,0,15,12,10,6,8,7,0,1,3,5,0,1,4,2,21,2,32,28,7,34,0,0,0,0,24,13,0,8,20,135,36,2,0.0,0.0,0.10161331413277376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3338415449787357,0.0,0.0,0.11490716647405436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06347509174868865,0.0,0.08860474133234095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1136801434151621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10696751489701173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11678772437208915,0.08313724966889262,0.0,0.0,0.06715355366032197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1080677934047975,0.0,0.0,0.1065787980698118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5100260127293545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08773181882190127,0.09949818543296901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052649938123858236,0.07438862972192359,0.0,0.0,0.09517054995269766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08044856483734655,0.0,0.05440226467266532,0.0,0.0591779965471599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2213650971719943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21736388841337465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05722569153163614,0.08487772225944469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07354825645310585,0.0508713841023567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08311349094100469,0.0,0.2296368427345208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19543300740584546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10926418189631383,0.11089227423612376,0.07055941572509314,0.07919357385209234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14437764564162509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11738798916466665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.099635851528289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0889242239110516,0.0,0.08280628156546478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09479366701655416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11920095169428135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10822823005832087,0.0,0.0,0.09101193029604623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13344125675581536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07069566413441403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12525243182874715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10037509018981093,0.0,0.0,0.10574642114151084,0.0,0.147938223574113,0.0,0.0,0.2011638796853696 alcoholism,brooklynnhype,2019/06/12,"I don't know if this is what alcoholism looks like. Hey Reddit. ​ I'm feeling a bit lost with my boyfriend. I don't know if I would even call him an alcoholic? He drinks kind of heavily one to two times a week, but it always seems like it's an accident, he never means to get that drunk. He gets home, driving tipsy, or sometimes black out drunk, and I can always tell he had too much to drink. I can see it in his walk, his eyes, and even his breathing. He always takes a three hour long nap, and I always cry because we usually had plans that evening and he just... forgets. ​ It's usually because he gets caught up with friends or coworkers after work and talks to them, and drinks while he's still at work (clocked out, he works at a brewery though). I'm to the point where I have massive anxiety attacks if he isn't home in the evening. I'm always afraid he'll come home and stumble into the bedroom, and not talk to me. Because he's so drunk that he can't. He says he's getting better, but I don't feel that way. Says he drinks low alcohol percentage beer, and doesn't get black out drunk anymore so, it's okay if he comes home tipsy, he thinks. I'm tired of worrying about him being out with friends, and being worried at him at any social events with drinking. Worried about him getting pulled over when he drives home, worried about him pissing in my bed in his sleep. It's hard, he's not violent or abusive to me. Most things that I have read on spouses regarding alcoholism seems to center about abuse, and I don't have that. Because of this, I almost doubt that's he an alcoholic? I've listed this all out, sometimes I feel crazy and that it's so obvious. I figured I would post here, because I'm so unsure. Will this just get worse, even when he wants to get better? Are there any good resources for coping with a spouse who is probably an alcoholic, but who is also not violent or abusive? Thank you.",3.9015611192930777,5.037882278350517,4.381811487481592,88.32824742268043,71.57731958762886,7.501620029455083,28.290132547864513,7.83500028581142,1.5982287187039763,1516,56,316,19,28,479,183,388,0.166,0.718,0.115,-0.9637,0,0,12,0,1,0,61.0,1,1,1,7,24,18,4,2,12,1,23,21,4,0,3,62,55,32,0,7,16,2,4,2,2,4,7,2,7,0,23,26,16,0,10,12,0,7,11,8,0,3,4,11,30,10,40,45,4,44,0,2,5,0,48,21,1,13,16,182,53,4,0.0,0.21910366411528415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3952531635406881,0.061724599155046224,0.0,0.0,0.049294318715319724,0.25645142295457524,0.13357608568952198,0.14980122503942786,0.08383604412954171,0.0,0.047155228122359186,0.0,0.06113134984766225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07012558363543607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18787903420844956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10903298421819746,0.06729605256209789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06294239537831595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10619659857411848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06770978978212795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3019237690026881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2035666332061792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09350268825140663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09524743170085302,0.0,0.2576392008612159,0.0,0.0,0.051701581173648176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055218265759400996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30915495325411946,0.0,0.060704009356006026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06418965927091817,0.06775260884658156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060229398655073575,0.0,0.0,0.05455038210556625,0.05176295026997077,0.0,0.06728847849479751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06714516501760823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04531325810178205,0.0,0.047541371349047686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04176956508618787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05827070847879904,0.0,0.059035078716780126,0.0,0.06645946848832382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061657722563911235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09803886077712598,0.0,0.0,0.049119929480671225,0.11223137843524576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06168555804569549,0.0628352792948535,0.0,0.0,0.121929132644262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04922661546480928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0463463919779334,0.09908946867021992,0.05387698731706412,0.05675078939098994,0.0,0.0,0.040951569063767,0.039497090515607285,0.06056201042556818,0.0,0.0359433870742794,0.07084730958167389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060214340871647336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357777975331165,0.0,0.03635748341334392,0.048927789685723484,0.0494447254593577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13462623732760445,0.2503978795805676,0.06281748755496988,0.08757605480166085,0.0,0.14980122503942786,0.0 alcoholism,CoughlinClover,2019/05/12,"Sobriety media and drinking I’m an alcoholic and am planning to make a change. I did this whole cliche dance today of listening to tons of AA stuff on YouTube and thinking I ought not to drink, then going to the liquor store and thinking I’d moderate, and now I’m getting guiltily hammered with my head full of what the A.A. literature talks about, feeling more poisoned and degenerate than before I ever supposed I had a problem.",12.305555555555555,8.364952888888894,11.110370370370374,63.4966666666667,57.148148148148145,13.762962962962966,49.22222222222222,11.20814326018867,5.573103703703703,348,18,59,6,3,111,61,81,0.107,0.8740000000000001,0.019,-0.7778,0,0,3,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,1,0,5,0,4,6,1,1,1,15,13,7,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,3,7,4,0,3,4,1,2,1,2,1,0,2,2,5,0,11,10,4,8,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,4,42,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.261891783755416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2085257581544447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2592381861259767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4801258234430749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22166840567001744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12390836087295057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12803235262135584,0.0,0.13927174111114354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2514995433205461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16357768609049167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2344867911906722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28053203983237285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19696781780785586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3140457137583423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2322857169270885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27359778322469364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,LenaDontLoveYou,2019/05/12,"Well... I have been sober for 52 days. And suddenly my sweet tooth is out of control! Is this par for the course? I'm trying to lose these wine thighs!",-0.08241935483870932,2.1938329354838717,0.7550806451612893,103.45262096774192,90.61290322580645,4.390322580645162,14.201612903225806,5.985473137389443,-1.0717806451612906,115,2,28,1,4,35,28,31,0.081,0.8109999999999999,0.10800000000000001,0.2225,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,0,1,0,4,3,2,1,0,3,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,2,2,5,4,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,16,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5476146903922691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3148813173144287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5462276571159937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3314901838801061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4389960267082327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,olivegirl9,2019/05/12,"Dating an alcoholic. Seeking support and advice I (23 F) have been dating my boyfriend (36M) for over a year and at first his drinking was up to 15 beers a day, beginning in the morning and ending at bed time. I told him at that time that if he continued to get trashed and drink so heavily, it wasn’t going to work out for me. When he saw that I was serious after a few times of him testing me, he cut back considerably. Promised not to get drunk and had only been having 2 beers at night to relax, enjoy himself, etc. and some when we’d go out to lunch and over special events like that. After a pretty big fight we had, one night, I found him passed out in his truck, drunk at his parents house in their driveway. (They know about his problem but also know there’s nothing they can do about it as he’s a grown man). He lied to me for 3 days and claimed to have been just tired that night when I found him, even though he walked out of line, but then admitted later once I found a beer in his truck from the night in question, that he had been in fact “strongly buzzed” because of our fight earlier that one evening. We moved forward from this, after a long drawn out conversation which he professed his love for me, his having never felt this way about anyone before, him knowing that I’m the one for him, not wanting to be with anyone else, saying he’d be devastated if we broke up, etc. but I told him that if it happens again that I would seriously be done, for good. At that time he said he will do his best to not let it happen again, but is a self admitted addict, so there was never full confidence. But he said if it does happen again, I can go and he will understand. A couple nights ago, I found a beer he had been hiding from me, and he admitted on the spot that he was hiding it. His excuse was that he has cut back considerably, which is true, and that he wasn’t getting drunk and that he is trying his hardest. Regardless, on the spot, I packed my bag and left the home we share together upon hearing this. As I was leaving, he cracked open the beer he had been hiding and closed the door behind me. I’ve been gone since then and we have had no contact. I myself am devastated, this is the man I love with my whole being. He is great, funny, loving, caring, and exactly what I want in a man. Minus the alcohol, obviously. He’s the first man I’ve ever truly been myself around and know that he loves me for everything that I am. He’s opened my life to so many new and amazing things and people. He’s done a lot for me in our relationship, but this one thing he doesn’t seem to be able to budge on. Which is why this is truly the hardest thing I feel I’ve ever been faced with. We do everything together, and I’ve always thought we would be able to move past his problem and build a life together. I’m beginning to think he is never going to change. I’ve suggested that he cut alcohol out of his life completely, and go to professional counseling to him many times before but he is unwilling. I could be wrong, but I personally feel like he is afraid to live without alcohol in his life to some extent. He promised to go get help last time we had a break up and i was reluctant about getting back together, but the plans seemed to fall through and he insisted that he didn’t need counseling. I don’t drink at all and I encourage him not to, and get upset at times when he goes to buy it, so in this situation I do not feel that I am an enabler in anyway. I’m so conflicted, because he has come a long way by cutting back on his drinking so greatly, and making the true effort not to get drunk, I know he doesn’t hide his drinking super often, but the fact that he does at all really breaks my trust. I feel like I can’t be away from him a lot of the time, in fear of what’s gonna happen. And for this he calls me crazy even though he knows what he has done. Any opinions, thoughts and support would really help me at this time.",6.319326853417053,5.03838423019802,6.743625935764309,81.81499396281096,66.22772277227723,10.11064960154552,30.845930934556872,9.114032605525557,2.2349396522579084,3070,90,669,45,41,1003,304,808,0.08900000000000001,0.757,0.154,0.9959,1,0,14,0,2,0,88.0,11,0,3,9,35,42,6,3,34,0,77,30,1,1,13,131,143,60,0,14,22,1,5,3,0,6,10,4,4,6,46,51,19,1,27,15,1,15,18,15,0,6,42,10,85,27,100,83,13,119,0,1,1,4,114,47,0,13,58,443,131,3,0.1044635001715779,0.0,0.0,0.056940317289386776,0.0,0.05104026167627455,0.04630029496758791,0.2232794246087338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041769711672793884,0.04346100026963663,0.0,0.0,0.03551938116136583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0730433082173271,0.05351760042554731,0.0,0.04649733135043324,0.0,0.0,0.049073448569671184,0.16065196696979808,0.0,0.06367998010944023,0.0,0.08889074454566871,0.0,0.05481399927213712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05333445669734314,0.0,0.0532537502761249,0.0,0.05525426590785791,0.04499302778368455,0.05476399621431861,0.0,0.0,0.04170280230731625,0.05779343800616124,0.0,0.0673703155609204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0914167129672528,0.16035364444216516,0.0,0.2558361512456844,0.0,0.0,0.043632924964893516,0.0,0.046261827371229386,0.0,0.11650441637049296,0.1034957349668892,0.09449321655344473,0.0,0.0,0.0938850581088388,0.0,0.0,0.058775240137417424,0.10563976892746488,0.07462874539536954,0.050150671114572214,0.0,0.0,0.08885659988074038,0.0,0.2290776720478813,0.0,0.0,0.19102253543688502,0.0,0.17810704352944165,0.043809513853361834,0.0,0.11517137772771692,0.0,0.0,0.1847534564114381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0588689784346526,0.0,0.0700196821689311,0.0,0.052392704052637344,0.0,0.0,0.06026842682999546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17223122321326154,0.04257584759873696,0.0,0.055305881671505935,0.05674994929624785,0.053410503272057035,0.1475713190478231,0.07655338429293472,0.0,0.04612159225577348,0.09244691037720364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08881113219575805,0.188564774864399,0.0,0.034865098768450516,0.1059095929792906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1110281685610787,0.0,0.0387291808625103,0.12085303695424444,0.05044574970949084,0.0,0.2450797958986296,0.0,0.05011777290540434,0.0,0.0,0.05562510918145178,0.14157434250579026,0.0397245995930436,0.0,0.0,0.05799717725938727,0.0,0.04986111560259896,0.036210918918823116,0.04560674950239213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05313846749035897,0.0,0.09995746156033973,0.0,0.0,0.0585115138936477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06692199315071097,0.0,0.0,0.056077352405345074,0.0,0.0,0.09936871056400544,0.041536784097160766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0950996471815226,0.054489106660897485,0.0,0.0,0.04320664341897699,0.058710675520967814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11854394204622233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10410136159223063,0.03346799642934182,0.102634858528415,0.08293235045003164,0.27411078160468,0.060032713122780225,0.0,0.09981935109889396,0.0,0.03546192972612881,0.0,0.0,0.05437509389090814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061615278957158875,0.08291826406050422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04713103032340008,0.058314883667452334,0.0,0.050349543188352136,0.0,0.038025336139595516,0.0,0.0,0.11131180997647074,0.05710721924131524,0.0,0.033635534570053895 alcoholism,281274,2019/05/12,"Liver cirrhosis with kidney failure (so called HRS) My dad has been an alcoholic since 2001. During this 18 years of being intoxicated every fucking day he lost his family due to divorce, his father (September 2017) beloved mother-in-law and father-in-law. I've always believed that any addiction is purely psychological (except for the physical part which is curable) and never got an answer why he started to drink. Few days ago he started to feel bad. His aptetite got lower (and believe me, dude's a vaccum when it comes to bbq and fatty foods) and he became to feel very bad. He is now in a hospital since monday. Due to highly developed cirrhosis his kidneys have failed. Also, he can't piss (so he has a Foley catether attached). His diuresis is low (due to the fact that he refuses to drink for most of the time) and his piss bag is filled with blood. He barely stands and tends to cry sometimes (first time I've seen my father crying when he thought I wasn't looking at his face). But after all that, he acts like nothing has happened when he sees me, like: HOW YA DOIN', WHAT'S UP LITTLE FELLA, WE GETTIN SOME PIZZA WHEN I GET OUT OF HERE. And you know what? Even though I have medical knowledge and I know how this is going to end, I still do have this fucking hope that his liver will go into some magic backup mode.",4.0732490272373525,5.7135123073930005,5.032394941634242,81.87007101167319,71.84046692607005,7.31898832684825,25.690466926070037,7.908726449838941,1.5500569649805445,1041,33,192,14,20,340,161,257,0.1,0.84,0.06,-0.8923,1,0,3,0,1,0,40.0,1,2,0,3,14,12,4,0,8,0,18,18,8,2,4,35,40,20,0,1,2,3,2,2,0,1,4,0,0,0,11,15,5,1,7,2,0,5,3,9,0,1,7,5,20,3,24,31,6,36,0,3,3,2,29,8,4,4,24,113,31,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.138483126902092,0.0,0.0,0.11260579372984768,0.13575808128874214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1015870749867682,0.10570041584144396,0.0,0.0,0.0863858018889198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2121320561200324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2862420848723352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12971340320312855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10942642178495036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2790763589475335,0.16384966581483898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24888509151811555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11251223764723822,0.0,0.0,0.08390313273928339,0.0,0.10702954953067488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11975402844231504,0.0,0.12846192489532005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10805296126850493,0.1536070399015882,0.0,0.0,0.2348772197132684,0.06636873553464226,0.0,0.14438990089623435,0.0,0.2031974508676712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11233356946271436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13421579433762384,0.0,0.1261709801014796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1396264221683587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12412238564277785,0.12731897338751802,0.0,0.0,0.10667449815018236,0.0,0.13866992969459885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12797091006808975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09797455329692097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12189018670261227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375627764443452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10122768890093076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21016360176548876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256374392000146,0.0,0.17982715274808153,0.0,0.10144755028360368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12480784104111392,0.10084885155532106,0.14814622265419308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1048143226104969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11462620448935068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08180414553384797 alcoholism,sugarcanvas,2019/05/12,"I got drunk and punched my ex in the face. I just turned 21 but I’ve been drinking very heavily for the past year or so. Basically I drink whiskey nearly every night. I’ve been to the bar twice. This was my second time. I drank a lot of tequila and beer. My ex boyfriend I’ve been friends with agreed to come pick me up. Everything was fine except I was crying for hours. And then when we came back, this happened. He was suggesting to me that he and his friend go and get my car and bring it back. We hadn’t even asked his friend yet but was asking me. I don’t know what I was thinking, I thought they were going to take advantage of me somehow. I freaked out, I argued with him and wasn’t making sense. It ended with me hitting him in the face and running out the door with no shoes down the road. He actually came and picked me up. I realized I was wrong for doing it but I don’t remember much except that I came back and fell asleep. I don’t know how he’s forgiven me. He’s upset but he’s talking to me still. I feel like a piece of shit. I don’t have any idea how I could have acted like that. I’ve never been an angry drunk. And what if the roles were reversed? What if I was a guy and I just punched my ex girlfriend in the face .... when she was just trying to help me. I don’t know why I’m coming here with this. I just need to get it off my chest. I feel scared of myself now. My drinking is extreme and no one really knows. I just turned 21 and now I can buy as much as I want. I’m slipping really badly. I end up drinking whiskey all night and half the time bawling my eyes out for no reason. The thing is I haven’t committed to stopping. I know I should. But I haven’t. And I’m afraid for myself.",-0.060428817603394684,1.9775791222826091,1.7626617179215285,98.41171261930012,86.58152173913044,4.894591728525981,18.21474019088017,6.219705907916566,-0.3706910922587485,1319,34,318,12,41,432,170,368,0.12300000000000001,0.768,0.109,-0.7172,0,0,8,0,0,0,41.0,2,0,1,1,20,15,2,3,14,0,32,19,8,6,3,74,66,32,0,6,15,3,2,2,4,1,0,0,1,1,14,31,11,1,13,11,1,12,13,8,0,4,23,3,58,7,38,40,5,46,0,0,1,0,29,13,1,5,23,214,72,0,0.0,0.0,0.09744284061968192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06790396346645343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1866995246473878,0.0,0.0,0.2303440742612779,0.08337369726196822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3426182121631306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1720303009215466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07972508168033184,0.0,0.1096846383777958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3912745796704523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17688154089374564,0.0,0.0,0.06595244977381008,0.0,0.0841310778188667,0.0,0.08974209779874581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10097809668003964,0.0713355277482481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23144024230775434,0.0,0.10433890974014574,0.0,0.1134983566858608,0.0,0.0798621531460518,0.0,0.0,0.09887089595621852,0.08830032748507541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06692985328673652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09833581429982992,0.0,0.0,0.11272271180631145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2743850049011332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09756698156132172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08489207411353478,0.0,0.0,0.06665314303398512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14680796808279473,0.0740402787544635,0.07701335569322923,0.0,0.0,0.1874119307592854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06766347460859504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09532168809174422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12793771820976682,0.1026662694945095,0.0,0.0,0.11311481565972155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09997100767676037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10249842334034748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07974332121240159,0.08348219304380204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07507758125630737,0.08025864925229595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0663383841275522,0.0639822410336732,0.0,0.07927271127785482,0.11645103096616274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0677941310304178,0.21722437843195452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08238978834109936,0.05889631962159679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0901024639668413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1091743831745266,0.0,0.06430253106728799 alcoholism,Brittababy2,2019/05/12,"Toxic family (Advice needed) Hi all, i have been dealing with a toxic family dynamic for some time now. Recently my mother and brother have said things that aren’t true about me, after a recent relapse I have been having a hard time getting back on my feet from. After everything was said I have decided to not be around them for a while. This is not the first time I have been thrown under the bus from the drama, my brother is also a addict/alcoholic. But for my own mental health I can’t be around the drama they continue to create. At Christmas my brother blacked out and threatened my SO mother, telling his whole family I cheated on him which I didn’t. I was sober at this time and again was the one in the wrong and had to explain myself on what happened. My brother gave me a black eye and I had a small scar when he threw his glass at me, which luckily it didn’t cause any further damage but yet I was in the wrong. Long story short. I won’t be attending Mother’s Day brunch, and advised my family of this a week or two ago. But instead of being supportive i feel like I’m being gaslighted for setting boundaries to not be around them when they cause so much drama for no reason, because they feed on drama. I know I’m not perfect but I was totally honest about relapse which is a really good place to start but now I feel like I’m constantly having to defend myself about my boundaries. I don’t think I’m wrong for finally drawing a line that I’m not going to put up with this anymore. I think after years of being blamed for anything that happens around my mom or brother it’s a good place to start to say enough is enough of being the scapegoat in the family. I have done a lot of work on myself and was advised my sponsor to stay away from them. I really want advice because I feel bad for doing this or my family is making me feel like I’m in the wrong? I don’t know what to do besides avoid the drama",5.319744245524293,5.2413106419437385,6.189872122762152,80.9631202046036,67.9002557544757,8.8460358056266,28.764705882352942,8.456263369488248,1.9741007672634283,1515,46,300,20,23,502,174,391,0.111,0.799,0.08900000000000001,-0.8654,1,1,1,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,6,3,18,18,1,1,23,0,42,5,2,4,4,50,71,21,0,2,13,9,5,3,0,1,1,3,0,0,16,14,2,1,11,5,0,4,13,8,0,3,18,11,49,10,55,44,9,59,0,1,3,0,29,25,0,5,31,230,65,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08855373995625236,0.0,0.15875591408488146,0.07200634762219316,0.08681119567658632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06496037187010313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05523984045935185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08055928801773594,0.0,0.0,0.06684616133243995,0.2892511166131796,0.0,0.0,0.07631916382392863,0.06246159656171961,0.06782446119706552,0.0990352823355583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16689315047390146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0877818133192195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05238725115134195,0.08374555615125115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0831274780738158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16786659864462328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07300515186185476,0.0,0.459463936031367,0.0,0.16429126271105227,0.1740942488803462,0.0,0.08898454957488862,0.0,0.06909501574469175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042439825553009035,0.0,0.046165428317177286,0.13626535579925705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14366454485955932,0.0,0.07276698758062157,0.0,0.0,0.08634471528006757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08928482593016869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11905603635811075,0.0,0.0,0.07188684618401099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0690596600095641,0.0,0.0,0.05422229866052915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08186170511236718,0.0,0.0,0.09513672226155497,0.0,0.0,0.05971410445769934,0.060231729889862334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05504420289326322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1697381346911214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0816595540919612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1040772700423072,0.08351895909927705,0.16041155263628945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1545384952871205,0.06459812225606561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11499138759904995,0.0865813985769962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09217993433368936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07099944217850856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05396624244691645,0.104099042427118,0.0,0.0,0.1894657113815112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07935084766106583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04791212667795583,0.0,0.06515857884971278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09069146941387364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059137108617455164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35525322534602144,0.0,0.05231007699637929 alcoholism,NicklausK,2019/05/12,"Relapse.. Last weekend I drank from Friday until Wednesday and had a serious hangover and withdrawal symptoms. Cold sweats, vivid dreams, no appetite etc. This continued to the point were I couldn't take it anymore so drank last night to make me feel better. Now while I didn't get waisted or anything I woke up this morning feeling completely detached from reality. And empty and depressed, almost as if I won't ever get better. More over my stomach is in alot of pain. I'm wondering if I'll be fine mentally? Should I go to a doctor? I'm so focused on becoming sober now and thank you in advance",3.0276315789473682,5.6872799210526335,4.158859649122807,82.16618421052631,78.73684210526315,6.60701754385965,30.552631578947373,7.793537801064563,2.449715789473685,477,24,82,8,12,155,86,114,0.115,0.7240000000000001,0.161,0.6633,0,0,0,0,0,1,13.0,0,1,0,3,5,7,0,0,4,0,8,8,3,1,1,17,22,13,0,4,3,0,2,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,3,5,3,0,3,2,0,2,4,3,0,0,6,4,9,4,13,12,3,19,0,1,1,0,1,6,0,6,11,54,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19989147163894908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19797026876805,0.0,0.0,0.16427097173676694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22046557357564786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3530968847252529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20929869001714974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1719331675620395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2043204247364567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2226300435794461,0.0,0.18056851040183813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2018686251794372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20858733680338898,0.0,0.11344914381233864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32543531315399393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13324848447870027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011708911744382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18733066896912107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21241068585170825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18870625051793588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2074825231140845,0.15009005525258728,0.0,0.0,0.18378408225125945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21648032422484925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,staycfox,2019/05/12,i could really use one on one advice. i’m very new to the idea of admitting i have a problem. i’m not sure how to feel about everything and i’d like to reach out and speak to someone who could listen to me and help me figure out what steps i need to take.,2.138684210526314,2.650796508771929,4.044692982456141,91.44493421052631,75.14035087719299,7.805263157894737,21.267543859649123,8.07648339933343,0.6251438596491221,199,4,49,3,4,68,40,57,0.083,0.804,0.113,0.1625,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,2,1,17,11,4,0,4,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,5,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,0,3,5,2,11,9,0,5,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,2,30,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2542311862165306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4154427328914249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2338204087040661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13154773743329826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17438377343377218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2936957257661827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12710395714088793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1929097788393084,0.0,0.2512699262705299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35259040462368146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24894370825190176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16666898977311062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2204377919781148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24520335876341096,0.0,0.19561244014186455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2246998758751452,0.0,0.2146641816437077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ahis162,2019/05/12,"I [28M] want to break up with my fiancé [27F] because of alcohol Hey everyone My fiancé use to be or is an alcoholic. I don’t know how to put it.. she was heavy drinker a year ago and something devastating happened to her that made her stop for almost a year.. then She went back to drink 2-3 months ago but only wine once every weekend.. today she was with her friends girls chilling and she came back late home drunk... it really broke something in me when i saw that.. she was telling me how was her night then after like 10 minutes she repeated the story as if she is telling me her night for the first time.. i don’t see my self struggling with this my whole life because i already went through alot with her and i think i have enough. We were planing our marriage next month or so and now i am totally turned off. I don’t know what to do. I told her that i am not happy seeing this, she cussed me and she said all kind of things and it is a compliment for her when i told her “you are drunk”.. i don’t know how to deal with this.",2.720833333333335,3.7303284907407424,3.6055555555555583,93.25750000000002,74.27777777777777,6.881481481481483,24.61111111111111,7.1686216300943375,0.7241444444444443,798,24,186,8,16,255,124,216,0.081,0.86,0.059000000000000004,-0.5479,0,0,7,0,0,0,26.0,2,1,0,1,9,7,0,1,7,0,18,7,0,5,2,33,36,19,0,2,5,0,0,1,1,0,3,1,1,2,11,13,6,1,4,5,0,4,5,2,0,1,13,4,42,5,23,22,5,32,0,1,3,0,32,3,0,5,25,128,53,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21626258562437456,0.2607272033386085,0.1221491712101262,0.0,0.134612174288789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18759604980298544,0.0,0.14872040405592407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1395169886581477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12575995801680406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11949769996781222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12604189026963744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10277662610880617,0.11656076370088987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10375937158419636,0.0,0.0,0.09424439365679656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10786988564151724,0.12985404042442875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12235971341227812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12702737300096406,0.20111734538313028,0.0,0.1376030577023742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08616077673917345,0.059595130862830935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11542403615566835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1947326362942983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12973117220479538,0.22894709583355735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12990878293151406,0.0,0.09277418887826304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12262742724794184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07814595611129979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11603454304003682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19441061612704907,0.0,0.127255723782076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18781820231189408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10198393225959508,0.0,0.12752397002153915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2132384636973325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08104062706552924,0.07816230380976627,0.0,0.0,0.07112974408435757,0.0,0.11562639438598077,0.23312152740177974,0.0,0.0,0.1326833632863088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1053548513269175,0.0,0.0,0.071949215175467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261604390930356,0.0,0.13619057428398992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15710715623021546 alcoholism,demigodtaylor,2019/05/12,"I think I need help. And by think, I mean I do. I can’t escape alcohol. My entire world revolves around drinking and I’m not sure what to do. I’ve always been a really high-performing student and person in general, but I can’t make it through the day without alcohol to keep me in line. I think I just want a good friend to help me stay on track. There’s a lot of other mental issues playing into my problem as well... but I think drinking is the one thing I may be able to control. I guess I’m just hoping that I’m not alone. Right now, it definitely feels like I am. I’m absolutely alone.",1.0357733333333314,2.902591184000002,3.387699999999999,89.32768333333334,81.16,6.406666666666666,22.416666666666664,7.492282038375204,0.8645066666666659,458,15,101,7,12,158,81,125,0.04,0.6940000000000001,0.266,0.9782,0,2,4,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,1,6,8,0,0,5,0,9,4,0,2,1,30,25,6,0,4,7,0,1,1,1,1,2,0,0,1,6,5,4,2,6,3,0,0,5,1,1,1,1,1,16,7,14,22,1,10,0,0,0,0,4,7,0,4,3,64,22,1,0.1499533874056133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32050913479888765,0.0,0.3106129715535225,0.0,0.0,0.12477323083687834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1334903067553105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1681854747707336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09670752954239747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2937944636133722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07582093826743894,0.10712672992467367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11585361513411632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12577378686555105,0.0,0.0,0.16519056212166353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20102118939247185,0.15843398680629595,0.0,0.14893754863492725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15651237733831966,0.0,0.1332854606680739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07325965064821445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12748500758837328,0.0,0.0,0.10009505050038303,0.0,0.0,0.16334319922658969,0.0,0.0,0.15111774509173664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11118853670878964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10161229613021247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1309335139107979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1434851400998477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09606397974796846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12805937351300495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15983035904132312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14132929300434513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09962236748498818,0.3843363031884495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08844639305013073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13482610395550504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14454971435990288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ShakeBelton,2019/05/12,"I'm 22 months sober. This is my third run at sobriety, my first lasted a month, second one 17 months. I know this one will stick but now I suffer from anxiety (sometimes severe). I think it's a combination of always having anxiety and noises I don't have my original coping mechanism (alcohol) and also due to the fact that now I worry about the harm I inflicted on myself from the decade of heavy drinking. I started drinking at age 14, a few beers here or there, but before I was 14 I was drinking nearly every night. I drank all through high school, and really hit the booze hard when I was 18. I suffered a lot of trauma at that time, some partly brought on by my drinking I'd say. Anyways, I was drinking 5 nights a week I'd say, 10 or 12 beers a night, and when I'd party I'd drink some liquor as well. I'd go on binders, drink alone, drink with people, I was angry, sad, suicidal (I think) however now looking back it may have been a front, a cry for help if you will. I drank, I took pills, did whatever drugs were put in front of me. I would drink 30 packs, fifths, I'd sleep maybe two hours after partying all night and wake up and start drinking as soon as my ass left the bed. I was court ordered to a mental health facility for a rather se ere self inflicted wound. And I repeated this behavior until I had my daughter at age 24. I slowed down exponentially and quit for 17 months. When i relapsed or fell off the wagon or started drinking again or whatever was around the holidays. It was nothing like before, i had/have a child that I love with my whole fiber, this time i drank in moderation, only allowing myself 3 drinks when I would drink. I thought I was cured. When i started noticing myself dreading the third drink because i knew it was my last i realized i wasn't well and that i needed to stop for good, AND HERE I AM TODAY. I know I would probably be dead by now if I continued drinking the way I did and I'm grateful for every single sover day I have but sometimes the anxiety and the guilt gets so heavy. The guilt I have from the pain and worry I put my loved ones through. I love my wife so incredibly much, she is a wonderful woman and she helped me beat my dependence. She is a wonderful mother and we have a great life together but sometimes the darkness comes over me, it's not a craving to drink although sometimes I find it sad I cant drink moderately the way others can, it's just a dark despairing feeling, that the addiction already beat me somehow. Its extremely tough to explain. Maybe it's just trauma I created for myself from all of those years. Anyways, I'm not really sure if anyone will read this or why I even typed it out. I am just laying here in bed and cant fall asleep and wanted to share my experience, maybe some good will come from it, maybe i will feel better, maybe someone else will benefit from reading it. Who knows,but if you have made it this far, good luck and goodnight. May you find peace and keep it.",3.7006635143380113,4.9325073305369145,4.739707138499084,85.20716900549117,72.17114093959731,8.035631482611349,26.80048810250152,8.507472789574589,1.747098657718121,2323,79,479,39,44,760,284,596,0.163,0.698,0.139,-0.9196,2,1,21,0,0,1,68.0,1,3,0,5,31,28,0,3,32,0,44,39,4,4,5,84,80,46,2,10,20,3,3,1,0,11,8,2,2,3,28,26,25,2,14,23,0,12,6,13,2,8,24,6,76,15,52,43,12,79,0,5,1,4,23,20,1,21,45,317,104,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0498967331740568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04891487439531488,0.0,0.047404559931278435,0.050509018722261656,0.03660274928750977,0.038084823498794815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1050431999593677,0.0,0.0,0.03200388260700551,0.0,0.0,0.040745556859247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03519478249936588,0.0,0.027901345894346025,0.0,0.07789485505844193,0.0,0.0,0.04048039499699379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07885467482050311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05027687823454983,0.029518264205579164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.762242324263162,0.05307938945450247,0.0,0.03823548090735237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030231063671167364,0.0,0.07712744496948394,0.0,0.0,0.0447724502887952,0.0,0.0,0.04628600272767728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08366703725923208,0.03893246706433113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0239132604971643,0.0,0.026012498848114445,0.11517067662883138,0.0,0.05046227152688816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04100148638537343,0.0,0.0,0.048652030071771664,0.0,0.0,0.06135816525853161,0.04835917434579053,0.0,0.0,0.04507484215445709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040683031211521926,0.0,0.0,0.0503086728819203,0.07461833050549074,0.0,0.0,0.04972991392522371,0.0,0.03232914339610337,0.022361213585694626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038435794235345634,0.0,0.0,0.03891254542485312,0.12392931808252405,0.04330926852632526,0.0,0.0,0.2299137052413283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04612602086804026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1461346928595483,0.0,0.0336466730634476,0.033938335709040014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1718105098734397,0.0,0.04391814554228076,0.05211015567350179,0.0,0.0,0.09304607256228756,0.034810619973657836,0.04870316809251963,0.0,0.0,0.04956512251329175,0.0,0.03173158572505351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04934847110694054,0.0,0.0,0.09202423259936776,0.0,0.04868268973027939,0.09156601488618583,0.0,0.05864366400956955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0727972702530319,0.0,0.04632231229495031,0.0,0.0,0.04774874017883795,0.05170777393775673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04580367625823427,0.0,0.03878129886481607,0.0,0.1810732591232445,0.0,0.12958672524003834,0.0,0.0,0.03826628884857672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05006563078922535,0.0,0.04313826886727592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058655931937225736,0.0,0.03633676065477333,0.05337843467202223,0.0,0.04338519713900428,0.0,0.050852844342699766,0.0,0.0,0.04471124624251265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.026996698296792576,0.07266117742294585,0.03671443153582254,0.0,0.0823065706920511,0.0,0.041300866525087125,0.05110126407696329,0.0,0.0,0.09927257263136596,0.0,0.09296457530270316,0.0,0.0975424083657594,0.0,0.0,0.029474779444574068 alcoholism,golden_pistachio,2019/05/12,"Being a Child of an Alcoholic In short, my dad is a heavy drinker, he is also a narcissist and abusive. My mom took us (the kids) away when I was 14, and we are NC with my dad since. I've decided to never drink based on this experience as well as affecting my (18f) mental health. The trouble is I am now pretty uncomfortable if anyone around me drinks, which I know is unfair to want everyone to be sober 24/7. I also understand that just because someone drinks, it doesn't mean they will treat me badly and it doesn't mean that they are abusing the alcohol. But I am still uncomfortable with it. It is especially affecting my close relationships where if they drink I am uncomfortable, but at the same time, I don't want to be someone who makes someone quit when there is no harm. And if this person stops drinking just around me, I am partially fine but I still know they drink so in a sense I want to know to ease my mind but alcohol, in general, makes me uncomfortable. So, what I really need help with is understanding that drinking can be done safely and responsibly or anything to ease my anxiety really. I'm not sure if this post is appropriate because in a way I want you to explain to me how alcohol can be safe and just be used as a fun thing or somewhat.",6.3008914285714255,6.0146735120000026,7.1390857142857165,75.68440000000002,65.88,11.142857142857144,32.65714285714286,10.7630783206399,3.3361942857142872,998,37,201,25,14,334,133,250,0.125,0.74,0.135,0.5543,0,0,12,0,0,0,26.0,2,1,4,1,18,10,0,0,11,0,28,12,0,6,2,56,46,26,0,9,14,3,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,3,14,13,11,3,9,7,0,1,6,3,1,0,3,0,31,7,25,36,2,23,0,0,0,0,18,12,0,7,8,146,45,0,0.0,0.2053033054602284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3703579367153764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13856847095911945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06627769719650341,0.0,0.0,0.06057918003335895,0.0,0.07129554602800732,0.15425206090435292,0.0,0.0,0.08139908633148919,0.0,0.07233896305655937,0.1056272251002834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08866057259039284,0.0,0.5941045799004074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08278615233364416,0.0,0.08474841505592301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.092091954120001,0.0,0.0,0.058071506281858684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14284164467685995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11566283875810432,0.0,0.0,0.18874797524884265,0.0,0.0,0.08731054780759094,0.0,0.0874795032192783,0.10146917079082572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06424084771828496,0.06682042988749014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07564880496982554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08297508520178783,0.0881418125043692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09214998885895152,0.0,0.0,0.11100481536805416,0.0,0.0,0.09301659823648732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07166770219464003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2202238379675469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13837815418131036,0.07243309912838558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0816551225402294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05755831966473063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050519211115770984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09625780879381346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1803860576712887,0.10421463322584566,0.0748272617140723,0.0,0.0,0.2044049300530408,0.06876907096854787,0.0,0.0,0.07789780735526636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,viviandaniels100,2019/06/06,"All I ever have is alone time I’m not looking for advice to meet people. I’ve tried it. I’m STILL trying it. I’m working so fucking hard to make any sort of connection with anyone and all I am is alone. I’m 19, dropped out of college (I went to a commuter school so it’s not like it was an orchard for friendships). My roommate only wants to hang out like once every two weeks or so. None of the people I meet at events or shows or anything really ever turn into anything, and I’m just so tired. The only friend I have lives on the other side of the country. We talk on the phone for at least an hour most days, but it’s just... different. It’s like “why the fuck should I take care of myself if I don’t have anyone in my life?” I would rather be fucked up by substances for an evening than fucked up by my own brain. At least I won’t really remember the first option the next day. It feels like whether I drink or whether I make good decisions in an evening, the result is the same! I’m still gonna feel alone, I’m still gonna be sad, I’m still gonna wake up tomorrow and do this same fucking bullshit all over! I KNOW drinking is not a good decision, especially long term for me, and especially cuz of medications but like... it really doesn’t feel any better than not drinking. Sorry, this probably is incoherent, I just needed it all out",2.8711367127496135,4.016368996415775,4.2251203277009735,88.43387096774197,74.08960573476702,7.321454173067076,24.755248335893498,7.793537801064563,1.1092388120839738,1046,32,230,14,21,346,142,279,0.158,0.7759999999999999,0.066,-0.9796,2,3,3,0,0,0,33.0,1,0,0,3,16,16,5,0,16,0,18,13,2,4,6,53,47,18,0,6,17,0,4,5,1,6,3,0,0,0,12,10,3,0,7,4,0,2,8,6,0,2,2,5,19,10,35,37,12,36,0,1,1,5,6,16,5,8,22,147,31,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09094391391187774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2891677746541239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12657738955299988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13014910418147788,0.0,0.15317228530602112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08231012484431922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10389345814724378,0.0,0.0,0.09488792419040043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12004092411298135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09723511969865004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2735104423484834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1229396415294436,0.16836870872641946,0.07841289128765958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14117228833893095,0.06648702390707767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07916267182670578,0.0,0.0,0.07190326900260631,0.43019432427971177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1561202284451988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08336967718406328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0916521660756243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051147143524296085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06573591560163343,0.2273389726120135,0.0,0.08217979253694822,0.08236129266037445,0.07815277055070259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1242457791865504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09375512746856936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06900793950817312,0.0,0.0,0.0989777217627856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.099113228941149,0.0,0.14156316785706827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1290417636849312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10034187704912972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17886314991421576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10542667434316816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09418868833562652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10418079377777956,0.0,0.0,0.2972934396778988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06997473905975643,0.07480366235488052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054268067569187145,0.10696673008383917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12637265477270238,0.10123008056360903,0.09091285449264068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054893278767621664,0.0,0.07465266689038448,0.0,0.0,0.08627396420562236,0.0839784167153246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0677538238005758,0.0,0.0,0.06611206742422239,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,platosleftnut,2019/06/06,Trying to stay sober Trying to stay away from the pills and booze. Girlfriend has seemed distant and cancelled our date tonight. Really just want to go to the liqour store and pickup a fifth of Jim Beam.,5.106754385964912,7.084824236842112,3.6342105263157904,91.56780701754387,69.78947368421053,6.119298245614036,23.19298245614036,6.42735559955562,0.4497087719298247,163,4,31,1,3,46,30,38,0.052000000000000005,0.907,0.040999999999999995,-0.1082,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,6,4,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,7,4,0,6,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,2,16,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3100774520320851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18756571308335024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21142798932930326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.300450214389675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7035438576362378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4481423308984521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19466238120760213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,glitchNglide,2019/06/06,Cbd oil? Has anyone tried cbd oil to treat/lesson WD symptoms? What symptoms did it treat (or not treat)??,0.9788333333333306,3.57450055,1.1700000000000017,98.54833333333332,93.5,2.666666666666667,16.666666666666668,3.1291,-1.079333333333333,81,2,16,0,3,24,15,20,0.0,0.677,0.32299999999999995,0.8439,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3045537186390184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.9054273429203056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2957166873130787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,baracuda2004,2019/06/06,"Released from detox today. I feel on top of the world. It has only been 7 days, and I feel like I could go run a marathon or hit the gym for a few hours again. If you need help....get help. At home taper is so dangerous. Detox and librium saved my freaking life. Not I am headed out to play some diac golf and go fishing after. I know there are probably post like this, but DAMN I FEEL GREAT !!! And just had to shout it somewhere!",0.2723595505617986,2.4122142696629254,1.8023483146067427,97.99251123595506,86.07865168539325,4.908314606741573,17.888764044943823,6.2581,-0.36118966292134796,326,8,76,3,10,105,71,89,0.09300000000000001,0.7190000000000001,0.188,0.8032,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,1,4,8,2,0,4,0,7,4,1,0,0,18,15,8,0,3,5,0,3,2,0,0,3,1,1,0,3,5,0,0,4,4,0,3,1,3,0,0,2,4,8,5,9,11,2,14,0,0,0,0,2,5,1,3,7,45,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1917726279684372,0.0,0.0,0.1549030490441884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3643427117182764,0.17159219326547034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12548966083508958,0.0,0.27301167553543193,0.0,0.0,0.2648109545592212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24650482276782704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3219893560173266,0.0,0.24093072855164324,0.0,0.23653933159088755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13200245733458818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16965370491184484,0.2346899628398705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17809826635476472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1826757540851249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2300361740225153,0.0,0.2589660620589374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2276725783538701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,sarahbrookex,2019/06/06,"When do the dreams stop? I posted a couple of weeks ago about wanting to get sober.. I went to the doctors, who really seemed uninterested and was no help at all. I reached out to friends and family, again receiving no help. I’ve spent more time sober the past few weeks than I have in years and I now know that I can do it, even if my journey is alone. But dear god, the dreams. They’re so incredibly wretched. Last night I dreamt that I was at a family gathering and for some reason my dad left early. The father of my child drove me home, but he hit what he thought was an animal on the way. I was drunk and didn’t realise exactly, just that there was a bang, but I told him to pull over to check. He didn’t, but stashed his car in some kind of wharf. The next few days, my mum and sister started to come around to my house which was pretty well empty apart from myself and a few broken bits of furniture. They were asking where dad was, and it was like the fog started to lift. I started to cry, and asked them to all come around. I thought I had some news, but couldn’t tell out of fear that I was wrong, and because I didn’t want the driver to find out. My mum and sister went to gather the rest of the family, but while they were gone, the driver showed up. He asked what was wrong and I told him my dad didn’t come home the night we’d hit something. I asked him to take me to his car. He seemed oblivious and agreed. We walked through docks, passing massive, white ships to a secluded part. He’d hidden his car under some scrap metal and when he pulled it away, I could see a massive, human sized dent on the bonnet. It was where my father had hit. All at once, all I could see was my father being in the middle of the road, then the horrible thud, and his body being thrown from the car. It was so vivid and I feel sick because I can’t put it out of my mind. This isn’t the first bad dream, they’ve been coming to me every night that I don’t drink, but this is by far the worst. I really don’t want to drink, but the dreams just keep getting worse and worse and holy fuck I’m not sure that I can take more than that. Please, please tell me they go away",3.250425122837002,3.86371110154526,3.862674642170479,93.39628070925016,72.64238410596026,7.169664601580862,21.235419782097843,7.1029339738359605,0.20940324716940809,1671,30,396,15,31,528,210,453,0.141,0.772,0.08800000000000001,-0.9877,1,1,3,0,0,0,53.0,2,0,4,1,16,12,1,1,28,0,40,7,1,1,6,69,80,33,0,7,12,10,1,1,1,0,2,0,2,2,19,29,3,2,8,8,2,20,12,6,1,1,31,5,53,6,52,39,17,72,0,0,4,1,47,26,1,7,25,252,72,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07389724932558951,0.0,0.0,0.08634007165121159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484234556251908,0.31173674000531604,0.0,0.15664664196019085,0.0,0.06960554569092678,0.10163596950062884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0910120117251286,0.09259872774494088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2872431801457551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13311890914893085,0.09224079675332553,0.09157155504582708,0.0537629512904196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08532669407493106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16333017202880667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0550612052352099,0.0,0.07023785406502911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2357647773997213,0.09380779491030536,0.04215139638200683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0761932818517768,0.07090946526591099,0.0,0.0,0.06440690085608924,0.07706877191280795,0.08710860844325413,0.0,0.047377742091248884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11175440490299747,0.0,0.167241989146285,0.0,0.0,0.09619098468022662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0740978470190083,0.0,0.08681088711415932,0.045814732038429264,0.06795287216754584,0.0,0.0,0.09057534418074717,0.0,0.0,0.040727490899520574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0841739817805824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08865867158704907,0.2346946963711207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08878005128957445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09027520211984973,0.07958047122413943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18301750739822056,0.0,0.0,0.07983976878001275,0.08481126488856497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08380395101015017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1068103608559174,0.08571218438068319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13286079725722846,0.1517831008089296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06417776095691766,0.0,0.0,0.1770166281232849,0.0,0.0,0.06969612471462026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0785696825433938,0.0,0.12535886458483786,0.0,0.1457278046699856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13236357527858802,0.0486102801174936,0.0,0.0,0.15931594994885642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14751092734561444,0.06617054639947327,0.13373931343448006,0.0,0.07495434216897237,0.1545587213524853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16991029031370006,0.0,0.1822911245606877,0.0,0.05368375052605519 alcoholism,lukestorm22,2019/06/06,"Drinking 12 hours after taking anta-buse? Any experience? Yesterday I started my antabuse whilst drunk. Stupidly. I took one pill at like 3pm. I didnt appear to get any symtoms/reaction but I did do a lot of crazy shit that is all a blur to me now. Its been about 12+ hours since I took the pill. If I have a beer now am I likely to have a reaction>",-0.11893333333333445,2.051380040000001,2.2920000000000016,93.47266666666668,88.6,5.466666666666668,20.333333333333336,6.937597516519254,0.4035333333333333,273,9,62,4,9,93,56,75,0.17800000000000002,0.7959999999999999,0.026000000000000002,-0.8836,0,0,2,0,2,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,2,0,5,0,8,6,1,0,1,6,14,2,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,3,0,3,1,2,0,1,5,0,9,2,7,9,2,12,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,4,10,38,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32239325275346137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2322108276529756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23187247140897185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12384461371129556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4668770630737135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23161340620736498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2015245540120152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1606257319754471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2433201128172809,0.1960835163360612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16777948297104273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1782260150546366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5267245647651528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,plip777,2019/06/06,"Finally Admitting There May Be a Problem I'm recently graduated, 23 years old, and about to start my career in a couple weeks. In terms of my family history, I feel a bit like the scene in the movie ""My Cousin Vinny"": my mother is a heavy alcoholic; my grandfather died at 42 from issues relating to alcoholism; I have 3 uncles and an aunt that are current alcoholics; and another 2 aunts that are recovered alcoholics. Due to this, I feel I have a genetic disposition towards addiction and instant gratification that manifests in many of my actions. As it relates to alcohol, I've always been the cliché person who can't limit myself to, or sees the point in, only having a couple drinks when I go out--I have a couple drinks, and unstoppable wheels are set into motion until I'm drunk. This has never been a problem before because, with school and work, I've always been to busy to engage in this type of behavior more than once or twice a week. However, over the last month I've been unemployed (I graduated in early May and my job doesn't start until mid June), and I've been getting drunk far more. In fact, I've engaged in excess drinking for the last 6 days, which is why I'm writing this now. It's just so difficult to avoid drinking, especially living in Wisconsin; it is engrained in so many aspects of life. The bar or club is usually what friends want to do on weekends. Even other, seemingly unrelated, things (barbecues, sporting events, concerts, going to a friend's house, etc.) usually end up involving drinking to some capacity. A part of me wants to just quit it all together, but I know this would be a major blow to my social life. Another part thinks forcing myself to stop after only a couple drinks is the most reasonable option; however, I have ultimately failed at this after a few successful nights when I have tried this in the past. I feel somewhat trapped. Seeing how dangerous this stuff is with my Mom, I dread the thought of me becoming an alcoholic, but I also enjoy alcohol a lot and have so many great times with it with friends and family. I want to believe that willpower in limiting myself is the way to go, but I'm also starting to believe that due to genetics and other factors, I may not be someone who can do that. I know starting my job, and the 40+ hours a week that entails, will prevent me from doing 6 day binges like I was on before today, but I believe I have a problem I know I need to address. Any advice is appreciated.",9.252169981916822,7.10243708016878,9.668131404460519,65.94905063291141,61.10970464135021,13.163592525617846,40.29294755877034,11.855464076750405,4.803879566003617,1952,84,347,49,21,661,245,474,0.069,0.835,0.096,0.9094,8,2,13,0,0,0,63.0,0,0,0,6,14,18,1,2,31,0,40,19,0,2,3,64,68,30,1,8,10,5,3,2,3,5,10,1,1,1,28,17,16,5,11,13,0,5,4,8,0,1,7,6,36,10,60,53,14,72,0,1,2,0,15,24,0,12,43,241,64,11,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06877633015240144,0.0,0.061649847686513035,0.0,0.4719607348497143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10090451255402992,0.10499021591701874,0.0,0.0,0.042902688320959184,0.13230864979520202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03845847322773483,0.06967685181824744,0.10736819683133747,0.21323912060358785,0.0,0.0,0.06887685597000164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2792271460485848,0.0,0.08137438086164253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06547642902028017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3708192530133137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055878134583737575,0.0,0.07036091987147547,0.041669694259413366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11894940245033288,0.0,0.09569909298256962,0.0,0.0,0.06911092363855792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14622723142754812,0.0,0.03296140236748957,0.0,0.1075648100623794,0.0,0.0,0.06955585317913934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06212996379478751,0.07279624383473919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06584853249459706,0.12521220973626687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10401620533711986,0.10285192251694236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08912326312019181,0.06164420435355161,0.0,0.055708749215712006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05363601785059359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19188705331664455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07388908275483898,0.05035704365538386,0.0,0.0,0.046779699452580314,0.04865813167872146,0.0,0.0,0.059204759505437715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06620130035962568,0.06718773368233377,0.0,0.09596406577426507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13663849367159764,0.06022559605741059,0.0,0.0550868876443553,0.0,0.0,0.05963950398815305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.181102978646853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0671029249533611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06486600687711806,0.06229278351102442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06384944346369763,0.10054754117932647,0.05743386271182939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0643112978704487,0.05345511108234911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17861889609861986,0.0,0.0,0.0527452349711193,0.0,0.0,0.07222181934931572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04191353306418548,0.04042488840140066,0.0,0.05008562461882498,0.03678770745586781,0.0,0.05980100203655436,0.0,0.0,0.04283329462830536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13896725660071865,0.0,0.1116345931070112,0.05007711737630412,0.1518185883546995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056928016144883624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04592954863952475,0.0,0.0,0.04481662061403177,0.0,0.0,0.040627252192599286 alcoholism,usernameist8n,2019/06/06,"Should I go to AA? Hi. I don’t ever post on here. But I’m at a cross roads in my life, where I need help. And I messed up. Like really bad. With my family and very close friends all because of alcohol. I’ve struggled with my addiction to alcohol since I was 15. The first time i experienced alcohol, I also got high(on weed).. I was with two friends, one female and one male. During that, I was raped by my male friend as my female “best” friend convinced him too. I am now 29 and getting married in one week. I have yet to ever share this with anyone, but I do secretly hide my addiction to alcohol because of this. Ever since then, I have felt numb to anyone and everything. I currently drink, and have ruined so many things. Even my brothers wedding a month ago. I can’t even go into it. Even at my brothers bachelor party, I told his friend I wanted to fuck him. But why? I honestly don’t know for myself. I’m engaged and getting married. I’m so happy when I’m not drinking. But I still want to drink. I don’t understand. I want to check myself into AA, but the young 15 year old girl in me feels defeated. He won. I don’t drink everyday. But I do drink any day that Has an ounce of stress, or if I don’t drink all week I look forward to the weekend to drink bc then it’s acceptable? Right? That’s what adults do. I’m so scared to lose my family. My friends. And now I’m getting married, and want a family. The only thing is I can’t even imagine getting pregnant and not drinking for 9 months. I don’t want to harm my child, but then again I don’t want to let my fiancé or family down. I’m a 29 y/o girl with everything any female wants in life. A house, a car, a huge beautiful wedding in a week, a fiancé, But the only thing holding me back is my alcoholism. Why is this such a hard battle. I choose the booze over everyone. And even if I changed, no one will ever accept or look at me the same. So why stop now?",0.5144186046511621,2.59384110945274,2.791369894712485,91.70115411315516,84.42288557213931,6.227097072775657,21.289135716765013,7.485028197883463,0.7720808052759454,1474,48,328,25,43,502,183,402,0.13,0.7,0.17,0.9245,1,0,13,0,0,0,62.0,0,0,0,5,26,29,3,3,18,0,26,21,0,0,6,61,57,34,0,11,15,2,3,1,6,2,10,0,0,6,12,19,14,2,9,9,1,5,12,13,2,6,7,6,51,16,39,47,4,56,0,3,2,2,25,20,1,5,33,212,63,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368825639899196,0.0,0.0,0.05565215817505026,0.3354725349011857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05020647498180876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08538737042846156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08779680011510324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04827522526149648,0.052420068054018096,0.0765422407808744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06588548431139696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0664146772348434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04048898025945685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4920170453683017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2073334887985942,0.2271584419832713,0.0,0.05999057155224781,0.11284822500168795,0.0,0.23673986611950495,0.0,0.03174429630546972,0.0,0.060280244076347786,0.0,0.0,0.05340205235109041,0.0,0.0,0.2910297528029889,0.05804063783147105,0.13120331540713473,0.0,0.07136053427974832,0.0,0.05021223287846335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06683225003072539,0.056240040447635836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042081226806006115,0.06633227624137418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07244161241850261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03450316131411524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06419850625976282,0.08868909361700025,0.030671950394615826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10544157361104699,0.07023662443603926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06365075454556803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10022345238873692,0.0,0.0,0.04655180924569475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06587879661950778,0.0,0.17016992457988753,0.0954965708767178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060127480810927524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04021954234654656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053615199051624186,0.0,0.0,0.06285539921995335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.103867284450312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05013751893085753,0.052488283288007684,0.07191618537488043,0.06563302783289368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12512804606589614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03660849385763892,0.0,0.0,0.05999057155224781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0613285643722454,0.06535792759243578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0518014488217578,0.2592117692821261,0.0,0.15107899468663205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16995206335167748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04042933401407939 alcoholism,waitamin_ben,2019/06/06,"New on this sub, just had my second walk to the gas station for some cold ones (need advice) It’s been over two months that I haven’t had a job and while I was working, I would always drink before work and after. I never could stop and the only time I did was if I met up with this girl I liked, she’s a friend tho. Well to summarize this quick, alcohol has fucked me up, I lost my job, been distanced from my parents, my brothers and I literally everyday. Everytime I go into the gas station I say to myself “Last time, enjoy it” but it’s never the last time. I’m here again walking home and idk if I could ever break out of this cycle. What coping methods do you guys use? I really need help and I’m scared",1.6234537945276202,3.242979275167788,3.4518120805369144,90.72905524006195,78.39597315436242,6.195353639648943,20.186370676303557,7.010146845296331,0.2966712441920496,548,13,121,6,13,184,99,149,0.07,0.838,0.09300000000000001,0.3097,3,0,3,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,3,7,7,1,1,6,0,13,3,0,1,3,24,22,11,0,7,4,2,0,1,1,1,1,1,1,2,9,9,2,1,0,1,0,3,3,3,1,3,9,2,21,4,14,10,1,26,0,1,0,1,10,6,1,3,17,86,30,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1556094669388338,0.0,0.17018129953047004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13250212405808146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13550323725100835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2542836037188088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15599656354242109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14404353126634062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12302999595439472,0.14721668905990365,0.0,0.0,0.09050091434827398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15767464389350996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10673657481069188,0.0,0.1597327380651872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3160462830398273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2596070134330104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07779761134286801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17383148477940896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12710546763514766,0.0,0.0,0.2361518922930725,0.24563453818303135,0.1537969431154504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10790651951037326,0.12111073815096712,0.0,0.0,0.17681942726961816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10201452087683067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1266356523151821,0.15942905020390016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13313346594390654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27856592166544897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15555632275949272,0.0,0.0,0.1375339840344101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14317770753195844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2318601861558607,0.0,0.0,0.11312096794158165,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,sjmbr,2019/06/06,"Looking for wisdom? I am now almost 26 (F) and have had a huge issue since I was 16. Ten years is enough. I’ve tried to quit drinking before but, despite tons of good advice and me thinking I actually have the willpower, find myself drinking 3 days into my work week after quitting since the previous Friday. I can do 5 days and I cave. Does anyone have advice to help to get to that week point? Anything would be appreciated, I’ve done this a million times...",2.357666666666667,4.6945403222222195,3.912222222222223,84.825,79.1111111111111,5.333333333333334,23.333333333333336,6.42735559955562,0.7370000000000005,359,12,67,3,9,119,69,90,0.035,0.828,0.13699999999999998,0.8443,1,0,2,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,3,1,2,0,0,4,0,12,2,0,0,0,9,15,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,8,2,8,10,2,11,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,1,8,43,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.16861748004208738,0.0,0.0,0.33769550527231,0.0,0.0,0.17302357425027529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12081833078981465,0.0,0.1421909121105453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14703100996901305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2228696719659977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15120912423809238,0.17682349581723966,0.0,0.33853556202277096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1785375876369905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15792633518748345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0902753035463572,0.0,0.0,0.14492750850572372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1158170587908398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18034718889555135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14509953555068794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1633417858214373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3675654847129901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28586627108289825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11071643829279236,0.0,0.0,0.10075485928440467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11731262618470087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2772023875055733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1257927044169046,0.0,0.0,0.12274459638416743,0.0,0.0,0.11127067601828633 alcoholism,JealousStock,2019/06/06,"How long until I can sleep normally? Been drinking nearly daily for around 8 years. At some point it became equally about enjoying the drunk state as it was about I just could not fall asleep without drinking. And I mean like a fifth of whiskey just to get a good night sleep. I was able to handle that for a while but recently, maybe because I'm getting older, that sleep just does not cut it for me anymore and I need like 14 hours of sleep a night to feel refreshed. I've been trying to quit for 2 months now, I went 2 weeks last month, but went back to the booze because I legit hadn't had more than 6 or 7 hours of sleep the entire two weeks. I toss and turn, sweat buckets, feel hot and cold at the same time, etc. Not to mention the other withdrawal symptoms. So I like I said I went back after the first 2 weeks of last month but managed to drink only every other day. I'm trying again now but it's so miserable. I drank a fifth on Sunday evening, slept ok, got up Monday morning and had 3 beers to try to taper down a bit, and those were my last drinks. But again, haven't had solid sleep at all since then, and actually I'm having withdrawal symptoms I haven't ever had before. I had bad shakes on Monday evening and all day Tuesday as well as a super racing heartbeat and sweats all day not just trying to sleep. I've asked doctors for sleep assistance drugs but they are hesitant to prescribe because they know my drinking habits and addictive behaviors.",4.49387372013652,5.397974180887374,4.7426126279863485,87.15364590443686,69.98976109215019,7.361706484641639,26.59539249146757,7.365786028017652,1.2275516723549489,1157,35,235,11,20,363,161,293,0.057,0.845,0.098,0.8142,0,0,8,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,2,3,20,12,1,2,13,1,17,27,12,1,4,41,36,26,0,3,16,0,3,3,0,0,5,1,0,0,9,11,10,0,4,8,0,5,8,4,1,2,18,5,19,8,38,17,9,53,0,1,0,0,5,10,0,2,40,146,28,2,0.07463773437223682,0.0,0.07283566212468168,0.08136614740911069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07402057673975525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06644340770989686,0.06977620628451361,0.0,0.0,0.11478362123971356,0.062319390580570275,0.13649541033273413,0.0,0.06351121462188092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08148507493076175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05959215756851007,0.0,0.0,0.14440549213316092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07639488380158778,0.06531598432396055,0.0,0.0,0.3655828240127476,0.08655607595942143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08324080341909901,0.09859503925524928,0.06751410383062342,0.06288551030769693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07547816222319008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06348681872832036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07799027130122389,0.0,0.0,0.06260259042811007,0.059694614464271975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14700626745996506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041018946865597435,0.18251914583723453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1093926807500638,0.0,0.0,0.06605204620690132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07498363617026263,0.08130237353297153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17872538247119255,0.0,0.0,0.05534293430571538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14008491521911162,0.07312913259328291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056765360295207686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07055678402952514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0793864178451957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07369575832921725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07099757725718844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061741105157779586,0.0,0.5975330948110107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15515436858165976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043521863133211484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20269648915676394,0.08118442223203261,0.07291022119469848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17960966530401964,0.0,0.06710828683219112,0.20756978257957848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07194811248107405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04806425384147553 alcoholism,gio_inblue,2019/06/06,"Drinking all day everyday for a month I fucked myself over again. Is it safe to quit ""cold turkey?"" I don't even want to look at alcohol right now but it's been around 20 hours and my heart is racing, I'm sweating, I feel tired, my muscles are aching, and I have anxiety.",1.8325000000000031,3.606915821428572,3.1065714285714314,92.73842857142859,78.28571428571428,6.622857142857143,21.91428571428571,7.554174236665415,0.6794257142857143,210,6,47,3,5,68,47,56,0.242,0.725,0.034,-0.9014,0,0,2,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,4,2,1,0,1,0,6,6,2,0,1,8,11,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,2,1,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,7,1,6,10,1,10,0,0,1,1,0,4,1,0,6,29,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3000272205797155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21476643327962827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24991940236124865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18105500372675767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2750197319491012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18542707347312545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14195130746835016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2595409375968649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3326799582764807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2764737674756549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2357521031743491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2240851390856282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2986030787297569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23975165592952616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32267098670018035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16558857515111225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Mollyraw215,2019/06/06,If he can do it you can too. my uncle was an alcoholic for three years. When ever I would go visit him he always had a beer in his hand watching tv and his fridge as always full of beer. My is a good guy but when eer he was drunk he was a different person. He was loud and annoying and you didn't want to be around him when he was drunk. It got to the point were he lost his job and started to feel depressed. Me and my family decided to help him out and get him the treatment he needed. Ever since he has been sober and has been the best person he could be. So if ny uncle can over come alcoholism then you can too.,1.4722966507177055,2.7958049924812047,3.2322214627477805,93.42438140806564,78.02255639097744,6.6408749145591255,18.85782638414217,7.348242739294969,0.11893082706766922,476,9,113,6,11,159,81,133,0.12300000000000001,0.787,0.08900000000000001,-0.6228,2,0,4,0,0,0,9.0,0,3,0,2,9,5,1,0,7,0,22,7,1,0,2,21,31,16,0,6,3,0,2,0,0,1,2,1,0,3,2,10,6,0,2,5,0,3,1,3,0,1,12,4,15,2,11,15,2,17,0,2,1,0,25,6,0,2,8,79,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.394512535938327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30716505940189504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16431231975421848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1937017698398937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15899641018504018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14736940784243224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15897556792971154,0.0,0.0,0.1928432774152433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33392023073146865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1740024056067962,0.0,0.09332748238792003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09643366315373504,0.0,0.104899143803642,0.15481410737959225,0.14762278031078846,0.0,0.0,0.1827598678210348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12371781424314965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18316380962527629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20148717889526602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13686122116856622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3223303613151457,0.0,0.0,0.17448456149189684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1526836831873212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306442780196718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10886806966890293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13111793144593198,0.0,0.0,0.11886128839794738 alcoholism,jjj49er,2019/01/11,Other Alcoholic Subs Are there any other good subs dealing with alcoholism?,9.297500000000003,12.60280708333334,7.773333333333332,60.70500000000001,61.5,11.466666666666667,37.0,11.20814326018867,5.6914000000000025,63,3,7,2,1,19,10,12,0.0,0.7909999999999999,0.209,0.4404,0,0,2,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.819817118683283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2608336775513635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3954331006004384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3217115905875868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,panda_98,2019/01/11,"Can't Help But Wonder (first post) TL;DR: First post happens to be a vent. Just looking for a listening ear as I talk about if I'm ignoring the red flags to a bigger problem. This will almost definitely sound familiar to you guys (but on a case by case basis): My parents, extended family members, and grandparents were/are addicts - some drugs but mainly hardcore alcoholism. It destroyed the childhoods of my parents as well as mine and my siblings, not to mention that it killed my Biological mother since she was driving drunk (which has also made me scared of driving to a degree). I didn't start drinking until I was around 16-17 years (I'm 20 now), and ever since then, I've only been allowed to drink around my stepmother, who happens to be very well aware of my family's history with addiction - hence that rule. I also have a history of bad mental health that's never been treated, and one of my first impulses is to ask for a drink when I'm not doing good mentally. Then once I have that first drink, I'll drink until I can't anymore. It's an addictive cycle, but it's one I always wind up regreeting, not just because I feel awful the morning after, but I wind up getting scared that I'm following in my family's footsteps. My stepmom actually brought that up to me the morning after I found out that my paternal grandma died (I had gotten blackout drunk on wine and vodka to keep myself from crying). And that cycle also happens when I'm in a relatively good mental place. I just can't stop drinking once I start. But then I feel like that I can't be an alcoholic since I don't drink too much and don't suffer the withdrawals that come with it. And a part of me can't help but feel scared that I'm just downplaying everything and ignoring the red flags to a bigger problem.",7.334444444444442,6.419075849002851,7.88280626780627,73.27839743589746,64.014245014245,10.876923076923077,35.45441595441596,10.125756701596842,3.5022945868945867,1417,56,262,27,18,472,173,351,0.177,0.777,0.046,-0.9940000000000001,4,0,12,0,0,0,41.0,0,1,0,4,17,17,2,3,18,1,22,18,1,2,2,47,48,30,2,3,15,3,3,1,0,1,7,3,0,1,19,15,12,4,5,11,0,5,12,11,2,6,10,9,33,6,41,34,4,41,0,1,3,0,13,13,0,4,22,181,52,1,0.0,0.0,0.07272687592375522,0.2437338606280529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15929180689936362,0.0746272807139779,0.0,0.0,0.17879586149106866,0.062011815685531366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07391002076897106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13268833775952354,0.06967198963877545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06222631131764401,0.045430514310593965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06419777107626994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08186359341860856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07734648819774873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5110515133485686,0.08642679716389667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06741326582557976,0.0,0.0,0.06697939397333838,0.0,0.2107701662357984,0.0,0.11304814383843301,0.05324157262359756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2535679832521973,0.0,0.08171419369418133,0.0,0.0,0.03893689312849717,0.0,0.0,0.12501817636467946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07379271105963668,0.19770996781892647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0792179257869767,0.0,0.0,0.09990675773867884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0662423611625101,0.08245226097146732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03640976452010539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06258328564722605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07051854598760725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22531481374461945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054785373720003534,0.0,0.05747924350680525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587360620624108,0.10100184048689358,0.05668057644467901,0.0,0.0,0.16550517678733048,0.08070467339364969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07786407606746229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14275110577234926,0.0,0.0,0.14262312519769346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2238413522751509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1849466688386332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10550013604672673,0.0,0.0,0.062307287602956486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059901382070351325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06149196673621302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13401610989808438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08082054623201287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04799246582687868 alcoholism,Cohle282,2019/01/11,"I don't think I can make it Sober for a week now, wasn't really a hard drinker, but started to notice problems and decided to stop. I'm still feeling shitty and all I want is to drink. Depression keeps on fucking me, which makes it hard to listen to myself when I try to list up reasons for staying sober. Life feels meaningless and empty, even though there are technically positive things about it. In my darkest hours, drinking helped me not going crazy, and now it is missing. I don't remember how I dealt with my mental issues before I started numbing myself with alcohol. Any suggestions? I'm on the edge of drinking again, which I think wouldn't be that bad for me, if i stay functional throughout the day and when with friends or my gf. I probably sound like a miserable piece of shit, bitching around while my life isn't actually that bad. Idk, sorry for that. I don't even know what I'm expecting you to answer. Still feeling lost.",5.4591575091575075,6.349314054945054,5.820604395604399,80.34522893772895,67.79120879120879,9.143589743589745,31.650183150183143,9.2995712137729,2.7538886446886446,746,30,141,14,12,239,114,182,0.23399999999999999,0.623,0.142,-0.9704,0,0,5,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,0,1,14,13,3,1,5,0,11,9,1,4,1,33,31,13,0,5,4,0,5,1,2,1,4,2,0,0,11,9,4,2,10,3,0,1,7,11,0,0,2,7,21,2,22,27,2,22,0,4,0,1,6,5,3,2,15,94,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.127868922918483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14003400750579698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0891066661761257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11664680090852232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21881350750495707,0.0,0.0,0.11149909769533818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08450519156843808,0.0,0.11285819255278474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3850862111803312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17309160247754632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19876206982558609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10123546726020403,0.12113753389867644,0.0,0.0,0.0744688503031358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2347589571972059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08782839453818693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1290407235551325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13676399854685478,0.0,0.11646780183858547,0.0,0.0,0.0720120941026916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18510441107948725,0.06401591315131358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14303756941276166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17493056554358666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13205004883067567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14918149174293555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1412753126490867,0.12538050872291168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08394284343567752,0.1347233436221278,0.0,0.0,0.14843440064502672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13450308827230198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14668027593085065,0.18549110755411927,0.2793266496031806,0.20928561869763146,0.10954912684706468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08705224183324284,0.1679208076213258,0.12873887125703642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08896253906316312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07728642664749197,0.0,0.10510645370789047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,blaquehartz,2019/01/11,One week free! Just wanted to share my success. One week clean and sober and couldn’t be happier! I haven’t felt this great in years! My life is only getting better from here. ,0.6408571428571435,3.155854228571428,1.3000000000000007,98.21000000000002,92.42857142857142,3.9428571428571435,15.571428571428573,5.6839178017228535,-0.7494571428571429,138,3,29,1,5,42,30,35,0.0,0.511,0.489,0.9749,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,2,5,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,6,7,2,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,1,1,3,6,3,4,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,17,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2878093772104348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31245622175805865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17001960112471393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3587789828102246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298552330645574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44102883544849536,0.2474981495529284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19194236924108316,0.0,0.522067913405734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2095611447464327 alcoholism,thespinkaay,2019/01/11,"It’s time for me to give up drinking before I lose my mind . I’ve been drinking heavily for about three years . I’ve spent thousands of dollars on going out and drinking alcohol , partying , Uber’s to and from parties and bars . I’ve been beat up while drunk, manipulative and manipulated and mentally drained and emotionally. I’ve hurt others I’ve hurt myself , I’ve killed my ambition and forced myself to do cocaine and abused it and hurt my body . I’ve gained so much weight and have lost a lot of the good healthy habits that I used to have . I’ve lost my desire to go back to school because of alcohol , I’ve lost my desires to be an artist , be a musician, learn and have an education and make something in my future happen for me . I’m done . I can’t do this anymore . I cannot drink and I will not drink anymore . It has not done me any good . It has not done me any favors it caused me to lose my focus and emotions and my dreams of being a successful human being and person for my family and friends and especially myself . I even angered the one person I thought would never leave me because of alcohol abuse . Because of my lack of ambition and the state of mind alcohol has put me in . I’m done with you alcohol. You’ve shown me enough that you and I are not meant for each other . You took my life away from me for too long and I am going to shove it in your face alcohol and fuck You up as much as you have fucked me up . It’s time for me to get back on track . Pick myself up and be the intelligent person I know I can be and am . I’m going to chase my passions and dreams and the health of my life and achieve this . I just poured the last of you out into my sink. I’ve tried to quit you in the past and I gave in to you but not anymore . You’re not taking my life and my sanity away from me anymore . I’m not letting you win . It’s time reddit , I am not drinking with you today . 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At the time I was in a horrible place and to be honest I still am. But back then I didn't know I started coping with alcohol. That feeling was addictive. When I was out on pretty much every weekend with my friends my goal was to get as quickly hammered as possible. I drank so much I regularly passed out and got my friends concerned. It was often considered to call ambulances, but they never did. There wasn't a party where I could leave it be. Sometimes when I was sad at home, in the evening I would get what was there and just proceede to drink - I almost ruined an exciting trip by being hungover. But it started to scare me. Passing out. Horrible hangovers I didn't have before. Memory loss of hours. Memory loss around people I didn't know. Waking up next to male friends in bed, worried sick that something had happened. It didn't yet. But eventually it maybe would. The loss of control was very, very scary. So I tried to quit. It wasn't easy, not at all. And sometimes I still got shitfaced. But over the time I got it - I was able to stop before I crossed the line. I don't know if this was really alcoholism and I apologize if it's inappropriate for this sub. But I had a real problem with it. And I appreciate everyone who reads this. Thank you. 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I did so many stupid things when I was drunk/high. Wronged many of my friends and was an embarassment to myself. I also caused my family great pain. 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Thanks to this sub I’ve found the way to quit. 4 years of heavy drinking every night because I needed to wind down...I realized I had a problem and it has caused a shit-ton of other problems. I felt so different this morning and I’m sad to admit that I haven’t woken up without a bit of a stumble or blood shot eyes for so long I cannot remember what a good morning feels like. What am I going to be up against? What’s helping you? I’m going to ask for help and admit my addiction with my spouse today but now that I’ve recognized how difficult taking this first step was I’m scared. I’m glad I’ve finally actually subscribed and equally proud of writing this post. 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I found out about his drinking problem after he began picking fights that would turn into shouting matches. Since this past summer, he’s been doing loads better, but I’m unsure of how to cope with the pain associated with loving someone in recovery. Though I’ve never given him reason to believe I’m cheating on him, nor have I even lied to him but he has an extreme distrust for me. On the other side, he lies about his drinking, putting himself in inappropriate situations. I want to explain how that double standard negatively impacts our relationship. On top of that, I am triggered by certain situations involving alcohol, such as conflict or sexual intimacy, throwing me into flashbacks. Him being intoxicated while this happens makes it difficult for him to understand how irrational my thinking is as well. Ultimately, I’d like to know how to speak to my boyfriend in a way that he doesn’t feel attacked, nor will he feel demotivated. (We’ve considered couples therapy but only in passing; to learn how to spot triggers and how to de-escalate). 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I don’t think that’s even slightly fair. I have a fiancée that I love to fucking death. I do often choose alcohol over her and it kills me inside. I don’t do it, though, because I care more for alcohol than I do for her. I fucking hate alcohol. I’ll probably spend 40-70k on it this year. It’s wrecked my life in so many ways. I don’t want to drink. I’ve tried to stop over and over again. I don’t love alcohol, I love my fiancée. I hate every shitty thing I do. I hate lying to her. I’ve tried over and over to quit. I’ve been to therapists, doctors, and taken medications. If I could stop drinking tomorrow I would.",0.23156901688182785,2.4819241132075485,2.5906653426017883,91.3938828202582,87.74213836477983,6.6178086726249585,22.83382985766303,7.85451343220497,1.2882880503144651,590,23,131,13,19,201,84,159,0.18100000000000002,0.64,0.179,-0.0683,0,0,10,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,1,7,13,6,0,5,0,12,21,0,0,0,14,28,9,2,4,2,0,0,0,0,1,11,0,0,0,9,4,10,2,2,3,1,0,4,6,0,1,3,0,24,7,17,23,2,17,0,0,0,8,12,8,2,2,7,83,33,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7138614031813024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05089886812806693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08513054206270597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06666539253193852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08546250251485925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16359013306558326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05514884224569802,0.0,0.07034964666976895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1543828736088481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2473073808692086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09237682693521783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05897625199310124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4521546768510468,0.0,0.0,0.08465263960958769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08411423150686717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05657958574371282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07996684407057446,0.0,0.09002366167944892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08880911387157182,0.08351938530766398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08244300688908554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07074655911689995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1396141101744423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09694620857739443,0.0554715570631872,0.05350137150922734,0.08203517213106308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07978476091669871,0.0,0.11337767892483555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04924857000465002,0.06627586535942052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05931372389827876,0.0,0.0,0.05376919513969551 alcoholism,Hideandseek14101,2019/05/07,"My mom has been in an out of rehab at least 20 times in the past 5 years And she still drinks the second she gets out. It’s like she goes to rehab and sits there and counts down the seconds until she can drink again. She was able to leave for a week for my brothers graduation and mothers day. Caught her sneaking it in the bathroom the day after she got home. Nothing is working. My family have tried everything in the book and she simply cannot stop drinking. What can I do? I don’t want her in my life when she drinks, but she is my mother and I love her to death and need her in my life (especially if I ever get married/have kids). It breaks my fucking heart. I’m crying while writing this right now. If rehab won’t work, what can? She isn’t the type that can casually drink. She is a full blown alcoholic and will continue to get worse with her alcohol use and freedom (once out of rehab).",1.87464514066496,3.8026312663043527,3.1246547314578024,91.93824808184144,78.72826086956522,6.0685421994884905,21.149616368286445,7.048011613610866,0.3962158567774936,699,19,153,8,17,226,110,184,0.078,0.8270000000000001,0.095,0.2979,0,0,7,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,2,6,4,1,0,10,0,17,16,1,1,1,22,28,15,1,4,3,4,0,1,0,2,8,0,1,1,7,13,7,1,0,7,0,1,4,1,0,2,4,0,27,3,22,22,2,32,0,0,0,2,23,13,1,2,17,106,34,5,0.13069796810288847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27935276022355005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1435655808572419,0.168578754106468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6401712575235289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11822379474894926,0.0,0.0,0.11746290627724328,0.0,0.12321041250611868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12082816547212025,0.20485288192217466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1045311045784873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15487772148810414,0.0,0.0,0.13110071846814778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13839027692413616,0.0,0.0,0.18463168013837225,0.06385242540570085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1179600190022204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15307188062123758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09691088728035126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12540822533841398,0.0,0.0,0.13918907050933946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1247659993375556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11161535063830157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10437556615641473,0.1092693536016259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07621103624601194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0887353411019149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11288108085481845,0.0,0.0,0.0770890478546722,0.0,0.10483802643223117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19029935476838036,0.0,0.13319239533663765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08416520635705413 alcoholism,lions31332,2019/05/07,"Partner of an alcoholic Hi all. So I have been dating this woman for the past 2 years. At first I didn’t recognize her alcoholism when we started dating. However no it’s really out of control. I have tried numerous times talking to her about it and it got me no where. She just tries to hide it better, but as you may know it’s kind of hard to hide being drunk. I admit I’ve been her enabler for a while, I tried not to, but we live together and it’s hard. I don’t buy her alcohol, but I don’t stop her. Our relationship hasn’t been the same in a long time. I want to help her, but I don’t know what to do. There is a lot more to this, but that’s the jist..I’m just someone with an alcoholic partner..who I love and I don’t know what to do anymore.",0.998301393728223,2.360489335365856,3.296864111498259,92.29012195121956,79.42682926829268,7.124738675958188,22.0801393728223,7.957251820313856,0.8164944250871082,577,17,140,10,14,199,93,164,0.107,0.7959999999999999,0.09699999999999999,0.3337,1,0,4,0,0,0,21.0,3,1,0,4,7,3,0,0,8,0,16,6,0,1,1,26,24,12,0,1,8,0,2,0,1,1,4,0,0,2,11,7,5,2,4,1,1,0,9,0,0,1,5,2,23,3,19,17,4,16,0,0,0,1,19,4,0,2,12,100,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6405855620722366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1486130803543894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325320615795097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16807194427703134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12746417426992376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11985046492266065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2684762102188621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10044274687849944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15604796908495944,0.2470644913246977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13232220635915906,0.13261444969593095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12739895119217812,0.13524742876018106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14305084680243413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09599913353540072,0.0,0.0,0.16088514368509227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1269692523916051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10606613306685372,0.0,0.0,0.12528311916115206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12044549324084886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1747600039845375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3052193487006569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08838668894855566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09649988061334026 alcoholism,Ariman98,2019/05/07,"I feel like im a different person. Im 5’6” and 155, it takes me 7-8 shots of 50% evan williams to get slightly more than buzzed. I had an incident with my roommates, they were pissed, i got suicidal (IM SAFE NOW) and said some stupid shit. ( I don’t know shit about my family history as i was adopted, from russia of all places, alcoholism is their Olympic sport. /s) i drank 3/4 of a fifth during finals week in one night. Im a little intoxicated noe but i just really want go be able to drink and have it not fuck up my life. Sorry for all this baggage im unloading.",0.9296327683615822,2.9657004661016977,3.0450000000000017,90.74569209039551,82.47457627118644,6.984180790960453,20.850282485875713,8.07648339933343,0.9304045197740116,437,13,99,9,12,148,93,118,0.11800000000000001,0.7979999999999999,0.084,-0.4346,1,0,2,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,2,0,3,7,5,0,4,0,7,9,3,0,2,14,17,5,1,1,3,0,1,1,0,0,3,1,0,1,3,4,3,1,2,2,0,1,2,5,0,1,6,2,13,2,13,10,4,9,0,0,0,1,4,4,4,1,5,52,16,0,0.1372547336161944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14668356840577615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14340198344802368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13445738552104433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12939154749487647,0.0,0.06940011735965418,0.0980548091202018,0.0,0.15035585171816426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12688978953485966,0.0717099333342439,0.0,0.0780050281506607,0.0,0.10977514893140676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7412933266801547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0754316120740748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09694707745782707,0.0670557298404833,0.13756530119573726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12880426960815125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09300735967875903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11984553923178745,0.14340198344802368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08792889696285269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13056068268673707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2817800233070046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15364543707277944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15013440123139854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10319847811702007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0809563980343567,0.0,0.11009746822900622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,jb0073x,2019/05/07,"Very Scared I have been battling alcholism for a few years now. My issues maybe aren't classified as alcoholism in the traditional sense... I don't feel an urge to drink constantly when I'm home alone or anything. But instead, I have a problem with drinking when I go out. I don't know how to stop. Last weekend, I went to a simple brunch, and ended up drinking around $200 worth of alcohol at several different bars, and hitting on every girl I saw, spending money buying them drinks, even if she had a boyfriend, and almost (deservedly) getting my ass kicked. I would steal other people's drinks while blacked out and just finish them, until I hit a point where I collapsed and passed out. I have been feeling miserable since that point, knowing that I made a fool of myself, and knowing that this isn't the first time. I have been similarly drunk before, and every time I pledge to stop and get help, and I go for a few weeks being fine, and then I go out again casually and it happens again. I know that part of it is my selfishness for choosing not to stop, but I feel so reckless when I drink, almost like I am invincible. I don't want to end up hurting someone else or myself even more. I feel so ashamed of myself, and want this to end.",6.8139186633039115,6.1663262745901655,6.818524590163936,79.60718158890295,64.94262295081967,9.638839848675914,33.523329129886505,8.841846274778883,2.621248171500631,977,36,193,13,13,312,142,244,0.17800000000000002,0.763,0.059000000000000004,-0.9726,1,1,8,0,0,0,33.0,0,0,2,1,15,12,1,3,10,0,17,12,1,2,0,45,39,27,0,5,7,0,4,1,0,1,2,0,1,1,9,18,11,3,9,10,4,5,6,9,0,1,7,6,31,3,27,28,4,42,0,2,2,1,5,13,1,5,25,133,40,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20969874006827371,0.19648526870348493,0.10161200058230334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08073587571605044,0.08733838165168308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08348407905306099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10602166869424573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1025036941055146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5766605893846019,0.0,0.0,0.0819580165674952,0.0,0.2606880664441658,0.0,0.0,0.12960098622628285,0.0,0.16532320929699676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1984287310307449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08345201119357025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10251647702605728,0.0,0.16727391111320594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08675803222941003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.065760824834334,0.0,0.0984119700940705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10502840069603728,0.0,0.0,0.10240097635136036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.215673973372322,0.07997245258437259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047931415272803576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09283371526063676,0.0,0.0,0.09856432201766598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1062431813518306,0.0,0.06801687246639923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18549064667458826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09387767720360846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09822486680463263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1108359694318388,0.0,0.08115730953190785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08312798111715106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24607216080484576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11441704221785587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08095072935578325,0.11573521733059887,0.0,0.0786976367675422,0.0,0.0,0.09094862086466897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06969427462976355,0.0,0.0,0.06317939266659386 alcoholism,FrIdGeTiMeS,2019/05/07,"I’m in a bit of a pit. First time posting here, trying to dig myself out of this, figured why not. I’m a minor. I started drinking seriously a few months ago, trying to drown my feelings. It helps, temporarily, but then I have to go back for a second round. Life’s been rough, and it’s easier to turn to substances than actually cope healthily, in my experience. All I can think about is alcohol. My SO is concerned, and I can feel my friends drifting away. I don’t know who or how to ask for help. My SO wants me to quit, and I don’t feel like lying to him. Anyone have any resources?",1.625454545454545,3.4252515454545467,3.7181818181818183,87.99727272727274,79.0,6.383471074380165,24.223140495867767,7.348242739294969,0.9903157024793392,451,16,98,6,11,154,83,121,0.069,0.795,0.136,0.8462,0,0,2,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,2,6,3,0,0,5,0,9,3,0,1,1,16,21,9,1,1,3,0,5,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,4,4,2,0,6,1,0,2,3,1,0,2,1,5,14,2,18,20,3,14,0,0,1,0,6,4,0,1,8,66,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.1963304804277117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17834103586018105,0.21500880231358305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13681474888799378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1406753375896606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18808363516777116,0.0,0.18902276232307152,0.15470116455211635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2196452045902845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19708766112862736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1968004831299398,0.0,0.0,0.3051801154573035,0.14372875775492375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17113042235301376,0.0,0.0,0.1554373609308536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11433978501746375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2697041705101338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11056767124565654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14210504447469352,0.09829030148340573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16058635372476934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19268250438293602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21398821813827865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14240191216901446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12891315607280696,0.0,0.0,0.1173143491635399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2731869110287974,0.21883478717851804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11866590355122085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18154089028842885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,justindustrial,2019/05/07,"Am I am alcoholic? I drink a couple of beers every night, but not usually enough to get ""drunk"". It doesn't impact my relationships or responsibilities. I have a breathalyzer and rarely blow over 0.03. But my wife doesn't like how much I drink, and alcohol keeps me up late at night on work nights sometimes and I feel sluggish the next day. First time reaching out about this, I'm sure some people will laugh at my question but try not to judge, just looking for some insight. Thanks",3.979130434782608,6.168375826086957,4.158043478260872,85.73423913043482,73.34782608695652,7.208695652173913,24.54347826086957,8.07648339933343,1.3001913043478268,384,12,76,6,8,119,71,92,0.065,0.7909999999999999,0.145,0.8264,0,0,5,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,2,3,4,0,0,3,0,6,6,0,1,1,19,12,8,0,0,7,1,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,4,6,1,3,4,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,2,9,4,11,11,4,15,0,0,1,0,3,6,0,4,10,47,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3674961892809593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1902447417170461,0.0,0.1108849786883834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3368651126823748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776566225953206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14486412602327495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08693638606735703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14624931027951832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08982985456497977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15282528191531694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1939521411325715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08399961036419921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14438356520475384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12639329330449664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.182856682408768,0.4840529729257209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11919929242337145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19260850768185234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18459572215436135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1700498404909777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16204835049540445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1582962574142294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10025770061892296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11673376587868314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18936403722387424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12517200052729155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,msbop,2019/06/15,"I don't even have a computer so sorry I haven't done a day sober in five years. That's two years before divorce and three years after. I'm fully functioning. I'm actually praised at work. When I get home... that's my life. I drink, look around on the phone to Facebook, reddit, whatever. I just plain old get drunk. Everyday. They days I dont drink alcohol and just drink water are viewed as recoup days to get it together and drink again. But I've been doing it so long, I really dont want to stop. But I do get all sappy and drunk tells all... like this! Tldr; I'm a high functioning alcoholic, dunno if I ever plan on changing.",0.6876744186046508,3.001971875968998,2.857023255813957,89.89669767441866,86.05426356589146,6.54077519379845,18.67751937984497,7.793537801064563,0.7336951937984497,488,13,104,10,15,165,83,129,0.08800000000000001,0.847,0.065,-0.18899999999999997,0,0,6,0,1,0,24.0,0,0,1,3,9,2,0,0,4,0,10,10,0,0,3,16,19,11,0,2,5,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,1,0,5,5,9,1,0,6,0,0,4,0,0,3,2,2,11,2,10,17,2,20,1,0,2,0,5,6,0,2,15,60,16,2,0.0,0.0,0.1333442360544217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2920604526309116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12164158577651416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11627345928627605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14455058668407633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2643710439207229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13983362792716875,0.3202900671281779,0.5354339998903219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09025166933844493,0.12360176780960005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2855621228111198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14437124211077956,0.13706445980846652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09651526626775893,0.0667570574589883,0.0,0.0,0.12092509883707073,0.11474603175796795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14338425025718254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08753725357725989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15296108617979046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1142399912069587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11943234428223727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13348073542769984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08059581079959394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09947801418634088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2639815863434921 alcoholism,XxCALBRAxX,2019/06/15,"What are your guys favourite non alcoholic beverage? I've found myself drinking club soda a lot more often since I stopped drinking 5 or so days ago. I actually wanna buy Alka Seltzer tablets because I remember when I was a kid my mom had them for when I had an upset stomach and I loved the taste, don't know if that's weird. Just wanna start a conversation because I'm noticing I've been really moody lately and just wanna get it off my mind.",2.9725,5.059069213483145,4.393693820224719,83.37683286516854,75.96629213483146,7.1466292134831475,27.97893258426966,8.07648339933343,1.977122471910112,356,15,68,6,8,118,69,89,0.113,0.84,0.047,-0.5198,0,0,3,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,1,0,6,4,0,1,5,0,6,7,1,0,0,16,12,7,0,4,4,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,3,2,5,1,3,3,1,0,1,3,0,0,5,1,11,1,5,7,2,8,0,0,0,1,7,1,0,4,7,42,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.21068471112700068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1913800116030727,0.2307286535769397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2632180926873048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13923595716590434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4229945025461274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2367203468423841,0.0,0.0,0.11279747654169198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2137723615294132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11865156049956008,0.0,0.2435416621295639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1835482422088732,0.1948558255770412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21799482060378006,0.2528564162957629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24580061187652566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13830939775491288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24456965858032226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17859255377621672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15281328535386507,0.0,0.0,0.18049988704998152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,capten_planets,2019/06/15,"Post Rehab: Medication Side Effects Question for Anxiety/Depression All, to make this short and sweet, I’ve been sober and happy for the first time in a long time. I finally am opening up to all the possibilities of continuing this mindset for as long as I can, but I am still very new to this world and so is my family. So here’s my question about one of my ongoing issues: As part of my treatment program, I have been prescribed Prozac, Antabuse, Bisuprone and Visatril (An antihistamine for the anxiety spikes as needed). I’ve been compliant with all of these and have kept a good schedule on taking them as prescribed, all except for the Visatril. I took more than prescribed and over the span of a week until two nights ago, where I developed seizure like episodes which I can not control. These ‘seizures’ last for a second or so, where I lose control of my body for that time. It’s an overwhelming feeling and I’ve dropped my phone quite a bit during these instances. It’s been two days since I’ve taken the Visatril and the symptoms still persist. I am 22, and this will be close to my 16th day sober. Anyone have any insight as to why the symptoms still persist? Or if they are even considered seizures?",7.136719063545152,7.1455519695652185,6.393478260869568,80.73643812709031,64.08695652173913,9.51170568561873,36.38795986622074,9.057496981413335,3.0555886287625422,963,43,185,14,13,294,129,230,0.027000000000000003,0.9109999999999999,0.061,0.7609999999999999,0,0,0,0,1,0,26.0,0,0,2,8,11,6,0,1,15,0,16,6,1,4,4,32,23,23,0,2,6,0,1,1,0,1,5,0,0,0,11,12,0,3,5,0,0,1,1,2,0,5,7,2,18,4,33,14,7,35,0,2,0,0,5,12,0,5,21,128,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11515278477319488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08833973211218435,0.0,0.0993768316067354,0.0,0.0,0.09083247046439062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14182241820373218,0.1442949698885803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29139860294637043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675557240687067,0.0,0.11188683097033593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0858009083378322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12246270290518572,0.0,0.06568378011041938,0.0,0.0,0.14230438042907562,0.0,0.11049697338761737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10895799958307027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13828609628200672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1355868815733717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1058897663288282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06346493322425616,0.0,0.0,0.2299233553709596,0.0,0.14533026502653945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.086712475965652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.130865439301056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09632277788780416,0.0,0.12546288448239845,0.0,0.12190687341896934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08802686788166457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14067426074631895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1464481658032996,0.12441290839066167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2910462566541196,0.13816976619220395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10745860936481272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31122647076939564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2700416949462385,0.09767225765973908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2272456353336587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1443290346521091,0.0,0.0,0.25379626613554324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10718508109512608,0.0,0.0,0.10420181073169243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11721889449664888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,TisI39,2019/06/15,"My husband purposely bought non-alcoholic beer cause his alcoholic dad is coming to the cottage with us and doesn’t want to provide him any. He gave up drinking an alcoholic beer on one of his few weekends at our cottage this summer just to be an example to his dad and not give him any more alcohol than he’ll already bring. It makes me really sad and proud of him at the same time. I hope it does some good for his dad.",7.61232558139535,5.658743837209308,7.750813953488373,77.78691860465118,64.11627906976744,11.855813953488376,36.61627906976744,10.686352973137794,3.5937534883720943,334,13,70,7,4,109,62,86,0.037000000000000005,0.847,0.115,0.7245,0,0,7,0,0,0,5.0,2,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,4,0,3,6,0,2,0,13,12,3,0,2,2,4,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,5,6,0,0,4,1,2,2,1,0,1,2,0,12,3,13,8,4,9,0,1,0,0,17,4,0,2,3,45,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7687125895570452,0.0,0.0,0.19844126688432184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24457421923102926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18472972420239345,0.0,0.15490324269787348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15736599616600144,0.0,0.0,0.17615995801763204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17250444564098436,0.0,0.15082860814634916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17860671703674427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12003452806465803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12185401726241853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11520044613011245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104857354870265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2163072331789764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10606539479944678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,jdutches13,2019/06/15,"I'm an alcoholic I can't go to a meeting today or see my counselor because of the guilt, shame and remorse of waking up after a bender I need help I can't keep doing this. I had sobriety before, but I feel myself and life falling apart I poured the booze down the drain. I'm detoxing myself Can someone just pray for me? Because I feel so scared, and overwhelmed",2.122876447876447,4.204686229729732,3.681505791505792,87.49689189189192,78.5945945945946,5.3096525096525085,25.43629343629344,6.1826913282559595,0.913083397683398,287,11,55,2,7,95,54,74,0.17,0.74,0.091,-0.6875,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,4,6,0,5,5,1,0,0,10,13,6,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,3,2,1,2,0,0,2,2,4,0,0,1,3,11,0,7,12,0,7,1,1,1,0,2,3,0,1,2,37,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3339674483804619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3809941826451023,0.0,0.265914471900652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3160187656164985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17760094396023982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20946215381329092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27776434661347155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22072798227111134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23171478040457194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3128670026684337,0.0,0.2490220298251851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.264780224560962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2962134476498701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,pale_puppet,2019/06/15,"Concern for a Family Member My grandmother has been drinking for a long time now. She started to drink heavily about 15 years ago due to depression from financial and relationship issues. In present time now, those problems have gone away and she's just addicted at this point, and it's affected her health very noticably. She's a functioning alcoholic but only during the morning to mid afternoon, so she usually has her first drink at about 5pm. Its gotten to the point where she is throwing up every other night and I know it's because of the alcohol. The problem here is that she's stubborn. She thinks she's getting sick because of every other reason but the alcohol, she has no mindfulness of how much she's drinking whatsoever. I need help on how to get this through to her. I've tried to talk to her in the past but it always ends the same way. She gets upset and stomps off, thinking I'm attacking her when I'm just concerned for her well being. What do you folks think I should do? Any tips? I appreciate any input I may get back and thank you in advance.",4.856086956521743,6.256316057971016,5.639342995169084,79.21060869565218,69.57971014492753,9.191497584541064,30.70821256038648,9.558583805096642,2.889702995169083,852,35,159,19,15,278,127,207,0.128,0.812,0.06,-0.9275,0,0,7,0,0,0,18.0,0,2,0,2,14,8,2,1,10,0,12,10,0,4,0,27,27,13,0,4,5,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,0,0,11,6,7,1,5,4,0,3,1,6,1,1,3,0,25,2,27,21,2,35,0,1,0,0,22,13,0,1,18,110,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12589251814544308,0.0,0.0,0.10236790031784528,0.3702456846771705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0960903455675714,0.0,0.0,0.15706355532394034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13137754290897896,0.1084992200362804,0.08879859486933428,0.0,0.1407936139639923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09946455035551263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4525139141640987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10228285016703627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945972741634496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10886623183575952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09822900227246834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413384916847612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12275205587622992,0.0,0.0,0.07740520713284957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12053329326466553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0634659336470682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10219801097175796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11660398532976175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0848926198113558,0.08562850255491147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10837211354282564,0.0,0.0,0.13147711886875846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08782932925489431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11024071693963383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2183357943460036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22100151776995872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1187348166106663,0.0,0.12398454103019528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08173881395091183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09282012531779757,0.0,0.10632038810676836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.221988770787437,0.0,0.0,0.13467706457016831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07840475508469333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271872011378144,0.09528481415987562,0.0,0.09166430360558757,0.0,0.0,0.10383226300800913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07436667633359778 alcoholism,Old_boy7,2019/06/15,"I dont know how to process the fucked up shit i did while drunk i dont drink anymore--that isnt the issue. The problem is I don't know how to resolve the terrible shit I did while drinking, namely driving. There isn't any epiphany. I have nobody to talk about it with. I don't know how to proceed. Usually I can figure out what to do mentally.",0.4885273972602739,2.623602561643839,2.355051369863016,94.43065924657536,85.02739726027397,5.293835616438357,24.19349315068493,6.6274283507984215,0.7126178082191781,269,11,60,3,8,89,42,73,0.27,0.695,0.035,-0.9531,0,0,2,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,5,6,3,0,4,0,12,6,2,3,0,12,16,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,5,3,0,1,6,5,0,0,2,0,8,1,9,14,0,7,0,0,0,1,2,2,3,0,4,41,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1434832078086446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4945669742131376,0.4133877387940033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19506062448184666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22022299864134295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3478704806141841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21263240350686524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2018928365323936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43316477641153023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16958904696038002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23238016704534986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,rigsandworks,2019/06/15,What is the highest BAC you have ever blown? I blew a .31 on home breathalyzer which has been shown to be pretty accurate for the brand and reviews. The funny thing was that I was still coherent and walking around.,5.0474796747967465,6.557554073170736,5.281463414634152,81.5389430894309,69.2439024390244,8.393495934959349,28.300813008130078,8.841846274778883,2.1717739837398367,171,6,32,3,3,54,36,41,0.0,0.855,0.145,0.7269,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,0,7,0,0,0,1,4,7,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,0,4,3,0,5,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,26,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4092755106404266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4158707428335794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4611673419140452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4677316479274404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3671574265004668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3054378727165876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,SkeeterLuigi,2019/02/15,"Day 30 - Woohoo! In the fall of 2018 I set a date for myself to stop drinking, January 15th, I turned 50 in November. I have been concerned about my drinking and wanting to quit for many years. I tried all the things people try, I'll only drink on the weekend, only drink at social events, only drink 2 days a week, only have 2 drinks, etc, etc. Which, naturally never worked. I remember reading somewhere that you should tell people you're going to stop drinking, they'll support you and it makes you accountable. So I did, and it made the looming date more real. So I got really drunk on January 14th, as you do, and the next day I called someone I knew was sober 10 years and asked her to take me to an AA meeting. I had such a knot in my stomach making that call. 30 days later, I honestly can't believe it, but here we are. I feel GREAT. I am so much more productive and well, not drunk & hungover. It's amazing. I do go to meetings at least once a week I am an atheist (and if you are in AA please don't tell me all that stuff I already know about is mor religion) I enjoy it for the fellowship and the shared and very familiar stories. Online I utilize agnostic, athiest & freethinkers websites, literature and groups and that program which also has agnostic 12 steps. 31 days ago I drank a handle of vodka a week and wine, prosecco, etc, etc. And now, well now I don't, now I choose each day not to drink that day. If you've made it this far thank you, it feels pretty great. Looking forward to support & the community here on this journey. 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I gave him so many chances to do something about it, but nothing ever changed. I stupidly love and want him back. He says he is going to fight for us and go and see a doctor tomorrow, but I think it’s gone past that now. I don’t know what I’m doing ..",0.17999999999999972,1.8921105975609755,2.509939024390245,95.32393292682929,83.26829268292683,5.5634146341463415,22.445121951219512,6.6274283507984215,0.37684878048780535,287,10,69,3,8,98,60,82,0.069,0.75,0.18100000000000002,0.7969,0,0,3,0,1,0,9.0,1,0,0,0,7,4,2,0,1,0,7,4,0,0,1,12,19,6,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,4,5,2,0,2,1,0,4,2,2,1,0,4,2,15,2,8,15,0,12,0,0,1,1,14,2,0,0,6,45,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2390416645280793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17199306949785284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2366195939108455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2289419068165943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2191173666714427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2023277855640276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24502617066705984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.254240498419172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1229265029764108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2018763606809533,0.0,0.0,0.2267723991104437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21462319474786945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21352409143401244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2248562018139308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17787616619181093,0.0,0.0,0.17824084593346173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17219674485212585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14332257598583484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21373204343038268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2690547378617055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2638598494794772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20111162405141927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,brbrb239292929,2018/11/14,"Am I ? Hi Everyone, I'm mid 30's and always have been a heavy binger in the weekends, and occasionally once in the week as well. This hasn't changed and for the most part I'm functional. My hangover symptoms however did worsen and take long, days, or a week long. I love drinking as it makes me feel like my real me, and although the hangovers suck, my mind is clear and I'm not rushing things. This sort of self-medicates some of my ADHD things. Yesterday I've met up with friends, and I did came in a bit later, I quickly catched up with them by drinking 5 units or so in just 1h. In the end having 8 units or so in a short time on Tuesday.. I just have 0 control over myself here.. The Day after I feel crap, I did go to work, be it late, and I feel lots of shame. I also notice it's an ever returning pattern and it bugs me, but also some part does not want to really change it, I just want the symptoms to go away, just not the hangover. With alcoholics I've always had people in mind who wake up in Beer like some of you do, but I'm sure I find a few who are more like me. At the moment I don't feel fully committed, for that I don't think an AA meeting is a good idea now. Anyway, I do want change but I'm afraid of getting bored without \_\_alcohol\_\_. Also my wife drinks a few glasses of wine every weekend, and I'd miss having a drink together.",3.3388682370261336,3.758796269230775,4.762344497607657,87.72930622009571,72.32167832167832,7.699374309900626,26.591093117408906,7.669130373188453,1.2633384615384613,1047,33,235,12,19,351,157,286,0.071,0.8440000000000001,0.085,0.7909,1,0,8,0,0,0,40.0,0,1,1,2,15,14,2,2,19,0,19,13,2,2,4,53,42,24,0,3,14,1,4,3,1,0,4,0,0,0,12,14,8,1,7,8,0,5,7,6,2,0,7,4,26,8,34,34,11,42,0,1,0,1,10,17,2,9,23,155,38,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11997477776825792,0.0,0.0,0.21337318323010554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23949908571770226,0.1661310618324498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0937924123706294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10898715768925528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11417751428877955,0.0,0.0,0.3168167946812553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11196645033975668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12876259164175582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08736082637456155,0.0,0.0,0.3911767441879738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08841865644842517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09030083468278308,0.08411004142903329,0.09539066454178516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20190569562104002,0.07131769079655809,0.0,0.0,0.0912416841100184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07712745742923433,0.0,0.05215641026136828,0.0,0.1134699772125604,0.08373163306951277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11269452627760895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11261119694526225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463138784260563,0.0,0.0,0.1766906340030099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08487084744188006,0.09009935942013167,0.0,0.06663647687996886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11088725489380488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2015971925411228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11365571242002825,0.0,0.10631437835678006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2162096519430948,0.0,0.06920869713755358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11362699167450538,0.06395286413736112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10414317539535313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09408743108342156,0.2075206244720834,0.07505880863021007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13264359335361486,0.06396624272009285,0.0,0.0,0.058210956598615526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1766447790216896,0.0,0.16015322995560147,0.0,0.0897580501147048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09623136859212544,0.0,0.07267653103028371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,flying_mongoose69,2018/11/14,"Drug & alcohol residential rehab advice UK My brother isn't doing well. He has tried everything. My family isn't rich and the UK government has cut funding for rehab centres. I've found one free place ( http://www.yeldall.org.uk ), but of course places are limited and have many applicants. He lives in Norfolk so ideally it would NOT be in Norfolk. Thank you very much for any suggestions or recommendations. 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Having a lot of stress lately with school and it kinda makes up for it.",-1.5524999999999984,0.3374487500000036,0.5166666666666693,102.04500000000002,103.16666666666666,2.4000000000000004,6.0,3.1291,-2.5968,86,0,20,0,4,28,23,24,0.24,0.76,0.0,-0.743,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,5,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,1,11,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35685892949155473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4821228196778247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3633579376393194,0.0,0.0,0.2852910456353905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43254892935961575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4895822130476774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,h2otoo_frog,2018/11/14,"So many problems; what’s the priority? I’m struggling with confronting my brother about his alcoholism and I’m wondering if there’s benefit to attacking his sleep disorders and depression first. I just got back from a two-day trip, half way across the country, to visit my brother. He knows that he is addicted (he showed me how his hand was shaking by early evening) but I think he’s afraid to admit he’s an alcoholic. His girlfriend of three years just broke up with him because he refused to check into treatment or attend AA. A year ago, he ended up in the hospital due to some damage he was doing to his organs (I don’t recall the exact diagnoses). My brother suffers from sleep disorders and I believe he also struggles with depression. He tells me that he drinks a lot in order to fall asleep. Unfortunately, he only sleeps for a few hours before waking up again (I told him that booze does that and he acted surprised) One night I watched him after he fell asleep (passed out). Sleeping on his side, he did okay; on his back, his breathing was quite labored. I watched as his whole body moved to breathe, as if it took effort to do so. I told him what I observed (about the likelihood of sleep apnea and other possible sleep disorders). He knows the family is worried about his drinking and is very defensive about it. Since I haven’t spent extended time with him in years, I didn’t want to turn a two-day visit into a fight. All things considered, is it ever appropriate to tackle other issues before tackling alcoholism? I feel like he won’t even consider stopping drinking if he believes it’s the only way he’s going to get to sleep at night. As I type that last paragraph, I also wonder if that’s a lie that I’m happy to accept in order to keep from confronting him about all of this. My brother is as stubborn as a mule and he’d probably write off the whole family before backing down. He talks with our mother the most and she’s the kind of person who avoids any uncomfortable discussions. Thanks,everyone, for reading this, and any advice you can give.",5.414370743539507,6.520955780856426,5.9273159809683715,78.75557701278106,68.0176322418136,8.803395839164102,30.57272133594552,9.049649993220411,2.6088244985539704,1643,63,297,29,27,531,210,397,0.138,0.802,0.06,-0.9849,1,1,6,0,1,0,47.0,1,1,0,3,20,24,6,5,19,1,17,23,14,1,4,50,38,25,0,6,8,5,2,1,1,1,5,0,0,1,19,17,7,6,8,5,2,12,4,17,1,4,10,4,40,7,57,26,8,53,0,5,2,0,60,17,0,10,21,193,59,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08043416543075509,0.0,0.07209971856029165,0.0654040188428994,0.23655418995544705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11800819028139375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10034969653616113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08393861029945122,0.0,0.17020330457176974,0.0,0.04497732273529688,0.0,0.1883512384303657,0.16625594556471446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08195608076796722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09516763103740697,0.0,0.12709807088850514,0.0748880100008188,0.0,0.0,0.25368451465877223,0.0,0.06456784370004215,0.0,0.0,0.21683722492672475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06534967933169683,0.0,0.0,0.09746571455858966,0.0667407855642614,0.0,0.07050264717242437,0.0,0.0,0.13911175390397698,0.0,0.03730681112468192,0.052710461925540686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06275962968469485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038548478596946004,0.07077920487956016,0.04193247738920965,0.0,0.059010861986649336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07854318473281705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07266121607540107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07701009554168453,0.0,0.06558156124725059,0.0,0.07683345386195801,0.08109821745384459,0.060142846617922435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036046559331050006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06272751574970363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07480419962454288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07841946183868677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384803582801276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049997148891825896,0.11223032000676744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06442431319079013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08317904438500984,0.0,0.0,0.07955036003908736,0.07060019492270461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07847711203296494,0.07380278748408939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061033911820463416,0.0,0.5168527411299496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061685741968931215,0.0,0.1542676485464166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059303836519417424,0.06448943749297037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049018027638312485,0.04727705235206623,0.0,0.0,0.0430233561570772,0.0,0.0,0.14100529434484874,0.08197542873632167,0.0,0.08025452176540447,0.14415018972646282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060878554326158026,0.0435190193577126,0.1171307376946557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16475176898451785,0.0,0.0,0.16002864359704405,0.0,0.07493003603074923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14254115260070058 alcoholism,cleaver_remarkable,2018/11/14,"I need help please! I'm new to Reddit, so please don't crucify me. So... I've recently accepted that I'm an alcoholic. The first thing I think about when I wake is where my beer is. The last thing I do at night before bed is sip on my beer. I am showing signs of liver failure and have been diagnosed with alcoholic fatty liver. I don't know how to stop. Can any of you strangers help me out? My town doesn't have regular AA meetings, so that's not an option. 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Does tapering help with the auditory hallucinations. Def not DT just little sounds here and there .,5.6433333333333335,9.320554444444447,6.416666666666668,59.74500000000001,87.88888888888891,11.288888888888893,28.222222222222207,9.725611199111238,4.9487555555555565,92,4,13,4,3,30,17,18,0.0,0.863,0.13699999999999998,0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,8,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.587383966584249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4499006507277083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6727328446527182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,bigpapicaptain,2018/11/14,"Understanding Alcoholism I'm not sure if this is the right place to post, hopefully someone can direct me in the right direction. My girlfriend is an alcoholic. She's close to reaching her 11th month of sobriety, she began her sobriety in what was quite possibly the most difficult time in her life. I, myself, have no problems with addictions. I rarely ever have a drink, I don't smoke. Or do any drugs. I understand that alcoholism is a disease, and can be tied in with other mental illnesses. Depression, anxiety. My assumption is that they are heightened emotions that are potentially thought to be cured with alcohol. I guess what I am seeking for is just guidance, and understanding. Her and I communicate very well, but I feel like there may be certain things that although I am sympathetic to, I don't know if I entirely understand them because I'm wired differently. I'm open to any suggestions. Books, articles, podcasts. I just want to have a better understanding so I can have a better idea of what's going on in her head when she's unable to voice them due to panic. I hope I haven't offended anyone, I just want to learn.",4.655092153765138,6.922295364928916,5.702993680884677,75.05353212216959,71.65402843601895,9.996945760926804,31.6274354923644,10.25414643259724,3.7858086361242766,906,42,158,28,18,299,124,211,0.081,0.769,0.15,0.9411,1,0,7,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,3,3,8,13,1,1,8,0,25,10,1,0,3,37,43,10,0,7,8,0,1,1,1,1,8,1,0,0,10,8,5,0,10,2,0,1,5,5,1,0,3,2,31,8,21,36,1,19,0,1,0,0,13,11,0,8,7,114,41,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11756087168849595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4609901215285491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14666898991602298,0.0,0.08249685144112097,0.0,0.0,0.07540382099908853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06573790178165424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19075038462099386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09288192351819774,0.0,0.0,0.1126692282162537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10564156429623033,0.1250594757616098,0.0,0.0,0.1213048184634135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09754691785624583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05452684455974608,0.07704049414678768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061287620348065765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11879726510075632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11067434359451864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21421772795480895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12173756462238333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05926571802665662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07617016259021125,0.052684887244556375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1086767584934396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08607638608609104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12652630920820596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1126692282162537,0.0,0.0,0.121572728600462,0.10328034266053793,0.0,0.0,0.10318774878861776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11470048391480528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18418852927755894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09137197988204837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10163736518539176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07164371044008364,0.0,0.0,0.08561244364455617,0.06288202563803405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5613231309786239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08897880490697603,0.12721295293666335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09696057818550008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,wishiwasborninirelan,2019/04/27,Sexually assaulted while drinking (cw) So I’ve been working really hard at not drinking and I haven’t been doing the best job. A few nights ago I was drinking with an ex and blacked out. When I came to he was having sex with me. When I woke up I was in his bed and I was super confused that I was there then I remembered anything. I don’t think he used protection. I think right now I’m just really looking for support. I’m ashamed and confused and not doing well and I’m not sure what to do.,0.3846794871794863,2.6085722115384646,2.539999999999999,92.28833333333336,86.5,5.7743589743589725,23.08974358974359,7.1686216300943375,0.8884897435897439,386,15,85,6,12,130,65,104,0.158,0.736,0.106,-0.3623,1,0,3,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,3,7,9,1,3,3,0,13,4,0,1,1,21,23,11,0,0,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,10,3,1,3,3,0,1,5,4,1,0,9,3,12,5,9,14,2,13,0,0,2,1,4,5,0,2,7,59,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1757509242768828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631560970177162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20806802725845264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22676358592684095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.582675856510361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776074713751628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19674849933159974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16649357928816522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1860592926283808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25402866566880994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22459682798390626,0.16931815580220294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22499000704675412,0.18686344151054865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25408180704982114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1712382421055489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17826502386741633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1443400733656541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,RM420-,2019/04/27,"I’m school never said much, to busy being drunk It’s been a while now... but I basically lived 20 years with my parents and never touched alcohol at all. When I moved it for college I started going out and drinking; at first it was a normal think that I was doing during the weekends and it slowly became a daily think. I was not getting drunk everyday but I started having alcohol on a daily basis. Now it’s been 6 months and I had to come back home from college. I cut drinking without too many problems at first, but now I really feel the need for it. A couple of months ago I started drinking daily a shot of alcohol at the end of lunch with my coffee... but I feel I want more. I want to drink and forget about things, I want to drink and be able to fall asleep drunk and happy or sad... I honestly don’t know what to do! Alcohol is great but with the current situation I’m in I really can’t drink it. My parents allow me just that shot of whiskey with the coffee at lunch... I’m desperate cause at the begging it felt like I was okay but now I really, really, miss drinking.",1.7341672053436774,3.736489936651586,3.7848739495798327,86.67098039215686,79.49773755656109,6.5624649859943975,23.19349278172807,7.62386473244151,1.1358931695755223,840,28,171,13,21,286,112,221,0.084,0.779,0.13699999999999998,0.9113,3,0,12,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,2,9,9,1,0,12,1,15,18,1,2,3,41,36,16,0,6,10,2,4,1,0,0,4,1,1,0,12,13,17,0,6,12,0,4,6,4,0,2,9,5,22,5,28,25,3,35,0,2,0,0,3,9,0,1,23,120,34,3,0.09229270130471612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08181191108368538,0.3945313187679203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07096739041486175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09481002743457216,0.0,0.0795019900197485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10212011855843407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6328819775618908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08174393943091103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09333192573011677,0.0,0.08861546668082226,0.0,0.0,0.15700824916408646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04821912719094447,0.0,0.052452069037606366,0.0,0.0,0.10175302901030736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0982472967146776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09257710449552917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05072165497441464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04508955197307138,0.0,0.08149614613273612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09357031321071116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14733430731538585,0.09809253548451656,0.0678457547932828,0.06843386858087508,0.14236364182151098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09042725168270097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20496024538812654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08831165074704321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23650027098193224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08779149375672328,0.0,0.0,0.09340514099253544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10374086317910028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19597574703421414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061315169764657784,0.11827487276023535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16330987935287547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08896687058501991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05943347370516404 alcoholism,Soggymcshloodler,2019/04/27,Question about alcohol. Figured this is the best place to get information What is the best thing to mix with tequila? Tequila is pretty gross by itself and I am wondering what I can mix with it to make it taste better. I tried iced tea and it’s still pretty gross.,1.305439560439563,3.9618450384615396,2.5109890109890105,90.29115384615385,89.0,5.279120879120879,20.89010989010989,6.868970318607317,0.6510956043956049,210,7,41,3,7,67,35,52,0.096,0.632,0.273,0.91,0,0,3,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,3,2,5,0,0,2,0,5,3,0,1,0,9,8,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,8,4,3,0,4,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,3,7,8,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,1,30,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.265104078487524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5206539667762046,0.2193917074336164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12960276329238732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16558408633636434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2591732058911001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5047388304930209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2778875124542699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19810356096261156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16480214172632016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16841860315447946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26901391664459423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Zombie_Joe_Knives,2019/04/27,Question What is a good mixer to go with tequila? Tequila is gross and I want it to not be gross. Is there any good drink that goes well mixed with tequila?,1.8602083333333328,3.8423204375000033,2.213750000000001,98.18958333333336,79.0,4.266666666666667,23.166666666666664,3.1291,-0.2293458333333338,122,4,27,0,3,37,24,32,0.156,0.604,0.24,0.3313,0,0,4,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,0,6,6,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,1,4,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,3,4,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,17,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.257575085413462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37104823538217613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21526246352387676,0.6353849027626474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4243066094073736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2234070558276896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3405577310127841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,onebyone153,2019/04/27,I feel great Went out with my friends and did not touch a drink. Been in denial for so long it affected my relationship and my gf almost broke up with me. 1 day sober and I can see the improvements. I also became more sociable rather than with alcohol and can’t think straight. Will finally reach my gym goals and not wait for a couple of hours to just get rid of the hangover. Gf and I did not fight because I wasn’t angry and aggressive. Just chill. I’m happy but I don’t wanna get carried away. I’ll just take it day by day.,0.8800606060606064,3.1011137636363664,2.5740909090909128,92.93446969696971,84.0909090909091,6.212121212121213,20.075757575757574,7.492282038375204,0.5690303030303028,414,12,92,7,12,136,76,110,0.063,0.797,0.14,0.7313,0,0,2,0,1,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,6,6,2,0,4,0,8,2,0,1,0,25,17,10,0,2,8,0,2,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,2,11,2,1,2,2,0,1,6,3,0,0,5,3,11,3,15,11,1,12,0,1,1,0,5,5,0,1,6,58,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2341304920515433,0.2193775347789353,0.0,0.0,0.17519864472849933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20583339786757568,0.0,0.0,0.13354947598044406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24240847272773935,0.0,0.4238665114688507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2146155440186749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11077371380072618,0.0,0.0,0.2399920449727514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1692610972496683,0.0,0.2289211008295699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2415370908886672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23321532997052216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21575022124107715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1938794015900824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23521053289381635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17457884191223355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16472131625314948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403779768012639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20308987404999532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,123595,2019/04/27,Is weed a bad idea for a potential alcoholic? I grew up binge drinking and blacking out almost every time I drank from 16-22 until I stopped drinking due to all the issues my drinking caused. I didn't feel the need to drink every day but it definitely started consuming me to an extent where I wanted to get black out drunk 3-4 days a week and I didn't care much to hang out with people or go out unless there was alcohol. I don't want to go back to drinking but I've been so ancy and depressed/lonely I just want some relief. I never liked the effects smoking weed had on me in the past but lately I'm thinking maybe I could try an edibe by myself in my room one night when I'm feeling lonely/depressed. Would this be a bad idea? It's legal where I live and seems relatively harmless.,3.363691206543969,4.494286877300617,4.765168711656443,85.0920884458078,72.86503067484662,6.905725971370143,25.853271983640084,7.1686216300943375,1.172084253578732,623,20,126,6,12,208,109,163,0.132,0.7809999999999999,0.086,-0.7443,0,4,7,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,7,6,0,0,10,0,10,9,0,2,2,34,26,12,0,6,6,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,1,0,3,9,9,1,7,6,0,4,4,2,0,1,6,4,16,4,21,17,4,29,0,0,2,0,0,11,0,4,15,80,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2652527436197877,0.12426936038695775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0954261125523063,0.20723852812809115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12652937809687112,0.12748605093367033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09908465814110264,0.0,0.0,0.16006993096099192,0.0,0.10688812577672316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6078593327975664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2091211174458144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12549852541260256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06483772098140217,0.0,0.14105906992842654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28019015167272804,0.0,0.1295293425115472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1399914858083466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06062954599799281,0.0,0.10958357589281002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12467627049021865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09122861352591263,0.09201941916439346,0.09571444594763316,0.0,0.0,0.11646050840879175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08409414087669471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11846857574726513,0.08603610125781197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1129770124424889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08783942213780903,0.0,0.0,0.10375410578795699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07951899635980092,0.0,0.0,0.07236436984615685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08425652449070163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21959419441703895,0.0,0.09954644487700612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08815788570840663,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,HotMessJax,2019/04/27,"Why do people insist on loving me? I am a selfish self-centered asshole. I only think about myself. My whole world revolves around me. And yet I have a loving family, generous friends, and men that insist on falling in love with me. I would just like a way to responsibly end my life, but society deems you insane when you try to do something like that. Why do I have to be insane? Why can't I just make the logical choice?",2.3235714285714257,4.480774452380956,3.957380952380952,85.39178571428572,78.28571428571429,6.5809523809523816,23.595238095238088,7.645422480735847,1.2394095238095235,330,11,64,5,8,110,58,84,0.11699999999999999,0.691,0.192,0.6994,0,0,1,0,0,1,12.0,0,2,0,0,6,7,0,0,4,0,9,4,0,1,0,11,14,4,0,1,3,0,0,2,1,1,1,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,14,6,9,12,1,10,0,0,0,3,7,5,0,0,5,46,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758965808001649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17500568354856588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18626983200663572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15265718740749398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1395633345549006,0.19306453588807665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5349968190866661,0.0,0.1318925513468924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15027574785766465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13698370724653736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061289814736444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1521140801928101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.126607398041533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13415032661532875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15683737873261833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5348814765945306,0.22060166355694888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14036193912561287,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,xtinabeck,2019/04/27,"Do you want to be sober? I just read a comment on here about if you want to stay sober, you have to want it. I guess that's my problem. I keep experiencing the pain and shameful moments and worse but somehow I just keep going back. I'm really sad and every time I sober up those feelings just get worse. I dont know how to be an adult or manage my emotions, especially not depression. Would kill for a drink right now but promised some people I wouldn't. Instead I'm just full on sobbing on the couch, physically and mentally sick as hell. I don't ever want to be in this position again yet I've said that so many times. So many times. How is this time going to be different? How do I get to a place where I want sobriety? There have been so many consequences from abusing my body the way I have but I seem to fucking forget. It's only day 1. I'm sure I'll get over myself eventually. Feels unbearable in this moment.",1.2378571428571448,3.4676992804232825,3.0171931216931216,90.26229761904764,82.65079365079364,6.319682539682539,21.619312169312167,7.554174236665415,0.8129235978835978,720,23,156,12,20,239,111,189,0.188,0.7040000000000001,0.10800000000000001,-0.9657,1,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,3,0,0,21,11,3,1,7,0,15,5,1,3,2,37,37,16,1,9,10,0,2,0,0,2,2,1,1,1,8,4,1,2,4,2,0,2,4,9,0,0,2,4,19,2,19,29,2,27,1,3,0,1,6,11,3,6,12,100,27,2,0.0,0.15057128944397832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09771814882813476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1411593597081635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08195732236279504,0.0,0.10945546772519953,0.0,0.0,0.13277355383613604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14893905867257334,0.12449189673596885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14295005033602667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11495286827274982,0.1070719949242135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12851286986314267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11748518323785324,0.19918516742673084,0.0,0.14444716252345244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13999505741857526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2259124913631035,0.14059731090267147,0.0,0.06984089735616364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3865233484887161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12806868097889276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09665152337414856,0.1352241181815016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08810259919888301,0.0,0.13277355383613604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12160023047924605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12711630581050928,0.0,0.08141192927698154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10852726159219736,0.1208840032388622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11569060313508855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13545241328461555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11977320153737304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29640994789994884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3747810321148823,0.10087170945822516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590146578965332,0.09027534671189502,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,themagicalworldofmei,2019/04/27,"Should I be worried about the amount of alcohol I'm having? I work in the entertainment industry and go to a social gathering/event maybe twice a week that involves alcohol. Unfortunately I find it really hard to talk to people as I am autistic so I drink. However I heard that more that 7 drinks a week for a woman is too much? And considered excessive drinking? I never get sick when I do it, and I don't have a bad hangover I just feel tired. It's also free alcohol so I get a bit excited about that lol. However I am scared I have done permanent damage to my body",1.7101884057971013,4.017681982608696,4.35967391304348,80.87487318840581,81.34782608695652,8.702898550724639,25.23550724637681,9.2995712137729,2.582376811594203,448,18,89,14,12,158,76,115,0.13699999999999998,0.706,0.158,0.5208,2,0,6,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,8,6,0,1,8,1,11,9,1,0,1,8,17,8,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,1,5,1,0,1,7,3,6,0,2,4,1,1,2,3,0,1,2,3,14,4,10,13,4,6,0,1,0,0,5,1,0,0,4,63,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5186446932879732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1293663867579128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13507012392742782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1766095442622189,0.17968857952164102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16554556522876776,0.0,0.4754152781513512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08179512532395736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14785367918606004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16903495864855794,0.0,0.09193689140922667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14491299830282175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16251842220684715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11891862238141575,0.0,0.12476600941501755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1121500617099797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10363318421209236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16195870927520256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1649028377944337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1300235692642193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18592934624030044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2595222185280423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11776955465169282,0.16428398737111385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Rubbberbands,2019/04/27,I have no interesting title but maybe you’ll read this anyway 6 years ago I got the sleeve which is a weight loss surgery and in my wildest dreams I never thought I’d become an alcoholic which is not so uncommon for those who’ve had weight loss surgery but it’s happened. I’ve been through three relationships the first of all which probably probably cultivated this but I also don’t want to put this on anyone else but me. Jump forward this whole time and I’m now a person who can knock back a liter of vodka a day and I’m trying to quit. Again. And I’ve done it before and I was so much happier sober and I feel like a failure. And here I am 5 in the morning sweating and miserable but I’m gonna do this and I’m gonna do this for good and any support anyone can give would be amazing right now bc this is hard,0.7374870702768491,2.939688930635839,2.421168238515364,93.92148159415883,84.54913294797687,5.723030118649224,21.24399148159416,7.0608816371341465,0.4687872832369942,647,21,146,9,19,212,108,173,0.10099999999999999,0.743,0.156,0.8972,0,0,2,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,4,9,8,0,1,9,0,17,4,1,0,2,22,30,18,0,2,6,0,4,1,0,4,1,0,0,1,14,10,3,0,2,3,0,3,4,3,0,2,6,4,10,5,10,19,3,17,0,3,0,0,5,5,0,0,12,91,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400659982801064,0.16886423469398534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12636023954961167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10745196297650056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22096800658189011,0.1618995329167478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12149964781563312,0.0,0.0,0.1745092159699435,0.13445455241016194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10190313593133576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16169870553645554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319967658384699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07989441375731686,0.11288210724696053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13440290579989222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1515772297225442,0.0,0.13253097623531085,0.1263747310908091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13972738902680654,0.0,0.14154558721396004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07719552111001109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15874190565213453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1161552547582952,0.0,0.12186676332572473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379679093153754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3407221999363827,0.0,0.0,0.1588433150784287,0.0,0.16806268534414887,0.15805238405370234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16964320316011972,0.0,0.13493935589220435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1793074492763671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12544199193148756,0.09213668267046872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10727816294704648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09319817036244787,0.0,0.0,0.3848263089699946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17641210279951494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11224550365992424,0.0,0.0,0.10175301756798 alcoholism,birchram13,2019/04/27,"Looking for Advice I am 27M and I think I have a problem with alcohol. It has been impacting me and my life for too long and I am looking for some advice. So I have grown up fairly “normal”. There is a weird history of alcoholism in my family. My uncle is an alcoholic, and so is my ex-stepdad and ex-grandpa (long story but there’s been a few break ups in my family). My whole thing is I always assumed since most of the alcoholism was not genetic, I was fine. But the more this haunts me, the more I feel like it’s the exposure I have which makes me an alcoholic or at least just someone who struggles. I never feel like I’m an alcoholic because I don’t drink consistently. I can do weeks without booze and it has zero impact. But when I do drink. It’s all or nothing. I can’t just have “a couple”. Once I have had 3+ my body takes over and I suddenly can’t say no to booze. I’ll do shots, drink tons, and just eventually fall asleep/pass out. It’s embarrassing and humiliating. But no matter what I try, I can’t control it and it always ends up with me passed out or doing dumb stuff. I am married and have told my wife I can get it under wraps and drink in moderation...but I’m very sad to say it doesn’t seem to be the truth. I don’t want to lose my wife and my life. Should I just give up alcohol all together and go sober? Advice or input is appreciated",1.3621073717948704,3.0671596284722256,3.80777777777778,87.49192307692309,79.4513888888889,7.347435897435898,22.188034188034187,8.263242389622931,1.1381726495726494,1055,32,237,21,26,368,145,288,0.13,0.8079999999999999,0.062,-0.9571,0,0,11,0,0,0,34.0,0,0,0,2,10,11,1,2,12,0,35,16,1,2,4,50,50,25,0,4,14,2,2,2,0,1,9,2,0,0,15,18,13,1,5,4,0,4,11,7,0,1,6,6,36,4,24,42,10,24,0,2,2,0,7,12,1,8,9,169,51,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2626088800085256,0.0,0.6701345563583518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490750534319826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0546069831484907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09950290611452038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10047130490156404,0.0,0.09911828772157356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3510162000889636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07934106836520857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1688956287126883,0.0,0.0905884246778738,0.1279915802484308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046801721248104215,0.08593305721793314,0.05091023535667378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12654565090309133,0.0875282803974893,0.0,0.0,0.1585505167690721,0.1504488547653676,0.10021682479784466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059795177625597336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06908942434825521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0877691338071488,0.08595418452649879,0.0,0.0,0.09539950843213901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08571572116716479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1424748227206124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08155003852300145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07410129353143931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07590063008454129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09364820283000612,0.1025473801002919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0673528224262751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059512804374124414,0.057399085674647875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08559728840968217,0.0,0.06081876896442705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07391267394366494,0.05283645651146083,0.0,0.07185547076384391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10001258996193356,0.0,0.08635168075415152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,BeatMasterPBnJ,2019/04/27,"Withdraw, worst days? I'm on 4, it's super hard. Depression, fatigue, nausea, it sucks. Does it get worse before it gets better?",0.8024999999999984,3.2773742500000047,2.4833333333333343,87.94500000000002,98.16666666666666,4.066666666666666,18.5,5.985473137389443,0.23945000000000016,98,3,17,1,4,32,21,24,0.452,0.369,0.179,-0.8541,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,0,6,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,4,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,6,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3373429360333184,0.0,0.0,0.3506207255878161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2556722881439678,0.0,0.3414549069733127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34692905895331305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41424915677373547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3551341558719031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40400825904297655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,thrwaway10019,2019/02/18,"Curious about seeking help. I have questions. I am 21M and have been drinking for a long time. I used to just drink a few beers here and there but now it’s something I feel I need. I know it’s not good for me but I also don’t feel like stopping it. I try to stay busy and not think of drinking but I keep finding myself there. If I know I should stop but don’t really want to stop what would you recommend I do? My mom won’t stop calling and guilting me for drinking as much as I do now and I feel bad for that but I feel healthy. The only unhealthy part about it is the fact I need to drink. My life’s a whole mess and to only my own fault. It’s a crutch right now and these problems in life are temporary. Should I seek help early on or let my problems work themselves out and see if the drinking settles out. Sorry my post seems all over the place. 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I've lived with him the past 7 years in an attempt to help him, or just be here for him for when he falls, make sure he eats, etc. He's 62 years old and looks 80, has cirrhosis (diagnosed around 8 years ago). I'm not here for support or anything, but out of curiosity. You see, he drinks only about a half a pint of vodka and is completely out of it for 12 hours at a time. About every 30-60 seconds, he shouts ""damn"" ""fuck"" or ""shit"" to himself, almost like some sort of verbal tic. Is this normal behavior for alcoholics? He does this literally the entire time he's ""awake"" and the verbal tics only stop for a brief few hours while he is asleep. For every 10 ""damn mans"" he throws out, there will be a nonsensical sentence thrown in there. It's almost as if he's psychotic. This goes on for days upon weeks until I can convince him he needs rehab or until he runs out of money (he now gets his social security checks so this unfortunately doesn't happen as much any more). Does anyone know if this is normal? He's been this way for years and years so this isn't new behavior. 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I have been stopped for 2 days this time the overwhelming, short tempered-ness, aggression... feeling like I’m going to hit 100 real quick is just too much. I am struggling to breathe properly and feel like I’m going to have a panic attack. The thought of drinking large amounts of alcohol feels like dehydration at the moment. It feels as if I am dehydrated for alcohol. I really don’t know how I’m going to get past this, my goal feels so far away. 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For the past two years at university I have been going out with my flatmates probably 3 times a week, every week, non stop. When we don't go out, we'd probably spend at least once a week staying in and binge drinking. I'm trying to not go out this year, but I feel very 'off' to put it simply. I think I already had underlying anxiety, but since the start of 2019 I think this has been exacerbated by the lack of alcohol. This is all happening even though I don't feel like I want/crave alcoholic drinks except for maybe feeling like I'm missing out on a Friday night. Can this be considered withdrawal like symptoms?",5.837616279069767,6.339532325581399,6.432083333333335,77.66812500000002,66.82945736434108,10.170930232558144,31.62887596899225,10.125756701596842,3.046371317829458,526,20,102,12,8,172,91,129,0.14400000000000002,0.833,0.023,-0.9307,0,0,5,0,0,0,13.0,2,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,6,0,12,6,0,3,1,22,26,6,0,1,4,0,3,3,0,0,4,0,0,0,5,7,5,1,5,2,1,4,3,1,0,1,3,3,10,3,19,21,3,27,0,1,0,0,2,11,0,0,14,63,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4261942996230237,0.0,0.0,0.14669468217382933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10169325018497384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13655863321879572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2604471283507344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0878008797083223,0.0,0.11200164161664138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20164449728977776,0.1899344789233532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22664637014950026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11755206149751317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1948327963771441,0.13323361717280302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13354889392424105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12474845471952999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415691242223295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1268994267603527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28664814593225946,0.0,0.0,0.13363420924573374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10996340967993416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09409054043182356,0.14168870823365898,0.0,0.11113779722154453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1381681082026013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1703559782156031,0.1306058293670317,0.0,0.07751420149544129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09025266482058206,0.0,0.12985605784993015,0.0,0.0,0.11481128295065625,0.0,0.10968350561867382,0.0784072266017964,0.0,0.31989209065547697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17120876675673033 alcoholism,Legend_I_Am,2019/02/18,"I cant just have 1 I've always had a strange relationship with alcohol. It's never been just have 1 or 2 but a race to see how drunk I can get. I've embarrassed myself countless times in many different situations. I've spoken to many close friends including my wife and they are all convinced that I am just having a pitty party and encourage me to get back on the horse when I announce a hiatus from alcohol. I've tried to stop but just find myself blacking out all over again. Should I begin to go to meetings? How do I deal with friends and family? I'm starting to get to the point where I'm finding myself in dangerous situations due to being so drunk. 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Used to be that anything's anniversary was celebrated with drinks. I'm a little confused on how to properly celebrate this one.,3.98,6.719822333333332,5.223333333333333,75.42500000000003,75.66666666666666,9.333333333333334,30.0,9.725611199111238,3.5730000000000004,130,6,22,4,3,43,27,30,0.062,0.71,0.228,0.7501,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,3,1,0,2,0,4,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,4,3,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,15,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2949592981287184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3511272636334761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3592433959101052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4857660971946514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3397519741006766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3095704826695128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4001769380824054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23081869307614986 alcoholism,SordidDetail,2019/02/18,"SevenSixtyOne congrats on three year! And thanks for all your hard work in this forum. Discovered in a post in r/sober that today is the anniversary. I came to say her anniversary or his anniversary and realized I often don't know most posters gender. Oops! Anyways 761 is super active here, super helpful, a great poster and ticked off another day that happens to be three years.",5.139565217391303,7.617034768115946,5.312391304347828,77.45815217391308,70.88405797101449,8.657971014492754,28.89130434782609,9.2995712137729,2.8495391304347826,305,12,51,7,6,96,56,69,0.051,0.655,0.294,0.9686,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,3,3,4,0,0,3,0,4,0,0,0,1,10,8,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,2,5,4,8,6,2,11,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,3,4,34,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3044905043547809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3321192768457293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18727215725103785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3201468210600885,0.0,0.0,0.2567835555888771,0.0,0.2601249434049262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19463671530453808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15958617406190986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2781053750767847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23092316247537634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2673444316929283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2752478738044235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21140131732405426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.373992555432216 alcoholism,redditinorbit,2019/02/18,"I'm 19, drink myself silly every night (almost a fifth). Feel like shit every morning and regret it. Always say no more, but keep going back. Not looking for sympathy, just advice. How do you stop, where does the motivation/incentive come from?",3.4156818181818167,6.360903750000002,4.469272727272728,78.69390909090913,79.68181818181819,6.247272727272727,20.163636363636364,7.554174236665415,1.1599963636363633,191,5,30,3,5,62,43,44,0.23399999999999999,0.7070000000000001,0.057999999999999996,-0.8159,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,0,4,4,1,0,2,0,1,2,1,1,0,11,7,3,0,1,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,2,1,1,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,3,2,2,2,7,1,6,0,1,1,0,2,1,1,1,4,17,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554195446294921,0.0,0.0,0.2617363977618577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21749083044323209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20098668629246091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22515751860560626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2287372206839066,0.0,0.0,0.25605493038179183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4404513534612698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321626339092631,0.1867314110383585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14854946030034932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2323284035548132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12769808195711105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21949511745157615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2452893767016671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20786152208153635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2683049501939116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21852712380092584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,AnIrregularity,2019/04/17,"I’m Not Sure What This Is Supposed To be The bus is coming. I don’t know why I’m mentioning that. It’s here. I’m on. I’m on my way to my part time job that I hate. There’s nothing particularly bad about it I just don’t want to go there. I drank pretty heavily at my local bar but it’s tapered off. I’m going to down half a pint of cheap booze before going in in a Coke cup because I’m an irresponsible loser who deserves no sympathy. I’m not even an actively bad person as in I don’t proactively hurt people. I just exist to be a hedonist. I’m not a sad case of any sort just one long reign of nothing that just does nothing. I don’t want advice necessarily. I just have to talk about myself like this somewhere. The obvious answer is to just man up but I’m not easy even though I like it that way. I should be there in about a half an hour and it or I doesn’t matter. Everyone else who cares and loves and doesn’t act like a weakling does. Again, I don’t want sympathy, I just wanted to write this.",0.12771888028588307,2.0606397945205472,2.8330673019654573,91.71016081000595,84.84474885844749,6.000476474091721,19.110780226325193,7.255503002510835,0.2885416319237644,781,21,183,12,23,273,110,219,0.124,0.691,0.185,0.8975,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,1,18,12,1,0,11,0,15,5,0,0,2,30,37,8,0,5,14,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,2,15,4,4,0,2,1,1,5,12,6,0,3,1,0,17,6,25,32,1,22,0,3,0,1,8,11,0,2,7,113,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14036096653259866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09767847002960313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23986273476609815,0.08756012668614993,0.0,0.12222498876834785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1464480708906138,0.0,0.0,0.12373104407263655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2513964029161951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11999075474104873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18974251456743374,0.0,0.0,0.1372518492142674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24489761567657345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14181235847814544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414540683574068,0.0,0.15376698456805954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14253812004234429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07893944950959626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21052217715593152,0.0,0.0,0.12711472538872712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12963851077918667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41347235384965375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0973325317000036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1555454859744891,0.0,0.09958020220813564,0.12541878176814852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14613104267204186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1353767055303699,0.0,0.0,0.11545043419269314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14112317874029706,0.0,0.08375621950082622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33888463042980843,0.22802562730879616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12961056140009405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,FrankenWhiskey,2019/04/17,"Day 1 almost at an end It was hard to realize I have a problem. How long will the shakes and anxiety last?? Today is rough only gonna get worse my first night at home without booze in a very long time",1.0324418604651164,2.7784433488372144,2.872267441860465,93.61677325581397,80.62790697674419,6.16046511627907,20.05232558139535,7.1686216300943375,0.29123720930232544,156,4,36,2,4,52,40,43,0.214,0.7859999999999999,0.0,-0.8053,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,4,0,4,1,0,1,0,6,6,2,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,1,2,2,0,5,3,0,13,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,9,19,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531041839142118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19336189614157204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16301029118895394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22387171227951416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21499884778663453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1320574790499806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264247039836575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2535404464915771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20603440126121392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4473720407760314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2371995948740319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19223655086403968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2418586699467887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14738729415959873,0.0,0.23958839753126665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2085547524865649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24365311719350266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25758561644449285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Analogamps71,2019/04/17,"What if alcohol is the only thing that makes you happy? Someone asked me the other day if I was still drinking - I said yes, its the only thing that makes me happy. He looked down and said ""oh"". I immediately felt like a POS and couldn't muster another word. Because its true. It is the only thing making me happy.",1.4587327188940122,3.903919112903228,3.28041474654378,87.31919354838709,83.6774193548387,5.478341013824887,18.534562211981566,6.868970318607317,0.26575299539170505,243,6,48,3,7,81,42,62,0.0,0.728,0.272,0.9590000000000001,0,0,2,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,0,1,5,0,0,5,1,4,2,0,3,1,11,12,4,0,3,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,10,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,4,7,5,1,7,0,3,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,2,3,32,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1804091091588904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17701451324990147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1578167996047653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10290646800914934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10887002808608597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16537187774557766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16208637075010734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5391117947112505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08247320825366856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14175989376510148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3380507498480993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3851682959233647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3211584870846824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14303419290587574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13481379523985942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33645435874788115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,josephis17,2019/04/17,"Why does alcohol make me feel uneasy now Im 17. Now i already know what yall gonna say but hear me out. For 2 years i was a pretty heavy drinker and i became very tolerant. With some help i was able to ""quit"". weed was my alternative. Ofcourse every now and then il still drink on a night out but I've noticed that liquor, cocktails and flavored drinks would make my stomach upset just after a few drinks or shots. Beer now makes me gassy and a big ""burp"" would build up but i cant get it out lol makin me feel nauseous. Why was i able to outdrink every one i know and after half a year of almost not drinking i suddenly cant drink even 1/8th of what i could easily drink back then?!?!? my tolerance is still high but i get nauseous from alcohol in general now without getting to drunk or even tipsy...",1.343224533715926,3.5401906036585373,2.778450502152083,92.32494261119085,81.98780487804878,5.810043041606886,21.842180774748925,7.048011613610866,0.5917687230989959,625,20,134,8,17,203,104,164,0.032,0.8190000000000001,0.149,0.9639,0,0,11,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,0,1,11,1,0,1,5,1,10,13,1,3,0,31,22,13,0,3,9,0,2,0,0,3,3,2,0,0,4,9,12,0,4,10,0,0,4,1,0,2,4,5,18,0,17,14,2,24,0,0,0,0,4,8,0,4,16,83,22,0,0.22202259064972354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2372746280231303,0.11116177671946273,0.0,0.12250372486171453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08536083378650018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08863348624558888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971467326307044,0.0,0.0,0.6524928418610544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466438271792199,0.0,0.1870636083782072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11226129286492796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1739964599549806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1251177978863127,0.0,0.0744085312385791,0.117289528453764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11991124858477074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12201780942872376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22230270493854196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10417658055100054,0.0,0.0,0.12638709550526644,0.0,0.0,0.07522412670703077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11293839662645687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.118074177228429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0882806377094666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17730752769114133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09159594468636753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20034085465650547,0.0,0.0,0.10701092724585498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15771847825823862,0.0,0.0,0.1429752690818516 alcoholism,Amyfckingj_,2019/04/17,"Alcoholic Hepatitis- What is the long term prognosis? Hey guys, recovering alcoholic here - 4 months sober, getting close to 5. My question actually isnt about me, it’s for my brother, who unfortunately also struggles with alcoholism (it runs on my mom’s side of the family). Turns out he has been diagnosed with alcoholic hepatitis. I have been reading loads about it, but I was wondering if anyone out there had experience or knows about this topic and could fill me in on how serious this is for him. From what I have read so far...Its a pretty bad outlook. I guess moreover, I want advice as well on how to convince him that if he doesnt stop, he will die. Quickly. If anyone has any input or can give me personal experiences, please let me know. Thank you for taking the time to read this",4.445,6.331592766666668,5.569000000000003,77.39950000000003,71.33333333333334,9.533333333333337,29.16666666666667,9.928628108626363,3.0408666666666666,625,25,116,17,12,207,106,150,0.095,0.7809999999999999,0.12300000000000001,0.5352,0,0,4,0,0,0,24.0,0,1,0,0,11,6,0,1,4,0,16,5,0,2,0,22,26,12,1,5,6,2,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,2,10,6,4,1,4,3,0,2,2,3,1,0,4,0,15,3,20,19,1,16,0,0,0,0,14,8,0,8,6,80,25,3,0.0,0.0,0.1258231504527378,0.0,0.0,0.125994980936987,0.0,0.5511744243324619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10311024773612094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08768105031875524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18031040445653787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10765635718007543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10294507922109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13086754818011992,0.1338154388990801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2522487261691108,0.12154959222611632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06736385277163855,0.1236873700426162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14203778160596697,0.1276671281151417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14171994795758106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318460196046725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11410449641242218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15100854134282052,0.1029156598677393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1125821331128265,0.0,0.1415332496217917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13117448811162066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14443807369920386,0.0,0.386913332860452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1077964524502292,0.0,0.13479213113395086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09694399036363853,0.0,0.0,0.11870714731080838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07518374616571062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14024558128453032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07604992257752283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11592914548175627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1398258294345545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,STARGAZiiiNG,2019/04/17,"Don't know why At work and decided to have a double espresso. Without much thought I decided to add a couple of shots of bourbon. This has sort of become a daily habit... that I don't want to keep up. Why do I do this to myself? The caffeine isn't enough? I wouldn't consider myself an alcoholic... but drinking at work sounds like early onset to me... ​ Anyone else out there find themselves in the same situation? :(",3.496898954703834,5.479678585365857,4.663937282229966,82.48890243902441,74.12195121951221,7.124738675958188,27.567944250871076,7.957251820313856,1.887165156794425,332,13,61,5,7,109,58,82,0.071,0.887,0.042,-0.3074,0,0,2,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,6,0,8,3,0,0,0,15,12,2,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,3,3,1,5,1,0,0,5,0,0,0,1,1,7,1,14,10,4,6,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,1,2,45,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22172647190241496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2247978531923136,0.25210346313571885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14507055502753302,0.21258149957764846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22913859078325205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22956589270457706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2032454080359694,0.0,0.0,0.17331779725251428,0.0,0.0,0.2143759706201679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1896273599324041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18441230992286015,0.0,0.0,0.1140222139185264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10136125375162587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525171678724952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332093244880652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16471107899066928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1223734649298228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3744257972375468,0.0,0.0,0.19999740849591754,0.0,0.30208689904716324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25210346313571885,0.0 alcoholism,tuskanraider85,2019/04/17,What are my options outside of AA? I’m not religious and I’m not sure the higher power concept will do much for me.,-0.11893333333333088,2.051380040000001,2.764,90.08866666666668,88.6,4.933333333333334,24.333333333333336,6.42735559955562,0.8823333333333343,91,4,19,1,3,32,22,25,0.08199999999999999,0.9179999999999999,0.0,-0.2411,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,1,5,5,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,2,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,13,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6150184264827709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7885127361600803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,NavajoWithAttitude,2019/04/17,"This is the first time I woke up drunk I drank all last night, keeping my significant other up all night with my antics. I’ve decided that this is the last time for awhile that I’ll drink because I don’t like what alcohol does to me and I don’t like what it makes me become. I’ll miss alcohol but I will not miss days like this that I am embarrassed to see my girlfriend because of decisions I made last night",5.0241860465116295,4.767742813953493,5.662186046511634,85.10258139534886,68.53488372093022,9.670697674418603,28.827906976744185,9.3871,2.0832818604651164,326,10,73,6,5,106,51,86,0.099,0.802,0.099,0.0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,0,6,0,1,2,0,6,5,0,2,2,11,14,2,0,0,2,0,0,3,1,1,2,0,0,0,10,2,5,1,2,2,0,0,3,3,0,1,3,1,12,3,7,10,2,12,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,0,13,43,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3881709078162605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2214150787258516,0.20057355812530028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11712318139916722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15892780324143216,0.0,0.0,0.17790828914089002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15447705090433148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16142297566245306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4441082408486829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2661758621912282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1718434145905942,0.12122583228408805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5112849803949575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1447193549135507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21179606102018736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,phatbionerd,2019/04/17,"I keep trying... I had so many day 1’s. Even day 15’s, 25’s, 30’s. But I just keep falling back into the same pattern. I have two beers on weekend and the next thing I know I am drinking a fifth every weekday. I can’t seem to break this cycle. The thing that is the worse, is the overwhelming boredom I feel with sobriety. Is that normal? Well here’s to day 1 again. All I can do is keep trying and fighting. I mean I’ve been basically feeling like I’ve been living life on hard mode, maybe after I get over these humps I can find who I am while sober.",-0.6419047619047618,1.46917478151261,1.584672268907564,97.831406162465,91.10084033613444,4.1817366946778725,17.17703081232493,5.6839178017228535,-0.6097231372549023,425,11,100,3,15,142,79,119,0.10400000000000001,0.838,0.057999999999999996,-0.5859,0,0,2,0,2,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,7,4,1,1,6,0,14,4,0,0,1,18,23,5,0,1,2,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,4,2,3,6,3,0,1,1,2,1,1,3,3,13,2,8,20,2,15,0,1,0,1,2,4,0,1,10,62,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13729315689758734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34544799465608583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17491004195249926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11792992804718468,0.0,0.15043523004434226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1805594745405132,0.1275554385532395,0.0,0.0,0.16319054782899992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0932844811707306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15994482998844473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4761076549309738,0.0,0.0,0.09812585884585774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1261144363294699,0.08723002067981378,0.0,0.15766203480418967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810206577626148,0.1793764652881265,0.1944922002817336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1898888830412616,0.0,0.17494010672387306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16254430029919967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2372400386569228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2424460962968931,0.0,0.17441642509285438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16053699044637845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.181956680984142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,whiskey_locks,2019/04/17,"I don't want to be here. But I have no choice. I have BPD. I was diagnosed in 2015. It has progressed from childhood trauma, and now, at 28, I have developed alcoholism. The alcoholism gave me hints of its presence in previous years. The blow-outs became more frequent. More extreme. I don't want to be here. I am suicidal . Without the option of suicide. I WILL NOT succumb to the urge. It will destroy, annoy, inconvenience so many I care for. But I'm here. And I can't stop topping myself up. I can't get a day without drinking. It will kill me. I have a LOT to stay for. On many levels. But I'm worthless. That is how I feel, at least. Contrary to the 'pros' of staying here, alive. I feel I need to uproot my whole life. Have you done this? Please tell me your experience? I need help.",-0.6527253668763109,1.4370182767295638,1.4752201257861657,94.97475890985326,102.08176100628931,4.368134171907757,20.354297693920337,6.238725200709706,0.30635178197064983,602,23,129,8,27,199,97,159,0.20199999999999999,0.7170000000000001,0.081,-0.9639,0,0,3,0,0,2,34.0,0,2,0,2,7,6,3,0,7,0,19,5,0,1,0,18,30,7,3,4,6,0,2,0,0,3,4,0,0,0,6,2,3,1,2,1,0,0,8,5,0,0,3,2,23,1,20,22,5,16,0,1,0,0,5,8,0,2,6,94,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33432219940742897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.197000434970142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1594765030428302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10087535881359674,0.0,0.0,0.15875891408286655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16006784081380002,0.0,0.1532280995837772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15300482970108045,0.0,0.0,0.1581772254860117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08172088698218656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10484232564441368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17305109264980278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11048122333703336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13297926174603886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3171624803783825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2319609153399095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17169776104958231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33343721825777833,0.0,0.1307707523444187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3421873613515258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13671444956391465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1845163799947724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17463284133820198,0.0,0.3015588211477464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10072675451766787 alcoholism,FingersMcginty,2019/04/17,"Day 1 It's a beautiful morning here but yet again I'm waking up with a hangover. Gone are the days when i could sleep it off and roll out of bed at 11 am. These days i wake up at 6am with extreme anxiety, fear and shame after a nights drinking. This is my first time reaching out for help. I've tried to give up many many times before on my own but this time hopefully it will be different.",0.9217857142857148,2.7308187976190506,2.5526190476190465,95.4632142857143,81.26190476190476,6.104761904761905,21.214285714285715,7.1686216300943375,0.3888142857142861,305,9,72,4,8,100,64,84,0.11800000000000001,0.7509999999999999,0.132,0.0644,1,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,4,3,0,2,4,0,6,4,3,0,0,10,10,5,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,6,6,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,1,1,0,4,1,15,6,1,22,0,0,0,0,2,9,0,1,12,45,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16459455211855142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18308280001432425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17178539461877654,0.0,0.0,0.4162754876376916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22479332037335692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21077199501184887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2421114952039628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1830124743477705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2063982448981061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14421523335328612,0.0,0.0,0.21369949502703334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43627095104516705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20191031356254527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21531243094336644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3763794132283862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14607751169943853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,CC0093,2019/04/17,"A cycle. Round and round we go. I'm not sure at what point I am in alcoholism. Just know that i've long been in one and stumbling down a path that would otherwise be happy and exciting is upsetting to me. Sometimes, i seem to have a grip. When a buzz turns into a trip, I can sometimes get too far, which rarely happens. I'm a common drinker at home. Usually every night ranging from just a couple to where ever it takes me. I work second shift. A future fiánce, two daughters and three dogs which i try to give all my fullest attention. When getting off work early, I like to come home and wind down. Sometimes this can be 5 nights a week, sometimes not until the weekend. When work is light I tend to atleast drink a few each night. Sometimes, like tonight, I finish a 12PK of budweiser. Totally ok, I go to bed. Wake up and presume my normal routine. I'm finishing the last as we speak about to go to bed. I'm a single supporter with my future wife going through school. I'm a full time dad. Change diapers, prep the kids for day care in the mornings and play with them. Everything as far as family life is normal. I know alcohol is taking a toll on my life. Some I don't notice, some I do. I'd like to quit for good but alcohol plays such a good crutch in moderation. I never let it interfere with my home life, but I feel it does as far as my attitude with life goes. Alcohol can bring an otherwise happy man to his knees. I don't feel I am being the best I can for my family. It seems like once a year I do something to act out and ne a road block in the progression of my family. I enjoy it. I'd say it is probably in my best interest tp quit but I have no clue where to start. Before my family was started I'd lost a job, tested friends, spent time in jail as well as got hit by a car at 55mph. It had consumed me at some point. I've controlled it to a point after learning how to walk again but I just enjoy in moderation.",1.5301936264622815,3.357225194029855,3.4413271480435665,89.74149052037113,79.39800995024876,7.032513110125049,22.805163372327552,8.00916892397051,1.113694957644212,1496,48,329,27,37,504,211,402,0.033,0.805,0.162,0.9940000000000001,1,0,7,0,0,0,47.0,2,0,1,10,15,24,0,1,27,1,25,11,2,2,5,51,58,24,0,3,9,3,5,4,1,1,8,3,5,2,14,18,5,3,9,4,1,10,6,2,1,4,6,9,38,22,56,46,11,68,0,1,2,0,13,29,0,5,33,205,52,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3283072514851017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06535191515159264,0.0,0.16119562718756467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07830364313714132,0.0,0.081245176105341,0.06615718091149403,0.0,0.0,0.08613874764652744,0.0,0.08497874275216681,0.0,0.04953023139559045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0672089912150984,0.0,0.0,0.0752356503902527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06947081726184827,0.06470807649264103,0.0,0.06902370300632316,0.0,0.28960423982822936,0.0,0.07766569231552163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0593361901887149,0.0,0.08025060807089833,0.07367442811101499,0.17459090116567505,0.12883391389331894,0.06142470117603618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0679147883678745,0.16351198708871564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2311127148710981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07621304956329125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0844155398736356,0.06260298963634618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07853413076647267,0.21698700737661575,0.15008417506830765,0.0,0.0,0.06796638585802331,0.0,0.0,0.08383726230049729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059233594057615975,0.0,0.0,0.2162173455803364,0.15049716484871895,0.0,0.08743834158381683,0.0,0.08179045938031672,0.052042282165425634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21780504391478828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08280436735447998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16337443628170564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06107516376112838,0.0,0.07772661802769701,0.0,0.1398333224751033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05912509031500032,0.3797903037872769,0.0,0.1087201544480174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08715275906323272,0.07238394588925487,0.0,0.11548944805569003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08956645290612865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05214277446811268,0.08353733281477806,0.0750233264718292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08458534864365977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061605054987723465,0.0,0.06905323875690997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16773592483943614,0.0,0.0,0.05455716076428471,0.0,0.0,0.049457266052514576 alcoholism,11221991,2019/04/17,"I think I'm becoming an alcoholic I drink way more then I'm suppose to. I hide my drinking from my family. I cannot just have one beer. If I taste one I have to have 7 or until I pass out. I feel so guilty that its come to this point. I'm only 27 I fear that by 30 I will depend on alcohol. I confessed to my husband that I can't control myself. But i think he is in denial. I tell him not to buy beer during the week n if he does to hide it from me but he tells me ""calm down, you're not an alcoholic. You can control yourself."" N I feel so terrible about myself I just agree with him. I mean I don't drink everyday but most days I do. I'm a problem drinker? I do know I drink to cope with my shit. I am so scared! I mean I don't need AA. But fuck I feel so lost in this cycle of drinking then feeling disappointed because I drank n then drinking because I'm disappointed. Idk what to do.",-1.5637878787878776,0.3876908030303028,1.5134343434343442,97.27348484848488,95.51515151515152,4.751515151515153,18.444444444444443,6.42735559955562,-0.10275555555555503,681,22,168,9,27,239,103,198,0.22699999999999998,0.732,0.040999999999999995,-0.9888,0,0,12,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,0,3,7,10,2,2,4,0,14,15,1,3,0,31,33,15,0,4,11,1,4,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,8,4,13,2,10,8,1,2,6,9,1,2,2,5,37,1,21,30,2,16,1,3,0,1,10,6,2,5,7,106,45,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35704806236011394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357749438790988,0.12299462057781795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0959316540580214,0.0,0.0,0.24981211189372804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0718216368682967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09745683848682928,0.0,0.0,0.6545756895890359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10498563181714693,0.12531732763458234,0.2252392929909412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10295575702879306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06120365360725166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12156877202706792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2426197007672445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08257622488345072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15092850512365652,0.08469860183837577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1052765441183598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10656189520103483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11149645234478103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11431524838014501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1946769888446742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14271723480849907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08839687630255938,0.08933081400814198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,lmp5,2019/04/17,"Alcoholism, Abortion, Phychistrist and Relapse I went back to a new psychiatrist last week. I've been really really bad lately and having repressed memories of my mother's death, a very long time ago abortion. Its weird I keep seeing my birthday coming up popping up on tv or news. It is very strange I feel really weird and freaked out. I feel like my time is coming up unless I do something but I'm literally to tired and worn out to think about it.",2.8929885057471227,5.468860827586205,4.184597701149425,82.27850574712646,78.65517241379311,7.085057471264367,25.75862068965517,8.167268648758528,1.9421862068965523,360,14,65,7,9,118,60,87,0.21899999999999997,0.7609999999999999,0.02,-0.9262,0,0,2,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,1,2,0,5,2,0,0,0,17,15,7,1,0,3,1,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,8,1,2,3,1,0,3,0,5,0,0,3,3,8,1,12,12,0,18,0,0,1,0,1,6,0,1,10,37,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1785858368535943,0.2153039355572872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15491351612101856,0.1682141722501264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3470870984710241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20373268196388866,0.1439260479776185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17907061683224082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1642201929489705,0.22726036630371474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09842522031086448,0.0,0.0,0.17828945653369604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19457535710912804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3871893308378478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16054086505085613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.155096965752854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12909010956261066,0.0,0.0,0.2349507629498219,0.23155343435994505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33245808936874705,0.0,0.0,0.16160241029195596,0.0,0.0,0.1867593100396832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Ishouldbedeactivated,2019/04/17,"Alcoholic, Attempted suicide Monday, now throwing up with blood streaks and 'coffee grounds' Jesus, I wish they'd just let me die!",6.335454545454546,9.305102545454547,5.327272727272729,76.46090909090911,69.0,8.036363636363637,38.27272727272727,8.841846274778883,4.031018181818182,104,6,15,2,2,31,22,22,0.306,0.599,0.095,-0.7901,0,0,1,0,0,1,4.0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,4,3,1,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,5,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4443751644875656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4315458413642674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4251945958473348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4548293988723125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4781617650665184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,kutuup1989,2019/04/17,"Another attempt to kick this. Figure if it takes a hundred attempts it'll be worth it. I'm embarrassed to say this is far from my first attempt to kick the booze once and for all. My biggest problem is the initial fight my body puts up. Not sure whether we're supposed to talk amounts here, but it's pretty bad. So here I am again, ready to give this another shot as I have a week off work. The hurdle I always fall at is that by mid afternoon on day 1, I'm normally a hideous mess of anxiety, and convinced I'm about to drop dead. I sweat bullets, I panic, I stink, I can't stop shaking, I feel sick as a dog (I'm usually hung over going into these attempts). I just feel like HELL. This time, I'm trying a new strategy to make it over that first hurdle. I've packed food and fruit juice in a little fridge I can keep by my bed, and I plan to just stay in bed , watch TV, and ride it out for a few days if necessary. My fear is; how long is it going to take to ride it out? How soon will I feel better? I suspect I can handle the wait, but I just need to go the distance until things start to feel better and I can latch onto that. I've asked my parents to check in on me every six hours or so, and I have a supply of diazepam on hand if things get really bad, but I hope I won't need them. ​ This is going to SUCK, but it's going to be worth it. Please tell me I'm going to feel better soon. ​ We're at about minute 40 at this point, and I feel OK, but I know what's coming. I hope to see you on the other side.",1.8794277108433728,2.780951798192774,3.5928144578313272,92.95700481927716,76.19879518072291,6.516819277108432,22.316144578313256,6.742157984588678,0.34240395180722905,1175,30,280,10,25,394,175,332,0.17,0.685,0.145,-0.904,1,0,0,0,1,0,48.0,0,1,1,11,14,21,3,4,14,1,18,7,3,3,2,49,53,25,1,9,14,1,7,1,0,3,1,1,2,0,24,12,3,3,9,1,3,12,3,12,0,3,0,12,32,9,47,48,3,55,1,0,2,0,9,24,2,6,18,170,56,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08308579664854641,0.21638163214002232,0.2426649456246855,0.0,0.2094094097380736,0.07638736509144127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0933491899766703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16674637216059482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2649359160411623,0.0,0.11091430837074964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08601462308379745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12879400621512282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08413056199353641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11236252317548824,0.3029324326862817,0.07133509037512611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1698700292853194,0.1207427915912177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05216913500817419,0.0957882134270672,0.3404929824107042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19835336147370305,0.09833521138227312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0887540428904428,0.0,0.0,0.05487666451779337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04878319167882005,0.100079060694001,0.0,0.08836687085815842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06665273436954851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14807964959588862,0.0,0.0964387675419986,0.0,0.0,0.09783485882629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10634031617611307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11715612421957534,0.11087507526442487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10960874272876407,0.09439347575961367,0.0,0.0,0.1015865230143787,0.0,0.09554595238468863,0.0,0.1003799673212554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06396846689835604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07940721049953255,0.0,0.0,0.07957001028114552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07067655375891135,0.10643014227092183,0.0,0.08348168119692077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09411038585987484,0.0,0.1501542418797368,0.08025815716963955,0.08727602991414875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13267595478593724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05822515849020154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06779371537034383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10997410684305546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08009615149585404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07269426212894364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2426649456246855,0.0 alcoholism,validati0n,2019/04/17,"Struggling through school I’m a university student, and for the past few weeks I have been drinking a 12 pack every night to cope with the stress of school. Historically I have had a very high tolerance but I don’t normally get hangovers. My classes are structured so they start at 2pm which allows me to sleep in after the drinking the night before and get some homework done in the morning. I feel like I have a problem and I feel addicted to it but it hasn’t really affected aspects of my life other than what I believe might affect my health in the long term. Should I be worried about my health? I am young so I am pretty resilient.",3.3241774891774867,5.368910912698414,4.236002886002886,85.09435064935066,74.79365079365078,6.8040404040404034,28.121212121212125,7.686295010490155,1.7335333333333338,509,21,98,7,11,164,85,126,0.102,0.818,0.079,-0.1981,0,0,2,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,0,3,4,0,2,10,0,14,7,1,3,0,16,20,7,0,3,2,0,2,1,0,2,4,0,1,0,5,4,2,0,2,2,0,0,2,3,0,0,3,2,16,1,15,14,3,15,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,2,11,69,21,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17731405091324653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13840437456628754,0.1832524465108693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16644886920362828,0.0,0.31867292988113843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13704083247716758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16448288539445402,0.11619820358019628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1699573025955349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3457816970536365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1718501504329027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11488550479089918,0.07946326566881072,0.0,0.0,0.14394138418729174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17254744802929814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3052746698752769,0.1593638528157105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15526918028253436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16547496358601482,0.0,0.1556354378760421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10419866156025852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32922383162979024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16276888019372696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11512550890225387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.186316646669288,0.17003857466622654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13420445184585406,0.0,0.0,0.13046915436096182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651804075113525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,TheYearIs2078,2019/04/17,"I have been sober for... ...7 hours, it's a record for me boys, time to celebrate by opening a cold one.",0.12681818181818372,1.5543898636363664,2.1090909090909093,99.53363636363638,82.18181818181819,6.218181818181819,20.090909090909093,7.1686216300943375,0.050109090909091325,75,2,20,1,2,25,20,22,0.0,0.821,0.179,0.5719,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,2,0,4,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.740424927216596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5094758569805998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4384122241796891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,TractorOfDestruction,2019/08/10,"It's like no help can reach me I have issues with my health that has made me look a bit weird. I have struggled with it all my life. There is trauma from childhood abuse and I have been diagnosed with Aspergers' syndrome and some trauma related things. I want to go on with my life. I have a chance. I could fix my life now but I just keep messing up. But I am just tired. I am drunk right now. I can't trust anybody and all those things that ""normal people"" can get but I can't have made me too bitter. I also feel too dumb although a neuropsychiatrist recently did some tests on me and told me I am actually really smart in some areas. I could use that talent. But I keep messing up. I was almost left homeless last year. I had my things packed up and I was ready to go and I still keep thinking that I don't deserve anything else. I should just go. I keep thinking about my family and the pain and worry they go through because of me. I think that they would just feel relieved if I died. I think that it's just realism to think that. I have let everyone down. I have been a great disappointment to everybody. I don't know how to make it better anymore. I drink to numb the pain.",0.7607671957671975,3.0753232880658485,2.2654247501469733,94.27810185185186,85.66666666666666,5.446737213403879,19.37815990593769,6.868970318607317,0.1741641387419164,921,26,204,12,28,298,125,243,0.21,0.672,0.11900000000000001,-0.977,0,0,1,0,1,0,24.0,0,0,2,1,14,19,2,1,6,0,29,11,0,5,2,51,53,16,1,7,10,0,2,1,0,2,9,0,0,0,15,12,2,4,8,2,0,4,5,12,0,0,9,4,43,7,21,39,6,21,0,1,1,0,4,10,1,5,8,147,58,1,0.0,0.13157290339268274,0.10836615549084176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11119783990430002,0.0,0.0,0.08880449343913698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101290919106498,0.0,0.0,0.09138247403122096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06769340928341272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09821232125726967,0.121234901180881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17732448157193514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11271068180826592,0.11524957534948943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10878408734427243,0.0,0.0,0.0927657779667902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10611046323710137,0.0,0.0,0.1046855206186512,0.0,0.11229771275559666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05801763600455701,0.0,0.25244298073327576,0.0,0.0,0.12243005096512427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11803809739460372,0.0,0.0,0.07443267090865924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11590454031997995,0.0,0.3948158046740645,0.0,0.0,0.06102869726781294,0.09051837868467706,0.0,0.0,0.12065322689867893,0.11355339784386732,0.23530799668033656,0.054252106298462666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0932517721603362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21015129888138165,0.0741249415148436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10880278592028676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23632433385615745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07698622237907965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0711397501165558,0.0,0.10964582147202327,0.0,0.0,0.0948337957234227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08868252496442318,0.0,0.0,0.11609075904430127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2213246946720931,0.3557731607788888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12763254676995808,0.0,0.10611046323710137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0959092212818936,0.0,0.0,0.06549858039199173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.112773933355304,0.0,0.07888482270110575,0.0,0.0,0.07151082661156476 alcoholism,authenticreality,2019/08/10,"I’m 43 days sober and I’m going crazy. I’ve had my streaks. 21 days. 46 days. 29 days. 5 days and now 43 days. All I want is a fucking drink. Life is getting hard. My boyfriend and I have been fighting, I’m about to work two jobs again and am already stressed on top of preparing to go back to school part time. I’m super anxious about my health ever since getting ultimately sober (I drink busch NA, 0.0 heineken, and FRE wines...I know it’s not great but it helps), but I’m trying to outweigh the pros and cons. But fuck man. All I need is a fucking drink.",-1.0684934086628992,1.0127992881355965,0.466666666666665,103.39297551789078,98.49152542372879,3.300188323917138,18.419962335216574,5.033348758259628,-0.7941653483992472,428,14,104,2,18,135,75,118,0.13,0.826,0.044000000000000004,-0.8293,1,0,4,0,2,0,22.0,0,0,0,3,6,7,4,1,3,0,7,8,0,0,3,16,22,9,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,6,3,0,1,3,0,2,1,5,0,1,2,1,7,2,8,20,3,15,0,0,0,3,3,2,3,0,11,45,9,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15552109775862613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15921215594533972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10836740344878304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5453338396959384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4141768062988537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274803504067329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3908659057873498,0.14726148389288898,0.0,0.16018891194655985,0.0,0.0,0.15537715960014398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12624668492278945,0.0,0.0,0.14980328892457276,0.0,0.0,0.09446322121138552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13985248262265199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07745210886395072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09954388340437156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10449870852953967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15261476977398633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1426299112727248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11657975553905843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1614362280611252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08217812349986485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09568304249710796,0.0,0.13766931676158398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08312488068838915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10259960137281887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,twinkylourson,2019/08/10,"I feel reaaal dumb Hi i just drank every day for a few weeks i don't really know. I noticed i began to have trouble with orientation and got really clumsy. I also began to sweat a lot and my hands shaked also shaked. I thought it was because of the weather, my antidepressants or whatever, but last night i didn't drink and realized how much i had been drinking lately, and this might clearly be an alcohol withdrawal. I feel real dumb for not considering my alcohol consumption before, and even if many people go through real bad stuff i felt the need to share my experience here and get support I swore myself to stop drinking.",5.812750000000001,6.873086108333336,6.780000000000001,73.17000000000002,67.08333333333334,10.0,31.66666666666667,10.125756701596842,3.331666666666667,503,20,88,12,8,168,85,120,0.131,0.778,0.091,-0.7140000000000001,0,0,5,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,6,8,2,2,5,0,8,8,2,1,1,26,21,12,0,2,5,0,4,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,7,6,1,6,3,0,3,3,6,0,0,10,4,17,2,9,9,3,11,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,4,8,61,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3240234194604261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24246506062637604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265776474385173,0.09241247796294093,0.0,0.1289983752714497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09776789803373356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44552374511079146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10012877213475728,0.0,0.12772749987707066,0.0,0.0,0.1482915229726818,0.0,0.0,0.15330458334380495,0.0,0.1455574509048898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07920347882444181,0.0,0.0861563985359405,0.0,0.12124643378641475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08331406559472415,0.12357226152426315,0.17100867387063032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12888284171570652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15369615239267026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16082107608783658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11144166467009817,0.11240768501587237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14226405974826398,0.0,0.0,0.17259485012150444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10509867436681268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34510247096674385,0.1942345838251715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12674236534443406,0.0,0.0,0.173542960209064,0.0,0.1720311377792446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12035154526127588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12160243480991505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Beckyboy67,2019/08/10,"Finally admitted a problem and sought help I’m an Alcoholic, that’s it. Said it and recognised I have a serious issue. My relationship with drink has caused me so my grief when I look back. Well this week I finally came to terms that Alcahol is causing issues with relationships at home and now work that I need to take control and get help. Attended a peer group session today (not AA) and came out with hope for a better future.",3.9060413080894985,5.931703012048197,5.099345955249572,79.62168674698798,73.09638554216869,9.080206540447504,28.72461273666093,9.606745405546679,2.871972117039588,342,14,64,9,7,113,62,83,0.087,0.743,0.171,0.7369,0,0,2,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,3,5,6,0,0,5,0,3,2,0,3,0,19,13,7,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,6,11,2,1,1,1,0,3,1,3,2,0,3,2,7,3,8,10,1,14,0,1,1,0,7,2,0,1,9,40,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17214884806082892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12386296274733093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14246491387182808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.368472312437976,0.0,0.3309534372773713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806683966153584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15780011546137898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3529173301931688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0841592725904997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21594121622428006,0.0,0.1615794857095962,0.15999186698123025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33625781658872106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13526923627450946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11944107941883073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15413477433355927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3458859368093766,0.0,0.0,0.1532269181261078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1211144460320894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15268794620654114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12921114843352002,0.0,0.14483305444029618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1172704171023042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,throwawayactrecovery,2019/08/10,"Want to do AA but the outdated info puts me off TL;DR I like AA and want to continue going but what I perceive as outdated beliefs about alcoholism hold me back. I went to AA for a few weeks. After some recovery time, I thought I could drink normally again, and I relapsed. I realize now that was a common mistake. I've come to have a love hate relationship with AA. I think the 12 steps they outline are very important in growth as a person. I also see the necessity of numbing down your ego, acceptance, and service. But there are certain elements -- particularly the parts based on 1930s medicine -- that I do not agree with. For example I don't think alcoholism is an ""allergy."" So I love the core of AA, but some of the ideas that have stuck around for so long, which I disagree with, can make me uncomfortable in meetings. Have you had a similar experience? Was AA still able to help you? Thank you for your support.",3.731609848484848,5.764896971590911,4.9428181818181836,80.52339393939396,73.60227272727272,9.011515151515152,29.915151515151514,9.558583805096642,2.951358787878787,721,32,139,19,15,238,111,176,0.114,0.6829999999999999,0.203,0.9589,0,0,3,0,0,0,27.0,0,5,1,0,10,10,1,0,12,0,14,6,0,1,1,32,30,12,0,5,5,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,5,8,3,1,9,1,0,6,2,3,6,0,6,1,22,7,25,23,4,22,1,0,1,2,12,6,0,2,11,98,27,2,0.17332037166158415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37045353443077017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386042385988433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15429187683147472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13327266737969076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1493001533519341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13838221356477534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16978798047372184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16954058105686126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0985019613848106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1711179843884381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11617299168812473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1956576029777821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08467557884371629,0.0,0.0,0.15338307484647698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3128568046073629,0.0,0.11569269393885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16981716482905093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18768907256257572,0.0,0.0,0.15133666325651274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17423484492776456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1860812158261656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1381138963501172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13841387269599228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1966819038222372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15957011189966813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22211339158173554,0.0,0.1375970150259145,0.10106450252137722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14300745819853258,0.20445769156397686,0.0,0.13902714762326676,0.0,0.0,0.16066972095278775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,burnermcghee,2019/08/10,How is my grandfather still alive? My grandfather is 82 years old and has drank 6 - 12 beers a day for 60 years (at least). His doctor says his health is fine though. How is this possible?,1.5258108108108104,3.884315567567569,2.0499324324324317,96.84084459459463,82.51351351351352,6.943243243243244,17.35810810810811,8.07648339933343,0.3756540540540545,144,3,33,3,4,44,29,37,0.0,0.8740000000000001,0.126,0.5803,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,5,4,0,2,0,3,6,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,4,1,2,5,1,6,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,5,19,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2166680615954477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34387192227777696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3571124973649977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3525361980549164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3787473138882252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2671709170518093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2683001392068078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3300815153428513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4326977551073049 alcoholism,deceasd,2019/05/05,Need help with my alcoholic uncle So my uncle has been a severe alcoholic for 10+ years now. About a year ago he was drinking 26oz of vodka straight a day now he's up to a 66 a day. He goes through DT's by himself in his apartment every month when he runs out of money and refuses to go to the hospital. He used to work in the detox clinic here so he also refuses to go there. He has been told he will die if he keeps it up since he has liver cirrhosis. If at any point you call him and start saying he needs help or ask him what he needs he just hangs up. He's been admitted to the hospital with stage 4 hepatic encephelopathy a few months ago so If he does keep this up he really will die. I just don't understand.. He doesn't even drink for fun he sits there and watches his plants grow. How can I help a person who doesn't want help?,2.0527387529597507,3.1561055801104985,3.8598776637726933,90.41636740331494,76.07182320441989,7.8233622730860315,22.320836621941595,8.418075326091056,1.005496921862668,654,17,154,12,14,221,108,181,0.064,0.84,0.096,0.5828,0,0,5,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,1,15,1,0,0,10,0,13,7,1,2,0,24,27,13,2,7,6,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,1,4,6,4,4,2,3,1,5,3,0,0,0,5,2,10,1,23,20,1,30,0,0,1,0,37,11,0,4,12,82,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24578359720378,0.2963178755143024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1108665721923676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09427673493661416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12960525939453646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14156210701420885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17881655521750398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2877630369994947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12132065558851113,0.0,0.0,0.27161956351229904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09156728574198207,0.0,0.11680619095790193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15757923312238514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3716971861754389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2464507887857294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22131469344641716,0.0,0.0,0.3083888794598586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1210509669249048,0.0,0.0,0.13105513731864302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08881330140630295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11024832799471034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1566183897047627,0.0,0.114680524714273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09812675487944644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13247193781815006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14432420121898126,0.0,0.11973635785052175,0.0,0.0,0.08177067184672533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10092812484040613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1785531320326841 alcoholism,Babyhandgrenade,2019/05/05,"My alcoholic ex said he is not a good man and that I deserve better. Is it a cop-out? We were together for 18 months and there were a lot of ups and downs. He was abusive and I left and went back twice. Last Thursday we split up and he told me that he is not a good man and that I deserve better. Of course I'm not perfect and I made some mistakes in the relationship but I'm wondering if this is just a cop-out or if this is how he really thinks of himself because he is an alcoholic. I asked him if he was doing this because he didn't love me anymore and he said no, I'm doing this because I do love you and I am not a good man and you deserve better. Is it just that he does not want to be with me or does he really think this? He knows that I have been affected badly by his alcoholism and I am wondering if this is just an excuse to get out of the relationship or if this is part of the self-loathing that they go through. I know that he is trying to change The Narrative of the break up into my expectations and needs but I know that it is his inability to help himself. I don't think that he is ready to stop and so he is telling me that he would rather drink and that he is not willing to put in the effort that it takes for a relationship to work. I am struggling with trying to figure out what it is about me that he doesn't think is valuable enough to want to step up and put in the effort. I keep thinking that he will be willing to put in the effort for someone else so maybe it was something about me. Is this just really about him not being ready to quit or is it something about me that he is not wanting to put in the effort for? I'm struggling to make sense of all of this. Any advice would be appreciated.",3.399819819819818,3.654074040540544,4.805743243243246,88.0665427927928,72.1081081081081,8.004504504504505,26.22747747747748,7.937092434478242,1.2276396396396403,1345,40,313,17,24,451,140,370,0.132,0.807,0.061,-0.9761,0,0,6,0,0,0,20.0,2,2,1,10,14,14,0,2,18,0,44,6,0,4,2,76,75,30,0,14,24,1,0,0,0,5,3,2,0,3,32,23,4,2,11,1,0,7,12,4,0,1,12,2,34,10,47,54,5,27,0,0,0,2,47,14,0,13,5,227,66,1,0.0,0.10606529297367803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08747686165618736,0.0,0.2870055329220192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06087594165706435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08877872340907696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08368811472581368,0.0,0.0,0.06883453095590186,0.0747445667550871,0.16370972524495273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375166548545576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09469915741013248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15667723657100688,0.0,0.0,0.08769447049905355,0.0,0.0,0.07478157860979426,0.0,0.0,0.09249698388230852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046769945800297495,0.0,0.05087567048420194,0.22525269209327525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06000265132994974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07956853750580455,0.0,0.0,0.14759178725866298,0.07296987530964939,0.0,0.0,0.09726257861038982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07610579246137547,0.16158865748635726,0.08470497537828271,0.05975458043183895,0.0,0.08993379664105297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07145315530471759,0.0,0.0,0.06637715178372804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09694027687302004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35996499695194434,0.0,0.0952144004105114,0.0,0.0,0.17204435511316005,0.0,0.0,0.2883294856237709,0.0,0.0,0.1703060027805816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09338776661014328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07584909829371328,0.1378320905445224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07484183328487097,0.0,0.18716924308983915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06730709406337376,0.0,0.07824348991238407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28680057638891393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0855391731930251,0.0,0.121554953632065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15840175156512418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08298494431039011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19415892040216176,0.0651708466937509,0.0,0.0,0.12718335789851914,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,trutasite,2019/05/05,"Second day sober I thought my addiction wasn't that bad but even two days feels like hell. It makes it harder to be sober when i know that i can't drink or smoke weed even on weekends. My life feels like complete failure, i'm angry for no reason and my head hurts. It's weird because i haven't had any real struggle being sober for few days a week but now that i have decided to quit, it's suddenly 1000 times harder. For the first time in years i'm actually trying to quit everything, not just switch the substance. I didn't even realise how fucked i am.",4.933120300751881,5.128172587719298,5.252656641604009,86.41026315789475,68.73684210526315,8.268671679197995,27.68922305764411,7.957251820313856,1.4793749373433585,441,13,94,5,7,140,78,114,0.259,0.6759999999999999,0.065,-0.9816,0,0,2,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,3,7,8,2,1,3,0,9,5,1,3,0,15,17,6,0,0,5,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,7,1,1,0,6,2,0,0,6,6,0,3,4,2,10,2,8,11,1,14,1,1,0,1,0,2,2,1,14,54,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.16335821028227138,0.18249066227423807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11383771113823653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13977197178075754,0.10204546002721444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17551566998025242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3238773708052824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16398822801508794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3316982784039915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15044828732567314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16928489611405678,0.2391811254349116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14239031789427467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1547585627847293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17180065075433334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17920511619962312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09199863847131694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11823954022266984,0.16356632656788114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11174077116878284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3561009198409459,0.0,0.19053779956237132,0.0,0.17211503620300733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17500278146704382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13289686708864198,0.1952245222243174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11365358237035968,0.0,0.1635254338082607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13427814808280936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10780008387451102 alcoholism,drunkyMcPhee,2019/05/05,"Help me be inspired by life I just want to drink until I die. It’s 6:30 here. Sun is coming up but the day doesn’t look any brighter. Contemplating suicide.",0.6740625000000016,3.101463281250002,1.9112500000000023,95.60875,88.0625,4.45,20.5,5.985473137389443,-0.07052500000000039,123,4,27,1,4,39,31,32,0.222,0.561,0.217,-0.4939,0,0,1,0,0,1,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,5,6,2,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,4,5,0,4,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,2,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2597350058702507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32901092173944524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2463222716099741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39639755319568987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3741596957657411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2560090007840818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2697783306319088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3207367506858496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4177847254059525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2252804570120417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Crazy4sixflags,2019/05/05,"I fucked up. But I told the truth. We have been trying. It has almost been a month now. Today was a rough one and I decided I didn’t care. I can try to explain but there is no excuse. I told her. She was asking and I didn’t want her to think she was crazy. I thought for sure she would leave me, but she didn’t. I am so lucky. I can’t believe I told her. I am glad I did. She said that in the morning we will work on germs help. I need a structure. I am not a fan of AA because I am an atheist but now I don’t care. I don’t want to loose herald out 20 years.",-2.864485829959513,-1.2191163230769178,0.1491902834008112,106.17949392712549,100.69230769230772,3.0445344129554663,12.995951417004047,4.4396938790447145,-1.727,418,8,117,1,19,144,76,130,0.11800000000000001,0.6659999999999999,0.215,0.9106,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,2,0,0,1,4,7,1,0,7,0,22,1,0,0,2,22,36,7,0,4,5,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,2,5,0,0,4,0,0,0,8,1,1,1,14,2,29,6,9,20,0,9,0,0,0,1,18,4,1,2,5,82,31,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18796185979312105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17548109247317706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11442469669912315,0.0,0.0,0.21148197567948024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3827604350983836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17353247859838414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12581632220015734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19875504750672854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14982626618615727,0.0,0.0,0.13918266827289005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271954009231963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1785527342836544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17691201528251474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1202753309273431,0.0,0.1490187187634421,0.0,0.0,0.17792467942803478,0.5380874313040657,0.0,0.25488202391422377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2214293909824761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1366532322145121,0.0,0.0,0.13334196057325642,0.0,0.0,0.12087741971265893 alcoholism,7Z7Z77,2019/05/05,"it took me 7 minutes to get drunk. I am very much a lightweight. I took 2 shots and timed it. felt it within a few minutes and at 7 minutes I couldn't stand up. fast forward only one hour and I'm near completely sober is my metabolism just insane? it really sucks it never lasts more than 2 hours.",0.06951612903225879,2.3835055483871,2.277661290322584,92.53649193548388,90.29032258064517,5.035483870967743,19.04032258064516,6.6274283507984215,0.18434838709677506,232,7,50,3,8,78,47,62,0.141,0.8590000000000001,0.0,-0.7841,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,1,7,9,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,1,0,1,1,0,3,2,1,0,1,3,1,5,0,6,5,3,14,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,7,30,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26735481812051404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24483281866403506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13322307341900466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5022325589105988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2078529467889869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18744885066461245,0.0,0.19666596028874067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17278953878310332,0.1939333108114481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1633547453061195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1486881958682638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5666121703676568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2103955436850668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,samlynnsmith,2019/04/30,"Please...help My SO is slowing killing themselves with alcohol. I stopped having ""expectations"" of sobriety a long time ago. I learned that I did not cause it, cannot control it and cannot cure it. How long does this last? I am noticing that even my SO is recognizing that their health is failing. I lost my very best friend on this earth to alcohol a few years ago. I am not sure I can stand by (My SO was there during that time and knows how awfully painful and long her demise was) and watch it again. Just looking for some support in the battle to stay detached with love. Boundaries are hard when you want the last thing a loved one remembers of you to be support and gentle caring.",4.250597014925372,5.686111970149256,4.16585074626866,89.06235820895525,71.08955223880595,7.44955223880597,29.07164179104477,7.908726449838941,1.6757785074626868,540,21,112,7,10,165,87,134,0.151,0.6629999999999999,0.18600000000000005,0.8122,0,0,2,0,0,0,17.0,0,2,1,4,10,13,2,0,5,1,14,6,0,4,1,22,23,11,1,2,3,0,1,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,11,7,2,2,3,0,0,0,4,5,0,1,4,3,15,8,11,18,3,18,0,2,2,2,7,2,0,1,14,77,26,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2558300910089407,0.30842997629963115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15143608083027946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14712553979673051,0.14823793764172105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16184700017997616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12627968144977506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09531013180424182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11148739268371737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12926627769590707,0.0,0.0,0.15338631313548606,0.0,0.0,0.09672261091551723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15964881931025585,0.0,0.07930462347319643,0.23525083314464065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3831082746641006,0.1211773642640756,0.0,0.15752271512371238,0.0,0.2604764372905721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16428882091627808,0.0,0.0,0.09778279207816608,0.0,0.15354753708548372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16346607330758686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1538067671051225,0.0,0.12064296094535007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3275044738211048,0.1360029582904889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09586785868548882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16828735169337486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11906428969727295,0.08511307775785228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0929257780778189 alcoholism,momdi2016,2019/04/30,Withdrawal Would I be better off going to the ER are going to urgent care for withdrawal symptoms?,4.003333333333334,7.044391555555558,5.6200000000000045,70.80000000000003,77.8888888888889,8.044444444444443,25.66666666666667,8.841846274778883,2.9431333333333334,80,3,11,2,2,27,15,18,0.0,0.5429999999999999,0.457,0.7964,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,4,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,9,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4080117953637792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4703600241221048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5243726676928723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4795019181676175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3277179250546342,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,PenSurfer,2019/04/30,"Tomorrow will be 700 days without my ""best"" pal, Alcohol I'm thinking to stop counting days. It only makes it worse, thinking constantly about it when I reach hundred more days. All of a sudden, those memories enter into my mind, desire is present. **What's even weirder, I miss passing out from alcohol more than alcohol itself.** All in all, I am proud of my achievement!",2.1260294117647054,5.010428955882354,3.3737647058823548,82.98594117647062,90.3235294117647,6.249411764705883,28.858823529411765,7.554174236665415,2.5221070588235293,291,15,48,6,10,94,52,68,0.12300000000000001,0.779,0.098,-0.2003,0,0,3,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,3,3,3,0,0,1,0,4,3,0,1,3,12,9,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,6,2,3,1,2,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,6,2,10,7,6,14,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,9,35,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6673534374263137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2184426436213791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2249383250840153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4027223892112901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1374824086906624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13894305188879322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21017414556843356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1583089478442079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1740243618213322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.266750746663819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2006510647870782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21212463361335426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,guccibaby913,2019/02/06,"My head uses everything as an excuse to drink... Everything. Positive. Negative. Stressful. Joyous. Alcohol is where my mind goes when anything happens or even when nothing's happening to cure the boredom. It is my crutch for every emotion I experience. I haven't drank for 11 days. When does this get better?",3.026666666666668,6.053970555555559,4.231481481481481,75.41166666666669,93.44444444444444,7.5851851851851855,30.074074074074073,8.167268648758528,3.5789407407407414,246,13,36,7,9,80,45,54,0.145,0.67,0.185,0.3818,0,0,2,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,1,2,0,3,4,1,1,0,3,8,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,5,1,5,7,0,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,4,24,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2402045116453549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18496173694052667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987856174970633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1449542767056319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19669261449416686,0.0,0.0,0.2201832896296096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2528294062581396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14845459536430727,0.0,0.18937348283494054,0.0,0.4040070342056455,0.2198624588069281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11742998690230065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3975163752761206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23067285317648775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22694770940916725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2156672552626159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2574665641772767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19412405217713447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,speedandanal,2019/02/06,"Getting drunk is the only thing i look forward to in life. Sup guys, so not too long ago I got busted by the pigs. What it ends up is basically I won't be able to get the job I've wanted, I've been going to collage for 3 years for that shit, and have 2 more years ahead of me. And I'm looking at a super high fine. I got all my drugs(even legal one's ) confiscated, the pigs took my PC , for who knows how long, and even my fucking vape. The fucking assholes. So basically I still go to my job, and work my ass off . But I'm going from deep depression to anger to a moment of relief, brought on by the booze. Like my last 2 days were shit, since I couldn't get wasted , but today was good since I got drunk and don't give a damn about the fucks . So guys , is there anything I can look forward to , or am I , like alot of my family members and friends, will just live this sad pathetic life , waiting for my next glass . Is there anything you would recommend for a fucked guy like me. Like fuck I had it all, the brains , the fizique heck even the mental strength, but this shit has got me fucking destroyed.",4.1488334373050515,4.112436288209612,4.856534622582657,89.37747816593887,70.39737991266375,7.76556456643793,27.274173424828447,7.1686216300943375,1.0828400499064257,846,25,195,7,14,273,136,229,0.2,0.654,0.145,-0.9619,2,0,1,0,0,0,32.0,0,1,0,4,12,24,12,0,15,0,18,16,5,1,2,21,45,14,0,3,6,0,0,4,1,3,2,0,0,3,8,6,3,1,1,2,0,7,4,14,0,1,10,3,22,10,25,30,4,27,0,2,3,7,7,9,12,2,19,114,30,5,0.0937978926328201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08314617237800166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1543753470768103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10470946900379212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060491881042118535,0.0,0.08078798748124949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08307709218315558,0.0,0.0,0.1858578703649509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08842430537555528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07246801917238396,0.5202878417996193,0.14701658260619324,0.0899794855699867,0.1599225118695469,0.07867322212953584,0.30007497335611144,0.0,0.0,0.2786239817704929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09910262342823403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1861598703716187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05154886876418666,0.07645780153371094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325044509995981,0.18329964970332904,0.0,0.08282525765183545,0.16601636666499814,0.2362998186259633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09452621427408972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09975512292889548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06355987955654019,0.07133752404217934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28884656662696145,0.15518117213309265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07490711822024748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06231515200059079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08890943471620083,0.0,0.1042129099871172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0553244272944368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06828598296420263,0.0,0.0,0.06663133173334343,0.0,0.0,0.12080553514165365 alcoholism,JMinnick4,2019/02/06,"Getting Withdrawls Hi guys, I’m an 18 year old guy on vacation and have never had an alcohol problem in the past. I am on vacation and got very drunk for 5 or 6 days in a row before deciding it was time to take a night off. I am now laying in bed at 130am unable to sleep and shaking and i just feel very off. Im wondering if these symptoms are dangerous and how to make them leave. Should i taper off by drinking a little bit?",1.4929945054945082,3.1144942747252737,3.7583379120879137,88.37728708791211,78.78021978021978,7.187362637362638,24.561813186813183,8.07648339933343,1.3898670329670328,333,12,73,6,8,115,69,91,0.132,0.868,0.0,-0.8553,0,0,2,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,3,3,1,1,6,0,7,5,1,2,1,16,14,8,0,3,3,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,1,2,2,5,3,0,3,2,0,1,1,3,0,0,3,1,5,0,14,10,1,19,0,0,0,0,4,10,0,3,8,45,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21388408248853014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1703006479185363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21849623155558892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12907089989111847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19605668752494496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10119456860364624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10456258641103834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16006671547752666,0.0,0.0,0.3963314022623384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21618078255807105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21191469439260746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20058844046604152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13359206158882822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15435690634553234,0.0,0.0,0.18781369532498954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21000863713868964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910520681644441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19150273242758534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20028012730688816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20801751040472785,0.15047705783385018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1167006730123888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3302656462199421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21703851206831865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12888075940062793 alcoholism,gripxp_,2019/02/06,"On my way I’ve been sober for a whole day, I know it’s not much and may sound silly to some people, but I’m proud of my self. I finally came to a point where I want to become sober permanently. I have an amazing therapist and she’s helping me set small goals. One day at a time :) ",-0.6683640552995413,1.2485025322580692,1.9481566820276512,96.8708064516129,88.19354838709677,5.478341013824887,16.921658986175114,6.868970318607317,-0.2598921658986177,215,5,54,3,7,74,48,62,0.0,0.7120000000000001,0.28800000000000003,0.9562,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,0,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,9,7,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,1,8,3,7,4,3,12,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,2,4,32,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3003902362435101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3110827034108526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3508205214977378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2979504116079591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18230834462544315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14947791927547124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1999430472702312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1843066351072252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1885627720939871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2571173097656419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28374361401700937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3157999348075515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1585988437358079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16042602825893426,0.2158920319520306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3036657573734548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,amstr,2019/02/06,Feeling embarrassed I have not had a drink in 35 days. Really proud of myself. My husband announced this afternoon that he is going to an alanon meeting tonight. I know in my head that he is going to find support for himself and to support me in the best way. But for some reason I’m so embarrassed. Like it’s so bad he needs to go get help. I feels so selfish because I want him to go on one hand and I’m embarrassed at the same time. Thoughts appreciated. ,1.9689247311827955,4.096624387096775,3.6658064516129047,87.18537634408602,79.32258064516128,6.713978494623658,27.53763440860215,7.793537801064563,1.7305827956989257,360,16,74,6,9,120,66,93,0.13,0.621,0.249,0.9071,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,3,10,0,3,4,0,4,3,2,1,0,14,19,6,0,2,2,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,6,1,0,4,1,5,0,1,2,3,10,5,13,17,3,14,0,0,0,0,8,5,0,1,5,46,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17616787211939944,0.12861757134426086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22142103216527945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13607112240378205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2066899165403786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2133658096856916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19284107610079212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1102335887205779,0.0,0.4796420128418013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21653665385498766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14142217776116908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11595460928887798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1030790770664988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15644644279498626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14297231301314367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351656236978898,0.2169329036525155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4788579989301743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675025256355714,0.12302999030353234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12444739341233095,0.16747407466547198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Pissene,2019/09/27,"After 1 year I am happy again, Nope I have quit booze for a year, everyone said it would be thought.... I did it on my own, slowly detoxed over 60 day and precise measurements after drinking for 30years. And my life turned to hell, for 12 months I did not enjoy music, movies, spending time with anyone, lost my friends. Its the opposite of being a drunk. I thought I would give it a 12 months, nope did not work and I'm sitting here typing this drunk. Here is a cute part, I used to hide my booze in the basement and as I'm coming up after a few shots I can hear my daughter saying he is drunk again. This is important: my wife asks me with her cute hands on the side and takes a small step back while innocent shaking her her in absolute disbelief and says: nah he's not drunk. (she is a modeld thats why I thought its cute) I will continue to drink, she will get used to it...",3.784833333333335,4.341483594444443,4.420000000000002,90.09000000000002,71.3888888888889,7.777777777777778,26.666666666666664,7.793537801064563,1.2448333333333337,677,21,152,8,12,216,107,180,0.131,0.7759999999999999,0.09300000000000001,-0.6031,0,0,2,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,3,5,9,1,1,10,0,16,11,1,2,1,20,32,8,0,2,3,2,1,0,1,4,2,4,0,0,9,9,8,0,3,6,1,3,5,3,0,0,8,5,22,6,20,18,3,26,1,1,0,0,16,8,1,0,14,97,31,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11372741394974255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15205412548069558,0.0,0.0,0.1250664379483877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14010703568854885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10489464336589367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3186666604908777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15541733992718682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12566160773256954,0.0,0.08497697947603783,0.15602698885390426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17314204969822122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18331635964013013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11488324459871685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.177549740471563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25964850751605995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17613216729850584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17299639781613366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15471569888840314,0.25868877817548275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1222912161420268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38737354507795335,0.094841482367604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1769145527174788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2809516722740683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14676471606459046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1184098379240724,0.0,0.0,0.2310812511945928,0.0,0.0,0.20948023614089126 alcoholism,followoldrafiki,2019/09/27,"Interviewing for jobs after recent DUI - when should I tell the employer? I know it is an unavoidable discussion and I dont plan on withholding information but I was wondering when in the application process is the best time to let employers know about my record. If I have been called into an interview and it seems to be going well, I feel like it is a little premature to offer up that information out of the blue. Of course if I am asked anything along the lines of whether I am going to pass a background check, I would be honest but is it a good idea to say ""Thanks for considering me, great to meet you all.. by the way I have a record!"" ? Seems weird and self-sabatoging to me but I'm not sure when I should or IF i should even bring it up. I am a real estate paralegal in CA.",3.99561565017261,4.914441139240509,5.1725776754890695,83.56097238204836,71.15189873417722,9.289758342922902,26.38895281933257,9.573946990214177,2.0689417721518986,612,19,132,14,11,203,97,158,0.027999999999999997,0.787,0.185,0.9829,3,1,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,2,6,9,0,0,13,0,19,0,0,0,2,32,31,14,0,7,9,0,1,1,0,4,0,1,0,0,6,6,0,1,9,0,1,4,2,1,1,0,2,3,17,8,23,22,2,19,0,0,1,0,12,8,0,7,7,97,23,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15413713729088793,0.0,0.17510611955192784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1965664211733253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19126068919312564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2195216055946798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12371405419105215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0947077005299089,0.13381166849542234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21290098999788493,0.15710364990419354,0.0,0.206505872971818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21144603005339951,0.0,0.0,0.18587261529036211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2058773039180156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1915333969545095,0.0,0.09150840405118607,0.18773013425084964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21319559245761266,0.0,0.0,0.18494238875423047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14895349920541665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3410332679524076,0.19540133599973733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17653398472526424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16371397472205124,0.17244648898306775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1092198182551262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14867503404885754,0.0,0.0,0.16841087130830154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20312570810922653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330570317311996,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,SuperGirl1975,2019/09/27,"New to group but not new to failing in sobriety :-( I stop drinking then start again and really want to knock it on the head but the noise in my head never goes away! I feel like my will power is non-existent even though if I think rationally about the pros and cons of having that first drink - I know it makes sense not to. The thought of being like this forever scares me yet the thought of never having a drink again also scares me. Instead of feeling proud of myself when I stop drinking, I feel like I am not normal and everyone else is. Came on here in the hope that I can get some support please - I am on day 1 today and want to keep going instead of failing like I usually do!",6.593103802672148,5.2979691942446046,6.8406166495375125,81.3864748201439,65.69064748201438,9.957245632065778,31.36793422404933,8.841846274778883,2.254179033915724,534,16,113,7,7,173,83,139,0.091,0.662,0.247,0.9768,1,0,4,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,5,11,11,0,2,7,0,10,6,2,1,2,29,27,11,0,5,6,0,3,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,5,4,3,7,4,0,2,5,4,0,1,3,3,15,7,19,22,1,25,0,2,0,0,1,7,0,3,20,81,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1019360927136626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11976035751368062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1457894043412998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08220629803436871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4994803476198825,0.0,0.0,0.10648313590075993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0841913946138555,0.0,0.0,0.1218011116277583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19335491283724615,0.1821262921161522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10842419352350442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06659675534145502,0.0,0.07244298709551486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26163783156496234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12660445954441849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11329939204500312,0.0,0.0,0.07005306490655756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24909765366059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08508586241562763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19662231932074914,0.2462187270852628,0.0,0.0,0.12489155045601845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13992155748122415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08165924811539013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2552353577804841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09022248803477223,0.0,0.0,0.21313786771789733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14464914627286554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08167633077496228,0.12523663721409595,0.20239066600841887,0.0,0.0,0.12082473486414305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14038796476449994,0.0,0.1503678272322396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,T_larson9116,2019/09/27,"Back To Square One, Again. Seemed to be doing well for nearly a month until a couple days ago. I don't know why but the thought of doing it again popped into mind while I was grocery shopping. The thought persisted and I found myself debating on whether I should walk into the liquor department. I chose wrong. It's hard sometimes. I was doing pretty well at first, I was doing all of my computer hobbies outside of work (being a geek) to keep myself occupied and basically cleaned my entire home up. I need to find new ways to stay dry and keep the thought out of my head, but not sure what else I can do. What do some of you do to combat temptation?",4.3941085271317855,5.426469961240312,5.0015503875969,84.73317829457369,70.31782945736434,7.903875968992247,27.511627906976752,8.167268648758528,1.6951767441860466,511,17,102,7,9,164,85,129,0.08800000000000001,0.845,0.067,-0.4201,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,3,5,5,0,0,7,0,15,2,1,0,2,25,24,8,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,4,6,1,2,7,2,1,2,2,2,2,2,7,2,15,3,20,14,2,21,0,0,1,0,1,7,0,2,10,78,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1535189372748573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13316934188855634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19162701210385924,0.0,0.11169064102101872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1446746781093566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15828886412038498,0.14731192094022133,0.0,0.18988950713385244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551406364989231,0.0,0.17773879752268287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17371967614348055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30787134385999315,0.0,0.0,0.0951784949813612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17486848762411802,0.0,0.13823541085630373,0.0,0.0,0.12841522266111974,0.0,0.16726411550630196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11735531394611255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17619242087432116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15766202764735668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17128537981086375,0.0,0.0,0.18459323012815326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16322575300387884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4124710106827912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13746698361377382,0.0,0.0,0.31143002098000944,0.0,0.15627342532013247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12608146876292026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18935170099426546,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,AtraxAus,2019/09/27,"Day 3, withdrawals are kicking my ass Posting from a throwaway, just need to get some stuff of my chest and perhaps glean some insight from others. I've been drinking on the daily pretty much ever since I turned 21 a handful of months ago. I would drink myself to sleep every night. I'd never drink during the day, so I thought I was at the very least a semi-functioning alcoholic. But there came a point where I was waking up every day incredibly nauseous and physically ill. I couldn't eat for the first half of the day, and I felt feverish until I started drinking again in the evenings. I saw myself quickly going in the wrong direction, so I tried quitting cold turkey and failed initially. Got about a day and a half in. That was about 2 weeks ago. I'm giving it another go, and so far I'm 3 days clean. I find myself struggling immensely with the effects of withdrawal. I haven't gotten a wink of sleep this entire time, my body aches, and the nausea is more or less constant. I know that in time this will pass but God fucking damn it really really sucks.",4.547131410256412,5.839318552884612,5.135307692307691,82.94302564102564,70.20192307692308,7.6620512820512845,27.80897435897436,8.021203637495839,1.77547782051282,841,29,159,11,15,270,134,208,0.102,0.85,0.048,-0.8884,0,0,5,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,4,12,6,3,1,16,0,10,15,7,1,2,26,28,14,0,3,4,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,8,9,6,0,6,4,0,4,3,6,0,3,10,4,19,0,21,15,6,36,0,1,1,2,1,10,4,3,21,104,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20553826180594384,0.12389895373030835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12156765857885073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12877733420279205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13259843009092012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12528424176207847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4486098058577088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4542875406817303,0.0,0.11863015791262327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07657378671242643,0.1048695882847174,0.19535999741882765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11131550864315944,0.0,0.10596223036735908,0.09861401046288558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10717977707589676,0.06057110423987418,0.11121514396458956,0.1317767419842716,0.0,0.09272358346617976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06371468812590146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09253798447212308,0.0,0.08522535610285034,0.08596412313594272,0.08941600036217859,0.0,0.0,0.10879687761821637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10959578031922017,0.0,0.11103341090362956,0.11794728576400942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12331084147558535,0.0,0.0,0.14854149588480473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0959023953629512,0.0,0.23203688593915925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08205918891266499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12120013760654053,0.13271751303019402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09203921471188044,0.13520493079828128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0787120622157536,0.1261036798468795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09565828261649477,0.0,0.0,0.09299583634476524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08235669613283396,0.1267564125417318,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,txreptiles,2019/09/27,"I’m lost I do so much for others, yet they can’t invite me to hang out, because there’s alcohol. It constantly puts me down, because they’re good friends, but seem to worry bout every little move I make, I’ve made progress in so many ways but I’m always told other things, such as it takes time for them to trust me, when I’m never given the opportunity to show that I have control. Everytime im excluded I get so depressed because I simply don’t want to live a life where I’m given a different treatment because of this disease.",10.38683486238532,5.823674449541286,10.409977064220184,68.96340596330279,61.38532110091742,13.10183486238532,41.92889908256881,10.125756701596842,4.130190825688073,421,16,84,6,4,142,77,109,0.147,0.721,0.133,-0.5555,1,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,2,4,8,6,0,0,3,0,4,2,0,3,1,9,18,7,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,7,1,1,1,1,1,0,3,3,2,0,0,5,0,10,4,12,13,1,14,0,2,0,0,4,5,0,1,5,48,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19607914395966608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15266602811135746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44737900983426976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1982714634525192,0.2057829892442112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1580268834602132,0.0,0.0,0.19169248786491508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15458573258506794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14175245079603882,0.0,0.09585819662285756,0.0,0.0,0.15389025636749706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1981846535344229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295939290537032,0.0,0.1838903074841722,0.1620119246261276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20028480698422185,0.0,0.0,0.17360862934106894,0.1224710916837355,0.18601501114477206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19500505507854354,0.13487535096284473,0.0,0.14150735159133404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18444320847890697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.167028891649068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379504839366098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.121892741359455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10698583923379716,0.0,0.0,0.17531837470809108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1082184009917335,0.14563403917845144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1863279275401133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Suddenslow,2019/09/27,"How do I solve heavy drinking at one go? I've been drinking alcohol for about 10 years now. My problem is that when I drink, I drink too much alcohol to the point of blacking out and a nasty hangover. But I stopped drinking for about 6 months at a time and drink heavily again. This time I haven't had a sip for nearly a year now and the need for heavy drinking is nagging me for sometime. How do I solve my problem?",3.590852713178297,4.423704674418609,4.132558139534884,90.96341085271321,72.02325581395348,7.128682170542637,30.6124031007752,7.1686216300943375,1.5702542635658912,326,14,72,3,6,103,53,86,0.16699999999999998,0.79,0.043,-0.885,0,0,9,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,9,3,1,0,6,0,7,9,0,2,0,11,9,7,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,4,9,1,0,7,0,1,1,3,0,1,2,1,9,0,13,7,1,16,0,0,1,0,0,5,0,0,10,50,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2685349110624415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8615331532530456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0714022488153351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10028203904049754,0.0,0.09235745231214737,0.0931580431708852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08513469958133553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.118767318991659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2404347655156335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12425793824358718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10503793170964858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14651957491969714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16181186959138716 alcoholism,tomtoff,2019/01/25,"How to deal with a very angry alcoholic brother Hello Reddit, any insights here would be very welcome. Recently at my sister's wedding the extent of my brother's relationship with alcohol came into full view for me and my family. I've known for a long time he drinks alot. He's the type to have beer with breakfast and to hell with anyone who says anything. But this time he really got into it and was actually scary. My brother is a big guy, over six feet and likely 250+. So when he got really mad and was towering over people screaming at them he got alot of people very scared. I feel like he is spiralling ballot out of control, his moods swing like crazy and he's irritable whenever he's not drinking anymore. I really have no idea what to do, I'm afraid he's going to end up hurt or in jail and can't reach him. Thanks for your time. 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We immediately became friends on a road trip with mutual friends, and while I initially had no intention of getting physical/romantic, we ended up spending pretty much every day together, fucking, falling very very hard in love, and entering a real relationship eventually about two months after the road trip. Things were amazing then, just complete love and understanding from the sweetest and kindest person I have ever met. However it was summer and we were drinking a lot, like every night, getting pretty hammered. Eventually I phased out of drinking since summer as I chose to go back to community college to escape the wage slave life, but she works in homeless/mental health care so she can do whatever she wants when work is over. I work and school so I’m very busy. Some background on her: her mother died when she was 14 and has a LOT of guilt and unresolved feelings about. Since we got together she went from fairly frequently (at least once/month, sometimes once/week or more) getting blackout drunk to just drinking to a solid buzz every other/every few days. Also, she is 28 and I’m 24. She very much wants to get better, but her past’s problems that alcohol seemingly answers are too difficult to face right now. However, the drinking kept getting to me more and more. Being with her sober is amazing and she absolutely feels something like a soulmate. But calling her after work/school in the evening and not knowing whether or not she will be sober has been horribly hard. We had talks of going to AA, but I kind of knew she was just humoring me, and she didn’t really want to face the problem that drinking was the answer to. On the positive side, I am 100%, seriously 100%, sure she would never cheat on me, even while drunk. Fast forward to today: I broke up with her 2 days ago. It was absolutely horrible and I feel horrid because I feel like I lost my best friend and best lover I’ve ever connected with. But, at the time, the drinking was so so much for me, partially because our relationship was way too do-dependent and I felt like I had to stick around when she was drunk with her friends and I showed up, not knowing how drunk she would really be. Anyway - I’m really not sure I want to actually be without her and am seeking ways to make this work. Have any of you had experience on either end of this situation? Can Al-Anon really help significantly? I feel like I thought drinking was the only problem in our relationship so I broke it off, but after talking extensively to many many mutual friends, the co-dependency, my possessiveness/need for her to change, and our inability to address the differences in our daily lives were just as large obstacles, but ones I can face. I feel like now I can love her for who she is, drunk nights and not, but I really don’t want to do that and then reneg again a month/year down the line. 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Im 21 and I've been an alcoholic since I was about 16 or 17. It's slowly destroying my life. My boyfriend tells me all the time that the only think he would change about me is my addiction to alcohol. I've lost 2 jobs because would come in drunk or to hungover to function. But the problem is I'm 21 and all of my friends are around the same age as me and they all drink. (not exactly in moderation but WAY less than I do) I'm old enough to buy it on my own now and it honestly feels like it's everywhere all the time and I can't get away from it. If it's near me, it'll end up in my stomach. I drink 2 to 5 40s a day and it's been this way for almost 2 years, I know it's destroying my body and mind and I'm also worried that I couldn't function at all as a sober person. I'm tempted to try rehab but I really need to help with bills and being gone for a month would hurt the people I live with financially. Just like, how do you get it off of your mind? How do you get it out of your daily routine?",0.04983582897348171,1.6500206514522873,2.4508785856034656,96.15392206386437,83.149377593361,6.0170304889049255,19.606891574959405,7.079830092131019,0.09476604726682236,831,22,210,11,23,285,130,241,0.09300000000000001,0.8370000000000001,0.07,-0.5337,1,0,4,0,0,0,17.0,0,6,1,1,10,9,2,0,10,0,17,10,2,3,6,47,32,22,0,8,9,0,1,2,1,4,5,0,0,1,16,14,5,1,4,3,2,3,3,5,0,0,5,1,26,4,34,21,9,28,0,2,0,0,12,13,0,5,12,134,42,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14700283840324305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2882202869340585,0.13502952021933007,0.0,0.0,0.1078368802193217,0.1122032806211906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12004217770602095,0.0,0.0,0.12669294049265598,0.0,0.0,0.08220131421092917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14978431656220045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14264995892210516,0.116158516626152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08696498441731927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2641969148723865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1194341769949909,0.13933271754557494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06818255771949573,0.09633452992399393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10418224808867096,0.0,0.2113555504503677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09038491979780704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14435621203532936,0.0,0.14565760680638282,0.0,0.13381457103909405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07410823554464438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09524623236944994,0.1317586005388982,0.0,0.11907213194506512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14720113361316833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27231351100312456,0.0,0.10763337233222488,0.0,0.0,0.099987140691307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14149895810500449,0.0,0.0,0.10255701359953932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09348574289116013,0.11774296221645693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12903010791346475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08638626735041548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11515836951628175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11154660744488487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11273790322657687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11786198449036572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17280867775213046,0.0,0.0,0.1572604238224796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09155207721276497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21407011328044906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13694339860665355,0.0,0.2873737413717149,0.0,0.0,0.08683687215648772 alcoholism,sobersarad,2018/12/14,6 months sober I recently got a dui and part of my two year probation is that I stay sober for 6 months. I don’t know if I can. After the dui I flipped my car and made a decision to move closer to my job and use public transportation. I want to make new friends when I move and have fun but it literally seems like everyone my age goes out to bars. The lesbian group I’m part of only ever has meet ups at a bar. I can’t even get into a bar right now because I have no ID and I’m not sure I can trust myself around it. I’m scared and I’ve literally just wanted someone to tell me it’s okay you can drink a little wine they only test you once a month etc. I clearly have an addiction and I’m about to pay some consequences for it. How do I give this up?,-0.3202129075182967,1.5720220119760488,2.2307285429141714,95.59410345974716,86.36526946107784,5.866799733865602,18.259813705921488,7.1686216300943375,0.06438815701929501,584,15,144,9,18,201,107,167,0.091,0.8170000000000001,0.09300000000000001,-0.1891,1,0,2,0,0,0,9.0,0,2,1,0,8,7,0,1,9,1,11,7,0,4,3,27,25,11,0,3,4,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,6,10,5,0,3,5,1,4,4,1,0,1,2,0,21,6,18,23,4,25,0,0,0,1,9,9,0,3,12,87,27,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16644724531993302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13592043540386678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09307427299162667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14957142726015366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702821488851235,0.10084582599033903,0.13811071263271982,0.0,0.1458953586049912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11796267605411476,0.0,0.07977068002601173,0.14646765606438833,0.0,0.0,0.12211471790663828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15151453519576616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08391070401028854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07459330835079042,0.15302869650175485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14447255330086808,0.10191723411589856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36561086555451777,0.3245561965520225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14746240409181233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16260264492061238,0.0,0.2322449360475156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3306820940562852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1507562586684328,0.0,0.0,0.13039063456000033,0.0,0.0,0.15286253776509276,0.0,0.0,0.13899706796340933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12936799576558047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1627399960318749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1439021267340601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1334518629670844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14914931897298733,0.0,0.0,0.13186927853835614,0.0,0.0,0.1801130366013944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0983229869548404 alcoholism,PARADOX002,2018/12/14,"How much should I help a friend whose not willing to help themselves? To make a long story short they are putting themselves in danger. They admitted they have a long running problem. I got them to use counseling services at work and went 9 days sober. Now I've discovered that they started drinking again. Not to bad, I assumed this can't be easy people are bound to slip up, but after telling me she messed up she went right along and had a drink today. I don't want to confront her at work. At this point I am willing to drop the whole thing and distance myself. The issue is I consider them a good friend and I want them to get better.",3.648740157480319,5.249998795275591,3.764574803149608,90.692531496063,72.85826771653544,6.33984251968504,26.87322834645669,6.742157984588678,1.0441092913385823,505,18,103,4,10,155,84,127,0.107,0.72,0.172,0.8602,0,0,2,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,7,3,3,9,2,0,7,0,12,2,0,3,0,18,22,6,0,4,3,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,5,5,2,1,2,2,0,4,4,5,0,0,4,0,19,4,16,14,2,22,0,0,0,0,17,9,0,1,8,71,24,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14687155360755974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15557179881923305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11344280264123813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3446357022093974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2718042505919171,0.0,0.09190199234599944,0.0,0.0,0.14753898634722726,0.14068559860252255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2358079792014485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1835969010615449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3113370190237554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11741653533090772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1293088531658821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1219489056616141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16628507421894295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16831529568916634,0.0,0.1768309746175442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15022009459384922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12450496067407214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1537468664547066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11686205434808213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16673535822817884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15192360680581735,0.0,0.0,0.2075041469592402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32612745584144553,0.0,0.19638927868614472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2561187767719543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ftd226,2018/12/14,Vodka tastes like water I need help. I see myself destroying myself and I'm lt doing anything about it.,1.4498333333333342,4.162485650000002,3.5300000000000047,81.62833333333334,92.5,4.666666666666667,16.666666666666668,6.42735559955562,0.3786666666666667,83,2,13,1,3,28,17,20,0.158,0.614,0.228,0.1531,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,1,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,8,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5153343575504189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4197491154635483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3059445986932179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4643419937395768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4990246440568504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,nothingbutcheese,2018/12/14,"Nutrition For those of us that have just quit... maybe for the 1000th time.... Are there suggestions for nutrition during the first week or so? Obviously, veggies, fruits, healthy fats and proteins are the way to go without eating processed foods; however, if you recall - our stomachs and digestive systems are torn up from all the alcohol and we may have an ulcer. Veggies are not very friendly to upset stomachs. ​ My suggestion is to make smoothies and try not to expand your stomach too much. I've been using bananas, raspberries, whey protein, metamucil, and either orange juice or Fair Life milk (to keep the lactose from upset stomach). I've been having this with a multivitamin. I feel like it ""helped"" speed through the withdrawal symptoms and helped my energy levels. After about a few days I could eat normally again without feeling like hell. I've been sticking to the shakes during the day or having small snack with solid and healthy meal in the evenings. I've been losing fat, my energy is up, my mood is better. I'm hitting the gym all the time... I don't want to every have to go through those first few days of sobriety again :( unfortunately, I've said that more than a few times - BUT TODAY, THINGS ARE GOOD! ​ I also realized that when I have quit drinking, and when sober, I always want to reach for that coffee; cup after cup. One of the biggest ""ah-ha!"" moments I have had is when I noticed that the more coffee I drank, the better I felt at that exact moment, but the worse my symptoms would be a little while later. Anxiety, stomach in knots, blood pressure feeling like its way up.... So, I would suggest significantly reducing your coffee intake. ​ Who else has some nutrition tips for those of us trying to recover? A way that we can get our bodies what they need; however, keeping in mind that our digestive linings need some TLC",6.4836422578184605,7.774725230994152,6.321995931858634,76.22133867276891,65.69590643274854,8.871802695143657,32.99822018815153,9.085049710711278,2.9961620645817444,1487,62,249,25,23,467,193,342,0.083,0.838,0.079,-0.3775,2,0,2,0,0,0,76.0,7,3,1,7,13,14,1,4,21,0,29,25,9,2,4,49,48,21,0,9,12,0,4,3,1,3,9,1,0,0,17,12,14,2,5,2,0,3,5,6,0,3,8,6,27,7,38,34,11,40,1,1,0,0,19,11,1,7,25,175,44,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09503620631459286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07111510508759025,0.07399461182778773,0.2890579772242736,0.3241690971261323,0.0,0.0,0.06802911756864746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15729788610063336,0.0,0.09877814891463456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0710011884152761,0.0,0.0,0.1720521956829625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08711486889621871,0.0,0.18198959431178624,0.07428732255718233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058735622644015974,0.0,0.07492505974153486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13489289788894984,0.1905889767538249,0.0853841241343533,0.0,0.0,0.15128297958447806,0.10753120695932966,0.0,0.06870498762592853,0.0,0.04646082784341739,0.0,0.10107883288459582,0.07458797431793901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1192121481385878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1580852857343345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06281196016033147,0.13033611559135258,0.08912848581649566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09948686757188847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05935964275335225,0.0,0.08933939459511396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08979119162373557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06537177499864408,0.1318768867053319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08712984281416755,0.0,0.10124428544268753,0.0,0.0,0.06025941909699289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18917019423438547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08459019719281816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18485896477996985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05907932624630069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15556261749471673,0.0,0.08429265325266,0.0,0.0,0.12075155695771687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21393711115444594,0.07680460848532819,0.0,0.07337431034509999,0.10490321485492922,0.2117589813117172,0.07133209137905144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17144542835252602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09062448463095876,0.12634276124889696,0.0,0.3241690971261323,0.0 alcoholism,CaptainXXXVI,2018/12/14,"What to do. I know I drink too much. I still wouldn't call myself an alcoholic, but admit I struggle. I have tried cold turkey, but doesn't last long. I am not religious, so not a chance for me to do AA. So with that said, what do I do to stop? 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Me and my family have always tried to help him but he wouldn’t/isn’t letting us.. on a scale from 1-10 he would sadly fall into 20/10 is there any type of rehab that can help him with this type of addiction ? ,4.4390000000000045,5.158129566666666,5.010000000000002,85.86000000000001,70.0,8.0,25.0,8.07648339933343,1.2815000000000007,468,12,96,6,8,150,87,120,0.075,0.8490000000000001,0.077,0.0644,0,0,2,0,1,0,12.0,2,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,6,0,11,6,0,0,2,13,14,7,0,1,1,5,0,0,1,1,4,0,1,1,2,8,4,1,1,2,0,3,1,1,0,2,7,0,16,1,13,4,2,16,0,1,0,0,22,4,0,0,9,62,18,2,0.0,0.2102321734018124,0.0,0.1934309962133619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37924939297856464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2952812691878676,0.0,0.0,0.12066229360835908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19596368155074945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1937137215201714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1482246770907152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1605006600195448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1672704938164589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19454897875463129,0.13708630564166485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2378626871298416,0.0,0.17798237561107605,0.0,0.0,0.20473686127686974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18143992425726574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14162740435606894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2404699114159225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2935531264110461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14170030063399838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16818820330854914,0.0,0.0,0.12046712630194407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21343318164535396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12604516049459158,0.0,0.0,0.1142627099703077 alcoholism,AmberRhodes,2018/12/14,"Going through withdrawal My hands are turning yellow. I’m on about three days cold turkey. Scared I’m going to seize again. Shakes, vomiting, losing time, I can barely walk or eat. I’m having to take a break from alcohol because I got into a fist fight and broke two fucking fingers on my right hand. Trying to keep from drinking and fucking myself up. It’s getting rough, I’m just trying to wait out the night. 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(also i didn’t mean to sound combative abt like, what being able to stop means - i haven’t spent much time on this sub so have no real idea of prevailing ideology, & don’t want to make assumptions, just get tired sometimes having spent a lot of time trying to find help that would actually help me, but not finding much) ",5.144222320507152,5.849580411764709,6.044484741264927,79.12178534571727,68.41176470588235,9.743712221730798,30.241633495503464,9.842372674337009,2.77985313283208,1295,48,255,29,21,428,173,323,0.187,0.635,0.177,-0.7677,3,0,4,0,0,0,48.0,0,0,0,4,12,22,5,0,10,0,31,9,2,5,3,65,57,22,0,12,17,0,1,5,1,3,5,1,0,0,16,7,3,4,13,0,2,1,13,11,0,0,5,2,25,11,37,41,16,35,0,1,0,2,5,18,4,9,19,169,41,4,0.17257131769423195,0.0,0.1684047123577163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2766393844892151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13800522041177746,0.0,0.09349047531108266,0.0,0.05867720687735783,0.0,0.06600829284380971,0.0,0.0,0.06033293890740048,0.0,0.07100574521657188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07631265332058358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2755683098458413,0.0954734403348731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0901501485289103,0.0,0.0,0.07550916152590517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10006397037900694,0.0,0.0,0.09705975247083168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15772705797950556,0.0,0.0,0.09460777126627863,0.06666408598445057,0.0797697012155756,0.04508069543838265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0772950020963974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11567091660318853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09740600611190184,0.0,0.09005981011843284,0.17125040462037386,0.07669465816986011,0.0,0.0,0.09484068307489933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21077407227861336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07335698154745783,0.07787617592656333,0.0,0.05759634729957151,0.0,0.0,0.2819711339765524,0.1916878305395392,0.0,0.0,0.09153544842718993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12685977481556585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08279341680089583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1803002970578206,0.09471574231708513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08256372238392425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09177541929559338,0.0,0.0982119701027836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09001476038049737,0.0,0.17714197769665754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17067744583676298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21641602323670106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19583188625677697,0.08132321231457908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1146487153517938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2012554462585634,0.0991726717115754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05858229841779065,0.0,0.0,0.08982641388704543,0.0,0.0745231052503051,0.0,0.0,0.10178703434472502,0.1369790794520278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08317629601770335,0.0,0.06281698729793744,0.0,0.0,0.12258971277699215,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,b33z33,2018/12/14,"Husband admitted to medical detox I'm just going to keep this short. My husband has always been a big drinker. I didn't know how bad until tonight. He admitted to me he's been drinking roughly 28 shots daily. I got his family involved and he's been admitted to medical detox and the doctors said they couldn't believe he was alive given his blood pressure, BAC, and throwing up blood, let alone walking and talking. If you're religious, send prayers. If you're not, well wishes. We have three children. I'm afraid he's done damage that cannot be repaired to his body. It's worth noting I struggle with my own drinking issue, although I am capable of extended times of sobriety. I want to maybe be his strength. I just love him so much. I'm very scared that he's hurt himself beyond repair. I don't want to be that person who asks for no negative comments, but really. I'm just looking for support right now. I don't even really know why I posted this. 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I have been with my partner for a year and a half now and recently his drinking seems to have escalated. I am sorry if this is long,I just need advice and to get an unbiased view about this. I will try to keep it understandable. When we first met he told me he would sometimes have a shot or two of whisky a night so that he didn't wake up with the intense pins and needles and numbness he gets in his limbs most nights. In the past he slipped into a depression and started not just drinking a decent amount on weekends but on week nights too but I spoke to him about this and he slowly wound back down to just weekends. It was hard for him but I kept trying to tell him during this time how proud I was of him. I have for the last few months become very busy and because of this have not been able to spend as much time with him as I would like,and he is not a social person so after I go to sleep several hours earlier than he needs to he is alone with no one to talk to or hang out with. Because of this he has been getting very drunk every night as he is lonely and his depression takes over. He is a very dedicated worker and never misses a day. He works very hard with manual labour and comes home hurting every night. He also only ever drinks at night (aside from one time recently when we drank on a friday night and he woke up at 5am naturally so he got drunk at that point to fall back to sleep). I am worried that his drinking is escalating. I plan to spend the rest of my life with this person but I am afraid he is killing himself with the amount of whisky he drinks. He has a dark sense of humour sometimes and hides his feelings in jokes,and last night he told me he wants to die from alchohol poisoning like some famous person I had never heard of,this of course upset me and he simply told me he was joking. He suffers from depression and his mother was an alcoholic through most of his childhood. I am completely unsure on how to bring the topic up with him and would really appreciate some advice on how the most sensitive way to brace the topic is as I don't understand the mindset. He flatly denies he has a problem as he doesn't start drinking when he wakes up,only a few hours before bed,but the amount he drinks and the dependency on it to sleep due to his pain worries me. 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Every time after a heavy 6 days of drinking, someone I know gets very sick and claims it's a bug. Vomiting, sweating, headaches, diarrhoea, it can last for days. Is this alcohol poisoning, gastritis or withdrawals? She'll start drinking again as soon as she's able this pattern has been going on for years, recently she's been drinking for longer periods of time. The time spent drinking varies depending on how much money she has and how long it takes her to recover. 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I've been having EXTREME sensitivity to smells but not so much like super pungent odors or colognes or anything random things like stale cigarette smoke any kind of mustiness as soon as I smell it I just start gagging uncontrollably and get nauseous. But I never get nauseous without this happening. 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I think I might be an alcoholic. I want to seek out help for this, but I don't know where to start. I was wondering if someone here could give me guidance. I'm a 27 year old man living in Orange County, CA, and I have 2-3 drinks per night. My drinking really started to become an issue when I started law school in 2017. The stress of school led to me having a couple drinks at the end of the night, which has turned into a habit. I drink enough to where I'm buzzed, but not drunk. When I don't have alcohol, I feel anxious. My drinking is starting to affect my relationships. I take a low dose of Adderall (prescribed), which paired with the drinking turns me into a total monster. I'm mean to my boyfriend for no reason. I can see myself being mean as it happens, but I can't turn it off. I love him more than anyone in the world, and I keep ruining otherwise great nights, and it's honestly killing me. I know it's really hurting him too. I'm not suicidal, but I'm depressed all the time, and it feels as though I'm drowning. I think I need help. I would appreciate any and all recommendations. I don't think I can afford rehab, but am open to AA, or any other groups that have helped you. I'm in kind of a panicked state at the moment, and a lot is going through my head. I've Googled Adderall and alcohol, and I'm wondering if I've permanently ruined my health/mental state. I just want to go back to being a happy person. 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My fiancé and I have a very happy relationship. We have a great group of friends and are very social. During the week , after work she will have a couple glasses of wine , or a few cocktails (not everyday but maybe 3 out of 5 days) When we go out with friends for occasions/ celebrations holidays, she does tend to “over do” it and sometimes drinks to the point where she is pretty sloppy drunk and needs to suddenly leave or will fight with me for no reason. This is also not every time.. maybe 40% of the time. We are starting to fight about it a bit, she says I am overreacting, maybe I am? I just tell her we can still have fun but she always just takes it a little too far. Is this Normal or a does this look like the beginning of an issue with alcohol? Thanks. 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One thing I have noticed is any incidental contact with alcohol such as having my arm wiped for a blood draw, or eating a meal cooked with wine will set off my anxiety. I will have increased HR/BP/butterflies for 48-72hrs. This isn't debilitating, but it is annoying. Will this post withdrawal symptom ever go away? I feel like I have to avoid all forms of alcohol for the rest of my life.",4.2309415584415575,6.03323125,5.6719480519480525,76.78863636363641,71.72727272727273,10.028571428571428,30.75324675324676,10.290406445055957,3.4398974025974027,362,16,69,11,7,122,65,88,0.109,0.8190000000000001,0.07200000000000001,-0.4767,0,1,4,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,1,3,0,11,11,2,0,2,8,13,3,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,3,5,0,0,0,4,2,7,1,1,2,0,2,1,2,0,1,1,1,7,1,11,9,4,8,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,3,44,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.676078155734058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14340104856189206,0.0,0.3226349348007335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1981223701355816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21577599046446988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1907469372029573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1066238567418493,0.15064789971896775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1198441337437158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14894602043445065,0.1030220236542186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16831702499936887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2400806051892889,0.0,0.0,0.14289317902639165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20195829318566352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2191780600010451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400948244868249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,EtherealButter,2019/03/06,"Starting over. Again. Just finishing up day one after multiple relapses following several years of drinking myself stupid and holy dick is this getting frustrating. New to Reddit so clearly new to the sub. Just wondering what kind of advice anybody may have n all that happy shit, I guess.",5.612800000000004,8.758170680000003,5.774000000000001,71.477,72.2,9.6,34.0,9.888512548439397,4.4606,234,12,33,7,5,74,46,50,0.212,0.6729999999999999,0.115,-0.7192,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,4,5,3,0,1,0,3,3,2,0,2,8,8,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,3,0,1,0,0,2,2,7,7,1,11,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,3,8,23,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2553351955431396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1685141507174794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2559703714673004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365162516163076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28784674176038355,0.0,0.0,0.27815419855716084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2720993279563571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5047221524093597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17706077144002366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2951898373809385,0.2682163458647263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1849464859789844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28336410891247554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16826590449544912 alcoholism,iwantddeath,2019/03/06,RIP 6 weeks sober I thought I was doing good until depression hit hard again for reason I'd like to keep private. Why do I always turn to alcohol? ,1.7819999999999998,3.975891866666668,3.6500000000000017,86.70500000000001,80.33333333333334,6.666666666666668,23.333333333333336,7.793537801064563,1.3093333333333337,116,4,23,2,3,39,26,30,0.162,0.667,0.171,0.0772,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,3,7,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,3,2,4,4,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,11,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3478463792325015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2708310738100053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28034128527376123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2730028670851732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29157222130511906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28930760383361404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15901639894169914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3346546179156752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25840014480363377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3540361489905088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2610858605524428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2937011912534402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,throwaway31415358592,2019/10/31,"Going through the first internally aggressive craving for alcohol in my life. I got off work and was instantly ready to hop over to the distributor for my 8 pints of beer with the last extra $20 I had til tomorrow (payday). It was perfect timing in my mind. In reality I was spending my last sliver of cash on my addiction. The wife drove us towards the store but then pulled into a gas station, took the cash and confidently announced that it was all going in the tank. I was totally pissed. Just an hour later I called her to apologize for being upset about it and thanked her for not letting me get beer, agreeing that I needed this rejection. ...Only because I expected to be receiving $10 for us giving a friend a ride into town later. Well news broke that he would be paying tomorrow instead. We got home and she left to give the friend his ride. I got a tremble in my chest and a feeling of insecurity, fearing I wouldn’t get my fix tonight. I called the telebank service to get the account balance, wildly assuming the wife had been keeping the truth from me. Incorrect PIN, incorrect PIN, too many attempts, account has been LOCKED. Thinking the wife changed the pin knowing I’d eventually get this desperate, I called her and chewed her out over the phone for literally nothing because the pin was what we agreed on the whole time, I had just forgotten it. Later she walked inside and threw her phone at me showing the app with the account balance on the screen. $0.21 That’s what we had. She left again, and over an hour my fury boiled down to self-hatred and regret. I used to be a heavy smoker and a dipper and I’ve been a day away from a paycheck with 2 smokes in the box before. That level of jonesing is amplified with alcohol because its affects are so much more captivating. And here I quit the Marlboros and the Copenhagen just to become a fucking drinker. This was the hardest feeling for my mind to overcome in a while. What the fuck happened to me, I used to hate beer. Now it’s like, my only way to feel okay at the end of the week. I take that back, it’s the only thing I want when I know I can have it. Damnit, guys. How long until I don’t need it?",4.086495327102803,5.492728946261681,4.927651869158879,83.55610397196263,71.45327102803739,7.779906542056075,29.496495327102803,8.278499904357787,2.0606224299065423,1711,69,336,26,32,555,224,428,0.132,0.765,0.10300000000000001,-0.9697,0,0,8,0,0,0,50.0,5,0,0,5,14,20,5,4,41,1,27,13,2,4,4,54,59,21,0,7,5,3,3,1,2,2,4,0,1,1,22,23,7,1,7,4,8,10,3,12,1,1,20,4,48,8,57,32,6,62,0,3,1,2,30,26,3,1,26,232,70,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10714672968688466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2100766319197726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0923433478948642,0.07557620723773041,0.0,0.17974350881929896,0.10854965350229874,0.08363452322451273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30108433989068617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1039740235936479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06338662422304002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08705261488049956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11059957279970084,0.14908973515106053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08360239757648784,0.0,0.0,0.15187172295963666,0.18172846420500927,0.20540243782965087,0.1885706227464158,0.11171690029632901,0.0,0.23582593953747766,0.0,0.0,0.09731903040958824,0.08691437629433332,0.0,0.0,0.09703751342650828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09858931537319042,0.0,0.1935846946594776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08736150586969625,0.0,0.0,0.10803131650686294,0.16023313711678813,0.0,0.0,0.2135770141949261,0.10050454632078842,0.06942262084347968,0.04801779104814922,0.0,0.0,0.08698040850590917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09964702578426954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1984825767343455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07225184404390321,0.14575630310522802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09430849214823303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22425380488574773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10453972966055453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10253419475348144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07389917268066758,0.0,0.0,0.09048895083280152,0.0,0.0,0.0652971449261571,0.06297798356744858,0.0,0.0,0.1146232297605786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10919985377779133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23645297669605614,0.16977585798305403,0.0,0.0,0.057971890158708614,0.07801520300847142,0.07883945543396333,0.0,0.08837131531870439,0.0,0.0,0.10973330277180003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07155370055097289,0.0,0.0,0.06981986860553152,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Ogglywood,2019/10/31,"Alcoholic Father Hello everyone, hope you all are doing well. So i have this problem in my family, an alcoholic father. The problem is when he got drunk he went rampage, every problem that he got (even though it’s not even a tiny bit of problem), is going to be poured with some broken furnitures (including electronics), verbal abuse, and trashing over the place. My mom is a very patient woman, the most cheerful lady I’ve ever seen. She’s been through all of this shit for over 30 years (im 26y.o, oldest of 3 children). We’re asian, so we still live together, and im not even married yet. So apparently just an hour ago (1 AM), he came back to home drunk, and destroying everything, saying that his phone was stolen at the bar, he yelled at them and said “I WILL FUCKING CLOSE THIS BAR IF YOU DONT GIVE IT BACK”, and somehow they give it back. But his friend said something like “hey, dont talk like that”, and he went angry like shit. He called his friend with his phone later and yelled “KANINA CIBAI (fuck your mom or smth like that - hokkien)” repeatedly to his friend. My mom came from the bedroom and ask him to put his phone down, and that’s when the problem began (again), he said that she’s not obedient to him, yelled at him this afternoon (she said she just speak louder since he cant hear her voice). He said that he will destroy this family and kill everyone that against him. Then he continued destroying every fucking stuff he could find. Im so tired of this shit, whole life with this stuff. Also imagine the shame we got from our neighbors. For this time, i even recorded his rampage. I know someday i will need this footage. Somehow i just wanna him to stop drinking at all, but he won’t listen, and never ever talk to his children about stuff. I even think about getting a taser gun, and use it when something like happen again. I just want to ask, is it a good idea to do that? Or should i do something else? Does anyone drunk like that would remembered getting tased the morning after? TLDR: dad is alcoholic, destroying everything. Does anyone drunk as shit gonna remember they’re tased? Sorry for my english, not a native speaker. Sorry if this is not the best subreddit to ask about tasing someone. I dont know where else to ask.",4.1148526015487015,5.816308685912241,4.365217361771498,86.44909217497623,71.8406466512702,7.403586469229723,26.36116016845537,8.027739517013583,1.5484982203504958,1763,59,343,25,34,550,212,433,0.158,0.775,0.067,-0.9908,1,0,7,1,1,0,71.0,3,3,2,1,34,32,12,1,16,0,26,19,4,1,6,67,63,29,1,14,15,6,0,6,4,7,5,14,3,3,28,20,10,1,8,7,0,6,11,18,1,0,16,15,40,14,39,38,8,43,0,0,1,3,76,11,7,9,32,212,68,0,0.0,0.07248768282958275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054231920034688186,0.19614678333985905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04892521019351406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08555623356361386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22877823072080655,0.0,0.0,0.14112973738429535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06420409259571641,0.0,0.06679214973654099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06247109208977333,0.13994605956540246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04884683869802585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1070771551443612,0.0,0.21510569417042102,0.059932601751462075,0.0,0.0,0.1022152147942971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.202042356554632,0.11068068934624026,0.10309270561018599,0.1169192349746212,0.10996834830911777,0.0,0.11534914286730792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055916938807289714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14180134966268548,0.16967833770639534,0.06392750921774362,0.11737786903790072,0.0347697098872522,0.05131444742884018,0.14679246344747024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05410081448320925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0689537233667042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0613680093954645,0.0607650306162531,0.060249466768847626,0.0,0.0,0.06906418915046801,0.1982530192303257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06768603308798103,0.0,0.06724528739551815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04321287790724379,0.1793352296466148,0.0,0.05402260406415525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21495801208201215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045363811202822166,0.047185388636220224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0639195380086802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2927025122629134,0.0,0.06150227797720718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13860885529203384,0.0,0.29097848993347164,0.048652380189635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25119943918191456,0.0506083002820083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05183717713756743,0.14129686417227658,0.0,0.13697084403847773,0.0,0.0,0.0488580138948668,0.051148786954131865,0.0,0.0,0.21010761180762394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09834750147682796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039201342180387684,0.060108531105266434,0.0,0.03567424834151195,0.07031681547210679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05283942995439599,0.0,0.050479480442539464,0.0360852439888217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055007702287407714,0.11342798674576746,0.0,0.06830470756394355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04346014916885714,0.0,0.0,0.03939758099606301 alcoholism,gngblackwidow,2019/10/31,"It keeps getting progressively worse. I just need somewhere to post this and while searching found this subreddit. I hope that this is okay. Without going into too much info my boyfriend has always been a social drinker. Possibly taking it too far very rarely but always made sure we had money, let me know when he was getting something, didn’t drink to black out point. This changed, something switched just over a month ago and I am slowly suffocating. I get why he drinks. I get his anger. I 100% get it and like I told him, he’s always borderline been an alcoholic but it’s been controlled. Except now it isn’t. And I don’t know if it’s a phase but I am hurting so so badly. He has come home black out drunk to the point of not knowing where he is 3 times that he’s admitted. Last night was probably the worst and he went from admitting he was drunk to saying “I’m just mad.” Guys he fell into the bathtub and I think originally he was trying to be funny but ended up hurting himself and then passed out a couple of times to where I almost called an ambulance while also vomiting. I’m trying so so hard not to get angry. But I miss my boyfriend. He’s been insulting my family when like this which is when the yelling match started yesterday. Then he insults me and I don’t think it’s really him? We were up until 2 am. I have to be up for work by 7. I didn’t have dinner because I was waiting for him to come home from work (at a bar which makes this so much shittier. He loves his job, I think) but when he came home he did the tub thing then we started the fight. I am tired and I am worried. I want us to work so badly but he’s changed into a completely different person the last month and refuses help. He has become obstinate and insults me without thinking. He apologizes and i know he means it but Jesus. I’m hurting and just needed somewhere to acknowledge that other than quick texts to our mutual friend who is trying her damndest to not pick sides and doing really well but I’m just... tired and lost and want to help him but I don’t know how to.",1.5853349282296634,3.886751385167468,3.0767224880382784,89.92455741626793,81.79904306220095,6.288038277511963,22.179425837320565,7.520522993642371,0.9408162679425841,1621,53,335,26,44,530,195,418,0.188,0.716,0.096,-0.9935,2,1,6,0,2,0,38.0,5,0,0,6,24,22,6,0,15,1,36,11,0,6,1,81,80,45,0,6,22,0,1,2,1,0,4,2,3,2,22,28,7,4,15,5,1,7,11,14,1,0,20,5,41,8,38,57,3,50,1,5,2,1,51,17,0,3,27,214,63,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07275266917613207,0.08771096449692121,0.08218414865920687,0.0,0.0,0.06563366425722601,0.2048736693941662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13705487781187434,0.05003087484958773,0.0906430640808184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08380560181110859,0.09386952709357024,0.0,0.0,0.17364448027722112,0.1413970631448637,0.08605186861406375,0.0,0.09205173023084053,0.0,0.09081209695871174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08574870665951423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1608003827008174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07269222419810696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07737102084351731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08998869284636779,0.06340931487175648,0.0,0.2572782003512579,0.0,0.04664391744122935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08126506925710836,0.0,0.0,0.07352119291167887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11002346261984397,0.0,0.2469774156635203,0.0815169030909126,0.0,0.0,0.2635821938163077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0814446839563796,0.07295015985081865,0.0,0.0,0.22552558273848805,0.13380072664386733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0839250954621968,0.0,0.08019334139845165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0895922597371162,0.0,0.07407399182653705,0.07765935742572376,0.054784294533542915,0.0,0.0,0.08940144284603185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13101960309234706,0.0,0.12066604209823895,0.12171202298928195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0770198519264244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0716628859723033,0.0,0.0,0.15517082763290538,0.09252485712025034,0.07860314610032082,0.0,0.0884884618583991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10515599591124372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0652676600478814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08366298048593875,0.0,0.12636744815200246,0.0,0.0,0.116183234622493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07735273198286463,0.0,0.06170860273332299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05452558438347114,0.21035598791898796,0.0,0.0,0.09571472985050546,0.1886614381452528,0.0,0.07842416806370013,0.0,0.1671663243302249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09872358698181842,0.0,0.0,0.06771873351469139,0.09681743948506867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07379338891367257,0.0760823956606293,0.07405802186463284,0.0,0.0,0.15823068346825225,0.0,0.17925013452366784,0.08334900850351314,0.0836392914054827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,colostomykid,2019/10/31,"My wife and I are toxic for each other when we drink excessively My wife [32 f] and I [44 m] don’t drink excessively on a daily basis (I usually have at least a couple to drinks daily), but when we do drink to excess, we’re at each other’s throat. Tension has been high lately, so that has something to do with it. But I think I’m finally ready to concede that I (we) need to quit drinking entirely. We’ve tried moderation, and it never lasts. I have been drinking since I was 14. I have made an ass out of myself countless times; crashed cars; fallen down and injured myself; broke things; lost things like glasses, wallet, keys, phone....I can’t do this any more. I have pretty strong will power, but I’m not sure how successful this will be.",3.5644348894348887,4.804428391891894,4.726191646191649,85.14214987714989,72.51351351351352,7.273710073710076,24.265356265356267,7.686295010490155,1.106897297297298,574,16,117,7,11,189,96,148,0.171,0.7290000000000001,0.099,-0.8919,1,0,7,0,0,0,31.0,3,0,0,5,4,7,0,1,3,0,18,9,2,2,2,21,24,11,0,1,4,2,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,10,11,6,0,1,6,0,2,4,3,0,0,5,0,16,4,13,16,4,16,0,2,0,1,5,6,1,0,9,77,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09387208402548626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15273887920482795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8113611859639192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1512163149857512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14584707264521932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11252120427120776,0.15571538213668928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06743947940360058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506872079376889,0.0,0.0,0.13061699498432605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1023550749278882,0.10646512850889796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14043653132859746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14682276696634247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11418829745539034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1062701063245268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13010127485400813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18341557844449088,0.08845059993322925,0.0,0.0,0.08049236307914942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09372024900529112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15203180149017662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Caynixe,2019/10/31,"My stepfather(59M) is an alcoholic. I hope this is the right place to put this. My stepfather is an alcoholic. He’s been in my life since I was 8 years old, I am now 22. As long as I can remember he has been an alcoholic. His daily routine when he isn’t working is to leave the house at around 9am and go straight to the pub and come home around 4 or 5pm absolutely legless. When he is working he works away from home and has a good job! My mother is completely blind to his drunken antics now, it’s long been at a point of regular life that she doesn’t care. My stepfather and I have a very toxic relationship, when he is sober he is the nicest man I’ve ever met. The moment he has some alcohol in his system he becomes a very evil person. Our relationship is all verbal abuse since I was 8. I get called every single name you can think off, I get called “fat, lazy, worthless” and he continues to threaten me with making me homeless or will tell me to kill myself. I live with my mum and stepfather as I suffer from Crohn’s disease, I have moved out in the past but because of my illness I am unable to care for myself properly and always need to return home when I have a flare up. At the moment I’m constantly ill. My mother has told my stepfather multiple times to stop drinking and get help but will never follow through with her threats of leaving him. My mother works too and doesn’t get home till around 6:30/7pm so I’m always left alone with my stepfather for a few hours of when his drunken rage is at its peak. I’ve been dealing with this for so many years I just can’t take it anymore. My mum is constantly telling him off for shouting at me and the things he says and sometimes he takes it in and will behave and come home reasonable drunk but not drunk enough to shout at me but it’ll last a day or two and he always goes back to him. Does anyone have any advice on how to deal with this whole situation that has been going on for far far too long?",4.037777777777777,4.65725337037037,4.915308641975312,86.53888888888893,70.85185185185185,8.271604938271606,26.60493827160493,8.401726058763845,1.540308641975309,1545,47,334,23,27,503,197,405,0.115,0.8420000000000001,0.043,-0.9806,1,1,5,0,1,2,30.0,1,1,0,4,18,10,4,0,18,0,39,13,1,3,3,48,60,33,1,2,9,5,0,0,0,4,10,3,5,2,12,26,8,1,3,4,0,7,6,6,0,1,9,4,44,4,54,47,6,64,0,2,1,0,44,27,0,5,29,211,56,5,0.0,0.09203464822894862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07590515205287351,0.0,0.3320527387319832,0.0,0.0804500376835942,0.0,0.0,0.19390068107959205,0.0,0.0,0.0528230839602199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07703479950974379,0.0543136264841913,0.0,0.0,0.20744723226104092,0.0,0.0,0.07298018178404532,0.05972888647093338,0.0,0.04735123228392341,0.0857882416631928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15863398471372106,0.0,0.1583939376225416,0.0,0.0,0.13382386778895589,0.08144294960782136,0.16788267513384808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05009529613049379,0.16016333526987725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06797574375660702,0.0,0.0,0.0760939749254947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08026119699645412,0.0,0.0,0.07026337380425683,0.06544629739448551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16233229131740953,0.0,0.08829135912701304,0.06515185661651213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052065315176441765,0.0,0.38958226672114055,0.07715087583273958,0.07649628548741044,0.08962893120598506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07708252473904201,0.0,0.08593818980130268,0.0,0.0,0.06331719469346546,0.0,0.1644976424423497,0.08439638412604178,0.0,0.10973124983188487,0.0,0.0,0.06859029241071574,0.20622533736720255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05185005986338538,0.0787523760158137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08255845228844333,0.0,0.05759657701007807,0.0599093594271781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08150903787219971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0741515704865686,0.0,0.06782463768647876,0.08115602494034994,0.0,0.07342995625225299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07808692867474652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0798649842592802,0.0,0.16679224679715546,0.08799299922588663,0.06633580930848848,0.0,0.061771938644819564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12851058089054512,0.08731230221371504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07682462689809942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06494152428252009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11680700730205225,0.0,0.135786398517348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05160520617159833,0.049772341959898096,0.0,0.0,0.0452941350692932,0.0,0.0,0.07422378700796023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07587922871354869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.128183466320245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0867236954974539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22619938274174595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10004299672728392 alcoholism,Raven_in_the_storm,2019/10/31,"My sister [29F] - are these behaviors indicative of alcoholism? 1. On a friend's wedding - being too drunk to respond in any way to an aggressive guy who asked her how much she charges for sex 2. Spraining an ankle on a night out (paramedic who arrived noticed that she's drunk) 3. Taking Mondays off 'just in case' to cure hangover 4. Not showing up at grandmother's funeral 5. Being late and dressed inappropriately to other grandmother's funeral 6. Having a panic attack and crying due to missing the last bus home (I was with her, ordered us a taxi and had to console her all the way home) 7. Her friend calling me and telling me to pick her up from bus stop because she's too drunk to walk home 8. Dirty, messy house with massive amount of broken furniture and other stuff 9. Wearing old raggedy clothes 10. Not being able to hold a job for longer than a year",3.764173838209985,5.754599066265062,4.53067125645439,83.69879518072291,73.39759036144578,7.152495697074013,30.531841652323585,7.957251820313856,2.1935383820998284,679,31,127,10,14,218,115,166,0.2,0.782,0.018000000000000002,-0.9812,1,0,1,0,0,0,21.0,1,0,0,0,4,6,2,1,10,0,7,6,1,2,1,16,10,6,2,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,3,1,7,8,4,2,0,4,0,1,2,4,0,0,2,0,13,2,26,5,3,21,0,1,0,1,20,9,0,0,8,76,20,1,0.16443065391237682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17572636247728546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11181848322779826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15372046490140032,0.1870636068052616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10023540043483344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1679020820937712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806193522540675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25407743064965904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16281219912383466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4948120581904487,0.0,0.0,0.18973089773269272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631720519419107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13403292920561674,0.18548493970831914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12087545025912252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15430702985879016,0.0,0.0,0.18720538931827715,0.17254231106783327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19292394380262096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.137471389388042,0.0,0.0,0.18823375904039352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236313880947388,0.0,0.14371963909386254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19778983084416765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2610347989174007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10588795004881707 alcoholism,anonymous3073,2019/10/31,"I want to quit drinking with all my heart, but I am scared of having withdrawals. I moved back home about 6 months ago, and ever since I got a job 3 months ago, I've been drinking every night. I drink natty daddys, 8% ABV. Every night when i get home from work I drink at least 6, at most 11. Usually around 8 or 9. Should I be worried about quitting cold turkey? I quit cold turkey when I moved away and was completely fine, although it was terrifying to drop it like that. I suffer from \*\*severe\*\* anxiety (that I alleviate with alcohol), so I know I will have a rough time. If I can be confident that I won't succumb to withdrawals this will be a lot easier. Does anyone have any input on this? Will I be fine?",2.228878205128204,4.149215541666671,3.7258333333333336,88.07942307692308,77.6111111111111,6.930769230769231,22.188034188034187,7.882392219407189,0.9933809829059828,554,16,116,9,13,183,91,144,0.14800000000000002,0.731,0.121,-0.7194,1,0,5,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,0,4,8,5,0,1,3,0,17,6,1,0,2,15,21,9,0,3,3,0,1,1,0,5,1,0,2,0,7,5,5,0,1,4,0,2,1,2,0,0,4,3,18,3,15,8,4,20,0,1,0,0,0,5,0,4,13,75,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2203197675992272,0.13280928062640426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08450941628145936,0.0,0.09506795900536526,0.0,0.0,0.0868940721780817,0.0,0.0,0.11062868221771724,0.0,0.0,0.11675790393701935,0.0955577174290208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13029712799011367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10875151535065734,0.0,0.0,0.4869581191686856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11241139783954043,0.20940952235033955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06492714053384939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09939189998368228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14726325782090965,0.0,0.0,0.2493104717551545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12332106879831768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06829679864573958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06071316193615595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10565185394224404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19838590687555835,0.2641635470299797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23324224484293865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39653662093361824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12441823823739125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14039231101703412,0.0,0.10279931956670654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07246416961497701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368683664961062,0.0,0.07329901434702465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09047170462977536,0.12620453923596048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,halfway2hundred,2019/04/24,"Change of plans A few months ago I made this account to talk about my wife's drinking problem, but I never did post. Today I'm here to say today is her 10th straight day going to AA. She seems to really enjoy it. I know it won't be a 45 degree upward trajectory from here but I'll take every second of it.",1.1259090909090936,2.80163098484849,3.5393939393939418,89.27909090909094,80.06060606060606,5.612121212121212,18.575757575757574,6.42735559955562,-0.043224242424241936,239,5,52,2,6,83,52,66,0.028999999999999998,0.858,0.113,0.7383,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,2,0,4,1,0,1,1,7,10,2,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,4,0,1,0,2,1,1,1,2,1,1,1,2,1,6,1,8,6,1,9,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,1,6,31,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269768397696061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2708716795073248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16513395142518536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.250835901366136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21573693599388805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14552165707698805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14072084127457532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24228493231437226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20438023645409634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19748499387629195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24522940394951964,0.0,0.0,0.24500954855946744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16403505125685525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20362479321494364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2331023743539561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.192521096388898,0.20580688522708526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4854193991237673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,althuz,2019/04/24,"Is it safe to quit given my medication? I’ve been planning on quitting drinking but have some fears it might be dangerous to do so. I’m 22 (m) and have been drinking every day, at least 2-4 drinks. I’m currently on bupropion sr 150mg twice daily. I have no clue how to get into detox, my friends who have done it only got in because they were hospitalized from drinking. Should I be safe to attempt to detox on my own?",1.8539534883720958,3.8039987558139567,3.6955232558139532,87.71444767441862,78.88372093023256,6.625581395348838,25.86627906976745,7.645422480735847,1.3843767441860466,327,13,69,5,8,110,62,86,0.11699999999999999,0.777,0.106,-0.264,1,0,4,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,4,2,5,1,1,0,0,14,7,0,1,0,9,19,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,0,4,2,4,2,0,4,0,0,1,2,0,1,6,0,6,3,12,9,3,8,0,0,0,0,3,6,0,2,2,45,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11536938338192672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12205518517988645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1936757418427104,0.0,0.7415997044042899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1594572857102923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21296687596713906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14621958099709828,0.0,0.09887903360132502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513662073730538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19065663696440335,0.0,0.20077189565798734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14393856757703266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4025964852608867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,LINK_DISTRIBUTOR,2019/04/24,"So just a quick question about my habits: I’m currently 19 (Male) and I’m obviously feeling guilty because I’m writing this and also because my family does not have these habits. Anyway I recently just quit smoking weed (I smoke occasionally now) and every night I feel the urge to have a drink or just reach a different state of mind just to have a relax at the end of my day. NO I DO NOT DRINK IN THE DAY OR IN THE MORNING. I don’t have excessive amounts during the week, it’s mainly on a Friday night when my family drink is when I’ll drink more than I usually do. But anyway I only have about 2 drinks most nights. Some nights I’ll have one and maybe 1 night in the week I’ll have none. I have a very strong mind, in a sense that if I wanted to not drink for a certain amount of time, I could do it, but obviously I’d be bored at night if no one is around. The reason I’m asking and why I feel guilty is because, i just feel bad having to consume something every night (most) in order to enjoy watching tv that night or just go to sleep easy. If I really wanted to I could stop all together. Most people say that if it becomes a problem in other aspects of your life, like family, friends, work, study, then it’s an issue. - but I only drink when everyone’s sleeping or in bed at like 10pm and it’s usually maximum 3 drinks. I am fit and I workout every second day. I’ll once again say, I do not drink in the day. Is something wrong? - is this bad? Obviously it’s a slippery slope and I know this, but should I feel guilty for having these habits. Sorry for the long read.",2.9940345528455268,3.9940824481707367,4.525975609756099,86.95540650406505,73.60365853658539,7.539837398373983,24.03252032520325,7.937092434478242,1.0955544715447152,1225,34,267,17,24,411,151,328,0.129,0.79,0.081,-0.9392,2,0,12,0,0,0,38.0,0,1,0,3,19,12,0,0,20,0,25,12,2,1,5,58,39,26,0,10,22,0,5,2,1,1,1,2,1,1,15,9,9,1,8,13,0,1,8,5,0,3,0,8,25,7,30,35,10,46,0,0,1,0,8,14,0,13,31,169,40,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053591243048490896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0596568586593887,0.06264924421514202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11190813968593458,0.12255372929438547,0.07401193477141974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1070107944130352,0.0,0.0,0.17287449737559168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07001559080526032,0.0,0.0,0.05864459062705426,0.0,0.0,0.5908357578553901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05935470309060557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1693870978079443,0.06403495369549987,0.0,0.0,0.18952511168740455,0.0,0.1694220017762787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05177501581372493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0380857223898094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06994542899981462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03682925966413711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04733412148035842,0.06547952027959301,0.0,0.0,0.05930547093450155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06732478569292405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13533050588885207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5031064044172555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07136795123447476,0.09082113204530308,0.10193465966304026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046459218392254836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0641235527186971,0.0,0.0,0.07507125705758759,0.07127786596292511,0.06703234940362553,0.0,0.04293102174517962,0.06890177361047826,0.06616845207034319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10658478609769832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13412522253933815,0.0,0.0,0.10318163253525717,0.0,0.07501692649238849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05602688394086343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039076527333870056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14761337894146892,0.05529374518080878,0.0790534398695504,0.0,0.10750952112194773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06046990510667756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048787146222628495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07326952338476783,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,BaronHarkonnen81,2019/04/24,Be been downward spiraling again. I just kissed two full days of work and can’t afford to call in again for a while. I’m terrified of going back in and having people ask me what is wrong. I just have no will power and it’s only a matter of time before I screw up royally. I am on the verge of considering AA. I feel like I’m on the edge of losing my job if I am not careful.,0.9551979345955246,2.2479409397590366,3.67765920826162,89.81445783132533,79.36144578313251,6.670567986230638,19.08605851979346,7.447530270364453,0.29859862306368345,290,6,68,4,7,103,62,83,0.17800000000000002,0.747,0.075,-0.8198,3,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,3,5,6,1,0,4,0,9,2,0,0,0,9,15,5,0,1,4,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,3,1,1,1,1,8,3,12,12,1,15,0,1,0,2,2,8,1,1,7,49,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662344615036599,0.0,0.0,0.21898120589695672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24233008534963385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2907961567788055,0.0,0.29035612010137546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18366202694502126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1439952739250373,0.203449642970475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16184922768753954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2826040332955439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13913100660312494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3186002889437114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2165909546390754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19743326747991896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660597560672801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2781924456989499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20732603825637974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31136643940963554,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,HappyHalftwin,2019/04/24,"Scared I don’t have the greatest relationship with alcohol but since I fell pregnant I went cold turkey and since she was born I got drunk twice. I’m really concerned about my babies father, my loving boyfriend, who drinks every day void a few days here and there when he has a really bad hang over or is having an exceptionally good day. I can’t convince him to go to AA or NA and he also gets very defensive over his drinking. I want to help and I don’t want this to last forever. His health is also not what it used to be but I can’t find a way to tell him that it is because of his drinking. Is there an alternative route other than AA? I’ve seen ads for OYNB but I can’t convince him to do that either. He is extremely intelligent and I love him so much but when he drinks he either has a mean streak or he gets super reclusive and I can’t take it, I’m really insecure all the time :( The twice I got drunk was because I had expressed milk for baby and my parents were looking after her so I went out on date afternoon with him. I feel guilty because I know he will take every reason to drink and I really needed a break. How do I start the conversations. He always finds a reason not to speak about it, if it’s a holiday then it’s “why do you want to ruin a good day” if it’s in the evening after work it’s “Ive had a long day let’s not talk about such serious things” if it’s the weekend then it’s “why do you want to fight with me” or “I work all week” Was there a magical sentence that worked for anyone that they heard from their partner? I won’t leave him. I’ve left him before and it just sucks because I love him. He is a good boyfriend and a good dad. I don’t even know what I’m asking for exactly. Maybe someone who was in a similar situation. 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After three months of that, I thought I was doing better and I started drinking again. I was having fun and doing okay, but I’ve recently started to get bad again. I black out on practically nothing at this point and I just can’t stop when I’ve started. I feel so awkward and nervous about everything that I drink to calm down. Everything is so bad in my head and I just use alcohol as a coping mechanism. I know it’s counter productive. I need help, I’m familiar with this path, please help. I don’t know what to do.",1.06423558897243,3.4090817894736887,2.861984962406016,90.33608521303259,84.48872180451126,5.952681704260652,24.656140350877195,7.3011,1.2131457644110275,510,21,106,8,15,169,82,133,0.16399999999999998,0.6859999999999999,0.15,-0.5886,0,0,4,0,0,1,13.0,0,0,0,2,8,8,0,2,4,1,10,5,1,1,0,23,22,11,1,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,9,4,2,5,3,0,0,2,4,0,2,4,2,17,4,18,18,1,23,0,0,1,0,3,9,0,1,14,73,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13090194446441114,0.15781600776322666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465991998241686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306035108967988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.433985783707796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2654353859128661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07466718719101419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07715230491578262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15155364292829765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2969434391220243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16231287534188615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14800571650534086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12554509536763162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23574009039066604,0.0,0.0,0.21899320883227516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14169486242227688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16209904839557238,0.13959737348003096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14580786866749545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3135681102523461,0.0,0.0,0.2469201040645125,0.0,0.0,0.16904862741843835,0.16152873895675393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11723473835871638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275408305845953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,dudewhodoesnothing,2019/04/24,"I (M/24) Stopped drinking beer after drinking 4 per night for 2-3 weeks Am I going to be ok? I'm not shaking or feeling any kind of nausea but I do get worried about what this can do, even at age 24. I just feel more tired than usual when I wake up since I'm used to being kinda drunk when I fall asleep. Also having more anxiety than usual. I'm sure it's nothing, but wanted to have some perspective to make sure I do not professional help of any kind.",2.7462053571428555,3.662492281250003,4.38565476190476,88.04625000000004,74.10416666666666,6.735714285714287,24.130952380952376,6.868970318607317,0.7509452380952379,353,10,77,3,7,119,69,96,0.18,0.731,0.08900000000000001,-0.8403,0,0,3,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,6,6,0,1,0,1,9,7,2,2,2,16,19,6,0,1,6,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,4,1,2,4,0,3,2,1,0,0,0,2,7,5,13,17,3,14,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,3,9,45,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1462980134515843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488125818844022,0.0,0.13994951909160766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3584254637862018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12083093881500727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1850011373868166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09557922762592012,0.0,0.10396970119644468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12262163172289813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3810102210643157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12211467315298362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1716779256603904,0.0,0.17553701763888332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513308530742008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15294703675774513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3448398364532883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21026400040228366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1580024613827222,0.402967777374982,0.0,0.10790346100915052,0.0,0.1467443977091608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1857856711981564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,LuLuiexl,2019/04/24,"Not sure.. I'm thinking if I'm thinking this I have a problem. But, it's not awful? We drink. Almost every day. Not always to the point of drunkenness. Most times not. We liive just above pay-to-pay and sometimes we dip into savings if we feel like "" it's been rough, we need a drink"". My spouse and I try to not spend the money but, we always make excuses. Bills are still paid, kiddo ALWAYS taken care of, if not spoiled but...we struggle emotionally without beer/wine. I know it's not like some stories. I know it's not extreme. But...is this is an addiction isn't it? We try and are successful for a few days. Do the "" only on weekends"" agreement then fail. Don't know what to do.",-0.2670863309352498,2.023200474820147,1.8068309352517995,94.48722482014392,94.61151079136692,4.2188489208633095,19.180215827338127,5.985473137389443,-0.04195280575539506,522,17,111,5,20,173,81,139,0.047,0.7859999999999999,0.16699999999999998,0.9497,0,0,4,0,0,0,35.0,7,0,0,2,2,10,0,1,7,1,9,3,0,1,1,40,22,9,0,5,15,1,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,8,11,2,0,6,3,4,0,11,3,0,0,3,2,12,7,9,19,3,9,0,1,0,0,9,3,0,6,8,67,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18944376077940847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17401364765773614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4337918576991926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17717833704093175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22414497411195786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3404727261282457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19547695317592015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14641552968364352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0878674200732671,0.12414709702173515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2865116687296687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16979838669951836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11599821962832485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12885424640700774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321660626532028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16427645821605014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16628215592577578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17187096730977622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13877940134303612,0.0,0.0,0.1816705833318351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16378378638982918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2226999571183672,0.0,0.0,0.10133139752367178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359678221556075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.167515870462221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,thegoodsock,2019/04/24,I have to stop drinking again I'm almost at the point in my binge where I massively fuck up and almost ruin my life and become so disgusted with myself that I stop drinking. After a decade of this behavior I finally see it coming. I don't want to do it anymore. It's not worth the risk. My insides hurt. My mother died of liver failure in her 40's because she couldn't stop drinking. I feel stupid saying that I'm going to quit. I know everyone is tired of hearing it. But I have to quit.,1.4017647058823501,3.434391921568629,3.5429019607843166,87.82905882352941,80.76470588235293,6.04078431372549,22.945098039215694,7.1686216300943375,0.9314203921568632,384,13,78,5,10,131,67,102,0.33399999999999996,0.65,0.016,-0.9869,0,0,3,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,3,6,3,1,3,0,6,7,1,0,0,15,16,4,1,2,2,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,7,4,3,3,2,3,1,2,3,6,0,0,0,4,15,0,13,15,0,14,0,2,1,1,5,6,1,2,6,51,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3229705902665911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15993322285089998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09830667741494636,0.1781063890504556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13891697392652588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16736936351746154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4739398840583968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1540972332495049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08154128399768636,0.0,0.0,0.17665977626706916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14908845630978335,0.0,0.0,0.09165157633261152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18175928016236625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17263932706703508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08862795534854828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11390743238613114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15244914807285218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34305395109820186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12824574467756544,0.0,0.0,0.1285086726798836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4044785217117245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18535233689340586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0951192720516476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Locked_Out_,2019/04/24,"Praying For My Day One I'm a University student finishing up my senior year of undergrad and I've been accepted into law school this following fall. I'm also a closet alcoholic. It's hard to admit that to myself for some reason, and even harder to tell others. Everything is going right in my life, but for some reason I can't stay off the booze. I drink a fifth of vodka every night and it gets me to a slight buzz so I can at least fall asleep. I drink before I go to class, I drink before I see my friends or my family, and I drank before I attended church 2 days ago. I have a term paper due in 15 hours. I haven't started it yet. I just finished my vodka. I don't know if I should try to write it now even though I'm drunk, or if I should wait until I have a clear mind, but a broken body. I've had enough. I want to stop. I'm going into tomorrow with a positive attitude and a lot of prayers. I want to wish anyone out there going through the same thing to be strong and be well.",1.852422637301366,3.1333299099526077,4.014569277948148,88.38682185670478,76.91469194312796,7.23958739894062,20.942570393086147,7.928766900206844,0.7570717033732932,765,18,171,12,17,264,127,211,0.055999999999999994,0.79,0.154,0.9549,0,0,6,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,1,10,4,0,0,11,0,13,10,2,2,1,37,32,16,0,7,7,0,1,0,1,2,2,0,1,0,8,10,7,2,5,6,0,8,3,0,1,1,3,2,26,4,26,25,7,35,2,0,1,0,4,9,0,7,17,113,34,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12114495351912885,0.14605293300473793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10929065965239243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09555909076892526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3488746170128385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15180360122967052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17627476785861035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40163794212802906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14121110125539335,0.0,0.1805314056965003,0.0,0.11514584972575942,0.0,0.122825362221753,0.0,0.1288352555302601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10558675839399824,0.0,0.07140163143609561,0.0,0.3106786472225613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12242466975875935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13458713699599348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0751073095946062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09653027372352624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116187385948276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379923231702414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12825050252229014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09260749393914013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.281028013561668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11671085201399715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.138311907326229,0.10890402048204342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09673193243239477,0.14566631765945282,0.0,0.11425775473475275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11945091518498993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09079391121372092,0.0,0.13427231051736593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0927863166180234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612166857804802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12287792009834192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15715758624634302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0880075445509092 alcoholism,Stargazer1972,2019/04/24,"Drinking and missing work So I've been going through this viscous cycle for the last several years. I held on to my last full time job by passing off fake doctor notes to an incompitent HR Dept. So, one day I quit. I didn't know it then, but I was going through a mid life crisis and for the next couple of years it was and is a rollercoaster ride of depression, drinking, self loathing and despair. I can go weeks without drinking and I feel really good and then, for no reason at all, I'll start drinking. Usually only for a day or so, but it still manages to screw things up. I'm usually so sick afterwards I can't get out of bed which causes me to miss work. I just started at a new company where everyone is very supportive. They don't know what I am going through. My wife of 13yrs works there as well. The last thing I want to do is make her look bad. I lie to myself that I can have a few drinks and get up and go to work the next day. Never happens. I really like this job and don't want to lose it. I can't afford to. Just thought I'd share.",1.5070814479637988,3.258438837104073,3.189183257918554,91.87897850678736,79.18099547511312,6.591945701357466,23.26719457013575,7.554174236665415,0.8852749321266971,817,27,184,12,20,271,129,221,0.18,0.74,0.08,-0.9788,3,0,5,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,1,6,10,13,1,0,10,0,16,9,0,3,2,28,39,19,0,2,6,1,1,1,0,0,3,0,1,1,11,10,5,1,5,5,0,7,8,8,1,1,6,2,20,5,30,33,3,39,0,5,1,1,5,10,1,1,23,117,31,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08435119561619017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10377993819754368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11178163195906417,0.0,0.1954572373301441,0.0,0.08701221040199213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10340280493103758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4948275009581506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09653319089391814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05108099715936425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10556221056404752,0.0,0.287072614065669,0.08473451524617631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08933558713684203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20050235578578304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11104079095756966,0.2470452299162331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0713565563955497,0.04935544312915111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08483509400044159,0.11302051804129815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06743460457112582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07791628348599225,0.09757004294024213,0.2148812964793859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06845678157761452,0.07683364625162807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1074519374875992,0.0,0.0,0.12943769857647666,0.10386995978006396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10539053353941844,0.11412887257392015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14301125078402055,0.0,0.08067825594368011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11464134820439988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134232310672821,0.0,0.0,0.08020212843642628,0.058908168974860724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2225283172002122,0.08335575105059836,0.11917367564653185,0.0,0.08103571976275238,0.0,0.09083311273288376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0973839643418926,0.0,0.2941880099967631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13011286664258725 alcoholism,JeanRaymond,2019/04/24,"Want vs. Need What my heart wants is SOOOO different than what I know I truly NEED. [https://anxiousacoa.wordpress.com/2019/04/23/need-vs-want/](https://anxiousacoa.wordpress.com/2019/04/23/need-vs-want/)",31.21666666666667,41.01686400000001,9.553333333333338,42.60000000000002,20.111111111111114,8.044444444444443,20.11111111111111,8.841846274778883,1.4959111111111107,184,2,15,2,2,33,15,18,0.0,0.769,0.231,0.4939,1,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,6,6,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2722632626190977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3088028731495796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14321459378802448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7729029106086404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4611118869226776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,hoplesswonder,2019/04/24,"Book suggestion Hello, does anyone have suggestions for good books (memoirs) they’ve read about alcoholism? I am trying to fully educate myself and also gain an understanding from the addict themselves. Thanks in advance.",6.562000000000001,10.547666914285717,6.020000000000002,64.37000000000003,79.85714285714286,8.514285714285714,29.857142857142854,8.841846274778883,4.155685714285714,182,8,20,5,5,56,35,35,0.0,0.765,0.235,0.8481,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,5,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,13,2,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37791443230671656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3704779013081993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2772267108069207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2423952102204117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3033676033871067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2907649332788741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3467573559734895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31916121550273024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2353617907121953,0.0,0.0,0.3608889749414368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,catparty303,2019/04/24,"I’m finally going to take this seriously to stop drinking but I’m really afraid of withdrawals Very long time lurker, too afraid to really admit I’ve got a serious problem... My husband and I have been binge drinking for years, even before we met each other. In the past when we realized we were partying too much, we could just easily take a break and not have any issues. Even went a year without drinking. Now it’s been a year where we’ve get drunk every night after work, wake up hungover, puke a lot, go to work, rinse, repeat. We are actively looking for AA meetings to attend, detox programs etc. the worst of it is with withdrawals. I’ve read a lot about tapering down with beer to get through the worst of it (ie trying not to have seizures) but we know that’s not a solution. Is this is right way to go? Thanks everyone!",4.201666666666668,5.540395337423316,4.982346625766873,83.53503323108389,71.08588957055215,8.378118609406954,27.693762781186088,8.841846274778883,2.082943149284254,652,23,128,12,12,211,104,163,0.14800000000000002,0.762,0.09,-0.8829,0,0,4,0,0,0,23.0,6,0,0,2,9,8,0,2,10,0,11,7,1,0,0,26,27,5,0,2,7,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,11,5,1,3,6,0,5,4,7,1,0,6,1,8,1,22,20,7,25,0,0,1,0,10,5,0,2,13,80,15,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09933930881341099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12430319496501975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11663287538627308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4293079260379596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16291764971039233,0.19296872938258516,0.0,0.1230785758828699,0.1395855589279363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16002333779994884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15264138714158493,0.0,0.24906163931509334,0.0,0.11683340248318386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1524694129993498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08028166647182189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12927607236574984,0.12267028472899802,0.0,0.0,0.2483837330155733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1073854995581441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1370860456047738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13944974824097692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13977869007678145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14611938352061846,0.0,0.18716498786410207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12475139564448952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1221292974937474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2196677380420902,0.0,0.0,0.13449070149362774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08518033658302397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09917863073625484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12053117681608452,0.0,0.11595138724907965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13541748653602834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1408157646857369,0.0,0.21269574446379694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.282211906275531 alcoholism,Lather,2019/10/20,"Self medicating to combat alcoholism. Would it be a crazy idea to alternate between using benzos and ketamine for 6 nights top help you stop drinking, then perhaps doing the same for another 4 nights but halving the dose?",10.058461538461538,9.819673435897439,9.261153846153846,63.39634615384618,58.23076923076921,11.902564102564106,42.57692307692308,11.20814326018867,5.1830923076923066,180,9,26,4,2,57,35,39,0.127,0.79,0.083,-0.1901,0,0,2,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,4,0,1,0,7,4,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,1,1,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,2,1,5,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,17,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3022698410322271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.296582301358856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2770754283439869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18958162612088694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3192918250312607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2849314477328181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5308521809480994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2950637057084801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2364668250739788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442828654223944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20092135323594387,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,xiansmif96,2019/10/20,23 y.o alcoholic I have recently turned 23 and drink every day and have done so for about three years. I am high functioning as I study neuroscience at one of the best unis in England and am working class. My dad is an alcoholic and I have been talking to a GP for a couple of months so I think I could do with just talking with someone,1.6559627329192566,3.8648395652173946,2.9615320910973075,91.38652173913046,80.8840579710145,6.8414078674948255,24.349896480331264,7.957251820313856,1.3536939958592136,266,10,57,5,7,86,50,69,0.0,0.935,0.065,0.6369,0,0,3,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,4,0,10,3,0,0,0,9,12,7,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,7,1,11,9,1,7,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,4,42,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.48165638710420794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2364885425373631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17992182778741606,0.2493429799647539,0.0,0.14533064498892495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.230608969534774,0.0,0.22075498719253145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1898651839027232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.238092251965048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17987041023674502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15270145567037016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2225036998119881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19093640257026756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36225194292361895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14439372792205554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24511362286320795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16405583322794204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451165514934522 alcoholism,Penguin_Nipz,2019/10/20,"Depression/Anxiety Hi all, most of my family are alcoholics (those that are dead are dead of alcohol related deaths) I have dealt with this problem most of my life without actually drinking myself. My father served 22 years in the RAF and was abused and was always nice as hell to me and my siblings but he is an alcoholic. My mother drinks a lot when ever she can, my brother is 23 and is an alcoholic and has attempted suicide twice. I have been to five therapy sessions on my own so far and i have been diagnosed with generalised anxiety disorder and am on the OCD spectrum but on thing scares me most, my therapist keeps pointing out my reference to alcohol. I myself have always turned to a drink (or drug) when in pain but i havent felt happy for a long time. I am beginning to have thoughts of suicide, which is scary to me as i have never self harmed but these thoughts are about how i dont wabt to live with myself and that i cant change. Tldr: i might be alcoholic an suicidal but dont want to chabge because alcohol is the only tjing that makes me warm",7.0227402597402575,6.25278796666667,7.476406926406928,75.46344155844156,64.57142857142857,11.826839826839828,35.28138528138528,11.20814326018867,3.874761904761904,843,34,165,22,11,278,121,210,0.22899999999999998,0.7390000000000001,0.032,-0.9937,0,0,11,0,1,2,16.0,0,0,0,1,6,8,1,1,9,0,29,14,0,2,3,36,37,20,6,2,7,3,2,0,0,1,11,0,0,1,8,12,10,1,4,3,0,0,6,5,0,2,7,2,27,3,26,28,6,16,1,0,0,0,7,8,1,6,8,127,35,1,0.0,0.1093258710498116,0.09004304105076448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6902663539341861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1535534805938472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14117389802254438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05624745478294337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09761032644406356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09365297221215013,0.0,0.0,0.10575039004566518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21628150204260965,0.27117092042371355,0.1070048939414558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08346426798894112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08698474710845018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08859448765540644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09822403742809914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08201457260048743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06517363134486309,0.0,0.0,0.08147685255132141,0.08165680018002584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0784453784975722,0.0,0.0,0.06159151001966336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09788479223576717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0711649691659533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07017614061876919,0.09818269181148036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08722577945272192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08829074364769668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0923792193544348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09625862187156868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3027880068574551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10551976042912456,0.107133570625078,0.0613006538730979,0.0,0.0,0.14650549902699628,0.05380387566191349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1003641904319883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05442373900125425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08894580836745136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059419403290572624 alcoholism,finn4life,2019/10/20,"Is this becoming a problem? What can I do? Hi all, hope you are doing well on the sober train. I'm gonna try keep this short but basically I'm a little concerned with my use of alcohol - so if tldr go off that. I'm 26 and at uni, a bit over halfway way through a bachelor's. I started a bit over a year ago (accelerated program.) The drinking culture here at the uni is the worst I've ever seen, much worse than back in Australia. Drinking 250-500ml Vodka on top of beer is a normal night for many. Lately I've had problems of blacking out when i drink, and I often end up doing things I regret. We have a great community so it hasn't caused huge problems, but I don't wanna do something really dumb when I'm out of my mind. The thing is that I still seem quite sober even when I'm blackout drunk, so I don't get refused service and my friends don't recognize that I'm very drunk. There is a history of alcoholism in my family, which has always worried me, I vowed to never be hooked on anything (don't even drink coffee.) I drank a lot on weekends when I was 18-19. Then I sobered up for several years until I got to this university. I'm seen as a party animal, and everybody else is like 19-20, I drink to enjoy the party, because otherwise I just find it boring - seen it all before. I keep telling myself that I'll take it easier next time, but then surprise surprise, next event, I blackout again. Is this a problem? What can I do to force myself to moderate my intake without simply staying home? Tell me your thoughts :))",3.3170317725752483,4.444437185897439,4.942101449275366,83.79130434782611,72.97435897435899,7.733779264214048,27.98829431438127,8.18289091462,1.8228158862876247,1190,45,244,18,23,403,180,312,0.142,0.7290000000000001,0.129,-0.748,1,0,10,0,0,0,44.0,1,2,0,2,18,16,1,0,18,0,25,11,0,2,4,37,48,19,0,9,6,0,0,1,1,1,2,0,1,0,17,8,11,3,3,10,0,1,7,8,1,0,8,4,30,8,34,38,7,46,0,1,4,0,9,19,1,5,25,158,47,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08789749190004445,0.21193926982248767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0825073127901766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0815984995530627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07624630132129419,0.0,0.06044573301080325,0.1095121056184255,0.0843760661153611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21650948137919535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10186247342332463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4856849410483918,0.0,0.0,0.08283369838921736,0.0,0.08782446417437438,0.0,0.0,0.13098571016749924,0.08969399376861306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09347723945944708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0906285204865564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0766091444264987,0.0,0.05180590803407413,0.0,0.05635371735366989,0.0,0.07930562762427662,0.10932193032491114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.099463454462049,0.09848616429183683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1762721878717793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1118544256270335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048443539294365824,0.09938226143940417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08430049720282701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10053054302948836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10012120815424153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07289246276492604,0.0,0.07647668223437007,0.0,0.21091109449436005,0.0930529681935916,0.09715368480016492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3795228593683703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10546662791204447,0.0,0.0,0.06352308721809741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09026962434782136,0.0,0.1120201982320134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07633659270616779,0.0,0.0,0.07018446910468723,0.10568912368734654,0.0791876237800439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07455439738965312,0.0,0.1733367432142798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13175220004886554,0.0,0.0,0.07872029332681661,0.05781976652555465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06732170244367536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08564058516550348,0.0,0.08181564880016284,0.0,0.078706922371942,0.0,0.0,0.08915485682887228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0955846732222164,0.0,0.0,0.10069965655937436,0.10105036725237752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12770886792382782 alcoholism,Planetleaper,2019/10/20,"Worried about Delirium Tremors So, I've been drinking heavily for the better part of 3 years. I'd say an average, about 8-10 beers a night. And that's pretty much every night. I just recently stopped drinking a little over 48 hours ago and am terrified of getting DT's on day 3. I've been talking small doses of xanax to help the terrible shaking I've had since day 1. What do you think the likelihood of having DT's would be? Dont want to die from this, but dont want to keep drinking and slowly kill myself. I know a doctor's advice is best and no one heres a doctor. Just wondering from experience.",2.98560975609756,4.596075081300814,4.556593495934957,84.30171951219513,74.60975609756099,7.846829268292684,26.934146341463407,8.548686976883017,1.9432673170731718,477,18,96,9,10,160,85,123,0.165,0.725,0.11,-0.6087,0,0,4,0,0,2,13.0,0,1,0,2,6,5,1,1,8,0,11,8,0,0,0,15,18,6,2,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,3,4,4,2,3,4,0,1,3,3,0,1,3,1,4,2,14,13,3,14,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,9,54,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14305370546870766,0.1297687069360467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15363059376874658,0.12947285695204672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18882295981773364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1519329916245521,0.0,0.0,0.2996792129148201,0.0,0.0,0.3431433956142645,0.43022870447657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12334255446806333,0.0,0.0,0.14320060493639686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07648438598082631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09812425192426938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1441677777806641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13012097043065415,0.16196234589960284,0.0,0.0804538543654515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14672440908823126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10761581967714373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2747601347436709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.099199796541029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15852953059007124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14893447697502396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14454558834476305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11641771972173487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1210979379602772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1223912400693078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11766527986539772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09380282832790293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.172692961964317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15875714153131446,0.0,0.14866936403002642,0.0,0.10399350340690408,0.0,0.0,0.09427239786083776 alcoholism,jenego,2019/10/20,"How does AA work? I drank since I was 15. I’ve been able to maintain study and work performance separate to my drinking, but for the past couple months it’s been a little turbulent. I’ve been institutionalized once for a suicide attempt, and I lost all my friends out of drinking. Sometimes fights but mostly from things I did / said when I blacked out. I’ve had good evaluations from all the places I worked, and got several recommendations which landed me other jobs & a master’s in an ivy league school. I even got a sort of an award from my last job for my ‘dedication’. I’ve got my first appointment with a therapist booked to see whether I have depression, but I think my real problem may be alcoholism. Has anyone ever been to AA here? How does it work and how do you sign up? Google searches just shows up ads and self test stuffs. Ofc maybe I didn’t search enough. Sorry for rambling and would appreciate some advice.",4.00485018726592,6.051111657303372,4.417775280898876,84.52516479400751,72.87640449438203,7.6680149812734095,25.911610486891387,8.447377352677275,1.6801740823970035,737,25,145,13,15,232,117,178,0.126,0.7879999999999999,0.086,-0.8166,2,0,3,0,1,1,20.0,0,1,0,10,8,7,1,0,9,0,14,4,0,3,3,29,22,14,1,2,5,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,1,6,9,4,0,1,4,0,0,1,4,2,1,14,3,18,3,19,5,5,14,0,2,2,0,5,8,0,4,6,90,24,10,0.13012173470442415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12715345318079949,0.0,0.13906056185258342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14098684518795707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09098414238636132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14397722449549635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11207365943167492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2277408138294757,0.0,0.0,0.2549395242971135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344505356818821,0.0,0.0859441785649646,0.11770255865005365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11068148106686422,0.0,0.0,0.10053172945171916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10913993748618306,0.312210714269438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2582514871621959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1060665809006879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13041616238009235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14204324451503764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13072477206046212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10386192720730936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13857540074619862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12421591935655332,0.0,0.0,0.13594951776665246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1245089267880094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14810702136674234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12377556728132864,0.0,0.0,0.13169014238874555,0.10369017564164176,0.0,0.13574534779257685,0.14700052253675086,0.0,0.10763804358840404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286937228268166,0.14566062877827496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14895825488429176,0.14233205815449296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15108136312366266,0.0864470986403541,0.08337675351322954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3789206904288061,0.0,0.0,0.0924347469590684,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,TransgenderPride,2019/08/15,"I am becoming an alcoholic... My previous girlfriend broke up with me a few months ago. I had long struggled with drinking before meeting her. After we broke up, I became extremely depressed. I drank the days away. I'm still managing at work, still managing at school, I got a boyfriend, and I'm doing OK. I'm making this post because right now, I'm drunk at work. Like, *drunk.* And I'm afraid of where this leads. My ex gf didn't know about these issues, my current bf does. I keep trying to go sober, and I mean it, but the pull is... strong. I'm only a few months deep. I want to get out. But I'm sitting here drunk at work, contemplating sneaking out for a few more shots. I know it's wrong, and I don't care. Wtf is wrong with me. I'm only 23...",0.2265878136200712,2.423866199999999,2.080591397849464,95.48310931899643,87.0,5.250896057347671,19.57885304659498,6.691623216298621,0.11858422939068093,571,17,130,7,18,188,95,155,0.158,0.753,0.08900000000000001,-0.8629,1,0,2,0,0,0,37.0,1,0,0,5,6,11,0,2,7,1,7,6,0,2,0,19,26,6,0,1,2,1,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,5,10,6,1,3,4,0,3,2,7,0,0,4,0,17,4,18,22,4,27,0,3,0,0,7,12,0,0,11,69,22,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14463301545662402,0.17437025235577835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1532958019048417,0.0,0.0,0.09946186686168752,0.1801992949083132,0.13883860177159368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16635424228294568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10522580794205973,0.0,0.14053094577780653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14278391605109955,0.0,0.0,0.15983636408097798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0852452616731934,0.0,0.09272856252053578,0.0,0.13049532834250838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17029843939025427,0.0,0.14502562884288112,0.0,0.0,0.17933882269040374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07971257218014025,0.0,0.0,0.1443929830993883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10891171152590028,0.0,0.0,0.1777309397912329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2604682480212425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2481836727377634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1562638206076523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13933921284332176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651283660527462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26060231222926683,0.0,0.0,0.17057205039849965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11077609405709808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09623700669740276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3563510146191165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35678344291309644,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,richsreddit,2019/08/15,Managed to not drink last night and I will be starting my first day today Decided to post this up so I can tangibly tell myself that I will quit drinking from now on. It was tough but after my jiujitsu class I would have gone home and bought a drink for myself. Luckily my jiujitsu coach needed a ride home and he invited me inside his house where he gave me some food and we hung out and talked for a bit before I left. I guess the positive encouragement and advice my coach gave me helped me to find the drive in me to not drink last night despite the fact that part of me wanted to. I am planning to go through today without a drink and see how it goes. Wish me luck! Any advice or feedback from you guys is appreciated too.,5.128095238095233,5.347148068027213,5.871156462585037,82.06074829931974,68.31972789115646,8.982312925170069,27.897959183673468,8.841846274778883,1.8711714285714285,574,17,120,9,9,188,97,147,0.008,0.8290000000000001,0.163,0.98,0,0,5,0,0,0,7.0,1,1,0,3,5,3,0,0,7,0,9,6,0,1,1,25,20,11,0,4,5,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,1,5,9,6,0,2,7,1,4,3,1,0,1,5,1,23,2,18,11,3,22,0,0,1,0,12,6,0,4,11,81,28,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475589321238807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08613925341703525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10778597656392652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13828972456418698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08169101621623807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6204369092263642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11577315742394988,0.10774457387265016,0.15316863937591915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07198890322367106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13954016768812347,0.12542220995022652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08490355053102919,0.0,0.2541186396852369,0.0,0.0,0.1461590017058562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2065042580044573,0.0,0.0,0.1376262227549862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0939234473087786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377405231290414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1371701668768128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12131387302153103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13472805746669447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10093878110051444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08965695949520229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10181173195093247,0.11071427599040627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401347733961409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07471264919199873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14566308136457132,0.12210438127933455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0899820125836091,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,JHG_Control,2019/08/15,"My story & my new project Hi All, I am new to this community, and I wish I had found it years ago. I struggled with alcohol abuse nearly my entire adult life before getting control in the last few years. Binges, blackouts and bad decisions led to anxiety, regret and shame. I tried giving up alcohol entirely. I tried making ""rules"" about no shots or ""only"" a certain number of drinks per night. Sometimes those worked for a while, but they quickly went out the window once the excitement and euphoria of a first drink led to a second and then a third and then a fourth and on and on on. The turning point for me was the first time I heard about Naltrexone. After a particularly scary multi-day binge, a very patient and caring nurse practitioner insisted that I speak to a physician specializing in addiction. He accepted my seemingly contradictory, but strongly felt, assertion that I felt addicted to alcohol, but was not ready to give up drinking entirely. And he prescribed me Naltrexone to help me cut back. Despite working professionally in healthcare for over 10 years, I had never heard of the drug! But this ordinary-looking, beige pill has had a transformational effect on my life. Since I began taking 50 milligrams of Naltrexone every morning, I have never ended the night out-of-control drunk. While I still enjoy a cocktail before dinner or a beer at a baseball game, I don't feel the same rush of excitement and euphoria that alcohol used to bring. I don't feel the overpowering urge to drink more and more and more and more. To be honest, I usually lose interest in drinking after one or two drinks. While avoiding the binges and the blackouts may sound too good to be true, it's what I've gained that has been the real benefit: energy, focus, health, and connection to the people most important to me. I know that not everyone who takes Naltrexone has the same results. But I am convinced that it has enormous untapped potential to help people like us. That's why I am starting a new project to help provide more people who want to control their drinking with safe and effective medication. It's called Control. Here's a link: [https://www.takecontrol.co](https://www.takecontrol.co/) I envision Control as an end-to-end telehealth solution that provides people who are ready to control their drinking with access to safe and effective medication and counseling. We will connect our customers with trained and licensed addiction specialists who will assess whether they are a good fit for Naltrexone and write a prescription if appropriate. We will then ship Naltrexone directly to our customers' doors in discreet packaging. Finally, we will connect customers with professional counselors as well as peers who are using medication to control their drinking. And we'll do it all online, allowing the customers who need us most to take control without leaving their homes or even their bedrooms. We're just getting started, so right now, we are providing connections to doctors who prescribe Nalterxone as part of their telemedicine practices, information on resources on the effective use of Naltrexone, and connections to support groups and resources in our customers' communities. I would love to get your all's feedback on whether you think Control might be useful and how we can make it better. No one knows better than this community what we should be building. Thanks in advance for any feedback you're willing to share, and please let me know if I can be helpful to you in any way.",9.957088762214985,9.86346917752443,8.939704804560263,65.14437805374594,58.36482084690554,12.1049674267101,42.47740228013029,11.45678717892309,5.169501791530943,2841,143,437,68,32,887,306,614,0.06,0.715,0.225,0.9990000000000001,1,1,15,0,1,0,84.0,12,3,8,22,13,32,1,3,34,0,39,30,0,23,7,116,78,51,0,8,17,0,4,1,0,10,17,4,4,1,27,38,17,11,18,13,0,6,9,7,1,7,13,8,55,25,74,49,14,65,0,2,0,1,50,25,0,11,34,311,82,9,0.0,0.061776889015408815,0.0,0.17051954976996594,0.0,0.0,0.04621860120638571,0.22288546305820547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05649322470763761,0.0,0.07091341919717803,0.0,0.03988664415048534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04009212684064122,0.043534380337588295,0.0,0.0,0.08873390279632169,0.0,0.0,0.09222646173807007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05324035163014364,0.0,0.05315978760998585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5263108601056676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03362572258166283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05336708039473501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4596925419671982,0.060465371953131085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1385406044505531,0.0,0.0,0.034437707897577725,0.0,0.04392985390187933,0.04982161327859385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05272668732468337,0.0,0.10012436724645664,0.05711637301631507,0.0,0.08869981837736167,0.0,0.0571683699697811,0.0,0.0,0.08172235242904655,0.10003409276396816,0.0,0.08746442981633758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0554219467254075,0.0,0.0,0.13979227428374627,0.0,0.0523002606447366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08596366639299234,0.042500725374804114,0.0,0.05520829815732936,0.0,0.053316264025783315,0.07365546968271265,0.02547277032908191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04378412447163235,0.058330865169346185,0.0,0.0,0.04705801624552584,0.0,0.06960716328603613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15757545671171452,0.0,0.055311866150054866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038660845823712965,0.08042653325756717,0.15107022471534612,0.0,0.09785894762278036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055526962411771436,0.07066227204288877,0.03965450820474297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05646209572997413,0.0,0.14458810873645228,0.0,0.0,0.05723361333082761,0.04928876618854632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05934626899194539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0445269255465989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04746592512021485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04313040819818003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051567388378861365,0.0,0.07380934127495388,0.0,0.04163874446079962,0.0,0.0,0.054507620887487486,0.0,0.0,0.059167389610614005,0.0,0.0,0.1176074499959551,0.0,0.0,0.048003129914331664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033408944397165165,0.0,0.0,0.030403014615364567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0707987190651027,0.056712902388981065,0.05093280390609766,0.0,0.12543501559592354,0.18012746290176754,0.05742439289750926,0.04302062280271417,0.030753281467587757,0.041385980175947495,0.0,0.0,0.046879753725759934,0.0483339229156242,0.04704787078545008,0.0,0.0599579561036438,0.0502607048005892,0.0,0.07591648597509097,0.0,0.0,0.037038469254281364,0.0,0.0,0.10072856078423664 alcoholism,SierraDawn95,2019/08/15,"Tingly feeling/nerve damage in limbs? Does anyone else have this? I believe its called ""alcoholic neuropathy"" It sucks. I know abstaining can help reverse some of the damage. I've also gotten to the point where the only thing that makes me feel slightly better is to drink more. Otherwise I'm gagging and cant keep food down. I just want this to end.",2.605454545454545,5.468592803030305,3.0032575757575763,88.22488636363637,83.0909090909091,5.724242424242425,21.88636363636364,7.1686216300943375,0.9684909090909096,279,9,50,4,8,86,56,66,0.134,0.77,0.096,-0.5651,0,0,2,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,3,4,1,0,3,0,4,3,0,1,0,9,12,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,1,3,2,2,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,1,4,1,6,11,2,5,0,2,0,0,2,4,1,1,1,29,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2706776151154279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2025466692143858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1770981674917293,0.25951368291587623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2853580580375241,0.0,0.22400418915858986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586255955757996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2216456611801901,0.0,0.0,0.2481164376013284,0.0,0.0,0.2115816285482459,0.0,0.22432951223641207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12806518453161844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30626528329514746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16976719295867596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22512550630317088,0.0,0.0,0.13919520149687514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16906531897321786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19262965941627105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2394299834693773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16826693479366592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14939018041650046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,susyq55,2019/08/15,Worried I know this is a silly concern when talking about life or death when it comes to alcoholism...... but I worry my bf and some friends won’t like me as much if I can’t socially drink with them.,1.3862195121951224,3.397926097560976,2.797743902439024,93.26051829268292,80.70731707317074,6.051219512195122,24.88414634146341,7.1686216300943375,0.9690439024390244,154,6,34,2,4,50,37,41,0.174,0.639,0.18600000000000005,0.1406,0,0,2,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,0,8,5,7,1,1,3,0,0,1,2,1,2,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,6,3,4,4,2,3,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,3,3,24,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3247247691327845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26174110015277113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29765872173723035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2347548593348545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16698879828385155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21461924936611648,0.14844645946467075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22336576098130176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3097382656670105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442242679288393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6171517483358614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,surfingmylife,2019/08/15,"Drunk once again, and I hate it! When sober I can install Gentoo if I want. When drunk I have much anxiety. Yesterday after two three days sober I got my phone the way I want (twrp and magisk). Could never do that now! I miss being sober!",0.4287500000000009,2.795221041666672,1.5425000000000004,98.2525,88.58333333333334,4.866666666666667,14.25,6.42735559955562,-0.7136500000000003,182,3,41,2,6,57,36,48,0.257,0.69,0.053,-0.8772,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,1,0,5,2,0,0,1,7,10,5,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,8,0,1,7,1,9,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,8,28,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2624183365547049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27388292577134443,0.0,0.0,0.2212270892491859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2743538131417918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3386728179085169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2521677932315077,0.0,0.26456721945177264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36531759992286506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3350921583344708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40465800712015104,0.27228262256116603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Everybody_Hz,2019/08/15,"anyone here taking NAC? Hi all, I'm coming off of daily drinking for the last few years and I'm pretty sure I fucked up my liver. Long story short I detoxed myself a few months ago after having pain in my side every time I drank. I cut down to once a week (or every other week) and dropped 20 lbs in 3 months which is great. The pain in my side is mostly gone (it comes and goes occasionally), and my resting heart rate also dropped by 20 bpm. All good stuff. This week I did the normal drink once a week thing. I didn't even have a reason I was just bored. After having 5 beers a couple days ago I think I'm finally done for real. Occasional drinking just can't work. On to the point: I've been casually taking NAC at the advice of a friend but not every day. My urine smells like sulphur pretty frequently which is kinda scary but I chalked that up to my system pushing out toxins and/or dehydration. It goes away with large amounts of water. For those taking it: is this normal? And how many mg are you taking daily. &#x200B; Thanks for any help/advice,",2.2878773584905687,4.4003793915094365,3.516641509433964,88.72977358490569,78.19811320754717,5.372075471698114,18.618867924528306,6.2581,-0.07546301886792506,829,17,166,6,20,269,133,212,0.066,0.8220000000000001,0.111,0.8590000000000001,0,0,4,0,0,0,30.0,0,1,0,1,7,12,2,0,11,0,14,13,3,2,3,26,28,10,0,2,6,0,0,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,12,9,6,0,2,5,0,4,3,5,0,0,7,1,17,7,25,21,7,40,0,0,0,1,3,15,1,3,19,100,29,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20328311183785774,0.1844047763649508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0831801864895474,0.0,0.11269943482092548,0.12638874174428733,0.07073328090315993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07272920683443594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.097724845114724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1791981937100089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11508982845949918,0.0,0.13416121844736176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10644272699688878,0.0,0.3056832032466938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06870045455310013,0.0,0.26290956475555705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11394256552484636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08036117891477383,0.09615953082831057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08724224770535273,0.0,0.11467611690373945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1232574290593714,0.06971858300549476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08478552523790044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05081612590301749,0.0,0.0,0.09204936947849324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10545415975168734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660464205730835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20382383082077765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22154363867578555,0.0,0.0,0.22135706652778445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09832712013196383,0.0,0.0,0.21163984421255946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1183910284593585,0.0,0.10694400899031856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11907147163262442,0.0,0.0,0.09803223307164778,0.0,0.31282319166278066,0.0,0.0,0.09576237927606286,0.0,0.0,0.06910246942321749,0.06664815419919205,0.0,0.0,0.06065156630261701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3337359429500066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07572363860676172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12638874174428733,0.06698178958307285 alcoholism,alexiacg,2019/06/29,"I think I am an alcoholic. I don't have as much fun as I used to without drinking. I seek comfort in alcohol as I don't want to face my problems sober. When I have the opportunity to get drunk, I do so. I even drink alone sometimes. Lately I've been hurting my friends by saying things I didn't mean while drunk I'm still a teenager so I'm worried for myself. Should I talk about it with my parents or face it myself?",0.8197253433208473,2.8107213595505627,2.8509363295880163,92.2359800249688,82.59550561797751,5.303870162297129,24.495630461922595,6.42735559955562,0.6430289637952562,327,13,73,3,9,110,59,89,0.209,0.6859999999999999,0.105,-0.7248,1,1,4,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,6,6,0,0,3,0,9,8,2,1,0,9,16,8,0,3,2,1,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,3,1,6,0,2,4,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,1,16,4,12,13,1,5,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,1,4,51,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4373830140338165,0.0,0.2119391039842389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40092681939407604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351588234601484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15809971658333355,0.0,0.1069128162028698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21906492352137072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2308360590972571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22290641059101546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15042953149349905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22722183416243066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19580709637282276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1627331658841747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.202388253101179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16342097239506753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16447705343234545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13594973317409434,0.1311212009578597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17673806885661564,0.0,0.0,0.12069843187764286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1972598683782694,0.0,0.0,0.20781575464990135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Quagwash,2019/06/29,"Hunger at same time every day. Hey guys. Question for ya. I drink every night around the same time. I don’t drink excessively usually. I have 3-5 light beers every night. Anyway, I drink around 6:00 but right around 4:30 I start feeling very hungry, even if I ate recently. If I eat, it gets a little better, but once I get a few beers, the hunger is gone. Any ideas?",0.4147945205479431,2.860088904109592,1.643301369863014,96.28303424657534,91.46575342465752,4.5638356164383564,14.149315068493149,6.2581,-0.7033441095890405,282,5,61,3,10,89,51,73,0.06,0.862,0.078,0.287,0,0,5,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,1,5,1,0,0,4,0,3,9,0,0,0,12,9,4,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,9,0,3,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,9,1,5,7,3,15,0,0,0,0,4,6,0,3,8,31,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1058433369075947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4156687881246909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1376545733099611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10037757942755876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4574159413378373,0.0,0.15926278841290153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10280147144487724,0.0,0.3934106446546631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07869834219966577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16263525444509905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15411214628465267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1757032631644156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15599629453358846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29212292059590284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1657559050611496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1743570320069343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15367978861241233,0.0,0.0,0.13291922559773006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11016570719528164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18151467270209504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1714200057753535,0.1284226969967746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,honesty-lowkeye,2019/06/29,"5 days sober. Just made a U-turn on my way to the store For the first time in my life, I turned back on my way to the store to buy booze. What did it was the thought of going back to day 0. I don't have enough fight left in me to find way to start all over again. My life isn't going anywhere until I quit drinking and I need to put it behind me. I'm writing this on my way back home (walking). Thanks for listening - reading - whatever. Whoever you are, I hope you (and yours) are finding the necessary strength, or fear, or love, or stubbornness, to pull through. Be well.",1.7768067226890736,3.255853445378154,2.834193277310927,95.93801260504203,77.57142857142857,6.440672268907564,23.664705882352944,7.1686216300943375,0.5957724369747899,436,14,104,5,10,139,79,119,0.043,0.8140000000000001,0.142,0.9039,0,0,1,0,1,0,22.0,0,3,0,3,6,8,2,1,6,0,8,5,0,1,1,15,20,6,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,4,2,2,1,3,2,3,5,2,3,1,1,4,1,15,5,20,15,2,26,0,0,0,1,7,7,0,4,10,67,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3471861692481891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1941259914984201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14743717944084314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15551145166604186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16935948232150472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2751168979748789,0.12801910907949635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17107042931363484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15096835359639166,0.1494849958266375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16352365404400185,0.0,0.21261165535868373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13583624916053355,0.14241106176146934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11159723050514588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15129866098170686,0.0,0.16008013457163606,0.1505452971721509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10652790822597344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13856438574689334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1194838158643389,0.08776042421713133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3274115041030483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4778540842522154,0.0,0.0,0.13532168195216318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Efinijon,2019/06/29,"I can't keep covering for a friend. I have worked with a guy for thirteen years. To be honest, we have been around each other more than anyone else during that time. He has always drank, but over the last year it has reached a point where it isn't sustainable. He drinks at minimum 24 beers a night. More when he can and on days off. Likely in the 40s and even bragged about 60 before. That is fact. He got caught drinking at work by one of our bosses, got written up and was given one more chance. He broke that within the week it happened, but I have been covering for him. I had his back. He sleeps at work, takes two to three hour lunches where he goes to a bar. He is late everyday. I am just at an end covering for him and I don't know what to do anymore. I have tried being his friend and supportive. I have tried yelling. I have appealed to his senses as a friend and father. I have got him info for help. Promised to cover work while he gets clean. I send him words of encouragement and links to this sub, pics of people on their death bed, and symptoms that match. Today he called off because his leg was swollen and seeping yellow fluid. I just can't handle this anymore. I told him I do not want to go to his funeral. I want him to see his kids graduate. He has told me many months of getting help soon, he won't fuck up again, and all the other lies. What can I do folks? I am ready to pull the plug on helping but don't want to regret it if he dies and I could of done something more. Or am I just wasting my time on someone that is helpless?",1.547971014492756,3.4281469440993817,2.5947577639751565,95.5766915113872,79.55900621118012,5.535569358178054,20.671221532091085,6.42735559955562,0.03709780538302265,1204,32,273,10,30,382,176,322,0.081,0.7709999999999999,0.14800000000000002,0.972,0,0,4,0,1,0,37.0,2,0,1,4,12,12,1,0,12,0,36,11,2,1,2,37,58,19,3,6,9,1,0,1,3,1,2,1,2,2,15,15,6,1,3,4,0,4,7,4,0,4,15,3,36,8,43,39,6,42,0,3,2,1,42,19,1,2,20,180,51,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09524368736732776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22703618120554506,0.08003628504826207,0.11728247329690394,0.0,0.10189773044983663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08801618475235361,0.0,0.06977653619880528,0.0,0.09740091381734148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11688111842968635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09139064081952182,0.0,0.0,0.07382017479249524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11879614649931793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11713699090148208,0.0,0.22426339251586733,0.0,0.0,0.0956204560064336,0.0,0.10138162941143684,0.0,0.0,0.07560276542097037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2653051161583085,0.10582064557643127,0.11960602137475886,0.0,0.0650528499366995,0.0,0.2746433067014985,0.0,0.0,0.11333791511270695,0.10122063650924423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23016955465874805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11272453906545245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1017413644043289,0.0,0.0,0.06290673123353724,0.09330389758484496,0.12912101466891548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055921604467389405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1160491026476416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09136452346087233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10741723989691657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15512830276799802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07935531670672426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10820601182646734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09121343826177376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11454722960581945,0.0,0.09698545419007468,0.08812041411266175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12989303151668366,0.0,0.11897251038716407,0.0860631073381058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13349041631295192,0.0,0.108499023313262,0.218751593619317,0.0,0.15542785151391075,0.0,0.11181524732706824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20254249774410654,0.0,0.09181656937907816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3333262653733638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14742285355366222 alcoholism,Z0mbi3Fish,2019/06/29,"Advice for someone getting close to a problem I've started taking these ""walks"" after work. Usually a couple miles around 12am-2am. These are where I've taken it upon myself to get as un-sober as possible in order to enter my house as stress free as I can. It's not a lot, a couple bowls and a few shots. I just started doing this more often than normal. New here so any advice accepted.",2.7264935064935045,4.7997621688311725,4.331168831168832,83.60246753246757,76.66233766233766,5.9584415584415575,22.688311688311693,6.868970318607317,0.8983558441558439,305,9,55,3,7,102,59,77,0.075,0.847,0.077,0.0422,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,6,4,0,1,5,0,3,0,0,0,0,10,9,6,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,2,0,0,1,0,4,3,13,8,3,14,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,2,5,40,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4028199540358946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401630302911992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18348311962201125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4561173723770265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21536972247111416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2378252396064759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17522880474180907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1990639733409626,0.0,0.0,0.20194571359211935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23235998354071635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1972210699401517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1746377825511333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2917738575862241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2361002667852849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1549703545805026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270029287057029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15005177925127486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,biggestbaird,2019/06/29,"Alcohol has ruined me. So it seems I've given myself a chronic illness due to alcohol. It kinda snuck up on me and now all I have is self loathing and regret because of it. I wasn't a massive drinker but never the less I knew I was drinking too much but still continued to do so. I would typically have 4 cans of beer on a Friday, Saturday and got in the habit of Sunday too. Some weekends I'd have more depending on where we were and what we were doing. Alcohol has always been a big part of my life and haven't really thought it would cause me much harm as I didn't consider myself an alcoholic. Trouble is now I'm beating myself up, I've done this to myself, how can I ever forgive myself?! All for a few cans of beer, I'm such a fool.",3.790961538461541,4.05048591666667,5.697846153846158,81.99715384615386,71.24358974358974,8.804102564102564,29.06153846153846,8.841846274778883,2.162358461538461,577,21,122,10,10,201,94,156,0.162,0.821,0.017,-0.968,0,0,8,0,0,0,14.0,2,0,0,1,11,6,0,0,9,0,22,10,0,3,4,25,29,11,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,2,7,0,0,1,6,7,7,0,4,4,0,0,4,5,0,0,11,0,18,1,16,16,9,18,0,2,0,0,4,8,0,4,10,99,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7342019016814282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1429112830385542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104698322689868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17643644276027318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1757617551748504,0.0,0.1682514088278348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15535936508952372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13736562993859347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1213133982994759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.252514717187975,0.0,0.13246560106059946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18599049704304932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11002862158406324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15635641737312053,0.1791746185366524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1371612349557431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1363517698015022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2440151474101384,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,murshindurkin88,2019/06/29,"Just another drunk. Irish of course, work three jobs, accountant by day, work for a small company, in the process of getting my masters, bar work night/evening after I finish in the evenings. During the weekends bar again/blocklaying on the sites, grown up on the sites with my dad and friends etc, so typically a couple of hours each day of the weekend not 9-5 more like 7-2, Anyway I'd imagine this is the correct place to post, but planning on giving up tomorrow, tbh don't believe I can, I always go back, probably been an alcoholic for atleast 10 years, I was born and brought up in a bar so I know exactly what an alcoholic is. In terms of what I drink, I'm what would be described as a functional alcoholic, bring drink to work etcetera , in terms of numbers about 12/15 cans each day. Essentially I'm just looking for advice if it's out there BTW not a flake post.",6.9375438596491215,6.195759830409358,6.863274853801169,79.69736842105263,64.73099415204679,10.640935672514619,37.12865497076024,9.994966539143718,3.4660690058479533,685,31,139,13,9,218,113,171,0.022000000000000002,0.945,0.033,0.4189,1,0,5,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,6,9,2,0,0,14,0,9,9,0,0,2,17,18,7,0,2,6,1,0,1,1,1,3,0,0,0,5,6,9,0,2,8,1,4,3,0,0,1,3,1,8,2,28,13,6,36,0,0,1,0,3,16,0,1,15,83,13,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14075509497043912,0.0,0.461807731537691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1198535630413228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15103943696691688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11075855670295752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16228476251119275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15937850998531886,0.0,0.278683382104614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2822104792005552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16064367278045327,0.1902753045781168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11128563772781566,0.0,0.07525542227105643,0.13817715108587736,0.08186175972834643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14185126618501606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14293836184726205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07916110858396562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07037110523193958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12095807369502674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13517262182487047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15049207713786328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2759027205664732,0.0,0.15530044646250654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4194539466555729,0.0,0.0,0.1023225186679934,0.0,0.0,0.0927576134467614 alcoholism,throwaway__x_x_x_,2019/06/29,"I don't know how to have fun I'm posting this here because this has a lot to do with alcohol too, maybe someone can relate to this. I have had social anxiety for some time now, I try to overcome it with baby steps and I've got a lot better over the last few years. However, I have spent so much time obsessing over this anxiety and other traumas that I didn't 'learn'/forgot how to have fun. Since I was 13 I spent my time on drugs, drinking and fake socializing (this means just getting wasted and not forming real connections with anyone). I got completely sober last year and started noticing that little by little I'm gaining self confidence and a feeling of self worth. I don't have a lot of trouble talking one on one with someone but when it comes to group settings, that's where the anxiety and depressing thoughts really kick in. Idk why exactly, but I just freeze, can't talk and start feeling very isolated. I think It's because I start noticing how much genuine fun these people are having and it took me so long just to come to the point to talk to someone. I get the feeling that I'm never going to be able to talk like them, and I just start comparing myself to them. Which gives me a feeling that all my proces is not worth anything. I'm also worries that I'm not going to find any friends that are also sober, especially now that I'm going to college.",4.948239379084967,5.739001136029415,5.660686274509803,81.39281045751636,68.88970588235293,8.544444444444443,31.287581699346404,8.680891452615391,2.446430718954248,1087,44,209,17,18,354,142,272,0.099,0.778,0.12300000000000001,0.6645,1,0,3,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,2,2,17,11,0,1,9,0,19,3,0,3,3,45,50,20,0,0,9,0,5,1,1,0,2,0,0,2,20,16,2,0,9,1,4,7,8,5,0,2,9,5,21,6,28,40,9,34,0,1,0,0,13,9,0,4,17,141,41,1,0.0960280168984568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10262474607967816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15358714083945793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06530234443196227,0.0,0.22038351026123645,0.0,0.0,0.06714502217800544,0.0,0.07902287579012192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11707557560294125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08492897731266512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16543926731261982,0.10068354870855514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08270879024340927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09407089831263744,0.11136201272458764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19421860265171773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08776786775098076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07419100764795243,0.0,0.10034135083841657,0.09211882397671037,0.1637248049097325,0.0,0.1536047548799726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05277448673779249,0.1565513009218511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04691443849409455,0.1924906007949429,0.0,0.08498177312966955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2449187579180609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09647305001723247,0.104602661980224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1411832830912058,0.0,0.07406272657155029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2186570674166073,0.0,0.0,0.13014213895001048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06657373586246114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09077751496712473,0.0,0.0919682955931059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10930090643882316,0.061518006563055526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.200356329114774,0.0,0.0,0.07943536790454928,0.0,0.0,0.19577694026930714,0.2440926812861075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2718764984568729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3087347300253972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06153087578715356,0.0,0.07623551898379861,0.16798412667103732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.106690660103153,0.065196720029473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07923317080872525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08665034904829916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09752111247124888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12367778896080138 alcoholism,mbrooks420,2019/06/29,"3 days sober..... not sure how I feel? For the past year and 6 months I (20F) have been drinking hard liquor from sun up to sundown. I never did anything stupid, or embarrassed myself too badly until 4 nights ago. My boyfriends friend had come over with some coke, we never get good cocaine in my area so I did partake. They had to leave our apartment for a few hours and I stayed here alone. I kept doing the coke, kept drinking and smoking cigarettes. Drinking/cigarettes have always been weird with me in the way that I don’t want to smoke a cigarette when I’m drunk, I want to smoke a cigarette to wash down the alcohol. While being on coke I wanted to smoke so many cigarettes, but I felt like I couldn’t smoke one without first taking a shot. Next thing I know I’ve easily downed 750ml of rum in 3 hours and can hardly walk. My boyfriend has never seen me this way before, and being 20 I guess he thinks it’s fine to have one night where I went too hard, but I feel so bad. I woke up the next morning, threw up for about 12 hours and cried. I have bruises all over me from falling all around the house alone and my entire body is sore. Now since then, oddly enough I haven’t had much of a desire to drink alcohol. I wanted a few shots last night, but not enough to actually go through with it. I feel so much better and I feel a sense of pride when 7pm comes around and I’m completely sober. My only concern is that, like I said above, I’m so sore, my stomach is still sensitive, and last night I went into some weird scratching episode where my face and neck got uncontrollably itchy. I’m not sure if I’m still fighting off my hangover or at this point going through real withdrawals. I will continue not drinking either way, but I am concerned and not too sure what to expect. Could anyone let me know their experience with their first few days of sobriety?",4.503806970509384,5.278391745308312,4.622901876675602,88.49280857908848,69.88471849865951,7.683817694369974,25.911957104557644,7.699297019823105,1.1576132761394096,1463,41,310,16,25,455,199,373,0.14,0.782,0.078,-0.9546,0,2,17,0,2,0,42.0,2,0,3,4,20,18,2,2,13,0,26,18,4,1,8,67,59,30,0,9,14,0,9,2,1,1,5,1,0,0,8,22,11,2,8,7,0,9,12,8,0,4,17,11,43,10,44,36,12,65,0,0,1,0,9,21,0,6,33,196,51,0,0.0,0.0,0.07961926032167006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0723238761971869,0.17438801927812503,0.0,0.16900354776253124,0.0,0.0,0.0678887252253473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05704904454972789,0.0,0.06714093487744822,0.14526331801741024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13624709756131548,0.0,0.0,0.06942637415266165,0.0,0.0,0.07215899039288971,0.0,0.09062717465889512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14056369072558925,0.08554469221071427,0.0,0.0,0.06514231309458178,0.0,0.08962187186614133,0.10523652960319922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3197053002346625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.168606845075901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07980986377467983,0.0,0.0,0.16501574287502718,0.0,0.07833839787490053,0.0,0.0,0.13879941226241468,0.0,0.0,0.06303559017787742,0.0,0.04262697373890975,0.0,0.0927380108131623,0.06843312463576194,0.06525431238198376,0.0,0.08987966895206552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21926361111812848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2410466920265503,0.09414294754932293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08967854793499695,0.13301212585694971,0.0,0.08639115024615676,0.0,0.08343045393084113,0.0,0.07972069424833042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08271861222580583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06512369690873285,0.0,0.1199548551103971,0.0,0.1887797926309449,0.0,0.17354201533042346,0.30626363532953943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11057386596840008,0.062052240163077775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07788609455772241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07712813738811285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09286633734699423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07760998418839697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06749140435752361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0869631991962328,0.13031443275150864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23069048083578414,0.0,0.061344901773726486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05420421902297952,0.052279045565867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19249362494438768,0.1942850559136508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15126795557763448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07864904814728449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052540750329425186 alcoholism,Idobjj,2019/06/29,"Update: I went cold turkey and noticed my Blood Pressure had gone up, felt bad, shaky. I went to a bar to watch a friend sing thinking I'd be ok. I was good until the last performance my blood pressure and heart rate went up. So I grabbed a 12oz and on the way home from said friends house I grabbed 16oz these are about the equivalent of two beers from a six pack. &#x200B; Nothing since then I feel fine. I'll try cold turkey again tomorrow and if not I'm sure I can hang with just one. I don't feel bad. I was coming off of a straight 6 pack a day for 3 months. Mother passed away.",1.4338981818181793,3.045211808000001,2.3410181818181814,98.5185090909091,78.92,5.505454545454546,21.763636363636365,6.1124844417494595,-0.03932000000000002,456,13,110,3,11,143,87,125,0.127,0.748,0.125,-0.0418,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,1,4,11,0,3,9,1,7,5,3,0,1,15,18,8,0,1,3,1,5,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,1,6,2,0,4,3,0,7,2,5,0,3,9,9,11,6,15,8,0,22,0,0,1,0,4,6,0,2,8,56,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1847923702020356,0.20723861828491835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1602386541252077,0.0,0.2848065894447769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14691492909531215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10999154337142154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17247182425953092,0.0,0.16375608963910293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2635351765070893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14305042222121095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20210422968919248,0.0,0.0,0.17107695970165598,0.0,0.0,0.19679341645964013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1390221538593468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361324999988681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16364866770496467,0.19417389884226907,0.0,0.0,0.11557004226828188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16223343688927375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14108188017182646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16074267572231474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10928245029470783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11579320503490045,0.0,0.1666039353135178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13537576248172373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4743085683087134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20723861828491835,0.0 alcoholism,Hopeful288,2019/06/29,"Went to our favorite Mexican / Margarita place It’s date night. We went to our favorite little place where I would normally have 3-4 skinny margaritas. Then I’d go home and drink another few vodka sodas...collapsing in my bed only to wake up through the night sweating or having to pee...just general restlessness. Tonight while my husband had two margaritas, I had none. I was tempted for sure. Even found myself reaching for his glass out of habit. Instead I had tonic with lots of lemon. It was bitter with bite...and helped me get through those cravings. Then my mind shifted and I knew I was going to be ok. I’d get through tonight without a drink. We left there and went to fun outdoor reggae concert. We laughed and enjoyed the sights and sounds. It was a really good night. Very chill and relaxing. I’m kinda digging this sober life. Day 16 I did not drink with you today. ❤️",1.9633361510284573,4.703122420118344,2.9095181741335594,88.53648915187378,85.15384615384616,5.822597914905607,25.79909833755988,7.2636822038024595,1.4976624964778824,695,30,131,11,21,220,116,169,0.028999999999999998,0.8059999999999999,0.165,0.9704,0,0,4,0,0,0,28.0,5,1,0,0,4,9,1,1,4,1,12,7,3,0,1,25,22,10,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,2,0,5,13,4,0,2,9,0,5,3,2,0,1,13,4,19,7,20,7,3,24,0,0,1,0,9,8,0,3,11,79,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15200012703956786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09348531821525992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4260082288949888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09574277767832637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15893794536290995,0.0,0.0,0.1514681724895786,0.0,0.1647648869495813,0.12158311295822632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09716166852409587,0.0,0.14540376038730926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15749628080225414,0.0,0.10238746550145236,0.0,0.1452850658288543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12323731728509255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14636531818530346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.408097171882708,0.14202715139777713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11024638382675644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3028985714295807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09286321094394157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13662032307274022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1374023530694264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416019944015583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11960476396494192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4031299687361715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13973344277123845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10297334357748056,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Negglur,2019/06/29,"3 questions, am I an alcoholic? Hi I was wondering, I have these three patterns when it comes to alcohol. 1. I'm a pretty chill family man, but when we do have company over, whether it is just the guys coming to watch a UFC fight, a dinner party with other couples, or a mixed group of friends, I need to have a drink at hand or I'm pretty bad company and a bad (low energy) host. 2. I'm not addicted to any other form of alcohol but beers. I can't say no to a beer, but I will reject a nice glass of vodka, gin, white wine etc, but if you give me a 6 pack of beer, I will finish them in one sitting (could be a full case, it doesn't matter). Am I still an alcoholic if I reject a form of alcohol that is not to my liking? 3. My pattern with alcohol is that I cherish my alone time with my headphones. Listening to music and live concerts on the Internet. I can sit by myself and daydream to music with headphones and pound back any amount of beers. When I get slightly drunk, I get this overwhelming feeling to isolate myself and listen to my music. Not to party and have conversations, but to sit and listen and sip my beers. My ideal Saturday night would be to be out walking by myself with 16 full beers in a backpack and listening to my music walking about Am I an alcoholic?",4.073210597215986,4.497168251908398,5.778603502469692,81.0828985181859,70.6793893129771,9.065469241131566,28.770543331836553,9.168548406835145,2.3040989672204772,990,35,203,19,17,341,137,262,0.109,0.753,0.138,0.8412,0,1,16,0,1,0,34.0,1,1,1,1,7,12,1,1,17,0,22,19,1,0,0,40,37,22,0,6,14,0,2,1,1,3,8,6,0,2,9,18,17,0,3,11,0,4,6,7,0,2,1,10,29,5,34,29,6,25,0,4,2,0,17,9,0,6,10,147,38,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11700040082753853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8028866185490725,0.0,0.11115662609944987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14596974624869286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08252651822113373,0.17922425749355858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1849024570193913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08569050574112362,0.11875338483901846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10513791867295794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11969606126577413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10117672558310528,0.0,0.054266888104194534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08291924780426314,0.0,0.11214606188752574,0.10295619152401353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1062689043272124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05243371231118532,0.0,0.09477019162546203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07958033780539793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10071750815556373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0727263897033119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2183767949214419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12022888007086828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08534937316481321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08571011004499635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0625822358989661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11638969177134215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0762408020892978,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Shattered_Me123,2019/06/29,"Discussion on Sobriety: Why do some people feel great right away and others it takes a while? Hi. I'm an alcoholic. Just recently relapsed after six and a half weeks dry. I've known multiple people with either full-blown alcoholism (black outs, financial troubles, lying, etc.) to people who just did too much for the wrong reasons (loneliness, excessive partying but with minor consequences, etc.). Everyone around me--and it seems like a lot of folks over at r/stopdrinking\--say things like 'Wow! Not being drunk all the time feels great!' And some people say 'Yeah it took a few weeks but now I'm really into the swing of sobriety!' For me, sobriety seemed to have the *opposite* effect. Even my therapist is stumped. When I was drinking (and for an idea, I'm a petite lady who used to struggle to maintain 95 lbs in body weight. I was doing two to three fifths of vodka a week, straight) I felt so much better. I started to self-medicate for multiple trauma disorders (including PTSD, officially diagnosed) and to hopefully maintain a healthier weight. When I'm drinking, I feel 'okay'. I'm not bombarded by flashbacks or hyper-vigilance. Food actually seems palatable: I used to have a big problem with even swallowing food. I don't slip into depression as easily. My sex drive is healthier: it doesn't swing from 'MUST HAVE SEX NOW' to 'DON'T FUCKING TOUCH ME', it was a consistent 'Yeah, all right, this seems rad'. So, on to my question: does anyone else experience this? Alcohol helps me feel *whole*. Alcohol helps me feel like I can give a shit about life, and balance more easily. Being sober didn't help my treatment (like I said, I'm in therapy). Actually, when I went sober, my therapist and I spent more sessions talking about how depressed I was all the time, how I was struggling in every way, instead of focusing on my trauma--which is why I'm there in the first place. When I would go into sessions slightly buzzed (she didn't know), I was more open about my feelings and able to process things better. I felt like the alcohol actually helped my process a lot. How the hell do I stay sober when it doesn't seem worth it?",4.2094900542495495,6.540855055696207,4.883327305605789,80.15265822784811,73.12658227848101,8.96998191681736,28.754068716094032,9.534367207540994,2.9412372513562395,1677,69,301,44,35,538,209,395,0.098,0.7659999999999999,0.136,0.9415,0,0,9,0,0,0,80.0,0,0,0,4,23,23,3,2,21,3,27,20,2,7,4,60,60,23,0,4,8,0,11,5,0,2,7,2,0,0,14,17,13,0,19,4,2,4,8,11,0,5,15,14,30,12,44,41,17,44,1,2,1,3,14,21,3,12,22,191,44,2,0.07059464836537835,0.0,0.20667058021246767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3772210494954804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04936141954440382,0.07233255973990915,0.0,0.062844203979782,0.0,0.0,0.06632599597299299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1248704593318565,0.0,0.07841473990966287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1216061343874976,0.07165208208518499,0.0,0.0,0.0809075830602341,0.0,0.06177785251348289,0.0,0.0,0.13831175946949345,0.0,0.0,0.058972770201848185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1574633875598646,0.09325419890269378,0.0,0.05947903597004904,0.06745621178031241,0.0,0.06905511215231172,0.0,0.0,0.2141686520723124,0.050432830897704,0.13556386629994285,0.0,0.0,0.060047771836297975,0.1707266580420543,0.0,0.0,0.06526361486678356,0.0,0.06772081936612978,0.040120565520354506,0.0,0.0,0.15566169808766295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18927241891196453,0.0,0.0,0.07011641454850216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07969276519438018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038796972532061685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0498630878722488,0.17244489658949722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12003409110345856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07841473990966287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1037903785458003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19576576192548856,0.0,0.07375638223683527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0675495444701546,0.08252136616799334,0.0,0.07908216251348334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04522473942214393,0.07258305604169113,0.0697036986589747,0.0,0.0,0.12057488796285527,0.06715167660728652,0.11227939568371872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3213335826113611,0.07364561436581529,0.0,0.07246439207470462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04996725546167586,0.07524450224064765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1476017084258943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053078389958374834,0.05674130427833814,0.0,0.0,0.08073113279042088,0.16393165566850332,0.0937998950688056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08232861433795181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07843325184791174,0.0,0.0,0.06896071364937174,0.0,0.0,0.12194222030715154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056034745962030376,0.1698803061454794,0.17193052680006474,0.0,0.06544194629222297,0.12740137970922272,0.07881640381971053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050148412739353776,0.07718416585398093,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,prarrycat,2019/06/29,"Online AA Hello! I am a new mom, returning to work, and I'm looking for good online AA programs just to keep on track. Does anyone have any good suggestions on where to start?? Thanks in advance!",1.2100000000000009,3.825536842105265,2.5897894736842098,90.03152631578949,88.47368421052632,5.145263157894737,20.757894736842104,6.742157984588678,0.6251936842105263,152,5,29,2,5,49,31,38,0.0,0.768,0.23199999999999998,0.8639,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,7,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,3,7,7,0,8,0,0,1,0,3,4,0,0,3,14,1,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21282794392292026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2188334452477844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2738790826988612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5250028830916238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2781789944821164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2628130273017086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36654256822830494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30226498433477605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2215192910410204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2881374937830833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22784333068197035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,pandasage89,2019/06/29,"Am I reaching for alcohol because I'm depressed or because I just need to unwind? and does it matter? A few years ago I noticed I was using alcohol as medication for depression. I found the willpower to stop drinking and get actual medication for depression. I cut way back on drinking and was doing well. I still had an occasional drink, but only for fun or to unwind, never, like in the past, to self medicate. &#x200B; The last week or so I've been in a darker place, mentally, than normal. I chalk it up to life happens, occasionally you have slumps. Tonight I'm sick, a bit lonely, feeling down on myself, and was reaching for a drink, when I noticed my hand reach for my rum. I stopped and thought ""why am I doing this?"" I'm quite ashamed to admit I held myself there for a moment longer than I'm comfortable with. &#x200B; I don't know why I was reaching for the rum, nor am I sure if, in my current state of mind, if it would be wise to drink it. I'm reaching out to hear what you all think about this, and for some support, because I feel my willpower lessening...",4.80369272237197,5.542841849056604,5.789299191374662,80.52726415094341,69.18867924528303,8.509973045822104,32.123989218328845,8.634040054169528,2.516272506738545,840,36,164,13,14,278,121,212,0.131,0.703,0.166,0.7775,3,2,7,0,0,0,41.0,0,2,0,1,8,13,1,1,10,0,15,13,1,1,3,35,34,16,0,5,7,0,3,1,0,1,7,1,0,1,7,8,7,3,7,9,0,0,3,6,1,0,9,4,24,7,31,23,4,25,0,4,0,0,5,9,0,6,15,111,31,1,0.0,0.0,0.09636780637586044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08753778004924846,0.21107192918106307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21399572248615314,0.23998922573711706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0759342708233612,0.0,0.1805950943594313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10781171879796993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25516512221166754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08641862992616647,0.0,0.0,0.48369732313948793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09986405986505548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10827658270837792,0.0,0.0,0.051593897444712884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08732615765193598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11130079602179774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054271572660641566,0.08049614338564383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06975153007896052,0.04824528886876209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29844706050697484,0.09951889205909673,0.0,0.09971147194549908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07322343233889361,0.0761637089251823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09675609288922782,0.0,0.22485984526999084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07510542350010166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09427005537839334,0.0,0.0,0.10317492826133524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1050350160980624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10301997940403568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07886355620889582,0.16512235817255835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1120627150677705,0.09307268743819397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06327635951718398,0.0,0.07839813825963912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08529010948380636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07838482202408381,0.07921297957778634,0.0,0.08878999933562509,0.0,0.17821682427001578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0701506599142635,0.0,0.23998922573711706,0.06359311596380664 alcoholism,1175557,2019/08/16,"Do I have an alcohol problem? I'm a 23 year old female, and ever since I was 16, alcohol was the only drug I enjoyed. I drink 2-3 times a week, and each time I drink I get very drunk. I never drink without getting pretty hammered, or else it seems kind of pointless. But I only drink in the evening, and it's usually Friday and Saturday nights with my friends. Sometimes I'll get drunk on a night during the week or a Sunday if I'm seeing a friend or just am in the mood to. The only time I'll drink during the day is if, for instance, I'm going to a lunch with a lot of coworkers, or have to give a big presentation, or am meeting up with someone I'm not particularly socially comfortable with, or something of that nature. I'm VERY shy, so I'll take like 3-4 shots for something like that so that I can actually enjoy myself and not be so insecure. The only way alcohol has negatively impacted my life is weight-wise. Alcohol is definitely the #1 thing derailing me from weight loss (have lost 30 lbs in the past year but could be going much quicker without the alcohol) but I just could not give up alcohol.. So basically, I want your opinions on if you think it is too much, if you think this is a problem or could become a problem. Addiction runs in my family and I don't want to be going down a slippery slope. I just don't really have a good perception of when something is too much. Thanks for any help",5.095588235294116,4.992153444444444,6.668447712418303,77.42720588235295,68.375,10.109803921568627,31.87173202614379,9.916854025145753,2.951870261437908,1104,43,225,24,17,382,144,288,0.099,0.8109999999999999,0.09,-0.3185,0,0,15,0,0,0,33.0,0,3,0,2,12,17,0,1,23,0,25,18,0,0,2,49,47,25,0,12,22,0,1,2,2,0,9,0,0,0,8,11,15,0,4,7,0,4,9,6,0,0,3,2,21,10,27,38,5,34,0,2,1,0,10,10,0,14,21,146,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.07646932928793082,0.08542538830039911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5024664189106819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05328837407910123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08654390411546739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876953756094342,0.0,0.0,0.05053655863439277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3838212289961335,0.0908742349740955,0.0,0.06546081467837128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05175690247766162,0.0708822860505582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07387206376018984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12108349870864657,0.0,0.12282164183211405,0.15034260697676188,0.13360360529089088,0.06572574425876461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05252393051791414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08160123991426299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05534890667887135,0.07656675024245141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08554062039720743,0.06661997872845375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17281372518528154,0.0,0.060437068733037023,0.0,0.0,0.14707355157731308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08222700712121249,0.0,0.0,0.23838921220385584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07480473176493915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07972161791761131,0.0,0.22494355600225527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05020025812010805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06244381409171791,0.07133718843209502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06482128071862635,0.0,0.0,0.07987948150929199,0.06639527888056697,0.1809790814181696,0.07750133369184417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0589179486837572,0.0,0.0,0.0721445608687952,0.0,0.0,0.05205976866046325,0.10042151946862418,0.0,0.0,0.13707932018771435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08630390593574792,0.1293125654907456,0.09243905514965904,0.06219955597159869,0.1257134233311596,0.19084591607095755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15107500212031286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10092422164545677 alcoholism,HogMan_The1ntruder,2019/08/16,"Sobriety is fuckin hard I’m only 21, but I’ve been abusing pot for the last 3 years and truly abusing alcohol the last 4 months. (Although I had some bad drinking binges the last year or so) I’ve been trying to quit for a few months now, but never made it passed a day or two. (And I working with my therapist and psychiatrist) I was probably been averaging like 5+ drinks a day throughout the day. (Also while taking various meds for bipolar disorder and smoking pot) I totaled my car and got an OUI on Monday (last time I drink or smoked). 4 days sober and I’m crawling out of my skin. I’m still super motivated to stay sober, simply bc drugs and alcohol have really derailed my life. That doesn’t make this any easier though.",2.7595437665782505,4.78209243448276,4.3848275862069,83.49177718832894,76.3793103448276,7.771883289124668,25.636604774535808,8.617729084823388,1.9213713527851464,573,21,113,12,13,192,100,145,0.134,0.738,0.128,0.0285,0,0,7,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,4,5,4,1,0,8,0,8,10,1,3,2,20,15,17,0,0,5,0,2,1,0,0,5,0,0,0,3,9,5,0,1,3,0,2,2,2,0,1,7,2,9,2,9,8,4,23,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,4,19,62,12,2,0.0,0.3050583780125943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27515580230239045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10294883684340662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08754379260754988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10748782971456804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3320920996104209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14754075202763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37833204690841055,0.14929100985766364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10296064346323942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11532071809877267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4197428052410532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09092889942855373,0.06289311524038423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12181158263008947,0.08593119801160429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1429948746301012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2055091071737156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09928788975845718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979082966674536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13879743460127458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.136924858916293,0.0,0.0,0.08247053999412121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1372137199830194,0.10280744182929112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09679223225645282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1494705368992362,0.0,0.0,0.12648087432178787,0.0,0.0750660519902755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08740219339137696,0.0,0.12575478301725598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0937201615566974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16580143946019374 alcoholism,GeckoGojira,2019/08/16,"Who wants to join up? Hey redditors. I feel like nobody is reading this post, but I'll give it a shot anyways. I want to stay sober. I'm actually quite ""nice"", I only drink beer. But usually about 5 to 8 a day. And I just need one person who will stay sober with me (I won't know when you lie btw..). Did it before with an online friend, but this person hasn't been available in years. Now I want to try again. The amount I'm drinking is just ridiculos and I need someone to stay with me, and I check on them. I'd be glad to find someone who will do this with me. (Tried alone, but no way... I need observation)",-0.2616279069767451,1.8168856279069807,1.6678759689922489,98.42227906976747,88.06976744186045,4.68031007751938,17.127131782945735,6.079149491110277,-0.5701807751937986,462,11,112,4,15,152,83,129,0.043,0.838,0.11800000000000001,0.8047,0,1,3,0,0,0,27.0,0,1,1,1,7,4,0,0,4,0,10,3,0,0,0,22,21,8,0,6,6,0,1,1,1,3,0,0,0,2,8,7,3,0,3,4,1,0,3,0,0,1,2,1,14,4,14,15,1,14,0,0,0,0,10,3,0,0,7,65,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.14868481475791365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1578026541001599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1296501316201323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09826186431902012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29851648426816785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.077039572656125,0.10884852762352587,0.0,0.0,0.13925749505262547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11771567596694388,0.0,0.0,0.1461609698732492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08373500478152908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07443711866197261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3389268537705617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10324546292037877,0.11587932111760245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2660758937715369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14592213297117754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16205735607100918,0.1524047496207312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25819422853798235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4871977123754395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.206889654485204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16780688919899256,0.0,0.2696038513605653,0.12093906856224078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09811711008631628 alcoholism,ezramarcel,2019/08/16,"Dangerous to go cold turkey? Today is my first day of detox. I’m hopeful, but also a little concerned given what I’ve heard about the DTs. My drinking record has been 6 beers a night, every night, for about 6 or 7 years. I’m quitting due to the increasingly severe heart palpitations I began suffering a few months ago. What are the chances that someone with my history of drinking will develop the DTs? I’m 33, male. Any links to solid research on this subject would be appreciated. Don’t get me wrong – I’m going to withdraw beginning today, but I don’t know if I should check myself into a clinic. I would however much rather do this at home.",2.48043956043956,4.945937031746034,4.204285714285717,82.18302197802201,79.47619047619048,6.734065934065932,24.77167277167277,7.882392219407189,1.6439665445665448,510,19,94,9,13,171,90,126,0.113,0.8009999999999999,0.086,-0.6608,1,0,3,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,2,4,4,1,0,8,0,12,6,1,0,0,13,25,5,0,6,5,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,1,1,5,2,3,0,2,3,1,3,2,3,0,1,4,2,9,1,13,16,3,19,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,3,12,56,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16491455085379345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1487773078904452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12651458905244428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11998136663476132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3644996560335583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15674797454277453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15824679162396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09719899703995928,0.0,0.2114633258680592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22046005481431788,0.0,0.0,0.18661477778716068,0.1847811717764494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10224353444219607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18646244225889366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484965379394307,0.0,0.13676189726977367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3491746606992941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19787801899919935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2101739228121941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15763234603721354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35269114797559203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26431706550815826,0.20340715795187625,0.0,0.11980461636866024 alcoholism,daniel4325,2019/08/16,"Scared as hell withdrawals Worst withdrawals yesterday after 6 day binge of heavy drinking. I do drink regularly but sometimes I take a day or two off. Anyways since I live alone I had to go to a hospital to have tranquilizers l, scary as hell even there I felt more more anxious as everything took so long I really felt I’m going to get a heart attack Thank god I have some Benzos with me but I feel so dizzy and diarrhea non stop. Should I hold it till tomorrow or drink a little to taper to take the edge off? I have no appetite whatsoever I am 26! This is scary",1.1095864661654105,3.620875622807024,2.905012531328321,88.73842105263161,86.63157894736842,6.415037593984962,21.30075187969925,7.7094869923839395,1.081748872180451,447,15,92,9,14,148,79,114,0.32899999999999996,0.626,0.045,-0.9892,0,1,3,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,5,7,3,1,5,0,8,4,1,0,0,13,19,11,0,1,4,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,2,3,3,0,3,1,5,0,1,4,3,12,2,15,14,4,14,2,0,0,0,0,3,2,3,8,58,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17830583350979345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19449179033142527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19585684750769747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22205790795519156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5059537576921675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11371005265294025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15472630206881216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08704926602165904,0.0,0.3306011859238088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08994649145704467,0.0,0.19568498454619046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2040104223382422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1725495424896649,0.15202042921438114,0.15235617752687922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1102901008516184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1723621879957228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1424125264591962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702706366281534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1439334641722931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2588857804975794,0.0,0.0,0.15850179246245713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19127608841878627,0.0,0.0,0.16817529874953185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,OtherwiseDRUNK,2019/08/16,a bitch is a month sober i may be depressed and suicidal but at least im sober,-2.206666666666667,-0.4791972222222203,0.5166666666666693,102.04500000000002,104.55555555555556,4.622222222222223,17.11111111111111,6.42735559955562,-0.2623555555555557,62,2,16,1,3,21,15,18,0.39899999999999997,0.601,0.0,-0.743,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,10,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44523624878702733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5583796236103035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4126134106450372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5654441193068876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,healthywithangel,2019/08/16,"I think I am married to an alcoholic? My husband has been drinking 365 days a year for the last 8 years. I know this should be a warning sign to me... but I am an enabler. He has a very hard job that is demanding of him physically and mentally. I have pushed off his drinking to the fact that he is coping with his work. During the week he has 3-4 beers every night. On the weekends it is much higher in numbers and there may be a few puffs of a vape. Most days off start with mimosas after coffee and then the day begins. His memory is not the same and I am just not sure what to do. I enjoy drinking with him on occasion, but lately feel like I have to be sober so that I can be the one to drive in case there is an emergency with my son or for any other reason one would need to drive. I am at a loss for how to handle this. I am a stay at home mom and I am pretty sure because I do not contribute with money I have no say. This is my own issue... but it is my true feelings. I guess I am reaching out to find out if I am making a bigger deal than I should?",1.1441421736158546,2.3578156493506555,3.3524447482342232,92.68174982911829,78.65367965367966,6.248439280018227,20.815903394850768,6.8360192770164,0.2187956709956702,809,20,193,8,19,278,129,231,0.09,0.8320000000000001,0.078,0.2464,1,0,5,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,3,6,6,0,0,18,0,33,5,0,3,4,42,42,13,0,5,9,3,3,1,0,4,1,1,1,0,10,12,5,0,6,5,1,3,4,1,0,2,1,4,28,5,31,33,5,29,0,1,0,0,13,11,0,5,15,147,38,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1592149433741671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10131191031510946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09081718519258512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28824046808419107,0.15359244710939687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4378327836165861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12552257299250832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15065812586466612,0.10643176363456217,0.0,0.0,0.13616556072347666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16411891667705925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.133457346334905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14943967942550596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15549703012934732,0.14784024800795667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08187583637025178,0.1214390654475902,0.16805659524329009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0727843912273243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0994457010247322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15013739463438328,0.0,0.0,0.17448426703057904,0.0,0.0,0.10951787595797301,0.11046722014369174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13980819198018096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.201906207567436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15156682004700198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15317685973592932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11847534522382988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10544922876829788,0.15879348699502574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2808248869027365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0954607468320402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12292458968787602,0.0,0.0,0.1195032433437181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10845964424816157,0.0,0.0,0.1058315370427948,0.0,0.0,0.19187723154752329 alcoholism,MayhemManaged,2019/08/16,"I'm back in the saddle again. Hi all, I have been an alcoholic, and drug abuser for over 20 years now. I've been down the road of recovery before, and loved the me it helped me to be. In the last 10ish years i've for the most part stayed off hard drugs, but drank every weekend or so. And have came to the realization that i really need to stop it, and am considering rehab options. I could never afford to drink every day, but when i drank i never stopped until i passed out sitting, or ran out. Most of the time i drank as an added perk to doing something. Grilling out, or after a day of taking kids to their weekend sports games. But it always ended up with me drunk at 5am sending people who have wronged me or people i love threatening messages, or actually pulling through with the threats. While i am protective, and loyal to my people, and myself, i would often wake up, and remember, or see evidence of me threatening someone with a machete, comtemplating sneaking into someones house and waiting for them to get home so i could beat them with a crowbar. I am definitely not that person sober. About a month ago I got my first, and hopefully last dui charge, in which i allegedly threatened the arresting cop, and his family. I don't remember any of it, and know i would never be that person soberly. I'm eager to go to rehab, and the one i have called is taking awhile to respond back, so am thinking about trying another later today. It's kinda funny, i used to do the same thing when i was eager to get my fix of meth, and now i am doing it with recovery. I do have a lot to learn about recovery, most of my recovery days were before i was 21, so got to learn i don't need a beer grilling out, i don't need alcohol to unwind after a day of watching kid baseball games in the hot summer sun, etc. Sorry for such a long post, its 430am, no one to talk to, and just ready to get back in the recovery mindset. I'm 38 years old, if i am lucky i got maybe another 38ish more years on this planet, and i would like to do those being the best version of me, and not the want to break into a house to beat someone up me.",6.896011490443048,5.3083858445475665,7.4722903546569475,78.04509667440061,65.26450116009279,10.529709424373,32.5887747210253,9.362217197678863,2.656627356093249,1653,52,341,25,21,550,213,431,0.081,0.812,0.107,0.9358,1,0,8,0,1,0,51.0,0,0,3,4,18,11,1,0,26,0,33,15,1,1,4,74,62,35,0,11,13,0,2,1,0,3,6,0,1,4,15,28,8,4,6,9,0,6,9,2,0,3,13,4,43,9,67,41,11,69,0,0,2,2,20,20,0,16,40,245,58,2,0.0,0.10246158244835156,0.08438947145748907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07665700059733306,0.18483609011115087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07195612740615315,0.0,0.0,0.05880759992587085,0.1813581956841449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19948735645076796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14717180230719593,0.0,0.09075269991018227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08830309789103406,0.09890711194475177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13809034018553454,0.0,0.0,0.22308308505642507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08471493329616478,0.2005726669758554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0765933117901862,0.0,0.09644516435107807,0.0,0.0,0.14572188464811647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08152319987956626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07355763537687192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13554262256866714,0.0,0.04914710137298043,0.0,0.20749163870612009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07746676778693609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05796398080839755,0.0,0.08674388680829065,0.08589157428443712,0.0,0.19956662629218544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04752571947248875,0.1409812519377291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042248491286282656,0.0,0.0,0.07652978095461244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07351999613119012,0.15609846621425588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08687817533033483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06902543855949256,0.0,0.0,0.19236569718983407,0.2000901145981115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09074348807693168,0.0,0.11719865354670747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0936466010031758,0.0,0.17985762953346562,0.1510174665753075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08282144814476891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05539963916558205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1959240811706618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06891129445045997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2198160704760347,0.06657453024176807,0.0,0.0968043733889457,0.0,0.0921734061177283,0.0,0.1445979633244711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13004049061448944,0.06950726135671809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05745174441001725,0.05541122846132168,0.0,0.0,0.050425669507469295,0.0,0.08197046713303144,0.0,0.0,0.05871248055982005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07468871120524695,0.0,0.0,0.051006613231408496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18429319920812315,0.0945494654528244,0.0,0.22275445073801128 alcoholism,clive-palmer-,2019/08/16,Can’t get a hangover if you don’t stop drinking Truthful words,3.91,5.442655384615384,4.003076923076924,89.51692307692308,72.07692307692308,5.2,36.07692307692308,3.1291,1.7762923076923078,52,3,10,0,1,16,12,13,0.16699999999999998,0.606,0.22699999999999998,0.2023,0,0,1,0,0,0,0.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,4,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,5,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7048554899852286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3759194037668209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6015507793272994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,sekif,2019/08/16,"I thought I could handle drinking... Took a two week break from drinking and went out today. Ended up having 5 drinks, getting sloppy and falling. I’m so embarrassed. I was naive to think I could drink in less excess. I’ve learned my lesson.",1.2076708074534146,3.855302065217391,2.107639751552796,91.65630434782612,93.56521739130434,3.4981366459627328,21.7888198757764,5.288315135182226,0.2011341614906832,189,7,34,1,7,59,38,46,0.162,0.838,0.0,-0.6962,0,0,4,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,1,0,4,4,0,0,0,9,10,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,4,4,0,3,0,1,0,1,4,0,5,0,5,4,1,10,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,20,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.322002402385241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7901613393846361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17860214096036622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10535385756422568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12920924562637942,0.0,0.16008765959883678,0.0,0.0,0.1911407221244684,0.0,0.22404068739400226,0.0,0.0,0.1969828526190012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16175155165625538,0.0,0.0,0.18693166847322767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,throwaway050305,2019/08/16,"Recovering from a withdrawal. Not ready to stop drinking. Looking for advice. Good morning r/alcoholism. This is not a short post and I thank anyone in advance for reading. Last weekend I attended a wedding out of town, which I was honorably chosen as the best man. I got in town Friday, and started drinking before even unpacking or hanging up my suit. I was surrounded by friends of many years and my SO who where all doing the same. Fast forward to Sunday, woke up feeling hungover but generally okay. Got in the car for a 5hr drive home. Felt fine until I got home maybe 6pm, thus began the uttermost frightening 12 hours of my life. I thought I was coming down with something. I didn't know it at the time, even though I should have but I was withdrawing. Hard. Severe anxiety, numbness in my extremities, abdominal pain, nausea, diarrhea. I finally got something on my stomach and tried to sleep. I began to hallucinate, mostly auditory. I was hearing conversations from the weekend and live music from the bars echoing through my apartment. I had visuals too, whether I closed my eyes or not I was seeing terrible things. I was waking up every 5-10 minutes from nightmares feeling like I had been sleeping for hours. I had to work the past 4 days. It sucked. I've been dizzy, nauseated, and am just now feeling clear headed for the first time since Sunday night. I am not an every day drinker. I tend to binge when I do drink, especially for occasions like this. It scared the hell out of me and I hope to never feel that way again. However, I have another trip to Vegas coming up. I want to not drink, but I know myself and that is not going to happen. I've ailed myself through this withdrawal with plenty of water, thiamine and folate, and as much sleep as possible. How to I prevent this from ever happening again, besides the obvious? Tapering down? Taking supplements in advance?",3.449627525252524,6.1291826874999975,4.582424242424242,79.62419191919194,77.23863636363636,7.547474747474749,29.09595959595959,8.515128840125781,2.637031944444444,1494,68,257,32,36,488,207,352,0.10099999999999999,0.778,0.121,-0.6085,1,0,8,0,0,0,53.0,0,0,0,6,13,16,2,1,16,1,22,16,7,2,5,53,52,24,0,3,13,0,6,2,1,1,3,1,2,1,12,17,6,2,8,8,0,11,8,6,0,1,22,10,38,10,51,29,5,63,1,0,3,0,6,23,2,4,31,181,50,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09609632355947884,0.0,0.10509513042597148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10311764990150164,0.07522952841755995,0.0,0.0,0.06876133810624441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0836797605337733,0.0,0.1032013480466309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16942172370685066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12684181918008816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3853414972556076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299047628645855,0.08895380248723005,0.1657107166008838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19889383561528826,0.07025383323695818,0.09442144220806634,0.10772623013176066,0.0,0.08364761750921755,0.0,0.0,0.07597693463857252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055888663580210815,0.08248259471978894,0.3146046614454284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17392277530483766,0.0,0.08809296993190767,0.0,0.10092480538461507,0.0,0.11083588158604583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19728528324291875,0.09767341644682803,0.19368940322195627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10808974986531623,0.08015990303139685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06946017103743901,0.09608752704869146,0.0,0.08683567260293609,0.0,0.08258050047403068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09970092414045673,0.09879535064847307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07229092454424739,0.0,0.07584556557827589,0.0,0.0,0.09228505729042244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046402728437061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0938762800311266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11086312848650076,0.09418215771182033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09836621677977628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09845509977356652,0.0,0.07836393286331153,0.0,0.0,0.11109576203973016,0.0,0.0813475372098072,0.0,0.2952318731176688,0.0,0.0,0.15141326425156407,0.0,0.0,0.06960527834801512,0.0,0.0,0.08221631287362073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07393914420916763,0.0,0.0,0.09053789565242464,0.0,0.0,0.06533246368000385,0.0,0.09661816230668467,0.07807066148035498,0.114685228637277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06676613640070016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0580032467351847,0.07805740086803292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07159240343054661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06332748122728392 alcoholism,low_key_questions,2019/08/16,"Withdrawal Symptoms I quit drinking about 6 days ago after what was a long bender for me. As of yet, I haven't felt the anxiety or urge to drink like I have during past hiatuses. However, I've been experiencing some pretty severe bloating to the point of pain. I'm burping hours after consuming food and last night ended up throwing up water and juice. While I've never experienced throwing up days after stopping, I'm more concerned with the bloating. It's rather painful. Has anyone had this shared experience and know when it might end? For reference, I am (was) exclusively a beer drinker.",5.237206931702347,7.487300651376145,5.804892966360858,75.01561671763506,70.00917431192661,8.514169215086646,31.37716615698267,9.150863307647796,3.0540144750254843,477,21,79,10,9,154,82,109,0.096,0.802,0.102,-0.0854,1,0,4,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,4,4,0,0,5,0,9,9,0,0,1,13,13,7,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,1,4,0,0,0,4,4,5,1,3,3,0,2,2,2,0,0,5,3,5,2,15,7,2,24,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,3,19,49,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15932284390556584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13749558433253967,0.0,0.0,0.12567379540024573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2318263906848803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3521406783162046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31838094794913546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758137856664321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1725722816958247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21733438067805055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17700122701292584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09877679436988653,0.1465067366389203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08780867670270223,0.0,0.0,0.15905843236949008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906687694289888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386215037841818,0.0,0.0,0.1686676514423921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3824980898325937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1715758991097439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16990618921350487,0.0,0.0,0.18285351674917213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911686298760995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2030476202607163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1502651979616389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1868118556431516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,baconisgoot,2019/08/16,"Sudden withdrawals I'm sober throughout the day at work, typically mildly shaky all day but then towards the end of work, I get slammed with this sick, confused, and overall terrible feeling. It's not sudden, it just hits like a freight train. Is this normal for an alcoholic?",4.388200000000001,7.22940942,4.122,83.32100000000001,74.8,6.4,32.0,7.554174236665415,2.391600000000001,221,11,37,3,5,67,43,50,0.23600000000000002,0.68,0.085,-0.8709,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,1,4,0,2,4,0,1,2,0,0,1,10,5,3,0,1,3,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,1,1,5,4,1,8,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,7,21,5,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3918674748867143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4729542005483352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3247680435826353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18540351207803307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19157422201680105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17914044371067497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3592667764729729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5338921839610993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,logophileisland,2018/12/03,"Where do you draw the line re: right about your behaviour/ abusive? I am struggling with this enormously as my sister has custody of my kids and has always been backstabbing. She did change alot when she got custody of my children (I had postpartum psychosis but as I was recently diagnosed bipolar it was not identified. After losing custody I spiralled and went from self medicating to full blown alcoholism). I have always been willing to accept fault. She cut me out of my kids lives, which influenced the severity of my drinking. She tends to put me down. She called her bf of less than a yr my son's step dad. She calls my daughter a bitch. She knows if I react I will be maligned not her. How do you make your peace? Even with her, I need to know how much I should regret. I'm just scared of becoming a doormat, more than anything. 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Thought I’d share I’ve finally decided after about 13 years of self abusive drinking to calm it down. I don’t intended on quitting, I like to think I have more self control, but largely scale back. So far no real problems ie. withdrawal, but I have to say it’s just boring as shit. I like not waking up hungover, sick or whatever comes in the morning but it’s just kinda boring. Guess I’ll look into something to occupy my time, probably the reasonable move. I haven’t told my wife or anyone I’m making a point to easy it down, this is between us. Side note: going to a concert tonight. I do intend on some drinks, but I’m going to try and not get very drunk. Stay strong out there. 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Another lost weekend. Another weekend of waking up feeling anxious and cauterising the pain with booze. &#x200B; Last night I stood on a train station platform for a few minutes, wondering if I had the guts to jump. I didn't but its a matter of time. My girlfriend came home and I just started crying and crying like a pathetic child, and then went to the doctors this morning finally. She doesn't deserve me - she deserves far better. I am a snotty, stupid alcoholic loser. I don't know why she is with me. I almost hope she leaves to find something better. &#x200B; The doctor gave me very little practical help - except past the initial you've made the right steps blah blah. She said i've been self medicating a long standing depression problem with alcohol for almost ten years (im 25 - I have been drinking like this since age 17-18). Im going to get assessed by a treatment centre on Thursday. I don't know what will happen. Im having my liver checked tomorrow because who would have thought drinking 100-150 units a week for almost ten years could damage you! &#x200B; I don't know if I can live life sober, it scares me so much. 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I don't drink much and my girlfriend drinks all the time and it's really annoying. When she is drunk I can't have a normal conversation with her. She says things that make no sense at all and gets mad at me for not understanding. I will try to tell her that she doesn't understand what's going on and she will deny it and claim that she knows exactly what's happening. Whenever I try to talk she will interrupt me every five seconds and try to finish what I was saying and it's ALWAYS wrong, and I will tell her that she is wrong and she will literally not believe me and try to tell me that I am wrong about what was being said even though it's a sentence I started. It's like she hijacks my sentences and and makes them hers. If I am talking to her about something she will talk to me pretending she gets it and I will keep talking to her about it and realize that she didn't understand anything I said so I can't actually trust that she hears anything. She will also say things and when I argue with her about it she will literally claim that she didn't say something that I just heard her say thirty seconds ago and she will argue like she said something else. She also spills shit everywhere. One time we had to get up the next morning for lunch with my family and she was hungover and she tried to skip it out wait to come until later and I had to convince her to come with me(even though I warned her the night before that we needed to get up). A lot of times I ask her not to drink or at least not to drink a lot so I can have fun with her but she always gets smashed and it ruins everything and I can't even stand being in her company. The other night I asked if she could not get super drunk and she drank lightly while we were hanging out with other people and she was pleasant to be around, not too drunk. Later in the night everyone went to bed and we were having sex and she said she had to pee And walked upstairs. I heard a glass clink while she was up there but I really didn't think much of it because it could have been water or it could have been her mother's glass or something. She certainly back downstairs and within the next half hour I realized that she couldn't understand anything and that she was saying things that didn't make sense. I thought something was wrong with her but then I realized she was drunk. I asked if she drank while she was upstairs and she said she didn't. I kept asking her about it and she claimed it was from the drinks she had earlier in the night(like two hours before she went upstairs to ""pee""). I knew it was bullshit but she wouldn't admit it. I let it go and we kept messing around for a while but it kept getting worse and she was pissing me off and doing all the annoying things she does when she's drunk and we got in a fight about some dumb shit and It completely ruined the moment and I didn't even want to have sex anymore(which isn't normal for me, She was literally begging for it and I would usually jump on that kind of thing). Then I spent an hour watching her try to puke. The next morning I asked her about it and she finally admitted that she drank when she went upstairs to pee and she said she did it for sex. Lately she has been getting drunk at almost every event we go to where anyone is drinking and I ask her almost every time before not to drink too much. I'm also worried about her because I know she gets drunk like this all the time at college parties. I live far away from her and I am worried about her safety when I'm not there to watch her. Anyways thanks for reading all of this I just felt the need to say this to someone but what do y'all think? Am I just a boring asshole trying to ruin her fun? I'm not a fan of alcohol in general and I think it's generally damaging so maybe I am just biased? But it is really hard to be around her when she is drunk. Its pretty normal for people to be annoying when they are drunk but she is just so bad. Usually I can have a conversation with someone who has been drinking and enjoy their company but I just can't handle her in that state. If anyone has advice on what I should do then lay it on me. 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It’s always just something. I say something or do something stupid and I get the line “oh you’re pulling a r/sammy1996xx”. I’m in graduate school and my friends and I drink a decent amount. Today was my roommates birthday so we all went out last night. We get in the uber and I realized I forgot my wallet so I run back in the house. My friends all scoff and say stuff like “of course you forgot it”. I was already pretty drunk at this point. At dinner, I tried sliding my drink to my friend but the table so uneven and I split it everywhere. I was cleaning it up and my friend says GOD WHY ARE YOU SUCH A SCREW UP. At this point I just wanna cry. I really didn’t drink the rest of the night but the damage was already done. I ended up calling a bunch of random people I haven’t talked to or seen in months. After the bars we got back home and just cried. My friends were really comforting but I couldn’t help but feel like they were annoyed. I like drinking but it gets to the point of no return and it’s ruining my life. I need help. I’ve been hungover all day and I hate my life.",-0.13379408713693053,2.155351132780087,1.3994696576763523,98.44306340767638,91.61410788381744,4.1743257261410776,17.48975622406639,5.800992412223965,-0.5029534232365149,897,24,202,7,32,287,125,241,0.124,0.706,0.17,0.8702,0,0,8,0,0,1,21.0,3,2,1,0,10,17,4,0,14,0,13,11,0,0,3,35,26,21,0,3,10,0,1,3,6,0,2,3,2,0,9,14,8,2,2,7,0,4,4,6,0,0,14,5,36,11,21,11,6,32,0,2,1,1,20,14,1,3,17,126,45,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21065439579859385,0.0,0.07941884129000826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1467843927721997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09746118877743278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20968622386779026,0.06155486949213795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09767454774945217,0.0,0.4675044422809239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08453695734076913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04826044033911064,0.06818674730742504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4424487437648663,0.0,0.14960001903732187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0763370038449102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0942333110183073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1279510823692704,0.0,0.09574026879491254,0.0,0.0,0.11013204011675416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07780134976769003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1348328742286702,0.13989050044071671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0761842048417517,0.0,0.0,0.07077210945742107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1791394886735644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10015467671023284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06617034133447051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2706823827618491,0.0,0.0,0.09710304617538816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12229049308284065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2277078238036603,0.0,0.09659659755165396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22043732376191105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10926300433770596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07671599844491175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09047178821840507,0.0,0.0,0.06480166934225964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08847953556652392,0.08612530300421391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06146419008192861 alcoholism,Impedito,2018/12/03,"Woke up and threw up blood. Spent 5 hours hooked up to machines in a hospital bed. I am done. I finally had my wake up call. I finally understand the gravity of what I was doing to my body. Today was the most terrifying moments of my life. I couldn't see correctly, I was disoriented. My stomach was in knots and I began vomitting blood and just wanted to die. The doctor said it was from withdrawal from drinking a 1/5th of Vodka a day for 6 months.. My mucosal membrane was dissolved and it caused internal bleeding. I was hooked up to machines and was dehydrated, malnourished, and in fear for my life. Luckily I survived this, but I am done. No more alcohol ever again. It's not worth the damage. The doctor was explaining to me how completely destroyed my insides will become and how lucky I am. So i am happy to find this bastion for hope. I hope I can confide in this community and help myself be cured of this awful illness. My kindest regards..",2.9308743169398888,5.354591404371586,4.7531420765027335,79.09288251366122,77.5792349726776,8.219672131147544,29.292349726775953,8.998388855275968,2.902189071038252,749,35,135,19,18,254,107,183,0.133,0.721,0.146,0.5536,0,0,3,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,1,6,7,1,1,8,1,21,14,5,3,2,25,32,12,1,4,3,0,0,0,0,1,8,1,1,0,8,8,2,0,3,2,2,1,3,3,0,0,17,2,24,4,24,12,2,20,0,1,1,0,4,9,0,4,10,104,32,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17258139649928178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1783506391905043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.179376592820541,0.0,0.0,0.16489714687302912,0.0,0.0,0.16589250240403605,0.0,0.0,0.16931693479791946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1041463015454774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16759888919981886,0.0,0.0,0.3305793077840207,0.0,0.3305162690510404,0.0,0.1581966106706085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1460750026660956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18171872379680729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3538040851252963,0.14759696625673774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17190681563379134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10824189960472792,0.0,0.0,0.3207877385550841,0.15903299971973325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281272837310793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12889805852752062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1536119225273047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12868490589345266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1530715963642168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16811454355755132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09524971597139582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,-WeAreAllMadHere-,2018/12/03,"My beautiful life I am drunk right now. It's Sunday night, I am going to feel like shit for work tomorrow, yet I do this all the time. About me: I'm 37 and relatively successful in my career. I have an MBA and am a professional. I make a good salary. My wife is beautiful and also has an MBA and has a very good career. She is an angel and it almost brings me to tears when I think I about how great she is. I have 3 daughters, 14, 7, and 4. My 14 year old is from a previous relationship and I took custody of her a little over a year ago because her mother is a drug addict. I am an alcoholic. Only my wife knows, although maybe I am just naive... yeah, I am just naive. My wife very rarely drinks, me too much. I travel a lot for work and often drink while away. I also drink at home. Sometimes I am an emotionally abusive fuck to my wife. I say things you couldn't even imagine. I make her cry and feel worthless. It is because I drink. She does not deserve that and I often wonder why she is still here. I am not worth it. Overall, I am a great father, provider, and when I am sober, husband. The latter is the most important to me. I feel myself dying. I am 37 now and do not believe I will live to be 50. I want to quit. I want to be the husband to my wife that she deserves. I am drunk ranting right now, but I am hoping that this is my start, but I know it is not. I came from nothing and have worked so hard, yet alcohol has me. There is so much wrong with me. I struggle with my sexuality (I am bi) and I have Imposters Syndrome (I never think I am good enough in my career). These aren't my excuses for drinking, though I would like to blame it on that. I don't know what I am trying to accomplish with this lost. I have never put down in words before that I am an alcoholic.",0.5090143794499511,2.412460904509288,2.739687979896693,93.0908610219182,83.19098143236073,5.666033784727071,20.00062822839593,6.8360192770164,0.1887867374005308,1359,38,314,16,38,462,175,377,0.095,0.8009999999999999,0.10400000000000001,0.5018,1,0,9,0,0,0,57.0,0,1,0,7,24,15,2,1,19,1,45,16,1,3,3,53,67,26,1,5,8,10,4,2,0,2,6,1,1,0,17,18,10,0,10,8,1,6,9,6,0,0,3,5,69,9,29,59,6,37,1,2,0,2,22,11,2,7,22,231,86,9,0.0,0.10765414943772007,0.0,0.09905072584889528,0.0,0.0,0.0805418382242198,0.2913048714088525,0.09098308668071038,0.0,0.0,0.14532129277265096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0853658871627041,0.0,0.0,0.11077472961428234,0.0,0.07731510103596084,0.10236801735113614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10391954482179597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.099805357300184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09429825357184997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07951212958743265,0.0,0.0,0.445040661619146,0.10536866280893648,0.0,0.0,0.10220518226172147,0.0,0.09388258728400063,0.0,0.06001212122179979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13782451901693193,0.06491034606494518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08399853331741255,0.0,0.0,0.051637787248743926,0.22862697397042134,0.0,0.20034676840611804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08139264294493774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09113990951658033,0.09024440334130904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14980270997099307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06417704959333922,0.08877913625322621,0.09106551108775787,0.08023097530390227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.099184337449112,0.07724585606666158,0.0,0.0,0.12129940626277955,0.0,0.09128100353713388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13358499353892644,0.0,0.14015354557443482,0.0,0.0,0.0852658812956179,0.0,0.08718254517235864,0.0,0.09534220331662599,0.0,0.0,0.0691030645956921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.091339316773089,0.0,0.09664071067017073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09754955230059877,0.0,0.1551877529993511,0.0,0.07225545641663446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0932664037141942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08986278563276652,0.0,0.06431112008190999,0.0,0.07256085066802061,0.0,0.0,0.09498651774213722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06036329451861986,0.11643873785200833,0.08926941153990599,0.0,0.052981150895171636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10094871594207357,0.06168792248774985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1499379016949849,0.10718307158478564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0819869467852301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09853370902783404,0.19844131493681708,0.0,0.0,0.06454428132582486,0.09934106071654436,0.0,0.11702162095610365 alcoholism,throwawayyo452891,2018/11/10,"Friend in guild voice chat verbally abusive when drinking advice A member of our guild hangs out in our voice discord. Normally shes great/love her being there, but when she drinks too much she becomes aggressive and self-destructive. She will start crying/yelling, insulting or accusing members of betraying her when there is no justification, or brining up a lot of scars and traumatic incidents from her past, etc. Incidents used to be near daily but have slowed down to 1 incident a month-ish. Everyone in Discord has their own way of reacting, some people leave channel, some people ignore her, some people try to argue or comfort her, etc. Normally she will come back to the channel after a day or so and apologize. I wanted to get some advice from this channel on what to do. Some advocate kicking her from the discord when she gets that drunk, but she has threatened to kill herself in the past when that type of thing happens. I think most of us feel trapped in the situation and guilty when she accuses us of not being good friends or when we explain that she ruins the time for everyone in the chat. I appreciate your feedback and advice!",7.2441997812613925,8.041414630331758,7.013933649289104,73.684939846883,63.83412322274882,10.473350346336128,36.13598250091141,10.389873798559362,3.9286898286547576,921,42,156,21,13,291,125,211,0.293,0.665,0.042,-0.9966,1,1,2,0,1,0,23.0,5,1,1,0,12,10,4,0,10,0,11,3,0,3,0,34,21,21,1,3,9,0,1,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,6,8,3,1,4,8,0,2,2,6,0,0,0,3,26,4,30,16,11,29,0,1,0,0,31,11,0,12,15,120,32,2,0.0,0.1530350115230882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3786447618132856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09931706162011954,0.0,0.0,0.142648500364917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1112610171454178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08329834869919413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2530577897270178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.288097967748122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24683830097973086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06530783057313355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19957938905414854,0.0,0.1349628892508501,0.0,0.0,0.1083343645021114,0.0,0.14240078144587068,0.0,0.0,0.11421690478520212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.142897833800586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13676315980511142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10980831240612067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10309531175416768,0.0,0.09494841179980726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531012870843312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24659813803249314,0.26863253280363586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1347433975678119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14518270491069687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09142102793252292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0858090238089033,0.08276134121158367,0.0,0.0,0.07531498860097052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08769203953638242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31073026439277196,0.11155388689903513,0.0,0.0,0.07618267702977374,0.10252222237252316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,geetargod,2018/11/10,"47 days sober Wow it has already been 47 days. I didn’t stop drinking forever though I just stopped until I’m out of high school. And I actually found I really weird way of coping. So the other day I took a hit of my vape and it tasted exactly like cinerator, the last alcoholic drink I had and it made me think that if I can recreate that flavor then maybe being sober won’t be as hard. 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Went to the Casino with my cousin on Wednesday night, ended up back at my place sometime after midnight. Girls came over, blow followed, unprotected sex, drank the fridge dry, must have opened up the liquor store? Woke up in my bed at 2am Friday Morning. I’ve been in bed since, the only exceptions being to answer the door for skip the dishes, and fill my water. I’m glad I’ve had The Office to keep my mind off of how much I hate myself lately. I need help.",3.311875000000001,5.130496437500003,3.962916666666669,88.02375000000002,74.20833333333334,6.0500000000000025,21.375,6.6274283507984215,0.3973374999999999,382,9,75,3,8,121,73,96,0.08900000000000001,0.853,0.057999999999999996,-0.4754,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,7,0,5,5,0,1,1,11,15,2,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,4,4,1,1,2,2,4,0,2,0,0,7,0,9,1,18,6,1,23,0,1,0,1,3,12,0,0,7,43,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1944124122097428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28917276603377784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26508982882911003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22393435006400444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24961952643033045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16946814370695554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2247289419668593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2852058175366682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27599629363822736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2552885222405365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18586081255695447,0.18747192745678706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23726596170954503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19229033734524165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2641559135994541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20914546965114156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25005758377299275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2343780509060161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,souptastesgood11,2018/11/10,"I never realised I grew up in an alcoholism family I knew my parents drank a lot and were drunk every night to the point of black out but I thought it was normal. I thought it was normal to lock myself in my room or sleep outside under the stars until the next day and knowing they would forget everything. It wasn't until my 14 year older sister moved back home and asked how I can handle this life. I told her I chose to either sleep outside on the trampoline in the backyard or lock myself in my room. She just shook her head in disbelief and told me to get out as soon as I can. I had nights where mu dad would shake me by the throat for no good reason. My mom would run after me and I would throw chairs or whatever I could in her way before she tackled me for no good reason. I learned fast to just be quiet and hide. It was a relief when I would sleep outside and they locked the doors. I knew I was safe. I would have to hide the car keys from my mom at least 3 times a week as she threatened to drive herself into the lake down the road. I never realised how this actually effected me. I'm now 25 years old and have been living on my own since 21. In these 4 years I realised how much more relaxed I am away from my parents. I still visit them because I love them and I have to leave quick because they try to keep me there in their drunken annoyingness. My siblings and I try to tell them they are destroying themselves and their relationships with their kids and they are in denial. I try to tell them all their health problems stems from the alcohol and they always have some kind of excuse. For some reason my heart is extra broken today. My moms eyes are fogged over and my dad relies on pills to help with his blood sugar. I have been accepting the fact that one day their liver is going to fail and I won't have parents anymore. I've been coming to terms with their death lately. 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I never realized just how much caffeine I was drinking until earlier this week and I decided to cut back and it's been a few days and my anxiety is way less than it was while drinking caffeine I was drinking 3 coffees in the morning and an energy drink in the afternoon and I was always anxious and having mood swings but didnt think it could be because of how much caffeine I drank until a coworker pointed it out ",4.508663594470047,6.060618268817207,5.832288786482338,76.91129032258067,70.61290322580646,8.755145929339479,34.79109062980031,9.23628265651192,3.4794897081413207,381,20,66,8,7,128,64,93,0.052000000000000005,0.929,0.018000000000000002,-0.2144,0,0,4,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,5,2,1,0,5,0,12,6,0,2,1,16,14,13,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,5,7,5,0,3,4,0,0,2,1,0,0,7,0,8,0,9,5,4,13,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,8,57,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20409790472307413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14972011114685474,0.15578239662979804,0.0,0.0,0.12731631324165865,0.0,0.14322311738210047,0.211505797018344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14396095512400606,0.0,0.1141278371095968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1494802800052239,0.0,0.0,0.12074168972956435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7336189878435012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18537766158913752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2752571175029342,0.0,0.144395938273536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17698382242455907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11996329264890115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14860686385021155,0.1501769369032802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,blondemama830,2018/11/10,"I don’t want to die I’m terrified. I’m an alcoholic. I don’t want to be anymore. But I’m scared I’ve already done the damage to my body, and that I will die soon because of it. I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to die. I want to be healthy, and grow old, and be there for my son. I’m a horrible person. 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My work dictates that I don’t have time for a lot of my local meetings, any good online meetings? 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I'm currently struggling with sobriety and have for many years. I'm only 26 and have NO friends, no one to lean on besides my mom. Today I used her credit card and said I was buying food and really bought alcohol and I feel absolutely horrible- but of course I still drank anyway. I think I'm really struggling with being so alone all the time. It's hard having no one to lean on, or even just laugh with. When I see something funny I have no one to tell about it to. Can anyone relate or give any advice for how to cope?",0.9682995951417012,3.3130591228070188,2.8387719298245635,90.32896761133604,84.96491228070175,5.9638326585695,18.418353576248318,7.321109707123232,0.4206013495276664,436,11,91,7,13,145,74,114,0.18600000000000005,0.703,0.111,-0.7579,1,2,2,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,9,5,0,2,2,0,7,3,0,2,2,19,19,12,0,0,4,1,3,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,2,8,3,0,3,0,3,0,4,2,0,3,4,5,9,3,14,14,2,9,0,0,1,0,7,2,0,2,7,59,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1699330218615976,0.0,0.18584616387712424,0.0,0.3602158125690764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182579316244086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12159489082231965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11485927915925867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17585808313899806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21028051397922806,0.0,0.1343546726522004,0.0,0.0,0.16682068127751282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15578020085259867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1763072581137317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036695237100858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3535173270564496,0.13225875082505284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22280952627614967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1654186784124695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13857574799081218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338766801430818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1388767274549192,0.0,0.0,0.3635959781320597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15199622425947418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11142806839360103,0.0,0.0,0.20280492263742128,0.0,0.16483682227565954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1501937251980871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11198586848304512 alcoholism,highwaywomen,2019/09/12,"I think my husband is an alcoholic, what more can I do? My (32F) husband (31M) and I have been married for 7 years, together for 11. Early in our relationship, we would have occasional nights of drinking, but it was never “heavy”. More like each of us drinking a tall IPA while watching a movie. It was always social, controlled, within boundaries. Never something that spilled into other areas of life and never something that affected our relationship. Something shifted a few years ago. I’ve been racking my brain trying to figure out what could have caused it to no avail. But when he’d drink, it became that it was almost always to excess and he’d almost always get very sensitive, angry, quiet, unpredictable, etc. when he drank. He never saw anything wrong with his boundaries with drinking and his behavior while drunk. We started getting in fights while and after drinking, but it became a running “joke” among friends that when he drinks, his “dark passenger” joins us. Whenever I’d bring it up seriously concerned, he would always accuse me of overreacting. Especially because, hey, I drank too right? Fast forward—it’s been years of this cycle. We have a 3 year old daughter and a baby on the way. We’ve been in counseling for a few months. He drinks heavily nearly every time he drinks. His behavior is unpredictable. He thinks he’s “fine” as long as he can talk “normally” while drunk and doesn’t get angry or speak aggressively to me. He’s never been violent, just sensitive, speaks meanly and can be unpredictable. The straw that broke the camel’s back for me was after 2 weddings in a row earlier this year of him getting so drunk he had to leave early. The second wedding was the drunkest I’ve ever seen him and it happened to be days after I had a miscarriage. We didn’t talk for a few days after that episode and when we finally did, he apologized profusely, said things would change, and that it’s not right. I bet you know how the story goes. Things have not changed. I have story after story of him being the drunkest one in the room, hiding alcohol purchases from me, drinking in secret, feeling bad, starting over the next day, etc. Counseling was a last ditch effort for me. Maybe I waited til I was too close to the end of my rope to go. He was and is willing to go and the sessions have been productive. We went in with the intention to work out this issue with alcohol and how it affects our relationship. We have worked out some things that have helped us communicate much better in general, but ultimately the drinking has not changed. It’s still a problem every weekend and some week nights. Two weeks ago was our anniversary and, you guessed it, he got drunk to the point of not being able to speak even single words on the way home. He shuts off completely, usually passes out, or spends large chunks of time sitting and staring. Something broke in me when it happened on our anniversary. Got me thinking... Thousands of dollars and dozens of hours in counseling for it to be exactly the same, maybe even worse. He says all the right things in our counseling sessions, makes me have hope and trust, so when it happens it feels 100x more painful. I can’t continue like this. I can’t believe that this is my reality, this is not the man I married. I can’t even leave our daughter unattended with him because I have done so in the past and returned to him so drunk, he’s barely capable of taking care of himself let alone a young toddler. So I don’t leave our daughter with him anymore. Honestly, I’ve started to picture my life without him. But the main thing that holds me back from going down that road is that I can’t imagine leaving our children unattended with him for the days he has custody. We haven’t spoken except out of necessity this week because he continued his pattern this weekend drinking himself to sleep 4 times in one day and drinking again too much the next day (in secret) hours after we had a conversation where he apologized for “making me feel alone and unsafe.” I’ve said it all 1000x and I don’t have any words left. I have nothing left. No more grace. No more patience. No more energy for it. He is a good guy. He loves our family. When he’s sober he’s an amazing dad and husband. And I can’t picture life without him. When he’s drunk, I find myself googling how custody works when one parent has a closeted drinking problem. I am broken and completely at a loss of what to do next. We are still in counseling, but honestly until he’s ready to change, I know nothing will change. I am reasonably alone in carrying this. We haven’t told anyone about counseling or these ongoing issues. I’ve shared a little bit with my brother but I don’t want anyone to get too protective of me or have a bad view of my husband. One question is: would it be productive for me to talk to a close friend of his or maybe even his parents? They have observed this behavior and lightly expressed concern to me. His dad has talked to him, offered grace and help to him, but my husband said what he needed to say for the conversation to be over and the parents have not brought it up again. I know I can’t force him to change, but is there anyway I can encourage him to see the ways this is destroying our lives and that this is a serious matter with serious consequences? Is there anything I can say or do to break this pattern? Please help. Any thoughts are appreciated.",4.834534989282563,6.425818884466023,5.230378262514186,81.38860105913507,69.86407766990291,8.263270709872652,30.46400201740008,8.767166641548808,2.481901525658808,4281,176,789,75,77,1362,393,1030,0.1,0.792,0.10800000000000001,0.9221,3,3,20,0,1,0,120.0,25,2,1,7,38,35,4,0,48,0,94,31,2,11,9,145,143,70,0,11,25,14,3,2,2,6,7,10,3,3,57,59,24,4,18,22,4,8,30,16,0,8,34,20,104,19,120,92,22,142,0,3,6,1,136,50,0,14,81,551,161,5,0.0408378921594811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07240065476392933,0.13092986136726245,0.08178649995283961,0.12688722064004426,0.0,0.0,0.13592159092808165,0.0,0.0,0.055542334118879925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04050021555323542,0.057109607452393824,0.0,0.06721221126666692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06280363659599207,0.06819586830654327,0.074683200050426,0.0,0.0,0.04601031989408216,0.0,0.03611779695895576,0.04458440131681556,0.0,0.0,0.045588593551804064,0.0,0.0,0.041636952759429566,0.041951764562910825,0.2592064499608249,0.0,0.08563550591160682,0.0,0.04580316857331121,0.032605733879816946,0.0,0.0,0.15802237205003974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04179134229246394,0.0,0.5200726331888209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03617025112472374,0.0,0.09109008953418088,0.10789217048001368,0.036940211471700124,0.06881537093641821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03849833024863111,0.0,0.061946595951598425,0.0,0.0,0.04473591472031281,0.03732509359296945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06310250835928717,0.0,0.10668056565744216,0.0,0.06962734567148172,0.03425288640270265,0.0653235859447667,0.0,0.044987542318340665,0.0404359337621454,0.10833843950225744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08211833486603608,0.0,0.04096373555415962,0.040561241428967866,0.08043419522030662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0852482987940431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06733031258311563,0.03328833267083625,0.0,0.17296572508302668,0.08874097864267204,0.04175951158491479,0.08653503285658216,0.03990266261502338,0.040930296443016184,0.03606060696168968,0.03614024946761872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03685779209169324,0.0,0.05451922025576652,0.0,0.12308145497993556,0.04448443659999909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032596415905480264,0.0,0.0600410992106285,0.0302807795812026,0.15748350004792785,0.0,0.13029468482218076,0.0766471907139789,0.04001246361078928,0.07837011786212872,0.0,0.0428524981484942,0.0,0.1106912504808822,0.0,0.04345439654316985,0.0,0.1360369392131995,0.0,0.03898438897004077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04482774220225599,0.03860500806398197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07815269503763503,0.0,0.0,0.045747785409298185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04198815468128112,0.0,0.13153383907435515,0.0,0.1046260103092351,0.11653856168061752,0.09742779287456912,0.0,0.0,0.0325425127513847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04086738479680112,0.04162908821956327,0.0,0.12575601817305426,0.0,0.0,0.08671581078587441,0.0,0.0652263868620349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030705012565542495,0.13129580322371834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356544046924228,0.07850181700194786,0.0,0.03242072473780799,0.07143870998346817,0.0,0.0,0.0390223560278053,0.0,0.027726248106642797,0.0,0.03989268666199704,0.0,0.14736886809245014,0.0,0.044977168679721735,0.03369553792162574,0.024087246868963418,0.09724565384634387,0.09827308135996182,0.0,0.0,0.037857135169172856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07873254147631929,0.0,0.08919141560715127,0.0,0.04161730098924445,0.11604026757491462,0.04464982423668007,0.0,0.13149131813908774 alcoholism,cravinghummus,2019/09/12,I’m in the same boat. Let’s chat? 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I don't know when to stop. Sometimes I'm able to just have a beer or two, and be fine. But other times I don't know when to stop. I have a pretty bad history with alcohol, and when I blackout, I become a completely different person when I drink a lot. , and I've embarrassed myself, done some things I'm ashamed of. A few years ago, I managed to stop drinking for two years, and it felt good. I don't know why I started drinking again, but I'm definitely remembering why I stopped. I need to stop.",2.4245384615384644,3.5882408384615374,4.275384615384617,87.56461538461541,75.23076923076924,7.661538461538463,26.84615384615385,8.238735603445708,1.5686,479,18,108,8,10,163,67,130,0.256,0.628,0.11599999999999999,-0.9481,1,0,6,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,0,6,7,0,3,7,0,9,6,0,0,0,31,21,13,0,3,5,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,5,7,6,6,8,5,0,0,3,5,0,2,2,2,17,2,12,17,4,16,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,16,70,22,1,0.11716742625535345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10386185389740472,0.12521634577729468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0978299068365559,0.0,0.1294022169218723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12791648337350048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12284781722516755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1224150226213786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1199029567207398,0.0,0.4591178865008064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11249910351121573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09827447817210397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10495899989688423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1931764598310829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09961155585548813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08687816194527724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10230607724786506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11920139495178635,0.0,0.11211340311981934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13272785352260766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1158815805298763,0.0,0.08293170736097251,0.0,0.0,0.5877432885571705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07784083172531339,0.15015231146222882,0.0,0.0,0.06832126848497906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22891110071714585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2114507559362164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1509039620469632 alcoholism,squ101,2019/09/12,Hands turn red occasionally Anyone who has drank for a while have this problem? No other signs of health problems. Workout regularly and no other apparent issues.,5.146111111111111,8.779605740740745,5.835092592592595,65.2504166666667,84.18518518518519,7.1444444444444475,28.972222222222207,8.07648339933343,3.226933333333333,133,6,17,3,4,43,25,27,0.317,0.6829999999999999,0.0,-0.8491,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,3,1,0,0,4,4,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25441177742317106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3867546196752885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3797639694262159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6963089729345479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3957633805756731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,reddit-user-one,2019/09/12,My wife and I have talked I’m so far gone! I don’t even know how to get help !,-4.437666666666665,-3.1873280999999984,-1.1899999999999995,115.46833333333332,105.0,2.666666666666667,6.666666666666668,3.1291,-3.030333333333333,58,0,20,0,3,20,18,20,0.0,0.82,0.18,0.508,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,6,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,1,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4550726815559286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3599698541063541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4618167773266706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3786519542104396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5537856267441129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,LeSirAcronym,2019/09/12,"TIFO I'm a Diabetic, ants drank all the pee off my sink I'm an alcoholic Ask me anything Drinks: Gem clear, 375 ml every 2 weeks average",-1.9802955665024624,-1.2479385862068924,1.48778325123153,91.77482758620691,124.51724137931036,5.795073891625616,17.935960591133004,6.868970318607317,0.9021684729064045,107,4,24,3,7,38,27,29,0.0,0.902,0.098,0.3818,0,0,2,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,5,1,0,2,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4776376993699754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3677895052786623,0.0,0.4178239859206019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43782624721750696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3765620972036797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35850437784475603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,PuzzledImagination1,2019/09/12,"Inpatient Rehab Recommendations in California? \[cross posting for more visibility. Could really use the help!\] Does anyone have any inpatient rehab programs that they liked and found helpful in california? It is so hard to find rehabs that you can trust. All the reviews are very confusing. I'd really appreciate some personal recommendations from the community here.",7.562167487684729,11.64960024137931,8.393152709359612,49.645689655172454,72.44827586206895,12.279802955665026,35.87192118226601,10.914260884657429,6.339336945812807,306,16,37,13,7,102,49,58,0.06,0.754,0.18600000000000005,0.8586,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,1,0,2,3,0,1,3,0,5,3,0,1,1,8,7,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,2,5,5,3,4,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,2,1,24,5,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1964856211069642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2020299807249944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2306909846212784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2528488537754276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26408123871039313,0.0,0.0,0.3168021739285182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.258828892914383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38733390872358375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14115898390142442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25228678568291435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27671973860888976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37019815548576457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495469604156661,0.0,0.23840152928731154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,sstunda26,2019/09/12,"Help needed I need help/assistance to stop drinking. I usually have 3 large glasses of whiskey every evening to ""help me sleep"". I have severe anxiety and tell myself everyday I won't drink, but when my wife goes to sleep, it's me time, and I drink to forget my past and feel my emotions. It's slowly affecting our relationship that's why I need help now before it gets out of control. What has anyone done to stop these cravings and become a better husband?",5.250037453183523,6.2524778426966305,5.839943820224723,79.61287453183522,68.32584269662922,8.629962546816481,30.563670411985026,8.841846274778883,2.4881670411985017,364,14,67,6,6,118,61,89,0.11199999999999999,0.7609999999999999,0.126,0.4939,0,0,4,0,0,0,11.0,1,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,1,0,5,6,2,2,0,15,10,6,0,3,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,5,4,3,1,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,13,1,8,8,0,9,0,0,0,0,8,1,0,0,8,41,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1165364154923861,0.0,0.0,0.10651668348742847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16824284393606145,0.12962648506501792,0.0,0.0,0.13472857260128268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17085747310421132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15589234029289675,0.0,0.4476930579178902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1713571909561927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1006163120922448,0.0,0.12834942161377433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07702552160597924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07958913081912486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40842971138643736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33886503777062965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14542169018878712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16355156256617054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17209601278695846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3048914874778988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2547189806670608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1331481413506791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08882818845500946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16777628333068814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13745930084265034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,The_Urethra_Franklin,2019/09/12,I’m Drunk On A Work Night I’ve been drinking daily for the last 8 years and I’m over it. Every night I get home and I just don’t give a fuck anymore. I could really use some support to stop. My health is getting hit really hard. I just want some outlet to express my difficulty stopping. My family doesn’t really help and I don’t have other folks to help. I need help. I hope I’m not bugging anyone.,-0.3786997885835071,1.8146992906976749,2.414904862579281,91.67396405919662,90.97674418604653,5.452854122621565,17.120507399577168,6.980632752743323,0.14010697674418626,313,8,69,5,11,109,57,86,0.158,0.654,0.188,0.5593,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,3,0,7,4,0,1,0,15,20,3,0,4,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,3,2,2,0,2,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,1,10,2,6,17,2,8,0,0,0,1,5,2,1,3,6,36,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18089571816776184,0.12754109222950105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14563472233434127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17868644210135112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15368320608271227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1719542230443623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16862952483502391,0.19059708473679385,0.1749785024084088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1633981233101654,0.0,0.0,0.19388688337389448,0.0,0.0,0.3667845950302763,0.0,0.1829660474809994,0.18116829251006206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14868357520673095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352502275406717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3423475263118441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3505579487947733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3049957616235428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2069898559465757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15753845929080235,0.0,0.0,0.10758658346689276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13279225768932185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174621720041474 alcoholism,dungeons_and_bagels,2019/09/20,"Does anyone else get cravings after months of sobriety? Long story short I’m 20 years old, I’ve had a fake ID since I was 18 but I don’t have it anymore. So I’ve been sober for over two months now, not really by choice to be honest. Sometimes I’ll go days or even weeks without wanting a drink at all and I feel just fine. But there are days, like today right now, where I just crave it so bad. I get a really bad anxiety attack and depression and I start crying, and all I can think about is just getting a drink, and I want to so bad. It’s like there’s this static inside my brain and it just doesn’t fucking go away until I get some alcohol in me, and then it all just clears away and I feel amazing and happy. Like there’s this itch inside my mind and it gets scratched when I have a drink. But none of my friends will help me get alcohol because they’re worried about me because they think I have a problem. I know their intentions are good and they love me, but I can’t help feeling spiteful, angry and even hateful towards them when they won’t buy me alcohol. Does anyone else feel really bad cravings like this on certain days even when they feel super fine every other day for days or even weeks at a time? Just wondering if anyone else has a somewhat similar experience, I’m just feeling very lost and alone.",5.14972222222222,5.09419066666667,5.631990740740744,84.74020833333338,68.25925925925927,8.675925925925927,28.72685185185185,8.278499904357787,1.7630185185185183,1040,32,219,13,16,335,141,270,0.21600000000000005,0.595,0.18899999999999997,-0.9422,0,1,6,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,6,2,25,26,4,0,8,0,17,10,2,1,5,51,44,28,0,4,16,0,7,4,1,2,4,0,0,0,10,13,6,0,10,3,1,2,7,12,0,1,4,7,28,14,20,37,6,36,0,2,0,2,10,11,1,6,27,135,38,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2690947847349028,0.0,0.08692870357502804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06420809309679429,0.0,0.08323843523705181,0.17606255780630442,0.2579961354034746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09548527664520283,0.15771459583668174,0.0,0.2803203533574893,0.10232888271128478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09369637025566332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09219585312182632,0.2706474274728016,0.0,0.07229089459883431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14689970196285335,0.0,0.0,0.24666553729257704,0.0,0.0,0.21034437134290093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22174636165283645,0.0,0.07071670753795714,0.0,0.0,0.0821020396587277,0.0,0.0,0.2546326060163905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06484600123246058,0.07759419583949252,0.26310743982654183,0.0,0.09540148900829663,0.07039855535498968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08934765176660707,0.0,0.08286591595359245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11251630154142922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046127078476684014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16402061828538658,0.0,0.0,0.07427757540715009,0.0,0.0,0.09162218196304307,0.0,0.07575231139134116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08474784617382672,0.0,0.13398815869223546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08807298536944116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08031201754889866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16130782648225073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0716778521157003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06942978843853892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08301133736136057,0.0,0.05940781879412176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10756104745366016,0.0,0.0,0.0489416854795184,0.0,0.07955814687675652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08198980597478253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0692530598356977,0.09901106505992012,0.0,0.1346510943474592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.080907884874227,0.0910211596934207,0.0,0.08523747526801598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05404974477120116 alcoholism,courtrow,2019/09/20,"Last night I had a friend over and got excited about making music with him. I got excited about the future. It wasn’t the right time and when my girlfriend got home I asked her to drive me to my moms to pick up some equipment. When she said no, apparently I yelled and screamed and told her to go fuck herself and broke up with her. I don’t remember doing that. I don’t know what to do. I need to stop drinking. My drunk alter ego is always destroying my life.",1.696198830409358,3.677731157894741,2.9350877192982487,92.82005847953221,79.52631578947368,6.32748538011696,21.08187134502924,7.3871296695380915,0.5198888888888886,360,10,80,5,9,116,63,95,0.188,0.733,0.079,-0.875,1,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,4,7,2,0,3,0,7,4,0,2,0,14,18,7,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,3,1,0,3,7,2,1,2,2,0,2,4,4,0,0,7,3,18,3,13,11,1,13,0,1,0,1,12,4,1,1,7,53,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1831237371284216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2057445822990484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2155940812130485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17003284134666102,0.20345991024645865,0.0,0.0,0.12507622626283724,0.0,0.5280529354824031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22075763799401774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12094991313797294,0.1793941298018826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15544862790403707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14690474545498927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25775439832892083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631861275963387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20652966034462186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24930712109414996,0.1879466524569204,0.20934595981705967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839962792582921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12833010030249126,0.0,0.0,0.21029535097624105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,LeonXvoN,2019/09/20,"How harmful is alcohol? Ive been drinking every day for about 2 weeks now. I dont have access to weed anymore so Ive resorted to alcohol and whatever I can get my hands on. (I cant mention it for legal reason) How harmful is this shit? It helps with my depression like nothing else and I cant imagine going a day without drinking ill I drop.",0.3593740219092325,2.7258776760563417,3.2753990610328643,85.63059467918625,89.14084507042253,5.972456964006258,27.607198748043817,7.3871296695380915,1.9692334898278558,269,14,52,5,9,95,50,71,0.11,0.736,0.154,-0.1441,0,0,4,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,5,5,1,0,1,0,10,7,2,3,0,8,12,5,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,3,4,0,2,2,0,1,4,4,0,0,1,1,9,1,8,11,0,7,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,5,35,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4724692341132761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2192216384868668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2851171929595944,0.0,0.19038955161165225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25906828765580625,0.4330885773262912,0.0,0.0,0.18465843573728827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18624367998651253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11548920458158875,0.0,0.1256274861181926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1481647745428481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10799358668790172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21210289144710787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2272756315129074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22690406506881616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1773125206092305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21308376398622747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Donnie_darko_san,2019/09/20,"The Process I haven’t gotten better at doing what I needed to do most to keep myself alive. Other than working to pay the bills, I drink. If not every day, every day that I have money in my pocket until my pockets runs dry. It doesn’t matter what positive inspiration that tries to drill its way in my life, I always manage to do the opposite. Instead of lessening the load, I drink more. Instead of building plans on bettering my diet, I watch porn. Instead of consoling my friends about what matters most or most troubling, I cater to strippers. Even to every letter that I type at this very moment, I’m sipping on something now that I know nature causes would envy the very moment to take away the life I choose to neglect. I’ve given up...",5.7370833333333335,6.277717986111113,6.383333333333336,77.795,67.05555555555556,8.066666666666668,29.88888888888889,7.793537801064563,2.0688805555555554,586,20,103,6,9,192,91,144,0.07200000000000001,0.8059999999999999,0.122,0.7386,2,0,3,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,4,6,6,0,0,6,0,7,6,0,1,0,16,14,3,0,3,3,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,11,0,3,2,3,2,3,1,3,2,0,0,2,1,17,4,23,11,4,16,0,1,1,1,2,8,0,5,6,76,28,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1563358918220578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17652473020238596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3323391352129783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930102931158865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2423413704287945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3681127688472443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12409668381188435,0.0,0.4749052293878634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14515996837879644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16700137698364706,0.0,0.0,0.10325702627488972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2654183478010841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13931481079850774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14464353395832355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14126660790430248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12756200674328938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31005063642544434,0.0,0.14913486435898124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367829732480957,0.0,0.0,0.1334685578260582,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,wanta145,2019/09/20,"Insanely worried about my dad. . . I don't know how to bring it up with him. He works hard to take care of our family, and he always goes to work, but lately he's been getting drunk every single night. Like Monday through Sunday. He's drinking a whole fifth of whisky and maybe two or three beers every night. How should I approach this thing? He is pretty beligarant whenever I tell him that it's too much whisky. He looks dehydrated often. I'm concerned for his long term health. As a side note, he's never violent or mean. Just happy and obnoxious.",2.4937298215802883,4.951676401869161,3.422327952421412,87.85153780798643,79.37383177570094,6.507731520815634,20.942225998300763,7.686295010490155,0.9047644859813092,433,12,84,7,11,138,82,107,0.085,0.7509999999999999,0.163,0.9005,0,0,4,0,0,0,16.0,1,0,0,2,6,4,1,0,2,0,4,4,0,2,1,15,12,9,0,1,4,1,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,4,3,0,2,3,0,2,2,1,0,2,1,2,8,3,11,10,4,12,0,0,1,0,13,2,0,3,9,47,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15704871615736934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1924353572062987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1848956022664189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3180470617997985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17792944589499493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09861006341109163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2009196914875334,0.16907603096993545,0.0,0.0,0.20062424239574736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1037278338435344,0.0,0.21290953913283986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0922099556392902,0.0,0.0,0.16703099902648194,0.15849599878914675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18961701233183906,0.20559569997117752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13874730987655506,0.0,0.14556969988135288,0.0,0.0,0.3542437317429159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19201877651585764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1419107227950514,0.0,0.1649690922181104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1253919996231339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18437380497259812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21072404123284816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2748132893916858,0.191676970747503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,MTf1r3,2019/09/20,broke my 4 months I was 4 months clean but drank tonight. I thought I was progressing and doing so well. I prepared and practiced so much going into today knowing I was going to see her... god she's so amazing. But she didn't end up showing. I was confident and ready to be my best self with her but ended up so empty and weak without her. This really sucks because I'm worried I'm going to spiral. I'm trying so hard but it's too much and my heart aches this is so stupid. I want to just place my focus on someone else but I know someone else is not the right answer. I just don't know how else to fill this void and deal with this. I don't know what to do with these feelings and myself.,0.13148859543817792,2.2969924489795943,1.9905162064825923,96.19292917166868,87.09523809523809,4.27515006002401,18.851140456182467,5.5289334501034215,-0.3802321728691478,538,15,120,3,17,177,81,147,0.158,0.654,0.18899999999999997,0.7354,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,2,11,7,2,0,1,0,12,3,1,1,0,29,28,19,0,1,9,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,7,11,1,0,7,1,0,4,5,4,1,0,7,3,20,3,14,20,3,16,0,1,1,0,7,6,1,0,6,81,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09786529090364343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16847957474674388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16551239157091654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4023382752941335,0.0,0.284386219068453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08117517231720525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2737202115490723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1438146535217669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19024377739948006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3529201010739105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2562871748547507,0.0,0.236034595589982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16773286789554706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10284771314768452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13710252008600807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12793168242654687,0.0,0.1674809654551968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2720544814861749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12745290730566775,0.0,0.0,0.15217563177771187,0.0,0.0,0.1089979005234543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0946921966509468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14434709555876918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15475735647295435,0.0,0.0,0.16303882329160949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,BORN2ROK,2019/05/25,"How does one go about rehab? I can't do this myself, so I'm going with in patient rehab to dry out. Do I need to go through my doctor? Can I just find a place and they contact my insurance? What's the process?",-1.111666666666668,0.9194640652173902,1.5086956521739123,97.90115942028986,93.13043478260867,3.936231884057971,18.536231884057973,5.46131890053228,-0.4640028985507239,161,5,38,1,6,55,38,46,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,4,3,0,1,0,7,9,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,7,0,7,9,0,6,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,27,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3699103880849269,0.3162654343735397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33031499420924626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6161794671725285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679750958186589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2448954325495236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3775882993158843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,FeralMuppet,2019/05/25,"I'm Autistic, I have an alcoholic partner and i'm trying to settle things, but i'm a little bit stuck, I would really like some personal experiences. Ok, hi people, I just need to spill my thoughts and if you feel like commenting and sharing some experiences then feel free to do so. So to make this short, we have had many conflicts, perhaps because of my, Autism? but also because of the, alcohol? He is a nice guy but he's also into violent interests. I don't know if it's me or him but we seem to not being able to communicate at times. He does like to shorten down when speaking or texting and he isn't really clear at times, maybe because he is tired, maybe because how he is raised, maybe because of me? I notice when something is off by how what and how he write, but I still seem to lack the knowledge of what is happening or what to do in some of our communication. Would someone really be that careful around someone with Autism, what can I do to support him? He was raised by teachers and I was raised by artists, so there is that and I don't know if that makes sense other then us being different. Am I with Autism just complicating things by my lack of social skills, or is it my partner's alcoholism even though he is sober and has been for a month now? Is an alcoholic like Dr.Jekyll and Mr.Hyde or does he have Narc or Bipolarity? Maybe he is just normal and i'm the problem?",3.3362792207792182,4.847898978571429,4.545064935064937,85.14538961038964,73.5,7.8051948051948035,27.01298701298701,8.438071523408619,1.7795357142857153,1094,40,226,19,22,360,137,280,0.09,0.782,0.128,0.9096,1,1,5,0,0,0,31.0,4,1,0,1,19,13,1,0,8,1,31,6,0,5,1,60,49,37,0,10,18,0,2,4,2,2,6,1,0,4,13,16,4,1,8,1,1,0,4,2,0,0,6,3,23,12,30,38,6,18,0,0,0,0,28,9,0,14,13,155,36,0,0.10007116964960364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4277825870775432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16005375642814051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08908455730816157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3050122809569133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10925179905166174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10202922685161307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10455307322110208,0.0,0.0,0.17514590985616016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06609606375988454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1957776121385276,0.0,0.0,0.10119798035411344,0.071490863592842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0990861911199876,0.08849260483103152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1099929955044872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19555887480308384,0.10029760162845988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13359656561295552,0.10145645923354447,0.4021397615697015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07987585287966542,0.0,0.0,0.07420150429799464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09804849913548436,0.0,0.11393168991332032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0693767488996986,0.08737828541308243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0957545944480045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19232446123885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18220206887742946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10200995519821572,0.16957995460177866,0.07703967543126895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07991696534937309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11355957742135753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13296567700093478,0.0,0.09831941609165544,0.0794453306436644,0.11670460754742527,0.11501708844847305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06794175534798483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.120373295650339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1421753754739117,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,stigstig76,2019/05/25,Emotional Saturday Swapped out my usual 12 + beers on a Saturday for a workout and a plate of fresh vegetables and pan fried salmon with crushed chillies. I was apprehensive about hitting the weekend but I know now I'm going to do it. 6 days sober! IWNDWYT,3.2712244897959195,5.899459387755108,4.366693877551022,81.21044897959185,77.57142857142857,8.001632653061224,34.289795918367346,8.841846274778883,3.4451926530612247,206,12,37,5,5,67,43,49,0.044000000000000004,0.8809999999999999,0.075,0.08800000000000001,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,6,6,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,1,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,7,4,0,9,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,6,21,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3437784919957565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5996188176780348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3029493050392826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2929548901860138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5870883858669285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Wooshkki,2019/05/25,"Looking for some advice So hey everyone, it’s my first time ever posting to this group and I was hoping someone could give me advice on helping someone who is an alcoholic, my dad has been at the pub drinking 3-5 beers every single day of the week for the past 3 months and he’s started having mental breakdowns for the past two weeks and keeps having mood swings from anger to sadness, whenever someone tries to talk to him about it he gets really mad and tells everyone to “f**k their hat”, it’s so bad to the point where I live with my grandparents and am too scared to see him whenever as I don’t know whether he drinks or not,he has always drinked but not to this degree, yesterday he was really drunk and beat some guy up who was his friend who he constantly harasses, and starts saying stuff because his friend won’t drink (because of his epilepsy attacks) and my dad flips out about it. And also he acknowledges that he spends over 15000 a year when he talks about it. I am looking for some advice on how to help my dad and his condition and where I can go to find some support",9.388194444444443,6.458575134259263,8.62925925925926,75.9416666666667,61.5462962962963,12.007407407407408,37.425925925925924,9.994966539143718,3.4246981481481487,863,29,173,13,9,272,131,216,0.086,0.83,0.084,0.1701,1,0,6,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,2,12,12,4,1,7,0,15,7,0,1,1,29,27,20,0,2,4,3,0,0,2,1,1,1,0,1,12,13,7,1,3,7,1,1,3,7,0,2,4,4,18,4,28,21,5,26,0,1,3,0,33,9,0,6,15,111,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32493569099905834,0.0,0.11845461428938908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08863897950024102,0.0922280417479984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12609688767992014,0.0,0.0,0.0925470537281276,0.1351344844252998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11977903031182155,0.0,0.08849699197776527,0.0,0.0,0.07148284942338654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4343253416414107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10026143286078834,0.09338776658354628,0.21182538881505306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10130606231534696,0.09428073620651888,0.0,0.0,0.17126994278467855,0.0,0.05790950265354448,0.10632815358667314,0.06299311928830599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1097493624572918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14858788638533446,0.0,0.0,0.11008946679680508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09851998660647862,0.0,0.0,0.0609149518966127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09787405052021833,0.0,0.18615593875429728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11170099234991293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08847170155789122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21161929191082196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10477994764763003,0.0,0.10615440619824476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14201431950187002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0881446868232094,0.11097051615265964,0.0,0.08832540008180255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2817439800548671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15690672566465833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12688567047675486,0.0,0.12578030381469987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17817853276101273,0.0968793422607508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06463189335155853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07525331480994325,0.0,0.10827490601840352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1778188692168692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07137754463305432 alcoholism,yamez32,2019/05/25,"The Man In The Glass When you get what you want in your struggle for self And the world makes you king for a day Just go to the mirror and look at yourself And see what that man has to say. For it isn’t your father, or mother, or wife Whose judgment upon you must pass The fellow whose verdict counts most in your life Is the one staring back from the glass. He’s the fellow to please – never mind all the rest For he’s with you, clear to the end And you’ve passed your most difficult, dangerous test If the man in the glass is your friend. You may fool the whole world down the pathway of years And get pats on the back as you pass But your final reward will be heartache and tears If you’ve cheated the man in the glass. \- Peter Dale Wimbrow Sr.",1.5131182795698948,3.527606548387101,1.9148387096774184,99.7389247311828,80.29032258064517,4.649462365591399,17.43010752688172,5.2151,-0.8252021505376343,585,11,135,2,15,177,90,155,0.098,0.815,0.087,-0.4351,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,13,0,2,4,7,2,1,18,0,8,1,0,1,4,23,15,13,0,4,6,3,0,0,3,3,1,1,0,5,6,7,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,5,0,1,0,4,13,2,21,11,5,23,0,0,3,0,29,11,0,7,8,88,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37121398479153417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15567069465594474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21379180854275612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2644209486378907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18649026432242435,0.0,0.2522230878588405,0.0,0.13718231320178975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17049444964151533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2026991406607954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16112360761097996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2437258725801218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18616781052911124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16356592706921505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26496371411029124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19195575916018995,0.0,0.0,0.1923493047270729,0.0,0.251812894580062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523436986964655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14237269332674174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26949312538351106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15544136874079384 alcoholism,tonyrg562,2019/05/25,"27 m. Any advice on stopping? Life feels like it’s going down the drain. I’m a 27 y/o m. Working in the restaurant industry since I was 16. Currently manage a restaurant, done every thing from prep to bartending and management for front and and back of the house. The reason I bring that up is because drinking and drugs are a very big part of the restaurant industry. A chef once told me that the kitchen is like a pirate ship. It makes sense. Anyways I live w/ my girl and Its hard on her too. I’m tired of drinking my life away. I had a pretty tough childhood, abusive af alcoholic Father, growing up poor yada yada it’s no excuse but I’ve come to learn that it’s seriously impacted my ability to handle stress w/ out drinking and going to other things as well. I’ve stopped working out and I was pretty fit. Gained like 40 pounds in a year and almost lost my new car I bought. I went to the er two weeks ago for throwing up blood after a particularly long bender. I feel like I’m going down a drain and would like to know how some of you guys got yourself out of the habit. Any advice would be appreciated.",1.4076000000000022,3.8039403377777785,3.0240000000000014,89.41200000000002,83.4,5.555555555555557,21.88888888888889,6.918507183188421,0.6605555555555558,876,29,178,11,25,288,136,225,0.096,0.7390000000000001,0.165,0.9601,1,0,5,0,0,0,23.0,0,1,0,4,5,10,0,1,17,0,10,10,1,3,0,27,27,12,0,2,1,1,3,5,0,2,5,0,1,2,11,13,5,2,5,3,2,10,1,4,2,1,9,3,15,6,29,15,2,36,0,1,0,0,7,15,0,2,16,101,26,5,0.0,0.14036912343531804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315375755309301,0.10501766341987047,0.1266097952429736,0.1186318984592346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611290994278836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11130769055250654,0.0910971204761492,0.0,0.07221900770177357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10205253878696886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1212372770120618,0.0,0.3481703281712901,0.13738910124034368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0998171837903706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11980530258763665,0.16927184742266935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2019899178091301,0.0,0.0947523248856621,0.0,0.0,0.11730521763228036,0.0,0.0,0.10612701882777233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13669997930052682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06510873074158148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16735957216945976,0.28939547616832545,0.0,0.10461233249801168,0.10484337653784373,0.0,0.0,0.12932542385929133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07908051579647261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11442032426927168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1261680729636954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12829287798808778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24105581605718965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12180823254479993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09800068745248586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1980946309571156,0.13570847920011292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1574141411827043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13616533685850551,0.0,0.1132044085662079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11572925008604144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09775123365231636,0.0,0.0,0.09503053450869932,0.0,0.106519930709155,0.10982408632076214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17249704153854625,0.0,0.0,0.16831723142655072,0.0,0.0,0.07629163595821818 alcoholism,SpookDaddy-,2019/05/25,"Do withdrawals make you feel lightheaded? For the past 3 days (off and on. It comes and goes) I've been feeling really airy/lightheaded. Sometimes it feels like I might pass out but I don't. I originally thought this was related to alcohol but I seem to have it when I don't drink and even when I do drink. I was on a bit of a bender since last Thursday. Drinking significantly more every day. Then all of a sudden I had these alarming symptoms (I thought I was having a heart attack). I went to the E.R and it turns out the arm symptoms are carpel tunnel, and because of that and the head airiness, I had a panic attack, all of which made me think I was gonna die. So since then I've started drinking less. Down to about 3 or 4 beers a day. My lightheadedness is still worrying me... (I am 100% certain the arm pain is carpel tunnel.)",1.6783193277310922,3.884670333333337,3.154593837535017,90.04726890756304,80.78571428571429,6.0957983193277325,23.57282913165266,7.285733465282438,0.9229841736694676,648,23,137,9,17,212,101,168,0.14400000000000002,0.82,0.035,-0.9666,0,0,6,0,0,0,27.0,0,1,0,0,6,7,2,2,11,0,18,13,4,3,3,26,32,14,1,0,3,0,3,1,0,2,4,0,0,0,8,9,6,0,7,5,0,3,2,5,0,0,11,3,18,2,16,19,5,23,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,3,15,91,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13981676658270648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2976745011971805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07975234556928111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14283174442514684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11269788381987045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531222848291781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13578018978928286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5126517466417606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08641153892574224,0.0,0.11022935358341378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1984537214729725,0.09346449986235288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13426863737331307,0.0,0.0,0.15503338658143073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10664336592957414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06391660244591299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12379387585615395,0.08732959402656529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13878924489097885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1392116318238437,0.15350003060783166,0.0,0.0,0.12489139962588795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08381261920572358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11910210889675125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2164467483134865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12939355317873155,0.0,0.0926016735148724,0.0,0.10448047235009217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2719635361264739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08383015233852588,0.0,0.207727749305096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14230474301461735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12128010011232655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13286353574694498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,anonymousbcihavetobe,2019/10/30,"How can I support? Looking for suggestions on how to best support and be there for a significant other who, after many years of drinking and being an alcoholic has decided to get sober?",7.710882352941176,8.226350088235293,8.392941176470586,65.16823529411766,62.82352941176471,11.505882352941176,40.52941176470589,11.20814326018867,5.083576470588237,149,8,23,4,2,50,29,34,0.0,0.7040000000000001,0.29600000000000004,0.8948,0,0,2,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,2,0,4,2,0,2,0,5,8,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,7,6,1,3,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,2,22,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3255742552706978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3197075059237061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2984374025832281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15916512254612208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2558261722759122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30886354101529223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6914180420553073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1961822346589611 alcoholism,litebug,2019/10/30,"Withdrawl crisis Is there anything on this planet that helps with withdrawl? Don't worry, I'm in counseling/psychiatry but my anxiety meds don't work well and I see something else. Need help :( :(",3.0631428571428567,6.179777600000005,3.66,81.29000000000003,87.28571428571428,6.2285714285714295,27.0,7.554174236665415,2.2122571428571427,156,7,25,3,5,49,31,35,0.319,0.527,0.155,-0.816,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,6,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,3,6,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,14,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25306073601135376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27221982831851804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2763405611378587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4434559057598159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3674437058653958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2452836609181429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2636043976915992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2546656406026239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2974285060711847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2408259985945493,0.33594298143314005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,DangittBobbyy,2019/10/30,"I’ve been drinking daily since 18 and I’m 22 now and can’t stop I grew up with two parents who drank daily, my mom passed away when I was 11 RIP. Since then my dad locked his door and drank all day everyday. When I was 17 he started giving me three beers a day, I was already smoking and doing drugs by then but wasn’t dependent on anything, by the time I was 21 I was drinking 6, 16oz beers a day. I smoke weed and do other things when they present themself but that’s way less of an issue. I’ve always been an insomniac since I can’t remember, I use that excuse now to drink until I pass out. Now at age 22 I drink up to 192oz of beer a day, mostly 4 32oz at night and 64oz when I wake up. I can’t afford to go to rehab and I don’t have any support. I really hate living like this and I just feel like there is no hope, I’m hoping maybe someone had some good advice because this isn’t living. I’d really appreaciate any tips... thank you",0.8780662393162402,2.274773836538465,3.1560897435897464,93.01668803418804,79.86538461538461,5.9683760683760685,19.72863247863248,6.691623216298621,0.03285811965811947,730,17,174,7,18,251,125,208,0.05,0.8059999999999999,0.14400000000000002,0.9568,2,0,9,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,1,0,9,8,1,0,6,0,18,12,1,2,1,23,32,17,0,2,3,3,1,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,7,10,9,1,2,7,0,4,7,1,0,2,11,1,22,7,18,21,4,34,0,0,0,0,10,8,0,5,23,99,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12259027615019802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13843943959264607,0.0,0.104386142426366,0.0,0.0,0.1706233707371464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10323633515716556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11786631600666266,0.0,0.0,0.07647439580510783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3236247353637015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4915809347425975,0.1454845315924224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0634323180364927,0.08962295848704338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.120345022770386,0.07129728222873039,0.1052232144763086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12385791161753736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2492043535326041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13093933051782564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12257905442342802,0.0,0.22155288963772404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12603343051782448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1469279065450498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1177282359898752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13929963802409767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16073557132017685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14211269963429626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31132565788064753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10629510169346752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08879559569116202,0.0,0.0,0.10488351818152432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14236148203502105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.115499378321365,0.0,0.0,0.08334475729601876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07315209015405454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12254840877702745,0.0,0.0,0.10835027851771148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09957798564537257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,soberbeing,2019/10/30,"Once upon a time a father died Once upon a time a father died Once upon a time a mother cried A funny, husky welder, who worked in a factory A decent 8 pm drinker, only one glass daily Not a connoisseur of spirits finer His favorite pub was the cheapest moonshiner One single glass turned him so unfunny And gave me ringside screaming-match seats for him vs. mummy Many a day I told him (lovingly), how he was so full of pooh And in the end, the doctors proved me true A tiny lump on walls intestinal, made his food flow block And they treated and treated, till he went of septic shock Was it cancer? They never got that lump to confess Five decades of drinking certainly nurtured that mess Filled with such sonly love that no life-trials could cloak He went like he lived, with one last parting joke Once upon a time a father died Once upon a time a mother cried",4.774464285714284,6.060211327380955,5.041428571428573,83.85357142857143,69.6547619047619,7.2666666666666675,26.5,7.492282038375204,1.421335714285714,685,21,127,7,12,216,106,168,0.16699999999999998,0.708,0.125,-0.8271,0,0,2,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,2,1,4,11,0,0,19,0,4,9,1,2,4,17,13,8,3,1,2,6,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,5,6,2,1,2,3,0,4,3,2,0,4,9,0,10,9,17,3,3,24,2,0,0,2,23,10,0,0,11,73,15,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09058443653558668,0.0,0.2492495700136325,0.07316896871028734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.353244552070404,0.0,0.0,0.1161258089273351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11114252435720716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10048728943076822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1371900106154661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0907401785081962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09248081546980326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08013648990690941,0.05542829096524242,0.0,0.10018267875203098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20479479718986035,0.10735368758807916,0.0,0.11502537327160935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0875033463014553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6041283671179465,0.23063975322229036,0.08628749800121586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12286050673708465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3307820701380467,0.0,0.0,0.10841093612856424,0.0,0.07702837087622746,0.12340625752476338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21034749720961152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08259645533885966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,randomishard,2019/10/30,"Was drinking about 9 ounces of vodka every night... This was a typical weekday - come home from work and change - sometimes skip dinner - then watch TV while drinking. Every now and then I would go a day or two and not drink....but never more than two days. Not to get into too much detail but this past weekend made me realize that I need to make some life changes. I realize when I drink - I drink to get 'buzzed'. I can't have just one drink. This has to be a sign that I have a problem. I've always had an addictive personality...so I'm not surprised. I have not had a drink since Saturday night and I feel surprisingly OK...but the weekend is coming up and I know it will be tough. I have to say though that I'm excited to see what life is like without having to rely on getting buzzed nightly.",1.6740625000000016,3.84114528125,3.1337500000000027,90.40625,80.5625,6.0,22.5,7.1686216300943375,0.7288749999999999,615,20,130,8,16,201,102,160,0.05,0.888,0.062,0.4312,0,0,8,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,1,6,6,0,0,7,0,17,10,0,2,1,28,31,12,0,3,8,0,1,1,0,2,3,1,1,0,8,8,7,0,4,10,0,3,7,2,0,3,5,4,12,4,15,22,3,21,0,0,2,0,1,3,0,2,16,85,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11469319576210794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08754220645819208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22259406473812315,0.18125624826772616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13570203256706945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7214524618857487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17728601817795153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053196764940226016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16490187391291436,0.0,0.0597926243435835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.105533073022327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05782004251911638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14862427002649695,0.051399738702650286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09955117494518058,0.07022773649103757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07734062362255219,0.0780110426816664,0.08114356508525,0.0,0.0,0.29619418731526753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07129225192662778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10043376933889872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10067067810983472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08366631477608648,0.0,0.0,0.08383784652601478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08702986298251608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10405426084439123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10336717884262543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20554755359120774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10141759456810666,0.0,0.07659330908912038,0.0,0.0,0.07473736138713986,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Kyhl,2019/10/30,"My roommate/best friend is an [functioning] alcoholic. What do I do? Hello, This is my first post here, and I apologize if this isn't the right place for it, but I just need some help/answers/reassurance. This might be rly TLDR but bear with me. I will not be naming names for privacy reasons. My best friend/roommate is a functioning alcoholic. Functioning meaning, she drinks at night time after work. It's always the same time like clockwork, a whole routine. Every night she ""has to run to the store"". She buys the cheapest pint of vodka, crown rousse, which is about \~$3 out the door. Sometimes I will see some cans of IPAs or other beer as well. When she gets back and pulls in the driveway she will sit in her car, take about 5 shots in a chug so she can get drunk quick, and smokes cigarettes (no smoking cigarettes allowed in this house). Then she will come inside and finish the rest of her pint quickly, at least within an hour or two. She makes a complete mess of the kitchen, leaving nasty dishes (piles them up so quick) and spills/stains. Leaves garbage on the table/counter when the garbage can is right there. Just tonight she left tomato soup in the microwave and raw chicken in a crock pot that wasnt plugged in. She had every intention to make food apparently, but got too drunk and passed out. I know that doesn't seem like a big deal and it's just food, but when it's an every night thing its wasteful and I am the one who will be cleaning it up. I have only seen her do the dishes since she has moved in, and it's probably only been about 3-4 times since July. Other than that I clean everything else and pick up after her because I want a clean house but I can't keep doing it because SHE needs to learn how to live life and develop better life skills. When she is drunk she isn't the same person. She gets irritated rather quickly, she develops a very rude demeanor, and says some off the wall shit. She has been physically abusive to her ex boyfriend in the past, with cops getting involved a couple times - I don't know how she didn't get arrested. She has destroyed things in her old apartment, stabbed knives in the wall, broke dishes, etc. This hasn't happen at my house and WILL not happen either, because I am not afraid to call the cops if that's what will help her. Although, I don't know how insensitive this is, but I don't think it would help. She would come right back to the drink. She needs to want to get better. She has this habit of peeing in dishes/cups. Yeah, you heard me right. She is too lazy to leave her room and will accumulate cups of fucking piss. I found out she did this a few years back too when I was a teenager so I brushed it off like oh okay it was a one time thing (still gross!). Then I saw it in her old apartment. Then she did it here, after I had opened her door (I should have gotten permission first, I know) to get a box of mine that was in her closet, I saw multiple cups filled with urine. I confronted her immediately and she was embarrassed and asked if she wanted me to move out. I told her no, running away from your problems won't solve them. Just please grow up and don't do it anymore. The cups ended up in the sink, and I just thew them away. I am honestly afraid of using the dishes because I don't know what bodily fluids have been in there. We are now low on cups again and I am wondering if she is continuing her nasty habits. From the hallway, I can smell a foul odor coming from her room, but it is a disaster and she will hoard dishes and food in there. So I never know. I'm worried for her health. Physical and mental. She is throwing up blood apparently, she smokes a metric ton of cigarettes and is constantly coughing up a bunch of shit. She told me she has auditory hallucinations as well. I just confronted her via message tonight and I'm waiting for her to read it so we can discuss it further, however I know it's going to be awkward and hard to do. But it needs to happen. I may have not sent the best message, but I was a little irritated. Was this inappropriate for me to send?: ""Okay i gotta say all of this and express my feelings. Im really concerned about your drinking girl. Not only for your physical health but also mental. I feel like all cares for the house go out the window when you drink. I come down to some sort of mess just about every morning. That i in turn clean up because frankly it wont get done otherwise. The drink seems more important to you than having a clean home and i just feel alone in that area and do most of it myself. When you invite random people over from tinder it makes me very uncomfortable at times because its just always a ""hey my friend is coming over tonight"", and never ask me out of respect, but its just someone you are going to fuck in that room (which i really dont like that you are having sex in or using that bed. Its not ours and any damages i can't and will not be responsible for) and i feel uncomfortable leaving my room. Granted it seems like you've slowed down on that a bit. And the fact they are strangers and you are drunk when they are here. Its just a dangerous situation. I tend to just stay in my room a lot at night or go to bed early because when you drink you arent yourself and it makes me really sad to see girl. It really does. You can get snappy and really irritated quick over small things and get loud and sometimes rude. Its just feels toxic and the negativity really gets to me. I don't say anything to you about any of this, in hopes something will change but it doesnt and hasn't, so i have to step in and express my feelings and concerns. I cant drink with you anymore or wont talk about /glamorize drinking. I wont be going out to the bar, or even get a glass of wine in your presence. Im done enabling this. I can't do it anymore bc this is really affecting me now and i can't let it anymore. I guess you could consider this an intervention via Facebook from me. Im worried. Im sick of the mess. Im sad that you arent the same person at night time. Im tired of worrying. Things have to change around here, otherwise i just dont know what to do. Things arent fair and life never will be. But doing the job of two people really is getting tiring and mentally draining. I just think about what it would look like if i didnt live here. I think about if you still are pissing in cups. we are missing just about all of them. Because girl youve been doing it for years and i just dont know when to believe you about things. Ive caught on to little white lies a few times, but once again i just dont say anything. Im just so concerned about where the drink is taking you in life and i really want you to get help because i think you are powerless over your addiction. Please consider it before its too late"" TLDR; my roommate/best friend drinks every night, throws up blood, trashes the house, pisses in cups. 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I have experience of years in the rooms, been a way for years, and it’s caught up with me. It’s closing in on me again, but the fucked up part of my brain rather drink than seek help. I just hated my experience there. Had probably 10 sponsors, went through the steps, I felt honestly, 5+ times. I hate the phrases that are beat to death. I hate how I’ve heard everyone’s share 10000000 times. I went to every meeting in the Atlanta area 10000 times, met everyone, still hated it. The best outcome of a meeting I’ve ever walked out of is thinking “that was tolerable”. I actually felt like I gained somethings leaving the group, like my self confidence back. Admittedly, I lost freedoms when I got 2 DUIs In a month. I lost the respect out of my family and friends. As much as I’ve lost, I still feel happier out of AA then I was in. Either way, my life is miserable. I just don’t buy that their way is the only way. But I also acknowledge my way, is not working and will take me further down a path of straight Doom.",2.469605263157895,4.323771135964916,3.813017543859651,88.02978947368423,76.67543859649123,7.191578947368423,25.873684210526317,8.07648339933343,1.4993694736842111,881,33,187,15,20,289,130,228,0.183,0.625,0.191,-0.4215,0,0,2,0,0,0,31.0,0,0,1,7,14,19,5,1,13,0,13,4,1,1,2,28,34,12,1,2,8,0,4,4,1,2,1,1,1,1,7,10,1,0,7,1,1,6,2,10,2,0,15,5,28,9,29,17,4,45,1,5,0,1,12,19,1,1,19,116,35,1,0.0,0.0,0.09742860416471122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07984132868920109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10469004932823718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06980985200006476,0.10229700314202923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07677014028658471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10477502375260232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11145350531066026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09780435355741864,0.0,0.0,0.08340279509428307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18062044624208928,0.08411878622008542,0.19080116432358613,0.0,0.195323684111807,0.09411946104328904,0.0,0.15144501558319262,0.07132510558667994,0.28758371001999955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07713547625181652,0.09229968134812104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07985048523961663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3942819461887621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06692007479673713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10571523958727416,0.0,0.0,0.07051934115258951,0.1951054539385763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32695866390966444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07969065352063638,0.0,0.07339325967717697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07593216917561146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10811606546327496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10764348522047423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1041540030003913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0768610520050982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15946334133476034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07506661237857283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06397289319151664,0.0,0.0,0.1746510261055006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3962383333558375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851037764887055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07268408709692516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12858627286114718 alcoholism,iRoxYourSox,2019/10/30,"I think my husband is heading towards alcoholism Hi i believe my (24yrs) husband (25yrs) is close to becoming an alcoholic. He has been working a lot and is having a week off before he leaves the country to work and every time he drinks, he can never control himself. It’s extremely embarrassing because I can never control him and tonight, he insulted our gay friend by calling him a “faggot” and is punching his cousin as a “joke” and then starts fighting with my brother in law as a “joke” as well. He also punched a hole into the wall and threaten to get physical with me and sister. Tonight was just a terrible night and just further proved to me that he is nowhere near getting better and I truly don’t know what to do anymore. Should I stage an intervention or should I just tell him one-on-one that he needs to stop binge drinking? Because the latter has not worked. Ps. We have been married since Feb 2019 and been together since Oct 2015. He has been arrested for public intoxication before.",5.60129426129426,6.8345780264550315,5.875767195767198,78.8308424908425,67.67724867724868,8.355067155067157,34.64428164428164,8.617729084823388,2.952603256003256,793,38,141,12,13,253,121,189,0.134,0.802,0.064,-0.9313,0,0,4,0,3,0,18.0,2,0,0,6,5,9,2,1,12,0,21,7,1,2,3,33,27,16,0,3,5,5,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,0,4,15,4,3,3,4,0,0,4,4,1,0,5,0,18,5,18,20,1,19,0,0,0,1,28,8,0,2,10,94,22,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31757037111878833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11881813884730938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14734990569746162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811440973715314,0.16409323318124058,0.2528586481612531,0.16739704233404873,0.0,0.13140557162977975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15171521725725268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3332867481187113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29110064803890195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1251837586480082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11479134776199297,0.0,0.15525222347237802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1524843623637733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08165483462396156,0.0,0.0,0.15732313354219313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12631609141912595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11016904366523504,0.22918573211509316,0.0,0.0,0.1394308174586729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10068060809733836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24581127095622154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10516459700469227,0.0,0.0,0.12421824344033493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1298641207860769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09520307628249433,0.0,0.0,0.08663729345156881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11918067655677413,0.0,0.13358987692040866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32450066003875755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Kingpsychonaut,2019/11/01,"Addiction So for the longest time i had drank and did all sorts of downers and i was always about the pain killers xanax and shit like that went to rehab for heroin and I was always in love with it. Although last night I got drunk as usual but I just loved it more than ever, I drank a half gallon of some 80 proof vodka and I had felt so amazing I was myself but I didn't have to be myself if that makes any sense? I had thrown up a lot and at one point a bunch of people thought i had alcohol poisoning because i was laying down on the ground but then I just got back up and drank more, I was so happy and I am in love with it!!! I did try and walk home and I passed out on the street but I got my shit together and got the brains to get up and walk home, threw up some more got home and just crashed. There is more details to the story but I can leave that for people who wanna message me. So please give me some insight please.",0.3350047619047629,2.318793710000005,1.8122857142857176,99.03233333333336,84.4,4.609523809523808,17.023809523809526,5.622346879071545,-0.7350690476190476,722,15,172,4,21,232,107,200,0.10099999999999999,0.731,0.168,0.9673,0,0,2,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,11,10,3,0,9,0,17,16,3,1,3,38,35,26,0,2,9,0,1,1,0,0,6,0,3,0,7,16,5,0,3,2,0,5,1,4,0,2,24,1,24,6,27,10,10,26,0,0,0,3,6,14,2,6,8,127,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13497208642968306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.132316130427838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2060410676990468,0.0,0.0,0.0841956141493843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09520289051404622,0.0,0.07547393646833353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13821383970235673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11199398948596596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1188778187128986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06468605171764928,0.11877063567785133,0.0,0.0,0.4951141795092634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13179893719848124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3725770903455496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10092235617002523,0.0,0.131097798473766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06048772055342137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1052595452684468,0.3352323402226885,0.0,0.08264469445153348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11618808243052962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08389742673807844,0.0,0.13174345884032318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1716696889190192,0.0,0.0,0.27181423651162384,0.11704125923955473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2541800879339711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0982919739968223,0.07219509414475372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08405943050216451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1363601440149916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11477388540001247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,killmealreadylmao,2019/11/01,"alcoholism life hack drink way too much, so sick the next day i cant even drink, drink way too much the next day... repeat so i dont drink everyday so im not an alcoholic checkmate",0.7965789473684204,2.9020873421052684,2.399210526315791,94.78197368421051,83.47368421052632,6.957894736842108,20.026315789473685,8.07648339933343,0.7665578947368425,141,4,33,3,4,46,24,38,0.11699999999999999,0.883,0.0,-0.6418,0,0,6,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,3,0,2,8,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,2,8,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,16,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3651232214142879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2203379616228032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20020742288691049,0.6693798668515799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11282931307551627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1845219682013912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12065983127087745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2511543126844055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3633519088665987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27118829906432523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,wobbly_elevator,2019/11/01,"When people ask why you won’t have a drink what do you reply? For those of you who have quit or gone through periods of complete abstinence - how do you deal with telling people you don’t drink? I feel like I am being weird or reveal that I didn’t have self control over drinking or in other ways come of poorly.",4.747656249999999,5.042540953125002,5.031250000000004,87.48875000000002,69.15625,7.65,26.9375,7.1686216300943375,1.1666062500000005,247,7,52,2,4,78,46,64,0.028999999999999998,0.9229999999999999,0.048,0.2869,0,0,3,0,0,0,4.0,0,5,0,2,2,2,0,0,1,0,10,3,0,2,0,9,14,5,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,2,3,1,2,3,1,2,3,1,0,0,2,1,8,1,8,10,0,7,0,0,0,0,10,2,0,3,3,37,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20386805997777685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878498821703324,0.22864454211651694,0.0,0.24458650403117305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22482285227252155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6408831754662261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11026385155124767,0.15579081603976316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10653905673493896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3023675972590142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23194661699854024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2274968538464971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19060470589628764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17309555392027307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19677623242833994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,fennster100,2019/11/01,"Some things that have stuck in my head from group sessions to share. &#x200B; * The situation you find yourself surrounded by would be still be there if you weren't drinking, alcohol is not helping in anyway. * Focus on your values. Even if you feel you have none right now, you should know in your head what you want to work towards. (This was important to me, because when put into this conext it really made me think of what I have or could miss out on.) * The idea of moving on can be just as scary as the negative behaviours we have. We become so fearful of any change and what we could lose, we move away from it.",4.233666666666668,5.695549033333336,4.261666666666667,88.25666666666667,71.16666666666666,7.666666666666668,25.0,8.167268648758528,1.2984999999999998,484,14,99,7,9,149,86,120,0.14300000000000002,0.797,0.06,-0.9043,0,0,2,0,0,0,20.0,4,8,0,2,8,4,0,1,3,0,15,4,2,1,0,24,22,8,0,7,5,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,9,7,2,0,5,1,0,3,4,3,0,0,4,1,16,1,21,11,2,18,0,2,0,0,15,12,0,4,3,80,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811142929337973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18362310952153835,0.2059273305538492,0.11524693985144167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15922475535027694,0.0,0.0,0.10330870918151228,0.18716878276861906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17927916679316375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27061959932879803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16601828393623935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11193482124047957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1907033946931106,0.08569026048197337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1548945641013737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3478548376623644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11359367527659885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1913135393613848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09313751522501523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18959609579569425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16035873839178574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3602443580264879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1703664174348382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10856826142803787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14472837351051646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19049390696485613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13534075588768926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11258983091858617,0.10859097330321574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09995912253715113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.123377814692262,0.0,0.0,0.12038822233260756,0.0,0.2059273305538492,0.0 alcoholism,trippedup00,2019/11/01,Why aren't withdrawals talked about more? I've read some truly horrifying stories on here about people experiencing withdrawal from alcohol. The only place I've seen withdrawals even mentioned other than this sub was on an episode of sunny in Philadelphia. Are these instances just that rare?,8.052755102040816,10.943168918367348,6.767091836734696,68.36451530612247,63.89795918367346,8.981632653061224,34.69897959183673,9.516144504307137,3.7903428571428566,243,11,34,5,4,73,43,49,0.07,0.795,0.135,0.3527,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,8,2,2,4,1,0,1,0,2,4,0,1,0,22,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4295521843134168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26547792659387304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3056938821133146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2786549516568052,0.0,0.4199423009302067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40204929675750384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3230645695163465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3626888068138899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Cb7200103,2019/11/01,I need help! I am at my wits end. About to lose everything because of alcohol. Feel so horrible today the way I treated my family last night... this has got to stop. Don’t know where to begin. So lost right now.,-0.7234551495016603,1.3979181162790724,1.8987375415282381,92.39069767441865,100.3953488372093,6.178073089700997,17.770764119601328,7.447530270364453,0.7985973421926915,161,5,35,4,7,55,37,43,0.251,0.6940000000000001,0.055,-0.8617,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,5,3,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,4,9,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,1,5,1,6,7,0,11,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,7,20,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2948626561317032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16819147675955715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2443733509272659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24796908764488684,0.0,0.26010231268568124,0.0,0.1395078069270214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22066951563126327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1849358892070621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15163229074799425,0.2249025414145772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3086714333415648,0.3011871072955174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20458291952223565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2589217692925169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2356246541322452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2306721566737792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2615293328123044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21900360613661185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Ferguson00,2019/11/01,"Lying and deception Keen to hear from those who struggle with alcohol addiction. If you did lie about your alcohol use, how did you feel lying to your loved ones' faces? What was that experience like?",5.503333333333334,7.86626044444445,5.478888888888887,77.155,69.55555555555556,10.355555555555558,28.66666666666667,10.504223727775694,3.4372333333333334,160,6,28,5,3,50,30,36,0.24600000000000002,0.5770000000000001,0.177,-0.5362,0,0,2,0,0,0,4.0,0,4,0,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,3,5,1,2,0,6,7,3,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,2,4,3,5,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,7,0,0,1,1,20,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3202032661510666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6278047298251835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2873191069653527,0.0,0.0,0.1485160280812272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33104907150325913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14349904632561888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2650979993918794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19903545076483728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3070648191689935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2536838240356851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,PSMF_Canuck,2019/04/08,"Set the Final Frontier, Received as Ultimatum with Predictable Outcome After a series of failed attempts at ""tapering"", finally sat Q down and put it plainly: &#x200B; \> ""I can't be in an intimate relationship any longer with an active alcoholic. It's not healthy for me."" &#x200B; Results were, I guess, predictable. \> ""I can quit anytime I want to, I just don't want to."" \> ""You're trying to change me, I can change, but I won't because you're asking me to."" \> ""I'm a steady drinker, nobody can tell when I'm drinking."" \> ""If you really loved me...."" &#x200B; Etc etc etc. From what I've read here, all pretty standard stuff. &#x200B; Lots and lots of ""I'd have gotten there on my own, but you're being mean to me, therefore it's your fault"" in a myriad of phrasings. Followed by attempts at bargaining, offers made with no metrics or timelines or plan or anything. Absolute refusal to work with outside help (AA, outpatient, inpatient...any and all have been offered). &#x200B; So we've broken up. To her friends, I'm being portrayed as the ""asshole"" who ""changed his mind"" despite ""he knew who I was all along"". I'm fine being the asshole, that doesn't affect me directly. What I'm not fine is living with someone pounding liquor along with a grab bag of personality disorder prescriptions. &#x200B; Obladi oblada...it really sucks but I just don't see the point in investing more time into something that is, in its current configuration, absolutely doomed. &#x200B; She moves out in a few days. I have every intention of being as good a friend as I can, but I don't think she's going to make it easy. And I've said that if she does find her own way to sobriety, I'm totally open to restarting Us. &#x200B; Love really isn't enough. &#x200B; Fuck.",4.3748069498069535,6.502099795795798,4.994160231660231,80.43942567567571,72.06306306306305,7.640025740025741,31.11207636207636,8.418075326091056,2.575317546117545,1404,64,247,24,28,450,190,333,0.08199999999999999,0.78,0.139,0.9625,2,0,4,0,0,0,125.0,1,2,0,6,6,12,2,0,12,0,24,6,0,6,4,50,49,19,0,4,13,0,1,0,2,1,1,1,0,1,13,15,3,1,4,3,2,5,10,5,1,0,8,3,28,7,43,35,14,28,1,2,1,3,26,14,2,8,7,156,41,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05279948671050348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4817778429569282,0.5402981431837406,0.06719490958492857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04065654181367593,0.0,0.046187501575029925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030117152705901373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15679350035658154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03186247982656349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05662301801929229,0.0,0.043235112504348264,0.0,0.0,0.0483986108130968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05104911973159645,0.1653006781430461,0.0,0.0,0.0416262901215934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10824268704287987,0.045155759638413215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07634118030958273,0.04567461665311233,0.0,0.0,0.028078301420918217,0.04143901478692212,0.0,0.0,0.05442576165522533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03311548553683923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04362598840700733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08400563020675704,0.08918084003457677,0.04674870734649909,0.032978575116109236,0.0,0.0,0.05381710622523808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04988550167042732,0.0,0.0,0.052510259919425706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04313900339864316,0.0,0.0,0.046704195413043235,0.0,0.0,0.05026318592481687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04966620385148103,0.0,0.05254886292198367,0.049418900139095515,0.0,0.0949513434350678,0.0,0.0,0.05304305003964832,0.0,0.0,0.0469959730687952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0393698110942799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04186114549698289,0.03803479096148859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056557512025015876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04318261111992018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03165706890896546,0.0,0.0,0.028808762027229706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0335431120101571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059428769809534175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05828132364929465,0.039215810314743714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03596781447611213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5402981431837406,0.0 alcoholism,wickedgoodgirl,2019/04/08,"Fell off again and embarrassed my wife Had a beautiful day outdoors with my wife. I hadn't been drinking at all for about 3 months. Got totally wasted and tried to kiss my bff ( known her all my life) totally mortified my wife. I feel so guilty although I don't even remember. I would never even think of another woman if I'm sober. Don't really know what that was about. But my wife is growing tired me falling off the wagon. She drinks, but can handle it. Its hard for me sometimes to say no when there is always alcohol around. But I don't think she should change just because I can't handle my liquor. I just don't know what to do anymore. I'd check into rehab but I have no insurance. Any advice would be helpful.",1.7560919540229882,4.0495864482758614,3.15379310344828,89.66885057471266,81.06896551724137,6.625287356321839,22.080459770114945,7.793537801064563,1.0698183908045975,565,18,116,10,15,184,95,145,0.11699999999999999,0.799,0.083,-0.4413,0,0,3,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,11,2,0,1,2,0,18,8,0,0,5,27,25,10,0,4,7,4,2,0,0,3,4,1,0,1,5,5,4,0,7,3,1,3,9,1,0,0,5,3,20,1,14,16,4,13,0,0,0,1,10,5,0,1,5,82,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18651010772213344,0.0,0.20397558793898465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15881415133436774,0.0,0.0,0.1297940760697409,0.2001375627994588,0.0,0.0,0.18928581744895345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16990944000179792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11634893278256712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20190882154846712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1230915007081771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37394814650982733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2521277653301249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09650658144823644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15265138957099136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17097666906469386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12793212686512714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2097877436337162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13481289921119666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1523458368379473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14720609574095436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12227237617514912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21621172371780306,0.0,0.0,0.1517827264587393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.188769392471493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2445959097495025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21937010947156507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12958413840439714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2711686420044042,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,bearsBscary,2019/04/08,"4 months sober, PAWS has been God awful for two months straight now. It's been a horrendous 4 days this week but am still continuing on not drinking. I feel like I can't make it anymore, that my nerves cant take it anymore, that my emotions are too out of whack, that the days are too different and scary and are just held on pause. But despite all this miserableness, I'm continuing to not drink today. I have to remind myself there is an end and im getting close before I can get on with my life again. I still will take my worst day not drinking, than any day drinking. Life is so much in my control and so much easier to achieve sober. If i go back to drinking, I lose so much. So here's to one more day of not drinking and I'll worry about tomorrow, tomorrow",3.0516666666666694,4.333613439490449,4.018232484076435,89.556690552017,73.84076433121018,7.271549893842888,25.82218683651805,7.793537801064563,1.201450530785563,598,20,132,8,12,193,96,157,0.193,0.765,0.043,-0.9802,1,0,6,0,0,1,16.0,0,0,0,3,15,4,0,1,3,1,14,8,0,2,1,21,23,12,0,1,8,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,8,8,6,2,1,6,0,1,6,3,0,2,3,1,13,1,16,19,6,27,0,2,0,0,0,7,0,1,20,88,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07673024291139634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22379984036769784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08676153727020773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09601248949943368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12655169454058507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3638394384267525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1178863678630714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6631997311467769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12692182842944255,0.09993646104342822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057051705758071725,0.08060784809770123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11790106910956408,0.0,0.0641255387312759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1218788969332921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15939443181530955,0.05512445675597726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262311563691728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07531683858678362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18012429258843268,0.0,0.24883549819340986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07645849487874913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1802170033922073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16967260091798705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1069523983737888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11022135048958152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09050774841717377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11458728953758753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,HudsonBrownies,2019/04/08,I’m one year sober and I don’t have anyone to talk about it with. By 18 I was hopelessly addicted to alcohol and by 21 I was almost dead. I drank 1.75ltr of vodka a day just to be able to function. Miraculously I never got a DUI or hurt anyone even tho I drove drunk every day. I tried to stop on my own and had DT’s so bad I almost died. Spent a week in the hospital on the brink of death seizing and hallucinating. The past year has been a anxiety ridden journey but here I am one year sober and never looking back. Just thought I would share.,0.8091449275362343,2.8928409217391327,3.128369565217393,89.70269927536232,83.26086956521739,6.268115942028986,20.88768115942029,7.492282038375204,0.6984637681159418,426,13,94,7,12,146,79,115,0.17300000000000001,0.802,0.026000000000000002,-0.9029,0,0,2,0,0,1,9.0,0,0,0,0,8,4,0,0,7,0,10,4,0,0,2,17,17,9,3,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,6,3,1,1,2,1,3,3,3,0,2,9,1,11,1,14,6,1,18,0,2,1,0,2,4,0,3,11,62,12,0,0.1825975018236148,0.0,0.0,0.1990582293912995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19514119800315466,0.36569004384371867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1396865891037245,0.0,0.0,0.2553528377569158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14040620783122235,0.1524612869199718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2355205655236059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1895073784652492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12060392783644333,0.0,0.15384627065207238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14603990280758594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1954744022735396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15333591317585982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28166090037058483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24746558579234346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17430997682863694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15265968769943822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1467649552953843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14496202010907186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1239717177234211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1464687018513827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12971202631722978,0.0,0.0,0.3527604134404471 alcoholism,1nighthalfthebottle,2019/04/08,"4 weeks left i have 4 weeks left at college, and surprisingly fairly good grades . i intend to come back next year but i drink every day and as of recent i need to drink to wake up. i’ve talked to my parents and intend to go to rehab but still these 4 weeks are gonna be rough and it’s been getting worse as i need to drink more. any advice ??",0.061891891891892925,2.056794310810812,1.890472972972976,97.98408783783786,85.62162162162161,4.2405405405405405,14.655405405405405,5.148860815047168,-1.1497513513513509,265,4,63,1,8,87,49,74,0.065,0.883,0.051,-0.4515,1,0,3,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,4,5,1,2,0,11,10,8,0,2,2,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,5,3,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,6,2,12,7,1,15,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,9,33,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17114511498189228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11910143822349073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13467211205489313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15086789645127496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11295103144425805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5147125749375272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14756329168428714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09150359992507366,0.0,0.09953629234004116,0.1468994092014945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3805809875789733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2597286884581126,0.0,0.0,0.18626374039885354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1944726230762444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17292995841202535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13986730317747795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407711725184573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4214610536018865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17848297092412058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127846378997926 alcoholism,akstan92,2019/04/08,Think I’m an alcoholic??? So I’ve been drinking since 15 and drink pretty hard. I’m now 26 and have been known to black out and run across town shirtless. I often say horrible things and get angry. I cannot stop at just one beer. Any thoughts on what to do? Like quit for good maybe? I’m lost in this world and any advice would really mean a lot. Thanks for reading,0.03249999999999886,2.3555740921052646,1.1924210526315804,100.04994736842107,90.97368421052632,4.618947368421053,15.494736842105262,6.2581,-0.656253684210526,285,6,66,3,10,89,61,76,0.125,0.701,0.174,0.6263,0,0,4,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,4,4,0,0,2,0,6,4,0,0,0,15,15,6,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,6,4,1,4,4,0,1,1,1,0,1,4,3,2,3,9,10,1,10,0,1,1,0,1,7,0,2,3,33,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20465038430357288,0.0,0.22381458554756198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2848361182394775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4103189517581475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1094173613533054,0.0,0.0,0.17565806976281167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18760613812503865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1023158254598752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286151406080598,0.17804799326436288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21039833501124527,0.2281282276703391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14191367094226465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21306332365964145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2227522028834373,0.2094844352084904,0.0,0.13416478645347846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1665453614272877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.173240808133852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1750909858189846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1928129448972852,0.0,0.0,0.13913449864017374,0.1341928529790276,0.0,0.16626224899123954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14877147269668764,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,eldechino,2019/04/08,"my stomach is simply killing me i went on a bender this weekend, which lasted from friday 8 PM until monday at 2 am. now i follow the same drinking pattern always: i drink slowly but with no breaks in between. this means i have had like 2-3 drinks an hour but every hour. i have calculated that i must have had just over 90 drinks in the course of 48 hours. saying this feels insane and i don’t know how i am still alive. i threw up a couple of times though. i don’t know time flies by when i’m drunk. i had my last drink 18 hours ago, the worst part is over but my stomach is filled with acids. eating food is a struggle and keeping it down is also hard.",1.6923913043478258,3.3136655579710173,2.9181884057971037,94.62336956521742,78.20289855072464,4.889855072463769,18.746376811594203,4.7782277997778095,-0.5734318840579711,509,10,114,1,12,164,94,138,0.162,0.79,0.048,-0.9403,0,0,5,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,7,4,1,1,7,0,16,10,2,1,1,16,25,10,1,1,4,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,6,4,8,1,4,7,0,4,3,3,0,0,5,4,15,1,16,19,3,28,0,0,0,0,1,8,0,0,16,76,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11335451139326852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10226252901891443,0.1064032195405261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414925527258872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6263498308485984,0.0,0.13084924887987767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10774119066020542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06465803510999975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1546283754846935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1145519331995549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5037290852265108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1136622177521875,0.141476038538358,0.0,0.1405548004080122,0.20847229613062315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06247383865193844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13929464013383358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13847743347167535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10169226501639794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10212207661384147,0.0,0.0,0.1336839404836206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256376903057538,0.0,0.14913124917899498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1185424931264148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,cknngt1204,2019/04/08,"Go to AA or not? Couple of years ago, had a little over 1.5 years sober. Started drinking again. Was ok at first but in the last month or so I’ve done some really stupid things and have been drinking a lot. After another night of excessive drinking, I went through the whole “wow, I should stop drinking” cycle. I’ve never been a fan of AA and I’m torn on if i should go back. I looked for IOP where I live and the 3-4 hours a few times a week just won’t work based on my work schedule and my husband’s. AA makes me nervous - I don’t like feeling on the spot, I hate fessing up as a newcomer, my anxiety is through the roof, and I usually jet out before anyone can approach. And I’ve had a sponsor before - wasn’t a fan. Nice people, but I just have a problem with someone telling me what to do (yes, i know, I know), and I really don’t like someone pushing god/religion/prayer on me. And if I quit drinking I feel left out or that life isn’t going to be fun - it’s everywhere. Work outings, outings with other moms, neighborhood gatherings. What’s worked for others? 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I fantasize about leaving it for good, and know that's what needs to happen, but I have a lot of doubt. This week has been hard, it seems like the last 20 years are in my face more than ever, flashing before my eyes and seeing all the stuff I wrecked in my life because of alcohol very clearly. I tried to quit in the past, even made it over a hundred days in 2012, until a date told me I was a fucking pussy and to take a drink. That was that. Problem is, those 100+ days were the loneliest, most miserable days of my entire life. I was scared to live my life. I mostly stayed in. I also had a ton of anger, and exploded on family members regularly which I had trouble understanding\[even now\]. These last seven days, I have really done next to nothing. I work from home so its even more isolating. I feel like I can only fill my days with work, reddit, yard work, gym so much before i need to do something social. But my friends all drink, all the activities i have approaching are drinking related,.... Can somebody please tell me the playbook for next couple months, .... Been here before, I want to make it this time. &#x200B;",4.383394441159076,5.547072385767791,4.916743544253894,84.84124186871676,70.46067415730337,8.018056376897299,27.91030948156909,8.371475516178862,1.7983453183520592,1065,37,215,16,19,340,156,267,0.11699999999999999,0.789,0.094,-0.8859999999999999,0,0,6,0,1,0,51.0,0,0,0,5,10,12,2,3,16,0,23,11,2,3,5,33,40,13,0,5,2,0,2,2,1,0,5,0,2,0,18,8,5,0,6,5,0,2,0,8,0,1,12,4,30,4,31,28,10,36,0,2,2,1,6,11,1,5,21,145,48,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20487415152563146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0766531376854791,0.0,0.10385604624112788,0.1164711697783551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058430739495825126,0.0,0.24469002326374464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1060588685769868,0.0,0.3709012488565249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09809029472584407,0.0,0.2816966113625096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18992883849480907,0.08670399254315117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0903611215479449,0.0,0.04846585856333211,0.0684769808910581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07405533423149571,0.08861400854492922,0.10015785617630424,0.0,0.0,0.08039645386211568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08476196964868148,0.0,0.08586493207164082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09614778260672498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052677977805720255,0.1562650148809929,0.0,0.10149386224621734,0.0,0.0,0.20311017572994766,0.09365729171516396,0.0,0.08463943417062278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08149029130884325,0.0,0.09069786800246267,0.06398222801371582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09678360969867286,0.0,0.07650847921559398,0.0,0.07046255030549968,0.2132200425290549,0.0,0.0,0.20388025101749926,0.0,0.0,0.09197297259558916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07290007711710939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09150197131782026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10521716229503283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0917178112659355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10195083679323384,0.0,0.0,0.061405508318475514,0.09855224172648533,0.0,0.10290961662931036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09596498404694936,0.0,0.07638196075550517,0.08726043414364494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09770946106608948,0.0,0.07379186818060098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20433183108603087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1097280770176576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14413816675411864,0.0,0.08377923124861551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05589231112410027,0.0,0.0,0.0915910854663904,0.0,0.06507749450567171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0790882767666962,0.05653623489707454,0.07608318153427188,0.0768870216128775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2093450883365945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1164711697783551,0.061725809426698836 alcoholism,cuttincheese,2019/04/08,I need a sponsor to talk to Preferably I'd like to talk to a mormon (or ex moron person),-0.4160000000000004,1.231961400000003,3.0599999999999987,90.935,85.0,4.0,20.0,3.1291,-0.3584999999999998,68,2,15,0,2,25,14,20,0.162,0.711,0.127,-0.1779,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,8,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2402532526063127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3646401171785304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42939329240453866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7905297970311462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,heaviestawesome,2019/04/08,"Day one... again. I’ve had to start over so many times that I’ve lost count, but that’s not going to stop me from trying. One day at a time and today, I’m sober. 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I always find distracting myself from the thought of drinking so difficult. I currently don't work due to health problems, have a grand total of 0 friends or family to talk to, and extreme agoraphobia along side bpd and ptsd. Any journey further than the liqour store below my apartment is unbearable. The alcoholism is getting in the way of treatment for my mental health issues and I've even started to let my physical health slide. I feel so trapped and terrified to quit. The thought of having a seizure and ending up in hospital is an unbearable thought, that alone makes me want to drink to forget. I do the usual things, housework, TV, reading. I just find hobbies that I enjoy and can afford to do, extremely hard to find? I get so frustrated at myself for not enjoying anything more than being slumped in a chair with a can of beer watching the same TV show I've watched a million times... Sorry for the ramble, first sober thoughts in over a week. Just hoping I can keep it up for a change. 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So my dad was an alcoholic for 30 years until he died 6 years ago (when I was 12). A lot went down however he recovered from a year of being in the hospital and when he finally got back up on his feet and got a flat he started drinking again. About 2 months later he died. On his death certificate it says SUDAM however I don’t see how this is a cause of death. I don’t understand how it would cause death. I don’t feel as though I have closure. Thanks for reading :)",0.2325000000000017,2.5502272500000025,2.5565625000000023,90.9821875,89.0,6.95,19.71875,8.07648339933343,1.1141625,480,15,105,12,16,163,85,128,0.185,0.7709999999999999,0.044000000000000004,-0.9631,3,0,3,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,12,2,0,0,6,0,11,4,1,4,1,15,22,11,6,2,2,1,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,5,2,3,0,4,2,0,2,5,0,0,0,6,3,9,2,16,14,1,24,0,0,1,0,9,7,0,2,14,63,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1481578005694409,0.35723950015435163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12851884691048948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34339364404447303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3469258252549661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16373166305418074,0.0,0.0,0.1396223976485577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08451002217109928,0.0,0.0,0.18309156879961644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2673511406890548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09185470358423016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14209479681950785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13340800032125555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16007205475675584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1680199083728747,0.0,0.0,0.16718328419238485,0.0,0.10707291737421368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.132914889178808,0.0,0.0,0.13318738980935907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11830117506093568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1575256381435759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.153878264657951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16421228970539622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.173996608925999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15493865078466254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1187300783221239,0.0,0.0,0.3228942813235945 alcoholism,georgiacrawl,2019/03/08,"7 days sober, feeling good. Next steps? I don’t really want to go cold turkey, but I definitely never want to go back to the place I have been in for the past 11 years. Any advice? P.s. I know 6 ain’t much, but to anyone on the first couple days, you can do it! I feel like I bucked a gorilla off of my back. So worth it.",-1.0050352112676073,0.823785450704225,1.831813380281691,97.73673415492958,88.85915492957747,5.240140845070423,13.100352112676056,6.6274283507984215,-0.880959154929577,241,3,62,3,8,84,53,71,0.0,0.7609999999999999,0.239,0.9277,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,1,3,2,0,0,4,0,6,0,0,0,1,8,13,3,0,2,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,2,3,3,0,0,1,1,3,8,2,9,12,1,16,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,10,37,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2275743051041635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15837102358127547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16283987938285152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3581511785603112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25768483667368003,0.0,0.3003854652169908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23550914724451102,0.16637439069049076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1980934100615897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2647098932894041,0.1953344153163784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1279885057166468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1137767366498098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17119860894898778,0.0,0.17961667254653094,0.0,0.2476777750381966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22231682131548305,0.0,0.0,0.2433171593932289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14919326025456092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2747253605675107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14997147654016094 alcoholism,Anaconornado,2019/03/08,"I want to quit drinking to lose weight. My drinking has caused me problems, but the main motivation that I have right now to stop drinking is to lose weight. I’m not obese, but I gained about 20 pounds in two months last year, and it has really hurt my confidence. I’ve been dieting ever since the January, as losing weight was my New Years resolution, and whenever I don’t drink, I usually do pretty well sticking to my goal calorie intake and when I’ve gone a week without drinking, I’ve lost several pounds. But when I drink, I usually end up binging on food and/or drinking lots of alcohol calories, and totally going over my calorie goal. ",6.9615679442508736,6.990844390243902,7.188060394889665,74.82439024390246,64.44715447154472,10.931010452961669,36.27061556329849,10.608840637214634,3.877007897793264,512,23,94,12,7,166,82,123,0.156,0.7090000000000001,0.135,-0.41700000000000004,0,0,8,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,9,6,7,0,0,3,0,8,14,0,2,2,17,13,10,0,2,5,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,4,14,1,1,7,0,2,3,6,1,1,4,3,13,1,13,9,3,21,0,5,0,0,0,5,0,1,14,56,15,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10709029201857784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10293969620424748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6871496640829803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08875323126937518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09064253163690104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12117011822068625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056949672920847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10727314906251577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08168168581188398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3363163823591466,0.10938725064628407,0.08519199740872338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07998388591320366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09678007862931667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10194605277103803,0.0,0.09588410366687976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1065819655864186,0.0,0.0,0.06419486078068808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08557581807350988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11320484165764012,0.0,0.08289186644025093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08377713523585853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0978872066179492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22072664300328554,0.0,0.05910440003946674,0.0,0.08037962364355793,0.3660736260586273,0.09009769318045832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09659550659432713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12905942320910635 alcoholism,davidk27,2019/03/08,"Cut my consumption in half and still have questions So I posted a few weeks ago saying I drank 6ish drinks a day on weekdays and more on the weekends. I have been verrrrry slowly tapering off (-1 drink every week and a half) after talking to my doctor about my drinking. Currently I'm at 3 beers a day and I drink one per hour so I dont get drunk. I am supposed to cut back to 2 drinks Monday. I am happy about my progress but very worried about the withdrawal that I may experience if I completely quit. So far I have had no symptoms of withdrawal at all and that is encouraging. Anyone do this kind of tapering before? Did you taper all the way to one drink a day and then quit? Did you have any withdrawal symptoms? What kind?",2.7027818756585877,4.681386643835616,4.065342465753428,85.91933087460484,76.39726027397259,7.232033719704952,25.61433087460485,8.139509932561175,1.6179900948366694,574,21,115,10,13,189,89,146,0.065,0.828,0.106,0.5818,1,0,7,0,0,0,13.0,0,2,0,3,8,6,2,0,8,0,14,12,0,0,2,12,17,12,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,4,6,9,0,1,9,0,0,2,2,0,4,5,1,16,4,16,11,4,23,0,0,0,0,6,7,0,3,14,81,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1037986021769419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07962934398842883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08187629578435354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09003965104387981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0996401322795797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12277300308019505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22655183692690384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11985279092506655,0.0,0.0,0.13723572366550355,0.6882574265469527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09865849051750072,0.0,0.0,0.11454242686270925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06117786437591605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12465094546215075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11531604318107105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2438750783940131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15869465698337226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11214566811522464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311743987304829,0.2490921712768536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0931194959174432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09351307392740253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24341530706460596,0.0,0.09411738671948132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09661652224745904,0.0,0.09294541115174328,0.18785481079869945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11891674454656302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,advicethrow1012,2019/06/17,Hard relapse Welp it happened again after doing good for a 3 or 4 months. Bye bye job. Bye bye cute girl from job who seemed interested in me. Feeling so much guilt for letting down co-workers and friends. So much anxiety from the stress. Trying to detox so I can have some sobriety before job searching. I really did it this time. No job and supposed to be finding a new place to live. Why do I do this.,0.2616666666666667,2.681982481481484,1.9017592592592607,93.4504166666667,94.55555555555556,4.675308641975309,21.564814814814817,6.42735559955562,0.5065629629629629,315,12,65,4,12,102,61,81,0.124,0.7240000000000001,0.152,0.5336,4,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,4,6,0,2,3,0,8,1,0,0,0,7,11,6,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,4,4,10,8,3,8,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,3,9,41,9,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13442514091233634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14952457948197628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0888491940650642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16060468375354794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357606562171873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14738540372711784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15538840977740453,0.0,0.15741039649689972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6974990196113587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1796853673010253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15516377373891022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14025784168388175,0.0,0.2583484948783817,0.0,0.0,0.1697112461036795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18358975663772667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1125705824054022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15996867645085272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20128639958829087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10246360933276144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11930218735415395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15855975840179984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12792608330584304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,nickkkk777,2019/06/17,"Bipolar disorder + alcoholism = bad combo Seems totally cliché, I’m your typical frenetic 20 something, partied hard for about 6 years (when I say hard I mean hard) Some days I’m on top of the world and I just want to go out and get totally fucked up to celebrate how awesome I feel, (this type of headspace also gets me into a lot of trouble because I tend to be very unpredictable and impulsive) Other days I’m so depressed I ruminate on suicide for hours, isolating myself from everyone because I feel so unwanted and pointless. This usually leads me to getting ridiculously fucked up as a means of counteracting negative feelings. The rest of my life falls in between these lines, while still consuming lots of beers in between because at this point not drinking on any given day is simply foreign to me. Medication seems to only exacerbate things, therapy also hasn’t proved effective for me. I’m an extremely privileged individual, so there is no other inherent cause for my mental health or substance abuse. I’m in university with no real motivation to complete my degree, I’m in a relationship that has been failing for a long time, my parents (successful and respected public figures) are just disappointed in me. I’m lucky to have an awesome social circle, but I feel like my friends fuel my alcohol problems and it’s going to be the death of me. I believe I’ve already made up the decision to kill myself, and that alcohol is simply my way of potentiating my death expeditiously. Sorry for the rant, I guess I’m just looking for any advice or encouragement. Anyways as always thanks reddit.",6.25234693877551,7.905164574829932,7.3693197278911615,67.16377551020409,66.51700680272108,10.77006802721088,37.12925170068028,10.813802987103665,4.697704761904761,1291,68,204,38,21,436,180,294,0.187,0.701,0.11199999999999999,-0.9732,2,0,6,0,1,2,30.0,0,1,0,6,14,18,4,0,11,0,10,11,0,6,3,45,40,20,4,3,7,1,7,1,1,0,7,1,0,0,10,10,5,0,13,2,0,4,5,10,0,0,3,9,27,8,46,35,6,33,0,3,1,2,8,17,2,9,12,138,37,5,0.0,0.12355133234972705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10189839206003856,0.0,0.3343215767391405,0.0,0.0,0.11507239183391538,0.16678074588507036,0.0867669149677471,0.0,0.0,0.14182403100778865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08706703719553108,0.19069908832139112,0.0,0.0,0.117484602310195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1071213238080189,0.0,0.0,0.1093325734185072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20175034187059027,0.0,0.08981372823696555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11951061044546565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10215187613304133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09964125417270152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2109025745122004,0.07449559335606863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08056424207039845,0.1928050290860957,0.16344146955739736,0.0,0.11852617753233854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11487300089089622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2802354446671008,0.0,0.0,0.1108416993551059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1026919554064407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11536718023044445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07365401171200311,0.050944532218378136,0.0,0.0,0.09228196730361207,0.08756651557651551,0.0,0.0,0.17730535209982898,0.0,0.09866952960036446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22717670100860016,0.0,0.10504822505976877,0.10508680788777787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07930744652983647,0.0,0.0,0.11578739827463905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09857558108745396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09977911821851357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186901885284523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1119545992403282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08292534896648276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18985994223024616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1062973890481571,0.0,0.08027761933184914,0.0,0.11672969540084555,0.0,0.0,0.08327584048815452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11406224134484448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09600435943599236,0.1192499713476082,0.0,0.0692770831570132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0608048256078351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11484651242460304,0.08603954246489519,0.061505345445590685,0.0827703219251185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06715104461075913 alcoholism,twozon,2019/06/17,"Pregabalin? Has anyone tried this? It's the generic name for Lyrica. For me, it lessens the temptations to drink. Before,, I could haul 18 beers a day. Now it's like.... meh, maybe I'll have one or two (and I actually do just have one or two) It doesn't even taste good. I have to sweeten it up by artificial sugar drops that dissolves in liquids. That's just my experience, though. I've heard that for some people react very different to it.",1.0397178683385562,3.5721725747126456,2.685350052246605,89.89692789968653,87.6206896551724,5.922257053291537,20.55276907001045,7.348242739294969,0.7531471264367817,342,11,71,6,11,112,63,87,0.051,0.9490000000000001,0.0,-0.4707,1,0,2,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,3,0,7,4,0,1,0,9,8,4,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,10,1,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,4,1,3,5,2,9,6,1,5,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,3,3,47,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.23768963147405345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17031012747654287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20726051988245547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19447119114474293,0.0,0.0,0.1570827952805331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2544792872025122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23860632052492234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16087599029190852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2382586453573844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20429534398556992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11899622252320803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24469926308055956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33009929188625137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16886108714458767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23930673823676585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16536835254645615,0.0,0.475865890442342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.200971136550238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,sciencenerd411,2019/06/17,"Advice? I apologize in advance as I don’t even know where to begin with this and not sure if there is advice that can be given. I have been dating this guy for 3 weeks. The first two weeks were great. We had a great connection and I was super excited to have met him. We saw each other every 2 days because we just really liked spending time together. Then I noticed every time we hung out he wanted to drink or he would drink. He would yell at me and he would argue then the next day he would apologize. At one time he told me he had a problem and I thought he was going to work on it, but he never did. I know combined with this he has history with past relationships that hurt him. I feel the alcohol amplified his pre-existing problems. Anyway this happened 3 times, but I kept forgiving him. Then I found out some things in my own life, but because he has his fair share of problems, I knew he couldn’t support me and provide the stability I needed. So, I ended things. We contemplated taking a break. I told him my thoughts and I had things going on, but he stated he wasn’t interested anymore. Then I blew up. I told him he had a problem. He called me crazy. I told him I wanted him to get better, but his behavior was affecting me and those around him. He insulted my friends. I felt like a punching bag. He has changed so much since I first met him. I still want to be with him and I miss him a lot already. I’ve never dated someone that turns angry when they drink. I was maybe more hurtful in being honest than I needed to be, but like I said I’m going thru my own things as well. Anyway, I’m sorry this is so long. I don’t know if this is the correct subreddit to post this. I thought if I gave him some space he would want to work on himself. From my understanding, they need to make the decision to get better on their own. I’ve never dated anyway that becomes angry when drinking and I’m looking for advice. He’s a great, funny guy when he’s sober. It’s been 2 days so I told him he had a problem. I deleted him off everything, because I also felt I needed space as well. Thank you so much in advance.",1.7079125315391082,3.672842245977012,3.4673451079338378,89.10058031959629,79.41379310344827,6.266890944771517,22.79366414353799,7.3138001815848295,0.8493420241098959,1647,53,347,22,41,550,194,435,0.106,0.733,0.161,0.9701,0,0,5,0,0,0,48.0,5,1,3,9,20,30,2,0,14,0,35,6,0,2,5,78,84,35,0,22,12,0,3,3,1,5,2,2,0,2,19,22,5,1,14,4,1,5,8,10,2,4,33,7,70,20,39,41,10,56,0,3,2,0,69,18,0,7,33,237,89,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2010177113619591,0.0,0.07328057866313496,0.0,0.0,0.07566880556129914,0.054835480650999635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06800310946784999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061041922758842376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12539908143853667,0.07573028327462017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12128935447807693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0700177341698925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07253806903936592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13266611693415675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2686903549893828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06073275198945741,0.0,0.0,0.045289901421834367,0.0,0.1155465258378386,0.0,0.0616263804700672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03467110061937019,0.0,0.131676089941936,0.0,0.0,0.11665137651997695,0.0,0.07518357052330008,0.05297708573935871,0.0,0.07165008961455417,0.0,0.1169098965270902,0.0,0.0,0.22679631730797975,0.0,0.13579035037220855,0.06063630905341773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14681141100921022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130529937816194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04843308635740538,0.10049965525373657,0.0,0.0,0.060682376801462476,0.0575816104561661,0.0,0.0,0.05829584316098916,0.0,0.0,0.04577107124629287,0.0,0.06888787744401821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10081382003568708,0.2033754280567384,0.15865645474003692,0.0,0.07292507454596282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07806750828222532,0.0,0.0,0.046464871364019805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0654579150864579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06567119702778593,0.0,0.0,0.32806160431825304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043927759057675625,0.0,0.0,0.07361862099674163,0.0,0.0,0.06522586327782086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05672189163659312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05809921945529725,0.0,0.0,0.07675860807051513,0.0,0.0,0.05476016689517281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07781253185669941,0.06462650357786999,0.0,0.05155617821247594,0.0,0.0,0.06313013131493889,0.0,0.0,0.18221969846000785,0.0,0.0,0.16331098957788606,0.1599350966041852,0.0,0.0,0.3276083241043725,0.0,0.0,0.07458457357795673,0.0669830197440938,0.07138388773924098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16177767582063068,0.0,0.11000558915841027,0.0,0.12330550170378092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0998396924769137,0.0,0.0,0.2435511425921636,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,AMiniMinotaur,2019/06/17,"I'm tired. I'm 26. I drink 2-4 times a week. It's hurting my wallet. I'm tired of not remembering what happened the night before. I'm tired of getting so drunk I go on some stupid rant that eventually targets my girlfriend. It's hurting my relationship. It's hurting my health. It's hurting me financially. I love drinking so much that I resort to buying the cheapest, strongest shit I can find to make my money stretch. I'm tired of hangovers. I'm tired of finding any excuse I can to drink. Good day at work? Let's celebrate it by having some drinks. Bad day at work? A drink will help me feel better! And it did at first. But not anymore. It's fine when I can go out in public and have just a couple beers because I can't afford to have more than that. But any chance I have. I keep drinking till I pass out or run out of alcohol. I've even resorted to stealing my girls wine sometimes. How to I channel my stress some where else? I would say I'm a intermediate alcoholic. It's affecting parts of my life but it's not completely ruined yet. My girl is still supporting me to cut back on drinking. I still go to work full time and always pay my bills. I even just got a new car that will force me to quit drinking a lot. I need to nip this in the butt before I get too out of control. I feel myself slowly slipping lower. I am posting this here so I can re read this whenever I'm wanting to drink. I don't expect many people to see this I just need to start holding myself accountable for what I do.",0.7227384755819273,2.9636372939297138,2.7136887266088583,91.53499680511185,85.00638977635779,5.366280237334551,22.04189867640347,6.742157984588678,0.54152366955728,1175,41,253,14,35,393,164,313,0.138,0.7859999999999999,0.077,-0.9058,2,0,13,0,0,0,34.0,0,0,0,7,17,16,3,1,9,0,18,24,2,4,0,37,44,13,0,5,10,0,2,0,1,3,9,1,0,2,19,7,14,3,5,14,5,6,5,11,0,1,2,4,39,5,35,38,8,36,0,5,1,2,9,14,2,5,15,156,58,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1524303807705797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05934068337357981,0.0,0.0,0.0969947464644365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07072637838613607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05483765586475591,0.05954593969851566,0.04347361442978755,0.0,0.1213694460366914,0.0,0.0,0.06307326860606477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07477354270412825,0.0,0.07998703679840521,0.0,0.07890987516433662,0.0,0.09198593082708538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6287633858934709,0.0,0.0,0.05957542552958274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09420718346845128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07211909574895801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303631922296478,0.06066141283521785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07451940637913501,0.0,0.12159169843208673,0.059816536071283975,0.057037976143558634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06306456530606498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0758056476764884,0.0,0.0,0.047801658541302285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3053813123456937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06338899992215491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07292551353690194,0.05037264941159403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06063037255218792,0.06436553767295641,0.0,0.04760403060149144,0.07230330162924871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052425517290255616,0.10575992474273282,0.0,0.06887750494654639,0.0,0.06692530074988877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07722835426891274,0.0,0.04944158350928401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06830108161823928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07585341906993877,0.07133536928842002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07656677004369504,0.08078720523954712,0.0,0.0,0.05671340139836524,0.0,0.0,0.05682967458444117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07320492116644292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0705334169225876,0.0,0.05047788151185433,0.0,0.11390621148425567,0.0,0.08169231740155393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08092863126916346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08316994802273461,0.4098366580813208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04206406590837226,0.0,0.05720544975289597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1557568453119644,0.0,0.0,0.05066089007442487,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,JumboSnausage,2019/06/17,"What now? I’ll preface this by saying I’m not an alcoholic this post isn’t for me so I am sorry if I don’t belong on this subreddit, I’m not sure if there’s another one for families? Basically: after 14 years of constant drinking every day and losing contact with family, except me, my badgering finally made a breakthrough in February and my mother stopped drinking cold turkey, the first few weeks were sketchy but she hasn’t touched a drop and I am seriously proud. My question is, what do we do now? She’s retired and her health/strength isn’t great so certain activities as a replacement aren’t going to work, I’m doing all I can on my end to keep her life stable and stress free as much as is possible, but obviously I can’t be a magician. To those who’ve beaten addiction, what have you filled your days with?",4.201666666666668,5.540395337423316,5.706273006134971,78.34484918200411,71.08588957055215,9.359713701431494,30.761247443762784,9.725611199111238,3.015826584867076,652,28,125,16,12,221,111,163,0.109,0.762,0.13,0.8591,1,0,3,0,0,0,16.0,1,2,0,5,5,9,1,1,6,0,17,5,0,1,4,23,23,14,0,2,7,1,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,7,8,3,2,1,2,1,2,8,4,0,2,2,3,18,6,17,20,3,19,0,1,0,0,11,3,0,3,12,86,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18697862655630956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18329929538083944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17985031743775604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1853487260860873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2212282908475118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3360423296572432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15191297406890011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14451029970123944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3233815449381081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.187888268439754,0.0,0.14589210068610858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09747694886058968,0.0,0.0,0.18909787520748786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1823143356953467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15245201070664352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1211473867208674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1918834245677788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1622933412887461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12608458144237078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11622422115603168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1933594187754034,0.16426568077941636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1921380671267154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1363970418812663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1919990129774656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14339572306978288,0.19647191251552468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616525522158601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375804295527113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1248662716364737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11045119445739704 alcoholism,Ooo3118,2019/06/17,"Need help with detox. Can't miss work. I drink maybe 10-12 drinks every night. I know that's not good, but I'm scared to quit. I know detox is the way to go, but I work in a place that wont allow me to miss work. Any advice is appreciated.",-1.0555555555555571,0.7289960370370387,1.2496296296296308,102.13333333333335,88.62962962962963,4.340740740740742,10.851851851851851,5.46131890053228,-1.799459259259259,182,1,50,1,6,61,40,54,0.141,0.6890000000000001,0.171,0.162,0,0,2,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,4,0,4,0,1,2,0,4,4,0,1,0,8,11,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,2,2,0,1,3,3,0,0,0,0,5,1,5,10,0,5,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,21,7,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2200809799078984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15315635059428476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4412569137605975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897563587237007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1279969034284913,0.1889026509951912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15095925998887574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475484720665149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22626232488074904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16699671583411113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2113523711108648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23530547019865836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23954767177231245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2254830781500705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1787680177115976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4918854036451465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,INeedSomeHelpPlease4,2019/06/17,"[SERIOUS] Heart Palpitations? Medical Questions Regarding Smoking and Drinking. I know not everyone is a doctor, but I have a serious question. I have high blood pressure. I'm 39. I drink 7 500ml cans a night and smoke a pack and a half a day. My doctor made me do an echo cardiogram, heart stress test and ultrasound to test for aortic aneurysm. Everything check out. I do have anxiety and have had for years. Recently I've been having palpitations everytime after I eat or smoke too much. They seem to last quite often, but my doctor always attributes it to anxiety. When I did the stress test, the doctor said there was an increase in blood pressure and a mild disfunction in (something that he didn't seem worried about, because he said my stress test was normal). &#x200B; I know you guys aren't doctors, but what could this be? My doctor doesn't seem worried but I am lol I sometimes feel my pulse and it feels like my heart will pause/skip a beat, and then beat harder on the next one. Sometimes I feel like a fluttering feeling in my solar plex. And for the first time last night it felt like my heart beat was made 4 quick hard beats like DU DU DU DU .. but I mean .. I'm not sure if it's acid reflux/anxiety.... ... this is what prompted me to get more worried. &#x200B; Anyone ever been through this?",2.917888446215141,5.380727992031872,3.5104605577689263,87.77667091633468,77.84462151394422,6.725163346613545,25.577848605577692,7.839951260653429,1.5499828207171316,1030,39,198,17,25,323,139,251,0.102,0.785,0.11199999999999999,0.5637,0,0,5,0,0,0,49.0,0,1,1,6,7,12,0,5,15,1,24,16,6,3,2,40,42,18,0,3,9,0,6,4,0,1,7,2,0,1,10,10,3,0,13,2,1,1,5,7,0,3,13,9,24,5,15,26,3,22,0,0,0,0,9,6,0,8,19,118,34,10,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06410812788402476,0.16695779428660315,0.18723772286715407,0.0,0.0,0.17681906538323408,0.0,0.0,0.053872088944304834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046966294875641135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06151465835698736,0.0,0.0,0.04968805111215977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4731567409896598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15095075216548542,0.0,0.07883690377925857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06969217428726851,0.0,0.07362039168273571,0.0692436353776868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15582632185233336,0.11008281272746408,0.07397587762214526,0.0,0.0,0.06553496506238776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04025315653949977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07628727695234779,0.0,0.0,0.0690177422697469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3651977229147407,0.0,0.08140292768913306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08468451573345946,0.12560492697806006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1505623929425922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458048571676899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0839252669404223,0.0,0.07761535659790131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056637395725143085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08193889099496827,0.1446041904216062,0.0754883493225919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05220810610748173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17261745436643725,0.08194750066429513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07607325495421308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14657605588885733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21041831660848906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05931348242892207,0.15240017657712732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2647664923986815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07261458510701206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0449259206401646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2347307011562627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18723772286715407,0.0496148532773422 alcoholism,srslame,2019/06/17,"Someone So, today is my first step in becoming sober. As I have had a run in with the law recently. I could use someone to talk to that has been through this and could provide some insight. I had a relapse the other day, was awful. But I'm taking it day by day Thank you , srslame",0.9440229885057472,3.0358190344827563,2.624827586206898,93.46126436781613,82.79310344827587,5.2459770114942526,25.18390804597701,6.42735559955562,0.7712666666666674,216,9,47,2,6,71,46,58,0.054000000000000006,0.9009999999999999,0.045,-0.128,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,4,1,9,0,0,1,0,9,13,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,4,0,5,1,8,7,1,10,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,6,35,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27796715985347403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4019012161825263,0.0,0.0,0.4869495020803009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21408378803148514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2485093350241194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4265050736210568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18923637692801665,0.2022954888462793,0.0,0.23171844266257224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2385686818321427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21737569643295493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,TheeAltster,2019/06/17,"What do I do to best help my fiancé and her drinking problem? We live in Wisconsin, specifically she lives in Jefferson co and I in Milwaukee co. Sorry if there are typing errors, bawling my eyes out as I type this. I love this girl with all my heart. I’ve known her since college. She was the sweetest woman in the world, so kind, gentle, and pure. She is the most loving woman in the world, most beautiful, most caring... she’s literally perfect. I couldn’t have asked for anyone better. She went through a divorce, the relationship was abusive. Then she started drinking. She’s had a rough past with her family (father was in an extremist cult for seven years and was an alcoholic, her mother suffers from ptsd I believe. A consistently tense household to say the least) and has been through other abusive relationships. She drinks to feel normal, to not feel pain, to become a “better person” (she thinks it makes her better, it doesn’t). She wants to stop, but doesn’t know how. She has expressed interest in going to a treatment center, she’s just concerned about finances (her state insurance goes into effect July first, she’s currently uninsured otherwise). She got her second dui a month and a half ago, and is still nervous about going to jail or not (Jefferson co, wi, and she can’t get a hold of a public defender). We were supposed to move to Georgia and start a life... She showed up to my mothers house today. She seems to have been doing a good job at sobriety. However, she was clearly intoxicated. I’m not sure when she drank, all I know is she appeared drunk and drove 50 minutes to get to my house. I’m not sure what or when she drank, nor how much, because I couldn’t get a clear story from her. My parents (I currently live with them, used to live with her but finances and a major episode between our families forced us to separate) know she has been drinking today. They are being nice, as she is still here, but I know I’m going to get a major talking to with them trying to convince me to leave her. I’m in pain, but I believe in her, I’m not ready to leave yet. Her parents are extremely religious and believe that I am possessed by the devil (they tried to pray my bipolar disorder out of me one night and I had a horrific flashback where I threw a chair and started muttering under my breath. I have a history of being abused, and this incident is the previously mentioned incident that split us up from living together) and want me nowhere near their daughter, she has been lying to come and see me. They think you can pray alcoholism away and refuse to support her with formal treatment, unless they threaten it as a way to punish her for wanting to leave the house. I’m so lost. I want to take her pain away, but I know I can’t. What do I do? Please help me...",3.9332919896640814,5.6674570148148185,4.800637381567615,83.01182170542639,72.37037037037038,7.615848406546083,28.11369509043929,8.283103749626381,1.9894431524547804,2188,84,414,35,43,709,262,540,0.131,0.742,0.127,-0.6092,7,0,6,0,2,0,82.0,5,1,7,8,15,25,1,1,29,0,42,20,3,5,8,84,90,38,0,9,15,6,3,0,0,0,8,1,0,4,12,30,9,3,12,6,2,9,12,9,0,5,19,6,84,16,71,67,10,54,3,2,2,2,76,23,0,8,20,297,96,6,0.0,0.2484892401029448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061969372233097335,0.1494211406780078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04888141597397056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0653546994523656,0.0,0.13136204869988713,0.0,0.0,0.04261536988004765,0.0772080783012086,0.0,0.2362876951356609,0.07336430851807063,0.1854842786673845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07127603562741447,0.0,0.0,0.06021969597759765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08012081620663701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27393355827776483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13180639679621894,0.0,0.07069533971508421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05946385133433477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1460965281006169,0.0,0.11919126741567107,0.05863565390308026,0.055911947567479116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08284151476378504,0.09371594178843116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24199391680413845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06937306896989627,0.0,0.0,0.07279859841278087,0.1920985022690075,0.0,0.0,0.22206796546633767,0.0,0.0,0.04937820594558589,0.0,0.0,0.3086509622111448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07631302267979366,0.0,0.1261897006466404,0.0,0.04666424447270368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055800032121199376,0.0743013182824978,0.051390546651816416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06560407923744557,0.0684951609773451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04737158335351308,0.0,0.22316165647909936,0.0,0.15524949327307214,0.0,0.06673525589627413,0.0,0.061041115142653736,0.0,0.0767381745913416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06689267473613801,0.08171890645829973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15011041841034065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05559378049070021,0.0,0.0,0.05570775824241809,0.06364176988022999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0578287583447933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0782564697494833,0.1484440817450156,0.0,0.11165750530994456,0.05844635808587621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0793309597248099,0.13177524057263734,0.0,0.052562241579174565,0.05618953674620423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08958866158747945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13252953677565155,0.0,0.0,0.09492611331486303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16818183522728933,0.06037821086427012,0.0,0.0,0.1649345931646978,0.05548984919086075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06480557140336647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045018567667658035 alcoholism,walk49,2019/08/23,"My (25F) boyfriend (27M) convinces me that I am overreacting every time. He over did it again. We were out to a nice dinner this past Tuesday and my boyfriend kept ordering shots for him and his friend. I kept giving him a glare, hoping he would realize that shots were not appropriate for this type of evening, but of course that didn’t stop him. He does this at least twice a month. He takes his drinking too far, but I don’t think he realizes it’s a problem because it only happens a couple times a month. He has even admitted that he doesn’t know when to stop drinking, but he laughs when he says it like it’s funny -__- He thinks I’m overreacting when I suggest he has a drinking problem. The problem is I usually end up thinking that I actually am overreacting (ugh, denial?) My father was an extreme alcoholic who recently passed away from the disease. Maybe since my dad was an extreme alcoholic that I can’t accept that someone can have a problem when it only happens a few times a month, idk. Anyways, what do I do? I’ve tried talking to him but he never listens to what I say because he doesn’t believe he has a problem... then I usually give up and the cycle continues.. it’s exhausting. I grew up with an alcoholic and I can’t keep living my life this way. I’m sick of my life revolving around people choosing alcohol over me. It’s just not fucking fair.",3.174898550724638,5.067538718518519,4.459371980676328,83.99978260869568,74.77777777777777,7.510466988727861,29.51690821256039,8.321376580360154,2.2118937198067643,1074,48,210,19,23,354,140,270,0.11900000000000001,0.7879999999999999,0.09300000000000001,-0.8714,0,0,7,0,0,0,35.0,1,0,0,0,11,15,1,0,17,0,22,13,0,0,1,37,40,13,0,7,7,2,0,1,1,1,8,3,0,0,22,8,8,5,9,3,0,2,9,8,0,1,8,3,27,7,20,31,2,36,0,0,0,1,33,10,1,1,23,133,49,1,0.0,0.0,0.09437184165204142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4134004379050769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08608951395933807,0.0,0.0,0.09085917864471596,0.0,0.0,0.1179030791088819,0.0,0.0,0.10895539524218582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10700418375608987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08462873199966757,0.0,0.0,0.284207406416198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0856534798361677,0.0,0.0,0.12774779772504002,0.0,0.08147961105655603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07471539814205656,0.0894038356332494,0.0,0.18553986063802685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17103492612184354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0960516271475725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08595740623919478,0.0,0.0,0.05314750282227326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13661368042197464,0.04724603508999568,0.0,0.08539383540972431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09715493252523563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23157122488842394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07458621036039226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14709968817006433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0923175391582579,0.06704428661180438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4626765145661788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0954862526486904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1538101843913765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0799968261343993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08193931872172099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16170235294030486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07271144359996635,0.07772922556728652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18589734908096311,0.0,0.0,0.1691714576155727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06565753787403515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2130176535027241,0.0,0.0,0.07676131988652665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0686977032910175,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,cmrrdde,2019/08/23,"Addiction I’m finding myself more addicted to buying and keeping beer at home than I am to drinking it. (Not that I’m not addicted to drinking it!) All I can think about it making sure I have enough at home, even if I drink just two I’ll assess how much I might need the next day and buy more because I might want more than 4... any words of encouragement? The weekend is a hard time to quit...",3.0551851851851843,4.147725320987654,4.242901234567904,88.68805555555558,73.56790123456791,7.375308641975309,25.84567901234568,7.793537801064563,1.234175308641975,305,10,67,4,6,100,56,81,0.019,0.889,0.092,0.6763,0,0,4,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,3,0,6,7,0,2,2,18,13,4,0,3,4,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,2,0,4,2,4,1,2,5,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,7,2,10,11,6,6,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,3,4,45,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5185318358285358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10782008717122417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0966511912928503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10225225016634268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4659587283383764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1638255211138652,0.0,0.10472141125136283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1449127015891864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14203051418845578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3180790730800157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14092737486167667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1058339944429123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3363950178918646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1165531959260165,0.11756352504271488,0.0,0.0,0.16862074065770294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16863845835928618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14943239986062395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10159305073656004,0.0,0.0,0.09245233760289644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1548812458685916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0935174618901596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,LaFan323,2019/08/23,"Worse withdrawal ever I am so mad I had been sober for a month and for these past 6 days I was drinking day and night beer and hard liquor because I got fired so I was feeling depressed . So yesterday I was feeling average in the morning just really turned on. I was masturbating every 15 mins literally I was so turned on So I thought hmm this ain't normal? All day I couldn't eat nothing I tried to drink electrolyte drinks and water . I even forced some mashed potato down because my mom had made chicken n mashed potato but my body wasn't having the chicken . So I was only able to eat the potato. Then around 7 pm I felt it my chest getting tight and kinda having a hard time breathing and started sweating . I felt it before but before I would just breath n lay down and it would go away . This time it was different it was TERRIBLE Everything that happen So around 10 pm I told my mom to come sleep with me because I was scared to sleep alone , kinda dumb for a 27 year old male to have to ask his mom that !.. so around 11 it kicked in hard core and stronger than ever ! I literally had like 2 seizures and my mom was screaming and terrified . And I was hallucinating so bad and hearing and even feeling things . Which to me sounds like delirium tremens I looked it up and i had all the symptoms. Like it got to a point where I couldn't tell what was real and what was not . When I was having that seizure attack thing while it was happening it was like I saw my mom next to me but her face was different and she was laying down then I saw hands coming from under her and they were grabbing me a lot of hands were coming from under her and grabbing me . And everything looked gray like if I were in another world like in silent Hill , nothing looked normal . I honestly at one point I tought I had died . Then I was able to snap out of that place and my mom was crying about to call 911 . So I told her not to (stupid I know ) but I said I can make it Tru da nite . Then after wards I just like was closing my eyes and I was back in that creepy place again I was like switching back n forth between that place and reality . Then I heard what sounded like my mom's voice but she was whispering in my ear things like you are so stupid and laughing I know for a fact that wasn't my mom . At this point I already knew for a fact I was also hearing things . Then I felt someone touching my neck and my ear and pinching it and it hurt . Everything was so realistic. I am TERRIFIED I feel that things continue like this I will go to the ER now. This morning after being able to sleep a little bit I woke up and still feel my body kinda numb from my rite side and kinda twitching still a little rite now . Still having a hard time eating but I managed to eat some eggs n ham . Now even more I wanna be sober but I'm afraid i can't do it , I tried so many times before and always fall back . But after what happened last nite which is the worse thing that has happened to me it scared me away this my first time all this happens . I don't want to ever go thru that nightmare again and I really don't wish that on anybody ..",1.5930594802023348,3.703182326530612,2.7282155939298818,93.5116256759114,80.52276295133439,5.6143031571603,20.94313622885052,6.7277918919703765,0.2591884528170243,2430,69,530,25,63,776,261,637,0.14800000000000002,0.777,0.075,-0.9946,2,1,4,0,0,0,38.0,0,1,1,1,40,27,5,3,16,0,60,30,16,2,8,93,107,61,1,10,14,8,19,11,0,3,3,11,0,1,46,39,11,1,12,5,0,7,10,14,1,2,52,37,85,13,60,48,8,88,2,2,7,0,27,36,1,8,56,360,131,1,0.1492369449801488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051521489163903485,0.05489555993243922,0.03978157699426728,0.0413923644486286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0521626496735419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13285252110203227,0.0465054660165698,0.056592856486604476,0.0934753482591138,0.11475399884287782,0.04153553847568933,0.09097345649265498,0.0,0.12698964835773074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05430936396281608,0.1105124018746462,0.0,0.0,0.0507958688384897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.128554413758212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0546432588112077,0.09624548344777592,0.0,0.04284585401078818,0.0,0.05162812913813383,0.10394722935977914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14619539098221093,0.0,0.2036088690118004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.098569594672239,0.1349933607108879,0.04191285422747794,0.0,0.13412454329439505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12576447241739638,0.0,0.1432908706591331,0.0,0.0,0.04231362305412864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0259900480747913,0.0,0.08481479499896524,0.0,0.07957227863666701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21994956263894344,0.0,0.17824931943849676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11213392213561084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0532537453977204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05467781471853693,0.04054934284951109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2673353212494699,0.09971641654819433,0.0,0.0,0.1253214474982879,0.0,0.0,0.04229197128615565,0.0,0.04707053524619602,0.03320560653937296,0.0504342795150463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.46609201673885203,0.03970650189321636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052905061347538584,0.04668292109198804,0.0974803467179314,0.09546458243407774,0.0,0.05219968980013436,0.0,0.03370893873368068,0.03783380717723301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04748785016528645,0.0,0.0,0.1559208440396687,0.0,0.14107715064978227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05662143850420798,0.06373667225643942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04731950319755023,0.0,0.09960814434711776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14934472211702596,0.0,0.04214932639649627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03521022592509657,0.0,0.11918081703836753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05170477588001343,0.0,0.0,0.04347988926575525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19829278994457455,0.0,0.0,0.039492488128573366,0.1450354379160754,0.0,0.0,0.09506819755820543,0.0,0.0675480596474478,0.1082179611139048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029341272248402862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057205040553117724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1013901310691135,0.07067576259784494,0.0,0.0,0.03203456654725903 alcoholism,Chriistiinee,2019/08/23,"What moment made you quit drinking? Coming to the realization I’m heading down a slippery slope with alcohol. Without going into specifics I’m not liking the person I’m turning into but I am having a hard time stopping. I use it as a tool to socialize. My friend group is small and despite the fact that I’m active (CrossFit, outdoorsy, etc.) I don’t have any friends who would rather join me in those activities over drinking...I don’t know. I’m rambling. I just need motivation to stop.",1.6266612111292993,4.377361404255319,3.172553191489364,85.19576923076926,89.2127659574468,5.019967266775779,26.379705400981997,6.67199483983844,1.446537806873978,388,18,69,5,13,127,71,94,0.083,0.73,0.187,0.9181,0,0,3,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,2,2,3,0,0,6,0,7,3,1,3,1,19,19,3,0,3,5,0,1,1,2,1,1,0,0,1,5,5,2,2,2,1,0,2,4,0,0,0,1,1,7,3,11,17,1,12,0,0,0,0,7,6,0,0,5,42,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2358404896891568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15007040189630905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19009682999132801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21618301210047547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461172466376169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3409946283451005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12541789265977418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19768650633672996,0.0,0.2264820018512332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12128030782820645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10781341314451304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2088133563378024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16363189749132068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1926898218162846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2347210235599433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22495612036452692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36899779104817454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286806551944878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24003716505491024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19059721739737004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21272826086818636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15676519421969382,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Awesom_O5000,2019/08/23,"It's been 1 week today since my last drink. My wife is leaving in a couple hours to separate for two weeks because of my alcoholism. I am not going to turn to alcohol after she leaves. It's just going to be really rough. I have been drinking heavily for five years. It's been rough on her. I hope when she returns she wants to work it out. However, it's probably too little too late. I've most likely ruined my life because of it. To anyone who needs it, seek help before it's too late.",1.3407920792079224,3.391974019801985,3.5371188118811894,87.69241089108914,81.07920792079209,6.812277227722772,20.991089108910888,7.908726449838941,1.0096605940594054,380,11,79,7,10,130,67,101,0.035,0.9059999999999999,0.057999999999999996,0.3008,1,0,4,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,5,3,0,0,1,0,7,5,0,0,0,7,13,1,0,3,2,1,2,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,9,1,4,0,0,2,0,2,1,1,0,2,3,2,11,2,14,9,1,17,0,1,0,0,7,4,0,2,12,51,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34802181553822303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11385135367156365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1985137889884944,0.0,0.13855248129351336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18016328424659706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3190139422577202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1850749324764457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1091384795287024,0.0,0.0,0.16172242987790084,0.160350288083286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13272448910468515,0.3673484419882146,0.3448173226527875,0.0,0.0,0.11500844394057265,0.07954829942767681,0.16319389553151095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12073302196741514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17555339475959034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10431016470308446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13469091039028774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15433950574803254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17710735355316468,0.1590568235598516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09603868016563187,0.0,0.2612175391944701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11853888053449943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10485426346992592 alcoholism,Mercurius7870,2019/08/23,"Totally Spent. I have no support and wish I had someone to talk to I have a loved one who is an alcoholic. For so long their illness has strained me to the point I can no longer function. I sit here in tears at a total loss. I am unable to attend any local support group as this person can get violent with me and freaks out if I were to talk to anyone. I always have to explain where I'm going and what I am doing so I can't get a chance to take any action for my own health. I am considering leaving until this person can clean up. Its like I'm the bad one, though! As if I am wrong for feeling this way or wishing I could get help? I feel trapped and completely burned out. I just don't know what to do anymore. I feel so alone. My loved one is so dear to me but I'm loosing my own battle. I just want them to succeed and get better.",0.40805402087169895,2.2423601215469624,2.5438213627992643,94.73468845917743,83.14364640883977,5.12719459791283,20.552793124616326,6.139981653823899,-0.00763376304481289,646,19,150,5,18,218,104,181,0.147,0.688,0.165,0.6619,0,2,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,2,3,9,15,2,1,6,0,20,5,0,0,2,25,42,17,0,6,6,0,3,1,0,0,3,0,1,2,7,8,1,0,5,0,1,3,4,7,0,3,3,3,25,8,23,38,4,15,0,1,0,2,12,8,0,3,3,108,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15229559722168245,0.0,0.1475932598215274,0.0,0.0,0.11857642509630703,0.0,0.0,0.1938179615571507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14132767997024173,0.09964352306531447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11898657475848864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12603499463196546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14941485135624755,0.0,0.0,0.11377946166495187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21616597759549425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2978140562725949,0.0,0.0809894555853416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15147723606415736,0.0,0.0,0.09551878174064976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07831758209233147,0.0,0.0,0.15089329961851272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06962124343022225,0.0,0.0,0.126113343868272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2572344948780598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2896973030224698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488615210282942,0.0,0.0,0.1347142515264758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12074488884337035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3234282869114085,0.0,0.0,0.10714679243228313,0.2290818827253766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400114417415642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08405374318036488,0.11311464607908794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3277497817113806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15580796260589186,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,H0dl3rr,2019/08/23,"I went to my first AA meeting today. It was scary to walk in the door, but I am so inspired and proud of myself. What a transformative experience... You've got to go. :)",0.4132352941176478,2.6813123823529423,2.995588235294118,88.72514705882355,86.94117647058823,5.752941176470588,20.264705882352946,7.1686216300943375,0.5173764705882355,127,4,28,2,4,44,31,34,0.048,0.623,0.32799999999999996,0.9339,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,5,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,3,0,4,2,5,2,0,6,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,19,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4662887968242442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4054674941337677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27091072103585145,0.0,0.381248048412806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4518410594783045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4418912003376701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,sharpieultrafine,2019/04/07,"jellinek’s curve went to an IOP group once that had a one time fill in who went over jellinek’s curve line by line. stuck with more for a long time. where are you? https://www.in.gov/judiciary/ijlap/files/jellinek.pdf",6.750833333333333,10.474304638888887,2.9977777777777814,89.60000000000002,72.05555555555556,4.711111111111111,17.333333333333336,5.985473137389443,-0.9310333333333332,181,3,35,1,4,46,29,36,0.061,0.9390000000000001,0.0,-0.25,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,0,6,1,1,9,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,3,17,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3304065123159334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3976097902427795,0.252994310734122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43541140155725705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6922057363619761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,KatTheFat,2019/04/07,"Last night I trapped my cat in my room I found out yesterday that an old friend had killed herself and I didn't cope with it well, I just drank myself into oblivion. I ended up passing out but before that at some point I'd let my cat into my room and closed the door, planning to let him out when he wanted to. Well I passed out before I got the chance to let him out, and came round about 5 hours later and he was frantically scratching and meowing at the door to get out, and even then it took me a good 10 minutes or so to realise what was going on. I feel so guilty, he must have been so scared and was probably desperate for the toilet. I guess I'm overreacting but I love my cat and I feel like it just adds to the evidence that I'm a bad person who can't take responsibility for their actions. 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If you can give me some insight, that'd be awesome. Thanks. &#x200B; For those of you who are/were alcoholics, can you describe your food intake/diet when you were drinking? &#x200B; If you're sober now, can you tell me what, if anything, has changed about your diet?",2.9912939521800297,5.836467088607595,3.2181434599156127,87.6242897327708,80.64556962025316,5.536427566807316,26.499296765119553,6.937597516519254,1.4287203938115338,336,14,59,4,9,103,53,79,0.027000000000000003,0.772,0.201,0.9397,0,0,4,0,0,0,21.0,0,7,0,1,6,4,0,0,1,0,8,8,0,0,0,9,14,7,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,2,8,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,11,4,7,11,1,2,0,0,0,0,11,0,0,5,2,39,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4801847782330452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3245575696825943,0.3639807326535988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12325026706897158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13246188563779238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30540673790227657,0.0,0.15843978141075055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14672034173046314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3622117700838741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1436757336870847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16777983236228716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1309080437204183,0.13789068744775526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10168591152004082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3639807326535988,0.0 alcoholism,throwawayster420,2019/04/07,"Question about being sober AND happy. I've been cutting back on drinking and feel bored, not content. It's like I'm just looking forward to a beer...and waiting for a buzz. For those of you who have become sober or cut daily drinking out of your life, did you go through something similar in the beginning? How long did it take for you to be happy with being sober?",4.6099999999999985,5.663927777777778,4.939888888888888,85.294,69.83333333333333,6.871111111111111,31.06666666666667,6.742157984588678,1.7339300000000013,288,12,55,2,5,91,55,72,0.10800000000000001,0.794,0.098,0.4497,0,0,4,0,0,0,10.0,0,4,0,0,4,6,2,0,3,0,7,3,0,1,0,11,14,4,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,4,2,1,2,2,0,2,1,3,0,0,3,2,4,3,13,8,0,8,0,0,1,0,6,4,0,2,5,38,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.195944214222092,0.0,0.0,0.28143350052858546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4992617476995008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12884686010092178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14482256416384146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5425305690871438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17998999139537075,0.12449431745118035,0.0,0.0,0.22551155211845955,0.21398829498612496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2854616181572478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19617625268367628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1915962159496553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,BestWestEnder,2019/04/07,"Relapse support Hey guys, I had a relapse last night. I was 2 months sober before this. I’m feeling hung over and miserable and disappointed in myself right now but I want to get back on track with my goals. Any words of encouragement or tips on how to stay motivated after a relapse? 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Fuck me I want a drink, Only thing that satisfies me is if I chug a shit load of water to get that feeling I felt when I chugged cheap boxed wine",3.213750000000001,5.007999541666671,3.84,88.905,74.41666666666666,5.633333333333334,26.583333333333336,5.985473137389443,0.9053583333333328,190,7,37,1,4,60,37,48,0.14,0.6890000000000001,0.172,-0.3353,0,0,2,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,1,0,1,3,2,0,2,0,1,8,2,0,0,6,8,2,0,2,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,5,0,3,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,4,7,1,4,7,1,2,0,0,0,1,2,1,2,1,1,22,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3632684865689316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.375001722713134,0.0,0.3560512911779936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3428228328756567,0.3874827530424144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2820300239715471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3806477502720476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2463604400136722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21872289185193108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ionlypackhogs,2019/04/07,"Anyone in the same boat or knows someone who is? I started drinking everyday when I dropped out of high school to do construction at 16 it started as quitting smoking weed and a 6 pack a day i just recently turned 21 and I’m up to 6-10 beers a night and a glass of whiskey it’s been like that since right before I turned 18 in this 5 year span I’ve went 1 full day without drinking. I don’t go to the bar or go out I just drink from the time I get off work until I go to sleep, was just wondering if anyone was in the same boat or is still currently drinking that much everyday if they are suffering any severe problems or have been able to go back to 2-4 beers a day thanks.",4.792945205479455,3.922639767123286,5.671335616438356,86.90714041095892,69.13698630136986,9.217808219178082,31.263698630136986,8.472884824447931,2.014756164383561,530,19,124,7,8,175,92,146,0.063,0.8959999999999999,0.040999999999999995,-0.4588,1,0,7,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,2,6,4,0,0,9,0,10,9,1,0,0,20,24,12,0,3,10,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,5,8,0,2,8,0,5,2,2,0,0,5,0,9,2,20,19,4,34,0,1,0,0,2,12,0,7,17,73,15,2,0.13700370490845698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09316721739497633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1915923519335969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10534739234059184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11658006207742674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2650681668967061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5368458918203554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07157878119527895,0.0,0.3114494510043788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1447519362611452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0752936532612702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06693308989383262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10071348695604247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12856869617109076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1310940428428913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14572030428951924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13527463034698836,0.0,0.0,0.11700041541629655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13865506364608088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15477518999236986,0.0,0.11333088045749785,0.0,0.13710264734565686,0.0,0.11608279457510888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1939438549768103,0.0,0.10941133571479407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12613460445144642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07988796208673107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2980413786723478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12700380703152409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1320666825431418,0.14857467378644598,0.09974032887960696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08822589411813814 alcoholism,nhanonymousadvice,2019/04/07,"Day One So today is day one of my husband getting sober. He’s a Marine and has been drinking for 20 years, heavily in the past 10, and most heavily in the past 4-5 months. He’s 39 and I’m 29. We have a 9 year old, who is my stepson. It finally got to a point that I was able to bring him to the ER yesterday afternoon to start the journey of getting clean and detoxing. I am super proud of him. His liver is enlarged, assumption is because of years of abuse, but as he gets clean they assume it will go back to normal. His nutrients were all fucked up, of course due to the abuse, so they threw him on an IV and Ativan, and honestly it was amazing how much better he looked in a matter of a few hours. They gave us some medication for him to take through the detox. We are at home now, the Ativan just wore off so he took his first pill of the other stuff. I’m up just making sure he can (somewhat) comfortably go back to sleep. My mom and my stepsons mom went to the hospital with us in show of support. My mom came by our house before she went home to take all alcohol/reminders of alcohol away. Thanks mom.☺️ I had a break down in the parking lot from the stress of everything, called her and she was by my side in 5 minutes. I know I need a support system, too, while going through this and I don’t have words to express my gratefulness in her being that for me. I’m lucky, he was never was abusive or angry as a drunk, but used it to numb or ignore his demons from being in the service. Going forward, we have contacted a few local resources because now he’s going to have to face his PTSD and start working through this stuff. That is where I’m mostly worried, I know he was dealt a dirty hand in what he had to do, and those scars are extremely deep. I don’t really know the purpose of this post, it’s 3am and I’m sandwiched between him and my dog snoring while I watch a random TV movie. I guess the biggest thing is I’m just so proud of him. He needs to be here for me, our son, even our dog. And the fact that he’s finally at this point, I’m truly grateful and even excited. The weight that has been on my shoulders as well has been extremely heavy, and I feel a lot of it has been lifted with this first step. I know going through the next couple of weeks is going to be tough, I don’t know what to expect. But I hope we’re on the upswing, even though I know there are going to be some shitty days ahead. Meetings are going to be a daily thing for awhile, or permanently, luckily we have them close by and easily accessible. Other than substance abuse counseling and meetings, are there are other things I/we can do? What helps? I’ve dealt with opiate addicts, but never alcohol personally. We live in NH, and this isn’t an easy place considering we have like the highest drinking per capita or something like that. Finding sober activities, sober friends, won’t be easy. I just want to make sure he’s surrounded by a group of people who continue to support his sobriety. Thanks for reading. Hoping you all have a decent night.",3.7966307156499255,4.6283638486312455,4.844580009736736,86.05187394674758,71.54428341384863,7.902348050780812,27.16327753435944,8.133680483312611,1.5745260907014194,2374,79,502,33,43,779,285,621,0.07400000000000001,0.738,0.188,0.9976,0,0,6,0,3,0,71.0,11,1,4,8,23,27,1,1,36,0,55,20,5,4,8,83,110,38,0,7,12,5,3,2,1,2,9,0,4,1,32,30,7,1,9,6,0,18,7,5,2,4,21,5,59,22,83,80,13,85,1,0,2,1,62,31,1,17,37,336,91,3,0.06580697921293067,0.3118820381217953,0.0,0.07173932081704923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21098294279488133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0618278232038373,0.10120300998467144,0.0,0.08023064745980879,0.0,0.0559968923971619,0.0,0.0,0.05820092536639512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06719628343776175,0.0752656530402972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0728141708303589,0.0,0.12732017255034414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1289315733000612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13039466738921512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05914306965806716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03327398596854557,0.0,0.0,0.14417665821606748,0.06014638680667015,0.11195076580201584,0.0,0.0,0.05084230889864026,0.060837491882818624,0.10314429166755776,0.0,0.3365966052822562,0.0,0.05263185285853859,0.0,0.07249380674748075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044109031014839886,0.0,0.1320195314473754,0.13072235761546547,0.06480661871823189,0.0759324185975653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2169947686454498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06429993200904703,0.0,0.058108768284766625,0.0,0.055261288627633166,0.0,0.0,0.1118934808939747,0.0,0.0,0.08785333924839872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0662936083116835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3082893548336155,0.052526502972557884,0.0,0.04837570156957805,0.0975900824983644,0.10150879848119207,0.0,0.0699864689568538,0.06175539210430728,0.06447686748401492,0.0,0.0,0.06905335475855126,0.0,0.08918502442538004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12564041574729864,0.04562227351483005,0.05746011595521521,0.06875428697596253,0.0,0.12441773210332913,0.0,0.06302489535677837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07692483713401488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06582478751609136,0.0,0.04215763596781083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06585450422630486,0.0,0.0,0.050661427636231514,0.0,0.0,0.09315703718715104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07538167234983807,0.0,0.1506664940339399,0.0,0.22403094048854447,0.12404459822915585,0.0,0.09895731717702368,0.0,0.0,0.12117245002554948,0.0,0.0,0.13115769866194066,0.0,0.06465502295642127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062377321685745585,0.0,0.0731139752583485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15831538678703136,0.05683610119706225,0.0,0.0,0.038814661339826265,0.0,0.05278638930881772,0.08013517217793033,0.05916837741291477,0.12200745804459852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047908264624353256,0.06683018173751834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12713261113968935 alcoholism,hafcaffrenchpressed,2019/04/07,"How have we not lost it all? Is anyone else not sometimes struck by awe and wonder that they have not lost everything... yet? The only way that makes sense for me to quit at this point is to promise myself nothing less than an amazing life after. Probably just to trick myself to make the change, but I want to dream and have hope again, like when I was younger. The cost of a drink is so much more than the best happy hour deal ever reveals.",5.83534090909091,5.5697891250000024,5.353545454545454,88.02781818181818,66.8409090909091,7.94909090909091,26.69090909090909,6.742157984588678,0.9739700000000001,345,8,73,2,5,105,69,88,0.01,0.695,0.294,0.9814,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,1,0,1,4,7,9,1,0,6,0,7,2,0,3,2,17,14,6,0,2,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,2,2,1,0,3,3,0,0,3,0,7,6,12,11,5,9,0,2,0,0,3,2,0,2,7,54,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13496500035586687,0.19777316051973987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2025639750395519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20419097108058384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19899651340706884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1890874172411953,0.0,0.0,0.16124455140758304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17459884166004105,0.0,0.0,0.17347512332504386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2054747926428942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19171373112513268,0.190087126681476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13633667213255102,0.09430047087131443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4214111611914096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2576864702617628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14189288523973995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18520916982258429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14680141765375235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18246754476247665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20810963789286616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20530194156297366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1909030287207807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11384898013706217,0.1532113455915337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20932339624298105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Victoria-Wayne,2019/04/07,"My dad is in his first severe detox in years, hallucinations. Last week, after serveral weeks of non stop drinking, he threw up blood and then started to stop because he was feeling sick, nausea, vomiting, headaches, he got easily confused and throughout the week he kept talking to someone that wasnt there and kept hearing things. Paranoia. People calling him. Today, I woke up to hear a mirror break (later on I learn its from him trying to jump out a window), yelling, my dad is the living room and my mom trying to get him to not go outside. He says there are people with guns and that they are gonna kill him. And hes pointing. Shaking. They have guns and they are gonna kill him and we have to be quiet. We call my uncle, they take him to emergency. They put him on sedatives and then let him go. No medication nothing. Saying its a withdrawl symptom. He thinks my grandpa is here and other people. He had about 3 or 4 more moments of hallucinations and he was violent sometimes. we went to a bbq and he cried a bit twice, and had two more episodes but were minor in comparason. everyone there knew what happened. We gave him a little bit of his drink, because its the first time and we dont know if he can handle it. I want to know how long this will last, he has at times controlled his drinking to be ""normal"" but this is the worst and first time I could say hes actually detoxing in all my life and he has been drinking since before he was my dad. Do any of you have any idea how long this will last? Have any of you been through this? Did you realize it was a hallucination after withdrawl? Tomorrow is Sunday and the liquor stores are closed, I feel like its gonna get worse. Please help.",3.0593247555326815,4.999346928358211,3.7796500257334036,88.53925373134331,75.23880597014927,6.172928461142563,24.984559958826562,6.953978226594392,0.9238214101904272,1331,45,269,13,29,422,178,335,0.10300000000000001,0.855,0.040999999999999995,-0.9531,0,0,4,2,1,0,43.0,5,3,5,4,7,7,3,2,12,0,37,13,1,3,1,51,63,25,2,4,5,5,2,1,0,5,7,7,2,0,15,25,5,5,9,5,1,7,4,6,0,5,19,9,39,1,32,35,6,49,0,0,0,0,55,14,0,3,28,173,54,1,0.0,0.0,0.09016233471489513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18849142256923568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11264394862322595,0.0,0.07861972039308343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2017386644360861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.188687364215196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10362671452353484,0.07376836978398317,0.0,0.10148947850462756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10828402146486857,0.3620402421904722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08828556351198275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09343345179430068,0.0660056468899996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2357685630852653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09654315949691328,0.0,0.10501825234181623,0.0,0.0738951998650185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0817029104602699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2082674702755367,0.0,0.061929145292575524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10430056027942272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20443854509859616,0.0,0.10155365954160074,0.2259381165600328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09447820140927367,0.06525997673254769,0.04513860019222932,0.09260215563635768,0.08158479728718612,0.16352996663957722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09307632488508076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10820967842856302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09052561805504884,0.08865366833602327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19216122005448136,0.0,0.0,0.1014198752754972,0.08734134066340674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09288058153420077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2204240971388584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10437790085327664,0.0,0.07642852452379749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07828437118073843,0.0,0.0913791353244902,0.0,0.0653963095340724,0.0,0.0,0.15448953220332215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09603180436934176,0.06946811040983401,0.07426207150399157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0613818681405059,0.05920176582703127,0.0,0.0,0.16162547343285866,0.0,0.08757785262475196,0.0,0.0,0.12545769591276393,0.0,0.09025463043420058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054495842377210765,0.0,0.22233650781467484,0.0,0.0,0.08564932647783287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09415645910936786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05949812518019641 alcoholism,islude20,2019/04/07,Tremors. So I took two klonopins about two days ago. Last night I drank heavy and today I drank like 3 beers. Howeber I'm really shakey and noticing I'm having tremors teeth grinding. I'm gonna stop drinking but will this go away? Kind of worried gonna have a seizure. ,0.2355555555555533,2.569614407407414,0.5166666666666693,102.04500000000002,99.37037037037035,3.1407407407407413,22.66666666666667,5.033348758259628,-0.13735555555555568,214,9,46,1,9,63,41,54,0.09300000000000001,0.87,0.037000000000000005,-0.3919,1,0,2,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,3,5,1,0,0,4,12,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,4,1,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,0,3,2,3,6,0,9,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,7,17,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2242748956553263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377078281059469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631681882725485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2478499377407976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1437893596970504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2634672173451576,0.0,0.2062339729007835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12360614035237448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23742935413639035,0.0,0.0,0.2880494473736256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16208236946901766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21152466757026173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2398204706657746,0.0,0.2810994041558832,0.0,0.0,0.4943009517083791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2569402662030845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,helloooo222,2019/04/07,"Found out my dad is an alcoholic two days ago (using a throwaway) Hi everyone, I'm really new to all of this. Because of a misdirected text, I accidentally found out that my dad is an alcoholic. Apparently he went to rehab when I was a toddler but I didn't know because I was too young. Throughout my entire life (I'm 19) I never once saw him drink because he told me he was sworn off it. A few months ago he relapsed, and neither he nor my mom told me because I went abroad this semester and they didn't want to ""ruin my trip."" I already discussed all that with them and think by now they know they made a mistake in doing that. The reason I'm writing here is because this is all so sudden and confusing for me, and I don't really know where to start with processing my thoughts. I think, keeping in mind the way I usually deal with problems, I'd like to remain as positive as possible and be as strong of a support for my dad as I can be. I'm planning on texting him more often just to remind him I love him and things like that. Are there any other things that I can do to help from abroad? Are there any things I should be doing for myself right now? This whole thing has been really jarring and I feel like the reality of it hasn't hit me yet. Thank you for any help! :)",3.676848331220953,4.396917878326998,5.093884664131814,84.56593895226024,71.73764258555133,8.277904520490072,27.538867765103504,8.515128840125781,1.7735671313899442,994,34,213,16,18,334,137,263,0.045,0.7829999999999999,0.172,0.9907,1,0,3,0,1,0,27.0,0,1,4,2,12,11,0,1,11,0,24,6,0,3,4,40,51,16,0,4,2,4,1,3,0,1,4,0,0,0,16,13,3,1,10,1,0,3,7,4,0,1,15,2,36,7,30,31,7,26,0,1,1,1,27,8,0,2,17,148,52,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20006720343168116,0.2412019734246601,0.0,0.0,0.1245313939998536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2302230448494899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3439577313708124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07277810345494977,0.11634209880302028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11054880611944234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10783180990910014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05705971515754464,0.08061916450704408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24746564383306266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15128026729116753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10030514781466976,0.0,0.0,0.1860561536163904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.079708404474773,0.16539658677595825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10185039641554752,0.10678020914154417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1139450608124246,0.13216708384094913,0.09007478997765178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08703590746231529,0.10899001913980852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12018022825022576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12722000183353624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10798100644124672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21688138316034972,0.11602730267746073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0963722098786485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07987492108466462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12805941617411765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10389596079555424,0.0,0.0,0.2998867617260716,0.1446178356912688,0.0,0.08958929657018955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2156636198182003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1102368242920697,0.0,0.0,0.0974650812209713,0.12428694720189247,0.0,0.06656111239815657,0.08957407947189044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20922383058350405,0.0,0.12599159143541427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,FuckOffYesterday,2019/04/07,"I'm an alcoholic I'm drunk as I write this message, but I have been a functioning alcoholic and writer for so long that I believe I can do this without typos. So here goes. This is a throwaway account. It's hard for me to say 'yeah I'm an alcoholic' because it doesn't affect my day job. I drink pretty much whenever I'm not working. I can't remember the last day I haven't at least gotten a heavy buzz. On my days off I wake up happy that I don't have to work, and immediately start drinking. Like if I don't really have anything to do that day, 9am is a good time to start drinking. If I have a few errands to run I do them as soon as I wake up and then have the rest of the day to drink. It's consumed my life but I don't know how to stop. I will literally get blackout drunk by noon on my days off and nap until I feel better. And wake up and drink again. I feel like I'm getting to the point that I bet help but am not ready to deal with reality right now. Just wanted to vent.",0.7980839194761096,2.228727294930877,3.2199708949793866,92.3191292747999,80.19815668202764,6.4117390249818085,22.020130972592774,7.273561745256523,0.5282866359447005,761,23,184,10,19,264,114,217,0.057,0.8,0.14300000000000002,0.9684,1,0,8,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,1,3,8,5,0,0,11,1,20,14,3,2,0,26,34,19,0,3,9,0,3,2,0,1,4,1,0,0,10,7,10,1,4,8,2,1,9,0,0,0,2,4,24,5,28,31,4,29,0,0,0,0,6,10,0,3,20,119,34,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.369536580501728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0948499084168973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07026198118433079,0.0,0.0,0.12985957598898848,0.0,0.10193890869577787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4460025115763587,0.11882893756254477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.564559059666889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11655875903136866,0.08234241744058488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12043813696085795,0.0,0.0,0.0966753831508584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12269738241942475,0.10325113619420356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0772569586647364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11437866855038745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06334438203847421,0.0939530256682955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08141218970597579,0.1126213175641292,0.0,0.0,0.10200227868019816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08473003125552976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10895881597391327,0.0,0.0,0.11726178295141418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07383909064500653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13056814274422104,0.09843218773131754,0.0,0.09166010220721392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16316453129237174,0.0,0.0,0.09636328216043873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06720956377474714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06798387127814771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11110740455822504,0.0,0.16782263108603218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ashdrake42,2019/04/07,Alcoholic but atheist. What other help groups are out there?,4.149000000000001,7.0930099000000055,2.8800000000000026,83.32000000000005,100.0,6.0,25.0,7.1686216300943375,2.201,49,2,7,1,2,14,10,10,0.0,0.7170000000000001,0.28300000000000003,0.5499,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,6,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8471621500032935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5313344442079745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,throwawaygen10,2019/09/04,AA meet”I’m an alcoholic “. Why? Why do people go around the room and say “my name is ________ and I’m an alcoholic”? What is the point? Guilt? Acknowledgement?,-0.2535714285714299,0.7417693571428572,1.1414285714285732,94.00357142857143,123.28571428571428,5.885714285714287,18.285714285714285,6.868970318607317,0.9170142857142858,114,4,24,3,7,36,22,28,0.102,0.898,0.0,-0.4696,0,0,2,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,4,0,3,2,0,0,0,5,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,3,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,5,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,12,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6459916909562751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2690520163840092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17176634228975046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20953075084676767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2857084798479892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2403483208793707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5454377003788421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Bregm4,2019/09/04,"My dad died of alcoholism, I want an answer :( My dad was an alcoholic for a long time, half a year ago he died in a car accident because he was driving drunk, he already had cirrhosis so when he arrived to the hospital the doctors can´t to anything because of the unstoppable blood loss because of the coagulopathy. I talked a lot to him, trying to know the cause of his alcoholism, but I never really found a cause. The last days that he was alive he told my to talk more to him, I´m a doctor and he wanted me to cure his illnes or accept or to enter an alcoholism treatment program, he doesnt accept most of the treatments, but he wanted me to talk to him to solve his problem. I want to know from the people suffering this addiction if is there a cause that you recognize as the triggering event for your alcoholism, or if it just happened gradually without a traumatic event in your life. I have been reading a lot, psychiatry books, medical books, and they enlisted causes like childhood trauma, rape, etc. but my dad just lived a ""nice"" life, he had lots of money, he came from a wealthy family witouth not much visible problems. I just want to know, because I think he commited suicide and made it look like an accident :( I´m not a native english speakers, I hope the post is understable.",8.349268292682924,7.1357840487804935,8.474105691056913,70.8201829268293,62.17073170731707,12.265040650406506,39.19918699186992,11.374738998889045,4.47190894308943,1020,46,186,25,12,335,135,246,0.161,0.708,0.131,-0.8914,0,0,5,0,0,1,31.0,0,3,1,1,6,12,1,0,26,0,10,14,1,6,2,46,26,14,3,10,14,3,0,2,0,0,11,1,0,0,5,4,6,0,8,4,1,4,5,6,0,1,10,2,24,6,27,16,7,18,0,2,1,1,29,2,0,10,13,120,29,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1019328622240524,0.0,0.0,0.08288541076928294,0.4996352301313474,0.0,0.0,0.10318368596454118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07694559887219411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22799601224336186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1069433520443456,0.0,0.3842163305987646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06030216743578135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19408420901370604,0.0,0.0,0.19141004983352086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10428137028137544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08814699057608692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.102522008547956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08268503546482174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09287029704673352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15416160624160866,0.07621801587964153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.132088892798699,0.09136239423298903,0.0,0.08256550249041142,0.08274785448267305,0.07851957972071333,0.0,0.0,0.23848057052607105,0.0,0.08847548568597953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09419516612937008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0687359967577471,0.0,0.07211583725820145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06482370989258114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08955072200183194,0.0,0.0,0.17894087427916852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09352902871657334,0.0,0.05990088071446242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10227789918823382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2254642575671002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059913411644846114,0.0,0.0,0.05452277414814618,0.0,0.0,0.08934681651971045,0.0,0.06348289171978806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2757545988423606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09013425448226103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060213333440639484 alcoholism,one_day37,2019/09/04,"Thanks! I just wanted to thank everyone for all of the posts and recommendations. Tried going to an urgent care for meds-nope. And my GP couldn’t see me today. I was terrified of going to the ER, cause I mean it’s the ER and ours isn’t the nicest place of earth. Anyway, I walk into the waiting room filled with at least 100 people. They ask my name and why I am there. I explain my situation, and I’ll be dammed if I didn’t even have enough time to sit down before they called me back. I was in and out within 30 minutes with a small dose of Ativan and a weeks supply of Librium! I would have NEVER had thought about going to the ER, but yall’s posts and recommendations totally saved the day!",2.3633333333333333,3.9463597777777792,3.84,88.90500000000002,76.22222222222223,6.7444444444444445,19.63888888888889,7.492282038375204,0.3377888888888889,544,11,120,7,12,180,95,144,0.019,0.875,0.106,0.8694,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,1,1,2,0,6,4,0,0,10,0,11,1,0,1,3,28,24,10,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,12,0,1,3,0,0,5,4,0,3,0,5,1,18,4,21,16,4,23,0,0,1,0,8,9,0,1,6,81,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1766161446657468,0.0,0.0,0.1452690088328213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16075832245475608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19291002300685506,0.0,0.19261810895095005,0.1940744704337981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1218387692461828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1952064607982387,0.0,0.12478090056534714,0.0,0.0,0.18052263498520107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32210540795345816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2057909498119969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14570794431318654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1309744138085035,0.0,0.19738280755717108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3618692401207517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1505460138473826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21235573523826864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3478671576215429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14998260621754053,0.11016167379343632,0.0,0.17907553730480535,0.0,0.0,0.12826532982524538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11143082368542644,0.0,0.15154147007913776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17047231202932292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342044471384877,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,dralnec,2019/09/04,Any suggestions to Prevent cravings ?? Do you have any ideas to prevent the alcohol cravings (except drugs) ? Herbal teas meybe..?,5.688833333333331,9.454351550000002,4.1200000000000045,77.39833333333334,83.5,6.666666666666668,36.66666666666666,7.793537801064563,3.9401666666666655,101,6,13,2,3,29,16,20,0.0,0.8009999999999999,0.19899999999999998,0.3527,0,0,2,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,7,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4511584335810941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5741637285070218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.48956916475344897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4765649101624864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,throwawayyay019368,2019/09/04,"Is my roommate/good friend an alcoholic? Hello! I came to ask if you think my roommate is an alcoholic and what I should do. He drinks pretty much every night. Beer and then usually liquor. He’ll drink alone mostly. While watching TV. And then pass out on the couch and wake up around 3 am and go to his bed. Him and his family drink always. I’ve never been to a restaurant or out with him when he didn’t drink beer (unless we are at a church function). And not just one, like four or more. He hasn’t gotten a DUI or been drunk at work but I know he drinks every day after work. And he will drive while drinking but only if he is coherent. He recently stopped taking his anti depressants as he said “I don’t need it anymore I feel fine” I cannot drink due to a medication I take and if I suggest we have a night without drinking, He adamantly opposes and says that I can’t tell him what to do. Does this sound like behavior of an alcoholic? If so what can I do?",1.5107617032531058,3.4754283015075416,3.0816715154720984,91.62330600370274,80.05527638190955,6.400528960592438,21.528960592435865,7.475848149327749,0.68479296482412,748,22,164,11,19,246,119,199,0.09,0.8759999999999999,0.034,-0.8608,1,1,13,0,0,0,21.0,2,1,0,2,4,5,0,0,9,0,19,17,1,0,1,39,31,27,0,6,13,0,1,2,1,3,4,3,2,0,6,17,15,2,3,13,0,4,8,1,0,2,6,5,21,4,18,22,3,25,1,1,1,0,26,7,0,8,16,106,27,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3122702582667478,0.0,0.1008761605800334,0.0,0.0,0.08104390751641019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09659379944803048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08670590640678548,0.09105507107553776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1113986969854667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06281440360088901,0.0,0.08388975783737755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08523466539204662,0.0,0.0,0.7633128092689592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1641259941058064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09181926417730496,0.0,0.049247944190746934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07525035303963609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055354189864737766,0.08169379827990858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053528033711968036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09516862410304087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09811941152536746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07159959294744346,0.07222024648614585,0.07512024028616908,0.0,0.0,0.1828050361447908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06600019471222225,0.07407645373027141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0990899661336402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09616992482037327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09264890981582463,0.07745572508719298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08143006293670835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14646410076048744,0.0,0.08513116299144813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06240945193509699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1072714194688332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09388931907536208,0.0,0.14181550384291486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,joenc6,2019/09/04,"Such pain I posted in another sub and was directed here and this feels like a better place to post this. My wife of 11 years recently informed me that she wants to divorce. The primary reason is because of my drinking, I've since stopped altogether. She has, however; made up her mind that it's to late. I have in the course of our marriage chosen her over my family and friends I had no longer contact me. She posts things like ""taking the kids to Six Flags today, wish me luck"" and carries on as if nothing is amiss and other posts about how she has some hard choices, ""those who are close to me know what's going on"". Her friends offer solace and advice ""one day at time"" and ""hang in there it'll get better"" and similar encouragement. Meanwhile I am in such emotional pain that I don't know how I will ever recover from this. I know my use of alcohol has been the demise of my marriage. A marriage to a woman I am madly in love with. I have no one to blame for this demise but myself which is a primary contributor to my pain. Now, I'm past mid forties with nowhere to turn, no family and no friends with a crushed heart and immense emotional pain that I haven't a clue in how to deal with. I've deactivated my social media (other than reddit obviously) because reading her posts hurts to much. I broke down crying this afternoon rehearsing the talk I inevitably will have to have with my kids (7, 8, 10, 12) about why mommy doesn't love daddy anymore and why I can't always be around and then again when replaying our conversation in my mind. Thanks for listening reddit, I feel worse already. Reading it aloud makes me more pathetic than I would have thought. TL:DR I'm a loser because of alcohol and my wife wants to dump me",4.809231161545327,5.705734043988272,5.59100089251562,81.38476220833866,69.26392961876833,8.862986102256789,29.782098686727014,9.085049710711278,2.382778044115771,1363,51,269,25,23,445,187,341,0.166,0.7340000000000001,0.099,-0.9812,1,0,3,0,1,0,40.0,2,0,0,3,14,21,2,0,12,0,26,10,1,7,2,47,48,21,0,5,2,2,3,2,3,4,6,1,0,3,19,20,3,1,8,3,0,2,8,9,0,3,5,4,42,12,46,38,3,38,0,3,0,2,34,17,0,3,16,181,61,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08797819491133795,0.0,0.19243358177226705,0.0,0.0,0.09935251295931223,0.0,0.07491380778992297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0944063660897312,0.0,0.0,0.08928751768395295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08014753737649855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1646479519703174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15925191461952906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09889588676863938,0.058063169731084566,0.09281900336757047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08819705087884347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20254768692872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08143906742157812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16974824928321686,0.0,0.0910457340524315,0.06431885430002042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20867542014532087,0.0,0.04703798615665408,0.0,0.0511672409064704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08065095720536053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10668831286590227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09638108138928744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14843764146215166,0.0,0.10155997884921404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08797014152165636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1625147282909026,0.08519042284667439,0.06009703622815904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.181813240298737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06618385401537326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08638809928444062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12201598003570485,0.0,0.3832014370090262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08594569860956074,0.0,0.0,0.09406424185090892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.431128680131675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1801126592982641,0.0,0.0,0.09256785556347352,0.08889570461179938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07447537240872723,0.0,0.0,0.0917762510593393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07527075470696784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06769283360549566,0.07236428369595457,0.0,0.08288933785943674,0.0,0.0,0.05981323749726662,0.0,0.0,0.07147532411398116,0.052498363229560134,0.0,0.08533977634167407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09792892537421864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07775871155106763,0.0,0.0,0.10620637205959267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16247969097273354,0.0,0.1035323173656728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09175026471528758,0.0639561253046104,0.0,0.0,0.05797763411010867 alcoholism,Wealdofstorms,2019/09/04,"Should I ask for help? Hi, so my mom drinks about 30 glasses (4.5 Liters) of wine every week (4-5 per day). Our family has a long history of alcoholism so I am worried she'll continue the trend. The drinking is not causing problems within the family, but she has started to drink more and more the past few years. It has begun causing problems for her (constantly shaking, sleeping problems and stomach problems). She also buys stronger liquor more often besides the wine. When my sister and I speak out our worries to her, she either defends herself mumbling or just pretends we did not say anything. How do I handle this? I do not want her to go as far as her mother and grandmother who drank to the point of dementia in their sixties.",5.207122302158272,6.647545863309354,5.536035971223022,80.12937769784178,68.78417266187051,7.8621582733812945,34.04388489208633,8.238735603445708,2.7993677697841735,581,28,101,8,10,185,98,139,0.07200000000000001,0.838,0.09,0.556,0,0,6,1,0,0,21.0,3,0,1,0,8,5,0,1,7,0,10,10,2,3,0,23,15,13,0,6,7,3,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,3,6,8,0,0,7,1,2,3,5,0,0,2,2,20,0,15,11,5,17,0,0,0,0,22,5,0,2,10,75,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525355464220417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11414156597842695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11745507783404187,0.0,0.13343379319660287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2932471751278802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15424101414808825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09204939429343552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41946479064775705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.120256640827468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2691073119372973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0811170584541031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09566927627703874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263120416413388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16716429029536148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13625245634671027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1349265004523835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5462954249290105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1135050588736954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14283362417991316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10102541500865787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08418617398487444,0.0,0.11448983453646012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2898995953069253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0919137919462366 alcoholism,CheckMate1296,2019/09/04,Do I have a problem? Going through a rough breakup. Girlfriend left me after 3 years for another guy randomly. Never drank during the relationship. I now find myself a month into the breakup taking shot after shot just to go to bed at night. Its a nightly routine now. Drinking until I feel good and than passing out. Every time i try to think about her drunk its not as bad. Im nervous I’m developing a bad habit but cant stop it.,1.4909302325581422,4.0047371627907005,3.2686511627907,86.94553488372094,84.34883720930233,5.300465116279073,24.879069767441862,6.742157984588678,1.1028037209302337,340,14,65,4,10,113,68,86,0.064,0.833,0.10300000000000001,0.4646,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,1,7,0,3,3,0,0,1,13,10,4,0,1,3,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,3,3,3,1,3,2,0,3,3,4,0,0,1,2,7,1,14,9,0,19,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,12,41,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22517632070804647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3586021719033644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21036597675332572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1809298868899912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10858030162184057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19627082932311515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2440863158984464,0.1801158891731545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21262891770606912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23195883829436184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333184433919652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1714054799834412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16562271750035598,0.0,0.0,0.4030427318085338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2054796491088023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2305531676241137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17953441387335103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16145969642661118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13759837545543271,0.0,0.0,0.12521812632837676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1457961169301464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13828718203031914 alcoholism,Throwaway12349865,2019/09/04,"Hallucinations wtf is going on Has anyone had hallucinations from drinking? This has only happened a few times for me. I've been a heavy drinker since age 16 I'm 27 now. It's usually when I'm Extremely upset and drinking heavy to almost blackout or waking up from a blackout, I'll talk to 'ghosts' I get their names most of the time, the last being a 17 year old baseball player and I cried for 2 days. The person I live with has heard me talk to someone and I got up and locked the doors. Y'all am I completely losing my mind or what? Is this alcoholism or do I need psychiatric help. I suffer from depression and anxiety already. Back story: I've had contact with ghosts and supernormal since age two. Nothing happens when I'm sober accept tonight 3 drinks in and I felt a presence and was like ok whatever but it got me to thinking. Am I just predisposed to this type of stuff or is it the alcohol fucking with me? I think about when I was so little living in a haunted house and everyone including my parents saw stuff. None of us do anymore it's ONLY when I get a little booze in me now. Is this something that I just got so comfortable with that I try and make myself see shit? Idk any advice would. E great because I have enough problems going on now and can't even get to a therapist. No negative comments please. Thanks in advance",1.7902130325814554,4.315374612781959,3.349954887218044,86.83758897243109,82.94736842105263,6.2534335839599,24.656140350877195,7.554174236665415,1.4323938847117792,1061,42,206,18,30,349,156,266,0.135,0.772,0.09300000000000001,-0.8536,1,0,7,0,0,0,20.0,1,1,1,2,14,13,2,1,13,1,20,9,2,1,0,34,43,22,2,3,7,1,1,1,0,1,2,1,1,1,13,15,6,0,4,3,0,3,4,7,0,1,11,4,26,6,27,30,4,31,0,3,2,1,12,10,2,6,19,135,39,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10496877283480743,0.0,0.22959685580271305,0.10756478529910016,0.0,0.11853972878056075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07304872134096961,0.0,0.08217537348392777,0.0,0.1065309554281713,0.07510998352631361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08259871360610839,0.0,0.06548173095809239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11262695937194207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11799491775178858,0.06927648015185216,0.0,0.09251997648008424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3156896845086845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1109927208775229,0.0,0.07094935080868225,0.0,0.0,0.1026436233465494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10313925185430026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09930729470010816,0.16836625331289892,0.0,0.12209758321838425,0.0,0.2577387772248904,0.11843001768339415,0.0,0.0,0.1899808402188552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07200080750146752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12394730350627715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08756096320953281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052479582076777685,0.2153244631649602,0.1897061959040204,0.0,0.0,0.12017457805793699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07170313223902998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1084627431746664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07964995582937512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10307159380296196,0.0,0.11271835243055485,0.0,0.0,0.16339424343406844,0.0,0.0,0.11927627964396913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09379427869343936,0.0,0.11791399480866675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1027856414826001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0855991734385105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11026423764169184,0.17771650023139776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.091015916869654,0.08269652756050397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24593850701932246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17267892491518494,0.0,0.09889714246766762,0.0,0.12472193942504367,0.0,0.13765973758950176,0.0,0.0,0.1252739674778831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07293056742763981,0.0,0.10493292360661788,0.0,0.1292120391937247,0.0,0.1183070432207121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07630749863940386,0.0,0.0,0.06917442566918687 alcoholism,mashedtato666,2019/09/04,"My SO has a drinking problem, he knows but he doesn’t want to work on it My boyfriend (27M) of 8 years has been struggling with drinking for the past several years. About 4 years ago, I started to notice his drinking getting worse. The point where it got to a breaking point was about 3 years ago, he wasn’t working, he definitely got depressed and began drinking more. He ended up getting a DUI and I thought maybe that would be a wake up call. Unfortunately, it did nothing. I tried to talk to him about his drinking and he constantly shrugged it off saying he didn’t have a problem. Fast forward to last year, he got drunk on July 4th at my parents, fought with my dad, embarrassed me in front of my friends and family, came home and left the back door open so my cat got out and stripped nude to pass out on the couch. We argued the next day about how he needs to stop, he admitted he has a problem and said he needed to work on it. For a month or so, he did. But then one night had beers with his dad, came home and passed out on the couch. It’s been over a year, and I feel like every other month it’s the same conversation... you need to work on this, not just for you but for us. Agreeing, working on it for 1 week, 1 month, then going right back to it again. How can I help him? I can’t mentally handle the roller coaster, and I’ve told him I can’t..",2.556007764477517,3.853727637010678,3.458979294726628,93.01303057263023,75.12099644128114,6.390229699126498,24.872371400841153,6.782984794422108,0.6567921708185058,1050,34,240,9,22,335,147,281,0.145,0.7859999999999999,0.07,-0.9758,1,0,6,0,0,0,38.0,2,2,0,5,14,10,2,2,16,0,18,9,2,2,0,42,40,21,0,8,6,3,1,1,1,1,0,2,5,0,12,20,7,1,4,8,0,7,6,8,0,1,19,3,24,2,41,19,2,58,0,1,0,1,37,23,0,1,30,141,36,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15410186935377862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336750038133565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08875688031558253,0.1988307750668758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09393159057818168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05605737271306555,0.0,0.07486562241008253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4257513821762365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07698691857815232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07323536876947577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0819421409607042,0.0,0.043950275806071325,0.062096954139300914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06715557014494909,0.0,0.09082611004076584,0.0,0.04939966432210914,0.0,0.27807722843954125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0582618529824879,0.0,0.1743793131482792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047769950272151626,0.07085287155168161,0.0,0.0,0.09444079436649372,0.0,0.0,0.04246560284031966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08732463519395588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08759673419691309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20814046399081776,0.0,0.0,0.1933542488324784,0.0,0.0,0.09244232465129047,0.08157022480150496,0.0,0.08340381522382903,0.09896104995812176,0.0,0.0,0.05890046393858585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09651637683054322,0.0,0.08297669731698529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16433840076377926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495172821213664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07423074567604374,0.08268254048871321,0.06912370731976618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09819689720250928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06152370024922948,0.0,0.0,0.07267052023760423,0.0,0.09086954227888183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0698644535089243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06900620310950016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08305750866592203,0.0,0.0590141992131403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10455622780228978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05126873206045248,0.0,0.06972342811956175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3164005426973816,0.0,0.08858074420476926,0.061746755647146434,0.0,0.0,0.335848751563298 alcoholism,Ericthedude710,2019/09/04,"Currently trying to get sober have always been a drinker (m24) but the last 2 years I have been drinking everyday (unless sick then I just don’t want to) but recently I have been getting really bad anxiety (changes in life and probably smoking weed and drinking, started going back to school) anyway I usually drink 2 32 natty ice and a Budweiser tall can sometimes up to 9 beers. I am wondering if I will get withdrawals ( I pray I don’t) because I just want to stop. Tonight I was about to just go straight home without buying drinks but then I started getting anxiety about me getting a seizure or some shit while I sleep. Now the amount I drank every night didn’t get me really drunk just a really nice buzz. But unfortunately I ended up buying 2 shots of vodka and oj. I regret it but don’t want to get sick. Should I keep trying to ween off or just not buy shit tomorrow? Thanks any answers will help.",3.5494915254237327,5.510178864406782,4.545333333333336,83.49189830508476,73.91525423728814,7.8838418079096035,28.18418079096045,8.648137234880735,2.2224797740113,717,29,137,14,15,233,107,177,0.217,0.6729999999999999,0.11,-0.9771,1,0,7,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,10,6,2,0,6,0,16,13,3,0,0,30,34,16,0,6,16,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,0,1,4,7,2,2,7,3,2,6,4,0,0,6,0,18,2,17,25,2,26,1,1,0,0,1,6,2,5,18,83,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10136157343950708,0.0,0.0,0.08283979521357042,0.0,0.18637947348133235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0936698191895216,0.1017121778287914,0.07425856446519541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288663237596537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4773374689415465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1078937802499379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10263614819855052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4455107943710598,0.0,0.13846291357614846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08165142440745292,0.0,0.12219246880141264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10827662247191278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09929718313785876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08604300982737087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11431708233311695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313394212892134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23411743222818926,0.0,0.12027967550032465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12328539371387577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2500869747735127,0.0,0.0,0.1219050600298919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12048021210556778,0.0,0.17244551977008682,0.0,0.0,0.10184453782502476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11215280539940166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16541160911811187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13416430914623215,0.0,0.21555261904688755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11742732306824695,0.13210543251725226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07844620893094098 alcoholism,Kittykattridder,2019/09/04,"My husband's drinking My husband (28) has been drinking long before we met. Every now and then he will decide to quit but just ends up right back into it weeks later. Recently over the last few months he has started drink more and more. Going through a ltr of vodka in 2 days. I'm starting to notice his mental state decline, he's getting angrier and more agitated. The smallest things set him off. And he forgets little things like why and when he used the glass measuring cup that he put in the sink not even an hr ago. I'm noticing increased sweating/ night sweats, he talks in his sleep more along with physically moving around while talking in his sleep. Im really worried about him but I don't want to upset him by confronting him and asking for him to get help. What do I do? How do I get him help?",3.4755336538461528,5.204386293750002,4.181250000000002,87.00644230769232,73.5625,6.4230769230769225,26.05769230769231,7.010146845296331,1.1371586538461536,637,22,125,6,13,203,111,160,0.092,0.8170000000000001,0.09,-0.0935,0,0,4,0,0,0,16.0,1,0,0,1,8,3,1,1,6,0,8,7,4,2,0,20,20,12,0,1,4,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,11,3,0,1,4,0,4,2,2,0,0,2,0,15,1,20,17,6,34,0,0,0,0,25,11,0,0,18,76,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12507196900293796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12560422756381612,0.13190453040827982,0.0,0.0,0.10849314160511048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1200612269775692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09099443130386344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4146573735760998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12496805566884933,0.0,0.0,0.0931917414692978,0.0,0.1188783992181988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2211485259843972,0.0,0.08018738917003118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1891456528291823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15240652528408874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1150110403156349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06893176032721891,0.1414139909285028,0.0,0.12486440007789615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1421903065832766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11262047098966985,0.1499613735338547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13240785034884914,0.0,0.0,0.3212745808928607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14183917884255592,0.0,0.15007161788029294,0.0,0.0,0.0903888998851944,0.0,0.13931402856527828,0.0,0.0,0.12049413237090575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2823932629450847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19973515863982594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268132061036837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874741443057292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12186054893800564,0.0,0.0,0.08322133007178363,0.0,0.11317768534693733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1273160520426793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1432885518294772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,SwishBishhh,2019/09/04,"Weight gain caused by alcohol has led to even more anxieties. It’s like a vicious circle man. I’ve gained 3 stone (35lbs) this year due to a high beer consumption and it fucking sucks. I’ve lost all self confidence, don’t leave my house, don’t speak to many people. My friends are pretty concerned about me, I went from being out almost everyday to not coming out in 2 months and this has all happened this year. It’s like I’m scared to go out because of the weight I’ve gained, and what I’ve become. It’s very obvious that there’s something wrong with me. On more than once occasion I’ve gotten black out drunk and messaged my best friend talking about how I want to die, and that I need to speak to him. I wake up the next day and just try and brush it off, and tell him I’m all okay now. All of these anxieties just fuel the alcohol consumption even more, and I’m scared. I really don’t think I can stop, it’s a necessity now, my anxieties and self hatred are intoxicating, and the only anti dote is drinks. Quitting cold turkey is something that I’d actually deem impossible, I need alcohol, it numbs that shit man. I’m 20 years old and the shit that’s buried in me from my life is like a parasite. Everything fucking sucks.",2.596199342825848,4.514116325301206,3.799191310697335,87.98319003285872,76.51004016064256,7.579481562614093,23.36637458926616,8.438071523408619,1.3512554216867472,971,30,206,19,22,316,135,249,0.185,0.679,0.136,-0.8817,0,0,7,0,0,1,28.0,0,0,0,6,10,19,7,2,9,1,12,16,3,3,5,35,30,13,1,3,3,0,2,3,2,0,6,2,0,4,17,18,8,1,1,3,0,4,4,12,0,0,3,7,17,7,26,26,8,26,0,1,1,2,13,10,6,1,15,110,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.10720640262848538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.352217141922374,0.1100077818780396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2521251877228074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06696894300680171,0.12133048263976587,0.0,0.0,0.11529009861252892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11285531397227455,0.0,0.09463368261644088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07084987802125094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11401615496753055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10761986170477372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451214853717618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09873406202193556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1697533695548398,0.20312549658125129,0.0,0.0,0.062435323350364974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09714782943920104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1160719200744901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12676237758086967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11632467319351235,0.0,0.0,0.0775965636120477,0.16101447333622296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11992392606012868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11137964371085336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08768829606362033,0.0,0.0,0.1629179092973412,0.0,0.0,0.11683614676465705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11527839611590993,0.1169961033316194,0.0,0.08355261548582607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07616230285031418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11176595830321526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1168484232377317,0.0,0.0,0.07037840051943027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21997577312017327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22921350617219985,0.0,0.22553708762038566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16914943939414562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09184692834123988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08830039242946809,0.09602148819360863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07039312328855997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07458695642363335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09064506704854333,0.06479760354413898,0.0,0.0,0.2675569971493708,0.0,0.10184026631826143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12011342038976618,0.0,0.21223651707372207 alcoholism,Sev2018,2019/02/11,"Day one I have a problem with alcohol. I got addicted to pain killers when I was trying 16 yrs old and didn’t stop using those until I was about 20 yrs old. Unfortunately when I stopped the pain killers I replaced them with weed and then alcohol as well. I stopped smoking weed about three years ago but I haven’t stopped the drinking. I got married in September and now my drinking is causing serious strain on my marriage. I want to stop but I’m having a REALLY hard time with it because my husband also drinks but he doesn’t have trouble moderating it. I on the other hand just keep drinking and drinking and drinking once I start and I almost always end up really hammered. But I want to stop, I need to stop. I don’t want my addiction to end my marriage and I’m really afraid that it will if I don’t get sober.",2.960311688311688,4.780538593939397,4.310670995671,85.14886363636366,75.18181818181819,7.3809523809523805,29.361471861471863,8.192908349453996,2.0887835497835496,648,29,130,11,14,214,89,165,0.22899999999999998,0.7090000000000001,0.062,-0.9707,0,0,8,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,0,8,8,0,2,5,0,12,13,1,2,0,32,24,18,0,6,6,1,2,0,0,1,6,0,0,0,6,10,8,8,0,6,0,0,5,7,1,2,5,2,23,1,16,18,0,25,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,2,21,83,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20534838177352185,0.0,0.0,0.08348821274484777,0.20130757391859772,0.09431142204422484,0.0,0.0,0.07531871183262231,0.07836842592807224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05741354056908714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09675265662362577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0607407279173396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5535853204730155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1668376967463555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04920712272777162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15065469941937978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08437014152985854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08371484557701835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06983605814059024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19766000701154496,0.1003026212370234,0.0638213473294808,0.0,0.2004363035182168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09012113013563536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810095682561116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06666374388315575,0.0,0.0,0.5511928330944635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054919302749075284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06394458470276401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0813445212068354,0.0,0.0,0.16665605008055145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08468250337142519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060651247857863 alcoholism,towa,2019/02/11,"Struggling to find someone who understands I will try to keep this as concise as possible, but forgive me if it gets long. I ended my relationship with my boyfriend about a year ago. We were together for 5 years. I loved him so much and would have done anything to help him get better, but he refused to help himself, so I had to let it go. I didn't want to. I wanted to help him. I truly envisioned being with him forever. I'm still struggling now with the negative connotation he has given alcohol. I'm still struggling to let go of the fact that I love him. I'm still struggling to see a life without him. I thought maybe this would get better with time, but I'm realizing maybe that's not the case. I feel like it's affecting every part of my life. I don't feel normal around alcohol. My work requires being around functions with alcohol. I hate being there. My family drinks when I'm home. I hate being there. Social gatherings with friends always have alcohol. I hate being there. All of these things trigger the emotions I felt every time I watched him walk to the fridge and grab another beer, or pour another glass of wine. Disgust. Despair. Hatred. I don't know how to move on with my life without isolating myself. I feel like alcohol is such a part of ""normal"" life. I don't know what I'm expecting from posting this. I guess I'm just looking for validation that I'm not the only one who's felt this way. Perhaps some advice on what to do. My friends and family try to understand, but I just never really feel like they quite get it. I'm not alone, but I feel alone. &#x200B; &#x200B;",2.3767321428571435,4.768906644444448,3.7576339285714297,85.65502232142859,79.38095238095238,7.112103174603175,25.71676587301588,8.17850203761792,1.821986111111112,1263,50,245,25,32,414,154,315,0.145,0.69,0.165,0.7038,0,2,8,0,0,0,47.0,1,0,1,5,17,19,4,4,9,0,22,14,0,3,3,60,61,16,0,8,14,0,8,3,2,3,9,0,1,0,17,13,8,3,15,3,0,4,11,9,0,1,8,11,41,10,37,43,5,23,0,1,3,2,26,4,0,4,16,161,58,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0694132613410889,0.0629670454109095,0.37956684937163815,0.0,0.14713887897205974,0.0,0.0,0.0591056877606827,0.15392986168880662,0.1726273212162386,0.0,0.1489699525718393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0584546420580765,0.1264700182440917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12564698309273412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07269208701199388,0.0,0.06958593488234338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07990329615755971,0.06291473060625326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11969782872407995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13392840807387107,0.0,0.1795837405547366,0.1522393627370744,0.13640688845155186,0.0,0.06492346984701225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10976084463206004,0.0,0.1484486027175616,0.0,0.0807401213158005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07825157463894822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2103930717409284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14283707619600372,0.0,0.07125254337131548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06313797253182536,0.0,0.0,0.07807647345686672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14527344101394835,0.20069267278614447,0.10411036103563616,0.0,0.0,0.06286254556147725,0.059650376297006535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12822128617211162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1427256993781328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07549752908237001,0.05221790649330015,0.0,0.054785530497313766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13919579160702036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04813424007245675,0.054024292248168466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15384504303575486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08007976815014305,0.06803060184578086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07555303121305376,0.0,0.0,0.04550597555219982,0.0,0.0,0.07626355723873464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056604622841682516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07240986139926278,0.06018658171620706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17018269559535132,0.0,0.0,0.2970391790384917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04719160117161406,0.0,0.0,0.056392784111593874,0.0828405859089352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09645437209360233,0.0,0.0,0.14789707100778113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08379497519005548,0.05638320557295099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13694780884566288,0.0,0.051713343708569164,0.0,0.0,0.1009205347894728,0.0,0.1726273212162386,0.0914866842284887 alcoholism,itryeveryday,2019/02/11,"I’m just having such a hard time I have written and erased this 3 times, I’m just having such a hard time and it’s so difficult to express my feelings… it’s not easy to keep it short. A lot of things happened to me last year, 2 months ago I woke up sick and tired of myself in alcohol, I didn’t do anything to regret the night before, I just woke up tired of having to drink to be fun to hang with, to tell the joke, to land the pun… That’s not really me; I haven’t craved or planned weekend activities around alcohol. I’m having peaceful nights, I know what I’m doing, I wake up knowing what I did the night before, I know where I’m going, I notice my kids are having a better time with me, but no one else feels the same around me. Not my wife or the rest of my family. My wife doesn’t drink and writing this comes to my mind that she never noticed how drunk I have been half our marriage -and I really mean half as in one day drunk and the other sober- for the last 12 years. I don’t really want to come out and tell everyone that I’m an alcoholic, that I’m trying to change my life, I can’t go to AA, my family expects so much from me, I don’t know what to do, please advise me. 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I'm nearly 24 and I know I have drunk too much since my teens, but wanted your opinion on exactly how fucked I am I'm a bit of a recluse and drink by myself at home alot. I am well aware that I drink an unhealthy amount but I'm at the point where I'm drinking a 5L cask of dry white wine a day. I mix it with Solo/lemon fizzy drink to speed up the process. The 5L is over a 12+ hour period and I feel pretty drunk but not completely blind like I used to get, I can still remember most of my night. I am a relatively skinny (have a gut now) 6ft make at 70kgs. I know I'm shearing years off my life with my choices but at the same time I feel like I'm young enough to be able to get away with this for a while. I always convince myself to drink promising myself that I will get results in my social life (which I lack and which alcohol used to help) but once I get tipsy it's back to playing apex legends and being shit at guitar. I dunno I just assumed there would be a subreddit for this kind of thing and was looking for some similar experiences and how overcame this addiction, because I know I'm smart enough to recognise it as such but my mind is telling my no... but my body.... my body is telling me yes",2.4767975708502017,3.3402010846153867,3.861457489878543,91.75091093117413,74.69230769230771,7.0121457489878525,24.45344129554656,7.273561745256523,0.7745000000000002,942,28,221,10,19,311,148,260,0.113,0.789,0.098,-0.6990000000000001,0,0,7,0,0,0,24.0,0,1,0,0,11,10,2,0,15,1,15,19,5,6,1,43,37,18,0,3,9,0,2,2,0,2,5,0,1,0,11,10,10,0,7,10,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,5,33,8,32,31,10,26,0,0,3,1,6,14,2,6,14,141,44,0,0.1125716114288088,0.0,0.0,0.1227196726513268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12030481740425647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09366859863253976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10576473456821206,0.08656062055787023,0.0,0.06862260947508032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12289904388851798,0.2500833656884061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11802919281857165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07259937655452586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5513866137008286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23263313378900746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11011663677604304,0.0,0.0,0.11383917827374575,0.08042118169761253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1040706408111537,0.2352560829985344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07545437823300291,0.0,0.11291850479126025,0.0,0.11086036143306616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1172260103168176,0.1855992409178994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1590253165804619,0.10999360626477404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0945318017153842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0751424247616184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11366523698395364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08275308705579516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1056408315158432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11988509223172952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1064165591606241,0.0,0.0,0.11452579904793594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12752169122469018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11555314143414787,0.0931204002568452,0.0,0.0,0.11475258137436205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08989983430172524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19678510036680144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07478757656739858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06564141190105706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19445145714352896,0.0,0.0,0.06639765305059259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10121539798154064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07996764292170723,0.0,0.0,0.07249242695489473 alcoholism,robbobmob,2019/02/11,"One year sober today, and here's to the years to follow! Last year today I woke up without a hangover and road my bike fully loaded with camp gear to the coast. I remember after riding the 25 miles to get there and walking the coast at sunset, it was balls-ass cold and I remember thinking a half-pint would be nice but not necessary. It was below 30 degrees the whole night and I huddled around the small fire with the several of layers of clothing only barely keeping me warm. I woke up the next morning, pack up my bike and rode back home. Since that day I have not touched beer or booze. After over ten years of being in an alcoholic haze, I can now say I have actual goals in life, and that I have purpose and hope. (And I my first day in years, next weekend!) Here's to a lifetime of sobriety! 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By 16 it was Friday through Sunday. 17 I got alcohol poisoning at a house party and decided to stop. By 18 I was getting into meth but I did not allow it to continue, alcohol was in the background. 19 came around and I was drinking casually every day, by 20 I'd be blacked out by 8pm. 21 and blackout looks closer to 2pm, that is until 3 days ago. I finally got around to opening my textbook for accounting and realised my midterm for it was that next morning, the whole first month of school was almost blank in my mind. Denial shot out of me like a rocket and I was practically arguing with myself about the severity of my condition. I decided to stop drinking, I am very sick and feel the need to put this monologue somewhere. I did well the day before but shamefully went through a six pack last night. Could only sleep a measly 2 hours before waking to horrible stomach cramps and extreme sweating, mild tachycardia, emotional distress. It is incredible, the unconscious gymnastics I've been doing to avoid thinking about this. I keep thinking ""how could I not know I am a drunk?"" I've literally been drinking non-stop for minimum 18 months (3 years daily), stopping only to sleep, yet last week I would have told you that alcoholism would never be a problem for me. I'm going to stop now before it kills me later. I just discovered this sub so apologies if there is a broken rule that I missed. 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I know it myself. I can’t seem to stop though. I’ve been binge drinking for a year now. I’ve became dependent on alcohol. I need it to help me sleep at night, drown out my mind and escape. I can’t do it anymore. I’m tired of waking up with no memory of the day before and immediately craving another drink to make me feel “happy”. It doesn’t...I know alcohol isn’t my friend. I know I need to stop drinking or at least cut back but every time I say I’m going to and make an attempt I always relapse. I don’t want to go to AA meetings but I think it’s the best way to keep me motivated to stay sober. If anyone has any advice as to how to resist those cravings please tell me! Thanks",-0.019304511278196657,2.0624780595238117,2.6786591478696766,91.60669172932332,86.85714285714286,5.441604010025063,19.55639097744361,6.8360192770164,0.2673285714285716,606,18,136,8,19,211,105,168,0.075,0.757,0.168,0.9555,0,0,5,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,4,4,7,1,0,5,0,8,8,2,6,0,32,27,11,1,6,4,0,1,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,7,6,5,3,7,3,0,2,5,2,1,0,3,2,18,5,23,24,3,17,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,5,8,77,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2559805694530971,0.0,0.2799515146543197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1089842727353629,0.0,0.0,0.08906960032822941,0.13734195942529276,0.0,0.0,0.12989508164395328,0.09158293383564718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10071407511955643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11145271723051887,0.0,0.13745343662888782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08447003980357537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3849260262296076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11035469940148114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1234744971722088,0.0,0.06622646347911476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2023867123495605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14887574674363035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13942862438328069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08779186041506652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11641935453365287,0.0,0.0,0.21594641733698186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12393464638720107,0.17485779938575471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1322505446738419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.291355807534361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1229140753891196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1437746232639732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1253283539844963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10415904324589312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11923754424847825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1310726921385795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13960522881645318,0.0,0.21900711502971434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11448063364738388,0.12058703823277896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08392547866206845,0.12868531953498094,0.0,0.07637438417781447,0.1505400598105374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07725427768426064,0.10396432029920682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0843456029644927 alcoholism,ImBrainwashed,2019/02/11,"Decided to go into a 9 month rehab facility After multiple relapses, I have up my apt, my job, and surrendered my Jeep. I'll be checking in a week from today. It's John 3:16 ministries. I've heard good things about them but I'm scared shitless about it. I'll have my own room and they will give me work. I'll work for room and board and will not earn any money while in rehab. Just what I have I have in savings",1.4399137931034467,3.2407337241379324,3.2995258620689683,90.7761853448276,79.57471264367817,6.648850574712642,21.219827586206893,7.645422480735847,0.6908862068965513,322,9,72,5,8,108,60,87,0.049,0.9259999999999999,0.025,-0.4404,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,2,3,3,3,0,1,2,0,7,2,0,0,0,10,11,6,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,2,0,4,5,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,1,0,0,1,1,10,2,11,7,1,13,0,0,0,0,4,7,0,0,5,43,14,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22497627190602534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.317363025338858,0.18801875362739354,0.2774851582004791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3282984965049255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2640659685715457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3312193200168275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21978926683211536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3135888920008787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26537249257789003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4816974892549447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,drunkenfool32,2019/02/11,"Relapsed, now retaining water like CRAZY God I went nearly 10 months since I was hospitalized. I started drinking again this January due to the threat of job loss at work, but i managed to quit last Tuesday. Figured it would be like before, things would clear up in a week or so and the swelling would reduce. I am absurdly thirsty and keep drinking water, but nothing comes out the other end. I am so swollen I feel like I'm going to pop. I feel like there is half a beach ball lodged inside me made out of fluids. I CANNOT PEE. Its not like I'm eating much either, anything but small nibbles are making me gag. I keep hoping that this will subside like last time, but on the other hand I'm looking up ER rates to go and get pumped full of diuretics. The actual liver pain has gone away now, it's just swelling, This isn't as bad as last time when I went nuts with DTs but this is awful. If anyone knows any treatment for the water retention other than going to the hospital, please help me. 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I've been an alcoholic for 8 years. Been to rehab. But I've never built a tolerance and every night, while I can't say no and stop, I'm sick all the next day. Been this way for a long time. What's the deal?",-0.27055555555555344,1.7089712037037046,1.905185185185185,97.43333333333337,86.96296296296295,5.822222222222222,14.555555555555555,7.1686216300943375,-0.4207555555555561,191,3,47,3,6,64,41,54,0.156,0.8059999999999999,0.038,-0.7059,0,0,2,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,5,5,0,0,2,6,6,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,3,2,3,1,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,1,2,0,3,3,1,10,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,9,25,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.595955103853474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17981810673825582,0.2874548105483967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2349208448603541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2467500450223936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2150458909362406,0.0,0.2965319813749297,0.2616569896184565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2217316577534256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2331089512827703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1625842393124278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22131713549567544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17955320812018516 alcoholism,notnotweird,2019/02/11,"Super functional but feel terrible in my body. So I often joke to people that I’m an alcoholic, but I’m honestly starting to worry that I actually am. It doesn’t effect my daily activities but I often tell myself I’m not gonna drink and then end up drinking. Lately my kidneys have been hurting and I’m fairly certain it’s because of the alcohol and I’m scared that I’m destroying my body. I keep telling myself I’ll take a break from drinking and then don’t. I guess I’m hoping that by putting this info out into the void it will motivate me to stop drinking for my health. 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So I am 40 days sober (from alcohol). But every night I smoke weed simply because I like the way it makes me feel. Weed does not make me blackout, have hangovers, puke, stumble around like an idiot, do stupid shit...you get the idea lol. What’s everyone’s opinion on smoking weed but abstaining from alcohol? I feel like I’m some how cheating because I’m getting high even though alcohol is my problem ",1.9464285714285687,4.6162941190476205,2.7169523809523817,90.54471428571428,84.0,5.7409523809523835,26.25714285714286,7.1686216300943375,1.4280514285714283,342,15,66,5,10,107,60,84,0.171,0.733,0.096,-0.8276,0,0,4,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,0,7,7,3,0,3,1,5,3,0,4,0,16,14,6,0,1,3,0,3,3,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,1,3,1,4,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,3,8,3,5,14,1,6,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,2,5,32,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5717076052314376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15874206652399275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21740369490441966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11500125710348286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1560485033203651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1177782779348717,0.0,0.15024178025674526,0.17039182263064195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2704909304408919,0.1273914106690285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.186329046956438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17656423534741067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884042301241165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2013008906602928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2613535458729632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2380591602711575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16734067153668736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1706275774516364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1830422953729226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17519789918057774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14154163483431742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Sven_88,2019/02/11,Checking in rehab tomorrow The past 3 months have been hell. I lost two jobs and I can’t do this anymore. I called a place today and almost hung up when they answered. I have to get an assessment first but the lady on the phone said based on what I told her I fit the criteria for inpatient. I wish it was tomorrow already. 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I am almost at a week sober in I don’t even know how many years, and I want to drink so. bad. 1 week has been my goal since actively recovering. I am in an intensive therapy program and while it is helping, I REALLY want to drink. But then again I don’t. I know the moment I take a sip I will regret it. I want to walk into the session tomorrow and make them proud. I want to make myself proud. But I reallyyyy want to drink. So much that I just randomly started crying. I am locking myself in my room and not going anywhere no matter what. Just smoking 10000 cigarettes and trying to stay focused. Want to take a sleeping pill like right now so I don’t have to be awake when everyone is asleep and I’ll be tempted. No questions, just looking for motivation. This is so fucking hard.",0.07387550200803261,2.4491388674698804,2.3195481927710877,90.75193273092371,94.06024096385542,5.417269076305221,20.772088353413654,6.996647511020387,0.7802016064257029,636,23,131,11,24,214,98,166,0.08800000000000001,0.737,0.175,0.7525,0,0,4,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,1,4,13,6,1,0,6,0,15,7,2,5,0,31,32,16,0,7,6,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,5,7,3,0,4,3,0,2,6,3,0,0,1,2,20,3,15,28,1,22,0,1,1,1,4,7,1,3,13,88,25,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13766052515314786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1147851913184569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510089226501676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4040170547828967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09080039405498463,0.0,0.0,0.1313624626704489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12709265678299708,0.0,0.0,0.07812974004008706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12314985543107868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09214603965918614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15110441933997915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06716293634964729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11544368072348828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.275295231939622,0.13937723298161825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10105933439960588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15400253508021286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08806947480937606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174021917403081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1137200556957668,0.0,0.13757345420105813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09730492651597253,0.146529175829414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20672693694161814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1572136966727781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18667187749018715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4865149708649286,0.0,0.3308204653880819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08852885949903268 alcoholism,kaimoonie,2019/08/27,"I'm scared The past months have been a constant up and down. Quit smoking, started drinking more. Moved to a new city, discovered the local metal bar, made friends, heck, even a relationship with the absolute best guy there is, drinking more and more often. Just sliding down this abyss and can't stop. In the past month there were maybe a few days where I didn't drink, because of exams that decide whether I'll go to university or not. Even have the last exams coming up on Friday and I'm just so s*itlessly scared I'll f it up completely, because I could and can not bring myself to putting that beer down for a day or two and just function. And I don't know what to do or say, just knew, this morning, sitting on the bathroom floor, that I'm gonna f it up completely for myself if I continue like that. I hope this'll do as a beginning...",5.529642857142861,5.607461250000004,5.7120000000000015,84.03300000000002,67.45238095238095,8.862857142857143,31.68095238095239,8.548686976883017,2.234019523809524,662,25,137,9,10,210,102,168,0.036000000000000004,0.872,0.092,0.8311,0,0,4,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,2,11,6,0,2,12,0,12,5,0,1,0,28,25,14,0,3,11,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,1,9,9,5,1,3,5,0,6,5,2,0,1,5,1,7,4,19,18,5,33,0,0,0,0,4,13,1,6,14,90,16,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1799131307534943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1548643419991897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12711744690764476,0.3094461397304976,0.15946943841658645,0.0,0.11782167191963445,0.0,0.0,0.1903393244091042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4336837057872646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1949355895476751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11401128195148698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08386674471202296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14611630393133515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14656910646182847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08109994833684572,0.12028826049895175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07209465734886167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13963315821252045,0.0,0.0,0.14825268526378013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2355760023514619,0.15684227109776613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1425228580135223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2817422177427982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14834739383929713,0.0,0.156957573947184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15843365557391212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11735262566836628,0.29548420697002137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10444994988016253,0.0,0.0,0.1233741170611428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14415326633062062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,climchanwrit,2019/08/27,"Stop killing yourself. And your loved ones. For those of you who struggle with it, I'm sorry. For those of who are successfully fighting it, please keep going. For those of you who get raging drunk, become destructive, aggressive, rude, and dangerous, please understand you're not just killing yourself, you're slowing killing those of us around you who want to help. Stop. View my point as what you will, but I represent a family member who once again has had their daily life affected, curtailed, irritated, completely interrupted, endangered because of someone's inability to put the f\*cking drink down. Stop it. For your own sake. For our sake. For your family's sake. The people around you don't deserve this. Get up. Get sober. We'll be here, but please for the love of everything, stop killing us with you.",4.419678160919538,7.3747435655172415,4.130344827586209,82.66747126436783,75.41379310344827,8.004597701149425,28.28735632183908,8.841846274778883,2.6097494252873563,647,27,113,15,15,196,91,145,0.29100000000000004,0.599,0.11,-0.9806,0,0,1,0,2,0,32.0,4,9,1,1,5,14,10,1,4,0,7,5,0,1,0,19,17,5,4,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,14,6,2,6,1,2,0,2,2,11,0,1,1,1,16,3,22,13,1,13,0,0,1,2,23,5,0,0,6,72,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20581547224424385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0704681580537975,0.12767015938319615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1212034907754652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1132431405341066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10389304617139544,0.0,0.21795314761039267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18118732623259756,0.0,0.06569765082818488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07748366160725985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.102749820183479,0.5115732494954759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08165108576508309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20866546025433447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1231093030752124,0.07833296372670764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08014188299869131,0.0,0.0,0.3806794002551449,0.1092785448970042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1162090565836424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09794676960336902,0.0,0.0,0.12940376428882575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3865842029162052,0.0,0.12084931226715015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12034277347164445,0.27810304544894165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06818336325827824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Borgheu,2019/08/27,Drank 11 beers today out of boredom I’m pissing every 10 min and have a headache. I really need to get my shit together.,0.6346666666666678,2.992156200000004,3.2360000000000007,86.70466666666668,87.0,6.533333333333335,24.333333333333336,7.793537801064563,1.6563333333333334,95,4,19,2,3,33,24,25,0.312,0.688,0.0,-0.8225,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,1,4,2,0,0,3,5,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,3,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,8,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4269009917677122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2647201557546267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3756978901315129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3245931242307201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5201012481122471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4802747891883799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,happysisyphos,2019/08/27,"How long can I drink daily without risking irreversible alcoholism? So I (m, 23) have been dealing with depression and social anxiety for many years and no medical treatment has been able to really heal me, yet. Now, I've flunked out of law school, accumulated some debt, lost my flat and had to leave the city where all my friends live to move back in with my parents. I've been living with my parents for over a year now and my life is going nowhere, I despise my hometown and don't have any friends or life here. My internet addiction has helped to take my mind off reality but obviously is no solution. Recently I've struggled to endure the sheer boredom and meaninglessness in my life so I've started to drink daily behind my parent's back. I never even liked the taste of alcohol, in fact I hate it, I only ever drank to get drunk on parties, but at the moment I'm desperate to escape my misery. It has only been a few weeks with the drinking, but I wanted to know how long I can drink before I become irreversibly addicted to alcohol.",7.953019801980197,6.8069384603960446,8.410772277227725,70.73992079207923,62.91089108910892,11.84237623762376,37.526732673267325,11.00357731598739,4.109172673267327,827,35,152,19,10,276,124,202,0.183,0.7390000000000001,0.078,-0.9716,4,0,7,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,1,13,10,2,2,7,0,15,17,0,2,5,28,25,14,0,1,5,3,0,1,2,0,10,0,0,0,2,11,10,0,1,5,1,2,5,7,0,0,7,1,21,3,28,18,3,26,0,3,0,0,8,9,0,2,16,102,23,1,0.10834429290619572,0.0,0.0,0.2362225429720581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3473612985397169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07367783446032511,0.0,0.08288308752186921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16662014710156126,0.0,0.0,0.11965775933610925,0.09219301332893752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11169820860435087,0.0933167807216588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4245446397798989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07156038364517989,0.0980036157614836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16741306387937588,0.0,0.05660542129770596,0.0,0.06157455845380085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10696755865662624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07262089573534546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05954318993320186,0.0,0.0,0.11472096250673675,0.0,0.0,0.2295803346031446,0.05293154883234466,0.0,0.19133999119126666,0.19176257965182986,0.0,0.0,0.11827059425576784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10984410769768778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10914547670527816,0.0,0.0,0.10939685034916392,0.0,0.0,0.11515283707383245,0.0,0.0,0.08356179790305014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1648014338719644,0.0,0.0,0.36091054676913337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06940812834988441,0.0,0.10697691849198128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10965020864680924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1104433624993326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07668664816402056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1132649790135709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08146142465184046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06390427105990913,0.0,0.08690725654234642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10444003208646416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13954034484882782 alcoholism,Trekkie200,2019/08/27,"How to still feel (and acknowledge) a problem when sober? When drunk (like right now, please excuse any typos) I often feel like I could put all my issues/ reasons for being drunk into perfectly articulate words without being ashamed of my issues. Once I am sober however it more like ""it's not big deal, I can handle that in my own perfectly well, no need to whine about it like a baby"". I know that the attitude is unhelpful, but I have a really hard time with being honest to people who could help me.. Has anyone had had similar experiences and maybe some tips or 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alcoholism,smelly_shit,2019/10/27,Yoooooo I dont feel okay until my heart rate is 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alcoholism,Percy_thedragonborn2,2019/10/27,"almost a year passed and i havent learned a thing. begining this year i almost died because of alcohol. i was sober of alcohol for the majority of the year, i was high most of the time when i was ""sober"". i quit weed and now i drink daily again. i almost died and i didnt learn a 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alcoholism,anotha_throwaway282,2019/10/27,"Help or advice needed Throwaway account for obvious reasons Anyways so someone i know close to me has been dui twice first time he was hungover in the morning ( vomiting profusely) and last night he was tipsy and was driving home My parents told him that its stupid to do that and scolded him but he doesn’t seem to get a hit What can i do to help him ?",2.41,4.759872000000001,3.312857142857143,89.12214285714286,79.0,5.7142857142857135,28.57142857142857,6.868970318607317,1.5124285714285717,280,13,54,3,7,89,55,70,0.031,0.892,0.076,0.4939,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,2,0,9,1,0,1,1,11,15,6,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,4,4,0,0,3,0,1,1,1,1,0,2,5,0,7,0,6,9,0,7,0,0,0,0,10,2,0,2,4,37,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2792947160595127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431137499951443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14932633024436984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3831509989894775,0.0,0.28669534444752665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15707622768155027,0.2329770435250298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21192790195353586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2682176374469843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3173632858242845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2938650078225973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2601948744442828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2421697803308691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16666078983054428,0.0,0.0,0.2731080955191264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,soupfag,2019/10/27,I want to stop Im a SAHM who was/is going out to the bar 1-3x a week. I dont drink at home ever but i look foward a lot to the weekends. The people at the bar i go to have become good friends in all honesty and my only friends besides my husband. He does not drink. I binge drink when I go out to over 10 drinks in the span of a few hours and often black out. Ive done some really stupid things and who knows what else. I dont go out with my husband he is a home-body abd babysitting is hard to come by. I dont want to drink at all for a while...maybe one day ill know my limits but right now i dont...i dont want to do AA i grew up w/it and know all it entails and its just not for me. I need the escape on the weekends but know I cant handle going to the bar right now and not drinking......any advice? 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Hi all. I’m an alcoholic. I drink every day. I drank last night. I tend to shake quite a bit when attempting to hold my hand still. I know of “the shakes” but I’m not sure if that only during withdrawal. Is my shaking due to alcoholism or something else?",-0.4298493408662907,1.8100672203389865,1.7666666666666693,94.07263653483992,97.13559322033899,5.334086629001884,20.11487758945385,6.937597516519254,0.6312583804143124,222,8,48,4,9,74,44,59,0.133,0.81,0.057,-0.5111,0,0,5,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,2,5,0,4,3,0,2,6,1,0,2,8,7,4,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,5,1,1,2,0,4,1,4,0,0,1,1,8,1,5,6,2,11,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,7,26,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5169033421291713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26402486575823114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15596574263285026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4738190698873222,0.0,0.0,0.20202492711316844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20375925813697135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13290804419012558,0.1971305502630585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269489287879175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18392897894976173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25722487624162393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18617899330133825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1931324356333563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279298028136965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Resonation666,2019/10/27,"First Post - Long Term Denial Issues - Extreme Personality Hello there reddit, I’m not sure where to begin but if you’re willing to follow, I’d appreciate some feedback. 3+ years back I got into a horrendous breakup that I would call my first real heartbreak, I’m a male(27) and at that time was a habitual pot smoker and struggled with numerous pharmaceuticals, after the separation pot no longer was the friend it was before and instead it hurled me into anxiety episodes that just exacerbated my pre-existing pain. I tried to resort to Xanax for help but that quickly spiraled out of control and essentially I was peeled off of the floor by my concerned parents after not hearing from me for some time. I had saved money up prior to the break up and shortly thereafter I decided I was going to quit working for a few months and get my head clear and maybe do some traveling, express myself creatively, or whatever really. Well, that was short lived because I couldn’t manage my money due to habits I had formed, and long story short, I had to go back to work quicker than expected. I called an old friend who was a GM at a local bar and got involved there, beforehand I hadn’t really drank at all. I got invited out and had one beer and because of the benzos I essentially was a zombie and had to be driven home after that single beer. I felt embarrassed and shortly thereafter stopped with the pills. This is where alcohol enters the story. With all service industry workers, there’s a lot of going out afterwards, and at first it was just beer and the occasional shot. Then I met a good friend who was a spirit enthusiast and started delving deeper into hard liquor to the point where beer just felt heavy and I didn’t enjoy it. This is where things started to get out of control. I’d wake up on the floor of my bathroom with the shower running with no recollection of getting there, I’d feel like shit and chase the hair of the dog right then and there. I started buying pints regularly and carrying them around and continued to do so with random outbreaks of mania over the next 2 years. Around 7mo into this whole thing I met a new girl, and she, like myself has deep seated emotional issues and when we fought, we fought hard, and that just made the drinking worse. Every time I’d swear off alcohol I’d go a day or two and would want her support in the process but it’d be met with something like “oh honestly I forgot you weren’t drinking” or “are you sure you should quit cold turkey, maybe you can have a drink or two and just learn to control yourself” which would ultimately break me. In the past three years I’ve been sober a hand full of times and I’d say I drink on average 500-750ml a day. I’ve recently reached out to a friend and am doing a 7 day dry deal with him and it feels good to have a support system. However, I’m shaking like a leaf and can’t seem to get my mind together at all when doing the most medial of tasks. Long story short, I’m concerned, in mild denial, and constantly am thinking about needing a drink. To make things worse, I’m dealing with intense personal issues at the moment that I just want to escape from. I know this lifestyle isn’t healthy, but it’s hard not to be selfish. The claws of alcohol have gotten a hold of me, and I’m scared of what’s next.",6.914928240229628,6.445214893353943,7.1399849856480495,76.79750231839259,64.67233384853168,10.052709207330537,33.16886729962464,9.461161749540981,2.8690726341355703,2624,95,502,43,35,851,306,647,0.096,0.758,0.146,0.9883,4,0,14,0,0,0,55.0,2,4,1,12,26,28,3,4,42,0,45,23,5,5,6,114,91,46,0,10,18,1,9,4,4,5,6,2,2,3,26,54,15,6,10,12,3,10,11,10,1,7,34,12,46,18,82,47,14,103,1,1,0,0,35,44,1,12,49,331,72,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21363787886784225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05097564721985074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11863868197294665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10247651351221372,0.0,0.0812402420615162,0.0,0.056701537842094724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.136083716259493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07200883962231819,0.2242106959537755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12892232538052886,0.13739566531959413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3263850085940106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07495548647056317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056142921587313724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06738538850232477,0.04760410831039423,0.12796023660476452,0.0,0.0,0.17003927303373564,0.0,0.0,0.20592836342052664,0.0,0.13925629814606166,0.0,0.15148098669132407,0.1117806727931702,0.1598824614440162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17907580649208174,0.0,0.06838680745760678,0.0,0.07510256833821419,0.0,0.044664083741061934,0.0,0.06684040968886312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2086491065666687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036620892574478425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13021812004124295,0.0,0.05883998884236659,0.17690982387186566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05665075479719809,0.0,0.06305171571129935,0.04447942757801985,0.0,0.13388777113329567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06728242657333887,0.0,0.053187478242316594,0.0,0.0,0.04940906110063538,0.0,0.06435656717119727,0.14173430874863194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06992229819103378,0.0,0.04515364889838181,0.0,0.07090441407345857,0.0,0.07399036104188103,0.0,0.06361071555064576,0.0,0.11636634819438355,0.0,0.0,0.06299168081550605,0.0,0.06381797874996989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14174920137795335,0.0,0.0758452995076289,0.0853762660330498,0.0,0.0657940940758885,0.0,0.0,0.05690598687331198,0.0,0.052990883299758325,0.06671333103666048,0.0,0.0,0.06066206634890545,0.0,0.0,0.06839994320303283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05129893344574092,0.0,0.0,0.14149393948133768,0.0,0.0,0.055709903397245006,0.0,0.06966144463472293,0.0,0.0,0.15123337868841094,0.1256055323697641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13280814158785365,0.042697063136026635,0.0,0.0,0.15542178395410908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04524083942815331,0.0,0.13018556457342265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07860618311382565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059912931723757036,0.0,0.0,0.0743956775236284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09702225117351454,0.0,0.13581366106555492,0.14200692857084296,0.0,0.0,0.12873240376222672 alcoholism,buddamus,2019/10/27,"Ex drinkers: When you were drinking what was the thought process? Trying to help me wife (UK) My wife has a drinking problem, she will go through stages of binge drinking that can last 2-5 days then will not drink for 2 weeks She has agreed to get help but it still is in the early stages. I work long days and nights so the drinking happens then so nobody can stop her. When I call her to see how she is its obvious that she is drunk and will flat out deny it and try and make me feel bad for not trusting her. When she does snap out of the binge she is very sorry for her actions but I am trying to understand her mentality when she is mid binge My questions are How did you feel lying to people, was it so they couldnt stop you or because you were lying to youself? When drinking in the morning is it to lessen the hangover and it spirals from there?",2.4089904761904752,4.140973822857145,2.8502857142857145,95.40704761904765,76.4857142857143,5.352380952380952,24.23809523809524,5.6839178017228535,0.2724095238095239,669,22,148,3,15,206,97,175,0.174,0.799,0.027000000000000003,-0.9841,0,0,7,0,0,0,12.0,0,4,1,1,12,3,0,0,7,0,21,7,0,3,1,25,30,20,0,2,5,3,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,9,7,7,2,5,7,0,2,3,2,0,0,6,3,24,1,18,20,0,26,0,0,1,0,24,5,0,2,17,103,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10539139490635012,0.07694470671843899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288883608792455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16280749973397798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11045908237314647,0.0,0.0,0.7419061723980088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12764484260136344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06594659707827215,0.0,0.07173575434178217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11161907160119064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1692099746183189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10288904302870923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11170387292481644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08425520217931537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272036539462837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11845225444873783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0875075190483916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12077889394534845,0.0,0.0,0.14139926766500893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1005838300117969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14129693419635414,0.0,0.0,0.10080229296576766,0.21105708547582747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10020740226177467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2570925221167624,0.0,0.0,0.13140317082490022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10414765093149256,0.0,0.0,0.1012489210217824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09189225034627466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,psy_mon,2019/10/27,"Worried about my future Hey all, I've never posted anything before, but i feel like I could use some guidance on my circumstances. I just turned 21 a couple of months ago, and drink about 4-6 beers just about every night since I have been able to buy it myself. I know that some of my family has struggled with various addictions, and I myself had a destructive, in a loose sense of the word, relationship with pot. I get frustrated when I cant drink, and at the end of every day it is what i look forward to, as if it were my reason for making it through. I like drinking a lot, but I think it would help me recognize the long term consequences of this detrimental relationship to hear some of your experiences and advice. thank you in advance.",8.027004926108376,6.614654124137932,8.032019704433496,74.37137931034484,62.93103448275862,11.596059113300493,33.817733990147794,10.608840637214634,3.318428571428572,588,19,114,12,7,191,99,145,0.11900000000000001,0.792,0.08900000000000001,-0.6652,0,0,4,0,0,0,16.0,0,2,0,1,6,6,2,1,7,0,9,5,0,3,2,26,19,9,0,3,5,0,1,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,8,6,4,0,4,4,1,2,2,3,0,0,3,3,20,3,21,14,7,17,0,0,1,0,7,5,0,5,13,82,28,0,0.15147248048437026,0.0,0.0,0.16512736190582133,0.0,0.14801715485271713,0.1342712146228981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12464894514686595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12889192441685313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12093845023885523,0.16760141860333164,0.0,0.09768721890676084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4451560940972783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13415965829501084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2552441955251921,0.0,0.0,0.14816915120391613,0.14279477389512535,0.0,0.0765890373716984,0.10821197032366678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07913811925700431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17072049419044538,0.0,0.10152881076581888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08324531392662128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14800360558827966,0.0,0.0,0.13404837866768354,0.12719873428782993,0.0,0.0,0.12877648620064985,0.0,0.0,0.10110905692640436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12090388879086585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11682491493176594,0.0,0.0,0.14214666190734768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14506876544309225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15573893764393265,0.0,0.32524951409372177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1252996011300945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15835192480373478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13945550906044218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09705744930368967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16475856234927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308235894178237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15382765658105252,0.0,0.10760170417831924,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,impawssible,2019/10/27,"I need some encouragement So I’ve been lurking this subreddit for a few weeks, knowing I need to make a change. But I’m honestly so sad thinking about my future. I have a 13-month-old beautiful baby boy, a great job, and a wonderful partner, and I know if I can’t knock this habit I’ll lose everything. Ive tried just saying no to the liquor store but it’s just so damn convenient and tempting, and having a partner who constantly has a stocked beer fridge sure doesn’t help matters. I guess what I’m asking for is some encouragement and guiding words from people who have been in a similar situation. Not advice so much as a group of cheerleaders who I feel can support me in my attempts at finally becoming sober.",4.847357142857142,6.151209021428574,5.8000000000000025,78.415,69.5,9.6,32.57142857142857,9.888512548439397,3.286942857142858,573,26,108,14,10,189,97,140,0.086,0.7070000000000001,0.207,0.9421,1,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,2,7,9,1,0,10,0,11,2,0,1,1,25,24,13,0,3,6,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,7,5,2,0,5,2,1,0,4,3,0,0,2,2,11,6,11,22,4,7,0,2,0,0,12,3,1,5,4,69,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1913166813529552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18303048457495247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2162267151862723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.207112237220346,0.0,0.0,0.21157164826500208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1759569519836701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09899366375843982,0.0,0.0,0.21447048211700545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21585122264328827,0.2156768214217983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13122908055324028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19428421424026784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21519420792101204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21903086828707088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13068653592980214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15627195907900934,0.0,0.14392288136998227,0.2903409234509505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2054411091241764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13573113868870432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1556943367168692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22006806453899827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.222171995616184,0.18452296727773976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12544970966264818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329236662736067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15704514869961686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2123180896247139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ItsProbablyIE,2019/10/27,"33 and numb Long story short — I’m a relapsing alcoholic. I come from a family of drunks and I carry the torch well. I consume on average 8-10 drinks a day and I’ve watched most (~all) of my male parents (split family,) deal with the ramifications of long-term alcoholism but I can’t break free. I’ve tried AA as well as other support groups but I can’t seem to find any traction. I’m sorry if this post lacks direction but I felt the need to vent and I appreciate this community. Thank you and keep doing you.",1.0187179487179492,3.4000906153846167,3.334230769230772,86.5941025641026,85.15384615384616,7.3128205128205135,21.166666666666664,8.344100000000001,1.3832974358974357,400,13,85,10,12,137,71,104,0.031,0.779,0.19,0.9505,1,0,3,0,0,0,14.0,0,2,0,0,2,6,0,0,6,0,3,5,0,0,1,19,12,11,0,3,4,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,3,7,4,1,3,2,1,1,2,1,3,0,1,2,10,6,10,11,3,7,0,0,1,0,6,2,0,3,2,46,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4035113824988948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12838150781733335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16262312459484524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12175187758124685,0.19463091642363028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1849392065807113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35594281473229433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18126494790238595,0.0,0.17254772853558067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16780239519514378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3341407805885012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13998303104073814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2096254163855759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18080558305122948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1718644258270463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21133138292756048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2142330401726992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17380953472903424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12817385493485514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33948403772118857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,throwawayaccount376,2019/10/27,"How do I get help? I feel ridiculous but I left this tab open until I sobered up enough to post this. I'm currently in a stressful university program and I've spent the last two months drinking an excessive amount of alcohol on the weekends by myself in my apartment. I won't go into detail but Ive got plenty of experience binge drinking in the past, but never this much in a row and its starting to spiral out of control. I'm scared that I'm losing control. Every morning after the weekend I wake up I feel embarrassed with myself and tell myself I'm being dramatic and that what I'm doing is normal. Which is why I'm posting now, before I'm 100% sober enough to write it off as just a silly weekend mistake. But I need help and I have no idea where to start. I feel lost. I feel scared and I have no idea where to get help. I'm away from my wife while I finish my degree and I feel like I have no support. I have a family history of alcoholism and I don't want this to get worse. I guess I just need some advice on where to start to get help before things get worse. I just know that when I wake up tomorrow 100% sober I'll think I'm being silly. But I know right now I have a problem. It's weird but its like I'm a different person when I'm even a little bit under the influence and when I'm 100% sober I'm unwilling to seek help. I hope this all makes sense. I guess I'm just looking for some advice on where to start before I lose control of the situation completely. I'm sorry if this breaks the rules. I just don't know where else to turn to right now.",1.7366246484008767,3.403262637462234,3.62029169705178,89.43610271903324,78.21450151057401,6.499051984581728,21.987811230336494,7.372421405659032,0.7024496510053129,1227,35,267,16,29,414,151,331,0.16699999999999998,0.737,0.09699999999999999,-0.9732,2,0,4,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,6,18,17,1,4,15,0,15,6,2,6,2,56,62,23,0,8,12,1,5,2,0,1,2,0,0,1,16,13,4,3,11,5,1,1,7,11,0,1,3,6,34,6,39,56,8,53,0,3,1,0,9,26,0,6,25,164,50,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16925067492338378,0.0,0.18509991950677684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08136433884209121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22107280627133716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09454568662360004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09079933190353892,0.0,0.2913906138288937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.090479444568435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16967170561455278,0.0,0.0,0.07234388849756206,0.0,0.0,0.17896363282885056,0.0,0.05719903732057108,0.0,0.07296494181012471,0.0,0.0,0.08471223781135716,0.08163956360777967,0.0,0.21893993097946413,0.06186765659120346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22622681995446656,0.0,0.04921725244598898,0.0,0.06926260198019456,0.0,0.19080117495674734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2902335841305343,0.0,0.0,0.08601417329699576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1955236119840255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.142780668703324,0.0705912421376846,0.0,0.0,0.0940920648210794,0.0,0.0,0.0846175909874638,0.08679679140275731,0.0,0.0,0.0727228936707946,0.19376837411396436,0.09453504565186123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057806732411147387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06912396336450774,0.0,0.06366158098845606,0.12842684941124927,0.0667919057076286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08485043499186957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08267029978899497,0.0,0.07561651214975684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16587932990589233,0.0,0.0,0.08286530709823807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14791328642922508,0.0,0.0,0.17340509469138318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.097342971320919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09694254899799368,0.2451860779323125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09920096832998414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09827360568141427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07569295025740842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05753374927711999,0.05549032075821594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09419684463185203,0.0845964359803146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05107941851490956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07814378717985614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17650730664696004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Downscapes,2019/10/27,"Just relapsed right after getting my 2 month chip tonight. This is my 7th two month chip in ten years. I’ve detoxed 3 times, rehab and out patient once each this year and have been a chronic relapser for 10 years now. I’ve had a real crazy last year. I’ve seen shadow people, thought the earth was shaking, gone to rehab in and out patient all in the span of 13 months. Finally I had a seizure 9 weeks ago and went to out patient. I was fine for two months. Went to a meeting tonight as I do almost every night. Idk what happened. I found out I’m basically homeless come tomorrow cuz I’ve restored a bedroom in a home that has made me sick cuz I just found mold in the wall 2 weeks after moving in after the renovation. I also had to get rid of a very beloved pet this week. I know I won’t pick up tomorrow, but I just wanted to tell someone I relapsed. I can’t tell the people around me yet cuz it’s just a slip right now. I have the tools and get better and better at taking care after relapses. Yet I’m still relapsing apparently even after a meeting and after acknowledging this disease is gonna kill me sooner than not if I don’t stop. Idk why I did it tonight. I stood in the wine isle for almost ten minutes. I just wanted to tell someone I relapsed. If I drink tomorrow. Which I WILL NOT! I’ll tell someone close.",1.1507427055702948,3.369505582417585,2.8205734495389687,91.60747252747255,82.91941391941394,5.2307187065807765,23.3332070228622,6.48374012150746,0.5899385878489327,1036,38,219,10,29,341,144,273,0.055999999999999994,0.8640000000000001,0.08,0.7904,1,0,2,0,0,1,25.0,0,0,0,2,13,6,1,1,16,0,17,7,0,5,1,42,39,15,1,4,10,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,3,0,9,15,2,1,5,2,0,6,5,2,0,4,16,1,24,4,33,20,2,59,0,0,1,0,6,19,0,4,34,132,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09334494321365536,0.0,0.21089191026335716,0.0,0.0,0.08421094005723193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09374218366278418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18626426609698174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10736364204415852,0.0,0.0,0.09070939237900176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10315705775415138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06955177794657502,0.0,0.08872249723750936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11535452083394655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23091907193890435,0.0,0.0,0.1650497450736722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0931192820117291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10562770686508366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11650240137015118,0.0,0.05787189103120113,0.08583617186800811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09964044468751064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3362080745359949,0.11192064863415244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09881993039995372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11214448334359063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14600797565363394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1198581083027255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17985673422118528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.267669207719408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08409528059547243,0.08803819983926271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07917490977534875,0.0,0.3681585925244979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08359898731479362,0.06140314935370734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20573187263270348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08688617759337577,0.1242211247115336,0.0,0.2534036530163203,0.0,0.0,0.19523426378506584,0.0950197693604034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2712472623857404 alcoholism,femaleparsley,2019/07/06,"First Saturday without party I stopped drinking today. On a Saturday. I am now fighting myself not to go to a bar. I could make it in time if I leave now. Hopefully I don’t, because I know that I am headed to destruction if I continue. (I had an issue with drugs as a young adult, but have been sober for 10 years, except the last months when I started drinking again.) I hope really I can stay on this path. I wanted to ask you guys how do you deal with the fear of missing all the fun when not drinking with your friends in the clubs?",3.214545454545455,4.230468045454551,4.468863636363637,87.51329545454546,73.0909090909091,7.6818181818181825,27.38636363636364,8.07648339933343,1.602363636363636,415,15,89,6,8,137,76,110,0.124,0.737,0.139,0.5725,0,0,4,0,2,0,13.0,0,3,0,1,6,8,2,1,8,0,9,6,1,2,1,19,18,7,0,6,7,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,3,3,4,1,1,5,0,1,4,4,0,1,2,0,17,4,16,15,1,23,0,1,0,0,9,4,0,4,17,66,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1659026593791481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10817895656729312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14168866358891305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18295513816770767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5215344825118277,0.205799139158396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1996936600523632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15094876353127135,0.0,0.0,0.13710640759523074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10085552839467757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17571490452710387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18212682005871933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35251886142241784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1852238255681937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09752826546898333,0.14465490599349826,0.0,0.18790623241324644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11845700953124084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14164817220368658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11368645809884954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256082482053366,0.1891504751702703,0.0,0.14836586073722452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10347929787833147,0.0,0.16821286595765492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10467146149752043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17106666919163632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11427946513545265 alcoholism,ekurana,2019/07/06,"I just realized that I'm alcoholic. Hi, I had a few drinks and realized that I'm alcoholic. And I really need to vent... I have a good job, ""a kind of family"", no friends or hobbies. I drink almost every night about 4-12 beers. I don't have no one to talk to and I think that alcohol is only thing that gives me comfort or it is only way I can relax. But forsake for my child I need to stop drinking and get my shit together..",1.02717032967033,2.5329705494505497,3.8880082417582433,87.44761675824181,79.76923076923076,8.066483516483517,23.46291208791209,8.841846274778883,1.6366802197802202,324,11,74,8,8,116,60,91,0.114,0.759,0.127,0.29600000000000004,1,0,7,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,2,6,1,0,3,0,7,8,1,0,0,15,14,7,0,2,4,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,1,6,4,7,1,3,5,0,0,3,1,0,1,1,0,12,5,7,13,1,3,0,0,0,0,5,0,1,3,2,47,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5326949214789903,0.16637630528077854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4882944095296674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13998945020913586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15663245034180226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12836791158469338,0.0,0.08680708121552275,0.1593872549573687,0.0,0.13935964219449454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16487930851012247,0.0,0.0,0.17302078090294631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2463978397729299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15592153238610684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1125882712460968,0.2527307654741894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10644063583588276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17055169507766316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13890974191030778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13354594371828207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11038339413376597,0.10646290262364523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.131882992921796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,dechinoo,2019/07/06,"Anxiety from sobriety Ok, so I went on a bender earlier this week. I stopped drinking when I got home from work yesterday night, I had time to sleep 11-12 hours I had a decent comedown. It’s nice to be able to focus on something with my mind sober. Well at first sobriety was nice, but now I feel all this fear and anxiety in me. My hands are shaky and my heart is pounding hard, I can feel the blood pumping everywhere even when I’m resting. Earlier today my boss wanted to talk to me and I thought she had noticed I was drunk yesterday. I had a mini panic attack, even though it was nothing. I had to go out and get some fresh air and recollect myself. It’s almost as if I the awareness that comes with sobriety is overwhelming. What is up with all this fear and alertness?? I feel the cravings rn",2.6334161490683243,4.488418397515531,3.993136645962736,86.91653726708078,76.20496894409938,7.58136645962733,27.02795031055901,8.418075326091056,1.9042596273291923,626,25,128,12,14,206,101,161,0.19399999999999998,0.747,0.059000000000000004,-0.9739,0,0,2,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,2,8,10,1,5,6,1,14,6,4,1,2,27,25,13,0,2,2,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,8,11,2,1,5,2,0,3,0,6,1,1,11,5,21,4,18,13,4,22,0,1,0,0,2,7,0,4,12,88,29,2,0.16429194903845665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16451465503914486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2513657826551597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18690580998709166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14152296669328251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16094356345944744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2170265657312529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3697482370979137,0.2492128375637297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13974664792353014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08583576247246212,0.0,0.09337090074800626,0.0,0.13139928000122347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471733161109562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19468675064546426,0.0,0.0,0.16479822043230352,0.0,0.16179447570993094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16588803415878595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15417686473074196,0.0,0.1576425560807678,0.1870474728999893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19276120351871026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16441059871921554,0.0,0.0,0.12647996894821356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13735542590265162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1320516453686897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16141600577449675,0.13042945594774455,0.0957999566851801,0.0,0.15572955753508044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09690364820050364,0.0,0.1317850915810514,0.0,0.14771819285545734,0.1523002827292529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1196064956076657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,doorpostfren,2019/07/06,I’m about to turn 17 and I’m addicted to alcohol I just...wanted to write that down somewhere so maybe somebody will read it. I don’t know what I’m doing. I don’t know why I keep doing this. I’m tired. Nobody cares. If I wanna change I’m gonna have to do it alone and by this point I don’t know if I can. But I’m gonna try this year.,-3.0246666666666684,-1.4233727999999992,0.43250000000000105,103.83583333333334,102.0,3.6666666666666674,11.666666666666668,5.46131890053228,-1.5302083333333334,256,4,71,2,12,91,45,80,0.07400000000000001,0.88,0.046,-0.2263,0,1,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,9,3,0,0,0,11,23,6,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,7,2,1,1,3,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,7,1,8,20,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,1,37,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2682498379710902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2629712667790797,0.0,0.2548516648634613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25088216158546195,0.0,0.26030673137392424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2187160528645141,0.0,0.0,0.4056967006849783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2472078240600573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2326132732881741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461340361822404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2828183321548219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16706364411055585,0.2676507221119927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14513695553187705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22203759742693152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15845936812455602 alcoholism,tomlinz777,2019/07/06,Need help Anyone have experience for court ordered AA? Just need some advice,4.645384615384618,8.141969307692314,4.191153846153849,76.59134615384617,86.69230769230771,5.676923076923077,21.884615384615387,7.1686216300943375,1.4318000000000008,63,2,9,1,2,19,12,13,0.0,0.816,0.184,0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4348794237984607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31117622389316807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4353259942361553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2982950913271913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6599701218030353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,tbrew32,2019/07/06,"Feeling a bit frustrated Going sober was definitely easy the first one, two weeks for me. When I told my friends I decided to do this they kinda chuckled and shrugged it off. Aside being offered alcohol many times the past few weeks today was the worst. I’m only 18 days sober but today I almost caved in. I got dinner with a friend and he kept making jokes about me eyeing the drink menu, I laughed it off and said I was just going to get a soda. He asked me which one I would get if I was drinking and I kinda shrugged my shoulders and he ended up getting the biggest one. We get to pay and he jokingly told the cashier I had been looking at the drinks when she asked if I wanted anything else. I was getting really annoyed here, once we got to the table he pushed the margarita in front of me and told me to drink it “you know you wanna, it’s only been 18 days you can restart”. Super frustrated, it makes things hard when people don’t take you serious when becoming sober. Super glad I didn’t decide to get a drink.",3.7507928802588992,4.907698189320391,4.659203883495144,86.11896763754045,71.96116504854369,7.435080906148866,26.35469255663431,7.793537801064563,1.4100968284789643,801,26,163,10,15,260,117,206,0.081,0.763,0.156,0.9532,0,0,6,0,0,0,15.0,2,4,1,3,8,14,3,0,13,0,14,10,2,2,0,27,39,14,0,5,4,0,2,0,2,1,1,1,0,0,8,10,8,1,4,8,1,4,2,5,0,5,16,5,28,9,17,21,3,25,0,0,2,0,22,7,0,5,14,103,36,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11567361764465317,0.10838482786026286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08907073847696045,0.0,0.2023760354507008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11954048386952153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11816797796121255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13960924767608354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5301606843663529,0.0,0.0,0.09041904847168816,0.0,0.0958668348462453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054728438414773234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0920672773841128,0.0,0.0,0.16724898387914638,0.0,0.33929965707742865,0.0,0.1230284195936512,0.0,0.17313580167683426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09696008254410256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05948483220178286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09089274829403997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444995520264185,0.1097364505005814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11527005002225638,0.2200348248658203,0.1646399135062239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10332551925297782,0.07503867401875491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06934010208328563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10295922476300902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08138158506067689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0719085878943482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06311450984031347,0.0,0.20519413643943696,0.3102784452114501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10573290162159174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06384163907309041,0.0,0.17364415908312358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07688924476055473,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,WowThatsLoudd,2019/07/06,"First Steps After yet another embarrassing night of drunken antics, today with a clearer mind, I have decided to take the journey of sobriety. As someone who has addiction run in their family, it’s no surprise that it has taken me as well. Today I realized that just because I can drink a lot, does not mean that I am good at it, all it does is turn me into someone who is out of control, and genuinely the worst version of myself when I thought I was being the best version of myself. I have embarrassed myself, my family, and my friends. As someone who has also only recently turned 21, though I was binge drinking long before that, I know that this will be tough for me because I’m constantly surrounded by alcohol and expected to partake because that’s who I am, the drunk friend. I think I’m posting here because it’s finally nice to admit that I have a problem and that maybe I can have enough self control to fix it. So wish me luck my friends, this isn’t going to be fun, but I think it may be for the best.",8.445687568756874,6.167489465346534,8.877194719471946,71.39349284928495,62.762376237623755,12.146094609460945,40.266226622662266,10.746095033038511,4.261275467546756,800,36,152,16,9,269,115,202,0.062,0.792,0.146,0.9406,0,0,3,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,1,5,8,16,0,2,8,0,22,5,0,2,1,28,36,12,0,3,3,0,0,0,3,2,2,0,0,1,21,7,4,2,8,3,0,4,3,5,1,1,4,0,25,11,22,26,8,21,0,0,0,0,10,5,0,3,11,120,46,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12821651465690873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12569349355938658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0940557956797312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12332843216635332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2867853742913918,0.0,0.10008076871945724,0.0,0.24685706984599914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12709884596194365,0.263827986096463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20584943807885864,0.0,0.0,0.2304336975802101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12152660190386515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2217518406246501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12884028173675766,0.0,0.10004232574846897,0.0,0.0,0.2726046289475474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06684269144810867,0.098648961623166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06463752518058806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1040846029986384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09999113435741712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11815897387537215,0.12811601998701105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11875651400359673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11037268051474622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08945067306308574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11264160752051695,0.0,0.0,0.1125406209986779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11612954009559101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12269695139424586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2989616348410553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08843101777192222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15072447991152696,0.11555506246951575,0.09337230132532412,0.0,0.0,0.22296845548831531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2558603054090415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10574902359523808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13525018394545113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,grizzban,2019/07/06,"Difficult couple of days. I've been dedicated to staying alcohol-free for about six months now. A few relapses here and there but for the most part, it has been a pretty sober half year. Disulfiram helps a lot as a deterrent if I actually take it every morning (which I have). I am getting married tomorrow and these couple days I knew were going to be the hardest. Most of my drinking in the past was because of social anxiety. I would always drink before spending time with people. Literally going to see everyone that means anything to me tomorrow so this is gonna SUCK staying sober through this wedding hahaha! &#x200B; The woman I am marrying has helped me fight my inner demons and helped me gain a sober lifestyle. I owe her so much for my strengths and that's what I have to keep remembering through all of this. She is currently out drinking with her girlfriends while I am home alone. &#x200B; Yes, it would have been awesome to go out partying myself with my friends but I know sobriety is more important. This just sucks! I should be happier.",5.000767766497461,7.106389746192896,5.444362309644671,77.95913229695435,70.31979695431473,8.985913705583759,32.61706852791878,9.516144504307137,3.341568781725888,848,40,147,20,16,271,126,197,0.08,0.7090000000000001,0.21100000000000002,0.9866,3,1,4,0,1,0,27.0,0,0,0,2,7,6,3,0,9,1,21,3,0,0,1,25,35,11,0,4,4,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,1,12,9,3,1,4,3,2,3,0,4,0,2,6,1,22,2,23,23,8,20,1,0,1,0,12,4,2,4,11,111,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.11922759210240096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13057056512479914,0.0,0.1265390181664718,0.0,0.0,0.10166144732842584,0.2647584880444971,0.2969180122618572,0.0,0.0,0.0934654345994846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10054165241677733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07447825525881742,0.0,0.10396403313947024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27037410631787684,0.0,0.1575887288466497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3590622386030203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1029397928624952,0.11674581396125215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0943940147559567,0.0,0.06383268843454994,0.0,0.20830882529456984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2456789599850628,0.0,0.12255397000519902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1085969542382603,0.0,0.0,0.06714554550200544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10387092084722062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330870887389291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09752089557055964,0.0,0.08981450265943039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13230630022143694,0.1166322253542681,0.08470247816527335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12429841651984518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13840326304579748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0973596298695476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12454455044166698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26044986601982545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0918622566536084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07124266868474959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1735827467806129,0.0,0.2969180122618572,0.07867828869198665 alcoholism,DependableLeaver,2019/07/06,"Memory and Burnt Bridges Through my recovery I have pushed everyone away. Even those trying to help. I have strong feelings of resentment and anger. I feel I was enabled, and those that loved me watched me 'fall.' I guess nobody ever really talked to me or genuinely cared enough to ask. Now that I'm sober and healthy (and not an embarrassment) I am expected to be happy and loving life. I'm sad because I let alcohol get the best of me and everyone just watched. I cannot suppress memories that make me sad, and I have difficulty remembering things. I'm just lonely and exhausted. Even this post is draining me by the letter...WTF. Don't have one reason to, but I keep fighting.",2.4767441860465134,5.235403651162795,3.6802790697674443,83.9943720930233,82.25581395348838,7.7810852713178305,26.429457364341093,8.648137234880735,2.415168062015504,537,23,101,14,15,174,84,129,0.128,0.738,0.134,0.1901,0,2,1,0,2,0,19.0,0,0,0,3,7,14,3,1,3,0,11,5,0,2,1,24,24,11,0,1,5,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,7,9,1,2,4,0,0,2,3,8,0,1,1,4,17,6,10,21,2,6,0,3,2,2,6,1,0,2,2,69,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20018511668851904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17511629313830418,0.0,0.17599067259229034,0.0,0.0,0.1141868246146691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19657784159352312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19098236627595316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1935487374403373,0.0,0.24744248384333314,0.16943912870765168,0.0,0.3579792178794912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18942640600898014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09786550414788142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20635101071248488,0.0,0.0,0.19940263924881071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12555476860479334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16649613130972754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19154452495827573,0.13230767579786926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3381221671071745,0.0,0.1250356834723946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12693098042636836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17939809537415086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1200001928648764,0.19259327604793888,0.0,0.0,0.21219386878208835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15055846741863718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12444522226976534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12717608087113413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Krsto7,2019/07/06,"I relapsed. I relapsed after a month of sobriety 2 weeks ago. I thought after a month, I could finally control myself and have the occasional beer with my friends. I thought I was finally free and was once again a rational person. I am 26 and have only heavily been drinking for 4-5 years. I became sober after trying to quit cold turkey, before actually researching how dangerous that is (I know, extremely stupid, but I thought it would be similar to other drugs), and ended up having a seizure in a gas station at 12am. Of course, one beer with the friends, became two, became three, became getting a six pack on my way back home from visiting them. After two weeks, I figured I needed to get back to sobriety, and it scares me to death because only after two weeks, I started to exhibit the first two stages of withdrawal, and do not want to risk the third. There is nothing scarier than waking up in an ambulance with absolutely no clue what happened, and that feeling of panic will live with me forever. Unfortunately I cannot afford to miss a week of work, especially not this week (I work as a data scientist for a company that creates AI for hospitals, and I have several upcoming deadlines to inform doctors on the conditions of a couple hundred patients (how ironic, I know)). So I have decided that I am going to at least have to taper off until next week and I can check myself into an outpatient detox program. To think this all started over a girl who broke my heart in college, and I literally almost died over this unbelievably destructive drug. Stupid post, I know. I just had to rant the only place I can.",7.3027450980392175,7.189343784313728,8.050261437908496,69.40617647058825,63.77124183006536,11.252287581699347,36.954248366013076,10.843485225782073,4.2022797385620905,1282,58,220,31,17,431,177,306,0.156,0.787,0.057,-0.9883,1,0,5,0,0,0,40.0,0,0,1,5,8,12,4,3,19,0,22,9,2,3,1,39,39,16,2,4,4,0,1,0,2,2,4,0,1,2,12,15,3,1,11,3,2,2,4,9,0,9,7,2,32,4,48,28,2,45,0,2,0,0,8,14,0,1,26,166,44,6,0.0,0.0,0.09507770652803464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08636588996512558,0.0,0.09756215435607947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14983543961985046,0.0,0.05939247427001671,0.0,0.08290582454953703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10927612270787157,0.07778999329987844,0.10780453366529516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10111704390477727,0.0,0.0,0.09972381839402976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09544438929839977,0.22597592850053635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08629413473772048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0492635774000882,0.0,0.0,0.21345978711500205,0.0,0.08287397880885479,0.0,0.0,0.15054848084597175,0.0,0.10180639415518973,0.0,0.05537176143350661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08615710060960202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11545511743641848,0.0,0.0,0.0977303171902708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1606350767636423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08603254827138823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15553552539156018,0.0,0.0,0.07224317199604374,0.0,0.0,0.10361799856723153,0.0,0.0,0.09348679232120237,0.0,0.0,0.1037598585975842,0.0660211457362184,0.22229990541722533,0.0,0.1143132098905188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08507219040284758,0.10179369977585703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09331108733038952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.103628886153006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09754450987631674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1100682613945294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13792302840334186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0624292631179394,0.0,0.2320458085158223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0661486308634075,0.0,0.3807001356987488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057466787266795376,0.07733546487081716,0.4689152140373636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14186052158925624,0.0,0.0,0.06921153554188449,0.0,0.0,0.06274177906704577 alcoholism,Westcoastincel,2019/04/18,"I need someone to talk to.... Im not an alcoholic but my problems with being an incel are kind of making me consider drinking which is something i have never done If youre a woman that has made alot of mistakes because of alcohol, message me",3.311875000000001,5.130496437500003,5.315000000000001,78.33000000000001,74.20833333333334,7.300000000000002,32.83333333333333,8.07648339933343,2.7947333333333333,191,10,33,3,4,66,41,48,0.142,0.858,0.0,-0.7783,0,0,4,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,4,0,6,3,0,2,1,11,9,2,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,6,1,6,6,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,1,28,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5602283395779586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15977884923156346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2682278976325481,0.0,0.25676644852976543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2831220524969794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2729455666536584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2480133077594397,0.17495939383128034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1943500591318694,0.20215415831373376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2508023424751619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22208359868336333,0.20178385353801775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2106728052680021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,throwaway3828r61,2019/04/18,Alchohol makes me unwell after binge drink I binge drank a fuck ton about two/three weeks ago ever since then Alchohol has made me feel unwell. Should I just not drink for a while or is this permanent,2.8888461538461527,5.437834230769234,2.433012820512822,94.98490384615386,78.48717948717949,4.925641025641027,17.442307692307693,5.985473137389443,-0.4340307692307692,161,3,32,1,4,47,32,39,0.096,0.904,0.0,-0.5423,0,0,2,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,2,0,3,4,0,2,1,8,8,3,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,4,0,3,5,1,6,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,6,20,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2778848128524876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6141903075094938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.283564389991094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15850702160071975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2898110749075685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2966263128057375,0.2092531257767731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2593173548650522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3062284948498811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2514581017827634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,IamStuckInsideMyHead,2019/04/18,"How much is alcohol able to change my face/features? Hello! I've been a bit more on the alco side lately... well, past 3 years. Usually beers, wine, ocassional hard liquors. I am 26F and I have noticed my face going a bit into more... masculine features? I do not know how to say it. Sunken and dull eyes, weird face, swollen face in general (and also nose). I am thinking this could have something to do with alcohol in general, but I am not sure if I am just jugding my face poorly... Has anyone had any experience with face being changed (even dramatically) by alcohol consumption? In terms of facial features? Any pictures? I guess this question is a bit dumb, but I am curious...",2.4597879464285697,5.079663617187503,3.924151785714287,83.21281250000001,80.796875,7.4071428571428575,27.892857142857146,8.418075326091056,2.3960294642857147,525,24,98,12,14,173,84,128,0.10300000000000001,0.885,0.013000000000000001,-0.8749,0,0,6,0,0,0,34.0,0,0,0,0,6,5,1,0,4,0,16,15,8,2,1,22,20,9,0,2,6,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,3,6,6,0,3,3,1,1,2,3,1,0,2,4,11,2,12,16,7,12,0,1,1,0,3,6,1,3,5,63,14,0,0.15012991308423893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.48132965899502295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12005883725302224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2041869781427317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1049743259228469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4917089453442102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3176350830540943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.119866519415554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09915939168320777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14685586266810166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08532228935097769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16538502505835065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344869136033267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0825074739946799,0.0,0.16935308115775366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11036276028611214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17092390110077013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14331598959266045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16817986149904215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11938933265807213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11557734177618055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14149566636735422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09619718632418116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16534688906792924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13498482174047122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0966787418237018 alcoholism,TheSillyKoala,2019/04/18,"Worsening Withdrawals Been in a frustrating circle of being clean for 4-5 days, then I'll cave on Sunday and drink again Monday and Tuesday. When I stop later in the week, I am realizing my withdrawal symptoms are starting to get worse. I didn't drink last night but was a little shaky, sweating at night, and waking up frequently with vivid dreams. I need to remind myself how much better I feel waking up sober and not fall into that Day 5 trap. I know if I don't address this issue now (almost 24), one day it will be too late. It is becoming a strain on my relationships, let alone the physical damage it is causing. Just venting. Thanks for reading.",5.733571428571429,6.4000283492063526,6.285833333333333,78.04875,67.0952380952381,8.839682539682537,29.24206349206349,8.841846274778883,2.2973682539682545,516,17,94,8,8,168,98,126,0.156,0.736,0.107,-0.5284,0,1,2,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,1,6,6,1,2,5,0,12,6,3,2,0,19,18,9,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,5,6,2,1,3,4,0,1,3,4,0,1,3,2,10,2,14,11,1,29,0,1,1,0,1,9,0,3,19,62,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18085287939662506,0.18705547757163904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1994674082994511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15973314865549584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1855342243853607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3494317645432166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35385427353044896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09132085982508102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09436025498552593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18850788711409144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0992574643195214,0.1472196711512279,0.20373375400512966,0.0,0.0,0.18468397392438712,0.0,0.0,0.18101671964310306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13276770225699805,0.13391858511595056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3389768518344344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1223846929812623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18065693119709744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1939054615648176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1278353116865778,0.0,0.0,0.15099642198643998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18772092386930747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16627963259203904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.144872888487108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18405503893578828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,rabid_homosapien,2019/04/18,"Any Sydney (Australia) Peeps on here? I need to stop. I'll be googling for local groups, but any insights would be lovely. Thanks.",1.3912499999999994,4.012355625000001,1.0083333333333364,98.52000000000002,96.91666666666666,2.4000000000000004,18.5,3.1291,-0.8393000000000002,101,3,19,0,4,29,21,24,0.054000000000000006,0.6409999999999999,0.305,0.8573,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,5,6,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,3,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,9,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5927144662307098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3933242437977503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32313831226659673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36434621017498736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4012237718430132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.309578028849687,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Steak-n-bake,2019/04/18,"Is this normal? I can drink an entire 500ml of 100 proof vodka and barely slur my words. I don't get hangovers, I don't puke, I don't black out, and I don't have withdrawals. When I go on a heavy binger, I can drink a liter of vodka a day for a week with no ill effects. Am I superhuman? With no negative side effects I notice, why should I quit?",0.5691428571428574,2.213190066666666,2.748571428571428,94.44000000000004,81.66666666666666,5.352380952380952,18.714285714285715,6.1826913282559595,-0.2767714285714287,265,6,63,2,7,90,49,75,0.17300000000000001,0.785,0.042,-0.8255,0,0,4,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,5,0,10,3,0,2,1,11,12,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,2,4,0,1,7,0,0,0,0,1,11,0,7,11,0,7,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,3,40,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2071172525959367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6292157644748994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16778929751050506,0.0,0.18251877065176925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31466195925867896,0.0,0.36563505903583293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3415859711700163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25760973400610504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28979082052157884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,jasondyer84,2019/04/18,Beer and adderall. I’m going through a breakup that I stayed sober for a bulk of. She was almost at 2 years sober and I had built up 6 months completely sober for the first half of our relationship. The year prior to her and I getting together and had been drinking once a month maybe and didn’t touch any form up uppers for at least six months before. The year BEFORE that I was self medicating with booze and adderall and occasionally cocaine. My life has been a series of ebbs and flows with drug and alcohol use. Right now I’m drinking 6-10 beers every night and for the past four days have taken at least 10 mg of adderall. The self medicating really does work while the substances are active in my body but as soon as I wake up or as soon as they wear off its right back into my head with all the negative thoughts and compulsions. Idk what I’m doing here with this post besides expressing concern for myself out loud. I hope this is just a short cycle of use this time around. I try to stay conscious of my brain chemistry and body and try not to pickle it or pollute it too bad.,5.051474654377881,5.674262788018434,5.245783410138252,85.06010368663598,68.5852534562212,8.227649769585254,27.481566820276488,8.192908349453996,1.5691806451612904,863,26,178,11,14,272,134,217,0.07400000000000001,0.899,0.027000000000000003,-0.9032,0,0,7,0,0,0,12.0,1,0,1,2,8,2,0,0,12,0,12,16,6,2,1,32,22,21,0,1,5,0,1,0,0,0,5,1,0,2,9,20,6,0,2,4,0,2,3,1,0,4,9,2,16,1,34,13,4,37,0,0,0,0,8,15,0,4,17,117,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1337099340379181,0.12528464553106966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08508252151717742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11137891668612727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09620574732416816,0.1044658371784516,0.0,0.0,0.21292737762309472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2779492214165835,0.0,0.1396697691352783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13118074510091535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08068885402718863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1094890197091321,0.0,0.0,0.2451302261640617,0.1450937317221093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10541482224853282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1064227940367304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06536744749391905,0.0,0.07110576380169427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284041326755113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12426747098014042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08837245693529598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12569488010451,0.0,0.0,0.25208049173269464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.299596907655146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11741199495137135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13324344045650108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11943646827222668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1198256288769422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08015190208903426,0.0,0.0,0.13432673618322252,0.0,0.2136951309809649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26104455867999216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2667119834582169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0993273708736482,0.07295558935061912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16988980665269945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21611845700967264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09108524345052614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24170996229893185 alcoholism,kerkball,2019/04/18,"Ehh who knows That excitement of alcohol when you’re young the thrill of it being so bad and illegal it being the talk of fun “ wow I’ve never drank before “ giggles ready to try it and any alcohol , who knew id grow up to be drinking a couple beers almost every day drinking before work and after drinking for days straight now I do not consider myself an alcoholic I am to young to be one there is no age on alcoholism but this is me denying it because when you see an actual alcoholic and compare it’s not all the same except for the fact alcohol is like water actually even better , my point is I have no point I enjoy drinking but will I ever stop loving it",5.398358208955221,5.469520888059706,6.881305970149256,75.56061567164181,67.73134328358208,9.98358208955224,30.929104477611947,9.827888789773867,2.9371671641791046,525,19,99,11,8,181,90,134,0.11,0.703,0.18600000000000005,0.9114,0,0,11,0,0,1,2.0,0,1,0,2,7,10,0,0,7,0,12,14,0,0,4,18,17,9,0,0,5,0,0,1,0,1,6,0,0,0,10,4,13,1,2,5,0,1,5,1,0,1,2,1,9,9,13,10,2,18,0,0,1,1,5,5,0,1,13,72,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.2178010899350314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7155661930970485,0.11174619335658016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07588837291610548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09317709756863457,0.06802722795029617,0.0,0.18991811654109853,0.0,0.0,0.0986966388075406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1234776573271452,0.0,0.14393898383353013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4372821511264661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07370739273029693,0.10094399481894548,0.09402353384727262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061329650027900424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0545196414395035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10071877300410098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08606888255139589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0756196064524757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2109865416975964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08892670365701233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0932983507021972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08969577022127924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.075765625959394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08124243145206089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ikilIed2pac,2019/04/18,"After some self-reflection I’m starting to realize I(22) have an unhealthy relationship with alcohol. I’ve always just considered myself a social drinker. I thought what I was doing was normal, but I’m starting to fear I’m losing control. I really never drink by myself, just on the weekends, most weeks, Thurs-Sun. I hate the depression I have the next day after drinking, but I continue to do it. I’ve ruined relationships with great women due to my drunken antics. I’ve even put my career in jeopardy twice because of alcohol. I put alcohol above my health and passions, but I continue to drink. I genuinely know my life would be better without it, so I try to stop, but as soon as the weekend rolls around I find myself getting plastered yet again. I guess I just normalized this kind of behavior because my friends are always drinking, but deep down I hate it. I hate the person I am when I’m drunk, and I regret drinking every. single. fucking. time. Last time I went an extensive amount of time without drinking was about 6 weeks last August. I don’t feel as if I’m addicted because I really don’t crave alcohol until it’s time to drink socially but idk. Maybe I’m in denial, hoping I just have shit willpower. I just know something needs to change. What should I do? No one really friend or family wise I feel like I can turn too.",3.3144186046511663,5.627208368217055,4.7017248062015495,80.50049418604654,75.7829457364341,7.710852713178295,27.80426356589147,8.59863814320734,2.401547286821706,1061,44,188,22,24,352,145,258,0.205,0.677,0.11800000000000001,-0.9778,1,0,13,0,0,0,35.0,0,0,0,3,14,19,5,1,8,0,17,18,1,1,1,40,40,16,0,8,15,0,2,1,2,2,7,0,0,2,7,5,12,2,7,10,0,3,6,10,0,2,5,2,33,9,28,32,4,36,0,4,0,2,8,6,2,6,28,122,40,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08818877724624109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3458136585438153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134624204926663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0720147514487477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14794068196990634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07154609751256966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08557743230139862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0907319449426778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05217134391625871,0.0,0.06967576154975291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5547322143413015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05343116413480322,0.0,0.06815852092218773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07626171920645591,0.09103069330874912,0.08180707883081165,0.0577922473665721,0.0,0.0,0.07393764323175901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12500037644853718,0.07478721513904864,0.04226491533742826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08918832436384642,0.08911626291095671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2396046901601412,0.0,0.08598885677765612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08034816015510704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08424092313762879,0.08891685014449936,0.13188236801956746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057139364526636476,0.0395217874682378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09050213330857697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08127108629198831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05998349265696702,0.06239212133483112,0.0,0.08603400549089298,0.0,0.15852216160741395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054817345377496406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07063542432246414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1626460097428077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15547249368618896,0.0,0.0,0.1737044461730009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08439235884904764,0.0,0.0830387665634739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16492693662910216,0.0,0.0622778318208777,0.0,0.0,0.11451746556631776,0.0,0.0,0.06763282901779356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06422253096320782,0.18868485311946412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05492319625557024,0.08799181423801615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12978007250055712,0.0,0.0,0.07499156959761813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15596206203491642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0574663254567697,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Passerbye,2019/04/18,"Finally Quit :) Unfortunately to late. I just figured id write this because maybe this will help someone. So I've drank since I was probably 15 pretty steady. Then when I was a little older I started drinking with my stepfather. Drinking vodka and rum and shots and always beer. Love my beers. But he was abusive to my mother and I ended moving back to Florida. Long story short, I quit drinking the hard stuff because I became a totally different person when I would drink it. An asshole I think they call it lol Anyways throughout my life I was always the guy with a beer in his hand but you'd never really see me drunk. It would take a lot to get me there. Usually work days id have about 9 beers a night at least, then eat right before bed so id end up with heartburn or would even throw up. Then on the weekends I could easily drink 20 beers a day. Especially if went fishing and kayaking. Usually barely eating anything for those days. So fast forward and I'm 50 now. I can tell things are definitely not right in my belly. So I actually stop drinking. After I think 4 days I find it hard to go to the bathroom. And then, I simply cant. Turns out I guess beer is kinda a natural laxative so it was enabling the stool to pass the what I come to find out is a tumor. So I haven't gone to the bathroom in days. Make the appointment to have to have a colonoscopy its 5 days away counting the weekend! so it was like 9-10 days total. At this point I'm barely eating. I mean, you cant have trains pull into the station without any departures. Monday is prep day where you have to start drinking 64 fluid ounces of Gatorade with miralax amongst other things. They say be prepared to spend the day on the toilet...nothing. And now I've drunk 64 ounces of this drink and just ready to burst so I give up and go to the hospital. After my first C-scan the doctor comes in really doesn't say much and leaves. Now I get a male nurse and he starts talking a bit about cancer, and there not sure, and more tests. Then he gets an emergency and runs out. So I'm just laying there another guy comes in and says I'm being admitted and there sending me upstairs. He says has anyone told you what's going on and I said, not really...so he says...I just wanna say good luck to you bro. And the way he said it I instantly understood how bad it was. They all had seen the C-scan and new it was cancer that had spread which makes it stage 4. Still with me? So that night I end up having surgery. They give me a colostomy bag so I can go to the bathroom. It was decided to do chemo first and do minimal surgery, so I could recover quicker. Nothing like waking up to having a colostomy bag. Its just horrible. Horrible. I think I haven't really freaked about this because that cancer is in a good spot so when they do surgery again they can just cut out the tumor and reconnect the colon and get rid of the bag altogether. So hopefully temporary. Day after surgery two interns I guess, are showing me how to change the bag. They seem to be learning themselves and I'm just humiliated this is all happening, and then all of a sudden I swear it feels like a 150 degrees. I say I think I'm having a stroke. And it is just so hot and I'm begging for them to get me ice and let me have water. I'm begging. So she comes back with 3 big ice packs and I put them behind my neck and on my chest and its still so hot. And they cant give you a drink in case you have to have emergency surgery so its just torture. So the doctors comes in and throws the bag on. I couldn't see at this point, I honestly don't know if its all because all my levels and numbers where plunging or because I basically would keep a towel over my head and try to sleep through it all. And I was also on morphine lol My hands and feet feel so weird. I remember thinking I don't even know if I can think of a word to describe this feeling, and I cant. I remember thinking if there was a switch to shut myself off...id switch it. Just the absolute worse feeling ever. And the intern is screaming, he's turning gray! The buzzers are going off and there people everywhere sticking needles and different things in me, and then I wake up in the ICU Was never told what happen. I think it was sepsis Lost over 20lbs. I would say all muscle. Had no idea how quickly you can go to shit,,, Not sure how many days I stayed in ICU I think 4-5 days. Cant say enough about nurses. I kept telling them how important they are. I really was impressed! So now home maybe four days and it was my first day of chemo today. I now have to wear the colostomy bag and a pump that pumps through a tube into a port that delivers the chemo straight into an artery. Makes sleeping fun! Luckily you wear it for 3 days then they take it off and you have like 2 weeks between before they put it on again. So far the only side effect I'm feeling I've never heard of before. Extreme sensitivity to cold. As I type this I have Pepsi with ice in it. When you take a sip it burns your lips and feels very rough in the back of the throat. Like drinking fine glass shards. She said it will get so bad you will put on an oven mitt to get something outta the freezer. If you hold the Pepsi with ice it feels like that hand has been working out in winter weather without gloves and it just aches. How crazy! So I have 9 spots of cancer on my liver. The big spot (the tumor in the colon) and cancer in the omentum. Never heard of that organ before, but this one worries my cancer doctor the most it seems. &#x200B; So looking at 6 months chemo and surgery during or after the chemo. I think 2 outta 3 beat this. Surprisingly pretty calm about it. Already talked to the kids about it a bit. I look at it like, there are little kids that have to go through this. At least I got to 50 And im 90% percent sure this was caused by my drinking and poor diet so... So if I sound anything like you with the drinking, you should really think about things. They can change fast.",1.675837441796766,3.7962642497945778,2.9770823746918684,91.78179995206793,80.29005751848808,5.798655162969049,22.138379895918927,6.9256773072597895,0.5539077019994529,4660,146,992,53,120,1507,450,1217,0.111,0.7909999999999999,0.098,-0.9775,3,0,20,0,0,0,135.0,0,16,15,11,82,31,3,0,72,2,86,58,19,11,17,186,178,110,0,17,29,2,16,8,0,9,12,15,3,6,66,73,26,4,34,25,2,25,22,9,0,6,35,38,117,22,126,126,19,172,0,1,6,1,77,67,1,18,87,643,183,8,0.0,0.044081950914587165,0.03630680348287786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04105674485231891,0.029752899114001943,0.0619152349695699,0.040311702292869886,0.04520825981480542,0.025300738788059045,0.03901278356761895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.026014665810568646,0.0,0.06123324226835975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03495540921869926,0.08582525903868647,0.0621293965340296,0.1133993956326426,0.0,0.1266351740875638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08123665017925928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03799055932793837,0.0,0.0,0.03821987871926919,0.07871610951269807,0.1602444645737618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05941047807753539,0.0,0.0,0.3599131024409461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07774280614283358,0.0,0.11424296638644685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4373619195088832,0.0,0.11421029398791395,0.0,0.0,0.09885800697317784,0.03844280620861693,0.0,0.04914722555139549,0.033654136292534866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13168408896157066,0.05315865118119088,0.0,0.04075636037768825,0.06800956122688928,0.09493989828951356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1360668771160408,0.10707154497307092,0.14801158063189493,0.06241173298601126,0.02975631130572293,0.0,0.08197120808620728,0.07367778210959562,0.06580068103693705,0.0,0.06665691029741418,0.0,0.03818315868170997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.024937789323113867,0.0,0.03731974140015922,0.036953051779106974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04200002093106248,0.040187884438822735,0.0,0.0,0.03306959577763878,0.0,0.0,0.04089389179642509,0.0,0.041968964997661486,0.039394821076895896,0.0,0.03804472791026309,0.026279057191875944,0.1454122315579941,0.07457855383650973,0.0,0.03292533617901006,0.06248581489156101,0.0,0.04061375355955996,0.03163043926565768,0.03357904865937328,0.0,0.07450406464738016,0.03772012433078725,0.07475503245113764,0.04052725289295952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029696749959636764,0.0395431254576005,0.027350023937141008,0.0,0.11477944415123205,0.035932910277048154,0.0,0.06982891813449167,0.0,0.07139857956185962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02521113362418493,0.028296149451416425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.025793326653934863,0.03248605179494333,0.0,0.0,0.07034167651990768,0.0,0.0,0.07570190930205056,0.040113382487803086,0.0,0.0,0.11220418254920844,0.0,0.07914439130054783,0.0,0.0,0.1191726750664838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08429223444313155,0.06354589159816923,0.10617168884212068,0.2366958635374736,0.0,0.0,0.05929528369244332,0.06774023796319308,0.0,0.0,0.03819049290698896,0.030776437069274427,0.0,0.07446392335488776,0.0,0.03152375422871771,0.028642297963323463,0.0,0.0,0.07900186811711203,0.03965567842132597,0.0594240700274881,0.031105123351143207,0.0,0.0,0.0425909297917528,0.0,0.0,0.1051960784267147,0.0,0.08392079822307558,0.05980808826330052,0.06503778163436877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09886964134353103,0.2622347317169589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035266077511788466,0.07110212074566327,0.0,0.025259815672047325,0.08093691408485347,0.03634396936321725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08195230641596657,0.03069809783123255,0.0,0.029531670754950886,0.029843681110752345,0.0,0.0,0.03448949358625915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07172876320785597,0.0,0.05417150105320432,0.03778357751805838,0.03791516788398662,0.13214715159996407,0.0,0.04520825981480542,0.0 alcoholism,moominter,2019/04/18,"I do not like myself The benefits of sobriety are definitely awesome. I will not lie. And I know I’ll get yelled at here but I have been moderating, kind of putting a toe into being sober again. But I have a question: it came to me as I sat on my porch last night, watching dawn come over. I really do not like myself, and I do not think I’m particularly lovable. And the worst part of this is that, I have SO MANY friends who love me. My family adores me. Colleagues. Everyone. None of them know about the drinking, or the extent of it. And if I told them, they would be devastated. So why does this persist? It’s one of the reasons I drank. And I have a glass of wine on and off. I want to stop, but there’s this immense fucking void inside me, and I don’t know what to do with it. Do you guys feel it? How do you love yourself? I see these stupid click bait ass articles, and I honestly want to barf. But honestly how?",0.15657181880263948,2.401013890052361,2.2905804689278426,93.4312178465741,88.10994764397905,5.834828135670385,20.346232642840878,7.255503002510835,0.5175183701343049,707,23,162,12,23,237,114,191,0.125,0.672,0.203,0.9523,0,0,2,0,0,0,29.0,0,2,3,1,8,13,2,0,8,0,18,8,2,3,0,35,36,19,0,4,10,0,1,2,1,2,0,1,1,1,12,12,3,1,7,2,0,3,6,3,0,1,5,5,29,10,20,27,4,13,0,0,3,4,12,6,2,3,6,116,41,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20930656061751995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15764079081153104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16014706761715444,0.0,0.0,0.1792731682537389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17486710964614816,0.0,0.0,0.17251884360811173,0.0,0.09253176289300404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14138758357321893,0.16918322858065735,0.09561146004941637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18120163881932444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1905693550500661,0.3017208172820645,0.14917178539760165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1788119424081578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33033451729160224,0.0,0.0,0.18553621321120511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1717358210393581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12400749855363302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1981743029808079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18396845632564424,0.20500512581905547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1172363413025014,0.1881574562863206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458296147316868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15299861547190433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11726086649167684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17486710964614816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2158796991297791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651316494560794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13000000678413812,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,pazuzu_lives,2019/04/18,"While I don’t feel as though I need drinking to “function”, it increasingly feels that I’m only happy when I do it. Is this a sign of dependence? I get drunk on average four nights of the week (almost always alone.) I don’t need it to start my day, nor does it interfere with my work beyond waking up hungover. However, when I drink it feels like I become a ‘regular’ person - with a broader range of emotion and dopamine rushes. I hate to ask what feels like a stupid question, but does anyone have insight as to whether this is a sign of real chemical dependency?",5.309961038961042,5.889226281818183,6.20038961038961,78.59772727272731,68.0,9.194805194805195,31.168831168831172,9.23628265651192,2.667064935064935,441,17,84,8,7,146,73,110,0.066,0.8759999999999999,0.057999999999999996,-0.1926,1,1,2,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,1,4,5,2,0,6,0,6,4,1,2,0,20,17,10,0,2,2,0,4,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,9,3,3,1,6,3,0,2,3,2,0,1,0,5,10,3,15,17,1,12,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,4,9,55,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1742818204048618,0.18025905507642376,0.0,0.0,0.14482012503854896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12169693476490046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16270941496599542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1922200141122935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11224520216847468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3046174667033585,0.0,0.0,0.3409974292622593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1957782030619983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3520113308530345,0.2486768406749745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0909317953223104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18527508887608252,0.0,0.17183428595532355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17006006330035758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2581056478383816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16333027986591409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1323697440113926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15197016001844152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19497123181016246,0.0,0.0,0.19810232909547126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12319057848064018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1709992056462523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1396091166315979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1267074825752766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,nicander1988,2019/04/18,"Can your partner ask questions? My SO is an addict (alcohol mostly but not exclusively) and is trying to quit (again). We have been together for 8 years but every time it comes to this I don’t know how to “be”. I know I need to worry about myself but I worry about him. Can I ask him how it is going? He works on the road a lot... Do you find questions a trigger? He thinks he can do it himself. I want him to be successful more than anything. I just don’t trust him.. I want to be a force for good in his getting clean 🤞 Any advice appreciated!",0.0593522267206481,2.1783510350877187,2.631754385964914,91.8131781376518,86.89473684210527,5.2620782726045885,19.29554655870445,6.67199483983844,0.13753117408906898,414,12,93,5,13,143,73,114,0.063,0.732,0.205,0.9554,0,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,1,2,0,3,7,3,0,0,5,0,15,2,0,3,0,22,26,7,0,3,5,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,1,4,3,1,0,6,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,0,19,3,13,22,3,8,0,0,0,0,17,3,0,4,3,69,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2067117769238757,0.0,0.18529266586522625,0.0,0.2026441404288361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1289468472363239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15603958450987052,0.0,0.35453475548145924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1633392500270507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15976147319730655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17330755784633495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09906765944313342,0.0,0.1077643668647983,0.1590427114899047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2084183573667461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612065740124372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14059945880188976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4248314580332125,0.2016822477029829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12149965685703472,0.0,0.0,0.1105678706657864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12873827993585882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2236834005361014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13804427470249714,0.38513288003766144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1221078745210338 alcoholism,DaveHNZ,2019/04/20,"Out-of-the-blue cravings It always shook me when I got a sudden and intense craving out of nowhere. Even though I was weeks and months away from my last drink they would still suddenly jump up without any apparent cause. After the initial period of constantly fighting off cravings my recovery slowly settled down to be less demanding on a day-to-day basis until suddenly, out of the blue, I would get hit by a huge craving. Just why these suddenly pop up is quite simple but takes a bit of explaining. Cravings don't come randomly, they are triggered by a completely automatic process in our brain that we have no control over or knowledge of... but it is still there and is called the ""reward system"". A circumstance in the past that has yielded alcohol is remembered in the reward system; we call this a trigger. When that circumstance is met again then the trigger fires and a craving is launched. We feel this as the sudden wanting or longing for a drink. When we drink in response to this craving then our brain gives us a reward (hence the name: the reward system). The reward is a sudden and large dose of dopamine released in our brain. This gives us an immediate feeling of well-being, ease, and comfort. Did you ever notice that on taking that first drink you felt an “aaaaahhhh!” wash through you? That wasn’t alcohol that did that, it was dopamine … it happened immediately didn’t it? before the alcohol could possibly have been ingested and carried through the blood to the brain. The more often a trigger is successful is getting a result (i.e. when we drink in response to the craving) the more powerful it becomes, and it becomes more powerful in two ways. The next craving that this trigger will induce will be stronger, and the next dose of dopamine released if the trigger is successful will be bigger. When we act on an existing trigger we make it more powerful, and when we drink in a new circumstance we create a new trigger. In this way we build up hundreds and hundreds of drinking triggers; people, places, things, sounds, smells, and emotions; things we have in the past had a drink in the presence of. Through repetition these triggers become very powerful and compelling indeed…. as you have no doubt become painfully aware. Drinking triggers never go away… they are never forgotten. It is a feature of the brain that what has become known cannot become un-known. In this sense what’s said in some recovery circles is true, that once we are alcoholic we remain alcoholics for life. But we don’t have to resist huge cravings for the rest of our lives… that’s not how it works. We don’t get better at beating cravings, the cravings change. We can’t ever remove a drinking trigger; once it is there it is remembered for life. But we can change how powerful it is. Just as a trigger gets more and more powerful when we drink in response to it, it gets less powerful if it is not successful. If we don’t drink when we get a craving then the trigger that initiated the craving becomes less powerful… and the craving next induced by that trigger becomes less powerful. This is incredible important to know in recovery. EVERY TIME I DENY A CRAVING THEN THE INTENSITY OF THE NEXT CRAVING INITIATED BY THAT PARTICULAR TRIGGER IS DIMINISHED. When we stop drinking then we suddenly face a continuous barrage of cravings. Virtually everything about our daily routine is a trigger, so initially it is impossible to know which trigger fires which craving. But as we repeatedly deny the cravings then they lose their intensity until eventually they fall to a level that we can step past them without too much difficulty. Now, to the “out-of the blue” cravings. At first I met all the common triggers that surrounded my daily routine, and I knocked the power out of them by denying them one by one and time after time… but I didn’t meet all my drinking triggers all the time; there were still some lurking in my reward system that were untouched and had their full strength. These are often triggers left behind when our circumstances changed; a different location, partner, job, routine… or simply a particular circumstance we don’t meet very often, like a hearing song or a person that we haven’t heard or met for a while. When I met one of these triggers it could still have its full force. It fired a craving of the intensity it did last time it was fired, even if that was years ago. The cravings could be huge at a time when most of my cravings had become small. They caught me completely unaware as I’d not experienced a big craving like this for a while and I wasn’t gee-ed up ready to fend it off. The only defence against these is to know that they will happen from time to time. So I try to simply recognise them as they come, and tell my inner-self “I’ve beaten bigger than that… is that all you’ve got?” They pass quite quickly (as they come as a single, unaccompanied craving) and are quite unlikely to pop up again any time soon.",6.894102167182659,7.668494846405232,6.758590757940603,75.2920794633643,64.58823529411765,9.57936016511868,36.36670106639147,9.549672527348893,3.5411333333333332,3951,186,680,72,57,1250,322,918,0.057999999999999996,0.802,0.14,0.998,13,0,19,0,2,0,102.0,34,4,16,30,40,22,3,2,75,0,75,33,7,32,9,145,111,71,0,10,22,0,7,2,1,6,12,5,0,2,65,53,20,4,13,15,0,12,21,7,0,6,27,16,73,15,103,70,23,143,0,1,2,0,73,48,0,17,79,509,138,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037065095875210785,0.22342928068487647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034792135621475616,0.0,0.0,0.056869152522497086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07857021547855797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4156169813096782,0.035580161760422224,0.0,0.0,0.03698059393109383,0.045649452059097866,0.0,0.0,0.23338816428155856,0.08539240418762667,0.0,0.0,0.04295392578226375,0.13269924078169465,0.1080557406612028,0.08768120253291542,0.0451854792559138,0.04689733373527532,0.10015389968040403,0.0,0.0,0.053932425423137864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043686150205921495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5734576020850921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047034497386663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05523477178577466,0.07564530924829542,0.03522963058501637,0.0,0.0375792279778119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04228426801894721,0.0,0.04014746416559649,0.0,0.0,0.07113298945569255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13107479451419976,0.08022253253683351,0.023763544231883232,0.0,0.06688406296462464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07395098216933976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04712679112052294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04149339197522959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06893872712445209,0.06816707644390894,0.0,0.0,0.04543043004480367,0.0,0.05906814516805917,0.04085587403385972,0.0,0.0,0.03700358279463229,0.0,0.046778549189132435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02791079904471364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03337509266081398,0.0,0.03073769299395505,0.0,0.06449821258741792,0.08076737095468113,0.17787629133875538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04760488396397727,0.0,0.08905990799077575,0.08500161687069953,0.031801008903966116,0.044492453260918725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11974699285711135,0.028988177772846388,0.03650988711942868,0.043686150205921495,0.0,0.0,0.04713837634877256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13342123617044188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09473296367280262,0.0,0.0397741611217516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043620542027963005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13356908389946745,0.03495791207729694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06287701338073473,0.0,0.036546793697140895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0555579894376791,0.0,0.041081497149828866,0.0,0.2194358028975583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028388584265804036,0.0,0.0408456597711138,0.0,0.10059285131565407,0.0,0.0,0.06900094192264608,0.02466265305138648,0.06637913234375982,0.033540223215164484,0.0,0.03759530840607719,0.0,0.03773013020450957,0.0,0.0,0.0806133372090075,0.0,0.03044068575994757,0.0,0.0,0.05940614290123996,0.0,0.0,0.0269264874991781 alcoholism,Timetofacethemirror,2019/04/20,Need support Weekends are hard for me. I’m only at 15 days. Anyone can feel free to message me :),-0.669666666666668,1.516552700000002,1.7600000000000016,94.31833333333331,97.0,2.666666666666667,21.66666666666667,3.1291,-0.2673333333333332,74,3,15,0,3,25,19,20,0.053,0.606,0.341,0.8225,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,3,6,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3341424708741155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3081909110430291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2416287971717324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4280836215578775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3543394871937047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3634467328070919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5422887690769513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Joe_theWhoreMaster,2019/04/20,"Nearly two weeks sober And I almost blew it yesterday. I had an absolutely horrible day at work, and pissed off a client. I spent the rest of the day making things right and then my husband texted me and asked me if I wanted to go out to dinner. Boy did addict me try to convince sober me how a glass of wine at dinner would be well deserved. I really thought I would give in. Not only did I have a cranberry juice and soda, I explained my struggle to my husband, and he seems to understand. At least he'll now have a designated driver.",2.286666666666669,4.32572025925926,3.9182962962962975,86.20633333333332,77.8888888888889,6.912592592592592,22.837037037037035,7.908726449838941,1.1725192592592588,420,13,85,7,10,140,72,108,0.099,0.862,0.039,-0.8016,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,3,4,1,1,7,0,8,6,1,2,0,19,19,9,0,4,2,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,2,7,4,0,4,1,1,1,1,2,1,1,5,0,15,2,14,10,2,15,0,0,0,0,8,8,1,3,6,61,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2571202970225445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2361779590293944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2204956171117868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3042181071715794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2262567167097564,0.13404367389733854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15743720755021615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17938082070309833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510968288848887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20142164937956106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.214716484681496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465702441419101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15669373528432326,0.0,0.0,0.1872450979866987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1601322637145606,0.0,0.2303992302265646,0.24553674720152954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1391153016067277,0.0,0.18919125443692952,0.0,0.21206488438255627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17170760873890076,0.0,0.0,0.3350938550600809,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Ungracefulbrat1,2019/04/20,"Can an alcoholic ever drink? My partner is a recovering alcoholic. She is about 5 months in, has 'relapsed' once which was a week of drinking. And has gotten drunk one other time after saying she would only have one. I'm wondering would it be a huge problem to have a couple drinks at home a couple times a year? I have always been able to convince her to not drink, and she doesnt want to drink, but when she asks if we could ever have quiet drinks alone again I dont know what to say? The worried girlfriend in me always says no, but would that ever be possible, what happens physically if an alcoholic drinks once?",5.05035123966942,5.859603818181821,5.717014462809918,81.0137035123967,68.66942148760329,8.36404958677686,27.521694214876035,8.472884824447931,1.86786694214876,486,15,93,7,8,158,80,121,0.11599999999999999,0.857,0.027000000000000003,-0.8615,0,1,10,0,0,0,12.0,1,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,9,0,19,11,0,0,3,19,26,7,0,8,5,0,0,0,2,3,3,4,1,1,6,3,11,0,2,8,0,0,4,1,0,2,3,4,10,1,11,17,0,15,0,0,0,0,12,4,0,3,11,70,16,0,0.0978875251152726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3138359845526834,0.0,0.1013819546864625,0.0,0.0,0.16290052500409774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09151162213820388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07815522362413306,0.2166213693791304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11472345040685356,0.6712475591006164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26563461190001875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0865616151809194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09818916895156753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053796423823413375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07813288864554642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20849403908909425,0.13266224073434107,0.07444787383098207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11035347669655518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09366514153628568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23353226666770605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11415800617068005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05773659849131125,0.0,0.07851946816297779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1061548453852536,0.0,0.09940953332810216,0.0,0.20860946793476845,0.0,0.0,0.06303635680565839 alcoholism,gabeclark,2019/04/20,I use alcohol to mask my loneliness M(21) In fact it doesn’t work whatsoever. I’m severely depressed and each time I drink i want to drink more and more. One drink and I jump off a cliff to a binge. The only time I get any attention is when the bartender talks to me. I hate it and I hate myself for it. This shit is ruining my life. I started smoking again because why not. We all know the sunken cost fallacy and I am a living breathing representation of it. Drinking just makes me more depressed and makes me long for affection even more. It’s ruining my life. But my self loathing makes me want to screw myself up even more. I’m thinking about going to an AA meeting for the first time this week.,1.381994680851065,3.819064234042554,2.8270168439716343,90.49031250000004,83.9645390070922,6.3618794326241135,23.706117021276608,7.645422480735847,1.212279787234043,551,21,116,10,16,179,84,141,0.217,0.742,0.04,-0.9788,0,0,5,0,0,0,14.0,1,0,0,2,6,8,4,0,8,0,4,10,2,5,2,23,19,8,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,7,8,5,0,3,4,1,2,2,8,1,2,0,0,20,0,14,19,7,14,0,4,0,1,4,3,2,0,9,75,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1537241848015877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0978180219383144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08768522265461001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24778314864179346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5636446455296737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19001359713110966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1223525938840436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07515191485857495,0.0,0.0817491658623504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28402992775245656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07905222923319698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20320081673870688,0.0,0.0,0.1270158087104398,0.12729633247724856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2880485147576244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0974715893713033,0.1093989148299022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1500593888880092,0.16250139645146006,0.1476525450226773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1018126589554334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1156153766661804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09216864432642886,0.0,0.0,0.25162764263565274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1242339765681414,0.0,0.0,0.16968439515839154,0.0,0.11538200042559245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1297957342557606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10471925588502294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,cchdddy,2019/04/20,78 days sober I’m 29 years old recovering from liver disease . I’ve lost a great deal of muscle mass and am recovering from high levels of bilirubin (jaundice). Tonight I played a gig with my band for the first time in a long time as main support for a popular international act. I’m tired and my gear felt 100 times heavier than ever . Sometimes everything feels pointless without alcohol. Tonight reminded me there’s plenty more out there that I love doing . Not every day is awesome but it is getting better . Stay strong amigos.,3.8960204081632672,6.679439622448985,4.487102040816325,80.34718367346939,76.24489795918367,6.777142857142858,29.18775510204081,7.908726449838941,2.2578457142857142,425,19,72,7,10,135,80,98,0.035,0.757,0.20800000000000002,0.9505,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,4,3,8,0,0,5,0,4,4,1,0,1,10,12,4,0,0,3,0,2,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,2,2,0,1,2,1,0,1,2,2,5,7,12,10,2,19,0,1,0,1,4,5,0,0,12,38,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2158647865025892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17864283475301135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2605323586918861,0.20824176488109505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18271059281881,0.17018442393692945,0.0,0.18153466724452424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10213169532154942,0.0,0.19394109299733894,0.0,0.0,0.17181171974277587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10553090313762713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2226935590502251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21341244303788756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1787538874786088,0.0,0.0,0.22049482788569674,0.0,0.1823029369559746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21195345203902224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19977226204280615,0.0,0.0,0.21529337285651134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22921469621148535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3533441886571252,0.2321566140566494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19471016480631667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13007427803235447 alcoholism,Cmonpow,2019/04/20,"My recovering alcoholic roommate just drank. (Need Advise) My two roommates and I are recovering alcoholics. Tonight one of my roommates (will call M). went out tonight downtown with a friend who drinks. M didn't have to but told me tonight he fucked up and drank two whiskey sours. I didn't know how to respond but told him I wasn't happy. I also told him that he would have to tell our 3rd roommate about this. We can't kick him out due to the lease and I still want to give him a chance but there are red flags. He has put no effort towards his recovery and to be honest I think things will get worse if he continues. Has anyone dealt with the situation and if not I would still like to hear your opinion. &#x200B; Thanks everyone",2.40625,4.881585458333333,2.7401111111111116,92.51600000000002,79.83333333333334,6.062222222222222,24.18333333333333,7.3011,0.94887,582,21,121,8,15,178,93,144,0.128,0.779,0.09300000000000001,-0.8106,0,0,4,0,0,0,18.0,2,1,0,1,7,6,1,0,4,0,15,7,0,1,0,25,30,12,0,6,7,0,0,1,1,4,2,1,0,0,4,10,6,0,2,2,0,2,6,1,0,3,9,3,19,5,15,16,0,13,0,0,1,1,23,4,1,3,8,78,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32623521484784146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1220600678775959,0.0,0.16537713179733587,0.1854650614207296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10672411661412308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15585473645805906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14952163534770407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14584679044558052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1179234066070954,0.1411061859239314,0.07974412458832784,0.14641889738874392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16248001832669026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17202779755596528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08388277037012612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07456847644574839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1131749838723629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10342765824762823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15343771022816918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1715652024453993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2437848491108804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1334074372127889,0.14052339875464395,0.0,0.0,0.10140217838255676,0.09780067307846363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4375403713367415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2981993351584269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09002653873603783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14149175554531224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15554544610181914,0.21685134255077307,0.0,0.1854650614207296,0.0 alcoholism,D1Abolus8,2019/04/20,"Damn My Memory . I'm undoubtedly a drunkenfool. Most times I forget that fact. I forget the act, my mask. Stupidity is a choice? I see that way so maybe it makes me worse than those naturally borne into it. It does however make me worse",0.2850000000000001,2.5729860869565258,3.069891304347826,83.29440217391306,101.17391304347824,7.517391304347825,16.619565217391305,8.07648339933343,1.3898782608695646,184,5,37,6,8,64,35,46,0.322,0.6779999999999999,0.0,-0.9344,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,3,0,1,0,0,2,2,8,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,7,0,2,5,1,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,2,21,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2867034864354746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4373793389579725,0.0,0.3291394922412137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2610716486490203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19103853406802127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600504286764259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6677479065363348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,halfadozenhogs,2019/04/20,"8 days sober and second meeting... I just can’t tell you how much AA means to me. The fellowship and genuine love from people like us, drunks, is what I’ve needed for a long time. If you’re struggling, I’m here for you!! And guess what, I love you. No matter what mistakes you’ve made, YOU ARE LOVED!",1.2092473118279583,3.1482613225806446,2.143225806451614,98.1015053763441,80.93548387096773,4.778494623655916,18.397849462365595,5.46131890053228,-0.5845247311827957,230,5,53,1,6,72,47,62,0.107,0.643,0.25,0.9003,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,1,4,0,0,3,6,0,1,2,0,3,4,0,2,0,12,11,5,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,2,2,1,1,1,0,8,4,4,10,1,3,0,0,0,3,10,0,0,2,4,30,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551474124339406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2650144036659345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11753009602940948,0.0,0.0,0.2128964190403089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6513700430112781,0.22763265818984255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2620506884893254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17684624768071594,0.17837922077331214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16678058653385594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2514954531634544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2102683285753316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1402779980804752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2893754632492444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,throwwayaway444,2019/04/20,"The love of my life just left for rehab. Feeling pretty broken, but hopeful. I would love to read some of your advice/stories of positivity on this journey. My boyfriend has been in active alcohol addiction for over 10 years now. He has refused help for those past 10 years. Last month he finally admitted he wanted help. We spent the past month trying to find a place that accepted his insurance. He finally left for rehab for 10 days. I am so proud of him, but can’t help but feel so broken at the same time. I miss him dearly, but I’m so relieved he is saving his own life. I keep hearing from friend/coworkers that it is a lost cause, and it breaks my heart. I don’t want to write him off. I would love to hear any advice/successes that you may have had. I’m trying to stay positive and give him a chance to do good. Thank you",2.015178571428572,4.095784208333338,3.395476190476192,89.42035714285717,78.94047619047619,6.8190476190476215,21.809523809523807,7.865858978985527,0.947802380952381,649,19,137,11,16,212,103,168,0.065,0.588,0.348,0.9963,0,0,1,0,0,0,21.0,1,3,0,2,5,13,0,0,6,0,14,10,1,1,0,26,33,9,0,5,5,0,2,0,0,3,6,2,0,0,7,3,1,2,5,1,1,1,2,2,0,0,4,4,19,11,21,26,3,23,0,2,0,3,27,8,0,3,12,81,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1408428296581971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13807135024610095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08785778493382716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13271999339004728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08332080264271992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13065086996762745,0.0,0.0,0.28305604628734937,0.11808290370034635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0998165938858294,0.0,0.0,0.12393668092169748,0.0,0.10836356716627486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29122681068618783,0.15309801207469415,0.2597922870271225,0.0,0.0,0.12832088829712884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11483543852291107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10531207299787863,0.0,0.0,0.2807439024697025,0.0,0.18251006615800905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14103281550321142,0.0,0.3498135995289717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20624620435343136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2466646111469236,0.0,0.0,0.13498243666846851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1314388904263669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12923107202337192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13770586287346706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11894641978655987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07533529054605229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1754313556907089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1524064257387436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1835544190569966,0.0,0.0,0.16639611759927794 alcoholism,acmay3,2019/10/11,"What did your alcoholic parent have you do growing up that you thought was totally normal? But turns out that it's not. My alcoholic mom used to do stand up comedy at a dive comedy club an hour drive away from our house. I was around 14 when started and she would have me drive her there, she'd do her comedy get LOADED untill 11pm on a school night or 1am weekends or when ever she was ready to go, and have me drive her home. She would let me hang out in the arcade and wait for her, sometimes she would let me invite a friend. Thinking back it was super dangerous of her to let a 14 yr old girl alone in a seedy bar scene an hour away from home while she got loaded. And this happened for years! I remember being so excited because when I turned 16 I could drive alone and would just drop her off, go home, pick her back up later.",4.970982658959535,4.648849479768792,5.412491329479772,87.07087572254339,68.65317919075144,9.00092485549133,25.39248554913295,8.548686976883017,1.314149595375723,652,14,146,9,10,209,106,173,0.051,0.8170000000000001,0.132,0.9275,1,2,2,0,0,0,13.0,1,3,0,1,10,4,1,0,8,0,21,3,0,2,2,27,33,14,0,6,5,2,0,0,1,4,2,0,3,1,6,8,3,1,3,3,0,8,1,1,0,0,7,0,26,3,22,16,1,39,0,0,0,0,21,13,0,2,16,102,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2573557128296477,0.0,0.2494094989163139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1071872509107048,0.0,0.0,0.22625161023749385,0.18517022582554685,0.0,0.07339864254290865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0961347373014812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1089145099074516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09302570962740513,0.0,0.06290739041454263,0.0,0.1368594985941145,0.0,0.09630002191544187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10647500896203724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36233240180103454,0.0,0.2371521602937049,0.13893285487576665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3693711993281301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14101855632258165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11299327859548634,0.1179727373162839,0.0,0.0,0.12634629440951653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13369709207960045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13639701407838736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12185773599498728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11908503868230705,0.0,0.0852242913318307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07715157895221891,0.0,0.0955892563952406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2619352419075072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10399249681701862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34213309477488235,0.0,0.0,0.07753779364893508 alcoholism,lfritz2725,2019/10/11,Should I still smoke weed around my boyfriend if he is an alcoholic in recovery? My boyfriend is a recovering alcoholic. I love to smoke weed (almost daily) and I'm afraid that smoking when I'm with him (he abstains) is affecting his sobriety. What do you think?,4.688469387755101,6.743275346938777,5.0813775510204096,80.45022959183675,71.04081632653063,9.797959183673472,32.65816326530612,10.125756701596842,3.586873469387754,208,10,39,6,4,66,37,49,0.0,0.904,0.096,0.6767,0,0,4,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,1,2,0,5,3,0,1,0,9,9,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,3,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,1,4,8,0,4,0,0,0,1,6,2,0,2,2,24,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7452042532987302,0.3491238380848375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3103735075464528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3146713417447849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2784333177090481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22340162630064989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,d1l3xitDm,2019/10/11,"No idea why I am writing this. But wanted to share my experience of struggle with alcohol addiction for over 20 years. Tried all sort of things - name it: Minesota programme 3 times, 6 month of rehab then twice 3 month of in house rehab, various AA groups around the world at times were I lived, psychoterapist for a year, hypnotherapist, some magic medication from ebay advised by motivational speaker on TED. Nothing helps. I still enjoy drinking and now I do it only on weekends (consume about 2l of spirit over the weekend) Live away from my family and trying to enjoy my life. The more I enjoy the less I drink.",5.188308751229107,7.235317840707974,5.910206489675512,75.0521730580138,69.70796460176993,8.56204523107178,29.36971484759097,9.150863307647796,2.7156163225172074,488,19,83,10,9,159,86,113,0.128,0.8370000000000001,0.034,-0.8647,0,0,3,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,1,4,5,0,1,5,0,3,8,0,1,1,13,4,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,4,4,3,0,2,4,0,0,1,1,1,1,1,1,9,4,22,3,5,20,1,0,0,0,6,9,0,2,11,56,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2002989181684968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1963574727337784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16356363312625669,0.0,0.0,0.1726256390414357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3599818670659493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17972866731205595,0.1732095662475451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12315409587253047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21200620699764464,0.0,0.2074151215800909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12977788395414555,0.0,0.0,0.32448379190053644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18509428128235852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2933119968450358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17629925809770633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13973919890057274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1467314829409953,0.0,0.0,0.1920803364264797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12206576464276117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21427540518610189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2494888156035899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10837201393738476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16579279560325266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2366393974294423 alcoholism,Nomorebasedesires,2019/10/11,"Scared of becoming an alcoholic in the future. Hi everyone I am new here. I am not an alcoholic but alcoholism runs in my family. I am not sure if that really has an effect (maybe addictive personalities?). I have bad social anxiety and I have started to use alcohol to cope with it. I would drink a lot alone, then go to a social event feeling great. I keep thinking of doing it and I have stopped now, but it is tempting. All the anxiety fades away and I feel normal. Has anyone had experience with this? And also, can something like alcoholism actually run in a family? Is this cause for concern or I am just being paranoid? Thanks and sorry if I am wasting people's time. I feel silly posting this tiny issue when many here are probably fighting a crazy battle with it right now.",2.5999000000000017,5.189807573333336,4.743583333333337,77.75137500000002,79.93333333333334,8.283333333333335,26.04166666666667,9.017664075816787,2.6709666666666667,616,25,109,17,16,212,98,150,0.217,0.6890000000000001,0.094,-0.9562,0,1,7,0,2,0,19.0,0,0,0,1,7,9,2,1,9,0,18,7,0,3,2,30,27,13,0,4,8,0,3,1,0,1,6,0,0,1,8,8,6,2,5,1,0,3,2,4,0,0,1,3,13,5,13,24,2,20,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,4,12,83,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.11461702615928895,0.12804092904525596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6276068154462411,0.0,0.12164571723381452,0.0,0.09392699133297364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17970219768051007,0.0,0.0,0.0821257545611603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1103508066943361,0.0,0.0980682129061566,0.0,0.129717430691459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12065641749588953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11505906552075285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11223121910649454,0.0,0.11489141204119002,0.22144816342148016,0.0,0.178163050385565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06675115398201988,0.0,0.0,0.12949216746310294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12259024664724047,0.0,0.1043974781781669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05738152339761592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09985420188399136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1190787417898785,0.11799716152416535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1134366818920341,0.0,0.0,0.1150788426842636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08142700850057874,0.10255528692160967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11248735090539244,0.0,0.1266340236234329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07524329494888883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10030408106648032,0.0,0.0,0.11759077967338435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2394567523213776,0.0,0.09042093216695857,0.0,0.13147883504216104,0.0831337225715102,0.0,0.0,0.098195830941361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11069790889720826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10813479204471343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07525903542681832,0.0,0.0,0.06848769379896806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10144154025573844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08343512553481358,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,gherna67,2019/10/11,"Day 6 Thank god i made it this far, this is the longest ive been sober in almost a year. Most of the physical withdrawals are gone besides mild anxiety and occasional sweating. I would not recommend quitting cold turkey, i ended up going to see a doctor on day 4 and asking if i was doing the right thing, he looked at me astonished and said i should’ve checked myself in for detox but since it had already been 4 days and hadn’t had any seizures or hallucinations that i should be fine. I’m going to go in for an all around check up once i hit day 30 but holy fuck i feel so much better now that I’m atleast attempting to kick this! Wish me luck!",3.975713101160864,4.634407499999998,4.922636815920399,86.28844941956885,71.01492537313433,8.045107794361526,26.82918739635157,8.167268648758528,1.4651684908789386,511,16,111,7,9,167,97,134,0.057,0.7909999999999999,0.152,0.9133,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,3,3,5,1,0,6,0,13,4,1,1,1,19,29,9,0,4,5,0,1,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,8,5,0,0,1,0,2,4,2,1,0,0,9,5,12,4,14,16,3,21,0,0,2,1,3,10,1,5,7,66,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1855911513581591,0.0,0.20452720362797228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12603749694859748,0.0,0.14178452674600814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16499181761005666,0.17326780033741934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16391809225234089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4781156464049746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18970325528104384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16415615181043475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09371342924977573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17134376376439686,0.0,0.0,0.31599883248785904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.155638848527275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17537310775269846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13624616211398485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1973809593380044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19713181224868592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15827927369022465,0.17630070042041385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14769191524517286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1533150919307584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17063609140825264,0.0,0.0,0.12313160322639917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2131317540462884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13166015708922346,0.0,0.0,0.11935282786820366 alcoholism,katzenfrau13,2019/10/11,"I think I have an alcohol problem I’ve always thought I was in the clear because I don’t have this need to drink all the time. I can go weeks or months without it and be fine. My issue is that when I start drinking while I’m out with friends, there’s never a point where I’m like “yeah I should stop now” I just keep ordering drinks and I can never tell if I’m drunk or not. Not until the next day when I’m looking back on it. I know that I was coherent at the time, but when I look back on last night it’s pretty foggy. Does anyone have the same issue?",0.7162742175856955,2.255555426229513,2.4698807749627427,97.1088748137109,80.80327868852459,5.419970193740686,19.2876304023845,6.1124844417494595,-0.29600983606557385,430,10,105,3,11,142,81,122,0.047,0.836,0.11699999999999999,0.775,1,0,4,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,9,4,0,0,7,1,11,5,0,0,4,25,24,11,0,4,8,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,6,4,5,2,3,4,0,1,6,1,0,0,3,2,13,3,9,19,2,29,0,0,2,0,2,7,0,3,21,68,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17040506356927235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13267634537682166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1114921323529486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2452165817964603,0.0,0.09720009873417323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10283296748868026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1395370022273812,0.0,0.0,0.4686050300539895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1231917627810939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0906199100908482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3328516876930755,0.0,0.14172773835138572,0.0,0.0,0.08763032417548712,0.12997417973988512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07789990406111191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26779804879298136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12727259312349662,0.0,0.0,0.11823119910716147,0.24595751242570565,0.0,0.16957838202839184,0.14963434547660212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15073312041740225,0.0,0.0,0.16221940640587149,0.0,0.15257346368803312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1128605277292587,0.0,0.0,0.133308517386818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13936755925911912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10217002429260273,0.0,0.12658660756718934,0.18595479730773712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1279023020525383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15370546789485698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,aribreck,2019/10/11,"11 days sober and unsure of the future I just completed my 11th day sober at midnight, and generally am starting to feel better. Sleep is still hard to come by, but the physical withdrawals have been mostly gone for the last few days at least. This is my first time posting anything to this community, so I hope I’ve come to the right place, and while this is probably a stupid question I don’t have too many other places to go to. I still get these more or less random waves of anxiety (which is nothing new for me, but in the past I could drink it away) my whole body starts to heat up and my skin itches, it almost feels like a panic attack setting in that never quite gets there. I’ve found that taking melatonin has helped to calm my nerves, but ultimately I was hoping some of you with more time being sober might be able to help me get a sense of what the future will look like. I feel completely uncertain of my choices, and having to actually deal with life has got me on the ropes. Having clarity on the last six years of my life and everything I did to myself and those around me honestly makes me feel sick. I like to think I’m not a bad person, but moving forward feels like climbing Mount Everest at the moment and I really don’t have a clue where to start. I want to try to apologize to so many people in my life, but most bridges have been burned 3 times over, and I wonder if it would do any good or just make things worse. I’m tired of hurting people. I hope this rambling doesn’t bum anyone out or screw up your nights/ mornings wherever you may be.",9.18147985347985,6.068215196825397,8.581904761904763,76.69219780219781,62.11111111111111,11.724053724053723,34.70695970695971,9.466822959209583,2.8500989010989013,1237,33,257,16,13,393,187,315,0.114,0.7390000000000001,0.14800000000000002,0.9175,0,0,1,0,0,0,25.0,0,3,0,4,10,18,3,2,14,0,29,11,4,2,1,54,58,21,0,7,12,0,7,4,0,4,6,0,0,1,15,15,1,0,9,1,0,7,5,7,0,2,7,8,30,11,42,43,9,50,0,1,1,1,9,19,1,17,28,171,45,0,0.09548662345262957,0.0,0.09318117037873856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0956160603736279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06493417832362745,0.0,0.07304700558288,0.0,0.0,0.06676646729265844,0.0,0.0785773551139173,0.0850033392126172,0.0,0.10862981907390123,0.08971282596117887,0.0,0.07972734210401952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08445015880570264,0.0,0.1060641127375029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16450654228196315,0.20023181596209327,0.0,0.0,0.07623829900965894,0.0,0.0,0.18474291814704186,0.09844251597609527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09354053884636422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0858172201462003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2414045293483313,0.13643132574737613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0812208731294425,0.0,0.10469615404573804,0.0,0.0,0.14966345906686193,0.0,0.054267248598230365,0.08008964941990095,0.07636937564412577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08553725912930897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12800534185732013,0.0,0.0,0.2845192870366989,0.0,0.0,0.10222040530736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15566868508751142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20233507805860215,0.18659976401321046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08018471477956925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274761252408258,0.19361689792558331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10129621785726003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10148716926595268,0.0,0.0,0.07364517057028107,0.09222157594536187,0.0,0.08960772766902499,0.0,0.09162199049127376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11203297887931417,0.0,0.0,0.09115278662218856,0.13239680362983325,0.08337523650807495,0.19952639643236392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09144979032697446,0.0,0.10295073015244166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10696687140732344,0.10156177772267684,0.0,0.0,0.061171176058487126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08154505469849901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09555558275012227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2027577706401748,0.0,0.15251148166873968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0717940573794656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06343706971932307,0.06118397272757669,0.0,0.0,0.16703705405493946,0.10974782700904137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06482914941775544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05632048448546725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1066074050609482,0.0,0.0,0.1035511699477253,0.0,0.0,0.0973090269486922,0.06783095765568181,0.0,0.0,0.06149025485156932 alcoholism,Altnob,2019/10/11,"Reward system for recovering alcoholic? My gf is fighting alcoholism and after a huge break down and many fights she cracked and said she wants to REALLY try. I mentioned maybe creating some sort of reward system like people do with exercise. Aka if I exercise this much this week then I can have a pizza on Saturday. However, neither of us could really come up with a reward system on the spot and I told her I'd google some stuff and get back to her. Any ideas?",5.514644194756556,6.582806550561799,6.3702808988764055,75.81062734082398,67.76404494382022,10.427715355805246,28.316479400749067,10.504223727775694,3.066369288389513,369,12,67,10,6,122,65,89,0.054000000000000006,0.76,0.18600000000000005,0.9131,1,0,2,0,3,0,7.0,1,0,0,3,1,6,2,0,4,0,5,5,0,0,0,15,10,7,0,3,1,0,0,1,1,0,4,1,0,0,3,8,3,0,1,2,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,1,10,4,12,7,4,15,0,0,0,0,11,5,0,4,6,46,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4838375282077682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1539381393041496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1740631738383266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19499616131301914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18073658890036254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182680421177228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25554214550898857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11059206880090372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22950182611043124,0.2274172840474644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16640667413215984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1569352082890487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2900345323400716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2153279971261665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2591374322425101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21630451703118134,0.0,0.15368914940760378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2722930740475685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335178300584789,0.0,0.1815789166735257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,bluemoonfellowship,2019/10/11,"RIP to an amazing man. I pray this reaches whoever it needs to. A few hours ago, I received a call I never wanted to get. I learned that an amazing man — my second father — passed away after relapsing. His health was failing so he went on one last bender. He drank so much alcohol that he passed out on the couch, sitting up, and when his head slumped forward his airway was cut off. He was drunk enough that he didn’t wake up from it, and died in his sleep. I write this in tears... It’s one thing to read about it, and another to go through it. There’s a part of me that expected something like this to happen, because I’ve known him for 20+ years and watched his on again/off again relationship with sobriety. This time, we all hoped it would really stick. He would say things like, “I just like who I am so much more when I’m drinking.” Really, I just think he was very lonely and suffered from a lot of mental health issues on top of trying to live with the many trials that came with HIV. I think that he was sick. I think he lied to himself a lot about what a “burden” he was to his family and friends. I don’t remember him for all his drinking. I remember what it was like to be a little girl and see him with his husband, and to see how insanely happy he was compared to the people I went home to. I remember the trips he invited me on because my family and I never did things like that, and he just wanted to show me how families were supposed to act — even slightly dysfunctional ones. He picked on me, made me feel stupid sometimes, knew my embarrassing secrets, and never once treated me like I was just another friend of his daughter’s. He always introduced me as his “other” daughter. What I regret most right now is not telling him enough how much he meant to me. I’m mad that I didn’t reach out, or say I was proud of him enough. I let our relationship slide into random encounters because, “life just happens.” In one phone call, I learned what was really going on in his life aside from all the small talk, and now it’s to late to tell him that I care. I wanted to share this to this group, because I myself know what he felt when he fought to resist taking a shot at 9AM. I’m a recovering alcoholic, my husband is a recovering alcoholic, my mother-in-law, my father; my friends, my distant relatives, and my late grandfather. I know where his head was at when he slipped into depression and told himself he wasn’t good enough for the people who loved him, because of his mistakes and his erratic behavior. To me, he was more than good enough. He was somebody who shaped my life into something completely different and who cared when he could have turned the other cheek or stayed at arms-length away. So, again... I’m sharing to this group because some of you might be feeling like he did, or how I have many times before. Whether you’re lonely, stressed, on edge, or dealing with a world that is falling down around you... You might be thinking that the old ways were better ways. Let this be your affirmation that they’re not; it’s not worth it. For myself and his loved ones, the sun isn’t shining as brightly as it did before he passed away. He was never a burden, just, sometimes we forget to do the right thing by letting our tribe know how ripped apart we would be if something ever happened to them. You have to bury those thoughts sometimes. I mean, think about it: maybe he did like himself more when he was drinking, but all of us really liked when we could call him. I’m still fighting the urge to message him or go to his house, to yell at him for giving in or to help him like I really wish I could. You have to bury those thoughts so your loved ones don’t have to bury you. I hope this reached whoever it needed to. Please, please remember your worth and remember that you might be changing the lives of people you never expected to. It’s to late for us, and for him, but it’s never too late for you. Call the people you need to. Tell them that you love them or that you need help, if you do. Hell, message me if you need to. I’ll be your other daughter. I’ll be your family if you need one. Just for today, remember what you’re fighting for, and please don’t give up.",4.870374434974249,5.2818970548271755,5.224774776800776,85.7988245215553,68.91656734207389,8.429810870982978,28.225897856837648,8.334251077139745,1.7128325769671888,3275,104,688,44,53,1041,307,839,0.061,0.813,0.126,0.9933,1,4,9,0,4,0,107.0,8,20,3,4,38,50,7,2,27,0,60,24,5,7,11,136,119,54,1,26,24,7,3,10,3,6,10,3,2,3,58,36,8,0,26,6,2,15,16,18,0,8,37,11,114,32,105,62,21,91,2,6,5,5,142,41,1,21,43,470,172,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039459409880314066,0.14271735751863565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03703962198617878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09335464892822652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03962733406735156,0.0,0.0,0.12546848714722436,0.0,0.0,0.1628137210400728,0.0,0.07575710534996115,0.0,0.0,0.03936944931850085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1818170868274245,0.050912718210916384,0.0907709793762886,0.0,0.047090428422115416,0.0,0.046672596250575134,0.0,0.0,0.10662359519873878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04589248496765272,0.038340265345416284,0.0,0.04619901309342709,0.04650816803151246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13082176121693168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22997684023244355,0.0,0.029401401076614563,0.04026590506066816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1678571994070163,0.0,0.04501572770420372,0.03180116082922335,0.04274089157894249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1031753545576604,0.0,0.023256983961078788,0.08540471077331975,0.07589583217686909,0.07467328512733061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1180920505222562,0.04738650276402589,0.0,0.0,0.09136941914240737,0.09463364338688088,0.0,0.0,0.059674249166821465,0.0,0.044651663351135504,0.08842586609299087,0.04383780627316285,0.05136374528048502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04646156273975481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07339199929198642,0.03628525093795683,0.2008571362997896,0.0,0.0,0.13655724711913753,0.0943257030375785,0.2174753149092431,0.0446152137472764,0.0786142211157536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07568925575313118,0.1607042621558291,0.042120687122621465,0.0,0.09026141286038504,0.04472078875119385,0.048489329905030916,0.0,0.0,0.04486013639351303,0.14166851921246804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09816981701927127,0.19804158349994527,0.20599391532155986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04671046952131354,0.047406479469832105,0.21114919512758384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04820485518723914,0.0,0.12344297095825606,0.0,0.0,0.14659062899379818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04452653664355919,0.0,0.14258561201338316,0.0,0.0,0.09558380719234563,0.30255744018528824,0.07603026314049156,0.0,0.07079941887831842,0.0,0.0,0.07094457106108883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044546638222860514,0.0,0.0,0.10280828845098404,0.13207790768564176,0.0,0.0,0.047446523914615915,0.035549329527379575,0.0,0.05099119834328853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03346935687679903,0.03577906119677052,0.1167228799700408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182937977405176,0.14261544012870536,0.0,0.07067906610609075,0.051913514645228906,0.0,0.04219453194723132,0.04253550319447818,0.0,0.030222416967101005,0.048418982886912994,0.0,0.0,0.10709090202970667,0.0,0.0,0.03672911650654071,0.07876739928857147,0.07066706098563774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08253075712674796,0.0,0.0,0.051189467091718864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09486545037036974,0.0,0.0,0.02866587234643647 alcoholism,scanibu,2019/10/15,"I’m just letting this out Maybe this isn’t the right place for this... I’m sorry if it isn’t. I just wanted to get it out. I’m not thinking clearly, I have anxiety. Anyone I would normally contact... I just feel like I can’t at this point. I’m going through a lot of changes in my life. I’m stuck with an alcoholic boyfriend and who is verbally abusive to me more often then not and what is most frightening about this situation is that I don’t want to leave him. I love him and we’ve been through so much, for years and we’ve been fighting this for years but it feels completely futile right now... and this happens often. More often lately, since we moved in together. That’s all I really wanted to say. I wanted to say it to someone I know but... I just feel like I can’t go to anyone I know and love. It feels like I do this constantly. It feels like it’s repetitive and like I’m probably annoying them. I’m sorry. Thank you guys.",0.7727032967032983,2.9341641897435866,2.7360439560439573,91.98538461538462,84.02564102564101,6.3809523809523805,21.59340659340659,7.62386473244151,0.8640329670329671,727,24,161,13,21,243,98,195,0.128,0.731,0.141,0.8144,0,0,1,0,2,0,29.0,1,1,1,0,10,10,2,0,3,0,14,4,0,0,2,41,41,12,0,7,9,0,5,5,0,1,2,2,0,1,19,11,1,0,8,0,0,3,7,2,0,0,3,7,21,8,20,36,6,19,0,0,0,2,13,9,0,6,12,105,40,0,0.0,0.1408501246609018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12704364754034755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09094078530726273,0.0,0.0,0.1662435008618361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12575638790541668,0.0,0.1246405546797647,0.12846409572938675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3005395950249963,0.33970377854572104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06210846650836424,0.0,0.13512138285772962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11770718604290804,0.1051227762671222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13066367612804292,0.0,0.1340987372193077,0.12587386321503674,0.0,0.12156006160510993,0.0839665306242574,0.29038714424538303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10106520290536217,0.2145827528745847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11942819477493065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263477236063446,0.08738847081629977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11647448346251266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12420144423647705,0.0,0.1123774436149931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12816980207896986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07615582246716263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20304107616817146,0.0,0.18907195118569975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09833650525642347,0.1336230309767609,0.0,0.0,0.10072432414567292,0.0,0.0,0.266146739758319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10944621751445986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0761717538407629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28046757274301193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08444700105266355,0.0,0.0,0.15310612722107322 alcoholism,SkinWolf,2019/10/15,"Sitting in the living room I’m not looking for any advise (not that I would love to have any) but I’ve just gotten home after several months being sober but of course I’m drunk. My wife who has said that If I come home drunk again she’ll leave me is sitting on the sofa steaming. I’m not sure what to do. I’m not sure I want to do any thing. I want to drink more. But honestly I just want to forget everything.",1.0673314606741575,2.6807025168539376,2.8026825842696645,94.78357443820228,80.0112359550562,5.798314606741574,18.990168539325843,6.6274283507984215,-0.09815842696629228,320,7,75,3,8,106,56,89,0.20199999999999999,0.722,0.076,-0.7729,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,2,0,8,4,0,0,2,18,20,4,0,5,10,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,4,0,5,1,3,0,0,3,0,1,4,0,0,0,2,2,8,4,10,15,1,9,0,0,1,1,6,3,0,1,3,44,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4116160724992479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17380045091470306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19765035000781114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18133104435556874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4047682957798607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2136372599540529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17815990445222418,0.0,0.1694296092038642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820984523181283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1610448307033491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19192225499768828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279340938665813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3803173672520341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13404197996002318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35701409063225986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14332622718830562,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,WangMuncher900,2019/10/15,"Great times abroad So I take a plane across the ocean to visit my girlfriend in Europe. Decide that one drink on the plane would be fine. All is well after landing, dinner comes around and another drink wouldn’t hurt right? Well I wake up the next morning after sleeping 2 hours with sweats, some shaking, etc. For context this stems mostly from some xanax dependency I had about 2 years ago which has left me super sensitive to alcohol and I can go into a state like this very quickly. So there goes my plans for a relaxing week and now I just have to pray this won’t last long.",2.8798149637972656,5.254694938053099,3.0358326629123087,91.59402252614643,77.49557522123894,5.879002413515687,20.892196299275945,6.980632752743323,0.41383893805309796,460,12,92,5,11,140,88,113,0.043,0.7709999999999999,0.18600000000000005,0.9423,0,0,3,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,10,9,0,1,6,0,9,8,3,1,1,16,12,5,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,3,2,0,0,0,5,7,4,0,1,3,0,4,2,2,2,1,1,0,8,7,16,7,5,26,1,1,0,0,2,9,0,4,13,61,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1742846741736722,0.2101184333429176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20616482380759846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17502636322357126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16936382787314588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3852098159885509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21927435085607425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11173912992453207,0.0,0.0,0.21676542293585507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19362321448751324,0.0,0.21047721129443614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1602650205923811,0.0,0.0,0.21361951213038335,0.0,0.0,0.09605469142781947,0.0,0.0,0.17399543204565673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.209099091390249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13322937884222172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1679055728275081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19675398977715025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14782775453987215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11464603769540545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1622254900021415,0.0,0.0,0.15771028609902205,0.0,0.35355559840297424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13966752297518958,0.0,0.0,0.12661168114161864 alcoholism,ch0nker,2019/10/15,"Can't be trusted Hello, I'm in the process of re-engaging with alcohol services as of today (been under them before). I'm not an extreme example I'm reasonably high-functioning and able to hold down a skilled job. I've had issues for about a decade now, there aren't many days in that period I've not had a bunch of drinks. I'm very good at knowing my hangover limit (about 15 units and 8 hrs sleep) or powering through it with stims + more drinks. &#x200B; I'm engaging mental health services atm. I'm diagnosed with depression & anxiety, but I think that should be a form of bipolar. Distressingly except for extreme cases they say the medication is the same. It's lunchtime where I am and I'm drunk, because I was hungover from yesterday and working from home. I cannot be trusted around alcohol. No such thing as one. I'm coming to terms with the fact that abstinence is probably the only route out of this. &#x200B; Thank you for listening, all the best to anyone reading this. x",3.3320833333333333,5.679773875000002,4.364791666666669,82.76770833333337,75.875,8.016666666666666,29.416666666666664,8.841846274778883,2.650810416666668,792,36,147,18,18,257,127,192,0.102,0.8290000000000001,0.069,-0.6324,2,0,4,0,0,0,34.0,0,1,2,5,7,8,0,1,11,0,14,10,1,1,2,25,27,8,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,1,6,2,1,0,8,11,5,2,3,4,1,1,6,2,0,1,4,2,8,6,30,19,7,15,0,1,0,0,6,8,0,1,6,91,16,5,0.13145489260663418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2809706044216767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4272939636540423,0.3194641659441356,0.0,0.0,0.10056263303621156,0.0,0.0,0.09191631738905172,0.0,0.0,0.11702272447557335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08013368241280346,0.0,0.11185843149791264,0.0,0.13795379966828594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11323675016895085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08477753073934814,0.0,0.11322190637935295,0.1334239488919827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2575514987084168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11025812708330857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13973040373294487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13888931141333394,0.1318599754612564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1372047548280169,0.1304486970894024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07224417113416656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13327462844187682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13242697454506852,0.13247561322677615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08907723730961592,0.0999773694116727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1417306077712302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1314904661674858,0.0,0.0,0.13515752338106685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104538206813844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315498277579502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12102600359037187,0.0,0.0,0.08733278951234642,0.08423098726640896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12460386757394185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1084640534705394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09570072743784436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3194641659441356,0.0 alcoholism,throuhuhwhey6969,2019/10/15,"Should I be worried? So i typically drink a little bit every night but the last couple of weeks my consumption has been increasing. I used to be done after 4 shots but now i take at least 10 a night. I mostly only drink at night, def never drink when i have to babysit or drive or anything. Is this something to be concerned about? I feel like its just a recent trend but there are many alcoholics in my family so i try to be on top of it.",2.7713186813186823,4.0211529450549515,4.2624175824175845,87.65758241758243,74.49450549450547,7.397802197802199,22.89010989010989,7.957251820313856,0.9854131868131876,342,9,74,5,7,114,65,91,0.019,0.9109999999999999,0.07,0.6381,0,0,5,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,7,1,0,0,4,0,11,4,0,1,1,11,14,8,0,1,6,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,4,0,1,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,1,10,1,12,7,4,18,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,3,11,54,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18510309752227988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14253267016625026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1890946197927268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1916476524453359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1772484938233462,0.0,0.5090238562204064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14593238911800294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16328193058575524,0.0,0.08757747600020804,0.12373743761738568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14118490826412608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0846190438028767,0.17359656326654807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1756023310445575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13358610494096354,0.0,0.0,0.4876224965963834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13172994234269525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17101869776079914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13334140271449652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13022834231985736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.117594588895534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14959320753565514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13893432386491725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17589773112063636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Bushi84,2019/10/15,"Considering quitting cold turkey Drunk for the past couple of years, started from couple of regular beers and for the past 6 months it was 2l of 9% Vol stuff daily. Currently got a cold and have to go to work which means drugs and I know mixing those with alcohol is a no-no and some like paracetamol are a no-no even if you dont mix it but still had daily habit of downing some stuff (learned through scare and hopefully nothing more) Currently considering taking at least stuff containing ambroxol or acetylcysteine, any advices, could not find any info on how it works for alcoholics.",8.048929663608561,8.031911522935783,7.517018348623853,73.52610856269115,62.21100917431193,11.670336391437313,35.597859327217115,11.20814326018867,4.03356758409786,472,19,84,12,6,148,81,109,0.055,0.8959999999999999,0.049,-0.1779,2,0,4,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,3,3,3,0,1,5,0,7,5,0,1,0,21,14,9,0,3,4,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,8,6,4,1,5,2,0,1,2,1,0,0,3,2,2,2,15,10,4,12,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,5,9,53,10,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14741067013033166,0.0,0.3224294755446746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2051688454428704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12044291766027115,0.3338293788405138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1767972305665338,0.0,0.17494023970841469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0996362162343176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13787584695533228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08573257587683113,0.0,0.12064999536920945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1498299127274538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08290422500921223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07369858819128998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16432187523599218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12040849782417945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14474640698912414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28801029708833314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1604494983569001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15102900608249675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10677370731605976,0.0,0.12047047263309699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5180677903269226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1134218083794895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2196438692975772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09714363775427816 alcoholism,FOEtha1,2019/10/15,"I’ve had a pretty bad life. But I can’t talk for myself. Hi this is my first reddit post. My dad is a alcoholic who is abusive at times too. I feel like it’s just me being soft and I should just take it and move on. Let’s start from the beginning about like 2016, My dad started drinking super heavily when I was about like 12-13. He used to say it was because my brother smoked weed. He would throw plates down, make so much noise until 1am. Until he finally slept. He would fight with my mom constantly, and my brother and even hit my brother hard if he yelled. I started smoking weed too and wanted to see how it felt. I felt great like I didn’t have a care in the world smoking weed. Well until he started having a suspicion started drug testing me, and I cane positive. About a year of this went on. Of him hitting me and my brother and drinking almost daily. Fighting with my mom calling us drug addicts, and telling us to kill ourselves. He had a saying “If you kill yourself I’ll cry for a few days but at least I’ll be happy for the rest of my life.” I always told myself he didn’t mean this because my dad used to be so loving. He still was at times. I felt like I couldn’t tell on him. They were just words. In the middle of 2017ish he started calling neighbors and telling them we are drug addicts. While being totally hammered. One time he hit my mom in front of my neighbor. But somehow my mom always goes back to him and loves him so I felt like I needed to too. I felt like it was my fault because I smoked weed he drank. I couldn’t let go of the feeling. My brother turned 16 and we got a puppy. A year later we had her he went to go sleep over at someone’s house for about 2-3 days. My dad gave my puppy away because of that. My dad kicked the puppy when he was drunk and did many things but when he was sober he would love the puppy too. She was scared of him though. Now it’s 2019. I stopped smoking 2-3 months ago. My dad started drinking less and doesn’t make as much of a scene but still fights with my mom and brother. I don’t know if I’m just being soft. I don’t know what effects it has had on me. But I feel like I threw my feelings in a box and locked it up. He is all nice to me and tries to be better. We have a okay relation ship with once a weekly him getting hammered getting into fights with my brother or mom. I don’t know what I’m doing wrong. I can’t tell anyone because I love my father but I don’t know what to do. Thank you for reading my story. Let me know if I’m just a privileged kid being a bitch. I am immune all that anyways. So shoot your shot. I want to know the truth not a sugarcoated “Oh you need help your parents are horrible” because at the end of the day they pay for me. All my stuff and I can’t ever rat them out. Thank you once again. 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Hi everyone. I'm a young woman that's drank almost daily for about a year, never more that 6 drinks (averaging 2-4). I decided today to quit daily drinking. My last drink was about 20 hours ago (I had 3 total yesterday). I so far do not have any withdrawal symptoms and no cravings. My question is this: considering that, should I be concerned for myself for the next few days/weeks? I live alone and don't want to put myself in a dangerous situation. So far I have not contacted any treatment center. I have the ability to monitor my blood pressure at home. Any thoughts appreciated.",2.7467666232072996,5.455569322033899,4.650000000000002,77.89141460234681,80.35593220338984,8.03754889178618,27.72099087353325,8.841846274778883,2.7816445893089963,492,22,87,13,13,167,84,118,0.15,0.8009999999999999,0.049,-0.8251,0,2,3,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,2,5,3,2,1,5,0,11,6,1,1,2,13,15,5,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,4,2,4,0,3,3,0,1,5,3,0,0,4,0,13,0,11,9,3,15,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,2,9,56,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14571714179465664,0.0,0.16460755844509456,0.34050600200090864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33536175340389035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4831033506809915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15707665089510242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16489128397104402,0.0,0.16188584299787093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1339954923811159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451547253259326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12678363521229172,0.0,0.17482502172786882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1652520536792131,0.18414851509324776,0.3496867826795386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18477532023797896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1708586728078426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13050311103148665,0.0,0.0,0.15581749989072413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09695837085706356,0.0,0.1318595122085533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10585837441672262 alcoholism,4114119321121225,2018/11/04,"Is anyone from the Chicago area? Hey, I need help. Like tomorrow. I need someone that will go to meetings with me and be my friend. I can’t get well alone and I’m hesitant to do AA. I need someone who’s been in it and can help me. Please. 27 year old female. Please. 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I have been thinking about that question a lot lately, mostly because I’m unsure if my drinking is to that extreme or if I’m just denying it. I’m so young so I think I can’t possibly be an alchoholic, but at my age me and my friends are going out a lot and I do love going out because it’s just fun , but over this year especially I can’t drink like a normal person, I drink and drink and drink and think I’m fine until 2 seconds later I’m black out drunk with no idea of anything going on, it happens to me constantly and I’ve said to myself so many times that I’d go out and just drink water but I never can. I don’t even know what it is like why do I want to drink if I get in these states? I’ve hurt my friends and family and done and said some pretty harsh things because of drink and wake up the next day completely oblivious to these. I’m still unsure whether I just need to try cut it down or if I really do have a problem and should go get help..?",3.6121668472372686,3.4283594835680766,5.0929577464788744,87.73137594799569,71.53521126760563,8.05619357168653,26.71325388226797,7.61054688173877,1.213568725171541,762,22,177,8,13,258,114,213,0.11800000000000001,0.7290000000000001,0.153,0.893,0,0,9,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,10,10,1,0,7,0,17,13,1,0,1,47,40,26,0,9,14,0,0,2,2,1,1,2,0,1,13,17,11,0,6,9,0,5,5,3,0,1,4,3,20,7,21,34,4,28,0,1,1,1,8,10,0,11,14,116,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10019725991917383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07715366836528857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1714594041933182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09830197963855013,0.10131754431870416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06046523123143392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09594552248787863,0.0,0.7347659592155994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06192533011151261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08838534988338705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14487218650355013,0.0,0.09796787611822136,0.0,0.2664200961825812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08290862503547722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06284305243111868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10036834708696606,0.10583975521168087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051526158814191626,0.0,0.10576149447951537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09160944835089288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1594169657491387,0.08461896474248455,0.0,0.0,0.0950544460984319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06951930851913968,0.07231084653647506,0.0,0.09971117562398317,0.0,0.091861531996226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08186462038707869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1056964452624114,0.0,0.09538413757860964,0.0,0.08971237519420247,0.0,0.0,0.10502881537140696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06006285938600246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17836793583039984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07487411775001726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062287698944494825,0.18022627260426424,0.0,0.0,0.05467020981887183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06365455654914688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05530005401511018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08460072134004344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060376157019247687 alcoholism,Charliedrown86,2018/11/04,"Here I go again... Again. I’m an alcoholic. I can stop for short periods of time and even “moderate” my drinking to only a pint of taaka per night a few times a week. All in all though I know I am shaving a lot of years off my life and have been to hell and back several times with the sauce. On top of this I have a beautiful wife and amazing 13 yr old son that I feel like I will most definitely leave behind tragically when I either asphyxiate, end up in jail and ruining my life, or maybe my liver will have had enough. Either way I want to live a long life with my bride and be the best father I can be to my son. Today is day 1, for the thousandth time. I just want to grow old with my wife and live to see my grandchildren and great grand children. Please god heal my wounds and give me strength to be the man you made me to be. 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Yesterday night I couldn’t sleep and kept throwing up a forest green liquid seems to be bile I’ve had acute pancreatitis before and never vomited this stuff before. My head is on fire and I can’t feel my back left molar it occasionally switches around in my mouth to a different back tooth. The biggest thing is my head it feels like my head is numb. I have some pain in my left side too. I’m finishing my last college class to get my degree and I’m worried if I go to detox I’m going to fail it I showed up to class mildly drunk last week (probably.2 functioning somewhat but probably reaking of booze). and my prof made a joke of me in front of my lab class the next day Im worried he’s going to not pass me because of my drinking ( my gf told me that there really isn’t too much I can do about my professor she’s a teacher so I don’t know)Has anybody experienced stuff like this detoxing?,3.4236775362318848,4.863558937198069,4.504900362318843,85.80778532608697,73.15458937198069,7.493840579710145,26.9471618357488,8.07648339933343,1.6046234299516913,808,29,166,12,16,264,129,207,0.095,0.865,0.04,-0.705,2,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,8,8,0,2,7,0,13,14,6,1,1,22,28,8,0,2,3,0,3,2,1,0,5,0,0,0,10,7,3,1,5,4,0,6,6,5,0,0,5,5,24,3,23,21,4,31,0,1,1,0,6,12,0,6,15,96,34,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11072872478380763,0.1162828730258707,0.0,0.0,0.19128826235755972,0.0,0.07582373855645856,0.0,0.2116843806463613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16043564036227034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12995550317383747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12184962000305427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12578525003548727,0.08886043101662572,0.0,0.0,0.11368533229472345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06498585476254402,0.0,0.2120720182454668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3829636602104191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13435678496461556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06835856008820917,0.20278021014442396,0.0,0.0,0.27028860945847444,0.0,0.0,0.12153613084811225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11769577948843662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09143704218850858,0.0,0.09593312332514596,0.0,0.13228450455500868,0.11672658400804435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1323540555463595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12995550317383747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13410770883750991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13933929390021402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07968400278417148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11323512935008373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12447449620101657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13923845127563622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600677216815208,0.2847813700760806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08263564583589335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11885487978467292,0.0,0.08444902412470724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09977387716573646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2526373343944234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0800996474893186 alcoholism,jayyteem,2018/11/04,"Family trauma, college drinking help I’ve been struggling for about 3 years. When I entered college, I drank some, but nothing compared to the last two years. I also have taken antidepressants since my senior year of high school. Around two years ago I had severe family trauma, (ask and I’ll explain),and I can’t convince myself to take my medication anymore. It’s been around 2 weeks since I’ve had my medication. I’ve been struggling with my drinking since the family issues, and I’ve been reported by friends twic over the last two year for my drinking. I have been okay though, and moved in with friends. Any ideas to get myself to start taking it again? Or two curb my drinking? Thank you pals. 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Tomorrow marks one year sober for me. My best friend wants to celebrate with me on Monday (I work tomorrow). I'm not sure what to do though! How do you celebrate? Any ideas? For my one year since my suicide attempt we went to the city and had some delicious lunch. It really helped change that date into a positive and I would like to do something for this anniversary too.,2.407564102564102,5.133892833333338,3.3720512820512845,86.32294871794875,82.2051282051282,8.594871794871796,24.051282051282055,9.150863307647796,2.4090666666666665,323,12,63,10,9,103,57,78,0.064,0.6459999999999999,0.29,0.9741,0,0,1,0,0,1,10.0,1,3,0,3,4,4,0,0,2,0,6,1,0,2,1,13,9,5,1,2,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,5,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,2,0,11,4,10,6,2,9,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,1,7,44,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1715332128312013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2647124216652669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668385947025864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.194881546990963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16907249860704612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2847505201185289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12323270218036805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3418514206956032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1615926871312597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2086571927489125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1941882185209643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27591181242810064,0.0,0.23773510411342544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2478264887537509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14877886964016238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23383086530913105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18363518348979005,0.0,0.0,0.1791854828455198,0.0,0.0,0.32487116168408064 alcoholism,trettles,2018/11/04,"Has anyone else repeatedly been sexually assaulted? I'm a binge drinking style alcoholic and maybe a dozen times in the last 15 years I've been out and have been sexually assaulted. I know I've put myself in a vulnerable position by drinking heavily in the first place, so no need for lectures. I was just wondering if this happens to anyone else? 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Husband was drinking every night about 4-5 drinks during the week and more on the weekend. I asked him to cut back and he said he would take “3 nights off per week”. He hasn’t stuck with it consistently. This week he took 2 nights off but last night had 10 drinks and then got into a verbal argument with me which left me sobbing and he thought I was overreacting; as I wept, he played video games and drank whiskey. (He drive to the liquor store for whiskey when he was under the influence.) I am getting very close to leaving him because I want to have kids (we had committed to start trying in January) and his current behaviors don’t fit with how I want to raise a child. He doesn’t see his drinking as a big deal. His mom was a severe alcoholic (so he thinks drinking all day is the sign of a real problem) and his bar friends are likely functional alcoholics (6 drinks per night) so he thinks he behavior is acceptable. He once acknowledged that since he sleeps til 12 or 1pm and starts drinking at 4 or 5, that is concerning, but it was a fleeting observation (with no behavior change). Any advice on how to help him see that he is not in control? Or how to help him understand why I’m leaving him? (If that is what I decide.) 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I'm making food and drinking a diet coke but everyone around me is having cocktails and beers. I told her I wouldn't drink today because last time we were over here I got smashed and looked stupid. I'm outside smoking a cig and I'm extremely tempted to walk around the side of the house, down the stairs and go pound a beer from the fridge downstairs. This day is going to be fucking rough",4.316205357142857,5.622442614583335,4.13982142857143,89.80875000000003,70.77083333333334,7.152380952380952,27.255952380952376,7.447530270364453,1.2896952380952382,385,13,79,4,7,117,71,96,0.052000000000000005,0.925,0.023,-0.5499,0,0,4,0,0,0,5.0,1,0,1,0,4,3,2,0,8,0,8,8,0,2,0,13,18,7,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,9,8,0,0,5,0,3,1,2,0,0,3,2,9,1,12,13,1,15,0,0,1,1,6,8,1,0,4,48,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3654463894114938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12512341102654398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13237447107285405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4021495214382753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19613287683954966,0.0,0.0,0.19349903577843372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2481988664294,0.0,0.158581871523594,0.18975777321231874,0.0,0.0,0.2333057765403123,0.0,0.16416362491918005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4736804960813612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16731271805502734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17236507867584158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1370113519567252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11968762809349613,0.0,0.19456064501860876,0.19613287683954966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,vichyhigh,2018/11/22,"Thanks to naked truth I stopped drinking in one day right after August vacations. Lately I feel that I might brake. I think about all the different alcohol I would like to drink and enjoy it's taste. Last week I have eaten plenty of sweets and I feel it is getting worse. What should I do? How to get back on track? 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I dont drink every day. Sometimes I'll stay away from alcohol for two weeks, 1 month, two months. Then I'll relapse. And I'll drink a lot. The thing is: I only drink when I can. What I mean by that is that I dont drink if I have to work or if I'm in a social gathering. I can control myself and besides thinking ""I wanted a beer"" I dont suffer much. I basically only work from thursday to Monday. I can't drink only one beer. I need to drink until I pass out. That a why i avoid drinking. But once or twice a week, I'll do that. Drink alone. Until i pass out. If i have work or an appointment, then i dont drink. And this can go on for months, without me drinking. Right bow I've been getting wasted twice a week for a month. I'm afraid my liver is going to fail anytime soon. I only drink beer, but i feel some pain some days (after a drinking session). Las time I did a blood workout, everything was fine, including my live. This was a couple months ago. What should I do? I have a history of alcoholism in my family. I can stop, but sometimes that feeling comes back and I decide to drink. How can I change that? I dont thabk about it 24/7 and I dont have withdraw symptoms. I'm at lost. Please help me guys",-0.6031279872543821,1.5519865947955438,1.7516664896441867,96.19310780669147,91.97397769516728,4.561274561869356,18.09463621879979,6.1826913282559595,-0.2192422517259689,970,28,222,10,35,327,135,269,0.077,0.862,0.061,-0.5838,0,2,18,0,0,0,44.0,0,0,1,6,5,7,0,2,13,0,26,22,2,3,1,36,41,20,0,7,10,0,2,0,0,1,4,0,0,2,12,8,18,3,6,17,0,5,8,6,0,5,5,2,35,1,26,35,4,38,0,3,0,0,7,9,0,9,23,141,47,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05126365591804165,0.123607415511426,0.0,0.059895432718550176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.108668179498572,0.04446843785261833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061177486611851975,0.04981625055797899,0.0,0.0,0.06486233809222673,0.0,0.06398885627710435,0.0,0.07459236876185357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4066647201467596,0.7364802046918578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0487250772670428,0.0,0.05197473707355512,0.0,0.05451788141198438,0.0,0.0584821410894903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030214289242753038,0.0,0.06573333353826094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057261741675299876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0775257457152593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051065796393896315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06312932333746052,0.04916581336859932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06299486818194981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23080059905375802,0.0,0.04251240905086556,0.08576184679225875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06158808403872248,0.03918775456031348,0.17593220142077687,0.06153621786373745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06348102677612875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059459857683140285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04938732308483909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058951379973781685,0.0,0.0,0.11439259455912434,0.0,0.0,0.0616401077421953,0.0,0.04834927130303858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06010850957931488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03842031953215845,0.03705574347681974,0.0,0.0,0.03372169731302694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1129848877392046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034110198023199534,0.0,0.139165521230968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05218344555370421,0.0,0.0,0.05574698086578364,0.0,0.12630488095546907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,viscouslemondrop,2018/11/22,"I'm worried about my girlfriend. So my girlfriend has been really self conscious about her looks recently, and also complains of heartburn and stomach aches... But it seems like every other day, she goes out to binge drink. She also starves herself and calls it a diet... Only to break it every couple days with heavy foods and more drinking, which in turn causes the stomach problems and heartburn. I've told her that starving herself is not the answer, but it's like talking to a wall. She doesn't know how to say no to her friends who all encourage this behavior. Very susceptible to peer pressure. I'm worried she might be heading down a dark path and putting herself in harms way... Why won't she learn how to hold back or just fucking chill out? She's pretty thick-skinned and flips out if anyone tries to tell her what to do or suggest something. I'm so sick of her telling me she feels like shit only to go out that same night and repeat the process all over again. Is it just a part of being young? 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How should I approach the situation? I (29/F) met someone at work (30/M) and we dated for 10 months before he relapsed. We fell for each other however he stopped communicating after his relapse. I’ve never been around someone with an issue with alcohol and don’t know how to approach the situation. I miss him and am also concerned about him. I’d like to reach out to him but my last two calls haven’t been returned which were 6 months ago. 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It's like I flipped to ice cream as my transfer addiction. It's like addiction whackamole with me: I slammed down the drink, and up the other prairie dog hole came a non-stop supply of Haagen Dasz. Why can't I get a grip? Is my addiction really just a terrible oral fixation? Maybe I should get myself a pacifier instead. &#x200B; I feel so demoralized right now. Where is my self control? Why I am I just a pig? 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That was two years ago and now I’ve been dieting (low carb) and just been staying at 185-190, I’m 5’7. I really want to get down to about 140. I loveee food and hate working out so there’s my problem. I just can’t get the motivation to work out at all. I am in a depression about my weight gain and never want to go shopping like I used to. I’m so unhappy with my weight. I also drink a lot which doesn’t help. My significant other tells me I’m fine just the way I am but I know he would like to see me look good in a bikini. I’ve thought about surgery but just don’t have the money. 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I’ve noticed that when I get drunk (which is fairly way too often) obviously, it begins to change the way I think. But in some situations, it makes me feel a little bit crazy. It makes me feel like I could be crazy. Almost every time I get drunk I think people are looking at me. Sometimes I have a faint worry of people following me (out of a store, when leaving a friend’s, etc). One night I was drunk, sitting in the living room in the dark and I wasn’t comfortable ‘doing nothing’ because I worried that if my dad saw me there sitting in the dark he would think I was trying to murder him. It sounds fine in words but at the time I was seriously thinking my dad might think I wanted to murder him. It was just downright delusional. Other times I think people are talking about me. If someone giggles on the opposite side of the room, they must have been laughing at me. Sometimes I think this very faintly if I’m sober, but when I’m drunk, it’s a lot worse. Sometimes when I’m drinking and listening to music on shuffle I think the universe is picking out my songs for me. -_- or I’m like, “ah, my guardian angel is here, thanks for sending me my favorite nirvana song” etc. It just makes me feel a little crazy. Can alcoholism cause delusions and things, or does it just bring it out of someone who already had it?? 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I’m a 20 yr old female. Been pretty dependent on alcohol since the summer, and it got to the point I was drinking everyday after class since October. I decided to quit drinking after this weekend, after drinking and having a full blown panic attack and landing in the ER. I miss drinking and the feeling I get from it. and have wanted to drink everyday since. Does anyone have advice to trying to stay sober in college? I threw away all the alcohol in our apartment, but I know it’s not hard to get some if I want it. 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I’m petrified. I (20F) have been with my boyfriend (28M) for over 2 years. We live together at this point- and are very serious. I consider us best friends without a doubt. This is my 1st serious relationship and I would even say his considering he just f*cked around up until now basically. I’m not going to go into his addiction horror story- but his drinking has damaged a good portion of this relationship and my emotional health, especially at 18-19 watching a grown man be verbally (and physically at times, including when I was 3 months pregnant- I wound up terminating the pregnancy) abusive and not understanding this full concept of addiction yet. Granted, he made his *OWN* choices and I in no way say it was all alcohol to blame. He is a cold and heartless drunk. He is obnoxious, belligerent, and RUDE when drunk. There is no filter or stopping him. It’s all a blur the next day and empty apologies. In August after his second DWI he was ordered to wear a SCRAM bracelet. In these past 90 days, everything has been amazing. He went into damage-repair mode with this relationship and everything has been calm. He even looks better. He said even thinking of alcohol makes him “sick”. I really am holding onto the bracelet. He is swearing he will be “never really drinking” “‘maybe sometimes in moderation” and I’m sorry, I don’t know if I can believe that. It hurts because I will be absolutely leaving him if he falls into the same pattern. 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I also have severe depression and anxiety and I have been drinking to black out since I was 14. I don’t understand what alcohol use disorder even means in terms of getting the help I need? I have been seeing a therapist for two years now mainly for my mental health issues but I have been going no where with it because over this past summer I ended up voluntarily admitting myself to the hospital for suicidal thoughts. My situation with alcohol is that I drink heavily when I go out and I will occasionally have a beer with my dinner or with friends but I go out at least once or twice a week and I do reckless things when I drink. The drinking makes the depression even worse because I always end up texting my friends I want to die and therefore I have decided to try to be sober for a couple months and I don’t even know what to do in terms of help. I do get urges to drink and I feel as if my therapist won’t be enough to help me. What kind of treatment options are there? I want to commit to this fully, I’m sick of feeling like I’m only going backwards. 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How many relationships did it destroy? Why did you finally stop being a moron? Who or what was the reason. 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I met my ex almost two decades ago. He was an absolute force of nature, and I fell hard and fast for him. There were red flags, but I didn't really see them because it was better than anything I was used to. He had been diagnosed with depression, and it really weighed down on him so he turned to alcohol. It was mostly okay, but confrontations would occur like twice a year. His drinking and behavior spiraled out of control, culminating in him cheating. I pushed him to get help, and it seemed like it was really making a difference, but he had to discontinue treatment for a variety of reasons. He ended up being worse than ever, cheated again, then moved out of the house we just bought. &#x200B; Drinking was always a point of contention for us, and he engaged in some pretty toxic behaviors. He has insisted since he left that he doesn't drink a lot, but I've seen evidence that suggests otherwise. After a pretty egregious act about a month ago, I finally told him I can't talk to him anymore. I'm not trying to get him back, but his family is pretty unsupportive. I am so scared that something bad will happen to him, and I feel so powerless. Should I reach out to him? Tell him that, while I can't maintain a friendship with him, I'll be there for him if he needs me? My number one fear has always been him finally drinking himself to death, and I know I can't think about this logically. I am terrified, and I can't even begin to fathom how I am supposed to handle this. 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I think the doc told me the alcoholic liver will deteriorate through 3 stages? It begins as fatty liver syndrome, then liver disease, then Cirrhosis? Are you doomed once it becomes Cirrhosis or do people survive?",6.3259756097561,9.564599097560977,6.827012195121952,64.37271341463415,70.21951219512195,8.978048780487804,37.079268292682926,9.516144504307137,4.684409756097558,197,11,25,5,4,64,34,41,0.2,0.772,0.028999999999999998,-0.8677,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,4,4,3,0,0,2,7,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,2,5,0,4,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,17,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4641996928654787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4797174760081307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4625801708847402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3011311493649727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2783209190107472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4150504436612157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,boggeddownh,2019/10/13,"Is he an alcoholic? My (38) husband (41) tends to get very angry when he’s drunk. If he has a few drinks, he’s fun and joyful. If he’s just with his friends? He usually ends up fine even after a few *more* drinks. But if I’m around? I tip toe. He tends to get angry with me easily when he drinks. Today, our two children and I went to a tailgate with him. My husband got so drunk that he forgot he had a drink and went to the bar to get another drink. I got upset, frustrated that I was (once again) the responsible parent. When he came back to us I told him I was angry and he tried to take out kids and walk away. I got my 9 year old away but our 15 year old insisted on going with him. I followed telling my husband it wasn’t safe (to drive him) and he let loose on me, every name in the book, every word in there, too. I rubbed his shoulder to try and calm him down and told him I just wanted our kids to be safe over and over while he kept yelling. He smacked my arm hard and walked away. A man standing across from me caught my eye as my husband walked away and his mouth fell open. He began to approach me but I bolted to find my younger son. I got us an Uber while my husband texted me that I’d ended our marriage and to enjoy my car (he just bought me a nice car this week). He drove himself and our older son home. Not safe. I was in the shower when he got home and he stared me down after a very long pee. He waited until I looked at him and then went to bed to fall asleep. He doesn’t get this drunk often. Maybe once or twice a month. He doesn’t always get angry when he’s drunk, but he does often enough that it upsets me. I don’t think he’s an alcoholic. But I know he gets very angry when he drinks, mostly with me. And I don’t know what to do. Does he need help? Do I?",0.12573867410655026,1.9416138523316064,1.8736269430051813,99.25801448120102,84.05181347150258,4.787989903015808,16.374119835259734,5.716464563530887,-0.8255114122492362,1361,25,336,8,39,445,174,386,0.098,0.8079999999999999,0.094,0.3273,3,0,8,0,1,0,51.0,7,0,0,0,18,13,1,2,15,0,15,20,7,0,0,55,51,37,0,5,13,8,2,0,1,0,2,1,4,4,9,25,13,6,4,12,1,17,6,3,0,2,22,6,55,10,44,27,5,64,0,0,3,0,66,19,0,7,27,191,64,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1746158160314837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06797740580822227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08566511365378095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07272653511419523,0.0,0.0,0.3070233733354755,0.0628189864754716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09343817029003593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1429849970427447,0.0,0.0,0.4801843795332515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1447163660814785,0.08441354504539493,0.0,0.053959270239343014,0.0,0.13766438029594266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07466843248889485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06311793128621739,0.0,0.2560959348646964,0.0,0.046429575558887576,0.0,0.3266977586338912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07318334241058069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05475893697602615,0.0,0.16389499011436345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08979569177406388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08353943611101247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07229816506107843,0.06860385167283503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08207435826796651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06520876563526541,0.0,0.0,0.060576361054216266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17145188702669625,0.17400660806216794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09071345872927676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06142503439703977,0.0,0.07140568354782008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052347335789575566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0774380154887982,0.1561275740333913,0.0,0.11093209879110193,0.0,0.07980487372128209,0.0,0.1965398488234671,0.0,0.08997632316013862,0.20222264082562028,0.04818626809866365,0.0,0.06553140023368574,0.0,0.0,0.2271983271437631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10521876481717522 alcoholism,_Pulltab_,2019/10/13,"Just being accountable: having a rare craving I’m new here. *waves* I’m a little over three years sober (6/13/16) and have been in a relatively good place since about 10 months out. But right now, for some reason, I’m experiencing a strange and rare craving to resume drinking again. I’m not planning to, but I know sitting on it will only make it worse. I think it stems from being pretty overwhelmed right now. I have a lot going on (mostly good) and I’m just struggling to stay balanced. I haven’t really been active in 12 step since the first year, did RR for a little while, but it’s been quite a while. I haven’t had time to exercise regularly and have not been meditating. Sleep is averaging about 5 1/2 hours a night most nights and not much time for chilling. Just a lot right now, and I think I just feel a pull to check out a little. So, that’s it in a nutshell. Having a weird urge, not planning to act on it, so I’m shining some light on it (we’re only as sick as our secrets and all that).",1.9703328173374608,3.9541239950980436,3.289525283797733,90.60181114551085,78.65686274509805,5.863364293085656,21.521155830753354,6.8360192770164,0.3848078431372546,781,22,168,8,19,254,110,204,0.08900000000000001,0.851,0.06,-0.6578,0,0,1,0,0,0,33.0,1,0,0,4,13,5,0,2,14,0,17,4,1,2,1,34,29,16,0,0,11,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,9,9,1,0,6,2,2,4,6,3,0,2,6,4,8,2,24,20,8,39,0,1,1,0,2,17,0,6,16,109,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13905713404554065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07177427543351453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12074274941485147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08067355775019794,0.2381221500837314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13979233225001125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07801210584906196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4268141118673649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24136193134452655,0.0,0.0,0.09475284648688252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11330327828699513,0.0,0.10434971427909648,0.0,0.0,0.13709636705416142,0.0,0.2664212533231999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2159190147138549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14830772409751486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444143636621038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15098148795017993,0.0,0.0,0.09093691926299008,0.14594842538534292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3636740308044804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.234845309246416,0.0,0.1420526933366065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15130000333161178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14839714737673826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18191188551931312,0.0,0.0,0.1655445813673028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14465935915197445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1828225220176072 alcoholism,Richard_Dickinsson,2019/10/13,"Being psychologically addicted - how to get out Hi Guys, It's been 2 weeks, since I joined Sober October Challenge. Alcohol is/was impacting my social life. Especially my relationship with my GF, which gave me choice, either I quit drinking or we are done for. Coming from family where everyone drinks doesn't help either. I drink because I have better sleep, i feel more relaxed in company (until i don't..), I feel part of the group, If this rings a bell continue reading. All mentioned above was debunked by following channel https://www.youtube.com/user/StopDrinkingExpert I haven't visited any session of this guy, but he shares some good views on the channel, which helped me realize what i don't want in my Life. Stay strong!",6.186743020758767,8.906063393700789,5.915876879026487,73.21242662848964,68.60629921259843,9.342591267000717,30.44309234073013,9.800150414767053,3.345793700787401,589,24,95,15,11,183,100,127,0.024,0.838,0.138,0.9297,0,0,5,0,0,0,29.0,1,0,0,4,2,6,0,0,3,0,10,8,1,1,1,16,17,5,0,2,5,0,2,0,1,0,4,1,0,2,6,4,4,0,3,7,0,3,4,0,0,0,4,4,16,6,12,12,6,12,0,0,1,0,15,5,0,3,3,58,22,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18375064216401596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1801348306743369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1146236868421165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10275001787075058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14907385920042715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14519584964969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17249104876976268,0.0,0.4953613817209316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1610622379534572,0.0,0.0,0.1588993556129097,0.0,0.17045369873709898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08806342004919035,0.0,0.0,0.14137656210337007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3337933763316743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2259587261741433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2381118154138091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18252944654683084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17927978308731182,0.16860135890103325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18096579024965515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13943105433781078,0.0,0.168677474265976,0.17182135563078807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17965799745828107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09941854572000447,0.0,0.13520525177191048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,TheBrokenJoker,2019/10/13,"Day 1 again I’ve set up things to keep me busy. I’ve messaged friends and family letting them know I’m stopping and asking them not to encourage me to drink. I can’t keep going like this and I know it’s vital I stop now if I want to see my niece grow up. I don’t know about next week, next month or next year but I know tonight, no matter what, I will not drink with you. And I’m going to say that every day, for just that day, I will not drink.",-0.7292454545454525,1.112484130000002,1.2894545454545463,102.00972727272728,87.7,4.4363636363636365,15.090909090909092,5.565023196281405,-1.1001,343,6,89,2,11,113,61,100,0.084,0.831,0.085,-0.2146,0,1,3,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,2,0,4,4,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,0,22,18,7,0,2,7,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,0,0,6,5,3,4,4,3,0,3,6,0,0,0,0,2,14,4,10,15,0,20,0,0,1,0,8,2,0,2,15,49,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1429887072605954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2959225750574166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.449501784511857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12886796664834055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14418876105692388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1181697029604722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17385136174678806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27190007455292386,0.0,0.0,0.3362318760402188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15640294524163734,0.0,0.07472422113082726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1220841733642338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4879959482783188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12163291807176685,0.0,0.0,0.12188228853037462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2557480718851898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10161396828482187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09021456933009707,0.0,0.12268821145425315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09849554580560556 alcoholism,kittenkayla1,2019/10/13,This morning This morning is the first morning I decided not to drink to keep my buzz going. It’s been 2 weeks that I’ve been drunk. It’s a small step. I don’t even know if it’s even a step but. To me it is. I’ll go through this day without alcohol and I’m proud of myself. I just needed to tell someone. Thanks for reading.,-1.3449999999999989,0.6693300555555624,1.148555555555557,99.65200000000004,95.66666666666666,3.991111111111112,19.7,5.6839178017228535,-0.2828266666666668,252,9,61,2,10,85,50,72,0.026000000000000002,0.852,0.122,0.8074,0,0,2,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,3,0,5,3,0,0,0,10,12,3,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,8,1,3,1,2,3,0,4,3,0,0,1,2,0,6,2,8,10,0,8,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,3,38,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2984447485106949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18010004208760905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27356916008632803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3688981033309784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375389998553919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31742057085211833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24821973210951045,0.0,0.0,0.15347437166872918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20706826278850926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27933626144046403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2366166760051357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24408615156396896,0.25710572306400603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2240060803973193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2691973392677464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,BethInWhyalla,2019/10/13,"This week is one year!! Woah I never thought this would happen, I didn’t think I’d make it a week. Just wanted to share some love to this community for helping me through my first year. The thing I’ve found most interesting is that I expected to feel shame but it’s not come yet?",2.2355172413793127,3.9514515172413813,3.1753793103448267,92.95755172413791,76.93103448275863,6.708965517241379,21.944827586206884,7.554174236665415,0.5317613793103444,220,6,51,3,5,70,46,58,0.037000000000000005,0.812,0.151,0.652,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,2,4,0,1,2,0,4,1,0,1,1,15,13,1,0,3,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,1,0,0,4,0,0,1,3,1,0,2,3,1,5,3,5,9,2,8,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,7,32,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.238582083593342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14004256560709386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23558753194483134,0.0,0.30367943098127337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24492052854073834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18564478195069276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24997304635592585,0.0,0.18487726473658084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21361361071134966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876796432815152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18400421114864834,0.17746892607886205,0.0,0.21988043417292166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16336199583477035,0.0,0.4443315805283924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19674902876368686,0.0,0.0,0.35671464294782673 alcoholism,Sadlyaloneloser,2019/10/13,"Always knew it would get me. TL;DR : Can't ever get drunk enough to actually care about myself or my future. My bad if this has been addressed in earlier posts. I guess I was born into alcoholism after the state and county says this to me multiple times. After their classes that I'm forced to take with AA that scares the crap out of me as they're zombies forced to talk to God and our class as they replace booze with coffee (yuck). How I got here is that I started drinking with my best friends when I was 14 just having fun and vacuuming up someone's puke that couldn't make it through the evening. I was always around kids 14 to 20 smoking weed and taking pills. I ran away from this life as I saw people gettting in trouble or ruining their lives with the pills and weed (in the bible belt.) You would think that this was my wakeup call to clean myself up and it actually was except beer. I went to multiple friends funerals that passed away for multiple years because what they where doing (Selling pills and real drugs.) So we're going into 2020 and I find myself hitting up breweries every night after work. I'm always the fun guy that everyone loves (yes probably because i tip well.) Also nailed my 3rd DUI that scares the poop out of me but not enough to stop my daily brewery hopping. I guess i flee the country or state? Found out my family background last month. Mom's side is straight Alzheimer and Dementia. Dad's side is alcoholism and suicide including himself and his Father. If you made it this far thanks as I just wanted to unload for once. Looking for a cure we don't have I guess.",4.545402139185999,5.957735086261983,4.797263508820669,84.90715793860258,70.34185303514377,7.488206695374358,27.346714821502985,7.893859768569023,1.6117477149604102,1274,43,245,16,23,400,184,313,0.079,0.83,0.091,0.431,0,0,5,0,0,1,29.0,2,2,4,2,13,15,1,2,9,1,18,14,2,3,1,49,44,25,2,6,10,3,0,0,2,2,7,1,3,2,18,22,6,1,4,3,1,5,4,6,2,0,13,3,39,9,44,27,3,41,0,1,2,1,21,19,1,8,14,160,57,3,0.0,0.0,0.2134761905584573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23378570639896185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08747032169773072,0.27303619220572894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09737047177075556,0.0,0.0,0.20553028313106705,0.0,0.09132687004541246,0.1333528081187556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11478647943351512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11168815627542132,0.0,0.1115191482467729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10714974825141037,0.12684487808922015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2260354268770249,0.0,0.0722437772040236,0.09893953919206323,0.0921564985489614,0.104516291860903,0.0,0.0,0.10311275714762788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09997039576284447,0.0,0.0,0.1199283934777947,0.16901183967812974,0.0,0.11429199331987687,0.0,0.062162588513066865,0.0,0.08748035317420587,0.0,0.3614797963273719,0.10830237548294497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08915845805181208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07725760026540393,0.0,0.0,0.0965836332179362,0.0,0.09185078585396601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09871878963071803,0.10349702479271894,0.07301131090368232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12810332610358344,0.08730524922608486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10264475252688968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11648503185005435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07582960475312381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10475481681021384,0.0,0.11792902792928232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12449721240726723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08698254600675867,0.21901485783260785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09267644517399272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07741899696841571,0.0,0.0,0.09144571544262302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11964283875877375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16447874406180105,0.0879146717849626,0.0,0.10070145878874548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0700856265704077,0.0,0.0,0.06377975621186925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06451454961069898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09834482868650833,0.10139539974315227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07962919186155566,0.0,0.0,0.15539936216095213,0.0,0.0,0.07043646966885961 alcoholism,S0ffee,2019/10/13,"Currently in the ER Because I passed our for 2-5 minutes. The exact time is in dispute by witnesses. I was at a wedding reception and I guess I had too much to drink. One of my relatives panicked and called 911. The fireman paramedic said I had to be transported to the ER because I passed out. Even though the regular paramedic said I was coherent. I was able to tell them my full name, my location, my social , my phone number but I couldn’t remember what I was doing before I passed out. So Im in an ER room right now and even the nurse thinks Im ok to leave but I have to wait for the doctor. I understand, but my husband did come to the ER to get me. Maybe I should think about stop drinking now. IDK I scared my relatives. And am embarrassed as hell. Anyone else been through this?",1.0596319444444475,3.39780614375,2.7741666666666696,91.0052777777778,84.4375,6.555555555555558,23.88888888888889,7.793537801064563,1.3510972222222226,613,24,130,12,18,202,99,160,0.153,0.8220000000000001,0.025,-0.9648,2,0,2,0,0,0,18.0,1,0,1,0,8,4,1,2,10,1,15,3,0,0,1,21,24,10,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,2,7,2,2,4,2,0,5,1,3,4,1,10,2,25,1,21,11,2,19,1,0,0,0,11,9,1,1,5,90,27,1,0.1659438183567775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1160317761810178,0.17002905223970108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20231562287091095,0.0,0.1412059670818739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16944719217343146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14294590584451053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16985052972981712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3251235330363687,0.0,0.0,0.13862476679140026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2192086539424536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08669879601289293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18280582459149675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3584955998550388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17571054324398064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16671286990454562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12198780023268944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11244782597832706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18798199738414265,0.14171511417506882,0.31570114401866384,0.0,0.16613871130830726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16915882501691898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13873646261857964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14504221151369134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.212660196570631,0.16303895899274834,0.0,0.09676317496867416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17275336723248313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,arikr,2019/06/04,"Supplements for alcohol users # Supplements for People Who Are Stopping or Significantly Reducing their Alcohol Consumption These are to help you feel better, faster. For men who have consumed more than 14 standard drinks per week for more than 6 weeks in a year, and for women who have consumed more than 7 standard drinks per week for more than 6 weeks in a year. ## Supplements for frequent alcohol users and past frequent alcohol users **General deficiencies induced by alcohol use over time** - B-complex (for first month after reducing alcohol intake). Benefits: memory, mood enhancement, energy. [1](https://academic.oup.com/alcalc/article/33/4/317/129640) - Thiamine aka Vitamin B1 (for first month after reducing alcohol intake). Benefits: concentration, energy, muscle functioning. 100mg 3x/day or 300mg once per day. Benfotiamine preferred instead of Thiamine Hcl due to greater absorption. [1](https://rebelem.com/should-you-prescribe-oral-thiamine-for-chronic-alcoholics/), [2](https://academic.oup.com/alcalc/article/31/4/421/145739), [3](https://pubs.niaaa.nih.gov/publications/arh27-2/134-142.htm), [4](https://examine.com/supplements/vitamin-b1/) - Folic acid (for first month after reducing alcohol intake). Benefits: Memory, avoiding sleep disruption, avoiding muscle pain. ""When supplementing folate, use up to 400 DFE (400 mcg folate) When supplementing folic acid, use up to 400 DFE (200 mcg is taken on an empty stomach, 240 mcg if taken with a meal)"" [1](https://www.nejm.org/doi/full/10.1056/NEJM197109232851301), [2](https://examine.com/supplements/folic-acid/) **If you get Insomnia after reducing alcohol intake** - Melatonin (0.5mg per night, 30 min before bed). Benefits: sleep. [1](https://examine.com/supplements/melatonin/) **Strengthening your liver** - NAC ""750 – 1,000 mg, once a day."" Benefits: Liver health. [1](https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4728225/), [2](https://examine.com/supplements/n-acetylcysteine/) - Milk Thistle take 150mg ""twice a day, for a total daily dose of 300 mg."" Benefits: Liver health. Important: Don't take milk thistle before drinking. Take it before sleep if you're sober, otherwise wait until the morning, and if you can't control your timing, avoid consuming milk thistle. [1](https://journals.lww.com/jcge/Abstract/2003/10000/Silymarin_Retards_the_Progression_of.13.aspx), [2](https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3959115/), [3](https://examine.com/supplements/milk-thistle/) **Reviewed and not recommended** - Magnesium - Emoxypine (http://photos.imageevent.com/diydefense/awakebrain/MexidolPaper.pdf) - Ashwaghanda (useful dosage likely too large) - Vitamin C - Agmatine (Promising but more research needed. Also, don't take at the same time as alcohol) 250mg once per day. Benefits: reducing cravings and withdrawal symptoms. Don't take Agmatine before drinking. Take it before sleep if you're sober, otherwise wait until the morning. If you can't control your timing, avoid consuming agmatine. [1](https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S0166432899001278), [2](https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S009130570700233X), [3](https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/10809167) - Piracetam or Noopept. Beneficial but best to wait until alcohol consumption is close to zero due to the potential for interaction with alcohol. Noopept may be preferred. If noopept ""take 10 – 30 mg, once a day"" for 30-50 days after stopping alcohol intake. References: [1](https://journals.sagepub.com/doi/abs/10.1177/030006057800600508), [2](https://onlinelibrary.wiley.com/doi/abs/10.1111/j.1530-0277.1991.tb00610.x), [3](https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/074183299400107O), [4](https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/0741832995020500), [5](https://www.purenootropics.net/piracetam/piracetam-side-effects/piracetam-dangers-with-alcohol/) Original source: https://github.com/arikroc/supplements-for-alcohol-users",14.867401315789476,20.742191437500004,9.425877192982457,42.482631578947405,56.5,12.61842105263158,44.25438596491228,11.10113133989139,7.815895833333332,3270,172,270,111,57,884,251,480,0.039,0.861,0.1,0.9678,0,4,20,0,0,0,450.0,0,7,1,7,5,17,0,4,12,0,13,37,8,8,1,49,32,24,0,10,13,0,1,1,0,1,21,0,1,2,6,8,21,11,5,4,0,0,6,5,0,5,2,3,8,11,45,28,9,51,0,0,0,0,15,8,0,11,44,121,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7868596845389303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036800191293635036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.195787585819326,0.0,0.04829254447781287,0.04069875374196591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10322511533498807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20774243831307948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18031858834784809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.023267838997786408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11742742799837415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.024042253051479542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0978289362583938,0.0,0.0,0.030844571280755493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02248183411163041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11019222783566457,0.0,0.0,0.03412140537504547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043184321892980604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1960286127557883,0.0,0.0,0.048965881997896255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0439289264590454,0.031902751773097565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842029990714315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07694540859014924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047829819402413744,0.242196118032438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10733273566177308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05535340632341355,0.15897743698819564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14764990390668625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0592675437234525 alcoholism,Lubytuesdays,2019/06/04,"My father’s alcoholism has broken my heart (needing words of encouragement or advice) My father has been an alcoholic for 30+ years. It has always affected my sibling and I, as well as our family, but nobody ever seriously talked about it. In the past few years, we’ve all noticed severe cognitive effects from his consumption. He has been told by his doctor that he has permanent brain damage and that quitting drinking is the only way to stop even further damage. We have all lost the person we once knew and loved. I tried to have a conversation with him about it, but he completely shut down emotionally and does not believe drinking every night is a problem. I’m very lost and feel extremely hopeless about this situation. If anyone has any advice/words of encouragement I’d be so grateful. Thanks.",5.9822263450834905,7.864526047619048,6.559233147804576,71.83825602968463,67.43537414965986,9.42708719851577,31.050711193568336,9.800150414767053,3.314434013605441,647,26,104,15,11,211,103,147,0.192,0.6829999999999999,0.125,-0.8757,0,0,4,0,0,1,17.0,3,0,0,4,7,12,0,0,6,0,13,8,2,2,3,24,22,12,0,3,5,2,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,6,8,4,1,3,2,0,0,1,7,1,0,6,1,12,5,15,15,3,11,0,5,0,1,18,4,0,2,6,69,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14433359812729465,0.0,0.3156990352632809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12290067372526525,0.0,0.0,0.1004430603979022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10327732605481932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16641062761808512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16488532317631782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15486371663953205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1511802121526072,0.12925583331861148,0.0,0.0,0.28938528939786273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16614592102193415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09755639520649044,0.1336057603924867,0.12444609267728207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13924118140606584,0.0,0.07468304165123699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17502868852429426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32247040182824216,0.0,0.13330766507851338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10951985438208052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13860919834114027,0.0,0.0,0.16816076987738934,0.0,0.15729880472212654,0.0,0.11233473742348074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14099916389945488,0.0,0.12896850522281508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14133176058324262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15710025193627913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1668622739970192,0.0,0.0,0.16602428686928866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12348626692741554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11871802384974176,0.0,0.13598501755688672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14113648356873673,0.0,0.10028059703872252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12187038965116902,0.0,0.11723971438693513,0.0,0.0,0.1328026765095729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1902316943522863 alcoholism,taetaetae159,2019/06/04,I have been diagnosed I now know I suffer from PTSD. I've always felt that was but was scared to seek help. Now that I have the courage to stop smoking marijuana and drinking alcohol I now get the chance to get to the root of my issues and not self medicate as I was doing all this time. I'm happy to know but scared of this process. Anyone else out there suffer from this and know what's next to expect?,3.4567857142857146,4.415253011904763,4.3390476190476175,88.88928571428572,72.45238095238095,7.504761904761906,23.523809523809533,7.793537801064563,0.8974666666666673,319,8,70,4,6,103,52,84,0.177,0.667,0.156,-0.2732,0,0,2,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,4,6,0,2,3,0,7,4,0,1,1,15,14,6,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,6,4,2,1,4,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,5,1,7,2,12,9,1,7,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,6,46,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.222289072005878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1730729185694407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14543865139675616,0.2131208955849478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.211115933950494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2037611150086567,0.0,0.0,0.1737575670726428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.199712914202739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21734315176156774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2214201953040754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13941822179766936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21709828106958293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3429345883132985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20953842727255964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22121068695840546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431412288719625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4164891879234742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21698968411989406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17389757088027455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12128665211809975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,begaterpillar,2019/06/04,"I was so close to caving yesterday, still am today After like a year of struggeling trying to put my appartment on the market dealing with treatment resistant depression and near liver failure i finally got it on the market, having to take a 50k hit from what i thought i was going to get only to have fucking 10, 15 units in the area come up within a week of mine. I had to lower the price 50k to stay competitive because I literally cant afford to keep it any longer and there are almost 20 *buildings* that are getting finished in the next year in my already bubbly market. Mine was priced at 49 on the 100 and all the other units were 15-48. I cant even make rent this month in my new place and it looks like i got blacklisted from my on call job because I asked for 10 days off(and they agreed) to finish the final push with cleaning/organizing/renovating. Its been like a year and a half since i quit with two relapses and if i had any money i probably would have relapsed last night. Im going to call my psychiatrist and see if i can get an emergency supply of diazapam to stop me from drinking but its not like thats easy given my addictions lable. I know its first world problemsy but taking a 20% hit on your worth overnight sucks if you are worth $10 or 10million and having all those units open up at the same time took my take home from 250k to 200k or less. Every time i see a real estate add my pulse jumps.",8.087416242294289,5.927689331010456,8.19142857142857,75.65549450549453,63.35540069686411,11.200107209863308,34.272045028142585,9.661875296680813,2.95775979630126,1126,35,227,17,13,369,172,287,0.057999999999999996,0.889,0.053,-0.3202,4,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,2,1,2,5,7,2,0,17,0,19,4,1,1,2,34,44,16,0,4,8,0,0,4,0,1,1,0,2,0,12,15,1,2,2,1,6,7,3,3,0,3,12,3,29,4,39,29,4,50,0,1,3,1,7,20,2,6,26,143,41,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12985063708576342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11927435834788733,0.0,0.13144404137208138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16200170607602488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1113544776049852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14522023024203992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24325516647810916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1026052119175294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07681796319990833,0.12280016433765252,0.10259176177722533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11668529017843697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07867294365320067,0.0,0.10035775118932888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2609647081827889,0.0,0.10131736749155344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11011795190855124,0.1866947140320455,0.0,0.13538920617659045,0.0,0.19053092632739813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1194799453839518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12866236628924288,0.0,0.118201168695265,0.10587301382974716,0.0,0.0,0.06546133192596637,0.09709290707083633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23277017515230644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1000248323060939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07950878222424676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09507477624813164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11503997606397767,0.12667791495554148,0.1117793828669712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09059072394903968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1244476232075563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12842384670939425,0.0,0.0,0.1197413585041007,0.0,0.1266912255452448,0.0,0.13557655144520853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.189835111158322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09853141748012888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12695849741132906,0.09512371167376464,0.09958371359828926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2686742193832011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09456233345369527,0.13891137370906467,0.0,0.11290509679139205,0.0,0.13233880888530827,0.08086983681221402,0.0,0.11635599046607245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09554517945168696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08461438296965874,0.0,0.0,0.23011439699805486 alcoholism,captainwilliamspry,2019/06/04,Are there any subs for woman /mom alcoholics? I've been drinking hard for 15 years and I'm 34 now with small kids (2&4) and recently have been experiencing depression. It has made my drinking worse and I'm looking for advice or other moms of young children experiencing the same thing. My drinking is starting to get in the way of everything. I've been declining things on the weekend because I know I'll be hungover or drunk.,4.591269841269837,6.903852641975313,5.238906525573197,78.11222222222223,71.96296296296295,8.085361552028218,32.55908289241623,8.841846274778883,2.991471252204585,348,17,61,7,7,112,60,81,0.13,0.87,0.0,-0.8625,0,0,4,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,8,5,0,1,0,9,15,5,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,4,4,5,0,1,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,4,3,0,9,10,1,10,0,1,1,0,5,3,0,2,6,35,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1844052886958186,0.0,0.201673666055816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20446727350951555,0.0,0.12832931341343728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11503590235004485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16253570001994752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5545920547411785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1696004357755068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09859321875868438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16904714926279954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10371011496935856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15846892437183888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1785620236354193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4420298880918771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18632842023273305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335699532831134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2507411601165636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14978926361324907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19231167529398768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12152309292944252 alcoholism,IAmTrash456456,2019/06/04,"Musician's Struggling with Alcoholism Im a bassist is several punk bands around my city. Practices - I drink substantially, Shows - I usually get black out drunk. Even when I'm not playing, I frequent shows and get super wasted. Between all my bands I practice nearly everyday and have shows at least once a week, sometimes 2-3 times a week. Especially over the last 8-12 months my drinking has gotten so bad I feel anxious, depressed, and have an overwelming sense of hopeless when sober. I also cant even hold a conversation anymore without a drink because I lose focus. Most of my time sober now I spend alone in bed thinking of all my regrets and mistakes. Ironically, I feel anxious and depressed about embarrassing things I've done while wasted, which is largely why I keep drinking. I was just wondering if any fellow musicians dealt with the same thing. Got any tips on dealing with alcoholism why being an active musician? It feels like half the scene are alcoholics and/or drug addicts themselves which doesnt make it easy. I feel like Ive gone beyond many of my friends though, since my drinkings frequently excessive and daily. Its having a huge negative impact on my mental health. I really just want to get a grip on myself, maybe not cut out drinking entirely.",5.886017316017316,7.983941606060604,5.761320346320346,76.61436147186147,68.00432900432901,8.769696969696971,33.612554112554115,9.2995712137729,3.34670735930736,1025,48,168,21,18,320,156,231,0.193,0.715,0.092,-0.9746,0,1,10,0,0,1,28.0,0,0,0,2,13,15,1,2,12,0,13,13,0,1,2,34,29,13,0,4,6,0,5,2,2,0,6,0,1,0,7,12,10,2,6,13,1,1,6,10,0,1,5,6,23,5,22,23,5,27,0,5,1,0,6,12,0,3,16,103,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10629313285667856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3126045481554052,0.0,0.10098414998855297,0.0,0.07797345929171677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13261135450243727,0.0,0.0,0.2203022496770089,0.09669720452618843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0867987263505084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08141129294498321,0.059437187113681726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10052175696406457,0.16795912610555702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0997798633384188,0.0,0.5730974601148037,0.11307302575416478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12880019443312354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1972026593474709,0.13931294251350812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07533090964556673,0.0,0.15282455664149774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07798240162675556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10364158868129546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10532043816315274,0.0,0.0,0.08666553031626288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07947831063705309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09527050351010216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10908139992372363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06508429794343427,0.09885317621370884,0.09795530273109787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09826052633894122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07782630913383191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10383797284342423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06246319521588022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11015112483850444,0.0,0.08065584646962401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09643338734040592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10193175732362242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12955389531869926,0.06247626216817636,0.09579662682456323,0.0,0.11371007052671735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10738625509573343,0.0,0.0575100503823091,0.0,0.15642274356444907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17596336326601675,0.0,0.0,0.0939898289676395,0.10573831271599594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,helpmenurse9,2019/06/04,"Family/Friend support? Hi Everyone, I'm a co-dependent daughter/sister/girlfriend of an alcoholic. It got me thinking as I begin to navigate this with my boyfriend (maybe?)... what are ways that your family helped you become sober? Helped you realize what was going on? What are some things they did that definitely didn't help?? I'm trying to identify some of my codependent habits that affect my relationships in and out of alcoholism, and I was just curious your perspective. Thank you.",3.893160676532768,7.147587406976744,4.74746300211417,74.95070824524316,81.90697674418605,9.638900634249476,27.585623678646932,9.573946990214177,3.7885953488372106,391,17,62,14,11,126,63,86,0.027000000000000003,0.841,0.132,0.8361,0,0,2,0,0,0,20.0,0,5,1,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,6,2,0,1,0,10,14,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,9,4,2,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,0,12,2,10,9,2,6,0,0,0,0,11,3,0,2,1,44,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4848544207732135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2505313365557458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21675912925618998,0.0,0.0,0.21384830112677986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17525908425537245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1289206526417497,0.0,0.181427840994406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4561461831993672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2278952522328969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2435455238800845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2574198426823886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20884744505599775,0.0,0.0,0.15070505030472472,0.14535245288834164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15401216146084631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18005818029595347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,idahogarnet,2019/06/04,"A short poem on alcoholism A demon slumbers inside my brain. A beast of burden by many names. A violent thunderstorm, hammering rain. A flash flood surges inside my veins. The toungue will slip the hands will wander. Friendships not so, for much longer. A demon slumbers inside my brain. A battle lost before its won. First sip and sanity is done. Will I exercise this demon? Or provide safe haven. Urges raging, my mind is racing. A broken mirror a shattered life. Deaths spiral, gluttony and vice. Steel on my wrists, behind a locked cell. Making the phone call, putting loved ones through hell. A demon slumbers inside my brain. The tremors, the headache the need to self medicate. The self delusion, can not accept my fate. There is no escape there is no reprieve. My thirst will not be quenched, the addiction will not leave. A demon slumbers inside my brain. Waiting, wanting, to be woken again . . .",2.8849528301886767,5.9521497044025145,2.7270833333333364,87.31062500000002,89.69182389937107,4.662578616352201,22.34827044025157,6.42735559955562,0.9010647798742141,709,25,114,8,24,212,102,159,0.183,0.727,0.09,-0.948,0,0,1,0,0,0,36.0,0,0,0,3,4,10,4,0,20,0,13,14,8,1,0,15,21,4,1,2,5,0,1,0,0,5,5,0,0,2,2,2,2,2,1,1,0,1,6,6,0,2,4,1,10,4,9,10,1,6,6,1,0,1,7,3,1,1,2,70,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17193322885695558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1685499582624306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13420431649126335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7042508524938323,0.16104520989409546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1613977650071889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13415276600148007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16699799479928648,0.0,0.0,0.11139915695245607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17216515319310888,0.0,0.14234444122584802,0.0,0.10527635410267876,0.15989881295629405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15888182380027827,0.0,0.0,0.15924774554253918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11593907600950375,0.11694408169231545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10687213818379128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15854768877052733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3290634296302161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09302471747905892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Degoy13,2019/01/23,"I can't stay sober... So a few years ago I was in a really bad place with my girlfriend of about 5 years breaking up with me and my friends passing, I was not a heavy drinker at the time, I had a few beers sometimes when at the skatepark with my friends after working all day. But going through my friends passing and my girlfriend breaking up w me, whiskey was pretty much my only friend. I was drinking heavily almost everyday since until a couple weeks ago when I decided to go sober. It only lasted about a week and a half until I fell back into it. Getting shitfaced drunk and forgetting all worries is such a relief but ofcourse the aftermath is unbelievably horrible. Everyday I wonder why I keep doing this to myself and why I cant stop. I don't know why I decided to post this but I guess I just wanted to share my story and also get some tips on how to stay sober. Love y'all <3 ",4.526266294227188,5.308066910614528,5.455432960893855,82.5180470204842,69.83798882681565,8.201303538175045,31.11778398510242,8.344100000000001,2.2803515828677843,703,29,138,10,12,231,106,179,0.065,0.8,0.135,0.8792,0,0,4,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,1,10,8,0,0,11,0,11,5,0,1,2,29,21,16,0,1,5,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,4,10,4,2,4,4,0,5,4,1,0,1,5,0,25,7,22,16,6,37,0,0,0,1,9,8,0,4,19,98,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24446538984685676,0.0,0.13807864487119284,0.0,0.0,0.1102719632243018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10603022551592092,0.11513383121923035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525745717457834,0.0,0.0889287555793955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1350813952588819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4261392208859758,0.0,0.14408547081550951,0.0,0.15673409086405932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15190328191043334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1225645015452685,0.0,0.0,0.07578168626518453,0.11240016060990367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12445266609770045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1013662844156542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20974574206972088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1440675045999487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13206215642812774,0.1402854580083023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08833697040359016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1140654604337676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13637844260073434,0.0,0.0,0.2939484650390436,0.0,0.11528365706891533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08040577415222472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08133211246995968,0.0,0.22121684971357564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37327750427809897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1495376944556913,0.10038681859296446,0.14003574087316814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17759550078745487 alcoholism,Nerdinater,2019/01/23,I broke today. After 3 weeks. There is no true help. I honestly believe this is an unbreakable disease. ,1.0244736842105269,3.037028157894742,3.03092105263158,81.79269736842106,109.52631578947368,6.110526315789473,25.802631578947373,7.1686216300943375,2.4492000000000007,81,4,13,2,4,27,17,19,0.204,0.449,0.34700000000000003,0.5423,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,2,0,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6239460940702422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3712023332241277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5249402858618835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4442271893780211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,tubthumping575,2019/01/23,"The tipping point Hey, I know I have been a substance addict for a while now, when I was younger it was weed, few years later research chemicals & illegal drugs etc I know I'm an addict, but lately alcohol has been my crutch, which it never used to be, k was a weed guy from 18-26, didn't really drink at all. I've stopped for 6 months in the past, most recently a month and now a week. I'm not to the point of physical withdrawals but I know I've got a problem, I realize when being sober that I'm a twat for drinking, it ruins my work, social life, family etc etc.but hindsight is a beautiful thing. I can't stop at one drink, and for me, that's the definition of an alcoholic. I find myself being able to tolerate a lot more than I used to, I used to drink beer/cider but now I'm drinking gin, I can drink 700ml of gin a night and smoke half gram of weed (25 ounces for the yanks) when I have no commitments but baseline is 350ml gin half gram of weed Since moving to spirits my tolerance has shot up I'm going to try and stick to two days drinking/smoking weed every 8 days ( why 8 days you ask?,I work 4 days on the. 4 off) , I've tries tried this before but I can't seem to stick to it, I always fall back into the same patterns. I realise I have a problem, and that I'm in a crossroads, i either give up intoxicants for life (fantastic idea when sober) or stick to two day a week. What you guys think, Any tips for staying on this rota or should I just give in to the fact I'm an addict and call it a day.",2.7302234863876467,3.52878503738318,4.226252201002303,89.62053230394152,74.01557632398755,7.576378166057157,24.548422050656924,7.893859768569023,1.0565055126642284,1171,34,269,16,23,391,166,321,0.084,0.8740000000000001,0.042,-0.9227,0,0,12,0,0,0,43.0,0,2,0,2,9,3,0,0,25,0,20,14,0,3,4,40,39,18,0,3,10,0,0,0,0,1,8,0,0,2,13,7,8,2,8,6,0,3,6,3,0,5,7,0,25,0,37,28,9,45,1,1,0,0,9,13,0,5,28,160,38,3,0.08277434350784993,0.0,0.0,0.2707087571266362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1769211998491592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06887488471293716,0.08968596660799996,0.0,0.05628939203852333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07738283746481618,0.0,0.0,0.06364836080223485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07043486970670762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08452185944792939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32029562287186986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4865240646960027,0.09599195935429868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2769458202623929,0.0,0.0,0.0697409544335254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0780322843312815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07565425038250452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15880938554527044,0.0470425669510058,0.0,0.06620220408341197,0.0,0.0,0.16391922767303854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09344215849264252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.136471843367455,0.0,0.09337306487348086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11693193349550887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0703717868118386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321393825493294,0.0879760274969482,0.0,0.0,0.0638406765896671,0.0,0.0,0.07767811409430965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05609003737776668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0790174769904381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1564970192943456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15840773563548285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05302736400932962,0.0,0.08172967824279506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07535465354262005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06847179231615752,0.0,0.0,0.08437801918737672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08822643670251776,0.0,0.13840611512462847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05499159578811213,0.05303845703832862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1685950373736639,0.0,0.16171701204928804,0.0,0.0,0.21447136855697507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13279317098112967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07469097029029946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1205214158227758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05330396335560097 alcoholism,yenagain,2019/01/23,"Veteran needs help My boyfriend is a veteran (Air Force) and has finally admitted he has a drinking problem. He acknowledges he needs help but doesn’t know where to begin. When we’re together he abstains but I can’t be with him 24/7. As soon as I go to work he starts to drink to the point of blacking out going on 2-3 benders. I can’t do it alone I don’t know where to begin. Are there programs out there to help him? 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Your experience and advice greatly appreciated One of my relatives borrowed a lot of money from me without giving me the full picture of his situation. He was really convincing he would have the money back to me by the following week it was just a cash flow thing. I knew he was a binge drinker and would sometimes have these episodes but he insisted he didnt drink daily and binge drank every few months. I then discovered shortly after that he is very dependant on alcohol and had lost his job before he borrowed the money with no way of paying it back in the timeframe he gave. Now I knew there was a risk of me not getting the money back and I told them that I desperately needed it by then as it was the rent money that was due. Just writing this makes me see how stupid I was to risk my rent money but he really seemed like he needed my help. I will take it as a lesson but my question is do you think he knew what he was doing when he did it? I'm trying not to be angry but I'm struggling and just wandered if anyone had any similar experiences?",4.532852713178297,5.599674874418604,5.806511627906978,78.96201550387597,70.02325581395347,8.710077519379848,28.286821705426355,9.029198982220553,2.276975193798449,858,30,164,16,15,288,120,215,0.109,0.825,0.066,-0.8613,5,0,3,0,0,0,9.0,0,2,1,2,10,8,1,3,12,0,22,3,0,3,0,35,41,17,0,5,11,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,2,0,13,7,3,0,8,1,14,2,5,5,0,1,19,1,21,3,18,18,3,18,0,1,1,0,25,4,0,6,12,116,34,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14819407818127728,0.0,0.1620715069830754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1031296034915282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10603967704195162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3498366197272791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12904598756118962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14856272814496022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12777464309665856,0.0,0.0,0.2966925124241917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07923271220799619,0.14547988856237984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1671985565383614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10165016707187216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15049273189823467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07409025636077415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1655477468854332,0.12893041136291614,0.0,0.0,0.1012299115051645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1210484039213048,0.0,0.0,0.22489834762362074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10276435941314216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33977333107956065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19430627428842845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1208482318904744,0.13805968157860665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1704649261677721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14998922282447902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15854120117273446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11402458399782665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10075186928849933,0.09717346103901492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14491145063652794,0.0,0.10296279473691908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12513004793256574,0.0,0.12037551634017275,0.1216473173159704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14618859493650765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21546063869836365,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,kingfridayxii,2019/01/23,"My brother is in recovery, I'm afraid he's going to die. He's at 200 some-odd-days. He spent a week in the hospital after he quit cold turkey back in the summer. I wasn't there because at the time he lived in a different state, but my mom was. She said it was ugly. Seizures, hallucinations, anger. All of it. I was afraid he would die there. He's been home for awhile now. Living in my mom's basement. It was simple at first, he went to meetings, he had a therapist, he got a job. He powered through, but now he's sick. Really sick. Back pain, migraines, numbness in his hands and legs, sleeplessness, hallucinations, vomiting, dizzy spells...he's terrified he'll have another seizure so he sleeps on the floor next to my mom's bed. He doesn't go to meetings or his therapist. It's a fight to get him to take responsibility for his health. I don't know how to help him. I'm afraid he's relapsed and I'm afraid it's going to kill him. I'm new to this so I apologize if I've said anything to offend anyone. I just need some advice. 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I’ve been dealing with my alcoholic mom for some time now but only super recently has it gotten to the point that me (im 18 almost 19) can’t stand the thought of living at home anymore. The only issue is i don’t have a car or a job right now and my last job was a seasonal one during halloween. So moving out isn’t that much of an option. Recently my mom has become super emotionally abusive towards me, and i don’t mean to sound high and mighty but out of all my siblings I’m the only one who hasn’t become a drug addict or arrested or just anything stupid like that. Yet my mom really likes to target me and I’ve had a few complete mental breakdowns from her emotionally abusing me. She always tells me to move out, pay bills, that i blame her for everything wrong (i dont i barely talk to my mom anymore even while living at home) that im selfish and don’t think about anyone but myself. I would love to get my mom help but she’s indenial, ive confronted her twice in the past and she’s gotten defensive and told me if i called anyone (cops or child services cause we had a child living with us at one point) that she would kick me out but i really had nowhere to go but maybe my boyfriends house. And in the past when my sister was a drug addict my parents were forced to go to AA meetings for a few months but that stopped eventually. I’m basically stuck in a loop and have been for a few years. Anytime ive ever tried to reach out to my mom when sober even she blames my problems on myself, which makes me upset because i know i have issues because of childhood trauma. When i was in highschool my counselor even reached out to my mom to get me into therapy but my mom lied and then never signed me up. Overall it’s getting to the point where whenever i am home (i try to spend the night at other peoples houses often, even if i have to leave early cause im atleast able to sleep without my mom slamming doors or yelling) the first night i am home my mom just complains and yells and tells me to move out cause i dont do anything. Im just not sure how much i can take anymore. I usually talk to my boyfriend for help but most times he’s asleep and won’t see the messages til morning, he’s just about the only support system i have right now. I’m not sure how much advice would help, venting is nice for me though, sorry if this is so jumbled and not orderly or anything its 4am right now and I’ve just had an incident with my mom before writing this. If anyone could even just sympathize/empathize with my situation it would be nice. 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I'm not sure if I have a problem. I'm a 29 year old male in the military and I drink on average about 3 nights a week. When I drink it's pretty heavy, at the very least 750mL to a 1L if not more of bourbon/rum/whiskey, but I'm not crazy about it. It's not like I'm doing crazy things to get it. The thing that scares me is I've been off the for the past month in the middle of a big PCS across the coast, and I haven't had a sober day in 2 weeks. It's not like I'm putting them back as soon as I wake up and I've been productive, but part of this really feels like the start of something worse. I can't go to bed without a few drinks because my thoughts fuck me up pretty bad without it. I've been to psych and they advised me to not drink and stick to a strict medication schedule, but at the same time, it just feels like I'm numbing things. I've got a family that relies on me heavily, and the last thing I want to do is let them down. I'm not sure why I'm even posting this. Maybe I just want some advice. I know there's negative comments coming my way because at the end of the day, I could use some honest answers and little bit of hard truths. 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Basically for the last 12 months I’ve drank vodka everyday. During weekdays it might just be two or three vodka sodas. Weekends/Thursday/Friday it might be six or seven. The thing is it doesn’t really interfere with my everyday life. I workout 5 or 6 days a week, I’m healthy in terms of body fat/weight. At my job I’m paid extremely well and am performing well. There are times where I’ll have 10+ drinks and become rather belligerent but nothing “bad” has really happened aside from my wife being pissed off because I’m being a cunt. So yeah, I dunno if I have an issue or not. Quite often I’ll think “I won’t drink today” but find myself making a vodka soda or three when I get home. I’m not sure I could go a day or week without drinking at this point. Would love some feedback...",2.0605649717514147,4.377529096045201,3.578333333333333,86.92196327683618,80.07344632768361,5.967231638418079,22.262711864406786,7.1686216300943375,0.889528813559322,698,22,134,9,18,230,123,177,0.073,0.8220000000000001,0.105,0.5445,3,0,9,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,0,2,10,7,2,0,7,1,16,12,2,1,1,31,30,13,0,5,14,1,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,0,5,3,8,1,2,10,1,1,5,3,2,5,2,0,13,4,12,19,3,20,0,0,0,1,4,6,2,13,13,82,18,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10683397035871206,0.07799790983051319,0.14131213096297401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14212502232342955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10215868184806703,0.0,0.0,0.16503597486503932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6267176912414975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1169451476040477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13369852071468413,0.0,0.07271765839914926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11314689019444855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1283455616490862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13354788864268466,0.12697189754331642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10429736681000196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09037576972292168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11548102152205356,0.0,0.0854084698299208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2714721662712136,0.0,0.0,0.10212948722913168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12277269952860315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12095531267865875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13609193113005502,0.0,0.0,0.16393772669139298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12059256274214533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08500514186457535,0.08198601077504916,0.0,0.0,0.07460941759239667,0.0,0.1212828480475856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12498980393415585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0754689772833323,0.0,0.2052695903096152,0.15581018305798813,0.2300871256751192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12334046345062975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09089291488151613,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,LilianeATL,2019/07/11,"Atlanta Doctors Hello! &#x200B; Can someone please recommend a doc that prescribes Naltrexone combined with Sinclair Method in Atlanta? Thanks!",10.86983333333334,15.92218765,6.480000000000004,60.478333333333346,72.5,6.666666666666668,56.66666666666666,7.793537801064563,7.188166666666668,123,10,9,2,3,33,19,20,0.0,0.659,0.341,0.8065,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,1,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3843968105080667,0.4310884902646474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.363125588883056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3894346363139676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30059833476450754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32662766427243445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4310884902646474,0.0 alcoholism,beelzebub_669,2019/07/11,First dui. Started probation today to realize I actually have to quit entirely and I feel like my life is over I've been in denial about having to quit drinking for good. Was on weekly pbts for pretrial. Not so bad? I thought that's fine I can still drink just gotta cut back and try and be smart about it. Bought my own breathalyzer so I could track my levels in the mornings. Fucked up plenty on early weekend mornings but never got called in to test. Today I find out I'm on weekly random etgs... 80 hour detection no bullshit no more drinking period. Falling into a total collapse. Goodbye friends goodbye social life goodbye summer. How am I ever going to make 18 months like this. The problem is I don't want to stop. I know it's a problem and has been for a long time. I wanted to cut back stop drinking on weekdays and alone but I never wanted to give it up entirely. I know people are gonna say support groups exercise you'll find sober friends blah blah blah. I don't want that. I want my life just more control. Struggling with mental health issues too big surprise. In therapy now. Bad breakup cheating ex who sent me into a downward spiral leading up to my arrest. Want him back despite all the hurt especially now since I feel I have no support no companionship all I had was alcohol my crutch to go out put on a good face and try to have fun. I can't date now without alcohol I can't make new friends. I'm not interested in sober friends. I struggle with feeling understimulated enough as is. I feel as if I'll be totally isolated and empty for 18 months and can't face it. Idk if this is appropriate here since everyone seems to actually be trying and wanting to be sober but I don't. I know there's really nothing anyone can say that will make me feel better at this point but I wanted to get this off my chest. Without alcohol I don't see the point in living. Im no social butterfly but I need some choas and stimulation and human contact in my life or I'll go insane. Idk sorry rant sorry if it was innapropriate. I'm glad for other people who find happiness in sobriety I really am.,1.6616428571428583,4.183200473809524,3.668214285714289,84.34803571428574,83.54761904761905,6.357142857142858,24.22619047619048,7.645422480735847,1.5015476190476198,1669,65,318,30,48,564,209,420,0.188,0.655,0.157,-0.8885,0,1,7,0,0,0,34.0,0,1,0,6,18,29,4,2,9,0,34,17,3,7,7,76,74,25,0,15,15,1,5,5,4,4,9,2,0,1,15,17,7,3,14,6,1,7,18,11,0,1,10,8,39,18,50,55,9,64,0,1,1,1,20,28,1,7,31,201,54,2,0.0,0.0,0.13968757645925772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22946558104856146,0.0,0.07412683785489485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05004469232866493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651029736032249,0.11951898812584318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0632994733121517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07308284745246199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08027390070366361,0.05714428772867949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2804526090203109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07395283963936768,0.0,0.0,0.06474082383417128,0.0,0.06838995708310662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18094435557041694,0.05113093441870678,0.0,0.0,0.1962460862532666,0.060878967710119136,0.0,0.0,0.2211848938825206,0.06616700970940671,0.03739333064213418,0.06865822743153427,0.12202777246177154,0.120062121794193,0.057242535997748686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07618955100949526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07607751553162505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07048384207262295,0.0,0.07661913144056318,0.0,0.07730986539384123,0.07470240253789663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11800202900794485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20221321948645454,0.06993276832897098,0.0,0.06319924303759257,0.06333882321974757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14332427022754055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07212757748903137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11425591439176196,0.0,0.0,0.05306961000832037,0.11040122540936127,0.06912452584948617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06867510758922303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09923779962643364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13531703943285467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13696916341351892,0.0,0.07194946412859249,0.0,0.15225091650288644,0.0,0.0,0.09170150254650956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11383359440839187,0.0,0.0,0.05703348739009545,0.06515631205535835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11840992579490607,0.0,0.0,0.14591694846493425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16023762296189675,0.05065891437416871,0.0,0.05715736121881161,0.11967452046381727,0.0,0.14964484720125176,0.0,0.0,0.1624377441799109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08184863278104905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056820043665277514,0.04173411352849976,0.0,0.13568346497838216,0.0,0.0,0.14577773700319907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33771938904863746,0.0,0.11482122046216238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13798539300837356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,AAquestionaccount,2019/07/11,"Advice for me (23m) on how to deal with my girlfriend (who is struggling with alcholism) So I've come here out of desperation to get some advice. I feel truly alone as I don't want to embarass my gf by talking to my own family about this. So basically, my gf (23f) is struggling with alcoholism. She grew up with an alcoholic father - and you can probably guess that she has suffered abuse from him (mostly emotionally). And she was always used by her mother as a mediator between her and her husband (the alcoholic father). So she was exposed to a lot of trouble at a very young age... somehow she managed to rise above all of that to end studying a highly respected degree. She used her work as a coping mechanism and it managed to help her for years - I've been with her for 4 years now, but in the last year something terrible happened - her father threatened her mother with a gun. He has since gone to therapy and since then cut out alcohol for a few months now. But this whole incident has triggered memories and feelings my gf has managed to bury for a long time. So the way that she has dealt with it has unfortunately been to start drinking too much, on a regular basis. This has gone on for about a year, but only in the last 6 months has it really gotten serious- and obviously affected our relationship. We have fought about it a lot. I've gone home in the middle of the night to escape from it on numerous occasions. When she's sober she's obviously apologetic about it and has gone so far to go to therapy herself. She went this week for the first time and it went pretty well. The therapist told her that she can't tell her to stop drinking completely- she has to obviously see her more often to assess the situation. But I was really proud of her to tske that step, it can't be easy and I know she doesn't want to end up like her father - she's obviously worried that it's a hereditary case. But I always try to ensure her that she's in control of her future. But tonight she seriously relapsed, while I am at her home (she lives with her parents - it's too expensive for her to move out since she's studying). And she basically told me that she doesn't want to commit to stop drinking entirely- I've been through enough hell to know that she shouldn't drink at all - for at least the next few months/even years until she's managed to move on. I think she doesn't want to commit cause she doesn't want to feel like a failure when she fails - this tells me she knows she's dependent on alcohol. I don't want to leave her. I can't even bear the thought... but I don't feel like I could take on the pressure of daily life with this going in my personal life - I'm also studying- doing my masters, so it's obviously demanding. I've already had to take a leave of absence for the first half of this year - this wasn't just due to the alcholism- I was mostly burnt out from doing a hectic honours degree the year before. I still had to pay for the 6 months - even if I didn't study. And now the next semester will start on Monday. But I just don't feel like I'll be able to do it with all that's going on. And I don't want to waste more money, so i have decide over this weekend whether I want to continue or drop out of the program. I'll have to be honest with my parents/family about this whole thing - but I haven't told them about her problems with alcholism. I've tried to protect her reputation to see whether it blows over -so it will feel like I'm betraying her, but I will have to give them a reason as to why I'm unable to carry on with my studies. And then there's the thought of leaving her... Ive spent most of the last 4 years with her - so I'll be incredibly alone as I don't have many friends to support me. I don't think I'll be able to continue my studies after that as well... So what would you do in my position. I love this girl and I know I'm far from perfect myself - but this feels like it's way above me to solve. And it's preventing me from functioning like I'll want to. But then again... I want her to get better.. I've tried to say that I'll stop drinking along with her. I've said that she should move in with me and my flatmate - to get away from her family more. But she's just stubborn about all of this. I don't want be with a perfect person, but I just wish she would be willing to listen to me and try her best to get better. She's trying in her own way, but I really think she should get out of her home asap and commit to stop drinking entirely (for as long as it takes to get better). But then there's me and I have to look out for myself as well, so I can't take on that role of facilitating her recovery... fuck this is difficult. Sorry for the long-stream of consciousness type post.",3.299337738871728,4.458931682801238,4.568450480604189,86.32929547144985,73.05767250257465,7.948512415608192,25.638531296487013,8.430304187100639,1.5075502803524432,3708,118,797,62,72,1226,329,971,0.131,0.769,0.1,-0.9051,3,2,12,1,1,0,110.0,2,2,2,14,43,39,5,3,39,0,71,15,0,9,14,146,144,70,0,20,24,8,7,7,5,9,7,3,3,3,48,47,11,8,19,7,4,16,20,16,3,3,26,13,125,23,164,101,23,115,1,2,3,2,105,39,2,12,62,553,173,9,0.0959380871645724,0.05683547268895515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09374958843152548,0.0,0.2563215963588356,0.0,0.09936292488926188,0.05293503241888505,0.038360826822016164,0.0798281739608481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04506849548991289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04081812300152267,0.0,0.05034055178480303,0.12727416265666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04927742144019728,0.0,0.04132108357674567,0.050294629546781065,0.0,0.05380136126810038,0.03829937802385435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04945397761970163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.281948404230114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05395871757331842,0.08497266929489611,0.04956484495412005,0.0,0.09504930263782597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13566283546148364,0.0,0.1697821282058696,0.17134547159926686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08160488793219073,0.0,0.0,0.037060764079316855,0.04434660782895315,0.15037107253489967,0.046016277590741145,0.0817857387445692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05284330958368072,0.0,0.04241886681961645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03215263876916436,0.050681928227931945,0.14435058560934036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10545012741583068,0.11730351858757213,0.0,0.15237687291158042,0.0,0.0,0.06776390819064744,0.16404676179025734,0.0,0.042357544316777095,0.12735328221765835,0.040281915296779935,0.0,0.0,0.08156313092885616,0.04329393466951507,0.0,0.0,0.04863308115333509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11486529880803067,0.15295050561641604,0.03526276642187503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10203124409339163,0.045015697889846384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03648261921221807,0.0,0.0,0.053263946144551294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08376943720757628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04594108388345957,0.048801762505646,0.051718742195974686,0.04589989634740579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0921905929091201,0.04932016603551705,0.0,0.05150080089395855,0.0,0.0,0.0456295452472044,0.03814690879306425,0.0,0.0,0.07645023432414645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11904146564905782,0.05391921481062946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036928913305075584,0.0,0.053697417006927706,0.06790547188570904,0.0,0.03830814016895342,0.16041707338551328,0.0,0.10029531909636956,0.0,0.0,0.05443470219829371,0.0,0.0,0.14426700381098884,0.0385557001963654,0.08385411682419894,0.0,0.10971356375989164,0.055695756812745384,0.031868501074481505,0.0922098786673259,0.0,0.07616412482034315,0.05594227013932202,0.0,0.0,0.13750943043322822,0.0,0.16283915910827065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08285970418266493,0.0,0.039579484680033486,0.3112272321388592,0.11422678206128205,0.03847787331360529,0.0,0.1293897930930509,0.08893556796412415,0.04328460072557189,0.10711144817263372,0.05516203277514084,0.0,0.0,0.03492203503645607,0.04871489223059805,0.0,0.0681516645235193,0.0,0.0,0.24712393072096514 alcoholism,TheButteredBiscuit,2019/07/11,"A question for young, recovering alcoholics. How do you get over the frustrations that come with abstaining from drugs and alcohol during the “prime” of your youth? A little context: I’m a 22M and I started on the path of recovery back in September. I’ve relapsed about 4 times since then. I had close to 5 months this last time and I had some drinks with a girl when I went out. The thing is I don’t regret doing it; I just regret the fact that I was caught. Now I’m stuck in sober living and I have an intoxalock in my car so it’s not like it’s even an option. I get a lot of old timers telling me that they wish they started when I did. I don’t know if that’s necessarily true. I feel like I was kinda forced into the program by my parents and now I just feel stuck. I still obviously have reservations, but I know I have a problem with drinking. If it were up to me I’d probably just smoke weed instead since it hasn’t done any damage like alcohol, but givin my living situation that’s definitely not an option. I just want to know how young addicts manage to stay sober when it seems like everyone your age is out there going crazy and having a blast. TLDR: How do young people stay sober with all the pressures and frustrations that come from the people around you? Do you feel like you made the choice yourself or were you forced into it?",2.579917582417582,4.4713829670329694,3.7583379120879137,88.37728708791211,76.47252747252746,7.0408424908424925,22.73031135531136,7.937092434478242,1.0215520146520145,1062,31,224,17,24,345,145,273,0.16899999999999998,0.7979999999999999,0.033,-0.9866,1,0,7,0,0,0,21.0,0,7,2,0,20,13,2,1,19,0,21,7,0,4,4,57,44,20,0,7,11,1,3,5,0,0,5,0,0,1,15,19,5,1,8,2,0,6,5,7,0,0,13,3,32,6,27,31,3,41,0,3,0,0,13,13,0,10,25,150,47,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13025358229854234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38307142847093495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08125221034125862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10636477392522578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0918746821113326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2058472213106234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1222721006691209,0.0,0.23409476285045802,0.13856178917667408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07891707711863255,0.0,0.0,0.1141706674838842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18124185538948465,0.17071667129618515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12484936973041624,0.0,0.06790466918313759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19699340357705253,0.09739420033344193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2918656181276757,0.11975287350365628,0.2110105070927294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10157976515739467,0.0,0.1130572487101509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0953698069603792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1253768048623039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13267119785872386,0.0,0.0,0.1656682692345274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12882236438631586,0.11432863448523392,0.0,0.0,0.13384776645386032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1087723981038445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19767434929508107,0.1343033577931746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16914068424050688,0.25470493579702097,0.09541889423967988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10443298825682193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07937887666150703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1393424356914533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07047388555727148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1107614924176371,0.0,0.0,0.13739900053103307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,yungsolipsist,2019/07/11,Pretty sure I’m having a manic episode. Atleast im still on the happy train.,0.5268750000000004,2.9177179375000044,2.2800000000000007,92.965,88.375,3.2,20.5,3.1291,-0.36865000000000014,61,2,12,0,2,20,15,16,0.0,0.521,0.479,0.8481,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,5,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.48282383997720396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.489923428908555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4614343290033544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3622141915915927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4274756282912801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,chimoanup,2019/07/11,"Went to my first social gathering sober... it was tough to say the least I decided to get sober after about 2-3 years of heavy drinking (40-80) drinks a week and going out socially 3-5 nights a week. It’s been about two weeks since my last drink, and tonight I went to my first social event sober in years. It was honestly much more difficult than I could imagine. I had just worked back to back 6 day weeks of 80-100 hours, and I thought I’d go out with my friends to blow off some steam and have a bit of fun. Despite all of my friends being very supportive of my decision, I couldn’t help but crave to be drinking and having “drunk fun” with them. As the night went on I kind of just decided to head home as they moved on to another establishment, but I stayed strong and didn’t have a drink. Despite being sorely tempted to. I never imagined these beginning stages of sobriety would be so difficult, and I now have had my eyes opened to the inner strength and will of the people here who have been able to complete the process of becoming healthy again. I have serious admiration for you all. But yeah, shit was a lot harder than I thought it would be. Thank you for reading my story, sorry if it doesn’t belong here. TL;DR: Went to a party for the first time since being sober and it was much more difficult to resist it than I thought it would. My respect goes out to everyone here.",5.743181407942238,5.606276357400724,5.816026624548737,84.19999661552347,67.014440433213,9.524277978339347,30.669900722021666,9.188382445141503,2.2943431407942243,1089,37,230,18,16,344,146,277,0.073,0.767,0.16,0.9792,0,0,5,0,0,0,31.0,0,2,2,6,12,18,1,0,12,1,28,10,3,0,3,39,41,16,0,6,6,0,0,0,2,4,1,1,1,0,10,15,6,0,8,7,0,7,4,6,0,4,16,2,26,12,44,13,10,42,0,0,1,0,13,9,1,3,24,157,36,2,0.0928638191094634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09737581128181996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1428130895074284,0.0,0.0,0.10256079226667522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1013832389492526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09736594752817776,0.0,0.0,0.07414420316117258,0.0,0.0,0.05988948089352805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4548559455105168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08873535875063232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2369697512850168,0.0,0.0,0.1434927125706163,0.0,0.04851751267190682,0.0,0.10555329689491846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09530506961877117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06224466046377855,0.0,0.09314998221979016,0.0,0.09145215583096257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09670337733300967,0.0,0.0756964069430428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07894949816526851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09869954332734747,0.1365311841868578,0.0,0.07162230217007244,0.0,0.0,0.17429280693320484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0643800795252301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09288894937775924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07384903623662126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0953233758269254,0.15363582159115244,0.0,0.0,0.2839889068967954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1039534426201937,0.0,0.09898047524639254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10538076143937444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08549652798841786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2211704981509821,0.05414963971377917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09071445762927613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07662237625120552,0.0,0.0,0.2979590169215705,0.0,0.0,0.3443427627090578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06760596631443698,0.0,0.0,0.19790337810668834,0.0,0.0,0.11960250969317708 alcoholism,qd2347,2019/07/11,"Evidence for 12 steps vs CBT? I keep seeing posts all over the internet (especially reddit) that say that there's ""little evidence"" that 12 step programs work and people seeking recovery should try more evidence based methods like CBT. As a member of AA, I have to say I'm skeptical of this just because I've met countless people in the rooms with years if not decades sober and have literally never met anyone who got sober through CBT alone. I know this is just anecdotal evidence, but when the anecdotal evidence is this overwhelming, I take it seriously. One thing I've noticed is that these people don't seem to ever back up their claims with peer reviewed research, and when I google the topic, almost all the results are from for-profit treatment centers pushing one treatment or another. Is anyone aware of any actual research demonstrating that CBT is more effective than 12 step groups? I know there's the 5% statistic AA published, but that was only measuring the people who walked into at least one AA meeting, it wasn't checking whether those people actually put effort into the program. There do seem to be studies like this one which show more favorable statistics for AA: [https://www.tandfonline.com/doi/abs/10.1081/ADA-100101848?journalCode=iada20](https://www.tandfonline.com/doi/abs/10.1081/ADA-100101848?journalCode=iada20)",14.940723514211886,13.453839465116287,11.454108527131787,55.49103359173128,49.69767441860465,13.834625322997418,44.819121447028415,12.261556223090626,5.5920594315245475,1115,45,152,23,9,323,132,215,0.024,0.905,0.071,0.9176,0,1,1,0,0,0,51.0,0,0,1,3,10,6,1,1,9,0,14,0,0,2,4,29,25,11,0,2,9,0,0,2,0,1,0,2,1,0,18,7,0,1,5,1,1,6,4,3,4,4,5,3,7,3,20,18,6,22,0,1,1,0,9,9,0,5,8,97,25,7,0.0,0.0,0.2804454746308125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14388685678028884,0.14882165438070005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09771553837387012,0.1506736693227451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2009456796175272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11049033605032108,0.0,0.08759335518490795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12997770831437944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11492367885444885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1277201184632338,0.0,0.0,0.1579388130348355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14040137930222582,0.14401720835754034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11082418653308836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1635943797096486,0.0,0.0,0.3894778750516952,0.10928429800862592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4980899612369962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1376172876392016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444502233372269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285394107478419,0.0,0.0,0.11450397985558106,0.2616237366662006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10803855765933867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09546262970465354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09755748669219716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10460954192438064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09253298513490632 alcoholism,SuspiciousGloryHole,2019/07/11,"Did anyone’s sex drive change after they quit drinking? I have a much higher aversion to being touched or engaged with sexually since I quit drinking. I’m trying to understand where this is coming from. Has anyone else experienced a change in libido and interest in sexual partnerships in sobriety?",7.261346153846155,9.626395519230767,7.633846153846152,63.48615384615386,64.96153846153847,10.584615384615383,34.153846153846146,10.686352973137794,4.571869230769232,245,11,33,7,4,80,42,52,0.055999999999999994,0.828,0.11699999999999999,0.4871,0,0,2,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,2,1,2,0,0,2,0,5,3,0,0,0,5,8,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,2,8,6,1,7,0,0,0,1,1,4,0,1,1,23,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31227404512565843,0.2287979279440675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4724450068487588,0.1923537573990848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4374992961773773,0.0,0.0,0.1865390589773349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1641516879618128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4750155047232915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1847166242334195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15160649912777602,0.0,0.0,0.2324638757171384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,randomperson214817,2019/07/11,"I need to get something off my chest Made a throwaway account for this. I never thought I would say this but I think I'm an alcoholic. I know I need help and somebody who I can talk to but I've always been a person to do things on my own so I in my mind I think I can fix myself but in reality I know it's alot tougher than that. There's been some family struggles recently and through these diffucltilies I've been the rock in the family. I have a good job, great girlfriend, and am doing good in school so they assume I have all the answers to their problems. My routine is pretty basic, I go to work and immediately start drinking when I get off. The guilt is killing me because I know I need to be there for my family but this drinking is holding me back. I consistently cancel plans on them just to drink or don't visit at all because I'm too drunk. When I don't drinking I get anxious and the only thing that calms me down is drinking. I've been like this for a couple years now but it recently hit me that it might be a problem. I'm honestly scared that this might grow into a bigger problem. My dad was an alcoholic and left my family because of those issues and I don't want to do the same. Short post but I just wanted to get that off of my chest.",2.500373376623376,3.8728314507575767,4.062857142857143,88.32500000000003,75.40151515151516,6.998268398268398,25.07142857142857,7.62386473244151,1.1379655844155838,989,33,215,13,21,330,131,264,0.122,0.748,0.13,0.4814,1,0,8,0,1,0,16.0,0,0,3,2,11,13,1,3,15,0,25,10,2,1,3,45,47,18,1,9,9,1,0,1,1,3,2,1,0,1,18,8,8,1,8,7,1,3,4,7,0,0,7,1,38,6,28,34,6,28,0,0,0,0,11,15,0,6,10,155,56,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20733253063490747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.080713923243205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10958531281682754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07458900192369296,0.0,0.17739563038565398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10733151768826572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4751280307947178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3657816247102311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20271939265507846,0.0,0.05512880571593326,0.16272233572832753,0.0,0.10694569480748442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06501878945530269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10124549894529862,0.096260100024491,0.0,0.10731899057799206,0.0,0.15993025522045498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1053935947892398,0.0,0.0,0.047390564302806436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09178619340756013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2058088315976956,0.09794496071553736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21577856782045454,0.0748143752476551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0737748386490779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08469891755528464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09290166452004367,0.09868650421455746,0.0,0.2784551263171259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1915567047081155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07714035071875816,0.09711651199835866,0.09817179694007787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0746773307234291,0.0,0.0,0.0686589304706489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10140816563294366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07796700517698775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12888841730806735,0.12431068213535805,0.0,0.07700921892125605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11442927833005365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07061903875720534,0.0,0.0,0.06890785478753239,0.0,0.0,0.06246648578468617 alcoholism,Burntmatches,2019/07/11,"My time is NOW! I live in a city in England historically famous for heavy drinking. Growing up I’ve always been around alcohol. My family and friends older than me (30) relying on pubs as a social hub and a reason to meet. I don’t see my father unless it’s in a bar. I’ve been drinking hard for 5 years. At least 3-5 pub visits a week and drinks at home. I considered this a normal thing to do at first. After i could understand those that I drank with daily in the pub were people who couldn’t face reality I started to change. I’ve been intending to give up alcohol for a long time but always regarded my giving up of beer to be that of a ceremony, an occasion to look back on. It’s never happened. I’ve realised I can’t dress up the moment I give up alcohol to be an event that it deserves because the truth is it doesn’t. It’s now.",2.780743155149935,3.751670090395482,5.186666666666671,82.12724902216429,74.08474576271186,8.38400695349848,26.04476314645806,8.841846274778883,1.8668030421555843,654,22,139,13,13,232,103,177,0.008,0.929,0.063,0.8197,0,0,7,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,13,0,14,10,1,2,2,15,23,6,0,3,2,1,1,0,1,0,3,0,1,0,12,5,9,0,2,8,0,2,5,0,0,1,5,3,13,2,32,14,1,33,0,0,2,0,9,15,0,0,16,94,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4545096624664823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359189713083913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262005305069263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10900821009365742,0.0,0.08641837110945283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14996812651007055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1131874802694401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4166259491331617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13364302767988448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12058487786618573,0.0,0.0,0.1095269615184183,0.0,0.0,0.4079805036492543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12536194839004738,0.0,0.12699321673971276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14220143079401942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12518071987046467,0.12545719070843692,0.11904654143547083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10933758228009724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13889918724636685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0982817087556616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14575759733104918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.112968014568916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14451113472416807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10034169816626708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09418208656907832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16532813127352625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1475819255879208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11371499359026448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09129174047932344 alcoholism,TGSeamus,2019/07/11,"I Had A Moment Today I posted yesterday here out of sadness and desperation before I went to bed. When I checked my phone this morning and saw everything you all wrote I felt compelled to get out of bed. My day started off awfully - my back hurt, my request to defer jury duty for childcare got denied, and my living situation still hadn’t changed. I dropped my kids with my brother so I could go to AA. I wanted to skip it and get a beer, maybe sit in a park and feel miserable. So I called my sponsor. He said “go to the meeting. If you still want to drink after, call me immediately” I’ve been really struggling with Steps 2 and 3. And something weird happened. What follows is the text I sent my sponsor after the meeting — Is the whole higher power concept just supposed to be AA itself? Like I’m sitting here and I pray for the compulsion to be lifted and nothing happens. And then I’m at this meeting and it kinda sucked and then this guy named Don (sober for 20 something years) just goes “man today I really wanted a beer instead of coming here. No reason why, but it just popped in my head. So I came to the meeting instead. Hope that helps someone I don’t know” and it felt like I had been slapped in the face. That was me. Like literally, I didn’t want to go out I just wanted to stay home and sleep, drink a beer etc because I was in a shitty mood. And so I raised my hand and told him that it actually helped me. And then every person in the room started talking TO me. Not just talking, but I felt like everything was for me. I got phone numbers and so much outpoured love I sat in my car after and I cried. There isn’t gonna be this moment where a divine light just makes me sober. That’s not what it means to give myself up to a higher power, is it? Jesus isn’t going to walk up to me and take a drink away from me or something stupid like that. But these people - you, Don, Mike, Chip, etc ..... like if I can maybe see you guys (collectively) as this higher power, that’s how I can make this work? The more I’ve thought about it, the more I’ve realized that this is how this is supposed to work. There’s no magical person that’s gonna cure me. But collectively they will as long as I let them (and the program) into my life without questioning it, without fighting it. For the first time in a long time I’m not craving. Thank you Reddit. Thank you AA.",1.8763231904103288,3.8462057240663934,3.3740553250345786,89.94994421392349,78.89626556016597,5.778220378054402,23.15924389119409,6.742157984588678,0.6343210142923001,1837,60,386,18,45,604,223,482,0.08199999999999999,0.813,0.105,0.9352,3,0,9,0,2,0,60.0,0,6,2,6,26,20,3,2,22,1,25,12,4,6,1,74,74,42,0,9,18,1,5,6,0,3,1,1,4,6,30,29,6,1,10,6,1,12,12,8,3,1,23,9,58,11,54,43,7,59,3,3,2,1,39,18,1,6,30,258,88,4,0.0,0.0,0.08180288426615044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07875805690637817,0.0644576503461214,0.0,0.05110005148849404,0.0,0.07133044977915858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17119311147153235,0.09587555048963037,0.0,0.0,0.0886776606399069,0.07220938299346885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06692889480982851,0.0,0.09207982568994492,0.054061364153108034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2463551115211718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1869781260904188,0.0,0.0,0.07062771136634086,0.0,0.1506762814660713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04238535896327812,0.0,0.2414606793280637,0.0,0.0,0.07130305036519995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08759210736930713,0.08041432423503984,0.19056285464027026,0.0,0.1340879315402984,0.0,0.0,0.16600346229158494,0.14825556036727094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08603050147416598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11237470105647683,0.0,0.0840851353945165,0.08325894675340736,0.0,0.0,0.08973834467853957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04606902807338907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08571860300640681,0.0592093620994304,0.24572130030596664,0.0,0.07402061793835164,0.14836819584769267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07565697796958512,0.0,0.11191010670275872,0.0,0.16843061578793694,0.09131198177749894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06162235802062544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08043409472030147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0581149622853992,0.14638869194304932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08028292179498259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09390522319563004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10740321494563472,0.08618793241337865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07973850207615236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06679912253510539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0942248580131378,0.08388735884000423,0.0,0.07102619265346469,0.19360194459272395,0.0,0.0,0.1186661094605684,0.08934823672718092,0.13388841365158144,0.0,0.0,0.08763399313610523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06302733634852306,0.13475364540670054,0.0,0.15435294694323298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06654913162308307,0.09776018585068637,0.0,0.15891604770871193,0.08010011893746467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2472161519034447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0777083020697602,0.07564066672421857,0.0935896510278778,0.0,0.1616121264438357,0.0,0.12205384682980265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053981723782541687 alcoholism,sighhchedelic,2018/12/08,"in fear of losing my dad :( i’m just going to jump right into my story and not waste time here. so, my dad started drinking at the age of like 12 or 14, and he’s had alcoholism all his life. after he developed pancreatitis in 2008, it was predicted he wasn’t going to survive but by some miracle, he did. after that, he was sober for 10 years up until april of this year. he’s very sneaky about it, and it’s very concerning. he lies in our faces and tries really hard to deny he’s been drinking even though he smells like a whole fucking liquor store. this is where it gets significantly depressing, so if you need to stop reading at any point and don’t want to leave any feedback, that is okay and i understand completely. last month, i believe on the 11th, my dad drove drunk to a lake, popped a handful and xanax, smoked a ton of weed, and drank some more booze. he was trying to kill himself in his car. he was originally planning on driving to his grandparents house to do it (15-20 minute drive away from that lake), but for some reason, he decided to stop and do it there. he passed out, and has no recollection of driving towards our grandparents house after that, but somehow, he did. someone was driving behind him, and said he was swerving all over the road. eventually he crossed into the other lane, came back to his own and must’ve passed out again because then he slammed into the guardrail. i saw the car & the guardrail. car was totaled to shit, guardrail has a huge chunk missing. he was feet away from a river. for some reason though, even though he was trying to kill himself, he had his seatbelt on. i’m forever thankful he didn’t hurt anyone else or himself. he got so, so fucking lucky that i still can’t wrap my head around it. at the hospital, his blood alcohol content was .31 and he was slurring so bad i could barely understand him at all. but he recognized me, and was still his usual humorous self. he has no memory in between passing out and waking up at the hospital. the doctors said there was no internal damage. but lately, he’s been staying at his wine-o girlfriends house (who doesn’t really care about him, treats him like shit, and uses him) getting trashed. the past few days, he keeps telling me he’s going to come visit me at work, but then i don’t hear from him. i just called him around 20 minutes ago to ask him if he was still coming tonight, and his speech was slurred almost as bad as it was on the day he try to kill himself. also, i dont think i need to say this, but he’s not coming to visit me tonight either. it’s tomorrow - again. i’m afraid he’s going to try to kill himself again any day now. well it’s not so much of a fear, i pretty much know it intuitively. i’m afraid he won’t be here for my 19th birthday which is Jan. 29. he stayed in a mental institution for 5 days after the accident, agreed to go to AA meetings but never did. i worry about this man all day every day whether i’m at work or doing something that usually makes me happy. so i need the cold hard truth reddit... is there anything i can do, or that can be done in general to help him? or, can i only sit and watch and wait for the day i hear that horrible news? this has been a struggle for decades, i don’t believe it can be reversed. 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I'm quite small with a petite figure so it's way too much for me I just drink and drink until I pass out. I just feel like I can't cope with every day life without it I said to my ex that I would quit drinking entirely so I could try to date him again but it's been really difficult (we broke up because of my drinking habits) . Any tips? I'm really struggling. 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I don’t really drink alcohol much but when I do I drink a lot because I have zero restraint. Yesterday I drank about 20 or so shots of whisky. I was completely gone last night falling all over the place, threw up but a friend helped me and got me to bed. My breathing felt super heavy Cos I was so drunk I was kinda worried I might die in my sleep and when I woke up I was like damn... Had a pounding headache couldn’t move my head, when I did it made me dizzy and I threw up again. Head feels ok now but I just have this strong feeling of like doom/anxiety in me right now and like I’m still real slow. Am I still drunk? Is this still being slow and anxiety dangerous? Kinda worried that I’m going to stop breathing and die to be honest. I stopped drinking at 2am last night and it’s 19:30 now so it’s been about 20 hours. Any advice or ideas? Sorry if I’m posting here wrong wasn’t sure where else to ask for help. 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To open, we know that alcohol dependence varies greatly between individuals. But I've always been curious about how much drinking will actually cause physical dependence that will elicit DTs and other serious withdrawals if one stops drinking. Would love if someone had some articles or studies in this regard.",11.984180327868854,14.453640491803279,10.862418032786886,44.346413934426266,53.91803278688525,15.28032786885246,52.95491803278689,13.816669648895859,9.183488524590164,334,23,34,14,4,106,52,61,0.044000000000000004,0.828,0.128,0.765,0,0,4,0,0,0,5.0,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,6,5,0,6,0,17,8,6,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,4,3,4,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,1,2,5,3,2,3,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,7,1,26,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.2377371117095007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.520709484770714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20271061785186212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1703441481652094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2502639369200189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4773079677513711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2685909320217182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13388669325885158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2198757609161856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1790880791548609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650826158122835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20641768378507405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20367648692498935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1730600280293404,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,weHenley,2018/12/08,"Quit, but fell back to drinking once a week It's not ok, because it is binge drinking. I'm really struggling and don't know how to cope with triggers well enough to prevent this.",3.148333333333333,4.926334944444445,3.5122222222222237,91.255,74.55555555555556,5.911111111111111,28.66666666666667,6.42735559955562,1.1964,142,6,29,1,3,44,32,36,0.16899999999999998,0.732,0.099,-0.5678,0,0,2,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,1,1,1,2,2,0,2,0,8,4,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,1,1,2,0,1,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,4,4,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,17,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22782232990438905,0.0,0.18061056718372098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.580486517780597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3061381850730758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1628286674390351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31553032842198003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3151320455117049,0.0,0.0,0.18980563623359545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3097379502337705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2376592988962773,0.0,0.2663928197573211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Hesitate95,2018/12/08,"I don't understand drinking I've smoked weed and been parcially dependent on it for over 2 years now, I've been made to quit it and I thought I would take up drinking instead. Fuck it, but this shit is boring aswell, no change in consciousness and takes so long to feel any sort of major effect, and even getting wasted feels horrible just swing about everywhere and get depressive thoughts.. 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Risk of seizure? I’ve been drinking beers heavily, often a few in the morning, then lunch, then after work for 8 weeks. However, I’m now broke and have no money for any more alcohol. What’s the chances of me having a seizure? I do feel very sweaty today. (I’ve had 4 beers since about 10 am, it’s now 5 pm. and I’m out.) I also have Xanax handy and hear that’s what they would give me anyway? I was just wanting to avoid the emergency room on a Saturday night and perhaps go in tomorrow, or book in a rehab centre. 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I've recently been serious about focusing on self improvement, so I decided one step I should take on this path is to completely abstain from drinking for a couple of months, and developed healthier drinking habits when I think I'm self disciplined enough to handle it. My first couple of days detoxing I had pretty typical with symptoms of withdrawal for someone that has been drinking like I have. Shaky hands, bloodshot eyes, trouble falling asleep waking up from nightmares or the sensation of bugs crawling on my skin (melatonin and ZzQuil have helped a lot with this), but the most concerning symptom that I had was a sharp pain in my back just below the rib cage on my right side and a a dull throbbing pain in my lower back. The pain started creeping on me 24 hours into my detox and at its peak 72-96 hours into my detox. The pain was so terrible I was scarred I was going to pass out from it while I was at work. I feared my liver and kidneys were failing me so I saw a doctor, ran a blood and urine test, and took a chest x ray. I've been alcohol free for about a week now and finally the pain I've been feeling has diminished by about %90. The doctor said my test results came back normal and that my liver was not enlarged, which is quite relieving but I'm still curious if anyone else has experienced withdrawal like this. 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So I have a little under a couple weeks till my 90 days but the past week or so I have been nothing short of miserable. I am hurting big time. I feel like the effects of PAWS would of kicked in before the past week. I am going to meetings,working with a sponsor,praying,meditating but I can't shake this depression. Sort of lost of what to do besides not pick up a drink.",1.1479444444444482,3.5080533500000013,2.7741666666666696,91.0052777777778,84.25,5.055555555555556,23.88888888888889,6.42735559955562,0.7072222222222226,308,12,63,3,9,101,59,80,0.155,0.74,0.105,-0.7264,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,2,6,0,2,7,0,8,1,0,2,0,10,11,6,0,1,4,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,2,1,0,2,2,5,0,0,2,1,7,1,12,8,0,17,0,4,0,0,0,6,0,2,9,42,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18401159456591112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2392749152302616,0.0,0.13946242948167126,0.0,0.1862545652899292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21184125919493316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1093417679718624,0.1544880123441882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1228990384048918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2314985528498401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10564812182384688,0.2167378646692049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2360608451056096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2074963227173246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41286743342129095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20710634100363512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1260962726236774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5203846455906977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15743152501905053,0.0,0.0,0.1536167704333931,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Daisychip,2018/12/08,"Bye bye forever I’m officially giving up partying and drinking for a long time. I am a high school student and usually drink about once to extent every two days. It has impacted my entire life like my dropping grades, failing friendships, and school attendance. But nothing clicked on how big of a problem this was until I got blackout last night and lost my virginity to the biggest asshole at my school. I’m getting the help I need tomorrow with my first AA meeting.",6.23,7.638048264367821,6.612126436781613,73.48301724137933,66.35632183908045,9.47816091954023,38.63793103448275,9.725611199111238,4.129055172413794,377,21,62,8,6,122,68,87,0.09,0.7709999999999999,0.139,0.5423,0,0,2,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,3,2,4,0,0,5,0,3,4,0,1,0,9,10,7,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,5,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,3,1,2,3,1,8,1,10,7,1,17,0,2,1,1,5,6,0,0,12,36,10,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12061457428942705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36642332117254667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15757521980691605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15908194697010314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09771196960126448,0.1794098176455963,0.0,0.0,0.14957964003904195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12535779425064092,0.19760041397025171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15244897371720215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13210010726599036,0.09137015098346267,0.0,0.0,0.16550975970175338,0.0,0.0,0.20415805493018066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13867542769888985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17550872370501353,0.0,0.17945392694066642,0.0,0.0,0.19917374018106934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17895606652235538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5678327768847579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10905480636264996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1826946155753673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20597977296520498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Skinnyj16,2018/11/02,"Alcoholism and swelling Someone close to me has been consuming 7-10 alcoholic beverages (mostly vodka) every single day for over a year. Just recently, on of their legs began to swell out of no where. There was no physical contact to induce the swelling, which has me thinking: can alcohol cause ones extremities to become swollen? I'm so confused. 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I had a couple weekends 2 months back that really destroyed me and decided I wanted to be sober for real. I am happy to say that I am 6 weeks sober and feeling great! My excuse for a while now was sober October. Now that it’s over, I need to find something else to say. Please let me know what you guys think and what you sober people usually say if people ask why you aren’t drinking",3.843225806451613,4.165913913978496,4.792634408602151,88.30895161290327,71.15053763440861,7.920430107526883,24.10215053763441,7.793537801064563,0.9571376344086012,346,8,77,4,6,113,62,93,0.038,0.818,0.14400000000000002,0.8271,1,0,2,0,0,0,7.0,0,3,0,1,3,3,1,0,2,0,8,1,0,0,0,12,14,5,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,8,3,1,0,5,2,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,4,12,2,8,10,1,13,0,0,0,0,11,2,0,1,10,47,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16433824825576784,0.0,0.0,0.13517028402255424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19450631267779772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17220552417446575,0.0,0.0,0.1468484942073129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08888380166977282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16066724080280634,0.1495253630528671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19380712396320732,0.0,0.3481159338913307,0.0,0.1871298201010088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09660860387998507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17975535645769594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14031247344496142,0.0,0.0,0.13034473155577495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24373882435663805,0.0,0.0,0.1929626682145178,0.0,0.0,0.16835651443880614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20008546982816694,0.11261442971610322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4193815246484156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1353303535856236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11263798802713534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19360587999314352,0.0,0.10368444176390083,0.0,0.2820134000551456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15862151893321727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,mihnea4896,2018/11/02,Trouble Hello guys.I am a 19 year old from Europe and i have a quick question.I am kinda skinny and i can say i can drink kinda much vodka and wine are my goodies.But beer is my problem like after half a liter drank quick i like bubble up and puke the whole thing.I dont get drunk or sth i just need the need to puke it.Help?,-1.0507458143074615,0.92956289041096,1.3130593607305947,100.09537290715376,91.32876712328766,3.2444444444444445,13.590563165905635,3.1291,-1.5406030441400302,253,4,61,0,9,85,52,73,0.171,0.73,0.099,-0.7322,0,0,4,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,5,0,8,6,1,0,0,11,12,5,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,6,0,0,5,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,1,7,2,4,11,2,6,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,3,7,35,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3281418656108544,0.2742799881539552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.146281288969128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.187668919172756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2735743330874745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20582215067776324,0.415212596674056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29379852956711444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26790908203529235,0.0,0.0,0.3136487407951967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22265634849982585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18601046076627184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3125947119597686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18030200146668984 alcoholism,Upexus,2018/11/02,"How to help my girlfriend I won’t disclose any info other than we are in Highschool. I know, not the greatest time to have an alcohol problem. Last night she got very drunk after I went to sleep and apparently texted multiple guys to see if they could have sex with her. I told her that she needs to cut off her entire supply and quit partying like that or I won’t be able to continue dating her. She told me that she ran out last night and likely won’t have anymore. I just want some tips on how to stop her from drinking? I don’t live in walking distance and I don’t have a drivers license. I told her I could give her some things to make a hobby out of, like Rubik’s cubes or magic: the gathering. Is there anything else I can do?",3.327511961722489,4.339551894736843,4.316196172248805,88.7292822966507,72.81578947368422,7.10622009569378,25.660287081339717,7.348242739294969,1.0675052631578952,576,18,124,6,11,187,97,152,0.091,0.831,0.078,-0.4255,1,0,2,0,0,0,12.0,1,0,1,1,4,5,1,0,5,0,16,5,1,3,0,26,28,9,0,6,5,0,0,3,1,3,1,0,0,1,5,8,3,1,2,2,0,3,6,2,0,0,6,1,26,3,19,16,3,18,0,0,1,1,21,6,0,5,12,86,31,1,0.1640950682404783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17536772345214569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11159027346318423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16273821403437222,0.0,0.0,0.13503625935596394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2620331189055875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16075069523073124,0.0,0.0,0.13708037329566575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15741494196089992,0.0,0.0,0.13124181644167698,0.0,0.0,0.1624799165479509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10998946526600764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09018235804819004,0.2675187641859929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2405056847407171,0.0,0.1448989516173579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10953473226960676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12167441385925483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3079842108778205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15701681878309948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17453530393495126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13076252392755616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16421357573627948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13719082473980315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10901747185282452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09568515390860548,0.0,0.0,0.4703996095303107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13539561672418735,0.0967875228048504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15211777225706266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,srt921,2018/11/02,What causes the beer shits? Everyday I drink a 6 pack of Budweiser tall boys sometimes I finish up with a 24 ounce can..every morning i get up to drink water then shortly after my stomach is misfiring worse than a v8 motor that's running off 3 cylinders then I have diarreah. Sometimes I go a second time right before lunch time. But i feel amazingly better afterwards. What's causing this? ,2.6031381381381387,5.470923608108108,4.040990990990991,80.7353903903904,83.18918918918921,6.5321321321321335,27.141141141141144,7.793537801064563,2.26880960960961,313,14,51,6,9,103,59,74,0.1,0.852,0.049,-0.5215,0,0,3,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,5,0,2,7,2,2,0,5,5,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,5,0,1,3,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,1,7,2,8,5,0,16,0,0,0,0,1,6,1,0,8,30,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19408621092643252,0.0,0.0,0.2017254278444252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4686187069991467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44687909380951213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19217409855032225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11532821880989964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.119166641168,0.0,0.12962774844040414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19478602859111466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2341292019421073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4511700129227196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2660000618244718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23244130469324956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,DreyaNova,2018/11/02,"I didn't drink yesterday. To be honest I have no idea what happened. I woke up exhausted and hungover from Halloween yesterday, went into work for 9 hours, got home, made a tuna melt, and went to bed. I just got up for work again and I realized I pretty much forgot to drink. I'm weirdly proud of myself. Maybe I can use this to start a sober streak? Maybe this is my launch pad? Maybe if I just focus on working overtime and pushing myself I can essentially sleep through any withdrawal. I don't know what today will bring but I'm just going to focus on other things and see if I can make it through today without drinking too. 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Hello is there a discord server for this sub reddit, im drunk and want to talk to people who are also drunk please get intouch. Thanks ",2.4130952380952384,4.968523642857143,3.2214285714285715,88.59023809523809,80.42857142857143,3.733333333333334,20.047619047619047,3.1291,-0.2605380952380956,114,3,20,0,3,36,25,28,0.28600000000000003,0.532,0.182,-0.5719,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,5,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,11,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3377424290453418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2206534439057096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4561960048516367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2927950235666352,0.0,0.0,0.4635987650837445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33945816387854405,0.0,0.3888308015746402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2491050709700199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Rockwell076,2018/11/02,"Telling if I have a problem Hey all, For the past few years I've been struggling with the realization that I'm not a very good drunk (confrontational and kinda creepy) which is the opposite of my usual self. I only ever drink at weekends and at night in social situations but I find I always drink way more than is needed. This combination obviously leads to some issues in the mornings after. Would you describe this as alcoholic behavior, it has never affected my ability at work or other commitments but I find my drunken mistakes are more frequent than other people's. If this is the case, I am worried about attending something like AA because I would find complete abstinence hard as a student with an active social life and my part time job as an events manager (exclusively nightlife with free drinks as a perk). I'm really looking for a solution that lets me have a good time and be a little more loose without having the problem of my drunk alter self coming out. I realized this is most likely not possible but any advice would be greatly appreciated. Thanks! 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When he drinks is when he brings his demons out, his inner turmoil. I'm at a loss. Normally he talks about his father that's passed away, but tonight I guess he felt brave enough to bring up how I cheated on him when I was a teenager. I am 27 now.. It was so out of nowhere, and seeing as how he also cheated on me back then, I thought we were even stevens, done with it. Well he said ""good luck"" because ""it might be a deal-breaker"". I am so shocked, and irritated because he won't tell me where this came from. Idk if anyone's dealt with an emotional partner on alcohol (he was also doing coke tonight, idk if that would make a difference.. drink more, I suppose?). I want to drive over to his house but I'm a big believer in giving people space and I'd rather talk to him sober. I guess, life experience, thoughts, advice please.",2.2510019267822727,3.997651248554917,3.2316994219653172,92.43502504816955,76.97687861271677,6.463044315992294,25.406165703275533,7.3011,0.9878242003853566,658,24,146,8,15,210,115,173,0.129,0.736,0.135,0.2582,0,0,4,0,0,0,34.0,1,0,0,1,16,9,2,1,7,0,14,6,0,3,0,27,29,18,0,6,5,1,1,0,1,3,3,1,0,2,6,9,5,0,3,2,0,5,1,5,1,0,10,3,19,4,20,15,2,27,1,1,1,0,23,14,0,6,8,91,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14194813454879768,0.0,0.3104813412533041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2323315930549125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10157041717854334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13647822819801872,0.11169734575223668,0.0,0.17710047103542512,0.0,0.0,0.16366028745884054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16614078320760045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14975852132432468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15176764733510956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14865323928676172,0.0,0.2846024940060193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16339995578268254,0.0,0.1500942542393462,0.0,0.09594403861984664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14209389872412173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13947409314307813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13934834002298052,0.0,0.1218386928816452,0.0,0.0,0.320044465017222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16761259601232115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10260269424461596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09696336908361962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15409979775134586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14232570674476944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10070623115974364,0.0,0.0,0.15945381800954692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13817722160735524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11575483508450073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2335118398133207,0.12696520226460375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23064326187812725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08567916406018393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13060778944203713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10318980389524494,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,IAreBlunt,2018/11/02,"Should I “out” my friend as an alcoholic? Someone I’m very close to (on a romantic level) is an alcoholic. He cannot get through a single day without drinking, he drives drunk, he shows up to work drunk, and he gets kicked out of bars for falling asleep. When he’s drunk, he’ll call me and tell me that he wants to die and that he wishes I would just shoot him, and tells me that he’s very sick and he knows he’s sick and that he’s sorry for being such a burden. When he’s sober, he tells me that he knows he’s sick but he can’t afford therapy (which isn’t true, he can but he’s just scared). He does a very good job of hiding his alcoholism from his family, and he really doesn’t trust that anyone but me cares about him at this point. My own emotional support aside, I don’t have anything to offer him myself in terms of tangible help. I’m really at a loss on what to do. Someone I love is slowly dying and I’m scared. Do I tell his family? Do I call 911 the next time he calls me drunk? What do I do to actually help him?",1.2863777089783284,2.7537820769230805,3.1490307216003828,93.20270302452968,78.90950226244344,6.824577280304832,18.871397951893307,7.669130373188453,0.26296742081447944,793,16,189,12,19,266,110,221,0.14,0.6890000000000001,0.172,0.9409,2,0,4,1,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,2,6,11,0,2,8,0,17,14,1,0,1,24,30,14,2,4,6,0,0,0,1,3,6,0,0,0,10,11,9,0,2,7,0,2,6,4,0,0,0,0,23,7,24,26,3,19,0,1,0,1,41,11,0,0,6,100,33,2,0.0,0.0,0.1104880312054391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.362998641999668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07916723402082726,0.0,0.09317179885785518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3468359950649633,0.0,0.11543705271543493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07301861961398902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350124652840368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0990810586968528,0.0,0.0,0.11091414642060422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12735915533064446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21347065449505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08747479223605656,0.0,0.11830731372359235,0.0,0.0,0.0949649768120726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15178021641185085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11235505102403966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12444735309860228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10218699032195036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12041254545581305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10703108790670134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.145065420014636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267093148267284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19186473094926806,0.0,0.0,0.12674240569463388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12848262531869326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.395842969218676,0.0,0.12947886307516696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06602047447237558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.280259240617896,0.06678108272350715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13019934899337166,0.10914166309593487,0.0,0.0824267344498471,0.0,0.0,0.08042943585806081,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,njyyzschoolpsych,2018/12/17,"helpful resources for sister on the brink Hi everyone. My sister is an alcoholic, has been for awhile, but this weekend she actually had a seizure and wound up in the hospital for a few days. They're telling her she has the option to do either inpatient or outpatient rehab, and I'm strongly encouraging her to do it, but I don't know whether she actually will or not. I know that recovery is up to her, and it has to be her choice. I'm wondering if any of you can recommend any books/podcasts/other materials that I can pass her way that might be helpful to her at this point. Any stories of other people recovering from addiction, stories about going through rehab, anything that might have helped or motivated you on your recovery? I can talk to her till I'm blue in the face, but like any sister, there's only so much she'll listen. I was hoping that reading/hearing about other people's lived experiences might be more helpful to her. Any suggestions are welcome. Thanks in advance!",6.882422630560932,7.144634079787238,7.4573694390715675,72.0377272727273,64.58510638297872,10.666150870406193,36.23984526112186,10.436869588844218,3.883770212765958,789,36,140,18,11,261,110,188,0.0,0.8029999999999999,0.19699999999999998,0.9905,0,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,3,0,3,4,6,0,0,7,0,24,6,1,1,0,22,34,13,0,2,10,3,0,1,0,5,5,1,0,0,11,3,1,0,4,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,3,2,21,6,25,23,4,17,0,0,1,0,29,10,0,10,4,105,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.27387015422093863,0.15297286170853328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14996268974689692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4771225066024579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.115473932533006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0904967732545622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13408470937984024,0.0,0.1372628909890455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07974883596297108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1581543013053295,0.0,0.3762223909946431,0.0,0.0,0.1393724731846893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15423578198316198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06855476532996692,0.0,0.12390784403364853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4465818151962531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10315360421557893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10672201998962484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945647005778284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13265066012869695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11278637049426699,0.1226485505312546,0.12919063234452405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11138192360936668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15217438656368842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Superwood1821,2018/12/17,"Im going to try I need to quit drinking and making destructive decisions. Today will be day 1. Dont laugh...i have to start somewhere ",-0.4133333333333339,1.5861572962962995,2.2493333333333356,88.55400000000002,105.66666666666669,5.122962962962963,20.214814814814808,6.742157984588678,0.960472592592592,105,4,20,2,5,36,23,27,0.154,0.846,0.0,-0.6124,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,0,4,8,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,6,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,9,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22485885660812646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4086305588310507,0.3415571025260157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1981532758081924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.376615981043476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2327353279951321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585292722352932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3708461267614033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2467855381513172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33049185258497665,0.0,0.0,0.2367193594076173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,xellsbellzx,2018/12/17,"should i be careful classic line but I dont drink usually, at all, but when i do i tend to just completely binge drink. every time I go out out wich isn’t too often (once a month) i over do it. a friend made a joke about me being an alcoholic, and has made other light comments - I dont really know how to limit my drinking or drink safely - should I take it more seriously and be careful?",1.8001587301587278,3.419496493827161,3.9277954144620817,87.51222222222223,77.8888888888889,7.097707231040566,22.682539682539684,7.957251820313856,1.0712243386243387,300,9,65,5,7,103,57,81,0.032,0.7809999999999999,0.187,0.9024,0,0,5,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,6,6,0,0,4,0,11,5,0,3,1,18,19,7,0,2,4,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,3,4,5,2,1,5,0,1,3,1,0,0,2,1,10,5,7,12,2,9,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,2,4,47,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17554698571970873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3349537595996888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1722264284447305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.385029574074993,0.6436600634278725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13839849992492714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12690903761159156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09335433894646293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0902745431645824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3108588803511292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13111300579679228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1749345290412683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10523096068120888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1235051884897478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09578296402624924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1809122755988708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Dr_Shocktopuss,2018/12/17,"Another quitter here I’ve just come off a bout where I drank 3 out of the last 4 days. I’m just really sick of it. My last stretch of sobriety was about three weeks last month. If you have to put a label on it, I guess I could be considered an alcoholic. I drink because I don’t like the way I normally feel. When I quit, it feels like kind of a buildup of anxiety until I drink again. I know what to expect this time, I have a plan. I have to get sober before my next semester starts. I don’t want to show up to class and still have this problem. I’m confident that I can do it. I like the idea of one day at a time. I’ll just need to face the issues that come up with clarity, and not retreat into old habits. Wish me luck. ",1.2511635832521897,2.493135031645572,3.1905063291139264,93.83555501460566,78.43037974683544,7.393184031158714,21.647517039922104,8.139509932561175,0.7570597857838361,557,15,138,10,13,188,100,158,0.067,0.7959999999999999,0.13699999999999998,0.8552,0,0,3,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,2,9,6,0,0,10,0,11,6,1,0,0,25,25,5,0,8,5,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,9,7,4,0,4,3,0,3,3,1,0,2,2,2,18,5,22,21,0,29,0,0,0,0,1,9,0,3,19,84,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16554130519427124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16242646337724173,0.11849830028199684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0944257809740846,0.0,0.1318087405283017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668657734855845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12367527973182996,0.0,0.0,0.19979574900549868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3034866322666649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15664448490333227,0.11066080037969778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08092900989909008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17064013652250154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17486357644228373,0.0,0.16167566169308215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16130481862047616,0.08512915012475639,0.3787932395614892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22702937675691826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12363993616045475,0.0,0.0,0.11485660463913905,0.0,0.0,0.16473821907469866,0.0,0.1517693988445143,0.0,0.0,0.16254180063106433,0.0,0.10496444749218768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14821866080675647,0.0,0.15571757836773314,0.0,0.16475552882315267,0.0,0.0,0.09923309424309072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10963922476177336,0.0,0.123703574205581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18064721322641392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09136420623038652,0.122952642690411,0.12425167172642088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17812769256442745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,hellothereyoutosser,2018/12/17,"How do you help someone who won't help themselves? New years eve was supposed to be my mothers 100th day sober, but today I discovered that she's been drinking again. We've been counting the days together. My sisters and I have been so supportive, but she's lying to our faces. I don't know if she's been lying from the beginning or if she succumbed recently, but what does it matter? The trust and faith that I had slowly been gaining back in her is gone. If she had come to one of us and said ""I'm sorry, I've had a hiccup. I've messed up. Let's start again."" I think I would've been feeling more positive today, or at least hopeful that she had some faith in herself. I understand that this is an illness, that she needs my help and support, but I shouldn't have to pick my mother off the kitchen floor and drag her up to bed. I shouldn't have to listen to her sob about how shit her life is and how she wants to kill herself. We've taken her to the doctors, got her on antidepressants, paid for her counselling and sat by her in the support groups. She's so fragile and so easily broken in willpower that her poor excuses for drinking just leave me angry and frustrated. Her last bender started because the neighbours cat died. The neighbours fucking cat. Being nice doesn't work and neither does screaming or crying or begging her to stop. She'll moan to anyone that'll listen that it isn't fair that we don't let her take care of her grandchildren, that she would never drink around them. Her word means nothing and telling her as much upsets her, but it should! We don't trust her and I don't think we ever will. I just want my mother to be healthy and happy, but how do you help someone that won't help themselves?",5.0149947451392505,5.5144458699422,5.071960063058331,86.71112454019968,68.62427745664739,7.678192327903311,29.022070415134,7.348242739294969,1.5132416184971094,1365,46,279,12,22,426,171,346,0.17,0.631,0.19899999999999998,0.9013,1,0,3,0,0,0,35.0,5,2,1,2,15,19,4,1,10,0,39,11,2,5,2,58,68,34,2,11,15,4,2,0,2,9,4,4,2,0,17,18,4,1,6,3,2,2,12,8,0,1,17,6,55,11,30,37,5,31,2,1,0,1,56,11,3,9,18,195,72,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07601157196245405,0.0,0.0,0.09677369041089304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08359019358694549,0.0,0.06626774592758833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11083564997741968,0.0,0.0,0.09364282239278296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11941127877829695,0.14021609136748736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11282235092558453,0.0,0.0,0.11126784565701618,0.19026323494567532,0.0,0.0,0.3194790897994225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09833314105442023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05496632815449479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10049933741297393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08694418812150419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.115722312794161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3643253735260944,0.0,0.0,0.1079721559751408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12026994552289864,0.0,0.05974339670060187,0.08861200793329282,0.0,0.11510669785417545,0.0,0.22232379184883602,0.07678409022783678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11841552077375812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07991331996385895,0.0806060401705427,0.08384276433187382,0.10499143118858104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10430882156822646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07366375227281419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10733661542897308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10340676070392478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11158780285779607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842168667882276,0.0,0.0,0.12169036357412374,0.15388899546840912,0.0,0.0,0.09088524677668154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3700836504317277,0.0,0.0,0.08173532882989408,0.0,0.09501609697732136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13931214678606804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20608605992791698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11316947337479738,0.13076304579601447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12823828286922426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07914114639418057,0.0,0.0,0.15444692307972305,0.0,0.0,0.07000476618228453 alcoholism,cranezfour,2018/12/17,"Im not sure that I care if I die. I feel so amazing when I drink. I enjoy life for the moments I'm drunk. Who cares if I die when I'm 35? I'll be like a comet. Bright, amazing and enjoyed. Then gone. Otherwise I'm just another normal, boring loser for 90 years.",-1.6448275862068975,0.2921633965517252,1.4788793103448263,97.37280172413796,96.06896551724138,4.279310344827587,17.594827586206893,5.985473137389443,-0.36004137931034474,199,6,48,2,8,70,41,58,0.271,0.423,0.305,0.5568,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,4,11,0,0,2,0,1,3,0,0,1,8,8,7,2,3,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,1,2,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,2,6,9,2,6,0,6,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,2,6,22,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2712082588203218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5274046777677972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5368582730108559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25337029262627536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1307769593732084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2793773006592627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1826862041795936,0.12635921653625026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25341384369879066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24376663797381165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16655670426482616 alcoholism,Eelleepphhaanntt,2018/12/17,"Wondering if my husband is a type of alcoholic or just irresponsible..? My husband (M 39) drinks until vomiting and doesn’t like to restrict his alcohol intake at all. He only drinks until vomiting 1 to 2 times per month, other times (maybe 1 to 2 additional times per month) he drinks until he’s nauseous and thinks he’s going to throw up but doesn’t. He gets sloppy and disheveled, slurs his words, says rude or embarrassing things, and once home he will get aggressive in a sloppy way (kicking or slapping if he doesn’t like something, etc.). He’s vomited on himself in the train on the way home twice, on himself in the car on three occasions (two of which we had guests in the car with us and he tried to hide it), out car doors and on the side of the road on several occasions, in bar and restaurant bathrooms, in the bathroom during parties at our house, and a few years ago in a friends yard outside while they were having a party inside (he kept going outside to vomit without the home owners knowing and going back in and drinking more). He drinks up to 12 or 14 drinks (wine, sake, mixed drinks) and starts getting sloppy and gross, beyond tipsy, at about 6 to 10 drinks depending on the type of alcohol or the strength of the drink. He doesn’t like to keep it to just a few drinks, dues to like feeling restricted and not “free”, and if he’s the designated driver that never works because he just keeps drinking and wants to rather then drive or take an Uber home. He doesn’t drink everyday, and doesn’t drink alone unless he’s having a bath or very rarely if he just feels like it. He doesn’t think he has a drinking problem at all. He thinks drinking until until you vomit is a normal thing and only gets concerned when he vomits throughout the next day as well. I’m not sure if this is a type of alcoholism or if he’s just irresponsible? TLDR? Husband drinks until vomiting but died today think it’s a problem.. 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I ate some actual food instead. It's the little things that propel us to do better, even if it's just during the workday.",2.625,4.27301816666667,4.085833333333337,87.14250000000001,75.66666666666666,6.466666666666668,20.333333333333336,7.1686216300943375,0.4978583333333333,184,4,37,2,4,61,39,48,0.0,0.8029999999999999,0.19699999999999998,0.8442,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,1,0,0,4,3,2,0,0,5,0,2,4,0,0,0,5,4,2,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,4,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,3,2,4,2,3,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,2,27,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.2876355501108921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26068429690568684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3045577316338693,0.0,0.19468099504499814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3564154328644838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16751442206738076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29541905788202577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19582021101447689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5587810896181153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35455050786665315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,lavender_dreams1,2019/10/23,"I NEED a drink every night and I’m scared of what I might do I’ve gotten to the point where it’s all I can think about all day at work. I can’t drink at work because I have to drive an hour and half to get there and the same back, but the second I get home I’m straight to the alcohol stash. I live with my parents currently but am moving in less than two weeks closer to work (a 5 minute walk from work) meaning that when I move there’s NOTHING stopping me having drinks even if I’m at work or during my lunch break, because I won’t be driving. I’ll be living on my own, and even now living at my parents I’ll drink every single night until I’m drunk. What am I capable of when I live alone? I can buy as much as I want without judgement. Is anyone else afraid of what they might do? I am on 60mg of fluoxetine a day currently (Prozac in the states) and since being on them it mixes badly with alcohol and makes my thoughts of hurting myself worse when I drink. I don’t even know the woman I am when I’m drunk.",1.9537700534759352,3.0269165909090923,3.5097860962566862,92.94879679144388,76.27272727272728,6.267379679144385,21.577540106951872,6.522977012572876,0.18685561497326209,790,19,185,6,17,262,119,220,0.111,0.847,0.043,-0.9432,4,1,7,0,0,1,16.0,0,0,2,5,13,4,0,2,10,0,19,11,0,1,2,26,34,17,0,3,5,2,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,1,6,8,10,1,4,7,1,5,4,4,0,3,2,0,26,0,28,26,7,36,0,1,0,0,5,13,0,4,16,121,32,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21094609546038184,0.0,0.10221642136608086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06900860074749435,0.10112287657459756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07588900146015409,0.08240472415290061,0.1203249532429666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12729793658697974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4834089596697914,0.0,0.0,0.08244552914796498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1955578417162743,0.0,0.16630660479326956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10312627792594224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.098997356069708,0.0,0.09719295074880603,0.0,0.105653143323914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05423921784234997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34859171891257673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0658784970082507,0.0,0.0,0.10750585975802876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2093958401214231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2097905678959774,0.07255087941763268,0.0731797790830201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18523382030973207,0.0,0.09469881540667156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21917430344565364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09329700227976136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09880913982986858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08164005925000654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08251195899155334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06323863635911127,0.0,0.07835140002462147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09640894446341547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05821182376966087,0.0,0.07916575556280153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09513675129187246,0.0,0.35924923226904715,0.0,0.10057683238495772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Throaway9988776600,2019/10/23,"3 months sober Hey guys, I am 17 years old and I have been drinking for 6 years daily, but today I’m happy to say that I’ve been sober 3 months. Recently it’s been tough, but I managed to not touch anything. I hope it will remain like that. Have a good day!",-0.1101190476190439,1.8186034642857152,1.74642857142857,99.16523809523814,85.78571428571429,4.447619047619049,16.476190476190478,5.46131890053228,-0.8453595238095231,198,4,48,1,6,65,40,56,0.085,0.698,0.217,0.8619,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,0,7,1,0,0,0,5,9,3,0,1,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,4,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,2,4,4,3,5,0,8,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,9,23,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22065018952121845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17292327135364838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26266775707129314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22489680770712445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2654933167631005,0.0,0.2854320171360382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26631605893782656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13099598871213816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4280415842127584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28135993920533914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2647484820748661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21322971483178574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25415824471757303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3453370596919905 alcoholism,North4Good,2019/10/23,"Careful you don't step in the BS... I'm finding that a lot of AA's in the PDX area, once they stop drinking, still try to manipulate, lie, and basically just be shitheads to others thinking it's ok now that they're sober. This isn't what progress looks like as I understand it. WTH is with this crap. Life isn't difficult enough all by itself? I thought the steps helped point out character flaws like that? Guess AA tourism is now some kind of cheap entertainment. Sober Horse Thief's Suck!",3.7043750000000015,5.620484020833337,3.59416666666667,90.6675,73.375,7.300000000000002,26.583333333333336,8.07648339933343,1.405045833333333,390,14,83,6,8,118,73,96,0.17800000000000002,0.6920000000000001,0.13,-0.7968,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,1,1,4,10,2,0,4,1,6,3,1,1,1,14,14,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,10,3,1,1,4,2,1,2,3,4,2,0,1,1,4,6,10,12,4,11,0,0,1,0,3,5,2,3,6,43,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2591286820458016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2489758349345254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26261078560559475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2322937119309707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27998116521126154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17035521314106894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2646640584795638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17951769224864764,0.2483352812414351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2134267832690169,0.0,0.0,0.2160740935385336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2706675333869516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.240259293656442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20296907604916967,0.21248555153009807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16285271479438065,0.0,0.20177124202191501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17255504194701501,0.0,0.0,0.2645850544423486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ughthrowaway99999,2019/10/23,"I spent $300 last night, talked shit about my boss in front of one of his best friends, peed myself, and when I cough all I can taste is blood Wheeeeee I’m not having a good time :)",0.23192307692307426,2.1209952051282066,0.6176282051282058,108.00028846153843,84.12820512820512,3.9,14.878205128205128,3.1291,-1.6819794871794866,139,2,37,0,4,41,35,39,0.133,0.64,0.22699999999999998,0.6479,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,2,4,1,0,1,0,3,4,2,1,1,4,5,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,1,1,1,6,3,4,4,2,6,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,4,20,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4133527963787405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3043107380627282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3303678859368556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3210647990809676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36962973078347977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2669033054845752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4043121958301119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.316585852309214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22967461597078065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,GenerallyFortunate,2019/10/23,"Sober now - 9 days I've been drinking beer heavily/nightly for the last 10+ years. It started off every weekend (Fri/Sat), then later added Sun, then Thurs, etc. I was pretty depressed at the start and it was a bad decision to go that route, but unfortunately that was the choice I made. I consider myself a functioning alcoholic. i have a career and have held my job for 20+ years. Up until 2 months ago i was married for 19 years, alcohol was a partial factor in that separation, but the problems with that marriage was also the start of my heaving drinking. I also have 2 daughters. I'm lucky to have the luxury of working from home, so I was able to get up and just go to work in my pajamas. Rarely needed to go into the office. I've tried a number of times to quit, and sometimes lasted 4 days, sometimes a week, 3 weeks one time. I feel driven this time around. I'm on my own half the time, my daughters are with me the other half. When I'm alone I don't want to sit around drinking myself to sleep. When my daughters are around I don't want to endanger them by being passed out cold every night. So I struggle a bit each day, but I get up the willpower to stop myself from giving in and buying some beer. Instead of telling myself it's just one night, I try to tell myself it will be another # of months of drinking if I do. Thanks for listening.",3.5380291970802915,4.657653496350363,4.782927007299269,85.17256569343068,72.43065693430657,7.3778102189781025,26.47372262773723,7.734863291789972,1.4245816058394158,1054,35,215,13,20,349,149,274,0.087,0.858,0.055,-0.7356,2,1,8,0,0,0,38.0,0,0,1,4,13,6,0,1,17,0,20,9,1,1,0,30,41,18,0,5,6,3,1,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,10,13,8,2,2,7,1,5,2,4,0,4,11,3,27,2,41,27,5,51,0,1,0,0,9,14,0,3,31,144,37,4,0.09857594972832252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08738163170169623,0.21069542279790204,0.0,0.1020949549675819,0.0,0.15766230276645962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10336547828553733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26326048371956795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08230680050297841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10761940615618712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19071999776974927,0.0,0.08490332105625008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3862676099109868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10993824132258916,0.0,0.0,0.16610897838392305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04984296205852515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10300373032152743,0.09456303331727266,0.16806895174277592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0988797149691686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09782141958679094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1607051115706617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0932749470996902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15736476520745793,0.0,0.0,0.07309281767222751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2775205533061847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13359522940308438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10028717956733584,0.0,0.09432387091719964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10484765648956412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09864714010030498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19498826972363767,0.0,0.20931769375600648,0.0,0.0,0.0824139079117185,0.0,0.1030529857893676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17231944994683096,0.09075549041331148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2299217160534941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338531983404966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11628529832910955,0.0,0.15814336172486784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14352893087222748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19043903905672502 alcoholism,rararauschenberg,2019/10/23,"I might be drunk in an hour and I’m at a loss to know for sure I’m exhausted, I know this is part of trying to get sober but I can’t stop trying to bargain with the aspects of myself that doesn’t want to drink. I don’t have anything in my life but my problems now and it’s my fault, I know it’s all my fault and I need to fix this but I have no confidence so I don’t even think I’m remotely capable of even taking a shower never mind overcoming my life’s worth of crippling insecurities. I know I’m capable of not drinking for even a day, but it’s tomorrow, and the next day, and the years of suffering that I know is inevitable with or without alcohol. I know that I have to accept this part of life but that past 5 years have been so blindingly awful that I’m scared to not drink, because whatever has been pushed down by the abuse is going to have to be dealt with sober. Drinking never made anything better it just made everything awful that was happening physically hurt less. I know it can be a dangerous feeling but I’m afraid that the only thing left in my life that will give me an semblance of calm will be nostalgia. I’m afraid of sitting in a chair, in a room, alone for the rest of my life thinking about what joy used to feel like.",1.7177989821882953,3.5720153282442766,3.394980916030537,90.16603371501276,78.92366412213741,6.962086513994911,23.13040712468193,7.937092434478242,1.0815643765903302,984,32,217,17,24,327,126,262,0.21100000000000002,0.669,0.12,-0.9828,1,1,5,0,1,0,15.0,0,0,0,2,9,18,1,4,14,2,24,13,0,3,4,44,52,14,0,3,11,0,2,1,0,3,8,0,2,0,18,8,6,1,12,5,2,2,10,12,0,0,5,3,22,6,36,40,5,24,0,3,1,0,1,9,0,2,13,143,40,0,0.0,0.12385240883290458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1117120898023479,0.0,0.10826282437701576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17204058346418605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06372126468046486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09244937408184004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1348279852501853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4096032211151016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2071256652338914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0939459250303263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1057082565830172,0.07467712819533996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05461325081889664,0.10027587623537844,0.059407504224979965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09243661725703596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10294220064618348,0.0,0.11190283858198367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4021333936362132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1135734820737826,0.0,0.3691674787009573,0.051068676574458564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19781994555628465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11089111104346466,0.10554673898625884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07750857900257932,0.16124185009615588,0.0,0.1111701439199989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07950070714983047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2263942608753613,0.09978688244299436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100022265301078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046539920814996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.087392784896208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09851944270924123,0.0,0.07859447230641689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06944590125201093,0.13395877669143888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14193968065160958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09028141645243357,0.0,0.0,0.061655224955193724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10076437092259284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1346293637230328 alcoholism,CookieJar1962,2019/10/23,"I feel like I’ll never be able to stop :( I’ve consistently drank since I was 12, I’m now 26 (f) , I’ve been out in and out of AA my social anxiety is so bad I feel like I can’t even leave my house let alone go to AA 😩 I feel stuck and I don’t even deserve sobriety at this point. I have a young son you’d think that would be enough for me to stop I’ve drunk twice last month and it’s creeped back up to 3 4 days out of 7 ! I don’t even know what I’m expecting in replies to this message I just wanted to get it off my chest l",-1.5940842490842506,-0.14060073809523746,1.301111111111112,102.99730769230771,88.1269841269841,5.146764346764347,16.041514041514038,6.297961479604792,-0.8530969474969474,401,8,117,4,13,140,83,126,0.179,0.778,0.043,-0.9133,0,1,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,0,7,3,0,0,1,0,12,3,1,0,1,18,24,4,0,3,1,1,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,6,2,2,5,1,0,1,4,1,2,1,4,3,14,2,17,15,1,19,0,0,0,0,4,9,0,0,11,62,20,0,0.19027136521144847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19706375151769726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14555707359112954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14630693509714846,0.1588686423113251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12270928980407715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19660118300538204,0.0,0.37701732669053456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2886207577972699,0.2718598026501504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0994089351619905,0.0,0.10813560165499816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2195476091315104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104568166294129,0.155096557828154,0.0,0.20146990274261087,0.0,0.19456536220810652,0.0,0.18591395612884626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15187278841706775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1467490067086615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17986794126511935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15739443951294554,0.0,0.0,0.19395769539504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31815076220904737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12191820800650018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11222698096279736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13516331869405013,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ReddRobin150,2019/10/23,Help So my dad has stage 4 pancreatic cancer. I’ve seen enough episodes of House and Scrubs to know what that means. A couple years ago I guess I had a bad falling out with my friends and quit my job and started drinking. Not heavy drinking exactly but I was drinking whiskey every night to the point of passing out. I didn’t realize how bad it had gotten until I woke up in the backyard with no recollection of the night before. I stopped drinking hard alcohol and just drank beer until the cancer news. Ive been dating this girl for almost 10 months and I have a new job that I love. I still haven’t had any hard alcohol but I REALLY REALLY want to drink some. This is my first reddit post so I’m not sure if I’m doing this right but I hope I am and I hope someone can give me some advice.,1.6446951219512194,3.7206008475609775,3.085548780487805,91.19710365853659,80.15853658536584,6.051219512195122,21.835365853658534,7.1686216300943375,0.6134951219512192,625,19,134,8,16,204,104,164,0.162,0.7140000000000001,0.125,-0.5326,2,0,9,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,5,7,0,0,7,0,14,13,0,1,2,33,29,15,0,4,7,1,2,0,1,0,4,0,1,1,7,10,10,1,4,7,0,2,5,2,0,1,10,3,19,5,15,19,3,23,0,0,1,1,6,6,0,7,13,83,26,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11554441138578495,0.10481412424860136,0.2527288148971727,0.11840197296373073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0804084041556762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1974537450587928,0.0,0.0,0.10061496962257678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308321814401435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5791592075756945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12217527418447155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09962372388843126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10057632145462524,0.0,0.0,0.0913532366956425,0.0,0.0,0.11342820373596718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1302565526670621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2118426591358169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07925491265055176,0.0,0.0,0.2348813564007401,0.0,0.1364350352940306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2346732654694853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06498254075919213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10671774205424846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1287998645902933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09437938918967508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11419856140367644,0.0,0.22192363306647048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11177661652453433,0.0,0.11324285438578607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1257645924029881,0.0,0.0,0.15149730924982255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10097775754417734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10018580057129614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08369207705523947,0.0,0.09442796669638334,0.09885534769092637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11144139387370557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06974201253738073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07614377191466565 alcoholism,tonyoe,2019/10/23,"Going to rehab I've been drinking a minimum of a 12 pack a day (6tall cans) for at least 6 years. I have a full-time job never miss a day at work and a healthy relationship. I'm scared of what's coming next. I want change but I'm worried of people not understanding what I'm going through. No depression no suicidal thoughts. What do normal people do? I want help. And need it.",0.28346153846153754,2.6438529871794856,2.580205128205129,90.45646153846157,89.64102564102564,5.684102564102564,20.620512820512825,7.1686216300943375,0.6912112820512823,295,10,63,5,10,100,53,78,0.264,0.623,0.113,-0.9471,1,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,1,6,0,5,2,0,0,1,12,17,3,1,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,2,1,0,3,4,3,0,0,2,0,3,0,8,15,1,10,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,5,34,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279145923202641,0.18558870371517214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2778912678192159,0.0,0.185564375573773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2110562547665782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24488724112314686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14440973066712012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.213798122588594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15975138429848354,0.16616617857780808,0.0,0.2291305635120787,0.0,0.2110925326038924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29872795113008715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23130968626345266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21570025308844507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2356642910519953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1710410276240063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2242881550030687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25415270574109833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15684814270357386,0.2187971107754053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13874094647808485 alcoholism,PromVulture,2019/10/23,"I have a friend that is developing a troubling relationship with alcohol, how do I reach out? We are fairly close but they rarely share private details about themselves and instead divert on to jokes. This makes genuine concern or crtiticism hard to say, as they will only resort to jokes when called out directly. Is there any way you would recommend in talking to them about their alcohol intake?",6.136619047619046,8.794455900000003,5.6485714285714295,75.34476190476191,68.57142857142857,8.666666666666666,33.09523809523809,9.2995712137729,3.454238095238095,323,15,50,7,6,99,59,70,0.081,0.764,0.155,0.6786,0,0,2,0,0,0,6.0,1,1,4,0,6,5,0,0,2,0,7,2,0,2,0,11,8,6,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,2,2,1,0,0,2,6,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,8,4,12,6,0,7,0,0,0,0,12,5,0,1,1,38,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6154059317961424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19579804900283376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2940023791102657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22244920419600464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2579231598357573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1921913640933268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2189790149327481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3091223955825452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2289685524398161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23142223424065245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22854050097313436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20453279788625184,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Arkandle,2019/10/23,"How much are health benefits of quitting derailed in one day? I've been curious since I stopped. I always read here's a timeline of your body after being sober Ex: 3 weeks in and new neurons are starting to form 8 weeks cognitive function returns to normal etc Is it every time someone ever drinks, their cognitive function is down for 8 weeks? That only after 12 weeks since your last drink does your brain chemistry return to normal?",7.079999999999997,7.852175024691363,6.6070123456790135,76.54755555555556,64.18518518518519,8.455308641975309,34.71851851851852,8.238735603445708,2.889936296296296,351,15,57,4,5,109,62,81,0.055,0.8759999999999999,0.069,0.2824,0,0,2,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,1,1,3,1,0,0,1,0,6,6,3,1,1,6,7,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,2,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,6,1,11,5,3,18,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,15,34,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13766778525960824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18377782729329425,0.0,0.18469709380309124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1067016644574616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1447865480756942,0.0,0.0,0.3241563343027033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1845206607669169,0.0,0.14965913996758146,0.1393988937879307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758657809869229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1348639609789113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12162490295236715,0.0,0.0,0.15979279342813416,0.0,0.0,0.3242120525792037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1121133088368764,0.12583230050781274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17597660852649938,0.16549493100353255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2737241605618444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401853818327171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11710647328722687,0.0,0.0,0.1383237403228272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09647531755207593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5308565472818485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,MonkeyCultLeader,2018/11/15,"First meeting. As the title says I am going to my first AA meeting. This all comes from my addiction to alcohol and my girlfriend with one foot out the door. I drank 2 pints of vodka last night in about 6 hrs because of my anxiety and it just makes me feel worse. I have lost countless people I care about and I'm tired of it. I've been to jail 4 times because of alcohol. I am terrified to go to this meeting, but I know I have to. I was wondering if anyone could give me some insight on this meeting? Thank you all and I hope you're all doing well in your sobriety. 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I dont wanna end up like my father and decided im not gonna drink at all. Got any tips tricks etc for when it gets hard and im struggeling ? Im only 19, but still feel like this is something that i have to do.. all answers will be greatly appreciated",-0.19270270270270373,1.7389645270270293,2.6877702702702737,92.26787162162165,86.16216216216215,5.321621621621622,22.763513513513516,6.6274283507984215,0.5132216216216223,261,10,61,3,8,92,55,74,0.047,0.795,0.159,0.8761,0,0,3,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,2,4,1,0,1,0,7,2,0,0,2,13,12,7,0,2,4,1,2,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,3,2,2,0,4,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,2,3,3,6,8,3,5,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,5,31,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379454635321255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08777768049635502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15127882387612174,0.12644760809001274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11432507463238575,0.0,0.1439564415568523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06526587444258289,0.09221357404001963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06743809208598828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10323572004848164,0.14230929799397174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11562881669135401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8365603810178799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07093806624439859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12612228944065146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09816987506292836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11270620589112584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27458135317126603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0993707930968636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10308210911073623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,LordHypnos,2018/11/15,"Alternatives? I know its been posted a million times before, but is there anything that can replace the buzz of alcohol? Im not a huge fan of pot, and not a point in my life where I can just fix my life enough not to need it. But man it really is a wicked buzz. Im down to twice a week, with Wednesdays being moderate, a couple beers, but a 26er on weekends. Advice?",2.3799122807017525,3.680699973684217,4.100000000000001,88.22833333333338,75.57894736842105,7.171929824561403,23.19298245614036,7.793537801064563,0.9589192982456148,282,8,62,4,6,95,54,76,0.14400000000000002,0.856,0.0,-0.8871,0,0,2,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,8,0,6,4,0,0,0,11,8,4,0,1,7,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,4,2,2,0,1,2,0,0,3,0,0,2,1,0,4,0,8,6,1,11,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,4,43,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24049828475179305,0.0,0.26301941288698755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2025296157987278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2094236088476058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.272318798021597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2543000005629032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5316874621459738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13525699256209867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3476730716494198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18248929886668935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23265586130128185,0.0,0.2357077414090251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15766596835845206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14351017683085815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1974166007049272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,lancemalone,2018/11/15,"Hi ppl ... I overdid the wine last night & im paying for it .. was dehydrated, tired , unproductive... irritable.. Then my third trip to the toilet got me thinking 💭.. ""Will I always be the class clown striving for attention "" Im very immature and im 44. I'm not sure how CUTE this behavior is at this stage of the game .. Almost just cracked a DUECER (you know how that goes) . I feel like my pal Richard. Thanks for listening ",0.8500776053215056,3.391047134146348,2.7148337028824834,88.87595343680712,89.85365853658536,6.396452328159647,22.088691796008874,7.686295010490155,1.2494487804878052,323,12,67,7,11,107,66,82,0.092,0.8440000000000001,0.063,-0.3579,0,0,1,0,0,0,25.0,0,1,0,0,3,4,0,0,5,0,4,2,0,2,1,11,11,4,0,0,2,0,1,1,1,1,1,1,0,0,4,1,1,0,4,2,1,1,1,0,0,1,2,2,7,4,6,7,0,6,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,1,4,33,11,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2184628567660123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18153252106064147,0.2363839836533708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11031185119239004,0.155858634306203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17448817601832564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7069737826425528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1198989437322602,0.17783532139024558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1065854349125464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20473506331877006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.205619928944037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20085897265917496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.139792681460936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2507510110599593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18001072252439088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,SAVNP,2018/11/15,"Alcohol addiction I cannot seem to stay far away from alcohol guys, I don't even like food which means I drink on empty stomach and which means I almost always black out btw I am a girl. I have 3 consecutive weeks drinking alcohol do you think I need rehab? I don't like being sober most of the time I don't remember what happened last night ",2.7723333333333318,4.594562328571428,4.300000000000002,85.01333333333334,75.71428571428572,8.095238095238095,24.523809523809533,8.841846274778883,1.7858095238095235,273,9,56,6,6,91,52,70,0.10400000000000001,0.8959999999999999,0.0,-0.6149,0,0,5,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,8,9,1,0,0,10,14,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,5,0,0,2,3,2,6,0,5,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,10,2,6,13,1,9,0,0,1,0,3,4,0,3,6,32,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18700663182023994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.549980248686943,0.1717750218077614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14273709144712102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16116981368715536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3360926613679161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11330219503082915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2074298566076014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16985403233577456,0.1516944550249741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1398300226510276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16761398873495645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3737201162283272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271965807539487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16098100375965838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1943241979442497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15616583778700302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18284146704779108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10991749930395292,0.0,0.0,0.10002780387476022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13760103605898558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,truncatedprotein,2019/08/13,"Help with withdrawal symptoms Hi all. For the past month and a half or so I was drinking vodka nightly, sometimes during the day. I honestly can’t say how much was consumed in that time, but within the past two weeks I started noticing symptoms during the day before I was able to get home to my next drink. I realized what this was, and recognized I need to stop, and I want to stop. The drinking just got out of hand in that time. I was hiding it from family and my SO, and getting away with it, so I continued. I need some advice on how to get through this. I’m suffering from shakes, anxiety, rapid heart beat/palpitations occasionally. I do not want to seek any attention due to the secrecy of this drinking. I’ve read that one can wean off using beer, is this safe or something others have done? I am coming up on two days since my last vodka drink. I’m alone in this and would really like some advice/reassurance before this anxiety gets the best of me. Thanks",3.372289473684212,5.257986163157895,4.505460526315789,83.91134868421055,74.21052631578948,7.907894736842106,25.559210526315788,8.660442795831766,1.8313947368421053,761,26,150,15,16,249,115,190,0.094,0.758,0.14800000000000002,0.8968,0,1,9,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,1,6,7,0,1,8,0,13,10,2,3,1,31,28,14,0,5,5,0,1,1,0,1,2,1,1,0,13,10,6,3,2,9,0,2,2,2,0,4,7,2,16,5,26,20,5,29,0,1,0,0,3,10,0,4,18,101,29,1,0.11049251308377042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10797200499317036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11443692075635517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07513869784668467,0.0,0.16905294015555333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10381135323331613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18804198095232247,0.0,0.11595507563508264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09517951634593634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21377559036447227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11307220306585658,0.0,0.5412029894151739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10416250775354018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23091111070388276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08837095639625497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13093416000497635,0.07406080243783589,0.0,0.11083299963186943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09006614540254497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05398106070031515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08819406978340147,0.0,0.08122471054807033,0.16385759681213227,0.0,0.0,0.1175100411748208,0.10368973856100913,0.0,0.0,0.1257964584853184,0.0,0.0,0.07487258643427734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21095521245383286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11052241392701707,0.0,0.07078433320396021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08786808124895629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09140054862101997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08506253474766523,0.10927992072609284,0.0,0.0782071694625365,0.0,0.0,0.18475337693051647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22968805584337304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10172666091022876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12885814587279834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2158702601855085,0.0,0.0,0.09543005514395236,0.0,0.0,0.13034269395821654,0.0,0.08863042919015328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07849071110963766,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,maddiisboring,2019/08/13,"My fiance has been drinking again, picked a fight & then threw up on the porch. He won't even admit he has a problem. He binge drinks on weekends & drinks during the week combined with his antidepressants. He's had this drinking issue on & off since he was a teenager & is now 29. Tonight he picked a fight & ""ended"" our relationship. I had to call his family to come & get him because the argument we were having was escalating so much. Whilst he was waiting for them on the porch, he threw up everywhere. Tomorrow he'll come back like nothing happened & pretend he can't remember. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm so tired.",3.934285714285714,5.6503960793650805,4.589079365079368,84.60314285714287,72.33333333333334,7.5796825396825405,28.473015873015875,8.238735603445708,1.923783492063492,510,20,100,8,10,163,81,126,0.125,0.8440000000000001,0.03,-0.8987,0,0,4,0,2,0,28.0,2,0,1,0,6,4,2,0,8,0,15,5,0,2,0,11,26,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,2,0,2,4,4,1,3,6,0,4,3,3,0,0,9,0,9,1,12,15,1,21,0,0,0,0,21,7,0,0,11,54,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7946695974083049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10390915820790447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08056590467409684,0.0,0.0638701822818023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10698751680844842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1805096597715875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41056047030804255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09280000847398716,0.0,0.0,0.06920324039427449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09877303204193914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05474088284807832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0926526430905892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10935841754596902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05758188367491885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05118802487768327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0770220601499402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1005349337586119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1002560189138424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11248969342813256,0.11869023526950535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08667138985320745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12042404295458327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08404459926217835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,therealspacepirate,2019/08/13,"Where to begin seeking help for a friend? First time posting here because I feel lost and really need some advice/direction as to what to do. A very close friend of mine is an alcoholic. Early 30s man. He's currently at anywhere from 1-2 pints of vodka per day and is in really bad shape. Sleeping a lot, not feeling well and very depressed. He also has anxiety issues that have kept him from going to the doctor for months because he is afraid they will tell him he's going to die. Things are very stressful for him at home and it just makes him want to drink more to escape. I've been as supportive as possible but he is stubborn about not wanting to talk about his heath too much or he has an anxiety attack. He wants to quit. Thought he could do it on his own, tried HAMS taper, but he wasn't able to cut down much and has recently went back up to where he started. He doesn't have the self control necessary to do it without help. At this point I am very worried and think he has to see the doctor and detox safely under medical supervision. But I don't know where to begin my search to provide him local resources. Do I start with a national hotline? Call a local health clinic or hospital? Or take him to the emergency room/urgent care to wait and see a doctor? Any advice would be greatly appreciated. I care a lot about him and I want him to be okay. But I'm so worried, and I don't know where best to turn.",3.0911513407059523,4.6509262229965165,4.324605362823815,86.28245720345406,74.22648083623693,7.360642326920162,25.02181487653386,8.04050195162591,1.3866613846386917,1114,36,228,17,23,366,164,287,0.129,0.75,0.121,-0.3659,1,0,3,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,1,5,14,18,3,2,13,1,26,10,1,2,0,45,56,22,1,7,11,0,2,0,2,2,8,0,1,2,7,12,2,5,6,2,0,3,7,8,1,1,6,4,20,10,42,45,8,34,0,2,2,0,32,18,0,6,12,147,27,4,0.10081786908126504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.098518054844044,0.0,0.107743641376034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08062401347979481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06855960816730199,0.0,0.15425078779305035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11469488062008215,0.0,0.07752271820782593,0.08417870951765148,0.1229152744686198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10580213363255536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10294631644548544,0.0,0.20558107337420056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11307581289205006,0.08049486483671936,0.0,0.0,0.0650191851032038,0.0,0.08683428290982287,0.0,0.10463303101758184,0.0,0.0,0.3095740830707149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0987631299360186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1019530876910246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08575562793769176,0.0,0.0,0.15578327112529608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11459423669517528,0.0,0.0,0.11115205658043864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10716468037728552,0.0,0.0,0.1351521849913993,0.0,0.10112854287510076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10522766201613387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11081372846401508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11005461356570956,0.17142349402355112,0.0,0.0,0.06729671047532786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10156339652160616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08047186124208942,0.0,0.14822546805484546,0.07475517246517742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0953054734969252,0.11365699922594015,0.0965556499468005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10723221368472637,0.0,0.0,0.1291730170450746,0.0,0.09954548295939797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16067757744851188,0.0,0.10517502501200124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10089067854059217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1427188132848876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11548652840456584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11440692308761828,0.0,0.0,0.0758024906104947,0.08103358425451462,0.08811926130448272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06697891242362987,0.06460001966014275,0.0,0.08003812658526765,0.058787710217112175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06844871524744492,0.10966089098052448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3327412019737729,0.2378599651401912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09064737204338943,0.09345917468934124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09718482810029153,0.0,0.0,0.20477087973569716,0.0,0.07161812158935481,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Chemonaut,2019/08/13,"Anyone with a vomiting problem? No, not talking about after drinking too much either. I wake up and feel sick, I go to throw up, maybe it’s a bout of 3-6 times then I’ll feel alright for an hour. That repeats around 3 times then I have a really violent one at the end then I’m all clear for the rest of the day. All unless I’m constantly under the influence. I know vomiting is a symptom of withdrawals but it seems like a periodic event now; does anyone else get this?",1.240309278350516,3.395407515463919,3.3991855670103104,87.96888144329898,82.09278350515464,6.766597938144328,23.1020618556701,7.908726449838941,1.2857059793814436,367,13,77,7,10,125,70,97,0.095,0.8320000000000001,0.073,-0.2515,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,1,0,10,1,2,6,1,1,3,16,10,6,0,1,4,0,2,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,4,1,0,2,2,2,0,1,0,2,4,2,15,10,5,21,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,1,15,50,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32109080890980163,0.23525782211866186,0.0,0.20439744721085995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2481218225059905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14807646071836228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.200929195506833,0.0,0.0,0.2249258385379664,0.0,0.0,0.19180581375632305,0.0,0.20336219613818052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23219073509815266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11995932260769727,0.0,0.13049001584385975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261150265200659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1261850997048904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11217357979034501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2306694425232901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16878635638885198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15558653237886225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21970131811038585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14709107130446664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.209024093964218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2386478806157045,0.0,0.1845480889476801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2677694606251758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,carlosx86-64,2019/08/13,"Woke up feeling great on Day 2 til I got to work :( I was very ecstatic to get back to work til I actually got here. In the morn, a lot of my work colleagues were questioning my absence (I had been on a 3 day bender and was absent for one week. This happens every 2 months but I still manage to get work done from home) but what really has hit me the most is my boss says I should seek help and now I don't know what to do. Can't even work right now. My boss has never spoken to me in such an upset and worried manner and it's got me thinking all morning :( He was arranging a trip for me to Europe to meet a client put he's replaced me with someone else instead :( I feel so ashamed and embarrassed and it's eating me like a muthafucka!",0.5462500000000006,2.4937102611465,2.667448248407645,93.41543988853505,83.33121019108279,5.70843949044586,20.640525477707012,6.9077264865688965,0.32514044585987234,569,17,130,7,16,192,99,157,0.155,0.767,0.078,-0.9285,0,0,0,0,1,0,14.0,0,0,0,5,9,5,0,3,8,0,14,1,0,2,2,21,26,11,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,5,7,1,0,5,0,0,2,3,3,0,1,11,3,18,2,20,13,3,19,0,0,0,0,6,6,0,3,12,87,23,9,0.0,0.0,0.14910469640872662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11748899164494657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19707870600905694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15636109408810064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15634619022896784,0.12763960388007442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10091885600212544,0.0,0.1287353564094201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15451426039777433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15965689589389498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3666094509456683,0.16845569078071188,0.0,0.0,0.13511504220038084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10241445540313764,0.0,0.15326462750010872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0839714700325081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07464732694932487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12989981467811446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1219585439171392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11784398881467775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10353702514534802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15359995895974835,0.1711640111639921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09788361316018236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13048506017935785,0.0,0.12150775298423115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12946168081563353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12202131654192658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09790408986649422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12607087703575778,0.0,0.0,0.1225619604280531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5561784874804684,0.15516950859423678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Mango_Parfait,2019/08/13,1 Week ago my daughter found me in a pile on the floor of my kitchen crying I can’t do this any more... I promised her I was going to change. She’d heard the promise before. But. This time I was going to find AA “I’m proud of you mum” she said... words I hold and repeat every morning...and what an amazing journey it’s been. Today. I’m 7 days sober. I go to another meeting tonight. The shakes have finally stopped this morning. I’m taking it one day at a time. 30 years a slave to this poison. I can do this.,-1.6795616717635047,0.18939138532110533,0.7368042813455666,100.5656753312946,103.03669724770643,3.1561671763506625,17.98216106014271,5.033348758259628,-0.6905845056065236,387,13,91,2,18,129,77,109,0.08800000000000001,0.799,0.113,0.3767,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,0,1,0,6,1,1,7,0,9,2,0,0,0,7,19,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,8,1,1,2,2,0,0,5,1,2,1,1,6,2,14,4,9,12,1,21,0,0,0,0,9,4,0,0,12,50,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19890870585637874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15259328573549227,0.2352930829466616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1909398522467993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2373754753068005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24648251015635905,0.28942671511573426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18905873739154472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2458089068761293,0.20508892044563706,0.0,0.0,0.2460326835905352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3825790047033968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1520528609483366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2134468218262962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.187600568312213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16871378670897644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2616878976613945,0.0,0.21269602787512876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17999258429881226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14450017341791152 alcoholism,KnyazUK,2019/08/13,"Dad won't stop drinking after mum died My mum passed away almost two weeks ago and since then my dad was consuming alcohol every day, tried to hide it so that I wouldn't find out, and is always denying it, even when I can clearly smell alcohol on him. I confronted him several times, he either gets angry or just changes the topic, depending on what state he is in. Although he is not totaly wasted, he is something you can call a functioning alcoholic, where he drinks just enough to give him a high and then goes on with his life. Knowing my dad and how alcohol can destroy your life (I'm 10 months sober) I am very worried it can escalate to something even worse. I feel really bad because I can't be there for him because I live in a different country, so those 2 weeks that I stayed with him after mum passed away, I tried to talk to him, explain that life goes on and he shouldn't do this to himself and that his wife wouldn't want him to do this, she didn't drink much and was very dissapointed whenever my dad drank in secret. I wrote him a long message explaining the situation we're in, and that it hurts me to see him like this, to which he replied 'you're right, alcohol is bad, I won't be drinking alone on weekdays anymore'. Today I called him, and after hearing his voice I could instantly tell he had something to drink already. I think the alcohol consumption messed with his brain and dopamine production that whenever he's not drunk or tipsy he's speech is quite serious and sometimes dull, but once he's had a few, he begins to mumble and uses much more emotions in his speech, sometimes saying completely stupid things. I don't know what to do, it's bad enough I lost my mum, I don't want to loose my dad.. If anyone had a similar situation, what sould I do?",6.154943342776202,5.942326045325777,6.4028484419263485,80.59390439093488,66.16713881019831,10.006175637393769,32.38087818696884,9.642632912329526,2.7810658356940507,1406,52,284,26,20,452,180,353,0.124,0.84,0.036000000000000004,-0.9778,1,1,14,0,0,0,35.0,0,2,0,2,10,12,3,0,9,0,32,17,1,3,1,46,50,23,1,7,9,10,1,1,0,5,9,5,0,0,20,16,13,1,8,6,0,2,11,11,0,1,9,8,44,1,33,33,7,36,0,3,1,0,53,16,0,5,17,177,64,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07066252202169124,0.5111464387899715,0.07982303989982491,0.08256068081136887,0.08796746513140002,0.0,0.06632925105094464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07905584231924763,0.055738569042133146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1497896997270631,0.0,0.19967604139957126,0.09718702656158484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08898828349815477,0.16279581905597895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08432788137180629,0.0,0.08357964222904185,0.0,0.0,0.0636459268449557,0.0,0.0,0.051409568883571996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08273156618399766,0.0832851899631376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3904516738823858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08966862566749942,0.0,0.1647337716067706,0.0,0.10530198790840696,0.0,0.0671633106092865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04030629018362089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07285804960120085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041647788101558135,0.07646987466463152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08984457848368259,0.0,0.0,0.08422325538412558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08533653718362336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08761853901542538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1689151482072633,0.03894471375917677,0.0,0.07038978975685874,0.07054525079094535,0.0,0.0,0.08701831971718227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06362773829213363,0.0,0.11719936812757432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08489385446129237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08478669591463724,0.0,0.0,0.05106745883647167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06807615927069717,0.0,0.06339255339583781,0.0,0.0,0.063522520105206,0.0,0.0,0.09005523995434803,0.0,0.06594105705404489,0.1792059599107512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18410546353112933,0.15768031146814304,0.0,0.0,0.08496556464322275,0.0,0.06664529454640977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06407188316806406,0.06967440805066415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05295909209756715,0.051078141864232166,0.0,0.0,0.046482447190270566,0.0,0.07556048232752884,0.0,0.0,0.10824248061306853,0.0,0.07786995460052677,0.0,0.0,0.06884815032139563,0.0,0.13154641753907745,0.09403592372858076,0.0,0.12788510082549576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.080954433913716,0.08123637713566549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,boomboomz321,2019/08/13,"I know a person who keeps messing up and does not seem to be taking this seriously. How do I tolerate her? So I know I’m judging; that’s not my question. My question is, how do I put up with this and pretend to take her seriously and respect her when I don’t? I take recovery seriously. I am recovering from addiction myself... not alcohol, but it’s all the same really. I also take accountability seriously and she doesn’t, and I don’t like that energy around me at this time in my life. I don’t need it. But I guess the question is... how would YOU feel about this? This acquaintance has ample resources and money and support and has still fucked up a lot. To give you an idea, she has endangered her kids due to her drinking and is standing to lose a lot right now. She has done treatment and meetings, but just seems to go through the motions and isn’t making any progress. Why do I say that? Well, with EVERYTHING that is happening, she relapsed AGAIN (she can’t seem to go for longer than a month now) and this time GOT A FREAKING DUI. She doesn’t seem to realize the gravity of her situation. She is just trying to make it go away and get away with it somehow, and carry on with “recovery” Now it’s her life ultimately, but I really find her situation sad and don’t think she is going to be OK. Unfortunately I see her a lot (long story), so I have to pretend to be friendly and civil, when in reality I find her pathetic and sad. I think she is a joke. I hope she will be OK, but given her recent track record, I wouldn’t bet on her. This basically sucks for her and the people close to her. I want to improve my life and surround myself with others who are plugged in and really trying. I can see that she is NOT. What do I do? How would you feel?",2.1305619747899165,3.995957773109247,4.163738620448181,85.08115414915969,77.71148459383755,7.599754901960785,24.601628151260506,8.472884824447931,1.5955350840336129,1363,48,290,28,32,466,158,357,0.11900000000000001,0.769,0.11199999999999999,-0.389,0,0,2,0,0,0,48.0,0,3,0,2,20,20,2,0,13,2,38,7,0,6,1,76,74,34,0,6,11,0,2,1,1,4,5,1,0,2,21,27,2,1,17,4,3,6,13,11,1,0,3,5,57,9,38,63,5,35,0,3,2,1,39,15,2,14,14,219,78,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1054462550440801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10337130294572668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0773522150883425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06577739470460216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08610716788824005,0.0,0.0,0.18175562132789874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08464608637361018,0.0989848792210596,0.0,0.09475522911698483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08693161764325245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09781573538227747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17681269270363026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07473071964018124,0.08942216921286025,0.05053564842659016,0.09278895416615544,0.21988778931108574,0.0,0.07736108617639728,0.0,0.10655523844316107,0.0,0.08553499968232108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09607132395521603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10919254087900042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08597503307745362,0.0,0.0,0.10631680300854572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20496254261839825,0.047255723588699165,0.0,0.0,0.08559998392816133,0.0,0.108212306927028,0.0,0.2467004508072773,0.0,0.0,0.1291314931805035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0772062373317265,0.0,0.0,0.07172153716884476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06705803503498267,0.08445792311482403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0972369339998591,0.32506773639957315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1858965815547894,0.0,0.09550583351792576,0.0,0.0,0.08260397509580589,0.0,0.07692086272298458,0.0,0.0,0.15415713004396486,0.3522250007965441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21744946847874772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07724597573800462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10976418241057563,0.0,0.0,0.2909054166302202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1239569800556953,0.0,0.0,0.1128040991510507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13134200384772374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057051845939921776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08696881632232918,0.0,0.08728069811612812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1374235815435106,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,willis174,2019/08/13,"Etg Test? I get it I should do better and I will! Would just like your opinions, tips and reassurance on these so called 80 hour etg tests. They’re supposed to detect alcohol up to 80 hours, but those are in severe cases. People have passed within 24-36 hours cutting it close. Can I pass an etg test 50-52 hours after drinking a decent amount in one night? Since then I will have burned 600 calories working out on two separate occasions and drank 4.5-5 gallons of water along with supplementing creatine and taking vitamins, also eating protein rich foods. As well as drinking coffee and juices. I am not a chronic drinker just got hit with a surprise test. Before this one night binge of 2-3 beers, 4-5 shots and 2 Jell-O shots. I didn’t drink for a couple weeks by choice. I workout all the time 5-6 days a week regularly. Lifting and cardio. I’m really fit, 180 lbs, male, 22 years old, 6”0 and 11% body fat. I think I will pass, what do you think? This is just another reason for me to not drink again for a while. I don’t have a problem, it just prevents me from accomplishing my fitness goals and I can socialize fine without it. I’d appreciate the feedback! Much love. I’m a little paranoid lol",2.150644257703078,4.463250920168072,3.4489285714285742,87.99815476190477,79.71428571428572,6.151540616246499,23.36204481792717,7.333567415737692,1.0008397759103635,941,32,188,13,24,306,164,238,0.057999999999999996,0.785,0.157,0.9702,0,0,7,0,0,0,38.0,0,2,0,4,8,10,1,0,11,1,17,16,2,1,1,31,27,16,0,3,8,0,0,1,0,5,5,0,0,1,9,14,11,1,3,6,1,3,5,2,1,3,3,0,17,8,24,18,3,30,0,0,0,1,7,11,0,1,17,105,26,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13077465141275274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09785800000502404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12831398244345915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10412653250204736,0.0,0.0,0.10822494405279406,0.0,0.13592375466617085,0.0,0.0,0.12495186236001755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13539835517660387,0.0,0.07891752272727677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4794979536560624,0.0,0.12521346695010954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14796840753037954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06393246112390187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09786922278557293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4820330701532844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05978304039385239,0.12264532766612495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11044229778372243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08995488581879435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2296689893974096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284050967979452,0.0,0.1658400483844688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08483487105438044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11709007414869285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07839235828797922,0.12581514028736854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13824151028970516,0.0,0.10122444093060967,0.0,0.0,0.1247392178612358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0920058405229556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15681751506481545,0.0,0.0,0.0713540234283082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11953618840641207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19631316834678175,0.0,0.11002392650795627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11795881274392235,0.0,0.08908568422231301,0.0,0.0,0.08692703129455683,0.0,0.0,0.0788012655655748 alcoholism,HamsterRivals,2019/09/08,"Anime gives me the urge to drink I always feel like drinking a beer when I watch anime. I'm not a HUGE otaku that watches lots of subpar anime. I only watch good anime like Ashita no Joe, Gintama, and Bobobo-bobo-Bobobo. Now Pocket Monsters Sun & Moon is on, and even though I just drank a large coffee, I am now following it by drinking a beer and my body doesn't feel so good. But whenever an anime episode comes out, or when a new video from Jack Black or the Angry Video Game Nerd or other youtubers I like to watch, I always feel like drinking a beer while watching it. Don't worry btw, I'm not really an alcoholic especially like how I used to be for a brief period of time in the past. I used to drink a lot, but I don't now. But when a great anime or youtube episode comes out, I always grab a beer and watch it while drinking a beer. I'm worried about my health lately. I can feel my body not feeling good anymore. My body's been feeling sore lately. I have a lot health anxiety. Has anyone else felt similar, like linking something to wanting to drink?",3.484027777777776,4.683082125000002,4.37037037037037,87.7741666666667,72.6574074074074,7.066666666666667,25.074074074074076,7.413659706084162,1.0705796296296293,833,25,173,9,16,269,115,216,0.08800000000000001,0.7809999999999999,0.131,0.8687,0,0,14,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,0,12,11,0,0,17,0,10,20,3,3,0,34,28,19,0,1,11,0,8,6,0,0,4,0,0,0,5,8,14,0,8,15,0,4,7,1,0,0,3,15,18,10,16,24,3,23,0,0,7,0,2,5,0,7,20,97,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09322528474959924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21775391795670898,0.09451665241025192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06673281797052648,0.0,0.08651145173322343,0.06099516979270021,0.08938026506526145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29068777311424954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1502865867459442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5981842227922428,0.0,0.0,0.07287177242485575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05761641124233945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2646450085511253,0.12463819363885136,0.08375712367106514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08368160628002369,0.0,0.219500085735786,0.0,0.09617441913857458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854486764263838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1968046919915669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2557051035673505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2224865036908552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08424993730282733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06634444020294103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08327353419385604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05588353587365633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06715603576257656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08570573780645667,0.0,0.050866120309038164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15068218258680147,0.0,0.0,0.05145213837569555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17717819193766882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,BritBird84,2019/09/08,"Life with alcoholism. The only thing worse than growing up with an alcoholic parent, is you and your siblings having kids and bringing them into this shit life.",7.437857142857139,9.38512707142857,6.305714285714287,74.78928571428574,64.0,8.457142857142857,31.857142857142854,8.841846274778883,2.9450857142857143,130,5,19,2,2,39,25,28,0.21600000000000005,0.7340000000000001,0.05,-0.7684,1,0,2,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,2,5,1,0,0,5,3,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,2,5,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,5,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,5,2,1,0,0,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6471301350273156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4277055433518945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2302673929189873,0.0,0.0,0.3361861149260804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.310785227194339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011444577476829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3085446970698794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,jonathan1998_,2019/09/08,"I'm loosing this battle I'm trying to change so bad. Every weekend I regret and have guilt. I drink , drive drunk and get angry sometimes even end up in random fights out of drunk rage or even say things im shameful of the following morning. I'm trying so hard to kick this but I'm finding it very difficult. I can't go anywhere or be around anyone with out them drinking and I don't have it in me to not drink when it's around. About a month ago I went 1 week sober and to AA meetings and got a 1 week chip .. mid week the next week I blew it off and been drinking pretty regularly since. Help me",1.2182020997375351,3.071029921259844,2.753248031496064,94.1732316272966,80.49606299212599,5.178215223097113,20.81955380577428,5.985473137389443,-0.02428556430446216,468,13,105,3,12,153,82,127,0.195,0.7440000000000001,0.061,-0.8825,0,0,4,0,1,0,9.0,0,0,1,0,8,8,3,2,4,0,6,6,0,0,0,18,15,12,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,7,11,6,0,1,7,0,4,3,8,1,0,3,2,9,0,16,11,0,23,0,1,0,0,5,9,0,3,10,57,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12720358909732793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10033814008410412,0.0,0.0,0.2554898380394031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11981603258266205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15180337277198594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5622992541551537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12709790475289393,0.0,0.0,0.18956004424694886,0.0,0.12090446138530575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13115588205384116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0749725310236866,0.0,0.08155403472166146,0.0,0.11476960549563853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1285473058100628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09618464510406792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1550040122701942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11453987835900295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1526132749648725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14599051234203148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11411650876994235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11870421386277925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14192460851153396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09533464695866008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1948533909185076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11840206070432754,0.0,0.0,0.4604263576124018,0.0,0.0,0.133025412053611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,jackapplecore,2019/09/08,"January 22nd 2018 …was the last time I took a drink. But every time she opens her mouth, I swear to God I want to go pick up a handle and end it right there. I wouldn’t be drinking to get drunk I’ll be drinking to kill myself because I know the next drink I think will do just that. Almost 2 years of sobriety. Somebody, please tell me you won’t drink with me today.",2.2192307692307693,3.3319396410256417,3.246666666666666,94.94000000000004,75.66666666666667,6.225641025641028,20.69230769230769,6.42735559955562,-0.01639999999999997,284,6,67,2,6,91,60,78,0.11199999999999999,0.8109999999999999,0.077,-0.5574,0,0,5,0,0,1,7.0,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,4,0,6,7,1,1,0,11,12,2,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,3,6,0,2,6,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,0,12,0,7,6,0,12,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,7,35,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16213903883978215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09870465403326684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.793097571780312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1434126599215752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13642420335223718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08459628123739703,0.0,0.09202261099039608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17913999031156705,0.0,0.08898674942933478,0.13198604334310834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17220327702968502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17773904099631227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1382784099165707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415248224978994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10375150881226723,0.0,0.0,0.18883318199381013,0.0,0.1534807994562826,0.0,0.1798985764507831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09550434504184167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1042708806521435 alcoholism,ozzyozb,2019/09/08,2 weeks now It’s been now two weeks since I quit. I’ve been drinking of and on for over 40 years. I have stopped multiple times throughout the years but since last year in Sept when I switched from beer to liquor it’s a different deal altogether. I thought it would be hard like all the other times that I have quit but this was totally almost impossible. I couldn’t do it after several attempts. I wanted to go int rehab so bad but decided to give it another try. I joined this group and read several post and the day I quit again I spent most of the day reading them. I got sick and came back to read more. I managed to get through the day...the next day I stayed in bed most of the day..anyways I am on day 14 and I’m not going back. I came here to thank you all for the encouragement to beat this beast. I won’t attempt to drink again I’m so done..again thank you all.,2.1354528985507244,3.5490293206521777,3.302695652173913,93.23215942028985,76.44565217391305,7.080579710144929,23.679710144927537,7.793537801064563,0.8466388405797094,681,21,161,10,15,220,106,184,0.078,0.845,0.077,-0.0739,1,0,3,0,0,0,18.0,0,2,1,6,10,5,0,0,8,0,11,6,0,0,4,24,25,11,0,3,4,0,1,1,0,2,2,0,1,0,10,7,4,1,2,7,1,4,3,1,0,1,8,1,19,4,21,13,7,33,0,0,0,0,7,5,0,3,23,96,29,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11050898270587292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11572143759344848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16971910998647513,0.09214547676750316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2524434727481895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42703604115809946,0.1137756800794256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11530206853612827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1129359668237708,0.0,0.2162203661033077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0576582237512987,0.10586677815627228,0.12543956346670812,0.0,0.08826448171297724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.098860332175281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08995762825282917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0539160210472951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11736845795646182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1056937846864761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35214237108524243,0.3311677494761857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2493493850191017,0.0,0.18258084740289152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11762842063564688,0.0,0.09226538743324857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2032081889296749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08761302443381787,0.1287028897702386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07492677824048022,0.0,0.10780508330747747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06509282459108219,0.0,0.17704728375666035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0783961407445941,0.0,0.0,0.21320347701271744 alcoholism,NHValentine,2019/09/08,"Coming down from a 3 day binge... So for the last 3 days. (Wed thur fri) I spent the entire time drunk. 5 fifths of vodka in 3 days. I've been an alcoholic for years, and for years I've been trying to stay sober. I dont think I can do this anymore. I'm laying in bed pouring sweat and trying not to vomit. I cant keep food down, barely holding down water. I cant sleep. I'm just sweating and shaking. I dont know why I'm doing this to myself. Not even really sure why I'm typing this right now. I guess I'm just looking for some positive words of encouragement from someone that's been there.",-0.273567708333335,1.8167148203125016,2.119250000000001,95.06741666666667,88.296875,4.663333333333333,16.34583333333333,6.079149491110277,-0.5126797916666668,459,10,105,4,15,156,79,128,0.057,0.885,0.057999999999999996,0.2781,0,0,2,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,1,4,0,10,8,3,0,1,16,22,4,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,4,4,4,2,2,2,1,2,6,1,0,0,4,1,8,2,16,18,1,17,0,0,1,0,2,6,0,2,8,54,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19488137435826008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1808465445483269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15708215132476375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3528104672556097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4274359497355124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1204433479463959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2205036397314492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2008839080201782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16208495132762252,0.0,0.0,0.10021719808717136,0.14864315794524188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15313175179803562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11682088506684975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15572964387009902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1824860738213501,0.0,0.15450827413138926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19436550570511416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17186684476278832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11684532334489628,0.0,0.0,0.10633230524018937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24761330747906965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3290929284842221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2348604835675653 alcoholism,milky_beric,2019/03/19,"I'm going to rehab I can't stop myself from drinking (on average) 70cl of gin a day and taking loads of ketamine every few days. Shit has hit the fan, my family, my work and my girlfriend are all involved so I'm off to rehab. I have a choice between a 12 week and 6 week programme. I'd love to read people's experiences of rehab to help me decide what to do.",1.1361038961038936,2.814357935064937,4.024675324675325,85.79987012987014,80.03896103896105,5.9584415584415575,21.38961038961039,6.868970318607317,0.6025116883116883,279,8,58,3,7,100,57,77,0.048,0.8059999999999999,0.146,0.7571,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,4,0,5,6,1,0,1,6,11,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,1,3,1,1,1,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,7,1,12,10,2,8,0,0,0,1,4,2,1,0,5,35,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3488785621461879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2649705522334936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2278937534704104,0.0,0.0,0.2645844615342291,0.25498747920171105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15372183019901725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1812991807566948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2441216393985241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18751898697828528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2705563866532423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27764710764935224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22613605832620146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20336969687725434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43393059954424607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19691498380338468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,yikesriley,2019/03/19,"I have the potential to turn into an alcoholic I’m only 20, but I know that if I had regular access to alcohol I’d be 100% dependent. But I have no desire to NOT be dependent. It makes me feel guilty, but alcohol honestly numbs the pain I feel more than anything else (aside from weed, but due to living in federal housing in the US, I can’t have it here even though it’s recreationally legal in my state), and to some part of me, it’s worth the pain and destruction it causes. I deal with a multitude of mental health problems, my main ones being Schizophrenia and Borderline Personality Disorder. Sometimes I’ll blackout drink, and that’s honestly never a good time... but other times (like today) drinking just gets my head out of itself for a little bit. I think my main issue is that I know it could develop into a problem, but I don’t want to cut out alcohol completely. Maybe just set a limit on the frequency and amount of my consumption. I honestly don’t even really know why I’m posting this, just for some support I guess... I’d like to not be alone in this. 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As said in the title, I haven't had a drink in a little while and my depression and anxiety have spiked since I stopped. I had been drinking since high school and started heavily after a bad breakup about three years ago. I've seldom had a sober night since then untill I stopped cold turkey after a pretty bad spiral and a few self harm incidents. Now that I'm not drinking I'm having a really hard time being alone and dealing with my issues. Anyone have any tools they found helpful keeping their mind off the cravings and such?",5.400681818181816,6.29694810743802,5.326931818181818,83.81039772727273,67.92561983471074,7.7028925619834725,28.348140495867767,7.645422480735847,1.655222314049586,495,16,93,5,8,154,77,121,0.21,0.741,0.048,-0.9524,0,1,4,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,2,0,4,5,0,0,10,0,11,4,0,0,0,16,18,11,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,8,4,4,1,4,0,0,2,5,0,2,7,3,9,0,12,10,1,21,0,1,0,0,6,7,0,0,14,59,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12106825293947565,0.0,0.0,0.14145373107766818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09287779755416782,0.0,0.10448187952193204,0.0,0.0,0.09549858938244404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280740322165469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14080603321076934,0.11763452511542033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5351782037977472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1497508469529951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12234715895156867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09154542749138207,0.1443022707723519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14752779459550378,0.14255206164515458,0.0,0.24279379725332706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13688714553226966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2758099120099574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12816930320198405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13894903752648902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08749543388066912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12991705769103978,0.0,0.0,0.13822433782245114,0.0,0.0,0.14248075422166756,0.0,0.0,0.3389364692671817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09667068848394282,0.0,0.0,0.22837082930308575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07963979366530408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10955472074134794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08795182427957456 alcoholism,flushingborn,2019/03/19,"Sister-in-Law Endangering Her Kids' Lives Hi all. I'm concerned. For a long time, my sister-in-law, who lives in another town a couple of hours away, has two children, one in middle school and one in elementary. She's also an alcoholic, and according to accounts, is drinking all day and driving with the kids. She's verbally abusive (at least) to the girl and neglectful of the boy. We have family in that town, but they don't know what to do. Based on reports and some recorded evidence, they called Child Protective Services, but without evidence that she's actually endangering their lives, there's nothing they can or will do. &#x200B; Do we have any recourses? Everything is hearsay and suspicion and circumstantial (smelling alcohol on her breath). She's really slippery. For a while she submitted to breathalyzer tests, but she's no longer allowing them (probably because she's drinking). The only idea we've had is to hide a video camera at her house (which I imagine is illegal?), and then call the cops on her if she's driving with the kids in the car. &#x200B; What can be done, if anything?",5.331483990147785,7.356202896551727,5.8083713054187225,76.0172860221675,69.29556650246306,9.804064039408868,33.869766009852206,10.125756701596842,3.8167933497536946,880,43,153,24,16,283,122,203,0.07,0.93,0.0,-0.9079,0,0,4,0,0,0,47.0,2,0,5,0,2,1,0,0,12,0,17,5,1,1,2,27,19,17,0,2,7,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,7,6,12,4,2,3,3,1,3,3,1,0,3,2,1,21,0,23,15,4,23,0,1,0,0,30,14,0,4,6,105,27,4,0.0,0.15322589981408904,0.12620000970048634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27641263728944865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10341907842631733,0.0,0.280241537804476,0.31428174776450035,0.08794366824356505,0.13560581467873775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10642131814087616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1215026540291464,0.0,0.0,0.07883373613773405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2641052637957372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14309277843492266,0.0,0.08340225093220689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13234171737022546,0.0,0.2533734414757561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1162266364642099,0.0,0.12191365152462902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12735651628814626,0.14922068913924974,0.0,0.1459892510620045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07107221025163096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3425821516804899,0.11444625652992033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12408833288720868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17526441342779442,0.09835551446822416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13943142258357813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0828472424267026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13088117535899316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07540893278614556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263291958036246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12466218097255903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31428174776450035,0.0 alcoholism,tiredofthissheit,2019/03/19,I have a problem I just woke up. And can't remember the past 2 days. I don't know where my car is. Haven't gone to work also. And this is nothing new. It's been going for years and it needs to stop. I just don't know how. I'm in constant pain and I can't help but think the only way out is with a belt around my neck. ,-1.5448999999999984,0.015538693333336797,1.1249166666666677,103.695375,88.73333333333332,4.283333333333334,14.708333333333332,5.148860815047168,-1.3225666666666671,242,4,68,1,8,83,51,75,0.114,0.8859999999999999,0.0,-0.6404,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,6,2,0,0,4,0,10,2,1,1,0,18,18,7,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,7,0,1,4,0,0,3,5,2,0,0,3,0,7,0,8,15,0,15,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,6,42,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20714230318468202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23058728255822375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27991414558141525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16704978048313204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14720995083355667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17361908488081332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2847068751330594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19206385208404025,0.0,0.25016808501237603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24854159854960545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1970002837762451,0.2756210013578898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24726879625571505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2478520676692781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2934249787933508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21655660737837892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16597284457354908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20560209187122253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18857337989378287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16680369149464436 alcoholism,SeaEstablishment01,2019/03/19,"Social anxiety disorder linked to increased risk of alcoholism, study finds According to researchers from the Norwegian Institute of Public Health, social anxiety disorder might increase the risk of alcohol use disorder. The study appeared in *Depression and Anxiety*. More: [http://www.mentaldaily.com/article/2019/03/social-anxiety-disorder-linked-increased-risk-alcoholism/](http://www.mentaldaily.com/article/2019/03/social-anxiety-disorder-linked-increased-risk-alcoholism/)",33.09256097560976,42.97936209756098,18.914817073170735,-22.29070121951216,13.390243902439025,16.782926829268288,51.713414634146346,13.427899808715575,10.67709268292683,430,17,21,13,4,106,29,41,0.301,0.614,0.084,-0.8519,0,0,4,0,0,0,43.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,3,0,1,3,0,1,0,6,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,2,3,4,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,2,0,13,0,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4600260819885967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3292973239341217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12358358055327613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4933393627973085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13114286065932326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525180431745604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15221510769617494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5850603109304657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12392513159043048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Tired72,2019/03/19,"Alcohoic girl friend Girl is an alcoholic and admits it will go a couple weeks sober then one stressful event happens and boom, she's off drinking again. Doesn't stop until she passes out then drinks the next day because she's hungover, and usually calls in sick to work. When she's drunk she complains about things but when she's sober those sane things don't ever come up. This has been a pattern for the last few years of our 12 year relationship and I love her and she's my best friend but nothing seems to change and she just gets really mean if I don't engage her drunk rants which are the same stories that I've heard and and acknowledged over and over.. just don't know what to do anymore",3.3710911270983215,5.3758078776978415,3.1893705035971216,92.82755695443649,74.53956834532373,6.359952038369305,22.37470023980816,7.1686216300943375,0.5441793764988008,561,15,117,6,12,168,96,139,0.11,0.7490000000000001,0.141,0.8243,0,0,3,0,0,0,7.0,1,0,0,2,7,7,0,1,6,0,10,7,0,0,1,24,20,17,0,1,5,0,0,0,2,1,2,2,0,2,8,11,5,1,5,4,0,3,4,2,0,1,2,2,14,5,13,17,3,25,0,0,0,1,21,6,0,2,16,75,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881660302196895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1746148213428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10733106360032647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1847753354179782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1797878690927159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18625945291294094,0.15166931642637266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19481887901536107,0.0,0.11355103459228727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3449645075067179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15926602706638868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27206356985819136,0.0,0.09198967293661717,0.0,0.10006503553063928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1556987372357592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09676385127055123,0.14352111915249827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589106796906156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19179260760313224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1872531853749109,0.0,0.0,0.16894458390131425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11931006207562204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127953980320851,0.0,0.0,0.1890340376115712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16028815119707387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14720298790272102,0.2016883902958029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2339470969836752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19391699935995005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14123329394729056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12818156552840027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267675143092107 alcoholism,younggoodmanbrowns,2019/03/19,I'm still so hungover should I go to the er? It has been 24 hours but I still even puke up most water? 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One of the biggest reasons I drank was horrible insomnia. Anxiety, nightmares, etc. now not only can I not sleep but I’m more terrified than normal. I tried smoking (which normally helps) but since I’m having withdrawal everything is worse. People who drank to sleep: what the hell do you do now? Please help. I need sleep. 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I just went on a 4 day bender accidentally. (Different groups of friends wanted to do something each different day. Heavy drinking for each.) My palms are sweating profusely and I feel hot. Any of you who drink heavily daily how do you deal with this? I can't handle it and am trying to understand how people manage it. 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This is gonna sound pathetic, but all of my friendships revolved around drinking, I have no idea what I like to do, or how to meet people.",1.4126126126126124,2.6180781891891907,2.933513513513514,95.99774774774777,77.91891891891892,6.014414414414415,23.144144144144143,6.42735559955562,0.28416036036036063,131,4,32,1,3,43,31,37,0.183,0.655,0.161,0.0258,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,1,1,6,7,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,4,6,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,22,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4599607193431153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5061562749658431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5832764087049582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2524270295725987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3582055105152162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,tweelingmeisje,2018/12/05,"Living to die Okay, so this is my first time ever being truly vulnerable about my problems, and I don't know if this is the correct place to talk about it, but I'll give it a shot. First of all, I am currently sober. I am a 21 year old female who moved from the most beautiful state in the world to a cold, desolate, lonely place, 2000 miles from my home state. I've been here for 6 months, and every single day I've been drinking. For 6 months straight, I have been escaping into alcohol. I have no friends. I lost my job. It is destroying me, I'm sick everyday and disgusted with myself, but I can't find the inner strength to control myself. I'm slowly losing the will to live. I don't get out of bed till around 3pm, and I'm so tormented by my mind I either want to go back to sleep, or drink. I don't enjoy life anymore. I don't see a light at the end of this tunnel. I just feel so alone, and so useless. I want to change, but I don't know how. 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I'm basically hardly every drink, but when we moved in together, I found out that she drinks 20-24 ounces of 13% or higher wine literally every night and she's been doing this for the past 7 years at least. I guess she's used to it because she's never what I'd call drunk. Just happy/tipsy. &#x200B; Is is possible that she hasn't done any damage to her health by this point? (she exercises daily and is physically fit). I'm just trying to figure out what the risk is to me if I stay in this relationship. So far, she is refusing to reduce the amount or number of days that she drinks. Am I over reacting? The fact that she drinks that much 7 days a week without fail...every night, just seems like a lot to me. &#x200B; Would it be over bearing if I were to ask her to get a liver panel to see if she's already done damage? Then maybe ask if she would do that every couple of years and drop her consumption if the numbers show that her liver is getting harmed? I have an aunt who's husband died due to alcoholism. He was high functioning, yet he destroyed his liver, brain and kidneys. She spent years taking care of him, then had to raise their children on her own. So I'm nervous about staying with someone who drinks daily. &#x200B; Thanks for your perspectives.",4.3143258426966336,5.788609224719102,5.084664794007492,82.38587359550563,70.98501872659178,7.886816479400749,26.08408239700375,8.395991825355821,1.6933372284644186,1081,34,208,17,20,350,155,267,0.106,0.8220000000000001,0.071,-0.8908,1,0,8,0,0,0,44.0,1,1,1,0,8,9,1,2,10,0,21,16,5,2,2,33,38,18,1,7,12,2,1,1,1,2,4,0,0,2,16,9,9,1,3,9,1,1,3,6,0,0,8,2,32,3,30,27,5,35,0,2,1,0,37,12,0,10,18,136,48,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1805007422025284,0.0,0.0,0.09319164650827418,0.0,0.0,0.27450158971955624,0.3078445831302388,0.05742826212881825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15789695760650047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05147936803105947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09427308888292554,0.08623194041017322,0.0,0.08610145307166517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0934412875062548,0.0,0.10892532513888444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08764479980613821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.172841433329031,0.0,0.4136396827697488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28460792822785896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09259404420968884,0.0,0.0,0.08824230505708884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09303016928526127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0756497774496547,0.0,0.0,0.08976541027830624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08922507692826379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041257548942553714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.071795577694955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08484043954238994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08975599460532749,0.062079781821741876,0.0,0.06513232736930966,0.0,0.0,0.15849945918148498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08061619102688371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07983166562061679,0.0952036354757808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2720000845842809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06729497354637347,0.07687925983123467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0715534212773921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1800229403855078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12699037865484594,0.0,0.0,0.07774935573360871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057335373796460226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07293688044683469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0677399484684624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08140588798973758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11998038990452126,0.0,0.3078445831302388,0.1631472930811928 alcoholism,daddy299G,2018/12/05,"Question about recovering alcoholic Anonymous for reasons. I started drinking a long time ago and went on a serious binge, including going into DTs during withdrawal. I’ve been sober for quite some time. And don’t have any fear that I will go down the same path again. The holidays are coming up, and I would like to be able to have one glass of wine. I mean one and only one. The only thing is, would one glass of wine trigger all the withdrawal symptoms I have had before? Or would I be okay if I limited it to one glass. Again, I am not asking for your judgement, just your opinion. 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I have recently stopped drinking cold turkey after quite a few years of heavy daily drinking.....so my problem is that I have missed 2 periods. I'm not pregnant. Took a couple tests already. So could this irregular cycle be caused by stopping cold turkey? Has anyone else experience this? ,3.0440000000000005,6.125569733333336,4.0516666666666685,79.37250000000002,85.0,5.666666666666668,27.5,7.1686216300943375,2.0285,264,12,41,4,8,85,48,60,0.16,0.84,0.0,-0.787,0,0,2,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,0,7,1,0,1,0,7,10,1,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,2,0,2,0,2,2,2,0,0,1,2,3,0,3,7,1,8,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,22,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26991848431775634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17102766405079595,0.25061817187009605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2512681356454624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19529052111855288,0.2706415396807981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23961159698358844,0.0,0.0,0.2043291141810355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2392624570197265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23965278311447846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23404595947718584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26015864407829115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24150968240735246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4089875015497349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2717558767812406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15751222246123558 alcoholism,aloewitch,2018/12/05,"I’m a disgrace my dudes I feel like I’m betraying this very sub by drinking as I read it, let alone write this post. I’ve made a little bit of progress, though. Since subbing here, I’ve not bought any booze for myself. Small victories? 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I hide alcohol from my spouse and when she finds it we argue. I am sick of this. I go to a therapist once a month for other issues but I think those tie into what my problem is. How do I quit? I have tried cold turkey, I have taken ""a month off"", I have ""only done it on the weekends""... It's easy to say ""just stop"" but it's not easy to just stop. What got you there? What worked? What didn't?",-1.8220588235294133,0.08173032352941334,0.8286666666666669,101.23300000000002,98.70588235294115,3.896470588235295,12.682352941176472,5.6839178017228535,-1.2271576470588237,351,6,88,3,15,119,68,102,0.17600000000000002,0.748,0.076,-0.7995,0,0,2,0,0,0,23.0,1,1,0,2,7,3,1,0,5,0,9,3,0,1,0,16,13,6,0,2,5,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,13,3,2,2,2,2,0,1,2,3,0,0,4,2,14,0,10,9,1,12,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,1,7,63,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2294960262583309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13849211351287447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21975766768482136,0.0,0.2103673643444646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19627212394151208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12204396295584614,0.0,0.17175039260009067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22413694188109276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34281322117593194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286953495997076,0.0,0.16332248736814792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41096200893865104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22840667544955376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17077304656357048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3590711961939734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2493343333052869,0.0,0.13759928306553892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14579707861322394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15633618828007528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Hersheyshaka,2019/07/29,Relapse So I was sober for 37 days and I relapsed Saturday night and I’ve been binge drinking ever since...I knew I was going to fall off the wagon eventually it’s just so hard to stop this binge I’m on..currently having a beer while writing this,-0.14132352941176407,2.155128470588238,2.1668382352941187,90.88202205882357,97.62745098039215,4.9029411764705895,20.100490196078432,6.6274283507984215,0.5446254901960783,196,7,40,3,8,66,40,51,0.098,0.902,0.0,-0.5155,1,0,2,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,4,2,0,0,1,7,7,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,1,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,1,3,0,4,3,0,9,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,6,23,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2913773119432529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4425976006032922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4086841394013839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2567716021004373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.404729180735158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4239890613305488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3777298117900491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,contextual_clues,2019/07/29,"One of the most infuriating things about drinking... ...is that no matter how much money I’ve blown over the years at bars, not a single one of those bartenders truly, honestly cared about me as a person. At the end of the day all I have is the debt to show for it, and no one really in my life. I know there has to be a more articulate way to word that, but it’s the truth. No one cares if I’m dead or alive. So it’s like, might as well keep drinking :/",3.3568384879725097,3.221310061855672,4.826340206185567,89.2546993127148,72.09278350515464,8.116151202749142,22.352233676975946,7.793537801064563,0.5628089347079039,344,6,85,4,6,116,69,97,0.165,0.631,0.204,0.5301,1,1,2,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,6,6,0,0,9,0,6,4,0,1,2,14,11,8,1,1,4,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,7,1,3,1,1,4,2,0,4,0,1,4,0,0,4,6,15,9,5,8,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,4,4,62,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4205813597216829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330173873979443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4041026812157191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18268067655438405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1833288870069416,0.0,0.0,0.11335233304379097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14568397929544855,0.1007657560587295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2188039204069724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15162112901905214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5590548004980928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18009387713302313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13213221007286433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1370266318657376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1637155884022469,0.0,0.0,0.18544798100071824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1328214331487297 alcoholism,thatstheting,2019/07/29,I was set on drinking vodka alone because of my anxiety while my family was away but I resisted it! As a teen it’s weird for me to feel so tempted to drink but I’m proud of myself because I have never been so tempted to drink than last night and I stopped myself. I truly feel stronger.,2.311,3.8810281000000018,4.036666666666669,87.495,76.33333333333334,6.8000000000000025,27.0,7.554174236665415,1.4829,226,9,47,3,5,76,42,60,0.113,0.7040000000000001,0.183,0.8147,0,1,4,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,0,4,3,0,0,1,7,7,7,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,1,2,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,2,10,1,10,4,0,8,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,5,34,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2481886724839583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1833194414853511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22514413860012195,0.0,0.0,0.2921574636732094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7042506068820924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2259057160144313,0.0,0.2423324167173909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1953337866438828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18482060187558835,0.0,0.0,0.22488038295312485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2003448496090664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,AVH1311,2019/07/29,Using alcohol as a suppressant. I have always liked to drink my entire life. I am barely 22 years old but I feel like I may have became addicted. For the past 6 weeks I have been sober for maybe a total of 3-5 days. I have been going through the worst 2 months of my entire life. I know I need to cut out alcohol but how can I do it when it helps numb the pain of everyday life? Should I just become sober forever or how long of a break should I take?,0.3177319587628844,2.2436841237113434,2.547639175257732,94.07403608247424,84.05154639175258,6.35422680412371,16.916494845360827,7.554174236665415,0.11539670103092756,348,7,82,6,10,118,64,97,0.166,0.747,0.087,-0.8645,0,0,3,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,4,6,1,0,6,0,12,9,0,3,1,16,18,7,0,3,4,0,1,2,0,3,8,0,0,0,2,1,3,1,2,1,0,1,0,4,0,0,2,1,13,2,11,13,2,12,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,11,53,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21880510046592727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4289989875293034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16700800035970342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22167002118982404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12944227716374185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19662080382036096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10148573696866132,0.14338829594934102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11406893922247426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345326503336935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1103057607582956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42530528666592304,0.19611494676777336,0.0,0.0,0.17762331223098862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20164162330362168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1602059599831473,0.0,0.0,0.1488249927817692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21061289754869464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21357112799988714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19160178460760688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15091002730549616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17335024489888012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16099861393174086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292515895797017 alcoholism,zamestitel,2019/07/29,"First night without alcohol- When will I sleep normally again? I've been drinking to fall asleep every night for the past few years (4 to 8 shots in mixed drinks a night). I finally decided to stop and took a unisom and had a glass of chamomile tea before bed last night, hoping that would make it easier. I started reading This Naked Mind and it really helped me not crave alcohol, but I tossed and turned all night. It took me forever to fall asleep and then I was up every 10 to 15 minutes. How long will it take for my body to remember how to sleep on its own?",2.171230893000807,4.370115584070799,3.140257441673373,90.84534995977477,79.0,7.294931617055512,21.777152051488336,8.296473431620573,1.1556973451327432,443,13,94,9,11,141,80,113,0.015,0.946,0.039,0.3736,0,0,4,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,4,0,6,10,5,3,1,19,13,10,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,7,5,5,1,2,3,0,4,2,0,0,1,5,0,8,1,14,5,3,23,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,16,55,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2764002588429437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11003891130684937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14364160243125965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2533620947818355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21790964422370185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14166002635853303,0.0,0.10999664321949272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0866781984480095,0.0,0.0,0.12844057321473346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10541029758895484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11444113134144107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08631984197443664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1305729130456989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6067743961832773,0.12670282222262375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12344733763898465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12935160586951594,0.0,0.08284353232079529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14649051144874287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2588200037358564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0915309628250489,0.0,0.0,0.10811447717545923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09722999778964668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28735102589915695,0.0,0.1406593385227227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12465659828953304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09186281014977024,0.0,0.0,0.08327565764534868 alcoholism,feduphubby,2019/07/29,"Wife is putting down 1.75 liters of Grey Goose a week All I need some help here.. (throw away account) My wife is 36 year old, 5'2 and about 135 lbs. For the last year or two, she is up to drinking 1.75 liters a week. She is an angry drunk, not a nice one. She gets violent with me only, she is okay with the kids. I cannot convince her that this is a problem, she think's it's totally normal and doesn't think she has a problem. I've brought it up on our marriage counselling but she simply doesn't respect my opinion and close friends are afraid to tell her how they feel as she can get very angry and obnoxious (sober or not). A few questions: 1) To me this is an insane amount of alcohol (I am 6'2 and about 215lbs, and I would be violently ill if I drank this much) - can someone please confirm this? Am I just crazy or does this not seem sustainable or safe for someone her size (or any size for that matter) 2) Do I literally need to set up an intervention? Again she will not listen to me, and her friends are just not dealing with this. Any advice?",3.1133333333333333,4.2203160740740735,3.7694444444444457,92.08250000000002,73.44444444444444,6.881481481481483,25.537037037037038,7.1686216300943375,0.8593759259259257,816,26,185,8,16,258,125,216,0.174,0.7440000000000001,0.08199999999999999,-0.9674,0,0,2,0,0,0,33.0,1,0,1,0,7,12,2,1,11,1,21,5,0,1,2,43,32,16,0,7,14,2,1,0,2,2,2,1,0,1,10,11,4,1,5,2,1,3,8,5,0,2,2,3,27,7,22,27,6,18,0,0,1,0,26,7,0,10,7,122,37,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15869510666203734,0.0,0.173555889703599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22087472896294688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525798634112019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16742695908372546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14211707129407825,0.0,0.0,0.15908987915244724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08211416755671634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2509392097369911,0.0,0.16969428022069286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10885309523604636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13237743016997355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11938246497167923,0.2408346386188833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1591172246426845,0.0,0.0,0.1704111658987066,0.0,0.11004623921730296,0.12351228936694825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1782661021726578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31078915944034485,0.0,0.16325655294541613,0.18192483019000572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1478425869827497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2752014765058459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14194449528903022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20811833986297676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15864090866640826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13399675983674467,0.0,0.0,0.26053448604058443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11536408694375,0.0,0.0,0.2091601637971444 alcoholism,stealmysunshinex11,2019/07/29,My First Relapse Hey everyone. I was doing well for 8 months and i relapsed the other night. Does anyone have any advice or has gone through this before? It wasn’t a significant even just had some drinks but i feel so shitty and i feel like a failure.,0.4407999999999994,2.867038180000001,1.9515,92.20325,97.2,4.1000000000000005,18.25,5.985473137389443,-0.05020000000000024,199,6,39,2,8,64,43,50,0.201,0.684,0.115,-0.826,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,3,0,6,1,0,0,0,8,9,5,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,1,1,4,2,5,2,2,5,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,4,29,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3011870206674568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.209598780190353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2155131621503599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2622707803148561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2697236114545389,0.0,0.0,0.3019362583265689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20357505390661568,0.0,0.0,0.29451546656558114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3116885202221801,0.2201909702613241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2621700370039511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1505797252336424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2460166329251797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2892416736445087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771249590778287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,koyanisat,2019/07/29,"Life getting better Hi, first time poster here. I'm from Chile (sorry for the awful english) and sober for three weeks now. I started drinking when I was 14 (21 now), from the start i loved drinking, it killed all my introvert aspects and made me loosen up. Met most of my life friends while drunk and drinking became a rule when going out. I was always the drunkest in all parties and it pretty much became my personality. Drinking became my reason to get through the week and I got drunk every friday and saturday for 6-7 years. Every now and then I treated people like shit, made a lot of mistakes, lost a lot of friends, and this year alcohol mixed with depression made me drop out of university. After two months of lying after dropping out I decided to get some help. I'm going to a therapist and taking medication, starting working out, ended relationships that were harming me and kept the ones that support my mental health. I now feel soo much better mentally and physically, sun's brighter, hangovers are gone, and the guilt is slowly fading. Still miss drinking tho, the parties and the lack of social anxiety, but I don't think i'm going back to that any time soon. Reading some posts has helped me a lot this past three weeks and I would love to help you guys back. Thanks for reading.",5.577106842737098,6.865574653061228,5.683649459783915,79.98256902761106,67.77551020408163,7.887154861944777,30.33013205282113,8.124751697461798,2.1701572629051613,1030,39,184,13,17,325,146,245,0.109,0.75,0.142,0.9118,0,1,6,0,0,0,31.0,0,1,0,5,12,18,2,1,13,1,8,15,1,4,2,39,36,20,1,3,1,0,1,1,2,1,5,0,0,2,7,19,8,1,4,9,0,4,1,8,0,5,11,1,20,10,27,24,11,43,0,3,0,2,14,6,1,6,31,120,27,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09874513134417452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07688235828258408,0.0,0.0,0.06283366170777338,0.0,0.07068405200548185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1420963853425496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16343666298875648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07958207613553825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4525732615374185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0818370116816377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15569823653644602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046719095931881616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.078593508035019,0.0,0.0,0.1427725977332171,0.0,0.14482208599227955,0.0,0.15753537019773725,0.0,0.07389894871913427,0.0,0.0,0.09148833311219916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09821452388433337,0.0,0.0,0.1857968612530544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10222445834135642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13052657500838416,0.045140890165426766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10086309626059888,0.23565987584021944,0.16678521537305538,0.2622870524714089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09308104683676724,0.18623046855600328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07375102981833899,0.0,0.13584600561758198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06261112984412705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08820414004153812,0.06405698959495755,0.08067818121058379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08849153615240388,0.09400176412956228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1848455766956867,0.0,0.0,0.09500031098190666,0.0,0.09920064132022598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09484499768454993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09418790505968172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10343175468853176,0.19619888166647315,0.0,0.07378898981338135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10485191054144767,0.0,0.0,0.06947163466867763,0.0,0.0,0.0850674656531423,0.0,0.10728094900923801,0.0,0.059204769253287486,0.0,0.0,0.10775578201505352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09025920923557593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.222347787398923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06726668734641428,0.0,0.0,0.0656367348703415,0.0,0.0,0.1190022872827334 alcoholism,Myriam12345,2019/07/29,"What makes you drink? Dear all, My boyfriend is a high-functional alcoholic. I am trying to understand him better. One of the things i struggle with, is the promises he makes and he can not keep. E.g. he tells me he will go for a walk around noon and tells me he wont go to a bar, just walking. Instead he goes to the supermarket and buys beer and will drink them in the park. I have asked him to be honest with me. I am not getting angry when he tells me beforehand he will drink. But it makes me sad when he lies to me. Any idea about why he would tell me explicitly that he will just go for a walk, but instead will drink? What are the reasons for you the reasons to have the first drink in the day? Is it a voice saying that its ok to have a drink? Is it to deal with withdraw symptoms? Is it to feel better?",1.9853109243697489,3.41428309411765,3.0280672268907587,94.98058823529414,76.88235294117648,6.26890756302521,22.142857142857146,6.868970318607317,0.28840336134453803,626,17,148,6,14,200,86,170,0.033,0.867,0.1,0.89,0,0,8,0,0,0,21.0,0,2,1,3,8,8,0,1,14,1,20,10,0,5,2,26,31,8,0,1,6,0,1,0,0,7,2,2,0,0,10,8,9,1,5,8,1,6,3,2,0,2,0,3,17,6,20,23,1,14,0,1,0,0,23,3,0,0,5,98,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12194966814308307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07759921009948369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10158274346435243,0.10667812966281233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2018433369076439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07359198134576042,0.11764315306922407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6707104437895138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057697814234300926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09706252948983228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05961814719752408,0.0,0.19455527431981265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12056425240882372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12881712568608586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10142686077867116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285093970681278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07732438453032885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2346496731540716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09074543335564488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11929331213067408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186047417211015,0.0,0.0,0.3989512340905755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07581009921633436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07747369591968363,0.0,0.0,0.1187932952956177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10296718593309023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0810609893011793,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,khoaticpeach,2019/07/29,Tips on trying to detox at home? I’ve been drinking a lot lately and realized I need to stop but I’m having trouble because I’m going through withdrawals. Usually weed helps me get out of the drinking habit but it’s been hard to come by lately. What are some other ways to help detox?,1.837298850574712,4.1509631896551715,3.0317241379310365,90.54402298850576,80.89655172413794,5.2459770114942526,23.459770114942533,6.42735559955562,0.6604045977011492,227,8,45,2,6,73,46,58,0.111,0.77,0.12,0.3736,0,0,2,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,4,4,0,0,0,10,10,3,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,3,3,2,1,1,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,2,1,2,0,10,8,2,10,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,2,4,26,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416527007010517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20016915480573627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4552750386998512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12140553881587204,0.0,0.1320631889146642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2081609719200853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3115100558892293,0.0,0.2330895208614178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5242547550081789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19755560077479176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17230197169300898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19427461247687894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15776632182183675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2559265300255302,0.0,0.0,0.1844472316327272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,sumbo1,2019/07/29,"What is the longest bender you’ve been on? I’m talking drunk 24/7. Like morning, day and night, wake up still drunk and repeat. And how bad were your withdrawals? I know a lot of alcoholics who drink everyday but stick to night time drinking or subtly drink throughout the day but my alcoholism was so crippling and viscous I’d go on 3 week benders where I’d be drunk around the clock. Something like going for a social drink over lunch with a friend would spiral me into a 3 week bender and next thing you know I’m sleeping in my car in the forest somewhere just so I can continue to drink. The only time I’d come out of hiding would be to get more booze. I’m surprised I’m alive",2.818695652173915,4.719716884057976,3.4312318840579716,90.9451086956522,75.81159420289855,5.759420289855073,23.818840579710145,6.42735559955562,0.5999014492753618,542,17,110,4,12,170,90,138,0.083,0.804,0.113,0.7396,0,0,8,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,0,0,7,5,0,0,9,0,9,14,2,1,0,20,19,11,0,2,4,0,0,2,1,2,2,0,0,0,3,10,12,0,2,8,0,4,0,1,0,0,3,0,7,4,16,12,2,28,0,0,0,0,6,10,0,2,16,60,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29346773049937164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12222770933417365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11464126570724024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11827334090556045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17709660122365303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6725174504308371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10607902805918644,0.0,0.07173452220512347,0.0,0.15606355113741932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15091495416889533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13415744563036355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11672907816849196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1460220191619981,0.2576968715130116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10442420395874452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13740095508984318,0.1399618915995587,0.0,0.1057016315772782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10964939274270256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11035798382943693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09121721323524457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1601235644009722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22027043987307865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19507051494670447,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ZurcX,2019/07/29,Anyone else stomach messed up from alcohol? Like constant shits and diarrhea?,6.690000000000001,10.627188000000004,5.433333333333334,66.79500000000002,85.66666666666666,9.066666666666668,39.333333333333336,8.841846274778883,5.769033333333336,64,4,7,2,2,19,12,12,0.33799999999999997,0.518,0.14400000000000002,-0.5204,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,3,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44227272016714014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2893689167454119,0.4240314531175849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4472176780346584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3457130444847506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2021829736054852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4248042870486971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,lost-marbles69,2019/07/29,"This may not be the right reddit to post this to but I think I can find the best answers here as alcohol might be becoming a problem for me What are the proven/from experience effects of drinking while being on mood stabilizers, SSRIs, benzos, stimulants etc. also not looking for being told I’m over medicated please bc I’ve spent years trying different medications and am going to the best psychiatrist I’ve been to, and I’ve been to quacks. The medications I’m on are necessary and are finally what keep me stable, despite what it may look like bc of my drinking. I’m looking for legit advice from people on these meds (or people bipolar) that drink or have drank on them. I’ve drank for years while being on medication (not excessively tho) and I don’t feel like there are effects but that could be me being naive",6.100000000000001,6.8826957197452225,6.917713375796177,73.42943630573252,66.32484076433121,9.846878980891722,30.98662420382165,9.888512548439397,3.0004858598726116,656,24,118,14,10,218,92,157,0.037000000000000005,0.8190000000000001,0.14400000000000002,0.9620000000000001,1,0,4,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,4,4,6,0,0,6,0,21,11,0,3,0,24,35,13,0,2,7,0,1,2,0,3,6,0,0,0,9,4,6,1,6,3,1,1,4,1,0,0,6,4,8,4,19,18,3,14,0,0,3,0,2,7,0,5,7,83,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262875803358464,0.0,0.13811360554663976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.103349701691187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14273062062196773,0.0,0.0,0.27124968051748066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10318414960366888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13502374663913744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.379805206033317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14413191036507475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12641726294886446,0.0,0.0,0.06534542715368205,0.0923259733586173,0.0,0.14157133632299784,0.1181190417447376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07344759747630081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11487058271436458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12627602016349446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3255761886041432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14355167177720407,0.520765279733055,0.0,0.13709860048615627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17919145324920602,0.0,0.0,0.14186193369674438,0.0,0.0,0.1237720275622516,0.0,0.0,0.12366106229071812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11036653798353056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08280898547420665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12349020074512422,0.0,0.08774252231614954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16644704140023386 alcoholism,rawhead0508,2019/07/29,"Fell off the was almost 3 months ago, after almost 3 years sober. I fell off the wagon almost 3 months ago, after living clean and healthy for almost 3 years. I’m broke, behind on bills, my guts hurt, and I’m depressed as fuck. Since Friday morning I’ve drank a total of 55 beers. I need help, I hate living like this,",1.8122051282051324,3.721037015384617,2.976538461538464,93.01762820512822,78.84615384615384,4.333333333333334,15.448717948717947,3.1291,-1.03074358974359,246,3,51,0,6,79,44,65,0.228,0.625,0.147,-0.7806,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,3,0,1,4,1,0,1,8,7,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,1,2,0,5,0,0,2,0,4,1,9,5,1,13,0,3,0,1,1,3,1,4,9,21,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.312662527275178,0.0,0.7063906771458109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15189740920681208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1630406897426189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1741176121107664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11820945633968627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18879553560622603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08615990683303644,0.0,0.3114557608486155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.281535514018524,0.0,0.0,0.13076767195810346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458856615914834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22713832065836076 alcoholism,MaterialAirline,2019/10/28,"Am I [M27] an alcoholic just like my mum? So I'm here for advice. I had a really troubled childhood because my mum was an alcoholic and it affected my youth and growing up a lot. I always loved drinking when I went out and had a lot of situations in which I had to much. The thing is: When I start drinking I can rarely stop until I'm completely wasted. I rarely have alcohol in my house but when I do I drink it straight away. Six pack of beer? No problem. Hard alcohol? No problem. As long as there is no alcohol around which can be the case for weeks I don't feel the urge to drink. But why is it that when I start drinking (either in my own or with friends) I just can't stop? Is this is a sign for alcoholism? Or am I just unable to set boundaries for myself? I'm not even denying the fact that I drink so much on my own around my friends as we are pretty close. So what is it I'm facing? To be clear it hasn't always been like this. Just started a couple months ago. Thank you in advance for your advice!",0.4704347826086952,2.5637790563380314,2.37009593794652,94.56479485609309,84.72769953051643,5.582282098387426,20.997958767095326,6.895973343053719,0.3714925086752397,781,25,178,10,23,259,111,213,0.10300000000000001,0.745,0.153,0.9009,0,0,13,0,0,0,24.0,1,2,0,1,16,9,0,0,11,0,23,15,1,1,2,30,34,18,0,2,10,2,2,2,2,0,6,0,0,0,13,9,13,2,1,7,0,3,7,3,0,1,6,2,26,6,26,26,7,32,0,0,0,1,8,12,0,4,18,132,39,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17802121704977505,0.08074444163483757,0.5840753006390376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15158582476072524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16217611831756118,0.0,0.0,0.08558062549337675,0.0,0.0,0.055526692009778604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0955045383428554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1007876706883148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5353921964462548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060163082023117674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04605707243578383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407494675246163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08159738655923086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10510387624970173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0890024606296395,0.0,0.0,0.08061043849179236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1548803368342302,0.08221090961236456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07270595577254971,0.0,0.13392102728107913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09266973115060333,0.0,0.1743187473551822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058353612799090224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10238726807816792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19341868511128515,0.0,0.0,0.1523080960537261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08386203434304194,0.0,0.0,0.060515138698182175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0730656843552781,0.0,0.0,0.08443993361928373,0.08219318537390723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,totallynotademogorge,2019/10/28,"Dating a recovering alcoholic Hello, I am writing to ask for advice. I recently started dating a man who admitted to me early on that he is a recovering alcoholic. At first, I was shocked, but he was very sweet and I decided to continue giving it a chance. We have now been dating officially for about 3 months (seeing each other for 4) and I find myself falling for him. He has not relapsed and is staying sober and will be 9 months sober soon. The reason I write is because I read very recently that recovering alcoholics should not date for at least 1 year when beginning sobriety. I certainly don't encourage drinking and I barely drink myself, but I worry that I am setting myself up for heartbreak. I've already told him that if he starts drinking again, I'm done. Honestly, I just need advice. Alcoholism is a disease I still feel I know very little about. Thanks.",4.751594746716698,6.663965829268296,6.0946341463414635,73.83648217636025,70.58536585365854,9.436397748592867,31.51782363977486,9.851270322608157,3.476853283302064,692,31,117,18,13,233,104,164,0.09699999999999999,0.769,0.134,0.7323,0,0,7,0,0,0,19.0,1,0,0,1,8,7,0,0,6,0,16,7,0,1,1,24,29,9,0,3,6,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,7,7,7,0,6,4,0,1,3,2,0,1,5,3,21,5,15,21,2,28,0,1,1,0,17,5,0,1,20,84,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2500592976845277,0.0,0.5469515072159079,0.0,0.0,0.14119418816694115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11961443744477858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07799612785945652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13093558690550794,0.0,0.3760220238009443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06469453123375374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11694247582901293,0.1088328029239976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1227397181034191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07031706816933464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282378620307957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20425430787705184,0.0,0.0,0.09487208184591013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1279829767296472,0.0,0.0,0.1315522157148846,0.2526671237662896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10195827108551372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18112500430953127,0.13637591925635,0.10217971925546787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11779765219981292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.122260133526693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3167123709252421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12993776230663912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08239454379346398 alcoholism,idolovetodrink,2019/10/28,"40 days Hey all, 40 days I posted in here (different account) that I was done. And I've stayed with it. I had about a week of physical symptoms, but nothing I felt required treatment. It ran the gamut but stopped short of the Full Blown Stuff. Since then, yes I have daily cravings, but I'm shocked how easy it's becoming. For the first time in 22 years and my entire adult life, I just don't want it, anymore. I love alcohol, but I don't want it to kill me. Sobriety is a totally new experience for me. I find I'm enjoying exploring the sensation. For years I felt as if I was careening from moment to moment, and for a little over a month now, I haven't felt that I'm careening anymore. Suddenly I'm present in a way with my kids and my wife that I've literally never been. I was already losing weight but now it's just melting away. My wife seems to think I am a completely different person, not just in the sense that I'm becoming the person again that I used to be (though that is true) but also in the sense that I have not had an identity without alcohol as a part of it at any time in my life. We are beginning to have a sex life again, and it has been *awhile.* I'm feeling feelings again, and finding I can manage them much more readily now- the volatility is fading. The chronic arthritis pain has gone from a 9 to a 1, and I've found that the very stuff I was using to cover it was making it far worse between body weight and simple alcohol inflammation. I can take acetaminophen and ibuprofen for the arthritis, which I couldn't before because I was trying to minimize liver damage and not compromise the drinking. These crazy decisions I've made for years and years all seem so strange now as clarity increases. Anyway. I'm shooting for 90 days now. Thanks.",3.4387167070217903,5.012948694915256,4.67404761904762,84.07029661016949,73.3502824858757,8.333979015334947,28.46206618240517,8.942964678507748,2.289365940274415,1394,56,280,29,28,460,180,354,0.105,0.818,0.077,-0.8408,2,0,4,1,0,1,42.0,1,0,1,3,18,9,1,0,23,1,28,17,2,5,5,56,56,26,1,4,14,2,7,0,0,0,10,0,0,4,22,14,6,2,13,1,1,4,9,5,0,1,18,7,30,4,37,36,8,50,0,2,0,2,10,13,0,3,30,188,52,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30703490639642633,0.0,0.0,0.1056804092638832,0.076584214517366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06512431610002971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1899487215760844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0899755196254924,0.0,0.0,0.058378201115755576,0.21153254027905294,0.08149000287842455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10637468561410847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10040906355207946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1852838752911744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2001106419919539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.098002096198324,0.0,0.09381444067308904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09367774290537388,0.0,0.0,0.09684456034174008,0.0,0.2758517787899805,0.0,0.17505718707528853,0.08145870098240023,0.0,0.10500272131804432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1059511376105782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20292754789226208,0.0,0.09598291486698006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10713790830235087,0.0,0.0,0.08643275587918382,0.09061631642358953,0.06392469797657978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07643968611808646,0.0,0.07039919344435837,0.0,0.07386081554087284,0.09249161563538724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0918902744981143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10190201406935401,0.0,0.0,0.10370548794903686,0.0,0.0,0.1672387453708919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09171757010388276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17436394671163874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07921880989017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10207405239448664,0.0,0.08006485116578163,0.0,0.0,0.21925882860474905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09953777468746153,0.07200428199124083,0.0,0.0,0.08816867221249802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06136312929544605,0.09408982858288777,0.0,0.11168411037687592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06501897965253423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16542253871151516,0.0,0.07901716402741431,0.11297079994631372,0.07601477084594516,0.07681788814650742,0.23323492186411265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09231522224989844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09759396351808527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2466812330521397 alcoholism,bilbobaggins79,2019/10/28,"So I royally fucked up this morning. I had a few beers before coming home from work. Was very coherent and remembering everything about coming home. Got Taco Bell, came home, ate it, watched tv and went to sleep. Then I was woken up by my landlord and a strange man, asking me what was goin on. I guess after I feel asleep I drunken slept walk outside my apartment pissed in this dudes trash can one apartment down and then rammed his door until the frame of the door gave way and let me in. Thank god the landlord and the tenant (said he was a lawyer) was really nice about it. There just gonna bill me for the damages. That could have turned out waaaaaaaay worse could have went to jail, could have lost my job, coulda got shot. So I guess today marks the day that I am done drinking. It just real shitty that I had made it home and in bed then drunken slept walk into that guys place.",3.108761904761902,5.014551685714288,3.0525714285714294,93.95676190476192,75.0,5.80952380952381,21.38095238095238,6.42735559955562,0.14166666666666616,695,17,147,5,15,209,112,175,0.124,0.8340000000000001,0.042,-0.9421,2,0,2,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,2,7,6,2,0,9,0,17,9,5,1,0,23,40,13,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,10,2,11,12,3,0,2,3,1,7,0,4,0,1,21,3,16,2,19,14,1,27,0,2,1,1,7,12,2,2,7,89,27,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12043585653060432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10962229017003647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1473437704167834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22194611025212332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.308573635115921,0.0,0.0,0.08308275871704343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13183475085591015,0.0,0.12620141703698345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11578140261104768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06513880304440778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1190984874855947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2060694441871493,0.0,0.2838349336401982,0.12755898616158629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5168959477890578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12784092118173954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13173433787156658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1406298908555031,0.0,0.0,0.1218992242268849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08729651064418989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13459679769113267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.146633332129594,0.08252987630399919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14593587997622776,0.0,0.1225439800166523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12892003934964386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11860659501515712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12211293457797452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14012678460317987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10629576852941744,0.0,0.10225687780763676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23884784308765325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09378759179964644,0.0,0.1312857210667254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,tropicalsadness,2019/10/28,"I have no clue whether I’m an alcoholic or not What makes me concerned is not the amount of alcohol I drink, but rather the reason why I drink. I’m only motivated to do it when I’m depressed. As soon as I feel my thoughts getting dark, I run to the fridge for the beer. As of right now, I probably drink 3 nights a week on average and it’s usually 4-5 tallboys. I know it’s going to take me a while to kick the habit, but in the meantime should I be concerned about the volume of intake? Is this how alcoholism starts?",3.725688311688312,3.9114582181818207,5.12766233766234,86.2886363636364,71.36363636363636,8.83116883116883,29.350649350649352,8.841846274778883,2.0175194805194803,404,15,92,7,7,136,74,110,0.064,0.8959999999999999,0.04,-0.3421,0,0,7,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,6,1,0,0,10,0,6,7,0,4,0,16,17,11,0,2,7,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,5,1,7,0,5,4,0,2,3,1,0,0,1,1,11,0,14,14,1,13,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,1,8,60,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5850358649301779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15716679938583664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.536272697000034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0922656348561223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0953364745809587,0.0,0.10370563794571462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10028434880257574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12180452512732287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17124189640757165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1387816515719212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1967406018035018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18761630184485556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1558339908005176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291578530073472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13719966855831192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448660110121317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20097215796205567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14637169487131876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16465671889901642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,juicyknark,2019/10/28,"Do i have a problem? Im a 21M. Been a heavy weed smoker since i was atleast 16-17. But stopped smoking about 6 months ago. Ive noticed when i stopped smoking i started to drink more, not a crazy amount, but more than i feel is normal. But for the last months, ive been drinking 2-4 times a week. But the thing is, i only drink 1-3 beers. I drink it because i really like the taste. Night sound weird, but i dont enjoy the buzz that much (why i only drink 1-3 beers) and i would love to drink alcohol free beer, if it only tasted the same.. so What im really wondering, is drinking 1-3 beers 4 days a week considerd a problem? (Sorry not english native) And Sorry if the text was long and unnecessary",0.5611711711711713,2.4950807027027047,2.689081081081081,93.35681981981985,83.18918918918921,5.568288288288289,21.353153153153148,6.742157984588678,0.3534228828828829,536,17,122,6,15,181,84,148,0.11,0.774,0.115,0.6922,0,0,13,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,0,13,0,13,15,0,0,0,21,17,12,0,6,9,0,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,5,3,14,2,2,11,1,0,3,3,0,0,4,4,13,5,5,12,5,14,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,15,65,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0933794857953159,0.11257875286341704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06421561463310542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06793699078322152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12346024936624382,0.7223666193716034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05326417093502468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2275752604893382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08586793580587235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051464867672871256,0.0,0.0,0.09322451358497966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09507542947768184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1681662446810065,0.0,0.07743862247040477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0988564990173636,0.10321296926283527,0.0,0.11993276911702028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2403524223346742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20159647726745025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13496979475369855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0871401391336715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2358438900389745,0.07456173656542768,0.0,0.0,0.17614155728862185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0699846629694245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06142587177688037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1689982838753072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09505493171660072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11423909964545073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07483206162311451,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,87Grand,2019/10/28,"Appreciate all of you From one human being to another. True appreciation and love. This shit isn't easy. I've spent hours scrolling and reading and coming to terms. I have a problem. Alcoholism runs in my family and right now I'm a victim to it. I've been for years now. Im an alcoholic and I need to stop drinking. Unfortunately I can't have the pleasure of a casual drinking experience. It's become part of my everyday life and when I don't have it, I'm frustrated, pissed at everything whether things are good or bad...bad? Drink...Good? Celebrate....little drink....all of you sharing stories have really made me think about what I'm doing, the stupid excuses I make for it. The denial I've been in. I feel more confident that I can rid it from my life....hearing from all types of ppl, ppl who relapse, ppl who've been sober for years...feeling like yeah, it's about that time. Liquor has really got to go. BAMN...(by any means necessary.)",0.6445186335403719,3.1522764021739142,2.6206832298136677,87.9780434782609,94.7608695652174,6.541614906832298,20.701863354037265,7.7094869923839395,1.3191776397515529,734,26,148,18,28,244,113,184,0.155,0.696,0.149,-0.2665,0,0,6,0,0,0,48.0,0,2,0,0,5,13,5,0,7,1,15,9,2,2,3,20,29,9,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,12,7,5,1,3,5,1,3,3,6,0,1,6,1,13,7,21,22,5,16,0,0,0,1,7,4,2,1,10,84,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29082443425125115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09252893722124636,0.14267612625043086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2272173583407113,0.0,0.15027321829888915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11720803986637512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5331680092058662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1222865427792797,0.13309778146469378,0.12827007144042699,0.0,0.13759721069955289,0.09720493814654896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07732893475127474,0.2282499088942552,0.10882369419356873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1533552621627211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13399672012435965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14697366220979832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1922136150655204,0.0664745373531401,0.13637298072194234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12280406953249623,0.128748092198009,0.09082451410126033,0.0,0.0,0.14821478811725655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10089055122827796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0922012364907554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14734524918766514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13019592942080646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361019260762287,0.0,0.17433358072403707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11619885616008525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13966887489890273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11375652031060116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0903956097250445,0.087185025168732,0.0,0.0,0.07934065688920135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08762146650293448 alcoholism,drbeavi5,2019/10/28,"7 months clean from alcohol today After several unsuccessful attempts at quitting drinking, this is by far the longest stretch I have gone without drinking since going to prison (which I did drink a little there but only once or twice and barely felt anything anyways) since starting 20~ years ago. Oddly enough, it was the night Nipsey Hussle died where I drank myself to stupidity and then decided to get sober the day after (and I'm not the biggest rap fan) ... I still smoke weed and am sort of a slacker though, I need to get a good job but am making ends meet barely by being frugal mostly. Cheers you all, I hope that you all have a blessed day and find some sort of peace and clarity without the effects of alcohol destroying your soul drink by drink.",10.437417840375588,7.959099690140848,9.262535211267608,70.80769953051643,59.140845070422536,11.72018779342723,39.863849765258216,9.725611199111238,3.831996244131455,604,23,106,8,6,188,101,142,0.107,0.728,0.165,0.885,1,0,8,0,0,0,15.0,0,3,0,3,5,6,2,0,9,0,8,8,0,2,2,25,19,11,1,2,6,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,4,6,8,0,4,6,0,2,3,2,0,1,5,1,10,4,16,13,5,21,2,0,0,0,4,6,0,6,13,69,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11642377944416656,0.2807221261037885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10808050957522136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16940511427495816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1363087721595828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.64330932810089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1163270512708941,0.13570792369019194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12610569062048607,0.0,0.1200411371518627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13723803672857185,0.0,0.07464277555841439,0.11016061953796392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13044890385329605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303333338723492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13163582073128344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08766956176323976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10483324904792604,0.0,0.0,0.09738593704309266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12325241609755508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13987136469503164,0.0,0.09988895372623323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13969480995788958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14837527863806033,0.0,0.21728935970948474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0929621650722652,0.0,0.104887207204496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12903954651865945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12449367327272355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25321152339866543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08457777776603664 alcoholism,Shyalcoholic511,2019/10/28,"I Failed Hi again, I was prescribed Valium on Friday 10/25 and I could not get the courage to take it all weekend. Of course I googled the information and that made me paranoid. I ended up just drinking again all weekend. Should I just trust the prescriber? I am feeling like a failure this morning. Do I want to continue to drink all week and wait until the weekend to see if I get any side effects? I am afraid how the Valium will affect me and can't afford to take anymore time off work at this point without being fired. Just feels like a rough Monday morning but I do know something has to change...",3.50957627118644,5.460349618644072,3.9120000000000026,88.03257627118643,74.0,6.07593220338983,27.90169491525424,6.742157984588678,1.2927905084745768,477,19,92,4,10,149,79,118,0.068,0.8390000000000001,0.09300000000000001,0.1921,1,0,3,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,3,6,6,0,1,7,0,11,2,0,4,3,26,22,8,0,4,7,0,4,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,4,2,1,5,5,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,5,13,4,13,16,3,17,0,1,1,0,2,6,0,1,13,64,17,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14732330913433586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21484965911536533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2291774527363733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1729702104937404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4244514083899916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19187962380223045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21908039816173225,0.30953674778963675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22637196224902345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11906022810832305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21167969956516275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20499095263560368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20479576983460904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17263482862707594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16678082614567696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3257741418273912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12632510945046432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12778047494641095,0.0,0.17377634284975754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20883419342841286,0.0,0.15771722839371807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,silviapala,2019/10/28,"Alcoholic Control: How to Stop Drinking & Change Your Life: A Real-Life Guide to Help You Control Alcohol, Find Freedom and Happiness & Recover the Real You Good morning and nice to e-meeting you! [https://www.amazon.com/dp/B07ZJJ2X3R/](https://www.amazon.com/dp/B07ZJJ2X3R/?fbclid=IwAR3023mhJ2qTOT3UWukDh2KSrhnpQbgNofwPG_dF_8Q56h8LuCwu_btPJSw): I wrote this book. Maybe it could give you some tips. This is not an advertising message. It is focused on helping people to recover from their addiction. For any questions, please contact me directly too.",11.93632420091324,17.19210846575342,6.987979452054795,55.79740296803653,73.93150684931506,7.364840182648402,33.480593607305934,8.07648339933343,3.8414484018264847,470,20,50,9,12,125,58,73,0.026000000000000002,0.6990000000000001,0.275,0.9656,0,0,3,0,0,0,39.0,0,5,1,2,2,3,0,0,3,0,3,5,0,3,0,13,5,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,4,2,3,3,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,8,3,7,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,13,1,0,2,1,31,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18591608028029694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.364515315391764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3695646246148345,0.0,0.11597448756636662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18041094650290834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3825549709766355,0.13616400313114338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16706634840779294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1558724051296172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16359953840625505,0.0,0.14304263626083694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18154525455762568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22862157204287806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12045894062956965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17133247874997906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11823243053810785,0.0,0.0,0.18720403141633998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910462012195484,0.0,0.0,0.3882285306920025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14258084602019644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,JesusFuckingChrist90,2019/10/28,"Fiance is an alcoholic So last night my fiance of several years dropped the bombshell that he's an alcoholic and has been lying to me about it for a significant amount of time. We have a 4 month old baby, which is why he came clean. He is currently staying with family so as not to detox around us. I guess a lot of things make sense now. His drinking had been an issue for me for some time, but I was concerned that it could develop into a problem, I had no idea that it had already gone that far. He ""gave up"" drink while I was pregnant for a month and had also ""cut down"" at my request. It turns out that this was entirely untrue and he is a functioning alcoholic who is very good at lying to me. I am there to support him through this and our relationship will be fine as long as he can beat it. I have no desire to bring up our child around an alcoholic like I was. I will leave if I have to. I guess I would like to know what to expect. I am under no illusion that this is going to be an easy journey for either of us, but there is a better chance if I am armed with as much info as possible. Thank you for reading.",4.398424908424907,4.239746205128206,5.602930402930403,84.6623076923077,69.85470085470085,9.07887667887668,27.825396825396822,8.841846274778883,1.8213807081807083,868,26,193,14,14,291,130,234,0.09,0.763,0.146,0.9336,1,0,6,0,0,0,21.0,5,1,0,2,9,9,1,0,13,0,31,8,1,1,0,31,43,17,0,7,6,0,0,2,0,3,5,0,1,1,18,12,6,0,3,3,0,5,4,2,0,0,13,0,26,7,38,24,5,30,0,0,0,0,19,11,0,6,14,149,44,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.514105989311421,0.0,0.0,0.13271519839497206,0.09617571784961744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2141223408842517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1063644432031901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375508933501955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09602165750306577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2356274392381144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11337495101934285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0683492578693659,0.10087240909144653,0.0,0.0,0.2649704739858863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13576432156296755,0.0,0.12552520638996545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06609438939237462,0.09803186428340864,0.0,0.12734305931366038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1175106138448822,0.0,0.0,0.10643056430645573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10224483303684942,0.0,0.0,0.08027768848923097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19198843341115335,0.0,0.08840846652556512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11286036870750482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12619767785421707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13558049292507174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11507717236952847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12029734628858553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12911938834863615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13586499303117866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12818627604560906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13647507088784613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1107236706065816,0.0,0.0,0.07989858982576735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14025474512709518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13081356849995684,0.0,0.0,0.28932749539791824,0.0,0.0,0.09923105591236812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10852027684207133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08543266401174096,0.0,0.0,0.07744658875961498 alcoholism,AFireDownBelow,2019/10/28,"I Caved Tonight After the longest day of my life, (a community service day sentenced from my DUI) where we all had to sit “in the yard” as they say, for 4 and a half hours with no phones, no outside contact, no sleeping, no lying down, etc, I finally was able to leave. I felt great. But then I had to run a bunch of errands, and was exhausted (lack of sleep from coming off a binge) the whole day already, I was at my wits end. So much to catch up on, to remember what I had to catch up on, I drove home, crying most of the way. I thought of all the things I had fucked up over the years, all the cost alcohol had caused me, all the trust and love I had gave it...and it had fucked me royally. When I got home, I had no electricity, and a whole new list of bullshit began. I still had 7 beers left from my taper...and I just couldn’t resist. I haven’t been back to AA yet, hadn’t truly started the journey of sobriety other than waning off one of the biggest and longest benders I’ve ever done. There’s been countless of those. I feel awful, that I’ve failed all the people that have believed in me. I’m going through hell...but I need to keep going. This community has truly helped the past week and been incredible. I thank you all. Truly. I love all of you.",3.1982758620689644,3.8533165862068977,4.442011494252874,89.04163793103449,72.79310344827587,7.3325670498084285,25.61111111111111,7.3871296695380915,1.0006260536398468,963,29,218,10,18,318,147,261,0.152,0.7490000000000001,0.1,-0.8807,0,0,2,0,0,0,46.0,1,2,1,1,9,9,2,0,17,1,21,10,2,1,8,29,40,11,0,3,2,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,3,0,8,9,2,1,4,2,1,8,8,4,1,2,23,3,30,5,39,16,14,45,0,1,0,4,11,15,2,1,20,153,38,2,0.13289086714320147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14201992228268606,0.0,0.0,0.14664837643327158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10218487396943474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14972249998562026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13651552703016606,0.0,0.11447371508232858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1459743774824196,0.25711084656067384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1359934958110837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11770186418977435,0.0,0.14820844497894586,0.0,0.12020739747675173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0671936153513924,0.0,0.1275960725283505,0.14557544930110855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24571093059797044,0.0,0.0,0.15104988453743295,0.0,0.10628496626616532,0.14651265017135331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08907394702683229,0.0,0.2666007500072811,0.0,0.13087073530937005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11811950868339215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14071224037820215,0.14438631598451787,0.0,0.09386474951308843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2398783920051952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09769007796940114,0.09853689413262047,0.0,0.12834682758231153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09005029081890703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12685936960323282,0.0921297947564622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15053944694692184,0.0,0.0,0.10568015140111993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2659736786763088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09406083974949746,0.0,0.10612681816269186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1223480560143796,0.0,0.0,0.08828678718759758,0.0,0.0,0.10550050445779648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10548258477756234,0.1065970377687392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2967358147178423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08557736144199649 alcoholism,CuriosityCore725,2019/10/28,"Hey, um fuck me I was 21 days sober. I had done it. I was needing to stop. Medications and my own dependence required it. I had gone close to a month. But I visited my parents. Alcohol was everywhere and also multiple events going on with alcohol. I avoided it all until tonight. I drank so much. I got drunk. I couldn't stay strong. I should have. I thought I could. But it was just too soon. I don't know where to go from here. I'm frustrated. I guess I haven't really fully committed to quitting. But I know I should. I need to. But God it's hard. My doctor will be disappointed. So will my sweet boyfriend. Dammit.",-0.9278333333333322,0.8618720400000015,1.450849999999999,93.93734166666668,108.6,5.6033333333333335,19.608333333333334,6.996647511020387,0.8456733333333335,475,18,104,11,24,159,79,125,0.198,0.757,0.045,-0.9454,1,1,2,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,3,8,6,2,1,1,0,17,7,0,1,2,25,30,10,0,6,5,1,1,0,0,4,4,0,0,0,5,4,4,3,3,1,0,4,3,4,1,0,11,2,23,2,9,12,3,15,0,1,0,1,3,3,1,2,7,72,28,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43630982592402817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1632442009449775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16298270606110815,0.0,0.0,0.1316481834649185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20893764211997795,0.0,0.20889779944404208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1887166455834295,0.0,0.0,0.2320257178327104,0.0,0.16326292249909666,0.0,0.22487429398485126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18286208038532908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22437109957786106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2056414062614549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1629361293246974,0.0,0.1500604289463494,0.30272242397459304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266643096064163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2171193951155901,0.0,0.0,0.13077211764246713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21757743714372485,0.0,0.17066340282660772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16205792115297496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,shouldicareaboutthis,2019/10/28,"Drinking at Work I work at a pizza joint. I often work with the owner of the shop. I’ve known him for a while and I noticed some new behaviors. He often goes into the walk in cooler and drinks a beer. I went in to grab something once and he was just cracking a beer. I pretended to not notice, but recently he’s been keeping at least a 24-pack in the walk-in, in plain sight. Also, he smokes cigarettes in the back and in the single private restroom and that blows but that’s a different story. Should I be weary about this, or should I continue to pretend I don’t notice? If I were to say something to him, what would be the right thing to say? Thanks.",2.0443034825870607,3.8842467388059694,3.4709701492537337,90.0665049751244,77.88059701492537,6.257711442786071,23.106965174129357,7.1686216300943375,0.7960218905472636,509,16,107,6,12,167,80,134,0.039,0.929,0.032,0.2406,1,0,8,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,3,6,1,0,0,13,0,9,5,0,0,0,21,12,11,0,4,6,0,1,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,5,7,5,1,1,7,1,2,2,0,0,0,4,4,11,1,20,3,3,18,0,0,1,0,9,11,0,5,5,77,16,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13573498891227398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13051378667753433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17733429756498134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33254639078880743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1508660113763087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16392866992062455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5797246004938705,0.0,0.18075953305912215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675903300093965,0.0,0.0,0.1449505955444672,0.0,0.26995613343205643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26133668397001003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15626684716417127,0.0,0.0,0.11276270608205285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1573436931837581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3707017625397165,0.0,0.0,0.12057307147435878,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,bountifulselection,2019/10/28,"Boyfriend (sober for 22 months) is having a drink with friends. What should I do? He’s had more of an opiate (clean of drugs for 4 years) than a drinking problem but he still admit that during those years he would classify himself as an alcohol. He’s expressed within the last year that sometimes he misses having a glass of wine with dinner or having a beer while unwinding after work and he’s considered drinking again. I was very honest with him in telling him that I think it’s a horrible idea. He’s bowling with his friends right now and called me to open up and let me know that he’s having just one beer. While I told him that I’m very appreciative that he was honest with me, it still doesn’t change my mind in me thinking it’s a horrible idea. He told me he felt bad now because I made him feel bad but I just care and I’m going to be honest. He believes that now that he’s older, living a completely different life, and in his own career that he can control this now and can have a drink or two once in a while. This is my first time being with someone that has had a drinking problem in the past. What can I do to be supportive/what is the best way to deal with something like this? The moment I hung up with him, I just cried and prayed. I just don’t know what to do. I love him so much and I just don’t want this to turn into something that can lead to worse things. I’m still constantly learning about these things as I have never had a drug or alcohol problem. I can’t really talk to my friends or family because they don’t understand addiction/they were already a little judgemental in the beginning of our relationship because I started dating an ex addict who just happens to be the love of my life and someone that I have plans with. How do I deal?",4.330667128347184,5.00234552354571,4.9853912742382285,86.11064462142198,70.21883656509695,8.121929824561402,27.78404893813481,8.212053250817874,1.6570303785780245,1398,46,293,19,24,450,166,361,0.098,0.748,0.154,0.9768,1,0,14,0,0,0,27.0,1,0,1,6,17,17,0,0,21,0,37,18,0,4,1,55,61,22,0,6,12,1,2,1,3,2,7,0,1,0,27,20,11,1,11,9,0,2,6,6,0,3,10,2,37,11,40,44,4,43,1,1,0,2,42,13,0,4,28,204,64,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09438308496393467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1850516638012532,0.0,0.0,0.09554126497377258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14457846471438046,0.1583319146947722,0.0,0.0,0.09754405327610816,0.09085854446897283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08840608548749528,0.0,0.08827230820325109,0.0,0.09158832128203193,0.0,0.09077566044093777,0.09356034368383756,0.09710488268316264,0.0,0.0,0.09510215535714006,0.0,0.1785167728766813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09045585650073257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4240686801435897,0.20080659418091396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0816182801045181,0.0,0.04377657063086733,0.0,0.08312870876269733,0.0,0.0,0.07364342539160257,0.0,0.0,0.2006704512625892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049204421466661465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07656087111895843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19547263881305946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09516229710817813,0.07057283894117201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0885321387071491,0.12230557368642125,0.042297765554973166,0.08677416340584898,0.0764501914948058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15628052331339104,0.08192244483795884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08741936388783449,0.0,0.06910594268881197,0.0,0.06364498436046434,0.0,0.0667744930013358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09220302337478682,0.058667670964698874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08264874757193945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2485311121278364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0554642515723803,0.0,0.0,0.09295265233115796,0.0,0.07393736265519363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14671496079718524,0.1333043517704533,0.08562811487532221,0.0,0.06128053942862061,0.0,0.20742453550828416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06958832743429287,0.07567321704127536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11503750036007343,0.11095170876935063,0.0,0.0,0.05048448079072608,0.0,0.0,0.16545847905852434,0.0,0.0,0.09417228743480986,0.08457438161792538,0.09013102404303057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1428722666462891,0.05106610206731335,0.0687217944546233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06303000584639472,0.0,0.08823064552143713,0.0615027132421501,0.0,0.0,0.16726068636033842 alcoholism,NINJAJAKEx,2019/10/28,2 weeks stomach problems. Ive been without alcohol for 2 weeks. I feel like I have stomach problems. Kind of aches and sharp pains. Kind of constipation. Has anyone who has stopped had these symptoms?,2.503333333333334,5.400653777777784,2.483333333333338,87.94500000000002,94.55555555555556,4.622222222222223,31.0,6.42735559955562,1.9932000000000003,160,9,27,2,6,48,27,36,0.306,0.631,0.063,-0.8225,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,6,5,2,0,0,6,7,1,0,2,1,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,2,3,3,4,5,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,15,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2588151526156233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16933682982160506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12245272024125205,0.17301236030021133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5043832558877119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11831617638593853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25769498620929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4634642124171378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20247206010052665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25171617764032894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3885219503722122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23345142038511946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,iplaygameswithcrouch,2019/10/28,Whisky I guess If you drink 2 or 3 litres a week for 5 years is your liver fucked?,3.6873684210526316,2.1383187894736864,4.241052631578948,98.49736842105264,71.63157894736842,7.6,19.0,3.1291,-0.7960947368421056,63,0,18,0,1,20,19,19,0.253,0.747,0.0,-0.6597,0,0,2,0,0,0,1.0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,3,3,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,3,2,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4846277908928606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4573517337916287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5449792090209277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3968267909119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3185772365401904 alcoholism,epc1820,2019/10/28,"Because I’m overall a terrible person I drink because I know how awful I am. I drink because I’ve fucked up and this seems like my only respite. I’ve tried time and time again to quit but something about quitting makes me feel anxious, fearful, and frightened. And the fact that I feel that way makes me feel even more like a terrible person. All I want is for people to tell me that I’m terrible rather than purposely ignoring the truth. Is that wrong?",5.091273408239702,6.054280617977533,5.177022471910113,84.36568352059928,68.66292134831461,8.18052434456929,31.687265917603,8.344100000000001,2.3062569288389514,361,15,70,5,6,113,55,89,0.316,0.595,0.08900000000000001,-0.9776,0,0,3,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,5,10,1,1,4,1,3,3,0,3,3,19,14,6,0,2,2,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,4,2,1,5,2,0,0,0,7,0,0,0,3,10,3,6,14,2,5,0,0,0,1,3,1,1,1,5,39,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2023486937274509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3275600822666334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3509285465847357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11830360849058626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20155389979254,0.2716974105601108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1655887076985514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09843678682698913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1750128467983372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2391209838361729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13622484479783356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12417562065414575,0.31279219608723235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3810211859407765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1630593487454592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13789129158390598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15655419343096846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20888651176710007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12160716338647568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10564652506383007,0.1421729579185739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19583387013789616,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,11082005,2019/10/22,A frequent new-starter So I’ve been frequently starting over with my non drinking. It’s hard when you live and work in a culture that’s says it’s ok to get drunk and there is a stigma to say “I’m not drinking anymore” But as we all know on this board our drinking is unmanageable. I’m a high functioning alcoholic with one DUI but my drinking hasn’t affected me to the point where anyone knows or tells me I need to stop. Most often I can drink fine around others but alone I usually get out of hand. I just picked up my Wellbutrin prescription bc it helps me stop smoking as well. Tomorrow will hopefully be the end of it all,2.264973958333332,4.3476201328125015,3.4121875000000017,89.59739583333338,78.140625,7.079166666666668,26.291666666666664,8.07648339933343,1.6131541666666669,499,20,105,9,12,161,92,128,0.099,0.7659999999999999,0.136,0.7783,0,1,6,0,0,0,6.0,2,1,0,1,8,4,0,0,6,1,7,8,1,2,2,25,16,10,0,2,6,0,2,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,7,7,7,2,2,6,0,0,2,0,1,1,1,4,13,4,16,13,3,18,0,0,0,0,8,9,0,4,9,67,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1524067062732095,0.0,0.1477009382272707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14143078724820954,0.09971621917433256,0.0,0.0,0.12695312403338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6985174782727247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12631012012296436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14901566501723007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.127750537429554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09558846859592224,0.1506752817265694,0.0,0.14164389568552166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15674943921851708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259272317831555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10574349879767164,0.0,0.13773361467907472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09663621837038153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1348125338996195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22681837216386586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2018801664597272,0.0,0.0,0.23845667056519815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12464741494834787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570647535494509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12822350561959198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10382176944647503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,lastrider43,2019/10/22,Day 2 sober 23M I sweat up a storm while in bed last night. Anyone know when it will go away? Would it be a bad idea to go in the sauna? TIA I’ve been drinking on and off for 2 years but recently started drinking a fifth every two days.,-1.4703234501347708,0.4826284905660394,0.7213477088948785,103.37641509433963,94.28301886792453,3.7832884097035038,15.118598382749324,5.288315135182226,-1.1649061994609164,182,4,47,1,7,60,45,53,0.047,0.893,0.06,0.1597,0,0,2,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,4,3,1,0,0,5,8,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,2,0,2,2,0,2,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,8,4,0,17,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,9,24,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1745665455380732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2345617306642105,0.0,0.20845384308001635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3220172674624275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4891392160260446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21034747252124766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2837725735023452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2818332789608141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13720540322316052,0.2035044364790671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2342869423378665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24650696836581434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1767090828519755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2438794036055204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17734974514360324,0.0,0.0,0.16077144424375614 alcoholism,lne4378,2019/10/22,"A few questions about AA Hey, I read a few articles about AA but haven't found the exact answers I was looking for. If any of you know any of them or could share your experiences could you please help? 1. Do you have to introduce yourself as, ""My name is [name], and I am an alcoholic."" 2. Do you have to stay the whole time, and if so are there breaks? 3. I've heard of sponsors but haven't seen much info on them. Do you get them on your first meeting or is it mostly just other members giving out phone numbers? If you have a sponsor what does it entail? 4. Is it a cult?",-0.4884999999999984,1.7156814833333345,1.495000000000001,97.7025,92.5,4.333333333333334,18.333333333333336,5.985473137389443,-0.3231666666666664,438,13,101,4,16,144,79,120,0.0,0.888,0.11199999999999999,0.924,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,8,3,1,5,1,0,0,7,0,16,1,0,0,1,22,23,11,0,5,8,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,3,1,0,5,1,0,0,2,0,2,1,4,3,15,1,12,17,5,7,0,0,2,0,21,3,0,7,2,73,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24804319579610826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3156704951709425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3706242570657509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.203111358543746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22703731309834144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19742325152098053,0.0,0.2544845229687441,0.0,0.0,0.1212621238211662,0.22265046555556897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15557103628553587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275555150877352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19490466556344502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17061943667923934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2547749532472631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26000394657916115,0.0,0.23216176305728145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2473866029854372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13533876644187334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2591301931684995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,dangerblaster,2019/10/22,"AA is fucking stupid I just had to say I didn't have a choice I had to say it",-2.535499999999999,-1.4139715499999994,0.6999999999999993,107.855,89.5,4.0,15.0,3.1291,-1.661,59,1,19,0,2,21,15,20,0.209,0.7909999999999999,0.0,-0.5709,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,0,5,1,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,3,2,3,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5025335367204682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8645577161018332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,dinizhok,2019/10/22,Ottawa Anyone here from ottawa?,5.561999999999998,8.856965199999998,5.240000000000002,66.40000000000003,97.0,2.0,5.0,3.1291,-1.347,26,0,2,0,1,8,4,5,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Pootytoots123,2019/10/22,"Difference between a social drinker and an alcoholic? Don’t know if this is the right sub for this, but I’m a fairly heavy social drinker for about 10 years now. I have a great job, in great health (so far that I know of), in a great relationship, but Im starting to think my drinking is getting a little too excessive. I usually go out Friday night and Saturday night to either drink with friends at a house party or out to a bar. I don’t get black out drunk, I keep my wits about me so I don’t get embarrassingly drunk. Sunday night I usually stay in and maybe have a few beers (2-6) with my SO while watching movies. During the week I might have a few beers with dinner, or take a few shots of vodka (anywhere from 3 to maybe 6 shots) if I want to play some video games or board games with my SO and have a fun night. I only get black out drunk (drunk to the point where I don’t remember anything) a handful of times per year usually for New Years at home, or my birthday or other special occasions. I feel like I’m not an alcoholic since the worst thing that has happened to me because of my drinking is a hangover the next morning. My work is not suffering (I’ve never had to call in sick or miss work because of a hangover), my personal life is good, but i know that drinking almost every night is not healthy. If I take shots or drink beer, even on a Wednesday night, I have to have at least 2 or 3 in order to feel the buzz. I guess my questions would be, do I sound like an alcoholic? And has anyone successfully lowered their drinking from where I’m at now to a more manageable level and maintained it?",7.546332320162108,5.333066389057752,7.633300911854103,79.40123809523814,64.44072948328268,10.840202634245188,35.30719351570416,9.21078282632365,2.8431043971631205,1258,44,270,17,15,409,158,329,0.086,0.7490000000000001,0.165,0.9852,2,0,15,0,0,0,36.0,0,0,1,3,12,15,0,1,25,0,23,22,1,0,1,48,45,25,0,5,18,0,3,2,1,2,6,1,1,1,8,14,18,1,8,19,0,1,8,4,0,0,1,7,29,11,42,41,8,48,0,2,3,0,10,21,0,16,26,170,37,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2549157196735111,0.07961768338154165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05559517336981914,0.0,0.06542987606864792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09693699863202923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08118850142580268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08307092655426652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4673366153828317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0525155415232242,0.0,0.06699052310782816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08040519263990366,0.05680189109566437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06142915437178305,0.0,0.16616257214822847,0.0,0.045187310583578486,0.06668913490825103,0.0,0.2629798485973198,0.08758912295991934,0.0,0.07031034526329596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08451530959064718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07975491626018763,0.0,0.0,0.09174375367475564,0.0,0.0,0.08588433997237535,0.0,0.07890131085056049,0.07067205567487085,0.0,0.0,0.1310896911425199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05616019637600719,0.07768904550250551,0.07968981151637015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597567702637579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08434744298805491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061322939369519186,0.07679116045853909,0.08455968461340971,0.4476879508869362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06047086462324315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06942498107767622,0.0,0.0,0.07516255887591049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08906928884900285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08536388083134627,0.09006922137149882,0.06790102333170675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06577141397974542,0.0,0.0,0.16210066782359614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05627751907959161,0.08474697822317409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11956310491728005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05282284703876901,0.05094673582674249,0.0,0.0,0.046362864253711666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.262706777578586,0.0,0.04689700123741695,0.0,0.06377804879091799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11576831371528593,0.0,0.0,0.056481554343420434,0.0,0.0,0.15360531345964712 alcoholism,ImpressiveApricot3,2019/10/22,"Consequences of going to doctor? I've (26m) been an alcoholic for a long time now. I am an immigrant from another country (arrived in CA when I was 14) where mental health/addiction is not really acknowledged as a health issue, and do not know much about how treatment works. I did not grow up with health insurance (I have it now) and am wary of doctors. I would even say I have a slight phobia of being hospitalized or committed to a psych ward. If I go to the Doctor and tell them I'm alcoholic, can anything bad happen to me? Is this something that can have negative consequences I'm not considering? I am worried about having a diagnosis like this on my medical record following me around, for things like employment, schooling etc.. I also heard a story where a guy who got help with his addiction, but years later when he injured himself, the doctors denied him pain medicine, and he had to recover in excruciating pain. The idea of being injured in a hospital, lying in pain absolutely terrifies me. I work outside with my hands for a living, and the possibility of getting injured and needing pain medicine definitely exists. I really want to get better. I have not drank in two days (and as a result haven't slept in two days) but I don't know where to turn. Family doesn't really acknowledge the problem (in our home country everyone gets drunk). Friends are helpful and supportive when I need a pat on the back, but at the end of the day can't help to the extent I need. I have been to AA before, but honestly it makes me feel strange to be in those meetings. Doctors, as you have probably figured out, freak me out, but this disease is starting to affect me and I need treatment. So reddit... has anyone been to the doctor and told them they are an alcoholic? What happens after that?",5.260031769305964,6.567330891495602,6.284387829912027,75.31324841153472,68.53079178885629,9.788905180840663,32.096896383186696,10.02789654360092,3.3711318670576738,1418,61,254,35,24,472,187,341,0.174,0.731,0.095,-0.9888,1,0,4,0,0,0,48.0,1,1,3,3,16,13,0,0,24,0,33,24,2,4,1,47,60,26,0,8,12,0,2,2,1,1,20,2,1,1,11,16,5,0,7,1,0,4,10,7,1,2,11,4,33,6,46,45,3,38,0,0,0,0,21,18,0,2,18,187,44,11,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17755128802490105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2610861994361993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06512315404076288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08539119176582523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05694090792326675,0.0,0.06701366904412184,0.07249398549214638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0626181171292361,0.06799442039987863,0.0,0.0,0.06929477626267852,0.0,0.0,0.07202221282103875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15755558019231938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5001100746217378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07212681125749887,0.0,0.09082101300051064,0.05378673063078765,0.0,0.0,0.0778141710527572,0.0,0.0,0.0767692153973975,0.0,0.04117573876608071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0629161060371241,0.0,0.12763852256626515,0.0,0.0925622256494807,0.0,0.06513062264697203,0.0,0.0,0.0806329752156307,0.14402454936362594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25968325143059523,0.0,0.0,0.16375152108396954,0.0,0.0816854605882843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09192965775633116,0.0,0.08499647867993311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0895085619919165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07956958344528027,0.0,0.0719081707005015,0.07206698519071365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054358172628304016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08203670880558687,0.08206683980708145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05986374017040836,0.2415306508160172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3466082717501909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0918051824628739,0.0,0.0,0.08780018299527212,0.07792183505730947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15650711104287784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06475999667671105,0.0,0.08241607906042643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0626922699263659,0.0,0.0,0.05763977046612704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09241092515732743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07117735746717962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054101474771408455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047485121900216136,0.0,0.0,0.0778141710527572,0.0,0.0,0.08857737028139542,0.15909938095274312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04803218818248597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11857059690855318,0.08270070521503065,0.0,0.05784874459942984,0.0,0.0,0.05244115918750153 alcoholism,adarnasiykh19,2019/10/22,"Detox without professional help I suffer pretty bad. As of today, I have had 2 shots of vodka and I'm still feeling withdrawal symptoms. I want to escape but I cant afford doctor and if I stop, I might DT. Had it happen once and I cant afford the bills to go through it again. What are some ways to detox without professional help? What are my options? I'm honestly pretty scared and I dont k how where else to turn. So many people dont believe in withdrawal...I just want to be rid of this.....",-0.2982352941176494,1.9840350588235296,2.216901960784316,91.28005882352943,95.47058823529413,4.680784313725491,18.564705882352946,6.42735559955562,0.17166588235294133,384,12,80,5,15,131,65,102,0.13,0.687,0.183,0.3651,2,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,1,1,0,11,4,0,1,0,17,19,9,0,3,5,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,5,4,0,1,1,1,1,1,6,3,0,0,2,1,9,1,13,15,1,8,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,4,4,52,14,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1487404633739536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20070413269810905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18233506955362025,0.0,0.0,0.4175603259073978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14881411635849104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09007354467930197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012417508161654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15752967731458756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23880858636123076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18060721927055706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18897966474864086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18971456708076628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12350067995141978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36246729232957214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17835042098565293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14226379466946326,0.14893402217479906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851569187562334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16885703074911124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19376647411093365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21014459378024647,0.14140019499119172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3434435250287187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,bennettdell,2019/10/22,"What are the worst NA beers? Happy to delete this post if it makes anyone feel uncomfortable. Your sobriety is more important than my dumb question! Back story: Every year me and 7 buddies play fantasy football for a sad amount of money (we are all broke). Usually the winner takes in about 100 bucks but the kicker is that last place has to chug 2 Mad Dog orange disgusting malt liquors. We all basically play to get last place. This year our friend who is now 2 years sober is looking like he is going to get last place. He’s 1-6 and of course non of us would make him drink alcohol once he accepts his defeat. That being said we still want him to drink something bad!! It’s a tradition. So do you guys have any recommendations?? I know NA beer still has very low alcohol so NA beer might not be the best option. That being said it comes down to what he feels comfortable drinking. Any ideas are welcome. Thanks!",2.6459887005649705,5.1083580338983055,3.3116666666666674,88.83382768361584,78.83050847457628,6.6451977401129945,21.69774011299436,7.793537801064563,0.959472316384181,720,21,144,12,18,226,126,177,0.156,0.6729999999999999,0.171,-0.4944,0,0,9,0,0,0,21.0,5,2,0,2,7,19,3,0,6,0,17,9,0,2,2,23,32,6,0,3,3,0,2,1,1,2,2,2,0,1,11,6,9,0,6,10,2,2,1,9,0,0,2,5,13,10,14,25,6,20,0,4,1,0,21,6,1,4,12,77,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.264757537753749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16847094469719925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0866123981952041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09524795955730128,0.10342581510401266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12999334360662934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10670256135753567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3640347045370536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10436535244029063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1252642296043277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09570122830360454,0.0,0.12943334818211494,0.0,0.07039786190791751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12265022831127982,0.0,0.1318613308082708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13983352942440025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06807540919062335,0.30291039842404377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06051635543708196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10401913905695864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16536763689089432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13140590947045472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13191691952782436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3882516268796425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186326905682905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13876213068779542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23565642185609556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0953607528341656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19784460246687247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09313440920189824,0.0,0.0,0.11404234539309402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1489996943793828,0.0,0.13642469689984305,0.1022052673117128,0.07306140981550015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08799330191732264,0.0,0.0,0.2393035900035252 alcoholism,SmokingCraic,2019/10/22,"Here we go I'm 25 and have been drinking heavily for 10 years now. I always thought it was normal because my friends do it too and it's common in Scotland. I've ruined friendships, relationships, jobs, entire weeks; and have taken drugs, driven, cheated and been a massive cunt in general. I woke up on Sunday with no recollection of the previous night after about 9, according to google I got home around half 1, £200 worse off than I'd been the night before, more than 10 missed calls from my gf, a removal from several group chats, some very strange sent texts and a bastard of a hangover. None of this is particularly new and I've brushed off the same before but for some reason this time it's different and I've decided I need to stop. I've never been one of these alcoholics who needs to have a drink every day and that's all I can focus on, but near enough 50% of the time I drink, I drink to destruction. I can't seem to do a casual couple of pints, I have to keep going and keep going. I know reddit doesn't particularly care, but honestly I feel like if I write it down here it becomes more real and I can start to hold myself accountable.",4.763376623376622,5.364631744588749,5.740675324675326,81.33387012987014,69.21645021645021,8.930562770562771,27.954112554112555,9.029198982220553,2.063732813852814,907,29,184,16,15,300,144,231,0.121,0.8190000000000001,0.061,-0.8859999999999999,2,0,6,0,0,0,24.0,1,0,0,1,6,11,4,0,10,0,16,6,0,1,2,39,36,14,0,4,4,0,1,1,2,0,2,0,1,0,11,13,5,4,7,6,1,6,5,6,0,2,11,2,17,5,32,25,8,31,0,2,0,0,10,10,2,4,16,116,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13654906754813664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10631627292891296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11374388393385435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07788842989599695,0.1411137815087669,0.2174485768698257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1304691705108202,0.0,0.1302717427974192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14137693312263525,0.0,0.0824021629972219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1334942102731793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5006704109370698,0.1481745834091506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13202230045762905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10765315073529036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06460520027012691,0.09128011337258164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09871608263877277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21784676989667706,0.0,0.10219068426993047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12816541241540386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12679367642099856,0.22713867900669266,0.0,0.0,0.07021997354109963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062422788612205536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18948216273653215,0.09854539611299873,0.1234026842673656,0.0,0.23981013146008606,0.12518911742443392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08658139679364797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14543214406396351,0.0,0.13137056688038584,0.0,0.1371789665785193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11631853825805445,0.0,0.14434562908469412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09043745239504623,0.0,0.0,0.10682284530820113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10143644129656314,0.14900938767087765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10542501692928527,0.0,0.0,0.10249073423475152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13021025726158136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08228077244595908 alcoholism,always_in_undertow,2019/10/22,"How to navigate my relationship with my sister as her husband suffers with alcoholism. My sister, Lisa, is married to an alcoholic. We found out a few years ago when he had a seizure during a vacation. Since then, they've gotten married and bought a house. He has gone to detox and gaslighted my sister constantly regarding his drinking. He's never stopped. Every time anyone in my family or his family sees him, the stench of alcohol is undeniable. My sister will lie and say that he smells like liquor because he smokes cigars and drinks Sprite. This is the level of denial we are dealing with. She gets angry and refuses to speak to anyone who tries to open a dialogue regarding her husband. A few days ago, her husband suffered a Grand Mal seizure at home and nearly died. He would have died if she wasn't home and able to immediately call an ambulance. He's not stable yet and heavily sedated in a hospital. She claims that he just relapsed for a couple of days while she was out of town for work and says that's what caused his current situation. No one, including his parents, believe her. In the past few years, my sister has gone from being bright, bubbly, and ambitious to mean, angry, and vindictive. She chronically excuses her husband's behavior and always paints him as a victim. He's had so many opportunities to get sober, and I know that it's not easy at all. I just can't keep seeing her constantly treating him as a victim and refusing to acknowledge that he has problems. I'm at a loss. His life is tanking and he's dragging her down with him. Normally I'd advise people to just talk and be honest, but my sister absolutely refuses to listen to anyone and just starts raging whenever any attempt at a conversation is made. What can I do to help someone in my sister's situation? I get that she loves him, but this has been going on for years and has only gotten worse. Now he potentially has brain damage and may never be himself again. If I could just get her to have an open dialogue about their situation I would be happy. Please share any stories or advice you might have. There's so much information on dealing with someone struggling with addiction, but not as much for handling a significant other who is in deep denial. She refuses to go to counseling and has also gotten angry at the suggestion of going to an Al-Anon meeting. I need more options because I can't keep watching her cling to this sinking ship. TLDR: My sister is in denial about the depths of her husband's alcoholism. She rages and yells whenever anyone tries to talk to her. I need help in coming up with ways to help her through this time and to see that her denial is only helping his addiction deepen.",5.708602120535714,6.924829017578126,6.501470982142859,74.50535937500003,67.41796875,9.60142857142857,31.230133928571423,9.819183407551806,3.1367760491071435,2155,85,376,48,35,711,244,512,0.10099999999999999,0.815,0.084,-0.7248,2,0,7,0,0,0,51.0,2,1,1,5,16,20,4,1,23,0,38,15,1,3,3,79,67,40,2,9,15,14,0,1,0,5,9,5,2,0,17,36,8,7,5,3,1,6,9,11,0,1,13,12,56,9,67,44,7,55,0,4,5,1,91,25,0,7,24,260,73,3,0.07960400426017301,0.0,0.0,0.17356022927185755,0.0,0.0777881116609178,0.14112829349173675,0.34028988572218066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06365929344672576,0.06623690848828806,0.0,0.0,0.10826690526907573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22264388265601076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09705172427869344,0.0,0.0,0.08968645312439598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08886439537919624,0.08128458861087359,0.0,0.0,0.08177524030736265,0.0,0.06857180104989408,0.0,0.17204729752927206,0.0,0.06355731996496841,0.08808031662152208,0.0,0.10267599454569762,0.16413646598428205,0.0,0.0,0.16523277714121445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1559632372280685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06706980688174707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15008714128307835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08728168188725652,0.0,0.0,0.1663592267673121,0.0,0.13572237028816314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08473994276539866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2134275443008013,0.0,0.1596986135734659,0.0,0.0,0.091852333078041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14151139313900293,0.0,0.0,0.043748278916829225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056226662379049885,0.038890495527951936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07184572179263525,0.0753232335752765,0.0,0.08070596597729615,0.0,0.08671209735284041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08444726880356226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11703620497069922,0.11805072100048562,0.12279103103328723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07799502264452228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05394173345451618,0.12108486466735033,0.0,0.0,0.08839082623215412,0.0,0.07599102944716721,0.055187393475123976,0.0,0.0,0.0873812920438366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07617028132138236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08546490960847315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12660859851693512,0.0,0.0,0.19030225509054854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06584925492909738,0.26843470819640425,0.0,0.0,0.1348964289697737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05634412393491184,0.0,0.0,0.066552511992862,0.0,0.08321938913506999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1279653665564765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09283547008510316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10809178709716497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06318595332031969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05795266318052091,0.0,0.08112328110146058,0.11309680135193455,0.0,0.0,0.15378710647125676 alcoholism,aliceblackfyre,2019/10/22,"trying new things... it’s been years now that i have wanted to quit drinking. it always ends up the same, i’ll go a couple of weeks at most and do pretty good, but then the craving strikes and i fall off the wagon. same thing happened last night and now i feel like i will never conquer this. i’m in therapy, going to the gym, trying to stay distracted. what was the aha moment for y’all? how do you make THIS time THE time?",2.4111688311688297,3.761470636363637,3.526493506493509,92.17045454545458,75.5909090909091,5.9376623376623385,20.525974025974023,6.1826913282559595,0.02296558441558449,328,7,72,2,7,106,67,88,0.07200000000000001,0.84,0.08800000000000001,0.1133,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,2,0,2,3,3,0,1,7,0,6,1,0,2,1,12,13,6,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,8,3,1,0,1,2,0,3,1,1,0,0,2,1,6,2,9,10,3,21,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,14,48,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17761508578632032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23618845368642355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20910867061884197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18906142026632994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10793134364194194,0.1524952363416329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2426274715213325,0.17903938043409662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18876119282948528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17399767094081636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10428534267554282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1424856186072002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16463283091348058,0.20616014603019095,0.0,0.2003169218516144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2171646626469284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270400468844503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2275190178372175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2441091042454937,0.0,0.2836255057018638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2489394562563942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2898494581982842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12590371815912338,0.0,0.17122402856973884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13746067327177086 alcoholism,simplyme8702,2019/10/22,"I’m afraid my dads liver is bad I’m 31, my dad is 52. He’s been in trouble multiple times for dui’s and every-time he gets one he swears he is done drinking. I would like to believe him but I’ve watched this cycle repeat itself for my entire life. Right now he’s not drinking bc he’s on mandated alcohol monitoring around the clock. He has been complaining of severe foot pain for a few months and I read that’s a sign of liver damage. My sister advised him to tell his doctor about his history of binge drinking so he could have his liver checked. He got mad at her. Do liver issues show up in routine blood work? Thanks!",1.140863787375416,3.413651596899225,2.9136489479512733,90.58482558139536,83.4186046511628,5.546179401993357,20.8421926910299,6.868970318607317,0.4881867109634554,492,15,102,6,14,163,90,129,0.17,0.7809999999999999,0.049,-0.9541,0,0,4,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,4,9,1,1,3,0,11,13,6,0,0,8,16,4,0,2,2,3,0,1,0,1,4,0,0,0,3,3,4,0,0,5,1,0,1,7,0,1,4,1,12,2,15,10,1,12,0,1,1,0,21,7,0,0,6,52,15,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20866440342168446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17381517215821465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16302679191066513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2199815042576697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15589238246591594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1998481164294936,0.0,0.19981000705074065,0.0,0.5738162175965309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1020108156709497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15616040849873786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20379176940403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13791186225611846,0.09538998822596896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15584783198211286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13230742497010364,0.0,0.20776129225315998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19530427202484132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16674365798287125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2205785445504236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17065835955818562,0.17976128776656666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11385268146050588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1421453695410025,0.0,0.0,0.1387010168281587,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,nahbroski,2019/10/22,"1 , 825 days That’s 5 years sober for me guys . 31/f Everyday is a struggle . Those demons still knock on a door I refuse to answer .. we’re all in this together . We’re doing really good",-1.6158241758241765,0.14658141025641316,1.1059340659340684,97.05692307692308,106.69230769230772,5.305494505494505,13.263736263736265,6.868970318607317,-0.22422637362637365,141,3,33,3,7,48,36,39,0.126,0.784,0.08900000000000001,-0.079,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,4,2,1,6,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,4,15,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2988935756532093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3887285411753601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.458898597847276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29690455887160033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3701200230678645,0.0,0.0,0.4845093712958669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2984532612901181 alcoholism,FloatingHaddock,2019/10/22,"I have reason to believe my mother is an alcoholic. Hi, I’m a 16 year old boy, and I have drawn the conclusion that my mother is suffering from alcoholism. Her mood is always changing from morning to night, and she consistantly falls asleep on the couch at night, with the smell of alcohol on her breath. In the morning she denies it ever happened. This is an issue as she drives me and my friends to and from different clubs and sports at night, and I no longer feel safe in the car with her, as well as hate being around her other than in the morning. How can I address this issue properly?",7.157873563218392,6.289600189655175,7.208620689655174,77.81511494252874,64.34482758620689,10.491954022988507,33.12643678160919,9.725611199111238,2.915722988505747,466,16,91,8,6,150,72,116,0.096,0.838,0.066,-0.5719,1,0,3,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,4,6,1,0,9,0,8,5,2,2,1,15,12,10,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,3,0,2,1,5,9,3,1,3,2,0,3,1,2,1,0,0,2,15,3,21,11,0,17,0,1,0,0,12,8,0,0,6,68,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5471411881098114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14200026635169366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15192088068477574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1922719601874956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18053244120717354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1783002064780364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1543689956026132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08628928943169951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13184914822281532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15091139100029494,0.0,0.0,0.16848842222387242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35624306784896265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4804500045435574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17907577771485453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1754637834253367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534411070742603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10989749058228902 alcoholism,eeelociin,2019/10/22,"3 months sober. I didn’t think I would be able to get past a few days, or a week, a month, let alone 3 months. My life has finally been on the upside since I’ve been sober. I didn’t think I could be happy without alcohol. I’m so damn proud of myself. It took going to the ER for me to realize I couldn’t live my life that way anymore. I was sick of seeing my loved ones hurt because of my drinking & almost dying was the wake up call I needed. I was given another chance at this life & I’m never going to take it for granted again.",1.7361538461538473,2.7288780000000017,3.7005128205128233,91.68615384615387,76.69230769230771,6.567521367521367,20.69230769230769,6.937597516519254,0.246805128205128,414,9,97,4,9,141,76,117,0.105,0.7659999999999999,0.129,0.419,0,1,2,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,1,2,5,1,0,6,0,14,8,1,0,1,11,27,2,1,4,2,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,4,0,2,0,3,1,0,3,5,2,1,1,9,1,14,3,13,12,1,16,0,1,1,1,2,3,1,2,9,57,18,0,0.15180679605527236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16223529758836636,0.1520125778030976,0.15722605817900512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3289652002033562,0.0,0.0,0.1591826619423357,0.0,0.0,0.15055154998388387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09254001385555496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15501171178974532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12120537401871495,0.0,0.0,0.09790282479275557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15755148710321978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14871286668330969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16629692482098155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07931278534443433,0.0,0.1725506011743984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16160115723673982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1625123149200051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15523273419162414,0.3216768885424858,0.0,0.0,0.13404818214623826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1370115603729142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3635122088700099,0.0,0.0,0.11256281573805607,0.11708275970994687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1028682137978143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14491676413177498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12097036196391013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255761504250665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11413981804469095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19454333044490527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16866293611382502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12049716868394733,0.12177025495075952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463363341591323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10783919236790578,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ThatMadStag,2019/10/22,"Had a seizure, went to hospital, and no booze since. I had my second seizure four days ago. I went to the emergency department and stated my various problems, including my alcoholism. I stayed there until yesterday without medications, got some tests done and then was allowed home again. Yesterday was the first day in over 3 years on which I didn't drink half a litre of rum in the evening. I had to really hold myself back, but I'm proud that I stayed sober. I recieved a one-time benzodiazepine yesterday evening though, so I hope I can control myself without it too, and sleep well without alcohol. Any advice for staying sober when the almost irresistible urge to drink will come?",7.068819999999999,8.129915672000003,6.551750000000002,75.91962500000002,64.28,10.73,35.625,10.686352973137794,3.987340000000001,549,25,96,14,8,170,88,125,0.043,0.8370000000000001,0.12,0.9066,1,0,4,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,3,10,4,0,0,7,0,9,7,1,2,0,16,15,10,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,3,5,5,2,0,3,0,4,5,1,1,4,10,0,14,3,14,4,2,25,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,3,13,70,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13721751649850436,0.12447450855358425,0.3001341208274715,0.14061108178015247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09549091463204523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10797487710786198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12096002899403692,0.0,0.0,0.1574937938600064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811195139559244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14369916434072727,0.0,0.27511772198289325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18549314147874385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11944180495653806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11230728898716613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1408534458216901,0.1394694732984497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414591169091699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0951527237544677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13436367859748075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08995711814247051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11615748257310285,0.0,0.1405221445866372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.449009457928621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13796265860438273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12625510408828206,0.2603428552293749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4060817311415564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09042634908644663 alcoholism,nonnerparty0422,2019/10/22,"That Was Yesterday That Was Yesterday by Leon Bridges. I'm hammered right now and have been on and off again for the last few months. That song crushes me. It's all I fucking want right now.",2.0360526315789467,4.449416552631583,2.088684210526313,97.0082894736842,80.84210526315789,5.905263157894738,25.28947368421053,7.1686216300943375,0.9399789473684208,151,6,33,2,4,45,30,38,0.077,0.88,0.042,-0.3197,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,1,4,7,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,2,0,4,4,2,11,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,7,22,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3970506677814953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35008645657828064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34280971216978706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7335532958303341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2533205549363386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,penguinopusredux,2019/10/22,"Advice needed on helping an alcoholic coworker please. So I manage a coworker, a friend for 10 years, and he had a relapse earlier in the year. Called in sick on Monday and Tuesday, then called an admitted it was a problem and he'd fallen off the wagon. He did a seven day residential course and went on anti-alcohol meds. It seemed to be working but I'm now worried. Last Monday he called in to work from home because he had a migraine. This Monday he called in sick with stomach problems and turned in very poor work indeed. I worry he's relapsing and don't know what to do. If I call him out on it and tell him to sort this out do I risk sending him into a shame spiral? On the other hand, what if I'm wrong? I don't want to hide any problems but I need some answers - my boss is getting suspicious and I'm running out of excuses. What would be the best way to approach him about it? Now my boss is asking questions",2.874964539007092,4.357087063829788,4.487361702127661,85.2136666666667,74.63829787234042,7.14099290780142,26.895035460992908,7.793537801064563,1.5904669503546107,720,27,145,10,15,242,110,188,0.213,0.698,0.08900000000000001,-0.98,0,0,2,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,4,4,8,0,2,13,0,14,6,2,2,0,33,27,14,0,9,4,0,1,0,1,1,4,0,1,0,10,13,1,0,5,0,1,5,2,6,0,1,5,1,13,2,26,18,2,32,0,0,0,0,24,15,0,6,11,94,23,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1169732745201396,0.0,0.2558541489766377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08140276297418042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11190699611939192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07297039190378105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12562186740094367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6111553741838285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07719911847825757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09248294319163697,0.0,0.06254035188061975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08023500698436395,0.0,0.12007278083471035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06578613788478127,0.09757466254154587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329640576370564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17751786359184754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13139894572480731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.343621423776976,0.0,0.0,0.1340957736596421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10897394303234516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046264926707932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13020347920078207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09876826137161704,0.07060446697749763,0.09501539124349116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11096672294908708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26143761435955176,0.2431302604073113,0.0,0.08503422251433948,0.13087743310887634,0.0,0.1541707855594105 alcoholism,fleursxnoires,2019/10/22,"In search of something. Anything. Alcohol makes me a monster. I've ruined relationships as a direct cause of my drinking and my behavior when I'm drunk and I'm on the verge of doing it again with someone I am deeply in love with. I can't control my anger when I'm drunk and I am prone to violent outbursts and rage. I know I have a lot of unresolved issues surrounding trauma and I don't know how to deal with them. I guess I'm looking for a starting line. How do I move forward and heal myself and my relationships? Anything helps.",1.9265909090909084,4.215093157407409,3.644646464646467,86.41954545454546,80.3888888888889,6.519865319865321,26.484848484848484,7.686295010490155,1.639100000000001,423,18,84,7,11,141,65,108,0.168,0.7390000000000001,0.09300000000000001,-0.7977,0,0,3,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,1,5,6,3,0,5,0,7,6,0,5,0,20,18,12,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,10,4,1,2,3,0,2,2,5,0,0,0,1,15,1,14,18,1,11,0,1,1,1,6,6,0,3,5,55,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.225868919371042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34784615294344395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2171147123028034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23704704369320265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2178926130735426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20704257947339355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2328258992064436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14166347816342106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2205945335054563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23230491173292184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17748080551008755,0.0,0.0,0.17968224785894554,0.1907516646672675,0.0,0.14107779427315004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2246316470636032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4538216993770933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17907620482902464,0.16270758805058436,0.0,0.0,0.1495946476231935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Trevrock81,2019/10/22,Everything is falling apart but I'm trying to keep it together. Saturday night I blacked out in a strip club after telling myself I would only go for a beer or two for shits and giggles. Don't remember leaving but I woke up on the couch in my basement. Went straight upstairs and told my wife sorry that I fucked up and that I was an alcoholic and needed help. She's leaving me understandably (there's been a lot of other issues) and I'm not sure what to do. I need to focus on my kids and getting myself better and I haven't drank since. It's only been two days but sadly it's been a while since I haven't had atleast one drink so it's something. I don't really have anyone to talk too but I told two of my closest friends today that I'm an alcoholic and now I'm posting here. I feel like saying it to others helps me take responsibility as I've been lying to myself about my problem for years. Hopefully it all works out I need to be healthy and happy for my kids and my ex and myself deserve to be happy as well I just know this is gonna be hard.,1.7506756756756765,3.5433878063063062,3.6218828828828817,88.8657972972973,78.5945945945946,6.241801801801803,23.26216216216217,7.1686216300943375,0.8080821621621612,831,27,178,10,20,280,125,222,0.12,0.703,0.177,0.9404,0,0,5,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,2,8,13,2,0,7,0,18,7,1,0,2,34,40,20,0,6,7,2,2,1,1,2,2,1,1,2,13,13,5,1,4,3,0,3,5,4,1,4,11,4,27,9,26,24,2,23,0,1,1,1,13,11,2,3,9,122,40,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26380633404550463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08630122278904874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10915886769499464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07959853892833807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12090894142118865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1109259083981585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062407094202711025,0.08817442884254763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09535739913817927,0.11410388555722785,0.06448416422220568,0.0,0.07014494103598537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26277517594415617,0.11056403545398907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16545757134931785,0.0,0.0,0.12258829606138445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12882302566595089,0.0,0.10970529368054974,0.0,0.0,0.06783083227616889,0.0,0.0,0.2613772750531129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06029893620063807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10493102643940247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27455292600725856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11582545524368748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08363557984978406,0.18773966313161947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11820647473268125,0.0,0.0,0.11810049914333308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07906884259955613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13981580538136484,0.0,0.0,0.0981520510446799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12669339136582958,0.20419590791664546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09501814690692208,0.0,0.13816353098549625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1163260532468564,0.0,0.09279980193764582,0.09920387191176773,0.1078783814369221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11699191657516014,0.2358746411707681,0.0,0.08379707799429195,0.0,0.36170316619394777,0.12848917187848655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11097337441086667,0.11441567197299915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0898544462429822,0.0,0.0,0.08767716528984626,0.0,0.0,0.07948127852923237 alcoholism,Thai87,2019/09/28,"Struggling I'm coming up on 8 months sober and lately I've been having a really hard time. It seems as if the obsession is coming back 10 fold. I'm trying to remember the pain that I went through for the past 12 yrs and how unmanageable my life was. But my depression and the the things that's happening in my life right now has my mind saying fuck it. I haven't picked up, but it's really hard not to. Idk I guess this is me telling on myself. I've been to meetings twice a day for the past week but it's not helping",1.4324324324324351,3.1461005765765786,3.1966576576576604,91.91444594594593,79.27027027027026,6.962522522522522,20.109009009009007,7.908726449838941,0.6004695495495498,408,10,94,7,10,136,71,111,0.152,0.8340000000000001,0.013999999999999999,-0.8916,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,3,5,1,2,8,0,8,4,0,2,0,17,17,9,0,1,6,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,8,5,0,0,2,0,0,3,3,5,0,1,4,3,9,0,12,13,0,18,0,1,0,1,4,6,1,3,9,58,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13890104628061514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3112108119117629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1164978866573888,0.0,0.15558500821484014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16699881311616846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19899537785713986,0.0,0.1597393974288109,0.0,0.3236360024723198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1210792161085594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20376984170343085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25518281541621723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18239495328305785,0.0,0.14418516250564498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1922137466072857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3448827303669038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23144527995889244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20462996014152907,0.15426561356211455,0.0,0.1436522161303457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16444791487569108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.188844198803249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15788736354489644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12000922090268885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10533266436436907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12264273472642764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14489855006251695,0.0,0.0,0.1674551337850508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,throwaway37933793,2019/09/28,"I broke my nose last night. Throwaway account for obvious reasons. I woke up hungover and covered in blood. I have no idea what happened. I remember getting home before my blackout started- best I can tell is drunk me fell flat on her face sometime after getting home. However, it could be anything; maybe I went back outside for another cigarette and got mugged. Maybe I got hit by a car. It's the not knowing that kills me. I'm in a lot of pain. It's crazy that, for all the terrible things drinking has brought to my life, it took fucking up my face for me to realize that I need to go cold turkey. I guess this particular consequence is more real to me than the dozens of friendships and professional relationships I've ruined. Or the two suicide attempts I've made while blacked out. Or the many times I've driven drunk and somehow never hurt anyone. Or the time I went to jail for drinking. Or the time I got my underage sister so drunk she had to get her stomach pumped the day before high school graduation. All the regrettable sexual encounters I've had. I'm sick of being disappointed in myself, I'm sick of being embarrassed. I'm devastated that I broke my nose. I feel so out of control. Where do I go from here? I feel so terrified and alone. I want to run away but I guess I can't, and that's what's so scary. I feel like my life is over.",2.443002573634544,4.683997442379186,3.842026022304832,85.94480626251074,78.29368029739777,7.112439233628826,26.703031169573922,8.139509932561175,1.8257691163854741,1068,44,213,20,26,351,153,269,0.166,0.785,0.049,-0.9759,1,1,3,0,0,1,30.0,0,0,0,4,8,12,2,1,11,0,14,17,6,3,4,36,45,16,2,3,6,1,3,1,0,0,5,0,2,0,13,8,5,1,8,5,1,10,4,10,0,2,12,7,34,2,31,28,5,33,0,5,1,1,6,12,1,8,12,133,47,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12013606493794365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12163110131735658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08110655440563751,0.0,0.09545418210705324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10898132692582847,0.08919316373678217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19740677646198565,0.0,0.12172982639090138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13009850179546756,0.0926127440488391,0.0,0.0,0.07480732044760485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2272623102798048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17595200453725984,0.08286700789379313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10723571118410967,0.18180814378173785,0.0,0.1318455125559894,0.0,0.2783159198818033,0.0,0.2555636231021212,0.0,0.1025741894074648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12255531784227976,0.23270532539738764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12417528140416308,0.1309444836804026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12833152410970225,0.0,0.06374793902786838,0.09455158546101937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16386170765229266,0.05666940503860065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09861498747879552,0.0,0.10975748121354054,0.0,0.11760094627006602,0.2330655773456142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0860089853916508,0.08946266405542999,0.0,0.0,0.10885365564567592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12342709167912592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13202795422666194,0.0,0.1192624044873173,0.0,0.1245354556027436,0.13139997162787234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11739335469012492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11472223794552022,0.0,0.08210201329313795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12687994320320395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10138493442431422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07706206955613859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20291323566784045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.128874956736023,0.0,0.0,0.11331047455843404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06841698571604224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21505746092193734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,chokedonajellybean,2019/09/28,"Kindling Effect I don't have much to say. In the past year I've lost four jobs. I woke up today and I can't find my phone or my wallet. Many of you have gone through withdrawal. And each time it gets worse. I don't believe in God, but I pray that you are doing well. I need to know that people can make it out of this. &#x200B; My favorite things are jokes. And I want to tell you a joke. It's not my joke, I took it from my favorite comedian, Norm Macdonald. &#x200B; This occurred to me today. ID. Now that's an odd abbreviation. I stands for I. and D stands for dentification. You think they could've split that one up better. &#x200B; I hope that I made you smile. I know many of you are going through hell. And it's cliche to say this, but when you are going through hell, keep going. You can make it, I promise you can do it. No matter what you've done, you are still worthy. I promise you, you are still worthy. &#x200B; That's all I have to say.",-0.15923692536757986,2.138254959799,1.3970072585147977,98.17417457658665,92.36683417085428,3.953173273776289,16.918109063837704,5.5874745759252304,-0.7116187976921649,743,19,170,5,27,238,102,199,0.106,0.6559999999999999,0.23800000000000002,0.9791,1,0,0,0,0,0,47.0,0,12,1,3,5,11,2,0,3,0,18,0,0,4,1,25,36,9,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,18,7,0,1,5,3,0,5,5,3,1,2,6,3,35,8,20,30,3,21,3,1,0,0,18,5,2,2,9,114,53,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4203395034761657,0.4713970485671581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1092706187213469,0.0,0.08577671334697003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07743586054417834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09925090371041903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08864394075339896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05067146432264343,0.0,0.16535905768450154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0963295181874906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0962441759557608,0.08620609326010048,0.0,0.0,0.10660253223762843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1058722655861913,0.0,0.0,0.09177100944606484,0.12947853749478558,0.19665825840188766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07129626651757956,0.07191429070303666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0657205897227487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09258462694970107,0.06723825528344902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2313827687476845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15490715269487187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08477051105646698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06443354780901472,0.06214505886432727,0.0,0.0,0.056553631580324774,0.0,0.18386379968725705,0.0,0.1077556148448102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05720517428969212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08720254732381554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09883757033369744,0.0,0.0,0.4713970485671581,0.06245615210943841 alcoholism,tjraph,2019/09/28,“God grant me the serenity”... This prayer is really important to people overcoming alcohol. But what do you do if you’re a staunch atheist? The idea of asking “God” to grant you anything seems absolutely ridiculous.,4.9628378378378395,8.175017648648652,5.558040540540541,71.68949324324326,75.21621621621622,10.186486486486489,33.57432432432432,10.125756701596842,4.6664648648648654,171,9,26,6,4,55,30,37,0.065,0.6729999999999999,0.262,0.7579,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,0,3,1,0,0,0,4,5,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44812189904706895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3450618152052352,0.0,0.3920043963973705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4733573766228239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2907013179665409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2686249367693729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38173006373846746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,hypatia4ever,2019/09/28,"Looking for advice regarding a newly alcohol free partner Hi everyone, I am looking for advice/insights from anyone who might be familiar with this situation. I have a partner (together 8 yrs with a couple of splits) who is an alcoholic who has quit drinking due to a health scare. He has quit drinking before for up to about 4-6 weeks. I am thrilled he has done so, but 3 weeks in it has been difficult because he has been hypercritical of me, occasionally attacking who i am as a person, very cold, has accused me of not being supportive (I am not sure how I could be more supportive and encouraging), boring, etc., and has been very volatile with mood (I assumed that part at least was withdrawal/healing). When I asked him if we are doing ok, he said disdainfully ""You know the world doesn' t revolve around you."" The general theme is that I feel like I can't do anything right. He denies that anything he does/says is an issue and suggests it's me with the problem. I'm not sure what to do, he is very hard to talk with right now and everything seems to devolve into rancour. Is this something related to withdrawal? He has been smoking pot at night since he quit and that seems to be the only time he's remotely nice. If it is related to withdrawal, how can i be more supportive? I keep seeming to get my feelings hurt being around him with every interaction. TIA for any insights.",5.294678362573098,6.335384917293236,6.276340852130327,76.38517961570595,68.24812030075189,9.670509607351713,33.574770258980784,9.861636050157227,3.369190309106098,1092,50,202,25,18,363,152,266,0.147,0.7759999999999999,0.077,-0.9612,0,0,5,0,0,0,37.0,1,2,0,3,8,18,1,1,11,1,39,5,0,2,2,38,55,13,0,4,6,0,3,1,2,1,3,1,0,3,14,15,4,1,8,2,1,0,4,6,0,0,7,7,21,12,32,40,5,17,0,1,2,0,29,10,0,7,8,138,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10184175562065484,0.0,0.2227571709991166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07087260169189523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07287245892639163,0.0,0.17152697500031025,0.1855542938411154,0.0974308447616422,0.11856433850162193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06353103177024243,0.0,0.08868282788571723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08321051777154953,0.11531651673793973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10665238339188406,0.0,0.2041901976078868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11623191095673857,0.0,0.0,0.08780913607660144,0.09958587227964136,0.09366545968156596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10539267607178338,0.07445418774532081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05445020889416266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09335989539860072,0.0,0.0,0.11078009211028288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11156876481944383,0.0,0.0,0.10877772461651324,0.0,0.09263477676654727,0.0,0.0,0.05727612401356754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05091621659089289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17503568995752772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11056005768353247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09780262036967673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07926336642908847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1128591927074744,0.0,0.0,0.09100014939057534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0997236596988402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3325497113609108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1780051840430427,0.09913628579909037,0.08287925798893969,0.1043415589623534,0.0,0.0,0.2846316234416897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08621116498526159,0.11714670090551915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.080232999996556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.354799998462556,0.1964506472410372,0.0,0.0,0.08376741195081501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060771029502222886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2579751617354273,0.0,0.0,0.16719664529168074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,carrieesson,2019/09/28,"I need advice on how to stop drinking I think I have a problem with alcohol but I don’t know how to stop drinking. I am currently suffering from a hangover where I feel depressed, anxious and suicidal and I’ve just had enough of it. I didn’t make it to work today because of my drinking last night and that is not the first time that has happened. I hate who I become whenever I have had alcohol and the feeling of lack of control. I keep repeating the same pattern over and over and can’t seem to change. I think I can control my drinking and just stick to a few drinks or change up what I drink instead of stopping altogether, and it works for a while, but then I end up going on a bender where I don’t know where to stop and behave in ways I wouldn’t normally. The hangovers I experience give me physical and emotional pain and I always feel a sense of dread and panic. My hangovers last about 2 days and the majority of the time they prevent me from being productive and doing things that need to be done. I have ended up in very vulnerable situations due to my drinking over the years and I am only 23. Alcohol is dangerous for me to the extent that last year I tried to jump out my bedroom window because I was suicidal. Which I never would have done sober. Yet I still can’t seem to just not drink. It’s challenging because I am young and the majority of socialising amongst people my age involves drinking. Anytime I have went out and chosen not to drink I have felt uncomfortable and people always ask questions and assume I am an alcoholic that has vodka in my cereal in the mornings if I choose not to drink. Every single time I have a hangover I tell myself enough is enough, but then a few weeks later I end up drinking. I tell myself I’m being over dramatic and I should be able to let my hair down and have fun and to stop being so serious and harsh with myself.",4.767154255319149,5.548067917553194,5.872940425531919,79.74440000000001,69.29255319148936,8.888340425531915,30.199574468085107,9.065960079200117,2.4733050212765955,1491,57,290,27,25,497,174,376,0.2,0.7759999999999999,0.024,-0.9969,1,0,17,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,1,6,13,11,2,2,19,0,38,18,1,5,1,74,59,34,2,9,12,0,5,0,0,3,5,0,2,0,13,27,16,9,13,13,0,3,11,9,0,1,8,5,50,2,47,42,11,57,0,2,0,0,8,20,0,6,33,224,63,3,0.060332793852796024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05895650788743668,0.0,0.2579096330175392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10040343528974413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06815888400665117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05640301792386208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11033493343175356,0.06663283070353694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12764819210656214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13533671701500294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03890966082755019,0.0,0.05196454693890437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.123482790420048,0.0,0.7092380284947739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06786627251235071,0.1603108428948515,0.18701971206699228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05083298095304247,0.0,0.0,0.059017049343508036,0.0,0.0,0.0915182201087855,0.0,0.05792894354420815,0.0,0.0,0.05131904363016628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057876713447345865,0.034288517116323934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05335209035191599,0.0,0.0,0.05956614319274443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05362655930079265,0.0,0.0,0.06631465132525341,0.14753783850226845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06169436938632938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04027260838856353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0894720043355864,0.046532370018037436,0.0,0.0,0.05661823997530715,0.059113328110686834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04588580842486551,0.06419834643762454,0.07078753415962552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08365432530065943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057730335595337225,0.0,0.0,0.06758653692365811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10984941916463782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06781658813551213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048181847105889866,0.252204585923072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13198856813253396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1054670422057548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04008242737685756,0.0773176363388588,0.0,0.0,0.1055416118371236,0.0,0.057188434044031414,0.0,0.0,0.04096200667744775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04978087348988063,0.0,0.047889363499953104,0.04839532801068845,0.0,0.0,0.05592910434993817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08784598496988452,0.0,0.0,0.04285868572060486,0.0,0.0,0.07770468230570694 alcoholism,Ineedhelp342,2019/09/28,"Need helpful suggestions to stay sober Ive been drinking nearly non stop for almost 9 years. I Need help staying sober, I can't usually manage more than a day sober. Anyone have suggestions on making it past the first couple of days? Things I could do or say to myself? Activities? Religions? Demon summoning? Anything really, I need to kick alcohol's ass so I'm interested in any suggestions at all.",2.7012162162162165,5.70675506756757,4.517621621621622,75.85372972972975,86.16216216216215,8.365405405405406,24.967567567567574,8.841846274778883,2.9578205405405407,321,13,52,10,10,108,61,74,0.077,0.799,0.124,0.5384,0,0,2,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,6,3,1,1,1,9,11,2,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,6,1,10,9,2,13,1,0,0,1,6,4,1,2,7,30,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21188568822635276,0.1985344135688324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13482744388003515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13863195553355584,0.0,0.16315574032617458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15829899209633838,0.2193771756329316,0.0,0.2557298900902633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1942248608885127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1686446644349501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2657865779034996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13234386393781375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4410344117937086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18926700144814254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12701405515591782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1576688062602983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42264961522779465,0.0,0.1657589649116156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13171889101095666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21836160767275828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12767658110416635 alcoholism,Diamond_Fury,2019/09/28,"advice please I've been drinking almost every day since a year or more. It started off with 1 beer on a friday, then friday saturday, then 3 days a week and now 7. Eventually it went up to 5 beers throughout the day until I slept. This past month or more it has spiralled into 8-10 beers a night. Now I am ill almost every day with colds and I am 100% certain I'm quitting the alcohol completely. Already started and its hard but I'm doing it. Does anyone know when my immune system will fix itself? Am I to expect any withdrawals? I don't wake up with the shakes and never experienced it, but I do get bad anxiety (that I've suffered with my entire life) that gets worse after sleeping for 10 hours without drinking. Any advice is appreciated.",3.031805337519621,5.062038836734697,4.633605442176876,81.98218210361071,75.5986394557823,6.427838827838827,24.913134484563056,7.321109707123232,1.2992515960230242,587,20,108,7,13,197,98,147,0.127,0.802,0.071,-0.8504,0,0,6,0,0,1,17.0,0,0,0,1,3,4,0,1,7,0,10,12,3,0,2,20,19,12,0,1,5,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,10,9,6,0,1,5,0,2,3,3,0,0,3,3,8,1,15,15,2,29,0,1,0,0,0,5,0,4,21,66,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28938822066289155,0.0,0.15824378950086518,0.2965451627473973,0.0,0.16340098232668435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20138788822300865,0.0,0.1132745695343445,0.0,0.0,0.10353528911358004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12363382023515612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1552505306631076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3819764065734568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12957868472655593,0.0,0.0,0.2901081074380375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495138609138406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15472287344787988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1326433045366477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458209577730781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08137642322513043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10458753550037272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1181895479724204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11420214871322674,0.0,0.0,0.13895541230835196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1413513474521439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16253843989694813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15749265231175025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12248657480576634,0.0,0.14817879824440547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20961205282124976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1187743165533938,0.0,0.0,0.1372641000209816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14273599150883265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15089787803707605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.095353424733691 alcoholism,throw_away_______9,2019/09/28,"Should I go to the doctor? Hi all! I stopped drinking last night after like 6 am when i was out. I had half a liter of vodka spaced out from 10 till 6. I woke up and vomited today around 3. It's now 1 and I'm starting to get a mild fever (about 100) I haven't thrown up since this morning. I've taken tums for the nausea and advil for the fever. My heartbeat is slightly irregular but that just happens to me sometimes after I drink. I have a mild headache and just fever right now. Is it safe for me to go to sleep or should I go to a doctor / the er?",-0.5415357142857147,1.473821441666665,1.519523809523811,99.43500000000002,88.75,4.095238095238095,17.738095238095234,5.288315135182226,-0.737190476190476,423,11,103,2,14,140,77,120,0.013999999999999999,0.927,0.059000000000000004,0.7005,0,0,3,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,0,8,0,9,10,1,0,1,16,18,8,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,2,7,0,0,0,4,7,2,2,0,3,0,3,1,0,1,1,4,0,12,2,20,12,1,21,0,0,0,0,1,7,0,1,12,66,16,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19876483037378054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4570691553493423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4374550343337544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11665358220093128,0.0,0.3806822377471257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19744407021891908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820014370761094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10908239248431784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20953135435966466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19067826176129776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18469793643572974,0.0,0.2234393304137001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22082773196098396,0.0,0.15803737540026064,0.0,0.0,0.18667047399292813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21164151418659935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,S0me--guy,2019/09/28,Metallica I just heard that the band has had to postpone shows because James is back in rehab. I want to wish him and everyone else fighting alcoholism the best of luck.,6.587499999999999,7.339357750000001,6.1374999999999975,79.5575,65.25,10.15,34.75,10.125756701596842,3.4914500000000004,136,6,25,3,2,42,29,32,0.111,0.606,0.28300000000000003,0.7783,0,0,1,0,2,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,2,0,3,2,0,0,0,5,6,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,3,2,4,4,1,2,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,1,17,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41958104808847707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3018931135136336,0.0,0.2393316163671909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4120203248432177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3279755565478967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3751560003970678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315717479871843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4514825097703224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Forever_Man,2019/03/25,"Dating as a younger alcoholic Hello friends, I hit my second year of sobriety last month after getting sober at 21. I'm trying to start dating again ,but I feel like being in recovery makes it harder to meet someone my age. Most 20 somethings love going to bars, and drinking in general. At least that's what most of the tinder/OK cupid/hinge profiles lead me to believe. Are there any younger alcoholics who can offer some advice? I'd like to start dating again, but don't know where to start.",6.020771929824562,6.716434042105267,6.111315789473686,79.44837719298248,66.47368421052633,8.438596491228072,30.570175438596486,8.344100000000001,2.292649122807017,394,14,70,5,6,125,74,95,0.0,0.848,0.152,0.9408,0,0,4,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,4,4,0,0,2,0,4,5,0,2,0,11,15,4,0,0,2,0,1,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,4,1,4,0,2,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,5,4,14,13,4,20,0,0,0,1,6,5,0,3,15,41,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21484580778811724,0.0,0.4699294906321769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14951314682022768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24770826875391225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2153802616624592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1111684224589376,0.15706887623711935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16986420802649926,0.0,0.11486839600127155,0.0,0.12495217952491915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12082995874996065,0.17921621224497758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21482614113079015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19843330561801345,0.0,0.1467590498659643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1754911022161255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18628767064096552,0.16925988353669,0.0,0.0,0.4668566402669929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14927131420403986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14158339627885375 alcoholism,fzzydnlp,2019/03/25,"Recently sober and looking for replacements/things to do instead of drinking I decided to quit drinking and am currently on Day 7of my sobriety. The first 48 hours were extremely tough, but aside from an occasional headache, I'm pretty much past the hardest parts (I hope). I used to drink for two reasons: to enhance other activities (watching sports, television, playing video games), and to get myself tired enough to fall asleep easily. I was wondering what anyone who's had a similar situation did/does to fill in that alcohol void. So far I've found drinking coffee to help as far as a stimulus goes (I'll only drink a few cups a day, though; don't want to replace one addiction with another), and I've found sipping sparkling water like La Croix is a pretty good substitute for having a can nearby while watching sports. Any suggestions would be very much appreciated. &#x200B;",7.640943396226415,8.705239792452833,7.531754716981133,69.3832924528302,63.0251572327044,11.391446540880509,37.91257861635221,11.20814326018867,4.707379371069181,713,35,115,20,10,228,120,159,0.039,0.77,0.191,0.9811,1,0,6,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,2,3,5,0,0,9,0,11,10,1,2,0,15,20,10,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,4,5,7,0,5,10,0,2,1,1,0,3,5,3,6,4,19,13,5,14,0,0,3,0,4,4,0,2,9,66,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13456030062938448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13191244767311505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13373971448619207,0.1499847294000054,0.08393874208589883,0.1294303698151645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08630729490613782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15920827889492042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.604587242612724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275393901511773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10499213353598544,0.0,0.2706760506934157,0.0,0.0,0.06448870130039408,0.0,0.0,0.10352982974392974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08273460643660202,0.0,0.0,0.12259692132141413,0.1215567418004706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0603031788079746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10365271828910744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1814750647824032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08364146441337712,0.09387643620697217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13366602103699518,0.11783086263997294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2511516795435997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1312862976961271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12690978664711386,0.12187529718015838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1387439783326988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12127239604627255,0.0,0.0,0.14186819304754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12057620515795756,0.0,0.0,0.10660656912521613,0.0,0.10184523613988887,0.0728040416222273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13385793385441933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08768333421766063,0.0,0.1499847294000054,0.0 alcoholism,Blargh234,2019/03/25,"Cold turkey? I drink like 8 IPA a night, have been for a while. Internet says ill die from withdrawal if I just stop. I don't shake, or have any bad effects the next day. I've skipped a day and been OK, but supposedly on the third day you'll be struck down and be flopping on the ground, which wouldn't be a good look at work. 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I'm a 17 year old female, 5'3 and a little below 100 pounds. I've had drinking problems since I was 15 and got out of rehab exactly a year ago. Have ended up in the ER a couple times but stopped for about 2 months and have been drinking a lot again lately. The other night me and my friend got an entire handle of captain morgan, she didn't drink because she was driving, but from 9pm-4am I drank the entire handle by myself. I felt nauseous so made myself throw up and there was a lot of blood in it, but still took my meds before bed, skipped my sleeping pill but took my OCD one which was an SSRI. I woke up and took ginger, my Adderall and mood stabilizers (probably a bad idea) and still was throwing up the entirety of yesterday. I couldn't keep any food or water down and couldn't get out of bed but still tried. I woke up today, still having heat flashes, extremely nauseous and tried to eat some crackers and drink water hoping it would help but it hasn't. I feel the worst I ever have. Is this normal and what can I do about it??",6.324466666666666,5.565692968888893,6.564277777777778,81.39575,65.97777777777777,8.566666666666668,29.416666666666664,7.1686216300943375,1.630666666666667,878,24,174,6,12,283,131,225,0.040999999999999995,0.883,0.076,0.8618,0,0,4,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,0,11,6,0,0,15,0,19,14,2,1,2,39,35,21,0,6,7,0,2,0,1,1,2,0,2,0,8,15,10,2,3,4,0,6,4,3,1,1,19,2,19,2,23,13,4,39,0,0,0,0,6,12,0,5,21,118,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09889001725805592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07586371141915696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0931468177428976,0.06800512109505541,0.0,0.09492819935981253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12343753070758055,0.0,0.07194610394128093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43714004724386507,0.0,0.1141523554809586,0.0,0.0,0.09880785663099227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10091119097924592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056407408309640215,0.0,0.1071138042531892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13489716935231347,0.0,0.08618994069906474,0.0,0.05828479321554177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1784472961604882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07477541539353523,0.0,0.0,0.1108029168519944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12593614337524695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0991584590410066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12584302283876295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11181108057171234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18968635948635168,0.0,0.10555949744588676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12391651743930696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08904505468781121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10469024123056862,0.10930379648941016,0.0,0.0,0.1170620430235848,0.0,0.07559503229675045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12027909930192256,0.1067465672269822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09228247285155247,0.0,0.11163922207677952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44545443293979936,0.09326803147274568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06505074929863809,0.0,0.10574456143955104,0.0,0.37183731393983627,0.1514820087032175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07924806827043918,0.0,0.0,0.14368023341730565 alcoholism,DrinkMud,2019/03/25,"Why can’t I really feel or express my feelings and emotions unless I’m drunk? I’ll admit right from the bat that I’m pretty drunk when I’m writing this but I’ve been thinking about it a lot that I can’t really tell people how I i I really feeling unless I’m drunk. I’m very depressed and have been hospitalised a few times because of that and I want to be able to express to people how I’m really doing but I physically can’t do that unless I’m drunk. I’ve been drinking almost every day for the last year but over the last three months I’ve really isolated myself and been drinking alone probably 20+ beers a night.(I’m about 110lbs) I don’t know how to stop this progression and it kind of scares me that I’m falling into this pit where I’m not interacting with anyone anymore and keep just drinking myself into despair. I don’t know what to do or how to break out of this circle.",4.380009009009008,4.877718708108109,5.730608108108107,81.43573198198199,70.02702702702703,8.545045045045045,27.30855855855856,8.59863814320734,1.867963963963964,711,22,143,11,12,240,94,185,0.17800000000000002,0.782,0.04,-0.9762,0,1,4,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,9,4,0,1,6,0,14,8,0,4,0,37,32,19,0,1,10,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,12,10,8,2,7,8,0,1,6,3,0,1,4,3,13,1,21,27,2,16,0,2,0,0,6,6,0,4,8,88,25,0,0.14501298730165768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14520955969999375,0.15018972121577762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14381391725116774,0.10139645244121566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08839857109720453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09352138018444928,0.0,0.12489947347330592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4261725616043181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631200924998812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1221796961605042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2199687705973952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12889420605800514,0.0,0.15100871107496894,0.1593906908074864,0.2364098785528832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1232848560903698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11574798295958436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13608486513344062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20106749311412955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14753034119577654,0.15634852699235624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4644951646759993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1238402988181144,0.0,0.0,0.1451832980091322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12123735063592568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1267477426077935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09291846689511056,0.0,0.0,0.08455823905914922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11965090151247718,0.08553241706746474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13085166571243795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0933836093847212 alcoholism,KayOh19,2019/03/25,I think I'm an alcoholic I like to drink. I drink pretty much every night. Sometimes I get pretty drunk other times I don't. It doesn't affect my job or really my general day to day life which I think is sometimes why I don't think the drinking is too much of a problem. I've only recently started to come to terms with the fact that maybe the drinking is a problem. The nights I do drink to get drunk I get pretty fucked up. It's mostly just me and my husband sitting on the couch watching TV just drinking tall can after tall can until I pass out. I've done dumb things drunk... things I'm not proud of like driving which causes me so much guilt. I have been able to stop before - for weeks I've gone without drinking and after a couple of days it gets easy to not drink every night but once I start again I feel like I'm back on the roller coaster. Has anyone ever gone through this? I want to try to get help but I'm not sure where to start,1.1069095477386952,3.149466562814077,2.462359296482415,95.13072487437185,81.8643216080402,4.784020100502512,19.49773869346733,5.6839178017228535,-0.2625157788944725,742,19,163,4,20,239,108,199,0.102,0.7929999999999999,0.105,0.3926,1,0,9,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,8,10,2,1,10,0,13,14,0,2,3,29,34,7,0,3,9,1,1,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,10,5,12,1,4,13,0,5,7,5,0,0,4,2,19,5,24,30,5,33,0,0,1,1,2,7,2,2,23,96,29,1,0.08505194108120492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09089465906884382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05947029476010862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06539969274843682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0723729374886449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0873717721258268,0.0,0.07326471622791983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09410835509257946,0.0,0.1645543974775386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08703766512929334,0.0,0.6665481811794898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0769343500234712,0.14331985724210972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04300481693554923,0.06076112370259418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07862914902085406,0.22218064412758548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057008523288758474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08440092779329443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06007470127037751,0.12465624681836993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08544610657394149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1875688886893584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2394464553846372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09057754145641064,0.0,0.06468583377950521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2595852024130354,0.0,0.16276644219834213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05448645133603983,0.0,0.08397853107506455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16823708900362774,0.0,0.18060060497164548,0.0,0.0,0.07110723111770735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08016044792065795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11300946082377306,0.16349354879392572,0.0,0.0,0.049594470814042654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05774468503809811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050165838469503066,0.0,0.06822353688134243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07674614784261173,0.0,0.0,0.08198703611668626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,PN32-72-59,2019/03/25,"What can I expect from attending my first AA meeting? I've never been to AA before and neither would I ever believe that I'd have a drinking problem like my dad. I told myself that I wouldn't drink even a sip of alcohol after the hell that my alcoholic dad has inflicted on my family, but here I am and I need to take control of this before it can kill me. I haven't had a drink in a few days since I've sworn myself off of it and I've been having cravings for it. How do I make these cravings stop? I know that AA will help me with this, but what can I do in the meantime before I start going to a meeting next week?",2.9563847429519043,3.36190243283582,4.746517412935326,87.55113598673303,73.17910447761193,7.448092868988391,25.33665008291874,7.3871296695380915,1.0559893864013277,482,14,108,5,9,165,78,134,0.11599999999999999,0.8420000000000001,0.042,-0.8818,0,0,5,0,0,1,8.0,0,0,0,2,4,4,2,0,7,0,16,5,0,3,2,18,23,6,1,5,2,2,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,12,4,5,2,1,3,0,2,4,3,3,1,4,0,19,1,14,16,2,15,1,0,0,0,6,4,1,0,10,81,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35516580900552275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42418982297615737,0.187214272402841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18637138141915088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10716452118721423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4883437179539123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10975230253168176,0.15030834015068256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15664826723251662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14134229446992552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0944370226015616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11137881203078501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1838401142047857,0.0,0.0913215086667627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08118122157816687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1109183350132103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1232113606281358,0.12815889541649414,0.0,0.17672140129356415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15900019790640316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13745576862897246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11761446460614575,0.0,0.0,0.1389237691454188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12493754878929865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15878050854694933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13328983197641864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1180408781849331,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,lunamarjorie,2019/07/27,"Alcohol cessation and Restless Leg Syndrome Hello everyone! I have come a long way than where I was two years ago. Two years ago I was binge drinking daily and it was terrible on my health, as you can imagine. I have slowly been able to wean myself down. Now I drink about once a week, on weekends only. I stop before it becomes excessive and before I make terrible decisions, which is fantastic. I want to get it down to once a month and then eventually to every once in a while. Psychologically speaking it is not entirely too difficult. I would often smoke weed instead, but even now I can have multiple nights in the row of complete sobriety (yay!). However one thing has been holding me back tremendously and it is literal torture. The night after drinking I will be okay, as long as I remain hydrated and prevent a hangover. By the second night I start getting really bad restless leg syndrome. I figured if I go long enough that it goes away, but I am finding that it gets progressively worse as the week goes on. I didn't want to drink last night but the physical itch in my body was just too much when all I wanted to do was relax before my weekend. I have taken some actions like cutting back on caffeine and other solutions provided by the internet. However I wanted to see if anyone here has any advice that can help me manage my sobriety so that I can do things like get a full night's sleep. I am not on any medications that would affect dopamine levels. By the way, I am going to bring it up with my doctor next month because I have a physical. So I am not looking for medical advice as much as remedies that have helped you. Or even just anecdotes so I don't feel like I'm the only recovering alcoholic dealing with this terrible ailment haha.",5.064802761341222,6.383152437869827,6.1711390532544375,75.90254684418149,69.0,9.420315581854043,32.13067061143984,9.725611199111238,3.24346114398422,1396,61,249,32,24,466,183,338,0.09,0.8109999999999999,0.099,-0.3034,2,0,7,0,0,0,30.0,0,2,0,1,19,16,2,2,15,3,34,15,5,2,1,40,53,25,0,8,11,0,1,3,0,3,7,1,0,0,19,10,6,3,5,7,0,5,5,9,0,4,9,4,36,7,36,40,6,52,0,0,2,0,7,15,0,5,33,186,55,2,0.08385896086564508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16389201202153592,0.14867181809445704,0.17923945205372238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11405393806987607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058636135255217575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0787882542014606,0.12896472920189067,0.07001872953167823,0.051119644192963117,0.09261563381215937,0.21407339757704455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0931484008722552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0722370694059024,0.08792452498413182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08645490641786514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08583319985441377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3285994248339962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08664872348745761,0.0,0.110776105518125,0.0,0.0706547913366309,0.08013083080394162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0424016102935174,0.05990885839822953,0.0,0.0,0.07664557099802911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17525138360531867,0.0,0.09531795998091523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08913815397838189,0.0,0.0,0.11241778759442478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06835624561191117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12290775719767714,0.0,0.0,0.22263762443547705,0.07042040670815694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05597650755332105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16895816132400432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338708450036072,0.0,0.12329197034390682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08918495623978233,0.3934797700530279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679211693845051,0.056825002169526524,0.12755703713564914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053722197661947926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0668247345536553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0839195228042776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059355804120406426,0.0,0.0,0.07010984623938138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11142433473235176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16383603916428768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19784875131725715,0.13312667964363153,0.13453320022375526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08545944539354912,0.11914199953565127,0.0,0.0,0.10800484274688828 alcoholism,nathaniell20,2019/07/27,"Random drunk thought Sometimes I wish I was born in the medieval era where no one really knew how bad alcohol is for you, and so no one would get annoyed at me for drinking. Does anyone else relate to this or think about similar things. ( I’m watching game of thrones and I swear there is someone drinking ale in every scene)",4.158571428571431,5.930388984126985,4.308126984126982,86.61742857142859,71.85714285714286,6.944761904761903,30.06031746031745,7.554174236665415,1.8744184126984127,258,11,49,3,5,80,53,63,0.20800000000000002,0.753,0.039,-0.8646,0,0,3,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,5,2,1,0,1,0,4,4,0,1,0,10,10,5,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,4,0,3,4,0,0,2,2,0,2,3,1,5,0,8,6,0,6,0,0,1,0,2,4,0,2,2,31,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2598430860441873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17000938313350172,0.2491260173501893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20301203283026548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2127737551729384,0.0,0.0,0.4763699489307678,0.0,0.0,0.20311255989449392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20485622796052289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12703079547428794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3295163817789805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15576193153472062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2060120260433692,0.0,0.2404720191572709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1615316419768843,0.15579451606264755,0.0,0.19302627558805827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2795993984193427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17271992567540226,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,SpaceJesus77,2019/07/27,"I need help coming down I have been drunk for about two months straight. It takes 15 to get buzzed, 30 before I am stupid. However now I barely sleep and my body is breaking down. I can barely keep food down and have saliva and acid reflux back and fort. Losing weight. It really has almost no effect on my hand eye or judgement now, it just makes me more emotional. I don't want this anymore. When sober I am very strong and have lots of stamina. Now I barely have the strength to leave the house. I am afraid to try and stop. I have already dealt with hallucinations (audio) before and know how to counter them. I can handle throwing up. I just don't know if I will survive this time when I can't even process food.",2.5476923076923086,4.576551041958044,2.9755244755244767,93.32174825174828,77.04195804195804,5.51888111888112,20.79020979020979,6.297961479604792,0.05406013986014013,561,14,119,4,13,173,95,143,0.106,0.768,0.126,0.608,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,1,5,11,5,1,1,2,0,17,8,4,3,0,24,26,12,0,3,4,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,5,9,4,2,3,1,0,2,4,3,0,1,1,5,18,2,13,24,2,18,0,1,1,0,2,6,0,4,9,78,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17718129284232895,0.0,0.19525927876968935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17547836271886108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13605704527879514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30112826586902675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19654205104845046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15241938293966106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19903530413149847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11686815222705994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4279165827609647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0924445993176667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11860011734628913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20416666494054198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15727368168064132,0.0,0.0,0.19448477581399606,0.0,0.0,0.18735543644301336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19795221129181934,0.0,0.1504292846497291,0.0,0.0,0.11810978505306505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14123296914501904,0.0,0.0,0.13119983561015058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11335321719360268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1770692248123465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479309666032476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330379421112246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10317597648477286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12013162289705205,0.0,0.17284607610797167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14599521865867754,0.10436464560083188,0.0,0.0,0.2154670054000985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,earlyplanet,2019/07/27,"Got a dui a couple of weeks ago and I think it was a blessing in disguise. Just a really expensive one. I’m 28 and if I can remember correctly I’ve been drinking regularly almost every day since I was about 16 or so. It started off as fun like it does for most people but just turned into something I did everyday like having coffee every morning. I’ve wanted to stop for a while but the whole “you’re hurting yourself” argument never really worked because I feel like I’ve developed some sort of death wish. Not trying to sound like woe is me, but things haven’t seem very bright for me for what seems like ever. These past few months seemed like they started to get increasingly worse. I had just officially moved out on my own just a couple of months ago (I know it was later than most people) and I started to drink cheap whiskey by the 5ths like Kentucky tavern. Since it was so cheap I was able to buy a lot so I started drinking more and more. Within the couple weeks that I have moved out I have left food on my stove while on 3 times. Everyday felt excruciating to get out of bed. I was constantly late to work. Luckily I work at a place where they just shook their heads when I would come in an hour and a half late. It’s been around two weeks since it happened and this is the longest I’ve been sober in a really long time. I’ll admit I think I feel better. Within the past year or so I decided to start making music again. I started uploading my stuff to places like YouTube and Bandcamp. Even though it’s only been a couple of weeks I feel like I’ve been able to come and really focus on my project and see small and encouraging results. I don’t pass out too early while I’m in the middle of working on a song. I was really scared that I would lose my voice. Some of my better received works were the ones where I was barely conscious in an almost fever dream state. When I would drink even though it was bad the way I would find inspiration was something that I miss. I sit down, drink and try to go to the deepest and darkest depths of my mind to find what I needed to write. The only way I can explain it is like it was a portal that I only had access to. Almost like a Alice in wonderland thing. The place I would enter was terrible and filled with horrible things but it was familiar. I knew the color of the walls and the beings that lived there. It felt familiar. Anyway sorry if this was really long. I mainly wanted to type this out. That somehow feels good.",3.3818194380469846,4.852059544910183,4.399640718562875,86.39974666052511,73.31137724550898,7.3739904805773095,23.22539536311991,7.969615865706242,1.0831962843543679,1956,52,401,28,39,636,237,501,0.114,0.745,0.14,0.8991,0,0,8,0,0,0,35.0,0,0,3,8,25,27,0,2,30,0,39,9,1,2,3,86,77,34,1,11,14,0,6,11,0,5,1,3,2,0,29,24,7,1,21,8,4,11,4,8,0,4,27,12,46,19,57,44,12,87,1,4,3,0,8,33,0,17,50,266,75,7,0.11850833064390867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10505048473231776,0.0,0.1780034619704701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05274876974910853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049474752995692886,0.03612078920298482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10481098797719816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10208443340500252,0.0,0.06403270228515008,0.0,0.0,0.26225442758602296,0.0,0.03821403465786927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051853719380015914,0.0,0.0,0.2902326185958836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07827363471161637,0.05359878489869359,0.09984837978988256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11984274550096205,0.08466237509109246,0.11378658200611715,0.0,0.10831446724910164,0.0,0.07165037191013164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06191571151047383,0.0,0.03367550766524235,0.049699582577223136,0.047390968978983664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052398262704318105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0608118684474344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0583534169994605,0.0,0.06343280950094887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032564539630649154,0.0,0.1336825588258783,0.0,0.06437982399765121,0.0,0.0,0.3184345134608785,0.0,0.052322513565918764,0.10487614338017597,0.0,0.06629025436677069,0.0,0.050375772407721536,0.0,0.0,0.03955261546853889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05982981551139707,0.0,0.09459221888454347,0.1259556006548961,0.0,0.04393621277942657,0.04570046519971263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08030431186401601,0.13519638846689186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11312961109673103,0.08215875487808362,0.0,0.18572397346570185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22775841356917226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06712341840057609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0593237564599936,0.0,0.04721789809895166,0.16182830003488533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14704697360990915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09123350272287327,0.0,0.06633018686796117,0.2516424191663668,0.0,0.0,0.04953913543504228,0.0,0.0,0.06783184285878979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11809750352793308,0.07593535311995445,0.11643383315798075,0.0,0.06910316061721307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08045937741608505,0.06445151660838172,0.05788270955258161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048890891988818116,0.06989928385874951,0.09406639675639288,0.19012046906046895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06615515949372505,0.06813936583801862,0.0,0.0,0.21568869034042856,0.0,0.06038505668803741,0.21046229479829667,0.0,0.0,0.038157739743216935 alcoholism,sempersky,2019/07/27,"Sex drive went down after I quit drinking For the last 10 years, almost every week, I had at least a night of binge drinking. 2 months ago I quit drinking for good, and I realized I lost at least 70% of my *normal* sexual drive. I red that it should be the opposite, so I am kind of puzzled and I wonder if it’s just a coincidence. Did this happen to anyone else? I’m a 35 yo male. I overall feel way better: before I was putting way too much effort in achieving sex and even when I got it, my satisfaction would not last long. I was putting myself in risky situation to have sex and I was spending way too much money. Thanks!",2.197869318181816,3.8897257187500043,3.8825568181818175,87.95221590909092,76.96875,6.529545454545455,22.57386363636364,7.348242739294969,0.7648968750000003,484,14,103,6,11,162,85,128,0.051,0.85,0.099,0.7782,0,0,3,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,6,6,5,0,0,5,0,10,6,0,0,0,15,18,7,0,4,3,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,5,4,3,0,3,3,2,5,1,1,0,0,8,2,16,4,13,7,4,23,0,1,1,3,1,5,0,4,10,65,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12794838135511,0.0,0.14453529902162013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1009256319184557,0.14789301781450526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12282240199582688,0.0,0.0,0.12765668139546266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4241936877541031,0.0,0.0,0.1205772474442173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09533497051110183,0.0,0.12161237149546927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07298245859156531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12106524136435612,0.11544159528938915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1276390664149849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15030752283240356,0.0,0.23531214169990586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12773603874796602,0.0,0.0,0.1575637670084458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11521052307283895,0.0,0.2122124857525132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13545297372304846,0.1414222003854398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2902024089061346,0.0,0.3070459471966101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16224380225723342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1328885472992032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3437102618485699,0.11578055227801222,0.0,0.0,0.1338042917824683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15653018179110328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1025347385091687,0.0,0.0,0.09294999539992016 alcoholism,krampata,2019/07/27,"question about alcoholics i'm not an alcoholic but when i'm drunk i'm a fun person and i'm not doing weird stuff. i have an alcoholic family member and whenever she is drunk she do very very DARK & bad stuff. why is that? does that mean she have more problems other than being an alcoholic? she is a very very very dark person. how are you people when you get drunk?",0.3166909090909087,2.7519481600000013,2.173090909090913,91.62654545454548,94.06666666666666,5.927272727272728,16.151515151515152,7.348242739294969,0.4075333333333329,292,7,60,6,11,96,43,75,0.22,0.708,0.07200000000000001,-0.9293,0,0,4,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,0,4,4,0,0,5,0,9,7,0,1,0,9,15,6,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,5,2,7,0,2,3,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,7,1,2,14,1,2,0,0,0,0,9,0,0,1,2,37,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5926018888603445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1502026700629431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1157480423551997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12131372353885693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13068552306402595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07242706597232079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15100581837535906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09610674600342907,0.2420881005695764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13264764684462904,0.0,0.0,0.15529435242058398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31739028675631664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5719103880314339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12508961648626782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ses421_,2019/07/27,"My ex-alcoholic dad acts one way with other people and a completely different way with us. My dad is an alcoholic, now sober with 27 years. He is in AA and now sponsors newcomers. I'm so happy he's sober but I don't think people very much understand the other side to things. We go out to AA functions with him, the open ones of course, for support. He wants us to go with him and by us I mean my mom and I. I'm 19 and live at home with them while I'm in between semesters at nursing school. I've never seen him drink and I'm glad, but I feel like I live with a dry drunk. He's abusive. He's always verbally, mentally, and emotionally abusive and at certain times he has become physically violent towards me and my mom. He has thrown her cell phone across the room at her, she ducked, and the phone hit the wall with shattered glass and dented drywall. He's picked his hand up at me but I shoved him back before he could. He's beligerant at times. Then other days I walk into the laundry room to find him pinning my mom up against the wall, against her will, with his hand on her ass and chest. He uses AA as leverage, as if HE is the one doing US a favor. He got sober before he met my mom and ten way before they had me. Neither of us were cause for him to stop, yet he acts all high and mighty since he had the ability to stop and is now assisting others. Going out with him to AA functions is always problematic, but we feel as though a fight would surely ensue if we said no. People say so many good things about him, how he is such a nice man and it's amazing for us that he stopped drinking. Quite frankly, I'm sick of it. I'm sick of people glorifying his sobriety for the sake of us. Above all, I'm sick of people thinking they know him more than I do. They may know his sober side and the stories he shares in meetings but I've lived with the aftermath of his sobriety. I'm happy he's not drinking but I hate what we live with at the same time. And please don't tell me I need to fix myself, that I'm the one in the wrong. I've heard that too many times.",2.033252873563221,3.4992837678160957,3.4181321839080465,92.07800287356324,76.83908045977013,6.580459770114943,22.65804597701149,7.2793139503082624,0.6032183908045976,1609,46,367,19,36,527,200,435,0.131,0.73,0.139,0.4138,1,0,5,0,1,0,44.0,11,0,4,1,12,16,3,0,21,0,19,12,4,4,5,74,50,35,0,6,9,6,4,1,0,3,4,3,3,1,12,38,5,3,9,4,0,6,6,4,4,5,8,8,55,12,59,37,6,54,0,0,1,1,72,27,1,3,19,219,67,1,0.0,0.16008016590784413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14438871264585998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11242017288840224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05194462215997448,0.0,0.0,0.074607749487038,0.17244965845248414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06939625401576434,0.0,0.0,0.07082876468877207,0.0,0.0,0.05393612912994456,0.0,0.0,0.043566545154945485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07057923394542845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19853071150483947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07598881519454563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06831435662453841,0.04826037371287442,0.0,0.0,0.06174285404027744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11517696614204866,0.05666083489790981,0.054028861606591566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14382433047768062,0.0,0.06669528882850556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07137418847255783,0.06776186478850259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07425148896056362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033003323454785474,0.0,0.2386046038109652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1369776889556586,0.0,0.07358577867236929,0.0,0.0,0.06807823647657486,0.0,0.0,0.3164722878341265,0.0,0.0,0.049659739174477545,0.05009020939897032,0.05210157468455883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18310453006510946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2341661340078521,0.0,0.0,0.07415367189515681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07185167073603012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06425903426058269,0.053721410235159466,0.0,0.06836794657790217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05588111517169128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1694337434026969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.076659133343852,0.06366855874123986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059044907599941875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08975934742650055,0.08657136102418783,0.06637116304593045,0.0,0.15756441288301942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07032577964283135,0.5688114479011739,0.0583447034267981,0.0,0.0557388737558436,0.03984491998548317,0.1608629378659377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04798820722195205,0.07385936150173918,0.0,0.043502365202130966 alcoholism,Uhhuhhhoneyy,2019/07/27,"First day! Well, it might not seem like much but to me it is. I’ve been struggling with drinking to cope with my feelings and my crippling anxiety and panic disorder. I was drinking before work, after work, at night, all day. My body, mind and soul have had enough of this bullshit that I’ve been putting us through. I never wanted to admit my problem, but it’s become bigger than myself and the ONLY way I’m going to feel okay about myself and change this fucking depressed shell of a person I feel like is to stop giving in to my toxic impulses for temporary relief. I haven’t drank at all today. I went to dinner with my friends who all had a drink, but not me. I’d usually be half drunk by the time I even showed up, and yeah it felt fucking weird and I got anxious before and during a few times, but I was able to control the panic and actually feel BETTER because I just fucking did it. I want to stay sober. I NEED to stay sober to fix what’s wrong in my life. Does anyone have tips or encouragement to share? No one in my life knows the extend of my alcoholism and I kind of feel like I’m doing this on my own, but I’m ok with that. It would just be nice for someone who understand to let me know what to expect and how to stay on the right track. And to anyone desperately reading through everyone’s posts wondering if what they are going through is normal(like I was even this morning)don’t let it be normal. If YOU feel bad about your drinking, it’s a problem. Let’s rid ourselves of this shit that’s effecting our lives and be better people because of it. Much love",3.5833568443051185,4.902769429467085,4.500960031347965,86.46684234587255,72.57366771159873,7.197544409613374,25.83085161964472,7.645422480735847,1.290125287356322,1244,40,253,15,24,403,167,319,0.204,0.665,0.131,-0.9831,1,0,5,0,0,0,30.0,2,2,1,7,8,28,4,3,9,3,25,16,2,3,4,60,54,22,0,10,12,0,7,3,1,2,3,0,0,1,22,17,8,2,14,7,0,4,5,13,1,3,12,7,33,15,44,33,8,30,1,1,0,4,14,10,4,6,14,175,55,3,0.08464491744792013,0.0,0.08260122925303524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09045967458865352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06475313016433157,0.09562466349829056,0.0,0.11837138874389007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0706749704484495,0.10319751206106546,0.0934836611078096,0.14405318071085332,0.0,0.0,0.14972310177286074,0.0,0.09402142145393448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08954309914437583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09493647242126316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10917793850920512,0.0,0.07290454336648107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0970104086870545,0.0,0.07407333767070771,0.0,0.0,0.3316791777693307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08746082673638539,0.0,0.11181433933824418,0.0,0.0,0.0808818459997348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2567940813412118,0.12094069187529673,0.08127239484563475,0.0,0.0,0.07199892354032474,0.0,0.0,0.06539645324946687,0.2347585866917212,0.0,0.08119911774449484,0.09621131445708214,0.0,0.06769827294346757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08814465601117548,0.09303726594709234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2596654888773395,0.11957441688213916,0.12405969325537462,0.0,0.07474301287328979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07639534275496795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08979488108685645,0.08546723706881952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12444750738649794,0.06276313375577823,0.06528337852947477,0.0,0.0,0.07943352102091167,0.16586809456260634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05735758669039232,0.06437627396520476,0.0,0.1986251457176849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05868212796934496,0.07390867700885775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08106643289880819,0.0,0.0,0.1619875089037198,0.0,0.08509152111823366,0.0,0.0,0.08466782356470215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07228629700855234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07705755380381604,0.0,0.0,0.08688679138014171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07171936387048339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2706606589045509,0.0,0.07076694113496941,0.0,0.08848924609849809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09871426412055387,0.0,0.08023348447021285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0881183442266293,0.10181741363605,0.0,0.09322441802502178,0.0,0.09985153076994596,0.06718719557355808,0.0,0.0,0.07610594623160354,0.07846668649536162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09179380226183273,0.12324501603637425,0.0,0.0,0.06012932077367784,0.0925459294475484,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,katt_724,2019/07/27,"Questions for alcoholics A common phrase is a drunk man's truth is a sober man's secret. Is that the same for an alcoholic? I just need to know if my SO is being honest or not.",0.4247368421052649,2.437888578947369,2.709736842105261,92.55565789473684,84.26315789473685,5.905263157894738,17.394736842105264,7.1686216300943375,0.08813684210526329,138,3,31,2,4,47,30,38,0.063,0.765,0.172,0.6278,0,0,2,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,5,0,5,3,0,0,1,10,7,3,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,3,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,6,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,3,1,22,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8272795309120214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21271308480834872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2869933817922521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4335856548512054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,graveboi,2019/07/27,"I'm not sure if I'm an alcoholic or not? Hello, I'm new here, I have questions, so I'll start with my story. I'll preface this by saying that I'm a 23 year old, parents only drink socially, and that my grandfather died of alcoholism before I ever got the chance to meet him. Pretty much since I was 19 I've had moderate/severe depression and horrible self-esteem issues. When I became 21 I used to drink a lot. I was pretty much the only person in my group of friends at the time that enjoyed drinking as much and as often as I did. It was my way of loosening myself up basically. When I was 22 I got kicked out of a friend group because of a drunken emotional breakdown, but I attribute that to poor mental health and being a bit too honest. My 23 year old resolution was to finish off all of the alcohol in my house and to significantly cut down my drinking. I felt that my behavior projected that I was an alcoholic so I wanted to chill out, go back to being a social drinker. It went well for a while but a lot of shitty shitty shit happened in February/ March that made me go back to drinking more often than I'd like just to get back to a more ""looser self"". Lately I've been more relaxed and have maybe drank one or two beers a week for about 2 months now. My drinking has become almost nothing when compared to earlier in my life. The odd thing I will admit though is that when I was drinking heavily, I never had an actual urge to drink. It was just a decision I'd make. I could go weeks at a time and not feel withdrawals or the urge to drink if I wanted to. It's just more often than not I'd want to have fun and I saw drinking as the way to get me there. However, something odd is happening now. As of 2 weeks ago I now have a physical/mental urge to drink. I'd never felt anything like this before. It's like a constant voice in the back of my head to tell myself to pick up a pack of beers. I wish I were being dramatic but every day that I have driven home in the last 2 weeks, I have to explicitly tell myself to not buy a pack of beer. Because I now have ""the urge"" I don't want to drink anymore. I don't want to drink if my body has to tell me. It feels wrong because it doesn't feel like the consciencious decision that it used to be. These past 2 weeks I've only had a single beer because it was lying around and I wanted to test something. After finishing it, I wanted more. Way more. That's when I realized I probably have a really serious problem. Is ""the urge"" ever going to go away or am I actually a by-definition alcoholic now? It feels really fucked up and I really don't enjoy it. It doesn't feel under my control anymore, despite my efforts to not drink as soon as I started having this feeling. Idk what to think of this besides cutting back even further. I'm just looking for advice I guess. TL;DR I used to be a moderate drinker for fun. Lately after cutting back heavily I have developed an actual physical/mental urge to drink. This urge is something that I never felt before even when I was drinking at my heaviest. Am I considered an alcoholic now?",3.7869447640966674,4.6539414113924105,5.527324510932107,81.01761795166863,71.59493670886077,8.59355581127733,27.81300345224396,8.906399129114982,2.1393373417721517,2420,85,485,45,44,831,249,632,0.113,0.799,0.08800000000000001,-0.9493,2,0,31,0,0,0,63.0,0,0,0,3,39,23,5,0,37,0,46,33,3,8,8,82,95,37,1,13,20,1,9,4,2,1,8,2,1,2,33,14,27,1,15,21,2,7,14,9,1,2,26,13,62,14,80,62,14,82,0,1,2,1,18,20,2,15,56,340,95,2,0.0,0.0,0.12673118179690887,0.0,0.0,0.042301417444958835,0.03837300282022417,0.27757604987852186,0.0433475857860633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08586192435476506,0.0,0.0,0.03562308077045543,0.03853630367348879,0.0,0.0,0.04067135169830692,0.1997189775763468,0.0,0.105554059992144,0.047809195085149,0.11050701059887244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04726027307478233,0.04808421522227534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0467799281771182,0.048552188445525765,0.034562668589263754,0.0,0.0,0.027917762843933682,0.0,0.03728467087293633,0.0,0.04492704946938607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.678506354061952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04869419215702976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057183827627099476,0.07831458671776771,0.03647276991662714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13132902783295025,0.03092560273677558,0.12469241365283705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06688980200882179,0.04001989558408777,0.04523333287726712,0.0,0.12301041293656052,0.0,0.069244184485871,0.0,0.0476876098395923,0.0,0.07656047233484417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04442690588972813,0.04601408226310715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04342230177536517,0.0,0.0,0.0499495848641323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04518237052840698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03528623567351933,0.09766354186582976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0305762341577439,0.08459509047554062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03635177802825548,0.0,0.0,0.07360535885572281,0.0,0.04096100906345508,0.028895680563281845,0.0,0.043489523996362224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04362503508200502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03455279136766497,0.0,0.09546697927737498,0.0,0.1001612177875824,0.04180869467949873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04153687233285948,0.0,0.09084884868334443,0.0,0.02933368269062398,0.09876948991037184,0.0,0.0,0.04806720665813181,0.0,0.041324158538891716,0.0,0.03779820254928547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08808075906632458,0.04667276176808135,0.04142163626649127,0.0,0.0,0.04849348128836554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08319594401196442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03442507514086425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09031953878625774,0.04890414151483823,0.04443543941465099,0.035809029962540616,0.0,0.0,0.08825517530808398,0.0,0.09997774306909203,0.0,0.0,0.061280220235470376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040799281128015334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1135092343210535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028759225290496036,0.027737782713251082,0.04253112986128083,0.0,0.05048421783121868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04228697054684073,0.0,0.0,0.11216314635525516,0.0,0.0,0.1787304262740632,0.10308215475309264,0.17361874421687776,0.0,0.03892192483059085,0.0401292490889467,0.0,0.0,0.04978010494921943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04732962255502264,0.0,0.05575327171543792 alcoholism,_complex_mind_,2019/07/27,Is it possible? Do you think you can be an alcoholic at 17?,-1.8761538461538485,0.0006371538461564796,2.3757692307692326,89.60673076923081,100.53846153846158,8.753846153846155,21.884615384615387,8.841846274778883,2.4171846153846155,45,2,11,2,2,17,12,13,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6359931734554473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6708987620981569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.381323398617538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,DamachKH,2019/01/26,"I feel like I can't stop. I've been killing an 18-pack of Rolling Rock just about everyday for 3 years now. When I snag that last one up, it's the ultimate depression.. I know it's a problem, so does my new fiance. And last night, I really hammered in the nail. I have this dream where I wake up, have to pee, run down the hallway to the bathroom, start to pee, and I wake up peeing off the edge of our bed. This was the SECOND time. I'm scared she will break off our marriage if this continues..but I cant stop the shakes without. I'm at a loss with what to do with myself. It is like my best/worst friend.",1.3626293706293744,2.772661276923081,2.725244755244756,96.57339160839165,78.53846153846153,6.265734265734268,21.81818181818182,6.980632752743323,0.274692307692308,466,13,114,5,11,151,88,130,0.08,0.7909999999999999,0.129,0.4919,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,2,0,0,1,6,9,1,2,10,0,9,5,5,0,0,12,14,5,1,2,3,0,1,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,8,4,0,2,2,2,0,2,3,6,0,2,2,1,15,3,19,11,0,24,0,2,0,0,5,9,0,1,14,71,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24273177758400305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1992156407651876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2024094349443617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1169506386863894,0.16523851816346188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17869937504955272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25589569862017536,0.0,0.12711470160042634,0.3770756123259277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2259999184665812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22338794215233712,0.0,0.21705642827867186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1567327337588787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2213198512196421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14817468687414034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315685001464315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16371310319521154,0.0,0.0,0.3867490521770952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13487105515896816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22296191266714613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14894759011549585 alcoholism,Hev60,2019/01/26,"Symptoms What are some of the first signs and symptoms of alcohol abuse on the liver? My mum has been a heavy drinker for years, mostly whisky and I’ve definitely noticed some physical changes but what should I look out for as far as liver or organ damage. She refuses to discuss her drinking and says everything is fine. I worry she’s going to get cirrhosis and I don’t know how to handle that.. thank you",4.529915611814347,6.141321253164557,5.22854430379747,81.02779535864978,70.64556962025316,8.30464135021097,29.62236286919831,8.841846274778883,2.4468464135021093,325,13,60,6,6,105,62,79,0.128,0.785,0.087,-0.6652,0,0,4,0,1,0,6.0,0,1,0,1,1,3,0,0,3,0,6,6,2,1,0,15,11,9,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,3,5,2,1,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,1,1,2,8,2,11,9,3,6,0,1,1,0,8,3,0,4,2,42,11,0,0.0,0.2934470034585697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2646826033623689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2620007279756552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2426211144697396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22258872836689236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2106669364951665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1293967146295725,0.0,0.14075587436730722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13611228358145264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20797939698861867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2819725458929492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.196956153383192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5148453831465893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280201359197537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2515196667248649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1594905732328474 alcoholism,christycaa,2019/01/26,"What should I tell my visiting alcoholic dad after my baby is born? Hello Reddit, I don't really know what to do about my current situation and thought I'd write to you all to see what kind of advice I can get. My dad is an alcoholic and about a year-and-a-half ago he almost died falling because he was drunk. He lost his memory for about a month and was the most stubborn and cruel person during that time. Much of that time he was in the hospital and only remembers hallucinations like the room being full of fire and dogs trying to attack him. Once he was sober and the effects of not drinking and hallucinations stopped, he made the decision to stop drinking. Unfortunately, his wife is an enabler and now he drinks about one to three beers a day. At least this is what he tells me. We currently live on opposite coasts so I only really know what he just tells me. I'm due for my second child in one month and they (my dad and his wife) are coming to visit for one week about one and a half weeks after my due date. I remember after my first child that I was very emotional for the first few weeks but felt normal again after my hormones balanced out. I'm really nervous that his drinking will cause a lot of anxiety that I don't really want to deal with. I think that I just need to be honest with him and tell him that I don't want him drinking in my house but I also feel like I shouldn't tell him what to do. Maybe if he really feels the need to drink he should just stay at a hotel and do that on his own time. Am I giving him too much credit? Do I need to be more stern? Even if I am stern I feel like it won't get me anywhere because he is stubborn. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. Thank you.",4.232571640316209,4.749684653409093,5.430400197628463,83.38801877470358,70.36363636363636,8.621739130434783,25.24752964426877,8.716276077567194,1.5260176383399209,1346,35,286,22,23,449,165,352,0.092,0.826,0.08199999999999999,0.7653,2,0,9,0,0,0,27.0,1,2,1,5,14,14,4,1,15,0,31,10,0,3,1,60,54,20,1,12,8,5,5,3,0,6,2,0,1,3,16,19,10,4,12,9,1,4,6,6,0,9,9,6,44,8,40,35,10,41,0,1,1,0,46,10,0,5,29,193,60,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15764527353008906,0.07150259838971461,0.17240774640486678,0.08077202172958531,0.0,0.0,0.06450591558184947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054853388040189584,0.0,0.061706728965470525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09176544267178488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09834244136927857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08286279131210654,0.0,0.06948375595028458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05202075516271586,0.0831596805857242,0.0,0.0,0.08371512623326115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4741123033163291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0907346574368336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05327693900270161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12235642305665455,0.11525086857586744,0.07744882183126901,0.0,0.0,0.13722326779982366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08428584152520098,0.07737899215341497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08893088881420666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09307390206092177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08399776789836648,0.08866019818526083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11822313219177236,0.0,0.07122662372815003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08805284313763233,0.06857652550998387,0.0,0.0763249776000871,0.0,0.0,0.08103650326872121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12876836227701366,0.0,0.11859270106693676,0.17943106412906915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0790322995136975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0859031210269756,0.21863647654007146,0.12269520498225855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07043154035655053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2583728895811722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.182750183044692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06427771205775606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09066823129103943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08597568374045257,0.0,0.1348752236455237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3525136857808758,0.07426335782830934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051685387949922605,0.0,0.06403715734311019,0.14110517110881435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05476466448230422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06655515819273361,0.09515387642839213,0.0,0.1941082077755437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05730045312779322,0.0,0.0,0.051944120910450864 alcoholism,booze-drugs,2019/01/26,"Need insights on my though 42m So this will be a bit of a long message. I Moved in my early 20s into a small ski town in the early 2000’s And was living the party life, drinking 4-5 times a week at least, smoking weed every day numerous times a day and doing coke on occasion (1-2 times a month) This lasted throughout my 20’s. Once I hit my 30’s I was pretty much done with the hard drugs and getting drunk 3,4,5 times a week, I was just sick and tired of the hungovers and didn’t enjoy it anymore. I did keep smoking weed daily 2-3 grams a day minimum. A bit of a background, I had a rough childhood. Lost my dad when I was 3, my mom did the best she could but left me with various member of my family (uncles and aunts) throughout my youth in order to go work outside and provide. But that just made the child feel abandoned and worthless of being loved (thats what I gathered through therapy) and obviously low self esteem/confidence Now I somehow delt with it as a young adult and could function somewhat normaly ( social life, girlfriends bla bla bla) In my early 30’s I got held at gun point in a home invasion, tied up with zap straps, gun shots were fired. Pretty dramatic event. (was gang related) The first 6 months after the event I was in hell, extreme violent thought, just wanted to kill everyone for any reason. I wanted to find these guys and fucking torture them and burry them which at some point I convinced myself that I was better to let it go otherwise I would end up dead or in jail. From that point on I started to use more for the emotional numbing effect, it took years before I realized the pattern I was in. Until I finally realized that all I did was to put the lid on it to be able to function but all my dysfunctionality from my youth just exploded in behavioural fucked up pattern. Finally about a year and a half ago I figured put I had PTSD from that home invasion event (duh) So I started to look for therapist who I could work and do EMDR therapy. At that point of my life I would smoke a lot (sometimes I would stop for 5-6 months but go right back into it) the drinking wasn’t severe but I would get drunk occasionally and started to use hard drugs again, coke, ketamine, MDMA. My last stretch was a bit out of hand but nothing too extreme. It took me a couple therapist before I found the right on. She pointed out that I had addict behaviour and if I wanted the EMDR therapy to work I should stop using everything. Which I did, went to AA (altho stopping smoking weed was the hardest, I quite booze and hard drugs in a blink of an eye) after months of EMDR working on the home invasion and the past from my youth I am finally feeling myself again, I have seriously not felt that good for a long long time. Now here is the reason why I am writing this: I am considering drinking again, not getting drunk but enjoying a beer or a gin now and then. Drinking like a gentleman like they say. The reason why I think I could is because, alcohol has never be a big issue for me, drugs were and I have no intention to even take a toke of a joint. On top of that I hate being hung over and I truly feel the last years of using were me trying numb the pain of my traumas. Most of the people around me know I am dry and have a bit of an idea what was going on. So I am also thinking asking good friends around me to keep an eye on me if I do start to enjoy the occasional drink. There is also the part of me that wants to know If I can handle my shit this time. If things get out of hands well thats it, im done forever. I am just looking for insights or if some of you have had similar experience Thank you ",4.230613349534671,4.857707059539919,5.365179089227032,83.45894258650691,70.42083897158322,8.251868216840187,28.478114385131587,8.354732019191555,1.8691523625417688,2843,99,585,41,49,944,331,739,0.156,0.76,0.084,-0.9957,0,0,12,2,0,0,71.0,0,2,3,11,28,31,8,0,54,1,61,34,5,10,4,114,111,48,2,19,22,3,11,2,2,6,14,1,3,4,31,33,13,7,21,10,0,10,6,17,2,2,37,16,80,14,89,57,17,121,1,4,4,3,24,48,4,14,64,397,111,4,0.051978189802132736,0.0,0.0,0.05666389915329794,0.0,0.0,0.04607552907507874,0.05554887732156127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08313387921112562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03534695147352699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05154839732747135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0925432178801546,0.048592590925137985,0.0,0.0,0.039968019535660135,0.0,0.03168542205926474,0.0,0.0884592222940805,0.0,0.054547903397866256,0.04597048491719581,0.22698688412319284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16600142021281925,0.0575128783750893,0.0,0.1005648971220625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10638346921924917,0.0,0.2545941885128097,0.24111279274951514,0.0,0.0,0.05846846745431712,0.04603724822058945,0.0,0.0,0.03433110414632545,0.0,0.0437938667092406,0.04966738783232622,0.046714645421130664,0.050844643459131485,0.04900041140502297,0.0,0.07884520360144669,0.0,0.04990721347869987,0.17081869876317254,0.04750712381484445,0.044212621692623535,0.0,0.05699140224852967,0.0401582205036531,0.09610599781335953,0.10862583540378043,0.0,0.11816161240962432,0.08719367903503432,0.04157170668276915,0.0,0.0,0.05146657990347087,0.0,0.0,0.1396867455172852,0.05131770135173345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15641508724226494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05867704947960031,0.05614536448845546,0.05425172579575661,0.0,0.09240120669938937,0.05750616580654394,0.0,0.05713170753630752,0.1271074863759507,0.0,0.0,0.05647445530614799,0.05315122070278373,0.1101411979048228,0.05078783603508357,0.0,0.045897693879865295,0.1379971869499286,0.08729717678434784,0.0,0.05674033427455026,0.044189998212116055,0.04691234566044558,0.04918301997082966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06087622768577877,0.16595398079682278,0.055244589826802505,0.03820995019173859,0.0385411691250299,0.040088784329163483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04987447497467753,0.0,0.0,0.05535507575467035,0.0,0.0,0.055308458684335836,0.0,0.0,0.05628731431809034,0.04961906362090497,0.03603513214435302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2456809509935314,0.0,0.0,0.1057610110506263,0.0,0.0,0.060759722340579775,0.1045048744469988,0.0,0.05528520297641688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1603267082156379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08877818017403469,0.0,0.04133514278243276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05422458798560098,0.058720559472899,0.05335486488523107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05298521873548336,0.0,0.0,0.05140775879318106,0.0,0.147161721088897,0.0,0.0,0.13036828231156286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03908112996566857,0.0,0.0,0.0478545336797641,0.17832476994869392,0.1207013691578102,0.034531999678446036,0.06661105047578086,0.051068307572911135,0.041264876682751306,0.1818534028269203,0.05974128287694196,0.0,0.0,0.11549936279160287,0.03528977893766039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17956986878702585,0.0,0.0,0.12263233221503432,0.0,0.08338753716638825,0.0,0.04673463496176402,0.048184302693777034,0.09380446321235912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513629649328215,0.0,0.0,0.14769525883325654,0.0,0.0,0.10041675018203924 alcoholism,drbb1234,2019/01/26,"Starting Today I don't drink often, but when I do I can't stop and I get completely plastered and have a blackout every time. It's always scared me, but now I've started drinking more frequently and have had incidents like this once every two weeks or so. When I wake up, I feel so ashamed and scared about what happened during the blackout. I had been struggling for a while wondering if it could be alcoholism because I don't do it often, but finally realized today that I am not in control of this behavior and I am putting my life in danger. &#x200B; I remember very little about last night, but I remember getting into a car with complete strangers and some neighbors trying to help me get inside my apartment. I can't keep doing this. I have a problem and I need to stop drinking completely and permanently, but I'm not sure where to start. Thoughts?",5.055727272727276,6.528955254545457,5.577348484848488,79.56602272727272,69.18181818181819,8.40909090909091,33.75,8.841846274778883,3.007454545454545,687,33,122,12,12,221,101,165,0.165,0.767,0.069,-0.9585,0,0,4,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,1,10,8,1,4,5,0,17,6,1,1,1,36,30,20,0,4,9,0,1,1,1,0,2,0,1,0,8,10,4,4,6,3,0,2,6,6,0,1,4,1,19,2,12,24,2,26,0,0,0,0,2,7,0,6,18,90,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1283422136083382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09992646639988813,0.13012002511726034,0.1459253657876556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07320718981699502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3777436732023561,0.0,0.13469379674554086,0.095883979836851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35293438824769585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20236599070745984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06072230709561696,0.0,0.0,0.13155531357877967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18822990908627515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10619727997412656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08049537946866771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10674361012943627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09789130434474276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08482478752750736,0.058671062453587226,0.12036409710403152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08904696546656779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11269854737911032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12789444718541734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11491217254617167,0.0,0.12072599453043555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2720824733037944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2404668112547808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2550059778926113,0.0,0.0,0.20080518566650152,0.0,0.12554661263659644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11318563087607846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09533992176082652,0.07002682261217838,0.0,0.2276670361515749,0.0,0.0,0.08153483139523775,0.0,0.11731278853086845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09908877655009396,0.0,0.0,0.0963308497247325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13023504485707493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1459253657876556,0.0 alcoholism,GloomyJuggernaut,2019/01/26,"I want to quit so bad. 42M Averaging 10-12 Bud Light 16oz every night for 15 years. Family thinks I have 1-2 and have never asked me to stop. I’m filled with guilt all day yet I always stop at 1 of multiple stores on my way home to refill. My sneaky trick is to load up my work back pack that easily conceals a 6 pack. I’ll Pound these and some that are always in the garage fridge. All under the nose of wife and kids. I’ve tried to stop recently and went 5 days. I tossed and turned and felt no better so my mind thinks I need the beers to pass out. I question if I’m an alcoholic but Duh look what I’m doing to myself. I get physicals annually just to see if the Dr. says anything about my blood work. All normal. No meds and I’m ok shape. Do I have to really fuckup to see where this if going? Do I tell my wife and hope she gives me an ultimatum to stop? This sucks I want today to be day 1 but I’m not sure if I can. I dream to win the lottery so I could afford a 30 day program to reset my mind and stop this horse shit behavior. 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I'm a college student so everyone drinks a lot and it's hard for me to tell. I drink alone at least 5-6 nights a week, varying amounts, but always enough that I'd call myself ""drunk"" and feel bad in the morning. I drink as much as possible if there's a social situation with alcohol but it's almost always just me at home. I start to feel anxious around 6pm if I haven't had a drink yet. If I drink a lot, then the next day I feel myself really craving more and feeling kind of shakey or cold-sweaty. Lately I've found that I get really agitated and upset until I have a drink, all the time. I'm a really sensitive and calm person, I NEVER get angry, but nowadays I find myself snapping at people if I haven't had something to drink recently. I started drinking all the time because I'm lonely and depressed and it sort of just makes me feel better, or at least speeds up time. But drinking for unhealthy reasons isn't the same thing as alcoholism. Am I just being melodramatic about having an unhealthy but normal relationship with alcohol? Any advice?",3.8211573187414514,5.488533227906977,5.1488645690834485,80.67358413132695,72.53488372093022,7.84952120383037,27.53077975376197,8.4952907291091,2.0713091655266758,864,32,161,15,17,288,122,215,0.166,0.774,0.06,-0.9742,0,3,14,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,1,8,7,0,1,14,0,10,15,0,2,3,42,24,24,0,5,14,0,6,0,0,0,5,0,1,1,7,10,14,0,8,10,0,0,4,4,0,0,3,6,19,3,22,20,11,23,0,2,0,0,5,7,0,10,16,108,26,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07931799726621132,0.0,0.3469824842012732,0.08127963313166882,0.08406722991094191,0.0,0.0,0.13507922519826168,0.0,0.0,0.05519811390709098,0.0,0.0,0.0916985481166806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07225815620483278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06777322859209835,0.04948023699671638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07178791825156478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08288324063356382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052347679361221054,0.0,0.06991126068574771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7156377898854822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08386989857438269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07756103473561736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2052089523986217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07418754722579192,0.0,0.0,0.08899828081058801,0.0,0.0,0.08481553551176024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07271202153646035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08141973062705178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08452565148753206,0.0,0.0,0.09156284841757197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13801498874342052,0.0,0.0,0.054181340729442674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059668998177890335,0.0,0.06260300228310382,0.0,0.0863247943320714,0.0761721744468533,0.07952897763945174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056272782965478205,0.07087416705061772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09150653215961167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15599797969624007,0.0834558713317772,0.0801451912315599,0.0871457774451635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09123803537696612,0.0,0.08274218899312369,0.0,0.06248832647869314,0.0,0.0,0.11490452648387835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08436629747969596,0.0,0.0,0.0709458112862048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053925477933169534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1419919459129362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06510935997393387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,NYSadPerson,2019/01/26,"I want to drink today I want to drink until I pass out, I've been sober for two weeks but it is so hard. Things are just so bad and then there's that stupid itch in the back of my mind. How does it get better??",-0.9299999999999996,0.7166910000000009,0.6915000000000013,107.20350000000002,86.91666666666666,3.84,9.6,3.1291,-2.335505,160,0,45,0,5,51,40,48,0.23800000000000002,0.653,0.109,-0.8846,0,0,2,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,6,3,1,0,1,0,3,3,1,1,0,8,6,7,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,2,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,2,0,1,1,1,4,1,7,5,0,8,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,5,29,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2124568628031884,0.2306981095657157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2443639970285408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2417911017355096,0.0,0.0,0.5413356299137599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14435481465795333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24750961787762235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27898320857400644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18356076691409626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618991288386791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2699039583175783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3259365973512734,0.0,0.22163037785057607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,frozen__solid,2019/01/26,"For the past several months, I've averaged ~40 beers a week I can't go on like this. Either my pancreas or my liver will quit on me. Trouble is drinking is the only thing in my life that I have to look forward to. I'm 38 with no friends, virtually no family, divorced, no children. I go to work and that's it. In my free time I sit on the couch and mindlessly browse the internet. I have no hobbies or anything that brings me real joy. On the plus side I have a decent paying job and am a homeowner. That's about it though. Part of me wants to not care if my health deteriorates, I've got nothing going on in my life. But then I think about how awful it would be to go through that alone. But then again, I'm going to end up dying alone either way, so might as well have fun doing it. There is just so much wrong with my life that I don't even know where to begin to fix things.",1.9306060606060635,3.207161133689844,3.659165775401071,91.03267023172907,76.70053475935828,6.697896613190732,22.09233511586453,7.3011,0.5402822816399295,680,18,157,8,15,228,114,187,0.13699999999999998,0.782,0.08199999999999999,-0.7752,1,2,2,0,1,0,21.0,0,0,0,2,12,9,0,0,8,1,15,7,1,1,0,22,30,16,1,3,9,0,0,1,1,3,4,0,1,1,13,6,2,0,2,2,2,7,7,2,1,0,1,1,18,8,26,25,4,29,0,0,1,0,3,12,0,4,11,109,31,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3086286274811018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12261053009455786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1519107541068969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15463371589114314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1459587821027581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13196571219655934,0.0,0.0,0.09841006542041493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14045961561395576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11511348688605867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42338763551890624,0.0,0.1191652431815972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1583751572315802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14785495754863995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08188398270362372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3157196006600506,0.07279163299658735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1251186219025919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15806058819422766,0.0,0.0,0.11892671757210015,0.0,0.10952877256883273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14296511770048026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11331772597204773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1613475133445601,0.1422329813868113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584749624859481,0.0,0.16958939983243426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16832240741869248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19797186440432912,0.09547024481217822,0.1463872372918703,0.0,0.08688042381259373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0878813552318509,0.11826562408613325,0.1195151334605397,0.0,0.13396477038384644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1084704355690032,0.0,0.0,0.10584206687699543,0.1629030949917046,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Chemistryz,2018/11/07,"I had a seizure while driving Was tapering, went to go buy some food to try and eat for the first time in days. Was make a right hand turn, ended up driving into one of those cement light poles, awoke to firefighter paramedics pulling me out of my car and putting me on a stretcher (I used to be a paramedic, I felt humiliated). One of them was nice enough to park my car in a nearby parking lot (I had a lightbar on my WRX that god smashed, but that was the only damage to the car). I was treated well by the ER staff and discharged with a script for librium. I sent the fire station a $400 grubhub giftcard thanking them for not towing my vehicle. What's weird is, I never even had auditory or visual hallucinations -- I thought those came before the seizure. 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On day 2 I'm not sure that I'm going to go through withdrawals as the amount of alcohol I drink has varied over the years. But I have been drinking for about 10+ years. Recently I'd go anywhere from 2-4 days in between drinking and usually drink around 10 5% beers when I did drink (occasionally more). When can I expect withdrawal symptoms to kick in? Usually I just feel tired on day 2-3 then I feel fine by day 4-5.",3.187767857142859,4.2137283125000025,4.6314880952380975,86.28375000000004,73.16666666666666,7.985714285714287,28.29761904761905,8.418075326091056,1.8279244047619048,362,14,79,6,7,121,63,96,0.057,0.9079999999999999,0.034,-0.4519,0,0,7,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,2,0,6,9,0,0,1,12,13,6,0,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,2,7,0,3,6,0,3,1,0,0,0,2,2,7,2,18,11,3,21,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,2,12,44,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15339194404629186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12777381635241924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3702647906052513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7030330656873546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14514807670057964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2447174494756372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16078857030317092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14172042968992826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13527711163819056,0.1491845954378679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1649687979698671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3161602068207288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18485966795294245 alcoholism,DuFeilin92,2018/11/07,"My friend has gone deep into a bender My friend (35M) , who has been an on/off drinker since his high school years has recently gone into another bender. He's currently living abroad (China) and has a pretty limited support network. There's basically me and one other person who are willing to even be in his company. The other person is good in that he's supportive, however, will never really show any sort of concern re: the repercussions these benders have on his social and professional life. I'm not a professional at all, but there's definitely some sort of comorbidity (depression/BPD potentially). I'm wondering if anyone has any advice has to how best to be there for the guy. Seeking professional treatment whilst in China is pretty difficult.",8.091838235294118,8.701926272058827,8.913529411764708,61.435882352941206,62.014705882352935,12.388235294117653,36.117647058823536,11.93303328291395,4.914164705882351,607,26,93,19,8,206,93,136,0.033,0.79,0.177,0.9620000000000001,2,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,2,5,7,0,0,7,0,15,1,0,1,2,16,22,6,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,3,6,5,0,1,1,1,0,2,2,1,0,1,3,0,6,6,13,15,3,16,0,0,0,0,13,9,0,5,5,63,12,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16984473361150967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2363929820603612,0.18225452472513345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12153171651980485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18240245639032832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2189071119756821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11479960432589055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26856973807786355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14578324964843892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1720988344488673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1836393896294929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12276686359558485,0.0,0.0,0.15347706483373744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13405268176865534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1177778860227607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3035276844484247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35365370627083537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11134688308932876,0.0,0.17161601558447911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17590459868576916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14377710067961527,0.0,0.0,0.1771770031056603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3944741581812452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18848910151585768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11192768652256074 alcoholism,BeautyGoesToBenidorm,2018/11/07,"Mild auditory hallucinations - 11 days sober That's it, really. I've finally quit for good after having a seizure last week (not my finest moment, scared the living crap out of me). About 2 days afterwards, I started experiencing very mild auditory hallucinations: generally very quiet, almost musical noises. I don't notice them at all when I'm busy, if I've got the TV on, or if I'm talking to someone. I only hear them when my surroundings are very quiet, and they're not constant - they come and go. For the record, I've been taking good care of my diet, exercise regularly, and have been taking a good multivitamin alongside high-strength thiamine tablets. Naturally, I haven't touched a drop of alcohol. Has anyone else had this, and if so, how long did they last? They're not the frightening sort of hallucination (of which I've had many, as I have type 1 bipolar disorder), but obviously it's a bit of a worry.",6.2687632135306535,7.125427081395353,7.659344608879491,67.99897463002115,65.97674418604653,10.90570824524313,33.07822410147992,10.832165505486646,3.780097674418605,726,30,130,20,11,250,112,172,0.048,0.88,0.071,0.1459,0,0,1,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,4,1,5,6,1,1,9,0,12,5,1,1,2,20,22,14,0,3,8,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,5,6,2,0,0,2,0,2,5,2,0,0,6,5,13,4,15,16,2,21,0,0,0,0,6,4,1,6,14,71,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611558634175509,0.15100116060034596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10544059241701567,0.1545090886852313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16463099282626772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15374733468631213,0.0,0.0,0.12989804596560062,0.0,0.16295771308714424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19450285474281545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17282613765241994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12597133315750358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651904665728588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0857012670141386,0.379443473216413,0.12060593493943425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1699588945962292,0.0,0.0,0.15932504360273295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2458389524258969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1331562912291859,0.13345037670381413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15288423401026027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17168309709879426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11468772203353335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16039090346153198,0.0,0.0,0.09660425815522627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15097385147684464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1277695952463109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10673471439758812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22676077525355184,0.12120471398194226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3732693294970962,0.0,0.0,0.12096005534477568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15314141746613608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,john8119,2018/11/07,"What is something you wish someone would have said or done for you after a relapse? My husband was 2 years sober until this last Friday. He had gone to a great outpatient treatment facility which allowed him to focus on his recovery and be sober for 2 years. I am incredibly proud of him even though he's had this relapse. I knew at some point there would be a relapse because the therapists said it is any every day battle for an addict and it would probably happen. For him to make it 2 years was way beyond what I expected. So now that it's happened, I'm wondering what I can do to help him. Admittedly I am not good at showing or telling him how proud I am because it makes him uncomfortable to talk about it. So, what gesture of kindness did someone offer you that helped you find your way back to your road to recovery? 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Tldr: This year sucked. Longer story, had a friend move in for 6 months who was an awful roommate. During this time my boyfriends Dad died in May and his family showed who they really are. A week later I had to put down my 15 year old cat. Come July, we go camping and I fall in the fire. Then comes August and my Dad dies and a week later my brother tries to kill himself. I lose my job a couple months later because I got robbed. I’ve been trying so hard to keep my shit together, but I have been legit drunk every day for at least the past month. I don’t know how he hasn’t left me. I am so ungodly sick of myself and I don’t know anymore. I don’t want any sympathy at all, but I don’t know what to even do with myself anymore. 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I’m 41M and have been an alcoholic since my early twenties. I am a functional drunk who shows up to work everyday and supports my 3 kids. Hard liquor(especially whiskey) has been my worst demon from the very first taste. I tell myself that I’m fine because I always take time off through out the year. The last 3 years I’ve taken 90 days off of booze to start the year. The rest of the year is a different story. I am a binge drinker and it’s common for me to drink 7-10 days in a row. I can easily drink a fifth a day. I then take 3-4 days off to be with my shake and anxiety. Then the cycle repeats. Anyway, that’s my story. I know it ultimately comes down to my own actions but just thought I would share that with you guys.",1.879495295124041,3.3721687245509,3.4058554319931567,91.89037425149704,77.32335329341319,6.687596236099231,22.108212147134303,7.447530270364453,0.605804448246364,615,17,141,8,14,203,105,167,0.055999999999999994,0.892,0.052000000000000005,0.128,1,0,6,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,0,2,3,5,0,1,15,0,10,8,0,0,0,13,21,7,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,6,8,8,0,2,6,0,3,0,2,0,1,5,2,19,3,20,14,3,31,1,0,0,0,6,9,0,0,19,84,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16724538568869193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13021623940941313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1197181205673062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09539779899302883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13480644350764798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40370488878496624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16350379453506472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4599160808104806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13185364820583292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1331144268584693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15495449091088742,0.0,0.0,0.14018863360279282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08600546872127805,0.12756417775890672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479382028458354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12945414483369164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11076784981472122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17758848441427671,0.0,0.0,0.2353292800652565,0.0,0.1367833837361746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12423941848999878,0.1825067937828758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291246284882873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1139301038553473,0.0,0.0,0.11116944085551916,0.0,0.0,0.403110171884164 alcoholism,raisin36,2019/09/19,Do alcoholics even realize how manipulative they can be? My husband is an alcoholic. We have been together for 13 years. At this point I dont even know if he can see the manipulation he tries to pull. I'm asking because I have no idea what it's like to deal with an addiction or the thought process behind it. I would like to think my husband is a good man fighting a demon. And that it is the addiction that causes his manipulative ways. When an alcoholic is in the thick of it are you aware of the gaslighting and blaming,3.1877777777777787,5.158162307692308,4.80128205128205,81.22149572649573,74.96153846153845,8.468376068376068,28.863247863247857,9.150863307647796,2.5213196581196584,416,18,84,10,9,140,72,104,0.094,0.8320000000000001,0.07400000000000001,-0.29600000000000004,0,0,3,0,2,0,7.0,1,1,1,0,4,4,1,0,10,0,14,5,0,5,0,17,20,6,0,2,2,2,1,2,0,1,5,0,0,1,8,4,3,0,5,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,2,9,3,10,16,0,8,1,0,1,0,12,4,0,2,4,60,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40259070791178597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5920029025206267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1726224798517112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11256070168073386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1896860359260644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.190365662433086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2164079932543152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2439186806447997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15487535049952722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2084469586557943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1014786086244494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1804209661547972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17455358607310026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14714184986490264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1183160282230222,0.0,0.14659118207394406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12536497926242904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14656628297870833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311698005639154,0.0,0.0,0.11890830889410367 alcoholism,iwannagohome49,2019/09/19,"3 Days Well, I relapsed and drank Hard for a week and a half straight. It's been 3 days sober, the 1st day I couldn't even keep down water with all the vomiting. 2nd day, I could finally keep water down but I was(is) Very dehydrated. Drank all the water, Gatorade, and Pedialyte that I could. Now I'm on the 3rd day and I'm finally starting to feel better... But only just I've only managed some soup and a sandwich in 3 days. The shakes are still around but more just like a constant tremor, not majorly knocking things over. I hope it gets better soon, it wasn't near this bad last time I quit.",1.6731542699724535,3.8124480991735545,2.6780371900826445,93.82190426997248,80.40495867768595,6.0168044077135,21.653581267217632,7.1686216300943375,0.5145696969696978,464,14,102,6,12,147,77,121,0.06,0.816,0.125,0.7565,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,3,8,7,0,1,9,0,6,7,0,0,2,23,16,8,0,4,6,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,7,6,2,1,0,0,1,3,2,1,1,4,2,7,5,10,9,5,25,0,0,0,0,0,8,0,2,17,59,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13667431345125267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281911963258804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2715697426132512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16591146418915764,0.0,0.2451625376686336,0.0,0.0,0.5940851673972841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10140516391593288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07762941695779553,0.0,0.0,0.3363693765699422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08021312537514533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.137532787232727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.152490002469647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27292916276287216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12514749924692872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07500703758495933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23353307464405945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16329812889368492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10866937446554308,0.0,0.12260931301987207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10199855713386838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08952461905359274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1266783875410477,0.0,0.0,0.12315256216145624,0.0,0.1380419720452309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,tombolger,2019/09/19,"My mother missed my wedding last weekend due to the DTs, and I'm still upset. Today is her birthday and I really don't want to call. Should I do it anyway? My mother has been an alcoholic for 15 years, and hers is a typical story. I've been trying to be supportive and positive for ages. Last Christmas, she traveled out to my state (opposite coast) and made me help her detox and we spent Christmas in the hospital. I told her once she was lucid that if she did this to me for my wedding, she would not be invited and, of course, she promised up and down and then did it anyway. I know how it is, I've been dealing with this since I was a teenager with her. But I'm allowed to be upset, here, right? And I'm sure the silent treatment will hurt her and not exactly be positive, but what do I do? Do I just pretend everything is fine?",2.9402564102564104,4.162641064327489,4.376257309941522,87.1154251012146,74.02923976608187,7.834637876743139,26.604138551506967,8.384062270229773,1.6746154745838961,646,23,138,11,13,215,97,171,0.061,0.852,0.087,0.6553,1,0,1,0,0,0,23.0,1,0,0,0,6,8,0,2,6,0,24,2,0,3,2,30,34,16,0,4,6,2,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,7,15,1,0,1,3,1,1,3,4,0,0,10,0,26,4,16,17,0,16,0,2,0,0,20,5,0,1,9,102,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24636201032323005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2353926519558175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2376620136177173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2071817561832077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15451660798177044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2467826743077721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12669097019158224,0.3758186469360873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21812911903942345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2455024908167124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14768075290715058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19686780359126785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906933529709886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18409822968165446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2615979858003041,0.21726787140690332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21851153698267484,0.2202773143918422,0.0,0.15651190990983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13597011025187414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16375893913542466,0.0,0.0,0.14845107970868254 alcoholism,recovery_warrior1101,2019/09/19,"I’m a Werewolf It’s true. I transform at night by means of a magic potion (alcohol). I’ll even betcha that the word “lunacy” derived from people acting mad beneath the moonlight...totally intoxicated by ancient ales and wines of course. I can totally relate to this from the outdoor, fireside benders we used to have as kids. But much unlike my immune companions, I am taken by it’s spell. I materialize into a creature that has an insatiable hunger...for booze! And after each night of total debauchery, I wake up (naked), just like a werewolf, feeling banged up from who knows what, with the taste of things I should not have consumed on my lips. I have forgotten myself and had no control of the mischief and the damages that I have done. So alas, when one figures out the origin of their condition, it’s time to stop. So long wolfiness, creature of darkness and way too many beers... forgive me, just wanted to break up the page with a little humor ;)",6.453493360572011,7.0793559325842725,6.697313585291116,75.86775791624109,65.51685393258428,8.944637385086823,33.59754851889684,8.841846274778883,2.8970044943820232,748,31,130,11,11,241,122,178,0.11,0.8079999999999999,0.08199999999999999,-0.7233,0,0,3,0,0,0,34.0,1,0,1,1,7,6,1,0,14,0,10,9,2,3,3,30,17,10,0,2,4,0,1,1,1,1,3,0,0,1,10,11,5,2,5,2,0,1,2,2,0,1,3,2,14,4,29,13,5,21,0,1,0,0,6,9,0,0,10,97,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600462904590813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27291583343277903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2490115720655221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16071749261350138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12303520614441425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1337280727241918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11887898548258485,0.2438810744832479,0.0,0.21533982497601425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2466989228994848,0.0,0.26505823652886873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17887590686069707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4566983592086124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16488703631034932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1686947224170907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20343518383155046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616579641480626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14188796453601146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21015941504080055,0.0,0.0,0.14352262647118902,0.1931444155056036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,revenge_society,2019/09/19,"Six months sober and thirty pounds lighter! But at times the depression and anxiety are as crushing as ever (more or less). I’m undeterred and will keep on fighting, but I honestly have no idea what “normal” feels like anymore. I spent ten years drinking to forget past sexual trauma and confronting the PTSD without disassociating has been a struggle. Thankfully, however, my physical and mental health are in a much better state, overall.",7.051199999999998,9.585110320000002,6.749000000000002,68.93950000000002,65.8,9.8,35.16666666666667,10.125756701596842,4.253266666666667,354,17,51,9,6,111,64,75,0.228,0.613,0.159,-0.3382,1,0,1,0,2,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,1,9,2,1,4,0,6,2,0,0,1,15,11,10,0,1,4,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,5,1,1,2,1,1,0,2,5,0,2,2,1,3,4,7,8,3,9,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,1,6,36,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17968918866432634,0.0,0.23294644291781144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20773993947161515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2023092661964044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.230101472310953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21247024850159954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11876676852763872,0.16780451187782885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24967567097681784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2651607162556921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20877984125478594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11475473885936728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23671253168119405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18748589441629784,0.0,0.17267019815742687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2301410237745544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2242278125151828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2745722840226707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2455566363603477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21625392788401715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1369654716644805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22642429463961802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15126060153834328 alcoholism,gael_the_druid,2019/09/19,"Restoring my stomach after a heavy-drinking period How long does it usually take to restore my stomach to normal condition? That is, so I'm able to eat as much as I used to before I started drinking, and I don't feel sick?",8.241333333333333,5.880956355555563,9.180555555555557,69.31750000000001,63.22222222222222,11.666666666666668,42.5,10.125756701596842,4.445666666666666,176,9,32,3,2,61,35,45,0.0,0.8240000000000001,0.17600000000000002,0.7552,0,0,2,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,5,2,2,0,5,7,5,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,7,7,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,21,7,0,0.2779924731828179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23655111956545186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2432730866405021,0.0,0.0,0.5446535817585901,0.0,0.2844557009630349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14056134718046456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2460145908538243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20435645401329192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2723736003284002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1967645033382056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20901574324332406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24009624095821805,0.306169434730088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,b21lZ2EK,2019/09/19,"Communicating with an alcoholic girlfriend/boyfriend I think my girlfriend has a drinking disorder, and I don't know the best way to address the subject. She drinks four or more a night on days when we're not together. When I ask, she says it's ""just her norm."" I've expressed that I think that's an unhealthy amount (by that, I mean, a physically harmful amount). She says it's an improvement on what she used to drink. I've tried to view that as a positive. When we do hang out, she tends to match the amount I've drank, and respect my limits. We've also had a few sober nights. Because of that, I've tried to be mindful that it may not be a hard dependency. My concern is that she's working on school and full-time. Her friends are nice, but they're also alcoholics. She's told me that drinking with friends almost ruined a semester. I'm trying to address this in a way that respects her boundaries and independence. On the other hand, I feel exhausted caring about the problem. I've watched alcoholism wreck friends, family members, and college careers. I just want to know the most constructive ways I can be supportive.",4.417107843137252,6.206617453703711,4.770849673202616,83.48852941176472,71.22222222222223,8.045315904139434,31.68736383442265,8.671277953709913,2.555905010893245,894,41,171,16,17,282,123,216,0.094,0.7440000000000001,0.162,0.9178,0,0,7,0,0,0,33.0,1,0,0,3,8,13,0,0,17,0,11,10,1,3,0,31,26,13,0,2,6,0,3,0,4,1,4,2,2,0,15,9,8,1,6,4,0,1,3,4,0,1,3,7,23,9,19,19,7,16,0,1,2,0,20,6,0,5,6,106,38,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3878799754741653,0.12114633462736302,0.0,0.0,0.193499062353191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11310215366526585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07374970970814905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12696349864793768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12334955560553798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07802359873582493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13865623960208687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4740665271513747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11405138015649892,0.0,0.061172304691734035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28041196033312177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10837641058514938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13297745689019627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13178523216327204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1221576721666156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22706745538291265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11576375747243188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19242002049065007,0.0,0.12244058396677865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13728932230417734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15504119297370336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11560380757260813,0.0,0.2464171959694199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10448989499495467,0.0,0.0,0.0713585168975807,0.28809044350153423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08807658221721798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Hallucigens,2019/09/19,"Am i an alcoholic? (20yo) For the past two years i've been drinking every week atleast two days in row. But now for like three months i've been drinking usually 3-4days a week and always sleeping on the floor or just being really drunk (once i peed myself while black out walking to my living room) last week i had four days of hard drinking and sunday it was from morning to the night. When i woke up on monday, i had bad panic attacks and i almost fainted while sitting on the side of my bed head leaning on my hands, i had cold and warm rushes, shivers, i felt anxiety and paranoid that i was actually going to die and i just spend whole day on bed skipping work. Everytime i went to get watee i felt dizzy (even on the bed it felt like the ground was moving down beneath me) Told myself ""jesus, i aint gonna drink anymore"".... next day after work i was drunk and the day after that i skipped work. I remember having these kind of thing always after my drinking got worse couple of times, i remember one time i drank week and spent 200euros and had the time of my life after when i stopped..xd Sorry for the weird text but i just wrote what came to mind",2.9755703636774338,4.599311811158799,3.879326857917324,89.09175739778631,74.66523605150215,6.278653715834651,23.85114072735487,6.8360192770164,0.7463871244635194,904,27,185,8,19,290,137,233,0.10400000000000001,0.8740000000000001,0.023,-0.8908,0,0,6,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,3,7,8,1,1,11,0,14,14,3,0,0,25,28,16,1,0,6,0,6,2,0,1,3,0,4,0,7,11,9,0,5,7,2,6,1,4,0,5,21,8,28,4,29,5,1,52,1,0,1,0,2,15,0,2,32,116,35,3,0.0,0.0,0.0936903706982124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10260380531975176,0.0961385664581854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15977339671066298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07344618020612444,0.0,0.09521455660239124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10922344049282083,0.0,0.0,0.08016302227314764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10980805807583974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.106231493069001,0.0,0.3095874487430281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.099641584481769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4702585149019589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06341265739450762,0.0,0.08089123652351406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27654942436607405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05016043800465249,0.0,0.05456379885844784,0.0,0.07678670577979531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08600468832662993,0.0,0.09853233962073137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09997799756049013,0.0,0.07825967817678353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06781358791520975,0.09380973104082034,0.0,0.0847771957696678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09694113751019584,0.0,0.07663300663641767,0.1020417587694186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1021060462150321,0.090097400457754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10224583628061472,0.06505779160883665,0.0,0.0,0.11264519729645875,0.0,0.0,0.09165090258145683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061505453705622985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21751765328726852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09607775834703848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1074735683418433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06378372962964904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16794984921455194,0.0,0.0,0.09174016177480103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18757255586491492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10573971309958992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3080486606411648,0.0,0.0,0.0890007692584152,0.0,0.10718997474208301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20968582447695355,0.0,0.09784078446374124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06182627614522426 alcoholism,beeb-beeben,2019/09/19,"I’m supposed to get married next month. On mobile, sorry. A little background; my dad died less than a year ago from alcohol abuse. I’m still not over it and it has affected me each and every day since. Recently, my fiancé (of two years) has shown some of the same characteristics that my late father has shown. He’s not drinking as much as my father but each time he does it, he chooses alcohol over me. My dad cheated on my mom and ruined their marriage while he was drunk. My fiancé hasn’t cheated, that I know of, but I trust him 100% to not. The problem I have is that he ignores me the entire time he is drinking. I’ve mentioned to him that I would like him to check in a bit more while he’s out because I worry. We are long distance (USA/UK). Every time he drinks, he ignores me and ends up rolling in around 8am (his time) every time. I’ve mentioned countless times that I want him to just check in more. I don’t care that he’s out with his friends, I encourage it, I just want to make sure he is okay. When my dad ignored my mom he was out cheating or the time he got into a terrible drunk driving accident. I just worry about things like this. I don’t think my fiancé is capable of things like that but I also didn’t think my dad was either, and now he’s dead. I have this overwhelming feeling of anxiety when he says he’s going out drinking with his friends because I get flashbacks to my dad. I feel like he chooses alcohol over me like my father had my whole life. We’re suppose to get married next month and I’m suppose to move to England to be with him. The last time I went, I was so overwhelmed by how normalized being an alcoholic was. Maybe I was sensitive as my father just died from alcoholism. What do I do? Honestly? I’m so upset and stuck right now.",2.709487009919698,4.127422884931509,3.995880963627776,88.83150684931509,74.94520547945207,6.897496457250828,26.284837033538018,7.503015589744147,1.264482286254133,1383,50,295,17,29,454,165,365,0.18100000000000002,0.675,0.14400000000000002,-0.9546,0,0,9,0,1,0,44.0,1,0,1,0,15,25,3,3,10,1,26,12,0,3,1,52,46,22,3,5,12,11,2,5,2,1,6,1,0,0,16,19,11,3,7,6,2,4,7,12,0,1,11,3,49,13,42,32,11,49,0,3,0,0,45,17,0,2,33,183,65,0,0.0,0.09957064740469994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07449413717015768,0.4490524330277129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06720472586814598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06428842637048468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07481115578400166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10245691040600054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09174714008246533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08568179059490003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054197209025399325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17443522997157793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0735417469823329,0.0,0.0,0.3292988670127964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07443224533120192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2124155519864226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08498372896560738,0.06003637774026323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1298542652362787,0.0,0.1317183119526397,0.0,0.04776042478398018,0.0,0.06721243319805491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046184789880980334,0.06850174568815004,0.09479791454373934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05935814281110587,0.2052822886747572,0.08422761168619536,0.0,0.07437050700667985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0560956566675488,0.0,0.08442692330406854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19684731338566425,0.13415579655382506,0.0893185197235826,0.061777202085083235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1787495827735103,0.0,0.08233886730602025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08041249907661911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08297685273848468,0.0,0.0,0.07176753109904697,0.0,0.06682996067967208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06951665478089378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09407305547718196,0.0,0.0,0.06711242358038715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07920431088057459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11166150763518297,0.1076956213157198,0.0,0.0,0.39202334679576734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08209238664967132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09913494170232164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07790356673864172,0.0,0.09382482219661972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1706882384596917,0.0,0.059697799958945766,0.0,0.0,0.1082347370705622 alcoholism,casser_des_oeufs,2019/09/19,Here it's 7 in the morning I'm drunk but t tonight I will go to my first aa meeting. I'm in France btw Just wanted to say it I don't know. It's weird I just want to stop all the bullshit I do when drunk or spend so much money for that. I lost my license to drive for 6 month. Damaged 3 parked car. Mine is dead. Nobody was hurt thankfully. I see a judge in November. Life was doing a little well after years of shit for a year and I fucked it up for this stupid shit. It's like I do it on purpose. I'm tired of this. I just want to be normal. I hope this aa thing can help me. Gonna probably go pass out soon. 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This includes physical addictions like alcoholism. Has anyone here experienced this phenomona? I'd imagine that recovering alcoholics are likely averse to using drugs, so it may be unlikely. But I wondered if anyone has anecdotal experience in regards to this theory. Thanks.",8.825637254901963,12.28483460294118,8.785882352941176,52.258137254901975,63.264705882352935,13.945098039215686,45.15686274509804,12.45797560212912,8.036256862745098,355,23,40,16,6,115,54,68,0.0,0.92,0.08,0.6597,0,0,3,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,6,6,0,2,0,10,10,5,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,1,6,0,0,0,6,2,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,3,7,7,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,3,28,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6148296399055881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.401820756555866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.262902122940007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2180154880472768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.183896003723836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17182479064850945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18369054140659788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18804671294370612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18562321063042173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1730813101452842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3247360883323983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2038734675960004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,colette345,2019/06/19,"I think my mom (55F) may be going into liver failure due to alcoholism. I’m not a health professional by any stretch of the imagination, however, my mom is starting to look very unwell. She’s been an alcoholic for 20+ years with some periods of sobriety, however, she is now at her worst. She is drunk whenever she’s awake, basically, and if she doesn’t drink, she has tremors. Sometimes she takes Xanax and klonopin when she drinks. She barely eats anything. She’s a chain smoker. Her blood pressure is high. She’s had 2 heart attacks. Recently, she’s started looking really puffy in her face, arms, and legs. She won’t see a doctor. She says she’d rather die than go to rehab. Any personal experiences/advice is welcome. I would just like to know how bad it really is.",3.1730791505791487,5.515734087837839,4.478803088803087,81.78067567567571,76.36486486486487,8.282625482625482,27.463320463320464,9.04235418022936,2.503691505791505,607,25,115,15,14,200,107,148,0.149,0.8140000000000001,0.037000000000000005,-0.9501,2,0,5,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,0,0,5,6,1,1,5,0,15,16,6,1,0,16,26,6,1,3,4,2,0,1,0,3,6,1,0,1,1,5,6,0,3,3,0,2,3,4,0,0,2,4,22,2,13,19,2,15,0,0,3,0,23,5,0,3,9,67,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15252358043339828,0.0,0.33361287893105895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21228508677604974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12844391874687666,0.0,0.0,0.1775682018615668,0.0,0.0,0.1303237075906538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16199065793233347,0.0,0.0,0.15975869476946022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3058060010725271,0.0,0.15971300530682014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17741238705381435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16591010422423588,0.0,0.184960415306372,0.0,0.16491142597898042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08577974186184295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07625480932882063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26214267392831386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3656076334207448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1362866195740414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19998294816404674,0.0,0.1541142230322579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1241243446275846,0.0,0.0,0.12437882298126435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15437117037583872,0.0,0.22095426500123092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11735582165100653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10001239174109178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12878573263320112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11087766954001367,0.0,0.0,0.10051304585690794 alcoholism,Arewenotmen3,2019/06/19,"The guilt Hey folks hope everyone is having a good night. I have not drank in over a year which is great, super happy I did it but I have a hard time getting past the shame and guilt. Most of this surrounding black outs and not remembering how much of a asshole I was or what I did. I keep having these horrible thoughts of what if I drove my car and hit some one and did not remember or got into a fist fight or something. I am able to deal with the stuff I know I have done but the unknown freaks me out.I go to NA on the regular and try to live selflessly but I just feel like I will never forgive myself and it makes it quite hard to function. If anyone has any advice I would really appreciate it.The guilt is one of my major relapse triggers.",1.8341208791208807,3.6310598846153854,3.4300732600732613,90.31730769230772,78.35897435897436,6.764835164835166,22.04029304029304,7.7094869923839395,0.8137908424908424,586,17,129,9,14,194,100,156,0.16,0.727,0.113,-0.7705,0,0,1,0,1,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,2,13,1,4,10,0,17,1,0,3,1,36,29,15,0,4,12,0,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,9,9,1,1,6,0,0,3,4,6,0,2,9,4,17,7,14,17,4,14,0,0,1,0,4,6,0,8,6,92,26,0,0.17295975031448188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16901426624638666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11761856125640772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12093747893438797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17831390793708024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17699787491440042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16527045345275185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08745364661802285,0.12356248018365805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09036433088888073,0.0,0.0982970119627302,0.145070432544015,0.13833171250037654,0.19068873532327396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18411887038325456,0.3098759270491934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17178805807613068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1537345730999992,0.0,0.0,0.09505415548459807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08449939746920998,0.0,0.15272662829720746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1154519763893886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12714531748507965,0.0,0.13339722207291507,0.0,0.0,0.1623110090553301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23440400609322756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16510965247885528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18396398449593887,0.0,0.0,0.11080244493898044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3918593612360491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13315286584095382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19799753385236785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13731072195811067,0.10085422131384184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11742831708734418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1228656441657414,0.0,0.0,0.11138040849436286 alcoholism,deathpangea,2019/06/19,Pins and needles/stabbing sensation brought on by heat I know alcoholic neuropathy exists but is this a typical way to experience it. I wouldn’t consider myself a “real” alcoholic. 6 pack a day on and off. Anyone experience anything similar?,3.937857142857143,7.271749928571434,6.525714285714287,60.744285714285745,85.42857142857143,11.371428571428574,37.95238095238096,10.125756701596842,6.432066666666668,195,13,26,9,6,69,35,42,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,2,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,6,4,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,5,2,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,18,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6117951035672146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20014176583453813,0.0,0.23554654371890454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18459752508846705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5599843851181394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15730695476891354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32579744130529864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2271995641219756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,crackthewhip04,2019/06/19,"I guess I'm the bad guy. My SO is trying (again) to stop drinking. It's to the point that when hes drinking he picks stupid fights with anyone he can. Last week it was the poor college kids on the sidewalk at an outdoor concert. He asked me to help him not drink and Ididnt really agree. I've already been thru this a few times in the last year. He always starts drinking again. He always has excuses why. I came home from the store today and he was playing videos and drinking beers. I asked him why he was doing that. His comment was because they are in the house and I have to get rid if them. They were my beers that I got as a gift. I got upset and called him a liar. He stomped upstairs, slamming doors, acting like a child. Telling me I dont understand. I'm the bad guy. I'm ok with being the bad guy. If it means hes not drinking. I sound horrible saying this, but the 3 or 4 times before I did take all the alcohol out if the house. Our friends didnt bring any over. However. I didnt do it this time because I dont believe he really wants to stop. It's just what he says he needs to do because I'm tired of all the garbage people/I am putting up with from him when hes drunk. Just needed to vent. Do I take it all.out of the house again? I cant simply hid it because he will go thru everything I own to find it. Thanks for listening.",0.4639393939393912,2.476911524475525,2.1147132867132896,96.8810442890443,84.10489510489509,5.072074592074593,20.72214452214452,6.2581,0.012155151515151452,1040,32,242,9,30,339,153,286,0.10099999999999999,0.82,0.078,-0.7457,1,0,9,0,1,0,34.0,1,0,3,0,8,12,3,1,19,1,27,11,0,1,2,31,50,14,0,6,9,0,0,1,1,1,2,5,2,5,15,10,10,2,3,12,2,5,7,7,0,0,12,5,30,5,26,36,4,29,0,0,0,0,41,8,0,5,17,138,45,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09518161075571564,0.0,0.0,0.09828359612706952,0.0,0.14821564568137266,0.0,0.0,0.0605661165225482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06227514911626517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16652437629924755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2230924737896348,0.2171687101157592,0.0,0.0757863315167343,0.10034387067638394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09094361482039602,0.1018647194326192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20876311204545225,0.5234889226239171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08004437553843187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08140226742823796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06881010556692699,0.0,0.04653191244336776,0.0,0.05061674124183944,0.0,0.14246415750311706,0.0,0.09811329586127357,0.26456008896143884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059697270763939714,0.0,0.0893377788359361,0.0,0.0,0.3083013647197066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14519699737990588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0435118428463728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09701607299357712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1320786570174267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08419363189716075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08953324316626891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11411249584201015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14165346486029984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06303948131003782,0.0,0.0,0.14892185885281015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13392907578500993,0.0,0.07784527348850219,0.08199754553519335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15580062673702108,0.10236519272790172,0.08442162016550568,0.0,0.0,0.06046815281352001,0.0,0.0,0.09271806447189247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052531857860007504,0.0,0.07144122876240569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16073159954147326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05735386258035094 alcoholism,aimee1404,2019/06/19,"how to deal with a dad who drinks Sorry just wanna vent and this might be long. I’m 22 and moved back home from uni and with my parents to save money, and my alcoholic dad (53) the past few years has been on and off with drinking despite whatever measures we tried to take. Recently it has been worse & worse, with there being an incident where he lied about drinking and then got caught out by my mum (50) and ended up trying to physically harm himself, so we called 111 and got him into counselling. I feel like he didn’t talk much about his alcoholism within his sessions, and he has just been to his last one a few days ago, so it was disappointing when I rang my mum today who told me she’d found beer cans in the bin. I told my dad we knew and all he said was “it was a sunny day, I wanted to chill out”. It used to be a thing he would do when his depression got bad or if he had a bad day of work, but because it was sunny?? Really??? When I said that he was like “yeah I had a long few days at work and needed to chill out.” To put things into perspective, he has a horribly demanding job with long hours and stress. When he drinks he will drink three+ cans of beer in one go, and then drive around all day. It makes us feel so sick and he just doesn’t understand, he feels guilty about it after but it just doesn’t make sense to me how his thought process works. He is a mentally ill man and this became clear to me when he tried to harm himself and broke down, and it’s difficult to remember that he (to an extent) is actually a sick man and can’t help it, my mum has been lied to every day for so long and it’s taking a toll on her too mentally. I don’t want to give up on him because I love him so much but it’s so difficult. I just need to rant and think things through, how do you help someone who doesn’t seem to even want to be helped anyway???",5.173173391494005,4.147727066157763,5.700428934932753,87.52549618320612,68.41475826972011,9.419556524900036,27.111232279171208,8.563005593585519,1.4329598691384953,1439,33,342,19,21,466,191,393,0.162,0.758,0.08,-0.9890000000000001,2,0,9,0,0,0,41.0,4,1,0,3,29,14,0,1,14,1,36,13,0,6,3,72,67,41,0,8,10,7,3,2,0,3,5,3,1,2,22,34,9,0,10,7,1,5,6,10,0,3,23,6,35,4,52,36,8,50,2,3,0,1,56,18,0,4,29,220,57,5,0.0,0.0,0.07952291308931084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0722363571059904,0.17417699241168372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08829485634641067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07254376746966197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06266111729922033,0.13608222500768993,0.0993516301982111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08321084914772782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3153275487732021,0.0840130641248777,0.07018759549193428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3991480312370072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07217634109465595,0.0,0.0,0.05382366624409021,0.0,0.06865920930622416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12361204304714518,0.058216785730261615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08935005994369905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07817305434455027,0.04631289429326353,0.0,0.1955260445006752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16386397006143172,0.0,0.08174155439709825,0.0,0.08025166717638234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0808666862849299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0664255839705898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07962422427082058,0.0,0.0,0.28846589578006193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07354830257696426,0.0,0.10879100130729144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16424639102177324,0.08644847769348049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08661143993377031,0.11980969779229032,0.12084825555281042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11044006058118254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09048548849594472,0.0,0.07779184462850193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08192039876057781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05220486174940719,0.0,0.08046197719234109,0.0,0.09231278149956314,0.0,0.15503213676042912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0741858348771557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0690465843119827,0.0,0.0,0.09122187446750686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09334702226821187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12254133666942955,0.06549892786958293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1624158795631959,0.05221578271551768,0.0,0.06469430580238618,0.0,0.0,0.07724340751433616,0.1557352128558931,0.0,0.16597997622849464,0.0,0.0,0.08483442066027998,0.098022964171087,0.07038157470768701,0.0,0.0,0.14419551636929084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1779780298836988,0.0,0.16609143803181778,0.05788846961776625,0.0,0.0,0.052477170790255066 alcoholism,red-fury99,2019/01/07,"I'm 17 and I need help In my house it's very easy to get alcohol, it's basically laying out in the open. My family has a history of mental illness and addiction and I think I've got it. I don't want to become an alcoholic like my mom was. The problem is I don't really feel happy unless I drink. I only drink a few times a month but when I do I get blackout drunk. I'm lost",-1.1105882352941163,0.7790076470588225,2.856764705882356,89.72044117647059,90.1764705882353,6.6941176470588255,17.911764705882355,7.908726449838941,0.7059647058823533,290,8,69,7,10,109,57,85,0.16899999999999998,0.757,0.07400000000000001,-0.7404,0,0,4,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,6,0,6,7,0,0,0,12,16,6,0,3,2,1,1,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,5,5,0,2,3,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,1,11,2,7,13,1,7,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,0,4,39,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21676219226575666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4249935710759288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2196003642071652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3895700455830422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18744627102596026,0.0,0.10053819943954452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20776874315621707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15902848923981228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21166618462494693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13327656510546004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22943174442958664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971419443763938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2170545873302744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20038140310658611,0.0,0.0,0.2328760421929197,0.15871017186546246,0.0,0.0,0.14743546485259024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15122485621049567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.190260605600611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12738037507253136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12740702233703302,0.0,0.0,0.11594372800780788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16406173703720986,0.11727949175222922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,AnimalLover222,2019/01/07,"My mother is drinking a lot...what should I do? (I'm 36, she is 64) My mother has been drinking more and more over the last 2-3 years. A few times she has fallen and hurt herself- bruised head, sore arm etc. One time she could not get up and my father - who is older - could not pick her up. Her mother (my grandmother) was an alcoholic as well. So this is very scary. A few months ago I told my mom that I was concerned and asked her why she was drinking more. She said she didn't know. I told her that if she kept drinking too much around friends, they won't want to come over for dinner anymore. (She told me she had gotten drunk when her friend came over for dinner. She fell that night too and they all helped pick her up). However, these days I feel she is drinking even more than before. They live far away in the winter so I cannot physically see the situation myself. But I often know she's drinking bc she calls me drunk. I considered our prior chat a ""light talk"". I think i need to say or do something again. What should I do? Should I specifically ask her if she will stop drinking? Should I ask her to go to AA? Should I threaten to tell people she knows that she has a drinking problem? Thank you for reading ",1.4393951612903244,3.574266536290324,2.3150903225806445,96.13313548387094,81.21774193548387,5.097032258064517,19.59741935483871,6.152001189255117,-0.19718245161290326,943,24,211,7,25,295,140,248,0.10800000000000001,0.848,0.044000000000000004,-0.9257,1,0,10,0,0,0,39.0,1,1,3,0,10,6,0,0,9,0,27,16,2,2,1,35,50,13,0,12,6,5,1,0,2,7,2,2,0,0,8,8,13,2,5,12,0,5,5,2,2,1,13,5,52,4,19,28,9,29,0,1,1,0,51,10,0,4,14,145,60,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08092697861948908,0.09756595089800232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0905395148385949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08127137295116554,0.2560438249416348,0.0,0.08577409552061156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07768481160167179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09322179134818616,0.10441647431150354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07864204320998971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14578230195118694,0.0,0.0,0.058877336427376026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7154700593227944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10181739035670467,0.06029909123139862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046161192533143915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1410676564039133,0.0,0.047697556792682665,0.0,0.051884712303228615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09369439446561087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06119271298158334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09773254509654188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1505190466750303,0.07441712219634079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08061462919388877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07761523551210715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1069228997530236,0.07287032034878825,0.0,0.06711188963625128,0.06769364199093741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08567361143872387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0618634492342587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0632920430245008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08735641274223871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09131910715043193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08684188211855799,0.0726009724323876,0.0,0.0,0.07274981814025881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10261873247129877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07028289058397537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07632620762094007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.073378981826613,0.07979533095225211,0.08405161919329021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05849776623173821,0.0,0.0,0.1064689994731248,0.0,0.0,0.2617071391612013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07532744243396389,0.05384780341346089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08208463104520174,0.0,0.08237899749810157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05879060141865972 alcoholism,hkjake,2019/01/07,"Usually fine, but the occasional outbursts are damaging So long story short, I developed a problem a little after college. I didn't know it at the time but during college, probably a little less than halfway through, I developed depression. I think it was due to stress and exhaustion (17-19hr semesters in engineering and worked 20-30hr/wk for car insurance gas and food money) and alcohol was just easy to turn to to feel better for a bit. I got married to the girl I was going out with since before college (we're still married) and I love her more than anything in the world. Shortly before we got married I lost my job and was unemployed for several months at the beginning of our marriage. That was super stressful but fortunately she has a pretty good job. Things were a little tight but not terribly so. During this time (3 years or so ago) is when I started drinking more. Not to the point where it was a serious problem, but it was more than most people. Fast forward a year or two and I'm getting a good buzz after work almost everyday and plastered on the weekends. My depression is still undiagnosed at this time and I'm beginning to become verbally abusive. The next morning my wife would tell me about it and this was a huge wake up call to me. I'm not sure why I got angry. I don't have any pent up regret or anger that I can think of. Anyway at this point I know I need help so I see a therapist and it helps a little. Not much though. I go to my doctor and tell him about what's been happening, minus some of the more extreme cases, but I made it clear that I felt my depression was contributing to many of the problems I was experiencing including hurting relationships with my family and friends and prescribed me an anti-depressant. Holy shit. I had never experienced not being depressed as an adult. The changes were incredible. It wasn't even anything specific, but I simply didn't have this general feeling of existential dread and lingering feeling of anxiety and hopelessness in the back of my head constantly. Turns out I had severe chronic depression. Just getting on that changed a lot of things for me. I didn't drink nearly as much and my relationship with my wife improved greatly. (This is about a year ago) Over the last year I've fucked up a few times. Mostly closer to when I first started taking anti-depressants. Recently I had another fuck up. I was out with friends at the neighborhood pub and was about to head home. I had a good buzz and was about to call my uber when another friend invited me to go to a brewery with them. It wasn't even 8PM yet so I thought, ""What the hell?"" I hadn't gotten pissed off or told anyone off while I was drunk for a long time. I figured it was the depression that made me do that when I was drunk, so I wasn't too worried. Let me emphasize that at this point, I didn't feel the need to drink more. I had probably 4 drinks over 2 hours or so and felt perfectly fine to just go home. I simply accepted the invitation because I wanted to spend a little more time with friends and it wasn't late yet. Fast forward a couple hours and a few beers, apparently I got pretty drunk a lot faster than I anticipated and my wife called asking me to get her an uber from our house to the place she was having her girls night. (This part was told to me the next day, I only remember getting mildly frustrated on the phone.) So I go outside (it's kinda loud in the bar we're at) and fortunately there wasn't anyone around nearby because she said I was yelling and super pissed off at her on the phone. I don't even know why I would be mad about that. It's stupid. Like, we had a great day together that day and we were just planning on having going out with friends. I don't understand what would make me so mad so easily? I'm usually a pretty laid back guy. I don't worry about much and I don't stress out much (not big time anyway, little normal stuff, yeah). I'm not possessive or jealous either. Well not any more jealous than the average dude. Everyone's a tiny bit right? This is super disappointing. Not just for her but for me too. I thought this was in my past and wouldn't be a problem again. On top of that, our relationship has been amazing recently and I definitely didn't want to screw anything up. I'm not really sure what I'm looking for posting this here, but I wanted to get it off my chest and maybe just ask if anyone else has had a similar experience.",3.950616460554368,5.466499362285717,5.052312153518127,82.10077441364608,71.94857142857144,8.561023454157782,28.1454157782516,9.092157051796928,2.300913518123666,3502,132,690,73,67,1153,346,875,0.155,0.677,0.16899999999999998,0.9051,5,0,6,0,1,1,91.0,6,0,1,11,47,61,14,4,54,1,70,25,7,3,5,128,134,64,0,16,33,3,7,1,5,4,4,3,2,4,42,46,11,1,17,11,2,9,28,37,1,2,58,14,90,24,102,68,23,124,1,12,2,4,47,58,7,14,61,478,132,9,0.0,0.055467441281610616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08299633048514114,0.05003038568202249,0.04687788668101032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06367083189340629,0.09817801784507768,0.03581290880131094,0.0,0.0,0.09820120832022528,0.04796691311361916,0.11557285463331078,0.041674765594249485,0.08753034021552646,0.0,0.0,0.07199480993073235,0.0,0.057075280817867065,0.051702857007379116,0.07967125929270215,0.0,0.0,0.041403556674658316,0.10221845971526022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1434082935345309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09904691357177657,0.0,0.0,0.05058976485693474,0.0,0.0,0.051799273460241664,0.0,0.09057429837806648,0.0,0.3225695815672798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047916550110311006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18344126553576093,0.0,0.0,0.039107446971501765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0927614632814726,0.0,0.0,0.0447331915402252,0.0,0.04579349295215917,0.04413247574707546,0.0,0.09468312437766947,0.0,0.08989838351549273,0.0,0.0,0.0398203280057423,0.05660819140044492,0.0,0.18084355228918594,0.0865583674918247,0.12229303053289595,0.0,0.1596343074795649,0.11779716174742587,0.14976709658839932,0.10322614288969614,0.0,0.04635364325006496,0.04139784351625125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09609021688844206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06275744772063925,0.0,0.09391737533436753,0.0,0.09220556182230616,0.05401756375962069,0.05011581273857866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09291219116011724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07718395493848766,0.03816000654492015,0.05280871316626395,0.0,0.0,0.04787092376029733,0.0,0.022871164524906503,0.28152212889642125,0.0,0.0828585901166273,0.03931232847596521,0.0,0.051103477592350434,0.07959990410038091,0.042251848458680616,0.08859388620594584,0.03124899378944667,0.047462481538235436,0.0470313845798538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03736682929102733,0.0,0.1376559626159387,0.06942460942276729,0.036106172405629765,0.0,0.09957534921214224,0.04393216879044276,0.045868199178500366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0356044815537588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05069546280904273,0.044689668087515434,0.03245522945222246,0.0,0.04891111265867672,0.0,0.13276429687440144,0.0,0.044835280717468916,0.14288130817712338,0.10094774126762776,0.17918033826621094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02999052092513115,0.0,0.0924471985865084,0.1507835255549846,0.05303162028297385,0.039979265184276115,0.044531240824847516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03730503752952884,0.0,0.0,0.10577395546220934,0.048054336953884697,0.03872537808739019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06627098529001202,0.0,0.07477212434065167,0.0,0.16087730514861184,0.0,0.05359131908500683,0.0,0.0,0.08824408754042776,0.0,0.03519862325485231,0.0,0.08183574590154567,0.0,0.0,0.054355158398219215,0.06220285073569059,0.0599935895499088,0.04599493720117337,0.07433085221896324,0.19108508349760686,0.0,0.0,0.08946638308045039,0.0,0.0,0.1018413077546166,0.045730893138121634,0.0487354698916025,0.0,0.0,0.10311895571109976,0.0,0.08283708654840782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04209179239231958,0.0,0.08448547836605516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06816292136496653,0.09508464684118956,0.0,0.09976687809628104,0.0,0.0,0.12058782541989567 alcoholism,atkarigais,2019/01/07,"Thank you! I’m on my 3rd day sober (3rd attempt), and I just wanted to thank you all who post, comment and reply here on this sub. It helps immensely. Made an appointment to a narcologist to help me on my new path to sobriety.",0.9860869565217384,3.22436282608696,3.1327826086956527,88.98830434782612,83.78260869565217,7.1582608695652175,22.243478260869566,8.238735603445708,1.3362834782608701,174,6,38,4,5,59,35,46,0.0,0.7859999999999999,0.214,0.8622,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,6,5,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,2,7,4,1,6,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,0,2,23,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2186880888842533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4545761838968943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3208596921226447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3274998641301069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3247590772527584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6243858531773206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20000689456511045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,flutel00p,2019/01/07,"After telling myself I needed to stop drinking, I’m finally doing it I’m hungover today and wondering again how I ended up here. I used to drink maybe once or twice a week max, and even then it was one beer or glass of wine usually. Somehow, with the stress of working at a job I hate, I have let myself spiral into alcoholism. I told my boyfriend that I need help and I don’t want to keep booze in the house, that we can use the money we have spent on that to buy a heavier weight set or go out of town for a weekend. He said he has noticed my lack of control which is so embarrassing to me. Wish me luck. I want to do this so badly.",3.200444444444446,3.6119465259259282,4.682222222222227,88.21000000000002,72.62962962962962,7.481481481481483,26.11111111111111,7.3871296695380915,1.1021111111111117,491,15,111,5,9,165,95,135,0.134,0.7859999999999999,0.08,-0.8540000000000001,1,0,5,0,0,0,12.0,2,0,0,2,7,5,1,2,7,0,10,7,0,4,0,26,26,10,0,6,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,7,8,7,3,1,5,3,1,1,4,0,2,4,2,17,1,19,21,1,19,0,0,0,0,8,7,0,6,10,77,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17431291369107949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13618841854031422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18293956062250652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3195676092719744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14446532968066947,0.0,0.0,0.10773133648292592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17867690899770236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09269807032428934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16103544262049696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10932789562654832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18820480396209696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16185958330881167,0.14497793965397066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16678904405766767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16386397125029334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2418851221188213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1856996093853582,0.0,0.17370476250186473,0.1105262439175859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15515311810293694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13636564312590282,0.18683973366009965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1425636352560352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1546073708222805,0.15585674285296822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2817459915363736,0.17964048629393395,0.0,0.19241072161901127,0.0,0.13083544861629778,0.19862167765455385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18756622139432488,0.0,0.17688373525334206,0.11874461156805265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,dontplay37,2019/01/07,"Just out of the blue Alcohol has been in my life since 16 im now 37. the pints turn to fifths daily, ive been through it all from being homeless several times sleeping where ever i can just to drink. Push all my family and friends away and now i am alone more then ever. Tried to quit many times and failed horribly. No one has ever told me or reconized i had a problem noone seemed to care. I felt no love, loneliness, ashamed, and guilt. Till one day a stranger came up to me and asked if i was ok. My normal response was yea im good. They said it will be ok just take it one day at a time we are here for you and take your time. This was my boss a woman who has no knowledge of my life but notice i was struggling with alcohol. I cried when she turned around to leave i couldnt hold back the tears of emotion knowing someone did care and out of juat pure love came up and said something so supportive in my struggle. Somehow that struck me in such a way it made me more determined to quit. I still cry at times thinking about that moment. I havnt had a drink since and that was 28 days ago. Longest i have ever been sober. I was a extremely heavy drinker and thought i hide it well. Just remember maybe you can be that stranger who says just a few caring words out of the blue will or can make a world of difference in someones life. 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I won't bore anyone with the details of my mediocre life, but long story short; i'm an Alcoholic, and its pretty bad. It's not really where i wanted to be at almost 28 years old, but that's a story for another time. Anyways, i've come to a point now where the drinking has passed the point of harming my work life, family and, myself. And when i say 'myself' i mean that i'm starting experience some problems, particularly that of Delirium Tremens. After a lengthy conversation with the wife, we agreed that its time to stop, but since i've been experiencing some of the lovely fuckery that comes with Delirium Tremens, i'm honestly pretty terrified as i know going cold-turkey can kick that shit into over-drive and literally kill you. And since i can't go to the Doctor until next year (No health insurance). I'm trying to find a work around at home. One severe symptom i'm aware of when the drinking ceases is a drastic increase in Blood Pressure, which is something i don't want. So i'm trying to figure out a way to manage that first, before moving on to an additional step. I've scoured the web and have found recipes for meals and beverages that aid in lowering blood pressure. I've found one beverage recipe in particular that has me interested. It's a mixture of garlic, honey, water, cayenne pepper and lemon juice. It's said that daily consumption of this mixture can help to slightly lower blood pressure, and keep it there, since it kind of acts like a control i guess. Anyone else ever heard of this, or know of anything that works?",6.7969308722403206,7.0563870228013075,7.089679695982628,74.61090752804922,64.76547231270358,9.688671733622876,33.01646760767282,9.444778638647367,2.99427846543612,1284,49,229,22,18,417,179,307,0.152,0.7390000000000001,0.10800000000000001,-0.9499,2,0,4,0,0,0,38.0,1,1,0,6,11,14,2,3,18,0,12,16,4,2,1,45,36,19,1,3,5,1,0,1,1,1,7,3,1,0,21,20,5,3,7,2,0,9,5,9,0,3,5,6,15,5,40,29,4,41,0,0,1,1,11,15,1,6,17,137,36,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10467281951742843,0.0,0.1144747604462671,0.10726151267636952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11232079186172553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14979643063903347,0.1097533191714241,0.08814759715776438,0.09535622688134328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08943764554121075,0.0,0.0,0.0911480912814724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18454243462209494,0.0,0.0,0.12014005121571494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11043221331231487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10963808334702536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20986641060126845,0.0,0.0,0.08948193308324666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0968928359405106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10478030629254036,0.10097972502463676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09790236779609174,0.09111307952573144,0.0,0.2348950126257535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12175333622166737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11800069310802848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1138596297453457,0.0,0.0,0.07179780543467609,0.0,0.10744639379231406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0952098990284446,0.118508327662137,0.11154515453854587,0.11773664652564356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15131883671182134,0.05233161896364566,0.0,0.0,0.09479456459521844,0.08995072341583353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09667665289371233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11668106504186684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11384768678161568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1139194120934925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11240054962663126,0.0,0.14516956922553956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20251907413638529,0.0,0.0,0.2179515948538557,0.0,0.10249584337641876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06862145177898943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10189214127188342,0.08518318994350907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12101094212972947,0.10995335407092093,0.2658231584253843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0824633695363955,0.0,0.0,0.07581747634156494,0.0,0.0,0.08955403245455441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2226697227315837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1249207648514729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14544988791420105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12635995118333504,0.08502394192013024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2339458507525396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13795878484142035 alcoholism,Plasma_Maze,2019/01/07,"Im 15 years old and an alcoholic and I just need somone to tell me everything will be okay I've been drinking for about 2 years and it's the only way I can feel okay, please someone tell me it gets better and I don't have to keep drinking to not want to kill myself. I'm currently on 9 shots of vodka and questioning what's the point of living if I'm just just gonna depend on this to feel okay. I can't tell my parents because my dad just got out of rehab and we can't afford any therapy or more rehab. Please someone tell me it's gets easier.",1.486750000000001,2.852054175000003,3.5450000000000017,91.02,78.08333333333334,6.8000000000000025,21.166666666666664,7.554174236665415,0.5900666666666661,431,11,99,6,10,147,74,120,0.023,0.804,0.17300000000000001,0.9468,3,0,4,0,0,1,5.0,1,0,0,1,5,5,1,0,3,3,8,5,0,1,0,22,19,8,1,3,7,2,2,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,5,8,3,1,3,3,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,2,11,4,13,14,1,9,0,0,0,0,8,4,0,4,4,54,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16186896259609093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10300072011956496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09233105411766268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13395760746900706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2967541319620235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13612608493579034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15316950798439696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1582673866310415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12113960458885638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16360712119735515,0.0,0.0,0.13462817065117907,0.16757248482447706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1337454949967643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1123086435643869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15893599857615187,0.0,0.0,0.11519520416068894,0.0,0.0,0.16818285756387413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3325239964373101,0.14318244610681988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16967435437436254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2566699268056589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5295448800475846,0.0,0.17321229464090732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08933739687247412,0.12022508036522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19507571185335665 alcoholism,TiredAF773,2019/01/07,"Ready to Quit but scared of Seizures So I've been a continual drinker for a while. I have had occasional (read: days) moments of sobriety, but for the last 3 months I have had at least one drink everyday. I don't drink hard liquor and my mainstay has been beer. I usually drink 6 pints give or take an evening during the week, and a 12 pack Friday and Saturday. I've packed on pounds and am so tired of taking acid shits, getting no sleep, and looking like I just pulled an all-nighter to ace an exam. I drive to the liquor store this afternoon to buy a 4 pack of pints, but dear God did I not want to. I am so tired and want to quit, I'd to an in or out patient program but my job offers no insurance and I just cannot afford it. Worse is that I'm in a right to work state and can be fired for ANYTHING. I'm all for AA, but my concern is if I stop cold turkey since this is my longest binge is that I'll suffer a seizure and die. I can't go to a doctor unless I want to pay out the ass. Any advice is appreciated. I haven't touched the pints yet today because I am just SO damn tired. 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I got into a habit of drinking my issues away daily and it got the the point where I was hospitalised for alcohol poisoning and I was throwing up blood since I fucked up my liver that bad in the span of a few months. I’m getting better though atleast.,2.55318181818182,4.583404015151519,3.5393939393939418,89.27909090909094,77.03030303030303,6.824242424242425,24.63636363636364,7.793537801064563,1.2796545454545458,259,9,53,4,6,83,47,66,0.17300000000000001,0.784,0.043,-0.8689,0,0,2,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,2,4,2,0,6,0,4,6,2,0,0,3,10,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,3,0,1,5,0,6,1,8,5,1,11,0,0,0,1,0,8,1,0,2,33,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2769665031247285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24349223347257554,0.0,0.21639033649592468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2292086729450744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16713873880690505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2538811421879118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23959208022865994,0.1354020064466255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41455276088484827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2704989102687056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2068614882837765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2449928681263353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4287647358633699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2546263984254677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,omegaman1000,2019/01/07,"28 y/o alcoholic who is giving up alcohol and is terrified!!! I used to post on this page 227 days ago when I briefly attempted to give up drinking, that failed spectacularly, what followed was 200 or so heavy days of drinking non stop, noon till dawn Things have escalated since, I've started to get into trouble at work for being visibly hungover and for failing to turn up on more than one occasions without any notice. I once showed up for work having stayed up all night drinking and taking cocaine. I was sent home by a member of staff. Needless to say I'm on my final warning. I love my job and they have provided great training and support but I seemed to have lost my way. I came clean to my boss about my drinking and they were very supportive and understanding. I could see things escalating yet still made excuses to continue drinking, I was getting into pub brawls trouble with the police, always had blackouts and didn't know how I got home. I treated my S/O with utter contempt. I'm now attending weekly counselling for my drinking and will go to my first AA meeting this week which terrifies me I know I cannot drink anymore but I'm scared of change! If I don't stop drinking, this time next year I will have lost everything!",5.548791841004182,6.5743257489539735,5.8866710251046035,79.46339565899585,67.66108786610879,8.820188284518828,33.347541841004194,9.017664075816787,2.8828847280334724,990,44,183,17,16,317,156,239,0.157,0.7809999999999999,0.062,-0.9745,3,0,11,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,2,8,7,13,1,1,2,0,19,11,0,4,1,31,46,17,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,3,0,9,14,10,2,4,10,0,5,4,8,1,2,12,2,26,5,34,30,3,40,0,4,1,1,10,11,0,3,21,113,35,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07808599677131604,0.1882816992991524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07329749257771978,0.0,0.0,0.059903857731946765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08736108012390882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100750882030294,0.0,0.0,0.09318697499233676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07033227085493825,0.0,0.0,0.11362083647750545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6903531269212448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07916913217824723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0964977044421036,0.0,0.0749288549484924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09204622066085967,0.16900688555476054,0.05006327366353554,0.0,0.07045319324536183,0.09711894746772327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17672183394765492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0874152027750637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09682333376900584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1923201164655689,0.0,0.07950418248713632,0.08335238283184519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0936841466560265,0.08266599668383137,0.0,0.0,0.10029044112080997,0.0,0.0938124065729517,0.059691702069864024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08436535844128946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07005227917386463,0.08819292299699978,0.0,0.07019589957910556,0.08019334161875358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07286851673138285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06235017756976938,0.09389165029189178,0.07034836149646234,0.14729347625540087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19992576467083856,0.0,0.0,0.06623231571244552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11704545425856798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051365676137460126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09581604369770676,0.0,0.09170424095522038,0.0,0.07608101564868132,0.0,0.07268303508953038,0.0,0.06992131804175608,0.14132011262057248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08491510193607145,0.0,0.12826036106695454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0567267281056708 alcoholism,sailor_earthh,2019/01/07,"I feel abandoned and helpless I got drunk and broke my foot two months ago. It’s finally healing, but I spent those two months just drinking at home feeling horrible. I have bipolar type 1. I lost my insurance and can’t get any treatment. Same goes for my PTSD, insomnia, and panic disorder. I understand that alcoholism is a separate illness and I can’t blame my mental health for me drinking, but I’ll argue it’s a lot harder to not drink when I’m alone all the time just not wanting to listen to my head scream. I’ve been trying to tell others that I’m hurting and want to get sober. No one seems to be listening and just tells me I’m smart and to figure it out and quit annoying them. I feel like even though I’m posting here that I’ll just be told to go to AA. It may be well intentioned, but it just feels like I’m being dismissed. I’ve tried AA multiple times and hated it. It doesn’t work for me. I just feel like I’m struggling and no matter how hard my feelings get, I’m just brushed aside. No matter how hard I ask for help, no one wants to. I get that it’s MY problem to deal with and that I have to do the work, but feeling like no one cares or wants to help is really hurtful. 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Not sure if this is the best place to ask but; I've decided to go cold turkey on alcohol. I've been on a bender for at least 6 days, on half of those days only being sober for a few hours. I decided to stop after having a terrifying blackout. However I'm not sure if I will experience any withdrawal symptoms, and if I do, what should I expect to happen and how do you think I should cope with it? 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I'm trying to detox at home, starting today. Any tips on what's the best, fastest way to hydrate? I know withdrawal symptoms can be worsened by dehydration. I vomited water four times this morning. Is there anything I can do besides just trying to intake as much water as possible? I've read eating fruit is good but I haven't been able to eat anything yet. Thanks to anyone who reads this. 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I've been a drinking on and off for at least 8 years. The past 2 years I've drank about 8 beers every night, I cant remember the last time I went to bed sober. About a month ago I went to get a haircut, out of the blue I started sweating, heart pounding, extremely light headed and seeing black spots. I saw my doctor and was told it was anxiety. I've been given medication to lower my heart rate, but I am still always light headed. I do also feel odd tention in my chest at times and then I start to wonder if my breathing is normal. It never occurred to me that it could be alcohol related because it's never happened before, I still dont know if it is. I'm just wanted to know if anyone here has felt this way? Thank you. 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My parents divorced when I was a baby. My mother walked in my father in bed with another woman.My mother is 63y and only since last year did she find a man.They seem happy. My mother is an alcoholic.I have known for years.All the family knows. Even my son knows her sneaky ways. My mother was a sports teacher.Happy outgoing,helping everyone,funny as hell. Now she complains about everyone and everything.She hasn't come to visit me in 5 years. I was seriously sick at Xmas she wouldn't come,used having no money as an excuse. She can drink tins and tins of beer,plus hard alcohol and not be drunk at all.Seem normal. She loved driving.She stopped driving 3 years ago.She didn't leave the house for 2 months. Her bf was the one bringing in the food and alcohol. She used to be very close to her sister,brother in law and mother,all lived in the same house. Of course they had fights like every family. My mother would cry to me how horrible her mother and sister were to her. I was always in the middle. My aunt and uncle paid for everything for years.She had no money worries. My mother quit her job years ago to look after my aunt's house.My aunt and her husband paid my mum. Now my mother lives with her bf. She left her sister.My grandmother died last year. My mother's drinking is out of control. Doctors 10 years ago told her her liver was fatty she should stop drinking immediately. 5 years ago I begged her to stop.She hasn't. I believe she has deep rooted depression. She uses the alcohol as an escape,but in the process she has become an alcoholic. Recently I found out from the rest of the family,how she has fallen out with everyone,because she has been saying things she shouldn't. She is saying everyone is lying about her. Accused my uncle of being an alcoholic. Accused other members of family of lying. She is my mother. But I know she is manipulating and lying to me. I don't know what to do anymore. Any advice is welcome. Thank you. 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I’m a regular weekend drinker, meaning I’ll party on a Friday or Saturday night every weekend, but never any other time. No cravings, no true hangovers other than some fatigue. I recently partied 2 and a half weeks in a row and I am on the tail-end (I think) of beating the withdrawals that came after it. Anxiety, insomnia, heart racing, muscle spasms, and some shakes is what I dealt with. I regret partying that long, and I never want to do it again, but I’d like to resume my weekend partying. If I went out in a few nights and drank, say, 6-8 drinks, would I expect the withdrawals to comeback, or would I need to repeat something like the 2 and a half weeks I did? I’m just worried that I may have hurt my ability to drink on weekends following the 18 days I just did. I’m 24 if it matters, and I started my weekend stuff at 21.",4.306016949152543,5.114731762711871,5.5625,81.4535805084746,70.35593220338983,8.159887005649718,32.264124293785315,8.344100000000001,2.4988836158192087,690,31,133,10,12,231,106,177,0.146,0.7120000000000001,0.14300000000000002,-0.1363,0,0,5,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,1,4,7,0,1,12,0,10,7,1,0,3,35,22,14,0,8,8,0,0,2,0,3,3,1,0,0,10,11,4,0,3,7,0,4,4,4,0,2,5,1,17,3,17,14,3,31,0,3,0,0,2,7,0,8,22,92,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1832231132712152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11658882781979067,0.0,0.1311553480234741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19608799303517332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11056817242132208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3359026651072887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15184983661482634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444502389166587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20316375814360305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18353596737070785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675192350115075,0.0,0.0,0.1517238837505827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18675442441136925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271246753615207,0.2644586975008621,0.0,0.0,0.3217799994467698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1920582114826311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16928176054725955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13634035309599066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13198713182182306,0.0,0.0,0.12135001638364395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1962640941741607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10985536193457314,0.0,0.0,0.09997125724081224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10112300544833497,0.0,0.2750464978653037,0.0,0.0,0.15893170800284848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17411124040961512,0.0,0.24357994655927484,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,jaxonthewolf,2019/01/31,"I wish more people posted more recovery stories They are so helpful to others. All it takes is that one story that is similar to yours to make you feel like you are not alone. So I'm encouraging you all to post your experiences, tell others how you stay sober, and support others. I often post anonymously because I have a fear of being judged by others who may internet stalk me, but the more I open up to those who are struggling like me, the better I feel. That being said, there is nothing wrong with posting your current state, even if it is awful. It is the act itself of sharing that will help this small community stay strong. Those of us who as visible are small, but I know there are thousands of people who browse the internet daily seeking support.",6.212659003831419,6.814814158620693,6.3995402298850586,77.87670498084293,66.0344827586207,8.9272030651341,30.59386973180077,8.841846274778883,2.4400881226053652,603,21,109,9,9,193,89,145,0.057999999999999996,0.72,0.221,0.976,1,1,0,0,0,0,14.0,1,7,1,2,7,11,0,2,5,1,15,0,0,2,2,17,25,8,0,2,4,0,2,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,19,3,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,3,0,2,1,3,17,8,13,20,5,13,0,0,0,0,19,4,0,3,3,88,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15459328675439046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09099041891605096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13201255998944747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.098587973430871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14600958760563149,0.0,0.16796436534069498,0.15094550614471525,0.1066347821565561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20009805913790796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08203201447647934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14584645481535358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09963539363670484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14322357337313985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10114567176550247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20696279591145333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5718175597200602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14198497841594493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31819277094259824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1560439474025967,0.0,0.0,0.3387677863029613,0.0,0.0,0.11222853148800163,0.0,0.13046398887901978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17954714090802815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17164712009567692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631975950045163,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,NamesJames0933,2019/01/31,Hello. New to the subreddit. Hello all. Just want people to talk to about the problem. I haven’t gone more than a few days without a drink in 5 years. I’ve been intoxicated for the better part of three years straight. My family doesn’t know. My friends have their suspicions. I feel helpless. It’s the only thing that makes me feel. Just want someone to talk to this about.,0.8572229140722314,3.4213345479452077,1.86941469489415,93.47991282689912,93.93150684931507,4.8463262764632615,18.96513075965131,6.574015621080383,0.20624383561643844,294,9,60,4,11,92,53,73,0.11,0.75,0.141,0.0772,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,1,4,4,0,0,6,0,4,2,0,1,1,11,11,0,0,3,3,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,1,0,3,1,0,1,3,2,0,1,2,2,6,2,12,9,4,7,0,1,0,0,6,2,0,0,4,39,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21314867146118174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15542780152532118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23609241077613285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2271973552344483,0.0,0.2437179772921118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18619928338839428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13244963134071244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16087220629516713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2327634035364656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1832945899039836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2609841137988753,0.0,0.16708199959891792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2306085160359185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20420211638716607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3874201693055511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16011251279199504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2843010981600857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2323194938427529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31039766685522074 alcoholism,MajesticJackass,2019/01/31,"New to this Reddit thing... So reading the rules, and I'm not sure if I'll ever be allowed to post here, other than this, but I'm still breaking them. I always knew getting sober would be hard, but damn, I gotta work my way up to being able to post here. Like working out at the dirt gym before going to the good one that all your friends go to, so no one knows how much of a slob you really are... I'll try to get back here. Just browsing, you're all inspiring. ",2.4356709956709963,3.0726954242424256,3.7519769119769135,93.35272727272732,74.55555555555556,6.465223665223665,22.223665223665233,6.1826913282559595,0.15413015873015867,353,8,84,2,7,116,74,99,0.124,0.74,0.13699999999999998,0.5298,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,2,1,2,10,6,1,0,4,0,5,0,0,2,4,17,14,7,0,2,5,0,1,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,3,2,0,2,2,1,0,2,1,1,6,5,12,8,3,13,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,1,5,53,11,3,0.20885003617521974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1737799607253528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1605927862753698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17771599825310266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1889168146107095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16135701987406015,0.0,0.2182310478683903,0.0,0.2373885770186995,0.17517350152092276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18708861008524194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11477851798159695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.102033578252403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15352880718194065,0.0,0.0,0.2017086663649766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2830443791874969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4000412063471894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20890655396108096,0.0,0.13379468108466194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16678790867212034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1968386874564916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13875068388299688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14179546528654732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16577543754688795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3040906274549716,0.0,0.0,0.14836107349860242,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,HFSfan,2019/01/31,"What about sick leave banks for alcoholics? Hello Reddit. I sent this question to AA months ago, but so far have only received an auto-response. Turning here to r/alcoholism, which has already helped me immensely, I have a strong feeling that some of you will have insights and suggestions regarding this question. Our cohesive Eastern Shore Hospital Group recently reviewed the Big Book chapter “For Employers” and up popped the question, “What are some of the AA guidelines for employers to consider regarding utilizing sick leave banks for employees seeking time off to treat alcoholism at treatment center programs?” Understandably, treatment and rehabilitation is expensive and often not fully covered by insurance, so we think it’s great that sometimes fellow employees would like to chip in some of their own accrued sick leave time to help suffering colleagues seeking treatment. However, it’s a delicate subject, considering anonymity, potential stigmas and such; but I imagine that there must be constructive ways to address this and hope Reddit has some suggestions. I’ve heard that some employers use boards that vote on whether the sick person is justified or qualified in being granted some of their fellow employees donated sick-time. Many employers have policies that differ from others standards. Also, some people may want to donate and / or exclude donating some of their sick time, for under specific circumstances. Perhaps some of the solution lies with employing a type of double-blind mechanism, which identifies aspects of the ill candidate’s situation; but never their actual name, or at least follows a protocol, attempting to keep the ill persons name vague or obscured. (This might be impractical for smaller organizations) Undoubtedly, there are aspects about potential sick leave banks that I haven’t even considered yet. However, I look forward to hearing suggestions from concerned Redditors. And perhaps we can layer this feedback into a comprehensive Grapevine letter, seeking experienced insights from the thoughtful editors and readers there. Thank you, &19 Months Sober, HFSfan",11.799044198032167,12.942287908011876,10.025291269717323,54.777505856629716,54.19287833827893,13.741621115102296,48.89411213493676,12.936686537176746,7.328849258160236,1743,105,208,56,19,534,203,337,0.128,0.75,0.12300000000000001,-0.2523,10,0,3,0,0,0,44.0,3,2,4,2,13,7,0,0,14,0,20,10,0,1,3,56,35,20,0,4,9,0,1,1,2,5,10,2,1,2,19,13,2,1,10,1,7,4,3,1,2,0,3,5,15,6,40,24,11,26,0,1,1,0,30,13,0,21,11,149,34,11,0.0,0.0,0.11258165433278547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10226597932639617,0.36987705537887583,0.0,0.0,0.12731047114001548,0.09225903362796664,0.0,0.12500021201927908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12053407197029672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07619888598912355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05833307559241351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12719264253003595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1300271139909302,0.0,0.15465627970926474,0.0,0.0,0.11458556807125404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10254358532330822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4886284336292635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05636254096543305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0968793137647287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11696413871303918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12238626900340678,0.0,0.0,0.1841698479647032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08897822492165447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0877418833632801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07998102578254686,0.20146821548418928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38771268786037616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11391109997475968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12967746173688885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11410101855571217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10621453188295746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07392258371863411,0.0,0.09158859616930662,0.20181446320050575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12548628370107706,0.0,0.12010122681963893,0.0,0.0996401390155186,0.0,0.0,0.0680465086500421,0.09157303948201984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08195348262760419,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,iamjustthere,2018/12/23,"Trying to make sense First off this is a whole new idea for me. Never really felt i had a problem. Now i think iam the problem. Iam not a abusive person at all never have been. The past year there has been a few intangible breaking stuff and hollering obscenitys And none sense. It leaves my SO wondering if this is how i really feek or mean the things i say. I feel as if things are getting really out of hand especially after a real ruff night. I left came back hit my head real hard. I know i have some other problems but this stuff is changing me into a monster and thats never happened before. I think i will make a meeting this week and start this but i still feel clueless as where to start and find help.",2.425128205128204,4.394209333333337,3.889722222222221,86.90442307692308,77.19444444444444,6.6529914529914524,22.188034188034187,7.61054688173877,0.9044226495726492,560,16,114,8,13,185,94,144,0.076,0.865,0.059000000000000004,-0.0767,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,7,3,0,0,10,0,11,2,2,3,4,37,27,14,0,5,6,0,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,12,8,0,0,10,0,0,1,5,3,0,1,5,6,15,0,11,20,5,23,0,0,0,0,4,6,0,5,15,86,27,0,0.0,0.15210362970156316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09871261101212056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10923784693609097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14682703868719732,0.0,0.0,0.1358039483786224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12982072506473025,0.0,0.1232603318367146,0.0,0.11733261462343145,0.10919588655314907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06707074781697027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11352177268589332,0.0,0.11499897112735523,0.0,0.13174999990839745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08604719605373279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14491998422515956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07055165715001213,0.0,0.0,0.13593080961524925,0.13948003937956688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17138289670745113,0.0,0.0,0.13983823626128294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2970326240385342,0.12398557608009647,0.0,0.1204714365633352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12254866222795835,0.0,0.1120922801773901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3685132105212172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2922381837864545,0.24672133691150525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1020891182004211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1817292662795249,0.0,0.1025206071339034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29391779988332273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17057356813428182,0.16451529976004556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08715833962873533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10297484858137934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.143326335463156,0.0,0.0,0.13921743722253538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08266942516359373 alcoholism,warg100,2018/12/23,"Need advice on spouse My spouse recently got their 2nd DUI in 24 months in the past they have hidden alcohol in house and typical can not have a single drink. On the the flip side now on probation with monitoring and doesn’t seem to struggle with not drinking. We got in a massive fight because I asked my spouse if they where going to continue to avoid alcohol after done with court order to avoid alcohol. My spouse said I am the only one that has a problem with drinking and basically I am trying to control them. While being sentenced my spouse said they would no longer drink and has a problem. Now there story is changing and also says alcohol evaluation says they are “low risk”.. . I don’t know what this means. 1. Am I being too demanding ? 2. Does 2 DUIs make you an alcoholic ? 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My problem is this: I like to drink, and when I drink, I have a hard time stopping. I don’t have to drink everyday, but when I do start, I often get so drunk I’m blackout or hungover puking the next day. It also causes personal problems for me in that I will get angry or upset with people close to me, and my 3 roommates obviously get very upset when I’m drunk and black out and they have to take care of me, or I bring random people home. 1- does this make me an alcoholic? Someone with an alcohol problem? 2- How do you get yourself to stop after a few drinks? 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Definitely not alcoholism but I don't know how else to seek advice about this. So for a bit of context; I don't drink much. When I do drink it's socially and it's fast. I get pretty awkward around most people including close friends so I drink in order to feel more balanced and take the edge off. But the last 5 times I've got properly drunk I've ended up becoming really aggressive to those around me and generally unpleasant. * The last time (last night) I headbutted my best friend of 10 years because he encouraged me to stay out. * The time before that I had a shouting match (on holiday with my girlfriend and best friends) with my parents on FaceTime on my birthday, smashed a glass and stormed off to bed. * The time before that I left a gig and walked off away from my friends in a City I was totally unfamiliar with and in my drunk state assumed that was somehow their fault, proceeding to call them and verbally abuse them. * The time before that someone slapped me twice in a playful manner and I responded by punching them as hard as I could. * The time before that I headbutted a different best friend for putting me in a playful headlock. I know it's not severe in the grand scheme of things and people are facing far more difficult junctions around this time of year, I'm just a little lost and not sure where else to turn. &#x200B; Any advice would be hugely appreciated. Happy holidays. 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Just wanted to make a shout out to those who are home for the holidays, re-dealing with family members’ alcoholism. Finding yourself sweating and your heart racing even 10 years later when you feel the situation escalating. When you’ve brought a partner home and they don’t know how to react or what to do and you’re only answer is, “nothing,”even as you feel old, protective habits kicking in. Man, that doesn’t really stop sucking. 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But it's different tonight. Instead of the usual drink of choice, I decided that I would have a little fun and spice things up a bit. I've made a brass monkey (o.j. and malt liquor) and dammit, it tastes delicious. Chairs everyone! ps share what you're drinking! 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When I come home from college, I get pretty drunk every night for however long break is (winter is five weeks). Is this a problem or normal?",0.6016666666666666,2.797832500000002,2.6700000000000017,91.95000000000003,85.1111111111111,4.711111111111111,20.11111111111111,5.985473137389443,0.06507777777777822,134,4,28,1,4,45,29,36,0.22399999999999998,0.688,0.08800000000000001,-0.6072,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,5,1,0,0,0,7,8,3,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,1,2,0,1,0,0,4,0,2,8,0,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,18,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25975254728221925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2540629371916903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1575437434014154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3024721608446848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1657201169266496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26685601794015545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2829776274588036,0.29544806315511424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3067775824213225,0.0,0.5770717495384461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2418795622493368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Snuikki,2018/12/23,"Suicidal acts when drunk I have drinking problem, with new kind of twist. FYI ive been drinking 6years now every weekend (M21) It all begun when i started relationship with my girlfriend 2 years ago. I think its because attention or something but sometimes when i drink (everytime blackout drunk because i dont feel satisfied if i cant reach blackout drunk level) i have stood on bridge railing and jumped in front of a car but everytime my gf saves my from killing myself. I drive semitruck as living and i am hard worker, loving my job. But still this is huge problem that is disturbing me. I have no reason to be suicidal, i have loving girlfriend and well paid job. Eventho my dad is alcoholic and my mom blames it for my drinking i have no reason to be unhappy. My gf also suggested therapist but im not into it as introvert guy. I cant stop drinking and i love the feeling of depression as reason to drink, and i ""secretly"" hope that my life goesdownhill because then i could drink and get depressed with self pity. I need supporting words from you guys now.",4.283849737914967,6.392908316831683,4.874810716365754,81.27639196272571,72.26732673267327,8.119277810133955,31.684333139196273,8.841846274778883,2.864105649388468,848,40,151,17,17,271,122,202,0.257,0.6,0.14400000000000002,-0.98,2,0,9,1,0,1,20.0,0,1,0,1,8,15,1,1,2,0,17,15,0,3,1,35,30,21,3,6,7,2,3,0,4,0,2,0,0,3,7,11,11,1,8,11,1,5,6,7,1,0,3,3,30,8,18,24,1,24,0,3,0,3,16,5,0,3,14,99,37,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08361556054254916,0.10080731807079536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07543359837483282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17250334698461492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07531276406688994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16248812579462418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1105510259299287,0.6468346798180025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07947491405366088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0953895488207893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04928218025391313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.186797938698624,0.0,0.0,0.08449883456762207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09368840515167604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1018897930812293,0.0,0.18721080557846,0.0,0.10435930710056047,0.09822748550848696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06662624164071243,0.0,0.0,0.08329283414460079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.255402520003984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11047512646828014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06994258177922089,0.0,0.09110200360280683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18051719075718756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2909528733907301,0.0,0.10127234088675773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0984040641663984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07261785121574398,0.09329222374687728,0.0,0.06676542866824027,0.0,0.07532999414739294,0.07886194126089549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2063577604879979,0.1070416308368794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10952139718176647,0.0,0.060441197699376975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08481167286677839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06074376155037844 alcoholism,dannycosmic,2019/03/20,"Sneezing Hi! I’m new to reddit but I’ve had an addiction to alcohol for maybe 4-5 years now? I’m trying to combat it as best I can, sometimes I can go for quite a while but I always seem to come back. The thing is, I’ve noticed that every time I drink now WITHOUT FAIL I will sneeze SO MUCH. Like 7-10 times. Any idea why this is? I know it sounds weird, but every.single.time.",-0.008888888888890278,2.035629592592596,2.1965432098765447,95.34444444444449,86.40740740740742,5.0814814814814815,17.641975308641978,6.42735559955562,-0.3182246913580249,291,7,69,3,9,98,60,81,0.061,0.7509999999999999,0.188,0.9274,0,0,2,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,3,4,4,0,0,3,0,6,3,0,0,0,8,12,6,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,5,1,2,0,3,1,0,2,1,2,0,0,1,1,6,2,8,10,2,10,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,9,38,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2386582293057181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.233961956370466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18216135529227434,0.0,0.0,0.14887505053623046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16833816440042548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22974603286749706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18858265730034146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.214461055910082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1844519498208532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12441890520672105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2471372591533065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12031427735796513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10695465013456218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2199374359624073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16093349012127184,0.0,0.0,0.21143706032545334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2492451246958483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2328514070918987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1992991476372676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21652030427634247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454426190359316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2553113579098876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14863425001987474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19754382795533432,0.0,0.0,0.21103382270621196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14097914280039628 alcoholism,ResearchLSBU,2019/03/20,"Short Study on AA Do you belong to an AA group? We are trying to recruit participants for a short online survey, exploring the psychology of how AA works - takes 10 minutes, just click the link to take part :-) [https://lsbupsychology.qualtrics.com/jfe/form/SV\_bfRU6TRqHvAO9p3](https://lsbupsychology.qualtrics.com/jfe/form/SV_bfRU6TRqHvAO9p3)",18.1885,24.45737285000001,10.140000000000004,40.17500000000001,45.5,8.0,25.0,8.841846274778883,2.225,294,6,30,4,4,74,34,40,0.0,0.9440000000000001,0.055999999999999994,0.3182,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,0,2,0,0,1,0,5,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,0,6,4,1,4,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,0,17,2,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5147990302281877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7148654381643456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32275734229223835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3460882283329882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,bloatedmario,2019/03/20,"High CDT level. Hello! Im on road to stop drinking and today i got my liver tests back. Seems like alat and gt are low but cdt is at 4 when it should be at 2.5 or less. I have had everyday two to three beers. Is high cdt indicating that i have bad liver damage? Thanks.",-1.0763793103448265,1.0018005862068975,1.4788793103448263,97.37280172413796,94.86206896551724,4.279310344827587,12.422413793103447,5.985473137389443,-1.0872827586206897,206,3,49,2,8,70,46,58,0.19,0.701,0.109,-0.7463,0,0,2,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,8,4,2,0,0,7,11,5,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,1,1,2,0,0,0,3,0,2,2,0,4,2,5,7,1,13,0,2,0,0,1,8,0,2,6,28,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21337585079936852,0.23169600057584866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2718385960256379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22193739859197545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5863755498516843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29974126952865465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13556961103083834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25262022632927944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23199751099886926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554793046329522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2630319807147597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2710714353034601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,shadowmancometh,2019/03/20,"Curious about the possibility of managing alcoholism with out quitting forever I’m a 22 year old male. I’ve been drinking since I was 16 (had my first drink when I was maybe 12 or 13 but idk if I’d count that). I’ve gotten a DUI when I was 18 and alcohol intake started getting really bad when I was 20 (first experiences with withdrawal symptoms such as panic attacks and DT’s) Recently I’ve become more open to the idea of reducing my alcohol intake and I’ve even quit at one point( I was sober for 55 days and although it didn’t last, I’m still proud of that) When I started drinking again, I did not go on some awful bender or anything. I stayed pretty good drinking only occasionally and never more than two drinks. I had a bad night and since that time I’ve had some pretty terrible weeks where I felt like 20 year old me again, and some great weeks where I either wouldn’t drink or would on drink for a specific occasion, like for a party or if my band was playing. I guess what I’m curious about is, if addiction is a mental health problem, couldn’t it be managed like depression or anxiety? Is there a way to make peace with the fact that I have a disease by monitoring my problem closely? Obviously, the easiest solution would be to stop using if you have an addiction to something but I’d love to hear any successful or failed attempts at cutting down on alcohol with out completely abstaining from it if you have any. Hope I don’t sound like I’m in too much denial here. Thanks",4.465569985569985,5.606772622895626,5.7385088985089014,79.11030303030306,70.24579124579125,9.562866762866763,30.304473304473305,9.842372674337009,2.9208978354978354,1187,48,232,29,21,398,165,297,0.146,0.635,0.21899999999999997,0.9790000000000001,0,0,12,0,0,0,22.0,0,2,0,8,16,22,2,1,13,1,25,16,0,2,3,50,42,26,0,12,15,0,1,4,0,3,8,2,0,1,8,15,11,2,2,9,0,1,6,10,0,4,14,3,21,12,30,22,7,41,0,2,0,1,6,14,0,16,28,145,29,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1807789664896332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3544432621794543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11276995497002465,0.0,0.06342967404023618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06823190056934775,0.0,0.0,0.09432767243401248,0.0,0.0,0.13846096171634395,0.0,0.09157299634948812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08693469853839414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053473253219181366,0.0,0.07141448467514236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5685752740800168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0547645116093238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08110668550366347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07961130991575742,0.0,0.0,0.1410547486992771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043319614763100686,0.0,0.047122450293197934,0.06954508697741497,0.0,0.09141397355141104,0.0913401138416842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08813466488193282,0.09345112203739543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08235320754944979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09360083333557387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06758671265566013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16203213414290754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07483393739950726,0.0,0.05534634176594476,0.0,0.08329916483778932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08355872068533668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060951994201768875,0.0,0.06394908493011972,0.0,0.0,0.07781001989306204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1740104863513866,0.0,0.05618528429858382,0.06306052021230549,0.0,0.09728277395311934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07838138403896946,0.0934740952242652,0.0,0.16870853010755188,0.0,0.15867672902108673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17638041161282395,0.0,0.0,0.05311741018111093,0.0,0.0818684640335688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.137176129579184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06383194337958313,0.0,0.0,0.11737519056583523,0.08837625468844612,0.06621594884314358,0.06932057180284769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08618033202897908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07633690294649964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04834834687063152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08099581247122119,0.0,0.0,0.07161185467526243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06581399083091535,0.13301866807888182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11780073665183433,0.0,0.0,0.106788958445689 alcoholism,AAonthebutton,2019/03/20,"Was I / am I an alcoholic? I’ve been in outpatient therapy for just over 6 months now. I’ve been completely sober of drugs and alcohol for the past 3 months. It was difficult at first, I have group sessions 3 days a week, individual CBT therapy once a week and have attended dozens of meetings including SMART recovery and AA. I’ve been hitting all the right channels and they have made such a difference. I was doing my weekly review and urge monitoring just now and have discovered I’ve had no urges or cravings in the past week. My week has not been out of the ordinary other than I’ve been under the weather. So now that I’m thinking about it, my title was poor. I know I was an alcoholic. I don’t think that’s actually what I’m asking. I’m wondering if it’s normal to stop feeling cravings and urges after 3 months of sobriety. But there’s always been this underlying issue for me. Sometimes in the back of my mind I feel like I was never truly an alcoholic. I understand if you’ve made it this far you must feel like I’m bipolar because I keep going back and forth. I don’t know, sometimes I feel like I was never really there, but sometimes I know I was. I’m just confused right now more than I’ve ever been in the past 6 months...",3.564904592157685,4.916708589641439,5.2170853428391695,81.18806877752151,72.66533864541833,8.949549171734118,27.951562172363186,9.414487439383343,2.452325896414344,980,37,197,23,19,333,123,251,0.053,0.907,0.04,-0.4472,0,0,5,0,0,0,24.0,0,1,1,1,15,6,0,1,13,0,26,6,0,2,5,41,48,14,0,4,9,0,4,3,0,1,6,0,0,0,10,9,4,2,11,1,1,2,6,2,1,2,18,4,23,4,22,28,2,39,0,0,0,0,5,12,0,5,28,129,33,2,0.0,0.0,0.09292009014269713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4070409698774726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0792299054541097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08901698959877162,0.0,0.0,0.14643519563591806,0.0,0.05804466961285516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0998353976077496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061408431688057485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0994836760849116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11042390699736812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08613111257375501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1925825188649533,0.20407359719576665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08099330392590129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054115199573564116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09938398465552828,0.0,0.08463509661735671,0.0,0.0,0.15698975457044248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13955770373648732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18019719853689148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09614413059585494,0.0,0.3040118565652212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14687765479121387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09329448506959384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10140521649245056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2726921688769989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06099978322215153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16263315436966438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2825223254820157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07960741757535854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21778264120116173,0.0,0.0,0.12202508807362998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09912642418045776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3818950269622038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10326103446453233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,trishakerrigan,2019/03/20,"I need to talk, hubby n I just got into an argument He said he had to think he went to the bar we were talking he knew I was upset",-3.2883870967741906,-1.7953572580645132,0.9118709677419368,99.56780645161292,105.45161290322581,3.7703225806451615,12.651612903225805,5.6839178017228535,-1.1199729032258063,99,2,26,1,5,37,24,31,0.16899999999999998,0.831,0.0,-0.6249,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,6,9,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,7,1,4,0,4,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,8,1,0,0,0,14,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3279276582287323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3040220463647005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3900195932046423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6591114780933691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26272202343490203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3800894119245761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,LiquorChimp,2019/07/28,"I think I'm finally completly there. I posted here a while back asking if I was headed this way and I think I'm well and truly here now. It's at the point where my family is begging me to stop drinking but I just can't. I promised my mom that tonight would be the last time but I know it won't be. I'm already making plans to go away and get wasted the next time I get paid. How excited I am about that really scares me guys. I'm only 19, and I can't go a day without the booze. tf is wrong with me, Reddit?",-0.05239234449760488,1.5627180350877197,2.5290111642743227,95.38959330143541,83.56140350877193,5.899840510366826,18.25837320574163,6.980632752743323,-0.05193684210526328,392,9,97,5,11,136,74,114,0.149,0.79,0.061,-0.8923,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,10,5,0,1,6,0,10,3,1,2,0,17,24,9,0,2,5,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,5,5,2,1,3,1,1,2,4,2,1,0,2,0,15,3,7,18,0,19,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,11,60,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20842495674820516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17656983105715435,0.0,0.1774514682235387,0.1452309153050273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1980287063017848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12180681977134328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18502266291211333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17805171938341946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2069000520983619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19735565690700305,0.0,0.21468062870686566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18701298172483846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1938371691514108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10379911582851993,0.15395589442896418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1260735315439783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.221204612333486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20086752255906734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14364567251412566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17854509580573746,0.0,0.18088717402881316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12099624427432852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18909382837945046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15790545530166258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24204311202849915,0.0,0.0,0.2202655727480932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1499178081930971,0.0,0.0,0.16981861725441671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820658752048537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13416925504295252,0.2065018904499381,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,PowerfulStuff-,2019/07/28,"advice/suggestions needed! i need help. my boyfriend(22) is an alcoholic and i’m unsure of what to do to help. it’s starting to effect our relationship and the loved ones around him. our routine at the moment consists of him sleeping until around 2pm drinking until around 8pm, then sleeping until about 1am then he wakes up and starts drinking again until 5am or until he passes out. this has happened every night for around a week now. i know he can’t help it but it’s starting to effort our sleeping patterns. we’ve spoke about it and what to do but nothing seems to come of it. does anyone have any suggestions on what to do to help? i’m really stuck at the moment.",2.4935476463834654,4.760433268656719,3.576268656716419,87.78164753157293,78.25373134328359,5.615614236509758,22.99425947187141,6.67199483983844,0.7268043628013778,534,17,102,5,13,172,80,134,0.034,0.8740000000000001,0.092,0.7508,0,0,3,0,0,0,14.0,3,0,0,2,8,1,0,0,5,0,7,8,4,1,0,18,21,14,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,9,10,3,0,3,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,2,1,8,1,28,19,0,27,0,0,0,1,16,9,0,2,16,69,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14974529158788782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09528616617228608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09797491646814073,0.0,0.0,0.4989447785136873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12070067050192924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12261964901849763,0.0,0.0,0.274527823665912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11805684752499708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12390734278665255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3756769882993575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07700609460038177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12646345378556365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2077938884473387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13149279854496645,0.0,0.13444858218542285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09494870043239892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08976423506605412,0.0,0.0,0.15043606462405176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12755966584970604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4206625249605132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29753222608981617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1123955304757335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,colinegqr,2019/07/28,"My mom is an alcoholic Hello everybody, I learnt last week that my mom fell asleep in her home alone after drinking way too much, like 8 beers. I talked to her recently, and she admitted that she is an alcoholic. That was very hard for me to realize that, mostly because I didn’t see it coming. She lives alone (my parents are divorced, one of the reasons she started drinking a lot) and she drinks wine and beers most of the time, always when she comes back home from work. And when she’s alone at home, this is the worse. She can barely contain herself. She has a boyfriend who’s trying to help her, but I would like to help her too. So, I would like to know what are the best things I could do for her, and also the best tips to avoid her to drink.",5.079773391812863,4.999640822368427,5.047982456140353,88.95198830409359,68.40789473684211,8.334502923976608,27.41520467836257,7.793537801064563,1.3027038011695908,583,16,129,6,9,181,92,152,0.066,0.772,0.162,0.9626,1,4,9,0,1,0,20.0,0,0,0,3,7,6,0,1,9,0,13,10,1,1,0,20,19,10,0,3,1,3,1,3,0,2,2,0,3,0,9,7,9,2,4,7,0,3,1,1,0,1,2,2,26,5,15,14,6,15,0,0,1,0,26,2,0,3,12,92,35,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2476785383755969,0.0,0.3600466809307192,0.0,0.09266828910560553,0.09642050127984757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08910369693931892,0.0,0.07063868256079467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24321544622455826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19963876883118248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09251984718020928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4540687015130594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10380470505847704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15534232558611075,0.0,0.3487078592407346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06368399551795391,0.09445674380284884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1698376853362581,0.0,0.10232316369932447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09851606995258642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2714318600491556,0.0,0.0,0.08518430138659894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0785225201219653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286697698965098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11914277620034752,0.11441640270550935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09234045513945133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08201965940090132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09313904491795977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07698477106957044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06756989997305421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07867414508020146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09561220215606024,0.0,0.09197925193123299,0.09295103843662757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0843611962257572,0.0,0.11809046659615585,0.16463404661207967,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,nivegan,2019/07/28,"dealing with an alcoholic father hi guys, my dad has had a drinking problem for as long as i can remember, in the past few years it has gotten pretty bad. he drinks about a fifth of vodka every night & a few beers on top of that. him drinking is an “escape from his life” my mom calls it. we’ve tried countless times to get him to stop drinking, he refuses to join a support group or anything- it would hurt his ego. he is very high functioning, he wakes up everyday at six am to go to his job and no one there has any idea of his issues. outside of my mom, me, and my brothers, no one in our family knows exactly how bad his drinking is either. he gets so angry when he’s drunk, and when he isn’t drinking, he is irritable. the longest i’ve seen him go is three days with no alcohol and it was awful being around him. the things he says can really hurt. our relationship is getting ruined. i’ve asked him to quit countless times, everyone has. he always says he will, but at the right time. there is no right time, there never is gonna be the perfect time for him to stop drinking. my mom has given up on the idea of him quitting, whenever she would bring it up he would snap and blame it on her. now that i have been asking, he blames it on me. he refuses to take responsibility and instead claims we stress him out and that’s why he drinks. i know that i’m not the reason he drinks, he drinks because he is unhappy with himself. sorry for the backstory lol, i’m just wondering, what do you guys suggest i do? he doesn’t seem to listen when we talk to him, we show him we care to the best of our ability, but you can only care so much- especially when he can be so cruel about the situation. i want to be sympathetic, but this needs to stop. he’s slowly killing himself and i’m watching it all happen. any advice would be great (: thank you for reading ❤️",2.7957480314960605,4.185143889763779,4.291083989501313,86.9177283464567,74.66929133858268,7.389711286089237,24.77349081364829,8.021203637495839,1.2710646719160101,1446,46,310,22,30,482,194,381,0.147,0.731,0.122,-0.5954,1,0,14,0,0,0,47.0,7,3,0,5,17,16,2,1,16,2,37,16,1,2,4,49,65,22,1,7,7,6,0,0,0,6,3,3,0,2,15,17,14,5,8,15,0,3,8,9,0,4,6,5,41,7,44,48,6,40,0,3,2,0,72,17,0,3,20,195,56,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06586013592570501,0.0,0.1440550339202116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05608018633172287,0.0730252506364279,0.0,0.09166533220858783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055462466350856485,0.05999813602729943,0.1260152800833415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1125483295353173,0.041084939692848814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07072960294740295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06882046549623087,0.0,0.1374326508741025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043465863952088166,0.06948394638509292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6602397065523761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05678536865630001,0.06440127671254403,0.0,0.0,0.06353644094545052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10563736270347476,0.0,0.07660719669094164,0.0,0.0,0.07430607076436721,0.0,0.13346840244553473,0.059599458115911386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07120924449724775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14430100838876994,0.1521673301188544,0.0,0.0703455639120924,0.06688169932488318,0.0,0.07456543737084267,0.0,0.07407989561535094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047604904501023566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0596447381282167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23680569618295866,0.0,0.0,0.0495449767517083,0.04997445217021308,0.05198116924062597,0.0,0.0,0.06324806394176749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09134069002390972,0.051258897248330486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06433861706710099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06856756953943077,0.0,0.06449038258176226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14337124662215722,0.06741581954073005,0.0,0.043176616073009814,0.06929593811177093,0.0,0.07235977893676153,0.07634832067117849,0.11511433149505974,0.0,0.10719452278307147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06135622628256505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07575770466510535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0754460737823631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1690421862335495,0.07720370109167175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07648197599231979,0.0,0.0,0.05067459302781774,0.05417162247059984,0.0,0.06205063724841964,0.0,0.0,0.04477595790293702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19650035680206265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04575853326857618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05561006260417453,0.03975283936587872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06081583364727412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0730898013873252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19150923067189374,0.0,0.0,0.043401832317549176 alcoholism,grahmcrks,2019/07/28,"I just can't stop the constant thoughts. Drinking seems to be the only thing that can stop my constant thinking. Even after drinking all night, I need a few melatonin or benedrysl to actually sleep or the thoughts will keep me up.",6.00062015503876,7.4320005348837235,4.81860465116279,86.0448062015504,66.90697674418604,6.663565891472868,37.58914728682171,6.42735559955562,2.4022310077519387,185,10,34,1,3,54,34,43,0.0,0.907,0.09300000000000001,0.4168,0,0,2,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,4,3,1,0,1,12,10,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,3,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,4,0,4,6,2,7,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,6,24,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.21450576471146626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4750794930419388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4306660827548537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14518440332155294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1953798806421172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1629885429516963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2062795956476505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16717768005460618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2001094857177944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2199717310584638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3675469956493446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1460339797824957,0.1408472849683046,0.0,0.3490139130852245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Black_Tattoo,2019/07/28,"What do YOU say when you're offered a drink?? Hi all Newly sober. I have a string of parties coming up where I'll almost be expected to drink. A stag do, where the groom to get married all his best buddies typically go out and get drunk and have a wild night. Plus wedding and all sorted of associated parties. My mates 40th etc. I haven't really told anyone that I've quit drinking and why. It's gonna be uncomfortable and I'm trying to find the easiest wording. I was thinking just the straight out truth. ""can't drink sorry I'm an alcoholic"" or ""sorry I've health problems that stop ke from drinking."" What do YOU say?",1.4974857142857159,3.9344365600000017,3.1849428571428566,88.13090000000004,83.4,5.8114285714285705,23.32857142857143,7.1686216300943375,0.9792971428571424,490,18,99,7,14,162,83,125,0.079,0.765,0.156,0.8264,0,0,6,0,0,0,17.0,0,2,0,2,4,3,0,0,8,0,10,8,0,0,4,23,19,8,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,1,2,2,0,0,5,9,7,1,2,6,0,2,2,1,0,0,2,2,7,2,10,14,5,11,0,0,0,0,10,6,0,3,3,55,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15543937030723315,0.14564487336439638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10170042183111536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15263839999252402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1252903247877361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7124169245982501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1622126458841901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13293657346376112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15198085243486084,0.0,0.08266128638890702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15460411606922364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1364928245090724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13917381693074204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1547015448794003,0.0,0.0,0.09317752850071244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23133171633576904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3256336104819223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12160079967796415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09319702072034323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13898152153050453,0.0,0.09874944878898978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13124393684260427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Jesuit_Bukkake,2019/07/28,"I'm in the US military and I can't stop drinking Now I understand from the post, most of you current or ex military members are gonna say I should go to SARP. I just wanted to say that I already know I have a problem, but this job I do and the feeling I get from drinking either has me not caring, or too drunk TOO care. Which I really do enjoy. When I'm drunk I have absolutely no worries in the world, at all. Duty the next day? Don't care, I'm drunk. That said, I haven't ever had an ARI before (Alcohol related incident for non military folks), and the only time I came close was when my alarm didn't go off, and I showed up an hour late. Nothing came of the DRB (Disciplenary review board, basically old fat dudes screaming at you) and I went on my day. Honestly I don't know how the hell I've made it this far with the constant breathalyzing, because I haven't blown over the limit(apparently, i don't know what the actual limit is) in the 3 years I've been in. Now I don't want to admit I have a problem, because I just love the feeling of being drunk, its such a cozy warm comforting feeling and I can't stand a night without it. Like a weighting blanket resting on top of me protecting me from my worries. But that said I know eventually something will happen and I'll get absolutely fucked for it. &#x200B; I just don't really know what I should do, I don't want to give up drinking but I also don't want to get the boot because I actually like the job I do even though it objectively sucks compared to civilian jobs I COULD be doing, and on top of that I have to lead a few members of my division(think of it like coworkers that work under you) because they don't know what the fuck they're doing without me. &#x200B; &#x200B; TL;DR I'm a functioning alcoholic and I acknowledge this, but I don't know how to proceed with my life.",4.284682539682539,4.906235436507939,5.727964021164024,80.92629523809526,70.2962962962963,8.905142857142858,30.199365079365077,9.065960079200117,2.3957624126984123,1457,57,300,27,25,494,177,378,0.174,0.708,0.11800000000000001,-0.9723,6,0,6,0,0,0,51.0,1,3,1,5,16,19,4,1,25,0,36,15,1,4,2,59,77,21,0,9,13,1,5,3,0,4,4,5,0,0,18,14,11,4,13,8,0,6,18,8,0,0,10,10,46,11,38,60,5,45,1,0,0,3,13,19,4,3,21,201,64,7,0.0,0.0,0.15303731744508495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16759685129618282,0.0,0.0,0.08652943102233338,0.06270593153110299,0.0,0.2548776340275338,0.2858369566332525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19119655428435325,0.0,0.06672271267867047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17936454425941606,0.2398383339163077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0847353581453921,0.0,0.06260548520474822,0.0,0.0,0.10113831830789148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23044129644268266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05179029022619097,0.07092801135150455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11894216859608635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1449809915235221,0.1229008725799978,0.07521979558233068,0.08912652756821006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06933934377272752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07721988159171297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23343499864913275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3016517312214012,0.0,0.08845198699766774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05538461158563942,0.11492421378320458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07076975988277133,0.0741951924305484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08339189658030954,0.07358421346865973,0.0,0.07523828895243716,0.0,0.08228005076379273,0.0,0.0,0.05963574854657978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07509688135312897,0.0,0.0,0.15005910957024987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10046528339257596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14917525909136206,0.12471250747537445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060365276274417935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06555582122097776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05024315008495567,0.07703924870253667,0.0,0.045722582796853616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08162950563868519,0.09431980609105244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18499737292052926,0.0,0.0,0.09548451422555776,0.0,0.07268857448397695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15117245876741495,0.0,0.05708476378997146,0.15926208842838455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2858369566332525,0.050494663316903166 alcoholism,Muthabucka93,2019/07/28,Think I'm having withdrawals Ive been drinking around 20 to 40 drinks a week for the last couple years on average.Usually not every day just 2 - 3 nights a week. I quit for 16 days and didn't feel anything then drank twice last week about 13 drinks each and then had about 4 beers over the course of this past week. Is it possible for me to be having withdrawal symptoms? Crazy anxiety. A little nauseous. Increased heart rate. Just feel like I'm going insane. Can't think straight. A little dehydrated. And moderate shaking once in awhile. At first I thought it was just panic attacks as ive had them before but this has Been going on for just over 24 hours with a small break this morning when I woke up.,2.9255783065855003,5.1629497482014415,3.3512230215827365,90.08014941892641,76.6978417266187,6.29131156613171,23.641947980077475,7.321109707123232,0.9319624792473712,561,18,112,7,13,174,97,139,0.092,0.875,0.033,-0.6675,0,0,4,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,2,8,4,1,2,7,0,14,7,1,0,0,17,25,8,0,0,6,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,6,5,0,5,4,0,4,3,3,0,2,9,2,7,1,19,15,2,33,0,0,0,0,1,12,0,0,17,65,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10828186184189052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1164798234021039,0.12600543662637395,0.0,0.16102835382517774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1204447304094162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15661731928702974,0.0,0.1825701772846212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.415981885492314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11925812442358233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14313923855643426,0.10112007910250116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12039846524442928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16088705261397598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16773200881330075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1393937303681316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2307568245577096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06915194437259503,0.2837314000911436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13283079176208115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15074125689007412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16607305725874275,0.0,0.0,0.13512112329270373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15957119783477164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1505509814677622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14711989218690644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1813931845380992,0.0,0.11237125578401963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4541568045950546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09115061223017147 alcoholism,sabe_l,2019/07/28,"When should you break up with someone with a drinking problem? Hi! I’m looking for some advice about my girlfriend. We’ve been dating about a year and I’ve always known she’s had a drinking problem. I am not sure how serious it is. She has a job and stable income but she drinks every day, around 11-13 drinks and even starts as early as noon. I’ve talked to her about it before and she said she wants to quit but she usually starts up again after a week or so and it goes back to her normal levels. She’s done some things around my family (ex she took her pants off in front of my little brother) and gets angry and says things she can’t remember. We talked about it again recently and she said she would try drinking less again. But in the middle of the week after she said that she went out drinking at around 2. She called me around 1 and said she blacked out and woke up hanging over the side of the subway. She thinks she had been roofied. I feel awful saying this but I’m pretty sure she just drank too much. She was drinking a lot for a couple hours and no one approached her or talked to her the whole night. I haven’t said this to her at all because I don’t want her to think I doubt her. But I’m wondering when I should just give up. I’m starting to think this was a sign that things will always be like this. And I feel even worse that I’m even thinking that she might not have been roofied and got blackout drunk again. Does anyone have any experiences dating someone with a drinking problem? When do you know it’s time to give up? Thank you.",2.3294732142857164,4.1374881437500015,2.8058928571428616,95.30125,76.9375,5.446428571428572,20.49107142857143,5.985473137389443,-0.12451785714285755,1226,29,270,7,28,378,156,320,0.106,0.848,0.047,-0.9628,2,0,8,0,0,0,25.0,1,3,0,1,24,9,0,1,14,1,23,10,0,1,3,63,56,27,0,9,11,2,2,1,1,5,0,7,0,0,16,23,10,0,10,9,0,5,6,5,0,1,18,11,43,4,41,32,7,53,0,0,2,0,49,21,0,8,27,184,59,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07197025237135311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12256595303355038,0.0,0.0,0.050084751572621114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051498024831671166,0.0,0.0,0.26225764225975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056632559410178265,0.0,0.044896559000299374,0.0,0.06267100822293642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07520522392582223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08149269188886282,0.0,0.04749837142303465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06445190215659723,0.07536986083892147,0.0,0.5771942937957606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14593604970462148,0.0,0.0620535815140817,0.0,0.0,0.07204415742490045,0.06943097862385254,0.0,0.07447964195778409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0384792588452884,0.14130421975408736,0.0,0.0,0.05890489886279885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07253074163088495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07308659042044442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0404762965346342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0359818321621494,0.07381698164699106,0.0,0.0,0.0618477298602376,0.0,0.0,0.06261487879954819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07813136375333066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05414146858997845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06911584769614575,0.07216168825262673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04990737128306304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07492886576805696,0.0,0.21142026408070427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07833619424830929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07272081794912973,0.0,0.08343146927349575,0.0,0.35029165908605364,0.11713940077845092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12480737518438395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15639025293150652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13882913323997745,0.0,0.0,0.1775920419435271,0.0,0.06780733078974799,0.0,0.0,0.14679002457930154,0.18876863638831465,0.0,0.0,0.04294610107109035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08182822918329956,0.05000374112797781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08111543583826493,0.0,0.0868817484636713,0.0,0.11815570817639542,0.0,0.0,0.06827459595561543,0.0,0.08222796585902964,0.0,0.0,0.07987064371612985,0.0,0.0,0.07505598078424225,0.05231908296715351,0.0,0.0,0.0474283993096652 alcoholism,SandmanM4,2018/11/29,"Loss of libido? 7 year nightly drinker here. I used alcohol to deal with my anxiety and after a near miss decided to change my life. I am not quite totally off alcohol yet but have it down to less than two drinks a night. Noticed that I have NO sexual urges and cant get a solid erection if I try. Does anyone else here have any experience with this? I am praying that this is only a temporary thing but am scared shitless. 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A couple of days ago she had a couple of drinks (like 3 glasses of champagne and 2 glasses of whisky which is not enough to make her senseless) and all of a sudden she starts insulting the other people in the room, totally out of her mind. She was taken home by a friend where her mother took care of her. Apparently she was really scared, said she had seen the devil and couldn't sleep for the whole night because she was too scared. That she was insulting her friends she can't even remember anymore. The next day though she was better and didn't have a phase like that again. Of course she's not drinking atm. Do you guys know similar reactions to alcohol? Can it be a mini psychosis? Because I thought a psychosis would last for longer.. Or does it sound more like the first signs of schizophrenia? Tl;dr: Young person had alcohol induced hallucinations. Do you have experience with that?",4.721882556131258,6.5158302383419695,4.89639378238342,82.87481519861832,70.45077720207254,8.048221070811746,26.856303972366142,8.648137234880735,1.919052780656304,808,27,152,14,15,253,121,193,0.11,0.804,0.086,-0.7154,1,0,6,0,0,0,24.0,0,2,0,3,7,13,2,2,16,0,19,6,1,2,2,22,29,7,0,3,3,1,0,4,2,1,2,2,2,3,7,6,5,0,4,3,1,1,5,5,0,1,14,3,19,8,20,12,6,20,1,0,1,0,26,5,0,2,18,102,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12094006661569355,0.1097087000302201,0.2645306626498568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12273993968084433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15088992069375834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10945858335791177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12618493507692674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2738834799377253,0.0,0.15963418258973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10830609986063723,0.0,0.0,0.3637227571903872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12788057528222815,0.0,0.08174449392340544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12106425795593136,0.11667302674769893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1052730017038301,0.0,0.0,0.19123844068306808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12254512730631276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12414468324028335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06801707424891154,0.20176721966942324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2418579918931713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10521913378985367,0.0,0.0,0.08261296531673487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1249656543618778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0917689204493342,0.0,0.0,0.13162367605005265,0.116143475243657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08580189055522879,0.21613068357400106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1316375063120029,0.0,0.0,0.07928594058780229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14019969528129725,0.0,0.1177272419893632,0.0,0.24781731255098324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1238526826673274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12240507058479985,0.0,0.08760030236747274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12159681611985812,0.0982542375236795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375055826872659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13817730716506935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08791789900459092,0.0,0.0,0.07969950893585816 alcoholism,PullYourGoalie,2019/04/12,"Give Alcoholic Brother-In-Law a Second Chance? My BIL has been staying with us for two months, on the condition he stops drinking, goes to AA daily, stops gambling, and stops lying. He's managed to break all our rules and I'm inclined to invite him to leave. The backstory on him is so long and full of deceit, lies, stealing, gambling, owing $350k+ in family loans, IRS, unpaid child support, etc.; and I don't have the space to even summarize it here. I knew he would burn us like he's burned everyone else who has helped him, but we wanted to give him a chance since he has nowhere else to turn. He will likely end up on the street if we kick him out. Please give me your opinion on whether we should give him another chance.",6.181041666666665,5.7890361319444485,5.934166666666666,84.5775,66.15277777777779,9.144444444444442,30.5,8.472884824447931,2.016891666666666,569,18,118,7,8,177,100,144,0.092,0.809,0.098,0.4404,0,0,2,0,0,0,25.0,6,1,0,0,3,4,0,0,6,0,10,2,0,0,1,21,20,8,0,4,3,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,1,2,9,2,3,1,1,4,0,1,1,1,2,2,0,17,3,17,15,3,18,0,0,0,0,26,10,0,2,8,67,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1537579306694789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15086480601042676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409420945074992,0.0,0.0,0.24037712434686195,0.0,0.1274299744914454,0.0,0.1604579374599629,0.09502765466492068,0.0,0.0,0.1374781119454368,0.0,0.0,0.1356319375452988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5520695657309783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0964359475155001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15234216828645805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14057948510336804,0.0,0.0,0.1273242768454321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11483913763895998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1579308372962313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1190143533362742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15335091949734325,0.0,0.360856209516584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16326691323546885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15649398384160518,0.14054433921966128,0.0,0.34612626892560344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08486082232321247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10220421394133196,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,yogi_katie,2019/04/12,"AA and Religion Hey guys! I'm Katie and I'm an alcoholic. I LOVE AA and it has saved my life. However, I am a person who is not afraid to ask questions, and these are some questions I have been pondering. If you have time, could you answer these questions for me? 1. AA states that it is not affiliated with any religion, however the Lord’s Prayer is said at the end of every meeting. Do you see this as a contradiction, and if so, what is your opinion on it? 2. Do you identify with a religion? Do you regularly attend any religious services? 3. Do you feel that AA has a bias towards Christianity? 4. What is your own conception of God? If your higher power isn’t a Christian God, how do you feel about the language used? 5. If you are a woman, how do you feel about the male-centered language used in the Big Book? Do you see the Big Book as sexist?",0.17182170542635333,2.5645869186046544,2.572441860465116,89.38408914728683,92.6046511627907,6.12248062015504,21.7015503875969,7.492282038375204,1.1408248062015502,658,25,139,14,24,224,97,172,0.02,0.902,0.078,0.8953,3,0,1,0,0,0,28.0,0,13,0,1,5,3,0,1,13,0,22,3,0,4,0,29,34,14,0,5,6,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,0,3,11,7,1,0,8,2,0,1,3,1,4,0,2,6,18,2,14,31,2,10,3,0,2,1,25,6,0,9,2,94,29,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19703760516707755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2507585752987783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17236293884622386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472060456943376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16329887434730056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15534136842124102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2796720806184431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18255727458930607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13022740159548235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16640293534999098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16098652559954052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6196165325582029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17538000012658794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2938412388904521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10750880039415926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31847643563651656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,FuzzyNatural,2019/04/12,"A New Day! I've known for a while that I had a problem with alcohol, and tried and failed to quit countless times, but it wasn't until my wonderful girlfriend left me that it hit me that I needed to quit. It all started a couple of months ago when she made a comment about how I reminded her of a relative that had past away due to complications related to alcoholism, and that hit me hard. I kept telling myself, I can do it, and then end up drinking the next day. Always seeing the look on her face as I disappointed her was killing me inside, so of course, I turned to my buddy alcohol instead of talking to her. Fast forward to last Thursday, I came home from work and all her things were gone, I was in shock and depressed, and surprise, surprise, my buddy alcohol came to cheer me up. After four nights of drinking until I passed out, and four mornings of terrible hangovers, I decided it was time to ditch that douchebag buddy (alcohol) and clean up my act. It's been a rough few days of reflection, not giving into the lies of alcohol, and most importantly, trying to work things out with my girlfriend, but I need to do this-this time. Alcohol has cost me everything, the most amazing woman in my world, my health, my sanity, but I will be damned if it does any more damage.",9.98536,6.629186416000002,9.5472,71.14160000000003,60.84,13.04,40.6,11.00357731598739,4.235239999999999,1004,39,196,19,10,326,141,250,0.18600000000000005,0.735,0.08,-0.9844,0,0,9,0,2,0,34.0,0,0,0,5,5,13,2,0,11,0,14,11,1,2,2,36,29,22,1,4,5,0,2,0,2,1,8,0,2,1,15,17,9,1,4,2,1,6,2,9,0,2,13,4,34,4,38,12,6,42,0,4,2,0,13,13,1,4,25,141,49,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08441099463358183,0.7123640803984956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07923461963036207,0.0,0.0,0.06475609485207554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08946678648085657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21782348984528305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10536437378659033,0.0,0.1842362564619692,0.0,0.08201693695213158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0833318197335501,0.0,0.0,0.18656800355153969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08434086358858396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08558186445406538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0913482564062096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08530267123667618,0.0,0.0,0.1012194554900262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09551818759949487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10535207626990772,0.0,0.0,0.07762088007631568,0.0,0.0,0.10346196863011424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07996480636243063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09010396013155178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07600748631467671,0.0,0.0,0.14121588988739392,0.0,0.09196865616073804,0.1012726010758749,0.08936197642317653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09090279801676712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.091117224601516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2025664844414304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07588179632289611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06740056760315301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07653804635790852,0.08323062800188796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12652618420482786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16657895110774187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1293027079807677,0.10357718265497214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10326717849201386,0.13864950307839294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,NotThatDroid,2019/04/12,"Today is day 30! Hi all! I just felt like sharing, because I’m actually pretty damn proud of myself. So, a bit of my story: I’m 26 years old and have been struggling with alcohol abuse for years. I’ve been drinking since I was 16 but mostly on social events and whilst going out. It was never a big issue, although when I did drink, I always had a tendency to get drunk. As I got older, I started drinking more. In college, I started drinking almost daily. After college, I got a fulltime job and after a year moved out of my parents house and bought my own place. This was 3 years ago. And that’s also when things started spiraling out of control. Living completely on my own and with no parental control, my alcohol consumption skyrocketed. Up to the point where I’d drink at least a sixpack of beer on a slow day. Often times combined with smoking weed. My health greatly deteriorated, my slight depression I’ve struggled with for years due to anxiety disorder turned into a fully fledged depression and all in all I was falling. I’m a smart guy, and I understood what was happening, but I didn’t care. Getting drunk was more fun and more important. I quit eating breakfast and some nights dinner. When I did eat dinner, it would be unhealthy pizza, burgers, whatever could be delivered to my home. After almost 2 years of this, my body started screaming at me. I nearly passed out in the office and really thought I was having a heart attack. After this, I went to the doctors and had them do a blood test. The doctor heard my story and told me I was destroying my body and if I continued at this pace I would have serious problems. The blood test results came back, en showed my liver values were..... not what you want from a 26y/o male. My blood pressure also was through the roof. This was last september. I started to better my habits and tried to quit drinking, but I couldn’t. I managed to go 2 weeks without but fell back. Then 2019 came around. I decided this was my year. I HAD to change. However, it still took me until March to actually do it. But today, I can proudly say that I haven’t had a drup of alcohol since March 13th! Today is day 30, and I’ve been feeling great! Also, it shocks me how easy it has been. Previously, I would get anxious just thinking about quitting. But this time, I just did it. I’ve gone to football matches, concerts, parties and office drinks without even feeling the urge. So... here’s to the next 30!",3.1489852008456687,5.32719066384778,4.291966173361523,83.88353065539114,75.76532769556025,6.767864693446089,27.490486257928122,7.738981096181357,1.7873289640591965,1916,78,356,28,43,625,243,473,0.139,0.757,0.10400000000000001,-0.9457,5,0,11,0,1,0,75.0,0,1,1,8,21,22,3,3,21,0,41,29,7,4,4,69,74,37,0,8,13,2,3,1,0,3,6,4,1,2,19,29,19,2,7,12,1,11,8,12,0,0,37,7,50,10,53,30,12,79,0,2,0,0,12,21,1,6,48,243,69,8,0.0,0.077580158524539,0.1277932356114883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058041874000477715,0.20992667928646305,0.1311325633913414,0.0,0.0,0.1570870559450491,0.05448254494600672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05009012634862044,0.07397096425327887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0582888780619988,0.0,0.07449013575875807,0.0,0.1006963479532634,0.0,0.03991449065769969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05790954866642908,0.07148449726193881,0.14546153577912008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14977768721747114,0.06675869917769499,0.0,0.0692665379790313,0.0,0.06865193775243272,0.0,0.146877220810951,0.05227847465512985,0.0,0.0,0.1266827577415025,0.0,0.11279139029566355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07504291477391045,0.1340380398884339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4490013191507723,0.0,0.1339997062877202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043247286817072635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06621480664237471,0.0,0.06286869092106437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.102627910817301,0.0,0.07442477120552714,0.0,0.10473671424735476,0.14437840189167642,0.0,0.06483304274434247,0.05790155789337995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06959954573988378,0.0,0.07759118075042018,0.0,0.0,0.06567929490074086,0.0,0.0,0.07555227107564677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06834152306346339,0.06497633884415285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05337292091809264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0319890106427411,0.0,0.05781785295936041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0695922453046702,0.0,0.0,0.05050030277621192,0.0,0.06963608919504508,0.061446220347274476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06870764653304684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454100824726602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06841007600128374,0.0,0.061897424025877966,0.0,0.0,0.06661418111510957,0.0,0.06265314717059871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2089302184692845,0.0,0.0,0.04194657827810331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05207035485713775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10832736832728128,0.0,0.0,0.06674608955051745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2317266411422267,0.0,0.052290434942845236,0.0,0.0,0.1369026487621285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043500357229863805,0.041955353268486865,0.0,0.051981839843070934,0.07636094115699299,0.0,0.18619510891460184,0.0625665797955205,0.07274793797117371,0.04445494047972353,0.07122074335317258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03862033989458634,0.0,0.052522119903767886,0.0,0.0,0.060698320385989074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12623599239554442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13954006241088132,0.0,0.0,0.29515764911958203 alcoholism,bethbooks07,2019/04/12,Functional Alcohol You’re only a functional alcoholic until you can’t function anymore. Don’t wait for that to happen. Get help. r/stopdrinking,3.0729333333333315,5.086339559999999,4.914999999999999,67.24583333333334,113.4,9.666666666666668,32.166666666666664,8.344100000000001,5.361266666666667,119,7,15,5,6,40,22,25,0.0,0.8759999999999999,0.124,0.4019,0,0,3,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,8,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7735535666713649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3589221648713725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18908551005187368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.320040002370062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24258381610346266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2752524622780556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,lavenderserenity,2019/04/12,"Why is this so much harder? I quit fentanyl and meth but I just can’t stop drinking for more than a week or two at a time, which seems so stupid. This should be so much easier but even the idea of stopping is so impossible to tackle. Why is this so hard? I should be able to do it. I just can’t.",-0.9911923076923052,1.0014742461538475,1.1941346153846162,100.9727403846154,91.15384615384615,4.480769230769232,14.278846153846152,5.985473137389443,-1.040807692307692,226,4,58,2,8,75,44,65,0.193,0.748,0.059000000000000004,-0.8516,0,0,2,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,8,1,1,0,3,0,10,1,0,0,0,12,11,9,0,2,5,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,1,1,2,2,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,4,0,6,7,3,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,4,44,9,0,0.245552526513486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2405479931600313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16218512790112466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21996683232453493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27719891367747274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3610187212464599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2611753376050245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2235417978299517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4105858145591437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1431836528911233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2398691382260775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1969674252690471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4431459238522967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,_bjmw_,2019/04/12,"Have been drunk in weeks... It’s been 2 weeks since I blacked out drunk and I was forbidden by friends and family from drinking. They took all my drinks and won’t allow me to buy any or anything. They say I have a problem and they say I don’t need it. And I keep trying to find an excuse to drink. From one friend returning home from the military to seeing my ex in public. Drinking is and was my crutch. I’d rather get drunk than sit down and get high. They say I don’t need it. And I’ll make jokes like a little won’t hurt and what not. And I honestly just want to feel that warmth of whiskey gives me. I know I have a problem, it’s literally lead me to becoming the man, I promised I’d never be. I realized it bit by bit and didn’t stop. Now I just yearn for it. It really has become a crutch. I’m at an impasse now. Like I know I can go without drinking, but part of me needs it.",-0.15279017857142918,1.8181837656250048,1.9267559523809543,97.53312500000004,86.34375,5.5321428571428575,19.03869047619048,6.868970318607317,-1.220238095234194e-05,681,19,167,9,21,227,107,192,0.092,0.8140000000000001,0.095,-0.1156,0,0,6,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,4,1,5,11,0,0,8,0,16,9,0,3,2,38,32,13,0,8,7,1,1,2,2,2,0,3,1,1,10,12,9,2,5,10,1,3,8,4,0,1,6,6,25,7,21,23,4,18,0,2,2,0,14,7,0,1,9,103,35,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07923715073723853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09588549347100084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2573729258696147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2544178946537433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5707229973459856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10984406922883888,0.0,0.058915682232220414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10649657110115338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18004511499501685,0.0,0.12175309800470566,0.11177597381338618,0.06622062938630502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12310908615426745,0.11687840420671106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12473636954937335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.103567748254411,0.0,0.0,0.12807197037404133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11385093344030105,0.11678299518466595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0777775680841336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2591928554152629,0.08986690264198938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07895652423315877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12617909673362326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22298655522701685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07464527654393716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27798258148371696,0.0,0.0,0.09285083276230076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09638600689258033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09741539044852576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12945728044506874,0.07910898724212398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06872612904297658,0.0,0.18692958166445486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11232049131266872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Mh543,2019/05/22,"Sleep apnea after quitting? I was a heavy drinker for the first half of my 20s and recently stopped cold turkey. Definitely had some moderate withdrawals for a couple days, but I rolled the dice and powered through on my own. I feel great, quite honestly don’t miss it a bit. Only problem is, I still have pretty bad sleep apnea problems that I’d had before when going into withdrawal that I attributed as part of the process. Just as I fall asleep I find myself gasping for air and jolting awake. Always covered in sweat. Might happen for up to an hour until I’m too tired and just pass out. I’m less than a week clean, probably day 5 now. Has anyone ever dealt with this as part of withdrawal? Super bummed if I gave myself apnea from booze.. I’ve never had this feeling with any amount of alcohol in me",2.943333333333335,5.266302611464969,3.899643312101912,85.74636518046708,77.02547770700637,6.4796602972399135,24.47940552016985,7.554174236665415,1.3231795329087055,638,22,119,9,15,205,115,157,0.113,0.718,0.17,0.8719,1,0,2,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,5,7,7,0,0,8,0,9,7,4,1,2,23,17,11,0,3,4,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,5,8,2,1,3,0,0,3,2,4,0,2,5,3,13,3,25,11,7,24,0,1,0,0,1,7,0,3,14,81,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16765378500991335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13053421663531878,0.0,0.0,0.10668172767549958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10969203377104708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13098572767398126,0.0,0.0,0.13349075761500084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17126903416321962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17358139734456668,0.0,0.202345351272618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14190421209394968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15864343200720826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1433827199852652,0.13343948121706886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0891568044151026,0.0,0.0,0.17295742708665945,0.0,0.0,0.13872579757548353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15449222735084733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1664216874224182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12099320010238244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11931201437745932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3397649691043406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1596002895474397,0.16913992048037169,0.30022017120369016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3337159626245028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15489709448872555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3139805544628853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12528216091133038,0.131156181898752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18030701390574447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12583725272853888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,just-alone,2019/05/22,"I think I went from functioning to non-functioning today I accidently let slip to a nurse that I drink on the job, she had to contact safeguarding because I work with vulnerable people, and now it's highly likely that I will lose my job. My mum also admitted today that she's been able to smell alcohol on me. It fucking sucks and I've got no one to blame but myself. The only silver lining is that I've finally been signposted for the help I've been asking for, but it shouldn't have had to get to this point.",5.623782051282049,5.446271250000002,6.82769230769231,76.98397435897436,67.26923076923077,10.394871794871797,28.871794871794872,10.125756701596842,2.647364102564102,406,12,81,9,6,138,68,104,0.08800000000000001,0.847,0.065,-0.0507,2,0,2,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,2,4,2,0,4,0,10,3,0,0,0,8,18,5,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,8,3,2,0,2,1,0,1,2,3,0,1,7,1,12,1,13,8,0,9,0,1,0,1,7,4,2,0,5,55,20,3,0.20497834260909886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21905951035452548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1639211065278609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1916270802972064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12495289511431533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2008007396868713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22454375506603572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1894991747651032,0.10709272384415587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16393990571245284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13739266229285654,0.21657087305845485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40681875272480544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20960424302540834,0.0,0.10014206434279233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2293183339501316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13889862983312787,0.1558952662320919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1421061735848729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1937707886210958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13134184528119475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38859100260983737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19001697718877264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1492266746997019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,coreydank,2019/05/22,"A LOT on my plate but 30 days today Heavy drinker for 7 plus years and got a DUI 30 days ago today that totalled my car. Just got a new car 3 weeks ago so that's good. Also, same event caused my wife of 7 years to leave me and file divorce while also taking my soon-to-be 4 year old with her. Our lease ends at the end of June at the house I'm at, and I also need to move out. All the while I'm in my 3rd week of Intensive Out-Patient treatment that takes up 12 hours out a week that I also work 40 hours during. I've been able to see my daughter on the weekends, work my 40 hours, schedule tours for new places, and also have been looking up DUI lawyers, working thru the begining stages of divorce and lawyers there, and working on my recovery. And trying to figure out finances and stuff too. But today I have 30 days sober. It's been depressing as hell in a lot of aspects and stressful each day. I'm not looking forward to my consequeces and difficulties ahead in all the thngs going on right now. I'm just happy I'm not drinking anymore. Any advise to stay positive thru this tornado known as my life? (lol) Thanks!",3.177839756592292,4.2326689137931055,4.1263184584178525,89.7858215010142,73.22413793103449,6.838133874239353,26.14705882352941,7.048011613610866,1.0031675456389446,876,29,191,8,17,283,130,232,0.079,0.845,0.076,0.2522,0,0,2,0,2,0,25.0,1,0,0,5,11,6,1,1,11,1,5,2,0,1,3,32,21,23,0,1,6,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,16,1,0,2,2,1,5,2,3,0,0,5,3,16,3,35,16,7,56,1,1,3,0,7,18,1,2,33,108,23,8,0.10069614664806034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17852211669136375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4026333604696905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0684768327386827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09986351961311578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10344268063774242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2597627368145297,0.0,0.08672944355646528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09864388829169232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1783737954607807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05722794068370283,0.08445915031207438,0.16107181448502506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10719292054409874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2974962622627298,0.116189833508418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10662267992451306,0.0,0.0,0.07112466631637104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16911880442357485,0.0,0.0,0.17121652590380065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10702406797713054,0.0,0.07466491682329549,0.0,0.19450593182020534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1056636669920462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1052060411649159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08599395904304573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08024179170444834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10732869427819768,0.0,0.0,0.115347095768587,0.0,0.11527299657001733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15142194097853695,0.0,0.0,0.09270748287956627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28634451879293354,0.0,0.0,0.0683660737053693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24231712482942255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29323197618042524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945350509654988 alcoholism,PM_ME_UR_GOODVIBES,2019/05/22,Can you drink rubbing alcohol? NOT isopropyl. 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At first it was just on the weekend with friends, then a couple years ago my mother had some health issues and after some time I realized I was up to drinking 6 nights a week at times, maybe more. Not a lot always, but it started to be uncommon for me to not at least have a few beers a night, and on the week ends I would always get tuned up. It didn't seem like a big deal, as I am a pretty happy drunk, and I can hold my liquor far better then almost anyone I know (the men in my family are well known for our genetic disposition for a very high alcohol tolerance). A little over two weeks ago I cleaned out my childhood home to prepare it for sale and buried my mother and found myself in a bender for most of the week. I am going on 2 weeks sober now, haven't had but 1 beer since the night of the funeral. Most of the first week I was very lethargic, and in a terrible mood, even my co-workers were like ""Whoa, calm down man..."". My motivation to do things around the house, and for overall self-improvement has come back. I am down at least 5 lbs already, likely closer to 10 now. I truthfully don't remember the last time I felt so good and not had a drink in me. I don't plan on quitting drinking completely, as I still plan to do it socially with friends and family from time to time, but it definitely can take over and change your life without you even noticing if you let it, but I probably don't have to tell most of the people here that.",9.81658878504673,5.403592130841119,9.58330996884735,73.9996378504673,62.27102803738318,13.19221183800623,38.27647975077882,10.504223727775694,3.608846105919002,1218,37,264,20,12,401,176,321,0.059000000000000004,0.8140000000000001,0.126,0.9737,0,0,7,0,0,0,36.0,1,3,0,7,13,14,0,0,23,0,27,12,0,1,1,46,39,21,1,2,10,2,1,3,2,1,4,0,2,2,9,16,10,1,9,9,1,2,9,1,1,3,13,1,33,12,49,23,10,61,0,0,0,0,14,27,0,10,35,186,42,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1561965790092353,0.18831133965479566,0.08822276223485925,0.0,0.09722421960414213,0.0,0.14661806295594645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061603899451669275,0.0,0.0,0.07843064601511439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06774602534755299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07792023904664587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08996335428611198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0932016450058876,0.07589322080991838,0.09237466918449863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09748466302497716,0.0,0.0,0.09083066847581377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2589231773108963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.078033403233827,0.0,0.0,0.11638284201854596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16611196409786694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08459301683279907,0.0,0.0,0.14988130133382524,0.0,0.09660075796041594,0.13613683418693168,0.0,0.09206071109049864,0.0,0.050071154903409486,0.07389689630209835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09378763703515383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09364972386209626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09308600929912517,0.08837482724239745,0.0,0.0,0.10165941814953544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09195699045404596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04841928811922238,0.07181597598888616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09009162792696022,0.06222999014176477,0.12912851577410447,0.08830268597816794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07490230373599846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08851164062917273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2480370312788216,0.0,0.0,0.10030622940163332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06107975836720279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08963276412815413,0.09499029506814016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09370874028029544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09980390240265216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08020596610203926,0.09191099170814764,0.0,0.0,0.07287998809986504,0.0,0.0,0.08981025362782986,0.0,0.0,0.08713644985977945,0.0,0.06235999308261245,0.0,0.07035943612804596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06624274237313586,0.0,0.07700619699553422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05853194010352303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2568688120439921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08606415514346538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1453889545169152,0.0,0.0,0.494698260074246,0.0,0.07921547781229107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08492846974521187,0.0,0.06414027626431862,0.0,0.0,0.06258608047681652,0.0,0.0,0.056735658343722566 alcoholism,moonchildwizard,2019/05/22,"Losing my patience Hi everyone. I’m having a problem that I hope you all can help me find a way to deal with. I’ve been with my husband for 15 years, and things have been great with the exception of one thing: his drinking. I think I’d say he is alcohol dependent? Please correct me if this terminology is wrong. He binge drinks on average twice a week. Lately it has been about 8-10 beers ( heavier craft type beers) over an afternoon or evening. Once he starts, even if he has intentions of only having a few, he is unable to stop until he’s drunk. He will buy a six pack with the intention of stopping there but almost always goes out for more once those are gone. I’m not a big drinker but it has ruined it for me. Going out is only fun for the first couple drinks because I know what it turns into. I drink 1 beer, maybe 2, probably one to two times a month. Like a lot of people he changes once he’s 4 ish in. He becomes more opinionated, argumentative, and just different. It’s not like we argue about real things, he’ll just bring up a topic from the current news cycle for example and get real amped up. Rarely is it an argument between us, mostly because I know it’s just drunk him talking and I’m just trying to get to bedtime. I love him more than anything on this earth, but I’m seeing myself get more and more angry about this. What have I attempted up to this point? Well, I’ve manipulated timing to ensure there’s less time where he’s just drinking (like going to dinner later and avoiding afternoon drinks), I’ve brought it up and he knows it’s an issue, but assures that he can stop. To be fair there have been a few stretches of time (not that many though) where he has cut it out completely. And to be honest those times make me so happy. If I’ve ever brought it up while drinking, he says he works hard and isn’t a bad person, as if my questioning the behavior means I think he is bad. He’s not, it’s just a detrimental behavior. There are fun things that have happened that the memory of his drunkenness overrides the niceness of the memory. I’ll look back at a photo and remember how he drank that night, etc. And, when he’s up drinking I have trouble sleeping which really impacts me. Like last night I was unable to sleep until I knew he finished drinking and was eating dinner (which means he’s going to bed). So I didn’t get to sleep till after 12 and was up at 5 for work. Try as I might I can’t just do what I need to do when it’s going on. If you’ve gotten through my post, thank you and I appreciate you. This is the first time I have ever told anyone about this. I am just wearing thin on this and I feel done tip toeing around it. I wish he’d either not drink at all or be capable of having a few and stopping. Any insight on a good first step forward would mean a lot to me.",3.716416811091853,4.536356220103991,4.903340987868287,85.60055740901214,71.72097053726169,7.849722703639514,25.863474870017328,8.07648339933343,1.3912274176776434,2197,66,465,30,40,727,267,577,0.10400000000000001,0.77,0.126,0.9618,2,1,15,0,0,0,63.0,2,3,0,7,31,26,2,1,28,0,45,26,5,6,6,97,86,39,0,10,26,1,3,4,0,4,1,2,1,1,38,26,20,5,14,15,1,10,8,10,1,8,16,7,41,16,70,62,16,76,0,2,2,1,45,29,0,16,41,304,79,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06493611317742089,0.0608443791415789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05055886250618099,0.06583561589056397,0.0,0.04132025257818911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042486212400137634,0.0,0.050001959585152765,0.05409107402190373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046722237517437724,0.10146748594267092,0.07407991851947421,0.06710686972444414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0642781531852375,0.0,0.0637078147698118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0672320118677616,0.0,0.0,0.06264296753385698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06348337123410759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06218063559987061,0.0,0.5952364057289207,0.0,0.06217470873270986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06776570640452798,0.08026547328567883,0.1099254392179764,0.0,0.058060707488950994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0307230995562236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05553537924657703,0.15505241210275478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1269825761003071,0.0,0.13812980939723962,0.050964293818202784,0.0,0.06699033403576747,0.0,0.0,0.053731647582289405,0.06468229289135669,0.05443082893039393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04072749662389534,0.0,0.0,0.060350389205561135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06341975528956811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10017964013352727,0.049529150536660106,0.06854219747002051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11874100172067305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051024787764139136,0.06797715042338821,0.0,0.1033153814648992,0.05484008919911262,0.0,0.04055911562003375,0.06160314438582425,0.06104360920538748,0.19856293603105096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0644588938388746,0.0,0.0,0.04849965921400881,0.0,0.0,0.045054262857651566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11404206646885175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19412868292595145,0.08234782532322363,0.09242449812370952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042124729285586526,0.05305504620555666,0.0,0.06669844397761936,0.057439742470042625,0.0,0.05819321245123176,0.0,0.06551172714939865,0.058141040520721776,0.0,0.0,0.06806736079758817,0.0,0.0,0.1383209469847659,0.03892570154109192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0688315160823279,0.0,0.0,0.09664078337306224,0.0,0.0,0.04841945761725118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1824176843270109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043007665666644636,0.0,0.0,0.20319905503337524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04883820456706496,0.0,0.05594149809893082,0.0,0.0,0.16147032649330306,0.07786768916179833,0.05969836944025375,0.0,0.21258491111006503,0.0,0.0,0.058060707488950994,0.0,0.08250683684700151,0.06609162208464307,0.059355657807544614,0.0,0.07308922042189311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04823005782054096,0.04873962186199937,0.0,0.054632347070039104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06987331645610813,0.0,0.0,0.08847093852905462,0.0,0.0,0.043163590813212416,0.06643372282780023,0.0,0.039128744324767255 alcoholism,HatoriHanz0,2019/05/22,"0 Support From Family And Feeling Like Shit The first time I told them I was an alcoholic my friends and family were supportive. &#x200B; I relapsed after 6 months and they've all cut ties with me. I never stole from them or did anything illegal but they're making me feel like shit and make me want to keep drinking. &#x200B; &#x200B; Why are people so shitty towards addicts?",3.145571205007826,6.2040993943662,3.4415962441314574,84.4390453834116,83.22535211267606,5.972456964006258,27.607198748043817,7.3871296695380915,2.0152898278560247,311,14,51,5,9,96,55,71,0.214,0.624,0.162,-0.8509,0,0,2,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,2,1,1,8,3,0,2,0,4,5,2,2,2,15,13,7,0,1,2,0,2,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,2,1,2,1,0,0,1,3,0,1,4,2,10,5,6,9,1,6,0,0,0,0,4,1,2,1,7,32,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13411699574304992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13147786605915962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3998973389890987,0.4484718275830824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012402902383468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12051908960448032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23195678610241455,0.0,0.1244117447355918,0.17578024860015184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10464624009189016,0.0,0.0,0.095049934240599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10935156625939152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12020902357757318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16424222855466464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.098198542937608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09488558672379216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08529105368004226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25256977700473193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27921792725487604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07173771548034416,0.0,0.0,0.11755705029149605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07256419088434189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1110122404327944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4484718275830824,0.0 alcoholism,dtosh271,2019/05/22,"After the last drink I was wondering about people's experiences after they have stopped excessive daily drinking. I'm more interested in the psychological side. I'm day 4 off the booze, I was a daily drinker of around 10 pints/ day. I found drinking made me relaxed and care free. I work and have a good job, I have a partner who was was getting more and more distant and fed up with my lifestyle. I stopped after several medical issues and a stay in hospital of a week. Since stopping I have extreme anxiety and remorse. I feel down and guilty. I worry about everything from work to is my partner cheating. All in my mind but so hard and making me want to drink. Was I drinking to hide this or is this a result of drinking?",3.619042553191491,5.617544326241133,4.8095212765957465,81.50875,73.822695035461,7.536879432624112,30.89893617021277,8.344100000000001,2.4640680851063834,574,27,107,10,12,189,83,141,0.131,0.782,0.087,-0.4316,1,0,7,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,2,4,6,1,0,9,0,11,9,0,3,1,24,22,11,0,1,2,0,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,2,3,10,8,3,3,7,1,0,0,1,0,0,8,2,16,6,20,14,4,19,0,0,0,0,4,8,0,2,10,74,19,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09493710466834583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11047640964325167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12652947942763568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16007005915263192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7294317835203961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1115341874229511,0.12139482044444125,0.0,0.0,0.06274931295890554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13607059804437785,0.0,0.0,0.06483777290654348,0.0,0.0,0.10409022750701613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1111703300936659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295294462448264,0.12315132604937296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10115906964159337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11742758867162333,0.08283853765211582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12501893758858132,0.0,0.0,0.12530686950152015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0860361701596279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14019907090782208,0.0,0.10265782355744443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13227540372083801,0.0,0.3112625666375896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0731981234261833,0.0,0.09954652459854997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13458249494844338,0.18069435342513065,0.1260308275934329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,SeriouslyNotParanoid,2019/05/22,"An online alternative to AA, or maybe an app? My best friend is finally serious about quitting alcohol, but for various reasons can’t go to a local group. She has a lot of mental and physical health problems and would likely have a panic attack if she attempted to go out to an AA meeting. Are there any online groups that can help her stay on track, or even an app? She uses Facebook a lot.",5.1099999999999985,5.797348051948056,6.50690909090909,75.84036363636366,68.48051948051948,9.796363636363637,30.984415584415583,9.888512548439397,3.0596202597402598,308,12,57,7,5,105,59,77,0.157,0.748,0.095,-0.7514,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,3,3,7,1,1,8,0,7,2,0,2,0,13,10,6,0,3,4,0,0,1,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,4,2,0,0,0,5,3,9,9,4,7,0,0,0,0,9,3,0,5,2,42,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23251033374747465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479513516806132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475110793687535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283205680439559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14369933053324016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2383313253408658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1680898283138628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2472938901938667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23126093829984945,0.0,0.0,0.14582892891737995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10629104741821452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3699311931408313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2185728288158497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21925389033602935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2552651174761821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20817988749901006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23140667489879485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2236925883011661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2318948578298413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18790591338583024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15455161103188858,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,living_a_lie_222,2019/05/22,Is there a happy in-between? Not social enough when sober (like 100% lonely and miserable) but I take it overboard when drinking,3.291159420289855,6.415846521739134,3.304347826086957,85.02724637681159,83.78260869565217,4.8057971014492775,25.057971014492754,6.42735559955562,1.2290405797101451,102,4,16,1,3,31,22,23,0.079,0.8140000000000001,0.106,0.1531,0,2,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,2,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,1,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,11,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4379407331994879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4619241864354104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4758951317699694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21840700960953768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4557131817756577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33612744288089336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,confusedaf98765,2019/05/22,"Does stopping alcohol change a person’s behaviour completely? So, my husband was treating me pretty badly, constantly lying to me, and doing things that are borderline cheating. I was very confused at the time by all his behaviour because he seemed quite lovely at times, but other times he’d seem like he completely lacked empathy. I constantly asked him what’s going on, but he wouldn’t tell me anything, sometimes he’d get angry at me for even asking. A few months ago, I discovered quite a few things he lied about and the borderline cheating I mentioned. I was considering leaving him because I didn’t know whether I can trust him. A bit after that, he confessed to me that he had been secretly struggling with drinking for most of our relationship and it had gotten quite bad around the time the worst offences occurred. He said he believes the alcohol caused his bad behaviour and that’s not who he really is. He seems to have really changed, and even before I knew that he had quit drinking, he was being a lot better. It seems like it really was the drinking. He is being so lovely, never gets angry at me, hasn’t been caught lying about anything, doesn’t even check out other women. But how can someone change THAT much? A part of me feels like it’s an act. Is it possible to change this much? Have you experienced something similar?",6.586060756972112,7.4957830318725085,6.6532246015936245,75.30342255976097,65.29482071713147,9.780976095617527,33.21738047808765,9.827888789773867,3.3204599601593623,1075,44,184,22,16,343,134,251,0.192,0.7090000000000001,0.099,-0.9816,0,0,6,0,0,0,28.0,1,1,0,5,9,16,2,2,13,0,27,7,0,2,2,32,44,12,0,2,5,1,1,3,0,1,2,1,0,2,18,8,5,1,9,3,1,3,6,8,0,0,15,3,25,8,20,24,11,21,1,0,0,2,36,7,0,7,14,128,43,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07696582175910344,0.18558072263838807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14290044998219406,0.07729335891913121,0.16234078119268158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2174877172825105,0.10585638821863777,0.0,0.07388235005333439,0.09782292968465052,0.0,0.07679035312977356,0.09479127215562022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08919400092048642,0.3674006815093816,0.0,0.1820703723118007,0.18765566149992044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0759818316596704,0.0,0.0,0.25516865017937296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1720428411064178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04390172693087551,0.06202835986494753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09072578062530673,0.0,0.0493450958787057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047717182062821016,0.0,0.0,0.0919359721992922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12725608194657936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.073816179525292,0.15672732606151346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06930351513386343,0.0,0.12765388807970174,0.0,0.06696539988048444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09402386663961207,0.0,0.0,0.07581292852821883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09788302947570704,0.0,0.08833304021665389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3693996499760418,0.0,0.0,0.16686846812338665,0.0,0.0,0.09321840202041093,0.0,0.0,0.08259120671968816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3161717435904279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07356720790105112,0.06684273306229815,0.08587292386515465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07259024606519635,0.0,0.09076916488678848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0758895651863702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11536639016801795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2025152594624404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07164036773449224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Jbay_personal,2018/11/26,"I come from a family of alcoholics... Everyone in my family is an alcoholic and at 27 I've noticed I've started drinking a lot more. I'm petrified to end up like them and know I have a higher change of it. I've always enjoyed a few glasses of wine the evening but never get drunk. Until last night I cannot remember a day where I went without at least a glass of wine or three but I took the night off last night, went to the gym... and I felt great this morning!! I still want to be able to enjoy wine but I just need to be careful not to drink too much. I hate having to be so cautious but I guess when it's in your genetics you need to do it.....???",1.6877792207792195,2.789951128571428,3.7864935064935072,90.58396103896106,77.0,7.376623376623378,24.15584415584416,8.00094639256281,1.1082142857142858,498,16,117,8,11,171,88,140,0.07,0.779,0.151,0.879,0,0,7,0,0,0,21.0,0,2,1,0,7,6,1,0,10,0,8,8,0,0,1,21,23,11,0,3,8,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,4,8,0,3,7,0,4,4,1,0,1,4,1,14,5,21,16,5,23,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,3,13,80,18,0,0.14351477803087664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30674730416799384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1194157920508544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14632288096104215,0.0,0.15181960577619585,0.12362527360670228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09255515914855604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2811796916472674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12711149589244009,0.0,0.0,0.09479015736928653,0.0,0.0,0.1371345205992012,0.0,0.0,0.2705859204787068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1377966930322245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07498054816711043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15822554943071535,0.15809770800015172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14169113134922326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0788719687700793,0.2339673975148548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07011407133443985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12201113214482227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10549987487469624,0.21282877888149115,0.11068744422283663,0.0,0.0,0.40403669167287604,0.0,0.0,0.16339252599769724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16257426697500246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1015804985567632,0.0,0.1146110871210544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1594501989858105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08464873442229437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2660792740953146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1383431246849681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,dlkslink,2018/11/26,"My friend joined Alcoholics Anonymous but doesn’t want to give up Alcohol for reasons that don’t sound right to me. Back in May my friend Attempted suicide a couple of months later they came to terms with the fact they have a problem with alcohol and joined AA. However they say they don’t want to give it up completely because they think Alcohol is a big help to them is certain situations, basically they’re going to AA to get better at controlling their drinking not to give it up. This never sounded right to me, I don’t think that’s what AA does. I feel like I should say something but I don’t know what. What can I say to help my friend? Because I think they might getting worse. 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I didn’t get shit faced one time over the thanksgiving break. Had a few beers or a mixed drink or two here and there to get a little buzz on. Told myself I’d only be drinking on special occasions such as holidays and so far so good. I’m very proud of myself and would like to hear other stories of successful moderation from you guys. 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So my uncle had issues with alcohol before he and my aunt got married about twenty years ago. He was sober for about thirteen years, but then started drinking again due to reasons I will not disclose. He is not my uncle by blood, so I have not seen him since the divorce about five years ago. I did text him once while they were separated though. My uncle and I were not extremely close, but we were starting to get there since I was getting older (I was 16 or 17 at the time of divorce). I still have his number (if it's still his) and I often find myself wanting to talk to him. Pretty much what I'm asking is if I should risk texting him.",3.4933834586466186,4.786641984962408,4.4135413533834615,87.1084323308271,72.75939849624059,6.5230075187969945,25.33007518796993,6.742157984588678,0.9340231578947372,516,16,104,4,10,167,86,133,0.021,0.935,0.045,0.4767,0,0,3,0,2,0,15.0,1,0,1,0,11,1,0,1,2,0,14,4,1,1,0,20,23,13,0,4,9,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,6,3,0,2,1,0,0,4,1,0,1,10,1,22,0,12,11,1,17,0,0,1,0,17,2,0,4,15,76,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3183373193504931,0.3837889885249244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1678638905067971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15279190636661638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758999475867515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16411412683538146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18762485178575375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14361013244854526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18741346335728046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13199689033123854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19122500361820444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18267656077694602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18461706802646424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.297066942095257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2541862716655324,0.0,0.2867928917532833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14432312171930686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1764162936689972,0.0,0.104702586406832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10590884328051102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34689128603114017 alcoholism,gooddeceit,2018/11/26,Can I tell my husband's doctor he's an alcoholic? My spouse is a severe alcoholic who has just started seeing a primary care physician after an ultimatum. He lied to his physician about how much he drinks. The physician is concerned about his blood pressure but does not know it is tied to his alcoholism. He's on a new med that simultaneously helps with blood pressure and cirrhosis but as far as I know the doctor hasn't checked his liver function etc. Would it be wrong to get a hold of the doctor and tell him my husband is an alcoholic before his next appointment? I'd like to give my husband the best chance of survival and feel this would help.,7.157619047619049,7.008171904761909,7.163333333333334,75.765,64.07936507936508,10.057142857142855,35.460317460317455,9.606745405546679,3.2639650793650787,524,22,97,9,7,168,77,126,0.08900000000000001,0.759,0.153,0.8959,0,0,5,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,4,6,0,2,11,0,10,14,3,1,0,15,18,8,0,2,4,4,1,1,0,2,10,0,0,0,5,4,5,1,3,1,1,0,2,3,0,0,0,2,12,3,13,15,3,6,0,0,1,0,20,2,0,0,5,62,17,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6000648993646249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1194472257659088,0.0,0.14731297796313375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14311979868377794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4310336522676808,0.1228415040102034,0.0,0.0,0.137512262601083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1565531866794313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07097689075185151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07333918583610513,0.1346587323009181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18817834920468152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15429084252615818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.068579238656166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1559229431772433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10319042896134864,0.0,0.0,0.13557327897921592,0.14928845512990968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11185923956905494,0.0,0.0,0.1585817225736384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09935684978422804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2453846695333674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19943414003528814,0.1534760214788415,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,jellybeanqueen2015,2018/11/26,"K I need help, I get it I’m calling in sick today (not necessarily a thing, my employees don’t even care, they are probably glad...) Anyway I am supposed to get it together and pay an outstanding bill I can’t afford at my kids school. She is sick and I’m using it as an excuse to stay home and be a piece of crap. I can’t even get it together. If I drink a little more, it’s fine. My plan is to drink and deal with it in a few hours. I’m horrible. I just need a break and want to have a life break. I know I’m not making good “ life decisions” but FUCK. I’m so sad. It’s so hard and I am sick of this shit.",-1.2323913043478285,0.4548677898550722,2.106695652173915,96.34482608695654,88.4927536231884,5.998840579710145,16.446376811594202,7.3011,-0.14233971014492752,457,10,121,8,15,165,79,138,0.239,0.687,0.073,-0.9774,2,0,2,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,1,1,6,8,3,0,8,0,10,10,2,2,0,19,26,11,0,4,5,0,1,0,0,0,5,0,1,1,9,7,2,0,2,2,2,0,5,4,0,0,0,1,14,4,11,25,3,9,0,1,0,1,7,4,3,1,2,71,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1905101560171652,0.0,0.19022187347244696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19234681676539045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3655376888170259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2464571665498368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17248215938942196,0.2924274095615212,0.0,0.0,0.15648715363506993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16713123740512836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12505480884499093,0.0,0.18714622481054213,0.0,0.1837351474116965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10253470657059674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26356165185104563,0.0,0.18699345545670126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1245377907123644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2766805080776757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20115541574844975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1888201149723105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19151275713733315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19886018044113168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12394968072940067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17684777607218394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16113769917779228,0.0,0.0,0.11004458593982676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,mot461,2018/11/26,"Living With an Alcoholic Don't know if this is the right place but I need some advice from recovered alcoholics. I have been living with an alcoholic family member (in his 40's) for the past 2 years, he keeps loosing jobs has no ambition other than drinking. He had to move in with us as his marriage fell apart. He shown aggression towards members of the house, but they are deluded that he can change/quit even after he said point black he never will. He has been to rehab 3 times and been able to drink there too. I don't want to come home one day to missing Items or a serious injury, and would be happier if he just died. Will this continue? Is this Normal? Is there any way to stop his mother enabling him? Sorry if this is the wrong place.",2.9431860706860715,4.921073682432431,3.9189189189189233,87.24312889812893,75.68918918918921,7.526819126819128,22.87110187110187,8.384062270229773,1.3493185031185029,587,17,118,11,13,189,105,148,0.179,0.792,0.028999999999999998,-0.9687,1,0,5,0,0,0,16.0,1,0,1,1,5,4,1,0,7,0,19,6,0,0,1,22,26,9,1,7,7,1,0,0,0,3,4,1,1,0,6,6,5,2,1,2,0,3,4,4,0,1,5,2,9,0,18,17,2,20,0,1,1,0,17,8,0,5,8,77,15,1,0.14572546722116542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14240124000534538,0.0,0.4672086195447059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0990983148495916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255295865963376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09398087079053866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15124002789141752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2855109592239041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09625029672996596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13737700126165814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14617452535116407,0.0,0.0,0.1681476236974733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14461004040853842,0.12952749094693847,0.0,0.0,0.08008690573454505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2573565147412255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1548831095234123,0.0,0.10805358746380367,0.11239246401105296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14278001743041566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0987473479937962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13911144764291927,0.0,0.0,0.3045041943229483,0.0,0.13775766915762658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15499697209202826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12444875277644987,0.13861829012354182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16312772983436982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12183301575137308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08497369182982592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17528979436353184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08595265618370859,0.11567009291799064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1035191908460044,0.15932792203925036,0.0,0.09384242309331244 alcoholism,homendailha,2018/11/26,"Please help me I'm pretty sure I am an alcoholic. I drink most days, and once I start drinking I cannot stop. It sounds so stupid to say it but it's true. I have no idea how I can control this. I used to have problems with drugs but it was easy to isolate myself from that culture and now they are so unavailable to me there is no way back. Alcohol is everywhere. I went for a cup of coffee yesterday morning about 9am with the intention to stay for ten minutes and return home. It was 10pm by the time I got home. I don't know how much I drank or how I paid for it, I only had 60 cents in my pocket for the coffee. This happens more often than I would like to admit. I'm married and my wife and I want to have children, but I cannot be a father like this. I need to stop and I need help and I need to be able to give information to my wife as well about how she can support me. I don't think she is an enabler, at least not purposefully, but I think that she is easily manipulated by me sometimes and that makes it much easier to continue. How can I stop drinking? Please help me. Thank you.",0.6346956521739138,2.470883259574471,2.8058464384828885,93.14434782608696,82.36170212765956,6.129509713228493,20.43015726179464,7.255503002510835,0.3769648473635523,846,24,199,12,23,287,126,235,0.07,0.701,0.23,0.9881,0,0,6,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,1,2,14,9,1,0,7,0,22,7,0,10,2,45,43,21,0,6,6,3,0,2,0,1,3,2,2,1,13,10,6,4,6,3,2,1,7,2,1,1,7,2,36,7,28,33,5,16,0,0,0,0,17,2,0,3,13,140,49,0,0.1238106987234171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.264631967394974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09520278493996773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13886422645571178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0798476580730548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3638620485709833,0.14358110322383255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11877050396861068,0.0,0.0,0.09902272609169256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.109485391990006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2489631046103594,0.0,0.2483844514538347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13976720856869365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06804312208889114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12097530695261015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08264460280371258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820302188065814,0.27541219291124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13185435339635876,0.0,0.0941636155029173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.271813935086558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12595999135137062,0.0,0.11847011767821213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09845923702243327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12245194686882843,0.0,0.08763384980660371,0.13196573130151296,0.0,0.3105338640266385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14049891368817374,0.11669011830738744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11398825689254348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15866579297012842,0.0,0.0,0.07219501408488899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10693269142705776,0.0,0.0,0.07302675793166341,0.09827516973298793,0.0,0.0,0.11132068721951574,0.1147737581229191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08795156807062916,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,FutureFuckBoy,2018/11/26,"I think I am becoming an alcoholic, help I am 17 years old I used to hang out very rarely and I did not liked going out, that was until I discovered beer and beer pong, now I love going out to parties and I hang out with a lot of people and have earned a great reputation of how good I am in beer pong as well as how much I drink in the weekends and how much I enjoy it, I have a great tolerance I usually drink about a 12 in parties and I feel just fine, I want to know your stories of how you started and know if I am in risk, I want to stop it before it is too late, some times I drink 3 days in a row but that is rare, thank you ",4.733490945674042,2.7404429929577496,6.1157947686116705,87.34640845070425,69.77464788732394,9.804426559356136,28.03219315895372,8.418075326091056,1.4605742454728357,483,11,125,6,7,166,78,142,0.036000000000000004,0.758,0.20600000000000002,0.9484,0,0,7,0,0,0,8.0,0,3,0,1,9,10,0,1,7,0,10,8,0,5,0,30,22,16,0,3,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,12,7,1,4,7,0,4,1,1,1,0,2,1,21,9,21,20,4,24,0,0,0,1,5,9,0,3,12,86,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17872833531373622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1847030647060055,0.14230863256017634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1078557450679977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.491493592895178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08456139689727155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19009230521173653,0.1402726918637741,0.0,0.3687646302947197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1120972185876946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18382108647283252,0.0,0.1886536205068365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0817048500925702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14218117806861374,0.1509403222862175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2458807853363929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17548989004040222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11594292254887473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1183730918622626,0.0,0.0,0.13981984394496935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15397180922825834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10716042104792044,0.0,0.0,0.09751879043460578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444413697824358,0.1841908576387243,0.13799023394686474,0.1972845685571285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15036853868096234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10769685763259007 alcoholism,Henrix99,2018/11/26,"Scary experience while drinking, considering quitting Lastnight I went to a party, someone was there that I don't really like. He is your generic asshole. Now I don't really have problems with him but as soon as I seen him come in my mood changed. Later that night I went out to have a smoke, blacked out and punched him in his face. This scares the hell out of me. It happened so quick and I have no memory of it. I am really thinking about never drinking again. Has anyone else experienced this before? I seem to blackout pften when I drink. I am only 18, any advice?",2.1622972972972967,4.67889002702703,3.5382207207207235,86.17057432432436,81.16216216216216,6.222522522522524,24.565315315315317,7.492282038375204,1.3447531531531531,447,17,86,7,12,146,79,111,0.149,0.818,0.033,-0.9305,0,0,4,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,1,8,5,1,1,3,0,10,4,1,0,1,12,17,8,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,7,3,0,2,3,0,3,4,3,0,0,4,3,17,1,14,13,0,17,1,0,2,0,6,5,1,1,10,63,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17538112022063929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12204931270013232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254932557069062,0.18389358529711472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15272020404739395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18986099862402814,0.15460202114302535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5274522033173089,0.0,0.0,0.1499285271572823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1755612161721474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587093555455598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08768253305028871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13842236375102093,0.0,0.0,0.16842534789796004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1364990019277828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17173355902887918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1908940020135125,0.0,0.0,0.34492928936996536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17968601763453926,0.0,0.0,0.16338751122661155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15206878224278308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11500048221827128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3327506775861605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,biancarori,2018/11/26,"Alcoholic father Hi, this is my first post in this sub. My father drinks excessively, but I’ve always had trouble classifying him as an alcoholic. My mom says that my dad started drinking after they got married and his mom died. I wonder now if he was just good at hiding it from her. When I was a year old, he went to jail for 5 months for drinking and driving. He stopped drinking when I was 4 and around the time I was in fourth grade, he started drinking again. He hasn’t stopped since. He can never keep a job. He for sure drinks every weekend non-stop and sometimes drinks during the week. At times he goes weeks without working and the minute he gets a new check, the first thing he buys is beer. He barely helps my mom with bills Once when I was in 8th grade, he stole money out of my piggy bank and never wanted to admit it. He pawned my mother’s engagement ring and all the rest of her jewelry. Right now it’s Sunday and he just got back from work drunk. Sometimes he gets aggressive and yells and hits things, other times he won’t stop playing loud music, sometimes he cries, he always talks too much for too long when he’s drunk. He has gotten in physical fights w other men while drunk. He is extremely toxic and draining I don’t drink at all but anyone here want to share stories of growing up w an alcoholic parent? Sorry ik this post is long. 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I am now 25, and damnit does not get easier. I feel so lost and scared. Multiple rehab stints didn't fix me. I don't know what will. Fuck my life I'm doomed to rot my liver",-1.930952380952384,-0.0547310793650766,1.0003174603174614,100.35857142857144,97.88888888888887,4.704761904761905,11.761904761904766,6.42735559955562,-1.0203142857142855,214,3,55,3,9,74,49,63,0.381,0.619,0.0,-0.9777,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,2,7,2,1,0,0,7,5,1,0,1,7,14,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,3,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,4,6,0,0,4,2,9,1,3,9,0,3,1,3,0,1,1,1,1,0,2,28,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3320295400485896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2718839786734527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2617669000985258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15709250392995433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2872247990284284,0.32464190012091954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1707452561611696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21944716703598927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3391511764013567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24707049192813796,0.31105153360347154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2570032051378763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2928184881911074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811638824770526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ThePerhapsburgs,2019/10/09,"Can I just ride out the drinking until the rest of my life improves? So I’m pretty young (25) and on a pretty impressive trajectory at a reasonably big company. Sure, I’ve sent a few awkward drunk texts to coworkers and gotten in a few predicaments over the last few years as a result of being a pretty good guy while sober. My family relationships are trashed and pretty much no existent at this point but my work ones are thriving. If I fake if for another year or so while drinking heavily would it not be best to address it when my debts and future are taken care of? The alcoholism really seems like a minor concern when I can invest that focus into a career for the time being and worry about a few too many drinks on the side after a lonely day. Has it ever worked out for someone? I’m okay with being an alcoholic for a bit longer as long as I fit the “high functioning” criteria too.",6.29028409090909,6.137729278409097,7.230818181818182,74.5687272727273,65.875,10.449090909090913,30.66818181818182,10.125756701596842,2.9778904545454554,707,23,131,15,10,238,116,176,0.107,0.731,0.162,0.8079999999999999,1,2,5,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,3,9,10,0,1,19,1,11,7,0,2,2,21,18,19,0,3,6,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,1,1,5,9,6,0,2,4,2,2,2,3,0,1,3,0,8,7,25,10,8,31,0,1,0,0,3,14,0,4,16,97,13,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2883705455491216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14147226820744715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415870978844957,0.0,0.1472944521186874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13755690249178587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08701032209377685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3965019739827104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1220401765902001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271877673350674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1131620025649384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13358907002203851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1425472482633667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1099753855132766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09529588732995964,0.06591364529257399,0.0,0.0,0.11939732479390387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13678469102042284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09917953983490813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09142327031631912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12754020114378148,0.0,0.0,0.5490364868752777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08643130332283303,0.13871717588638774,0.0,0.14485039751797318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.122823395784548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11431476058151438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12715770285707348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07867120439955343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1964424074717893,0.1370147916568637,0.0,0.09584118621834248,0.0,0.0,0.17376428608770925 alcoholism,throw-me-away-capn,2019/10/09,"I am trying to go over 24 hours without alcohol and it's getting hard, so here I am, keeping my mind busy. I am 23 years old and I've been using alcohol for over three years to blunt the effects of my mental illnesses. I drink because it hushes the horrible things that my mentally ill brain is constantly machine-gun-firing into my conscious mind. Alcohol dulls the sharp, heavy waves of humiliation, disgust, and loathing I feel for myself every minute of every day. It makes me ""happy"". It calms the anxious, terrified wrenching in my heart. It ""puts out the fire"" for a brief and beautiful period of time. I do however, understand that mental illness is not an excuse for alcoholism and in actuality, it just makes it much, much worse. I realize that I have to stop now but how do I keep myself from going to the liquor store? My head hurts and I am irate at the smallest things. I want to scream or feel physical pain. Or drink. Drinking seems like taking a cool shower and crawling into a soft bed after spending all day being rolled in fire ants and nettles. Im being rolled in fire ants and nettles. What do I do right now?",3.5980378365267995,5.724122589861749,4.742551540140678,81.40300024254185,74.25345622119816,7.7020616056269695,27.089255396555906,8.532816995589336,2.126397235023042,890,34,163,17,19,292,132,217,0.223,0.727,0.05,-0.9879,2,0,7,1,0,0,30.0,0,0,0,1,6,9,1,0,11,1,14,15,3,5,1,36,28,14,0,1,6,0,8,1,0,0,8,2,2,0,13,12,8,3,7,4,2,4,2,5,0,1,1,11,21,4,26,25,3,28,0,2,0,0,1,11,0,3,14,108,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.1079699788290998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4729677385456239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12499321120055652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06744592842750932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12351231665473815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11956397273256054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1427090107016837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32515914828675463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1864401865381916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11188716268339698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05780552888263935,0.0,0.1257600362487258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11777975419157095,0.0991129003826936,0.0,0.11354992560654925,0.0,0.0,0.13111050992427653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.108959424012834,0.0,0.11844383314867599,0.0,0.11951162360223465,0.0,0.0,0.19668619726781464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05405376560557345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1477078951415287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3345013155163314,0.0,0.22343240797625327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16266821764472333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11609946498456836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1177301769527426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11122509697195568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09448709211988664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10072371232313733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09250110688712343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08318851141072152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14701036801182454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0645158498463552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07511820104526959,0.0,0.0,0.11518152752254457,0.0,0.09555858602178287,0.0,0.0,0.06525912362792179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10665429481614956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11275296861830242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14249877926055232 alcoholism,rosegoldandstardust,2019/10/09,Sober What do you like most about being sober???,0.1833333333333336,1.796965666666669,-0.7238888888888884,108.2675,114.55555555555556,1.8,4.5,3.1291,-3.0292666666666666,37,0,8,0,2,10,8,9,0.0,0.725,0.275,0.466,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,6,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Dudeitsmarcus,2019/10/09,"Complicated situation with an alcoholic ex. I think I may have discussed this on here before but now sure. Anyways this past summer I dated al alcoholic, I didn’t know he was until about half way through. His drinking was becoming and issue. I was having to carry him to my dorm room every night because he could get home. Told me he had gotten out of rehab a year ago, and before he moved here was in sober living. I ended up losing my job and housing due to his behavior, and I’ve accepted my complacency in the situation, and my own responsibility. Anyways we broke up in a quite explosive manner, he got really vicious when he was drunk and said a lot of things that were just really hurtful. Blaming everything on me and what not. A few days ago he came to me to apologize and talk to me about how he wants to get help again and doesn’t know where to start because his life is a mess. Well last night he showed up, quite drunk, but I was unaware until the morning. He keeps it together basically until he’s at stumbling point. And then started crying and asking me to sleep with him. I did, but this morning he said he doesn’t remember having sex. It seemed like a wake up call for him, but now I feel I’ve done something terrible. He says that’s never happened before and seemed really shaken by it. I mean I am too because he was the um.....dominant person during this sexual encounter. So I didn’t think he would forget something like that. I didn’t even know he was drunk. And I’m just trying to figure this situation out, because I’m horrified. I know I’m not a rapist and that’s not what it was, but the fact he doesn’t remember deeply disturbs me. The fact I couldn’t talk he was drunk does as well. And I want to be there for him and help him through this but I don’t know how. And I feel like I just keep getting sucked into increasingly more dire situations with him. He’s almost drank himself to death before. And I don’t want to see him die. What do I do?",3.786867960492117,4.957029620603016,5.120202737827069,82.7974623115578,71.8894472361809,8.203223011609774,26.03569571997921,8.641336200584522,1.7328919424709754,1551,49,316,27,29,518,188,398,0.182,0.731,0.087,-0.9934,2,0,5,0,0,0,43.0,1,0,0,3,22,16,3,1,13,0,34,14,2,2,4,72,70,33,2,6,12,1,2,3,0,2,4,3,3,1,18,26,8,2,16,6,0,3,13,9,2,1,24,6,43,7,42,41,5,43,0,3,1,2,46,16,1,5,26,204,61,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1497978035585516,0.18059694549256994,0.08460861364875899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0789905567654346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20602722202362148,0.09331707043113004,0.287592947279212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08627790031190491,0.09663871538276084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06746164567899207,0.0,0.09281277679138074,0.054491690080684926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08769151273370568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07394133677022686,0.0864667771802199,0.0,0.08277202889161951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07483667365041921,0.0,0.0,0.05580754142268792,0.0,0.07118990464212054,0.0,0.07593782880603811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0854454888723983,0.06036258597479044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324340046645296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06757763259876944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07471783384333221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11326919841565095,0.0,0.08475444913550158,0.0,0.0,0.0974948212466316,0.09045265770074966,0.0,0.0,0.08818986484368728,0.08384733444383778,0.15020443701442832,0.0,0.0,0.23217867689981025,0.06887395058065103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05968066584963755,0.12383861517602728,0.0,0.07460981859159313,0.0,0.0,0.09452726017193737,0.0,0.07183384330372981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09203882087734117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08980383275755123,0.0,0.0,0.06516704159876117,0.0,0.0,0.15858393622715802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08065915784637026,0.0,0.07377696953859515,0.0,0.0,0.07987421430373291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17973970438106782,0.0,0.0,0.16238720926218744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1914306377427816,0.0,0.16074643363885385,0.06719308191228797,0.0,0.0,0.06733084042303793,0.15384046988208033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3798995338857547,0.08455509828887504,0.0,0.0,0.13009533800499604,0.0,0.0,0.1196106861360836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07963466826374442,0.0,0.0,0.13582627811514975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05613411075418005,0.10828078650752568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08073771213402485,0.0,0.057365932405403726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14951038853895698,0.06706746598400026,0.0,0.0,0.1519406463238964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060022168527849376,0.0,0.0,0.05441141577649754 alcoholism,Hizzy98,2019/10/09,I get this mental obsession to drink at night that overrides all my good intentions to not drink And it’s so difficult to stop has anyone dealt with this ?,5.695,6.726089833333332,5.600000000000001,81.63000000000002,67.33333333333334,10.0,28.333333333333336,10.125756701596842,2.6813333333333333,125,4,24,3,2,39,26,30,0.23199999999999998,0.6859999999999999,0.083,-0.6375,0,0,2,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,6,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,2,1,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,5,2,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,16,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2487848476107963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6971004950829081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18589172262999207,0.0,0.0,0.2984296164539336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3585644658637724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3338958279037093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29746618423540805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,haleyafr,2019/10/09,"How can I help my alcoholic epileptic brother? I’m at a complete loss at this point. I love my brother so much and just don’t know how to help him. My 29 year old brother is currently in a medically induced coma due to (they think) aspirating on his vomit during 4 grand mal seizures in a row. The doctors have all said he keeps having seizures due to his alcohol consumption. This is the worst it’s ever been. Every time he has a seizure, he gets worse and worse mentally and he has a harder and harder time coming out of the seizure. He has been an alcoholic for around 9 years. It used to be so bad that he would drink until he couldn’t even see. He has definitely cut way back from that time in his life but is still drinking a 6 pack of tall boys a night, 2-4 shots, and sometimes just whatever he can find in my parents house. He still lives with my parents, is on disability, drinks every day, is addicted to nicotine and smokes pot all day long. All of his money goes towards his addictions, in fact he is broke by the 3rd week of the month. At that point my mom pays for his stuff. Not only is he an addict but he is also mentally immature and has been his entire life. He basically has the brain of a 15 year old but he has never been actually diagnosed with anything. He also seems like he is bipolar but I think that’s more the addictions talking. He has a lot of hurt inside of him from bad relationships and being severely bullied as a child and teen. Basically, he doesn’t believe he has any problems. He believes everyone else is the problem not him. But he has come to us many many times begging for help to get sober. When we talk to him or try to help he then refuses. Here is our biggest problem: my mother. She is an enabler. She buys his alcohol, does his laundry, clothes, everything for him. She says it’s the only way to get him to change. My dad, my brothers, and I are trying to do everything we can to help him get to rehab. We would like to have an intervention of sorts for him when he gets home from the hospital. We know he’s a very emotional person and this coma is going to scare the hell out of him so we feel it’s the best time. Not only that but he will be sober for a least a week by the time he’s home (if all goes well). I think we should all write letters to him and read them aloud to him together. My mom agrees with us then says “that won’t work. The only thing that will work is loving him and letting him be who he is. He just needs love because he has never been accepted”. My fear is that she will somehow ruin this intervention. I am terrified that the next time my brother has a seizure, he won’t come home. Everyone but my mother knows if he doesn’t cut out alcohol, that’s what will happen. I know it’s possible he will yell and scream at us and we will get no where. If that happens, my mom has already said she will go right back to buying his alcohol for him because there is “nothing else we can do”. My other brother wants to get a court order for rehab but I don’t really know if that’s a good idea because I’ve heard forcing someone into rehab is the worst thing you can do. Not really sure. My brother has a lot of problems, but he has a heart of gold. He would give you the shirt off of his back. I know with the right help, he can live a good life without needing my parents. I want that so badly for him. Please if anyone has advice for how to at least get him some kind of help, leave a comment. I don’t know what will work but in my opinion I don’t think what my mom is doing will ever pull him out of this.",2.7923427471116824,4.0709990772357765,4.169500784481529,88.23000641848525,74.4878048780488,7.346969048637856,25.27799172728569,7.9147122085399175,1.2527403794037943,2781,91,606,40,57,920,287,738,0.127,0.7879999999999999,0.085,-0.99,4,0,10,0,0,0,71.0,12,2,2,6,28,32,3,2,42,0,82,32,3,5,11,114,125,46,0,18,24,17,1,2,0,15,23,7,3,3,31,36,9,2,17,4,4,6,17,19,1,0,8,9,80,13,78,96,15,74,1,4,1,3,129,28,1,13,39,395,111,6,0.0,0.0,0.04812773032796547,0.21505772782721333,0.0,0.04819345600069193,0.0,0.316238791857804,0.0,0.0,0.05442417824880527,0.07887995459083283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03353826326419092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0344846337489788,0.0,0.0405849136841308,0.04390391073618531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11376861982051505,0.12353663315082875,0.09019227817622492,0.0,0.0,0.11113009533769927,0.05175671078840983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055055743574337006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05217242124992272,0.12745053220439415,0.051709496685508866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06361268990607838,0.0,0.0,0.05005722750409635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050479562604170435,0.04315894148484658,0.0,0.0,0.1449400284424075,0.0,0.0,0.08239853717108038,0.05547666127884609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032574396405080704,0.08922279245384715,0.08310590700595095,0.09425185818430737,0.08864855446448376,0.0,0.0,0.055497010721820415,0.024936909552011558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04507620484952063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20613499683519607,0.047310787950920995,0.05605766692048818,0.08273201621476499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08722435269840388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05844264612467397,0.2314000019470496,0.0,0.14841139492188932,0.0,0.0,0.05690691390033468,0.05279646178140816,0.05567457025216632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04383653847113255,0.0,0.05135761625728166,0.18972905975559864,0.0,0.0,0.05222115810887713,0.0,0.050431495742373975,0.10450532047528543,0.048189044445287016,0.0,0.08709825749556045,0.04364531020551843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08385763025657568,0.13353558370761714,0.0,0.0,0.10000241263792804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049683188419556636,0.0994028727991858,0.0,0.0,0.23104486984520745,0.03936554685538317,0.0,0.03625476357704918,0.07313806836173989,0.07607491716957952,0.0,0.0524507718399454,0.046282060367215855,0.0,0.04732241967505468,0.0,0.10350291446926574,0.0,0.0,0.15003573099017772,0.0,0.0,0.16428703450675325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04306300170282636,0.0,0.054136890117028505,0.09324382522310536,0.05559918534767103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18876453087968195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04933183460859949,0.0,0.06318937298643577,0.0,0.0,0.052949599532295236,0.0,0.08423543911622806,0.09382635243498293,0.07844008283081633,0.049376410493417684,0.0,0.0393004499090086,0.04489769949841845,0.0,0.0557158538579383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04178739511343312,0.0,0.048777246024144766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07877161696765239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05645786978744821,0.0,0.0,0.04648209158620504,0.0,0.0,0.0792806655293887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06553002439953375,0.1264051837021482,0.0,0.0,0.20130605005857705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06696803244448261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17797220708988415,0.04259533907900092,0.0,0.0406929179182577,0.058178644424397824,0.0782934408918051,0.07912063297830353,0.0,0.044343243916732174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04754126281117256,0.0,0.10771334064341012,0.0,0.10051950599950776,0.10510331726908148,0.0,0.0,0.09527846853389976 alcoholism,drizzo6,2019/10/09,"Fuck this disease man Last night I broke my three day sober streak and decided to drink at my job. I got shit faced and blacked out, I have no memory. Woke up with my pants partially undone, vomit stains on my shirt and a possible $150 charge for vomiting in an Uber. I don’t know what I could have done around my coworkers but I don’t have any texts or anything. However, I want to crawl in a hole and die. I’m the sous chef, I can’t act this way. What the fuck is wrong with me. Usually I can drink like that and not black out, but now I black out like it’s nothing. What. The. Fuck. I’m so fucking done, I don’t want to fucking live like this.",0.4089619732785224,2.2851231798561185,2.03466084275437,98.1589388489209,83.38848920863309,6.273586844809866,19.281089414182944,7.447530270364453,0.194625488180884,498,13,124,8,14,162,88,139,0.187,0.726,0.087,-0.9468,2,0,2,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,0,3,11,6,0,6,0,12,12,3,0,0,20,24,9,1,3,4,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,8,11,2,0,2,2,0,1,6,8,0,1,4,3,17,3,15,19,0,16,0,1,3,5,1,9,6,1,8,71,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.098636897602609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11936127830287953,0.1291225342685814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11580818433297342,0.0,0.0,0.09354328116315684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15053583067667026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29686677132109524,0.0,0.2841815755609385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6704678246731283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11600729353718267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14393671345204448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07971400858064816,0.1182326206884686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2125878346058723,0.0,0.12807911128672034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13611673369363325,0.0,0.13917645726097685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16351863865837554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14888860636898504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15974871967107207,0.0,0.17110489435733647,0.11513151488148768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15858606632488834,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,brian4iname,2019/10/09,"First Reddit Post. Have I Become an Alcoholic? Hello, I really have to type this out to someone. This is my very first post on Reddit, and I feel like my life is slipping away from me. What do you guys think? I never had a of problem with alcohol (I think). I used to be able to grab a six pack, sit back and watch a couple of movies, and then I wouldn't even want to drink for a long period. I could easily go a couple of months without drinking, and didn't even have to think about it. I was never much a party animal or anything like that, and never was big on bars. I didn't even like alcohol very much. I would just turn it down more often than not, even it was free. It would make me queasy half of the time. However, over the last year I think I have become an alcoholic or at least a serious alcohol abuser. One year ago I was a single 31 year old guy who had a decent job, no debt, and got along great with my coworkers and friends. I used to smoke a lot of weed in the past, but for whatever reason my desire to do so began fading around age 30-31. But as luck has it, I suddenly developed a new desire to drink alcohol. It was like as soon as the desire for weed left, I started wanting to drink and it just hit me like a train. It just started affecting me differently for some reason and alcohol began to feel really good. I specifically remember getting whiskey for Thanksgiving 2018 and spent the day off of work and watched some old Western movies by myself. No big deal I thought. But for some reason, it was like from that point on I started drinking very frequently, and the amount and frequency increased to where I was drinking more or less daily by sometime in January 2019. I moved into a newly created sales position at my same company in January, cold-calling people all day. It turned out to be nothing like what I was promised. As the position was consolidated over the next couple of months the true details new position became cemented by upper management, and it became apparent that I was effectively getting a paycut, and had to hit ridiculous numbers like so many sales positions demand of you. I really felt lied to and even though I could pull it off, I hated the work either way. It screwed up my confidence so much, and my positive ""let's-do'it"" demeanor really changed, and I started getting more and more depressed, regardless of how much I tried to keep up appearances. I met a girl at my company and started dating her and had lots of good times with her, but for whatever reason my drinking continued to escalate. We went to a sales conference on the other side of the country (Florida) in late March, and I spent the entire time drunk from morning to night. My girlfriend was there too, but I don't think she knew I was also hitting up restaurants in during brunch time and grabbing beer then as well. I would later on meet up with her, take her to dinner, and drink more. So since then in March my drinking skyrocketed. I used to be 6'4 and a slim 200, but within two months I gained 50 pounds and had to buy all new jeans, dress shirts, etc. because my old stuff won't even fit me anymore. My whole personality has changed, and so has my sex drive and my zest for life. I began to grow distant from my girlfriend and eventually just stopped caring in June. I was just sitting around drinking. I told her I started drinking heavily and really needed help, and she told me she wanted to break up. I didn't even care, the whole time I was just thinking about when the conversation would be over so I could go get drunk. So I told my boss I was drinking too much, and needed help, and I went on leave from work for two months. Of course, I thought I would just stop drinking during that time, start meditating again, get a healthy diet again - but you guessed it, I spent the whole time getting wasted by myself, watching porn, listening to music. On July 4th, I sat there by myself and drank a total of 30 beers and ciders. No joke. I had so much depression and anxiety, that I couldn't even go out to do anything. ""What was the point?"", I thought. I couldn't just have one drink, I had to get really drunk, even thought it wasn't fun I just kept doing it. Within 9 or 10 months I have gone from having no debt to racking up over $10,000 in credit card debt, mostly from drinking and ordering food from restaurants to eat when drunk. Fun fact: My dad is a recovering alcoholic who has been sober for over 30 years, and my grandfather died in his sleep from drinking. So, yes, it's in my family for sure. During my leave I reached out to my dad and kept telling him I was slipping into heavy drinking. He has always been a good guy and very supportive, but I don't think he understood the scope of what I was doing. I eventually came back from leave to my job and still hated it. So I went on leave again and this time decided to fly out to see my parents in Maryland, with the idea that I needed some support from my family, and that I would stop drinking during my week there. Instead I showed up and drank a 12-pack each night at their house. They became very concerned. Within a week of returning from that trip I just broke down crying in the Target shopping center and called each of them, feeling suicidal. I have scheduled another flight to go see them on October 12th, this time for two weeks, and they specifically told me I can't have any alcohol in the house and I need to use the time to sober up. I really don't know what the hell is wrong with me, but I had anxiety and some before my drinking escalated, and drinking has really made them several times worse. When I was in my early 20's I went on antidepressants and they never helped me. I changed my life back then by eating healthy (vegetables, green juice), and by meditating and trying to get out. I know I have to do the same thing now, but I just can't stop drinking. Hopefully during my next trip to my parents on the 12th I can get two weeks under my belt, and really make a permanent change. I really feel like I have become someone who can either drink all the time, or not at all. It's like there's no in between for me, and the craziest part is I don't even like it when I'm drunk, and it has all happened so suddenly. I feel so depressed when I'm not drinking and just feel like a failure. Thanks for listening. I am open to all suggestions/support.",5.683612440191388,5.841181680223286,6.15599936204147,80.70726220095696,67.12599681020735,9.654507177033494,30.43610845295056,9.490545024520769,2.5269556108452944,4993,172,1000,93,75,1618,443,1254,0.12,0.765,0.115,-0.7202,11,0,36,0,2,0,151.0,1,3,7,7,65,45,5,0,54,1,88,58,2,15,14,211,191,100,2,25,33,4,9,12,3,8,12,2,0,5,44,78,50,7,30,35,13,18,27,12,1,10,64,17,150,34,169,107,42,194,1,4,6,3,54,74,2,18,107,703,194,9,0.027347771434769876,0.0324026372095237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.024242149306816476,0.26303805607851644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.021870002935907792,0.022755536618021044,0.0,0.0,0.01859742237068546,0.02867652284547405,0.041841940586913665,0.0,0.027121640697894127,0.0,0.0,0.04500977141934906,0.048690629282375136,0.0,0.0,0.025694131496551986,0.06308624446845212,0.0,0.016670947633798373,0.09061039483327,0.0232709392324466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02792513229904997,0.03127856499193762,0.055765751222340204,0.0,0.11572126397160301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0655049105467467,0.09077936678894068,0.030040242768678917,0.035274100301487935,0.02819435151263375,0.07066378639105576,0.0,0.028382669093010637,0.02857260047289537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6161793058172913,0.0,0.05596719511278584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030499994206669094,0.1806294510969032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051562090038744485,0.0,0.08296712967606212,0.05861176013202812,0.026258149280638254,0.0,0.0,0.04652400082359948,0.03306903377286334,0.0,0.021128820371423013,0.0,0.12859273653324044,0.0,0.06216947494407899,0.06881403951977266,0.021872511082850717,0.030151014552948163,0.030126653450412808,0.08123577999276671,0.024183543962364863,0.0,0.0,0.05400052493045469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054991904179336165,0.0,0.0,0.02716250768717507,0.0,0.06311131290729262,0.0,0.03087230516767533,0.0,0.0,0.054276886637302166,0.024307955805418814,0.0,0.0,0.03005923994907858,0.022292083777768115,0.03084947736349885,0.11582936497180756,0.029713433682376736,0.027964949160255215,0.05794961920219194,0.16032887680482993,0.0,0.0,0.02420191713559191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04650019461656023,0.0,0.025877122573029324,0.03650969958326868,0.02772634783240001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10914365123137372,0.029066353048120518,0.1206225520768019,0.08111210398611303,0.08436914906850126,0.07923794419935291,0.0581693303491606,0.05132806180537562,0.0,0.026240924265136027,0.0,0.0860906571914124,0.0,0.03706311538017552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06073292757552441,0.029614971442984406,0.02610654229932677,0.01895950130731678,0.02387901916412275,0.0,0.0,0.051704967173537945,0.0,0.05238321082450746,0.0,0.0,0.026168123865867927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17519682660823044,0.112472255199376,0.0,0.0,0.03097969390616397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04358526621121578,0.0,0.0,0.03089519748763473,0.0,0.02262235913491388,0.0,0.027367521668236538,0.0,0.04634335597961567,0.0,0.02704764522969231,0.0,0.13549825365816046,0.0,0.021839965594363724,0.09145584588644486,0.0,0.0,0.03130665539582065,0.02991402322672157,0.09310178081526918,0.02577495092968983,0.0,0.020562120646798403,0.0,0.023903157635808223,0.025178153648167004,0.0,0.0,0.0181686441560714,0.12266343376551947,0.026869046582441717,0.0868443029739788,0.1913604653827975,0.0,0.0,0.10452787027568207,0.0,0.03713468329868976,0.059493044421544926,0.1068591956206439,0.0,0.0,0.094478775556699,0.0,0.11282387762002825,0.04839127244565832,0.02170738803093956,0.08774693061131549,0.0,0.024588930855173524,0.10140663242251748,0.0,0.09159843048509594,0.0,0.02636227575561869,0.0,0.05972850994469477,0.0,0.02786971547750766,0.11656243308819535,0.02990049493883795,0.0,0.0704442726883399 alcoholism,ErgonomicEntity,2019/10/09,"I'm struggling I'm a struggling alcoholic. I recently relapsed in May after a solid year sober. I talked my family into allowing it as long as I could contain myself and limit it. By August, I was back to blacking out in my car in the driveway 7 nights a week after work. My wife and son would be asleep inside and I'd wake up at 4 AM and stumble in. It was tearing my relationship apart, I started becoming distant and struggled to do my job. I got another month in and relapsed again last week, then again on Monday. Monday was my breaking point. I apparently left at 11 PM to go the store and didn't come back. My family found me parked on the side of the road near my house passed out. I had stopped at the liqour store on my way out and was hammered by the time I started to head back home. Chugged 4 large beers and downed a handful of dollar shots. I'm two days sober and my wife is still by my side throughout this as long as I stick to sobriety this time. I need advice on how to cope. I'm currently on 250mg of Antabuse once daily but it doesn't do anything for cravings. I hate NA and AA but go therapy once a week and a harm reduction group 2-3 times a week. Does anyone have any advice or something they do to stay occupied? I'm working hard, but my depression and anxiety feel unmanageable when I'm sober, but I don't want to lose my wife or have my son grow up the way I did",3.888441016333939,4.340573306896552,5.132976406533576,85.4470326678766,71.10344827586206,8.450090744101635,28.71143375680581,8.532816995589336,1.883172413793104,1089,39,237,17,19,363,156,290,0.098,0.887,0.015,-0.9666,3,0,3,0,1,0,23.0,0,0,1,4,8,7,1,3,14,0,20,6,4,2,0,36,37,26,0,4,6,5,3,0,0,2,1,0,2,0,6,18,2,3,2,1,3,6,3,7,1,1,9,4,31,0,42,24,0,69,0,2,1,0,9,27,0,3,32,142,37,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2130537911671721,0.0,0.1165024588927316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07413303309785442,0.11431033693066313,0.08339515833381055,0.0,0.0,0.07622489199701574,0.0,0.08970896094764777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25147434714237343,0.0,0.0,0.12039703254383274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0939056230373894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08703854410290843,0.0,0.0,0.07030479797214123,0.0,0.0938933132942332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09539859629465758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20553677016348296,0.0,0.055120586495940975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11952786118903773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12390996052685145,0.0,0.08718818961675255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09765483487800568,0.1076284288805815,0.11187947474750344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10934959834955926,0.0,0.0,0.12578713746858158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10817924530966357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0888606900234915,0.0,0.0,0.1184436702421008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1929473330532565,0.0,0.12195841089545732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08701367047413988,0.0,0.0,0.08083225419073893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10230194348504172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2321919991390843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10305315345317093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10763784654315596,0.11703988318431716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08392404825410868,0.0,0.0,0.15432087189175422,0.11619406632953727,0.08705845681146901,0.09114030851903213,0.0,0.34189426845447163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08762105770672624,0.0,0.0,0.12466663103582125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1907002410211013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10649051422096774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06429908637080754,0.17305995242676184,0.3497767583908473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587264986282929,0.0,0.0,0.07744018263981185,0.0,0.0,0.0702012286255144 alcoholism,BaronVonUnderpants,2019/10/09,"I love that morning feeling... Oh man I love that feeling when I wake up in the morning without a dry mouth, no horrible pulsating anxiety and a clear head. The neutral confident feeling I have is the best thing. The knowledge that I didn’t make my troubles worse by masking my stresses with the demon drink. My guts feel better, I’m not overheating, I’m not dehydrated and morning glory beckons! My life is still not perfect, but it’s a hell of a lot better than it used to be when I was a slave to that horrible sneaky body and brain poisoning petrol drink.",5.498191349934468,6.196104559633027,6.071847968545217,79.26486238532111,67.62385321100918,9.164351245085193,35.75491480996068,9.23628265651192,3.2765245085190053,443,22,83,8,7,144,71,109,0.24100000000000002,0.573,0.18600000000000005,-0.8989,0,0,2,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,4,3,11,2,1,10,0,6,12,6,2,2,19,16,6,0,0,5,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,7,4,2,0,5,2,0,0,6,4,0,0,2,4,10,7,9,13,2,5,2,0,0,2,3,2,1,1,3,55,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14914645648428226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2046020450922208,0.3448585423837673,0.0,0.21656037025363706,0.0,0.2176436167946123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38197978945862016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3943173833808506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20008868074956065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.137708405129495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16575089863443213,0.3519241350924513,0.0,0.13013957392438086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15569801172925282,0.0,0.22332989969972056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12952501040783068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16838576783963252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18793774660832727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1986843462989597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Happygilmar,2019/10/09,"Day 3 Feeling optimistic, physically feeling exhausted though.",13.77375,19.454798875,12.605000000000004,18.940000000000023,60.25,18.2,70.5,13.023866798666859,14.59885,53,5,3,3,1,17,7,8,0.231,0.278,0.491,0.2023,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4159578109400436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6522410748031237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6336881566335552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,bangbang49,2019/10/09,"How much is too much ? I come from a family of alcoholics. I've started drinking recently. I want to continue drinking occasionally, without getting addicted. And also, without it causing any major problems to my health. How much alcohol (in ml) should I drink ? And how many times in a month should I drink ? Just want to know people's experiences.",3.3361290322580643,6.461466725806452,4.942177419354842,73.43326612903226,83.35483870967742,8.261290322580646,31.94354838709677,8.841846274778883,3.7875741935483873,275,15,43,8,8,92,44,62,0.057,0.897,0.046,-0.3899,0,0,6,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,2,0,3,8,0,4,0,16,9,6,0,5,3,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,1,3,6,0,1,4,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,9,7,4,8,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,5,31,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16739793807347111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32820782420104083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12279811460152115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10442286680349422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15774358757585205,0.0,0.13227429064704296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6017029232278306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15020654427809596,0.1447582668422005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08022630431285267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16322209890361294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08438997477318716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15568096852033494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12256637213279245,0.0,0.3386424322132868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10645590771736843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14693168001873738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15161732958847776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10868722873702398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08953932786056495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811417839284262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29604365110351505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ck106194,2019/10/09,10 days down How do you get the badge on here?,-0.9436363636363652,0.21806009090909484,0.5,111.07000000000002,84.45454545454545,4.4,11.0,3.1291,-2.3058,35,0,11,0,1,11,11,11,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,7,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7770192462634831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6294768390783959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,todorothelost,2019/10/09,"Anyone else drink to stop the suicidal thoughts I had multiple attempts and multiple times when I just gave up because I got shit face drunk. When I have a bad day I get suicidal and I figured out that when I put a little something in me juice I get way better and happy. I am seeing therapy but she insists nothing is wrong.",3.7650769230769257,5.261736892307695,5.092307692307696,81.70769230769233,72.38461538461539,8.276923076923078,31.461538461538463,8.841846274778883,2.7164461538461544,258,12,49,5,5,86,49,65,0.20199999999999999,0.682,0.11599999999999999,-0.5746,0,0,2,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,4,5,1,0,3,0,4,4,2,0,0,9,10,7,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,1,2,2,0,1,0,3,0,0,4,1,11,2,4,6,0,12,0,0,1,0,2,4,1,0,6,31,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14537716316520885,0.21303079280381326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17359814427472267,0.12674145085519664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1838815952656284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1340862783576416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20367496933486465,0.0,0.0,0.17368410623252464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21725126390430016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16628651528282973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22132658376335115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2083828150756205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19949752624751715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2090093574275107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16567924022267605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21341905981523449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16006109994882098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17382405084965608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4548447740288303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377659146051796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650591975814772,0.12123537481541985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16503116162036435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22731953774203906,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Anonymous3687,2019/10/09,"Please read this. I cant do this anymore. BACKSTORY- My mom drinks, majority of my childhood. I just had a ptsd like attack and was in the bathroom for an hour. She asked if I was okay her words were slurred. She was clearly drunk. I had an agreement with her to not drink around me and to drink when I’m at my fathers. I’m currently sick so I can’t go to my dads (and it’s not the weekend I’m supposed to go over on weekends) but she drank anyways. For the past previous Times i understood because our cat had just passed. But enough is enough. I got her a dui before because o was scared, she wasn’t home and I called the cops. She usually is home by 10:40 and it was like 12. My mom finally answered and then the phone was being grabbed from her and passed around to multiple men saying they were taking care of my mother. Then they weren’t giving her the phone back so I hung up and re dialed. Once I got a hold of my mom she said she was with a biker “gang”. And that she wanted to bring them all home. I said wtf no r u crazy my friends over. Basically after we hung up I couldn’t get a hold of her and I was scared. I called the cops. I called my grandparents ahead of time to see if it was the right thing to do, after failed attempts of them trying to call her and receiving no answer they said yes. The cops got there and an hour later she came pulling up, she stepped out of the car and couldn’t even stand. I ended up getting upset and I went inside. The cop came to my door and said she was getting arrested. First word out of her mouth once I was gonna was “is my dog okay??” Not even an ounce of her considered my well being. The cop told me that, why would he lie. My grandfather was outside with them and kind of confirmed that she said that. Anyways, she kicked me out and told me that I was a bitch and that I should never come back and she started hitting me and punching me WHILE MY FRIEND WAS OVER. She hadn’t hit me since thanksgiving of last year. (This all happened like 4-5 months ago) I begged my friend to not call the cops for physical abuse. She did anyways. On my way home to grab my stuff and go to my dads I saw my mom half way down the road with cops around her. (She had gotten out of jail like an hour before, sorry for the bad format I’m anxious) they started screaming in my face asking if she hit me and kicked me and I said yes. She wasn’t taken to jail and the cops told me to go to my dads. Services got involved and 1-2 weeks later I was back with her) CURRENT SITUATION- My mom won’t stop drinking. So yeah I was in the bathroom she asked if I was okay and I explained I get ptsd like symptoms. I called my grandma and told her she broke our agreement for her to drink when I wasn’t home, I excused the past times because the cat passed away. I said so what happened to the agreement? And she didn’t answer so once I called my grandma she said something and hell broke loose. She started screaming “SO FUCKING RIDICULOUS” then she opened my door and screamed GO TO BED EVERY NIGHT BY 11 (I have problems sleeping she knows this) I didn’t respond because I’m sick and I’m so emotionally drained, I feel numb. She kept walking past my door saying “YOU DESTROY EVERY BIT PF HAPPINESS I HAVE” “YOU SHOULD DROP OUT OF HS GET A JOB AND SHUT THE FUCK UP” “FUCK YOU NASTY BITCH” then she came in and called me nasty so I said the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree. She told me to sleep at my grandmas house and I said there’s no room and she said “ I DONT GIVE A FUCK IF YOU SLEEP ON THE FLOOR” I didn’t answer, I really can’t answer because I’ll scream and I can’t scream because my throat hurts. So my mom just kept yelling saying every rude thing she could think of. She called my grandma and said “SHES SLEEPING OVER YOUR HOUSE” I go I’m not her responsibility. She said “I DONT CARE WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS WHY CANT YOU BE NORMAL” I said stop ur making yourself look ignorant. And she left again. She left the house with her keys and her purse, and of course her car. I checked if she was at my grandma house and she was so I was relieved. Anyways she was just on the phone and was like “EVERYONE THINKS I SHOULD HATE HER FOR GETTING A DUI EVERY SINGLE PERSON THINKS I SHOULD DISOWN HER” and I broke down then. I self harm every time she says something like that. I cant stop when she says everyone. Because I feel like I’m the problem and I should just kill myself. It’s hard for me not to think about it. Everyone’s saying it’s my fault apparently so why don’t I just to the least and kill myself? No I’m not calling a hotline. No I’m not moving in with anyone else. I don’t know what to do. I need her to stop I want to live here. My moms a whole different person when she’s sober. She’s kind, caring, optimistic, she’s everything to me. But when she’s drinking she turns into a monster, it’s like everything good taken out of her. It’s hate, vengefulness, anger, and evil. It scares me, what’s it gonna take for her to stop, her killing me? Me killing myself? I don’t know. She’s getting therapy for the dui, ofc she’s not telling them everything. But I feel helpless, I feel worthless, I feel most importantly hopeless.",0.20726402708679004,2.528112111007463,1.541403814262022,98.15481232725264,89.27052238805972,4.444953012714207,18.948203427307906,5.996032778346146,-0.28786784964068524,4021,118,912,34,135,1275,360,1072,0.223,0.685,0.091,-0.9996,7,0,8,0,4,4,105.0,3,7,8,4,40,71,19,4,46,6,73,23,7,1,4,146,179,78,4,21,25,12,8,10,3,9,4,26,10,4,28,69,8,10,19,10,1,23,38,43,1,2,73,37,205,28,101,88,10,124,1,8,3,4,159,43,7,7,64,575,233,4,0.0,0.039920102134455945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02986636766720968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03806293392712076,0.033413905779117466,0.023558578842480103,0.034521947043644995,0.0,0.08998040258457954,0.09449381584578197,0.03833008186698316,0.031655212104063614,0.07772235655311599,0.028131829509953105,0.14377044360347796,0.0,0.05733967052848051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0367834828646838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3440380874827737,0.11560572996173005,0.10305524531871302,0.0,0.0,0.02902310473808433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02690071904153473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03520149059934353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07897471630846335,0.19803493418820967,0.0,0.0,0.028145759769123386,0.03789952673323554,0.029841553843087787,0.06962671652879396,0.0,0.044507155943218885,0.0,0.14193691868146152,0.09658388058787253,0.09084193737530752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08517969975340925,0.024069928173038654,0.0,0.03690848601638495,0.0,0.0286588226225569,0.0,0.0,0.07809222395267297,0.12459269045139836,0.1232205816415302,0.06464183068637848,0.11488934249541664,0.02825966981381382,0.10778787797035053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059588331573638686,0.03586629192647167,0.030181861417566107,0.066528735195183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16898161916795376,0.0,0.09954097467621112,0.15550648182168525,0.036068517257142815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033434606635421436,0.0,0.14910303370026598,0.07017110638704911,0.05554954930483145,0.027463883740203518,0.0,0.0,0.07321399796540194,0.0,0.0,0.16460453243782686,0.0,0.029751094084224657,0.0,0.028293213669910288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.022490004854203858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27622173512224424,0.02689303143019033,0.035809794581043684,0.0,0.024982561253644942,0.025985732473202728,0.0,0.0,0.031618128123102565,0.033011495638187366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10764423618715027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09648990866647472,0.0,0.05883798147283105,0.0,0.03698424647315462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0644783429594123,0.0787694571591082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033701616886254324,0.0,0.021584277744459344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0287732102390294,0.4486899516469793,0.1607617661737683,0.10119620826208917,0.0,0.02684855969374292,0.0,0.03514862474486197,0.0,0.0,0.02787078352136941,0.03787178078081307,0.13486732614983934,0.0,0.0,0.05187626392837474,0.0,0.03771599442841606,0.07154317308139642,0.0,0.0,0.1408421899802522,0.0,0.0,0.03856985074418723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035019407314490915,0.05066513265654424,0.0,0.02944872937308337,0.0,0.03853030918559723,0.0,0.04476759873988157,0.08635517222024795,0.0,0.0,0.07858546896642744,0.0,0.0,0.16097313431312088,0.0,0.02287499533492695,0.036647764103900665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03710752784760516,0.0,0.039745417962033,0.053487075244151805,0.027026090572028955,0.0,0.030293603102993567,0.031233284325297938,0.1216089600429954,0.03761647214778913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.023934184759061283,0.0,0.0,0.0216968648440709 alcoholism,TreeBread4949,2019/10/09,"Can going cold-turkey cause manic anxiety? Nobody in my family is bipolar, but after I quit drinking my anxiety exploded and bordered on manic paranoia for weeks. I was pickling my brain with 6+ most nights for 3+ years. I've never had such an episode before or after, now sober for nearly two years, but when people ask about that behavior they don't believe alcohol can do that?",7.373767123287671,7.1444759315068485,8.015171232876714,70.10303082191783,63.65753424657535,10.587671232876714,34.688356164383556,10.125756701596842,3.659139726027398,305,12,50,6,4,102,58,73,0.09,0.91,0.0,-0.644,0,0,2,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,0,1,0,7,4,1,1,1,8,9,5,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,0,6,0,10,7,1,13,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,2,9,36,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2579321960362145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3692676795368405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256318091877145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.205373020717303,0.27192137973751845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2694289734876183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2479352834023109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2364333585394641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2275254573951544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13716606727965552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18614576346135767,0.0,0.0,0.22649277270761325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16732328746526182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2567078670099445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2357661155918623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19359824734954206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31084592095161306 alcoholism,Rakkumbo,2019/10/09,"Help Me Quit Alcohol Please I have been drinking alcohol since I was 16 and now it has been 9 years of alcoholism. My relationships with family is deteriorating due to heavy drinking. I feel depressed without alcohol. Please help me quit. I don't want to ruin my life, I want to be sober for life.",2.8210526315789486,5.429391719298248,4.67640350877193,78.45565789473683,79.17543859649123,8.712280701754386,27.043859649122812,9.2995712137729,2.783575438596492,236,10,45,7,6,80,40,57,0.133,0.696,0.172,0.522,0,0,6,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,8,8,0,0,0,6,11,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,1,2,6,0,1,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,1,9,0,7,7,0,3,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,27,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6619128653835452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1333645500567589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30337097157335663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14597055909121884,0.0,0.07829239334498304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2075736648770879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2187379218003259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33993841030510674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3293854788783199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16624156515446736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1280862900787925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18265877349606974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1492614487920492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09971269455296147 alcoholism,ryan0302,2019/10/09,"Curious about degree of alcoholism Im in the navy and alcoholism is a big deal to them. I got to my first boat and went from just drinking socially, to a few beers every night and ultimately now I drink every day at least a 1/3 of a handle everyday. I dont know where to turn from here and it's been two years. I know it's a problem, but I also dont want to get booted out. If anyone has any advice it'd be much appreciated.",3.2336231884057973,3.4881835217391317,5.653043478260872,81.84340579710147,72.47826086956522,9.1768115942029,25.11594202898551,9.2995712137729,1.7640594202898554,332,9,75,7,6,119,66,92,0.039,0.8859999999999999,0.075,0.6016,0,0,5,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,1,6,1,0,0,6,0,7,5,0,0,0,12,14,7,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,5,5,0,2,3,0,1,2,1,0,2,3,0,7,0,13,9,3,12,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,1,6,51,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1729834687418149,0.0,0.3783645312446454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14156411774166186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12038076528341594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12377762582753485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11416429396340536,0.18250150715028304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41493601759364895,0.3468275703814087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29829668298985845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15057449122678482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09248648504561313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14158035292965804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1912137161050111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19457289493041374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13013125188370667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16612278942444236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16938577369570676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18045123876846247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1925486788909733,0.17292439094489995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10441193218312142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1641008061832116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11399611310413328 alcoholism,straighttothedomeboi,2019/10/09,"Iv (23M)been a heavy drinker ever since I turned 19 and not sure what to do or where to go. Everyone says I'm too young to be an alcoholic. So basically since I turned legal age to drink(19), I have been drinking quite heavily. I am able to do a week here and there without, but whenever I do that , the next weekend/week is twice as bad. Everyone says I'm too young to have a drinking problem. But I basically lost interest in life....my degree which I'm almost done...finding a job before i graduate ...not interested in finding a girlfriend .... or ever having kids (something I used to always want) not sure if everyone is right and maybe it's just a phase ? Im not part of a party house or frat or anything, I usually drink alone. Not sure why I'm even posting this to be honest.",4.606153846153847,5.068152435897439,5.924769230769233,80.3702307692308,69.51282051282051,9.316923076923075,32.266666666666666,9.3871,2.8051789743589755,604,26,123,12,10,204,97,156,0.147,0.768,0.085,-0.8296,1,1,7,0,0,0,33.0,0,0,0,2,10,9,0,0,9,0,12,5,0,1,5,27,22,12,0,3,14,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,1,5,3,4,0,1,3,0,1,6,3,0,1,2,2,9,6,13,18,1,14,0,1,0,0,4,4,0,6,8,75,14,4,0.1144135886328482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12227333085433625,0.11456868200716105,0.11849797249068672,0.0,0.0,0.09520127122401784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09415263477528887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09553056744963838,0.0,0.0,0.09735753696756604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11708482472091615,0.0,0.4483270366083156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0755690962317426,0.2069872824399574,0.0,0.3279812610759333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20914389446699724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06502387908223238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13201791981984776,0.0,0.0,0.12358630919385905,0.0,0.1135378324117598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08081370126318159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1248959474982009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11494382801323068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12168014950489728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12389876696655512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1095765910732132,0.0,0.0,0.10947835242897644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12169293495803385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09770857954722496,0.0,0.18197255581206326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18928820566898769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08808117027176429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32350035977176833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488982594869959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09881660546694486,0.12601040364903338,0.0,0.06748409892951877,0.0,0.1835513589599848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10324046784583897,0.0,0.0,0.1102906165836341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,cadiluv,2019/10/09,"1st day Today I finally made the decision to quit drinking. I’ve tried before and I had nightmares every night and all night. But I’ve decided that I’m tired of not feeling in control. Tired of running from my own feelings and drowning them out. Tired of looking forward to drinking period. My daughter said to me before she went to bed that she was happy, and I asked why? She said there is no beer in the fridge. I’m ready for this, I’m really motivated. I know I will have rough days ahead of me, but my kids give me motivation. I need to lead by example. So here I am 31 years old, been drinking since I was 17. Finally saying bye to alcohol and my old life. Looking forward to this new journey.",2.2652045826513927,4.281776546099295,4.038581560283692,85.42615384615388,77.86524822695036,7.175340971085652,27.1582105837425,8.139509932561175,1.875427277686852,547,23,110,10,13,184,89,141,0.063,0.8690000000000001,0.068,0.4042,0,0,5,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,1,6,3,1,0,0,2,0,8,9,0,5,1,21,23,8,1,1,3,1,3,0,0,1,5,3,1,1,4,6,5,1,7,4,0,6,2,0,0,0,8,8,19,1,18,14,2,22,0,0,2,0,12,5,0,0,16,65,23,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1370595796963446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11989585406023527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21826154573219775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14384258032190672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1654204752806169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3769066899627869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1080556305341645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12969347582106716,0.0,0.0,0.2809818450062469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12302848755958712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13652384541808074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07048250297599991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09058632697290928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21539435062706533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12135266040349513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09509528717751342,0.0,0.12386404640312496,0.0,0.24070670283601694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2691522922504017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13640899778245644,0.0,0.0,0.08215983420551427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24398905055826745,0.10198905125756004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1060892090253654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44221137400679106,0.1215654125339945,0.0,0.0,0.08707290771644892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11888845632181907,0.11572511382274868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08258839324961477 alcoholism,singer1121,2019/10/09,"I drank last night I drank again last night. I had been 5 months sober but I've been so stressed lately. Drinking always made me feel better but friends started telling me they were worried. I had been drinking every day and night for a while, so I knew they had a reason to worry. So I tried to quit. I really did. For 5 months I stopped drinking and every day all I could think about was drinking my problems away. I've been so good but last night I was too weak. I don't want to be in an endless loop of stopping and then relapsing months or even weeks later like I have been. I'm just so lost.",1.077698511166254,3.2415812983870964,1.9283870967741947,98.22604218362284,82.79032258064517,4.460545905707196,20.828784119106697,5.369823440869387,-0.27266923076923044,467,14,105,2,13,145,74,124,0.20600000000000002,0.6729999999999999,0.121,-0.8567,0,0,4,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,2,3,10,8,0,1,3,0,16,7,0,2,1,19,26,14,0,3,5,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,6,2,4,4,0,0,1,4,0,0,17,1,17,4,9,7,1,23,0,1,0,0,4,2,0,1,22,64,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10008158626543473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130058798899564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10637681290760637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0960328243882118,0.0,0.0,0.15513973462894226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4713096832904686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07944300455527988,0.0,0.20268013155923498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0608165687707437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09292709260984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10088414009709692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2941297948395761,0.13567971091279366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0587621398993047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13129850455810818,0.0,0.0,0.1138106966479039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2880161411984457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4514939754348898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1150905553250012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12793129557311803,0.0,0.0,0.07705367098104883,0.12366662562343105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08513394463661159,0.0,0.0,0.20111690361794984,0.13777894433361107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1051289614963372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07706979017955398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0816614011873965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07094354499392287,0.0,0.0964803879701608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442978937024984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,mothertrucker231,2019/10/09,"Shaking from quitting, I don’t want too but I have to drink. This shit is tough",-1.41901960784314,0.42207376470588187,-0.19176470588235264,106.53039215686277,105.47058823529413,2.266666666666667,17.43137254901961,3.1291,-1.2869450980392156,62,2,15,0,3,19,16,17,0.418,0.522,0.06,-0.7814,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,1,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,2,4,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5241893175623062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5691393230298232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5492672550027814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3156128529011893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,drd1170,2019/10/09,"Getting family involved Not sure if this is the right forum to post but here goes. Husband and I are new parents to a beautiful girl, and he has not changed his behavior- I don’t know that he’s an alcoholic, but more that he likes anything that alters his mind. It’s always been alcohol (not everyday, but almost), and he had a brief stint with pseudoephedrine. He knows that I wanted him to cut back/quit drinking when I was pregnant and especially when I had her, and he did cut back for a while, only to find out he’s been picking up alcohol on the way home from work and drinking it in the car, like an idiot, and thinking I wouldn’t know, like an idiot. I’m at my wits’ end. Us being new parents is hard enough but I found out he’s been drinking and driving behind my back again and don’t know what to do. I do think he has underlying psych/depression (he was terribly mentally and abused by his father growing up, and I mean, completely f*cked- like being locked in his room for a week without proper food or hygiene available bc he was being “bad”) plus the adjustment of being a new father and feeling unconfident in this new role has put him in a tailspin I think, but he won’t admit. Yes, I’ve tried talking to him- but we’re fighting nonstop- he continues to drink behind my back, and I get upset for him lying, and it keeps going. He is definitely not one to open up or communicate his feelings. It’s like Jekyll and Hyde. When he’s sober, I’m completely crazy about him- he’s funny, sweet, thoughtful and there’s truly no one else I want to be with- we have a lot of fun together. When he drinks, he loves to provoke fights, is verbally abusive, and his ADHD is through the roof (tho sometimes I do wonder if he’s bipolar as well). He’s a good guy- but he has a lot of personal issues from the past- a lot of pain, humiliation and anger, that have never been resolved and he denies. He was the problem child growing up in his family with his terrible ADHD, which made him very difficult to manage. He partied a lot, used everything in his teen years and early 20s, and his siblings actually credit me for saving his life. His family lives in Europe, and he is close to all of them- they make him very happy and I think another contributor to his behavior/depression is that he has not been able to make meaningful friends since being in the U.S., and makes him more homesick and feel more isolated. His family was here recently and it was the happiest I had seen him in a very long time. Anyway, I’m close with his sister and I’ve opened up to her with what’s been going on and she wants to speak to him to try to help him- they are the closest out of everyone in the family. I’m pretty sure he is going to really act out for getting his family involved in our relationship, but To me, it’s about his well-being, and therefore our family’s well-being at the end. I don’t know how else I can help him but having his family intervene. Is it wrong to ask them to help? I don’t know what else to do and how to help him.",4.375573031016728,5.126932090016371,5.594782643407452,81.49363977485929,70.1620294599018,8.972432238234004,27.99572871342461,9.18016646516576,2.192072420262664,2381,80,482,46,41,796,267,611,0.14400000000000002,0.6990000000000001,0.158,0.8713,2,0,8,0,4,0,78.0,4,0,4,2,18,33,7,1,27,1,52,13,0,10,4,113,92,53,0,7,19,6,4,5,1,2,6,1,3,4,19,45,9,1,22,5,1,10,14,16,1,2,20,7,65,17,77,64,9,69,0,1,1,1,95,32,0,10,30,318,84,3,0.05992223987220191,0.14199611138276672,0.05847546222824914,0.0,0.14402977534077527,0.0,0.0,0.192115952719704,0.06000346748239412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049860103844224096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06283369322234626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049310897709093485,0.0,0.05601920537272013,0.0,0.0,0.18430601473038674,0.05003256733965701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06338978437932764,0.0,0.12565465687536284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10322187479401858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2935049121989086,0.0,0.0,0.15017202707803798,0.0,0.10614663732737653,0.061915692012380265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05725826810906405,0.0538542453888033,0.0,0.4519148384698672,0.0,0.09089545482371976,0.042808460137730715,0.0,0.0,0.054767841660286136,0.0,0.0724582103081387,0.06570164311588662,0.04629577388172031,0.0,0.0939206914019432,0.0,0.1021655694837963,0.05025993181338846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05933243843461219,0.0,0.06378833859348175,0.05367855699809013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16065845711892354,0.0,0.0601068923526191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0625432501399051,0.0,0.05326164005902466,0.0,0.0,0.19759017559083805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04232485013290229,0.14637489806154552,0.0,0.05291243563348052,0.053029296643977014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20377498199908006,0.054082161005105406,0.05669987222622413,0.11999568125553915,0.0,0.0,0.06527288602739613,0.0,0.0,0.060387523929948464,0.0,0.06050438036050081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046215725478353176,0.23149309067073434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08120972107432205,0.04557356362235278,0.06376148805606452,0.0,0.13307311211818545,0.0,0.057202558300787874,0.0,0.05232178854786858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057388941760560565,0.060962460384126275,0.0,0.05733749088243484,0.0,0.06023840170527121,0.0,0.06373467807838691,0.0,0.0,0.03838772125877719,0.0,0.05916598280091704,0.06433406035049437,0.0,0.051173265441304266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049568296041626415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0592646274413138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.112952003857941,0.0,0.0,0.04816322659517155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1535830070244314,0.0,0.04757156507938254,0.034941139951369105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08136653494819082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0720790765354631,0.05175357583746828,0.0,0.14832637037759802,0.10603106882497657,0.0475634848598723,0.048066006371690194,0.0,0.16163187005044824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057762900906686225,0.06498311302978495,0.04362410429739543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06551556254944559,0.0,0.03858795784989185 alcoholism,blondeboredaq,2018/12/28,"How do I begin to forgive my alcoholic & abusive father? Hello, my father has recently begun his road to sobriety. Growing up he was a severe alcoholic & was extremely abusive to my sister, my mom & I. He lost his job & his marriage and his relationships with his children on top of it. Long story short I have severe damage from the abuse endured and have been seeing a therapist to try and facilitate my emotions and pain. I am 22 and recently graduated college and began my career. I am financially supporting myself and my mom and it’s really hard. My dad has begun to say sorry somewhat but he is playing such a victim card it’s very hard to take him seriously. He wants to blame my mom for giving up on the marriage (30 years). Though she stayed and tried to help him for years- all while suffering at his abusive hands. I don’t know where to start on my road to forgiveness or healing that relationship. Any advice helps please. I’m not heartless, I know he’s a sick man. I just have so much anger and pain but want to try. Thank you for reading. 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Ever since my last 2 binges, I’ve had a tight, uncomfortable feeling in my right upper quadrant, under my ribs. Last week when I started feeling it, I want to urgent care 2 days after drinking. All my bloodwork came back normal. I drank a couple days later and on Christmas, I must have had a whole 12 pack or maybe more, I’m not even sure. The pain is back and I also got sinus headaches and what not. It’s uncomfortable wearing a bra with a wire as I feel as if it’s pressing on something though it’s hard to pinpoint what exactly. I’m worried it’s my liver and I don’t know what to do. I’ve been a heavy drinker for a few years except when I was pregnant and a few months after having my baby. I’ve been able to hide it pretty well, I still show up to work even if I’m hungover and a lot of the people in my life seem to enjoy drinking as well. It seems it takes more and more to get me drunk and then I can’t stop. I just love drinking, and it scares me to imagine my life without it. But what’s scarier, is my child losing her mother. I’ve read online how much worse alcohol is on women and kills them faster and I’m worried I’ve done irreparable damage. Would love to hear some input. Before anyone asks or accuses, I do take care of my child. 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As the title says, I’m the life of the party but need to quit. I’ve blacked out every time I’ve gone out recently. I live walking distance to bars/clubs. Everyone suddenly wants to go out because of the holidays and it’s been a constant cycle of blacking out>days to recover>a few sober days>blacking out again. It’s honestly been nonstop since November. I’m exhausted, my body is hurting and I’m honestly extremely embarrassed of my black out actions. I’m falling behind on my work out routine, missing days with my kids and have been unproductive. I don’t know what to do because everyone always invites me out because I’m “fun”. I didn’t really have friends until this year and am extremely grateful I have people to go out with but at some point this needs to stop. I lost my boyfriend last year because of being blacked out. I don’t want to wake up one day in jail. 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I’m drinking now. I feel like there’s no use in trying to quit until I’m in a position to separate myself from my triggers and work on my issues. As it stands, I’m horribly depressed. I drink to avoid feeling. I’m desperate to move because I’m in a position where I feel pigeonholed and not allowed to make my own decisions or be independent. The problem is I don’t know where I want to move as I don’t have a job or housing lined up. I have few marketable skills, so I’ll be starting from scratch regardless of how I choose to proceed. My only selling point is I show up to work every day and do my job, so I guess I’m a functioning alcoholic, at least? How in the hell do I start fixing my life?",2.873542914171658,3.726507407185629,4.6758233532934135,86.32634980039921,73.73053892215569,8.201397205588822,28.88672654690619,8.59863814320734,2.005040319361277,615,25,136,11,12,210,96,167,0.151,0.785,0.065,-0.9399,3,1,3,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,4,11,7,1,2,7,0,10,4,0,7,0,26,28,12,0,4,4,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,3,1,6,3,1,2,4,5,0,0,0,4,19,2,23,26,3,22,1,1,0,0,0,11,1,3,8,82,21,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1779443472493072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10150055262172117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10738263812239236,0.0,0.1434114310033622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32622511109360924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14028854228659962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525714103523816,0.1189519671029672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13965738866636287,0.0,0.0,0.18342520419538166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19212564508887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17378907368353236,0.3304631571815129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.091507379581554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1176081588650644,0.08134645349492889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11114409226029284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3539391955261137,0.0,0.12346213844211387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12663536654505936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15740205226132994,0.0,0.1594667850796975,0.0,0.0,0.15932381840576113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17709969724924507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2357077015945745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17406829294028445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11304668933780407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14380778076746273,0.0,0.0,0.09820959198393364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2424367988283015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,FijiMcIntosh23,2018/12/28,"So... how do you know if it’s a problem? Hey guys, This is my first time visiting this subreddit and I’m guessing you guys might get this question pretty often. So, I’m a 26 year old male and I had my first sip of alcohol when I was 16. I still didn’t really drink until my college days (18 or 19). I drank pretty heavy on the weekends (every weekend) but it was college so it felt completely normal to me. I graduated when I was 22 and I now have the typical 9-5 with a wife and a 2 year old daughter. These past 4 years since I graduated, I never stopped drinking but the way I drink has definitely changed. I’m not getting hammered on the weekends but I’ll end my night with 3-5 drinks probably 4-6 nights a week. A few times a month I’ll get “pretty drunk”, but nothing like I used to. I guess it’s just kind of a fuzzy line between being an alcoholic and just enjoying alcohol. When I think of alcoholics I think about people who drink all day or who cant stop once they start. I also don’t think I drink to escape anything, but I do have minor problems just like anyone else, so maybe? Either way, I still feel I drink more than the average person. I can honestly say I don’t think I’ve gone more than 2 full weeks without a drink since I was in college, and that sounds bad. Its not like I’ve tried to quit and couldn’t, I just never tried to stop (I’m not sure which one is worse lol) So I guess I’d just like to hear you guys’ opinion on this and whether or not you think I should try to cut back or either drop it completely ",2.33033846153846,3.47064381846154,3.9667692307692337,89.7772307692308,75.43076923076923,7.292307692307693,24.69230769230769,7.839951260653429,1.100569230769231,1191,38,271,17,25,399,172,325,0.11599999999999999,0.79,0.094,-0.7783,0,0,12,0,0,0,35.0,0,4,1,3,21,12,1,0,15,1,21,14,0,2,4,62,44,30,0,6,23,2,2,4,0,2,4,3,0,5,15,10,14,3,9,12,0,2,12,4,0,3,9,5,35,8,22,31,7,45,0,0,0,0,19,5,0,12,39,163,50,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30039095107893804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0561952514776983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049134730761252216,0.07200037764099425,0.057826590862299077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054033636591600334,0.05867288846390707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07433681592612244,0.0,0.1473544545049768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09063725061678364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5507062904895005,0.0,0.0,0.05870194197933101,0.0,0.06223875911112351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05920588275825878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03553084964667984,0.0,0.06747064947767738,0.0,0.0,0.11954401349156908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11014022553888447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2322324608444972,0.2087363727869116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07919990143300948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0731758575633987,0.03861880021500854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13732236460428182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07059610950379977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07454584005071217,0.0,0.0,0.05608920077528703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10839380229527726,0.0,0.0,0.1318881094560858,0.06885011872124594,0.06742638958065351,0.0,0.14747402777919572,0.07483573320813937,0.04761707383944296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06708109340557529,0.04871668042198147,0.06135744429944475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21447092336803408,0.07576342755326182,0.13447865605244996,0.0,0.0,0.07871898334735236,0.07474127067655396,0.0,0.0,0.04501704804611429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05588188030120251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1162568806534568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049737784420474496,0.0,0.11223614029099854,0.17624772183693335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06622906515211822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2251323268082992,0.0,0.0,0.08195052607438318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14312706353744722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06069110469798548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1115548208107264,0.11273342867281926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06773820378318708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07161158937473347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13575559284854635 alcoholism,obviousthrowawaylala,2018/12/28,"Relationships and alcohol Hi everyone. I’m on mobile etc My boyfriend and I have been together for over seven years. While I don’t drink, he’s had trouble with alcoholism since we were teenagers. Occasionally he is able to go months without drinking but lately he’s been drinking most of the week. He lost his job a couple months and It’s been really hard on our relationship. Blackout fights, drunk driving and delirious yelling. He tells me often that he doesn’t want to drink but why doesn’t he stop? I just don’t understand what I can do differently to help him. Am I wasting my time? ",2.6314635806671203,5.407469300884955,3.5681415929203566,84.96275017018381,81.65486725663717,7.016746085772635,26.39142273655548,8.139509932561175,1.9818936691626952,473,20,90,10,13,151,81,113,0.175,0.7809999999999999,0.043,-0.9349,2,0,6,0,2,0,11.0,2,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,2,0,14,7,0,0,0,15,19,7,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,6,7,1,1,5,0,2,5,3,0,1,6,2,12,0,10,13,2,13,0,1,0,0,17,3,0,2,8,53,15,1,0.14955518256013042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31965801504289826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16547996491774966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1562533345773333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5860285706251234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16679356168166326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14290638598275246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0849956567494567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13397206794230507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10024368638210664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484104419476902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16870476009305965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1632571484935592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2387470397596536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09580887952733433,0.0,0.0,0.32113259320989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12371359247435325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12503482925804907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1307178214690588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08720682964173132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15569221939188954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08821152151513313,0.0,0.11996414642018903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1349502904399316,0.0,0.0,0.14416585909883045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09630863420945633 alcoholism,LOR_blackbelt,2018/12/28,"I don’t know where to go from here I’m going to be honest- I don’t really know where to go from here. I’ve blacked out a millions times. But I’ve also been completely fine and cut myself off a million times too. I always have control, until I don’t. I always feel a great deal of shame the next morning, waking up not knowing how I got home. Sometimes the situations even worse. But other times I can go to a restaurant and have a few drinks just fine. I’ve read some books on alcoholism and I understand one of the steps is realizing you aren’t in control...but sometimes...I feel like I am in control. And it’s tearing me because I don’t want to quit but when I look back at some of those blacked out nights...or the aftermath anyway....I just know I can’t ever go back to that.",1.4981300813008147,3.2915143414634187,3.280097560975612,91.01937398373985,79.3658536585366,6.080650406504066,23.73821138211381,7.0316486544052195,0.7679313821138214,608,21,134,7,15,203,94,164,0.040999999999999995,0.882,0.077,0.4425,1,0,2,0,0,1,25.0,0,1,0,3,14,7,1,1,9,0,13,3,1,3,1,27,29,11,0,1,6,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,4,6,2,2,8,3,0,6,7,2,0,3,2,5,15,5,20,26,3,26,0,0,3,0,2,10,0,2,11,89,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466093150086524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10970699744839246,0.2282982407461129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2109739835948453,0.0,0.08362685706459358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14383612795827005,0.0,0.4615947798058419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14143197230106822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13438932119896774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0906095659368047,0.12409191555506086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13872997198257855,0.09800517232202033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3898277042443655,0.0,0.1097195791234418,0.15124722599811702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13760799439659158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3015737098946392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06702178523583956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11520106172852125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14589807314822775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0929602779743206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1459134032820626,0.13722237751285712,0.0,0.08788438605153663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1542019724729738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13567972326729413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.239981473127799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14281468671547934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08091541670537562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13980349311057125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,RadInternetHandle,2018/12/28,Alcoholic Rash Hey guys and girls. First time poster. Thank you for your time. So my wife and I have been on vacation since about December 1st. After a year of work we definitely wee ready to party and we did! We drank every day since then on a cruise then at holiday parties and then on the weekends through Christmas. Last Monday i developed a crazy rash that look like chicken pox all over my body. Could be a reaction to the flu i got but I’m concerned it is to do with our month long bender and I’m wondering if this has happened to anyone else? Doctor prescribed me anti histamines but again just curious if this could be alcohol related. Thanks so much for your time!,3.2997837150127225,5.546927114503816,3.9804770992366407,85.96832379134865,75.56488549618321,7.725445292620865,26.183842239185747,8.59863814320734,1.9591979643765904,536,20,104,11,12,170,96,131,0.073,0.782,0.145,0.8353,0,0,2,0,0,0,10.0,4,3,0,2,5,3,0,0,6,0,10,8,3,0,1,18,19,14,0,4,5,1,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,2,4,9,3,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,1,13,3,16,11,2,22,0,0,1,0,11,5,0,3,17,68,17,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3853488567889717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12606246799030174,0.18472768978344056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2002607650077278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2878926658321781,0.0,0.0,0.1162716812281567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18453373439528306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506085729398911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15190150804563685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1533539834321976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14419382008602308,0.0,0.0,0.17851474849648089,0.1594292294077641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14695983947240085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08808024346564385,0.0,0.0,0.1595503539565036,0.1513976019714079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1439051963405127,0.0,0.13253337721944236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2982743381100645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3319723230213456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3153844157681011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1955160513386757,0.13125275502735534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11610039587632658 alcoholism,EnlightenMePixie,2019/04/05,Medicine to help stop drinking? I tend to binge drink a few times a week. I want to see about getting some medicine to help the cravings or stop the effects. I’m worried about calling my regular doctor though and making an appointment. They (receptionist) always ask what I want to be seen for and I don’t want to say for help to stop drinking. Any suggestions or information is appreciated thanks. Taking this step is scary for me since it would be admitting outside of myself that there is an issue. ,4.537659574468087,6.764323776595745,4.8095212765957465,81.50875,71.87234042553192,7.67872340425532,29.835106382978722,8.472884824447931,2.336727659574468,401,17,73,7,8,126,65,94,0.11599999999999999,0.7070000000000001,0.17600000000000002,0.6369,0,0,3,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,1,4,1,0,0,6,0,7,4,0,2,0,16,20,5,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,4,2,3,3,3,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,3,8,1,13,16,2,6,0,0,2,0,10,0,0,3,5,46,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14089200657225825,0.0,0.0,0.11514684091442662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15829606525098067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1728998084928964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1733113643609081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4976222610492106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08846535038391905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34048503689955306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1767313609552918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11302578620719893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13465407656749676,0.0,0.0,0.13493014286072855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400674317384417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42468997290641625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12731136540256335,0.0,0.0,0.15589175719396314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16636100265311662,0.0,0.09873479876919218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2996169059820906,0.0,0.13582234218324596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17195780827171395,0.0,0.12028365788082986,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Punxsutawney_Fill,2019/04/05,"Aiming for 100 days sober I have come to terms with the fact I have a pretty severe alcohol abuse problem. My partner is sympathetic and I went to an AA meeting a while back and it was.... intense... to say the least. If I aim for 100 days sober, am I setting my self up for failure? Will it give me a better relationship with Alcohol? should I stick to one day at a time? Has anyone gone 6 months, or 100 days sober? What advice might you have?",0.8633333333333333,3.1244908888888894,2.6044444444444466,92.42000000000004,84.55555555555556,5.377777777777778,20.11111111111111,6.742157984588678,0.24224444444444426,340,10,74,4,10,112,63,90,0.145,0.757,0.099,-0.6553,0,0,2,0,1,0,16.0,0,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,7,0,10,2,0,0,1,11,14,5,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,3,2,1,0,2,3,5,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,1,1,3,1,10,1,11,8,2,15,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,3,9,49,13,0,0.0,0.2296099883612529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18936977991227247,0.0,0.41420610032598254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13550278492801346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14901289015964195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17139190030268373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16693330890471653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4999152203140917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1859014531270277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20558103759134772,0.0,0.0,0.15468168425238335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13131742080198056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19715455138824856,0.0,0.1854312838003126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2080584137757158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15410993996528122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2021656981587728,0.2189280424825858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11300076684404832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17964568392788507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Govanator12,2019/04/05,Cant get out of the cycle Went to rehab last year and got a year sober. Relapsed for 2 months got sober for 6. Currently relapsed for almost a month and just can't find it in me to get back into meetings. I'm about to start something extremely important for my career and it makes it hard to make a choice for rehab because I won't be able to afford it if I can't go through with this career advancement. Why can't I want to stay sober,3.7925806451612902,4.1026897096774215,4.919516129032259,87.39927419354841,71.25806451612904,7.920430107526883,26.252688172043012,7.793537801064563,1.2712236559139778,345,10,76,4,6,114,60,93,0.032,0.9420000000000001,0.026000000000000002,0.1207,2,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,4,0,6,2,0,2,0,13,17,4,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,5,6,0,0,1,0,0,3,5,0,0,0,3,1,5,0,18,12,0,15,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,2,8,44,10,2,0.22655984141116764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268669546719971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17421053334077566,0.0,0.1381087764718267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20707159057221028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23673633244944495,0.0,0.12875917894756075,0.0,0.3624012036238055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20295311701639732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1846765092893247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30246090681590965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3616758078148521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1744168346307048,0.0,0.0,0.16036022184792864,0.24148264619820545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336308644273901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2100232427940747,0.2044350177444981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.291794219625224 alcoholism,Rissamonkey,2019/04/05,"Five Years Sober Five years sober today :) It can be done - stay strong and never feel all hope is lost! &#x200B;",0.6314285714285717,2.0739740476190502,-0.4662857142857124,105.88628571428572,118.04761904761904,1.6800000000000002,8.961904761904762,3.1291,-2.357998095238095,89,1,18,0,5,24,18,21,0.161,0.614,0.225,0.4378,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,5,7,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,2,1,0,2,0,4,1,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,10,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3141415776402045,0.3522995371769048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29670145409566523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1465985065079714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2879682405910722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.316495406827493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22361370033678374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30902930596089884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2748219647547477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3522995371769048,0.37341385227397417 alcoholism,radicallyrandom,2019/04/05,"I need advice Hey guys! I just turned 21 and I'm honestly scared. I've been drinking non stop since my birthday. I started drinking when I was 16 and it's always been a problem for me. When I turned 18 I started using drugs pretty bad, and I was able to pull myself out of that, but alcohol has been so hard for me. I have always felt like it was a lot more acceptable and ""healthier"" for me to get drunk then to use, but in all honesty I know that alcohol is a drug just like anything else. I realized I had a problem last year and stopped drinking for about 8 months, but I started up again. Now that I'm 21 I want to experience going out, but I just seem to go too crazy every time. All my friends and co workers drink so heavily too, which makes it so much harder to control myself, because drinking seems to be the ""norm"". I would like to be able to have a drink here and there without it being a big deal, but I can't have just one drink. Once I start drinking all I can think about is that next drink, and I will go and go and go. I lose all of my judgement. I don't like who I become when I'm drinking, but at the same time I still want to go out and have ""fun"". Is it possible to find a healthy balance?",2.432107311079257,3.357727762645915,3.8268973991398734,91.7174626254352,74.87548638132296,6.811304525906206,25.977677657177964,7.0608816371341465,0.9308412451361868,933,32,216,9,19,308,131,257,0.099,0.763,0.138,0.9018,0,0,14,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,0,3,19,13,0,1,9,0,23,15,0,4,4,51,50,24,0,6,11,0,2,4,1,2,4,0,0,1,11,14,13,3,8,11,0,7,3,5,0,1,8,2,31,8,26,37,8,33,0,1,0,0,5,7,0,3,23,144,42,1,0.14738996785237338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07201388537897771,0.0,0.15751505148269726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12264026041732383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06064469255167625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061532233336830826,0.04492377818929249,0.08139031982563995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08265519088489308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07597629249201326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7219302827426365,0.17092556949092158,0.0,0.061562702736533574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062091202396406336,0.0,0.0,0.0720878352385339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07075874148588847,0.0,0.06735588021133185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05693656177306015,0.0,0.03850258745314047,0.0,0.2512953460009376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07296962039579269,0.0,0.0,0.06601623042783275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0405008358755024,0.06007124783832143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14401458667564895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08244583656656368,0.0,0.06265283997647969,0.0,0.0,0.049191974021658175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058822633078724186,0.0,0.05417429263927598,0.054643896795516726,0.0,0.0,0.07837545145686396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07848275273730088,0.04993762834955881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08308002150196975,0.0,0.07497429247789385,0.0,0.14103229378476972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07378153510400419,0.0,0.0,0.13417829115274366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06096125224669261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20864675571582225,0.0,0.05885290935914422,0.12322461281046747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047220770026870584,0.0,0.0,0.08594427553344276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16031796092867107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12729760928827438,0.0,0.0,0.08693442178171934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07103933469320985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05235080216877918,0.0,0.0,0.04745715346350675 alcoholism,Lilredhead3,2019/04/05,"Would appreciate your thoughts on this! I’m 20 I’ve been struggling with alcoholism for almost 4 years now. In the past year I’ve become real close with this girl we’ll call her sophia. I guess were best friends but lately I don’t care for her much. To me everything’s always about her and she just has to have all the attention. Anyways I’ll get to the point, Im trying to get sober now because I’m tired of ruining my life and all of a sudden sophia decides she’s going to get sober as well. She post on fb about struggling with alcoholism when really that just isn’t true. I’ll agree lately she’s drank more than she should but she has no idea what it’s like to really struggle with this. I get so triggered every time she makes a post about this and I know I should just focus on myself but it’s frustrating. I guess I’m just venting but I would appreciate comments of your thoughts on this ! Btw I am a week clean of alcohol/cigarettes ❤️",0.9259205856255548,3.3166468316326534,2.3630700976042576,93.29870008873115,85.78571428571429,5.857675244010648,19.74622892635315,7.255503002510835,0.4709062111801239,753,22,163,12,23,243,110,196,0.109,0.736,0.155,0.8535,0,0,4,0,0,0,12.0,1,2,0,1,13,11,1,3,6,0,13,5,0,2,3,35,29,10,0,4,8,0,0,1,1,5,4,0,1,1,9,8,3,0,6,0,0,1,3,5,1,0,5,0,24,6,26,19,5,21,0,1,0,0,17,7,0,3,12,100,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39469025140797576,0.1232733842802189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10243447586165093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07504458416650936,0.13596146523468858,0.0,0.0,0.12919268425685554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12570550800173608,0.0,0.12551528872687195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10372254187087704,0.0,0.11064019073369508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09511178209735888,0.0,0.2572722759497796,0.0,0.06996426504228705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27123139370088034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1389722620730172,0.13297615297761992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06765611685344733,0.0,0.27773900456676515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08695376673967775,0.0601436210766092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08217454950538762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.090497447621141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11751909093076453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11637544086019952,0.0,0.23580400826537076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401221566578907,0.15773036169163587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38609295189637177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1954656312008248,0.07178439435484057,0.1414928203477416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08358123747732771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09874861441984784,0.0,0.11068753448571153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17490266125815818,0.0,0.0,0.1585531088853937 alcoholism,thatotherguyyoukknow,2019/04/05,"I'm feeling more and more awake after drinking. My face turns red. I feel exhausted and dizzy but I can't fall asleep when I havent drank for a few hours Anyone else like this? I drink to fall asleep nut can't fall asleep when I haven't drank",0.3846794871794863,2.6085722115384646,0.951538461538462,103.67679487179493,86.5,4.235897435897436,14.435897435897436,5.46131890053228,-1.2611256410256413,193,3,47,1,6,58,35,52,0.07200000000000001,0.828,0.10099999999999999,0.3182,0,0,2,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,4,9,4,0,0,5,10,5,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,4,0,2,2,0,3,4,1,0,0,2,3,6,1,3,8,3,7,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,23,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269835441093428,0.33261403168310444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.636012773663107,0.0,0.0,0.2711803775075776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3282776990152796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3196876937721393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15859411723863526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3530959755936963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,lundezx,2019/04/05,"My gut always turns to alcohol. For the past few months I’ve realized that whenever im upset or very angry I turn to alcohol to numb the feeling I feel in my heart. I’m diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and i tend to feel more than the average person. So whenever I felt a very strong emotion like sadness I go straight to alcohol. I don’t have anyone to turn to whenever it comes to wanting to vent. I don’t know what to do. My family are all alcoholics so I can’t go to them. Reddit, what can I do to avoid turning to alcohol whenever I’m upset ? I feel guilty afterwards when I’m drunk and it upsets me even more. I don’t want to be like this anymore. Someone plz help ",2.0647790507364974,4.0315701205673795,4.708085106382981,80.62615384615388,78.29078014184397,9.161156573922533,27.86743044189853,9.661875296680813,2.951242880523732,541,24,109,17,13,192,82,141,0.182,0.695,0.12300000000000001,-0.8623,0,1,5,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,1,4,9,0,4,4,0,10,10,2,0,1,16,29,6,0,2,1,0,5,2,0,0,7,0,0,2,6,4,6,1,7,1,0,3,4,6,0,0,1,5,16,3,18,27,4,9,0,1,0,0,4,2,0,1,6,65,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6156356446760649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09586603321340802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11425984592634722,0.0805592619605626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09924537100210086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11693826684882205,0.0,0.0,0.13204351168390002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12959856036726236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07609677261779864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10861209557880533,0.0,0.2330196160655869,0.0,0.11062207203967966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13095584274486613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13652737254213962,0.07722451318140294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1244492754095914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06331777939804907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11257402016664976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0919615218890798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.109983372098221,0.0,0.20119822992690906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.097619181172028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5012724831077687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19012476446055754,0.13591064039745762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,MrTheFalcon,2019/04/05,"Weekend encouragement I'm about a month sober. Three weeks before that with one night where I slipped-up. I'm heading into a weekend where I have to work alone most of the weekend. At some point I'm going to a low key birthday party, but we will be going to a video game bar. I have a lot of pressure from work and family, and it's been tough to catch a break. I'm reaching the point where I feel like I'm doing pretty good, which means I'm definitely overestimating myself. Any advice for preempting urges to drink when alone, or at the party? I'm already thinking of skipping the bar, and just do board games earlier.",3.420080645161292,5.095438266129033,4.4718064516129035,85.08770967741938,73.59677419354837,6.895483870967742,25.30322580645161,7.554174236665415,1.223763870967742,491,16,98,6,10,160,80,124,0.08,0.727,0.193,0.9464,0,2,1,0,0,0,14.0,1,0,0,2,6,6,0,1,10,0,7,4,1,0,0,15,19,6,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,6,3,0,3,9,0,3,0,3,0,2,1,1,6,3,15,16,3,20,0,1,0,0,4,9,0,4,8,56,9,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19457750238098168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4124559921314858,0.2197335811035805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13540824920396674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1694362302468562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1950615364939947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1877123667538219,0.0,0.10068092185920824,0.14225117983287242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22632867040157825,0.1670121881462571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2043542961127987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09727984552669808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16928447972975902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21689976744363035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15893547428663327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18686038434698246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13492868698795926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3764650251291407,0.0,0.0,0.2025763572727382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12758788730787451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15972184222998656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2899230799468668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,assleypatterson,2019/04/05,"Advice for controlling alcohol consumption? I typically only drink on the weekends and I can control myself sometimes but more often than I would like to admit, I go past my limit and end up blacking out and of course embarrassing myself and my significant other. I 100% admit to having a problem with drinking, I'm just not sure what to do about it. I feel like there has to be some steps before stopping drinking as a whole but I'm not sure what they are. Any advice? 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I’ve been extremely stressed lately and this is my way of coping..,1.4113636363636353,3.157985590909096,3.7181818181818183,87.99727272727276,79.45454545454545,6.218181818181819,20.090909090909093,7.1686216300943375,0.4960181818181826,81,2,17,1,2,28,20,22,0.267,0.733,0.0,-0.7346,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,10,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4013590150744002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3100075570591861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5422432341163086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5506328091796038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3815521459705961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Weeaboo300,2019/06/23,"I’m losing everyone in my life because of alcohol I’m currently 19 years old, and I started drinking in high school when I was 17. Throughout high school I made a lot of really good friends: I had my main group of best friends, which is made up of a few guys, and we usually hung out with a few other people all the time, who I considered my close friends. As I went into university, I began to drink a lot more. Alcohol was available more often and I didn’t live with my parents, which meant I had more freedom. Coming back to my hometown during the first summer back from university, I began drinking till I basically blacked out every time. My friends and I began hanging out with other people from my high school that I didn’t really talk to before, so at this point I had the most friends I’ve ever had in my life. By the end of the summer, however, everything began to fall apart. This new group of people constantly told my other friends that I was pretty annoying while drunk, but I didn’t want to admit it. I thought they were probably just being mean because we were never really friends in high school. As my second year of university began, my alcohol problem just got worse. I began drinking in larger quantities, mostly because everyone else did it too. Even my close friends always talked about their “drunk adventures” and “how much fun they always had while drunk”. Most of the time I just went with it because I thought I wanted to have fun and I needed to get completely drunk to do so. Then, as I came back to my hometown during the summer from my second year, I noticed some of my close friends (but not my best friends) were being a bit distant. At this point, I think I knew that it was my alcohol problem pushing them away, but I kept telling myself that they were probably just exaggerating. They eventually started hanging out without me, and eventually stopped talking to me. Then, a couple of weekends ago, I went out to a club with two of my best friends (at this point, the only ones who probably still invite me to go out and hang out and stuff). As per usual, I got really drunk but I really lost it and ended up punching my best friend. Him and my other friend left because they were upset, and I ended up outside the club, drunk and alone, ready to pass out any minute. I live fairly close to the club so I walked home, and as I got home I had the urge to throw up. Once I got to the bathroom, I just vomited all over the toilet, waking up my mom and my dad. The next day, I’ll never forget the look on my mom’s face. She was clearly upset, but most of all she was concerned about me. It just hit me at that point and I felt horrible. There was not a single person left that I hadn’t made angry or concerned in my hometown, including my own parents. Then, I swore that I’d never get drunk again in my life. I wish it hadn’t gotten to this point, and I’m really sad that it took for all my friends to abandon me to realize that alcohol was destroying my life. Now, I apologized to my best friends and they accepted my apology, but everyone else has stopped talking to me, and when my friends are invited somewhere by my old friends, I’m usually not invited anymore. I guess I really brought this upon myself and now I have to face the consequences alone. And I know I might fail and get drunk sometime, but I’ll never forget this feeling of loneliness and emptiness. I will use it as fuel to always get up and try no matter what. Sorry for the long rant and I hope that this story helps anyone that reads it.",6.270995885680701,5.9559324025787985,6.773954154727793,78.37397362427448,65.9484240687679,9.909690691352584,32.79714936448461,9.466822959209583,2.841434090074205,2779,104,542,48,39,910,267,698,0.129,0.695,0.17600000000000002,0.9904,4,2,9,0,1,0,75.0,2,0,8,9,27,39,2,2,25,0,35,25,3,5,10,116,89,51,0,7,18,5,2,0,17,2,10,0,2,2,39,47,17,4,12,17,0,16,14,11,0,5,53,4,103,28,88,31,26,118,0,5,2,0,51,46,0,12,56,390,142,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03792726039056626,0.22862642891690715,0.0,0.08862690856672227,0.0,0.0,0.10680428765399198,0.0,0.0,0.029095987815238714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042432274298350746,0.0299170077910551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04019891155051843,0.0986995167274678,0.0,0.1304099244382548,0.0,0.03640778549094547,0.0,0.22450665000061013,0.0,0.046711295736591135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0489358539986757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03685640192371084,0.044860369591650885,0.04623653054564847,0.0,0.0,0.0473419612911792,0.0,0.02759346892565555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1676561988628016,0.0,0.0,0.07148452544002311,0.0,0.11368724804541674,0.0,0.0,0.02825978892899146,0.03870244057703648,0.036049100673040534,0.12265174089480554,0.03845335162735011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02163391737847466,0.0,0.04108132709425635,0.0,0.0,0.03639380055198781,0.0,0.0,0.5619588614488595,0.0,0.08941580112490398,0.0,0.024316303751642426,0.03588691693354749,0.13687968219906413,0.0,0.047133668539401034,0.04236492595082563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028678593947887437,0.18082328490422814,0.0858358129494126,0.042496211407400765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02351409947736459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09297435818138833,0.0,0.12088423729533967,0.0,0.0,0.07556174924314424,0.037864316465306185,0.03592951423158019,0.047866656591483835,0.04670603845203837,0.0727503558827759,0.0,0.12145561273025204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04660656221292537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045389247952217035,0.0,0.10022103209153373,0.0,0.0,0.03145267693120158,0.03172532115214488,0.13199698777334873,0.041323043107361575,0.04550345992376874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0487122125906059,0.08979354460058983,0.04556575723017491,0.02899294138730222,0.032540726440966734,0.0,0.0,0.09501771189036573,0.0,0.0,0.0889873996554866,0.037359137023974524,0.0,0.0,0.20223328062386856,0.0,0.0,0.04352880461503203,0.1383918269585043,0.08188096156261976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04279763824883938,0.0,0.1918689182543728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17320710675577403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04231650711307797,0.047895490925272136,0.06056838659592695,0.0,0.03416900257212463,0.07154212354016322,0.0,0.0,0.048979801919673285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13755925642637815,0.03739690207893967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02741557945181095,0.0,0.06793470435818931,0.07484668652082492,0.0,0.0,0.04088391363160185,0.04753688666714585,0.02904892600827675,0.0,0.041795763301926164,0.0,0.0,0.03695341816199051,0.14136840008215815,0.0,0.05047265315872106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11898931808424087,0.0,0.0,0.049201857137010266,0.04124423475892552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04360265018371171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0826584590167755 alcoholism,IamAhappyChappy,2019/06/23,"Staying social while staying sober Hi all, long time lurker first time poster. I have recently just made it one month alcohol free (yay!). I am 25 (M) and have been a drinker since the tender age of 16, which isn’t too uncommon where I am from. The last few years my drinking has been getting progressively worse and to cut a long story short I decided I could no longer live my life being either drunk or hungover. Yesterday I decided to step out for the evening and get myself out there after being closed off for the last few weeks. My friend group are all heavy drinkers (as well as whatever else is on offer) and I met them at the pub so we could chew the fat. My willpower survived the test and I stuck to the soda water/lime or irn bru for the night but I have to say that after I got home and this day so far I have struggled. What struck me the most when I was out was how little the conversation flowed, Ive know these boys for most of my life but it felt like there was an odd atmosphere hanging around me, and once the drink started to flow with the group it was only highlighted more. It is hard to admit but I felt that I would have to drink just to fit in and after the evening of awkwardly making excuses why I was off the sauce and feeling like I was sticking out like a sore thumb I was drained when I got home. It is an odd feeling and today I have had to keep myself busy just to keep my mind off it. I was just wondering if anyones had similar experiences? And if you’ve read this far then thank you for taking the time 👍🏻",4.1289361060880045,4.747572044303801,4.692495479204343,88.22116033755276,70.64556962025316,8.044364074743823,26.123568414707645,8.11559375814309,1.3150125376732964,1210,35,265,16,21,386,178,316,0.099,0.809,0.092,-0.2808,2,0,6,0,0,0,23.0,1,1,1,3,17,12,1,2,21,1,32,12,1,3,2,53,52,27,0,5,12,0,5,3,1,1,6,1,2,1,13,19,8,2,9,6,1,4,2,3,1,2,19,6,34,10,36,28,8,49,0,0,0,0,15,18,0,7,28,182,47,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12347137858977485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08078449662932738,0.0,0.0,0.10285031166922813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1844899950262508,0.0,0.0,0.0745102756594046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3395398461932924,0.0,0.0,0.0965143547240917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15261906133287806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11301503332755555,0.0,0.0,0.11683555639966604,0.08253795971159228,0.2218627179130205,0.0,0.0,0.09827369363120336,0.0,0.0,0.08926176524855907,0.0,0.12072414686376395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18480718898197876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1034963313473587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.231781299464068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2053849677013001,0.0,0.0,0.06349480881369371,0.188352280353864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16321104584603532,0.1693331467675546,0.11579604702394478,0.10201919121844746,0.2044890162296164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1093216563829572,0.07712025982067777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116657036775035,0.0,0.09221863599883827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10842141972420964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12304060576788033,0.07828925245916779,0.08786928906279605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11556589104777593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11407650471441895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0918777716065767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09557143631172248,0.0,0.0,0.11777300132061465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08177600275027194,0.2462890773295905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12078187607720912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08686766009282207,0.0,0.0,0.10636876081234206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20210750811669528,0.0,0.1095133160896984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09267490782521777,0.0,0.10387950368853124,0.0,0.10425202946638301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1252923732348613,0.0,0.0,0.11773965402545936,0.08207248327338139,0.0,0.0,0.07440051102328278 alcoholism,filledwithawesomness,2019/06/23,"Everytime I drink I feel weird the next dag It isn't just regular hangover, it is something else, I feel dumb, very anxious and insecure, it only happens after I've drunk and I struggle to sleep, I don't seem to be able to think straight, or to think about anything at all, I can't be productive because I just want to lay on bed and avoid human contact because if I talk with someone I feel extra anxious that I just want to continue on hiding. If I have weeks without drinking, I would feel normal, go to sleep at the same time like clockwork, but this weekend I drank and got drunk. Before I didn't use to Have this, I'm 22 now, when I was 18 and got drunk, I would feel hang over the next day but I didn't forget who I was and didn't feel as anxious as I would feel now",5.078561690524879,4.3534566380368105,5.734683026584867,86.20559645535108,68.50920245398773,8.471438309475117,31.60804362644853,7.3871296695380915,1.8090673483299249,604,22,134,5,9,197,89,163,0.162,0.7879999999999999,0.05,-0.9327,0,1,3,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,7,6,1,3,3,0,16,8,2,1,1,37,35,14,0,8,9,0,7,1,0,3,0,0,1,1,7,7,6,1,10,6,0,2,7,5,0,0,8,7,19,1,19,22,3,19,0,0,0,0,4,6,1,4,12,84,26,0,0.12739348158553707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4317551192363525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10483398071679707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15531576790199375,0.0,0.10840246985601534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08215825662289117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495942254977151,0.0,0.0,0.10642090709019984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4508978042483811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07240065136899593,0.0,0.2037764096799462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1126536350426566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06223802020938425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2709688258275138,0.0,0.12481856375659288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09688848331593852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11597424107091715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2549709672687716,0.0,0.10794008353995224,0.09807372600693877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13317932704350546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10239405491913857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16325719815335865,0.0,0.0,0.0742841635837677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11002706548515977,0.0,0.10511296403276307,0.15027995218088974,0.0,0.10218736667156587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.122802770201466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27149002266245115,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Throwawwwaaaayyy1,2019/06/23,3 weeks sober now im 3 weeks sober now and i hate it. i feel alone and sad. now that i graduated im losing my friends and now im also losing the friend that had been there for years. everyday i wake up with a sadness and emptyness that i cant cope with without booze. i go through the day being emotionally sick and with an overwellming numbness. being sober isnt worth it.,0.7167948717948711,3.0231770897435917,2.6156410256410254,91.7460256410257,85.7948717948718,6.030769230769232,21.48717948717949,7.3871296695380915,0.7522717948717954,295,10,65,5,9,98,48,78,0.28800000000000003,0.637,0.076,-0.94,0,1,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,6,8,1,0,4,0,6,4,1,0,0,10,9,6,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,5,8,1,0,1,0,1,1,3,6,0,0,2,1,7,2,7,5,0,11,0,4,0,0,2,1,0,0,9,40,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2002143789339484,0.0,0.15459265367082073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1246711485919462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2174515522576326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09774506189796232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2987069018440256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.109864458375847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19085695765750907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6264349242413949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4325364869922578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3101286930419328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1863472162215268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12448748958466192 alcoholism,Pikesburgh27,2019/06/23,"I can't go more than 2 days without alcohol. Not because I get drunk, because I finally feel like myself. I'm in my mid twenties, have 2 great friends, still dunno why they like me as I'm a socially awkward fuckhead who doesn't like being around people. Even around them I can't be myself. Unless I have a couple beers. I don't really get drunk, I just drink to get a buzz. When I'm sober I feel like my brain is in slow motion. Like as if you see a bullet flying at your face and you have time to dodge it but instead of dodging it your brain goes ""huh, wonder how long it would take to hit me? What color is said bullet? Who fired it? Fuck too late I'm dead"" When I knock the edge (overthinking) off with a couple beers my brain is like a super computer. I focus really well, I can think, don't stumble on my words, I don't make stupid mistakes and I feel like MYSELF. I used to take ADHD meds. It they never made me feel this solid mentally. I don't get it. I don't know what to do. 3 16 ouncers 3-4 weeks isn't exactly a TON, but I wish I didn't need alcohol to be myself. Anyone else have this problem?",0.6940726472206933,2.5151677890295367,2.9173032471106235,92.50013758943315,82.08016877637132,5.809502843514952,19.165107319757844,6.895973343053719,0.15067176664832127,854,21,193,10,23,291,131,237,0.105,0.71,0.185,0.9194,0,0,5,0,1,0,32.0,0,4,3,1,11,16,2,1,8,1,23,12,4,4,2,32,50,11,1,6,7,0,5,7,1,1,2,1,0,0,12,5,7,0,7,5,0,2,13,5,1,0,3,8,36,11,20,42,2,21,0,0,2,1,12,8,1,3,18,117,48,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13185926552058788,0.0,0.0,0.23450955063952916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07671711541395639,0.11241867403674824,0.0,0.19534389789897133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13376569333576505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36744347045170617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2428009334131581,0.0,0.07075879229051331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10748150389782984,0.0,0.0,0.09165499816685953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07246745744030254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22190611413707886,0.2351468825861803,0.0,0.12019029672399865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08476756596068433,0.10143217760508404,0.2292917253837672,0.0,0.06235505550502723,0.0,0.0,0.12096407040098535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06029793808455638,0.0,0.1237662614993828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3752174313225503,0.0,0.0,0.0970966467177237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1038174709246318,0.0732373675677442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1218715488194868,0.0,0.1105695615114339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08135422972018065,0.08462099732723179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07606438738167072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10498495073901386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14057584185534486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1043665877535714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0874307430212771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11184330300922568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08762063814046323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16498800099379546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0703026247689758,0.0,0.0,0.0639772302572669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09476080181124412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08800886180212868,0.0,0.09864932265635276,0.0,0.09900309230630504,0.0,0.1261698555859449,0.1057638765300201,0.11898408554863565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07794025381484178,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,webtheg,2019/06/23,"I have to let go of an alcoholic friend So I have posted here before and tomorrow it will be 12 weeks of me being alcohol free (yay) Alcohol was so bad for me that it sort of delayed my uni graduation by 2 years so I stopped. Even my mom and sister are now supportive. However I have this friend who is even worse than I was. We used to work together, I was top dog and he got fired because of his own stupidity and arrogance. He is now 8 months unemployed and all he does is drink. Even before he used to pressure me into taking cocaine, mdma, ecstasy and I always refused. Ever since he was fired he is worse than before and despite me trying to help him, sometimes achieving in having alcohol free movie nights he is still on a bad track and it's getting worse. He also constantly asks me when I will drink again. A colleague of mine saw him and was like ""You need to be careful, he will be in some trouble"" And I realized I have to let go of him. The only issue is he owes me a lot of money. Do I stick around or ignore the money And cut ties now?",1.5279960317460315,3.562646865740738,3.6630952380952384,87.12000000000002,80.3425925925926,6.8920634920634924,23.24867724867725,7.957251820313856,1.2962066137566142,817,28,170,15,21,279,124,216,0.19399999999999998,0.695,0.111,-0.966,4,0,7,0,0,0,20.0,1,1,0,3,16,15,2,1,6,1,27,6,0,2,2,28,40,17,0,1,1,2,2,1,2,3,4,0,0,0,6,14,6,4,1,2,5,2,0,7,0,0,7,3,26,10,22,24,4,24,0,0,1,0,24,6,0,4,16,118,32,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.484188653954021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09057897075083438,0.09424658477567384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10083096693066153,0.10588864404937562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1891451575814492,0.0690460482577816,0.0,0.28914368190861856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11548247989883025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1224005662559358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09912004941359884,0.0,0.0,0.22191558746892226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2244338487140656,0.10245579817973197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17501843123034028,0.0,0.05917693521095317,0.0,0.12874362818005533,0.0,0.09058935874068733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07591997274059836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11822052647288198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2316448076809721,0.0,0.05533616328713743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09629490632500193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1326560506810405,0.09040803169069636,0.0,0.0,0.08398548134661925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10629269284030746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08614407905933785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10847774769425066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09369500371816844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11202320700729028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0904545651213918,0.0946956478906075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1285331862403919,0.0,0.0,0.08516211589452953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07690034158227924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19565132827838064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09085534515713507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08245917130001308,0.0,0.3462839237565643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07293974461389441 alcoholism,whiskyanogo,2019/06/23,Loser and don't know what to do I have tried everything..I still must get a pint of hard booze and binge it down twice a week getting my self to blackout. I fall around and hurt myself and it is disgusting. This crept up on me somehow and my body demands I get a pint every 3/4th for day and just knock myself out. Now matter how much my brain tries to stop me. I am 62 and have been doing this for 15 years and I am sick of it. Every aspect of my life is suffering because of it. I have went to AA and it helped a little ...I don't know what to do. I have a lot of issues my BF will not look for work and has very little money ..I am taking care of a parent with dementia. Trying to support myself by my online job. I just want to be better. Gawd I just do not know what to do. Not easy to feel so much disgust with myself. Hangovers hangovers hangovers. :(,0.12258241758241795,2.173462521978024,2.1579010989011,95.79959890109892,85.86813186813185,4.519120879120879,16.792307692307688,5.6839178017228535,-0.6076008791208793,657,14,149,4,20,219,100,182,0.156,0.7859999999999999,0.059000000000000004,-0.9611,2,0,0,0,0,2,23.0,0,0,0,3,9,8,2,0,6,0,21,5,2,1,1,31,34,12,0,2,6,1,2,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,10,14,1,1,4,0,1,2,5,5,1,1,2,3,23,3,26,29,3,15,0,3,1,0,4,7,0,2,6,111,33,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409910922689086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09654650805253896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14007355761068113,0.0,0.17592361951792046,0.0,0.17680359886084196,0.0,0.0,0.16147817951656668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1021415003997505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668826627581068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.080081297009638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24823983107063474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14187668044621782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1061582587924956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16954824045684086,0.0,0.0,0.1653067669923187,0.1571669465918981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2611232470594433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11186793336217088,0.0,0.3174751906019266,0.0,0.0,0.1329986636379609,0.0,0.0,0.13464835690835505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2328539135110013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758613910266557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1652240772051409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12648185696705866,0.13241212730202198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17972687233375334,0.0,0.0,0.11908146976472048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3225873008733604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13067945084389754,0.09341617280302676,0.0,0.1270422643172914,0.0,0.0,0.14681913213368344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11530196509146587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10199103089034264 alcoholism,nickelbackpenguin69,2019/06/23,"What am I doing? I’m 29. I can easily not drink during the week. That’s not a problem. My problem is on the weekend. Often, more than I’d like to admit, I find myself drinking far too much. I’m ashamed at how often I’ve blacked out. I threw up asleep in bed not long ago and my fiancé had to clean the bed at 1 am. Last night, my parent’s friends threw a party for my fiancé and me and I cannot remember a good portion of the evening. I am so embarrassed. I don’t know how to confront this because there are times when I can nurse a single beer for an hour at social events on weekends. I can’t determine what separates those times from the times when I lose control. It happens with varying types of alcohol and varying people. Please help me.",1.4219569892473132,3.4138029806451646,3.0567741935483888,91.55182795698929,80.48387096774194,5.681720430107527,23.88172043010753,6.742157984588678,0.7429913978494622,582,21,124,6,15,192,100,155,0.085,0.753,0.162,0.87,1,0,4,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,2,10,9,1,2,10,0,12,5,1,3,0,20,19,9,0,2,3,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,3,0,6,6,4,1,4,5,0,2,6,6,0,0,3,1,17,3,18,16,4,25,0,1,1,0,5,9,0,2,15,83,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16338148686615053,0.19697349879050866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11235489796739467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20672160518683094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3611112267331705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12173635232801135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16845784913193276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14239901109099445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15459217953700144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16298651246872306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1235404633022712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18151021496732533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012930671862071,0.15023889783289346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09004554405230161,0.0,0.0,0.16311033962292015,0.0,0.2061980075727608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13549054347776116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17296434712911216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20465668871681564,0.0,0.0,0.12777874909627504,0.0,0.0,0.20231925243598667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35272342658997946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20878959159054775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878828956000804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32242146690401824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14784398662195522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,icerose933,2019/06/23,"What’s a normal amount of alcohol to drink? (Advice wanted) Alcoholism runs in my family and I’ve recently developed a taste for hard liquor. Most of my family doesn’t drink and all my friends are in college and getting wasted constantly, I don’t know how much to drink in one sitting without it being too much and when people are getting drunk I don’t know how many nights a week I can join them without it being to much. I’ve already had to cut down a lot because I realized I started using it as a coping mechanism when I got upset (I’m a happy drunk) and I don’t want to develop a problem like a lot of my family.",2.963671875000003,4.3505580234375,5.166062500000002,80.82268750000003,74.234375,8.557500000000001,27.64375,9.120678840339163,2.4007849999999995,489,19,96,11,10,171,74,128,0.11900000000000001,0.7759999999999999,0.106,-0.1531,0,0,5,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,0,5,6,1,1,8,0,10,9,0,3,1,21,20,10,0,4,2,0,1,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,4,5,9,0,3,6,0,1,6,3,0,1,2,2,12,3,16,16,8,13,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,3,8,68,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367279471255906,0.0,0.2990632919925455,0.0,0.0,0.15440490853881755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08529377267485161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15120352774614146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4112042212737465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3957116250688079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10810164132447207,0.0,0.146204574681321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11190659518038316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14894716128806845,0.12534060085587978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15379245591279958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0683577156289989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23790951276940564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14185665152747928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3085713170690061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313051942707995,0.13709163398495666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09481323459529742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0970027277427406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13388429124554546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13815385973880492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0990359096489148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12084572787862785,0.0,0.0,0.16505657155161055,0.0,0.11223517278202072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2697552658533757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,gwash1294,2019/06/23,"Girlfriend drinking heavily Looking for any advice. Ill start with ahe wont do rehab or any sort of therapy. Ive been to rehab a couple times that had very different approaches to rehab. I feel like i have a good knowledge of addictions etc. Within the past 3 weeks my Girlfriend has been drinking extreme amount amounts tot he points she blacks out each night. Ive tried being kind and loving, ive tried being assertive and caring. Nothing has worked. She went to the hospital 2 weeks ago with alcohol poisoning and was having small seizures. She slipped and fell in the shower hit her head and had multiple small seizures tonight. She wont do any rehab doesnt want help. Im lost. And domt want to lose her. Amy advice or help would be appreciated. Thank you.",2.989374999999999,5.77859029861111,3.4075000000000024,86.66250000000002,80.04166666666667,6.377777777777778,25.66666666666667,7.645422480735847,1.6145916666666666,609,24,111,10,16,189,97,144,0.11900000000000001,0.742,0.139,0.7303,2,0,3,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,3,0,9,1,0,5,0,21,12,1,0,0,18,32,8,0,3,2,0,1,1,2,3,8,0,1,0,1,10,3,0,2,2,0,3,3,3,0,0,7,3,13,6,12,18,4,17,0,2,2,1,13,6,0,3,9,59,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16197949231537045,0.0,0.2903909239546018,0.131711564492804,0.15879208952586882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3031285178110463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15149222632140213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1644063853705064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15523961437093758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2911133050705245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16571145995096556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07512899889641662,0.10614909493600737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12462597945293535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15249099237098687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19918667667700315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16049720848008628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15472832698327113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07259108550316122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12477390885013613,0.16622851642277542,0.16219798984767084,0.0,0.13410368942038964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13943687989885506,0.0,0.1425712359475658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14184111673526564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14046077417238048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10516916955249944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13679702925960466,0.16991980276189372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08664106043378025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20175881157698933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12259811822295925,0.17527846839397207,0.0,0.2383717170450759,0.0,0.0,0.13773970737158284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10817158976669483,0.0,0.0,0.10555046246674384,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,TheBNS,2019/06/23,"Gross insane random thing I used to do. Towards the end of my drinking career I would no longer piss in the toilet.....I would piss in sinks. At home. At work. Everywhere. I dont know why. I would do this sober too. And the crazy part is I continued to do this for a few months after I stopped drinking. I'm so grossed out with myself that i used to do this. Any of you people have any relatable experiences?",0.16128148959474586,2.52224580722892,1.8539320920043807,95.21009857612269,90.92771084337349,4.9458926615553125,18.38882803943045,6.574015621080383,0.007081927710843594,314,9,69,4,11,102,56,83,0.23399999999999999,0.7659999999999999,0.0,-0.9483,0,0,2,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,1,2,4,2,0,4,0,10,4,2,2,0,11,14,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,5,3,2,1,1,2,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,10,0,14,11,2,11,0,0,0,0,1,6,2,1,5,49,15,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2872906673188142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475628999127011,0.41385483762647546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18708928509323736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2066259032253614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21188340587266766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11608784986352992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16860375470795724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2287441974188229,0.0,0.14644200884518085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17659981630262714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403334773990897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36487409298093104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19060446311717508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15377976526304069,0.0,0.0,0.4501604915823881,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,finette_micha,2019/06/23,"Alcohol makes me feel like I want to die Disclaimer: please know that I am safe & won't act on the feelings I describe below. I am in therapy for this too, but I want to hear your experiences. The day after I use alcohol (which is always excessive use) I feel like I want to die. My physical hangovers are not that bad, but my mental state worsens terribly. It makes me so incredibly depressed and hopeless. Sometimes it takes me a few days to recover from this. It just makes me feel worthless and like I can't handle anything in my life. Even though I find this to be the worst feeling in the world, I can't hold myself back the next time I drink. I can manage to not drink on a day, but once I touch alcohol I can only use it in an excessive way. I don't know if I'm an alcoholic or how I should approach this problem. Alcohol seems to be everywhere and I don't know how to avoid it. I wonder if anyone else experiences these feelings? Do you have any advice for me? To be honest I'm not 100% sure what I'm looking for in this subreddit, but I just feel helpless. Thanks in advance guys ❤",2.147901785714289,4.00065584375,3.949428571428573,86.69557142857144,77.61607142857143,7.337142857142857,25.932142857142853,8.238735603445708,1.6774614285714289,855,33,179,16,20,288,120,224,0.201,0.68,0.12,-0.982,0,1,7,0,0,3,25.0,0,2,0,1,9,16,0,1,9,0,17,8,0,8,1,45,45,14,2,7,12,0,8,3,0,2,6,1,0,1,15,3,7,3,13,2,0,3,8,9,0,0,0,10,31,7,23,40,2,22,0,4,1,0,4,10,0,5,10,119,46,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09535396728164244,0.0,0.5214162861233387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0811943093870296,0.10572780122675014,0.0,0.06635769092656184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06823014805521184,0.09998215824864737,0.08029995880580403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07503293429082472,0.0814751562631191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1887929250782837,0.0,0.08404544105763684,0.0,0.2025450996169918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911823426773851,0.0,0.0,0.08151550095674391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0644506160542776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1909037693651844,0.0,0.0,0.34537537217616304,0.13942222694379225,0.0,0.0,0.08918627795317463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0966194610825074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.109979660354502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1608821142740007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0689235824134495,0.14301785808752351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.081942555642397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19540606051301432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09833760708568756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10377735063970593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1039194288337961,0.0,0.07421392534968499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1071134481178294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09337080381399372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08883309320941292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09650903478281672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09196791863670592,0.0,0.07336795494980379,0.0,0.0,0.08983847893459285,0.11159114129609483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09587177475839323,0.0,0.056899635355966274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2528331586448919,0.0,0.0,0.17266549291011704,0.07745439755407045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10582125943333524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,yojustme,2019/06/23,"Alcoholic Neuropathy So I’ve been an alcoholic for about 11 years now (31F) & it’s starting to really take a toll. I have successfully stopped liquor after having 3 seizures 7 years ago from sudden withdrawal/taking Adderall (neither is in the picture now) but beer (between 11-16 in a night) has been my vice to kick now. I can abstain & have for weeks & months. I was even sober for a year & 2 months but stress threw me off the wagon. I’m deciding to get sober again because I’ve been having strange symptoms (that I’m too scared & insuranceless to go to the doctor for) that, through my research, is alcoholic neuropathy. Does anyone here have experience with that? If so, can it be treated? Or is it just don’t drink & hope you get better? Would appreciate some answers because this is scary to me & I feel like I’m too young to be old (feeling decrepit) & too old to be young (drinking like I’m 20) Any advice, comments, or information will be greatly appreciated by me, an aspiring to be former, alcoholic. 💜💜",3.3874762702400893,5.603756427135682,4.494530988274708,82.53019402568398,75.18090452261308,7.638302624232272,29.14600781686209,8.515128840125781,2.328614517029592,815,36,155,16,18,266,121,199,0.075,0.8029999999999999,0.122,0.8952,0,0,7,0,0,0,46.0,0,1,0,2,13,9,0,2,8,0,24,10,0,0,0,17,37,7,0,3,6,0,2,2,0,2,6,0,0,0,7,1,8,2,5,4,0,2,2,2,0,0,5,2,10,7,23,25,2,26,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,5,23,91,17,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08577023214750995,0.07780498997155731,0.3752082660531408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7608113905846874,0.0,0.059688282698643985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06137254489757495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1070105539775157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07762760818528776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08983883212696549,0.07681027130204031,0.0,0.0,0.1719671911029235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05797288207943984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0858583081704607,0.0,0.0,0.08876078616510848,0.0627046630171731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09171497543166006,0.0,0.04988311177921157,0.0,0.0,0.09676944709951044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08717785751813513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08576238087136978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401182804715818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08236850791327728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18420486386876536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05622928546797284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08787554456709595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062125799005267185,0.0,0.0,0.07338170681543403,0.10054305646665382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09122919349530678,0.06599396656088803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07040577312103945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0623510373241897,0.0,0.0,0.16956775967040996 alcoholism,ThomasDodgson,2019/09/21,"Quit If I've quit this morning (currently 8:30pm) and my withdrawals haven't got worse, u guys think im good?",2.6959090909090904,4.7615813181818245,2.6454545454545446,95.68818181818185,76.72727272727272,6.218181818181819,24.63636363636364,7.1686216300943375,0.7882909090909096,87,3,19,1,2,26,20,22,0.0,0.746,0.254,0.6656,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,5,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2726351473098311,0.2599708717606446,0.0,0.0,0.3218489860458369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3511080135045981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6914578957712353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20827786784441374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3312520542778252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Omarc9292,2019/09/21,"Disappointed in myself ugh I went back to drinking ... I had been sober for 26 days the longest ever in my life . I am 28 . Don't have nothing still live with my parents. Alcohol has ruined me . I've lost everything . I lost many jobs and finally I had for these past 26 days had found a decent job at a warehouse . Easy job , nice people working there great co-workers. I was finally doing ""Ok"" and last Thursday I fkd everything up like I always do , I was going to work and called up the Uber . When the lady came over we clicked instantly she looks like a gangster n young around 25 . She was like u wanna get a drink ? I don't know why wasn't I strong to say NO! so we ended up stopping at a liquor store and drinking while she was driving . Then she parked at a laundromat and right there in the parking lot we started snorting some meth she had some . I did 2 lines and we continued drinking. Then things got really out of control she hit a car and ran away so basically it was a hit and run the car did not even follow us . Then she dropped me of at my house. I had missed calls from work but I didn't answer. Then nite came she called me I'm outside let the party continue! Right then and there I let her know I'm gay, so she don't get any wrong ideas . She was like it's okay I kinda knew besides I'm a lesbian she told me . We did not go home tht nite again we continued drinking n things got out of control again .we ended up having a threesome with some random guy we met at a bar In his truck in the back seat I only have flashbacks and also of getting kicked out the bar because I got nasty at the bar , Then Friday morning we kept drinking all day till 10pm goin to the stores drunk n all and her driving drunk . This Saturday Im here at home just disappointed wit my self in a matter of 2 days I lost my job I was involved in a hit and run , I did meth also , had a threesome with someone I didn't even know . I feel like such a looser. Like always I mess up everything. I wish I could change I don't want this terrible Life anymore",0.15728060671722946,2.4231061455399083,2.036455399061033,95.05361050920912,88.48356807511738,4.873167208378477,20.164138678223182,6.395487648340406,0.12538764897074728,1582,51,351,17,52,521,208,426,0.107,0.807,0.086,-0.8398,5,0,10,0,0,1,37.0,10,0,0,9,21,22,0,0,25,2,35,17,0,2,3,60,71,27,0,4,4,1,1,6,0,0,3,1,2,2,7,30,13,4,8,12,2,13,10,11,0,0,36,5,61,11,42,29,6,74,0,7,2,2,34,27,0,6,39,219,68,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07734541230336299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11575434957470647,0.1204413345604842,0.0,0.0,0.049216557871381815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07177520477669999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06442788484621828,0.0,0.0,0.06799741838139127,0.1113017255790549,0.0,0.04411829997919072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2217047388290612,0.16555233014291487,0.0,0.0,0.07656171607665016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16234638551243427,0.05778446346889848,0.0,0.0,0.1867000452262267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4253916931549593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282031290865223,0.0,0.0,0.09560421499271464,0.0654661020110069,0.0,0.0,0.1951342863215875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03659428761805918,0.05170374379459749,0.0,0.1585635728631044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07935396208175685,0.0,0.0,0.11343672137782596,0.0,0.08226321638641981,0.0,0.17365143717955225,0.07979219501758048,0.0,0.07166128343934723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14519332638877827,0.0,0.0,0.08350946497125153,0.0,0.08170103166032733,0.07817595196647853,0.0,0.28727868615533875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11932398154721133,0.058994177228108936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14801390335527687,0.10223928636421732,0.2121486323867289,0.0,0.06390725120080509,0.0,0.060775630911663374,0.0,0.23701313655491074,0.061529481714193625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07337551277032595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06944446074039523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05504341547805616,0.0,0.0,0.08036236380345936,0.0,0.06908882985428133,0.0501747701754059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04636440783986242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12361338842824275,0.0,0.057554424414707185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07550149196441787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06132195139902969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05122643580626975,0.0,0.05779768341866034,0.060507604790992424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09616366276235437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06915611575161776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08705657933386073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042687848765996565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0670910905512335,0.06530595425948782,0.0,0.08322611572908575,0.0,0.0,0.21075549128414872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07912921534007386,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,djalkidan,2019/09/21,"Alcohol help needed Hey reddit. I've been using alcohol as a coping mechanism for my anxiety and panic attacks for around 10 years, recent bar tabs have been £500 a month. Well, for the last year anyway. This is like 3 to 6 pints a day every day. I'm struggling to find the help and motivation to stop drinking so much. Does anyone have any tips on distracting myself with something rather than go to the pub? I'm a network engineer, love gaming and learning things so this should be in its self enough to keep me occupied but I cant resist going for a drink everyday and its starting to effect my professional and personal life. I dont really have a hangover as such every day but my mood is low. I've been on citalopram for 2 months and yet to see any improvement in my mood. Thanks in advance to any replies.",4.147587991718424,5.549857708074538,5.3269720496894415,80.76739389233957,71.29813664596273,8.59648033126294,27.702380952380953,9.075114841892004,2.2853474120082806,645,23,123,13,12,214,106,161,0.08199999999999999,0.7979999999999999,0.11900000000000001,0.7876,0,0,5,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,3,8,11,1,3,9,0,12,7,0,3,0,20,23,12,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,2,5,8,5,2,4,5,0,3,2,5,1,0,3,1,8,4,23,18,2,23,0,1,1,1,7,7,0,0,14,74,13,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3062030433235025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29226542376584763,0.0,0.1095936151174715,0.0,0.0,0.10017082097804406,0.0,0.0,0.1275318976737191,0.0,0.1629790911601159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771728164012604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12536791408458767,0.0,0.1678998173451383,0.2806807953428815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1480260206553402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2414056937217033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13093717274827327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16283607819106768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19204850433703985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12733619499783713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11677613492292155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10118887371483193,0.06998966814276808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12929786976177907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286977542204673,0.0,0.1053126867553132,0.10622557870084308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16808490737970766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1250892286039943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0917761141848658,0.0,0.14145210539568606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11415978377060385,0.0,0.1494515700833914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11028865496777854,0.0,0.0,0.10140026457531613,0.0,0.0,0.1197718919549417,0.0,0.14976660362738656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13189468947091734,0.0,0.0,0.09517567143955734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12373076415544182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288080708730235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1845096666154793 alcoholism,Tfamily8,2019/09/21,"What have you done....?? Hello there! Just curious... how long have you been sober? What have you done to stay sober? For me, the longest time I have stayed sober is 5 1/2 months over the past several years. Over the past 3 years it has been heavy drinking. I am definitely happier sober. But end up doing binge drinking ever so often that last about 2 weeks. I would like this last time to be the last time!!!",1.1215189873417728,3.675660708860765,1.680873417721518,97.08232278481016,87.48101265822784,5.185316455696203,16.760759493670886,6.742157984588678,-0.2398162025316455,312,7,68,4,10,95,54,79,0.0,0.867,0.133,0.894,0,0,2,0,0,0,21.0,0,3,0,0,7,1,0,0,4,0,14,2,0,1,1,6,14,3,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,7,1,7,8,0,20,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,16,44,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3584526311154977,0.0,0.3431358552560494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15511970868310082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584217599823487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4282809468455721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08556326273736592,0.0,0.0,0.1549910436015648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1397929619547233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3343768357797157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19785535476620986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3733462249152446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30637199180951913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1404846181408643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1244125485862749,0.0,0.0,0.22556542274211824 alcoholism,HeresToUs555,2019/09/21,"Quiting drinking and erections Ive been a nightly drinker for probably 3 years, and I decided to quite drinking about 2 weeks ago I was drinking a 1.75liter of whiskey about every 3 days, and I just decided this isn't a healthy way to love my life and isn't a way of life I want me kids to see and think this is ok. So great everything was going great feeling good in the mornings, lost a bit a wieght without changing my normal diet or workout, but then I started to notice it was taking way longer to get an erection and the slightest disturbance or break and I'd lose it. I've a read a bit online that others had similar issues but I was hoping to talk to someone who's had first hand experience with this. In only 31 and this is supppppper embarrassing for me, although my wife's been nothing but kind and gracious too me about it. So any DMs or comments i would be very thankful!",5.289223697650662,5.6259096179775305,5.8355158324821295,82.04640960163434,67.98876404494382,8.270480081716038,34.72114402451481,8.00094639256281,2.5696449438202245,704,33,138,8,11,228,109,178,0.09300000000000001,0.732,0.175,0.9364,0,0,5,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,5,7,12,0,2,11,1,15,9,1,0,0,26,27,19,0,4,8,1,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,10,10,5,0,4,6,0,1,3,4,0,1,9,3,14,8,18,16,2,15,0,2,1,1,6,2,0,4,8,89,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1153506641004042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08849153570764788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2841322536202157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1376582216444522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08392182648130131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3824278437241917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10963849379144328,0.0,0.11695069987719113,0.12729020169040925,0.0,0.0,0.06579665156413553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11068685213693004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06798653484732588,0.0,0.07395476913794631,0.109145233749348,0.0,0.2869332671757438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12924651443620028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13581987499126422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1355083385532174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1838265789262836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1455800015407127,0.14205013748585182,0.0,0.1174456449023611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12211635901796596,0.12749785937287592,0.12486137273895667,0.14815164644805415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0989682451783081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403000461175972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2768143961131251,0.1301632636550888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1036952074427447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1102570737691764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09210530295866014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09784009833046874,0.10459199674943626,0.0,0.11980442440891308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0833807995594214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10736926866623653,0.0767528948942483,0.3098687653759281,0.1043808718307548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254387957570062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09243923256494976,0.0,0.0,0.083798197241376 alcoholism,Ireallydontpostmuch,2019/09/21,"I was sober for 1.5 years I actually ended up taking a 2 year chip. I still can’t believe that I did that. Shortly after the 2 year mark I drank again, but this time people knew. I convinced myself that I could drink like normal people. I knew for a fact that this wouldn’t work but my brain convinced itself to try it out anyways. .....a couple months later my alcoholism is 10x worse than it’s ever been. I’ve always been more of a drug addict, but that didn’t help a damn thing. Right now I am trying to come off of the drugs and the alcohol. The drugs aren’t really physically addictive so I am convinced I can do this without an institution. I know the in’s and out’s of AA so I think if I dive right in I can make it work. I am not sure if this is allowed in this sub, but does anyone have any advice on kicking cocaine? I really struggle with this stuff....",1.7266666666666666,3.4553276111111124,3.613055555555558,89.19625000000002,78.44444444444444,6.277777777777778,20.694444444444443,7.1686216300943375,0.4567777777777775,670,17,145,8,16,226,109,180,0.079,0.8190000000000001,0.102,0.6017,2,0,7,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,2,7,7,1,1,11,0,18,10,1,2,3,26,26,10,0,5,8,0,0,1,0,1,7,0,0,0,17,6,4,0,4,1,0,1,6,2,1,0,8,0,20,5,19,16,1,24,0,0,0,0,1,11,1,2,13,102,37,2,0.0,0.0,0.127818275314401,0.2855766070474313,0.0,0.1279928304424847,0.0,0.27995708286626425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1089864404233283,0.0,0.0,0.08907137191504529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0915847554124539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14757040301707233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14621778633376822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11282828079402347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1045774361140851,0.1449276604091025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11462209888968695,0.0,0.0,0.12831122745856907,0.4556881076268744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11601002879336045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11847954778327477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0877936065877436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07198357083098504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06399055708707034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08743063864629637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10454755027040197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12833328249712014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1816110597057496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16781918902648685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2237136153069584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10460136137649403,0.0,0.0,0.13692947335606387,0.14994157204133665,0.0,0.0,0.12344776574893836,0.0,0.09848119051057004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08701776130913902,0.08392714793273955,0.0,0.0,0.07637590325785504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17785460377878715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12626072697348473,0.0,0.19071102855634794,0.0,0.13348052988120007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25304184177420186 alcoholism,thatdude390,2019/09/21,How did you do it? How did you guys quit alcohol? It’s the only thing that gives me true happiness and obliviousness to the world. How did you manage to find something else to distract you from this?,2.5265384615384607,4.985538000000002,3.3407051282051263,88.47721153846153,79.25641025641026,6.976923076923077,22.57051282051281,8.07648339933343,1.223405128205128,158,5,32,3,4,50,28,39,0.05,0.7929999999999999,0.157,0.6946,0,0,2,0,0,0,4.0,0,4,0,1,3,3,0,1,2,0,4,1,0,3,1,6,5,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,5,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,5,2,4,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,0,24,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3675788654379024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2873268073390641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31436485333431524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32994900446860354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3405654256408157,0.0,0.3661420844510008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2615901267924489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3658340756004373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2647901746743789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285056669935313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,kittenwithfluff,2019/09/21,"How can I handle my mom's drinking problem? I think my mom may be an alcoholic, she has very severe depression and has been through a lot in her life so she drinks to cope. She’s not a particularly bad mother to me, she’s done so much for me in terms of security, money, making sure I’m safe, etc etc - but emotionally she’s not always there for me. She doesn’t drink during the day and she goes to work and she works really hard, but when she comes home she drinks a lot and gets wasted to cope with her depression and she blacks out, she doesn’t remember our conversations. My older brother knows about it as well and her friends (who are my best friend’s parents) have also noticed. We try to talk to her about it but she says she’s fine and gets very defensive, angry, and denies that she has a problem. What can I do about this? As her daughter (21F), this is also very emotionally exhausting and disturbing to me as well and I’m tired of having to bear the emotional weight of my mom’s baggage and trauma. TL;DR: how can I help my mom with her alcoholism without having the situation escalate?",2.9580894015861574,4.883180684931509,4.315308819995194,84.6535976928623,75.48401826484019,7.715549146839702,23.855082912761354,8.532816995589336,1.5253506849315068,866,27,176,17,19,286,121,219,0.183,0.691,0.126,-0.9617,1,0,6,0,0,0,26.0,2,0,0,3,13,18,1,1,8,0,18,10,0,3,1,36,26,24,0,2,6,8,2,0,2,1,5,1,1,0,7,16,7,3,3,4,1,1,5,9,2,0,2,4,37,9,26,22,7,8,0,2,1,0,38,3,0,3,4,128,44,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20610341687251385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1542261283166313,0.08023543299581734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08051296316854352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10119474790148704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08306378232483679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062187782224972864,0.0,0.1661057875975029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09867884627943954,0.0,0.3778490921760375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3254039911160378,0.0,0.0,0.2150843799134135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1489993472489161,0.0,0.1007588133048572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08638013022973973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06463334348264725,0.0,0.09672467889382562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052994050927576766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06810961901536207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16395848237192445,0.0,0.0,0.0643661277645038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4517390499079664,0.0,0.0,0.07088533263649897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10978338665729076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10707136515661733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1845362545661373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061773947494045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10923359867815408,0.0,0.0,0.07668304541112529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10893566649395237,0.0,0.0,0.10838858845116893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0908818096889802,0.0,0.0,0.0775047992762437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06178687025955928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11082926535138003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06546796596467246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23868844295083014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174227587696204,0.1733998672223478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09295270181992099,0.0,0.1404007865002347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,HardenedGlass,2019/09/21,"How do I stop when everything I feel is because of it Idk what I really want it say here tbh. I went through a rough time recently and it has helped me see the bigger picture, but not big enough apparently. Idk I only feel like me when I'm a mess or when I'm not with it and don't remember it. I wish I could be better for my friends. I know it is about anxiety and not excepting my issues but even that doesn't make it better idk what to do at this point. All that makes the pain go away is booze and music but only at the same time :/",2.588910256410258,3.032015871794872,4.334262820512824,90.03677884615387,74.04273504273505,8.243162393162393,23.172008547008552,8.472884824447931,1.013718803418803,415,10,101,7,8,141,73,117,0.17,0.7020000000000001,0.128,-0.3271,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,7,6,0,0,5,0,10,2,0,3,1,26,22,12,0,3,8,0,3,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,12,5,1,1,4,0,0,2,5,2,0,0,1,5,12,4,10,19,3,15,0,0,1,0,3,6,0,1,8,69,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14696219259170265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18049191067652326,0.0,0.0,0.1171073321398826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3398080565731582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15338270874374108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19849905063187745,0.0,0.12688560715627498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1726543988240673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1942712840944358,0.1372420854902667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484222636476718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10917947664351746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12876602916636987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20051097504847107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10557760344266427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09385432790041308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2564673352315618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2922137771193658,0.2044165935103151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1816042764059008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12306938642088955,0.0,0.18968360094135245,0.0,0.2176210605152285,0.0,0.0,0.15277209455559174,0.0,0.0,0.153085306208208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16061099758126907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22403958941314905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11331035162584563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1780861599045314,0.0,0.0,0.22091486711852984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,abweiss1215,2019/09/03,Am I not physically addicted to alcohol? I'll keep it short. For about the pat year I've drank at minimum a half pint and at max a 750. Occasional 2-3 day break in between. I never really tried quitting. My brother has been recently hospitalized from drinking and thought I should quit or at the very least take a lengthy break. After seeing him go though withdrawal I was prepared for hell. I haven't drank in a week and had no withdrawal symptoms. Am I just not physically/mentally addicted?,2.584642166344296,5.382187638297875,4.438471953578335,78.46136363636364,82.19148936170212,8.950096711798839,29.822050290135394,9.339509955726095,3.4847574468085103,394,20,72,13,11,133,70,94,0.084,0.868,0.048,-0.7236,0,0,2,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,3,1,1,0,6,0,8,7,0,0,1,11,15,5,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,3,4,1,1,1,0,1,5,1,0,1,6,1,8,0,12,8,1,15,1,0,1,0,2,6,1,1,6,47,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4761671872621541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333986282714082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14084718523155548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2139446816207661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12411933229134516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19412016888673805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16844025878923202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4645815058945787,0.0,0.0,0.13990990374447196,0.0,0.21563944634329335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17403312943346178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269967966760709,0.16420641721490148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2145727062432163,0.1733818229626873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1482763719664617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18019935821320035,0.0,0.0,0.17518388964822254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14063969653420594 alcoholism,23Wings,2019/09/03,"College student I’m a senior in college currently and have been getting consistently drunk 4-5 nights a week for the past four years. I joined a fraternity my freshman year with the intention of meeting a new group of guys. Looking back, I have had an awesome time with plenty of memories but I recently have been feeling some serious negative side effects the days I don’t drink. I can’t concentrate, throw myself in thought loops, and simply am not acting or feeling like myself anymore. I mean it’s gotta a be the booze & I know it’s sidetracking my life but it’s impossible to find myself in a sober atmosphere after creating a drinking party boy identity & immersing my social life around parties. If any of y’all went through something like this or have any advice I’m all ears.",4.762196467991171,6.691232940397358,5.728096026490062,76.40728752759381,70.58940397350995,9.006843267108167,33.77538631346579,9.516144504307137,3.517608830022075,638,32,110,15,12,210,104,151,0.055999999999999994,0.7909999999999999,0.153,0.9224,1,0,3,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,1,2,3,0,0,12,0,11,7,1,2,1,21,22,7,0,1,6,0,2,2,0,1,2,1,0,2,4,5,4,0,7,3,0,3,4,1,0,1,5,4,14,2,14,15,2,21,0,0,1,0,6,5,0,4,15,68,18,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1718031902651773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3809883126692979,0.0,0.23911879756698384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1743600264181445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1565115381948518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351899438860879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11338534288822112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3444611412688288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1777934587769862,0.12560139900665954,0.0,0.0,0.1606906090752884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09185544319824372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1740832828344485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09662265513379573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24836494339371185,0.1717874636633626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1476392947161193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19151274715011954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16980204353924375,0.0,0.16498932184940307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16783414601279856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1735948966510309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1792200071672573,0.0,0.13535003673050042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13957650211390055,0.10251842852229463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14102720876956384,0.0,0.0,0.16298113474324294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22643661907776125 alcoholism,aysbsloshs,2019/09/03,How do you cope with the things you’ve done while drunk? I have stopped drinking for a few weeks now and I am having a hard time thinking about the embarrassing and shitty things I did while I was drunk. I usually just drank and that would push these thoughts to the back of my mind but now they are constantly there and can’t do anything about it. Does anyone fell the same or has anyone any advice?,5.351125,5.795896862500001,4.662499999999998,90.1325,67.875,7.9,26.0,7.554174236665415,1.00245,319,8,69,3,5,95,61,80,0.139,0.861,0.0,-0.7587,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,1,0,9,1,0,1,6,0,12,4,0,1,0,15,15,9,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,5,4,1,2,3,0,2,1,1,0,0,5,1,8,0,6,9,2,12,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,10,53,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397672722805294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1668562200595427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3431290160833049,0.0,0.2019140119281975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18867009416585398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26515177159491105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21472005813793632,0.2510929912023531,0.0,0.2403637211893073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2197983265675179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2477481194905414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20513564249385027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3260184370784108,0.15721961347795935,0.0,0.1947919426563214,0.1430739669463474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2702342447048087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1968165382250691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17429984469870016,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,i_eat_peppers,2019/09/03,"In the middle of the 4th day no drinks, withdrawals are intense. Not sure how seriously I should take this. The past couple hours my midsection has been full of small pains all over the place, that's a recent development. Since saturday though I keep losing all my stuff. Im incredibly anxious, have no appetite & have thrown up most of what I've tried to eat. Up until last Friday I was consistently drinking about every day (give or take a day or two in between) since late November 2018. Should I seek medical help or try & ride this out?",4.679903846153849,6.403784875,5.0242307692307735,82.19576923076926,70.44230769230771,8.276923076923078,26.461538461538463,8.841846274778883,1.9233115384615385,433,14,83,8,8,137,78,104,0.133,0.815,0.052000000000000005,-0.8194,0,0,2,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,6,0,8,5,0,1,3,13,12,6,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,5,1,3,1,0,2,0,1,3,3,0,1,2,0,6,1,13,8,4,21,0,1,0,0,2,10,0,4,10,51,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3421826608935996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1783890897314426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17472023620453486,0.0,0.3055093585206815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3093759728953293,0.0,0.16157749104837096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330428062710668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1514780410358841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10584121510661708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15550582532137716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17056582147106647,0.0,0.0,0.14035430947144184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12871465006574898,0.17812510140994786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1766566766118256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15907391062728338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16802335821921746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15073936066200055,0.0,0.0,0.16497839807173892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15591334872563412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2612433246474792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18076485061575048,0.0,0.0,0.1488247497385387,0.0,0.2374516613204072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15514206580850887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21441592512137134,0.0,0.1542514386243223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Hakuna_Mata,2019/09/03,"I had 5-6 vivd dreams (mostly nightmares) last night on my 2nd night alcohol free. When will it stop? Today is day 3 of my sobriety after getting drunk every day for almost 2 years. My Doctor prescribed me .25mg of Xanax as needed throughout the day. The Xanax helps a lot to get me through the day and I’m taking it as needed, 2-3 over the last 2 days. The first night I slept fine, but last night was terrible. I would fall asleep and dream about something for 45 minutes to an hour then wake up. Each time was a different dream, mostly bad ones. How long can I expect this to continue until I can get back to sleeping normally?",2.5893414459556223,4.415153574803148,3.5930422333571954,89.86596993557625,76.24409448818898,6.507945597709378,22.56907659269864,7.348242739294969,0.7730377952755902,492,14,102,6,11,158,88,127,0.096,0.8079999999999999,0.096,-0.5204,1,0,2,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,1,4,4,0,0,8,0,8,9,4,1,0,15,16,9,0,5,1,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,3,3,2,1,0,4,1,1,0,2,0,2,4,0,10,3,17,10,4,29,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,4,25,59,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14893273830348192,0.13954823521962015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10715872005035906,0.1163592167036771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4493761838754344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14560083522091175,0.0,0.14264017597907389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11741624321493273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1185389720505206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21842848898013012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09340961908005996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13724086494441662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3407893537660213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12332861869651154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1184783159749274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20666634977986573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5231171503778748,0.13654255132313067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09443348638080293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13945997028172674,0.0,0.0,0.10728561813022602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11651063717085595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1047808701531052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08126154406336605,0.0,0.13209634679890306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09899686723254636,0.0,0.0,0.08974283728288696 alcoholism,RalphBecker,2019/09/03,"3 days sober and i can't This is fucking impossible, i can't all my thoughts are about booze, it crushes me. I was getting drunk 1.5 years in a row, each day and i think this attempt is a fucking failure. I feel like i killing my self, without drinking. I need to get drunk I FUCKING NEED TO",-0.5909471766848817,1.6182256065573808,1.174644808743171,98.71293260473593,96.21311475409836,3.3668488160291434,26.44990892531877,5.033348758259628,0.3929985428051008,226,12,51,1,9,73,42,61,0.26,0.695,0.046,-0.9174,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,1,5,4,0,2,0,6,7,0,0,1,10,16,2,1,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,3,4,0,3,3,0,0,3,4,0,0,2,1,11,1,5,14,2,4,0,0,0,3,1,1,3,0,4,31,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29353711066457416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2229391506183327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11506993949806008,0.162581294992376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6311747426461687,0.23779953130103715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2517806049524745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11118279146064436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3374914234595484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23741279521646844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14582236835031187,0.0,0.18067098490663208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21937643170790225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14655234358259747 alcoholism,lilsnakey5,2019/09/03,"How do I quit casual drinking? I’m 19 and in my country you’re allowed to drink when you’re 18. The truth is that I don’t drink a lot or often. Only sometimes when I go out with friends or when we’re having dinner but I never drink more than a few glasses. I don’t party a lot either, clubbing isn’t my thing. During the summer I feel like people drink more often and daily casual drinking is a lot more common. I hate the person I become when I’m drunk, and I really want to quit the casual drinking. I’d rather drink just water for dinners but I don’t know how to go through with this. I’m afraid people will think that I’m somewhat of a prude or weird, that I’m someone who can’t control themselves after a glass or two. This isn’t true of course but I just feel like I don’t have any reasons to drink. Has anyone here done something like this?",1.3023139421514465,3.152989143646412,3.1004744881377952,91.79729606759831,80.21546961325967,5.142801429964251,20.039324016899574,5.900188976854957,-0.03249132271693212,669,17,143,4,17,223,94,181,0.062,0.772,0.16699999999999998,0.9341,1,0,10,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,3,12,12,1,1,10,0,15,14,0,5,3,37,28,16,0,2,11,0,2,3,1,1,0,0,0,1,8,6,13,2,5,14,0,2,8,3,0,1,1,2,14,9,14,26,9,12,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,10,11,94,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06443437648287409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06625256222578971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10464576179029547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1062720411297255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09696384301148572,0.0,0.8353849708790395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09581857031394228,0.1353812065419692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07320489578153894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10769910137126563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0935476455900243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05207303316186905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13887262174303655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24166341335344335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07307831975667453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07206290543692491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.131377738356777,0.08273349285695339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20156010258381168,0.0,0.0,0.06070033824726999,0.09742048509391593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0802827721807651,0.07294445532849295,0.09371181236666036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06294879120350515,0.0607130364197137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09255860172497496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05588698270651712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,peeledraspberry,2019/09/03,"How did your addiction start? Hi! I have been drinking quite a bit during my teenage years. Nothing crazy, just going out with friends. With adulthood (18 where I am) I started to drink more and more with my friends. About two years ago I started being cool with drinking by myself. I don’t usually do it often anymore but last night I drank way too much all by myself. Today is the 4th day in a row that I’m waking up feeling like shit because I drank too much the night before. My friend has told me before that my drinking is a bit concerning but not a huge red flag. Now I’m worried, how close am I to becoming an alcoholic? For the past two days I did kind of feel like kicking off the day with some beer or red wine, so that’s certainly a bad sign. My brother has been an alcoholic since I can think and I don’t want that for myself. I’m easily addicted (weed and tobacco). Would any of you care to share your story? When did you realize that your drinking is problematic and when did you start doing anything against it? What would you say should I do? Stop drinking for a week? 2? Thanks for the help, I’ll appreciate any replies!",2.1580023923445,4.322121793859651,3.201818181818183,90.56590909090907,78.86842105263158,6.426156299840512,24.83732057416268,7.520522993642371,1.1706947368421048,891,33,186,13,22,285,134,228,0.08800000000000001,0.723,0.19,0.9703,0,0,11,0,0,0,27.0,0,7,0,1,12,13,1,0,13,1,24,16,2,2,2,32,41,12,0,4,5,1,2,2,3,3,4,1,0,0,8,11,12,1,4,8,0,1,3,2,0,2,9,6,28,11,22,28,8,30,0,0,2,0,16,7,1,3,23,122,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20885782465922853,0.0,0.0,0.08491504217358375,0.20474795862981826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13028555223712462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09500128204518944,0.0,0.0,0.07882978093082506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07998346219652347,0.058394748892976626,0.10579625045139493,0.16302620376869606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20916309834189734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09766772444461226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1853363955167444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5630461988485186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09687201172220364,0.13686960454670274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2220291588270569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05444157941579079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06420827630275319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09975405319819396,0.0,0.07808438147000364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09359960320361893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14083829733978906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17979117601038133,0.0,0.09191632154584982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09144561038284033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10188803984579214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07617873224856476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.098330517149629,0.07924126510791779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27121215976139074,0.0,0.0,0.08008754620082906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08819366434171343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061380523174903785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09080091341105624,0.0915346696412626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1871524052574574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10550286286056468,0.0,0.056501411220456925,0.07603631785269471,0.0768396628034058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0972828165942281,0.0,0.1360977224182088,0.0,0.0,0.1233755784297526 alcoholism,letsgoflying54,2019/09/03,"Unsure about things So I’m 28 years old and have been drinking for quite some time. The reason I am reaching out is because I am unsure of what my status is, if it’s even fixable, or if I will need to go 100% sober for the rest of my life. Long story short, I’m mostly a binge drinker, I go out every few weekends and I drink with friends. I don’t really drink during the week at all and if I do it’s 1 or 2 drinks rarely, and I stop no problem. The Problem is, is on weekends once I hit a certain point, it’s like a switch is turned and I can’t stop drinking until I am completely inebriated, it’s almost a feeling of “I’m not drunk enough.” This is kind of an ongoing problem, it’s not every time I go out, sometimes I can keep it under control, but a lot of times I can’t. I’m so scared because my fiancé almost broke up with me this weekend because it’s been an issue we’ve talked about, and I can turn into a jerk and say stupid things when she’s just trying to help me. She’s tired of “babysitting” me when I get to that level of drunk. This is my last chance, she will not have this conversation with me again. One of my methods to try and fix it have been trying to count my drinks and set a hard number when I go out, but after a certain point I lose it or forget what I was at and then all bets are out the window. What makes all this confusing for me is I don’t need alcohol, I have no problem not drinking. I have no problem having one or 2 drinks casually and stopping, it’s an issue when I start to get above 6-8 drinks when I’m out partying that the switch is turned. My plan is to completely abstain from alcohol for the month of September at the very least. Learn how to have fun sober, and then after I have learned to do that, maybe have a few drinks with friends, and if I feel myself getting to my old ways, removing myself from the situation. All of my friends are behind me on any choice that I choose and my fiancé will be there to help me as well as my family, so I have a support system in place. My question is, what do you guys think, is this a good plan? Are there any other good methods, or do I need to go 100% sober for the rest of my life? I just want to be able to go out and drink like a normal person, but my health and my fiancé are more important than alcohol will ever be. Thanks in advance",6.034059139784951,4.1531405241935495,6.7441935483870985,83.51962365591399,67.14516129032259,9.637634408602151,30.747311827956988,7.937092434478242,1.8283295698924733,1804,50,413,17,24,600,202,496,0.09300000000000001,0.7509999999999999,0.156,0.9808,0,0,17,0,0,0,46.0,0,1,0,6,19,26,2,2,25,0,50,20,0,4,7,87,80,42,0,14,18,0,3,2,3,4,7,1,1,2,27,28,16,6,8,17,1,8,11,11,1,2,4,4,57,15,62,68,14,62,0,2,0,0,15,22,0,17,31,291,84,2,0.060325179203409685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1934078115298606,0.12081390603626582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08204638099371632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11032100797298566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12649960532042234,0.0,0.06765981803072793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6500528054213581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062332036053990576,0.0,0.03984421192353696,0.05456757827117185,0.10165313056503468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056869210149513974,0.0,0.06100444634814164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13982125142843166,0.0,0.0945522489114886,0.0,0.20570513721358805,0.10119579641415692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05973141172253929,0.0,0.0,0.05403951149350183,0.0,0.0,0.06412284456066934,0.0,0.0,0.08086939203968578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259276282295224,0.0,0.05361979105054606,0.0,0.06281939105166814,0.0,0.04917307254519255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08521891619773214,0.05894367083257088,0.0,0.0,0.053385885272334586,0.0,0.0674884449453782,0.0,0.051286310109916036,0.0,0.0,0.04026752555096942,0.0,0.06060475076500909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04815098250438096,0.0,0.0,0.13419106800527428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05910586737103137,0.0,0.0,0.12660225557315058,0.0642443470507661,0.08175580531227854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05267361962978468,0.06302697270767013,0.0,0.1140535863366352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2886152470212767,0.0,0.0,0.06757800677365103,0.06416325365590902,0.0,0.0,0.038645854512200144,0.06202433136551368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04797300377795129,0.06039602819521268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06780802895056058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059663144743010314,0.0,0.04269847233216675,0.0,0.0,0.15130365299029794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0684562984743129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04848709396652577,0.0,0.055539320067066335,0.0,0.0,0.08015473708431718,0.038653939009568684,0.0,0.0,0.10552829134724588,0.0693349193019654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1228705104910594,0.19684941648608106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04977459060666629,0.03558135366566995,0.047883319345702974,0.048389219998259285,0.0,0.05423958086664017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03884743756830475 alcoholism,shrekdaddy666,2019/09/03,"First vacation since becoming sober first time posting here! today marks four months booze free for me (!!!). next week i’m going on a trip to Chicago for a music festival. Every time I go to Chicago, it’s a big party. I’m not really in a position to avoid these situations. This is my first time traveling since my sobriety. Any advice for trying to keep it together while being on vacation? My sobriety has been manageable at home bc I stopped going out and putting myself in those situations but i don’t want to miss out on seeing an awesome city/festival/friends. I wanna have a good time. any and all comments welcome!",3.164887005649721,5.756138228813557,4.8450000000000015,77.8406073446328,77.72881355932203,8.679096045197742,28.47740112994349,9.2995712137729,3.0998112994350286,493,22,86,14,12,166,81,118,0.040999999999999995,0.7759999999999999,0.183,0.9599,0,1,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,3,1,6,0,1,6,0,6,1,0,0,1,12,15,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,4,1,3,0,1,1,6,2,2,0,4,1,1,9,5,17,13,1,29,0,1,1,0,2,9,0,0,13,54,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15795684094356874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21984719734020647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1785233185987458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361922097288638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4124834205348326,0.0,0.0,0.12488590755146682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27559837098941325,0.1355794853764872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1621423117525435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1436767916105021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12902285785860815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17191043997281955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15481046052922265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16249706691657695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10355341333062906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12880949884977816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2674275044091029,0.3633897057101406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13514178872313584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3770241305271725,0.0,0.15321980055792606,0.0,0.0,0.10974580085089787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09534193691696556,0.0,0.12966122660438525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,toxicricki,2019/09/03,I can't do this I'm really really struggling to get sober. I know it could be so much worse but I'm drinking 5-9 drink a night and trying to cut back to taper off but I just can't seem to be able to do it. It's really hard. I have a doctor's appt tomorrow (gap in insurance) any tips on what I should say or look for? Love you all. Thanks for the help!,-1.6799999999999995,0.14594871604938575,1.554185185185187,98.34683333333336,92.70370370370372,5.709135802469136,13.038271604938268,7.1686216300943375,-0.5520380246913579,270,4,71,5,10,96,58,81,0.11,0.727,0.163,0.8140000000000001,0,0,2,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,0,3,4,1,1,3,0,9,4,0,0,1,10,17,5,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,5,1,2,0,2,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,6,2,10,13,2,6,0,0,1,1,4,3,0,2,3,42,11,1,0.21853154395227767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14860894365350033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16803726815211684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17447965577232236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.223676295209542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42815543449109256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141737121582104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19576133941155907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14647708746396634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12009922146256602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18351145834416596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19723325045804999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16064582936664035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20507705026643708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4199907086274606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17378505496476987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19894291014335916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2284566180240632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20119448503237455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14836857355630848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2227023129594797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,FunkyFre5h,2019/03/23,"Different drinks,different kind of drunk? So the question says,why do i get drunk more/faster when chugging pints of lager beer than when i drink vodka with juice!? For example,tonight i had 0.6 liters(600ml) of vodka with a liter of juice and i'm not getting the same effect that i would if i had like 7-8 pints of good ol' regular beer,i'm dissapointed to tell you the truth!",5.0645945945945945,6.037289243243244,5.011729729729733,85.49137837837841,68.72972972972973,8.622702702702702,28.313513513513517,8.841846274778883,1.9199654054054047,300,10,62,5,5,93,54,74,0.077,0.8,0.12300000000000001,0.5037,2,0,6,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,1,3,4,0,0,4,0,4,4,0,1,1,10,7,5,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,4,0,2,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,6,4,10,4,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,3,32,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6087596253534643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2853943357954485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3044177709473505,0.0,0.0,0.2443553627355589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3033773265528615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14233004312067732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3263583852937874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2546369081971221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2628817121624208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20695381216809128,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,throwawayUSAF9999,2019/03/23,"Need some help I've been drinking to the point of blacking out every night for the past 2 year or so (since my ex wife cheated). I really want to stop, but I'm worried about DTs. What's the best way to taper down to sober? Due to my profession, I'm hesitant to check into a facility.",3.34,3.786164333333337,5.206666666666667,84.45000000000002,72.33333333333334,8.666666666666668,26.666666666666664,8.841846274778883,1.7656666666666667,220,7,49,4,4,76,48,60,0.11199999999999999,0.746,0.142,0.4432,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,0,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,8,5,3,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,3,1,12,4,2,10,0,0,1,0,3,4,0,2,5,26,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32122625295284474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29985510754842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2578969828174179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20516802673352827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22696445823322894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28724802260864235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2922008892938605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2893573039239145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1960913396704677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2532037135119723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2559078792658667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18054188206363228,0.24296277975697345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3108528162569859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19711418395804692 alcoholism,throwaway4ere,2019/03/23,"Wife is having problems and I don’t know what to do. Lately I’ve been thinking my wife has a drinking problem. She has increased her drinking and regularly drinks until she falls asleep or “passes out” at night. When she works she starts drinking when she gets home, if she’s off she basically drinks all day and can become very contentious and difficult. Two weeks ago, she was in quite rare form and we got into a verbal argument. She started to throw things around the house and then she started throwing things at me- glass jars from the fridge and whatever else she could grab in the kitchen. She broke our expensive TV by throwing something into it, she deliberately broke me glasses and my expensive blender. After that, she physically attacked me by charging up to me and trying to tackle me. My phone and case were damaged when this occurred. I am a good sized guy and was not seriously injured, but I definitely questioned what would be appropriate from a self defense standpoint. I did not engage in violence and was able to wrestle free from her and leave the house. She called me several times stating that I have a more serious problem than she has, which is not true, and that I am the reason she drinks. When that didn’t convince me to come back to the house, she threatened self harm. I didn’t come back to the house but stayed close enough I could ensure she was safe. The next morning, she told me that whatever happened that she got so upset to attack and destroy things is my fault and I should leave. I had planned to do so until she changed her mind. I assume she had just thought better about what had happened the night before. In the next few days she told me she wouldn’t be drinking anymore, but she of course has drank every day. She’ll point out that we didn’t get into an argument, etc, the next day as a way to justify the action. At this point, it seems evident she has no intention of trying to stop drinking. I hate it when she does because she’s just mean and argumentative now, and I’m afraid another explosive and dangerous situation will arise. I’m not sure what to do and I don’t even want to be around her at all now, which I’ve never felt before and we’ve been married for ten years. Thanks for reading, open to any resources or suggestions. 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My close friends, my family, my coworkers. The job I work in is very much a corporate happy hour environment. It’s really hard for me to have a social life without drinking because of this. I’ve spent countless hours in AA meetings and that is not a place I want to be. It’s very depressing for me personally. Sober get togethers with strangers is like torture because I have serious social anxiety. I honestly don’t know how to socialize without alcohol. Any advice?",3.686982591876209,6.758322978723407,5.317195357833653,72.16136363636362,79.85106382978722,9.801160541586077,33.01353965183753,9.800150414767053,4.51911914893617,416,23,66,15,11,140,68,94,0.131,0.74,0.129,0.4321,1,0,3,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,1,7,1,0,4,0,7,4,0,1,0,10,12,2,0,1,3,0,1,1,1,0,2,0,0,1,4,3,3,0,2,2,1,0,4,3,1,0,1,1,10,4,11,10,1,6,0,1,0,0,7,4,0,0,3,40,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2757240393888611,0.0,0.1507719172170649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09593943025332116,0.0,0.10792603030109738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17200246204986502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12151224097569036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2764099349277022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13480825621900927,0.0,0.0,0.13299793493922948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10899827664044044,0.0,0.07370862496610843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15018258457478115,0.1263802225292894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27787132048876323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400004117805854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1550680678795691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09964917608544008,0.06892470000778285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10371024087179632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12318586134953899,0.1473988682725347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09037964182325556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5752543272238965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23281201710830385,0.08321280614650721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2719927165994433,0.0,0.10270812624381696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Cmoney-6,2019/03/23,Am I the only one who’s ever drank mouthwash or rubbing alcohol? I’ve been sober for a long time 4 years and was really really bad alcoholic. I feel like I might be the only one who’s ever done this. When I was low on money or couldn’t find anyone to buy me booze ( I was underage ) I’d often resort to mouth wash or rubbing alcohol. Talking about almost going blind from it. I remember going to rehab and I was like the youngest alcoholic they’d ever had and every body thought I was crazy because I did this. I’m not the only one who’s ever done this right? ,2.1328205128205155,3.7826288205128265,4.504623931623931,83.60565384615388,77.03418803418803,7.4150427350427375,22.81111111111111,8.238735603445708,1.3859408547008545,440,13,88,8,10,154,72,117,0.105,0.8490000000000001,0.046,-0.7471,0,0,4,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,0,7,4,0,0,5,0,15,11,2,0,4,19,21,7,0,1,4,0,3,2,0,1,7,0,0,0,7,3,6,0,4,0,2,2,2,2,0,3,12,4,11,2,7,5,0,13,0,1,1,0,5,3,0,6,10,60,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5480553011684927,0.12838035302381956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08964500950667614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10704712456222384,0.07815353057819938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1424085889252391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26239965177331315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4638807032697094,0.10801955847697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06482509021640398,0.09159079392370968,0.0,0.0,0.11717847553998803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14572548807069938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1252705010254986,0.0,0.0,0.11345877345765325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13600690258181322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2606282544474561,0.2925206041521439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16426481381022892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1452330430269004,0.10948770393417503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10304757862316176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1017816898761508,0.07475827764999808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08256082288395984 alcoholism,xiwasneverherex,2019/03/23,"When Do I know If I'm An Alcoholic? I've been a binge drinker for a few years now. 4 days ago, I decided to stop drinking completely for a variety of reasons regarding my health, career, productivity, family, etc.. but I thought I'd be going crazy at this point for a drink. I also thought my body and mind would be experiencing all sorts of problems with anxiety, tremors, seizures, etc .. So far I feel fine. My body and mind is doing fine. I've experienced maybe two minor temptations to drink that only last like 5 seconds. Is it still too soon and I'm going to start craving and obsessing over alcohol pretty soon? I hope not. &#x200B; I'd still like to drink maybe 6 or 7 times a year on special occasions or whatever. And even then, I'm only going to limit it to 1-2 drinks at most. 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I came in the door and she tried to tell me the beer was all she had. She could barely walk, she kept trying to shower but I made sure she didn’t because it was so dangerous. I made her drink water and sat with her for a little bit before she went to bed. She has work in the morning. When I first got out of her room I was on the verge of a breakdown but now I just feel numb. I don’t know who to talk to about this. None of my friends really understand addiction. I’m really sad that I might loose my mom. I grew up in a very abusive home and she’s the only parent I have. I hate leaving her alone but I have to drive back to the town where I go to college in the morning. I want to throw up ",-0.4557729580064596,1.4894347309644689,1.5591255191509,99.83344600830642,87.4771573604061,5.0031379787724966,16.06114443931703,6.351523495107088,-0.6401350253807108,690,14,173,7,22,228,121,197,0.179,0.799,0.022000000000000002,-0.9867,2,1,4,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,2,8,7,2,0,11,1,13,9,0,2,2,25,30,11,0,2,5,4,2,0,1,1,2,0,5,0,5,9,7,1,3,4,0,7,4,4,0,1,16,3,31,3,26,12,4,29,0,1,1,0,20,14,0,1,8,106,36,2,0.0,0.17675077673752296,0.0,0.16262534070120513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15450275437316904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11470818089229308,0.0,0.09093713342438604,0.0,0.12693894506641282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16286303941674107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17061915737942285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1191059824790686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2922740387874122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07542855498202379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1268901853471889,0.0,0.0,0.11525405750304085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0847809309059898,0.0,0.11931076159312312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13363361223303616,0.1472817577157964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14963705424250753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08198397517436694,0.0,0.0,0.15795728365717454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14951490400351442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28231044806258554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1582536035828156,0.0,0.3494294397644788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15653654392420396,0.0,0.0,0.11345610369898315,0.0,0.0,0.16564380320504565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28670050821529136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14059789540387174,0.0,0.0,0.11990311041595265,0.13038758701303435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20256326898651889,0.0,0.0,0.1552988917277631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12308694428130068,0.0879886713827238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1382889063251027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10860289403642286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09606532821589564 alcoholism,where-is-james,2019/03/23,"Tonight I figured out how to use an audio interface because I needed money for beer I’ve had a rough couple weeks. Because I drink too much. Back in December I bought an iRig to record some demos with the intention of making a record this year. I opened the box and had a look and went through the registration. Didn’t even record one thing until tonight. I packed that little device in my bag and went to the pawn shop and they made me prove that it worked before they gave me money .... for booze. I figured out how to work the thing right then and there. My alcoholism has come to a new low ",3.070508474576272,4.912227915254243,3.312000000000001,92.3342711864407,74.9322033898305,6.4149152542372905,21.969491525423727,7.1686216300943375,0.4933837288135594,466,12,99,5,10,143,78,118,0.02,0.98,0.0,-0.2732,0,0,3,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,2,2,6,1,0,0,11,0,4,4,0,6,1,21,14,9,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,6,10,4,0,3,3,4,3,1,1,0,1,8,3,13,0,15,6,2,19,0,1,1,0,3,8,0,1,8,64,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2243303925319795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16140814978595974,0.0,0.25591887760213416,0.0,0.178618299929189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18081923314883724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23226187825257666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20563228997346786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386438473746097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2103853782084872,0.0,0.0,0.17627187874204855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19862230719975066,0.1401168299515011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15430830537799226,0.15564591068888164,0.0,0.20273278388692895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422407276552008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1792623448663809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27891030084862434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1812951993553331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16837747085799376,0.0,0.0,0.3891781097429716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3056345598275877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351754231066396 alcoholism,OtterlyLion,2019/03/23,"I need some support and advice! Please!! Long rant bare with me. Really need to some help and support. My parents met at AA, when I was 3 they got divorced and we moved across country. When I was 6 she relapsed and wasn’t sober again until I was about 15 and then it was off and on until she got pregnant with my sister about ten years ago and has been sober until about six months ago (prob longer) I knew she had started drinking every now and then, but I didn’t realize how bad until I recently went and visited her. It’s bad. I feel helpless and I don’t know what to do. She isn’t the most stable person to begin with, but her mother is dying of cancer, her husband is emotionally abusive and a “functioning” alcoholic, my sister has special needs, and she is a mean drunk and a meaner person to confront about any addiction. I feel like that helpless kid again. Alone, terrified, confused, and totally lost. As a child I was afraid, now I’m absolutely terrified of what life could be like for my sister. I’m terrified if she stays with her husband and terrified if she leaves him. I know what it’s like to be raised by a single mother who is struggling with an addiction. I was able to go to the store, make food, do my own laundry, escape to friends houses. My sister won’t be able to do any of that or communicate what’s going on. She has been an amazing mom and advocates and loves my sister. I’m just really worried about what the future holds if she continues with this relapse. I have no clue what to do. I live 15 hours away and can’t move closer. No one else in my family is even remotely capable of making a difference or providing her any support. My husband is away on business. I tell him all this today and then he texts me drunk tonight.... he doesn’t understand at all. I need some support and advise. Please I don’t know what to do. Cliff notes: moms life is shit she relapsed and I don’t know how to help or what to do and don’t have a support system. 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How do you know when you go from drinking to alcoholic?,-0.09928571428571333,2.231877642857146,1.4685714285714295,97.00142857142859,94.0,5.6571428571428575,21.285714285714285,7.1686216300943375,0.7275428571428577,53,2,12,1,2,17,10,14,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,0,4,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,9,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.560697363506283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5139628274998298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2981739134087396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5766740811480962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,JaguarGod087,2019/03/23,"Strange Kindling. Lately if I have 2-5 drinks. The first day after I will feel kinda crappy. The next day a little anxious. Then the third day. My blood sugar plummets. I get the shakes, and have intense anxiety. This gradually fades across a few days. Drinking sugar based drinks, and resting calms the shakes. I am so confused. I have never heard of this type of thing happening. How could 3-4 drinks cause such a reaction. It is like those drinks are setting off moderate withdrawl days later. It is really scary, and nobody seems to have the same thing going on.",2.2814285714285703,5.173593857142858,2.8435714285714297,88.03392857142859,86.61904761904762,5.285714285714287,21.785714285714285,6.868970318607317,0.8772857142857151,445,15,79,6,14,138,76,105,0.14,0.8029999999999999,0.057,-0.8359,0,0,5,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,1,3,5,0,3,9,0,10,8,1,2,1,13,16,7,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,7,3,7,0,2,5,0,3,1,3,0,2,1,4,6,2,7,13,3,21,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,4,14,53,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11094271694452193,0.16383547711875338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14897926621448696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11578960643039332,0.0,0.0,0.4676413749371601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7103399681658168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07332832921735634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1233570666680215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07576888627489657,0.0,0.08242029844413651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12824395976371944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.163593025897824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07085124378351004,0.14535182473380284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11185120112335753,0.0,0.15423432711908389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09290588185603604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13202411000670242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19269457559558686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,BownerBoulevard,2018/12/19,"How significant is the impact of Binge-drinking actually on the brain? As someone who is 21 and has recently quit drinking entirely i have been drinking quite heavily since my 18. With quite heavily i imply not necessarily frequent(though at times this was the case) but rather intensively to a degree one would call severe binge drinking. I cut down considerably since the beginning of 2017 having started drinking since the beginning of 2015. During this time a friend and i always got rather happy-drunk and did stuff that at the time others didn't really partake in(just overall funny stories and getting drunk whilst others refrained from doing so, only drinking regularly as was the social standard). I've been having mental issues since as long as i can remember but this last year they got considerably worse with paranoia being occasionally thrown in the mix pushing me to drink even more out of fear 'i wasn't drunk enough to act likeable'. In order to not deviate too much from the point: every year there is this festival at the beginning of the summer-vacation during which on the first night(of 5) i somehow get extremely hammered to a point i get very sick the following day. Weirdly enough i don't seem to be drunk to a degree i can't walk or straight up black out though i can't recall anything but vague flashes of what the evening remotely looked like. The following day however i have the most brutal headache and am straight up sick: i am not able to throw up a lot though after getting a bit out of my system i threw up that yellowish/green-sap(don't exactly know the precise translation in English). I am worried since i didn't vomit during the night(i am not certain if i smoked weed alongside the alcohol). I remember being very tired and having to breathe very intensely because i felt that bad. &#x200B; Fastforward a couple of months to this exact point in time, having fully put alcohol aside(and planning to do so for the rest of my life) i am in quite the predicament concerning my mental state and am constantly plagued by the though i did myself that much damage i became considerably more stupid than before, especially the thought i was smarter and more 'myself' before July(this year, when the festival took place and the incident occured) borderline haunts me. &#x200B; I was wondering: how considerable is the damage and would one notice it? 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Can somebody please tell me....alcohol can't make yiu be abusive can it? Like if you're a monster while drunk surely you are a monster naturally? Does being drunk change your personality? Is this who he is or is it the drink? I've been drunk and done/said dumb shit...but if I'm honest with myself a part of me was insecure/sad/depressed angry when I said/did them. I've never become another human. This is the text I sent him detailing everything he did just in case he forgot... ""Okay so what happened last night, I was sober first of all. You start flirting with some girl, who was not pretty at all btw, at the bar. Whatever. She wouldn't fuck off. Fuck her, it's good I wasn't drunk because I literally would rip the hair out of her scalp but whatever. You brought us over to sit with these like old men. Then you start accusing them of taking your drink and started trying to fight them. Then you suddenly started to fight with me (???) and told me you're going to leave me home and that you were going to go ""do whatever you want"". I was crying and shit. Everybody was telling me to bring us home. Then we start talkin to some like foreign people. And then you went to go get something from like the bus girl. And I didnt see but according to these people we were with you walked up to the girl and grabbed her arse... Anyway like I said I'm upset, loads of strangers asking if I'm okay, telling me we need to leave, giving me advice and everything on how to get you to leave ""tell him that you need to go home and you can't go alone and he'll realise"" I did. You didn't. They started asking you to bring me home. You go back to try fight them people again. I'm crying, bawling at this stage. Goes on for ages me trying to get you out. And then we get outside at last and you keep trying to go back in and i am bawling my eyes out begging you (as embarrassing as that is) to come home and you keep trying to go back in and then you start calling people. Few people asking am I alright I'm like yeah. Then! Some big fucking like gang lad comes over asking am I okay trying to give me money to go home and ""get away from"" you. I wouldn't take it i felt guilty and he was all ""do you know who I am? He knows who I am, that's why he walked away blah blah blah"" you walk back over he's all (and this is literally like the 5th person to say this to you) she's your girlfriend, she's in tears don't treat her like that asking if you were on shit and all. Then you got cheeky with him and I'm there trying to defend you, fucking shitting it, he's saying I better watch you before you end up in the boot of a car...then he fucking grabs you and smashes the back of your head against the wall. Bouncer had to help me walk you practically all the way to o'connells street. I am literally bawling my eyes this entire time....you are calling me an asshole, a stupid bitch, so stupid, a fucking cunt etc. And also mimicking my crying....making fun of me. Literally never seen something so unempathetic and the bouncer of the casino you started on said that and all. I get you in a taxi, I pay for it, I bring you into my home and you continue to call me a cunt and a bitch for HOURS. You kicked me three times. I was trying to get water off a table and you kicked me in the arm and kicked me when I tried to sit down. The only time you stopped verbally attacking me was when you wanted to fuck me, which when you're after raging at me is fucking scary Derek. I stayed up with you all night while you ridiculed me, trying to do anything to get you to calm down even after you saw me in hysterics....and mocked it? Like wtf...that is sociopathic. My dog was terrified she only came back in the living room once she heard the front door close. I spent the whole night being made a fool out of by you and trying to keep you safe all night, only to have you be the most abusive drunk I have ever seen. You said horrible stuff to me, you flirted and apparently groped (?) other girls in my presence and you made fun of my pain when my only, my ONLY concern was you. I begged you to come home ""I'll do anything just please please come home"" while crying and all you could do was laugh at me and then name call me. Regardless of how you were treating me all I did was try keep you safe. That's exactly what happened in case you actually do forget. I really hope you don't though. Because oh my god.""2 ",1.4998579234972669,3.568144871038257,2.818715846994536,92.96173497267759,80.61748633879782,5.771584699453553,20.221311475409838,6.88968998030894,0.2269213114754094,3467,92,763,39,90,1120,327,915,0.165,0.731,0.10400000000000001,-0.9965,1,1,7,0,4,0,131.0,6,60,5,2,25,59,26,2,31,5,63,29,9,5,16,114,153,67,0,14,10,1,4,13,1,4,3,6,11,8,31,56,11,8,3,9,4,26,12,30,0,2,43,17,152,29,107,101,19,130,0,0,7,8,135,44,16,10,65,486,183,1,0.0,0.13976212370843016,0.038370322052091815,0.0,0.0,0.03842272251254194,0.0,0.12606229512861095,0.0,0.040723315749201024,0.0,0.031443922666616435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04123009810940922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06471346967349405,0.0,0.1837928995638743,0.0447317964067676,0.07388424099723777,0.1814063764149128,0.0,0.04793780684095822,0.043425481869368884,0.03345813970619883,0.0,0.0,0.03477504926751248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16059910061094151,0.04497122298572743,0.0,0.0,0.041594992989596895,0.13548164251165604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03139355380292323,0.0,0.1295724202606993,0.0,0.0,0.03386597068020972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03440890465675436,0.040237669778902516,0.0,0.07703660698557087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03482555335005495,0.0,0.04385182123556694,0.02597026853745434,0.035566888958939474,0.0,0.0,0.07067596084576125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0377530454736808,0.0,0.0,0.033445287783591675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29080318076983125,0.16434322085987646,0.07543801288132776,0.22346272290116467,0.03297947030274605,0.03144752879226447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0695405015157814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04035332100426501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.026355143273528676,0.0,0.3549674780348493,0.03905330025102968,0.03872195063222579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13979650295778856,0.0,0.0,0.04321812023281567,0.09615232706279198,0.0,0.12490154683690817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19209602677583754,0.0,0.0347199854170014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07441043729216254,0.02624618235402278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05831006819112761,0.06065150074585645,0.0,0.0,0.18449421460589155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041259375150797056,0.04187416099792949,0.0,0.14952188889294485,0.041838896829615634,0.0,0.0,0.0425793665669027,0.0,0.13629652786330007,0.06866483138130051,0.0,0.12948355726732044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04000223596174988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.025189184854936292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18701003222935253,0.06253715310281939,0.0,0.0,0.031332683040000524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16144428829823726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0605403996902666,0.0,0.0,0.22264529557938334,0.04190953227094328,0.0,0.032873001365054416,0.0,0.0,0.0450116103825632,0.0,0.0,0.03705831984312714,0.0,0.05912699082614264,0.0,0.1374684845522812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0386313721740222,0.0,0.06878284027416677,0.0,0.0,0.03757162583707529,0.0,0.32034566615703824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09459343370686524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04638351544745802,0.031210120663423067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03644972427667492,0.035479882750835835,0.04389900286399216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02793156256539335,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,2Stressed4Life,2018/12/19,"Alcoholic father My father is disabled and I’m pretty sure he’s addicted to his painkillers. But that’s a different story. Recently because of the changes in opioid laws, his medication was cut significantly. He’s started trying to substitute with alcohol. He buys nips everyday and tries to hide it from us. He drinks several drinks a day. He can sometimes get aggressive and picks fights with everyone in the house. We have started hiding all the alcohol in our house where we know he can’t get it. But he finds ways to get it outside the house. We have told him several times that his drinking is causing problems. He won’t work towards stopping. I’m not really sure what else we can do. Any advice?",3.094545454545454,5.960004818181822,4.290484848484848,79.9757272727273,80.36363636363637,8.065454545454546,29.25454545454545,8.841846274778883,3.0204509090909086,564,27,98,15,15,184,86,132,0.10800000000000001,0.835,0.057999999999999996,-0.5859,1,0,7,0,1,0,14.0,6,0,0,1,1,6,3,0,6,0,10,8,0,2,3,22,19,5,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,6,9,6,1,2,3,1,0,3,4,0,0,2,0,11,2,12,16,1,13,0,0,0,0,22,5,0,0,7,53,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13505355004098202,0.0,0.12105953852291568,0.0,0.3971879730393322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08424643116618813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07551948943847941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12726459921489053,0.13105449918445616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07989593944166007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12943404580481402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3640820645127464,0.0,0.0,0.10349049137242916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11837796459913275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11322916035258054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1941752806900789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4288419200797035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06808426562569496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1248016714620392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12603615539824084,0.0,0.11854175283393704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07936426403182706,0.0,0.12232204795539604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27991084749578377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12252598971148512,0.0,0.1753736784811397,0.0,0.0,0.10357387803057548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23352135430690402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0722386681402566,0.0,0.0,0.11837796459913275,0.0,0.16822033064821734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490190788551377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09833459363857427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0901901654508559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ThisBirdHasFlown_,2018/12/19,"80 days strong. Today is day 80 of my sobriety journey, and as far as alcohol goes, it’s going really well. The other areas of my life are still not where I’d like them to be, but I’m proud of myself for at least not sinking myself in liquor. I’ve actually gotten to the point where just the thought of alcohol makes my stomach ache, so I’m not at all tempted. My goal is to never drink again. Since my body is rejecting even the idea of alcohol, I feel optimistic about it, but I also don’t want to be overly confident and let my guard down. I’m going to dedicate tomorrow to seriously thinking about my goals and forming a strategy plan.",6.116021978021983,5.401764800000006,7.537472527472527,74.10038461538464,66.38461538461539,11.428571428571427,33.18681318681319,10.914260884657429,3.5453736263736264,504,19,100,13,7,175,86,130,0.08,0.799,0.121,0.6899,0,0,4,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,5,11,6,0,0,5,0,8,8,2,1,2,18,19,9,0,1,6,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,3,5,1,4,2,0,3,5,2,1,0,2,1,12,4,21,14,3,20,0,1,0,0,1,10,0,0,8,70,15,2,0.0,0.0,0.1859817655938076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6110266208085832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15240936072397807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21169503315835564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24582086672866316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18669903477851632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12587844295348452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09636462046582976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21662571240937856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21514529780677671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1948842913594301,0.1346145897143114,0.09310935200080744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272158030800808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1469895558775167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18016277858460406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12209251376180345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15765243854446492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1522000341849742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12211805483519116,0.0,0.15130181666610482,0.0,0.0,0.18065064208430295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11241094205118364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17135723499927094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,TheSingingHen,2018/12/19,"I’m finishing alcohol poisoning, one shot at a time 8 shots in 2 hours so far. Averaging 25 minutes between shots ",3.5522727272727286,5.830645136363637,6.400000000000002,68.77000000000002,74.9090909090909,11.672727272727276,38.27272727272727,11.20814326018867,5.641472727272728,91,6,16,4,2,33,21,22,0.183,0.8170000000000001,0.0,-0.5859,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,6,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.626358920160491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5771869969469758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.397154159859339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3417575851347531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Ethra2k,2018/12/19,"Am I wrong for hating my father for his drinking? My father has been drinking a very long time, ever since high school. He's not a blackout drink and does not get smashed every other night but it's constant enough that it absolutely affects his mood. There have been a few times in my life where's drunk too much. When I was probably about 7 there was one time where I remember him trying (I thought he did but recently I was told he only tried) to choke my mom in the hallway. She took me and my brother into the bathroom and locked the doors, after a bit she ran with us to her car and we drove away to his brothers house to stay the night. I don't remember much else from that night but I remember it fairly vividly and it's always stuck with me as what he can do with alcohol. There have been half-assed apologies to this and any other incident that he would give. I've asked him multiple times to stop drinking. All of which were responded with a maybe. Whenever I bring it up (which is usually in a very passionate way) he brushes it off and all my other family members tell me that it isn't a problem. All the things that happened were so long ago. And other excuses for him. Some time I just can't take it and burst out against him and why I hate that he doesn't stop drinking. He's fairly verbally abusive and is certainly influenced by his constant drinking. Why is it that it's ok for him to drink so often for such a long time that it affects his own children. Am I wrong for hating that he never wants to change or talk about it all?",3.4266666666666694,4.801754442675161,4.243710191082806,87.94013004246284,73.04458598726114,7.526326963906581,26.459129511677283,8.07648339933343,1.501036518046709,1221,42,255,18,24,392,162,314,0.124,0.833,0.043,-0.9801,0,0,8,0,0,0,24.0,2,0,0,0,15,10,3,0,13,1,24,11,0,3,7,46,40,19,0,3,7,5,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,30,18,9,2,4,8,0,5,7,6,0,1,15,2,35,3,34,24,11,41,0,0,1,1,38,11,0,3,23,178,65,1,0.0,0.09533270386075728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07132350449968107,0.0859879567555424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06694969979050994,0.0,0.0,0.054715995737435866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07521983897033131,0.0,0.07559542185042267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08784218204390454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08511669063586934,0.0,0.0,0.1738987398753672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07041165011184362,0.0,0.0,0.5517455829656581,0.0,0.0,0.06721454198610168,0.0,0.0,0.08313735176928891,0.0,0.0,0.07278125723342516,0.06779156120389307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07585113255319482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04203736460398913,0.07718517955046457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07115108007906568,0.0,0.0,0.2383146787512431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08501108596893092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09284077812478396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05683173101542562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21361540891540468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08083352962955348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09423453157087447,0.0,0.0,0.11829565971960138,0.0,0.0620562074247424,0.0,0.0,0.2265205861577361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05452221342120951,0.061193944008475484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08675018083869743,0.07698996803763777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07944517722441001,0.0,0.2734386678858214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08143046538859001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0665578745981381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08576033884395738,0.0,0.1345373991605985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06049638940481813,0.06467121632083353,0.07032614763719723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05345447537749022,0.0,0.0,0.0638767622823215,0.2815034847168708,0.0,0.0,0.07688359158663162,0.0893947338982684,0.10925498881419712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.096784245582462,0.0,0.08861602987351072,0.1327769124966304,0.04745777137085668,0.06386591256022421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14520642927648095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057156931615534215,0.17594216241488514,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,throwaway365421,2018/12/19,"My dad is an alcoholic who verbally abuses my mom and when he’s drunk he threatens suicide. My mom and little brother aren’t helping him either because they call him selfish and belittle him for his drinking problem and don’t acknowledge that he has depression. My mom says it’s an excuse for him to drink. I really want to get him the help he needs before he may kill himself. He said the only thing keeping his worthless life here is his wife and the kids. Should I confront him? I was always scared that he might get angry at me or he might not want to get help and it’d be difficult or awkward to see him afterwards. Problem is we can’t put him in AAA because he works for an organization that helps the government, he’d lose his job 100% (unless I’m wrong) and he’s not getting much pay + he doesn’t enjoy it anymore and wants to get a new job and is struggling to do so. The situation isn’t effecting me because I just try my best to ignore it and keep my cool so don’t worry about me but all I’m focused about is him, how can I help him?",3.228646788990826,4.3063540091743135,4.717327981651376,85.50929472477067,73.12844036697247,7.651834862385322,27.845183486238533,8.07648339933343,1.7025954128440373,826,31,174,12,16,277,121,218,0.17300000000000001,0.7170000000000001,0.109,-0.8931,3,0,3,0,1,1,15.0,1,0,1,4,8,17,2,3,9,1,22,5,0,2,1,36,37,18,2,7,8,6,0,0,0,4,2,2,0,1,9,11,4,3,2,3,1,1,8,14,1,0,2,4,32,3,15,28,4,7,0,3,1,0,46,3,0,5,3,110,41,5,0.0,0.13068570575767202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1178755700842342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09177720145404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10938649014866388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20171085548540985,0.0,0.09385591356565036,0.0,0.11575148805802185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11262711733244606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09499995053190967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21610110992779255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2881321120131534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3696538526665835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21890851632410246,0.1960767785298519,0.12202896628432425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07790710403041827,0.0,0.11054808986783804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12339582655595092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340185910880309,0.0,0.3875408679188656,0.0,0.0,0.08108210064568032,0.0817849523047408,0.0,0.10652699442867032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08388699194479722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2110815680619966,0.0,0.1108804736116589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07066005394484258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10491914717885953,0.08771380727979644,0.1104280566232718,0.0,0.08789363715393209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1239801537323358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1153079576907178,0.0,0.12064867474078556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07327743321763704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07488545243395392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19517076808223174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08029863357009254,0.11201349739635072,0.0,0.0,0.12059411270503735,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,skittlenut007,2018/12/19,Been Drinking 2 four packs a night of half natty light and the other half ice. Now I have to go on vacation for 10 days and if I don't drink for 3 days I'll have a seizure. Any suggestions?,0.3049999999999997,1.960838309523812,2.2716666666666683,97.47750000000002,82.57142857142857,6.104761904761905,20.02380952380953,7.1686216300943375,0.15655238095238078,147,4,37,2,4,49,34,42,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,4,2,0,0,0,3,5,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,3,1,1,2,0,5,4,0,6,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,4,22,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25399212272086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4817519027134526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7317736401816034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2122680847209518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3505035029382499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,happykathyxo,2018/12/19,"How to cut ties with an alcoholic father (and save mom and sis)? No new news.. I have an alcoholic father who has been drinking as early as I can remember his drunken shuffle and stumbling. Most of the time he is harmless: drinks on couch or chugs in his bathroom during commercial breaks and passes out until one of us tells him to go to bed. My family runs the same play each time: confront, threaten to leave/divorce; threaten to kick him out, he enters a “I’ll do better” phase that maybe lasts two days at best; repeat. Recently he has gotten more reckless and I fear for my family/others safety. Reckless behaviors: drinking himself stupid while cooking in oven and grilling; literally drinking while driving - I caught him driving into our neighborhood chugging a can. I could also list his poor health here: overweight, diabetic and not taking medications, and we know if his liver doesn’t kill him first it will be a heart attack or related medical event. I can’t help but worry he will burn the house down or get in an accident and claim an innocent life..or that my sister will be the one to find him if something bad happens. Problem: sober dad isn’t bad, just hardheaded and full of empty promises. My mom misses him and doesn’t want to abandon him and this is why she hasn’t gotten a divorce yet. I have flown down for same day interventions and he doesn’t change. He refuses therapy because he doesn’t need it. His parents think that prayers will fix him and getting other family involved would humiliate them and betray their trust. My sister is living with my parents while she finishes her last 1.5yrs of her graduate program. My mom feels like she can’t get a divorce, move, or kick him out until my sister graduates for stability. Finances are also an issue, my family doesn’t make much. My dad finally got his “dream” job after a few months of unemployment but is having performance issues. I live 5 hours away and send my mom money every month, but don’t know if I could send enough to offset another mortgage/rent. My question: how did you find peace to cut ties with your alcoholic immediate family members? Do we serve divorce papers and see if that is a wake up call? I carry guilt for not being there with my mom and sister. I feel guilty for my friends who have lost their fathers in tragic accidents because my father is choosing to ruin his life. I am trying to figure out where to go or what to do next - I don’t know how much longer I can live with one person singlehandedly dictating my mom, my sister, and my own (even from 5 hours away) happiness and safety. 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alcoholism,LuciVids,2018/12/19,"Today is day 7 hey guys ive been looking for a community to get some tips and give some tips and just all around support with this issue ive been a heavy drinker for allot of years and as of today i have gotten through the first week, what makes it harder is i work full time at a alcohol shop but i CAN do this. id love to get to know everyones journeys. i also uploaded a video and will be doing update videos on my small youtube channel just to keep the accountability high im not after views or anything like that im just doing anything i can to help myself keep on track :) 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alcoholism,AMK1318,2018/12/19,"No withdrawal? I have drank for awhile now and decided to quit a couple of days ago. All I've experienced is lack of sleep... No sweating, no shakes.. Is this normal? 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I was with one man for 5 years, and the last I was with for 5 months but I knew him from my past. I know I'm an alcoholic but today my mother (who has mental health issues) told me she hates me. She threw knifes at me, and punched me twice. I had her admitted. After that I went to the liquor store and started slamming vodka. 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But I'm posting cuz I need communication. I need to see n hear words.i need to reach out. I'm losing everything and fast. Am scared. Have no one to talk to. 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I hurt two friends I love with my actions. I turn into an angry drunk, and black out. I said some things I didn't mean, and would have never said sober. I apologized to them, one of the two has spoken to me about it. It's really opened my eyes to my behavior and gave me the push I need to stop. I haven't had a drink for 21 days. It's something I'm really proud of. I haven't spoken openly about the alcohol abuse I deal with. Alcoholism runs in my family. It's something I've always had to be careful about. It got bad two years ago. My mother is 20+ years sober. I've been talking to her about it a lot. She's an inspiration and made me feel like I wasn't alone. I know that I'm not a bad person. I become someone different when I drink too much. I hope that those I love can see that I'm trying. I really want to go back to who I used to be. I feel like I've lost myself. The depression and anxiety doesn't help. I started Zoloft around the same time I stopped drinking. I'm hoping that I can find new ways of coping. &#x200B; Thank you for listening. 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I started drinking in college where it was a lot more socially acceptable to abuse alcohol. After college, I joined the military and graduated to drinking by myself all the time. I would quit during deployments and stay sober for anywhere from 3-6 months (we had short deployments) out of the year. Towards the end of my time in the military, I didn't deploy nearly as much, so I ended up drinking a lot more. I didn't consider myself an ""alcoholic"" because I wouldn't get up and drink in the mornings, I didn't drink every day, and I never had any withdrawal symptoms when I would stop drinking for weeks or days at a time (or when I deployed for months). Anyway, in my heavier drinking days I would put away 10+ drinks a night. I think the most I ever got to was 14 in one night, which might have just been the highest I could count when I was that drunk. I wouldn't do this every night. Maybe once or twice a week. It was not uncommon to buy a handle of whiskey Friday night and have it be gone by Monday morning. I didn't have friends or anything else to do, so I'd basically go home and drink and play video games until I was too drunk to function and then go to bed. I began noticing my left arm felt like it was asleep when I woke up in the mornings after a heavy night. I figured I had just slept on it wrong, but then it started to stay like that for longer during the day. One day I had the sudden realization that it was alcoholic neuropathy and I was doing permanent damage to my central nervous system. I stopped binge drinking, but I still didn't quit drinking though. I had to ""make sure"" it was alcohol and not something else. It took me months of being ""throttled back"" to see if I could get those symptoms to go away before I said enough was enough and quit once and for all. Tomorrow that will have been 8 months ago. I can still feel some nerve damage in my arm sometimes, just a mild barely noticeable sensation. I've been taking multivitamins that are supposed to help with brain and nerve function (niacin, folate, B's), but they aren't helping at all. I can't be an alcoholic and do my job, so I'm afraid I'll lose my job if I go to a doctor for help. I haven't told my family either. They know I don't drink and they don't try and make me or ask why. I've really had no problem being sober. I'm not tempted to drink again, even when other people are drinking around me. It's kind of great, actually. I've lost a lot of weight, saved who knows how much money, and have so much more free time now! Now I'm just worried about all the damage I did to my body. I'm worried this nerve damage will never go away, or that my liver will quit on me, or that I'll wake up with stomach cancer one day, or who knows what else. I don't really know why I'm posting this. Does anybody know anything about alcoholic neuropathy or how I can recover from that? 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Spouse gave me ultimatum. My wife told me I need to stop drinking. I dont feel like I am an alcoholic. I enjoy drinking alot, but I dont drink everyday. I do crave it everyday and I do drink every day in summer. Im scared. My summer revolves around drinking. Usually I look forward to my next night where I can drink. My family and friends tell me I drink too much, but Im not sure if this is true. This is going to change my summer completely. How do I know if im an alcoholic? 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I know that. But I’ve improved a lot. I got a DUI. I still have the interlock in my car. I took an Uber to the mall the other day. Because i had a drink. I walk to work. I DoorDashed a Chicken Sandwich and paid more on the delivery fee and tip than the sandwich itself. Because I hate that my DUI has cost my over $14,000. I would pay so much more if I could buy back The respect of my parents. My life. 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I've had problems with my family and my alcoholism before, they have always (rightfully) spoken against it, and as most alcoholics do, I rebelled. Like a teenager, but in this case im a 30 year old with outstanding debt who lives at home with parents to try to pay it off. Here I am, tossing liquor when I told myself I wouldnt. I bought a 1.75L handle there a few days ago and stupidly made the promise to myself that i'd go moderately on it. We all know that's never the case, I knew that when I did it. I felt depressed at the time and I slipped up. I drank the last 4 nights with 2 1.75l handles I'm finishing the last of it and I feel just total absolute regret. My family comes to visit soon, and I know they will look at me with regret thinking ""Oh he has liquor on his breath, back to his old self I see"" I think that part of the problem with the alcoholic down-ward spiral is the judge-mentality that is associated with it. People assume the worst, but that's to be expected from family members. There is really no way out of it. I am turning back to Marijuana because it does not inebriate me like alcohol does, nor does it kill my organs systematically. I was able to get out of my depths last time using it and I will do so again. Anyway, thanks for listening. I've been having a hard time lately and just typing this out and (trying to) think about it rationally has helped.",3.220400000000001,4.802831506666667,4.703666666666667,83.60350000000003,73.93333333333334,7.800000000000002,24.833333333333336,8.472884824447931,1.574933333333333,1172,37,238,21,24,392,173,300,0.139,0.79,0.07,-0.9592,2,0,4,0,0,0,39.0,1,0,2,0,14,15,3,0,15,0,22,8,1,2,3,50,46,17,1,8,5,1,3,2,0,3,4,1,1,1,21,21,7,0,10,2,3,4,5,10,0,0,12,6,34,5,37,29,7,41,0,4,2,0,13,13,0,2,25,164,55,2,0.10367338730693014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09190020255334788,0.4431812877628972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0862645633412644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15943687092548287,0.0,0.12639666928142682,0.0,0.08821841669241573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0893054432958493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08277476378428017,0.0,0.0,0.13372151625525805,0.0,0.08929373657335637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2721758396247687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29320212857336303,0.0,0.05242037965913125,0.0,0.09954270997283936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054165065906608835,0.0,0.05891997516067645,0.08695631852250807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09287099149846301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06949008617062209,0.0,0.10399286048016773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11198504873406673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11469924256488342,0.0,0.11395236474115993,0.2535229432734802,0.11694809657711705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012991605861972,0.0,0.09154550037652426,0.0,0.0870595345280175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09809826578745312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07995930755270021,0.0,0.0,0.0972904509596932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2175755604754893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11511702768613664,0.11226817555556458,0.0,0.07187407306178697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19840286051188996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06641582661762142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08853650629835395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08261426704492005,0.0,0.10815395328675448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09544852607335604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19928916131512955,0.0,0.08230508909196473,0.1813583575739003,0.0,0.0,0.09906436439718007,0.0,0.14077484936306472,0.11276687482734785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08954051990979538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08229110924527347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09610626869274567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06676226236014246 alcoholism,AModelofHealth,2019/04/06,"Pancreatitis scare 27 year old male here. I was in the hospital for acute pancreatitis a few months ago. I was able to stay off the sauce for about a month before I was back to drinking heavy again. I'm at work now and starting to feel that same pain. I'm scared it's reared it's ugly head again. I can't afford to go back to the hospital for financial reasons, and the fact that I'll probably end up losing my job if I do. I've really gotta do something about my drinking I just can't get it through my thick skull. Does anyone here have any experience with pancreatitis? Is it possible for me to sit through this and make it through an attack without a hospital visit?",3.121579296615792,4.699199671532848,4.4263968148639705,85.51042468480428,74.18248175182481,8.193497013934971,26.323158593231586,8.841846274778883,1.8626554744525543,533,19,113,11,11,176,88,137,0.142,0.858,0.0,-0.9569,2,0,3,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,10,5,1,2,8,0,9,5,2,2,1,12,17,4,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,8,4,2,0,2,2,0,2,3,5,0,0,3,2,10,0,21,13,2,21,0,1,0,0,2,5,0,1,12,70,18,2,0.16939720242851933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15016039911055135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11519590652898072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11844646261915875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19271377273659712,0.0,0.2605119848044971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14414454257317078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14824063339279991,0.0,0.0,0.3318895363828885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15003564159818425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16570296874976947,0.0,0.0,0.0856523153642932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08850304665720679,0.0,0.0962723339001894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17385040078574462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16810058499317426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18951213939124173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11307394801187087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27042246166972633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.177753868272139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18025056677474768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19096989334078726,0.0,0.0,0.18263883510813125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10852018553898064,0.17416853716074202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3391923024236862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13041024242799767,0.0,0.0,0.11990021176152198,0.18055487877383172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16329285818782716,0.0,0.12332318087890574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1090862444585235 alcoholism,amazzarof,2019/04/06,"I feel lost and helpless. My boyfriend and I have been dating for 4 months today now. And we get along so well and have so much fun together. But he has an underlying problem and that is, alcoholism. Yesterday I found hidden mickeys (not very well hidden) in the bathroom and he talks about how we are a team and stuff and I don’t feel like I’m a part of that team. This has been the 4th time I think that I’ve seen him with strong alcohol. And he’s on SSRI’s which is just going to make things worse. Also his distant family is over and I don’t know how to approach him that I know or how to get him help cause nothing seems to be working. 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It was glorious. 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For folks who struggle with alcoholism is it annoying to have other try and help? Not so much control your drinking but send motivational messages or just try to send resources? Was the spotlight on you too much and is it something others should continue or is it just a waste of time? ,6.541271186440678,7.905169525423733,6.562500000000004,74.28408898305086,65.61016949152543,9.289830508474578,35.08898305084746,9.516144504307137,3.48577627118644,258,12,43,5,4,82,44,59,0.152,0.7909999999999999,0.055999999999999994,-0.7438,0,0,3,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,2,4,3,2,1,2,0,8,2,0,2,0,12,8,6,0,1,6,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,3,2,1,1,1,0,2,1,3,0,0,1,0,2,0,6,6,2,5,0,0,0,0,8,1,0,2,2,37,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3128588038874515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3283420081055205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2867817933879182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3924459058480469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4304072337730711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20295474695818164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253718728662069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30604398940377103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17070383427656188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3975136334070809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,meltdown248,2019/04/06,"I've relapsed after almost two years, and it's continued for a while. I wish I had the courage to tell my family, but they spent a lot of money to get me help that I feel so much shame about it. I made it almost two years before relapsing.. but now.. I've managed to go a few days sober without meetings and support, but always find a reason to relapse yet again to *deal with feelings*.. I don't think I can bring myself to tell my family, but I do genuinely want to stop, I just don't want to drag them along with the ""sober one week relapsed next"" until I can manage myself. I guess I just need to know that other people have dealt with the feelings of hiding a secret and letting people down, without them knowing, but then managed to get out of it. I suffer from severe depression and anxiety which obviously doesn't help the situation at all, and have dealt with it (poorly) for a few years. TL;DR: two years after my family got me clean, been lying ever since trying to solve my issues without involving hem again. 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I know alcoholism runs in my family, and I seem to like the taste of say a vodka OJ better than regular OJ. I’m mostly thinking in terms of mixed drinks, but I’m curious to see what others think about this. 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Haven’t had a drink in about a week (not by choice) and for the last two nights i have had really bad chest pain. Only started drinking more heavily in the 6 months and i’ve started noticing this happening in the last two. Less of an alcoholic and more of an abuser IMO, but i’m just wondering if this is a common occurrence at all.",4.111971830985915,5.138099915492962,5.071943661971833,83.99101408450704,70.97183098591547,9.060281690140846,28.284507042253523,9.3871,2.3360005633802823,278,10,57,6,5,91,50,71,0.134,0.866,0.0,-0.7979999999999999,0,0,3,0,1,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,8,0,5,7,2,0,1,9,10,5,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,3,3,0,1,2,0,0,2,3,0,2,2,0,1,0,9,8,4,13,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,2,9,38,3,0,0.0,0.219505947741366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1979894325617525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1546865756375636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3629737366274772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1638271509469497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3020275754178866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14787488097699786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3477128969306508,0.0,0.0,0.21092275672876729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14090059477628872,0.3942650465242205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186839985191584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26225971665040565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3619493817419168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14860652422121018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2009094428556079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,elizabethshoeme,2019/04/06,I’ve lost everything I’ve lost everything. Idk where to turn any more ,1.24642857142857,3.911835071428573,2.3114285714285714,90.95857142857143,91.14285714285714,8.514285714285714,21.285714285714285,8.841846274778883,2.109685714285716,57,2,12,2,2,18,10,14,0.4,0.6,0.0,-0.6124,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21899035485761814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5788367229056789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7030640787695509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3502744264702626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,reachingconsensus,2019/04/06,"A few lapses has turned into another relapse, can I talk to someone? Please?",2.255714285714287,5.171803142857144,3.9971428571428578,78.87285714285716,89.0,5.6571428571428575,28.42857142857143,7.1686216300943375,2.3546857142857145,60,3,9,1,2,20,14,14,0.0,0.805,0.195,0.3939,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4760631298487472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4983604240851298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3846763991268303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3649114865073279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4938263450587992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Crabman25,2019/04/06,"I need help hello everybody, as the title says I need help. I've been drinking since I was 18 (28 now) and it's become a problem. I drink about a half pint of liquor every night and I want to stop so badly the problem is I don't know how to stop. I've been reading some books that try to help and they all say the same things about how alcohol is bad for your body and brain to try to get you to subconsciously dislike alcohol, but I still drink. every day. I can't remember the last time I went 24 hours without alcohol. One of my biggest problems is that a lot of information I get talks a lot about social drinking, but I mainly drink at home by myself, and I maintain a job. idk if anyone can relate and honestly idk what I'm trying to achieve with this post, but I'm alone and need some feedback. Thanks guys and gals.",3.4332456140350867,4.266895906432747,4.596739766081875,87.48703947368423,72.39181286549709,7.571345029239764,25.945906432748536,7.793537801064563,1.2526292397660814,644,20,140,8,12,212,105,171,0.136,0.777,0.087,-0.6305,1,1,8,0,0,0,16.0,0,2,1,1,8,7,0,0,9,0,9,11,2,2,1,34,20,16,0,8,5,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,1,6,9,9,2,3,8,0,1,3,5,0,2,4,2,17,2,19,16,7,13,0,0,0,0,13,2,0,5,9,86,23,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33337839956395643,0.0,0.10769495998431207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0727072851578126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17364281299540413,0.0,0.11484098104936127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11550159836993458,0.0,0.11607934353524255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06706039011931962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5093184428874141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17522021323944809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10865358252750207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10295945280721748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2090927063284994,0.0,0.10430336102548954,0.0,0.10240224419677517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10318701713863508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057146301123105224,0.08475996960561043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17680514399848646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2313060839348231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09758093953687157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07046152715983184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09958690720868243,0.0,0.0,0.29849287383158424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10401107323205104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1177923939302758,0.0,0.0,0.16538280532996796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08601575751275421,0.0,0.0,0.10599750630618823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08304090539135704,0.1738687776985954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08357754352425342,0.0,0.0957335150548986,0.0,0.0,0.06908164089978787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060633285008470476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2117927596465846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061331828562409214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09639322155374168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1002358377106672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,whattodo1999,2019/04/06,"Just a helpless rant Honestly I probably have a problem. Every time I drink I know that it does nothing but make my life that little bit shorter, I know I’m drinking too much but I don’t care. I think about any situation. I think about birthdays and Christmases and parties and maybe even my own wedding someday and they all involve booze. “Bad situation? Have a drink to help you through!” “Good situation? Have a drink to celebrate!” How do I get into my head that I can have fun without drinking? Or get through a tough time? Cause honestly right now, the thought of me not drinking kinda terrifies me. What if I’m boring? What if I hate even going out to social events without it and become a recluse? What if I need to escape for a bit? Or be happy on command (like a family gathering)? I know in my head that I need to stop drinking but in my heart I’m just too invested if that makes sense. Thanks for sorting by new. Sorry for the rant. 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Im 23 yo and I've been drinking alot since I turned 18. Im an introvert and shy, but when I drink it makes me social, too social. Some people think im a jerk even though I never use any violence or have any bad intentions, I just wanted to speak with people and have fun. Suddenly I noticed there was a beer in my hand more often and more often. I started to question myself and it got to the point that I started to steal my fathers drinks, puked in a bar, passed out in places etc. I went to minnesota-treatment last year in my country and thought that was my saviour. I was sober for 3 months and it was the longest time after I turned 18. I also did some AA and NA but relapsed after a breakup from a long relationship. It felt embarassing and I had alot of guilt from relapsing and instead of embarassment and guilt giving me courage to stop drinking again, I just want to drink more and forget. It's a never ending spiral. I just wanted to be social and likeable and have some confidence in myself. I haven't had a drink in 2 days and I don't feel well mentally. I don't know why exactly im writing this here but maybe getting a bit of my story out there will help me with these feelings and thoughts. I need to believe in myself and know for a fact that im an alcoholic. Alcoholism is like a candle. When you start to drink again the candle starts to burn from exactly the same place it stopped burning. Thank you for listening.",2.422746706437984,4.406479892617451,3.563437733035048,89.17267586378327,77.25503355704699,6.5624658215262235,24.795426298782004,7.526774132740827,1.1821711160825252,1160,41,238,16,27,375,156,298,0.106,0.762,0.131,0.8946,0,0,10,0,0,0,25.0,0,2,0,0,18,10,1,2,18,0,17,13,2,3,5,62,44,25,0,4,7,1,4,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,12,22,11,2,9,9,0,2,5,5,2,0,13,6,32,5,35,29,11,37,0,0,0,0,14,13,0,9,23,163,44,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17359925774259338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06495171648911101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1104649605021988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06781542420212006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09150728449609156,0.0,0.0,0.08867135687771002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052380271024769526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5569537135176724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07193693648695718,0.0,0.09058192550027064,0.05364513636149092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08213468619441094,0.0,0.07798407126889474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08486834166154213,0.07791375899756907,0.0,0.0,0.06495916543411698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05444014769027344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43865844238673823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08927292953605957,0.06620525428041077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0396800577399826,0.0,0.0,0.07187726791307238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05421507403050218,0.0,0.0815965472019425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08185079778185142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06482914073804028,0.0,0.0,0.06022370455757123,0.12528395782077145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09246966753570324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11261563679681814,0.0,0.16971551862254988,0.0,0.07677928482168789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0909851447273513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08720003440350092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06718613898461218,0.0,0.0,0.2483811128322819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22995213207701454,0.0,0.0,0.13580734741318012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07477659249830082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05204258608644086,0.0797983750194239,0.1289594373167421,0.047360116698020815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1766883783997022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07014812323277755,0.0,0.0,0.14371722846352072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07302665986630294,0.07529188334502449,0.07328854322446934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0523031071525638 alcoholism,tatsytheg,2019/05/30,"Coming to terms with my alcoholism... In my adolescence I was very innocent, didn't drink, didn't party, didn't do drugs, didn't have sex or know much about it, or even have any relationships (my first one was at 25). I didn't start drinking until I was 18 when I moved away for college. I'm 30 now. In my early 20s, I partied a lot. I was a bad drunk at times, often blacking out and throwing up. People thought it was funny and liked hanging out with me despite it and I even got my own party girl name (I have since tried to dissociate myself from this persona). I got kicked out of school for missing so much. Ended up moving back home because of all the irresponsible partying. Now the biggest problem is that I didn't know when to stop. I'd keep drinking. I'd always tell myself I'll be good tonight, but then I'd have more than I said I would. There were also times I became a different person when I drank - very aggressive and unfiltered and made stupid decisions (would run around a lot and disappear, got kicked out of several clubs and bars, but usually just for being unable to hold myself up). I think because I was so reserved while sober, I'd drink to help me loosen up but sometimes it loosened me up too much and I became an entirely unrecognizable person. From 21-25 I calmed down a bit. Still went out and partied but was responsible about it. Finished pre-reqs and got into a decent college again. I was even working out heavily and working on my fitness during this time and lost a lot of weight. Looking back, this was probably the most content I felt in my adult life- school, working out, and still had a nice social life. From 25-29, I did drink sometimes but I'd go for months at a time without it and was fine. There were a few times I blacked out but they weren't bad. And I really feel between 27-29 I had good control of myself when I did drink. At late 29 I began drinking even on the weekdays after work, almost every day, alone. I am and was going through a lot emotionally so maybe that's why it started up again. This was the first time it would be done just to drink and not to go out and party - so that is a good indicator that something is off with me internally. I am 30 now and I don't drink on the weekdays anymore, thankfully, but my bf and I always decide that I won't drink anymore at all but then on the weekends we have an itch to. He's scared for me to drink because of how I get, but then he doesn't want to control me or keep me from having a good time. He tries to say ok, 3 shots or 3 drinks is the limit but somehow I end up having more. For the record, he does enjoy drinking with me when I don't get too drunk, and he holds his liquor well and never blacks out or acts out, but he gets scared of what I'll become if I drink too much, especially cuz in the end he's the one who takes care of me. A lot of times I lash out at him (I've kicked him out, yelled at him, etc but I do have a lot of resentment towards him for other reasons so I suspect that has a lot to do with why I started drinking again in the first place). I am really trying to stay away from it now, because it is affecting my finances too and we are in no position to be spending money for alcohol excessively. I am for the most part a responsible adult - I get to work on time, do well at work, still keep my apartment clean, still cook meals, still pay my bills and rent on time, still see my family regularly (although my family does have a lot of drinkers - some of them drink multiple nights a week, but they seem to have a good handle on themselves). But I know that for me, the drinking isn't just partying anymore and it's become something to help me cope with a lot of things in my life. I thought I had a good handle on it for those few years, but now it's back to the fear of being a bad drunk. I dislike this. I don't want to be like this. I really thought I was past this. I thought I was good with being able to control my liquor now. I really didn't believe I was an alcoholic.",3.4671339330334803,4.296819891304349,4.656330168249209,87.1058695652174,72.30917874396134,7.642711977344661,26.473929701815766,7.873277556716777,1.3432888722305512,3122,101,680,40,58,1030,309,828,0.086,0.7959999999999999,0.11800000000000001,0.9801,2,1,24,0,0,0,96.0,2,0,3,14,50,30,3,3,41,1,72,36,1,8,3,130,116,65,0,7,26,0,3,2,1,4,8,3,3,5,32,50,30,10,15,26,6,12,18,12,2,5,46,11,93,18,115,59,27,131,0,2,5,1,32,54,0,22,66,485,125,12,0.03802706360996985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12191809869162172,0.03807861120742704,0.03938456953759152,0.0,0.03041022903009322,0.06328312641609336,0.0,0.0,0.02585970725835428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1131378867728473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03385214881853719,0.0,0.0,0.07145535607190759,0.08772139393654124,0.09525302916845008,0.09272378008877588,0.08399580824511489,0.0,0.04284347866179279,0.0,0.0,0.04151570453896098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038771125721300106,0.0,0.0,0.032756948153663784,0.0,0.0,0.12795175603629455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0245243101279493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03973018782450526,0.0,0.0,0.06655547924988829,0.0389148887874859,0.0,0.6332847698187306,0.044099320993894436,0.0,0.0,0.042775328258383115,0.10104207398391322,0.0,0.04241022792541404,0.1004660674904266,0.0,0.0320394411852046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07169706249897317,0.04279101871420789,0.019227625946618445,0.0,0.03651194450548169,0.0,0.0,0.09703740264151772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07947028490815554,0.0,0.06483496975071196,0.22326707741960916,0.12165486642905805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05097747832332844,0.0,0.038144245338048416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10140060412371683,0.0,0.0,0.06269603899923283,0.0,0.04289618409435004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08057891886479512,0.03715620491730933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031933156071673824,0.0,0.04151103201021331,0.29096324658479683,0.0,0.03598212704368586,0.0,0.0,0.03820329658095915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030352839374128974,0.08083350110681667,0.11181706881338173,0.0,0.029328815750118937,0.0,0.0,0.03568582317402104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05153624490051418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04117960417930066,0.03630113506765242,0.026363177853314854,0.06640753034401145,0.03973018782450526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04099960625523542,0.036386764207622664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09744444274864326,0.039098154789549706,0.0,0.04082683508582924,0.0,0.0,0.036172445603026175,0.030240647277221287,0.07614344909692608,0.07697083708264686,0.03030264631662333,0.034618410513889496,0.0,0.04295975790594627,0.0,0.03145637997899962,0.0,0.0,0.038763802489322534,0.0,0.05855018280238316,0.07521947651951788,0.0,0.08074725404207678,0.04053179014641717,0.182210772722895,0.03179232791712762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028591619308239145,0.0,0.033237329705789416,0.03501021107493756,0.0,0.0,0.025263491348016233,0.0243662068957382,0.0,0.12075696336836725,0.2217388659651829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07745364008746933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04188143814330143,0.06275261998899867,0.04485869472881029,0.0,0.03050301667080046,0.046306718926360714,0.06838179410421873,0.03525146894328972,0.06862702035323849,0.0,0.0,0.036656732321081485,0.0,0.1661049312491987,0.0,0.0,0.08104000481630028,0.0,0.0,0.024488182198566272 alcoholism,volcanodish,2019/05/30,"Good gift for someone completing rehab? Hi I hope this type of post is allowed and doesn’t fall under the surveys ban in the rules. I made a throwaway for this as well FYI. My s/o, who I have been with for almost 4 years, is currently in rehab. She had been hiding her alcoholism from me (we don’t live together yet) for awhile and recently her parents discovered her stash and she admitted she had a problem and has been through detox and is now in rehab as I said. Tomorrow she will be 30 days sober!! I’m extremely proud of her for stepping up and working on the issue. I love this woman and would be devastated if it had consumed her without me knowing. I write her letters and talk to her on the phone when she can call. She seems to be doing very well and has made it clear that she is putting in a lot of effort. She has been exercising more, which is great because she didn’t a lot before, and has been talking about how much more open she has become and how much better she feels. I look forward to her calls every day and she is always on my mind. I was wondering if the people in this subreddit had any ideas for a gift that would be good for someone that had just completed rehab. She still has three weeks left or so. I recently got a Fitbit and I love it and she has expressed a desire to exercise more so I was thinking she could get one and we could use them together so she would continue the new trend she developed in rehab. Do any of you have something that would have been helpful to you after you finished rehab? Or just anything in general. She expressed to me how helpful and supportive this community has been to her so I also just wanted to thank all of you for helping her. Any response is appreciated.",3.338627329192544,5.027581718840583,4.4698498964803335,84.96179347826089,73.84057971014494,7.595238095238094,27.104037267080745,8.306716005460428,1.8143602484472048,1363,51,272,23,28,446,172,345,0.034,0.794,0.172,0.9933,3,0,2,0,0,0,27.0,2,4,1,4,18,13,0,0,13,0,49,12,0,7,2,61,69,31,0,12,8,1,1,0,0,5,10,1,0,1,14,20,1,1,7,2,0,4,4,1,2,2,19,3,52,12,41,39,8,35,0,0,1,2,55,15,0,10,17,216,66,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1120507944000016,0.1049902848198095,0.0,0.0,0.08384703396646963,0.08724206655700921,0.0,0.0,0.21390102824038607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08628110028336733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06391446387093537,0.11579655286383797,0.08921805991397368,0.0,0.0,0.0927296752391018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21412338382015056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21986259740990224,0.0,0.0,0.16742544497073994,0.0,0.0,0.1352367759063929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08833909506778619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05301437895273056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05477883503791809,0.0,0.0,0.1758833206650982,0.0838566499085677,0.11559546419601925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21083253034388544,0.0,0.0,0.10413787832290136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11836080807137045,0.0,0.10943423640761947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05762180554805756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11391783030518705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0925828443047722,0.0,0.08804604592581733,0.0,0.0,0.17827630882758894,0.1892591120425781,0.1984197241942644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10586675059668753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1541509200333364,0.0,0.0,0.10126300421917148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0710478252630323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11642147136951822,0.0,0.0,0.07268851105144718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10041555252980366,0.0,0.0,0.10032552702669027,0.0,0.10540135791289404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20704981383733784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09973460811906007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09544982510164228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17767500783290305,0.08071723434434422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08373187431129774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11898044704175925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16854595543338508,0.0,0.09653009697061668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06718246597877481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09055514448750328,0.0,0.08651071082851369,0.06184216003266516,0.0,0.08410286789834663,0.0,0.1885421713618375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10106988266954477,0.11370335468490787,0.07633070766346113,0.0,0.0,0.2979244924353606,0.0,0.0,0.06751877608512669 alcoholism,MoistWalrus,2019/05/30,"Sober not by choice I went to the doctor the other day and was told I am showing early signs of liver damage. She said it is reversible if I quit drinking so much. The only issue is I normally drank 5-6 beers a night or at least a pint of liquor a day. I haven't had a drink since she told me to quit, but my hands are shaking and I'm so moody without alcohol. I think I might need to consider rehab, but rehab at 23 might look bad to my family and friends. Does anyone have any advice to get the through the initial quiting stage. I want to quit to, but this is really tough.",4.541416861826697,4.044953680327872,5.7153395784543335,85.12860655737704,69.57377049180327,8.610772833723653,27.264637002341924,7.957251820313856,1.454303044496486,447,12,99,5,7,150,83,122,0.128,0.826,0.046,-0.8705,0,0,4,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,4,2,6,0,1,9,0,11,11,2,0,0,17,22,10,0,4,7,0,1,0,1,2,4,1,0,0,3,3,6,0,1,5,0,2,3,5,0,0,7,3,13,1,14,13,2,9,0,1,1,0,6,2,0,4,4,63,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13970569523497306,0.0,0.15278824119512593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0972224607886614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0999658487400308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11937147110509888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1844037719346759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463327798834706,0.12511138287446008,0.0,0.0,0.2801064587224261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1347765614248534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11045594755697484,0.0,0.0746943554035287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14922040130802994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12005627066924855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.303330782737685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10509719309274096,0.10600821705412826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341648422228954,0.14007730269784888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10873284387287577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6082519996207811,0.0,0.0,0.09158831942250924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13599435365356138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11826377764092882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09160747918845848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.273222185490032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08432563922186959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13253183892770062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13781508371775775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,e30bimmer,2019/05/30,laundry is in the basement. Anyone else’s wives loves there husband for always being in the basement getting the laundry done? and getting loaded while doing it,7.774285714285713,9.805116428571427,6.727142857142859,71.76785714285714,63.28571428571429,5.6000000000000005,39.0,3.1291,2.8397285714285707,132,7,16,0,2,40,22,28,0.0,0.875,0.125,0.5719,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,4,1,0,0,0,1,7,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,5,0,3,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,1,14,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34306741431354504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28829040665836514,0.4224510408032424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4219270137458581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3444245335766199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4308204525000887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3721176994431724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,elpollodiablo42,2019/05/30,"I don't know what to do with myself, I can't socialize anymore I've been sober for about a year and a half now and my social life has completely imploded. I used to go out with ""friends"" several times a week. Everything in this town is booze based. Go to a ball game. have a few beers. Board game night with a few beers. Go to an art opening. Have a glass of wine. Wine tastings. Eating out. Go to a concert. Have some drinks. Any after work event is a bar mixer. Any event is focused around drinking. I've been trying to go to events and stay sober but it's awful when I'm the only one not having anything to drink. I've been having a hard time sticking with AA and getting with the community there because of the faith/spirituality based core. I've tried to get past it but I can't get past the third step. I'm anxious, I'm lonely as hell, I'm becoming more socially isolated. I don't know how to socialize and be around people unless I'm drinking. I don't want to pick up a drink but i'm miserable.",0.5923006379585338,2.8580881722488063,2.5985944976076603,91.94245314992027,85.93779904306221,5.779984051036682,20.67005582137161,7.1686216300943375,0.552373046251994,784,25,172,12,24,262,116,209,0.13699999999999998,0.853,0.009000000000000001,-0.9775,0,2,9,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,1,7,4,1,1,16,1,19,14,0,3,0,27,37,12,0,1,5,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,4,15,13,0,2,15,0,6,6,3,1,3,3,3,8,1,29,33,4,28,1,2,0,0,7,8,1,1,13,96,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15102604045403975,0.0,0.0,0.12544693701633375,0.11012477760564827,0.0,0.0,0.0913788941246048,0.19770355270641746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0676907573954404,0.12263822447079588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11642643026512857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5438991286489914,0.0,0.11362466938598638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09979825183017156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0857915149894791,0.0,0.17404608949443565,0.0,0.3155413641056113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09947268057513964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12205261293960452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0784329261647373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10420629515390732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07524558311347343,0.08445317442192785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21200613906731974,0.07698320644533778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12544693701633375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4527772526128282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1183570199997116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12950008523654813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15078176078196914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09590546404004327,0.0,0.0,0.0654960144863979,0.0,0.0890719640340533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0808405969688378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07150802517634397 alcoholism,Throwawayptsd1990,2019/05/30,"I think I ruptured my spleen last night I have had problems with drinking for almost 10 years now, I usually just browse reddit but right now I wouldn't mind talking to somebody .... last night I fell down on something and i fell right on my spleen the ironic thing is that I only know where my spleen is because I've had pain in that area before because of drinking so much , but I actually fell really hard on the exact point my spleen is last night and I've been having all the symptoms of a ruptured spleen .. I dont want to get into everything on the post but I've been kind of wanting to not be be here for a while(die) and I've hoped something would happen so I didnt need to do it myself I think I might be now , if anyone wants to talk messages me thank you",2.5926192794547243,4.167776139240509,3.4892405063291143,91.69378286270693,75.58227848101266,5.8741966893865625,23.54625121713729,6.297961479604792,0.4547813047711782,602,18,129,4,13,192,89,158,0.077,0.879,0.045,-0.4161,0,0,4,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,0,8,5,0,0,6,0,18,4,0,0,2,27,29,9,0,9,6,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,4,5,2,0,3,2,0,3,4,2,0,0,5,1,20,3,18,18,2,27,0,0,0,0,4,12,0,4,11,84,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.13274778791999187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13621658166164927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0951168653957497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16584791254120146,0.0,0.1157533686552367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1594287055897135,0.26651950307617545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12225695484986535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07107120119808169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12029281034616132,0.0,0.12185811669892675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13511065172351938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14165658560126326,0.07475973033504624,0.3326531558326953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1443086493822475,0.13735372661058093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09999930671193616,0.10086614018156366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38297096656711305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10345860516474427,0.14474783390152576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12859438260662354,0.0,0.1302812287322686,0.0,0.0,0.13016442776999368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08714569985784784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2323414823626306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2094484411093684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14138952413229286,0.0,0.21867503208926006,0.0,0.12524015778576095,0.0,0.0,0.09037373798953606,0.17432786050509078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14982023130721772,0.0,0.2407059183622548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09663335998772732,0.0,0.0,0.08760026598726735 alcoholism,NylakOtter,2019/07/13,"So my pets are alcoholics now. No, they obviously don't have access to the liquor cabinet. But I always rode the worst horses and worked the scariest dogs when drunk, and my own pets can tell. ""Oi, the human is getting liquored up, bet it's time to get to work!"" Is there a Dog Anon?",2.2836842105263138,4.091671754385967,3.3472280701754364,91.36926315789476,77.0701754385965,6.665263157894738,21.92631578947368,7.554174236665415,0.6610800000000001,218,6,48,3,5,70,48,57,0.152,0.848,0.0,-0.8398,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,2,4,1,0,0,5,0,6,4,0,0,1,5,8,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,2,4,0,0,3,1,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,4,8,2,5,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,3,30,5,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4309294691061914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3355190619258872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4213413109214929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3524401626583327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2351262351103701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5871114347033086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,eatchickennuggests,2019/07/13,"How do you deal with the stress of an alcoholic? So I'm not sure if this is the right place to post this but here it goes, &#x200B; So my little sisters drinking problem started last summer, it probably began much earlier but I was unaware from being away at school. Last summer was a very scary time to the point where her life was at risk and where she became aggressive to the point of attempting to hurt me. I was the only person stepping up in my family to get her the help she needed. I tried to get my mom to call the ambulance when my sister was unconscious, I was the one who helped to get her to agree to go to the hospital for detox, I was the one who found the rehab program and supported her to go. I did the best I could to help her. I feel as though our relationship has been crushed and there is no sense of trust or anything. She lied, manipulated me, etc(just an overview, obviously goes much deeper). She was doing well after she left rehab and went to another group to help integrate her back into society and give her support. After seeing her progress, I let my guard down a little to attempt to rebuild our relationship but it's hard when her program was across the country and being at college. I also just have a lot of anger and resentment for what she did to me and our relationship but I had been trying to work through it. She recently came back home after being away for so long for a visit and I was hoping that we would be able to repair our relationship a little while she was here. She has now relapsed about 3 times now that I know of and now I literally cannot breath or think or move, it's like I have PTSD from last time and I have just shut down. Last night she came into my room in search of something, I'm assuming that she was looking for alcohol, or maybe even my ID to buy alcohol, who knows. So now I feel even more violated and unsafe in my home. My mom planned hat she was to leave if she relapsed again, but my sister has a way of manipulating my mom so who knows what is going to happen. My mom is no help at all she just invalidates my feelings and enables my sister more. &#x200B; The main point in all of this is how do you deal with this? I feel so shut down, so anxious that I can't even function. I was up until 6am last night due to just being so stressed and unable to calm down. Do I try and talk to her? Do I just ignore her as if she doesn't exist? I just don't know how to deal with it and how to not let it impact me to this extent. &#x200B; Any advice or anything in general would be so helpful.",3.9237510602205248,4.732093482824432,5.0393384223918565,84.85805767599663,71.23282442748092,8.035962680237489,26.387616624257845,8.256446698504663,1.5120094995759117,2011,62,425,29,36,664,226,524,0.12300000000000001,0.78,0.096,-0.9078,0,0,5,0,0,0,52.0,5,2,0,7,40,19,4,3,22,0,50,9,1,6,4,76,81,50,0,9,21,8,5,1,0,2,7,0,3,1,22,24,4,2,11,1,1,9,8,10,1,2,24,7,74,9,75,46,10,76,0,1,2,0,64,34,0,11,32,327,96,5,0.06232913784315373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06090731212999712,0.0,0.199832678559304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04984458901427277,0.0,0.20260078443665494,0.2272101742306159,0.04238595109055397,0.06535753560618933,0.0,0.07041418447903032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10258313931637757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11712055350678945,0.09585451930662676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0654105847641723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06364501855324346,0.14257585804156972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04976474479965228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19277581275909908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0610588261356869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06951346465861909,0.12350342311591153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05875836400731298,0.0,0.12606193949818156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06834068250829071,0.0,0.0,0.09769320594825937,0.05979178851173241,0.10626925623542856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05511745074956202,0.0,0.05583466481712145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25066744352656883,0.0,0.1250424145278978,0.06190689759996906,0.0,0.0,0.06672463118298723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13701785644328632,0.2540328315069033,0.0,0.06599755735885894,0.06772079063918253,0.12747153274582726,0.044024913350215036,0.030450868383803613,0.1874105117126336,0.0,0.05515932560760727,0.05234077779375185,0.0,0.0,0.052990004083187305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06261799656898027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2919965317178036,0.0,0.06624600948034508,0.09163817599447037,0.046216265941060576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11698334714841425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08447167378657412,0.047404117988238056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05442339901772112,0.0651206829653482,0.0,0.1767635454586523,0.0,0.05969408468868138,0.0,0.06720135259477697,0.05964056718196451,0.07285942668442744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061542504176897175,0.2676726720595057,0.0,0.053228743157430036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06308041509112762,0.04966825308031317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047984015437821,0.0,0.0,0.044116884571696095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14279563362231598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14146073398142028,0.058744474782125126,0.0,0.0,0.0500978000125479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03993799478961329,0.061238061468580525,0.0,0.1090338645419756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12695217961031835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05142806635598182,0.0,0.049473968437335016,0.0,0.0,0.05604138034952767,0.05777973522951432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04537635468626483,0.0,0.0,0.08855366242689539,0.0,0.2272101742306159,0.0 alcoholism,4yearstreakhastoend,2019/07/13,"Success from gradual tapering Hi guys, first off I just want to thank everyone who makes this place possible, I found this sub a few days ago and it may well save my life. So I've been a heavy alcoholic for about 4 years now (375ml of liquor a day). About 2 years ago I progressed up to about a full 750ml a day and that's where I currently am I guess. The problem is I am an attorney and I don't always drink the same amount each night because some days I am working 10-12 hrs and have to be up early so it doesn't work. I usually consume around 10-17ish shots a night. What's consistent is it's every night. This Thursday night I had to work very late and only had time for 5 shots before taking a melatonin to force myself to sleep at 12am. I woke up at 4am on Friday feeling completely awake with some very mild shaking (I've felt much worse). After trying to go back to sleep unsuccessfully I ended up just going to work and clocking out at 5pm. During the day I read about HAMS and tapering and made myself a tapering schedule on paper that I put on my fridge. I didn't follow their method, I took my limit (17 shots) and had each day moving down by 2-3 shots. I didn't end up starting to drink last night until later and only consumed 8-9 shots. I took a melatonin at 1am and woke up completely awake at 3am. Watched TV for a bit and took a unisom at 5am. I tried to sleep but kept having myself jerked awake or very vivid short dreams. I just got up and have no shakes, feel pretty fine but have some mild muscle twitches. I've been peeing a lot so I'm drinking Gatorade too. I am on mild bp medicine (Lisinopril) and feel like I can stick to my tapering schedule. Has anyone tried and succeeded at that method?",3.763193668528864,4.35546535195531,4.69733240223464,87.95324255121047,71.45810055865924,7.754376163873371,25.531191806331467,7.793537801064563,1.1660219739292366,1348,38,295,16,24,439,189,358,0.032,0.883,0.086,0.9465,1,0,6,0,0,0,35.0,0,0,1,9,16,11,1,2,16,0,23,11,4,2,0,45,46,22,0,2,6,0,4,1,0,1,3,0,0,1,11,20,5,2,5,7,0,10,5,4,1,1,17,6,30,7,47,27,12,70,0,0,2,0,4,26,0,7,35,168,41,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15261237661579036,0.0919951040884272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07162682814323215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060190290746147235,0.0,0.0,0.07663091831973262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0661914748718814,0.0,0.052474574482469116,0.0,0.07324914341127976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09397886617375284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1805099432108589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3330932549664745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.252981734305405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15248558193106793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07252750227568522,0.08225470493283249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1305764051755719,0.06149674751864442,0.08265188281229711,0.0,0.0,0.07322100698975635,0.0,0.09438408541812006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09784437019270308,0.0,0.06884735871935392,0.0,0.09482864172557104,0.08523436662611714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07016803341127226,0.09710384995596852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060802014695535686,0.04205514573613139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07318353999592171,0.0,0.08145253801274302,0.05746016939764971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09149117023588337,0.06327991697751585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40390898307220013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13093794668584754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0899370020593824,0.0,0.0,0.09704412567305723,0.0,0.08757598433337882,0.0,0.08236851287817873,0.0,0.08653583354031193,0.0,0.0,0.08610494429915129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2584314495600019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060929034492612236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06472268734204513,0.0,0.0,0.07925241731688895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05019490200510802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28691963945515114,0.17533136814814784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09480677527078622,0.2130791278200745,0.050773187104313125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07739774078518301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2506738639112517,0.0,0.0877245548816164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11086751980893317 alcoholism,babysploff-,2019/07/13,Hi. Just found this group. Cut out booze for a month but found my way back to it. 27yo and have started to accept that I have a problem. I’m thankful and sorry this community exists.,-0.2704504504504506,1.9671733513513523,1.4852702702702736,95.39745495495498,99.27027027027029,3.547747747747748,16.977477477477482,5.46131890053228,-0.5701495495495492,142,4,30,1,6,46,30,37,0.152,0.6509999999999999,0.19699999999999998,0.5994,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,9,7,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,2,2,4,5,0,5,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,19,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2409468691085131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.68714437680032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25011304383879024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2998337071282318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3507697595336218,0.22179079899964527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2884906531958492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2487227077779557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,shaegarza,2019/07/13,"Advice please Hi all. Long time reddit lurker/first time poster. I have been struggling with sobriety for a little over a year. Rehab for 30... got 50 something days and relapsed. Two more rehab stints for detox. And IOP. I cannot seem to make it to 60+. I do AA, have a sponsor, I KNOW I am powerless. I am married to another alcoholic. We cannot or have not been able to get sobriety right. Anyone else with experience being married to another alcoholic? What has worked for you?",0.6619354838709697,3.1361306774193567,2.5613333333333337,87.742,97.06451612903228,5.920860215053764,21.25376344086021,7.3011,1.2821776344086024,375,14,71,8,15,124,64,93,0.07400000000000001,0.899,0.027000000000000003,-0.6199,1,0,3,0,0,0,19.0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,3,0,12,5,0,1,1,11,17,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,2,5,2,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,1,1,3,0,8,0,12,13,2,8,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,2,5,44,10,1,0.19458831909439908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1901494533384736,0.0,0.4159114700504664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4080856380771406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13606067711457862,0.1993787282958824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12549336792589613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16255357157562922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19034471464530445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16551672481620694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1016643653901314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15563005476103614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10694065125010126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19502861591824086,0.0,0.17220453906124264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12988921399857234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2135995405901205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16617736129410468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1771458974773827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1498035947639998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2034259607711444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269320274035085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19008451296660148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14166261383641768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12530849766814733 alcoholism,Mossanony,2019/07/13,"It's been 25 Years sober and he's drinking again. Redditors? I didn't know him very well when he was actively drinking. All I do know is that he received 3 DUIs, lost his license, went through the court-mandated alcohol awareness programs, got his license back and quit drinking. From those who've been down this path I'm asking what to expect.",2.980649350649351,5.64961896969697,3.1053246753246766,89.59227272727274,79.0,6.195670995670996,29.12554112554113,7.447530270364453,1.852517748917749,276,13,52,4,7,84,54,66,0.038,0.885,0.077,0.3384,0,0,4,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,1,0,6,4,0,0,1,6,13,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,2,4,0,2,3,0,2,1,1,1,0,7,0,5,1,4,6,1,7,0,1,0,0,8,1,0,0,4,28,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2506562904521301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2192670522258288,0.0,0.0,0.180349918784736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6892917150480865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18758632554437504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2577985833151732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25603256796608986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24946649803096746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19352342816278914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21088329413641066,0.2174247105180788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15103869669098574 alcoholism,drugsmakeyouworse,2019/07/13,"I have learnt the hardest step is not the first step is not admitting it, the hardest step is to stop You probably figured this our, but I'm having a lot of trouble.",13.578823529411766,5.810765117647057,12.593529411764704,65.3308823529412,59.58823529411765,15.952941176470587,51.647058823529406,11.20814326018867,5.640094117647059,130,6,27,2,1,43,25,34,0.151,0.8490000000000001,0.0,-0.631,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,4,0,5,0,0,0,0,7,7,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,2,7,1,5,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,21,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4676929905563356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4674536733014373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5928197150530219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4596902384714282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Greg_Payne,2019/07/13,"Whenever I get drunk I get too close to people and I can't recognise their smell Almost like they're in the wrong skin, I don't recognise their 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alcoholism,pubgcommando,2019/07/13,"Making another go of it I tried over six times in the last 2 months to quit, but the longest attempt I've made lasted two days. Now, I don't even have the money to buy a drink so I think this is God's way to helping me quit. I'm going the cold turkey route; having only been a daily drinker for about two or so years, I'm confident that I won't experience any negative symptoms other than anxiety. I'm going to avoid social interaction for the time being and just find other vices (Xbox, Star Wars). I won't have money until Tuesday, and hopefully by then I'll have broken the chain and won't want to go back. Good luck to all in the same boat!",4.6612777777777765,4.484428340740742,6.025324074074074,81.92020833333336,69.2962962962963,8.824074074074074,26.50462962962963,8.472884824447931,1.6070185185185188,506,13,107,7,8,172,94,135,0.07400000000000001,0.7609999999999999,0.165,0.9418,0,1,2,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,3,7,5,1,1,9,0,11,2,0,2,1,16,23,9,1,2,3,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,5,3,1,1,2,2,3,4,5,2,0,3,2,1,6,3,16,17,2,20,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,3,12,65,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11846914511027848,0.18267494701812625,0.13327059073789324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1339571563812742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11235138999258716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1706600122827966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1150644225133026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17041134222145074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15922528281421802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3960314715543266,0.14611954049328665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11676965668069232,0.0,0.0,0.1730303802651331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28400969287461064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1648422307154215,0.11628689212008014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13905319562969806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13249497034466426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3705887190169501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17758571263988784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18107146116191927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11162708346536727,0.0,0.0,0.20316714049522944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11827752514970068,0.0,0.34035677902074485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10275389358029646,0.13828022246008256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1121858798085061 alcoholism,Marconator39,2019/07/13,"Need help with my father Thisnpost is going to be brief and a bit unstructured because well, im just not very good at writing. Over the last 10-12 year, my father who is now 62 as developed a problem with alcohol. Recently retire from a 40 year long carreer as a police officer,he is now a different person than he use to be. He was always very implicated in all kind of activities during his life, giving a lot of his time toward his carreer but also gave a lot of his free time our community/city. Without being a person with tact i should say he was always kind of polite. Anyway... he his now drinking a lot. Not that its everyday, but like 2 or 3 time a week. The problem is, qhen he does drink he doesnt stop. He gets really drunk and unpleasant. He will be mean to my mother for no reason and treat her and talk to her like shit whitch makes her cry. He is now overweigh and very unactive. Watch tv all day kind of thing. He is trully a different person when he drinks. A often feel bad when were with others. Like last chrismast all the familly was there, and i was embarrassed by his behaviour.p We all tried to talk to him. He can acknowledge the problem, make some kind of promisses but in the end nothing changes. I left my hometown 20 years ago and live 6 hours away from my family. We see each other 3-4 time a year. The thing is i like to see him. I like to have a drink with him and sometime have more than just one drink. And sometime we really have a good time together doing that. I dont have any problem with alcohol. Not a single bit. But im also wondering if im making things worst for him actually. Any advice i could get would be appreciated. Thanks for taking the time.",3.1585098294775733,4.668950583577715,4.6651743238840035,84.11035407841861,73.95601173020528,7.8671011187140225,24.65309004018681,8.515128840125781,1.5784336048658631,1323,41,269,24,27,443,178,341,0.139,0.753,0.10800000000000001,-0.9366,2,0,7,0,0,0,41.0,4,0,0,0,14,23,1,1,23,0,29,10,1,5,4,59,46,21,0,9,12,3,1,5,0,3,3,1,0,3,9,19,8,1,5,7,1,2,7,8,1,1,6,5,29,16,37,31,14,36,0,0,3,0,43,7,1,8,32,173,38,0,0.0,0.0,0.07095601426821611,0.0,0.0,0.07105291540483707,0.06445442937609856,0.1554131341350426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11629485008502742,0.12100372036311588,0.0,0.0,0.09889273691023524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0683149238528546,0.0,0.06071113295643432,0.044324304883031115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15876442859917392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07691921146894011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058054280820110875,0.0,0.07987025743753824,0.046892954455329226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15193625251321094,0.0,0.0,0.0636303945133358,0.0,0.08521743138503389,0.3561483388790794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06440087881071893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06854600738623054,0.0,0.03676516008380292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07597760000806572,0.06975157403039765,0.041323667111949736,0.12197404870268914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048737040038876384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07160626063610498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.235622954496282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3028716897389826,0.0,0.11853928637393693,0.0,0.0,0.0790013454897594,0.0,0.05135833998554516,0.17761602832352136,0.0,0.0642056581463251,0.0643474610703588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18545035788422284,0.0,0.0,0.14560663476344587,0.0,0.0,0.07920422782139397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05391471597414891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06976872299582712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04927124906490868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1904668436950452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2783006523507099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09316180132890774,0.0747596153477234,0.07179391423069048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057823167627222935,0.0,0.0,0.1158834320874076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07463739298604093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14382722564593514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060790137511257274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054670059831668005,0.11688562905756253,0.0,0.0669430546605875,0.0,0.0,0.14491903050292132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2543922456150528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04936639057425028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06279946024574685,0.0,0.1799840078524622,0.0,0.0,0.05832484436998925,0.0,0.06537644361397098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0700913693492509,0.07885260790819372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051652220933485087,0.0,0.0,0.18729549684212768 alcoholism,Lvl9supergenius,2019/07/13,"How the hell do I stop when everyone around me drinks I don't mean all my friends drinking is the issue because I can avoid them. My big problem is that I live in a house where it's normal to get drunk every night. More relatives live next door and they are the same. Everyone here is an alcoholic, but they'd never say such a thing. Despite being drunk every night. If I lived alone I know I could get on track, but don't know how to avoid it when I live with a family of piss heads.",2.4458823529411755,3.726306676470593,3.4962254901960783,92.70551470588238,75.37254901960785,7.060784313725492,21.573529411764707,7.645422480735847,0.5606235294117647,379,9,87,5,8,122,70,102,0.214,0.7659999999999999,0.02,-0.9473,0,3,3,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,3,0,8,6,2,2,7,0,11,7,2,2,2,20,16,8,0,4,3,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,4,3,5,3,3,4,0,0,3,5,0,0,0,1,14,1,7,13,3,12,1,0,0,0,5,5,2,1,7,57,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16081015849374194,0.0,0.15584492222687027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13395310807705704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09172710573060884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12014065801942045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2948130279525142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2535604313224616,0.28756730628600385,0.0,0.0,0.14185280250914772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11625527131063156,0.0,0.15723214086467965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1544289814767599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1736259449375338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15705499452800545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16539234250852547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5314825993398451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16390949838596566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11605425838717973,0.0,0.16003002445999712,0.2824179318171241,0.1474318512473036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14398259279213133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.119662379920402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12580238732650886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09996775108974744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,throwaway1998h,2019/07/13,"Anyone else get ""phantom"" hangovers? I have been sober for over a hundred days and I believe I am going okay in my recovery, I'm even feeling strong enough to make amends. However right now I feel like I am suffering from a hangover worse than I've ever had when drinking. I get this occasionally and consider it a painful reminder of how far I've come but this is unbearable. It's unbearable not only because of the pain but because every time I drank I knew I could wake up feeling like this. Often I wouldn't be hungover unless I passed out. Yet every time I drank I risked this and it never stopped me.",3.4884999999999984,5.350990850000001,4.528333333333336,83.97000000000001,73.83333333333334,7.133333333333333,29.5,7.908726449838941,2.0228999999999995,482,21,92,7,10,157,84,120,0.113,0.767,0.12,-0.3074,1,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,7,8,0,1,4,1,9,6,1,2,2,21,21,8,0,2,4,0,3,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,7,5,3,1,4,1,0,3,3,4,0,0,5,3,15,4,11,13,1,18,0,1,0,0,0,6,0,1,11,61,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1285290085901044,0.1883420752069725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22410607926332574,0.0,0.0,0.20709863242641008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15834193153732856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14676278955056934,0.0,0.0,0.11854665511157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1800705235490173,0.0,0.0,0.15355538308692995,0.0,0.0,0.1899319332177514,0.0,0.1214092893038212,0.16627285563201347,0.3097472315701367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2788299523798246,0.2626375746687441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19207342444036146,0.0,0.1044673463202723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17960724630403338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12269916816396345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14177087907552333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1398009900411818,0.3911881559494608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15697857713338054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15367910914201185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2143701554193584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1873250640289369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,CountCosmology,2019/07/13,"Finally had my moment and realized i'm an alcoholic, any advice would be infinitely appreciated From the UK so drinking a lot is part of the culture. But for so long i used that line of reasoning to rationalize my habit of drinking to cope with all my mental health issues. Right now, i literally cannot function in society due to my mental health, and i can only function socially when there's drink involved. Tonight i was supposed to have literally like 2 or 3 drinks, save the rest for tomorrow when i go out. But once i have one i literally cannot stop until all the booze is gone or until i get too sick to keep drinking. I dunno how i deluded myself into thinking all this was okay until now. I've had a 'quiet' drink many a times where i've drank way more than i'm supposed to. But i'm supposed to celebrate a few of my friend's birthdays tomorrow, but that didn't stop me drinking until i got sick. I'm so torn because my whole social life with my friends essentially revolves around drinking, and if i don't go out drinking with em tomorrow i doubt they'd really understand why (i don't blame em tho cus this predicament is of my own doing). I just can't go on living my life being dependant on alcohol as a crutch to get me through everyday life. I'm sick to death of having to drink to cope with my mental health just so i can go outside and feel okay. I'd love to hear your advice, to me it seems like i should just stop drinking completely and just focus on ways to treat my mental health and develop coping strategies that don't involve booze. I will 100% get chastised for doing so but i'm at a point where i feel so shit i really don't give a fuck. Sorry if this was more of a rant than a decent post but somehow i finally had an epiphany about how fucked up i am after the 1000th time getting way too drunk haha",5.785858547172217,5.422281179624664,6.806847950976639,77.89674709562111,66.96246648793566,10.000204264011236,32.23911655815141,9.606745405546679,2.813262326056428,1452,54,292,27,21,489,185,373,0.11900000000000001,0.759,0.122,-0.7885,0,0,13,0,0,0,23.0,0,1,1,0,25,14,3,1,16,3,31,31,1,5,3,53,60,32,1,4,14,0,2,2,2,3,12,2,0,0,7,14,17,4,7,12,0,5,8,4,0,2,10,4,39,10,49,44,11,48,0,0,0,3,12,14,3,10,27,193,46,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12858621559901884,0.0,0.14062749331920707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044742157014470915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058570584058986665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040107394548782135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06898372767896256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7089834880124017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06653481808779503,0.0,0.0,0.14414816030728095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1016645188506214,0.1216509335301008,0.13749853893634978,0.06311557298909262,0.14956892165011754,0.0,0.052621449664564016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27974366155335545,0.07415458801037977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06867181277790572,0.0,0.05848070521112664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13941668418308367,0.06428722250655164,0.0,0.0580972825255684,0.05822559465223115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0559356820334696,0.059381628342936435,0.0,0.0,0.06670476066137508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2652193947812009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07006843271387392,0.044583698072028666,0.050039280365114285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07124845991397691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062196569868548726,0.0,0.06301243787759013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08429860620790497,0.06764716100972015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056187692448959325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059896360903446175,0.0,0.0,0.06753656659666353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341373372968015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07365096482963701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16502011952174706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042158120503239714,0.0,0.0,0.07672998814802758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06849384502199078,0.0,0.05682486699280384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15667257713928234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05936882597709841,0.07345661990777284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04673814986534048,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Neurpey,2019/07/13,Naltrexone and alcohol Does anyone have any experience with taking Naltrexone to try and curb alcohol cravings?,13.11352941176471,14.970885058823535,12.557647058823528,35.309411764705914,51.352941176470594,18.564705882352946,52.29411764705882,15.903189008614273,10.50504705882353,94,6,9,5,1,31,14,17,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.743300420863138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2364890630859205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431622252445173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3043275543259608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3401764959445846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2614726143170231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2361065497749363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,franzsmiles,2019/07/13,"Was 15 days sober. But... I relapsed again. The withdrawal symptoms keep getting worse. I shake at night, cold sweats, and can’t sleep. Idk what my triggers are. And while I drink I do not eat so I have the shits for a whole week. Does this happen to anyone? My brother in law always drinks in front of me knowing damn well I am not strong enough to resist the temptation. Should I blame him. Idk, what to think ? Can you guys help....",0.18052488687783,2.570914129411769,0.7035294117647055,101.66434389140272,95.94117647058823,3.556561085972851,15.950226244343893,5.369823440869387,-0.9141221719457012,331,8,73,2,13,99,69,85,0.217,0.747,0.036000000000000004,-0.9316,0,0,2,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,0,1,3,5,2,1,4,0,8,7,3,1,0,11,13,5,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,2,3,1,2,2,0,2,3,3,1,0,1,1,12,2,8,11,2,10,0,0,0,0,5,3,2,0,5,46,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1857963300749537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1561305367929415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14400447883795578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19540380653292555,0.0,0.0,0.4374811229106244,0.0,0.22848284422151344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2307197029892266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1166605390895428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2210935891748266,0.19745584522297466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496675168460273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19847165356207488,0.0,0.0,0.1227151123950716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20954385021504604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2292054105700954,0.0,0.0,0.22345265570130626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2320852585692954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14307611129414427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1791108902043313,0.0,0.20076578241358745,0.0,0.0,0.2492968709173957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2275530101915205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,lwsjsh,2019/02/14,Day 1? Any advice on how to get through Day 1? I start each morning determined and by the afternoon I’ve found an excuse to have “just 1 or 2 drinks...”,0.8298958333333317,2.55610303125,2.9512500000000017,92.90208333333337,81.1875,6.766666666666668,23.166666666666664,7.793537801064563,0.9800291666666668,115,4,27,2,3,39,27,32,0.0,0.865,0.135,0.4696,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,6,4,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,5,3,1,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,4,14,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3983774604375713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2772344889829699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5258361603289539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3993684705921252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44699702860167057,0.0,0.0,0.21299452083632792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2885560341355781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,sparta13372,2019/02/14,"I need help with my best friend I believe My best friend, 19m, is starting to develop alcoholism. The worst part is, Is that he is accepting it and maybe even wants it. I don’t know what to do, Ive already seen one friend go due to alcoholism and I don’t want to see another. What can/should I do?",0.8298958333333317,2.55610303125,2.7668750000000024,94.22395833333336,81.1875,7.3916666666666675,23.166666666666664,8.344100000000001,1.1801854166666663,230,8,56,5,6,77,41,64,0.055999999999999994,0.611,0.33399999999999996,0.9612,0,0,2,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,1,7,0,0,1,0,9,2,0,0,0,8,17,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,5,3,2,0,2,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,1,2,8,6,5,16,4,3,0,0,2,0,5,0,0,0,2,35,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42610331787708944,0.0,0.0,0.2199950498322564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2090428575359552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22460670650748174,0.4184250653081696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13167320464868418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4620674212079306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.113298993429667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336245779975634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10956121577526028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2002805768997917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14782044958326174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13508924338571812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2158838534799644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1588614603722058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1411056817077708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2351714659026476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,M00nHermit,2019/02/14,Help I've been struggling with alcohol for last year the worst year of my life. I have a good job and shit if work Friday and and event for work Saturday. I'm thinking about going to rehab/detox/something today and just risk losing everything because it's happening anyway. I dunno what to do.,5.196052631578947,6.467541894736844,5.7008333333333345,79.57125,68.64912280701755,8.50701754385965,28.285087719298247,8.841846274778883,2.2763719298245606,236,8,42,4,4,76,47,57,0.242,0.669,0.08900000000000001,-0.8625,1,0,2,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,3,3,6,1,2,2,0,3,3,1,0,0,9,7,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,5,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,1,0,3,1,7,6,1,7,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,2,6,25,5,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2688090689867556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15333035004286874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2260589403276098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14295029239716164,0.2109714256442762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2224271434641684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1685952533025532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2496047078470267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20503051679560447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776630737557048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2813977249879091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2581919247924414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19364007842579503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26295376329002146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16117026415288474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2384210241754116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36623366343781855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32395413947315777 alcoholism,xenorous,2019/02/14,"First job in a while, hang in there! I've spent a week at this place now. If I can do it, you can too. I'm exhausted and sore, but thats ok. Just ease up as much as you can, go to bed on time, and get back out there. Its hard to re-kick start your life sometimes, but its worth it. I believe in you",-1.4157763975155255,0.030154130434786094,0.7383436853002081,107.32565217391308,87.40579710144928,4.522567287784679,14.204968944099381,5.288315135182226,-1.5103639751552795,221,3,66,1,7,73,52,69,0.07400000000000001,0.8,0.126,0.68,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,4,0,1,6,2,0,0,2,1,4,3,0,0,0,7,9,8,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,6,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,1,1,1,6,1,11,8,1,17,0,0,0,0,4,8,0,1,7,43,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2486821404415626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3643720476655185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.275092174313137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16896824992393772,0.0,0.18380121803279606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28971161835661186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32093428113837585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2284338759169785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23774338359120065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3378943620808419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3198605194982343,0.0,0.2289110907709547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1885828302518672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25941979949977123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,malemartian,2019/02/14,"Screaming, restlessness, etc. in my Mom? Hey there. It’s 5AM in the morning, and my mom just got done with her regular schedule of getting tanked. She doesn’t seem to sleep. I’ve tried everything, including taking her to the gym daily to tire her out. What usually happens is she’ll start drunkenly sobbing and mumbling thoughts of suicide until randomly going super saiyan 3. She then starts screaming. Not yelling, shouting, etc. but full on screaming bloody hell. I’ll have to run down, try and diffuse, then attempt to lift her and out her in the bed (she’s lost most motor functions). Then she’ll miraculously get back up 15 minutes later and start the process over again. She’s a 58 year old with a full time corporate 9-5 too. It happens just like that multiple times a week, almost every time she gets drunk now. What do I do? Secretly, in bouts of anguish, I pray that she dies soon. There doesn’t feel like any other escape from this. I can’t stop hearing the screams, even when I’m away from home or it’s not happening that night. I haven’t gotten a good nights rest in years. 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I've been a heavy drinker for 12 years. Mixed some tramadol 4 years ago and my liver has always been aching since. The pain and bloating correlates with my drinking. Never can stop drinking long enough for it to ever stop hurting. Too scared to see a doctor and before the pain I was a 26oz vodka a night kind of drinker. Now can just yoyo binge or get too sick. Looking for advice from personal experiences. ,2.7647560975609764,5.1188580975609765,3.229451219512196,90.16539634146343,77.78048780487805,5.5634146341463415,23.664634146341466,6.6274283507984215,0.6945317073170738,332,11,65,3,8,103,62,82,0.252,0.691,0.057,-0.9629,0,0,5,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,1,7,0,7,7,1,0,2,11,10,4,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,4,2,2,0,3,0,0,1,4,0,0,3,2,3,1,8,7,2,10,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,2,10,38,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18329840525809996,0.1662759937315029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15607937300308355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15961450022306678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19199335534969755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3675087626167268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19381753432637128,0.0,0.0,0.1696744426175808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18348663133775636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0980014179394824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20080542154236444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.195332933950245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660000427765907,0.1575177226518621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14467120802797134,0.0,0.0,0.1760286263190583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39919102890865704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16378529768941216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18779764000910887,0.0,0.14947485389185805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15516591363667012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3136461100222636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24158731339578746 alcoholism,CallMeZami,2019/02/14,"Do these symptoms sound like anything related to alcohol consumption or alcohol-related health complications? My ex (41M) is an alcoholic and dependent on marijuana. He has 14 hours a week visitation with my son. His visits were supervised until he passed his drug test. Now they are unsupervised. My son is almost 2. I have noticed over the last two months that his health has been declining. He's required to do a breathalyzer on drop off and pick up of my son. The last two months he has actually passed each time (he visits two days a week). This is the longest he has went with no breathing anything into the breathalyzer. Over the last several weeks I have noticed a persistent hoarseness in his voice and involuntary bouts of coughing. Last week he missed a visit saying that he was admitted to the hospital. I assumed that it was drug or alcohol related but I have no way of knowing because he refused to provide any information therefore I have no idea if he is even fit to watch a toddler. Today he visited with our son. When I dropped my son off he seemed to be moving in slow motion and sore with some extreme dry skin and lips but he passed the breathalyzer so everything was Ok. When it came time to drop my son off, he was an hour late. This always means that he has been drinking. As each hour the amount of alcohol decreases. When he came into the police station, he was out of breathe, with labored breathing and physically unable to lift my son out of the stroller. My son actually slid himself out and crawled up the steps on his own as my ex could barely physically move. When it came time for him to take the breathalyzer, his hands were visibly shaking as he attempted to blow into it. He blew too lightly twice and then ultimately blew a .018. He smelled like alcohol too. I was furious as he had been drinking with my son. He claimed it was cough medicine which is his go-to excuse each time. I did get a police report. I may never know what his medical issue is because he is a pathological liar but I am wondering if these symptoms sound familiar to anyone that might have any experience with alcoholics or alcohol related health problems? I wouldn't rule out other drug issues but I've only ever seen him do cocaine and that was once. He also takes a monthly drug test. Tldr: do the symptoms of coughing bouts, dry face and lips, slight skin discoloration, hoarse voice, shortness of breathe and lack of physical strength and unable to lift things sound like any alcohol or drug related health issue that you are familiar with?",5.120861133099627,6.990591039748953,5.7659516001357005,76.733594368427,69.56485355648536,9.435349994345813,32.58419088544612,9.836113211274913,3.4168842474273435,2039,94,363,51,37,661,221,478,0.077,0.879,0.044000000000000004,-0.9432,0,0,17,0,0,0,46.0,1,1,1,4,11,10,2,1,25,1,44,38,10,3,2,67,59,34,0,6,10,11,3,3,0,3,26,6,0,0,20,33,10,2,9,2,0,18,5,5,0,4,20,13,35,5,54,34,7,74,0,1,2,0,59,21,0,14,34,226,55,6,0.0,0.0,0.11672362366078212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5752276932063536,0.05988684731912599,0.0,0.0,0.04782665872303754,0.04976319788703777,0.0,0.0,0.12200993874453325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041817590237127916,0.0,0.09843011833074464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07291409383052372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20520563132978686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047750046956761966,0.0,0.0,0.03856977893019732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11717378746104555,0.3467785745719866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039501152049491485,0.054097749765977685,0.0,0.0,0.053749576589591536,0.05850152630166141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0312460503928114,0.0,0.033989001623075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2542829796907737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17668993187773774,0.0,0.0,0.06751344330290958,0.0,0.18726508129231315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06573538260290153,0.19499876359215,0.06746352206591001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08765424605639456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06514602444847603,0.0,0.06024802902436404,0.0,0.06344447898311255,0.0,0.0,0.1432092032505018,0.12712815372085176,0.0,0.0,0.04612590257849456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361785483284109,0.0,0.06369120127266252,0.0,0.045484988800707525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05722605219682793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04755995475930763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05444493376039307,0.0,0.0675635056269653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18648330638482968,0.08993300363775476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039732301182549834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13949291940755448,0.0,0.056688884239275414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17526466372721725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04747104251274315,0.19189034938130176,0.0,0.0,0.05544055498457738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06485681464122217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,mary-goore,2019/04/01,"Guilt My last drink was on New Year’s Eve. Honestly quitting has been relatively easy for me so far, mostly because I just have so many regrets that it’s easier to ignore the urge to drink. I’ve always had issues with alcohol but they were definitely the worst when I was 16-17. My dad was working in another country and my poor mom would find me passed out on the floor or puking or crying or saying weird shit. She used to have to throw buckets of water on my head while I was lying on the bathroom floor. I’m almost 21 and the guilt is killing me. I am repulsed by alcohol and don’t think I’ll ever touch the stuff again, but for the past 5 years I’ve done so many things I regret. I don’t know if I can ever live with the shit I put my family through (not just the alcoholism but also other stuff). I know I should be somewhat proud that I’m better but I can’t get over the guilt. I wish I could delete the past and start over knowing what I know now. 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I've been drinking since i was 12. Let's say i was a really good kid. I picked up drinking 13 years ago, my life is shit at the moment. All I do when i'm sober is day-dream about random things. I pitty myself a lot. I blame myself for my family situation and my father's current mental and physical condition. My self confidence is really low. Most of my previous friendships have ended due to rude behavior while hammered. I'm not looking for a big life change, i'm honestly fine with my life being shit(can't expect butterflies and sunshine after 13 years of abscence). All I want is this to stop. I need to stop. Thanks",1.7545931758530209,4.362933488188978,3.7860157480314953,82.99881364829395,84.1968503937008,7.166194225721785,21.852493438320213,8.238735603445708,1.6847998950131235,511,17,94,12,15,173,86,127,0.12,0.7190000000000001,0.161,0.6705,1,0,2,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,0,2,8,2,0,4,0,11,6,1,1,2,17,18,5,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,2,5,2,2,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,3,16,5,13,13,4,16,0,1,2,0,5,4,1,3,12,56,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525379928795289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820371733164256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11097696810049787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3371445736521479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15241125999492125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1622211303057209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14433202459936448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17960617119883035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17596283076616284,0.3646342776525119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14450334481277002,0.0,0.0,0.14629574023214045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17341554743276166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275946841973943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22047692183933493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13684443438830474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1795163285605496,0.0,0.3532740334545012,0.14234584619398175,0.19342443953843086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2877321435499777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15842757889556708,0.0,0.0,0.11432189769288492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10149688019716442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22162696528554413 alcoholism,walkingceberus,2019/04/01,"Two days sober and I have The Fear I had dts yesterday and this morning, but they have stopped now. Now I can't stop thinking that I have screwed up my entire life - I have one person left who stands by me. I have ruined my relationship with everyone else. I'm filled with panic and fear and while I know the above statements are true, I also know part of this is withdrawal anxiety. All I can think is why did I let it get this bad before stopping? Why wasn't losing my right to see my kids enough? Why have I been lashing out drunk at the people who were telling what I can see so clearly now?! And worse than all of that is the revolting little alcoholic gremlin in my head saying 'it will be fine, you can still drink'. I'm ignoring it and trying to keep myself busy. Tomorrow I'm going to an alcohol support group which lasts all day. I'm going to stop making excuses and try harder - I have to. I will not drink today.",2.9884670231729054,4.527769379679151,4.100877005347595,87.86582531194298,74.45454545454545,7.339607843137256,24.231372549019607,8.021203637495839,1.2330630303030308,722,22,151,11,15,235,118,187,0.20199999999999999,0.691,0.107,-0.9724,0,0,4,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,1,1,6,11,1,3,5,0,24,8,1,1,5,29,40,11,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,2,12,10,5,6,5,3,0,3,3,8,0,2,5,3,23,3,15,31,5,26,0,2,2,1,11,7,1,0,15,102,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590976592013324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.096940723838753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0927340526473766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10121482025325278,0.0,0.0,0.10315049797716773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15635557187661067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375016794959691,0.0,0.0,0.10126493959147437,0.0,0.0,0.1252541288826013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11583225932277735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2728155926644281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06333318745351217,0.0,0.13778585031324034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1244081468119177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10774716572848536,0.0,0.0,0.1332402417707076,0.0988116345308238,0.0,0.0,0.13170742488447784,0.12395711247290428,0.08562227217654778,0.0,0.1214957064193504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356157590288366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08091623753114449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08214276978386463,0.0,0.0,0.14222721491093784,0.0,0.13127098229297707,0.0,0.08403966774670127,0.10584586609857392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301464366266087,0.0,0.10352242826660253,0.0,0.09640013672719322,0.0,0.0,0.19319555043510195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09680758066360083,0.4053861321143622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13756062812548642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10595286201093884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.155347579351686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11490372981291992,0.0,0.0,0.16460277070138454,0.0,0.11841571081003305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3281504237286263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12353498074450747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Gayboy69x,2019/04/01,"Blacking out every time I drink, no change in amount I’m a huge binge drinker and I party at least once a week and I have for the past 9 years (I’m 24) But the past 6 months I’ve started blacking out EVERY time even though I haven’t been drinking more than I have before. Has anyone else experienced this? I’ve tried drinking less but I think I feel “fine” and just keep going then don’t remember anything. Like I got punched at the club last weekend, no idea why or what happened. In fact I remember getting there and that’s about it. But I remember a conversation at the very end of the night and I think I was fine. What does it mean and has this ever happened to anyone else? I’m terrified to quit drinking because I love it and have so much fun, but I hate this feeling of wondering wtf happened last night.. what I do remember is great though and I have FOMO ",1.5815819209039574,3.7795781468926566,2.7783333333333324,92.65755649717516,81.09039548022601,5.741242937853108,23.39265536723164,6.937597516519254,0.7050655367231644,680,24,146,8,18,218,100,177,0.11,0.7290000000000001,0.162,0.8232,0,0,5,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,8,7,1,0,8,0,12,5,0,0,2,30,31,17,0,0,6,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,10,10,4,1,11,6,0,1,4,1,0,0,3,5,16,6,14,28,5,25,0,0,2,1,2,8,0,2,17,87,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1442519524180477,0.21138194691687914,0.08488495311085009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06288023971612862,0.0,0.08777438868496433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10912068375818346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0902686341227237,0.0,0.0,0.404197073949665,0.0,0.0,0.17233980140026,0.0,0.09136167410259063,0.0,0.0,0.06813063920696961,0.09330650069640686,0.17381929340392288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10431306640327752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05389243795442239,0.0,0.05862341441802677,0.0,0.0824997336861029,0.11372497019486427,0.0,0.0,0.2736497783346279,0.0,0.0,0.10184081994054328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11644556699327825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09168585503531684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16816459418014565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05039464676494193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09309831932354436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11236229976043643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08233459913230656,0.0,0.07582827279699525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19360152172410816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10985305565593284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19693969101226125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10971439198157837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4674024829164525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07301121223665527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13219072208746332,0.2026917877928469,0.0,0.1202970200992572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07003314505259789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08511084824077421,0.0,0.0,0.082741967529306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0930782478169834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11186347762460504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06642622918883677 alcoholism,snowybone88,2019/04/01,"Suicide isn't an option. Please tell me what to do instead. I'm an alcoholic with a lot of other behavioural addictions. I am completely stuck, in self pity, inertia, depression, laziness, pride, madness, whatever. But suicide isn't an option anymore. I've tried and I can't go through with it. So at least that's one option off the table. Please read below and tell me what to do. &#x200B; Here's my history: * Until 28 years old, life was a mixture of depression, drinking, eating disorders and dysfunctional relationships * After a bad break up and 2 suicide attempts I went to rehab, got sober, did AA, worked the steps and was reasonably happy and functional for over a year. Quit my job to focus on recovery but didn't actually do that * Got into a relationship and relapsed for a few months, cheated on my boyfriend and put him through hell * Managed to get 3 months of sobriety through going back to AA and working the steps, though was miserable and getting more and more depressed and stopped going to meetings * Found out I was pregnant and that that my boyfriend had cheated (before I had cheated on him) and had an abortion as a result * Started drinking again about 2 weeks ago and can't seem to get through a day without starting drinking again about 2/3pm &#x200B; Current situation: * 30 year old female in UK * Unemployed, though reasonably intelligent don't have a career path and haven't managed to stick at anything work wise. Have massive trouble sticking to boring jobs but that's all I'm qualified to do * Boyfriend is still living with me and probably needs to for a few months now due to finances * Can't drive due to alcohol reasons, through have lots of AA meetings within walking distance * Have an energetic dog that needs 1+ hrs walking each day &#x200B; I literally don't know how to live my life or do anything. I just sleep, drink, tidy the house, eat, argue with boyfriend, obsess, ruminate, read reddit, browse memes endlessly. I'm stuck in my head and I can't get out. I hate myself and I'm terrified of what is going to happen with my life. &#x200B; Help!! 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Hadn’t been drinking in 4 months, but now I’ve started drinking everyday again. I’m so tired of life ",0.8337681159420285,3.3480981739130438,2.27826086956522,92.38376811594203,89.0,4.8057971014492775,29.40579710144928,6.42735559955562,1.50860579710145,90,5,18,1,3,29,20,23,0.231,0.769,0.0,-0.7279,0,0,2,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,2,2,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,9,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7515201944542726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27093225939409804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30616804493706506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27149825643847325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4408661170438321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,heckttorr,2019/04/01,"Please throw me some advice Hey this is one of my only posts and i apologies ahead of time for the spelling(dyslexic mofo here) i am 20 years old and i think i might have an alcohol problem.. i started drinking when i was 13 at highscool partys and such.. as i have gotten older my drinking has become more destructive. From 13-18 i was getting hella fucked up at parties, i mean blackout every party!. At 18 i went to montreal for university where the drinking age is just 18 i practically solely picked it because of the low drinking age. I dropped out of university after just one year. At 19 I decided id go to nunavut to work as there is a lot of money to be made and pretty much no alcohol.. anyway while i was there I managed to sniff out the black market dealers and soon found myself spending $180 for 60oz of booz roughly weekly ( keep in mind that 60 was always drank within 40 hours of purchase) after this i went to Australia on a working holiday this past year was the greatest of my life for a lot of reasons however i could not avoid the liquor.. for example one night i found myslef surrounded by Australian cops loading me into an ambulance, to this day i still dont know why. Another night i was beat to a pulp by two irish backpackers im assuming i was drunk and started roasting ireland (i was definitely joking but they wouldn’t take it that way.. why should they i never told them?) i am back in canada and soon to be moving to Florida with my beyond amazing American girlfriend. I am wondering.. do you guys think im an alcoholic or maybe a problem drinker? .. should I completely stop drinking all together ( this seems like the beat choice) sorry for my fucked format im just hoping to hear from someone .. thanks! 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Used to be Friday and Saturday night, I now have it down to just Friday, but am miserably hungover on Saturday and sick of being a slave to this. I am struggling to give up Friday. Starting every Monday I start to get excited and countdown to my Friday “fun day” only to regret it every single Saturday morning. What did you all do to fill the time that you used to drink? Is life still “fun”? Appreciate any advice to “get over the hump”. 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I’m a very anxious person, even more so when I think I’m getting sick or am sick. Yesterday afternoon/evening I drank 9 beers. I’ve had a night with 10 but for some reason this was the tipping point. I sat down and listened to all the voice memos I took while feeling sick after drinking and realized that I needed to stop. I used to just have maybe 6 a week but this year it got worse. January - 48 February - 71 March - 62 For the past two or three months I’ve had a drink almost everyday. I’d skip a day or two then drink 6 or more on the weekend. These past two weeks it’s been 16 a week, 9 last night. Now I’m worried with work on Monday that I’m going to experience withdrawal symptoms. The anxiety of guessing seems to make it worse. I haven’t had a drink today. I’ve been drinking water, eating well, and went to the gym for some cardio. I have some prescribed Xanax, which I hear is used in withdrawal, but I only like to use it in emergencies. Do you think I’ll have withdrawal problems? Did anyone have similar drinking habits when they quit? This might be all in my head.",2.1568609022556373,4.142424723684211,3.5495488721804516,88.95184210526315,78.07894736842105,6.798997493734339,24.453634085213032,7.793537801064563,1.252989724310777,879,31,184,14,21,288,134,228,0.146,0.8029999999999999,0.051,-0.9717,0,0,7,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,1,2,7,3,0,0,13,0,18,17,1,5,2,34,42,15,0,2,8,0,1,1,0,2,6,3,0,1,11,5,10,1,6,9,0,3,1,1,1,4,12,4,14,2,20,27,7,34,0,0,0,0,5,7,0,11,25,106,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09717344405794863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07423678703004198,0.10962972385931613,0.0,0.06785395203544124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06258399670346303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5703847000107892,0.0,0.09929808909379642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12819051797638706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18985119597583355,0.0,0.0,0.0490672998579965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050700386909631266,0.0,0.0551511474665754,0.0,0.07761327148280776,0.0,0.10690259221990564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09959298484233564,0.0,0.10937327283138527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07910209959925253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04740977001852427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06477622104701361,0.0,0.09749163074558193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1029461193106126,0.0,0.0,0.0774579178545918,0.0,0.0,0.07195533840821612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18213449660612727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07380473697586654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1852749460068826,0.0,0.08473324302399568,0.0,0.0,0.09173596115801896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09285599143619876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10321600458538004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09977523435703163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08834330010413857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08113137271467487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10086368961876198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12436106084801753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0919843733295585,0.0,0.10781712029339824,0.0,0.0,0.2843875034074924,0.0,0.0,0.2514391293094833,0.0,0.08006972962818178,0.0,0.0,0.23352347342021024,0.0,0.08725232135924653,0.08995881248560737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07064765815017081,0.19710151768285725,0.19778797096601985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062491801236939634 alcoholism,Alliesmith94,2019/02/25,"Accepting the fact that I have a problem. Now what? Hi Everybody, First time posting here. I have started to accept that I have a drinking problem and I need to stop. I've been really struggling with finances and I realized that my drinking habit (going out, cocktails, craft beer, was literally taking almost half of my pay check). I tried to do a sober January and made it just 13 days, and fell right back into my old routine of drinking daily (usually at least three). I've noticed I'm much more motivated by booze than my friends. Can't go skiing with out Apres, can't go mountain biking with out beers in the parking lot. If we go out with friends, I need atleast three drinks, whether it is dinner or if it is to party. While it hasn't creeped into impacting my professional life. I can tell my relationship with Alcohol is trending in a negative direction. Right now, I'm struggling with my finances and when I check my bank account almost 50 percent of my pay check goes to booze/going out. I don't have money for paying off my credit card or starting a savings, but I do always have money to spend 50 dollars on fancy cocktails. I'm not keeping up my half of the home expenses and it's negatively impacting my relationship. I recently read this artcle about the famous Montreal restauranteur, David McMillan who owns Joe Beef and gave up drinking. It really resonated. [https://www.bonappetit.com/story/david-mcmillan-sober](https://www.bonappetit.com/story/david-mcmillan-sober) Particularly his opening line: ""I was never falling-down drunk. I was never belligerent. I always got my work done. I was never unkempt. I was always clean, I was always shaved, I always performed at work. I was always kind and gracious in the dining room. But I lived in hell."" It made me realize that alcohol abuse comes in many forms, and that I definitely do not have a healthy relationship with it. So I am hear to say that I have a drinking problem and I want to stop, but am looking for guidance on how? One realization I have had is that much of my life is built around booze. My girlfriend and love to explore new restaurants and breweries, we have our favorite wine bar that we go to for date nights, our favorite pub that we go to for comfort food, drinking while we cook dinner at home is a common occurrence. When we travel to a new city, our favorite thing to do is explore the local joints, eating and drinking our way around the city. It's a big part of our relationship. Additionally much of my life outside of work involves drinking, even the mountain bike advocacy group I am a part of has a beer sponsor, our trail nights end in beers at the trail head, our meetings are held at the up stairs of a local bar. Drinking is just part of what we do. I'm looking for advice on ways to quit, specifically: 1. For me I feel like the easiest solution would be to remove my self from situations that involve booze, until I am sober. But the reality is that I can't do it. It would remove me from my partner, remove me from my friends and remove me from organizations and social settings that are all positives in my life. 2. Are there good online resources and community that I can use? Where can I start? I'm not really a person for support groups and have found online communities to be a huge help with other issues. 3. What has worked for you? Specifically to get through that first 30 days? &#x200B;",5.130760697305863,7.135284372424728,5.601213629160063,77.38227686212362,69.77654516640254,7.964006339144214,30.211125198098262,8.608573733854374,2.455317565768621,2713,111,477,46,50,870,285,631,0.045,0.818,0.13699999999999998,0.9963,1,0,17,0,1,0,104.0,14,1,0,9,16,19,1,2,27,0,56,35,1,5,5,92,90,33,0,10,14,0,1,1,5,2,6,2,4,3,32,44,31,4,9,27,16,15,13,6,0,7,16,5,73,13,81,70,13,88,1,0,2,1,41,38,1,7,32,337,105,13,0.0,0.06747383351903098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05564873329131023,0.0,0.12171976339283105,0.11404999576525066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28431080090282584,0.061702919969401165,0.06919781300831401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10139123531495192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043789344769280265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04905548915448912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07345324258287997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0582773735791119,0.0,0.5578716597201254,0.0,0.05827181875889579,0.0,0.0,0.05043884980995042,0.0,0.0,0.037613486313281305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02879451991883492,0.04068352132197714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09687954304189042,0.06886150855553133,0.062440325813966586,0.13199319231113865,0.0,0.029752876253370933,0.0,0.2265532387574149,0.04776511467575297,0.04554635975783042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05844487457264275,0.0,0.06418431200098408,0.0,0.03817091145491131,0.0,0.11424657783802235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05943871006866501,0.0,0.05061782325300123,0.0,0.05930237270259042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1608956675658362,0.027821819645600536,0.0,0.050285952738466366,0.0,0.09564362247631387,0.0,0.0,0.048414985019153714,0.05139761494131714,0.1077707749004424,0.0,0.05773613319301806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12558956150455894,0.08445214760372535,0.13176496749893804,0.11000108459743883,0.0,0.1068833093650946,0.0,0.0,0.06483545033440538,0.05975713883323463,0.0,0.03858930464035769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1850067610139588,0.0,0.0,0.04972462436496392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05454025275026484,0.0,0.0,0.1634740674174503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06057099756003643,0.05696321315627512,0.0,0.10944666110218786,0.0,0.05622908450975274,0.2445625100812092,0.0,0.09726622396592756,0.0,0.0452871780842788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059408977624100724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06401171577334804,0.0,0.0580511128106735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.120923842671004,0.0,0.0,0.09522182530671308,0.0,0.1190684152568264,0.0,0.0,0.06462369115651709,0.0,0.0,0.04281766006726522,0.0,0.04977488926190357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03783358938120508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03320672146702141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03866381959091415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049184616762620516,0.06271995867793739,0.0,0.03358928924683057,0.09040502948334872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1658347131968876,0.0,0.0,0.08090816964382193,0.0,0.06919781300831401,0.0 alcoholism,logander_,2019/02/25,"Knowing you need to quit and not doing anything about it Hey, I’m 21 and began drinking when I was 14. I was heavily addicted to pot in high school and drank pretty regularly; every weekend. I stopped smoking pot about a year ago and alcohol has taken over completely. I drink a 1/5th a day on my days off, and atleast 8 beers after work. I’ve been on a bender for over 3 months now of getting plastered every night of the week. I feel like my body is just used to it. How bad for my body is this? I know I need to change but I can’t do it. 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And now I drink like three cups of vodka every night no matter what. I’m dependent on it and I love drinking. ,2.9258928571428555,4.9718812321428585,4.581571428571428,82.16342857142858,75.96428571428572,7.337142857142857,27.271428571428572,8.238735603445708,2.011747142857143,223,9,42,4,5,75,41,56,0.037000000000000005,0.6859999999999999,0.278,0.9246,0,0,5,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,5,0,2,5,0,1,0,4,5,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,4,0,0,6,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,2,3,7,3,1,14,0,0,0,1,1,5,0,1,10,28,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8193130846812275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21604551791307608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1761670613597937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1021506491596898,0.20956277491008704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18871158674718627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1962164871862876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479947415982015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1677191177724157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2692937789412374 alcoholism,holly2277,2019/02/25,"8 Years Sober Husband Told Me I'm Making Him Want To Drink Hi, I'm so glad to have found this sub. Last night, my husband, who has almost 8 years sobriety, told me that he went to work yesterday morning and thought about having a drink because of an argument we'd had the night before. Some explanation- I moved country to be with him, and after just getting back from visiting family in my home country, I was feeling a lot of feelings about my move here. I told him it was nothing to do with him because our life here is wonderful, but I feel like I haven't got enough going on outside of our home. His issue is that he feels responsible for my happiness here and it gives him too much stress. We were talking recently and he said he's never come close to drinking again ever since he sobered up. &#x200B; So, my question is- how do I deal with how he's feeling? I can't think of any alternative to this than not being in his life, as much as that kills me to admit. His sobriety comes first, always, and I can't/don't want to risk jeopardizing that. This might be slightly off-topic, but any advice or opinions would be appreciated. Thank you!",4.11958094742322,5.571059261061951,4.892935970848517,83.66093961478397,71.43362831858406,7.7955231650182215,28.33836543466944,8.313332769828598,1.9077322228006248,907,34,179,14,17,293,141,226,0.05,0.8109999999999999,0.139,0.9578,0,0,3,0,0,0,31.0,4,1,0,2,14,7,1,2,4,0,21,5,0,3,2,41,48,14,1,3,5,2,5,1,0,2,2,1,2,0,10,12,3,0,11,3,0,7,4,3,0,1,12,6,29,4,28,29,5,25,0,0,0,0,33,5,0,8,14,119,39,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1064680459783672,0.0,0.0,0.10910113739159824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09065799474778954,0.1180510126962324,0.13239036185073547,0.1481841582473436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08377847430691328,0.0,0.13283401823437235,0.0,0.0927113573336046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1877074918291809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11232621819717696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3201986927870567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11257803430977742,0.0,0.0,0.09855462917162576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10271161182407818,0.0,0.2754506786879771,0.07783636324650221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09267574509694952,0.0,0.119461829344168,0.0,0.0,0.056923678394440985,0.10451807288439988,0.06192075391983549,0.0,0.0871400234657483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11598296873278564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21857837874683603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11371909012479996,0.0,0.0,0.12054084466742553,0.0,0.0,0.08881159991813634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15391408140816104,0.053229150027969935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09262832316555417,0.0,0.0,0.07272727091924748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11558238792216903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2316005397901331,0.16018663759663493,0.0,0.08403161394873797,0.0,0.0,0.2044908558157588,0.0,0.10454376946320207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12205279414522502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10757838320536722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10363967677361448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09012741602461008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12480580372322145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08757265242253345,0.0,0.10030969427400263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06981296853929216,0.0,0.08649686552167878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3123290588633851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1285271301034508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010009355511204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11815536401919692,0.07931940596486423,0.0,0.0,0.07739740166744367,0.0,0.13239036185073547,0.1403248934664492 alcoholism,doubledoublechexchex,2019/02/25,"I’m 38F dating an alcoholic [40M]. I think I just need a reality check. Firstly, this is a throwaway account. I’m fairly certain he stalks my regular handle to read comments I leave. He takes deep offense at any suggestion that he has a drinking problem.... me crying at A Star Is Born led to a fight because he thought I was making too many comparisons between him and the main character. Well, I’ve seen him falling-down drunk twice in the past five months (since we started dating exclusively) - it takes about seven or eight whiskeys. I know there have been more instances when I wasn’t present, plus every weekend when we go out for a more normal amount - maybe five or six drinks total, with food - and he just falls asleep. Plus he has more than one failed suicide attempt in his past. Drawing a parallel between him and Jackson Maine isn’t a giant mental leap, but of course he took offense despite my backpedaling - “no of course I don’t think of you like that character!” I know intellectually that I’m not going to fix this guy. I’m not going to save him, turn his life around, give him a family and something to live for, I KNOW. But I still allowed myself to fall for him. He was dealt such a crappy hand... his childhood, his past relationships... I believe this man has a good heart and deserves love. And I think that’s why he drinks - he’s so used to drowning the pain this way, he knows nothing else. Alcohol is his medication for everything from a cold to a bout of depression. So tell me, redditers who have been down this path with a romantic partner, or who have been on the other end with a romantic partner trying desperately to love you while watching you self-destruct... what’s the prognosis? Is there EVER an instance where love wins over alcohol and depression? Or do I just leave this guy and further prove to him that he’s unworthy of a relationship? I know I’m just enabling him... but I truly do care about him and I enjoy sending time with him. Help. TL/DR: I’ve been dating an alcoholic who’s deep in denial. He’s had a very difficult life and I want to know if I can expect to help him turn things around or if that only happens in the movies. 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Ive accepted that I was an alcoholic a long time ago. Ive been an alcoholic for probably 14 years. Ive known for about 12 years. Now iit's starting to scare me. I never used to fear it. But now im scared. I want a regular life. Whatever that may be. I mostly just want to escape the isolation. I don't want to die the way I am. Ive sat outside aa meetings not knowing how to go in. ,-1.5337499999999975,0.3452831250000017,1.9112500000000023,95.60875,92.75,6.116666666666667,19.458333333333336,7.492282038375204,0.5665583333333335,324,11,82,7,12,117,59,96,0.094,0.708,0.198,0.6882,0,1,2,0,0,1,12.0,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,3,7,0,12,3,0,2,1,14,20,2,1,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,0,2,0,3,0,0,1,3,3,1,0,4,0,12,1,10,14,1,14,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,11,47,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16073354510852633,0.3875622551894877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18818657393876514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.204040875301236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10305109479801508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3917239218646731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09965139928671048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12807510882761514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3209335847570794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13984890794890065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19549886398349844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3630756282283452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12834266697376048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21146396444549745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1566064578324229,0.0,0.0,0.3208502956590628,0.14392723141418126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23353452572385666 alcoholism,erectile_dysmorphia,2019/02/25,"Meant to be? Hello everyone. This is my first post so i'll try my best. I (27M) caught my wife (28F) cheating with two different men after 5 years of marriage and 3 children. The cheating started when I lost my job as a police officer and the bank account started getting low. Each time I caught my wife, she says she is cheating because I drink too much and she doesnt like it. I drank probably 5 days a week and limited myself to two 16 oz. beers per day and sometimes would allow an additional 16 oz. if I was feeling like it. She says that I have been drinking since we met and she doesnt want me drinking around our 3 children. I explained that I was still able to function and take care of the children but she still insisted that its wrong to drink at all. So the first guy she cheated on me with was my best friend in the police academy, the second was some guy I went to high school with. After catching her with my friend from the police academy, I started drinking alot more and it lasted for a few weeks. When I caught her with the second guy, It picked up even more. The pain was so unbearable knowing that my wife wanted to be with other men. On Feb. 16th I went to my best friends house to vent to him. I told him everything that had been going on and he told me that I need to leave the house and get out of that toxic environment. He said that if I dont leave then the problem is only going to get worse. On the way home I got some vodka and drank it. I didnt make it home. I was so wasted that I pulled over in a church parking lot and cried myself to sleep. A police officer found me and brought me to the hospital due to my unresponsiveness. He didnt arrest me for DUI. What an angel he was! When I got out of the hospital, I went home and packed a bag. I went to my mom's house and cried for hours. I fell asleep and woke up the next morning. &#x200B; I woke up and felt like shit. All I could think about was my wife sleeping with other men and confusing my children with these different guys coming around. I thought about the future and what I was going to tell the kids when they ask why me and their mom arent together anymore. This saddened me very much. I thought about what my future is going to bring and about how I'm gonna pay all the bills that I'm behind on. My wife never wanted to work and stayed at home to raise the kids. &#x200B; BUT...of all the things I thought about, alcohol was not one of them. I don't understand! How can one enjoy drinking, then drink all the time to cope with their problems, then just quit in one day? I havent had a drink since Feb. 16th. I can pass gas stations and liquor stores and not even think about stopping. Im just so confused. I am still sad and I miss the way my wife and I used to be when I was a cop. I miss how we used to play with the chidren and take them places. We were the perfect family and now thats gone. I'm sad all the time but I just dont want alcohol at all. &#x200B; After thinking about it, I've started to wonder if my wife was the reason that I drank at all. I do recall several times where i've been driving home from work and thought, ""shit, I gotta deal with my wife when I get home."" I love my wife but she wasn't exactly thre greatest person in the world. She frequently would tell my that I was a bad husband if I didnt do what she wanted me to do. She would not have anything done around the house when I got home. She spent so much money that I would have to take extra shifts to keep up. She complained alot when I played my playstation or wacthed something other than what she wanted. I also never got over the fact that she kicked me out of the house when I was in the police academy because we had no money. &#x200B; So im wondering...is it possible to love someone yet drink to deal with all the emotional greif they cause you. I'm just so confused here. I always thought alcoholics had to go through recovery to stop drinking??? Any thoughts would be nice. Sorry if this is a scattered and shitty post, ill do better in the future, I promise.",3.05897565884408,4.258106501196174,3.8835634540897694,90.85438862307285,73.70095693779905,6.839036986405407,24.872712083238397,7.20055510434128,0.870798800030379,3169,97,695,32,63,1013,316,836,0.142,0.774,0.084,-0.9919,4,0,16,0,0,0,101.0,5,1,6,12,45,40,6,3,47,0,59,27,5,10,14,139,141,64,0,20,16,12,2,3,3,7,5,3,7,14,37,55,18,4,18,15,8,21,17,21,0,9,60,5,117,19,94,69,26,106,2,6,0,2,81,32,2,15,51,470,154,5,0.04225378649147852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13546934268709046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033790337791362784,0.035158535241172316,0.1831278400402858,0.20537190197819288,0.028734023758283694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04190440226842039,0.0,0.0,0.034771266026551666,0.11284448490110707,0.03950158652763031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03528014677854373,0.05151503211947647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13302822621402632,0.03737004043417505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0430805513953115,0.04340627806791613,0.0,0.03639789565646241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033736210291546505,0.0,0.09282760075185788,0.0817505901553882,0.08712359703035126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08829242724714899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04324029378210947,0.09904224615646344,0.4139262457712638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04752982259873367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05581645494534048,0.0,0.0,0.04037530373884742,0.03797497875865983,0.0,0.03983310941346973,0.0,0.02136478403432193,0.030186113512217998,0.04057026131039095,0.0,0.0,0.0718820984085896,0.0,0.046329095946325824,0.09793551188480112,0.0,0.08830343792429453,0.0,0.12006900300999528,0.0,0.13517685205636187,0.0,0.0,0.16735156702965046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0446434453221052,0.2966879510988425,0.0,0.04161146831697695,0.2437759825459865,0.0,0.0,0.09128268039392537,0.0,0.041930363226579455,0.03755710687784258,0.0,0.0,0.02322157602373526,0.03444247552831326,0.0,0.08948131785867916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06192919727562121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046124999331808116,0.035922658265351064,0.07627138401305285,0.0,0.028204730589091207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09897424811573516,0.0,0.0,0.09318418456266664,0.031330647287646736,0.06517745001107755,0.0,0.04493738129244381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08589677778964598,0.032135908655310866,0.044961007940388056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03689437655983748,0.0441462136235745,0.0,0.0,0.04763479552105957,0.08093489486689029,0.0,0.04555672840564032,0.08086233434766538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044942103055072576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04344392987144246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04019302697314159,0.06720381392166255,0.0,0.04276308775137525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04773475167321497,0.0867458092605501,0.06990553764866532,0.0,0.08456860334150365,0.0,0.0358014961755099,0.03252902917437355,0.041790075266595235,0.047299654608758304,0.11962979023085615,0.04503691435473111,0.10123178542060757,0.07065211501238224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09530876667894234,0.0,0.07386334360916047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028071538218073816,0.08122356075185763,0.0,0.20126872008289395,0.09855409079652408,0.0,0.0,0.08075060747769483,0.0,0.02868754741632412,0.0,0.08255161937373086,0.043987681897445015,0.0,0.07298740995899859,0.0,0.034863799029973795,0.14953426818319612,0.067078177930129,0.06778687762870549,0.0,0.0,0.15667873360069104,0.03812747015249213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045822429024151436,0.06152251961192931,0.0,0.043060218276786716,0.1500793880159332,0.046197882417903284,0.20537190197819288,0.027210053155704718 alcoholism,Squoggs,2019/10/14,"I believe my 24 yo brother is an alcoholic and I don't know how to help him Hi everyone! I was wondering if you can help me with my situation? My brother has been drinking cider pretty much daily since he was about 18. He's now 24 and for the past few years at least it seems to have become like water for him. Every time I see him he's got cider in a glass. He'll have multiple cans of cider throughout the day. All he ever wants to do is go to the pub, and when we do, he downs pint after pint after pint. He lives very far from me since 2015 so it's impossible for me to know what he's really like on a day to day basis, but it sounds much the same. He told me that he had 11 pints of cider recently in one night before he was drunk. He told me that he needed to be drinking cider to write his dissertation and that it makes him ""think better"". I honestly think he is an alcoholic but I can't say for sure since I don't know what he is like if he hasn't had alcohol. That being said, I wonder if the fact that I haven't known him without alcohol may speak for itself. I can't get through to him how horrifically bad for his health this is. I work in a hospital with many alcoholic patients and I see so many different, awful, totally preventable illnesses that people get from alcoholism, the suffering people go through during a detox and how hard it is to really stay off it. I have many stories to tell. I have told my brother most of them. He just seems to think it's funny and pushes it aside like it won't happen to him, but if he keeps this up long enough it definitely will. He's still really young and I hope I can help him to nip this in the bud sooner rather than later, but I have no idea how to get through to him. It doesn't help that the rest of my family seem to find his drinking a novelty, and bestow crates of cider upon him for Christmas and birthdays etc. It makes me wonder if I'm just being ridiculous, and count this as a ""live and let live"" situation. But I really do worry about it. So my questions: Is he an alcoholic? And if he is, is there any way to help him realise it and help him? Any advice or experiences shared are massively appreciated. Many many thanks!",3.0039017453135086,4.137870931868137,4.5671396250808005,86.1538897866839,73.74725274725273,8.166127989657403,23.7120232708468,8.671277953709913,1.36092501616031,1714,47,376,32,34,576,204,455,0.084,0.7959999999999999,0.12,0.9365,1,0,10,0,0,0,42.0,1,1,1,2,18,13,1,0,17,1,42,15,0,6,5,69,76,35,0,10,16,3,1,4,1,4,10,4,0,0,28,17,12,2,16,5,0,3,10,3,0,1,11,7,48,10,54,57,11,33,0,1,2,0,60,11,0,17,21,243,76,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06519000727508142,0.0,0.4990624452935426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09073263499321617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05570157363084016,0.0,0.07367795132330901,0.05676683556574697,0.07516136343740419,0.0,0.05900117343325852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1290707928594665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06969964110727077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19605652494553194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0689311314792039,0.07440130106446888,0.0,0.06034465020609715,0.0562075760061947,0.0637459919935678,0.0,0.06525694980785951,0.06288995595361524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06097338447840555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10456249970283094,0.0,0.07582771640859805,0.0,0.05335552758089622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058993032030028925,0.0,0.059760676975223664,0.0,0.0,0.0709115329620149,0.0,0.0,0.26829311449905635,0.0,0.0,0.06625987855622506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07530951172548499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0592965207103323,0.0,0.0,0.10998919603392024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06821734416165122,0.0,0.13036807976262915,0.0,0.1767232476448975,0.05903785131699379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08906130053867775,0.3381765154639784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09808171056710524,0.04946596077814768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06260451319368425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045205648025740015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06368396991169882,0.0924991365729128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0678698926791244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07473249335192936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17094917138270552,0.0,0.06586986282461066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06345820683354886,0.053051907818413034,0.0,0.0,0.10632134850198167,0.18219577510031415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16555409237591592,0.14997373597384728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07110591168406262,0.05327613652689133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06287509010813007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058309061162521686,0.061419270349078216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282386997474211,0.0,0.0,0.03890019207956997,0.0,0.0,0.19123797598070336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05504422872469291,0.03934835315842899,0.052952728491339696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0643078028785153,0.21703833208979129,0.04856699119804712,0.06774907990635153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042960217508883125 alcoholism,WoodsyCraftsyDreamer,2019/10/14,"How can I actually help? My brother 40 year old male is struggling with being an alcoholic and with depression. He lives two hours away. Last year I got a text “just wanted to you to know I love you.” That was maybe the 5th time he’s ever said that to me. Alarmed I call him right away. No answer. His girlfriend called later that day and said he got super drunk and tried to hang himself. He had sent that message to me, my mom, and his daughter. So I drive to him and he promised he would never do that again. We had lost a brother to suicide about 10 years ago. Too be honest, I’m still have not recovered from the loss. About a month ago his ex-girlfriend called me freaking out . He had told her he was going to kill himself. I try calling, no answer. I try texting no response. 4 hours later he text back that he was asleep but is fine. Yesterday we all get the “I just wanted to let you know I love you.” Text again. I promptly called, voicemail. I texted, no response. His ex-girlfriend was on her way to my house with their children. I keep trying to call and he turned his phone off. 4 hours later he sent a text. “I’m fine. I will be fine. Please let mom know. “ I can’t keep going through this. I’m driving up to him this weekend. He has been a functioning alcoholic for years. On my last visit he said he was going to get help to try and get custody of his children . I told him how proud of him I was that he could admit he has a problem. He said he would only stop drinking temporarily in order to get his children. When he drinks he gets really strict and mean. He also gets really depressed. I’m wanting to bring family with me to put on a sort of intervention. Is this a good idea? Terrible idea? How can I actually help? I don’t think he has many friends where he is living. He moved there with his girlfriend years ago and they started a family. They have since split but he won’t move back to his hometown because of the kids and his job.",0.997827775239834,3.280538319095484,2.3467724988579266,94.34833599817269,84.15075376884423,5.125719506624031,20.8544997715852,6.464625207383525,0.19521407035175864,1513,47,329,15,44,486,183,398,0.099,0.782,0.11800000000000001,0.9158,1,0,4,0,0,1,50.0,2,4,3,4,19,21,1,2,14,0,34,8,1,3,3,50,74,18,2,7,5,5,0,0,3,4,2,4,0,5,10,18,5,3,10,4,0,13,9,10,0,1,21,4,54,11,41,43,1,58,0,4,0,2,90,11,0,1,32,190,64,1,0.0,0.0,0.1361285608548008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18548298129851284,0.14907944383520788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05577769108146947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13106164945851606,0.10726427627112783,0.0,0.042517916887273736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4273248816701876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05568834284877626,0.0,0.0,0.04498188398874798,0.0,0.12014821883405327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13665356297825168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0630913313874438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13150498141790146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053887364306573364,0.0,0.2186436509920891,0.0,0.1189187003640447,0.05850156566279996,0.11156817581877697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14025244771506762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2060640801724067,0.08048017472620445,0.0,0.1574746839917579,0.0,0.0,0.06921442636728467,0.1239909892751356,0.07716616094603967,0.0,0.11499552640232948,0.11370834893461118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14264472665512873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12317805519848135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0761385097641789,0.0,0.12590112955081575,0.0,0.0,0.0707138297486829,0.07007154312707807,0.07597634716477998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16337673421635068,0.05567242839178445,0.14826281148056916,0.0,0.0,0.05379418954972783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0731891089345201,0.0,0.0,0.05304672586186534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07656268943669006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06673970430865991,0.0,0.07011630707871941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08936509520959536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05956466792493487,0.2653864256675305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05769651531639858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049368206414788375,0.0,0.05570108324732957,0.0583127027280033,0.0,0.07291606814720741,0.0,0.07629332064717988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04469189494471527,0.0,0.0,0.04067079519303254,0.0,0.0,0.13329498113757118,0.0,0.23677258977886656,0.07586612271991751,0.06813395521722168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12341806507403275,0.0553629547889714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09909438365648374,0.0,0.0,0.22457809516441227 alcoholism,wheresmyfuckinshorts,2019/10/14,"Need advice I'm currently 23 going on 24. I've been drinking for roughly 7 years, and it's getting worse. I used to drink strictly whiskey, about a fifth a day. I got a girlfriend and that turned into a marriage. My liquor problem worsened and my wife gave me an ultimatum, her or the liquor. I chose her. Beer was still ok, just no liquor. I stopped drinking liquor for almost 2 years now. I'm concerned about my beer intake now though, I cant seem to curb my intake. I'm drinking about a case a night, I have 2 kids, 5 year old and 1 year old. I dont want them to see my heavy drinking as an ok thing, because it's not. I want to stop drinking all together, but at the same time, I cant imagine a life without alcohol, as sad as that sounds. I was just wondering if there was anybody else out there that has stopped drinking and how to cope with not drinking. I've attempted it a couple of times, longest I've gone without is about 3 days.",1.985909502262441,3.6918481641025633,3.164555052790348,92.80466063348415,77.61538461538461,5.819004524886879,26.855203619909506,6.522977012572876,0.9338054298642536,732,30,161,6,17,236,115,195,0.08,0.873,0.047,-0.3605,1,0,12,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,1,1,13,4,0,0,12,2,10,17,0,2,1,33,26,13,0,5,9,1,1,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,7,8,16,4,3,15,0,2,8,2,0,0,7,3,19,2,22,19,2,24,0,1,1,0,8,4,0,5,18,92,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0951918465890196,0.0,0.10410595496475973,0.09754606311999718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05938267848053975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10778675312105238,0.0,0.12564795972646886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141684983493613,0.7634291788162941,0.0,0.0,0.08137690840678137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0508948014515765,0.0,0.05536262879297197,0.0,0.07791088555528211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06880639862721108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07223125670016292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09141645268678184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20443924078682602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0932120548933498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07762635654442554,0.08868205929850702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07779495703572413,0.244327431652568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06471754204062027,0.0,0.09570877369016388,0.0,0.11360578933812353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10595847357682964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08413443067783544,0.0,0.0,0.11491461817398788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18780726562147468,0.10564134226404867,0.0,0.0,0.09927320209378424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2509257234643503 alcoholism,laymarr502,2019/10/14,Pancreatitis question Can you get pancreatitis years after you stop drinking? Or just when you’re actively drinking?,7.213333333333331,11.280504777777779,6.416666666666668,59.74500000000001,84.55555555555556,9.066666666666668,39.333333333333336,8.841846274778883,5.678200000000002,98,6,11,3,3,30,14,18,0.111,0.755,0.134,0.1179,0,0,2,0,0,0,2.0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,4,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7696523245108656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2052386957672244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4400621497355275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3284254447888895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25297116183501306 alcoholism,reallytaykeith,2019/10/14,Is 4 shots of vodka a day bad to cope with aspergers? It basically allows me to function and dim the sensory overload that I was born with,4.07357142857143,5.1852335000000025,6.305714285714287,74.78928571428574,71.14285714285714,9.885714285714286,31.857142857142854,10.125756701596842,3.4025857142857148,110,5,21,3,2,39,26,28,0.207,0.7929999999999999,0.0,-0.7184,0,0,1,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,4,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,5,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,14,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7914123472364955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6112826650917077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,s-l-m1982,2019/10/14,"Whhhy?!? So was 11 days sober and went to a wedding at the weekend! Yeah you guessed it I had a drink! Felt absolutely dreadful all day yesterday! Back to the start again and 1 day sober!! I didn't do anything terrible or embarrassing but the look on my partners face said it all, had a plan in place to not drink but didn't follow any of it. Feel like I've let everyone down! But lessons were learned I just can't be around alcohol!!",1.0606818181818198,3.420978250000001,2.5919999999999987,92.15300000000002,84.68181818181819,6.701818181818182,24.70909090909091,7.908726449838941,1.4120418181818175,338,14,75,7,10,110,66,88,0.046,0.857,0.09699999999999999,0.6438,0,0,3,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,2,5,4,0,2,6,1,10,4,1,0,2,16,18,7,0,0,6,0,2,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,3,3,3,0,4,3,0,2,4,3,0,0,9,4,5,1,9,7,2,16,0,0,1,0,4,6,0,2,9,46,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2365658879157057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15053198846923613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18215993209306994,0.19705680442166013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17021172138101393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4282755174891383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4336958957068521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21151840090289933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11192596800770403,0.1581392056113365,0.2125397458825812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2438523446648516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22635499267736184,0.0,0.10814502566277186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18588615228869526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23127346785980685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21056348821039733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1566793286166268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20520238931864185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,TBDAWG4664,2019/10/14,Not sure where to begin... 45 yo with 11+ years as functioning alcoholic (much more so in the past couple years). I’m a beer drinker. I’m up to drinking 8-10 Double IPAs a night ~8-10% abv. My health is rapidly declining but I feel like I can always turn it around. The functioning part of my life is beginning to fall apart. I want to sleep a lot. I’m depressed for sure. I’ve brought my spouse down and along for the ride. My teens see me getting worse. Why can’t I stop? I’m not a fan of AA (went a couple years ago and it was mainly folks addicted to drugs and I wasn’t that far along). How do I stop? Where do I go for help?,-1.5028102189781016,0.4808228613138717,0.7763905109489038,101.69684854014601,97.75912408759123,4.491824817518249,15.60912408759124,6.2581,-0.634278540145985,480,12,121,6,20,159,90,137,0.157,0.782,0.061,-0.9162,0,0,5,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,8,0,8,8,1,1,2,18,22,7,0,1,3,1,1,1,0,0,5,0,0,0,3,7,3,2,1,2,0,5,4,1,1,0,4,2,12,3,18,18,6,23,0,1,1,0,2,8,0,1,11,65,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806603535768279,0.0,0.0,0.1469016692872373,0.17710535222010065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1378931493411024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1475268267202636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3667342734164809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1427352562352217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16234349136791726,0.19218374944591413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0837935179971656,0.1183911169795637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08658238369077673,0.0,0.09418306450893253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17615367571932986,0.0,0.0,0.1110792944275885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11705364470259047,0.08096291071213847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1408900697066773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12182400461212715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1555179341785507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17945969583006366,0.15819944818220436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13205818266608638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16584068377914565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27710035642378805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3123801664156403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1802568622503962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09774654069419822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15362502919116558,0.14953742810022466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16888385903369704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32015667583771185 alcoholism,chicago773312,2019/10/14,"Quit drinking and got on a keto diet So a couple weeks ago I decided I was tiered of drinking a 15 pack of beer a day and of being overweight. So I decided to get on a keto diet and not drink for a while. Not easy at all, I had been drinking a 15 pack or more a day since 2015 and indulging in junk food. I went from weighing about 160 to 225 It’s been a couple of tough weeks and now I weigh 185! I fit into all my old clothes and have started to talk to old friends that I was staying away from because I was ashamed of them seeing how big I had gotten. It’s definitely not easy but it is well worth it. I’m not 100% sober and I know I never will be and I’m fine with that 😊 I’m not perfect and that’s perfectly fine.",-0.13315993788819824,1.5644175900621136,2.3331327639751582,96.25758734472052,84.27950310559007,5.018788819875779,20.62150621118013,5.985473137389443,-0.10453757763975167,556,17,136,4,16,191,90,161,0.08199999999999999,0.78,0.139,0.8654,0,0,5,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,3,6,8,0,1,9,0,12,11,0,1,5,27,22,15,0,0,7,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,7,11,11,0,3,5,1,1,6,2,1,0,10,1,14,6,20,9,3,21,0,0,1,0,3,8,0,1,11,88,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13809623411363597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14636750040544802,0.0,0.0,0.09496662437789084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3447518488043247,0.0,0.2009401209327778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6104498308166384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1883788839022204,0.0,0.12036104916392693,0.0,0.08139254772455436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12459750878199295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08561674513156117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12015293708359358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3269455855593669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16569920056285548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12414248114784066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288690439019525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1102672063458188,0.16604876490207862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1252161050147972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24992669831148095,0.0,0.14007168708532194,0.14441658900019394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,kanseidorifuto,2019/10/06,"Succumbing to my addiction First I'd like to thank anyone who reads this. I have fallen into a Terrible sense of isolation. I'm currently in the US military and due to a series of actions out of my control I have been stationed back in my hometown. While I was away for about two years I had made friends in the military. I was suddenly ripped away from them to fill a role in a small unit back in my own fucking hometown. While I was away I suffered from severe bouts of sadness and I would turn to drinking to the point of blacking out every time I got the chance. While I was away I managed to get this under control. Admittedly I would still drink but I could control myself to drink to a buzz and never plunge into blackness. Since being home and seeing friends that said that they had missed me and wanted to see me I have found myself in pure isolation. Despite their words it appears that they've moved on I have been left in the dust. I don't matter in their lives anymore and it's been hard to cope with and since being taken away from the close friends and my career I don't know what happened but I found myself continually turning to alcohol to numb the pain. I got into a pretty committed relationship while I was gone and now we're separated and I feel as if she's being unfaithful which helps fuel this desire to drink until forgetness. I understand that I can cut her out of my life but it's hard. And cutting her out of my life won't fix the void in my own living that I feel I need to to fill with alcohol. honestly I'm just looking for any kind of words that can leave me in a better direction. Adviscez comparisons to your own situation,anything logical for me to read maybe something I can come back to on dark nights. If anyone reads this to completion I honestly appreciate you because I don't really feel as if I have anyone in my life who would read this to completion beyond strangers. So it means a lot.",5.443067099567101,5.889470470129869,6.174821428571431,79.3641369047619,67.67532467532467,9.533549783549788,30.84686147186148,9.516144504307137,2.6786471861471868,1541,57,301,30,24,506,186,385,0.092,0.792,0.11599999999999999,0.9454,1,2,7,0,0,0,19.0,1,2,4,5,9,18,3,0,16,0,29,13,0,4,3,59,60,25,0,10,7,0,5,1,3,4,8,1,1,0,19,22,6,3,10,8,0,8,5,9,0,2,18,11,55,9,68,34,4,58,0,3,5,1,20,31,1,5,20,222,74,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08630097330761484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16920551711510715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05383456417938487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07850989657053117,0.16606094485018946,0.0,0.06514562555706155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.371888195985974,0.18261780632710728,0.0,0.04825793502101356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07001455337628533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06819319376206362,0.16600491182690175,0.0,0.2663691028434041,0.06320639926337855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3102042266124436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06669949259380334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1200838260888702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06733727014147248,0.0,0.17359954248498413,0.18348685322859756,0.07318629035352665,0.04136017579878019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12663014026181238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07000489226824616,0.0,0.14183165738619655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05306228529740668,0.0,0.07940843271000175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08243762852964617,0.0435067303943411,0.0,0.0,0.0838237587196652,0.08601244412694642,0.0,0.16774864988971752,0.03867576841259578,0.0,0.13980738048722136,0.0,0.06647822896121379,0.0,0.0,0.06730281384007819,0.0,0.0749073494255543,0.0,0.0,0.07953136518926729,0.08623333157013971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08413931874216121,0.0,0.05869946222558685,0.06105653084278626,0.0,0.0,0.07429050602788134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08423659310293648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07483602614963415,0.0,0.0,0.0805387409625096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3167436304501818,0.0,0.05071479594361503,0.0,0.0,0.08499302995625292,0.0,0.0,0.07530355331893071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12616768949775636,0.0,0.0,0.08943333429930264,0.0,0.13097135941347413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06094468785549216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06322085964550775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07288402131615948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0461614475817788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1722164531353066,0.0773321983839119,0.08241302033195698,0.09522512768231617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0466932640856055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1687085355141187,0.0,0.0,0.050979332559122084 alcoholism,SleptOnTheFloor,2019/10/06,"Need to make a change now This has been a pretty tough night for me, so sorry for the long post. I’m (20M) a college sophomore and this is one of my first weekend nights sober and at home. I consider myself a pretty work-hard-play-hard person, and have always been down to have a good time drinking. I used to be pretty moderate with it, but lying in bed replaying the last couple weeks has horrified me into realizing that I have an actual problem and this isn’t normal for anyone. But tonight I’m making the decision to make a change. Two nights ago I went to a club and ended up spending the rest of the night puking so bad that my friend almost called an ambulances. The week before was my birthday and I ended up over the toilet before going to bed. The week before, my frat mixed with a sorority and I ended up over the toilet. Two weeks before that I blacked out and was found in a block away from my dorm passed out on a lawn. Week before that I was hunched over a trashcan half the night. Typing it all out makes me feel so incredibly stupid, like how have I not realized that this is such a big problem?!? I an going to go to counseling. I’ve tried cutting down on my drinking but there are just so many opportunities to drink. At most I’ve only been having a few drinks (if any), but then I have crazy nights. Even these more controlled nights, I get pressured at even the slightest suggestion to drink to “not be a bitch” or to “chill w the boys.“ I wish I could stop drinking, but that just doesn’t seem possible. Most of my social events are parties, my roommates are all in frats, most of my friends are in Greek life/spend weekends drinking, I have year-long leadership positions in my frat (one of which is to throw weekly pong nights) and at this point I’ve made an expectation that I’m always down to have a good time and drink. I’m going to counseling on Monday. I want to stop wasting my body, my money, my time, and my energy on alcohol. But I’m just feeling extremely angry and hopeless right now and I don’t know where else to turn. I just feel so ashamed. TLDR: I realized my “fun” is a serious drinking problem, so I’m going to get professional help but I don’t know how to change alcohol’s role in my lifestyle.",3.5618721341543282,4.915034046770606,4.566530197825234,85.8439470064195,72.67483296213808,7.598611293069568,25.23260841084763,8.124751697461798,1.3988364470064192,1753,54,359,26,34,571,208,449,0.155,0.733,0.11199999999999999,-0.9756,0,0,11,0,0,1,51.0,0,0,0,3,19,19,3,2,32,0,31,12,1,9,2,72,62,31,0,10,15,0,3,1,2,0,2,0,5,2,16,19,11,4,11,12,2,8,6,12,0,6,9,4,40,7,58,50,8,75,0,1,1,0,9,32,1,7,35,235,56,7,0.0,0.0,0.05674848618422172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0515487141249962,0.1242947505756342,0.058231364330884335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09677513631626856,0.0,0.0,0.03954571837319357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04066160503593806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05463622150175409,0.0,0.04855493822952688,0.0,0.0,0.2474176234811501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0645943575495086,0.0,0.0,0.0593802407355713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1845530158802189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06522301353498115,0.04643006779667328,0.06434467461094667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5127061142643564,0.0,0.0,0.04857898155999335,0.0,0.1545176579800739,0.0,0.0,0.07681840268619328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08821100792907499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04946451711136995,0.0,0.0637612537732341,0.08985700956957864,0.0,0.060764599432967005,0.0,0.16524713066037425,0.09755117573928757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1041864992295345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03897841883918955,0.0,0.058331734718657526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06391822553926853,0.047402078065228274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041074855700002175,0.028410391517519756,0.0,0.0,0.10292632818235116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0550253352956413,0.1552690764162744,0.05895754374141709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043119368331765634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4365777227271617,0.05697713797850878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07881132630336546,0.044227623810717716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05077655107629225,0.0,0.0,0.05497294274401605,0.06555824635933279,0.05569405430117263,0.17748610489102615,0.0,0.16693236881885956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04966194769973891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05293988439361017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059279186767344935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06509700263500476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09723624739276808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10172763355259064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03948175446943924,0.06325325985946285,0.11361315486013315,0.0,0.0,0.0502251195883292,0.0,0.0,0.034299872202951824,0.0,0.27987873831942306,0.0,0.0,0.05390798314711597,0.0,0.0,0.06687254607521044,0.0,0.0,0.04233573854203489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03744832634882594 alcoholism,pigeonofglory_,2019/10/06,"How do you know if your an alcoholic? I'm writing this drunk so bear with me. But a lot of people I know keep saying I'm an alcoholic or whatever and I should stop drinking but like I'm only 17, I graduated last year so I cant be an alcoholic. My Dad is an alcoholic and I think a lot of people assume that just because he is that I am one.",-1.6144019138756,0.34157210526316106,2.1650717703349294,91.84595693779907,97.68421052631578,5.921531100478469,18.751196172248804,7.348242739294969,0.6761210526315793,264,9,62,6,11,97,50,76,0.051,0.9009999999999999,0.048,0.1962,0,0,5,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,0,4,1,0,0,6,0,7,6,0,1,0,19,14,9,0,2,5,1,0,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,3,3,6,2,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,10,1,3,12,2,3,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,5,4,42,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.773861208815639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11035380100786868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17733982753552985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1609071887683729,0.0,0.0,0.1989779739373221,0.14756306787714746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08844178785046504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30780933011507994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12267016096623873,0.13768096507172514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2510058912589068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.143961791410339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513486281592309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1159962867999744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11657695502912885 alcoholism,Eeeffoc,2019/10/06,"I left the liquor store Night came around, drove to the liquor store and parked outside for a while. I was determined to go in but determined not too as well. I drove away after a long while. Im pretty damn proud of myself.",2.5116666666666667,4.435302777777778,2.695277777777779,95.77625000000003,76.7777777777778,6.277777777777778,17.916666666666668,7.1686216300943375,-0.1033333333333335,175,3,39,2,4,53,34,45,0.111,0.634,0.255,0.8166,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,3,3,1,0,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,5,5,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,2,4,1,1,1,0,4,0,4,2,9,1,0,13,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,5,25,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29412087188611824,0.0,0.0,0.3104162122980803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3778829291124145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1877706290178669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35688241524287123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3589742482360743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29238845642985073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3100525606861745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3361296645427997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2970640506586745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Founditrighthere,2019/10/06,"My husband doesn't seem to accept his problem... So my husband (24) has struggled with alcohol (and cocaine) for some years in his life, but later months have been worse. His drinking combined with cocaine use was getting every time more intense, untill the point he decided to go to rehab. Even then he would always complain saying that addiction is not a disease and abstinence was never the answer, he claimed that would just easily learn to use alcohol and drugs in moderation. What was making me nervous is the fact that, even before treatment, his biggest desire was to be able to drink again. Unfortunately he gave up on this idea a couple weeks later, while we were waiting. 3 weeks ago, he Od'd. He left the hospital straight to a temporary rehab. He's been having good and bad days there, sometimes wanting to quit, but mostly staying firm and even accepting the treatment and some of the 12steps. Now his transfer for a great rehab has been set up and it's all ready for him to move on thursday, but since he knew that, he insisted on leaving monday because he says the current place makes him worse (I don't doubt it, though), and has just told me he wants to drink before the transfer. I said it was a bad idea and he started to cry and tell me I see him as a disabled/sick person who needs constant vigilance, and proceeds to heavily criticize the treatment and say it's not helping him. I don't see him like that, it's just that I am VERY concerned that his main thought is always to be able to drink again. He says that I should be with him when he drinks to ""control"" the ammount, but my experience has shown me every time he starts drinking, I can't say a word about it, because if I do, he would be absolutely angry. &#x200B; He is an extremely special and great person, but at the same time, a huge stubborn. I am afraid that after the treatment on the new rehab, he will feel it's not a problem and start it over again. &#x200B; What should I do? Just ""let"" he do it again during these days, just for him to have a lapse of reason again and see it's a problem and accept the treatment, or I should do something about it? I am really getting very tired of all this.",7.335184391080617,6.543967844339623,7.065986277873073,78.72978559176674,63.95283018867924,9.501543739279589,35.31046312178388,8.438071523408619,2.7649707547169804,1722,68,328,19,22,544,200,424,0.126,0.77,0.10300000000000001,-0.8964,1,0,12,0,0,0,63.0,1,0,0,2,20,19,1,4,26,0,43,16,0,6,4,78,67,30,0,14,15,2,1,1,0,7,10,6,0,2,26,20,8,3,13,6,0,2,8,11,0,0,14,10,33,8,41,41,8,53,0,0,3,0,49,16,0,7,34,224,59,3,0.1473687366347505,0.0,0.0,0.08032683768719659,0.0,0.0,0.06531674665297273,0.157492361767884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12262259434346423,0.15967396457374436,0.17906914532325902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12304673949377515,0.08983461402538312,0.0,0.12539994065584326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07962662529966791,0.08264328457694751,0.0,0.08153035204409148,0.08093881864525436,0.09504064361801433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4330957741141976,0.08545047400947227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14600349101939394,0.0,0.12416451657627052,0.0,0.0,0.0720774511361407,0.0,0.0,0.03725703058881222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0769940824713592,0.0,0.04187652457169859,0.0618029522134383,0.0,0.1624745523971554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04938907888331329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16636136587635916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07802110686521259,0.08005828177438018,0.07534725887320766,0.052045448448218734,0.03599846041866209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09836977604069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058814159801049724,0.0783148224252591,0.0,0.05463602545609295,0.05682992734357788,0.07116482207728236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12867669655230826,0.07698448197330231,0.0,0.06965554495253932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2115179675652648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07837239569370315,0.0,0.0,0.04720409314019415,0.07575980274447529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07009070782038528,0.2929838357998281,0.0,0.0,0.17615070480486664,0.06707948152480428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06095247090538512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05672582662324414,0.0728757243703034,0.0,0.1564625254392018,0.07853773260915561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07703090035689802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0644033856793858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07239451775584901,0.05849715782018555,0.12889784315956496,0.08468934197236079,0.0,0.07040857160148514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12727927233301856,0.0,0.12159464142630733,0.0869218990594835,0.0,0.1182103113832344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15018133269420528,0.15702978343456872,0.0,0.17906914532325902,0.0474503173594786 alcoholism,Barnesbrett12,2018/11/30,"Wanting to stop but don’t want to stop. I’m 23, married and have a baby on the way. Drinking for me is my release from everything including work. I really want to slow down, not quit entirely. It’s not difficult to not drink but I feel like if I’m not actively doing something I want to drink. I’m about to deploy so I will have no choice but to be sober for 9 months but like how do some of you do it? Resist the urge that is!",0.5002150537634407,2.2631224623655943,2.90451612903226,92.64344086021505,82.44086021505377,6.713978494623658,21.086021505376344,7.793537801064563,0.7531634408602144,331,10,78,6,9,114,61,93,0.10400000000000001,0.748,0.14800000000000002,0.4878,0,0,4,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,2,3,3,0,0,3,0,10,3,0,1,0,19,18,8,0,5,9,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,3,2,1,3,0,0,6,1,0,0,0,1,7,2,14,16,1,7,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,6,51,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6067686438426065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18555661865485146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10439445164392344,0.1474979930668529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20173585903328534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16479767346709567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2195999826921677,0.0,0.0,0.13226618817547475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15894614978146165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34522646202986257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4871114978705841,0.16388159110431166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1503083225255669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,whiteboyday,2018/11/30,"My roommate had a suicidal outburst last night Hi everybody, I'm not sure if this belongs here but I figure there's no shame in trying. My roommate is a 29 year-old statistician pursuing a PhD in our town's university. He's always been a withdrawn introverted personality. Over the last few months, I had noticed he'd been building a bar in our food pantry containing concerning amounts of hard liquor. Last night was the first night I saw him sloshed. He revealed to me that he's had previous problems with alcoholism and that past roommates had to intervene when he was considered a threat to himself. He revealed he'd gone to AA meetings in the past, not recently, and that he had been going to therapy. This was all new to me. He gave me indications that he might try to harm himself. I honestly don't think he was serious, but I'm not sure. He seemed to be crying for help to see who would respond. I listened to him, did my best to calm him down and cooked him some ramen. I tried to get him to talk about some of trips and projects he had planned that are coming up to get him on back on positive ground. I told him that he can always talk to me and that he doesn't have to go through this alone. He also mentioned that he had set up a Monday meeting to see his therapist and that his boss at work had reached out to offer her support. My roommate seems quite troubled. I met his mom earlier this year and she seemed like a shell of a person. He only refers to his dad in past-tense. I'm not sure if his dad is still living, which really concerns me. He seems really insecure about who he is and has displayed needy and clingy tendencies towards other people he goes to school with. I'm not really sure how to deal with this. I plan to watch him over the next few days to see how he does. I also had my own alcoholic issues in the past and I'm a believer that getting it out of the house is the first step in a positive direction. I'm not sure how to communicate this with my roommate thought. If you guys have any thoughts, wisdom or encouragement, anything helps. Thanks,",4.196231884057973,5.432568816425121,4.926782608695653,84.31930434782609,70.98067632850244,8.611787439613527,29.258937198067642,9.029198982220553,2.2791232850241547,1646,64,336,32,30,531,207,414,0.12300000000000001,0.7659999999999999,0.111,-0.1424,0,1,2,0,0,0,37.0,2,1,0,7,12,20,1,2,18,0,33,6,0,4,6,56,63,22,1,5,12,3,1,1,0,2,2,1,0,3,21,17,6,1,11,3,0,6,9,7,1,2,24,7,43,13,54,34,8,48,0,0,5,0,66,20,0,11,22,209,64,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17849059607934914,0.0,0.08648972591273328,0.0,0.1335635963341317,0.13897169177905092,0.0,0.0,0.056788712412453986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06872046335068246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0642129596043341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09408559672258636,0.08763712483334718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07193526553194493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09173027709903707,0.053856139246124535,0.0860937009330063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07307893961896865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1420647469518532,0.10097893198602703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13088939222795276,0.0,0.0949197249775222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08268664433988758,0.0,0.0,0.07480730386752853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11194811012720804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09635771364514477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0871612833825841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20421196703992664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040798084338437575,0.0,0.07373962476200048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08858942906300063,0.0,0.09780426437600803,0.06665576871764314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0806531273635723,0.08881234470510546,0.2351014954482672,0.0,0.0,0.0950750958980474,0.08762822924587345,0.0,0.0,0.06351205421458679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31887363596300144,0.05789434932240418,0.14583297889070454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0799064532155095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08882167659757761,0.0,0.0,0.16049324476566146,0.0,0.08245466908074009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08451516267300659,0.19963662965926546,0.3040923764849544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06669007674908757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09134485566126048,0.09476457096082283,0.3935293414904895,0.0,0.0,0.13424210070601644,0.0,0.07688350020248719,0.09549936325926027,0.0969599223574623,0.0,0.053508939685982,0.0,0.13259300262016716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07979604707920095,0.0,0.17009057559242205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06079525621823492,0.0,0.0,0.05932211427657703,0.0,0.0,0.10755360240428777 alcoholism,Iamtwofaced,2018/11/30,"What is the best way for the ones you love to support you in your progress towards sobriety? Hey everyone, My boyfriend is very recently sober and I really want to be a better support for him. I feel like the fear of relapse over shadows his progress. I am proud of him and I am so happy for the choice he is making for his life to succeed. I truly feel lucky to have had him brought into my life this year. I really want to be supportive, but instead I think my past of growing up with addicts hinders me from wanting to praise or even fully trust the progress. I do go to therapy so i plan on talking to my therapist about this next week but I also wanted to know what are things that you personally appreciate from people that help encourage vs discourage you. TIA &#x200B;",4.053201754385967,5.76959440789474,4.876315789473686,82.66254385964915,72.02631578947368,8.224561403508767,31.08771929824561,8.841846274778883,2.6211561403508776,618,28,118,12,12,200,99,152,0.031,0.622,0.34700000000000003,0.9944,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,5,0,9,6,16,0,1,6,0,11,4,0,1,0,19,26,8,0,4,4,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,7,4,0,1,4,0,0,3,0,2,0,1,2,2,25,14,26,22,1,15,1,1,0,1,18,6,0,2,6,87,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15779559724010842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1157541249104378,0.0,0.1568333157949395,0.1758834503332081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15190304803373347,0.12801696020426645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09560402943725928,0.0,0.0,0.13831196305702634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16288061889924274,0.1463768663730596,0.10340728688859356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08226305672412275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15408587479812536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09702086405890524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07954916663649815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2044781758618877,0.07071607354452837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306398202742385,0.0,0.096619747569065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15394007835586435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09808431438851853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13817739152354,0.10034934558529172,0.1263874986740083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18545727141009768,0.0,0.14292020170441827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4927715463714243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11634215699381285,0.0,0.0,0.16553081119386967,0.1680624252703491,0.09616347612108304,0.09274803401880873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11943143547974658,0.3415021273150857,0.11489343247810685,0.11610731370562714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758834503332081,0.0932123233349325 alcoholism,Drinkandknow,2018/11/30,"Is alcohol still a problem if you haven’t seen drastic life consequences for it? I feel very dependent on alcohol. I’ve been drinking earlier and earlier in the day. I’m actually buzzed right now at 9:35 am. I sneak it into work (but know how to not get caught). I think about my next drink all the time. I can’t wait to go home and get drunk. I NEVER go a day without drinking. Ever. So I feel like I am an alcoholic... but I don’t see any consequences of it. I always drink at home, never drink and drive. I’ve told people how much I drink and no one thinks it’s an issue so it’s not affecting my relationships. My job is so laid back, even on the days I’ve been hungover and showed up late, they don’t care. A lot of my coworkers are heavy drinkers too. I know I’m dependent on it and would rather die without it. But I don’t really see any reason to stop either. 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It usually starts out as a two way conversation with myself. Me-""I soo want to get drunk tonight."" Self subbatating Me- ""bro, we haven't drank in like four days. We. Are. So. On itttttttt!!"" Me- ""nah, trying to get sober. *shakes whole body to hopefully silence that fuck in my brain*"" SSM- ""Sooooo, what u r saying is that all those people are right. You DO have a problem."" M- ""nah, that's not it. Fuck them. I just dont want to tonight, okayyy. SSM- ""Tonight...tomorrow....what's the difference men. It's all the same."" M- ""not real-"" SSM- ""Bro, trust me. It's not a failure if u drink tonight and not tomorrow. Like, what 'is' just one more day."" M- ""umm.. I mean, its..uhhh...uh..fuck!"" Drunk now and in comes regretful me. RM, here onwards. And M (for me) will now be (DM) for Drunk Me. RM- ""told u not to do it, now u r all regretful and shit bu-"" DM- ""SHUT THE FUCK UP. WHERE THE FUCK WERE U WHEN I FUCKING NEEDED U. U KNOW, BEFORE I TOOK THE FIRST FUCKING SIP."" RM- ""Right here."" DM- ""NO U WERENT, BECAUSE IF U WERE I WOUKD HAVE FUCKING !HEARD! YOU. STOP FUCKING....STO...just stop men."" RM- ""I am always here men, whenever u need me. You just have to start listening to me. Even when I am not hype or screaming. I'm here men."" M- "".........fuck..."" 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I’m trying to stop drinking cold turkey because it’s causing some problems in my life. I’ve been drinking about 3-4 drinks per day for 6 months or so. Am I likely to face serious withdrawals? I know I should talk to a doctor, but I wanted to see if withdrawals are even likely at all before I spend a bunch of money just for them to tell me I’ll be fine. Thanks in advanced everyone. 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Been sober for 4 days now and still cant sleep very well.,1.7265217391304368,3.3562731739130456,1.7210869565217382,103.2059782608696,78.13043478260869,4.6000000000000005,20.195652173913047,3.1291,-0.8100260869565221,85,2,21,0,2,25,21,23,0.16399999999999998,0.836,0.0,-0.408,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,4,2,0,1,1,0,3,2,2,1,0,3,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,2,0,1,1,2,1,0,6,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,13,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2886481164305557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3648324373275929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3960887867012339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4478970980629475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3574330671988995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3692953128223537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4024226566077786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,aliceisaeep,2018/11/30,"Hi I'm new to this sub I have dealt with many addiction issues in my youth...and i was magically always able to let go easily (and i was really addicted at different times...speed for years as a teen, then crack, then oxycotin before it was cool ..like 2001) Always did what I wanted and easily stopped, but for the 1st time i am drinking against my will...any help would great ..thx everyone",1.1480263157894726,3.7481703815789484,2.900315789473684,87.8052105263158,88.60526315789473,7.2505263157894735,19.442105263157888,8.238735603445708,1.3438778947368428,303,9,61,8,10,100,61,76,0.019,0.7929999999999999,0.188,0.9153,1,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,1,8,3,0,0,0,7,11,6,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,3,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,7,3,9,5,0,9,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,7,34,10,0,0.21460662874851935,0.0,0.0,0.4679058049280659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3571398137947085,0.0,0.0,0.14593986672386744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1826144345399034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22421825034965687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2102327945766871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20506583053424096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12196589272948385,0.0,0.0,0.2366045658231969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14384629953654887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22399356386086944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21944981793931,0.0,0.1048459586069948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21757743770869184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2072684193438682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13748250169309495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17942075108248426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12513885104405367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.126580549901899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15245039169796476,0.0,0.0,0.13819963275933786 alcoholism,jessmckay98,2018/11/30,"Project research I read the rules of this community and I don't think I am breaching anything however, I understand this is a sensitive subject so please delete if inappropriate. I want to stress that anything discussed is completely anonymous. I'm a photography student and I am doing a project about how alcoholism/alcohol abuse has affected my family and my childhood. To gather depth and contextual insight into my project I'm asking that if you or anyone you know has had experiences with a loved one suffering alcoholism or has had experiences with alcoholics, please could you reply to this thread as this would really help me to gather different perspectives when creating my work. This project is extremely personal to me so I'm asking that this be taken seriously and not used as an excuse to mess around. Thank you, and I look forward to reading your stories, Jess",7.372615835777129,9.260571716129038,7.719648093841645,64.81401759530793,64.09677419354838,11.829912023460412,39.25219941348973,11.567385478589935,5.462096774193549,716,39,108,24,11,234,96,155,0.099,0.7759999999999999,0.125,0.5066,2,0,4,0,1,0,10.0,0,5,0,1,6,6,0,1,6,0,15,3,0,3,0,25,29,16,0,5,5,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,9,10,2,0,4,2,0,1,2,4,0,1,3,1,18,2,15,23,0,6,0,1,1,1,14,4,0,4,3,79,27,9,0.0,0.1761929717086469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4767663042698038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10397909307717744,0.0,0.24474567705776576,0.1323803771302947,0.27804114271186864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15591601198304,0.0,0.0,0.11873009776035695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15536671765974835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29092712487658545,0.14018732198694314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09967488093249577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0817252432214804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12487606817484775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13421348755430065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10076742206795168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12984484320856185,0.0,0.3264703216721349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2974936291783809,0.0,0.09526523817930438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17034287634735504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13690903258033493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09528516713616396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15480878636933934,0.0,0.1284347329593004,0.0,0.0,0.08771098930241085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10826015585126643,0.0,0.0,0.10563688248891012,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,drunkinpublic,2018/11/30,"Jaundice or am I a Hyporchondriac? Should I be concerned? 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Hello, 3 years I started drinking and I would drink about 3 days per week. One year ago I started drinking 4-5 days a week. Now I drink about 3 years a week. I am 20 years old currently. I often feel dizzy or like I don't have my balance, I also am very tired a lot. Do you think it's possible the binge drinking I did previously could have damaged my liver?",-0.4781818181818167,1.7406239876543204,1.9953984287317643,93.87202020202022,93.07407407407408,4.426936026936027,20.94388327721661,6.1124844417494595,0.21015061728395112,297,11,65,3,11,101,51,81,0.157,0.8079999999999999,0.035,-0.8202,1,0,5,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,0,5,3,0,0,4,0,11,8,2,0,0,9,15,3,0,3,1,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,5,0,2,5,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,1,13,1,2,12,1,15,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,3,16,38,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12532565063251114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11306226657497265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11288115628684675,0.0,0.0,0.182357987932918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.692497361682646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07148643860028737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06907157359975759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1201969980281444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14835548736954673,0.0,0.0958033669106692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15938573868956699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13528244166039732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20014027851545224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09059118156396354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16249656371766474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116654061408961,0.0,0.0,0.3402217259293333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10043294553630358,0.0,0.0,0.36417869538976144 alcoholism,TheLab420,2018/12/29,"Do I have a problem I feel like I'm ready to take a break. I use to have the occasional drink maybe even less then occasionally. A few times a year. Got smashed on my 21st went on a two week binge. Stopped. Turned 22 and it really kicked off. Once or twice a week maybe 3. Now I'm 24 and drink at the least a half pint of liqour 5-6 days a week. I'm self employed so a regular work environment can't help me stave off drinking. I'm looking for some possible advice. My mom is an Alcoholic. I don't want to get there and i feel like i may be. I'm still a ""functioning"" drinker at this point. Today is the day I want to get off this. I'm not looking to completely stop but to get back to the once or twice a month spot. 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How common are dreams about drinking? I keep having these super realistic dreams that I had a single beer or something like that, and it takes me the better part of the next day to get over the feeling that I failed myself. 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I am putting my family through hell. I used to be such a strong level headed person and 2018 has been the death of me. I’ve been to 2 rehabs, psych ward and even 9 days in jail. I have many reasons to drink, but I have more to not drink. I REALLY want to be sober. I actually just got out of jail last week and before I knew it, I was sneaking drinks to help fall asleep. I’m currently on my parents couch and they are doing everything humanly possible to help me and they were crushed to find me drinking. My mom has soo much anger and rage she wants to get out on me, but gets mad when I say “I know” or don’t respond. I do this because I have no excuses and I hate myself sooooo much for all of this. She has a right to yell, scream and hate me. I know the best apology is changed behavior, so all I can do is keep going to meetings and working on truly becoming sober. I want it more than life itself, but I get in my own way. Any ideas on how to respond to them or give them some assurance this isn’t a joke to me? 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I've been sober since Dec. 15 and have been in an intensive outpatient program about since then. I was told to start taking my naltrexone again. I'm two weeks in, about 3 days into the full dose and I started to feel like I couldn't really feel any emotions. That kind of leveled out, but I still feel really...even-keeled. I've never really felt this way from quitting drinking. I've been going to refuge recovery, had my 3rd meeting tonight and it was hard to meditate because I just cant really access myself. Does any one know if this is a side effect of nal? It's not unpleasant and it's been really beneficial in my relationship, but it feels kind of disconcerting.",4.927555555555556,6.485147570370369,5.9327777777777815,76.57250000000003,69.5925925925926,10.14074074074074,28.314814814814817,10.355215969177356,3.077903703703704,562,20,104,16,10,186,91,135,0.013000000000000001,0.91,0.078,0.8454,0,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,2,5,4,0,0,3,0,12,2,0,1,1,20,24,8,0,2,5,0,6,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,6,1,0,7,1,0,1,4,0,0,2,9,6,9,3,15,14,1,19,0,0,0,0,3,8,0,1,10,62,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22487293070354766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10078936686211958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10663023824782504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14468962780375658,0.0,0.0,0.1619696718508957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18598457691668865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10920511786504272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3344022849052801,0.11811850420158272,0.15875175779455986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0939661942951058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14811163120360527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3443510950685985,0.09086621316840746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08077648182654502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12751994223876872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11203826006663696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17585880959434907,0.0,0.0,0.4236826272382172,0.0,0.0,0.17751264477549072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.273540929312601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23405616417460376,0.0,0.13204026267131022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12431465606260406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15798888725396593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16151257424869822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13123872403228568,0.13262529783368085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,throwawaymeow8bit,2018/12/29,Binging and purging but just with booze? I don’t know why or what it is but ever since my alcoholic mom taught me how to make yourself throw up when you’ve been drinking a lot it’s something I do all the time. I’ll drink 8-9 beers (as a 125lb woman) and make myself throw up before bed. While I’m doing it my head says “you deserve this” almost like it’s a punishment that I deserve. Other times I’ll keep drinking after that and do it again. I can only really relate this to bulimia but with booze instead of food? Does anyone else do this?,1.8292105263157907,3.5243177105263186,3.5542456140350893,89.88505263157896,78.03508771929825,5.963508771929827,21.92631578947368,6.742157984588678,0.4937115789473685,425,12,90,4,10,142,80,114,0.043,0.93,0.027000000000000003,-0.3887,0,0,6,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,0,6,2,1,0,4,0,8,9,1,3,2,19,14,11,0,0,5,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,1,12,5,8,1,1,4,0,2,1,1,0,0,2,1,9,1,9,12,2,11,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,3,8,58,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2015266318728256,0.18882809883143994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318542620904875,0.1932147895593309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16046129090799924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650210474472415,0.0,0.0,0.5541877184128089,0.0,0.0,0.15752810940539774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17057460355082232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280225905482714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19352976697534635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1676118840288862,0.0,0.0,0.1036345030547215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09212698824686204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16031757852822134,0.0,0.0,0.2517471885116778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2208538087209256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14341786794750724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1208043589463061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14996040432472746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15598910357306653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14517230742190096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2199162583381105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17015733204105182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,socalguyhithere,2018/12/29,Alcohol has taken everything from me And I am in the process of building my life back together but just had a binge now with the worst withdrawals I've ever had..... I'm quitting for good this time.,3.91,5.442655384615384,4.608205128205127,85.17846153846155,72.07692307692308,8.276923076923078,30.948717948717945,8.841846274778883,2.5157794871794867,156,7,31,3,3,50,35,39,0.133,0.7759999999999999,0.091,-0.4215,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,3,0,4,2,0,0,1,5,6,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,3,1,5,3,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,23,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4350968468396561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3130568989490917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3682712873538316,0.0,0.0,0.365901092947512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3414803020489396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2875670954195265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4330315688053095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2374000639083512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Pearls_andPink,2018/12/29,"Lingering withdrawal symptoms Hey, so I'm going through my second withdrawal from alch.. this time without taking antidepressants to calm anxiety (I tapered b4 quitting this time and was able to withdrawl without experiencing symptoms as severe as my first time quitting cold turkey) so I did not feel the need to take meds.. anyways, it's been 3 weeks since my last drink and things are going well but I am getting random pains throught my body (legs, neck, biceps, shoulder), stinging pains, some abdominal pain here and there and migraines throughout the day (I never used to get headaches) . I was wondering if anyone else had this problem. The migraines are the worst. Is this common? If so how long did the headaches last? Thanksssss :]",5.6502864583333325,8.573763039062502,4.7028125,80.34427083333338,70.953125,6.766666666666668,33.322916666666664,7.793537801064563,2.680497916666667,591,29,93,8,12,175,89,128,0.17300000000000001,0.7609999999999999,0.066,-0.9617,0,0,1,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,3,8,7,0,0,5,0,10,13,5,2,1,19,21,13,0,4,6,0,1,0,0,0,7,0,0,0,6,4,1,0,2,1,0,2,4,5,1,2,6,3,9,2,10,15,2,13,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,11,61,15,0,0.14088711655172806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10777825853707612,0.0,0.0,0.09851154768159168,0.14435550017640206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15649382576206994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09086053487551564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13801573793524102,0.0,0.0,0.1176931076390316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07123675931275544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.119838509366683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14721540699396668,0.0,0.16013879016244414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22968360788523096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12468066468927227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15649382576206994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1044660117489346,0.1086608296999254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4497414758739865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13480994331930338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2997015811814514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15916233978008884,0.0,0.11654327869888025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2928713176214135,0.2118591560578148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0935991399850912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2464572319364748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12168123365436136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11301114671793022,0.0,0.12667443764250422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2716203055747748,0.15278606805832354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Lightheartedlibby,2018/12/29,"Rage? Goodness... This is Day 12. I have several factors going on here. So, I cannot with 100% certainty declare that my ridiculous amount of rage earlier was from getting sober alone. I do know it must be contributing some. Have any of your ever experienced this?I'm a small framed lady but in that moment I felt like a WWF wrestler looking for a metal chair to bash. I thankfully didnt act on my feeling aside from raising my voice a bit. I just really dont like the feeling and want to not experience it again.",3.33818181818182,5.563379181818185,4.314141414141417,83.72454545454549,75.36363636363637,7.632323232323233,29.181818181818183,8.515128840125781,2.342684848484849,405,18,77,8,9,131,76,99,0.092,0.752,0.156,0.8069,0,1,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,0,5,7,3,0,5,0,10,0,0,0,2,13,19,3,0,2,3,0,3,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,5,2,0,0,4,0,0,2,4,3,0,0,3,6,10,4,11,14,3,10,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,1,6,50,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27312306919123397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1793312126478168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28790200772652336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17007053601411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30906506961945696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2385399542089092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2579580752529921,0.0,0.0,0.26667846181682964,0.0,0.2532020652392537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13777710648138633,0.0,0.14987194339594953,0.2211866588875165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14492760996375856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2576698652711627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2214492045402104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16893878485669545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2979161907504233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2427878840390299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15554244375517606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,xLostF8x,2018/12/29,"Only when I'm drunk do I think I need help. Help. Near Mansfield, Ohio. I will probably have a huge anxiety about this post tomorrow. Please be kind. &#x200B;",0.4948571428571426,1.9908715333333369,1.4214285714285744,92.50500000000002,117.0,5.7142857142857135,20.952380952380953,6.868970318607317,1.3222380952380957,126,5,24,3,7,39,26,30,0.115,0.507,0.377,0.8519,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,0,2,7,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,5,0,5,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,12,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.307481213937919,0.3448301564366308,0.0,0.0,0.2170949494699838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3804305597561125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2955186814016896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21042317671299185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2158314803944463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31151099970112234,0.0,0.0,0.2717878364986414,0.0,0.3059685113989182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18183813780833746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3448301564366308,0.0 alcoholism,ServantSupporter,2018/12/29,"I’m in bed not blacked out, drunk, or buzzed on a Friday for the first time in several years. I didn’t have an issue avoiding alcohol on weekdays, however, I’d be miserable waiting until the weekend came. Tonight, I have a bit of hope that I can end this vicious cycle. This sub has helped me a lot. 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Let people tell you you're responsible, but never let them say you didn't make progress. It only makes things harder when they do.",4.267105263157895,7.234609131578949,3.6413157894736834,85.87671052631579,76.10526315789474,5.905263157894738,25.28947368421053,7.1686216300943375,1.1981368421052632,169,6,30,2,4,50,32,38,0.0,0.782,0.218,0.7845,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,4,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,3,1,6,10,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,1,6,0,1,5,0,4,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,0,3,21,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6169238101441185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2854325420338781,0.4027131042694464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2326543515405853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22942164776615576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2091290729318729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2398875645847021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24090147117164226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2636591076681884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2004056777232837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,donttrustvirgos,2018/11/23,"i think my dad is an alcoholic? help please okay so. my dad used to have issues with drinking. when he does, he doesnt know when to stop and gets really fucked up he quit when i was around 5, i think because of an incident where he was alone with me and my mom was working, i woke up wondering where he was and found red wine spilled all over the house, and him passed out in front of the computer. being a kid i thought it was blood and that he was murdered. i tried waking him but he was passed out. i cried for something that felt like hours going back and forth and not knowing what to do because i didnt know how to use a phone. after a while he woke up, and broke the wine glass spilling even more red wine. then we just went to bed like normal. i remember waking up the morning after and cleaning it all up with wet paper while watching annie or something. then i tried to take a bath by myself, but whilst getting ready he came into the bathroom and threw up so i decided not to. since then i dont think he did it anymore. barely remember seeing him drinking a beer or anything except on holidays. since then my parents divorced and i live 50/50 at each home. when i turned 16 he started drinking at weekends. i get it, it was fine. should be good just having a beer or a glass of wine. but he doesnt know when to stop.. he passes out, wakes up, drinks, passes out, repeat. remembers nothing the day after and doesnt get hungover somehow. now im 19 and hes been doing this pretty much every weekend i can remember, unless we have some strong plans. friday to sunday morning. today i got home and we had planned a nice dinner together. walked in to see him drinking and making food. nothing unusual then i wait and hear nothing, so i walk downstairs and hes eaten his portion and sitting with wine. i grabbed a plate and ate. he didnt say a word and just stared at me eating. grabbed one of my potatoes and put the whole damn thing in his mouth. ??? lmao. thanked for dinner and did my dishes. he said something i couldnt even understand, mumbling about potatoes.. went to get some soda and the kitchen floor was covered in red wine and he was trying to clean it up.. spilled some more trying to walk up the stairs.. ive talkdd to my mum about this and some times he has been annoying when drunk (never violent or doing anything big) like suddenly getting all childish, taking my things, grabbing my arm so hard it hurts and not letting go. suddenly talking down at me and talking about how none of my things are mine because he paid for it all etc. ends up with me yelling and locking my door and him laughing in my face. those times ive called my mum and she ordered a taxi so i can go to her. she then gets really angry at him and calls him telling him to not drink when im here. usually ends up with him laughing and hanging up, then maaybe not drinking a weekend and starting again next week... she also told me last year that he used to drink before i was born too, and that he got violent and she had a deal with the neighbour to contact them when he was being threatening so they could come and help calm him or something. mum tells me to let her know when shes drinkig because she doesnt like that im here when hes like that. but most of the time i dont tell her because she gets worried and tries to contact my dad to yell at him, then he gets angry at me for telling his ex wife. so usually i just stay in my room, lock my door if hes annoying, and check on him when hes passed out so he doesnt fall asleep in a position where he can choke. earlier this year my uncle came by and talkdd to my dad about their dad. turns out he was a narcissist. my dad talked about it to me after. his dad died before i was born so i didnt know him. but ive always felt that dad and my uncle are very.. unemotional? and weird. so learning this made sense. apparenrly grandpa treated my dad the worst and favored his brother. my grandma is my only living grandparent today, and shes been very good and helped raise me. but shes.. pretty special emotionally and has had troubles with eating and used to harass me and my siblings for our weight. so idk. im glad he opened up to me about that. he told me himself that he didnt think much of it since it was so long ago, and that it probably has affected how he is alot. i felt that brought us closer since he isnt very.. open about feelings and such. andddd well.. two months ago my dads coworker and closest thing to a friend there, and outside work really - he hasnt had friends since i was a kid afaik - killed himself. my dad had to talk to the family since he knew him the last months best and it was a very sad situation. ive told him i care about and love him and that im there for him and that he can talk to me about this. he seems like usual but ive been checking on him and worrying a bit. annndddd the other day he went to the doctor and he has a sick leave for 1 month up to 12 months because of an injury from work, and its hard physical work. hes just been laying on the couch every day watching tv, and being on his computer. he doesnt have any hobbies besides his motorcycle, but its winter here now so he cant until april or so again. i asked what hes gonna do now that hes gonna be home all te time and he said hes gonna try to read books, which is nice. so now im worried. he has no friends, and no hobbies, and now hes gonna be home 24/7. ive asked him begore if hes lonely, but he says hes fine and hes always been a lone wolf so i get it. but i cant help but worry. i hope he doesnt start drinking more. or that hes gonna get depressed. not sure what i want with this post but i needed to share. i have a therapist and ive mentioned this several times but it doesnt seem to be a «big deal». is there any way i can help him? when hes drunk i always check on him to see he doesnt choke or anything. but is there more?? i feel so worried and im alone, i cant go to my mum because shes out of town for some days. thanks. 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In the past I felt like I had plenty of excuses for being a complete drunk, but I don't anymore. I've got a great job, great friends, and I live an amazing life by many peoples standard. But I just cant stop drinking. I started developing a hole in my stomach from drinking so much. Over a battle of hard liquor a day!. If I go to detox I lose my job. And if i stop drinking on my own the withdrawals would 100% be life threatening. I did this to myself and I don't know how to fix it.",0.5496830692243542,2.467097045871561,2.7809674728940803,92.77360300250209,83.12844036697247,5.431526271893245,25.505421184320262,6.574015621080383,0.8447357798165136,394,17,89,4,11,134,72,109,0.141,0.629,0.22899999999999998,0.9261,2,0,3,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,3,7,1,0,8,0,9,9,1,1,0,15,14,9,0,3,5,0,2,1,1,1,3,0,0,0,2,3,5,2,2,5,0,1,4,2,0,0,4,2,16,5,12,7,2,10,0,1,0,0,3,4,0,2,6,60,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3238957535105279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17121499438710608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10531379188873598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4799100309786662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15679182431807345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1261637389717728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09280609696821296,0.0,0.13060444125154594,0.3600735547865401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14628305967604702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3240964160578881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08974438790143448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2306846131497678,0.07977922338327463,0.0,0.14419525062219574,0.0,0.0,0.18268885018650688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16555868472897148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12004292325842522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15588655354193726,0.11321037009744805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11558326497813495,0.0,0.0,0.2730491164444266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11600231440230482,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,suicidal_1,2018/11/23,"Rogaine and alcohol ETG testing? Hi. I'm currently on probation for a dui and am being randomly ETG tested for alcohol consumption. I stopped using rogaine on the top of my scalp because i thought it might set off false positives for the ETG tests. But, i'm told that is silly. Is it true that rogaine won't set off a false positive for ETG alcohol testing? Thanks. &#x200B;",2.9752464788732413,5.792673619718316,4.490968309859156,78.67194542253522,80.40845070422534,8.620422535211267,34.227112676056336,9.188382445141503,4.001012676056339,301,18,51,9,8,100,46,71,0.025,0.7609999999999999,0.213,0.9195,1,0,3,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,4,0,6,4,1,1,1,9,12,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,4,2,3,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,3,3,9,7,0,9,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,2,2,29,7,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7216307996573281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24387563825609385,0.2734985770802605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1372075522231545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23877583073526665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881781561885644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20722474255510365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1786895156971759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21507495456570555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1943980902575405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2734985770802605,0.0 alcoholism,iristurner,2018/11/23,"Ashamed So on wednesday night I drank wine at home as usual without having eaten. I actually poo’ed myself on the sofa. My poor partner helped to clean it up. Last night (Thursday) I haven’t drank. I feel terrible , awful, was in bed all day and did no housework or anything at all. I was too anxious to go in the shop to get food in the evening , felt worse as I’d not washed. I don’t know how to get out of this hell.",2.216699507389162,3.580817402298852,3.4985221674876854,92.11655172413792,76.1264367816092,5.8909688013136305,25.072249589490966,6.1826913282559595,0.5815628899835792,322,11,72,2,7,105,65,87,0.259,0.713,0.027999999999999997,-0.9698,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,1,3,1,6,6,0,1,2,11,15,6,0,0,3,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,4,1,2,2,5,0,3,2,2,1,5,3,0,0,7,2,8,0,17,8,2,17,1,0,0,0,2,9,1,1,7,46,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.2371140941499812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.274499007688324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19995239706485984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15670243787456262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1604864481129507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1228583330032799,0.0,0.23329955809966546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2938132037995788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2538947541994601,0.0,0.13809152043358808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16286482857797746,0.0,0.2437294343519796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13353582771545172,0.19806168511308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4560418180780249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2676088919324401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2342247055782551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2476180722325417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,randomthrowaway066,2019/04/09,"I (27/f) have chest pain/shortness of breath the day after drinking Hello. This is my first time posting and I hope this is the right place for this... I’ve been drinking for about 10 years now and heavily drinking for the last 4-5. I’ve tried getting sober several times but I suffer from bipolar 2 and anxiety and alcohol has been something like a crutch to cope with things, I guess. Well, almost every day after I binge drink I get symptoms such as heart palpitations, shortness of breath, sharp chest pains and an elevated heart rate. I’ve been to the ER multiple times and they can never give me a solid explanation for any of this and end up dismissing it as “alcohol withdrawal.” Has anyone else had similar issues such as this? I know it can’t just 100% be anxiety. it’s truly unnerving. I swear, after today I am officially done drinking, because it seems like the issues get worse each time around. I’m going to put my health first.",4.420749802683506,6.1122737624309424,5.228938437253358,80.60089779005527,71.04419889502763,8.486345698500395,27.84569850039464,9.04235418022936,2.3137842146803465,745,27,139,15,14,242,116,181,0.10800000000000001,0.804,0.08800000000000001,-0.5523,0,0,8,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,1,2,7,6,0,0,8,0,14,17,6,0,1,18,24,11,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,0,6,0,0,0,10,10,7,0,2,5,0,2,2,2,2,2,5,1,13,4,21,18,1,25,0,1,0,0,3,5,0,4,19,83,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332854930258225,0.10929289028365176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07422230114325744,0.0,0.16699115892294086,0.0,0.0,0.07631667897557694,0.11183188798261008,0.0,0.09716213562874396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06653374166355784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14077891241860352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11169316673559923,0.0,0.5346024407019528,0.0,0.0,0.09117659121910644,0.0,0.0966700198684639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09195931834617682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1856772584227264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17107117724103446,0.10470177071951513,0.06202958398271235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12023545522952375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11601596612795854,0.0,0.25867455604988515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10840555132744696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22783791878458615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05998320399376166,0.0889676925266953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10664540797623184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08417930539709348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23227582040916356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11403323076041183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10453068095059972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10972080955768894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0932091814022862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09936145311284304,0.0,0.12330271400525905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08402510624994251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1134433822941767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07251104755475381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2545731662065164,0.0,0.10345664002731786,0.0,0.0,0.07410224900304975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0981344077876184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11122801717990097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07028576214859335 alcoholism,Thenewhalflife,2019/04/09,"I’m 13, and already struggling with addiction. Don’t know if this is the right place for this, I didn’t see any rules about age or anything like that. I really don’t know why I’m posting this, I guess I just don’t want to talk to anyone irl. My parents have caught me several times, but I keep doing it regardless, and I don’t know why, I guess that’s what addiction is. Most of you are either addicted, recovering, or 100% sober, so I guess I’m asking for advice from the people that have recovered. I want to get help but I don’t want to have to go to meetings or anything because I’m afraid of two things, one being that my parents would be so disappointed that I even have to go to these meetings, and two, being that I have anxiety, like pretty bad. I have a hard time talking to cashiers sometimes, let alone a group of people whom I think will just look down on me for starting to drink so young. I wanted to get away from anxiety, but in the end it made it worse. I know all drugs are bad (except for some, like weed, possibly shrooms, etc.) But from my experience alcohol is the worst one, the only reason it’s legal, is because it would be abused more if it wasn’t. I guess I’m rambling at this point.",2.3360413080894986,3.9717526787148607,3.725048766494549,89.47469879518074,76.429718875502,6.991853126792886,23.9053356282272,7.793537801064563,1.0659480206540444,943,30,205,14,21,310,129,249,0.153,0.762,0.085,-0.9699,2,1,3,0,1,0,34.0,0,1,0,0,7,9,0,2,7,0,28,6,0,2,1,39,57,15,0,9,13,2,1,3,0,3,5,0,0,0,20,4,2,1,6,1,0,3,7,6,0,4,4,3,23,3,29,45,7,18,0,1,2,0,11,8,0,11,9,136,43,1,0.0,0.1132965605981254,0.0,0.31272663307566784,0.0,0.09344081630947464,0.0,0.10219095188459816,0.0,0.09903566477340926,0.10552137291145308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06502631180804032,0.0,0.14630130031067642,0.0,0.0,0.06686120056614274,0.0,0.15737769312249789,0.0,0.08939376204550754,0.0,0.0898401172500766,0.0,0.15968093047835946,0.11658069783688302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09367326118150827,0.11089128615504423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08469280469118456,0.0,0.106643925910534,0.06315749986544764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09353676912755324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09991720854152457,0.0,0.10868849408475384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42135412573890185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08565862581068028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06409348272048714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08499332230636263,0.0,0.0,0.21020563717717428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09778008304296673,0.0,0.14014839431965176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08029848686939957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0904799497257782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295920288979186,0.07272492130004989,0.0,0.0,0.2123540675059487,0.0,0.0,0.1325846581489549,0.0,0.09990474972734482,0.0,0.09039379894793036,0.10779955820046552,0.09157954615124406,0.09728205962630644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0612579703129368,0.09831545187515336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0816607569406767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07619843907385805,0.0,0.0,0.10802576320300418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09457270891215452,0.0,0.06768181952622877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09996498806209762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15371485507323127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06352707899371557,0.061270785138900635,0.0,0.0,0.11151603917368448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1868178082823274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22560158485900444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1725681570700973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09744709629751687,0.13585440261593018,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,thisisfrustratingjgp,2019/04/09,"Anyone have advice on how to get better sleep while drinking? I am a functioning alcoholic in the process of cutting down. I have switched from wine to beer, which has seemed to help immensely. My hangovers aren't as bad, which helps me to feel and do better at work. But I still have trouble getting enough restful sleep each night. I need to drink probably at least 3 or 4 beers to get to sleep in the first place. But then of course I end up waking up in the middle of the night around 2 to 4 a.m. And then I absolutely CAN NOT fall back asleep. (And when I do, I often have sleep paralysis over and over until I am too scared to even try to sleep again.) Some days at work I feel so bad, I am genuinely concerned that I might have a seizure or collapse or even die. I have left early or called in sick too many times for this reason. If I could just find a way to get enough sleep, I would continue to cut down and be fine I'm sure. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. Thanks.",3.3230666666666657,4.558777840000001,3.8290000000000006,91.35866666666668,73.1,7.133333333333335,23.833333333333336,7.554174236665415,0.7910833333333334,768,21,171,9,15,241,122,200,0.094,0.76,0.145,0.8615,0,0,6,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,5,13,12,2,1,7,0,20,15,8,2,1,30,30,20,1,5,9,0,2,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,4,7,6,0,5,5,0,1,2,6,0,1,0,2,17,6,34,24,6,36,0,0,0,0,3,18,0,9,16,117,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2020830913693166,0.0,0.11050344101455976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07031572833756082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07229987192277981,0.0,0.0,0.09204816110971037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07950842397157303,0.17266981035847306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18289826953843036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10558323499849996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08255670065405764,0.0,0.0,0.06668461910240196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1073131539231402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20258579650577355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09158194707999848,0.2136802360233352,0.0,0.1365898043280762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10456456518484968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09450597217033913,0.0879522155781447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2160894904448368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11399916107453573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13861404080508444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11234469428835822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10483164296192188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1096913446871437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07666998892499327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1940682949530332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1080312729745096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1114829780007944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10631269732543913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10352170710777568,0.0,0.0,0.09413172101499373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6208496577233251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08257558800490652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09745352938495584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09519707498586123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06029352809494595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0702019949508676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08207432026212064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.150553253942638,0.0,0.0,0.1469051681110752,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,underhuggare,2019/04/09,"I think I'm an alcoholic I don't know, just really needed to voice this, somewhere to someone. Fuck.",2.1744999999999983,4.465879450000003,4.240000000000002,82.47500000000002,79.5,8.0,25.0,8.841846274778883,2.225,79,3,15,2,2,27,17,20,0.18899999999999997,0.8109999999999999,0.0,-0.5423,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,6,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5102058905010585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4413576705881094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2623719427367587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35399332016302043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30584094498986497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4045077773726499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3059049252109307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,drinkingbeer95,2019/04/09,"Did I have a seizure or was it sleep paralysis. I've been drinking quite often and heavily for last the last few years. Last week I ended up drinking 20-40 330ml 4.5% cans of beers a day and cut it down to 15 cans yesterday. I drank those quickly in the evening hoping to at least be able to sleep throough the night. Homever I ended up waking up at like 4am with horrible tremors and anxiety hearing whispers and footsteps even though I was alone. Those things are nothing new to me but in like 7am I got this weird feeling and I think I saw some bright light or something. Then suddenly my vision went black and my body sort of jolted and started shaking rapidly but I could not move otherwise. This lasted I think for a few seconds and I felt like I had fallen to the floor though I was still on the bed. I've had sleep paralysis sometimes before and that feels kind of similar but there's never been that jolting and shaking.",4.017142857142858,5.479562594594596,4.2976254826254845,87.78682432432434,71.70270270270271,7.231660231660233,29.43050193050193,7.7094869923839395,1.7630231660231668,740,30,148,9,14,231,117,185,0.08900000000000001,0.8109999999999999,0.1,0.6043,0,1,4,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,8,10,1,2,8,0,14,9,5,0,1,28,26,18,0,2,6,0,3,3,0,0,0,2,1,0,9,11,4,0,5,3,0,5,2,4,0,1,13,9,16,6,20,11,4,33,0,0,3,0,1,10,0,6,21,98,25,0,0.13100176988107065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356783255301337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1002159953914069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1114728574325238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14551343410285447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1045942535390025,0.0,0.0,0.08448530406726748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2566637231775589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2320573694586005,0.0,0.0,0.17305086699866035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13247686202927464,0.0,0.12578224290669407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1047740826133202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14764851557459704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13011431625847447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13641818423565455,0.0,0.42713570810554063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19200254282670035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13923414938486314,0.0,0.0,0.10103664093522284,0.12652232567483546,0.0,0.12293628673011782,0.0,0.12569973133815904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13933650759510827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39328913337772015,0.0,0.0,0.1008515626218569,0.12956410011896116,0.0,0.09272372698423102,0.0,0.10461818264890778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08703175490777437,0.16788128904032326,0.2574171475516734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10508171789364812,0.0,0.0,0.12143995313032298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0843608447416709 alcoholism,noaschmitz,2019/04/09,50 days sober today. This is the longest I’ve been sober since I was 19. I’m 34 now and I feel better that ever. I mean I’m still an old man compared to back then but I have so many more prospects now and I love it.,-2.7620000000000005,-1.1312604999999962,-0.17249999999999946,107.43125,104.0,2.5,12.25,3.1291,-1.9948,165,3,45,0,8,55,39,50,0.0,0.774,0.226,0.9078,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,6,2,0,0,2,0,4,1,0,0,1,6,9,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,5,2,1,7,1,9,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,9,26,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2533201342026869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2913641842622838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21246247650834066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29799864576899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1665754920191991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2973337642577949,0.0,0.0,0.33400191498320825,0.0,0.3588583101304623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3456933760612741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2725173657263848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2630923616690934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.312271967069568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,_unknown_username,2019/04/09,"Just got through day 3, and my birthdays on Friday ...and I know I’m going to get festive under the guise of ‘ it’s my birthday (49) and I can do what I want ‘ Is it wrong that I don’t *really* want to give up entirely, just wind it right back? I think I’ve been sober maybe a dozen or two times since the beginning of the year and these days just happened. My conflictions: I know I drink too much by general standards I don’t really want to give it up completely as it helps me deal with my world I want to get my only friend off my case (I’m not very social, more shy and awkward) It’s expensive But you’ve gotta die from something right? I’m uptight and can’t relax without it I like it I should be a better example for those around me I don’t want to embarrass/hurt others (again) People like me better when I’ve had a couple because I’m funny and playful (and not shy and awkward) My SO thinks we drink too much My memory is screwed But it’s what I do.. Is this a familiar tale for anyone else? I’m going through the angry stage and am working hard at keeping myself in check. I stopped myself twice when I got home from work today, mainly to prove the ‘I can quit whenever I want’ point to myself. Thoughts?",0.6105961754780651,2.7902806614173272,2.5352587176602945,93.04324803149606,84.90551181102363,5.675815523059617,20.488751406074236,7.021680442328713,0.4480026996625419,944,29,207,13,28,314,141,254,0.114,0.764,0.12300000000000001,-0.3878,0,0,3,0,0,0,28.0,1,0,0,5,11,13,1,3,9,0,16,3,0,0,1,41,44,17,1,7,9,0,1,2,1,2,0,0,1,0,16,13,2,4,6,4,2,2,7,5,0,3,5,1,31,8,27,36,4,26,0,0,0,1,7,12,1,1,13,131,47,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08381049561008705,0.12281307418832732,0.0,0.10670284465844668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09216669740925117,0.0,0.07306693554368109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2120168986276368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12567332384932142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13262533695477413,0.0,0.15460251388858348,0.1235727512269872,0.0,0.0,0.1243981265331422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2348388117042229,0.0,0.0,0.10012955753167788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09260530295607626,0.0,0.12524619206556833,0.2299656487427734,0.13624099596216316,0.0,0.19172963560020165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10599382151099032,0.0,0.10737306272821352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08034116208946314,0.0,0.12023164339543205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12831505361398454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10653910497759207,0.0,0.0,0.13174635276272814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11711731455044427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1204177744334636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1762251399122953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.091160667857469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08309741535949011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11330860088894258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12748829271838694,0.0,0.0,0.1535736962101463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2047234705073082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09915131959299088,0.0,0.0,0.12218450348782392,0.0,0.09227584183467373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10021023614353397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1536058229714396,0.0,0.09515726440875767,0.06989266145748158,0.0,0.11361542969681265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11708803437834656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09889893694030504,0.42418728225085495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1155429640673439,0.0,0.1745223399858914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1310505907889086,0.0,0.07718738078070009 alcoholism,RoninVX,2019/04/09,"Memory issues during recovery Hiya! Quick info dump: 26 years old, heavy drinker for 10 years, today's my 70th day sober. So far my struggles have been fairly simple to overcome, but I've been experiencing really annoying memory problems. Not talking sudden blackouts, nor am I worried I don't remember what I've done drunk, I mean stuff like thinking about it literally two minutes ago and poof, gone. My memory just keeps restarting every few minutes it seems and it's absolutely horrid. I've read this can occur during withdrawal, but I'm past my withdrawal. Has anyone who's tried stopping experienced this? How do I counter it? I already take thiamine to up my intake...",4.616693989071038,7.459128237704919,5.688114754098362,72.38960382513662,74.0,8.32896174863388,29.83879781420765,9.075114841892004,3.213555191256831,543,24,83,13,12,179,91,122,0.175,0.764,0.061,-0.9483,0,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,0,5,5,2,1,0,0,9,1,0,1,0,15,16,7,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,9,2,1,2,5,2,0,1,3,4,0,1,4,2,10,1,5,12,1,13,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,11,45,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18038407015049027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2245593413203154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422868822188049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1312360076400053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20824376366062128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17145144251666686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21239359174325875,0.0,0.18087373152127084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0994162927919505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22166329181478744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21353143993921014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1942568828327592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1947151067913012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20354784660571384,0.0,0.13036268468223722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2305176495732117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1852521829557184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1701290746878431,0.0,0.21273483518030847,0.2329505462417491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15300124449575922,0.16355978724498774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303899558292871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19288736029814893,0.0,0.0,0.1381582390321222,0.0,0.1987828760055446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20665679441221094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2620853552523244 alcoholism,Necturion,2019/03/05,Tried to make a dry week. Failed at day 2. After a fight with my mother . I got so angry at myself that I thought I deserved to be fucked and went out and bought high% Alcohol,0.3801351351351343,2.4540815405405425,2.0499324324324317,96.84084459459463,84.94594594594595,4.781081081081081,17.35810810810811,5.985473137389443,-0.4935351351351352,135,3,31,1,4,44,31,37,0.342,0.6579999999999999,0.0,-0.9386,0,0,1,0,1,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,2,0,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,6,7,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,3,0,0,4,0,5,0,7,2,0,8,0,1,0,1,2,4,1,0,3,19,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3980520934702647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2402092821026353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3443381348933915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2978944971005754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3935300013502472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.248623456068982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2956958149716896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25287946510462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2987691681531668,0.0,0.0,0.3452790314489075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,chomq,2019/03/05,Going to rehab I'm going to rehab and I'm really scared. Does anybody have experience? How did you cope with being sober? ,0.6062499999999993,3.032380458333337,3.958333333333332,77.37,98.58333333333334,5.7333333333333325,14.333333333333336,7.1686216300943375,0.6415333333333337,97,2,16,2,4,35,19,24,0.145,0.855,0.0,-0.5504,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,3,7,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,3,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,9,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41589843657670217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4648901185988491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5401961963908305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3044602176184969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4758126872780713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,deviltresslilith,2019/03/05,"Trying to get through my first day... Not really an alcoholic just trying to quit my casual drinking habits during the week. Its extremely hard really, i havent been drinking heavy-ish that long maybe 2-3 months. I started lightly but i am now up to 7 beers a day,more consumption on the weekends but that doesnt matter. My family and friends are worried about me and think I should stop drinking so much. So here i am, my first day without anything, i can tell im becoming quite agitated with everything and im constantly thinking about cracking open a beer. I am trying to distract myself with other things such as smoking weed and playing video games but its not entirely helping. Any tips?",5.038625954198476,6.8065597709923695,5.55258778625954,78.58582824427482,69.61068702290076,8.90412213740458,32.18396946564886,9.3871,3.1417322137404584,554,25,97,12,10,178,92,131,0.138,0.802,0.06,-0.8483,0,0,6,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,4,8,4,0,1,5,0,9,6,0,0,0,19,13,10,0,1,7,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,6,7,6,1,2,10,0,0,5,1,0,2,1,2,13,3,13,11,1,15,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,12,64,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15366899431655193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0977829030395999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11832785282841715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15880601221252175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15538713488410055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27820016082118915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4225817131942263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12923020100233598,0.0,0.1355534855928488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24461733302993316,0.0,0.0,0.1110926747018775,0.0,0.07512493360876207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12880861407113445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09638016722874844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3106382023360289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272506301933707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14445752258708067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11477271261600072,0.0,0.10570302951146986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3058791446960478,0.0,0.0,0.184232566939832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10177610589100973,0.0,0.0,0.12021582793128248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12567979039540192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09552844122497832,0.18427110736600255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2928742271933619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11534057565839588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13860952355301304,0.0,0.0,0.14602687802465314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,RipNastyy,2019/03/05,"Going Forward So yeah. This'll be a long one. And I guess pretty indulgent. Sorry in advance. Turned 30 back in December, and I decided I wanted to go sober. I did well for a few months, but this past weekend I relapsed hard. I still feel proud of going those few months, but just being public about this at all feels like a really big deal to me. I've claimed that I was going to go sober before, but posting something feels like the best way I can hold myself accountable. I wasn't a very social kid growing up. And I've realized through therapy the past year that it's pretty hard for me to feel genuinely happy or comfortable with myself, and I've never really liked myself at all. That's not to say I didn't have a good life. I'm really lucky to have a supportive, loving family and I never lacked for great friends. But I was never really comfortable in most social situations, and the idea of being vulnerable and putting myself out there, especially romantically, was just totally foreign to me. Like it felt like a guaranteed failure, so why put myself or others through that? But then junior year of college I drank like 6 Bud Light Limes in an hour and all of a sudden I was smooth, confident and hilarious in groups. Who knew it was that easy? I moved up to Boston about a year after I graduated college, started taking improv classes, made friends, and finally became the kind of fun, social adult I always hoped I'd be. I had always wanted to do comedy, and getting more involved, it felt like maybe the first thing in my life that I might actually be pretty good at. But the theater is right next to a bar, and most shows are at bars, and oftentimes the folks who did the show would be social and hang out afterwards and like cool, I actually belong to this really fucking cool thing I've always wanted to do and we're going out afterwards, and I really want to go and hang out with them and be a part of this. At first this felt pretty innocent. I'm in my 20s, I'm having fun, what's the issue? Over the last few years though I've learned that I've tied these two things together in a way that's become dangerous. If I'm out to do or see a show, or multiple shows in one night, I'm drinking the entire night. And no matter how many times I've told myself otherwise, I don't have the ability to regulate myself or stop drinking after a certain point, like other people do. And my constant anxiety doesn't let me go home because I want to be at the social event, but I can't be there sober because I'm boring and uninteresting and unfunny sober. So I stay, and I indulge. I've embarrassed myself, I've worried friends, I've damaged relationships, and I've put myself in danger numerous times. So it's time to make a change, for real this time. And try to develop some real confidence in myself, and not rely on this stupid false confidence that drinking gives me. I honestly don't know if this will be a lifetime commitment, or what the right path forward is for me. But it's too much a part of my life right now, and I need to step away from it. For a long time. Thanks for reading, all. I'm hoping to find a new community for this, so know I'm around to talk if anyone needs it.",4.602549742616187,5.453656956043957,5.877551750575009,79.30872731919246,69.70643642072214,9.190887517797817,27.843780803913692,9.411308987883313,2.3458019714504763,2519,83,492,52,43,847,278,637,0.087,0.6809999999999999,0.23199999999999998,0.9988,0,0,4,0,0,0,72.0,0,0,1,5,19,41,4,1,34,3,40,11,0,3,10,107,90,53,0,14,21,0,10,9,4,3,3,1,1,2,37,36,6,2,15,11,1,19,12,7,1,5,17,15,49,34,73,59,17,97,0,1,1,2,24,35,1,17,52,323,86,7,0.0,0.0,0.11398873241333166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14579166590463982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04467928197906571,0.0,0.0,0.040837783768290385,0.0,0.0,0.051992386704114366,0.0,0.0,0.0548729494970261,0.0449094547411726,0.0,0.07120568116495737,0.06450318068750242,0.049697927070302614,0.0,0.06129191857221376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061784215925900526,0.0,0.0,0.06311451498781569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06021247407649356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17164252298536234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05505856391831776,0.0,0.11812427848848712,0.08344837170537517,0.16823243465791296,0.06397927401436679,0.05338065412379212,0.09935767425863612,0.0,0.0,0.13536951346206233,0.053994018333876084,0.030513940241870232,0.05602691744708945,0.265540982330605,0.0979738457855397,0.0,0.06439116648367918,0.06433914038000277,0.0,0.0,0.06217267535775664,0.10463791882662772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058584474645415524,0.1160176916453437,0.05751666695873349,0.0,0.0,0.06593157050472633,0.0,0.060959123132964525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06081929832390383,0.06419517063132196,0.047607461940680725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0597225573926681,0.12375847489846052,0.2568013933747953,0.0,0.0,0.10337228770630057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05271234073432877,0.05526374924440401,0.03898545669179637,0.059212995175510486,0.058675169480571526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06195794399706527,0.0,0.0,0.0932358279982166,0.062074739637970736,0.042934026972922944,0.08661239213757413,0.13513545077105066,0.05640742920723287,0.06211384741596844,0.10961733202013747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07915280027004387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12649276217527167,0.11150740606470183,0.040490325888804815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05521112968616351,0.0,0.05593536567778135,0.2376734896719625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1761379591884212,0.0,0.0,0.05842030422314429,0.13295421277823133,0.22449250607601404,0.0,0.0,0.06270457479866601,0.0,0.1496313694367153,0.0,0.046445601898070406,0.0,0.0,0.04654082415557476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06564910408170119,0.0,0.2976801590868491,0.0,0.044962636820725696,0.0,0.06537905513622881,0.04133900509492512,0.06225142511333188,0.046641908454353884,0.04882877645823658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06627673349515666,0.0,0.0,0.0439129148208391,0.04694332408258803,0.0,0.053771015912705,0.06679063476484072,0.0,0.11640406215006704,0.0,0.05738212386549903,0.0,0.17028066561435715,0.0,0.0,0.05580800179448472,0.0,0.03965282114148338,0.063527323786092,0.057052709150446475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04818982840134728,0.17224243399468964,0.09271754581733506,0.0,0.0,0.052512658821835166,0.0,0.052700976231719265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05931260389468668,0.0,0.04148888047942876,0.0,0.0,0.1504423303080214 alcoholism,luigi787,2019/03/05,"Need advice in helping someone with alcoholism while I have his attention! My brother, who suffers from severe alcoholism, has finally taken the first step to seeking help. He called me last night, while intoxicated, and I told him I would help him. He currently drinks daily from the moment he wakes up, reportedly, several shots in the morning, mid day, and night. And light drinking here and there throughout the day. The problem is he just quit his job yesterday, has no health insurance, and I am in very tough place financially. Bipolar runs in our family, and I suspect he may have bipolar type 2, who’s depressive episodes may have been the reason for seeking refuge in alcohol. I have bipolar and was able to get help from a GREAT psychologist-psychiatrist who charges $250 per session. She diagnosed me on the first day and put me on the best medications for me when many failed to do. I am going to help him, but I’m curious as to what should be my plan of action. What step should I take first considering money is so limited? I told him last night I would schedule an appointment with my favorite psychologist, it was what first came to mind. He said he may not remember tomorrow about having called me, so I told him I would send him a text that night so he sees it in the morning. He is also having some thoughts of suicide. Thoughts of suicide happened once before when he was fired from his previous job—he took some pills, although it was not serious. He lives 4 hours away from me but I will do my best to get him here and he can stay with me as long as necessary.",5.359058693244741,6.631090598006648,5.720265780730897,79.58035437430789,68.26910299003322,9.454263565891472,31.94130675526025,9.725611199111238,3.019706090808417,1254,53,238,28,21,401,161,301,0.114,0.797,0.08900000000000001,-0.8452,3,0,5,0,0,2,34.0,1,0,0,10,11,9,0,0,12,0,31,14,1,1,0,38,48,23,2,7,5,1,1,0,0,9,11,1,0,0,10,13,5,1,6,2,1,9,3,6,0,4,14,4,36,3,34,24,4,47,0,3,1,0,40,12,0,5,25,158,46,5,0.08816189483722196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08615078328750657,0.0,0.2826547615100836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07050303544931111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08283100231168179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07501927907609793,0.0,0.18504093894998647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18004630343913586,0.100833721097012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17057138615526654,0.0,0.07593371083840929,0.08948246746647309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17273018671314502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08311118824482402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09657704647480173,0.0,0.29996185084406457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0921219026088566,0.0,0.05010443652765705,0.0,0.0,0.09719880029686714,0.0,0.0,0.07796127244542646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09371197157590427,0.0,0.0,0.29546529868202515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08682170755332341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17497415404480904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1437274222073863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07784856834205603,0.07802050263790238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08938232380838441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08881383394675259,0.0,0.0,0.08901838165445966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06537092792648684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.330935864216757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09388954070865817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09211041580209686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08435902683525041,0.0,0.08862705479015505,0.0,0.09377102722152413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09064511123551462,0.0,0.0,0.09987024071629026,0.0,0.08386215086097347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07025361582626273,0.0,0.0,0.19919569376077592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07469928739941582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0939688495831144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19286960739473025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06628677303440267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1399813934430776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2527274058359029,0.09795110906095496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07274279630126088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18788304181208093,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ImCold35,2019/03/05,"Helping a recovering Alocholic Hey guys, I hope this is the right place to ask. My mom is now a recovering alcoholic, dad has been recovering for as long as I can remember but relapsed for years. He claims to now be sober again. Mom is being discharged from rehab soon. I truly believe she will be sober for life after this because she wants it and she wants it for herself. I don't live with them but I want to know what I can do to best help her stay sober, especially during trying times. What are some of the little things that most people don't think of that helped you the most or would have helped? What advise can I offer for when she is tempted? Any help or advice will be greatly appreciated. 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I already suffer with anxiety and it has just skyrocketed. I really don’t want to go and find out something is wrong with me. If there is something wrong can it be fixed or am I fucked? Because if I’m fucked I would rather not know. Literally shaking right now - am I being stupid?",3.1683720930232586,5.444887406976748,4.518779069767444,81.8121220930233,76.09302325581395,7.555813953488372,25.86627906976745,8.472884824447931,1.9484465116279075,351,13,66,7,8,116,60,86,0.26899999999999996,0.667,0.064,-0.9708,0,0,2,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,5,9,4,1,0,0,14,7,3,0,0,17,22,5,0,5,7,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,2,0,1,2,2,8,0,0,1,1,12,1,7,18,2,6,0,1,1,2,1,2,3,4,2,48,14,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21927789363242492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15201015719692176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18576403343108455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12112982021813368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40676965699786605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22161060643114666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1816144142252357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3674024671422264,0.0,0.0,0.11292965295753045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1092040599882814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2113491398262221,0.0,0.0,0.1272966634891126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16969452045896846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15834359198695316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20396967347389736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30594840330285616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11720241824736995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14115560869033786,0.43450938194200817,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,riotguy117,2019/08/18,"Drinking 2-3 beers a day Hey everyone. I’ve been drinking 2-3 beers a day now for about a month. I’ll take a day or two off every week. But it’s pretty consistent. I don’t like that I drink this much, but I love drinking. Specifically sitting on my porch and listening to podcasts. I workout a lot and run. Training currently for the Marine Corps, ship out in November. I feel like it’s a problem, and I’ve lived with alcoholics before, I never want to be one. I guess I’m posting here to get the motivation to stop.",0.4249173256649854,2.7500867757009324,2.948971962616824,88.57983465132997,87.78504672897196,6.282961897915169,24.11861969805895,7.61054688173877,1.41090424155284,403,17,85,8,13,139,73,107,0.076,0.765,0.159,0.8525,1,0,7,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,8,0,3,8,0,1,1,16,11,6,0,2,3,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,4,5,7,1,2,7,0,1,2,1,0,2,1,2,8,3,12,9,2,16,0,0,0,1,3,4,0,3,11,48,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1770849460755581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14100011886066302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3205920667102684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6492991443618861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13961100383276082,0.15833527372815887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08378386327686188,0.11837747591103948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08657240763633067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18253933263937314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16190716427091745,0.0,0.14631782022628964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14087383630045322,0.1495524410595677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1322616817722014,0.0,0.12180996800501336,0.0,0.12779952635350694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11228390100096934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1586966232600614,0.16857841095851578,0.0,0.15855434705890084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13853421440883812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12458721267182185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16186668631382026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09773527830143064,0.0,0.13291607530609606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Miss-Stophy,2019/08/18,"109 days sober, so why do I wake up every morning feeling almost hungover? Anyone else have weird head/body morning issues? It’s an all over feeling I’ve never had before and I can’t describe very well, I’ve only experienced it in sobriety. My head and body just feel totally off and bad for 1-3 hours every morning. It doesn’t matter what time I wake up, 7 am or 1 pm I still feel like my bones are slightly sore and I have a full head headache. Is this normal? Anyone else experience something like this?",1.6769518716577534,4.0666501176470575,3.2969518716577544,87.94082887700537,82.13725490196076,5.277718360071302,22.998217468805706,6.574015621080383,0.7138313725490195,400,14,78,4,11,132,72,102,0.078,0.795,0.127,0.418,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,2,0,9,7,6,0,3,16,13,6,0,1,2,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,4,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,5,7,3,6,12,3,11,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,2,7,43,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516172331272223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2117415630185092,0.31027894655015925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12642268429763676,0.0,0.0,0.12884044854579885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3363691673661415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09764820533235076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2529705720241259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25514225805039953,0.0,0.0,0.14810997654145294,0.0,0.0,0.3062337993107138,0.10816875345452534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4661771417200632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1491103071429862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15803477590321774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479444970401584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11677825829067567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1483515990235478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1151556386669816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11656434457697548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12091780805646488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08828954698813106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12493074606093135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13613755976918152,0.0,0.13662576724560455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,briscutmcmann,2019/08/18,"Are there any medications for alcoholism that slow down your speech and thought processes? Hi, my dad is an alcoholic who has been struggling for many years. I don't live at home anymore but I am currently back. Whenever I speak to him his words are jumbled and he sounds...not quite drunk (although it's definitely a strong possibility) but more like he has some sort of mental disability or something. He lies about his drinking all the time but yesterday he told me that it's not his drinking that makes his speech this way it's the medication he's on, and I kind of believe him. Are there any medications that can do this to someone? Is he lying and he's drinking? Or has he just completely fried his mind with years of alcohol abuse? Any help would be greatly appreciated. I hate to see him like this.",4.158856143856145,6.2518554350649405,4.814415584415585,81.64492007992008,72.57142857142857,8.634565434565435,29.37862137862138,9.265573868473778,2.5889236763236756,643,27,126,15,13,206,98,154,0.145,0.722,0.133,-0.4851,1,0,7,0,1,0,17.0,0,1,0,2,5,7,1,1,4,0,15,10,0,1,1,20,20,10,0,1,7,1,0,2,0,1,6,3,1,0,11,5,7,0,1,4,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,4,16,5,13,15,3,11,0,0,1,0,23,3,0,4,9,77,27,0,0.0,0.1560490236796572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4222581388075313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26869198193386873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13061608300983868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10127310310434284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1483865624047172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380903063841398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.387062613598151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14520535330240972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13003153322208108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08827916178530919,0.0,0.1321109680639158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13715060905078527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12868893217584654,0.0,0.11629802873770015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08791418639733632,0.1335283138057947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3980371392545497,0.13272777768256633,0.0,0.13298462037664865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14847772713904756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14008460079388604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1049519240532544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1115933158140021,0.10139303139688002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13768678154822142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104559149025427,0.07679831120117782,0.0,0.0,0.12584988066218125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10454138923815663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09355953428276334,0.0,0.0,0.1696275507724417 alcoholism,anon9742969,2019/08/18,I don’t even really like drinking. But I still keep doing it. I’m going to die from this.,-1.8471666666666664,0.046589950000001316,1.7600000000000016,94.31833333333331,99.5,4.666666666666667,11.666666666666668,6.42735559955562,-0.7603333333333331,69,1,16,1,3,25,18,20,0.188,0.677,0.135,-0.2748,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,5,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,11,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4701510960771666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4437756733208693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2992077106586805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25745505727206663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40265459276792537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22131697373607875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2902087178241618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3617730146812117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,depresso_excesso,2019/08/18,"How can I quit? (18f) I always get aggressive when drunk. The last two times I ended at the hospital, the first time because I got drugged and the second time, a week ago, because I got an anxiety attack. My boyfriend is the one that takes all my shit. I know I hurt him, and I know I shouldn’t. I want to be good. Last time I was drunk I called the police because he didn’t leave my apartment and I went for a walk in shapewear shorts, socks and a T-shirt. I’m embarrassed. I have bad temper but it’s way worse when I’m drunk, sadly. I need to know how to quit drinking all together, because it’s turning me into a demon.",-0.1141889312977078,2.0850902671755733,1.745109732824428,97.13384780534348,89.07633587786259,4.8017175572519095,19.63788167938932,6.322622252153567,-0.028187404580152894,479,15,110,5,16,157,81,131,0.249,0.726,0.025,-0.97,0,0,2,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,3,4,9,4,1,11,0,7,6,1,2,2,16,20,9,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,5,4,0,3,4,0,2,2,8,0,4,5,0,20,1,7,13,2,20,1,2,0,0,3,5,1,0,12,63,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13320674003191665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1250380406538941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11495739160027163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17095568190781366,0.0,0.0,0.12547054070685482,0.3664167825113854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15344414356323102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14720899602737622,0.174267391752675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330960680996672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1278209783406316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07851072851384516,0.0,0.0,0.12604072019140833,0.2403719126372401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16086889624960538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2477560865649833,0.244982882579632,0.0,0.15911596691143146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1114245153386818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10182795082925583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3196647681892613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15425167673330434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11298557008444865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35049840179896097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16345239033198394,0.1467935548010215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08863410537433854,0.11927863151128455,0.12053884359227927,0.0,0.0,0.13930331374145308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15313963697649427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,mymatrix8,2019/08/18,"Am I an alcoholic? I never drink on days that I have work or responsibilities the next day. However, whenever I don't have work or responsibilities the next day, I drink. It is like my reward to myself - I get to drink whenever I don't have responsibilities the next day. I work 4 days a week, so that means I usually drink 3 days a week. I don't just ""have a beer""; I drink to get drunk. I often get too drunk by accident; usually whenever I drink liquor. However, I don't have daily craving for alcohol and I have no problem saying no or cutting myself off if I know I have something to do the next day.",3.362601626016257,4.454192739837404,5.9530081300813045,76.72430894308944,72.82113821138209,9.694308943089432,27.487804878048767,9.994966539143718,2.6158390243902443,469,17,99,13,9,169,56,123,0.149,0.795,0.055999999999999994,-0.8074,2,0,10,0,0,1,17.0,0,0,0,4,4,4,1,0,8,0,14,12,0,0,1,11,19,6,0,2,5,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,1,12,0,2,10,0,0,7,2,0,0,0,1,20,2,8,19,0,18,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,5,17,65,23,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2173466151491221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4590614227910842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5976918466550363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15938299823383656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05588494245718188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049679511023571175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1107677991199993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07842788188992654,0.0,0.4325844146216067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0973014686288676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08086620111564585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07828421816588849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22398943837817853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16313560077749115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22208973659793427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Waspyy,2019/08/18,"Cutting down on drinking Hey all, I don't know if this is the correct subreddit (and if it isn't, please help me find the correct one) but I consider my frequency of drinking to be quite high. I drink most days, and as a result have gained about 15 pounds due to it. I want to reduce this weight back down to a healthy one and I feel like drinking less will help immensely. However, drinking is a large part of my family and friends culture so I don't want to eliminate completely. I want to cut down to drinking mostly on weekends or in a social setting during weekdays. I was wondering if any of you can give some advice on how to reduce drinking frequency without relapsing into drinking on a regular basis? If so, please share your tips. Once again, sorry if this is the wrong subreddit.",3.725595776772245,5.7426736862745145,4.733333333333333,82.0892307692308,73.57516339869281,8.106385118149825,30.72347913524384,8.841846274778883,2.737455907491202,626,29,115,13,13,204,93,153,0.114,0.75,0.136,0.679,1,0,8,0,0,0,16.0,0,2,0,2,6,6,2,0,8,0,11,9,0,2,3,28,18,15,0,8,8,0,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,5,5,9,0,4,9,0,0,4,3,0,2,1,2,13,3,23,15,6,16,0,0,0,0,10,10,0,10,6,84,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10149109881079674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07062857643659431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07986217212841845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1088955653541468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06698131170324949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8139485575566867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09791026264135427,0.0,0.05251489644865415,0.07419783053902325,0.0,0.0,0.09492644728223537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08024222254425888,0.0,0.0,0.0996322790105494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1392307611348098,0.1097341262347993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05707891351964749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050740904235258434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11060784696016362,0.1407568761643691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11247060116919247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280148767126267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11046823053911503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10587251277586186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11626312064964822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1837785160044341,0.0,0.0,0.1264738848179249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10011763840902996,0.1126320823727198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11355495133608025,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,yeezyfishstick,2019/08/18,"What do people do for cravings? Hey, new to reddit and sobriety.. sober only 5 days today and i was wondering what some of you do/did to fight cravings of wanting to drink?",1.382941176470588,3.89186994117647,3.3426470588235304,86.23691176470591,84.88235294117645,5.752941176470588,23.20588235294117,7.1686216300943375,1.1873764705882357,134,5,25,2,4,45,26,34,0.09,0.91,0.0,-0.4515,0,0,1,0,1,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,5,5,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,6,4,1,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,3,16,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2680222598349575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4071216400483757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4013810451572024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3160762084998291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.288118950861889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3939323294756352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2451267471283522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4506914612421502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,MinaT_Dot,2019/04/21,"One reason why I'm drinking I don't see my drinking as a positive thing. But I think that it has helped me a lot. It has made me more passive. I don't care about anything anymore. I can just always be drunk and I'm okay. &#x200B; The main point is that I just don't feel bad anymore. I would be in a worse place without drinking.",-0.30400625978090545,1.897729647887328,1.4472300469483592,98.73763693270736,90.54929577464789,3.718935837245697,21.973395931142417,5.033348758259628,-0.17400594679186246,259,10,59,1,9,84,48,71,0.122,0.726,0.152,0.262,0,0,3,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,4,1,10,4,0,2,0,11,17,3,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,4,0,3,4,0,0,4,1,0,1,1,2,9,2,4,13,3,3,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,1,0,40,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15090784613995634,0.1965058251088599,0.2203748760621144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3597250594617641,0.0,0.0,0.14924560501831033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15142982849913594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1849108097647635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5329976159273307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09170215766239484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12156323322015025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15418762326871813,0.0,0.17160926140071436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12289569363153492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18948485673448912,0.0,0.17144586308539286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1864705067996481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14452216086528824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12048896068241707,0.11620954935315275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16365114075458306,0.0,0.0,0.17482665077990067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18482353573298613,0.12883447527111527,0.0,0.2203748760621144,0.0 alcoholism,ipathrowaway,2019/04/21,"Antabuse + Alcohol Took one 250mg antabuse yesterday (first time taking it in a few months) and managed to stay sober by binge watching Game of Thrones all day. Woke up today feeling great, took another 250mg, and went back to my binge watching. Then the insatiable urge hit. Went out and bought a 6 pack of IPA. 3 beers deep already, feeling okay, but unsure what will happen next. I'm 29, 6'0, 250lbs if it matters. So far only feeling some redness in my face.",4.0846709470304985,5.7879050112359565,4.0854253611557,88.41764044943821,71.92134831460675,6.8834670947030485,30.69181380417336,7.447530270364453,1.8435252006420544,362,16,71,4,7,111,72,89,0.028999999999999998,0.861,0.109,0.4404,0,0,2,0,2,0,16.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,3,1,1,3,1,0,1,12,14,7,0,1,2,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,4,2,0,3,2,1,4,0,0,0,2,6,6,2,2,9,6,3,20,0,0,3,0,1,6,0,2,9,31,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2199445819095487,0.0,0.0,0.2271126143705984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21580608257636447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15825251148885625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13272818053098287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3121858834573117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17505892219957853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.226902416706412,0.0,0.0,0.1819940274298265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1642728020914238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2188775706243624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13945982540093518,0.15652513373011331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2193623686754208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15474089136118865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1200074378403043,0.0,0.19508051822199132,0.0,0.4573172363675844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38156941495818014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,AdministrativeDelay2,2019/04/21,"I can't stop relapsing I have relapsed again and I feel so much shame and embarrassment. I am going to have to tell my wife, but am so afraid of what she will do and say. However, I don't believe I can get out of the loop I am in without being radically honest with myself and with my loved ones. I tend to hide my feelings and always put on a ""game face."" I am a people pleaser and find it so hard to admit that I have vulnerabilities. AA has always been so hard for me. I feel judged and critiqued by everyone in the room (although I know this is not the case, it is how I feel.) It reminds me of elementary, middle school and high school - being on the outskirts of a clique I don't belong to and that doesn't want me. Many people say they feel so safe in an AA meeting. I have always felt threatened, which is why I always find every excuse I can not to go. I then end up white knuckling it through periods of sobriety and then I always end up coming back to drinking and using, which I know is a one way ticket to an unknown destination. My post here is to attempt to begin to express how I am feeling. That I feel alone and isolated and unbelievably stressed out by my career at all times. It has always been and continues to be my higher power and I know this is ultimately one of the reasons I always relapse. As long as there is something more important that sobriety, I will always fail. I have always had one god and that is success and making money and everything has come at a cost to that goal. I work with and work for crazy people and it chips away at my soul every day until I can no longer hang on without using. I can't continue to do this or it will kill me. I wake up in the morning and the first thing I do is look at my phone and there is always something pressing, something wrong, some problem to solve, some hole I have to dig myself out of. I have to find a way through this and I suppose I am just writing and reaching out for help, which I rarely do. Perhaps I'll write again on this forum in the event anyone is listening. Perhaps someone even relates to this and, god forbid, this helps someone else feel less alone.",4.4719298820445585,4.914944364678902,5.55762778505898,82.95155963302753,69.80275229357798,7.971690694626473,28.64482306684141,7.83500028581142,1.694896068152031,1677,57,343,19,28,557,200,436,0.133,0.768,0.099,-0.9363,2,2,4,0,0,1,40.0,0,0,1,8,15,13,1,4,16,0,48,4,2,6,1,73,75,40,1,2,7,1,12,0,0,3,0,3,1,0,25,34,1,3,17,3,2,6,10,9,2,5,4,17,52,4,61,65,6,51,1,1,2,1,18,24,0,3,18,261,77,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15479403303113345,0.0,0.0,0.6218076315025018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05225246335558298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07021063628414781,0.057462218113913374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08419432951796295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12874534809013527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04819421561010279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07320626321154154,0.0,0.0,0.06242674020298996,0.0,0.13237595604433736,0.0,0.0,0.0493579971553886,0.0,0.12592531479588456,0.07140704758270726,0.06716187530653434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3022830312313368,0.0,0.07175184609314976,0.0,0.20490367616371255,0.06356470349557214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03904297435358895,0.0,0.08494076544017308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13388554702467198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1001789476954094,0.07895560724424555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08267689720082892,0.0,0.12320780505808672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06613307796039558,0.06275379004750826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06744610991221829,0.0,0.04988238731922833,0.07576377988917983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05493463317792048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20255402786150706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1554236597483917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07157001129010485,0.0,0.0,0.07150584666508514,0.0,0.07512358579692374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07683416544864477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11885547584937013,0.0,0.15126008025088394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12663578495767505,0.17259079578184292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062477040063155485,0.08560215944197759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06531670109322803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04964682564924289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043575255164004505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12908424143608818,0.0,0.0,0.04407727667911454,0.11863327825839808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06743156888669333,0.0,0.0,0.1440727548972445,0.0,0.10880763928743356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08170475717961018,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,chippednailpolishh,2019/04/21,"do I have an alcohol problem? is this just a phase, or the beginning of something bad? I’m 21 and on my third year of uni. I’ve had “problems” in the past with impulsive drug use (and I put that in quotations because I think I had a handle on it). I always said when I wanted to stop smoking everyday or casually doing coke, I could stop. After being hospitalized for a suicide attempt and told I had a substance use disorder, I stopped. I knew I could and I assessed the negatives of being high often (although I was extremely functional outwardly). It’s been a couple months since I stopped doing drugs and I was fine. Now I think it’s turning into something else. Recently I went into a depressive episode. I can’t get out of bed unless it’s for therapy or my psychiatrist (sometimes) and my thoughts are constantly telling me that I’m not good enough, smart enough, shit along those lines. I tried going out with friends to get myself out of the house, which involved drinking. when it started, I needed maybe 3 shots to get drunk. After a week, I realized I had been drinking everyday (with friends) and that I needed around 6 shots to get drunk. My roommates started to notice and said we should stay in more, but since I couldn’t go out or drink socially (which felt more acceptable), I started to sneak shots when they were upstairs. For the past week I’ve been getting drunk by myself every night to cope. So, basically, I’ve been drinking every day for 2 weeks. I’ve never had a problem with alcohol and I don’t know if this is one since it hasn’t been long and I only drink at night. I woke up this morning and immediately wanted to drink, and now I’m scared. Will this go away? Will I be able to drink normally and in moderation once the depression passes? I’m scared if I admit this may be a problem, I will never be able to drink again. Blunt advice needed.",3.416176626123743,5.341094885245906,4.586647276573242,83.20718931782129,74.19125683060109,7.673400317292438,28.19989423585405,8.460557738077197,2.124284611316764,1472,60,283,27,31,483,181,366,0.151,0.8290000000000001,0.021,-0.9902,0,0,14,0,0,1,47.0,1,0,1,1,10,17,1,2,16,0,36,17,1,2,2,69,72,26,1,16,10,0,1,0,2,5,4,2,1,0,17,26,14,4,9,12,0,6,8,10,0,2,21,3,40,7,44,38,4,58,0,2,0,0,11,18,1,8,33,193,57,0,0.13891542814000907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06787327431583491,0.0,0.14845834580227918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0577943822477074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061832091412831074,0.0,0.0,0.0652578087769009,0.0,0.057994289997798876,0.04234077781388075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07505911360469042,0.0,0.11091266571853158,0.07685363951162437,0.0,0.04479447948183474,0.0,0.11964765470221896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07960455785836769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5443369356854976,0.1610977939128704,0.0,0.058023007486285715,0.0,0.0,0.1435367717032686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11704223958124504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06669029793130615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10732571518635232,0.0,0.18144394420074575,0.0,0.11842325867889734,0.05825783516299625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07338588840808433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08014487646558402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03817214317672475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061467891245158474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06977960953461973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05544048470543207,0.0,0.0,0.15450604466222714,0.10714014204607276,0.0,0.0,0.13036271892021906,0.0680538125195435,0.0,0.07907806783132933,0.0,0.07397019862999489,0.04706634463360398,0.052825721434705465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13261049476797168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2658466075832494,0.0,0.06982418698970863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06858111320306845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321403834741042,0.0,0.13907857756052572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07129734535868824,0.17236841650476067,0.0,0.0,0.07080339247818218,0.0,0.10694388337594944,0.06869545524438449,0.0,0.14748758254692473,0.07403268155570067,0.0,0.23227903629232374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0759754657494118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06070910356985671,0.0,0.07943094933885457,0.0,0.0,0.08901139719297398,0.0,0.05514166646963405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06636982233883389,0.0,0.04715722852943812,0.07555004762347864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1199783279225098,0.0,0.0,0.08193591869161404,0.0,0.16714436580669131,0.0,0.0,0.06438799680995415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04472849060047473 alcoholism,Plato1776,2019/04/21,"What is the best way to deal with drinking at night? Me: 26 year old male/works out 3-4 times a week Scenario: I have a problem with craving that week day night buzz from liquor. I am an introvert in a financial sales job, so my day job beats me down mentally to the core. In addition, my living situation is terrible lol. I have tried to limit to just Tuesdays, but somehow I always end up caving on Wednesday or Thursday then here comes the weekend :) I need to do something about my drinking because I am trying to get in decent shape, wasting money, and sick of feeling disgusting, bloated, and having mild insomnia. In addition, I live with an extroverted aggressive alcoholic roommate that literally has no shame in his drinking habits lol. My lease ends in a couple of months and I was planning on quitting alcohol as soon as I moved in to a place by myself, but I'm scared something bad might happen till then.",5.445,6.658073097701156,6.0695977011494255,77.37267241379313,68.02298850574712,9.018390804597699,34.04022988505747,9.2995712137729,3.2163540229885053,725,34,129,14,12,236,120,174,0.17800000000000002,0.7490000000000001,0.073,-0.9682,2,0,7,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,5,6,8,2,2,10,2,11,8,0,0,0,20,17,12,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,3,10,6,1,1,5,2,2,1,7,0,0,1,1,17,1,31,15,1,38,0,0,0,0,2,15,0,3,20,87,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28701984103057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11173595068403562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11212243950244433,0.08185894333913672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409239152681261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11567471301564808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14858389588029822,0.0,0.17320554544028807,0.13844202943072498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39464479052157264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23787346032697626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06789857537746695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07015841613891691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11874785995615884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26651445889374104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2371523860835149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1353277846522051,0.14245525761675248,0.0,0.0,0.10718507619641388,0.14272379708143346,0.0,0.0995706913333481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25203491699029634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14090961081647058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1402993359789964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284926937497392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14282872071183006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344427994480828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15094206539052868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2067584428472433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07830271478470728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18234152028054987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10658925250672567,0.21543079550356256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09776114349135401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08647519405061636 alcoholism,ckarnold5220,2019/04/21,"On a Weekday? Did I just hear that correctly? “You CAN enjoy Michelob Ultra on a WEEKDAY.” Just say it, “Easier to hide your shame with our new mini cans while you destroy your life during the week.” Thanks Michelob.",2.234250000000003,5.0491639250000055,3.7550000000000026,82.39,84.75,7.2,23.0,8.238735603445708,1.97235,167,6,29,4,5,55,33,40,0.171,0.638,0.191,0.2406,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,1,4,0,0,2,4,1,1,3,0,3,1,0,0,1,4,5,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,6,2,4,4,0,5,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,0,3,21,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5130782864665422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32154303302847564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4396648202277976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3620178670767813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4191154317256863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3651587525009271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,PineAssist,2019/04/21,"Just realized I never seem to get hangovers anymore. Alcoholism? I used to get the worst hangovers, headaches, vomiting etc. I started dating this girl who I’d drink with more frequently. Probably about once a week. 2 years late we broke up and I’ve been coping by going out with friends and keeping busy. That being said, my different friend groups will usually go out on thurs/fri/sat so in some cases I’ll end up drinking all three nights if thats where things go. The interesting thing I’ve noticed however, is that I can get absolutely trashed and wake up feeling fine the next day (aside from feeling a little dehydrated). I was wondering if this is a bad sign? I don’t consider myself an alcoholic nor do I really get the craving to drink... but perhaps I’m blind to my own behaviour.",3.9974936321956207,6.144835993377487,4.959867549668875,80.19107997962303,73.17218543046356,8.884564442180338,30.820682628629648,9.466822959209583,3.096297605705553,629,29,116,16,13,205,111,151,0.075,0.855,0.07,-0.5733,2,0,5,0,0,0,21.0,1,0,0,0,4,7,0,0,8,0,9,8,1,1,2,23,25,8,0,2,4,0,2,0,2,1,4,1,0,1,8,8,5,1,5,3,0,3,3,3,0,1,3,4,11,4,16,20,6,24,0,1,1,0,7,9,0,5,12,70,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3118489971092596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14469523763824074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12182178830123735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09409449786707114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1524361767571501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42878423211668615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12922556115898612,0.0,0.1627189136106215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14754452208309402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2254465147380361,0.0,0.3049103732081721,0.0,0.2487578199383224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1296840954772337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16458342280426955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1462317888812506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11252835152733613,0.0,0.1551680661926668,0.13691882034658398,0.0,0.0,0.16611000219133154,0.0,0.1553805017432876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15730666196956114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0934683367496712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13878588583667129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13282338778403585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10326994294768596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19386115412490576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12601218555712262,0.16069006106530898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11703350765405893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15822412199893535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09395588278038623 alcoholism,BasedBlackPilled,2019/04/21,"I think I got a serious problem, but I'm unable to evaluate the situation correctly. So I'm 24 years old right now friends and I struggle with existential crisis and crippling depression. I grew up in a religious and conservative family so alcohol was a strict taboo in our family. Until I got in touch with alcohol when I was 16 years old. I think I got a serious problem with alcohol. I'm a pretty heavy drinker and I did the most idiotic things under the influence of alcohol. Fights, Unprotected Sex, Broken Bones etc. Yesterday after a very long abstinence phase I got drunk again the first time in months. As usual I couldn't stop when it was nice and made a fool outta myself after getting extremely drunk. I got bruises all over my body because of the couple times I fell. I enjoy drinking an I think it‘s somehow essential to consume drugs if you want to have fun in this fucked up world - but since a decade Alcohol took so much from me and I think it‘s time to get rid of my proclivity for it. I don‘t know where to start but I know that I can‘t keep being involved in this behavior any longer. Any advice is very welcome.",2.708540798094102,5.282475958904115,4.395624379591027,80.50742108397857,79.36529680365297,8.374905697836013,26.41671629938456,9.085049710711278,2.623655787174906,901,37,167,25,23,302,133,219,0.218,0.665,0.11699999999999999,-0.9775,0,0,8,0,1,0,17.0,1,1,0,1,9,15,3,1,14,0,10,13,2,2,2,33,32,17,0,5,4,0,1,0,1,0,6,0,0,0,8,9,8,4,6,3,0,3,3,10,0,1,11,1,25,5,27,19,4,37,0,1,0,2,6,13,1,3,21,108,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09898171253787087,0.0,0.5412535882558986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13776454352590606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06174687666756117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1125129666147291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11207805915227538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08724295301016959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09922794103215472,0.11746696831928695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11296774616593484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19097882641591807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08615922154035888,0.0,0.0,0.07825821868460016,0.09364314578002056,0.10584214483623756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4050637294020853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09003329517481923,0.0,0.0,0.11133525355771813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08964054265638892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09584527113436496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08085058773705045,0.0,0.07446153242175517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2125785651620753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10305073565636977,0.0,0.1938461990836523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08650311382508137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0837900790115155,0.1138568458794159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0716952469913937,0.0,0.0,0.08468494054034666,0.0,0.10589275760865698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06729413675604826,0.2596161926283759,0.0,0.0,0.17719315234191224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11253952836947784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11155921353588406,0.167153594614768,0.059744852684730385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13045790536839194 alcoholism,sowhoaskedyou,2019/04/21,"I’m so confused I guess. I’m sorry if this is long. So I’ve rejoined this group. I initially couldn’t handle the messages. So I’m as some that post here are, drunk. But not falling down, messed up drunk... just I’m going to check all of my social media drunk. Ya feel me? I’m an alcoholic. I admit that. I’ve been to AA (and all m not up for it) but I know better and I lie to my AA friends on social media. I know that. It isn’t a question. My kids hate it. I know that too. But here is the thing... my hard drinking husband , can’t admit my alcoholism. He can’t see it. He thinks I should just control it like he does. And I try but can t make him understand. Cut to today. I told my kids (yesterday)... who don’t mind drinking but want to micromanage mine that I wanted a few drinks while we spent several hours in the Texas heat. My husband didn’t mind. My husband completely through me under the bus. For full disclosure... he doesn’t give two shits if I’m a drunk, just handle my shit and if I can be his drinking BFF then life is good. But... no argument... I wasn’t aggressive... my daughter lost her shit over the fact that I drank more than she expected. My husband and I were talking. We were hanging out. Next thing I know... I have an impromptu intervention after hours working in our yard. And my husband was conducting it. I have a felony DWI. I’m incredibly and honestly so sorry. I understand the ramifications of this and please do not beat me up for it. I also understand legal ramifications. So my son told me how I felt. My daughter, who I fought with prior to this incident, gave her two cents... but it didn’t stop there. He attacked me. (Remember , we were good...)I should have known better blah blah blah. Right or wrong, I am a victim of his ex wife attacking me, because we are together. And I was previously diagnosed with PTSD. But he basically just said he was leaving me. I guess the kicker is this... I’m a black out drinker. And as a black out drinker, I’m mean as fuck. Like hate. But I’m blacked out so I don’t remember. But he, as a heavy drinker, does remember. But I am held accountable no matter what. And I still accept that. And I have not blacked out in a good bit. But my hubs, is all on board with me sober. Ok. I can accept. I asked for this one day, (which he is fine with because he wants a drinking buddy and we worked out doors all day! ) . I don’t want to ruin Easter. I told my kids as much. But I have. And he loves me “but he is leaving me” and this is a narc game he is playing. Which is rare for him but it’s still a narc game. Because you “(I)” caused this (not I want you to drink but control it) thing. And we fought about the reasons I drink including some of his abuse while I black out... but I am wrong no matter what. He isn’t normally that way... maybe because we are always so YES together. He doesn’t see how his drinking is an issue for me. And on top of that... my severely narcissistic ex husband wants to play games. During this... my husband got more beer and is playing his music so loud on the porch. And I’m not invited and I have to beg him to put together Easter baskets with my already pissed off daughter/. We do not have shares biological kids. And that’s only a small 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alcoholism,GrumpyStumpySteve,2019/04/21,venting I acknowledged I had a problem with substance abuse and I stopped drinking and my GPA rose and i did super well and then i started drinking socially againa nd then i started drinking on my own again and then i started drinking during exams to cope with stress but now exams are done and im blackout drunk again for no reason other than that i want to be somewhere else but here mentally. im so fucking sad and i can't talk to anyone because i talked about how i was getting over a problem everyone saw and tried to help me with and i kept saying how better off i was now that i was sober but now i can't talk to my closest friends because i maintained sobriety for months and i benefited so much and was so happy. but I've voluntarily put myself back in this place but i don't understand why I've done it but i can't stop myself from wanting to not feel it. im drinking as i type this post and i'm already drunk i don't know why i'm doing this. it feels like the world i've built for myself is collapsing in front of me and i'm disapointing people i care about. they've already dealt with this once and it's come back and i can't imagine how much respect the people i love will have lost for me if i tell them i have a problem and i need help. i need help so 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alcoholism,latte_no_,2019/04/21,"Is it normal to have to drink a 750ml > or more to get drunk I either have to chug it or drink on an empty stomach. I'm transitioning to only tipsy, and it just makes my life so boring. Imma have to stock up on edibles or move on to heroin",3.932767295597487,3.1593930943396233,6.216981132075473,81.9561635220126,70.88679245283019,8.576100628930817,23.32704402515723,7.793537801064563,0.9518855345911952,186,3,42,2,3,67,37,53,0.188,0.812,0.0,-0.8643,0,0,2,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,4,5,1,1,0,8,7,5,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,3,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,11,7,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,3,0,30,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7049585767445853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879871914281925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2541462243943461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24017765165509306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3824237666680046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3525398749978553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2736536358769678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,tabrown223,2019/09/29,"Just need some support This is just a confession because I can’t really talk to anyone else. I got wasted last night, booze and blow. I’ve been hungover all day and feel like shit physically and emotionally. I got kicked out of a gay bar because I kept trying to kiss random people to prove a point to my lesbian friend. I called out of my job this morning. I admitted my embarrassing feelings about a girl from work to other coworkers. The same people I was with last night worked a shift this morning and knew exactly why I called out, because I’m an asshole who couldn’t handle my shit and lost control. I just bailed on a concert tonight with a friend and now there’s an extra ticket that’s going to waste. I really hate myself right now. I know eventually this will all be fine but right now I feel completely fucking awful. I just need to get this out. What do you guys do to get over this kind of feeling? I can’t just keep apologizing pathetically to everybody.",4.493187969924811,5.9098436421052645,5.3533834586466185,80.85368421052634,70.47368421052632,8.375939849624057,27.781954887218053,8.841846274778883,2.0986691729323312,772,27,149,14,14,252,114,190,0.135,0.79,0.075,-0.9176,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,4,10,13,4,1,10,1,10,8,2,1,4,39,31,7,0,3,6,0,4,1,2,1,0,1,0,2,10,12,2,3,9,3,0,1,3,6,0,0,7,5,20,7,22,21,5,19,1,1,0,4,12,9,3,2,10,93,30,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0922494296298271,0.13517920354112878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2412722802665068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26943320777902513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13832745362490292,0.0,0.1479721666673677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08508477143429957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11021166864776936,0.1484049503901783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668337091411651,0.0942517441327954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.203859583843511,0.12196835712201567,0.13785731366043708,0.0,0.07497959580253624,0.0,0.2110350189257737,0.0,0.0,0.13063272512306598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.130254840854045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13092145382104728,0.1172665976488065,0.0,0.13738614251694256,0.07250598991034317,0.2150832295439892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06445496705638866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14401859429128952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19565076838890907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24761716781146456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1829290977179996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12471771856340913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1690371328603055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253372116303883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2708511586199523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14971407110009807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10604137815405652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08957268970006417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11904747392502052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19209510937939825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,natgberry,2019/09/29,"Time to stop? I feel like I'm torn between thinking I'm a kid that's overreacting and someone with an actual problem. I'm 15 and my drinking been problematic for months. I want to stop but I have no replacement. I dont know how to have fun without alcohol or another drug. Theres been a few red flags lately that are worse than usual, I'd just love to hear some input from someone whos been where I am. First red flag: Alcohol withdrawal got so bad one morning that I walked in to my first class already with sweat through my shirt, hyperventilating and hands shaking so bad I couldn't write, I was in complete panic. I got out of my chair within 30 seconds and asked to go to the bathroom. My teacher obviously saw I was distressed and forced me to go with her to the counselor. Unfortunately this was my second run in with the counselor, my first being sad and drunk and telling him everything. But this time, he called my dad and tried to convince him I should be institutionalized. (My parents have never mentioned drinking to me, despite being my being drunk in front of them often, waking up soaked in piss,,) My dad told me ""If you keep acting the way you do at school, and your counselor calls CPS, there is nothing me or your mother can do to save you."" Second red flag: The fact that I'm still fucking drunk while writing this. Though my number of days drinking have gone down, my binges continue to get worse and worse. Last night I started drinking at 10, I blacked out worse than I ever had before. I am so disgusted with myself. My mother came downstairs in the morning, maybe 7 or 8 to where I was sitting and said ""Did you sleep at all last night?"" I realized I hadn't. I realized that until just then, I had 0 memory. Still through slurred words I managed to talk to her. I wonder if she knows, or knows how bad it is. I passed out woke up at 2 pm and after some composure I decided to write this. I was sober for 2 days before this and I blew it. Thanks for reading if you did, please I want to hear what you have to say, let me know if theres any information I'm leaving out.",3.3827591706539053,4.932629971291867,4.3399521531100484,86.50799840510368,73.44976076555024,7.076236044657098,26.781499202551842,7.686295010490155,1.4015269537480064,1640,59,338,21,33,531,214,418,0.18,0.752,0.069,-0.9948,1,0,7,0,0,0,50.0,0,8,1,3,17,17,3,3,9,0,34,18,6,2,5,70,68,32,0,9,13,5,2,1,0,1,3,4,0,1,13,23,9,3,11,8,0,10,6,11,0,7,21,11,61,6,57,40,4,58,0,1,5,2,38,20,2,12,27,229,74,4,0.0,0.0,0.08562883384150959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1875506336831957,0.0,0.0,0.09683147084789304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05967126130428541,0.09201083106591416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08203200190312852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21979631620536094,0.0,0.0,0.14933319984432736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1791998733114684,0.10035968359781844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09200151076184583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11317966621446796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10283933430767607,0.3438363019380237,0.10175916069266834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0793725739593686,0.0,0.0,0.07886173198695891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04436773706133378,0.06268678143725355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2239137570840258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0811210849785037,0.045844410469385435,0.0,0.09973777307939986,0.0,0.14035927110661822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19779546152179756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07799394742598978,0.0,0.0,0.19289477066854105,0.1430517336872416,0.0989829229108447,0.09291185851159738,0.0,0.0897276921200097,0.0,0.042868961944262936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07919548135283891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08815408736814155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07003916136891017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06767622737899334,0.0,0.0,0.1646900375322385,0.0,0.08419602552873474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05945992940633036,0.0,0.0,0.10295270272131148,0.09743313667075104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09632032794684801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08396243984351469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08777117557820997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08346789977275983,0.06978027816253933,0.0,0.08880508364773536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08781080002195189,0.0,0.1486962251680709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062108082500839525,0.0,0.14015042169629952,0.14672156089482208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07052806032196808,0.07669512133746663,0.08078604419220085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056225009979575684,0.08621140433661086,0.0,0.10233246401542136,0.0,0.0,0.08384642958145037,0.0,0.05957474499425286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09664139714655264,0.0,0.10351141519853232,0.06964982553009412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08458539112757545,0.09515834464739556,0.0,0.0,0.35768851007133456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,IncognitoCoffeeCup,2019/09/29,"Help me save him Sorry for the rambling and poor format I am on myibile... I have been with my boyfriend for almost 5 years now. He always had a few beers before going to bed. In the last year and a half to two years, all of sudden stopped putting his beverage (beer/wine) down to fallow me into bed at night. He used to drop everything and come to bed with me, once the sand man took me he would leave and do whatever. That all stopped a what feels like a long time ago. He would stay up and drink with so many lame reasons as to why he stopped coming to bed with me. We had a big fight around early May. To which I told him I felt like a nanny because, of his lack of showing me affection like he did before I went to sleep. (I am on disability and help get his kids 7&8 ready for school and off the bus. I am basically a live in Nanny & maid) He was super defensive and yelled at me ""You knew I was like this. I have always had a few beers before going to bed. I just dropped it because, I knew it wasn't a fight I was going to win. Sometimes he will come to bed and take my clothes off and drunk fuck me while I am half a sleep. (I know it unhealthy in so many ways.) He said one night when he must have realized his fuck up because he questioned ""Why does it feel like he is raping me?"" Which he basically is. I had hoped after that epiphany he would stop. It's awful I feel like I am getting fucked my a high school virgin. He is way to wasted to notice my displeasure. Flash forward to the past few months. He now is drinking so heavy that he is passing out on the couch in the garage with a lite cigarette in hand. The throw rug under his seat has many cigarette burns from his body just shutting down. I wake up to find his barley smoked cigarette on the rug from where he has passed out and dropped it. He has been cranky and rude to everyone lately due to his lack of sleep. I have no idea what time he passes out. Because, I go to bed around 10-11 pm. He gets up at 6:45a.m. for work. Will come home and nap or just crack open a beer around 4:30. I am scared he is going to Richard Pryor himself or burn down or catch the whole garage on fire with two vehicle inside. If it would happen I would not have a way to get up stairs to save his children from an fire filled explosion. I have sat down and wrote him and intervention/ultimatum letter. I have rewrote it over and over. Asking begging him to get help that if he doesn't I am going to leave him. I can't watch him destory himself any longer. I know I am facing a Catch 22 because if he chooses not to get help, me leaving will just push him further down this self destructive road. I plan on writing it and then making him sit an listen. What should I say to get him to fully listen. He is 42, has been drinking since high school. He has had issues with it before and alcoholism runs in his family.",2.8392598838298646,4.025706499156834,3.7172928611579534,91.88248978827058,74.22765598650929,6.7550908750234235,23.29582162263444,7.123485893559443,0.5958286602960463,2226,60,501,22,45,712,262,593,0.122,0.7929999999999999,0.085,-0.9611,0,0,13,0,2,0,69.0,1,1,0,4,15,22,9,1,27,1,54,20,7,4,3,90,96,31,0,13,12,0,8,6,0,11,1,5,12,4,21,38,8,5,14,9,1,23,6,11,0,5,22,14,67,11,84,63,8,103,0,1,1,5,69,47,3,10,33,306,88,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057099577999688914,0.06883952321522457,0.06450182872800958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1071960676094112,0.13958619285094365,0.0,0.043804076767629034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1720277160272976,0.06021887304247196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19633244204076009,0.0,0.21924802013416872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07155000119487911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22194959243133364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05636957319821542,0.0,0.0,0.18930509557340125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061550826273780876,0.05789160957013063,0.0,0.060724268808261615,0.0,0.09770973753999078,0.13805321991052832,0.0618480326971542,0.0,0.05887369665113181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1786505340863243,0.23557746596457566,0.0,0.2196495083113972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05696153989117135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17270275735034246,0.1361149362519879,0.06461300719061132,0.06397814429411575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07271614305486558,0.0,0.06723201471316465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07080106199994256,0.05250642425860985,0.07266237480318789,0.204617001245094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18881806004193188,0.0,0.056879193886819925,0.057004815775025613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04299718669156702,0.1959186135683281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05141504862280772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1208973111886909,0.0,0.0,0.07333634841304187,0.0,0.0685993526104092,0.04364894013268737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061490939992826274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0647543755830861,0.07215899496513019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06622884616455912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06127295132298734,0.05122500504742742,0.0644901633315332,0.1955727740507011,0.0,0.0,0.0671983839000448,0.0,0.0,0.0532843496511994,0.0,0.19338309302231527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06370759906451316,0.07210677206206029,0.0,0.06865729876077796,0.0,0.21541366401254794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048431696251484836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07512123946389965,0.0,0.0,0.061550826273780876,0.07156689252430712,0.0,0.0,0.12584723611138934,0.0,0.0,0.05563345627833772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15338772321977565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05971289761080707,0.11624815539687634,0.07191650184612093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04689453163067693,0.0,0.0,0.22879110455226398,0.0,0.0,0.1244425007068641 alcoholism,dsutton3809,2019/09/29,"Problematic manic drinking I don’t have a dependency on alcoholism but when I enter manic episodes I go crazy on it . I’ve tried quitting altogether but I enter the same cycle : give up; decide to drink a little; convince myself I can drink sensibly ; absolutely ruin my life . I’m in my third change of medication, I have made steps to have a healthier life but I just can’t seem to quit quit . What tips do people have ? Last night I ended I turning up at my parents and confronting them over deep and buried issues .",2.9309090909090902,5.442695070707071,4.719484848484849,78.8592272727273,78.0909090909091,7.192323232323233,25.051515151515154,8.238735603445708,1.8978557575757569,408,15,73,8,10,138,68,99,0.136,0.8420000000000001,0.022000000000000002,-0.8892,1,0,4,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,3,2,3,1,0,4,0,8,7,0,2,0,11,14,6,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,2,4,0,2,3,0,4,2,2,0,1,1,0,14,1,11,13,1,17,0,1,0,0,3,9,0,2,4,48,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18106040867649384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17922582851380356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4979066729137708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.150057451726854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16252485441543987,0.09628632865481794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17683237029476462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13810140149696348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2393352937248922,0.0,0.16980517944110995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16031102922769722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1706746666988479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15899090776149133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881228892464094,0.0,0.0,0.11745576269703514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5406029029206461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15423526833115395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11502629944378374,0.18428229715631933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Memphis1370,2019/09/29,"Slow motion train wreck The first time I drank alcohol just for the effect was in 1999. Twenty years ago. At the time, I was 30 years old on a business trip and extremely stressed. I had two beers and suddenly my stress was gone. A miracle. Over the next twenty years, my drinking increased, but very slowly. To this day, I've never had a DUI, never missed work, never been arrested, never needed to drink in the morning. Now, I have a very finite time I like to drink: roughly between 4 p.m. and whenever I have dinner, which is usually between 6 p.m. or 7 p.m. In the span of those 2-3 hours I'll drink anywhere from 6-10 drinks. Once I have dinner, I stop drinking, watch some television or a movie and go to bed. Not too bad, right? I titled this article ""slow motion train wreck"" because over those twenty years I've tried to stop drinking or cut back and have failed. I've been to AA meetings, read every book on addiction, tried therapy multiple times, hired a fitness coach and on and on. I don't drink every day, but at least a few times a week. I've gained about 70 pounds in the last fifteen years. My health sucks. I'm 52 but I feel like 72. Honestly, I've failed so many times in so many different ways I really don't know where to start.",3.1701599999999988,4.740113096000002,4.011400000000002,88.56670000000004,74.03999999999998,7.4,24.1,8.07648339933343,1.2252799999999997,974,29,203,15,20,312,141,250,0.11699999999999999,0.764,0.12,0.1981,1,0,10,0,0,0,45.0,0,0,0,6,8,11,2,2,15,0,14,15,0,1,4,26,24,15,0,1,8,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,1,0,5,7,13,2,3,12,0,6,7,8,1,2,9,3,15,3,26,15,4,57,0,3,1,0,1,17,1,4,35,105,20,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0926965840220132,0.0,0.0,0.07537504859508361,0.0908725176154228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06538376173262607,0.07099751935048179,0.05183424423800244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10967620860353758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0888395299391554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6663858136030267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14328494529045116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042994341191860734,0.06074632261742536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07232751474578378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04832520350952502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0903842136850424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0837386263039373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04673093633772804,0.06931179561551849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08308392081501065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1724166276497361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06304957434079124,0.2623252843829323,0.0,0.09043167019391722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08922596462408519,0.09055547725114607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08505423353919485,0.0,0.05447317872754235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07261619973909672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060185537209660335,0.0,0.0,0.14217981955207512,0.1948059570431837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09724061391089546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2974943391952143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11546123748255036,0.0,0.08306314923644981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09364987888458452,0.14031932813653925,0.0,0.0674938268466293,0.06820691799218491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06190374297556485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2737865983914602 alcoholism,billy_the_kid16,2019/09/29,Mixing alcohol and benzo is the best high you’ll never remember. I had a total bender recently. 5 days non stop probably a half a 1.5 l of dubra or some other kinda cheap ass booze. Mixed a lot of it with k pins. And yes now I feel like shit but I had the most relaxing time. That I can’t remember. Any stories of benzo mixed with alcohol from y’all?,0.05719219219218985,2.29262577027027,3.084234234234234,87.59484984984988,88.59459459459455,7.072672672672672,19.033033033033032,8.167268648758528,1.1693501501501506,273,8,58,7,9,97,58,74,0.086,0.758,0.156,0.7121,0,0,2,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,1,1,4,1,0,6,1,5,5,2,0,2,16,6,4,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,4,3,1,3,1,1,0,2,1,0,1,2,1,6,3,6,3,5,7,0,0,0,1,2,1,2,5,7,37,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4858990506865977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1545940349633809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23857164857299135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466107879526812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11494624622612652,0.16240652986761342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401894842528505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11106327663932383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19327013628748305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17533299670450306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2451031057537999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2244636205551029,0.0,0.5150472777811981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333537548128147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1900603206557909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13255952844047578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ThRoWaWaAyyy7777,2019/09/29,"Feeling guilty & wishing I could have done more... This may be lengthy, and i apologize in advance for that. I also want to say I know so many people have gone through much worse situations than me, but I am just wanting some advice with how to cope and just venting a little. I [28F] dated my ex[31M] for 4 & a half years. He has 2 children with his ex wife. We lived together for about 3 years of our relationship. My ex and I grew up very differently. I came from a pretty stable family, no past addiction, no sorted past, just pretty average. My ex grew up with an alcoholic mother and an absent father. He had struggled with addiction in his past. He had been sober for a quite a while when I met him(so I thought). Though we were so different I saw someone that had turned their life around, was extremely intelligent, hard working and a great father. He loved his family so much and his mother was several years into recovery. I loved his children. I thought I had found my person. I thought he was going to be my husband one day. Two years into our relationship, he began drinking. It eventually turned into an issue. This time last year our relationship was at its worst. He was emotionally abusive, manipulative and drinking excessively. I was miserable and felt trapped. In December, while I was at work we had argument and he told me to move in with my parents and we’d “see how things go”. I was devastated but I did it. He became the perfect boyfriend. Always calling and texting. Always coming over. He was drinking less. He began talking about us buying a house together, or renting a house together again. His mother was pressuring me to buy a house, all on my own. On Christmas Eve, he proposed while laying in bed. No ring. Not asking my dad for my hand. I still said yes. Marriage is something extremely important to me. It’s something I always tried to strive for. in that past year any time I brought up marriage he would put me down. He would then list all the things I needed to do to prove he could marry me. So the fact he actually asked was such a shock. And of course I said yes, it’s what I wanted for so Long. I thought maybe this is what we needed and we could turn it around. The next day he acted like nothing happened. I wasn’t allowed to tell anyone. Weeks went on and he wouldn’t discuss it much. He was Still pushing buying a house, but not planning a wedding. He would call me his fiancé in private, but still I couldn’t tell anyone. I was so sad. Then I got angry. I started feeling sick when I thought about our relationship. And how unhealthy the whole thing was. In February, after refusing couples counseling and telling me the reason he wanted to marry me was “I didn’t have ulterior motives.” I ended it. It was the absolute hardest thing I have ever done. I missed his kids so much. He was struggling financially and drinking even more. He was staying at a friends house during the week and then when he had his children would stay at his mothers. I would get horrible phone calls of him yelling and screaming and then begging me back and telling me how horrible his life was. When we broke up I offered him all the money I had been saving and all of my furniture. I didn’t want him to struggle. He refused saying he was a “grown ass man”. During the four months we were broken up, i got my own place, i paid off credit card debt and began online classes. I still felt so guilty because I was doing okay, and he wasn’t. In May, we began speaking again. He was telling me everything I wanted to hear. He was “sober” and he wanted to do couples counseling. We briefly tried to reconcile. His behavior was all over the place. He was still extremely impulsive. He refused to go to AA/addiction therapist, anything. I also found out that he lied to me about something major. He had NEVER been sober in the whole 4 years we were together. He said there were times he “felt sober.” He said the first 2 years we were together he was on suboxones(didn’t know that) and then he started drinking after that. I also found out he had done pills during the course of our relationship. He kept changing his story on that. I don’t know if I will ever know the truth about all of that. About a month and a half ago, he texted me while I was at work and asked if he could call when I got off. He said nothing was wrong he just needed to talk to me about something. I stupidly agreed. When I answered I could tell he was drunk. He told me “if you’re never going to be with me, never talk to me again.” I was so upset and apologized. But at the same time confused as to why he’d seek me out to tell me this. Five minutes later his mom called and said he was breaking things and freaking out. She kept asking me how she could help and asking if he ever hit me. While on the phone with her he kept texting me. We decided to block his number. You can still leave voicemails if you are blocked. He left me 8 in 2 days. We have not spoken since. My ex has a good job now and makes double an hour what I make. He still lives at his mothers and makes excuses as to why he can’t move out. He also has 2 trucks, a car and a motorcycle. But no place to live of his own. He only gets his kids every other weekend right now. They are safe at his mothers. They have their own rooms there. He has never been belligerent in front of them. If I felt any inkling that they were in danger I’d call CPS. I think they deserve so much better, but they are safe and love their father very much. His mom said she realized he needed help. I had gone to her several times in the last year. She would always say “I’ll handle it when the time is right.” And would tell me to keep my mouth shut. I hope and pray she got him help. Some days are better than others for me but I struggle with guilt so much. I want him to be happy, healthy and sober. I want the children to have a much better life. I feel guilty because I am doing okay and good things are happening to me. I think about so many things I wish I would have done differently. And maybe if did certain things I could have saved it. I also feel like I will never deserve to have children of my own. I am in therapy. I also have a great support system of friends and family. They all say I did all I could do and the only person that can make this better is him. My friends and family say it was like I’ve been brainwashed to blaming myself for everything he did. My therapist told me I’d been through hell. I just pray for his and his children’s sake he gets it together. He has so much going for him and is such a great person deep down. I myself have never struggled with addiction. I always tried to be supportive, understanding and helpful as I could be. He has always blamed his ex wife for almost every problem in his life. I’m sure it is now me that is blamed. I wonder a lot about maybe if I did more, or tried harder he would be sober.",1.9680696054955007,4.247882315367806,3.2336058727671926,89.47250158503937,80.17989803350328,6.048675640696473,22.842009567873745,7.240633033418567,0.8576872772430271,5381,178,1098,72,139,1742,440,1373,0.127,0.737,0.136,0.8685,9,1,10,0,2,0,167.0,20,2,10,13,71,55,3,10,48,4,142,22,3,13,23,230,247,110,0,45,26,21,10,3,3,14,10,17,3,12,43,81,7,11,31,7,8,22,21,22,0,7,108,29,199,33,136,105,35,174,3,4,2,4,234,61,2,20,90,754,242,8,0.0,0.03600502966051338,0.02965448463958235,0.13251042679587705,0.0,0.02969498230982384,0.026937292146392896,0.032475727720387065,0.03042937733151825,0.0,0.0,0.14580852156405996,0.1517124236971555,0.06585117067676217,0.0,0.0413300151920238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04249625049185007,0.0,0.025006886700109,0.05410385395993969,0.14204425257577638,0.0,0.0,0.023366638221136386,0.0,0.037048710581332266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10750351930266884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18617840459088372,0.034755987699112464,0.0,0.0,0.03214666999716495,0.026176730295310768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21836243438095998,0.06724789657630623,0.0,0.07839146050925194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0952475553936295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12439065366937682,0.0,0.14884426011838828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034182617558279525,0.02691491188116987,0.0,0.0,0.02007110934289861,0.08246355823222251,0.05120671234592819,0.0,0.054621881787778534,0.0,0.114589103917591,0.0,0.061460716824128875,0.021709325163491205,0.11670969095091945,0.0,0.0,0.02584817431290913,0.0,0.09995722781824268,0.07043350816591704,0.0,0.04762971671171127,0.0,0.08635152807416392,0.050976335001130295,0.09721682901248316,0.10050924246570854,0.0,0.0,0.053744342599703815,0.032348787592670916,0.02722184457065849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03424969261133313,0.0,0.08147423837806864,0.0,0.0,0.03018232400673898,0.029926240615835688,0.17531942527143568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031717369643764586,0.030155584260314488,0.027010414741899892,0.0,0.0,0.06680220618715325,0.04954085264253022,0.0,0.032176699803794034,0.033016851502914994,0.0,0.08585629392647602,0.0445383961146997,0.03045694425054548,0.08049997126715758,0.02689258712720324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.025834947871107343,0.08227956915712292,0.0,0.08113739680458218,0.061617699178501364,0.09158704769751426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07118054910536488,0.04851111808500977,0.06459566218967745,0.20104930983714425,0.09012981539009657,0.1406234481008922,0.0,0.03231817908849332,0.0,0.0,0.05831656543115035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.020591820350073675,0.046223167493226136,0.0,0.0,0.033742482819945616,0.0,0.11603584285348666,0.021067340985376454,0.07960137204654816,0.0952475553936295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061831417013712066,0.0,0.02907738866618049,0.0,0.03054851881476855,0.0,0.032321574897636186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031244114933090417,0.0,0.1631276890996559,0.0,0.05190268725240875,0.20234285677691166,0.12082952050630925,0.0,0.0,0.024215448769629076,0.0,0.0,0.06865999793268422,0.0,0.025137420339476527,0.034157592726515175,0.0,0.0,0.02574781021409213,0.09357723660759913,0.0,0.0,0.04301782696057769,0.06477952305396481,0.16987630443394133,0.0,0.0,0.1588416427289252,0.0,0.0,0.06896830357818598,0.028640504373792012,0.0,0.0,0.07327461513776239,0.2124849021620368,0.0,0.034751537468106386,0.07056604902301915,0.16150847660964932,0.038943043365176296,0.029856237098694782,0.12062412097068778,0.10631756895905058,0.0,0.0,0.08711163798081367,0.0,0.08252633049325488,0.09916085603500102,0.029684840796608426,0.03163517188502358,0.03655324449788741,0.0,0.0,0.050146869637256425,0.16131364756975494,0.0,0.04875113742826527,0.0,0.0,0.02817015158778792,0.054841220077353266,0.06785464580442671,0.06988982521787379,0.0,0.032954689945880584,0.06636888097197614,0.0,0.030968156261762574,0.1942820502620335,0.03322470946347751,0.0,0.17612095120843624 alcoholism,ThePaleRabbitOfDeath,2019/09/29,"Why won’t this post, yo!? it seems like the people around me (friends, family, coworkers), the ones who love me, can sit back and watch me destroy myself. They’re all, every single one, just so timid about “suggesting” I don’t drink. When the moment arrives where I’m telling them I’m feeling the urge to drink, or even when I’ve clearly already been drinking and want more, they all make a coy, little remark like, “Are you sure that’s a good idea?” Of course I’m sure in that moment, ya’ll! I’m trying to lie to myself! But every single person in my life knows I have a huge problem. It just makes me sad that they practically let me poison myself. I probably shouldn’t expect them to be forceful about stopping me - it’s my demon to deal with. But I just imagine, if they really cared, it wouldn’t be such a thing to almost brush off.",2.8666210436270316,4.604472826347309,3.7591488451668083,89.3574401197605,75.22754491017966,6.208554319931565,21.50940975192472,6.868970318607317,0.4530499572284002,650,16,133,6,14,208,109,167,0.09699999999999999,0.7390000000000001,0.16399999999999998,0.8693,0,0,3,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,5,0,13,13,2,1,8,0,11,6,0,2,5,30,23,9,0,6,7,0,1,2,1,3,2,0,0,1,10,4,3,1,5,3,0,0,4,5,0,2,1,3,21,8,14,16,5,15,1,1,1,1,13,7,0,4,8,87,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15426339863729474,0.0,0.17000304871510227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13714122869335305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1184584550465647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15706890123122538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15882349707295776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4527444879997581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10175159050820493,0.0,0.2595952389516435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14522893801395906,0.0,0.07789461937292153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11902217857048625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12921366417843966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17390885785178006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08466436275238608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1575312352585587,0.10881329866863804,0.15052656253098678,0.1544031506464394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13904026404382142,0.0,0.20566524334846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2087827270813551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1068020415024639,0.13451450829144732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14754169336596165,0.0,0.16609688229621927,0.1474094178883007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.098691302282783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1402454945691938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1287965185592398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2903892179753005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13465048433918034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10234701091274936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10459294056740166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09086537675446332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13901028769631835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ApprehensiveAddict,2019/09/29,"My wife is leaving me... She told me last week that she was divorcing me if I don't quit drinking and smoking weed. I know it's been a problem in my life but I don't want to completely give it up. I enjoy getting stoned or drunk. Just way too often. I've been tapering off and trying to get it under control. She tells me that its not possible and so she leaving me. Not really looking for any advice here, just writing to words down to help process this.",1.057765957446808,3.257433287234047,2.8887659574468114,91.09400000000002,83.14893617021276,5.887659574468086,24.293617021276606,7.1686216300943375,1.0485948936170215,355,14,75,5,10,118,68,94,0.067,0.85,0.083,0.5525,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,6,2,0,0,1,0,6,3,0,1,0,17,13,7,0,3,7,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,3,2,1,1,2,0,0,4,1,0,0,4,1,15,1,10,9,0,8,0,0,1,0,11,5,0,3,2,53,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21154228381166454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14721419451391776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269757334574053,0.0,0.2428013397230696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21206851978682395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2262043004521276,0.20766786536171047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14510234657229246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.118972046464337,0.17646053802347172,0.0,0.4584432811576447,0.0,0.0,0.15290661152207324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18178913637392266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2440492884831812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2071426459037929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2302537074748064,0.0,0.0,0.13868298088007847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1892135387128389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2068564384915168,0.0,0.14697608037776028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1276858346745996,0.1718321808409862,0.17364763585967488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,abazabaaaa,2019/05/15,"Marriage fell apart I’ve been sober about 4 months. I got off a regular habit using the Sinclair method (naltrexone) and haven’t had much of a relapse since. My wife and I have been in a tough situation for while with regard to how we get along with one another. I’m still trying to correct a lot of the behaviors I have that made me want to drink in the first place: impatience, short temper, frustration with my career. I don’t get the feeling that she is being very patient with it. Anyway, we had a fight that ended with her basically explaining to me all the various things I do poorly around the house and in our marriage. I just couldn’t handle dealing with the shame. I just left and found a place to stay with an old friend. Things seem to be going ok, but I’m really feeling like I want a drink. I took some nal and am hoping that helps stave off a relapse.",4.967194357366772,5.408840557471264,5.498631138975966,83.81402821316614,68.71264367816093,8.856008359456636,27.31243469174504,8.841846274778883,1.8340528735632189,683,20,141,11,11,220,108,174,0.066,0.813,0.121,0.8449,0,0,3,0,1,0,17.0,3,0,0,1,7,9,3,1,16,1,14,2,0,3,2,35,31,8,0,4,3,1,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,7,16,2,0,5,2,1,3,3,5,0,2,8,2,18,4,24,20,5,21,0,0,0,0,13,11,0,4,7,98,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17047027439522547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14472300179086575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16760396177225792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3185161358689665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14398999536201926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16440195623757764,0.11614103153689374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13828313894783134,0.0,0.1782511349531675,0.12560225051596094,0.0,0.16987367990633498,0.0,0.09239306583501024,0.0,0.13002318956514106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10896817401796596,0.0,0.0,0.16147006956340104,0.0,0.18758555363777504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17663428792792202,0.0,0.0,0.07942416801389181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13821237983473808,0.0,0.15382897743055388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12976293028389646,0.0,0.11950867533456977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17059132347120926,0.0,0.11016257938325323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33970499624701644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10414739355260233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479988852009026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344807315021025,0.18273705074656493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17327946800041286,0.12982971986232528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21601041181766056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18062279301525705,0.1103753004787075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1404094813069129,0.0,0.1341384203367952,0.1917776325625301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,epcool77,2019/05/15,"Hey guys I'm new here and could really use some support/similar stories, feeling really alone. I'm a binge drinker, sometimes I can make it a whole week without drinking but when I do I completely lose myself. These things keep happening that I never ever thought I would do and the amount of shame I feel is incredible. In this past year I got fired from a job because of alcohol, then I got a DUI, then I had a suicide attempt and ended up in a mental hospital for two weeks, then I was hooking up with someone in my parents house and came out of my room completely topless and got into an argument with my dad and punched him in the face and he looks terrible now. The personality difference is just so immense and I feel like I don't even know myself anymore and I can feel my family/friends looking at me/treating me differently. Anyone have any words of wisdom or crazy stories to make me feel better. I think I'm still heavily in denial.",6.041803519061581,6.1900993387096825,6.928201368523951,75.50775659824048,66.36559139784947,10.204496578690128,35.72629521016618,10.018931242160765,3.578436559139785,751,35,141,16,11,251,123,186,0.16399999999999998,0.768,0.068,-0.9661,3,1,3,0,0,1,15.0,0,0,0,3,8,6,0,1,10,0,12,3,1,3,2,36,34,16,1,2,4,2,6,1,0,1,1,0,1,2,5,14,2,1,8,1,0,1,3,3,0,1,7,8,23,3,20,25,3,26,0,1,2,0,7,11,0,2,15,96,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1332836971147054,0.0,0.12916837845016696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08481129774871474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12368496551912085,0.08720447202651456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07602584247115708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11030135051066857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14264211651530992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2615251413160297,0.0,0.0,0.0995757433772132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26060378453107963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12217440331862245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11046154204534864,0.0,0.0,0.08237387877641521,0.11281294975185052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3153013088794241,0.08909728350256435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0963554324831855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2992408323559533,0.0,0.0,0.12348865320310302,0.11028613034267834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1439057586477619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1237615918409612,0.11085349552127144,0.0,0.0,0.0685407659891579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060930039287976225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20946040731191656,0.13952553493611322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1664980737843294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12568460351747945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09618882767502883,0.12045169028514263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13848258917531592,0.0,0.11905573191840192,0.0,0.108897381793509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15979279203253285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1056716378302322,0.0,0.12334751812664715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09959852435060852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13641928866134265,0.1415264742298503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08285590650669418,0.07991310989700481,0.0,0.09901073775841544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12182961267869168,0.0,0.0,0.10771476020923773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20007963765835027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1392411917153959,0.0,0.12022197344766188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08859481547059511,0.0,0.0,0.08031314859902064 alcoholism,ruditol,2019/05/15,I don’t know if I should be worried right now I drink. A lot. Mostly whiskey and last night I finished an eighth after not having had a drink for a few days. Obviously it hit me harder than normal. Today I feel off. I’m wondering if I could already be suffering from withdrawal. I feel anxious and the only way I can describe what I’m going through is that I feel detached. I’m also panicking and feeling like I’m going to die if I try to sleep. I hope someone can help. Do I need to worry or is it too soon for withdrawal symptoms?,0.8893243243243241,3.0897411081081114,3.32560810810811,87.69489864864866,83.86486486486487,5.8621621621621625,24.565315315315317,7.1686216300943375,1.1998882882882889,417,17,85,6,12,144,74,111,0.171,0.72,0.109,-0.8271,0,0,3,0,1,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,5,0,12,5,1,0,1,22,27,8,1,8,5,0,4,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,3,3,0,6,3,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,4,13,2,10,21,3,13,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,8,9,59,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19462784831239135,0.1410424220537491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19924704611403526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14081649138324384,0.0,0.0,0.11374357280309692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1830434319080782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34554943259618665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3567103596846884,0.12599822435752342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2004694135071638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182165876784371,0.0,0.0,0.17517445628517148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09692792497416457,0.14376447492282865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08616510468692556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14994282565737865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1307755609087447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16551058949490285,0.17280441403463662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13413675884594592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15061837214970547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17649661744484446,0.0,0.14943708952896803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18331517684465487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16717742259466375,0.0,0.0,0.11974314063869387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1399936979120115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1912649235369386,0.0,0.35822306031983464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,LeftDescription,2019/05/15,"am i an alcoholic? i don't tend to drink too often, but when i do its really bad. i got a DUI last night and tried to kill myself with my antidepressants and i feel like i've ruined my entire life. like i said i can easily go weeks without a drink, but the feeling i get when i do have one feels like instant relief, i have a mood disorder and anxiety so my mental state gets so much worse after a certain amount of drinks. and once i start i can't stop. &#x200B; i'm only 20 years old and i feel like i have completely ruined my life. &#x200B; i just need some advice and some reassurance that i can grow and move past this.",2.2499653018737007,3.8427567862595424,3.917140874392782,88.1900208188758,76.55725190839695,7.206384455239418,21.06939625260236,8.00094639256281,0.8150549618320602,493,12,107,8,11,165,83,131,0.201,0.598,0.201,-0.6092,0,0,4,0,0,1,18.0,0,0,0,0,7,12,1,0,6,0,10,6,0,0,1,22,23,13,1,1,4,0,4,4,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,8,4,1,4,3,0,3,3,4,0,1,2,5,21,7,6,21,4,15,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,3,15,66,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1224545731606978,0.0,0.13392166173365305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2715535208346453,0.3045384199934721,0.0,0.0,0.09586422716526707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10463125728091416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13138846786351227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14361974212165393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3682775793576536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25344840304415284,0.2685712473675371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13094191175339928,0.0,0.07121835872316765,0.0,0.10022438451513924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13864044884583254,0.0,0.0,0.10214695366818108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17702478681807307,0.2448867277119447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12628619494933785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13318806118387114,0.09211959397155146,0.09291812298028812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11759791510249225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13149508526676504,0.13345442946657454,0.08491544279303534,0.0953063077536487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11962559414679952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08027882143620313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11920151501986155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0886973021872386,0.0,0.0,0.10476741593089316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0850794123198297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10051866107530537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12079741791041315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12770481952277088,0.0,0.0,0.3045384199934721,0.08069756881208215 alcoholism,Primrosedoll88,2019/05/15,"I relapsed I relapsed. Spent nearly all my money. I hate myself right now because I’ve been so good but every time I have ‘one drink’ it turns into a life destroying tangent. I was sober for a month, I saved up so much, felt great again, and now I’m in bed, with a bit of change to my name until this Monday, wondering what the fuck happened and how to find the motivation to start over. I know I can do it, there’s so much inspiration here to keep going, but I’m just so upset I can’t just be normal and have one fucking drink without turning into a fucking binge drinking mess.",4.9600840336134455,4.7923194621848735,5.913949579831932,82.94134453781514,68.66386554621849,8.14453781512605,28.764705882352942,7.447530270364453,1.560677310924369,452,14,94,4,7,150,83,119,0.154,0.6920000000000001,0.154,0.01,0,0,3,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,12,11,5,1,6,0,8,7,0,2,1,23,24,11,0,1,5,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,4,6,3,1,6,3,2,1,2,7,0,2,4,1,12,4,15,19,4,16,0,0,0,3,1,7,3,1,8,67,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09511882292443824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1703521985339224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16506665754847588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4585711275572565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13146806265989724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14982017259083805,0.0,0.14261516508574518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4327616042585953,0.0,0.0,0.08867953112818636,0.13087659209258756,0.0,0.17203155316975802,0.0,0.0,0.13798317206503272,0.0,0.0,0.1540544209458452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13869302421795773,0.0,0.0,0.08575395906597767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1102136820796116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1245473966189683,0.0,0.22941057748523025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15288331666541188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21146967684833992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13325490794683506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11044392641613422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09098654048406764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3394473116870635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15041428325286968,0.1692156767837106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Worrywarting,2019/05/15,"Worse than I thought / Advice on tapering methods I attempted (foolishly) to do some at home detox yesterday. Had a bad day and definitely realized what this is and what it’s costing me. I had vodka very early in the morning to help me get back to sleep, but was married to the concept of drinking very little if at all during the day (which I had grown accustom to). I consumed maybe a 5th of what I usually do. I was only able to sleep a couple of hours, which I’m sure didn’t help, but by this morning had full body tremors, severe gagging/ vomiting (basically just bile at this point), hot&cold sweating and disorientation, and what I would only describe as a migraine aura. I was alone, and it was terrifying. I didn’t realize my body was this attached, and even tried to start prepping a “go-bag” to take to urgent care with me this morning after realizing how fucking dumb this was, but physically couldn’t and I caved and had 2 ounces just to get back to “normal”. I don’t think I can or should do this cold turkey, and plan on going to see a doctor ASAP, but would like to know how anyone tapered successfully. Is there a method to the self control?",7.036199999999997,6.454203786666671,7.613166666666667,73.87575000000002,64.46666666666667,10.522222222222224,35.194444444444436,9.928628108626363,3.3551111111111105,912,37,172,17,12,303,131,225,0.08900000000000001,0.805,0.107,0.4785,0,1,4,0,0,0,31.0,0,0,0,4,8,7,2,0,11,0,24,11,5,3,2,36,36,18,0,6,8,0,0,1,0,3,4,0,1,1,15,10,1,1,6,2,1,2,4,3,0,0,14,2,17,4,28,18,3,21,0,0,1,1,3,9,2,4,11,121,32,2,0.13933939286410738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13616084205327536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14431358844503145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1509741739528769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09742934329283913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21428678441014726,0.11634257283120147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3095493073089056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14206579750868692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15628097736615995,0.0,0.1541763879265256,0.0,0.17972476227397272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14261977291203587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13649955794593455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0920323548456308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12881702341780366,0.145598163500282,0.0,0.15837957608448175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18679251577693434,0.0,0.1397687720823585,0.0,0.1372212341878742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07657728627817853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06807418904880765,0.13965467742178087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13998514861932826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365230204524691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2119477742933397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13172076472855754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11103545578068423,0.0,0.14536137554967324,0.1574138525551102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27888004421443063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0986251394451344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313257287604416,0.0,0.10476588243240616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08928305666923092,0.0,0.11061991357288294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0946023012767636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534626555186683,0.2299391838292417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14199874542589078,0.1979654136963495,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,redlaserpanda,2019/05/15,Just got fired It wasn’t even because of alcohol but man I’m having a hard time. I don’t know where I’m going to live now. Words of support appreciated.,-0.03500000000000013,2.1723126969697013,3.0032575757575763,88.22488636363637,88.6969696969697,5.724242424242425,20.37121212121212,7.1686216300943375,0.5737939393939393,121,4,27,2,4,43,28,33,0.11199999999999999,0.659,0.22899999999999998,0.7269,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,4,9,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,2,1,1,3,7,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,14,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42162983375657137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24050025634215835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2605816432634952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22421902745341596,0.0,0.3155396224511899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35341907961830793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2168219549363645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3483749442559157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4477050464043722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23005211415922985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,SisyphusCoffeeBreak,2019/05/15,"Alcoholism and mental health. Given that alcohol can have psychological effects in time frames far beyond those for sobriety; how likely is it that people who believe they are suffering from mental health issues (like anxiety, depression, etc.) are actually just suffering from ""plain old"" alcoholism?",15.25826086956522,14.357213086956525,13.38869565217392,40.037826086956564,48.56521739130434,17.895652173913046,49.08695652173913,15.903189008614273,8.641252173913044,246,12,27,10,2,78,39,46,0.21600000000000005,0.784,0.0,-0.8909999999999999,0,0,3,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,1,3,5,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,2,0,4,6,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,5,0,0,0,5,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,2,5,5,1,5,0,3,0,0,2,3,0,0,4,20,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.18568634065268372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6100560283265668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14556407809850871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2143809878319851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16388833431530705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.212213079815528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40451859279369545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.198603427975881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1859229026928673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3835160223568615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19966739864645236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319165550304419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11095410226049764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Kaprotka,2019/05/15,"How long does it truly take to recover? Hello, all. I'm female, 24. For the last two years I've been drinking nearly every day. Two-three beers or two-three glasses of whisky or wine a day. Not too much, but enough to make a difference in my mental state and overall physical and intellectual performance. Since March I've been doing my best to limit my alcohol intake to once a week. A couple of two's and three's a week happened, but it's definitely getting better and for now I won't be drinking anything for another two or three weeks due to my gut problems, so there's that. In the first month my cravings were insane, chamomile tea definitely helped to ease them, but it was still very difficult to not to get up and haul my ass over to local shop to get my precious beer. It's still quite afwul and I would love to get the buzz, but I'm getting there and I definitely want to switch off thinking that alcohol = reward. But I've been thinking - how long will it take until my mind gets back to normal? Because I definitely noticed in the last year that my brain performance significantly worsened. I'm having trouble focusing on reading or tasks at hand, I got lazy at work - I'm still doing what I have to, but only that instead of vigorous 100% that I've been giving earlier. My memory needs refreshing, and making connections between facts became difficult. Speech also got impaired and I find it hard to structure a proper sentence. All of that is slowly getting better, but very slowly. I'm on a very healthy diet right now, I don't smoke or do anything else aside from booze. But how long will it take until I regain my brain power? Should I invest in some teas helping with focus? Or do some mind exercises? How long did the brain fog last for you guys?",5.21686552072801,6.150602860465118,5.95350859453994,79.01808392315472,68.36046511627907,8.657027300303339,29.491405460060676,8.841846274778883,2.314131597573306,1400,50,262,23,23,458,183,344,0.08199999999999999,0.728,0.19,0.9919,1,0,9,0,0,0,40.0,0,1,1,11,16,11,0,0,12,0,21,19,6,6,3,49,47,31,0,6,16,0,2,0,0,5,3,1,0,1,14,10,11,1,3,8,2,0,4,4,0,6,9,3,23,7,40,32,7,41,0,0,0,2,8,14,1,8,26,164,37,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17634727285925494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06597987928822763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08651455243492144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357905297837629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06344188745614228,0.0,0.05029478577217776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08658477424052317,0.1459393967629001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2763113645793505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0912911272447653,0.0,0.10641886453850184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0862010277583047,0.0,0.0,0.07220140437831336,0.0,0.0,0.16164859847715518,0.0,0.0,0.06892303075319277,0.0,0.0,0.08525057351307319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0695147168990456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07540883029586418,0.07017941349487708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3017412216820751,0.07914710636497957,0.0,0.0,0.13197489229481976,0.0,0.0,0.08169373934265979,0.0729596295014008,0.0,0.07390901435013211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1106038321139583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20175978042398185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2920602390095217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07446472925780602,0.0,0.11014655912086793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08314646708677928,0.0,0.16661472909822114,0.0,0.0658553632061828,0.0,0.06065127539297386,0.06117702459279255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08083819188905628,0.0,0.09393342980937358,0.0,0.08786601205047734,0.0,0.06274939857028893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07894693288012983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08775510185313194,0.08252815330399492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07045952464741265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06824967190497523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1976677777956617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18610233965148087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1057328037945302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4029810174551384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20422784161524585,0.04866407385990811,0.0,0.19854359096157456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06006522400821197,0.0,0.0,0.05860977162219121,0.0,0.0,0.10626209384024324 alcoholism,Yippiekay-yay,2019/05/15,"Almost gave in today.... Just an FYI, I am not having withdrawals, just cravings. I am on day four of sobriety. I drank a lot more than I should every evening and weekends....sneaking drinks around my bf and kids. I decided to stop and get healthier. The first 3 days were easy for me, but day 4 is REALLY hard!!! Earlier this evening, I got all the way to the door, headed to the liqour store and turned back. I am proud of myself but the cravings are really intense right now. I went on a walk earlier and it helped. Why is day four harder than the last? I just know it'll be even worse the next few days. Any support/experience is greatly appreciated!",2.0019050480769245,4.300214851562501,3.3687500000000017,88.44740384615385,80.171875,6.750961538461539,23.12740384615385,7.882392219407189,1.1975269230769228,503,17,104,9,13,164,88,128,0.069,0.8079999999999999,0.12300000000000001,0.7859999999999999,0,0,1,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,2,9,2,0,0,10,0,12,3,1,0,1,19,19,7,0,1,6,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,3,6,2,1,2,1,1,2,1,0,0,3,5,1,12,2,12,11,4,20,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,2,12,71,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1633947114064794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11096359007207457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14525902892212708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12547036592587732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5261671117640057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15984793025235106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3233237160552028,0.0,0.1374807294720954,0.0,0.0,0.15961501456173227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13879531402266246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0852514302400957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1305047713208924,0.17989938349650875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1461714247096248,0.0,0.16746310861143351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10937177190492826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08967590005498018,0.13300819849463005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13872429283095047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1735368912684817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2090662723273674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13934929578798833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13642037039276333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185167378493806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15466941899400205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17748593492552686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12951954625698242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15126348918733296,0.14723872312755065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16628775870284915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,rosiev11,2019/05/15,"My boyfriend of 14 years is a high functioning alcoholic. Am I being unreasonable having a problem with his drinking? I have been with my SO for 14 years. He is nice, generous, considerate, a provider, and overall a great guy who is loved by everyone. He is also, I believe, a high functioning alcoholic. He works very hard at his job, averaging 70 hrs a week, mon - sat. He doesn’t drink during work, but he and his work buddies may pick up some beer and drink in the office after work sometimes (off clock). First thing he does when he comes home is drink. Beer and fireball. One moment he seems fine and the next he’s drunk. Incoherent, personality changes , and passes out. He’s rarely mean, never abusive, though there has been a time or two where he will get aggressive in his actions if we fight ( yelling in my face, slamming doors,) but not often. Other times I can’t understand what he’s saying, or he’s talking about Jesus, or cries, and then passes out. I know he passes out a lot because he also works hard and gets up super early. So he has told me in the past that his drinking is my problem and that he works hard, has a great relationship with his family, friends, house etc - so if I have a problem with it, it’s my problem and he’s a grown man. Is it wrong for me to have an issue with it? I don’t want to take away his fun, but it feels real lonely at times eating dinner by yourself and watching movies by yourself. One minute it seems like we are having a great conversation and the next, he’s incoherent and I can’t understand him. I would say this is 3-4 times a week. Any opinions?",3.437981072555204,4.995701353312303,4.4681337539432215,85.61274952681389,73.32176656151421,7.343293375394322,25.92921135646688,7.9765259561132025,1.4318152429022075,1247,42,255,18,25,406,168,317,0.12,0.752,0.128,0.6990000000000001,3,2,9,0,2,0,51.0,2,0,0,8,11,18,2,0,18,0,28,14,1,1,1,55,43,29,0,8,9,0,4,1,1,3,2,3,2,3,13,24,12,0,8,8,0,6,6,8,0,4,4,8,26,10,28,35,3,41,1,1,1,1,42,16,0,12,20,154,39,7,0.0,0.09666498845056136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17437929503819385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1304871308803167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05548065754796466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07665187584272902,0.0,0.0,0.049733512431740776,0.0,0.0,0.09191845615462428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0863062053635217,0.0702783293203263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08961738828569543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07139566034744654,0.0,0.0,0.399611632622974,0.0,0.08348191281784997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09098893922323413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07795804788684599,0.0,0.0,0.07691116012953851,0.0,0.041251871877245175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06939623422017842,0.0,0.0,0.06303243664923944,0.0,0.08524968241479537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2698435427975108,0.0,0.08078206396180933,0.0,0.0,0.2192526418533849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17239824972045245,0.08183649535870624,0.0,0.0,0.09413823778964077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08515363545607961,0.08096061110706683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044837030759587455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03985835300075302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06936072435236088,0.07363372726239867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0888700783779184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06292344946766637,0.0,0.1735333334141648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11056833420686728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07788219809178952,0.0,0.07123695200439488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3122636438398917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09286169145324592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08759185220213016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1297594732109182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14854400008379628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08068973820978446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061341832826422416,0.06557500338884724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054201507307954616,0.0,0.0801569347820224,0.0,0.1902916837345709,0.0,0.0,0.07795804788684599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0796967762508987,0.1698659078318185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06731624192540772,0.048120998730443454,0.0,0.13088527299904462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3563694946580572,0.0,0.0,0.05795570576236935,0.08920048634434362,0.0,0.10507624366798674 alcoholism,jakesim2,2018/11/13,"Anxiety over amount I'm drinking tldr; Trying to find an outpatient place but am concerned w amount im drinking since I read if you stop you can get seizures and what not. Some days I'm having like 12 beers/seltzer or some days im having 7. 90% of the time its been in the upper threshold Just getting anxiety thinking i'll have a seizure if I have 6-7 drinks 2 days in a row or w/e. Think the drinking (that I want to fix) has increased my anxiety ten-fold).",4.085189003436427,4.130565371134022,5.0696391752577314,87.51036941580757,70.54639175257732,8.116151202749142,31.630584192439862,7.793537801064563,1.9347676975945007,359,15,80,4,6,118,68,97,0.092,0.826,0.08199999999999999,0.0258,0,0,5,0,0,0,13.0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,6,0,8,4,0,0,0,15,15,6,0,3,7,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,4,1,3,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,6,1,6,14,5,11,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,6,6,39,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3749495263245705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3160944978662107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6401901616221649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1493238781828048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1707157759808556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3529510058356181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07981788869000503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1706944891959109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1634214966903347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13514737801355156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13659072537320865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20937113401435095,0.0,0.0,0.09526660842378933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11092245179319248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09636415534394624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Bishop_Of_Old,2018/11/13,"Trying to get this off my chest I'm sorry if this is the wrong place, but I feel like this is the kind of place I might be able to get this off my chest. I created a throw away account so that my friends and family that follow my main account won't see this and worry. &#x200B; I am 23 years old and I am fairly certain I am an alcoholic. For some background: My father is a violent alcoholic. He has gone through times of sobriety where he is a charming and caring man, but the second he has a drink he is hateful and cruel. I haven't had contact with him in years, and once I was old enough to realize that he was sick I promised myself I would never end up like him. I started drinking heavily at 14. I grew up in a military family, and ended up going to high school in a small town. As most people from small towns know, you lie to your parents on the weekends to get drunk in a field, hoping the bonfire doesn't grow out of control. I haven't gone three days without drinking since then. In the admittedly short time I've been around, I've experimented with a number of drugs to see their effects and to get ""fucked up"". I have never felt the need to go and do any of them again. I have never felt the craving I feel for alcohol. It feels like it is subconscious at this point. If a friend offers me a drink, I'll take it. If I come home from work, there is a drink in my hand. I've been told that none of this is out of the ordinary, and it's what people do. I can understand that, but if I don't have a drink, I feel it. I will go to the store, or the bar and spend what is the last of my gas money on booze. I cannot say no to alcohol. I tell myself I'll be sober. I make deals with myself with A,B, or C condition about drinking. ""It's a special event"", ""Oh you can't be the only one not drinking"", ""they bought it for you, so it would be rude to not"". But I know these are just thin lies I try to tell myself to feel better. As a waiter I was drunk constantly, ""It's understandable, every waiter is drunk, HAHA"". As a Federal Employee responsible for disbursing large amounts of tax dollars, I was drunk constantly (BTW, if you're from the USA, just know the people who handle the money you pay in taxes are awful humans). I have only recently let myself face the reality that I do not have control of this part of my life. I know this may make me sound like some scared kid, but I am scared. I'm scared because even thought I'm telling myself right now I won't drink tonight, when I go out to this concert with my friends, I know I'll get drunk. I'm scared that if I find the will power to refuse a drink my friends won't want to be around me. I'm scared that I won't be able to put the people I care about above alcohol. I'm scared of becoming my father. Alcohol has caused a decay in my family that can be traced back to every male. I'm not sure what I'm searching for by posting this, but if you made it to the end, thank you for reading my thoughts. This is the first time I have ever brought these thoughts into any from of light, and it helps. 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Asking about my roommate, not debating checking in myself. But he disappeared kinda suddenly, sent me a text that he's going out of town, and I noticed some of my liquor supply was stolen... then his parents came over today and said they don't know where he is and no one else does either. I'm wondering if he might be in rehab and sans phone?",4.810000000000001,5.719459459459461,5.330648648648651,83.20489189189192,69.27027027027027,8.082162162162161,25.610810810810808,8.238735603445708,1.5288843243243238,296,8,57,4,5,95,61,74,0.062,0.938,0.0,-0.5362,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,5,3,0,0,0,15,14,7,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,6,1,0,2,1,1,4,3,0,0,1,4,1,8,0,8,8,2,14,0,0,0,0,13,7,0,5,3,36,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2405062333775211,0.0,0.241707113691124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29424040526981904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.45026527538764893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21491027556770848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14620852577214474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.141385049905573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2729154519856559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2928956992277553,0.0,0.0,0.17432810764873494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2856601833819913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24471608294998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1934298045284488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2438553001411277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2789908147385133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Dobiaubi,2018/11/13,"Almost 60 days In under an hour it will be 60 days for me. I'm happy and relieved to be sober. But I'm not happy. My depression is worse. My anxiety is worse. My relationship empty. I have no friends. I have no family. I still feel hopeless. 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Ive done Smart, ive done Refuge; and none of them do anything for me. I have zero spirituality, i dont believe a higher power can help me at all, but ive still worked the steps regardless to no avail. i still end up relapsing.",1.1251948051948055,3.3333140303030326,3.820476190476192,84.46500000000003,82.93939393939394,6.8017316017316025,21.549783549783545,7.957251820313856,1.113578354978356,250,8,53,5,7,88,48,66,0.079,0.833,0.087,-0.1272,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,2,3,2,0,0,3,0,11,0,0,0,1,6,11,3,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,1,2,0,10,2,6,9,2,6,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,4,38,11,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15963474743407122,0.23392337602757104,0.18787389458041312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2572192709177783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1997894706844427,0.4672664141387764,0.5351387694425023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1907178392264622,0.0,0.20220867067718493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1530266707689966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11153730086143697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.364646099220264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16620728383986433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Rhys345,2019/06/30,"I think I'm starting to develop a problem The past few months I've been drinking basically every day starting anywhere from before noon to shortly after. I'm at the point where I can't just stop. I'm going through a fifth a week sometimes and I'm trying to hide it from people. My parents confronted me about my drinking but I shrugged it off. Then the doctor at the psych unit diagnosed me with alcohol use disorder which I also shrugged off, because what do they know, right? Yeah, it's becoming problematic. I don't think I'm at the point where I'd consider doing AA or anything, but I can't quit this shit. What do I do?",3.4857142857142875,5.090410269841269,4.870031746031747,82.5888571428572,73.28571428571428,7.897142857142858,30.853968253968247,8.548686976883017,2.4640215873015867,498,23,97,9,10,166,79,126,0.153,0.812,0.036000000000000004,-0.9324,1,0,3,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,1,5,3,2,0,8,1,8,6,1,1,0,12,20,6,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,7,2,3,1,3,2,0,1,3,3,1,0,1,0,12,0,14,19,1,22,0,0,0,0,2,11,1,1,10,59,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19012720626081564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14227121196831388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14640132305912198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10844973050399546,0.1964829897773045,0.15138474091401566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11473452965899765,0.0,0.0,0.18057065224550892,0.0,0.0,0.2038954712777966,0.1820941350328908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3485599286694601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14989331792587934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10110797165469954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09777238052812942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14200272020850513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19754334825367126,0.0,0.16983122609137874,0.12333748821213066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3363569893483321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17023183344988674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18922472777660165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15193058966519304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18261775737301547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17595339511359695,0.0,0.2518452959651908,0.0,0.0,0.1487372232411609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279897190315067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12078636693481537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15365349907731893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1427053096558399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,blackname1997,2019/06/30,"My father is an alcoholic... What the title says...I really don't know what to do to at least try and help, I don't have the courage to talk to him about this issue because I'm kinda afraid of him and we've never had a very great relationship as father and son (he didn't know how to really be a father because of his father who neglected his kids in a big way). My mother is really tired of him doing it and saying lots of hurtful things and cussing and etc... I only once almost got to the point of hitting him while he was sober because my parents were fighting over alcohol and my mother asked me to tell him what he does and says while drunk and I just snapped and before that a few days earlier he almost jumped onto me to beat me because I kinda screamed at my parents to stop fighting because it was night and the windows were open and his friend was at our home that night and stopped him alongside my mother who threatened him of actually killing him if he laid even a finger on me...even though his friend the next morning at work cussed my father for acting the way he did it didn't really do anything, he just asked me when he came home if that really did happen and that's all... He can't even navigate to the bathroom alone when drunk, he even tries to go out of the house because ""that's where the bathroom is in his alcoholic mind"".... We're just tired of his behavior and his alcohol problem, what could I and my mother do about this?? PS...sorry for the long post and for any grammar mistakes, I just wanted to write some of the issues because it's just kinda out of control(and English is not my mother language)...",8.722212543554008,5.953789792682924,8.477020905923343,76.01536585365854,62.65853658536585,11.2006968641115,36.233449477351904,9.04235418022936,3.0158242160278736,1284,42,258,15,14,415,152,328,0.147,0.826,0.027000000000000003,-0.9892,2,1,4,0,4,0,39.0,1,0,0,2,15,13,3,1,17,0,24,9,1,1,2,50,35,26,1,6,8,13,1,0,2,0,6,3,3,1,18,21,6,3,2,2,0,4,7,9,0,0,12,4,35,4,39,20,6,34,0,2,0,0,55,15,0,9,12,175,53,1,0.0,0.0,0.08600766384927272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3767607506228302,0.1765102100731541,0.0912819352162339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05993525257181779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07252811611330418,0.0,0.16478983837677816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3760866457669737,0.0,0.07499693197690725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10080368426921424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09885160645770552,0.07036913109173865,0.0,0.0,0.05684019184684976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0771280861578921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0982945281221956,0.2328510168262136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13618674247049772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0500895111801095,0.0,0.07049011685602874,0.09716984625654312,0.0,0.0,0.07793804897127653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05907545681508036,0.0,0.17681445158345607,0.0,0.0,0.10169668688065048,0.09435101772683756,0.0,0.0,0.1839814044761934,0.0,0.0,0.09750901926106413,0.0,0.09687407763049567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07799726151998138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07492976320673563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08899186443609759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06797563336869558,0.0,0.09373324531000436,0.165418641734794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09386157244629917,0.0,0.06703112025254228,0.0,0.0,0.19572838004704676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08331666090587703,0.0,0.08440957323845293,0.0,0.0,0.0843338975676337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28230971591785803,0.0,0.0,0.0946246857371754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401779853412663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09866062509669914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14737067086817154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07084008308860698,0.07703442776157891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058553398136404464,0.0,0.08659281169099058,0.0,0.0,0.2025978891489761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11967661852911933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0727211273315724,0.05198467971335458,0.13991592580696585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.064163790334665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,throwawaybotched,2019/06/30,"How long does one have to be drinking to suffer withdrawals? Hi, im sorry for what may seem like a silly question. Ive been watching and supporting my brother who is a severe alcoholic for 7 years try to get clean and sober. He recently relapsed again after about a year sober (maybe less. Truth isnt his strong suit). He says hes only been drinking for 3 days but mentioned to someone else he isnt going to stop yet because hes not ready to face withdrawals. I dont know much, but i just want a clear picture i guess of how far off the wagon hes fallen. Will he experience severe withdrawals after just 3 days or do you think maybe this has been going on longer than that and its just come out in the open since he gave up hiding it 3 days ago. I tried mentioning detox/rehab which helped him multiple times before but he lashed out that its just 3 days.",5.595689655172413,5.3761289137931065,5.7764597701149425,84.63951724137931,67.33333333333333,8.339310344827586,28.31954022988505,7.554174236665415,1.4867512643678158,677,19,140,6,10,215,116,174,0.11199999999999999,0.7979999999999999,0.09,-0.7078,0,0,3,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,1,9,6,0,0,6,0,17,4,1,2,2,28,28,9,0,1,9,1,0,1,0,2,1,1,1,0,9,7,3,1,4,2,0,4,4,1,0,1,4,2,12,5,20,21,2,27,0,1,1,0,21,8,0,5,16,79,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12871897780868896,0.15518421276510128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08851803160544547,0.0,0.1235621261439218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12508465764393234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3745910543214087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12707333566678708,0.0,0.17018381460423398,0.2844989898911586,0.0,0.0,0.12130344966951112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1420422220750259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0758656860673586,0.0,0.16505119171621085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1599640356906538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09733050212297208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1568505901228851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07980304450281461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07094176096056129,0.0,0.0,0.12850535632284182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29176382679376106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10674529038586204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0983973464102097,0.11043795416542287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16266726299911524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14337632560107755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11547598982230155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321927795896532,0.0,0.32808957567864755,0.0,0.1201183486914829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12303507693195735,0.0,0.0,0.16254953745828205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12140118898019965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16478140210860448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09304403552300222,0.0,0.0,0.08467250980005132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1971746982893428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08564800429797234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18701961319844748 alcoholism,Bizon420,2019/06/30,Is it alcoholism? When sober i often get nostalgic thoughts of drinking and listening to music with friends even tho I drank not long ago et know ill drink soon again. Could it be the craving from alcohol?,2.1879824561403503,5.058452184210529,2.406315789473684,89.09087719298245,92.94736842105264,6.743859649122808,27.385964912280702,7.793537801064563,2.369722807017544,165,8,30,4,6,50,36,38,0.07,0.845,0.086,0.168,0,0,4,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,1,0,3,6,0,0,0,7,8,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,2,2,5,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,2,1,4,4,0,5,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,5,20,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24726678309739916,0.59621202298483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22271386780355296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5465173140933505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842397006144236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2155112311933305,0.0,0.14573658415182536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15330017711077204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2468564201617611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22145016057501127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Nero2434,2019/06/30,Trying to quit... Does anyone have advice for tapering and fighting withdrawal? I've been drinking vodka heavily for the last few weeks and I feel withdrawal after only a couple hours. I'm trying to stop drinking completely and really hoping to find a way to make it less painful sobering up.,6.167830188679242,8.148171773584911,6.943537735849057,68.88058962264154,67.11320754716981,9.828301886792454,32.117924528301884,10.125756701596842,3.8804000000000016,236,10,34,6,4,78,41,53,0.159,0.74,0.1,-0.506,0,0,3,0,2,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,3,0,2,3,0,1,0,8,6,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,2,1,2,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,1,8,5,2,7,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,5,20,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2207365818735136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15794717400636926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368408181516413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2499424090164655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19767740293427474,0.0,0.0,0.4425713794637392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11421650642612087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20645888898631015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22435921883147195,0.2224556321651188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18413007223435549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15078297947691774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1717991256800007,0.24036232915336306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2402612633082016,0.0,0.0,0.14471058273509274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1888537168306297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3067282532378963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1793005519808011,0.18119491242803554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,kittykhaos666,2019/06/30,"Dumped an alcoholic I just left his place about an hour and a half ago. I left a short simple letter. He relapsed after confirming in text form that he didn't want alchohol this weekend, but this relationship was doomed from the start. It was only 5 months of a ""serious relationship"" anways. We only started out as strictly hooking up on a drunk lac labor day weekend from the bar. My mental well being feels like it's at stake, so I must look out for myself first.",4.309571428571431,6.005352211111107,5.026507936507937,81.925,71.33333333333333,7.365079365079365,26.190476190476193,7.957251820313856,1.6083809523809531,369,12,68,5,7,119,73,90,0.14400000000000002,0.792,0.064,-0.7514,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,1,0,0,1,4,5,1,0,8,0,5,3,0,0,1,9,10,4,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,4,3,0,1,4,0,0,1,3,1,2,3,2,7,2,13,5,1,20,1,1,1,0,7,10,0,0,11,46,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18364978298227735,0.22140905313080106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13361193315152592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1047548436322498,0.14800718770467547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1762245283325369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20402747108749708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4501965216336988,0.0,0.0,0.1012161471958816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1739763806649635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20878554287083168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16536659030393047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3151346702835223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21645571973319566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4448608202894495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2932816907781561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12219827775175204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1862768749654178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,WanderedRED,2019/06/30,"Thank you for trying This is a message of support, however generic, I am so proud and want you to know outside of our daily, that I love and support you and appreciate all your efforts. You're my life partner and I realize there are times I come down on you because you're not able to be there for me because of this addiction. I'm not innocent, you've definitely held my hair and got me home when it's been enough. You've taken our ""fun"" a step further. You've indulged more than is ok. I still love you. You've put your job in jeopardy. We have plans. We have a dog. We want to own a house one day (damn millennials and their student debt). You're incredibly smart and talented. You're a hard worker. I still see in you who I first met. I want you to know I love you and I believe in you. I want to thank you for being my best friend. I want you to keep being my best friend. We can get through this together, we need honesty and transparency and therapy. All of which I'm more than willing to do/give a try. You're a great person, I'm so lucky to know you and that's not something you give up on easily.  We all have our struggles, some more than others. I hope a few words of love and encouragement span some kind of anonymous internet current.  With love. - a stranger",1.4547480106100783,3.5546872260536406,2.9732758620689665,91.62527188328913,80.95402298850577,6.314235190097259,23.831564986737398,7.468242284971852,0.9732008841732984,990,36,218,15,26,324,132,261,0.039,0.654,0.307,0.9974,4,0,1,0,0,0,35.0,9,15,1,7,7,25,1,1,9,1,13,8,1,0,3,43,44,15,0,7,3,0,2,0,3,1,2,0,1,2,9,20,0,2,4,0,1,3,3,2,0,2,5,3,44,23,29,35,13,19,0,0,1,5,39,9,1,4,7,141,53,3,0.11419366799724433,0.0,0.0,0.12448795373546345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1392228002076277,0.0,0.0,0.12865715923616813,0.2396784187473227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09836773358124123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07364546885177492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11799258493274968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09713307566259367,0.0,0.0,0.1764514892500596,0.0,0.05966147835872518,0.10954497178273086,0.0,0.0,0.09133110808749594,0.12589892210602413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10229509660326748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11454555978380968,0.11342007856838618,0.0,0.1317641609334706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11331959511523368,0.10150057899805763,0.0,0.1189151326240534,0.18827356052660388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08065836481442869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5153212189298942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0846731578772434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07738058479028928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0997095062400873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11479617683996972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09099756868976784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08791186462212626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18239042154514745,0.0,0.0,0.11938001589422817,0.0,0.0,0.2591712423741661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21026837417742103,0.13059041143169745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0665872461303452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1550600094017889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.336771920203462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,cainethrowawaine,2019/06/30,"I feel so unhealthy, but I can’t go long without drinking or I feel even worse if I’m not drunk, I just feel tired and upset. I don’t feel like myself. I can’t contain my bowel movements and I’m literally only in my early 20s. It just comes out. I puke every night that I drink and the whites of my eyes are yellowing. My back hurts so bad and sometimes I can’t move for a couple of hours when I wake up. My heart hurts so bad whenever I walk anywhere, it feels like I’m going to pass out. Pain is wrapped around my chest throughout the day, I get intense shooting pains that make me have to pause whatever I’m doing. It feels like my stomach is gnawing on itself whenever I don’t eat for too long. I really feel like my body just wants to give up on me at this point.",1.6588501742160275,3.1851025853658532,3.296864111498259,92.29012195121956,78.02439024390246,6.149128919860628,22.68989547038328,6.868970318607317,0.5033846689895474,600,18,136,6,14,199,98,164,0.252,0.657,0.091,-0.9885,1,0,2,1,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,11,11,0,1,3,0,10,14,7,1,0,26,28,11,0,2,8,0,7,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,7,8,4,1,7,3,0,7,7,7,0,0,0,10,25,4,17,28,0,25,0,2,3,0,1,10,0,2,12,80,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1109385458635016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09582536829597332,0.2081055986861513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384251318171102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10734940976933252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13789006350783214,0.0,0.0803698258117786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2441610283790761,0.0,0.12751774485935466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08231057573152573,0.0,0.1049980323086437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4410826066172749,0.3561152545027789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06510899717421484,0.11954720959756768,0.14164925056514047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14767573249785346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.122725956621881,0.0,0.2668173562925875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2435328620010897,0.0,0.0,0.2205702028257341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08318506130187238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13245172585521994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11694777049721755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0947794031586082,0.26520970940681204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11780652574619135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07983499687835216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1232527274770752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1432327771219484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07350432005403172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12012958473057216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12699879850693951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,freeandirie,2019/03/11,"My drinking is getting out of control As many that post on here, I've come to the realization that I'm drinking far too much...daily. I moved from a small town to the city of Harrisburg pa 6 months ago, I haven't met anyone out here and I just work and sit home alone. Being away from my family and not having a group of friends like I did back home I've found myself doing nothing but drinking to ease the boredom, depression, and loneliness of being in a city knowing not a single person other than people I work with. Basically I'm drinking not just beer but cheap ice beers...I'll easily put down 5-6 25 ounce natty ice a night...sometimes more when I'm not getting as drunk as I like. They're only a 1.05 at this hood bar couple blocks down from my place. I notice I'm tired all the time, my nutrition is terrible, and my sleeping pattern is so irregular because I usually pass out and not fall asleep. It's like I feel numb everyday....I dont enjoy anything until I get to the stage of inebriation that I enjoy and then I either do something dumb, message my ex, or want to talk to everyone I see. I guess basically I'm just posting this because I know I need to slow down and if I have no friends out here maybe I can befriend some people on here. just having people to talk to can make a huge difference. Much love n thanks everyone ",3.2974404761904736,4.699306566176472,4.775399159663866,83.89495098039217,73.41176470588233,7.680952380952381,26.555322128851557,8.269060116576782,1.7036160364145654,1054,37,213,17,21,353,157,272,0.14400000000000002,0.7240000000000001,0.132,-0.6575,0,1,7,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,0,3,12,13,1,0,12,0,15,12,2,2,1,40,36,19,0,3,14,2,1,3,2,0,2,0,2,1,7,14,7,2,4,7,1,5,8,4,0,0,3,2,25,9,35,31,6,35,0,1,1,1,11,17,1,4,12,131,32,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09819081998843376,0.0,0.0,0.11472419488768243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07745287944221595,0.0,0.0911541775282102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10407195371194576,0.08517520450227191,0.0,0.1350485880958273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09541844808839943,0.0,0.0,0.12423784549867245,0.0,0.1225647713853284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09540594003456472,0.0,0.0,0.11573095413807345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12982148078883599,0.4340492688624858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21169074499363566,0.0,0.0,0.10442398974496384,0.0,0.05600858235156959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.121453461987495,0.17116107746065168,0.0,0.17361807988432104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12202551714222905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2222224534829052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12175246433282172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16234971249913285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09997414637331804,0.0,0.07393975868724875,0.11230327783611073,0.111283238429776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08841546576834923,0.11773085809127312,0.16285722231992025,0.08213446650895835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10395003374700144,0.0,0.10628669257983632,0.1261122487748208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08424548937504016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2303816740474104,0.09671999139059208,0.11573095413807345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2121738612936894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11135432973562216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08826925728673081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1108498821471976,0.0,0.0,0.08527606955458436,0.1095542490992316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17806527608918649,0.0,0.1019820281287161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06459081099993404,0.12731368842860938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12199737938337657,0.0,0.06533494839346922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16128359175666054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,daniel24561,2019/03/11,"Relapsed after 3 months but I’m scared Stupid mistake once again, I was doing fine getting fit and even going out to pubs and not drinking. Friday night went to a club and it’s like i automatically drank without thinking... I am anxious person with panic disorder I take Cipralex and acomproste and Xanax for panic attacks. Whenever I drink I black out and I think that the médecines really do affect me. I was sober for 3 moths and now this hit me in a new low. I know I will take it as a lesson but I woke up with bruises on my head and legs and I am so depressed I hope it passes. Worst thing is that I actually drove home, I don’t recall driving and that’s worrying me so much , no scratches on the car but I’m being paranoid that I hit someone. When do people like us ever learn, I always say this will serve as a lesson but then I do it again. Are some people prone to blackouts? I would appreciate some advice I am 25 and become worried as hell, any advice on would be appreciated ",2.107957894736842,4.202226279999998,3.914263157894736,85.74778947368424,78.7,6.010526315789473,23.52631578947368,7.0608816371341465,0.9076000000000004,776,26,155,9,19,261,123,200,0.258,0.628,0.113,-0.9896,0,0,2,0,1,0,16.0,1,0,0,2,8,14,3,3,6,0,18,6,2,1,1,35,34,22,0,4,6,0,1,2,0,4,1,1,1,1,11,15,3,0,6,4,0,6,4,10,0,0,6,3,25,4,19,20,4,25,1,2,1,0,3,9,1,3,12,109,36,1,0.0,0.0,0.1372298981423115,0.0,0.0,0.2748346125210058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11701142173447372,0.0,0.0,0.09562995014000507,0.0,0.0,0.1588664351660484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15998145275636752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15530947187839428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1211202684362751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16116864873871492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2755182955073175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09288161046146456,0.1272035335655485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07347085668307138,0.0,0.07992053509662586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1443220133414906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14105852952481698,0.13967254192691206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07728392570434706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13740472729002706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11224568348575582,0.0,0.10337569378294774,0.0,0.0,0.13581668294212704,0.0,0.1319672128049392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1497612357993577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3299867176533343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19498359810938007,0.12278849006821355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0900880964000748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11183079384581536,0.14079034553406733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11915126551722785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2114652808365103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0934251263495159,0.18021388465545865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16915478654181548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303609582169443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1355576630910255,0.0,0.0,0.2856234092158801,0.0,0.19979219776163265,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,enragedspiders,2019/03/11,"Feeling afraid. Dr Google has teamed up with my anxiety again. I feel surprisingly confident that i can quit drinking altogether if i just knew that quitting cold turkey wouldn’t kill me. I don’t want to make It seem like I’m looking for medical advice, but I’m wondering if someone else has experienced a similar problem? How did you cope with the anxiety? 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Alcohol can make it torture. This saying has enabled and motivated me I some fashion to stay sober for close to two years. I hope this helps someone tonight if they need it. 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I love to drink and I’ve had friends tell me I need to slow down and I think I agree after Friday night. My father is an alcoholic and so is my brother so I see the damage it can do but I understand why they drink. I only feel happy when I’m drunk. When I’m sober I’m awkward, I lack confidence, I’m told I’m annoying. But alcohol makes me feel so much better. I gain confidence and everyone seems to love my company. Friday night I went out alone and it was a blur. I live in a college town and I went to a bar near campus. I ended up losing my wallet and everything in it and my phone died while I was there. I passed out face first in the parking lot after being thrown out when a group of people picked me up and asked if I was okay. I asked to borrow their phone and called my father. He told me I put myself in that situation and I can only get out of it (fair enough). I stumbled home on a major highway 7 miles. I passed out right inside my door. I woke up with the worst hangover I’ve ever had. Although it is Sunday I quit drinking. Usually I’ll spend my whole weekend wasted but not this time. I can’t keep up like this. I know my story is probably nothing compared to some people’s but it was a wake up call for me. Thanks for reading. 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To keep this brief - my father is a high-functioning alcoholic. He drinks daily, and rather than getting better as he ages, his addiction seems to be getting worse. I'm in my mid-twenties, living at home at the moment. However, after years of broken promises and numerous failed attempts at breaking the cycle, things have escalated to the point where my parents are splitting, with my mother moving out of the home, and myself following suit. My father acknowledges that he needs help, but doesn't believe a doctor can help - he is also too proud for Al-Anon. While I'm terrified at the thought of what might happen once my mother moves out, it's also inevitable at this point. I guess my question here is how can I help him? I know he's going to feel abandoned and incredibly hurt once we've left the home, but it's necessary for self-preservation, having a safe space of our own. I'm at a loss here. Any advice is welcome, thank you in advance.",6.413582015810277,6.748688016304349,6.581462450592888,77.66986166007908,65.57608695652173,9.299604743083004,31.40118577075099,9.095868883498916,2.6344630434782608,761,27,138,12,11,244,118,184,0.11800000000000001,0.732,0.15,0.662,2,0,2,0,0,0,29.0,1,1,0,6,9,10,0,0,10,0,13,4,0,2,0,24,29,12,0,2,3,5,1,0,0,1,3,0,3,0,7,7,2,3,6,1,0,6,1,4,0,0,1,1,16,6,24,26,1,27,0,4,0,0,20,15,0,4,5,87,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1435502742773158,0.0,0.12867584712565075,0.0,0.14072551826576846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2106083651287127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08954668942150361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14835789280735,0.0,0.11645996511238305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1347797194816386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12899594322498148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0665811964440722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13759438283296896,0.0,0.07483658962720813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14505999950217574,0.0,0.11644389513477225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3530484218792378,0.13912679848091056,0.3962563291663381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409658075748334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11704293883277793,0.0,0.0,0.07236770156410077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14307034408146127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11627555892908358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13969131810414365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27990929464703984,0.0,0.09763880498055087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2804690967604208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1462146875751069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2489596969274613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14751136396248488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11987622379413823,0.13737061152196453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12123294615780715,0.0,0.0,0.08748211999626572,0.0,0.0,0.1045389472722828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13419283094112291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08479738861404884 alcoholism,shakeylove,2019/03/11,"How does alcohol addiction get in the way of social learning? I'm writing a paper on this and I'd like to get more first-hand opinions. Social learning is learning through the observation of other people's behaviors.",4.411749999999998,7.258808675000001,5.715,71.9,74.75,8.0,35.0,8.841846274778883,3.8489999999999998,177,10,26,4,4,59,33,40,0.0,0.932,0.068,0.3612,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,1,2,0,1,0,7,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,4,1,3,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,1,15,2,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33775532562744465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3311090381765747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27113022130805936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2635372549325519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3237418793674888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15136499918171034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.214793862994082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6316557834831945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24592491411562756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,wlwsapphics,2019/03/11,"Need some advice for first AA meeting So I’m (20F) going to my first AA meeting this week and I’m a little nervous and scared. I’m not entirely sure what advice I’m after, but if anyone could give me some pointers on what happens at meetings I’d appreciate it. I’m also a little put off getting help because of my age. I’m from the UK where you can drink legally at 18 but I still feel too young to be an alcoholic and I’m worried about other people attending the meeting thinking that of me (which I realise is a little self absorbed but trust me if I could stop it I would) Has anybody else started AA fairly young? 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A friend drove me home. I was so drunk I couldn't sit up and I was vomiting all over myself. I was alone and afraid and I called 911 to take me to hospital. They said I was 3 times over the legal limit. I'm afraid maybe I have a problem and I've made an appointment for Tuesday to talk to someone about it. I feel so bad about myself right now. And I feel awful. My head is pounding. I'm disappointed and ashamed. I'm so depressed and have been crying a lot. I'm so emotional. I talked to some loved ones and they all support me and told me they love me and don't think any less of me. But I do. I'm just beating myself up. 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I have been doing it for around 15 years, drinking more and more. I am now drinking a lot and I can see that it is too much. I am now in a point in my life that I feel does not require this much alcohol and would like to slow down. Can you guys share some advice? I need to lower down drinking and keep the high dopamine and find some other pleasure. I thought a lot of sex or dedication to business could help me. I feel I am in a good position because I don't have all the normal stuff - girlfriend, driving license, business. But I have this great job, that I so much wanted all this life. I feel like it's time to pick up the pieces and create something special. Again, I want it to be smooth and slow. Do you think I can get normal again? Thanks guys &#x200B;",2.6660027472527474,3.924146232142857,3.4273809523809526,93.50736263736263,74.77380952380952,5.883516483516482,24.827838827838825,5.8734145424116955,0.4308575091575095,629,20,141,3,13,199,95,168,0.013000000000000001,0.782,0.205,0.9841,2,0,6,0,0,0,23.0,0,2,0,1,7,9,0,0,7,0,18,10,0,1,3,34,31,10,0,7,3,0,4,2,1,1,4,0,0,2,12,8,5,2,6,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,5,23,9,14,26,13,18,0,0,1,2,8,9,0,5,10,103,35,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1225114075458406,0.0,0.13398381829592326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1358397779796384,0.15233988213827368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1116070592858039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07642519590887108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1000988012498794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1097132911451964,0.0,0.0,0.4912646755459517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19017452633090212,0.08956529944689576,0.0,0.0,0.11458711952220507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06550134266770237,0.0,0.0,0.10515551899235703,0.0,0.13822232812900187,0.0,0.2482746446946714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08403375626124215,0.1324616879545309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12441169469483485,0.11143579389614088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2656604230099737,0.12250019303858227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21317243395128696,0.11315251540403272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27648704728722096,0.09296124872277288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24567455879124744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11851642547565985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09990471394017313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09651697087603976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1435201720042813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11542507165481347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08033288262320504,0.0,0.09953082773320823,0.07310502766722883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14789451118507907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08906019201851359,0.0,0.15233988213827368,0.08073502267425793 alcoholism,SmitherinesandStarz,2019/04/25,Afraid I am taking a 14 panel drug test tomorrow and I know they test for alcohol. I had four shots of bourbon and some wine and it has only been 21 hours. 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It runs in the family. We (his kids) have told him to stop but he is depressed and won’t listen. Any advice? Me and my 2 sisters only see him 1-2 a year. He is 73 and lives with my mom in a small town in Europe. She is fed up. He gets so drunk he is rude and mean and acts like a child, tries to pee in the sink, etc. We have talked to him and pleaded and it continues. I want him to get a puppy, get a hobby, anything. We are so far away words don’t seem to do much. Anything that maybe I don’t know about? He started getting bad in the early 2000s and it’s just getting worse. His brother died recently. It’s in the family. It feels helpless. Thanks.",-0.9417687074829928,1.0557447891156464,1.5623469387755122,98.40705782312928,90.90476190476193,4.627210884353741,17.01020408163265,6.139981653823899,-0.4849755102040821,512,13,125,5,18,174,91,147,0.19899999999999998,0.7490000000000001,0.052000000000000005,-0.9795,0,0,1,0,0,0,24.0,3,0,0,0,4,6,1,0,10,0,12,4,1,0,0,21,28,11,1,1,2,4,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,2,6,12,3,1,4,1,0,2,3,4,0,0,2,3,16,2,15,25,2,19,0,2,1,0,24,11,0,1,7,73,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16550720912123754,0.0,0.1810059020444104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11517796838537313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2787555138685373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15912946462216673,0.0,0.14141756352933246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14587884264665432,0.0,0.17578017524838288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1888932400668124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3193354787557789,0.0,0.08563897770690916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4424463254398924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09308177551531596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08274602942196363,0.0,0.14955754072924501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1701557578304456,0.18449448024238535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19836506220528596,0.0,0.0,0.12450704379660085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12881414389690465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16723325578561918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13496661832169954,0.15418883716993728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11988154107015833,0.0,0.0,0.14160159290099314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13613385278755516,0.0,0.15593389917635986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1618410806889572,0.0,0.11499167179531256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09989930032202593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1726033395486844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10906925770285074 alcoholism,-advicethrowaway,2019/04/25,"My boyfriend just admitted to me that he has a drinking problem. What do I do? I want to help him but I’m not sure how, we don’t live together. Where do I start?",-1.7374999999999972,0.17934247222222233,0.9846666666666692,100.82700000000004,96.5,5.102222222222223,21.088888888888885,6.742157984588678,0.29856222222222195,123,5,32,2,5,42,29,36,0.13699999999999998,0.738,0.124,-0.3513,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,1,1,9,9,2,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,7,1,2,9,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,1,22,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44521681996907975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3046279823894029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4013136637657339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4348754364012764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.321682880249046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4283414849006632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2680637433885409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,popeye_59,2019/04/25,Thinking of drinking again Been sober for the last 5 years but considering drinking occasionally to enjoy going out socially more. I had depression issues in the past that were the main reason I drank alot but this is no longer the case. Does anyone out there have experience of being sober this long and going back to this successfully?,7.657499999999999,9.17602775,7.370000000000003,68.94000000000001,63.16666666666666,10.0,30.0,10.125756701596842,3.1155,275,9,44,6,4,87,47,60,0.11800000000000001,0.754,0.128,0.1877,0,0,2,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,5,0,6,3,0,1,0,8,10,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,3,0,2,2,0,2,1,1,0,0,4,0,2,2,8,5,3,11,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,1,6,34,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1802680230495012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19824138029518606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22205294781895565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256128661541256,0.0,0.0,0.5051148786682417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2521894358803973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2930408037992596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2690885645597478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21015104774404264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281553530016545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24611055977858795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2650734954604889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2628066894331067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651954080117646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660223631469755 alcoholism,confusedpunk26,2019/04/25,"I can't talk to anyone about it. I've been 2 months sober, but broke down and drank. The only close friend I have doesn't seem to think drinking is a big deal so I can't talk to him about feeling like I'm trapped in the cycle and feeling like a major failure. And my boyfriend doesn't have a problem with alcohol and I feel like he's so disappointed and upset with me. And that me messing up my sobriety doesn't surprise him at all and he's just tired of me being this way. I feel like no one I know expects me to ever actually be sober, and they all can't stand me because I always saying I'm going to get sober, and it still hasn't happened. Sometimes I think they wish I'd just stop trying to sober up because the stupid dramatic roller coaster would stop and they wouldn't have to deal with the intense depression I fall into every time I fail. And I get that, because I wish I'd just stop fooling myself and be the crap person they all know I am. Fighting this addiction is exhausting, and telling them ""I drank again"" is so painful. I wish someone in my life would be able to just once make me feel like it's not a big deal when I screw up. I wish I had someone to say ""It's okay. You messed up, but you can get back up and try again."" I wish it didn't have to feel like the world was ending. I know that's not realistic, but sometimes I feel like the stacking disapproval and disappointment from the people contributes to my relapses. How do I help myself when I don't feel comfortable being honest with my loved ones?",5.293473980309425,4.916821202531646,5.782616033755279,84.87244022503519,67.9873417721519,8.7943741209564,29.89732770745429,8.167268648758528,1.8174407876230667,1204,39,261,14,18,389,146,316,0.223,0.596,0.18100000000000002,-0.9625,0,1,2,0,2,0,26.0,0,2,5,1,17,29,4,1,12,1,30,12,1,2,4,63,60,24,0,10,9,0,8,7,1,3,6,2,0,1,10,21,4,3,14,2,0,2,13,16,0,2,6,10,45,13,29,46,4,31,0,5,0,2,24,14,2,1,20,167,55,1,0.08061306618344817,0.0,0.07866672402044765,0.08788014107543267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08615085175119981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06707652884271831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056366530222615015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061986471947457475,0.0,0.1474229307660033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24932559458183204,0.06943191578032093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07897011514495761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07139924941283612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07291913354806634,0.0679199850725903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3260831073118069,0.4031299341209534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062281454963975365,0.0,0.1263509996977329,0.0,0.04581426324089282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07128586819728379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05403323901225921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13290849888183653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05693939265696549,0.2756843054978439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0727564395747989,0.0,0.05380984764816935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06434458033411566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08585028455950447,0.10925099985691054,0.06130986939639765,0.08577798606295313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05588694995997801,0.07038822000047383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07713581730516728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12821349160127196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07338710783838419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1366063787558964,0.0,0.15945676745239046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06437769878624443,0.20218839883056605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12958745805916105,0.07045937300905404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10330719559481087,0.0,0.0,0.047006127164674366,0.09265286091678047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10946196071584416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06398689970704909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4635052386741826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11453041862972205,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,lucywil,2019/04/25,"How long until diazepam can be taken? Okay so basically a member of my family that I live with is an alcoholic they were off alcohol for about a year and on Monday they relapsed they were prescribed diazepam before and I have ordered it again but I cant get them to stop drinking long enough to take the tablets as I heard they can help with alcohol withdrawal, problem is they wont go long enough without the drink and I'm not sure what to do",3.767142857142858,5.391510561797753,4.615762439807384,84.61539325842698,72.59550561797751,7.782343499197433,28.4446227929374,8.418075326091056,2.023637560192616,356,14,70,6,7,115,65,89,0.099,0.8320000000000001,0.069,-0.5637,0,0,5,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,6,0,4,3,0,0,5,1,11,5,0,1,1,12,17,8,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,3,5,5,1,0,2,0,1,4,1,0,0,4,1,11,2,13,11,2,12,0,0,0,0,8,2,0,0,8,53,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5557010596250125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14748838000171086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3395886461381854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3581859306488168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16339712491521208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09055612334446304,0.0,0.09850564102151138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11617733144337268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15305078070099112,0.4601664138618631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16585038352382808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1449090044963748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16335850131666002,0.0,0.13032021755991605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16708089456627392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11161680621721178 alcoholism,bakerjase,2019/04/25,"Did anyone have thyroid issues after quitting drinking? My wife quit drinking about three years ago and has had pretty severe depression ever since. Medication and counseling has helped some but she’s nowhere near functional. Recently her mother brought up that thyroid/liver issues can manifest as depression so I was wondering if anyone else had encountered this.",7.755141242937852,11.486501491525429,6.845000000000002,63.50162429378534,67.98305084745763,10.035028248587572,36.951977401129945,10.125756701596842,5.298285875706215,304,16,35,9,6,93,51,59,0.145,0.821,0.033,-0.7964,0,0,2,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,0,0,8,4,0,0,1,7,10,6,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,2,0,1,5,0,4,0,5,5,1,8,0,2,0,0,5,2,0,3,5,27,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16745743281905595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2641807117481066,0.19356075342871745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3254160377876246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3701200188024801,0.0,0.0,0.15781017391190538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17088002866863086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1266224786583285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39434619244229396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19030708248398376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1921895174988332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4018583551466416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1865259639326068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21341467673670025,0.0,0.15626841238776626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2048649785470024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12165193060953125 alcoholism,SohoFilmmaker,2019/04/25,Day 6! Bad dreams last night and serious sweats. Feeling strong to continue though. Keep up the effort everyone! 😘,2.5005000000000024,5.0350620500000005,2.8800000000000026,83.32000000000005,103.5,8.0,25.0,8.07648339933343,3.0049999999999994,91,4,15,3,4,28,20,20,0.179,0.521,0.301,0.508,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,2,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,5,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35339512676014195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2729605062022207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4044324325613868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21400734553077472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3762030421571628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3450043187650188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3971903921865075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4158398651491596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,natalielynn_likesart,2019/04/25,"“I swear this time I’ll do it!” How do you stay committed to sobriety? I am diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder and Bi-polar disorder. In therapy and medicated; feeling like a completely new person, but I can’t shake this final demon. I’ve maintained minor stints of maybe 2-3 weeks without drinking and I always proudly claim to my friends and family, “This is the last time.” I don’t even think they believe me anymore. Being drunk doesn’t even make me happy like in the past (I used it to self-medicate). I just feel ashamed and disappointed. Total buzzkill. I just don’t know how to go about it anymore. So, Reddit, how do you stay moving forward on this road to recovery?",3.2070769230769263,5.75492370769231,4.920769230769236,77.59423076923079,77.30769230769229,8.307692307692307,29.23076923076923,9.057496981413335,2.9854615384615384,542,25,95,14,13,183,88,130,0.131,0.708,0.161,0.7432,0,0,1,0,0,0,21.0,0,2,1,1,9,8,0,2,3,0,10,4,0,5,2,21,17,10,0,0,4,0,2,2,1,0,2,0,0,2,7,6,2,0,4,2,0,4,5,3,0,0,0,2,14,5,12,16,1,17,1,1,0,0,6,5,0,0,10,61,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12496380201353087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2978812053827549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16920415561838226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15746340714520982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1524319921923903,0.0,0.0,0.34424412272292537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14712159386034648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1983881403773213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14157861708923025,0.0,0.15187348527536831,0.10729034889034247,0.0,0.16451749723739853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11603056302275777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0853521286776041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15987197579195034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08253632891036929,0.12241871463791125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14674308612161205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10024792969909427,0.0,0.15087842401519247,0.0,0.1668188093608723,0.15129298538643926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1596201420573928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14504711442467802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14336611075861572,0.0,0.2622669878713897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15667301475856002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3201489487613424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1717466826513432,0.0,0.0,0.09623082887274736,0.0,0.0,0.17514515046545673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12970938898665832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12046727625315234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14477049095569666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,dystopicaholic,2019/04/25,"I'm the alcoholic. Do I deserve respect, or should I expect to be judged and criticized by a partner? Make no mistake, I am a drunk. I'm 37 and have drank since 18. I've had periods of sobriety, none longer than 1.5 years. I've been to rehab; I've attended countless AA meetings; I've taken responsibility; I don't blame anyone but myself and I don't make excuses. I am an alcoholic and can't stop drinking. I married my partner 6 years ago. When I met him, I had *just* started drinking again after a several month stint of sobriety. We had fun, partied, went to clubs, etc. I drank to excess then, and worse now. Over the years, I've tried to explain alcoholism to him. In short, this included a book on understanding the alcoholic family member, bringing him to a couple AA meetings (he didn't have much interest), hundreds of discussions (which typically ended in arguments), and exposure to other alcoholics with their collective wisdom. He continues to conclude that I am weak and I have a choice to stop ""if I wanted to"". My interpretation is that he simply does not understand the power alcoholism holds over me. I tell him that I'd love to stop drinking, that I know how detrimental it is, that I realize it could have devastating effects on my health and our relationship. ""So just stop"", is the response I get. Obviously the dynamics in our relationship are much more complex than I can detail in a post. So, understand that he is a loving person, I am a loving person, he always looks out for my best interest and vice versa. It is a healthy relationship with the glaring exception of my alcoholism. Aside from the obvious answer that I should stop drinking and that will solve all my problems, **here is my reality:** * He likes to go out and have cocktails, and wants me to have cocktails (albeit only one or two) and gets furious with me when I have more. Every time, I explain that I can''t. He doesn't believe this. * I drink at home for untold reasons. He tells me I am weak. He tells me that it is my choice (is it?). He gives me ultimatums, for which I reply that I understand. * I am a happy drunk - I drink to get away. I go into my own world, and watch videos and smile, laugh. I never get angry, and rarely get sad. Any confrontation is almost always when he berates me with judgement and callous comments that I can only assume are driven by his inability to comprehend this disease, not by a fault in his character. * I am born from a family of alcoholics - so that's fun. He throws that in my face whenever I go to visit family. ""Your mother will let you drink, your father likes to drink, have fun, don't come home"". * Oddly, he discusses our lifestyle in a hurtful manner, and this one really makes me bewildered: * When there's cause for argument, he condescendingly states that he is under my control because I am the breadwinner. I have a good job that pays very well. I NEVER tell him what to spend or how to spend it, but he will bring this up as if I do. His profession is difficult and comes and goes. I am always supportive as money is not an issue, so there is no reason for me to critical of his earnings. It just doesn't factor with me, but it DOES for him when he wants to make me feel bad about my drinking. I don't understand the association. There's more. But this is tiring me out. If you've lasted to read this post, I am thankful and hopeful to hear your thoughts.",3.0233410086347163,5.2683570290076345,4.685338505819047,80.59607683644103,76.41984732824427,8.142410211487926,26.462895757727445,8.934742549264987,2.3298557126767614,2654,103,499,63,61,893,287,655,0.091,0.742,0.16699999999999998,0.9956,2,0,17,0,0,0,116.0,4,4,1,7,22,32,2,0,27,0,59,30,1,12,5,99,106,45,0,13,17,2,1,2,2,5,13,1,2,4,35,33,23,7,19,17,4,12,16,11,3,3,12,4,85,21,72,86,10,64,0,2,2,3,64,21,0,9,30,351,120,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04843919100443534,0.4671881552181967,0.05471873017885443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13640619534574114,0.0,0.0,0.037160240331928406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03820881444504624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051340453666152405,0.0,0.045626005750706695,0.03331087546892701,0.0,0.0,0.06156581541400584,0.057346195792461786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05613511488982708,0.0,0.09414306618164957,0.0,0.0,0.06128862890439862,0.04362931181752548,0.06046327316798258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09563981446593993,0.0,0.0,0.4817786402541975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04839894635267241,0.0,0.060943236769670325,0.0,0.0,0.04604047998873819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1545423569728003,0.0,0.02762998026429457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14274788848778625,0.05242013388410138,0.09316745289417062,0.045833345356438966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058170253062096326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05808471466459573,0.061588499438898485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10962609204201222,0.05427447382516351,0.0,0.0,0.05849823507609495,0.0,0.0,0.05703482436107904,0.05422638986492626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030031274185167982,0.04454268845273386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05587786366046497,0.0,0.05339323801136738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04588774893408815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479568081492638,0.0,0.14590293040817412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043616843556288316,0.0,0.08034022018897125,0.0,0.0842906558095837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07405726705160329,0.0831194474510018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09542721279785828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10466895168575044,0.0,0.0,0.05228755644245136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05465944421838339,0.0,0.03500676627323958,0.11236761607540856,0.0,0.17600373298401822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06173290797291184,0.0,0.045202624620371584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0386777691947444,0.0,0.0,0.22842689870943356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06201010873921463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19104735371041948,0.050309458054515366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04338175347163596,0.031863738703126546,0.06280599420596558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0371001348607457,0.0,0.053379889317335005,0.2844350733304865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04508756454495472,0.09669250276764074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04913210884126088,0.0506561441279642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055687573497233966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10556810176149134 alcoholism,whut_up_ribs,2019/04/25,"Tomorrow might finally be the day... This is my first post here. In the interest of being transparent, I'll tell you guys that I'm drinking right now. So, I suffer from (medically diagnosed) Bi-Polar Disorder and what I can only conclude is ""mild Schizophrenia"" because I refuse to talk to a therapist about hallucinations. At any rate, I don't really need advice or encouragement, I'd just like to get some perspective on this thing; Alcohol has always been ""my"" drug. Every other chemical I've exposed myself to has paled in comparison. Even weed is an uncomfortable buzz for me, and I've not smoked in probably three years. But man, alcohol... I've never felt like a real person when I was sober. I've always felt like I was processing the world around me at 120fps while everyone else was seeing 60fps. If I was sober, you could talk to me for 45 minutes and I'd not retain a single thing you said, but put about nine beers in me and I will be more interested in your story than a dude who has had three lines and a pot of coffee. I've done a shitload of drugs, especially downers, but beer is better than all of them. So my question to those of you who are drying out is: How do you go on sober?",4.773792553191488,5.729167536170214,6.1057845744680845,77.4471875,69.38297872340425,9.619680851063832,27.45345744680851,9.827888789773867,2.5154734042553195,941,30,182,22,16,318,149,235,0.039,0.885,0.076,0.8479,1,0,8,0,0,0,36.0,0,6,1,3,11,8,0,0,10,0,25,9,0,2,2,29,33,15,0,3,8,0,2,3,0,2,6,1,0,3,10,7,5,2,4,3,0,2,4,1,0,4,10,4,23,7,29,17,4,25,0,1,1,0,19,13,0,5,12,127,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13372357683001165,0.0,0.2924918712270808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2277323907752392,0.0,0.0,0.09305945031810543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12182126926908825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0834195832175433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12102848700983415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10925978247798496,0.0,0.0,0.08825385365491369,0.0,0.0,0.13889502981370114,0.0,0.0,0.15683649147760426,0.0,0.0,0.1400401838881493,0.0,0.13405622974264442,0.3173940470472809,0.0,0.11431663165969395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09038498505489052,0.0,0.1152980099661096,0.13076148345845573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26278576565305883,0.1499072626094348,0.0,0.1164004843506621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07149598559151317,0.0,0.07777229889100998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1354982943622988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20056700396683516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13785717429534705,0.0,0.14517116557813822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10146900549764837,0.1055434790858014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10407696534579264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1194879781324698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13105990464866832,0.0,0.1475423052261489,0.0,0.0,0.13756725497082786,0.15329797823576904,0.0,0.0,0.15575983314144407,0.08766655968053615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116865080336913,0.13017115278409425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10904793241609154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21998202759937888,0.11960876438240245,0.0,0.0,0.15888786158660706,0.18182778284955894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08812384269941728 alcoholism,mixwart,2019/04/25,"How to talk to someone breaking a break My uncle said he was taking a month long break from drinking. It's been two days and he's having a half glass of beer after 'a hard day at work'. 'well I broke my rule. Just this one and I'm done.' posting on Reddit cause he and I are in a pretty toxic to an alcoholic environment and not sure what to say. He hasn't taken another but probably will, if not in a half hour, tomorrow. Any suggestions? I don't really like this guy, but I care about him",-0.13749066467513416,2.1004473495145675,2.393203883495147,92.0163778939507,90.06796116504854,5.887677371172518,17.631814787154592,7.321109707123232,0.35721418969380103,379,10,84,7,13,130,76,103,0.078,0.841,0.08199999999999999,0.3354,0,0,3,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,4,5,0,0,7,0,8,3,0,2,1,13,13,8,0,1,6,0,1,1,0,1,1,2,0,1,4,4,3,0,0,2,0,0,4,1,1,4,5,3,7,4,12,7,0,15,0,1,0,0,10,4,0,1,8,54,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2203948027458269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14024197739547295,0.21624783201219014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2102629887755985,0.21185276099270234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2659997433259664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21104264248462565,0.0,0.2020247344791432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2041979473350226,0.0,0.0,0.1847396035643426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2030928438074936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10075248721988968,0.0,0.0,0.18250511539743505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16460906424297694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13974529603482894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19750922794367068,0.20980781514061814,0.222348451056516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13211481089808927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19616986564918346,0.16400062574205793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17473614762786258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1943672630325788,0.0,0.1550576419394944,0.16575809569337288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20145459674496288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18542356120306755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1501362962129758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,tarotdactyl,2019/09/25,"first steps Hey everybody! Today is my first day of sobriety. I've been browsing this subreddit ever since I got off work today. I've been very hesitant with giving up alcohol and knew I was an alcoholic, but kept ignoring the consequences of it. People can't usually tell when I'm drinking unless I'm completely shitfaced, which I was using to my advantage to day drink constantly these past few months. When I do get shitfaced tho, I start verbal arguments with my boyfriend and my family and friends for no real reasons. The arguments themselves are nonsensical and only serve to hurt people. After an argument last night, I extremely upset my boyfriend and his brother and sister-in-law and mostly shattered what relationship his family and I have. I'm trying to be better now. I don't want to be a toxic boyfriend or son or friend. I don't want my behavior to harm people. I've been careless and reckless and need it to stop. I told my boyfriend everything about my alcoholism just now and hes here for me and already trying to help figure out plans for the future. I'm going to talk to his family shortly and try to make amends. I'm going to talk to my family tonight. I have this support in my life, I should definitely use it. I'm so anxious but also happy to finally start getting better. If anybody has specific advice on how to begin, I would be thankful.",4.1914920194309495,6.266512160305346,5.583553088133243,76.24269257460098,72.43511450381679,9.038445523941707,29.848022206800838,9.573946990214177,3.1644061068702287,1094,47,188,28,22,367,153,262,0.172,0.688,0.14,-0.7782,0,0,5,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,7,12,13,0,1,6,0,20,6,0,5,1,41,46,25,0,6,7,2,0,0,2,2,4,0,0,0,8,16,5,3,3,2,0,3,4,5,0,2,9,0,28,8,30,32,2,34,0,1,0,0,16,6,0,4,25,125,36,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1018280719816097,0.0,0.3340908614253709,0.0,0.0,0.11499298037849233,0.08333282524774845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11772216495703346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18432198388963236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1092571230116638,0.11260875359347572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13440740930899342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20416276225051702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0942595290557719,0.0,0.0,0.0936528746241554,0.0,0.3929413865374967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11415165440095915,0.0,0.1772737041609452,0.0,0.0,0.16101728937694598,0.0,0.10888578573490286,0.09996308048345587,0.1184443826194705,0.0,0.08334238221815686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11092832577356193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0698465192170207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1115537742421782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0849411098528419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07360318307991699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06955775049817194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08317556098752983,0.0,0.0,0.0772668024640961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09778947943601304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07925271646248973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09947561203482062,0.21672820262401665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11860828043159892,0.0,0.10714025525301928,0.0,0.11187733937351488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08619958150011713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14751389088334238,0.0,0.0,0.08712017604061396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11825077563500815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675123136253314,0.09107989898180184,0.0959381068293656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19754860615114905,0.09957249174508594,0.0,0.21224538124405246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.179999593876617,0.11476725684855607,0.0859801665782713,0.1229258012157294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07586259432026993,0.0,0.0,0.0740243527131452,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,none6,2019/09/25,"Odd of having bad withdraws? I’m 36 and have been drinking what I consider heavy for about 5 months now ( half a pint of 80 proof a day with a couple beers) I’ve gotten tired of feeling like crap when I’m not drinking so I decided to quit. I have not had a drink in about 36 hours, I have some anxiety and some diarrhea. I’m worried about seizures and dts etc... do y’all think this stuff will be an issue for me.",1.197272727272729,2.8907196363636416,2.779545454545456,94.7268181818182,79.9090909090909,6.218181818181819,22.363636363636363,7.1686216300943375,0.5306772727272726,320,10,75,4,8,105,63,88,0.17800000000000002,0.775,0.047,-0.8807,0,0,4,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,1,6,3,1,0,5,0,9,6,1,0,1,12,15,5,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,4,4,0,3,4,0,0,2,2,0,1,3,1,6,1,11,10,3,6,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,2,6,46,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1641873433592274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17920269816260878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23747819939898024,0.0,0.13841520581145267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6307516282299727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23936332545871555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10852072041095832,0.15332796154130784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21136214210552046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22401247373221012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1048548098594758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1713114247460112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2282798362241809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2456939858334502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13752287117240342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2466795731362016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21796184785936454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,fatbathellcat,2019/09/25,"I am about to confront my high functioning alcoholic sister I love my sister so much and I need your best advice. She has gotten blackout drunk at so many parties, stolen alcohol, had a very serious car accident while inebriated and has become so aggressive and defensive you can’t hold a conversation with her. I desperately want this to work out, she recently got a new boyfriend and a new job which has toned down her aggression but the drunkenness has stayed the same. I love my sister so much I just want her to stop drinking. Any and all advice as to how I can help her and how to tackle the intervention would be greatly appreciated.",6.244500000000002,7.41207245,6.878333333333334,72.46500000000002,66.16666666666666,11.0,32.5,10.9516,3.8145000000000007,514,21,92,15,8,169,80,120,0.125,0.6829999999999999,0.191,0.9134,1,0,3,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,2,8,9,4,0,7,0,10,6,0,2,1,21,17,15,0,4,2,3,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,8,4,3,0,2,0,1,1,5,0,0,3,0,18,4,11,12,5,11,0,0,0,2,15,4,0,0,5,68,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33927714669444303,0.0,0.3710482842804535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11805302223188127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1917260493144585,0.0,0.0,0.18218105336053372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1700605689807257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13884268398404254,0.19139310386064928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11635950325549295,0.1834164851902753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17226985485286272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.313359084975125,0.0,0.0,0.17600176475136695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2552299370339049,0.1287211854455819,0.0,0.3353252797340932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1714077053096966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18503304292847766,0.0,0.1451362289954546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1432370515384851,0.2047859410474408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12638187113307833,0.0,0.0,0.12331948688449447,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,hotdoggoWOOWEE,2019/09/25,I need help. Not for me but for my brother. He has been drinking 12 to 16 beers a night for over a year. He wants to stop and says he only drinks to help himself fall asleep but that is just a sign of dependence. He finally is trying to stop since last night but I want to know the significance of the withdrawals because he said that he is already feeling it and that it is terrible after only one night of not drinking. Tell me how I can help him or how harsh the withdrawals will be. 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I’ve recently been promoted so I’m working full time with part time school and I’m stressing myself out. I’m working 12 hour shifts so I have my weekends off to party but I’m neglecting school and it’s overwhelming me. Last night was my fifth night in a a row going out for drinks and I didn’t even feel like happy to have drinks last night I felt depressed. I woke up hungover as fuck and popped two muscle relaxants for who knows why and got my ass to go to class because I knew if I didn’t go I would just feel worse with myself. I think I might need help, I don’t know how to cope with stress",0.33999999999999986,2.4711741111111145,1.8505555555555588,97.82500000000003,85.66666666666667,4.988888888888889,18.72222222222221,6.322622252153567,-0.23047777777777825,528,14,123,5,16,170,88,144,0.179,0.693,0.128,-0.8934,0,0,2,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,3,5,12,2,3,4,0,9,5,1,1,0,26,30,11,0,3,3,0,4,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,10,2,1,8,4,0,4,3,8,0,1,9,4,18,4,18,19,2,23,0,3,0,3,2,8,3,2,13,66,20,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07838883624864147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11075659088283764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519435229975221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08493417875664587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1950607993336612,0.18373311336420908,0.1234690318371154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23776351506420654,0.0,0.0,0.2192463604097346,0.0,0.10284722424201677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13688918041437428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08619288809904296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12663777704340445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13890204065370604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1413422254023404,0.20964021281594244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12564766708584604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13641639394016894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09534976020588544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36202624351699775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13925322050953876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12696964794214155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3904276338744412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2946047056614036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0823969256008254,0.0,0.0,0.14996672169717326,0.0,0.12189071907221515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12561625426418022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11603479184199895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.187233842901557,0.0,0.13104681334571575,0.09134847121277014,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,kelleyhalp,2019/09/25,"Realizing you have a real problem with alcohol Alcoholism runs in my family and I feel like I’ve been developing a worsening problem lately. Sometimes when I drink I just can’t stop myself until I’m too drunk, annoy people, black out, talk too much,et. I want to be able to moderate myself but I often end up 6-8 drinks deep before I even know it! It’s worse when I’m drinking alone. I end up not doing my school work. I then feel depressed for a while after. What have others done to help themselves, besides the obvious AA?",1.95844155844156,4.338987285714288,4.0908225108225125,82.73493506493509,80.90476190476191,6.865800865800866,22.87878787878788,8.00094639256281,1.4954761904761908,415,14,78,8,11,142,80,105,0.215,0.723,0.062,-0.9312,0,1,5,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,1,7,5,1,0,4,0,7,6,0,0,1,17,13,7,0,3,3,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,3,6,1,4,4,0,1,2,4,1,0,2,3,13,1,11,10,0,16,0,1,1,0,3,5,0,1,11,51,17,2,0.16375353804568413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3500054630797508,0.0,0.16959927993220086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13934219985890106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14104068236833792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675767234347914,0.0,0.4812483769852082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2900740601666576,0.0,0.0,0.1081576674827752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15437226197779916,0.0,0.16559741815838108,0.11698556029934075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10976054477558464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08999466198491739,0.0,0.1847211235175986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08000170717841909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12037769218715323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11352608478757464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3133800410226836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18638737650787854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16572732288638786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16195643629430734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1369052902042454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13161889100734508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0965860794472186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11921452599248332,0.0,0.1668788451246922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,neenahmarx81,2019/09/25,"Feeling good today I didn’t drink yesterday for the first time in a long time and I feel good today. I got good sleep and woke up feeling refreshed enough to wake up early and put a little extra time into my appearance which boosted my confidence. That positive attitude stayed with me this morning and I committed myself to making healthy choices like drinking enough water and eating a sensible lunch. I realize how much one good decision will roll into another good decision and so on. The real question is can I keep this momentum going when I get home after work and my brain tells me to drink??? I hope so, but I have failed so many times before...",7.344494773519165,7.468881056910572,7.571800232288041,72.07317073170735,63.63414634146342,10.931010452961669,34.64459930313589,10.608840637214634,3.825625783972125,522,21,88,12,7,170,85,123,0.038,0.754,0.207,0.9051,0,0,3,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,3,5,8,0,0,5,0,5,9,3,2,1,25,16,13,0,1,1,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,10,6,1,7,3,0,3,1,1,0,2,3,3,15,7,12,12,4,23,0,1,0,0,2,7,0,3,13,60,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329769304547518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10791050521029974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415678483268849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3726922321069791,0.0,0.1297637417961058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2620682709721733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19236492325821425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1078690546851468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06625577567448956,0.0,0.07207207434628014,0.5318334093270065,0.10142580398634612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272061156096886,0.12595623657573993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11271929187692713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06195556441660555,0.12710227597249601,0.0,0.11222757616581844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08465021733230194,0.12857083989369442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0932238589107926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08593334943193613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12748443300828372,0.14206219234982553,0.0,0.0,0.14434360864227969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12690691424502248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351682681762179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11084218779640173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2957881543509539,0.0,0.2404122089144843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09232307040711267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Perfect_Hexagon,2019/09/25,"Do you think I’m an alcoholic based on this description? 24/M, I drink ~6 pints of Miller Lite each night (alone in my apartment) which makes me feel comfortably drunk but still able to walk, think fairly clearly, not act too impulsively. I know not to drive or text ex girlfriends. I’ve only been drinking this much for about a year since beginning my first full time job out of college. In college, I drank maybe half as much volume, but still pretty much each night. I only went really overboard (blackout) maybe 5 times and fortunately didnt get hurt or destroy anything. I don’t really consider my drinking a problem or hindrance on my life. No health problems as reported my a doctor. But I recognize that 6 pints of beer a night is a lot. Much more than normal or recommended. One thing I think is relevant is that I have Bipolar disorder, though I’m being treated successfully with meds. I mention this not because while I don’t know the relationship between alcoholism and mental illnesses, I imagine there is some link that’s manifested in my life so I’m curious is anything comes to your mind. My doctor says I shouldn’t drink any alcohol or caffeine at all. But the latter is definitely not gonna happen lol.",5.321488491048593,6.963329982608697,5.847340153452687,77.23742966751921,68.73913043478261,9.237851662404092,31.790281329923268,9.627879704456738,3.1325959079283887,976,42,174,22,17,315,150,230,0.128,0.7609999999999999,0.11199999999999999,-0.6015,1,1,8,0,0,0,27.0,0,2,0,2,7,7,1,0,8,1,14,17,0,1,2,38,31,16,0,4,13,1,1,0,1,2,10,1,0,0,8,7,10,0,8,6,0,5,9,4,0,3,4,2,22,3,20,24,11,25,0,1,0,0,7,9,0,7,11,109,30,7,0.10321441824886854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3309144707971801,0.0,0.10689900946595443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07018934378244507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16987334356086467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06291855136291584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08891008209222699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11829266539104348,0.21128866129419424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4044433429778921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052188311112898116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08779413143537758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053925273517020936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09127216918662356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10971210007475664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11049316946678744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10242438386599877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11344788995869427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458067920443218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0877492074126628,0.0,0.0,0.06889642565421246,0.0,0.20738551218342752,0.0,0.11464795064949275,0.0,0.10401585730460487,0.0,0.10421713930814518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30349789366437085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29057921877035725,0.1011282153878951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06994076101557302,0.15699843219615922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10500616961226544,0.0,0.1975245177050105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13224359857290552,0.0,0.0,0.1108136582815604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08208024811490568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08538003336383236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16485433548209155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06857107320106556,0.19840689479498688,0.10140764188128837,0.0,0.12037031461855932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09568079977770837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06646670133464246 alcoholism,kaurokauro,2019/09/25,"Tips for my dad and his recovery. Hi everyone. It’s been a very long journey but my dad is finally working on his sobriety from alcohol. He’s had a few relapses along the way and but he’s working really hard. Do you have any advice for my brother and I on how to help him along his journey? I want to respect his space but encourage him all the same in the decision he’s made to become sober. Thank you in advance for all your help!",1.9883333333333333,3.781986,4.137500000000003,85.43625000000003,77.8888888888889,8.5,27.91666666666667,9.188382445141503,2.486666666666667,340,15,72,9,8,117,58,90,0.021,0.767,0.212,0.9620000000000001,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,3,0,3,1,3,0,0,5,0,5,1,0,2,2,15,8,7,0,1,3,3,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,1,14,3,13,5,4,11,0,0,0,0,19,5,0,0,2,49,15,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25058490662377353,0.0,0.27405058246692604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17438430994158532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2832118498572335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24503423329811325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2809115512290134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2297150174630228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3437653911222774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22693653640980724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.242644602742612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1642785602384841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2360905109333698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21158538695894905,0.1512517610313747,0.2035458359205992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3733748610582608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,IamTheCheetoMan,2019/09/25,"Night Terrors - Insomnia I am on day 3 after relapsing and binging for about 2 weeks (start of football season). The difference from the past was I expected the normal lethargic few days after, high BP, sweat it out stuff. However this time around I'm having what I feel others have described as night terrors. I have read where people talk about spiders crawling on the bed and other minor physical nightmare inflictions - but mine are more like I think there is a ghost in the room or I hear something in that twilight dream state then BOOM!!! IT LITERALLY FEELS like something or someone smacked the bed. I have been woken up by what sounds like my daughter's keyboard playing in the middle of the night, only to check one of the cameras in my house to make sure it wasn't. (it wasn't). Tonight I woke up from a dream of zombies out in the distance and in the dream I could tell it was just a dream and I shook it off, but then I was started and woke up by the feeling of them crawling on the bed with me...this was alarming because I'm in a hotel alone tonight!!! I know logically what probably happening is I'm having a muscle twitch similar to when you start falling asleep and you leg kicks, but it doesn't help the mater especially combined with the vivid dream. How long does this last? I'm going on 3 days now of barely getting 1-1.5hrs straight sleep without waking up and having to shake off that feeling and drifting off just to have it happen all over again. I have tried melatonin and other over the counter sleep aides and they help put me to sleep, but don't reduce the nightmares/night terrors.",5.344826213443579,6.382464646302253,5.172852549379878,84.35317256162917,68.13183279742765,7.595835247282193,31.20823763589037,7.62386473244151,1.98189193079161,1279,51,243,13,21,395,170,311,0.09300000000000001,0.7959999999999999,0.111,0.7729,1,1,3,0,0,0,34.0,0,2,2,0,11,11,0,6,22,0,22,9,7,2,2,38,44,21,1,3,9,1,4,3,0,0,2,3,4,0,19,15,0,0,7,8,1,6,5,6,0,1,10,8,21,5,48,33,3,59,0,0,1,0,10,28,0,2,27,162,40,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12351193686351565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10616199482842413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07269657766057527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09521519954583048,0.0,0.0,0.2307283090592174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12459581271980558,0.0,0.0,0.10436061949575304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2411951025324586,0.08519560427032101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062305675340269026,0.0,0.0677752123434582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21091313108125093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13440874997820645,0.0,0.1598678659702629,0.12599917175115405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13760394912177298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06553928185059546,0.09720852318443374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17478551459554195,0.0,0.0,0.10553668497016908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07960345954594775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44764994926099777,0.1168443170475564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.080810092646302,0.0906985974049588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11384213551630523,0.0826762155019197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1285767710217638,0.0,0.0,0.11988394389910816,0.0,0.0,0.1192870038859289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3580225686089207,0.0,0.10104414731030527,0.18361623769260285,0.0,0.0,0.2532273390376413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13651813653718475,0.0,0.0,0.1123961734580046,0.0,0.0,0.09585243618159148,0.10423389201232744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07641361688204494,0.0,0.0,0.06953839316978873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08096613484799807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.095658952565032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1149573058997837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,udaikumarr,2019/09/25,"My Dad is an Alcoholic addict :( I'm 21 years boy from India 🇮🇳 . I'm broke , my father has become an alcoholic, he's addicted to it , he is skipping his job and made our home financially unstable. I feel like I'm depressed. I don't like my father , IDK what's wrong with him , he is totally addicted to alcohol. I want to help my mom. What should I do ? I'm desperate for help guys",-0.6610113636363657,1.518903012500001,2.8813636363636377,87.35818181818182,93.875,7.40909090909091,21.022727272727273,8.296473431620573,1.6852500000000004,291,11,64,9,11,106,52,80,0.217,0.65,0.133,-0.8091,1,0,3,0,0,0,13.0,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,2,0,7,6,0,1,1,7,14,1,0,2,0,4,1,2,0,1,6,0,1,2,3,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,1,11,2,6,12,1,1,0,2,0,0,14,0,0,0,3,31,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5637809214979553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5526869437593929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19038759235007166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14847643233525626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08716390703454788,0.1231531097008248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17068995885032962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2310943739890955,0.0,0.17291793920784956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17106722334918242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16843889100820306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16311648589631073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20189724707058135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10167815589633007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18847782040755354,0.0,0.1110113980023775 alcoholism,HaleyIncarnate,2019/09/25,"How hard has it been to withdraw from alcoholism when you’re depressed, and on medication for depression? I’ve been on my medicine (Effexor XR) for two years now and it’s gotten to the point where if I don’t drink after possibly five days, I get incredibly depressed, despite the meds. And I know you aren’t supposed to drink on this, but I started it with doing it. I go to therapy, and it kinda helps, but these fucking voices in my head... I can’t. It’s hard. So hey, how should I go about this?",2.9297277227722773,4.385375178217823,4.4050371287128725,85.96715965346534,74.44554455445544,7.822277227722773,27.476485148514854,8.472884824447931,1.8483752475247528,387,15,82,7,8,129,66,101,0.105,0.8640000000000001,0.032,-0.5926,1,0,3,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,0,0,7,4,1,0,2,0,8,6,1,2,0,13,15,11,0,2,3,0,2,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,9,5,3,0,1,2,0,2,3,4,0,2,3,3,10,0,14,11,0,14,0,3,0,1,3,6,1,2,6,58,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20529790196148506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12388946687207768,0.0,0.4963697868025278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3763723428698638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1775945857805793,0.1003650171816962,0.0,0.21835122769138476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3441701215132138,0.0,0.19715138767468865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1287614733913039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10557386808003484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21338127349786454,0.19352188171548165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18159785120012506,0.21656538786254392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1359703113966671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21968461472410533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876550877650902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12370695939736773 alcoholism,skylerdick090200,2019/09/25,"Question for young people struggling with alcohol abuse Dont know if this is the place to post this question but I a (19 m) have been struggling with alcohol abuse for a year now and just recently thought to myself how I have ruined something that can be so special to some people. I have realized that from now on for the rest of my life I will never be able to drink alcohol like a normal person. I have turned something that should be used for relaxing or having fun and ruined it forever. And I have so much guilt and hatred for myself for turning something everyone should experience and have fun with and turning it into my worst nightmare. So really what im trying to ask is, Do any young alcohol abuse victims feel like they are being robbed of experiencing the great things about alcohol?",11.147439293598232,7.983704682119208,10.323013245033113,65.87626379690953,58.47019867549668,13.510375275938193,41.72295805739515,11.538034831475384,4.72068123620309,641,25,112,13,6,206,88,151,0.231,0.617,0.152,-0.9475,0,0,9,0,3,0,8.0,0,0,1,0,8,14,1,3,6,0,21,7,0,2,1,27,29,13,0,4,4,0,1,2,0,3,6,0,0,1,9,10,6,0,6,2,0,0,2,7,0,0,2,2,11,7,20,20,4,11,0,2,0,0,5,3,0,5,9,88,20,0,0.10607630128368746,0.3770492138880619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5668165310453688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07213552238427287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09916702245214433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12432063508941317,0.10391439158834508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10136045167658793,0.0,0.10376297710181516,0.0,0.0,0.05363536516526635,0.07578093083211351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1169494966475058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1145806081710733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058296761050576365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0749248286455899,0.103647045372538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07797828673916704,0.0,0.08181258294652327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10393225312671464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14707990211636962,0.09262173472723946,0.11082715765160428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10159177443180446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2376594682794645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06795519484126106,0.0,0.1047375503773024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24498815744212146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2217879634719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07047238112299058,0.0,0.0,0.08421273438141423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07201884554033458,0.3461416656598241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09161586607496293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06830966017854481 alcoholism,coachpotatodream,2019/09/25,"Me and my boyfriend are fighting. 2 months, 3 weeks, 5 days sober. I just want to pour 3 shots of my Sambuca. That’s all. I’ll stop after that. Alcohol withdrawal sucks but maybe I deserve it. I hate this disease but it’s such a comfort knowing I have alcohol in the house. Fighting with my boyfriend makes me want to do nothing more than drink.",-0.12456521739130365,2.061694695652175,1.1887318840579724,96.7813586956522,102.04347826086956,4.618840579710144,24.59057971014493,6.42735559955562,0.9504579710144938,270,13,57,4,12,85,52,69,0.196,0.703,0.10099999999999999,-0.8176,0,0,3,0,5,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,2,5,4,0,2,0,3,3,0,1,1,11,9,3,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,2,3,1,1,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,9,1,7,9,2,6,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,5,33,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5652411914746109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1705507684122974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590639620391299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2610932934600739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3051440807802451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14533684565694585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17652490822468828,0.0,0.2656793016305861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21108443221214493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25375047182020216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22109514712515385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3119633056365616,0.0,0.21212881850524654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Alexapro_,2019/09/25,"Not sure if this is the place, I hope so. But, my mothers an alcoholic and I’m worried about my own drinking habits. My mother’s alcoholism is very “discreet” per day. She is what you’d call a “functioning alcoholic”, she goes to work every day, keeps the household in check, etc. But she also drinks until she passes out every night when she gets home from work. I’ve never seen her have just one drink and contain herself, she can not drink without getting drunk. I know she has a problem because any time she sees me drink she says “please don’t be like me”, and this could simply be me having one drink with dinner. My concern here, is from watching my mother and from her saying “please don’t be like me” anytime I so much as look at alcohol I feel guilty when I drink. The worst part? I just turned 21 last month and can now legally drink so I’m drinking more often. I feel like sometimes I want a glass of wine or two with dinner or I want a beer on a random Tuesday night. Sometimes if I have nothing going on I get carried away and get a little tipsy (fair note, I’m small and 2-3 drinks gets my drunk so it’s not like I’m drinking a lot). I don’t feel a need to get drunk, I don’t drink to numb the pain. I’m 21 and it’s like I’m in a whole new exciting world, but every time I drink I feel guilty - like I’m gonna be my mom. And every time I have a drink at the end of the day I get worried that I’m heading down that path. I do not drink every single day. At absolute max I will drink 4 days a week and that could be just having a single beer - not getting drunk. I drink until I’m drunk maybe once a week if my friends invite me out to a bar or party because well I’m a 21 year old college student. I also know my limits and have never once blacked out or gotten ill from drinking. Basically I’m having a hard time deciding if my behavior is that of the average college student or if I’m showing signs of alcoholism like my mother. I’m really scared and I can never drink without feeling guilt or hearing my mother say “don’t be like me” in the back of my head. I’m really sorry if this is the wrong sub I just need advice and don’t know where to turn. If you want to direct me to a sub better suited for this issue please go ahead. My intentions are not to hurt or offend or trigger anyone I’m just concerned and anxious and want advice. I have seen first hand what alcoholism does, I have the utmost respect for everyone fighting this and I am so proud of everyone who is actively trying to get better - you are so strong. So I genuinely apologize if I am out of line here, I just feel so much guilt all the time and do not know where to turn.",2.3635965197593123,3.643652618962438,3.90895877378436,89.66546775898522,75.58318425760287,6.5845015449666615,23.616888925028466,7.075746649084167,0.7532250447227198,2070,61,451,21,44,689,225,559,0.077,0.75,0.174,0.9933,0,0,28,0,2,0,45.0,0,3,0,9,27,29,2,3,29,0,42,42,3,2,5,92,96,51,0,18,34,6,8,8,1,2,9,4,1,0,14,23,36,3,11,29,1,3,18,11,1,4,3,18,65,18,46,82,12,55,0,1,6,0,30,20,0,20,40,283,79,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0792506121994572,0.0,0.26001577740749554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0648561569386011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.027575610013894164,0.0,0.0,0.045810322540405735,0.0,0.028353728523239707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03809836307807196,0.03118069518862225,0.0,0.04943820077306032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07172693040731444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04140641334676636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06475226624521845,0.0,0.0,0.13075801771298998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035485860720442367,0.0,0.0,0.7547536942773231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035915550001380185,0.0,0.04522432888306439,0.0,0.0,0.17082697927697416,0.07749514230661872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12302076956242987,0.028969158689725556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034492083833615274,0.0,0.0,0.03132907878321788,0.0,0.19067282995355125,0.0,0.04609136582628733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03632512430743985,0.0,0.08323265986228118,0.0,0.04570316087026959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0406752800102372,0.04027562013978901,0.0,0.0,0.04340995920775808,0.0,0.0,0.04232400166800665,0.0,0.03604299005338436,0.0,0.0,0.08914158764888097,0.03305392523760447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584867154387524,0.040642076368268214,0.0,0.0,0.03405205826762843,0.0,0.0,0.034474434326384126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04073824955699478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04749204793622217,0.03236688076292705,0.0,0.0596183060328041,0.060135101046399526,0.09382472630660088,0.039163754416996786,0.0,0.0761074619322057,0.0,0.038909128346739416,0.0,0.04255074244934623,0.08636954066285397,0.05495589632005614,0.0,0.04314840243835712,0.0,0.0,0.04391204796056103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04236645659913192,0.13353623210652255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038801182450848085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05195515023453578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09674173271412216,0.04059794715447334,0.0,0.03231335718026029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0802106121785811,0.04539276643797549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0382181993180267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11822609652326295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.027531007368210743,0.1323213205686313,0.039611773154624184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033458263059178435,0.09567052397117708,0.0,0.06505404593778345,0.0,0.03645961006884862,0.0,0.0,0.045272987237974634,0.0,0.0781781282186241,0.0,0.05904223585816552,0.08236164226630847,0.0,0.0,0.04433541225344668,0.0,0.02611307836977516 alcoholism,fluty63xx,2019/08/29,"Triggers Hello New to Reddit so sorry for any mistakes. I am 19 and have been a problem drinker for around a year. It has really taken off in the past few months due to memories of trauma. I really struggle to get these out of my head and feel like the are eating away at me. Is there anything I can say or do to make this stop. I want to live a fulfilling life without it being taken over by alcohol.",3.2484738955823325,4.233770493975907,5.017048192771085,83.73151606425706,72.97590361445782,7.9429718875502,25.88152610441768,8.344100000000001,1.6448008032128518,313,10,64,5,6,107,67,83,0.171,0.785,0.044000000000000004,-0.8759999999999999,0,0,2,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,1,5,0,9,4,1,2,0,13,15,4,0,3,2,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,4,2,1,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,3,2,6,1,18,11,1,13,0,0,0,0,2,7,0,1,7,48,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24221902396354786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15412920114375336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18651294717762326,0.20176580509104494,0.0,0.0,0.21294434694823489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23191867402515515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11460062549957135,0.16191820541428828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1184148316644556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23260742676552526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16008900474109716,0.11072933123766046,0.0,0.20013536096153475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1512900744685356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1809091974027585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21889917137065826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21636226940586145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21687263678188715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2903945115599583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18024050931212135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2537151789304019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18948884669930224,0.0,0.23694291316781785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13368354702989474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2184817025476357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14595462825699065 alcoholism,jksltr,2019/08/29,Hypnagogic hallucinations. I've had these before I have even tasted alcohol. For example some voice explaining what I've done during the day. But after many days of drinking these take worse form. Sometimes I would feel that same voice like he's breathing on my neck and hear footsteps and speaking from my fridge if the compressor makes any sound. Are these considered alcohol withdrawal induced hallucinations or just sleep disturbances because of staying awake too much?,8.52447257383966,11.128030329113926,7.3196835443038,66.03539029535865,62.164556962025316,10.836286919831224,37.21729957805907,10.864195022040775,4.822162869198311,392,19,56,11,6,119,66,79,0.07,0.885,0.046,-0.4404,0,0,3,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,2,0,5,7,3,2,0,13,10,5,0,2,4,0,1,1,0,1,2,5,0,0,5,2,4,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,7,4,1,6,7,4,5,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,3,4,34,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4873337491608609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15505049979034186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13898908736263665,0.0,0.1940145621615266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29408736180673023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23332719490998796,0.0,0.2233570620775731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15059445395817878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11528564430449252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2569770145198316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11139120959847644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15219440239481954,0.23116021151139945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16760913253382706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281686046648993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255017296174403,0.0,0.0,0.2430218662884888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17143058965315586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23235549678183276,0.1619674593147828,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,slightlyblighty,2019/08/29,"How do you temporarily counter drunkenness in a serious situation? Being under the influence causes a lot of involuntary behaviours. Is there a way to stop them or do you just let go? There's a temporary soluton for feeling sick which is putting pressure between the flappy part of the thumb and forefinger and I'm not sure if it's placebo but I was wondering. Perhaps alcohol has a similar thing that snaps you out of it temporarily. I know the question is vague so I'll try to give examples. Say you're about to fall over because you're tipsy, how can you snap back in the moment to stop the fall because you know falling would hurt. How do you stop yourself from saying something that is extremely offensive and damaging to relations? I'm aware there's no permanent solution except to let it pass but maybe you hear methods passed around and would like to share it. Thank you",4.2768875502008035,6.709827692771089,5.2175662650602455,77.36618875502012,73.27710843373494,9.486907630522088,32.151004016064256,9.888512548439397,3.695527389558233,711,35,125,21,15,232,106,166,0.19,0.736,0.075,-0.9572,0,0,3,0,0,0,10.0,0,8,1,0,11,9,1,1,11,0,15,2,0,5,1,30,25,12,0,3,7,0,1,1,0,2,2,3,0,0,8,6,1,3,5,0,0,7,2,5,0,0,1,4,11,4,21,19,2,19,0,2,0,0,15,6,0,5,6,87,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17587868882257066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14650502948927646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265466236171489,0.0,0.20064457664242166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1690619985708508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08321314908008366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15787359867689146,0.09353073573144452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18548594448511288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17617900229192035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1808902411026788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33657447125024753,0.0,0.08040214708821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1399142398437274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16533588819378384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17821672582691528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16544151006784846,0.1843596356927524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2617504102840323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18498715945027214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1266964809833354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4127716645698711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15510828271039592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15151688105396793,0.0,0.0,0.10933511384413014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11173439226259473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13063053694231633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17847260292791828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2338161428405738,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,skizo66,2019/08/29,"Stopping for the first time. Pro Tips? Please help. I’m young. I’m only 20. My grandfather drank himself to death. I’m bipolar. I’m borderline. I’m self destructive. Alcohol has ruined me and my life. As soon as I take a sip I can’t stop until I’m passed out. It’s ruined my relationships, it’s made me give up my hobbies. I kept stopping for a while but then fucking up. Yesterday I went to see my psychiatrist. She gave me a prescription for disulfiram as well as another less extreme medication on top of my usual cocktail. I really want to stop. For good. I hate it. I don’t want to do it anymore. I’ve had a bit of a bender last night deciding that that was my last drink. I need your help. Pro tips?",-0.5774568195354384,1.6077638630137017,2.2418165574746887,90.29606611078025,98.72602739726028,6.100774270399048,20.731387730792136,7.423996415210882,1.1319729600952946,548,21,118,13,23,190,89,146,0.147,0.7190000000000001,0.134,-0.2337,0,0,2,0,0,0,23.0,0,1,0,2,2,7,3,0,6,0,6,7,0,1,0,13,25,9,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,6,2,4,5,1,2,0,2,2,5,1,1,7,1,21,2,19,18,2,23,0,2,1,1,9,5,1,0,16,66,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17051993809690869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16731141782338413,0.0,0.0,0.15823955307668158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1741969923417039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1563069763362657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13572071799913582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1475096310498675,0.0,0.15306343510826195,0.0,0.1338304342806643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1575313792053302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21389793331712692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2601235974942964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127011690979145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15097848822931315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1607388043191599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11831090186284746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1497352179178005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1213517327071312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17514775649027403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10221751645390624,0.0,0.0,0.17130654430079426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271477843618526,0.0,0.16645473018490842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.533593536634551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11996843471607616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09304007715958608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1757315849635058,0.0,0.188223945345791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1434626124760291,0.14791269794747738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,fart_chortle_rabbi,2019/08/29,"29 years old. DT's with tactile hallucinations. Inability to make new friends due to invariably blacking out. Pinkish colored urine. Am I gonna die? I just really dont know what to do. If i stay home and hangout with no one, Im fine. But, then im alone all of the time. As soon as I meet new people, the first thing they want to do is get drinks. It's ok the first couple of times, but then I inevitably black out and alienate them. It happens every time. Some diehard friends just wont abandon me. Im not a bad person, im just a fall down drunk. Ive been blacking out since i was seventeen. A few years ago I started going on 3 to 5 day benders with no water and little food, just alcohol. Afterwards, Im disoriented and unable to really eat or move or even hold a conversation for 24 hours. At night i hallucinate... or have extreme sleep paralysis... its hard to tell which one is which. Sometimes, the night terrors hit me in the face or the chest... its cost me a few jobs by now. Finally, I think my kidneys are starting to really suffer. Sometimes i don't pee for a full day even though i drank over a liter of water. When i do, it smells rancid, is sometimes pink or orange or brown, and isnt very much. TL;DR I've been a blackout alcoholic since i was 13 (am 29). DTs, stinky pink pee, cant keep friends because Im liable to blackout at any time.",1.5024094130231305,3.5398004657039763,3.2782591255515463,89.83196015510097,80.44404332129966,6.269768685653162,23.97767081160583,7.3871296695380915,0.9995178232384014,1047,38,226,15,27,349,165,277,0.131,0.7909999999999999,0.078,-0.9419,1,1,3,0,1,0,49.0,0,0,2,2,10,10,0,1,14,1,20,16,7,1,1,34,33,20,1,2,14,0,1,0,3,2,2,0,1,1,9,11,9,3,2,3,1,3,8,5,0,4,5,10,20,5,29,25,6,42,0,2,7,0,9,11,0,8,27,130,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08039857854102983,0.1938578184930345,0.0,0.09393609498647873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06167796032465792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07572929957739767,0.05528884735944015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100355953843215,0.0,0.116985812093646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09413052536710667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1062977427089772,0.08884981365220235,0.0,0.09280701300546854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11981075544942744,0.0,0.07641723715208916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09935556425486344,0.0,0.15429587067213324,0.10967275530787776,0.0,0.21021986573197676,0.0,0.0473861230386799,0.0,0.05154593917071407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08020421514819766,0.0,0.08124786993628323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0909777990550962,0.0,0.08931956462120515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.587818426026239,0.0,0.0900040767434076,0.08061682441021531,0.0,0.0,0.049845418682618964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09090353295868107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060541825568029714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09639794883135737,0.0666736930255007,0.0,0.0,0.1751939840952993,0.0,0.17022843792394132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09517261823956644,0.0,0.12291904299221595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06287878750612487,0.07919426505675607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1743109777016394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1500531569765013,0.0,0.09076381027396616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26910884037058586,0.0,0.1283934599201191,0.09667232964249632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0792743197906455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06025592638995901,0.05811581419554668,0.08911062813121147,0.0,0.21154765351053034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07483560365323551,0.05349621258387715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11681347472162265 alcoholism,SolomanConstantine,2019/08/29,"I can’t sleep anymore. I’ve been a while without doing the drunk thing. But I can’t sleep anymore. My reason for drinking was because of my nightmares/terrors. I can’t sleep a full nights sleep sober. The nightmares rush in and I can’t sleep more than an hour without waking up in a sweat. If I don’t drink I see everything I don’t want to see again. The only solace I get is driving and music. Drunk, and I can’t do that anymore. The last time I did that was to do some maybe suicidal shit. I just want to sleep. 4 hours isn’t enough. I can’t keep driving til I’m lost and buying band merch I don’t need. I’m better but I can’t sleep. I need sleep.",-0.9096367679762808,1.1924797042253523,1.1191030392883654,100.35061897702005,93.50704225352112,3.552853965900667,17.33283914010378,4.9825596385082,-0.8375126760563378,506,14,120,2,19,166,72,142,0.07400000000000001,0.8759999999999999,0.051,-0.5621,0,0,2,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,2,2,3,1,0,8,0,19,15,11,1,0,17,30,9,1,5,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,4,1,1,5,1,3,13,2,0,0,5,2,17,1,12,25,4,15,0,1,2,0,1,4,1,2,8,73,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2931329674979224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06006033343547223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08713794776515582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930352933183261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10180335380994526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0885485184658471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0514755956371279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1940558752684806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08757414172715132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08031157040826124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10755240657345756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09898227741750104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14611107053032818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09245966619130318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07493321113004338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10130079731968623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15702440431234224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10113518353701574,0.0,0.0,0.7887745857299128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.107771090693781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06545607664628393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057451110007472474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11622598476088405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18995045833991056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,lomi08,2019/08/29,"It’s only day four?!? God I want to drink so bad, I’m not going to, but god I want to I’m so frustrated I know I’m gonna fail why not just fail now. I’m sorry I know I’m probably annoying y’all but I literally have no one to talk to and I am just so frustrated it just feels good to type it up and send it out.I didn’t have acute pancreatitis on Sunday so I’m fine I’m fine I should get to drink. I just get so tired, I’ve ruined my life I have no job, no real friends, I can’t talk to my family because my mom hates drunks but when I’m sober I just feel like I have to fix everything immediately. Being sober makes me realize how much I’ve ruined everything in my life and I just want it all to be fixed or I want to drink so bad so I can take the edge off. I’m such a failure. I’m not going to drink. But god I want to. What a stupid thought process. I’m not dying of alcoholism yet so I should get to drink. I fucked up my life with alcohol so I should drink more alcohol to make it better. I just wish I could do rehab or IOP or even just supervised withdrawal. I’d go to rehab in a heartbeat but I have no money. Only debt. Jesus, how did I let it get this bad? Sorry I know this is all over the place but day four is almost over and this time I have to do it but I don’t know. I just wish I could fix it faster or give up on fixing it all together. Thanks if your still here.",-2.0655238095238104,-0.2227268222222208,1.187619047619048,99.01571428571432,98.17460317460316,4.95873015873016,13.984126984126986,6.640361216903883,-0.619615873015873,1061,22,276,17,45,375,134,315,0.254,0.618,0.128,-0.9957,2,0,9,0,0,0,27.0,0,2,0,3,27,20,6,0,5,0,24,17,0,4,3,59,64,28,1,13,25,1,2,1,1,4,9,0,0,0,14,5,10,0,8,7,2,4,11,13,0,3,3,2,36,7,29,52,5,24,1,4,0,1,8,11,1,6,10,167,50,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2875564790696413,0.08981235340919874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2246641473443487,0.0546746627746345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07932420012373433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14322156815948844,0.0,0.0,0.11568625737582422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09308486208416138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5271768717595277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05923990970896214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16121656705469875,0.0,0.08455247856181321,0.0,0.09070069952555183,0.06407510619151409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06929486877466562,0.08291767443143101,0.1874389082842617,0.08603956222609463,0.15291999975539836,0.07522836508857987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08855106965365572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08900425274371218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19716681301856345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09171489218446936,0.19005373643996226,0.043818381258703985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11973857494888053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10504474939568023,0.0,0.0,0.06593303814799703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060776789037479566,0.13642774905861285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09370776813447283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0967018231461916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10208773554566067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2008029546865264,0.0,0.0,0.07162716721997102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06743629918288598,0.14418009191092415,0.0,0.08257521349359627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07120445524905404,0.05229941104242705,0.10308634958093543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2645097087780253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0809319721747515,0.0,0.206279925277118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,loonybin123,2019/08/29,"Did you ever feel like Did you ever feel like alcohol gave you your personality? Like without alcohol you’re boring. But when you’re drunk, that’s when your real personality comes out. And that’s when your fun. I look to alcohol to help me bring out my fun side. But I know it’s not normal and healthy. And I should just be me.",0.8945149253731373,3.3082007462686605,2.998638059701495,88.48064365671644,86.31343283582089,6.335074626865673,18.82276119402985,7.645422480735847,0.5912701492537313,258,7,56,5,8,87,38,67,0.063,0.6809999999999999,0.256,0.9202,0,0,3,0,0,0,8.0,0,6,0,0,6,6,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,2,19,11,8,0,2,5,0,2,3,0,1,3,0,0,2,3,6,4,0,3,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,3,3,12,5,5,6,0,10,0,0,1,0,10,3,0,0,8,36,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6147726377391541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16517707901309736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3469007147482948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.193910804835685,0.2739748530391036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12852709790608327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10538169936756073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2810405306988339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16102310321599606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878759172244678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3348603122379269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2182553725281336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18484176067189628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,GlumEase,2019/08/29,"Attempting To Find Forgiveness (Non-Religious) Hello All. This is my first post in this sub and probably my biggest step to really addressing my alcoholism. I'll do my best to make this short and sweet: I have kind of a cliche story; grew up in an alcoholic/abusive household (mom) and have several alcoholic family members. Fights (verbal and physical) weren't uncommon at home, family get togethers, etc. Because of this, I avoided alcohol through most of my childhood/young adulthood. I first started drinking when I was 20, but didn't start drinking heavily until I moved out of state when I was in my mid-20s. I've had lots of good times with alcohol and lots of bad times. Some of the good are really good and some of the bad are really bad. I've always chalked it up to ""growing up"" and that I'd start drinking responsibly when I finally did ""grow up,"" but I'm now pushing 40 and have yet to learn how to drink responsibly. I'm exploring lots of avenues, including AA, TSM, etc, but that's not what this particular post is about. What I'm trying to figure out (and is probably a direct connection to my drinking) is how does one forgive themselves from what they've done while intoxicated? I've found it difficult to forgive myself because as much as I want to change, as much as I want to say this time will be different, I still end up here. That, combined with how I must have looked to people while making a fool of myself and it just fills me with dreadful shame. I'm ""that"" guy or ""that"" family member. I've always rationalized my shame with, ""at least I'm not THAT bad,"" but that's irrelevant when my behavior is still destructive to myself and those around me. Anyways, like I said, these are my first steps and I'm not really sure where I'm supposed to go from here. Thanks for listening.",6.192603908615467,6.602591791907513,6.796407927332782,75.68160886319848,66.05202312138728,10.98353977429122,33.2391962565373,10.813802987103665,3.6368421690063295,1424,58,269,38,21,468,176,346,0.124,0.78,0.096,-0.9472,1,1,10,0,1,0,57.0,0,0,0,5,19,24,2,4,6,0,23,10,0,5,3,53,44,31,0,3,9,1,0,1,0,2,5,3,2,1,21,19,9,1,8,5,0,10,5,12,1,4,9,5,27,12,51,32,13,51,0,0,1,0,10,16,0,7,23,183,48,2,0.0,0.09848242235997268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3553157282705073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13832333175554598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07399353155968331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2776035698733017,0.10133714088741927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0872282616498494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08792887999199385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0868416632109001,0.0,0.0,0.07273799634913784,0.08505959450531655,0.0,0.4071248775254513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07361876228558628,0.0,0.18539931129772744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23507158519798224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09105280082426087,0.07596925946222788,0.2121029348332844,0.0,0.09113569243654968,0.0,0.0,0.043426246483861536,0.0,0.04723844273654512,0.20914881898224733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08230087718125655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08337513332966469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08655564699459067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0406077445175575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06979902529247456,0.0,0.0,0.21199440232767686,0.0,0.0,0.11096515482197808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09734796731048387,0.0,0.08834234197788501,0.12220405644712876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056323585010142736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05762424840323889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15921005008426808,0.0,0.17923267888507666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2129926371435897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07906520232041515,0.06609956433451057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09390081023953592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17649616638363685,0.0,0.13275788029742389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07833867309476929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07652480709484569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14540207061672847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0564323443980433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0980514785615271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,anonymous-drunk,2019/08/29,I just realized I’m drunk just like my fucking dad Fuck. I’ve always hated that about him. I’m morenlike him than I thought,0.8375641025641016,3.1739425000000066,2.313076923076924,93.91525641025645,85.53846153846153,5.005128205128205,24.051282051282055,6.42735559955562,0.6725282051282053,99,4,21,1,3,32,19,26,0.34700000000000003,0.569,0.084,-0.835,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,6,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,5,1,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,2,0,1,10,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3409842008776618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7577020433716557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4045900158162625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20020627233349486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3253332996211164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Galdina,2019/08/29,"How do you guys deal with your social circles? Hey, everyone. I think it's time to admit to myself that I'm an alcoholic. Every time I drink (only during the weekends), I binge and feel extremely guilty the next day. The days of the weekend in which I drink lightly and go back home without pouring more alcohol are rare, most of the time I pass through the local gas station and buy a few more beers. I think that I'm only making a move now because I noticed that I always had difficulties with losing weight, and although I'm not fat, I always wanted to have a leaner build. Drinking makes it harder because after the first few drinks it's very hard to stop. I had other personal problems as well. However, because I'm 23yo, I go out a lot with my friends to drink. They wouldn't push me to it, but eventually, I feel that I have to drink. Cutting contact isn't an alternative, since they're my rock and basically the only people who understand and accept me as I am. I feel lonely most of the time and have a hard time connecting with other people because I don't feel the same identification and admiration that I feel for my friends. They're also very stressed and busy people, and I cannot deny their right of drinking if that's what they want to do during the weekends. What can I do?",5.906536458333335,5.939033976562502,6.59959375,78.14436458333336,66.65625,9.014166666666666,31.519791666666666,8.648137234880735,2.407726354166668,1022,37,196,14,15,337,134,256,0.086,0.825,0.08900000000000001,0.5733,1,2,10,0,0,0,27.0,0,2,3,2,6,10,1,1,18,0,15,12,1,3,0,42,34,17,0,5,4,0,8,0,2,1,3,0,1,2,16,15,12,1,11,12,1,5,6,5,1,1,2,9,30,5,24,31,8,25,0,2,0,0,15,4,0,4,16,131,46,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1923888763459768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0719818040386504,0.14979280820702226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0692129412780685,0.0,0.2194796021255983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11609936143961523,0.09279744001529502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6172359289649998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07583819163673668,0.08600941546294888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2275614566480817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07656335301354501,0.0,0.0,0.13908462765192456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.102310707861474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08912509086080027,0.0,0.0,0.16126444137312151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09028842204406078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1006993408384697,0.0,0.07652417575017141,0.0,0.0,0.1201661494337498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09566750106799628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09572777266019596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10247817683448024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20537237837455152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1872069855372195,0.07859417683410176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08612841844110386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07686894475315363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07445807057792933,0.0,0.0,0.09175492995525164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07525326809602723,0.10310735347856126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11535089250387424,0.0,0.0,0.2624308350631557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09370467729581927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1485370856789681,0.106181698605542,0.0,0.0,0.10960920958969647,0.0809307437005864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08676743999600395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,AFX14,2019/08/29,"Alcoholic tendencies as opposed to alcoholism? I just wanted to see if anyone here has a similar outlook to me and for those who don't, what their opinions of my views are. I wouldn't call myself an alcoholic, I'd say I have alcoholic tendencies. I can accidentally binge (usually when highly stressed) - this canvary from a small to large binge by myself at home or out with friends at the pub/club (which used to end up in a lot of blackouts but I have become increasingly better at avoiding these). I also don't feel the need to drink every day and it's not EVERY time that I take it to excess. Either way I know what my subconscious is capable of even though Im also able to make the conscious decision to stop drinking sometimes which is why I would say I have alcoholic tendencies as opposed to being an alcoholic. Thoughts?",5.437084048027444,6.670146522012581,6.225889079473988,76.17118353344772,68.05660377358491,9.806975414522583,32.693539165237276,10.018931242160765,3.407208805031446,663,29,119,16,11,218,105,159,0.051,0.885,0.064,0.4696,0,1,8,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,1,7,4,0,2,8,0,13,8,0,2,0,27,22,11,0,5,6,0,1,0,1,2,6,2,1,0,11,4,8,4,5,2,0,1,4,2,0,0,1,5,16,2,25,18,3,16,0,0,2,0,6,8,0,4,6,88,27,0,0.11501479809938947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7374950456075687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839545849727595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0804210210583494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12702480824701498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10172124234048184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11744296828481228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07417502983726011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22534143109290994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10186897291535373,0.0,0.0,0.07596618941425158,0.0,0.19380985589260397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058154937727064135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08886014770504587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12151944894260752,0.1153692202271175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12423571858578605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0632091251385996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0977814683759989,0.0,0.0,0.07677327083588642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0852820154434823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18292876760921256,0.0,0.0,0.09165190306910484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11375257624106852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09615752123283433,0.13174906262841118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08647681440250808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130014551706242,0.09130890241329853,0.06706605369625941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0993358574139216,0.1266725509381949,0.0,0.06783870784968497,0.09129339323310848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10378296587724194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08170321263403768,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,V8_redditor,2018/12/06,"Substituting addictions As a kid I spent way too much time playing video games, but 2 years ago I decided to stop completely and haven't done any gaming since. Now I spend all of my free time drinking alone in my apartment and it's certainly becoming a problem. I've been seriously considering starting up gaming again with the hope of distracting me from wanting to drink. Not sure if this could work or not...",6.516883116883116,7.553667181818183,6.660155844155844,74.74166233766236,65.49350649350649,10.835324675324678,34.88051948051948,10.793553405168565,3.940139740259741,331,15,60,9,5,106,66,77,0.18600000000000005,0.667,0.147,-0.3276,0,1,2,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,3,8,0,1,3,0,4,3,0,0,3,17,8,6,0,5,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,3,2,1,1,7,3,0,3,3,0,0,3,0,6,6,9,4,2,12,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,3,8,36,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446874190697603,0.0,0.0,0.1989644634435388,0.0,0.0,0.2324661091791317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15263606030080254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2478912294758113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23533519884557105,0.0,0.0,0.1792078363858297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.229693834204051,0.0,0.43975791167370587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22293294622355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16499913057353469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21477166312281104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185670234521638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1588693253427935,0.0,0.0,0.1876531560307541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2115447445316777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2617612533533929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13238847534575165,0.17816072154634235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16340480352384615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14454067934237222 alcoholism,AnyEmphasis,2018/12/06,"Trazodone for withdrawal Hi all, &#x200B; I have a form of narcolepsy where I have extremely long REM periods of sleep and have insane dreams. Even if I sleep 9 hours it can feel like 4 because I have these vivid dreams. In high school, I discovered alcohol's sedative effects and it's all been downhill from there. I drink about a liter of wine or maybe 5 mixed drinks almost daily before bed. I was prescribed Trazodone today for ""insomnia"" but am wondering if anyone else has taken this drug for alcohol withdrawal and can sleep well on it. &#x200B; Thanks!",5.768082524271848,7.818167980582522,5.355521844660196,79.59794296116505,68.22330097087378,9.033495145631068,31.32160194174757,9.516144504307137,3.1043019417475732,454,19,77,10,8,139,74,103,0.019,0.833,0.14800000000000002,0.8622,0,0,6,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,1,5,3,0,0,2,0,10,10,3,1,2,13,14,7,0,2,4,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,1,0,5,3,5,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,2,7,3,10,11,3,8,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,5,5,48,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3032383452441114,0.1420653927798772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30743883863568305,0.3447826339167606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09920095393380676,0.14536573285171145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08648451073090611,0.0,0.12072353881590588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27796320702029953,0.1645277272376348,0.0,0.11851675081750672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0937058291157772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07173529038260006,0.10135415433371174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14989669489362495,0.0,0.0,0.13971640238297595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06931201898400102,0.0,0.0,0.12555320838379366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1425305745709949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14358312785064714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4259266071827314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13061766776560665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13447908791708268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275609342143461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15385529976820608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3447826339167606,0.0 alcoholism,mehaffc,2018/12/06,Y’all ever get secretly drunk? So I work nights which means it’s not that bad that I’m drunk at 10am when I had last night and this night off. Buuuuut my wife doesn’t know that I’m drunk or that I even have alcohol in the house and yeah that kinda feels like a slippery fucking slope. This is also like the 3rd time this’s happened and yeah I’m a little worried rn because I come from a long line of alcoholics and didn’t even get drunk for the first time until well into my 20s because I was worried it’d happen to me. What made y’all realize you might have a problem and what are some things I should think about or read or watch so that when I’m sober again I realize this is a bad fucking trend and to cut this shit out? ,1.130576923076923,3.026792955128208,2.535230769230772,95.40976923076923,80.98717948717949,5.6984615384615385,20.015384615384615,6.742157984588678,0.04637999999999965,575,15,134,6,15,186,97,156,0.146,0.748,0.106,-0.7336,0,0,2,0,0,0,5.0,0,3,0,2,11,10,4,0,8,2,12,9,1,1,1,27,28,15,0,2,4,1,1,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,17,9,6,0,7,5,0,1,3,7,1,1,4,2,13,3,12,21,1,20,0,0,1,2,5,6,3,6,15,83,30,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30616976756918296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11455263230547445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2392064682252882,0.17464112282699662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12339251485356655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1892233773875747,0.12957291608812654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07242875951347058,0.10233395070647393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12184375958576353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26485459681018153,0.14967875311439788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25334140351811235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16528500345820255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0787234704851195,0.11676344460497465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13996412442495668,0.1435686926301452,0.0,0.12676693838797345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13554147733400282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1560353322615667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15195985391436329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4032759809069363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13706570959847256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14328333580278527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1470384944598663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09516532849121284,0.0917853376390062,0.0,0.0,0.1670541235030259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1287940730182856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10428375429577863,0.29094363181399313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,biglybaggins,2018/12/06,"Hey group Hi. I just want to thank you all for this community. I just joined. Will be using it as a coping mechanism. I’m an alcoholic. I passed out at work due to detoxing a few weeks ago. I don’t know if I will be able to keep my job. I have tremors bad right now from not drinking for 2 days. Really, just thanks for the community and I look forward to being here for others like me who are struggling. 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My partner basically hit me with an ultimatum that I need to stop drinking or move out. And I don’t think I’m ready. I just don’t see myself quitting right now. I have a full time job but make barely over minimum wage and my credit is In the garbage. Plus I always, always put alcohol first and just couldn’t manage to get my own apartment right now. So basically I know I’m probably going to end up homeless for awhile. And I don’t care. I’d choose that if it meant I could keep drinking ",2.9644747474747497,4.6029310636363645,4.623939393939394,83.68035353535353,74.72727272727272,7.434343434343432,25.858585858585855,8.167268648758528,1.612010101010101,427,15,86,7,9,144,76,110,0.040999999999999995,0.867,0.092,0.7391,2,0,4,0,2,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,6,2,0,0,3,0,7,4,0,1,1,23,20,9,0,4,5,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,3,7,4,2,4,2,2,3,4,0,0,1,1,1,13,2,11,16,2,19,0,0,1,0,1,8,0,2,8,53,16,4,0.0,0.2114563217953106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3814577016671809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29700064489262984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12478952112840233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1971047467933936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18196081632766797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1424927993173215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34966292278321703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.158070367431991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16143522974757024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15180545376209142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09324257193115257,0.0,0.10142792093290473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17710272674119892,0.1586312525039188,0.0,0.0,0.09808177455578544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11912929700457645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18968406996677992,0.0,0.13233233957991722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19241953088860256,0.0,0.0,0.1794104180936173,0.0,0.18982351651778476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3048227273014339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14221651185207027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1492078920365035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11435558847138633,0.0,0.0,0.10406658128172364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Dee_Lansky,2018/12/06,"This is stupid but I think... scared I might be getting addicted. I’m 17 and Idk I’ve been diagnosed with depression and anxiety by my Therapist... somedays at home it get unbearable, so I drink and I drink. I sneak spirits until I don’t feel depressed... then I collapse on my bed somewhat drunk. I usually only do this on a Friday night. I’m scared I might be becoming addicted... but at the same time it takes away the pain and I don’t feel like killing myself when drunk so Idk... any advice would be good... thank you!",0.6312898751733691,3.1261686407767044,2.4016158113730945,90.94808252427187,90.74757281553396,6.438002773925103,22.89112343966713,7.7094869923839395,1.4255997226074897,402,16,83,9,14,132,67,103,0.327,0.619,0.054000000000000006,-0.9868,0,0,2,0,0,1,24.0,0,1,0,0,3,10,2,2,3,0,11,8,0,0,0,15,20,11,1,1,2,0,2,1,0,3,4,0,2,0,4,5,4,0,3,4,0,0,2,7,0,0,1,2,14,3,8,13,2,11,1,2,0,0,1,5,0,3,7,52,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34991879894901834,0.0,0.15683041396692873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1091397079175933,0.0,0.12277554069964194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1507870257950462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17725022728577908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27646214811745706,0.1628954709409396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3144410956358174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16229862610565565,0.1146551433104116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16770034549022178,0.0,0.0,0.13461263652780958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16098603720994178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17756004062436462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07840802897510178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3405121898978597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15061037927075904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12206100036010335,0.17077424712854228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3213599330901905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1206696173710216,0.0,0.0,0.14775898940687174,0.0,0.18634297479661194,0.0,0.10283645816606797,0.0,0.0,0.0935838709372867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1767586879643418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11400854060885253,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,11never,2018/12/06,"Help me know what to do We have been together for almost a decade. He is an alcoholic now. He drinks every night, usually 3 or more. He will not buy groceries for us because he can't afford it, but come home with a six pack. Then he drinks hard alcohol, he fights. Its gotten really bad. The last time I was going to go to bed, because I had school 7am-4pm, then work from 5pm-11pm. He kept me up until 2am fighting, telling me he's going to leave, until it became apparent that he was mad at me because I wasn't going to have sex that night. Last night he first-faught my room mate, I had to break it up, as it was in the front yard of our house, and he is on probation from his DUI. This hurts because I love him, and I don't want to leave him, I want to help him. But every time I bring up his drinking he lashes out at me. I'm not sure if I can take anymore alcohol fueled fighting. I don't want to marry him like this. What can I do? I want the man I fell in love with, not this person.",0.6564084507042232,2.345587821596247,2.63486150234742,95.14074295774648,81.58215962441315,5.762347417840376,19.57018779342723,6.742157984588678,0.02600863849765256,758,19,180,8,20,254,118,213,0.158,0.752,0.09,-0.8561,2,0,6,0,5,0,31.0,3,0,0,1,1,10,4,0,6,0,19,9,0,0,1,22,36,11,0,5,7,0,1,1,1,1,3,0,4,2,12,7,6,1,1,4,1,8,7,6,0,1,9,1,28,4,28,26,1,32,0,1,0,3,32,10,0,3,14,107,40,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3665614507892068,0.11448793180033258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11338756197737493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09546323567148704,0.2787852149660925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09848771074592706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3360082853286849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19266087921909406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09725154693961648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2599121960151163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10241986389437907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15326992966843855,0.0,0.11468526872077385,0.0,0.0,0.1319248710551788,0.122395785244664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06283439801235134,0.1863932244447716,0.0,0.24212416656195465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05585730308491901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20637989838116813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3218811789797502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09983111993815047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07324461398392676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11571104705643523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1077574501689688,0.0,0.08596414778867502,0.0,0.09993203575238026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13333692253541776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13752845868523114,0.0,0.12592158909710754,0.0,0.2697461393635209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0832357476526876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Flipswitched,2019/09/02,"Yes. Well... For me it is harder. I'm sitting here debating ""having only one drink"", that's why I picked up my phone to get on here. I need the reminder that I am not a ""one drink only"" kind of person. I have attempted it- it either ends with me irritated or drunk- no in between.",-0.9919157088122608,1.0999355172413845,1.978505747126437,92.35595785440613,99.0,4.6467432950191565,16.78927203065134,6.42735559955562,-0.04835095785440613,212,6,46,3,9,74,47,58,0.133,0.82,0.047,-0.5994,0,0,2,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,2,1,4,3,0,1,0,6,7,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,1,3,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,7,2,8,7,1,5,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,1,35,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5420264557297658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2450311869874247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1445390331485159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.288090050214027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20513364250918828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3749325433341191,0.4208119888034146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2415614903305604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2487429966108085,0.0,0.24963502222709816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,RedShell86,2019/09/02,Day 1 I’ve stumbled across this whilst looking for help. I finally have to admit that my life has become uncontrollable due to drinking. So this is my day1. I just want to be sober now,0.8554054054054028,3.4024891351351343,2.2851891891891896,91.85913513513515,90.08108108108108,5.122162162162162,20.913513513513514,6.742157984588678,0.5095772972972976,146,5,30,2,5,47,31,37,0.067,0.777,0.155,0.3182,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,3,7,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,5,6,0,6,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,5,19,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4587213445260445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26786633167782803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40688478760522656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.454995525567267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2784002902714437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2933739256308949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3487893168528484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2449841389660063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,laming,2019/09/02,"I don't know how to stop So I drink 3 liters of wine a day or a 26 of vodka and a 6 pack but I don't really know where to go to get off this, I start uncontrollably shaking when I stop I really don't know what to do. They put me on serequel to get off it which is extremely unhelpful. Im never able to full explain the situation to them when I go in. Anyway, advice? I hate drinking at this point but I have little choice, I've been drinking for a few years. Slowly building up.",1.0004761904761883,2.38261838095238,3.569523809523812,90.2504761904762,79.47619047619048,6.9523809523809526,21.19047619047619,7.793537801064563,0.6760476190476186,370,10,88,6,9,130,69,105,0.156,0.8440000000000001,0.0,-0.9294,0,0,5,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,2,0,6,3,1,2,5,0,7,4,0,1,1,12,17,8,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,4,2,4,5,0,4,4,3,0,0,1,0,12,0,16,16,2,22,0,0,0,0,3,10,0,1,8,58,17,0,0.18774071416666446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18345805305429247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1210772292357289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5517432787409164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19617354887972172,0.0,0.2133947486947424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18535508715947488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20279218776829755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3095321599864741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881655168502894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1447972126132358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17747565804909327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18873127207069584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24054301774179826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2110284287509014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13288384378331788,0.0,0.0,0.3139192870320631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1208988646022326 alcoholism,oldrolo,2019/09/02,"Moderation is harder than abstinence? I have listened this This Naked Mind a couple of times and love Amy Grace's nuanced and compassionate approach. One thing she talks a lot about is how stressful it can be to drink moderately, and this is really hard for me to accept but I think it's finally starting to land. I have a handful of experiences now that confirm this. I used to think I needed alcohol to be sociable, but have recently experimented with abstaining in situations where I would previously have invariably cut loose, such as going to a show at a bar or camping with friends. I am finding that I like being fully aware and present in these moments, and alcohol is not nearly as tempting as I expected it would be. I think it's turning out that my biggest trigger is actually being alone at home with ""nothing better to do."" I still haven't managed to string together more than about a week sober, because as soon as I start to feel normal and my confidence comes back, I find myself thinking ""I can handle it, a couple of beers sounds nice, what harm could that do?"" Which, of course, is typical rationalization and of course I know all too well what harm those ""couple of beers"" can do. I guess I'm just looking to hear something from the community about your experiences on your journey back to the world of the living. Has anyone else felt similarly? Any stories you'd care to share? Any suggestions on how to handle that insidious voice that tells me ""don't be so hard on yourself"" and to ""just relax and don't make it such a big deal""? (I have temporarily nicknamed this voice Hexxus, but am trying to think of a better name for him). Is moderation a tenable goal for anyone who has been addicted to alcohol?",6.191541391941392,7.109419667692312,6.820483516483518,73.72789743589743,66.16923076923078,10.005860805860806,33.014652014652015,10.07000556051586,3.347849816849817,1372,57,247,31,21,451,182,325,0.086,0.795,0.11900000000000001,0.9202,0,1,7,0,0,0,38.0,0,3,0,3,18,17,1,1,13,0,36,10,1,5,1,49,59,21,0,6,7,0,5,1,1,2,4,5,1,0,24,14,7,1,11,6,0,4,4,4,1,1,2,11,27,13,50,47,3,31,0,0,1,1,17,14,0,3,14,182,51,2,0.0,0.0,0.09972735707291897,0.11140738752982958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32764540007391746,0.0,0.10584296491961268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1389919006510906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14291392342742218,0.10471062217608752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1571629452877117,0.0,0.06229698533192569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1807659446184138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10419438241407296,0.0,0.0,0.08803174834734605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08159421090189516,0.3392297190008999,0.0,0.0,0.1053583240262096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10011197198327028,0.0,0.0,0.08537061983548036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2998982940977753,0.0,0.0,0.051672748044457185,0.0,0.09812300875224622,0.1119493790274072,0.18680834296098492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07895542842992723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0580796448072457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11257906444954488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18309288774878502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11518093692071793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10250969018073597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05616357484082393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04992720422975592,0.0,0.09023985721430954,0.0,0.08581787125134538,0.0,0.0,0.08688234183180381,0.0922347729510668,0.0,0.06821580480526301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10318758868694174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07577612957676254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10012917993494568,0.09805864129325977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06924982328278691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0654685886918962,0.0,0.1009050098710764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11487120710375273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07867452935437774,0.0,0.0,0.14466797322359373,0.0,0.08161287805400193,0.0,0.1170637676587705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08214028779613798,0.08932273637556687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0678936664762273,0.3274114217787837,0.0,0.0,0.059590594202804575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06938354290292653,0.11115856749998512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08826347224409323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08197448293419453,0.0,0.09188537439268922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451924698355093,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,edenivu,2019/09/02,"when does it really matter? i'm a 17yr old muslim and I have been drinking fairly constantly since I was 14. for a few months when I was 15, I didn't drink at all (after going through rehab), but that's long gone and I think about drinking all the fucking time. i've skipped class many times due to hangovers and even dealt with police twice while drunk. now I don't drink as often, maybe on weekends, but it feels like i'm always desperate for alcohol and i'm always thinking about it or smelling/tasting it even when there is none. is this even a problem, or a severe one, or am I blowing this out of proportion? thank you for your thoughts",3.5313953488372083,5.014790240310081,3.9851860465116284,89.46708139534884,72.95348837209302,6.710387596899222,26.078294573643408,7.1686216300943375,1.104825736434108,507,17,104,5,10,159,90,129,0.10800000000000001,0.83,0.062,-0.7693,0,0,5,0,0,0,15.0,0,2,0,0,11,4,1,0,5,0,9,8,0,0,2,20,20,14,0,1,5,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,7,6,6,0,4,6,0,2,3,2,0,2,6,1,9,2,14,14,4,19,0,0,0,1,2,3,1,4,15,69,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1687802151112478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2628224965130921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1706673110467158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13820648728752224,0.0,0.0,0.618849042143815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3129358191677276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07985466173215228,0.11282594196384645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14600466982006707,0.0,0.0,0.08975583000958005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07715711193778688,0.0,0.0,0.13976397016587744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1601172514369705,0.15866292250511094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12605902192816984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16572202353295187,0.0,0.10701813668784453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.151118643320514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10117464624824753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17841708306572404,0.0,0.13064215985452096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14540165126584825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20239162284067724,0.0,0.12537957738977626,0.1841816788373173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,charles9090,2019/09/02,"Sober september I've been back on the booze wagon again for the last month and I think it's time to sober up so I'm going to try for a sober month of September. Anyone else with me?",0.4082499999999989,2.260935325000002,2.1750000000000007,97.28,83.25,6.0,15.0,7.1686216300943375,-0.4482499999999998,143,2,35,2,4,47,31,40,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,8,3,0,9,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,6,19,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25404854945271976,0.37227417788493145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2793780852174068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30351531348305066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20648862143237154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2961621697636464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5800125441273867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2328069785849639,0.0,0.0,0.21186044935553586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24667699280302335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Critical_Major,2019/09/02,"Sorry for the rambling post, I just need to vent a little. I've been an alcoholic for over 20 years. In that time I've caused my family emotions damage, myself physical damage. Two years ago I decided to go to rehab. It was a 30 day program. 2 1/2 weeks into it they kicked us all out because they said they ran out of money. A year after that I decided to give rebab another chance. I completed the 30 days and felt great. Three days later I was drinking again. I've tried AA, Celebrate recovery with no help. The cops were banging on my windows last night because my family could not get a hold of me. I fell asleep Friday and woke up on Sunday. That's the second time in a month that I have not remembered a day. 6 months ago I was making 120k a year. Now I am a shell of my former self. I am a web developer by trade but I will do anything legal for money. I tried to kill myself 3 years ago. I could not even do that right. My wife is sick of me. My daughter wants nothing to do with me. I don't blame them. I've tried counseling, seeing a physiatrist. I am at a lost at what to do now.",0.6588245997088791,2.717710506550219,3.0229530567685607,90.38426946870457,83.67248908296943,6.262081513828237,19.585334788937413,7.492282038375204,0.578576273653566,842,23,184,14,24,289,135,229,0.09699999999999999,0.8440000000000001,0.059000000000000004,-0.8846,0,0,2,0,0,1,28.0,1,0,4,1,5,5,1,0,16,0,18,5,1,2,1,24,30,3,1,4,5,2,1,0,0,1,3,1,1,1,8,7,2,1,4,1,3,3,5,4,1,3,10,3,31,1,29,17,1,43,0,3,1,0,11,13,0,0,26,118,39,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3209253833035012,0.12896972358474393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12654301631865672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09930897602037254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471302507517344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12397112674840965,0.0,0.0,0.12653019805176194,0.0,0.0,0.1927055803089316,0.0,0.0,0.31131327003138504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182200026427335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13574823560079355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07970769573757076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2275318537172887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11587128016958854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06305007698485787,0.11576680790034725,0.06858496168419312,0.0,0.0,0.1330496150860895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08088894953615386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13351402703524476,0.0,0.0,0.09836992917403826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1209525992781045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.131735969840282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.080554527741218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19265050945364973,0.0,0.0,0.08948234722934033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11324956999917077,0.0,0.11579527006789203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11557763711292285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13670638984507924,0.10305966483464513,0.11479387459789175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0961659662006295,0.0,0.1258950758539476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1350908609921248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407384164865891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2458004511203788,0.0,0.1178863717899803,0.0,0.14516262359407153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0711799173580532,0.0,0.09680184494554413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3885683245311683 alcoholism,VonVard,2019/09/02,"Where do I start? I need to give this up. I'm constantly anxious and am certain it is due to Alcohol. I'm not a daily drinker but binge excessively over a weekend. Sometimes one night during the week (which sometimes leads me to call in sick for work the next day). I live alone so there's nobody to stop me when I have the urge to get hammered. My friends all drink a considerable amount and lead me to constant temptation. I'm worried I'm going to really fuck something up like lose my apartment or job. Where do I begin? How do you even train your mind to not want to dull the experience of a long day? How do you get through a weekend of people asking you to come down to the pub? Any advice would be genuinely appreciated as I'm quite afraid of what will happen if I continue down this path. Thank you.",2.76909728308501,4.6001979386503065,4.008382997370728,87.06167177914112,75.74846625766871,7.111130587204207,25.753286590709905,7.957251820313856,1.4207654688869409,636,23,133,10,14,208,109,163,0.142,0.747,0.111,-0.6752,1,1,4,0,0,0,15.0,0,5,0,5,8,8,1,1,10,0,10,4,0,4,2,20,28,10,0,4,5,0,0,1,1,2,2,0,0,0,5,3,2,1,1,4,0,4,2,4,0,1,0,0,16,4,23,25,2,29,0,2,0,1,9,9,1,2,17,81,21,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534859723848766,0.0,0.16785895327578898,0.0,0.1626760757117668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10681228067832324,0.0,0.0,0.17744321981217864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14683827726048834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16038497215652034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13530100342586351,0.0,0.3394714975545265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2025929737454787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1538677865493826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10374256843112596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15364358457372013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12135109086255202,0.14520772492924958,0.16412410033091054,0.15067486118525214,0.08926591108962104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13889556488088076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1558667092216869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0767359612566146,0.0,0.13869477159453486,0.1390010892108961,0.0,0.1757199924418698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1585948768772738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11646464553913767,0.0,0.0,0.16704462361188085,0.14739858123757912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10643399402060456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10889184182590114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16706217570411275,0.0,0.0,0.10062239940910754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12091936108895622,0.31069044046829625,0.0,0.11117422014331883,0.0,0.0,0.13131668579908115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14460799786260056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09264334364591402,0.0,0.12599124752754293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11434807544022775,0.15951115580841266,0.0,0.11157728448781892,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,HPPDandstuff,2019/09/02,"Disulfiram Hello there. &#x200B; I have lyme disease, and Disulfiram is a drug that is used to treat alcoholism. When you are on the drug, it has no other effect than just making you hella sick when you drink . If you dont drink, you feel nothing. So by such effect, it retains you from drinking because if you did, you would end up sick and vomiting. &#x200B; Okay so here is the thing, this same drugs cures lyme disease, it was discovered recently, and I desperatelly need it. Since is a alcoholism forum, I decided to post here. If someone can get me a 90 pills x 500 mg stash of this pills, please DM me, I would pay you good. Really need them. If you can get me a 45 pills x 500 mg might do the trick as well. &#x200B; If you know some online pharmacy that is legit and 100% works and would ship me the thing, tell me too pls, is real hard for me to distinguish between scam and real pharmacy Btw I live in europe. Moderators, please bare with me. Alright yo, peace!",2.41,4.759872000000001,3.5878947368421072,87.15026315789473,79.0,6.947368421052633,23.157894736842106,8.032893268588372,1.3477894736842102,760,25,150,14,19,246,115,190,0.085,0.8079999999999999,0.106,0.4949,0,0,8,0,0,0,41.0,0,11,1,3,11,6,1,0,8,2,19,14,0,4,0,32,27,16,0,10,6,0,2,0,0,4,11,0,0,0,11,7,5,1,6,3,1,0,2,1,1,0,2,2,24,5,14,21,2,8,0,0,0,0,14,3,0,7,4,101,35,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21761510417225152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.330944301465776,0.3711432441179837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06206449846190028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11932453657380045,0.29921508872705915,0.3542136315895585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0901764450551617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05147990989355053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10638658973408363,0.0,0.0,0.08539624228825707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0912048005976767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05595397731929684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0899030900040904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06796122942154356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1080079189468045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15098667945190464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09769269506854683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22352105976314615,0.0,0.0,0.09750908523807443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23177185863474745,0.06522426567708475,0.0,0.10052844124917894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08422108956103264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08626615622272253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08898939177965401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13528058656883726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0879340807287531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09154246625708924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07412136160511475,0.0,0.0,0.2169759364623876,0.0,0.3711432441179837,0.0 alcoholism,Iam_Notreal,2019/09/02,I slipped.... Almost two weeks sober and I slipped today. I guess I would like words of encouragement. I don't know. Feeling pretty down on myself right now.,0.8011494252873597,2.8136146896551746,1.3501724137931037,93.99123563218392,109.0,3.3126436781609194,18.626436781609193,5.46131890053228,-0.2041080459770117,122,4,23,1,6,37,24,29,0.141,0.6709999999999999,0.187,0.3187,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,7,5,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,6,2,3,4,0,6,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,2,4,14,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3590553454128749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18130340516163815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3950044947687555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19706030257827864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17517884145173265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3647938725685089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3062162116601585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33988175739388005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3502700909595195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28762265323197383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2547173334226219,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Pierrlebe,2019/06/22,"I beat alcoholism recently I don't know how it exactly happened, when did it happen, what was the final trigger? No idea I've been drinking since I was 16, now I'm 33. I had a lot of addictions, I was definately a poly-tox I still struggle with the use/abuse of stimulants (amphetamines) Life is still a b\*\*\* lol, I have many things to fix/tweak/learn/apply, dreams to accomplish, failures to forget... I can have a drink but it's so strange, I just don't like the taste of alcohol anymore that much, i used to binge drink quiet a lot with no control at all over my consumption The only advice ì could give to alcoholics is keep trying to get of of the booze, there's still hope for most of us in that situation ì've also tried the AA, my conclusion is ""If total abstinence is the only way for it and you're feeling miserable when drinking go for it but I'm the proof that a drink in a while at social gatherings are still possible for some people"". I've been almost alcohol free for almost a year I think, not sure about the exact timing since I didn't notice the change immediately. I mean nowadays I go to a night shop to have sodas or whatever, that would've been a big no-no when I saw alcohol as a necessity....",2.7501916376306643,4.5475070853658535,4.568002322880375,83.17670731707321,75.70731707317074,8.26295005807201,25.12891986062717,8.976282227363876,1.9619212543554008,957,33,195,22,21,325,146,246,0.092,0.84,0.068,-0.6399,0,0,10,0,1,0,40.0,1,0,0,4,14,6,0,2,21,1,21,15,0,5,6,36,37,13,0,3,6,0,1,1,0,0,7,1,0,0,11,3,13,2,6,7,2,2,6,2,1,0,10,4,18,5,28,26,7,23,0,1,1,0,4,6,0,9,15,128,29,1,0.0,0.11048519198441574,0.0,0.10165551926024012,0.0,0.0911221529994411,0.0,0.4982758028325723,0.18675144157018225,0.0,0.0,0.07457144483175929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0924782652739895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09864541259332997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10458703776882862,0.07445199157588027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4567441496373415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04714965632468852,0.0,0.0,0.1021500683951091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04871891922392526,0.08945324149664724,0.10599147116253904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1649201254989279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0926176118687538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10526712814750604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0828842771822605,0.0,0.0,0.05124738574833404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06586475005699158,0.04555690590831737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15855446877062607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09454017102006226,0.0,0.10157584280141052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06854897713870134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08750816679032654,0.0,0.0,0.10616496505378496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418406145688501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06464733497840087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10512459355108347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09207245050654694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1542735966828486,0.10481613890331956,0.0,0.09505593515725218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29787609891420685,0.0,0.0,0.0974844323556935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08788637737852621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06195070249066275,0.059750396864380474,0.0,0.0,0.0543744264274251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12662032991346514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11216744643961483,0.16107493949236878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07401696715518112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06624163909172329,0.0,0.0,0.060049502621087526 alcoholism,lizziemander,2019/06/22,"(Friend of an Alcoholic): I couldn't feel more alone right now. He just won't stop. It doesn't matter what happens. He goes to rehab and the first thing he does when he gets home is drink. He has a partially calcified pancreas. The last time he was in the hospital (for withdrawal -- he had a stomach bug and couldn't even keep his vodka down for 24 hours) he was shuffling around like he had brain damage. He couldn't find his own penis to use the use the urinal. He kept getting out of bed, falling, and when he could walk, defecating down his legs. He's in extreme denial. He won't believe it happened. He doesn't believe or care that he's dying. Anyone who expresses care or concern for him (like me -- I'm his roommate and friend of 30+ years) is being ""clingy"" or ""irrational."" He's going to meetings (or so he says,) but he goes drunk. He's highly functional, you'd never know, but he metabolizes vodka in a very distinctive ""drunk sweat"" -- I can smell it on him daily. He's determined to die. The thrust of this post (and why it's about me -- I feel like a whiner) is that support groups like Al Anon just don't work for me. I don't feel I talk about anything real. Since the meetings are based on steps, whatever I'm feeling has to relate to ""Step 10"" or whatever is on the agenda that week. I can't just feel what I'm feeling -- or at least, don't feel like I can express it in an organic way. I've heard SMART has a support group, but the nearest one is quite far away from where I live. The other option that's been suggested to me is to see a counselor/psychologist -- which I do. But I see her for my own mental-illness related issues. As much as I love my friend, I don't feel it's healthy to neglect myself by talking about him (and my feelings about his illness) for an hour. So... shit. Shitdamnit shit fuck shit. I could cry and scream and beat the snot out of him yet I feel empty, as well. He's withered down to limbs that are skinnier than my wrists. The only part of him that has any mass his his belly -- pancreatitis at work. He looks like a starving Ethiopian child. I feel like there has to be a group out there somewhere -- somewhere that addresses how we *feel* not just how to change ourselves. Yeah, okay, the only thing I can control is myself -- I get that, and maybe one day I'll be ready to get new-age about it all -- but GOD all I want now is a group of people I can cry with. Thanks for the listen. Lizzie",2.4904833613113446,4.0846248400809735,3.536554754616372,91.16743112471613,75.90283400809716,6.438945393502519,23.58724202626641,7.11905507035037,0.7253860570751463,1877,57,407,20,41,604,238,494,0.11900000000000001,0.746,0.135,0.6019,1,1,4,0,0,0,96.0,1,1,0,6,24,26,4,0,26,2,43,17,9,5,4,67,83,29,2,6,16,0,12,7,3,2,3,4,3,1,23,15,4,5,14,5,0,5,14,7,1,3,7,20,44,19,56,65,8,45,0,2,3,2,59,23,4,7,22,242,67,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08432066114457505,0.0,0.08171714399936973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05365505949723552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05516907840357338,0.0,0.06492840554260998,0.07023819105226314,0.0,0.0,0.07412963617745037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1777877354682264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08807907475339145,0.0,0.0,0.1608886780169641,0.0,0.08346628876481775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0884936426943406,0.12599129071732185,0.0,0.17333703358864552,0.05088430839133624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16377256681294633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06904637711755447,0.0,0.0,0.07729247226616431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05211304960645533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4787336858145349,0.16909964265148614,0.0,0.0,0.07211364625707763,0.06711274235978054,0.0,0.0,0.18287503905735927,0.07294225973884898,0.16488906167457926,0.0,0.04484098401580671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13954293926238034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08336273175902081,0.07914365513279151,0.0,0.15540223862111038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0823516443158931,0.0,0.07013040780596341,0.0,0.0,0.04336166259394486,0.0643144548514882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2698276619933414,0.0,0.06967060505216315,0.0,0.06625656554587024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07121080015772367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07926617770894084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07951316697920723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0580009609162363,0.0,0.06085294540786836,0.07620261427835366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.106930069191246,0.12001480234047256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08544157481129963,0.0,0.05469968635467959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07556488844054754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08392041551979429,0.0,0.08980606575598568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06738061333042628,0.0,0.0627448606700694,0.0,0.0,0.12574699897400013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2429707511292529,0.06526732582386875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06596436799948767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17907075110996434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12683449922410284,0.0,0.0726409985801245,0.0,0.0,0.10483599971517783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04600752795593935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13628943362901652,0.0,0.0651011924744312,0.0465375711835459,0.06262756058955453,0.06328923827195414,0.0,0.07094104342585399,0.0,0.07119544748484018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11488103712750175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050809348292940995 alcoholism,standingovulation_,2019/06/22,"I went on a binge and I feel like a failure I’m a binge drinker. I recently went 32 days sober and relapsed and started drinking again. To say I was actually trying to quit would be a lie. Anyways, I am also prescribed a benzo which I take daily for anxiety. I am playing games with my life. Two days ago I went on a two day binge. I woke up Friday morning not even knowing that I went to bed Thursday. I just...woke up. It could have been the last day I was alive since I know mixing alcohol and benzos is very dangerous. Today I am having heart palpitations along with a LOT of anxiety, which is somewhat normal but the level I am experiencing it at is worrisome. I stayed in bed for 12 hours yesterday mostly curled up just on my phone. I feel like a total failure. Why is binge drinking so common? Is it because we want to delay the inevitable hangover that’s impending only to make ourselves feel worse? Just...ugh!",2.258522588522588,4.5339305054945065,3.97860805860806,84.54694749694752,79.10989010989009,6.462026862026862,26.045177045177045,7.594959193182576,1.5722810744810745,720,29,138,11,18,241,111,182,0.132,0.812,0.055999999999999994,-0.9343,0,0,4,0,0,0,23.0,1,0,0,1,6,4,1,0,11,0,17,5,1,1,1,26,32,7,0,4,3,0,3,2,0,1,2,1,2,0,7,8,3,1,5,4,0,4,1,1,0,2,8,5,20,3,19,21,4,29,0,0,0,0,4,9,0,3,17,92,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.12760265922150674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1159106338175349,0.1397424122401931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10456852937456466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2000617103790003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0797099333939488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1044010248917904,0.0,0.0,0.3373168997139301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2561895596136922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08636558540157323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.198348184087578,0.1868295911687012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15495094006368734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12877201979717418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14372428411664684,0.10658665315076436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09235948246170513,0.12776522338908194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1111672682654562,0.0,0.0,0.08728315228209851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12811679764084855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0994486864543911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1390790957014441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12910948375887682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1039854060285014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10816582113197606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09255242808660136,0.13937250141507146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09831506301847838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12394495904708852,0.0,0.0,0.0887772908104782,0.0,0.25546656232618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10789049270488818,0.07712549176812053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4848624141627053,0.11799034112165102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13325536215569567,0.09288797875392807,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,cattywampenheim,2019/06/22,"Delirium tremens obscure case (but maybe not, please read and help if you have experience tremens before) I have been abusing alcohol consistently for at least 12 years (drinking anywhere from 3-12+) drinks usually around two to three times a week since I was around 16 (am 28 now). I know I am not an alcoholic in terms of the addictive sense because I can go weeks without it with no problems and have before, however I love the social aspect of drinking with friends, going to events, etc, so it has been very consistent almost every weekend (and some weeks a weeknight or two) for many years-but usually I keep it to 2-3 nights a week for health's sake. Last weekend without even thinking about it I drank heavily Thursday night, had about six on Friday night, and then Saturday went on an all day and night bender (at least 20 + beers, shots, liquor drinks until my friends and I finally stopped at about 5 AM Saturday morning at an afterhours spot and went home). I did not sleep really (that I can remember) and felt ok when my girlfriend came home (probably because I was still drunk) around 11 AM. As the day went on my hangover obviously started, but it felt like the normal kind of increased braindead hangover I have been through a million times before after a night of binging. She was dogsitting somewhere else so I decided to go along with her at around 3 or 4, and we decided to stop at a Kroger on the way to get some food to make that night as well as some gatorade to recover. I didn't feel like moving an inch so she went ahead to pick stuff up inside without me. This is when shit goes crazy for me. &#x200B; As I'm sitting in the car I suddenly feel this rush of nervous tingling energy sweeping through my arms, chest, and head. It starts to increase intensely and my heart rate skyrockets. I reach for my phone and am trying to call her to get back to the car because I figure I am having a heart attack or something but I literally cannot feel my hands and my mind feels like all of the sudden I can't focus on anything. As it feels like my entire nervous system is going into overdrive I manage to dial her number and while I can barely speak I tell her to get back to the car now I think I am having a heart attack. I am doubled over in the seat trying to calm myself down because I am not fucking going out like this. I take the deepest breaths I can but my breath is very shallow and rapid. She sprints back to the car and once she gets in I tell her to dial 911 immediately and I explain everything the best I can, I still can't feel my hands at all. On speaker phone I speak to the responder and as my adrenaline increases I can explain exactly what is happening. She does a great job of calming me down but still recommends paramedics now; I refuse because I can feel the tingling subsiding a little bit and now maybe I am thinking this is a panic attack and I know ambulances cost like ten grand (which I don't have). Fast forward and I get calm, my symptoms almost completely subside, and eventually we head towards the dogsitting house with plans to immediately go to the hospital if need be. &#x200B; Fast forward to that night and the tremors come and go with varied consistency for the whole night, but nothing in terms of intensity like the first (first was like 9 out of 10 and the the highest any of the others got was maybe a 7). I vomit super hard multiple times at the peak 3 of the tremors, can't really keep any food or liquids down) Around 2 or 3 in the morning they go down and as I am lying in bed and looking at my arm hair I start hallucinating that my arm hairs are waving in slow motion. Upon watching TV I notice the designs on the chair are tripping as well. I think maybe someone put some crazy shit in my drink and that is what caused this I sleep maybe two or three hours-and upon waking up it kind of hits me that this could be delirium tremens (I've heard of this before but it did not come to mind because I don't consistently drink more than two or three days in a row) ; I had all of the symptoms especially during the peak of the tremors ( I felt delirious and was having serious problems with speaking and memory recall, and then the random hallucinations). I see that it can can be fatal so even though they have not occurred since last night I am still very jittery and anxious so I go to the ER, get an IV, and they give me some benzos to come down as well as a scrip. I sleep very well that night and start feeling normal the next day. That was Tuesday (the first day I woke up) and every day since then I have been drinking a ton of water and eating very healthy food, stopped taking the benzos immediately after Monday and have had no desire at all to drink or had any other symptoms besides feeling down for the first few days mentally. Sleep has been very good as well, it's almost like it didn't happen now and I have felt completely fine the past few days. &#x200B; I apologize for the novel but I am trying to get an understanding of this so if anyone has experienced this in a similar way please comment (by similar I mean being more of a binge drinker/alcohol abuser than an ongoing alcoholic) . I never thought that such a crazy reaction would occur and honestly I have been way drunker than this consistently on like vacations for example (multiple nights of blacking out in a row) than I was this time. Shit was the scariest thing I have ever been through and am considering stopping completely, but a lot of my friends and I get drunk and do a lot of things. Stopping would probably mean sacrificing some friendships but if it comes to that so be it. To clarify fully I really did feel like I was on the edge of having a fatal reaction in that parking lot, and I cannot have that happen again. I guess my question is has anyone else experienced a wake up call like this and how did you approach it? Another big question is do you think this was more of a reaction because I drank hard over a three day span or is this occurring because of my continued weekend warrior binging habits over the past decade? Any help would be appreciated, thanks.",7.049427039748956,6.5128783322175785,7.145587735355647,77.08890461558579,64.42259414225941,10.213519874476988,34.98986663179916,9.595489714322824,3.135364278242678,4857,195,934,82,64,1565,436,1195,0.081,0.795,0.125,0.9943,2,0,15,0,1,0,110.0,2,3,3,8,41,50,7,3,74,1,101,57,24,4,9,180,181,94,2,14,32,0,20,12,4,3,12,5,4,0,50,67,22,8,33,18,1,33,21,15,6,15,43,31,114,35,157,127,32,191,0,0,4,2,45,63,4,30,106,650,164,3,0.0,0.0780780342272413,0.0,0.035919126217876164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14084926491743904,0.09898058634608743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1071002441842767,0.12010943199906192,0.08962543209106816,0.034549757752265715,0.0,0.03722283885874458,0.0,0.04607722492825713,0.033760005846005345,0.027114108418984918,0.14665737680056126,0.0,0.11245227155970274,0.0,0.07600692997649251,0.0,0.16068257796864552,0.0,0.1121482290556884,0.0,0.03457780096932208,0.0,0.03597162683142352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0672889500119029,0.037684723811642416,0.0,0.033847560474196604,0.0,0.11353011860984515,0.10363877402826044,0.0,0.0,0.02630698757969217,0.0,0.0,0.1912436288425551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028833773745989888,0.0,0.0,0.2582187510051609,0.0,0.03371491452503148,0.055049097499892376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03674669404530816,0.043524829087203565,0.02980413469481072,0.05552167956682184,0.0,0.029612315251469293,0.03223031230114636,0.0,0.0,0.1665993611542513,0.09415470278166732,0.12654430965113542,0.036093871012114274,0.0,0.11210515073833392,0.11952569481075467,0.0,0.07636863395441425,0.030460694704523138,0.1377153761281019,0.03160755358192284,0.16853039326194302,0.027635944661938232,0.026352217227253817,0.03632623991418847,0.03629688941741764,0.0,0.08740971734892658,0.0,0.05903142233618176,0.0,0.06763008234892358,0.035023102671027845,0.0,0.11713369078345867,0.04416985927175705,0.0,0.06610079603870714,0.0,0.0,0.038018566339512484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032696664358000165,0.05857293013211678,0.0,0.0686223450505969,0.036215668965660634,0.053715445102275175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19316581316880216,0.033023418645579346,0.0,0.0,0.027668748164489304,0.0,0.0,0.08403584012394973,0.02973763701639136,0.0,0.0219936231984453,0.03340497751859295,0.1655078172948735,0.07178194641710972,0.0,0.0,0.033204706202067835,0.0,0.0665379218442251,0.0,0.0,0.035019429027912635,0.0,0.0244311658581986,0.025412195873510245,0.0,0.035041491658606184,0.34012305499999473,0.06456578386622272,0.031615324544101424,0.03751250111586224,0.0,0.035089465824668334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03865839377555675,0.0,0.0,0.06290683965077548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07233591868762511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07104889837842249,0.06305522780909346,0.0,0.03312270980055365,0.07382053886576018,0.0,0.03295778136909068,0.0,0.06332365975014359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03732464097774103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02625597945190177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10146460911376247,0.08176692468341441,0.0,0.1318906408580408,0.033587218456194695,0.02791746633911444,0.025365645965401085,0.0,0.0,0.09328550476082673,0.0,0.10525202440604486,0.1377336322046414,0.0,0.0,0.037718567407483916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10273945969786992,0.04954689179353342,0.0,0.05759752047216815,0.03033488801557366,0.0,0.0,0.043779523595794456,0.10556151117804073,0.03237209251135615,0.026157718337082924,0.07685099245310527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06711034941842664,0.0,0.12874501354957382,0.0343009304049038,0.0,0.0,0.07257703949792542,0.16311758555030528,0.0,0.07845982603379989,0.10571836803443882,0.0,0.14812493289568024,0.12217571159342963,0.0,0.03678623103181067,0.0,0.0952845900526051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07021778490915323,0.0,0.12010943199906192,0.02121798874929512 alcoholism,dopaminedeficiient,2019/06/22,"Tips for getting sober after a week drunk. Withdrawal is killing me and I don't have the option of detox Ok you guys must have some tips for this... I'm sure most here have been through this once or twice... 30 year old female who was at 3 months sobriety until one bad night put me into a week's long alcoholic spiral. I pretty much don't remember the last 7 days. At this point I'm not even enjoying drinking I'm just trying to avoid withdrawal. I've had enough of waking up and checking my phone to see who I texted inappropriately, and google maps to see where I went. Last time I detoxed at the hospital with benzos to help but this time I'm alone at home. What should I have on hand/do to make this possible?",2.347918861959961,4.238384171232877,3.3379452054794534,91.13439936775556,77.15068493150685,6.9580611169652276,21.504741833508955,7.882392219407189,0.7508668071654371,563,15,124,9,13,180,101,146,0.092,0.84,0.068,-0.6529,0,2,2,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,0,4,6,1,1,5,1,12,6,1,1,2,18,21,6,1,2,4,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,1,8,5,3,1,1,2,1,2,3,3,0,2,4,2,10,3,20,15,4,26,0,0,2,0,6,10,0,4,14,71,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18616646915938675,0.0,0.1804183216977846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14544944768110168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11234437562805903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1706493575722799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17999482506778844,0.0,0.11505723876770076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09101213747105362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17248506040678568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11676236647326516,0.0,0.17473647184973368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1927261244385784,0.0,0.0,0.2839919614739091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1541612257356656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11627963205279285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1390445142079283,0.0,0.12805680073017314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1634745891869029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1827932495686364,0.18551696272171772,0.118042204354703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16467499395683755,0.19638395334437772,0.0,0.17722368976104982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1751187820873494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19733426731167766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2776291657182381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16418112690560774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2031544562873736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182701408024582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2794649345710181,0.0,0.0,0.16148483882906087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1121788757771725 alcoholism,bittersweetherbs,2019/06/22,"Zero alcohol tolerance and sweating like hell I am drinking quite regulary for about a year now but not more than 2 beers per day usually and have 1-2 days wihout alcohol per week now. My question is - since I have quit smoking, I am not able to drink half a beer without feeling drunk and sweating like hell. Did someone else experience this ? Or is it because of drinking regularily ?",4.587499999999999,6.7229560833333375,5.6427777777777814,75.98000000000002,71.5,8.688888888888886,35.611111111111114,9.2995712137729,3.6679277777777775,306,17,53,7,6,101,55,72,0.142,0.741,0.11699999999999999,-0.6074,0,0,7,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,3,4,2,0,2,0,7,10,2,0,0,10,8,5,0,0,5,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,8,0,2,6,0,0,3,2,0,2,1,1,4,2,6,7,1,7,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,9,33,6,0,0.1841514128367049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3936037126032648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1122569920336372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375248536267907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5411948322146984,0.0,0.0,0.15383487563188558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18013541763998495,0.0,0.0,0.09311248746109216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17993415692971668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20629172740779625,0.3917353903945857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1523319516667148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15603089450261806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20281676452398936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14771515553561618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17751539051609178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11858747222560527 alcoholism,Potato73,2019/06/22,"Am I [18M] at Risk for Long Term Brain Damage? So I've been concerned about this for around a month as of writing this post. When I was 17, about to turn 18 (so about 8-9 months ago) I began binge drinking a few times a month. It started off heavy, my forst 2 months it was about every weekend, then tapered off as I got busy with school and later completely quit. Overall, in 6 months I believe I drank heavily around 14 times, with my average number of drinks being around 5 to 7. I've been reading a lot about adolescent binge drinking and brain damage, and it's caused me a lot of concern about whether I stopped early enough or drank too much. I've had anxiety problems in the past so it's no surprise to me that I'm so concerned about this. Any help someone could offer would be greatly appreciated, no other subs seem to be open to this kind of question. Thank you.",4.874772727272728,5.201230113636368,5.198863636363637,86.28704545454546,68.88636363636363,7.763636363636365,30.20454545454545,7.348242739294969,1.6453136363636367,684,25,143,6,11,217,110,176,0.115,0.813,0.07200000000000001,-0.743,0,0,3,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,0,1,16,8,0,1,6,0,11,7,2,1,0,21,20,13,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,10,9,5,1,2,5,0,0,2,4,0,0,9,0,12,4,30,6,6,29,0,2,0,0,5,9,0,5,19,88,22,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10931645759841237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08386237986964122,0.0,0.09434008235232062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3293450001496029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13894032312803498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2753336179197049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12668444248116986,0.0,0.0,0.12929952334586733,0.0,0.0,0.09846163233633948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3624223361777887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274233627930103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10390310147910203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0986309175848092,0.1359616287405545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08265933966762623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12841964683263746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.109135036455258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20968588588346876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4921674712487448,0.0,0.0906549850608634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1177236674927604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1181072472677952,0.0,0.0,0.11800136063879454,0.0,0.0,0.13814753085377762,0.13116686163588606,0.12335418268452453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1248072438295652,0.0,0.11226663411129978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10448932239455536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08728710427453895,0.0,0.0,0.10310171936942618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11353723347097106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14381871243672428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341376291680455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08760356540574701,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,manishc8,2019/06/22,"I have been moderating for the past 2 months. Is long term moderation possible? I have been drinking since the time I was in high school, more than 25 years. I have always been a heavy drinker. Drinking has caused some serious problems in my life but I have always managed to retain some control over it. I am an alcoholic. I do not have any illusions about that. I know alcohol has damaged my life and I would be better off without it. But giving up Alcohol totally is easier said than done. I have tried it so many times. Many different methods. I have tried rehab, doctors and even meditation. I have managed to stay off alcohol for weeks and months but I keep relapsing. It is a cycle I am sick of. I need to break this cycle. Is it possible like me to moderate my intake of alcohol? Has anyone done it? Now I drink about 2 times a week. I joined the gym a couple of months ago and got hooked on it. Maybe it is just my addict brain enjoying the endorphins and dopamine that my brain rewards me with when I exercise. I got a personal trainer, a huge lot of supplements (again my addict brain working) and a few mobile apps to help me keep up the pace. I have been exercising a lot and it shows in my body and people have started to comment on my body. I feel very fit and I can feel the ladies take more interest in me. I am enjoying this. I feel the urge to drink in the evenings, but I just exercise for a bit and the urge is manageable. I am drinking 2 days a week but I intend to cut it down to once a week on Saturday evenings. If I maintain this routine maybe I can moderate myself. What do you think? Is it possible? Can I do it? Has anyone done it? Any tips that might help?",1.5331130834977031,3.8540557071005916,3.362790927021699,87.67569197896124,82.16568047337279,7.305851413543722,24.477646285338594,8.344100000000001,1.737810387902695,1311,51,272,30,36,438,157,338,0.049,0.821,0.13,0.9851,1,0,12,0,0,0,38.0,0,1,0,4,11,10,1,0,21,0,42,25,5,3,1,41,56,18,0,4,10,0,3,1,0,2,15,1,0,1,20,11,10,4,5,10,0,0,2,4,0,0,11,4,44,6,36,42,10,40,0,1,0,0,7,17,0,6,22,197,64,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1648259779295798,0.0,0.0,0.0670130740374635,0.4039564062934639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12580719975327231,0.0,0.0,0.10281847755820027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10571977187047307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06686029593440708,0.08253344658557606,0.16794469225251224,0.0,0.25317714086250964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07765998011546174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0847895958057809,0.0,0.08364775953798217,0.0,0.04875446201554122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07898382963900857,0.0,0.07737776601429322,0.0,0.2320890321476872,0.0,0.3702863438966968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14979531674156776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11467387510261814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07252049921121477,0.0,0.0,0.12092526830268915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10134350436754233,0.07987344758229899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134389968601496,0.0,0.0,0.041546688924382624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10679421951934397,0.03693336880490065,0.0,0.0,0.06690185941557346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1285414484152118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15328903197198296,0.15189672307251778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08019754135163612,0.0,0.0,0.1810248296415836,0.0,0.0,0.056054966093986566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08050941279160527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07216685409470003,0.0524101410621769,0.06600926588375633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25567619047051626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07233708529102406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07191101873859065,0.0,0.0,0.0765092215289995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06253545460937332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05350866017588945,0.08057741941793915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056840294803551426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04844015192937959,0.0,0.0,0.13224542172643794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10265217203959427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062376275044381015,0.0,0.0,0.2425606526547895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07287378336996557,0.0,0.05503625123351785,0.0,0.0,0.05370265688673725,0.0,0.0,0.048682639495290274 alcoholism,CaptainLope,2019/06/22,"How to cope with drunk people My dad is an alcoholic, I’m 23 by now and don’t live with him. His alcoholism affected me quite bad and I’ve been in therapy as a teenager. But, to this day, I still can’t be around close friends/family/partner if they’re drunk if I’m sober. I get angry, defensive and quiet. It doesn’t matter if they are “nice” drunk - I still get really uncomfortable. How do you cope with this? I want to be able to hang out with them even if I’m sober, but it feels like it’s impossible at the moment. Is there some way? Has anyone else experienced this?",0.4330252100840326,2.706017638655464,2.5989495798319338,91.56884453781514,86.89915966386555,6.761344537815126,17.743697478991596,7.957251820313856,0.5957798319327732,445,11,101,10,14,150,81,119,0.11900000000000001,0.8059999999999999,0.075,-0.6118,0,0,2,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,2,1,8,4,1,0,3,0,11,5,0,3,0,24,18,12,0,5,6,1,1,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,6,10,5,1,1,3,0,1,3,2,0,0,1,3,11,2,14,15,1,12,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,5,6,62,17,0,0.2242680256970504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4793486304166384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15681341805870347,0.229789095095756,0.0,0.19964609045294865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1872544337753456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14463432334374052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1873471580253753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14812691585077697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11339665229263066,0.1602171223688432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23434157421060306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10956602914003706,0.0,0.1980327754711964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15547921104045018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23853665102575336,0.0,0.0,0.1436718399725317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3582014700409665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2564700325368221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13227909214030611,0.17801351998097695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,RemmeeFortemon,2019/06/22,"So I guess this is me on day 2? Been at this since I was 17, and I'll be 44 in a couple months. I've only been sober for more then a few months once in that time frame, after 5 weeks inpatient treatment. I've been hard at it for years now, speeding up, slowing down, but always coming back to it. I'm just exhausted. I know I'm losing, slipping farther in to it every day. Not even sure what the real me is outside of the binging or recovering from the binging. I pulled a 12 hr, 2pm to 2am shift my first day back to work, which interrupted my usual pattern. Where I would normally get off at 10pm and be at it by 10:30 til I passed out, I just went to bed. I asked my wife to get rid of what I had left to drink in the house and I'm at work now. Two hours left and I'm wrestling like a mofo to keep from stopping on the way home. It's not fun any more. I'm not ok. I think abbn out my kids and my wife and my health and I just want to cry. What am I doing? Why am I doing this? I've been through treatment, I KNOW what's happening, but it's got me wrapped up hard. I'm sorry for this wall of text. I want there to be a day 3 and many more days. I'd settle for a decent night of real sleep. Thanks for reading this. I'll let you all know how it goes.",-0.3117327574924751,1.1975044593639588,2.049014526894389,99.0408192644942,83.91166077738517,5.040649129695066,17.901976181128123,5.82211442006289,-0.6269485931160843,954,21,249,6,27,325,148,283,0.125,0.838,0.037000000000000005,-0.9706,0,0,1,0,0,0,34.0,0,1,0,4,12,7,0,0,11,1,17,4,1,1,2,36,39,15,0,4,9,2,2,1,0,1,2,0,2,1,18,11,1,2,4,2,0,4,3,2,0,2,8,2,25,5,42,26,5,51,0,1,0,0,5,22,1,2,25,147,43,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09811874844001292,0.0,0.0,0.08018953091955901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11023912699716684,0.0,0.0,0.18134614753120906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10157749585312907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13047605370398502,0.1295294008124014,0.3802426890680895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11551654499527828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07788493838022252,0.0,0.0993525461792046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10030255075634203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1232164928466066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09431126361529248,0.0,0.12990199180359174,0.0,0.1042761199730226,0.0,0.2112660193076845,0.0,0.0,0.12534326960604586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182832083279097,0.0,0.1161272835744249,0.13606365648098073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1048125667523924,0.0,0.0,0.19441697106755312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25624048983852743,0.12058101981299076,0.0,0.05760967464369636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13192213177750858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11955220365900307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18824497332248785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1106597763158588,0.115536400793587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255807749674868,0.0,0.08968334760286623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11795174501145393,0.2684371745808839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09754450542468814,0.0,0.1180049945236506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13200160018104054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09858626151661662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1111380482375041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10856474032926308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07555826838012387,0.0,0.0,0.06876000362548025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11519054362027957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12987203781523401,0.0,0.13910434685237494,0.09359927569498623,0.094588178204251,0.0,0.0,0.10931286771912603,0.10640430913531244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17169408747522588,0.0,0.0,0.0837668669513971,0.0,0.0,0.07593650709024671 alcoholism,Pisaunt,2019/08/20,"The thought of going a day without drinking terrifies me. I've been drinking daily for over two months now. A seven year relationship is comming to an end and I completely turned to alchohol. Today I wasn't able to give blood because my iron levels are too high. This is most likely cause by drinking and associated liver problems. I want to lighten up or even quit completely but the thought absolutely terrifies me.",4.945676691729325,7.6239154473684225,5.723233082706766,73.36763157894737,72.15789473684211,8.027067669172935,34.54135338345865,8.841846274778883,3.513998496240601,338,18,53,7,7,110,60,76,0.025,0.88,0.095,0.6307,0,0,3,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,5,0,5,5,2,1,0,11,11,4,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,2,3,0,1,2,1,0,2,4,0,6,1,10,7,1,11,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,2,7,37,7,1,0.18024236927393106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10987407536020084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18515856328999286,0.0,0.0,0.3779613898582728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11624141710251155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5297067087054246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.159641240407157,0.0,0.0,0.11904838499916127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17290490447020054,0.1024358921454049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19043595913067407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08805731723350423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1438677395419437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17246760513147544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19170994619459975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19351285077653546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2861846158709632,0.0,0.0,0.17084869088462507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1960519398707764,0.17607060454004236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10631161931652468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17374721201612262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11607017633420645 alcoholism,Dessik190,2019/08/20,"Drunk since Saturday. Going to work drunk again My body hurts, haven’t eaten, hardly slept. Can’t stop but can’t keep this up",0.5350000000000001,2.9846352,1.0075000000000005,98.97125,97.0,4.1000000000000005,10.25,5.985473137389443,-1.2839999999999998,100,1,21,1,4,30,21,25,0.278,0.722,0.0,-0.6018,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,5,2,0,0,3,7,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,2,0,1,3,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,2,5,0,5,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,9,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4457892319665264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280861494916157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3595145244475662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4296340656339883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35672220469337473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3319858687653535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3355314124094033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29217438001336665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Panicking12,2019/08/20,People who drink a similar amount to me... I'd be interested to see how are lives compare in terms of how we manage day to day things as a drinker. I drink around 100 units a week give or take and am 18 and female soon to start university.,4.424533333333336,4.297004919999999,5.541999999999998,85.01433333333334,69.8,9.066666666666668,26.66666666666667,8.841846274778883,1.5574666666666674,186,5,43,3,3,62,40,50,0.0,0.9420000000000001,0.057999999999999996,0.4019,0,0,3,0,0,0,5.0,1,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,3,0,3,2,0,2,0,7,7,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,8,6,2,8,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,1,6,25,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2652748618663843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3843586424267199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5838347940499082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2858597908027916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631312090256985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20658920061131947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2374599721547459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2109193203354564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22405188820321192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19797175102626755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2390301300289589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Straycatalley,2019/08/20,"Day 1 begins My goal is to stay sober for at least 30 days. Alcohol has been dragging me down for 4 years, nearly costing me everything. I need to change.",1.968924731182799,4.096624387096775,3.2851612903225837,89.91440860215056,79.32258064516128,6.713978494623658,23.23655913978495,7.793537801064563,1.1375720430107528,120,4,25,2,3,39,28,31,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,7,4,1,8,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,4,15,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4088304716783149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4046880295026516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4934272459032597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3438119984180681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28365657619337137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4077482603819087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2463501773622809 alcoholism,davhock,2019/08/20,"TV, school Broke My TV and some glasses, threatened My ex's male friend so Im scared If I lose my place in school that starts next week. Don't know If its even possible to get banned from school because of illegal threat but dunno",1.7091489361702124,4.070604170212771,1.884510638297872,98.294,81.76595744680851,5.4621276595744686,20.038297872340426,6.742157984588678,0.04731829787234032,184,5,41,2,5,55,40,47,0.27899999999999997,0.68,0.040999999999999995,-0.8496,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,2,5,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,8,4,5,0,2,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,4,1,4,4,1,5,0,2,0,0,3,2,0,4,3,18,6,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13891445232636818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1505135870156995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17606068801079275,0.0,0.11905868261267315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461511336030187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.125237717333101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2549411179303533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2423545693126302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23808767404352066,0.0,0.0,0.256902160757258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22814914403647285,0.6918847571702245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16129570445860938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1827928003396508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,grozzjob,2019/09/07,"I admit it; i have a problem. Any advice? When i hear the word 'alcoholic' I think of the homeless man walking around shitfaced right from the morning. Surely there is a difference between him and I. i can admit I do have problems with alcohol abuse. Last night I was arrested for public intoxication and spent the night in the station. A wake up call was what it was. For me alcohol is a stress/anxiety releiver. I dont drink every day, mostly because i can not afford to be hungover, but when I drink its heavy/binge drinking. One night out from 5 p.m. until around 3 a.m I consume roughly 15-25 beverages. Once i get going I dont stop and i rarely pass out or throw up, which is very scary actually. Alcohol is culturally praised where i am from. Anyways im good at restraining myself during the weekdays to no alcohol or at least not over 3-4 beers, but in the weekends i have no excuse to not drink and so I do. Any advice on how to deal with this? Im thinking of taking the next month with 0 drinks and after that work on possibly finding some sort of balance. Also i will try and work on some personal issues. what do you do when the cravings start coming after say a stressful week?",2.613975346687212,4.761146745762716,4.193636363636365,84.10275038520804,77.3050847457627,6.833281972265023,26.828967642526965,7.84624498591911,1.7566508474576272,936,38,179,15,22,312,145,236,0.10400000000000001,0.8220000000000001,0.073,-0.8401,1,0,11,0,1,0,29.0,0,1,0,3,11,6,0,1,14,0,21,13,1,1,1,37,32,17,0,2,7,0,1,0,0,1,6,2,0,2,8,14,11,2,5,7,1,5,7,3,0,1,4,3,23,3,33,26,4,38,1,0,0,0,14,16,0,6,17,128,31,2,0.0,0.10929760367042518,0.0900197594543953,0.0,0.0,0.18028539001920849,0.0,0.4929199129620846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07376988785521822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12546223854675914,0.0,0.07056869799668368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16423876449798586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056232911398759904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09419449481009136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07946261731155296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05949167979218822,0.0951026003669469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09637847506443216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21622558013488735,0.4518346771112008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07772207111092441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08431208141375965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048195247063870135,0.0,0.052426092580816326,0.07737240202352494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1039690666599496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1992851665870257,0.0962818953207086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07519361223518845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07363067060432732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.098105724746502,0.2597026649450996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0982400381021231,0.062508950574292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08054651711718314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10399462548412404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1765358302533221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07877842893384959,0.0,0.0733585122329145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06529289721786485,0.0,0.0,0.07712261761599888,0.21133724014690364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08694170024253116,0.0,0.06935825928442302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11821629810001745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06262965374333818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07611343102067007,0.0,0.0,0.0739949744154855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1343138207248874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,bdotcomma,2019/09/07,"Got invited to a bar... I've been struggling with alcohol for many years on and off. I'm trying to kick the habit for good now but my wife just invited me out to go bowling with her friends tomorrow night. I know for sure they're going to drink, a lot. I told her I don't feel comfortable going and she said, well you gotta face it sooner or later. Should I go?",-0.024949494949495943,2.1222188571428617,2.151861471861473,94.87318903318905,87.7012987012987,6.01962481962482,18.94516594516595,7.3871296695380915,0.3991252525252525,280,8,65,5,9,94,59,77,0.071,0.778,0.152,0.7389,0,0,2,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,0,3,6,0,1,3,0,3,4,1,0,1,13,14,4,0,1,3,1,1,0,1,2,1,1,0,0,1,5,3,0,2,2,0,4,1,1,1,0,4,2,10,5,12,8,1,12,0,0,0,0,8,3,0,2,5,37,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2527248388975704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2316600384331551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11957122171088673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18270359900252234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5375873626973986,0.198347919431868,0.18913438724029635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299630368717829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2010465506691012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397532586829453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2219201417025072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22494631032621584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24721988627643665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2228792812937612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2259664496138371,0.0,0.1605541664707838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21262361475421104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15228514799958015 alcoholism,lulzstar,2019/09/07,I want to go to an inpatient treatment program but I can't afford it. What are my options? I can't stop drinking on my own. It's either I go to jail for a while or go to an inpatient treatment program where I'm forced to stop drinking. I do have insurance but it's the crappy kind for low-income people. I have tried outpatient programs but they didn't work for me. The longest I've been sober is for a month and a half like 3 years ago and I fluctuate from two to three weeks of being sober until I relapse again and binge for weeks at a time. I know my health is declining because I have certain pains on my left side. I want to get sober so fucking bad but idk what to do. I've tried almost everything.,1.8447289623128569,3.5192138859060407,3.4518120805369144,90.72905524006195,77.9261744966443,6.463810015487868,24.88435725348477,7.321109707123232,1.0358658750645329,555,20,121,7,13,184,87,149,0.135,0.747,0.11800000000000001,-0.7535,2,0,2,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,1,3,6,1,0,8,0,13,5,0,0,1,17,22,11,0,2,6,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,3,2,2,1,2,0,3,3,3,0,3,2,0,17,3,19,19,2,20,0,0,0,1,1,6,1,3,12,79,22,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1658489888769066,0.0,0.1873492493291295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15621703755444133,0.11405176057998655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3665649822054823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16814948985638956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1729668967705135,0.09774974552256664,0.0,0.31899227749943604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19887390760602827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19483130945721105,0.10282286625801004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2032799513736825,0.0,0.0,0.09140547512693252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1493379482979035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1990829434468428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12970855354581626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3128406515276296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10909696747965117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2540513054104536,0.0,0.1827652461997264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22070770222018973,0.0,0.3001536607739393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13620784824094948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12048345270117172 alcoholism,NOS2124,2019/09/07,"Genetics/Addiction My uncle used to be a cop and now he’s an alcoholic. My grandpa was also a police officer, that’s the career path I plan to go down. I just turned 21 6 days ago and like any other 21 year old seeing what I like and trying out alcohol more. I want to make sure I never become an alcoholic like my uncle and I think genetics has something to do with it? My plan was simply to never exceed 4-5 drinks in a night and never go above 14 a week. Is that a realistic plan? I’m sure the best way to avoid is to abstain from alcohol, but obviously I’d rather experiment and consume in moderation. What is your opinion on it? Thanks for the opinion.",2.0723284313725507,3.8541658897058815,4.794705882352943,80.87284313725492,77.60294117647058,8.062745098039215,24.568627450980397,8.841846274778883,1.9433156862745096,515,18,104,12,12,184,86,136,0.013000000000000001,0.855,0.132,0.9049,0,1,6,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,4,4,8,0,1,10,0,8,5,0,2,6,25,18,8,0,2,3,1,0,3,0,0,4,0,0,0,7,8,5,2,1,1,0,2,3,1,0,0,2,1,11,7,15,15,2,18,0,0,1,0,3,5,0,2,13,67,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1578606241780458,0.0,0.0,0.12836235924125064,0.6190170868861562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11580182672486228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09847348851349401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1599275694765417,0.0,0.0,0.15196564667558252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09338831053107872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14185538980296614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14164869118615078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16459391400513934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21223564607141707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09665956418270057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3350514495809709,0.0,0.0,0.1358912327704818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15195022143535958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1153921529032182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1114792347811825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2729571102618488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13331850912693854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09278625511469127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0983142108723044,0.15750805433424858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1250664532174179,0.0,0.0,0.08541071474582806,0.1149407796046037,0.11615516106774924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09325073576259536 alcoholism,RuffiansAndThugs,2019/09/07,"Comfortably Dying I live alone, so there's nobody to tell me I'm drinking too much. So I'm almost always drinking. I doubt I would have started writing this if I wasn't kinda buzzed. I don't go out to bars. I don't harass anyone. I don't become violent. I've never blacked out. I go to work sober (if admittedly hung over). For now, my alcoholism isn't hurting anyone but me. And I think it's killing me. I'm terrified to get a physical, cuz I'm pretty sure a doctor would tell me my heart is failing, or I have some other awful malady. It's way easier to stay here with a beer and my cat browsing reddit. It's very comfortable. I really do want to be a part of something worth remembering, but this habit keeps me cooped up in my apartment, unable to grow. And if I've lost control, then I'm just an audience member, watching myself comfortably dying.",1.8238539553752524,3.949290310344829,4.135098039215688,83.64617647058826,79.80459770114942,7.082623394185259,23.453684922244765,8.124751697461798,1.5345595672751853,670,23,131,13,17,232,107,174,0.14300000000000002,0.6859999999999999,0.171,0.2628,0,1,5,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,4,7,11,3,1,5,1,12,7,1,2,2,29,26,13,3,6,7,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,6,6,5,2,3,4,1,3,6,7,0,0,2,2,21,4,15,21,3,15,0,3,2,0,4,6,0,8,4,81,27,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1659602791835964,0.15550284202412254,0.160836025810669,0.0,0.0,0.12921566330595274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2171680233498221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17150818380793514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17417355898508716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3223378534033166,0.0,0.0,0.15894828563513344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30425473666742703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08113383581906072,0.0,0.17651242590166172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18402216521444764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16624365693418988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380309630018356,0.17180796070432588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13712597729187728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16951992859664655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11415773472258572,0.0,0.1197710225696414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16816646616725112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15798813375737222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09948424657826964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17591594363589613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11955162672827023,0.0,0.0,0.10991671431841936,0.1655209672894758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14636118835451564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2714646919441725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09950505812817133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12813244027720433,0.09159544293545507,0.12326382761882278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11305466973208098,0.0,0.0,0.2206304391011216,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,OddQuestion7,2019/09/07,"During drinking bender my wife claims I can stop it - by ""behaving properly"" My wife goes on a bender 2-3 times a month and it can last for 5-7 days. On the second/third day she usually starts calling me names and claims that she would stop already ""if I behave properly"". In her book that means to take pity, bring her water/food/medications to bed, talk to her, hug her, kiss her, even to have sex with her. I refuse to do it because: 1) she's just physically disgusting at that point 2) I don't want to encourage such behavior 3) I strongly believe she does not deserve pity by creating this situation herself over and over again So when I refuse to obey she states that she'll keep drinking in spite - and now making me a reason of her bender regardless of the original trigger. And she goes on for few other days - periodically screaming, crying and cursing. Would you something different in those situations?",6.7950867052023085,6.926017208092487,7.254109826589595,73.8674075144509,64.78034682080924,10.61942196531792,34.06300578034682,10.355215969177356,3.4673865895953764,719,29,133,16,10,236,111,173,0.16399999999999998,0.767,0.069,-0.934,1,0,3,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,0,1,7,9,2,0,5,0,8,5,0,5,0,26,15,9,0,5,3,2,0,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,10,7,2,5,2,3,0,1,2,5,0,0,0,1,26,4,23,12,1,27,0,2,0,3,24,10,0,1,15,87,36,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18037768094019666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09964121645693808,0.0,0.0,0.1841588566393944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1669067777741137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17954866141289128,0.3162466532201106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1707766547526912,0.0,0.0,0.14304138394668678,0.0,0.0,0.3202491618869355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10796109873655503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19765155674194376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14528713899400367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1332383973466241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1091081010769569,0.0,0.0,0.17805142414489367,0.18156268730852507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13046896212663608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15451868541631106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1680599173468759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3674626228126336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12583635897112774,0.0,0.0,0.11569494701512745,0.0,0.0,0.2733129494615097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12289851538058613,0.1313796831824507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09531246599048984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18002361161588204,0.0,0.0964105412262017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23222880268948376,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,angry_apathist,2019/09/07,Years of encouraging self harm and I am done. I am never going to drink again.,0.5268750000000004,2.9177179375000044,3.017500000000002,87.67750000000002,88.375,5.7,14.25,7.1686216300943375,-0.17427500000000018,61,1,13,1,2,21,14,16,0.185,0.635,0.18,-0.0258,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,2,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,2,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,10,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4863317168792847,0.0,0.4655506338179066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27008773192931024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3665315194830613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4957750892248122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3060365855577428 alcoholism,TresDeuce,2019/09/07,"4 years this month 4 years ago I quit drinking and, though I wasn't quitting to achieve these things, I did. I took up bonsai, got very in to gongfu tea brewing (mostly puerh), bought a house, lost 60 pounds (now a healthy BMI), went out more and made new friends, volunteered for 6 semesters teaching refugees english (and in the process that has given me more confidence in social situations and public speaking). And to top it off I just accepted an offer for a job I have been trying to get for 6 months! I dont share much on Facebook or other social media, but I did want to share this with someone, and hopefully inspire anyone who is anywhere in the process of quitting something toxic. Change is possible and though it may not seem like it, small efforts do add up.",12.750816326530616,7.512209659863952,10.806612244897961,69.94910204081634,57.84353741496597,13.392653061224491,47.087074829931964,9.3871,4.566326258503401,608,26,115,6,5,186,106,147,0.055999999999999994,0.8109999999999999,0.134,0.8859,1,0,2,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,7,4,8,0,0,6,0,11,2,0,1,0,22,22,11,0,2,4,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,10,10,2,0,3,1,1,2,3,1,0,0,11,1,9,7,19,10,4,20,0,1,0,0,9,11,0,5,8,73,19,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13296806387011587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1048851554739036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15868263395461416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17580167831653035,0.14694523100958554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11589147072275514,0.0,0.0783700551564957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1199706104378515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14898621451874516,0.0,0.17308261283631585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1488542215815516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07328358850458218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1637453230224732,0.0,0.0,0.1419358837996216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23946094555024056,0.0,0.1102690126311992,0.0,0.0,0.14487323836798666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16910515106124765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4786380025150882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13655653780726829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16860896583908733,0.0,0.30581708296877635,0.12709653421943806,0.11547916459463398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09965491945462998,0.0,0.2947531637468003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16665816928120966,0.10184177314814864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12376767732583642,0.08847529322962032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13905371390707552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.193193236118574 alcoholism,rtkram,2019/09/07,The Great American Hack Alcoholism allows one's own brain to be hijacked without ones own consent and it's not your fault. You have confused pleasure with happiness and in the taking of pleasure seeking activities you have become very unhappy.,8.222857142857139,10.36510223809524,7.570000000000004,65.72500000000002,62.33333333333333,10.361904761904762,42.57142857142857,10.504223727775694,5.372942857142858,202,12,27,5,3,63,35,42,0.125,0.5670000000000001,0.308,0.9062,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,3,0,0,0,6,0,1,2,0,3,2,1,1,0,7,4,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,3,4,5,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,21,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3384794983839898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3497945671677136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35356650002467344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3491871248753278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33715646010986394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4292380502088468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2381355286531507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2613288211196947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3053087072778104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,SubstantialCycle7,2019/09/07,"Worried I've slipped without noticing I've had issues with alcohol since a teenager however I felt until recently that I had it all under control. A few drinks on a social occasion and that was it. Now I am having social occasions multiple times a week and as soon as I start drinking I don't stop until I fall asleep/pass out. Yesterday I ended up drinking from mid day despite the fact I decided not to and despite the fact I was at work. I know I am not waking up and having a drink and honestly at home I don't either but it's like if I have one I can't stop. I feel so hungover today and now I'm going to waste my whole day feeling shit and just feel super frustrated that over time I've relaxed and it's just got worse and worse again. Not sure how to drag it back either. Last time it got super bad and scared me so I fixed it and now it's not that bad now but I feel like I've slid along way down the hill and I am worried I'm going to wait until I am super bad again to do anything about it. Anyway I think half of this post is just the fact I need to say it and make sure I don't brush this aside and ignore it and the other half is just like what do I do? I've gone to AA in my area but it's all old men and as a young female with PTSD that's pretty daunting/not as position I am comfortable with.",1.365729166666668,2.7009746701388906,3.4712500000000013,91.54875,78.34027777777777,6.466666666666668,21.722222222222207,7.1686216300943375,0.5076847222222214,1027,28,237,12,24,351,139,288,0.174,0.6779999999999999,0.14800000000000002,-0.8446,1,0,5,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,5,17,18,2,1,11,0,21,7,2,3,7,59,39,30,0,2,15,0,5,3,0,0,1,1,1,1,21,21,5,5,8,5,0,5,9,7,1,3,8,7,27,11,32,31,6,46,0,0,0,0,4,12,1,1,30,161,48,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1183924649904591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0911642991853408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08518466226097676,0.2774954918609443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12425164072900505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1428906893757815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43409746520407255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09812013421372276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22405920592570092,0.0791428152592755,0.10636827078150342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12592013767839594,0.0,0.17720526733752714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11112356440683373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11562781925842848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06088299179461551,0.09030226685876937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16236773962822035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07394796887471405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08214358662754373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12612625213678053,0.11624726782307272,0.0,0.07506887577319744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10609871042005052,0.11270530928720225,0.0,0.0,0.1294984461773264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10938404304618543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08809844016136911,0.11091229351758412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11371632114954602,0.0916401684087176,0.0,0.0,0.22585697341240954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07841220089424868,0.0,0.0,0.18523773469011887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2088217970404173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07098475110288635,0.0,0.0,0.19379394927235669,0.0,0.10500855817133016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08793374214445099,0.08886278670820444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236843535425608,0.0,0.10679007328433288,0.0,0.08065075025245122,0.22500937318020334,0.2257930222600163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,pregnantandsick,2019/09/07,"Alcoholic MIL My MIL has been an alcoholic for about 20 years. She will freely admit to this but really struggles to seek help for it. She goes occasionally to therapy and it gets better for a while but she has always relapsed. Recently, it has been better as she is in therapy again but about a week ago she came to our home when she was clearly drunk. I called her out on it and the next day I told her explicitly that she couldn't come over when she's been drinking as we have a baby now and I don't want her to be around him when she's like that. She apologised and said she respected my wishes. Two days ago, she came over drunk again. She picked up my baby and put him on the sofa to play with him and then left him there on his own while she went to get toys. He's 7 months and he can barely sit up on his own so this just made me furious as he could have fallen. She then said she was going to pick my husband up from the train station (in her car!) and I just flipped. I've never lost my temper with her before over her drinking because I know it doesn't solve anything but when it comes to my son and drink driving I just can't hold my tongue. I've read so much material that says not to shout or get cross or make them feel guilty so I've always tried to be kind, understanding and supportive but I feel like now she has crossed a line and I am struggling to remain calm. I explicitly said not to come when she'd been drinking and she did it anyway. When I called her out on it, she lied about being drunk. She has shown she doesn't respect me or my boundaries. What is the best way to constructively proceed? I don't want a big screaming match or to fall out forever but I need her to know how serious this is.",2.2586666666666666,3.815696422222224,3.4138888888888914,91.96,76.44444444444444,6.8000000000000025,21.722222222222207,7.554174236665415,0.5622055555555554,1352,35,308,18,30,437,173,360,0.10400000000000001,0.745,0.151,0.9619,0,0,6,0,0,0,24.0,2,0,1,4,23,18,2,2,10,0,31,9,0,5,4,61,59,39,0,6,15,2,2,2,0,1,2,6,2,0,15,24,9,1,6,10,0,14,9,7,0,1,16,8,61,11,45,36,4,60,0,1,0,0,53,19,0,4,27,214,76,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17824279461998824,0.2148903622064604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16731232814959468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08273469630780443,0.08950066395985835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061287393654822823,0.0,0.08555093836207202,0.0,0.10550905152335703,0.17783643218345396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20532229045037648,0.2299787351898805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2598152889585093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08027188630163695,0.0,0.0,0.12967815138559285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3939581861824015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1016706678101218,0.07182479154596214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15758179715162274,0.0,0.05713839980647941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06738890020533618,0.0,0.10084840706282194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046954742150996,0.11050676375402957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10923547640665088,0.0,0.0,0.0982361571241444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10974975167716898,0.0,0.0,0.09513204843688916,0.06711029210009246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08024894642918162,0.0,0.07390743460990201,0.07454809343125482,0.07754156159666277,0.0,0.10692393516127204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010690557806266,0.0,0.0,0.1005658010366846,0.0,0.06440759766796719,0.0,0.0992697323756883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2869056776168277,0.07995232516539975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21020953515422006,0.0,0.0,0.11409000488215125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22994928822071545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09606893492512217,0.0,0.06825910570794066,0.0,0.09821159737738233,0.10466422189777072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11860053505385156,0.07980285612396593,0.08064599560428258,0.0,0.0,0.09320028376624308,0.0,0.0,0.11561442121423927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06474355816200067 alcoholism,chasekee,2019/09/07,"I need help. I'm a 22 year old male. I know I need help so badly. I hide my daily drinking for my girlfriend of 5 years who I should have nothing to hide at all. I go through the day trying to find things to distract myself from the fact that all I want is to have a drink. Once I get home from work I slam a few beers for a good buzz and then attempt to taper off before I'm too fucked up and my girlfriend finds out I've been drinking all night. I literally just drank a beer while writing this. I dont ""feel"" depressed.. but am beginning to believe that I am based on my daily desires to drink. I'm embarrassed for myself and I dont know the proper way to stop. The sad part is that I'm not sure I want to stop. I long so badly to find a passion in life to take my attention away from booze but i cant seem to find it and alcohol deceives me into thinking that it will all be fine after the next drink. Any and all replies are appreciated but I am especially interested in what young people out there have done to quit drinking in a community where alcohol is a societal norm. Thank you in advance guys & gals.",3.390856382978722,4.002743200000001,4.800252659574472,86.80718750000004,72.31914893617022,7.747340425531916,27.027925531914892,7.865858978985527,1.373643617021277,872,29,195,11,16,292,135,235,0.15,0.742,0.109,-0.8678,0,0,10,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,0,4,6,13,1,2,13,0,18,15,0,0,7,39,38,12,0,6,5,0,1,0,2,2,3,0,1,3,10,8,12,2,10,8,0,2,4,7,0,0,3,1,26,6,34,32,7,30,0,2,0,2,10,13,1,1,14,125,36,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2161668005553596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1095805843103901,0.0,0.06877580410119373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0950204022436276,0.0,0.16888831748132554,0.0,0.0,0.08605910679451546,0.11394540031017568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06522421666362294,0.0,0.08710810622050599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10349702497127948,0.2370607812083888,0.5944474181058607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0511372933275741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3697451129100018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09349840655299137,0.05283927513278037,0.0,0.0574777991353225,0.08482790082572161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10014033090945798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13557837402066594,0.0,0.1014474417188141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11116316858121704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07143519817870024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08950199004000159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14998181099488975,0.0,0.0,0.10755905816005934,0.09490908614262884,0.0,0.09704251646927227,0.0,0.106124996893344,0.10770631376686776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10952020305973566,0.0,0.07011482138641582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1075703598498018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0920702232245413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16910809506885607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09531928352890827,0.0,0.07604152625680212,0.0,0.0,0.09311224579518247,0.0,0.0,0.06719012379005343,0.0648037294238533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06866456149149723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11930501649074934,0.08027688122617338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07362805836446895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13025626352663638 alcoholism,one23456789101112,2019/09/07,"Suddenly not in 100% control What Happened? When? All's I know is that I used to be an after work, few beers then go home, and now I'm shooting vodka neat as I sit down at the bar and order a beer. Then another. Still no buzz. Then I'm drunk, bit I didn't get the relaxing feel I used to get. It's now just a daily bullshit struggle to not drink to early in the day. Really sucks. I was an active mountain biker, skier, kite surfing and out of no where I have no desire to do anything but get through work, the day, and award myself with vodka shot and beers til I pass out and repeat. I think I'm just bored. Money's no issue. I somehow lost the list for life. I barely look at women anymore, and find myself saying go away because I don't feel like having a conversation. I'd rather sit here on my phone at a lively bar, alone, watch chive TV, eat and drink. Then go back to my hotel and pass out. Wake up, answer emails, make the calls, whatever and then try and find something to do all day that isn't drinking. Yes I travel for work, 10 mos a year. I really wish I could find that lust for life I used to have, I remember not drinking night before I would be riding, skiing, or biking early the next day. It's been a decade.",2.3321984435797667,3.5400265291828816,3.930449416342413,89.77046011673154,75.53696498054475,6.385136186770427,21.021206225680935,6.742157984588678,0.3018468482490273,946,21,207,8,20,316,147,257,0.124,0.804,0.073,-0.7772,0,1,10,1,0,0,38.0,0,0,0,6,11,8,1,1,15,1,15,15,1,5,2,44,37,21,0,5,8,0,2,1,0,1,2,1,1,1,6,15,11,1,9,19,1,7,10,4,0,0,4,5,22,4,29,29,4,46,0,1,2,1,6,13,1,2,24,126,28,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11650407232077666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1179539102737618,0.0,0.0,0.11155828029064956,0.0,0.0,0.0925683802051047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.105686567978895,0.08649664698004393,0.0,0.06857189318146313,0.0,0.09571935527195166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12280821399961114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11486324779801302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1261653215446436,0.08981284542709958,0.0,0.0,0.2901828847499939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4407832842918879,0.0,0.115103730430999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11375504417807915,0.08036174553954137,0.0,0.0,0.3084371178799743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17631166080389768,0.0,0.1917892741608528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09947313312738572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.112835051129448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11740867895710705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061820690586458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15890778717273535,0.05495615714067957,0.0,0.0993293305709765,0.0,0.0944619369485292,0.0,0.12279439212384785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07508688992686835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11963270459362195,0.10556275649843856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14412591706010508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274274449174719,0.0,0.0,0.08945530188033984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08659907689346152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08983339284128739,0.0,0.0,0.11759731431478405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07207803369932904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07637224926922276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2914616184859893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12935612479118114,0.0,0.0,0.2456787156785274,0.0,0.0,0.07990854195645229,0.0,0.0,0.0724388506301442 alcoholism,12949307,2018/12/07,"How to give up booze? Alcohol abuse is slowly taking over my life. For example last Sunday I woke up with half a can poured out and another can sealed, I decided to finish them before I got ready. This past two/week I've definitely been abusing alcohol intake and I definitely need help",3.680727272727272,5.991004709090912,5.434545454545457,75.69181818181819,74.63636363636364,9.49090909090909,25.54545454545455,9.888512548439397,2.875836363636364,229,8,41,7,5,78,45,55,0.12,0.7020000000000001,0.177,0.34,1,0,2,0,1,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,4,4,0,1,0,7,9,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,4,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,6,0,8,6,0,8,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,4,24,7,0,0.0,0.5464660738341377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4929001194999528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24181283068489334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19623061410955486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.221220422368026,0.0,0.0,0.1844384637437168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15457183199434335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879764819889128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1628854089912243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17099307657853846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22014164432740704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17338868541627808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2252707268327069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1849800077695085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Bbqtriangle0,2018/12/07,The blackout state The state which all of us have done horrible things we regret and makes the addiction worse. Could this be a sort of multiple personality disorder? ,5.4916091954022965,8.712916551724138,5.6765517241379335,71.58195402298853,73.13793103448276,10.763218390804601,30.356321839080447,10.504223727775694,4.280232183908047,136,6,22,5,3,43,25,29,0.335,0.665,0.0,-0.9022,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,4,1,0,1,1,7,5,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,2,2,1,2,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,17,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3779079371315381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2767778744973684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3972996263610767,0.0,0.0,0.35475106724281125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2313966303789517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3026880327366267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2303038964580141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41698639292560735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35327369574252865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Worryhole135,2018/12/07,"Questions about a medical consequence of drinking too much, sort of sensitive Hi.. thanks for taking the time to read. This is a question about genital health (I'm a guy), and what alcoholism can do to it. I've been on and off binge drinking for the past few months (it's been really really bad), stopped a week ago, and recently stared to feel better from withdrawals. But my penis still isn't really the same, I've looked up the symptoms and it seems like I have nerve damage... anyone gone through something similar? Do you know if it can get healthy again? I wasn't sure who I could ask about this, thanks if you take the time to read and answer",3.3615584415584396,5.415576396825397,3.767748917748918,88.45149350649349,74.71428571428572,7.756421356421356,24.946608946608947,8.575989854853784,1.6527396825396834,510,17,103,10,11,159,85,126,0.035,0.85,0.114,0.8707,0,0,4,0,0,0,20.0,0,2,0,1,6,7,0,0,9,0,11,6,0,0,1,19,23,8,0,3,3,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,0,1,8,5,3,1,6,4,0,1,2,2,0,0,4,3,6,5,16,18,3,14,0,1,2,0,8,3,0,6,11,64,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13628342855759135,0.16430395061924669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10750031381025588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14372846121817404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12836854551359725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1359727261462766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12275085683318218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30121819193720595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07773681523813764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08032409814891794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15222922245665504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16342106251435293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08449284401824596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07511080787160931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291049586884072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15487936989774678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12271577744076635,0.0,0.1130184095913397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14676458952984092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34445351715809497,0.0,0.3075681615100309,0.0,0.2954741005064166,0.0,0.1518021472789027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13996137585719556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11835846909296972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12277893981713918,0.12853559394932398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1449004640283317,0.1597972993586836,0.23119041671544965,0.0,0.0,0.28309083163324844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17929694807362426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12332294052978865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,why_am_i_likethis,2018/12/07,What's worse than throwing up? Shitting and throwing up at the same time with no toilet paper. How the fick is you're guys morning going? Alcohol really just doesn't sit well with me. I've been dry heaving all morning and also shitting. Sorry if tmi but I just feel like this is a new low. ,0.5386864406779637,3.0091559830508494,2.286249999999999,91.80700211864408,90.86440677966101,4.3059322033898315,20.934322033898304,5.985473137389443,0.2786084745762709,229,8,45,2,8,75,49,59,0.231,0.716,0.053,-0.7111,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,5,5,2,0,3,0,4,3,2,1,1,12,6,6,0,1,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,4,1,0,1,0,0,3,2,3,1,0,1,1,2,2,6,5,2,10,0,1,0,0,1,4,2,1,3,29,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2954083664382065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22105256341425147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13976599780502713,0.1974741363223362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15709556421621373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27369875015537826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13504459857222034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2669676624533617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17708140111954654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5674812610896649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3094289842390194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16118242543213934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24853431492812345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2816950718289051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Oronoguy,2018/12/07,"Ex is an alcoholic, was clean for years, but now its back TLDR; Ex is getting back into the drink, kids are in highschool, what to do. Mostly this post is just therapeutic venting. So my ex's husband announced he is retiring early and her alcoholism is back in full force (she can't stand to be around him, never mind 24 hours). I've already got a call from childrens aid because she got drunk and talked about suicide, now she's getting day drunk and the kids (14/16) come home and she's drunk or out at the bar. Pretty sure she's gearing up to split and take 1/2 his pension. My kids are very mature for their age and we are in constant communication. I live in a small house out in the country side over an hour away. Part of me wants to go for custody but they have a great social circle and school life plus bus access for when they go to college.. I am not in a financial position to move. It's a lot to think about. She also has two little kids with this guy.. doesn't have a job or education (dropped out last year of nursing because she didn't like it). She was alcohol free for like 7 years after a bunch of major incidents involving the police.",4.193060344827586,5.09518166810345,4.8658620689655185,86.00284482758622,70.68103448275863,7.6965517241379295,27.431034482758626,7.865858978985527,1.4941844827586204,905,30,188,11,16,291,150,232,0.085,0.82,0.095,0.5361,1,0,4,0,0,1,30.0,1,0,3,0,12,5,0,0,14,0,19,9,0,0,2,29,29,15,1,1,6,4,0,2,0,0,4,0,2,6,6,16,8,0,1,5,1,4,5,0,0,1,5,0,20,6,36,23,6,44,0,0,0,0,30,19,0,4,20,123,26,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40960311024082896,0.0,0.0,0.14098404912345858,0.10216796790252207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11373164110343124,0.0,0.0,0.12003277776029896,0.29471387904392804,0.0,0.15576009273945168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13045512745307708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11005214147635256,0.0,0.13806093203340775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08239329363499177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1251541303111204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13349648747574447,0.0,0.14521554796352076,0.0,0.20435936993782508,0.14085356531966184,0.0,0.12650043360244645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12815161732281474,0.0,0.2516316460424621,0.1474154944170486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12678002897530335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10413976196353944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0902392019480414,0.124832139462501,0.1280470058630224,0.11281258999616865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10861522069678124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12899908637474364,0.0,0.0,0.13578645754948487,0.0,0.0,0.09853478917281114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13834938480292194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12235677831945335,0.1299757413571122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12929784258954685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13023311743524446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13974643596617922,0.0,0.12041033405395495,0.0,0.09605806128176844,0.1026869821758052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08186212085303593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1248009305286143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10541366950065896,0.07535493531907934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2468157484488267 alcoholism,InternetIsWow,2018/12/07,"Poem I Wrote When I Was Drinking Daily - 6 Weeks Sober Now - If I Can Break the Cycle, You Can Too People often say to live life day by day To take it in stride I live this way, anway Because I’ve torn so many memories out of my mind How many experiences of mine, that I can’t share Even though I was surrounded by people College blackouts were normal and fine But forgetting Tuesday’s dinner, sneaking vodka and wine? To snap a quick line, an impulsive lie When asked, have been been drinking? I thought I was holding it together No, why? Oh you just seem a bit off Yeah I’m off, off the fucking rails Careening down a path that I see clearly But the breaks are cut So when I end up in jail, in the hospital or at your wake I’ll remember writing this in shame and regret All alcohol is doing is taking and taking Your life, your energy, your relationships and your finances A brief high But the more you down the more down you feel It’s time to take recovery for real Get off this track, find freedom And control Remember what it’s like to remember",2.6671729323308284,4.705664133333336,3.948145363408525,86.4422932330827,76.71428571428571,7.2781954887218046,24.86215538847118,8.20500826718156,1.5613809523809519,828,29,166,15,19,271,135,210,0.059000000000000004,0.853,0.08800000000000001,0.7219,0,0,5,0,0,0,17.0,0,9,0,1,13,7,2,1,11,1,14,9,1,2,2,33,27,18,0,3,6,0,1,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,10,7,5,2,7,4,1,1,2,4,0,0,8,3,21,3,24,19,4,31,0,1,1,1,15,16,1,4,12,108,31,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13986797502504067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12235255907289315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07978155518046666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14288405711500984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14678996153771534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16880999457637147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2564197536831826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11591839466105025,0.0,0.0,0.08644318749276493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1280230612102499,0.0,0.0,0.06617546864378547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11961943296857655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1209939061783524,0.06837795994228346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1382789974060829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1848849405014622,0.06394001215370805,0.0,0.23113401425321656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2653779734822946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13214871083894328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12823191445928367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18146760855719665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14896696007540142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1405131841314214,0.4447752245057193,0.0,0.0,0.10407884006155643,0.0,0.0,0.10429222134426316,0.1191457305139892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.393613608307205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1285862309481194,0.10390191520637962,0.07631557537329857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10388426705288707,0.10498183337056352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11809635901256077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,BETHANY-82,2019/03/04,"What do you think is the root of your drinking? I hear a lot of people say that the cause of a problem drinking must be some sort of difficulty with life, wanting to numb the pain, escaping a strain with a marriage or job etc etc. I wonder if all problem drinkers have this? Or can it also arise from someone who just loves a good time and never wants the party to end? Or does it perhaps start out that way and then morph into not wanting to face issues in their life that are a result of heavy drinking, which perpetuates more drinking? I suppose there are a million permutations but I just wonder if alcoholism is always about unaddressed mental health. &#x200B;",6.369047619047617,7.1933415793650815,6.0985317460317505,79.39160714285715,65.74603174603175,8.204761904761906,32.41666666666667,8.07648339933343,2.3760190476190486,533,21,95,6,8,166,89,126,0.106,0.85,0.044000000000000004,-0.6894,1,0,6,0,0,0,13.0,0,2,1,0,5,7,0,1,11,0,9,12,1,3,3,32,18,10,0,8,9,0,0,0,0,1,6,2,0,0,9,6,5,0,3,4,0,0,2,5,0,1,0,2,7,2,15,16,6,9,0,0,0,1,8,3,0,10,5,73,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14255632616290967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10667416671091837,0.11099348792503606,0.1445310332385995,0.16208684154498187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13703114101750508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11673293025846525,0.0,0.0,0.5226966077706979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11814641968344147,0.0,0.29753644535111845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1118835442515569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1417902990273951,0.1503433700675949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13922741719279896,0.13237176214985402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884385462506193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11340578067488033,0.12039220181398395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13442855893526198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10288074376769683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14193933443748644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09247776551012313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2552777716546464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10607930133982604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11302327887656854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09441610398713232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08547271426126242,0.0,0.0,0.07778240910600402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23603557253054186,0.10588098851459632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2893175832098964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16208684154498187,0.0 alcoholism,Johns1756,2019/03/04,Struggling a lot and scared. How much were you drinking and for how long when you were at your worst point? I’m currently struggling and drinking 7-8 shots of vodka every night for the past year and a half. I’m only 21 years old. Looking for advice. ,2.127400000000001,4.40708094,2.7059999999999995,93.473,79.6,4.800000000000002,22.0,5.6839178017228535,0.12440000000000008,197,6,40,1,5,61,37,50,0.235,0.765,0.0,-0.9118,1,0,3,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,0,0,3,4,0,3,3,0,2,2,0,2,0,7,5,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,0,1,2,1,3,0,5,3,3,10,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,1,8,24,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2204280661470016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4419528130733847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19005562048145405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1996256779105091,0.18942514496587728,0.0,0.0,0.19177474291179566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16582266737191378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2116856915988284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2367017139911194,0.0,0.0,0.1715590081080811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21533567672365425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21324011369700308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2258386839530311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4716373394675058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2905242095396234 alcoholism,yyyvfhh,2019/03/04,Seizures My therapist warned me about the potential dangers of seizures if going cold turkey. Wonder if anyone could elaborate on the likeliness of that? Didn’t drink yesterday and this morning was shaking and sweating a lot until I had a beer. Any advice appreciated x,6.592021276595747,9.328939638297877,6.81803191489362,67.10875000000001,67.51063829787232,9.806382978723407,37.28191489361703,10.125756701596842,4.714493617021279,221,12,31,6,4,71,41,47,0.145,0.787,0.068,-0.4019,0,0,2,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,4,0,4,3,1,0,0,7,6,5,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,1,2,0,2,1,2,0,0,3,1,3,0,5,2,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,2,23,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3674237585421004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2556935270076203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2629085937272405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3002061482889073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3683377677717883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2136899942881376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3196625459985939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4365660616831939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4077569710320815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,CheesecakeDeHam,2019/03/04,"Withdrawal confusion? Hi everyone, I'm a university student who's essentially had far too much alcohol for far too long. During the days I'd feel lethargic, tired and just not even able to be myself, concentrate and just generally function. I decided a couple days ago that I'm going to not drink for a while. My question is, is how I felt previously normal, and is it normal to continue feeling just completely dead for a while after my quitting? Also, if I were to have a heavy night out when I decide drink again (I'll be drinking only on nights out this time around), will I have to go through feeling shitty and fatigued and just awful again? Or will it just be a normal hangover and go after a day? Thanks :)",6.5225729927007325,6.67757354744526,7.3675821167883235,72.74217609489052,65.35036496350365,10.353649635036495,33.91332116788321,10.125756701596842,3.4499058394160587,564,23,101,12,8,189,86,137,0.155,0.774,0.071,-0.9307,0,0,4,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,1,14,3,0,1,8,1,12,6,0,1,0,31,22,13,1,4,9,0,4,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,5,9,4,0,7,3,0,3,2,2,0,0,3,4,8,1,15,14,1,25,0,1,0,0,3,6,0,4,16,74,13,1,0.14824650874403025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13141158531908348,0.15843043320515954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1185526794826126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13197082286721076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15543364391025638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1640319422316086,0.0,0.2868202020366748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43567542160148376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09791542087930932,0.0,0.0,0.14165589206948445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22487366739053147,0.0,0.14233989655131646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2527557217841012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13119349519289314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10897824138877793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27823861192471505,0.4357503085650761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11274815014336476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16607001760067622,0.1576784100727299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1364854677049094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0864437314154873,0.17038755385884502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,LabelMeWolf,2019/03/04,"Alcoholism and the brain? Hey, how does it personally affect an addict in the long period of time(years) when they have been consuming alcohol, how does their addiction personally affect their minds and feelings? Also how does love work for an alcoholic? since drugs must be stronger. I've been trying to stay strong for my parents, ex and my partner and they are all addicts and have mental health issues. So I kind of just want to dig deeper and understand it more. Iv'e lost half my childhood, teens and well, today I am just trying to survive with the tools I have for myself.",5.767924528301887,7.648939141509437,5.496367924528303,79.25606132075474,67.9622641509434,8.69622641509434,28.34433962264151,9.188382445141503,2.4731358490566038,463,16,80,9,8,143,73,106,0.023,0.852,0.125,0.8876,1,0,4,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,4,4,9,5,0,0,5,0,9,10,1,5,2,21,14,13,0,2,2,2,1,0,1,1,8,0,0,3,2,8,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,3,1,11,4,10,9,2,7,0,1,0,1,11,1,0,0,5,56,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4541777917494978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4452405643285505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11105707585685667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15502873758503366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3645873679755859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16104915329668582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07021860674537395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14761602063904458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14494783797502409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14461536429878025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12289866421534727,0.0,0.0,0.15159681389747606,0.0,0.12533874228108802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13995180958346565,0.0,0.14022263156544054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15420257062905673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2425179411698362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11487758194957465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1480206574061126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08097824594987342,0.0,0.1316358258196534,0.0,0.0,0.18857196096904652,0.0,0.0,0.14457219562038626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08191117959695599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12486394113548205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10110155112437877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08942997125511505 alcoholism,directlyworded,2019/03/04,"Withdrawal symptoms? I haven’t had a drink since Thursday. Friday morning I decided I was done. However; The past two nights I haven’t been able to fall asleep before 1am (I’m typically a 9pm or 10 at the latest guy) My stomach has been so messed up. Cramping, bathroom breaks, etc. since yesterday. Has anyone experienced these? If so, how long do they last? How do you handle it?",1.237297297297296,3.8792338108108098,3.082486486486488,86.14291891891894,89.27027027027027,6.203243243243244,23.616216216216216,7.554174236665415,1.515658378378379,298,12,57,6,10,99,60,74,0.062,0.922,0.017,-0.6093,1,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,1,0,4,1,0,0,4,0,11,5,2,2,0,5,12,6,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,2,1,0,1,5,1,7,0,3,7,1,11,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,2,7,35,9,0,0.2630183081086154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839085165098131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2238092079866767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2691590472012147,0.0,0.25765780983075914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2933349392909383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2604294767070235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21439502569447366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23276292597264997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2468248648111085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2510807362315777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43514292484729467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2733767300363572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2569306689671936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,editor1988,2019/03/04,"Need advice, married to an alcoholic I need some advice. I recently married an active alcoholic. I knew what i was getting myself into, so I'm not here for pity. Just advice.. He has his good and bad days.. his choice of alcohol i beer and downs about 14 to 20 on a bad night. He is apologetic the following day and insists he is doing the best he can, that of which, i do believe. I guess I'm just looking for any supportive advice or tips.. Thanks in advance. 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But 5 years ago her and my dad split and ever since then she has been a severe alcoholic. The past 5 years she has drank almost every single day. She drink anywhere between 6 24oz cans a day all the way up to 10-11. She's been doing this for years. Up until a month ago she was unemployed all those years as well. So she sat at home all day everyday drinking her life away. She has totalled my grandmothers car back in 2017 from a DUI. She hit a pole head on. After that I thought that would be her wake up call. But nope. As soon as she got released from the hospital she was right back to drinking. Just the past week or so she had to go to the ER for alcohol withdrawal and the doctor told her she has to stop drinking. Of course she didn't listen and is back to her ways. She comes home from work everyday and gets drunk. She has already said multiple times that she does not want to do rehab or anything to help her kick her habit. I'm worried that my mother is gonna run out of time before she ever gets the help she desperately needs. It makes me feel so hopeless watching her drink herself to death on a daily basis. ,2.019200399800102,3.7821300804597726,3.1222422122272206,92.88937031484258,77.69731800766283,6.224954189571881,21.309511910711308,7.079830092131019,0.3986400466433455,985,26,218,11,23,316,148,261,0.11699999999999999,0.871,0.012,-0.9755,2,0,9,0,0,1,19.0,0,0,0,1,13,3,0,1,16,0,22,15,2,1,7,30,42,18,1,4,6,4,1,0,0,3,6,2,2,0,7,8,10,1,2,6,0,4,4,2,2,0,13,4,36,1,33,24,5,46,0,1,1,0,40,10,0,3,30,144,43,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16926980287964374,0.3061087209357277,0.09560676467894567,0.0,0.10536161926150307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07856971590457087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08970410417285216,0.2202485437747319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08124418439236343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09749303949545113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08224527456287375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1847249576312552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0977251035610183,0.08355286394343896,0.0,0.0,0.4676572246587114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17272944103986945,0.08044377714178078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04827621204983943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496489089398735,0.0,0.054261972792343335,0.0,0.07636195109226404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09798729640391007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19198934596519274,0.0,0.19154311421838133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10313191156286647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06743846908372995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06373186607176365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1118219070652145,0.0762091021537618,0.0,0.0,0.14159047614872505,0.07363801086282436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822878496847458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0815371269724626,0.09082081475586898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21572443608327735,0.0,0.0789798425662417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07982333171793421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07579834330887915,0.11134720992332103,0.0,0.0,0.09123269028799873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0563150090661069,0.15157093731767005,0.07658616331769917,0.0,0.08584559533477679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06950864089837189,0.09696187369735693,0.0,0.06782436320000244,0.0,0.0,0.3074213841623544 alcoholism,puravida_2018,2019/03/04,Its not just cirrhosis. I felt like the biggest risk of being an alcoholic would be cirrhosis but it's not. There are so many diseases and conditions caused by alcohol. I am currently watching rain in my heart an amazing documentary on youtube about alcohlosm. It just ravages the body and the brain. You could also die by negligence due to being drunk and being stupid and driving or putting yourself into dangerous situations. Why is this horrible liquid poison so socially acceptable? ,6.136428571428571,9.240653833333337,6.345476190476191,68.27035714285716,70.19047619047619,10.390476190476187,37.88095238095238,10.411451182825502,5.246552380952382,398,23,56,13,8,127,69,84,0.264,0.643,0.09300000000000001,-0.9677,1,0,2,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,7,7,3,1,5,0,9,7,3,1,0,16,10,9,1,2,6,0,1,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,4,5,3,0,2,1,0,2,2,4,0,0,1,2,4,3,8,3,0,8,0,0,1,0,2,4,0,1,3,44,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4944992802057043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18501563583650008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2569848136437996,0.0,0.2582702654101444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.237666761001845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18471926609149836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401114249673224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22213843314444756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27415845733716365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11302905465204588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2345590848190036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23257709104037005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26005429596913804,0.0,0.2358387224872712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20876317297140606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1643489542553095,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,yugedong,2019/08/14,"Whenever my boyfriend drinks, he forgets where he is? I have tried to research online but all I’m coming up with is blackout drunkness. When my boyfriend gets drunk (to a level that I refer to as “tipped”) he forgets who he’s speaking to mid sentence, what he was talking about, and starts acting like he’s in a sitcom. Usually after an hour of this he gets extremely depressed and tries to stir up a fight (usually about how I don’t love him, or that I treat him wrongly) and then cries himself to sleep. I just got a call from him saying that he’s coming back from an office party, and he sounds tipped. I’ve dealt with this many times so I’m not afraid or anything, but it just made me wonder if anyone has the same thing and if there’s any sound advice out there. TL; DR: Boyfriend gets very disorientated and forgets his surroundings mid sentence when drunk, followed by a depressive episode. What can I do?",4.467839239412276,5.821994202247192,4.533146067415731,86.94966724286951,70.46067415730337,7.049956784788245,28.299049265341395,7.321109707123232,1.4611515989628354,720,26,142,7,13,223,112,178,0.11599999999999999,0.7829999999999999,0.10099999999999999,-0.5789,1,0,1,0,1,0,21.0,0,0,0,0,12,8,1,1,8,0,8,7,1,2,1,30,21,18,0,2,9,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,10,11,4,0,2,4,0,4,2,5,0,0,3,4,14,3,20,18,2,23,0,2,0,1,21,9,0,6,11,86,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17095839281070174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1189714965705294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12232859088392535,0.0,0.1439683349478079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13452518253742274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17864275571784802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3014065941265135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1921735479409896,0.0,0.0,0.3013670838433241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1713836716482533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2742113039201702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13992290573472246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1722897809862331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08547137177017833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15789853829508446,0.16554122061050205,0.0,0.1773710910204005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13912667409141766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17507560700609529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1238299872122885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14061758882442982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11622851505015035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10201432084350948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375581281458484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3853637881244698,0.14435146228117074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18972501043918485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1912795526266244,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,StrangerThongsss,2019/08/14,"Abdominal pain sent me to the ER Woke up 2 days ago with massive stinging abdominal pain so I went to the ER. Originally they thought I needed my galbladder taken out which is scary enough for as I have never had surgery. They did about 3 or 4 different tests on me and found that I had alcoholics liver disease. The Dr said straight up without asking that I needed to stop drinking. And then asked how often I drink. Well of course I told him the truth. I was with my fiancee in the ER so there was no hiding it now (even though she knew I was a heavy drinker) Anyway, this scared the shit out of me and honestly I have no ambition to drink anymore when that was all I thought about. So for people struggling just think about living in extreme pain later in your life everyday. It's not worth it. I am only 2 days into sobriety after 10+ years with only taking 10 days off for a meditation retreat in between. Good luck all!",3.3897463768115936,5.114859206521743,4.457043478260871,84.95607246376812,73.78260869565217,7.297971014492754,26.94057971014493,8.021203637495839,1.6590844927536237,730,27,145,11,15,238,120,184,0.157,0.737,0.107,-0.8697,1,0,5,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,2,0,16,11,1,2,8,0,11,11,2,2,4,29,27,12,0,2,4,0,0,0,1,0,6,1,0,0,8,9,4,1,5,3,1,2,5,6,4,0,17,1,22,5,30,10,3,28,0,0,0,0,11,12,1,3,14,104,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12120788603878095,0.146128804750193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13560500322348756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25565871261449696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2645495089163412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1428596308899278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4018465854676958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1412844577605279,0.0,0.09031259417928288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14992356089224795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11468735925483695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09658041938103536,0.0,0.0,0.12074006660169985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2027754744821679,0.10545894751386987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20798721665943956,0.4364890534149647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09479526937668027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13006689648839234,0.0,0.13689621957895087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403571594823318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1143171094844668,0.0,0.1429457691995847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10280817697018377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08761467070552714,0.1343420624515151,0.21710563376135128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13065675435685148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1229417528614638,0.12675529911439154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13180826811472038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08805326281127494 alcoholism,CosmicTaco93,2019/08/14,"How are you dealing? First time posting here. How are you folks dealing with it? AA isn't an option for me(don't get me started), so I'm looking for advice. Any and all, thank you.",0.3558333333333329,2.7926095833333378,1.6402222222222242,96.12700000000002,92.05555555555556,2.8800000000000003,23.86666666666667,3.1291,-0.05282666666666591,139,6,28,0,5,44,30,36,0.0,0.92,0.08,0.4329,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,3,0,1,4,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,2,1,6,8,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,4,1,3,8,1,4,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,1,3,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30938020199736976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21530048941016766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6528063468452171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26930184051820344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16541168721818925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2658662784522249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3032175831304938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22409280894147093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.291484953927782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18461340604749624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ReeqL,2019/08/14,"I can’t wait until college is over... I have a binge drinking problem at 21 and have since I was 16. I’ve never had just 3 beers. It always turns into 10. Last weekend it was 15. I tell myself before I go out to be cool tonight, but once I get a few in me I lose control of myself. It always ends with me falling, fighting, pissing the bed, and many other ridiculous regrets. I have 1 more year of college and I leave tomorrow. The first thing on the list tomorrow? We are celebrating my best friends birthday... I feel like there’s no escaping it",0.7457172557172562,3.0880471891891865,2.7291891891891886,90.70359667359669,86.11711711711712,4.8568260568260575,24.75467775467776,6.297961479604792,0.8196577962577969,422,18,86,4,13,141,84,111,0.198,0.633,0.17,-0.128,0,0,2,0,2,0,18.0,1,0,0,4,2,10,3,0,5,1,10,3,1,1,1,15,15,5,0,2,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,6,7,2,2,1,3,0,2,3,6,0,1,3,2,16,4,11,11,3,18,0,2,0,0,4,6,1,0,11,60,22,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.365638430284572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18695998769506075,0.0,0.2305757406311469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.246427348956892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2152355633123132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19460092769573967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1110937364724225,0.15696335307044024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1868881727252629,0.0,0.0,0.16975008860598895,0.0,0.11479122427134145,0.0,0.12486823323343987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17909580989226853,0.0,0.2326448498011385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10734090752698593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24580318211260466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22275498198830054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16945657966499889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2339876841228994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21023612614415002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18174926002125424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19203926463065926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14596787237185874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23898517249113066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14148827668111774 alcoholism,emciurea,2019/08/14,"Have you tried Revia/Naltrexone? Hi guys, Has anyone tried the Sinclair Method aka the medicine called Revia/Naltrexone? Does it have positive results? Thank you :)",5.7323076923076925,9.498858000000002,3.7373076923076947,79.84519230769233,84.38461538461539,7.2153846153846155,29.57692307692308,8.07648339933343,3.1737230769230766,132,6,18,3,4,37,20,26,0.0,0.695,0.305,0.8638,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2861912842868279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4179399052829866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35818019648748833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4052702279339664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3768274054434255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5557741268461636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,other042,2019/08/14,"Been drinking pretty heavily since I was 21, now 29 almost 30. Up until now haven't had too many problems really, but the physical side effects have been getting worse over the past few months. Daily/ night sweats, shaking all the time, and really fucked up dreams if I take a night or 2 off from drinking. Never posted anything like this before but I'm getting worried.",5.675217391304351,7.278898840579712,5.69634782608696,78.80191304347828,67.84057971014494,7.838840579710146,29.74202898550725,8.238735603445708,2.299606376811594,296,11,49,4,5,93,56,69,0.247,0.6779999999999999,0.075,-0.9326,0,0,2,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,3,4,1,1,4,0,6,4,1,1,2,10,11,6,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,3,0,1,2,3,0,0,4,0,2,1,6,7,2,16,0,0,0,1,0,5,1,3,10,30,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20749097738571526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17051625165543846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17632052797817416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4059740122020708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1915623926693142,0.2165174433344129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10123238518652587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21007851208252654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16539311987673702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1598131983440299,0.0,0.0,0.3889052722462328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19780548072953236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19844999158631102,0.21080715864715235,0.0,0.19827207531850874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2654881838597461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17140633074312414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1557962028339343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1208258719649474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2104319083505747,0.211164787914708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Ozack13,2019/08/14,Brownout I had a brownout once by drinking approx 10 shots of tequila. I never recommended it. I’m a 6 ft + plus 220 lbs guy . I felt effects for around 10 days. I remember limited memories of my night. Next morning I found food all of over my kitchen table. I didnt remember how it got there...,0.7537142857142847,3.0907804666666716,3.092857142857145,88.15500000000004,86.0,6.761904761904763,28.57142857142857,7.957251820313856,2.1486428571428573,228,12,48,5,7,78,46,60,0.071,0.929,0.0,-0.3595,0,0,2,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,2,0,2,3,0,2,2,11,6,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,2,3,1,5,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,1,8,0,8,1,1,6,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,4,26,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2208473167898089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15999362749205764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2430278293376279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23819950154533434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2999841031100425,0.2720112517154117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19841540170241584,0.0,0.0,0.2456421191393924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.191337639975445,0.0,0.2638401005780852,0.2328099860858016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2642013154750509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5620615198434061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,dani_killacornia,2019/08/14,Cycling Unfortunately the cycle happened again I don't understand why I can't get out of this pyramid of hurt tragedy and pain that I caused myself and everyone around me does anybody have any home remedies to help you detox and sleep so I don't have these crazy anxiety panic attacks seriously they're making me want to die and I can't go to the hospital anymore they won't let me back there or they send me to The Nut House. Sorry for the grammar I'm just not feeling it tomorrow is my only day off and then I have to go back to work and I really don't want to look like a sweaty shaking mess on the fact that I do hair for pretty wealthy people I think my boss is starting to know💔🤢😭,1.5596966731898263,3.55245614383562,3.348375733855189,89.63082191780823,80.02739726027397,6.36320939334638,24.127201565557733,7.447530270364453,1.040369471624266,551,20,119,8,14,184,97,146,0.21899999999999997,0.68,0.10099999999999999,-0.9541,0,0,0,0,0,1,1.0,0,1,2,1,7,8,1,2,6,0,13,4,2,3,1,20,26,9,1,2,3,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,1,0,5,8,0,0,3,0,0,4,7,7,0,0,0,3,19,1,16,24,0,15,0,1,1,0,5,4,0,1,8,74,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12024860324982865,0.0,0.1352723730351357,0.0,0.17536513107892976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15741375460154736,0.0,0.2011665405206978,0.0,0.2719385023868048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1816503095371684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.114038956786675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18351878270595065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15474273042740058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16896602860865675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08940917779121739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09238494721343377,0.0,0.20099001834212726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15636776565816188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11852358776409395,0.0,0.1773721635010889,0.0,0.0,0.20403492148264596,0.18929724344211502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09717963991412333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18081785795077446,0.0,0.08638886934668273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14849036675529387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11803357186959172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344851024859049,0.1881566762461344,0.20746869485300204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12258976029451292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17989689813352547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11328007330010235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17695496663033353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19794364509296408,0.1251592476513433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11330377086006226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1840834180712558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20859460359928209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15955910212418373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12873235426367896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,WhoreBritches,2019/05/08,"I'm tired of being miserable. 24F, here. A bit of background: I've had substance abuse issues since I was 18. I experienced some trauma just out of highschool (I mention that because I THINK that's when I started self-medicating?) At that point, I had lost an entire group of friends (before the drugs), and for one reason or another, couldn't/wouldn't reach out to someone or handle it. I knew my mom had a xanax prescription that she barely used, and I started dipping into it. Seemed okay at first, because I was just using it to sleep. But obviously the problem snowballed. It was disturbingly easy for me to get a benzo prescription at 18, which I abused on and off for a few years. Was never questioned, I'd always have a refill when I needed it. Eventually I decided to stop using them (I don't remember why or HOW), and eventually replaced it with booze/weed. Marijuana is my go-to (though I need to lay off of that as well, I'm a daily smoker). I didn't start drinking to the point of getting sick until a couple years ago. And it wasn't a daily, consistent thing. I'd drink, get sick, swear off of it for a couple weeks, repeat the process. Not necessarily good, but it was manageable. Which brings me to now. The job I work requires me to be completely alone in a building for hours at a time. There were times where I felt like having a couple beers before work, but I eventually got too comfortable and started bringing my flask to work. It's VERY easy for me to drink and hide it during my shift. I have some form of alcohol with me at work probably every other day. I've also brought my vape pen to work on several occasions. I'm 25 in a few weeks and feel like an embarrassment. Dropped out of college because I don't want an art degree, I make way less than someone my age should be making, living paycheck to paycheck (due in part to my addiction problems), and I can't support my husband the same way he supports me, and I know I'm not doing my part in the marriage. I want to get sober and go learn a trade. I NEED to do something. This is all a big ramble, but I've deleted it a few times and I just want to post it before I change my mind again. Sincerely, Buzzed at work.",4.081155975492727,5.14880488558353,5.2720439949804385,82.37254078393742,71.08237986270024,8.018572377648189,28.742083118033513,8.360895534625662,1.981088196648705,1713,64,341,26,31,569,222,437,0.1,0.8270000000000001,0.073,-0.3543,1,1,8,0,2,0,65.0,0,0,1,9,15,17,0,3,26,1,25,12,1,7,3,65,62,26,0,9,12,2,2,2,1,1,7,0,0,0,23,18,5,2,11,5,1,4,8,7,1,2,16,3,45,10,55,42,12,56,0,2,0,0,10,23,0,7,27,224,68,14,0.0,0.18774043351568706,0.0,0.08636836716485831,0.0,0.0,0.0702293395254268,0.0846688262508148,0.0,0.08205455902595933,0.0,0.06335724783181977,0.06592263280801271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08307568911627702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14488686132158635,0.0,0.20224725189340328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08649460610062012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08381092611586287,0.0,0.08306727390391258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2629872001626161,0.0,0.051094412776151614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23283485266721585,0.09187736161606208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06675157933060126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04005920051150956,0.056599288432147586,0.07606967756034562,0.0,0.0,0.06738985492930452,0.0,0.0,0.06121004704888872,0.0,0.1655698985761931,0.0,0.09005227029802923,0.06645126613135967,0.06336451391623353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07802195192847458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08269167923263908,0.07861988332367821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04354070551959114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07741194191948614,0.0,0.0699582791913422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08648487126562186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.105768348158954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08800256504500324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07999598360731612,0.09278889139189854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17623590481911333,0.061104210897433314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05368579495491596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17158873647563552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1497889336800847,0.0,0.07587690043209003,0.0,0.0854193571495116,0.15161774910797318,0.0,0.0,0.08875159387775687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08145783710859343,0.0,0.0,0.08974795981138606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07212465293509329,0.0826503151827485,0.0895031742690454,0.0,0.06553681855697825,0.0,0.07928352172419073,0.0,0.1342563829901416,0.06099228057010084,0.0,0.0,0.22430714704670265,0.0,0.0,0.06623673886186981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17981014506440374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05263443694716535,0.05076501750404439,0.07783944283488994,0.0,0.13859248745874733,0.09105898343593036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20527827140678626,0.0,0.06536999923289971,0.1401891828831354,0.12577230714492618,0.12710112672401078,0.0,0.07123396328186381,0.0,0.07148941779058582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3460661636197683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10203828632595896 alcoholism,valeriambriz,2019/05/08,"HELP PLEASE Hello i am 21 years old in TX, I am currently with my dad who had been about 3 years sober and on Sunday he started drinking again, i don’t know what to do I go to school/work I can’t take care of him he gets drunk to the point of not being able to walk or talk. Ive been told I can’t take him to the hospital unless he agrees to it. What do I do? Where do I go or take him?",-1.6630769230769218,-0.05571175824175612,1.0557032967032995,103.70179670329672,89.65934065934064,4.519120879120879,13.495604395604394,5.6839178017228535,-1.340622857142857,294,4,83,2,10,101,57,91,0.027000000000000003,0.8029999999999999,0.17,0.9128,1,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,14,2,0,0,0,7,24,4,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,2,0,1,2,0,3,4,0,0,0,4,0,13,1,13,19,0,14,0,0,0,0,12,4,0,2,7,51,17,0,0.230167766525505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23467137785026254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2254767854111087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1202531581853462,0.0,0.26161929186941113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15427660217375586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12649418507530158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2415223525827189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25265508956193605,0.2175829361634404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23294206779440305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16291392981374528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5191725470856144,0.18500013213316294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21993516453805992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675648753154365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2964409905915477 alcoholism,Danny_Lambo,2019/05/08,Any Drunk Documentaries on YouTube? Feeling alone and want to drink. Anything good to watch that shows drunk people? Sounds weird but it motivates me to not be like who I once was.,2.4227272727272755,5.373806424242427,1.6446060606060615,95.02690909090909,90.8181818181818,5.0642424242424235,21.75151515151515,6.742157984588678,0.5918533333333338,144,5,28,2,5,41,30,33,0.247,0.638,0.11599999999999999,-0.6027,0,1,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,0,6,4,2,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,3,0,2,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,2,2,4,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,14,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4115722931083223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2702362661415457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3270150111614913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38928722289709494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20093042008052286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3333087192995897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1941428412264792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4232033700311606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2754975791307039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2343886967935577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Huklynborol,2019/05/08,Relationship advice for a 46 year old male alcoholic How and when to tell your significant other that you are a alcoholic. I've been sober for eight years now. I've Ben trying the dating scene for about a year. At first I was always upfront about it and would get no replies on the internet dating sites. So I stopped being upfront with it and the likes poured in. Usually in the first date they would ask me about my profile about being a non-drinker and of course I would have to tell them my story. To No Surprise I would never hear from them again even though they were interested. On two occasions I was going out for at least a month before I told them and once again the same result relationship ended. My question is do I just bury this and not ever tell anybody about it .I might have to move because it's going to come up sooner or later. To me that's just the same as lying but I'm awfully tired of being alone. I guess it's the painful truth behind this disease it doesn't stop once you stop drinking. the stigma gets you also. Any advice would be helpful thank you.,4.084936046511628,5.462059618604653,4.633880813953488,85.77361191860467,71.4186046511628,7.23546511627907,24.600290697674406,7.645422480735847,1.1187732558139531,858,24,171,10,16,273,130,215,0.081,0.821,0.098,0.3875,0,1,4,0,0,0,15.0,0,5,5,2,17,6,0,0,13,1,20,5,0,2,3,32,31,14,0,5,5,0,0,1,0,6,4,1,0,1,11,9,3,3,1,1,0,4,5,1,0,4,5,1,24,5,29,16,3,35,0,0,0,0,21,9,0,4,23,128,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21768316142920094,0.0,0.23806779900148495,0.0,0.1153585630647595,0.0,0.08907245564873875,0.09267906968791624,0.0,0.0,0.07574384348042079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10412749750422852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0678976700682512,0.0,0.09477820870720227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09594606501377967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21822467354992886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09865173595242624,0.0,0.0,0.07356701697222294,0.10075174694161823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18948360510542106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11638540145273972,0.0,0.1266023561105662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12270025802790005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12553604659240442,0.0,0.07465726700949636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054415808761213054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11815911232909387,0.0,0.0,0.0889043596577315,0.11838185163196605,0.0,0.0,0.0859049643311579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11687707994256767,0.2372372167341661,0.0,0.0,0.1185187141490038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12477376590624414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2391660025882909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27936199187117683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2920593501454823,0.10254593841234873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10943263094441344,0.0,0.0,0.12801767029158506,0.0,0.10643064516810208,0.0,0.07562133029533602,0.0,0.10880440883425764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12267196468112812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3956142645089529,0.0,0.0,0.21517981866971905 alcoholism,kialono121,2019/05/08,Help I’ve been drinking about 6 or 7 standard drinks every night for the last 6 months am I okay to stop cold turkey? And if I do is anything serious going to happen?,4.948857142857143,4.5159366,6.069285714285716,82.71821428571431,68.71428571428571,8.142857142857144,28.92857142857143,7.1686216300943375,1.5635714285714286,131,4,27,1,2,44,31,35,0.105,0.747,0.14800000000000002,0.3527,0,0,2,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,4,2,0,0,0,5,6,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,1,4,5,0,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,4,14,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26475334400017475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6303386115058198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27106829593426424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.182844478733614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28450151742201096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21564636693026476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2622498865816951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25679887481030794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3019183518487945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2689776048983885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,throwaway2019050800,2019/05/08,"Was this DT? I drink regularly (like every Friday night) since more than 10 years ago, with some rare gaps of a week or several weeks (usually trip or work related). Since about 5 years ago, I drink more often, usually about several times a week, about 1 L to 3 L of beer after work at night. Sometimes I can keep drinking from the night all through the next day, and at the following night I stop. What happened to me a few days ago was something that made me concerned because I couldn’t explain it and it seems it was for the first time. I think I came across the name of it online by chance. My friend came from abroad to visit me for a few weeks, and in the last couple of weeks we drank often, usually every day or every other day and usually booze. I remember the last few days before this happened, we were on vodka and some tequila. Then, at about 3am, I just got tired of drinking, put my drink on the table and went to bed. The next day I was hungover, but not very badly, and I didn’t want to drink. I ate something, although the food didn’t taste very well, and just did something about the house. Later in the evening, I drank with my friend, but only a little (1 or 2 drinks) because I really didn’t feel like, and I also wanted to sleep. So I lay down in my bed at about 10pm, but I couldn’t fall asleep. At about midnight I started to feel like I was hot and cold at the same time, and I began sweating profusely. The profuse sweating (pouring down sweat) had happened to me before a few times after heavy drinking, and, although it was something strange to me, I thought it was just part of a bad hangover, during which I just took a shower and then felt much better, kind of like the hangover partially came out and away with the sweat. So this time I just used a towel to wipe it away. My friend got up and turned on the light. I sat down next to him and we smoked, but right before this, my hands and body started shaking uncontrollably. I just couldn’t stop it, and the shaking was quite strong. My friend asked me if I was cold. I said, “Yes, I am very cold.” He said, “That’s strange, it’s 20 C outside.” Then I noticed I felt some kind of fear or anxiety: for example, I was afraid to open the closet or go to the bathroom, and when opened, observed the area with fear. But I remembered that years ago my psychologist told me that hangovers may cause the sense of fear, and just accepted it. After a while (it was already about 3am) I felt like I couldn’t find a place for myself: I didn’t know whether to go get some water, or read a website, or smoke, or something else – thoughts seemed to be racing and mixing in a random way. That made me more anxious because I didn’t know what was going on and what to do. Then I said to myself, “Just stop it now! I’ll go and help my friend with his computer.” (I do programming and he is not very good with tech.) I sat down at my friend’s computer and started doing basic stuff, but I couldn’t concentrate, e.g., I was looking at two windows with two different kinds of content and couldn’t really remember which content belonged to which window while looking at them that very moment. The whole view in front of me was a little blurry, or slowly drifting to the side. Then I wondered if that content was really supposed to be there (in reality it was). At this point I started noticing something highly unusual: when I moved the mouse cursor with the touchpad, the cursor moved to a different position, as if somebody else was controlling it. “That’s just a glitch,” I thought, “I just installed Ubuntu 18.04 on my friend’s computer, it is a super-secure OS, nobody can just take control of the default installation remotely”. I tried again, the cursor moved away by itself again. When I finally took control of it for a second and opened some menu or window, it closed and other windows started opening by themselves, and I completely lost control of the GUI. “What the fuck?!” I thought, “This computer is hacked! Somebody else is using it!” The OS seemed to be behaving erratically, new menus and windows kept opening and closing by themselves. Horrified, I shut down the computer using the power button. “But how? But why?” I thought, “Even if my friend, who is very inept with tech, told someone all his passwords, it’s still highly unlikely to be taken remote control of.” I stepped to the side, sat down with my friend and tried to help him pack his stuff – he was leaving that morning. I still felt uneasy, but not that bad. Some everyday sounds seemed to have words attached to them, kind of like lyrics to the melody, my imagination just automatically filled them in. At about 5am we took a taxi to the airport, he left and I went back home. He left me some Klonopin to help me sleep, so I took 1 mg of it and went to sleep. I woke up because my friend came to my place again. He said his place abroad couldn’t host him anymore, so he had to return because he had nowhere to stay, and there was a family with him from a third country, where they said they could rent him a small place. (At this moment I didn’t even come to question the fact that it would be a 6-hour flight to his place and back, but everything seemed absolutely real.) Then I presumably fell asleep again, saw some dreams (some sad but no nightmares), and woke up at about 7pm feeling well-rested and much better. So, on the Internet I accidentally found out about DT and some things seem to be aligned. Was it really the case? If so, what could be the degree of it – very mild to medium? Did anyone here have anything similar?",6.245403061915733,5.947892056014696,6.206435141278663,82.36268798265819,65.99724517906336,9.124454680937543,31.44290897047976,8.50408056420428,2.1987006608559514,4335,148,877,54,61,1369,397,1089,0.07200000000000001,0.8390000000000001,0.08800000000000001,0.9707,6,0,19,0,0,0,159.0,4,0,5,14,53,39,1,7,64,1,63,29,11,12,3,193,149,89,0,17,43,0,9,6,10,2,1,6,11,0,56,68,16,10,32,13,1,31,17,13,1,5,77,24,108,26,137,54,24,176,0,2,4,1,53,67,1,38,82,580,164,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12871116177756742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0400579908265039,0.029029124545982363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02776942710302141,0.04100870669151754,0.03599988020202213,0.025381828202472933,0.0,0.02987183550335099,0.0,0.03393563219624246,0.0,0.10231523226130224,0.05582497186305544,0.09092703788507286,0.11064082080357418,0.0,0.09266596743407883,0.0,0.0,0.06420886140589913,0.0,0.0403211551713631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16607027652104372,0.0,0.037290134827630016,0.0,0.03126926557369892,0.03805989562950763,0.0,0.2035678772307797,0.05796524771723855,0.04016529783503646,0.0,0.1404631156978211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07585162015396371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2844817146377586,0.0,0.0,0.0909720629412242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07192749147676487,0.0,0.09175303424666087,0.0,0.032624130448851346,0.0,0.034220441990163365,0.1225428927689068,0.05506316454660104,0.051865503926943536,0.1394149032441372,0.03976491356057692,0.033177573983771566,0.030876790877522493,0.04389414591397267,0.03980111428990893,0.28045316677332616,0.0335587970465663,0.018965269844076527,0.0,0.08252058476621726,0.03044674676977763,0.05806490746418344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09630000211304354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07299344403935329,0.0767059591069497,0.036411894416676825,0.0,0.03574822198502816,0.041885366179769484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0322651386285444,0.0,0.1512036000984881,0.039899099364393883,0.059178746182225225,0.0,0.03843649531852567,0.0788801875868334,0.0,0.0,0.10640617988768647,0.0727643420388721,0.0,0.0,0.06096577331486613,0.0,0.03962577582247986,0.0,0.0,0.06869594085245963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11574357605769035,0.05336940431685379,0.0,0.0,0.03505879960588947,0.115816495800947,0.13626049371998233,0.0,0.0,0.08265565994917255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.027607812047140468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03930940004734027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1896290503849093,0.0,0.03431526589468793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03649156089877479,0.040664346392867146,0.03860955504497962,0.03630985789389049,0.04131738645122579,0.09301892669288923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1233625887615066,0.03100003119898705,0.1726482275920893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1982771289352364,0.0,0.08201741338303509,0.0,0.06005552745245647,0.0,0.10897875011955956,0.0,0.030756901509195394,0.16767324051507207,0.03590166239800245,0.0,0.12846675658673584,0.03869100699858682,0.05797850902688397,0.09104536297307006,0.0,0.0,0.08310970979444045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02729310841588371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.024116130006195585,0.02325959643347646,0.0,0.1440908635522786,0.10583421042995764,0.04172154980924847,0.0,0.0693724773071941,0.16132269631947296,0.049290681378160985,0.039484013815497064,0.07091971838426286,0.0,0.0,0.09405472477386824,0.15991743867810349,0.2096593112816212,0.042821401804116734,0.0288132778292174,0.14558849081481726,0.0,0.06527618110882091,0.10095148721546307,0.03275513510737476,0.040527692269648766,0.0,0.0,0.03936583905596648,0.05285371502423535,0.0,0.0,0.025786503073153392,0.0,0.0,0.0701280963957978 alcoholism,puppynebula,2019/05/08,"Writer here with some questions for all you amazing people! Hello everyone! I hope this is okay to ask here, if it breaks any subreddit rules please feel free to report and remove it! I'm a writer working on a story with an alcoholic character. The alcoholism isn't the focus of the story, but I plan to have her recover as part of the plot. I don't really have any personal experience with alcoholism, so I thought I'd go to Reddit and hear some recovery stories first hand! For anyone that would be willing to share, I'd love to hear more about what it was like getting sober. My biggest question is about how long it took for you to start feeling ""good"" or even ""better"" after withdrawal symptoms calmed down. Also, if you don't mind talking about it, what were some of your biggest symptoms and challenges while going through withdrawal? Again, if this type of post isn't allowed feel free to delete it, I'm just looking for some more information. And congratulations in advance to anyone brave enough to share their story!",6.7101562500000025,7.492478869791667,6.629166666666666,76.0325,64.98958333333334,9.525,33.1875,9.516144504307137,3.1056687500000004,821,33,143,15,12,260,120,192,0.0,0.75,0.25,0.9941,1,0,3,0,0,0,23.0,0,4,1,6,11,14,0,0,7,1,13,7,1,2,1,30,30,14,0,5,6,0,4,1,0,2,5,2,0,1,11,7,3,0,7,0,2,5,4,0,0,1,4,7,11,16,30,23,9,18,0,0,1,1,18,5,0,11,7,100,22,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4403436110124645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1098356208514885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18680010590833615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.192071163189816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284000564797576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1214714578373354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14191522886621186,0.0,0.09071579900301664,0.0,0.0,0.1312400775809137,0.0,0.13435083348207122,0.0,0.0,0.20833893403997356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11682651643739032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07175766477699218,0.0,0.15611389944723247,0.11519938636349293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30959805736339024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13641566050299053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0671003633602902,0.0,0.0,0.12154697016613257,0.1153361265187756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12396021117044435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386804008352504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14873243430610802,0.0,0.09521848731463413,0.11992531061391686,0.0,0.15076476572068626,0.0,0.0,0.13153959100886994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3077181143031542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0879874240443344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09721427145438352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28551035875660324,0.0,0.11039358687652703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1090374560364205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525965628038356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09998959139809778,0.0,0.0,0.09756672372748514,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,mellow-cello,2019/05/08,"Day 1 After several months of daily heavy use I’m ready to stop again. Due in part to my general health, the insane cold sweats I got on the bus into work today and the fact I am being so unproductive at work and uni. Had a 4 month sober period last year and tried to integrate booze back into my life sensibly. Guess that didn’t work. Just wanted to put it out there to make it official.",2.241160714285716,4.027240937500004,4.059642857142858,86.31250000000004,77.125,8.071428571428571,18.92857142857143,8.841846274778883,1.044857142857143,305,6,65,7,7,103,65,80,0.063,0.904,0.032,-0.34,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,0,4,0,4,4,1,2,1,14,10,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,6,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,1,4,0,13,6,1,19,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,1,12,37,7,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17218072274075594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444099296553624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17908934656668582,0.0,0.2466732173657779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2380165781877915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18252475457655515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15816137734708002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14946839475692714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3574617492594074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24248362998766795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2251015314401794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25296595846497955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1872072166001645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21225005722875329,0.0,0.0,0.15202703845324553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1933950577825532,0.0,0.0,0.13207386704093513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4890494638168926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14419719250950272 alcoholism,lollialice,2019/05/08,"Tapering, Day 2 of stepping down, having issues with cravings. Hey guys, I'm currently on my second day of tapering down to 0 and staying there as long as possible. I'm taking it day by day and found it impossible to go cold turkey. I was previously binge drinking 7-12 drinks per night for around a year and a half straight and stepped down by cutting the amount roughly in half each day. I had 5 yesterday very spread out in the evening, tonight is 2.8 (two 16oz). I'm currently doing much more okay than I had expected, but the cravings are nagging me like crazy and I'm not even at 0 yet. Had my drinks around 6, and it's now 2AM. What can I do to keep them at bay? I do have Klonopin that was prescribed to take on it's own if I have withdrawal symptoms during the day, and have used it sparingly. No DT's as of now, but firmly believe that script has helped me avoid a seizure on day one after how severe that was and how much I had on my idiotic ""last hurrah"". *As a disclaimer, I should note that I don't particularly care for benzos and it's a very short script that was written specifically for this. My therapist knows, and I'm checking in with him throughout this. It sucks that this is what it has come to, but I need to get sober and continuing to drink is ruining my life and career.",4.047537878787878,4.83267110227273,5.014090909090911,85.23696969696972,70.93181818181819,8.442424242424243,29.060606060606066,8.680891452615391,1.9775696969696968,1017,38,219,17,18,333,149,264,0.121,0.85,0.028999999999999998,-0.9773,2,1,4,0,0,0,31.0,0,0,1,0,10,9,4,1,9,1,24,6,0,3,0,34,42,22,0,4,5,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,19,19,4,2,2,4,1,4,3,6,0,5,10,2,19,3,38,31,6,42,0,1,0,0,5,17,1,1,21,145,38,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21502927964310925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1360711605551827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12313734173114507,0.0,0.0,0.10403627554850997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5452255539489731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4732509304193646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15954043447023888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324226718290935,0.0,0.0,0.06309953250100568,0.0,0.06863875867925284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1195854418707336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08095239759111697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12605688222733266,0.0,0.10734965440932936,0.0,0.0,0.06637433945846967,0.09844708904208876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08530638616570085,0.05900417149638735,0.0,0.0,0.10688136268414013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17756586064618712,0.0895525358140332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11333840122992678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08183972069152752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13615475903607616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13644046417371813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12872922313660046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12553063298342204,0.1816143293188543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14022814991992352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11797884005714933,0.0,0.0,0.10431012778506947,0.0,0.19930271995855015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07777462231649343 alcoholism,Wanda9,2019/05/08,"Alcohol, red blood cells, white blood cells, bone marrow I've been reading about alcohol and its effects on RBC and WBC and bone marrow. My alcohol has lowered my white and red blood cells. Drs.have said I possibly have internal bleeding. This was found out last year and I still kept on w my forsaken drinking. But I am scared now. This may be what gets me to stop. When the shit messes with your health. Then there's all the shit it does to the liver. Man oh man.",1.59812187812188,4.206729351648356,2.159440559440561,94.31510489510492,85.15384615384616,5.946453546453547,21.45954045954046,7.348242739294969,0.7633648351648348,365,12,76,6,11,112,65,91,0.147,0.853,0.0,-0.9153,1,0,4,0,1,0,13.0,0,1,0,1,5,4,2,1,3,0,7,14,8,1,1,14,11,8,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,5,1,0,2,5,7,4,2,2,2,0,0,0,4,0,0,5,5,8,0,7,4,1,10,0,0,4,0,7,3,2,1,7,42,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6359144498198741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17357386402794706,0.0,0.0,0.1943035048554369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2174760796426856,0.0,0.0,0.103627564419751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21083245344197368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616784096060208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2236052392756125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19839960986088254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18867240459901025,0.0,0.19857888229677104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4071985031884208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1583993196126625,0.16582608269712598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.127728278877435 alcoholism,Jordanpischke,2019/05/08,"Alcohol free substitutes, whiskey/rum specifically? I live in Canada and have recently quit drinking partly due to my medications and partly due to the issues that I've had in the past with alcohol and the other things that tend to follow. I find I miss the taste of a nice dark/spiced rum or an irish whiskey. I cannot drink at all due to the medications that I am on which is why I am wondering if anyone knows of any alternative spirits out there? A quick search brought up a company named arkay but looking deeper into it it may just be a scam website.",6.8390214067278325,6.521491082568812,7.300504587155968,75.07840214067282,64.77981651376146,10.936391437308867,33.762996941896034,10.504223727775694,3.38054006116208,444,17,86,10,6,146,78,109,0.066,0.894,0.04,-0.5661,0,0,6,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,10,0,8,8,0,0,1,16,15,6,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,8,6,6,0,3,4,1,2,1,1,0,0,2,2,7,3,14,11,3,15,1,1,1,0,1,7,0,4,6,59,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4093048250913723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1302247541983136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13389938883252933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3751889680696308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17502509448630704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1998734646714291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10524192696529616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1690956547766608,0.0,0.1608095311622935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3858268359789112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41474590401643663,0.18280587417622868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20368098713689112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1890805154298209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12722231996357133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1727965589010287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20767069055963705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,comdygas,2019/09/10,"HELP! People I respect have expressed concern for my consumption, but I think they’re crazy. Am I delusional? My wife, business partner, a few friends, and a few friends have all (at different times) made references to me “maybe having a problem”, which is concerning me. I respect their opinions and they all have pure motives. However, I’m legitimately skeptical. A bit about me...I’m a successful entrepreneur, a father of 2, am happily married, and live a generally happy life. I run a software business, am a good father and husband, pay my taxes...blah blah blah. I’m 240 (so I’m a big guy) and seem to have inherited my Irish-rooted tolerance for booze. I do drink nightly...anywhere from 2 beers to 8 depending on the night and occasion. Almost never to excess...just levels of “relaxed or buzzed”. On occasions I’ll drink to the limit, but this is a few times a year. No day drinking outside of vacations. No DUIs, no family issues pertaining to alcohol, no shakes, no sweats, no sleeping issues. I genuinely feel like I just like beer! I live a stressful life, and beer helps! The more beer, the less stress I feel at night. Then I wake up in the morning and go attack the market again. I’ve quit for 30 days a few times just to be sure I’m ok...and it wasn’t a problem...other than life being more boring and more stressful. After the 30 days I went right back to it and life got a little easier. I’m a realist...and certainly don’t want to be in denial about anything. I take my wife’s concerns seriously, and am happy to quit in a second if I need to...BUT I REALLY DON’T WANT TO UNLESS ITS NECESSARY. So am I crazy? Do I just like beer or am I an alcoholic in denial and just haven’t realized it yet? HELP PLEASE!!!",1.7823626593953037,4.243325747774481,3.8588980672066735,83.61875691715456,82.32344213649851,7.204074103777367,25.13184698051167,8.27314431278463,1.9646709279011962,1335,54,256,30,37,454,176,337,0.14800000000000002,0.624,0.228,0.9892,2,0,10,0,0,0,75.0,0,0,2,5,11,23,2,4,26,0,22,18,3,3,6,45,39,21,0,5,10,5,2,5,3,0,6,0,0,2,6,12,11,1,7,9,2,4,11,9,0,1,4,2,27,14,32,32,11,32,0,0,0,0,15,13,0,7,18,158,33,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21785690235892494,0.1020646857128602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08387684059049337,0.0,0.0,0.1159561301678625,0.0,0.07837520170799363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11127736021765824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1972025181195933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10649151859903226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2995475549230741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09608725106373764,0.0,0.10307422130265503,0.0728163256746951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1574963517719324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0579271897528179,0.08549112842501015,0.08151994856038756,0.0,0.0,0.10092327886189514,0.0,0.21700534998579904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20495759188125967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21276960938509795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2879748593146617,0.14938844630557846,0.10215714928501723,0.18000596764904345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09644533693701786,0.0,0.0,0.1023988883809466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07557722247260766,0.07861201516935626,0.0,0.0,0.19130226713471926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07066301466020904,0.0,0.0,0.11188471011055956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19505982677407094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21682279908205496,0.0,0.0,0.06529673817033294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08704469047059636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0927900749775704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10200012930244502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35026945007263904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09606453808507916,0.0,0.07663605751850516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06531039788402218,0.0,0.0,0.17830251903185138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12023780368576442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0944869044465508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06563733656568949 alcoholism,MallowPump,2019/09/10,"I think I (30F) might be an alcoholic but I’m not sure if I’m looking for an excuse I did something awful at the weekend. Because I was drunk. I wouldn’t have done it if I hadn’t been drinking. I’ve been drinking pretty solidly in the months leading up to it, and have drunk each night since. I don’t know if I’m actually alcohol dependent, or just trying to convince myself I am to try and get rid of the guilt. I hate myself so, so much - I’m worried I’m looking for a reason I did it beyond that I’m a terrible person. I’m posting here because my friends already think I have a problem with drink and if I tell them what happened they’ll be convinced.",1.7785011990407682,3.387656820143885,3.868507194244604,87.95849220623505,77.92086330935251,6.072182254196644,28.130095923261393,6.816661863887847,1.363172182254197,514,23,108,5,12,176,85,139,0.215,0.675,0.11,-0.9459,0,0,6,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,2,1,5,8,1,1,8,1,17,7,0,3,1,23,32,11,0,6,8,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,1,5,5,7,0,4,6,0,1,4,4,0,0,7,2,17,4,11,20,2,9,0,0,2,0,6,4,0,7,3,73,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.1563102513543367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3423623256033895,0.0,0.0,0.1767599868901526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19528558104133287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16391731788214595,0.0,0.4707392624325146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12375283198016908,0.0,0.08368619543417448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416445404925372,0.0,0.0,0.15814223821027767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08802943102070053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2690177183013816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16992314230606376,0.0,0.0,0.12785224820981042,0.0,0.11774898107396732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15031584576911666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.139860919564905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15340588290756646,0.16295822457335174,0.0,0.15326835001110398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16468927104591666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13250058260727646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12331255755203765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15096551135496178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14000230011423234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2052707025900711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21750017947594671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1626681484559498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,whsucjgkksks,2019/09/10,"I don't know if I'm an alcoholic or not, but I can see myself being one I told myself I wasn't going to buy beer today, but I did me I feel shitty about it. Generally I drink most days of the week,but I don't get super drunk, and I'm still fairly young (23) so what my tolerance is a lot more than it used to be, it's still low enough that people don't get suspicious by how much I drink. Given that I do drink, or want to drink, most days of the week it's hard to feel like I don't have a problem. But also when I never push 5 beers a night, and other people are drinking 20+ every day, I guess it's easier to feel like I'm not doing so badly. I've never let drinking or being hungover affect my job or school work or anything, and I'm currently trying to stop mainly to cut calories and be in better shape. But I guess given where I am with drinking just now, I don't really know for sure if I have a problem or not, but I can easily see myself falling into heavier drinking when I'm older, so I guess I probably should be worrying about it now?",4.822637681159421,3.465071452173916,6.711956521739133,81.07909420289856,69.26086956521739,9.405797101449275,26.99275362318841,8.344100000000001,1.5984492753623183,814,18,182,10,12,289,121,230,0.13699999999999998,0.72,0.142,0.0449,2,0,11,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,3,16,10,1,0,7,0,23,12,0,3,3,46,46,24,0,6,17,0,4,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,10,6,12,1,5,11,1,3,11,5,0,1,5,6,26,5,17,34,7,26,0,1,2,0,1,5,0,14,20,126,36,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09760051960114983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07303396754983273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07515413223536634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07625402003634663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08077108720419819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17669459197044327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7157235583341197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09436494408181367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07694672425911138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13853264387348305,0.13048769434145294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09542891313667297,0.0,0.05190309563471871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3018201282730429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08181082799663103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09062770565216056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10038158483322196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09338778762345078,0.0,0.08923527216846437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07764273545457116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06713566812627933,0.0,0.14087363667334035,0.0,0.0,0.0857039665535374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06188536814339224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12662893620065338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09846568106532948,0.17477472818459613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05850625345976002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0924275448931116,0.14555118842230844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14586731818762924,0.07635325084646434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08607437938230714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08656707874876428,0.08726662163854908,0.0,0.06200486719087055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07887698790413389,0.0,0.0,0.05386688228999735,0.0,0.1465136173425537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06648696039478652,0.09274674591531924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,imkindofreallysad,2019/09/10,"My boyfriend is spiraling out of control My boyfriend and I have been together for 4 years. We’ve lived together for 3 years. He drinks daily and I have never really had a problem with it until the last 6 months I’d say. As soon as he walks in the door he gets a beer from the fridge. He will drink from 5 PM until 1 AM. At least 20-24 beers a night. He hardly eats anything because he always claims that he doesn’t like the taste of his food with beer. I have noticed him getting out of control lately...he either is an angry drunk or just straight up out of control. What I’m really scared of is that he NEVER remembers what happens the next morning. He will bring up any issue we are having when he’s blacked out drunk. Do I believe him? Is this his truth? This new thing that he’s been doing in the last couple of months is this weird thing where his mouth opens up, he doesn’t make any sense, just rambling, handing shaking uncontrollably and will either fall over, trip or stumble around. It’s not him, the look in his eye, his voice...everything!! It’s not him, I don’t understand. This could go on for about 2 minutes then he will suddenly snap out of it. He will stand up straight, start talking normal and does not seem like he’s drunk at all anymore. But that’s usually when I know that he is past his blacked out stage and is even worse. His family is starting to notice. Last Saturday he was saying terrible things about his niece and sister. They went after him and were all ganging up on him and screaming at him. He started his shaking and stumbling around. He lies and makes up stories when he’s blacked out. I’m soooo tired of this. It really sucks because he’s a great guy when he’s sober, but when he’s drunk I don’t know that man... it scares me. I think I need to start thinking of myself and do what I need to do. He doesn’t want to change and if I ever bring up anything like “he’s drinking too much”, he flips out on me. I don’t know how much more I can take. Do I leave? Do I do an “intervention” with his family? Do I start seeing a therapist with him? Do I call him out when he’s sober? I need some advice...thank you",1.7559452599050864,3.6704011809954733,2.8438020086083213,93.87515781922528,79.0452488687783,5.94115439796932,21.866460655556782,6.914303735213361,0.4086287826950668,1670,49,371,18,41,533,205,442,0.087,0.872,0.040999999999999995,-0.9312,0,0,6,0,0,0,56.0,1,1,1,3,18,15,1,5,14,0,41,17,3,6,6,69,72,29,0,8,12,1,2,3,0,5,1,3,1,2,23,29,13,3,8,10,0,9,11,10,0,0,6,12,45,5,57,60,9,76,0,0,6,0,56,32,1,5,36,226,68,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07254550670794943,0.0,0.0,0.1185785641525743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08646481074946334,0.0,0.0,0.1434928443673689,0.15522755769343016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10629521629806947,0.0,0.0,0.09822845502969853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08902637219799761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09223093562487032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2933586092062718,0.06961070628278464,0.09646934535652103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07629681464577086,0.0,0.0,0.2562264528361018,0.0,0.08921276163762945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057585348463398287,0.0788644788753611,0.0,0.0,0.0783569070034652,0.0,0.1643818825972795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10542532358893217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0911018847106314,0.0,0.04954965617041998,0.0,0.0,0.0961225685519608,0.0,0.08632757412429208,0.0770980478374807,0.0,0.0781012837226391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09099924434046376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14374498149396214,0.2132040048601,0.0,0.09231709313861212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1277836225416852,0.0,0.07698659164800899,0.0,0.07321404991187284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11639429561620138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13918162626435662,0.0,0.1281830777817186,0.19394132895861116,0.1344860104253878,0.08420451557103573,0.09272300662204612,0.08181789589305999,0.08542349828185798,0.0,0.19852304937602994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08322863887100378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08342496322158223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16756022202333126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09876442950152184,0.0,0.0,0.1386671742781965,0.17457623888261936,0.0,0.0694757340899064,0.07937060870353105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3085525211065996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06555281408440393,0.07007658245062524,0.0,0.08026890092894366,0.0,0.10122934545502696,0.17376696299767372,0.11173018312524652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10020716425129507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09076341350026727,0.0,0.0,0.09602275752895732,0.0,0.051424398945801315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08082203966585777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08884970128636782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11228949557712106 alcoholism,har3,2019/09/10,"How to tamper off I'm on a heavy binge. I mean real heavy. Bout 3 weeks a litre 40 proof a day. Sometimes more. Last morning was so bad I couldn't hold a water cap in my hand. Some cash came and I'm wasted once more. This is my heaviest one. There was hospital involved, psych ward and rehab involved. Always relapsed. I think this is a big one. And the final one. Anyone have a good tampering off scheme? I'm 41 yo.",-0.7597082228116712,1.4051463448275892,1.397011494252876,96.96644562334221,97.04597701149427,4.056233421750664,15.88770999115827,5.8734145424116955,-0.5647817860300619,320,8,71,3,13,106,63,87,0.09300000000000001,0.833,0.07400000000000001,-0.38,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,7,0,6,3,1,1,1,12,12,5,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,1,1,2,0,1,1,1,1,0,3,3,1,5,1,5,8,3,10,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,1,4,37,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20833632932034907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17507161157130968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20905695380385408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28636817167684825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1614744732292962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2742791987050701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2100069774946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2040932272932617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2727373677676067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2666466715678333,0.5089921767896671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2849874080869375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2476323550836657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16043348018998368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2008398410852182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,hawking061,2019/09/10,Career Alcoholic asking Joints wrists,12.156,17.088756600000004,7.600000000000001,49.48000000000002,83.0,10.0,25.0,8.841846274778883,5.117000000000001,33,1,2,1,1,9,5,5,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7526618103490256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6584073201614085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Big_Bad_Bruins33,2019/09/10,"My friend (also my cousins fiancé) will be dead in about 8 hours. He is in renal and liver failure only being kept alive by machines. I don’t know all the details but apparently he has no chance of making it and his family has decided to take him off life support after spending one last night with him. He will be leaving behind my cousin and their son and also another son from a previous relationship (his other sons mother is also deceased, the poor kid). He hid it well, no one knew just how much he had been drinking. He went to work and provided for his family. My cousin won’t be able to make it on her own, probably will have to move in with her mother. My brother has also been struggling with alcohol the past few years. He has been near death in the hospital a couple times with liver failure. The slightest amount of alcohol sends his ammonia levels through the roof. He has been moved around from shelter to shelter every time he relapses. He was kicked out of my parents house after he attacked my father (no he’s not a bad guy, it was the first and only time he got violent but it was enough for my parents to realize him staying there was no longer possible) about two years ago. My brother was not able to hide it as well. We all knew he had a problem and was getting worse. Eventually it led to him losing his job and that made his decent faster. He use to be my best friend. Every weekend was spent with him until the amount he was drinking made it no fun anymore. Usually after about a half hour of me showing up he was so drunk he couldn’t hold an intelligent conversation. He got mad at me because one time when his drinking sent him to the hospital I didn’t go visit him and now we haven’t really talked in over a year now. I miss him. I will miss my friend too. He was a good man. I hope my brother sees that this is his fate if he continues drinking. I’m going to try and sleep now, I haven’t been able to all night just thinking of him. I guess I just needed to vent a bit.",3.174554455445545,4.691010997524753,4.434245049504953,85.75775371287129,73.92574257425744,7.426237623762375,25.743811881188122,8.07648339933343,1.496815841584158,1569,53,320,24,32,517,204,404,0.147,0.742,0.111,-0.9487,4,0,6,0,0,1,36.0,2,0,1,4,21,19,3,1,18,0,41,11,3,7,3,50,68,22,2,5,8,14,0,0,3,5,3,0,0,3,12,19,7,2,6,7,3,9,13,9,2,6,28,1,44,10,51,29,11,51,0,3,1,0,69,14,0,3,27,217,56,2,0.2563302127668077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07574042251258217,0.18262602830144295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2733162380534147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08959485930965698,0.0,0.0,0.0847368976939408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07606274484114409,0.0,0.09720420735108427,0.0,0.0,0.07134167358004811,0.05208550617720936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08966758132712438,0.0,0.09328206779943404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09454150164930188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3348080301070357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08828587705769939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1439795064583063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16109687452787855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07267811601103226,0.0,0.0,0.19804008652905053,0.0,0.04464065217709318,0.0,0.09711891136496542,0.0716658736547421,0.1366737915734586,0.0,0.09412554276211817,0.08460240360592737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08486457956718482,0.16828908385731045,0.09859021665991577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08478939459012537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046957460440814384,0.06964777844756874,0.0,0.09047222805304216,0.0,0.0,0.06035120328739602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09558931378564388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16169723008347414,0.11406827163904447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1816256333464216,0.0628107333719652,0.06335520160608515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16036569359788375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17369598604883688,0.12996711832728172,0.0,0.0,0.18974957776136,0.0,0.08156539748468672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09632460019079443,0.0,0.0,0.09212244120443118,0.08175779848881312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054737232669546436,0.0,0.0,0.0917342398691218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06808733079687418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08550511046030229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09107130032978944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08932399787996081,0.0,0.0,0.0969601625991076,0.0,0.0,0.06424280643735211,0.06867617180202402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05474868339353907,0.0,0.0,0.19929094455638954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05801046283719648,0.0,0.08346579054550322,0.0,0.0,0.073795667708429,0.09410383843431752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15364776353224122,0.07920689176578026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06220381592411193,0.0,0.08707412857070157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.165068252905679 alcoholism,throwaway101212432,2019/09/10,how to bring up alcoholism hey so i’m 16 years old and my dad is an alcoholic. it’s been getting worse as time goes on. my mother and i have literally cried ourselves to sleep over it. we just want him to get better. i tried to bring it up once about a year ago and he refused to say that he had a problem. he goes through phases of controlling his drinking and then ends up drinking more. how do i bring this conversation up to tell him that the family wants him to stop drinking because it’s causing us stress which is ruining our relationship with him. (btw he’s not physically or mentally abusive to anyone in the family) he just has a problem with drinking that causes our family so much stress. sorry if this is all over the place i just don’t know what to do,2.5202949308755755,4.515117199999999,4.0297926267281134,85.89040322580645,77.0,7.525345622119815,25.264976958525338,8.418075326091056,1.6780138248847931,606,22,125,12,14,201,96,155,0.177,0.797,0.026000000000000002,-0.9708,0,0,6,0,0,0,10.0,4,0,0,2,8,6,0,2,7,0,10,7,1,5,1,26,19,12,0,5,6,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,11,7,6,3,1,4,0,3,2,5,0,0,2,1,15,1,23,17,3,20,0,1,0,0,22,9,0,2,8,84,26,0,0.0,0.14556697991860626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10890645840061483,0.2625962899900192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08590537072584922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07489327130200386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10865817069908756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2524186068261506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1377960154949003,0.0,0.0,0.13495405906569474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4814173936907522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10881597583056808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34745957605382266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12837676812519194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06751970140180462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12381225651383587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09031497705138468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12891910500501466,0.13084006577798776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12836076064937854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23511757618116355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13190382158957326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09770184083145647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12294701358231724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13752979351304784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10271502899213368,0.28146750486206984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1073835578586883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07163965503144687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08341271210534952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14778339187481207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14493000140253073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12520309032313054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15823341726009973 alcoholism,AvacadMmmm,2019/09/10,"Need a little advice. Went on a 10 day bender and today I had a massive panic attack at work. For the longest time I’d drink 3-4 times a week and not get super drunk too often, but the last 10 nights I’ve got extremely drunk each night. I started feeling a bit weird and anxious during the daytime starting around day 6 but it wasn’t much and would subside, then I’d drink again and be fine. Today at work I had a full blown panic attack or something where I damn near went to the hospital. My heart was racing, my limbs started to feel numb, my vision was off, and I was shaking uncontrollably. I took a walk and drank some sprite which helped but my whole day was an anxious one. I literally could not talk to people. I’m not drinking tonight for fear I’ve overdone it. In fact I still don’t feel normal and my limbs feel a bit tingly. Can anyone let me know what the hell happened to me today and why I’m still not feeling right at 7pm. Was it just a panic attack or withdrawal or something like that. Has anyone experienced this? Anything is appreciated.",3.635303738317756,4.929472191588786,4.624380841121496,85.7304030373832,72.41121495327103,6.658411214953272,25.524532710280376,6.9077264865688965,1.0029355140186922,835,26,168,7,16,272,128,214,0.226,0.684,0.09,-0.9883,0,0,5,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,3,8,16,5,6,15,0,16,8,1,0,1,35,35,16,0,4,11,0,5,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,11,6,0,6,5,0,5,6,13,0,1,13,6,15,3,14,18,7,37,1,0,0,0,2,12,2,5,21,100,22,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09650344788054804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22313286678683447,0.0,0.13810530855585804,0.0,0.08126796514441349,0.08791398486592998,0.0,0.33704841569214955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21563245749044016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07884881614561971,0.0,0.0,0.1910688010672412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29023053421186895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11112821793984894,0.2496705933705955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05159605570504396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07898438104654637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0873298106533811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11702661154271266,0.06619422125673544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05427384293267333,0.08049951067599555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10098493913452466,0.0,0.04824730705111085,0.0989796896127772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07259719425867954,0.07322649539939396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18535206939248636,0.09676014036087496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0669197792807418,0.0,0.0,0.3476074834558665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06846513736064494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08433728334746611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15205474584134762,0.0,0.0,0.20970050994025186,0.0,0.15773371041070794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07937651922846825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1151711072236385,0.0,0.28082808473028925,0.0,0.10972180852447974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0792162931912173,0.0,0.0,0.18309603468865354,0.08911213969118413,0.11025780730427026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14379142754252505,0.0,0.0,0.07015359443547609,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Riotsquad9000,2019/10/02,"I had my last drink on Sunday- jumping into sober October My body feels better than it has in a long time. I don't know if I'm done drinking for good, but I know I'm done drinking right now, and I feel so much better over the last few days. I was close to a six pack a night, and for the first time in my life, I'm going through some moderate withdrawl symptoms. No matter what happens after this, I want to make sure I'm drinking way less, or maybe just stop. Good luck to everyone else pushing for sober October as well!",3.9858060288335513,4.308079009174314,4.772765399737878,88.57862385321104,70.83486238532109,7.696461336828308,28.415465268676282,7.447530270364453,1.4045061598951505,408,14,90,4,7,132,76,109,0.049,0.738,0.213,0.9486,0,0,4,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,3,5,7,0,0,5,0,6,7,1,1,1,19,18,7,0,2,4,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,4,4,1,4,4,0,3,2,0,1,2,4,2,9,7,15,14,4,23,0,0,0,0,0,7,0,4,12,54,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2603338560877007,0.0,0.16348151295371036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09491759586615517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3012282643496177,0.0,0.5767134016745263,0.0,0.0,0.12294828378920113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1406348292766885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14883517779256994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12518948096501306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08364461527746228,0.24689174728688565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13014896668161474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16177029407664725,0.23993933009748955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10395613191206317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1302478458828552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09824241810905243,0.0,0.14786002324663824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10819272074519018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1381165270097667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12568915698184102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12304734841218287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13871346709931998,0.15297423355950687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1716412813057401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08680936252922196,0.11682299856382855,0.0,0.0,0.13233064382899334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,mrtillum,2019/10/02,I am very drunk AND ITS NEHSMVV,-2.8585714285714268,-3.2548447142857126,-2.424999999999999,118.6825,139.0,1.4,17.785714285714285,3.1291,-1.7069428571428569,25,1,7,0,2,7,7,7,0.35,0.65,0.0,-0.4005,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,deviltry_,2019/10/02,"Sober October together? Even though we are already a few days in, will anyone do sober October with me? I’m confident having someone to check in with etc will be the kind of motivation I need.",2.6714864864864865,5.3145495945945935,4.601283783783781,78.54895270270273,80.08108108108108,9.105405405405406,28.16891891891892,9.516144504307137,3.2656540540540533,153,7,28,5,4,52,31,37,0.0,0.85,0.15,0.6875,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,0,6,0,0,1,0,5,8,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,6,5,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,21,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4135612746282568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2620436274318822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24169170731270825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4179608046602177,0.2475280166095481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39025892396816375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2778826777801989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3175362300832785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3682036217434633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,seung2613,2019/10/02,"How to tell friends I quit drinking without being awkard Hi. I decided to stop drinking after finding out i pretty much become a dick and overly insistent to ppl i care. A party is coming up and I still want to go but don't want to drink. Is there a best way to say i don't want to drink anymore without making a big deal? Ppl know i used to like drinking a lot and probably be wondering why i quit..",3.120357142857145,3.9952636547619065,4.900952380952383,84.8607142857143,73.16666666666667,7.504761904761906,28.285714285714285,7.793537801064563,1.7097285714285717,313,12,65,4,6,107,53,84,0.045,0.6990000000000001,0.256,0.9377,0,0,5,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,3,3,4,0,0,5,0,6,6,1,3,0,20,16,5,0,3,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,5,1,4,5,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,8,4,14,14,3,10,0,0,0,1,5,4,1,2,4,43,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351892622512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15055077931120933,0.0,0.0,0.1430556758314062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13898367821120594,0.0,0.0,0.11742452809072836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14053624642774332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6676909914354857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12459074099637547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10531773022391633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07747176457587138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0749159410710588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06659731864504373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11589134807095401,0.0,0.0,0.09099227083371607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10020825563714243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13868280877915454,0.14697215973363556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28997859065568243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10840429087068994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1088624714552344,0.1139666334318403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11914656204814185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11773362190896675,0.0,0.0,0.2412088742785139,0.1082016315307616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12300436904941825,0.0,0.0,0.2628083345224397,0.1478293458203412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,RockAndRollJesus,2019/10/02,"What was a low point in your drinking? For me, it was when I was walking back home from my friends house. We had been drinking, me more than him, and I found a can of Old Milwaukee on the side of the road. Without hesitation I picked it up, gave it a shake, and drank what was left in it. After that, I threw the can down, gagged, and then realized what I did. I was so deep into drinking I would drink a half empty beer van off the side of the road. That’s when I knew I had a problem.",1.7814423076923092,2.785415028846153,3.0953846153846136,96.0246153846154,76.59615384615384,6.353846153846152,22.615384615384606,6.6274283507984215,0.2111961538461533,369,10,92,3,8,120,65,104,0.109,0.841,0.05,-0.5699,0,0,5,0,0,0,15.0,1,1,0,0,4,4,0,1,10,0,12,6,0,1,0,12,17,7,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,9,5,6,0,3,5,0,3,1,3,0,1,14,0,15,1,15,2,1,24,0,1,0,0,5,15,0,0,6,71,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15195375604941516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7743499660443777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21667467477242705,0.15267687798106302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1982239824522123,0.0,0.0,0.22802120635669101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2147093026953074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20736372613747187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1868100732884752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18909089027355772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19049383203084405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14038004378963548,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,247Medford,2019/10/02,"Somewhat Sober October I'm a beer/sometimes shot drinker.... In an effort to slow down, I want to do a thing I call ""Somewhat Sober October..... One week on/one week off. It's a start. Thoughts?",0.3423684210526332,2.742406394736843,1.6582105263157914,96.71047368421057,90.31578947368422,5.145263157894737,26.02105263157895,6.742157984588678,1.0496673684210531,145,7,32,2,5,46,28,38,0.0,0.956,0.044000000000000004,0.0772,0,0,2,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,5,4,2,7,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,2,4,17,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3866560976651239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2565910772909469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3745062635173021,0.0,0.2680188146282725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2515661152119885,0.0,0.0,0.30061522119904804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2233445767837912,0.0,0.6074794097469306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,auggiemanotic,2019/10/02,"Hospitalized with a BAC of 0.48. University required a reflection essay, wanted to share. I come from a family of heavy drinkers- even as a child, I remember shots being as essential to a get together as background music and horderves. Despite being petite, I inherited an unusually high alcohol tolerance without the tendency to develop negative side effects like hangovers or nausea. The knowledge that this places me at high risk of developing alcohol dependence comes as little surprise given my high number of family members with histories of alcohol related issues. This hereditary factor, along with my size, gender, and ongoing history of eating disordered behavior means I have to practice vigilance while drinking, a responsible practice my naturally impulsive self has neglected in the past. From chaotic at home violence to urgent hospitalizations, I’ve encountered many “close calls” with regards to my well-being. My religious family makes remarks about the presence of an overworked guardian angle, but statistically I understand that only so many bullets can be dodged before one turns a close call into a tragedy. After discovering alcohol as a teenager, I quickly recognized its relieving affects, which I admittedly used to block out heavy amounts of insecurities and painful memories. What I did not realize as a high schooler dabbling in substance use was the dangerous situations I would get myself into largely due to alcohol, which would then cause stress I coped with by drinking, and so on. This cycle grew painfully apparent during my freshman year of college, where alcohol played a significant role in multiple events that further damaged my self worth and well-being. Second semester of freshman year, I grew infatuated with a guy who sat behind me in a class. He was older, attractive, heavily involved in his fraternity, and consequently had numerous connections to other of-age students and parties. Our relationship progressed like a rock skipping on water, fun, light, and almost too quick to keep track of. Everywhere we went he acted as the life of the party, dominating drinking games and navigating rooms full of loud, intoxicated people who all knew his name. I proudly stood at his side as he introduced me to his friends, who would shift their beers from their dominant hands to shake mine. The loud music coupled with romance and a fog of intoxication increased the rock’s speed, skipping faster, faster, faster, before suddenly and unexpectedly shattering the idealized glass-like surface. This boy’s ability to charm a crowd translated smoothly into settings where we were alone. He had a way of making me feel like the most special, most beautiful person in the world, a high that my young, insecure self allowed to overshadow the less glamorous moments of pressure and force he initiated. Turns out, he made multiple girls feel the same way, before and while we were together, and gained popularity with his fraternity brothers by sharing intimate details of these encounters. After we broke up, his friend told me about the STD he failed to mention, and how he bragged about making me walk home alone in the rain, making a stop to pick up a morning after pill (that due to alcohol) I did not know if I needed with money I didn’t have. Months later, I heard he had been expelled due to rape allegations. He tried to reconnect with me on social media around the same time- turns out he didn’t even know which girl had reported him. Shortly after we broke up, I went to a fraternity neither myself or my friends knew much about. After having a few sips of a drink, I lost all memory of the night, waking up the next afternoon with the realization that I had been roofied. Although the people I surrounded myself with changed sophomore year, my alcohol use and eating disordered behaviors remained, resulting in too many close calls that eventually landed me in the hospital last month where the doctors and nurses repeatedly told my current boyfriend that I really should already be dead. I’ve always loved Amy Winehouse, not just for her music but also because I resonate with her personality, experiences, and demons. Reading stories about her drunken escapades, toxic relationships, and disordered eating continue to shock me with their resemblances to my own risky encounters and behaviors. Amy died at twenty-seven from alcohol poisoning. Hearing her express herself is like hardwiring a thought translator to my brain. I have her habits, her downfalls, her thoughts, her impulsivities, but I don’t want her end. Completing the online evaluation basically reinforced what I already knew to be true- the odds are against me. My personality type, genetics, and past outline a textbook definition of a problematic, tragic, substance abusing basket case. The hope, however, lies in the possibility of a life worth fighting for- my loving boyfriend, who sat by my unconscious side all night at the hospital, a fulfilling career in work I’m passionate about, future children who need and deserve a present, stable mother, and the self-worth to know I’m deserving of these wonderful things. I’m done with the “close calls” – I don’t need a guardian angle- I’m an adult with the ability to distance myself from a previously destructive path, etching my own broken road away from drunken, cloudy mistakes and onto the clarity of a life to be proud of.",11.469236482471779,10.828855269063185,10.658147157853039,55.809389483066,55.67755991285403,14.184234501881564,46.57169736581501,13.098545343375196,6.581559041394336,4379,236,615,134,44,1409,473,918,0.134,0.72,0.146,0.8389,4,2,16,0,2,1,114.0,6,0,3,10,21,49,5,6,67,0,36,36,3,16,4,131,89,46,2,13,11,2,4,4,3,4,20,4,3,13,27,59,18,5,19,10,4,10,10,22,0,2,32,9,84,27,133,47,16,114,1,7,0,5,84,58,0,9,47,415,111,17,0.0,0.06072385194645581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4929439499109881,0.05132030222789728,0.1061608051183654,0.1131131288016849,0.04098526955572266,0.04264479547204038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045624103751247945,0.0,0.0,0.0481518410615913,0.0,0.0,0.031242029757514618,0.0,0.13083204241697236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05721287499947899,0.20933130699797475,0.0,0.0,0.05264871922881261,0.054216581624434726,0.08829610251025638,0.05373551927710238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05670806764934583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05319026919644235,0.0,0.17621367111231426,0.05245739531973174,0.0,0.05244739212939726,0.0,0.20082520469457968,0.0,0.15732717901530807,0.0,0.0,0.0453930225758564,0.0,0.0,0.06770137859244425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050133145172858336,0.14494416155001758,0.0,0.05182791826782559,0.036613602585948014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11878879040689135,0.0,0.053552885862971904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05074637850347298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057763409250099734,0.0,0.0,0.2707465743195895,0.10281752075148642,0.050903637399171184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05349255025031163,0.0,0.04555409178285647,0.0,0.0,0.08449834612941687,0.04177626611519495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10859992888952638,0.10015426537541752,0.05136679488532357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05594633420192987,0.0,0.09251174854967124,0.04849477373598073,0.13684130571028758,0.15588088987050774,0.0,0.055827177640957966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08181584573395863,0.0,0.03767525642204274,0.11400552125593455,0.0,0.0,0.05450583823017825,0.09619086266385962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03472888821467118,0.038978565020224884,0.10906899133780294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0978494311538482,0.07106174370435217,0.13425074153432634,0.05354620827996597,0.0,0.0,0.057777609289286075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05126469835333183,0.0,0.03283259350667974,0.0,0.0,0.11004842084180896,0.058057198676146664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21386316878045425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057608079291404976,0.0,0.05224376615044544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04284798803053961,0.058707651634112124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034048773581825884,0.0,0.0,0.081374867145614,0.02988477062625865,0.0,0.0,0.0979447271198232,0.0,0.034795948800818426,0.16723855521099334,0.0,0.0533539206038655,0.0,0.1327927833903558,0.0,0.0,0.060458133793033435,0.08136104530081961,0.0,0.0,0.09216130076797192,0.09502006416631624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04940397041156027,0.055579338000369655,0.03731121401643234,0.0,0.0,0.10922135571245806,0.0,0.0,0.09901156094661727 alcoholism,the_tallest_thing324,2019/10/02,"Better than alcohol, man. Yeah, and if you're trying to stop drinking, you need something better than alcohol, man. And alcohol's pretty good! So you better find something a lot better. If you like alcohol, that's a stupid question. It's like, why do you like alcohol? Well, because it's great! If you want to stop drinking, you gotta find something better, man. Alcohol is a great drug. It helps cope with anxiety, makes you more full of positive emotion, reduces inhibition. But the problem is - there's consequences.",3.3362379110251434,6.320461734042556,4.312940038684719,79.36136363636366,80.59574468085106,7.673500967117988,29.822050290135394,8.575989854853784,3.041140425531915,409,20,67,10,11,132,54,94,0.11800000000000001,0.489,0.39299999999999996,0.9864,0,0,12,0,0,0,23.0,0,7,0,5,3,14,1,0,4,1,3,9,0,1,0,17,7,7,0,6,4,0,0,3,0,1,7,0,0,3,4,3,8,2,3,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,7,12,6,6,3,3,0,0,0,0,12,1,0,5,5,36,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.657646927923796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07845981707625961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06252097696658022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4535397419158154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20094385823313127,0.11893961309434795,0.0,0.0,0.11536869226943895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18748002082603712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08602432355776027,0.0,0.22615041781573814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06874529371032324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1503201592672234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08719473123019653,0.0,0.0,0.06846107782363127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07604858608555277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10434264886058267,0.0,0.09813819258598326,0.0,0.0,0.1148931581365924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368722215728545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17149321561460446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06963301457655796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060493854267062976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09221575242143974,0.0,0.09254645042904656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,inevergreene,2019/10/02,"Does the worst of alcohol withdrawal happen after the hangover has past? Heavy drinker here. I went almost 48 hours without alcohol about a month ago. By around the 30th hour, I felt perfectly fine, in the sense that my shakes, sweating, etc., had essentially diminished. I drink enough that I worry about seizures and DTs. If I feel normal, do I still have to worry about them happening? Do the worst of the symptoms come while you’re still feeling the typical withdrawal symptoms?",5.974957983193277,8.394862764705882,5.249243697478993,79.05588235294121,68.41176470588235,9.092436974789916,32.14285714285714,9.606745405546679,3.335991596638656,385,17,64,9,7,116,63,85,0.158,0.737,0.105,-0.8334,0,0,4,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,1,7,5,0,1,8,0,5,6,1,0,1,11,12,3,0,2,2,0,3,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,3,3,0,3,1,0,3,1,3,0,0,3,3,8,2,11,9,4,14,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,9,44,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1473826146161768,0.355370364399053,0.1664889391215933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1480098187689492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14322133539105567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14549836222600832,0.0,0.0,0.16287499209378348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17179470305020444,0.18542781974753256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16813570370207992,0.0,0.1596390916903631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2940526349168544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32747223170204964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13270998774611867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16290298819592347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587173816135479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2655565883772187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3456230010845999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15412798630905386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16027213919531633,0.0,0.0,0.3376974326309333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,lazydaze08,2019/10/02,"My husband's father alcoholism and impacts on my marriage. My husband's father was an alcoholic and abusive to him growing up. My husband suffers from a ton of trauma. Last year his father committed suicide leading to him into a deep depression and starting therapy. I have always drank around him but not an alcoholic. But if I drink too much or make any mistake involving alcohol he just labels these actions as alcoholicism. Today, I actually went to have an assessment to see if I was in denial about being an alcoholic. But, it was determined my experiences with alcohol might occasionally show abuse but not enough to suggest I need treatment for alcoholism. I do like to go out an party at times. I do not drive. My family life always taught me drinking was fine as long it was responsible. I am mostly venting but tired of my husband making me feel guilty. He went as far as this past weekend saying I was drinking when he was out of town when I had the kids to his therapist and expressing his concerns with my alcohol use. He created such an issue that she wanted to involve CPS Very hurtful to allow this to happen so to avoid this. I spend 6 hours today doing the assessment I discussed above to determine I do not have a problem. Overall, I am tired..I tired of him being highly critical in our relationship about me drinking alcohol. He makes me think all these are wrong. He says all my friends/family have a drinking problem. Has anyone else dealt with a similar situation?",5.133757794552019,7.15176723465704,6.360165736790286,71.88916229077782,69.7942238267148,9.512897932392518,33.890548080078766,9.910423181423305,3.87991119133574,1192,59,193,31,22,400,157,277,0.156,0.7490000000000001,0.095,-0.9696,0,1,15,0,1,1,25.0,1,0,0,1,9,11,0,1,13,0,23,18,0,6,3,43,39,19,1,7,13,7,1,1,0,1,12,2,0,1,8,11,15,1,2,7,1,7,4,9,0,0,12,4,36,2,36,24,6,32,0,3,1,0,32,13,0,5,13,144,44,2,0.0,0.17628079866508198,0.07259424982504578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7155059371402487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1237974595443811,0.0,0.0,0.05058798836985907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052015461781374187,0.07622170374001655,0.0,0.06622318240565737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06407229871016397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36437110728391175,0.0,0.0,0.06214359114645365,0.0,0.0,0.07686511645676143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07276803584904806,0.14025720119779644,0.0,0.03761399570574398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042277749743275216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06578314006775969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07859748818137657,0.0,0.0,0.07325950910947962,0.0,0.07963640733356908,0.0,0.0,0.07764419728405701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06063806329780595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05254410358249729,0.036343366988767806,0.0,0.0,0.06583311806229039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1489684071070573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07891640462953524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05468546608213879,0.055159501291590085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07101400569883919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14236303498426872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07986739516677432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11831638289430806,0.0,0.0,0.05927947691465287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08361786926827981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052653872007245035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08137096791835179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08507184742630157,0.08637292898872018,0.0,0.0476663319791049,0.0,0.0,0.043377610815638776,0.1710015261509985,0.14102670550149313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06424937692702212,0.0,0.06137982882919299,0.043877355311030944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.137921197878021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08133416879337202,0.0,0.04790494586360211 alcoholism,curiouskitty1991,2019/08/28,Did Campral effect your mood? I came her bc I don’t know who else to ask. I don’t have alcoholism but I got prescribed Campral for anxiety and depression. My doc said it has balancing effect on neurotransmitters. If you took this do you feel it had beneficial effects besides helping you not drink (like feeling happier or more calm) let me know! Thanks,2.4325757575757585,5.376655287878791,3.7184848484848487,81.46439393939394,87.03030303030305,7.1757575757575776,28.54545454545455,8.167268648758528,2.677345454545455,283,14,50,7,9,92,54,66,0.11199999999999999,0.688,0.2,0.8288,0,0,2,0,0,0,7.0,0,4,0,3,0,5,0,0,0,0,8,2,0,3,0,13,18,4,0,1,4,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,2,2,0,7,1,0,2,3,1,0,0,6,3,11,3,3,11,1,3,0,1,0,0,9,1,0,2,1,32,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2866499790029388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2051906939350012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2507533156387058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30677690212074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2310210148361722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2627574932577088,0.0,0.0,0.2240668086088268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27124431727641257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21452330672228928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17978495294573993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2948178893136323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27427730375605186,0.0,0.13104074137075847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551425313517856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2469447041223165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29800683214001666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,happylittleacident,2019/08/28,"Help? I'm young only 18 nearly 19 but have been drinking since I was 12. I don't have ID but have mates who I pay to buy me alcohol and think it might be a problem. I used to drink with mates but now drink nearly daily alone. Idk I just can't seem to stop and its starting to scare me Any advice",1.5122727272727232,2.359036590909092,3.1458787878787886,96.0188181818182,77.03030303030303,5.8860606060606075,19.26060606060605,5.6839178017228535,-0.4128084848484845,229,4,57,1,5,76,48,66,0.2,0.738,0.062,-0.8544,0,1,4,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,9,4,0,1,0,13,14,5,0,1,4,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,3,3,4,1,2,3,2,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,7,0,7,10,0,6,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,2,4,34,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21737019052626214,0.0,0.23772552037265135,0.0,0.2303854158271965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15126988767006974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6537327722866696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14909985914829074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359784614552529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16917906567342725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2128493443245067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2227057498491711,0.0,0.0,0.20250511799821874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18400838874125486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1574473617273898,0.0,0.0,0.185973562064986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14253345342388718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1921206267299078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,kodderschnauze,2019/08/28,"Opinion on my current state? M25. Really have no idea how I'm doing and could use some opinions from you guys. I already told my doctor and he was like ""omg stop"" but at the same time told me there are doctors who will tell me my habit is not bad at all. Maybe because it's normal for lower wage workers where I live but that shouldn't be an excuse. Been drinking pretty frequently for the past 3 years. Exactly 1 year ago it became a daily thing. I'm currently at 6 beers/day. I set strict rules: no drink before six pm and just as much as I need to sleep well. It happens that I'm getting a little disgusted by myself and stop for a week. But that happens rarely and I never can hold back longer than that. Thanks for reading. Every comment appreciated.",2.011864035087722,4.218554177631582,3.267263157894739,89.68650877192984,79.59210526315789,5.632280701754388,21.97543859649123,6.742157984588678,0.5374512280701755,593,18,120,6,15,192,116,152,0.11,0.76,0.129,0.7290000000000001,4,0,3,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,1,6,5,1,0,6,0,11,5,1,2,3,27,22,11,0,4,5,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,1,9,5,2,3,1,3,1,0,5,2,1,1,4,0,12,3,14,14,4,21,0,0,0,0,9,6,0,3,14,75,21,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13586284616158106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16913506396931174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11785364158723292,0.12797238912821798,0.0934307583487102,0.0,0.13041979062823406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12237203711881466,0.0,0.0,0.0988451890567658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3137526123469459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30028860665873386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291349116326598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08007621106525419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1517594299675664,0.271068796039198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17302093121214568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07487900945066217,0.15361481431673213,0.13533846377782094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15397832001940867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11266962504722974,0.11364628983834335,0.1182097405597427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15017011119095275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463116613685286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1559286704103892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1533094898393279,0.0,0.09818741399624284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15337870166445414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2562778440761748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1339629992187483,0.14110859447481836,0.0,0.0,0.1018244576707872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08937181112622843,0.0,0.0,0.29290830980216537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13237435330646444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12294235531587075,0.0,0.13780635073948833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19739915100121214 alcoholism,karratah,2019/08/28,"This is it... So basically i have been struggling with alcohol and gambling addiction since 18 years old and im 24 now! I have over 30k debt. And i drink daily. So the other day i went to gamble again and won pretty big and the next days i have lost everything and more. I will not have home soon and nothing to eat! Please people stay away from gambling! I try to quit drinking every other day. Longest streak in years is 1.5 weeks. I am very proud of u people who can handle this world and get sober but i am starting to think this world is not for me .. not only getting sober and quitting gambling wise but seems like everything i try is failure, like the other day i found job and got fired after 3 hours on my first day. Anyway what i wanted to say is im proud of you all and hope you dont fuck up your life so you g like i have done . Cheers",1.3554478609625669,3.3239584886363645,2.661283422459896,94.42221925133691,80.5909090909091,5.277540106951872,19.44385026737968,6.2272716619740125,-0.12779505347593556,658,16,146,5,17,212,110,176,0.083,0.723,0.19399999999999998,0.9740000000000001,2,0,3,0,0,0,17.0,0,4,0,7,7,12,1,1,3,0,17,7,0,0,1,23,30,16,0,2,5,0,1,3,0,1,3,1,1,0,9,12,4,0,3,2,5,1,4,3,0,1,7,2,19,9,16,22,2,27,0,1,0,1,6,8,1,2,20,90,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1346350680501974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13198574383431194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11603390009326545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3982418544495204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12638510437660266,0.14474305703441898,0.24196927079002065,0.0,0.12637305773672014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10405549763930627,0.0,0.221990705164832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10505047162674036,0.0,0.13541322490442104,0.0,0.1141753192859893,0.1290490679262259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09877558095773427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12388226148461365,0.12266504138033145,0.1216242838914464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668060292905693,0.0,0.1225563674392218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08723289370379195,0.18101005744963206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134816680115463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13134544491477396,0.0,0.0,0.11850319925950173,0.0,0.12959424498485758,0.0,0.0,0.093928597943959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17124103850768815,0.0,0.0,0.13556776514979768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256456150443894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26271849188358043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09821349826847484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11243129718404796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10216187147975107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08741512951476202,0.13163636561317374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12911077804289062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07913489406579187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16769907682824184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10190182568073147,0.07284449464136733,0.0,0.09906560357381992,0.0,0.0,0.1144873008928897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1590620741619244 alcoholism,Anon28143,2019/08/28,"How do you count the days I quit drinking last Wednesday at 6 PM so am I want to be sober at 6:01 PM tonight, or 1201 am tomorrow",2.061379310344829,2.4340422068965535,3.4925862068965543,95.84853448275864,75.20689655172413,7.179310344827586,28.29310344827586,7.1686216300943375,1.0738827586206892,100,4,26,1,2,33,25,29,0.0,0.941,0.059000000000000004,0.1477,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,1,0,3,5,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,4,0,7,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,5,14,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34378095781266826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5221979228452137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4345167614346268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5669771632848634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31441383997426303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,drink445,2019/08/28,"Am I an alcoholic? I have alcoholism in my genes but I’m young I’m 19. First time I got really drunk I was probably 14 or 15 but I didn’t drink often or that much back then. Over the past year I’ve been drinking more since I’ve been at college. I don’t feel a need to drink I just feel like it’s a fun thing to do with my buddies. However recently my mom said she thinks I have a drinking problem but it’s not a drinking problem because I’m in college, this doesn’t make much sense to me and makes me really anxious. Thoughts?",-0.05092307692307685,2.0220105565217423,2.2252173913043483,94.86484949832777,86.91304347826087,5.973244147157192,22.759197324414714,7.321109707123232,0.8282508361204024,414,16,97,7,13,140,73,115,0.128,0.8009999999999999,0.071,-0.7383,1,0,7,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,6,0,10,8,0,2,0,19,22,7,0,3,7,1,2,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,5,2,8,0,4,6,0,0,4,2,0,1,7,3,14,2,8,15,3,12,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,3,9,58,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29646629277281056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15669683543467894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10665535608051956,0.0,0.08455310049268905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6793890252089559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14026653247688814,0.0990906686562006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1179821508461986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11093482315704203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0677641124055187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851729347144886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16244927359667036,0.0,0.0,0.20392783484719573,0.10284778091448904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13240933527236293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14954713125545824,0.2654433395795796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1777155709633859,0.0,0.13695416229832472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13193993709966226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11473796495156152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09214924243596796,0.08887637403516058,0.0,0.11011604195926736,0.08087982866590887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08932128212789682 alcoholism,HodorsDick69,2019/08/28,"3rd Day Sober Almost Done! Hey guys 25yo M here. I’ve been drinking about 18 full strength beers a day (so about 25 standard drinks) for about 7 years now. I’m just about to finish my 3rd day sober. I’m feeling pretty anxious and at times, really angry, for some reason really sad for about 2 minutes also. It’s an emotional roller coaster but I’m looking forward to making it through a full week. When will the mood swings stop?",2.0768104575163413,4.516654458823531,2.808627450980392,91.74771241830068,80.88235294117645,5.189542483660131,22.38562091503268,6.42735559955562,0.4879934640522876,339,11,67,3,9,106,65,85,0.11,0.809,0.081,-0.5163,0,0,3,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,11,3,0,0,4,0,3,3,0,2,0,10,9,5,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,3,1,2,4,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,2,1,1,12,6,3,14,0,1,1,0,2,4,0,2,11,33,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21835462930851346,0.0,0.0,0.17438173495565562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2463446463852854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4218901223470246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22315010569808189,0.0,0.4272296851659439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2452870692822817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11025720221744173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2159127321127112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.183114673450098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1455561019972927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22184443662054354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27938840860882824,0.22420101009497576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18230712090269466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271519794074686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17491380821800953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1404228719708231 alcoholism,Bam3264,2019/08/28,"I’m sorry for the long post, it’s so dark here I’ve been drinking frequently since 22. My first drink when I was 12. At 23 it became a daily thing, now 27. Now my situation with alcohol has been let’s say non-typical. In the sense that for a few years people had raised concern about my habit but nowadays it seems as if people just assume it’s a part of my personality to drink constantly. I’ve never been the type of person to wake up and drink all day but I remember a time when I was 25 I quit drinking for a week and felt on top of the world, even after a huge heart wrecking breakup with the most wonderful woman I’ve ever had the pleasure of knowing, and it was my fault. I’ve been consuming between 62 to 100 units of alcohol a week for the past couple of years. Not eating while drinking, and have had many nights where I just weep alone constantly for being such a failure. Even in my days of drinking heavily I’ve received promotions, performed excellently in my jobs, received unprecedented accolades. Got my drivers license at 25 and started a new job that I performed very well at, that is until a day that we had a huge snow storm in my state and my younger brother and his best friend were adamant to still report to our job the next morning, something in my bones told me not to go with them but I did anyway, I mean fuck, you love your lil bro and your friend so you can’t let em walk alone right? So I got dropped off there, drank till I went to sleep. We woke up the next morning and had to hoof it on foot most of the way in the freezing rain and snow until a kind man in an f-150 offered to take us the rest of the way. I don’t remember your name but I thank you for your kindness. We made it to work and went our separate ways to our respective warehouses. No one showed up, a state of emergency was issued in our county. But, like the good workers we were, we kept going. I had a bizarre experience where I was on break and stepped out to smoke a cigarette, the canopy that I was standing under collapsed from the weight of the snow fall and slammed me to the ground, trapped, a hand railing in front of me narrowly missing my head as I was forced to the ground on my stomach, and so there I laid, being slowly crushed thinking “ so this is how I’m going to die? That sucks “ I began thinking in that helpless moment of all my friends, my family, the girl I’d never be able to take on a date, everything I ever wanted to do in my life. I screamed for help over and over, after several attempts to free my myself from this horrific situation to no avail. I tried reaching in my pocket to grab my phone and call the central control desk but I couldn’t reach. Snow and bitter cold biting my face just to spite my helplessness, to add insult to severe injury of a helpless man a glimmer of hope came when a forklift driver rode by, waving my hands in desperation, still screaming at the top of my lungs. He couldn’t hear my call for help. The sound of Machine drowned out my cry for help and so he went on. Then I thought, “fuck no, I’m not dying here, not like this” I found a strength in myself like never before, I bit down, raised my back to lift this canopy of death up even just a little, reached forward and grabbed the bars my head just barely missed and pulled. I pulled harder than I’ve ever pulled in my entire life, slowly freeing my self from this death trap. I pulled so hard it broke my leather belt and the equipment on me. I was free, I slid underneath the railing and fell flat on my back, feeling a dreaded popping. I rose to my feet and headed for the door I had initially came from, no good, I tried pulling the door open but the snow blocked my way to the inside. I stumbled around the side of the building to open another door thinking to myself that sure Brandon, you’re not being crushed now but the worst part is your lungs and organs may be punctured, you’re living on minutes now. And nearly collapsed telling my co worker “get Galloway, I’m hurt really bad” now keep in mind we are in a blizzard so EMS response time isn’t exactly instant. 20 minutes later I’m being rushed to the hospital with a damaged spine, 2 broken ribs and internal bruising. Shot me full of painkillers and had me walk my merry ass out of the hospital. Got picked up by someone in upper management, stuck a few times and still had to walk a ways home. 2 months of laying on my back and taking pain killers coupled with alcohol abuse really sent me off the chain. I lost my job, began a relationship with an ex drug addict (ex) I just find myself unable to do anything, not because I’m afraid so much but because the thought that my life can be finished in an instant changes you in a bad way. I remember when I was a little kid my mom and dad were arguing and my father said “ it’s like it’s bigger than me, it’s like a monster and I can’t beat it “ my mom told me to leave the room but my dear dad said no, he needs to hear this. that scared me so much, because I always thought of my dad as the strongest man in the world. I didn’t know what he meant when I was so young but now, as a grown man that has escaped death and still drinking after my second chance I understand, he was battling alcoholic demons at that age, and so am I. I have a message to tell any of you young lot, get out while you can. I’m sitting here with a strange affliction in my throat, cancer? I’m not sure, maybe god will give me another chance. All this being said, live your life full. Please, for me ( Bridge over troubled waters ) - Brandon Anthony Mitchell",4.337124591138863,5.057202471008033,4.860252631578948,86.83862039845378,70.23104371097236,7.762787986916447,28.862812964614932,7.793537801064563,1.6317365471305385,4354,156,912,50,75,1389,477,1121,0.19699999999999998,0.6809999999999999,0.12300000000000001,-0.9987,5,3,16,0,1,0,105.0,11,12,1,17,55,56,8,3,77,0,60,47,19,4,12,133,129,74,6,6,25,10,10,5,3,2,12,9,5,10,33,57,17,4,21,10,3,28,22,29,1,3,57,21,130,30,152,58,18,182,1,10,0,4,80,78,4,9,70,589,163,14,0.04848751035435772,0.05744977103354594,0.0,0.05285854331158493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2072736103011909,0.0,0.10043687531819943,0.0,0.0,0.04034549286829471,0.0,0.0,0.032973169748541274,0.10168676462090663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039901089618005404,0.04316416416453833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11185170752131364,0.08097009164245632,0.08867260880164908,0.0,0.04125930003767339,0.0,0.0508846506752342,0.0,0.052935803151878506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09902233860090684,0.11091358925047916,0.0,0.0,0.051293356740474735,0.0,0.0,0.10479554637885888,0.05438286583910306,0.0,0.10730101591982093,0.053261253326179696,0.0938112987207348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10064476111438897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3799944060742999,0.0562301182453382,0.04961482801273818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09607662987735598,0.13157918723361814,0.0,0.0,0.043577447813780604,0.04743008915033645,0.04570970948417585,0.0,0.02451674212183848,0.0,0.04655561379719904,0.0,0.0443167060385683,0.04124345153756053,0.0,0.05316405240648769,0.11238399066392064,0.08965184401054202,0.05066544582392757,0.04651363816171632,0.0826697085884883,0.08133804642177628,0.1163396743462419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04343528535987345,0.0,0.14928652281194074,0.0,0.10929789626854942,0.057457933228174,0.0975004683530202,0.0,0.048636926315364544,0.04815903832872242,0.0,0.0,0.0519068826768821,0.0,0.0,0.050608363359271706,0.19246548912446215,0.043097927069479784,0.0,0.1009845611498836,0.053294935265621415,0.0,0.0,0.05134127242145845,0.0,0.09916352893333097,0.13699265003728756,0.118442741801942,0.09719444700217822,0.0856307199505357,0.04290992085063823,0.0,0.0,0.0529298453085815,0.04122234737349607,0.04376187117360388,0.04588005467624684,0.0,0.04915872508363795,0.04871222131530036,0.0528171133766379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04895856322244615,0.11357597221007194,0.038702268167016184,0.0,0.07128779830979796,0.03595287454474341,0.11218967143643224,0.04682953964503999,0.10313403468134234,0.04550224383353317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032856391882743884,0.0,0.05159412964070295,0.0,0.0,0.1050144972807579,0.04628681510939126,0.06723026906559465,0.08467484758193068,0.0,0.05322472584299963,0.0,0.0,0.04643763173365103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0515724357074819,0.0,0.0,0.06212468145332568,0.0,0.0,0.05205744017639047,0.1647806914687195,0.04140806891136595,0.13836817762542172,0.038559214379948005,0.048544456579284134,0.0,0.0,0.044141208363075966,0.05058304803267175,0.10955417055863086,0.0,0.040109369621231294,0.1090039863706881,0.04852252745445307,0.0,0.041083310175328916,0.037328054356210935,0.0,0.054277798110761964,0.034319709392660575,0.0,0.15488875361144228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0913978093657352,0.0,0.10936972032407727,0.0,0.084760442446476,0.04464078503182723,0.0,0.0,0.03221294736002192,0.09320651638564408,0.0,0.11548100134168784,0.08482037164156576,0.0,0.0,0.09266378806039162,0.0,0.0658396734536759,0.0,0.0,0.050477208282781925,0.058324504846607374,0.0,0.0,0.04000727406522543,0.028599189875074944,0.23092277286873555,0.07778751216945495,0.05904472500026482,0.043596094924465464,0.13484522362220608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05258263664058714,0.0352994850214336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062448733885467726 alcoholism,Bipolar_Bertha,2019/09/05,"Is it possible to help somebody who doesn’t want help? I (22, F) have been dating a guy (25,M) let’s call him James, for some time now and he’s an alcoholic. He’s always drunk, if he doesn’t show up drunk he brings his own booze and gets drunk while with me. He drinks everyday, usually alone, and when I asked him if he thinks has a problem with drinking, he said yes, but then he said he doesn’t want to get any help because drinking is “the only thing that makes him happy.” I like James a lot but his drinking gets me down. My dad was an alcoholic in his 20s and hasn’t taken a sip of the stuff in 31 years now. A few years back I went to rehab for Xanax and I’m clean from it now and feel a lot happier, so I am a big believer in change. Jame’s best friend since childhood passed away last year from cancer, a few years earlier James dropped out of college, he said his drinking habits made it too difficult to stay in school. Now he’s depressed off his ass working a labor job, he says things like “I never planned on being alive this long” or “it’s hard to believe in God, if hes real then why didn’t he keep my friend alive” - I can see the deep depression in his eyes. I have bipolar disorder so I understand agonizing lows and empathize with him tremendously. His spirit is crushed. He doesn’t drive much because he prefers to keep drinking as an option, he takes Uber’s almost everywhere and only drives to work. He drinks excessively and I think it’s out of depression. Is there anything I can do to help him get out of this? I feel for him so deeply and care a lot about him. I don’t want to walk away from him and leave him like this, but I also don’t want to continue a future with somebody who doesn’t even see a future for himself. What can I do?",3.0295810564663017,4.090066803278692,3.9146994535519153,91.14004553734064,73.59016393442623,7.38943533697632,24.757741347905284,7.793537801064563,1.0174451730418943,1374,41,311,18,27,441,182,366,0.135,0.6859999999999999,0.179,0.9498,1,1,9,0,0,0,37.0,0,0,0,4,14,14,0,0,18,1,27,19,2,2,1,48,56,27,0,9,7,1,3,3,2,0,6,4,1,1,15,18,13,2,6,11,0,6,10,6,0,0,9,10,37,8,42,45,9,50,1,4,3,1,51,18,1,10,27,182,52,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16841365304355274,0.07890081232921152,0.08160682417814105,0.0,0.0630115358073704,0.06556292263080321,0.0,0.0,0.05358262406591656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06484075086280154,0.0,0.07366175648501361,0.0,0.14805911929495275,0.060587724716300514,0.0,0.0960641858941095,0.0,0.0,0.1775477183771536,0.08268944504424487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08045748685740198,0.0,0.08033573750010893,0.0,0.08335360756226341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2035954782225347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09030475393885697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5403168808979858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05204269592013085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07968123091918447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1217521026680334,0.0,0.1646664580578077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07801845103930727,0.0,0.08387768146287951,0.07058395005341793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2112558374723962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07819088995739516,0.14007146063270956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06422762901771104,0.0,0.08343147232141737,0.0,0.08057220662140584,0.0,0.11548430961977466,0.0,0.0,0.06973021323616299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2009635311927856,0.0,0.07455679088753027,0.05259560891119697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057922658428824124,0.0,0.06077079268286996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1198527798946184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08882839947279966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0753952195991051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08968482572440152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2248534217647346,0.06266015382064509,0.0,0.07974373774293159,0.12557723794506648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06517921359472602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0839839234232811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09020028224339496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059243284292564626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10469446896433568,0.10097603124141263,0.0,0.0,0.04594541684912789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08202733604138646,0.0,0.0,0.08678046247594201,0.0,0.1858989780300029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07304283027215652,0.07109933216981053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11472594537002954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20296301852056645 alcoholism,dougc143,2019/01/28,"Drove drunk think I might have messed up marriage So two nights ago I drove to my cousins house after I had a few. He asked me to pick up fireballs so I did . We work together. So we spent an hour or two bsing. So I left around 7pm to go home and hangout with my wife, next thing I woke up at 3am on my couch I have no Idea what happend. But I have some skuff Mark's on my car my wife hates me right now. I know I fucked up. But i cant stop I also stopped on My way home tonight to grab a few more shots. Its something I'm fighting with. And I can never have enough. It's hard but I cant stop ",-1.5261764705882328,0.2601972647058837,0.5661764705882355,106.14279411764707,91.05882352941177,3.6941176470588233,15.852941176470587,4.557286568694721,-1.3633588235294116,452,10,125,1,16,148,87,136,0.10400000000000001,0.853,0.042,-0.6695,0,0,1,0,2,0,11.0,2,0,0,1,7,4,3,0,3,0,10,2,0,1,1,21,21,11,0,0,4,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,4,7,1,3,3,2,1,4,4,4,0,2,6,2,24,0,16,14,5,27,0,0,0,1,9,11,1,3,11,78,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15344988988791788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13843448862101745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15410291404840532,0.1618327098247937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17886694665469674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16003565317717725,0.0,0.0,0.09838132506134817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1550708597290436,0.1709084145055169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3472830863576811,0.0,0.17047661295362418,0.19974351064620524,0.0,0.1954179791819827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09513568706145274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18808246203939524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1836403428204248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13351164196132698,0.0,0.1841024329972004,0.16245022940231746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14783337539062294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13326707613569982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4341783798725077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1150053326491966,0.1109206835603726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33820292899707083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13740515582772042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12602476177866082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,sudsypowersofhell,2019/01/28,"Will I finally learn this time? I've had intermittent problems stemming from alcohol for all of my adult life. Legal issues, relationships failing, work impacted, kinda the whole nine yards. Sometimes I can have a few drinks socially and have a great time like everyone around me. Sometimes, when I'm hurting I can get to the level of being numb without going over the edge. Other times I lose all semblance of control and blackout. Over and over. Recently we had a white board on the fridge keeping track of days since last blackout incident. It started as a joke but the reality was anything but funny. I'd been going hard daily and it was only fueling my self-destructive tailspin. The numbness that I sought was nowhere to be found, instead I sank into misery. Where did my sometimes go?!? Sometimes is a double edged sword. And if I keep cutting myself on it I'm going to bleed out. So, I've been sober for 8 days. I'm doing alright for the most part. The time I would have spent drinking I'm trying to use to exercise. Hopefully I'll learn to care for myself more if I treat myself like I matter. Hopefully I'll be able to finally deal with all the emotional baggage I've struggled so long to ignore. Hopefully I'll feel better as I go. Hopefully I can do the things I want and break through the fears that hold me back. Hopefully this time I'll learn that alcohol is not my friend. 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Hoping I still have a job. Fuck you alcohol I just got a new job at a really amazing company, I’ve been there about 3 weeks now. Last Monday I called in saying that I had a migraine but it was honestly because I still felt too shitty because I had been drinking and partying over the weekend. Same exact thing happened this weekend so I had to make up one of the worst things to lie about- that a family member is in the hospital. On top of feeling like a shitty human being for lying about that, I have the worst anxiety knowing that I’m fucking up and could possibly lose this job. To top it all off, my parents won’t speak to me over all of this because they are over my bullshit. I know I just need to stay home on the weekends but it’s so much easier said than done. Man I really fucked up 😔 ",3.241124260355029,4.607646958579885,4.701301775147929,84.51100591715978,73.49704142011834,7.803550295857987,27.792899408284025,8.384062270229773,1.9419727810650893,652,25,131,11,13,218,106,169,0.247,0.62,0.133,-0.9829,4,0,2,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,1,3,12,12,3,1,11,0,14,6,0,1,3,20,29,7,0,3,4,1,3,1,0,1,2,3,1,2,12,3,2,0,5,4,0,0,1,8,0,1,10,6,16,4,25,16,6,25,0,2,0,3,9,14,3,1,11,99,28,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15092407265690738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10803494668893687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2582640642773754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14420412327400156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11275480087706832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14451981040945153,0.0,0.138344440636316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13313215329807468,0.0,0.1428128381198271,0.10088949496427553,0.13559589817739606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39167421456917706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11294866039401626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12488272991529355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14165784038522253,0.14026596418616305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4204250906185039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15522455889267847,0.11511531486040645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06899425717890112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1579920307437847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0942672207068031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10381490278501787,0.1047148113477783,0.0,0.13639372293670002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09569612780998717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15681104893440165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15920732759787176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18094170162471626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1343350872501176,0.1123059257609526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15052456296366354,0.2255611939196953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876441173883156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11328029768385264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ceyeyayo,2019/01/28,Liver aches So i have been drinking for 12 years. About a 6 pack a night roughly. Im 28. I decided to take a break and i have noticed my liver kinda aches and hurts when i quit. I feel it especially after doing cardio. Is this normal? ,-0.9693367346938756,1.0880692857142868,2.2109948979591856,90.12016581632656,101.04081632653059,4.08265306122449,16.32908163265306,5.985473137389443,-0.2068183673469384,181,5,37,2,8,64,38,49,0.16,0.84,0.0,-0.7037,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,3,0,5,4,2,0,0,6,7,4,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,6,0,4,6,0,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,24,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3306762750362437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17067840644556326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3613605745339012,0.0,0.3646182989887947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3167733473154677,0.33073311400613203,0.0,0.3843096316746829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3590322523002988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25380002891551434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21737493365034835 alcoholism,methos04,2019/01/28,7 Days Since My Last Drink. I love to binge on the weekends. Always felt I deserved it for working so hard. First time in years I haven't. Felt good.,-0.8574193548387079,1.2394045483870997,0.15058064516129122,105.02587096774192,100.29032258064517,2.4800000000000004,15.877419354838713,3.1291,-1.4312632258064517,115,3,27,0,5,35,28,31,0.136,0.731,0.133,0.233,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,3,4,2,4,2,0,8,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,6,13,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24608462062493905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19073190266370896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28971879078182633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5679256712339251,0.0,0.0,0.25156165914283524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2480579721930476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2649306021471392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24107271436732644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2669225903559757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446444027581252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1724520509624176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2153068350933834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19045092641301836 alcoholism,throwawaytheinhalant,2019/01/28,"Alcohol is an absolutely horrible drug, and I feel like I'm on crazy pills because nobody takes me seriously I am way past the point of getting euphoria from alcohol. I may get some initial relief when I have my first drink of the day, but my GABA receptors are so up-regulated from consistent use that I need alcohol to prevent anxiety attacks, shakes, and feeling like I am dying. I am quite literally an alcohol junkie. A husk of a human being living only for a drip of booze. The effects are physical, present, and grave. Alcohol is poison. No history of alcoholism in my family either. It could happen to anyone. Weed, on the other hand, is purely psychological. I get cravings but that's it. It's not going to give me cancer, it's not going to disrupt my sleep, and it's not going to make me feel like a zombie. Weed is the antithesis of alcohol and it frustrates me to no end that it's illegal when a horrible substance like alcohol is pervasive.",4.537681498829041,6.194089907103827,6.853212334113977,69.21012295081968,70.69398907103826,10.693052302888367,32.74355971896956,10.7630783206399,4.218247775175643,755,36,128,25,14,269,105,183,0.215,0.6729999999999999,0.11199999999999999,-0.977,0,0,10,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,3,3,11,3,1,12,0,14,16,2,3,1,23,30,10,2,2,6,0,4,4,0,1,12,0,0,1,11,5,10,1,4,1,0,4,5,6,0,1,0,4,16,5,18,27,2,16,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,2,11,89,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8201113892294055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07338184082784041,0.0,0.0,0.06707251360150696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10912775997906736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058474574006506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07658776260944059,0.0,0.0,0.061863249585480014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.099554297742298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09396931301702907,0.11124175509778607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08496047403426044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09042891010550563,0.0,0.14550665237873156,0.20558505615742054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08159317601486794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15034949130840833,0.0920193466874251,0.16354800174314746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08482555774453575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874551060932089,0.0,0.08470293034084392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06403022722922214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0711266664551137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0729547664678963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09157061573638592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09067948613081148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10202731990953354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09599359354470807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07212314931961475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08284781217436286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0761402588374581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,stopdrunking,2019/01/28,"Having cravings or urges to drink. Check out the smartrecovery urge log tool. It helped me. Smartrecovery has a tool called an urge log. It's a journal of all your urges and cravings. It's a document where you write about the time of your urge, how strong, how long, what's going on now, and your response. It does two things: first it is an immediate distraction from your craving. Instead of thinking about urges you learn to go write about it. Second, its a great learning tool. As you go along you will see patterns of why you're having urges and how best to respond. I did one for almost a year and it helped me a great deal. Thanks for reading [Sample Urge Log](https://smartrecoveryaustralia.com.au/wp-content/uploads/2015/10/urge-log.pdf)",5.172587064676616,7.789520910447763,3.91126865671642,86.90978855721393,71.23880597014927,6.556218905472638,26.092039800995025,7.492282038375204,1.2787830845771144,598,20,109,7,12,172,81,134,0.02,0.841,0.14,0.9517,0,0,1,0,0,0,34.0,0,8,0,3,9,6,0,1,10,0,6,1,0,3,1,17,12,9,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,10,6,1,0,3,2,1,3,0,1,0,4,1,2,11,5,17,10,2,11,0,0,1,0,15,3,0,2,5,71,21,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20733613963101905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2172919367695484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21142678049781088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21346509318928225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18119563320986792,0.0,0.0,0.20283552938309235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17612127320782256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3530231779720105,0.0,0.0,0.4565587634397237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2775698280094141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18323757134096294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14030614208255687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2071114976823078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16499639846810812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19062885388343406,0.0,0.0,0.1375584508890304,0.13267278178012198,0.0,0.0,0.12073570704809185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2022631034896398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18683535222582612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13333693122299253 alcoholism,anewvogue,2019/01/28,"What can I do to help my alcoholic husband in the beginning of his recovery process? He has started going go AA meetings 2x a day, and he has a coworker in recovery and has chosen him to be his sponsor. However I’m under the impression while this is a good first step there may be more that needs to be looked into. Should he see a doctor to discuss quitting alcohol and the possible withdrawal/urges he may experience? Should he see a psychologist or a counselor to see if there any underlying issues like depression? I have advised him marriage counseling is going to be a requirement for me, it’s been a rough time, and I’m willing to make it work now he’s trying to recover, but I feel like we need to have a third party guide us through on how to get passed the resentment I may have and learn how to move forward with how our relationship dynamic will change. I’m proud of him for making the first step, I just want to do what I can to help him succeed. I know maybe this is something I should let him take care of his own, but I’m not sure, this is why I’m turning to this sub for advice.",5.481704781704785,5.403323594594597,6.537567567567568,78.60732848232848,67.55855855855856,10.434372834372835,33.29313929313929,10.214889679676881,3.2195858627858627,866,36,177,20,13,291,127,222,0.038,0.805,0.157,0.9773,1,0,3,0,0,0,16.0,3,0,0,7,7,11,1,0,14,0,28,3,0,5,1,33,53,13,0,7,6,1,2,2,0,8,3,0,0,0,9,8,2,1,3,0,0,8,1,2,1,3,1,6,21,9,28,39,2,22,0,1,4,0,25,7,0,5,11,123,30,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14133254143864027,0.0,0.30913486230790976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09835459782129416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14746178057237552,0.0,0.15300128897485654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0932755593627184,0.0,0.12457117537566872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1480367972252482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14147767347165174,0.0,0.0,0.07313019432681271,0.10332500172121636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24604750587669905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0755641569411054,0.0,0.2465927905091401,0.12131030932713828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19388732162909236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15095804445113425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07948586629579339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14789583593505615,0.0,0.141319604073512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12145430306754278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.193085727017142,0.0,0.14530210389191334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15372073651915838,0.0,0.2144853250891428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16305064668928365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15383374456737914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15528044865572793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3457585070414385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11134464176950884,0.0,0.0,0.10237114722063244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13631377951329485,0.0,0.1087451296345562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08433597784178222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09819551248190374,0.15731788902285834,0.0,0.0,0.17397427244822194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08530759522451628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13050772228552482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10529368814278138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,sanners2,2019/01/28,How long do withdrawals last? I’m 23 and on the last day of vacation. I went hard 13 nights in a row and my last drink was about 15 hours ago. I feel like shit and slightly shaky. This kind of terrifies me and I have a 7 hour flight I’m about 16 hours. ,-1.1132142857142853,0.8702698214285718,0.5942857142857143,105.05071428571428,91.85714285714286,4.628571428571429,15.142857142857142,6.1826913282559595,-0.9563285714285712,194,4,52,2,7,62,42,56,0.188,0.768,0.045,-0.7906,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,1,3,0,3,2,1,1,0,7,7,5,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,2,5,2,6,5,0,13,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,11,23,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18349129006504886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13349662375819124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20277929317819715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046644384028426,0.14787945495939706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854296026146502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6115541756262309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21555662509284268,0.0,0.5061931380981968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10112879592228244,0.0,0.0,0.1831867686751885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19425365626633367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21248053328014208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19188927484173104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,areyoumymommyy,2019/01/28,"6 months sober + in need of a new AA room in London Hi guys, I just completed 6 months sober :D And I was looking up some AA rooms to start attending in London. Someone has any recommendations?",1.8019230769230743,4.080945538461542,3.643269230769232,86.30798076923078,80.7948717948718,6.976923076923077,22.57051282051281,8.07648339933343,1.223405128205128,152,5,32,3,4,51,31,39,0.0,0.888,0.11199999999999999,0.6166,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,5,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,1,2,0,6,4,1,11,0,0,1,0,2,6,0,1,4,14,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332873814844401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3596838925324033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3396757898239872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2880775984069988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5476422720076062,0.0,0.0,0.2543689922244381,0.0,0.33132212532877475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2906671674760519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24281423953409664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,kid_mescudi,2019/01/28,"I'm only 20 and I think I'm an alcoholic. It's almost 5:30 in the morning. I can't sleep or even feel tired without drinking. I drink a couple shots before I go to work because I can't stand working without it. I go through 1 and a half to sometimes 2 handles of whiskey a week. If I go a day without drinking I can't sleep. I'm totally restless. I live with a friend so no one in my family knows how bad it is, they know I drink but they don't know how bad but I'm embarrassed to talk about it. Then I don't want the attention it might bring from them. I'm definitely a high functioning alcoholic if I am at all. I'm a server and Im excellent at my job, I outsell everyone and my sales/tip ratio is the highest in the restaurant. I'm not blacking out and waking up places or getting DUIs or any crazy shit like you see on tv but I'm definitely addicted. I can't imagine day to day life without drinking. It makes things easier. I really do feel like it helps with my anxiety and being a server I'm so much more friendly and I make more tips compared to when I don't drink. I feel happier with it. I generally feel like it helps but I realize that not being ok with being sober isn't positive. I'm conflicted but I'm pretty sure I'm addicted. Also, not related but kind of related. Why is it that when I come and drink after work or I just drink when I'm free during the day is that super frowned upon but someone that smokes weed and is high all the time seem to be a bit more socially accepted? Like i have a friend who smokes weed all the time but gives me shit for my drinking. Is there a certain amount of hypocrisy in that?",0.9147797447509304,2.9211969538904934,3.2731132153149467,89.25442074927956,82.34293948126802,6.847558666117745,24.323507616303004,7.957251820313856,1.3975965253190616,1281,50,281,25,35,441,164,347,0.115,0.693,0.193,0.9869,1,0,14,0,0,0,27.0,0,1,3,5,12,21,2,2,19,1,22,21,5,4,6,65,55,32,0,3,22,0,4,4,3,1,6,0,0,0,17,15,12,1,13,11,1,5,16,6,0,2,0,6,33,16,32,50,10,31,0,0,2,0,13,13,2,9,16,172,50,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16049370031583546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15733553466923533,0.07371077860559902,0.0,0.0,0.05886668626574166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050058000963920976,0.0,0.05631220984510146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1229242125157276,0.044872579440771,0.0,0.06263753520839259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08036414167673081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06340935440100437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0814491660842179,0.0,0.18989200887071608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6489967616684039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048619368087127184,0.0,0.0,0.07033846044256728,0.0,0.0,0.06939389506283815,0.0,0.1488797237422388,0.10517541935671408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17061501687239836,0.0,0.0384587068097063,0.07061437410146698,0.12550447481297092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09867979685744653,0.15554811590370726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07951250652514498,0.0,0.07304755437214278,0.0,0.0,0.07665452393465516,0.12136403360265087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0519936228448283,0.14385045607702554,0.0,0.06499985737669027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09827182178819156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0780896332570549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05411255126094665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04988071541438992,0.05598447888734235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07690782268130032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07488884574787978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047157088441754036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058658432725948124,0.06701268539356144,0.0,0.0,0.15112125750675204,0.0,0.0,0.1473283123588292,0.07503713955419461,0.062370357355427127,0.0,0.07280315648011097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06937749182473796,0.0,0.0,0.059165729606037415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04890387434074487,0.04716695344182269,0.0,0.0,0.08584632652898999,0.08460501036644097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04341767216350788,0.0,0.059046300201876324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0664224737092415,0.0,0.0,0.2838334902294897,0.0,0.1607690436228391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Idrinktoomuch52,2019/01/28,"Tapering (or attempting) So for the past week, ive been trying to cut down because i want to get sober but dont have good enough insurance/cant afford detox. Ive been to aa before so i know how all that goes. Im just concerned about my taper plan and how its going to all work out. I started at 12-15 beers a night and jumped from 12 to 7 last week, and now i drank 7 last night (even though my schedule said 6) amd tonight 5. Does anyone have experience with this or know if ill experience withdrawals? Im working for the next two days and then on vacation, so im trying to get this schedule right so ill be getting sober on my vacation. My plan right now is Sat-7 Sun- 5 Monday-4 Tuesday-2 Wednesday-1 Thurs-none For refrence, ive been drinking michelob ultra every night for the past 2-3 months, and the same beer 4-5 days a week for 3-4 months before that. If anyone has any feedback or advice, it would be much appreciated! The last time i quit drinking it was cold turkey and i had no crazy withdraw symptoms, but i wasnt drinking as much as i am now . Im just nervous i guess.",1.3284987326964313,3.5068471569506734,2.8487034509651035,91.90781438876976,81.91479820627802,5.492610645349973,22.700136478845767,6.7026698264267655,0.5449471241957498,848,29,182,9,23,277,128,223,0.099,0.875,0.026000000000000002,-0.9359999999999999,1,0,5,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,0,6,14,3,1,1,7,0,18,10,0,2,2,27,29,23,0,4,9,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,7,8,6,0,2,5,0,2,3,2,1,1,8,2,16,1,21,18,6,34,0,0,0,0,1,7,0,6,25,101,23,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10160941552095447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07071091410861696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14541241780367894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0633860931233622,0.0,0.17696101669295222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13411879490401232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09099481926997256,0.0,0.12186542024200828,0.3055865421938634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10744057676270947,0.0,0.06867873056500885,0.0,0.08760880976342758,0.0,0.0,0.2034275130750424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1629779612599584,0.0,0.059095022892499835,0.0872146605581856,0.0,0.0,0.11454722929077032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4492709985372918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11429091041992945,0.2542761448161522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16599391450909032,0.0,0.15287657879781294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11058539296711303,0.2927384852593358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19852401407094905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11059701264678244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17759908595532126,0.0989101179135692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07359856639819946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1080764829173346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1021611924062268,0.0,0.0606323874789448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14119308304377462,0.0,0.10157471358984824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061330920692631234,0.0,0.2502228084387002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15139938759084132,0.0,0.0,0.0738653994633039,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,HolyCrepe215,2019/01/28,"Need help preparing for a hard conversation with alcoholic boyfriend This will be a bit of a long post, but I’ll try to be as concise as possible. I have been dating my boyfriend for close to 1.5 years now, and I found out about his drinking problem 8 months into the relationship through a very unpleasant incident. Basically that time he went on drinking bender for 4 whole days at a hotel while visiting me (we lived in different cities at the time), and eventually I had to go to work and had to call his grown up kids to come get him back to his town because there’s no way he could/would do that himself. From what I gathered talking to his kids (who seemed to know the drill as they are dragging him out of bed), he’s had a drinking problem for years and had gotten better after rehab, but went off the cliff again in that past year when his marriage fell apart. And I empathize with him completely as I know he’s going through a really hard time - he was married for almost 30 years before they called it quits, has 3 kids in their 20s, and he was raised in a very Catholic household so that religious component takes the guilt from divorce to a whole other level. After that incident, he said he will quit drinking for good and as far as I know, he was doing well and stayed sober for about 8 months. By that point, he had rented an apartment in my city, I ended up moving into it so we were effectively living together 30% of the time (he has another temporary living situation in his town). While I didn’t like that he was still legally married (we started dating when he was 2 years separated) and he gets so stressed out/angry/anxious whenever I ask about the status of the divorce proceedings that it’s hard to talk about it, our relationship was super positive and loving and happy 90% of the time. Then last December came, and it happened again. This time, he came back from a business trip in Europe and flew off to Miami to binge drink on his own in warm weather (he’s an entrepreneur so he has that flexibility). I hear very little from him over 6 days, all the while being worried sick, and also just angry and disappointed and depressed by what he did. When he finally came back, I didn’t ask any questions because (1) I didn’t want to push him away when he’s feeling bad about it already, and (2) I was hoping maybe this was an one-off relapse and didn’t want to discourage him from recovery by focusing on it too much. Fast forward to now - he’s at it again. I think his divorce finalizing (papers signed, going go through the court system now) probably triggered the drinking. I sensed something was wrong when he stopped answering calls/texts, and when he did he admitted he was drinking. I have no idea where he is, as he could literally just fly out to another city on a whim like he’s done before. In contrast to last time, where I would call every day just to check up on him/to make sure he’s ok, this time I texted him saying that I will need him to write me a letter explaining the whole situation, because it isn’t fair for me to be left in the dark like this. I admit that it’s partly my fault for not asking the “right” questions concerning his drinking, but I do feel like he should have been much more forthcoming about his alcoholism. I told him that we shouldn’t speak until he sends me that letter, which he agreed to. Though it’s so hard for me to not talk to him that I called him multiple times today, and he has not answered. So here we are in this period of limbo - I believe he’ll come back sooner or later in the next few days, unless something truly bad happened to him. When he comes back, I want to be ready to have that difficult conversation with him. I want to know how long he’s been an alcoholic, I want to know what triggers his drinking binges, and most importantly I want to know if he actually wants to recover and what he’s going to do about it. Can you give me some advice on how to mentally prepare myself for the conversation? I.e. how should I frame my mindset going into it, and just how to bring it up without pushing him away. He’s a wonderful, wonderful man (I wouldn’t be staying with him if I didn’t think he was one in a couple hundred million), but he has a lot of trouble handling emotionally charged conversations and just overall not the most mature/emotionally developed adult. Any advice on this would be helpful! 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So I've decided to not drink in the week. Instead I just drink on weekends hopefully this is the first step in cutting down.",2.676764705882352,4.01453466666667,3.727598039215689,91.04669117647059,74.88235294117645,6.668627450980392,26.47549019607843,7.1686216300943375,1.1028784313725488,192,7,42,2,4,62,37,51,0.062,0.883,0.055,0.1779,0,0,4,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,5,3,2,0,5,0,2,3,0,0,1,6,3,4,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,1,5,0,1,1,2,0,2,1,0,1,1,10,2,1,14,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,2,7,29,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7618530218936326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22050463680471669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2574782385966981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21131062462468464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2432739107970969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4158843762929809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16693844563165225 alcoholism,kalefornicatio,2019/01/28,3 weeks Fuck Went 3 weeks sober and honestly I felt the same . In my day to day life I was doing great. The past 2 nights I got back on the train. Just felt like putting this out there.,-0.8272499999999994,1.2272607750000049,0.21499999999999986,107.77,91.25,4.2,13.0,5.6839178017228535,-1.51165,141,2,38,1,5,43,32,40,0.081,0.696,0.223,0.7269,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,6,7,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,5,2,4,3,4,2,1,12,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,8,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945242330380232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3262993715223259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4857965212085229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23387380375849945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2023293736466537,0.2789088032097161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17868562830347334,0.12359212399266978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2374024307552173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2414958360973989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2543124576437884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4058468971110459,0.0,0.0,0.2345128589025076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,american-plagiarism,2019/01/28,Anti-Depressants while Quitting? I’ve realized how much alcohol is starting to impact my life and before it gets worse I want to quit. However I drink so heavily to help my depression - I know bad idea - are there any medications that are beneficial and safe before I am completely sober? Im just assuming im not going to be able to cut cold turkey right away but I want to start treating my depression too. ,3.7664285714285697,6.043306448717949,5.548021978021982,75.13269230769235,74.25641025641026,10.098168498168498,29.091575091575088,10.290406445055957,3.613342124542124,325,14,58,11,7,111,58,78,0.168,0.728,0.105,-0.7979999999999999,1,0,2,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,5,6,1,0,0,0,5,4,0,1,0,13,12,6,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,2,2,1,4,1,0,1,1,4,0,0,0,1,8,2,7,11,1,6,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,1,3,33,10,0,0.16940001872901306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18103710218592534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11519782170989147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.159156893903529,0.0,0.14144193979521644,0.0,0.0,0.28829387807492113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776126966671414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4377119637210597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16594752709375127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08850451805797623,0.0,0.09627393446866166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11354526175491544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1912320017039083,0.3659621788329907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0930978201002479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11965224298203216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17065269708363065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12452850518179424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3603555435575417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14466669040859995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2398044103070137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19983304009903188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1726330913333447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Danboy178,2019/08/26,A young Irish man who doesn’t really know what to do at the minute. Guys I do believe I’ve a problem. It’s taken a lot of time and effort to even begin to contemplate writing this but I know I do need it. Here’s my story for anyone that even cares. I’m a 23 year old fella living in Northern Ireland in a shared house (house with unrelated random roommates) I’ve £30 pounds in my top drawer and an iPhone in my hand and they’re the only thing I have in my life of any worth. I’m unemployed on social welfare. I’ve a girlfriend who has aspirations and I’m currently fighting with. I’m 7 beer and 1 litre of cider deep. I honestly have loved alcohol and have drank around 4/7 days a week since ive been 15 and loved it right up until about a year ago. That was when what I call the “freak” happened. Basically I was walking through town with my friend when I suddenly couldn’t construct a thought and lost complete sense of self. Scariest moment of my life and I was completely sober (well nursing a hangover) . I’ve had 2 month periods where I’ve drank everyday and it’s hurting me because I know I’m much more than that. I’m riddled with fear every hangover I have and cannot function the day I have one. I’m a smart guy (moderately smart) and I know I deserve and am capable of more than this. What do you reckon I should do? I just want to cut the drink out but it’s become so part of who I am it scares me of what I am without it and the release it gives me. I really appreciate anyone who read this.,1.8455470162748642,3.5897652816455685,3.5987703435804725,89.36227848101265,78.14556962025316,6.6661844484629285,24.260397830018093,7.5804360353943165,1.0659587703435809,1183,41,258,17,28,396,173,316,0.08199999999999999,0.767,0.151,0.9746,3,0,3,0,2,0,25.0,0,1,0,3,11,17,2,2,18,0,24,10,1,0,0,38,48,20,0,5,4,0,1,0,2,1,3,0,0,4,23,20,5,0,6,3,1,1,4,8,1,1,10,1,30,9,33,36,5,35,0,2,0,2,19,15,0,2,19,158,53,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10975094317719887,0.1323162598641401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08419569651250146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1731429999581302,0.0,0.0,0.11021800130010363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07547401029959817,0.1367394748260973,0.0,0.13949255074350378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12642483013282255,0.0,0.1262335223699809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2596268659144198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15969564945822914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12128760267162135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16355193900146972,0.0,0.1043160713116016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13932174827533228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09565603835849867,0.0,0.0,0.11877075186347308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24518462619524214,0.10948562050521203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2857224427200056,0.13254219033540526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2721730564272599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17490268110321805,0.0,0.0,0.10932734347478476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351542853186606,0.10525964823704373,0.22348844543918567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09882472476215903,0.0,0.09101529936777908,0.09180425591492222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299187722716435,0.0,0.08389750880949813,0.09416381203888984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1340752012908125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11847036494611568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12384446214140475,0.0,0.15863293900676434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10573388090431768,0.0,0.0,0.12395636709129333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291618304614019,0.0,0.0,0.10241770317172297,0.0,0.0,0.12620967892075255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0822544984416482,0.0,0.0,0.09829207014949548,0.07219516476853925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0730269103513089,0.0,0.0993136816543348,0.0,0.1113209195653046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.119349344476771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15946039419044375 alcoholism,highkeyoverit,2019/08/26,"I'm getting drunk because I don't know what to do My family is full of alcoholics. It seems alcohol either has a great effect on them, a time of memories and laughs; or it has a terrible effect of drama and sadness. Either way, alcohol is what they drink when they wake up and when they go to bed. It's a religion to them.i don't want to fall in line with them, but it's in my genetics. I want to move away completely and leave all of them forever but I still have feelings and I want to stay and solve what is not my job to solve. It's messing me up.",3.1085593220338983,3.619854389830511,4.962500000000002,85.75527542372883,72.89830508474577,9.289830508474578,26.614406779661017,9.516144504307137,2.054081355932204,430,14,98,10,8,148,67,118,0.099,0.821,0.08,0.2157,1,0,4,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,6,2,3,5,0,0,4,0,9,6,1,2,1,22,18,11,0,3,6,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,8,7,5,0,5,3,0,3,3,3,0,0,0,1,14,2,18,18,4,16,0,1,0,0,6,7,0,2,4,70,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.619432167155563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1815224586894572,0.0,0.0,0.11777597555988074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2025717680380629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18926734741224502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18213648046940376,0.0,0.09769025384406582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1009416389637966,0.0,0.10980285467905608,0.0,0.0,0.21300919606359192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1917261518205856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10618041599548364,0.0,0.0,0.2045761998312973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20534634031660776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758865769580208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20593082469727708,0.1542937636523757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11265939000151835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.341871946698259,0.15335713712024165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,geminicatmeow,2019/08/26,Social anxiety - how to get over it without alcohol. The title pretty much says it all. I have social anxiety (and general anxiety) but I’m an alcoholic. I’m tired of using alcohol to relax because it always leads to me getting drunk. I lack the self control to stop once I start. Any advice on how to relax without alcohol?,2.370345622119814,5.041954790322585,5.373963133640554,72.30951612903227,81.74193548387096,8.704147465437789,29.82488479262673,9.23628265651192,3.712527188940092,255,13,40,8,7,92,42,62,0.21,0.6559999999999999,0.134,-0.5574,0,0,4,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,3,0,1,6,0,5,1,13,7,4,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,1,3,1,5,2,0,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,10,7,3,5,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,28,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14741310951919678,0.0,0.6448696223775503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12552289079544185,0.0,0.0,0.10258612031427768,0.0,0.34620945841381473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09195940198732112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16919596328018355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1576303267386021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11089529320535567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16065494263706415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534730910574423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11996542145543558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1573739707439597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.307553992493387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.106775474234238,0.0,0.0,0.1261209782536797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17338486566608965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13028970955247401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2908363899598186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Lumber_Jackalope,2019/08/26,"I don't know where else to reach out. In recent months I have come to the conclusion that I'm an alcoholic. I am a 28 year old male who drinks between 4 and 10 alcoholic drinks per day, and this has been going on for the last 4 years. Yes I have been sober at times. Sometimes days, sometimes weeks, never as long as a month. In the last 4-5 months though I have noticed what are likely withdrawal symptoms whenever I drink less on one day, then put off drinking until night the next day. I started a taper schedule yesterday, and the whole day as well as this morning I have felt on the verge of an anxiety attack. Medical detox is not an option right now, as I am doing well at work and have a wife in school who needs my financial support to complete her graduate program. Does anyone have advice on how to do this safely? I'm keeping to a strict schedule for when I drink, but this shit is hard. Tl;Dr started tapering, having a rough time, looking for support.",5.943860066634933,5.829913162303665,6.256163731556406,81.13551642075205,66.59162303664921,9.249119466920515,32.02332222751071,8.841846274778883,2.4930167539267014,758,28,149,11,11,244,120,191,0.06,0.8590000000000001,0.081,-0.0129,0,0,7,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,2,7,8,2,0,15,1,18,11,1,1,1,17,31,15,0,1,2,1,3,1,0,0,5,0,0,1,8,6,7,2,3,5,0,3,3,2,2,1,3,4,12,6,27,28,2,47,0,0,1,0,5,14,1,1,31,98,20,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10163053344634007,0.0,0.2222951674356873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07956201466189246,0.0,0.0,0.07272131974847497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1183184333007357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08958938032144552,0.10904517269553296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33536667348667304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09101373111779658,0.0,0.0,0.509416755949815,0.0,0.0,0.08688116585553388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09985919528377216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05910730486733168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09316626480003422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09244265008092066,0.0,0.0,0.05715733199769215,0.1695526614198795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050810615171213235,0.0,0.0,0.09203938722622723,0.08733633092890193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1047720865322892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24904262061608826,0.0,0.0,0.07711691088030494,0.08021352954765787,0.0,0.11060837640880933,0.09759977545599406,0.0,0.0,0.11840811127228737,0.1091336592525276,0.0,0.07047512825481135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1045517465121838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10269042107411032,0.0,0.0,0.08881799857169455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10525659418436993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10675759074762846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20572326389732376,0.0,0.14722772541472506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23604275666536834,0.0,0.1080989449213771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1021824250097949,0.0,0.12128997794184865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0834249377766312,0.0,0.1870223846961281,0.0,0.0,0.11611564165901098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07571542679100073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13394905154635567 alcoholism,n00822585,2019/08/26,Alcohol Withdrawl? PAWS? Been a month and 3 weeks since I last drank (Had about a dozen beers) and still shaking/trembling. Anxiety is also high. I’m 23 years old been a binge drinker not often but always drank to the point of not being coherent. Wanted to know how long did you guys deal with the shakes/tremors with?,2.3076346604215487,4.998075360655741,2.3167681498829045,93.97360655737705,82.27868852459017,5.4529274004683845,21.82903981264637,6.868970318607317,0.5543236533957843,251,8,50,3,7,75,51,61,0.035,0.965,0.0,-0.22399999999999998,1,0,3,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,0,5,0,0,0,5,0,6,4,0,1,0,11,11,5,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,4,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,6,0,2,0,6,4,0,9,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,7,29,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2927292341380621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21904778247384196,0.22791720009309266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20954236555947767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28239183118674244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2712165077907098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2894036680005903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15053518449428313,0.2232753023651354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24240400404624055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21863439930387424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2874251641203058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2589359140791574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2265833076178349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21874693143710824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16156073003089114,0.0,0.2197161407067835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17639071386483768 alcoholism,babyplease9999,2019/08/26,My husband is addicted to alchohol I'm concerned for him. He is deployed in Spain and I recently was told by his friend that he tried to fight 5 people his first night there and he was super drunk.. he left the house for work a week ago thinking he would get to come back home for a few more hours to say bye and stuff but they actually put him on lock down when he got to work so we didnt say a proper good bye and I think that he is having a hard time adjusting and turning to alcohol.. he isnt confiding in me.. he didnt even tell me about that night. I'm really worried about him and I dont know how to confront him or what to say.. my mom is an alcoholic and I understand alcoholism somewhat.. please give me advice.. how to cope.. if I should say something what do I say.. could he even go to rehab or anything being in the military.. ? All Answers are appreciated,0.9693421052631592,3.125535472222225,2.92029239766082,90.9992105263158,83.16666666666667,6.4561403508771935,22.251461988304094,7.669130373188453,0.9494444444444444,675,23,149,12,19,226,109,180,0.066,0.866,0.067,0.285,0,0,4,0,1,0,21.0,1,0,1,4,10,5,2,0,7,0,17,6,0,2,1,26,30,15,0,4,4,2,1,0,1,2,5,5,1,0,6,9,4,0,6,1,0,3,4,2,0,1,6,6,19,3,21,20,4,19,0,0,0,0,32,6,0,4,12,94,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.11915332977825267,0.13310852283360167,0.0,0.11931605161665865,0.10823550277343458,0.39146771308488204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10047902885246207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.093888421384193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10517952395066374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0974880133691008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14310190347352833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612936147511109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10385936816992676,0.0,0.0,0.09433522032089467,0.0,0.0637929294851642,0.11713076599229233,0.06939302588818692,0.10241284124642787,0.09765562467285853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10937884986780504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12247763580700127,0.0,0.12024526004955145,0.1408885944220227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0671037231001834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13266350244088526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1430036560141026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22916774026833664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08464972021907352,0.0,0.0,0.1340306446476055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12274560764798165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07822126814028048,0.0,0.12056037851935725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4854995754881269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09399960468677253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13977686318302318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10672198458314493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15647526318720734,0.0,0.0,0.07119829434101117,0.0,0.0,0.11667309744214388,0.0,0.08289881945483675,0.13281123494849492,0.0,0.12711183869897835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09794235889875204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17778251210188284,0.12399987441291895,0.0,0.08673731435086489,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,astralspacehermit,2019/08/26,"Why do they think I'm drunk when I'm just drinking Man, it sucks like you have the stigmata of drinking on your head Whatever, sobriety is the anti-drunkness There is no reality to mind, it's all drunk",3.898699186991866,5.123444073170732,5.281463414634152,81.5389430894309,71.6829268292683,9.369105691056909,30.739837398373986,9.725611199111238,2.880310569105691,161,7,33,4,3,54,34,41,0.21600000000000005,0.727,0.057,-0.7184,0,0,2,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,1,0,3,2,1,0,2,0,4,5,1,0,1,4,8,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,4,0,1,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,3,8,1,2,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,2,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7214556441624372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3779129473430544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17989987898164395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3718100182770683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359486218541628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33227270341237153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,strangegeneration94,2019/08/26,"The reason I quit drinking (years of madness) I'm a male, currently 24 years old. I'll try to keep this brief. I started drinking when I was 13 years old. For me, alcohol wasn't an immediate addiction. My friends and I used to drink beer on the weekends. At that age, it seemed fun, exciting, and harmless. But then at age 14, everything took a turn for the worse. That's when I officially began to experience alcoholism. I started drinking at any given opportunity. I became dependent on alcohol to make me feel good. It was the only thing that truly allowed me to escape my problems. The only thing that was holding me back from drinking 24/7, was that I had to attend school. But once summer break arrived...all bets were off. I became a straight up alcoholic. The summer of 2008 was definitely the craziest chapter of my youth, and alcohol had a lot to do with that. I also grew up in an unstable area. The social circle and lifestyle I was involved with practically encouraged alcoholism. And I lacked a lot of guidance as well. It was a recipe for disaster. Ages 15 through 16, I continued drinking. Though, it wasn't fun anymore. At that point, alcohol lost it's magic with me. Now, it was just an addiction...a disease. It was just an escape mechanism. I can barely remember my high school experience due to alcoholism. Whenever someone asks me about high school, I only remember snippets of what happened. For the most part though, my memories of that time seem like one big blackout. It wasn't until I turned 17, that I finally came to an understanding, and realized that alcohol was a problem for me, and that I needed to quit. Now, honestly, that didn't happen overnight. It took me a while to get my life together and kick the habit. It took many chapters of trial and error. But just acknowledging the fact that I had a problem was a vitally important step. For many years, I continued to dabble off and on with booze. Alcoholism runs in my family. For example; back in the day, my dad used to be a serious alcoholic. Growing up, he always warned me about the dangers of alcoholism. I guess I had to learn the hard way. One of the main reasons why I knew that alcoholism wasn't an option for me...is how I behaved when I was drinking. I was an angry drunk. My dad was the same way. I guess you could that it's in our blood. We're not friendly drunks. For me, drinking brought out many demons. There are so many things I said and did while under the influence of alcohol, that I later regretted. Booze made me do so many irrational and terrible things. I haven't had a drop of alcohol since 2015. The last time I drank, I got the spins, passed out, and felt awful afterwards. That's another reason I had to quit drinking...the hangovers. I just can't deal with the hangovers anymore. Once I quit alcohol, I became much more aware of my health. I look at booze as a poison now. Nothing about it sounds fun or appealing anymore. But of course, in times of darkness and desperation...booze still haunts me at times. There have been days where I'm tempted to start drinking again, so I can avoid my problems. But at the end of the day, I know all too well, that drinking will solve absolutely nothing. In fact, it'll only make my problems worse. I'm not saying that'll never drink again. I can't predict the future. But as long as I can help it...I won't. And I really hope I never do.",2.7360171987277653,5.151648303215929,4.1215681470137815,83.40630085993641,78.21898928024503,7.7550618447402515,27.197761809400397,8.663278654923907,2.3079941053127584,2654,112,505,61,65,874,286,653,0.11199999999999999,0.7979999999999999,0.091,-0.9312,2,1,29,0,0,0,115.0,1,1,0,6,31,29,3,1,43,1,45,39,1,12,5,86,86,40,0,10,13,2,3,1,2,4,20,3,0,1,38,23,34,3,15,15,1,12,13,13,2,2,42,7,69,16,79,38,10,99,1,2,1,0,16,31,0,12,53,341,107,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04251721192874885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6668890562847704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031189353483387274,0.0324522350254619,0.0,0.0,0.026522245191234424,0.04089630030334497,0.0,0.0,0.1160365329517863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03646098340217811,0.0,0.0,0.05997923836383689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044607137129593216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031139392404709525,0.0,0.0,0.07545790366391865,0.040208663809486934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4202710633624531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034543606572427256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03505188504894779,0.0763015787369355,0.03676698757822755,0.0,0.01972024681898929,0.0,0.03744739779566854,0.042724056087624016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060264669299090114,0.0,0.020376587800219885,0.0,0.0,0.032712469365639235,0.031192930413935494,0.0,0.08592873503402036,0.0,0.06897750341723266,0.0,0.03493753548873665,0.0,0.0,0.04145659528670094,0.0,0.0,0.0261417727164209,0.08241410343185887,0.0,0.03873712574402827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03466617852295655,0.0,0.0,0.02143411372557397,0.03179129343803324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02754779629464232,0.019054082232007132,0.0,0.0,0.034514954146543264,0.03275129863619302,0.0,0.042574564287087134,0.06631508057829161,0.0,0.036904006159871626,0.05206738788339252,0.19770616078158687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028670468752846744,0.02891899569490313,0.060160467767236124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07484566554788623,0.0,0.08185068063712854,0.08307029775081358,0.05285662787405928,0.11864909084354101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042234645118364736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03686886789060855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18659505159680945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16593088203217346,0.0,0.0,0.024985253866976653,0.12029960403185945,0.0,0.0,0.08836181932651213,0.0,0.03709920077073234,0.031015426965786214,0.0,0.11841429950957826,0.0,0.07101070113495297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032262307314485816,0.0,0.0,0.03975694944629564,0.033045704554558755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08281603688808142,0.0,0.03114651648579452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10364301578893556,0.0,0.07663722717160104,0.0,0.09096796824186658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12999575458513654,0.026479346328638187,0.08484450586057524,0.0,0.040601765157994185,0.0,0.06736926227561983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06191488867030837,0.0,0.0,0.07013376801714105,0.0,0.035192638539332424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0794913846200026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1004623240424617 alcoholism,abrubt-sceptic,2019/05/31,"Some sort of clarity Went out with my 'friends' tonight. They made me realise I have a very specific relationship with alchohol. I drink to pass out, nothing more nothing less. It's a feeling I have that despite the shit morning after it's the only time I have a decent sleep and feel 'happy' Basically I'm asking if anyone else struggles to stop once they start? It doesn't make things feel good it just makes it bearable. much love you to you the internet. Hope I get one reply on my lurker graduation",3.381569301260022,5.700792701030928,4.3061168384879736,83.38627720504012,75.59793814432992,6.785337915234822,28.30355097365407,7.793537801064563,1.9024052691867133,400,17,74,6,9,129,72,97,0.059000000000000004,0.7759999999999999,0.165,0.9108,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,2,0,1,7,1,1,6,0,4,4,2,3,0,17,17,2,0,2,2,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,7,5,1,1,3,1,0,2,1,2,0,1,2,3,12,5,10,15,4,10,0,0,0,1,8,3,1,4,5,47,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13267841034415573,0.1944224686200875,0.0,0.0,0.17739170314700664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18588388003922487,0.0,0.0,0.15851273071540908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2878316361722877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14660126152711078,0.0,0.09913713994860576,0.0,0.0,0.15915425513641984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20199361895136808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884656986608439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17125781393604286,0.17954711844815954,0.2533207213083302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13948892233627186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3641426765224778,0.0,0.0,0.20207877330683124,0.1285802845436527,0.14431429392221434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20372171400871047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19477682035417584,0.0,0.0,0.18988817789659698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13430683487438505,0.0,0.0,0.15864045111476865,0.0,0.1983690928946294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12606222717098373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11064541677504183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15656456440745947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17590120956851885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Tiny_meatball,2019/05/31,"Im so uncomfortable around drunk people (Sorry my english) I have a drinking problem. But When Im sober, I cant stand people who has drinking or used drugs. My parents drink When I grew up. My dad died early. My boyfriend drink only on the weekends because of work, But When he do, and Im trying to be sober, I Get some kind of trauma. I get so anxious and feel so uncomfertable! I cant stand it. I can feel it already when hes 3-4 beers in. My heart pounding and I shout myself down. When Im drinking myself, I dont care. Are there anyone who feel the same?",-0.293192090395479,1.9145060084745784,1.878,95.60965536723164,90.61016949152544,3.8246327683615817,19.731073446327684,5.2151,-0.3255407909604524,431,14,95,2,15,144,71,118,0.18,0.82,0.0,-0.9593,1,0,7,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,1,10,4,0,0,3,0,10,9,1,1,0,14,17,14,1,1,3,2,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,4,7,0,3,8,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,4,17,2,8,16,2,15,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,2,7,58,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13670445273595566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1399489262942273,0.0,0.0866196447266983,0.0,0.0,0.11027929650532142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07551598343370833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263037242387116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1285676864995268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451862167656699,0.6067752699046072,0.1436612523960652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879120649823647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12944417738040004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14679817338519133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5352458183021097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1290017608015796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09421617907616987,0.0,0.0,0.13755387076424244,0.0,0.0,0.17176532709298553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1185362495134816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13867330706777078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08410626049579062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10699238289418016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09018597835752773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,WestFromTheEast,2019/05/31,"How to deal with insomnia and nightmares during withdrawal. At the moment, I don't have the financial resources to check into rehab. Thankfully, my tolerance isn't high and five cans of beers can knock me out. I usually drink 5 - 6 beers a night, sometimes more. However, it's been going on for months, so when I stop, I experience symptoms. The two big ones I've experienced so far have been insomnia and nightmares every time I sleep. In fact, what triggered me to write this post is that, moments ago, I tried to take a nap, but the nightmares kept me from sleeping. The nightmares sometimes feel like sleep paralysis where I know that I'm asleep and I'm trying hard to wake-up. Do you have any tips or suggestions? I've tried melatonin, but it didn't work.",4.6830470219435725,6.325612351724138,5.012978056426334,82.60028213166147,70.3103448275862,8.58307210031348,29.733542319749212,9.095868883498916,2.5062413793103455,601,24,114,12,11,190,100,145,0.026000000000000002,0.914,0.06,0.5363,1,0,3,0,0,0,23.0,0,1,0,1,5,2,0,0,7,0,12,11,4,2,1,18,20,11,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,6,7,3,2,2,4,1,1,3,0,0,3,4,3,12,2,14,16,1,20,0,0,0,0,4,9,0,1,10,67,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15051687658271065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11546937906771787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.175055671559757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16633871740730505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14306327377843964,0.0,0.0,0.16609634393909434,0.0,0.0,0.0858556520698861,0.12130468788655505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09650088229531156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15210686350091066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17940233342018402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09331728083023888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08295538436399988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13553221931159246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15934518524347846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11506043240728722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16262083817092698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5097659241156084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3358717931619874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1419598577444076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17648653721429786,0.12766797764102195,0.0,0.0,0.1563284260515659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09901136510316802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34584783339128,0.0,0.16586928984095498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18700999236206425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12361594738751093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,deltava,2019/05/31,"I don't know what to do First off I'm sorry for any grammar or spelling mistakes as I have been drinking. I've been drinking quite heavily for the past year, maybe 40 units a week. I went sober for 2 weeks and relapsed and it was 24 days which is the longest I have been sober but I gave in. My friends caught me buying alcohol and what feels like they have disowned me. I don't have many friends but I just feel regret now to be honest . They have tried to help me but I push then away. I want to make things right again but now make a big deal out of it of it if that makes any sense. I just don't know what to do, I've had mental health problems but I'm not going to go into anything specific but I just want to advise other than stop drinking. I just want to at least feel like I'm friends with them again even if it takes months to make things right. Any advise is really appreciated, thanks.",1.9954563492063504,3.565009613756616,2.8771924603174632,95.47388392857144,77.2010582010582,5.783201058201058,21.33630952380953,6.322622252153567,0.027034126984126768,703,18,163,5,16,222,106,189,0.064,0.736,0.2,0.9826,0,0,4,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,3,2,10,10,0,0,4,0,18,5,0,4,0,36,40,14,0,8,14,0,3,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,12,6,4,1,5,3,1,5,4,3,0,1,8,3,19,7,23,31,1,27,0,1,0,0,11,9,0,3,15,101,31,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.135112446770761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2579249120641647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1040389818901542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1187827086055294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08153521705911969,0.13034110300620436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3715521760533966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08350410854750788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19177648385335294,0.18063952659265545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1075390859919632,0.0,0.0,0.2930324981438785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14370321540995226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13438641935859347,0.0,0.0,0.08474162450511126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1389623907021039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1235320878434542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3375650978867908,0.1281775449663858,0.12701332118421127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12740908806007334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1009131483747528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12068926350186222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12097395206099533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13447110732987716,0.0,0.0,0.08099263291468534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21593662593273372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14152512898130964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10569897151086416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09505767437316008,0.0,0.0,0.11639736834135875,0.0,0.0,0.1679855001005029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08583590898993437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22371047702993088,0.0,0.20282487639701272,0.0,0.0,0.11719947093102125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08141510364721234 alcoholism,Modestchordz,2019/05/31,Same old me Trying to push through this feeling of emptiness it sucks like I just want the ugliness the coldness gone I want to feel nothing I want dead space is there an afterthought after this do I just cease to exist after the end will it all be fine after I’m gone will they smile more will they laugh more I don’t know I could make things worse but when I think about it that’s all I’m doin now making things worse I don’t ever make things better. People don’t believe I can get better when I tell them they shrug it off laugh in my face I’ve said the same Excuse over and over it’s lost all meaning all training thought is wandering I can’t seem to concentrate on anything I just see me and blackness emptiness I don’t want to cry Anymore I don’t want to laugh I don’t want to do anything but be nothing I hope it gets better but I don’t have high expectations I will be starting a 8 week dual program dealing with mental health and substance abuse I think being away from them would make me more miserable but doesn’t matter because when I’m there I’m just an asshole to everybody I don’t know why I try to be nice but I’m not four days a week three and half hrs a day I won’t see the kids but for like a. Hr a day the wife couldn’t care less she’s on her phone all the time anyway I want her to want me so bad that I get upset when she doesn’t give me the attention that I crave them whenever she does I just lash out because I’m upset that she didn’t like a post Ive ruined things for her for them I ruin things for everybody,2.267777521879317,3.4613163443113777,3.4104191616766464,93.4919622293874,75.67664670658681,6.336066328880701,22.426992169507137,6.67199483983844,0.3241643482266237,1225,32,283,10,26,396,154,334,0.16399999999999998,0.664,0.172,-0.8549,0,0,0,0,1,0,2.0,0,0,7,4,17,21,1,3,16,0,32,2,1,4,6,55,73,15,1,13,12,1,2,3,0,6,1,1,0,1,17,6,0,0,11,0,0,3,15,8,0,3,6,7,48,13,30,54,11,33,0,4,3,0,22,10,1,2,22,182,65,1,0.0,0.11531895531615526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09652421966512044,0.0,0.0,0.16018695594236085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09144380387246416,0.0,0.08126565356204074,0.11866171588619392,0.0,0.0,0.10965645895097123,0.0,0.25823878612971685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09923340701865374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07770929058935558,0.0,0.10691134154072957,0.188307468780162,0.10034193023331317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08517326797784118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08620460946229445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08803965702067823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0984249384595498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15255116368429752,0.09336685010686464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10345618077931162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10283343729081454,0.0,0.0966696627190398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10697895131531288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1426501063832492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10624610605440347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2598714658701757,0.0,0.0,0.106019819188701,0.0,0.0,0.09808474479923178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18677961014212874,0.0,0.10213041802326864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0674756770548427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09321428236422416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09258217167042944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551172311732896,0.08860467053646445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0688899705379971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08506984013352481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3233053300632749,0.12472899258930445,0.0,0.07726835804567928,0.0567533253905217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321600108136423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4592573498482672,0.0,0.1561429136904009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08782428826214113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19837314185525884,0.06913973249523622,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,hectrthewellendowed,2019/05/31,"Looking for perspectives I am looking for some perspectives to try and help me to understand my family. Please delete if not correct sub to post in. My immediate family (father, mother (divorced), step mother and sister) are all alcoholics. All apart from my step mother readily admit to this fact but continue to drink and drink together. Of course, there are many horror stories I could tell. However that is not why I am writing this. I am looking for other people’s perspectives to explain to me what it is that they get from alcohol? What is the motivation? What does it give people in return? Because I never have really been able to understand. I want to understand so I stop feeling confused and angry at my family. I am not looking necessarily to help them stop drinking, because I know that they need to want it themselves. The purpose is to be able to become more empathetic toward them. I will eventually ask them for their own reasons - however right now I feel this would just send them into a shame spiral, to an anger spiral, back to a shame spiral. Which is a path we have been down way too many times. Any comments appreciated.",5.134042016806723,7.255390280952383,6.140980392156867,73.03676470588238,70.0,9.322128851540617,29.97198879551821,9.773937934552695,3.2591736694677857,909,37,150,23,17,301,122,210,0.145,0.7490000000000001,0.106,-0.9458,2,0,5,0,1,0,27.0,1,0,7,1,6,4,1,3,6,0,19,5,0,2,5,37,37,7,0,6,6,5,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,14,6,5,2,10,3,0,3,4,4,0,0,2,6,25,0,28,31,5,21,0,0,4,0,24,8,0,3,8,113,39,1,0.2297313027658387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24551289690620215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0781125818514081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10738387831987736,0.0,0.0,0.08832459567994562,0.0,0.14004206987719414,0.12686008741653615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09171087592614097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10051970559115772,0.0,0.0,0.3375738256351867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3248553400279082,0.0,0.11615904933171885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060012561942648965,0.11018959947805994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15398404971591273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06312715800375121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3858328700324435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2329114832507975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08517142504305089,0.08859147158929707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15926675946921295,0.0,0.0,0.1260879917107148,0.0,0.0,0.11000954222609538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07358587757900101,0.1181010204688638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0980946386657568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1920656557990348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10039764221719732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06697908504647955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0779862373096199,0.0,0.0,0.3587375821331655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13550147450410546,0.09117500751178273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1036483841639154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08159726308588564,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,naho88,2019/05/31,"Hey advice plz I'm starting hypnotism tomorrow... I'm petrified. I am 30 years old and already tried the drugs, the psychologist, the councillor... Has anyone had any positive experiences? To be honest, I am scared that a) it doesn't work b) i don't know how to act if it does... Advice please...",1.5782142857142851,4.230184678571433,3.9657142857142884,80.87928571428574,86.14285714285714,8.200000000000001,24.07142857142857,8.841846274778883,2.4549214285714287,226,9,43,7,7,78,43,56,0.109,0.7509999999999999,0.14,0.2023,0,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,4,0,7,1,0,1,0,4,11,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,2,9,0,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,22,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5119519732969758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2890700082718925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.178136011441154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1831625884638748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2292355341590225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3037805908099611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2562388441260813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14396170084091325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2748740477533295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28754409855122626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2622591621781986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854106290554164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17784788227926912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19070382118549956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16868818586055712 alcoholism,Mr_Straws,2019/05/31,"Naltrexone So I was binge drinking all last night and a bit the day before. I went into work today, and I had some Valium to help the withdrawals. I decided I have had enough and got my script for Naltrexone made up and had one around midday. &#x200B; After around 15 minutes I started feeling incredibly sick. I got dizzy, light headed and had a confused/strange sense of mind. I was also feeling sick in the stomach and thew up... My head is slowly starting to feel better, but every time I try and drink water I get incredibly sick 15 minutes later and threw it all back up. &#x200B; Is this normal? Because i'm not taking it ever again if that's what to expect",4.334651162790699,6.017555527131788,5.174333333333333,80.9415,71.24806201550388,7.020465116279071,27.62868217054264,7.554174236665415,1.7093993798449612,529,19,94,6,10,172,87,129,0.09,0.8590000000000001,0.051,-0.7759999999999999,0,0,2,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,2,7,1,0,0,5,0,9,9,3,1,3,26,22,12,0,3,3,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,5,11,3,0,4,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,11,4,12,1,13,11,5,21,0,0,0,0,1,7,0,2,12,65,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11180436331781028,0.0,0.3029637005686206,0.33976391248016496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24891742458440225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10750368007993212,0.0,0.08522562578357587,0.0,0.11896626407943135,0.0,0.0,0.1236487662154046,0.15263406628985296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09016455867368037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.273917121839587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14445898047903755,0.0,0.0,0.12646429064880355,0.11779422375363965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21207329365530544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0730438810412182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22363437105577752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28696657287171445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09371031868663536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11396213530948013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13228965822515967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14116616995326767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1312002857819697,0.13698210232299585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09473748197014274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19791356649330266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1051181755263844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08152313719017905,0.0,0.1325215847979835,0.0,0.0,0.0949204176008995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1296033659372275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10178184925806626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33976391248016496,0.0 alcoholism,xoxfxjx,2019/05/31,My brother is thinking of going to rehab my older brother has apparently been struggling with alcoholism for the last few years. my dad and i found out about this from him within the last couple months. his initial plan was to just get his drinking under control (i.e. only drink a couple beers each night like the rest of us instead of 30 throughout the day) but that is not working. he claims he plans on going to rehab within the next few days as he has no control over is urge to drink and has been drinking at work again after trying to stop. i'm just at a complete loss for what to do here. what should i be doing for him and how can i best support his efforts?,6.768345864661652,5.984537112781954,6.6365413533834605,81.32293233082709,65.09022556390977,8.201503759398497,31.781954887218053,6.1826913282559595,1.7427774436090226,528,17,102,2,7,167,89,133,0.07400000000000001,0.848,0.078,0.3919,1,0,6,0,0,0,10.0,1,0,0,9,7,5,0,1,7,0,14,8,0,3,0,17,21,6,0,1,4,3,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,4,6,6,3,2,5,0,2,2,2,0,0,4,0,12,3,25,15,5,22,0,1,0,0,12,8,0,0,13,79,16,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1556974862627499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15289186477679806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15275239199874993,0.0,0.3268057325622439,0.0,0.3224047369634577,0.0,0.18791500918536905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5708799468847308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597407273835414,0.0,0.0,0.07611661266192303,0.0,0.16559710035571587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.237512344301159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07117640161845279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11628775814760135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.154942155199465,0.13671947864276904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11080322891855417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12180272475356398,0.0,0.15230602189840442,0.0,0.0,0.16532641841600262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09335177969811699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09891342789081284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1752462125581872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2121269977869527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09381909131731732 alcoholism,bylandandsea30,2019/05/31,"It’s much harder to stop this time around. Hey r/alcoholism After a little over a year of being sober, I relapsed and haven’t stopped 8 months in. I keep saying today is the day and then I wake up hungover, shaking, and just looking like a mess at my job. Was in a very toxic relationship with someone who was very unstable and situations pushed me over the edge. I went back to drink, became very codependent and now that the relationship is over, I sit around feeling sorry for myself and if you asked me if I would be in this position a year ago, I’d say there’s no way. I’d bet anything on it too. Now I’m in this vicious cycle and I don’t know how to break it. I tell myself “I need the company” when I’m feeling alone and go to a bar then before I know it, I have no idea how I got so hammered. I feel like I’ve lost passion, motivation, and drive and that feeds the cycle more and more. Has anyone been in this position but with some success? It felt easy when I quit before, now it seems like the hardest thing ever. Ive has some shameful benders and wake up with 2 day hangovers and say “no more” only to go out again. Where do I even start?",3.1735735294117653,4.005875308333336,4.5675490196078465,87.46058823529411,73.0,7.313725490196079,25.367647058823533,7.510576382923642,1.080345588235294,894,27,196,10,17,298,138,240,0.10800000000000001,0.797,0.095,0.3871,1,1,2,0,0,0,24.0,0,1,0,4,19,10,1,2,12,0,15,6,2,3,1,43,34,23,0,4,4,0,4,3,0,1,0,3,0,0,14,19,3,3,9,2,1,6,5,5,0,0,7,8,22,5,26,24,6,48,0,1,1,1,10,17,0,6,25,131,36,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1109169719079608,0.13372202965601745,0.0,0.12959317686744445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08749126297442966,0.0,0.10296833603569784,0.22277798440815544,0.11697625943255327,0.0,0.0,0.09621445025254044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21294663937998026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16139230654431302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1225762005215005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08264478326363632,0.11318395977054077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18980294764904265,0.08939029937432598,0.12014093178184727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14222439228946884,0.0,0.10007498372477044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14125243441406388,0.0,0.0,0.12416860885986775,0.11121806144686504,0.0,0.0,0.13753235452885842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18339126307991907,0.1254094885069005,0.0,0.0,0.10507463179919274,0.0,0.13659020719053655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0998746698928926,0.0,0.0919822746932702,0.09277961336429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09516423815876507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13308729012029608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26867777519649416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29851652034249426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11391034228047653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14064727561704005,0.0,0.0,0.10601916208531692,0.0,0.0,0.14006872014404112,0.08856508439299161,0.0,0.0,0.20922248602258373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1093659572196847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08312839624736018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07296218903188698,0.0,0.11860516233912215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30972706354075136,0.0,0.0993194835140265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11599339292624745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08888617886651648,0.0,0.0,0.1611545518501595 alcoholism,sprod2,2019/05/31,"Detoxing with gabapentin on hour 36ish I was socialized with drinking in the Marine Corps, I was in the infantry and we drank a lot. When I got out O was diagnosed with PTSD and Anxiety Disorder. I stayed sober for about a year and then move from California to Richmond Virginia. When I got to Richmond I started drinking, 7 years later I was engaged and it ended due to alcohol and I lost being in my step son's life. Since October I have been drinking a lot more. Switching from just beer to hard alcohol, beer, and recreational drug usage. In March I managed to not drink for 30 days. But I picked it back up and went even harder than before. Memorial day this year was particularly rough not having my ex and her son around and drank in the weeks leading up to it extremely hard. My mental health went down hill and I was contemplating ending my life. Saturday night some friend came and picked me up out of worry. All we did until Tuesday was drink. Tuesday I called out of work from a hangover and drank all day. Wednesday morning I woke up in a cold sweat, with shakes and anxiety. I was done feeling like this. I went to the Va hospital. Something told me if I didn't stop and start taking care of myself I would not live to see 40. I swallowed my pride and admitted my problem and was prescribed gabapentin to prevent seizures. I'm a day and a half, maybe more into my detox. I dont like the way gabapentin make me feel. I had stopped taking care of myself and doing chores. I had trash piled up in my room and cleaned my room today. My anxiety is through the roof and my depression is coming on pretty strong. I keep telling myself that as long as I live like the way I was my depression will never get better. I am close to financial ruin because of the life style I have lived these passed years. I told my parents what was going on and they dont think I can do it. All my friends drink and they just tell me to slow down, but I can't. I dont have an off switch and cannot drink responsibly. I lack much of a support system but I am not going to fail myself. I know I have to rebuild a support system from the ground up. Has anyone ever experienced something similar before, and do you have any advice. I do plan on finding an AA meeting once I am done with my gabapentin regimen.",3.3759121621621584,5.0728839276315805,4.1735040303461375,87.09160028449504,73.75877192982456,7.122712185870083,27.01730678046468,7.824948511530503,1.5347279042200093,1805,67,365,25,37,578,227,456,0.055999999999999994,0.852,0.092,0.9399,2,0,14,0,0,0,40.0,2,1,2,8,9,20,0,1,20,0,43,24,1,4,5,74,77,34,0,4,10,4,5,3,2,2,10,0,4,0,9,39,15,4,6,9,0,12,11,7,1,1,31,8,66,13,61,43,10,80,0,5,1,0,20,29,0,4,37,251,75,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06971038271545384,0.0,0.152476629534957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048512087776498715,0.0,0.1637194542904214,0.0,0.0,0.049880984181940674,0.0,0.0,0.0635056846738831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05485429410847263,0.0,0.04348680471993988,0.0,0.12140627063086995,0.0,0.0,0.06309240560961697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07284377599538919,0.08159133347445019,0.14546709561669466,0.0,0.0,0.06145111884850805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1840276803908208,0.0,0.12288612689416492,0.07240627206596263,0.0,0.0,0.08175919388209993,0.0,0.0,0.1460064866017624,0.25082178776330233,0.4891865676642038,0.08272909316282602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263680704311016,0.0,0.0,0.04711788339251862,0.0645290411296701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07214097733876668,0.0509636729145498,0.0,0.0,0.06520137280412437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11023067262138732,0.0,0.037271008122513764,0.0,0.08108572697310941,0.0,0.11411056396893407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12780914859231385,0.0,0.0,0.07582864779969307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07025327258317672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06340823272146101,0.0,0.0,0.039205338724873764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1511637987951872,0.1045560023001279,0.0,0.18897750963670748,0.06313162679426249,0.0,0.0,0.07787353539827635,0.12129753671770255,0.0,0.0,0.04761847409748986,0.0,0.07166831621763105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0718916309482695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0758206939815365,0.05244142366918257,0.0,0.05502003831040566,0.0,0.0,0.0669456064950402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0759723309065711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0792120825870931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07257609549810609,0.0,0.06826055227569075,0.08338996322411225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05684691722476135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059011289316862975,0.0,0.0,0.07271980962991574,0.0,0.10983850586791293,0.0,0.0,0.10098639392073204,0.07603650504150176,0.0,0.11928303651130184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1619063715044008,0.0,0.0,0.10727415679506068,0.0,0.12470460241755252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045710322854660417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06761980597152106,0.13633247438358462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11324910437216075,0.057222806406821175,0.0,0.0,0.1983923103083366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051934701118649534,0.07244690538172255,0.0,0.050676261049399485,0.0,0.0,0.1837565804492936 alcoholism,Quelene,2019/09/11,"Dad drinking heavy, dont know what to do Hello, so i moved away for 2 years and came back home. My dad's drinking habits have become worse. Before when we were a huge family he only drank beer when we had sauna nights each saturday, or just a couple after work. I mean would be better if he hadn't drank at all but still. Now it has gotten so bad. He secretly hides his hard liquor. We own a cafe so he steals from the cabinet which is for customers. I honestly don't know what to do anymore. We have to keep building the 3 houses my mom worked hard for. They need renovating and one house needs a total new roof etc. My dad is just drinking the money away. My mom's health has gone even worse, she can't even make 30 pies anymore without tiring her hands out. She can't even stand because of Plantar fascia. I can't rely on my older sister because she isn't that close with parents anymore, she hardly even visits anymore. Last time i told her about dad, she did talk to mom but mom lied about sister calling. I guess mom didn't want sister to worry. I got some therapy numbers from my new school. Also mom pushed dad to see the family doctor, should i secretly call the doctor and tell her to talk to dad about the drinking problem? My mom has had countless deep conversations with dad about his drinking problems but none seems to work. I know alcoholism is a sickness but if the person really wants to overcome it then he should show some signs. But he's just lazying around, eating+drinking the money away and my mom keeps getting older and older. I have tried to talk to dad about this but he doesn't listen. I'm the youngest in the family, maybe that's why.",2.812829808660624,4.8948622114803655,3.5432114803625367,89.31109113796578,76.43202416918429,6.105176233635451,21.90946626384693,7.0316486544052195,0.6006192547834845,1316,36,263,14,30,416,176,331,0.11599999999999999,0.861,0.023,-0.9844,1,0,8,0,0,0,33.0,4,0,1,4,23,6,0,0,15,0,28,16,1,1,2,54,52,21,0,11,13,20,4,0,0,3,6,1,1,1,8,16,10,2,7,8,2,5,11,4,0,1,13,6,33,2,35,35,8,34,0,0,1,0,56,11,0,7,17,159,41,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06736458602084683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050408573740794715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25005268249807605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0561139654132476,0.0,0.0,0.1776686348939242,0.04846955005961567,0.05263107730538488,0.07685035028024524,0.06961652425655128,0.0536376176882139,0.0,0.0,0.055748789803578336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12873030651558798,0.07209454221487882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06974634645048686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12903672509117364,0.0,0.0,0.07387582804970055,0.3704981905545412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07030000003046975,0.16653446333887426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17826962064646334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03293286374981343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05041435481501294,0.0,0.06943948002517565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16939927930314508,0.0,0.0,0.06700260207910506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06322862619703476,0.0,0.0,0.14546643088658456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11205571268521387,0.0,0.0,0.10392614610107334,0.05138143566970465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042075940480916764,0.0,0.06332651065985173,0.06866292283447338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.590600865299078,0.0,0.06699557404249333,0.0,0.09347839337373344,0.0,0.12175800082416292,0.0,0.059153498883171236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042713729627298073,0.04794048911794995,0.0,0.0,0.06999222330141154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055039192354940036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12063078413081155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040381440181400836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06379416138450911,0.050230242589792376,0.05738413536615027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050339340117432234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15199394936094165,0.05509482956420394,0.0,0.07208531107548752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03675585594947378,0.07244875114330013,0.0,0.06023205474870725,0.0,0.04279620873597658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07435862514929904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056878726770915065,0.0,0.0,0.06076289634238725,0.0,0.1376693458523289,0.0640144762435521,0.12847484400436815,0.04477781751982539,0.0,0.0,0.04059207633434455 alcoholism,chemicalmistakes,2019/09/11,"Always find myself here every year or so, think I may have fucked it this time Self medicated since I was 14, had a very successful career, however, I guess I just wasnt cut out for the narcissistic corporate life despite smashing it for a few years. I have never successfully quit any substance, I have simply switched to another. I'm just over a 3 year daily coke addiction and alcohol is trying to replace it which I know will kill me. I'm 24 but feel 44. Be good to talk to some of you x",4.0532467532467535,5.092038191919193,5.65904761904762,79.68000000000005,71.12121212121212,9.293506493506491,28.284271284271284,9.606745405546679,2.5065544011544008,387,14,78,9,7,132,77,99,0.079,0.8370000000000001,0.084,0.1128,1,0,1,0,0,1,9.0,0,1,0,3,4,6,3,0,4,0,10,6,0,0,1,14,17,4,1,0,4,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,5,2,2,0,4,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,3,1,10,3,9,11,2,7,0,0,0,1,3,2,1,4,5,48,15,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2325967295785201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22801973372497045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1775347769060092,0.0,0.0,0.14509388581026586,0.2237292915245724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17976719435789354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10788254235166872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1950095527510397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19725028738131575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17895842755720218,0.0,0.0,0.23504296070996494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.236054106707617,0.0,0.11725850609248265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1507043156067461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2149403745343573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16455839197573732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269373904469616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22258372644056626,0.0,0.0,0.1764957491234866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17149277737891988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13671414009597505,0.0,0.0,0.12441344898696112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14485920120396464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17604649171032855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4121955607759512 alcoholism,UnclePaul38,2019/09/11,"Anxiety and Alcohol Around 5 months ago, I went through a depressive episode that lasted about a week. I went to a Psych Nurse Practitioner and was prescribed Wellbutrin, which caused me to experience Anxiety that was simply too much to handle, I only lasted on Wellbutrin for about a month or so. As a result, I started drinking whiskey to deal with the anxiety which I never really experienced before. I'm 44 years old and never was really a big drinker but the whiskey did help subside the anxious feelings. I wasn't getting drunk from the whiskey as I'd only drink at most 2 glasses over a 60 minute period. This pattern has continued since then, as I basically drink everyday. After work I go to the pub next door and I'll have 2 drinks (very rare for me to have more than that) and then I head home and I feel fine for the rest of the night. The next day of course, the anxiety returns and the cycle continues. I don't like the feeling of being completely wasted or even drunk, but the alcohol does seem to take the edge off. I know I have to get out of this pattern, as it could get worse, especially since I have a family history of alcoholism. Has anyone else gone through what I'm dealing with?",5.661816881258942,6.4194893733905625,6.268858369098716,77.78454649499288,67.28326180257511,9.990157367668099,32.700715307582264,10.047579312681364,3.235606809728184,956,40,181,22,15,312,136,233,0.106,0.845,0.049,-0.8642,0,0,11,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,1,6,3,0,0,21,0,14,13,1,2,2,26,30,18,0,1,4,0,3,1,0,0,3,0,2,0,9,11,12,0,5,10,0,4,4,1,0,0,8,4,16,2,35,20,4,34,0,1,0,0,3,7,0,4,24,117,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09335835363074096,0.33765982747544393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3222729665154859,0.11897974622782975,0.0,0.0736410319166017,0.1079110850048485,0.0,0.0937556511494862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08961815005286489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1081909461804778,0.0,0.0,0.11042427544766176,0.0,0.0,0.08408812444769047,0.0,0.0,0.06792161636069467,0.21715716750954545,0.0907105316899211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09216478883051647,0.0,0.0,0.41268751132134096,0.0,0.0,0.08797995869503054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06956177011454037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10302154526650817,0.099284757610656,0.0,0.15975635109728906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16507345697326856,0.0,0.0598548395339148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10808700091062244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0705926631095468,0.0,0.10564288188749074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05788020520623344,0.1716970070723717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05145322096006032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1681281879629995,0.0,0.07742109778925492,0.0,0.16245599254780366,0.0,0.2240144982389552,0.09883412738200124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11051388110100213,0.0,0.0,0.16019868639036272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13493925052986727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09587786101521048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1742408379182005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07454486293547914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07918628445217908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08689866011080398,0.0,0.0,0.0844800194316914,0.0,0.0,0.19526231214865813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0766730056629938,0.0,0.10732838578820623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06782155779241454 alcoholism,ajuman,2019/09/11,"Headaches, Nightmares and unable to sleep! Today I'm about 60 hours sober and for the last two night all I have been having is terrible realistic nightmares. I would wake up normal when I drank the night before but these few mornings were nothing but terrible headaches. Does anyone have any advice on at least lowering the frequency of these side effects? EDIT: A bit of info, I would normally drink about 500mL of rum every night.",4.458846153846154,7.397784564102569,4.2483974358974415,81.96951923076925,75.15384615384616,6.976923076923077,26.41666666666667,8.07648339933343,2.01571282051282,348,13,57,6,8,106,59,78,0.115,0.885,0.0,-0.8398,1,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,4,0,8,4,2,1,1,11,10,5,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,0,1,3,0,4,0,10,5,4,11,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,7,37,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19369813791024024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13479629149077685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13859992409753558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1686704880664282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21640473167656785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1734635216796193,0.0,0.0,0.19417998450210414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1670087681215804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19520661846036846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1615756292969591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5580476887764803,0.3884267230541675,0.19019728679207829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19836299647561284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18788923532379007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19363198558171146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2816193806190615,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,koshi2017,2019/09/11,62 hours since alcohol or cocaine. Still fuckin sweaty. Almost there,4.381515151515149,6.063724727272728,1.9309090909090896,87.74969696969698,119.9090909090909,5.103030303030304,21.84848484848485,6.42735559955562,1.4771575757575754,56,2,8,1,3,15,11,11,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,2,3,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5073696048785643,0.4753993901636624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4675388649482257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.392722932496448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3791406228982892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,unscarred1976,2019/09/11,Mouthwash drinker I think a guy new to program Im working with might be drinking mouthwash. Each time Ive met (5 times now) I’ve smelled it. At first I didn’t think anything of it but now Im concerned. As a hardcore alcoholic with 4 years sober I actually didn’t know myself drinking mouthwash was a thing until recently ... should I confront or ask him about it? He seems ok to me behaviour wise but we know how cunning and secretive we can be to protect our drinking. Dont want accuse and give him a reason to drink for real... any advice?,1.3021794871794867,3.8305097592592574,2.837037037037039,89.519358974359,85.66666666666667,5.1749287749287785,27.75213675213675,6.67199483983844,1.418768376068376,426,21,83,5,13,139,77,108,0.033,0.845,0.122,0.8811,0,0,6,0,0,0,14.0,3,0,0,2,4,3,1,0,4,1,10,5,0,2,0,22,19,8,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,4,7,5,1,7,4,0,0,3,1,0,1,4,1,12,2,12,11,1,10,0,0,0,0,11,1,0,3,9,51,16,2,0.0,0.0,0.15195684914156965,0.0,0.0,0.15216436913196113,0.0,0.16641359032024813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1058925649844238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12814141793301134,0.0,0.14557391451863896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18249858731155044,0.6101715826201464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13245238190411684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14937746323037146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1541838243401567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33640109881163044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1711554405898494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651906069969199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15039197347026145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17723947644771734,0.0,0.16010250446612892,0.15375126557697075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1417584603095309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10345112852888066,0.19955370115779705,0.0,0.0,0.18159909576087654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09184563071866106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11336347218223435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10027632559430276 alcoholism,TheSchwab777,2019/09/30,"Anyone had luck with sober October? I’ve never considered myself an alcoholic because I don’t drink a drop during the week. But for years I’ve been getting absolute blackout on the weekend. I can easily drink a 6 pack before lunch. I Take a roadie absolutely everywhere I drive. My wife doesn’t like it but I’m not hurtful to anyone but myself. I’ll drive drunk and waste money gambling online. All of this is only on the weekend. I’ll pass out drunk every Sunday wake up every Monday with extreme anxiety and sleep deprivation. Luckily it has really affected my work just my state of mind at work. I’m going to be a father in 6 weeks. My wife is a heavy drinker and I feel like I haven’t all taken advantage of her not drinking for me to try it myself. I feel like this is the perfect opportunity for sober October. My depression has been getting worse by the week when I have one of the most exciting days of my life coming up. I’m a big sports fan and it would be really tough with all the football and baseball playoffs. If anyone has any tips or support groups for sober October that would be great. I feel like it could change my life.",3.383684210526315,5.242131629955949,4.9240992348713215,81.03881752840252,74.1101321585903,8.126964989566428,26.04428472061211,8.841846274778883,2.092864317180617,908,32,172,19,19,305,128,227,0.12,0.68,0.2,0.9703,0,0,5,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,5,2,15,0,0,14,0,20,11,2,1,5,33,33,11,0,4,8,3,3,4,0,2,3,0,0,0,8,10,7,0,3,8,2,5,6,4,0,1,4,3,21,11,23,23,4,26,0,3,0,0,5,8,0,4,15,106,29,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13997091950116322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08906652191496554,0.0,0.10019442597925124,0.0,0.0,0.27473930567052063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07984027534425557,0.0,0.11144886521454762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13855267531322946,0.11282213721321765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1045717417976893,0.0,0.0,0.08446712035979237,0.0,0.11280734777370903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38491272246064057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22070177067015115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19867252370314398,0.2807026433137667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13685657385147146,0.0,0.0744353006586125,0.0,0.0,0.14439882823071154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14020992033022825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18502101799410814,0.2559482910213804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1322459738457549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10101489489615348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08875108368374462,0.09961130527987487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16781005115129013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1310681620192961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14862726020168454,0.0,0.0,0.09847582813911936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08892245973403007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31517730370726244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1907006442040716,0.0,0.13347326177062033,0.18607973897637167,0.0,0.0,0.08434268782148141 alcoholism,Dwight-Shrupert,2019/09/30,"HORRIFYING “dreams” in the morning I’m a diagnosed narcoleptic (without cataplexy), but I’ve been experiencing this phenomenon from time to time and it’s the most terrifying thing I’ve ever experienced. I just to see if one of you has experienced the same. I’ve had sleep paralysis before and have woken up to hallucinations, but I was completely conscious. This experience is different. Let me explain: It only happens in the morning. And only if I’ve slept longer than usual. I will be “half-dreaming.” Like I know I’m laying in my bed, everything FEELS like I’m just sleepy and in bed, but I know they’re actually dreams, like this morning it happened and in the “half-dream,” I was laying in bed in my bedroom, but there was a TV in my bedroom. There’s not one in real life, but I felt like my dream was real. Here’s where shit gets terrifying. Every time this has happened, it starts with a low rumbling like sound, as if I’m hearing growing thunder. Then, I feel an intense vibration - so, every time this has happened, I’ve thought there was an earthquake happening, but then this extreme sense of dread overcomes me and I try to cry out “help.” But I can’t. This is where I realize it’s not real life and I feel like I’m being dragged to hell. These usually last several seconds and they always end with a high pitched ringing in my ears. Afterwords, I’m actually awake and terrified, but still groggy. I can almost choose at that point to completely wake myself up, or to fall back into this “half sleep,” but if I choose to go back to sleep, it usually happens again. I don’t know if it has anything to do with decrease in alcohol intake or what (seems to happen more then,) but it’s horrifying.",3.2512360688956434,5.467468920972647,4.755085106382982,80.50383333333333,75.59574468085106,7.912502532928065,28.595845997973647,8.745826893841286,2.436134265450861,1341,58,253,29,30,448,160,329,0.13699999999999998,0.764,0.099,-0.9647,1,0,1,0,0,0,46.0,0,1,1,0,14,10,2,1,11,0,22,11,7,0,1,57,52,31,0,5,22,0,4,6,0,1,4,5,5,0,20,14,1,0,14,4,0,3,5,4,0,4,11,13,25,6,36,37,3,42,1,1,1,0,5,21,2,10,24,166,45,0,0.0,0.0,0.16745448253215034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.091692812172726,0.08591509339574717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07139146549747435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07060509266981889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319479451217152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0730084499080257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17991679537894958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09424594072009204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08708396460389377,0.0,0.08964147297754325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07599226046646282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0776099165627536,0.14457836010770825,0.0,0.07711041905526739,0.0839276789645896,0.0,0.0,0.1301473367804978,0.12258934375552208,0.08238029231583306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04482632594501708,0.0,0.048761428921339785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5311010992023708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0967014706682958,0.0,0.057509119586459524,0.09065113107070336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414583115129965,0.0699374643016326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08773507461616648,0.1212044438330587,0.2515017261248892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1162789595916294,0.1305076902810763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0811075880560512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2929734162739614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06837052628440389,0.0781079949662928,0.0,0.09692820971443863,0.08807122376393628,0.0,0.0,0.25758225504319554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06072882433207054,0.0,0.0685190235839686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0570009028649689,0.0,0.0,0.06811465450686217,0.2001198549504873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058251745629644525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28348573297716256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08270697068737508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,a_panda1002,2019/09/30,"Substance abuse exchange: thc vs alcohol vs food? My aunt has been in AA and sober for 30+ years. However, she has been using THC, pot, CBD, etc. for pain management. She claims there is no addictive properties to marijuana so she is still sober. Fine, but I believe it is possible to abuse any drug/chemical thus negating her claim of sobriety. The problem is she is extremely judgemental of obese folks like myself. My standpoint has been food can be abused just as alcohol and drugs whether or not it is addictive like alcohol and drugs. I told her I thought she would be more understanding of obese people since she has dealt with substance abuse. Her response was, ""I got help for MY problem"" - implying obese people haven't actively gotten the help they need since they are still obese. Empathy must be too much to ask for from someone who makes up her own sobriety rules. Sometimes I wish alcohol was my drug of choice instead of food because I know a lot of skinny alcoholics.",4.9786372007366495,7.1832519834254205,5.023182320441991,80.54092449355434,70.60220994475138,9.46755064456722,31.95616942909761,9.888512548439397,3.4198947329650085,783,36,141,21,15,244,113,181,0.154,0.757,0.08900000000000001,-0.9371,1,0,9,0,4,0,24.0,0,0,2,0,7,6,0,0,3,0,23,19,1,3,1,24,34,8,0,6,7,1,0,2,0,2,15,0,0,0,3,4,13,0,3,0,1,0,4,3,1,0,9,0,23,3,18,20,5,5,0,0,0,0,18,2,0,2,5,91,26,1,0.0,0.4304842146161981,0.0,0.19804054997849352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4853588607487131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06176886707833437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08491564801832199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05537033724012853,0.0,0.0,0.1023365466667758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4213450785815308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10130167775354308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3295032038544262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07264663902432003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12176553474034718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04991888552838085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0887518431567386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07722210861098819,0.0,0.0,0.06063105777991003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06677196295785033,0.06735076869388734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09665164010930187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12594292830270246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10239941950335862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17382789211778374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1502743193707801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07696164926546496,0.0,0.08983515939328694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1450770870182615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07211045299704857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08679385772322502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09455930359993647,0.0,0.07844967454044051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10445230431088737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06452443867616307,0.0,0.0,0.05849282267975438 alcoholism,bawstongamblah,2019/09/30,"2, the magic number Posting for anyone reading out there struggling with ""tapering"" or cutting back: I went a year with ""taking a night off"" and feeling very proud and hoping to feel better right away, but this hope never really materialized into actually feeling better. Then after numerous doctors' visits, I learned that it in the medical community, they say 2 full days, or 48 hours is the time it takes for alcohol to completely leave your system. It's been hard, but taking 2 nights off instead of 1 has given amazing results so far. There's been regular anxiety, etc., but the mental clarity and energy I've started to re-experience after years of steady drinking, are a bit overwhelming but ultimately positive. Sleep is better. Chest pains seem to be subsiding. Anyways, 2 is the first step to taking a week off, and who knows, quitting for a while too. Being proud and saying, ""oh well i don't drink EVERY night"", is self-deception. Go for 2 nights!",7.788275862068964,8.113300931034484,8.353471264367817,66.1636551724138,62.678160919540225,11.327816091954027,35.79080459770115,11.00357731598739,4.277325977011493,758,32,120,19,10,253,123,174,0.064,0.696,0.24100000000000002,0.9884,0,0,3,0,0,0,33.0,0,1,1,7,8,13,1,2,10,0,11,8,2,1,1,25,26,14,0,2,6,0,4,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,6,9,3,0,6,3,0,4,2,4,1,1,4,6,5,9,22,20,3,34,0,1,0,0,6,10,0,5,18,79,11,3,0.0,0.0,0.112093421223339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12275766957813786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08787278301640293,0.0,0.0,0.0803175331605184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1079211341597088,0.08832547429264995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30477103426290897,0.1254047888243748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12043564809137818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07407957944620078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11757103099605885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2250514557768652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12810683899123,0.0,0.0,0.09678022812092484,0.0,0.0,0.11236176575528428,0.0,0.0,0.17424030724326725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09770563630850614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06528144614441403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10289808529877936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281772891693281,0.11312065395007015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06312778596386336,0.0,0.0,0.1216273494049975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11571621036938498,0.11575871140774145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08859235285676094,0.0,0.0,0.4311788195681277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12222636754194907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11001063655073563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1221749746669501,0.11489787859970332,0.0,0.07358660957767478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0980956144663828,0.0,0.182693370030774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10457041517519383,0.1198311176734324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11494974943881026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08130330801919236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12008371335817827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34546213499826417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0669797513238012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09477713488532273,0.0,0.0,0.092139213499756,0.0,0.10327904276589744,0.1064826688520626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14794089857837078 alcoholism,jungoracle,2019/09/30,"27 Years Sober Today I started drinking at 13. I got sober at 22. I am so blessed beyond belief I have met so many wonderful people along this journey; people who showed me love and generosity and people who helped me through the 12 Steps. I am go grateful. Thank you AA. If you are new to AA or just trying to stop drinking, there is hope and there is a solution. You don't need to do this alone.",1.03777777777778,3.342263148148149,2.487901234567904,93.25555555555556,84.18518518518519,5.0814814814814815,21.34567901234568,6.42735559955562,0.28325679012345706,309,10,66,3,9,100,57,81,0.047,0.669,0.284,0.9742,1,1,2,0,0,0,9.0,0,3,0,0,6,4,0,0,2,0,8,3,0,0,0,12,17,7,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,4,2,1,2,3,0,3,1,0,2,0,2,0,10,4,8,15,0,11,2,0,0,1,8,3,0,4,5,42,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2318317392417647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.438557869225066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272139823410473,0.0,0.1790260729176794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1500358846194375,0.0,0.0,0.22232459105456528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2020252158285187,0.0,0.0,0.22693961155086756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16597524385425608,0.0,0.21618700481084266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4655494356367448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15843579150715986,0.0,0.0,0.187141074844992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2060826922832584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21217506764461472,0.0,0.0,0.15197332612666115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24274598483244805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14414624652794955 alcoholism,neptultra,2019/09/30,Any children of alcoholics here that seem to have fallen into this? My mom was an alcoholic. Just wanted to talk strategy because I'm doing ok now I haven't drank in like a week but I want some tips. Fall and winter are tough I wanna drink,0.3332653061224491,2.771863959183676,2.3114285714285714,90.95857142857146,93.08163265306122,5.248979591836736,17.20408163265306,6.868970318607317,0.2676448979591837,190,5,38,3,7,63,44,49,0.11,0.8240000000000001,0.066,-0.2512,0,0,3,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,1,5,4,0,0,0,9,10,2,0,3,2,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,2,4,0,1,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,2,0,4,2,6,8,1,7,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,2,4,25,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6307678695813351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20068561555336226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17989694061152744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28909645278047946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14417633929417564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34563046362957284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2686579919118944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2371990618284841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3481282550738581,0.0,0.23672026197575896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,pwberg,2019/09/30,"Help in Minneapolis I'm sorry if this is not an appropriate post. Looking for help, I thought someone here might have insight. I’m in Minneapolis. Severe alcoholic, vodka 24/7. Some periods of sobriety – almost a year recently, but as soon as I started again, I was right back where I started. I’m not partying / falling down or having fun – just maintaining. I drink enough to stop the shakes / palpitations, etc. so I can function. This worked for me for years – but I crossed a line at some point. If you’ve ever been in this state, and have advice, I’d love to hear it. For me, it always ends up spiraling to detox. I’ve been through multiple detoxes and one 30 day. Once again, I can’t keep it up and am at the point of needing to detox. I just moved back to Minneapolis from the East Coast (grew up here). I’m now on Medicaid. I have no idea where to go, am not in the best state of mind, and thought someone might have some insight. I went to HCMC ER a few weeks ago, and they gave me a Benzo IV, etc. – was released in 8 hours. Started shaking about 4 hours later – and of course, drinking, if that makes sense. My fault, but the ER route may not work. Thanks in advance.",2.426266420361252,4.4068364008620735,3.6720197044334975,88.4130459770115,77.23275862068967,6.8328407224958925,25.702791461412147,7.793537801064563,1.3344032840722493,903,34,192,14,21,294,139,232,0.105,0.828,0.067,-0.7888,0,0,4,0,0,0,42.0,0,0,1,4,15,7,0,2,10,0,17,8,0,1,1,37,36,16,0,4,13,0,0,0,0,3,5,1,0,0,7,6,3,2,5,3,0,9,6,3,2,1,8,2,16,4,33,25,8,53,0,0,1,1,6,19,0,11,22,124,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12074852380966675,0.1095349452702189,0.1320558517586359,0.12373478976657327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10281788246178904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1900312343788356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12967624535693426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07969067835279099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2420977995449637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1094439405354811,0.12767804021745335,0.2756203795205661,0.0,0.11177368644016357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07022613743207949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13926931427688266,0.0,0.1656490970431403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24337777607226255,0.0,0.0,0.13949242759411465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10983228323029844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10376540078071607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11152430189225594,0.0,0.08248212431727317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26217073097845545,0.12476773589892945,0.0,0.0,0.1313324718050275,0.0,0.09162357840495804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315951290181962,0.0837323923578388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23362205544866704,0.0,0.11834330483905145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12200778972235585,0.0,0.0,0.10552578887056333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1395958635140129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2093963244190617,0.0,0.0,0.1383234624163589,0.2623846875270417,0.0,0.0,0.10330778582199117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11376415708658574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19619724829040489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09911822504365968,0.0,0.0,0.11454811402917152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17991691482086722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15914656443742076 alcoholism,TashDee267,2019/09/30,"Went to my 1st meeting and confirmed for me that I’m NOT an alcoholic. My psychiatrist wanted me to go to an AA Meeting. Well based on the experience I just had I can tell you with 100% certainty that I’m NOT an alcoholic. I honestly was so nervous because I was expecting to relate to what was being said. And I related to absolutely zero. I’m really surprised. I was completely open minded. But not one thing resonated with me. Not only have I never done anything remotely like these people, I don’t even think the way they think about alcohol. I don’t get an urge to drink. Ive never had a problem drinking until I became mentally unwell. I drink because I feel like shit and want to stop the feeling. If I don’t feel like shit I have no urge to drink. I don’t feel relief, because I was really hoping this was the answer. I’m so far removed from their experiences, like not even close, not even the same world. Do I have a problem with alcohol. Yep. Should I stop whilst I’m mentally ill. Yep. Am I an alcoholic. Nope. So my original feeling that I’m not an alcoholic but use alcohol to self medicate is correct. So at least I’ve learnt something I suppose.",1.5873143236074228,4.047965543103448,4.013275862068969,82.18238726790452,83.22413793103449,7.707161803713528,26.16445623342176,8.617729084823388,2.3882746684350136,914,40,175,24,26,317,119,232,0.076,0.804,0.12,0.547,0,0,12,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,2,0,10,14,2,1,13,2,23,15,2,2,3,43,44,11,0,8,11,0,5,4,0,1,9,1,0,1,7,8,11,2,8,4,0,3,15,5,2,2,11,6,30,9,19,31,2,17,0,0,0,0,8,6,2,2,11,121,37,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6529797418543447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07182942711909593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1596272871832553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09151832999928776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08932448788199472,0.0,0.3420305154331083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17295591046991746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1707660700242611,0.0,0.0,0.22067361546983955,0.1247151161467013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04560364119259646,0.0,0.0496069812032914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08669527992533142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17057527744724832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08793205744878217,0.17592870746820702,0.0,0.08813457433140992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1346416001017695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05914765307744953,0.06638538576363405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06051353181424399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16704295861043222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11183605063093448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08302953649885966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09105895094365972,0.0,0.17919686270294866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0671974822127962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14595099707375198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07629232787347398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057989332543035274,0.11185944610940034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0753875892850455,0.0,0.0,0.10296778581554793,0.06928403310415471,0.0,0.0,0.07848112803518517,0.08091554437282579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Enzo500,2019/09/30,What can I expect? I'm going into detox tomorrow. What can I expect? Any pointers are helpful. Thank you!,-0.11899999999999974,0.9097651000000012,2.490000000000002,84.33500000000002,123.0,3.6,19.0,5.6839178017228535,0.5813000000000001,82,3,13,1,5,28,15,20,0.0,0.716,0.284,0.7142,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,3,6,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,6,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,9,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4712543017034249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3938399623087212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4644939656480566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6380084819900315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,yosofun,2019/06/20,"Alcohol-triggered Depression I am wondering if this might be the right forum for discussions about alcohol-triggered depression? &#x200B; [https://www.reddit.com/r/depression/comments/c3248q/repeated\_alcohol\_triggered\_depression\_in\_the\_bf/](https://www.reddit.com/r/depression/comments/c3248q/repeated_alcohol_triggered_depression_in_the_bf/)",55.411428571428566,71.53012157142857,23.663809523809523,-62.12714285714282,-23.857142857142854,16.133333333333336,54.61904761904761,11.855464076750405,11.36444761904762,327,10,10,7,3,65,18,21,0.316,0.684,0.0,-0.8126,0,0,4,0,0,0,39.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,3,0,9,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5575988035889576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2826613640534704,0.31699550400769866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4493879327137011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27675048849183104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2227885127330569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28291122287819603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31699550400769866,0.0 alcoholism,hungrylemon,2019/06/20,"Drinking my anger down so I won't be bitter, angry and murderous. I grew up in a toxic household for 21 years and I'd either kill myself or my family if I didn't escape to alcohol.",5.4692307692307685,4.0905878461538485,8.050897435897442,72.07326923076926,67.97435897435898,10.876923076923077,29.756410256410252,10.125756701596842,2.856425641025641,142,4,28,3,2,53,33,39,0.311,0.5720000000000001,0.11699999999999999,-0.8696,0,0,2,0,0,1,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,4,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,5,3,5,2,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,2,4,0,0,1,1,6,0,5,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,1,21,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4967092410214927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4553081619008543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4381538985538183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5142110038781561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29930354535659504 alcoholism,curiousquestioner16,2019/06/20,"Having bad cravings lately I [f25] have been sober for 9 months. I am having really bad cravings and urges to drink recently...for the first time since I've been sober. I think it's because it's the summer, the weather is nice, and I just really want a nice, cold margarita! I know it's not worth it to give in. My problem is that i just dont know how to stop at 1 drink...or 2 or 10. I think I'm good and I'm not. I've been having thoughts of, ""oh just buy some alcohol, drink some while the bf is at work, and you'll be fine when he comes home."" Such a terrible thought because he would totally leave me if he found out. I'm not going to drink, but it's just been hard lately.",0.8530298273155381,2.342107761904764,2.7873469387755097,95.21891679748822,80.22448979591837,6.427838827838827,20.151229722658293,7.321109707123232,0.2589794871794875,519,13,127,7,13,174,86,147,0.11,0.826,0.064,-0.6155,0,0,5,0,0,0,26.0,0,1,0,2,7,8,0,0,6,0,16,4,0,1,1,31,30,10,0,4,10,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,6,6,4,1,7,4,2,2,4,4,0,1,7,2,10,4,10,20,3,15,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,4,9,69,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15680392159232265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24501774022805164,0.17888384701060803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12639020748386684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17196007922453993,0.5749367994219127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1248038268199209,0.0,0.16087589525677562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14075155753180854,0.08338694272903621,0.12306559079141613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1314363766812938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14717668630104772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16127195041404455,0.0,0.3310233653341512,0.1553601125300261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11711413554841685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14039557825394022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18799100696707127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1213720635263891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12266829324243568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18803033363794766,0.0,0.2329658059666124,0.08555626472010704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08654194077593938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10681721949083914,0.0,0.0,0.10422891020633884,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Anenlou,2019/06/20,"Why won't I choose my health over drinking? Soo, I'm a student, and I'm having fun living my student life. Lately, I've been going out for drinks about 3 times a week. It's always the typical ""oh, I'll only have one or two glasses"", and it ends up with me getting pretty drunk throughout the evening. I've never really had trouble functioning. Always was were I was supposed to be in the morning (with the occasional hangover). But lately, I've been struggling a bit with my health. And drinking alcohol makes me feel like absolute shit the next morning. I feel like I need multiple days to feel human again. Now I'm thinking, why shouldn't I just stop drinking, or at least stick with the actual one or two glasses a night. But I noticed that I literally can't. I don't want to stop going out and hanging with my friends, but when I'm out I also want to drink. So why is feeling completely ill multiple days a week, not making me choose to stop drinking? :/",3.1491842105263186,4.979466905263159,4.4433552631578985,84.35661184210528,74.68421052631578,7.065789473684213,28.190789473684212,7.865858978985527,1.851394736842105,752,31,145,11,16,248,108,190,0.073,0.8079999999999999,0.11900000000000001,0.3499,0,0,7,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,0,0,8,7,1,1,11,0,14,13,1,2,1,37,31,13,0,4,8,0,4,2,1,2,5,0,0,1,3,12,8,3,7,7,0,3,6,3,0,4,6,4,16,4,19,22,2,27,0,0,0,0,2,7,1,3,19,87,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.09770449431296398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10699982120514144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08006741666611104,0.166618819137384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10930714169297256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1049758671436835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291406359038148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5884878463276865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08867825176491499,0.0,0.0,0.06612954541218201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20249848649868032,0.14305415607482194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07735390202278089,0.0,0.05230954038540121,0.0,0.1138031226801549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21284971425564345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2258836421040925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07071903190718949,0.09782896859808657,0.0,0.0884094382402159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13366424035035346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07423909184595938,0.07722015209634135,0.0,0.10648073582578094,0.09395758480871742,0.0,0.0,0.1139894032022871,0.0,0.0,0.13569032938794548,0.0761471875225396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10185992785581953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06414062840197482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.102773652293568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2511190787422842,0.0,0.10466910868486233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06415404626394418,0.0,0.0,0.05838186274340871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19560902130277705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11810893625283965,0.0,0.16062343647181834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27103322180205824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ashleyisaboysnametoo,2019/06/20,"Functional Alcoholic and Want to Stop This might sound privileged or conceited or maybe even pathetic. But I’ve never had a melt down moment. A lose my life if I don’t stop moment and I know if I continue this my life will be cut short by liver or kidney failure. I don’t drink at work, I don’t drink until I puke. But I drink... a lot.... - so much that hundreds of dollars are budgeted every month. I feel like shit all the time; tired, disinterested in sex; but able to make food and do laundry and chores. I’ve recently started gaining a lot of weight, I’ve gone from being able to be a model in an underwear campaign to a model for a weight loss drug. Because I’ve never been in crisis and can live my life being drunk on evenings and weekends I don’t stop. I want to stop but I get so bored and lonely that it feels like the only panacea. And as a queer man, all the spaces for us are alcohol spaces. I can’t date or make friends without drinking it seems I’ve tried AA (for sex addiction, but I feel like it would carry over) and it doesn’t work; all they talk about is their addiction and not how to get better; I don’t want to commiserate, I want to improve. I had a really great role model once for sex addiction until he developed a gaming dependency. Now I’ve gained weight, I spend hundreds of dollars on alcohol and I’m hating life because alcohol isn’t affecting my life enough to change but nearly every reason I’m unhappy is due to alcohol. Knowing I’m personally resistant to AA; that exercise and positive role models have helped in the past; what would people here recommend? I’m likely not going to have a come to Jesus moment because I’m atheist and I don’t drink while functioning in society but I don’t want to die before I’m 50. How do I make a friend who will make me accountable that isn’t also an addict? I’m scared.",3.1144028520499134,4.684984647058824,4.858096256684494,82.4369483065954,74.18716577540106,8.302174688057043,26.1030303030303,8.936278230431713,2.046378538324421,1454,51,290,31,30,494,181,374,0.13699999999999998,0.7120000000000001,0.151,0.8240000000000001,0,2,11,0,0,1,40.0,1,0,2,7,10,17,3,1,18,0,32,34,3,9,5,64,61,35,1,9,16,0,6,4,2,5,17,1,1,2,12,14,15,4,7,9,5,3,16,8,2,0,4,7,28,9,39,48,7,39,1,3,0,4,14,14,2,11,26,176,40,2,0.14387749756321472,0.0,0.0,0.31369541892035474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3844032223850317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05752939140989735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13155958063782666,0.0,0.061214576673937086,0.0,0.0,0.06362397725692108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07610165747325795,0.06196886218321461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07466106357162358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3523629321913921,0.08342610954550513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07433195793110338,0.0,0.09502973019950646,0.0,0.12122299708259515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10912317870458864,0.1541791695108659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08698862057958852,0.0,0.11115939771377563,0.0,0.07517005415206049,0.0,0.0408844487617037,0.0,0.0,0.07931272449781528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07102462089667519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048219026904568654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07907130993911705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2540623287300153,0.14058255555253793,0.0,0.06352323315313434,0.0,0.0,0.0804810586673315,0.0,0.12231950332024293,0.0,0.0,0.19207869370104835,0.0,0.07227214237615544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07631564407108296,0.0,0.0,0.0574208229417816,0.0,0.05288325773300452,0.0,0.11096719588712564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07661241962563846,0.0,0.05471266013258533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06867367575114001,0.04987327047195996,0.06281414062920589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04608580456643841,0.07396501512918276,0.07103083566651844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07202323734658217,0.0,0.0,0.06549033506032591,0.0,0.0,0.07384409183672172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05091861665432965,0.0,0.0,0.2405760607414452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057821641279284165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04194806293064828,0.08268300910700296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048841688239220735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0865334571997599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21215668950051603,0.0,0.0,0.26280604681271685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06934638668523266,0.0,0.10474453179874596,0.0,0.0,0.10220644622183593,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Feeshpockets,2019/06/20,"I'm getting treated...but my spouse is very angry about it Guys... I'm in a super positive and supportive treatment program. My spouse is variously angry at my level of drinking and about the fact I'm getting treated. I don't know what to do. I can't talk to spouse because they're a mess. Any insight? I'm super new here.",0.29166666666666785,2.7039957424242442,2.824545454545458,87.87348484848486,91.57575757575756,4.751515151515153,25.51515151515152,6.42735559955562,1.1611333333333338,253,12,49,3,9,87,43,66,0.138,0.669,0.193,0.6012,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,2,3,5,0,0,3,0,5,1,0,0,1,5,13,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,0,2,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,5,4,7,13,1,4,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,1,26,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24482337957742065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2194625501918032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3526788424691128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3761872385641484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3564726660146633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19785550290727705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34770591506328263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4085421475720051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.289367405777031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2970510909028361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Joyceanne58,2019/08/08,"I am 18yrs sober but alcohol is affecting my life!9 Hey all. First time posting. I got a phone call from my 37yr old son yesterday. He told me he’d be going to detox/rehab for alcohol. I was very surprised. I knew he liked to drink socially, but didn’t know he had an alcohol problem. Well, he was admitted to a rehab center in Cleveland at 11am EST and that’s about 3 hours away. He said he will have no phone for at least 2 days. I’ve been crying all morning. I’m sure somehow I influenced him. I’m just so sad this happened to him. I know the difficulties of achieving sobriety, and maintaining it. Of course I’ll be there for him, but it’s been so long ago for me! I’m so happy that at least for now, his wife is being very supportive. He has 3 children, who were extremely upset. He’ll be in 21-28 days. I guess I’m looking for some support! Thanks for reading!",0.8720529223611528,2.9884846961325984,2.989351555684792,90.59783367257923,83.25414364640882,6.683454492585054,23.33847048560628,7.85451343220497,1.2252033149171269,674,25,148,13,19,228,115,181,0.11599999999999999,0.7190000000000001,0.165,0.8585,0,0,4,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,2,9,11,0,1,4,0,18,5,0,2,3,19,37,8,0,1,4,2,0,1,0,2,4,1,0,1,6,2,4,0,4,2,0,1,2,3,1,1,11,2,16,8,21,19,5,19,0,1,1,0,25,7,0,3,11,84,22,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13426454580610028,0.4856099278728985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.142306313339005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15466265623786718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1663771433875114,0.19536473419732653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14837799487812678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288360153343913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08608102576556012,0.0,0.12114036296905803,0.0,0.1668557268162725,0.0,0.13393996155183233,0.16123726356398346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14916247268407393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16648235880243498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10698417871761623,0.07399812736402675,0.0,0.0,0.13404172091842664,0.12719241673824744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589369935762186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14506156034688053,0.0,0.0,0.14493150838158594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1515059459049004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14407785955309527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15439944957255794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3437612772886811,0.14275392977537055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13944858275651334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08832043467174779,0.0,0.0,0.14473125762303174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24994890499212805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13618518685548958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Redddiiitt123445,2019/08/08,"Alcoholism Recently I have just started having cravings for alcohol when i am alone. I am 18 and have just graduated high school and am going to start college in the fall. Obviously I cant buy alcohol, but my mom always keep some in the house that is easy access but I have never touched it. I only drank a couple times in high school during my senior year but all times i was binge drinking. The cravings havent gotten to serious yet, it is like craving a cookie when you know you shouldnt, and i have yet to cave into them. Alcoholism runs in my family too, my dad was an alcoholic (he stopped drinking before I was born). My question is are my cravings the warning signs to becoming an alcoholic?",5.311879084967323,6.19296022058824,6.354803921568627,76.41633986928106,68.11764705882354,9.573856209150328,32.02287581699346,9.725611199111238,3.123930718954248,554,23,101,12,9,185,82,136,0.053,0.883,0.064,0.3576,0,1,8,0,0,0,13.0,0,2,1,0,7,2,0,0,8,0,18,9,0,0,3,19,25,8,0,1,5,2,1,1,0,1,6,0,0,0,3,4,9,2,2,2,1,3,4,1,0,0,5,1,18,1,10,19,2,24,0,0,0,0,7,7,0,2,15,73,21,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7579153355410247,0.0,0.12241894171810035,0.0,0.0,0.09835137790545807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13054196192634418,0.10057899214087387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13078539901371558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23158084569554804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11142788430178613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06717544862869475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2497683325973291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13638624942246158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10506106657289764,0.0,0.0,0.06495930457296711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05774626125970915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13843372046882038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09116267178057567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08989597760012859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13241039044366018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11670765772532415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2392482266391217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16732430158192926,0.0,0.0,0.09881999940750368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1378460530503967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07611654474189875 alcoholism,poppyseedbagelz,2019/08/08,"How can I know if I'll be able to start drinking again after a period of abstinence? I've been abstaining from alcohol for four days now, because I've started noticing problems. I was making excuses for my drinking, tried to hide it from friends, used it as a pastime for the evenings. I probably had around 4 pints on average each day. I definitely felt psychologically dependent on it, in the sense that I couldn't say no to a drink offered to me or if I felt like one, even if I wanted to have a drink-free day. However, I haven't felt any physical withdrawal symptoms since I stopped, but I have lots of cravings and have to convince myself everytime not to have a drink. My plan is to stop for a month, because I know my problems would only get worse. But I don't want to stop for good, I'd like to be able to drink like I did a year ago. Is it possible, without a physical addiction, for the psychological addiction to subside after some time? Or is it already too late for that? Or will I only be able to find out by trying? 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I just had to get this fof my hest. Alcohol brought out the worst in me. It almost cost me my job, my marriage, my friends, and even my life. The fucked up part is that I still think ""I can control it. I can handle a drink or two."" But its never just a drink or two. I would spend hundreds. I would drink anything that was offered. I couldn't say no. And even right now I just want to have *one little beer*. I think the most shameful part about it is the next day, I would wake up hating who I am, knowing that I was not my best self and that everything I did would be remembered and, eventually, people would forget the sober me and start remembering the drunk me as the ""real"" me.",1.2815384615384635,3.2152497179487187,2.8377948717948733,93.24053846153843,80.66666666666666,5.9548717948717975,20.656410256410254,7.0316486544052195,0.3164441025641027,580,16,131,7,15,190,95,156,0.16399999999999998,0.797,0.039,-0.9681,1,0,6,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,2,8,6,2,1,10,0,18,10,1,2,1,33,29,9,0,7,7,0,0,0,1,5,3,2,0,1,11,6,7,1,6,5,2,1,5,4,0,3,6,2,27,2,10,16,6,13,0,0,0,1,7,6,1,4,6,102,38,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26387900842022394,0.12362577347335532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10159575980739563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12956199435595134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384691152126869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07962046703732803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36282674963208544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16308624326755658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11095646669033207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09538366855806373,0.11413531933066587,0.06450192856562488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12188962945831144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12251343128408053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356990371449269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08720233270450853,0.0,0.12373776990528655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11681934151328972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09521874399292132,0.0,0.13129942961162985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08365862009819909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2673868744981809,0.0,0.0855905231306334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14052270973764525,0.07909062478578183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27970864474501617,0.10543281558177953,0.0,0.19635818069185354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12879405668997784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08738450467134537,0.0,0.09859405319143257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15821434020733965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2412018730408262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07281897444532642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4385065946481385,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,SaltbossMan,2019/08/08,"Too much I think im drinking too much. I really started drinking some years ago, when my best friend was diagnosed with leukemia. After a while, she ended our friendship, and i was lost. It was the first time i was drunk more than 6 months straight. We have since then patched up. I used to think that I started drinking because of that. But I kept drinking. I don't know why. I used to be able to just smoke weed, but not anymore, it doesn't numb me in the same way Even though it's the numbness that i like, at the same time the only time i really feel emotions is when im drunk. I regularly drink and seek out sadness, like movies. When im sober, and thinking about these things, nothing makes sense. Until im drunk again I dont know why im writing this. I just needed to vent. These are things that I can''t talk about with the people I know I'd never in a sober state admit that i have a problem with alcohol. Or maybe i would if i was actually confronted with it, i dont know This is all over the place, sorry",1.5834285714285734,3.5567978666666704,2.608809523809523,95.06035714285716,79.85714285714286,5.533333333333334,21.92857142857143,6.508806274219699,0.23617142857142825,792,24,178,7,20,251,119,210,0.11599999999999999,0.787,0.09699999999999999,-0.5809,0,0,7,0,0,0,25.0,2,0,0,3,12,10,1,0,10,0,16,12,0,3,2,38,33,14,0,4,7,0,1,2,1,1,4,0,0,0,15,9,9,1,9,8,0,0,6,6,0,1,7,1,25,4,20,24,8,29,0,2,0,0,7,8,0,3,21,116,40,0,0.0953667001872326,0.0,0.09306414257085016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08453682561855701,0.10191799963463397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09457814078895824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05813465527242815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10008146818866306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09679519323677273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22353812473063014,0.4671152985076959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1072747017037142,0.08446659002961311,0.0,0.0,0.06298880604889667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048220269063390615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08111886646115869,0.0,0.0,0.07368007599732768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5150620060506349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2096441774729192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09318270510677557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104104018779476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06365801290954103,0.0,0.09580866849380036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07612079023805758,0.0,0.14021099534155415,0.07071319980176262,0.07355267835497216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09150692088377706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07253067288048592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06611526212243769,0.0,0.09963790392820808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09125305252499427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12218870028772626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07888831988716631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10675521307286437,0.13500208248447065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0766521411840991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12671479606105296,0.18332139222419866,0.09369729873077198,0.0,0.16682726939358852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1647324185823256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07569764765411696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17210722715530746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0677457676087104,0.0,0.0,0.06141302820049239 alcoholism,I_Grok365,2019/08/08,"Been a heavier and heavier drinker for 10 years now. Ready to stop, or more likely at least control it. I don't want to go into to much detail but 12-16 shots of vodka over 3-4 big drinks every night has been my norm for quite awhile. Like while watching TV or a movie or reading or playing Xbox. But yeah. Every night. I tell myself it's because of back and knee pain and it's the only way I can sleep and that's partly true, but I fell again recently after overdoing things one night and this time I hurt myself pretty badly. Should have gotten stitches. A lot of them. But... I didn't. Took about a month to fully heal on it's own but if anything good came of it, it made me realize that My normal isn't Normal. Today was my 3rd day in a row without a drink. I don't think I've gone this long without any alcohol at all since I was 24 or 25. These last two nights, I've barely slept at all. And that's also part of why I drink so much. I sleep like the dead and if I get it right (usually do but its obvious when I don't) but when I get it right, I wake up fresh, slept the whole night, and at worst have cotton mouth the next morning. But when I don't get it right, well, I already mentioned the fall... I don't know. I'm not looking for help or prayers really. But I'm going to try this for a bit and see if it gets better. If nothing else, I'll save myself at $50 if I make it a whole week! But hey, for anyone that quit and had trouble sleeping afterwards, what did You do to get more than 3 or 4 hours sleep? Melatonin? Allergy Pills? Exercise? Indica? Hookers? (lol) All right then, thanks for reading. Cheers all :)",-0.005240524781342515,2.1425279183673496,1.8936086005830888,96.75936333819244,87.600583090379,4.7127988338192415,17.90444606413994,6.124889420169582,-0.3372658309037901,1248,32,286,11,40,411,194,343,0.105,0.7609999999999999,0.135,0.8685,0,0,6,0,0,2,55.0,0,1,1,4,10,16,0,0,13,2,20,17,9,3,6,56,43,39,1,9,25,0,0,3,0,1,5,0,0,0,22,12,4,2,3,10,0,7,10,5,1,2,14,3,27,11,32,28,17,51,0,1,3,0,6,15,0,13,31,176,49,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09044377249961072,0.0,0.0,0.09339135089207876,0.06767861045017637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05755132761946163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05917528999909887,0.0,0.06964330995447954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06507527497302157,0.07066254635253849,0.05158968538091314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07484839082308181,0.09239408201353973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09679421725427406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09491978334688038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05457937294935618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2487156534121837,0.0,0.0,0.07069753688111305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14260891339351758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22107850821105365,0.0,0.09619440127564104,0.07098366024931098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05672573024298396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08334353956072009,0.0,0.09059820555390666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04651045536902727,0.06898477602127677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1240378845511344,0.0,0.0,0.07489492007693617,0.07106791691969286,0.0,0.0,0.07194943152349738,0.0,0.08007898779547294,0.056491207225492834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06755088855219164,0.0,0.12442563050762775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09000500503785258,0.39709778620845904,0.16583893627499272,0.08120480351087822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057347503684290674,0.06436495712988012,0.09005232681108655,0.0,0.0,0.18329216705243606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08609917323278507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18002892449648208,0.16930587927371593,0.0,0.05421616912843525,0.0,0.08356195223364997,0.0,0.0,0.2890943586171533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06743918283689215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0700068416013806,0.0,0.3387646253911141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07075450087134551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07397038303579331,0.0779159681689476,0.0,0.0,0.056224436450702735,0.05422751084883927,0.0,0.0,0.049348455470266096,0.0,0.08021938006380125,0.0,0.0940270856574004,0.057458240232704724,0.0,0.08267124945779711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0932080299161419,0.0,0.04991698883376061,0.0671753846006422,0.06788511131486248,0.0,0.07609256741348193,0.0,0.07636544552569778,0.1889728292162221,0.0,0.16316067233034312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05449896947535847 alcoholism,graphicdesignta,2019/05/14,"I'm looking for a good online course for one of my employees. Hello r/alcoholism! I recently had an alcohol-related issue with one of my employees and through agreement, he'll be doing a course to help with alcohol abuse. I'm hoping he learns something from this, and I don't want it to be so much a punishment, but more of an enlightening experience for him. He's not religious, so AA courses are not going to work for him. In our agreement, it could be online or in person. Price isn't too big of a deal but thinking I'd like to keep it under $500. Below is a list of options I've found but checking to see if anything has anything else. I'm open to some ""outside the box"" type therapy as well. &#x200B; [https://coursefordrugsandalcohol.com/](https://coursefordrugsandalcohol.com/) [https://lifering.org/](https://lifering.org/) [https://www.betterunite.com/care-pathwaysclass](https://www.betterunite.com/care-pathwaysclass) [https://www.smartrecovery.org/](https://www.smartrecovery.org/) &#x200B; I found this, but there's no therapists or meetings in my area. [http://members.moderation.org/](http://members.moderation.org/) &#x200B; I'm not expecting sobriety from him, but more helping with him deal with alcohol use in moderation. If there's anything you know of that could help, I'd really appreciate it!",12.613775868801248,15.287319944162435,9.607309644670053,53.17364310816093,52.60406091370558,10.934634908238973,35.966028894962896,10.891193690592663,4.291971807887544,1107,41,146,24,13,322,115,197,0.044000000000000004,0.7859999999999999,0.17,0.9787,2,0,9,0,1,0,115.0,1,1,0,1,6,7,1,0,8,0,12,2,0,1,0,34,28,14,0,7,12,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,7,7,2,1,6,0,2,1,6,1,2,2,3,2,12,6,30,19,4,11,0,0,2,0,17,9,0,7,2,96,19,3,0.0,0.1180296139120811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4258402384881135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3238042708444461,0.36313593256687016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2459284058521952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20313192545807385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15907181157681602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20540108522769074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08321705058826731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09744434154421497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21844935033336665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05661452089005986,0.08355384227658104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2003131157691536,0.0,0.0,0.0989419556954739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1039740538657542,0.0,0.08854398548344844,0.0,0.0,0.05474678592885589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048667734732688483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08365301958757221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07322980718438925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13500583827217852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08698154395013895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0638170704115204,0.0,0.0983595682827776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07938168905667123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07668987646930951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1139204880230984,0.11566277822876232,0.0,0.06383042058696155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08603692756345915,0.0,0.0,0.0587565673182988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0895674631845699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0725222139865844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36313593256687016,0.0 alcoholism,Juice-Campbell,2019/05/14,"Oddly thankful for my sudden debt. 27 years old and live on my own. Recently had to pay about $2,000 in taxes and car repairs. Wiped out much of my savings account. Can't afford my old habits for a while. Sure as heck can't drink and order out every night. I've been limiting most of my drinking to weekends and doing proper grocery shopping. I wanted to post this on CA but I've never lost control of my life due to alcohol and don't feel I fit in there. If I weren't functional I'd be finding other ways to get booze instead of just being annoyed I can't afford it. Being broke has done wonders for my health and I'm actually thankful for it.",1.6851148105625704,3.7512051119402976,3.6643283582089534,87.15030424799083,79.97014925373135,5.615614236509758,24.48679678530425,6.67199483983844,0.9447894374282436,511,19,101,5,13,173,90,134,0.095,0.82,0.086,-0.0572,3,0,3,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,3,4,7,1,0,1,0,13,6,0,1,2,21,21,10,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,8,4,2,3,4,5,1,6,3,0,0,5,1,11,4,21,13,3,21,0,2,0,0,0,7,1,3,10,66,15,2,0.0,0.0,0.18098700678578167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19820559435578414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20801467646068905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18979500363409785,0.0,0.3633700257277617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1562621928431632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09377663537322127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16951157549677767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09689776511578084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19714053559778968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13099935676113664,0.0,0.0,0.16376892087947692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.202456867196988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13633805493884996,0.0,0.1430419786698106,0.0,0.0,0.17404626224133346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3892284667434696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17762412465086386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18312423232977731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17479849076617468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.341502357849991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10939201414104158,0.14721341959620252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011287926716241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11943332678529807 alcoholism,babymonkeygurl,2019/05/14,bday Wednesday is my bday. im not excited or happy. im numb. past few birthdays have been horrible and ive felt so alone but this year I actually am surrounded by good people and friends. im afraid im going to get flashbacks of my other birthdays that I spent in active addiction. im going to have 7 months of sobriety on my birthday but dont even feel like thats an accomplishment. I keep telling people ill be satisfied with my sobriety once I get a solid year but I know I won't even be satisfied then. I feel like a failure everyday and am so ashamed of my past,2.43186440677966,4.114959983050852,4.612000000000002,83.01393220338984,76.28813559322035,8.448813559322032,28.749152542372883,9.120678840339163,2.522875254237288,450,20,93,11,10,156,73,118,0.214,0.628,0.158,-0.6588,0,1,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,4,9,0,2,3,0,11,3,0,0,0,14,21,10,0,0,5,0,3,2,1,1,3,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,4,0,1,2,3,3,0,0,3,3,13,6,9,15,1,13,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,10,53,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.13027270757061815,0.14553019796030606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13826145625515793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15645615996380058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17634552006715684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13499904124489748,0.19073894575824152,0.1281769656823859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1031385744178904,0.0,0.13949215961249034,0.0,0.15173755338261732,0.11196999818637958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1421088310096294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7209922129125932,0.0,0.0,0.118657258886769,0.0,0.0,0.07336583637736857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13043867334588635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10655512609679277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1421687397630498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2548738176954433,0.18509844867208586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11668127038354545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.171933920901879 alcoholism,BigBrownShoe,2019/05/14,"Havent had alcohol for about 8 months and suddenly having intense cravings today? What's up with this? I quit in Sept after consuming 2-3 drinks about 5 nights a week. It wasn't quite out of hand yet but I could tell I was losing control and would get massive cravings for alcohol. I even had dreams about getting alcohol for weeks after quitting. After about 2 months I no longer had cravings and now suddenly today out of nowhere I'm getting intense cravings. I dreamt about buying beer the night before and have been wanting to get some all day. I forced myself not to because I know if I buy any I'll keep buying it and lose control over it again. Just why am I getting this craving out of nowhere?",3.989901185770752,5.743662166666668,4.437509881422923,85.59266798418977,72.26086956521739,6.757312252964428,29.93675889328064,7.348242739294969,1.8315130434782607,561,24,105,6,11,177,87,138,0.10800000000000001,0.8290000000000001,0.063,-0.8363,0,0,5,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,7,10,2,0,0,2,0,12,6,1,2,1,22,21,7,0,4,4,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,6,9,5,3,1,3,3,0,4,2,0,0,6,1,11,0,23,13,2,23,0,2,0,0,1,6,0,2,17,70,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4243152171552527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09000031511854527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0806773385290017,0.0,0.1126173198779438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2968762239053694,0.10566809517129926,0.0,0.0,0.08535269241562309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12964941098620197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08741376731883067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34572852144255817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11763585505396737,0.0,0.0,0.07273430192953467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2961242769457348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21127579528431573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24839688236524726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4223011163774718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11567687589555507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2508984512779516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07806153064813323,0.0,0.2123211283879779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1194223390800936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09401532015047802,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,trackedpotato,2019/05/14,"What do I do? My family doesn't have a history of drinking. I'm sort of the black sheep with this. I did 8 years army and hardly drank at all. When I got back I felt like all I wanted to do was drink. That was 7 years and some chance ago. I could feel it building up. I started drinking more and more. Recently I confessed to my wife I had an. Issue with alcohol. I poured all my alcohol down the sink to show my wife I wanted to get better. I find my self in the garage drinking warm beer behind her back. I really want to stop. We work close hours. When she works late I always grab a few beers and chug them before she is home just to have a buzz. I go home and tell myself this is the night I quit. But I find myself at the corner store buying beer. It's like my brain goes on auto pilot and I find my self with alcohol. I am super lost. I dont know what to do... Please help me.",-0.8302050610820224,1.2302161780104726,1.4760536649214693,98.65467386561956,91.40837696335079,4.649301919720768,13.717495636998255,6.21433560688645,-0.8788692844677137,674,11,163,7,24,226,114,191,0.027000000000000003,0.848,0.125,0.9385,0,0,10,0,0,0,23.0,1,0,1,6,5,6,0,0,9,0,16,12,1,0,3,30,29,9,0,4,2,2,5,2,0,0,3,0,2,2,7,11,11,1,7,8,2,1,2,1,0,0,8,6,35,5,19,20,7,22,1,1,1,0,12,8,0,2,15,105,42,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1030841323314181,0.37283616285860816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09676265574954326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1788397744983095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0989542861465421,0.0,0.0,0.10284911851629287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12981817984438224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09284815992312268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13629109836004424,0.4556799940671263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1096279303779364,0.0,0.058799754554493176,0.0,0.11165670588714424,0.0,0.3188610572458926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06075676295071932,0.0,0.06609032785212045,0.0,0.09300779391912277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10417306285935717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0779467840060065,0.0,0.2332968479593364,0.0,0.1145222961186824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12137662211159375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06390998235089214,0.0,0.1311802665120875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11362691033099052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12694435081485042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10913035491396753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12765157785833428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12368880605372685,0.0,0.0,0.07449839793309569,0.0,0.11482241681114624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2426318141422129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08231071153913372,0.0,0.0,0.09722370735903736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10164264866463624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20577269240196056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1693211149218269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14977398736162126 alcoholism,General-HelloThere,2019/05/14,"How does one differentiate addiction from desire? I find myself wanting to have a few beers a day, even when studying for exams or when I will be working later. However, I do not find that I need alcohol when I put myself in an environment where I have no access to alcohol for several days. How do I tell if I make the leap from wanting a cold one to needing a cold one? For the record I’m effectively 23 (will be shortly), and alcoholism runs in the family.",4.786300366300363,5.509335340659341,6.793131868131868,73.37270146520147,69.21978021978022,10.462271062271064,31.650183150183143,10.504223727775694,3.4457018315018324,360,15,69,10,6,127,58,91,0.026000000000000002,0.902,0.07200000000000001,0.5803,2,0,4,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,7,0,0,0,8,0,8,5,0,4,0,15,14,8,0,6,3,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,1,1,4,0,3,1,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,2,10,0,10,10,1,12,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,2,6,53,11,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1980024153902194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5823184803499688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23427135361519835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15894475861942794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11996423905801727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17122365312455412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33201122422349016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12123876538809698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2693511986555453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3692295254208256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1825873075251746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20518906715621474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15875174836938488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21425897570004576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13222807248157498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Crossroad_Princess98,2019/10/17,"My boyfriend admitted to having a drinking problem. Hey guys. I'm looking for advice regarding my boyfriend. We've been in a relationship for about 10 months now and it's never been a secret that he enjoys alcohol. Which is fine. I thought. However, he's recently started to notice that his drinking habits (which I wouldn't call super extreme, but it used to be almost every weekend. I don't know if that's a lot) are having a negative impact on his life. He wants to get fit and goes to the gym, is trying to climb up the career ladder at work etc and said that he finds that his attitude towards alcohol is holding him back. I wasn't quite aware, how much it troubled him because he always said that it wasn't that much, and that he has it under control. Today he told he does think that he has somewhat of a problem and that it needs to change before there are any more consequences. He' s very worried that he'll come to a point where there's no turning back. I'm somewhat glad he recognized that he has a problem himself, and wants to do something about it. He said he wants to attend alcoholics anonymous meetings weekly in his city. I fully support him trying to get help, but I have no experience with alcohol abuse whatsoever and I don't really know how I can help him. I want to be there for him as much as I can. Do any of you maybe have some advice or can tell me about their experiences? It would help me (and by extension hopefully my boyfriend as well) a lot. Thanks!",4.0277365491651205,5.424587877551024,4.953790970933832,83.34846011131728,71.58503401360544,7.930488559059987,28.669758812615953,8.438071523408619,2.048073469387756,1172,45,229,19,22,382,153,294,0.11199999999999999,0.773,0.114,-0.4505,1,0,7,0,1,0,30.0,0,1,1,5,13,12,0,0,11,0,27,7,0,4,1,44,54,17,0,12,4,0,0,0,0,3,5,3,0,1,22,10,6,2,7,4,0,3,9,4,1,0,9,4,27,8,32,40,10,23,0,0,1,0,42,10,0,9,10,155,49,2,0.0,0.11371037446569475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18756421477999155,0.0,0.41025681077897497,0.09610145926138712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07985586399252953,0.0,0.0,0.1305276387346508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14759211183451906,0.0,0.058503253481479986,0.0,0.08166456320142303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979974941606216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10152497908400887,0.08267083327615406,0.0,0.0,0.10764004673702113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08398518846858201,0.0,0.0,0.18803080252638096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.107033441136776,0.0,0.0,0.08086001443290554,0.0,0.0,0.187756821348402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08771608916925358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1002821545406354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09502674019256756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1929827494095452,0.0,0.0,0.09532122032425737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10548670494509232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06778741348547702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08059177580276145,0.0,0.0,0.1631828455315557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09641613582035394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07660342812112189,0.0,0.21164998819339195,0.07116155128301098,0.07401903332664199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10926403542934587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09072396084648623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27549490598048737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10207736029063462,0.0,0.0,0.0614817140654463,0.0,0.09476014511112373,0.10303732999608263,0.0,0.0,0.2738722367184921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07388344570498051,0.0,0.0,0.06792902628479602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.108907167971868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08388320333634464,0.08835753896125396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06149457569735613,0.0,0.07619054390178549,0.0,0.0,0.0909696326183852,0.09170475225744816,0.0,0.1303165145557318,0.10438928651908833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08288844576248681,0.0,0.07918642726447207,0.22642559102359955,0.0,0.07698244029883611,0.0,0.08628978305602418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06986829691435321,0.0974635799707836,0.0,0.06817530431954827,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,rreddress,2019/10/17,14 hours and 33 minutes That’s all I wanted to say. :-(,-2.729999999999997,-1.132513999999997,0.5166666666666693,102.04500000000002,105.66666666666666,2.4000000000000004,14.333333333333336,3.1291,-1.5159666666666665,40,1,10,0,2,14,12,12,0.2,0.8,0.0,-0.3612,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7052054496369603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.56946435358794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42236906112427575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,jusjoeythatsall,2019/10/17,"2 weeks sober I'm on 2 weeks sober and INDT (I'm Not Drinking Today) I'm really trying to not fill this addictive void with something else but God. I want cigarettes and fatty foods, soda and sweets but I feel if I get addicted to something else I'm not truly addressing the underling issue. Can anyone relate?",1.5313524590163932,4.223864983606557,3.826372950819673,81.21037909836069,87.68852459016394,6.9844262295081965,20.739754098360656,8.07648339933343,1.6990803278688518,248,8,43,6,8,85,41,61,0.052000000000000005,0.807,0.141,0.6475,0,0,4,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,5,0,0,0,12,8,6,0,2,6,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,4,3,0,1,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,4,8,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,19,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4984141707153572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15984201364044331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2239403804409319,0.0,0.0,0.3819309260560852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11558672380799664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2764232983514265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11943374988316313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2385983785656517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14644662739281708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35197396845953294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21668549900780013,0.0,0.0,0.15520398496013646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13483384720509728,0.0,0.3667372948721838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,TooManyThr0ways,2019/10/17,"Any experience with Vivitrol/Naltrexone? Hey guys! I was wondering if any of y’all have had any experience with Vivitrol or naltrexone(daily)? I’ve gotten clean in the past, but when I get upset about anything, all I can think about is drinking. So I’ve gone from a daily binge drinker with occasional bad results to a bi-weekly binge drinker(think that’s right, sober for two weeks then a one day bender) with terrible results. I’ve got to figure something out. Opinions on naltrexone vs Antabuse? I know they work completely differently. Is naltrexone one of those lifetime drugs that you are stuck on for the rest of your life? Thanks for any responses",5.048805855161788,7.800730737288138,5.193636363636365,76.93325885978432,72.13559322033899,9.036671802773498,31.066255778120183,9.573946990214177,3.3582610169491516,529,24,90,14,11,166,84,118,0.134,0.818,0.048,-0.9072,1,0,5,0,1,0,18.0,0,3,1,1,4,4,0,1,5,0,7,3,0,2,1,17,16,6,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,3,5,1,0,4,1,0,1,0,3,0,3,6,0,8,1,19,10,2,11,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,4,5,53,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4808559548801841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454718843786212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1476008791025915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18534665323317775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11400612975368345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18469367434302272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17317353621847875,0.20500445823140756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34584240736282673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0923583534616532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14138420627245152,0.0,0.0,0.1750363920523368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09715166597139836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12486237304377035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2395764770748692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16875304109012393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15096604806245698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13609108070410267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16275192434319993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22654231091253216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17268481998373578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28359867073176953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19170642483534567,0.12869529761777854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Bananas1015,2019/10/17,Help? I just searched this keyword (alcoholism) not really expecting to find anything... I am only 21yrs old and I have an alcoholic father. And based on what I know about alcoholism I think I may also have it.. what questions should I be asking myself to determine if I do.. what should I do,1.0650101010101023,3.6253897636363632,2.8842424242424234,85.26858585858588,96.8181818181818,6.808080808080809,22.47474747474748,7.793537801064563,1.9424141414141416,227,9,41,6,9,75,39,55,0.0,0.943,0.057,0.4019,0,0,3,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,9,3,0,0,0,13,12,4,0,4,3,1,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,5,2,3,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,10,0,4,8,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,3,1,35,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7596647530232686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1894844110385913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1949851139337071,0.0,0.22151109895655505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21656295752378507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15881888700623895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1302184868175563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2486333681442786,0.0,0.0,0.1802069503518853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2654320392720251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15179269798444034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15182445217083138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,PreEntertain,2019/10/17,"I think I've got it all together!? I'm drunk now. I usually am. I drink 10 or so a day. I have a good job, kids, a wife, and I seem to excel in every category of my life. I struggle financially but all the bills are paid and theres lots of food in the fridge and cupboard. I've racked up a fair amount of credit card debt paying for things after I pay for alcohol with my real money. My kids have never known me sober. My wife is equally as drunk as me. My wife and I fight sometimes after the kids are in bed. I forget why for a couple days until I remember. Then it's usually her fault. (Not being cocky there. She always admits guilt) I truly believe we are drunk undetected aside from the apparent multiple cases of liquor I bring home that the neighbours see me carry in every day. I dont give a fuck about what people think. I only worry about my kids. I'm as drunk as I usually get. And I cant remember what point I was trying to get across but it's pretty clear that I'm worried about my kids. Tell me what to think? Do? Feel? I've done no wrong but I feel such guilt.",0.14198380566801916,2.281506315789476,2.631754385964914,91.8131781376518,86.71929824561403,5.612955465587046,17.102564102564102,7.010146845296331,0.03718029689608704,832,19,185,12,26,286,129,228,0.19,0.6920000000000001,0.11800000000000001,-0.9382,3,0,2,0,1,0,28.0,1,0,0,1,8,10,2,3,11,0,13,10,0,0,4,29,31,16,0,0,5,3,2,0,1,0,2,0,2,5,9,7,8,0,10,6,7,1,5,7,0,0,4,3,32,3,28,26,5,20,0,0,1,1,16,7,1,3,12,115,41,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1377867743483651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10727994391064756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14525976348113226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14265840061753146,0.0,0.24944721577200585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13193997587795842,0.15110479631141288,0.12630214576597198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21725787886504536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303815882625906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15590245784503126,0.0,0.0,0.11919354695125325,0.13472102581426815,0.12368123768765342,0.0,0.10814022134287822,0.1031169601289458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12932712816600542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12794295849483556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0910669492881595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10961152782369786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09943863038468106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09805694277110301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08938370784066704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12188035974256485,0.0,0.0,0.13116798454926915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14675036876451894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29210471986762865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10274037903300627,0.11737287168104815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12751489502816354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13478544821075492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11269035107816687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08565524771902139,0.247839080380068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08753488894364632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42599396610417983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1163391145665333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618689942062294,0.0,0.0,0.14096452541570956,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Truthsdtoo,2019/09/23,"Escaping the grips of denial I posted this in stop drinking but I'd like to get as many opinions as possible. I'm in my early 30's and have had a relationship with alcohol since I was about 19. I never thought I had a problem with alcohol even when it should've been abundantly clear that alcohol was ruining my life. It was really only until about a week ago after a relationship fell apart that the reality of my alcohol abuse became apparent. This didn't become clear immediately after everything fell apart. I still held the belief that she was the issue that things didn't work out. I wasn't perfect but this wasn't my fault. It was only about 2 weeks after when one night I was researching alcohol and relationship issues that I stumbled down the rabbit hole reading everything I could about alcoholism. The signs. The behavior patterns. At first I felt personally attacked. My mind still not wanting to accept that I had a problem. It was uncomfortable to read all of these things that were basically spot on as far as my lifestyle and behavior. But I kept reading. I read first hand accounts of wives/girlfriends/husbands living with an alcoholic. I read for hours. Eventually a switch went off in my head. I don't know but I swear to God I physically felt something go off in my brain. Maybe my ego crumbling to the ground? It felt very strange. At first uncomfortable as hell but that was followed with a sense of enlightenment? Releif? Acceptance? I can't really explain it. Have you seen the matrix? It felt like I was fucking, Neo and I just took the red pill. I was able to see reality for the first time and denial was the matrix. For the first time I was able to admit that I have a very very real problem with alcohol abuse. Then I started to reflect on my behaviors in the past and everything made complete sense. It wasn't like I was using alcoholism as a scapegoat. Like a get out of jail free card to absolve me of all my shitty actions/words I said. I just can't believe that I was stuck in some fantasy world even when the same behaviors, issues, consequences kept repeating in very predictable pattern. It just blows my mind that I was so blind to everything. It made me feel incredibly ignorant and very... well dumb. My denial was so strong I rationalized my drinking and blamed issues on everything but alcohol. I'm 30...I have learned about alcoholism, I've even been to AA meetings with my half sister when I was like 15 for her issues. But still denial blinded me. I know Im very early into sobriety but that realization made me sick to my stomach and made me see clear as day that I cannot ever moderate or have any kind of relationship with alcohol ever again. At this point in time I have 0 desire to drink. I just hope this feeling of self discovery stays with me for life. Has anyone had similar experiences? Is this common or was my case of denial unique? Denial actually scares the shit out of me to some extent. Will I one day rationalize my way right back into it? https://www.reddit.com/r/stopdrinking/comments/d8diux/denial_is_a_hell_of_a_thing/",4.070750988142294,6.6780322173913085,4.9046640316205545,78.51928853754941,74.65217391304348,8.286166007905138,26.976284584980235,9.045936885302208,2.5047739130434783,2475,95,439,59,55,800,252,575,0.124,0.74,0.136,0.4196,2,0,17,0,2,0,68.0,0,1,0,8,26,25,5,1,27,0,44,27,5,5,9,88,80,34,0,7,15,1,8,5,0,1,18,1,0,2,33,22,15,5,17,9,2,6,11,12,2,8,47,15,64,14,76,31,6,77,2,1,6,1,14,29,4,6,44,300,97,8,0.09521929072046643,0.11281928913010912,0.0464601460976788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042203078010223535,0.6105627824684544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032376191449263264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03328977101526718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054162844748829715,0.0,0.03660887851399502,0.0,0.0,0.052581112800511136,0.0,0.05363976682522217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053148109677088315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049917807348795834,0.0,0.0,0.03801242778804454,0.0,0.0,0.061408565219320525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13991798181521767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09433716522952412,0.0861312998639354,0.0,0.0,0.21394239681061544,0.046571368736997215,0.0,0.0,0.04814573440783474,0.0,0.1828509029408992,0.0,0.0,0.20248370011007885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04401434996393097,0.04974814937015037,0.0,0.027057658622928416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04886123152261825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04728712031126772,0.04688591044708835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05142658684521401,0.2484605019094575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04957811927306604,0.05233003198038571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0672562010048391,0.116298339334664,0.0,0.042040189102223666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18019759037167468,0.0,0.048268707765954884,0.047830287935627366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09614433965911938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036719493543348365,0.0,0.0,0.04467842700475292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06452305568680099,0.07241856133848529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04544879364000485,0.0,0.041570905938927136,0.0,0.0,0.045006503662760995,0.05367272166299801,0.045596879733577386,0.0,0.0,0.13666800236007354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2381126460320811,0.05419019949778875,0.0609999158648176,0.0,0.0,0.20445976681801414,0.0,0.040658377002956464,0.045287675236667296,0.0,0.04766556057537906,0.0,0.07587744662108335,0.0,0.049667243388558685,0.0,0.048870616793291716,0.03938319062648497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03665223099513072,0.0,0.0,0.03369835203147293,0.05074554728912572,0.1140633728537049,0.039803795339954935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06325946573087643,0.0,0.0,0.03779674036703249,0.08328470122853394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05289606778125528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04111944742053679,0.0,0.2356976610456785,0.0280814023568426,0.037790320440371936,0.07637917147688192,0.0,0.04280678886740003,0.044134618229562265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034660388850389336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,rachel-joanne,2019/09/23,"I am an Alcoholic with many years of denial behind me, I am now on medication for alcohol abuse but i still crave it I used to have a normal, controllable relationship with alcohol, then it turned into coping mechanism, which then turned into an obsession. It all started whilst I was in a 10 year bad relationship. We were a blended family, he had two kids, I had two kids, He was controlling, obsessive, manipulative, and mentally and sexually abusive. I would drink from my secret stash to prepare myself for when he came home from work. Then i would ""start"" drinking with him once he got home from work. I would pour the drinks in another room and drink half of mine and refill before i came back.... i became very skilled at being sneaky with my drinking. I lied to everyone about it, I was lying to myself about it. I told myself I wasn't an alcoholic, the fact that I only drank in the evenings was my reasoning. My mental health was suffering, my children were suffering, and I had no control over my life. I had no control of myself. I managed to leave him but I still kept drinking, the fact that I didn't have to hide it as much was liberating. 2 years ago, I ended up in the mental health unit after a suicide attempt. I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder, Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, Anxiety and Depression. I started taking mood stabilisers, and anti depressants. I didn't stop drinking. I never told the doctors how much alcohol I was drinking. I ignored the warning signs on the labels of my medication. I didn't think I had a problem. I honestly think I was in love with alcohol. I realise now that I had been high functioning prior to my hospitalisation. I have had a successful working career, but was unable to return to work after i came out of hospital. I went on income protection insurance and started seeing a psychologist. And I still didn't admit to my drinking. I kept drinking. I had a couple of short lived relationships that ended badly, I tried a few hook up with randoms on tinder, I had never really been single and didn't know how to cope with it, I had this desperate need to find someone as i didn't like being single. 1 year ago I reconnected with an old school friend on facebook who I had had a crush on when I was 15. Sparks flew and I moved back to New Zealand from Australia to live with him. He is a wonderful man, very supportive and we are getting married at the end of the year. But, I still kept drinking, I was addicted to it, I craved it, I felt I couldn't live without. I found a new psychologist, and i told her about of my drinking habits. She said you're an alcoholic. I still didn't believe her, I don't get many hangovers, I don't drink when I wake up in the morning, I wait till at least 4pm most days before I have a drink. I had to see clinical psychologist as part getting funding for my counselling sessions with her and was given a new diagnosis of Major Depressive Disorder, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder and Alcohol Use Disorder. I visited my parents, they told me I was an alcoholic and needed to stop. They were concerned about my intake combined with my medication. So finally I admitted it to myself. I am an alcoholic. I have a bad relationship with alcohol. I am not in control of it, it is controlling me. I went to my local GP and asked for a prescription for Antabuse. I knew that I would be unable to stop drinking by self control alone.... as i have no self control. I have been taking it now since mid July and it is working so far. The fear of suffering the affects of drinking on this medication is enough to not pick up a drink. I had a few days where I forgot to take the medication, so i thought I would try and have a drink.... worst idea ever. Within 10 minutes my face started turning bright red, it felt like someone had stuck hot needles in my eyes, they were burning, my heart was racing so fast and I felt i was struggling to breathe. It lasted for about an hour. Definitely not worth it. And the guilt i felt for having a drink weighed heavy on me. I will continue to take Antabuse, it will stop me drinking. Although i still feel I have the mental cravings, I still feel like I want to drink. I look forward to the day when I don't think about having a drink.",4.328134057971018,5.992660759661838,5.63074577294686,77.7360461956522,71.23429951690821,8.99142512077295,30.811896135265695,9.47609994337876,2.9804084541062794,3391,148,626,79,64,1135,324,828,0.192,0.747,0.061,-0.9989,2,2,33,0,3,1,107.0,2,0,3,16,31,29,0,7,46,0,80,53,5,16,6,116,142,44,1,11,8,1,7,3,1,7,23,1,3,8,27,42,35,19,21,22,2,9,21,19,0,3,72,14,128,9,106,59,13,105,0,6,6,1,43,36,0,3,63,464,155,11,0.0,0.07117099188857019,0.0,0.0327416009636814,0.0,0.0,0.05324683298215725,0.3530704950880379,0.0,0.03110626861511316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03149337138255778,0.022976003425718084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028077828134594147,0.0,0.0,0.04618873626768563,0.07523165408444911,0.0,0.0,0.05111361203850025,0.033838144514632004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.103053023783185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26948636583786983,0.0,0.03323215913778707,0.0,0.058108527329125824,0.0,0.07760497603224889,0.03048397813640338,0.0,0.0,0.2065300759979485,0.030741172843318388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6472836213369472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07980389100791851,0.031033252749505438,0.0,0.019837239042808687,0.027167561909110502,0.0,0.028698868549708392,0.0,0.0,0.028313475444728713,0.03379671120102037,0.030372285620923825,0.021456366231127483,0.1153497795489246,0.032900887252794345,0.027450622250151182,0.0,0.0,0.03293083918799488,0.023204270281241533,0.0,0.047074731137657436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02402101253046606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06384968527403344,0.0,0.03559055176502394,0.0,0.03173267443861874,0.060253299987123386,0.0,0.029577537474727807,0.0,0.0,0.033904841856888815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.016505955277335154,0.024481799173749763,0.0,0.031801774117801544,0.0,0.0,0.02121397224304076,0.044019430875314285,0.0,0.07956197864722593,0.0,0.02522107876653873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.027106946836276853,0.0,0.0,0.06089972442426464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15128097430132684,0.12106923024684478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03192149397657795,0.044157036868763835,0.04453980749724112,0.04632829717819237,0.08702135951794678,0.0,0.0,0.029427040045911224,0.0,0.0,0.031515734480869195,0.03198533508558043,0.0,0.02284228557609187,0.0,0.0,0.03334931249497443,0.032524002270552584,0.0,0.0,0.052449233321579185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057528729044198125,0.0,0.0,0.028738576421325837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.01924061280075803,0.03088005580658125,0.0,0.12898152893839074,0.0,0.0,0.028569305761215375,0.0,0.0,0.03039611149663136,0.04786657653698441,0.0,0.06266423062209085,0.0,0.0,0.024844516945954846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05089558901003463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10629144881086093,0.0,0.16789689105835787,0.10043940596034852,0.06880791755326494,0.03139816123697176,0.0,0.032852429428147714,0.03408233947321744,0.0,0.0,0.09032761823071388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0577339134891511,0.0,0.02384371965838375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11479547419883356,0.0,0.04078236328027759,0.09800542517356316,0.058677900934099414,0.0,0.0,0.05187963656559661,0.0,0.049562553979846866,0.017714889667968494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055683821095501344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028951799537722995,0.032570699051538705,0.10932590839501254,0.0,0.0,0.10667681057085966,0.0,0.0,0.09670487481618632 alcoholism,Victor0026,2019/09/23,"I wonder if starving increase the alcohol euphoria? I became an alcoholic after i started dieting until 24 years old I wasn't an alcoholic, coincidently i started dieting in this period, a lot of bad events also happened during this time so i'm not sure.",5.088829787234044,7.452391446808518,8.07335106382979,58.10875000000002,70.70212765957447,11.508510638297873,37.28191489361703,11.20814326018867,5.746621276595744,206,12,28,8,4,76,37,47,0.174,0.6920000000000001,0.134,-0.2325,0,0,3,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,4,0,1,5,0,0,1,5,6,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,5,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,5,1,4,5,2,11,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,9,21,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7346666800198717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18324910115841408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1913285160338824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20263429808014355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1948129337738996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2404516602748327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3243834327275881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21596872227725825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13361769764968215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2485005916015829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14756341928402078 alcoholism,magsdoor,2019/09/23,"help me understand why she died My aunt was a brilliant, radiant person. She was in her mid 40s when she died last winter due to severe complications from alcoholism. I still can’t make sense of it. I guess I’m hoping you guys can help. There’s not really a sense of closure for me because I couldn’t go to her funeral (I’m on the other side of the world) so it’s like it’s still open for me and the rest of my family has moved on. Why couldn’t she stay in AA? Why did she keep relapsing? Why did she start lying to everyone, even herself? Why did she turn from the amazing person I knew into someone unrecognizable? I don’t even know the person she became in the end. It’s like the aunt I knew and love actually died a long time ago somewhere along the way.",1.603502109704639,3.5699681265822782,3.5293924050632945,88.51961603375533,79.75949367088606,6.998143459915612,20.659915611814352,8.021203637495839,0.8562366244725745,596,16,130,11,15,201,91,158,0.11199999999999999,0.7170000000000001,0.171,0.8838,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,0,7,5,0,0,11,0,11,2,0,1,0,16,25,4,4,3,1,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,4,5,5,1,1,4,0,0,2,5,0,1,0,7,0,23,5,18,16,1,25,0,0,0,1,21,10,0,2,13,79,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.12056909042344105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10952153955917933,0.13203968976955205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07531625301270893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3846829226884435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10943054596228594,0.0,0.0,0.1632100794651879,0.0,0.0,0.11805938836677204,0.0,0.0,0.116473985298499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07021754262880903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361066391389358,0.12233606819118258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.165628823659852,0.0,0.0,0.12271517770707616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10981884112880133,0.0,0.0,0.06790103871433921,0.10071150476071332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12072269391367835,0.0,0.0,0.10933977806284684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11151065270877966,0.0,0.08247202953408049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13131639834862702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3236429545398233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07915068063136095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13957877872153895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10468534846040732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08745085830469655,0.131690168748636,0.19733783713159855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07204426099020288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13438927661991842,0.0,0.12862216106346835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09806995769506756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5574330580013211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,fallofepsis2,2019/09/23,"""They always come back..."" said the cute girl at the liquor store I've been a heavy alcoholic for about two years now since my engagement dissolved. Since then I must have gone across the street to the liquor store over 600 times. This time was my last I think. I was in the store for the second time in one day, and the cute girl at the cash register said, ""Well they always come back..."" I got red in the face and quickly paid for my beer and left. The thing is, I don't have to go back again. I can stop. I just called the rehab center I've gone to before and am going in on Wednesday. I've had enough. It's time to make a change. This one isn't coming back again.",0.8833504624871544,2.8773383884892105,1.5253083247687584,101.81073741007198,82.38129496402878,4.834737923946556,14.245118191161357,5.773587663045528,-1.1781083247687567,512,6,125,3,14,156,80,139,0.017,0.899,0.084,0.836,0,0,2,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,2,0,11,4,0,0,13,0,12,6,1,1,1,12,25,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,2,4,7,4,1,1,3,5,7,2,0,1,4,10,3,12,4,17,14,1,37,0,0,1,0,7,12,0,0,18,78,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15756504503388696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24535837018401935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.453479033363446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254578131592531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1505494039336762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15596852977102213,0.3810111098971299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09508450520154532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15234157281777452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16758340292660182,0.0,0.11791863582927148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12018062758817212,0.0,0.0,0.1601904578929003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09841517403027092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19981391202219367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2804922196913321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2439224027204129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1232637229521992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979504239653208,0.09447151476360333,0.0,0.0,0.3438862132186585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14402427921592467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13256334272545922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09494443168790033 alcoholism,brightbhsh,2019/09/23,"Went to rehab for 2 months for alcohol / benzos, but now I’m confused I was drinking crazy amounts of alcohol every night. And also addicted to benzos. Went to rehab and they said I was an alcoholic but after leaving, I had a drink maybe 4 months later. (I know.. I’m ashamed.) I have cravings and I went out with friends and had a few drinks because it was her birthday. But I thought if I was an alcoholic I wouldn’t be able to stop / Id have more issues. Or do I just have decent self control?.. I don’t have any cravings besides for benzos and I’ve had a drink maybe twice a few months apart. I know nobody can tell me what’s going on for sure. But I’m confused. I am 21 if that matters. Anything helps thank you",-0.4356879606879609,1.8107993378378424,1.624176904176906,95.40006142506142,96.16216216216215,4.042260442260441,20.91646191646192,5.852544927426893,0.13669189189189224,554,21,118,5,22,183,86,148,0.084,0.809,0.107,0.4767,0,0,8,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,1,1,3,6,0,3,6,0,17,11,0,1,1,25,29,13,0,3,8,0,0,0,1,1,7,1,0,1,3,7,8,2,3,4,0,4,2,3,0,1,12,1,17,3,13,15,4,15,0,0,0,0,8,3,0,5,8,75,20,0,0.1204458621013142,0.0,0.0,0.1313037681674105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5148799866424792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09632051240652956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0819073164934957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09911668185682657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07342267959888724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13509027606615798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4719643625627248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10148083360779324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09305617428059616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06845215910815823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08073232247670277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12571418721638314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13238779175892654,0.0,0.0,0.1275347769557162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2420081150099332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28841621402614875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11303028235562015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11457159668324005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256513024381294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10069813392539123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11351879961226118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10527499234281792,0.11089036741096864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0956205605750908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3349635625901224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,patternboy,2019/09/23,"Intense images/fear of the moment I die is often the first sign of withdrawal. Anyone else? Title pretty much explains it for the most part. I've been drinking excessively for 10 years, virtually every day for the past two years (10-15 units a day on average and I know exactly how unhealthy it is). I've begun serious attempts to give up, with some temporary (but amazing) success at the beginning of this year where I drank just twice a week, and only a few drinks on those days - medically healthy amounts. It was great. Then life happened and now I'm here again. The point of the post is I can always tell when my withdrawals are beginning (in their mild phase), because I get these horribly vivid images of my moment of death, and they terrify the shit out of me. It can be so vivid, I can feel the adrenaline running and feel disoriented, very much like waking up from a nightmare. For a moment once it felt like I went to sleep and it was as vivid as an actual nightmare. I know it's not the normal 'fear anxiety' because I don't usually have it, and I don't actually worry about it most of the day. When I manged to give up before, the episodes completely went away. I was fine. These are clearly related to alcohol withdrawal, and are very short, very intense episodes of fear. They make it harder to give up drinking. It's just another thing that convinces me that my drinking is having a toll and I should get through the worst of it and be done here. (Don't worry guys, I never give up cold turkey and am well aware of the risks and how to manage them). I'm mainly wondering whether this is common, or more specific to me. Any of you guys experienced this phenomenon at all, and was it specific to alcohol withdrawals or just a general thing?",5.113016544824934,6.127476058997054,5.856785943311532,79.32434013081955,68.64601769911505,9.435475182762602,30.96331922534308,9.653516015845867,2.8595006027959475,1380,55,264,30,23,451,180,339,0.083,0.7829999999999999,0.133,0.9143,0,0,6,1,0,0,44.0,0,1,4,3,16,14,1,3,22,0,26,12,3,3,4,45,48,25,2,2,8,0,3,2,0,1,4,0,0,2,23,15,7,0,7,4,0,3,5,6,1,3,10,8,25,8,42,35,12,43,0,0,3,0,13,15,1,7,26,187,48,2,0.0,0.0,0.17848488867634169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1954654318665679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07609409780542092,0.0,0.0,0.0621894398958249,0.09589376733901256,0.06995934160629151,0.0,0.0,0.06394427883662772,0.0937017900146706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08592070527467112,0.0,0.0,0.11149468729739193,0.0,0.07781759471123367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0958840537100897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359118911055661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0949111257711256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09358555814742353,0.0,0.3583464898510829,0.0,0.0,0.07639511376213798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07705094578127497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3087215326710981,0.0924801875133624,0.0,0.087806770417704,0.0,0.0,0.07778770345865699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09555816810732032,0.3509104070799472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10082444061142223,0.0,0.1811006405996688,0.080869328218634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10051754801644057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0645941551921966,0.08935613807907497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0610438834638519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09212670422770323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344532018638881,0.0,0.07053222242949014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08960202124315192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09739174138262416,0.0,0.0695521858208607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0990319222664494,0.08729979944806472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08645023176499006,0.0,0.08758424894021914,0.09303798157785388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09387256961650643,0.0,0.0,0.09151649136964517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07993172147639585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1215112267938438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08933379840102662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10071974729420466,0.22636858859939005,0.0,0.0,0.07335603233780823,0.0,0.08222493456570598,0.16955096105196754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09917410870298456,0.0,0.18574473597723692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17667326854642804 alcoholism,fruit_head,2019/09/23,"Mom can’t get into detox facility My mother came to me today crying and saying she needs to go to detox. She was sober for 2 years and now is relapsing. She’s been on the phone with insurance and rehab facilities for hours and nobody will admit her because she either has to be admitted from the hospital, or there aren’t enough beds. I’m so angry and feel so helpless. My mother even considered drinking to the point where she has to go to the ER so she can get treatment. Is there anything I can do? Do I just have to wait until something awful happens before she ‘deserves’ treatment?",4.085584541062804,5.760977713043481,5.195072463768118,80.57512077294687,71.86956521739131,7.545893719806764,26.690821256038646,8.167268648758528,1.8268357487922704,467,16,85,7,9,154,78,115,0.122,0.852,0.027000000000000003,-0.9241,1,0,2,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,9,1,0,0,4,1,15,4,0,0,0,16,27,10,0,1,3,3,1,0,0,1,3,1,1,0,0,8,1,1,3,1,0,3,2,1,1,0,3,2,13,0,15,22,2,12,0,1,0,0,15,4,0,1,5,64,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20261345450058785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15008999972082682,0.0,0.20951030137124185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2816036564946095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2704549332050958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2411963559225409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2544052700161933,0.0,0.16262227475145813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12449338757316072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2572737010561744,0.0,0.2798586103792694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2177265615783677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2424715664970737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2883633040858269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18256484172426105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2327521709956181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19579955593053675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18954785734685128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333824415187336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1585539871574444 alcoholism,shawnkulka,2019/09/23,"Ok alcohol problem big time I’m 21 male and I’ve been drinking heavy for about 2 weeks. I just stopped last night around 5 because I’ve been having some weirrd symptoms. I’ve also been taking heroin with the alcohol. My problem is that my mind feels really weird and it’s hard to explain I don’t feel like myself, obviously I’m coherent enough to write out this so I guess that’s a plus. I’m unable to just go to sleep because when I start to fall asleep I jerk out of my sleep and then I’m anxious it’s weird. Im also having big time memory problems like I can’t remember shit. If anyone has experienced and similar experiences and could tell me what’s going on with my body and (my mind) it would mean the world thanks guys",0.8558351729212674,3.2570936158940387,2.8419315673289205,89.62888704930097,86.35099337748345,6.004562178072113,20.30941869021339,7.3871296695380915,0.7348407652685798,580,18,121,10,18,194,96,151,0.17800000000000002,0.755,0.067,-0.9258,1,0,3,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,8,11,2,0,3,1,11,9,5,0,1,32,25,13,0,6,3,0,3,2,0,1,3,0,0,2,7,12,3,1,5,1,0,3,2,7,0,0,3,4,13,4,15,20,2,19,0,0,0,0,5,7,1,3,11,65,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2943234611904906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22024073438936384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15556424486366133,0.0,0.09628455165092084,0.0,0.0,0.1225841165003191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1678839166411835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15295605646498128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10994396942701526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13489569254172698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14228314086188176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1346991349551492,0.0,0.0,0.13925269865138706,0.0983744502546961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15651862117270413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15169445335827444,0.13634678739894954,0.0,0.0,0.12335408744352964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1487419620596881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11224563884771796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345486390453011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14999802045724592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2780798532259853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12922414848237138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3952871086506349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08821552943536698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15598970327179887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1413492878844991,0.0,0.0,0.2756032126878658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09746629723698708,0.0,0.0,0.1151251712291724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1431252689265262,0.10353488669217698,0.0,0.12035775686366215,0.12677764759089108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16059047314148722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11045636627761216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09781966323457207,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,googoo_sh,2019/09/23,"Am I an alcoholic? Hi, I am sorry if it looks similar, but I am very confused. I was addicted to weed for over 2 years until I crashed and suffered severe depression(I was already diagnosed with anxiety) but I am clean from weed for over 1 year, however I feel ever since my drinking has grown, sometimes I drink 4 times a week, and some days i drink 2 times, but i always binge drink. It was little severe for 1 month, where I was continously drinking as much as 500 ml of vodka per day. But these days I assume I am in moderation, focussing more on work, I however drink 2 times a week. Am i in risk of being a full blown alcoholic? I cant think of a life without any thing to get f**ked up. It scares me to think of a life without any vice. Can I continue my alcohol in moderation? Please help. Thanks in advance.",4.203996674057649,4.909474067073173,5.6940576496674025,80.79373614190689,70.52439024390246,9.378270509977828,30.152993348115306,9.573946990214177,2.6546902439024387,633,25,130,14,11,215,97,164,0.13699999999999998,0.7759999999999999,0.087,-0.7923,2,0,10,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,2,2,5,0,3,6,0,14,13,0,0,1,17,20,10,0,1,7,0,1,0,0,0,7,0,1,0,5,3,9,0,4,7,0,2,3,4,0,0,4,2,20,1,25,15,4,27,0,1,1,0,2,11,0,4,14,83,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1167473629870156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34335008926776595,0.0,0.0,0.11817997627852345,0.0,0.08911009660291787,0.0,0.0,0.14565405613899066,0.0,0.08192598202234094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.207198705410268,0.0,0.0,0.10869731338814698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6294632155886801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09687190358203296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054149524607311934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055951761285187085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07178229451081182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15128614636785806,0.0,0.10733549085525597,0.0,0.0,0.08993129080485059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08548074666910406,0.0,0.0787258023434319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11755614132701965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10721894585443442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24196959877527865,0.0,0.08858857700159084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10591788362356533,0.11988203611324738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.098597002634271,0.0,0.0,0.07114794360021381,0.1372419583728874,0.0,0.0,0.1873406661693061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08836308106111218,0.0,0.0,0.1718073626352445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20646798875272904,0.0,0.07796510332793842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379289807520735 alcoholism,micahmcali,2019/09/23,Family of alcoholic My mom is an alcoholic. She's at rehab right now and it's been really hard on me. I can't help but think she's going to come back unchanged.,-0.8394285714285736,1.3079010571428569,2.648571428571429,88.54142857142858,95.57142857142857,7.371428571428572,15.571428571428573,8.238735603445708,1.0025428571428576,127,3,28,4,5,46,31,35,0.096,0.904,0.0,-0.2442,0,0,2,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,0,4,6,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,5,0,4,5,0,7,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,2,18,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6361979822535688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288756731847441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25640045912532505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28059939614090285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1691622383285603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2666373289335299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19950956337321052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3486059042805221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19068320820638696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2541928019890952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1907230980707574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ShadowMarionette,2019/09/23,"First hospitalization I got hospitalized for alcohol poisoning last night and it scared me shitless. I’m not sure what my BAC was but I’m 5’2” , 20 years old, and 120 lbs. (female) and had like a full solo cup of Smirnoff vodka that I downed in around 15 minutes. My family has a history of addiction and alcoholism and I just feel kinda awful. I could just use some knowledge that I’m not alone right now. I’m scared to know I put myself in so much danger and the idea that I could end up hurting myself and those I really Love has me very fucked up. I also was already dealing with some scary repressed memory shit beforehand and the memory issues I’ve got from this have just compounded all my self-doubt. I just need to hear from others who have been here. Thanks in advance and the best to all of you. This shit is hard.",3.574094746716696,5.194003079268295,4.583658536585368,84.66940900562855,73.08536585365854,8.21688555347092,23.59099437148217,8.841846274778883,1.5597191369606005,651,18,132,13,13,212,108,164,0.23800000000000002,0.654,0.10800000000000001,-0.977,0,1,3,0,0,1,15.0,0,1,0,3,9,14,5,3,5,1,11,8,2,1,3,33,25,12,0,3,7,0,2,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,10,11,2,1,4,1,0,2,2,9,0,1,6,3,17,5,17,17,7,18,0,1,0,2,5,9,3,3,8,88,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16078014531645282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3152326861151637,0.0,0.1527497202637759,0.1627530872938792,0.1179435000062758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13129269465351842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15477614435409578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2355091412995468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1520502995611158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306277112849404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13903549497982326,0.0,0.07457272020909571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12545045164170704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13634727335310204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359140525584379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13211736560457726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662260303055734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15788547350838705,0.16649232903206854,0.0,0.15393575958322364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.081053760658209,0.12021975446863195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07205359832313675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13311074361502204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10841825988257284,0.10935807216202906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384044454773449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15476043383491156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14826290769727413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09448250638430757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12595116928589242,0.0,0.0,0.29531592413046803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15385875780386166,0.0,0.3027819496282539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13900262995147358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357841411207536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12737946924516413,0.0,0.12169036327780006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09497534248861364 alcoholism,kintsugi9,2019/07/01,"How do you get through to someone who doesn't want to slow down, let alone quit. We have been together for 2 1/2 years and I love him very much. He is sweet and thoughtful when he's sober, but when he's been drinking he slurs and trips and urinates places he shouldn't. Over the course of the past few days I've told him I want him to slow down, and he just fiddles with something in the room, or stares over my shoulder. I asked him if he loves me enough to slow down and he said he can't because he would feel as if he's lying to me if he said he would. When I asked him why he just can't do it he simply stated he doesn't want to. I am in no position to move out of our shared home right now, and I don't know what to do. I love him, but its clear he doesn't love me enough to change.",3.667670454545455,2.8637213352272752,4.079681818181818,97.16077272727274,71.44318181818181,7.494545454545456,23.85,5.6839178017228535,0.06976545454545446,609,11,163,2,10,191,94,176,0.068,0.772,0.16,0.9677,0,1,2,0,0,0,15.0,2,1,0,1,7,6,0,0,3,0,18,7,2,1,1,29,34,18,0,9,8,0,1,0,0,3,0,2,2,0,4,10,1,0,3,1,0,2,8,0,0,0,6,5,20,6,23,24,4,24,0,0,1,4,37,11,0,4,10,93,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1515775379553771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27364053930327165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08921541139581005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15482203530438127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09438555741229004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1433701922901248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.302443478819027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07400045845197219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07646338571437906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14680396062190462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08043176420473809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496558263392873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5283570734593165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15555004442018588,0.10758627167387252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1397104689258677,0.0,0.0,0.15290770277926166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1556643972870705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12498463571644222,0.278430375688032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1240043955510241,0.11266966555965087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11618790946079813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13984653352978116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1207565266024167,0.2589683186607476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13206079061532858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20792989996115266,0.0,0.0,0.09424651355192544 alcoholism,SplatterBox214,2019/07/01,"I've admitted that I'm an alcoholic and it feels liberating Over this past weekend, I encountered a serious bout of psychosis because of alcohol withdrawal. My family protected me and kept me safe. I fully believed that I was going to be slain by the vampires from Netflix's Castlevania and it was absolutely terrifying. I'm attending an AA meeting tonight and I am committed to quitting. So done with this shit.",7.1708,8.568443146666667,8.668000000000003,59.63400000000002,64.2,13.466666666666667,44.33333333333333,12.688352899677879,6.825933333333335,336,22,51,14,5,117,57,75,0.122,0.7440000000000001,0.133,-0.2831,0,0,2,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,0,4,0,5,3,1,0,1,10,11,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,6,5,2,3,2,2,0,2,0,2,1,0,4,1,7,1,8,6,0,6,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,3,35,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.621685560183339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17730663797694446,0.0,0.0,0.3277016167152132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2976525802356084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.274198594844703,0.0,0.14706845254191095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1653034492889082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27766047533566995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30936729993013395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29856543159879806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,SpaceyCrazyGirl,2019/07/01,"24 pack a day, every day for the past 4 months. How long should I take to taper down? The short of it is, Iv been using alcohol as a crutch to stay off the hard drugs, but my body ain't going to take this much longer so I have to quit. Iv been drunk 24/7 for the past few months and I'm to the point now where 5 or 6 hours without alcohol and I start to sweat and shake badly, and start to see bugs and feel them crawling on me after about 12 hours with no beer. I will never go back to a recovery place and I'm going to do this my self or die trying. Had a very bad experience with them before, they forced me to stay at the hospital against my will when I wanted to leave and put me in the nuthouse for a while. Never again. I drank 25 beers yesterday, going to aim for maybe 10 max today and see if that works. Any ideas?",2.2186819360414884,3.0142001853932565,3.5387640449438216,94.07888072601558,75.23595505617978,6.825237683664651,19.310285220397574,7.010146845296331,-0.05221918755401855,635,10,155,6,13,208,116,178,0.163,0.8370000000000001,0.0,-0.9826,0,0,5,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,3,2,8,3,0,1,12,0,10,11,2,2,2,23,26,17,1,3,5,0,2,0,0,3,5,0,0,1,4,10,6,0,2,3,0,6,5,3,0,0,4,4,15,0,29,19,2,38,0,0,2,0,4,9,0,3,21,95,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2743722317735634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08729449117434357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09870689785580923,0.21436346593826905,0.0,0.0,0.10923152461426948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14258766326622696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16557319482644275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13322548723470273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14886586877554056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1081553896890763,0.0,0.0,0.12556831903961985,0.0,0.0,0.06490660573732578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2918174666169851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11499231537090268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25283280784513346,0.0,0.0,0.144911596740379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13592294239387911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11360144431226643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12896268712167952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20492387190540787,0.0,0.09436508724897984,0.0,0.1980102885213899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24508313904118856,0.0,0.0,0.13411700665253415,0.0,0.1213490426424555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12904507262701054,0.0,0.13653493334244415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2045849989729601,0.0,0.1339155887569713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18171874839641,0.2736459436193889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930331874547378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12167764419430635,0.0,0.0,0.0871532951950705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11086854504091502,0.0,0.10591686087294863,0.07571464154590572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12374195748287704,0.0,0.09345327146774324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,The_GreenBee,2019/07/01,"Need help supporting alcoholic friend (in denial, or not..) Hi all, my best friend (36M) is a heavy drinker, and has been since we started drinking together at 16 or 17. He is also a compulsive gambler. He is very charismatic, friendly and smart, except when it comes to these vices.. the last couple of years he has been going on 2-4 day binges, where he drinks non stop until he collapses. We tried speaking with him to no avail. Please keep in mind that we live in a country that doesn't have the support system you have in the Western world.. he has been seeing a therapist for a long time now, but still cannot seem to drink reasonably (if that is ever a possibility).. I do not have the full picture because lately he is becoming a bit manipulative and is not telling me everything, but last week he didn't show up to work for two or three days, we went to his apartment with his parents and found him collapsed on the floor... took him to the hospital, checked up on him, put an IV for a couple of hours before they released him... After that incident, he is still insisting that no one interferes with his ""private and personal matters"" and hasn't been seeing any of his friends.. So he have been talking behind his back to try and come up with an intervention or something, we just want to help him but know in advance that he is not open to it... we think he is in denial that he has a serious drinking problem as he always frames as if it was just a cycle that he is going through and will get out of... even if he goes through 25 cycles a year... As his friends, that care about him, we are inexperienced in how to handle and tackle this problem.. we thought of holding an intervention to tell him how much we care about him and all.. but then thought that it might drive him away and further from us (he has recently made some new friendships that are still getting to know him and do not know the depth of his issues to try and circumvent us...) We are uncertain about what would be the best course of action in this situation to try and help our friend out, your input and insight would be greatly appreciated! Thanks!",7.849043583535106,6.428171210653755,7.577785714285714,77.51350665859567,63.28571428571429,10.778159806295399,35.9042372881356,9.642632912329526,3.1298107506053263,1662,63,334,26,20,529,216,413,0.044000000000000004,0.8170000000000001,0.139,0.9925,1,0,7,0,0,0,65.0,13,2,1,4,18,19,0,1,22,0,40,6,0,5,3,85,68,36,0,9,19,1,0,0,6,4,2,1,0,1,19,34,5,4,10,5,1,10,11,4,0,3,13,3,37,15,59,49,8,62,0,0,2,0,67,26,0,11,25,236,56,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08703290139171484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0651262731180727,0.0677632873244984,0.0,0.0,0.05538091659863521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07651407410781219,0.06262111622765508,0.0,0.04964410347440927,0.08994233392868084,0.06929809514008109,0.0,0.1709291898041135,0.0,0.08890965963518414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16606378862334956,0.0,0.0,0.14030397139455653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18022012014381247,0.0,0.10504208421742668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3191145812070392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053789306749428584,0.0736657111410365,0.0,0.0,0.07319159854393824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0892930214117319,0.3775147164464364,0.0,0.08509642388056234,0.0,0.09256665892274617,0.0,0.0,0.08978614288790354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16375936397274524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08020043679907156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08500054959130053,0.0,0.07238620741685033,0.0,0.0,0.13426927351467102,0.13276635954156285,0.09186608224118342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07191161474658506,0.0720704368432266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07705899981540168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08639329144893249,0.08222958627540654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05986660734778019,0.06038555473520151,0.0,0.07865373117636576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055184779396915976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0904277251387473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07110888500709746,0.0,0.0893949270080954,0.0,0.0918095794775112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1558511342564053,0.0,0.08186810311257925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0837322568244101,0.08041061255910954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12979174989204095,0.07413847675432046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06736670058587597,0.0915401934990025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06269527257633747,0.0,0.0,0.057642531126338485,0.0,0.1951104764397422,0.06808616367016668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18483070236809374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06545711522062156,0.1423615330218404,0.07497755331376957,0.0,0.09455627967911387,0.0,0.052182449647879166,0.0,0.12930601360244473,0.047487396202934656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09048107844247737,0.22116535912236412,0.0,0.07955350051349619,0.0,0.1959207782084436,0.0,0.0,0.06719522342685935,0.048034488686976386,0.0,0.06532498629529679,0.0,0.0,0.07549422899584478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05928813792714824,0.0,0.0,0.1157030305369395,0.0,0.0,0.10488734171983738 alcoholism,CookiesAndDream,2019/07/01,"I’m 24 and yesterday was the first time I’d been honest about drinking I finally opened up about it to my partner of 1 year, and it was one of the hardest conversations I’ve ever had. The worst part was feeling intense shame and fear that he would leave me. He didn’t leave. Nothing bad happened, I’m still alive. We decided to do dry July together. I know I still have a ways to go but man does it feel like a weight has been lifted",0.7695604395604398,2.9811343626373628,2.6117472527472536,92.54575274725276,84.49450549450547,5.837802197802197,22.286813186813184,7.1686216300943375,0.7249815384615381,341,12,75,5,10,113,67,91,0.1,0.772,0.129,0.3869,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,1,0,0,1,5,6,0,2,5,0,11,2,0,0,1,12,18,4,0,1,1,0,3,1,1,1,0,0,0,2,4,5,2,0,4,1,0,1,1,4,0,2,7,3,6,2,8,10,2,12,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,9,45,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1757519440394423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18420287995185916,0.0,0.0,0.2062019266526715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19040197421334035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368619074512704,0.2128620581759332,0.15037545524028512,0.0,0.23058358741429186,0.0,0.17904430239824526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11962739741614742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18613729178951186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11568084326432718,0.0,0.0,0.4457610584102926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10283570986172856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20197265480888052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14263475884436605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279422151442934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3361982060890176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1227395194757448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16707867243077285,0.0,0.25632242704859554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14952740627537034,0.0,0.0,0.13554988219153502 alcoholism,snoo-lad,2019/07/01,"Father is a drinker, need advice. So, as the title says, my father is a drinker, i need advice. To start it off, when he drinks, he's more dulled than normal, and seems to be just passive. No yelling, no violence or anything. He doesn't drink too often, but when he does, he can't do anything. he just lays in his bed. A couple of times, he has went to some different places, because he was drunk, and most likely wanted to drink some more. We try to talk to him, but he just doesn't stop. When we think the whole drinking ordeal is over, a couple of weeks/months later it just repeats. I need advice soon, please. &#x200B; NOTE: This is my first post, ever.",2.681415683553088,4.381369091603055,3.1965301873698837,93.35643303261624,75.64122137404581,5.374323386537127,21.06939625260236,5.565023196281405,-0.07120458015267195,505,12,107,2,11,157,83,131,0.083,0.865,0.052000000000000005,-0.4704,1,0,6,0,1,0,34.0,2,0,0,1,12,2,0,0,6,0,11,5,0,0,1,24,19,10,0,5,7,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,3,4,5,1,2,5,0,1,5,1,0,1,2,2,8,1,13,16,6,17,0,1,0,0,17,4,0,6,12,67,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3902778177954575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14424575686928248,0.1617669133978297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21910846910878184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08115450710918222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29461051762105045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1390919915976659,0.0,0.0,0.11650252198020365,0.0,0.0,0.5216649055322383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12042325392339755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11323988409428375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06504034872661586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10626269621075524,0.0,0.0,0.2961415105567965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13043864324366902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1390919915976659,0.14613621219170647,0.0,0.0,0.12750125993559636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10586992126920856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12119609616727064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0942297448174304,0.0,0.0,0.11130222255812902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10700444868053294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08530400761706464,0.0,0.0,0.07762888164017694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0903861911740079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07852322795279455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12341237961732415,0.0,0.1486343316385498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1617669133978297,0.0 alcoholism,ninibikini,2019/07/01,"Lost my job, lost my friends, really wanting to drink right now. I have been laying on my couch in the darkness of my living room, pondering to drink or not to drink, for the past hour. “I won’t get that drunk! I certainly won’t black out, at least!” “I probably won’t even get hungover. I’ll just drink a lot of water!” Despite being an unemployed and having no friends, I don’t really feel depressed. Just bored. And boredom can be a dangerous thing for people in recovery. I suppose the real answer to this dilemma is to get off the couch, turn on the light, and **find something better to do** than be destructive. I’m just so codependent and feeling like I lack purpose and structure. I really need a hobby. Strangely enough, as I was typing this, I got spooked by an unsettling noise in the pitch blackness of my living room. It made me jump up, immediately turn on the light, so at least there’s that.",2.352411616161614,4.7594446704545454,3.64378787878788,86.35373737373737,79.56818181818181,6.865656565656568,25.118686868686872,7.984000788550335,1.6334239898989904,706,27,137,13,18,230,108,176,0.18100000000000002,0.7340000000000001,0.084,-0.9435,3,0,5,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,0,3,8,11,2,0,12,0,14,6,0,1,1,24,28,9,0,3,5,0,2,1,2,3,0,0,4,0,6,6,6,0,5,5,0,1,6,6,0,0,6,6,16,5,25,16,5,18,0,3,2,0,2,14,0,3,4,94,22,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12163519835834576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11845544860618082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5389129947429182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14210652708496688,0.0,0.0908380816565476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1390798465137028,0.09825233963002084,0.0,0.0,0.12570105447139987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2125125773843151,0.0,0.21556317700334074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10999628995782287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1354405599756543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1364785263555219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06719081299061662,0.0,0.2428851951126469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30026317219995785,0.11692413529392805,0.0,0.13013537709663278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10197766588561642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13128912293954356,0.09534683948065154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14828192936900872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15654065144913315,0.2643180867476925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11745092068109053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10587826157155956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09136963941459188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29918897468506805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08111948395253164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,tlouellie13,2019/07/01,"am i addicted? I take 2-3 beers at a time, 6 beers on average every week. i get drunk 3-4 times a week, 4-5 if my friends have alcohol too. mostly alone. I do it because i’m sad or bored. Do you think I have a problem? I haven’t tried to stop, but I don’t want to.",-2.3514285714285705,-0.8887407460317434,1.593015873015876,99.67142857142859,91.38095238095238,5.504761904761906,18.52380952380953,6.868970318607317,-0.12020000000000007,195,6,56,3,7,73,44,63,0.204,0.7290000000000001,0.067,-0.6261,0,1,3,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,3,0,7,5,0,0,0,8,12,3,0,3,3,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,1,3,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,9,1,4,12,1,7,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,3,5,29,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3060519587390623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3000295243365762,0.0,0.2907656974159267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17113869023514705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2365385878380805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21690180570467987,0.0,0.1466769415437371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2686337059350092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23471421695941566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2110842450740982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17988916026256865,0.0,0.0,0.3274076967886844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19060647305826744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16558984662179854,0.0,0.4503911567249448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,shanxo_,2019/07/01,"Are AA meetings religious? Hello, I'm moving to a fairly conservative part of US this month (from europe). And I've been planning to start attending meetings. I've been looking at a site and I saw that most of them were happening in churches etc, I'm in no way religious. Although I don't mind being around religious people at all, I'd rather not have my recovery based on that. How can you tell if a meeting is based on religion? And can you attend a meeting without doing a 12 step program? Thank you c:",2.9184555555555534,4.996946290000004,4.673333333333332,81.34722222222223,76.1,7.6444444444444475,29.11111111111111,8.515128840125781,2.4455777777777783,399,18,74,8,9,135,71,100,0.024,0.9420000000000001,0.034,0.212,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,1,3,1,1,3,1,0,0,5,0,11,0,0,1,1,13,18,6,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,0,4,2,8,1,13,13,4,15,1,0,2,0,11,8,0,2,2,53,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461275105202839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30835040563699856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2444920330150375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2321751640969064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2791679050857276,0.0,0.2206852165403909,0.2938565067273493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29940295711189424,0.0,0.1916777386635705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19569531341776414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24165736895107176,0.2545473890255812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3325736860211769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2194584647887032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2665186874357503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,heathaze92,2019/06/10,"Close friend’s drinking is getting out of hand. How can I make him aware about his problem? First a little back story. My friend is 28. Our group is probably partying or drinking since we are 16 almost every week. Myself and others don’t do it that regularly anymore. But alcohol once (not only one drink) a week is pretty normal. Most of us are still students so I would guess that’s normal. Over the last year I’m getting more and more worried about this friend. Many of us moved away or for other life circumstances we don’t see us that often anymore. So his group and activities also changed. But every activity is connected to drinking. He became part of the fire department (in Germany a lot of the fire fighters are volunteers) after each exercises there is drinking. Not a problem per se but he will get smashed even if he needs to work the next day. He started visiting pubs on Thursday and has more than 5 beers. He started driving when he had a few beers. Last weekend we and another old friend went out to the Biergarten. He was still a bit tipsy from his night out. But other than that his drinking seemed normal. For the next day we were getting together to have a barbecue. Well guess what: He already had three beers when we arrived. No one else was drinking alcohol, but he still had 5 until we left. His brother was also there and told us that yesterday he needed to help him open the door. He was too drunk to open it. Well considering that and other things we basically told him that he is acting like an alcoholic. He did stuff like lying about the numbers of drinks he had. This was the devastating part. He was not openly denying it, but damn he seems to be in his own world. For example we told him it’s to much ( no problem to drink a beer //yes but not three days a row more than 5), driving under influence is dangerous ( if you drive with sandals that is also dangerous), ... His answers are in brackets. It’s so hard to see such a close friend like this. He also used to be quite good informed in politics, economics and other stuff. But this changed as well. Now he has a few narrow-minded opinions. Even in soccer he is not interested in details anymore. It’s hard for me to see and I am really worried. Because where would that end? I want to help him, but I’m not sure how. We also planned to go to an exotic restaurant in the near future. I really want to go but I’m worried that this activity will make him drink. Which would make me feel bad. (Not for the reason that he is drunk, but because I see what is happening to him). Should I do it? At this point I have absolutely no clue how to help him, so I hope someone has an advices for me.",2.597200000000001,4.822365796190481,3.8562380952380977,86.11692857142859,77.70476190476191,6.790476190476189,25.54761904761905,7.839951260653429,1.5254761904761898,2093,79,411,34,50,683,234,525,0.11900000000000001,0.775,0.106,-0.8309,0,0,17,0,1,0,68.0,14,1,0,4,33,22,3,0,25,1,47,22,1,9,1,87,81,40,0,17,22,1,6,3,5,6,5,0,1,0,35,28,19,0,6,20,0,10,12,7,3,5,16,10,44,15,57,57,14,65,0,0,4,0,66,26,1,14,32,290,79,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053349880365136285,0.0,0.17503726763429092,0.054669291373345134,0.0,0.06024725428495783,0.2182991473244777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05724791627823389,0.0,0.0,0.16243155675128546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05129406716019249,0.04198040398295298,0.04558478229363628,0.06656155765894313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05960391085816397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11550914431216175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10562832626524236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5348259438246049,0.0,0.0,0.04560735486863879,0.0,0.0483552175218358,0.0,0.0,0.07211934131275541,0.0,0.09199776410183094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.027605016358589026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046438721291801696,0.0,0.0,0.21090090772144865,0.0,0.11409513171318912,0.0,0.06205551690905429,0.04579193456639484,0.0,0.0,0.1202857224891756,0.0,0.04827842997314292,0.0,0.09781330300254223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10978220558341384,0.0,0.0,0.05422543640878357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08900488756282113,0.0,0.0,0.059317936590629165,0.0,0.03856226417127848,0.08001749519777289,0.05471881798416422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046414958722071235,0.0,0.0,0.10932832946740847,0.055351049636094315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05512567419978612,0.0,0.0,0.05802614754860404,0.040133816082293515,0.08096342368930673,0.0,0.0,0.1161254093369013,0.05123397632258477,0.16047536204373253,0.0,0.0,0.057288567396982085,0.0581421964281885,0.0739903557250731,0.04152217418640215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11824274615761785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051610190814795766,0.0,0.0,0.05554303191817527,0.05886295086630448,0.15672094266492612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05806880556487904,0.0,0.0,0.0699502747660579,0.05613304552276161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17402149378218798,0.09940299350501336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04516178369150112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046258407573848415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07728564704871747,0.0,0.13079959470012667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12499707839120562,0.0,0.0,0.051455409738818965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036270681251718014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15650440253503695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26268562150646235,0.04715279692629819,0.0,0.0,0.06440342688440655,0.0,0.08758608852923405,0.0,0.1472631527769509,0.050610375901084526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03974601750199306,0.16633248525039673,0.0,0.11634877154699083,0.0,0.0,0.03515757338218958 alcoholism,FergusonTerd,2019/06/10,"Do I have a drinking problem? I will typically go through a handle of liquor in a week, almost always vodka. I rarely drink beer and I never mix different types of liquor once I start with one. Split evenly over the week this is 2-3 a day so it’s really never enough to even get me drunk. I’m not violent, no hangovers, and it doesn’t affect any of my relationships or work productivity. I’m more concerned if this is harming my long term health or not. Please don’t say, “well if you have to ask then you probably do”.",2.4990775681341724,4.20800718867925,4.254276729559752,85.53904612159329,76.16981132075472,7.352620545073376,23.09853249475891,8.167268648758528,1.1873576519916145,406,12,86,7,9,137,77,106,0.105,0.825,0.07,-0.5466,1,0,4,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,0,1,4,4,1,0,5,0,9,7,0,1,2,14,15,8,0,3,6,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,4,3,6,0,0,7,0,1,7,3,1,1,0,1,10,1,9,14,3,12,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,5,9,56,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1907308519624271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15848850881716586,0.0,0.0,0.1295279381387434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1780662220917832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12283910615895095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19900338620850566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3731813797279677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1968091709171562,0.0,0.2516107867141215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09951410165448037,0.0,0.10825000024422764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20246352716448876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16856230735068262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.293808510220991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20284716302582334,0.1290692016480653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2090817791865044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2053617393918998,0.18225660856355475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12202166121034665,0.0,0.0,0.20449635088926035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1514715016170202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13481752676655698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30557135213540265,0.0,0.1712577932158544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13866636259281764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,CoonFeeder,2019/06/10,"I’ve been sober for about I was sober for 85 days. Recently I just went out in the evening and grabbed some seltzer water with alcohol. I upgraded/downgraded and then got vodka and bagged wine. I am pissing out my asshole, and I know where this road leads and it’s much darker, yet I am still doing it (to feel better this morning was my current excuse). What do you suggest? Am I just weak or what the hell. How can I get back on track. I will be sick when I quit and I know it. I’m very concerned and I know this road doesn’t lead to anything good.",-0.10823188405797167,2.172127973913046,1.354782608695654,99.00463768115944,91.0,4.457971014492753,19.84057971014493,6.079149491110277,-0.12774202898550735,427,14,98,4,15,136,78,115,0.121,0.8270000000000001,0.052000000000000005,-0.8271,1,0,3,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,4,10,5,2,0,2,0,12,6,1,3,0,21,20,11,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,8,10,3,0,4,2,0,3,1,3,0,0,5,2,15,2,10,13,2,18,1,0,0,0,3,7,2,2,8,67,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2912991996732853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2243055535131039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20959293265041265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2410699569579635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17578797543949906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18003285833903024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13782183555948488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1424089038460242,0.0,0.0,0.22862252257991206,0.21800269365737127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44939937989083795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20037358893820947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.289916487197022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2691343929611549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2176783137025648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22490247358311174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2526792527283803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,en_arr_tee,2019/06/10,"65 yr old father has 3-5 drinks a day, should I be alarmed? Hello everyone. I am trying to figure out if I should have a talk with my dad about his drinking habits. My dad works a fairly stressful job though its a lot easier now that he's working slightly less hours. His kids including myself are grown and don't really need the financial support but he is at the point in his life where he worked pretty much his life's entirety so he has no other identity other than work. One way he would cope with the stress is by drinking and its a habit that has also stuck with him. The sad thing is even when my dad has days off, he knows no other way of relaxing other than drinking. So even when he's not even particularly stressed or in a relaxed mood he STILL drinks. Sometimes even more. My dad turned 65 recently but that has not changed the amount of drinks he has daily. He can go up to 5 drinks on any given day. And he drinks everyday without fail. He does not exhibit any behavior problems when he drinks though. No belligerence or poor conduct at work or home. He usually drinks either in the middle of a day off or at night after work. On any given week, I would say he drinks the equivalent of 15 drinks a week. So despite the fact that my dad doesn't have any behavioral problems or misconduct from drinking would you say he has some dependency on alcohol? And if so how do I have a conversation with him about how he can cut down his drinking? I really worry about his health and the fact that he really has nothing else but work and drinking in his daily routine. Thank you very much everyone. :)",4.6294034987094905,5.683772526813883,5.216927158015487,83.32396831086895,69.78864353312304,8.792027530828793,27.658302265557786,9.095868883498916,2.097480757097792,1269,42,254,24,22,408,156,317,0.121,0.789,0.08900000000000001,-0.8799,1,0,16,0,0,0,26.0,0,2,0,8,22,14,1,4,18,0,27,19,0,3,2,43,36,28,0,10,15,6,0,0,0,5,4,2,1,1,12,11,16,0,2,17,1,2,9,9,0,1,3,2,23,4,34,27,8,40,0,2,0,0,41,18,0,10,18,163,35,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0585745390717011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04383102675365909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14908898181083435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057981037222206926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14139001613824853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04796404178208708,0.0,0.0,0.8053846249391202,0.0,0.0,0.04578618872110416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14480426594782242,0.0,0.0,0.10474538782603633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03114942333936359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058259788491443414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054978258672621766,0.0,0.053976180774572134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05438983426926925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030121791804597974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07742694615571012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04659695932053165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08058237459877576,0.040640447217586605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05143487307244622,0.0,0.05259106077290418,0.0,0.057513205182693025,0.0,0.037140241968947774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05181256276283937,0.0,0.0,0.05576082517551596,0.0,0.1048903139719961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10533684174701427,0.0,0.05411763243332888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08717320862951694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05420786019830107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04377082705799901,0.0,0.18835181595578707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06219701414286349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04405368879700626,0.0,0.05046109638826801,0.0,0.0,0.03641290448914255,0.0,0.10769983918627496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03721195881691287,0.05961684663096103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060364768510102085,0.04522346350759418,0.0,0.08701024031176496,0.08792952782053191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05283426880728488,0.0,0.2793130766846892,0.055661567321471504,0.0,0.1168049939941222,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,icumhotsauce,2019/02/26,"Why quit alcohol when you don’t want to quit? Been trying to quit it once, started drinking again and feel a lot better You can only quit if YOU want it, well I don’t, so what’s next? Drink until I want to quit or until I die? Won’t take that long if I keep it up lmao",-1.166955503512881,0.6604803606557397,1.3495550351288053,100.90803278688526,89.65573770491804,4.141451990632318,13.632318501170962,5.288315135182226,-1.3040370023419203,206,3,53,1,7,70,41,61,0.063,0.723,0.214,0.7536,0,0,3,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,0,6,4,2,0,0,1,0,5,3,0,0,0,10,12,8,1,5,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,1,3,1,1,2,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,1,7,2,6,10,1,8,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,4,7,33,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15622031798747282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12928296876695194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1517101628346824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28639848007726304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07391222152641726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12993013170584722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12936333709560474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12427569926571826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15546245052458355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15567528910721462,0.0,0.11117530585229857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7773939281420458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10346586633519528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10990800975516277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09924557890585964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586595291108885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1314319908301981,0.0,0.1319033235077726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Nirvanafan1997,2019/02/26,"Unsure of what to do Basically every 4 or 5 times I get drunk, I black out. Mainly when drinking spirits and I turn into a horrible person, causing me to ruin relationships and act completely out of character. I’m so sick of it but can’t seem to stop. I live in Vietnam so going to therapy is wayyyy to expensive. On a side note, whenever I use recreational drugs or drink just beer I am okay. Please can someone offer me some none-judgemental advice. Thank you.",2.171666666666667,4.757782833333336,4.440000000000005,79.26000000000003,81.77777777777777,8.044444444444443,25.66666666666667,8.841846274778883,2.5434666666666668,365,15,66,10,10,126,72,90,0.14800000000000002,0.757,0.095,-0.406,0,0,4,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,0,2,1,5,6,0,2,0,14,12,8,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,5,4,1,1,4,1,2,1,1,0,0,0,1,9,2,13,12,2,11,1,1,1,0,4,6,0,4,3,42,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2175902103663168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22874307347628964,0.0,0.0,0.23346489742455265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43626298252098217,0.258226107554038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18760878850282914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1163357046976108,0.0,0.1265482966992325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19662138538815854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1944265544971192,0.0,0.2444244154014039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23906387831739925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20271009156687755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18866727659584664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1861618025651248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.205004302260755,0.2546421570265306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12984046683975747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24220064408683964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19231508922479715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ShadowK2,2019/02/26,"How to start quitting So I’ve been drinking since I was about 13 years old. Currently 26. I generally drink about 8-10 drinks a night on an empty stomach. Some weekends I have been known to roll through 2-30 racks of keystone ice. I still feel good, I hold down a 6-digit salary job, I have three kids, and I have the house and sports car of my dreams. Nobody (not even my wife) realizes how much I drink. I guess you can call me a functioning alcoholic. I just got some bloodwork back from the doctor, and it looks like my liver is pretty damaged. I’ve just realized that I need to quit. My wife and I put about 50k into retirement funds every year to retire early. I want to live it up when I’m in my 50s and not die early from some kind of liver failure. I want to see my three kids grow up. I guess this is my wake up call. What is the first step? I promise myself everyday that I won’t drink tonight, but I always do. 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Hey reddit, I’ve been sober for 5 days. Besides the night sweats, sweaty palms, pale skin, depression, and anxiety, I’ve been mostly okay. But I’m a relatively healthy eater and ever since I stopped drinking it feels like I can’t stop eating, it’s gotten to the point where I’m running to the kitchen and grabbing blocks of cheese or whatever I can find to immediately put in my mouth. I read that a reduced appetite can be a symptom of withdrawal but I can’t find anything on overeating. Is it possible I’m confusing alcohol cravings with food cravings? Or could it be something unrelated? Thanks for reading guys. 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Yes! I’ve been going to AA for 25 years. My life has completely transformed but I find myself living with some might consider a double life. I’m a single straight guy but for some reason I have felt a draw to transvestites. I understand that this channel is about alcoholism but we alcoholics sometimes wander into different behaviors that have addictive personalities. I love sex. I’m a guy. That’s kind a how it goes with guys. I’ve wandered into porn addiction at various stages in my life. I find that when I am aroused sometimes I wonder on two different sites where I can see transvestites. Although I am straight and have never been attracted to men this is always been a little confusing to me. It’s been a journey that I’ve been working through for about 12 years. This is my first time posting on this platform and I am concerned about anonymity. Obviously this is not a topic that I like to talk openly about in Alcoholics Anonymous meetings... LOL. Again… I am single. I think sex is a natural part of the human experience and I wander back-and-forth between why is this transvestite thing a draw for me and I’m single and not hurting anyone (except myself re the secrecy that is involved in the activity) so why not just roll with it. Part of the reason I am posting this is to come out of the shadows and to find out if other alcoholics have had this experience. I understand this is not the traditional post for this platform but we alcoholics grapple with various challenges in life and I think that it’s good to talk about it. 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My Father has struggled most of his life with alcohol as a way to cope with things that have happened throughout his life. After battling with alcohol off and on for many months and even years, November of 2018 marked 1 year of sobriety. His entire life had changed for the better and my family and I, and all of his friends were more than ecstatic for him, our relationship returned to the way it used to be and we were able to do many things together again as Father and Son. Sadly as of roughly a week ago he has had a relapse and began to drink again. It crushes my heart to see him like this again and I’m not sure what to do..it’s devastating but I believe in him and always will. I’m mainly making this post to ask for help, because I’m currently at a loss..What can I do him to recover again?",3.6004102564102567,4.667097400000003,4.756666666666668,85.62115384615385,72.22222222222223,8.205128205128206,26.62393162393163,8.617729084823388,1.7350213675213673,692,23,146,12,13,228,102,180,0.12,0.78,0.1,-0.4479,1,0,3,0,0,0,16.0,2,0,0,1,7,8,1,1,7,0,13,7,1,3,3,25,24,16,0,0,4,4,1,1,1,1,5,0,0,0,9,14,3,0,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,6,2,16,5,31,16,4,22,0,1,1,0,19,4,0,1,15,101,25,0,0.14865784321965805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13177620851322544,0.3177400493296073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236952342902827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13897501607664192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09062044143448802,0.0,0.0,0.16748648276433686,0.0,0.131475781776297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15726028679981893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14562809172327276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09818710342107363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14014138437825635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1148526809097836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13145763980907704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17616025997490328,0.09964221873728953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3150042930023057,0.07262671319942125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09923026469619244,0.3014314405072334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11865727217937842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28474624196220005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0952340209681407,0.0,0.0,0.15960288997315114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11846105425022352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10522078656859392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15540945481138865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.280216515882436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1975233309894559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1283926465250861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359953529894528,0.11924435492793672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19146155418923613 alcoholism,Jdover527,2019/01/29,Sweating after withdrawl from alcohol So i recently had a scare with alcohol. I have quit drinking after years of everyday drinking. It has been almost a month and im past the worst of my withdrawls. But i have had sweaty feet everyday that only stops when im at home with no socks or shoes on and not when im sleeping. Im wondering if anyone else has had sweating similar to this?. I read hyperhidrosis can be caused my alcohol withdrawl but should it be everyday? And for this long afterwards? Any input is a help thanks,2.6537803780378013,5.311251821782182,4.113681368136817,81.92337533753377,80.2871287128713,8.02916291629163,27.993699369936987,8.841846274778883,2.746932673267327,418,19,76,11,11,138,67,101,0.083,0.843,0.07400000000000001,0.5037,0,0,5,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,1,4,0,13,10,5,1,0,15,15,10,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,5,5,5,1,1,3,0,0,2,2,0,0,4,0,6,1,11,8,1,16,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,4,14,52,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4527021254009018,0.14139220026322016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0960213829097927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0987308792834874,0.14467690130998775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14505211250988626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2766460477374473,0.0,0.0,0.11795514613541165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09464391682698987,0.0,0.1416359106782447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6100843571976555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1249582606722337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11270512782008005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10738956771608232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13479213649122287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15018442674525895,0.14123900642322568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1394187509482196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14136662895606092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14130276900846298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11805018757658127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12999872155525655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1531262394782559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09092868284089556 alcoholism,kikorellia,2019/01/29,Self help Tired of making excuses for myself and just tired in general. It’s time to take care of myself and attempt sobriety. Any tips for surviving the early stages of staying clean and sober? Anything helps. ,4.391052631578948,7.3893420526315845,4.572894736842105,79.19776315789477,75.84210526315789,8.010526315789475,27.921052631578952,8.841846274778883,2.816031578947369,170,7,27,4,4,53,31,38,0.11800000000000001,0.61,0.272,0.765,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,6,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,7,3,0,5,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,15,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18981181157170496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2296927520719665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28458240212509833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3741777667178467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18631539574974787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29118401582622344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2975057852385463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20986421085305007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1627576655227202,0.6416169234273457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,LifeSeenInHD,2019/01/29,"Got demoted, now I feel worthless I messed up pretty bad. On Sunday, I got off work early but I decided to stay for a drink and hang out while everyone else was working. One drink lead to another, which eventually lead me to do a lot of small stupid things that in turn got me demoted yesterday. My problem with alcohol started a few months back, then it kept getting worse and worse, until this. Honestly I’m incredibly embarrassed about this, I don’t even know what to do. I feel like I need to quit that job and move on somewhere else so I can be away from that environment. Basically, I feel like shit about this and could use some advice.",4.6182044444444434,5.917587496000007,5.497066666666669,80.3889777777778,70.03999999999999,9.715555555555557,29.08888888888889,9.994966539143718,2.7889022222222226,507,19,101,13,9,166,88,125,0.21899999999999997,0.6920000000000001,0.08900000000000001,-0.9603,1,0,3,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,5,6,10,2,1,3,0,7,4,1,3,0,21,21,9,0,3,1,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,10,6,3,1,5,2,0,4,1,7,0,1,5,3,12,3,19,14,3,23,0,1,0,0,0,8,1,2,12,66,22,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14646358550295474,0.0,0.16017896471930262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15716502123896908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14081967831779155,0.11525050189660548,0.12514574753312138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11966909555030032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2936558613306401,0.0,0.0,0.2504154338734631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09899607309785337,0.0,0.0,0.1432192898740388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2273555055461092,0.21415238231965825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07830749555938048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35962452847678833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14873539736849667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08237158163284469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14645017844988428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12742486447727255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11963489685490088,0.15930153103859399,0.0,0.11113608172100006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10156435888856373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1524845332128839,0.0,0.1434174486678466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15941864181693724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15385238068056029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10608770720007307,0.15975495648832547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0995753690243134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16302927730233446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12945048155780794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2182327005407606,0.0,0.3054864391020702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ghostofburtreynolds,2019/01/29,Lied to boss 44 Male here. I went out for my birthday last night with a friend. Overdid it. Had to make up a lie about getting in a fender bender this morning. Missed a meeting with my boss and our CEO that I setup. I think this is a wake up call. I try not to go out on weeknights but sometimes it happens but my anxiety was particularly bad today and couldn't deal with the stress of work.,0.8051851851851843,3.0519001358024687,2.3422222222222224,94.30000000000004,84.67901234567901,4.587654320987656,21.34567901234568,5.82211442006289,0.003997530864197518,305,10,67,2,9,99,61,81,0.17600000000000002,0.7979999999999999,0.026000000000000002,-0.905,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,1,0,0,1,2,4,0,1,6,0,4,1,1,3,0,15,11,4,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,5,7,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,3,0,8,1,15,7,0,11,0,1,0,0,6,6,0,0,3,44,13,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21379724723711532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333495553357232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2853747379076581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28812596435462423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21592132532163366,0.0,0.14601390481445942,0.0,0.1588318134720783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24713840013474125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2278090394476862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18655141608795686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2622679102851639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2764074521038296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32013712499145536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17907599140863914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2649091723047273,0.0,0.0,0.18974485778905334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590756852981737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20346078326561887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,DailyWhey,2019/01/29,"""What soberness conceals, drunkenness reveals"" Thoughts on this notion? What are your thoughts on the notion that alcohol exposes people for who they really are. Like it brings out the truth, the true person etc. I have just responded to a comment on another sub where someone suggested this to me. Whilst I am aware that drinking lowers inhibitions etc. I can't say this is true in my experience and with other people I witnessed. I responded to the comment with this "" I actually disagree with this. Think of the crazy shit people do when drunk; Piss in the sink, get naked, have sex with unattractive people, get into fist fights with friends, tell strangers that they love them. You are telling me that is the real them? I don't think so at all. In words of Mike Tyson ""we all do dumb shit when we are fucked up"" What are your thoughts on this and how is it in your experience? 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Smoke it up. Pour that shit out !,-2.0983333333333327,-2.13338083333333,-0.4193333333333325,104.48100000000002,135.11111111111111,3.6622222222222223,9.155555555555557,5.6839178017228535,-1.5658577777777782,67,1,17,1,5,21,17,18,0.179,0.688,0.133,-0.2481,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,3,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6056963636657018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4624538183481658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4820297425298531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4323374934630944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Sprout_knowledge,2019/01/29,"Did alcohol ruin my brain? I’m an 18 years old and last year was a really low point of my life. I was drinking a lot, mostly by myself, but I’ve managed to do it a lot less now. In school, I always excelled. I passed all my classes with flying colors with minimal effort. I even skipped a grade and started taking college classes my sophomore year of high school. Once I started drinking, my grades slipped a bit, but I chalked that up to not giving a shit. Now I’m in college and I feel like a fucking idiot. I’m not understand the material while others in my class are. I can’t get myself to focus. This shit used to come easy to me but I feel quite literally retarded now. I’m just worried that I’ve caused permanent damage to no point of return. Is this true?",1.4698076923076933,3.666340660256413,3.4919871794871824,87.39259615384617,81.5,5.951282051282053,24.493589743589745,7.1686216300943375,1.1443666666666663,597,23,120,8,16,202,96,156,0.161,0.701,0.139,-0.406,0,0,3,0,0,1,18.0,0,0,0,3,5,10,4,0,9,0,7,8,3,2,2,22,22,7,0,0,6,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,6,6,3,0,3,2,0,2,4,7,0,0,3,3,18,3,16,19,6,22,0,3,1,1,1,8,3,3,13,76,24,12,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16081832824314232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12521217159862436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16428617911798402,0.0,0.0,0.16798646218815252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15458534607928945,0.0,0.12962597916846072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2948280055421198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09939122160098582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1521753387234609,0.1075035919175956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13911717614934124,0.07862006441879123,0.14435500050014172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15899134301474527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12266202577979694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10628911673117056,0.07351737136799619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2558669762631384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15790440105834386,0.1602572576058749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2845061986851663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1600549704683081,0.0,0.0,0.09640192400222963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30458942870531763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3089329825627675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21302232473485053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11314291647245026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15665593393432095,0.0,0.12996719057884945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15282066826125187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2907143163020621 alcoholism,deadlegs12,2019/01/29,Alcohol Substitutes What are some things you replace alcohol with?,7.445999999999998,11.2089056,6.420000000000003,57.94000000000002,93.0,14.0,45.0,10.125756701596842,8.992,56,4,6,3,2,17,9,10,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,6,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.954934145890598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2968177505005285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,jeebus224,2019/10/16,"I can’t seem to stop Howdy folks. My name is jeebus224 and I’m an alcoholic. I’m 23 going on 24 and am a college student. I live in an area where alcohol is rampant. It’s very culturally normal to drink alcohol all the time. Part of me wants to stop drinking, and I’m sure I’ve cut back my intake since I started drinking. But I just can’t seem to get my head on straight. I can tell that when I go on binges, usually the weekends, I get really depressed. I really hate that part. But that’s also something that gets me to not drink so much throughout the week. I really want to stick to one drink a night when I drink. At least if I’m drinking on the week days. I also am really trying to give up drinking by myself. I think that would be a huge step also. Sorry if I’m talking your ears off. I just had to say something.",0.3734917293233089,2.4567186800000016,2.7015338345864666,92.0988872180451,85.05714285714284,5.741353383458648,21.21052631578948,7.0608816371341465,0.5631714285714282,639,21,142,9,19,218,100,175,0.096,0.8540000000000001,0.05,-0.8204,0,0,13,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,0,0,10,4,2,0,9,0,10,13,2,0,2,22,28,13,0,6,7,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,6,3,11,2,3,9,0,3,3,3,0,1,1,2,20,1,19,25,5,28,0,1,0,0,7,12,0,4,13,88,26,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2900262759134933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21702517271655347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0695590167344145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05833993813951669,0.0,0.07791402930238718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7089396622595888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1417866032097202,0.08677854831995672,0.10282227729138728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08931162685987103,0.09283920620093887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07987882546474677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06649933110738486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08489163224442578,0.0886326899759706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061298795435074487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1959211531656708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23180683706640476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07193831272918899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16470481064150425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07483037249543309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13928277798344962,0.0,0.10126381663974768,0.06402884567969848,0.0,0.0,0.15125909224925854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0852585341616071,0.0,0.0,0.07270922090345837,0.07906700530379475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05796383244118181,0.0,0.0,0.052748605999695324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06141716182580334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09963014240672187,0.07463989708885868,0.10671262359040684,0.0,0.14512490637729095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06426098353215848,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,StupidSexyKevin,2019/10/16,"11 days sober. Thanks, guys. I posted here almost two weeks ago detailing the effects that alcoholism has had on my life. Originally it was just to vent and get it all off my chest, but then I started getting replies with advice and offers of help and it truly humbled me. Seeing that people were willing to reach out to a random guy online to help out made me feel like sobriety wasn't as scary as I thought. Anyway to get to the point, I wound up getting drunk for the last time to date on the night of October 4th with some friends and family, where I completely blacked out and woke up sick, sore(I was told I busted my ass nearly ten times), and in a state of mental anguish I had never felt before. I was beaten into such a state of reasonableness by alcohol that I immediately went to a hospital the following morning to detox and seek professional help. I was told that day, October 5th, that if I did not stop drinking and begin to take care of myself that I could die in a years time, and that was exactly the wake up call I needed to enact change. I am now preparing to start therapy, meetings, and whatever else is necessary for me to achieve long term sobriety. I just want to thank all of the people who commented wanting to help me, incase any of you ever see this and remember me, thank you. Now it's time to stop just talking about it and start being about it ✊🏻",5.392683823529412,5.847777900735295,6.180882352941179,79.2464705882353,67.78676470588235,9.635294117647057,29.970588235294123,9.627879704456738,2.616560294117647,1087,38,213,22,17,358,163,272,0.08800000000000001,0.75,0.162,0.9532,0,0,3,0,0,0,25.0,0,2,0,3,12,8,1,1,12,0,16,11,3,4,5,46,43,17,1,5,6,0,2,1,1,1,6,0,0,2,15,18,4,2,6,2,0,2,3,2,0,2,17,5,26,6,45,23,4,46,0,0,3,1,17,15,1,4,27,146,41,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10695303950433037,0.0970206091053886,0.23393701693914498,0.10959812542987683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07442959051847503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09313368506280137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11176044296701768,0.0,0.11159132555316986,0.0,0.11578333437841512,0.0,0.11475599180259802,0.0,0.0,0.08738672796987176,0.0,0.0,0.14117208229274608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11359157179459688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10721909759931593,0.0,0.0,0.09143123084004462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09900357473705536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10317949367837692,0.0,0.05534108764463612,0.07819093096597313,0.10508893435745853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08456061367204758,0.0,0.2287319305283192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2167449416660817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29344747017923045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08921616309570682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07730760284857925,0.053471624593167975,0.0,0.0,0.09685959410179147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10356401002877104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11029961600162694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08115561078096656,0.08441440287255891,0.0,0.0,0.10271118615617797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15175736622107686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10346540122043214,0.0,0.10482261611309893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11253258290748863,0.0,0.0,0.12398524300109735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1744345776570083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23240731203178866,0.0,0.0,0.18300980168570424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0822925989111833,0.08797157182681165,0.0,0.3022999040444841,0.1251653400861935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08689088439756429,0.25528414271569605,0.0,0.0,0.20916787357184013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10691651260385122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12911260929993634,0.0,0.08779399618502799,0.0,0.0,0.10146102476763964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07048205748703015 alcoholism,craigslisthottub,2019/10/16,4th week sober I honestly can’t believe I’ve made it this far already. I’ve tried quitting several times and have failed every time. I think this might be the first time I can see and believe in myself for quitting for good or at least for a long term situation: I’m having hella withdrawals though. Shaking. Anxiety. Need for alcohol. Also I have this twitch in my face that’s been happening every since the day I went sober. It twitches like 20 times a day probably. It’s very annoying and distracts the hell out of me. Also side note but wow I’ve also saved a pretty good amount of money so far. Ive got a long way to go though because I’m currently typing this frantically and just need to get my thoughts out rn because my mind is racing. Im going to call my sponsor tomorrow. Thanks for reading. I don’t get to talk to any of my friends about how I feeling regarding this whole new sober life thing. Maybe it’s overwhelming for them or something.,2.6629883040935667,4.8846479421052615,3.8045614035087763,86.58637426900587,77.47368421052632,6.959064327485383,26.345029239766077,7.984000788550335,1.6973625730994155,759,30,149,13,18,246,120,190,0.077,0.759,0.16399999999999998,0.9653,1,0,2,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,1,4,9,15,2,4,7,0,11,5,1,2,0,20,28,14,0,2,4,0,1,1,1,1,4,0,0,0,11,6,1,0,3,1,1,4,2,7,0,1,5,2,16,8,20,21,4,27,1,2,1,0,4,8,1,3,15,82,27,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271354083504127,0.0,0.0,0.13127877358402115,0.28540431933692445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08089900869670304,0.0,0.09100646982033612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1450376413168732,0.0,0.0,0.26806142221410145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12147465792240116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534427562153211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20046313789898065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06015133362230609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10118997870281393,0.0,0.0,0.09191062013374196,0.0,0.12430665215356135,0.0,0.1352189780369314,0.19956126071680505,0.09514568358136692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10519870411785166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12850059596887495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08402717778779223,0.058119376888359726,0.0,0.0,0.21055725528020816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11256579123464787,0.0,0.0,0.11951445511229765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12620108271079478,0.12011885002611787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17641930895014085,0.0,0.11489533350594207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12102827253949595,0.12826237628549142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25306386717608864,0.11899532440269554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09479821342949102,0.0,0.0,0.13439447684848155,0.0,0.09840753153405328,0.13371954392961746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09158363047967834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09561805868746953,0.0,0.10952526809095173,0.0,0.0,0.07903381835894435,0.07622677100983695,0.2337613449669643,0.09444343793343757,0.2774734341251164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08076815720078978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0981570421411256,0.0,0.0944273963399241,0.09542504817526723,0.0,0.0,0.1102800145463148,0.0,0.132818087666791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Tallulahbelle1971,2019/10/16,"Do i take a chance? Hi! My name is Debbie. Im an absolute alchoholic! I have an chance to go to detox and i really want to..BUT i have no insurance & because where i am in the US everything is private pay... My parents have the money to support this detox... am i a jerk for asking them to pay? I seriously want get better but dont wanna stress my parents out... They worry enough about me. Im just needing responses... Good or bad. Thanx ✌🏼&❤️",-1.1101773049645411,0.933022521276598,2.0433617021276618,91.57433333333334,100.38297872340424,5.059858156028369,19.032624113475176,6.742157984588678,0.4893824113475178,343,12,74,6,15,121,65,94,0.151,0.669,0.18,-0.2853,2,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,1,0,2,1,3,7,1,1,6,0,9,2,0,0,0,10,17,3,0,4,3,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,4,0,0,0,0,14,3,9,17,1,4,0,0,0,0,8,3,0,1,0,46,15,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3985492848886693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17193812867657504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15356351351343062,0.11211446172093524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1626601710370709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2155500571117011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19003604477238772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16529327954282425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09608935492876593,0.0,0.10452461029716062,0.15426135672417987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39732513620776216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13637256977250206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4084374585918525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11782232385263902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21067698907352544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2087075126271862,0.0,0.0,0.13828314615319087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.221230227272704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21695873089768972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18677725007685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,JacobSHarter,2019/06/14,"Im one of the idiots who has spent years thinking he doesnt have a problem, with a drink in his hand every night. I've said all the cliche stuff. ""I just like to drink, I don't need to drink."" ""I never go overboard."" ""It's just to loosen me up a bit."" ""I could stop if I wanted."" Though, I still think some of those things are true. I have two or three drinks on light days and ten to fifteen on heavy days. It's not the worst I've ever seen but it's still a real problem if it keeps going like this. So, now I'm trying to put my money where my mouth is and start. I'm two days sober now. Not impressive, I know. Now to my real question: I like kombucha, and fizzy beverages in general, but I'm also fat and don't need any needless calories. So for the past few days it's been strictly seltzer. I'm wondering about the idea of still drinking kombucha. The probiotics, the flavor, the fizz are all attractive to me but I also know it's the tiny alcoholic in my head saying ""a little won't kill you."" Looking for any advice from people like me who thought their problem ""wasn't that bad.""",1.362338997272918,3.1682808370044064,2.7649213341724383,94.4924082232012,79.83700440528634,5.557289700020979,20.94168239983217,6.42735559955562,0.12059026641493585,838,23,189,7,21,272,131,227,0.023,0.8270000000000001,0.15,0.9786,0,0,6,0,0,0,39.0,0,1,1,0,16,14,2,0,14,0,13,10,4,0,5,41,34,15,1,9,10,0,1,4,0,1,2,2,0,0,13,5,7,2,8,5,2,3,8,7,0,5,6,8,20,7,21,26,6,28,0,0,2,0,9,8,0,6,21,119,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0999214996918658,0.0,0.1092785098690643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16354509538035886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13907255633920312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08537788236323653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11163496749544803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0816415592523779,0.0,0.0,0.2637816791872202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5008503300786697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.092494665962081,0.0861534692715141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11622669575391845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1049421823499688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11543240547465047,0.11045194904366516,0.0,0.0,0.09088812110243444,0.1131289849702013,0.0,0.11239233206644043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1998247060605872,0.10248544733226712,0.0,0.0,0.0858676705520651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15164020349912918,0.07886464722938442,0.0,0.0,0.09595852351106088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06929000830164324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09761308589914798,0.07089010135838042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2935300232544829,0.0,0.10279358921614933,0.11454796714360155,0.0,0.0,0.2327750496688015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09726704229082922,0.08131654546933521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07237596134152402,0.0,0.2449807117105705,0.08548898622935402,0.0,0.0,0.11705645302733447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06793306453008849,0.13104056621466512,0.10046411056694116,0.08117831450882361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06942380551801634,0.0,0.19977474844496654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060312103378124336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11089018363157847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0658482724578127 alcoholism,Nema_h,2019/06/14,Can you microwave liquor? I want to make some ramen with mad dog but idk if it’ll ignite pls help,1.09,2.9408134761904776,1.9907142857142863,99.49178571428571,80.90476190476191,4.2,15.261904761904766,3.1291,-1.304638095238095,77,1,18,0,2,24,21,21,0.155,0.5870000000000001,0.258,0.3506,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,0,7,4,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6012655037738014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5987796723943845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5290961140463141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,chingchongpotatosoup,2019/06/14,"12 days no alcohol, first time in... 10 years? So, I'm a functional alcoholic and I would usually drink everyday or other day, sometimes copious amounts and sometimes just a night cap. Yesterday was the toughest day, and frankly the only one where I saw my body going through a phase of calorie desire. I fucking ate everything in my path. I wanted a drink pretty bad. Today I'm feeling better, not so edgy and ""needy"". This truly is a one day at a time thing. Props to those who keep trying even though they fell short, and cheers to those who met or exceeded their goals.",4.741032110091744,6.194379559633028,5.204483944954131,82.01663417431195,69.91743119266054,8.752752293577982,30.13876146788991,9.188382445141503,2.6226412844036697,448,18,84,9,8,143,80,109,0.063,0.7909999999999999,0.146,0.8519,0,0,4,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,2,3,6,4,1,0,8,0,3,7,1,0,0,14,13,10,0,3,4,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,7,5,5,1,1,2,0,2,2,2,0,3,4,2,8,2,7,8,1,20,0,0,1,1,5,5,1,2,13,51,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3522636992890599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1376095296082271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1457611193589122,0.0,0.18306684102273488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4251554593236412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32290226189038645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10885550105049972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14812066958405376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0833329265776302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14018736672708654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15236425984643462,0.0,0.0,0.0936653644240664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1464907684014788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15466309208839124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2233591460695447,0.12534548967012027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16767109791246831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3260027593323947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10949249145181582,0.0,0.16192506320089542,0.0,0.19220416174294586,0.0,0.15622068161780464,0.0,0.0,0.11189522340578603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18151501487759605,0.0,0.09720925309714877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11707634958777025,0.0,0.0,0.10613228564141304 alcoholism,Trumplicksmybutthole,2019/06/14,"Hello all. I'm wondering if anyone has experienced alcoholic myopathy I'm a 35 year old guy. Hold a steady job, for all intents and purposes I am getting by, but I am a full on alcoholic trying to get the nerve to quit and believe I may be having physical symptoms. I spoke w/ my doctor about them and all he could really say was, ""it's possible...you need to stop."" I have been drinking about a pint of vodka plus a beer or two every night for the last 4-5 years. I may skip one night once every two or three weeks but in general, it is every night. I am fully aware this is terrible for me, I'm just wondering if anyone else has experienced why I am lately...Pain and weakness in my legs. It's pretty bad. For example, if I bend at the knees, only a few inches, my legs begin trembling and shaking. They also seem to be getting weaker, sore and tiring out very easy. Again, I know I need to quit and I am not asking for medical advice, I'm just simply wondering if anyone else experienced anything like this. I know people who have drank like this (family members) for ten years and it didn't happen to them. It's just hard for me to believe that could be the cause of it. Thanks for your time in advance.",2.7275714285714265,4.2953373795918415,4.696071428571432,83.21267857142857,75.20408163265307,7.838775510204082,24.086734693877553,8.548686976883017,1.6074857142857155,938,29,189,18,20,322,140,245,0.107,0.816,0.077,-0.7691,1,0,5,0,0,0,37.0,0,1,3,3,7,8,0,2,10,0,22,14,3,2,3,42,43,18,0,8,12,0,1,2,0,2,8,2,0,1,11,10,5,2,6,3,0,2,2,5,0,5,5,6,22,3,27,31,5,24,0,0,0,0,11,9,0,12,15,124,33,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10021434350991792,0.0,0.2191975532801549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08201220167006651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21512391219365468,0.210156884652704,0.08439300309161181,0.0,0.09587391817727499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0856281026374073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2310859289340492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10535095720655567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16376165867873074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10496811490282232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10046363831676064,0.0,0.0,0.1713410075562714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2592178877650347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09667855416344304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1607403143745408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10154434197862314,0.09068794779547024,0.0,0.09186802181980316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10176877858606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11272172463704452,0.08359499885693318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10020517004186956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10331212002878444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15208462133012474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2887192586429371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10761291558704288,0.10921640321209222,0.06949307921877808,0.07799675273337647,0.10912442702597362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0710978617303515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10433403865452384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21815708632375133,0.0,0.0,0.0656985621714708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08155486302581187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.093361087867925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08573953211993822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10659261967891112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09441772004900201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059799919874436676,0.1178704563247799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06962726855984716,0.0,0.20036023605539507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08461758904824385,0.0,0.0,0.08226243716466412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09253881362840073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3336455213923554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19812376963831044 alcoholism,schaweniiia,2019/06/14,"Just listening to my drunk boyfriend's snoring We've been together for three years. I love him, he's a nice and funny guy, I trust him with almost anything. Except for drinking. By himself or with me, he just goes to the odd craft beer place, it's his biggest hobby and within limits I can deal with that. But once he goes over a certain level, he won't stop without turning very, very defensive and disrespectful. Knowing that he's loves being compared to his father who's a pretty bad, but funny alcoholic (means everyone loves him regardless and alcoholism is suddenly not perceived as that bad), that worries also me. His tendencies of never knowing when to stop once he started properly aren't great, either. He just started at a new place and there's a group of early 20s lads who like to go on the beers every Friday. I know that's my boyfriend's (30) downfall. He has an important class every Saturday 10am, so he can't get too drunk on Fridays. Yet here we are. 6pm: Just had two or three beers, will be home soon. 7pm: Yeah, sorry, they are so funny, can't go yet. 8pm: On my way to the bus 9pm: Don't know when I'm coming home (first drunken video calls to him and his new mates) 10pm: Don't wait for meeee (argument on the phone, I get in the car to pick him up) 10:30pm: Arrive, refuses to leave building 11pm: Successfully transport him under protest to the car with help of lads, nice guys, they are not even drunk really, he's basically unconscious at this stage 11:30pm: Arrive home, he barely makes his way to the house before the puking starts 12am: I undress him, shower him, brush his teeth, all while being puked at constantly, and tug him into our bed 12:30am: Listening to his snoring. Hoping these lads will stay away, not because it's their fault, but because they saw what state he's in and that he's not good to be drunkenly around. Wishful thinking. Not looking forward to the next work week. 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I had a friend I was very close with who was an alcoholic. Drinking at work, not coming home from the bar at night and crashing at a stranger's place, almost ending the relationship with the love of his life. He cut me off completely last fall and basically told me that I'm dead to him. His partner and I are good friends and she wasn't ""allowed"" to have drinks with me or stay overnight at my house anymore nor was I welcome in their home. Just recently he decided I was allowed in his girlfriend's car when he was in it too. Anyway, we started talking and it was like no time had passed at all. &#x200B; He invited me over a few days later to hang out. I accepted only to fix something of mine with his help, not to hang out, and made that clear. I stayed for 2 hours. It was a lot of fun. He apologized to me for how he acted and told me he's in therapy now. He 100% doesn't drink anymore and hasn't for a month. I know my emotions are my responsibility, not his, so I just thanked him for the apology and went home. But the thing is, I was devastated when he cut me off like that, and as much as I want to be friends with him again, I don't think I can be. I'm posting this here because I wanted advice from others who struggle with alcoholism. &#x200B; Is this just part of recovery? Should I just maintain a polite but firm distance? I don't want to do anything that would - and I'm choosing my words very carefully here because I KNOW I'm not responsible for his feelings or his drinking - make it more likely for him to relapse. I don't think it's in my best interest to let him be my friend again and my SO is of the same opinion. In fact my SO, who also struggles with drinking, is of the opinion that I shouldn't speak to this ex-friend of mine until he apologizes. Which he has, but it was a half-assed ""btw, sorry I was so shitty to you"" as I was on my way out the door. It felt sincere but not good enough, considering how much he hurt me. I thought we were very close and I guess I was wrong.",3.1676857685009487,4.190809578823533,4.277715370018978,88.81191271347252,73.21176470588236,7.460341555977229,27.592030360531307,7.831003766801068,1.4348110056926,1601,59,356,21,31,523,193,425,0.083,0.7829999999999999,0.134,0.9421,2,0,9,0,0,0,57.0,2,1,1,2,21,24,2,2,16,0,38,11,0,6,3,76,63,33,1,6,15,0,2,3,6,3,4,1,4,1,21,29,9,0,10,6,0,8,14,6,0,0,22,3,61,18,58,34,10,51,0,1,0,1,49,22,0,7,20,251,82,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0776445146317086,0.0,0.2547462823704174,0.07956476312394432,0.0,0.0,0.06354177824774067,0.0,0.17218337198454906,0.1930980378827513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.157600095801629,0.0,0.0,0.0653863861585042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09687256657723384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08338527720531394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0810117631985021,0.0,0.0,0.06844521735081661,0.08330921052722669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0512432272143331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3891883218527703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08937849234804543,0.07037536670554896,0.08210037811674092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040175874470445884,0.0,0.07629123341574581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3683299419607268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13328961598864886,0.0,0.0,0.08753090424828526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05325838914341143,0.0,0.2391057143600466,0.0,0.07824919385789897,0.09168277346444048,0.08506042084282425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08733503899096287,0.06476810488952059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08125022220883031,0.05612286783374488,0.11645611075702135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06755154682560655,0.07171309442849785,0.07518418671656125,0.05303820126614432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06342186330762678,0.0,0.11682015587290172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07456506363262927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06043067086732011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0860442476280435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08301571099604645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0760978948167055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07845425612997421,0.08530714119297406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061169922928106066,0.0,0.0889456679273768,0.056240112555310334,0.16938129725488002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16613153191083788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06386457110089631,0.0,0.07315338093405532,0.09086606724544513,0.0,0.05278773676485007,0.10182574513170778,0.0,0.06308002630159586,0.046332047799187384,0.0,0.0,0.15184924238992334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19668117559357315,0.1405974892586539,0.06306931190827332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0736574861138021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05784568243385155,0.0,0.0,0.056444012201042,0.08687381636249747,0.1930980378827513,0.0 alcoholism,depakene,2019/06/14,Is it ok to be a functional alcoholic? Why or why not? Alcoholic meaning you drink from morning til dawn. But what if you also keep a good demeanor act normal and just don't drive,1.6483333333333334,4.104466055555555,3.3255555555555567,87.25000000000004,82.8888888888889,6.933333333333335,25.66666666666667,8.07648339933343,1.8606333333333345,142,6,28,3,4,47,32,36,0.0,0.85,0.15,0.6662,0,0,3,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,1,3,3,0,0,0,9,5,6,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,3,1,1,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,19,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5913380346061169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22124760711774025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27102478810830577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23205211912824936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2459111263786147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3013675303124689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2710713737599937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4992913411388382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,throwaway44388,2019/06/14,"Drunkest I’ve been in awhile. Hard typing this Thank god for predictive text. Conversation with Ex. 18 years ex. Just want to drink more. But just going to finish this case then I’m quitting.",1.02809523809524,3.2721513333333365,1.4934920634920663,93.515,105.11111111111113,4.27936507936508,16.253968253968253,6.1826913282559595,-0.13316984126984144,152,4,29,2,7,46,31,36,0.038,0.804,0.158,0.5423,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,5,2,0,1,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,5,4,1,5,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,13,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.445898407502212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586865548125725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4077475723173622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4841348522057979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4190641680435325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2684741252460617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2931179043158317 alcoholism,kothunger,2019/06/14,Binge drinking for more than 2 weeks straight just gave me a stomach ulcer It hurts so damn bad and I can’t imagine not drinking for a couple of weeks until this gets better. This is not what I want but it’s probably what I need!,0.4287500000000009,2.795221041666672,1.788333333333334,96.49000000000002,88.58333333333334,4.033333333333334,20.5,5.46131890053228,-0.16989999999999972,182,6,39,1,6,58,38,48,0.177,0.745,0.077,-0.5508,0,0,2,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,2,4,1,0,2,0,2,4,1,0,0,8,6,4,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,1,2,0,1,2,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,4,1,5,5,1,4,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,3,26,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2352685432410849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24920516995002465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3117762767914153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.552060202374681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14721467383649786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3016436420870399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20893098298127766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3037987680182538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16619691551036886,0.0,0.4520423356137047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,rugbygirl02,2019/06/14,"Drunk mother split her face open. Tonight my drunk mother who drinks everynight fell over in the washroom. she does this often but this time she hit her face off of something and cut up her face up a ton. it was bleeding alot. i didnt even realize anything happened until i heard my dad on the phone ask for an ambulance and i jumped out of bed. i cried for a few minutes thinking why does she do this. then my calm dad told me what happened (hes a firefighter so i understand why he was calm) my dad has given her so many chances but she just doesnt care i guess. i really hope this is a wakeup call for her. I'm scared and sad. im scared my parents will split, and im sad that she does this to herself.",0.18448948948949,2.4515406621621665,1.5693693693693689,98.45566066066068,88.32432432432432,4.6402402402402405,19.708708708708702,6.139981653823899,-0.14064984984984985,550,17,126,5,18,175,91,148,0.183,0.754,0.062,-0.9586,1,0,2,0,1,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,5,9,1,2,8,0,9,7,3,0,0,16,22,10,0,1,3,6,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,9,6,3,0,3,3,0,2,2,5,0,0,6,1,25,4,14,14,3,14,0,2,0,0,25,8,0,4,4,78,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13639528464780387,0.0,0.15495064615598966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1692457548059944,0.0,0.16898964984078807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18206479767021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4351377574489206,0.0,0.0,0.1623685144856584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1094740302882213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18258850659651826,0.0,0.2931382460761795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1646237184020778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3580694233634352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16804098246179944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18404192429639998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10618148140316468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3318824140690421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275997885773676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10620369397726424,0.0,0.0,0.09664814373693448,0.0,0.0,0.15837792739546602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17254799951251776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.299120954662895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,cottontail79,2019/06/14,I can't do this without another adult in the house to help me. I am a single parent. Not a single parent from divorce. But from death. My child doesn't have another parent to go to on the weekends. I cant go off to rehab. I need help. How do you ask a friend to stay with you if you think you might have DTs? Its so humiliating to ask someone to help when you have put so much time into pretending all is well....,0.4255934343434333,2.354051079545453,2.839242424242425,92.12191919191922,83.6590909090909,5.729292929292932,18.868686868686872,6.937597516519254,0.10586717171717196,317,8,73,4,9,109,57,88,0.075,0.785,0.14,0.6038,3,0,0,0,3,0,12.0,0,5,0,0,5,2,0,0,5,0,11,1,0,1,1,11,17,6,1,2,4,3,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,1,2,0,3,5,0,1,0,0,0,11,2,15,16,4,11,0,0,0,0,17,4,0,2,3,56,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36060400111078095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3214954996353009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1328462520672834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19544351256074266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3457584586287989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19840438877787506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1824091799246546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12640123518890214,0.12749693099787038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5727822233082006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17285478189680858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14569060273801812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1832732119807232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11017704832273564,0.0,0.0,0.1002640002812568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15460149923321936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16575130407350275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,jrny2nume,2019/06/14,"Need some advice. I currently work at a doctors office as a medical assistant. It’s a small practice so me and my coworkers are a pretty tight knit group. There are two doctors in our office, one of them being the owner( I’ll call him Dr. O). The non-owner (ill call him Dr. A), is an obvious alcoholic. As someone who has had drinking issues in the past, I noticed right away when I started working there about 6 months ago. He constantly reeks of alcohol, is very shaky, is constantly sweating, and just looks like total crap in general. After about a month of me working there, I became pretty comfortable with my coworkers and asked them if they ever smelled alcohol on Dr. A. They all said something along the lines of “oh yeah he’s a raging alcoholic and drinks all day, blah blah blah”. The flood gates opened and it seemed like everyone just knew but didn’t really care. They all seemed to have numerous stories about him drinking at work, etc. It seems like everyone in the practice knows about Dr. A’s alcohol issue, except for Dr. O. Dr. O seems totally oblivious and unaware. My husband is urging me to reach out to him and extend a helping hand as someone who has struggled in the past, but I feel like it’s not my place to interfere. First, as someone who has struggled, I don’t think I would have appreciated being approached in an unsolicited manner. Second, my position as his subordinate puts my job at risk. On the other hand, I feel an obligation to do something as a fellow medical professional (even as a low-level MA) because I feel like he is putting patients at risk. Even though he is just an eye doctor, he does perform surgeries on a weekly basis. I feel like if I approach him or his boss Dr. O, I could really mess his life up, on the other hand, I’m afraid he is risking messing other people’s lives up due to treating patients while intoxicated. Any help/insight would be much appreciated.",5.169117276166453,6.516420699453557,6.0846994535519165,76.51085750315261,68.78142076502732,9.128036990332072,31.836485918453132,9.466822959209583,3.0526506094997905,1520,65,271,32,26,502,194,366,0.078,0.774,0.14800000000000002,0.9835,2,0,10,0,0,0,55.0,1,0,5,6,16,21,2,7,26,1,24,29,6,1,7,49,42,23,0,6,10,2,8,9,1,2,20,1,1,0,10,11,8,2,11,3,0,4,3,12,0,4,4,13,35,9,44,32,8,43,0,0,2,0,33,22,1,9,23,177,45,10,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07612450481627141,0.06905503442771914,0.4162653921576272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05297573353833816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07282744455955534,0.0,0.07319108188917205,0.0,0.0,0.047488069156926965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15909240949747666,0.0,0.07942583435585712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16836782703357142,0.0,0.062198058372631475,0.0,0.0,0.05024006287349175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2392066491265499,0.0681721819012359,0.0,0.0,0.22894162006302585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08688083401064392,0.10290649402649596,0.07046642280413087,0.0,0.14887656183426276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15755748176829434,0.16695867443768067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06626302886612317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10443154986762686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16261798259482055,0.07730527990590362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04281266118947278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055024177084212665,0.2283526094858667,0.0,0.06878850649468306,0.0,0.06541769209489562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15695525616913458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1243605671751264,0.0,0.057266611560171925,0.05776302115764555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08869144469847752,0.0,0.0,0.05278811453935088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14873171140496222,0.05400713438973037,0.0,0.08139055181837598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1585077894018497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15662517279058802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09981147083898773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06652750832615091,0.07410222476810427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28367462517382364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1980172221220016,0.1199448567523125,0.0,0.0,0.05513912656150448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16287925375112655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04991617542119047,0.07653788916599005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07609850656297877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06427694718577705,0.0,0.0,0.062487934110150085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22685305984193455,0.0,0.0,0.11067806912127133,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,throwaway2k19lol,2019/06/14,"Tomorrow will mark my one day sober anniversary. I have known for a few months, upwards of 6, that my alcohol use has been a problem. It has helped end a long term relationship of mine. I’ve gotten a DUI. Almost lost my job on numerous accounts. Ruined my health. I’ve gained 30+ pounds. And the final straw was having to get an abortion today. I remember agreeing to having a random hookup “finish” inside of me, hell I was fucked up on a bender. Why wouldn’t I let someone do the deed? Well, it’s been a month and a missed period since then and I spent the day in a free woman’s health clinic taking the first round of my abortion pills. I know I can’t drink for the next 14 days after I take the second round of meds because they can cause serious internal bleeding. So here I am.... drinking my last drink and am going to use this as a serious life changer. I’ve known since I was a little girl alcoholism ran in my blood and since I took my first drink a couple years ago (25/f) it’s been a downward spiral. I just want to come here today for your support on this long journey I am starting on. This thread has really put my addiction in perspective for me and let me know I am not alone. Thank you.",2.4055574912891977,4.117274085365857,3.896457607433217,87.99134146341466,76.4390243902439,6.962137049941927,22.68989547038328,7.793537801064563,1.003018815331011,939,27,196,14,21,311,147,246,0.102,0.8290000000000001,0.069,-0.8214,1,1,6,0,0,0,29.0,0,2,1,4,5,12,2,0,20,0,23,15,1,3,0,22,43,9,0,3,2,0,2,0,0,2,9,0,0,2,7,7,6,0,5,4,3,6,3,8,1,4,11,2,30,5,23,28,2,40,1,3,2,1,7,10,2,2,24,121,37,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11661441308505915,0.0,0.0,0.09482352716564096,0.2286393920355833,0.10711621911911956,0.1107899171406234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06520865934052987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10988890361968473,0.0,0.0921462292043129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11836161395104207,0.0,0.206962751065219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4191642624234799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09474474509371568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1171817365075762,0.0,0.1819793204025202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09889316386998596,0.055888044375555626,0.0,0.0607942062152045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2274107971127129,0.0,0.0,0.0717005500604598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10615242422154926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11757716363410532,0.08719581687773745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.218770628199836,0.0755569321447982,0.0,0.10721325903245034,0.0,0.18933231686037846,0.0,0.0,0.11677171671112645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11882090410617792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17076680531103472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11376509992494395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07248646321774684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10235700526649552,0.0,0.10753561597653724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06852849900791759,0.0,0.0,0.11484705125329965,0.12117753296191347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26546308153178705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09063636270576916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07571477602936053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12138966627330468,0.0,0.0,0.16085808077971311,0.0,0.0,0.09848472205252558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20279240660088396,0.0,0.11884895502163108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18477756710412804,0.0,0.0,0.06309439369773717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09617996834397873,0.0,0.09652488255947718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06888595479288198 alcoholism,GeminiStargazer,2019/07/08,"I need help... How do I get my alcoholic boyfriend to stop drinking and eat more than 2 bites of food a day? He's literally starving himself and drinking his calories with alcohol. I'm frustrated and I don't know know wtf to do. 😡😔 We get into constant fights because of this. He gets angry whenever I try to help him. He thinks it's normal, and I'm telling him it's not. I need advice please, on how to handle this. I love him, and I don't want to leave him, but his alcoholism is killing our relationship.",0.7084285714285734,2.993230628571432,2.769166666666667,90.79375000000002,85.57142857142857,6.166666666666668,24.940476190476193,7.492282038375204,1.299619047619048,396,17,86,7,12,133,67,105,0.18,0.743,0.078,-0.8567,0,0,5,0,1,0,15.0,2,0,0,0,2,4,3,0,1,0,5,8,0,2,0,20,17,8,1,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,8,7,1,3,2,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,17,1,11,17,1,5,0,0,0,1,18,2,0,0,3,48,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16206126107254476,0.0,0.531711788917959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010972273914458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17921891537396506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10695593968450601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3249288145252172,0.0,0.16970025864959046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2005397473730077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25994061469012475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22232405594171334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18348229384731968,0.0,0.18228752696607406,0.0,0.0,0.1756053091040383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14968107629525534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2459430921688492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1624923327905326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18204738591034972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17805485610674596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13865337248606527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14495534482884606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1062664165264611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11259748407900155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09781934380026323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,niggawiggachigga,2019/07/08,I love drinking Alcohol is the only thing that keeps me remotely happy. It's the only thing that enables me to talk to strangers and make connections to those people. Without it i would be even lonelier than i am now,3.332857142857143,5.7407425238095255,4.519285714285715,81.36321428571429,76.14285714285714,8.009523809523811,29.54761904761905,8.841846274778883,2.780361904761905,174,8,31,4,4,57,32,42,0.053,0.773,0.174,0.7579,0,0,2,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,0,4,3,0,1,0,5,7,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,5,5,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,26,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3039662925950291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2786304794262353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878615545665015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30277815848035633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2528120601711824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25670675043160995,0.0,0.18985743683595785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4326395693388811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19718608276605745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22861189641406204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3779217303488416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27417777529005777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2020489991252375,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,madhavdavid,2019/07/08,"Am i developing a bad habit? Hey everyone, i font know if i am perhaps overreacting but i decided to ask anyway. So i recently moved out from home and live in a small village in the noerh of Iceland. I am 21 years old, I work in a bank and i do not know anybody here. It is hard to get to know people as there are only 300 or so people that live here and most of them are older than 90. Ao because if this i spend most of my time alone. I have been drinking at least 4 beers and half a liter of mead for almost every evening for 2 weeks. Am i developing a habit here or is this maybe a little phase while i am getting used to the new enviroment? Thank you.",0.9779010989011,2.7032671857142887,3.2757142857142867,90.75851648351649,80.71428571428571,6.3076923076923075,21.48351648351648,7.321109707123232,0.5499725274725278,506,15,117,7,13,174,92,140,0.053,0.9209999999999999,0.026000000000000002,-0.3527,0,1,2,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,1,1,8,2,0,0,8,0,12,2,0,1,0,19,20,13,0,2,6,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,5,2,0,4,2,2,1,1,1,0,1,1,1,15,1,18,19,3,16,0,0,0,0,4,7,0,7,8,80,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18940925277127066,0.19590530353634225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1768323777888429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15793472596918326,0.11530581961795087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1852977784012376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12493367121880615,0.0,0.15936943133354173,0.18074365086812766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19764911067762145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16944379712441648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18973572769362448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3118603731074869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18958084450242135,0.334050857930373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19002945825364964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2010395410710458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18268499790666726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19848409354523885,0.0,0.0,0.14385926337284705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2622695344991224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18676561642187955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17414652763846053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11029654596389918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16336732757140038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1517270039974316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13770552510502948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12180823157364767 alcoholism,-fuck-reddit-,2019/07/08,"tips on dealing with withdrawal nausea/insomnia i normally have 8 pints a night and i haven't drunk much in the past 24 hours and i think because of that i've been throwing up non-stop and have had nausea which hasn't allowed me to sleep. i'm having trouble even choking down a beer at this point to try and get to sleep due to the nausea and heartburn. i plan on tapering off because i never want to feel this way again, but in the meantime does anyone have any tips on dealing with this? thank you",4.2339495798319335,5.111644411764708,4.669327731092442,87.53911764705887,70.56862745098039,7.397198879551821,28.296918767506998,7.447530270364453,1.4715389355742294,398,14,82,4,7,126,69,102,0.053,0.878,0.068,0.3441,1,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,5,0,8,5,2,1,1,14,14,6,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,7,2,0,2,2,0,1,3,1,0,0,2,1,7,1,17,12,1,18,0,0,0,0,3,10,0,0,6,52,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1464136638648513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15054511124958492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2624938525901241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4439366083081619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18841341608979573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14220583481870888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10886384498253776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11248711620689032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2120304342453388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15827273839600794,0.0,0.16605521972429907,0.0,0.0,0.20204761278779268,0.2109515738022728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20553141358515425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20353126183288728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4309176872450126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18000324468621562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19822240155125487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13795769574852776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14617684456078933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12699149657462114,0.17089778095031444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,throwaway----778,2019/07/08,I drink 5ish nights a week I drink 5ish nights a week and it’s pretty heavy. Been doing this for over a year now. I want to quit and I know I’d be much healthier if I did. But it is so hard to stop just out of boredom alone.,-1.6080128205128226,0.12094294230769442,0.7246153846153867,105.30371794871796,90.73076923076924,4.235897435897436,12.512820512820511,5.46131890053228,-1.5734333333333337,171,2,48,1,6,57,38,52,0.17600000000000002,0.733,0.092,-0.4819,0,1,2,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,0,5,2,0,0,0,9,7,5,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,5,0,6,4,1,9,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,7,30,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2566853025495512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4855735444840365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.222014062635916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13620521884690615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18218936042433936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4651581279521349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25214022609889664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2636060952882616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20720356743707324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1461812045127506,0.0,0.3976012004064284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15959947081630355 alcoholism,recoveryelevator,2019/07/08,"Giving Up Alcohol As giving up alcohol is not an easy task for which you need a strong motivation, inspiration and your mindset. Here are many sources to inspire you for giving up alcohol like sober retreats, alcohol podcasts, recovery podcasts, sober vacations, sobriety podcasts and many more ways. Visit [recoveryelevator](http://www.recoveryelevator.com/) and get to know everything.",14.985833333333332,16.423306392857143,12.550714285714287,38.32761904761906,47.57142857142857,15.323809523809526,50.80952380952381,14.06817628641468,8.172138095238099,322,18,35,11,3,99,40,56,0.034,0.649,0.317,0.9589,0,0,4,0,0,0,18.0,0,3,0,2,1,4,0,0,2,0,2,4,0,1,0,9,8,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,3,4,0,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,8,8,1,5,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,0,1,22,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7389155013052834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15535046478002856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09030933374837832,0.4974533160760944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09499630404373532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08444796981861744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3504946330207888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12816940988769182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1372038439345627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Digistrax,2019/07/08,"Monthly Binge Drinking Sessions My friends and I (19M) would hold monthly binge drinking sessions, with each session lasting 2.5hrs. Normally by then, most of us would be either high or just drunk. We have been doing this for the past year or so. I thought it was the norm until one of my colleagues from intern said I am the only person he knows that drinks this much. If I were to continue drinking at this rate, would it count as alcoholism?",5.307142857142857,6.725194476190481,4.760476190476194,85.86785714285716,68.52380952380952,7.028571428571429,31.857142857142854,7.1686216300943375,1.9425857142857148,352,15,65,3,6,106,66,84,0.028999999999999998,0.9329999999999999,0.038,0.1779,0,0,5,0,0,0,11.0,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,10,6,0,0,0,17,13,8,0,5,5,0,0,0,1,3,1,1,0,1,6,4,6,1,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,1,8,1,10,4,4,10,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,4,8,49,14,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18361842084962424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6732547638231873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13274415953226928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18153241394842912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0944252559555106,0.14005249101862027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2742828420385887,0.0,0.1263040956585915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16834262189984772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11642656840992326,0.13067336157714146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16401725013029542,0.0,0.15002258875197874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16343580020953122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13640224354453825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2066727831142288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3661582128422149,0.0,0.0,0.11064349082785403 alcoholism,somefinanceguy,2019/07/08,"Timeline for alcohol detox? Hey all, so I'm in my early 20's and have quit drinking for a month after graduating from college (yay!) but then started a new job in a new city. Have been drinking everyday, sometimes getting blackout/drunk but 90% of the time just drinking like a 750 of wine or 6 beers by myself before bed. I just quit 2 days ago now and haven't really had any symptoms besides a light night sweat and my fingers are a little shaky. Am I in the clear? I heard alcohol symptoms subside by the 72 hour mark - is this true? My resting heart rate has already improved drastically and my body feels better and less groggy and achey. Any insight would be appreciated. I know my drinking habits are maybe more minor than others, but I am seriously not trying to continue down this road that may lead to more and more consumption. Thanks in advance!",5.599274958170668,6.695875441717793,5.97068600111545,78.6485331846068,67.58895705521472,8.381260457334077,32.6095928611266,8.575989854853784,2.6297165644171785,679,29,123,10,11,218,116,163,0.023,0.807,0.17,0.9816,1,0,8,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,5,4,7,0,1,9,1,14,15,4,1,3,24,21,13,0,1,7,0,2,1,0,2,5,1,1,0,4,7,8,0,3,6,0,2,2,2,0,0,3,4,11,5,16,15,6,24,0,0,0,0,2,7,0,3,16,77,15,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12350756865364852,0.2978026261292195,0.0,0.0,0.15375403294647064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18949824878625585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11855950099598322,0.0,0.0,0.12322599297124562,0.0,0.15476413301676786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08985627283998084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5459611181515149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07044939466637354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07279413331223591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16510662773175275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13721190672466568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13826344805115853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07657208102095582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06806956178031266,0.13964518454793187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13997563328206128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11121181399355874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26913141265692864,0.0,0.1307516927862418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29638904378132885,0.0,0.0,0.08925831540907599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1378008549426117,0.0,0.09861843550922353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2896342736618198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12827627207950187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08124439764235478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09459587078887433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.098975978607011,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,breadandfaxes,2019/07/16,"What should I do about my alcoholic roommate? So, let me preface this and say that I'm a recovering alcoholic as well. 150+ days sober right now myself. Went through rehab, moved into a halfway house etc. Well, the manager of the house who I knew previously and myself wanted to move out so we got an apartment together. Well, about a week into the new place my roommate is drinking again. Now he's drinking everyday and it's getting measurably worse. He's always broke, doesn't go to work when he says he's going to, he owes me $75, and claims he is broke, but of course he finds money for liquor. I know all the ins and outs of alcoholism. Like I said, I'm recovering myself. I know he is fucking up and I don't think it's going to end well. I plan on confronting him, but how should I go about it?",1.6734146341463436,3.756453597560977,3.373353658536587,89.13368902439026,80.09756097560975,6.539024390243903,23.054878048780488,7.645422480735847,1.0275804878048782,626,21,133,10,16,208,99,164,0.051,0.877,0.07200000000000001,0.4871,1,0,5,0,0,0,24.0,1,0,0,2,14,9,2,0,8,0,9,8,0,1,1,23,26,13,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,2,4,3,0,0,7,11,6,0,5,3,2,7,2,4,4,0,4,3,17,5,20,19,2,26,0,2,0,1,14,10,1,0,10,82,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4128257171854108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10714119695443572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08304153383047998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2522775941521868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11404586933347255,0.0,0.14360487037769845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11768712172014095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11903939193180844,0.06727339442259686,0.0,0.2927161011998449,0.0,0.10298359722969197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29715061084950634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14152964185139713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13166897252719034,0.0,0.0629071364608248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2737095511260832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12436018434013635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13453001202100925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10996296615382073,0.1224831748417492,0.2047951376267293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08250618197601929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07594780029445758,0.0,0.10328597532752616,0.0,0.4630938883799892,0.11936466451270933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09374105527518932,0.0,0.13122057832180511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ZmeyKolbasnik,2019/07/16,"My uncle has alcoholic dementia. (RANT) My dad is an abusive prick so I would run away to my grandma's place everyday. But that is until she had a stroke. Now my uncle takes care of her, but he often goes into our place and he can't decide what place to choose - our or grandma's. He always has fights with Grandma and makes up delusional shit that didn't happen and is a shithead in general. Fuck alcohol.",2.181759259259259,4.433445740740744,3.8007253086419763,85.84701388888892,79.24691358024691,7.012962962962964,23.70524691358025,8.07648339933343,1.509628395061728,319,11,62,6,8,106,59,81,0.251,0.726,0.023,-0.9721,0,0,2,0,1,0,10.0,2,0,0,0,3,5,4,0,3,0,9,6,2,1,0,14,14,8,0,1,3,1,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,5,2,0,2,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,2,1,9,1,9,11,0,11,0,0,0,1,9,7,3,2,3,42,12,0,0.0,0.24913890953641515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44943539649584585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1749638321804073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19755823765649336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2143871555758636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19439383528328585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1859435617091891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14035874121696795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6590710328674617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21584202967652466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15809899307189332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14937177944664798,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,JKin94,2019/07/16,Drank on Saturday - still anxious Hadn’t got drunk for a while - went to a party and got drunk. Remember everything but nothing too bad - just loud and obnoxious. Now don’t know what to do because I am still anxious now.,3.1085714285714303,5.460749619047622,3.957380952380952,85.39178571428572,76.61904761904762,8.009523809523811,29.54761904761905,8.841846274778883,2.62464761904762,172,8,33,4,4,55,32,42,0.242,0.638,0.12,-0.5824,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,2,0,4,3,0,0,0,6,9,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,3,0,2,2,0,1,2,1,0,0,5,1,1,0,4,4,0,8,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,22,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5747020890855413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21237749591405844,0.15505368489737195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285996979201524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4068651063937026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13978797191677675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2440624307506845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2881369315446005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40625970614561335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2357915155085001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,surewhynotwth,2019/07/16,"crazy what alcohol does to cause anxiety I have been a binge drinker for \~21 years. I always drank until I was hammered since the very beginning. I didn't drink usually more than 3 times a week, but when I drank it was almost always a lot. Upwards of 12+ drinks every time. So throughout my 20's I had social anxiety, but I was always shy as a kid and not outgoing, so I think that was sort of non-alcohol related stuff. I never recalled having terrible anxiety after a night of binge drinking until around the age of 30. That's when I would feel really off the following day. Voice was shaky, feeling of malaise (from terrible sleep the night before), jumpy, irritable, no desire to see or talk to anyone, depressed, general unwell feelings. This started to become part of my normal hangover which I never recall having in the my late teens or most of my twenties. So moving along the timeline I notice in my mid 30's I am starting to get full blown panic attacks, seemingly out of nowhere. Looking back now I also am seeing a correlation that I completely ignored for a full year while I battled these things: my 2/3 day a week drinking pattern was becoming much more often and regular. I was now drinking \~5 nights a week and still binge drinking anywhere from 6 - 12 drinks on those nights. So with the increase in alcohol consumption over a period of 5 or 6 months something snapped inside my brain. I'll never forget the first panic attack I had from alcohol. I had done my normal weeknight binge of probably 8 strong beers. Went upstairs, got into bed with my wife, and after 20 mins started feeling my heart RACING, also started feeling very warm. I walk downstairs legit thinking Im having a heart attack... stand in the kitchen stretching and just trying not to flip the fuck out. My mind is racing, my heart is racing, I feel WAY off. Eventually it subsides after an hour and I go back to bed. This was the beginning. Going forward I started to get progressively worse anxiety. It became a constant thing. I would have panic attacks throughout the day. I was such a mess that I couldnt handle the stress of playing video games anymore, it got me too worked up! Someone knocked on the door one afternoon and my heart almost stopped and dropped into my stomach. I would get these ""surges"" sitting at my desk at work... I dont know how to explain it except it felt like electricity running throughout my entire body, nervous electricity. I would feel like I was about to die. I had this constant muscle twitch in my chest, day and night. I had to lay down for bed at literally 7PM because I just couldnt handle it, it was too much. Driving on the highway suddenly made me extremely nervous, I would feel tense and just that electricity for 40 mins until it eventually subsided. All this stuff I could NOT for the life on my understand why it was happening. So throughout all this crazy insane terrible shit I wouldnt put my worst adversary through I am trying to solve the problem. I went to two therapists, one of which did cognitive behavioral therapy which really in the end saved me from this. I then became convinced I had a heart problem bc of the chest muscle twitching so I went to a cardiologist for a workup and monitoring (heart was totally fine, some palpatations but that ended up being from the anxiety). Then I was convinced my anxiety came from being gluten intolerant/celiac (LOL!!!). I had blood work done, tried different diets, exercised at the gym 45 mins 4-5 days a week. I then cut out salt because that might be doing it. All this crazy shit Im going through to fix the anxiety. Want to guess what the one thing I didn't try was? Stopping drinking. After stopping drinking for a few weeks and using the cognitive behavioral techniques I started to feel the anxiety slide a bit, and the panic attacks become fewer. I eventually went back to drinking but it was never the 5-6 days a week again, although still binge drank. But that's really what it was... I was a binge drinker where 2 days a week my body could somewhat handle... but once it became 5 or 6 days it was saying WOAH THIS IS TOO FUCKING MUCH!!! I AM FREAKING OUT!!! And the real kicker was I tried everything in the book except the one thing I knew was causing the issue, and that's my drinking. I couldn't believe alcohol could do that... send you into a tailspin out of seemingly nowhere with crippling anxiety that sometimes made you wonder if you were losing your mind... or if you would ever be normal again. Scary shit.",5.683559980573094,6.8638496807511755,6.1908434515136825,76.84119718309861,67.45070422535211,8.974453618261293,32.53003075926826,9.223106411051027,2.9951831147806383,3576,152,625,66,58,1159,363,852,0.17600000000000002,0.75,0.073,-0.9984,1,0,20,0,0,0,119.0,0,5,0,7,32,40,12,8,55,1,68,44,17,6,9,125,123,48,1,22,21,1,11,2,0,8,8,2,5,1,49,29,21,4,19,18,0,18,15,31,0,6,49,17,82,9,93,56,20,135,0,2,3,2,13,36,5,21,81,442,131,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.204388220789946,0.07660374968140425,0.0,0.0,0.06117706235885696,0.09548125485645773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26335047992478217,0.0,0.03793374671946999,0.026745306842871824,0.0,0.0,0.03405063173321663,0.0,0.21757462699667252,0.0,0.08823572459370574,0.0,0.04663372044178413,0.12673244240800366,0.03254795403422436,0.04309467980608005,0.0,0.0,0.041759120638956135,0.08497430986567675,0.0,0.04269967795153738,0.0,0.04374783868605596,0.0,0.07858662427475227,0.0,0.0,0.040104423483556716,0.0826693769263194,0.0,0.09161859760773117,0.0,0.0,0.19734481427559347,0.0,0.03294469049095509,0.0,0.03969748705801535,0.039963135030381056,0.0,0.0,0.033472854646744064,0.07828611141613327,0.044828744437884906,0.41217508828200977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06775633789609717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034599337474864086,0.03222729577916933,0.0,0.03437665610121007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17406325735766787,0.02732582550832821,0.03672602241246802,0.0,0.0,0.03253545173164739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0707230635341413,0.0599521780651251,0.0,0.06521511205240915,0.0,0.061184078410129676,0.0,0.04213671489210239,0.0,0.033824370791798966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27195878280599106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03766856975194256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08263318149145914,0.03992308843971811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02102121341974449,0.0,0.04314769426267975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02701712385067677,0.03737406027089255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032120387491634636,0.042791994006311625,0.0,0.032518803427840165,0.0,0.0723861970186923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04057723193200477,0.0772432428029965,0.0,0.030530805034745333,0.04065372323407079,0.08435450845517545,0.0,0.11800310930120955,0.0,0.0,0.17947528671058616,0.11243070977525473,0.0,0.04354790699090204,0.0,0.040735028287595135,0.10367682745500244,0.0,0.0,0.17951265167373695,0.0,0.041421049645781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04123999635259292,0.07320021630760906,0.0,0.03845183986069161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043536902455114906,0.07351183640369738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03041795512983504,0.0,0.0,0.060960635367657084,0.06964277239335989,0.0,0.0,0.11778930300880305,0.031640815951349974,0.0,0.03827764871846781,0.03899108355627584,0.03240912206313305,0.02944673797819215,0.03783025278337583,0.0,0.1624413874341496,0.0,0.06109303876168961,0.09593620088793113,0.043815274413153735,0.0,0.08757425479137762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030743921216118224,0.0,0.0,0.04374223711921646,0.04441122715453994,0.1016464679743515,0.04901814311343308,0.0,0.0,0.04460779436126673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12984628091375064,0.0,0.037364716486662834,0.03981962499276077,0.0,0.03303574055727894,0.04212699862332323,0.0631205529963228,0.022560855773608616,0.030361089459121558,0.2147730399875198,0.0,0.0,0.14183262557153678,0.03451469815878388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041480520484192415,0.08353942128395349,0.0,0.03898004327406178,0.1630303219124974,0.0,0.0,0.04926352405745586 alcoholism,Chilies-taGoOrder15,2019/07/16,"Can I get some ideas what to do to change some habits after work? Like a distraction I guess First off hope everyone stays strong and prayers for everyone out there struggling. Just looking for some ideas of stuff to do after work. Getting in the habit of drinking once I'm off, around 5pm. I workout in the morning and midday so exercise is kinda out of the question. Any help is really appreciated and hope everyone else has a good day",3.4450000000000003,5.880738976190479,4.097857142857143,84.38464285714288,75.90476190476191,7.533333333333335,27.16666666666667,8.472884824447931,2.0854809523809528,350,14,66,7,8,111,58,84,0.057,0.722,0.221,0.9371,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,4,4,7,0,2,5,0,6,2,0,0,0,17,13,4,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,6,1,0,3,3,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,3,5,17,13,3,12,0,0,1,0,2,7,0,8,5,43,5,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11446877138106708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14984755415648124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17806864098507466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1085575958485646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16489729804080985,0.0,0.0,0.1406163944637146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4825336804899328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1431796597361707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17588880229495008,0.0,0.0,0.14118548977003995,0.0,0.0,0.18543220332124088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11282666995178794,0.0,0.0,0.3343752505702885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.380043510526014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08223652888981388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1413530750880199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1792637624234345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1885658164094698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10783518861902802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17941518724798133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1759729107560499,0.1926952191427784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2450894901280544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,piinkevolution,2019/07/16,"Chances of surviving this? Hi this is my first post, I have a serious question. My cousin is currently in the ICU due to alcoholism, he is only 25 years old. The doctors/nurse said his organs have the damage of someone that has been drinking for 50 years, his body is swollen right now and they said his lungs are full of fluid. They didnt find any other drugs in his body. He drinks all day every day. Would he be able to live to reverse the damage or is survival pretty slim for this case? Has anyone on here have this happen to you or anyone they know or any doctors on here can give me some information/in put on here? im curious of the outcome of something like this, thanks!",3.8636764705882345,5.110722720588235,4.37723529411765,87.90305882352942,71.79411764705883,7.2047058823529415,26.1,7.554174236665415,1.2289935294117649,534,17,110,6,10,169,88,136,0.053,0.835,0.11199999999999999,0.818,1,0,5,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,3,3,4,5,0,0,6,0,16,9,3,0,1,10,22,4,0,1,3,1,0,1,0,1,4,2,0,0,7,1,3,0,3,2,0,1,1,3,0,1,4,2,12,2,16,16,3,18,0,2,0,0,17,7,0,5,10,69,19,1,0.15850400317359878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16939257524711504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21557631498383115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2216593688412401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3521244307123341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20444393867590968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1622355636378715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3105471600117818,0.18381432199085693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13354645889535796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448697873585372,0.13482342412765555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15205148288538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14016456653890422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17121152285099114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08710965490641652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07743704960416681,0.0,0.13996193873024282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16632328808744926,0.0,0.0,0.12054943687745312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15180302048697614,0.161255554445296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15934030228890328,0.1775607588996741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13536155265909372,0.3015472081391896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13429992752405845,0.12202412544799547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14592919043781685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11259669615250548,0.0,0.0,0.2041427625718425 alcoholism,STONEDEAFFOREVER,2019/06/11,"Thank you I just subscribed to this thread this week. I’m a long way from where I want to be but it helps me knowing I’m not the only one struggling. Thanks for sharing everyone, keep in mind the posts here and subscribers who are benefitting on the sideline. Peace and love to you all",1.3987969924812025,3.98191910526316,1.8699248120300784,96.15947368421057,86.01754385964912,4.660651629072682,22.177944862155385,6.1826913282559595,0.23209974937343336,227,8,48,2,7,69,46,57,0.049,0.574,0.377,0.9765,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,0,3,6,0,1,4,0,2,1,0,0,1,10,10,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,5,5,7,9,1,7,0,0,0,1,6,3,0,0,2,31,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26369170811811754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18497024264083525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24528602258078575,0.0,0.0,0.15166045775159973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442160106155756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.249064770645722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27864104054804845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18699771031403198,0.2098800965079408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2642934999554731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2884934210561161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5081339799795129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16276842090759253,0.21904428794213784,0.22135855206841132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Thenewdrewbrees,2019/06/11,"Court Ordered AA Hi, I have a question to those familiar with this matter. Would it be unusual to a judge and court to find a full first and full last name signature on a court ordered AA sheet? Since AA is known for its anonymity? Or would this just not pose a problem. I'd appreciate the response. Thanks.",2.5669999999999997,4.955867033333334,3.256666666666668,89.525,78.66666666666666,6.666666666666668,26.66666666666667,7.793537801064563,1.5781666666666667,242,10,49,4,6,76,44,60,0.0,0.84,0.16,0.8097,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,6,0,5,0,0,0,0,14,6,3,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,0,0,1,1,6,3,2,7,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,2,2,31,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3242734644827893,0.3017858977531725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2892028370978003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3394880325671089,0.0,0.0,0.3974482429665656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29348761241365945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3266448099031531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.504068120985438,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,diamonddave93,2019/06/11,Antabuse? I have always hated doctors and am now looking to get antabuse. I do not have medical coverage and have someone that wants to buy me antabuse as a present since I can not afford the extra. Is there a Canadian pharmacy that I can get this from as I live in the states? I want it asap so I can get help from the cravings. Please send good info!,2.7959624413145576,4.555748056338032,3.8165492957746494,88.77627934272303,75.47887323943662,6.986854460093897,28.734741784037556,7.793537801064563,1.7605755868544597,276,12,57,4,6,89,48,71,0.059000000000000004,0.799,0.142,0.6014,1,0,0,0,3,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,5,0,9,2,0,0,0,7,16,5,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,8,1,7,16,1,5,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,2,41,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23236799810062803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28583605106070176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4377079339722347,0.0,0.0,0.2342313561287145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2757129854836194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18718314433968264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24659308334361804,0.0,0.23450938566533075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2813266527942856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3065453440850562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2310080571921291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2366174227181238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3294314197754304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Landsharque,2019/06/11,Male Alcoholics of Reddit Have you ever been unable to ejaculate the day or two following a heavy drinking binge? I had this issue recently and wanted to know if others had similar experiences. 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I've been an alcoholic for about 2 years and a drug user for 5. I drink roughly 4 times a week and usually have 1-2 beers on the days that I'm not drinking. Last weekend I had a particularly heavy drinking session from Thursday to Sunday, where I was drinking from Saturday evening to Sunday late afternoon with no breaks. I woke up Sunday around 10pm, and as I lay in bed in the dark later around 3/4am to try to get more sleep, I started hallucinating (I'm not sure if this is the right term). I was completely sober by this point. I saw some stuff that looked like threads floating right above my head and felt like ants were crawling all over my legs. I figured it was just due to drinking way too heavily over the last few days and as these hallucinations were rather mild I didn't think much of it. I also got a bit of sleep paralysis with no hallucinations (so I was basically just paralysed in bed for a while). Monday afternoon I was getting the sweats - I'm not sure if this is a symptom of alcoholism but I drank one beer and felt a lot better. At night (was completely sober by this point), my hallucinations were a lot worse and much more vivid than Sunday. It felt like I was dreaming although I knew I was still awake and my eyes were open but I couldn't move at all. I was seeing my room in the dark and hallucinating several people I didn't recognize talking to me about random things (and everyone was drinking in my hallucinations). I was basically floating in and out of these hallucinations as I realized that looking directly at any of them (took a lot of effort as I was paralysed) would cause them to sort of fade away and I'd snap out of it and I could move again. But every time I felt myself drifting off to sleep, I'd just start hallucinating again. The entire time, I was well aware that I was still awake (as I could see my room) and just hallucinating. The last hallucination, as I looked directly at the man speaking to me, he lunged for my face but faded away before he could make ""contact"". Obviously this scared me but my friend suggested I play some music and I was able to fall asleep no problem once I did that. I figure this is just a symptom of alcohol withdrawals as the amount I drank on Sat-Sun was definitely way too much. Has anyone else experienced this? Is it permanent? I know of someone who has alcohol-induced psychosis and I'm just wondering if this could be it. Will this happen every time I drink and will it get worse if I continue to drink? Should I see a doctor about it or will it be okay if I just limit the amount I drink? Thanks for reading and I'm sorry if my post is difficult to understand, I don't really know how to explain these hallucinations as I've never experienced anything like it before.",4.454154478976236,5.812978837294338,5.469392595978063,80.20642893053021,70.49908592321755,8.687550274223035,28.117413162705674,9.120678840339163,2.2107835831809868,2212,79,440,44,40,729,240,547,0.057999999999999996,0.875,0.067,0.7605,0,0,16,0,0,0,53.0,0,0,2,3,25,15,0,1,23,1,47,30,10,3,6,87,83,43,0,15,23,0,5,4,1,5,7,1,4,1,31,25,16,1,14,15,0,5,11,3,1,1,36,18,57,12,68,35,17,77,0,0,9,0,12,30,0,15,42,299,88,3,0.061263372637196535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26188765587131624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04899229696411918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041661194203856916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08567354918458345,0.12554313007447718,0.05041453570276674,0.10907478047272348,0.0,0.0,0.11511791051910543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10426123570729846,0.0,0.0,0.054182474582430216,0.06688373584541768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0629343594710692,0.0,0.0,0.12846696125131932,0.0,0.0,0.19565527201919825,0.0,0.0,0.07901961431725296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06270565784554294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5401330377741033,0.07104606242560316,0.0,0.10235537338820268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040463879838240166,0.0,0.10323406742886754,0.05853977793899842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2352897804458943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047331929729131514,0.0,0.0960227509514316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04899791561356416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05417499809767773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06287389480919739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06733749485159109,0.1498134762382152,0.06910775277944299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1197207573522115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15433741032172166,0.0,0.0,0.1562517858516208,0.0,0.0,0.04089377695321356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1302265394632735,0.13510688382702113,0.0,0.04725008974492943,0.0,0.0,0.05749152512533135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06524349243842782,0.04151364680751015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04247230880863682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1158273784283266,0.0,0.058673376226087974,0.0,0.0,0.05862077381459852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061279951375889874,0.0,0.03924688524969987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10463717098956953,0.0,0.0,0.06133532349160115,0.0,0.14645692858875506,0.0,0.0,0.06921017315430376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839228489367219,0.0,0.051908256828338085,0.0,0.0,0.06857932996114911,0.08672506094691239,0.0,0.09785001705037948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07013190453610355,0.0,0.0,0.11548000737664722,0.12735220299295233,0.0,0.049241178310467995,0.0,0.056403082530634176,0.0,0.0,0.04070066257138849,0.03925509547934882,0.0,0.0,0.14289266100696593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06806586117174081,0.04159380858726,0.0,0.0,0.06377733148420002,0.0,0.0,0.06747294973577916,0.0,0.0,0.09725602724826643,0.049141782179887565,0.0,0.0550831294361164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06643751430452809,0.0,0.0,0.12486522118730467,0.04351974218943331,0.0,0.0,0.039451603379783484 alcoholism,hextrickla,2019/06/11,"Anxiety and Fatigue Hi, 35 year old male here. I have been an addict for 15 years, first marijuana and progressively alcohol. I had ""good"" periods during which I only drank during social events, but always binging and needing to go full drunk. I also had very bad periods, drinking myself to bed 1 day out of 2. Overall, I have always known there was something wrong with my drinking. In my entourage, my mom had a bad drinking period and is now almost completely sober, and seems to have it under control. My friends around me are all party goers like me, even if with time it tends to be less and less. This year, I am getting married with my girlfriend, I love her very much ! We don't live together and plan to move in a place together very soon. She wasn't aware of my problem and I told her what was up 2 weeks ago, because I didn't want to trap her into it, and also because I know that I will need support. I do not drink daily, but have a weekly or bi-weekly urge to get hammered. During the past year, I did it more and more by myself, in the end almost exclusively. This lead me to a very rough patch last october, as the drinking obviously triggered an anxiety and strong fatigue disorder. I didn't get treatment for it and the symptoms disappeared in a month or so. I was a zombie. At the time, I realized I had to do something about my lifestyle, started meditating (still does, helps me a lot). In a very unclever move, I decided that I could also get back to partying and drinking. 10 days ago, the same anxiety and fatigue episode started after I got drunk 2 evenings in a row. It's a vicious circle : I don't sleep well, my brain just wakes up after 4 hours of bad sleep and I half sleep with nightmares until the day sets. This leads to extreme fatigue and mixes with social anxiety, something I have always managed to deal with, but not when I am very tired. I have decided to take sleeping pills in order to kill the cycle, which works in a way but is a temporary fix. I also decided that this time I had to do something about my drinking, I went to a doctor I know, and told him about my addiction. He referred me to a psychologist I will start to see soon, and prescribed me antidepressants in order to get through the anxiety phase. I'm feeling scared about the perspective to decide to cut definitely drinking. I see my drinking as something that is a part of me and my drunkness state something my friends appreciate. I think this is a common feeling for addicts. My girlfriend is very supportive but I am aware that I need to do it by myself and not rely on her too much. I hesitate to start the antidepressant treatment (Prozac) until I see the psychologist, because I don't like to take medications. He told me there were close to no side effects, no addiction and that it was a ok way to deal with the anxiety peak. Any thoughts about this ? Thanks in advance for the opinions ! 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My brother recently finished a 45 day program at a rehab center and really seems to be turning his life around. He reported to me that his senses of taste, smell and feeling is coming back. His skin looks incredibly healthier, he stopped eating fast food as much. Recently though he started his marijuana use again and I know at all rehab centers that’s grounds for readmission. He does have a marijuana card but I know that the rehab centers still would readmit for a positive THC test. My question is, if he started marijuana again should I expect a relapse soon?",6.598252212389383,8.27766337168142,7.253263274336286,68.21847898230091,65.72566371681414,10.605752212389381,38.01880530973453,10.686352973137794,4.696965486725666,503,27,79,14,8,166,77,113,0.013999999999999999,0.89,0.096,0.8453,0,0,2,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,0,6,0,6,12,3,1,1,19,17,8,0,4,2,1,4,0,0,2,6,0,0,0,3,6,5,1,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,7,10,0,11,14,2,23,0,0,1,0,11,8,0,3,13,50,13,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3945484278459821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16432726853802115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14194093591331094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15901087533874755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11904747665230728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32307786929567484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18888513942348367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0933359731228762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22321108078400775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10490868730363123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20289541819288226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303837826246327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15501197106232142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13569739392709673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20678686231909985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11825526347625567,0.0,0.3645274403129253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1680469051276372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2613123275139365,0.0,0.1474165334883133,0.15432835401650616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18136208540281654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20078461976958747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1594294359188838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13112986027520526,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,shybertodd,2019/06/11,"I have ruined my life I left my 92 year old Grandmother who I was supposed to be caring for and got drunk in another town with other alcoholics, I am 26, I have let down my family and I am going to have to start again. I felt proud of what I was doing and now I have failed, my Grandmother is upset, and my Father is dissapointed. I got drunk, and smoked hash, for what? It does nothing for me, I feel like shit even when I am drunk. I dont know why I do it. Im so afraid of my future, afraid of being alone I can already feel it, I could have been part of my family again, not now, I have let them down again, and they dont respect me anymore. I am going to stop drinking today. I am done, I will stay sober. Ive lost my job, I lived with my Grandmother, now they are sacking me I have to move out, im going to be homeless. I will have to sleep in a tent. This is what I have brought upon myself,",-0.1062307692307698,1.6988520564102598,2.4330128205128183,94.98490384615386,84.84615384615384,5.541025641025642,17.442307692307693,6.742157984588678,-0.22018461538461545,681,15,165,8,20,235,99,195,0.153,0.8,0.047,-0.9521,1,1,3,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,3,3,9,11,1,3,1,0,36,8,2,0,0,16,49,8,0,1,1,1,3,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,9,9,5,1,4,4,0,5,3,7,0,0,9,3,41,4,22,32,1,27,0,3,0,0,5,8,1,0,14,125,50,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14786111753337572,0.0,0.14329570083263002,0.15267993726062046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14507894790226655,0.0,0.0,0.1372125595225291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14106376424911546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11046647874946236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.121076784072267,0.14158682771190834,0.32430578555776635,0.1355367850662042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09138322266794134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2608605588192373,0.0,0.13991449787148494,0.0988419753733231,0.13284402338538406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23589371517754004,0.0,0.2213128079007299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2988977181131769,0.0,0.13729756657009048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07603716339762548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15032483960597576,0.2829579739616531,0.09772535104173656,0.06759404109805905,0.0,0.1221714035730384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15103256158510786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14705115896722845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13275687937771866,0.0,0.14518196687522575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14982670396463196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14202105115651684,0.0,0.0,0.1384565092398183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09792950635337737,0.14746971575983134,0.0,0.11567230424182474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13114586948614185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12484530227233055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08909710760990777 alcoholism,SFam3,2019/06/11,"After 3 1/2 years of sobriety my boyfriend of 4 years just confessed he has been drinking every night for 4 months using the “harm reduction” method. Thanks for taking the time to read my post. I am (36/F) trying to swallow a nuclear bomb right now. My boyfriend (46 M), has always been a cheerleader for people who want to get sober. He helped me get sober. (4 years in August)! He’s managed recovery houses and has been a 12 step sponsor for many. He told me last Saturday night that he wanted to try “drinking in moderation” using the harm reduction method. He claims he’s been successful because he’s in a peaceful environment with me. He has always told me how much he appreciates that I’m a peaceful and rational woman. He is a self proclaimed “Stage 4” alcoholic. He’s been in and out of AA for the last 17 years. His problem developed when his father passed away in 2001. Reddit, any advice would be appreciated. Please be kind.",3.951928838951311,5.985045915730339,4.948112359550558,80.72291760299626,72.9887640449438,8.117453183520599,27.59700374531836,8.841846274778883,2.2815223970037457,735,28,136,15,15,240,106,178,0.068,0.779,0.153,0.9324,0,0,5,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,1,4,6,0,0,10,0,14,4,0,3,0,14,25,5,0,4,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,3,5,4,0,1,3,0,2,0,3,1,0,7,0,10,3,21,15,1,27,1,0,0,0,22,8,0,0,15,66,13,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14020765472650815,0.0,0.1533372059866747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2387748306825947,0.0,0.0,0.0975717789528292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13480481696851912,0.0,0.0,0.08746448755302492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28111287507044624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12088865669912087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14992546116066088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.096172071803511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1655574345109157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1494130432910656,0.0,0.23391179996974726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14546688395572946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11452490565400618,0.0,0.1054748049969505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2692937871027486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0994714339299702,0.0,0.0,0.15749869437432054,0.0,0.0,0.13741482463356847,0.0,0.0,0.1372916281922682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14351950260069368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12253171222223964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496816356766105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10787961097841496,0.0,0.0,0.13209772802018546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08366473525417137,0.0,0.0,0.2742038667956796,0.0,0.19482791959461893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2478424703329579,0.0,0.0,0.1692572387793717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10192455463982802,0.0,0.0,0.3695874012128588 alcoholism,JoyDivision-0,2019/03/27,"Should I Be Concerned? Although I’m not struggling with addiction I am wondering about the effects of alcohol on my health. Particularly a batch I made myself. I’ve been having strange issues with my eyesight and bodily sensations lately after drinking a home brew. I’m not a heavy drinker, but my body will get really numb and I can get very confused and out of it. Also colors seem to be super bright and other strange perceptual stuff. Am I just paranoid or is this something more serious?",4.173577533577537,6.9246391538461545,5.2104761904761885,75.71507936507936,75.04395604395604,8.0004884004884,30.990231990231987,8.841846274778883,3.1375557997557992,397,19,64,9,9,130,69,91,0.157,0.731,0.11199999999999999,-0.3426,0,0,4,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,3,6,0,2,4,0,10,6,1,2,0,18,17,8,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,0,4,7,2,0,3,1,0,0,2,4,0,0,2,2,9,2,9,11,1,4,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,4,2,48,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2588213596830146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25372832036029563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18986359899921146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2637185845723408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2325798789808272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2480828784818409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25236490995490674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23815025180586635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2478033747310621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2678185648462729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2246512557797765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15209645892852153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21613701117788173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1827764667264022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24820150950816014,0.2717875385521463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1958952408078037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2574703852660255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,stuffishappening,2019/03/27,"My husband isn’t an alcoholic by it’s affecting him and me I don’t know how long he’s been drinking daily because he hides it since i don’t really like him drinking any amount of alcohol. In the past he has had memory problems because of it even though he only drank a glass or 2 of red wine a night. Now I’m more lax and just don’t say anything so it’s probably been anywhere from a month to 3 months of him drinking beer or gin and soda every night. I smell it almost every night. He’s a doctor and functional at his job as far as I know, but lately all he cares about is sex and he has been treating me like a sex doll despite me yelling at him about it. One night he penetrated me while I was sleeping and continued after I said no at least 3 times through the night. After that I made him sleep elsewhere. Another night I showed zero interest in sex and he just stripped me and acted like it didn’t matter if I was interested or not. I can’t help thinking this is linked to his drinking because it’s not really like him to do that.. 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I was traveling for work from August to February, every week, and was drinking pretty heavy. I went to detox in January, and decided to go to AA. I got a sponsor and went to a few meetings, but wasn't working the program. I relapsed again. I went back to detox March 9th, and have been to an AA meeting (often 2) every day since I was discharged on the 14th. I am working the program. I have a sponsor. I have a service position. I pray every morning and night to God (my higher power). I had a phone call from HR today, I am being investigated for misconduct. I know I'll be found in violation of our travel policy. I can only hope they decide to either ""retrain"" me or ""reprimand"" me. Termination is definitely on the table. After the call, the first immediate thought was ""the liquor store is directly across the street, you can walk there faster than driving even"". That thought was immediately followed by a chorus of voices; my sponsor, my AA friends, AA people I don't know well but I've spoken to, AA speakers I've listened to, and probably even a few AA people I haven't yet met. Loud and clear, I heard ""Nothing ever gets better when you're drinking"". I immediately lost the urge to drink, a wave of tranquility washed over me, and I relaxed. There's nothing I can do until Friday when I find the results of the investigation.... except stay sober. One day at a time. 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I don't even know what to do anymore. This was the first time he was left alone in the evening in a long time and he failed to stay sober for even a single evening.",3.4159523809523837,3.506768333333333,3.2890079365079394,99.53446428571432,72.01587301587301,6.3000000000000025,23.686507936507937,3.1291,-0.2227111111111113,227,5,58,0,4,68,47,63,0.155,0.845,0.0,-0.8442,0,1,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,8,1,0,0,5,0,6,2,1,0,0,5,7,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,4,1,0,1,1,0,2,1,1,0,1,2,0,2,0,11,5,1,17,0,1,0,0,5,8,0,0,6,39,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23506425897052985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2250853894303889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7495315419081685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19305382295792886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12473241949638388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465949558955369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20085429211698394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2419113710617748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22298908392004985,0.0,0.2646868193561007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,yramha,2019/03/27,"Friend dying One of my friends is actively dying from acute alcoholism. I don't want to see her because I want to remember her as she was before this but I feel bad for not visiting her in her final days. She is totally unaware of the situation and is very medicated to ease her passing. Essentially her body is shutting down and they are making her ""comfortable."" How do you deal with this kinda shit?",4.560692640692643,6.3294380779220845,5.9656493506493495,75.14942640692642,70.81818181818181,9.808658008658007,31.01515151515152,10.125756701596842,3.4274865800865806,320,14,58,9,6,108,57,77,0.161,0.731,0.10800000000000001,-0.6835,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,1,0,1,5,1,0,1,0,8,4,2,2,1,13,13,5,2,2,2,0,1,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,2,0,0,2,2,2,0,1,1,2,15,3,11,12,1,7,0,0,1,0,15,3,1,1,2,44,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2277087154635795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1779058658946523,0.1298864550271662,0.0,0.181308217652077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23667448730818974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1374135395022253,0.2196674388408141,0.0,0.0,0.4422693123006727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10773539087399392,0.0,0.0,0.23340949657335586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3292371420309747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422269314601978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2146471964813076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14438281418490065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24136855970565685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16979045954510896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2187149107698175,0.0,0.23950137869274435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17580636480165596,0.25135027195364706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Howeverfew,2019/03/27,"Hi, guys! I guess it’s time. Hey guys! I just wanted to say I been having a huge problem with alcohol now for a long time. About 10-12 nips/shooters (depending where you live and what you call them) a day. I been drinking more then a pint a day for over 2 years now. It all started with a burn out with the one and only love of my life I have had yet I am young. I’m 23 but I dated only one girl in my entire life for 5 years. I started using Reddit again for these subreddits in particular to see how people talk and communicate to one and another. I already had a OUI about a year ago and been to my fair share of meetings but they never struck as therapeutic or helpful. I recently joined hiking clubs, walking my dog and coloring etc for awhile trying to find joy in hobbies i used to before I started drinking heavily. I recently linked back up with a therapist as well in the last month. So I feel as I been practicing the steps on what to do just not going through with the quitting yet. Today, I was drinking and smoking cigarettes on my front stairs in some awesome weather, and I realized that I lost the love of my life (so far) and if I can somehow live through that on top of my daily decisions that led to lack of friends and family conflict that caused more pain then ever. I can do this and it, it is something I can conquer. So grand scheme of things, I just wanted to say thank you to all of you who comment back advice to those in need because me who is a silent Redditor was reading too and it made me think of my situation in a different light. Truly only made this account to create this post. Wish me luck , but thank you all again! I’ll try to give updates. No edits, but weird structure due to mobile and cracked phone. Sorry for any misspelled words or weird structure. Let’s get this fight moving. 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My mom is an alcoholic. Me, my dad, and grandmother are all trying to help her get the help she needs. I don't know how to help her. I've been here for her emotionally but I'm not good at it. I'm an anti social fuck up with the inablitity to understand and relate to my mother's problem. I smoke pot, I don't work. I'm a NEET. I love her more than anything and I don't know how to help her. She's anti religion and atheist. She has no faith in the medical community or any medical professional. She's hurting herself. She has cut herself. When we started talking to her about taking her somewhere she can get actual qualified help she denied it and blamed her husband, my father, as wanting to, ""call the men in white coats to ship her off to a psych ward."" That is not what we want. That is never what we wanted. We want her to get help. Help that I am literally incapable of providing. I'm a 20-something dude that's been struggling with anxiety and other health problems basically my whole life. I just don't know how to help...because I can't even help myself. I was oblivious to her drinking for a long time. I can blame it on my teen years being filled with pot smoke, acid and late nights with friends. But that's no excuse. I was ignorant. I took her drinking as just a fact of life. I guess it mainly started after her brother died. But since moving states it's just gotten so much worse. Then yesterday happened...I will never forget it. I don't think any of us will. And I won't forget today. I started talking to her about her anger issues. The fact that she can't even function in society without wanting to beat someone up. It devolved. I know yelling and arguing is the worst thing to do with an addict. But I flipped my own lid yesterday. I told her I didn't want to see her in a coffin. That I didn't want her to die. That I love her. But it devolved into yelling between me and her and my dad. We ended up going into the bathroom where it continued to devolve. I got so upset I put my fist through the wall. My anger and frustration is so shameful and embarrassing and I will never forget that. After the argument it was clear we weren't on a rational level footing anymore. For any of us. Then today was even worse. I woke up, mom was already awake. I could tell she was still upset from the night before. Rightly so. She made a drink. Then another one. Then it was barely 2:30 or 3 PM before the fourth came. I asked her what number drink it was (because we'd been helping her keep track as per her request) and that's when it just hit the fan. She said, ""I don't know, number 3? I'm ready, let me have it. Berate me, make me feel like a tiny piece of shit."" I'm paraphrasing on structure but at one point or another those were her exact words. The next hours were the family trying to tell her that we aren't trying to berate her. And that at this point with her drinking and self harm that a program is the only way to go about it. Then came the accusations that my father wants her committed. He doesn't want her committed. He loves her more than anything. Then she started saying that me and my sister were raised to think my mother is stupid and worthless by my father. That has never been true. I rely on her for so much advice and wisdom and I definitely don't think she is stupid! Yeah I go to dad for some things but only a mom can answer a loooot of questions. She's been talking of leaving. Just driving away and never coming back because that's clearly what we want. I can't stress enough, that is not what I want. I want her to be safe, healthy, happy. She threw her cell phone through her bedroom window and locked herself in her room. The door doesn't have a keyhole so my dad had to knock the door down as we were afraid for her wellbeing. Especially after hearing the glass from the window break. I just don't know what to do. Everything is so fucked up. I know I fucked up. I know my dad fucked up. I know we haven't been handling this correctly. But I don't know what to do now. I'm so scared. I'm so sad. I'm sorry for a chaotic, nearly not formatted, wall of text. Hell at this point I don't even know if this is the right subreddit. 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On a daily basis their father comes home plastered, slurring speech, and barely able to walk. Their family has done many interventions with him but he seems to not care at all. They have also taken him to the doctors multiple times but it was not able to help him. They feel like they have tried everything and are not able to fix this. I am worried for the safety of my friend and their father. Does anyone have any advice for my friend or their father?",6.3528947368421065,7.911715824561405,5.493815789473686,81.0554605263158,66.19298245614036,7.805263157894737,27.407894736842106,8.07648339933343,1.7944421052631574,500,15,85,6,8,150,75,114,0.084,0.765,0.151,0.8664,0,0,2,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,8,0,2,7,0,1,5,0,10,3,0,0,1,16,17,7,0,1,6,5,2,1,4,0,3,1,1,0,2,6,2,0,2,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,3,3,15,6,15,14,1,9,0,0,0,0,22,3,0,2,4,59,17,1,0.4433649958881569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28883409511218433,0.0,0.3158815631327893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11818627567613264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1005011336124942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10333703795820724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09009039544276966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506800540119946,0.0,0.0,0.12730656191265874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15126762009166858,0.12933056522856964,0.15123877461075974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1328226233214357,0.0,0.13932168654973434,0.0,0.07472622118287424,0.10558001388367144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4567235946783536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08399151483785976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09905940367027392,0.0,0.14824374688265246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07220191391999088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14983417231426874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1095831755312014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12621042799443513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13454094687729262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15450045285450165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17235312969948918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10033857632179267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12194085151545893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15008622492449072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,porcupine-racetrack,2019/03/27,"Day 3. What a bitch I drink about 100 beers a week. Usually 20 a night with a couple nights off. Last few weeks I was at about 70-80. Baby steps and all. Took a couple days off work and decided cold turkey time. On day 3 and I feel like absolute hell. I know about kindling but didn’t think I was in that boat yet. My hands are freezing and keep going numb. My head is foggy. Heart could power a truck engine it’s beating so fast. Anxiety and anger hanging out on the bleachers watching all this. AA meeting or hospital are not in the cards tonight for various reasons. Recommendations how to hit fast forward button? Sleep is obvious answer but never felt less like i could relax in my life. 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This is my first time posting here. I'm glad that there's a space for me to be able to vent. My apologies ahead of time for the very long post. My father is an alcoholic. He knows it. He's been in and out of rehab. But he just doesn't stop. Recently, his partner of a long time left him. He wanted to take some time off from work and travel with me, and I assumed it would be a good bonding experience for us. I was worried about him after his breakup and I wanted to be there for him. We've had a rocky relationship most of my life, and I thought this would be a great time to work on it. I had a whole list of of things I wanted to do - museums, historical sites, that kind of thing. Fast forward to our trip. He drinks the whole way there. We arrived on Sunday, and slept the rest of that day because of the long journey. Monday was our first full day to explore. We go out and eat, he starts drinking right off the bat in the AM. We hit a few local spots and eventually end up at a pub where he keeps drinking. I had one beer with him, and we got talking about politics. Him and I disagree with each other on a lot of things. I don't hate him for it but he has some views that do upset me. He's drunk at this point and starts to belittle me - saying I was just young and dumb and would change my mind when I grew up, saying I don't have reliable sources for what I was saying, saying that he would put a bullet in his brain if \[unnamed politician that I support\] ever becomes president. He says some more problematic things and is laughing in my face anytime I try to counter what he says. I was crying. I left the pub and went back to my hotel room - I told him I needed time to cool off. After a few hours we met up again and go to another place to eat. I didn't want our difference in opinions to ruin our trip. But the same thing happens again at the next place. This time it was more ""civil"". We didn't fight as bad but the debating continued. At one point in our conversation, I mention that I don't think the government should have control over my body. We leave. He tries to take me to another bar. He's very drunk and I'm a bit upset again so I had to beg him to go back to hotel. I was subtle and made excuses that I was tired, but my real concern was how hammered he was getting. Now, Tuesday (today). We were staying in separate rooms on opposite sides of the hotel. I wake up early. I text him a few times to see when we should meet up and what our plans will be. It takes him a few hours to respond and it wasn't until 4:00 PM we finally meet up - I thought that he was sleeping in because of a hangover. But we meet in the lobby, and I can smell the liquor on him from 5 feet away. He's absolutely wasted. We decide to go out to eat. I'm frustrated that his binge drinking wasn't slowing down but rather speeding up. Walking to the restaurant, he's literally stumbling on his feet. I had never seen him this drunk before. Red in the face, falling over, falling into people. We make it into the restaurant. He tries to order another drink. I interrupted him. I had never done this before. I said ""No, I don't think you need anything more to drink. Water is fine please."" The waitress scurried off. My dad looked at me with more hate in his eyes than I had ever seen. Fuming. He has had a history of violent outbursts (not hurting people, but throwing shit and punching his hand through walls and windshields to intimidate them) and I got scared. I didn't expect this outburst. I thought he would understand that I just want to have a sober day (although it was too late for that). I wanted to diffuse the situation. I asked him, ""Is that OK?"" He was fuming. He said ""No."" He said ""You don't want the government to interfere with your body but think you can control mine? Fuck you."" I begin to feel a panic attack coming on - I really didn't want to fight again. And I didn't mean to embarrass him. I just wanted us to enjoy our trip and to be able to go out and do fun things instead of just bar hopping and fueling his disease. I said nothing mean to him beyond trying to cut off the drinks - I kept saying ""I love and care about you Dad, I just want us to have a nice dinner without more alcohol. You were falling over in the street. I'm worried about you."" He's not having it. He was so horrible. I didn't recognize the angry man in front of me. He looked like he wanted to hurt me. I decided to leave. He texts me while I walk to the hotel. ""You can't control me. Fuck you for trying."" So... I got to my hotel room. I pack my bags. I decide that I can't do this anymore. This isn't the trip I wanted to have. I know I should feel so lucky to have the opportunity to travel but I just don't feel like I deserved his anger for trying to express my concern for him. I call my airline and ask them to switch me to the next flight home. The next flight isn't until tomorrow morning. I'm at the airport right now, I've been here about 6 hours and have another 10 hours until my flight leaves. I didn't want to stay at the hotel because I didn't want my dad to try and stop me from leaving. I haven't spoken to him since the bar. I've never been more hurt. Saying I love you to your father and hearing ""fuck you"" back is so painful. I guess I just wanted to type out what happened... if anyone has any advice, I would love to hear it. I'm sorry for the long post. I just don't know how to repair the relationship between us anymore. I feel like it isn't worth my effort and tears. You shouldn't spend every day of a vacation crying, right? Is that unreasonable for me to expect? I feel guilty for leaving him behind in another country but I need to be with my other family right now.",1.5098133588671383,3.4758948647506362,3.1656168882172966,91.01316459578544,80.06508875739645,5.9796647192154335,22.04975351401492,7.041503590940878,0.5824626590563962,4447,137,963,53,113,1471,409,1183,0.141,0.779,0.08,-0.9973,0,0,11,0,2,0,162.0,24,14,2,11,45,49,17,5,54,2,95,46,13,7,5,168,187,62,0,33,26,6,6,3,1,11,7,14,4,2,48,62,23,8,22,26,2,25,33,28,0,4,56,30,173,21,168,112,22,177,0,4,8,6,142,76,5,11,74,658,221,5,0.07733112766778301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03778354148005972,0.0,0.1239651863687858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02629390930572664,0.202721074962256,0.0,0.0,0.07669169915256896,0.027035861251795284,0.0,0.0318184645157422,0.0,0.07229416543448029,0.04398766080308336,0.03632757001447028,0.08919429571632834,0.03228413073961911,0.07071050649705539,0.042703077455464034,0.06580309393860091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04221278141337529,0.08589744978408381,0.0,0.04316355670833458,0.03948186374360299,0.0,0.039422119253397454,0.0,0.040903039665453785,0.03330695955989872,0.0,0.0,0.13010015291800708,0.0,0.0,0.08494461255305036,0.09974435980229264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040397284660658166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039568296199100544,0.0,0.26514272696326785,0.0,0.11869357401199288,0.0,0.0,0.03424621300945866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0699504322661212,0.03257740516214744,0.03694660321961921,0.0,0.03782234076954788,0.03645045243553522,0.0,0.09775235422309188,0.0552453730573541,0.0,0.042356235222199085,0.0,0.06577781768959133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10723707214751306,0.020201161240913056,0.0,0.1098726548753438,0.03243084046861742,0.0927731506933205,0.04262892062829685,0.04259447775724275,0.0,0.06838366080664945,0.0,0.0,0.07634847865912463,0.0,0.0,0.08715780113675893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03878471312276796,0.0,0.1523111671666638,0.0,0.12417685735317978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03436772971090702,0.0,0.04026423471572844,0.06374874807376457,0.0,0.04361644015804585,0.2047062461670302,0.08402049647887204,0.0,0.027310631212449192,0.05667012424851214,0.0,0.0,0.136871229034631,0.06493867089875485,0.0,0.0,0.032872079677927095,0.10469154289346463,0.036586291393850084,0.025809564102146302,0.0,0.0,0.08423626842712244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03904119715899115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08601007695975052,0.08946379945529265,0.0,0.12336379736580455,0.0,0.0,0.03710065131464221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05240157345300416,0.0,0.04114288604420755,0.04536570819794602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0536116670278128,0.0,0.08079456932131633,0.0424431780387116,0.07310291127546567,0.0,0.11109276601149676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03886957115345187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04400987661217064,0.024770150280337667,0.0,0.03817757963759042,0.08302469074856571,0.0,0.13208072099636733,0.14711922212422288,0.24598726626245,0.03871097465987328,0.0,0.030811448328186226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03968964563640712,0.031984553962306865,0.04346171377291279,0.038693487641674566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04328293311570548,0.054735370184386574,0.08242469285991921,0.0,0.06465228538894716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043877223631038416,0.0,0.0,0.08721507604288478,0.03107791558415515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15412609515201986,0.0743259961731544,0.0,0.09208841609615548,0.1803696096941584,0.04444037769284127,0.036650433468817634,0.03694660321961921,0.0,0.18375965838260647,0.0,0.0,0.040252215565428254,0.1860396501074578,0.0,0.0,0.06380627909677533,0.3420892700916676,0.030690924837488826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035843365047725104,0.0,0.08633744238730029,0.0,0.037272223752008345,0.0,0.056297981951431424,0.07853351388889887,0.0,0.1648014430702459,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Weird_Day,2019/01/22,"I've hit my newest low and need some feedback I'm in my late 30s and on my second convicted DUI. I have about eight more months until probation is over though I may be able to drive again if I can scrounge up enough money and convince the DMV to allow me to get my license back early. Problem is, I'm still drinking almost daily and it just cost me my job today because I drank at work due to, well, alcoholism. I've already isolated myself from most of my friends and while I still have family, it's small and the person I'm living with is an overbearing (sober) bully that makes our living situation unsteady even at the best of times. He'll never know why I lost my job (I'd definitely be out on my ass if he did and while I wouldn't blame him for it, I'd prefer to not be homeless) but just losing it is possibly problem enough. Thankfully, my work history is pretty good. I've left on good terms with every job before this going back well over ten years and the job I lost was at a mega-corp that will most assuredly just confirm my employment when contacted and not the reasons, but not having a car, it being just after the holidays, and having almost no savings or much food, the next few weeks are gonna be rough. I have a 401(k) I can try to cash out and if the government ever gets \*its\* crap in order, maybe I'll get my tax return in a month or so. Between now and then? Well, I got lots of fat to burn, so there's that. I'm hoping to be able to get another job within a week or two, but if I don't, what can I do to try to get a handle on the alcoholism? I usually drink about three to six 24oz 10% ABV beers a day but don't have any physical dependencies. It's purely mental and emotional so I'm lucky in that regard at least. I've also managed to be sober for weeks and months at a time, but I always fall hard off the wagon, and each time it gets worse. I know there's AA, of course, and counseling but I'm leery of the former and the latter costs money I don't have. I am guessing any kind of assistance will? Are there options I'm unaware of? Or just AA, poverty, and determination?",4.036916693784576,4.317991792710707,5.442638301334204,83.96680808656038,70.70842824601367,8.549332899446794,25.929140904653433,8.527137837955566,1.5484844777090792,1643,45,353,25,28,555,228,439,0.077,0.79,0.133,0.9748,7,0,5,0,0,0,51.0,1,0,0,6,27,21,1,0,21,0,35,10,3,4,4,72,63,42,0,10,22,0,2,0,1,6,3,0,0,1,14,23,8,0,4,4,6,4,9,7,5,6,6,2,34,14,50,43,13,63,0,4,0,1,7,23,2,20,35,237,48,12,0.16722951983458806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17871749895864925,0.1674562078602481,0.0,0.09227096678145404,0.06686669329667934,0.06957417848994954,0.0,0.0,0.11372180803210398,0.08767736627850341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12858917829057664,0.0,0.050970781561439575,0.0,0.07115000217155118,0.0,0.08774853191245978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053924602870154915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16382126449477405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0940553506679498,0.0,0.1727927972575655,0.0,0.05522676033579062,0.07563433738053936,0.07044904150534459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07882455412696038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10110729959148952,0.0,0.06460055609672141,0.0,0.2621115659090322,0.0,0.04752019496389665,0.14026418708642374,0.06687436185954451,0.0,0.09211108486028567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07490240127329142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0830483231305355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4148737362440219,0.0,0.0,0.08707190546794022,0.09190497067132188,0.0,0.094321091189296,0.0,0.0908476813036256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14766672980077214,0.0,0.0,0.09354352852018316,0.1825507754715561,0.07108627878957277,0.0,0.0,0.05581350152404529,0.0,0.08400226492451524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08426401159521521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20022151090392826,0.0,0.06146646937679415,0.06199928499989765,0.06448885753465862,0.0,0.08892524576081162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07300918318814334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09426307845821226,0.0,0.08506627088469279,0.0,0.1600160656417283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08596989921357724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09398649346814672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13354971055907916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07698123693456049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08215107708341715,0.0,0.14626931675958438,0.0,0.07925701558433773,0.0,0.0,0.11353786673370375,0.0,0.08167947073939047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09208984504459684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20121215052325364,0.0,0.22553913268387446,0.0,0.07544931538141235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1217450821335487,0.0,0.08521058376450873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05384516396914865 alcoholism,crankgoon94,2019/01/22,"88 days in and I still hate myself. I no longer enjoy the simple things. Sure not drinking has kept me out of trouble the last couple months, but im not happy. Everyday I get more and more frustrated about what I’m doing in my life. I literally feel like I can’t enjoy anything. I just recently got engaged to the love of my life, won thousands at the casino, got a raise at work, but at the end of the day I still feel down. I’m not sleeping, and feeling depressed more and more. This is the longest time I’ve had not drinking, but at this point I’d rather be drinking and somewhat happy then not drinking at all and being this depressed. 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I don't mean the desire and constant need to fuel yourself for self-medication or just the pure escape, but the other part of it. For me it is the smell. Whats yours? 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Maybe I can actually do this whole sobriety thing again.. ,6.078888888888893,7.922444481481483,6.282407407407407,74.06583333333336,67.14814814814815,9.844444444444443,32.01851851851852,10.125756701596842,3.3907185185185185,119,5,21,3,2,38,25,27,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,4,3,1,8,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,5,15,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.3465707968452062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3479074039695838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3497467982622685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31429260913418544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35679140931531034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2834737655182956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23594290254983946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.396507289738902,0.0,0.3423476075688018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,monolife,2019/01/22,"I want to so badly - why can't I stay sober? I have so much going on this very moment, so this will not be linear. I'm in a very bad place mentally and physically and I cannot write properly. But I'm sober. I just wanted to vent to random strangers on the internet because I don't have anyone else. I'm really alone right now and actually pretty concerned for myself - and not just about my inability to stay sober. I've tried to kill myself in the past. I've gotten drunk and stumbled down to the basement to my father's gun safe and tried to crack the code. There's a hospital literally across the street from my building, but I don't have health insurance because I've been unemployed since October. I've got a job interview in a few hours and I don't even want to go because I keep trembling over everything on my mind - a fresh breakup, losing my best friend and the woman I truly believe is the love of my life...I'm financially struggling...I'm mentally struggling...I can't pull it together enough to be charming and convince these people to hire me. I just want a safe space where I know I won't drink or otherwise hurt myself. I went to a SMART Recovery meeting this morning but it didn't help very much. Probably because I was hungover and she's all I can think about. If you knew her, if you saw her, she'd be all you could think about, too. But she hates my fucking guts right now and doesn't want to ever talk to me or see me ever again. Because I hurt her again. She broke up with me again 2 days ago because I'm a fucking alcoholic and I relapsed. So I drank yesterday, too, because why the fuck not? I'm sad already. Why not be drunk and miserable, right? I texted her a little this morning after reading a post she made on r/codependency about me/us but then deleted. She asked me to please leave her alone. I can't do that unless I blocked her, so I'm trying. I want her in my life so badly but she made her decision and I don't think it's the wrong move on her part. But holy fucking shit - I love this woman more than anything. I stopped drinking at first because she wanted me to and left me over my problem. I want to stop drinking because it's what I want to do. I am better than I was. I tapered my drinking down severely. But it's not enough. It's my fault. It's my fault every time, and I say that with sincerity, not bitterness. I've had a drinking problem for about 7 years. I started dating this woman in June and it got serious, fast. I moved from my hometown, the only place I ever really knew, to a completely different city because she was going to school here. But I had a drinking problem and she knew it. She prodded me and poked me and broke up with me a few times over my drinking. She wasn't wrong. I'm a fucking trainwreck, my friends. I gradually acquiesced into programs and meetings - after she broke up with me in December, I went back home and lived with my parents for a month while I did outpatient treatment. It really helped. And she and I talked through some things and decided to try again. I was upset she requested we do not tell anyone we're back together, such as family, friends, etc., because I took it like she's ashamed of me. She told her family I'm an alcoholic and why she left me. I assumed they all hated me and think I'm a fucking leper or diseased freak or something. It hurt me, but I agreed and didn't tell a soul we were back together. But I came back to the city I moved to (I mean, shit, I've got another like 10 months on my fucking lease) and I've drank about 5 times since I've been back, including the last 2 days. And every time I've drank, it's been a binge. I lied to her to cover them up but she knew, every time. She can tell. Everybody can. So she left me again over my drinking. She apparently had a nightmare where I got drunk and killed myself in my bathroom and my roommate (who is a heavy drinker and pot smoker) didn't notice because he was too drunk/stoned and just playing video games. That is......eerily possible, unfortunately. I don't know where this is going or why I'm saying this. I can't talk to her because she asked me not to. She left me. I'm trying very hard to respect that. I really do love her more than anything. I'm just not in a spot to control my drinking to where it needs to be in order to be with someone. True, she is very controlling and judgmental, but I don't think she's totally out of line here. She cared about me and wanted what's best for me. But I don't care enough about myself to commit to that, apparently. So I took to Googling bridges nearby to jump off, or thought about trying to go to a rough neighborhood around here and trying to buy a gun off a random person. How fucking bizarre is that? I need serious help. I can't stay sober. I can't accept it's over with her. I can't KILL MYSELF over it. That's not normal. That is aberrant psychology. But She didn't ruin my life. 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But I wanna talk. I am a 22 year old male, in college for pharmacy. Lots of college kids drink alot, and I too ""drink alot"" but there are a few things that concern me. First of all alcoholism runs in my family. Second, and more concerning, when you think of the average college drinker you think of someone going to parties or the bars and drinking socially. And in my mind that seems somewhat acceptable for our stage in life. However, thats not me. Sure, I drink socially, but I will also sit in my room alone and polish off half a handle of bonded on a tuesday. Go to class at 9, get home at 4, and do the same thing again. I do not think I am an alcoholic *yet* but I fear I am on the path. Like i mentioned, I am in pharmacy school, and like any other doctorate program it requires an insane amount of studying. So, when I have to study or have a project to complete, I don't drink. But, if you give me just one day with nothing to do I will get drunk. last week I bought an 18 pack of my favorite beer to use as a ""dinner beer"" where I would just have one with my meal. I killed all 18 in one night. Making this post is something I have thought about and battled for a long time, because I don't want to hear ""you should stop drinking"". I love drinking, school is fucking hard, life is fucking hard, and being able to wash it all out brings me back to baseline. I dont really know what I am trying to get by making this post, but i feel like I am going down the wrong path, and maybe its not too late. Also, I am drunk right now. Sorry if this isn't the right place to post this, but I just dont know anymore. 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Today I took one shot and felt instantly drunk and dizzy...what could be going on? I’ve been reading about “reverse tolerance” from liver damage, however I can’t seem to figure out if this is potentially that or something else. I binge drink about once a week and have a very high tolerance...can easily drink 15 drinks in a night without blacking out. I usually don’t feel buzzed til about 4 drinks in, so this incident was very scary and I was panicking a bit thinking something could be wrong. I felt dizzy and sick, and one shot does not phase me a bit EVER.",7.087746031746033,6.227999192592598,6.878095238095237,80.10000000000005,64.48148148148148,10.380952380952381,31.137566137566136,9.606745405546679,2.536534391534391,541,16,109,9,7,171,94,135,0.177,0.787,0.036000000000000004,-0.9567,1,0,6,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,8,0,11,9,2,0,1,25,20,12,0,4,5,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,10,5,0,6,6,0,3,5,3,0,2,8,5,9,0,17,8,3,22,0,1,1,0,0,9,0,3,10,64,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3029715804575641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22157100765690987,0.0,0.0,0.0894862448031359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1214264515102092,0.0,0.0,0.5437128508424197,0.0,0.0,0.11591296767356207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255128915210586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07015928413339231,0.0,0.2664553487710488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07885832390590558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14660350228747582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11310479071383855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14756875132659006,0.13021325745316267,0.13595157701029165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14777078290249152,0.1880495313972532,0.0,0.14764633828949011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13879371033958202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12631839761359315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21364254342678768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08890934520971222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13152461625028244,0.0,0.15416320031875366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15282030796567214,0.22897672901200006,0.0,0.0,0.11130182267294758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1337559876324079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15170807969375266,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,CommentsAboutTitties,2019/01/22,"How do you stop the daily stops at the liquor store? I buy a pint of vodka on the way home everyday. It doesn’t matter what route I take home, I pass atleast 2 stores... How do you pass that first step?",0.8133720930232577,2.504961906976746,1.7745930232558145,101.48654069767444,81.09302325581395,5.230232558139536,15.401162790697676,5.985473137389443,-0.9901581395348836,154,2,39,1,4,48,34,43,0.106,0.866,0.027999999999999997,-0.4696,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,0,3,1,0,2,0,5,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,1,2,0,2,3,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,5,0,3,4,0,10,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,4,21,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28772854649659674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6786159544400561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5656103761432191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2543336334733231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2684994882560331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,cdromney,2019/01/22,"Anyone have experience with Antabuse? I’ve just started taking it after I relapsed and kept drinking while on naltrexone. However ever since talking it I’ve been a lot more anxious, and absolutely exhausted. I can barely stay awake at work and all I want to do is sleep when I get home. I drink coffee with extra espresso powder and have even taken caffeine pills on occasion and nothing works. On top of that I’m always at least slightly nauseous. It’s not debilitating but I just don’t feel like eating. Do these sound like sound effects or just withdrawal? I’m a week sober tomorrow so physically I should be feeling better, right?",3.923276836158194,6.702893898305085,4.945000000000004,77.12365819209043,76.11864406779661,7.3231638418079115,29.324858757062145,8.344100000000001,2.609218079096045,512,23,84,10,12,167,88,118,0.043,0.826,0.131,0.8779,1,0,2,0,1,0,11.0,0,0,0,5,7,4,0,0,2,0,10,7,1,1,2,22,20,10,0,2,6,0,2,2,0,1,2,2,1,0,5,7,4,1,3,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,4,7,3,10,15,5,15,0,0,0,0,1,7,0,2,9,55,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16941820948721958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2300191433835024,0.0,0.14236748367993945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18007477545335385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39891675200514415,0.0,0.20834186741438931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13448119769349548,0.18417513929559806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1991677436163848,0.0,0.0,0.20590069707666614,0.14545763262142702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1063768032575821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2042354767658877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19894521857345915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17310028422942106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19536741668260002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17388016342216858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16842668416699655,0.0,0.20375509472553768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14411482676409365,0.217019091906668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1530879153375786,0.16365243920017308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12009330403366593,0.0,0.16332209740546647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29645817279638953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Pootie_Poot655,2019/03/01,"17 and becoming an alcoholic. Need advice Hi all As the title says, I'm currently 17, and I think I'm developing an addiction to alcohol. I've been depressed for a few years but never really done much about it until it hit hard towards the end of last year. I started drinking my parent'a alcohol because it helped me push away the unbearable sadness that sometimes came over me. I saw a GP, got prescribed Fluoxetine (prozac), and continued drinking for a while until around a month or so ago when my mood appeared to be heading upwards. Things were great for a week or two until it came back. For 5 or 6 nights in a row I drank dangerous amounts of alcohol purely because I couldn't handle being sober. The last time was last week when I consumed around a pint of 40% over the course of a few hours, and stayed up the entire night throwing up almost constantly. The next day I came clean to my parent's, who were understandable pissed off, but didn't really help much other than recommending I talk to the GP about it. Not that I blame them, it was my fault. I swore not to drink again at least until I was 18, but tonight I've had a couple of swigs of relatively strong raki, gin etc. and plan to have more later on when it wears off. I'm not particularly drunk at the moment as I stopped myself before having to much, but the fact I couldn't say no to it scares me. At 17 I'm worried this will become a problem, and I don't know what to do about it. Can anyone give any advice at all about what I should do to get off this path before it's too late? This is my first time on this sub, and though I've read rule 2, I know that I won't have the confidence to post this if I'm not at least slightly drunk. Hell, I'll almost certainly delete this at tomorrow anyway. Thank you for reading this if you've made it this far",5.583171608265951,5.219718242587604,6.248787061994609,81.72813117699909,67.38274932614556,9.546451033243487,29.25696316262355,9.107695989026183,2.119890925426775,1432,43,302,23,21,470,202,371,0.12,0.8,0.08,-0.9472,3,0,7,0,0,0,35.0,0,1,1,3,16,13,3,1,23,0,24,15,3,1,6,45,47,28,0,7,13,1,1,0,0,3,6,2,1,0,27,12,10,1,4,7,0,6,11,8,0,2,16,4,28,4,53,23,12,68,1,2,1,0,11,21,2,8,39,200,55,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09552135694128347,0.0,0.1712472036001343,0.0776719767754091,0.3745668206817424,0.1754823667159386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05958624130956024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06126762414177817,0.0,0.0,0.15600503812330255,0.0,0.0,0.082324135521405,0.06737622220407648,0.0,0.10682761178047484,0.1935441282873782,0.14912042894615055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30065007143637784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09468869329698196,0.0,0.0,0.09695252649530713,0.0,0.0565092035511108,0.0,0.0754690505637256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08966814398398583,0.0,0.2575098013320507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07760744469730775,0.0,0.09772214549492912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0745315744436416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045779091060157436,0.08405539682190283,0.0,0.0,0.07007964315974917,0.09660401280727668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07849246567863034,0.0,0.08992586841943925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11746290452477598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08629042048681768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09630996648283108,0.2142718689933264,0.09884189140925052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08291043991473114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06993936912386653,0.0,0.19323765283603656,0.06497090436657826,0.06757980185741035,0.0,0.0931874236631874,0.16445538611351151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19458862662900636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08391804462318142,0.0,0.0,0.08384280962225615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17529223729183685,0.0,0.11226631496418964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13936170955188756,0.08772531503746801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08666080080281681,0.0,0.062019590507689175,0.09339382709340732,0.0,0.07325625553826143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07042757149056944,0.0,0.08067093971978047,0.0,0.0,0.058212433603576835,0.05614490022577796,0.08608856977635962,0.0,0.10218666006623987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08559435938866758,0.09121801562629077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1405708188308026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08898480737614134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11285191430346522 alcoholism,ifshedrivesavolvo,2019/03/01,"Anyone else get really puffy/swollen in the face from withdrawal? And does it get better? I was on close to a 2 1/2 month binge, and I decided to quit a couple days ago when I started salivating more than usual. I’ve read in a couple places that your parotid gland can become swollen along with lymph nodes but I’m just really scared :( ",4.152727272727268,5.655316696969699,4.397393939393943,87.04609090909094,71.42424242424242,8.31030303030303,23.806060606060605,8.841846274778883,1.4981006060606066,266,7,54,5,5,83,53,66,0.13699999999999998,0.816,0.046,-0.8367,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,2,2,2,0,1,4,0,2,5,2,0,0,8,6,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,4,1,9,5,1,11,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,6,27,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.196195840923708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15475920066578647,0.22677891419611104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2444417831349071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.195748548677614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4897952454699753,0.0,0.14273964911047898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19368752280786808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1848929561127225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312717569488764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17666362964609045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312429193553636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23541187928458876,0.22139006454228968,0.0,0.2835795480716866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2215901109848197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15665863312046505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2437639123640035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,jadekinsjackson,2019/03/01,"Alcoholics of reddit, have you ever changed your behaviour (in a positive way) from something someone has said? If so, what was said? In other words what’s things ",4.3547126436781625,7.293642172413794,4.455862068965517,80.33367816091955,75.55172413793103,8.004597701149425,30.356321839080447,8.841846274778883,3.0585080459770118,129,6,21,3,3,40,26,29,0.0,0.868,0.132,0.6072,0,0,2,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,1,3,5,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,0,4,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,1,17,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3546444113835809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3510510051459104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3001753629835072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6313265618571224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2811735914407409,0.2554726739408115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2204649542954308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2634053630531936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Josh1535,2019/03/01,"Hoping for a boost First of all I want to thank all of you who post and comment here because I’ve been silently reading for a while now and it has helped me more than about anything. I am 25 and male who’s never considered myself to have any mental issues outside of the normal. I’ve been binge drinking almost every weekend since around 18 or so. For some reason roughly a year and a half ago I starting drinking almost every day to the extent of 3-4 fifths of whiskey a week. About 10 months ago I started having some anxiety which I had never dealt with in the past. Around 7 months ago I had a full on panic attack after a long hard night of binging. And then another a few months later after the same binging and then another recently. After that first attack it seems my mind has been literally dominated by anxiety, fear, dread, doom, and intrusive persistent negative thoughts. I’ve been tapering my alcohol for a couple weeks now to only drinking on weekends with hopes of being sober all together and actually having some control of my drinking. I know it’s most likely the drinking causing my anxiety etc. but it’s tough to tell myself that when it’s really heavy. Can anyone relate? I need some reassurance that it’s in fact the alcohol to ease my mind at times. Any idea on when and if I will get control back of my own mind?",5.999353448275862,6.4454963371647525,6.7312619731800805,75.8571228448276,66.47126436781609,9.436877394636015,32.0213122605364,9.354420925462401,2.892986398467433,1068,41,192,19,16,353,149,261,0.087,0.853,0.06,-0.4329,0,0,8,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,0,5,11,12,2,3,15,0,15,8,0,4,6,46,26,18,0,6,3,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,12,13,8,2,5,9,0,0,3,7,0,3,7,2,19,5,36,17,15,45,1,1,0,0,8,9,0,12,36,139,31,1,0.0,0.0,0.08725815615377815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23778849705576915,0.1911192964622046,0.17907654718178584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12161333988080487,0.18752317659373366,0.20521142824702734,0.0,0.0,0.062522490382759,0.0,0.07358262506054061,0.15920028942455822,0.0,0.20344963853061795,0.0,0.06875620303201044,0.0,0.05450781243533954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09185595606171232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2005776817157726,0.0,0.09893828086690187,0.0,0.057666609160261034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4379734077276082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09972366298635382,0.0,0.0,0.15067546633531825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10061905671912907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15211621836619904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04671672552401787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0801001262780283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05993437334444756,0.0,0.0,0.17762264111301376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10094098167008632,0.0,0.09332818380760408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04914128006051228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04368466096836573,0.0,0.0,0.07913128808154643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0901113696588086,0.0,0.270857234896743,0.0,0.21411554281773065,0.0,0.0,0.06630162015126329,0.13792790469305988,0.0,0.0,0.08391185753246448,0.08760973793705201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06800570665899412,0.0,0.1049116589294815,0.0,0.0,0.08535870559043544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08563683040411961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08944126179015477,0.0,0.057282861021454176,0.09193563445304888,0.0882885636043779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08140193703466543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07396671956852778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12657971662444514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07815445538221806,0.08232321921160955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07098716104156001,0.05213980924454629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05274050121837362,0.0,0.1434499507946863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05758165773155086 alcoholism,Dabe_180,2019/03/01,"I can’t stop I used to drink as a social thing, having fun getting drunk in college with people but now I’m drinking to keep pain at bay. I can stop but why should I. It not good for me but who cares. Why suffer with the pain when I’d rather be numb. I work and pay bills but when I’m alone I can’t stand the pain, it’s just too much. Alcohol make it better. I know this isnt good for me and there must be a better way but drowning it out is easier. 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Sorry, maybe this isn’t the best place to ask... but I guess I would like to hear it from people who have had their own issues with alcohol. I love my ex, we were together for 3 years and it wasn’t until this last year that his drinking hit a breaking point for me. I ignored and sadly just didn’t realize some of the signs that maybe alcohol was becoming more than just a way to have fun. His family is full of alcoholics that would rather see him suffer and go down the same path as them, than take a second to look at themselves and him to maybe think about getting help. I hate my situation, I love this man with all my heart and just want him to change for his health and own happiness. But in the long run, is this a battle worth fighting for? Again, maybe this isn’t the right place for something like this... So I’m sorry if it isn’t!",5.4916759776536335,4.981684452513966,5.696027932960894,86.10672346368717,67.60335195530726,9.394636871508382,26.83854748603352,8.841846274778883,1.5814554189944126,683,16,152,10,10,217,108,179,0.127,0.674,0.19899999999999998,0.9454,0,0,6,0,2,0,20.0,1,0,2,1,7,14,3,0,10,0,15,10,1,0,1,27,31,12,0,5,7,1,0,2,0,2,5,1,0,1,14,9,5,1,2,1,2,2,5,6,0,1,5,3,19,8,24,23,8,18,0,2,2,3,19,8,0,3,8,106,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4782682749244788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1045938989070078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12356408956523247,0.0,0.0,0.11741250641225093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11835556493518455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10960106595939816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10547171861641601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05845335384779143,0.0,0.06358471275025035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12324984938308715,0.0,0.0,0.1190997086428084,0.0,0.11045960639539584,0.0,0.11892457448602176,0.12609833983514449,0.13257986178671186,0.07499166719096123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1167749941993026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09119818012868047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10931908932666433,0.0,0.0,0.09901141680583134,0.09395210164360396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3029316844038184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4495991558665733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0775643960704576,0.0,0.2337842608747654,0.0,0.10576397785079407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09554600635081012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0891548990779209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12575925233715307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08613167946122086,0.0,0.2504838781107881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08412080275979157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0716890100621202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06599048082345832,0.08880615663857845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15895451011502246,0.0,0.0,0.14409575914280726 alcoholism,TemporaryElderberry,2018/12/11,"Looking for help in an unconventional way, please Obligatory sorry for the wall of text but I think it will help if I get it all out there. I'm 31 and I've been heavily drinking for about 3 years, I can't actually pin point the time frame when I started taking it to the next level. It started off going from really only drinking socially and on the weekends to cap off the night. Then I started mixing in more during the week after work or with dinner. My wife wasn't a fan of that and neither was my waistline. So I tried going back to the socially and weekend stuff which was fine and that's where is still should be today but I'm not. Soon it became drinking extra heavy when I knew my wife wouldn't be home to then sneaking drinks behind her back on top of it. Started noticing it getting harder and more expensive to get the buzz I wanted so started going cheap and high ABV like four loko which also helped avoid the beer smell. The wife doesn't notice the smell with four loko or other flavored malt drinks for some reason. Fast forward 2-3 years and I'm drinking 1-2 14% four lokos a couple of nights a week or 1 four loko before I know we will be drinking socially or before my weekend night beers. My wife and I have been struggling with infertility and early pregnancy loss and I tell myself that's why it started but in reality I think it would have gotten there regardless. I have a decent job, we recently moved out of our starter home into our hopefully forever home and so far alcohol has not negatively affected my life in any way other than gaining some weight. I have on and off tried to go back to the social and weekend thing with varying success, eventually got a couple months into that before sliding back into the same habits. I seemed to do the best when I would kind of shame myself into not buying the four lokos or sneaking the drinks. Because deep down I know how disgusting and wrong it is but buzzed me doesn't care about that. I am currently trying to quit and daily have to fight myself to not relapse. I know this is not the right way to do it and people will tell me to get real help but right now I don't have it in me to tell my wife and go down the meetings or doctor route. So my unconventional help I ask is that you help me with my shame, I'm asking as an anonymous Reddit guy with a drinking problem looking for help. Please shame me into not slipping back into my old ways and I sincerely mean it too, hit me hard. I do it to myself but am looking for more ammo. The more the merrier cause I am looking for things I haven't thought of or said to myself yet. For anyone concerned for my mental health from this exercise, I assure you I do not have any slef harm thoughts and have a very positive outlook on life. I'm not even and angry drunk, just like the feeling and eventually end up playing video games drunk with friends. As nicely as I say that last sentence I know I can't keep going like this and it will eventually take a nasty turn I'm sure. So please, help shame me into not drinking like a total idiot. Thanks! 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Guy started breathing again changed couler.. I've been drunk every day since ",8.314736842105265,7.915014508771932,6.725263157894738,80.68684210526318,61.807017543859644,9.705263157894738,36.54385964912281,8.841846274778883,2.9567122807017547,245,10,46,3,3,72,48,57,0.10300000000000001,0.897,0.0,-0.7184,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,4,0,3,3,2,0,0,2,8,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,4,0,1,0,0,5,1,4,0,8,3,0,18,0,0,1,0,8,7,1,0,7,23,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2033494621535795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1980212407263873,0.22180092762014045,0.0,0.0,0.2051491468749657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1250669295386885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1633919369092567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7680732311082974,0.17148908478945832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15807646104510628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.199063370563032,0.16041849242039113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1372625920842766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130804454069068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21093698580875106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,blaccat96,2018/12/11,"Help w/ my alcoholic dad I’ll try to sum this up the best I can! I’m 22(f), and I live with my brother (21), mother and father. I have another sister (27) who has moved out but we still see her fairly often. My dads been an alcoholic almost his whole life, and although he’s always been around (in the house) he obviously wasn’t much of an active parent. My parents would usually fight(never physically) and bring up the word divorce but never followed through - I believe because of my siblings and I. My mom rarely drinks because of his alcoholism and just can’t take it anymore. He refuses to quit no many how many times over the years we’ve asked him or fought about it. Now that we’re older and the worse his drinking/behaviour has gotten my mom just wants out but doesn’t know what to do. I suggested we get an apartment together (me, my brother and Mom) or we stay in the house and he goes elsewhere. The issue with this is I highly doubt my dad is able to live alone. He definitely can’t afford it but I mostly mean he wouldn’t be able to do everything by himself (like cooking, cleaning, laundry). I also fear if he lives alone, his drinking/life will somehow get way way worse. Obviously I have love for my dad somewhere deep down and I could never fully abandon him but I can’t take living with him anymore and I don’t believe my mom should have to put up with his shit anymore! Does anyone have suggestions about what to do or where my dad can go? Are there places that (almost) functioning alcoholics can go to live? Does anyone else have an experience similar? 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This is when and where my drinking habits started to happen. There are SO many triggers. I am so lucky I am on medicine. I am a little older and have come so far. There is no relapse happening I just have closure and emotions I have been running away from. I feel like it could be a shit show. Nobody really understands my alcoholism because for most people there the way they drink and live is ok with them. I have been on this journey by myself. I dont want to bring up my problem. I don't want to lose control- any advice? 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He does so well then falls off the bandwagon. Wouldn’t be so bad if he wasn’t an aggressive drunk Almost two years together not. Been living for a little over a year. I should have run when I saw this was a problem. The first time he pushed me. I become one of those people I said I member would, I stayed. He knew I was about to leave him and promised he would quit. I believed him. He is such a great guy otherwise (don’t worry, I rolled my eyes at myself too). But every month, month and a half he buys a beer. Which leads to another a few days later. And so on. Two weeks ago my sibling offered him a beer and he said no. Then yes. Few days after that my BF hurt his knee. I came home to a four beers. Then today he got off work early and texted me not to get mad, he bought “a couple beers” When I asked how many, he went off on me. So to me, that means a lot because he doesn’t get aggressive when sober. He accuses me pushing his buttons, but I just avoid him. I told him I don’t feel safe. If he was sober, he’d be horrified, but at this stage, he doesn’t care. I left our home to go for a drive. He gets mad. Is an alcoholic always an alcoholic? Am I fighting a losing battle....? I tell him he can’t stop at one but “if I want a few beers, what’s the big deal?” You get violent",-0.4709600515463919,1.4341649140893509,1.662404424398627,99.34092622422682,87.1443298969072,5.149527491408937,15.966602233676975,6.4784943948869325,-0.5971366838487975,1014,20,255,11,32,338,156,291,0.141,0.779,0.08,-0.9378,0,1,7,0,2,0,48.0,1,1,0,5,16,17,7,1,20,1,23,10,2,2,0,33,43,23,0,9,10,0,1,0,2,4,2,2,2,1,8,6,8,3,4,6,2,9,11,12,1,7,14,5,40,5,23,22,4,45,0,2,2,0,39,13,0,5,21,154,48,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10450865606592916,0.25199226710507905,0.1180569046271366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0980998227471408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12362537765501345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11021786345790233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0984391449111134,0.07186897129058836,0.1302080723093528,0.0,0.13282964671998074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13484286189339936,0.12020393986095505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13045088675313385,0.0,0.15206773829277284,0.12154672211375375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10317253724690592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09933338250452522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059612310706947426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10028320383946747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24638545232089706,0.0,0.06700363272763978,0.0,0.09429307233138452,0.12998195704812632,0.0,0.11673665405462967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2365207864025124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12621127238627272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06479315694500261,0.0,0.0,0.1248359944591408,0.12809553236998444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11816385604763414,0.2082105794637344,0.0,0.0,0.1318966858990322,0.0,0.10023188919173943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11952914376143395,0.0,0.12842449284677232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18820866357938096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597802376751089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08173499701822062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11281159200762972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12539806659588662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22429425996785446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12566261037244408,0.0,0.09856724564720798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10304725247888608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06874674081147995,0.0,0.11175265520977833,0.1126557210922884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2303366500481777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06953875781404624,0.0,0.09456993350750864,0.0,0.1060036420553549,0.10929178284193064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08583048507976633,0.11973021693597972,0.0,0.16750141905936236,0.0,0.0,0.15184372006425528 alcoholism,la_segunda_vida,2019/09/16,"Got a second degree burn from cooking potatoes last night...This is the last straw I've had it. I've never been one to casually sip on one drink throughout the night. No. When I drink, I drink until I make stupid mistakes. I trip. I run into tables. I nearly crack my head open on the floor. I have stupid pointless arguments with my significant other, my best friend in the whole world. And none of those were enough for me to say I need to make a change. None of those made me think that maybe I'm taking things too far. No. It took boiling hot potatoes to fall on my foot, sending me to the ER at midnight, for me to realize that maybe, just maybe, I shouldn't be drinking as much as I have been. This is a turning point, my friends. I can't keep fucking up my body. I can't keep fucking up my life. (Enjoy the pic of my second degree burn on my stupid ass foot which is connected to my stupid ass self) (https://i.imgur.com/CTW5m4i.jpg)",2.2014497920380265,4.367537668449201,2.7226292335115865,94.04642751039812,78.73262032085563,5.438978015448606,21.08407605466429,6.42735559955562,0.14212917409387993,732,20,156,6,18,226,107,187,0.156,0.772,0.07200000000000001,-0.9451,0,0,4,0,0,0,36.0,0,0,0,1,3,12,6,0,9,0,13,15,6,3,1,16,27,5,0,3,1,0,1,0,2,1,1,1,0,1,10,4,6,2,2,6,0,5,8,7,1,4,7,2,26,5,27,18,6,26,0,0,0,4,5,15,4,0,6,102,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352638056918933,0.0,0.0,0.14316953591225945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13635024604394827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5050588814620367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13317950080648178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19916269542087733,0.23831645589077385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1030864048798332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1322799897814163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2291295923423443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21012775032784745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09103996465519568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1219603695517112,0.17207231757824232,0.0,0.3884668766343829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09475017289911866,0.0955715048045342,0.0994091650850929,0.0,0.0,0.2419121124649777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1746805981131446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1218442445899342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10249979143631686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344620723460145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09691045925887233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08562986666212655,0.08258854719649376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1432033349864001,0.0,0.1401970729730671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14390289338638326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,broccoli_albert,2019/09/16,"Ugh I hate myself I took a 3 day weekend because I was super excited about a game coming out. Barely played the game, instead I drank 2 fifths of Smirnoff, and a few various other shots. Now I'm awake in bed dreading the impending withdrawal and work day. It's sad that I'm really hoping today's the day the withdrawal kills me. Can't even go to the hospital because if they learn you want to die they take away everything from you and stick you with a babysitter. I don't know what I'm looking for posting this, I guess just to vent. I just wish I wasn't such a coward and could finally muster up the courage to end it.",3.0372656250000034,4.442430695312503,4.336375,86.77112500000004,74.078125,7.932500000000001,26.8625,8.548686976883017,1.818285,491,18,103,9,10,162,87,128,0.154,0.67,0.17600000000000002,-0.2547,0,0,0,0,0,1,10.0,0,3,2,2,7,10,2,1,11,0,5,1,0,0,0,17,20,5,2,5,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,7,1,0,2,4,0,3,3,5,0,0,4,1,15,5,13,15,2,16,0,1,1,0,7,4,0,3,8,63,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19277755976922614,0.0,0.0,0.2501570916546043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17674824891210658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1638230998363429,0.0,0.0,0.3969810176355816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21294908093010573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18173253461959732,0.0,0.0,0.1355224044431648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1844065673856026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22476955281882074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11661106032579754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22603382165157385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20257718039131414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20379447150603802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22700621067103915,0.0,0.11276401630229516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17230327414594845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19650999989979426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13144642276536642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.154273182672166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.194490881878108,0.0,0.2279674910899535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12102311400632047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359520093738607,0.0,0.0,0.14937673475277646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,CarrawayLights,2019/09/16,"Am I an alcoholic? For about a year or two I’ve been questioning this. I don’t drink frequently but when I do I regret it. Not just the day after but even while I’m drinking. I keep finding more excuses to get my friends to go out and drink with me and I like myself more when I’m drunk. I’ve recently started feeling like I need a drink more often, all though not always acted on that feeling. Its difficult for me to say no when someone suggests going for drinks and when I do go I only drink heavily - never a beer or a few but at least 3-5 glasses heavy alcohol. And I don’t actually even want to drink.",1.8666974431818204,3.4762986953125043,4.066931818181818,86.63034090909092,77.671875,7.467045454545455,25.69886363636364,8.296473431620573,1.6492718749999995,475,18,102,9,11,164,80,128,0.115,0.762,0.124,0.0398,0,0,10,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,10,5,0,0,6,0,6,11,0,0,2,25,18,15,0,3,8,0,2,2,1,0,2,1,0,0,4,6,11,1,4,9,0,4,6,2,0,1,1,3,14,3,13,17,6,19,0,1,0,0,5,3,0,4,14,73,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.11518716166021024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2522914793108932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09821630514833253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07612415073306061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8094197988992499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15592475436206255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11936618711497934,0.08432571253669073,0.0,0.0,0.1078837514183266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09119515412264792,0.0,0.061669501767689136,0.0,0.20124957580159766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1049167789357464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11533390864154182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08752299813943228,0.09103747177131734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08977251722969416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1322285420863704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11654737501813345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09386782256406767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10001243365289564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08354725176651727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11597083041741768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1153050743337651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06962132719347265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07601200862069625 alcoholism,Introvert94,2019/09/16,Chest pain. Anyone else feel chest pain when you stop drinking for more than a day? I've been drinkin almost everyday for the last four months and I decided to stop. 24 hrs later I started to feel a sharp pain in my chest and I went to the ER and they checked my blood and took X- Rays. The doctor said everything was fine. Could this pain just be anxiety? I also have shortness of breath sometimes.,1.3003797468354428,3.898946189873421,1.8302405063291158,96.01143670886078,87.10126582278481,5.185316455696203,20.558227848101264,6.742157984588678,0.33550025316455745,315,10,66,4,10,96,58,79,0.23,0.7490000000000001,0.021,-0.9506,0,0,2,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,1,0,3,5,0,0,5,0,5,11,5,0,0,12,11,6,0,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,1,4,1,2,3,1,1,2,0,4,1,1,5,4,8,1,8,4,1,13,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,9,36,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16678554031679876,0.0,0.0,0.13319778004278765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12741776064667404,0.0,0.0,0.11646245702799594,0.1706601574303624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13298441541591385,0.0,0.0,0.10741726617353553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17048097228970355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631651550173925,0.0,0.0,0.1391393071521436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496931726180742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16843523861976187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13576843498504554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329464115060926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7089253126882469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584364737363115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16473186174404916,0.0,0.1178918555366398,0.0,0.0,0.27850283513242985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185054022092827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1544025663814302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Cynergtic_soul,2019/09/16,"Do I seek help from alcoholic SO’s family? My SO (37 yo) of a year is a wonderfully kind and intelligent man. He does, however, display signs of high functioning asperger’s that then creates a spiral of anxiety and depression which he uses alcohol to numb. The alcoholism isn’t new—he’s self-professed an alcoholic since the age of 14. Since we started dating, I learned he’s never held down a job more than a year. He plays the victim game to his family that the world is against him, but after this year of his current supervisor texting me he didn’t come him several times and they were worried (I travel for work 3-4 days a week, every week), I confronted him and learned that it’s because he on benders while I’m away. I knew he drank a lot on weekends, and about six months ago banned liquor from the house, but he hid how bad it was until about 3 months ago when he literally stopped caring about hiding it from me. I begged and pleaded many times for him to seek help. Looked up counselors, found a good rehab. Researched short-term disability. I did all I could. He acknowledges the problem but won’t act. Long story short, I finally gave up and moved out. I told him if he could get sober, he knew my number. His two sisters and his parents, however, (a) have no idea of his struggles and (b) coddle the shit out of him and have for years and years and years. My question is this: do I tell them? Do I ask for their help? Do I check in on him now that I left him?",3.922894269572232,4.974572501694915,4.888571428571428,85.03429378531077,71.44067796610169,8.466505246166262,27.94592413236481,8.841846274778883,1.9824059725585148,1148,41,241,21,21,375,168,295,0.124,0.765,0.11,-0.504,5,0,4,0,0,0,43.0,1,0,3,1,8,12,3,1,17,0,17,9,1,2,2,41,33,23,0,4,4,2,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,1,10,16,6,3,9,5,1,4,5,8,0,2,11,1,36,4,34,19,3,48,0,1,1,0,41,14,1,4,30,144,46,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18187942538428192,0.4385494031560512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07848095495364417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09590766175464116,0.0,0.09638654174584724,0.0,0.08565824011964432,0.06253782075738078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10459719000235386,0.0,0.0,0.08837207241686285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16381929587875652,0.0,0.0,0.06616196662869935,0.0,0.08836048804652966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08977706965281336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08643637384449178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1934251618775093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11238216684504952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11248447604276736,0.0,0.0,0.05359896272958155,0.0,0.0,0.08604749939057782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2062914431871928,0.10839180979526944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11837491368389523,0.0,0.11581145411488195,0.0,0.0,0.10180459690577576,0.0,0.0,0.1068315425101725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11146417291525106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0907887895192062,0.08614963663974014,0.0,0.0,0.08721822238281457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1040100064548254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16377248006407566,0.10903677564848467,0.0,0.0,0.0791236172921819,0.0990819170446366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11391388846693172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09816463201904503,0.0,0.0,0.11492411152878115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10702358825278112,0.1158973302050593,0.10530700744606962,0.16972676919938198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07261362432376152,0.0,0.0,0.08576970882065549,0.0,0.10724918655381964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08966805130699099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11964193385040035,0.0,0.0,0.09802899869648793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10021537720587116,0.0,0.0,0.08860469214063862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1645827801490875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11125431685004288,0.07468663311924148,0.10418497317444098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3963870017055267 alcoholism,unknownunknownasdf,2019/06/18,"Alcoholic or ???? I’m 22 and like to drink. My friends like to drink. Always considered myself a social drinker. The occasional blackout which for my age may be common BUT lately if I’m drinking I’m blacking out. The last two times (past two Fridays) blackout and became aggressive, even got physical with friends. That’s not at all who I am and I’m not sure why the sudden change. Hearing my friends tell me what I did and how I behaved made me not want to drink Saturday & Sunday as we normally would. I don’t want to be this person but I don’t know how to stop. I’m not really sure why I’m posting. I guess I just need to vent. I’m scared this is now something I can’t control and I don’t know what to do.",0.2528486204325162,2.5263521409395966,2.2893400447427297,93.39278709917973,87.99328859060402,5.458762117822522,22.3717375093214,6.937597516519254,0.6985075316927665,555,21,122,8,18,185,88,149,0.107,0.8240000000000001,0.069,-0.6604,0,0,7,0,0,0,20.0,1,0,0,1,5,9,1,1,4,0,12,5,0,4,3,34,28,12,0,6,9,0,0,2,3,2,1,1,0,1,7,8,5,2,2,4,0,0,8,2,0,2,3,2,16,7,12,21,1,14,0,0,1,0,9,2,0,4,13,72,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14263435216517256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1110542384955166,0.14461014006626596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1411891209580126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14969324510871204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5229826976819525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08815290308532503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30934604127929394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10674479372053483,0.0,0.14702762732056734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15042565818800915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14669862804532902,0.10879244159233507,0.15055523735154985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13040929790174824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12628856836217445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09896320060645436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13076814790894933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12740820941601966,0.0,0.11653718977522938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1278233443956395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08550160997038324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13362255050867433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13605157679275345,0.0,0.10274849447448264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11158338618170688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25157987665200965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116654993175627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07782498210568965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2607533892761719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1574431753025393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24086425299010075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09481027600071816,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,BackgroundOil,2019/06/18,"Who cares? I’ve been an alcoholic for nearly 15 years (34 M). It began when I worked at a Mexican restaurant and had unlimited access to Margaritas during my shift. I got fired from that job, but that was nearly 15 years ago. Fast forward through many drunken years of college and I’m now a “high functioning” alcoholic with a good career and two master’s degrees. But I still drink every day. Last Friday I had 16 drinks (didn’t want to stop), then took two days off and now I’m back at it. I usually have 4 drinks a day, and I’m a big guy (6’4”, 260), so it doesn’t affect me too much. Only my grandma seems to know and has told me I’m an alcoholic to my face. This is the same grandma who supplies us with unlimited booze when we come over. Her husband, my grandpa, is an 80 year old alcoholic with great health. My partner loves to drink too. Other than my grandma, no one seems to notice or care. I get good feedback at my job, I pay my bills, and I even give to charity. What should I do? I feel like I can continue this until it kills me. I have only a mild self-awareness to do anything about it, but I’m not sure it will matter until a major health scare.",1.6281704545454545,3.4629717791666685,3.4145454545454537,90.01227272727274,79.125,6.363636363636362,22.57575757575757,7.348242739294969,0.7727916666666661,897,28,195,12,22,300,147,240,0.07400000000000001,0.7859999999999999,0.14,0.9546,2,0,8,0,0,0,35.0,2,0,0,2,11,10,1,1,11,0,16,13,1,1,1,28,36,17,1,2,5,2,2,1,1,2,6,0,0,2,14,12,9,1,4,5,2,3,4,2,0,3,9,2,26,8,26,25,3,36,0,0,0,1,12,10,0,3,26,122,40,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0902812346335948,0.43537394602057106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08381141628337642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07831406870356955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2076796412274851,0.0,0.0,0.08773218617847378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1970486992821304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39908520867154657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06726899356086212,0.0,0.08581050365036029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05149691147678262,0.07275952861819501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05321086230707698,0.09770093819861014,0.0,0.17084888993246652,0.08145636263949181,0.11228669474988527,0.0,0.10084455825743477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21651723096612435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10760696424910064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20213489636026027,0.0,0.11267863337172385,0.0,0.05597245649310518,0.08301891142327628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04975730755195983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09192090836074142,0.0,0.0,0.10325688875638266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07486927546675007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1159535028137154,0.1068713108353642,0.0,0.06901417389894457,0.1549184902211007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10196663042456673,0.0,0.0,0.1854353966163169,0.10624864975204154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08133515858100791,0.08514866582772798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09598960731994208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09731918839654326,0.11315578227249655,0.0,0.0,0.19897947146691075,0.0,0.12250942021931613,0.0,0.11217009934423287,0.0,0.060072008833202635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07414584067862537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2623445566099489 alcoholism,-FitterHappier-,2019/06/18,"Started a discord server for Recovery Talk! Hey, me and some others started a discord group for recovery talk! We cover alcohol and drugs but it is for small talk/recovery support. We started on saturday and are up to 26 members! https://discord.gg/BhgzxZh",5.04612403100775,8.649549000000004,5.591046511627908,67.74222868217055,82.25581395348838,8.448062015503877,37.39922480620155,8.841846274778883,4.891173643410854,209,13,27,6,6,67,30,43,0.10099999999999999,0.82,0.079,0.4071,0,0,2,0,0,0,11.0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,7,6,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,6,6,1,7,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,1,4,20,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2846274045079324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3088600152829545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5655324743196235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3022298593243079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6422015759753511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,guruplantz,2019/06/18,"Roomate commented on my drinking habits My roomate said he thinks that I might drink too much during the week. My drinking habits are: i have exactly 3 beers per night during the week days (about 1 liter). If I’m in the mood for liquor I usually go for 3 also, with ice. I find that if I stick to that I will not feel anything in the morning after. The weekends depend on what I’m doing and in the mood for, but I’d say 5-6 drinks on average. Sunday I usually don’t drink because work starts the next day. Personally I think as long as I don’t get wasted and I take care of my work, I’m good.",2.765238095238093,3.5519415555555547,4.385873015873018,88.55357142857143,73.92063492063492,7.504761904761906,25.11111111111111,7.793537801064563,1.129292063492064,460,14,104,6,9,155,79,126,0.037000000000000005,0.892,0.071,0.5927,0,0,6,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,2,3,4,0,0,7,0,7,7,0,1,1,14,19,8,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,1,4,3,7,0,4,8,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,3,14,2,16,16,1,20,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,4,13,57,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11333521797759576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11662532167652732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08639255739959036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14449526113440286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18279823090781724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6941691672452803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07165901893389975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12953155281904535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07404401701393433,0.0,0.08054401061340556,0.11886988449808365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254197158581298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15034489230506246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10418214751884752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15072320186817673,0.13299671449811554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12374638677407672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13481029699397598,0.11270320744891005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1003117254712218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10655748114968362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18161976794603715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3121740330524378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2273620524158749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2063509460545025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,allstargoatinaboat,2019/06/18,I am getting sick I have luckily never gotten sick suddenly in my life. People come an go with colds and things of the such but I never caught them. I now with my disease am getting sick even when I drink. I am catching a cough. Does this mean I am dying of alcoholism? Or is it just a subconscious note to stop? I think the latter.,0.2180718954248384,2.592078911764709,2.280196078431373,92.17199346405228,90.76470588235294,5.375163398692812,19.3202614379085,6.937597516519254,0.4556418300653595,258,8,54,4,9,86,49,68,0.17800000000000002,0.79,0.032,-0.8677,0,0,2,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,0,5,0,6,7,0,0,2,12,14,4,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,3,4,2,1,2,1,0,4,2,0,0,0,2,1,11,0,6,12,0,11,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,6,41,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3006632595934419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24234656491302586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2919829677659802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461995497365427,0.0,0.0,0.2756027566450812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18582016731541792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29397351776796793,0.0,0.159890070055947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19871635680346847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30645802805404393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4339682510510913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1950433710421041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2352099904167236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18690753232507384,0.18026912987868704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Missy0331,2019/06/18,"Drinking Boyfriend So I have been dating this guy for over 2 years. I love him to the moon and stars and to everything else in between. When we first started dating I didn’t realize he had an issue with drinking. It slowly came out. Or maybe I was just naive. I’ve never been around anyone with drinking or drug issues and it’s not in my family or friend circle. Sure my friends drink or my family members have social drinks - but I mean daily drinking. After about 6 months of heaven, things slowly starting changing. The drinking starting shining brighter. And regardless of that, I have been here for this man. For everything. Because I love him. I have been beating myself up a lot lately because I think issues are me but my friend, who is basically my therapist, insists it’s because of his drinking. He isn’t very vocal with emotions. At all. Intimacy is rare - by that I mean being close, holding hands, giving kisses. Sex is great!! When we have it. I have a very high sex drive and he appears to not have such a high sex drive which is why I am writing this. I have taken this issue on as my own and am seeking advice. We see each other on the weekends. I work. He works. It’s always worked for us. We plan on moving in together when we are financially able and as of right now with circumstances that aren’t related , we can’t. Anyways - we can have sex anywhere from 1-3 times a week. Which yes I know is great but that’s not the issue. We only have sex when he wants. If I try to start sex it’s a solid no. Firmly so that I just stopped trying. There is 0 foreplay. Like zero. Unless he wants a blowjob then he gets it. But I’ve been gone down on like 3 times in the past year and a half and that’s because I asked for it. He seems to have a real issue with orgasms and seems to concentrate really hard sometimes to do so (mostly after drinking for awhile). Sometimes he can’t keep an erection. I’ve taken these problems as an issue with me. I’m not doing something right. I’m not giving him what he wants. It’s my body. It’s me not talking dirty. It’s me not being hot enough. The list goes on (me having anxiety doesn’t help this issue at all) so my question is - is this normal for someone who drinks the way he does ? Is it me ? Is it him ? Is anyone else experiencing anything at all similar ? His drinking includes - During the week just beer. Monday through Thursday. He buys a big case of beer on Sundays. I am not sure how many beers he drinks a day. Friday through Sunday he drinks a half pint of liquor with pop followed sometimes by a couple shots and some schnapps. And beer. Like a beer every 30 minutes. He usually starts drinking around 5 (not sure why he has this time limitation) When we are on vacation he drinks a fifth a day. This is usually a week or two in the summer and then during Christmas. Again, I have anxiety and I think our sex issues are me. I have this picture in my head he wants some hot ass woman that I’m not and I’m not giving him what he needs sexually. I know it might sound crazy. I have tried talking to him about this and he assured me it’s not me. He says I do everything great and if he had a problem he would tell me. Everything else in our relationship is wonderful. He spend all of our free time together and have a wonderful time. I’m not trying to make this just about sex. I’m just seeking peace of mind for myself with anyone who has similar experience or may know what it’s like for him. Thanks so much.",1.09912482065997,3.537560411764705,2.6739239598278357,91.03131635581065,85.48493543758967,5.236441893830703,21.41248206599713,6.697824305789354,0.5196002869440455,2705,90,552,32,82,883,283,697,0.051,0.7979999999999999,0.151,0.9977,3,0,22,0,0,0,86.0,13,0,0,7,27,22,0,0,30,1,61,39,5,2,9,120,105,47,0,12,31,0,4,4,3,3,1,2,0,3,45,41,21,4,13,22,3,7,21,2,0,5,13,9,68,21,72,87,12,81,1,0,2,14,70,29,1,20,48,362,113,3,0.04344166278218119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04245069009583643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036146943473822565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06646550624661747,0.0,0.0,0.09112626205881376,0.044511117218541986,0.03574878700018052,0.07734458008698568,0.040612090507925074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10592653768432587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048253894129156816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049685689231800695,0.0,0.0,0.04595551906462368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0480673735948518,0.0,0.05603255731082461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03801609184888621,0.0,0.0,0.6383443666918202,0.05037853701219412,0.0,0.10886980482628922,0.04886602354199649,0.0,0.044886850342438236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03660147451754004,0.0,0.15617026149615199,0.042494282002510125,0.08190586692412329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0369514561703396,0.0,0.0,0.10068876271142814,0.0,0.022696475815179917,0.1250196041636158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1436837597396901,0.0,0.043014076042852636,0.0,0.0,0.038915197040671576,0.0,0.04458367893453399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029118030851945413,0.09179700368433306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4080762850164754,0.0,0.038612945904637784,0.0,0.0,0.07162320530236997,0.0,0.04900408780394381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08489360844891458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036932548208848316,0.07841559347334479,0.0,0.028997647237145808,0.044043027622543716,0.043642989221039125,0.09464141225926748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0460847391828501,0.04386369558400018,0.0,0.034674720775098734,0.04617161257311428,0.03193462060668645,0.032211442505676945,0.033504888431179124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04256360598818648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033039342102145944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041469982652195085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08313560871567581,0.0,0.0,0.048664604407623095,0.0,0.0,0.049446122836453145,0.02782984156561516,0.0,0.0,0.046640088239611605,0.0,0.07419788530953986,0.0,0.03454655386506123,0.0,0.0,0.03461738082635772,0.07909531648429563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04428330446883959,0.036807979901818014,0.03344351437734125,0.12889474587605484,0.0,0.15374116255119552,0.0,0.0,0.036319175274797874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12282975918373315,0.0,0.0,0.06983352600675538,0.037969928040421264,0.039995246518368464,0.0,0.05043911875597879,0.028860710442899836,0.055671326826718194,0.0,0.0,0.12665591458443912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11797614977385455,0.0,0.042436192217706094,0.0,0.05225497149610399,0.0,0.09568970832536623,0.07168784274854517,0.10249207297441028,0.03448196987353415,0.10453884456948334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07839868748502707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09422126038001688,0.0948781436794036,0.0,0.0,0.03085971083826604,0.0,0.0,0.05595001308172645 alcoholism,GaryKing2345,2019/06/18,"What should I do? I got the craves again.. for almost 2 month I didn’t get them anymore be I stopped drinking. I got them like an hour ago again and I don’t know why but it’s unbearable How can I get through this??",-2.2837825059101675,-0.8244232553191484,-0.4980141843971619,107.93444444444448,111.34042553191489,2.939952718676123,15.860520094562647,5.033348758259628,-1.202057210401891,165,5,43,1,9,52,35,47,0.038,0.9009999999999999,0.061,0.212,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,6,1,0,1,0,7,11,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,9,1,2,6,0,6,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,7,27,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2667503232177073,0.0,0.3013311877965804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2984350245018708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2947902430571313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3144399780687964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4813516596313309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2963488057218852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1653795600095723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1470159100702992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401940840694623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2515853291471385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27153644660690823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,DankIowa,2019/06/18,"How do I know when withdrawal is over? I'm 4 days from last drink, and I think I'm past the confusion and fever stage. Does it end abruptly? Like I just felt it did? Or am I in for more?",-1.417857142857141,0.4164005476190482,0.8907619047619058,103.63757142857143,91.14285714285714,5.2647619047619045,15.542857142857144,6.742157984588678,-0.6590914285714287,141,3,39,2,5,47,34,42,0.057,0.826,0.11800000000000001,0.3313,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,1,0,4,2,0,1,0,9,9,5,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,4,1,4,7,1,9,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,7,22,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.255429927576668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3466001929500747,0.0,0.0,0.3879940833887693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3507970867172825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3802856550117506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21766762065024092,0.3228468080671719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19349793493754366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3780899953109771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2537832228603019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Quentin__Tarantulino,2019/06/18,"Hoping to break the spell I’m hammered right now at 6am. I have a baby on the way in a couple of months and need to get my shit together. I can go 6 days without alcohol currently but once per week need to get fucked up. Previously it was much worse so my brain keeps telling me once a week is fine. But I need to do better for my baby girl and need to perform better at work. I don’t want her to live in a world where her dad is a drunk. My drinking is actually way more in control than in the past. Can I really be a sober human now? To be honest that just seems boring. I’m sorry..just a rant to the internet. I’ll wake up tomorrow excited about life and be good for another week. I just wish I could break out of this and find some real meaning before I bring a child into the world.",1.5420168067226854,2.860885352941178,3.791596638655463,89.50647058823532,77.82352941176471,7.210084033613445,21.55462184873949,7.957251820313856,0.8020504201680683,610,16,141,10,14,211,104,170,0.11900000000000001,0.726,0.155,0.6705,1,0,2,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,5,7,10,2,0,13,0,13,8,3,1,0,26,30,7,0,8,5,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,3,6,3,2,3,2,0,2,2,3,0,0,1,0,15,7,26,25,3,31,0,0,0,1,7,15,2,3,10,85,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.1330173244663972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1456722132914442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14293123030229268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11598839903661612,0.0,0.0,0.24110738531054254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15216524147017538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15288144825387448,0.10883115671240716,0.1508226392616754,0.0,0.0879076340786881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13353032759639502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12458339766540867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12601490873534446,0.1424310141526373,0.0,0.07746719841948357,0.11432900917627628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13538498592538253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1211571587017085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0962786459240695,0.0,0.0,0.12036280434164555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484797952630785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10880005525249173,0.0,0.1002023494006046,0.4042837716976693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29032797028171337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13012178045046854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15514878783078756,0.08732264405663115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11640661901296873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12409003751638978,0.0,0.0,0.1399186020035142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11913953959501512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08039821917301726,0.21639050833536744,0.32801510180752264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15674791976483726,0.13139642234949608,0.0,0.09923413026189508,0.0,0.13890989304526918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,mandrew32183,2019/06/18,"Well it’s 3 AM and thank y’all for being there. If my daughter wasn’t with me this week, I don’t know where I’d be. Probably passed out from drinking. Thanks again for posting. It’s helping me Tremendously! Now if I could get some sleep.",0.3520666666666692,2.6393651400000024,1.5839999999999996,98.54866666666668,87.6,4.933333333333334,20.333333333333336,6.42735559955562,0.03653333333333375,187,6,43,2,6,59,42,50,0.0,0.787,0.213,0.8398,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,5,3,0,0,0,0,6,2,1,0,0,8,10,3,0,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,0,6,3,5,6,1,7,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,3,3,29,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24587256698754995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30167321021472904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16089087043745712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.206412016003864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16924095673790038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29493043509952543,0.0,0.3320215774045065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3081718339202085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5670369336720718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2470184627527218,0.0,0.27688352667208466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,electricspectrum,2019/06/18,"Question for those who have been in detox /rehab before My best friend has been battling alcoholism for years. Today she finally agreed to go to detox and then rehab. My stomach is in knots and all I can think about is how scared and alone she must feel. I wish I could be there with her through out all of this so she wouldn't have to go through it by herself. I know she doesn't have her phone and can't talk to anyone from the outside world for a while. I'm thinking about sending her texts that she won't be able to read until she's done with detox. Things like: I'm thinking about her, how proud I am, that she can make it through it. Stuff like that. Do you think that would be a morale booster when she finally reads them, or does it put too much pressure on her? I know it's pretty common to relapse your first time, so I don't want to add to her guilt if that happens. But at the same time she's basically my sister and I want to be her cheer squad through this. What do you guys think?",3.1884775641025627,4.143207687500002,3.3199230769230788,95.95841025641027,73.08653846153847,6.315897435897437,23.48205128205128,6.079149491110277,0.185766282051282,781,20,183,4,15,238,117,208,0.067,0.8059999999999999,0.127,0.9419,0,1,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,3,1,3,10,10,1,3,4,0,26,7,1,3,3,34,43,16,0,8,3,1,1,2,1,4,6,0,0,1,17,9,1,0,9,2,0,4,5,4,0,1,3,1,32,6,30,31,5,22,1,0,0,0,29,6,0,3,14,132,49,2,0.14522068363452334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551967463752731,0.0,0.1504048319786898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10154167854633564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12357210576422913,0.0,0.15240014807024022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11594689916759213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12708359887348894,0.14861117890255715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07342794103893853,0.0,0.0,0.31816432118136584,0.0,0.12352463931350495,0.0,0.0,0.11219713994055157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16506452224293455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.143791308361535,0.1284181709393363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15961897975311568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418949812875225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09693593398313348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10675391177739106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14774164303448045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14598689727465747,0.16268040098542078,0.0,0.2905199648278557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.145391238271249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662429390173734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1167228846437021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0964781693949125,0.4652577515940028,0.0,0.0,0.16935869692218575,0.0,0.1376522278766842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17130984349163073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16699661932042528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10316060706900253,0.0,0.0,0.09351735901349496 alcoholism,Frail385,2019/06/18,"I’m think I’m finally ready to quit So here’s the deal, I’m 28, and I have only been sober for probably 3 months total since I’ve turned 21. I’ve quit drinking on and off for a couple weeks at a time and a few days here and there. But other than that I drink every night. Sometimes just a couple beers or a 12 pack a night. I’m gaining weight. I’ve lost about 20 pounds by drinking light beer but I’m still drinking pretty heavily. My girlfriend has started to complain about my weight. I used to work for the fire department and since I left i have gained about 50 lbs. Mostly from drinking. I don’t have the shakes but it’s hard for me to deny drinking a beer or 6 beers with friends, or even by myself. I have to quit. I don’t have a problem with hard alcohol. I only like beer. Hence the gaining weight... looking for some help from the Reddit community. I’m sure there are people who have much bigger problems than me. But I need to make a change. Any advice is welcome.",1.348103448275861,3.3843226650246336,2.668007389162561,94.01255295566506,80.97044334975371,5.2422660098522185,20.98743842364532,6.2581,0.10951842364532016,763,22,167,6,20,246,113,203,0.10400000000000001,0.735,0.16,0.9267,0,0,12,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,8,11,9,0,1,14,0,12,15,0,2,2,25,26,13,0,3,8,0,6,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,4,7,15,0,1,11,0,2,2,5,0,0,2,8,15,4,25,24,5,16,0,1,1,0,7,5,0,5,10,95,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09675951472546812,0.0,0.10582042520838693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06733582414449622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10474820818251228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21912368127187687,0.0,0.06385859737477073,0.10208349616855224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5820012914691798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06540063838927404,0.0,0.08342716937129645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10846968296660812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07650127552909639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1774018548391357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0663698641561491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10758364816833092,0.0,0.0,0.04837532875358681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08315041466396796,0.0,0.10809014671244054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06609546908453516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07903544436769312,0.0,0.07278982711162052,0.07342079806995437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1858438914014522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15061572386385869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06864680601700902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1007371858756013,0.10675845048107534,0.18949423761014814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3159543793925941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16381788465946998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09793160828460312,0.0,0.07008564642034887,0.0,0.07907612427526536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09332355465940004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06344691400440294,0.0,0.0,0.057738353862486026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10770345204678486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08551999961969367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07942648947652359,0.36173275874884864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07208648528246774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,derekrfilms,2019/06/18,2 months sober and I’m very depressed So a little history. I’m 29 and I’ve been a physically addicted alcoholic for about 10 years. Also dabbling in cocaine pretty heavy for short amounts of time. I’ve been through relapse over and over each time withdrawals get nightmarishly worse. I feel stronger than ever having been through so many and alcohol has lost ifs luster in my eyes. I don’t crave it. I love being sober but something is different this time. I’m horribly depressed and constantly tired. I have no motivation to do anything in life anymore. Anyone go through this while newly sober? Any advice?,3.2603571428571456,6.330131464285718,3.7550000000000026,82.39,82.57142857142857,6.771428571428572,29.42857142857143,7.957251820313856,2.5462607142857148,492,24,83,10,14,154,80,112,0.187,0.733,0.08,-0.9312,1,0,4,0,0,1,11.0,0,0,0,2,5,4,0,0,2,0,10,7,1,1,1,11,18,11,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,3,6,2,0,2,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,4,2,5,1,14,13,2,16,0,3,1,1,1,7,0,1,8,48,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1984469310415444,0.0,0.1778842087889447,0.0,0.3890838573407807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14557472607377156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12379123474399255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1805315448213637,0.1272843306718979,0.0,0.14980073766375188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19671706088378405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3135759782432012,0.0,0.0,0.19018966294822806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1646626654183605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09204325220497504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0951066904581766,0.0,0.10345568210092744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12857794252338844,0.0,0.18244864986314324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19871462026630596,0.0,0.16429527729973914,0.0,0.0,0.1845566963368221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14529999997952892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851968217900702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14014078642077318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31844128474843625,0.20922446955759644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1501993861386246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18551100373794832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1172257009992656 alcoholism,Sparrowandblades,2019/06/18,"Guilt Over Drinking-Trigger Warning: Drinking I resolved to get sober December 17th of last year. I was proudly sober for 4 months, when I had 1 relapse. I went to the doctor and told him about it. I went sober for 2 more months, but I recently started drinking again, this time every weekend, which is my normal pattern. I feel so guilty. No one knows, as I am a secret drinker, but I know. I thought about it, and realized I'm drinking because I'm disassociating, rather than dealing with my painful feelings. How do you deal with relapses?",3.3411764705882376,5.855507039215688,3.889960784313725,85.34082352941176,76.6470588235294,6.04078431372549,32.74901960784314,7.1686216300943375,2.2029890196078443,426,23,78,5,10,134,75,102,0.157,0.805,0.038,-0.9117,0,0,5,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,0,2,7,4,0,1,2,0,5,5,0,1,0,17,17,8,0,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,4,3,0,8,4,0,2,1,2,0,1,6,2,14,2,12,11,1,13,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,10,49,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11038523861389593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3733729224817952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1853439787483483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5321710443900556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15256847194532375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18311989231363388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09460729873072683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19903465880993734,0.14760510566424426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2890741006214053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1774208392339078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12270510725858692,0.0,0.1926828494762644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1787955473705422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281699961803069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14375801119135204,0.10558973159250776,0.0,0.0,0.1730305642432545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3357276251740223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1166101654881306 alcoholism,gdizzle08,2019/07/07,"Only on day 3 I’ve VERY recently decided to become sober. I’m 3 days in and it is by far the hardest day yet. Is there any tips or something you all like to do when you get the urge? I’m currently drinking decaf coffee, but that did not seem to help as much as I hoped.",0.8979999999999997,2.1170728000000025,3.4466666666666685,91.725,79.33333333333334,6.8000000000000025,22.0,7.554174236665415,0.6708999999999996,208,6,50,3,5,73,48,60,0.049,0.8640000000000001,0.087,0.31,1,0,2,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,4,1,0,0,1,8,9,6,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,2,8,8,2,10,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,3,8,28,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19212390528122386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3120221459987885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5466078392578074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2767629326994089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14760551364549765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18936780913679396,0.0,0.0,0.28060700833020835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380254448131209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.207685374421495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2148698811748942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2789553127636798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2571964236141281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21749839745941674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23310933682399085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,grand4545,2019/07/07,"Is my husband an alcoholic? This is a throw away account due to the sensitivity of this topic. I think my husband might have an issue, but I’m trying to not be judgmental or nag him, especially considering I occasionally have a few too many. He doesn’t drink a whole lot, or at all, during the week (Monday-Wednesday). When Thursday night rolls around, he’ll get drunk but is still able to get up and be functional at work on Friday. Friday night rolls around and he will get absolutely hammered, to the point he is still drunk in the morning when he wakes up on Saturday morning. He’ll then find a reason to start drinking in the morning, whether it is football watching, golfing, etc. he’ll start drinking again. He usually passes out around 5:00PM, but if he doesn’t pass out, he’s not much fun to be around because he is absolutely destroyed and it can become embarrassing. He’ll wake up Sunday and find a reason to have mimosas in the morning. This is repeated every weekend. During the holidays, if he has time off work, he’s been drunk for 72 hours (maybe even more) straight. This has been going on for 15 years and seems to be getting worse. I’ve talked with him about it, and he dismisses me, says that I am being overly sensitive, and gets upset that I think he has an issue. Am I being sensitive? Is there something I can do to find out if he does have a problem without seeming like a nag?",5.704375000000002,6.236885687500003,6.224264705882352,78.93544117647059,67.125,8.9,31.808823529411764,8.841846274778883,2.5233250000000003,1105,43,211,17,17,359,143,272,0.14800000000000002,0.831,0.02,-0.9891,0,0,5,0,0,0,38.0,0,0,0,2,13,8,3,2,17,0,32,9,2,2,1,40,49,19,0,4,12,2,0,1,0,6,1,1,0,0,9,15,7,0,9,9,1,4,5,6,0,0,2,2,11,2,36,35,7,48,0,0,1,0,23,23,0,9,22,139,20,2,0.10970100647388037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.117237013714151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3906286149029379,0.0,0.0,0.10306770671852007,0.0,0.0,0.06687271533854784,0.12115614288004538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0960000900273298,0.0,0.0,0.322395668205168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12234562036982576,0.07245648016116517,0.0,0.092427829319857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3007941975474788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2865712407026686,0.0,0.062345610039792464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10803339379179568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2289986990849489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05359437055126602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0932638727589778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1112196023107053,0.11020940582045363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1163754319624846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08064286211788338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20589392645151106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10370290961669702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10496904775096663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255818106639536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0872386434240226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1997353524243178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08445319428985759,0.0,0.0,0.1552938740203883,0.0,0.1752147309532156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08817351360343484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14058395083192718,0.0,0.0,0.06396753906704475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07447978243257798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1208201601895228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0879955303306422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12247725607929225,0.0,0.1057478555512756,0.0,0.1597272784913324,0.0,0.11179469761606184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07064385148040123 alcoholism,QuitePunderful,2019/07/07,"Am I at risk of becoming a alcoholic? A year ago for like a month I would drink to help depression and I would crave the alcohol, the thing that helped me get off of drink last time was cigarettes. I had a party with my friends and now I keep drinking to help and I’m craving it again.",3.575499999999998,4.080156883333334,4.616666666666667,88.68000000000002,71.83333333333334,9.333333333333334,28.333333333333336,9.516144504307137,2.1408333333333336,223,8,52,5,4,73,44,60,0.09300000000000001,0.688,0.21899999999999997,0.7845,0,0,6,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,6,0,5,5,0,0,0,7,8,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,2,2,0,0,0,3,4,5,1,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,7,2,8,4,0,9,0,1,0,0,4,2,0,0,8,34,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17248752711674334,0.4159035685816951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21490342760804396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16759545007108426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5718565521838469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1503355965114804,0.0,0.10166243397475548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3912779120070621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17295575293568666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1586124380491838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0950642176135144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15531558908515122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12927337679021875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11346385807915566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2764546655720874,0.0,0.0,0.12530611706253195 alcoholism,fun_with_flir,2019/07/07,"what does it mean to pass out while drunk? tl;dr Does passing out drunk mean that you suddenly pass out (e.g., you uncontrollably lose consciousness), or that you feel overwhelmingly sleepy and ""choose"" to go to sleep when you typically wouldn't? Me and a friend are having a disagreement on what it means to pass out when drunk, and agreed to use reddit as an unbiased 3rd party. Typically, they go to sleep around midnight. When they drink during dinner (about once per week), they usually fall asleep within an hour of finishing dinner (around 9) without getting ready for bed (brushing teeth or taking off clothes). I told them that they are passing out drunk. They said they aren't passing out drunk, because they are still choosing to go to sleep, and not uncontrollably falling asleep. They agreed that when this happens, they are usually slurring their words a bit and losing a bit of coordination, and sometimes feel nauseous. Who is right?",7.622562979189485,9.087551289156627,6.147261774370211,77.86832968236585,63.216867469879524,9.168893756845565,31.95837897042716,9.339509955726095,2.8101277108433744,758,28,129,13,11,223,96,166,0.18,0.775,0.046,-0.9654,0,0,1,0,0,0,31.0,0,4,11,2,8,6,0,3,6,0,8,14,6,1,0,29,22,14,0,1,4,0,2,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,10,14,8,0,8,6,0,11,4,5,0,0,2,4,17,1,25,19,2,35,0,3,0,0,19,12,0,2,12,81,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2366237762674216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08101646335660961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2901914095637011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2326087025644406,0.0,0.0,0.13019438848486306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13439954682152774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1026805637562764,0.0,0.06943635622961701,0.0,0.2265955915950101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11752572476970127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13088272915363353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29736902666357085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4343111372810576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415374066374253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11349847522124296,0.12642123135664815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3989970813478091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13144451094017792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10613654431366222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0999265506981843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1269945560078031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11478556027535575,0.2927478578125503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1066068070136886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281137938086904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,CarmenDomenic,2019/07/07,"Drinking to feel? Hey guys, new here, and I feel like I’m struggling with alcohol. I’m wondering if anybody else has experience with alcohol like I do. Mostly I hear folks talk about alcohol numbing their emotions, especially negative ones. But my experience is kind of the opposite: that drinking to excess allows me to feel all sorts of emotions that I don’t experience in my regular life. Mostly day-to-day I find myself kind of numb, and when I get home after work, I find myself drinking to feel. I feel nostalgia over my past, I feel heartbreak, I feel pain, I feel love and infatuation, it opens up all kinds of pathways to experience emotions. Does anyone else experience it like this? My guess is I’m repressing all sorts of stuff, and I need to talk to a therapist to figure that out. It just seems easier to get into a mental state that’s exciting by drinking too much.",5.847016875340228,6.82599790419162,7.006358192705503,71.87096352749049,66.96407185628742,10.623625476320086,33.145890038105605,10.637119530657019,3.7472323353293415,698,30,125,19,11,236,92,167,0.126,0.763,0.11199999999999999,-0.534,0,0,7,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,1,1,5,14,0,2,3,0,5,12,0,1,3,36,24,7,0,2,3,0,8,3,0,0,7,1,1,1,9,9,7,1,13,4,0,0,2,6,0,1,0,9,20,8,24,24,6,11,0,1,0,1,7,6,0,8,7,79,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2913279140117885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06353639511795142,0.09310409096710676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1172035356329688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0795184191026811,0.0,0.0,0.3560606919421176,0.0,0.0,0.1518156188913563,0.3066398004828949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4444273413446783,0.0,0.0,0.3675611229860645,0.06491548055968803,0.0,0.0,0.16610178217836935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09494862771267314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10010036460174764,0.08997272364782444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10241383544364112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09114711880469302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2838723318848126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06418212608335544,0.1331792382015488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08201111322522205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0915726733246161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06679778014483116,0.06737680967443736,0.0,0.08776001974136159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06157390446533938,0.0,0.0966890101873132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08674293701273181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08272200296466943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0949940313020788,0.10402109961337164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14607107985998427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10550371669846784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09854150317532616,0.06615233730295758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Dracula_Bear,2019/07/07,"Just left my Alcoholic Partner What the title says. My partner tried to first blame her behavior on her last relationship. Then it was some other excuse. Eventual it turned into that I was the cause of her behavior. I finally decided that nothing I can do will help. Even after admitting that, it’s been really hard to leave my partner but it’s obvious that nothing I do or say will change her. I know a lot of you have been through this on one side or the other, but some advice on how to handle things would greatly appreciated. P",2.594827890556047,5.186738650485439,4.329779346866727,80.69789938217123,79.97087378640776,8.01729920564872,25.86849073256841,8.841846274778883,2.421473786407768,423,17,78,11,11,142,68,103,0.043,0.879,0.079,0.682,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,4,0,11,1,0,2,1,16,14,6,0,1,5,0,1,0,3,3,1,2,0,3,13,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,3,13,1,11,7,3,11,0,0,0,0,14,6,0,5,5,65,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19982589299915188,0.0,0.2185383114499035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2100682234178582,0.21632398942387646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13506414336544278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22400950773301326,0.0,0.17393963938365614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2254516595972073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18318345313903028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13706576981978275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11238271138189272,0.1666871698380837,0.0,0.2165260684439492,0.2221796856705896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1738506349344644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39242858077298587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13856815427602762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13100194438109733,0.0,0.0,0.2195464257706785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3252383393789039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1358544990392994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13883572580292627,0.22242710234134025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14526428809591804,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,VampireSerana,2019/07/07,"Advise on how to help my bfs recovery? Um, so I'm not sure exactly how to go about this lol. Basically, my(20) boyfriend(23) of a little over a year has drinking problems. He's well aware of them, and is working to control them. His father is an alcoholic so he knows he's more prone to it. I'm very proud of him for how he's improved since I first met him but lately the past 2 months he's been relapsing badly, And I honestly can't stand him when he's drunk. And I'll admit we fight a lot when he's drunk. Never like, abuse or anything, just arguing a lot. He yells and hits things and it scares the shit out of me. I know I need to be more patience and understanding, however it's been really draining on my own mental health. I've been trying to encourage him to reach out to some type of addiction treatment since there's some things I just can't help with. However he doesn't want to do anything like that. Is there anything else I can do? I don't mean to sound selfish as I know this is harder for him than for me, but I'm really exhausted at this point. I really love him and I want him to get better.",2.2680596340637003,3.71607239055794,3.879326857917324,89.09175739778631,76.16738197424894,7.652044273774567,23.42195617799864,8.371475516178862,1.228790557939914,869,26,194,16,19,290,128,233,0.155,0.669,0.17600000000000002,0.8164,2,0,2,0,2,0,27.0,1,0,2,5,13,17,3,1,7,1,16,9,1,4,3,38,33,18,0,4,6,1,0,2,0,0,4,2,0,0,9,11,4,1,6,3,0,1,6,8,2,1,4,2,25,9,29,27,7,18,0,0,0,1,30,8,1,5,10,118,34,3,0.0,0.1653581800175808,0.0,0.15214320898303255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1491493627758098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34454296899281395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11652846259417808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12343127102648745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15653067988806044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13671765412393289,0.0,0.0,0.11658616490906225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1187113884215834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07291539862127536,0.0,0.07931631585206242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14834790792490118,0.0,0.0,0.1870909690055212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2300989196597151,0.0,0.15743204475413472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13636591316769606,0.1398778147845945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2373012882419867,0.12596017775607005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15202396083777736,0.0,0.0,0.1406456973445863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11139707803035853,0.0,0.0,0.10348347424479253,0.10763883854104056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13322774603975268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13193122544932925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13354201107009667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2682210235432114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1397259352905978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14325841461304947,0.23089430098325256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13153555830089214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18543761803141107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09475345488230484,0.0,0.0,0.1452889914763162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11515328795701052,0.1646345982809298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12548302252369034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10160281744715312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08987336932703698 alcoholism,Andr1997,2019/02/27,"I think I might have a problem with alcohol. So basically I am a 21 year old student and recently I was thinking and I realized that I can't remember a longer period of time (more than 2 weeks) that I did not drink in the last couple of years. I do not consider myself an alcoholic because I do not feel the need to drink alone or on a daily basis but I do feel that I might have a problem. Most of my friends drink alcohol and it is very common for me to drink excessively on weekends. For me it started to become a problem because I have lot of free time and when I drink a drink or two with my friends in my bar more often than not I continue to drink more and end up drunk and often with a medium hangover. Also for me drinking became the main thing to do on a weekend night and I can't think of last time I did something else besides drinking on a Friday or Saturday night. What I feel the main problem is that I feel I am a better person when I drink (not when I am pissed drunk but that sweet spot of tipsiness after 3-4 large beers). Also my friends told me that I am hilarious when I drink and honestly I do not have problems with drinking such as puking, being aggressive or injuring myself. I just like to drink and to laugh and make jokes. I guess my situation could be simmilar to what the comedian Bill Burr said : '' I am not an alcoholic, I just truly enjoy getting drunk.'', but I am starting to feel like I should cut down on it. The main reason is that sometimes, especially on a nice evening I cant wait to get the buzz from alcohol so I quickly drink my first two drinks. Usually this happens when I had drinking planned such as a party or an arranged meeting, but more often than not I just feel the need to quickly drink my drink in order to get that buzz. The best way I can describe it is to quench my thirst after a run. This started to get me worried because although I am relatively young and a lot of people my age are drinking even more and more often I just don't want to create a bad habit that could potentially get worse. I would like to ask you dear redditors if you think I do have a problem with alcohol and it would help me a lot if you have been in a simmilar situation or have any advice. I hope this was more or less comprehensible and kind regards.",6.431037195994279,5.336787579399143,7.2515987124463575,77.65540951359084,65.9098712446352,10.341773962804007,34.43812589413448,9.516144504307137,2.969106151645208,1796,70,370,30,24,603,193,466,0.105,0.711,0.184,0.9934,0,1,27,0,0,0,28.0,0,3,0,4,23,28,3,0,31,0,45,33,2,2,0,85,74,39,0,17,25,0,6,3,3,5,7,1,0,1,20,19,31,1,13,27,2,1,12,10,0,3,8,8,60,19,51,57,16,50,0,0,0,0,12,12,1,21,38,285,80,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042387565548295134,0.0,0.2781413418160729,0.0,0.0449255571387406,0.0,0.06937724585714428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029497891424646133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04055169997405551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036218037121203486,0.07932676799708893,0.047906559942579134,0.0,0.0,0.04552155319752079,0.038363488682789854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06926611299763949,0.047995896989811375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8073671811766029,0.0,0.0,0.03623597149136448,0.0,0.03841920428463267,0.0,0.0,0.05730028420442325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315964833307602,0.030988583652811593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03689650903175413,0.0,0.0,0.10053903764042686,0.0,0.11331362978544272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04778472708502899,0.0,0.038358195014673004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02907473208533707,0.0,0.0,0.04308321264135887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04517053778999496,0.0,0.07071619429821904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06357552818286108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11063288755970098,0.0,0.0,0.028954527482025805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09203242154504976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0643270876177552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08141287346138233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04551693254207165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030072194946231864,0.037875179720638634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24903595601467615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04459884689969003,0.04282961829339518,0.0,0.0491377583945852,0.0,0.041261521729611776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0975152761877985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03339378357889028,0.042901026087111695,0.0,0.09210752885851044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028817794313990844,0.11117708615340156,0.0,0.0,0.0758805456788615,0.0,0.0,0.04144864415594708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08474617845727281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04777370844598497,0.03579062114961785,0.02558491659131804,0.03443069488267568,0.03479446479769257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04405151472447926,0.04420493468423604,0.06162764435656281,0.0,0.0,0.055866814922809815 alcoholism,janko79,2019/02/27,"Tonight I'll be a week sober My brother and I got drunk, he drank 20 plus beers and hung himself in my garage after a night of us drinking. He said he was going out to work on his girls a play house. I was the one who found him the next morning. This was January 31. I was shocked when I found him, my eyes watered but I couldn't cry. I called my dad and told him to call 911 I knew he was dead he was frozen his hands were purple and his tongue was sticking out. I just sat there till my dad showed up. I will never forget seeing my dad's reaction to seeing him. After the ambulance showed up and they took my brother im ashamed to admit I went to my sister's and the first thing I did was drink. Yep. I drink the day I found my brother dead. This time and the next few weeks I noticed now when I drink I didn't have fun I hated myself for it, for depressed about my brother and took my anger out on others. It's only been a week of sobriety but I have no urge to ever drink again. I don't like the person I am when I'm drunk and drinking led to my brother killing himself. I know this post is a wall of text that probably doesn't make since but thought I would share.",0.7633234519104093,2.5181281699604767,2.1868626482213465,98.1597142621871,81.5296442687747,5.0071805006587615,20.027832674571805,5.7366,-0.3172949934123852,909,24,218,5,24,293,136,253,0.179,0.748,0.07400000000000001,-0.9858,2,0,7,0,0,0,18.0,1,0,1,2,9,10,3,1,12,1,22,13,2,2,2,31,43,17,3,2,4,9,1,1,0,2,0,1,0,2,9,13,11,0,7,12,0,5,6,6,0,2,25,6,46,4,25,14,1,35,0,1,4,0,34,9,0,0,21,139,55,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2131613601841463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11465333342487713,0.06731458887119557,0.0,0.0898998356365403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.613498875144897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09441505461942183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08878310038574279,0.0,0.3433322788772544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0593199062545933,0.0,0.08347989479752417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10305076822523443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12043714921615108,0.0,0.0,0.11274516960853105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11547778657182363,0.0,0.05736291958288416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05099337443078807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06967251882409949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08050204731542382,0.0,0.22201244107713414,0.09795082931820183,0.0,0.0,0.11883401004699927,0.0,0.0,0.07072861824336768,0.07938348120873967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09113804995403492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09996440080021378,0.0,0.11253615798173927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0992865157686293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16635005575044207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08634180837769108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06934350139393389,0.0,0.0,0.08286375131518715,0.06086312121049479,0.0,0.0,0.09973678354728156,0.2319335775314825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255527890052862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.251175019702524,0.0,0.0,0.09675860917771267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07598776546062888,0.0,0.0,0.07414649080671368,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,al1en246,2019/02/27,Kratom. Does anyone else know someone who got sober by using it? My friends brother tried to get sober several times before trying green kratom. He claims that it worked for him. ,3.6178125,6.776370156250002,2.2800000000000007,92.965,81.8125,4.45,20.5,5.985473137389443,0.1338499999999998,143,4,25,1,4,40,29,32,0.0,0.909,0.091,0.4767,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,3,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,0,1,9,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2109005417950529,0.30904654240842944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2566574083620167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2639507268284291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25196579234389105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2330317751298549,0.0,0.15758461736871346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2412340109189374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16576311221477494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3407460798553833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2555626466494797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.175877735378849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4095619639836919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2605038567350685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21958381101575908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,lewdak,2019/02/27,"Sober people, sober people everywhere. Okay, maybe not ""everywhere,"" but quite a few places. I used to think about the fact that it seems like everyone drinks. Every professional meeting would end with a happy hour. Every personal get together was, ""hey, bring the (insert booze here)"" or a question of what bar we're going to. It just struck me that I'm not necessarily surrounded by sober people, but I've bumped into enough of them to know I'm not the only one. They are out there. It's nice to know I'm not alone and to see examples of people leading enjoyable, productive lives. My new business partner is in longtime recovery for alcoholism, a few newer friends related to my hobbies are in recovery, and I've met a few other professionals who are sober. Worth mentioning because my business has a lot of drinkers in it. I thought I'd post this to essentially say, you are not alone. You can do this. Lots of people ARE doing it. 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As I write this my friend is sitting on a curb on an island with no place to stay, 48 cents, a suitcase, and a cat. She’s made a lot of poor decisions the most recent being following her abusive significant other to an island. Her family is tired of saving her from her poor decisions. She desperately needs a plane ticket home, but I don’t have the money for that. Shelters are full or not answering phones. She has no transportation. Her mom doesn’t want to save her this time bc she never learns. However, I do think providing a life line to someone leaving an abuser is different than saving someone from the consequences of their addiction. What can I do to help? I nearly escaped an abusive relationship so I know what it’s like but I haven’t the slightest idea how to get someone out. I’m afraid she’ll run straight back since she has no options currently. Any suggestions welcome. 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I'm new here. I think I'm a full blown alcoholic and don't know what to do. I drink almost everyday and that means I get drunk 10+ drinks. I can't tell my girlfriend it's affecting my work. Whenever I wake up I think about when can I get done work so I can relax and drink and it doesn't stop. I don't know what to do. I hide it sometimes. I'm scared but cannot stop. (28M) who's been drinking for 10+ years. 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To say the least, she put time through a lot when I was younger. But when she married my stepdad, domesticity and the chance for a stable relationship put her on the eventual path to a 5 year sobriety that I thought would last. She was sober through my high school years and for some time after I graduated. Last year my stepdad threatened divorce because of a multitude of reasons. He’s one of those people that doesn’t think raising kids suffices as a full-time job. He’s military so he works long hours and for as long as I can remember he thinks that bringing in income is the only role he plays in the family. I have two younger siblings and my mom has been a housewife for the entire time that they’ve been married. But even when she got a job working long hours, he still wasn’t satisfied. And yet during his time off he sits in front of his computer and games for hours. Very seldom does he spend time with my siblings and he rarely talks to me. (Except that now he’s being strangely friendly towards me and strangely involved with my siblings.) I could write paragraphs about the issues with their relationship and how he picks on my mom for things she likes and how she does things, all the while trying to write it off as him trying to help her be “better,” when really all it does is make her more insecure than she already is. She always has been. And I know that’s why she drinks. Now my stepdad has finalized his decision to divorce her. Why? Because he feels like there’s something missing with their relationship. (Sex, I’m certain is one of them. Ugh. But that’s not my business.) it’s not that she’s a horrible housewife, as he’s so hatefully said before, but recently retracted. Or that he doesn’t “care” about her. Supposedly he does. He just isn’t in love with her anymore, he says. So he wants to divorce her. He needs to look out for “his own happiness”. That’s the painful truth that she won’t accept. So now that the divorce has been set into motion, my stepdad has taken on the bachelor life - going out, spending money on meals and hotels and other things. He’s gone for long hours at a time. He even has taken up drawing as a hobby all of the sudden - which he has sort of picked on me for in the past. That’s besides the point but also relevant because it’s one of the things that feeds into my mom’s behavior lately with the alcohol. So here’s where my frustration comes in. As a result of my stepdad’s behavior (going out, spending money on himself, even dipping into my mom’s allowance off of his paycheck for his own expenses). And so my mom, a person who struggles with insecurities, finds alcohol to be the easiest thing to alleviate her stress and her emotions. Except it doesn’t. She’s a horrible drunk. What ends up happening is that I end up taking responsibility for my siblings, often without notice. What prompted me to write this was that tonight, which is a school night, she went out and got drunk as a direct result of my stepdad going out to drink. This left me with my siblings. I also have responsibilities to attend to. I love my siblings so much, but I am not their mother. They need their mother. I have to be up at 5 am for work tomorrow morning, so I am not able to take my brothers to school and there’s no one else who can. If my mom can’t, it falls on me. Every. Time. This year, before the divorce came about, I had plans to not only start college but also to move out on my own. I had planned to go to school from home but my stepdad has frequently pressured me to move out (especially when he’s drunk, which is when he’s more sociable it seems. I also might add that he criticized my weight because I shared food that came from his paycheck. So I’ve been buying my own food ever since) Anyway, I had planned to move out and start school, and now my mom is getting a divorce and since she can’t stand being in the same area as my stepdad, she’s probably moving out of the state. I have never lived on my own, mind you, and I’m still finding out how this whole “adulting” thing works. I won’t always be there to watch after my siblings when she decides to become inebriated. I wish she would ditch the alcohol. I’ve considered recommended AlAnon to her, but I have mentioned it briefly and she seemed to be opposed to the idea. I need her to seek help. I love her dearly and I’ve always been by her side, but as much as I hate to say it, if it weren’t for my brothers, I would probably just leave and seldom speak to her unless she made an actual effort to stop drinking. I am a person who hates to complain and who feels guilty for venting. But I truly feel helpless. I already suffer from issues of my own but I am slowly overcoming them without turning to alcohol. I have tried to be supportive to my mom and not judge mental, but she treats me one minute like I’m the best friend she has and another like this nagging crone who wants to spoil her fun. I just need help. Some words of advice, some words of encouragement. I need to scream (in paragraphs) into the void and perhaps get an answer that can let me know I’m not alone. I just want to be happy. I’m so afraid of the world and I’m trying to spread my wings and become part of it but I suffer from overprotective ness towards those I love and this situation with my mom is truly weighing on me. In terms of what decisions she makes, there is nothing I can technically do. But perhaps I can help somehow in a way I haven’t thought of yet. 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My guess would probably be it's been close to a year but even before than I would drink most nights. I didn't think I was developing a physical addiction but the other day I tried to take 2 days off and it did not go so well. The first 12-24 hours weren't so bad other than troubles sleeping. When I woke up the next day I had a headache and as the day progressed I began having stomach irritation, felt faint, had trouble concentrating and was highly irritable. I went to detox at 19 for benzos/other pills and am really looking to avoid going back. Any help or advice is much appreciated! 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Alcoholism is drug addiction. Drug addiction is fueled by a sober mind's inability to find a reason for its own existence as such. Most if not all treatment options want us to focus on our addiction, when it is the world around us and the way we perceive it that consistently gives us what we think is a legitimate excuse to check out.",7.226029411764706,7.621071308823531,8.045882352941177,67.65647058823532,63.852941176470594,12.682352941176472,34.64705882352941,12.161744961471696,4.649311764705882,291,12,51,10,4,98,50,68,0.040999999999999995,0.92,0.039,-0.2732,0,0,4,0,0,0,5.0,6,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,5,0,5,7,0,1,1,16,8,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,0,6,5,2,0,4,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,9,8,3,6,0,0,0,0,8,4,0,3,1,39,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5165245348609182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33757363976361304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14059758001227424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3663139876385528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14435172657083434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1515077400358096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15947153485272364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10117860545237813,0.16238573142942772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10119977145271264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5699369647646828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09315544421106896,0.1253631867371352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,lampshade2818,2019/02/27,"OTC Helpers/Cures Does anyone think the usual suspects like Milk Thistle, Dandelion Tea, Apple Cider Vinegar, or anything else really does anything to help the old body we've all damaged? Liver, kidneys, etc.? Is there anything else out there, either holistic or from a GNC type place? I hear Magnesium and B-Vitamins a lot. What say you? 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One of my best friends (who I’ll call Max), whom I’ve known since elementary school, has been slipping into a really bad pattern with alcohol lately. I’ve heard his stories about what happens when he’s drunk but I never thought it was that bad until I and a group of friends actually went out drinking with him. Max went from just being buzzed to extremely drunk very quickly, and when we tried to cut him off of drinking because he started forcing himself sexually onto half of the friend group, but he got mad at us when we suggested he stop and take it easy for a bit. We tried to have someone keep an eye on him at all times because we were worried about what he might do, which fell onto me and one of my other best friends and one of Max’s roommates (who we’ll call Alice). Max ended up pressuring Alice into making out with him even though she kept saying no, and she finally let him just to make him stop asking over and over again. I tried to pull him off of her but I’m in recovery from a spinal injury so I’m a bit weak right now and he was very motivated to not let me get him off. He’s never ever done this before (normally he’s very worried about people’s feelings and making sure he never does anything that will make a friend or date uncomfortable), and it was definitely motivated by alcohol because he told me that alcohol makes him feel very lonely and horny at the same time and he desperately needs to get close to someone. Not an excuse though, and it made me super angry and uncomfortable, especially because that’s not him, and mad that he thought it was remotely okay to do that to people. A lot of other crazy things happened that night but to make a long story short, Alice ended up calling the paramedics and she and another friend Rachel ended up carrying him out of the bar because he was so drunk he couldn’t stand or form actual words when he tried to talk beyond telling us that he wanted to kill himself because another friend, Mia, told him off for his behavior and told him it was unacceptable. Max ended up being taken to the hospital by some police, and Alice said that even though she was really mad at him for what he had done, he was still her friend and she wanted to make sure he was going to survive he might because he was beyond gone. So we ubered to the hospital and waited for awhile before I finally left to go home. The nurses said Max really did a number on himself and was lucky he didn’t have to get his stomach pumped. Apparently it took him a long, long time to finally sober up. After talking with some friends after the fact, we discovered that his antics that night were a regular occurrence for him. Talking to him about it, we realized that he drank alcohol to cope with the anxiety and depression he’s been dealing with and to “get rid of the bad feelings”. He also says he never wants the good feelings alcohol gives him to go away. I also don’t know where he gets the money for all those drinks, because he currently isn’t working and says his student loans are barely enough to cover classes, rent, and gas. But I have a bad feeling that it’s because he’s using his student loan money for drinks. All of that combined with the fact that alcoholism runs in his family has me thinking that he has a real problem. After I was woken up this morning from texts from Max and Alice about more drunken antics last night, I told him that I think he needs to cool it with the alcohol and pointed out how it’s been really affecting him and other people around him. He told me that he won’t stop drinking and refused to admit that there was a problem. He just said that he would just get buzzed from now on and not drunk, but I know that he won’t be able to limit himself because that’s what he said the night we all went out. I love him as a friend and want to support him, but I cannot support his actions and what he’s doing to himself and I don’t know what to do. Is there anything I can do or do I just have to sit back and watch him self destruct? Should I try to talk to him more? I’m afraid if I push it any further I’ll be met with anger. Help. Tl;dr: I think my friend is an alcoholic and I’m feeling lost on what to do. I also don’t know how to continue hanging out and supporting him while he keeps dealing with his problems by drinking.",7.101086550435866,5.903585138127856,7.355595682855957,77.78686176836862,64.62785388127854,10.338065587380656,33.607721046077216,9.339509955726095,2.8071904109589045,3455,120,689,52,44,1127,315,876,0.142,0.737,0.121,-0.968,3,2,15,0,0,0,63.0,11,0,0,9,42,45,7,2,34,2,65,26,3,14,13,163,145,66,1,14,20,0,6,0,12,8,10,8,2,1,52,65,21,9,22,11,5,14,18,20,0,4,48,17,89,25,118,82,16,105,0,3,2,1,147,43,0,10,46,466,141,7,0.03971722683612775,0.0,0.07751656822642229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3820107303705948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0952855558542376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.027009076210308267,0.08329395069296451,0.03038356981880732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0980516806772626,0.03535675242523048,0.03713024566026113,0.0,0.037315642023700316,0.030540095838879417,0.13264890167397367,0.2421125283733193,0.0,0.0675928694511267,0.0,0.08336155841269191,0.0,0.08672185006697544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12166718775557644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08189343378093937,0.03420838927573424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03475681285396391,0.08128902515996747,0.0,0.2334465707593741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14071069711729325,0.04103851240568065,0.0,0.05246570748634982,0.03592650552742642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03744186671843321,0.0,0.1204933395449198,0.0,0.0,0.13052484190880234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3682251711690157,0.0,0.12450367052275067,0.03810038305413683,0.06771664588446905,0.033312925499079986,0.031765494538572074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07024362504606367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.026621619945046103,0.0,0.03983961686137087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07060499221658142,0.04394122689745466,0.0,0.08731019669568138,0.03237484085909503,0.044802761831784416,0.0,0.043152883168490114,0.08122711072877466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10544548776519637,0.0,0.0,0.04335604482800898,0.033766165954603494,0.03584634788367138,0.037581400354713614,0.18558090125705226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.084267402423639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05889964088766965,0.12252949530155885,0.0,0.0,0.14908770746789318,0.03891444953368076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08074026238220934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08260477266880788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03754561710236895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1140120664605785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04520689934704752,0.1017754901157617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03391829470681256,0.15112071149834666,0.09475419873853988,0.0,0.040195953959703365,0.0,0.0,0.041433729595394916,0.0,0.0,0.03285450046534228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06730455482195677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028112057578055863,0.0,0.03171822865616504,0.09961614016408528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13521191502961705,0.07486603251795584,0.0,0.029862411710901083,0.12769280987626452,0.034714606862411165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02638636069387812,0.10179678098104104,0.11706592113336133,0.06306208330119356,0.06947830309687074,0.0,0.0,0.189757561431419,0.0441273004012356,0.13482694957244842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09554986726140896,0.0343029318580433,0.0,0.13108348665716818,0.09370499770324912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11045480156087656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0289146141665896,0.08066954354431458,0.0,0.028213978401477338,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,SearchUrchin,2018/11/09,"78 [https://nothingbutajournal.wordpress.com/2018/11/09/day-78-weight/](https://nothingbutajournal.wordpress.com/2018/11/09/day-78-weight/) This is my blog post about my 78 days so far. I've been trying to get into the writing world and I have been journaling to be able to self-reflect more. I've been lazy the last couple weeks but I finally decided to just post. I hope someone can gain something by my words. If anything I hope it makes someone feel less alone in their journey. Love you all! IWNDWYT",8.584868421052633,13.032145644736845,4.608210526315791,75.56047368421055,72.81578947368422,5.145263157894737,23.389473684210525,6.742157984588678,0.8374305263157904,423,12,61,4,10,111,58,76,0.046,0.738,0.21600000000000005,0.9549,0,1,1,0,0,0,35.0,0,1,1,1,3,3,0,0,2,0,7,1,0,1,1,13,13,4,0,3,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,9,3,8,9,3,11,0,0,0,1,4,4,0,3,4,36,11,0,0.1808520983685549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1873082317707081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1488258673598715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2001094069829189,0.0,0.3499039257807435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0914442549326878,0.0,0.0,0.1981146337820217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09448775700248067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3592538809895133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1474185981783971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16322607971496605,0.0,0.12072018000056935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3464126361993011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1886681809754731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3064707921208695,0.13922878095821856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12278670334872728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14506864448084714,0.4404582679478601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Sir_Red_Beard,2018/11/09,"Where do you start? Im writing this after talking to my SO about lurking in this sub and r/stopdrinking. Every day i wake up and say "" i dont need to drink tonight."" But by the time my day is done, i have my pint and my six pack ready to take me as far as i need. Usually i only drink 3 beers and half the pint before im okay enough to go to bed. I work a stressful construction job with not so long hours, but customers who expect a nit picky level of execution with salesmen who don't give a fuck. I justify me spending 15 dollars a day to keep me going. Every damn day i add up how much im spending, how it affects my daughter and my fiance and the one on the way, but i just cant get myself to really kick the habit. I know its killing me. I know i need to change. Everything i read from here says find sober activities, but everything i do after work seems to go better with a beer and a few shots. Even shit that shouldn't, like woodworking or anything with power tools. Idk how i havent cut off a finger honestly lol. Ive been at worse levels of consumption for about 5 years, would kill half a fifth and a six pack of 8 percent beer and would have to eat food to not throw up, sometimes even get in the shower and alternate between conpletely cold water and scolding hot water to shake off the spins or nausea. I talked with her tonight about my issues and that i know i need to change, but i guess im looking to all of you for support. Even though, cowardly, im writing this while im drunk enough to go to bed. I dont want to wake up tomorrow and tell myself that i dont need to drink, and end up doing the same old shit. I feel like a piece of shit. I want to provide. I don't want my daughter to grow up seeing this. Atter drunk proof reading this i sound like a bitch but im still going to post because i feel like a bitch.",3.2916923076923084,3.7258581692307766,4.541025641025642,89.2223076923077,72.43589743589743,7.641025641025642,25.51282051282051,7.61054688173877,1.056974358974359,1426,41,326,16,26,472,192,390,0.192,0.748,0.06,-0.9948,3,0,7,0,0,0,36.0,0,2,0,4,16,20,10,2,20,2,19,19,6,4,2,61,49,31,2,12,11,2,4,4,0,3,0,3,3,0,12,20,12,1,7,10,3,8,10,12,0,5,2,10,44,8,55,44,8,45,0,0,2,1,15,16,7,4,23,199,56,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05833386527842115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04321198631617812,0.0,0.060319516908468575,0.0,0.0,0.06269368801445703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1499778472428805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18286470247835546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07254189335984539,0.24923669904993964,0.2083264771341846,0.0,0.0725349788894257,0.0,0.0,0.06278473855963433,0.14649020010862035,0.0,0.14046035427416928,0.0,0.11945051357893426,0.0,0.12741712039860725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07168507655769679,0.10128320766671164,0.0,0.0,0.06478932741903566,0.0,0.085716701070137,0.0,0.0,0.06553378166536414,0.0740709419030617,0.06800115806638024,0.2014332477957812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07808989418286978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06980930130603444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5359899900395356,0.0739874895253228,0.0703442939830489,0.06300751923114849,0.1568516679550842,0.0,0.11687273218238292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13852700283880995,0.0,0.0,0.06273266133763221,0.05952712893630549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05211001582175452,0.2628086300578925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07438385991855542,0.0,0.04803478691865362,0.053912669290415854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0678900395787023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14181213326668327,0.0,0.04541195281955168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11274419011688565,0.0,0.0,0.056487668502048866,0.06453275653696566,0.0,0.0,0.2182931021410833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07010894048882597,0.0,0.05017410109027756,0.0,0.05661035683995001,0.0,0.08120068570314361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08044159550244245,0.0,0.0,0.053298114512678726,0.11395238383821578,0.0619582607636476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0696460032599048,0.0,0.0413347119053107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07807188750145763,0.0,0.12543276175283588,0.056266708717338035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10321299109128874,0.0,0.07223979046087646,0.10071201658178523,0.0,0.0,0.04564882894374641 alcoholism,applestooranged,2018/11/09,"Sober activities Hi, I recently found out that I have high liver enzymes and figure it’s from the drinking, so my husband and I have decided to try to stop completely. I’m finding that we are bored. Any ideas of things we can do on the weekend that don’t involve social drinking? 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I generally drink at least a pint of liquor a night, usually rumpleminze, and on the weekends significantly more. Which isn't good, I'm a 32 year old female who is 4'8"" and weighs a little over a 100lbs now. I don't know if I still have a job or not, I called into my other job yesterday because I was so severely hungover. There is plenty of alcohol in my house right now, which I know if I can stomach enough I will feel normal again, but right now it doesn't sound appealing at all. I really wish this process could go faster, I really don't want to go to AA because I just have found most of those places to be more religious that I care for. Either way, I know I have to do this, I'm ruining my life. I haven't told my boyfriend yet because I don't want to put that kind of pressure on the situation yet, but I know that I have to, I know that he knows he just hasn't said anything to me yet because I don't think that he wants to face this situation either. But thanks for listening. 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I don't know what to do. I have a severe drinking problem. Every time things go good in my life I just feel compelled to fuck it up. Usually ill just go on these long benders where I'm arguing with everyone I know just to push people out of my life. It hardly ever works. I think people like me because I have a sense of humor and I make fun of myself a lot. I use to think its funny that people say oh your just like Bojack or you remind me of Bad Santa. These are not people to envy basically they fuck up everyone around them and then try to make it up with one super nice gesture in hopes of redemption. I want to be a better person. I just ghosted a really nice girl because I just thought I'd ruin her and move on but she didn't deserve that. Every problem I've ever had is because I've made it myself. I really want help but A.A.,rehab, interventions or jail don't work on me. I feel like I might just be a lost cause at this point. I can go months even years without drinking but the moment things are good bam fuck it up. Any else been through this where litteraly nothing works?",1.6423415622697135,3.713935868644069,3.5617391304347836,87.80242078113487,80.14406779661017,6.138246131171703,21.277818717759768,7.255503002510835,0.7177784082535004,899,26,183,12,23,303,133,236,0.115,0.73,0.154,0.5306,0,0,2,0,0,0,20.0,0,2,2,6,15,21,4,0,8,0,16,8,0,7,2,46,39,10,1,5,14,0,3,3,0,1,3,1,0,3,15,7,2,0,9,2,0,5,5,9,0,1,6,4,29,12,29,30,1,29,0,2,0,3,12,15,3,6,12,122,44,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07164816804071923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09379241701610601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08797089840790627,0.1926787756372915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09318203949575124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1082333727846128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2064246724577428,0.0,0.0,0.08801445964923367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06958904845702438,0.19060765241296626,0.177540081411917,0.2013513019485865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10654599923224994,0.07526894776775271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2922098679235335,0.0,0.0,0.17963493403867664,0.1767413343204308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09438154257215388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07062034571218888,0.0,0.0,0.1046458953497606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11580580534873892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14883725897552275,0.15442019434369647,0.0,0.0,0.09323996580148323,0.0,0.0,0.1150124928831355,0.08957299811249751,0.0,0.09969383872493924,0.14065675547496834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1117699280455118,0.0,0.0,0.08409705934656247,0.11198062322901647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10109541601075957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07139441869796886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2921724330520328,0.18399194722978832,0.0,0.0,0.09959891491277068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20162989243148066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20248824954602435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08378621444287604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09591545909710374,0.0,0.11902640361249547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13999252623504893,0.1350204059728312,0.0,0.08364378526277225,0.061436053282078074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0715322794764635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09099690070541573,0.11603875820786134,0.0,0.12428769072700124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10156293305741217,0.0,0.23010921793575045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06784815371828322 alcoholism,Wildcelt7,2019/02/28,"Why do I feel heroic for hiding I find some sense of heroism from keeping the depth of my problem from those who love me. For example, I have spent the last 3 nights drinking a pint of whiskey after my girlfriend goes home and then my parents go to bed, and then I have work downtown at 7 am every morning. This crazy sensation comes over me when I reach my drunk inebriation every night that I’ve escaped the exposure of this problem because I kept my loved ones from feeling pain over my constant relapses. I feel heroic even though I’m slipping deeper into my addiction and into worse and worse health as I get less and less sleep. This disease is a son of a gun, and I’m glad to talk about it here on this subreddit where people understand",5.843713850837138,6.297456095890412,5.9311872146118745,81.43245814307461,66.8082191780822,8.680669710806697,32.660578386605785,8.515128840125781,2.498793911719939,594,24,113,8,9,188,98,146,0.15,0.698,0.152,0.34,1,0,2,1,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,6,6,0,0,6,0,5,9,1,0,0,19,19,11,0,2,0,2,3,0,1,0,3,0,2,0,8,9,3,2,5,3,1,2,0,3,0,1,2,3,17,3,21,17,3,18,0,0,0,2,7,8,0,1,8,74,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17691222435584467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09892609897870083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13979227732894284,0.0,0.17537007313259342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15897537893048772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1071862700921298,0.0,0.27346054501878386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461652049603006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14832355472211609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08478607389779398,0.0,0.09222906470090296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17249904576718353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16278289716691133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14424442418027394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13228215544088556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.292933156544228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30458286079964986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1099670367005664,0.0,0.17268035906014242,0.0,0.18019586338397292,0.0,0.0,0.11250647198434548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3105654781607555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1624000156934601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13043678112776086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15944204373175944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16894213569111038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14643500085043645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11814382354325967,0.0,0.3307601094309213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Genksman,2019/02/28,Alcohol is my stupid curse My father and my grandfather were alcoholics and they eventually beat the disease. I really wish I could do the same. I drink when I’m really anxious and about every 3 months I get so wasted I scare my family and friends. I have an addictive personality and I love how alcohol makes me feel in the moment. It calls to me when I feel shitty and sometimes when I’m fine too. I hate but I love it. I have a surgery coming up and I would rather drink myself into a coma than face the surgery. I’ve been to therapy but it still calls me. I just love feeling buzzed. What can I do to break this cycle? I don’t want to be a slave to a chemical. ,0.9178260869565236,3.1391475942029,3.303797101449277,87.76221739130436,83.92753623188406,7.1582608695652175,20.79420289855072,8.238735603445708,1.1957037681159417,520,16,112,12,15,179,83,138,0.113,0.721,0.166,0.852,0,0,5,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,1,10,8,2,1,9,0,12,11,1,2,0,23,26,14,0,5,4,1,3,0,1,1,5,0,0,1,5,9,5,0,3,2,0,1,1,3,0,0,2,3,24,5,10,21,1,11,0,0,0,3,9,3,0,0,6,79,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16288014145814356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4790250475791886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1687920029571501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30513085507782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12870442384069208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11929259727329873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29273197262475503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1258852869496721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14085147793245098,0.0,0.2266402084536451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11543463711606655,0.0,0.07806112754749871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14751251820605826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4045480250115464,0.0,0.09973306243616344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1192585061725112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1304600002954383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19143313964427872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14958656556298927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14777138794537253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11931988907542412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17086460214674254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08812653169387615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17181537926080254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10613735116593112,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,EmbitteredApple,2019/02/28,"Am I on the process to becoming an alcoholic? I used to get drunk once a week (every Friday), but nowadays I feel like drinking every 3 or 4 days. I don't have any withdrawals but I do desire to drink more often. I don't think I have a drinking problem yet, but do you think there's a danger?",0.9053763440860224,2.7689160967741984,3.0948387096774184,91.2789247311828,81.58064516129029,5.423655913978496,23.23655913978495,6.42735559955562,0.5661204301075267,226,8,49,2,6,77,42,62,0.17300000000000001,0.7120000000000001,0.115,-0.5283,0,0,4,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,0,3,3,1,0,5,0,7,5,0,1,0,11,12,4,0,2,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,3,4,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,8,1,4,12,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,4,32,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23278934084455874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1481288899279537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24057128160123564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14047950346879495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6401585362418973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3670549561339739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11013917748440004,0.15561466515858194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11380489508345322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10641859425068516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23197717431327106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20842969861555807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2791477214464221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18813139619587887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17472657187330778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,sweetcreamycream,2019/05/24,"Can anyone recommend a good rehab/ Ideally in-patient treatment facility for an early 30-something female? Trying to help my sister. It can be anywhere. I’m hoping some people have insight into the culture of some of the rehab centers here. I know each one can be different and help some more than others. She’s early 30’s, former eating disorder, difficulty opening up in individual therapy, can be manipulative (I don’t know if this info is helpful, just throwing it out there). 3 DUI’s already which ended up in a misdemeanor... has already done rehabs for eating disorders and alcohol (maybe 3-4 years ago?)but that hasn’t affected anything. Goes from 0-60 in terms of behavior. Normal to slurry speech and goofiness and “out of it” within the snap of a finger. Still hides drinking to the point where she goes off to the bathroom or by herself to do whatever. Drunk during daytime in most any situation. When bringing up her needing help, her response was that she basically doesn’t give a shit but I also think her pride (some narcissism here) plays into that response. Thank you for any help or suggestions or advising in what to do or not do. I am aware that she likely won’t find improvement if she isn’t willing, so taking that into account.",5.753728036669212,7.475677558441562,6.770883626177746,70.7208632543927,67.78787878787878,9.24481792717087,33.50165520753756,9.627879704456738,3.5859572701808,1000,46,158,22,17,334,149,231,0.044000000000000004,0.821,0.136,0.9662,1,0,3,0,0,0,35.0,0,1,0,2,9,8,1,0,10,0,22,10,2,2,0,37,32,14,0,6,9,1,1,1,0,2,4,1,0,0,12,11,5,0,6,3,1,2,6,1,0,1,2,2,15,7,32,25,8,29,0,0,0,0,20,19,1,12,9,120,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12315127606942827,0.1484717650279679,0.0,0.0,0.3066209717281066,0.11110065923246633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18895158738322387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09714167719226753,0.0,0.1143258940395916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14515017477718456,0.3184470134200133,0.0,0.0,0.14217156319241778,0.0,0.13609653464477126,0.0,0.2843160236715568,0.0,0.0,0.12304895850142593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12697766119306186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13327238225275587,0.0,0.1165262022369331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4656024985972616,0.0,0.0,0.13798683609215628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15270237430495787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06787319583822647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13957183389831834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10301334036166944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13611992787681892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09414119796906058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09631517197938902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13133185110692014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14260757992428774,0.0,0.1561608757431639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1069535500881797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11094806810310452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1044565547508915,0.0,0.0,0.12790622281878394,0.15887625828585494,0.0,0.0,0.08901944297862076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09432298219081237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08946506726316228 alcoholism,emmpemmpemm,2019/05/24,"Please encourage me or something Just had a little to drink, not drunk though but I have such an urge to drink more. I’m literally crying at a bus-stop because I hate how much i really need to drink more. How do I not?",0.5765217391304347,2.7130714347826093,2.6197391304347843,92.66656521739132,84.65217391304347,6.288695652173913,17.895652173913042,7.554174236665415,0.2806313043478261,170,4,39,3,5,57,34,46,0.2,0.6890000000000001,0.111,-0.8062,0,0,4,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,5,2,1,0,3,0,3,4,0,2,0,8,6,5,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,4,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,5,1,4,5,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,27,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14717013138173538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2651934714282585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7095122817497853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2383567066273292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24197076856420965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17747478254478466,0.17901320402572396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26501159718643896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15466271357797862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18586037124891572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2018416881630674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2371983406403963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,havehrt,2019/05/24,"can I safely detox at home for starters I am not asking for medical advice per say, just opinions based off of experiences. before anyone says ""speak to a doctor""... I have tried. my old psychiatrist was about to begin prescribing naltrexone for me but my insurance changed and I can no longer see him. I have called every psych practice in my area and the first appointment availability there is in mid June. I called my local urgent care to see if they could prescribe things to help cease drinking and they cannot. Ideally I would like to avoid the ER if I can to be honest and in patient rehab is not an option as I have two children. I am 27 a years old, female, 170 lbs and I drink anywhere from 4 to 20 bud lights a night depending on the night and circumstances. normally I don't day drink but sometimes I do. Usually I will go to bed around 8 or 9pm with my last drink being somewhere around that area and I won't start getting anxious to drink until the next evening when I'd begin drinking anyway. I don't get shaky.. just a lot of anxiety and diminished will power. I began daily drinking when my ex died two years ago as a means to cope and fall asleep. prior to that I drank but it wasn't an everyday thing even though I will admit, I did have a love affair with alcohol to a certain degree. In the last two years I was sober for 9 months while pregnant, relapsed after having my son and became sober again a month later for about 5 months. again I am not asking for media advice but if anyone could just help me feel better about qutting.. I am seriously so scared of having a seizure even though I'm not drinking a handle a day... what I do drink on the scale is considered heavy for my gender. I understand people being cautious over seizures and DTs but honestly how prevelant are those things really? I'm just looking for advice, direction and encouragement. anything helps..",5.1283695652173895,6.155974532608695,5.70243043478261,80.39691739130436,68.61956521739131,8.605391304347826,28.30695652173913,8.841846274778883,2.157135086956522,1500,50,282,25,25,485,205,368,0.073,0.8059999999999999,0.121,0.9611,1,1,10,0,0,0,36.0,0,0,2,4,22,14,0,3,19,0,36,17,1,2,1,51,57,31,1,8,17,2,1,1,1,5,5,3,2,1,8,16,11,2,4,9,0,2,10,4,1,4,6,8,38,10,44,41,1,51,0,0,3,1,21,15,0,9,35,194,46,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2175559936102346,0.06578405847530364,0.07930957424286092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05677163009460848,0.08383792428673552,0.0,0.1037808779050334,0.0,0.06106977969519287,0.13212802063761114,0.13875555667204562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06314856029750028,0.0,0.0,0.06563408231304624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15155657304484574,0.0,0.07566361779436251,0.0,0.07850597630181501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11850376277252644,0.0,0.0,0.09572061649848562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07701986897567706,0.0,0.0,0.0759586626533048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6542915681587744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14704808005591544,0.0,0.06252642880705571,0.0,0.0,0.07259313274561142,0.0,0.0,0.03752358781572982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06312430370652351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07754494035746226,0.0,0.04217613219169315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14922730630920336,0.0,0.07444023217326662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12098463087682748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03625601314443898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06231900856692054,0.0,0.0,0.06309200316880871,0.06697881830313275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08083813020965165,0.0,0.07476032584303532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17770484565394462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07892482182020176,0.13928501868765392,0.07271155915635444,0.0,0.0,0.15574506905801305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05144894237213622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04754181710712749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11803200112813615,0.07429870454921009,0.0,0.11827398902679323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07339711726422858,0.0,0.05252731471440938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479085622054039,0.0,0.14582493566756452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0503847688310375,0.0,0.21748169328025727,0.07725683731871864,0.0,0.0,0.08173353415456963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05271775353778427,0.0,0.0,0.14336940884848506 alcoholism,Magiclegsfromspace,2019/05/24,"My sh*t is fill I told my daughter that I’m not the dad she wants but the dad she has, I also told her that I wasn’t always like this. I’m 29 with ptsd and her mom was killed in a wreck 3 years ago. And my baby is going through puberty already at 10.",-0.03827586206896783,1.112902758620688,2.361586206896554,98.79203448275864,81.75862068965517,5.329655172413793,18.49655172413793,5.6839178017228535,-0.5827213793103447,192,4,51,1,5,66,42,58,0.16699999999999998,0.779,0.054000000000000006,-0.8338,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,3,0,5,0,0,0,0,6,11,4,1,1,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,4,0,10,1,4,7,0,6,0,0,0,0,10,2,0,0,3,30,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2530201285093864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3149836532208604,0.2282615655612725,0.2375040565306968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1622187903042997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3157905672389496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13944869498265802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3342969958548672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3336572159542122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5454890743233094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16835644147402948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18381021730757047 alcoholism,Sunshine_15,2019/05/24,"How much is too much? Is there a level of alcohol consumption that clearly indicates that a person is an alcoholic? How much is considered too much? Or is being an alcoholic more about the urgency to have or dependency upon alcohol? I have family members who are clearly alcoholics as they just drink constantly. However, I know some people who I have wondered, are they? They hold down jobs and pay their bills, but they drink a certain amount of alcohol that makes me ask the question, how much is too much?",5.774792626728113,7.641223376344088,6.4666973886328725,72.36290322580649,67.92473118279571,11.335791090629801,33.715821812596005,11.20814326018867,4.5180918586789565,406,19,68,14,7,133,57,93,0.013000000000000001,0.907,0.08,0.7278,2,0,8,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,5,0,9,1,0,0,7,0,12,8,0,5,3,18,16,8,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,1,5,1,8,1,3,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,9,1,7,15,9,4,0,0,0,0,10,3,0,6,1,60,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7517994006817276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10960881808530352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1267008518309959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2297121232927695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.110528726242908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11634817634319855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06443512085924147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.078262354908765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5171340815393523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08128334317417438,0.10237434402512613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313419157939561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271478623680548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,JoanScarlet,2019/05/24,"I embarrassed myself last night, once again. Lately I've had many things on my mind and it hasn't been easy. The only way I know how to cope with things is - drinking. Last night I was supposed to have a small gathering at my place which spiraled into me drinking 9 beers and being extremely drunk to the point I didn't know where I was, or what I was doing. This resulted with, of course, me embarrassing myself in front of my friends. I said and did some things I am not proud of. I decided to stay sober for a while, at least untill I get my s*** together. This of course wasn't the first time, and I am afraid it won't be the last time... Have you ever embarrassed yourself? How did you deal with the embarrassment? What was your next step in dealing with alcohol? Did you talk to a therapist? Thank you for answering in advance.",2.567454545454545,4.6012217454545485,3.5036363636363674,89.53545454545458,77.0,7.309090909090909,23.12121212121212,8.238735603445708,1.2285030303030302,648,20,137,12,15,207,97,165,0.11900000000000001,0.846,0.035,-0.9102,0,0,4,0,0,0,25.0,0,5,0,3,5,8,0,5,8,0,21,5,0,3,1,21,26,9,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,10,9,5,0,4,4,0,3,5,5,0,1,12,1,24,3,23,11,2,30,0,0,0,0,11,11,0,2,14,101,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16619765415477733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3206571426588243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3046899158542985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14067172514656853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13228051337222105,0.0,0.0,0.12015007979552515,0.0,0.08124988251429459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17093335145957272,0.3802951036958884,0.17542707551661574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15766724530475928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570252642685243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1653913839069948,0.2918795566082131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1656178158692556,0.0,0.11827574844696942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1624795027093521,0.0,0.1470114237926856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14792985624235389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16575771390760308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.124996625683467,0.0,0.14317681331717036,0.0,0.1805642649731056,0.30995067496730194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1813634550760256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12344013334494355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Jacob_Heverly_716,2019/04/29,"Mother is an Alcoholic and Has Many Other Manipulative Issues As the title states, my mother is an alcoholic. This has been going on for almost 9 years so far (I am currently 14). I know children have little control, and tend to try to take control where they shouldn't, but honestly I need advice. As a child she lived with her mom and her sisters, they (her sisters) were always gone, and her mother was drunk almost everyday. She's bipolar and has back pain, those may also have something to do with it. My dad works a very low-paying job, and works 11-12 hours a day, leaving me alone with my mom who drinks now around 5 times a week. It used to be almost everyday from the time I was 5 until the time I was 8 or 9. After that it slowed down to 3 or 4 times a week. She's been to rehab twice, neither had effective results, and was recently sober for a month at a time on 3 occassions, but immediately went back to drinking again. I was suspended for 3 months from school, and watched her all the time everyday to make sure nothing happened, and she was sober all but 4 days in that time. Now I'm back in school and the first 3 days she drank, after that she stopped that week but began again and it has happened 5 days a week for the past 3 weeks. It always leads to fighting, my dad coming home late and seeing her like that, yelling, hitting, things broken, etc. I just want to have a normal (around) last quarter of my ""childhood"". She steals money from me and my dad, she lies about her issue, even saying the next day she's sober that we are ""Insane dickheads for accusing her of doing such a horrible thing."" She's a good mother, she really is, but I don't know how much longer any of us (Me, my brother, and my dad) can put up with her addiction. Is there any last-resort we should discuss trying, because my dad plans on kicking her out soon and I want to give her one last chance.",6.7995945007637815,5.50616908443272,6.916122760727677,81.0058353006527,65.27968337730871,9.773142619080684,31.029162616303292,8.532816995589336,2.12529234828496,1469,42,306,17,19,473,196,379,0.128,0.831,0.04,-0.9887,3,1,5,0,3,0,57.0,3,0,2,8,19,7,1,0,20,0,31,10,0,9,3,58,52,28,0,6,8,14,0,1,0,3,6,2,1,2,17,25,6,3,3,3,1,6,3,3,0,4,14,4,48,4,43,33,5,68,0,0,2,0,48,14,0,6,48,206,65,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08961685985219536,0.0,0.08033091832304635,0.0,0.17570679138777248,0.2469528150785269,0.08514080047880168,0.0,0.0657402447904008,0.13680423838896372,0.0,0.0,0.11180602972046104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463618408009662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18963441232345515,0.0,0.05011211848236393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07081333679129231,0.0,0.0,0.1844024205334276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2650808958938891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16106150160552762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09168161024615816,0.054296400262340665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06992452657037755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07885964938123208,0.046719661095747315,0.06895063550903897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14538929003754106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08245949161997222,0.0,0.08095651869882492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1716037681849179,0.08157693952885997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09035672277946112,0.2010270024288548,0.09273214089068717,0.08704446484848212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04016178247669583,0.08239217910396728,0.07258955457412176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054873257101564515,0.08334415404458273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1925577465146696,0.13123236188483506,0.0,0.06043099402722809,0.0609548337412029,0.0,0.0,0.08742719485805085,0.0,0.08054459299606741,0.07887903763762369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05570502859391754,0.0,0.0874731613005594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07847509149488173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08263990677601367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052663377784994345,0.0,0.0811686758706142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06537364623782978,0.0,0.16639406650071367,0.06550767456175415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06328632622500814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06872803942582659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07747834275761813,0.0,0.0618088094771521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10922825367972368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3355455534244827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1116251871307095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09888390124518506,0.07099973706904443,0.0,0.06782869992911603,0.09697465841285087,0.0,0.329704156584899,0.0,0.0,0.0762059435744399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11969414228360545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05293807851998105 alcoholism,Ikneed_HELP,2019/04/29,"Need advice on how to help my Father. I (25+M) have an alcoholic father(50+M). I do not like alcohol, I've seen what it did to my late grandpa, I am aware of what it does to innocent people, and I see what it has done to my father. He is in denial even though he recently got arrested for DUI, and had been living in his friends garage for the last 5 years smashing cases of Keystone and Busch, chainsmoking, and eating once a day. He would hold a job for 6 months to a year, then would be on the hunt again. Recently he was offered the opportunity to move in with a family member and took it, moving away from a failed 15+yr relationship with a stepchild and my nieces for a ""fresh start"". Well, he got a DUI while moving. Knowing how I feel about booze and drinking and driving he has to audacity to call me at 2am and demand I come get him from jail(over an hour away), completely unapologetic to me with this blasé attitude downplaying the severity of his charge and it associated dangers. Whatever. Since then it seemed like he was doing better, only had a beer or two here and there that we were aware of, found a job etc.. Long story short, this past weekend he showed up to work drunk(1.5 hours from home), got fired, and proceeded to walk off into the city. Family went to look for him, he turned his phone off or it died, and I am pretty sure had a missing persons filed by my family and his boss. He finally turned his phone on, someone went and picked him up and got him home, still had the same old blasé attitude and still thinks he is in control of his drinking... We are at wits end, it is fucking with my emotions, and I am genuinely growing tired of being an adult dealing with this shit from my father. I want him to get help, I want my fucking Dad back, I am tired of worrying, and I am done bailing him out. My main reason for coming here is to get that shit off my chest. I am too embarassed to speak to anyone I actually know, and they wouldn't be of any help any how. How can you convince someone they need help? If we do get through to him, he needs inpatient rehab. My family is talking about Trosa, but the program is extremely long(1+yr?) and contact is extremely limited from what I can tell. Idk, that is why I am here. I need advice. I don't expect a bunch of strangers to solve my problems for me, I just need an idea of where to start. Sorry if I offended anyone, thanks in advance for any suggestions. NC, USA if it matters.",5.1708024691358005,5.468778631687243,5.732938271604941,82.81422222222223,68.23868312757202,9.11374485596708,29.78024691358025,9.029198982220553,2.218084444444444,1909,66,394,32,30,618,241,486,0.083,0.847,0.071,-0.8253,3,0,5,0,0,0,77.0,3,1,2,7,20,18,6,0,23,0,42,15,3,8,1,73,79,35,1,15,8,6,2,2,1,3,5,1,2,2,19,33,7,3,8,5,0,12,3,9,1,1,20,6,54,9,70,53,4,59,0,2,3,2,55,21,4,6,28,262,73,6,0.0,0.0,0.07085433259069357,0.0,0.0,0.14190218973130353,0.0,0.15519042337048145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14812653185440666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1015375415490403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13643405384302335,0.05583059615330167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06421533036165271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07414025658297517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12508966363928392,0.07612746022480665,0.0,0.08143535456739237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046825755722111465,0.07485502424668455,0.0,0.0,0.07535500088345426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06353921062536994,0.1486051242060623,0.0,0.14225518789245126,0.0,0.0742954798110758,0.0,0.08167353379198466,0.06430859080019671,0.0,0.08097642553831813,0.04795649204935715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2737911172264733,0.0,0.036712474723861833,0.0,0.0,0.07953783964343615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07961024839644901,0.05609628440994665,0.13424871219952347,0.15173744455445198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2322830296996213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19466879474639992,0.0,0.14566225146273654,0.0,0.1430072942797503,0.0,0.0,0.0819648982116811,0.0,0.0,0.14410324931393578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07980623828914578,0.059184708360688176,0.08190429118426415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07094460011071999,0.0,0.06411364989171714,0.1285104992174903,0.06097191553389045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057954520824039873,0.2315104741321829,0.0,0.26918727443772794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07618923514506698,0.07732449381778897,0.0,0.055221186993565416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06931196328234512,0.05033681762207946,0.06339796670678878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.073867811882249,0.0,0.06947546020315641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07465248301823879,0.1433820636446794,0.07795315736352694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057858684169004825,0.06609903502907276,0.0,0.08202567652626144,0.14906087160828904,0.06006157796544395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1230400009013298,0.0,0.0,0.08127802141513882,0.1027837595506635,0.0,0.11596870056616082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06843159971012241,0.0,0.0,0.058359064567883485,0.06346205351093052,0.06684712365084051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046523879612578985,0.07133638567685181,0.0,0.0,0.16690301279535807,0.0,0.0,0.08066947468122969,0.0,0.1579519671054786,0.07092686344976068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0856514320046109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06528275759558784,0.1346155439212847,0.06551687028567657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052859039964382515,0.0737363224276487,0.0,0.1031564041135409,0.0,0.0,0.0935135489419377 alcoholism,FireTheLaserBeam,2019/04/29,"Taste/smell on breath after sobriety? Hey guys. It’ll be a year for me next month. Feeling great. Question, though. Do any of you who’ve been sober for a long time (year or more) still sometimes get (or feel like you’re getting) the taste/smell of alcohol on your breath, even though you know for a fact you’ve not had a single drop? Sometimes I do. Not all the time, only sometimes. Now that I think about it, it’s usually late in the evening or after I’ve eaten candy (I eat a lot of junk food). Is it akin to “phantom limb”? Anybody else know what I’m talking about?",0.2209770114942522,2.5747609827586224,1.3622068965517258,99.07014942528735,90.0344827586207,4.127816091954023,18.94022988505748,5.6839178017228535,-0.3906073563218389,438,13,98,3,15,137,78,116,0.0,0.898,0.102,0.8712,0,0,1,0,0,0,23.0,0,3,0,0,8,2,0,0,8,0,7,6,2,0,2,14,16,5,0,0,5,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,6,0,4,0,6,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,2,7,2,14,11,4,17,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,5,14,56,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17383473471229666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11061479958846966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1664424227060614,0.13588207600024638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2148716110717961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16449219392923728,0.11620477955323555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1966898675773201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16996692094250812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17933390798396254,0.0,0.1610595874382582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17878804580951702,0.0,0.18348826455387335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07946776271159238,0.0,0.0,0.14394953022253573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1382882424728751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1298341551498274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17299141489925546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12371073141038227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18221712122630124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.482626537719297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12990098138802308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13074044502085494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10422635745934564,0.3196264668952077,0.0,0.18969743141070802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17914769260203156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2094962127079179 alcoholism,CafeDeAurora,2019/04/29,"Just venting after a wake up call I’ve had an issue on and off for the past few years. It got worse last year after I broke up with my ex. I don’t drink often, but when I do I have to get drunk enough to fall asleep immediately. One of the reasons it started getting out of control was because I had issues sleeping, so I’ve been using alcohol as sleeping aid. I can’t remember the last time I went to be without either alcohol or sleeping pills. A while back my doctor prescribed me with Zolpidem, which I’ve used on an off. But as I discovered, by accident, the very pleasant high it gives you, I started abusing that too. Until recently I was being religious about never mixing that with alcohol, but about a week ago my brain betrayed me and said “fuck it, what’s the worse that could happen”. Last night I remember heading to bed after 20mg of zolpidem and a small glass of rum. I wake up a bit late for work today, but not embarrassingly late. Didn’t even have a hangover or anything. I got home to a pretty messy living room, my gaming console missing, and a few other sleeping pills, that I don’t use nowadays, scattered around a table. I was convinced someone had broken into my house. The TV-table out of place. A wire ripped off of the speakers. All of a sudden a flashback hit me, like a dream of a broken TV or something like that. It was me. I got complete amnesia, apparently finished off the pack of zolpidem. Must have been 40mg left on that, and the devil knows how much of the other pills and rum I ended up taking. Broke my own TV and speaker set, and I wonder what other delightful surprises I must have left myself.... Well at least I’m starting to see a therapist this Friday, so I’ve got that going for me, which is nice. Anyway, thanks for reading, and here’s to getting my shit together.",4.635249999999999,5.403123358333335,5.698333333333334,80.92500000000003,69.58333333333334,7.888888888888887,30.0,7.937092434478242,2.030666666666668,1419,54,271,17,24,471,193,360,0.152,0.738,0.11,-0.96,1,0,5,0,1,0,47.0,0,1,0,2,15,15,2,1,27,0,24,20,10,6,4,43,51,24,0,3,11,1,0,2,0,2,7,3,3,0,20,16,5,1,5,9,0,3,7,7,1,1,16,4,33,8,50,29,9,54,1,3,1,1,6,22,2,5,30,194,53,3,0.0,0.1046422199551068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07828845237334056,0.2831547932631627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07267807201211812,0.0786216181444226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06791098131017884,0.0,0.05383774653512653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09642022687409146,0.0,0.0,0.09859193806148098,0.0901824076051987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09259959385571588,0.0,0.09905598763137907,0.07051462316939214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0903970700699224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08651787793662066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07822340810985286,0.09125595622498807,0.0,0.0583331123014175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08164843663914792,0.13842730694962718,0.08472253705917247,0.05019307401991125,0.0,0.2825434363138147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07809919020603624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09063960206965492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09331266602462544,0.08859001262965632,0.0,0.0,0.10190695041574308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1843617962242733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0485371850768725,0.21597252583304485,0.1992527814879539,0.0,0.19191522238806374,0.0,0.0,0.08629528867913222,0.0,0.07798628672293458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06492378765524852,0.0,0.06811617675718408,0.0,0.0,0.08288032697117594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059846466303889435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08430938888981898,0.0,0.0,0.09227336417220146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08985101248757775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08834175812416742,0.0,0.0,0.09080546740159157,0.08720323008598989,0.0,0.20009383328329056,0.0,0.08401050759866989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07037789832019305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0906570121342941,0.0,0.0,0.35352656063340904,0.0,0.07483143452983224,0.06799140195281149,0.0,0.0,0.1875355035078442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06640403796618471,0.0,0.0,0.08131121782089337,0.0,0.1025438403030652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0514988532667252,0.0,0.08371500270241558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288348186514459,0.0,0.07287148229177479,0.0,0.0,0.07084325848264604,0.0,0.07940836094204452,0.0818715392380536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08513526353730948,0.0957769496757585,0.06429645252646816,0.0,0.18000688513257407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11374760994861538 alcoholism,jzakprice,2019/04/29,"How to Help Mother get her Wake-up Call? Hey /r/alcoholism, &#x200B; I'm here asking for advice on how best to confront my mother about her alcoholism. She's known she's had a problem and has gone through rehabilitation 2-3 times, but nothing has stuck. We suspect her husband is an enabler and may even have an alcohol problem himself as they won't throw out all alcohol in the home since ""he's not an alcoholic"". She just went to the hospital for high ammonia levels in the blood due to liver problems caused by her drinking. Her symptoms were severe to the point the she was zombie like. Yellow skin/eyes, completely unresponsive to questions, confused, disoriented. The few questions she would answer, she'd answer wrong or say I don't know. We've done the supportive tactic and have been very encouraging, but I don't feel it's helping. My grandmother went the same route and eventually died of liver problems herself, also caused by alcohol. This is now affecting my kids, as they've shown a good bit of concern for her as well. I feel it's time now to stop being supportive and show hard love. This isn't in our nature, but I don't think anything else is working and see her dying in the next few years, if not months, if she doesn't take this seriously. I'm contemplating being blunt and letting her know all the consequences of an early death (my kids will barely remember her, if at all, she'll miss her daughters marriage and children entirely, etc). Then start distancing ourselves until there's absolutely no contact with her. I'd hate to go this path, but we've been supportive for years. I don't know what else we can do and hopeful for a meaningful way to hurt her enough to want to stop drinking. Does anyone have thoughts on this? I realize that the method of helping someone is completely dependent on the person the and circumstances. I just don't want to do something with good intention that would absolutely backfire. I appreciate everyone's feedback.",7.2066314496314465,7.691528645945951,7.202063882063882,73.38238329238331,63.8918918918919,10.51105651105651,36.007371007371006,10.33465798735191,3.7993243243243255,1589,71,278,35,22,509,204,370,0.168,0.703,0.129,-0.9461,0,0,10,0,0,0,50.0,3,0,1,3,12,22,2,1,20,0,35,12,3,7,3,67,63,26,3,12,12,4,3,1,0,6,6,1,1,4,10,15,7,2,16,3,0,5,11,11,1,0,11,6,38,11,40,42,10,33,0,2,2,1,48,12,0,10,16,183,48,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07781748893792577,0.0,0.5106275982113495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0636833348671663,0.0,0.08628347867365344,0.09676410818041008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055681991456496736,0.0,0.06553205214451059,0.0,0.07444710313805865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08357104062391127,0.0,0.08693977647405059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08131528635921989,0.0,0.0,0.1636122467081709,0.0,0.0,0.16698960897315696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16529517856684656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06968830895882244,0.08149329922900628,0.0,0.15602213794085454,0.0,0.0,0.13304808965598466,0.0,0.0,0.08228327907262006,0.0888130353801124,0.052597550420031766,0.0,0.0,0.0760937639700604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08053075434896616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04160551340132137,0.0,0.04525787562743359,0.13358655491551255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07133648259646727,0.07862215478953169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1601311101374309,0.08413776434038403,0.07987946248988965,0.07909459719524027,0.0,0.0,0.08524991610017266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13129440236974182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08143122921084747,0.0,0.03890518282188038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.071872854880531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06356315278385923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08469173402675291,0.0,0.0,0.07641103533904225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06953339595723239,0.0,0.0,0.07527993362547718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30479619044941497,0.0,0.0,0.17841676102835224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09020987454324088,0.0,0.0,0.06332820661263007,0.0,0.0,0.06345804139893753,0.0,0.0,0.08996382913885557,0.0,0.06587412340528886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0674736868204187,0.0613061955937288,0.0,0.0,0.05636540272547848,0.0,0.0,0.13315529211895527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2711033876750691,0.0,0.08277028728833896,0.059874908044898416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05102629485783903,0.0,0.06322055424278314,0.09287053011243412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06570644549563899,0.09394047230922999,0.06320981598023095,0.0,0.0,0.07160059019034674,0.14764315645590856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05797454944827125,0.0,0.0,0.113139513226424,0.08706735145232343,0.09676410818041008,0.10256345690104764 alcoholism,Andy447,2019/04/29,"Going backwards?... Hi everyone I'm pretty new to Reddit so forgive me if i'm not in the correct format (and please forgive the long message). My name's Andrew and I know I have a serious binge drinking problem. I'm only 24. I wouldn't class myself as an alcoholic because I can go weeks without a drink and not feel anything, no cravings what so ever. My problem is binge drinking. If I have a beer at a family meal that's fine, I can go home to the land of nod. However, I used to binge drink with my friends who I fell out with in January. And since I made up with them I've started to drink a lot lot more than I should and I feel ashamed. If I drink at their house I have to lie to my parents about where I'm going. The weird thing is that my parents don't mind me getting drunk with friends and coming home, they just don't like me drinking in the house which is understandable because I've kicked off in the past. Just need some advice really? We'e moving to Wales in a few months so I get a fresh start thank God away from everything",1.2724242424242431,3.3984471851851867,2.77057239057239,92.68621212121214,81.77777777777777,5.593939393939394,23.24410774410775,6.782984794422108,0.6497481481481477,816,29,176,9,22,266,123,216,0.076,0.789,0.135,0.9081,3,0,9,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,3,0,8,12,0,1,14,0,12,11,0,2,2,40,33,13,0,8,8,2,2,1,2,2,1,0,2,0,6,12,11,0,6,9,0,7,7,5,0,0,1,2,26,7,28,30,5,29,0,0,0,0,13,14,0,6,9,110,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09543228578979007,0.0,0.10436890976082797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08036591277874583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09175484636608652,0.0,0.0,0.11906533903444162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08412549906648432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6696877927125127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0883391204429956,0.0,0.09331837777243496,0.08777056976765604,0.0,0.09206521828640528,0.0,0.09875972700723294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1509038487902747,0.0,0.10204670696874008,0.0,0.22200986333862766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19592201694276773,0.0,0.0,0.2253732071289407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053671418000237836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0477117750320033,0.0,0.0,0.08642608483727078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16605419076368333,0.0,0.09240831535416252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09860882646002553,0.0,0.07795133259835861,0.10379719426245733,0.0,0.07241370116630103,0.0,0.09432069987592072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07427488058922943,0.0,0.0,0.2168798910289187,0.0,0.09322758304346336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10720142521724424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0993553961015184,0.0,0.1868949869213242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06256353872642585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08078541542223393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13824859411347268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08991226732373901,0.0,0.0,0.06488100807937944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10166757241481628,0.0,0.08434694063529845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07833701382762573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0941408181919595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,helloiamtrash-,2019/04/29,"Help. SO is an alcoholic. In search of good books to read as a person who is in a committed relationship with an alcoholic. I know ultimately I cannot control and am not responsible for his drinking. I have a mental illness and he reads this one book to try and help give me the support I need. I was hoping to find something similar, but wanted some recommendations before just browsing amazon.",4.8496396396396415,6.908780270270274,6.282162162162162,71.98963963963965,70.62162162162161,9.257657657657658,31.25225225225225,9.725611199111238,3.3465927927927925,316,14,54,8,6,107,58,74,0.046,0.774,0.18,0.7697,0,0,4,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,6,0,6,4,0,1,1,15,12,6,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,4,3,1,2,5,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,7,3,9,11,1,2,0,0,0,0,8,2,0,2,0,39,9,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4391762719196411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17484237907786565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2304554278841165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20128530396070207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1877985886721948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19710841309318725,0.0,0.1723409938237428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.275448425486013,0.0,0.0,0.20408103937312366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11292258068040101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2070684442486657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15235561714210422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13923381442361366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17941108775188105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4110571840301521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2206010931070809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15818314474623932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23316831193805154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1395026713230643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12119329200669784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,doctormysteriousname,2019/04/29,"Advice on Meeting Potential Romantic Partner Hi all, great sub, appreciate as many perspectives on this question as possible. I’m speaking with my sponsor and other trusted mentors in my fellowship, but the more opinions the better! I’ve been sober now for just under 20 months. I’ve got a solid program, sponsor calls daily, average of 1-2 meetings a day. I’m starting a new career tomorrow. Grateful for where I am, and very watchful of losing it through slowing down or stopping the things that got me here. I didn’t date or do much of anything during my active alcoholism. Even before that, relationships were fairly rare. But it’s something I want in life: eventually marriage and a family. I’m not in a great hurry, and like I said, keeping my sponsor in the loop. I have heard nightmare stories about harassment and even abuse within the fellowship for years: men preying on female newcomers, or harassing female members into avoiding certain meetings. I would NEVER want to this, even inadvertently; I’d also hate to even be mistakenly seen to be acting like that. Just as importantly, I would never want to do or say anything that could make a woman feel uncomfortable coming to a meeting. Along with the above, I don’t want to do anything that may hurt my own sobriety. Relationships between addicts can go good or bad , just like any other. So...aside from work, most of my free time is spent in the rooms, and at church functions. Naturally, I managed to join the parish in town with an average parishioner age of 65, so there’s not anything going on there. To the point: there’s a woman that I see at a few meetings a week. We’ve talked casually before and after meetings, she’s definitely someone I’m interested in. Beautiful, very sweet and hilarious, great personality. She’s also got 5 years sober, and I know her sponsor, who is a “wise sage” around here. In short...I don’t know what the fuck to do! My sponsor seems satisfied that I’m in a good place, and he’s not opposed to in-fellowship relationships out of hand. But, in light of everything above, just not sure how to proceed. Any personal experiences or opinions are really appreciated. Thanks!",6.036507142857142,7.499643465000003,6.796428571428574,71.78,66.85,9.514285714285714,34.785714285714285,9.784248007369934,3.656271428571429,1726,82,288,38,28,570,221,400,0.11,0.648,0.242,0.9958,0,1,2,0,1,0,64.0,0,0,0,3,21,26,4,1,23,0,21,5,1,2,5,62,51,26,0,7,17,0,2,3,1,3,3,4,1,6,16,18,1,4,5,1,2,4,9,8,0,0,10,11,22,19,55,35,6,49,1,2,3,1,29,27,1,12,21,187,38,5,0.0,0.11115284852955004,0.0,0.1022698185302518,0.0,0.09167279965863673,0.0,0.10025737176797596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15004415276181807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12759186596091585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30879982222274893,0.08351329718066289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07832978417357346,0.0,0.0,0.15965559635894352,0.0,0.0,0.0829698135934873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09579337572225878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08081143565073996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07490190127491875,0.0,0.0,0.0605015064433559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2478499251517555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08431291141823995,0.0917669369298616,0.08843837535327315,0.0,0.04743457936351937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08672843823763762,0.0,0.0,0.106631972375227,0.15737148105133494,0.2250920407156032,0.31028688794173936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09262073530155186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10042856157695787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0833851427657431,0.0,0.0,0.1031141423263938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06626276748067843,0.13749661210571346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10495254656071704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06262078424971032,0.09511147259293333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07488049602158446,0.0,0.06896321521374918,0.0,0.14470845669657134,0.09060500387084673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1638274676854905,0.09801442740363207,0.0,0.08868343566147187,0.10575985626528378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10509182583970286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06009889320094858,0.0,0.0,0.3021595730668987,0.0,0.0,0.08923747250404017,0.07460371796591071,0.0,0.0,0.07475666968044596,0.08540366582535802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07948729596057709,0.07222169030640661,0.0,0.0,0.06640119518445227,0.0,0.0,0.07843171621513907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08841747040584512,0.0,0.0,0.07540318926053663,0.0,0.08637023834238652,0.0,0.0,0.062325067518687424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054703008394294594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15481079886830393,0.22133292182458592,0.0,0.07525098361674258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06829684855432143,0.0,0.0,0.13328386807437514,0.0,0.0,0.1208247575848543 alcoholism,alcoholiccilohocla,2019/04/29,"I’m so scared right now.... (trigger warning) Just woke up. Am already on my way to 10 units. I’ve been awake for two hours only, my head hurts and I need soooo much alcohol in my system. Made two other posts, but I’m just so scared.",-1.4499489795918343,0.4880844897959236,0.5252806122448987,102.20588010204085,102.06122448979592,3.266326530612245,14.28826530612245,5.148860815047168,-1.2000836734693872,176,4,42,1,8,57,39,49,0.16699999999999998,0.833,0.0,-0.8144,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,2,0,0,2,2,1,2,0,7,7,4,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,3,0,4,0,5,4,1,9,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,22,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25053424371210264,0.0,0.0,0.25869919861092994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24059268670527414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.230866206429244,0.0,0.2509620317995837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2218232177860102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17233293335792804,0.17382678326014847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17829448518598487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22451901965263452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2002018339568256,0.0,0.0,0.4694104067694169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4580078514467741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1860795244588449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Tradgear2012,2019/04/29,"20 drinks a day for the past 10 years, wondering what it’s like on the other side. I’m 40m, like the title says I drink a third to half a magnum every day, usually beginning mid afternoon. I haven’t had a sober day in 10 years and my health is starting to fail. It’s time for me to make some decisions. It’s pretty easy living here on the drinking side, if the wife pisses me off...drink, can’t fall asleep..drink, bored...drink. I could do this until I die and be ok. I’ve played with tapering off by extending the time I take my first drink by 1/2 hour every day but I have never made it past 7:00pm before the anxiety gets too high and my heart beat gets irregular . It just seams like I’m trying to climb over a mountain that is just too high and the presumptive rewards on the other side are just not worth it. My question is, for those of you who have crossed that mountain from severe dependence to sobriety; was it worth it? Are you happier sober? If you could give your former self any advice, what would it be? What is better about your life now that you are sober? I’m just trying to decide how to proceed from where I’m at and don’t want to be a downer on anyone. I’ve read your posts and you guys seem like an amazing group.",4.342890624999999,4.5372412578125,5.031250000000004,87.48875000000002,70.015625,8.43125,24.59375,8.278499904357787,1.1639109375,966,22,214,13,16,312,141,256,0.061,0.7959999999999999,0.14400000000000002,0.9709,0,0,7,0,0,0,33.0,0,8,0,6,11,11,1,0,16,1,21,8,2,4,1,30,36,11,1,6,8,1,0,4,0,1,2,1,0,2,20,7,4,0,5,6,2,3,5,2,0,3,3,1,20,9,27,27,1,40,0,1,0,0,16,15,1,7,25,129,40,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0959552931818964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06677615907605508,0.0,0.0751191220210914,0.0,0.0,0.06866042438637462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08355695262825773,0.0,0.0,0.08684574724734401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15680188504069892,0.0,0.0,0.25331133380179977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10191119976633917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6733579517482453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16546752056521846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08352485677660852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10260596405498784,0.0941978622249456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09722876750230096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10437699303569148,0.0,0.11636188206005395,0.0,0.2074974136312977,0.0,0.0,0.09670257291833777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06935823171462728,0.19189301916162907,0.0,0.0867082331001414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09291475016940708,0.06554611328917925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0757342550894325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18747701555173651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09404393655234584,0.09989990371942464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1100011889788449,0.0,0.0982218551207663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07808882958233122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08939329685137276,0.10243909480770663,0.11093271857783776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06950312606660057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07383063157268277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1145169172961274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13333630165333693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10814823028932614,0.0,0.05791812152450994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10648859468858277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06975511103139391,0.0,0.0,0.1264690844051688 alcoholism,Whatnopickles,2019/04/29,"Fear of living on own SO has been sober for 2 years, I’ve been by their side before way before rehab and after rehab. How do I support them with us moving into our own place? (We’ve been staying with our parents to save for a huge down payment on a home). The fear expressed is that when we are in our own home, they wont have the safety net of their parents. (Christian household where no one drinks, parents will stay up late waiting for them to come home so they don’t stay out late out of respect for them). Im not a drinker, so alcohol will not be bought. I just want to know the proper way to support them . Thanks!",2.7060937500000013,4.029003671875,3.4145000000000003,93.38050000000004,74.78125,5.432500000000001,23.7375,4.935628992294339,0.15250375000000016,482,14,105,1,10,152,81,128,0.081,0.7829999999999999,0.13699999999999998,0.7622,3,0,3,0,0,0,16.0,5,0,8,0,7,7,0,2,6,0,13,4,0,1,0,16,21,6,0,1,3,3,0,0,0,3,3,0,3,0,1,8,2,1,1,1,1,2,5,2,0,1,4,0,15,5,23,13,3,24,1,0,0,0,17,12,0,0,5,73,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13580234313216016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21625945002711916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10946209859402764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12448311834540132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2859848046564504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3823936031282478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13726059681465272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06983597261254053,0.0,0.2866876554321573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11220774701109884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13505844052302468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08610792272226793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.423298434095012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13276419147486454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40632858608075056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2884017660330405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11699170382128225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1528531183238005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07495092097972518,0.20172919323130847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08183081652275846 alcoholism,71hondascrambler,2019/04/29,"I’ve been drunk for almost half my life. The thought of being sober is something I can’t comprehend. A couple of years ago I was sober for a month then I got with some chick and felt like I had to drink to feel comfortable around her. She was a tattoo artist so she was “edgy”. I obviously never got sober again, I’m also not with her. Been through a couple more women since. I feel like with every break up it gets worse. I’m sure my alcoholism has been a factor in the break ups, but at the end of them they all seem to show that they are all very superficial. So that in return makes me head harder into my alcohol. All I do is go home from work immediately start drinking and try to make music. This might sound stupid but I can’t play video games anymore. I used to love them. I never go out because I feel like I’ll be the one that gets way more drunk than everyone and make a complete ass of myself. I can’t even begin to explain how fucking lonely this world feels. Growing up I didn’t have a conventional family. My father wasn’t there. My mom killed herself while also trying to take my brother with her. It feels like literally no one on this earth cares about you or that you exist. I feel like I hold the weight of the universe in my chest. Nothing makes sense anymore. I feel like when I drink it’s like the key to a magical door that transports me to another world where all I have are my thoughts. It’s just not a happy magical place. But for some reason it’s comfortable. I can’t even afford to have this habit. I don’t get paid shit at my dead end job, but for some reason I keep going back to it. I’ll wake up feeling like shit, regretful, but as soon as night hits and I’m feeling better it’s like I completely forget why I shouldn’t. I can’t do AA I’m not religious. I’m not knocking anyone that is, it’s just not my thing. I can’t afford rehab either. Everyone’s too busy living their lives. I almost feel like I’m on a motorcycle heading for a cliff but instead slowing down I just want to push harder into throttle. For anyone that reads this I don’t expect the internet to fix my problem. I think I just needed to type this out. The inside of my mind feels like faceless human silhouette banging at a glass cube they’re stuck in.",1.7957978930940293,3.789357703862663,3.303115489660556,90.24445474053844,79.25751072961373,6.124775653531017,20.891338275458452,7.1686216300943375,0.4927957081545067,1774,48,378,22,44,583,229,466,0.127,0.74,0.133,-0.5612,3,2,6,0,0,0,40.0,0,2,5,2,22,27,5,0,21,0,32,19,7,8,8,79,80,21,2,6,17,3,13,11,0,2,4,1,2,3,22,13,8,2,19,11,1,6,19,8,1,3,16,14,58,19,55,59,10,50,1,2,0,3,22,23,4,8,29,241,80,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060912692087320974,0.14687326344407672,0.13761853134535482,0.0,0.0,0.10990450870700444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07205484068734065,0.0,0.0,0.13629584801453634,0.0960958141972096,0.0,0.0,0.061171913254846125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05283845277931915,0.0,0.04188870743964435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06077382178950477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07006066149979158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1440950836796704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15206615406667984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20194690400840232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12172416819517715,0.0,0.0,0.09077269508833292,0.0,0.057896292711612014,0.13132239010787178,0.0,0.0,0.06477944001907511,0.0,0.3821942707651718,0.3927264646856776,0.06597824894448147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06352694336955811,0.10770400575156897,0.0,0.1171588594488078,0.0,0.10991711303350296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07314958486999855,0.0,0.0,0.14104512234977534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06892786864132351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06819014356674184,0.061078042565778014,0.07602420289496048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04853622598070106,0.3692834643808388,0.0,0.12135518141383697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06201897891725525,0.0,0.18347416813334388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07289694156966188,0.0693836899310525,0.08047948633252128,0.05484854941367142,0.0,0.0,0.05095213044158183,0.10599621208986323,0.0,0.0,0.06448542133412855,0.0,0.06593496804342741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09312763923595996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07179371732728901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06575204415131175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0687347130763109,0.0,0.0,0.14130322692550604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06255657259242221,0.0,0.0,0.14107221431224073,0.056842682504489615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05290102443188915,0.0,0.0,0.048637621659870615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06476412753981929,0.0,0.05166596854795365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04565193511169802,0.0440305134709655,0.0,0.10910584329056476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09330746630197684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059348662647809435,0.0,0.056697993487186064,0.040530546485925904,0.054543655614596134,0.0,0.08367771890831133,0.0,0.0,0.06200560795254517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050026151958848464,0.0,0.07002759433402743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044250926735831767 alcoholism,Speedracer3991,2019/04/29,"Need some support I’m 25 years old with a beautiful wife and son and another baby on the way. I’m probably the last person most would expect to be an alcoholic, I’ve got a lot of friends, I’m successful in a challenging career field, and I hold it together pretty well. I squandered college sports and a promising contract as a fitness model. I use to meticulously count my macros to fit in the alcohol. I need some help, I feel like there’s no one in my life to talk to about this. My wife is an enabler and I just really wanna feel good about myself again. I just picked up so many beer cans it made me sick to my stomach and it’s just off of the last two days alone. I haven’t even been able to make it threw a day of sobriety and after reading this posts I’m all in.",1.9455291005291,3.6009733765432124,3.7092768959435642,89.07888888888891,77.58024691358024,7.344620811287477,23.917107583774253,8.192908349453996,1.2902366843033508,605,20,133,11,14,203,105,162,0.045,0.74,0.215,0.9789,0,1,3,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,3,10,8,0,0,12,0,6,6,1,4,1,28,20,9,0,5,3,3,2,1,1,1,4,0,0,1,6,8,3,1,2,3,0,1,2,0,1,2,4,2,14,8,23,14,5,20,0,0,0,0,7,9,0,4,9,84,20,5,0.16833693950541376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3598019875978685,0.0,0.17434630156292422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1765159586395674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21712679962689765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11118496091983794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702324291460694,0.12025994321797852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13005670188404947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14119303816514192,0.13463442839456052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11283270216008515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27443414665786964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11890135868741628,0.08224092561509269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1431140461815794,0.0,0.15928448237694107,0.1123662142776214,0.1706672351310755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2496394153072977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1766413006897607,0.0,0.1140694668031051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1469853225176837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16122025541820262,0.17125918569917353,0.1814956923501152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1683824938719522,0.0,0.1078409539608554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910267640677579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13530285548451418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1644407295828059,0.0,0.0,0.14538906728989412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13361802713982512,0.0,0.0,0.1513551250690778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11958173200190107,0.0,0.0,0.10840346989812892 alcoholism,Exhumate,2019/04/29,What made you stop? I’m probably drunk right now but what made you stop? I am stupidly from my actions facing a felony charge of DUI. I do care about other people and feel horrible for what I did. I do care about my own family and what I’ve done to them. But I still have to drink why I dunno. 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My SO finished inpatient rehab 5 months ago. Since then, he hasn't had longer than a 12 day stretch of sobriety. He drank hours after he left rehab. After this past week, I can safely say he's in the darkest place he's ever been. He started naltrexone a couple months ago but doesn't take it or hides it when he knows he wants to drink. He started drinking at work. He's been bouncing back and forth between our house and his parents' house because I can't stop letting him back. He says he's really ready for treatment this time, but who knows if that's true. I've asked him to come up with a plan for himself. He has been calling inpatient rehab, IOPs, and psychiatrists. He asked me what I think he should do, but I really don't know the answer. His mom is basically trying to force him into rehab. She's a mess, understandably. I'm just having a hard time trying to balance him, his parents, and my own needs. I personally see inpatient as 30 days of guaranteed sobriety-and then what? Is it stupid to tell him that I think an IOP might be a good option this time around? He needs help, but it seems like everyone disagrees on what's best. Ultimately it is up to him, and I can only hope that if he really, truly wants to get sober it won't really matter what he chooses. 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I was seeking advice on how to quit. I had been drinking excessively for 4 years (at my worst, which was about 2 and half months ago, I was consuming close to a handle of New Amsterdam Gin a day. I ended up switching over to 8% beer due and was consuming roughly 10 to 12 a day. I started to get minor pains in my upper abdomen/liver area but it was intermittent. All of a sudden I woke up one morning (Monday, Feb 11th) and was in immense pain in that same area. I went to the emergency room and after getting a CT scan they diagnosed me with severe acute pancreatitis. I spent the next 16 days in the hospital, got another CT scan as well as an MRI (with contrast). The MRI showed a pseudo cyst that surrounded my pancreas as well as fatty liver disease (which they said was minor). My lipase levels when I first got admitted was 1,670 and by the time I was released it was around 450. I was on a strict clear liquid diet while in the hospital and ended up feeling much better about a week in. I have now been out of the hospital for 4 days and am still on a strict water only diet with TPN providing all of my necessary nutrition. Has anyone dealt with severe pancreatitis due to alcohol abuse? If so, what was your recovery time in terms of being able to eat again? I know it's a slow process in terms of what you can eat at first compared to what you can eat 3-4 months after treatment. Also, I dont plan on drinking anymore as I already wanted to quit prior to this happening and this was the wake up call I needed. I have now been sober for 20 days and I'm extremely happy about leading a life alcohol free. I'm just posting to get any of your experiences with severe acute pancreatitis, any responses would be much appreciated, thanks! 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This is in no way an advocacy of an action plan for a safe or successful alcohol detox plan. The professional world largely frowns on the tapering concept. This is merely a means for me to keep track of, and share, my plan and progress with alcohol use. So... # Alcohol detox and withdrawals can be very dangerous and fatal. Professional help and the care of a physician is recommended. **Post Two:** Note: I decided to turn this into a running blog of sorts to track my progress and create accountability. I will provide updates below with some details. At the time I wrote this, I had been up for about two hours after not getting much sleep--though that has been the case for weeks, most nights little to no sleep. Note 2: I realize now that most of what I've experienced lately would be mild withdrawal (like an overnight situation), but significantly more so a compounded/perpetual hangover that has gone on for a very long time. **Original Post:** Not super easy to compose in my current state, but: As an alcoholic, I've come to realize that the greatest struggles are: ""I'm going to drink, but when and how much is too much"" and ""Am I experiencing hangover or withdrawal and all the complications associated with the two."" I found myself stuck in my old ways after a three month stint of sobriety. It probably took 2-4 months to get back where I was, but I'm in the pickle once again--and have been for close to eight months. After experiencing long periods of 5-8 drink daily averages of drinks on weekdays and with averages more in the 6-12 drink daily range on weekends, I found myself stuck in a long loop of 8-15+ drink range over the course of about four weeks. Now I am attempting to regain control and I find myself playing an old game of ""Am I drinking because my body and mind are used to it being present"" or ""Am I drinking to alleviate and, inevitably, perpetuate a hangover."" It is a really nasty combination to overcome; especially while maintaining control of daily life, family and a job. Of which, I have pretty much lost all. What little hope I have left hangs in the balance of the immediate action in which I take in the following few days. I have finally realized, not for the first time unfortunately, that I'm ultimately experiencing the perpetual hangover. Yes, withdrawal is cause for concern; but the fact that significant symptoms really should not arise for 6-12+ hours, it only makes sense to feel as miserable as possible for at least 6 hours and then go back to the ""have a drink to prolong withdrawal symptom"" concept. I know that it is in my best interest (and a fantastical final goal) to cease drinking all together. The last time I was sober, I successfully tapered in just five days. The difference last time, is that I finally came clean about my problem and had the ""support"" of those around me. I'm now trying to keep it a secret again and solve the problem completely by myself. So, I originally planned to follow a taper schedule of two less drinks each day starting with 8 or 10 with a goal of reaching 4 and going from there. I would prefer to do a long taper from there so I don’t experience the Post-Acute-Withdrawal symptoms that I did last time--look them up, I never felt right. So, at this point in the day recently where I have had 4 or 5 drinks I have had two. My goal for the day started at 8, but I think I can do 6. The difficulty comes in the form of interacting with others and accomplishing things. Without it in my system from time to time, I don't feel capable or normal. Did I mention I was an alcoholic? I just also thought to mention that beside the hangover/withdrawal conundrum comes the insomnia and total lack of appetite twist that is present; not fun. I'm not really looking for the suggestion of going the ""professional"" or medical route. Just sharing my story for my sake and others. **And, Updates:** Strategies I have attempted to employ during this hangover/""withdrawal"" nightmare and will continue to use for now: * When you are hungry, eat. Appetite is hard to come by. Just take in what you can when you can't eat something substantial. * Don't eat a big meal too late; supposedly eating too close to the time you sleep can create poor sleep. A snack before bed may curb late night hunger. I've read a good suggestion is a handful of nuts. * Don't have any drinks 2-3 hours prior to the time you plan on sleeping; this can interrupt your sleep prematurely. * Try not to stack drinks on top of each other. I.e. if you had a drink less than two hours ago. Day 1: Started tracking times and drinks in a journal. 10 drinks consumed. Due also to the lack of sleep in the week prior, this was not a productive day. Managed to go grocery shopping out of necessity. Day 2: Original Post. Pulled off the six hours of no drinks following the first two. Mild to moderate back pain present. Thank you in advance for anyone's participation.",4.9655101635248675,6.820771698529412,5.8134317510788085,76.29691006132184,69.93487394957984,9.347626618214854,30.72200772200773,9.77003265185595,3.1240516238928007,4035,170,728,100,74,1322,397,952,0.087,0.82,0.09300000000000001,-0.1033,3,0,26,0,0,0,157.0,1,8,1,25,37,25,1,2,67,1,68,50,8,11,6,126,121,56,1,12,27,0,5,1,0,7,18,2,2,0,39,45,31,6,16,24,3,22,18,8,0,14,26,12,63,17,134,84,24,169,1,2,1,0,21,50,0,14,89,495,102,13,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0316211959091843,0.26685865085145144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057053987962719335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.024258275483186462,0.037405344526772716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.024942786656239745,0.0,0.0,0.031755763649358545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08228901118725057,0.0,0.021745402787856933,0.0,0.030354360050616768,0.0,0.037435705555731405,0.0,0.0,0.03962370098598575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04079942000398888,0.036370119705694204,0.036645109641762125,0.0,0.1229135448999824,0.03740155552518745,0.0,0.08001866676154147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18404461123254176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03726978931419369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5940669108157091,0.0,0.1460060012625465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03489419359968739,0.03362851474030984,0.0,0.03607380721218712,0.0,0.034250844349935555,0.11723124285215787,0.032603685717492864,0.060685400700359125,0.0,0.07822531099766017,0.0,0.0,0.037274437115032505,0.0,0.12163978048504205,0.029920094919763482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03195522680973793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.023910280581501197,0.0,0.0,0.035430479620030084,0.2107792079907584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035399090319440565,0.0634140663805591,0.0,0.0,0.01960447283945501,0.08723265492336711,0.12071916830404768,0.0,0.03875787974545633,0.0,0.025196284351182933,0.017427603603335978,0.07150570263021537,0.0,0.12627487001034338,0.05991121935721019,0.0,0.03894034994420935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.023811427536736263,0.0,0.0,0.03885741335419708,0.0,0.035935923755822406,0.0,0.0,0.03601868801114097,0.0,0.0854194750015962,0.0,0.1048924967285208,0.0,0.02751255012108289,0.0,0.0,0.06695176559819832,0.03495111901325597,0.0,0.0,0.07486381130500991,0.03798966024142562,0.0,0.027130266600350672,0.03795766739091797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03372169843068867,0.04021497309446578,0.17082022625857868,0.03629138630764106,0.03846059560169093,0.06826683235596949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03568178902406465,0.0,0.06855745057995143,0.0,0.03522193042356982,0.0,0.0,0.030463808925228437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040096975060498016,0.24988528339101276,0.0,0.0,0.02746215279665017,0.0,0.0,0.07574676362319338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0372922614193839,0.0,0.0,0.04048031678755707,0.0,0.11123102263260548,0.05364201309476063,0.0,0.0,0.032842109792483004,0.0,0.0,0.02369898184324138,0.022857264138834318,0.03504769214656585,0.028319691079996143,0.22880780073767146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0396330552414062,0.04843807703482818,0.03880104006203987,0.2439254520769407,0.0,0.0,0.09242781549586623,0.0,0.05886649557848556,0.0,0.056629761735690225,0.08584210649516813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034386665791467694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0506809233466855,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,User42517,2019/03/03,"The Boredom/Restlessness at night Was using booze to get tired at night for about 3 years. It has been a problem previously but it hadn't become a necessity and I wasn't drinking every night. That changed last year and I decided to go cold turkey last week. The boredom/restlessness and loss of pleasure in simple stuff is driving me nuts. 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Hey guys. I’ve been drinking every day (literally every day) for almost a year. I’m young and I don’t want this habit to stick. It’s expensive and I can feel it taking a toll on my health. I’ve decided to stop drinking for a month, I’ll probably go longer than that in all honesty because I know it’ll feel great the longer I stop. Tomorrow I have a family event and my whole family is going to be drinking and I know it’ll be hard to be around it since I just made this choice. Any tips to stay sober during these types of events or even just in general? I’m notorious for telling myself I deserve a drink or “one won’t kill me”. I really want to uphold this decision I’ve made. this is an itch I refuse to scratch now. 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I have been sober for at least a year but now I'm drinking again not as much or as often but I'm struggling I want to drink so much it physically hurts me. Its 1.22am here in UK and all I can think about is I want a drink. I cant let anyone know I have failed they will be so disappointed in me. ,-1.8520695970695973,0.004769571428571595,1.1125549450549492,100.59286172161177,95.04395604395604,3.9124542124542128,13.077838827838828,5.46131890053228,-1.3438798534798535,305,5,80,2,12,106,61,91,0.21600000000000005,0.752,0.032,-0.9620000000000001,0,0,3,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,1,9,4,0,1,5,0,10,3,0,0,1,14,18,10,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,5,2,3,0,3,3,0,2,2,4,0,1,1,1,11,0,10,13,4,9,0,3,0,0,2,4,0,2,3,60,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1563905419485321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6573144944250716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271129769549178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2394361306274246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2458389412724789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22871082256045455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32883644148887203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15156000385833734,0.17010597714331904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1778659903088341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2338213870904756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14331437683362466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26384475466937385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14403179725891682 alcoholism,BugsAunt,2019/03/03,Fiancé at a detox facility He had almost 2 years clean. He relapsed. I guess I just needed to disclose that I am very sad. ,-0.407,1.8086650000000049,2.4235000000000007,88.81925000000004,99.0,4.1000000000000005,18.25,5.985473137389443,0.015200000000000102,95,3,19,1,4,33,22,25,0.142,0.7559999999999999,0.102,-0.2433,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,2,3,0,2,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,2,1,10,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5095736865379478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5605929536208952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3773309407135397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4198824864373205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3277045271310338 alcoholism,ree777,2018/12/10,"Im scared and want to quit alcohol Ive been drinking heavily for year and half everyday. I want to quit cold turkey but Im afraid of what might happen, seziures, coughing up blood etc. Its been said not quit cold turkey, What can I do, how do I quit ?",1.432500000000001,3.4037064807692365,3.216000000000001,90.529,80.34615384615384,7.236923076923077,21.93846153846154,8.238735603445708,1.144841538461539,195,6,43,4,5,65,35,52,0.040999999999999995,0.91,0.049,-0.1655,0,0,2,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,4,1,2,0,2,0,0,7,4,1,1,0,8,11,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,3,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,1,3,3,4,0,5,7,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,25,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18971007985532887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17389760572072094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19797670270671375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15697636730648826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3834943960776366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18831588925176188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.755238325394788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1688578878170501,0.0,0.17772397983143778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20940647821454028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1143141596758128 alcoholism,Bluffing,2018/12/10,"Brother-in-law Looking for Self-Help Book My brother-in-law was just admitted to rehab a couple of days ago and he's asked for an uplifting, self-help book to lift his spirits and help him want to change. Do any of you have one that you'd recommend I send him? Any help you could offer would be tremendously appreciated. Thank you!",1.4636363636363647,4.0431743787878816,2.8244696969697003,89.50670454545454,85.51515151515152,6.330303030303031,21.88636363636364,7.645422480735847,1.0634909090909097,263,9,54,5,8,85,48,66,0.0,0.7390000000000001,0.261,0.9356,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,7,1,0,0,0,7,12,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,9,1,7,7,0,3,1,0,1,0,14,0,0,0,2,29,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19201401588723904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29460801592723457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2025035569466352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2291474276631781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17294754926259112,0.2396777413893727,0.0,0.13969721846803174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5807634864450192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18190004354228065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14678231569670516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4519484033262134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19942779550702175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1277637341280304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1538753886573268,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,rainbowpetals,2018/12/10,"Does anyone else feel manic after a few drinks (alone), especially with stimulus (e.g. music). If I have a few drinks alone now and especially when I listen to music, I not only engage with it a lot, but also fantasise myself dancing a lot, then things like disappearing from my life or going on a massive bender. Feel pretty manic and unhinged, but not enough to act on it and put myself to bed when I'm exhausted by enough booze /my brain. My baseline lately is quite depressed. Does anyone else get this? Should I speak to a doctor? Bipolar runs in the family. 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I got out a year ago and I feel like I cant stop. My job now is not as active and I have gained 35 lbs. Earlier this year I was drinking a 12 pack of beer after work everyday, 7 days a week. My dad got concerned and so did my wife. I slowed down a little because of the pressure but I still drink around 5 days a week. I usually go straight from work the the packy and get beer and go home and drink and go to bed. I feel like I have a problem. I dont go thru physical withdrawals but I cant wait to get out of work and have some beers. If I dont I have no idea what to do with myself. I started working out and i cant commit because I'd rather get drunk. I never drive or get violent. My wife says I need to stop but it doesnt really cause any problems in our relationship. I limit my self to 2 24oz beers and 2 nips of jim beam each night. I hate it. I dont want to do it anymore. I've canceled plans to go drink. I stay home and dont go anywhere. I have no friends, and no hobbies. I feel like I'm walking a narrow path with this. I cannot go to a rehab or a doctor because of my job. And I dont have the time off. And I'm ashamed. I need to unfuck myself.",-0.9464893617021276,0.7553690319148956,1.884510638297872,98.29400000000004,87.40425531914894,4.894751773049647,19.683687943262417,6.079149491110277,-0.23835546099290816,945,29,243,8,30,330,132,282,0.13,0.765,0.105,-0.8614,3,0,9,0,0,0,26.0,1,0,0,7,6,11,2,2,16,0,23,12,0,1,2,49,49,23,0,8,8,3,3,3,1,0,2,1,3,1,6,21,10,4,5,10,0,9,15,7,0,0,5,4,40,4,28,44,3,42,0,0,0,0,8,11,0,5,24,146,46,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07247557946137648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055599812778333146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08108425538697674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07278400786408289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.149520973735204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08399035771259339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10545726894810464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08368513920399423,0.0,0.0,0.4791123573371294,0.4004698743642863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12402140427847685,0.1752287400369034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06316781075692975,0.0,0.17086554453963446,0.0,0.3252638684227861,0.0,0.13078237370308146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08072137676449218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16402450949487415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09229743526522106,0.0,0.0,0.16226897873662605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11983186911106895,0.08194530731540912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0695096896576402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12124846405578385,0.06305858950472196,0.0,0.0,0.07672650999076093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.234700716911587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05237774657486943,0.0,0.0,0.0877799723108099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06501907814002521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08529383197981451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11574073292866525,0.08714560923668012,0.06529388718115693,0.13671055610334573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052388703707521835,0.0,0.0,0.04767509280044602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09004742769864955,0.0,0.04822434769822255,0.0,0.13116637393665626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23808991047336114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10530191482211264 alcoholism,Areayedee,2018/12/10,"Is this alcohol poisoning? Tonight my boyfriend woke up screaming and shivering because he was cold. He had a blanket over him and I gave him two more and a sweater and he was still shivering very hard and screaming to turn on the heater. He eventually started throwing up profusely and just now went back to sleep. I ask if this is alcohol poisoning because he drinks around a 12 pack of beers everyday, this happened once earlier this year and the doctor told him to quit drinking but obviously he didn’t. Is this a form of alcohol poisoning? I would be happy to take any advice. Thank you. 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Stepdad is avoiding the problem. My mom was a wonderful parent when is was young. My friends used to comment on how cool she was. She talked to us like we were people, she listened and I idolized her. Now she’s lonely, my step dad works too much, and she keeps trying to fill her life with animals and alcohol. She’s probably depressed, and has had some episodes of just crying for a whole day. After calling me on such a day some weeks ago I got her an appointment with a psycologist, she went, twice, and now she’s «happy» and doesn’t need the therapist any more. She works, and does her job well, but I’m quite sure that she drinks as soon as she gets inside at the end of the day. She never drives when my stepdad and her go to their cabin, probably because she’s drunk. Some years ago I thought she was showing signs of dementia, she kept repeating questions and forgetting appointments, but it turns out she was just drunk. I have talked to her a couple of times, I’ve been kind and empathetic, but yesterday I lost it. My brother went there to have dinner, she was clearly not sober, and he was sad about it. I sent me a message and told me and I got angry and sent her a long message about what I think of her drinking, and that I’ve had enough. Apparently she said something along «what the fuck does she know» and my brother ended up leaving, came to mye house and got dinner here instead. I sent a message to my stepdad appologizing for making a mess of their evening, but also told him this is my moms problem, but it’s affecting us and our relationship with her and I’m done pretending. Also sent a message to my aunt, my moms sister, so she knew my version in case my mom was going to call her. I’m not sure what to do now. I’m supposed to take my mom to a concert on wednesday, but I’m not sure right now. I love my mom, but I don’t like her at the moment. TL;DR: Mom has become an alcoholic the last few years. Yesterday she got mad at my brother for telling me she was drunk, because I sent an angry message to her telling her to get her shit together. Don’t want to be around her anymore when she’s drunk.",3.152053402005965,4.601367905529958,4.1518297641637325,88.03135809162376,73.86175115207374,7.225698021143942,27.05042016806723,7.827709963407826,1.4703417728381676,1677,62,354,23,34,543,198,434,0.126,0.78,0.09300000000000001,-0.9541,3,3,6,0,0,0,52.0,4,0,2,4,24,21,3,1,22,1,27,15,1,4,5,65,67,35,0,4,12,15,0,2,1,0,4,3,0,0,9,27,11,3,5,9,0,13,7,11,1,1,33,4,76,10,44,33,9,53,0,4,0,2,86,11,2,5,31,238,85,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12022292711837808,0.2174120003762444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10845885551505326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04611465192221908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0672515252605289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06036727500392245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08267543017767341,0.07489329676958299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384877678406078,0.07755914279299915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07503295918740015,0.07448856681989355,0.13119986400668635,0.0,0.05840658717783859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11868590500511325,0.06939547045518192,0.0,0.1328603672481468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12012304250561985,0.07006817635144999,0.0,0.04478934821292748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0523915722047104,0.06269132771067794,0.07085819824033843,0.0,0.07707852303640653,0.0,0.2169425880955272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07824622598402553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06729318947571658,0.060274639063663815,0.0,0.07061601784813164,0.03726783636110777,0.05527603038435662,0.0,0.07180337604831345,0.0,0.0,0.0478977940288207,0.06625927507198738,0.0,0.0,0.060011702821646175,0.0,0.0,0.07402507588188784,0.0,0.06120319860134206,0.0,0.045265200050547835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6353670532905683,0.0,0.0,0.049849802588407884,0.05028192035760834,0.05230098376967104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07529747293843447,0.0,0.0,0.047012472265184437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14622613879725266,0.1297743202772176,0.0,0.0,0.07596523386456132,0.07212666963984446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07280497301301134,0.0,0.05791128663641379,0.06450497376067796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06960829491567898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05220517914103463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1917367149183773,0.0,0.050986368837028964,0.10900982755875656,0.1185417820003624,0.0,0.0,0.07873524297302421,0.0,0.04345134840220345,0.0,0.05383534776014714,0.039541865340755405,0.0,0.0,0.1295950120897395,0.0,0.04604006298368011,0.07376024968968703,0.0,0.0,0.16313956225916473,0.05856800692581746,0.0,0.0,0.03999741900473122,0.0,0.05439489249814222,0.0,0.06097135210055705,0.12572526083345734,0.0,0.07570994973116968,0.0,0.0,0.07353948693211312,0.0987362438740977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0873377248251674 alcoholism,em_uh_liii,2018/12/10,"going to my first AA meeting tomorrow. i’m 22 years old. i’m scared to go, i’ve blacked out drunk-made a fool of myself more times than i would like to admit. i’m disgusted with myself & i want to change. i know i need help & i’m tired of being this way. i would appreciate advice. thank you. 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At first I was all about it. For years I was the family member who saw the problem and I was ostracized because of it. I would not make light of it and I refused to enable it so I became the enemy. I basically left, stopped seeing my family. Nothing dramatic. Just quit making an effort and they did the same. My sibling met with me and explained that he/she sees the problem and wants to do something about it. I was very supportive. I really did want to do it. We have been researching what goes into an intervention and trying to get a loved one to go to rehab. We talked about writing letters and sharing our feelings. I am realizing that all the things you are supposed to say, I don't feel. From what I can tell, an intervention is supposed to be supportive but also set boundaries. I can and have set my boundaries. I am sitting here trying to think of the supportive things to say ""I love you"" but I don't. ""Thank you for being a good dad and I want you to be a good grand dad to my son"" I don't believe that. I don't think he will succeed. I view this as closure for my family. I support them. But I don't love my father anymore. I don't think he can kick the habit. I do know that I can control myself and not say the wrong thing at the intervention. I have managed to keep my mouth shut about a lot of things for a lot of years. I am finally in a place where I am not often sad or angry at him. I still have feelings but what he does/says to me has minimal effect. The most honest thing I can say at his intervention would be ""I want you to get better for them."" Is there value is having someone like me there? Should I be there for my family and just lie if need be? If not, how do I tell my family no. 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I went on vacation and ended up drinking again. The binge lasted about 2 weeks. During that time I actually ended up getting so drunk I pissed the bed. I’ve never been more embarrassed. Several years of drinking 1.5 pints of more of 100 proof a day, and that’s never happened. I’m kicking myself, obviously, but I’m back on the wagon. Also, 3 days sober, and holy moly. The alcohol shits have never hit me like this. What is up with my body?",1.5761781076066759,4.0375878979591855,3.4171985157699436,86.43104823747683,83.28571428571429,6.012615955473097,21.153988868274574,7.348242739294969,0.8849061224489794,386,12,75,6,11,129,70,98,0.121,0.843,0.037000000000000005,-0.8442,0,0,3,0,1,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,5,4,2,1,5,0,4,7,3,0,5,11,10,7,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,4,5,4,0,0,3,0,1,3,3,0,0,3,0,7,1,11,6,2,22,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,17,45,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.17790154288513305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19482658822074586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1457877353533161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14017984268154285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20249766368087868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4702817109490429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35717529873121123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3229328992543878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09524585340328903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16121004269742634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14860137055268807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08906409359590528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4218102031957702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20595062964625846,0.18713152797659968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10630241251023366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14623256265120002,0.0,0.0,0.16899681419808796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1173972291400866 alcoholism,alternateacctanony,2019/07/15,"I think I need help So, I’m on mobile, apologize for that. I’ll make this as short as I can. Over the course of a few months, since my sister died, I’ve been drinking. Not just here and there, but every single day. It’s gotten to a point where I can no longer feel functional in the morning. Even if I have one beer before bed I feel disgusting the next day (but alas! I keep drinking). Even right now I’m drinking, it’s numbed some of the pain but I think it’s starting to become a problem, I’m just not exactly sure and I need help to determine if I’m doing this too much. I still have my job, and function like a normal human. When I get off work all I can think about is relaxing with a beer. My mother and father were alcoholics, they drank many more beers each night than I. How do I know if this is an issue? I hate feeling like garbage but I love that I feel nothing after a beer. Do I reach out to a group for help? Where do I go? Who do I talk to? I don’t have many friends. Just my son and husband. If you can help me, I would love some feedback. Thank you.",-0.6367896401144435,1.4811473056768598,1.2992621593133578,99.81213973799127,91.22707423580786,4.381328113235958,16.630176178286405,5.935793293072707,-0.6435175124228278,819,20,197,7,29,268,131,229,0.12300000000000001,0.6829999999999999,0.19399999999999998,0.9549,1,0,8,0,0,0,32.0,0,2,1,1,16,13,2,0,12,0,18,13,0,2,3,42,43,18,1,9,13,5,4,2,1,1,3,0,1,1,9,8,9,1,8,8,0,1,4,5,0,1,4,4,30,8,20,38,8,21,0,0,0,2,20,10,0,6,12,129,39,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13448774003899475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13898354565314291,0.10708300028343018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16231646066590044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306050147857236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3698342651493274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16623603688532304,0.0,0.10602803234348422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2545197132461733,0.08990216028867527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09722587710026703,0.0,0.06574769742300372,0.0,0.07151939417399268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12424376533910335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3373992504557859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13134724493620914,0.12487961506646235,0.11185491107174393,0.0,0.0,0.06915994167306465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12296092412975222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22715617855889886,0.0,0.08400108246108115,0.25516980497767594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10044656572733472,0.0,0.09250897760799327,0.18662176389563329,0.0,0.0,0.1338353032519871,0.11809499397405923,0.1232992782902252,0.12074961274459935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08527437494285604,0.0,0.1339056696040419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11896217336124695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12041461615947698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10746911001697486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10409850953837736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08907222001502356,0.0,0.1004982660377768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11860540093117655,0.0,0.0,0.10114771947992884,0.0,0.11585919276019932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2419050592576239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09161509674433793,0.0,0.0,0.08939515311882443,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,SafeStatus,2019/07/15,"A totally superficial reason to stop drinking, but so far it’s worked. What is it? I stepped on a scale and discovered that I’ve gained 15 pounds since last December. That was three days ago. Maybe I’ll have a beer when I get down to 190, but until then, nope. Not ready for dad bod.",1.2688505747126442,3.441326,2.421379310344829,94.91988505747128,82.10344827586206,6.625287356321839,20.011494252873558,7.793537801064563,0.5421287356321836,220,6,51,4,6,70,49,58,0.03,0.867,0.10400000000000001,0.6164,0,0,2,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,0,3,2,0,1,1,7,4,7,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,2,1,1,2,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,6,3,1,11,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,7,29,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3331816259171363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24240181723303825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3682045866018388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19637393852528945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3063801243097437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3776068915783024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3864517991331552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31091939511042505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3142399529680389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27363418159441816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,suicidetimeeeeeeeeee,2019/07/15,"I need some help. Well, I've done it. I've fucked up literally the only stable thing in my life. After a month of weekend benders, he no longer has the patience to be with me anymore. I have lied and binged and pushed him away to the point where he has left. I'm 24. 5 years of our life together. Gone. I live in a different country away from my family to be with him. I've broken him. I've broken his trust, he is the only stability I have. My phone died on a night out and I didn't get home until 11am the next morning. Sure I was only crashing on a friend's couch but I didn't get in touch. I didn't try to go home as soon as my phone died. I promised him the night before I would be back by 6pm the day previous. I wasn't. I was out doing shots with strangers who I had decided were my best friends, while my real best friend was at home sobbing due to my betrayal. He knows it's mental illness. He knows all my issues. He knows this is how I have been raised. His family have told him I'm not worth it. We were supposed to go on vacation to the south of France and Italy. That's gone out the window. They were right. I'm not worth anything.",-0.19356566820276555,1.8412294475806448,1.9005760368663616,97.21193548387095,87.18548387096773,5.155760368663595,17.72811059907834,6.5431188927421005,-0.2717873271889406,885,22,213,10,28,295,134,248,0.131,0.7440000000000001,0.125,0.1411,1,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,2,0,1,2,6,11,1,0,13,0,26,4,0,1,2,25,41,10,2,2,3,0,1,0,3,1,3,0,5,0,7,11,0,0,4,1,3,5,7,2,1,0,16,1,33,9,32,21,4,36,0,1,0,1,24,18,2,1,13,129,40,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12150326901121028,0.0,0.0,0.1008204928642625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23021623256570686,0.09420748813268368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10425236515735677,0.0,0.2571466398244887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0790128913254294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2543051960961936,0.12800347885582009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1253767328281582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2309949669543503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2839674163603845,0.11326436428009333,0.12801944177611949,0.0,0.1392576968804591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08212010722811698,0.0,0.3686815770794228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1278752080653209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20199529732482216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13311434091215946,0.0,0.1730738010887331,0.0,0.0,0.1081841557760223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12346763511358867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09779135830422676,0.0,0.0,0.09084429939608316,0.0,0.0,0.13029749697563098,0.229946534976655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2795375480543588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1158175238305176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13945039518607716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10462826845503956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11547018233318065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08139439951490482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11706959474488232,0.0,0.08318053956885313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11015688592269324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08703207905618993,0.0,0.0,0.0788964936717029 alcoholism,throwaway27484726196,2019/07/15,hallucinations dreams Okay i am freaking out. I am a bad alcoholic. It has been on and off for years. Recently I am trying to taper as I don’t really have insurance. I went from over a fifth a day plus some wine to ten beers yesterday and ten beers today. Twice now when I have tried to go to sleep I have these weird dreams where I am in my bed there is nothing different but I am seeing people. It feels so real. One time the person talked to me. Then I freak out and wake up. I don’t know what to do. Am I tapering to fast? I am so tired but am afraid to try and sleep.,-0.7374695121951227,1.384057463414635,1.7983689024390266,95.86145579268295,92.2520325203252,5.676626016260163,15.004573170731707,7.1686216300943375,-0.20013780487804844,440,9,106,8,16,150,79,123,0.124,0.8320000000000001,0.044000000000000004,-0.8837,1,0,4,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,6,6,0,1,4,1,17,8,3,0,0,13,22,12,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,4,7,4,0,2,5,0,2,2,5,0,4,2,2,15,1,19,20,1,20,0,0,1,0,2,8,0,1,10,77,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2238129755583695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17486217483642574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13506260880435922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2188058619332741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10589220687211344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11902176670953048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11509519254917787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2009501395298456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1419126500996063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14518979570332774,0.1828629275547909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2383729269576642,0.13416382135169266,0.0,0.2067831610292465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16688561039417854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41915499943917056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16832889050840008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12211813320875675,0.24070467179671964,0.19851160177561564,0.0,0.0,0.4265600392846709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.194140236150434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13486364164207354 alcoholism,DarthDeadpooly,2019/07/15,"Drunk Writing So I like to drink and then write. This night's composition surprised me. So this excerpt is about page four of a short story that I was writing. It is all fiction. After drinking, the story got bizarre. Apparently, I hate myself. (Still Drunk) Excerpt: The questions became more pertinent as the doctors declared me healthier and healthier. I was soon set for discharge from the hospital. What was to be done? What after this near death experience was to become of my life? Surly, I did not know the answer. I had a few inklings. I a few desires, but they all seemed so incredulous and silly that I hardly entertained them. Thought to myself, “Self #1: what do you want to do for a living?” “Self #2: I want to do something that brings me joy, happiness, respectability, and of course some money to boot.” “Self #1: You know that is not possible. You do not have any talent or skill.” “Self #2: I know. But, other people do it can’t I just dream or at least try to reach for the stars.” “Self #1: Oh, Silly, silly you. You will never achieve anything of that sort. Don’t get me wrong you will be successful, but never in those fields and never on those levels. Choose your battles wisely. Avoid certain failure and disaster.” “Self #2: Why does everyone call me silly. Why is failure so certain” “Self #1: Well the cosmos, the universe, the world, and the earth is stacked against you. It is a simple mathematical equation. You were made. You live. You suffer. And you die. That is your plan along with the rest of most of humanity. To believe anything else is simply a fairy tale that has never existed. Do yourself a favor: Live your life and die.” “Self #2: You know I always hate our conversations. You are the most pessimistic and depressed individual that I have ever encountered. If I can be very honest, I think you are the reason our marriage failed and that we are alcoholics. What do you think of those apples?” “Self #1: You have always blamed your weaknesses on me. But, there is some dark secret that you always refuse to admit. And that is that, I have never really been a person. Not to mention that you in your arrogant state that refuses any responsibility and is listlessly waiting for the end of the world does nothing to better himself.” “Self #2: I tried. I was heartbroken over my divorce. I could not think or move after she left me. I was paralyzed in mind, body, and even soul. You stupid son of a bitch. You think you know me and the hurt that I have gone through. Shut up and go home.” “Self #1: There you go again. You simpering fool. You blather on and on, but to no end. You are continually the victim. You do not accept the fact that the love of your life, your wife, ------ left you because you are and continue to be a blithering drunk. You have a tenuous grasp on reality. You offend friends, family, and those that you seemingly hold most dear with your drunken antics. If I were you, and I am, I would kill myself. You are a horrible human being that does nothing that services this world. Please delete your account and die. “Self #2: You know that I try. You know better than anyone that I have an addiction. I can’t stop. You know I want to be better. You know that without me you would not exist. I am you.” “Self #1: I hate being with you. Your are the very worst person in existence. Do you know how awful my life is being tied incessantly to your addicted ass? Every morning is pain. Every afternoon is worry. Every evening is doom. Then the same ol’ routine time and time again. Why will you not kill yourself?” “Self #2: You are awful. You know that I tried only halfheartedly once or twice. You know I was heartbroken after Robin Williams hung himself from a door, but still tried to die the same way with a belt. You know I could not go through with it. It hurt too much. Also, I was afraid of what my family and friends would think. I wanted to die, but could not accept the circumstances.” “Self #1: You fail at everything. Just get the courage and throw yourself in front of a car or a bus or something else. Just do it.” &#x200B; \_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_ I am okay no cause for concern. Maybe this text is a reason for others like myself not to drink.",1.9457567509005715,4.586328280856424,3.0172592833346923,88.63680737249805,83.57178841309823,5.833189783591994,21.887760353186533,7.233258080335977,0.8715478887354084,3221,106,627,48,93,1028,324,794,0.23199999999999998,0.6709999999999999,0.096,-0.9994,1,1,6,0,1,1,211.0,3,58,2,9,22,54,10,2,42,3,80,19,2,5,11,135,120,48,8,13,30,2,1,2,2,6,10,0,2,19,45,31,7,6,31,8,2,9,22,24,1,2,18,1,119,30,71,85,17,61,2,7,0,2,103,23,2,17,28,455,164,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09303722566339316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04560322808647952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03412466136293323,0.10651918751416886,0.04623492939080297,0.05185096588660576,0.05803663972820933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02983714823399357,0.0,0.07023058991850853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.026012362424904668,0.04712770346836212,0.0,0.04807656001199321,0.0,0.11321934537700708,0.0,0.04739880335714365,0.0,0.0,0.04357272772266479,0.0,0.0,0.043835742313045836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10220999496743688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03675320008391112,0.0,0.22143320561355395,0.0,0.0,0.043676444504862806,0.11202726502006907,0.04366811576904105,0.0,0.12540649685175856,0.0,0.0,0.07129370680674721,0.0,0.07558918315933326,0.0,0.0,0.056368706203819965,0.03859912945102854,0.10785861687731313,0.040774779347305626,0.038350705411861634,0.04174125534923291,0.08045444103934192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06593632769835997,0.0,0.04458855864293236,0.0,0.0727541836343836,0.0,0.03412857492734045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045424975588262764,0.03822559412921564,0.12638884631653413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04280334271134415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09136219151226456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0944201547215365,0.0,0.3048673114549238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09272617523761596,0.0,0.12056155256317833,0.041694618908664265,0.0,0.1130400704876793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03851300876596976,0.04037713426192036,0.0,0.0,0.042869606719595964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04308640202050288,0.0,0.0,0.04535342120114826,0.031368718105316724,0.0,0.1645557987508527,0.0,0.0,0.04004463860058111,0.0,0.08188957788642158,0.0,0.0,0.04544412537397495,0.0,0.03245386320858115,0.04540585477349311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029583286459463825,0.07451882334380293,0.0,0.046840874898288136,0.0,0.04810609696432893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047802235579083585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02733667845124244,0.08774753329142157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07769369540363934,0.6677406564370607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06570174656994479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06815558573722152,0.03567557557812917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13671198566005766,0.0,0.03387668075504982,0.04976459535753462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448569184125444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07041748697921105,0.10067584596544926,0.03387092666610357,0.0,0.0,0.038367115960999634,0.0,0.11551411669329732,0.0,0.0,0.041134138644294216,0.0,0.0,0.04333533290129366,0.0,0.09093856933698496,0.04665496695917985,0.05185096588660576,0.0 alcoholism,patlechriss,2019/07/15,"Sober 15 years til last week Hello, about fifteen years ago went to therapy stop drinking. Last week went on vacation restart drinking, cannot stop til then, i feel like shit...",3.17625,6.225134125000004,2.2800000000000007,92.965,82.75,5.7,26.75,7.1686216300943375,1.4469749999999997,140,6,26,2,4,40,25,32,0.13,0.7959999999999999,0.07400000000000001,-0.2263,0,0,2,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,3,4,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,2,0,2,1,1,0,0,2,1,1,1,5,2,0,15,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,13,8,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19291363543475068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.426384169232526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1100389958884206,0.1554731194718475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3547908948631107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10632179686343908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22339148697278974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3638926459947476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24887599664753526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3491352843394529,0.0,0.0,0.4034857196495075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2802899315541174 alcoholism,imsoscared123456,2019/07/15,"College student coming to terms. I went from nearly sober to alcohol abuser in two years. Lost and scared. Throwaway because I’m ashamed. TW self harm It’s late here and I’m typing this and realizing all of this stuff because I can’t sleep. I can’t sleep because for once, I’m sober at night. In May I finished my sophomore year at a big state (read: party) school. I only drank very occasionally in high school but started partying almost immediately after going to college. At first it was pretty normal, going out once or twice a week, but I started chilling and hanging out with people and drinking almost every night after a while. Even still I wasn’t drinking that much and could moderate myself. I wasn’t blacking out. I don’t know where it all went wrong. I know I have an addictive personality because I’ve struggled on and off with an ED. Over time it was just more and more, wanting to get a little more drunk each time as an escape. Things started to get really bad my sophomore year. I built up a tolerance and gradually stopped puking when drinking too much, so it was harder to know when to stop. In my first semester, I would get blackout drunk then yell at and berate my boyfriend. I would do this a couple times each semester. I would also start to get angry or sad and just melt down and sometimes I started to self harm by banging my head against walls in hopes of just knocking myself out. This was just occasionally but I had previously been clean from self harm for years. By the end of sophomore year I was averaging 1.5-2.5 liters of wine per night and black out pretty frequently. I never missed class due to drinking during the day, but often missed my early classes due to hangovers. My alcohol abuse has also caused me to gain a significant amount of weight which is triggering my eating disordered/self hate thoughts really badly I know I need to be sober now and for the foreseeable future. It’s so hard though to try and do this while at school. It’s also hard to realize that you have a problem when everyone’s drinking all the time. I hope that I can reintroduce it eventually when I have my stuff worked out but also know I shouldn’t focus on that right now. I don’t know what I’m seeking but I just feel so alone",4.351099568267678,6.072143988532113,5.0001672962763095,82.05398003237994,71.27064220183486,7.606475984889369,27.502428494333515,8.219915518859313,1.843727145169994,1793,64,337,27,34,576,213,436,0.179,0.737,0.084,-0.9926,0,1,8,0,2,0,40.0,0,1,0,5,25,17,1,3,15,0,28,17,3,2,4,72,63,39,0,11,13,0,4,0,0,5,3,1,1,4,22,26,13,2,10,9,0,6,8,15,0,4,14,7,40,2,56,42,12,81,0,4,2,0,5,29,0,8,45,227,62,11,0.0,0.16167148368142836,0.0,0.07437557164007651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14582404552070585,0.1366354264133227,0.07066076311922291,0.0,0.21823876864727448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11393043535380955,0.16635786901563732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07008610520256922,0.0,0.0587699949795173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05447229499681544,0.07548991985604472,0.0,0.043999629523927435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3341737612452944,0.0,0.06981144322345942,0.0,0.0,0.06042730387965457,0.0,0.0,0.04506212128131222,0.0,0.05748269920531071,0.06519213144695221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03449672646700495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11606469237844305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14257946812272645,0.0,0.07754794146007397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12223281140940576,0.06735829038104164,0.07001876944689298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07208370182199374,0.0,0.1355260959130538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2249688145510841,0.0,0.07696103165775021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06837960434717258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07447589840758577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10030678898961742,0.05058814391850989,0.05261950369442127,0.0,0.0,0.19207427129098276,0.06684624027755492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14531528765061086,0.0,0.05188836212292184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04729878445376917,0.059571639681018015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13881917361249865,0.0,0.06528233154600767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06824369319136854,0.0,0.08741365929840282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05826397404938586,0.0,0.0,0.06830535769323437,0.20714272683597573,0.0,0.0,0.28469517902154257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13654900384117466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06747649745447279,0.0,0.24145084641795214,0.0,0.054484757187515866,0.11407869520151115,0.0,0.07132382417822049,0.15620313230115376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045325811572038285,0.0,0.06703094254334332,0.05416321216501152,0.15913072217113858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04632045307082722,0.0,0.066646136660428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05629296026608812,0.040241008588967266,0.0,0.05472616460464038,0.08307995073453599,0.0,0.1264909443394548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04966878034442603,0.0,0.0,0.14539573875600267,0.07459357934838334,0.0,0.2196740578695022 alcoholism,savedonuts,2019/07/15,Not possible to be in a relationship With an alcoholic. Their addiction will always be number one. People are just kidding themselves if they can be with an alcoholic,5.4916091954022965,8.712916551724138,6.490344827586206,65.74747126436785,73.13793103448276,10.763218390804601,33.804597701149426,10.504223727775694,5.065749425287357,136,7,19,5,3,45,24,29,0.0,0.9059999999999999,0.094,0.1779,0,0,2,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,6,3,0,0,0,5,6,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,4,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,0,19,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3480109069350857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6823256240663143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2656272890660799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2163204284750357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.221315850240992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3598870519684993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3427365915423181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Turbulent_Repair,2019/07/15,"Started drinking at age 8. How common/uncommon is that? It only recently dawned on me that starting to drink at 8 yo may be really unusual and bad. I obviously know children shouldn't drink, but I assumed a lot of other alcoholics were like me. Are they? Or is this pretty unusual?",2.43333333333333,5.084441222222225,4.9644444444444495,75.50000000000003,81.22222222222223,8.785185185185185,29.37037037037037,9.2995712137729,3.47905925925926,222,11,38,7,6,78,46,54,0.042,0.799,0.158,0.8192,0,0,4,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,7,4,0,1,1,10,10,4,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,5,1,4,0,2,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,5,1,5,6,1,7,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,4,5,28,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26118350568327103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20405928530836184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7182410074367378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13431288245147158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193988582786488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20777555201278647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18587310858144376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.248637172907254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15656544089580954,0.0,0.2413101866821917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3459675160839197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,kN0kk3lz,2019/07/15,"I'm a disappointment lately I've been drinking heavily everyday for the past 7 months or so. Music has become my escape. Drink smoke and music is all I fucking do after coming home from work. I had only one friend in this city and I lost her too. I rarely talk to my parents. I'm a disappointment. I feel so lost. I'm not moving towards my life and career goals. Every night I tell myself to stop but somehow I end up drinking. I'm so fed up with myself I dont know if it'll ever get better. I need to stop drinking pls send help",0.022232142857145483,2.287733901785717,2.701428571428572,89.94357142857143,89.44642857142857,4.628571428571429,17.82142857142857,6.1826913282559595,-0.08338214285714285,415,11,86,4,14,144,78,112,0.113,0.7709999999999999,0.11599999999999999,0.3182,1,0,5,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,5,6,7,1,0,3,0,7,7,0,0,2,17,20,9,0,2,4,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,2,5,5,2,2,4,0,3,2,5,0,1,5,1,15,2,11,14,1,17,0,4,0,1,7,4,1,3,10,52,17,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16808087548022072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13459886854759856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13109741161513788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17836446142671944,0.5963494146184185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13479434756230702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13766373053290487,0.1282258588093157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07695136864646561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11758090114587373,0.1406963466843635,0.07951250985671783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10200912837644303,0.0,0.15265805008369288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08363913504970245,0.0,0.17167590449987488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10749564381848883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3322647045435107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12147586699627536,0.16175290074615506,0.0,0.11284627008122293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14281913649353206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10312725530973472,0.11574664877264015,0.0,0.0,0.1689879564506019,0.0,0.14528169180279585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.254473761084422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12232381296015495,0.13301995878821107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1107954585244474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,cmonty84,2019/01/05,"Quit alcohol cold turkey , 2years sober First time posting to reddit. Hello everyone! Well, it’s been a little over 2 years since my last drink. Never thought I could do it. Wife would causally mention that I would drink to much , didn’t listen. Then I realized one day that my drinking could put me in some serious danger and said fuck it I’m done . Today I feel like a completely different person. I do however get the cravings , never been to any AA meetings ...feel nervous . ",2.8125842696629206,5.5833698651685415,3.791112359550564,83.73408426966293,80.68539325842697,6.706067415730338,25.753932584269663,7.908726449838941,1.9327429213483152,374,15,65,7,10,120,70,89,0.121,0.826,0.053,-0.7177,2,0,4,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,2,1,6,2,1,3,0,10,5,0,0,2,12,18,2,0,4,0,1,2,1,0,2,1,2,0,1,5,1,4,0,4,3,0,1,3,4,2,2,6,5,8,2,5,8,2,14,0,0,0,1,7,3,1,1,10,40,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17677022260283973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11248271399144676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17342652720267726,0.0,0.0,0.2641287224721074,0.0,0.0,0.10667409860444096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17281554308572214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16926921336580913,0.0,0.4861088851492972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15805387303145435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16726991751921658,0.1181670900417942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14069546236223626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529164894601879,0.08641854719038812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13482911953435622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08080970772341359,0.1657816835184082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12159348175368685,0.0,0.2551447903697898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11208434491200447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14442737436926298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15841458035642705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662801375097042,0.0,0.1759311458305763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15734032920352933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368267226320204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13131501100666454,0.09645039362575028,0.0,0.15678688846156855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14872113035931447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350013631257039,0.0,0.0,0.1065169519087226 alcoholism,NoRegrtsNotEvenWon,2019/01/05,"How stupid am I? I'm 29F and I'm 4 days sober, wasn't planning on it but realized it today and figured I'd keep going, maybe try a 30 day thing just to see if I can do it. I don't drink every day but I haven't gone more than a week without a drink in a few years. I know I have a problem with binge drinking. I've blacked out, damaged relationships, lost friends, been unable to stop drinking, it's affected my work. It's a problem. I know it, my family knows it and everyone I've hurt knows it. Anyway, I liked the idea of doing a sobriety trial run so I started looking into AA meetings. Then I thought about how I would have to tell my husband that I'm going to AA meetings and what he would say or think. And then I remembered that we're going on an all-inclusive vacation on Feb 1 and how could I not drink while on vacation? And now I'm thinking how stupid am I that this is how I reason with myself that I don't need to get sober and I can just ""try it on"" and see how I like it. Does anyone have any advice?",0.8677149321266953,2.460269018099549,3.1357895927601795,92.2617839366516,80.53846153846153,6.229954751131222,22.814705882352943,7.1686216300943375,0.6662704072398196,787,26,183,10,20,270,120,221,0.146,0.8009999999999999,0.053,-0.9609,0,0,5,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,3,12,10,2,0,9,0,18,5,0,8,0,48,41,23,0,7,8,1,0,2,1,2,0,1,0,0,17,13,5,2,12,5,0,5,6,7,2,0,5,5,22,3,19,33,2,25,0,3,4,0,8,8,0,2,14,115,39,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1151068598296093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0801039080580636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08236425092987992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09404886381923687,0.0,0.0,0.22790200956842266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10308225722220918,0.0,0.0,0.5769660074935019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09924646189110406,0.11255714290904473,0.0,0.0,0.11104562872798134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09100729395035126,0.0,0.06154246384183677,0.0,0.2008350057474271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12610083256292348,0.1329750029547131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10470065249397106,0.0,0.0,0.25894584154540706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11509632312334743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09891722951128044,0.0,0.1285859835272195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11833982984658277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08734270253416053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.225425754862419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12111177304569938,0.0,0.12646659188148593,0.13343755402565746,0.0,0.0,0.09367445674885908,0.0,0.0,0.187733014160756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08337514611833052,0.0,0.0,0.09848099543364558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10295708208328494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07825704939151606,0.15095518115499215,0.0,0.0935152184283296,0.0,0.0,0.11165486724467168,0.0,0.0,0.15994868522276376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09448718109915992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11354913983445572,0.0,0.08575538003224585,0.0,0.0,0.16735484873500142,0.0,0.0,0.07585542542092563 alcoholism,percy_the_dragonborn,2019/01/05,I could have died and i didnt learn a thing. At new years eve i drank alot and i was pretty damn wasted. When i woke up i had apperantly vomited all over my bed in my sleep. That made me think. If i didnt slep on my belly i could have choked on my vomit and died. I always thought that a near death expiernce would change me but not even a day later i started drinking again.,1.2768253968253944,2.7661797160493857,2.7623633156966503,95.8677777777778,79.0,5.616225749559083,18.978835978835978,6.1826913282559595,-0.3276645502645503,291,6,70,2,7,95,57,81,0.17600000000000002,0.7959999999999999,0.027999999999999997,-0.8381,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,4,0,9,5,1,1,1,15,15,6,3,4,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,3,3,2,0,3,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,8,0,16,0,7,4,2,15,0,0,0,0,0,7,1,2,8,49,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20034883085969651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25471405411679165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3844875927386805,0.0,0.0,0.1552836321476601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4997847042604132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2358734197359324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15903338142961573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22783252008277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2325475003666285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2449605340263473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2409545888457031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17042581868339235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15996399804046127,0.15428255019983214,0.0,0.19115298025847047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17104370087590925,0.0,0.0,0.15505487643272656 alcoholism,shizzelman,2019/01/05,"Can’t sleep if I don’t drink New poster, consistent lurker so apologize for mistakes. I’ve always had sleeping issues since I was a child. 37 year old married male with a new kiddo. I have an amazing wife and child with a great, stressful job. I drink in the evenings to relax. I need to do better though and not rely on alcohol. Problem is is that it helps me sleep. Can’t sleep without drinking. On top, I already take sleeping meds. Melatonin and diphenhydramine. A few months ago, I tried stopping drinking but didn’t sleep the entire night. I drank tea which supports sleeping, upped the sleeping meds slightly and worked out that day (I used to be very passionate about working out but have been slipping). I need good rest to perform at my job. I won’t take prescription sleeping meds because when I did, they (took several types) had terrible side effects. I’m hoping someone from this community has encountered a similar situation and can help. 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For this reason, I’m pretty on guard about my drinking these days and thankfully I don’t appear to have the bug (yet). I’ve spent much of my life (particularly my adult life), trying to best under alcoholics. Even now, through all the research, I find it difficult to truly accept the notion of an “addiction”. The other day I was at work and got a call from a close family member informing me that my father was off the wagon again. Like other times throughout his life and mine, dad had been discovered in a soiled bed drinking methylated spirits. I don’t know how many days this had been going on but I’d say at least a week. I’ve always been a very sympathetic person, I really care for those around me. At this point, I honestly wish my father was dead. I’ve been dealing with this now for at least 16 years. At 10 years old I learned how to detox someone, which in my opinion isn’t something that a child should be learning. At the moments where my life begins to turn around, my father becomes unwell. EVERY, FUCKING. TIME. I don’t have any more energy, my empathy is stripped. I feel a moral obligation to take care of my father but I’m really at my wits end. A cat only has so many lives and in the last 3 years dad has gotten particularly bad. I decided to write him an obituary yesterday and have been thinking about showing this to him in the hopes that he may understand my feelings towards him. I don’t think this is affective now, as I’m going to need to spend the weekend assisting him with the early stages of detox. But perhaps it would be good to show him this when he’s back to a point of functionality? Any thoughts or advice anyone has would be greatly appreciated.",4.732971428571427,6.00841264,5.682000000000002,79.26100000000002,69.74285714285715,8.914285714285715,28.0,9.281916038205594,2.352971428571429,1424,49,271,29,25,469,189,350,0.043,0.815,0.142,0.9871,0,0,6,0,0,0,39.0,0,0,0,2,16,13,1,0,21,0,31,12,0,4,1,45,58,15,2,7,4,7,2,1,0,4,9,1,1,3,18,11,4,1,14,5,2,5,5,3,0,0,15,3,35,10,47,36,6,56,2,0,0,1,23,25,1,5,25,180,53,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11432056649104945,0.0,0.102474870293192,0.0,0.22414197463405916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08725778863930918,0.0,0.0,0.1426263838728456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07332548158580074,0.0,0.0,0.18670782016503965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08063629053271858,0.08755960877348896,0.0,0.11581742081213432,0.0,0.0,0.1100515021119963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10708098573010744,0.0,0.21383789866847952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20289172082926046,0.10811332672170286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2054595768453712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0928810825747866,0.0,0.0,0.0692636993379711,0.0,0.08835501484797678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1977186488688954,0.0,0.10604786557821283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09584658641616528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09694790049204872,0.0,0.0,0.11919672551670728,0.08795750849016283,0.08387176189758049,0.11561629590569003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10415664523613656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05763218969878728,0.08548064443665163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2962828026692969,0.051232744949986066,0.0,0.09259952886023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21263746397292635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07708934995272214,0.07775759087246513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11004033135798637,0.0,0.0,0.07975611913130888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09156586557870597,0.0,0.0,0.19826652181245524,0.0,0.0,0.10668749306559187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13436103857337328,0.10782079584316878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0833944894277735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08885351351598325,0.0807317805724595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07884697282653425,0.0,0.0,0.09654749286905064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1343891461537721,0.0,0.08325272614567092,0.1222976435917021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07119784518504027,0.1140652400948666,0.0,0.10917030028161206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08652630111160935,0.0,0.0,0.08411802425883813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24118387070552744,0.0,0.0,0.07634446338607592,0.0,0.0,0.1489890910276103,0.0,0.0,0.2025928313712379 alcoholism,rollinrob,2019/10/04,"Getting the urge again Hi, not sure if this is the right place to post but I've been sober since January 1st at 12:30. I have recently started to get the urge to think that I can drink again. I know I can't and every time I play it forward I see a sick mother f***** who has anxiety and no desire/drive. but that stupid urges starting to sneak it head out and say hey let's go for a drink. Anyone else on here who has had that and what have you done to fight it?",-0.5428333333333306,1.5221934500000032,1.1119999999999983,101.93266666666666,89.5,4.533333333333334,15.333333333333336,5.985473137389443,-0.9035666666666664,355,7,89,3,12,114,73,100,0.183,0.787,0.03,-0.9401,0,0,2,0,1,0,13.0,0,1,0,0,3,4,2,0,5,0,11,4,1,0,1,12,19,7,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,10,5,2,0,2,3,0,2,3,2,0,0,3,2,7,2,9,15,0,14,0,0,1,0,8,6,0,1,7,54,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16482687122030718,0.0,0.0,0.15065515442375751,0.2207649832209317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2204911365183392,0.0,0.4221389837209515,0.0,0.0,0.17998979534135906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1815349605370064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22513868065415427,0.0,0.1224513000198502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22112487277245213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11841158422792328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2203231976942024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22511060780236136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20635182363835397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2127414807414191,0.0,0.0,0.18400228896709925,0.0,0.1713430230680486,0.0,0.0,0.17169430863217944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17823134508231614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30500843197746164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20306919124714007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13805853796529385,0.0,0.0,0.12563688626722527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,alliterate_alias,2019/10/04,"Going into residential rehab for the first time in a couple of days. Any guidance anyone can provide? Not sure what to expect. This is the first time I'm going into residential rehab for alcohol dependence. I've already cold Turkey detoxed at home, sober 4 weeks now. I'm going for 4 weeks for the aftercare, but I'm not quite sure what to expect. Has anyone got any experience they could share?",3.771942857142857,6.211488746666667,5.2659047619047685,76.39200000000002,74.86666666666667,7.485714285714287,24.04761904761905,8.418075326091056,1.8829619047619048,316,10,53,6,7,106,49,75,0.059000000000000004,0.902,0.039,-0.124,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,3,1,3,0,0,4,0,4,4,0,1,2,11,11,1,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,0,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,1,1,1,3,11,9,0,15,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,8,29,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2117790997318568,0.0,0.0,0.21868101769805667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2695192386335983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771244342430464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15821936023734398,0.2192668185669437,0.0,0.12780062294718694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19384429239909368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3371196564296579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3378667729968017,0.0,0.158491387046924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987765727402564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2107738460142377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3735380641426124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23110428023544816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31791349171155675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Rush58,2019/07/19,"37 years Today I am celebrating 37 years of sobriety. Went in to an AA based 30 day treatment Center at the age of 23. I turned 60 this year. Never a slip, never a sip since the day I walked in to that treatment center.",1.6241304347826109,3.2284503260869606,3.77326086956522,88.49293478260874,78.34782608695652,6.339130434782609,20.195652173913047,7.1686216300943375,0.3867130434782604,169,4,37,2,4,58,33,46,0.0,0.915,0.085,0.5719,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,1,0,3,0,7,2,0,16,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,9,20,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3820072885530276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4568455268556465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24499295516934075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2807323189294628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3221453756863152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2745503950627011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5721668031309295 alcoholism,Erickster,2019/07/19,"Symptoms days later Hey guys, Quick question. I quit drinking on Tuesday at 5pm. I went to a hospital where they kept me overnight. It wasn't undercomfortable. Not a hard night. They gave me ativan and vitamins and I slept and woke up feeling considerably ok. They sent me home with meds on Wed. I took those meds to sleep again and yesterday, didn't take any. I felt considerably ok. A bit tired, but ok. Went to dinner with wife and had a moment of ""panic"" all the sudden, but ignored and headed home. Today I went to work and this morning I ate breakfast and started at my job. No signs of anything... Sitting at my computer I suddenly felt an overwhelming panic. Heart start racing, hands shaking, sweats... Luckily I had some of my medication with me so I took one.. Is it normal to feel this at such an odd time?",1.8883192686357264,4.459539955696204,3.3675105485232097,86.5534036568214,82.98734177215191,6.2959212376933875,23.967651195499297,7.594959193182576,1.343593811533052,635,24,124,11,18,208,104,158,0.11599999999999999,0.8059999999999999,0.078,-0.7148,1,0,1,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,3,2,5,8,0,4,7,3,5,14,6,0,1,27,23,11,0,1,3,1,6,0,0,0,4,0,2,1,5,11,4,2,7,1,0,7,4,5,0,1,17,6,20,3,18,6,3,30,0,1,0,0,10,8,0,2,14,75,25,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0923513135159468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11175504402646416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14826269328607242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08758228508781235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330361275443733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13733307142445347,0.0,0.2607860947856051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13446721875912598,0.0,0.0,0.12165362585748205,0.0,0.13937398777098167,0.0,0.0,0.1609282833891996,0.0,0.0,0.2724447825220652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13476442257966104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30169505123768425,0.13680814877213116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12744276689187825,0.13305899473206834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0920242418580436,0.0,0.0,0.318673248009493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1521314557631541,0.14444417127999573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1359019827243201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19224540837709408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14115225751809835,0.1021076368840469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07918835014192009,0.1560866132669295,0.12872622448108004,0.0,0.301766274583766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3776747464023604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09886686154309143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,cowabungholedude,2019/07/19,"Liver Pain So I have had an ache I'm pretty sure is my liver the day after I drink. I've gotten liver enzymes tested recently, and the values were on the very edge of normal, but not crazy. I was wondering how long liver cirrhosis, fatty liver, liver failure, etc take to develop. I've been a a relatively heavy drinker for about 5 years, and especially heavy as of late. I'm stopping immediately, but I am a little worried I have some serious disease and I just don't know it yet. Anyone have info for me?",1.7211071107110705,4.146924891089114,4.5810081008100845,78.57288028802883,82.26732673267327,6.841044104410441,23.043204320432054,8.00094639256281,1.6596059405940595,398,14,72,8,11,142,73,101,0.14400000000000002,0.773,0.083,-0.7146,0,0,2,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,7,0,10,8,6,1,1,15,16,8,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,1,3,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,5,0,8,1,9,11,2,10,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,8,47,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17465234127166668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16108776604034702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446898087586432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27857129673062714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13727283675222668,0.0,0.2817632965560661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2503456921385827,0.0,0.22104789247320036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2447318677683817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2657840749873309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2541165778298631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2466281212827244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20882769197881165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2354151759832785,0.0,0.18780385902033225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20609508105359908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2708763097127221,0.0,0.25366423398249144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16085045997931566 alcoholism,leelee_is_sad,2019/07/19,"Hi, my name is ""throwaway,"" and I'm addicted to an addict I finally got the guts to stand up and say I will not do this anymore. I will not watch you drink yourself into stupidity or allow you to hurt me any longer. That was 12 days ago. So I guess I'm 12 days sober from my drug of choice. (That's codependency, eh?) And you know what? It absolutely fucking sucks. Knowing he's still out there fucking up his life and not giving a damn about me or anybody else. It hurts bad, man. And even so, I fucking miss him, more than I've ever missed anyone. All I want to do is hold him again. I used to hold him and tell him everything was going to be ok. But I can't. That's not how this intervention thing works, right? Wtf is wrong with me??",0.952943722943722,2.851317844155848,2.7425714285714267,93.6857619047619,81.59740259740259,5.924848484848488,20.006926406926404,7.0316486544052195,0.18158666666666692,564,15,132,7,15,187,103,154,0.187,0.7659999999999999,0.047,-0.9738,0,0,2,0,0,0,27.0,0,3,0,1,9,13,6,0,3,1,11,9,1,3,2,28,27,12,0,1,7,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,1,9,9,1,2,2,1,0,1,5,12,0,0,3,2,21,1,15,21,2,14,0,4,1,3,15,5,5,3,7,82,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34821996808389283,0.0,0.0,0.14157531959251504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10860984240314232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1583916880092002,0.11167455533708667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13335310132026693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2060024447633188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15645725324766208,0.18521556548885984,0.0,0.1334191348237721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1054884694554457,0.1444689212265683,0.0,0.0,0.14353911909228118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17495702060824989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44295435000907823,0.0,0.1532105936088928,0.09076818202782007,0.0,0.12773651822921098,0.0,0.17594110722252834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.341950645944433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17554740912771633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11280952244208232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13639343360008244,0.0,0.12700963325433412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275464510088699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13959559190604712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10610575697738243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13794014997247067,0.0,0.0,0.09420245396112843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11627245831467553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17462033062184246,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ProTalent,2019/07/19,"Scared of withdrawal symptoms I binged for about 3 weeks and went cold turkey. I was fine for a day but Now I'm up with nearly no sleep, feeling nauseous. I think maybe I had too much caffeine. I have anxiety because of the horror stories I've read and they keep circling in my head, palms and feet are sweaty yet I have chills. I'm uninsured. Should I have a drink and slowly wean off? Any advice or help would be greatly appreciated.",1.7100000000000009,4.278218604651165,2.582604651162793,91.86413953488373,83.88372093023256,4.835348837209303,22.55348837209302,6.2581,0.4240827906976747,344,12,69,3,10,108,68,86,0.134,0.723,0.14300000000000002,-0.0543,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,0,4,3,0,1,3,0,9,6,4,0,0,12,15,6,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,1,2,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,2,9,2,10,9,1,9,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,4,42,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2476808132922836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17236332504492438,0.0,0.19389826886065376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15450850706819713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16346247062486158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24829694805249625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281583549175154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27944351739926104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2601258503251159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16989070252092311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2252892903196796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25463734606833954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18632424552316976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.253531286838672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2537603758545092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2536457439613661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2634447905195821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16240866137126106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20331248628429072,0.0,0.0,0.2349624587424655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18005262720419454,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,nitsed004,2019/07/19,"Potential early signs of alcoholism? I started drinking heavy for the first time about a year ago. I had gone from having maybe 2 ciders in a night to having 6 or 7 shots fairly fast. This became how I socialized. After a while my drinking went to a consistency of being absolutely hammered around twice a month. I was comfortable with those numbers. However, recently I’ve noticed I’ve been using alcohol to change my mood. In the beginning I had only used it as a way to make a night more fun. Now I realize when upset there’s been at least two occasions where I’ve decided to get drunk so I can be more easy going and not upset. At this point I haven’t gotten drunk in almost a month. I’m honestly afraid that this pattern was going to form life long habits. So I don’t think I’m an alcoholic but I am taking a break from getting wasted. Until I can sort myself out emotionally.",3.27024761904762,5.216146577142862,4.940571428571432,80.42076190476193,74.65714285714286,8.323809523809524,25.380952380952376,9.029198982220553,2.1570380952380948,701,24,132,16,15,237,121,175,0.073,0.873,0.054000000000000006,-0.4383,1,0,5,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,9,7,0,3,12,0,15,8,0,4,0,17,31,10,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,6,4,7,0,3,4,0,4,3,3,0,3,9,0,14,3,23,20,4,34,0,0,0,0,1,9,0,3,19,89,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344950499852263,0.4864436186817993,0.15193066188614246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13506740958203325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16050492249296974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2972654578024069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1706701932823008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12905719986064298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15854009118932125,0.0,0.17245761781130672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.107167848204946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342718425537656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10127760967581792,0.0,0.15242814671365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24221088059722756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2847672518961704,0.0,0.0,0.1727399079131509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11539369266760935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14342915837363707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14981012440197694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1546645211755456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1073917295746718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11407831084580415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09721924786485232,0.0,0.0,0.08847206240915112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14821326973201185,0.0,0.0,0.2620833549083918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12043223566191782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1406505867516561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09770591972353652 alcoholism,moschles,2019/01/08,"Vertigo (BPPV) and liquor. Anyone else find a connection? I suffered from BPPV that was quite severe. Vomiting, lasting several days, completely limited mobility. I nearly went to the E-R because of it. It went away and I hoped that it would never return again in my life. It returned recently in now what is my 2nd episode. It was much more minor this time, but lasted for 2/3 days before subsiding. Unlike before , I now have a theory as to its cause. My hypothesis is that the BPPV episodes are brought on by a particular type of vodka , when I mix it with salt. (salt is placed along the rim of the glass as part of a mixed drink.) The BPPV episode *DOES NOT* come on while drunk. (Being dizzy and stumbling is part of inebriation for anyone). Rather it occurs roughly several days after drinking, as if something has to ""go through my system"" before it starts screwing with the portions of my inner ear. The particular brand is REYKA vodka. I mix it with lime seltzer, lime slices and salt (along the rim). Has anyone else made a connection between alcohol and vertigo? 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Which leads to the ol 3:30am beer slowly sipping until I can pass back out. Its now almost 5 am and haven’t been able to fall back asleep. I absolutely have to go into work today as I’ve called in the past few days while trying to taper. Don’t know where I’m going with this I just need to get it off my chest. ,3.6431884057971047,3.9994749130434784,4.6269565217391335,89.1999275362319,71.6086956521739,6.568115942028986,19.681159420289852,5.46131890053228,-0.2027884057971012,340,4,75,1,6,111,67,92,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,6,0,0,0,5,0,7,5,4,1,0,12,13,6,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,6,1,0,1,1,0,5,2,0,0,0,2,0,4,0,18,11,2,24,0,0,0,0,1,8,0,1,11,50,8,2,0.2560949888600186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2564421384988116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21309154607335493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3938424772661824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26150161676235784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3303201632097723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13379906174849093,0.0,0.2910893677609656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14074310841490845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18989118927188264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2403277986948085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2444716446188901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2427481050382254,0.0,0.0,0.3477433738387647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18644020196669006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,saaaaaack,2019/01/08,"Possible Alcohol Withdrawals after months of constant drinking Hello to anyone who reads this, I've been drinking a handle (1.75 Liters) of Majorska 100 proof vodka, the frequency being a handle every 2.5 - 3 days. I've been drinking day and night for about 3 months now. I'm broke now so I'm on my last handle. I'll be dry by friday (within the next 3 days). Do you think I'll face withdrawals? My dad is nervous I could die through a seizure or heart arrythmia and is pressuring me to go to a detox clinic. While I know the delirium tremens are a possibility, I think I could perhaps handle whatever withdrawal symptoms on my own. Thoughts? Thanks to anyone who reads and considers responding.",4.058512820512823,6.525273646153848,4.973461538461539,78.70070512820514,74.07692307692308,8.025641025641027,30.06410256410256,8.841846274778883,2.827102564102564,554,25,95,12,12,180,85,130,0.095,0.872,0.033,-0.8205,0,0,5,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,0,0,4,4,0,2,8,0,10,9,2,0,1,11,18,6,1,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,3,4,0,4,6,0,1,0,3,0,0,3,0,9,1,14,11,1,17,0,1,0,0,6,3,0,1,13,53,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1658482947157573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2170214856020783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1677026094685624,0.0,0.2478092608723503,0.0,0.0,0.30024939296992553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16106017527886204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4560741535599206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13075220351784758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0881966605983679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18389799318760172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08528701862187041,0.12649856533269288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2477384426432097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16504371930610529,0.14563300237914947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34990128908572765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31045909062471405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16129928403387142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14287584534361175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19887583085942,0.0,0.12320157957240907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,quinlan-k,2019/01/08,"Can’t Sleep Recently stopped drinking daily. I have always used it as a coping and sleeping method. Since I’ve stopped, I cannot sleep for the life of me. Any advice on how to get to sleep? 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My husband has a drinking problem in my opinion. He’ll be “good” for a few days or weeks or months then all of a sudden he has to have even one or two beers too many and he makes a complete fool of himself. This most recent occurrence he ran out of beer (a 12 pack in the course of 4 hours) and its 10pm on a week night so he starts drinking his friends beer. Why does he not know as an almost 30 year old man if you have run out of your own beer do not just continue to drink someone else’s? If you’ve run out you should probably just go to bed. Well he has one of this other brand of beer and then friend goes home so he comes inside. He eats more of dinner and leaves the bones out on a plate even though I asked him not to because our dogs can get them so throw them in the trash. Falls asleep at dining room table (we have booth type seating) a bag of paper towels falls on him and he just leaves them there as if to use them as a blanket? But puts the plastic bag they came in on the floor.. is he trying to be funny? Does he want some sort of attention from me like a toddler? By placing the bag on the floor but carefully keeping the paper towels on his body? His leg is perched up on a little shelf. I go out and ask if he’s coming to bed he’s much too fucked up to respond so I turn out all the lights so I can sleep in the bedroom. He wakes up 20 min later has knocked over a plug in fan, the little shelf, the paper towels are now all over the floor and all because he has to have the screaming shits in our master bath with the door wide open but still no lights on. I ask “are you gonna wipe your ass in the dark?” he responds “yes” I figured he would take a shower now because he showers every night and especially after having raging diarrhea but instead he takes his sweaty stinky self to bed and I’m like yuck this whole house smells like ass now. I wake up the next morning and it still smells like poop. I clean the toilet thinking it’s that. He leaves for work after apologizing profusely for being annoying as usual. Well come to find out there’s a huge shit stain in his underwear which never happens to him and that fucking stinks and it also leaked a small patch onto our bedding I just washed. I’m so fucking sad and annoyed I just don’t know what to do. What grown man is so drunk he partially wipes his ass in complete darkness? It would maybe be a little funny if it wasn’t my husband I was dealing with. I don’t know how to confront this? I feel like I don’t have a voice. If I bring it up he’s going to be offended and mad and maybe drink more tonight or do something stupid/regrettable like text an ex just to make me mad. Or I can not bring it up to appease him but fuck that!! I don’t want to suffer in silence! I don’t even fully know if I’m seeking advice or if I just needed to vent. I’ve been around plenty of alcoholics but never one like my husband who becomes an unrecognizable personality after this 12th or 13th beer. Like I have no idea who that person is. His moral code completely disappears his calm patient nice shy demeanor is totally erased. I think anyone who knows him in his friends or family group would be shocked beyond measure if they found out all of the dumb shit he’s done while drunk. He makes me so mad with this bullshit but I know deep down he is probably in a lot of emotional pain from his upbringing and has no idea how to cope other than alcohol. I was once in a similar place. :(",3.154242424242426,4.233518787148597,4.0501487160764285,90.21571960569551,73.31057563587684,6.932057928684436,24.826798101496898,7.2051791320715415,0.8655988755020076,2822,84,620,28,55,908,336,747,0.175,0.737,0.08800000000000001,-0.998,5,0,14,0,0,0,48.0,4,5,6,2,37,42,16,1,42,1,51,39,14,6,8,116,98,59,0,17,35,5,1,8,3,6,5,2,12,5,28,36,19,1,16,13,1,19,15,25,2,4,9,8,63,17,99,77,15,110,1,2,0,7,82,60,11,23,39,389,91,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06192820930309224,0.0,0.2031821715758041,0.06345977339496896,0.0,0.0,0.050680058488120995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0886249625474702,0.0,0.0,0.05641617760834016,0.17773803221099468,0.0,0.05954183412150856,0.0,0.0,0.15452848426391566,0.06999145699308748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07039407954436924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07248282077791562,0.06461388098265693,0.0,0.0,0.16377292456533726,0.1993388812156429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040870901381089626,0.13067134813675416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11091779603999,0.06485346880672486,0.0,0.2483290516357984,0.0,0.06484728717331402,0.052940733863597884,0.07128707040772937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255735242436299,0.0,0.05339521618156996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05974324161252938,0.0,0.032043731291797786,0.045274303197978434,0.0,0.0,0.11584513252048563,0.0,0.0,0.06948617402877012,0.1468874771549188,0.2343524751381245,0.03311022981138508,0.0,0.10805048708413377,0.053154992828707164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05604130123139479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06356915572074548,0.0,0.06241049323336562,0.0731249336997616,0.0,0.14308276374229592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05632960478128764,0.0,0.0,0.20897171937181525,0.0,0.0,0.20131132384674705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24769016195733315,0.19055179073028874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05387819539354035,0.0,0.0,0.12690764484712086,0.06425115414597876,0.12733513471707705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050584415962114285,0.0,0.046587084084639865,0.04699091932175053,0.09775566610382716,0.0,0.06739882644162809,0.11894416210193115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06650021271187438,0.06749109998191019,0.12883131708239787,0.0,0.06743426260409223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11067123231974732,0.13242440500513308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13665549450147588,0.060640231824986415,0.0,0.06370824024483687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0625740481137777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06611276453551439,0.0,0.1951570910922268,0.0,0.0,0.06341963477946717,0.0,0.05369647179439769,0.048788298930247484,0.0,0.0,0.04485634919704156,0.0,0.10122090398841188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09529852191364492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08121483000918286,0.062264502492700324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04302669567605453,0.0689325689565831,0.061907059408254736,0.0,0.0,0.05473467339181238,0.06979736103166836,0.0,0.07475909735198406,0.0,0.1016693867981407,0.0,0.11396143453227488,0.0,0.057185057730506285,0.07075465921684626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0461369299046507,0.0,0.0,0.13505693034746327,0.0,0.0,0.04081069250951636 alcoholism,anondrinkingthing,2018/11/06,"Ummmmm I'm an anxious person and sometimes I drink too much just because I feel weird if I have nothing to do with my hands Hi, pretty much title. I'm in college, I drink more than the average drinking-college-student but I like to think not an insane amount more. However, over the past year I've developed some serious anxiety in social situations even though I'm always comfortable with people. I'm very extroverted, but I never know how to position myself or my body when chatting. As a result, I often grab a drink just because I want something in my hands, but then every so often I'll drink too much because if its a long night that's a lot of drinks in my hand... This is especially the case with dancing at parties, if I don't have something in my hand I don't really know what to do-- like having a beer in my hand is an excuse to not have to worry about how to dance/move that limb. I considered taking a 'modern dance' course for the first time ever just so I can stop having to worry about how I look at parties, even though I'm extroverted. I don't want to stop drinking altogether, I just want to figure out ways to reel it in per se. Especially via this 'urge' to have something in my hand so I don't have to worry about it. Let me know if you have any general thoughts or recommendations, thanks. I'm open to doing my own independent research, but I don't know where to start. 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The last 1.5 week I'm running the whole kitchen, together with another chef, as our colleague quit while we were already understaffed and our boss can't find anyone else. We work 6 days a week, 10 hours a day. The need for alcohol is seriously strong. I'm tired when I wake up, and when I'm done at night, the only thing I can think of to relax a bit is alcohol. I mean, this was the case already when I worked 4 days, but whatever. Usually when I start drinking, there is no stop. I want to go places to drink more, even on my own. It's fucking sad. When I was a student it was all fine, but now it's more and more obvious to me that I have a problem. It's why I subscribed. Acknowledging the problem is a start, right? Yesterday I drank 3 beers after work, but instead of going places to drink more, I forced myself to go home. I'm glad I did. I would not have enjoyed myself, just drinking and smoking at a bar on my own. I would have lost money. I would have had 5 hours of sleep or less, and a hangover. So I'm glad. It's a start. Thanks for reading, this is my first post and I hope this sub will help me get my life on the road again. Let's go. 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I'm not just a bartender. My career is craft beer. I'm surrounded by it daily. How do I drink in moderation? I've struggled with alcoholism since I was 17. I'm now 28. I'm married with a kid. I drink 5/7 days. I just want to know if there is actually a way for me to stay in the career I love without destroying my family and myself. 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Someone told me there is a digital rehab program out there and its much cheaper than going to rehab. Should I do it? 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The past two weeks have been alcohol free because I’m tired of wasting away under the influence. I’ve been experiencing confusion and lack of focus, memory problems, physical tenseness, insomnia, and aphasia. The thing is, I know a little alcohol will help alleviate the symptoms, but I realize many of the problems are caused largely by my chronic drinking in the first place. I was expecting physical reactions, but I wasn’t expecting it to extend this long. Is it normal to extend beyond the first few weeks? Is there anything I should be doing to help heal more effectively?",8.680588235294117,9.436907647058824,8.987899159663865,60.902689075630256,60.764705882352935,13.18655462184874,42.21008403361344,12.540900571622839,6.128324369747901,546,30,80,19,7,181,79,119,0.122,0.753,0.125,0.5223,0,0,5,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,3,3,4,0,1,8,0,15,11,1,4,0,21,17,7,0,7,2,0,1,0,0,2,8,0,0,0,5,4,5,0,4,2,1,0,1,3,0,3,5,2,8,2,12,9,3,13,0,0,0,0,2,7,0,1,6,62,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4990694696721769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12809744958890246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14625058560929696,0.0,0.0,0.0948907673502068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17290658758985833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15990886016059702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3049811091762913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2648138687330965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13944354226996458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2086753594837413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08554835655980551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15601529800785865,0.0,0.13775692532837638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1578179284962296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15251676573994224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1485980213039227,0.0,0.0,0.1626347849936936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2978970851918759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16179354005267674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20683126401131335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17891180884621424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1520602081778364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24972706294908936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,PROPERthinking,2019/01/17,"After quitting nightly drinking It was “hard” because I was craving it, Because it was easy, Because I thought it’s what I needed to fall asleep. It’s crazy to think I was so reliant on it. The fact is I never think about it anymore. It’s no longer my nightly needs. Some nights I’ll have a drink before bed but it’s really only once or twice a month. My body does not need it or want it anymore. I’m telling you this because I know how hard it was to go a single night without a buzz. You do not need it. Taper it down every night. Skip some nights. You’ll get used to not having it. It improved my energy levels a lot. It’s worth it I promise. I hope this helps someone. 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I decided to take a collage course I’m currently studying to get my CompTIA A+ certification (computer technition certification) but I noticed I’m having trouble retaining the information from the lectures as well as the information I read at home. It’s been very frustrating as I paid $450 out of pocket to take this course and I don’t want to piss it away. I know one of the symptoms of long term alcohol abuse is cognitive impairment that can take several months or even years to recover from. I just don’t have that kind of time I’m eager to get my education and start my career can anyone offer any advice on how I might be able to fix this problem?,4.544395604395604,6.2690868095238095,6.3773809523809515,72.35736263736264,70.78571428571428,10.407326007326008,31.970695970695967,10.560738912317856,3.85710750915751,696,32,125,22,13,241,106,168,0.151,0.7959999999999999,0.053,-0.9627,1,0,4,0,2,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,5,8,2,0,7,0,11,7,1,1,0,18,26,10,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,1,1,6,4,4,2,5,2,1,0,2,5,1,1,3,0,13,3,27,21,1,22,0,0,0,0,6,7,1,2,15,76,19,6,0.13819301384500848,0.3274722478349671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13504061374350412,0.0,0.4430589138634192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09397598825497253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09662776842804537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1298368855432244,0.1062618975011404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13537654293826834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.091275182315274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2166004380831329,0.13256733116399505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386188604561704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14390675820565987,0.07594726634968317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09760981253168144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12229646857229355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466009492286622,0.0,0.0,0.11030434521282907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15733366219967082,0.14501032146325413,0.0,0.09364316264468668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13223205087549078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1469852807384724,0.13823041083716153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13644892944253378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15611877056734313,0.0,0.11431468909979264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09781372647503578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14363545454492255,0.3117118442360192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08058145769180336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0938239851730906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11402370916534105,0.08150982002331372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12425211576043528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2669753102407564 alcoholism,marcusillustrated,2018/11/18,When most of your family is alcoholic they don’t see what the do as abnormal. Keep going back a few months when a funeral was almost just an extended chance for everyone to drink. The was an alcoholic in the coffin. Alcoholics giving eulogies and singing. I was glad none of them had to actually carry the casket.,3.5241242937853126,6.2046014406779655,5.445000000000004,73.53891242937857,76.96610169491525,10.712994350282486,26.78248587570621,10.504223727775694,3.863879096045197,251,10,43,10,6,86,47,59,0.040999999999999995,0.8370000000000001,0.122,0.5994,0,0,4,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,2,0,4,1,0,0,8,0,7,4,0,0,0,5,11,4,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,1,4,1,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,1,4,1,7,7,3,6,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,2,4,35,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.2245151945903243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7376247893587854,0.2303819356796093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17690967794252754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22538107426441145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21984180571728992,0.0,0.0,0.2168895807554251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2207041697299925,0.13075411941480844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20449684408437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18363973019636268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18333605384422794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,alreadytaken54,2018/11/18,"Im an alcoholic and i want to kill myself ill do it a week from now, i dont have a gun and i dont know how to tie a knot, maybe google but i have withdrawals so bad i have hallucinations where i jump off buildings only to see blured images of a man in suit . its not a nosleep tale but i see this man everytime during withdrawals, i see him now",-1.7163596491228077,0.18436517105263306,1.0089473684210508,99.10929824561407,101.23684210526315,4.1122807017543845,15.543859649122805,5.985473137389443,-0.6973824561403505,267,7,66,3,12,91,50,76,0.16,0.8009999999999999,0.039,-0.8839,0,0,1,1,0,1,4.0,0,0,0,0,5,2,1,0,6,0,6,2,0,1,0,8,11,6,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,3,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,3,10,0,7,11,0,7,0,0,3,0,3,3,0,0,3,42,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2496815719017726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19507297363076728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5476299629388689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523626675535756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2584792090307236,0.0,0.12839804538732558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.234714761250267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776876751978457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5585234023235404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13780221558836706,0.0,0.18740550989173546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Clarkiejc,2018/11/18,"I’m afraid my best friend will become an alcoholic He’s a freshman in college , throughout high school he drank pretty often but nothing that made me concerned. Now it’s a major problem, he gets shit-faced blackout drunk 3-4 times a week. He drinks to the point where he can’t even talk and thinks it’s fun. He’s aware it’s a problem and basically accepted what he’s doing. He’s ruined relationships because of it and my friends and I are frustrated that he’s wasted at 2pm on a Monday. I love this kid to death but I don’t know how to help him since he doesn’t want to help himself.",3.2094308943089445,4.2629780731707365,4.418048780487805,87.72918699186992,73.14634146341464,7.0926829268292675,26.67479674796748,7.3871296695380915,1.2252699186991869,465,16,100,5,9,153,84,123,0.19899999999999998,0.5760000000000001,0.225,0.2023,0,0,2,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,5,11,1,1,7,0,6,5,0,2,0,15,14,7,1,3,2,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,8,4,4,0,3,2,0,0,3,5,0,0,2,0,8,6,8,11,2,10,0,1,0,1,20,6,0,1,4,49,16,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.211091171313138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12040770540370925,0.21814776154814045,0.0,0.0,0.2072873724211544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1934965675420652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13046155631138653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30521033773177786,0.0,0.10319720188724628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26478994649711496,0.2086930587593807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1085530405335276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17827150560010513,0.1869002902481718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18952788694697892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1867223325300954,0.0,0.0,0.20095109728952987,0.0,0.3780041565269194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2120649320756244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19990302093488765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2027537092906469,0.16339241260234197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15876086976017326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12656425606889238,0.0,0.0,0.11517678862585633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11650371662005485,0.0,0.15844040187773847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Vedyk,2018/11/18,"I need help. So, I'm in graduate school and am almost 30. Semester is almost over. I have finals in a couple weeks and can't stop drinking (can't do rehab.) I don't know what to do to stop .. I am getting worried because I'm starting to gag all the time and vomit without even feeling sick the next day. I'm all shaky and just anxious and feel so depressed that I ditch every single class that doesn't require attendence. I also sleep as long as possible to avoid time spent feeling withdrawal.... I want to buy a drink just to ease the symptoms, but I also know it's a destructive habit I don't know how to stop.",2.775476190476194,4.203766071428571,4.308126984126982,86.61742857142859,74.79365079365078,6.944761904761903,26.885714285714286,7.554174236665415,1.4626723809523812,479,18,98,6,10,160,76,126,0.153,0.7490000000000001,0.098,-0.7593,0,1,2,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,1,8,4,1,2,6,0,11,7,1,1,2,28,25,13,0,2,4,0,3,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,4,5,2,5,6,2,2,1,6,4,0,0,1,3,9,0,13,24,3,15,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,3,11,60,13,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3148134467540443,0.0,0.0,0.2514153934184519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17758406923533496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09582378361568916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17393177222705078,0.0,0.10137689316698316,0.0,0.13539065135633235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3079798449171053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10382491635591984,0.0,0.13244242097805856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2384454818025959,0.0,0.0,0.1721979484990504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08212718870634211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.105363583051753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25916853988788274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1391114243550294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11655709188991767,0.0,0.0,0.1671772189226625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17721220974884638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1590883553337539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1573071628584602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11126246710363444,0.0,0.0,0.3942627638415671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16338437980173254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18332175061105405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09271688131912358,0.0,0.1260912558262865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15152905900214686,0.0,0.0,0.15963777126493106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,MarcosaurusRex,2018/11/18,It's been too long for this I need help boys and gals. I'm tired of drinking to be my way out. I wanna grow and be social. O want to be myself before a drink. What do I do to be social? I feel like I need alcohol to make my social and personal life dreams to come true. I walked over a mile one 40 degrees Fahrenheit to just have one shot. Set me in the right direction. ,-0.4159259259259258,1.5274943209876568,1.905185185185185,97.43333333333337,87.27160493827162,5.0814814814814815,16.407407407407412,6.42735559955562,-0.4783481481481484,284,6,69,3,9,96,58,81,0.037000000000000005,0.8109999999999999,0.152,0.7964,0,0,3,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,8,5,0,1,1,13,15,3,0,4,1,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,0,2,3,5,3,0,1,3,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,1,10,2,12,10,0,11,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,0,2,43,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2064090692914587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16434882777442086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1663739326757796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3784094443078566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09765792984594544,0.13798002127998066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12945839012169766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1364212518558354,0.09435897242931143,0.0,0.0,0.17092377198004555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12892316612086355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2864233169808565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26175477945071085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16864333531302433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16494142120131774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5906490038719702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22198725143489126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11391960908146563,0.15330639392307546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,1212giveitup,2018/11/18,"I feel disgusting Okay, this is longish. I am one of those people who has a drink & drinks till they get passed out drunk almost everytime. It's never just 1 or 2. Always drink till pass out & super sloppy, pretty much not functioning. Embarrassing. I am trying to go sober. I 23f think I have a major problem with alcohol. The longest I've been sober since around 15 was about 4 months. Sometimes a take a month of here or there but most of the time drink very heavily on the weekend, sometimes during the week too. Anyway, I guess what I am trying to say is I'm pretty disgusted with myself. Been doing better lately but I feel like I 1. Have ruined my looks. My face always looks fucked up. I always seem drunk. If anyone else can relate, please let me know. 2. It feels like I will never be able to overcome the stupid things I've done. Even if I'm sober for 5yrs it feels like all my family & stuff will just remember me drunk still. I know that surely cant be true, but I feel that way pretty strong. 3. I feel ugly, inside & out. Idk Anyway, dont know if anyone will see this or knows what I mean. I'm rambling. Needed to get this off of my chest.",0.5250706214689274,2.936005546610172,2.0780000000000034,94.17575706214693,88.8728813559322,4.672090395480226,14.646327683615821,6.2581,-0.575074689265537,903,16,190,9,30,292,141,236,0.154,0.691,0.156,-0.1043,0,0,5,0,0,0,40.0,0,0,1,3,11,16,4,1,9,1,22,11,2,0,5,42,48,11,0,5,12,0,6,3,0,3,1,1,0,0,14,6,8,0,14,8,0,3,5,7,0,1,4,10,23,9,21,38,4,22,0,1,3,1,3,7,1,10,14,114,37,0,0.0921020312804972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09842906142254718,0.09222688021656368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2299088044958033,0.3991700496503861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1287997635004315,0.09436941516137323,0.0,0.08199033460420876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08145676207541704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09425235514220494,0.1079428947206065,0.36089970818148775,0.0,0.0,0.07693942886033223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0608325230258237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08682559822038054,0.0,0.2794173262309205,0.1973931286489297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08514684380645983,0.09623901994581026,0.0,0.052343706868850336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1014607711302882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2024674708622234,0.0,0.10389510296650872,0.0,0.0,0.094180567087843,0.0,0.13498920069105888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1546850195725977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1003261127001436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14702992532691908,0.0,0.06770559038670775,0.06829248917388785,0.14206952886728744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06241072001496944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06385195176265784,0.0,0.0,0.1011003726250769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2811026312706099,0.0,0.08812920528441498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10433364722282544,0.0,0.0,0.07324323197910275,0.0,0.0,0.0733933944403681,0.08384623016738557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07618775203135718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18218252795850712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07355280115364901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10543479059824472,0.0,0.0,0.08680507449910058,0.0,0.06924926528371507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0611884970728984,0.05901526272751634,0.0,0.0,0.05370543510457353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1250624670066854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07599382151143294,0.0,0.07310630543377986,0.07387869398432942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Nayla7777,2018/11/18,"Books to read? Interested to hear what books others recommend for just getting started in sobriety. So hard as you all know, and any advice or insight as how not to pick up is welcome. Someone suggested I read [I Got Sober, You Can Too](https://www.amazon.com/Got-Sober-You-Can-Too-ebook/dp/B07J6MTMJT/ref=sr_1_2?ie=UTF8&qid=1542505440&sr=8-2&keywords=mark+carlson) by Mark Carlson (on Amazon). It was a pretty good, straightforward, easy read. Other suggestions are welcome though! 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Every time he tried to sober up he would have seizures. Today was one of those day. 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I was in a job interview recently where I was asked about my proudest achievement outside of my professional life. It is, without a doubt, my commitment to sobriety. I told them something else, afraid that disclosing my addiction (as well managed as it is at the moment) might be a pretty bonehead move. What do y’all think? Is this safe to mention in interviews? It’ll no doubt come up if hired, given the often booze soaked nature of my field. 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I did qualify for a Public Defender but still want to hear other peoples input. Hi everyone. This is my first time posting. I know many people are going to express thier anger at me for putting other people in danger by driving drunk and I completely agree. I feel ashamed and disgusted with myself for doing this. I am making this post because I need advice and insight into other people experiences. This happened in the state of Oregon. Prior to this I had a clean reccord not even a parking ticket. Okay so this is my current situation: I got in a bad car accident. No one was seriously ingured (my car was totaled). I dont remember much except waking up in the jail. I am out on bail and my PD said they are wanting me to serve 30 days in jail plus a bunch of ther stuff like suspended license, classes and fines. I am concerned about jailtime. PD adviced I go to a infacility rehab situation for 30 days ASAP and she would try to convince judge to let me sub the jail for rehab. I have court in a few weeks and not sure how to prepare. My health insurance needs me to do a drug and alcohol assesement to see if I qualify for in-facility vs out-patient treatment. I have that appointment scheduled. I have no expereince with D&A Evaluations. What qualifies someone as a ""Level 3"" category? (Which is what I would need to be assesed at to be placed into a resdiential rehab.) I dont want to score too high and be placed for more than 30 days at the same time Im affraid if I dont get in, I will face jailtime. I am not looking to lie on the assesement. I just want to know what to expect... I'm not physically addicted to alcohol but I am deffinetly psychologically dependant. I tried to stop on my own time and time again just to fail. I always drink to get drunk even if I dont intend to at first. If someone is drinking around me, so am I. I cant say no to alcohol. However, this was the first time in YEARS that I was able to stop for more than a week or 2. It's been 40 days since I drank and I can't even believe it myself. I had mild ""withdrawls"" if you will mostly anxiety, feelings of depression and a few days of random spouts of nausea when I woukd wake up, but mostly intense sugar cravings. Even though I am proud of being sober so long I want to go to rehab because Im affraid once all of this is over I will fall back into my old ways. I dont know what to do. Thanks in advance",2.654459930313589,4.4279979186991865,4.783855981416959,81.62914634146345,75.91056910569105,7.612543554006969,27.364692218350754,8.418075326091056,2.0170228803716603,1904,77,378,36,42,659,243,492,0.13699999999999998,0.795,0.068,-0.9914,2,0,6,0,0,0,55.0,0,1,1,6,18,15,3,1,19,1,45,22,6,4,3,70,74,29,0,17,17,0,2,1,0,5,10,3,1,0,21,21,9,2,7,5,0,9,14,8,0,4,11,8,55,7,75,53,12,68,0,2,2,3,10,28,3,10,28,275,76,5,0.0721663618238224,0.0,0.0,0.07867198654304994,0.0,0.1410402671043094,0.0,0.23137168079276366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06004819416413136,0.07819222288532407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05520706926720554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0642433621804009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055491477678849495,0.06025589773194452,0.08798388868769723,0.0,0.0,0.08130677705252888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07566505734978687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23270666601104734,0.0,0.062156781692452374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4228921929525116,0.14139112113291796,0.08369006841211626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906608054698661,0.0,0.0,0.06895805134415625,0.0,0.07059254950283729,0.0,0.0,0.07297896178936034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18415401150342087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07540789099241145,0.0,0.12304141949681738,0.0,0.057718032073126126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06381647542773622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07670946796750552,0.08133673466686725,0.0,0.048371591128888385,0.07624772347507408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15590410915918487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1189822354348938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0737949943854633,0.0,0.035256839123381886,0.0,0.0,0.06386495927111327,0.0606015683693446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04817160689838485,0.07316536393097765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05305057950852487,0.21404177150285572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07572645704538257,0.07685482008711138,0.04890179445194581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20012427478510844,0.0,0.1507969765575041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13823085200458807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07254712611582521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08175041995491608,0.0,0.06864673602502726,0.05738958746797309,0.0,0.0,0.057507246963223825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05969676024727193,0.2433540430260234,0.0,0.0,0.1222926483692579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05763214977359444,0.12066861976098085,0.0,0.0,0.0826132186374815,0.0,0.0,0.06801594196514156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06644109011088434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07090308408327327,0.0,0.21040392962989726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979924451079445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21282794984826103,0.0572822989481036,0.11577500489445852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1025298257711406,0.0,0.0,0.04647277094742844 alcoholism,Vokazyr,2019/02/09,"Long-term health impacts of drinking I’m 38 and recently quit drinking after about 8 years of heavier drinking preceded by 7 years of lighter drinking. Lighter was 2-3 beers 4-5 nights a week. Heavier was 3-6 beers 6 nights per week. Occasionally the bigger binge. Keep in mind that I’m very tall, and have weighed between 225-245 during this time. I’ve always been a runner and occasional lifter. When I drank my bac didn’t go as high as someone that was lighter. Maybe it would hit .08 after a couple hours but not very often would it go beyond that. I didn’t suffer from hangovers very often and was always very functional. I’ve seen my weight, my blood pressure, and my heart arrhythmia (benign PAC/PVC) increase in that time span (age 24-38). All of that has me concerned about the long term impacts on our bodies. I’m very worried I’ve done permanent damage do my heart and vascular system. I want to know what your experiences have been sobering up. What damage was reversible? What did you discover was permanent damage? Thanks!",3.7668415115623226,6.119531203045689,4.132140439932319,84.93044980259448,74.53299492385788,6.611280315848847,27.18809926677947,7.594959193182576,1.6357232938522277,825,32,151,11,18,258,120,197,0.134,0.8240000000000001,0.042,-0.9652,0,0,6,0,0,0,31.0,1,2,0,1,6,7,0,1,5,0,18,14,4,0,1,17,30,10,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,11,6,9,1,1,7,0,4,3,5,0,0,14,2,12,2,19,13,3,31,0,4,1,0,3,9,0,2,17,77,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19391109270279816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12942955113931284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12892925433489855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1192423483879938,0.0,0.4565883650458722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11398076662685235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324441499834645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1238573196187345,0.0,0.2761579999305277,0.0,0.12311177364251293,0.0,0.0,0.11475058950783265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10357000915256838,0.0,0.0,0.0640373831013652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2062364107708454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11706189950468285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11765389163313532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21869579957773644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12393537233549864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1150513084730552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09872861875739353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10727770054625947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13588970150202095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4807138095557044,0.06872762934380514,0.0,0.1869336623628756,0.1418922701045381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11833363478873145,0.0,0.1655476141011525,0.0,0.0,0.15007255290160915 alcoholism,crousebrand,2019/02/09,"Is it wrong I don’t feel bad for alcoholics? Sure I get how destructive it is. But again, it is your choice after all. Please someone weigh in and help me understand. My mom is an alcoholic. Is there really nothing better you can do with your life? I’m not trying to be mean. I just want to understand. Thanks ",-0.02177419354838861,2.2826039193548406,1.8634838709677448,92.74522580645159,98.51612903225808,6.3509677419354835,17.490322580645163,7.554174236665415,0.8087367741935485,241,7,51,6,10,79,49,62,0.187,0.6559999999999999,0.157,-0.6303,0,0,2,0,0,0,9.0,0,3,0,1,4,6,1,0,1,0,9,4,0,1,2,13,17,3,0,1,3,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,2,3,0,4,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,8,3,6,16,1,3,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,2,35,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4619084836659974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18044155355096334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911303882756465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10927094058402316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11290776100626285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14485295845822832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15264381017959855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2354054885806918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531036393307053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2073619145876874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2372222143663517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13844462576128486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18310801340788904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036796844189387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19896365286201215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14672347186822327,0.0,0.0,0.4499530973327878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12746638040487598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2362806970894153,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,smug_gums,2019/02/09,"26 and Im an alcoholic. I never wanted to admit it. But today is the day I do. I almost ruined my relationship with my father and my boyfriend too. I become to angry and out of control. I hurt people’s feelings. I say the shitiest things. I drink when I’m bored, i would drink a fifth of whiskey everyday. I’ve gone a whole week drunk. I’m tired of making myself the victim and blaming everyone else for my own actions. I need help I don’t want hurt anyone or myself anymore. ",0.2180062794348494,2.593787142857142,2.882653061224492,87.82223704866564,90.83673469387756,5.056200941915228,19.78335949764521,6.67199483983844,0.5250226059654626,372,12,73,5,13,129,68,98,0.27399999999999997,0.685,0.04,-0.9690000000000001,0,0,4,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,2,5,1,0,6,0,4,6,0,2,1,18,13,7,0,4,2,1,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,6,5,1,2,4,0,2,2,5,0,0,1,2,16,0,8,11,2,9,0,3,0,0,5,1,0,2,6,47,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19942005355520984,0.1868542595673275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1850583603377252,0.13047597611893252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2060864886970844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2092892385549848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12034240916495635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36559649199868105,0.0,0.0,0.15588145210455118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17830555033783518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09435123014129712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12507492611570287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3995211279724923,0.0,0.2015614380170136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12455782481159472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13836250850763088,0.14391843549972114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1293658545157789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20033997560688555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14839285301244873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12396962022077188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2144707581003162,0.1768762251547815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2201245771031101,0.0,0.1496803169512807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2083337010458113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325562182646772,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,AC8563,2019/02/09,"Quitting for good I'm a (33/m) going through the toughest time of my life right now as I'm sure lots of people are. I've been a heavy drinker for 15 years and it's time to stop. I'm new to reddit and I've never really talked about my issues till now. I'm finding that reddit can be a good support system. This should be a happy time in my life I've got a good job, a roof over my head and a fiancée but I've had very bad depression for over a month and I don't know how to help myself. I've had selfs esteem issues since I was young and I've masked that with alcohol. But I feel like the booze has done more bad then good. I've cut my drinking down which is making me reflect on things I've done. Driving drunk, being mean to people and worst of all hurting people I love by cheating. I've came clean to my SO about my infidelities and she has forgiven me. My family has forgiven me for being so hurtful though the years. I'm very lucky to have these people in my life and I never want to hurt them again so it's time to give up the booze. I went 3 weeks sober then got depressed and started thinking of all those bad things I've done so I relapsed and it's getting worse. So it's time to stop. Sorry for rambling on I just felt like I should tell my story. If anyone would like to chat just reach out cause I won't be drinking tonight. Thanks",0.8832266009852248,2.7329855344827614,2.4465270935960604,95.96939655172415,81.58620689655173,5.108374384236455,19.322660098522167,5.985473137389443,-0.26469950738916204,1055,26,244,7,28,344,150,290,0.191,0.636,0.17300000000000001,-0.9014,1,0,4,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,1,1,14,24,2,0,12,0,24,11,1,3,5,41,47,24,0,5,5,0,2,3,0,4,4,0,1,1,12,13,6,2,7,4,0,4,4,11,0,0,12,2,26,13,35,26,5,38,0,5,0,1,9,10,0,3,26,143,38,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09849464231606796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06444278982763489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2308577595488669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10541037313281612,0.0,0.09467719591242832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15876039693378474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2829454595932562,0.0,0.1805700834467484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08688344800813097,0.0,0.046600582535072176,0.06584154896578234,0.08849131391298531,0.0,0.08423567483679874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0481515708339374,0.08841152806476563,0.052378582209700264,0.3092091377135454,0.14742297513899624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.098109649481339,0.0,0.0,0.09458623408035552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061775182038370985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29598846677524576,0.0,0.0,0.19238928255381196,0.09145795010737097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05065059250540992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19529319790029326,0.1350791407176022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07835402401842316,0.0831810637555377,0.0,0.06151978290934005,0.0,0.0,0.10039295755286544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07356394389795409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1421641863445664,0.08901198276928622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25557797907052554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09802711693004472,0.0,0.0,0.05904223185820405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07870703714761608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09614652277238524,0.0,0.0,0.07623851408050551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1031693769960359,0.06523372649532279,0.0,0.0,0.15410545276857154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10458593030719088,0.08686291061239389,0.0,0.0,0.0740774471217446,0.08055487091855178,0.08485167307172709,0.0,0.0,0.12245853096537508,0.05905458316403274,0.09055006924736628,0.0,0.26870608865940365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15208890869876993,0.054360359202150384,0.0,0.07392791756417076,0.0,0.0,0.0854363920192245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0939223749026447,0.06547023266712447,0.0,0.0,0.11870041146487653 alcoholism,iwonderwhy_,2019/02/09,"I want to stop drinking, but is it safe? So I suffer from bad anxiety in general, and as a result I have been drinking nightly. A few days ago I had a full day without any alcohol and felt OK, I think if I used my will power I could not drink for a few days (I would still like to drink once a week) but iv heard about scary and possibly fatal withdrawal symptoms. What can I do? Do I risk it and just stop? 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Basically, every time something goes wrong, I feel like drinking. Exam went wrong? Drink. Had a crappy day? Drink. Broke up with my girlfriend? Lock myself in my room and drink for the whole night. Even right now, as I'm working on a project which does not seem to get anywhere, I have half a mind to go for my alcohol stash, which is not even half a meter away from me. Thing is, most of the time I manage to fight the urge and not drink(or at least invite a friend over, so I won't be drinking alone), but I still think that the fact that my brain makes the association something went wrong-drink might not be very good on the long run. I have depression and mild anxiety(the causes of which I'm yet to completely figure out) and no history of alcoholism in my family(as far as I know). Do you guys think I could be at risk of developing alcoholism later in life(I'm 20 right now)?",4.18936398796734,5.438409810055866,4.546480446927376,86.99107434464979,71.01117318435755,8.189256553502362,26.05973356252686,8.617729084823388,1.5782768371293514,712,22,150,12,13,224,111,179,0.14800000000000002,0.8240000000000001,0.028999999999999998,-0.9657,0,1,13,0,1,0,29.0,0,1,0,1,7,10,1,2,11,0,13,10,1,2,1,24,25,8,0,1,5,0,1,1,2,2,4,0,1,1,6,6,9,0,6,5,0,4,6,7,0,2,3,1,17,3,27,16,3,31,0,2,0,0,5,17,0,3,11,96,23,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4049117177052268,0.0,0.09810237696671263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08899348602713754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10573994845442856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09730454652902903,0.0,0.0,0.09931315352679797,0.0,0.0,0.07562700121145155,0.0,0.0,0.06108720103502184,0.0,0.0815830479638376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08289097470445582,0.0,0.0,0.6495335514542752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1251246381644691,0.0,0.07980651747262874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04789377745996963,0.06766869258369433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07318120017975555,0.0,0.04948780664132078,0.0,0.0538321201914611,0.0794474705283784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0937886698973792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05205617770644788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06690423488907406,0.04627589007886882,0.0,0.0,0.08382509347417598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06322699485200786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10048399938246123,0.09564119572180152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08888923043944354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16178241200501978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08623042978749487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14584168805671258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07564430318323838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0629284153874729,0.12138676858474053,0.0,0.0,0.11046513938066517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0781547348884149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1756146092496535,0.0,0.10575260015537044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06895800721263587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3106875917056457,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,starprin,2019/02/09,fuck it what is good abuout this. i HATE alcohl so much i get good at not drinking for a while and then i fuck it up for myself . i dont even enjoy it. i am the worst,-3.5481318681318683,-2.2656651538461543,-0.10432234432234287,105.73384615384614,110.79487179487178,2.2285714285714286,8.135531135531135,3.1291,-2.4616622710622718,125,1,34,0,7,44,30,39,0.371,0.511,0.11800000000000001,-0.924,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,7,3,0,2,0,3,3,0,0,0,2,7,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,6,3,4,7,2,4,0,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,2,28,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35678659659983863,0.2982229143688293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20107139899428306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.562876374430329,0.15905072990420122,0.0,0.0,0.5106784492659363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30055899047069456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22378913616668736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ABowlAndLuckyCharms,2019/02/09,"Puked blood this morning, feel better now.... do you think I still need to go get checked out It definitely wasn’t anything I ate yesterday because when i first started puking it was clear and then for like 4-5 pukings it was coffee grounds vomitus. I continued to throw up around every 20 minutes for a couple more hours but it was just the water I couldn’t keep down, no blood. About 8 hours after I puked blood ( and 5 hours after the last time I puked) I feel fine besides a bit feverish and lightheaded. I’ve been able to hold down water and food since then. Do you think I need to go to the ER still or was the blood just from the violent puking?",2.8971408743927825,4.650675244274812,3.6469118667591935,90.1274253990285,75.18320610687023,6.595697432338652,24.122831367106176,7.348242739294969,0.9156656488549624,511,16,107,6,11,162,80,131,0.147,0.7809999999999999,0.07200000000000001,-0.9153,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,2,0,2,8,4,1,0,7,0,9,8,4,0,1,20,21,9,0,3,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,6,4,2,4,0,1,3,3,1,1,1,7,2,11,3,16,13,2,26,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,1,18,65,16,0,0.18299471827845487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15058906098267127,0.1629040964010803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11155188176697874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16184395740924853,0.1997828371435688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2024801751599412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1541809426470804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1850552558753164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15565521388475856,0.22127793971950607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09560718747202787,0.0,0.20800023102516704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5406388080760807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1626541137053049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14916511937663549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08940197593059633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2713765297716368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15137512197517866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12952460346613634,0.0,0.29227963680217645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2345112529399265,0.0,0.0,0.10670569183270916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Jordatov,2019/02/09,"I'm 21 and a serious alcoholic. I need advice. I meant advice, not help. I do not want to quit alcohol. I want to stop being the way I am. Throwback to years 17-19 of my life. Alcohol was an amazing thing.(I live in Ireland, 18 is the legal age). It was once a week, meeting my friends and having great nights together. Now however, those nights still happen. But when my friends wake up Sunday morning, dying with a hangover, I go straight to the nearest bar to get some more of that buzz. I drink alone, a lot. Sitting in my kitchen, playing music and downing jameson and cokes. My life is pretty shit, but I won't go into that. All I will go into is that being tipsy, drunk, absolutely fucked, I feel happy. It's an escape. I just want to go back to being able to enjoying alcohol on the weekends with my friends, not depending on it. Is there any way to that point from here? Or is it an all or none situation? Relatives don't want to invite me to parties anymore with how drunk I get. My dad has lost all respect he had of me and barely talks to me. I just feel clueless and if anyone has ever been in a somewhat similar situation; your knowledge would be hugely appreciated. Thank you in advance.",2.4232925897631787,4.489536218487404,4.197158135981667,84.23941940412531,77.57142857142857,6.8482811306340725,27.624904507257448,7.84624498591911,1.8325815126050429,932,40,182,15,22,314,142,238,0.127,0.6920000000000001,0.18100000000000002,0.9609,1,1,5,0,0,0,40.0,0,2,0,3,10,14,2,0,12,0,22,15,2,2,4,41,41,13,1,7,10,1,2,0,3,3,6,0,1,0,9,11,10,1,4,6,0,5,6,4,0,0,6,2,25,10,29,28,8,35,0,1,0,1,10,14,2,7,13,129,34,1,0.11277952463475825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22041369242383727,0.0,0.4821080535638917,0.0,0.11680557499658267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07669394412632419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11184698367539768,0.0788580658791825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08672049297952908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11704734098024765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.110480998528612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10201553678177692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11404943260178756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2613995429133221,0.10426285321978522,0.11784529363688215,0.0,0.2563808114203929,0.0,0.0,0.12433982405651862,0.0,0.0,0.09973056117441688,0.12005590110043934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07559373807232855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1593190270726341,0.0,0.0,0.09958638646916616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12311217361475894,0.09588111881050496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08362458849250548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21167188795039985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12010651301051273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1066131043437335,0.0,0.0,0.11473732152453335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11995490675515187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11576656135226195,0.0,0.2535378219326335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09006587405656892,0.09428873252748242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09064790988895316,0.0,0.10383223387668604,0.0,0.0,0.07492570486290719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.266081142585228,0.17903827440059966,0.09046493190594557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08011533849789243,0.0,0.0,0.07262631624282398 alcoholism,KovAJSJ,2019/02/09,Advice for alcoholics Just smoke weed. That shits 10000x better than alcohol you’ll forget alc even exists,4.108333333333333,6.696841499999998,3.2094444444444434,80.06750000000002,106.22222222222223,6.2444444444444445,15.611111111111107,7.1686216300943375,1.2885111111111107,89,2,12,2,4,26,18,18,0.228,0.639,0.132,-0.2732,0,0,3,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,1,2,2,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,6,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34999150413136537,0.0,0.7655319457024035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3167649506202009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2365624493462733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3676478760483056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Shes_ChamPagne3,2019/05/13,"1 year! Today marks my one year completely sober from alcohol. I'm not going to write anything too long, I just wanted to share my achievement with everyone here. If you are struggling, my inbox is open, and I'd love to return the favor and help. You can definitely do it. ❤️ Much Love.",1.8294736842105264,4.1915283508771966,3.6413157894736834,85.87671052631579,81.28070175438596,6.60701754385965,21.780701754385966,7.793537801064563,1.1398912280701752,224,7,44,4,6,75,47,57,0.042,0.674,0.284,0.945,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,2,0,1,3,5,0,1,1,0,4,3,0,0,0,9,9,3,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,6,4,5,9,1,7,0,0,0,2,7,1,0,1,5,26,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2893334431371167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.222791886093448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28386055925042064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25869895173517043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1538649735763425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1814680037339272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2395920083876685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4886979233442337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19902142012836516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18345708319901985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28303106738676603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2566251804709328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1596865527736708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3486890042274156 alcoholism,ChickenWithAGun,2019/05/13,"2 months off drugs down the drain. I’ve been drowning my sorrows and loneliness in alcohol. I figured it was better than the other options. Well, last night after a couple months of sobriety I gave in. I was on my way to get a sack of nug and ran in to this chick I smoked meth with for the first time. We caught up, she’s always been cool I never had an issue with her addiction. Sure, she’s not who she really is when she’s tweaking, but I still like her as a person. I end up getting her number to hang out after me and my brother go see Detective Pikachu. I really didn’t have any plans to go see her. Well.... I ended up cracking. I snorted a few kpins, drank a fith of liquor, and ended up hitting her pipe twice. I barely felt anything, but I still feel dirty about it. Kpins and all. 2 months down the drain. All because I got lonely. On the bright side I met some cool stoners who blew down on a sev with me. I still just feel so depressed about the situation. I woke up and started guzzling whiskey just to forget about it. I was hoping it was just a meth dream that I get from time to time.... nope. All because I know this isn’t alcohol related, but if I wasn’t drunk I wouldn’t have thought of snorting k pins or hitting the pipe a couple times. Edit: i barely felt the meth do to the kpins and booze.",1.1483238017429187,3.1603449080882378,2.6984477124182997,93.65907952069722,81.53676470588233,5.500217864923748,21.103485838779964,6.605766666666668,0.2583557734204791,1013,30,224,10,27,331,145,272,0.085,0.821,0.094,-0.156,0,2,10,0,0,0,38.0,1,0,0,3,13,12,0,0,18,2,15,9,0,0,5,38,39,15,1,3,9,1,4,1,0,1,4,0,0,2,10,12,7,0,7,4,0,5,7,3,2,2,19,11,37,9,39,17,5,44,0,3,3,0,17,17,0,5,22,151,47,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1327032567172864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2601838926621469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10128879764859763,0.0,0.0,0.0827803177270746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100173107451433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14841049629679268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10765995903107073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2693830243807125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10484554566497743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1411677157421602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3234489433552552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12310030961268607,0.0,0.23375905510458905,0.0,0.0,0.10354315488857438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.190796110977812,0.0,0.13836349968876294,0.0,0.09735829949108196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1209049819803379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12705409975676024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06689941713485388,0.09922588954214276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05947094485366775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29149027042804515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09388538942448124,0.0,0.0,0.11423500471929406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10628961121691874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15596622674188335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19400549781945872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13682919619340606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08616085349061699,0.0,0.2916403018140149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1147287287900016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09663972309818712,0.2839260876955064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09662330845690427,0.0,0.0,0.21889909990631773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,AustinGiovanni,2019/05/13,"Hello, I'm a 25 year old that has been experiencing detrimental effects of alcoholism in all ascepcts of my life I've been on a 5 day bender, and I haven't eaten in those five days. I'm really curious to how this is even possible, I still feel somewhat coherent while I'm drinking. Obviously, when I stop, I have delirium tremens. Could someone explain what is going on here?",5.161643835616438,6.255895301369865,6.914958904109592,71.48997260273975,68.58904109589041,10.771506849315069,35.14794520547945,10.793553405168565,4.1979008219178064,299,15,54,9,5,104,57,73,0.034,0.925,0.040999999999999995,0.10099999999999999,1,0,2,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,2,0,8,4,0,2,2,10,15,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,1,3,1,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,2,5,0,7,11,2,13,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,8,36,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3197844343467368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2389097350978621,0.0,0.0,0.3859554599115064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2931301674748125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19763770663408664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15129900039015026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17005854216986738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21135405051408404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31399014107992995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3373353521639872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19169354061672186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25353547104078417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2389643929506137,0.2501685568094399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19269344526990614 alcoholism,nova233,2019/05/13,"Cannot stop drinking?! Yes, it’s another Reddit post about quitting drinking. Odd, because no matter how many I read I can’t stop drinking. Like it’s totally, fucking ridiculous. I’ve been drinking for multiple years, binging. And it’s completely destroying everything. My job, my life, my relationship: family and girlfriend. Memory, happyness. And every god damn Friday when I finally feel better and “deserving” of a drink, I get totally fucked and the cycle starts again. It’s decieving, because things are somewhat good. I have my own “business” (2 guys in a truck cleaning windows), a girlfriend and a OK bank account. But I can’t stop getting fucked up and every Friday, my brain tricks me by saying: “it’s all good my friend, your doing OK these days” but everything Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday etc, I wake up feeling the god damn, deathly recycle of the week and it’s just empty and draining and really fuckin hopeless maaaaan... Anyways, hope everyone has a lovely week <3 take care of your selves.",4.5818333333333365,7.471136627777778,5.1577777777777785,75.89500000000002,74.3888888888889,8.222222222222221,32.77777777777778,8.998388855275968,3.55927777777778,803,41,123,19,18,257,119,180,0.145,0.659,0.196,0.7901,1,0,5,0,0,1,40.0,0,2,0,2,6,21,9,0,8,3,8,13,2,1,3,25,20,14,1,1,3,0,2,1,3,0,1,1,2,1,8,10,5,3,2,6,2,0,4,10,0,0,1,3,16,11,9,19,6,19,0,1,0,5,9,3,6,2,16,73,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12007837328846485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13961387744467305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012787147871512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1278359853766124,0.0,0.0,0.11675510186627605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12006620986228865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07385233918074767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5609027673147273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12771386926439907,0.0,0.0,0.1929667065231494,0.10942345323425916,0.2058363864776127,0.0,0.10795402093498553,0.0,0.11580388158865206,0.0,0.0,0.12544496977071093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08847357098962502,0.3176002589293839,0.11965813523820665,0.0,0.0,0.19209855554358876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11338729788260225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1137386758878327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1136379101763779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08088493438786909,0.055945970221098935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10335375153641826,0.0,0.0,0.1160996667163992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1096731772071576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1218002010264598,0.1145454275649083,0.0,0.0733608815049828,0.0,0.0,0.12294565093592034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0910664776342661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08105390885366506,0.0,0.0,0.2872175941869311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08610060612764965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07607830443300599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1837131500502948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07374354378219118 alcoholism,anon222939493,2019/05/13,"Am 21 y/o military. I have no idea if im an alcoholic or just doing what a kid does.. As the title states i am 21 years old. Only reason im asking this is because how much ive been consuming lately. Usually i work 12 to 14 hours a day, i work in a big metal tin so im hot as hell during the day. When i come home from work i like to relax and have a beer or too of my favorite ipa. On weekends i like to buy liqour seeing as i dont have anything to do. Now i have tried to quit but its really hard. Its a stress relief for me. And if i dont have more i keep thinking about it. I dont get shakey or any withdrawals. If i do get withdrawals i just munch on junk food and it goes away. Now i know this doesnt sound like an alcoholic but ive had alcohol every day now pretty much. I even have a couple days off this week so i went and bought me a nice bourbon to enjoy until i get back to work. My wife calls me an alcoholic and it really puts me down and makes me feel guilty for it. I just need advice on if i should quit or if im doing anything wrong. Or any advice really.",-0.1707006827164932,1.359237661157028,2.6539741286381613,94.77526949335251,83.54545454545455,5.8615882141573845,17.133309378368672,6.895973343053719,-0.2151867049946099,822,16,204,10,23,290,128,242,0.078,0.8059999999999999,0.11599999999999999,0.8301,0,0,5,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,6,14,10,1,1,12,0,22,6,0,3,0,32,36,26,0,7,15,1,3,3,0,1,4,1,1,1,10,7,6,1,5,3,2,3,5,3,0,0,4,5,29,7,23,31,3,29,1,0,1,0,4,8,1,10,20,129,39,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18106943725289368,0.0,0.3960508668673842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1260078641299196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1524830981541834,0.0,0.08661353157430557,0.0,0.08704600471023438,0.07124072324827428,0.0,0.05647746398629661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09460413939125434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0798081940955501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10251343697117024,0.0,0.2390016180468789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08107703717056045,0.0,0.3257488927183708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061193241939693666,0.0,0.07806007839395666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04684569808963498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11203053389610954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14521453341043372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08299456160585457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09293366773017774,0.0,0.0912397840629696,0.0,0.0,0.1045885057995396,0.40030368476244577,0.0,0.0,0.08234994966919194,0.0,0.0,0.050917010807403344,0.0,0.10451117027449423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13578964682472955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061843372334280326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13621412912447595,0.06869744348607087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09721866842624474,0.0,0.0,0.07046310752705713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09425649564638733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09313699959453504,0.0,0.197085464365005,0.0,0.0,0.17805836865361224,0.09525774841980324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07382859561583999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10612816473897957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05936520582397122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06290202526916673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1020388690870009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07431677284291706,0.0,0.0,0.08588578100688095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2697958823102662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012962288152724,0.0,0.05966238334482271 alcoholism,Oughthere,2019/05/13,"So I’m sitting here... I’ve come to the point in my drinking where just to feel normal I have to drink. I’ve been to AA meetings over the years and at one time I was clean. I’m going to start school in the fall on a scholarship full ride. But by God I can’t stop drinking. I don’t want to function and be an alcoholic. I just want to function without alcohol. I currently drink about 10 IPAs a day. I’m just getting to the end of my tolerance of continuing this. I look at everything around me: my mother, my brother, my sister, my dog, my future. I just know that I won’t be long for this world if I keep this up. Deliberately or just by design. Please can anyone give me some advice? I love life. But I’m scared. And my worst enemy is my own mind. I just wanted a place to come to to express myself and what I’m going through. I’m not a teen and I’m not going through a phase. I think I’ll die from this one day and I don’t want to. I know that there are support groups out there but for fucks sake how do I stop this? I apologize for the lengthy rant but I’ve nothing good to say about my drinking anymore. Those days are gone. I just want to be normal again. Thank you for reading and any advice you can offer.",0.2232032967032964,2.2481815730769235,2.236813186813187,95.56461538461538,85.19230769230771,5.252747252747254,19.67032967032967,6.5431188927421005,0.0017637362637361598,939,27,220,10,28,313,136,260,0.099,0.816,0.085,-0.8526,1,0,7,0,0,0,31.0,0,2,0,0,17,7,1,1,11,0,16,10,0,1,0,44,47,15,1,8,16,3,1,0,0,1,3,1,1,0,9,11,7,3,4,6,1,8,7,3,1,2,3,3,33,4,37,40,4,37,0,0,1,2,13,14,1,3,14,141,42,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21087822138543336,0.0,0.2306256197905601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0733760337234111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10700829302128544,0.07544653189022522,0.0,0.0,0.09605431293180827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1858934371055388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2087606702984372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1119836740284996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5285070135706493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09556780817426327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09697400355346823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054557730131473886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09975226494223452,0.05637355294834271,0.10350798265318814,0.1839670062524651,0.09050181227275957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09590691383861157,0.0,0.0,0.11859857566499965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07621330755924795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09548853881555087,0.0906092367326824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.097384405549181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10894873660785644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21143914283314533,0.10353343089347332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14623232993391433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11273304730495555,0.11844233685019093,0.1020008402071246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10792969007859146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08580680099208453,0.1080272145568838,0.10920105709377058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07637252265942487,0.0,0.0,0.18041928333425072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1224441981375334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09934027492397242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06913827759267065,0.0,0.0,0.06291764382443224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3182125250224955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10401222257118872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06948437833713457 alcoholism,JackyeLondon,2019/05/13,"I turned into an aggressive drinker after getting beat up pretty badly. What do to? So, I just turned 31 last month. I'm not exactly an alcoholic but I like to drink now and then. I don't crave alcohol tho. Backstory is, October last year, on a Friday after getting outta work I decided to grab some drinks with a friend. Everything was normal, drinking only beer. So we went to another bar and I drank some hard licor (moonshine). Next thing I know is all hell broke lose. I don't remember much, just some girls waking me up on a sideway, they were calling an ambulance. I tried to stood up and said ""Nah there's no need"", and after that I just remember waking up in the hospital. 2 broken ribs, swollen face, a bit of my ear ripped off. I never went through something like that. Hell, I didn't even had a street fight in 15 years. Apparently I picked up a fight with 4 or 5 homeless / drug users. But eventually I got better. So after 2 months I decided to go out with some friends, and it was good. I woke up in my bed, in one piece, nothing was stolen. So I text a friend to see if I did something wrong. I did. Suddenly I tried to pick a fight with some bad hombres. A friend tackled me and they called an Uber to get me out. And it happened a third time at a BBC, same history, but this time I was mad at my own friends. This has been a disgrace. I don't understand. I am not a violent person, I'm always extremely calm and kind of stoic. I never picked up fights, never dissed anyone and all of a sudden this starts to happen. Maybe it's some kind of PTSD? I noticed that this only happens if I mix drinks. It's like everything is normal and then boom, something in my brain turns off. Maybe suicidal tendencies? I know I may sound like a scumbag, but if someone went through something like this, please share. I don't know what to do. Not drinking seems the obviously answer. But I would like to be able to drink some and not get killed. Like overcoming a fear. Thanks for reading.",1.803028967254405,4.026599879093201,3.1719338790931992,89.99890837531488,80.43576826196472,6.589647355163728,23.527015113350124,7.734863291789972,1.1636539546599507,1540,54,322,26,40,501,204,397,0.17800000000000002,0.647,0.175,-0.5259,1,0,15,0,4,0,62.0,1,0,2,4,11,35,10,1,22,0,24,19,6,3,7,68,54,27,2,7,16,0,2,7,5,2,4,4,1,2,15,19,11,0,10,9,0,4,13,16,0,2,18,7,40,19,49,33,14,48,2,2,1,0,18,22,2,13,29,206,55,2,0.07309938110105592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15624201491133874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06082454094540559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07665107473690877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05111278691112646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12206985971238656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06465046222568832,0.07980559158863627,0.0,0.0,0.08160308472558564,0.14928528220989482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4296573855239953,0.08477207455969127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048281451800564895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313940205166519,0.0,0.0,0.08225712657635252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2823820025391041,0.0,0.1527656382384388,0.0,0.041544062855628616,0.06131229269092014,0.05846425282206282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19392462387975107,0.0,0.0654826872848329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0808736346139662,0.15224351316183413,0.1205205244175102,0.11917150408357945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2499886564952988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08177950935454477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14687630708125635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11669445717217446,0.0,0.053736456031865484,0.05420226484753827,0.16913624741710334,0.0,0.07774202109537066,0.0,0.14324374602170367,0.07014082766767375,0.08322412988298791,0.0,0.0,0.04953403246092794,0.11119074662324263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06382756000287287,0.0,0.08024116911680085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07436835028165509,0.0,0.0,0.08544926469882841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07311916283173367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16561469782956711,0.0,0.06953425101694098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05825074252876593,0.06654693113365047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06193686839046692,0.22510189953692775,0.0,0.0,0.0517401181837771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0799588584149054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06730008890626774,0.0,0.0,0.048563980667381636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08524967393935319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09925936279643993,0.23853340686674984,0.0,0.07609903371433535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20329157589611865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05321722005099575,0.0,0.0,0.051927703010486166,0.07992269790091222,0.0,0.09414720954345646 alcoholism,classcass717,2019/05/13,"Looking for some advice. Hello I am hoping to get some advice on how to help my husband. I will try to keep this as short and too the point as possible. My husband has always had issues with drinking and will engage in binge drinking every weekend. His excuses are ""its just to have fun"". I am worried his drinking will increase. The drinking is really the only cause of our fights and I find myself enabling and conpromising (like lets just drink at resturants and not have alcohol at home). He will tell me that he will be able to stop drinking when he is ready too and that i need to be patient. I just dont know how to approach it. I am worried we have a kiddo together and i dont want him to see his dad drunk all the time. Any advice?",2.1940460210930013,4.267731630872486,3.528499520613618,88.72109060402686,78.32885906040269,5.867881112176415,24.73681687440077,6.868970318607317,0.9878414189837008,579,21,115,6,14,189,93,149,0.085,0.8320000000000001,0.083,0.1969,0,0,7,0,1,0,15.0,2,0,0,1,8,5,1,0,5,0,21,8,0,3,1,26,29,12,0,3,4,3,0,1,0,5,1,0,1,0,5,9,8,2,2,8,0,2,3,1,0,0,1,2,18,4,17,20,4,12,0,0,2,0,17,6,0,3,5,85,23,0,0.11744846100174612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34430783038050106,0.0,0.1255166864530645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09772652815349743,0.0,0.0,0.07986898096052601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12065192211634634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2752974431671036,0.6903286721137263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09895539390455776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10734576559732258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061361973366950165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07872322770216579,0.0,0.11781038254692545,0.11665282242160348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12258567921768798,0.0,0.10439358856916392,0.0,0.0,0.06454660262395147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12009900875097343,0.0,0.05737938549453716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09862712709070068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08708654564874907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08932484702217475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1110267583441381,0.13240549282392966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07524049155744153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09359121731488493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09819217239141564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10265513166599403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06848514210562219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07973979550072717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06927414528352649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23854922646247914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,afterworkguinness,2019/05/13,"Just Decided to Stop Drinking I went out for drinks with co-workers on Friday after work with the intention of just having three beers max. Long story short, I ended up having way more than three beers, blacked out, and was informed the next day that I made an ass of myself at the bar. I spent Saturday and today feeling anxious and depressed and I’ve decided that I’m done doing this to myself. Yesterday after a long conversation with my boyfriend, I finally admitted to him and myself that I have a problem with alcohol and I’ve made the decision to stop drinking. Over the years, I cannot count how many times I’ve started out the night with the intention of just having a couple drinks and then ended up getting completely hammered. I have woken up so many times feeling ashamed and embarrassed about my behavior the night before and there have been several times where I’ve woken up not even remembering what all I did the night before. I have questioned if I might have a problem with alcohol but I’ve always found some kind of excuse to validate my habits. I rarely drink so it was hard for me to think of myself as an alcoholic and it was so easy to say “well I had a light dinner so that’s probably why I got so drunk” or “I hardly ever drink so my tolerance just got low.” In reality, I just struggle with drinking in moderation and I often don’t know when I’ve reached my limit until it’s too late. Nothing terrible happened on Friday but I decided that was the last straw for me. I am proud of myself for finally admitting that I have a problem and I’m happy that I’ve made the decision to stop drinking. I never have feel shitty because of alcohol ever again and knowing that I can take control of this is empowering. However I also feel really overwhelmed! I’m finally coming to terms with the fact that I have a problem after about 5 years of denial and it’s hard for me to put my feelings about that into words. I know this will change the dynamics of a lot of social situations and stuff. For example, I’m going to Las Vegas with friends later this week and in a couple months I’m having a going away party that everyone is expecting to get hammered at. Right now I’m on a medication I’m not supposed to drink alcohol while taking so that’s a nice little reason to give everyone for why I won’t be drinking but eventually I will want to tell some of my friends the real reason and I don’t even know how to do that. Luckily I have a supportive boyfriend and family. Boyfriend’s dad is a recovering alcoholic so he has an understanding of alcoholism and my dad and step-mom are recovering alcoholics. My dad suggested AA and I will probably look into that. I guess I don’t really know my reasoning for posting all of this. Just feels nice to get it off my chest and put my intentions out into the world.",4.967259756212791,5.985097912028724,6.311857223849572,75.91702140224889,68.98204667863556,9.884701880374186,30.99541717849381,10.064110947511567,3.1921016157989235,2255,91,417,56,38,764,240,557,0.075,0.7979999999999999,0.127,0.9872,2,0,20,0,0,0,31.0,0,0,0,4,32,21,0,4,32,0,40,26,2,12,6,112,87,43,0,7,13,3,9,0,2,5,9,1,0,0,26,39,23,5,27,14,1,6,8,11,2,2,18,13,53,10,79,63,7,78,0,3,2,1,18,28,1,9,42,299,79,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4521671068325554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04229429046902527,0.04400681967540733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059748069557617765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04968975377137474,0.0,0.0,0.03223986314423926,0.0,0.09000710848265635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055948194956821684,0.0455580876657939,0.055451768048512026,0.0,0.059318074963807775,0.0,0.11703851218241805,0.0,0.03410820402166391,0.0,0.045552115623442066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054122499647043854,0.0,0.5180983090343033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09368564378868294,0.0,0.0,0.06986368035104164,0.09567994099578564,0.0,0.1010729655707928,0.0,0.0,0.0498578354031248,0.0,0.16044972157453455,0.0,0.0,0.1738077359456044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05798865501788816,0.08172184234960463,0.0,0.08289495230952447,0.05073472007670909,0.060114619995649377,0.0,0.08459828192397667,0.0,0.058261786046647925,0.0,0.0467684360131178,0.05629996124050112,0.1421310263792003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05507442165882392,0.14532853852491806,0.04311055052072107,0.05965965163576609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05300738940826053,0.0,0.09360793560382906,0.044412364574813935,0.0,0.0,0.04496324814730459,0.0,0.15013091792630487,0.0,0.10723969377648183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05327881369465822,0.0,0.056105513000748224,0.0,0.06194145830395165,0.04221447341875356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040790269985160034,0.0,0.05624669007558058,0.14889462714549895,0.0,0.05074719360111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05065181611554149,0.0,0.11404381429410608,0.20242562107667328,0.0,0.1063335323031304,0.059246350173209526,0.0,0.0,0.060197803802904064,0.06776245522723688,0.16313215337862827,0.0,0.0,0.059911476763338814,0.04516582379196357,0.0,0.04205843759507572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059748069557617765,0.0,0.0,0.059448013037970135,0.0,0.05391237009576401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037434200332747934,0.0,0.0,0.13264950588989774,0.0,0.055289727959029485,0.060543785970440925,0.0,0.06001635775608966,0.0,0.0,0.07952996676255226,0.0,0.04622619828348957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03388831537759579,0.0,0.0,0.09251776429690664,0.0,0.050131374434191016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05505798156611419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031194547450532958,0.04197981030889567,0.04242333873841266,0.0,0.04755241171934115,0.04902744617516445,0.09544588204091804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07700577990428842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06811591520337859 alcoholism,GER_3spectre,2019/10/05,So tomorrow is the day I want to try to stop drinking. I may need your help I need to get out my moms house. I need the extra money and time with a clear mind. Anyone willing to talk to me the next few days to help me along?,0.9282000000000004,1.9413040200000005,2.7369999999999983,97.7035,78.8,5.8000000000000025,18.5,5.985473137389443,-0.4974000000000003,171,3,44,1,4,57,36,50,0.043,0.777,0.18100000000000002,0.7269,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,3,1,0,0,1,12,8,2,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,0,9,6,2,7,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,1,6,28,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1672511850098221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3085228582069258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2343207092257223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12496987333417538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32065565217613795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27599970625655096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24151945551983384,0.28014309614927685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5320817103005748,0.0,0.0,0.2543873253451751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19997830370905206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19225643158455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13947692788547597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.162398169365038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14108381276535614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,anon746294,2019/10/05,"Went to ER, Diagnosed w/ liver failure The text on the release papers say diag w/ alcohol abuse. very mild ascites due to liver failure. Stop drinking alcohol. Follow up w/ primary. I have already stopped alcohol due to taking on a new job, but has anyone else dealt with these very mild ascites? What did you have to do and what is the life expectancy. I guess yeah, you could say I'm panicking. I started drinking about 8 years ago, but I'm also obese. I started heavily drinking 3 years ago after my father passed.",2.310374149659861,5.115641908163268,3.850102040816324,82.00501700680273,84.0,6.531972789115647,28.574829931972786,7.793537801064563,2.414650340136054,409,20,69,8,12,135,66,98,0.14,0.8320000000000001,0.027999999999999997,-0.8402,1,0,6,0,1,0,16.0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,1,7,11,2,0,0,9,15,4,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,3,2,7,2,0,3,0,3,0,0,1,0,2,2,7,0,10,12,0,18,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,1,12,35,10,2,0.0,0.17471275859078045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2614239546106216,0.4727609473540702,0.0,0.0,0.16272276982035289,0.11792152961543102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10310555529604958,0.15108740402530674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11773263545248998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14966603026611466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4333559760547605,0.0,0.0,0.12318163203426814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16244081299293245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14632859249701674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10415343422648364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1424151551473339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23452788730803736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20874203653568693,0.0,0.0,0.2465617693515653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11086951958412518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24333538985043002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13669437132058468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18991530116387628 alcoholism,NW_thoughtful,2019/10/05,"I'm sick and I can't eat. I need to hear from people who don't know me. I have been drinking a lot of whiskey for a long time. It hasn't really interfered with my life and I depend on it to sleep. Over the last few months, I've had a decreased appetite and found that I can only eat really high protein meals. Sometimes, I can't eat when out with friends but I'll eat when I get home. Over the last few days, I can't even eat when I'm home, the favorite sandwich that I can always eat. I've been desperately trying to get anything in. I'm drinking electrolyte water and soy milk and water and eating cheese sticks. Last night I couldn't eat the cheese sticks. I've been throwing up in the morning for a while, but last night when trying to eat the cheese sticks and soy milk, I threw up four times. I desperately need to eat. My stomach feels like a rock. In the longer term, I know I need to taper the whiskey, but I currently have the type of dependence where quitting would be dangerous. I can't afford a program or the time off work, but I would be interested in learning about baclofen or naltrexone. I know my situation is fucked up. I need to figure out how to eat. Thanks. ",2.6425619834710763,4.252900239669426,3.6108181818181855,90.7262272727273,75.5289256198347,6.658181818181817,24.083471074380164,7.365786028017652,0.8524175206611577,926,29,202,11,20,297,116,242,0.084,0.843,0.073,-0.5423,2,0,4,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,2,8,6,2,0,16,0,20,26,2,3,0,35,38,19,0,7,6,0,1,1,1,2,2,1,2,0,5,11,21,0,7,5,0,2,7,2,0,1,6,2,23,4,29,27,4,36,0,0,0,1,3,15,1,5,20,118,28,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060750390128849835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0600812281256061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04708558164834728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14304453096627914,0.0,0.8217850218283215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04822259218535264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0369161842551323,0.05215854869270836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08005198833654148,0.056407550482013916,0.06749681454122514,0.07628970130327725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0822878761235169,0.0,0.0,0.07713935468044927,0.14647049959072206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12037359860173945,0.2380524457000815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0515693101192122,0.03566912812733592,0.0,0.0,0.06461178800279017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062070717369642675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05827609784549837,0.0,0.0,0.21654474882503275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13703037777473706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0555275973405461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05061612566656756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07765540501270314,0.0,0.0,0.09354449200163104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08206659811092586,0.07306299324483738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07220902004434605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0672180437897883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1277186198944296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09913835632951457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053152343271651865,0.0,0.0,0.10372879654656472,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,KingRico0071967,2019/10/05,Make free money Check out #startup 1Q! 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Rgtsr w/ my link 1Q.com/ucj54n #appthatpays,-0.3125396825396827,0.4833682222222251,0.7735449735449755,96.3866666666667,126.03703703703705,1.542857142857143,14.968253968253968,3.1291,-1.2111968253968255,110,3,20,0,7,34,25,27,0.0,0.769,0.231,0.784,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,1,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8513990909501787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5245184343082798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,GtBobSnaget,2019/10/05,So I’m going to this party soon and I want to drink because everyone there will be drinking and what not. I know for a fact I was never addicted to alcohol and hadn’t had a drink in over a year. How many beers should be my limit considering I have an addictive personality and alcoholism runs in the Family.,4.93209677419355,5.525234306451615,7.013064516129031,72.38959677419358,68.83870967741936,11.361290322580645,30.01612903225807,11.20814326018867,3.5645032258064515,245,9,48,8,4,87,47,62,0.0,0.92,0.08,0.5307,0,0,6,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,5,0,8,8,0,1,2,12,12,6,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,2,4,6,1,1,4,0,2,3,0,0,0,3,0,5,0,7,5,0,8,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,37,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4459331610112061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4371581699242417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12467885750887088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6010810743086273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19543603234326384,0.0,0.0,0.19281154910974466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11623842984545554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11240367904575516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.207360100131846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15774521859708546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17858665825206715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1206363848146069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13170984082241466 alcoholism,RockyMtnHigh89,2019/10/05,I need help... I have a good life in a new town with my partner but I can't stop drinking. We work opposite hours most of the time. And I'm starting to hide my beer and mickys of hard bar. I want to stop but the late stressful shifts get at me.,-0.706666666666667,1.164540555555554,1.2496296296296308,102.13333333333335,87.88888888888891,4.340740740740742,18.259259259259263,5.46131890053228,-0.7176074074074075,186,5,48,1,6,61,42,54,0.147,0.7070000000000001,0.146,-0.2584,0,0,2,0,0,0,7.0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,4,0,2,4,0,0,0,11,7,4,0,2,2,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,3,2,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,8,1,7,7,1,10,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,7,26,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2692379359795507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14359221968600014,0.0,0.0,0.2305222117498854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2462020785998313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18421902664376846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27066140302039104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31003076419246106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19412716477303305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2037898996453279,0.0,0.26544156219895143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19453271043134696,0.0,0.0,0.4595560154220163,0.31482755316920563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16026103840646758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1621073727311001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20008632414348854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,dinidar,2019/10/05,"What's the difference between seeing Alcohol Use Disorder as a disorder vs. a disease? On the surface the term ""Alcohol Use Disorder"" appears to reject the disease theory of addiction. What is the difference between the term ""disease"" and the term ""disorder."" Would it be healthier to start using the correct terminology instead of ""alcoholic"" or are these terms the same? Please and thank you.",7.792272727272724,10.198837924242426,8.509515151515153,57.56427272727278,63.6969696969697,13.158787878787875,45.01818181818181,12.340626583579946,7.23885818181818,317,21,41,13,5,106,42,66,0.153,0.7809999999999999,0.066,-0.7476,0,0,3,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,11,0,4,4,0,3,1,11,11,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,4,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,8,9,5,8,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,2,5,33,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15858200897948746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4663843837348549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3039669969111039,0.6668774770211752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15968060076516402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11591946708142722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10296326992967808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13392774240937227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.376913929811678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10333656531100202,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,jreed11,2019/10/05,"I am 20 years old, male, and have about 3 glasses of neat whiskey a night—is this too much? As the title says, I drink around three glasses of whiskey a night to wind down and enjoy myself. It doesn’t get me shitfaced, at least not anymore, and I can go days without doing this routine if I’m away traveling or out with friends. But when I’ve little else to do—which can be often—I just drink the whiskey, smoke a few cigarettes, and listen to music. I’ve been doing this for a month now and I am not sure whether it’s okay or too much. I know that many people say that once you’re asking the question like this, you’re in danger territory. But I’m honestly just curious. I also only weigh around 130lb at a height of 5’9”, so it doesn’t take much to feel “drunk.” Help me out?",2.814672801635993,3.8089054723926417,3.8240644171779152,91.8393277096115,74.03067484662577,6.6603271983640076,24.01278118609407,6.816661863887847,0.5939860940695292,604,17,137,5,12,195,107,163,0.049,0.81,0.141,0.9231,0,0,7,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,0,11,8,1,0,8,1,11,7,0,0,1,25,20,15,0,1,11,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,0,1,9,10,7,0,3,7,0,2,5,1,0,1,1,4,9,7,21,18,5,20,0,0,0,0,8,11,0,4,8,85,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1354206005572425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16793911195028924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3014958104145131,0.15830941387934064,0.0,0.15909987430074393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10920985838325924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3317761493528331,0.0,0.0,0.14146128058297305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0856230530327284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13083114584618308,0.0,0.08847281039932207,0.0,0.09623944333624934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11350458299093233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09306446684364636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08273064269510652,0.1697224951177598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1716835011740137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13516503715228556,0.0,0.3734516746718887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3178269786013958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17769314028588218,0.18034085919536666,0.0,0.12879019074699136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11739856921039273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18969880407750525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2693308630769292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15960031393050975,0.0,0.12732210118490933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16323707067364107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10904897613902824 alcoholism,Adesire,2019/10/05,"Im only truly happy whilst drunk I'm trying to cut down on my alcohol intake though it is nearly impossible to resist and I'm also trying to cut down on all other stimulants including masturbation to try and get some more dopamine out of exercise. Does anyone know how to feel happy without the use of these things?",4.436557377049184,6.450105114754102,6.190950819672133,72.40609836065575,71.62295081967213,8.814426229508197,25.31475409836065,9.3871,2.5176268852459023,256,8,42,6,5,88,47,61,0.096,0.755,0.149,0.6908,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,2,0,1,0,1,3,0,3,1,11,7,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,3,2,0,2,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,1,2,14,7,3,7,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,1,1,29,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25638145080928065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1918489228879417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1677445144395562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20993917858603325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12130126754062405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12533848845844053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5107586297272588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2591344901614925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318434392524132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18245569190854846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15937971393472572,0.0,0.23570173543067274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4886315525551221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2071976325225392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312562199196803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,monzano00,2018/12/26,"Need advice for friend with an alcoholic father. Before I go into detail about this, I should preface this with saying that I am asking this for a friend and that she gave me the green light to ask here about the problem. I will paraphrase what she has told me, so mind the direct language. The dad struggles with alcoholism and it is really hard on her family. Her mom is trying to give him an ultimatum of ""fix your problem or leave"", really the whole family is visibly annoyed with him. He apparently wallows in self pity amd throws accusatory phrases at them. They don't allow alcohol in the house, so he often gets his fix from his trips to Mexico where he gets wasted with friends. Her mom is trying to pay the bills and figure out how to maintain things but he gets pissed off at her because he is the ""man"" of the house and doesn't like it when she tries to do that kind of stuff. So, he gets angry and says "" oh no yes of course because I'm just an useless alcoholic who went to Mexico just to get drunk I get it"". So he recognizes the problem but doesn't do anything about it. He also makes himself look visibly suicidal and the family is scared that he will take his own life if they keep pushing him. My friend seems to be the only one in the family that cares enough to try and analyse the situation and try different approaches but she is getting worn out to the point of resentment and lack of empathy for him. Forgiving him would just be allowing the cycle of self pity and anger to continue, like it has for the past 8 years but he still refuses to do anything about it while the family makes it very clear that they are sick of his alcoholism. Her sister doesn't even visit anymore because of it and her mom has told her to not to go face to face with him because that's what her sister did. All in all, it seems like he knows about the problem and is fine with playing the victim, but doesn't care enough about anything really to do something about it, so he just spews low effort apologies and pretends that the family is happy-go-lucky. My friend is sick of the constant temper negative/dismissive attitude of everyone in the family toward the problem but doesn't explode in his face about it because her mom told her not to do that. If you have any insights or tips for how to approach this or would like more info, please let me know. It hate seeing how much this has torn into her and how her efforts to help are either dismissed or aren't enough to change things.",8.213809015737528,6.543405476482619,8.00071663554726,75.56932782075224,62.74233128834357,11.612732284164665,34.14430514803948,10.472087959537523,3.2799400906908502,1974,63,385,38,23,634,221,489,0.19899999999999998,0.7290000000000001,0.07200000000000001,-0.9969,4,0,6,0,0,0,37.0,0,2,4,2,29,33,7,2,28,1,39,13,4,8,3,77,72,38,1,12,19,8,1,4,5,5,8,2,0,3,32,25,6,2,8,3,2,9,10,18,0,1,7,7,44,15,68,57,11,34,0,4,3,0,77,18,1,9,11,273,76,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06004189863202448,0.0,0.3283221945452432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04913636238884257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04178370198588352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06093546351215388,0.0,0.0,0.15168834997289204,0.0,0.11488279771219087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1872770037343694,0.0,0.052283911739985665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12529153146330893,0.0,0.06499909921442787,0.0,0.0,0.06639861913087368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0641954029609519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1904627495162345,0.0,0.040582866829993625,0.0,0.0,0.05871191842831192,0.0,0.0,0.4054643898234346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2373555636141269,0.0,0.22471193000299888,0.05894222515002076,0.10475930865196983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05504132702404359,0.06066275733813504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04118429765993701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.141795149773703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05461382556222556,0.0,0.06398397303687549,0.06753550566955108,0.0,0.0,0.06505981811254845,0.0,0.06283016422772249,0.04339937672861804,0.12007280497653056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051597083580150326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08202805617761573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06204044169682009,0.2878476416901096,0.0,0.0,0.045168058493044096,0.04555959305610511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04163572071564965,0.046730567274344284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05865479428140378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06744653607354917,0.0580839886438889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2939657623909768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1180868807401452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09772470980184236,0.0615156844866334,0.0,0.04896253195860805,0.111871749644036,0.1281979876762252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06906509317302796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04730222513720507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0490688760833477,0.0,0.0,0.06423411007131159,0.0703381325196793,0.06720924044153234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04619788184506023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08164069168009876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17613575528493575,0.0,0.2085805910848156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050697340581971166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056958760521745526,0.0,0.06859949810028163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08729543033489988,0.0,0.0,0.03956761369873405 alcoholism,candymesss,2018/12/26,"Delirrium I have been always interested after how long period of drinking alcohol, people have delirrium? 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Whenever I finish work at 2am or early morning I tend to open a couple of cans of beer. I need an alternative, no caffeine or high sugar soft drinks because I’ll need to go bed and nothing ‘boring’ like squash because I need to want to actually drink it as I decompress after a shift. I like a couple of hours to just sit and chill, that’s not going to change. But what can be in my hand that isn’t beer? I’m in the UK if that matters.",3.3185431400282885,4.037938732673268,5.108429985855729,84.13653465346535,72.56435643564356,7.751626591230551,25.319660537482317,7.957251820313856,1.2854769448373418,376,11,81,5,7,129,72,101,0.068,0.843,0.09,0.2686,0,0,4,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,5,0,4,6,1,0,0,14,12,7,0,5,6,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,3,5,0,0,4,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,3,7,3,15,11,0,14,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,3,8,45,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.19533764431897566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2440442967723373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2117539679500608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4429699542000461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3921819919691757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22752314575497726,0.167893614004077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21149124383460008,0.0,0.0,0.1971277335036676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19558650199747968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4452719218151343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18784656132240984,0.0,0.19206910277727812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11806581438694652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14572659102234295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ashtoah,2019/06/27,"Any tips on quitting alcohol? Once I've started making my own money I was just drinking everyday until I wasnt able to stand anymore, I dont drink this bad anymore but I pop a few beers after work everyday anyway and it just became like a habbit, I'd say I am addicted since I have a need to have a beer even if I dont want to. Also it just drains like a £100 every month from my wallet and I want to stop. Any suggestions?",0.6780676328502402,2.5233809130434786,3.4031884057971027,88.87031400966184,82.26086956521739,6.262801932367151,21.09178743961353,7.3871296695380915,0.736438164251207,332,10,72,5,9,117,61,92,0.102,0.818,0.079,0.2099,0,0,5,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,6,3,0,0,5,0,7,6,0,1,0,12,12,6,0,4,5,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,2,5,1,0,4,1,0,3,1,0,0,2,1,10,2,8,10,2,9,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,9,45,13,1,0.18190539949015566,0.0,0.0,0.19830373568968773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19440155109044685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454696822516668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24740381891049426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3608025537105642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15188341038066722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4263835468834784,0.3563960787829853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12014680077256612,0.0,0.1532631445860042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17773957958850134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12142326667825508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14519515439430047,0.0,0.0,0.13488054880700276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19372331370701135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19347878353599024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14465847482269453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15047402621678774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1287535780210851,0.0,0.0,0.15208105915837536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21458503525136227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13242929731168498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Chicago_sauce_mnstr,2019/06/27,"The Perfect High Did you know Shel Silverstein also wrote poems for adults? Long but worth the read... &#x200B; &#x200B; There once was a boy named Gimmesome Roy. He was nothing like me or you. ’Cause laying back and getting high was all he cared to do. As a kid, he sat in the cellar, sniffing airplane glue. And then he smoked bananas –– which was then the thing to do. He tried aspirin in Coca–Cola, breathed helium on the sly, and his life was just one endless search to find that perfect high. But grass just made him want to lay back and eat chocolate–chip pizza all night, and the great things he wrote while he was stoned looked like shit in the morning light. And speed just made him rap all day, reds just laid him back, and Cocaine Rose was sweet to his nose, but the price nearly broke his back. He tried PCP and THC, but they didn’t quite do the trick, and poppers nearly blew his heart and mushrooms made him sick. Acid made him see the light, but he couldn’t remember it long, and hashish was just a little too weak, and smack was a lot too strong, And Quaaludes made him stumble, and booze just made him cry, Till he heard of a cat named Baba Fats who knew of the perfect high. Now, Baba Fats was a hermit cat who lived up in Nepal, High on a craggy mountaintop, up a sheer and icy wall. ""But hell,"" says Roy, ""I’m a healthy boy, and I’ll crawl or climb or fly, But I’ll find that guru who’ll give me the clue as to what’s the perfect high. ""So out and off goes Gimmesome Roy to the land that knows no time, Up a trail no man could conquer to a cliff no man could climb. For fourteen years he tries that cliff, then back down again he slides. Then sits –– and cries –– and climbs again, pursuing the perfect high. He’s grinding his teeth, he’s coughing blood, he’s aching and shaking and weak, As starving and sore and bleeding and tore, he reaches the mountain peak. And his eyes blink red like a snow–blind wolf, and he snarls the snarl of a rat, As there in perfect repose and wearing no clothes –– sits the godlike Baba Fats. ""What’s happening, Fats?"" says Roy with joy, ""I’ve come to state my biz. I hear you’re hip to the perfect trip. Please tell me what it is. For you can see,"" says Roy to he, ""that I’m about to die, So for my last ride, Fats, how can I achieve the perfect high?"" ""Well, dog my cats!"" says Baba Fats. ""here’s one more burnt–out soul, Who’s looking for some alchemist to turn his trip to gold. But you won’t find it in no dealer’s stash, or on no druggist’s shelf. Son, if you would seek the perfect high –– find it in yourself."" ""Why, you jive motherfucker!"" screamed Gimmesome Roy, ""I’ve climbed through rain and sleet, I’ve lost three fingers off my hands and four toes off my feet! I’ve braved the lair of the polar bear and tasted the maggot’s kiss. Now, you tell me the high is in myself. What kind of shit is this? My ears ’fore they froze off,"" says Roy, ""had heard all kind of crap, But I didn’t climb for fourteen years to listen to that sophomore rap. And I didn’t crawl up here to hear that the high is on the natch, So you tell me where the real stuff is or I’ll kill your guru ass!"" ""Ok, OK,"" says Baba Fats, ""you’re forcing it out of me. There is a land beyond the sun that’s known as Zaboli. A wretched land of stone and sand where snakes and buzzards scream, And in this devil’s garden blooms the mystic Tzu–Tzu tree. And every ten years it blooms one flower as white as the Key West sky, And he who eats of the Tzu–Tzu flower will know the perfect high. For the rush comes on like a tidal wave and it hits like the blazing sun. And the high, it lasts a lifetime and the down don’t ever come. But the Zaboli land is ruled by a giant who stands twelve cubits high. With eyes of red in his hundred heads, he waits for the passers–by. And you must slay the red–eyed giant, and swim the River of Slime, Where the mucous beasts, they wait to feast on those who journey by. And if you survive the giant and the beasts and swim that slimy sea, There’s a blood–drinking witch who sharpens her teeth as she guards that Tzu–Tzu tree."" ""To hell with your witches and giants,"" laughs Roy. ""To hell with the beasts of the sea.A s long as the Tzu–Tzu flower blooms, some hope still blooms for me. ""And with tears of joy in his snow–blind eye, Roy hands the guru a five, Then back down the icy mountain he crawls, pursuing that perfect high. ""Well, that is that,"" says Baba Fats, sitting back down on his stone, Facing another thousand years of talking to God alone. ""It seems, Lord"", says Fats, ""it’s always the same, old men or bright–eyed youth, It’s always easier to sell them some shit than it is to give them the truth."" &#x200B; \-Shel Silverstein",3.725281888653982,4.591522831923889,3.4714587737843567,95.70315715292463,71.73784355179704,6.198449612403103,23.00140944326991,5.46131890053228,0.02249527836504539,3613,82,824,11,66,1080,387,946,0.12300000000000001,0.769,0.10800000000000001,-0.9012,3,1,4,0,0,0,178.0,0,12,5,22,39,52,9,1,71,2,38,48,34,8,18,136,78,85,2,9,24,1,5,5,0,5,17,16,1,7,44,56,14,3,11,6,3,17,12,19,2,8,28,38,54,33,101,41,10,122,6,2,11,2,96,65,8,14,40,438,98,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04481558196368785,0.0,0.03460370717856536,0.07200967719380298,0.14065194151337385,0.1577365666474993,0.0,0.04537329063705655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23290845088673584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04411754610975056,0.04445111336997309,0.0,0.11182209520860238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06909655354446201,0.0,0.0950620598805359,0.027906137950625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04490834194759519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04238898909691551,0.0,0.08855382584831316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03914098835048836,0.036457582737721615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15819520195465378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02260724890987895,0.08301874214471876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04770629806427018,0.0,0.0,0.03826429636365754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044408406626592685,0.0,0.09753885339748823,0.05127620125363929,0.0,0.6857709083467487,0.0,0.04297774741947112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047872817710769525,0.09011992583284976,0.07134163220666531,0.07054308512957827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03056350228299261,0.10569983158898633,0.04336878952318567,0.03820897988308336,0.1148801016864377,0.07267328246019726,0.0,0.047235277147699664,0.03678735487538153,0.0,0.2456637179515172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04060678971927166,0.0,0.041519576473160937,0.0,0.0454055097141094,0.04608207509233058,0.08796440463448026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04749843234279795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04602390729885386,0.04328258980959868,0.04925173474925604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04901747199358509,0.0,0.0,0.27528592493945786,0.0,0.0,0.06896257827183169,0.03939218409781008,0.0,0.0,0.13325080979452514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034556180739073815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04953480524131735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03477949434848657,0.11346196933259765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05749450002825535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02523159815854508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08813426162784031,0.04706629199725504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02552228618982628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07781143565823644,0.0,0.03904523893080378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030738391717227014,0.0,0.1577365666474993,0.11146011235837727 alcoholism,guntergo,2019/06/27,"Is this alcoholism? I work a 9-17 job as a E-commerce support agent. Weekly it’s about 40 hours, lunch breaks included. On weekdays I drinks from 9 p.m until sleep time at 01 a.m. All in all about 5 drinks. Usually when I wake up I feel dehydrated but fine. Weekends I sometimes binge drink if I have like a party or some sort of late social event. About 10-13 drinks. I’m not binge drinking I go for about 8-10 on weekends. Sundays I don’t drink. I feel like it’s a lot better than it used to be. I can still work with no problems and show up on time. I’m asking because my roommate keeps calling me an alcoholic.",0.322558139534884,2.546169472868222,2.216713178294576,94.48739534883724,86.82945736434108,4.990387596899224,21.778294573643407,6.42735559955562,0.3351680620155042,478,17,106,5,15,158,93,129,0.053,0.7979999999999999,0.149,0.8909999999999999,1,0,8,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,3,6,6,0,0,5,0,5,11,2,1,2,16,14,7,0,2,4,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,2,9,1,2,9,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,2,12,5,19,13,4,22,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,5,15,57,16,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2721537957730211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11903623173306528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07761910141028161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11261291467078037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13001802437559656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7484087325590522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12876360707474618,0.09096447811400228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07236449430332953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1253942644017118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263552396863725,0.11317663087803485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14363362926514273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12441387677407452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10825129443221283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12183748066868763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274218170662525,0.1297967582247465,0.0,0.0,0.12593248830897252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10168579144410272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14449241729421075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14849413177481766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10997211769454457,0.14023585282398798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10213633404606934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185395310545442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,massasaugas,2019/06/27,"Hopeless and scared I need advice. I'm not sure where to turn and was hoping someone here might be able to help me. My stepfather is an alcoholic. While the effects are subtle, they are far from unnoticed. He avoids any level of conflict at all costs. He cant keep track of his son's school affairs, or conversations that he has had with my mother. He occasionally drives while under the influence. If there is a difficult conversation to be had, he will have no part of it. His son has been making suicidal threats to his friends and a mother of one of his friend was so worried she came over and talked to my mom about it. My mother told my stepfather about this and suggested he go to counseling, my stepfather said he isn't gonna make him go and that he (his son) will be fine. While it's hard to gauge his drinking, I know that he goes through at least a gallon of vodka a week while at home. He drinks all day on the weekends. He recently had a seizure at work. He fell and broke his shoulder from the fall which required surgery. The neurologist said that his alcohol intake isn't sustainable and it will kill him. Apparently a seizure, surgery, and the stern warning from the doctor wasn't enough to scare him straight and he has only increased the amount of alcohol intake. My family is terribly worried and concerned for his health but we don't know what to do. Anytime it is brought up he says that ""I like who I am and I'm not changing."" My mother has been going to al-anon meetings and talking to family members and the consensus is that it might be time for an intervention. My stepfathers sister and brother in law (who is a recovering alcoholic) have agreed to come. Friends of my stepfather have also agreed to come. I have been reading about the effectiveness of interventions and the outlook seems poor. It seems like my mother is at a loss. As her son I feel so incredibly helpless and guilty that I can't help her or tell her what to do. My mother is planning to give him an ultimatum that if he doesn't seek help she will leave. She is financially dependent on him unfortunately and I am terrified of what she is going to do if they get divorced because she has no way of supporting herself. I obviously don't want her to stay in the relationship if it is at the expense of her sanity, but I have no idea what she will do financially. Is it time for an intervention? Are there other steps we should take first? Any advice is sincerely appreciated and I would be more than happy to answer any questions. Thank you.",4.51517586833269,6.0757962097759695,5.3267496009247575,80.50824186712171,70.60896130346231,8.892629493036825,29.56354929267353,9.358847034038227,2.580367600594484,2013,80,392,44,37,655,228,491,0.11800000000000001,0.773,0.109,0.4464,1,1,7,0,1,1,46.0,2,1,2,7,10,23,2,3,25,0,62,9,1,6,4,65,93,35,2,9,10,13,2,2,3,10,6,3,1,0,26,25,6,4,10,5,3,13,13,11,0,2,14,5,55,12,56,64,8,43,0,4,0,0,83,17,0,13,13,275,81,5,0.0914407025087023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17870959239316642,0.0,0.3908892083536829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07312509675959335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18654844002364804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05574140352738908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10458380358885523,0.0,0.0,0.09673213864974116,0.1575361369962234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058971688417536076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09359343369198407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17915415323901168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09448268933202776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17240431262217146,0.0,0.046235166674094316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07777941484139765,0.0,0.0,0.2119405797892604,0.0,0.04777399298498074,0.08771825401344148,0.20787143395004706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09734032815346766,0.08191290866341266,0.0,0.0,0.0971971908067289,0.0,0.0,0.18387232621289654,0.0,0.09172248023539163,0.09082124994124646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10322542293176176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08127669783622678,0.10116558925868044,0.0,0.1005068374356378,0.0,0.0,0.0968225009615677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08934661679492106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1220747579465009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19400827021467654,0.0,0.1070942456222075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06780212226926836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06196258652387807,0.06954477473373269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0990213699855152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10243451399761816,0.0,0.09146544766143498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09028666223879672,0.09817309376673486,0.0,0.0,0.17396209559190606,0.07271731679597815,0.1830961903414781,0.0925428727249246,0.0,0.1664883625826302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07747741049932805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09746362230167006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1000212871179452,0.10376582558552544,0.0861817799581884,0.0,0.06875202835070644,0.14699314592849075,0.07992320440471562,0.08418631342418231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10663961795894963,0.0,0.0,0.08737550985228296,0.0,0.0,0.09946122647074253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05393409548654191,0.07258137343704958,0.07334821593433212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06656992047984597,0.18572494406982745,0.0,0.06495685150025876,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,cpaintraining2019,2019/06/27,"Looking for advice Hello, My father (55) has had a problem with drinking, whisky being his drink of choice, my entire life (I’m 27). When I was 8, he went to rehab and quit drinking completely for a couple years then went back in. Most of my life he has been able to be “in control” of the problem and has not let it affect his work. Recently however, things have gotten out of hand. He has been drinking night and day. He went into detox and started drinking again the day after. He stopped drinking (during the day) for about 2 week, and for the past couple days has been drinking non stop. He’s spending the little money our family has. He never gets violent which is great! We have found him rehabs, we have interventionists and nothing seems to work. He is not interested in getting any help, and it’s affecting his work. My mom has been supporting him but she is at her wits end. We are all lost as to what to do, the only thing we can think of is to leave him and protect ourselves. Is that a good idea? Is there anything else we can do?",3.148726442033123,4.8773297378640805,4.143649343232443,86.93752998286699,74.4368932038835,6.594631639063393,24.7390062821245,7.285733465282438,1.0618958309537403,810,26,162,9,17,262,124,206,0.059000000000000004,0.856,0.086,0.8315,1,0,8,0,0,0,30.0,6,0,0,6,5,8,1,0,9,0,30,13,1,3,2,33,44,12,0,2,3,2,1,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,7,16,7,4,4,7,2,3,3,4,0,0,12,2,19,4,25,29,2,29,0,1,1,0,26,7,0,2,19,109,26,3,0.09442060636755978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09226672375934752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06420925015049654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07770011388344708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07260361806044774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09899820934917476,0.0,0.1059007387883399,0.0,0.20894921007413889,0.0,0.2435739195408148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6474737355795711,0.0,0.0,0.07887630083251601,0.0,0.08362863172090616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08901134446456467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10352732133474347,0.0,0.0,0.0986617395204753,0.0,0.0,0.07919552486578245,0.0,0.10409905185425727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06328814214721354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10658937167326753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09997778888394723,0.0,0.09655146720263272,0.13338413325295734,0.0,0.09463425276361442,0.0,0.0,0.07928952891137407,0.0,0.10307124561466062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11058427300646426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07282299247640656,0.0,0.0,0.0886073428486648,0.0,0.09059911834750957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07181112589800445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09013515269214202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806955370246573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10042793733406846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09322895780113832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08595697384705704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06683139116715271,0.0,0.0,0.15787970959632391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10714738517109854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12545771067192762,0.060500912023347286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0757385150648777,0.0,0.0,0.2625865441869117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20621797793873367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060803774799527414 alcoholism,Hip-H0pAn0nym0us,2019/06/27,"Not sure if I’m in the right place Having a really tough time right now. My dad went into the hospital for an allergic reaction and started to have alcohol withdrawals while in the hospital. He was basically forced to detox and he was asleep for about a week and a half. He finally woke up a few days ago, but something is wrong. He’s confused, struggles to speak and string works together, and he makes up ridiculous stories that he thinks really happened. It’s almost like he had a stroke, but his MRI and other tests have been normal. The doctors don’t seem to know what’s happening and why it’s taking so long for him to recover, and I’m worried that this is going to be his permanent state moving forwards. Has anyone experienced anything like this themselves or with a family member? Much appreciated",5.4727807486631015,6.974904287581701,6.18487225193108,75.49374331550806,68.21568627450979,9.746642899584076,30.90255496137849,10.018931242160765,3.241711111111111,648,26,114,16,11,212,106,153,0.142,0.795,0.063,-0.8691,0,0,2,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,1,3,8,1,2,11,0,12,7,1,1,1,23,25,14,0,2,5,1,1,2,0,0,6,1,0,0,8,10,1,0,3,0,0,4,2,5,0,1,6,3,4,3,16,18,2,22,0,0,0,0,12,9,0,5,12,70,12,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15631391037419987,0.188452794907274,0.17657806638810902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1233003498369845,0.0,0.14511199660066956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1137240861623381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1804904692918912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16623674367760022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19317078794107054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10021753446266528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.311872043655856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09691131920377316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17230068562319692,0.0,0.0,0.15605449245182995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11770767179548967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874204818956055,0.1296294768518371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1727748090428569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18423675446228452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2259345960267869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3011851361770806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16053243004776682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357544004112554,0.0,0.0,0.12481367302000715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18434784142581087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16619744885368126,0.0,0.13258500486932354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11299093014250665,0.0,0.0,0.10282470645249596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414485332302155,0.0,0.0,0.16346804744109186,0.15911854676029644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12837691400096954,0.17908084462790902,0.0,0.0,0.1927990471001481,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,im_probably_garbage,2019/06/27,"Delerium Tremens Hi, I've been drinking pretty heavily daily for the last month. I've decided to try to sober up and am worried about possibly getting DTs. What should I do?",2.5340909090909065,5.379504151515154,3.718409090909091,83.09761363636366,83.24242424242425,6.936363636363637,32.49242424242424,8.07648339933343,3.029551515151516,139,8,24,3,4,45,29,33,0.066,0.838,0.096,0.25,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,0,3,5,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,5,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,13,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3892900393392581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20761940789287606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3239251627636061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31719219559901257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.447996511739874,0.0,0.4042875879547669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2698011197970514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.403567930053886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,DoomCrayon,2019/06/27,"How do I cope with losing my mother right now? Hi all, on mobile and first post so excuse my formatting. My (27F) mother (54F) has been an alcoholic my entire life. For much of it she was functioning and able to maintain her home, work, etc... And in the last 5 years, things have fallen apart. She is very secretive with her alcohol, vodka being her drink of choice, so nobody has ever been certain of how much she drinks. But she has lost jobs, relationships, and her health has deteriorated rapidly as of late. She’s been hospitalized in the last 2 years several times, for things ranging from Ascites to collapsed lungs, and in November 2018 she had a heart attack. She’s been hospitalized monthly at minimum since then for other health problems related to drinking. She was brought to the hospital by my step-father 2 weeks ago due to fluid build-up and trouble urinating. They discovered that her kidneys are now failing and her heart condition is deteriorating further. She has had cirrhosis for quite some time and was recommended for a transplant 3 years ago, which she declined. I didn’t find this out until the last few days because she has hidden all her medical problems and claimed that she is fine, even though I know that’s not true. She had been at our local hospital which is one of the best in the region, and they sent her by ambulance to Massachusetts General Hospital last evening because they can’t provide the care she needs at this point. She has shared some information with me in the last couple days that have made me realize things are much worse than I knew. Her heart is functioning at 75% since the heart attack, her liver has failed, kidneys have now failed, Ascites have caused her lungs to collapse several times, she’s had severe blood loss and several transfusions, and esophageal varices with procedures done to stop the bleeding. Things are very grim. We’ve not had the best relationship with her drinking being a big factor, and I’m getting the feeling that she’s going to die soon. Even through the problems, I love her so much and I don’t feel ready for this. I can hardly be with her at the hospital because I can’t look at her the way she is. She’s slipping away before my eyes. Family members are being optimistic and talking about “when she gets out” but I know in my heart it’s too late. I don’t really know why I made this post. I’m sad and I don’t know what to do or think. Thanks for reading. TL;DR My mother is dying from alcohol and I’m not ready.",5.505995397008057,6.799962978902954,5.670467970847721,79.99135212888378,67.94514767932489,9.036593785960877,30.186421173762945,9.339509955726095,2.6114734177215184,1988,75,371,39,33,629,228,474,0.094,0.8440000000000001,0.061,-0.8908,1,0,8,0,0,0,56.0,1,0,3,11,17,23,2,0,19,0,50,26,13,5,5,61,74,30,2,4,6,3,3,0,0,0,8,1,1,0,19,25,7,1,12,6,0,4,9,14,0,2,21,6,61,9,53,49,12,59,0,8,2,1,52,22,0,3,30,256,80,6,0.06719600083729521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11913040073514734,0.21543626785886744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15289030336414264,0.06313285474372363,0.0,0.0,0.12288617525905325,0.0,0.05717884749321937,0.0,0.14103611442987662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06851080123231806,0.06902880285022002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07435109683810473,0.0,0.08667172310720919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13947767997752136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06876483880973595,0.0,0.2633059961434102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07494130339421867,0.13314697443736864,0.06078262980098342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06334640929847526,0.0,0.06795263407450862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06141592740709088,0.05715688398511036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07021427404965942,0.0,0.03818903580828184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060194418110557875,0.0,0.0,0.14285241332677046,0.0,0.3981379226416229,0.0,0.0,0.06740306766682604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06668166231799254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14771665893175467,0.27386854606578404,0.15160003159249982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04746252261321534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056427716958063964,0.07517513686558701,0.0733523726766,0.0,0.060647014262690625,0.12716496144715578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06769290146574439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05363520678108637,0.0,0.19758716914544988,0.04982498318341942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045533749213521615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06352194045815518,0.0,0.1287103882237575,0.0,0.0,0.19289249334946065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07147121820969833,0.06721418502943423,0.0,0.0430474787883102,0.0,0.0,0.14428671499590814,0.0,0.05738501756233925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30364941745974106,0.0,0.11117045255384683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05617886553772131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05400960013374518,0.0,0.06186504950354886,0.0,0.0,0.17856814853610992,0.04305648408094455,0.06601972964991143,0.0,0.11754758539245365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1108874760505487,0.0,0.05333705774825893,0.05390057867139016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06063393908632308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048919488910058345,0.0,0.0684784655681595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12981606429537315 alcoholism,kviscuits,2019/06/27,1/2 pint a night Is a 1/2 pint a night too much? If you've done fifths a night...and bring it down to a 1/2 pint? Lol. 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I've been trading cryptocurrencies mainly, along with foreign currencies and CFD's since I was around 16/17 (using my dad's account on exchanges), but went into it full-time after leaving and turning 18. I got super lucky and made a killer at first, but it's getting harder and I have less determination. I've wasted tens of thousands on useless random shit (drugs, clothes, drink, booze, food, holidays) since then. I've had a good time, but I think I should settle down before it gets too deep. Especially with the drugs/drink. This has never been the right line of work for me. It's way too stressful. A lot of the time I can't account for myself. I lose tons of money when the market goes to shit because I'm too drunk or high and think it'll fix itself, so I don't paying attention to my holdings during the day. I can't keep this up. I have a very good amount in savings for my age, but if I keep this up I'll be homeless soon. I want to make the most of what I've made. I've always wanted to be a firefighter, ever since I was young. You know those firefighters who like to help out the community and come to secondary schools and talk about fire safety and stuff? When I was around 15 or 16, I met one of them outside my class. We talked for around 5 or 10 minutes. I probably asked the stupidest fucking questions ever at first (""what's the worst fire you've seen?"", ""you ever saved a cat out of a tree?"") etc, but the more we got into it the more I realised what a hero he was. He found the time for me, he answered everything. I met a couple of the other guys who came with him when it was our lunch time because I was so intrigued, and not long after that point, I decided that I wanted to be a firefighter. They were all so nice and selfless - seriously incredible people. I've spent the past few years watching documentaries, reading firefighter AMA's, whatever you can imagine. But I never really got into it. Fast-forward a few years. A week or so ago I turned 21, and I still constantly think about that man and what a hero he is. There are a a number of local news articles which discuss his heroic acts in recent years. He's dead now, but I'll never forget him. He was probably one of the nicest people I've ever met in my life. I remember people in my class talking to me about how cool he was as well. I want to be just like him. I want to protect & serve the public. Anywhose, I probably went off on a tangent there. Recently, I've been drinking wayyyyy too much. I probably drink way too often, snort too much cocaine, take MDMA too often, smoke too much, blablabla. The way I've been living my life - I feel incredibly lucky that I'm still alive. Right now, it feels like I'm being given a second chance. In fact, every other month, I have thoughts like this. Like I'm being blessed with another chance to do the right thing. I never used to be like this, honestly, I was the most hard-working person you'd find. I loved discovering new things, learning about things that gratified my intellectual curiosity and bettering myself as a person. These past 3-4 years though, I've just felt so lost. I really don't know what to do anymore. Sometimes I just want to fucking end everything. I feel like such a fuckup sometimes, you know? I know the steps I should take - ""don't take drugs, don't drink so much, don't blablabla"" - but it's *so* much easier said than done, which I don't think a lot of people realise. I don't know, I guess I'm just looking for advice from like-minded people. If you read everything, thank you very much. And if you take the time to offer me your advice, thank you *doubly very much*.",3.6831516538381517,5.016326321475628,4.667980029124196,85.31235905970463,72.34650856389987,7.539754524651551,25.56875390056168,8.032893268588372,1.4091470355731237,2974,93,604,42,57,969,336,759,0.083,0.735,0.182,0.9975,0,0,11,0,5,0,127.0,3,10,2,10,48,38,5,1,43,1,48,18,2,6,10,117,113,46,1,12,20,1,6,7,0,3,5,1,0,4,38,32,8,4,23,8,8,7,14,12,1,7,37,12,79,26,71,65,22,89,1,3,3,3,47,31,4,18,55,382,117,11,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010987064926158,0.04585497583396568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043042989650050316,0.05604876361757144,0.0,0.0,0.054242767233169085,0.0,0.0,0.05130164669143997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1381503513256616,0.048359989072532965,0.0,0.0,0.039776701575206616,0.0,0.09460125311523217,0.0,0.044017893901737326,0.0,0.0,0.04575043449894655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05916463196698199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04456028202762192,0.0,0.05590108457568642,0.0,0.0,0.057237577103763725,0.0,0.03336117182552786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05293711768597597,0.0,0.2533755031374654,0.11997931989856478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04581687822135553,0.0,0.057691934802565084,0.0,0.18716874976995967,0.0435842352749958,0.0,0.13947309861951232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07846778926568977,0.07391096145325761,0.04966831882228229,0.0,0.04727971785025422,0.08800197154406975,0.06255137386192336,0.056718597166660514,0.0,0.0956459599204988,0.0540529339258181,0.0,0.029398999807016768,0.13016445362497095,0.12411813669305095,0.0,0.05698574612517941,0.0512202209091288,0.0,0.0,0.046339365447713186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034673114242640884,0.10930986412037384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09195890281206773,0.0,0.0,0.14214557711110226,0.04216635043291601,0.0,0.05477394624156082,0.0,0.0,0.10961397665168424,0.20217890414265965,0.0,0.04567799189601342,0.04577887510478109,0.043439652372704286,0.057871946421977086,0.05646873099885701,0.0879569411701261,0.046687786765706285,0.09789518373316654,0.034529764067276605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05223192927508174,0.0,0.041289899062193824,0.0,0.26618933400915,0.0,0.15958755317873355,0.04996055933281438,0.0,0.0,0.05068381102112002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07010633581122082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09876309654667656,0.1793132001762308,0.09033620186488704,0.0,0.0,0.0489009862580936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22309209138585775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05794874649244033,0.05502056508843573,0.10348676110228452,0.0,0.06627833323383547,0.0,0.1021530477871213,0.0,0.058599305590918124,0.13252982835521093,0.04920648804456396,0.0,0.0,0.10470579225559702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10619893418695782,0.12837323765847994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10232336272464716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08262230232717806,0.0,0.05925583212897851,0.0,0.059217766067218736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15557622938802826,0.1247343529603869,0.0,0.095250929483875,0.0,0.0,0.10310010818368104,0.13258439658348206,0.05082385501904005,0.04106735095750826,0.15081909275465372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11253342596450007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08935515401592148,0.0,0.1280464726856373,0.18306797804818173,0.1231811265138973,0.04149418984845496,0.0,0.04651092672834889,0.09590731045103497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07531921215535238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16656012947131876 alcoholism,TerminallyOdd,2019/02/10,"I feel like the best version of myself after a few drinks - and it scares me. For many years now, I've used alcohol as a crutch. I'm not a daily drinker or a person who drinks when alone, but every social event has to include alcohol (with pregaming), otherwise I wouldn't even be sure how to get out of my own way. I was diagnosed with an essential tremor about 12 years ago, and I'm finding that alcohol is the only thing that really ""fixes"" me. I inherited it from my dad, apparently. It's relatively mild now, but it was a bane on my life and while the neurologist suggested beta blockers which have helped, nothing compares to a few drinks. I'm still and calm after a few and it's invigorating. It breathes new life into me, and I feel like I can be this version of myself that exists without worries. I'm funny, charming, and full of life. It's to the point where my crew of friends see me as this carefree, level-headed, calm/cool/collected individual, because that's the way I am after a few - left to my own sober devices, I worry about everything, and about people's perception of me. I admittedly hide this side of me from people. The compulsion is there basically every time I have to go anywhere that isn't work and deal with people. Dinner with the family? I'm having a few beforehand and at dinner. Meeting up with friends? Definitely drinks involved. Even something like getting a haircut, I have a few before, since I'm worried the tremor will kick in while I'm trying to hold my head steady. I've been managing this way for years, since at the end of the day, it doesn't amount to constant drinking - a couple of nights a week, basically. I know that's a poor rationalization, but the reason I write this, is because I'm afraid it's a slippery slope. I've tried therapy a few times, admitting to a generalized social anxiety, but I didn't find much help in any of it - really, it's hard to accept some cognitive reconditioning, when 3 beers will fix it all. I don't know if I can get it out of my head that I can go the rest of my life doing this. I really don't have an inherent need for deep relationships anyway, where this person and I know every little thing about each other, so I'm not sure if I'm even missing out on anything. I have a few close friends that I've had a very surface-level conversation with about it, but nothing beyond that...I've decided marriage and children aren't for me (for a few reasons) - but with that, I don't feel like I'd have to hide this from anyone. It's a confusing state of affairs, to say the least. Sorry for the long post, just needed to get this off my chest - any thoughts would be appreciated. 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I'm 25 years old and I personally think I've been an alcoholic since I was 21. I dont know where to go or what to do to stop drinking and just was looking for any advice possible. Little backstory: never drank a drop till I was 19. From 19-21 would drink approx. 10 times a year at parties or friends houses in reasonable amounts, had never been drunk to point of passing out or puking or anything like that, not even at college parties. At 21 I got a job as kitchen manager at a restaurant. Friends with all bartenders. Made friends with cooks and bartenders at the other local bars (lived in a lakeside resort type town so there were lots of bars compared to the number of actual permanent residents). Bartenders became only friends. Started hanging with them while they're at work. Get free drinks from them. Continue to get free drinks from them. Restaurant I work for doesn't take inventory seriously and gives me an opportunity to steal beers and get away with it guaranteed. By 23 I was drinking between 8 and 16 beers a day with a few mixed drinks added in. By this time I blacked out occasionally puked weekly at least. Never let it effect my job, or hid it well enough. Now am 25, just moved to a new city and dont have those bartender friends. I've been here for 4 months now and have only puked/blacked out one time (new years) and have cut my intake to 4-8 beers a day, no hard liquor at all. That's just from moving to a better environment and not even trying. My issue is that I want to stop all together. I hate that I've let myself become this person, gain weight, act like a drunk idiot, and on and on. I dont smoke cigarettes or do other drugs outside alcohol and the occasional weed and I eat a moderately healthy diet so the only thing holding me back from what I want to be as far as health and awareness goes is alcohol. I just want to stop. I've eased up but I want to work to be DONE. I have no (honest) alcoholics that I know well enough to talk to about this. What should I do/where should I go? Any ideas help, thank you for reading!",3.486587995337992,5.088846971153849,4.274921328671328,86.86629079254082,73.27884615384616,7.253962703962704,25.827214452214452,7.898369717300924,1.3604737179487176,1644,55,338,23,33,527,213,416,0.057999999999999996,0.8079999999999999,0.134,0.9678,2,0,16,0,0,0,48.0,0,1,3,7,18,20,3,0,18,0,30,26,0,3,6,61,52,29,0,7,13,0,2,2,5,3,6,0,1,2,18,23,24,4,6,16,2,7,11,5,2,1,13,4,30,17,61,32,9,58,0,0,2,0,15,24,0,7,28,213,48,9,0.0,0.0,0.07091012833369033,0.0,0.0,0.07100696680614876,0.0,0.3106252627042875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.098828784816847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059796741257944076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06827074586237171,0.0558745611372402,0.0,0.0,0.08025229728665821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06426589808190784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09372525930794193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07436107322729861,0.2554869685720352,0.4271016292479429,0.08426781984677463,0.07435398535824264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15016382937956946,0.0,0.09598851280691256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2807022930786152,0.0,0.11389270006117795,0.06970646698496905,0.08259388773023663,0.0,0.05811648647122384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06509317276782563,0.07174120896938023,0.0,0.07723902907327337,0.0,0.0,0.048705522701674345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08384514582858335,0.0,0.08202944320460047,0.0,0.07584292154058886,0.14421672646585768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07986908339964653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.148608871051363,0.0,0.07100046693678484,0.0728289785409216,0.06416413754153535,0.0,0.06101992915853075,0.0,0.0,0.0617768101958228,0.0,0.06875696339725677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05800015833738826,0.1544618546348222,0.0,0.0,0.16813016433693698,0.14035976922893226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07624923196993062,0.0,0.04923938626466669,0.16579401625611045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.126895781553488,0.0,0.0,0.0686914962313589,0.08191837307484875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07268422381845686,0.0,0.0,0.07471126969513289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0601088747255094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05143234939816525,0.0,0.0,0.18225247698038333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05463470572093014,0.058405020647760375,0.0,0.06689976383239217,0.0,0.0,0.04827510468721112,0.04656051582571038,0.0,0.0,0.12711386744096906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09866893249552801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17143776007309527,0.0,0.05828712677807561,0.08848585783717733,0.13066833176799575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587019948006262,0.0,0.0,0.05161881840302579,0.0,0.0,0.1403807822462489 alcoholism,billyrakerblue,2019/02/10,"Almost a year. Since I have went to rehab and been sober I am dealing with a lack of happiness and self-worth. And today I decided to read my evaluation that the psychologist wrote about me at the end of my rehabilitation stay. My work is insisting I give the report them to understand my risk level. To decide if they want to keep me on. I was told I might have narcissistic disorder. So I went on internet and watched the videos and read all about it and it was like putting in your symptoms and getting told you are dying of 19 rare diseases in the next week. I can relate to all the signals and traits that make you a narcissist. Then reading how horrible on others I am has pretty much destroyed me. Being the equivalent of second hand smoke to others emotionally. Not sure what I am asking for or want. I just fucking hate this. I sobered up to be better for my family and others and all I did was become a sober narcissist problem. And yes I know whining about this all makes it even more proof I am one. But I am just not able to shake the feeling that the people around me would be way better off if I was out of the picture. It just sucks. Thanks for listening. 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They did one better and let me bartend which would have been huge for me but within a few weeks or so I didn't cut it and was put back to server, which was totally fine. The thing is drinking has ruined jobs for me in the past because I drink before work, it was no different at this job but they didn't fire me. They made me a busser/host and it really fucked me up. They were ignoring my claims to come back, so I felt I had no way out of this and starting drinking even more before work. Just recently I told them to take me off bussing because it was doing terrible things to my self esteem to have my serving team treat me like a bitch boy (I have resumes printed out and was thinking about getting a new job asap) but I think he respected that I had self worth and that I stepped down. He asked me how badly I wanted to serve again and I let him know it was my passion. He told me if I can quit drinking for this whole week, I can get my serving shifts back. I'm excited but something in the back of my head tells me I'll fuck this up. Opinions? Thoughts? I'm 22 btw and suffer from major depression, anxiety and hell of a case of cynicism. I can't afford another fuck up ",3.056715328467156,4.05679281021898,4.2230729927007316,89.18643430656937,73.45255474452554,7.523795620437956,26.10875912408759,7.908726449838941,1.3046545985401456,1026,34,227,14,20,336,152,274,0.205,0.6890000000000001,0.105,-0.991,6,0,5,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,5,5,13,20,7,0,9,0,28,9,1,3,1,34,48,20,0,3,8,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,3,16,13,4,1,5,5,1,3,5,13,0,1,20,2,41,7,30,25,5,30,1,3,0,4,17,14,5,4,13,159,57,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11017707128550656,0.08037973250121405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09822806311682132,0.0,0.0,0.32317528831928793,0.08773066575717127,0.12810173644437098,0.0,0.17881693289733125,0.0,0.0,0.09292757615896502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09051015683538796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09049829219142272,0.0,0.0,0.10977779475140724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4117219278459977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06939901332182045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1027805011375129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1008855223036553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2914118954984174,0.10979148480267713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1078341049079192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31280300825264895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057744780294736425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2148863175446871,0.0,0.05133283355179311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09942159283939893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10147911671639977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07119945342238454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10030303839243132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10562630236171272,0.0,0.1117569222797793,0.0,0.0,0.06731176355733111,0.0,0.1037458467014853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2192258593224259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08088949866948472,0.0,0.0,0.0743704469770418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07900100875169556,0.0,0.09183749079274424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13961023190511498,0.13465168960620086,0.0,0.08341536917728437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20080144787330167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061974141734587825,0.08340120074510529,0.16856471548420546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11730904823641285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15298722078717994,0.0,0.0,0.07464007851052445,0.0,0.0,0.06766287265249665 alcoholism,MaPawlys96,2019/02/10,"93 Days Sober and I feel great! I’m a 22 year old guy that has struggled with alcohol since the age of 19. I first started drinking when I was 17 and I was able to handle alcohol just fine. I could relax, have a couple beers, or a couple of shots and then be done for the night. There was no waking up the next day and immediately wanting that drink. I’ve always been someone that has dealt with pretty bad anxiety and mild depression so I used it to relax. When I was 16 or so, I was into smoking weed but the anxiety it brought me of getting caught was too much, even though it was that great escape to feeling calm and relaxed. Alcohol was what I turned to to relax. During my senior year of high school i noticed that my drinking started to increase a little more. Drinking more during the week but never having that feeling of waking up and needing to drink. At the age of 19, I lost my uncle to suicide, this was an uncle that I was extremely close to. My use of alcohol from that point up until 93 days ago we’re out of control. Drinking hard liquor all day, everyday. Sure, I would try to be sober and convince myself I didn’t have a problem for so long. It took me until I turned 22 to really realize how much of a problem it was. I signed up for a great residential program, been going to outpatient 3 times a week, and have been attending AA meetings. Denial is such a tough part of this as alcoholics. The whole disease itself is a struggle in itself everyday. If I can do it, you guys all can! I feel healthier than I’ve ever felt in my life. No cravings, nothing. That won’t happen for everyone but it’s just a great feeling!!!",2.993020202020201,4.638566524242428,4.516666666666668,84.44944444444447,74.66666666666667,7.191919191919192,26.767676767676768,7.921354282810032,1.6621919191919186,1283,48,253,19,27,429,172,330,0.10400000000000001,0.74,0.156,0.9646,0,0,12,0,0,1,36.0,0,1,0,3,14,20,0,2,19,0,32,16,2,4,5,45,54,26,1,7,8,0,7,0,0,2,6,0,0,2,21,14,13,1,7,12,0,6,5,8,1,1,21,7,27,12,42,28,9,48,0,2,0,0,4,13,0,3,29,183,48,3,0.07716376456299237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06840102148995586,0.4123229865926982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06420643357670737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11806013736835552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06442852027749958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08654572332547503,0.061608987130881025,0.17076047562138505,0.0,0.19905697817664228,0.0,0.0664610373489335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0789653218347714,0.0,0.4535466763185155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050965938745060564,0.06979904275611948,0.0,0.07373328382042267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19508158937377984,0.0,0.07408931487466659,0.0,0.0,0.0656354587181539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040314882167230406,0.0,0.04385394564080074,0.0,0.0,0.34029329137087344,0.0,0.15280851717429028,0.06823566216580823,0.0,0.06912357654045734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0815277538454568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05450304891446972,0.0,0.07733836374042953,0.0,0.06828750343618556,0.0,0.0,0.08423336426016198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1134484910606873,0.057215953684948286,0.059513452226172416,0.0,0.08206453901656513,0.0724129658256019,0.0,0.07404071321642991,0.08785145739295476,0.08097039056651664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08356083746775766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07294469904490235,0.0,0.0,0.07850328943467466,0.0,0.14767060298550033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04943308347016923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07809384931452656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0638306634348483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06538060730834283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10923381943480516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16133664154146982,0.0,0.08440463424613423,0.0,0.07272593490497714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07581300690130817,0.0,0.044994811651237726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08573178165259229,0.05238913097573746,0.16786403542349074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13328943476520372,0.0,0.0,0.04551318758345497,0.0,0.12379223497181008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08615058745768257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054814924408987435,0.0,0.0,0.0993818689303382 alcoholism,Kangaro0o,2019/02/10,"How do you distract yourself from going for a drink? Hey everyone. I realize that I have an alcohol problem and I want to stop completely before it takes over my life. I drink 5 times a week (usually 5+ shots) and it’s starting to feel like a habit I can’t break. My spouse travels for work and I get so bored/lonely that it leads to me drinking to pass the time. I have very little social support nearby as I did not grow up where I currently live. It usually hits hardest at about 2:30PM and I always convince myself that it’s okay and I can stop at any time. I absolutely understand the health risks but I just don’t care. I absolutely do not want to tell anyone in real life so AA or anything like that is out of the question. I find that even if I do a hobby (reading, TV, running, etc.) I will still drink while doing it or drink afterward. I feel like I just need videos or something, anything, that will distract me when the urge hits. I’ve tried some books but a lot of them focus on the health aspect of alcohol, which does nothing for me. I don’t want to feel ashamed; it just leads to more drinking. What I really need is encouragement and something that will lift me up when I’m struggling. Even a chat room or something where I can talk to others who are struggling. Any suggestions? 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I am just tired of feeling like I need a drink and by A drink I really mean three a day. I black out about once a month. I’m known for my drinking and although I’ve made major cut backs I am still not where I’d like to be. I’ve tried AA, but I felt very uncomfortable and didn’t feel a group setting was my thing. I’ve been drinking since I was a teenager and maybe only gone about 2 months sober about 4 yrs ago. I’m having huge guilt trips because my fiancé is constantly asking me to go a day without a drop of alcohol, which I lie about doing, and just make sure to hide any evidence of it. He’s such a good person and is currently the care taker of his alcoholic and drug addicted father. I’ve lost friends because of their alcoholism and I just can’t seem to find the motivation. Please, I will take any advice. Any tips. I just want to start caring enough to stop. 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I’ve been a fairly regular drinker over the past ten years since turning 21. Recently, my wife and I are expecting a Child and we’ve made a ‘pact’ not to drink/take drugs during the pregnancy as kind of an act of solidarity. This worked for times we are together but when we are separated, like this weekend when she’s out of town, I get a “hall pass” to drink beer and go out with my buddies. Anyways, I’ve noticed throughout my adulthood that when I’ve had a couple, I am much more focused and excel at individual athletics such as golf, bowling, etc. I’ve joked around in the past that I need my ‘aiming fluid’ in a shitty round of golf but alcohol really does help in these situations. It seems to focus me in on my task and reduces performance anxiety. I’m wondering if anyone has similar experiences and, if so, is there a way to mimic the calming effects of alcohol in these situations without drinking? I’m sure practicing sober is the only real way to get better at a task or sport, but any advice from this community would be greatly appreciated. I went out drinking then bowling last night with the boys and rolled a 145. The previous weekend I barely rolled a 100 when sober so I still feel there is something up with me when It comes to skilled tasks and drinking. I understand this community is probably not the most appropriate place to ask such questions but I feel, from reading your posts, at least a couple of you all have been in similar situations. Thanks in advance!",6.355376676986588,6.995962869281048,7.195627794977642,72.15874613003099,65.73202614379086,10.49439284485724,35.05951152390781,10.426177893888326,3.7786169934640528,1282,58,230,31,19,428,174,306,0.03,0.848,0.122,0.9838,0,0,12,0,0,0,27.0,2,2,0,7,15,9,0,0,21,0,16,9,0,2,3,49,34,27,0,5,11,1,3,1,0,1,3,0,0,2,11,19,8,0,9,13,0,6,4,0,0,1,6,3,23,9,40,26,7,47,0,0,1,0,13,20,0,9,18,154,34,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09298241188422128,0.0,0.20337924162614304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06470730400964966,0.0,0.0727917857632474,0.0,0.0,0.06653319112200687,0.0,0.0,0.08470634501375987,0.08895521176598101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08096819599459927,0.0,0.0,0.08415509737058492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08196588543834693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2105699728178324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08326903290715224,0.0,0.0,0.5592822985323646,0.11034727275380048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1061207493213883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09307789397442998,0.0,0.0,0.09622443325298856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09942703206016017,0.0,0.05407764359952191,0.0,0.0,0.1049065201612173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06377905121967851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09908720860686523,0.0,0.07756239618939488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04648695020807795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09003607079803394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06994840460575916,0.07055474499203786,0.07338786081473699,0.0,0.0,0.0892946461414403,0.0,0.0,0.10833232296832952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07236814545982463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18166861358873929,0.0,0.0,0.09941463436676014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18226054558861124,0.0,0.10259102934648953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21318627711336588,0.0,0.09517875133327693,0.10830494744083843,0.060957449343808215,0.0,0.09395210971630397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08662371894134344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07871154619070976,0.32086788159017665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07325342937110027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07598930997568643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08968057789934303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08760409964564153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0755408545608604,0.05548448042128831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10349914184646787,0.0,0.09905763039529658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510560472926082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08820778576150583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09172409798004508,0.1031893712578828,0.06927251841679638,0.0,0.0,0.06759396224922744,0.0,0.0,0.061275413303621476 alcoholism,ak4161,2019/02/10,"Treatment Center Recommendations For Someone Without Insurance? Hello. Can anyone recommend the best treatment center options in the U.S. for someone without insurance? My sister is 21 and alcoholism has been destroying her life since she was a teenager. Our mom passed away when she was 13 and it’s been pretty rough for her ever since. From recent conversations, she sounds like she now may be open to getting help. She has no insurance or a dime to her name. She went through a short period of treatment years ago but relapsed soon after. What are the best treatment facilities in the U.S for someone without insurance? State funded or something that’s not 50k/month. Thanks so much! ",5.886795454545452,8.779337058333336,5.479545454545455,75.20727272727275,70.08333333333334,8.03030303030303,32.57575757575758,8.841846274778883,3.2439166666666672,557,26,84,11,11,171,84,120,0.054000000000000006,0.816,0.13,0.8649,0,0,2,0,0,0,16.0,1,0,0,2,5,5,1,0,7,0,11,2,0,0,1,14,14,7,0,0,7,2,1,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,0,2,2,5,1,0,0,5,2,11,4,16,7,3,19,0,0,0,0,16,7,0,4,10,63,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15022747963272134,0.18111496501423785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11849937570815393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1592253462028374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3557026565384741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.153297919323736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08854258325020048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11359409680096386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1197037045992367,0.08279588706532362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1984845847321746,0.13527163317809998,0.0,0.12458206404625853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17241484202660595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16733402021000468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28037942949462685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4307814549625388,0.13046850004591962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1560278553067891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15710305441639466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4900974159542626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10913497609671298 alcoholism,cunning777,2019/04/26,Does anyone else worry about the permanent damage alcohol has done to their body? I’ve been binge drinking near constantly for a little over seven years and I worry all the time. I can’t shake the feeling that even if I stop drinking now my body won’t be able to fully recover. Has anyone talked to a doctor/healthcare professional that can shed some light?,5.387500000000002,7.013027455882355,5.678705882352944,78.57217647058825,68.55882352941177,8.381176470588235,26.835294117647056,8.841846274778883,2.1339200000000003,289,9,50,5,5,92,53,68,0.196,0.782,0.022000000000000002,-0.8948,0,0,3,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,1,5,0,8,5,2,0,1,6,9,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,3,1,1,2,0,1,2,2,0,1,2,2,5,0,7,5,2,9,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,2,5,34,7,1,0.1940035227238532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2073307655530525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2713035477902001,0.1987795353062204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4309883575653615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20964888705037807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1985708261409984,0.1697737901023129,0.19853296033091275,0.0,0.3800991887137957,0.0,0.0,0.16206504924746942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281374970683057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0980940102428145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19444249632343494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.162195631899845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15593268284260325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11312501423528115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39403998896233416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12493190797881792 alcoholism,Bananamonk9,2019/04/26,"I’ve been heavily abusing alcohol every day for the past year. Honestly I’m more afraid of the withdrawals than anything. My liver is probably rotting as well but there’s nothing I can do about that at this point. I’m really just looking for advice, criticism....anything.",4.1998,6.99421538,5.3020000000000005,74.861,75.2,8.8,34.0,9.3871,4.0082,219,12,34,6,5,72,43,50,0.043,0.8809999999999999,0.076,0.1406,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,2,0,4,2,1,0,0,2,7,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,2,2,7,6,1,5,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,3,22,4,0,0.0,0.32173192017908936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.265346918702899,0.0,0.2901949626819008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44691054286509824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17512161046033467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22878517313348676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280262192566045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26055110565552553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2592168016722515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25669420461013875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2927673413929713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17395624642978713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2441481502888488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17486363047463294 alcoholism,bobbymc37,2019/04/26,I am a 39 year old alcoholic I’m 39 and drink pretty much alone every night. I get major anxiety just thinking about not drinking. I also go to the gym 5 days a week which seems pointless with all the drinking. I know that I’m doing my body an extreme disservice. I have a pretty good job and work friends that have no idea that I’m an alcoholic. I guess I’m a functional alcoholic. I did go to short rehab stints 2 times and those are the only days I didn’t drink since I was probably 19 years old. It sounds fucking insane to write that down. That’s 20 fucking years! This is my first post but it will not be my last.,2.087244755244757,3.677253738461541,3.5421678321678307,90.71646853146856,77.0,6.881118881118883,23.356643356643357,7.686295010490155,0.948,486,15,107,7,11,160,84,130,0.055999999999999994,0.871,0.073,0.467,1,1,7,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,3,4,2,0,9,0,11,11,1,0,1,15,24,5,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,1,4,1,0,0,10,4,7,0,4,5,0,2,4,2,0,1,3,1,12,2,6,19,3,17,0,0,0,2,2,2,2,2,12,60,22,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4046431077513813,0.0,0.13071639720572995,0.0,0.10093078643961674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09655096942540987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14019182339285313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16279113884038995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4945544110467066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10633810066699896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10735490080189973,0.0,0.0,0.09751020440549388,0.2333598295403092,0.06593996995569452,0.0,0.14345709090741565,0.10585968898696337,0.0,0.0,0.13903550147912874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14247670880104418,0.0,0.0,0.12524481294884293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06936219297109378,0.10287870347624928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09277951081475927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11844035091398993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2648741523841966,0.0,0.0,0.09598905324827174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1208751247140682,0.256803655050904,0.1360766635121543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11489763510162072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10440293516638843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08087082876303253,0.0,0.0,0.0735945727470441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10123874628888954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09188301588636376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2438269851896285 alcoholism,Amy_Beerhouse,2019/04/26,"Should withdrawal be an issue for me? Hello everyone. I've recently decided to try and tackle my drinking problem, have been a binge drinker since I was 14 (23 now) and have been a consistent daily drinker for about 2 years, with occasional nights off. Have had periods of daily drinking throughout my life, but this 2 year stint is definitely the only time I've really struggled to stop. I drink every night, to excess, but very varying degree's, almost always beer, sometimes 4 pints a night, sometimes much higher, occasionally no drink at all. I almost never drink before mid-day. I had a cross addiction with weed that I've managed to cut out after a slight taper, but it was basically cold turkey. I went to my doctor about general mental health, and we got on the topic of my drinking. Docs advice is that I've been drinking too much for too long, and that I now need to taper instead of going cold turkey, but the issue is I want to go cold turkey, I keep f\*cking up my tapering plan because there's a crate of beer in the house, I drink the 4 beers I'm allowed, and if it's been a particularly bad day, all willpower goes out the window and I binge quite hard. I feel like if I resigned myself to cold turkey and had no beer on person, this wouldn't be an issue. Am I safe to just ignore my doctor and go cold turkey? Have recently been around 36 hours no drink, and had mild shakes and heart palpitations, but nothing serious, again, rarely drink before mid-day. Is it best to follow doctors advice and try and regulate my binge behaviour? Or can I just cut it out and hope for best? TIA. Stay strong everyone.",6.447222222222222,6.415752328025483,7.0343524416135885,75.70022646850674,65.52866242038216,9.652937013446568,30.50176928520877,9.2995712137729,2.571647416843595,1277,41,236,21,18,421,166,314,0.10300000000000001,0.772,0.125,0.907,2,0,16,0,0,0,44.0,1,0,0,5,12,15,2,2,15,0,25,21,1,1,3,49,37,21,0,8,10,0,2,1,0,2,6,0,1,1,9,20,14,4,2,14,0,7,5,9,0,0,13,7,24,6,33,20,6,36,0,1,0,0,3,10,0,6,19,146,33,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07918194888521378,0.0,0.1419545089852179,0.0,0.0,0.14546522617030036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060437434592449414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06465979624906483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06064648452257745,0.044277106012693135,0.0,0.1236126303127514,0.0,0.15245012655977944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14052906105213692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22303240267186994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7115381864829002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061197407292348835,0.13881009331749986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03672601059170531,0.05188985401355694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1238389904394988,0.0,0.05809216807902184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06506593503545129,0.0,0.0,0.07720670900170065,0.0,0.0860718220156885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07214210366766176,0.07153001049253095,0.08381006147878353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2274335569780965,0.0,0.0645605732673736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05130365090161823,0.035485378671532425,0.0,0.0,0.06427894048149332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07319814333156507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10678892092489256,0.0538573047255058,0.05601993719201075,0.0,0.0,0.20448669900820185,0.0,0.06969442955977627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05524154701273948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06342134149983507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06950107576448121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07725536331949594,0.0,0.0,0.046531298851261546,0.0,0.14343492852723544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06008372263392315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14367407078897246,0.0,0.0,0.07741834370768423,0.0,0.06072540494916085,0.0,0.07593298815514178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042353559210268704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0986276452473774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05993078377880921,0.04284150581861365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06733258829658675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09354802733244592 alcoholism,ObviouslyGrilled,2019/04/26,"I am so sorry, mom and dad. I am so sorry that I was drunk (and high) for the better part of the past five years. I am so sorry that I’ve driven drunk once, let alone more times that I could ever remember. I am so sorry that I spent what money I had on alcohol instead of a birthday present, or Mother’s and Father’s Day gifts. I am so sorry that you tried to help me out of debt, only to put myself in more. I am so sorry for all the yelling and cursing you didn’t deserve. I am so sorry for spending my hungover afternoons on Twitch or watching TV because I was fine with unemployment. The only thing I can think to do is stay sober for life, and I can go back to being the good son you once had. That’s my dream right now.",4.114166666666662,3.561703621794873,5.541794871794873,86.20320512820514,70.47435897435899,7.958974358974358,26.30769230769231,6.937597516519254,1.0211461538461541,559,14,127,4,9,190,89,156,0.151,0.769,0.08,-0.7228,3,1,1,0,1,0,16.0,0,3,0,2,11,3,0,0,6,0,19,5,0,0,2,14,23,14,0,1,2,5,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,8,7,3,0,2,4,4,3,1,0,0,1,7,2,21,3,16,13,4,19,0,0,1,0,9,6,0,2,9,93,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11398644510004165,0.0,0.1104669558063069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08201448317643277,0.0,0.06501857096269605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09433155822219154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08515883976413388,0.0,0.0,0.06878647944846908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09647951986503152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06061698631591481,0.08946083150216802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07149153730987386,0.1126914959875225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10906644729409218,0.07533667773670644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12491818232137812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2271775275310293,0.0,0.16223853670595606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11550171979546793,0.10181845149810836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10722214118642397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12082429090934575,0.0910865317935177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8357751422111597,0.0,0.11368471265329408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07085975586430111,0.06834302702609772,0.0,0.0,0.062193944975675874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07241472093458272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06868514680917948 alcoholism,kenma91,2019/04/26,Reaching out Hi .... Im an alcoholic . Ive been on a week long binge and just finally sobered up. I just feel so alone . I dont know why I came to find this sub but I did and now im not sure what to say.,-3.809375000000003,-2.4799798541666647,-0.22083333333333144,107.33250000000002,107.95833333333331,4.066666666666666,14.333333333333336,5.985473137389443,-1.0503416666666665,149,4,45,2,8,53,38,48,0.1,0.868,0.033,-0.4312,0,1,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,4,1,0,0,1,12,7,4,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,4,1,0,3,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,2,5,1,5,4,0,8,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,4,25,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26786006132546675,0.0,0.2595895111102486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28666766382165226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2937505446220461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12673212067303055,0.0,0.0,0.27456604785109884,0.22908223733806185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5414727173678069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1377462823930376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22181027317121696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19932056982008092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2362271085657689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20104988521971992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261654103575571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,manzanita787,2019/04/26,"24 years old male- been battling alcoholism/alcohol abuse for almost 10 years... I'm ready to stop. Alcohol came into my life like a snake in the grass; I'd always had anxiety and depression problems and when I got drunk for the first time at 14 it felt like the greatest feeling on Earth. I could talk to people and have fun, the pain and darkness within myself went away, even if it was only temporary; ""I wish I could be like this all the time"" I thought to myself. Well guess what... I tried that and it has led me to very dark places. I often wonder how it would've been if I'd not taken the decision to start drinking heavily and instead faced my demons and addressed why I always felt the need to escape. Well maybe at least I can start now. I need to change my mentality and my attitude, I always told my self that my life was gonna suck anyway so I might as well get drunk. But... What if maybe my life didn't have to suck? What if I could actually become something I can smile at when I look at the reflection. Loneliness, abandonment- I always felt like everyone in my life always leaves me behind, but alcohol won't ever leave me. Alcohol is always there, come to me, make me feel nice and warm, put me to sleep and make the silence and darkness seem invisible. Alcohol has been a crutch for any problem I've had in my life, my approach to most personal problems I've had has been to get drunk and forget about it. But now I'm done, it's a new day. I will be a better person.",3.0633999999999983,4.606836473333335,4.310333333333337,86.42350000000002,74.26666666666667,7.666666666666668,24.166666666666664,8.344100000000001,1.3803666666666663,1162,35,242,20,24,382,158,300,0.134,0.75,0.11599999999999999,-0.778,0,0,8,0,1,0,40.0,0,0,0,2,16,20,3,0,13,0,27,16,2,4,2,56,57,24,0,13,8,0,6,4,0,4,10,0,1,4,12,15,8,2,10,4,0,6,3,9,3,1,20,7,35,11,29,28,4,34,1,2,1,0,6,12,2,11,20,156,47,0,0.0,0.09315556037058256,0.07672483983899425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4201211112392099,0.07872971425862356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3925244883268971,0.0,0.0,0.0534664290189446,0.0,0.0601464843303083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07386902499075687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08683307731520165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0695357751186134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08992392287610547,0.0,0.0,0.08317285351158339,0.06772687044898021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18832253095786736,0.0,0.0,0.05070541880442124,0.0,0.06771799238233164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08045876615498278,0.0,0.07702074176864049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051929840239723184,0.07111912835240734,0.0,0.07512777638213924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07950844049447425,0.0,0.22647162279247904,0.0,0.0,0.06687679986322262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08215468769052897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06288210473300196,0.0,0.08661224906220535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1665010988387397,0.0,0.0,0.27766923286393275,0.15364517262142496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06602363303650502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1049631084546841,0.0,0.1579750168498646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0792336293762625,0.08340672326613631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1165961191801152,0.0,0.0759347153008288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08250175607085647,0.0,0.0,0.05979643831063269,0.0836605607306197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0545073833715848,0.13730138056046415,0.08214444370950835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22569517044019405,0.0,0.07903796818148412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07157555072057499,0.08202107858679117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07867991733121374,0.0,0.0,0.06052793176609754,0.0,0.0,0.11129972157285066,0.0,0.0,0.06573246274390702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.063194299041531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06241798820433545,0.0916915664931871,0.0,0.0,0.07512777638213924,0.0,0.05337994882183244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06487232181081011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21207492630142635,0.07288443535883543,0.07094515177299042,0.0,0.09041272696843924,0.0,0.08526343785001997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055851620462638814,0.0,0.0,0.10126144447359456 alcoholism,putinmom,2019/04/26,"Not sure if my mum is lying to me about her consumption? My mum has been an alcoholic since I was born, pretty much. Sorry if I appear insensitive over the topic but my patience is really being tried at the moment. She currently claims that she ‘needs to drink’ to ‘avoid having a seizure.’ I know that last time she attempted to quit, she did it in a completely unsafe way, and ended up having quite a few serious seizures and a dislocated shoulder during withdrawal, so I can understand this fear. But she’s drinking even more than she did pre-quitting attempt. Like, waking up to a sizeable glass of wine, and drinking a full box a day. (I know to some this may seem minor, but she’s a massive lightweight and is noticeably drunk after one glass.) I’m just not sure that she ‘needs’ to drink as much as she claims she does? It feels to me like an excuse to start again, as I’ve watched this same pattern happen countless times over the past 15 years. Although she makes out like she is wanting to stop again, the only thing to suggest this is true is her words. It is also really difficult to gauge how she will act when drunk. Sometimes she is emotional and shares things about myself, my dad and my family that I would never want to know. Sometimes she tries to set me up with boys she deems ‘worthy’ and scares them off in the process. Sometimes she berates me for my life choices. No matter which way, it is directly affecting ME as well as her. I’m not in a position emotionally to deal with it. So basically, do you really need to drink that much to avoid a seizure? Or is she having me on? If she is, I’m considering cutting contact for a while, for my own sake. I know it’s important to show support for her during this process, but it’s been my entire life, I give so much and get nothing back, and it’s fucking up my life now too.",4.842747933884297,5.600436831955925,5.456959366391184,82.87816632231406,69.11019283746556,8.694628099173555,28.899104683195592,8.841846274778883,2.1163517906336087,1442,50,289,24,24,466,190,363,0.10800000000000001,0.8059999999999999,0.085,-0.8294,1,2,7,0,0,0,41.0,0,1,1,4,16,17,2,4,18,0,26,15,2,3,4,53,49,30,0,9,12,3,1,3,0,3,4,0,0,1,21,12,9,3,7,9,0,2,5,8,1,1,5,2,49,9,47,40,10,39,0,0,1,1,35,14,1,8,23,210,70,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09842621132510414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07365182842618746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07081872625958244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09656443129667368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05939647083969352,0.09495040061410603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08059677442226132,0.0,0.0,0.4511115725281935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2071987774010279,0.08157270030779185,0.0,0.0,0.06083076156822344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0868230841111134,0.10363739008350888,0.046568205910644894,0.06579580432083137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08514437830695888,0.04811811663144324,0.08835010250561001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08144316376514127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20246160824388013,0.0750732743143193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1951575143062768,0.13498529196359396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06147704089201433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2708145196543146,0.2048715351198111,0.07103270756143999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08837182406350487,0.10485573678577048,0.0,0.0,0.06240891285932899,0.07004571677308262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08791926456827469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0936981639013712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2938770322832049,0.0,0.0,0.17700363349712958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09220753061601897,0.0,0.0,0.0838438023282621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07618554595000156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.273265879061986,0.10309769814590816,0.06518840414637701,0.0,0.0,0.07699919256458804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10451326728021294,0.17360512196823058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12237345061553186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10740776003576824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1250588457162628,0.0,0.0,0.09587868638603717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10864518265612444,0.14620837715667848,0.0,0.0,0.08280838927347199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06542474600110193,0.0,0.0,0.0593089710693472 alcoholism,sensaizoro,2019/04/26,Increased heart rate I drink occasionally and had ten shots of vodka yesterday night now my heart rate is increased its like it since 6 hours my mates are saying that it's normal how to ease this thing fast,8.352,7.415206200000001,7.255000000000003,78.67000000000004,62.0,10.0,30.0,8.841846274778883,2.03575,168,4,33,2,2,51,35,40,0.0,0.782,0.218,0.802,0,0,2,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,1,0,3,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,6,1,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,1,3,1,2,2,2,7,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,6,18,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.290344571771918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7024355622654804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29187963007230394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14479879323803566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2781373470624277,0.2903944782442537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23569733465641696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24517282487449954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1969050966487784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,kendallmichael,2019/04/26,"Pregnancy after alcoholism ? My husband and I want to start trying for a baby so I quit drinking. I had no idea I was physically addicted to alcohol until I quit. I never get drunk but I drank a steady amount through the day to control anxiety that added up to a very high tolerance and a lot of alcohol consumed slowly throughout the day. I have depleted vitamin levels, elevated liver enzymes and basically malnourished. I’ve been hitting the gym and some days my cardio is amazing and I can go forever and some days I am like and overweight elderly person that can barely get through the day. Has anyone any recommendations on how to get healthy enough for pregnancy after torturing my body ? Has anyone else gone through healing for baby ? I’m taking prenatal vitamins plus extra b vitamins and still feel weak. My doctor thinks I wasn’t drinking enough to damage my body but I know otherwise. I feel horrible and it’s taking a lot to get my cardio back if I even can.",3.8112698412698407,6.472342923076925,5.534652014652014,73.39090354090355,75.81318681318682,9.099389499389499,30.990231990231987,9.586721724236666,3.6871162393162393,780,38,127,23,18,265,110,182,0.136,0.7559999999999999,0.109,-0.7995,0,0,5,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,3,5,5,1,0,9,0,12,20,3,2,1,26,29,16,0,2,3,1,2,1,0,0,13,0,0,1,3,10,8,1,5,4,0,2,3,3,0,0,6,2,20,2,20,22,8,18,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,5,13,90,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344814526630765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3955054537879504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08388955670895655,0.0,0.09437065464544024,0.0,0.0,0.17251344326832374,0.1263976913175925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09485682078955493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2740520209844662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13835959789722188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3977874700344867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12626497968507838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2416931896490365,0.0,0.0,0.1030520975743072,0.0,0.0,0.2549293124208093,0.0,0.08147862794677631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12474982807134098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2578036520628393,0.0,0.0701087708545593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13033743096813125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13925929859947872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06779585536303054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060267843103545625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20975383768302655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09514343404955933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.107713869825343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2624187363784288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08731539094623675,0.0,0.09851607366502516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1855038995914812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0790446030475398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08375386809961867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10178555813894634,0.07276138081815607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,TheChristmas,2019/05/11,What type of probiotics help with beer shits? There are like a billion different types on Amazon. Where does one begin? I just want to poop easy in the morning.,2.2590000000000003,5.1455945666666665,2.2816666666666663,92.0625,86.66666666666666,5.666666666666668,20.833333333333336,7.1686216300943375,0.7823333333333333,127,4,24,2,4,38,30,30,0.085,0.602,0.313,0.7476,1,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,2,0,1,3,2,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,1,5,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,2,15,2,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4977383614781887,0.0,0.0,0.4169023229334243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3193220057884202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2327457981822373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3228221095609685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4890194812017686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2809940555906034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,SpermaSpons,2019/05/11,"Tips for stomach acid? So I drink pretty vigorously every day, and the morning after and when I go to sleep my stomach acid burns my esophagus. It hurts, I can't eat right because of it and falling asleep is way harder because I feel like the acid is coming up. Any household tricks to not get the burning? Are there certain foods that'll help immediately? Drinking water when drinking doesn't help.",4.023142857142858,6.525080800000001,4.479238095238099,82.03200000000002,74.33333333333334,5.885714285714287,29.380952380952376,6.868970318607317,1.7134952380952375,320,14,55,3,7,101,56,75,0.077,0.7290000000000001,0.195,0.8619,0,0,3,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,4,5,1,0,3,0,6,10,4,0,1,7,10,6,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,4,6,0,1,3,0,3,3,2,0,0,0,4,6,3,6,9,0,10,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,5,31,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1420988705525162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2547581898808676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1799991503724077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13476087472472836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6140990121425278,0.0,0.21381659928461488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17605645570796316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10565564037999924,0.14927991542498936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2526733143832823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10917213423101838,0.0,0.11875586837132968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2801208080582637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22369427806112646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10208651436032372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2125858043237725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1784493231599661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20910929705010456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1658614436108023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,meanjelly,2019/05/11,"Gallon of whiskey a week, I don’t even know how to stop. I work 65-80 hours a week as a forklift driver in a sawmill. I have two daughters and my wife, their the reason I’m still here and the reason I push myself so hard at work so I can take care of them. My wife has major depression, it’s hard for her to take care care of our girls while I work. I’m bipolar and dealing with depression myself. I come home stressed and drink to deal with it, to chill myself out so they don’t have to deal with my mood swings when I’m down. At this point I don’t have physical withdrawals but it’s a matter of time before I’m back to that. I’ve quit three times in the past. Ended up falling off the wagon so to speak. I’m trying to quit for good, but I don’t know how. I’ve quit before, I’ll quit again but I don’t know how to make it permanent, I always end up starting again. It’s been two days sober and whiskey is the only thing on my mind. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. Honestly I don’t want my girls growing up and always seeing me this way, I don’t want this to be all they see as they grow older. I’m always tired, from the moment I wake up to the moment I go to sleep. And every time I quit, I become completely antisocial, to everyone, my wife, my kids, people I work with, friends ect. Being sober, I want nothing to do with anyone. I don’t feel normal without alcohol, I don’t know exactly what to do. Over the past month I’ve averaged a gallon of whiskey a week. So yea, here I am..",1.081024814695457,2.719309666666668,3.0265850252443904,93.07850467289724,80.05919003115265,5.922913309700293,20.103233430013965,6.8039241337230125,0.14074661080674564,1157,29,268,12,29,389,151,321,0.055999999999999994,0.838,0.106,0.9426,0,0,5,0,0,0,40.0,1,0,5,9,17,11,0,1,15,1,23,9,2,6,2,39,48,22,0,5,4,4,3,0,1,1,3,1,1,3,11,14,5,1,7,4,0,6,10,3,0,3,1,6,40,7,44,43,2,45,0,2,2,0,19,14,0,0,24,164,51,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08348285207560988,0.0,0.09130048790875807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2132580126399311,0.0,0.0,0.058096474154439415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059735819280241034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0656916909990573,0.0,0.0,0.0943525820698738,0.1453921401278078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.261309884242214,0.0,0.0,0.07359183044010809,0.08957349443124803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05509636807831893,0.26422894226516397,0.14716436711479908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08369052535623972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513342276995018,0.0,0.0,0.056426821029365214,0.0,0.07197987773576131,0.0816336343936293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0431968259616732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06600430651922258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04855279433746911,0.07165604259087605,0.0,0.0941887323302706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1530600153121296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08569494392503636,0.0,0.08413299905164147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878040754246063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057026311925063224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08626164619848725,0.0,0.06819075446583991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08370491067387445,0.08197400413732106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06497464477401856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631084168250479,0.059227572280006836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08076055458600817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.454335555394058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17567599791629682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361559812689746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0854933809416494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060468985084662176,0.0,0.06822585256152527,0.07142471253421344,0.09786170446408232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12846798732712314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056757014203119585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14944770449502126,0.09819115233212483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05800250501102387,0.0,0.16690868155805896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15116946063294706,0.06781169360802043,0.2055844293142673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08235309396976696,0.0,0.2487811314292541,0.0,0.0,0.0606882165917896,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,vain95,2019/05/11,"Boredom This past month has been the longest (not consecutively, just all together) I’ve been sober in a year. Right now I’m on day 3, but a week ago I went 5. It’s not really by choice, I lost my ID a couple of weeks ago and appointments for the DMV here take forever. I’m just too lazy to find other ways to get booze even though there’s a couple different ways. It’s cool not waking up hungover or with the sweats and shakes, but I’m bored. I wake up and instead of opening a beer, I make a pot of coffee. I’m in between jobs (thanks to alcohol, of course) so I don’t have much to distract myself with. Hobbies- I know. I try to do those too, but everything feels dull and boring. I don’t remember life feeling this dull without alcohol before, but then again I was probably working and in a better place in my life. My mind feels numb. Nothing feels good. Idk anymore.",1.1469508967950617,3.3626625307262583,2.9166127609526633,90.93184945604234,82.91061452513965,6.226521611290798,22.270214642752126,7.475848149327749,0.8886916201117319,679,23,146,11,19,225,114,179,0.16699999999999998,0.777,0.055999999999999994,-0.9636,2,0,3,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,3,12,12,0,2,10,1,8,10,3,1,1,29,23,13,0,0,11,0,4,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,6,8,4,0,7,1,0,2,6,8,0,0,5,5,13,4,22,18,2,25,0,3,0,0,0,10,0,1,11,87,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2557749184524584,0.3083634600027362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14307797856541898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12276392058227095,0.0,0.0,0.1275958981583939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3192660414682278,0.0,0.0930428034031622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15073239718630402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09528957713215627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12966139361802634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2917908331002425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13186100044399676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07537559728006397,0.0,0.0,0.1210075966160657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14316661940537725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07928752056399359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20380562435834235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15748874362777487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0963019544538543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14567249472905489,0.0,0.11515566602610862,0.0,0.10605572079746904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13843183166405695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13772291068697431,0.0,0.0,0.15073239718630402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15554844497197326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09242364089030994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16343082006146972,0.1232065710920574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10847377155138747,0.0,0.0,0.13282527292933932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14174543914278526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09795047947552997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22903107035432105,0.2314508476281436,0.0,0.0,0.1337405813843965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13907201144328055,0.0,0.10503094264346377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09290573761768603 alcoholism,swagbruh,2019/05/11,"How to go cold turkey? I currently haven't seen my family for roughly 2 years. My grandfather is having surgery and I'm flying in to see him as well as the whole lot of my people. Any tips on drying out and not drinking. I only drink about a pint a day, or equivelant with craft beer. Gabapentin/aka neurotonin helps but is there anything else including a diet to help me dry up in 2 weeks.",1.810917721518987,4.05256330379747,3.3473259493670935,88.65238132911396,80.51898734177216,6.987974683544303,22.53322784810127,8.07648339933343,1.2797708860759491,307,10,63,6,8,101,66,79,0.0,0.905,0.095,0.7096,1,0,3,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,4,0,4,4,0,1,0,9,8,7,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,3,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,4,7,1,14,7,2,10,0,0,2,0,3,5,0,2,4,39,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17778642839680667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2151407421981296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16860552453219133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5122183337386326,0.0,0.0,0.2183974392676605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2464599568140331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1485809254275325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3504720184661895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2222647675536433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19883495855559227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1812478070576938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20833179609423647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2097093495703783,0.0,0.23506366138826426,0.0,0.0,0.29188557206307353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1683571437030423 alcoholism,ChimneyShrimp,2019/05/11,"I drink because I am a control freak apparently. Help? I realized this when I met my psychologist this week. I can't stand things being out of my control and I just always escape or get out when I can't affect things. Things get out of control all the time because I am slightly authistic and have issues with my mental health. I also have trauma and all that. I am now 30 years old and problems accumulate. I constantly think about leaving the society and living in a forest maybe a year or two. Of course I would eventually die. I wouldn't come out alive. But I would die free. That idea is so tempting. I am tired of being conrtrolled. The only way I really can get out of my situation without abandoning everybody and everything is getting drunk. What will I do if I can't get drunk or can't escape to the forest? I have tried getting sober but I can't do it. I feel trapped. I have always felt that way. Especially when I was a child. I lived in a bad place and everything I did was controlled. The way I walked, my facial expressions and my speach patterns. Even then I thought about leaving the humanity. Nobody believed me when I told them what was happening. I was bullied at school with my friend and even today I have this collection of people I have to protect and because of that I can't just go.",2.408050089445439,4.782516364341088,3.9218604651162816,84.61889087656532,79.15503875968994,6.9149672033392955,25.426952892069174,8.012643519586192,1.6851074537865234,1034,40,200,19,26,342,128,258,0.135,0.799,0.066,-0.9520000000000001,1,1,1,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,1,4,13,7,0,0,11,0,32,6,1,5,2,45,47,23,2,5,9,0,2,0,1,4,2,0,0,2,13,18,3,6,6,3,1,3,8,5,0,1,9,2,41,3,22,32,2,29,0,1,0,0,8,9,0,4,13,150,54,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08206250946215063,0.17077057049376707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08568062848961366,0.18766249853063552,0.0,0.0,0.1156138406453837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08839517009724318,0.0,0.11089215899991664,0.4603732592756481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21299979317168724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10052526455926523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13555467809695945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1844504824396316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05188606881643838,0.0,0.0985280902849361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07928138037911109,0.0,0.32167783087633633,0.0,0.05831941519174345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09074357744970857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1090767157067076,0.0,0.0,0.06878178709415486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1158417235866548,0.0,0.1071051370078848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21731246188786368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1812247894142911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10309223202685944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10341346203812532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1076789273276458,0.0,0.0,0.07804459737526931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07114147446568501,0.0,0.10721257347503413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09819028916652407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0657388628772029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10385354283510637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11534543027757545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20452185635385733,0.06575261508091662,0.0,0.08146616915669146,0.059836602244552686,0.11794276022942934,0.0972685992183575,0.0980546203936822,0.0,0.06966997920629688,0.0,0.10024157035364502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24435699541166225,0.08231289845580055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09891880261649748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14579186837580987,0.0,0.0,0.13216353493372904 alcoholism,kell_fire,2019/05/11,"Narcissistic + Alchohol. Hi everybody, This post will talk about my mom's current struggles with alcohol, so if anyone doesn't feel comfortable reading it, please scroll right on down to keep on your journey! :) &#x200B; Anyways, about eight years ago, my mom was injured from work, forced into a retirement situation pretty much (getting disability) and has been a chronic beer drinker since then. This was from my ages of 13-21. She also has total symptoms of being a narcissist. She is never one to blame herself and has said insanely hurtful things to my dad and his family, me, and has been pretty isolated these last eight years. But all those struggles aside, she says she's ""not a bad alcoholic"" because she only drinks beer. How can I show her that even if it's just beer, it's still an illness that needs to be treated? She also takes a small dose of pain pills as well as sleeping pills, which as we know, is extremely dangerous to combine with alcohol. Any advice on any of this would help, but I really need to just get her to see that being addicted to beer is still a problem, and her ego is so big, it's hard for her to see. Thank you guys.",5.952233766233764,6.6910241454545485,6.039480519480518,79.75136363636366,66.63636363636364,9.376623376623376,32.077922077922075,9.424239791934726,2.828337662337662,912,36,171,17,14,289,143,220,0.11,0.81,0.079,-0.7304,1,0,9,0,0,0,38.0,1,2,0,1,14,11,1,2,7,0,19,18,1,1,3,27,31,18,0,6,7,3,2,0,0,2,12,2,0,1,14,9,8,1,2,7,0,1,3,7,1,3,5,6,22,4,28,21,3,20,0,1,2,0,24,8,0,2,10,120,36,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12723698181233234,0.0,0.1140529093576248,0.10346113385277292,0.3741997073482866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18667447943456575,0.0,0.12646105530437665,0.14182195043809756,0.15874090872536747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08161010090553998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09745245926400828,0.07114860661748333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11433662920263232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07708940152610487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11002886401923227,0.0,0.059014798290332814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1219579278001009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11556656687893567,0.0,0.0,0.1045540468410228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07823185267264186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12494621821418644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10374198415503406,0.0,0.0,0.06414371532250589,0.09513860484888544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27339126288869314,0.0,0.0,0.0857992268488888,0.17308593684033624,0.09001808909705808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07908935575012907,0.08876729875308194,0.1241933833859259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12811842797355094,0.0,0.0,0.11178106194627893,0.2374829837088473,0.0,0.11168084692891622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11674695545758652,0.0,0.07477085508750017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09967428878813908,0.11102304501123583,0.09281674732954648,0.0,0.0,0.1860140783894676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.096548160680815,0.13119296676001324,0.1167996610655278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18641809149018512,0.0,0.0,0.24403249399323595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12131195959216615,0.08775543329968241,0.09381139380526804,0.0,0.10745583206296892,0.0,0.0,0.0775405060485355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10494113514053632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08497017988523475,0.0,0.0,0.08291125056137723,0.0,0.14182195043809756,0.1503217440319997 alcoholism,drunken-coder,2019/05/11,"I'm an alcoholic My life has always been a little bit of a mess. My parents have their fair share of problems - drugs and alcohol being two of them. I decided early on that I would never drink, so in my rebel teenage years I was obstinate in other ways than drinking my ass off. &#x200B; Then I started university. I wanted to fit in, so I broke my promise to myself I was shitfaced during the introduction week and for many weekends to come. I drank when I was happy, I drank when I was sad, I drank when I had anxiety. People that could drink the most without puking or passing out were the coolest on campus, so that was what I aspired to. &#x200B; A few years later I (quite miraculously all things considered) started my first job as a programmer. I didn't drink as much and mostly kept it to the weekends, but when we had work parties I was always the one who drank the most. Sober for the most part, but I couldn't stop drinking when I had my first drip of alcohol. &#x200B; This was a few years ago, but the trend continued and I have now realized that my drinking habits has costed me more than a few friendships, job opportunities, and has overall made me a bad person. Almost a month ago I decided to never ever drink again and quit cold turkey. So now I am the only sober one on work parties, and I am cool with it. &#x200B; Just wanted to ventilate.",5.003071161048691,5.944171048689139,5.663164794007487,80.8802902621723,68.85018726591761,8.330337078651686,29.814606741573034,8.515128840125781,2.197080898876405,1078,40,205,16,18,350,140,267,0.07200000000000001,0.8109999999999999,0.11699999999999999,0.9112,3,0,11,0,0,0,44.0,1,0,2,7,14,11,1,0,18,1,24,17,1,1,4,38,36,23,0,6,6,1,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,1,11,11,14,2,3,9,1,2,5,6,0,5,19,2,37,5,27,13,12,42,0,2,0,1,7,10,1,6,29,161,48,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13334463455654538,0.24114138986012176,0.07531555469650035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12516747900793196,0.3259756118504056,0.3655710207115184,0.0,0.0,0.05753819727454875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06280021339069991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08211376982567058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06478985556795976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0600519385194604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5157648495039441,0.08722389596357884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06803500624678642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12795329756893525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08006627459897872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14927578247946502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05312558921934145,0.0,0.07538378539919235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07116892584902289,0.0,0.07625478402320264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06003477704644911,0.0,0.05529064936442595,0.0,0.11601872845514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10193336228869214,0.05720333120283196,0.0,0.0,0.0835158006269509,0.08144899807536649,0.0,0.05214363918812325,0.06567361341829059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0719692563097823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15999784126759148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10647314481910644,0.0,0.0,0.06288193650572198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04996857301547177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07347275714242546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08872585867318482,0.059701053886110286,0.06033181220721221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07250322531681254,0.0,0.10951279154860027,0.0,0.0,0.053429582660796934,0.0,0.3655710207115184,0.1453052751121019 alcoholism,Ecomax511,2019/05/11,"14 Months sober I had my last drink 14 months ago. The intention was to quit. Drinking was always a big problem when I first started at age 16 or 17. I am now 58. Lately the thoughts of drinking have become stronger. So far I have been able to fight the urge. I know just one will result in a relapse. Advice would be appreciated. J",0.057014925373138674,2.42499835820896,1.6409104477611969,95.23151492537315,95.26865671641792,3.8740298507462687,20.13283582089552,5.6839178017228535,-0.11923761194029805,258,9,55,2,10,83,54,67,0.08,0.831,0.08900000000000001,0.1531,0,0,3,0,1,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,4,2,1,0,5,0,10,3,0,2,0,8,13,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,3,0,0,0,2,0,2,5,0,6,0,5,5,0,14,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,10,33,6,0,0.20877552145000586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20401302328386284,0.1850669029712876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1737179585047246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2305761607818562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6135615880496323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1775843518923504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11473756663734774,0.17017991487941206,0.2355078818172381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33328525877347226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14147169648748725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19976997827760629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22205846574897956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1477723886440258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16574444357925874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14830814037574233,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,jinmyshoes,2019/05/11,"How to help a family member? Hi, A member of my family has become very hard to control on alcohol. Pretty much every time I go home they are either drunk or drinking. They smash glasses, throw stuff, scream abuse and become violent. Which is strange because when they are sober they are a saint. My family don't know what to do at this point. We live in Belfast, NI and I am asking people here who have had similar experiences, what is the best way to handle it? How can I help this person? It's at a stage now where we are worried something terrible will happen.",2.078969696969697,4.597803109090911,3.5395454545454537,86.01265151515152,81.54545454545455,6.575757575757575,20.984848484848484,7.793537801064563,1.100666666666667,442,13,84,8,12,145,81,110,0.18100000000000002,0.716,0.10300000000000001,-0.8286,0,0,3,0,1,0,14.0,2,0,4,2,6,4,1,0,5,0,14,3,0,3,0,10,18,6,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,1,1,9,4,3,1,1,2,0,2,1,3,0,0,1,2,11,1,9,16,3,13,1,0,0,0,12,6,0,1,3,60,20,0,0.0,0.19817753448332764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17875168305267267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15636693000070725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1019610619408404,0.3694543858782053,0.0,0.0,0.17553063193193524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1875980021545756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16385259931951787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409250332161555,0.0,0.0,0.16361384839374776,0.4730377875083426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09505856872754287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14790879787161254,0.0,0.14983345638006446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22422372426733794,0.0,0.16777692876091685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0919225497454302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1476949746755329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12295645268569574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11595806846897995,0.14604629596121504,0.0,0.0,0.15811618740682992,0.0,0.0,0.17016508378031445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1287660794166428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1914744080595809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09753152956327538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13800825996356947,0.0,0.13276439853420602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16986217899014744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,0h_Styl0,2019/05/11,"I...think I have a problem. Help. I don't know for sure, but I have several things that are of growing concern to me. Full disclosure, I'm drunk while typing this. Not sure if that matters. I'm 31, and I've had...a life. My dad was an alcoholic, and took his own life when I was 10. I've been deeply depressed (confirmed by a therapist) for a large portion of my life. Oddly enough, I never truly felt depressed until my (at least I got it out of the way early?) divorce at age 24. It had zero to do with alcohol, I was barely (maybe three drinks a month) drinking at the time, we were just a bad match and it took us a few years to realize it. I drank more than I was accustomed to to get me through it, but I was still very much in control of myself, and went several months at a time without drinking when I was on a fitness kick, so it wasn't even a concern. I started officially drinking to dull the pain after my following relationship (I'll call her Elizabeth)fell apart. We dated for just over a year, and almost five years later, I'm not only still not over her, but somehow just as hung up on her now as I was when it fell apart. Again, I cam say with full honesty our breakup had zero to do with alcohol, it was a ""community issue"", which she never communicated to me was a problem until after it was too late. Whatever. That's neither here nor there. That's the first time I ever truly dabbled in the term ""drown your sorrows"". It was still well under my control. At the time, I was working as a personal trainer, and living the lifestyle. I drank to make myself feel better on the weekends, but still followed a strict diet and got myself into the best shape of my life. I'd probably still be a personal trainer to this day if it meant actually helping people and not just selling training packages to people who may or may not have been able to afford it. I've always considered myself a virtuous person, and I'm the furthest thing from a salesman, so I left only because of personal conflict with the job. Years pass, and nothing but a few meaningless sexual encounters and random, still meaningless relationships, still very hung up on Elizabeth. Jobs come and jobs go. I get a therapist, I go on meds, I'm not over her, but I try and live my life. Get an apartment with my best friend. Things seem okay. Until they don't. I find out Elizabeth is dating again and go off the deep end. I go on a week long bender. At some point I punch a speed limit sign and break my hand. I reach out to friends, all of whom support me, but I start drinking heavily. I take maybe a month off drinking (just to prove to myself I can) before getting back into it heavier than before. I sink deeper into depression. Therapy, medication, and exercise do nothing for me. I dabble a bit (thank the gods it didn't get further than that) in cocaine. I date a stripper for a few months. Nothing stems my depression. A few years, a few meaningless jobs, and a few meaningless sexual partners later, and the only difference is that I've lost all motivation to exercise, I sleep more than ever, and I call one day without drinking a positive development. I'm drinking because I feel obligated to, because at least when I'm drunk I'm more than just sad. I swore when I woke up in a pile of puke on my floor with a sprained elbow (of which I remember nothing but a vague memory of tripping in my bathtub) I'd reign it in, but that lasted a week tops. I'm in my overdraft but spending money on alcohol every day anyways. I realize I shouldn't be doing this, but I am anyways, and I can't justify it any more than ""I'm depressed, so I want to"". My name is Kyle, and I think I'm an alcoholic.",3.6270044709389,4.949296355191257,5.17267660208644,81.68201043219078,72.46994535519127,8.165166418281173,29.292697466467967,8.683859531658005,2.2918373770491804,2860,117,561,52,55,966,311,732,0.11199999999999999,0.78,0.109,-0.8126,6,0,14,0,1,0,113.0,4,1,1,11,35,24,0,0,50,1,40,30,3,4,9,103,86,51,1,6,28,1,4,0,3,3,14,1,0,5,33,36,18,4,13,13,3,14,18,13,1,6,30,5,79,11,95,51,26,127,0,9,0,0,31,50,0,10,61,406,112,7,0.05205826757080801,0.0,0.05080135965373103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27817228051535303,0.052128835170993565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04331664891977797,0.0,0.0,0.03540140710220987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04002959439686575,0.04346647894633558,0.09520271017138264,0.0,0.08859550286035313,0.0,0.10926388015137048,0.04604130719613825,0.056834145214231364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10631462330607924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04484358795822014,0.0,0.0,0.11677554737000202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10071982773044362,0.0,0.2241885478850511,0.0,0.0,0.054389809574050194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4079782674395103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04610817335529477,0.05379010645273783,0.0,0.03438399475730405,0.09417936681972136,0.04386133568307536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052644448519451034,0.0,0.0499841006944992,0.0,0.04758031344468256,0.04428073580175098,0.0,0.0,0.08044017677818023,0.0,0.1359914808999496,0.0,0.11834365257494855,0.0,0.08327150437924433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06978711882305659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05433530618139615,0.2066391913662611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028609862415603118,0.04243443619462466,0.05872399331840189,0.0,0.056561460036118075,0.0,0.18385146965568624,0.0,0.0,0.0919368080333966,0.046069928622020064,0.0,0.0,0.05682774861852592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034749297842586936,0.0,0.10459905376323024,0.0,0.0578249995748197,0.052443227770069635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662096500407033,0.0,0.03826881656558107,0.0,0.08030109048200741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1998052470137233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035276029384533704,0.1187779749689372,0.05539366707610882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07218129597284216,0.18182108504737327,0.0,0.0,0.049211889573526665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05612761728395025,0.09962546288531704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11178219421654872,0.05897186900495921,0.0,0.0,0.04139882383816963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04739189162467025,0.0,0.11762204911654282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05209586342906089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07369421945810126,0.0,0.29101659809917035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0590751051209716,0.09812860220239228,0.0,0.0391413384819111,0.0,0.0,0.04792825853037277,0.0595331658902249,0.12088732208066118,0.1037555993692092,0.06671367167731793,0.0,0.0,0.12142237784814518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1156773014864858,0.03534414648614812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06261968612225717,0.0,0.0,0.0859070454574896,0.030705314996466705,0.041321429684806635,0.08351600427801778,0.0,0.0468066344927565,0.04825853558760384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100364624469297,0.0,0.0378990388025226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16761908759126926 alcoholism,fosforuss,2019/05/11,"Day 5 with no alcohol whatsoever for the first time in a year I haven't left the house all week. Been binge watching Netflix, smoking bud and taking small quarters of Xanax to stop the anxiety. Body feels great. Skin feels great. Been eating a lot but incorporating healthy foods. But it's Friday night and I can't sleep and I feel like I should definitely be doing something right now! The worst. Especially since I wanted to be productive tomorrow :( So now the urge kicks in I guess",2.392106227106229,5.303096846153848,3.1872802197802206,85.71813644688648,86.03296703296705,6.54981684981685,22.96794871794872,7.793537801064563,1.4662300366300367,387,14,73,8,12,122,70,91,0.141,0.701,0.158,0.4003,0,0,2,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,7,0,8,7,3,0,1,15,14,6,0,2,2,0,4,1,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,4,3,1,3,1,0,0,3,1,0,2,2,5,6,3,7,9,3,15,0,0,1,0,1,5,0,2,11,43,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21011949239230715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15040839913267773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2183927085714044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12679911310929118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011841731712871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29824030578334737,0.14046035928145614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16723890878315342,0.2377452078404049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.433533030975465,0.2165913747374684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22686499259826926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21362058882608456,0.0,0.0,0.0960551755674578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16715333307992433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18450797210739844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1679064191135363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16264029700147742,0.0,0.19675498146640594,0.0,0.0,0.15136228527929352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1643772633170754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14782849962868094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11464661554007287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11596743551964715,0.0,0.15771108099825848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12661231929611794 alcoholism,sparklerockthrowaway,2019/05/11,"Could my mom be an alcoholic? So me, my brother, and my dad have noticed that when my mom drinks her personality changes. She’ll bring up controversial topics and argue with you about them, be mean, and get really upset about seemingly innocuous things. It was unusually bad tonight. I showed her a comedy clip I thought she would enjoy and she thought i was making fun of her and started CRYING. The thing is, she really doesn’t drink that much. Like 1-2 beers a night but it’s very consistent. Now that I can think about it I don’t remember the last time she didn’t have a drink with dinner. But because she doesn’t drink in excess I haven’t really worried about her being an alcoholic i just thought having to deal with beer mom was an inconvenience I’d have to deal with. But after tonight was so bad I started looking up stuff and “alcoholism” kept popping up. Could she be an alcoholic? It runs in her family, her brother had a problem but caught it and went on those meds that make you throw up if you drink and he doesn’t drink anymore and her uncle was an alcoholic. TL;DR my mom’s personality changes dramatically after just one beer. I’ve never seen her drink more than 2 beers in a sitting but she drinks very consistently nearly every day. My dad has told her before that she becomes someone else when she drinks and even her kids (me and my brother) notice it, nothing has changed. Could she be an alcoholic?",3.0506653198653204,5.497867898181823,4.001131313131314,84.51740067340069,77.29090909090908,7.274074074074074,25.09427609427609,8.285830014693849,1.7174538720538726,1132,41,218,22,27,364,137,275,0.095,0.8759999999999999,0.028999999999999998,-0.9576,1,0,19,0,0,0,27.0,0,3,1,0,12,8,1,1,13,0,30,20,0,2,1,39,48,21,0,6,8,9,0,1,0,2,6,0,0,3,15,15,20,1,7,14,0,5,7,5,0,1,15,2,42,3,23,23,2,29,0,0,2,0,42,9,0,2,15,151,57,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43834189930214174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06779561676138107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11415694680298255,0.04167215359201346,0.07549921323148139,0.058170067786600985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21695021746888374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16374178320858768,0.0,0.07509120885604599,0.04408710763998649,0.14095411640303884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6027086713092328,0.0,0.0,0.05710673739787464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04515171179645895,0.0,0.05759698376376901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06444454696935001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03571573457772139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05572323538404198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03339766943772108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05740591607557258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09126282692818896,0.0,0.0,0.07446503121977993,0.07593351889044242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32025371231971816,0.0,0.0,0.05025310725402608,0.0,0.05272411946280285,0.0,0.0,0.06415204828541067,0.0,0.06559410121090943,0.1556586136850082,0.0,0.0,0.04632309664238582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193801547569532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06541212298828519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13138117690052534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07743954279323016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06223317119578066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057921945733803534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09677235532181308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0782568442277343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09083185268910098,0.043802887036823564,0.0,0.16281269119875602,0.0398617747075155,0.0,0.0,0.06532174355738493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11280975887648716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06337121401834148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0694237847037979,0.0,0.048561602709596925,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,icepophffh,2019/05/11,"Worried that I may have done irreversible damage to myself Hi, I started drinking at the age of 16 and would binge drink quite often like the idiot I am. I stopped after a little more than a year after realizing the damage I’m doing to myself and plan on never going back to it. Problem is, I’m a little scared that I have done some noticeable damage to my brain already. After my year long hiatus on alcohol, I noticed that my personality changed completely from being eccentric, to depressed and shy. I had really bad brain fog, but that seemed to have died down substantially. Overall I just generally feel a lot more ‘limited’ than before I started drinking. Could be placebo and/or self doubt, but it’s obvious that damage was done. Aside from that, is there anything I can do to help myself and possibly reverse the damage done to my brain? I just want to make sure that my prefrontal cortex and all the other parts are fully developed and not thrown out of whack. Thanks.",7.795409836065573,7.644064743169402,7.925142076502732,70.83754918032787,62.77049180327869,10.380109289617486,34.14699453551913,9.888512548439397,3.3796233879781425,780,29,131,14,10,254,112,183,0.2,0.731,0.069,-0.9668,0,0,4,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,3,5,14,1,2,9,0,21,7,3,1,4,32,31,8,1,4,5,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,2,10,7,4,2,3,3,0,1,2,11,0,0,6,1,19,3,23,20,6,20,0,6,0,0,4,7,0,6,13,103,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12265812964998628,0.0,0.0,0.12665557958628124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0944489366770664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08825385423505798,0.09583120575764503,0.0,0.0,0.09766392481772776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38437606242301375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12141530592560923,0.0,0.12033799100975467,0.0,0.0,0.09163742232213648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0988543787381757,0.0,0.1191169308955651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4698131803662972,0.0,0.33730345405864165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05803300727779076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06522851168841486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.076930359961091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05607260918138784,0.23006670389594505,0.0,0.10157107076622372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09757645503000152,0.0,0.0,0.0766123042908075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08852051639661597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26134112822309763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.124288681071112,0.0,0.0,0.10021592635652188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12939004816097407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10982288494371267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12207590722585206,0.0,0.0,0.07352694075327096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11490844860062248,0.0,0.0,0.10448562265958898,0.119733950784516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16247476398439042,0.0,0.0,0.09595591273279673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10817280921210133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10566815891621632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06769647394058756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11655821538230356,0.0,0.08153190973504222,0.0,0.0,0.14782093844499766 alcoholism,constantanxietyhelp,2019/04/04,"Quit this Week I quit this week but I'm experiencing occassionally shakiness and sweatiness, not sure if I should seek medical help? I also am scared my liver is fucked over forever, what are tell tale signs I've destroyed my body for good?... been drinking about 5 yrs but due to depression over the past 4 months been drinking mildly to heavily every day. &#x200B; Emotionally I am fine, I accepted I would have insomnia. I just don't wanna go to inpatient (I will if I have to) &#x200B; It happened past two days, I'll be fine then get really shaky and fuzzy and my right side hurts then feel fine after 15 minutes",4.228050847457624,6.3572760423728845,5.112000000000002,79.42918644067798,72.47457627118644,8.787796610169492,27.90169491525424,9.3871,2.6046549152542373,495,19,92,12,10,161,85,118,0.23,0.675,0.095,-0.9694,0,0,2,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,2,3,13,2,3,1,0,13,7,2,0,1,18,19,10,0,5,6,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,4,3,2,0,2,2,0,1,2,7,0,1,2,2,12,6,10,13,0,16,0,2,0,1,2,4,1,4,11,53,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11420005487928915,0.0,0.3094554649268998,0.34704421455308165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15862270066298945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18419312526170287,0.0,0.1229966041840706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2797864897055829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1606349241813647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12031826324067993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07220583364003491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13201970518712064,0.07460903113228122,0.0,0.08115862479805051,0.11977695526080362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12628082656282155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09571829952959147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15287429776410694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1438596883966976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11398453851950988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2726445508058502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.303778592979432,0.0,0.0,0.09148369697055436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12195356627363267,0.0,0.0,0.14297140046137735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13459078260335788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12481671455634362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1394984495429343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2290970037971205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10144364021155572,0.0,0.34704421455308165,0.0 alcoholism,kyle4dictator,2019/04/04,"Day 2 after leaving hospital for withdrawal. What do I eat? I need ideas on what foods might help. My pee looks like whiskey and I'm really struggling with my appetite. Any advice helps. 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After a year of careful recording I decided to share a chart. &#x200B; https://i.redd.it/g0psffm34bq21.jpg Some explanation is necessary - unit is a 500 ml of 5% beer (my most common drink). If I drank anything else I converted it to this unit. Red bars are weekly total of these units, green line is 4 weeks total. I also have a daily break down, but that's too detailed and wide for displaying here. It's pretty mind blowing to see how I drank equivalent of 58 tall beers in one week (and 141 in one month) without really feeling like a (""real"") alcoholic. Last year was quite unique for me - I was mostly unemployed, did a lot of travelling and celebrations/parties (some important life events) which kind of explains the amounts consumed. For this (and following) years I plan to reduce the amount to 1/3 of 2018 numbers or less. In general I can recommend recording the consumption - it is pretty revealing since human memory is very forgetful. It also kind of holds me accountable - I have to record every single beer and there's a bit of gamification factor which sways me a bit on rather not drinking that one beer on the weekday nights.",7.484487179487179,8.661394713675218,7.135025641025642,71.6933076923077,63.4017094017094,10.855384615384617,34.83076923076923,10.793553405168565,4.098576410256411,1049,45,169,27,15,330,145,234,0.035,0.889,0.075,0.8404,2,0,9,0,0,0,44.0,0,0,0,2,8,5,0,0,13,0,13,14,0,1,2,32,23,13,0,3,6,0,1,1,0,0,5,0,0,1,11,6,12,1,5,8,1,2,2,0,0,3,6,4,16,5,30,17,15,27,0,0,3,0,3,8,0,8,17,113,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10200464846191,0.3689318701738601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1840465490995833,0.0,0.12468078601189013,0.1398254364697632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09469469585542603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3768874354549832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11732387623010125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22545408568072986,0.0,0.0,0.09612813861174263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09695337347477212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058184011033768364,0.08220767215994089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2396601796023816,0.0,0.09379928076737416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16255793330335416,0.056218511918313466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09783035211194972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1161902168149346,0.0,0.09184960982461353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1079875557737024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23392790016735265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2341397911159391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1223935526723001,0.0,0.13097746682158254,0.07371826022369131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0916977224610963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0951889934234138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16289752855862275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0949466965910034,0.06787262234838136,0.0,0.2769121674403915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11092558820070036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1398254364697632,0.29641114658544576 alcoholism,InterestingTooth,2019/04/04,"my father is an alcoholic and im tired and need advice For cultural purpose divorce is top an option for my mother, but my father is an alcoholic. Been like this his whole life, im in my mid twenties finishing off university. Whats the best thing I can do for my future? I feel like when I come home to visit from Uni that the next day he becomes an alcoholic. He has not reason to drink, he doesnt have to work or anything hard with his life. Hes a good person overall, but this drinking is gotten to the point where I want to beat him up but im not going to jail. 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For me it allows me to drink so much more, especially since my drink of choice is vodka. Other alcoholics I've met have given me so much shit for it though. Stuff like ""Haha you pussy!"" ""You need a chaser? What a fucking weakling."" I don't necessarily need it, but it makes drinking so much easier. What're you guy's thoughts on it?",2.2951027397260257,4.87888787671233,3.6482020547945235,85.15942636986303,81.1917808219178,6.389726027397263,22.823630136986303,7.645422480735847,1.1994671232876721,297,10,57,5,8,97,54,73,0.034,0.848,0.11800000000000001,0.7253,0,0,5,0,0,0,14.0,0,3,0,0,4,4,2,0,3,1,3,6,1,2,1,8,11,5,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,8,0,4,0,2,4,0,0,2,2,0,0,4,0,9,2,6,7,4,2,0,0,0,1,5,1,2,0,2,39,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21547026661129798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5925319861171986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18639427086811355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19963531628510786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09850125779988284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345827926640656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44464128990538493,0.2989970774317681,0.15550163142855936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2069598435856813,0.1667819951288444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23080645199676905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19809044536444395,0.1600636126099273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,styball,2019/04/04,"Hospital/rehab I'm working on being completely financially independent from an abusive household. I'm mostly there but medical insurance is still with my parents for now. I've been to a mental hospital before, but I feel i need to go to rehab for drinking. Telling them I need to go to a mental hospital is already bad enough (trust me I've tried to tell them I need help for years), so telling them I need to go to rehab would be impossible, they have no idea about my substance abuse. I was thinking of just checking myself into a mental hospital without my mom's knowledge, and explaining later, minus the substance abuse issues. But I'mm at the point of I've tried everything, I can't get better on my own, and I'm scared I'll die from the withdrawals. I don't know what to do. So I'm wondering if anyone has any advice on this ",5.811036585365857,6.165466810975612,6.851121951219515,75.15363414634149,66.86585365853658,9.730731707317073,33.47317073170731,9.642632912329526,3.202689756097561,663,28,121,13,10,223,98,164,0.201,0.778,0.021,-0.9867,1,0,1,0,2,0,17.0,0,0,4,2,7,4,0,1,7,0,12,4,0,1,0,24,29,8,1,6,6,2,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,7,1,1,3,4,2,0,0,2,1,18,2,24,24,3,13,0,0,0,0,11,6,0,3,4,79,20,1,0.0,0.436542180309722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12001205057567953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1355278864508418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08351747480041165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08587414045398219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10254424491044016,0.0,0.0,0.10450534714914557,0.0,0.0,0.10861866881250193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12876774662881876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12746115044848386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12031059447587585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12689930225676144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11037696489021001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06209825770358096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06416504884306262,0.0,0.20939343582828865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0823193824029403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13864163094645626,0.0,0.1281855139733734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06749515510611502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12372180408234762,0.3713017364091646,0.0,0.0,0.1438378304137196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3642589798544688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.136369993842247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11609857019160945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12295786119377865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09807911762246546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3220335580449529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07869401034070096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667647760427392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11838794953497833,0.13318613478959573,0.08940977992798259,0.0,0.0,0.0872432737727407,0.0,0.0,0.07908794632684503 alcoholism,belyyrusskiy,2019/04/04,"I wake up everyday feeling terrible and decide to stop drinking. I desperately need to, but you all know... the day happens and you just want a drink. You’re fine with a few then it seems to always get out of control. I have several mental illnesses which contribute to my alcoholism, and it of course contributes to them. I joke about how pathetic I am, but I truly do believe it. It’s almost like I feel I don’t deserve to be sober... like it’s something lovely I’m too awful to appreciate. I just want to relax, and I end up feeling bad about it anyway. I pretty much only drink alone but have recently been dissociating and making, of course, bad decisions. I’ve never been a blackout drunk, but I can officially say I have gotten out of control with it. There isn’t really anyone in my life that understands, I live alone and my parents live in a different country. I talk to people all day for work but never connect with anyone. I’m too disengaged for actual AA meetings; I’ve tried. Without alcohol, I usually turn to self-harm or various other things that are questionably worse. I don’t know anymore. Any input is appreciated. Thanks, I just joined this sub. 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Money. Car. My ex. Lots of my friends. My car. My ability to drive. I dropped out of school twice, been to jail twice. And did a lot of stupid shit in between for the sake of getting drunk. Got nothing now but debt. All in the span of my 4 years of severe drinking. I played around with it in high school but it didn’t get bad until 19. I was ready to move out on my own but my mistakes postponed all of that and I’m still at my parents house. Working on my mistakes now (kinda.) I still drink a lot but I’m just glad the bad days are over. I still have a long way to go. What did alcohol take from you?",-1.123626160990714,0.9477968308823534,0.6501083591331279,103.15061919504645,95.39705882352942,3.745510835913313,17.45201238390093,5.399115186594226,-0.8015088235294114,483,14,120,3,19,155,81,136,0.183,0.708,0.109,-0.909,2,0,4,0,0,0,20.0,0,2,0,1,7,9,2,0,6,0,8,6,1,0,2,19,16,7,0,2,5,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,5,6,5,0,0,4,2,5,1,6,0,2,7,0,16,3,27,9,6,28,0,0,0,0,5,12,1,4,9,82,21,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32194059290296195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1340865012492371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25152800950300025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971394447730674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29510660863580795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11637104062457578,0.0,0.1573887157612213,0.0,0.08560258413800302,0.0,0.12046706020684855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1591415847801166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17379884511059027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13329671191619394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3841631436338889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16008852798739032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14452693572115866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16724913785768472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30487725603361365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1701612403691277,0.1546124572056962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3608634290144993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264996658641998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1195576132503116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1096554174982136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0969963440300594 alcoholism,2Gurls1Kup,2019/04/04,Irritable Hi everyone I have recently cut myself from the booze after a heavy stint drink/work repeat. It's been a few days and I have become very very irritable. I understand it is probable some form of withdrawals. I have been trying to keep myself occupied with sport family and bit of sony but obviously its not helping. Just wanted to know some things that people think may help. Anything I'll try because im getting annoyed and angry at people for things that don't generally upset me as much.,4.687978723404253,6.9519785957446825,5.9393085106382975,73.40875,71.55319148936171,8.955319148936171,27.707446808510642,9.516144504307137,2.8870468085106387,404,15,67,10,8,135,73,94,0.165,0.77,0.065,-0.8313,0,0,1,0,0,1,7.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,1,3,0,8,1,0,0,1,17,14,5,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,4,1,1,3,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,7,0,10,11,6,5,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,3,4,46,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16703412070932575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12373389117926775,0.224173953800526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22160009709424036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13090442679161715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19884178634197425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19395478304530267,0.0,0.0,0.19135019130211184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10604795852149924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.272104599247922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21925175580243092,0.0,0.0,0.18041673601807431,0.0,0.0,0.11155174878152252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1492126508571284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.281439654554084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21884529789105145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2004169133435139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2696999700634255,0.1300605126150912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2756183369529155,0.0,0.0,0.21130791620215028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3349572610391282,0.11972205720483765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14777086286351693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,slightlymanipulated,2019/03/15,"I have no one else to ask about detoxing at home Hey. Thanks for taking a minute to read my post. For a million reasons, I have no one to really talk to about this. I can't ask my psychiatrist or my therapist, as I'm worried about damaging those relationships (as they're relatively new). My family has made a couple comments where they have expressed concern about my drinking. There is a history of alcoholism in my family, and I think it's starting to become an issue. It hasn't negatively impacted anything in my life yet, but I'm trying to make it so it doesn't get that far. Has anyone detoxed on their own at home? I'm scared because I have read about the dangers of alcohol detox, but I literally don't have another option right now. Generally, I'm drinking 4 days+ out of the week. 3-4 drinks or more up to 7. I just don't want to put myself in a dangerous situation. I'm having a lot of anxiety about this, but I really want to let this bullshit go. Can anyone help me? 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I was with this guy for 6 years, he broke up with me because he wasn't feeling anything towards me anymore. The truth was, he wasn't feeling anything period. Because we are young, each others firsts, we are best friends so we continued hanging around a lot, eventually slipping back to being together for another year. But that year was different then any previous one. He started drinking, few beers (2-4) in the late evening and that was all. Then he incorporated additional beer as a mandatory drink while having lunch and fast forward few months he started drinking from 12am and now even for breakfast (at least 3 times per week) until somewhere around 5pm, then he sleeps and then around 7pm 'till 12~2am, he works, he's a freelancer, programmer. While tipsy/drunk he would become the best boyfriend, affectionate, loving, emotional. He would talked about our future together. This is all important since sober he really doesn't like thinking/talking about the future (not just ours, but in general) and doesn't call me his girlfriend, but once he's drunk everything changes. Yesterday he said that he's happy only when drunk, because alcohol kills everything bad in him and that he would love to be more like me, to be in love with life. I don't know how to help him, he's depressed and was melancholic for years but started using alcohol as a gateway for a year now. He wants to be really good in what he does for living, but in the same time doesn't have nether energy nor will to pursue that. Since we live in a very poor country he has disproportionately huge income compering to cost of life here, so too much money and freedom resulted in this. What can I do? Where is he in alcoholism, in the beginning, middle? Did someone had similar situation?",7.533341712490183,7.672832307462691,7.207509819324432,74.79208169677928,63.23880597014926,10.754124116260801,35.840534171249026,10.426177893888326,3.7069104477611945,1433,61,258,31,19,452,189,335,0.102,0.75,0.14800000000000002,0.9507,2,0,8,0,0,0,49.0,6,0,0,4,19,17,1,0,12,0,31,18,1,4,3,45,45,29,1,4,7,0,2,2,2,4,5,1,0,1,11,20,12,0,4,7,3,2,9,5,0,2,10,3,18,12,41,27,12,55,0,3,0,3,41,20,0,1,37,162,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2986144965777831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06333828650112447,0.09766524541087418,0.0,0.0,0.09236969589998402,0.0,0.0,0.15329230797072976,0.2487426186761479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07161878936372057,0.07776787766512934,0.17033154967849118,0.10286563792797508,0.0,0.0,0.19548903593778413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0951061924004601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09852960299566896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08022120948592486,0.0,0.0,0.09731131114637953,0.0,0.0,0.0815073034438006,0.0,0.0,0.2737247595276696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10476978603591264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12303597451386836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16741616870116913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09418860536790764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07922470207453497,0.0,0.0,0.07195961093110671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07812128052887822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09222308706312272,0.0,0.09914909379970556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12485934565654178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10304543542217412,0.0,0.10237444275620934,0.0,0.10506579872806457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13157484983672008,0.09100684430937367,0.0,0.16448837387750775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07918416300595056,0.2521870316403215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07434333332524899,0.0,0.06846850072065204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09919089203680384,0.06311396745696607,0.07083704692759057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11933553560939993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08859731860694771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15409247966288928,0.1046930848802722,0.09320710653863633,0.0,0.07891708592604031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19777457879164026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1497245539443822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1086211818302772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08044291885199945,0.0,0.07685012409170514,0.054936292016259436,0.0,0.07471116319074253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06780691430882603,0.0,0.0,0.1984916144574328,0.0,0.0,0.2998950228803239 alcoholism,PerfectStormX,2019/03/15,"Creating A Transcendental Platform For Ascension, Lucid Dreaming Hybrid Mindset Voyagers 24/7, INtellectual Light Warrior/Soular Empowerment, Starseeds, Otherkin, Mediums & Psychics, Merkaba-Ascension-5D, Dimension-Shifters, Future Earth(+Discord) Overcome and alchemically transmute your addiction, to transcendenta fire/passion, optimal energetic grounds provided [https://www.reddit.com/r/LightWarriorAscension/](https://www.reddit.com/r/LightWarriorAscension/) [https://discord.gg/PRVXJak](https://discord.gg/PRVXJak) [https://disboard.org/server/539367976806383616](https://disboard.org/server/539367976806383616) &#x200B; Comprehensive Introductory Information To The Community, Discord Server And Internal Chatrooms/Mission Objective On Gaia: &#x200B; At the shift of ages, and the arrival of the age of Aquarius, golden age as we battle the last inner and outer demons of the Kali Yuga/age of Pisces, this transition time is like no other. 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Spirituality, lightworkers, ascension. &#x200B; We are highly focused and streamlined, yet loose and flexible (effortless effort being the motto). Our basic aim-quintessence is to harness all available energies to create an interdimensional rift/gate to haven that can propel us to 5th dimension and beyond while still connected to Earth but ultimately undergoing physical transfiguration, also fueled by the bowels of the earth likewise (as above so below)- which constructs a beastly cyclotron that irons out certain unwanted specific frequency-sets, diminishes their influence on the collective. &#x200B; ""As soon as humanity unites on this planet, it will qualify to establish contact with other more advanced civilizations, such as the Agarthans and those from the GF. In fact the Agarthans and some ascended masters such as St. Germain will already help us run the cities of light and the numerous healing centres which will manifest very soon all over the globe. The next step will be visiting other civilizations, but this could only happen after the incarnated human personality has completed the LBP and has ascended at least to 5D by transfiguring from a carbon-based body into crystalline light body."" The three cities of light will be open portals to the multiverse and to numerous advanced humanoid, and later on, other civilisations, such as the dragons. Alone this fact will make the existence of national states and nations obsolete as all the people will recognize their multidimensional nature and will strive to ascend too and be able to live in these cities of light and enjoy the advantages of a higher dimensional life. In the first place, they will enjoy the healing possibilities there which will help all humans advance rapidly in their LBP and also ascend. (Source: [http://www.stankovuniversallaw.com](http://www.stankovuniversallaw.com)) &#x200B; ""You see, nothing is ever just about one thing. We are not just sharing information with you. We are also preparing you for contact. Now, all of the other beings from the other star systems that are connecting with you all through the various channels that you have there on Earth are doing the same thing. And certainly those who channel faeries are readying you for more interactions with the fae."" ""We are excited to witness the coming together of humanity and the Arcturian beings that you will be meeting in the flesh. Now, of course, some have already established connections with physical Arcturian beings. A full and open contact with the fourth and fifth dimensional beings who are from our little star system."" 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I have yet to have more the 3 weeks without a drink. Recently ive been struggling to hit 3 days. Im posting this in hopes it will encourage/remind me when Im thinking about having a drink to not give in. To make this more challenging Im visiting my old college friends this weekend, and we were always big drinkers and still are. Im not sure how to set expectations for myself for the weekend. Usually I its easy because my girlfriend doesn’t drink ever so there is no pressure. But this weekend there will be plenty of pressure. Any advice would be appreciated ",2.095454545454544,4.7127636969697,3.3071515151515167,87.0257272727273,82.48484848484848,5.944242424242425,26.981818181818184,7.3011,1.6004509090909096,536,24,102,8,15,173,89,132,0.105,0.758,0.13699999999999998,0.6537,0,0,5,0,0,0,10.0,1,0,0,1,11,8,0,4,6,0,15,4,0,2,3,17,22,8,0,3,5,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,6,3,4,0,1,7,0,1,5,4,0,0,2,0,9,4,17,14,2,24,0,0,0,0,6,6,0,2,15,71,15,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12702351381310345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1081610631837268,0.0,0.0,0.08839681567857037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09995333426638826,0.0,0.07923994281566976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08383199780129277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5093579981664295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11758227724467613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10042899508602507,0.0,0.06791376306744748,0.2493941304689309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12910817088155785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5616406766630755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08676850802800867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10375578967968896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13640133927720896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12408898188364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12449330180306616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12834822053421396,0.0,0.0,0.11100969251903628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10380919326295494,0.0,0.0,0.2717849552999901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1225128698505765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0832915499866163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14316425669168506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10426914409164527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12530452792803773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09234028697962983,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,abetterme9,2019/03/15,"4 days sober and still can’t sleep. Hi all. Monday was my last day drinking for awhile. I had been getting blacked out almost every single night for about three months - leading me to go to bed at around 4/5 in the morning a lot of nights and not waking up till around 2/3 in the afternoon. Well since quitting, I have been having the hardest time either A) falling asleep or B) staying asleep. Tonight, it’s the falling asleep apart. I woke up about 11am yesterday and now tonight it’s almost 4am (not drinking) and I’m wide awake and cannot fall asleep. Anyone else have these problems after getting sober?",3.709152542372877,5.709495847457628,3.4120000000000026,91.61732203389832,73.57627118644069,5.397966101694917,26.206779661016952,5.6839178017228535,0.6895701694915255,482,17,94,2,10,144,84,118,0.054000000000000006,0.927,0.019,-0.4215,0,0,2,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,2,7,2,0,0,6,0,9,8,6,1,1,18,14,7,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,8,2,0,0,2,0,5,4,1,1,1,5,1,5,1,17,9,4,32,0,0,1,0,1,10,0,4,16,56,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3703254737507711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.129294825232303,0.18946427709121566,0.0,0.3292219083415849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2385059874445281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3622868818043931,0.0,0.0,0.15447031481446066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1557964019615643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932178588880712,0.0,0.1050897959388913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15072802447603334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15720563726068446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14759505749402155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34705492017860146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17693588692143852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19667675756119304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15296118278514328,0.0,0.1850456205432102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1970916731465664,0.14767102535053214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1078237204348184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662581662946341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Guest516,2019/03/15,"I cannot stop I buy 18 tall cans and finish them. I spend the next day hungover and reccuperate. Only to buy another 18 tall cans and repeat the process. My fam are alcholics. I never wanted to be like them. Yet, now I can't stop it. Drinking makes myself feel better. I want to stop but I cannot esp when drinking makes me feel so well. I guess I'm a closet alcoholic. I look down on fam who have the same prob, but no one thinks I have the same deal. They have no idea. I want to stop but it's hard especially when you're out and about and decide to stop by the store to buy drinks to relax. Even when i buy drinks and I've drunk them all. I order more. I can't stop drinking. 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First off, She’s an alcoholic and has been off and on drinking for the past 20 years and the last time she was down that path she was in a psych ward for being very suicidal. It hasn’t gotten to that point yet but I sure as hell see the trajectory. My entire family situation is a bit bonkers and my mother escapes it through drinking every night. Two things happen when she’s drunk 1) She comes to me to emotionally comfort her cause my dad is tired of it 2) I feel like I’m only with a shell of my mother when she’s drunk since it’s impossible to keep a conversation with her Also when she’s drunk I see a weird side of her that I really don’t trust her much anymore. My mother when drunk is such a different person that its hard to an emotional attachment. Do you guys have any advice? Also some insight into alcoholism would be appreciated. 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My dad (60) is a chronic alcoholic. Has been long before I (26f) was born. I'm talking 6oz cup of 20% APV soju multiple times a day, EVERY DAY. He is 5'8, 115lbs. He's emaciated because all that goes in his system is alcohol. He's a pack-a-day smoker too so I don't know how he's made it this far without...well, dying. My mom tells me around 9 in the morning, she suspected something was odd with my dad. He kept flipping the switch to the fan above the stove on and off again. She noticed the stove was on. She asked what he was doing, and he said he couldn't get the stove to turn off. He couldn't grasp that the stove knob (which he used to turn the stove on in the first place) and the fan switch turned on/off two different things. Then shortly after, he went into the living and started pacing in a circle. He suddenly collapsed on the couch and started having what she described as a seizure. He wasn't convulsing, but his eyes rolled back and his body started tensing and twisting like someone who was possessed. This happened once before a couple of months ago. My mom took him to the family doctor who reported he was having a hypertensive crisis (blood pressure was 210/-forgot diastolic #). He is complaining of a headache but refuses to go to the ER. Has anyone experienced this before? I read this can be from alcohol withdrawal, but he's never stopped drinking...",3.5977173913043465,5.487335221014494,4.481304347826086,84.3071739130435,73.60144927536231,7.553623188405798,27.94202898550725,8.321376580360154,1.9957115942029,1115,44,214,19,23,360,160,276,0.068,0.895,0.036000000000000004,-0.8577,1,0,7,0,0,0,49.0,0,0,0,1,6,3,0,1,23,0,25,9,3,3,2,26,43,14,1,2,3,5,0,1,0,0,5,1,6,0,13,10,4,3,3,2,0,3,5,2,1,2,15,3,17,1,25,25,1,37,0,0,1,0,37,15,0,0,19,123,30,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09789216650445937,0.4720770488853052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07721730169378703,0.0,0.0,0.09830875820026676,0.10323992143368696,0.0,0.0,0.08491613882203998,0.0,0.06731891470926778,0.0,0.2819109761134841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12266613652383793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12219198301273852,0.0,0.2136603930805746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11461198978395536,0.11537895124553127,0.0,0.11303282625386925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10818227025609513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09304454181718484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10410637768762984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09393422954038164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05769666989990335,0.0,0.06276160289765792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09765551239988723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06069107332131848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05395197191817688,0.0,0.09751433747265766,0.09772970506778947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10449434823268773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586755241407697,0.08814654463201442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08517271595768704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12572867052918765,0.0,0.11760751100249607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11537895124553127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11046285669752937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1050470452366949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09356949877906123,0.08501669708702457,0.0,0.0,0.2344950778607933,0.0,0.0,0.09232690942552542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08876183974040777,0.09652328502939007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0733667595383678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06439435403236686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1226950952112884,0.0,0.36035808562156796,0.10787696707328777,0.0,0.0,0.0953786307360672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1023724713939691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10645344416634957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Feelgoodpooping,2019/03/15,"How do I support my SO who is 3 years sober, but recently relapsed? We live together, are best friends, and have been dating for a while. I have my own mental health anxiety issues, and he is sober in addition to depression and anxiety. He recently relapsed and I realized I'm not sure how to deal with this. I was feeling tons of emotions, but it obviously wasnt about me. So Reddit, how do I support and love my SO to the fullest in this situation?",4.61498127340824,5.459688943820229,6.2376966292134854,76.7611891385768,69.67415730337079,10.427715355805246,35.05805243445693,10.504223727775694,3.867268164794007,352,18,69,10,6,121,59,89,0.111,0.6679999999999999,0.222,0.9283,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,1,0,0,1,7,7,0,0,2,0,10,2,0,3,2,18,15,14,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,4,8,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,1,10,6,9,12,3,7,0,1,0,1,7,2,0,0,5,53,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3135455351379206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21506396876922773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21127636311543885,0.17650802367250326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2305214293363975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10362000705608683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15833030679898225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2178336171732283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2138962404680013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18095911278498455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1849595422287842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20652371456382132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4046921532348042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2303526663685708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4651098439914272,0.1931464140774298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319697823980417 alcoholism,ackeepsitcool20,2019/03/15,Need to stop I've been drinking 375ml of vodka pretty much every day since I moved to Toronto. I came here with my girlfriend and I really want to stop but i dont know how. Please help,0.10230769230769,2.417704871794875,1.6725128205128217,96.96415384615385,90.02564102564102,4.1456410256410265,15.492307692307696,5.6839178017228535,-0.7600707692307695,146,3,32,1,5,47,32,39,0.14300000000000002,0.682,0.175,0.319,0,0,2,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,10,6,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,1,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,0,5,0,5,4,1,5,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,17,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3033370546961721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17104272039444154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3108317967682748,0.2598112294411692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2234563643847276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17776904886987485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14575606833160812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28188319785925703,0.1949646650261609,0.1966546957133358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29112810582238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2698205570648932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1699044997401732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2193898534677861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4434657877222306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15643158033251262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,sober7days,2018/11/24,"14 Days Sober Today marks 14 days sober for me. I made a post last Saturday that can explain why I chose to get sober. Tonight I'm going to dinner with my girlfriend and her parents, then to a movie, and THEN we are going to a birthday celebration for one of my girlfriend's friends at a bar. I am so completely full of anxiety about tonight that I almost feel paralyzed. This will be the first time I'll have been in a bar since I decided to clean up my act. This will also be the first time I'll be in the presence of a lot of the people who were at the wedding that provided the perspective I needed to recognize I have a problem. I'm just so petrified of looking these people in the eye. I know I won't drink because my girlfriend will be watching me like a hawk, so that's not my worry. But the urge is still really strong and I'm worried that I won't even be able to hold a conversation because I'll be staring at every glass that goes by, remembering how it tastes, how it feels, and how I felt when I drank. I can't force my girlfriend to just get new friends. This moment of seeing these people was inevitable. I'm just so scared and nervous. 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I have been struggling with my older, alcoholic brother and my mother who enables him. Over the last few years it's been weighing heavily on me and I am feeling as though a meeting may help. What should I expect? Has it helped any of you work through emotions? Has it been beneficial to your life in any other ways? Personal experiences are appreciated.",4.058499999999999,6.817819850000002,5.125000000000004,76.13000000000002,75.5,8.0,32.5,8.841846274778883,3.238625,348,18,59,8,8,114,64,80,0.034,0.828,0.138,0.8205,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,3,0,2,2,2,0,1,3,0,12,3,0,0,0,8,14,4,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,7,3,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,4,1,10,1,9,8,1,8,0,0,0,0,11,3,0,1,3,45,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29374749303473063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37383575987191536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3091865500155111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2688710784181301,0.0,0.0,0.1389801919347889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36847293271657067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22405196569945895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19414554247481167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2400018426286576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28734896869977833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1761226331578413,0.2700538345038073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21817534004530192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2001052659891565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17700428911710606 alcoholism,Hobo_Helper_hot,2018/11/24,"Vivitrol? I've watched my gf struggle with alcoholism for the past two years she's slowly killing herself, she's been hospitalized countless times ended up passing out in public and getting robbed. This last time she disappeared for a week, I thought she was dead. She ended up in one of our local mental health crisis centers and they've set her up with a new case manager and scheduled her to be injected with vivitrol next week. I'm wondering if anyone has experience with this, knows of its success rate or any hazards associated with it. tl;dr in love with an alcoholic and wondering if vivitrol is the right direction for her to go.",7.634757869249397,8.20573843220339,7.784285714285716,69.27754237288138,62.98305084745762,11.48861985472155,38.89104116222761,11.20814326018867,4.713853268765133,517,26,86,14,7,168,83,118,0.133,0.805,0.062,-0.8442,0,0,2,0,0,0,10.0,1,0,0,1,0,4,1,1,5,0,5,4,0,0,0,18,13,7,2,2,3,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,4,11,2,0,4,0,0,3,0,2,0,2,3,1,12,2,20,9,0,26,0,0,1,1,13,10,0,5,12,55,16,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3823195893930008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1216391097827622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1250714778331731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.316855041634615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17497116186165898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09345324962338447,0.0,0.10165709307892623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19013259657840653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19789539193972105,0.0,0.09830338622399086,0.14580457290708532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1614389848649778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18026092856829684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17275571494642966,0.19023242628194695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12120831238759958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17075358624976422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15275573075362744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18699587627257214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14200440648310547,0.20860343074092932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1747319758662619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28696069576164657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3879581586950363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11518771860301608 alcoholism,oleada87,2018/11/24,"Dating an alcoholic, need advice. Hi. I hope to get some advice. I recently started dating a recovering alcoholic who has been sober for some months. I, on the other hand, am not an alcoholic... I drink on social settings maybe once a week. On dates, he would invite me to bars and I would have a drink, he wouldn’t. A couple days ago, we were hanging out, and he started drinking. I was a little shocked. I don’t want to be a bad influence. I’ve never dealt with this, and not sure how to handle. What can I do / not do?",0.7084285714285734,2.993230628571432,2.88154761904762,89.98803571428573,85.57142857142857,5.785714285714287,20.17857142857143,7.1686216300943375,0.5911428571428572,396,12,83,6,12,134,68,105,0.076,0.835,0.08900000000000001,0.0689,0,0,6,0,0,0,23.0,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,9,0,14,8,1,2,2,21,20,4,0,6,3,0,1,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,4,6,7,0,0,4,0,1,6,2,0,0,3,1,10,2,10,13,2,18,0,0,0,0,7,5,0,3,11,57,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3091535561618728,0.14022166394208666,0.5071557178726233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13207806143602802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1750289506326215,0.0,0.10201638839308518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.464883917253516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0826452549388945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1571136278607296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15854315935667418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589183272257553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12626194311966138,0.0,0.0,0.11729234527462305,0.12200220283723665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16846210962248984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1561888331304661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16124992343155645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2239286429683948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490877092474011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09330174835470124,0.0,0.126886651637256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2247405007136211,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Gobbling,2018/11/24,"Withdrawal symptoms or just having a cold? Hello Guys This might seem like an odd question, but I'd really appreciate your advise on this. First of all the mandatory disclaimer: English is not my native language, so please excuse any mistakes I might make there :) So, I started drinking more regularly (and larger quantities than usual) around 2 years ago, after I went through a pretty rough breakup. When I drank the most, it was around 4-6 large beers (0.5 liters) an evening, on maybe 3 - 4 evenings a week, although there were multiple breaks of multiple weeks where I didn't drink as much (down to 3 beers on evening), or stopped drinking completely. So, during this time, I dind't drink huge amounts of alcohol I think, but I got used to drinking regularly. Over the last half year or so, I got down to around 3 evenings of drinking where normally, one evening was the most intense with around 3 large beers and the other evenings being more relaxed, with around 1-2 beers. About two weeks ago I detected blood in my stool, which really frightened me. I got it checked out by a doctor, which assured me it was only hemorrhoids, but it still frightened me and I cut back to around 2 beers on two evenings a week. Now, the last beer (2 large) was last monday. After I stopped, I'm now feeling the following symptoms: * Runny nose * low spirits * constant headaches * more or less constant stomach aches * low appetite * worse-as-usual sleep I'm really not sure if I'm just having a cold, or if my alcohol usage over the last 2 years were sufficient to create a dependance on the substance. To complicate things, I'm really craving for a beer right now, but I don't know if I should give in to the urge. The characteristics of my drinking (few evenings, but when drinking then ""making it count"") didn't change over the year, since I had my first drink ever.",4.649236024844722,6.663714171014494,4.5040527950310585,84.71657608695655,71.05797101449275,7.595238095238094,30.292443064182194,8.306716005460428,2.237374741200829,1459,62,271,23,28,447,177,345,0.08900000000000001,0.797,0.114,0.8190000000000001,0,0,18,0,0,0,64.0,0,1,0,2,33,8,1,0,22,0,17,26,4,4,4,51,36,25,0,6,17,0,2,1,0,3,5,0,0,1,12,12,19,2,5,17,1,2,5,4,0,6,14,5,25,4,41,18,10,63,1,2,0,0,7,25,0,15,36,178,37,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11671805856649108,0.1407158473634898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04477026780866098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3516442982195633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050623288962654917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06964502762667618,0.0,0.06902706907107782,0.14228916153091484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06738522859249485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5804418527977165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3478688062701337,0.059551806265715365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033288310434247716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1119989606562956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06315522751182631,0.0,0.0,0.15796353268354132,0.0,0.0,0.06518730666773184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03618136416491592,0.21465825550468487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03216380657913313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08789116014987032,0.0,0.06614041690478488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1396817182738982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048396527330537564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06450462480403454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044611709308955166,0.05007071925866848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07226739947071878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0669781776230055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07375061336254611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.168703139395095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05622299429321187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05993399284581199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054459648049412585,0.0,0.06588285461955241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04659857066646758,0.0,0.052576162927441585,0.11008253271318393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06204899974182696,0.13685618818602152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043738054036442216,0.0421846077878944,0.0,0.0,0.03838909819693681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286230615833991,0.0,0.0,0.05686056916380994,0.07250829188260513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2112364554912129,0.0,0.0,0.061029991154672274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1695831223801515 alcoholism,Loveyouguysbut,2018/11/24,"So, I proper fucked up. Went to work drunk and got sent home (yesterday). I feel just awful about getting caught out. Don’t know how I can show my face around there next week.They know I’ve been going through a shitty time recently, but that’s no excuse. I feel shame and disappointment in myself, but most of all I’m worried that next time will be worse. I won’t just lose a job, or embarrass myself - I will hurt someone I love or even a complete stranger. Good luck to all of you fighting the good fight. 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I know this isn’t completely related to this sub but I don’t know where else to ask and I was just wondering. :) A few months ago I got drunk for the first time. I’m 14 (I’m not going to drink again anytime soon btw), and I went a little too far. I’m a guy, 6’0 and about 170 at the time. I play football and baseball at my high school, so I’m pretty athletic and I’m kind of a big guy. At this party a few months ago I had 12 shots of vodka. I was just wondering how much this really was, because I threw up and ended up passing out at the party. I didn’t feel all that bad the next day, I was able to do everything I would have anyway. I was just wondering if this was like BAD or if this was just overdoing it. What was my BAC after and how much should I have done without going to the throwing up level?",0.4502217936354889,2.0461945300546454,2.8585085181613654,93.74161041465769,81.84153005464479,6.491674702667954,18.96142719382836,7.510576382923642,0.2756784956605589,641,15,155,10,17,221,97,183,0.07400000000000001,0.797,0.129,0.878,0,0,3,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,1,14,5,0,0,10,0,19,3,0,3,1,30,36,15,0,4,10,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,9,8,3,0,6,5,0,6,5,2,0,1,15,1,17,3,19,19,6,33,0,0,0,0,3,14,0,6,14,106,26,1,0.13504326564405586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23941541389811816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12624722387633236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255109721036246,0.08232112131034132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415902947221453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08709173448979045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1381961467742556,0.0,0.2645819776459971,0.0,0.0,0.11281132007224162,0.0,0.1196082503958094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1213681795208416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06828193270576312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11486773276994965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15349639987758987,0.0,0.1080064359726436,0.0,0.0,0.26742812891919004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14268062454272076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14062678015067964,0.14843249422294266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06597531829485842,0.1353488293141724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21558049249835867,0.0,0.2978170155770243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1436200450448996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13738755009036147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1730243479040539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1366709944476497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1574896283724476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12518646019262364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13017688905069735,0.43934598309282896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09593086133296176,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Sljm_Jim,2018/11/24,"Watching my mom suffer in pain since my grandmother and sister passed away Need Advice (obviously a throwaway account) but i speak from the heart. So a quick backstory, my mother has always struggled with alcoholism. Prior to my grandmothers death in 2011 she had been sober for over 10 years. It all went downhill from there. My grandmother (her mother) passed away in 2011 then we lost my sister in 2013 to a drug overdose, then my aunt (her sister) in 2014 to breast cancer then my uncle in 2015 to an infection which was my aunts husband. Most recently she was arrested because i had to call the police a few months ago due to her being belligerent and trying to hit me. My son was a witness and although i only wanted her to be put in protective custody they arrested her do to our states domestic violence laws. I thought things were going good until she recently picked up drinking after the 2 month program she had to complete with court. Tonight she had a 12 pack and she should be passed out but she demands more, no one would take her so she snuck out saying she was going to smoke and walked to the liquor store in the freezing cold. The only family i have left near me is mad at me for having her arrested. They think i'm the problem she is drinking because i am living with her with my son who is 19 and has aspergers. I have tried to talk with her so many times, tried going to her therapists etc.. and nothing works. I don’t know what else to do. Her health is failing from many other problems and it seems it all went downhill when my sister passed away. She is all i have left for family i care about besides my son who i have had custody of since he was years old. I just started to turn my life around and my son is finally getting some stability since we moved here but now this. Any advice. Im at a loss here. Thanks for reading. 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I've been a functional drunk for nearly three decades. I've kept jobs, kept a family, raised kids, and operated for extended periods at a high level. But the amount of my drinking accelerated over the past year and it had me worried so a few days ago I asked my doctor if I'd be a candidate for naltrexone. I didn't even want to quit drinking, just cut back. Two days in and it's bizarre. I have literally zero, no desire to drink. I feel the same for the most part, my thinking isn't distorted, but it used to be that I would think about beer and my mouth would start watering and I wanted to get one as quickly as I could. A few minutes ago I walked past my neighborhood bar and thought about going in, but just didn't want to. Strange stuff.",2.777796610169496,4.546813446327686,4.0120000000000005,87.31562711864406,75.5536723163842,7.8838418079096035,25.359322033898305,8.648137234880735,1.671349830508475,688,24,147,14,15,225,107,177,0.086,0.8809999999999999,0.034,-0.515,1,0,4,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,1,9,2,1,1,10,0,13,9,1,1,0,32,28,14,0,8,6,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,7,7,7,2,4,6,0,2,4,2,0,6,7,1,16,0,22,14,7,24,0,0,0,0,2,9,0,4,13,99,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2544148188770023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13415662790153346,0.0,0.0,0.11034552022688936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11457606158995955,0.0,0.0,0.3701921692532792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14688216149156233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4217371063851197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09478286867854012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352825571703564,0.0,0.07255980414569678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07497478269480032,0.0,0.08155648405692709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516195831306883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14240532170093112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09724185000186232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15540056907404465,0.2739811205073486,0.09948742642515984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1526338946526722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.101572687736944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16427745249330786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10789695529619008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18390280786996785,0.0,0.11392594222973736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28036460953901354,0.0,0.0,0.12394115857241565,0.0,0.0,0.2539266766051157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14573501661266747,0.0,0.20388188306978616,0.0,0.0,0.09241170538397137 alcoholism,catbugcharles,2019/07/10,"How to help when nothing seems to be working? My fiancé’s mom has struggled with alcoholism for probably 25+ years, and it has gotten much worse in the recent years. She has been in and out of rehab and the hospital many times, but hasn’t been sober for more than 4 months. She has extreme withdrawal symptoms like seizures etc. When she is drinking she is very suicidal and often says she doesn’t want to be alive or that she will die today. Her and her husband still live together and although he is very tired of dealing with it, he believes that he cannot leave because she would probably not make it without him (and he loves being around her when she’s sober). I’m starting to think they need to try something new because it’s obviously not working. What about something like a sober vacation/retreat for them to reset and get out? It’s been years since they’ve gone anywhere so who knows maybe it could revitalize their relationship and help his mom to have something to look forward to or work towards? Any advice would be so helpful.",7.39580909090909,7.208471290000002,6.663909090909094,79.66945454545456,63.6,9.472727272727274,35.68181818181819,8.841846274778883,2.9320500000000007,838,35,157,11,11,257,124,200,0.091,0.7759999999999999,0.134,0.762,0,0,5,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,3,3,10,4,0,1,3,0,22,6,0,2,1,32,35,19,2,5,6,3,0,2,0,3,4,1,0,0,10,14,2,0,3,1,0,2,6,1,0,0,5,2,17,3,25,22,3,21,0,0,1,1,31,7,0,4,16,103,27,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11730977241703602,0.0,0.1282950832638107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0816369349134951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10686840505079816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463606127558763,0.0,0.0,0.13525328202818498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09584876893564144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12376448700725225,0.0,0.0,0.12459114296773248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1176015940867811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338855456569409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06272026218034693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413974588937701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06597538536147181,0.0,0.0,0.12711377604914822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11729903405951818,0.0,0.10600481489206648,0.0,0.10081030530473306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10834824361556283,0.0,0.08013314719594412,0.12171009553186472,0.1206046149440902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2811981475169145,0.0958213775457578,0.0,0.08824928563322007,0.0890142652813086,0.0,0.11594335968261582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11518954528233935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2588646618384488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1185331761736148,0.12888690677459555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09546719647086947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.109287429192302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0993051630207507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27725705176344595,0.0,0.0,0.08497077785682547,0.0,0.09587069725052053,0.0,0.0,0.12550050890391592,0.0,0.13131331420477058,0.0,0.0,0.12477611006483535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07692207906930215,0.0,0.0,0.07000110708037409,0.13797781756444535,0.11379171567286132,0.0,0.0,0.0815048898461043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19810477754105876,0.07080757537765899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.115722240810393,0.0,0.262189693907316,0.0,0.12233943517254545,0.17055768220114725,0.0,0.0,0.2319214347233167 alcoholism,A_SocialRecluse873,2019/07/10,someone tell me to stop im 18nm and going down the wrong road i cont stop my dad drinks i drik and o does all my family. i cant stop. 1.75 litre in 5 days. i love it too much and it eally started in april what do i do pls help i dont want to be a drunk but i cant stop,-3.5914869281045765,-2.163682926470585,0.1978431372549032,107.10140522875818,98.85294117647058,3.610457516339869,10.496732026143787,5.033348758259628,-1.9752405228758168,203,2,63,1,9,74,47,68,0.204,0.7040000000000001,0.092,-0.5942,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,6,3,0,0,1,10,10,4,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,4,0,2,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,10,1,5,9,2,12,0,0,0,1,4,4,0,0,7,33,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13624131956499433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18486975311389944,0.0,0.2475880531881677,0.20694844337858595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19915142062776503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12006048674027965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14159906799887864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.228190514710523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906649355662512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1552959586380296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1789947842118818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1495266313921014,0.0,0.0,0.7064710379006555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18464526155102032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1246030516644632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2309730284427342,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,dangforce,2019/07/10,"First time withdrawals I’m almost 29. I have been drinking pretty much every day for at least 8 years. In an attempt to lose weight ( my beer belly) I decided to give up drinking. At first it was only going to be me taking a week off. However by the third day I felt so terrible I had to leave work. I was shaking, felt like I was going to fall over and the anxiety I had was unbearable like nothing I’ve ever experienced. By the time I got home after leaving work I was shaking so bad I honestly didn’t think I was going to make it home. It wasn’t before I slammed two or three beers that I slowly started to feel better. By this time though I couldn’t stop crying. I kept drinking until I felt better. I’m realizing now how serious my problem is and I’m having a hard time figuring out how to deal with it. In my sad fit I called my parents and had my dad pick me up and I told them basically this same story. I don’t have insurance either which I’m afraid is going to make things a lot harder. I could really use some help on how to taper myself off. I really want to give it up for good but I absolutely never want to feel like I felt today day 3 now I have to start all over but the fear of withdrawing and feeling how I did is really scary .",1.0708101784147388,3.049787612167304,3.6097528517110287,87.19906332260899,81.62357414448671,6.631705176952325,20.761772448084237,7.748469712250963,0.8741630301257675,974,28,207,17,26,340,142,263,0.12300000000000001,0.7759999999999999,0.10099999999999999,-0.6882,2,0,5,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,1,8,10,17,0,4,8,0,24,6,0,8,3,44,53,16,0,5,4,2,9,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,10,7,6,2,11,5,0,7,5,10,0,5,20,10,34,7,35,30,7,42,0,2,0,0,9,14,0,4,24,142,44,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0995512559550369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07605334418835752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08300861810659949,0.0,0.0,0.08459611223601522,0.0,0.0,0.17585161617950965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10151535365973442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07937597918833,0.0,0.10920434811298878,0.1923462382623868,0.10249403778506913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2921709414238175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08992790862484461,0.0837626822236244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11187119281713752,0.1508038963075034,0.07102316167749219,0.38182169124617227,0.0,0.0,0.1691272344458741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1907387159181599,0.22600273360219264,0.08338583662194883,0.07951245044155403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08905764935304522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06663677891065244,0.0,0.19944569460133754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2105354206270945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14570962866363946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11122162468197973,0.0,0.08452034624572187,0.0,0.0,0.1327225606495074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07308256055443922,0.0,0.07667612738535831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09539280525536548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07561072196841277,0.0,0.0,0.11039024910600234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10114231313598084,0.0,0.0951281562574976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19106625124711846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14073500932095104,0.0,0.0,0.08311663880396787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07474882937349164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06604789969371792,0.06370207374731936,0.0976761985263448,0.0,0.2318822236518337,0.0,0.0942352098556242,0.09499671841031622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09711546680473074,0.0,0.0,0.08586392905203231,0.0,0.0,0.11727684542984693,0.0,0.07974591309158192,0.12106250417496715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14475278029535502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06402096128567743 alcoholism,mountainmoon_,2019/07/10,"What’s your motivation? For those of you who used alcohol has a safety net and “outgoing personality” juice, what did you do when you had social anxiety or felt SUPER uncomfortable in social situations? I’m 22 and most of my friends only know drunk me. I’m rarely out socializing sober. Honestly I don’t even know who I am sober. Just some advice on how you became more comfortable with socializing or getting to know your self really would be helpful.",5.98,7.565173190476194,7.289047619047621,67.73928571428571,67.09523809523809,11.314285714285715,30.66666666666667,11.20814326018867,3.939252380952381,364,14,63,12,6,124,65,84,0.068,0.6729999999999999,0.259,0.9624,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,6,0,2,4,4,0,0,1,0,8,2,0,3,0,17,16,6,0,1,3,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,5,4,2,0,5,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,10,4,8,11,3,4,0,0,0,0,16,3,0,4,1,43,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17823905446603702,0.0,0.19493000337849328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13953541110001302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12047340234242801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17513249161991742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14092169699733836,0.0,0.09529641049123294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12225879662372505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3007266162717428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13872333013130464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15926454217914798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11685003554468422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1902828577082307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20502511053511946,0.0,0.7437348414679127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15753493507484415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295716434406642,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,SpaghettiHell,2019/07/10,"I’m an alcoholic, I know this and I recognize it. What can I do to ween myself off using alcohol as a crutch?? I get drunk at least 4 times a week. It rarely affects my work (I work at a grocery store so I can nurse a hangover for an hour or two most days without it being an issue) but I hate feeling like I have to get drunk every day in order to numb myself. How do I slowly start myself to the road of sobriety? (Also rehab isn’t an option as I can’t pay hundreds or thousands of dollars to fix a problem I know I have.)",1.512280701754385,2.5975695263157945,4.151754385964914,87.8572807017544,77.42105263157895,6.470175438596491,24.070175438596486,6.937597516519254,0.8479543859649126,402,13,89,4,9,143,75,114,0.17,0.784,0.046,-0.9279,0,0,2,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,2,3,4,1,0,10,0,9,6,0,3,0,14,18,9,0,1,4,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,5,1,4,0,3,2,3,0,3,3,0,2,0,1,16,1,15,17,2,12,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,4,7,66,21,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4656459718342552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17422024460335284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28099961397802825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1835540033163628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101550959135072,0.1556371561656145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2276426866383676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21508878370213996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21454536007454372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22738621192660136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23945713001807475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10643397494343187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20845982298598664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15420037707639458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12703422729337407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2128147313663512,0.0,0.0,0.18815858685011813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17475182512660992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21000647068519865,0.0,0.3172051277375708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ShyGuy993,2019/07/10,I got naltrexone finally I know it's extremely far from a magic cure but it has given me a renewed hope to try to get sober.,0.16555555555555654,2.253401851851855,3.653333333333337,84.90000000000002,86.03703703703705,8.044444444444443,23.814814814814817,8.841846274778883,2.157948148148148,98,4,21,3,3,36,23,27,0.0,0.845,0.155,0.5927,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,6,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,3,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,12,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5574166764701587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2658513935593096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4069711818803066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5053995773237849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27964883323551715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34547350081509165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Paintedbirmingham,2019/07/10,"I’ve really ruined my early adult life with alcohol. Before I(24M) turned 19 and got my first DUI, I would sometimes get belligerently drunk. And that continued up pass my second DUI at 23. Like many others I’ve drank heavily from the 3rd to the 7th of July. And that’s really putting me through it. My depression and anxiety has been so bad since I’ve stopped that I’m losing my mind. I’ve honestly never felt this awful in my life, but I’ve been close to it many times before. I could say much more about how I feel but I’ll save it. I just moved to a college town where I can hopefully finish college and get away from the stress of my personal life in my hometown. I have to get a job ASAP but Im not sure if can work a job feeling this way(along with social anxiety and self consciousness). Any advice or words of encouragement? Sorry for the wall of text. My mind is too jumbled to write properly.",3.046721311475409,4.715067114754099,4.449967213114757,84.8880655737705,74.57377049180329,8.158688524590165,24.76830601092896,8.841846274778883,1.772162404371585,714,23,146,15,15,237,116,183,0.135,0.774,0.09,-0.5323,3,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,3,6,11,0,1,7,1,9,6,0,1,2,32,20,13,0,4,7,0,3,1,0,1,4,1,0,3,9,9,3,1,4,1,0,3,2,5,0,2,5,4,16,6,21,13,2,19,0,3,0,0,7,9,0,3,8,84,25,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13270286778897855,0.0,0.1451296436908016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09234912963610632,0.0,0.2077743204659349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12758922355833896,0.0,0.11338790821084785,0.0,0.0,0.23111277908261585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10842580502658647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11696493990644018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13732982383744366,0.0,0.1303899639201729,0.0,0.0,0.11551200208318295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2128507750459145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10861222169375846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1348807320523424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14668805448453134,0.0,0.2695224714696694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2877601416689753,0.06634536018550237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1519262416139301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2753611806274967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2742399797354761,0.0,0.0,0.1443346476832628,0.09982913650385973,0.0,0.10473786809424153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1185759290947028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13651720722137733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17399480562188874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10799416357591056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416697422717527,0.0,0.0,0.11233573851168677,0.0,0.0,0.13843170711526015,0.0,0.0,0.13431036010697447,0.1520177602674949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11353546205763458,0.15555923769038693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12799054822361774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07918647753356302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14771216037960486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1077922709595702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.098864523586677,0.0,0.0,0.09646891765790593,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,MrAllen16,2018/12/27,"Some Internet Troll Got To My Head, It Got Me Thinking. Hello everyone. Honestly never thought I'd make this post. Never thought I had an ""alcohol problem"", but unfortunately I let this shithead internet troll get to my head and now its got me thinking... I usually drink a beer with dinner and then 2 _MAYBE_ 3 after while I am gaming or doing whatever I am doing around the house. I'd say on average I do this about 5 nights a week, so like max 15 beers per week. Apparently I'm and ""alcoholic"" and have a ""problem"" because of that. Of corse I run to Dr Google to see if this is true and what do you know, Dr Google says I am at serious risk if I drink more then 13 or 14 beers a week. I legit barely catch a buzz off these beers at night, and probably get drunk once every month or so. Is it true that I have a problem? Am I really at major risk by drinking this amount? I know some people will probably laugh at this post but, idk, maybe I just let that jerk get to my head. 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I have been drinking heavily since May (after having quit for 6 months prior) In the past month or so its gotten more severe, I bring shooters with me to work and sometimes will go through 10 in an 8 hour shift (I work at night) - then continue to drink through the evening. Ive noticed recently that if it hits around 3 pm and I dont have a drink - I dont really feel good. Nothing crazy, but just kind of off, a little queasy, and like my brain is running slow. I'll go to the gym and work out and usually that will make me feel better, but no doubt a few drinks later it all goes away. Is it possible that I have become physically dependent? I haven't taken a day off drinking in probably 2 months and while I used to only drink for about 4 hours a night it is now more like 12 hours a day and my tolerance has reached insane levels",3.9562068965517234,4.799499505747129,4.9845402298850585,85.15198275862069,71.183908045977,8.558620689655173,27.143678160919546,8.841846274778883,1.8551471264367816,670,22,142,12,12,220,113,174,0.079,0.8270000000000001,0.094,0.3579,0,0,6,1,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,5,6,6,0,1,10,0,16,7,1,4,1,24,26,14,0,1,5,0,2,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,8,10,6,0,2,7,0,4,4,1,0,0,3,2,13,5,21,19,4,36,0,0,0,0,0,11,0,6,23,89,21,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09389832536953432,0.0,0.0,0.09910062592779656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11649283734623535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09328725862418456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11774901226154233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13604995441805204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2472402899374095,0.6199732880988105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06966762689410061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10666630865279858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11989184926113325,0.08847045339185387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31162555042899703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1098397404847886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10306304150808007,0.10571727711364223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0704077910090729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525760597401568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1979690597152876,0.0,0.10120957075151024,0.1200880962159952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08022123570167697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10069126808279026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1189112839497876,0.0,0.0,0.11372378128235013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11218948500198114,0.0,0.0,0.0675722982883044,0.0,0.10414740201413056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11916080563370506,0.0,0.08725299590430685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10432104204398536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09109965242274418,0.11616978664498492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23036905225024595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,kafanchor_neta,2018/12/27,"Guys how bad is it? Hey, I'm 30M , currently single , working in a job i kinda like. I drink about 350ml of whiskey once week mostly on weekends. I need this to relax and take the edge off. I never go beyond one a week. Is this acceptable or really bad? I feel the alcohol is a replacementt for a partner or something. But thats another issue. I just feel reallllllly good once drunk.",1.0149206349206352,3.4203677792207827,4.144069264069266,80.59007215007216,85.49350649350649,7.058585858585857,22.841269841269842,8.167268648758528,1.6618525252525256,297,11,59,7,9,107,59,77,0.121,0.737,0.142,0.1511,2,0,4,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,4,6,0,0,6,0,3,4,0,1,1,13,9,5,0,1,4,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,2,4,1,4,0,3,5,0,1,1,2,0,1,0,2,6,4,8,9,2,10,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,4,6,37,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22710034989232503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22282720691041785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3548611155292797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20817136935860067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21489511205980788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12076996339065145,0.17823686068961606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2104107025634308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22179720823442406,0.2108757591419813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10381789776842726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1575677748244284,0.16389488657365178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4526160627668456,0.14399706903214218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13613442516390067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16359466490262653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15977529551161246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3409130801604069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15470421705373066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,doscruzcampo,2018/12/27,"nervous first posting. UK based, is AA too religious? Do I need to do this? I've been thinking a lot about my drinking and where I would be in life if I never got drunk. Seeing as I can't really limit myself when I do drink, I'm always one of the people there at the end of the night, always keen to go again, I think I do have a problem. I'm not religious at all and unsure about my possible options. I know this is the most basic first post ever and I could have done more research, but I suppose this is the first possible step towards admitting I have a problem. &#x200B; &#x200B;",2.664249999999999,4.322016925000003,4.233333333333333,86.08500000000002,75.58333333333334,6.8000000000000025,26.166666666666664,7.554174236665415,1.4293166666666663,461,17,92,6,10,154,77,120,0.08199999999999999,0.888,0.03,-0.6749,0,0,2,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,4,8,4,0,1,8,0,16,4,0,0,3,22,26,7,0,6,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,3,3,1,4,3,0,2,3,3,1,4,3,1,14,1,11,20,4,18,0,0,1,0,1,5,0,4,9,73,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22651866777886,0.2949630443546497,0.3307914373863978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10867747132707012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13929382544952926,0.0,0.26668352679554136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12055828720154416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.123124625497745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3473403483031386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0773578034943562,0.0,0.1088643206845317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07480573960974027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09614268650541083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1157208717246784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10092821608700288,0.1049809743527319,0.0,0.0,0.12773555261510466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0922356574202122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09436562736305276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3069004538253065,0.2607228150477804,0.0,0.0,0.26048906935792976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08719933181217933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10846675034168192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17443514685276562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09669283091926167,0.0,0.3307914373863978,0.0 alcoholism,Cynrai,2018/12/27,"I think I need help. Hello, I don't know what to say or if this is even the right place. I'm just looking for some help. I have been abusing alcohol a lot for the last year, I haven't had a lot of success in my life and I feel like I'm just numbing myself with alcohol. I'm very withdrawn from family and friends and the only time I feel confident is when I'm drunk, I have trouble expressing myself unless I'm drunk and I've been spending a lot of money at bars and clubs just wiping myself out. I think I need help? I don't know if I can control it anymore I'm just drinking more and more and I need someone. What can I do? ",0.6164570466030348,2.335930656934309,2.817810218978103,93.63043234138128,81.84671532846716,5.675238629983156,22.217293655249854,6.67199483983844,0.410826389668725,488,16,113,5,13,166,72,137,0.096,0.745,0.159,0.8541,0,0,3,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,6,5,0,0,6,0,13,8,0,1,0,31,29,12,0,5,8,0,2,1,1,0,4,1,0,0,4,9,6,1,6,5,2,0,3,2,0,0,3,4,18,3,11,26,6,9,0,0,1,0,7,5,0,7,5,74,22,1,0.0,0.19153224172272676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34551555660481803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16031623007954415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.181307462468172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1583582909212305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1067702096777698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15239195854908896,0.0,0.1634731172589633,0.11548485736733548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12489262230501487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3250575752819862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776804022061571,0.13176868138905162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11418021729737415,0.07897543695993335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357477148100956,0.0,0.0,0.4122945205599717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3595907103220513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12294430768393427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16889286464661607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380506853434112,0.0,0.12855286690257156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1369679696491068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20716129011879894,0.0,0.0,0.09426110050567857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13338056443173213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10409916156885493 alcoholism,nstytokenbg,2019/04/19,"Nausea when sober For the past couple of days, I feel nauseated until I drink and then I feel perfectly fine... until I wake up the next day feeling nauseated all over again. Does anyone have any tips/advice on what I can do to relieve this symptom? Thanks in advance.",4.4314705882352925,6.205067392156862,5.347205882352942,79.43492647058825,71.15686274509805,7.452941176470588,26.47549019607843,8.07648339933343,1.7387607843137252,211,7,38,3,4,69,43,51,0.0,0.787,0.213,0.8779,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,2,4,0,0,2,0,3,3,1,0,2,6,7,5,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,5,4,9,7,1,14,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,9,26,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2732292208764058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1901426936696779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1955080708739047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3093803895118445,0.0,0.3606474227671211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446864145950793,0.0,0.0,0.273908910264736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4241338721089247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2973657569606265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26691700474684754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2906192607364791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2574250270208305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,little-black-book,2019/04/19,"3 months sober...now I feel like drinking. So I’ve been almost 3 month sober, which is the longest I’ve gone without drinking. It hasn’t been that long in the grand scheme of life, but it feels like it’s been waaaayyyyyyyyy longer! I’m going out with a friend for dinner and then out. My friend doesn’t care if I don’t drink. Being around alcohol and out doesn’t trigger me. It’s just my own personal urges that make me want to drink. We’re going to a seafood restaurant and something about scallops and vodka bring back memories. I romanticize drinking a lot sometimes in this reminiscent way. Little things like warm weather and a patio trigger me because I used to love drinking outside. Even though I can become a mess when I drink and the energies outweigh the positives. I rarely drink, but when I do, I can go overboard! I’ve ruined relationships and put myself is horrible situations because of it. I know this, but justify it away.😓 I am stressing over this! I feel like I just need to tell my friend I’m not drinking tonight to hold me accountable in a way, but ahhh...I don’t wanna give in. 3 months isn’t a long time and I wanna make it to one year etc 😩 This all sucks. Will urges ever go away? I’m thinking of trying weed for when I feel like being under the influence. Because that’s what I want...my life is very content and orderly right now lol",2.4502912895927587,4.6526160257352975,3.4569117647058825,88.91139140271495,78.08088235294117,6.2434389140271485,25.16742081447964,7.321109707123232,1.1686912895927601,1077,40,217,14,26,345,142,272,0.067,0.725,0.20800000000000002,0.9904,0,0,12,0,0,0,34.0,0,0,0,0,13,17,1,1,12,1,19,14,0,6,2,44,43,20,0,5,9,0,5,5,3,1,3,0,1,1,17,14,11,1,6,10,1,7,8,4,0,1,4,5,24,13,27,36,4,38,0,1,0,1,8,13,1,3,20,131,41,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08530736580769745,0.07993200477816251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07106010527470646,0.0,0.0,0.14999417473111545,0.06137957466539716,0.0,0.14597954202029292,0.0881591152237798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08138568367234057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7037724093549382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08902463702552174,0.052722866801413686,0.07220519673943453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16144524606381255,0.22810455354293416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18501500868469886,0.0,0.0,0.07657426220236223,0.18146281941764134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04386907268894906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11276382065922474,0.1949893821501477,0.08000441766651703,0.0,0.14128310147984946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06786333989614694,0.07204409567066834,0.0,0.10656601215355764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.191143785838266,0.0,0.0,0.059188335961725826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0540906724669752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06969906286561445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08024496608212506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08570088755025951,0.0,0.06816908871089307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08972529523955641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0614522607721781,0.07894777889636229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09143789274845077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06976951922916615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053031385523556976,0.051147867641663486,0.07842647782210645,0.0,0.04654589947433891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05419512015842768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06894213359155113,0.0,0.065862994496823,0.09416429033803722,0.12672083326520714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07694729429809194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051403909818080094 alcoholism,freeeguyyyyyyyyyy,2019/04/19,"SO is detoxing and is trying to stay sober. What can I do to help without being overbearing? They want to stop and have been sober for a day, but I worry a lot. I work late nights and they are alone for a while at home. I worry temptation might take over while I’m gone. We no longer have alcohol in the house unless they have hidden something. I told them they always have my family to talk to or can even call me at work. What else can I do? Is this a battle they have to fight themselves? What little things can I do to make them feel good?",1.7678761061946917,3.4872001681415945,2.809920353982303,95.04337610619469,78.29203539823007,5.935929203539826,17.494690265486724,6.742157984588678,-0.2752860176991145,421,7,96,4,10,134,71,113,0.19,0.753,0.057,-0.9525,0,1,2,0,1,0,11.0,1,0,7,2,2,3,2,0,5,0,19,2,0,1,0,14,26,9,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,5,4,1,1,1,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,3,1,17,1,15,21,1,13,0,0,0,0,13,5,0,3,6,72,22,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.199964643821798,0.0,0.1937904586154902,0.0,0.0,0.15569125465610886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19106114512077899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1206710486549205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15630714410515162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12358498215704485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17639150035393714,0.0,0.09460889109695092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1569397421915598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12541648949482406,0.0,0.18768748482947664,0.0,0.0,0.21590085205349868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21106924072292266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18753427363961464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1590749926739171,0.0,0.0,0.1248979760542129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1984950918207943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17559090070450298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1440471091916432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1994353192938649,0.0,0.156433087370262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14068410759230562,0.150392650611324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12430816515304555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1787924796383819,0.0,0.12703601613709287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1103628543672542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1803682267256299,0.0,0.2724379216108364,0.3800403950384117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,jlfreedom,2019/04/19,"Please help us... My family lives in southwestern Pennsylvania near Pittsburgh and my dad is a heavy drinker. He's convinced himself and others that he's the victim despite strangling my mother threatening her life and ruining her social life. He also nearly impaled me on a coat hook once while drunk. His name is SCOTT MENGEL if you meet him try to get through to him if not, KICK THAT AWFUL MANS ASS.",4.211542857142857,6.760274840000001,4.3219047619047615,83.16000000000003,73.93333333333334,6.9523809523809526,26.714285714285715,7.957251820313856,1.8400285714285716,323,12,56,5,7,100,60,75,0.163,0.7140000000000001,0.12300000000000001,-0.5284,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,1,1,0,0,1,3,1,0,3,1,2,4,1,0,0,7,3,7,0,2,3,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,12,1,7,3,0,5,0,1,0,1,18,4,1,2,1,35,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2490336646046392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29356869028901905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16269834944574293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20873088832378198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4399147719872405,0.0,0.0,0.2749798520715515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3316404214614857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34183356737654896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3174422586023133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21142626941813766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3745866839407847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,whatisthedealz00,2019/09/09,"Am I an alcoholic or am I being abused into thinkign I am.... i began more than 2 glasses of wine a day — about 3 years ago. I began living with my current fiancé and he has an entirely different demeanor that my ex husband or my family. He is aggressive and quick to be loud and angry. At the time, he also liked to party a lot. He din’t drink more that 2-3 drinks a day — but he loved to be in clubs or at the latest restaurant opening etc. It wasn’t more than a year later that I started having a glass of wine at a later lunch. We were ALWAYS eating out. It was his thing…. very high energy —go go go personality. So then the frequent fighting began I would use wine to often cope with the tension. I know that’s not the healthiest ….but it became a habit. It was a double edge sword. Sometimes drinking wine would keep me quiet and allow me to get through an argument without participating. Then other times it would give me the guts to be more vocal and argue. I remember one fight in Las Vegas (my work event/conference that he insisted on attending because he was afraid I was going to meet a man) ….it was ugly. He was so mad that I was late for dinner with him. (I had made an excuse and avoided my work colleagues dinner to go with my fiancé…) It was ugly. I was running away from him — and crying. Drunk. And I had only had 4 glasses of wine … But I was a mess! He said I was insane…that I was crazy. That I was wanting to be with the CEO —instead of him because I was late. He was NOT supposed to be at my work trip. He was mad that I was “hiding him” and not showing him off to all my work colleagues. It was the first REAL moment that I thought I was an alcoholic. He told me non stop that I had a drinking problem. That i was crazy…that I was not normal. You name it. He said it. And I kept thinking — it’s HIM —it’s his ANGER — if that all went away….I would be just fine. So the relationship has been filled with this type of situation. fights. arguments. He told me I needed to go to AA. He used to say “that’s 1…. that’s 2…. counting my drinks everyday. By dinner at a restaurant of HIS choice…it was “that’s 4.5”. So it drove me crazy. Finally he said GO TO AA or I’m done. He would then be nice the next day and forget he said that. But I went to AA. I started about 6 months ago. I went sober for 3 weeks …. and the fights continued. At that point he was angry that I appeared anxious or upset …or irritable beause I wasn’t drinking. He would mock me and said “poor \_\_ she can’t have her wine….look at her withdrawl attack”. So I stopped telling him when I was struggling. I just held it together and smiled but YES i was quiet. I was indeed struggling. Then he told me that the alcohol was not the problem. That I was the problem and my attitude …or the look on my face…or my anxiety was the TRUE problem. That I was right…it wasn’t the wine. So I secretly started drinking wine again. And the fights were the same. I dindn’t want him to WIN — so I would drink 2-3 glasses a day when he wasn’t home. Never around him. Then I got caught and he said I was VERY SICK in the head. I was hiding wine! Now he had full control over me. And I’m REALLY a problem. SO I believed him. I went back to AA and I got a sponsor and the problem is most of the people there thought my issues was MILD. And that I was “probably okay…” So I kept going and the fights continued. He stopped drinking all together — since he is more prone to overeat FOOD and sugar. He loves his cookies and ice cream…when I would drink my dessert. Now I am drinking secretly about 2-3 glasses of wine a day alone….he has no idea. And I’m still going to AA and feeling like a total fraud. There is something about AA that is helping me as a parson — the 12 steps should be for EVERYONE. But I keep drinking - secretly. Here’s where I’m at. I don’t know if I am truly an alcoholic. I know I’m anxious and don’t want to stop drinking just because HE says and demands it. I drink my 2 or 3 glasses of wine and it makes me feel normal. tl/dr — am I an alcoholic? I go to these meetings and people are MAJOR drunks. They drink 2-3 glasses in an HOUR — not a day. And they are a mess…. if they drink. I DID feel better overall when I wasn’t drinking but I couldn’t keep it up. I don’t know what my problem is. I am NOT able to be honest —anywhere — so I’m asking here. WHAT would you say? Can I just be a normal person? Or do you think this describes an alcoholic??? My friends drink more than I do — and no one is on their asses about it… he uses it as a control factor and that’s what makes me rebel….",0.1345445036135402,2.290700649581592,2.290249524534044,94.12209547356413,86.96025104602508,5.0244807911753515,20.51099277291746,6.442313751576611,0.1852538912133892,3495,113,782,37,110,1174,339,956,0.185,0.741,0.07400000000000001,-0.9989,2,2,36,0,8,0,112.0,1,3,4,9,36,38,13,6,55,1,99,51,3,9,6,147,171,70,0,28,28,2,3,2,1,10,7,12,1,3,47,44,45,13,16,32,1,21,21,27,6,3,75,17,120,11,77,74,17,102,0,0,1,3,93,27,1,14,56,511,167,6,0.037538532366637525,0.04447702250822744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06655128799517461,0.2407036494195393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030019550771301837,0.031235066078172245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028716874512996305,0.0848157133117413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03341725243733317,0.035093460433422485,0.04270549980553662,0.07053737370275588,0.0288648142746252,0.0,0.06864942273192494,0.0,0.0,0.042293071243696995,0.0,0.03319978134181524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08420531203075905,0.0,0.0,0.04123431513106734,0.14525548734708804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039219776653797785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038414951711132066,0.0,0.6619224717139653,0.0,0.038411290115949216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04186538645169642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035869676354785565,0.0,0.0,0.035387987471440105,0.0,0.05694182961380447,0.026817535023279267,0.0,0.04112162733868525,0.0,0.03193025645449373,0.04539174234277075,0.0,0.029002176988108468,0.0,0.01961233381578123,0.03601038079421068,0.21334013019777967,0.0,0.0600459870875865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03852536407502007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.025161286967055208,0.03966152045379491,0.03765420866858324,0.0,0.03696789281962156,0.0,0.0,0.04237643383607003,0.0,0.03918047497387821,0.0,0.1000979170765313,0.0,0.0,0.08252078268508503,0.0,0.08469019914589598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03667886153965751,0.0,0.03314721181753525,0.0,0.06304582573402467,0.0,0.0,0.031913917827494434,0.06775998212609037,0.03551986696905352,0.050114523692423016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029962898396561043,0.0,0.0,0.027834346100845217,0.02895203033826521,0.0,0.03992265503728367,0.0,0.11033937460264877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05087416207297432,0.028549745415880762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05204898360201659,0.06555439706771285,0.0,0.0,0.03548604661241417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040472886947496005,0.25143514049737425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042727068063846685,0.02404814506312471,0.0,0.0,0.040302335358204336,0.04252383947185221,0.03205770153405225,0.2142464431085285,0.08955644287294527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031052261886172543,0.04219488318295192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02889899618259727,0.03712656836839172,0.0,0.07970989925661537,0.0,0.029978320438495774,0.12553557569088308,0.0,0.0784868490376074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03281033186623079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0249389328975992,0.04810635160207576,0.0,0.059602803208710725,0.04377804019973405,0.0,0.0,0.1076090290643567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09726371806898766,0.0,0.06194644111123886,0.06642359693903903,0.0,0.030111146375149608,0.0,0.0,0.13919438234534226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0361858056357872,0.0,0.1093139945786993,0.0,0.0,0.2399966672413464,0.0,0.0,0.048347168189972464 alcoholism,slutwaterlover,2019/09/09,"Alcohol+Me=Failure My life's story since 2011. TL;DR at the end. I was in the military and proposed within 4 months of dating (I knew her for 10+ years, we just never got along). I got in serious trouble due to an alcohol incident and decided to leave the military. I told my then fiancee to leave me because I had no direction and felt like she could do better. We married a year later. I continued to struggle with alcohol, but she looked past all of the verbal abuse. Then her dad (60) died 6 months after marriage. She got depressed, I continued drinking. 13 months later, her mom (57) unexpectedly dies in her sleep. My wife's sister and her end up having some issues and fights while splitting property, but eventually they figure things out. My wife is even more depressed. I continue drinking. A year later, we have a baby. She thought it would help my drinking, but it didn't. I don't really remember much of caring for my daughter while she was an infant.. Another year later, her sister (34) gives birth, then she dies a week later. My wife is lost. It's the third family member's coffin I'm carrying in less than 5 years. My wife has lost her entire immediate family. I ramp up my drinking and verbal abuse (a real winner, I know). 3 months after her sisters death, my wife's had enough of my bull shit and tells me she wants a break from marriage. I decide to focus on myself and I quit drinking cold turkey. A week after I quit, I find out she's having an affair. She's constantly telling me that she wants to work things out, but at the same time can't stop the affair. This goes on for 6 months. I stay sober and continue working on myself and raising my daughter while my wife spirals out of control. We begin therapy during the affair and I'm able to express all of my feelings towards my wife and we came to an understanding of why she was doing the things she was doing. It hurt like fucking hell, but I forgave her and decided I wanted to move forward with her. After the affair ended, we began a fresh start. I started going back to school and we started enjoying life together and being a close knit family with our daughter. I was 100% all in and so was she. Today marks 3 years sober. My wife and I are best friends and inseparable. I'll have my college degree at the end of this week And our son will turn 1 in less than a month. Life is good. TL;DR : alcohol sucks and ruined my life until I quit. I'm 3 years sober today!! Life is good.",2.307746913580246,4.590725705761315,4.04352366255144,84.10627314814819,78.97942386831275,6.683744855967077,23.49948559670782,7.793537801064563,1.370780658436214,1927,65,365,32,48,646,227,486,0.14,0.762,0.098,-0.9717,0,0,9,0,3,0,73.0,9,0,1,10,4,23,5,1,25,0,28,16,2,1,4,69,59,33,5,5,6,17,2,2,2,2,8,0,0,1,10,37,8,2,12,5,0,4,5,14,0,1,20,4,78,9,53,35,11,83,1,6,1,1,66,22,4,1,59,243,88,4,0.06548164070238292,0.15517007319039336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2799198386891091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06866320972587904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050351339759672285,0.0,0.03991700039355737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06871894202096303,0.05791318989216927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07489355245539872,0.06676289681866139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07076239082023335,0.07344322806464729,0.05228176181125446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11279848237154873,0.0,0.20387881449384265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3207353938367917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23198919072655844,0.06766003919147398,0.0,0.043250006111862166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18519078941227415,0.0,0.03310948504228415,0.0,0.06287264396682117,0.0,0.059849033302033575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05059095317242815,0.06053672167225215,0.0,0.06281595651347814,0.03721472543616638,0.1098457869315169,0.15711494979424506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04389096346906121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07009945069540706,0.0,0.0,0.06834582022893322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035986997237181684,0.0,0.0,0.13867120540260772,0.0,0.0,0.2312580967513715,0.06398204408350562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05498808621737073,0.0,0.14296189214910882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0766913061769046,0.3136009252640948,0.06959662111281854,0.04813654033039665,0.0,0.05050347812477863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0625096354525117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20894335554437687,0.0,0.0745324428748753,0.04194921578718527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07417793403282849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06627091628876272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06721596318453428,0.05416708985761517,0.0,0.06552893076017566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1390447269639051,0.06979471637921134,0.0,0.05474558370096932,0.0,0.06845562845060074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11446768038805545,0.0,0.07488396292474929,0.0,0.13050927731150186,0.0,0.0,0.05198510834744748,0.03818287128296485,0.0,0.12413787763715975,0.0625705138451906,0.0,0.0,0.07122522155771581,0.0,0.06816869730527242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11586830477122514,0.0,0.15757626713931827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059086995716225985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09534282862782308,0.0,0.0,0.04651627879491837,0.0,0.0,0.29517620798688704 alcoholism,Yervagesty,2019/09/09,"You’re not alone Today we honored my brother, who struggled intensely with alcoholism for years. There weren’t enough chairs to hold the amount of people who loved and miss him, and just wanted to see him healthy and happy again. I don’t blame him for the route he took, I just wish I could have talked to him one last time. Helped him see he wasn’t alone, that life could be so much better than this.",5.292249999999999,5.7223987250000015,4.2200000000000015,93.305,68.0,7.4,23.5,6.742157984588678,0.3954500000000003,318,6,70,2,5,92,60,80,0.07,0.675,0.255,0.9521,1,2,1,0,0,0,8.0,1,0,0,2,5,6,0,1,2,0,7,3,0,0,0,13,14,4,0,4,3,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,5,1,1,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,1,3,2,10,4,8,8,3,6,0,1,2,1,14,0,0,0,5,43,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21947697726602589,0.0,0.4254006435040416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18163216899369006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3279408305524413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21220104945742552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21861909239382907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1376544947524352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1674031246163335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1450581803161348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18535351781118908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15096982646511725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13916333225081445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14237698869486565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32730496725787617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2146962427464213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16506780262922052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11975230068391607,0.0,0.1946657748562332,0.0,0.2281724874015926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12113194220755112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2361641856425656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13225088642356855 alcoholism,mcdeathdigga,2019/04/10,"How bad will my (22F) withdrawal symptoms be based on my drinking habits? I have been drinking alcohol socially since I was about 18. However, I never really drank outside of a social setting until I was about 20, when I would have wine with dinner alone, or have a beer here and there. However, since I turned 21, I started to drink a lot more, because I was finally of legal age to do so. This past fall, I made friends who party constantly, and I found myself going to the bars at least three times a week, and frat parties two times a week. And when I drank, I would almost always black out. That has been my lifestyle for the past few months. About two weeks ago, I went on a spring break trip to Cabo, and I drank all day, every day. After those four days, I came home and partied with my friends for the whole weekend. Then, on Monday, it was syllabus week, which at our school basically means: party week. So I was blackout drunk all day everyday that entire week. And that weekend, I went on a formal to Vancouver and was drunk that entire weekend too. However, when I came home from Vancouver, I counted up the days that I had been drunk, and realized that I hadn’t been sober at all for 13 days straight. It was the longest bender I’ve ever been on/heard of. That’s when I realized I needed to detox, and I’ve decided that I don’t really want to drink for a while because of how terrible I feel. But I’m worried that I may face some pretty severe withdrawal symptoms after a bender like that. What I’m wondering is: is a 13 day bender really enough time to make me experience severe withdrawal symptoms? Or would I have had to have drank for much longer than that? It’s been two days since my last drink and I’ve experienced some symptoms of withdrawal such as extreme night sweats, waking up delirious and confused multiple times throughout the night, minor hallucinations (seeing things move in the corner of my eye or behind trees), general confusion and extreme fatigue. However, I was researching withdrawal symptoms and they apparently get worse around day 4? So I’m just nervous that this might get worse? Basically, am I okay detoxing at home or should I seek help? Or am I being a hypochondriac even asking? Any info would be very helpful thank you! TL;DR I have been drinking a lot for months now and recently went on a 13 day bender where I wasn’t sober for 13 days straight. Now I am on day 2 of not drinking and have experienced some withdrawal symptoms (night sweats, confusion, fatigue, etc) and am wondering if a 13 bender is enough to result in severe withdrawal symptoms. And if so, should I seek help or am I okay to detox at home? I feel like 13 days isn’t that long, and that the withdrawal symptoms shouldn’t be that severe. But I don’t know. Any info is greatly appreciated!",5.43376497315159,6.427314745353161,5.898556381660472,79.39055245766214,67.90334572490707,9.174803800082612,30.371953738124727,9.372597083632963,2.6488226352746813,2215,83,415,43,36,714,228,538,0.091,0.795,0.114,0.6538,5,1,10,0,0,0,72.0,1,1,1,0,24,16,0,4,22,2,54,37,5,5,5,80,85,43,0,11,12,0,2,2,2,10,14,0,4,0,25,25,19,0,12,16,0,9,8,8,0,5,30,7,49,8,54,41,16,89,0,2,3,0,12,21,0,21,59,278,74,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04588589066051128,0.055320248345666095,0.051834426174438585,0.05361215909340072,0.0,0.0,0.04307200867219207,0.0,0.0,0.07040293982750692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04608116349680125,0.048392592746327005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04322099250090874,0.06311002136402878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1184090399801456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05593877235769781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.433987625401046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3549648558350837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10697263012663974,0.05773082995243845,0.034189803627560904,0.0468237341248764,0.04361361919787753,0.0,0.0,0.05063537624574526,0.0,0.0,0.05234712748375242,0.03698039562966375,0.0,0.05670521345828845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056756836104996586,0.079985873288561,0.0,0.054089375708769816,0.0,0.02941882022918729,0.0,0.0,0.057070276218909574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10408947121189494,0.0,0.20769508196444975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028448281960990533,0.042194778436333014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0505788026306204,0.0,0.0,0.04580973862520778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08801624059249638,0.0,0.048980591694516,0.03455304358378242,0.0,0.0,0.05638645121587915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05491369656681841,0.0,0.0,0.08263547234705935,0.05501721324234455,0.03805268505511356,0.038382540752113385,0.03992378625633111,0.0,0.0,0.14573174610110867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0988296813380393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052662859077607566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09948452583228708,0.0,0.05111095901969481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05238819176744319,0.04124941098384318,0.0,0.0,0.23391550574336084,0.0,0.1284597852207266,0.0,0.0,0.10553428261487664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03663900761885199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4304230666236262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04765757320900947,0.0,0.0,0.03438987231057156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1207366184156865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05630464726616365,0.15169847269710693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04271093331573394,0.03053190001515432,0.0,0.2491329881398441,0.0,0.0,0.14395795486299706,0.0,0.05779294446651674,0.0,0.0,0.11227225746298447,0.0,0.052569115802406106,0.10550440069939604,0.1470873722764114,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Jess562323,2019/04/10,"Does it really get better? Here i am in full blown delirium tremens, 27 years old, got fired frim my crappy job at the gas station 2 days ago for not showing up because i was drunk. And to make it worse i am hiv positive also so that just fuels my depression even more. I stopped taking my meds about 2 months ago, because my insurance crapped out i drink everyday and today i am hallucinating seeing and hearing things that are not there. So as i was about to start i ran to the liquor store and bought 2 beers. That stopped with the hallucinations for now , but im sure theyl be back. I keep getting open sores in my body and a red rash i think its the Hiv coming back stronger and the alcohol aint helping, I am in constant pain. I have diarreah , the open sores started of as a rash first in my privates then they became sores and they burn , also the red rash in my back is very itchy, All this happend because of alcohol , me getting hiv because yep u guessed it i was drunk and i dont even know who gave it to me! I was a whore well i still kinda am. and i am ashamed of myself and feel dirty. Everyday i meet guys online after i have a few drinks and i end up with a few guys over and its usually no condom sex. I tried to stop i feel disgusting when im sober , but drunk me is very different. i look at my pics from before and i see a very healthy girl and had big beautiful golden locks , everyone always liked my hair, now im super skinny with very short hair i cut it on one day while drunk, i look like a meth addict even tho i dont do meth. I hate druk me. I have a very supportive family, they really have tried to help me even get into rehab , it didnt work for me . So at this point they just kinda stopped. I have stole money from my mom when im drunk and i feel terrible, but drunk me seems to think its fine. I pawned her jewerly and never picked it up and she lost it, i never told her i pawned it till she got the letter in the mail from the pawnshop saying her stuff was lost. She cried i felt terrible , right now im staying with her because i have nowere to go ., i live in los angeles ca if anyone know of anywere i can go to get help i would really appreciate it, I really wanna get back in track and get my life together, but i feel hopeless like in a hole and i cant get out and i feel like im going deeper each day",1.6235114863908675,3.241623632860044,3.3860606632388333,91.20683192603428,78.39148073022312,6.8578517854615795,21.809943865276665,7.738981096181357,0.7433061842539743,1813,51,413,28,43,606,234,493,0.188,0.693,0.12,-0.9872,3,0,7,0,0,1,40.0,0,0,4,6,27,23,4,1,19,1,30,33,8,2,4,67,74,38,0,3,9,1,9,4,0,1,12,2,0,3,21,31,13,5,11,11,3,5,10,13,1,2,16,17,73,10,50,56,6,70,1,4,6,6,26,27,1,5,41,258,94,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07183578735360685,0.0,0.0,0.11682471408781075,0.14084443176801828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1053931649273606,0.0548303086840472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046075643818741914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20267819159715425,0.0,0.20084633031524712,0.0,0.056072190381670564,0.0,0.0,0.05827918707323317,0.0,0.07319501058851792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05676311144943564,0.0,0.0712095918052554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07238307808772848,0.1274913776292321,0.0,0.05675567058167831,0.0,0.0,0.06884673959277744,0.0,0.0,0.057665568668207275,0.0,0.15445799696344814,0.1291049451997046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05836382640334061,0.0,0.0,0.17409334224585768,0.0,0.0,0.06296594417337144,0.0,0.0,0.06212038328685353,0.0,0.1665936444072996,0.04707573596263999,0.06326998368339934,0.0,0.0,0.05605065196209531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2754213010320067,0.0,0.11234974016860066,0.0,0.10540525187335656,0.0,0.07259128782730086,0.13049374804797453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06505813290055719,0.0,0.0,0.07426898229357083,0.0,0.13250503083670054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4270704830995056,0.0,0.06539108478715205,0.05857092024073745,0.0,0.0,0.07242885249783908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04654391826064964,0.1287727898744071,0.0,0.058186906069683166,0.0,0.11067119491874307,0.0,0.14386537630571558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043985737003607146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07319501058851792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07717597645538725,0.052597134388656284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1016452954832278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06914620952627662,0.0,0.044652474938299484,0.0,0.07011742460847678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062292517162141126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1688572982416474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056274370171461925,0.0,0.05240272151262637,0.0,0.0,0.10502031398129097,0.05998875978873624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09328230373039488,0.07023580189868467,0.05262420637620079,0.22036624954575626,0.0,0.0,0.07543454623955248,0.0,0.07477739691554176,0.062105699351948186,0.0,0.04954519162469325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04377802133038162,0.08444631112365072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06246119931539459,0.06296594417337144,0.0,0.08947739542819726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07257454906479026,0.27185331379696986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05924794003460888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04797268598084453,0.0,0.06715311215109487,0.046810250288186514,0.0,0.0,0.0424345213360736 alcoholism,WovenTheWyrd,2019/04/10,"It's only two pints of beer a day(32 oz). Or so I thought. Until my head hurt more and more frequently. My sleep suffered, my memory went hazy, my focus dulled. My relationship suffered. Fatigue, anger, anxiety and depression came to torment me more and more often. I wasted my time, money, and worst of all, my health. I am 3 days clean and healing now. Alcohol causes 5.6% of cancer and 4% of death in the U.S. (where liver disease/cirrhosis is the 12th leading cause). It takes 20 gallons of water to produce one pint(16 oz) of beer. 780 million people in the world lack access to clean water. 200 chiIdren die every hour from unsafe water. I spent $2 a day or more on beer. Two weeks of that can give one person clean water. So I'm gonna take that $2 a day and give to charitywater.org and other charities, as a reminder not to pollute my brain and the world. As a thank you to all of the beautiful human beings coexisting on this Earth with me. I want no attention or praise, just to share my story of conquering dependence, to give others hope. <3",3.173371273712738,5.2067390878048805,4.680934959349597,81.78747289972901,75.1951219512195,7.482384823848236,25.04742547425475,8.344100000000001,1.7601002710027096,823,28,154,15,18,275,130,205,0.19899999999999998,0.675,0.127,-0.96,0,0,4,0,0,0,44.0,0,1,0,4,6,12,1,0,10,0,4,16,4,5,2,29,18,17,2,3,5,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,3,2,7,11,8,0,2,3,2,3,2,8,0,5,4,0,17,4,26,12,9,19,1,6,0,0,9,7,0,6,9,98,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15619619340689467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11180885282687496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16315830555090696,0.0,0.16716339733598184,0.0,0.3002847110506768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37703382146123404,0.0,0.12588385054107365,0.0,0.15168673474226152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1231426376982276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4206181314722254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1499981051216515,0.15535687237615328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451657729925682,0.1439341069557602,0.0,0.15646289894726045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19807802194258592,0.11115813742210404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10132608868546213,0.12761768225475428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1569167243672528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1462614381416709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2197820740585216,0.0,0.0,0.13456070326627265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11603144779937608,0.0852246725444628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2855461268945917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08620652839532354,0.0,0.117237435849223,0.0,0.0,0.13548797069589488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Love4Firearms,2019/04/10,"Withdrawels (help) I am just curious to if I am in any danger since I know people can get seizures and even die from alcohol withdrawel. I have been drinking 6-8 beers every night for over 2 weeks and now that I am trying to stop I feel terrible, so I was planning to stop cold turkey I have 2 hours till the last store closes so I feel a bit worried that what if I start having severe withdrawels later after the stores has closes. I feel very anxious, chills on an off and was shaking earlier also on and off I am just trying to eat some food and maybe ride this out. But how long will I feel like complete shit? Some sites said it could even last weeks but I am not a hardcore alcoholic I ""only"" drink 6-8 beers every night and have done that for about 2 weeks maybe a bit longer.",3.8879147727272745,4.692249643750003,4.4639772727272735,88.96511363636365,71.3125,7.0681818181818175,24.54545454545455,6.980632752743323,0.8018125,613,16,130,5,11,195,98,160,0.127,0.85,0.023,-0.8841,0,0,6,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,1,10,5,2,1,6,0,17,9,1,1,0,27,25,15,1,3,7,0,4,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,6,9,8,2,5,4,2,2,1,4,0,0,5,6,15,1,17,18,4,28,0,0,0,0,2,10,1,4,17,83,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2715279539032693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10159148668103103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0863895534266684,0.0,0.0,0.14351571205870922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2773831226690072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13319593478617972,0.0,0.0,0.10142875101349744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13184440612947798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13000301319781146,0.0,0.2488959000282581,0.0,0.12999062170997466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.167813552920781,0.0,0.21406839515831247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.256935007405664,0.09075529720251743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15361371070391966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06637161777699276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0851502598844632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12510590913307992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06981624291222292,0.2071043098474604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06206388799701387,0.0,0.0,0.11242379571422062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2552515926095341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2384313400663707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09661740454614064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08807149821543052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12084133013479274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14351571205870922,0.1304017109941566,0.10508636434495787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08991748111496467,0.0,0.0,0.2124173320073112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17249964230910392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10481887445674096,0.0,0.0,0.30570438737337524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1290122954902606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Shanstarjayne,2019/04/10,I fucked up once again but this time it has really hit home. A few weekends ago I went home to see my parents and my grandmother was there - I got shit faced. They were all disappointed which I’m used to but grandmother hasn’t ever seen me like that. Tonight I called her for a chat and she said “Oh hello” the greeting for the past 26 years has always been “Oh hi my dear !!!!” Very enthusiastic. I won’t get into the specifics of the conversations but you can tell I’ve gone too far and fucked up more.,0.5480769230769234,2.9676969901960786,1.9307843137254888,95.19468325791857,88.90196078431373,5.4914027149321285,17.650075414781302,7.010146845296331,-0.006554449472095936,391,10,89,6,13,125,76,102,0.161,0.713,0.126,-0.7374,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,1,0,4,6,3,0,6,0,8,4,2,1,2,10,20,6,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,2,0,4,4,0,0,0,2,0,2,2,4,0,0,8,3,13,2,8,10,3,14,0,1,2,2,12,4,3,0,9,52,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18890047171804086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1773164395177062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21759913270544784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19276133330895934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3940154065793674,0.1113360603798195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17043569895210592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4275137563186244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10410999479716124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269447607428748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2366225560826884,0.0,0.20342825600381687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13651744641508687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20270709196015288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16981327115537548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.218744295455608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18625896968983827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12426044173962075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18405015417697573,0.0,0.17582998465807767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1975460226062264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1372295435962027 alcoholism,Faceless-Edict,2019/04/10,"My University promotes drinking with an official annual celebration and I could use some backup explaining why this is a bad thing to expose kids to Hey everyone, I attend the University of Calgary which has an annual celebration called ""BSD"" its a school (and liquor company) sponsored event that is centered around students drinking. The primary attractions are a ""boozy pancake breakfast"" (AM drinking) and a ""beer gardens"". 95% of the student populatuon ranges in age from 17-25. Ive tried to voice my opinion that absolutley no educational institution should be promoting alcohol consumption epecially given the young susceptible demographic that attends the UofC, however I have been met with increadibly toxic (and sometimes voilent) responses from the students who attend the UofC. I fear much of this toxicity steams from very troubling loyalty to the act of drinking itself and it makes me very sad that so many young students are already devolping behaviour that either is or is related to alcoholism. I would very much appreciate anyone who is willing to post on the r/Ucalgary subreddit and share any stories you may have regarding drinking in your youth or in university and how it affected your life or the lives of those around you. I think many of these kids havent come face to face with the consequences of thier actions and that a posting campaign from this community might help open thier eyes and mame a real difference at my school. Thank you for taking the time to read this.",12.605877378435517,10.787249651162796,11.485954897815366,54.489101479915426,54.42635658914728,15.428329809725161,48.648343904157855,13.88584557914918,6.97051472868217,1222,65,179,39,11,392,162,258,0.07200000000000001,0.847,0.08199999999999999,0.3758,1,0,8,0,0,0,25.0,0,5,0,2,4,7,0,1,20,0,21,14,3,4,0,34,30,14,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,5,3,2,1,2,20,16,10,0,2,9,0,6,2,4,0,0,3,3,16,3,30,20,4,25,0,1,1,0,15,9,0,7,8,125,36,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2516163420761644,0.0,0.0,0.12990828137513574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08005445890317209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08231340643676477,0.0,0.0,0.20959366858278325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09829229223653664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12020651633549705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1014063977431005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09399080626690123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12299360764745865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5766098390847022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1124876599620976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13246908848802766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07890604488772464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08314997129546398,0.0,0.0,0.10394998423578107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07857982107947939,0.2387016575568704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12488359934401615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1730772674756819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2254887540101703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11775306595881008,0.13399250821236242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2382802965406674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11642928575311877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08851169852849439,0.0,0.0,0.10838187283750153,0.0,0.0,0.07820874032582219,0.07543099730685816,0.0,0.0,0.0686441836146888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07992497343887821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10167332741428467,0.0,0.2913969783833919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10622508069461263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0836257692358251,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,yeeetable_account,2019/04/10,"My father is an alcoholic. As his teen daughter, what can I do? He promises he will stop, and then he goes at it again. He often says he’s going for the groceries or something but picks up alcoholic drinks. He has never been violent, only shouting at times. He often proposes crazy ideas while drunk (like moving out of the country). He’s a big weight on us when he’s drunk and it’s draining not only for him but for us as well. We live in spain so healthcare is less of an issue. What can I do to help him?",0.9715844155844168,3.1070185047619105,2.742251082251084,92.40350649350651,83.0,5.341991341991342,20.97402597402597,6.574015621080383,0.32442857142857084,393,12,84,4,11,130,73,105,0.096,0.7929999999999999,0.111,0.3977,0,0,4,0,0,0,14.0,3,0,0,0,6,4,1,0,5,0,9,6,0,1,1,14,10,11,0,0,4,2,1,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,4,4,6,1,1,3,0,2,2,1,1,0,1,3,9,3,14,8,1,16,0,0,0,0,19,7,0,3,8,57,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43571530797838615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1996990589300507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11585477921598415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1366388660049922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2301260612097324,0.0,0.212770343463646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09959264114142972,0.0,0.18000658868942485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2166642660587288,0.0,0.0,0.15722457277890514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31007991311930355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16211267748509064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1569365697487148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17043085602244196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11886875613009848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4904219028172232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2482389388654528,0.18328899563302764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,StewDog80,2019/04/10,"Almost 11 months sober. Gabapentin question..... So, a quick background. Recovering alcoholic, just shy of 11 months sober. Got sober last May after being stricken with Pancreatitis (I have Chronic Pancreatitis) other than that I’m on Lexapro for depression and anxiety. I can NOT take Benzos with my Alcoholism history. They think ill abuse them which I 100% will, and have. Resulted in blowing through my prescription of klonopin in 10 days and having a seizure. Because of my Chronic Pancreatitis and nerve pain, my Nurse Practitioner today prescribed me Gabapentin for my anxiety and pain. She’s starting me on a low dose of 100mgs 3x a day, and said she will increase it most likely on my next visit in 3.5 weeks, just wants to see how I’ll respond. So to sum it up, I’d like to know what to expect. I’m also on 7.5mgs of Mirtazapine, and the only other thing I take is Kratom. Anyone with experience with Gabapentin, please, how will it make me feel, and will I like it, and are their side effects (there’s always some, but curious what people have experienced) Thanks to all that give me feedback!",6.804500574052813,7.8819571194029905,6.4081592039801025,76.65795637198623,64.87064676616916,9.567699961729813,33.869498660543435,9.661875296680813,3.212607041714505,875,37,155,17,13,272,127,201,0.095,0.838,0.067,-0.4102,0,0,2,0,1,0,37.0,0,0,3,1,9,8,0,0,5,0,13,8,0,5,1,33,28,15,0,2,4,0,1,3,0,5,8,1,0,0,12,13,2,0,5,0,0,2,1,4,0,0,2,4,20,4,27,20,4,23,0,2,1,0,10,10,0,5,14,100,32,1,0.0,0.18646570719150185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.336375756000657,0.15759007608154546,0.0,0.0,0.1258541253094569,0.13095005818706265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407855567851893,0.0,0.0,0.11004147858875897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09593540241764788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20298996083959803,0.0,0.13554835899143694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15394465385091347,0.0,0.0,0.07957441040297436,0.11242997735119584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15097011315866912,0.0,0.0,0.12586855880727466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08649014273900782,0.12828305114535574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2306589831200906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10505019866319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25123323118081337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16737195263267526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11969210547142145,0.33491990297980817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10910521870201173,0.0,0.0,0.1727524055508174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1762979706276869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14970132244541054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12540888932360586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1113920694091632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2366554514047596,0.0,0.0,0.14489136163280714,0.0,0.0,0.10455411574576584,0.1008406629538294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1491747517220233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09282488109562684,0.0,0.12623813120922114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,mvickers1,2019/04/10,"15 days in and feeling great This is the longest period of sobriety that I have had since I was sober for four years a long time ago. I’m finally remembering the benefits and little miracles that happen along the way! I have gotten a sponsor and am hitting as many meetings as possible. Lastly, when I got sober before it was for the wrong reasons, now I’m doing it for myself. All the best to all of you!",3.9274074074074083,5.236586617283951,5.554012345679013,79.28805555555559,71.71604938271605,8.85679012345679,28.314814814814817,9.2995712137729,2.5133111111111104,320,12,61,7,6,109,58,81,0.037000000000000005,0.809,0.154,0.8715,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,1,2,4,0,0,7,0,8,0,0,1,2,9,15,6,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,5,1,6,3,10,9,3,13,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,10,45,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21204708596755795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20355187114456536,0.0,0.2510383319160536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15427200955640294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1209528210297388,0.0,0.0,0.2620451537480179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19131976208922544,0.26373217547671673,0.0,0.0,0.2115344625876832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1949897818627516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397533590498388,0.0,0.21169517349633507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24252351505525066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2696756909965076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2459498708775913,0.0,0.0,0.2709806681671518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1978787141172016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1394864943019178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1898754239020176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2615408700162372,0.0,0.15404474411089386 alcoholism,needwifeshelp,2019/04/10,"What can my wife do to help me stop drinking? I need to stop drinking, but I believe I will struggle doing things on my own. What are things my wife can do to help me?",1.3166666666666664,2.639726222222226,2.5288888888888903,98.305,78.44444444444444,4.800000000000002,23.11111111111111,3.1291,-0.24332222222222244,128,4,31,0,3,41,21,36,0.163,0.7020000000000001,0.135,0.1556,0,0,2,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,7,2,0,0,0,4,8,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,8,0,4,7,1,3,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,25,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3111752680978705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5411285703376161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3702530928787874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20479383160309605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4618199302238278,0.0,0.288737204147528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3669811107246922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,caaIee,2019/04/10,"Advice please. My closest friend is an alcoholic, behaviours such as frequent black outs, sleeping in till 4-5pm and an evident unfulfilling energy resonating from him. Well he is my cousin if not my brother, and having seen alcohol take lives within my town, lives within this page shared by you loving people; I need some of your strengths and wisdom. I never hold a grudge against him, nor belittle him. Is there something a close friend can do? Or is it his responsibility? PS. I empathize with anyone with this addiction and wish sufferers my condolences. I don't suffer from alcoholism, just witnessed it amongst others.",6.3606931702344545,8.889833917431197,6.129663608562691,72.6871763506626,67.62385321100918,9.615086646279307,32.294597349643226,9.994966539143718,3.735574108053007,503,22,78,13,9,157,84,109,0.027000000000000003,0.7040000000000001,0.26899999999999996,0.9803,0,0,4,0,0,0,17.0,0,2,0,1,4,9,0,0,4,0,8,6,1,0,1,17,13,9,0,3,4,2,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,0,5,8,3,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,1,2,15,7,13,12,2,10,0,2,2,1,13,7,0,3,3,59,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21235971617196966,0.0,0.1903553755738732,0.0,0.6245428216878232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1362080239425053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3010025231428432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3440222572367353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758137466407258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444410260964344,0.15024103510400555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13504913267072352,0.0,0.0,0.2138308580833155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1949397299398506,0.0,0.0,0.14996582447627665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14646464135368642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17514773893393806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2240092920301128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,BaldingWayToEarly,2019/04/10,"I’m very addicted to alcohol, just woke up today after not remembering anything from yesterday. Like, the entire day I have no recollection of. Just woke up my gf, had to put together pieces of the whole day. I apparently didn’t cause much harm to anyone but myself. I’m just so tired of this. I wake up everyday feeling sick to my stomach, and all I can do is drink to alleviate it. I feel like I may actually get very sick from this. The amounts of times I’ve tried to quit, man it hurts being that guy. The guy you see when you go to work, the guy with a large beer walking the streets very early in the morning. This sucks.",3.05535433070866,4.5092301653543325,4.600795275590553,84.69725590551181,74.11811023622046,8.229606299212598,26.08582677165355,8.841846274778883,1.8046604724409447,489,17,105,10,10,164,85,127,0.183,0.768,0.049,-0.9662,1,0,3,0,0,0,16.0,0,2,0,2,5,5,1,0,8,0,8,9,2,1,1,14,18,4,0,0,5,0,2,2,1,1,5,0,0,4,6,2,3,0,4,2,0,3,3,3,0,0,4,3,11,2,19,12,5,17,0,1,1,0,7,5,1,1,11,65,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.16107175357411166,0.17993641661855628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17639566076073288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11541164296462715,0.0,0.13582778932665396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16955893375757444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21289612958923385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616929532115967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16691548605721734,0.11791670351022378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08623543326004844,0.0,0.09380565684924752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4902969316525138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17669685696145468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612769569429082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1213358349744769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16592780331170218,0.0,0.17555836192446378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18697732534947945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13152900292531108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09624602302205668,0.1897086597586676,0.15645466969250413,0.0,0.0,0.11206282059984284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4085677593235201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18428016741320746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12016341059185183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,jk20190409,2019/04/10,"Cravings My boyfriend has been trying to stop drinking. I want to help him especially when he comes to me and says hes craving. I'm not too sure what to say or how to help his cravings. What helped most what someone said? Usually I’ll be at work and wont be with him during this time, so he’ll text me asking for help if hes craving and im just looking for advice on what to say that may help him during these times when im not with him.",3.4475000000000016,3.4194570833333344,4.539583333333333,91.01375,71.91666666666666,7.2333333333333325,26.416666666666664,6.42735559955562,0.7612416666666664,344,10,82,2,6,113,60,96,0.043,0.831,0.126,0.7869,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,6,1,0,0,0,0,8,1,0,1,1,17,15,9,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,3,0,4,0,0,7,6,1,1,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,5,11,1,12,8,1,9,0,0,1,0,19,2,0,4,6,50,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17024027704842715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1628669292295691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15007026342700988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1706637694897007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5838611372569918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37636285411482906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14629620321317727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16571777123377007,0.4156268052023917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14761127986216238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14565102350499606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16419499255899594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20317161337070128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11828012911725085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1918725280933805,0.0,0.1027561557835696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12683014441270804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,larking94,2019/04/10,"Worried about loved one drinking Hey guys, I've an uncle who has pretty much reared me and I'm starting to get a bit worried about his drinking. He was an alcoholic for his whole married life and it cost him his wife and kids. Nowadays, he's nowhere near as bad and has totally mellowed out as he's 65. I've lived with him for past 3 years and he's been the best influence on my life and now he's like a father to me. However, he does drink pretty much every night still, but he'll only have 5-6 at the most. His drinking isn't harming anyone and it never really caused any issues for me, but I'm after moving away now and I'm really worried that he might fall into a rut and drink a crazy amount. I felt like when I was there he would moderate himself, but there have been times when I'm away that I know he's had far, far too many (I see the cans when I come back). He says that he only drinks now to just relax and take it easy, but I just don't buy that really. He has a stressful life and he's not really that open, so I get the feeling he's drinking just to escape from it. That and he's with someone who is a chronic alcoholic and is reinforcing the constant binging, so that's not easy. Do you guys think that I should tell him that I'm worried about him? I don't want to seem like I'm trying to control him, because he is old enough to make his own choices, but it does cause a lot of stress for me worrying about him while I'm away.",3.881410865874365,3.7998200612903226,5.009286926994907,88.20866723259762,70.96774193548387,8.074702886247879,26.6383701188455,7.669130373188453,1.208838709677419,1129,32,259,12,19,374,150,310,0.08,0.795,0.125,0.9213,2,0,9,0,0,0,27.0,0,1,0,2,20,10,0,2,14,0,21,14,0,5,2,47,43,26,0,3,10,2,2,3,0,4,6,1,0,3,16,19,9,1,5,8,2,3,6,4,0,1,6,4,27,6,30,33,11,32,0,0,1,1,41,11,0,4,21,156,43,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17107079159249095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05442802141575013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055963851479683864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255926727068069,0.061543644714630474,0.06682769529832401,0.04878991705127269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08399407390328725,0.0,0.08737986216013824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16444044538506072,0.0,0.06894493653041042,0.0,0.08649174898989054,0.08976849387285597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400821368067942,0.0,0.0,0.5488417052630555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08269979375430922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06743476921663967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04046919891014971,0.0,0.07684823643287864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0836322377063932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584987670169801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08353801304942372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04398633646855543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1695978642687145,0.11730635792371387,0.0,0.07067428904859907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06804474130823876,0.07223667240956061,0.0,0.0534254336755032,0.08114512987461837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.084906791110704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08506684714944977,0.11767306093643035,0.0,0.061729601027496424,0.0,0.0,0.07510946386784034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08398554810291325,0.0,0.0542352589901484,0.1217437515343882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07640453687811641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1628531552070647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2050954468966608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06364877147242286,0.0,0.0,0.06377926347724787,0.07286283522101708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0678152359359273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05665072214929196,0.0,0.0639177887879234,0.0,0.1833646197596612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06017799244487083,0.0,0.06995601593458185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0512845879302594,0.0,0.0,0.046670318518621884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05433998587444268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0472079976194144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08935864402281224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4064081652997257,0.0,0.05685611046826668,0.0,0.0,0.05154131451761758 alcoholism,lgallagher4,2019/04/10,"Looking for help Hi friends, I am a long time lurker here and I feel I am in dire need of help. Alcohol is evil, I know it is, we know it is. I am 28 and I have an alcohol addiction, I hate it yet love it but I know I need it out my life, I have tried to cut it out but I do not have the willpower to do this on my own. Next week my next chapter starts again after a rough few years, I finally have my own place and want to cut alcohol out my life, I hate tge feeling of not being in control of my body and mind, but I love the buzz of being typsy. I live in the UK and I know I need to stop, I drink around 15 pints a day which gets me extremely drunk, that may not seem a lot but its more than enough for me. How do u go about helping myself? Thank you for any help given, we are all in this together!",-0.6588520564763662,0.9104601712707208,1.891887661141805,99.4087216083487,85.40883977900552,5.5691835481890735,17.79036218538981,6.691623216298621,-0.3508381829343157,605,14,161,7,18,208,99,181,0.124,0.733,0.14300000000000002,0.3617,1,0,4,0,0,0,18.0,2,1,0,1,6,9,5,0,8,0,17,11,1,2,1,36,38,10,0,4,7,0,3,0,1,1,6,0,0,0,11,11,5,2,7,2,0,1,3,5,0,0,1,4,30,4,23,34,7,24,0,0,1,2,11,10,0,3,13,112,41,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1385557773588014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4074879064292027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08643112125815151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11314432720187652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1411774265235863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14255141703242666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08196781198118619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12450783030299985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13132639614811376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12852931806965248,0.0,0.0,0.1392298444465753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0981957391279518,0.0,0.06640355363166016,0.0,0.07223282507038706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2509662804467421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3407649256334848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2793993448319929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1795464075359654,0.0,0.0,0.1122300221044868,0.11247789037277106,0.10673046129300867,0.0,0.0,0.1080543281569678,0.2294221406515941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12833293088819048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2827250716009764,0.0,0.0,0.2703407141431969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1327905473624254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11570541023521505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08996074647002343,0.0,0.0,0.10625977014478573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11701492860921045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07411197126251384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08629132175142963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0749657999770209,0.0,0.10195049411325602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08184706129309394 alcoholism,SayEasyRinba826,2019/08/21,"Scared Of Using Alcohol Like My Mother and Grandmother Had I grew up witnessing female figures in my life abuse alcohol to subdue unwanted feelings. Mostly my mother. In the last year she had an episode of relapse that shook me to my core. My grandmother died of due to her alcoholism that took priority over her medical issues. I’ve been fearful of drinking since I was a teenager because I never wanted to end up like that. However, I did struggle with a cutting issue in college and high school. Firstly when my uncle hung himself, then my cousin drowned himself using cinder blocks. In college I cut awhile after my church friend committed suicide just a dorm away. I’ve stopped that and have transformed my life since. I had a really a bad breakup around that time. I’ve traveled around Europe, southern U.S, moved around and settled in south western Arkansas, 25 hours from my original home. I have an amazing boyfriend and nice apartment. I want to marry him and have a family. I’ve never been happier with someone. However, I’ve been dealing with things using alcohol. It started gradually after a long day. However, recently I’ve started graduate school and have not been getting call back for jobs. I feel like a failure, which I know I shouldn’t. I don’t want to cut anymore, so today after submitting a project incorrectly (which I know is minuscule) I tried hard not to cut and instead drank Vodka. My ancestor’s drink of choice. I had to stop studying for school because of how hard it all hit me. I fight off alcohol cravings a bit so I’m still a “light weight” I suppose. I’m home alone most of the day, cooking, cleaning, applying for jobs and sewing the day a way. My insurance is going to end soon so I don’t think I can afford a therapist anymore. I love working, but been denied even a Home Depot Clerk job. I’ve been feeling like a failure and a loser when I’m sober recently. It’s all me. This has nothing to do with people around me or my family anymore. My mother has changed her life and is my biggest role model. I don’t have a lot of friends here yet so maybe I just need a wider support system. Does anyone have any advice? I’m scared to tell my mom what’s going on because you’d think I’ve learned from watching her drink herself to sleep and struggle during my childhood. I love my boyfriend so much as well and don’t want to mess this up. He had a very similar situation with his own mother. We have such a cute little family with my dog. It’s the morning time and I’m hoping this intoxicated feeling wears off by the afternoon when he gets home. I can’t keep a secret from him so I’ll probably tell him what happened. Life isn’t awful. God is good. I just can’t figure out why I get so angry and depressed about my life. I love myself just hate where I am I guess? I want to contribute more to this world.",2.6030087358684457,5.024118519784177,3.9022867420349456,84.76901079136692,78.73021582733813,6.777183967112025,27.554470709146965,7.8965179332212925,1.9523952723535456,2251,98,421,39,56,736,275,556,0.147,0.737,0.11599999999999999,-0.9338,7,1,9,0,3,1,58.0,1,1,0,3,30,32,6,6,28,1,38,23,2,5,5,74,79,30,3,9,8,6,7,4,2,1,12,0,6,0,18,27,11,4,12,6,0,7,12,16,1,1,15,9,69,16,59,61,9,70,1,2,1,3,34,25,0,6,40,267,87,13,0.0,0.07484754946614136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061730171542345585,0.0,0.3375540389661701,0.0,0.06542631814158173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042958586420968205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879465857003048,0.044170776149958166,0.0,0.0,0.22494306621925075,0.0,0.0,0.05935142765516845,0.048574758210294916,0.05274531847958076,0.11552574282146068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06896659592649376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06450486445243289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0668267599130265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1222206058468563,0.06512673971140177,0.054409267298926936,0.0,0.06556173854564669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055281548212840016,0.0,0.0,0.1856511975188873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11190187689871624,0.0,0.0,0.041723985886073976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17865657321952086,0.07108516956941584,0.1277650396650972,0.09025904460414694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05373339568767695,0.0,0.0,0.09761183435072293,0.0,0.09901304376782112,0.0,0.07180330448216297,0.05298501058845246,0.0,0.0,0.06959020556870953,0.0,0.05586208898014308,0.0,0.11317798525779198,0.062368487706640274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0667438476466958,0.2534634817705124,0.06274326143869341,0.06221091319599464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318686536704112,0.18806302390687432,0.05614947057556513,0.0,0.0,0.06943448567025892,0.051492964368019485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2230984555224866,0.123449041713322,0.0633141442424716,0.0,0.05590452956863806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05370590045252912,0.17104343978070607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06346396737375351,0.0,0.0,0.06363834425706835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07398535316350209,0.0,0.06714099483637395,0.046438105098880994,0.0468406489273272,0.09744305714204128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060614476046251066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04379496035389596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06810924466177766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04046909225652893,0.0,0.12474789010150206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1264907953420143,0.1917978995474278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10451174905563623,0.07100708249231036,0.06321682764842892,0.0,0.05352475798006611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08942580971927018,0.0,0.050448606840016924,0.1056279139363006,0.0,0.13208052123311995,0.0,0.06909904643611123,0.07168593613638094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11042883713287913,0.0,0.0,0.07334663927069339,0.041968142389489885,0.0809551163301433,0.0,0.0,0.07367127664119588,0.0,0.059878917023313966,0.0,0.07018553441257695,0.04288910231496911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16367891866148918,0.0,0.05212286090494467,0.18630007050996936,0.0501423630712667,0.0,0.07692551067943328,0.056798500893661764,0.0,0.057002187905775985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045989390449063916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04068018561693775 alcoholism,phr3k,2019/08/21,"Alcohol ads on YouTube constantly playing for me anyone experience this and have any advice? My spouse and me have been sober for a few years now and I'm not sure why but YouTube will not stop offering ads for booze. On our PC it doesn't seem to be such an issue but on the Xbox it's bad. I dislike and feedback as inappropriate to no avail. Ironically in my Google account shows I've blocked ads from those companies but they still play anyways. Any advice? Also wtf are you thinking YT/Google?",2.648453608247422,5.153301113402065,3.5208350515463955,87.09671649484541,79.10309278350515,6.766597938144328,26.194845360824733,7.908726449838941,1.6194173195876291,396,16,79,7,10,126,74,97,0.192,0.745,0.063,-0.9431,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,1,1,1,0,5,4,0,0,3,0,7,2,0,0,1,14,10,9,0,0,5,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,4,2,2,2,4,1,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,8,3,11,7,1,9,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,1,5,49,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4804884107103536,0.0,0.2627415405778621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19660814539690805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33437624422629425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17190577558639447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20527655776300646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.265679198246898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24049090812856155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2566061224256657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2238148710090058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19633811406536508,0.20554368806138668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23171305988543445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15753234687538145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22184363002353755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15832094133317134 alcoholism,TEDDYthegooddog,2019/08/21,"Is it possible to cut back on drinking? I have a drinking problem. In my opinion it's not terrible...yet Wife mentions the amount of drinking frequently, I leave work a little early (an hour ish) either to drink or bc I'm hungover (usually two to three days a week). Im wanting to cut back (not quit drinking), bc not drinking ever again is pretty hard to imagine. Can a person with drinking problem cut back? Or will it just be a matter of time before it becomes a problem again? Has anyone here successfully cut back? And if so how did you do it? Thanks!",1.1300131061598968,3.702624550458719,3.0354193971166445,87.1673623853211,87.89908256880733,4.949148099606815,26.13433813892529,6.5431188927421005,1.2942026212319786,432,20,80,5,14,144,73,109,0.177,0.732,0.091,-0.7877,0,0,7,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,0,3,11,9,4,0,8,0,9,7,0,1,1,19,12,6,0,5,8,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,2,7,0,1,7,0,0,3,7,0,2,1,1,4,2,10,9,2,17,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,4,14,57,9,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07696743789158772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3385654508725046,0.0,0.0,0.12156988198831045,0.0936662512546602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07098967318462393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7548254586709863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09956970670898982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09860614087298966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10840231969970053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11890056639831123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11655419548977546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11032469631272428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0961137918156308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12409373044875295,0.0,0.11198648571747348,0.0,0.3159825274434049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11707897895458835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10134284835609124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06418598339799142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1075278931148432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12123275194218985,0.0,0.06492545685633401,0.0,0.08829602844311807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08013636756219095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,TheRowdyKiller,2019/08/21,Issues with self control. Hey everyone. Just wanted to see if anyone had any suggestions on how to handle not drinking at social events or when the opportunity comes up. I go a week without drinking but sooner or later I end up at a social event I have social anxiety so I always end up having a drink to ease it and that turns into like 20 drinks and eventually me blacking out and making a complete fool of myself then waking up feeling extreme shame. Everyone I usually hang around knows I have a drinking problem but they never seem to care that I’m drinking so they don’t really try to stop me. Just wondering if there’s any full proof or at least almost foolproof way to have self control at these events. Should I just avoid them completely? What works for you guys.,4.941384990848079,6.4813942550335595,5.6900427089688845,78.39374618669923,69.53691275167785,8.10274557657108,28.310555216595482,8.575989854853784,2.2113436241610738,620,22,109,10,11,202,102,149,0.146,0.7709999999999999,0.083,-0.8985,0,1,6,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,3,4,9,7,0,2,6,0,7,7,1,4,2,36,19,15,0,5,12,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,3,5,8,6,4,4,6,0,3,4,4,0,0,1,3,14,3,22,17,2,29,0,0,2,0,12,13,0,8,13,77,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10766822931797128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0894673144696668,0.0,0.0,0.14623794318659591,0.0,0.08225440074979155,0.0,0.0,0.07518221607464902,0.0,0.0,0.0957178007896846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10962633149453296,0.0,0.0,0.09262109340998416,0.22547054326980634,0.0,0.2411912019849063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6319865604804661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19046600085984736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20548466946265925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054366595157149714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0611075016445789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1064641570796993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11222553097169542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05909154150892671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05253005118582302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07177208845126827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08292796296080318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10288448944485504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0688816521594707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08568149333984162,0.09788442497362222,0.22433878698404336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32881687461670445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08989360547019618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07300070405248676,0.1169535793281395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11842081796564817,0.0,0.06341954285906805,0.08534633763552385,0.08624804554744574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1036478310643823,0.11660353991274655,0.07827764398217843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,perpetual_storm,2019/08/21,I'd actually like to talk to somebody I'm 29 years old and have had problems I guess starting when I was in my younger twenties. Its gotten to a point that I can't control anymore. I need to fight this but I feel like I'm powerless. As much as I try to stop it keeps pulling me back.,0.6015053763440861,2.389570870967745,2.523870967741935,95.37247311827957,82.2258064516129,5.423655913978496,26.46236559139785,6.42735559955562,0.7735397849462369,222,10,53,2,6,74,47,62,0.177,0.741,0.08199999999999999,-0.6956,1,0,0,0,1,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,2,4,1,0,1,0,4,0,0,1,0,9,12,5,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,3,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,3,1,8,2,8,9,1,9,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,8,30,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.2586779852148437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2628862441410021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20382869470675946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.297307626428992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13403145081726178,0.18937184584115246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2920134095992035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23561359268829898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590075376833661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1948629019619932,0.19655205052675254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2781548724230664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2505844829796856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2536439397579912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18762364178182087,0.0,0.0,0.2216171589472885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21305973381542934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17997062804014174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17070160388305855 alcoholism,lillizard1,2019/08/21,"Drinking alone Hi everyone, Im after some advice form you all, sober or not! I (27f) have had substance issues for long long time and have managed to overcome them all. Apart from everyone's favourite. Alcohol. The longest I have ever gone without drinking is 6 weeks, and this was after getting hammered on my ex's birthday and becoming a horrible person. I've always been a heavy drinker but usually a ""happy"" one, nights out would be adventures with stories to tell, never going overboard. An evening alone would be a glass of wine and nothing I would call an issue. Since my dad passing 3 1/2 years ago that all changed. He died on holiday and I attempted to resuscitate him. But failed. From that day onwards my drinking became angry, violent, screaming and crying. What didn't help is I moved country soon after and was very isolated. I have recently moved country...again and split with my partner who has since returned home. I am really struggling with not drinking alone. I don't see the point in not doing it. I make a list all the time about why I need to totally stop. My health, my mental health, missing work some days, I'm on meds for depression. I've been a nightmare to deal with ok nights out SO MANY tomes. People in my life understood what happened with my dad and usually gave me a free pass, but it's just been too long now. Despite all this, I always think at the end of the day, I'm just alone in my room so why not if it means I can turn my brain off and feel better for a bit. I'm moving home in a couple of months becuase life's just a bit much and it's time to sort this issue out. I'll feel a lot more equipped to do this with the support of my friends and family If anyone has any advice on what to do in the mean time that would be amazing. I've started exercising, eating better and trying to fill my time. But all I want is a box of wine and to be sat in bed. Those 6 weeks I did quit seem impossible. I'll be attending my first AA next week. I've had therapy in the past for addiction/grief. I just feel a little at the end of my rope. A lot of the time I worry the only thing keeping me alive is i could never leave my mum. What happens when she passes. I can't see what I'd have to live for despite being ""successful"" a lot of other areas in my life.",2.9746224934612044,4.4665596107526895,4.2326416739319965,87.10085440278989,74.39784946236558,7.177564661435629,26.115954664341764,7.824948511530503,1.4219102005231044,1789,63,370,25,37,588,236,465,0.132,0.784,0.084,-0.9751,0,4,8,0,0,0,56.0,0,1,1,8,13,16,1,1,28,1,38,15,1,1,10,73,66,24,1,9,16,4,3,0,2,4,7,1,4,2,20,23,8,2,8,8,1,10,10,6,1,2,13,6,40,11,55,42,17,73,0,3,2,0,19,23,0,10,40,237,60,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13432629164233972,0.06092589184190603,0.07345254540903966,0.0,0.2847383855313573,0.0,0.0,0.1143794096181274,0.0,0.0,0.046739442512055966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048058319059729716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07590799871599302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1215739829019102,0.15007291971717066,0.0,0.0,0.07672653594137434,0.07018204403371286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07270829334592133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054876117412612335,0.07604955336894086,0.0754977852279172,0.13297744308410234,0.07085865156058573,0.05919791671264137,0.0,0.07133193536016806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2693208877559963,0.0,0.07032898017787663,0.0,0.0,0.1217505457708874,0.0,0.0,0.04539618274646283,0.06217113190703396,0.0,0.13135084761420662,0.0,0.0,0.06479347769629981,0.0,0.10425738875504363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05846256052540589,0.0,0.0,0.05310140649675872,0.0,0.035909115054671266,0.0,0.03906141590801522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12155720725560627,0.07316543635406855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14611569557382142,0.0,0.0,0.046068946057636506,0.0,0.13788561056254847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07424128323462302,0.2152119472800668,0.0,0.06109127815174175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07277621378650509,0.0,0.0,0.14564023128096296,0.0,0.06888652657287145,0.060690739515133964,0.1824743384476105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17529793616770115,0.0,0.0,0.04587848172697399,0.06968245463008017,0.0,0.14973643438870912,0.07634465589415043,0.0,0.06926469063309199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05486043507110665,0.21915055381048687,0.050525199371517004,0.050963171746675535,0.1060191814241446,0.0,0.07309620703417878,0.12899879059525746,0.0,0.06594925612308575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04657390997797621,0.05227302892914778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06561152447187052,0.047649427095198066,0.0600132653450437,0.0,0.0,0.06497301864275089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07310388756492515,0.0,0.0,0.04403084385746631,0.0,0.06786357889855375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10953942991921684,0.06257012857521671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11371000057944262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048648161411891266,0.0,0.0,0.05746220048670363,0.0,0.07185257294831006,0.0,0.0,0.07799513368842778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06007393067205431,0.0,0.07859989792646299,0.0,0.04566182786670783,0.04404005486459227,0.0,0.0,0.2404656218632163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04666384299520918,0.07475960039470518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15139499073707938,0.056710279918368973,0.04053932943818889,0.0,0.16539560713726673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.124038089083071,0.0,0.0,0.06625423930301864,0.0,0.050036992604797007,0.06979967518334187,0.0,0.19529814515150912,0.0,0.0,0.0442605158929197 alcoholism,jjlmc144,2019/08/21,"Please help. Young alcoholic. I am an alcoholic. I've been struggling for a long time now since my father's suicide. I discovered him shot in his office when I was only 20 on christmas Eve 2015. He set me up to find him, by only telling me where he would be. Since then, I've been using alcohol as a crutch to forget that image as well as drown my feelings of thinking that I'm not worth living for since my dad didn't see me as enough to stick around for. I've tried to go to AA meetings a few times but when I reach the parking lot I end up having massive panic attacks. I was wondering if there is anyway anyone could help me kick this terrible addiction once and for all. No one really understands exactly the nature of my acoholic addiction, on top of most people not understanding addiction in general. They normally boil it down to me being only 24, but I know its more than that. The things that ive done...the people I've hurt....the things I can't remember. I feel like 3.5 yrs have gone by in a matter of days. If your help is possible, can you let me know what i should do before It's too late?",2.9166715830875134,4.3994605,4.4482595870206465,85.53358898721733,74.53097345132744,8.031071779744346,24.502458210422805,8.680891452615391,1.6249083579154378,867,27,180,17,18,290,147,226,0.125,0.8009999999999999,0.073,-0.9305,0,0,3,0,0,1,27.0,0,2,1,1,9,6,1,2,8,0,20,7,0,1,2,30,33,12,2,6,6,2,2,1,0,2,6,0,0,0,11,2,4,0,10,0,1,2,5,4,2,1,6,3,27,2,30,21,6,26,0,0,1,0,15,11,0,5,13,119,38,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3684192307306388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3611695445700565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07876832182804534,0.0,0.0,0.10028343045632693,0.0,0.12815697603752452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09585785398814756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08994279786727441,0.0,0.0,0.0726506893960852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.115281265137844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0997755056736618,0.11639877880665835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11391963918119745,0.08047802294818944,0.0,0.0,0.1029611344061058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06402225961082078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2265231269223161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12059541427210912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12382028096295827,0.0,0.1270754337494797,0.0,0.0,0.11519346024728032,0.0,0.05503567457150031,0.0,0.09947305265023194,0.09969274621207057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09577200175401007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11037423478894864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11996982635803972,0.0763353525822689,0.2570288877873828,0.0,0.13217188348515144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15619628325708873,0.0,0.0,0.12365716320341975,0.0,0.12699727527111068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07216722821734131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12761182285732586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08976840261530793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2795586517365532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11776746879414098,0.0,0.12322210298529727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09846209349875397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14968087203347466,0.07218232519925524,0.0,0.0,0.13137561378264734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07648275417647718,0.0,0.0,0.23454769503516146,0.0,0.09729444718399592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10128693647025054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12216539545757768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08002416361356239,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,underd0g-,2018/11/11,"Can’t enjoy drinking without blacking out I’m 22. I honestly can’t drink unless I am getting blacked out. Then days after I will have intense anxiety about the things I have done. Today is awful as my friend is texting me about the stuff I did last night and I don’t remember any of it. Right now I just want to fall off the face of the earth. I don’t think I can see some of the people from last night I’m so embarrassed. I woke up to a bunch of drunken texts and calls to people I haven’t even talked to in years. I live in a smaller city so people find out about some of the things I do. I’m honestly so embarrassed and I don’t have any control over myself when I get to that point. I don’t want to stop having fun but I can’t without alcohol as it loosens me up. I’m also young and like to go out and have fun but can’t without getting belligerent. I don’t know what to do now. Every time this happens I won’t drink for a while but then when I do I get blacked out and continue the cycle of extreme anxiety, depression, embarrassment, then drink and repeat. ",1.6219911504424758,3.3050808893805304,3.384256637168143,90.92567699115044,78.60176991150442,6.6438938053097365,24.131858407079648,7.554174236665415,1.0148467256637177,835,29,186,12,20,279,110,226,0.096,0.802,0.102,-0.1633,1,0,5,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,1,13,11,0,3,10,1,26,6,1,1,0,30,42,23,0,2,8,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,0,8,12,5,2,4,4,0,2,14,4,0,0,3,4,25,7,37,37,3,36,0,1,4,0,3,13,0,2,22,133,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13205840726746554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09881862791784816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1680632386621625,0.0,0.18906093292882786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12617845851706375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13859390271470462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07969222050506565,0.0,0.10643038374081186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12645468443363522,0.0,0.4842049691111138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08161660778583305,0.0,0.1041127843543508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11294044825657533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09546962772458516,0.0,0.2582402292035725,0.0,0.07022749642913938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10927225933875537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06791066413494327,0.20145156256306912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060369903576350276,0.0,0.10911429075222856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2319235464281473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2570029703269345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11681328821948594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1399803582145689,0.10552783097685108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09846903580782976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10330978500608884,0.0,0.0,0.14145771904915755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09932062751134653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1641884083776491,0.07917846099141591,0.0,0.0,0.0720544737399232,0.0,0.11712960738402048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14576919690081838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35735028384723816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07957482209916708 alcoholism,honkhonkimagoose,2018/11/11,"Alcoholics out there: what is the reason you feel compelled to continue drinking/relapse with alcohol? Looking for honest answers... Hey Reddit community. Just curious if there are any alcoholics or people with addictions that can explain the reason why they need alcohol to get by. As a ""normie"" nursing student working in a detox unit, I am struggling with understanding why people need alcohol and why it's so hard to quit. I'm hoping to hear from people who have been out of control with alcohol in the past and what causes them to go back to drinking. Also, if you have been admitted to the hospital to before, what would be something you would want your nurse to do differently?",8.378397212543554,8.759580056910572,8.339279907084787,66.57073170731708,61.4390243902439,11.581416957026715,39.522648083623686,11.20814326018867,4.8526989547038335,549,27,85,14,7,178,84,123,0.037000000000000005,0.863,0.1,0.7179,1,0,9,0,0,0,16.0,0,4,2,3,6,3,0,1,6,0,12,9,0,5,0,28,25,8,0,8,4,0,2,0,0,2,8,1,0,0,6,8,7,1,7,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,4,7,2,22,20,0,8,0,0,1,0,11,4,0,4,3,64,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12227106323686812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.71919021386226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08969439055587902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0762727133753658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08624419281271173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09543998316937373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1152193174758948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12579708806613546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11718343127449578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10987419711153812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05671151603007382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058599022429963864,0.0,0.06374316892674774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1004734181122339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12641258299090788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11140028559257344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09418623482053308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1663305842953127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10706950556530392,0.2332730708798027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11929607122349127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23063852378341226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08634632376819967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11725408792275185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1167626184774544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06615493229023749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30362113156850984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08165388780849417,0.0,0.0,0.15935063243468714,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,zwickr,2018/11/11,"Functioning alcoholic Former “functioning alcoholics”, how did you break the cycle without completely falling off the rails? 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Serious Q. My dad was and I know I have the genes. I drank too much in college like everyone. But it was limited to one or two nights a week. After college cut out the binge drinking with the exceptions of maybe 1-2 events a year where I’d drink too much. Sundays I’d have a couple beers watching football. Lately, now in my 40s, I’ve begun enjoying a beer most nights. Some nights that beer becomes a bourbon. But rarely more than 1 except For Sundays when football leads to 2 or even 3. The reason I ask is...while I’ve been in control, and have a good marriage, career, and relationship with my kids, I find myself enjoying the feeling of intoxication more than I used to. I need to consciously stop myself from having a second drink. Is this normal? Is this the genetics?",2.5496153846153824,4.7982865256410285,4.048051282051283,84.56361538461539,77.97435897435899,6.98051282051282,25.784615384615392,8.021203637495839,1.7083030769230776,622,24,120,11,15,206,98,156,0.051,0.851,0.098,0.8290000000000001,0,0,7,1,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,3,6,6,1,0,14,0,10,9,0,4,0,26,16,8,0,2,6,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,4,6,8,3,5,6,0,1,0,2,0,3,4,2,13,4,19,12,6,20,0,0,1,0,5,5,0,4,15,82,17,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1732632409900549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15156579570556666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17905527713656713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1818379402166702,0.0,0.1793891827597199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4764648687707009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10708260288908887,0.0,0.0,0.15491820901299522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08197570722822932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14818010082592292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1359834811422255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08910013386710122,0.0,0.1828850341841137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07920650694136075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1628772197029712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23836232620742814,0.12021427247741237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4564324166956858,0.15884892230403197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10986068002716363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16669238829018296,0.0,0.1740625020136581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13554448025325072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15837340948838569,0.0,0.0,0.14002469064357922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13004758731657665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10440373970423804 alcoholism,novnat,2018/11/11,"Is it Alcoholism if it's Social? I drink too much, but I don't drink alone. Is that alcoholism or just normal? I feel like most people think it means that I don't have a problem, because ""that's just what it's like to be living the student life"". I go to parties or other social activities with alcohol involved 1-2 days a week, and more often that not, that means binge drinking to a point where I can't remember most of the night the day after. Once it got so bad that I had to go to the hospital, because I was throwing up blood, and I woke up with blood and bruises all over without any knowledge of what had happened. I didn't even remember being pushed in a wheel chair to hospital or yelling at my dad when he came to get me. &#x200B; Why do I think this is a problem? I think it's a problem, because: a) I don't want to fuck up my health and body, and that's what's happening right now. b) I often tell myself that I'm only having three beers, but then three beers quickly become 5 beers with drinks and shots on the side. c) I feel happy when I get drunk, and that's what makes it hard to stop. d) I often wake up depressed the day after, especially when I remember feeling happy without any reason - it was just empty happiness, caused by alcohol. e) I feel embarrassed because of the things I do when I'm drunk. It can be bad stuff, but most of the time it's just crazy fun stuff. I'm embarrassed because I lost control, and even though people think it's funny, I just get embarrassed by the quantity of it. In the beginning it was fun, but now I'm worried because I can't control it. &#x200B; I know that I'm not alone, and it's not that unusual for young people to get that drunk that often. I just think that it's absurd that a story where I almost died becomes a fun anecdote as soon as there's alcohol and other people involved. Last Friday, I tried to tell people out loud, that I didn't want to play that drinking game because it was too intense. I asked them if they wanted to play another game less heavy on alcohol (not even alcohol free) - but people just looked at me like I was some kind of weirdo and they just silenced my request to death as if it would go away, if we all forgot as quickly as possible that I had come up with such a ridiculous idea. &#x200B; I don't know what to do. Am I just being silly, or is this really a problem? 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Last night i did something bad, i drank three drinks, but i flushed half of the third drink in the toilet. I was tipsy and i feel awful and guilty about it. My 1.5 year streak is gone and i wish i never did that. God dammit. Well i can still say i havent been DRUNK in 1.5 years, because i wasnt drunk but i just wish i never did that. Looking forward to a future with no alcohol. FUCK alcohol. 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Im 31 and was an absolute miserable drunk for all my 20’s. Could barely stay sober for more than a couple days. This wasn’t some random slip, i saw it coming from a mile away. I just got out of a two year relationship and let the loneliness get the best of me. However, i will say that this break up has been surprisingly easy because me not drinking has allowed me to manage my emotions a lot better. But yesterday i allowed myself to get worked up and took the plunge. I knew for a fact I’d regret it the next day(today) but I didn’t give a shit. I wanted gluttonous euphoria just for one night. Instead what I got was a shit, poisoned feeling, buzz. It was as if i never quit drinking. It took me right back to my last bender in 2017. I assumed that having no tolerance would have provided me with a killer high, WRONG! Upon waking up today it was like I traveled back in time. All the anxiety, fear, guilt, and depression that I’d overcome in my sobriety returned with a vengeance. The dead look in my eyes returned. Unfortunately the shit i always hear in AA about people relapsing and it’s the exact same as before wasn’t shit, it’s the truth! I made it to two meetings tonight and feel a lot better. It sucks that I can’t say im a year sober anymore. But im relieved to know that the liquor still sucks and isnt going to work for me. Very glad i didnt need to go on a two month bender to learn this. Gotta be super vigilant though because having that clean time was a huge deterrent from drinking. I dont have that anymore. Anyways, just wanted you guys to know who have sober time and wanna dip in and try it again-it still SUCKS!! :)",2.4149627421758595,4.376157426229511,3.7594982613015406,87.86297317436663,77.19672131147541,6.731445603576751,23.65921510183805,7.686295010490155,1.1198371584699456,1422,46,291,21,33,466,197,366,0.193,0.672,0.135,-0.9840000000000001,4,0,5,0,0,0,40.0,0,1,0,8,14,23,8,3,25,0,26,16,6,3,7,51,54,17,1,8,8,0,2,1,0,3,1,3,2,1,22,13,9,0,8,8,0,6,10,14,1,5,19,8,31,9,42,29,8,56,0,3,3,0,9,17,7,6,32,188,53,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07243373799775919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06799184991921021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06251030227212796,0.0,0.16207488795791192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0767721527223621,0.12566466900978845,0.0,0.09962310171411873,0.0,0.06953183457420793,0.0,0.08575286323049934,0.14453720345549442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07038860526678607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06524126591882617,0.09041399735052504,0.0,0.10539638655827538,0.0,0.07037937828309827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09576715142054362,0.4002386758584922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09191624573242688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07391418235228482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09194996161146196,0.08263320298491017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06950512604335331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08538345038430467,0.0783866568543803,0.09287888220149397,0.0,0.13070687067196746,0.0,0.0,0.08090882165008273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09209660895500572,0.0,0.0,0.08633438262986726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2647925288835238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08981477192169238,0.13321417464654656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08355718690442257,0.0,0.03992089600147592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06861842889354508,0.0,0.0,0.13893912091176094,0.0,0.07731891644045208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13044524290903847,0.0,0.0,0.06058923256162242,0.0630221846398264,0.0,0.08690281502456261,0.15336442877603942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055370915236329386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05664957891651159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08691194627459356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08772929534423628,0.0,0.06978254587338018,0.0,0.12996308289912284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3355093153856369,0.06759392551092053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0870952984993893,0.13051238367692095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061438086233951174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08028271156035349,0.0,0.1429427073197813,0.0,0.15490893965591698,0.0,0.18157253429955986,0.1109556700870055,0.0,0.2394654929398299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06742186996697093,0.0963930138191558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11897622842965985,0.0,0.0,0.05804664589096231,0.08934045364509516,0.0,0.15786168318154764 alcoholism,BirdiePure,2018/11/11,"Should I get a new sponser or am I being dramatic ? Please help. Little things that don’t matter but I guess I’ll point out to start off the mood I had through out. - She gets super mad if I’m late or text ( look at my phone or whatever ) but she is always late and is on her phone!!!! [ yes this doesn’t matter cause I need to worry about myself ] and regardless I shouldn’t be doing that any ways. I’m just saying that it would be nice to lead by example. - I go to a meeting Sunday nights where she is secretary. One Sunday, I was on the freeway on my way to the meeting and an accident happened, long story short I called her to let her know I was going to be late or possibly not make it but that if anything I was going to try to go to a later one. ( I was stuck for about an hour ) she flipped out on me ! Went off and started saying it was too early in my sobriety to be doing this. Wtf ? I can’t control the freeway. And I promise you I have never missed a meeting since I started AA. Even the two times I relapsed I got my self to a meeting the next day. But she got so mad and was being so rude. Once I hung up I started crying cause I felt like a failure - When I share she wants me to share what I did to stay sober. One time I didn’t share about what I did to stay sober. Instead I shared about my thinking and thoughts. And I shared about my OCD. I didn’t elaborate on my ocd i just shared and basically said I feel double fucked cause of my thinking. But it’s okay cause that just means I have to go back to my psychiatrist and tomorrow is a new day. My sponser went off on me after my share. 1) because I didn’t share what I did to stay sober ( which I totally understand and accept, I should have stated what I did to stay sober ) but then she added and went off but stated she only is saying this cause she cares. Told me to get out of my self pitty and to get out of my head and to go to a meeting every day and go to detox. So I’m left confused and I said “ I do that, I go to a meeting every day and go to detox when I can, sometimes I do more than one meeting a day depending on how I feel “ ) which she already knows that cause I call her every day and I shared that in my share too. And keep in mind she is literally going off on me in the same room as the meeting ! The meeting was over of course but some people kept walking in and out and it looked like we were having an argument. But she didn’t drop the whole thinking and out of my head thing so I tried to explain to her what ocd meant or feels like. I gave the example of “let’s say I straighten my hair and I checked that I turned it off ten times, I leave my house and now I’m thinking I forgot to turn it off and I feel like my house is burning down. She replies with “ well think about it, think about it, is your house burning right now “ ... I found that extremely rude cause that’s like telling an alcoholic it’s just one drink you really can’t take one drink. She doesn’t have to understand my ocd or my thinking but she didn’t have to go off and be the rude to me. - One time I asked her what it meant to review your day, she went off on me and asked me who told me that. And that I wasn’t on that step yet. But she went off ! And was rude. And made me feel stupid for asking a question. I walked into AA September 4th got a sponser that same day. I relapsed on my 4th step once but by then it was the second time I relapsed with her. So she decided to start from step 1. I have 40 days sober now and know nothing about AA. All I know is pages 60-63 86–88. Please can someone tell me if I should get a new sponser ? I really don’t know if I’m just complaining being dramatic or selfish. My sponser only has 6months sober. If that matters And ironically I do like her a lot ! And that’s what is making this so hard. I like her as a person. She sponsors me and this other girl and it’s the first time I felt like I had people that understood me: but I think I want a friendship with her and i don’t see her as a sponser but I don’t wanna lose that friendship or that feeling of having friends that get you. I’m 22 and I’m so fukn lost. I feel so depressed: and I just know I don’t wanna drink again. 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I understand you. It was just a sickness. Now you are no longer sick. Rest in Peace.,-0.4248809523809561,1.168473892857147,1.4014285714285712,93.32690476190477,113.64285714285714,4.723809523809524,22.523809523809533,6.42735559955562,1.0341952380952386,111,5,22,2,6,36,24,28,0.263,0.569,0.168,-0.4939,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,3,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,2,3,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,6,1,2,2,1,3,0,1,0,0,6,1,0,0,2,17,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5189934157788837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4182745312718128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5478145741917592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5055605237462809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Lib2Lib,2019/05/26,"My friend is dead. Alone. In his shitty duplex. He was ""discovered"". You can figure out what that means. This is after he lost his wife of more than 20 years, all his friends, and literally every human contact on earth except one of his brothers. Know this: BEFORE you die of alcoholism, you will lose it all, and cause your loved ones so much pain. I will spend the rest of my life wondering if I could've done more to help him. Your life doesn't belong just to you. Get help while you still can.",1.5281168831168797,3.977589418367349,2.092708719851576,95.92696660482378,83.38775510204081,5.196289424860853,16.051948051948052,6.574015621080383,-0.438665306122449,385,7,83,4,11,118,74,98,0.18600000000000005,0.68,0.134,-0.7369,0,1,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,7,0,2,3,6,0,0,1,0,9,5,0,1,2,13,15,5,2,1,3,2,0,0,2,2,4,0,1,1,5,3,1,0,4,0,1,0,1,3,0,2,3,0,16,3,12,10,6,7,0,2,0,1,23,3,0,2,4,58,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.216336124270762,0.0,0.20965644694113944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1722530339931746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20795138840944874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616238959448069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21009039709401453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20715618863135124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17055601926683864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3127938565195391,0.0,0.1057613284013491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27136914544887475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1112502428251422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2859646138221135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264674083800849,0.22097627528502994,0.0,0.182700992891027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22050563188372488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14880935370139456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27434363562656755,0.0,0.21539980946679704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16166087231624726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21952671733237086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13035829341484356 alcoholism,GGodspeed,2019/05/26,"Has anyone fallen back into alcoholism? I used to drink heavily for about 2.5 years because of depression and anxiety issues. I managed to get myself together since then, but I recently got drunk alone again for the first time in a long time. And very drunk, the type of drunk I used to get and not the somewhat controlled tipsy drunk I only sometimes get with friends nowadays. I had a rough day and resorted to drinking. I figured I’d be able to drown the problems, but I only reminded myself of how addicting the temporary fix that is alcohol was for me. Since that recent night, I’ve been tempted to drink to get rid of even the most minor problems. It’s been nearly a week and I’m proud of myself for staying away from drinking aside from that one night. I guess the issue is that there’s slight temptations and consideration in my mind to drink again, and I have a constant fear or caving in. Anybody have any similar experience or any input at all? Thanks so much in advance",5.4424713584288025,6.67349676595745,5.9297872340425535,78.30653846153848,68.04255319148936,8.976104746317512,31.48281505728314,9.265573868473778,2.84201178396072,784,32,141,15,13,253,115,188,0.183,0.757,0.06,-0.972,0,1,7,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,4,8,7,0,1,11,0,10,12,0,4,1,27,20,14,1,2,5,0,1,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,5,9,11,1,2,9,0,2,1,4,0,2,5,1,15,3,29,14,4,27,0,1,0,0,1,8,0,5,16,96,20,2,0.10995370525090394,0.0,0.0,0.11986576849994544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350141437123676,0.0,0.11387887833744577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14954458008765525,0.0,0.0841142835604157,0.0,0.0,0.07688218726241826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10330512553786883,0.08454761230076595,0.0,0.06702675816755617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11882089360681013,0.12332242999221728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07091104364375174,0.0,0.09470296521586098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5385638566655497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07262338532013034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1075558221972412,0.0,0.12372848735694585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09352656551654254,0.0,0.0,0.08494995992488957,0.0,0.22978509128708455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08794002255127939,0.0,0.12112640262421047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22952620282496736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09730556910572874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11102189802543218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08082862479488964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20636820781941506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0745074763022707,0.16724949509406115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21042169270572586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21713203804285733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18190968242757266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10874702600210727,0.0,0.0,0.1171960199914626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10123059904884066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12822977951215386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18992939634598432,0.0,0.09072332211555967,0.0,0.0,0.08819823004701527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07080658120774957 alcoholism,theVincinerator,2019/05/26,"Decisions about moving out from a bad situation. I am a student who lives with an alcoholic stepfather and my mother and roommate. As a student I spend a lot of time studying at school or home which is normal but it’s a problem because my stepfather drinks around 15 beers a night for the past four years he and my mother have been married, and he likes to argue and start fights with me about me not working full-time. This has been my living situation for four long years and the emotional and verbal abuse against myself and my mother is unbearable at times. I’ve been diagnosed with OCD two years ago and that in conjunction with work and school living with an alcoholic can be much. My grandparents have invited me to move in with them the next state over and said I can go to school there and even lateral transfer my job and use there and my uncles car if need be. I know it’s my decision but as impartial observers what do you guys think I should do? Thank you for your time.",4.7087053571428585,6.112430197916673,4.938779761904762,84.08062500000005,69.9375,8.81904761904762,27.776785714285715,9.23628265651192,2.2145910714285715,786,27,155,16,14,247,116,192,0.09300000000000001,0.862,0.045,-0.8859999999999999,2,0,4,0,2,0,10.0,0,3,1,2,6,6,2,0,11,0,16,5,0,1,0,37,24,20,0,5,5,3,0,1,0,1,3,1,1,1,7,22,4,0,4,2,1,4,1,4,0,3,4,1,22,2,26,17,2,25,0,0,0,0,14,7,0,3,14,109,29,9,0.0,0.14972137143677966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11201458132318147,0.2700906255903616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11249127262601884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10550915128096404,0.07703067891490671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12825739510774192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1237891870415979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14214315134247218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08346261745680482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07181590644878284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1251208074166537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12675398316477007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12539735349484155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06944667189312143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061735353928440526,0.0,0.33474673434190233,0.1118286823849972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10743065240415492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26861111414419925,0.09289251060216724,0.09369773955740032,0.0,0.0,0.13439017107032927,0.11858460404009795,0.12381046479995535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12062929604318336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12091384314773372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12020165873936055,0.0,0.0,0.38366312275761133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2840781788662968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08944150455500459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11633953341740767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08096932450177352,0.0,0.0,0.22105261934877232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12343983929070056,0.0,0.0,0.10913843028075397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18398984759521644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2441239515914644 alcoholism,AK-TP,2019/05/26,"What the fuck do I do? This afternoon started good. We were discussing healthy drinking. We were enjoying ourselves. She knocked over her glass and i suggested she stop drinking and switch to water for the night. She insists shes fine. She knocks over her replacement glass. After a couple hours she gets upset and rants and I listen then tell her she needs to go to bed, she has work early in the morning. Her friend calls, she seems fine, I go to sleep because she's in a better mood. I wake up to her calling my name. Shes crying about how she cant go to work. We fight about how I should get her out of her responsibility. She hits me. I hit myself. In hitting myself, she tries to stop me, she gets hurt. I dont know how to defuse situations like this. She hit me a lot over me not getting her out of work.",0.7920121951219485,3.214076371951218,2.0701951219512202,94.82541463414637,87.10975609756098,4.743414634146341,19.785365853658536,6.2581,-0.0250575609756094,631,19,137,6,20,201,90,164,0.125,0.754,0.121,-0.1779,0,0,2,0,2,0,22.0,3,0,0,4,5,12,2,1,6,0,10,6,2,3,0,21,27,8,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,1,0,3,9,3,2,2,2,0,3,3,4,0,0,2,1,42,7,23,20,1,21,0,1,0,1,36,9,1,2,10,92,45,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0968798349437982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14055716167309407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3245624984665955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17584863328314734,0.1745727852447311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18626012768171255,0.31137401817955906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12278585927476972,0.14692455710156568,0.33212917236408873,0.0,0.27096398192659343,0.13329961673315746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15651012981873627,0.0,0.17013360588382448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08734159175507067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07764323232034863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13511323046128565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11784164012049625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14914131652625418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14468029208434915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17863952043122758,0.1590408080140721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11248866452268776,0.0,0.0,0.2657385605411285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13890835825660047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10790034459029704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3471001356365381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,amandabugpoopie,2019/05/26,"Hello, I'm a fucking alcoholic...maybe I might be an alcoholic. How do I know if I am? If I am, what do I do from here? AA groups sound horrible.",-2.4809375,-0.7630647187499964,1.6559999999999988,94.589,102.4375,6.3100000000000005,18.9,7.554174236665415,0.8713299999999999,107,4,27,3,5,40,22,32,0.14400000000000002,0.856,0.0,-0.594,0,0,2,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,2,0,7,2,0,1,0,5,10,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,5,0,1,8,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,3,0,20,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5075529198047722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4390626971500303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2610076600254699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4771283738982552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5038228833610344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,roonilwazlib_yo,2019/05/26,"One week sober :/ When do you usually start feeling better? I don’t think I’m having any withdrawals. Physically I feel alright. There are things that are much better. I don’t feel the need to take a nap in the middle of the day. My stomach doesn’t feel so nauseous all the time. I don’t have the mental drain of having to think about whether I have enough alcohol for the day or if I need to make myself get dressed and drive the store. Don’t have to worry about hiding my breath around other people, or having to make an excuse as to why I can’t drive. But otherwise, mentally, I’m the same. I’m just in a lull all day. At least when I drank I enjoyed my time for those few hours I’d indulge, even if I felt like shit the other 20 hours of the day. People who are sober, how did stopping affect your mental health?",1.9842800788954629,3.770413384615388,3.1176094674556185,92.77803155818542,77.87573964497042,5.6900986193293885,20.142406311637078,6.42735559955562,0.04292867850098636,638,15,139,5,15,205,97,169,0.077,0.8220000000000001,0.10099999999999999,0.4696,0,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,2,0,2,10,6,1,0,13,1,17,6,3,4,2,26,35,12,0,4,7,0,5,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,6,2,2,1,7,1,1,2,6,1,0,1,3,5,16,5,18,32,7,21,0,0,0,0,4,5,1,4,15,92,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15079563696569756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09595452364214033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12561112087207366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495873504186852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3639977007426112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1457965788317574,0.0,0.09319685594206248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28538261010375343,0.0,0.13548050669212106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07372022095884052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14998533585215088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2779150357773652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0689355433835848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18837399947168448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4265943304653811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1037265567805512,0.20925139905053305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09561469084565792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19564538355635192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14483966595782524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09987306017053826,0.0,0.0,0.11796798974888482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10609150302709598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09374221655402083,0.18082554085302416,0.0,0.0,0.16455597926201426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15540444469610007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11318389667189112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12732303929788466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14329641567432294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,sweetpotatoesforever,2019/05/26,Supporting someone My sibling has just been diagnosed as an alcoholic and is in inpatient detox right now. I’m not allowed to see her. Any suggestions on the best ways to support her?,4.73901960784314,7.183199176470591,5.488823529411764,75.89637254901962,71.94117647058823,10.415686274509804,37.80392156862745,10.504223727775694,4.8943450980392145,148,9,25,5,3,48,32,34,0.0,0.754,0.24600000000000002,0.8689,1,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,2,0,3,3,0,1,0,4,7,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,3,3,5,6,1,5,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,1,18,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3137893452619123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19967094376500494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3081349564194111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29801703741392593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2507489653579506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2339762754531039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2487823699770708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6663905735986949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2330610429993219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,earthwalker87,2019/08/04,"Bam Margera is in the middle of a meltdown on his Instagram if you need a reminder of the ugly side of addiction Seriously, it's a full on shit show. He's been posting nonstop for the last 3 days. It's quite sad really though I admit it's entertaining. He's rambling about stuff that doesn't make sense and is burning every bridge he possibly can.",4.342714285714283,5.521224985714286,5.884285714285718,77.8107142857143,70.57142857142857,9.028571428571428,31.142857142857146,9.3871,2.871942857142857,279,12,53,6,5,95,54,70,0.171,0.757,0.071,-0.7914,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,1,2,4,1,0,6,0,5,2,1,1,0,5,8,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,3,1,8,7,1,9,0,1,0,0,6,6,1,1,2,31,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32819510514672123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19415599395865413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2536523766311303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2454005429643566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2009569897215034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2232289560456512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3393950204088768,0.2883281012825425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32020975038825816,0.0,0.0,0.1928639637455933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3090293070676969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3446367019396507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2957856558408263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,stayfree207,2019/08/04,My wife hates me and I feel like I should just do everyone a favor and just dissapear. I have a beautiful little girl with this women. I was sober for a little over a year and things were going good untill a family vacation at the beach. There was alcohol all around me and I just gave up fighting. She looks so fucking drained of this and I see it everyday in her face. I feel like I should just leave and let her be happy but at the same time I feel like it will be the nail in my coffin. I would leave if I knew it was the best for our family. Its killing me little by little everyday and I just can bear this pain anymore. I feel like I'm worthless.,0.9620542231491136,3.0212561386861334,2.8687643378519314,91.924397810219,82.5036496350365,6.542022940563086,19.2747653806048,7.7094869923839395,0.5420473409801878,509,13,114,9,14,170,80,137,0.157,0.679,0.16399999999999998,0.0005,0,0,1,0,2,0,9.0,1,0,0,1,8,14,4,0,9,0,14,4,1,0,1,26,26,11,2,4,7,1,4,4,0,4,2,0,0,2,8,9,1,0,5,1,0,1,0,6,0,0,6,6,22,8,13,13,3,17,0,1,2,1,9,11,1,1,9,85,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14338548140521182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330592466105105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11943854211237932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1408017185130793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282038928213085,0.0,0.0,0.25296452123382634,0.0,0.2713587989532537,0.3834004357162243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12403675309787054,0.0,0.0,0.07625113456790669,0.11253429634190967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1428250206365131,0.0,0.13246376286476458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484377302570385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2841304515865675,0.0,0.13719653276926222,0.0,0.26219209714227026,0.5378889306002733,0.0,0.0,0.11266787307041642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1427649010496846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10691504157108772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0891356880016858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07823481759607295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09530955804238136,0.0,0.0,0.08640021041079254 alcoholism,Basi85,2019/08/04,I relapsed yesterday I had a great week of no beer. I don’t drink hard liquor but I love my beer. I promised my family I wouldn’t drink and I did. I’m super ashamed and guilty of it. I am not religious so AA does not do me any good... I need some strength to get through this.,-1.7491438979963585,0.17236060655737795,0.4008743169398912,104.26047358834246,98.67213114754101,4.67832422586521,18.25318761384335,6.42735559955562,-0.30372276867030923,211,7,56,3,9,69,44,61,0.15,0.55,0.3,0.9274,0,0,4,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,1,7,0,1,1,0,6,6,0,0,0,8,10,4,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,5,0,0,5,0,0,5,1,1,0,2,1,12,6,4,7,1,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,33,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.205432173726006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2643617856745755,0.0,0.0,0.5918681570416773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2847844187055719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15783002889594944,0.0,0.0,0.25337951750591864,0.0,0.33305628791976954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2706141131088229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2726488351005018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22399657739158596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2423191011900854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,xWakex,2019/08/04,"Halfway houses in Central Massachusetts I'm looking to get some suggestions for halfway houses and it seems like the community always has the best idea of what's around. I've done an interview for one, but I need to have some alternate plans. Anyone have any leads? Thank you",3.5070588235294125,6.543567450980394,4.15245098039216,80.43102941176474,80.37254901960785,7.321568627450981,26.14705882352941,8.344100000000001,2.2956117647058827,224,9,38,5,6,71,42,51,0.0,0.853,0.147,0.765,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,3,1,3,0,0,3,0,4,0,0,1,0,9,10,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,2,3,7,9,3,3,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,3,1,24,4,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21422230171146026,0.0,0.0,0.17507750720294424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1800177804681974,0.0,0.0,0.22918858939123835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2701820256606279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26346476601322616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13450905727028994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5941345590736583,0.0,0.2906341600804301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1257789902463554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2161964675893634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19089883381176398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17445745223715822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23437639705460794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23702899728954865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,cannibalcait,2019/04/22,"My mom is a functional alcoholic in denial. I want to help her. My mom has always drank but only limited it to 1-2 normal sized beers a night. In the last few years it’s gone up to 4 tall beers a night. She also takes anti depressants and pain meds (doesn’t abuse those) while drinking, which is causing her to have horrible memory. She lashes out, becomes suicidal and will even drive intoxicated. She has a lot of trauma and guilt from her life that she refuses to deal with. An example would be when my step father committed suicide. She didn’t even process it. She still hasn’t 9 years later. I’ve looked into inpatient treatment, but our insurance won’t cover it. I’m looking into AA, outpatient, etc. But all I can think is what’s the point of looking if she won’t even try it. I can’t force her to get help. I’m trying to show her I’m supportive and that I love her but she’s just so angry and stubborn. Mostly just looking for advice on how to get her help and maybe a better insight to alcoholism. I personally have never liked alcohol and the effects, definitely prefer marijuana, which probably doesn’t help her whole process.",2.6270698051948043,4.970202437500003,4.289837662337664,82.44152597402598,78.19642857142857,7.822727272727272,24.913961038961038,8.710501217029153,2.0413285714285716,902,33,172,21,22,302,137,224,0.212,0.665,0.12300000000000001,-0.9819,0,0,6,0,1,1,27.0,1,0,0,3,10,9,1,1,9,0,18,11,0,3,3,35,34,17,2,5,7,3,0,1,0,4,6,0,0,1,11,11,7,3,4,4,0,3,8,5,1,0,3,4,25,4,21,26,6,22,0,1,4,1,28,9,0,3,11,114,36,0,0.0,0.13407978080269353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11058168140901543,0.0,0.3628108485298247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0904964981967245,0.09416077284274776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12497976424091335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1000835747083679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11624968620182805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11666619745311747,0.09746722083901213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1108567661717518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12620678098730986,0.22422950070062803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182461086986104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3034033890764494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09224303834380287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0799304512364995,0.05528577946533969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3801140462304626,0.0,0.0,0.09620722938623168,0.10213412497408103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11368755416891065,0.0,0.12569870443303194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2650705335185274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08727836673035963,0.0,0.0,0.21239182574525486,0.11087582101441827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0860656444937585,0.12041352765169105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0988096627631242,0.0,0.0,0.1069757165166918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12200897237149005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09037220583915864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475641504875194,0.12841615620495153,0.0,0.0,0.08508457541076159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07251035157344979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15366064696124018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06674653424372373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12634257104750596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08038782654857657,0.0,0.0,0.14574666530663882 alcoholism,FoolOfATook26,2019/04/22,"A family friend who I’ve known for 16 years is killing themselves with alcohol and I can’t help them anymore. Me and my brother have known this guy, Michael, for 16 years when we moved on to the street he lived on. He’s mentally disabled and physically after being ran over and dragged about 75m down the road when he was about 3 years old. He’s now 35. For the past 3 years his depression and general outlook on life has gotten so bad, he spends what little money he gets on alcohol and then only works to drink. It’s been a few months since I last saw him as I don’t live at home anymore but was down at my mom’s house to help my brother move into his new place. Me and my partner came back from the shop today and Michael was walking down our street and stopped to talk to me (he no longer lives in the street too but often walks around to see who he can con alcohol out of). We were talking for a while and he just seemed to have some sort of seizure, he started trembling and shaking and his face contorted and he threw up a little bit. I asked him if he was okay and if he needed an ambulance and he said no, so I let him in for a drink and to get out of the sun and he told me it happens when he goes a few days without drinking and asked if we had any alcohol, I said no and even if we did I didn’t want to enable him, but I’ve also heard that going cold turkey is quite dangerous for addicts too and to wean them off it? Anyway, that’s for another discussion. I gave him a lift home to make sure he got home okay and spoke to his mom about it who said that they’ve been happening more frequently but he refuses to go to counselling which was organised for him or anything else. He always says he’s got nothing else to do, he can’t have a relationship with anyone, he can’t work because of his disabilities. I told his mom she’s responsible for him, if she can’t cope with his drinking he will have to be taken some where where someone can help him. I feel so guilty that someone who’s had such no chance of a real life is just throwing what little he has away for his next drink, but I get how he feels, I’ve battled and still battle with severe mental illnesses and know first hand how easy it is to fall prey to coping mechanisms, I just don’t think he’s even aware of what it’s doing to him or he just doesn’t care. It’s gotten that bad now that the people in my family actively avoid him when they see him, my mom has told me she’s drawn the curtains and locked the door if she sees him walking past our fence. A lot of other people take advantage of his drinking by working him to the bone just for a few cans of beer and he seems happy to do that. It’s just heart breaking, he’s not getting the help he needs and his own parents seem to think he’s capable of making his own choices. This is a guy who, at 25, couldn’t count the change in his pocket even though he only had 2 coins. I’m not trying to belittle him, because he’s generally a great guy, but I’m so scared that he won’t live to see the end of the year.",5.181981781826259,4.3432251275272185,5.815603643634753,86.08908864696737,68.33125972006219,9.152614974450124,28.94685625416573,8.329178653251315,1.6745100111086426,2379,68,544,29,35,776,281,643,0.09699999999999999,0.807,0.096,-0.2615,1,1,11,0,0,0,41.0,6,0,3,7,36,19,4,4,28,2,44,19,4,4,1,93,94,55,1,10,23,7,3,0,2,2,8,6,5,4,28,39,11,4,10,8,4,13,17,11,0,1,31,15,62,8,80,57,10,76,0,1,5,0,111,32,0,16,30,332,90,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06515487435687793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25549107467951593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047795664750733116,0.04973094894432944,0.0,0.0,0.040643623481076176,0.06267093224247551,0.0,0.0,0.11854564904132052,0.041790490429860334,0.0,0.0491831654428866,0.05320531964496585,0.1117481925427387,0.0,0.056153083228631766,0.0459571496146787,0.09980593139941654,0.07286684199514314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06525010693181832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0683575494077369,0.060936460726751226,0.0,0.06322558293118316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03854478386067192,0.0,0.05147724723314991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.351293559654261,0.0,0.0,0.09985535308706872,0.0,0.05293584042697015,0.0,0.0,0.11842666021633308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11268605571573287,0.0,0.06044000278903889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05083779715860592,0.0,0.0,0.04617585182820996,0.0,0.12490320580475435,0.0,0.06793395023458333,0.0,0.09560229233039506,0.06589335116645555,0.0,0.17753624074387558,0.10570355779989554,0.06362310475218798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0708242071337419,0.16024229619372268,0.0,0.17985358418803282,0.0,0.0,0.0689631172555297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06612335303178815,0.0,0.03284639145862028,0.04871809875654392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061115827864856836,0.08443042828839155,0.0,0.17970676789040155,0.21110149655763807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05081178359349647,0.0,0.0,0.07978990064819844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1204621987478122,0.0,0.0,0.2799936485455756,0.047705465602482296,0.1270457685703784,0.0,0.08863297688409619,0.0,0.05772336089129974,0.06356290441045892,0.0,0.0,0.057348068155335136,0.0,0.06271543418550286,0.0,0.0,0.0909110246859994,0.0,0.0,0.0663642033848184,0.0,0.11410876781280713,0.08286985337690674,0.0,0.06244381572610246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06356958323637155,0.0,0.06802795406630968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06416741290125631,0.0,0.0,0.17055636919526382,0.04752913362398339,0.05983721402426472,0.0,0.19050630930482365,0.16322895248382596,0.0,0.0675197212297671,0.0,0.04943989702478509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10128080514286644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042303404773420636,0.0,0.04773001982555178,0.04996790538041361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056329709566676676,0.0,0.04493736136564037,0.09607693438753688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07659258698007475,0.05872079424907994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05665214711912125,0.17132984822107136,0.0,0.04057788375178266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03525213723796679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05761327503130625,0.0,0.13053330837419772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.192440008518074 alcoholism,stonedstudentquit,2019/04/22,"My mum drank 6.5L of gin and 1L vodka in 2 weeks When I realised the quantity she had had (my dad doesn't drink) I talked to her about it. At first she was defensive and aggressive. But when I talked to her about why I was concerned (was she trying to kill her self,obesity etc) and got emotional and I started crying. This completely changed her attitude and now she wants to work through quitting. My question is, can she do it cold turkey? Just wondering because I don't know how bad the withdrawal is",3.005151515151514,5.147632141414147,3.8373737373737375,87.1427272727273,76.07070707070706,8.036363636363637,28.171717171717173,8.841846274778883,2.3080383838383844,398,17,80,9,9,127,67,99,0.096,0.836,0.068,-0.6956,0,0,2,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,3,7,4,3,0,2,0,11,2,0,1,0,13,17,9,1,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,5,2,1,3,2,0,0,2,4,0,1,7,1,18,0,10,10,1,8,0,0,0,0,14,2,0,2,6,57,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18055966075196764,0.1318239516052168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2287637547154149,0.0,0.2267339397486528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23754039637907656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21184260650028955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2432520674559052,0.0,0.0,0.2411758376655199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18394208199110884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17295482571276805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2392485100594343,0.0,0.11884530739882412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422494153612571,0.2300084217914591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255958418056356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15306281515422346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3476270084526083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1468195090516933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275498129464137,0.0,0.17346265174154446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19513192842643032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2345138270361078,0.15743252627979515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,mise_me_fhein,2019/04/22,"A drink will make me feel better My kid was out on his skateboard today, taking unnecessary risks, took a corner and nearly got knocked down. He’s 10 I saw it but was too far away to get to him. Thankfully the car stopped in time, everyone’s ok but we’re all shocked, the driver especially. Neighbours were out too and saw it. He’s ok, brushed himself off but learned a lesson. I can’t stop ruminating on it, image of it is on repeat in my brain. Trying to think logically and in a normal sequence but the image of him, the drivers face, the neighbours shouts stop any rational thought. I know a drink will give me relief, slow down my panic and I’m so so tempted. I’m trying so hard to sit with the feeling and get through it, logically I know I’ll feel better soon but my whole body wants me to have a big glass of red - to numb me. I’m 71 days sober and this is the first big test. I won’t drink but I feel like every cell is screaming at me to. Writing this has made me feel a little bit better, does anyone have any strategies to get me through tonight?",1.3706922435362792,3.4920252018348634,2.8892243536280238,91.99745621351126,81.38532110091742,5.431526271893245,22.753127606338616,6.574015621080383,0.4727633027522935,826,28,179,8,22,270,123,218,0.111,0.767,0.122,0.5268,0,0,3,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,5,6,13,0,2,14,2,13,7,3,2,1,37,38,15,0,2,6,0,6,1,2,3,1,2,0,1,7,9,3,3,13,3,0,2,2,5,0,1,9,12,21,8,28,26,3,33,0,0,3,0,12,19,0,0,12,104,28,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776637456584663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09133849822875932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1227297942728379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3465909307444197,0.14261251100704453,0.14509883727927286,0.0,0.14582462941473245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08424458856961205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11431389786720655,0.0,0.0,0.3838986554860888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11006016179724216,0.12482114852212353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33024852250527226,0.093321040564432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1111125521132314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2047440301277061,0.12531077908241878,0.0,0.0,0.10447556033520214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11701749558246295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1435800363769194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06381849641714397,0.13092409406874053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12360386379228605,0.08719555123742913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12798821423134066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1532644223645493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32763387484603224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09821638988395044,0.0,0.0,0.12026519043167952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08370148086628992,0.0,0.1037044532833764,0.07617054031558691,0.0,0.12382056267035207,0.0,0.14513309181762607,0.17737638037101114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0770480853789964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458420772159493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Doodie716,2019/04/22,"Need it to sleep How do you sleep without it? If I don't drink vodka, I'll be up till 8am! I hate this addiction it's like a job nowadays. What's your cure?",-2.454324324324322,-0.7292980540540519,0.6905945945945966,103.29156756756758,97.1081081081081,4.0410810810810815,15.508108108108113,5.6839178017228535,-0.979611891891892,120,3,33,1,5,42,30,37,0.129,0.7979999999999999,0.07400000000000001,-0.4314,1,0,2,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,3,4,2,1,0,4,5,3,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,4,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,2,19,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3476842705014616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3124331224277775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3148805116643806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31649199443734705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15581465435721029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2364849308244183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6383270708555894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3074402291184103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,rodbroad,2019/04/22,Day one All I can do is lay in the dark and think about how much I hate alcohol and never want to drink it again. I am so alone.,1.2989999999999997,1.2382288999999993,3.240000000000002,98.55000000000004,76.66666666666666,7.333333333333332,18.33333333333333,7.1686216300943375,-0.3416666666666668,97,1,28,1,2,33,27,30,0.239,0.7609999999999999,0.0,-0.7607,0,1,2,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,1,0,4,2,0,1,2,7,7,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,3,7,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,21,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4063163838306325,0.0,0.3937708029810337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2451964666624371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3724496155772594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3753671333271628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2794895151234615,0.0,0.29323238679514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25763222469313896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24361573498420355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2242508227389008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,murglesnouter,2019/04/22,"Alcohol and autism So i have autism. I did use ALOT of drugs before i met my wife and we have a pretty good life together. But theres me and i still drink 3.5% beers, up to a twelve of them each evening. I have tried to stop it for years now and i dont seem to find out how. Theres days where i feel like complete shit and very autistic so on those days i usually dont drink. But i dont have many intresst besides computer games and nature so it like it has become something i do just because im bored. I know theres better things to fill my downtime with. I have been an addict for various drugs for around 20 years. I need to get this right as it ruins my health (only thing i use now is alcohol and pregabalin (prescription). I know what harm im doing to myself. Do anyone have any good tips for me? Inspiration?",0.8378947368421059,2.953664982456143,2.4682163742690086,94.28723684210527,83.3859649122807,5.905263157894738,19.441520467836245,7.1686216300943375,0.26755204678362565,636,17,144,9,18,208,103,171,0.085,0.7929999999999999,0.122,0.7476,0,0,8,0,0,0,18.0,1,0,1,1,14,10,1,0,4,0,16,11,1,3,0,27,25,14,0,1,3,1,1,2,0,0,7,0,0,0,9,12,5,1,6,4,0,1,3,4,0,0,3,1,23,6,18,22,3,16,0,1,0,0,5,6,1,2,11,94,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13519554687054353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2650703873101227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08433500881648938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08671474334685389,0.0,0.0,0.1104003707600413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07559889148357274,0.13696572737905638,0.10552832678736633,0.0,0.0,0.10968191284313757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1300282255081708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15995988587154242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4360368446693229,0.24297657634136366,0.2876379525618782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0819112780639261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06270612375955499,0.0885969250462022,0.0,0.0,0.11334821077205562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0647931462585778,0.0,0.0,0.20803716823130086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13182301512547134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679167289821405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13631170038480314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08759603972560145,0.12117572863382788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12573257423998166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09195615753147936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09431961783598868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12616867123711542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10590883082656433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11289934285541944,0.0,0.0,0.12730045486011962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09547343543981583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09903919232676983,0.10368277677704506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1647811975815726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08419859970296277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2142196969754485,0.13658590253072195,0.10232603770718034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597242413445105 alcoholism,throwayxx1,2019/04/22,"Do I need to tell my insurance company about a DUI conviction in Alberta? I wasn't not sure where to ask this but figured someone here might have some idea. Ok so last year I was involved in a collision (minor, no injuries) and received a DUI for which I have since been convicted. I'm in recovery, it was a terrible relapse, but now I'm back on the wagon with several months sober. I originally talked to my insurance company while I was still being charged with the DUI and I did tell them over the phone that I had been involved in an accident and that liquor was involved and I was being charged with a DUI. Then my insurance renewal papers come in the mail and I notice it has barely gone up (about a month ago, after I had already been convicted for a few months). It seems to note that there was an accident but no mention of DUI charges. So i guess my question is do I legally have to reach out to tell them that I was convicted with a DUI at this point or is that something they should just find out on their own eventually? How dangerous is it for me to not say anything and just wait? Has anyone encountered this situation before? I've received conflicting views on this and thought I should go get a second opinion.",6.173491404860696,6.195018622406639,6.6447332542975746,78.08366182572618,66.0954356846473,10.703141671606405,35.056609365738,10.451354775682146,3.572481683461767,972,43,191,23,14,317,130,241,0.153,0.818,0.028999999999999998,-0.9862,0,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,4,0,13,4,1,0,15,1,29,1,0,2,1,40,41,16,0,3,8,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,14,14,1,2,6,1,0,5,5,2,0,1,16,2,24,2,31,20,3,33,0,0,1,0,19,15,0,7,13,145,38,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1445106218717946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17990064219221835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11398992059822087,0.0,0.1341545664081967,0.0,0.1524050981923839,0.0,0.0,0.12535511743491382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13872111162503287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14043043201920918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490006548733653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08517312411087427,0.0,0.0926500923237613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17958892051749875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18403384790399416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13288602626655716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1729423211780268,0.0,0.0,0.3903717458344954,0.0,0.0,0.12087996447851017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185603496317136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15411003507860835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18262378814973854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12964294297989182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14841060044661364,0.0,0.1841703120166251,0.0,0.13485484085663327,0.18324540342534693,0.0,0.0,0.1381294023784661,0.1255035638114337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13019089065723466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1536478527717479,0.0,0.0,0.13103222778082638,0.42746954458517056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1294225614028311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10498188016105332 alcoholism,endoftether1,2019/10/03,"I’m losing my mind, I’ve lost myself.. I’m drinking and disgusted with myself, as is the cycle. I can go a few days without the beast, but the bloody thirst is always there. In my sober moments I have so many regrets, and as soon as I’m free I attempt to drink them away. It’s destroying me. My brain is rotten, my memory is diminished if not gone. I used to be witty and acerbic and now I’m an anxious, paranoid shell. I’m finding it hard to function without this toxic crutch. All motivation is gone and when I pass out I sincerely hope I won’t wake up again. Yet I’m summoned back to the world multiple times a night, draped in my sweat stained clothes and sheets, lingering nightmares clawing at me. I’m reduced to this shell, dependent on this fucking toxic demon... it’s a living hell. I don’t know how to escape it, and I want to, more than anything I want to.",2.0897245762711885,3.981019706214688,3.7243749999999984,88.06418961864406,77.92655367231637,6.4588983050847455,26.31673728813559,7.413659706084162,1.3690567796610171,676,27,139,9,16,225,111,177,0.187,0.705,0.10800000000000001,-0.9434,0,0,2,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,1,4,9,11,4,0,8,0,10,7,4,4,1,26,27,15,0,5,5,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,7,9,3,0,3,2,1,4,5,8,0,0,3,2,20,4,22,22,3,22,2,3,0,1,1,8,2,3,10,89,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16296517767318575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22125786055219893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16117012574809572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18401010597033068,0.15059867569977814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2186364417106152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12630882143955516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3837222667155659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17900586558805084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810627117085984,0.0,0.0,0.11130763141492983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17544559485403768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19452597253998385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10763554956430042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17294156668969818,0.0,0.0,0.2191091303747196,0.2137964127265799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19856394848352146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1977554464439256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1837945387125909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11420331369683145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16915389321943275,0.0,0.0,0.2310380529748505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3775901245046125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,lavender-peach,2019/10/03,"Trying to help my dad Hello, I was looking through post on this and I couldn’t see anything like this so I’m not sure his is the right place sorry if not. So my(F20) dad(M52) has been an alcoholic for 10+ years (after his mother died) , he only admitted it 2 years ago when he got a DUI, he’s been in and out of rehab for this past two years and also got another DUI on his way back from rehab. He’s been sober for a few months and it’s been lovely but the past few weeks have been hell for my family, he started drinking again and my mother moved out, I’m really worried about him as he did try to take his own life but a lovely couple stopped him (I am so grateful to them). Me and my father have never had a good relationship as I was trying to get him to stop drinking from about the age of 10 this caused a lot of tension and we’re not that close but we have grow closer since he became sober. After his attempt last weekend I decide to go see him, I was wanting some advise on how I should approach him and how I should speak to him. I understand depression and suicidal feelings as I myself have had to deal with that but obviously it’s not mixed with alcoholism so I’m worried I will say the wrong thing. I would just like some advise from people who have been through alcoholism before because I really want to help him and I know he can get through this. Thanks so much for any advise!",3.00032714690154,4.245550795847755,4.150482856244103,88.70297499213589,73.9134948096886,7.053853413022964,23.51698647373388,7.520522993642371,0.8791854671280279,1096,30,235,13,22,358,151,289,0.13699999999999998,0.764,0.099,-0.9279,0,0,5,0,0,0,23.0,1,0,1,1,14,11,1,1,10,0,26,10,0,3,3,48,48,27,2,7,10,4,1,2,0,4,6,2,0,0,12,16,5,2,5,3,0,4,6,4,0,1,14,6,34,7,38,29,7,36,1,1,3,2,40,10,1,4,22,160,46,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09715386764065256,0.351387496783286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0876471530491904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07453182012004365,0.11492525145614672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09019153623028567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08427570464788861,0.0,0.06681119810622074,0.0,0.09326160487870072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11258948402956838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12127041588999544,0.0,0.0,0.11299288113460462,0.09439839764391388,0.0,0.113747590671568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2147327276702408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1033212114878572,0.0,0.05541709904414638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11452304777637715,0.0,0.06228825736078166,0.09192735625745813,0.1753144096109062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14692526124170588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06023334363694888,0.08933870216576245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07741378542169812,0.10709013654227348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09203647281932686,0.0,0.0,0.09317807789781217,0.19783672211688794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08748174686448983,0.1164875515406361,0.08056867751719364,0.0,0.08453034668888519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0833558078548358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20925137643556324,0.0759829030516654,0.0,0.11450876774001133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10496659076358368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14042524932863398,0.0,0.0,0.11766948087568425,0.0,0.09359787873462884,0.0,0.08715839126335816,0.0,0.0,0.1746741648594831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0906623277208648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12268832860639138,0.07757550840677402,0.0,0.0,0.18326116702278525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11988471056694312,0.0,0.10329678855510063,0.0,0.08240562841383316,0.0,0.0,0.10090503841102134,0.0,0.0,0.07281343032784415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2232338020290972,0.0,0.1070633632368919,0.11409755982167034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12928994643848934,0.08699545064633298,0.08791458189815084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22260842473080125,0.0,0.07785675995416451,0.1198304940255872,0.0,0.21173659536699832 alcoholism,pinkish98,2019/10/03,"Do I have a drinking problem or am I just a college student? I’m 21 and a senior in college and I party a lot. I’ve been told I drink too much by family and friends but then other people say I’m just in college. I’ve blacked out probably 100 times in my life and only just started drinking regularly 2 years ago. All of my friends drink, my family drinks, and my boyfriend drinks. I’m just the one who can’t handle their alcohol. Moderation is very hard for me. I’m afraid of getting sober though because a lot of the things I do with my friends revolves around drinking. Should I wait until I graduate to get sober? Should I try moderation again? (Any tips on that btw?) should I start seeking help now? Anything would help. I’m hungover and helpless.",1.6019647058823523,4.090981886666668,2.9551764705882384,89.59111764705881,83.46666666666667,5.662745098039216,26.823529411764717,7.048011613610866,1.3726941176470593,593,27,119,8,17,192,93,150,0.054000000000000006,0.807,0.139,0.9242,0,0,8,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,1,0,9,6,0,1,7,0,11,9,0,0,1,24,22,11,0,5,6,0,1,0,3,4,2,1,0,0,4,9,8,1,0,7,0,0,1,3,0,1,2,3,16,3,14,16,4,16,0,1,1,0,9,6,0,3,10,74,20,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09988606247291094,0.1204231126982898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07662782986948555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09272793395881747,0.10031113942890232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06869008584003676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7727003062434604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21245369301457545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26117420261149576,0.0,0.11774370472918558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100941210149691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510571445031894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07959084280099919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19159692837822087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08283445786850781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0763564445431403,0.08569996885419069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0781197206596438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12149058074998542,0.10782174559621213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08960948983494048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1595142276321386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07486111492231208,0.0,0.11070979027287307,0.0,0.06570595686516689,0.0,0.0,0.10767276911355914,0.0,0.07650388686538025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09297470076402344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08004627481722633,0.0,0.0,0.07256370849745343 alcoholism,THE_FINAL_PAM_,2019/10/03,"I said something unbelievably shitty to my husband tonight And almost every major bad decision I've ever made in my life has had alcohol heavily involved. I hate it. I hate me. I want to change so unbelievably bad. I hate hurting those I love. I hate myself. I wish I could have posted this on stop drinking, but I'm not there yet. I need to be soon though, I think, or else it's the end of many things",0.33312638580931164,2.745697634146346,2.5709312638580957,89.9076607538803,90.95121951219512,5.420842572062083,20.869179600886927,6.980632752743323,0.6990829268292682,314,11,65,5,11,106,61,82,0.242,0.6890000000000001,0.069,-0.9014,0,0,3,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,6,8,4,0,1,0,5,4,0,1,1,14,17,5,0,4,3,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,5,1,2,1,2,1,0,0,1,7,0,0,3,1,15,1,6,12,1,9,0,1,0,1,4,2,0,2,6,42,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17384691575026764,0.16289252831629872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2716486807867731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1720854257298282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12988036980074674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15935664796492488,0.0,0.0,0.13589159759977062,0.0,0.14407912452395227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471461536227546,0.1370581913313422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6424197595748244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17414375996007056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11490005724718827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14681784757715236,0.15392419687830045,0.0,0.16492389408545316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12061924029552235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15579482674926132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15473834083821494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12523286705636796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13600109119714113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10807206064733384,0.10423366086289093,0.15982443196364332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09594817102888076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18706479283642397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,joeyjoeyjoeyboobz,2019/10/03,First post ever I can't stop drinking. My gf doenst deserve this. I hate my life. I wish I could just start over or not at all. 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I went through postpartum depression and drank a lot. I got better. However, I'm drinking a lot more. I can't seem to go a day without having a drink. It's true, I went Sunday-Wednesday last week and felt like I was going to lose it. When I'm out with friends or with my husband and child I can't just have one drink. Drinking helps me get rid of all my anxiety and stress. Even though I run, watch my favorite shows, hang out with my family and friends, a drink cures everything. My marriage is now suffering and I feel like a awful parent. I keep telling myself, ok, don't drink for a month. But I know I won't be able to make it. Any help/advice you can give me would be much appreciated. 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We would drink on occasion, but nothing too serious. Fast forward a few years and now we have a child and she had a gastric sleeve surgery. I was against the surgery, but she insisted that she needed it. Well now there has been a transference of addiction from food to wine at first and now vodka. Last year she went on vacation with our child and got into a wreck (backed into a pole). She was shitfaced drunk and didn't even remember doing it, with our child in the car not in his car seat (6yo at that time). After that, she drank at least a box of wine a week, blaming it on how stressful her job is. Until we had an incident on NYE where I fucked up and pushed her down. That caused her to stop drinking for a couple of weeks. Now she's drinking heavily again and I'm pretty sure lying to me. I think she drunk 80% of a fifth the other night, and I'm almost positive she drove home drunk last night with our child and the neighbor and their child all in the car. Im asking our child when he gets up. She says the neighbor drove. Idk what to do. I am a pothead. I smoke daily and she always likes to throw that in my face whenever we talk about her alcoholism. I needed to get that off my chest. Any advice would be appreciated. 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I’m very scared and nervous. I’d just like some advice for some of the beginning steps. This just seems surreal and I am (somewhat) aware of the mental and physical challenges that will come along with it. I’m considering moving back home with them so they can help me along the way. I’ve been selfish because of alcohol and messed up relationships with friends, jobs, and family over the past few years. I’m really needing some insight on what helps cope with the first few steps to a brighter life.",3.5079411764705877,5.052155431372547,4.190343137254903,87.72904411764708,73.11764705882355,7.975816993464052,27.782679738562088,8.59863814320734,1.8834013071895421,603,23,127,11,12,192,102,153,0.094,0.7959999999999999,0.11,0.1137,1,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,1,0,2,2,5,7,0,2,9,0,6,3,0,0,0,32,23,12,0,4,3,1,0,1,1,1,3,0,1,0,6,18,1,0,3,0,0,7,0,4,0,1,2,0,11,3,23,19,7,23,0,0,0,0,13,4,0,7,12,77,17,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1661322852601104,0.0,0.18168951257088745,0.17024094988111535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589368603911995,0.0,0.0,0.13072757430939372,0.0,0.10363681800849132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19444671165928348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14644898519299174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13573954406831604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11229032662996996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1602707614127772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14461083773687394,0.0,0.0,0.13134968447311687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19324176111622052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34186334757718445,0.0,0.1705343853922147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16870918036756974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09343332030389324,0.13858124206585445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401668767664239,0.0830585388821422,0.0,0.0,0.15045393559708795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17133058915002594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18069424769300169,0.0,0.25212125140541025,0.0,0.16419719268000768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16229425180492005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10891307461161677,0.0,0.0,0.1825276438730932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17021016116991075,0.0,0.0,0.1547711668672792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12033430135300115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.127826731998159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14027646092791488,0.0,0.1349464152980252,0.1363721618939644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.109481182904397 alcoholism,esthvela,2019/03/02,"Mixing alcohol I recently lost my alcoholic father to suicide. I don’t want to get into the specifics but we had a complicated relationship and he was extremely absent and abusive to say the least. I knew he mixed Valium/ diazepam, NyQuil, Zoloft and alcohol regularly and I was wondering if someone could tell me how that feels. I feel so lost and I want to understand how he felt and what he thought. He needed the NyQuil to sleep and every time he tried to quit the Valium he would have attacks and insist he needed it to survive. Maybe he did I don’t know. Anything helps really.",2.9685135135135137,5.685351009009015,4.49497747747748,79.31111486486489,79.45045045045045,8.384684684684682,27.268018018018022,9.075114841892004,2.8296180180180177,466,20,83,13,12,155,72,111,0.149,0.799,0.052000000000000005,-0.9245,0,0,3,0,0,1,10.0,1,0,0,4,3,3,1,0,5,0,9,5,1,2,0,28,24,13,1,7,2,1,3,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,3,10,3,0,8,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,9,4,10,0,8,13,1,3,0,2,0,0,15,1,0,2,2,49,13,1,0.0,0.18848725818916426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5100338147278433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1309116963489099,0.0,0.0,0.18097979842185896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1270147746210176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13403422941143064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1608742182654754,0.0,0.152744559988302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08311426483064185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10662993441284647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08742781775161718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3473156198574094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15982018502151055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359159531898107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16920427757604287,0.0,0.0,0.10191259827802507,0.0,0.15707520111097298,0.17079553130794525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12650913077026413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15919781742833866,0.0,0.13479045003958445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17401090482087353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13904549236852393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12629407639776305,0.09276253558358688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10800686674718764,0.0,0.0,0.1656109401151375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18766246719544025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.172518651170151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11300794890338092,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,CorporateMisfit,2019/03/02,"Am I an Alcoholic? Need an honest opinion here guys. Sorry for the long post to those that don't have the time. I'm a 32 year old male with a corporate career - I make decent money, am good at my job, am never late, never drunk during work, but I love to drink. As for the reason - the job is stressful (as is everyones), and I only find solace and true inner peace through drinking. I had my first full beer (dad gave me sips before that) at 15 years old, where I chugged my friend's dad's corona and chased it with a soda. My first time getting drunk was 16 when I could drive to my friend's house to spend the night and get drunk off of whiskey my friend had slowwwlyyy accumulated from his dad's weekly whiskey purchases. I drank during weekends in high school to be more brave around the girls and at parties, but as with many people, my drinking picked up significantly in college where I was drunk at least once a weekend my freshman year, drunk at least twice a weekend my sophomore year, drunk at least 3 times a week during my junior year, and back down to twice a week my senior year so I could actually graduate. I was given three underage drinking citations in college, but they were almost a badge of honor at the college I attended. Pick up cigarette butts on Saturday to dismiss the ticket, get laughed at, then party it up all over again. When I got out of college, my first job was as a Project Manager that I somehow lucked in to with 0 experience (my cousin hooked me up as he was a Director in a different dept). I never should have been in this role right out of college as I had no real work experience outside of cashiering and bartending before that. Right after graduation I stopped drinking for about 3 months ""to stop being a kid and focus on my career."" Soon after the first 3 months, all the stress and gossip and drama at work built up to the point my nightly gym/exercising could not overcome it. My anxiety was building up from the older employees who I knew where thinking ""what the fck is this little kid doing in this role? I'm twice his age!"" My girlfriend of 6 years then broke up with me when I brought up marriage, so I started drinking pretty much nightly. Started with 2 beers a night, then 3 beers, then 4, then 6, then 8. It worked though. My stress would disappear for the night, then the slight hangover in the morning would help me start the next day on an even keel. I actually felt the hangovers and coffee worked for me. Working out/exercising never could do that for me, no matter how much I exercised. 2 years later I finally admitted to myself I had gained 30 pounds and might have a problem, so began my first test at quitting. I told myself ""if you can quit for a month, you're not an alcoholic."" And I succeeded without a hitch. I lost a ton of weight, never had a crazy urging to drink, and felt completely in control. Back to 2 beers a night, then slowly back to 4, then switched to whiskey and vodka to not gain all the weight back. 2 shots, 4 shots, 6 shots, half a fifth a night. ""Ok wow time to look at what you're beginning to drink. If you can quit for 3 months, you're not an alcoholic."" So I succeeded again, without a hitch. No problems. Then I drank again - this time with whiskey only. 2 drinks a night, then 5, then 8, then half a fifth a night. Still no crazy hangovers, still no work related issues. This went on for years, but to this day, I still think it helps my life in general, which I realize is crazy. 6 Months ago, I went to my doctor for my annual physical. He asked his usual ""how much do you drink"" and this time I was deadly honest. ""I drink nightly. I sometimes drink 3/4 of a fifth a night, can wake up in the morning at 6am, go to work, and feel that my day went very well. I feel that it helps me with the social anxiety I've had my whole life, it helps me stay even keeled at my job, it gives me a sweet release and peace that nothing else can. I can quit anytime I want, and however long I want. But I don't really care to."" He didn't say I was an alcoholic, but said I was a heavy/problem drinker and he wanted me to try Zoloft. I've been on it 6 months now, and my drinking actually INCREASED. I now drink just about a fifth a night, and I think the Zoloft has actually just made me more lazy and I no longer care at all about how much I'm drinking. I have an appointment next week to tell him I need to come off of it. I know if I told myself to quit tomorrow for another 3 months, I could do it - and I will. My job is still not affected. But - I'm to the point where I need another opinion because here I am yet again at the point of telling myself I need another break. Am I an alcoholic? I never drink while driving, I'm always responsible, it doesn't affect my work, I can quit however long I want, I can ""turn off"" the effects when my mother calls, I'm a good son, brother, etc. I know I drink a LOT compared to others, but I honestly feel it's just who I am. My dad drinks maybe 7 beers a week, but his dad drank a lot nightly like me, but also lived to 87 and was a successful lawyer. 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I have been dating someone in recovery for 14 years, she got sober when she was 21. My question is this- she is working step 9 right now, as her sponsor is having her work the steps again. My question is this: Is it normal to work the steps again after being sober for so long, and what would make a sponsor ask her to do them again? She's making amends to people from college, and I would have thought that she would have done that by now. Also facing challenges in that she states that she has never had a relationship for more than 90 days- ever. Difficult to get to know, like there's something in there. Probably not a healthy relationship but asking for some advice. Thanks.",3.1407783251231507,5.551258944827588,3.50445812807882,88.38456896551727,76.79310344827587,5.798029556650246,23.46059113300493,6.868970318607317,0.8085763546798033,597,19,113,6,14,185,89,145,0.024,0.927,0.049,0.5221,0,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,1,4,11,4,0,0,7,0,20,1,1,2,3,19,29,7,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,8,2,0,0,5,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,6,0,16,3,19,19,3,23,0,0,0,0,20,5,0,4,15,89,24,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2798949474339661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11452851992746588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26777230033803506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09236145306293952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14655807463871098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295456420650901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07482362348979968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11454165455565847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07870689984819673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06996733156941999,0.0,0.0,0.12674025499994582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.191193474848732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1104557895885132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403197242938574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0992868464468596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.154409367235423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4812987796599697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30751738114669663,0.0,0.12230433216480265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24269022662555706,0.1102534573350919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13185259646656736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11369625226949436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31278541029399626,0.0,0.0,0.30520624482442865,0.0,0.0,0.09222539100710336 alcoholism,Superbanki87,2019/03/14,"Day 5 of Sobriety (Again) Well, almost through day 5 today. Its fucking hard as shit to do this with where I'm staying, but luckily I have found a very good friend who is going through many of the same things I also am. She has been my rock these past few days. Tomorrow, I'm not going to drink for *myself*.",1.5385714285714298,3.50079928571429,2.9272222222222237,92.77750000000002,79.95238095238095,6.104761904761905,21.61111111111111,7.1686216300943375,0.5440920634920636,237,7,52,3,6,77,53,63,0.055,0.727,0.218,0.9221,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,4,5,2,0,2,0,6,3,1,0,0,6,12,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,1,0,1,2,0,2,1,2,1,0,2,1,5,3,9,10,2,11,0,0,0,1,3,1,2,1,7,35,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312233409583237,0.0,0.0,0.18465890778796284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4467541811012639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22620421530213644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531812587691575,0.17840074846213472,0.21347287960685346,0.0,0.0,0.26246332418355084,0.1936766296654284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20685030061907653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23410683220686165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2204300384065692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2370261358756027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24611968859957534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15340656312120599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21887599357428025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19052520545857365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20761611823723386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,betsy333www,2019/03/14,"Dealing with stigma and feelings of shame. So, about a month ago, I confided in a friend that I was an alcoholic (I’m in recovery)... I wish I could take that back now. She is the mom of one of my daughter’s friends, but has been a good friend to me also. Suddenly since that time, she’s refusing to carpool to activities that we used to ride-share to. She always takes just her daughter and picks up just her daughter and, even though I offer to drive one way, she refuses the offer. Maybe I’m being sensitive, or *assuming* it’s because of what I told her, but... nothing else has changed. This new decision to not let her daughter ride with me has been since the day we talked about my having a problem with alcohol. I’m crushed. I never drove drunk. Ever! This just makes me realize, I guess, that there’s such a stigma to alcoholism. :(",3.0174025974025973,4.851809515151518,4.167640692640696,86.1743181818182,75.06060606060606,7.865800865800867,27.54329004329004,8.634040054169528,2.047874458874459,650,26,132,13,14,212,98,165,0.1,0.799,0.10099999999999999,-0.3156,0,0,3,0,0,0,34.0,2,0,0,0,14,6,0,1,9,0,11,4,0,3,2,30,23,9,0,3,7,5,1,0,3,0,3,0,0,0,9,8,4,2,4,1,0,3,2,2,0,2,5,1,23,4,20,15,0,17,0,0,0,0,25,3,0,3,10,94,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13018557010712858,0.4708570302774786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11744663249207687,0.1222021393489942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11292891289048912,0.0,0.08952658423409147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15536203631318046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1172584990493783,0.0,0.0,0.09471476311042278,0.15140974832792267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1226855512685766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09700191089317288,0.13284638118264924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0742585633279164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3403989668075401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12318207780552252,0.0,0.0,0.16178662647536246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15017780822020632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09803248042349437,0.0,0.14754405595201708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17200467507015665,0.11722498924742362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11327013161996885,0.14184161656008806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14091942271117622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1990369230321383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14052846886616874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2429738950843652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22084604505445515,0.11804326253047195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1442925750229004,0.0,0.08563724750133166,0.0,0.0,0.14033430175369505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.126842850268786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11657335538107205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16888569740471945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,gnabannawtohmi2,2019/03/14,"Feel slightly more winded when exercising lately... problem? I'm 30, eat pretty well, thin, fairly normal blood pressure (120/80), and try to stay active. I have always told myself I didnt have a drinking problem because I can stop for 5 days without feeling any need to drink, and alcohol has never negatively affected my ability to do my job or caused me to act badly. I also rarely get hangovers for some reason. But I typically drink 4 strong beers on Friday and then spend Saturday and Sunday drinking from the late afternoon into the evening, probably 8 - 12 drinks each day. Recently, I feel a bit more fatigued when I'm exercising and it seems like I'm short of breath. I'm worried I have some form of alcoholic cardiomyopathy. What is the next step? Do I make an appointment directly with a cardiologist and tell them my concerns? I have cut back significantly over the last few weeks. Can cutting back to recommended levels (like 2-3 beers on weekends) reverse cardiomyopathy? Honestly, it sounds stupid, but it would be so embarrassing for me to need to quit drinking altogether, and I know quitting entirely is the healthiest choice, but I am fortunate enough to be able to cut myself off after a few drinks. I know not everyone is so lucky. 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He says we can get back together if I’m sober for three months but it just feels so unfair. I know it’s hard for him but I feel like I need him right now. Even if he’s willing to support me not as my bf I feel like it’s not really support. I’m ready to take the next step forward and get better. I just wish he was here with me",-1.544028708133972,0.20775530526315933,1.1929186602870807,101.89224880382777,90.68421052631578,4.7177033492822975,14.952153110047849,6.1124844417494595,-0.9265789473684212,314,6,85,3,11,108,61,95,0.067,0.7,0.233,0.9556,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,1,0,0,1,7,5,0,0,2,0,4,1,0,0,0,19,18,8,0,4,8,0,4,2,2,1,1,1,0,0,3,4,1,0,4,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,3,5,15,5,7,14,0,11,0,0,0,0,11,3,0,3,10,49,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1615619761725868,0.19477988803158836,0.1825064787011164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14014624138908538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611936430883308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11754224595126934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12038062592898725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2764675123930287,0.26041232769245315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19044604569419066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16326863813917228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10016500902940896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1980253897391868,0.0,0.0,0.17808548963131782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14547772770852546,0.0,0.0,0.13514304822621462,0.0,0.0,0.19383495755477168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1167600494813916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15564854617894042,0.0,0.14494000367144916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4136516528390067,0.0,0.0,0.13703639903998915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17415668339793675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35608193395273363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20958933465159754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11736908887002652 alcoholism,Amossycar,2019/03/14,"One beer caused drunk circumstances So I've been taking phenibut 5-6x a week for almost a year, and having 2-3 drinks almost every day on top of that. A couple weeks ago I got so sick, body aches something fierce. Never experienced pain like that with the aches. Been doing good. Quit phenibut and drinking when that happened. But yesterday, i had one beer, and 20 min later, i got so sick, room was spinning, thought I was going to throw up. And my cheeks broke out real bad. Did I push myself so hard that my body is asking for a break? Did I develop an intolerance, or allergic reaction? I've also slowed down on weed, I was doing a lot, so that might be involved to. Thankyou! 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So I had worked out and felt really great after 2 horrible days of no sleep except for 30-45 increments of horribly vivid nightmares. I'd wake myself up because I'd yell or shout or scream out loud in my sleep. But still I was staying strong (still am) then about 20 hours ago, I'm in Walmart getting salads and healthy food, ya know? Cause I want to replace bad habbits with healthy choices. Anyway, I'm scanning the aisle for a healthy vinaigrette with no issues, feeling fine, when my neck starts to turn and its like I can't stop it. I know it's happening but my muscles aren't pulling it back straight. I felt like the exorcist. Also my eyes start flicking to the right then back to center over and over again. This lasted about 10 seconds before I felt myself falling, not a hard fall, but I knew the lights were going out. Next thing I know I'm getting up in a different aisle, my carts gone, and I have a prick in my finger with a bandaid over it. Maybe they were testing my blood sugar? Anyway the memories are hazy as to what happened. My cart was gone so I grabbed a couple things and checked out then went home on the train and finally got 6 hours of beautiful nightmare free sleep. I have no medical conditions. I'm in my late 20s. Do you guys think this is from alcohol with drawal?",3.643764005602243,5.131648551470589,4.124663865546221,88.56039215686278,72.67647058823529,7.386834733893558,28.393557422969195,7.957251820313856,1.703579271708684,1074,42,221,15,21,338,164,272,0.073,0.797,0.13,0.92,1,0,1,0,0,0,29.0,0,2,1,2,13,9,1,0,13,0,15,15,9,1,0,36,42,20,0,1,7,0,7,2,0,0,3,4,1,1,10,15,4,1,11,0,2,7,6,3,0,1,14,16,28,7,38,27,0,50,0,0,3,0,4,19,1,2,25,135,38,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1068955686652517,0.12887380675171226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09643560770773886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854522026096117,0.1006874336567523,0.0735104138230197,0.0,0.10261302540230773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12387892745128334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13343030374025328,0.0,0.15554087070251812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12599065937344006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0609738187471176,0.0,0.34735531457125995,0.13210021537458566,0.0,0.0,0.14581764700899186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12600637128121026,0.0,0.06853395395822846,0.0,0.09644666736216004,0.13295066397291014,0.0,0.11940284651040073,0.2132742977101636,0.0,0.10802476134882363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1209613869099002,0.0,0.2375132950452316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12586440560582532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.198818976857294,0.09829676989440526,0.13603053029913362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11782815570932308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12114864766648176,0.0,0.0,0.1214815219646402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12824860468956029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07725290431805222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10298301772407152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3620306212942289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17070814136416865,0.12853266610995664,0.1926063165680276,0.10081846013385701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16022898995954588,0.15453813039012207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13116705813869256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07112697972231455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.111787939077097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0877907998896096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,p-lilywhite,2019/03/14,"advice on how to talk to someone I may have no business talking to? To make a long story short, I recently moved back to my small home town and someone who is an old classmate/acquaintance whom I frequently see because we have mutual friends seems to be on a slippery slope. I’m not a huge player in his life or anything, but I like him as a person and for past reasons and some good chats I value him a lot as a person. I don’t want to offend him but I want to make sure he’s okay? I’m not sure how to do this, since a lot of the excessive drinking behaviour is normalised by other people in the group who partake. I’m sensitive about this issue because I lost an ex boyfriend to suicide driven by alcoholism, and I just get worried, even though in this case it may not be any of my business. 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I have to be up at 07:30 and it’s now 4am and I’m so gone. I thought I was in control...,-4.771000000000001,-3.6804494333333295,-1.0566666666666666,113.325,110.0,2.4000000000000004,12.666666666666668,3.1291,-2.168133333333333,87,2,29,0,5,31,22,30,0.18600000000000005,0.8140000000000001,0.0,-0.5859,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,4,7,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,0,4,3,0,7,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,17,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8162193238002279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5777421703970542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Helipilot22,2019/01/01,"Atheist based Alcoholics Anonymous, is there such a thing? I'm not an AA member per say but I do frequent them often to show support to my family member. I try to relate alcoholism through my struggles with depression as I do not suffer from substance abuse. When doing the cross connection I constantly get a mouthful of Jesus. I have nothing wrong with christianity, ok maybe I do but it's not the topic of this post. My problem is that these meetings preach so much it feels like they alienate the atheist's and agnostics for you cannot become sober alone, you need a higher power. For I honestly believe what truly aids sobriety is networking and making connections. I honestly like going to meetings because people there don't rely on a bar being their only source of happiness. I have thought about this for a while because I live in one of the most drug ridden counties of my state. It's even got a netflix documentary about it. But the support for sobriety is 100% faith based. A large percentage of people that are using I could almost guarantee are agnostic to some degree.",4.938630377524142,7.234649547263683,5.635106818846937,75.72068481123793,70.94029850746269,8.510506292069069,31.22651448639157,9.168548406835145,3.1699538191395966,873,39,140,19,17,283,130,201,0.079,0.7070000000000001,0.214,0.9826,1,1,3,0,1,0,16.0,0,2,3,1,9,14,0,1,13,1,16,5,1,2,0,21,27,9,0,3,6,0,1,2,0,0,3,1,0,0,11,4,3,0,2,3,0,3,5,5,1,1,2,2,20,9,24,23,3,11,6,2,0,0,8,2,0,4,6,104,31,0,0.0,0.1856794047430003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3349573017200088,0.15692553853976998,0.16230751565955498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19106170976945072,0.17307731329992682,0.0,0.17656200551262868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1693511942804951,0.0,0.12512266331301902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13497676859998836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18173744989038101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1035075285442202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14773516926710348,0.0,0.07923885511680227,0.11195587426914533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08187612981200898,0.0,0.08906366961859971,0.0,0.1253377869164525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1668240154500471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15312421545472638,0.0,0.13838054375226158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046072151802292,0.0,0.15743937869226335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1152021645819373,0.1162007824255672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15037045182311662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10619285642110377,0.1191873789079369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21729027141852586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1500878360845711,0.0,0.0,0.14995327791490212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12462455192808053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16383056449834132,0.0,0.0,0.3556723512042098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10411322418211023,0.0,0.0,0.12441270117351493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10639791208405013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13534980727632928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17134118022136546,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ThrowAlcoholAwayPls,2019/01/01,"So I guess I really should stop drinking.. My behaviour is uncontrollable. I noticed I drank a lot in the last couple of months. I even quit my job because I couldn't handle it any more. But yesterday.. Well.. I went out partying, got punched by a dude because I was touching his girlfriend's hair (according to my mate), I lost my atm card and to top it off.. I took a shit on the floor in the bathroom, which I happened to notice today... What the fuck? I'm so embarassed for myself.. &#x200B; &#x200B;",3.535,5.3033118367346965,4.479336734693877,84.76655612244899,73.48979591836735,7.348979591836735,29.5969387755102,8.07648339933343,2.071873469387755,392,17,76,6,8,127,72,98,0.155,0.7979999999999999,0.047,-0.8744,1,0,1,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,0,3,4,5,2,1,7,0,4,5,2,0,0,8,13,4,0,2,1,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,2,1,0,1,1,2,1,4,1,0,6,2,17,1,11,5,2,14,0,1,0,1,3,7,2,2,5,51,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3382336906199941,0.3793180563941055,0.10614240740227017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19029459892439052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17270387156125572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15290280464280498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10309194685709168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1442970546038072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12483455696129575,0.0,0.17194401785707594,0.0,0.13802448127059622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15488919107048868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12722921440527518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17038401971442674,0.1326969539890562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12458468344121143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35540511957116844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660144451788139,0.0,0.0,0.0999913459767827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16021788497892742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13049313313305785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14794929105006793,0.0,0.17341496096644365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14033817506505789,0.14469134320530022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3793180563941055,0.0 alcoholism,mtassell9,2019/01/01,"Black liqour hole So I have really slowed down on my drinking lately. I have bad experiences and an angel of a girl friend to thank for that. Last night I kind of let loose. For some reason, I dont feel drunk and i just consume everything in sight. I cant figure myself out. I can be black out drunk and i just dont recognize it in my brain. Im convinced im not feeling it and more alcohol is the answer. Does anyone else experience this? I never puke and when i was younger i would drink 2 or 3 times a week. Id say my tolerance is high. Im about 185lbs so my body gets very drunk but my mind doesnt have a ""youre drunk"" alarm. It leads me into trouble. I just wish i could cut myself off at a reasonable level.",-0.15627450980392155,1.9703500065359485,2.1472222222222217,94.80750000000002,88.15032679738562,5.491503267973857,16.99673202614379,6.937597516519254,-0.09706797385620902,553,13,129,8,18,187,102,153,0.1,0.7609999999999999,0.139,0.353,1,0,3,0,0,1,16.0,0,1,0,1,7,8,1,1,6,0,15,9,2,3,1,27,20,10,0,3,6,0,2,0,1,1,1,1,0,1,5,8,7,0,6,6,0,1,6,4,0,0,1,6,22,4,15,15,2,20,1,0,3,0,4,11,0,2,8,80,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14876156313147745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09733128545762863,0.1426259837116908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11622547976201845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15461888058886625,0.0,0.15539229248953484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1111391982323602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12181411826173418,0.0,0.3262807450462099,0.2727243557281033,0.0,0.0,0.11628303204651178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12510322456656972,0.2723269669000922,0.0,0.0,0.14076655009333128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1075449215673559,0.0,0.07272581306002703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14707154942866396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4510769210801268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14495449900229426,0.0,0.11346588968570682,0.1570227095090761,0.0,0.0,0.1423405666386566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14055146495608672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10735896940498994,0.0,0.0,0.13062897700927692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08917454285292327,0.2862398290886195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11069675480535306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281558795854626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0811681464736833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11485388068310512,0.0,0.0,0.11165716547921252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1600721581347329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09888308562905564,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Vikings1507,2019/01/01,ALT 89 AST 202 How worried do I need to be? I am 28 years old I went to the doctor and found out I had a ALT of 89 and AST of 202 and lipase of 100. I previously consumed a large amount of alcohol the night before and I typically do and failed at my attempts at sobriety. This is a huge wake up call. I have an ultrasound coming up and experiencing so much anxiety and worrying about there being serious damage. Is there any chance that those numbers could be temporarily high and lower with not drinking without permeate damage?,3.3689316239316263,5.384310423076926,5.3685897435897445,77.15418803418805,74.57692307692307,8.852991452991454,27.901709401709404,9.444778638647367,2.739877350427351,420,17,79,11,9,145,73,104,0.18600000000000005,0.775,0.04,-0.9305,1,0,2,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,5,4,0,0,6,0,11,4,1,1,0,17,15,10,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,11,2,0,1,1,0,2,2,4,0,0,3,1,8,0,14,8,2,12,0,3,0,0,1,7,0,0,3,56,11,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24477403836036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1557550120377429,0.0,0.17521492575417194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1948961177540708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2338753850237892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1972976261108039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1828697534417822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2344320819220045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22437194294535454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2511304701882358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2419932697920949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.168370708193409,0.16983021196364373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21493846633746236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2403388863953875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2123223172929156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2207863270412644,0.0,0.0,0.4652023500540352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14749421078183025 alcoholism,TJR07094,2019/01/01,"Newbie Hi Everyone - Just found this group so wanted to share my story. I was 15 years sober ( from alcohol) before a breakup of a LTR ( 20 plus years) in mid 2017. In fact, I lived sober with my alcoholic ex. Since then I have really struggled with my sobriety. I have tried quitting many times over the last 18 months but always fall victim to something easy to numb me. Last week, I decided that this time I needed to find my way back to an alcohol free life. Over the past year, I have experienced heart palpitations, poor sleep and night sweats, foggy headedness and hangovers that impact my life. From a health point of view alone, I can't continue with this destructive behavior. Today is my 5th day sober. Its been tough few days but seems to be getting better. Fortunately I have been able to do this while being off from work so a little easier in terms of my need for space to begin to heal. I come from a long lineage of alcoholics in my family so you would think that I would know better than to get back into a destructive habit. My dad actually died from a fall when inebriated. That said, I need to move past the excuses and baggage and get back to my journey of sobriety. Oddly Jan 1 is a new beginning so just felt the need to share my story and be a bit cathartic. &#x200B; Thank you TJR &#x200B;",3.8470284964379435,5.758536972440948,4.643678290213725,83.31266404199476,72.97637795275591,8.460142482189728,24.69366329208849,9.107695989026183,1.9329537307836528,1037,32,202,23,21,334,154,254,0.124,0.775,0.10099999999999999,-0.8069,0,1,5,0,0,0,35.0,0,2,0,4,10,12,3,1,14,0,16,12,3,0,1,30,34,15,1,7,4,2,1,0,0,2,9,1,0,0,9,11,4,0,7,0,2,6,1,6,0,0,6,4,26,7,37,23,3,46,0,0,1,0,10,12,0,1,27,122,35,1,0.09708609753831313,0.0,0.09474202635945504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4150220500032577,0.0,0.1005519174146436,0.0,0.0,0.08078341055699399,0.21038549224123834,0.2359404702239507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2239596487194186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08261311827613935,0.0,0.0,0.1717295273092138,0.10599287343303106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08363107643868352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12522500235951373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10076004132674164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09276992673116516,0.0,0.0,0.09152413231771174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09321787876998484,0.0,0.08873493428706243,0.0,0.0,0.10644989482336613,0.0,0.0,0.15217043664859586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1031979817326322,0.0,0.11504749303423535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05335598018625826,0.15827625480510052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13714956373664147,0.0,0.09730577516636528,0.08572880282609233,0.08591814120008644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09843006463829017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07749319679968246,0.1031871570904337,0.0,0.2879524446047365,0.0,0.09376635798426897,0.0,0.09110872574709296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18535933124247755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09177774317367562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10326301529595816,0.0,0.0,0.06219584011465072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0923511112515666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08838353690006373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08031062314374209,0.0,0.09715621195686176,0.0,0.0,0.07474162108256907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10149546879877876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08938383468470533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0622088511377498,0.0,0.0,0.11322336844061025,0.0,0.0920262684869004,0.0,0.0,0.06591508732969815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057263895742148026,0.07706242524004565,0.07787661130210714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07067983529773296,0.0,0.0,0.13793435630999598,0.0,0.2359404702239507,0.1875607911657952 alcoholism,NightWolfeMan,2019/01/01,"To all those starting the year off without alcohol 2019 I haven't posted a lot on here before but i feel like today is a good day to do so. I'm a recovering alcoholic and I've been alcohol free for 3 years now and it was the best decision I ever made. The only way i was able to do it though was going to AA meetings. I have no doubt i would not have been able to quit if i had not gone. I went twice a week for a month and for 3 months after that once a week. I no longer go but what i learned there truly helped me for life. The best thing that helps me now whenever i think i can just have one and be good is to remember I'm not physically able to do that. Nothing can change that. Its like someone who is allergic to peanuts, they were born with with it and just one can kill them. Just one drink would set me back to the hell i was in.",2.2855100334448157,2.8800031195652167,3.846304347826088,92.69602006688964,74.8695652173913,7.618060200668896,22.8494983277592,7.882392219407189,0.6867948160535118,650,16,162,9,13,217,105,184,0.11900000000000001,0.6990000000000001,0.182,0.9313,0,0,4,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,2,3,11,10,2,1,11,0,24,6,0,1,2,29,34,10,1,3,10,0,1,2,0,2,5,0,0,0,12,7,4,0,5,1,1,4,7,3,1,4,11,1,18,8,20,20,4,25,1,0,0,0,6,3,1,3,17,117,30,1,0.3734635453703208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3991189524841834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0957234712869603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1059299900734298,0.0,0.26128463333094665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13169163716762314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08028436363187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12195069846875455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11260638599297887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06294479662107318,0.08893414381136731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414986262031558,0.2088290019991526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1668831614587031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1377273599082014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08792944890807837,0.12163694926373772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10583511703036033,0.0,0.11779341220005107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19873002590968947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11944944805011368,0.0,0.0,0.13257549576260688,0.25306856365545183,0.09467861838867052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11922494720190685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13240815034593148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14102046484579395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10547815001908684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.088113139873144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08270419495646535,0.07976678669209121,0.12230867904945035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11799992435496408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09881265967260064,0.1997132860815207,0.0,0.0,0.11540148270981344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12000184355309801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17686519162566128,0.0,0.0,0.16033218582345313 alcoholism,reflectivelettuce,2019/01/01,"So embarassed So last night we were at my wifes work friends house. I got extremely drunk. I wasnt trying to and i dont even know how it happened. The whole night was great and i felt really close to my wife the whole night. Then she tried to put me to bed and it got out of hand. I dont remember anything but apparently i yelled at her in front of everyone. I said i wanted a divorce in front of her friend and her friends daughter.I called a lyft driver to go home. Then called her all night telling her im going to kill myself. Like 30 times. Her friend ended up amswering telling me to go to bed. I woke up this morning not remembering any of it. My pants are soaked with urine. I lost my wallet and wedding ring. Not only did i embarass her in front of her own friends but i NEVER yell at her. I cant believe i did that for no reason. And this morning she wasnt even that mad at me. Just embarassed. Im so sorry. Idk why she isnt leaving me after this. I kind of wish she was so i at least could feel like i got what i deserved. This woman deserves so much better than me. Im so sorry and embarassed and ashamed i cant even put it into words. I am posting here because many years ago, i got drunk and tried to commit suicide. The only reason i failed was because of how drunk i was. After that i went to AA for a few months and it helped a lot. I figured i wasnt an alcoholic and just depressed so i stopped going. And i have succussfully been able to drink moderatly until last night. So this just felt like the right place. There is no way to make up for this. I am writing this just so i can say it out loud. 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Usually I'm the one who doesn't know when to stop drinking and ends up so trashed I can't even walk straight. When I showed up at my friends house tonight he was already drinking and told me I would have to drive. I still drank but I was conscious about the amount I drank, which never happens. When we showed up to the bar to meet friends they were also much less sober than me and asked me to drive them home, so I only had one drink. I've been struggling with a drinking problem for the last 6 months so tonight was a big deal to me. Especially because it was New Year's Eve, obviously a holiday associated with drinking heavily. It made me happy to know I had the ability to not drink in the unhealthy way I've grown used to.",4.060422287390029,5.125708754838712,4.522228739002936,87.73788856304985,71.12903225806451,7.7008797653958965,30.865102639296193,8.00094639256281,1.8916451612903225,607,26,131,8,11,192,95,155,0.09300000000000001,0.795,0.11199999999999999,0.6081,2,0,6,0,0,0,11.0,1,0,2,0,10,5,0,1,10,0,13,9,0,2,2,18,23,11,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,4,6,9,1,3,10,0,4,4,2,0,2,13,0,18,3,19,9,3,28,0,0,0,0,11,7,0,0,16,83,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.139889541496141,0.10137480285419152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11850918956157636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07727543680362614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13069028086421622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7450950947042039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11227713674853172,0.0,0.0,0.08372781223794251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19587834587601766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11209884190162543,0.13494486863739458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.127156732273868,0.0,0.0,0.14627105726953155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13933466459583688,0.10333128920023897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11994914710173578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10118349008724432,0.0,0.09318766800040268,0.0,0.09776982973962496,0.12243148747810025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1717999776149316,0.09641132990701176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12129803574972915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012355696960517,0.10598213422481224,0.0,0.13252344960872134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12113043917986485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10948520759272834,0.13961494768177302,0.0,0.0,0.10062102819853104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09005099899582471,0.0,0.0,0.08163321098899227 alcoholism,Boopy7,2019/01/01,pissed off that i slipped I slipped up because of severe stress. I have no one to call and don't know what to do. I wish i weren't in my life. 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I'm not going completely sober, but I am starting a diet that doesn't have room for endless rum-cokes. Since we're in an apartment and can't install a padlock on a closet, I bought a plastic steamer-trunk that can be padlocked. It's not really secure because plastic. I also bought an easy-program padlock so the weak-point is in the dial and I don't expect hubby to lock up the dremel tool. The easy-program is also for late days where I want my ration so he can just give me the code and reprogram the lock when he gets home. It's a bit unreasonable that he be sober with me. Plus walking distance to alcohol can be done on crutches. Taking my wallet might be an option if I'm to be denied cigarettes as well because he won't buy those for me.",3.896706689536877,4.747176383647805,5.186895368782164,83.6202401372213,71.32704402515724,7.291252144082332,28.919954259576894,7.348242739294969,1.6596616352201257,611,23,121,6,11,204,99,159,0.048,0.91,0.043,-0.4077,0,0,2,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,8,2,0,0,15,0,18,2,0,0,0,14,29,12,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,3,0,7,5,2,1,0,0,4,2,6,0,1,0,4,0,11,2,14,18,1,14,0,0,0,0,6,8,0,3,4,80,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.245416225187417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3672874017430762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2799738554657187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2507083264081796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407740570031969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14809934738607752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350023141511449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11997786349625275,0.22029242373487465,0.1305101843542245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15392341785934174,0.0,0.23034849142040986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25904487574091456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2436126468252124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2170848251144912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14711380567059407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1899612801221688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16254097212736215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.172661336370707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15256317351292115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13544812023798214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20647469851521472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,nonthings,2019/01/01,"Been a drunk for too long I think i'v been drunk more or less every day for 10yrs now. Maybe more mybe less. I started drinking alone very fast. I started hiding it just a few years ago. I need to quite or i'll be dead way before i die, if thats not already the case.any tips on how too quit prograsivlly are welcome",0.3931818181818159,2.70684460606061,1.3941666666666668,99.76125,87.78787878787878,3.9060606060606062,18.85606060606061,5.148860815047168,-0.6509030303030299,248,7,57,1,8,77,52,66,0.245,0.7120000000000001,0.043,-0.9217,0,1,1,0,0,1,6.0,0,0,0,2,5,1,0,0,3,0,4,3,0,1,0,8,8,4,2,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,5,1,4,5,5,10,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,8,32,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20646834400641895,0.0,0.0,0.24123349350499,0.25703153995193145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15839268008235882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.198196629596958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15021327076631552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2417328023166788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22817161973438746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19624402190501156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20612568999239636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23399810651315284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17270623962558698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4954753438858925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3297220614097435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1492448764055669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19218229276428125,0.0,0.18487999569380684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14999198444224254 alcoholism,saudiaurora1265,2019/01/01,"Detoxing without recovery I’ve read where people have been able to remain sober without AA and using sheer willpower. I’m about to embark on a 5 day inpatient detox but so far do not have a solid plan for what is next. Is it possible to want sobriety bad enough that a person can stay away from alcohol without a plan once physical symptoms are over?",9.435980392156862,7.277962794117652,9.21470588235294,69.36950980392159,60.764705882352935,12.596078431372552,40.31372549019608,11.20814326018867,4.50663137254902,282,12,50,6,3,92,57,68,0.09699999999999999,0.8809999999999999,0.022000000000000002,-0.7154,1,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,4,0,8,4,0,1,0,8,11,3,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,3,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,4,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,12,10,1,8,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,2,33,3,1,0.21007973068073865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2245113427719285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19737682237640605,0.0,0.17540780008220394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13548404682658022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21706851964501567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22342217688154756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22372805691428446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14564283374908707,0.183433517677464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368333312829708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21013658123939705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2239170409080736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21835327826952025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18144143638302548,0.0,0.0,0.12391046813363728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6075280909906811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,calebtizon,2018/11/08,"Just lost my mother to alcoholism After 61 years of life, her liver gave up. A few years ago, she was told she would make it if she quit drinking, but her demons kept getting the best of her. We had a relationship that was full of the absolute purest and most powerful love, but the alcoholism sometimes made things unclear. She would become very angry when drunk, and accuse me of not loving her, which in turn would push me away. This happened again right before she ended up in the hospital, and as a result, the last two nights she spent out of the hospital were in her car. I will never forgive myself for this. We fixed everything in her last few weeks on Earth, and she left happy, comfortable, and ready. But me? Here I find myself, 27 years old and facing the most searing pain of my life. I miss her so much, and I can't help but think that maybe I should have accepted her - angry drinking and all - at all times. She still wouldn't be here today, but maybe I wouldn't be full of such guilt. I don't really know why I am posting here. I am just so lost without her, and plagued with thoughts that I should have done things differently. I loved her with everything I had while she was here, I just didn't accept her at some of the times when she probably felt so alone. And I hate myself for it. I deserve to.",5.2775143678160905,5.544369747126439,5.2845186781609215,86.22953663793105,68.00383141762453,8.6705938697318,26.274185823754788,8.472884824447931,1.4636760536398468,1028,26,217,14,16,321,141,261,0.174,0.7040000000000001,0.121,-0.9013,2,1,4,0,0,0,34.0,2,0,0,5,16,15,1,1,11,0,24,13,2,3,3,52,44,23,0,8,11,1,1,0,0,8,5,0,0,0,10,15,5,1,8,3,1,2,8,6,0,1,17,1,46,9,28,17,11,38,1,3,0,3,32,15,0,5,20,165,56,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09901168977548062,0.2387379296188475,0.0,0.11568328276817542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10494198944941226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12335936320551295,0.09504499732699824,0.0,0.11721797226314735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11669845846983525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11430370158541353,0.0,0.2188389482894069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09892942805944352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20077017337649145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10724559517178528,0.0,0.10208804325645583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05835650578789987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.098772329225779,0.11890237906364108,0.0,0.11027659211355267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0748674177339602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0613851540772427,0.182094158031836,0.0,0.0,0.12135793904612945,0.0,0.157788256765427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2438585725535368,0.0,0.3024297740088977,0.10568937597304698,0.07455789095231233,0.0,0.22442712021180214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08210934981465587,0.0,0.08614677589501994,0.0,0.0,0.10481905024035047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11720607407812884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11885232927635325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1069738114792768,0.0,0.12042708856526195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1188023550930025,0.0,0.0,0.07155526362881214,0.0,0.0,0.1199196122546341,0.0,0.09538770157039403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1104701165208374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08920050242938972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484116062527689,0.07157023259114496,0.0,0.08867408037959798,0.13026157316591286,0.0,0.10587466766615572,0.1067302339165676,0.0,0.0,0.1214930818120278,0.10911067942595327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09216082805859106,0.0,0.0,0.0895957260480539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10078819058163699,0.0,0.0,0.10767087669726777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2380367210501108,0.0,0.0,0.21578552252943425 alcoholism,bramalamadingdong,2018/11/08,"Got into a habit of drinking every day and don't want it to become a problem I would say I drink at least 3 beers a day probably 6 of 7 days a week, sometimes more. My excuse is that my job doesn't lend itself to sobriety but I know that isn't entirely true. Very rarely do I change when I drink but last week I spoke to my girlfriend like shit after a few too many. Whether this was a result of the drinking or something else I'm not sure. But I know I'm not drinking a particularly healthy amount",2.65754716981132,3.766018669811324,4.049198113207549,89.63153301886793,74.56603773584905,6.809433962264151,25.514150943396224,7.1686216300943375,0.9465320754716982,393,13,88,4,8,130,71,106,0.17300000000000001,0.78,0.047,-0.9062,1,0,7,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,5,1,0,8,0,7,7,1,1,2,17,14,7,0,3,7,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,0,0,5,2,6,0,2,6,0,0,5,2,0,0,3,2,10,3,9,10,4,10,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,1,9,52,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16182978770045586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15500827152954386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2834972828590165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7177132651711651,0.0,0.0,0.1224061919828089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12345701704333445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11719264102733826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454074401350779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1610570319778695,0.1194407062830409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07158667651575946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14855742517233084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15798306402921986,0.14020848063376035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11652575601191885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15040993085205015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11280519648173767,0.1449209451091978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13810186495544846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12090178525138075,0.08642661099585443,0.0,0.23507347879332746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10409000995537597,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,obtusian,2018/11/08,"I really didn’t want to post here I don’t drink every day but I don’t know when to stop. For me 1 drink is too much and 25 isn’t enough. I know I drink too much at times whether or not I have work tomorrow. I know that I’m trouble with the amount I drink but don’t know how to stop it. Forgive the rambling. I’m assuming you guys know where I’m at. From here I don’t know where to go. 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Posting on my throwaway account because I'm a bit embarrassed to be posting this, but idk where else to turn. If anyone has any words of advice or encouragement, that would be really appreciated. Thanks. I don't drink every day, or even every week, but whenever I drink socially I can't just have one or two drinks, I instead feel this *need* to keep drinking. I almost always drink to the point of blacking out or throwing up because I can't stop myself. I force myself to drink stuff I don't even like just to get drunk. Is this a legitimate problem? I don't want to be disrespectful to those whose lives have been ruined by drinking, but I can't help but feel like my drinking is somewhat damaging my life even if it's not ruining it. What should I do?",2.451580086580087,4.7221795259740285,3.968545454545456,84.89615151515152,78.41558441558442,6.704069264069265,25.85108225108225,7.793537801064563,1.5713269264069265,613,24,120,10,15,203,89,154,0.185,0.708,0.107,-0.8690000000000001,0,0,8,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,0,7,10,0,1,4,0,20,10,0,0,0,27,29,10,0,8,13,0,2,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,10,1,9,2,2,9,1,1,7,6,0,2,1,3,17,4,14,23,2,11,0,3,1,0,4,5,0,8,5,86,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09869610140812844,0.0,0.0,0.1011369826579818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08404015083458408,0.0,0.0,0.06868351238656907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0706215986971865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12313741286068687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11026591981305883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06513669089973541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7915329552927123,0.0,0.0,0.08437260009327438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2001287849656348,0.0,0.1701938334813769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10213734221157844,0.07215447160341054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05276836898540399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06769821925817132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08977350464897359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07133933776658838,0.0986870669176448,0.0,0.08918491396559831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07489027360603971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06844026267617907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09547771412958313,0.0,0.19346029991685929,0.0,0.0,0.1932868570547358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0647032323651553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10295685414481134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08444058265928205,0.0,0.0,0.11562091836179784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09298729649172766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10985907541366648,0.09866239444018694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05957245927554328,0.0,0.08101616551207534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07174755330108876,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,throwaway382639362,2018/11/08,"I’m at a loss My brother (31) has struggled with alcoholism for years. After a series of events earlier this year he stopped drinking and started attending AA. I only know this from talking with my parents. We’re not the closest family but I see my brother fairly regularly as he lives close by. Lately we’ve been seeing each other multiple times a week. Tonight he texted me asking what I was up to. I can’t really explain it but I knew the tone of the text meant he really needed to not be alone. We met up less than 15 minutes later. Here’s the thing—I know my brother. I know when he’s been drinking. The second he showed up I knew he had been drinking. He doesn’t know that I know that he’s been sober or that he’s attending AA. We spent an hour or so together then parted ways. I chose not to say anything. I let him drive home. I really want to do everything right in helping my brother but I have absolutely no idea of how to go about it. Can anyone provide some guidance on how to handle situations in which I know he’s been drinking? I see him far more regularly than the rest of my family so I would most likely be the first one to notice. 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Myself included My (M31) roomate (F35) is leaving. 10 years ago she bough a tiny house with one of my best Friend (her former lover). They went appart and he managed to keep the house for himself and convince her he was to keep it. He then (in a matter of Weeks) sold it back to an other couple of friends. Fast forward today. The two last owners want to sell the house. I am sad that my roomate is going to leave us but excited for her at the same Time. How Do i explain or tell her former lover ( a really good Friend) about that?",3.1235823754789247,4.5106445000000015,3.9832183908045984,89.46139846743297,73.82758620689654,6.534865900383142,24.09578544061303,6.937597516519254,0.7791601532567047,446,13,93,4,9,143,80,116,0.038,0.762,0.2,0.9618,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,1,0,1,1,5,11,0,0,9,0,6,3,0,2,0,13,13,8,0,1,2,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,1,2,1,1,2,3,0,1,0,2,3,0,14,10,15,10,2,17,0,1,0,2,20,3,0,1,13,62,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13660150683639655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1184943896127877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1617198098099537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17051016030079472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4762331365726516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08757932154762431,0.12925286135495614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5334366395764706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2739446366002766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12561312926614462,0.0,0.3263420580163418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10442303083166818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0987212404508616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13469133078399126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08985770881040818,0.0,0.1460700162960064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15053458086945248,0.0,0.185364893064772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09089294091522396,0.0,0.12361076971838535,0.0,0.0,0.1428534514081374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09923618648074536 alcoholism,throwaway310794,2019/01/02,"Phones and alcohol. I've posted in here before about quitting because of my emotions and mental state -- it got better and I didn't end up quitting, but now, when I drink, I end up texting ex boyfriend's or guys I'm interested in and wake up with A LOT of regret. I wish it wasn't always something. 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I started a blog to write about my journey and stop myself from hiding it from the world. I would love to become an active member of this group, or get any feedback on my site. https://brokenresolutions.com Hope everyone is having a wonderful new year.",7.226666666666663,8.930511666666668,7.070444444444441,70.01899999999999,64.27777777777777,7.982222222222222,29.677777777777766,8.238735603445708,2.2729577777777785,328,11,51,4,5,104,59,72,0.171,0.6729999999999999,0.157,-0.0516,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,1,4,0,5,2,0,1,0,10,11,4,1,2,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,1,1,2,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,9,2,13,8,0,11,0,0,0,1,5,3,0,3,6,37,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17655581544591278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2867385208694464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25433641480700153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2920463439966278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2480855008492694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356448162338106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2578689991912202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.234324237233408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2507501590547725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18376590191047693,0.0,0.0,0.21706047652642865,0.0,0.2714193607573217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2242350704342468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20608047279952812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2815552875618125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18443214883984171,0.0,0.0,0.3343835979008762 alcoholism,Kaifovsk,2019/01/02,"Liver cirrhosis, 19 years old Last night for New Year’s Eve I drank a lot, and this morning I threw up some blood, and am now suffering from some of the symptoms of liver cirrhosis such as loss of appetite, and it is a little noticeably swollen where my liver is. Can anyone please help me what should I do what steps should I take? I don’t want to die ",2.690416666666668,4.354682763888892,3.5122222222222237,91.255,75.52777777777777,7.022222222222222,23.11111111111111,7.793537801064563,0.9225111111111116,277,8,60,4,6,88,55,72,0.128,0.785,0.087,-0.6124,0,0,0,0,0,1,6.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,3,0,8,7,4,0,0,9,12,4,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,2,0,7,0,8,8,3,13,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,3,8,39,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1904806710244049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28272638699633085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18259572806821067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22205664606292894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2730339317493151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315996422937505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631025480500784,0.0,0.255645397869431,0.0,0.0,0.3101491635174937,0.2858563722120314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29903264253086165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2831461205169603,0.20482407980733425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16067891731020228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3508559155675595 alcoholism,Princess_Batman,2019/01/02,"we assumed you were sleeping it off"" I'm struggling with alcohol addiction. I hate it, I feel like a piece of shit. I've talked to my doctor, I'm trying to get better, but I'm struggling hard. Staying with my folks for the holidays. Woken up yesterday in the early AM thirsty as hell so went up and downstairs a couple times just to chug a bunch of water. Decided not to drink anything, went back to sleep. I slept crazy late (side effect of new meds) and asked my parents why they didn't knock on my door since we had breakfast plans (and mum had offered to come give me a wake up call the night before, since she knows I sleep hard.) ""Well we heard you up and about this morning so we assumed you got drunk and were sleeping it off."" Thanks Mum! I already know I'm a drunk piece of shit but now I feel an extra level of worthless. Even when I'm not drinking, I might as well be, right? This just gets to be my identity now. I hate myself, and everything I'm doing or not doing in my life. I wish I was dead. Thought about knocking back all my depression pills with a nice big glass of vodka and just passing out. Never going to amount to anything from here on anyway. JK, I'll probably just get completely wasted instead because that's apparently all I'm good for and I'm too cowardly to do anything else.",2.321249999999999,4.293865897727276,3.450000000000003,89.92000000000004,77.52272727272728,6.218181818181819,24.63636363636364,7.1686216300943375,0.9988590909090912,1023,36,211,12,24,330,154,264,0.20199999999999999,0.696,0.102,-0.9872,2,0,4,0,0,0,33.0,4,3,1,3,20,16,5,2,10,0,13,19,8,1,3,41,43,16,1,1,10,3,4,1,0,1,5,1,1,0,6,17,7,0,9,6,0,5,5,9,2,0,13,5,28,7,37,27,7,33,1,2,0,0,18,15,3,4,13,133,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1139978974276677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11175466767639264,0.0,0.0,0.11539677187656633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2581592323522452,0.0,0.0977598308411872,0.0,0.0,0.1608173902430087,0.0,0.06374555136229436,0.0,0.08898227531369,0.0,0.0,0.09248461017680644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1067787503368439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0900787141767596,0.10964077336345854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11570589577741346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09006690608902755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10703291731171298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20487966851165326,0.0,0.0,0.08735570754440067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06906820299223274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09398173151975853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10574854615993093,0.0747055905879418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1639021982345459,0.100314095318341,0.059430146762924414,0.0877092489883685,0.08363503438925599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18735027093003945,0.20648455691662748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1149390464283366,0.0,0.11796071746923208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07386163659126202,0.051088140856996526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11615488068939447,0.0,0.0,0.1109333760101934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08065165285558869,0.10099538736002478,0.0,0.0981328617908957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11611379386433858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11274529592623116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08930311916864953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21468139345647688,0.17300453313731076,0.0,0.4185863446957008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11145884294667273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21864076641090596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0840502619303954,0.0,0.09627498819161492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08301774586177331,0.06097622963976415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07099688972509287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18804389398891516,0.1938768520411356,0.09435912225709904,0.0,0.12025156539111978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,MagnusTheGood,2019/01/02,"I believe I’m/becoming an alcoholic but I’m not sure and idk who to talk to Good evening, and happy new year, As I type this, I am drunk so bear with me. I’m 19 years old, I’ve been drinking since I was 16, always at parties or social gatherings. My father drinks all the time, I’ve always been exposed to it and around it. Through out the years I’ve been drinking fairly regularly, but it wasn’t until I was 18 that I really became physically dependent on alcohol. There was a time when I was 18 that i realized I have a problem with falling asleep at night, I started to have trouble with school as a result so I turned back to alcohol, drinking until I was drunk enough to fall asleep within minutes, almost every night. This went on for months. Mostly beer, I was fairly picky but then I began resorting to anything I could get my hands on, wine, liquor, moonshine, a couple very desperate nights I shamefully admit I even turned to mouthwash. (I know, it’s disgusting and I need help). I’m now 19 and nothing has changed, if I can’t drink then I’m up all night craving to drink and fall asleep peacefully. A recent visit to the doctors office for an ear infection revealed I have high blood pressure. I start college tomorrow and I got so nervous that I couldn’t fall asleep and, despite an unreliable New Years resolution to stop drinking, I drank enough to fall asleep as well as realize I may possibly have a serious problem that might become much worse if I continue later in life. I’ve had a very difficult upbringing as well as a very stressful past year or so due to some stupid decisions I made when I was 17, and I feel as thought that may be apart of the problem, but I don’t know for sure. I just want to figure this all out. I’m not sure if what I’m dealing with is necessarily alcoholism but I’m certainly physically dependent upon it to fall asleep. I don’t crave it during the day but there have been multiple instances where I will drink throughout the day and even mornings if I don’t drink the night before. I’m not entirely sure, and I don’t mean to sound ignorant to people who truly suffer from alcoholism but I’m just looking for feedback and advice. I don’t know who to go to or how to solve this problem. I just see alcohol as the easiest solution to most things and I’m not proud of that, I feel like I need help but I don’t know how to get it and I’m even scared to try to find help. Thanks for reading ",3.8887392290249423,5.1368509918367335,5.082414965986398,82.86706916099776,71.73469387755101,8.546485260770973,28.9172335600907,8.998388855275968,2.3039614512471656,1926,75,387,38,36,638,223,490,0.177,0.7120000000000001,0.111,-0.9877,0,0,17,0,0,0,44.0,0,0,0,1,23,28,2,5,19,0,35,33,9,6,8,90,73,49,0,13,22,1,3,1,0,4,9,2,0,0,22,21,21,2,15,15,0,9,13,16,2,0,19,7,44,12,59,47,9,60,0,1,2,0,13,15,0,16,37,245,66,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05874801047105276,0.0,0.3854963183206576,0.060200924164492436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10004836241307463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04947316776883268,0.05351903809539098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04622813014555945,0.0,0.0,0.13279437253512918,0.05115720629010879,0.06773400941047382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06359838459907564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048000472296976696,0.0665210049799243,0.0,0.07754411662530425,0.061980491725773974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0615347833199883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5300473766699978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12423888271200464,0.0,0.15883326409016435,0.0,0.05065321207636413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060796379635286474,0.04294933227161221,0.0,0.0,0.054948069183022204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06281984089474026,0.0,0.0341672570979382,0.050425324911400185,0.0480829995889446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0639982503573132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12089035849767997,0.0635194777927462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13216026423676244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04246413082497235,0.029371316383920487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050485179108338434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05688645758728636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06548768307241243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06377721384405373,0.0,0.0,0.047986754857870434,0.0,0.04419469793200653,0.08915559004289665,0.0,0.116127438803115,0.0,0.2820900587660756,0.0,0.05768621379935381,0.0,0.06308522782571975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05739079787832432,0.04167924250275391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06777562337384738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2301046979598994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06013569842554217,0.0,0.03851404582619152,0.0,0.05936068352651065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060190036602659376,0.06084407202836936,0.04790740142683216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04973141313609298,0.0,0.0,0.061284187106380325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08510568291821778,0.0,0.0,0.05026253482633248,0.06886660308830828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22664740235135666,0.0,0.0,0.04832171995100007,0.0,0.05534989315718803,0.0,0.0,0.03994067741828765,0.0,0.0,0.04772811142240105,0.07011224533150462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0408171461206038,0.13078535059968868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1488144760520082,0.035459997014813664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10810917390540434,0.055731313229407546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06126683455653551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19357470673387173 alcoholism,ThrowAwayAccountYATK,2019/01/02,"Sorry for the book... I posted to r/quitdrinking about a month ago but I didn’t get too many responses as I was drunk when posting but did get a few replies that were helpful. [link to original post] https://reddit.com/r/stopdrinking/comments/9umjxl/drunk_worried_looking_for_answers/ I’m recalling that post to this sub, not drunk but feeling okay (with the help of 3 shots and 4 beers) after a pseudo-bender from these past 4 days. I say “pseudo-bender” because I worked on Monday (NYE) but the previous 2 days were spent mostly drinking heavily. Though I got decent sleep during said bender, I woke up early Monday feeling like absolute shit. Went to work, but the whole day I felt a different hangover. I was dizzy and felt random spells of heavy dizziness (I needed to sit down). I felt like I was going to have a seizure, though I’ve never had one before I could imagine that would be a sign (maybe I’m being a hypochondriac though). I “muscled” through the day and eventually started to feel better toward the end. But I did NOT want to go out and drink for NYE. I wanted nothing but to go home and sleep until today (NYD) but I already purchased an expensive ticket and hotel room with some friends so, anyway, long story short... Went out, got hammered went to bed at like 4, woke up after maybe 4 hours of sleep, went to 7-11 bought a bunch of water and Powerade; rehydrated and took 4 shots then passed out again. I woke up 2 hours later, took 3 more shots and then was sobering up until 10:45 tonight... The shakes started, along with crazy anxiety so I started drinking again (hence the 3 shots and 4 beers)... Not happy about it but I know I was going to get terrible sleep and wanted to be somewhat rejuvenated for work in the morning so I felt the need to do the only thing that helps me fall asleep easily. So yeah to reference my original post, I’m so scared of having a seizure or DT. I’m just curious if I should call in to work tomorrow to get more rest and hydrate further and begin the tapering off process. **I know no one here is a doctor or should give medical advice, I’m just looking for a similar situation or suggestion** I know I need to quit and that’s the plan for 2019, but I want to taper off to avoid said embarrassment in the original post. I also know I should probably see a M.D. but I’m taking it one step at a time and doing this my way. I currently have a drinking problem, but I truly believe I can control it, I’m just paranoid about the immediate medical repercussions. I can kick this thing without my family and friends knowing. Thanks for your time & help Reddit",3.8524500491320026,5.986882756539237,4.706406812970852,81.9063052735015,73.54728370221328,7.440157222404193,26.04506106405877,8.283103749626381,1.7726315942164614,2058,72,384,35,43,665,249,497,0.111,0.763,0.126,0.9154,3,1,8,0,0,0,83.0,0,1,0,8,21,16,1,4,30,2,27,18,6,4,1,85,85,47,0,14,23,0,7,3,2,4,3,3,3,0,14,23,9,2,15,11,4,14,7,7,0,3,30,12,38,9,63,47,9,80,0,0,2,0,13,20,1,8,41,241,52,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06403710179451391,0.05809015480290264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07231618007539188,0.052405908403905216,0.0,0.0710038833483438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05013179267203476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03994769261181511,0.0,0.05576289648713851,0.07383211143305547,0.0,0.0579577193970581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06691548829324395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07349969863014791,0.052321961305920615,0.0,0.0,0.16905084785286625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06846698135487839,0.0,0.06707476817971694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2567856060605111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058041891857084985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061777727593436985,0.0,0.09940482886721116,0.04681606646132857,0.2516839472020088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10125970520555852,0.0,0.13695103932324065,0.06286425576012421,0.14897335949091167,0.0,0.1048238370822786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06976002148738998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1756988450847077,0.0,0.06573392871667323,0.0,0.1290716186760884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18007333836201814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09604685990393264,0.0,0.0,0.05799374862105331,0.055030366607357925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06643915179791257,0.1316713832945989,0.0,0.0,0.1320331704061018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05230700888391748,0.0,0.0,0.14577341979793726,0.05054231029548529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06287971142494278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13321851639451274,0.04984003107234297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06255769916861273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3765691879077446,0.0,0.07065456849673259,0.0627052637549085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0697013374274414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12467185756092435,0.05211366838824519,0.06560895373366242,0.0,0.05222051125275693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06726764560035017,0.0,0.07366070198869153,0.2623172640608452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07335769716976749,0.13915163858215013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04927190061949743,0.0,0.0,0.06033305151957094,0.0,0.0,0.0870730840097808,0.0,0.1931545411621028,0.0,0.07642446025551405,0.0,0.062116663682634375,0.0,0.1456169033516271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1546098613562183,0.05201624307830609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2429952435697901,0.0,0.07316412610172282,0.0,0.06317049945608977,0.0,0.19083227563261354,0.0,0.0,0.04655204520439892,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ToolSilver,2019/01/02,"Blackout but conscious? Hi, last Friday I went out with a friend and got really drunk at a club. Long story short: flashbacks of walking outside all I remember was waking up in my apartment...45 min walk from where I was in a big city. Checked if I had my belongings and every single thing was there..also looked my bank account and no taxi receipt. Any ideas? Physically don't feel anything out of the normal...but I'm scared.",2.3676287262872653,4.973154109756101,3.360894308943092,87.19453929539299,81.07317073170732,5.595663956639567,24.96476964769648,6.937597516519254,1.176060704607046,335,13,62,4,9,107,66,82,0.13,0.816,0.053,-0.7391,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,4,0,5,2,1,0,1,13,10,5,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,1,0,4,2,3,3,2,1,0,0,6,2,7,1,10,4,2,15,0,0,1,0,2,9,0,1,3,36,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2274194959578532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1933889279325346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340214484507491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23960337680785224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1437916497412418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21971216433463134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2274455774135905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3210316935423092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2318085860092194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2516683611026494,0.2388085354759085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2786331386458533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18218184111553867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3221483963086603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.284715133137922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18893019394283156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2636241670828446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,thistimeforgood,2019/01/02,"Hopefully a happy new year. Today is my first day. Day one. Well, day one after a bender. But that, alone, makes it even more of a “day one” than any one I thought I’ve had before. I turned 30 a few weeks back. Got hammered the night before, and was hung over as hell on my birthday, which was one of my lowest lows. Drinking hasn’t brought me pleasure anymore. And it’s gotten to the point where all I want to do when I’m drunk is text my friends and tell them I need help. Because I really do. And I’ve finally opened up to someone about it, a friend that’s been sober for 8 years, and she’s been incredible. So tonight it’s seltzer water for me. And tomorrow it will be the same. I really hope that the day after that is the same, and every other day follows suit. I’m learning it really is one day at a time. Hell, I even bought a coin to keep in my pockets that says just that. Hopefully any time I want to buy alcohol, I’ll feel that coin and remember all the damage it’s done to my life. Lost relationships, friendships, opportunities, and the last half of my 20s to it. I think it’s time to start gaining things. I’m tired of drinking until I can’t remember. *lifts a can of seltzer* here’s to a new year. 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My drink of choice is vodka. I occasionally drink beer as well. Long story short I quit smoking weed about a year and a half ago and before that I was slowly weaning myself off. However I've found myself drinking a lot more now. I usually drink a liter of alcohol every two days or a 2 liter every 4-5 days and crazy thing is, I don't get drunk when I drink 6-10 drinks a day. I usually drink to relax due to my depression and anxiety and my health problems make my anxiety worse. Along with some bad news about my little sister being sexually assaulted by a family member and not having a great relationship with my girlfriend, I feel like its very hard to quit at this point. I have a great job as of recent and would hate for something to go wrong because of my addiction. I honestly feel like quitting weed was a bad decision because now I substituted a somewhat harmless habit with a dangerous one. To make matters worse I spend a lot of money on alcohol even when I'm broke I either use my credit card or sell stuff for alcohol money. There are some days where I can barely function because I'm so tired and antisocial. The thing that makes me feel normal is coming home and drinking until I fall asleep because honestly I'm more happy and fulfilled when I'm at work and don't even think of drinking then. Anyone have any advice or experience with quitting heavy drinking? I would hate to put my life on a further hold because of my addiction. I would love to quit but I know I have to make some hard decisions about my personal life as well, like my relationships and coming to terms with my failed relationship with my mother throughout my entire childhood and young adulthood.",6.750100864553312,6.843577230547553,7.125203170028822,74.88065778097985,64.87896253602304,10.167665706051872,32.91195965417867,9.888512548439397,3.1366980979827086,1437,54,262,28,20,469,182,347,0.136,0.772,0.092,-0.9186,2,0,18,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,7,15,27,4,1,16,0,19,25,1,5,0,56,41,26,0,5,6,2,5,4,1,3,10,1,1,1,7,23,17,1,8,15,5,5,3,12,2,3,5,6,38,15,41,32,11,40,0,3,0,1,9,10,0,9,29,165,45,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12696239822574013,0.0,0.056903388819867076,0.05161892985042967,0.2489281108034152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03959958453359145,0.0,0.08909425350970979,0.0,0.0,0.040716991172010525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09724215212369583,0.17748766117186993,0.0,0.0495509273781888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10032298699393967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1502186366361126,0.0,0.050154918011058466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6274943686194479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07692303885341506,0.0,0.09812551603519462,0.0,0.0,0.05696182196216117,0.054895708193313936,0.0,0.08833116223395132,0.08320154279980058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06384810448841158,0.0,0.0,0.03042368416711707,0.0,0.033094443538821336,0.0,0.0,0.12840141238551755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06198877706110225,0.10432841412979828,0.11498358800585955,0.0,0.06189762358705481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058411189757228074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057786023185717086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032002645034704714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08226160946919991,0.11379635994101163,0.05836350811296665,0.0,0.05153326328688008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09901309712949544,0.05255642481760284,0.0,0.15548057210579866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05705474788874985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03945933853954348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11117758236125576,0.0,0.05084571502013353,0.0,0.0,0.05504782269242027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05571991711847834,0.0,0.0585389890403377,0.0,0.30968315193476176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057496824628409986,0.1875573096479648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046308222140371474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04482964347152781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060876465004663365,0.06666141802344422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07737316987037635,0.037312551920673585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06692882647043749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0568839550157416,0.0,0.0,0.05029353241426945,0.12826808390170408,0.0480472894594716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10471466707396077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042393405055040086,0.0,0.11868624930714305,0.12409848608355716,0.06366727352458873,0.0,0.11249800680549094 alcoholism,noodlecanoodle,2019/01/02,"The ways in which alcoholism has negatively affected me Just looking to relate or have a discussion with others. Hoping this is a judgement-free sub. I have racked up $6,000 in credit card debt. I considered getting a third card to support my habit. I gained back the 70 pounds I worked so hard to lose. I destroyed my credit, going from 740 to around 560. I lost several friendships and I lied to so many people I love. My apartment is so disgusting that I can’t even think about allowing another human inside. I was arrested for a DUI and lost my parents’ trust as well as causing a near $8,000 loss between us. I became pregnant and went through the process of an abortion after having sex while in a blackout. I’m sure there are so many more, but these are the most pertinent. 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She relapsed on Sunday and ended up incoherently texting a group chat full of work colleagues, some of whom don't know about her alcoholism. I texted her back individually hoping to prevent her from continuing to text the group chat. We'll all be back at work tomorrow and I'm worried about what to say to her, if I should say anything at all or just pretend like it didn't happen, and I'm worried that my coworkers who don't know about her alcoholism will start asking questions. I don't know what to do... 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I'm a 27 female .This will be short because I hate typing on my phone. So basically before I got pregnant I smoked and drank. Not every day would I drink but when I did. I would always go overboard and do cringy shit that made my anxiety even worse the next few days. They problem tho is that I LOVED how it made me feel. So that's why I would down more and more. Now that I'm pregnant, I obviously can't partake. I love and hate who I am sober. I'm a stable minded woman now but angry on the inside now that I have to actually deal with my emotional issues. My relationships are stable. ( Everyone has left me I believe due to my stupid actions as drunk me) therefore I don't have a lot of friends. Now I'm able to be more calm and make friends. The problem is how do I maintain this after birth! I hate feeling bored!! I hate that my father was an alcoholic and obviously so am I. I want to drink like a normal 27 year old woman and have a few. I have one 11 year old and I was sober for that pregnancy too but obviously still very young so I didn't make concious life choices. I want to be a better person. Especially for the new year. I guess how do I maintain this sobriety. When I think it's stupid and boring and I hate how I feel sober. :( Also ranting a bit. I do have support from my fiance but he is NOT always going to be sober especially with special occasions. But all in all he is not a big drinker. 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Started getting withdrawals somewhere in my early 20s. It's happened before but alcohol is starting to have a major negative impact on my life. Nevermind the health implications I started a new job about a month and a half ago and I've had mild withdrawals twice within that time. I'm verbally abusive to my girlfriend when I'm drunk. I lost all of last weekend, on the Friday I hit on all of my long term girlfriends friends whilst in the pub with her, on the Saturday I tried to touch up my best friends SO which resulted in us kicking the shit out of each other. I need to do something about this but I really don't want to. I managed to not drink for a bit, 9 months in total. Someone told me once it took 6 months of not drinking before our livers started repairing themselves which meant mines had 3 months rest in 9 years. I don't think I can do AA, I'm not a big fan of groups or the whole religious aspect and aside from a court ordered councilor I've never spoken to a professional about this. I know I need to cut out drink but I neither want to nor know how. Last time I did I didn't leave the house other than work for the better part of a year. Not sure what I'm looking for in this post. Direction maybe? Where did you all go when you made it to this stage? 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I just want to know if it could ruin my transition having a few drinks every few months,3.017500000000002,4.763005750000005,3.5122222222222237,91.255,74.83333333333334,7.022222222222222,20.333333333333336,7.793537801064563,0.5622333333333334,141,3,30,2,3,44,29,36,0.10300000000000001,0.784,0.114,-0.1531,0,0,3,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,3,4,0,1,0,8,7,3,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,3,1,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,6,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2861686244580214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7022288713271205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30198369579764633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19697785883569854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28608684399853257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26948668728743513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3095591729215957,0.0,0.0,0.21140497339760364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ne018,2018/11/16,"On forcing someone to quit drinking My wife's mom has been an alcoholic for the last 20 years, and she recently got very ill. She has been diagnosed with Korsakoff's Syndrome,and she can't walk on due to polyneurysm. Taking care of the lady is very difficult to everyone on the family. She manipulates and is simply mean to everyone when she doesn't get what she wants. We all agree that putting her on a nursing home would be the best, but no nursing home will receive her because of the addiction. My question is, she definetly is not willing to get into rehab, and it's illegal to force her. But since she can't walk or move to much on her own, maybe there's a way we can get her clean on our own? She drinks two liters of beer everyday (she used to drink more but her family managed to reduce the dose) , and smokes about 30 cigarettes. I have no expierence with alcoholism at all, I was wondering what would happen if we simply stop giving her alcohol...",7.037058823529414,6.482266101604277,7.22599465240642,76.56252139037434,64.45454545454545,11.544171122994651,34.7427807486631,11.00357731598739,3.710410053475936,759,30,148,19,10,246,115,187,0.08900000000000001,0.8440000000000001,0.067,-0.6301,0,0,9,0,0,0,21.0,4,0,0,2,3,3,0,0,9,0,19,12,0,2,2,27,31,10,0,4,6,2,0,0,0,4,8,0,3,0,4,10,7,1,3,4,0,5,6,1,0,1,4,0,25,2,24,22,7,21,0,0,0,0,26,8,0,4,7,103,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.138866126936007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4084006341543643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07765141311223593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336804595258827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12987532205130814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12929092814062207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3743601421096188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2434395756862517,0.0,0.0,0.2401704595611279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19965687068544996,0.12219725282903796,0.0,0.0,0.10187971501110296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11264424818492745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.255550802589233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10383403778742746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1279732108512874,0.13875728521913652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14918927372661406,0.0,0.13538782784188086,0.09364106376071113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12805496424740634,0.14269796345317706,0.13548735842261905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12577521311577394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10537242353260982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1079310894386338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10649778024704944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09577606263792128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12443455114628743,0.0,0.0,0.11001789748618952,0.0,0.2102084110020334,0.07513371505621315,0.10111059026786937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13814128496351033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.180978267181175,0.0,0.0,0.0820303896345896 alcoholism,katie_lain,2018/11/16,"Women in menopause and alcoholism hello everyone. I wanted to share an article today that highlights a subgroup of people falling into alcoholism late in life, and that's women who go through menopause. [https://riahealth.com/2018/11/07/menopause/](https://riahealth.com/2018/11/07/menopause/) I work for a telemedicine organization helping people with alcohol use disorder, and we see a growing number of older women who fall into this dependence. Hope this brings awareness to this issue...",14.184117647058821,17.994513882352948,9.669882352941176,49.95747058823531,49.882352941176464,10.734117647058824,41.541176470588226,10.793553405168565,5.660390588235295,416,19,40,9,5,115,50,68,0.062,0.79,0.14800000000000002,0.6124,0,0,3,0,0,0,30.0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,4,0,0,4,0,2,0,11,6,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,3,7,7,3,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,11,6,0,12,0,0,1,0,9,4,0,2,3,28,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6803783245650581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24321621624223946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20278006054177253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12060639769815963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14224291415463675,0.0,0.0,0.21077689380812484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2214968155462167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2393872130352851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14989338580802686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2942456447490784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16910749061909816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011545438564851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18328520208793614,0.0,0.0,0.1251696175108608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15449469225399254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,snowflakeflurries,2018/11/16,"How worried should I be? My best friend’s (30sF) husband (30sM) is a recovering alcoholic. I believe he has been sober for the past 8 months or so. He’s had some very close calls where he has gone cold turkey and needed hospital intervention. The last time he had seizures, DTs, a concussion, and broken wrist (from falling). His doctor leveled with him and said if he starts drinking again it will most likely be his last ride. He did an outpatient program for a while, then AA, but has stopped going to meetings for a few months now. I know she came very close to leaving him, but decided to give him another chance. I’m familiar with alcoholism - my mother is a recovering alcoholic and my dad has been with her for 40 years. I understand how difficult the struggles and pulls of that relationship dynamic can be. That being said, I’ve been hoping my friend would leave her husband, not only because of how severe his disease is (I selfishly want her to have the life she’s always dreamed of), but because he’s generally a bit of an asshole on top of it all. They’ve been happier the past 6 months or so, and kast week she told me she was pregnant (their first), and they were having twins. My mindset has had to evolve. I no longer want her to leave him (I never told her how I felt before) but now I am hoping they stay together. In order for them to have a chance at happiness he has to stay sober. I have kids, and I know the toll it can take on a marriage. It is not easy by any means with just one newborn, let alone twins. I’m very nervous that he will start drinking from the stress of it all. I’m jumping the gun and already am freaked out that he’s going to start drinking and die bc of his previous health issues, and then she’ll be a widowed single mom with twins. So my questions to all of you: Am I thinking irrationally? Or does this sound like a sad scenario to you as well? What can I do to help support her (and her husband)? I can provide additional details if needed. 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I suffer from depression (antidepressants saved my life). I never understood what depression was until I was diagnosed myself. Now, when people ask what it feels like, I’m able to put it into words. I realize it’s hard for people who have never experienced depression or another mental health disorder to really grasp what it’s like. I would say I have a healthy relationship with alcohol. I am a social drinker and that’s about it. Can someone who is an alcoholic explain what it feels like? I’m not sure if that makes sense...I would just like to be able to see more clearly through someone else’s struggle. 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Ever since I got accepted into the University of Pennsylvania Wharton School of Business (UPenn) under the Early Decision plan (December 15th was the day of results), I just went apeshit. After second semester started on January 22nd, I went nuts with my friends. Partying everyday, drinking too much, having sex for the first time, trying weed, everything imaginable that I haven't done in my life. My first semester GPA was a 4.7 (All A's in 5 AP classes), and as soon as second semester started, it dropped to C's because I come into school drunk as fuck. I am so addicted to drinking that I have to go ditch class and go to the bathroom and drink. I just love the taste. I've gotten threatened to be kicked out of high school last week because of being drunk. I definitely don't want to lose being rescinded from the ivy league school I got into, and now I'm facing serious consequences. I know I've let myself get out of hand, from the kid who got straight A's, teachers loved me, several awards, etc. to a wild party animal that just wants to skip school and drink and party all day. Idk what's wrong with me, and if I attend Penn next year with this mindset I'll be so fucked. 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I'm 30 now and I don't know how to stop drinking. The most I've gone without drinking in the last 15 years is like 2 weeks. I drink about a pint a night, sometimes less, sometimes more. &#x200B; The real problem here is I don't really ever feel happy or relaxed unless I have a beer or drink in hand. I can get through the day and I only have 1 DUI from over 7 years ago. I don't think I'm hurting anyone else with my addiction. I've never really loved myself. I've had very low self esteem since I was a child. I have really horrible social anxiety. I went through a really bad break-up about 18 months ago. We were together 6 years and he basically just stopped talking to me immediately after breaking up. Since then, I feel no reason to take care of myself. I don't feel worthy of anyone who would be stupid enough to date me. &#x200B; I'm a fat drunk with a shitty job, but it pays well. I'm completely lost and broken. The only thing I can think of to change right now is stop drinking. I just can't imagine my life without something to fill the void. &#x200B; I need help. The closest AA meeting to where I live is 30 minutes away.",1.940462608695654,3.867638847999998,3.564330434782608,88.86799130434784,78.52000000000002,6.267826086956522,23.269565217391303,7.255503002510835,0.8765513043478266,952,31,199,12,23,316,147,250,0.155,0.767,0.078,-0.9228,1,0,8,0,0,0,37.0,1,0,0,1,11,12,1,0,16,0,22,12,2,2,2,34,40,10,0,3,8,0,5,1,0,1,3,0,0,2,3,7,8,3,8,8,1,3,9,6,2,0,8,5,24,6,26,30,4,34,0,3,0,1,10,9,0,3,22,114,27,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0916868613150354,0.0,0.0,0.14910801083048136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2733831879920053,0.3065903320567138,0.0,0.0,0.0643400926547341,0.0,0.0,0.1176163391657416,0.0861755087031318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07901941343935248,0.0,0.0702241595963591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08575064995260719,0.0,0.08897193511603659,0.0,0.08818248940272863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05424076536306568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4119543907600888,0.0,0.0,0.07025893304551734,0.0,0.0,0.08690294479352245,0.0,0.0,0.0760777850720034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12757804097462694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043941389732781104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08953133344857779,0.07534155758879715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056373806767865166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09003613900665401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08346123210993524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04622190692702901,0.0685567980648237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0594058468046882,0.041089453325843385,0.0,0.07426625340515829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09181053964403464,0.0,0.07590804365396266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06713180635889382,0.0,0.0,0.0623627897354161,0.0648669587515043,0.0,0.0,0.07892684244618065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12793128057829006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08047712369521774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09572989974409964,0.2693990741986374,0.08647394479210659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07182520806939734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0877398547009692,0.0,0.0,0.20871756840994907,0.0,0.0,0.08573445305633069,0.0,0.06474813584520239,0.166363985585798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21094663090236632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0632364909005486,0.06760041091103683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05587562297615473,0.10778217239337798,0.0,0.0,0.04904230022349447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06939543088027163,0.0,0.0,0.06746395562095744,0.0,0.0756204930895348,0.07796617501901815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16214843201958368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05974577692269921,0.0,0.3065903320567138,0.1624825821240953 alcoholism,mtamwa,2019/05/03,"My First Weekend I decided not to drink any alcohol this weekend. I have been drinking pretty much every wknd for about 5 years. I never drank to get drunk. Anywhere between 3-4 glasses of wine 2 to 3 nights a week. So I have never been a heavy drinker or an every day drinker. In the last year, I had started not liking many things. That first sip of wine not hitting my stomach right. Nothing intense. Just that yucky feeling when it first hits. But I powered thru and after that initial yuck, I was fine. I had always woken up a few times during the night every night that I consumed wine. Alcohol puts me to sleep fast but interrupts my sleep about 4 hours later. Dry mouth. That yucky sort of burning feeling in my stomach. Still a little buzzed and when coupled with waking up from sleep, it's not a good feeling. The run down tiredness feeling the next day. Sometimes headaches. I have finally reached the point of being very tired of alcohol. I made a choice to actively start listening to what my body is telling me about alcohol while I was consuming it. It really makes you realize that our bodies really do see alcohol as poison. It can be subtle, but it is there. So, today when I woke up, after getting a full night of uniterputed sleep, it feels wonderful. I didn't drink last night. I always drank on Thursday nights after work. (I have off on Fridays and Saturdays. ) Absolutely no plans on drinking tonight. I feel so good about this decision. My day is much brighter. I have not made a decision yet if I am quitting for good or just keep it to a once a month event. I have never considered myself an alcoholic per say. I feel like it's just a bad habit that I got myself into. I never really drank until I was 46 yrs old (Am 53 now). I was in a bad relationship with an alcoholic 4 yrs ago and that's how I got started into drinking more frequently. I kept it up after that relationship, not really thinking about it. So, I made the decision to actively listen to my body. It tells us things. Good luck to all of you on your own journey thru this.",2.6810103329506307,4.994457189054732,3.9285074626865684,85.25627439724455,77.85572139303483,7.108151549942595,26.47684653654803,8.139509932561175,1.8761078453884432,1618,65,309,30,39,528,200,402,0.109,0.8,0.091,-0.8763,1,0,17,0,0,0,51.0,2,3,0,7,20,11,1,0,21,0,24,32,11,5,5,51,56,21,0,1,15,0,7,2,0,0,9,3,0,0,27,8,19,2,14,11,0,3,12,3,0,3,20,11,44,8,51,32,7,75,0,0,1,0,12,19,0,6,55,214,71,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05472133122081642,0.4618060829932466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10273125873637068,0.0,0.0,0.04197959910730965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10308660079557001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2057096453982264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06830483187501875,0.0,0.11943530883034804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3023672911884111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1560345849788299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2184934325327708,0.04410106132404567,0.0,0.06762394110546235,0.0,0.15752658066109712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0645044173945603,0.0,0.0,0.2071101205615192,0.0987447860705244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06079318277551076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05486987494773293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10063897260647893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060317874877480714,0.06187127218469195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17523577354119832,0.04120631670036752,0.06258614465565186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0492735674060213,0.0,0.09075964540595792,0.0,0.1904448360813342,0.0,0.06565224792247429,0.3475855010328717,0.0,0.059233126983881175,0.0,0.06477692093998706,0.06574213027893536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05835630741018994,0.0,0.0,0.0628032214944225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062057299868284614,0.0,0.06565914628463555,0.0,0.0,0.15818735304908332,0.0,0.0,0.1325532538014066,0.0,0.052718441871482384,0.0,0.04909143930982364,0.0,0.0,0.049192086033823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24710469339108415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06105412249651289,0.0,0.13108181464843835,0.0,0.04929892873831807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1079122638556358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0820234527982202,0.0395551112404182,0.0,0.0,0.03599618745382597,0.07095138338050745,0.05851433068550967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07425550380097244,0.0,0.0,0.05093502806804705,0.0,0.0,0.04951735913368102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0669452777215886,0.044941333854013873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07950624199200554 alcoholism,MargaritaceousMar,2019/05/03,"Dreams are weird I’ve been sober 26 days now and I just had the most vivid dream of drinking. I haven’t had any dreams like this since I started (none that I can remember anyway) but damn. That was really weird. Like in the dream it was a night in an old school house (?) where all of my friends (even ones who have since moved far away or who have passed away) were all partying and saying “it’s just one night!” And they had Bushmills (my fav). What’s weird to me is that in my dream, it was all happy fun sparkle time and the dream whisky ‘tasted’ good, but like throughout the entire dream there was a small part of my brain going “um no....gag... gross.... no... false....”. It was like I was on the brink of lucid dreaming to even stop myself drinking in the dream (I still drank in the dream) because I still remembered why I stopped in the first place. Idk. It was weird. I’m waking up and processing it and for some reason felt the need to write about it (on reddit? Lol my sobriety journal is within arms reach too. Wth). Anyway. Not much else to say and not expecting any comments in return. But hey, DREAMS ARE WEIRD.",1.2135135135135149,3.5921246396396387,1.6398666666666664,99.1218,84.13513513513513,4.813261261261261,16.988108108108108,6.152001189255117,-0.5566153513513511,858,18,192,7,25,259,129,222,0.079,0.67,0.251,0.9934,0,0,3,0,0,0,49.0,0,0,1,1,13,15,1,0,12,1,20,7,3,1,3,29,26,11,0,2,8,0,1,4,1,0,0,2,0,0,14,7,4,2,4,13,0,3,5,7,1,3,14,5,16,8,23,12,8,34,0,0,1,0,9,18,1,3,17,122,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18493409389412316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2555042753774997,0.0,0.0,0.08288854588452423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15179205869103954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08769204203627562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.266405693280728,0.0,0.0,0.11358890806225072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1796192139070475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13055645421609235,0.0,0.0,0.1156594952401015,0.0,0.0,0.1050532480404376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07727721137567031,0.11404861914128518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14474695192414494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15689584871417395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2657202968416072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14451894344868635,0.09995660476888732,0.10082306808121402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25520495292619483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1426819387753735,0.0,0.18427913081466105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14724669366389162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14206398804446094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0871084866927306,0.1398040155037258,0.0,0.0,0.3080642847948909,0.0,0.0,0.21626411494577036,0.0,0.13761304285021286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2249583520217989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09624316387601917,0.0,0.2171781748764796,0.2273608628821347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07928758792335848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12269547078476285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Ballyfromcali,2019/05/03,I’m a drunk I can’t help myself. I have a 15 year old daughter 2 times a week and every other weekend. She’s with me now and I’m drunk. 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I started when I was 21. I'm 28 now. I've drank every night for months. I used to be addicted to weed, but it was illegal, so I started something else. And, this became my new vice. I have an anxiety disorder. It existed before any of this. I even take Prozac and drink with it. I've known I've been addicted for years. I just don't ever mention it to my doctor. I've tried quitting. I even want to go back to weed instead, but I just keep telling myself this is legal and fine. But, I know it's not. My dad died around 40 from it. I was abused from it. Lived with it. Now I'm no better then him..and, I hate it. I just wish the nightmare was over. But, I enjoy nothing more then coming home after a long day of work to drink and play video games.",-0.9351253874330824,1.0847525739644972,1.5130684699915484,98.54832347140041,91.30769230769228,4.6391659622428865,16.923358692589463,6.1826913282559595,-0.4775446041138349,591,15,144,6,21,200,99,169,0.13,0.732,0.138,-0.1813,0,0,3,0,1,0,30.0,0,0,0,3,13,5,1,0,3,0,12,7,0,1,1,25,27,13,1,3,9,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,0,13,8,3,1,3,5,0,2,4,1,0,0,6,0,20,4,17,20,1,20,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,16,91,33,3,0.0,0.1859124732830016,0.0,0.3421097193043717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10670405520593054,0.0,0.1200355793754213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1396830026065209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12065396265357885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13351869603536434,0.0,0.0,0.13877398066765742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13516391230752034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1011938501714733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1628476156225859,0.0,0.1798322425903562,0.160603845001053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3074237659960692,0.0,0.0,0.1310780166213682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20727490657029687,0.14193391137500602,0.132203287022469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08917546413600401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15491595766548394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1573933385895066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.139468653585735,0.0,0.0,0.17246706210375615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13855424180639722,0.13886024905237296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12524391772406773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1515444775755513,0.0,0.1472492324830806,0.0,0.1505591998520876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16689290319378236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1207968418908624,0.0,0.0,0.22212315004067545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11797665358751072,0.0,0.13714609482589993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1065314648927902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1355197010888122,0.0,0.0,0.09254947457424503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18043854408793086,0.0,0.0,0.11423221446990554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10104477669075486 alcoholism,thehalflingcooks,2019/08/09,"My dad is an end stage alcoholic and I just hit the last straw... My dad has been a lifelong alcoholic. It was largely under control until my sister and I left home. FWIW he was a single father. It has gradually increased til we are where we are today. He drinks about a gallon of vodka a day. Wakes up in the night to drink due to withdrawal symptoms. He got help 2 years ago and maintained it for a little less than a year using Revia injections and counselling. This all came to a head recently. My sister has an 18 month old. He'd never met the baby before. He rolled up in his car, opened the door and fell out. Gallon of vodka in the car with him, and his damn 14lb dog. Pants fell down multiple times on the way into her house. He was drunk around the baby, didn't control his aggressive dog, and it bit my niece in the face. A graze, much to my relief, but still. He left after an hour to go drive to his next location. I am angry. I think this is the hill I am ready to die on. This is not my father. It's some fucking zombie. He called my sister the next day, was pretty blase about it and didn't apologise. I need to know where to go from here.",0.8893305439330526,2.9999716903765723,2.703253556485354,92.70900585774059,83.14225941422595,5.4976401673640165,17.509790794979082,6.742157984588678,-0.09016632635983246,890,19,194,10,25,295,141,239,0.068,0.868,0.064,-0.5932,0,0,6,0,0,0,32.0,2,0,0,2,8,4,3,0,21,0,18,10,3,3,2,28,29,11,1,1,3,7,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,0,9,16,5,2,2,5,0,9,4,3,0,0,10,0,23,1,33,17,7,52,0,0,0,1,26,19,2,1,22,124,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12025302069180482,0.28995522907925797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1207647716480336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.115435339565798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14810387976639836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13852243337329867,0.15515711398278587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30430494840998257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1749769403592817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14079204160213438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26578724831879186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12015311107645348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254140405509464,0.0,0.0,0.15419563385716034,0.0,0.10849844601395142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1392246955042736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09092899186267027,0.0,0.13607647486807434,0.0,0.1335962357480655,0.1565316243389699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07455433010141717,0.11057973358152826,0.0,0.0,0.2947865810253646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13596539426701185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1082812714647792,0.0,0.09972456145978872,0.10058901332910304,0.1046281509559846,0.0,0.2885485770083578,0.1273062549081923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14235071114615788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380134021850668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13394634220019005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1083370043343826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14100106043453306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08692444983230224,0.0,0.0,0.07910352650675953,0.0,0.12858833770504027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11716533472510099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1076793542112051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1747191734939967 alcoholism,corinalizett,2019/08/09,"I just want to feel like I’m being heard. Hello reader! I don’t even know where to begin because this journey has been going on for half of my life and it’s all been a blur. I’ll start off with saying that I, personally, am not an alcoholic, my mom is. My mom and I have always had a great relationship, with the occasional slam of the door behind me, all was well. We are still able to hang out and talk about anything and out of everyone I know, I feel the most comfortable with my mom at the end of the day. She’s my everything and growing up, I only had her. My biological father wasn’t ever around, so I grew an extreme attachment to my mom. Every time she would bring a man around when I was younger, it was rough on me. Being THAT little, I still knew somehow that those men weren’t good for her... Years later, I was right. She got engaged (and we moved into an apartment with) in 2007 to a man who she decided to bring around on my 7th birthday (in 2005) and from the day I met him, I knew he was bad news, but nonetheless she got married in October 2008, a month after my birthday. 2008, my mom was drinking, but socially. Able to keep to a minimum, with the occasional weekend night out where she got plastered, but still “normal,” (if ‘normal’ is the right word for it?) I started a new school in 2008/09 and that was rough on me. The three years leading up to high school, were just the beginning of my rollercoaster of emotions I was about to deal with (until present day.) Anyways, time goes on, things get even more stressful on my mom, our family has a history of mental health issues, so as time is passing and without getting help, her alcoholism is worsening because her depression and anxiety are, too. Her marriage is in shambles only a few years in and they were struggling with bills and with rent getting higher, (since we live in silicon valley, you know how that is) everything was too much on my mom. She did something illegal which caused her to go to jail for 2 weeks (which was supposed to be a year) and two months prior to turning herself in (because no, it wasn’t all dramatic, where the cops came in through our apartment door and arrested her in front of us) she explained what was happening and what would happen after she went to jail and where I would go. I was only 16. I had *some* prior knowledge of her alcoholism at this age. I wasn’t made too aware of it though, I didn’t know what to look out for, I was blind to it. I didn’t really ever have a second thought about the Captain Morgan under our sink and how one day it would be completely full and I’d see it the next and it’d be nearly empty. I wish I would’ve known the severity of it and how behind the scenes, my immediate family, (my moms parents, siblings and nieces,) were having interventions with her every now and then to try and get her help. I wish I would’ve known because maybe her alcoholism wouldn’t be where it’s at now. Maybe I could’ve helped in ways other people couldn’t have. A year prior to finding all of this stuff out, I was hospitalized due to my depression and taken out of public school to finish high school on an online platform, so you can imagine how hard this was on me. Not relapsing after that still remains to be the toughest thing I’ve done. October 2014, (again... a month after my birthday) my mom, her husband and I moved all of mine and my moms things to my grandmas house. We originally lived there to begin with, so it wasn’t some massive change, but it felt different this time. As soon as my mom and I moved in, I was quickly made aware at how severe my moms alcoholism was. Her husband moved in with his parents and this is when their marriage really started to crumble. December 2014 would be the worst month for me. The last two weeks of December was when she would be in jail. My first Christmas without my mom was really hard. Those two weeks all I would do was cry and bullshit my way through my online courses. She eventually came back home and everything felt alright again. She started going to rehab, she was looking for work, everything felt right. But then she started going back down the hole, she was out of work for a year, the rehab she was going to (which was court ordered) wasn’t even for alcohol, it was for drugs (she wasn’t even doing drugs, that I know of, at least) and it was starting to get bad again. Time passes, but in 2015 or 16, she was arrested again for a probation violation, but again, was only in there for about a month till she was released. Fast forward to 2018. My mom would’ve been hospitalized around 10 times throughout the year, all hospital stays being from 2 to 3 days to weeks, occasionally. My 21st birthday took place on September 5th. My mom had been feeling ill on my birthday, we went out for lunch and she bought me drinks. She wasn’t able to stomach her food, not even her Captain Morgan and Coke. That would be the beginning of something extremely scary. In the next three months she would lose up to 40 pounds, was no longer eating, wasn’t able to use the restroom normally and was unable to get herself from point A to point B without a helping hand. January 2019. I came home one night from being out on the town with my best friend. It was late, Saturday going into Sunday. When my friend and I walk through my garage to get into the house, I drop my stuff off in my room as my friend follows behind. She stays in my room while I go to the restroom. While in the bathroom, changing into PJs, I hear coughing coming from my moms room. It’s nearly 3 or 4 in the morning, so my mom being up isn’t normal. Being so abnormal, I rush out of the restroom and go into her room. As I open the door, she’s slow to meet my gaze. Her movements are slow, she’s not responding to any of the questions I’m asking and if she did, it didn’t make any sense. I asked her if I should call an ambulance, she told me not to, but I did it anyways because she wasn’t coherent. The EMTs came and I was in the hospital with her all night. Trying to text her husband to come see her, but he responds with, “It’s late, I have to work tomorrow. I’ll go after work.” Asshole. Turns out because she wasn’t going to the restroom normally, none of the toxins in her body were being released, so they were going to her brain. For the next month, she would be hallucinating. It’s like she wasn’t even there. It’s like I didn’t have my mom anymore. She was diagnosed with a bunch of blood related diseases, all alcohol induced, which I can’t remember any of the names of, all I remember is one being pancreatitis and another being cirrosis of the liver. Her pancreas has shrunk beyond repair and her liver has some scarring, but nothing sobriety wouldn’t fix. At that point, she was on her way to death, but luckily I checked in on her when I did because if I hadn’t, she wouldn’t have made it another week, let alone another day. As the days went by, I was getting really scared because she wasn’t getting better. Her blood pressure would rapidly increase then decrease, none of her levels in any area were safe. She was bed ridden and was actually put on watch when she was badly hallucinating because the doctors thought she would wander off. I’ve gone this far without being religious and I know some of you will click off, but by the grace of God, she got better. She’s been out of the hospital since, she’s only gone back for check ups, which is good, but I think she’s starting up again and I feel helpless. The doctors made it clear that if she were to drink again, the damage on her liver would be irreversible and her lifespan would go from living till she’s 70/80 to only living for a couple more years. She’s 42. I don’t know what I’ll do without her. I just came on here to vent because I woke up this morning from a horrible dream about her demise. She hasn’t been at my grandmas house in two days. Her texts to me have all been short. I know she’s relapsed as when I’ve talked to her on the phone, she sounds like it. I’m just stuck and don’t know what to do or say to her. I know her guilt, depression and anxiety get worse when she hears how this all makes ME feel and I feel bad scolding her over text or phone call (since I no longer live at my grandmas, I moved out and moved in with my best friend about a month ago) but I don’t know how else to get my point across then telling her exactly how I feel. I don’t know. This is all so much and if you’ve made it this far, thank you. Thank you for listening even if you don’t have a comment.",4.8821688306039475,5.327804909571345,5.387672897501143,84.52108699789045,68.90017615971814,8.53876383723712,28.80433766120789,8.487003170913871,1.8780259498488503,6663,222,1382,95,108,2140,523,1703,0.098,0.841,0.062,-0.9969,6,1,14,0,0,0,216.0,9,6,3,11,83,40,1,5,74,1,163,35,9,20,17,252,283,115,1,34,39,24,15,4,4,19,19,7,11,4,66,100,14,2,38,5,5,50,46,17,1,12,114,29,231,23,251,127,32,298,0,6,7,0,182,125,0,19,122,987,297,12,0.09891864419666584,0.0,0.024132581887493443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.021921352417720388,0.1849994082397426,0.0,0.025612470771385367,0.0,0.0,0.020577059044748863,0.0,0.0,0.06726807011857817,0.07779361748675731,0.03783624602910695,0.0,0.024525178702622292,0.0,0.0,0.020350403939785024,0.08805856530546133,0.046237789644231066,0.0,0.0,0.057046748627793686,0.08259293606968758,0.1507497184315657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051904507144516165,0.04374275112679764,0.0,0.02746907852260844,0.0,0.027606480320816227,0.05050349774611882,0.1414207209168615,0.0,0.025404173996143874,0.05232140470796176,0.04260482656004198,0.025928579108560387,0.0,0.0,0.019744622076925573,0.02736289958523212,0.027164371447086246,0.1275886843431837,0.025495194665917882,0.0638988624747593,0.02510008540962836,0.0,0.025837232356330092,0.0,0.050623711938567635,0.0,0.02530702920822494,0.0,0.07267695944368235,0.05735711133854045,0.02530461701994633,0.020658458565781596,0.027817540158933268,0.02190313953728349,0.0,0.0,0.1143359552439047,0.044738788437570634,0.041671612030916,0.023630250898820745,0.08890169909296505,0.0,0.04662584710736534,0.0,0.08752841768743835,0.01766687479474444,0.07123305820777155,0.0,0.022602462183353725,0.02103503705526779,0.029903204302293467,0.0,0.07642429912803772,0.0,0.14212249940977148,0.0,0.1827076715035496,0.04148413279443864,0.0791142761541932,0.0272645386100788,0.0,0.0,0.043736715189636184,0.0,0.044305837799195495,0.0,0.0,0.02628647328417901,0.05574425059886097,0.0,0.06630308208949519,0.05225648930210355,0.04961173273125799,0.0,0.0,0.08560412574866713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02581134116768208,0.0,0.02198085899978869,0.0,0.0,0.1630892997133605,0.020157974378963016,0.055792269623353284,0.0,0.0,0.025287753908570108,0.017467290941989618,0.048326652980774834,0.024785617086328943,0.10918371887403616,0.0,0.04153337391402395,0.02766616511170184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1169990161145528,0.03301448155856748,0.0,0.049688536832499804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.024921681859206155,0.0,0.0,0.5213354424680176,0.15791183611772933,0.15770229626130608,0.03635829260481315,0.0,0.0,0.02388406074155676,0.078900825233029,0.06962133498438138,0.12114908611991138,0.023728776739321986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05027237500672063,0.11284812953458045,0.0,0.0,0.0549187240740493,0.0,0.0,0.017144433216779872,0.021592986160639056,0.025837232356330092,0.0,0.09351009209724526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.024860139732626255,0.02770288002387247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06336981642903049,0.0,0.0,0.026550401149513698,0.05602777041878619,0.06335698624624743,0.0,0.039332038084424384,0.02475870483446638,0.1001109489413968,0.039412676192352565,0.0,0.0,0.05587495593479209,0.0,0.06136989350740956,0.0,0.0,0.02520877515997458,0.0,0.03807620251514916,0.0,0.0,0.1225264696142684,0.052717056584618914,0.07899655703387913,0.0,0.02832774317901713,0.025852811113656584,0.056619090763453124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039753529616816885,0.021614813760904416,0.04553549871865408,0.0,0.0,0.04928786385109105,0.015845768260357822,0.024296766421458848,0.03926517708618707,0.08652038537061066,0.0,0.0,0.023630250898820745,0.02747556334785876,0.03357963310959886,0.053797539841117584,0.09662914193897766,0.0,0.02974673735929275,0.02135848712051645,0.0,0.0,0.014586194810222797,0.0588877616095652,0.09918321211740908,0.0,0.02223493519609888,0.06877393064534841,0.0,0.0,0.056875779521107124,0.11919255385691994,0.0,0.0720139510905391,0.0,0.025201637323150044,0.29864310857172804,0.0,0.0,0.1274007273750172 alcoholism,bsbhnxtx,2019/08/09,"Fighting the urge to quit Inpatient. Tomorrow is the end of week two of my first 30 day inpatient program. I’m fighting the urge to say fuck it and quit, go home see my son and my dogs and throw in the towel on all of this. I’m coming off of three of the most horrific, disaster filled years of my life, starting out with my sons mother leaving me. I then found myself going through the living nightmare that is the family court system, coupled with jumping into the most mentally, emotionally and physically abusive relationship I’ve ever been in. I thought, no matter how hard, difficult or abysmally toxic this relationship was, she was the one. The absolute and only one. I feel so powerless against this addiction to her. June started with her rounding up a team of strong arms, including her ex boyfriend that she just never seemed to be able to get rid of in her life, and moving out of our home for the umpteenth time. What came after, was me going into the ER for an AFib attack, to which I then blacked out and didn’t come to fully another 24 days later. My DTs were, according to the main doctor, some of the worst he had ever seen in his 30 years of practice. I was having unintelligible conversations I didn’t know I was having. I hazily remember two extreme hallucinations. At some point, I managed to get out of the bed, and immediately fall face first into a wall, splitting my eyebrow completely open. I got a nosebleed later on that wouldn’t stop, they shoved what I equate to a Crayola marker up my nose to make it stop, following with coughing up a blood clot so big the nurses were in shock. They were at another point ready to give me a blood transfusion, my parents were told if I made it out on the other side, which was an enormous if, I would most certainly have brain damage and never walk straight again. When I finally started to come back, shackled to a hospital bed, I then decided to check myself out one day early of their planned release. I was home for an hour and half before I was back at the bar, drowning the pain of everything going on with the thought of losing almost an entire month of my life without even knowing it. I was talked into treatment. A great friend of mine, who had been in this same facility late last year had flown out to get me on a plane and turn right back around again. I’m in one of the most high end rehabilitation centers Southern California has to offer...and yet, I’m still just not buying what they’re selling. I’ve got freedoms most people don’t get in these situations, set aside that I have the opportunity to even have this chance here. I’m seriously doubting my strength to get through the next two weeks...and I’ve already planned to fail. I’ve been planning to fail since day two. I’ve sat for two weeks now listening to how sick of a sociopathic, narcissistic piece of trash I’ve been dealing with, and still I feel the same back home. It’s been suggested countless times by now, that going back home is a terrible idea. I’m of the realization that I’ve got nothing and no one back there, other than my two amazing dogs and my son. It’s all glitz and glamour, and truthfully, I couldn’t be surrounded by more caring and dedicated people. I just cannot find the strength to power through this. I want to run home, I want to start another life here. I want to call, I know it’s done, and should be done, and should never be again. I want to throw that band-aid on. I know, deep in the pit of my stomach, I’m going to get out of here either tomorrow or in two weeks, and I’m going to drink it all away, and it sounds like a better plan to go home, not deal, and shovel off the shame of wasting everyone’s time, and certainly money that is not mine, and dissolving. I don’t know why this pain is so intense and great, but hypnotherapy and acupuncture are not getting me anywhere. I could’ve stayed put or moved anywhere and called a therapist for a couple hundred every week and not listen to their advice instead of occupying a bed for someone that could use this and has the drive to change and be better. I wasn’t ready when I came into this, I’m not ready now and when my two weeks are up, I just truly don’t believe I’ll be ready then. This was the one and only shot I had at this, and I feel like whether I want to or not, I’m going to blow it.",7.270693875335812,6.103698939323222,7.466337955550731,77.03055140973109,64.27421236872812,10.539187539008443,34.04925239477897,9.589985622208136,2.9128774741526686,3409,121,686,55,43,1110,359,857,0.069,0.85,0.08199999999999999,0.894,4,0,1,0,4,0,95.0,1,0,4,19,37,34,4,2,49,0,58,20,7,5,11,137,127,53,1,13,21,6,5,2,1,4,10,4,10,0,39,59,2,2,16,3,4,26,22,17,1,18,40,13,72,17,121,75,17,148,0,4,4,1,38,54,1,16,67,467,111,6,0.04884602761239398,0.057874555359143036,0.0,0.053249380041979315,0.0,0.04773177286015234,0.0,0.0,0.048912240859742544,0.0,0.05390280610369839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15365795674559976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04348332053426328,0.0,0.05556940805059978,0.0458924508547481,0.22535748089150875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04156437181821848,0.05503274623540153,0.0,0.0864006839856648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054528321166660385,0.09975451101108183,0.11173368571669147,0.04980178056792445,0.0,0.05167262046178516,0.12622958299563186,0.05121413061702968,0.0,0.0,0.07799915682211084,0.1080944009736407,0.0,0.12600658751580895,0.10071621929300646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04999597904469664,0.0,0.0999728904520737,0.0,0.0478505111832174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05494520656836629,0.08652616439094536,0.0,0.0,0.06452468112025632,0.08836805692653381,0.04115488497533817,0.046674472634169024,0.04389966000797735,0.0,0.04604768764783358,0.0,0.07409405765921974,0.03489561188619207,0.0,0.05350843567441037,0.04464438431732568,0.08309681226819511,0.0,0.05355714807495105,0.037738319765525184,0.045157365433255416,0.1786402336742352,0.046857560584071235,0.2498429083434441,0.0,0.11719989135352114,0.10770583576858037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04375644640310785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05160851000550525,0.3429758384981976,0.0,0.048103497915227715,0.0,0.0,0.05514121961547732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13422249670895572,0.03981603189656116,0.05510044672998665,0.05172089043191338,0.0,0.0,0.1380055754051514,0.04772740356651744,0.0,0.043131937282454534,0.0,0.0,0.05464621056829199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0462192923743854,0.032605102726893515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04922530712498841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03898843322192657,0.1038311942138721,0.0,0.0,0.11301920327028855,0.0,0.051948304511882364,0.0,0.0,0.0468690808787418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1985959947317329,0.07429921017105791,0.10395123456119937,0.0,0.054237733125923226,0.0,0.0,0.06772737051597405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09235056905022768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049103749113810234,0.0,0.10390752588433012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10488470708036622,0.05533302732083231,0.04171424069082391,0.0,0.03884432169336751,0.0,0.0,0.038923959890563985,0.04446758900982566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04040593880189401,0.05490498160466109,0.0,0.0,0.04138708068463056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1382938790127074,0.052063366264035904,0.07801700149648791,0.0816749325285877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0392605867402014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056714002865238734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0775565795400208,0.08544753453040685,0.0,0.0,0.046674472634169024,0.0,0.0,0.053130451552360985,0.3817237709752056,0.0,0.0,0.042187284717469783,0.0,0.0,0.14405326321363293,0.0,0.19590668501848266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044075942406604215,0.0,0.0,0.047085827543787616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034698816554847176,0.0,0.0,0.09436572090737758 alcoholism,thraway433884,2019/08/09,"From a future alcoholic Hi I am 19 years old and I am worried about my future with alcohol. I started drinking about 4 years ago, and have been drinking until drunk on average 2 times a month since then. The first two years I had a great experience. Had fun and became social and all that. But in the last two years things started changing. People used to tell me that I become extremely kind, caring and nice when drunk, but lately i've been told that is not the case anymore. I have noticed that I have much more aggresive and bad tendencies when I drink. When Im at bars/clubs drunk I seem to want to steal glasses and stuff if I get the chance. I cant stop myself from saying things I regret. I can be very mean towards others, with no filter stopping me from saying the things that my messed up brain generates. Sometimes I also lie about things, perhaps for attention. For an example I told a friend I was bisexual when I am hetero. More recently it has become worse. Some of my friends have told me that I am annoying when I drink, that I don't realise when to stop. I have the classic trait of an alcoholic in the way that I want more once I reached a certain point. More recently I realized that every, and I really mean every time I wake up after drinking I have extreme anxiety and regret for things I did the night before. I sometimes become sexually offensive towards people, mostly towards people that mean alot to me. I become clingy. This is the by far worst thing, and what made me realise that I have to stop drinking. Before I've just hurt and made a fool of myself, but now that I have the potential to hurt other people I realized that it is necessary that I stop drinking. I have been feeling endlessly terrible about this the last few months, thinking that the things I do when I drink is a reflection of who I really am. This is a thought that scares the shit out of me. I have started to think about suicide, and recently I tied a bedsheet around my neck and pulled up just to see what it would feel like. I am not acutely suicidal though. I used to feel much more smart and confident. Things were clearer. Now I feel as if everything is a blur that I dont understand. I feel like I have problems burried within me that come out when I drink. I need to handle/ face these problems, but the first step must be to stop drinking. I have alcoholism in my family. My father drinks alot but I wouldnt call him an alcoholic. But in one month I move away from home to go to university, and in a year I can legally buy liquor in stores. The freedom these two things mean really makes me worried that once I have the possibility to buy alcohol whenever I want, I will start to buy alcohol whenever I can. It is hard for me to stop drinking, because in my social circuit there is A LOT of drinking and peer pressure. Once two or three friends used force to open up my mouth and poured down liquor. Another reason that it is hard to stop is that I have almost never been confronted with the bad things I've done, partly because it is sort of socially accepted in my circuit to go insane when drinking. It could also partly be because after all I am very liked by these people and therefore they don't want to openly criticise me. Perhaps they're thinking that bringing it up would create an uncomfortable atmosphere. I don't know. I dont know why I made this post, mostly for myself I think. I would like to know if anyone has been in a similar situation, and how I can avoid any traps that potentially could make me develop alcoholism. I know I'm a fucking asshole. I dont deserve help. But I really want to change.",4.39507238547969,5.731153807584271,5.245786516853934,81.84039757994816,70.61516853932585,8.566810717372515,29.001296456352634,9.004326427715196,2.3549015989628352,2869,109,553,55,52,935,285,712,0.152,0.7120000000000001,0.136,-0.9714,0,1,22,0,0,1,65.0,0,0,1,2,24,36,5,3,37,0,68,34,6,11,5,118,118,46,2,20,15,1,7,4,3,6,8,2,1,0,54,28,27,9,26,19,4,7,12,21,0,8,18,10,92,15,78,89,19,89,0,4,1,1,19,29,2,14,55,407,146,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03434743706817992,0.33127546987493584,0.03880015545876536,0.0,0.0,0.06197293317641471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02634971785805593,0.04063026967217749,0.02964183173138519,0.0,0.03842723824800335,0.02709324458950649,0.0,0.0,0.034493606650137426,0.0,0.0,0.036404674908557186,0.0,0.06470530695078364,0.07086058882053904,0.1711748571943423,0.06594276032935333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04325517091393888,0.03956566359371935,0.0,0.03950579229644723,0.0,0.08197971189372316,0.03337765323933282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06187366101317585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0396522795012156,0.13623580520106826,0.5314109793537676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0652931007397371,0.0,0.03482387236726228,0.037902618299203536,0.036527818146298206,0.0,0.09795983259051684,0.05536263079401753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06591743043176496,0.0,0.0,0.08980897100096684,0.0358215605770921,0.020244037998078283,0.0,0.044042343382546416,0.0,0.0,0.04271940007431471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06942053330298616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02597172035853029,0.0,0.03886703327785488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0829602809713229,0.0,0.04185409071038327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040349695140194215,0.08517873884870325,0.0631689818410771,0.043709015604118745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07572054133991915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03294185032928014,0.0,0.10999183626421903,0.05172868927351538,0.0,0.0,0.16883011808264864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0927839684002001,0.041182599755752634,0.05696793443003075,0.0287308774881123,0.02988456181679617,0.0,0.0,0.03636202694692725,0.0,0.0,0.0441144348201802,0.0406591207819574,0.12379488759356948,0.026256397627113817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0839198170954119,0.0,0.13431364310053748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03662903572675467,0.043682132122002455,0.03710951975528958,0.0,0.0,0.07415249995366592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09929089867916932,0.039839018175366496,0.1147758334742802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06162734292688811,0.038793138305830366,0.0,0.0308768453106726,0.03527438809040088,0.0,0.0,0.039773886501455975,0.0320524408494479,0.04355396081382307,0.0,0.11849499089388275,0.0,0.0,0.076644795856289,0.0,0.1097030908903849,0.0,0.0,0.25915803680151034,0.0,0.0,0.044356767315214415,0.08476723884766971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033867137448734916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2574220436755359,0.09931166978176817,0.0380693508191913,0.030761290937701143,0.04518811058435536,0.0,0.0,0.1110750660159703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15140322131851391,0.04033765047937101,0.0,0.10039653734827714,0.0,0.06394170726854337,0.11427178368414713,0.030756066010104582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034963710255511565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07870020046518968,0.0394871463893926,0.08257561621990699,0.0,0.0,0.12476102017365864 alcoholism,djbadgerking,2019/08/09,"Drinking to fill the void of an empty life I'm sure some of you have had similar circumstances, I'm a 22 year old guy, was forced into college when I wasn't exactly that ready, ended up never going to classes and using financial aid money to help fuel the parties with me, my roommates, the friends we made in our dormitory, drinking and smoking etc., that was 2 years ago, since then, all of those friends are gone, and all of my lifelong friends have moved on in their lives, in committed relationships and either finished with their degrees or working 40 hours a week at decent jobs, I have no friends left. As of now I've been living with my mom and dad, working 25 hours a week minimum wage job, and though the friends and parties have come and gone, the drinking hasn't stopped, I've been on anywhere from 4-12 5% beers every night just in a vain attempt to fill the empty miserable void that is my life and for a brief moment, love myself and like the fact that I'm alive. I never drink during the day, have never missed work, and so far haven't let anybody down because of my drinking but, maybe that's just because I have nobody to let down. It's crazy, the friends I make, when they get deep into knowing me, they love me, they see this greatness and this potential in me that I don't, and they believe I'm this great person and i cant see it, and it's not due to my fuckups that causes the rift, the rift just happens anyway. My fuckups come after, when I'm trying to deal with what I lost, what I cant have, or don't deserve, i will never stop drinking because it has never been the cause of my problems, though they may exaggerate my procrastination or laziness, drinking is the only breath of fresh air I have from the nightmare that is my life, even if it were terrible, even if I were struggling like plenty of people who have it much, much, worse than me, at least then it would be something. It would be interesting, experiences to strengthen myself for, something to get through and be a better person on the other side, but it's just, emptiness, an imagination too vivid and intellect wasted, dreams thrown in the trash, finally understanding why my entire extended family have struggled with the same problems, because they aren't as much problems as they are brief breaks from the real problems that relentlessly weigh down on us all Sorry for the rant and long run on sentences, kind of a rant I won't blame anybody for not reading through",19.526283590623216,7.578669945492668,16.535654659805605,53.74543739279591,54.995807127882614,19.19031827711073,59.296550409757955,11.20814326018867,6.791018448637318,1952,76,371,22,11,615,233,477,0.124,0.733,0.14300000000000002,0.7888,3,0,10,0,0,0,55.0,3,1,9,6,15,27,0,3,28,0,42,15,1,5,12,74,66,36,0,8,14,2,0,2,6,5,3,0,0,3,26,28,9,2,3,10,2,11,17,11,0,0,13,3,44,16,57,43,11,66,0,3,3,2,30,24,0,7,32,258,70,10,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060525692801374625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16649029628859918,0.0,0.0,0.07692766030037641,0.0,0.06038770479432989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14028379288499845,0.0,0.11763355631947395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044034654924190515,0.07039320799446643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.468215687007417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06047540634160945,0.0,0.07614973641291313,0.09019598493189702,0.0,0.057528457648498815,0.0,0.0,0.06679049231509132,0.06436787395341102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07479689901641977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3165156211697587,0.0,0.07134648343623673,0.0,0.038804836304572564,0.0,0.0,0.1505568686492977,0.0,0.06760747987720322,0.06037937206760208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0457663366504833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13448318683039107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13551381625641007,0.0,0.0,0.07110263417432693,0.037524649732463417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07418592041374257,0.1396409122522595,0.14468357592378486,0.06671586900059484,0.0,0.12058417020182688,0.06042524461068612,0.0,0.0,0.07453518409203133,0.0,0.12324990202106223,0.06460775204442341,0.04557712340766016,0.0,0.0685959757127616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07996817247203115,0.0,0.07257034568928128,0.15057995558721926,0.0,0.2633069542330983,0.0,0.0,0.06407572327030825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07164789178120606,0.0,0.0,0.05192966725826082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04733643610846206,0.11923812200260965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2613371951881333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06829801780035549,0.07771706525419363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07330667347100843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10881990701312988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056481541389449476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10512985205291914,0.0,0.07643335533496902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11416950623797112,0.0,0.14276120138028073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06435265875960319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13416860351218227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04635732593604738,0.0,0.0,0.07108140955021787,0.0821318800475247,0.0589716001788966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10953945748017213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06161166499615926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14912495582146829,0.0,0.06958268493870863,0.09700765291045027,0.0,0.0,0.08793957075315614 alcoholism,thesimplefrog,2019/08/03,"Can you help someone who doesnt want to be helped? Hard to put a backstory to this, but the person in question is ultimately in denial. They reach out for help, and goes with the programmes for a while but then they have a feeling of control and then likes to do things in their own terms, which given their track record it just leads them down a dark path.",4.37732394366197,5.469359126760569,3.908563380281693,92.33185915492956,70.40845070422534,6.806760563380282,24.059154929577463,6.742157984588678,0.5136061971830981,282,7,61,2,5,84,55,71,0.032,0.805,0.16399999999999998,0.8654,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,5,2,1,1,0,0,6,0,6,0,0,2,0,12,9,7,0,1,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,4,0,1,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,2,6,1,13,7,2,11,0,0,0,0,12,5,0,1,5,45,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3361400048044857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15153776262926427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2684731082901841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6026495182800458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14641870443588925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.261687235803448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3012821478197019,0.33573355918953596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2539355708207194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19910793801121607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.176771335487432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,DarkXfusion,2019/08/03,"I’m worried that I’m losing hope and giving up on my dad I don’t understand my dad, or really this whole situation. For starters, he’s been a alcoholic my whole life. I would say he’s gotten very close to abusive at times, and I wondered if the police should have been called. The only thing that stopped me from getting him in jail is that he’s a completely different person when sober. When I eat lunch or call him while he’s at work, he’s a perfectly nice guy. But during the weekends he’s horrible. He can be tormenting and threatening. The worst part, he won’t remember. He constantly gets confused why everyone is angry at him, despite us showing him texts or voice recordings of him being terrible. He’s been to rehab 3 times before each time leaving too early (like 1 month when it should have been a full 3) or immediately going back to alcohol. Which brings me to today, idk the full story, but from what I understand he drank so much that he had to call the hospital. The doctors told him you need to cut that shit now. So he elected to get on a medical leave from work for 3 months to get “fixed”. And instead of going to rehab, all of July he literally sat on his ass drinking. Only last week when he drank so much he couldn’t balance himself walking was he went to a detox facility. He left after 4-5 days despite everyone telling him to stay. Now idk what he’s doing, but he’s said he’ll go to AA, even though it didn’t work before. He’s likely drinking rn as I type this. I don’t get it, everyone is trying to get him to stop. He lives on his own now and my mom is trying to cut his name off of as much stuff as she can, like our house or bank, so he can’t claim it or lose it when someone sues if my dad does something. I’ve gone out of my way to support him, from dealing with his rants to driving to lunch with him. I’m a 19 yr old so there’s only so much I can do. I’ve prayed and talked and I’m slowly coming to the conclusion that we just need to cut him off so when he does something it won’t impact us. I want him to be a good dad, but I think I have to accept life and just let him do his thing.",3.9277903277123767,4.00086607349666,5.302235921094496,85.60952951002228,70.89309576837418,8.552370346802418,27.394288895959267,8.418075326091056,1.6190222080814505,1653,51,370,24,28,557,217,449,0.115,0.8320000000000001,0.053,-0.9712,1,0,6,0,0,0,43.0,4,1,0,7,24,18,4,1,16,0,33,18,2,0,2,50,67,38,0,10,14,5,0,3,0,6,9,3,0,2,20,15,9,2,7,4,1,9,7,9,1,0,15,3,44,9,51,41,13,55,1,2,0,1,68,16,2,11,31,222,64,5,0.0,0.0954591806987333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17220407204292176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061951348500613374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13711382680706288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24680493438857004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06940167112547928,0.08447337380929393,0.08706472469977854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05195930030157068,0.08306143967001108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08417577291434683,0.0,0.08246413589221306,0.14101012892993744,0.0,0.0,0.15785073648410813,0.0,0.08244055193603822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05321400014534727,0.0,0.0,0.23095677657760225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525588106485616,0.07728758026976452,0.13736491039889598,0.06757610284055346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0797743812372245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08002159555021265,0.0,0.09296394895259984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0656731746781344,0.0,0.1706184624659728,0.08753670316168449,0.08238561317888893,0.11381425808182727,0.11808346897176968,0.0,0.07114247996173675,0.0,0.0,0.18026859841146106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08116316762717472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09435955147588676,0.12861624142065786,0.0,0.2369052025114688,0.11947939516770313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08454192116284784,0.0,0.0,0.183825388000282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08724663033084122,0.0,0.0,0.07034833586404912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05161353201252456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0912671453084921,0.0,0.07663803605174146,0.06407042094123143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08270126634017856,0.0,0.0905611201284498,0.0,0.0,0.0682644866841825,0.12404942341166167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08587411613172401,0.0,0.1347158884318165,0.0,0.0,0.09223038406343796,0.0,0.09142691751446363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06475701490428992,0.07041944855514014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10705078567096657,0.05162432927574992,0.07915704997499763,0.0,0.1409384761296616,0.0,0.07636846364300431,0.07698559219253406,0.0,0.10939993619278514,0.0,0.0,0.16774698523411213,0.193825296329394,0.0,0.0,0.06647653307488523,0.04752073306833608,0.06395064275613754,0.06462629917143634,0.0,0.0,0.07468677615556818,0.07269953651564942,0.17990122369478298,0.0,0.0,0.08737189587333029,0.17596205477993926,0.08182009368708337,0.0,0.0572327610810417,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,paperlevel,2019/08/03,"Beating Alcohol as a Lone Wolf Basically I just got to the point where I knew it was holding me back. I don't have much friends or hobbies and then I realized alcohol had become my friend and hobby, and I knew that was pathetic. I saw it kill my dad and my brother is the same way, funny thing is we never bonded over alcohol, more like drank apart so as not to kill each other, I guess being a dickhead alcoholic is a family tradition or something. Well I'm 2 months clean now, been working out and eating better. I feel stronger, smarter, and healthier. If I can do it, I know you can too. Exercise is the game-changer, just start walking as much as possible and then hit the gym when you are ready. Watching the fat burn off and the muscle grow is the best feeling in the world. Respect your body and mind and it will become a vehicle for success.",3.6313017751479286,5.094735207100591,4.840946745562128,83.50982248520711,72.66863905325444,8.276923076923078,29.568047337278102,8.841846274778883,2.3818544378698228,666,28,132,13,13,220,114,169,0.129,0.679,0.193,0.8533,0,0,5,0,0,0,19.0,1,3,0,5,9,11,2,0,12,0,17,9,2,0,1,30,29,21,2,1,6,2,2,1,2,1,6,0,1,0,7,13,7,1,6,2,0,2,3,3,1,0,9,4,18,8,11,17,6,19,0,1,2,0,8,8,0,4,9,97,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6003723139497742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10799359739400233,0.0,0.0,0.31022111339118164,0.0,0.0,0.14738844673002144,0.12421226014777326,0.0,0.15600282284849692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14857227233018933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14371037903447256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13239912217049332,0.0,0.1420265047423019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2170150409009728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11232676041090653,0.0,0.1547160895833401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.310763344790888,0.0,0.0771849430343056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06861437195295382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14180949444941196,0.0,0.11210192296439528,0.0,0.20648658729611705,0.0,0.1083199038920597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1327659965002708,0.15833072548502986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10812148414125708,0.0,0.0,0.09940775051978262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0933054705689541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1114787673560586,0.0,0.0,0.12627699373278564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10224569096257843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,sobbysobsterface,2019/08/03,"If my partner won’t tell anyone else about his drinking problems, am I wrong to notify his family? Hi. Throwaway account because he’d be furious if he saw me post this. Forgive my formatting as I’m on mobile. The full story: Not our first time to this show but, a few weeks ago I talked to my husband about his drinking which was getting out of hand. He claims it was just the one time (I know, I know, it wasn’t one time) but agreed to get help and said he’d stop drinking again. But he won’t tell any one else about this. For instance, he told his brother he wasn’t drinking because he’s on a diet with me. Yesterday he had his first appointment with a therapist, and told me he felt really good about his sobriety. Tonight he got sauced. After some incoherent chatter and adamant insistence that he hadn’t drank a thing, he passed out and I went hunting for evidence that I wasn’t crazy . Ive found several garbage bags full of empties. I realize it’s worse than I thought. Is it ok for me to tell his family? I have a 10 month old baby and I can’t take care of her and him all by myself. I know he’ll be furious and I can accept that but I don’t want to undermine his recovery and therapy. Is it only his story to tell? (I’ve told some of my friends and family, I want to know if I can tell his.) and how? TLDR alcoholic husband wants me to keep his drinking problem a secret, can I tell his family?",1.532881773399012,3.543999465517242,3.423078817733991,88.96801724137934,80.20689655172413,7.177339901477834,24.839901477832512,8.192908349453996,1.5532315270935957,1095,42,235,22,28,368,145,290,0.1,0.782,0.11800000000000001,0.7381,1,0,6,0,0,0,34.0,1,0,0,2,7,11,2,0,8,1,23,9,1,1,1,45,48,19,0,8,9,3,2,0,2,3,1,1,0,1,13,14,8,2,11,6,1,2,9,5,0,5,18,4,44,6,30,23,6,23,0,0,1,0,49,6,0,5,14,147,57,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0788188163653591,0.09502434044274763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060466042022598775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0621722507505632,0.09110511980990152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1084049391458374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09065595730478454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43551996026742257,0.0,0.0,0.14855609462958894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3352889923035965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08537346338605657,0.0,0.0,0.1512640909470026,0.0,0.09749198670972607,0.0686964093733876,0.0,0.09291005383001844,0.0,0.0,0.07457866153727599,0.07111438068751366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059598631873697815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07903277389294214,0.0,0.0,0.19546399814990856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07097203548227922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09330255902729208,0.0,0.18075568598140512,0.06762475104539575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08515710843847915,0.0,0.0,0.17016152516063124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05696197284101776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08457963557132486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10044995872806838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0743378962734483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06685389116412441,0.07146744623771235,0.4662998899324277,0.0,0.10168338507177517,0.10323852207095467,0.0590719498185041,0.0,0.0,0.07058950386217362,0.15554319451736226,0.0,0.0,0.2548896214207933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15733517553692872,0.0,0.07132318511597993,0.0,0.0,0.08242617680038432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09061316959048762,0.0,0.09721586935177187,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,RedWhiskey1357,2019/05/02,Do the cravings ever stop? Day 4 sober and all I can think about is a nice old fashioned. Will the desire to drink ever go away? Or is this my life now?,-1.5736363636363606,0.3848419393939402,0.5718787878787914,102.7178181818182,99.30303030303033,2.64,12.66060606060606,3.1291,-1.7599648484848485,116,2,28,0,5,38,30,33,0.062,0.7659999999999999,0.171,0.5913,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,3,0,5,2,0,0,3,8,7,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,6,1,8,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,6,20,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32105592692104395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22038026407158065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3347541901869073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6182081779976364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19420658767007176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413659932447735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3585762472329512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28569209838208565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21895951739681307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Nurse_Ray,2019/05/02,"Am I at risk for withdrawal? 25F, On a normal week (for about the past year) I probably drink average 3 drinks a night but only 4 nights of the week, normally not consecutive nights. This past week I’ve probably drank average 4 drinks every day, some days less some days more. Today is my first day not drinking after the week and I’m feeling like shit. Mild constant anxiety, clammy, just overall feeling weird. I’m wondering if this is enough to send me into withdrawals or even into the danger zone. I’m wanting to drink less but the stress of school has got me finding myself wanting to drink more. But right now I’m just worried about withdrawals especially the danger associated with that. I’ve also slept awful this past week and have only been getting around 6 hours of sleep a night so idk if that has something to do with how I’m feeling as well. Tl;dr: normally drink 3 drinks 4 nights out of the week. Been drinking 5 drinks every night for the past week. Feeling bad today. Worried about dangerous withdrawal.",4.917115716753023,6.7595546321243525,5.263233160621763,80.24476338514685,70.03626943005182,8.048221070811746,28.92884283246977,8.648137234880735,2.3064621070811744,816,31,145,14,15,259,104,193,0.207,0.722,0.071,-0.987,0,0,11,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,1,12,10,4,2,11,1,9,14,3,1,0,32,25,12,0,7,10,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,8,11,0,6,10,0,1,2,8,1,1,5,4,6,2,24,20,7,37,0,0,0,0,1,7,1,6,30,81,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0527575150724806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050468141628630885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058728766881778326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05508358297335866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0712919308488412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1701850597622425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6462711407328621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06816636322425122,0.0,0.0435736612231196,0.0,0.11116794283723327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13342902017382569,0.047130169234577024,0.0,0.0,0.06029690481173741,0.05611546285284639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034467471041630386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052763565533494865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06496879908321337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03223042218822638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3714596201391756,0.19391466791209688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10034884502893544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25190966876107823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14225722159710566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056339439745670176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06676684502294825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06771896403929714,0.0,0.0,0.06601930695390175,0.0,0.0,0.05078820926729068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0755703170805216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1250668453347365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07782359221777163,0.0,0.3704294210087588,0.0,0.059316447922285284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07154345436929246,0.0,0.13399485225042224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04248358801112755 alcoholism,justanotherguypfpfp,2019/05/02,"Trying to end my alcoholic behaviour. Hey guys, i really hope i´ve came to the right place for this issue. The last months honestly have been the best and worst nights of my life, everything about my job have been going beautifully i´m almost about to become a boss but there is something pulling me back. Of course u already know what i´m talking about... the alcohol, honestly it kind of breaks my heart even having too come here just too discuss this issue due to the fact that my father just recently stopped drinking because of my mother almost leaving him. I want too seek help so badly but i am so afraid of the fact that i won´t get the job i´m looking for if i take this issue in matter. I´m sorry if i´m being selfish and only looking at the situation in my point of view, that´s not the way i want it too be. I would just like some tips on how i could get past this in my life. I would love every advice u people give and i wish u the best in life!",5.12173647469459,5.55186769633508,5.568285340314136,83.49005453752184,68.3717277486911,8.460907504363004,26.911431064572426,8.344100000000001,1.6230729493891798,754,21,152,10,12,242,116,191,0.075,0.745,0.18100000000000002,0.9664,2,0,4,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,2,17,12,0,1,11,0,12,8,1,2,2,30,27,10,0,9,8,2,0,1,0,2,5,0,0,1,9,5,3,1,1,1,0,4,1,4,0,0,3,3,20,8,21,19,4,24,0,0,3,1,10,9,0,6,10,99,29,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11337485492177855,0.0,0.2479833717604197,0.2323575211681212,0.0,0.12803259664770095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08921336240212561,0.0968730959434209,0.07072562198172981,0.12813661773292978,0.0,0.0,0.2435147866042298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13269767336235774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09994223834157896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0926337171116301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11365688802770567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1027606010309218,0.0,0.0,0.07663109834948352,0.0,0.0977531072870893,0.0,0.10427263196575833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12123287734415701,0.11129838291932596,0.06593768513169593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11487951361787348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13748602145350658,0.07776675752489053,0.0,0.0,0.11523551587818565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3632888692450176,0.2302668481108051,0.0,0.0,0.12081852549055805,0.06376237537290662,0.09457299759343407,0.0,0.12285000321114554,0.0,0.0,0.2458482236108851,0.0566822383803012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19485765768793725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10471392235997597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09260724451015642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10887830662193557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08823956946483655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11075563803996748,0.08043469104928606,0.0,0.12121776064991227,0.0,0.10967780726152396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0743263358705013,0.0,0.1145572220899612,0.0,0.0,0.09908171649837223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13041301319666726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08931900946829051,0.0,0.12987655657349986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09699915875013583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08723371963929799,0.09325367693455563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07877097424473116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13686495882484842,0.09209245651845144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13341898493004878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16483667197483814,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,potatopopato,2019/05/02,"6 months sober Everything is really great, but lately have been really struggling. I am just wondering if anyone else has felt this way a few months in sobriety. I go to meetings and have service positions. Emotions just feel so overwhelming....",4.75,8.11620542857143,5.105047619047621,73.42328571428571,78.04761904761905,10.026666666666667,29.82857142857143,9.888512548439397,4.275908571428573,196,9,29,7,5,62,37,42,0.09699999999999999,0.84,0.063,-0.3491,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,2,1,0,6,0,0,0,0,8,10,4,0,1,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,2,2,1,2,8,1,6,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,2,3,19,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1782525308971234,0.2612052481251612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21296076246424867,0.28676120937400423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22911406437850976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288999405577374,0.0,0.24477215697196916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14488222605903242,0.0,0.0,0.28106051146796457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2875714139263209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40696435451219737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3266285425162171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2665075106681953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20235105428692385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2764600085793341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,gypsyrose413,2019/05/02,Am I an alcoholic? Starting to feel concerned I'm 25F and I drink 1-2 beers most week nights and then will likely have more on a Saturday night. Is this too much?,-0.4367647058823536,1.8110982647058835,1.2914117647058845,97.9153529411765,95.76470588235294,5.072941176470589,18.564705882352946,6.742157984588678,0.1369600000000002,127,4,29,2,5,41,31,34,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,3,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,4,3,0,0,0,4,7,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,2,6,3,7,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,7,18,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3825677544513755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3506804518546416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18100355305986213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1748891185767035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631537404065304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6718729401431653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2533774393507247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2871469630097569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,jakealex1717,2019/05/02,I had 2 months Now I keep slipping every time something I rationalize as too stressful emerges. Tips on gaining ground again?,3.15727272727273,6.0808179090909125,2.6459090909090897,85.88886363636364,97.1818181818182,4.0181818181818185,32.77272727272727,5.985473137389443,2.083236363636364,102,6,16,1,4,30,20,22,0.149,0.7240000000000001,0.127,-0.128,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,2,1,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,4,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4024963630881341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42461596150416814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3813083813436434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3677691427244247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5472221038912597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27856006161395674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,fountainhead123,2019/05/02,"Is alcohol a problem for ALL middle-aged men? It's crushing us. Throwaway because I'm not comfortable revealing this information otherwise... &#x200B; So my dad, who I love to death, has been struggling with an addiction to alcohol for (apparently) most of his adult life. My siblings and I did not really realize the severity of his addiction until we were old enough to understand. We are all in our mid 20's and early 30's at this point, and it has really become a big issue for us recently. &#x200B; My mom has revealed to us that he's always been this way, and that she's really never been happy because of it. My parents don't hang out or do anything together, and have their own separate interests/friends. I guess it's just crushing all of us kids because we grew up thinking that our family ""had it all together."" All of us are very successful thus far... two of us (including me) run our own businesses, and have always been the top performing individuals in anything we've worked at. I'm not trying to make it sound as if our family is better than anyone else's (because we're definitely not), but it's just really hard for us to grasp it all since we were raised thinking we had a solid foundation. How did we all make it so far when this problem was right under our nose all this time? &#x200B; On top of that, my wife's father took his own life as an alcoholic last year. He was a very successful entrepreneur and provided for countless people...but somehow succumbed to the same addictive disease that inflicts millions of people. It really seems to us like almost all middle-aged men have an issue with alcohol consumption. Honestly, I'm terrified of ending up the same way, as I work in a high-stress environment (I like the drink here and there, but try and remember the dangers as to not get carried away). &#x200B; My mother and siblings want to have an intervention with my dad, and I agree we need to say something. My father is drinking a box of wine every day (plus liquor as a supplement). We want to approach this carefully as we don't want him to retaliate.. but at this point he won't make it past 60 years if he stays on this track (he's already jaundice, and has the shakes in the morning). &#x200B; What do you guys think? How do we approach this conversation? We love him so much, and honestly he's such an amazing person...he just can't set the drink down. Do we push him to go to rehab? He's going to be so hurt that we feel this way, but it was self-inflicted and we just want him to be around to watch his grandchildren grow up. &#x200B; What do you all think? Thanks in advance.",6.002229489458977,6.410780931102368,6.735613411226822,75.9587896875794,66.46062992125985,10.491846583693167,33.11938023876048,10.384295024167834,3.4291942341884685,2075,85,390,50,31,686,233,508,0.066,0.818,0.11599999999999999,0.9768,2,0,9,0,0,0,97.0,27,2,1,9,17,20,1,2,21,0,37,18,1,6,11,93,64,36,1,9,16,8,2,2,0,1,10,2,0,5,31,34,9,0,13,5,0,12,10,6,0,2,14,6,54,14,63,47,18,57,0,1,1,2,65,27,0,8,15,268,85,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1640882662020012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21447915646146515,0.05024111574884423,0.0,0.05536726743739037,0.0,0.08349608292960957,0.32617522062220594,0.36579487544112776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0350822006081843,0.05140827380412439,0.08257637844709219,0.04466469950478396,0.0,0.0,0.047139282414052144,0.0,0.0,0.12234023301779297,0.05541225100716705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04437403284538401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05115482296520577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03235750109390895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1474516212347204,0.0,0.0,0.04191318997178528,0.0,0.04443847760864878,0.05184222811750862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042273003717115294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09459747353287012,0.0,0.02536902870478431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03876361536866677,0.0,0.026213375803773538,0.0,0.057029062011991975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05527133016268186,0.04967926075154193,0.0,0.053410201729457006,0.044945245808723965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05301063863025846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053711345090696985,0.0,0.0,0.10473536951876553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040897775935292376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0708774937116279,0.049024088138860736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0905663697452945,0.0,0.1004728087270935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05876213252258645,0.0,0.0,0.03688300412498937,0.03720272056590479,0.03869659055713803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052648232186169736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055711293942723984,0.0,0.0478959045752338,0.03478371264174201,0.04380921878208651,0.0,0.0,0.09485960053289903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09601776820707728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16071087455591498,0.0,0.04953988686015842,0.0,0.0568363456978309,0.04284755631892885,0.0,0.03989966577033434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04567570913221996,0.05234148938464685,0.05668132584294456,0.0,0.041503709758624184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038625706374459015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05347785267590923,0.0,0.0,0.057473120637409426,0.052451821613941116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046192652810413716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12859559550011093,0.0,0.0,0.02925634018081345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05574416418890522,0.06812848776804267,0.0,0.049011831763762385,0.05223197027971364,0.4828165276749121,0.0,0.0,0.08279613001735707,0.11837358573479928,0.1194752227759704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07305323393479485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36579487544112776,0.06461966743561218 alcoholism,Vanyle,2019/03/24,Is isopropyl a trigger? I work with someone who has a problem with alchohol. Friends and family are going to be talking with him next week. In the job we work with a lot of isopropyl alchohol and I was wondering if this will making things harder. I dont drink and dont know how similar the smell is to someone who does. It is denatured. Thanks in advance.,1.8522857142857128,4.421194442857146,3.1625000000000014,87.97375000000002,83.14285714285714,5.785714285714287,28.75,7.1686216300943375,1.811857142857144,281,14,53,4,8,91,49,70,0.04,0.871,0.08900000000000001,0.5106,1,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,1,0,0,3,1,3,0,0,5,0,10,1,0,3,0,16,15,5,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,5,8,1,0,2,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,1,5,2,9,12,1,6,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,3,2,40,10,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854128606190456,0.0,0.4966308270930141,0.20755641331895786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1997364845951346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1636937642154918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12041319858373613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2102528141034864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11644072054719184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18012817941868475,0.0,0.0,0.14142791812564204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.225331004745232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20273534550252195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3590412646482682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17029675059045266,0.0,0.195065634248037,0.0,0.0,0.14076004719229962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1699529968737485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2297689290055561,0.3084944151150462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,GYGOMD,2019/03/24,"Need advice on my drinking situation I’m a 23/m. I have a good job and nice family and friends. I’m extremely lonely though and I drink honestly about every single day. I quit for like a month just to see if I could do it but actually missed drinking ... a lot. I’m absolutely terrified to tell my family because I come from a long line of (successful functioning ) yet severe alcoholics. I can’t let my dad find out because he’d be devastated I think. (He’s been completely sober for like 10 years). I honestly don’t know who to talk to and don’t want to go to AA meetings cause I’ve never gotten a DUI or really screwed anything up. I also don’t know if I truly have a problem or if I need to be more productive with my free time. I just thought about how many drinks I actually have and am too embarrassed to share it even with strangers. Did any of you go about sobriety completely alone or secretive ? ",2.6397336065573778,4.52125765573771,4.732920081967215,81.50134733606559,76.26775956284153,9.16516393442623,27.284494535519126,9.673873057562805,2.704344535519125,713,29,146,21,16,246,114,183,0.17300000000000001,0.677,0.15,-0.8613,1,3,5,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,0,2,11,15,1,1,7,0,16,6,0,2,1,33,32,15,0,8,9,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,3,9,5,0,6,4,1,3,5,5,1,0,4,1,19,11,21,23,3,13,0,2,1,1,11,3,1,7,9,89,22,2,0.0,0.0,0.2493103537267931,0.0,0.0,0.12482541230359605,0.0,0.13651451481806548,0.0,0.1322994401842361,0.0,0.10215311031178458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08686713689591123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10511859916945462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15573744161152314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.131223497648172,0.0,0.11003613734402606,0.26786455172201823,0.0,0.0,0.1019894750000048,0.0,0.0,0.08238131174026023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.500543719998242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08437063450578428,0.0,0.1076259099029254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24084257725388364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11675144972674265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09869110326528932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451944302568201,0.10714170441073538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1267615922203901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14040440979388324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306221377657269,0.0,0.12481398597587405,0.0,0.0,0.11304530311011453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10859942552604322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295076492200984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10196032873652354,0.0,0.0,0.18943421567881955,0.09852045993047627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12222930430125666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1358665201684349,0.0,0.0,0.08183309717531269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10179172175447197,0.0,0.0,0.14430910349247827,0.0,0.0,0.14358437903413132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10267204910836188,0.11164982034646166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08185021620313923,0.12550326067867612,0.10141077355647207,0.07448584097454893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0753439769647927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08225995190597721 alcoholism,charlieboyx,2019/03/24,"How does one go about tappering off? I get how to but not really finding any info on how much to tapper off each day after you want to quit. I drink about a 5th a day maybe more or less some days, only at night. I went to the hospital and quit once before 3 months ago. Then the holidays hit and I also have 2 nonverbal autistic children. Stress is an understatement. I so ready to be done with this. Any help is appreciated (been about 12 hours since last drink and withdraw is setting in. It usually doesn't hit me this hard).",2.7656813417190764,4.540828943396232,4.142955974842767,86.33715932914049,75.60377358490567,7.729979035639412,23.09853249475891,8.515128840125781,1.3390557651991617,412,12,87,8,9,136,80,106,0.033,0.8109999999999999,0.155,0.9262,0,0,2,0,1,0,12.0,0,1,0,2,8,1,0,1,5,0,8,2,0,3,0,15,14,11,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,5,2,0,2,3,0,2,2,1,0,1,3,1,7,0,15,8,5,19,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,2,11,56,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1559655220222796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14070396074858513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23929864069413945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14971709560079058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3404118626874936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15397153916059886,0.18005385553234646,0.0,0.3447202132006873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16081146574542346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09192452839906907,0.0,0.09999417224505217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1576130657750852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11793290182013255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17327137837194104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14341948147255984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17676141594575018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14043842667805326,0.0,0.12934056206688554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16511341161520401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1873767585520718,0.11922556999547188,0.13381486914915552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3742804788318021,0.0,0.0,0.11271551945650395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1455443577711251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20154556016612424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19377967271400448,0.0,0.10377751538979348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16310371413573668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,mattykins8,2019/03/24,Am I an alcoholic ?? I’m 22 years old last summer I got a DUI AND Right now I am on probation and have been sober for almost 4 months. I am going to get off of probation next month which means I no longer have enforced sobriety. I question if I have a problem. I really miss going out and kind of want to when I get off probation but another part of me wants to keep my sobriety. I see people who have had DUIs and after words continued to drink and they seem like they can control it. I just don’t know where to go from here. Any advice is appreciates. ,1.449533596837945,3.405767313043484,3.5707509881422936,88.08276679841896,80.21739130434783,7.6600790513834,21.758893280632414,8.575989854853784,1.3489130434782606,431,13,94,10,11,147,81,115,0.045,0.871,0.084,0.7325,0,0,2,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,2,1,5,4,0,0,3,0,12,2,0,1,0,20,27,8,0,4,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,6,2,2,4,1,0,3,2,2,0,0,3,1,15,2,15,24,1,20,0,1,1,0,4,6,0,4,12,62,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18209447913085608,0.0,0.1991464639358618,0.18659790929142892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12672120007244736,0.19539930407836872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2090021091410212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1825474602751926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1947154655126144,0.0,0.3177130000501757,0.0,0.1490373664570693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1656322725576271,0.0,0.1940499635809024,0.10241050839435477,0.15189629789164122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09103890524008308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20298467033931933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29747809537582826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19818035000579964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19553805498547247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2017938102691981,0.0,0.1291883740956174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1783072940879286,0.0,0.0,0.20874939304189155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11937757649508687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15913787558634793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484930849467711,0.16964177053873924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2198225824030529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12000026932990684 alcoholism,Blluke199827,2019/03/24,"ETG test How long will etg be detectable if you are a daily heavy drinker? ",4.596,5.354124600000002,3.633333333333337,95.73000000000003,69.66666666666666,6.0,28.333333333333336,3.1291,0.5283333333333338,59,2,13,0,1,17,14,15,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,1,0,2,3,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,7,1,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,uselesslythrowthings,2019/03/24,"27 years old. 12 pack and pint of whiskey a day for 6 years. Feel relatively sober through most of the day. Was that normal for everyone? Sober now and looking at my past week/life. Nothing about drinking like that is ok, I know that. Is this more of just become an alcoholic or is it full fledged. Everyone I know drinks like this. We all hold jobs and pay bill's so we still function but it seems excessive ",0.8592255892255878,3.4102113086419763,1.558361391694728,97.00535353535356,90.23456790123457,5.414590347923681,22.178451178451176,6.980632752743323,0.6461999999999999,320,12,70,5,11,98,62,81,0.055999999999999994,0.9229999999999999,0.021,-0.1803,1,0,4,0,0,0,10.0,2,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,3,1,4,4,0,0,1,16,9,6,0,1,3,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,5,4,1,4,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,5,3,8,8,4,10,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,3,10,40,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.221462869925194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288661768262272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26728881907560725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4060075549533211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3960289669712255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10478030586968637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20564103419206328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2277733146877914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2024814986000452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17401866823620354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2030386711973968,0.1988401007632445,0.0,0.21745010170313628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1978218239924916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18865187269807712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16549192077120475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662251713023736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668950631848174 alcoholism,AsproVirtue,2019/07/23,"My Stepfather's Alcoholism Hello, this is my first time posting so bear with me. My stepdad is an alcoholic and has been for years. He had recently stopped drinking and was much better physically and mentally. However, when I returned from visiting my biological dad and his side of the family, he was drinking again. My mom said that a few days after I left he started again. I don't know if something happened or if he had a reason. It's only been a few days, but I'm extremely depressed by the fact that he's doing this again. He lost more jobs than I can count due to sitting on the couch drinking instead of going to work, and I'm afraid it'll happen again. I don't want my life to keep being dragged down by him, and seeing him on the couch and listening to his random yelling throughout the night again is my nightmare come true. What do I do? I wanted to talk to him sober but I never see him sober. I can't stage an intervention because I have no one to do it with. My mom has completely given up on him. Please help me out with anything you can think of. Advice, resources, anything. Thank you.",3.307020202020201,5.030556590909093,4.463030303030305,84.83398989898991,74.0,7.434343434343432,27.676767676767675,8.167268648758528,1.8329646464646456,870,34,173,14,18,285,130,220,0.068,0.861,0.071,0.3974,2,0,6,0,1,0,24.0,0,2,0,4,8,6,0,1,10,0,23,6,0,1,3,28,42,14,0,4,5,3,0,0,0,1,3,3,2,0,8,12,5,2,3,3,0,3,5,3,0,2,9,5,29,3,25,31,4,33,0,2,2,0,24,8,0,4,19,122,37,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1302826187046583,0.0,0.2849655074791381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21942849811788412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08127304107822493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1179141973262348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11484677567463693,0.13978762261812516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17196583336319116,0.0,0.11483172083271005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3918201355041521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12568595240806982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1134052818447448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07577107195601246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2357958533665573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08936423182638803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13230344591594587,0.11850445062260424,0.0,0.0,0.073271354959114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448568593273601,0.0,0.09417064715103128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14553883832326478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1343591812014689,0.0,0.0,0.3122947924846725,0.0,0.0,0.09800844204384132,0.0,0.10282764766289527,0.0,0.0,0.12511549334833738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0903437574440295,0.10139887006851804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14634965819574228,0.0,0.0,0.12768748779818173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13707922335571476,0.13164131407893262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12682160518390986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21248384968877845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10263928859413886,0.0,0.0,0.09436737642968412,0.0,0.0,0.11146479016740968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10716073897738937,0.0,0.1227467784478367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08542860233100329,0.0,0.0,0.07774226609386818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1572758373707188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09706142184012766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08585625115152305 alcoholism,nada4938,2019/07/23,"Question about alcoholism *may be triggering* Sorry if this is insensitive to post here or not the right place. &#x200B; How does one die of alcoholism? I had a friend whose parent died and they never gave me a specific reason as to why or how the parent died except that they were an alcoholic and was found dead. Whenever I saw the parent, they were always upbeat and seemed healthy.",6.234788732394363,7.788173605633805,6.069126760563383,76.84171830985915,66.46478873239437,9.623661971830987,28.284507042253523,9.888512548439397,2.792761126760564,310,10,53,7,5,97,55,71,0.223,0.7070000000000001,0.071,-0.9136,3,0,3,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,3,0,4,1,0,0,6,0,7,3,0,4,1,17,11,9,4,1,5,3,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,3,3,3,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,7,1,6,1,6,2,0,4,0,0,1,0,10,2,0,6,1,40,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4654131882210012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12078929191802874,0.1572867155671542,0.1763919233952817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4519764873099208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12703527254643726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15916643444252082,0.11215447451616088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11196055213701596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09836787279940958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4835671934108725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516670091025042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13902838351160224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16261853819326968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1492542704442046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12397050991109228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13215318300825793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16250084791554975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13098924886245455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1763919233952817,0.0 alcoholism,gamingdevil,2019/07/23,"Lowest point in my life I just relapsed on my alcoholism, got so drunk that I missed a week of work. I had no idea as I have no recollection of any of this and as a result they had decided I quit. Now I have to find a job while drunk me has left me with my bank account of $-377 bucks. I screwed myself so hard.",1.7843478260869574,2.4216306231884097,3.6441739130434776,93.51495652173914,76.10144927536231,7.259130434782609,22.495652173913044,7.554174236665415,0.5106208695652175,239,6,61,3,5,81,49,69,0.292,0.708,0.0,-0.9558,2,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,2,4,2,1,0,3,0,5,5,0,1,0,8,7,6,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,4,2,3,0,2,2,0,0,3,1,14,0,10,4,0,7,0,1,0,1,1,4,1,0,3,42,16,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3219472289868634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20486198153311835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2753392616881626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2409390867306916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26986300362202137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34007732281836583,0.0,0.0,0.29894655093420675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3273116446459586,0.0,0.21278349910045666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2847809179989444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3204190392399716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24164652660169395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21931535559784746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,TerribleTooth6,2019/07/23,"A massive bump on the road I’m sitting at my desk staring at the computer screen in dismay. My 34 year old cousin didn’t wake up this morning due to his problem with alcohol. Still do not know exactly what happened but it’s been alcohol for years now. I’m on 3 months being completely sober.I’ve been dealing with the same alcohol problems throughout my 20s, and decided to quit after hundreds of times to quit alcohol from my life. Too many hungover nights, accidents, unexplained bruises, apologies for things that I did not mean, etc. I’m 28 and I feel like a new person with an incredible amount of energy. He was the person I could most relate my struggle with and always kept in contact through the years even if we lived continents apart. Texted each other over sports and just everyday things. I felt like every time he relapsed, it was a relapse for me. It used to hurt every single time. I’m saddened that he didn’t have the incredible opportunity to turn things around like I feel like I have. but I hope that from this obstacle, I can move on and keep fighting the battle of life. #IWNDWYT",4.847214285714287,6.556303376190478,5.262083333333333,80.713125,70.0,8.488095238095239,30.744047619047624,9.017664075816787,2.664119047619048,879,37,161,17,16,280,133,210,0.145,0.754,0.10099999999999999,-0.8767,0,0,4,0,2,0,21.0,1,0,0,3,6,13,2,1,11,0,13,7,1,1,1,34,28,8,0,5,6,1,3,4,0,0,6,0,0,2,13,12,4,2,6,1,0,1,4,7,0,0,9,5,16,6,29,17,6,29,0,1,2,0,12,12,0,3,19,102,29,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4961899054611511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09658261012105156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10333019483276124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12170105755098168,0.0,0.0,0.09267539797091948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11966687955862415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12945284915075028,0.07666557877547837,0.0,0.1955941832671551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11738069248635614,0.16584613735592846,0.11144894699885163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10264358239799326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11528736649448633,0.0,0.0,0.12425928786013532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10317163061473386,0.0,0.0,0.06379106547278326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16397256257586332,0.22683097099284696,0.0,0.10249519650640856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11768050508888582,0.0,0.12643827863567775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09264891345800784,0.1233679649577784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1121046949271386,0.0,0.10892729679008896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.121799813940642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20270214117254734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22213369408612108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2469173182337309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09269660028087943,0.0,0.0,0.12134542506261035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2313426096351805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20305050954075268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12625484537530055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1002504016657701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2242429558526929 alcoholism,heynongmantron,2019/07/23,"Stigma, Relationships, Impulse Control... (warning long post) Are just a few things that I struggle with when it comes to my relationship with alcohol. I've never considered myself an ""alcoholic"" and I wasn't really even sure how to define the label but while I am able to hold down my job and haven't alienated myself from my family or anything, I haven't been in a meaningful relationship in 5 years, I've let my impulse control spiral to a point where I'm constantly behind on bills and payments for things I bought without thinking it through which has led to me living in a relatively dingy apartment that I don't feel comfortable showing to women. Not to mention I've always been the ""life of the party"" the guy who's always down to have a few beers no matter what the occasion. I took a break from drinking this winter for just over a month and it was amazing. But once I started back up again, it was all hands on deck in the self destruction department. With that mentioned I'd love to hear any help or feedback from anyone who has gone through the same issues as I think alcohol is starting to have a negative effect on my life. **Stigma -** As I mentioned before, I've always been someone that had no problem cracking open a beer at any time with anyone. Didn't matter what the occasion was or what we were doing, I could always make it more fun by having a few beers. I have taken breaks from drinking in the past and people have more or less been supportive but never without some comments about how now ""I'm lame"" or ""just don't drink too much"" blah blah blah. I don't share with them that I can't control it because I'm worried that they will put a label on me or look at me differently. I've always just chalked it up to me taking a break and ""don't worry, I'll be back"". It is probably in my own head but I'm always worried about having to deal with the criticism if I'm not drinking. **Relationships-** I broke up with my ex girlfriend about 5 years ago and haven't had a girlfriend since. A couple of month long (if that) relationships but nothing meaningful. I've lived the bachelor life and as much fun as it was for a while, alcohol has actually ruined my ability to get close to anyone. For a while I couldn't go on a date where I didn't have a few beers first so that I could get loose or be myself around the person and then if we had a good time, I would ALWAYS bail on the second date because of the anxiety of getting too close to them and disappointing them either emotionally or physically. I feel like alcohol has prevented me from getting to know my true self so that I can actually meet someone in a meaningful way. Either that or it has developed an anxiety in me that prevents me from being able to develop something meaningful with anyone. **Impulse Control -** This is a biggie for me. Like I mentioned above, I can't remember the last time I bought a six pack and didn't just drink the whole thing in one sitting. One beer always turns into at least 6. I can't go play golf without cracking open a beer on the first hole even if it's 9 or 10 AM. While I realize this is possible for other people to do and then call it quits so they can get other stuff done or just don't want to feel like crap, I have found that my ability to control this impulse of chasing a feeling is really bad. I tend to make really bad spending decisions also when I've had a couple of beers. I ignore all of the important things I should be focusing on (car payments, student loans, bills) and say ""screw it, lets get another round and while we're at it I'll have an appetizer and main..."". And it tends not to stop there. If I get it in my head that I want a new pair of shoes, even if it will deplete my bank account down to almost nothing, I say screw it and I go ahead and order them and convince myself that I'll deal with it later. I'm not sure if this lack of control is due to more deep rooted personality issues or also my use of alcohol but it's been hampering me for so long. &#x200B; I don't expect everyone to read this or provide comments but at the least it was important for me to write this down so that I have a reminder of what is really ailing me right now. Thank you!",4.743992235522484,5.376711970344014,5.827019519033757,80.58529149142673,69.27283511269276,8.93043459506093,29.44352421007225,9.045936885302208,2.32048393831554,3313,119,658,59,55,1103,318,843,0.12,0.789,0.091,-0.9654,2,0,19,0,0,0,90.0,2,1,6,11,34,30,4,1,49,0,74,29,5,14,7,136,120,68,0,17,42,1,6,6,2,4,9,3,0,6,57,37,18,11,16,16,8,10,29,13,0,6,26,10,73,17,108,81,22,102,0,4,2,3,42,43,3,22,45,481,130,5,0.0990030678251672,0.0,0.09661271283313627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043880123061858865,0.3174125122487107,0.04956863573169357,0.0,0.0,0.079172717570963,0.3295139336037779,0.05363489131276192,0.06014978191667846,0.06732548108096867,0.05190667442559594,0.07573707590293981,0.0,0.0,0.13845049391868175,0.0,0.040735544606018685,0.044066860116838094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07612724806288289,0.0826634262731089,0.060351351232968926,0.0,0.04212215939935952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05054660072803253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04264118830032948,0.0,0.053493572417402865,0.33312107690295994,0.07904589370544746,0.10954501148010216,0.0,0.0,0.10206781571762737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05171856707422545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0506572557580572,0.0,0.2424632890177419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055682562927343686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09808588886752874,0.0,0.0,0.047300836995105566,0.0,0.0,0.04666564064908562,0.0,0.1001178516035054,0.07072781143604777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08421195891634659,0.0,0.05427587689895906,0.0,0.0,0.18103755858200507,0.0,0.08439858745745382,0.04151953806150615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049014301193532964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10160570997438062,0.0,0.05579182638138271,0.0,0.03317983473405297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10333348100493647,0.049122634196252894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.027204748461404613,0.04035035702047613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012373445142989,0.10489319201020847,0.07255184715188763,0.0,0.0874215227099082,0.131421899370623,0.04156882120667744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0446770670250257,0.0,0.06608531654471984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07902330419368606,0.0,0.07277864629048199,0.0,0.07635726925230134,0.04780888991635529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09499611370575284,0.0,0.0,0.052717518061604685,0.06708704097786737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04725481533487511,0.06863626158119616,0.08644566009859245,0.0,0.0,0.046794949857153656,0.0558055417442946,0.04740878600043033,0.0,0.053371025968831566,0.047366282626160536,0.0,0.049762713997555774,0.0,0.05265097458028209,0.04951492973067733,0.0,0.12684780073447802,0.0,0.0,0.2657306099510107,0.0560755881756308,0.04227403948956026,0.0,0.07873121322674936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10328179150844397,0.0,0.0,0.040948180387226064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08388497809116575,0.03810869923204199,0.0,0.0,0.07007488097264694,0.0,0.0,0.04138549888288151,0.0,0.05174975118073545,0.05666741319168207,0.0,0.05617375406428316,0.09330921977203924,0.0,0.03721899296035607,0.0,0.0,0.04557436168587999,0.0,0.0,0.13154647821781468,0.06343716829369825,0.0,0.0,0.08659422751565463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054998025574524094,0.0,0.05384345417359472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0427534316954725,0.0,0.0,0.05839457448432207,0.039292013513064085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05526669481170912,0.0,0.14315313667612056,0.0,0.0,0.15081363164959782,0.0,0.03516446942310733,0.0,0.06014978191667846,0.0637547297363261 alcoholism,wermzz,2019/07/23,"Help :( I always loved alcohol, it made me lighter minded and careless, until I found out about weed. Weed was controlling my life for the past 5 years, a daily 2 gram smoker. I lost my job almost and took my life in a few occasions :( Now I'm clean for like a month and I feel I'm over it. But! I rebound to alcohol, I find excuses to drink every day, I went on a banter for a week and drink like half a litter of hard liquor a day! I feel like its fucking me up worse than weed, how can I stop ? I have a really weak will power apparently :( help !",1.2759999999999998,2.7938526434782642,3.5680434782608725,89.9642391304348,79.08695652173913,7.034782608695654,20.195652173913047,7.908726449838941,0.6521478260869564,414,10,95,7,10,143,76,115,0.198,0.645,0.157,-0.6165,3,0,5,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,3,3,8,1,0,9,0,4,10,0,3,0,16,15,7,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,1,5,0,1,0,3,5,5,2,4,3,0,2,0,4,0,1,6,3,15,4,14,8,1,16,0,1,0,2,4,5,1,1,12,54,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3530291801151543,0.1653921079652486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1374331855168545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18525019669984175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2130396681937761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3236039393288465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13916134406225494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16702802364064534,0.11799620518602567,0.0,0.0,0.15096075545233248,0.0,0.0,0.1810984216021407,0.0,0.1526953524901839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479582775287413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.221417544687228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1639039666635281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333263885073941,0.24207853938475205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1803006168103891,0.0,0.14907076186180193,0.1562861578225794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16677281211940953,0.0,0.13183569273237147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15767174957261065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10581098735392984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380880227667172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1835079632397704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13248797859252845,0.0,0.0,0.15311258926021462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16832052092715538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10636291465556363 alcoholism,Psychoblade7,2019/07/23,"Stomach Pains and Profuse Sweating I'll keep this brief as I'm at work. I'm on Day 4. The cravings aren't as bad as I would have thought but the sweats are really bad (I have a skin condition anyway meaning that I'm pretty much allergic to my own sweat) and I can't stop running back and forth to the toilet. I read that cramps and abdominal pain can be an issue around this stage. It's not making me want to drink but any advice in dealing with these symptoms?",1.3268750000000011,3.5341196041666656,2.781083333333332,92.22225000000002,82.125,5.506666666666668,22.1,6.742157984588678,0.5007449999999998,366,12,78,4,10,119,71,96,0.105,0.7709999999999999,0.124,0.4308,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,5,0,8,11,5,1,0,16,16,9,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,6,6,1,2,2,2,0,2,3,4,0,0,1,1,6,0,11,13,2,10,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,3,47,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20443841260009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14227054608817974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1862420038461842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1608702229854284,0.34936462713876176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13492368492346465,0.21568719074893256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2049469768713845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21836176341739616,0.0,0.18595620822031206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1396498609779,0.0,0.0,0.2278919382091863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15379404031072355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44523017076645377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2128426380458834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20926745651707288,0.0,0.1340258219534667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17490963099448795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2174501692952272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16609003874954614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12339797454220965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15230798400426926,0.0,0.0,0.14861737895968108,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,novaturient36,2019/07/23,"I don't know how to move forward. I feel so disgusting. I can't keep doing this. I like to think that I""m 'functioning', but the fact that my roommate is days away from leaving tells me otherwise. I don't know what to do. I hate who I am, and I hate who I've become. I feel so disgusting. I don't want to be this person anymore. Meetings don't do anything for me. IDK what else to do. I finally have health insurance, and plan on seeing a therapist. Please help me with other ideas on how to fix this...",-0.07668131868131667,2.1514612000000035,2.1695238095238096,93.89406593406595,89.38095238095238,5.897435897435898,20.457875457875463,7.321109707123232,0.6618424908424916,386,13,87,7,13,130,64,105,0.212,0.711,0.077,-0.9503,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,1,4,5,4,0,2,0,13,1,0,2,1,15,23,7,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,10,3,0,1,6,0,0,2,5,4,0,0,0,3,15,1,12,22,0,7,0,0,1,0,6,4,0,0,4,59,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20323108488827407,0.0,0.0,0.1686362705342858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1925343041548252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2263241747213589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13216002956056075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17118900528110506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20723303532102127,0.0,0.0,0.2244859282323542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4046431183274515,0.0,0.21782628164332726,0.0,0.0,0.13735727951131746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23133600736461685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1821472485672692,0.0,0.0,0.2252434509333546,0.0,0.0,0.21698657326221504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10011627472108776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21780343341005148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17893308981006315,0.0,0.22494672081142925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16329913510611088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1791139670601834,0.0,0.0,0.2379343633673852,0.0,0.13130802076872827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1208704014603708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,bjgobull,2019/07/21,"One month sober! It has been hard, and everyday I try to make an excuse as to why I should give in and have a drink. Each day is becoming slightly easier though. I have won the battle for this month and I am excited to continue to reap the benefits of sobriety for another month, No matter how hard it gets. I am starting to believe I can actually do this!",3.9558333333333313,4.847281805555556,5.9232222222222255,78.24400000000001,71.2222222222222,10.76,29.677777777777766,10.793553405168565,3.3442077777777786,278,11,57,9,5,97,52,72,0.099,0.716,0.185,0.7643,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,2,4,1,0,4,0,10,1,0,2,0,8,15,6,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,2,6,3,10,12,1,8,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,7,42,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.21986462375619734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23625134018811725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488310423790109,0.0,0.2538409398584918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14530271879653398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22071256774105186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11771226591538513,0.21613253983835248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4036570311182321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15039245697415696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5395075410373082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15267211313060672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1594716356471778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2213604591771722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529669190377694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20330220479609573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,throwawaykid02,2019/07/21,"Feeling quite depressed, my Mum's addiction is my responsibility. (Throwaway for obvious reasons) I'm writing this cause I'm in desperate need of help, I pray for a solution, or at the very least someone to talk to since I have nobody. Fuck my life. I tried writing a story 6 times but I can't make it flow well so I'll just go for it and submit whatever I write now. I'm 17 year old, on my last year in the IB and I'm out to university. Since before I was born my Mum has used alcohol as a coping mechanism to deal with her problems. My Dad has tried pretty much everything to solve her addiction but she doesn't seem to want it to be solved so we're helpless. I have basically been ""tasked"" with dealing with her drinking problem and I've never done this before, I always used to ignore the arguments and everything by just hiding in my room preoccupying myself with video games. My sister used to be the one to interrogate her or try to cheer her up out of it while my Dad always threatens to leave her whenever she drinks which doesn't help cause it just makes her drink more. She's been in and out of drinking, sometimes not drinking at all for a few months and she always ends up back drinking since apparently ""nobody appreciates her effort"" even though she knows it should be expected of her to not drink. She seems like a much happier person when sober and I love her to death when she is, but she's just a fucking burden when she's drunk. I'm sorry to sound like an asshole but she makes EVERYTHING her problem. My dad has recently had a few heart issues and she was crying because it was HER burden to deal with - like what the fuck, my Dad is fine with it and has gotten the correct medicine. &#x200B; Anyway sorry for my blabbering, as you read I've been ""tasked"" to deal with her problem. What the hell do I do? I cannot just let her be like this because its a struggle living with her like this, she can't do any basic tasks and she's extremely clumsy. All she does in the day is cook and then lie in bed all day watching movies or going on social media - her way of escaping life, like me with video games. &#x200B; What can I do? I've tried some of the things below: Do I force myself upon her and take the wine away? (She usually has one by her side in her nightstand draw which you can't access because she's right there. She also has stashes of wine that I literally have to search the house up and down to find - behind curtains, behind cushions on the sofa, in the store room, literally anywhere). Talk her out of it. She always ends up complaining about the same thing and it leads nowhere because ""everything is her fault"". Ignore her, and tell her that I refuse to communicate with her unless she's sober. Secretly take the wine away without confronting her? &#x200B; Anything please, any ideas or suggestions I am willing to try, my grades are suffering, my life is deteriorating due to this burden. If anyone wants to try cheer me up please by all means go ahead.",4.888163265306126,5.865855809523811,5.4147687074829935,82.42368367346941,69.1360544217687,8.328979591836735,27.96530612244898,8.548686976883017,1.8909522448979583,2368,78,467,36,40,761,258,588,0.146,0.738,0.11599999999999999,-0.9726,1,0,11,0,0,0,73.0,0,2,0,4,19,31,5,1,24,0,44,23,1,10,7,89,73,36,1,10,18,7,1,6,0,2,6,1,5,1,25,29,13,3,9,17,1,5,10,20,1,2,9,3,80,11,84,57,12,60,2,3,1,4,74,31,4,8,29,318,105,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12734016443855972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0624171940000823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046706465701028085,0.19439058946134014,0.18984541304137129,0.21290544108184192,0.07943481970528579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04083814124295603,0.0,0.04806234711467085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10974685965780348,0.0449098478573223,0.0,0.14241260893169955,0.0,0.09939672420495363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11999606812493176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06415516141619666,0.07533279994037116,0.24085200459217895,0.050304149859984534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05111061816937039,0.059768603406880075,0.0,0.4005027260801408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10345900734519876,0.0,0.0,0.038575958526284725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2099626294167428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029531328123153545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053381121392819066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1619834729160107,0.0,0.0,0.0995787400315919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06921021851137421,0.07829529466803048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06739154037358525,0.0,0.0659321476385457,0.0,0.0609596567403288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0320978662827586,0.047607878673910815,0.0,0.06184247297636492,0.0,0.05972308017572009,0.12375955822168112,0.17120242752857948,0.0,0.05157269419635902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05271280215325605,0.0,0.11695739385619768,0.0,0.0,0.06362017832107995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0466183220703032,0.0,0.08586880559422247,0.043306575150767794,0.04504554456098102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06128623361526411,0.0,0.07915349313626235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05099700227895728,0.0,0.12822232540712836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05941889253835105,0.0,0.2235428286650447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06212091775567774,0.05842081560688728,0.0,0.0,0.0600500780130426,0.057667901718891586,0.0,0.0,0.04987755974634375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10633945582527786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1449396843851868,0.0,0.0,0.05953655296766505,0.04948637576491958,0.0,0.057764048679665274,0.13075925486717938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06105759793816205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0878265984274983,0.09388747000453812,0.051048553378568784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07760338739748866,0.0,0.05738262616150164,0.0,0.034056431234171264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2379190094612761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15132953009698327,0.06432486753763332,0.04819025023233822,0.06889757668943294,0.046359178711463764,0.0,0.0,0.052513118492841335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05630034582022062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21290544108184192,0.07522182360455285 alcoholism,briefcasebrady,2019/07/21,"""Silence Is Betrayal"" | Sobriety Above All | 🎶 Recovery Rap 🎶 Hey all... I'm new to this Reddit community, however I'm not new to the recovery community as a whole. I wanted to share with you a song I made called *""Silence Is Betrayal""*, which I originally released on an album entitled *Sobriety Above All* at the 75th anniversary of *Alcoholics Anonymous* in San Antonio, TX in 2010. I finally got around to making this track available to stream for the first time ever, and will be releasing the rest of my recovery music in short order. In no way do I mean to spam this community, my only hope is to carry the message... I hope you enjoy... https://soundcloud.com/briefcasebrady/silence-is-betrayal",3.9224390243902434,7.122026121951219,5.739707317073172,68.51687804878048,80.46341463414635,9.458861788617886,28.52520325203252,9.558583805096642,3.781731056910569,555,25,88,19,15,189,80,123,0.069,0.8220000000000001,0.109,0.5904,1,0,1,0,0,0,37.0,0,2,0,1,2,4,0,0,8,0,6,1,0,3,4,15,15,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,4,3,1,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,1,10,4,19,11,5,17,0,0,0,0,6,8,0,2,7,57,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407428407439739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20053616056979529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2300236779516066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2037676818988179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2467699365274317,0.0,0.19161273199826528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1801672912928603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4474836397323251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.213153901844012,0.1503680499901769,0.0,0.0,0.2453827459407223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43513021801462587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17132636328143142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313555043968394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1328688240340315,0.17880714691436833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2515035279467967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ninjasnak3,2019/07/21,"[16F] I only feel in touch with my emotions when I’m drunk. The rest of the time it just kinda feels like I’m watching them from a distance. I know they’re there, but I just can’t access them. I was physically abused as a kid, does that have something to do with it? Does my autism have something to do with it? I’m not sure what to do anymore.",0.7862548262548259,2.536079864864867,2.2463706563706585,97.78608108108112,81.43243243243244,4.769111969111969,20.03088803088803,5.288315135182226,-0.4471868725868728,266,7,64,1,7,86,50,74,0.129,0.848,0.023,-0.8096,0,0,2,0,1,0,10.0,0,0,2,0,4,2,0,0,4,0,7,1,0,0,1,12,13,3,0,0,4,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,3,1,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,4,8,2,10,12,1,3,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,1,3,41,13,0,0.0,0.32903162017514825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2754058974561941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4860380200554092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31237752455910106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2808290872753689,0.19839046096624646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15261783103833124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13567123604487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21120498765486348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4275773421494872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2617309760774083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16193034833150893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Dhammy17,2019/07/21,"Worried Hey all, I’m in the process of cutting out alcohol from my life. For the last 4 years I’ve been a pretty heavy user. Around 3-6 beers per night every night. For the past two months I’ve been working to stop drinking except for the rare occasion here and there like when my fiancé and I meet friends out. I’ve been very open with her about it and she’s been very supportive of it. I’ve even asked her to help me police myself so that I have some extra help and motivation. It’s been very successful so far and going great IMO. I’ve even been improving my eating habits, going to the gym and also quit tobacco during this time. However, I’m slightly worried about this upcoming week. She’s going out of town for a work conference and I’ll be alone at home for almost the entire week, except for when I work. I’m worried I’m going to go off the rails when she’s not around. I certainly don’t plan to go crazy while she’s gone but at the same time I’m worried I won’t be able to control myself without her around. I definitely don’t trust myself. Do any of you all have any tips for me to use during this time? Thanks for any help or advice!",1.804795454545456,3.6834661916666716,3.3162121212121214,90.71727272727274,78.75,6.363636363636362,20.909090909090907,7.348242739294969,0.5429999999999997,906,24,196,12,22,298,126,240,0.073,0.792,0.136,0.9506,1,1,4,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,0,8,15,9,1,0,10,0,14,5,0,3,3,31,30,16,0,0,6,0,0,1,1,1,2,0,1,0,7,15,4,2,1,3,0,7,5,1,0,1,7,0,22,8,36,20,5,36,0,0,0,0,15,13,0,3,17,116,29,5,0.1055620101701694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10315397460949577,0.0,0.11281368541463792,0.10570510478464804,0.10933040669974246,0.0,0.08441790139458065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2153573603738605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2819177084917715,0.09868622968520206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11839677052576107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10341058208976917,0.0,0.10801628998881294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13944542427673587,0.0,0.08894054642053373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08155694719958474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3599599383431177,0.0,0.0,0.11638248887924504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21226797079617005,0.0,0.10588730320089253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08604712746250243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07456156962271694,0.05157226602605165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08425858939750677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19812559115604367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10077088329785074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10739451457075873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11227819170064554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08825456725618178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11979051817469152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971873162613427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18466217111227295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10311874517625988,0.0,0.0,0.09117168367786364,0.0,0.26129914121531245,0.0,0.0,0.1693509543124273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10175801081492578,0.0,0.2305512019240697,0.4288133817188782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06797847356313567 alcoholism,cathero4519,2019/07/21,"How do you know Hey, I’m 18 and I have a family history of severe alcoholism. I just wondered at what point you realised u were an alcoholic. I drink alone a few times a week which is worrying me a bit. Thanks",-0.3149242424242402,1.9467422045454548,2.5563636363636384,89.79621212121214,92.86363636363636,7.4787878787878785,20.96969696969697,8.344100000000001,1.6431787878787882,163,6,36,5,6,57,37,44,0.171,0.758,0.071,-0.4767,0,1,3,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,5,0,4,3,0,1,0,5,8,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,1,2,7,2,4,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,2,23,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5483782548869451,0.0,0.2657231585499886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2801016811670713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.251335262804351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2418659151244357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14100098682512438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2425361189298131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2898445430618504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23620986537518734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14960466124003793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20580034338909575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2782329547540461,0.0,0.26055342163816964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ScreaminSemenDemon87,2019/08/17,Liter a day I’ve been drinking a liter a day (give or take) for close to a year now. I’m fine with the fact that it’s killing me. That’s part of the reason.,-0.11495495495495335,0.7110994864864892,1.6578378378378391,105.14369369369369,81.16216216216216,4.933333333333334,17.738738738738736,3.1291,-1.2050288288288291,119,2,35,0,3,39,28,37,0.133,0.813,0.054000000000000006,-0.5574,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,6,0,1,1,0,1,1,5,4,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,4,3,1,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,4,18,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4566709958159838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3468380665352465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3396407961726749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3917082215958254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3834059092744351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3640264127544728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662044965457483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279991260100253 alcoholism,millicent42,2019/08/17,"Very weird withdrawals (or not?) I started drinking heavily at 17 and am only 23 now and I don't see how this is possible. Basically sometimes I feel like I'm on mushrooms when I'm hungover. I have really intense thoughts and I'm giggling to myself..Except the hallucinations are not like drugs, more like sleep deprivation. My heart pounds out of my chest and i think i could have a seizure. Even google is telling me that this is probably not real. Does anyone else experience this???",2.7368031968031983,5.628231791208794,3.8451548451548447,82.22939060939059,82.73626373626374,6.825574425574428,28.05294705294705,8.00094639256281,2.2594087912087915,387,18,70,8,11,125,68,91,0.055999999999999994,0.8029999999999999,0.14,0.7577,0,0,2,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,4,6,0,0,2,0,9,5,3,1,0,15,17,7,0,1,4,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,5,1,0,3,1,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,2,9,4,5,15,1,6,0,1,1,0,1,3,0,1,6,42,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14916025073721045,0.21857440176661785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1703208849767849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18668020603881133,0.0,0.0,0.20897511571578484,0.2473867042081501,0.0,0.17820381324452467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14089768709052936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2086706164124642,0.0,0.0,0.10786240934048867,0.15239783967966755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2527885264247754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3126562110780041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16224159010169484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24048938688492916,0.0,0.0,0.2299980416187997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2428080307576352,0.13666003802147073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16999064003939135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21347684339614226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21098168825549693,0.0,0.15099096464616954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1864535160016021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13668862653974045,0.0,0.16935446229444606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1760136379611625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,spunkii_munkii,2019/08/17,"Why is taking shots causing me to have major anxiety // panic attacks now suddenly ? So for the past few weeks i was downing shots pretty much daily to have fun and then pass out and fall asleep. &#x200B; But then..... just two days ago... i had like... an episode... &#x200B; i started having major anxiety (i initally thought it was alcohol withdrawal) and anytime i drank a shot i threw it up. &#x200B; Now... after two days... and a little alcohol withdrawal(i think? i.e : sweating, shivers, anxiety bad) i thought i was ok. because i didnt feel so bad.... &#x200B; but today i had a few shots and didnt puke but started getting that rushy, heart racing feeling... LIKE A ANXIETY ATTACK :( &#x200B; why could this be happening? why is this suddenly happening? Anybody have any answers?",3.719073741007193,6.7663329352518,4.267189748201439,79.94236735611513,79.35971223021582,6.928237410071943,33.147931654676256,8.07648339933343,3.162154316546763,614,34,96,12,16,194,85,139,0.14400000000000002,0.762,0.094,-0.7576,0,0,2,0,0,0,68.0,0,0,0,0,5,9,2,1,6,1,15,6,3,1,0,18,28,12,0,1,4,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,6,3,0,6,0,0,3,2,5,0,2,11,2,11,4,7,15,5,22,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,17,64,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.069992620762433,0.16876687396520398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4277616316157872,0.4797207232876409,0.05369500512003548,0.0,0.2416144742282089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17965511667187012,0.0,0.0,0.13185536963742392,0.04813283264263756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08111291139398899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06304254494858061,0.0,0.0,0.10184438243864168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0798483496611329,0.056408511847396474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041252954958099296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1396468275008504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09356710447923948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07715101309321554,0.07913792288125192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05804414201655572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09264168008034553,0.0,0.0,0.07537554906740053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.080329954821092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11177554269792726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059367537683553365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05059390622451191,0.0,0.1253696668250115,0.0,0.0,0.07484414698011746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.154263449568626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06333635643868431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21374535522145915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4797207232876409,0.0 alcoholism,thatboyrandall,2019/08/17,"What makes some alcoholics go through withdrawal problems, but some don’t? I watched a video of a guy who quit after four years and on day 3-4 was hiking and doing just fine, while I hear that after 48-72 hours, withdrawals kick in after that long of drinking. I tried to google some stuff but didn’t really get much of an answer. Do some people just not feel the withdrawals or do these people who feel the withdrawal just drink more heavily?",8.652906976744184,6.957780686046513,7.613604651162793,78.77063953488374,61.906976744186046,10.925581395348836,33.127906976744185,9.516144504307137,2.7293348837209304,353,10,69,5,4,108,62,86,0.023,0.917,0.06,0.2287,0,0,3,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,5,0,6,3,0,1,0,18,12,6,0,1,7,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,7,2,3,0,3,3,0,1,3,1,0,1,2,4,3,1,10,10,6,11,0,0,1,0,4,2,0,5,8,48,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2479924402761119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14965399509965271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4546441774073542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2346643819280233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12123731071500275,0.0,0.13188019282006633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2297674293045192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26153886134656845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22852394571445594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2053582406046111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1548961520159256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1705845238963979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32175052987728314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2220419087839647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24681529237603755,0.0,0.0,0.14865810782761113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2656434048295218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15754770964845416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14943353267120354 alcoholism,Kneegrow505,2019/08/17,Am I an alcoholic Well I recently started drinking about 4 months ago and I pretty much drink every so often when I get home after work and take a shot or two with a beer?,2.2325000000000017,3.783030583333337,4.167777777777779,86.555,76.5,7.022222222222222,23.11111111111111,7.793537801064563,1.104177777777778,135,4,28,2,3,46,31,36,0.0,0.836,0.16399999999999998,0.6486,0,0,4,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,5,1,0,0,3,0,1,4,0,0,0,5,4,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,1,3,4,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,6,20,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2343969327492142,0.2825900586105011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5180719404084312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2227895856203226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13815122228156215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2652399760513945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21106162456057906,0.0,0.19438290357664156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2690154306674143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2610879259754084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1871614755911181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1988147977074631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2583049400088081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23774995769102744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19250465173318035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,NevetsSnibbig,2019/08/17,"Most shameful alcohol-related faux pas? Care to share? Im a severe example of a binge drinker so am normal 90% of the time. That 10% though. Sometimes I can't believe I'm still alive... and with, as far as i know, my anal virginity still up for grabs! Tell me your story and i will respond with my most relevant/comparable jaunt...",1.6905494505494507,4.079981307692311,3.643736263736266,85.47769230769231,82.07692307692307,7.406593406593408,26.20879120879121,8.418075326091056,2.042648351648352,255,11,52,6,7,86,53,65,0.107,0.8079999999999999,0.086,-0.3281,0,0,2,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,1,3,0,3,2,1,0,0,9,6,6,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,7,2,9,5,2,5,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,2,3,31,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2992416851160477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3154713259616147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2854851851988061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30245496022759044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15388419407430567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27434682000352906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31632753018407034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.276933488327041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4472269438339204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.244737934481952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27510486531851003,0.0,0.16327398299158993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Ambitious_Wish,2019/08/17,"Maybe slight withdrawal, want to drink again. I've been drinking heavier the last two months, not every day and I wouldn't consider myself an alcoholic, but I've been a moderate to heavy drinker for the last two years..heavier during depressive bouts. Anyway, I'm a couple days sober after some more aggressive drinking the last couple weeks and I'm a tiny bit shaky but nothing too serious. Part of me wants to keep it going but I also want to have a glass of wine with my roomie tonight as she's suffering from some heartbreak and doesn't like drinking alone. With there be negative effects if I have a glass or two of wine tonight and then go back to not drinking over the weekend?",5.528333333333332,6.681260621212123,5.237575757575758,83.63469696969699,67.78787878787878,8.593939393939394,31.333333333333336,8.841846274778883,2.4818878787878798,550,22,104,9,9,169,87,132,0.184,0.764,0.052000000000000005,-0.9716,0,1,9,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,6,7,1,1,10,0,7,8,0,1,0,22,15,12,0,5,7,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,6,8,1,1,8,0,2,5,6,0,3,2,0,7,1,15,11,5,17,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,5,15,66,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13678256751695472,0.0,0.13255921638495866,0.0,0.10235369276966824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09841654042814313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13973211656157358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2832373775583608,0.0,0.16508614267522942,0.0,0.11023774594220416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6269082015481302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10783723846134527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454795263797188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11376354395826413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3129872137016256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06252953206682013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12858332889129262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10216053265867704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12281002010365664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386008816432701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3750833954008545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264757552686004,0.0,0.10266599418839066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,jmerc926,2019/03/10,"I don’t know what to do anymore A little backstory here..I’m 23 and have always had issues with substance abuse since the age of 14. A couple of years back I got real help and counseling. Things were going good. I still smoked weed every other day or so, but I was feeling emotionally and physically healthy. Since then I’ve been slowly working my way back to my addiction. Opiates were my doc and since stopping I haven’t touched them. I’ve picked up drinking hard liquor every day all day when the clock hits 11. Sometimes sooner. I feel like I’m slowly losing control and I can’t comfort myself because I don’t know why I’m drinking like this. Before I got help it was obvious to me and others what I had to “deal” with and work through to get “better”. Now I don’t know. At least before there was always this thought of “well as soon as I deal with this shit I can stop being an addict”. Now there is no hope. This is just who I am I guess. (I obviously love my one man pity party..sorry to complain). I think I’m just writing this so I can feel comforted or to justify my addiction for another day. 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About 3 weeks ago I got desperate and drank around 4-5oz of 91% isopropyl alcohol, a potentially lethal account. I'm alive and okay, and after a three day long hangover, I started going to the Center for Recovery on my college campus. I'm 3 weeks sober today, but ever since I've been getting daily waves of headaches. I rarely got headaches before, and I've been waiting it out to see if they go away. After 3 weeks I'm getting worried... what do?",4.575243161094225,6.0782563723404275,5.4641641337386035,79.80500000000002,70.38297872340425,7.499088145896658,32.577507598784194,7.957251820313856,2.517597568389058,385,18,68,5,7,126,65,94,0.02,0.935,0.044000000000000004,0.2406,0,0,2,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,3,1,3,3,0,0,1,10,16,6,1,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,6,3,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,5,2,5,1,13,11,0,19,0,0,1,0,1,5,0,1,12,34,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17999293040030392,0.4340006684790396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18075891160989735,0.0,0.0,0.19077359699516144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1727818970423427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13095143916785065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18367173429792824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21217208813433586,0.0,0.2307977282667465,0.0,0.3247977161751444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17969421487374626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16180578067449222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16796632434386896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1437209184206069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19246910876486126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4886270697722908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2062086856248149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,cody2897,2019/03/10,"Concerns over a friend's use I'm posting here as I haven't had to deal with alcohol for a very good portion of my life, and only recently, since I turned 21 in october, have I had to be around my friends while they were drinking. Personally, I don't drink, but I don't let that stop my friends from drinking on the night out or wherever we are. Recently a friend and I have gotten closer and I've started to notice his drinking habits being excessive. When I bring it up to him, or anyone really brings it up - even an older friend of ours he really trusts and loves, he always repeats himself saying, he'll only drink socially or at conventions, and when he does, he plans to binge and get wasted so he can have a good time. He's very addiment in thinking that his drinking behavior is alright. Just a second ago when I brought it up with him, he said, ""the amount I order is fine. If I haven't vomited yet, I haven't met my limit. Because I know my limits. ... That's why when I start getting even the tiniest bit of nausea I quit."" He went on to say after I mentioned a time that wasn't the case, 'That's called pacing. I wait for the nausea to go away and then go for some more.' I'm conflicted on his behavior with drinking. To me, he's smart about everything when it comes to alcohol except for the amount. But then again, I'm not sure if what he's doing is actually fine, then I have a couple of people backing me up that are his friends that agree with everything I've said and also get on his case about it. I don't know enough about the topic, and I really would like some input on what you all think and possible things to do. Please and thank you.",5.993038348082592,5.1069123893805335,6.687743362831862,80.65898967551624,66.69911504424778,10.12920353982301,30.92772861356932,9.444778638647367,2.4649657817109145,1296,41,273,22,18,429,168,339,0.02,0.7979999999999999,0.182,0.995,0,0,9,0,0,0,40.0,2,2,1,4,18,17,0,0,15,1,26,12,0,1,2,44,55,30,0,3,10,0,0,1,6,2,4,4,0,1,15,19,9,5,4,7,0,7,8,0,0,1,10,4,39,17,45,40,9,51,1,0,0,1,41,18,0,7,25,183,54,0,0.0,0.0,0.08184721558515279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07434768752120569,0.1792678524223834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06707260663185192,0.06978842941860239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05864542611076876,0.0,0.0,0.07466408290124264,0.0,0.0,0.0788007381464841,0.06449258178754022,0.0,0.0511277440656433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09156677237880652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08564294295367254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07224851532017301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0928030474247775,0.0,0.0,0.08646860513869188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07339716965802243,0.0,0.0,0.5751401095794394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08666245291846655,0.0,0.11079365791632473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15075793724581155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3887969457125336,0.0,0.13145936405044506,0.0,0.0953330630465208,0.14069612509837376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09218798839056076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0857650563652144,0.059241449343574684,0.040975743949264364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0756979786464587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07870842333072695,0.0,0.0,0.0954891105462953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12757724846099328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05814645644303184,0.0732340120777939,0.0,0.0920665422267685,0.0,0.0945533578770381,0.08032642940291672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08920846006433075,0.0,0.0,0.16119212972233898,0.0,0.16562745346798413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1595634292949881,0.13339715640487107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06937999047312786,0.0,0.0,0.08549719482047463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11873041801399478,0.0,0.0,0.07012095509659529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07904860139839816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07721829760649436,0.0,0.0,0.055720994921013685,0.10748390014497412,0.0,0.0,0.09781316488710486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09122892158523484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07243869338454736,0.0,0.13840677725495232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07775041441774266,0.0756816585615625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059580438752019835,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,acidgiggle,2019/03/10,"Rehab 3 times - starting ketamine infusions! I’m a 25 year old female who just spent her birthday in the hospital for alcohol withdrawal. I had about 4 months and was doing great. I’m in college and work full time but one day I was driving by the liquor store after work and had the next 3 days off and something just.... told me I could handle it. 2 weeks later and a fifth of vodka a day I was back where I was just 4 months ago. Couldn’t even go to work. I tried to detox by myself but starting hallucinating - which has never happened. Ended up in the hospital with my mom by my side on my birthday. Long story short I saw a psychiatrist and he recommended ketamine infusions which is a new experimental treatment that has had really high success rates. I had my first one Friday! And I have never felt better about myself - I had an experience where I was able to look at myself as if I was someone else and I told myself to give myself some compassion and deserved it. It was mind blowing. The plan is to continue these treatments for the next 6 weeks. I am hopeful for the future! I am also taking those vivitrol pills which I should of tried forever ago. They have been making me pretty nauseous but I am willing to try everything and anything. Here’s to another 24 - I want so badly to be healthy and happy. Have any of you done ketamine infusions? Any advice? I am feeling positive and hopeful. 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I feel like a mess. I could last 3 months with no alcohol but eventually I dragged myself back into it. I am going back to drinking everyday as soon as I get home after work and passing out and waking up the next day and going through the same cycle. it may also be worth mentionion that my uncle has joined AA around 15 years ago and he actually sponsers some people. I did talk to him a little about his experience ( last summer ) and he is a person I really feel comfortable with but I just worry about telling him about my problem. He is also in another country and I feel really stuck in this , I have never walked in an actual AA meeting because I am worried I would be judged or mocked because I am only 23! Is there any advice you guys can give me? Has anyone felt like me and do you know how can I find people to talk to? What kind of environment does AA have ? Thank you everyone and I wish you the best ",4.303990384615382,5.102810104166672,5.841874999999997,79.48485576923079,70.35416666666666,8.824358974358978,27.26923076923077,9.057496981413335,2.1059778846153847,748,24,148,14,13,255,123,192,0.11199999999999999,0.762,0.127,0.7936,0,0,3,0,0,0,13.0,0,4,0,5,12,10,1,0,7,0,19,4,1,1,1,32,31,16,0,4,4,0,4,2,0,2,2,0,1,2,5,13,3,0,6,1,1,4,2,4,3,1,3,4,29,6,22,23,3,26,0,1,0,0,17,8,0,3,16,107,34,2,0.0,0.0,0.2507708354007189,0.0,0.0,0.1255566503945315,0.11389655455295933,0.27462845737056946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20550306418272893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08737601211752319,0.13473051037353082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.089841556570291,0.0,0.0,0.11438125481552505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19759815280685536,0.0,0.15664976505103406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13483986792600952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10258693818973677,0.0,0.0,0.08286390860907084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1124404136390037,0.0,0.0,0.125868987130089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12277546153685408,0.0,0.12568558242776592,0.0,0.0,0.1949016585050686,0.09179160712791284,0.12336829932653814,0.0,0.11743538984467705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06712949713375761,0.1232570675686408,0.14604499182145758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12722298025223255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288835952230034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13380012152312631,0.07061345550161374,0.20946917733732334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12554515713039074,0.12877838624225674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10255762118491628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09909760132907568,0.0,0.13664807982927832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09772065227253704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17815432514793705,0.11219046522962074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12294533416636327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13666243802679834,0.0,0.0,0.1646249651113143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2065470217528356,0.11230387467704034,0.11829417079470325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1477544633544446,0.0,0.0,0.0935405438572238,0.2609709032385541,0.0,0.0912739443398714,0.0,0.0,0.08274183783835347 alcoholism,Mercury48,2019/03/10,"My poem on alcoholism: Blood of the Devil Blood of the Devil, you are my killer the ache in my liver is making me shiver you agony giver. &nbsp; But I don't care about anything at all, while you are with me, oh sweet ethanol! I can barely stand, I try to crawl, I fall over and I start to bawl. &nbsp; I want to vomit, stomach in flames, when you are gone, only guilt remains. So I keep going, I drink the stains, the liquid of Devils veins. &nbsp; /Mercury48/",2.111545893719807,4.312900782608697,3.4031884057971027,88.87031400966184,79.21739130434783,5.828019323671497,20.004830917874393,6.937597516519254,0.42067729468599024,360,9,71,4,9,117,64,92,0.257,0.68,0.063,-0.9702,0,0,2,0,0,0,27.0,0,4,0,0,3,7,0,1,5,0,6,8,5,1,1,7,13,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,0,3,1,4,0,0,1,1,17,3,13,12,1,12,3,0,0,0,5,5,0,0,3,47,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.253084361603607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7697703482614928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19487944999051693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2414497693237747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23198959465826274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13458803167897265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21049300666820944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15807656759278216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18010929480998106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1676196353108616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16078256850932826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1396802555114677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,cranberryorange_,2019/03/10,"Is it considered alcoholism if it doesn't affect certain areas of your life ? I think my husband has a problem. He drinks 7 days a week, anywhere from 8-18 drinks (mostly beer) per day. He gets extremely rude, belligerent, and violent towards everyone (me and our kids). He spends all of his money on alcohol, and gets pissy at me, treating me rudely for several hours when he is out of money and I refuse to buy him some. He has stolen money from me to buy alcohol. And yet, when I tell him he needs help, he says he does not because he can still function and go to work without needing to drink. I'm at a loss. Divorce is my next option if he doesn't stop drinking. But I don't want to break apart our family. I've made him leave the house when he drinks. I've left while he drinks. His family had talked to him. And nothing gets through.",2.374457593688362,4.257501633136093,3.6761893491124265,88.77329783037477,77.04733727810651,7.110216962524655,24.87613412228797,8.021203637495839,1.4019227613412224,652,23,136,11,15,213,104,169,0.146,0.8270000000000001,0.027000000000000003,-0.9548,1,0,10,0,1,0,26.0,2,1,0,2,5,7,3,0,4,0,10,11,0,2,2,27,20,14,0,6,5,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,2,8,10,2,1,7,6,1,5,5,0,0,2,1,19,2,19,18,3,22,0,1,0,0,29,8,0,5,12,74,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3726884347533955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07086126021599187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14993551987897544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1017259030943514,0.0,0.0,0.6832491613818498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11107611843869902,0.0,0.0,0.21916898545757046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18219806827086504,0.0,0.06606414101758268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07791589931225701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11447691918507033,0.1341299626372109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12308560605277136,0.12629944033948015,0.0,0.08210657118213158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10999287842347773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17238689825807355,0.0,0.0,0.12362680709598932,0.0,0.0,0.11153924800831924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.111229803809364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09244189025769016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13132262644489698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09283260430576402,0.09718518460963513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09343251967532523,0.10160237500721822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07448445806081219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06856371983723197,0.0,0.09324392079843496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1120550626898588,0.0,0.08462701258253026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Mifergas578,2019/03/10,So A Teen Approaching Alcoholism? What does this mean for me? Any other young ppl like this? Ik I'm def gonna stop this stupid shit so save ur thumbs. But after I drank almost a handle of 100 proof in 1 night I started having minor visual and sleep withdrawal symptoms. How far in am I. And does this make the issue any less progressed bc of me being 6ft 4?,0.15527027027026818,2.528457229729732,1.966270270270272,94.14562162162164,91.56756756756756,4.581621621621622,15.508108108108113,6.2581,-0.4088010810810805,281,6,59,3,10,92,61,74,0.138,0.7709999999999999,0.091,-0.6875,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,3,4,2,0,3,0,3,5,2,2,1,10,9,6,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,6,2,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,5,2,6,6,1,9,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,1,6,30,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2738076899650703,0.25655460551814185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34845950438379963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4484174759161267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.267413860243558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12516994702333384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17102036465602824,0.0,0.0,0.2790848633989823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24043319849898898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2629931153793652,0.0,0.0,0.2563923334816186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.181344848201796,0.0,0.0,0.21420077803917406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662974884971063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,MissKyouNtea,2019/03/10,"Lies to Save Lives (Original Removed but updated to abide by rules) **Discussion**: A friend of mine posted an article, that made me chuckle, about someone willing to pose as a couples therapist for $250 an hour, and will tell the person's significant other that they're wrong in all of the scenarios they discuss. So I began to wonder in other areas that a situation like this might actually be helpful, and even possibly, productive. **Setting**: A Raging Alcoholic, severely depressed, suffering with PTSD, and a LARGE family history of Alcoholism. The Alcoholic has been forced through numerous attempts to get sober, as well as, taken own steps to attain sobriety, and who has almost killed himself, and others, over several instances spanning 15 years. **Scenario**: A family hires an actor to play a specialist doctor, that tells the alcoholic, that their liver is severely damaged, and a short time away from needing surgery, if they don't stop drinking. Even though this is not the case, it's an attempt to scare him into sobriety. **Question**: What could go wrong?",5.170257437070936,8.306342902173919,5.7585812356979424,71.02509153318081,73.78260869565217,9.525858123569792,34.140732265446225,9.811843763644266,4.464526086956521,850,45,123,26,19,274,135,184,0.21899999999999997,0.6609999999999999,0.121,-0.9802,0,0,5,0,0,0,48.0,0,0,3,3,6,14,2,1,17,0,11,7,1,2,1,22,18,13,1,3,3,0,0,1,1,3,5,0,0,1,13,8,5,1,2,3,0,3,2,8,1,0,4,0,8,6,25,9,2,20,0,3,0,0,14,8,0,5,8,90,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.11494343970518593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5035153227552996,0.11794699321474973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11066507063323494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0940435958233271,0.1303294364978062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10145005177839173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12056031981971725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1153867379340296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15559483664013876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2220788173712199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09100219632308794,0.0,0.06153901663966304,0.0,0.06694125209915043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07895036214889496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11599679022031527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13031422520425445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05754493809392078,0.0,0.10400836732425782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11145321637796787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12495373971280407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08733781017309403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10284735029104347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13278751283548515,0.11280769942871352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13768708153965062,0.0,0.13194876265329114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11792566206079365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3991984565801325,0.0,0.0,0.13239789015904446,0.0,0.0,0.09980081956756444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09847547917900873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20590263021570074,0.0,0.0,0.13676016460397392,0.0,0.0,0.11572545031508907,0.0,0.06868273734295392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10590495227475076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.127735331193089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2575639020777353,0.0,0.07585117650121917 alcoholism,anniza,2019/03/10,"I don't know how I got here For about the past 6-8 months I have been drinking everyday. i don't even know how this started honestly, I just kept telling myself 'it's fine you can stop whenever you want to"" ... and that's clearly not true. I'm only 23 and I can't believe I'm already this fucked up. Lately I'll wake up feeling hopeful and I tell myself ""today we aren't going to drink"" and then it's the end of the day and I'm alone with my thoughts and I just want my brain to shut up so I end up drinking. I don't know who to go to about this. I have bipolar disorder so I know this alcohol use is not good for me for a multitude of reasons. I'm seeing a new psychiatrist in a month or so but I'm afraid to tell any doctor about this because I don't want this to go in my file forever. I've tried to stop on my own and the most of I've lasted is three days. I wish I'd never started drinking in the first place. 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It’s been just over 40hrs since I quit. Not feeling any real withdrawal symptoms.. wondering if it’s gonna hit me at some point or have I been extremely lucky (I posted earlier this week, has drinking between a pint and fifth of vodka straight a day) Hoping I got lucky 🤞🏻",3.2100000000000013,5.167972413793105,4.3960689655172445,84.20582758620691,74.86206896551724,7.398620689655173,28.84137931034483,8.238735603445708,2.15452,232,10,44,4,5,76,49,58,0.023,0.698,0.27899999999999997,0.9188,0,0,2,0,1,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,2,0,4,2,0,0,0,13,11,3,0,2,4,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,5,4,4,6,1,8,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,7,3,24,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1823299355630375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1729144046637407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26265428870736235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27113777931453953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22488527605936207,0.2144390473501412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2663024035061802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2534588704050784,0.0,0.2567836354911324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2851772805309403,0.0,0.3051778217355706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22179059017632624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2786780289097689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2541452126813077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2150686784077404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2907633334474012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,mathewmcmann,2019/05/21,"How could it happen? I haven’t had a drink in over a year but for reasons I still don’t know I called in sick from work yesterday and got a handle of vodka and consumed it all throughout the day. I said nothing of consequence on social media but I almost called out today because I feel guilty, I don’t want to face the world and even nobody knows I was drunk yesterday I feel like everyone knows",2.730529100529097,4.580948543209878,3.782116402116405,88.55666666666669,75.91358024691358,6.603880070546737,22.682539682539684,7.447530270364453,0.87270582010582,316,9,64,4,7,102,57,81,0.146,0.7929999999999999,0.061,-0.8201,0,0,2,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,5,0,6,4,1,2,1,17,15,6,0,2,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,4,2,0,6,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,3,9,1,10,10,1,12,0,0,0,0,4,6,0,1,7,41,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2156092628750844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13125548202788076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4397262568533453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17191341483942335,0.0,0.0,0.13886190335050302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2109290693508371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14221510494154005,0.0,0.0,0.20574499272265506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21774188321131108,0.15382278595519058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.172208985859889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19040445628221425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3549984184080628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10519320032204983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2066028421980465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22138213728515785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20481614443271465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2194889628571338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17195274525059506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2040957086772145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12699977490422176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1567536238452722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13865733926645474 alcoholism,Father_Foreskin,2019/05/21,"Is my friend going at it? Ive known this guy for almost 2 decades, we met in late highschool. The drinking age in my coutry is 18 so we occasionally drank together right from the start. Today he is very successful careerwise and generally healthy. I dont go out drinking with him much maybe once or twice a month. Thats all the drinking i do. During the last 12 months or so his behavior under the influence of alcohol has chanced in the following ways: - He drinks almost to the point of passing out. I have literally carried him a few times to the cab at night. - He sometimes gets very combative. Calls people at night to tell them ""his opinion"", sometimes he needs to deal with his drunken shit later. - He has accidentally fallen to the concrete twice. I know something is wrong here. Yet I have never said anything. Recently I have gotten the feeling im enabling this by going out with him and making sure he gets to the cab at least. I dont know what to expect if I confront him but I have a feeling its not going to be 2 adults discussing politely. At worst he might threaten with suicide, who knows. What the hell im supposed to do here? I cant figure out how to support him in a problem hes unlikely to admit",2.448288005578803,4.821298046025106,3.846051255230128,85.22519961645747,79.0,6.4937935843793575,27.113145048814502,7.645422480735847,1.7119580195258015,959,41,184,15,24,315,140,239,0.14,0.792,0.068,-0.9715,0,0,6,0,0,1,26.0,2,0,1,2,6,10,3,0,16,0,19,7,1,3,3,39,40,9,1,4,5,0,2,0,1,1,1,1,0,2,8,12,6,0,8,4,0,7,5,6,0,2,4,3,25,4,34,34,5,38,1,0,0,0,30,16,2,7,14,121,33,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11999534917914915,0.2248684796003764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0923985484574458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11465251248999432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1157578486766741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631874195732247,0.4399745956733309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11354634204982572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08674882237230573,0.0,0.11732545892600825,0.0,0.25524987406290284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.111176868450885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2425677328304088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18512181142748155,0.09152484530379502,0.12665902710329072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07494913081609753,0.0,0.11280239674559045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11911349625691706,0.0,0.0,0.17924489956932996,0.0,0.08254021568849777,0.0832557068644033,0.08659882801768874,0.0,0.0,0.21073816890845085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11957670369409422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07784222603361321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10614281664227752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10743874429104176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11086496459898737,0.0,0.0,0.0958882451197422,0.10680592842358326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1152558962667741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08644019680350125,0.2220996090054501,0.0,0.07947380288913836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12281832311119813,0.12741632368352898,0.10582448998803096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09813944836648243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06547255805403031,0.0,0.10643024119468412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18528887740940014,0.0,0.08912425376144491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12276277987584533,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,AnonymousSis,2019/05/21,"Sister is still in denial My 52 year old sister refuses to admit to anyone that she is an alcoholic. I am typing this as I sit in the hospital waiting for her to come back to her room . She is having a colonoscopy. She was brought in by her friend last Thurs because she was extremely dizzy. Her hemaglobin was 3.4. From what I've read, the normal level for a female is 12. She has internal bleeding but they can't figure out where it's coming from. They gave her five bags of blood to bring her hemaglobin up. It's still only around 8. She had an endoscopy, that didn't show any bleeding. While doing the endoscopy, the doctor discovered that she has Esophageal Varices. They did some repairs (?) on it but that isn't where the bleeding is coming from. Her stomach has been really distended for at least four years. *She continues to tell every doctor that she doesn't drink*. I think she has drank a lot less in the few months because she has been so sick. But heavy drinking definitely got her here. I also think she takes painkillers. She is a hoarder. She's had an eating disorder for most of her life. Her best friend told me that my sister could've had a liver transplant but she didn't want to stop drinking. If she leaves the hospital without addressing the issue, she will die. I don't know what to do. Her best friend knows a lot more than me and she has told me what's been going on. I'm scared for my sister and I'm at a loss at what I can do, if anything. Sorry if this is rambling. Thanks for reading this. Any advice would be appreciated.",1.5971787911690214,4.153318778501632,2.5338789359391956,92.08484301483897,84.34201954397395,5.2352153456388,20.90562794064423,6.691623216298621,0.4184014477017732,1223,38,246,14,36,385,159,307,0.079,0.805,0.11599999999999999,0.9318,0,0,4,0,0,0,38.0,0,0,3,3,9,8,0,1,18,0,38,16,3,0,0,31,60,13,1,6,8,4,0,0,3,2,8,0,2,0,16,7,6,3,6,6,0,6,7,2,0,2,18,0,44,6,35,39,10,34,0,1,0,0,45,16,0,7,11,181,60,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11266100843710712,0.0,0.12321099223208885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09219815268642337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15680363576825385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08061413179599466,0.0,0.0948746506770852,0.10263341267329648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08865164485743357,0.0,0.14056061902439895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24198153503356284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29793890448086746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0920504638552726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11965383207101082,0.0,0.13213344803112614,0.2360104005974699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3388237973012388,0.0,0.11797145193719405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09713762061633903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2672205686113609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06552251913416403,0.0,0.0922087263710946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12033382649488455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.126721811724711,0.09397753397036268,0.0,0.12207649798377695,0.0,0.0,0.08143342664350997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19603253167227186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0920241579342636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11296067890823522,0.0,0.0,0.1209784863749936,0.0,0.0,0.08768398325028433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2306443528340281,0.0,0.07385835208682832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11542638069187497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1290588097863909,0.0,0.0,0.184143046385174,0.0963884191947234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08668446659591114,0.0,0.10076939558958573,0.10614444182833266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14774760568486028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22033093849843052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06800160534515758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1111363876996773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08189940223039083,0.0,0.0,0.1484872185028359 alcoholism,OBDarbs,2019/05/21,"Amazing 2,000 days Sober- 11/28/13-5/21/19.. Living a Blessed Life, thank you GOD!",5.7323076923076925,9.498858000000002,0.560384615384617,102.6221153846154,84.38461538461539,2.6,37.269230769230774,3.1291,1.4356461538461538,66,4,11,0,2,15,13,13,0.0,0.344,0.6559999999999999,0.9235,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4044846325149052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4430017156504401,0.0,0.0,0.5538188485315733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5774308140385402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,crabmanster,2019/05/21,"Wisconsin (A rough place for recovery) Hi all, in looking for some advice regarding social situations and alcohol. Background: Genetic Alcoholism and recently started the road to recovery again* after multiple attempts to quit. 25 year old dude living in Milwaukee (Wisconsin's brewing capital). I have a group of friends that I love dearly, but ever since college all we do together is drink, go out to bars and parties. We obviously do more things together yet drinking is always involved. None of them struggle with Alcohol the way I do, keep in mind this is a group of 12 people who genuinely can enjoy the drinking culture of Wisconsin without over doing it. I on the other hand, can't have a single drink without losing all impulse control until I black out. This has severely impacted my relationships and mental health. I need advice, how does one stay sober in a group and area with such an emphasis on drinking? Any help is appreciated and welcome. Thanks",6.141193277310926,8.60238691764706,6.98453781512605,66.61470588235298,68.05882352941177,10.504201680672267,37.436974789915965,10.608840637214634,5.013344537815127,776,43,112,24,14,257,119,170,0.021,0.768,0.21100000000000002,0.988,0,0,8,0,0,0,22.0,2,0,1,4,5,8,0,1,10,0,13,12,1,2,5,26,20,9,0,1,3,0,2,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,7,12,9,2,0,6,0,1,4,2,0,1,0,4,10,6,24,20,7,24,0,1,2,1,16,12,0,1,9,84,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2320286562145137,0.0,0.3806349866080058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09878669465158643,0.0,0.0,0.0807354234654502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13315746518361316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1038949271061408,0.0,0.0,0.5815146360448877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1073913678055968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09172476841205356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06747277641748148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12619654753111825,0.0,0.0,0.07957724073433023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1055260813253016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1048342105047957,0.0,0.09969706355442216,0.13282019549666987,0.0,0.0,0.10715176089486188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11964443367127572,0.0,0.11987595867088492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08803128644611058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12457937317384275,0.0,0.08044949067468593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08230728625880848,0.0,0.1240398240524182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12627607438840358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11722422189444122,0.1274636169109632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341227188636985,0.0,0.098208542460363,0.13344915072123145,0.0,0.12102271606711518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08403245099450049,0.12654247043831407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1241146148152632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1093037979320792,0.0,0.0,0.07887400471398966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0942364554654224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288886550211097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07645344705368362 alcoholism,eightysomething,2019/05/21,"Relationship with an alcoholic for almost 2yrs I've been in a relationship with my partner for almost 2yrs. Everything's great until I realized that he is an alcoholic. I am a social drinker, I know my limit and I drink responsibly. He goes to the PUB nearly everyday (Mon-Sun) drinking until AM with his friends and gets home between 4m-6am drunk. He went out last night and just got home at 5pm today, he passed out @ sofa. He often cancelled our plans or don't have interest to take us out (I have a young teenage daughter), do activities etc..he always comes up with excuses ""Tired after work, no money, no time"" yet he always have time to go to the PUB and get drunk (Especially after payday). He became a complete different person whenever he's under influence, unpleasant. He accused me of infidelity, he accused me of being pregnant by someone else (we lost our baby last year and I never received any mental support from him, instead he made stupid comments about it), accused me of stealing his belongings (You kidding me right?) Calling me names and other things. It is hurtful and often I cried because of his behavior. Probably I cry nearly everyday because of this..because deep down inside I know that I don't deserve to be treated like this. His excuse for drinking ""YOU WILL NOT UNDERSTAND WHAT I AM TRYING TO DO, I have problems, I am not perfect, this is how I deal with things."" And I absolutely hate it whenever he say ""It is what it is"" - it is the most selfish and stupid thing to say. Nearly 2yrs later nothing's changed for the better. I love him so much, I tried to help him by slowly talking to him about how to get things better and how can I support him etc. But for him..in his world everything is normal and it's OK to drink foolishly. He thinks his behavior doesn't affecting anything in our relationship. I told him how I feel, I was brutally honest about everything but it seems he never takes me seriously. I feel like the only person that he cares is only himself. He knew how damaging it is..not only to himself but me and My Daughter. I'm hurting and tired coping with all of his nonsense, putting up with his cycle of alcohol and partying (He's nearly 40yo) He knew that and yet he's still doing it over and over again. I feel so alone and helpless. I am losing myself completely in this relationship and it is not right at all. He doesn't realize how huge the impact is to our relationship. I can't even having a proper communication, he always dissed me and calling me dramatic. I am mentally drained. Deep down inside I know he won't change, I don't have the power to help him if he doesn't have the willpower to help himself. He's wonderful when he's sober but his drinking and partying took the best in him. Sadly. For those who had/ who are in a relationship with an alcoholic, please share your stories. Thank you x",4.1481272727272716,5.9609839763636385,5.4402727272727285,78.32240909090909,71.96363636363638,8.345454545454546,29.772727272727273,8.97023862654752,2.653836363636364,2257,95,407,46,44,753,248,550,0.141,0.743,0.11599999999999999,-0.8193,3,1,10,0,0,0,79.0,6,4,0,10,21,33,4,0,18,1,42,14,0,9,5,80,74,37,0,3,10,2,3,2,2,2,6,2,3,4,28,33,11,1,14,9,1,7,15,15,0,0,11,5,71,18,68,59,6,56,0,7,0,1,88,27,0,9,24,284,99,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2785507083241648,0.13049937914457715,0.06748751739571919,0.0,0.0,0.1626584146407343,0.0,0.0,0.04431195932662501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053622247230850316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11916528088047205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0683828272582211,0.11525985540233348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13307406821889764,0.0,0.06643634936952689,0.0,0.1378641577345191,0.05613074192015775,0.1366408925756756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1431533885928062,0.0,0.06717850100762897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0680797523858238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3191666284042636,0.0,0.0,0.05443395501634058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14534428221392334,0.043038463775566575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17568848640957216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09884262459531863,0.04655128865467973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05034350515122242,0.0,0.10213236360364733,0.0,0.037032702572562526,0.0,0.05211549225241974,0.07184062951824402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06433335267220994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13102885833950054,0.0,0.13072431416781438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13951316731092567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10743293813494256,0.10623041085771387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06366909820665684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07289889428921445,0.07113132193128563,0.0,0.0588106715335588,0.06165725443508877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13133464967251818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04790109721447335,0.0,0.10051291591458314,0.0,0.0,0.06114952227517938,0.06384429780298592,0.06252408239986093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1486744518523355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11379277244659433,0.0,0.07152760576893295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07025496718268931,0.06235062135418318,0.0,0.06550516455991548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41975348854893996,0.0,0.1112948909302666,0.0,0.10363785782811856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05932045491923733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06642380062895965,0.05521100893167336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0520379463251748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14788867842336034,0.0,0.0,0.09798646668436173,0.05237423295673422,0.0,0.059991825648683675,0.0,0.0,0.17316124886915396,0.041752768433187384,0.0,0.0,0.07599222614252013,0.149786795556958,0.0617653502295954,0.062264471976715675,0.07239666863641309,0.0884805723685885,0.0,0.0,0.06783527387284824,0.07838109305893302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06040523360968043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07066471539963122,0.04743824619984476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04196177948670672 alcoholism,adjustyourinsides,2019/05/21,"I find it weird that people can actually have a normal nights sleep. One of the reasons (the main one?) i drink so heavily is im TERRIFIED of the dark: i may be hungover everyday, but at least i can sleep.",1.5385714285714265,3.50079928571429,3.957380952380952,85.39178571428572,79.95238095238095,8.009523809523811,24.785714285714285,8.841846274778883,1.9291714285714288,158,6,34,4,4,55,32,42,0.11,0.89,0.0,-0.4967,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,6,3,2,1,0,5,6,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,4,0,3,4,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,25,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.2692595976732832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2702980414770695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2521872670851442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29804258588726873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2589336515361488,0.2703445022104218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3739431205909807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19128923758791808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28369327333756805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5522415668778673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,JoSoyHappy,2019/05/21,"Quitting alcohol (beer for me ) and losing a beer belly I was wondering if anyone could share their stories about cutting back on beer and the weight loss they noticed ? As a sorta side random question but can you have a ‘beer’ belly by drinking lots of other liquid like water say? Thank you for your time.",5.691842105263156,7.08647357894737,5.7008333333333345,79.57125,67.59649122807018,7.1035087719298255,28.285087719298247,7.1686216300943375,1.712161403508771,242,8,40,2,4,76,48,57,0.078,0.7809999999999999,0.141,0.6966,0,0,6,0,0,0,5.0,0,3,2,3,2,6,1,0,4,0,4,8,0,0,0,10,6,5,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,8,0,2,5,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,7,3,7,4,1,4,0,2,0,0,8,2,0,6,3,29,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28366405797178723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1855948997801253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20409936541022367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2119243392357938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600204509319433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12967574107681942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2969483911944659,0.0,0.2256591819498279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3021939318585449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29734246222158145,0.2823175872898734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21108067172325987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2443723774536208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15477442776279565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32322235852534137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2878476245316645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,pavonharten,2019/05/21,"Coming down from functional alcoholism, need advice? So for about 3 months straight, I was drinking a half-liter of whiskey every single day, either maintaining a constant buzz or going out to the bar. At around the 2-month mark, I realized I had a major problem and resolved to quit, but my biggest trigger was a relationship that drove me into depression and frustration. Finally rid myself of him recently and gained a new friend who's been very motivating and supportive, so I'm doing pretty well at tapering off this past week or so. This is maybe my fourth attempt. However, my body's gone through some changes and I'm not sure how to deal with it. I'm down to maybe 5 or so shots per day, give or take. Usually I'm okay for quite a few hours during the day. But I only sleep maybe 3 or 4 hours, and when I wake up, I feel so fucked up and out of it. Some of my symptoms: * Feeling faint/tired/out of it almost all the time. Vitamin Water, orange juice, and a banana usually help me get regulated, but I still end up feeling a bit off. * A random panic attack maybe once a day, usually with very mild chest pains * Erratic heartbeat at times, or heart skips a beat when I'm sleeping, which makes me scared to sleep, though I don't experience this as much as I used to * Waking up with internal tremors (feels like I'm shaking, but on the inside of my body) Again, I'm not even drinking that much, so I'm not sure why this stuff keeps happening to me, as I've tapered off slowly. When it does happen, I'll do a shot or so, but sometimes that doesn't even help. I've been to the ER three times in the last couple weeks for chest pain and faintness, but all they really tell me is to stay hydrated. Which helps, but I'm so tired of feeling out of it all the time. Anyone else deal with this while tapering off, or have any advice?",4.023789407313998,5.0866208661202235,4.924043715846995,84.83216897856244,71.21311475409836,8.3630096679277,27.191677175283733,8.730908602173464,1.8657107187894082,1431,48,295,25,26,466,197,366,0.133,0.741,0.127,-0.8572,1,0,4,0,0,0,53.0,0,0,1,7,20,18,3,3,20,1,12,23,10,5,5,62,41,41,0,2,19,0,5,1,1,0,7,0,0,0,17,19,6,1,8,4,0,5,5,10,2,1,7,5,22,8,50,34,12,57,0,1,0,1,12,22,1,12,30,178,39,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15709882114618665,0.0,0.08590506112289396,0.08049203830326128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05466324745437643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05620571504090505,0.08236195957175403,0.0,0.07155797895323272,0.0,0.09144735229213083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0877574988681611,0.1785749505199903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08503463493661298,0.06924290151024153,0.0,0.0868655474664757,0.0,0.0,0.08894234357906462,0.0,0.2073617338013559,0.16574284143593024,0.06923382471265035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07034377062613338,0.0,0.0,0.15748962269116693,0.0,0.0,0.06714974463317756,0.0,0.07119554549097093,0.0,0.0,0.10618452585581922,0.0,0.06772620758268541,0.0,0.0,0.07863007165462689,0.0,0.0,0.20322048981057989,0.05742568484264484,0.0,0.08805572957090031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06210376434761782,0.07431285756362897,0.04199683899941375,0.07711077012696692,0.04568355395226188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1421649755099709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09525433090665067,0.16163724231379134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15832227387889655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07144817044087384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0655229347126408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03927111013996948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05365632674856546,0.0,0.32302241223604705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12832200713447234,0.0,0.11818161824307348,0.0596030315836531,0.0,0.0776344747354658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08560535145724038,0.0,0.06113495073901967,0.1710665184603729,0.09431221901367344,0.0,0.0,0.07673474062382367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08177848551402335,0.0,0.07691574680539932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17099458962556788,0.0,0.0,0.051495456172479234,0.0,0.07936858907793727,0.08630134002598641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0804774810177003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413233800919504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07950091656677044,0.0,0.0,0.08567766264355847,0.06419402753155674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09201938939495934,0.0,0.09121776092960417,0.1515201937893197,0.08354879305667202,0.06043806860430283,0.0,0.07025835057909657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0789759630621888,0.0,0.1874880698286603,0.09238851988664376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0694251679682099,0.2655918020378405,0.13264891054638284,0.0,0.0,0.12895690826834585,0.0,0.07227403804591664,0.0,0.07253322240168976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,A7aneek1,2019/03/22,Alcoholic hepatitis blood work results Can someone who suffered before from alcoholic hepatitis tell me how long it takes for the liver function test to go back to normal? Thanks I’m very anxious guys ,5.283857142857143,8.70508588571429,5.016785714285717,74.67946428571432,75.85714285714286,8.071428571428571,34.464285714285715,8.841846274778883,3.985714285714287,166,9,23,4,4,51,32,35,0.139,0.787,0.07400000000000001,-0.3804,0,0,2,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,4,2,2,0,3,5,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,4,5,0,3,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,11,3,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5649771406159299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.298617860396334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2032535892905803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22492551102117325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15022493056723984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26172843226714376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23392388786031745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25898744996466194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22396610042316906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19874339612866165,0.0,0.23103622473292715,0.2433597122709764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21810007817554808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19243551635583986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Hockey3848,2019/03/22,"Are these withdrawal symptoms ? I’m 32. Been abusing alcohol since I was 15. Past few years I’ve cut it down to about 25-30 drinks per weeeknd . Rarely drink during week. I always feel extremely tense /irritable / my balance seems off all the time , kind of shaky leg feeling . Fatigue etc. Is 25-30 drinks per weekend enough to put me into th we symptoms all week long ?",1.8371746031746028,4.586504114285717,2.446190476190477,91.37769841269842,86.42857142857142,5.396825396825397,24.920634920634928,6.937597516519254,1.1385873015873016,288,12,56,4,9,89,59,70,0.172,0.792,0.036000000000000004,-0.8672,0,0,4,0,0,0,13.0,1,0,0,0,1,4,1,1,1,0,4,8,1,0,2,8,8,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,2,4,0,3,4,0,1,0,3,0,0,2,2,5,1,7,6,5,11,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,2,7,24,7,0,0.0,0.2232702500878664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2013847486943825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15679693966686986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5537975470780736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19470860019121888,0.21016009561715496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19056156522142872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19623096678472787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667632191950482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17988703173786613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18943396241851654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17154844054382462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15587928071932378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3917220353144672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10988071404671047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3023099480352304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1213489991469023 alcoholism,Sockus-Monkus,2019/03/22,"Asked the other day if I’d experience withdrawals... another question Would I experience other symptoms that would cause severe discomfort before I’m in danger of seizures. I think I’m feeling ok so far after not drinking since 4 am Thursday morning. It was a fraction of what’s been the usual. I’ve gotten plenty of advice to seek medical attention and even monitored detox. I’m dealing with this by myself though. I’m planning to test the waters, an go cold turkey until I feel discomfort. What happened Wednesday night with visual and auditory hallucinations. I’m sorry if this is a waste of a post, but I’m honestly trying guys. I’m planning on scheduling with my counselor for support. That’s the extent of what I have planned at the moment.",4.382628666297734,6.981896460431662,5.728201438848924,73.03842280022138,73.60431654676259,7.730160486995017,31.555617044825677,8.617729084823388,3.1013869396790263,604,29,93,12,13,202,96,139,0.083,0.838,0.079,0.3716,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,3,3,6,1,2,9,1,7,5,0,1,0,17,22,8,0,4,4,0,2,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,10,5,2,0,5,1,0,1,1,3,0,0,3,3,6,3,17,17,1,15,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,3,9,58,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18072671700592827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19393160572402385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1728991866015577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15737509866077865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18999009485591795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11927462316125073,0.19067081077633471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18117629568328453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12215483613906886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3618246045234963,0.0,0.0,0.18702812247140435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1051088565365202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1831252384994929,0.16354679882185033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18631325243254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17355893352651486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17712677793814413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20718141846755428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2089359051731568,0.0,0.15298892602635772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20703147714506573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2098740951098366,0.0,0.1922293110638857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11850568395993705,0.1817081302389811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12556593417853315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036914688295544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2627601207406093,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,leanansidhe606,2019/03/22,"Are there any mothers/fathers that have lost custody of their kid/s because of driving with them while drinking? I did. I'm trying to find support but don't know where to look. Please don't judge me, I'm deeply ashamed and angry at myself already. Just looking for people who have also made big mistakes and have survived them. Thanks. 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Any advice is welcome",0.14819047619047865,1.3186453428571454,2.782857142857144,95.8904761904762,81.28571428571428,4.666666666666667,18.80952380952381,3.1291,-0.7073333333333336,234,5,58,0,6,82,51,70,0.087,0.705,0.20800000000000002,0.85,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,0,3,0,7,0,0,0,0,15,16,5,0,4,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,2,3,2,1,1,1,1,5,4,13,14,1,10,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,3,5,41,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2689335220859661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2200865612313544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18715327790884592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2297901320836125,0.16776639435957955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13915521882608614,0.19661117213044124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28757333113479583,0.0,0.3128181096751474,0.0,0.0,0.30342168357461363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3106803186790064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13445445216091298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2339750012777646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2778851914652101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18649045536136702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19479613754754616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1604780564241207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1623268909685137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24744821718269505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,haveyouseenmybong420,2019/04/13,"Help me quit. This is the 1st time I have ever admitted to this but I am an alcoholic. I started drinking Heavily when I was 20 because I have been my dad's caregiver (by myself cause my sisters dont care) since I was 18 And that can get very stressful for a young man, I'm 28 now. My mother was an extreme alcoholic and she even tried to get me to drink her shot when I was around 5, that's when she got help and was 13 years sober before she passed away Recently I have found the Want to quit but it is so hard Because even now that I live away from my dad and he is not my responsibility anymore, I can't Stop, I find other excuses to drink. I plan my day so that I can drink, If something goes wrong to where I can't I will lie or cancel plans to make sure I can stay home get drunk and play my games. I'm not sure what I hoped for in writing this post but I just need help and I could use all the advice you guys have to offer. I want to be healthy, I want to quit drinking so that when I do have kids with my wife that I am marrying week from today but I will be there for all the important moments.",1.3438381742738557,2.6526678132780117,3.06385684647303,94.55860684647304,78.33609958506224,6.479751037344397,21.593568464730293,7.1686216300943375,0.3310878008298759,857,23,210,10,20,285,130,241,0.08199999999999999,0.787,0.131,0.7825,0,0,8,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,5,16,7,0,1,7,0,28,8,0,3,5,36,45,19,0,7,9,5,1,0,0,2,2,0,1,3,12,8,8,1,3,8,0,1,5,2,0,0,8,1,40,5,21,32,2,25,0,0,0,0,22,5,0,3,17,139,52,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10422320214738663,0.0,0.2279660785630869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1057742888927325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09494662851430627,0.0,0.0,0.2004140175763902,0.0,0.0,0.1300332565256586,0.0,0.09075656877089856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10874310197188884,0.10956529499465187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08515629529008263,0.0,0.0,0.06878442416668602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12500026954726198,0.5224123472760881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14089082556383126,0.09647663713864103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09748183259571896,0.0,0.0,0.11694301585250876,0.0,0.0,0.16717038391449685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08530270465040786,0.0,0.0,0.1056064043358624,0.0,0.0,0.09554300386209966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21446820360975466,0.0,0.10698486265920712,0.10593366998543734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09417937673441182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07119384026437947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0790842192706159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10214715504491184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3403259849557613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10531012827811424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08822710901694532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08210915185594443,0.0,0.0,0.07549180579525636,0.11368131585030605,0.0,0.08916935715169652,0.1221743142844506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20104440850030894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06219208667324276,0.0,0.10109760458070984,0.0,0.0,0.07241255724401514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09211671051985673,0.0,0.08800253316758799,0.18872576657766213,0.0,0.0855531685132575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11661180917944615,0.0,0.06868309455512993 alcoholism,_trolltoll,2019/04/13,"Waking Up NOT hungover on weekends is still so exciting and freakin amazing. Sobriety is better than I ever imagined. Honestly, it feels like Christmas morning when I was a kid. I’m SO excited for the day, unbelievably happy and it’s just a regular Saturday. I love my life now. I love learning who I actually am and what I actually enjoy. I love living life on my own terms and consciously doing what’s best for my body and mind. You can fucking do this.",2.7805934343434338,5.293976579545458,5.118787878787881,75.7787373737374,78.6590909090909,8.456565656565656,31.368686868686872,9.150863307647796,3.4180262626262614,361,19,63,10,9,126,63,88,0.0,0.594,0.406,0.9926,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,2,7,13,1,0,3,0,7,8,2,0,1,13,13,8,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,6,5,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,11,12,6,12,3,11,0,0,0,4,6,3,1,0,9,48,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.4076958824494957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2192187096064135,0.1847475293417595,0.0,0.23203133134613255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13471771663401594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1889542933782535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10562180343941012,0.1492321075123099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19311679747260088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22236885354873956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2950924450519375,0.10205382045672393,0.0,0.1844549945919247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5655981205335489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21092083587855465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16682099733747366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,pallbearer776,2019/04/13,"Lost a few good friends, 2 good jobs, potential girlfriend, almost thrown in jail, hospitalized twice now 6k usd in debt because of my drinking problem... This stuff is evil",7.5790000000000015,9.078030233333337,5.993333333333332,78.81000000000002,63.33333333333334,8.666666666666668,38.33333333333333,8.841846274778883,3.442333333333334,137,7,23,2,2,40,28,30,0.22899999999999998,0.5489999999999999,0.222,-0.0772,2,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,1,6,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,1,3,3,1,1,3,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,1,1,11,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3143489955878005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1913648253821144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30752547551317355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2425364838115193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5266082027171414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.311520591444195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3426845361334622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3003823516317045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35936725222345595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,zenzenzenzen,2019/04/13,"A dozen years, dozens of beers I want to start off that I have successfully detoxed 3 times professionally and attempted 90 inpatient rehab twice. The narcos they put me on in rehab after detox made me hallucinate crazy images and they ended up having to ambulance me to an emergency clinic. I’m not Christian but have nothing against AA for people it works for. I don’t know how but I can sell myself long enough to get what I want but then everything gets tarnished. I have managed to cut my alcohol intake about 75% (my partner confirms) and kidney, liver function and blood pressure are all normalizing. I am on an anti anxiety and see my general practitioner about once every 3 weeks. I just don’t know what I can do outside of this to survive. At best I could go to an atheist alcoholics group. Is this just a long game? If I wake up in 90 days and I don’t need a shot for breakfast any more, is that success?",3.713782771535581,5.687750078651687,4.948112359550558,80.72291760299626,73.49438202247191,7.892734082397005,28.158801498127346,8.648137234880735,2.2456797003745317,726,29,136,14,15,240,118,178,0.079,0.828,0.09300000000000001,0.6548,0,0,3,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,2,6,5,5,1,1,7,0,15,13,4,2,1,24,27,12,0,6,7,0,0,0,1,0,7,0,0,1,7,6,4,0,2,2,1,2,4,2,1,3,1,1,21,3,24,25,4,20,1,0,1,0,5,8,0,1,10,96,28,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4090518296482338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13014426096350099,0.0,0.1464043867591605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20084041986309914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15280053336897598,0.0,0.0,0.123423602029004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16950496143774024,0.1977456328565714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612450347203727,0.0,0.17199907632935135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1999752238995179,0.0,0.1087650778938006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21035375173625145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3387287288238761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18108740695362846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14190507988229126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18751075512273271,0.18363328139863372,0.0,0.0,0.20381235507864695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1326780796120795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19238872215294636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.152504259646684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13545901863400722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11159461532032856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22576054767140674,0.0,0.15351266439786124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13932616807972753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12324178084198432 alcoholism,Alissadizzle,2019/04/13,"Night sweats and tremor I've been able to sleep a little bit more regularly lately, but there are nights where I can't sleep because I'm soaking the sheets, so I end up sweating at different parts of the day because that's when my body thinks it's ""nighttime"" why do I only start sweating around bedtime. Also? Are there any medications that stop hand tremors?",5.265652173913047,6.767607449275364,4.841275362318843,84.93234782608697,68.71014492753623,7.259130434782609,29.74202898550725,7.554174236665415,1.734823768115942,290,11,55,3,5,88,57,69,0.043,0.8859999999999999,0.071,0.4329,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,0,3,0,5,8,7,0,0,5,8,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,4,0,5,7,3,13,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,8,30,7,0,0.20372280194458187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16291705111206106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1385384912748658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18135648547286898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24837505835746584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2224125359803776,0.22629010694225216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313843536873522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2128469678439929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1804379343917028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298081941341493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20418376744887207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2052292902333835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3823600981278198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1549403709798976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2206119418638592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4077398562314788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14419604777188216,0.0,0.0,0.17032138452888887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13053734551988233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1838281417001669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,alltheway_away,2019/07/03,I just went to an interview hungover as fuck but I got the job Thank god I make a good first impression. I’m so excited to not work at a bar anymore.,-1.5736363636363606,0.3848419393939402,1.6446060606060615,95.02690909090909,99.30303030303033,6.276363636363637,21.75151515151515,7.554174236665415,1.1782169696969698,116,5,28,3,5,41,28,33,0.057999999999999996,0.54,0.402,0.9244,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,2,2,5,1,0,4,0,0,2,0,1,0,4,6,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,1,2,0,3,4,4,4,0,3,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,1,16,3,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3603988909837536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3091110616743475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33596093016031764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3048058412504017,0.2906471929591384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3606221682535132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.242574838788822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33457336718285285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3368789361838842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2645622731549508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Typhoon365,2019/07/03,"Advice for helping an Addict Long story short, Dad's been an alcoholic for most his life, but it's gotten worryingly bad in his old age (70+). He exclusively drinks white boxed wine everyday to the point of no return, often getting sick and vomiting, crawling about. AA hasn't worked in the past, he was forced into treatment at one point, but only remained sober for about a year after, and this was many years ago. I had thought that, I could start to secretly water down his boxed wine, and slowly start to ween him off?",10.5223,7.299489430000001,9.5,71.48,59.7,12.4,37.0,10.125756701596842,3.4717999999999987,413,12,78,6,4,130,79,100,0.152,0.833,0.015,-0.9468,0,0,4,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,5,0,6,9,0,0,0,11,11,5,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,3,4,5,0,2,3,0,0,2,1,1,1,6,1,6,0,16,4,1,21,0,0,1,0,9,9,0,2,12,45,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23307520268346435,0.0,0.20892435977753335,0.18952213734654014,0.2284887915237695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1785153292024982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17070310744576564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20944408336291345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11170246392196613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14330664448542915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15101432839990755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18920760718735052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2167611722667063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22434871801152495,0.0,0.1448774354672666,0.1626056815702689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20409773212249965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4042230648008687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3026596164627493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16973451598380954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1556500446388456,0.21712581017554064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.275362323586603 alcoholism,Martim_osorio14,2019/07/03,"Definition of alcoholism Hey guys. I was chatting to a friend and she said that she considers her parents alcoholics because they drink everyday whilst having meals. I said that is not the clinical defintion of alcoholism but she said it is because the habbit is too strong. She mentioned they've spent a few days without having it due to a bet but later returned to drinking. They don't drink to the point of getting drunk. It's just a habbit of drinking when they're having meals. In essence, my question is: Is a person an alcoholic if they have a moderate amount of alcohol everyday for lunch diner? My grandfather does have a glass of wine for lunch and diner (sometimes 2) but he is definitely not an alcoholic. However, knowing how tough-minded he is, I think he would despise the idea of having any other drink when having a meal...",5.95013986013986,7.441502358974361,6.279370629370633,75.30199300699302,67.07692307692308,9.518881118881119,34.053613053613056,9.800150414767053,3.5654948717948725,672,31,113,15,11,216,91,156,0.040999999999999995,0.892,0.067,0.5994,2,0,12,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,3,1,5,3,1,0,14,0,17,21,0,1,0,17,24,9,0,2,8,1,0,0,1,1,7,3,0,2,6,2,20,0,4,8,2,0,4,1,0,0,5,3,13,2,15,18,2,11,0,0,0,0,22,2,0,3,9,79,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.684341019086174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07257683070999381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.130117445318715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06882895798677482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09339598670014207,0.0,0.0,0.5227505781730915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08245566448045973,0.0,0.05575953892895343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10567477819619336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12047981817703135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058653407057478964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10776207995463337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11850576158659044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09318837292887476,0.0,0.0,0.10088985921335876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11955670677797996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30456046172554746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10555400258229423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06838523171391918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10287933384045587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07581455649038177,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,chlywly,2019/07/03,"Need help, we're at our wits end and options running out. Hi Reddit, I wanted to reach out to a forum where I figured people would be intimately familiar with the issues and available options surrounding Alcoholism. In a nutshell, I have a half sister who's 10 years my senior (almost 50), who has been making a string of poor decisions, building up a terrible attitude since she was probably 20 or earlier. We only found out about her Alcoholism late in our life, but once we did it all started to make sense. She hid it exceptionally well. She has no friends (mainly because of her attitude and character). She doesn't exercise. She has a terrible diet. She looks like absolute shit, 100x older than anyone 10 years her senior. She doesn't really go outside, and often sits in a dark room if given the chance. She's lost every job she's gained lately, and the pickings are slim at her age. (She used to be an Art Director). &#x200B; She's had a very big chip on her shoulder for a very long time and although I think she now realizes she can't keep living like this (perhaps it's just lip service), but basically does NOTHING to change. &#x200B; She's been living with my parents who are Expats in a different Country, and basically leeching off them. Getting into ridiculous situations and putting them through an incredible amount of stress for years. Finally, they have tried to give her hard ultimatums about their relationship. &#x200B; I've tried speaking to her, helping her and giving her advise, things to read, exercises to do … she did none of it, and ended up just drinking again the next day. She's ALWAYS lying. Forgetting things and going on crazy binges, where she's shaking. Last time she couldn't remember who I was, or my sons name. Other people are always being put into crazy uncomfortable predicaments having to help her, because people are generally good. My parents are done. We we've tried everything and it's been 2 decades of this. She refuses to go to AA because ""it's bs, it's not for her"". They can't keep cleaning up her messes, it's causing them incredible stress at their age and also draining what little resources they have for retirement. < QUESTION > Does anyone know of a Room+Board situation that's specifically designed for Alcoholics? ie) Somewhere she can live and work outside, on a farm? Anything with her hands. Be around nature + people? I feel like this is the only way.",5.365714285714287,7.3618729284116355,5.863340364333656,75.77267114093962,69.1565995525727,8.59850431447747,31.563374880153408,9.159459690764724,3.0157519846596355,1937,84,324,39,35,624,246,447,0.106,0.81,0.084,-0.8873,4,0,4,0,0,0,81.0,5,0,8,3,12,15,2,3,19,0,34,12,4,5,1,64,55,21,0,5,9,4,3,3,1,1,6,1,2,0,20,26,5,3,9,5,1,7,8,9,2,1,12,5,56,6,51,37,4,57,0,1,1,0,67,26,1,8,25,215,76,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431687293850796,0.07594875251031784,0.0,0.0,0.06065397043519679,0.12621979515149945,0.2465371313594296,0.276483354821393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.106066488842641,0.0,0.06241474573562614,0.06751896644959739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1387049422723567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07791467261704266,0.08023494720401905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048914356415147145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07924286381755577,0.0,0.0,0.1327465855889578,0.07761672928110484,0.0,0.07430014588306276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13435398030196846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0639034752577682,0.0,0.06816543987002519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0383499859389794,0.054184354350892784,0.0,0.08308551942863175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08316115787798141,0.05859838473248381,0.0,0.039626372975734514,0.14551667269719862,0.12931498590606,0.06361597558675264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06794306415300308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15251380349804144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0791634554696409,0.07526539175740636,0.13483071191922036,0.0,0.0,0.041682944819875035,0.061824563735000414,0.17111504679999384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05357223011692242,0.11116348477555442,0.07601755684659661,0.20092006248594516,0.06712126974647535,0.06369148691241842,0.0,0.08279480255773228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10125550717168097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05623880311685581,0.0,0.0,0.08066301713751309,0.0,0.0,0.07277622454986347,0.0,0.0,0.08077345024969138,0.0,0.11536850951431687,0.0,0.0,0.1684358801598808,0.0,0.0,0.21032809828698515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08177475096287151,0.0,0.0,0.15249223602196424,0.08496481042591149,0.0,0.07586646451269008,0.0,0.04858885100554205,0.0,0.0,0.0814301544986079,0.08591866419874898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07785476698625254,0.06274054494481097,0.17050802769120593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05368414637220547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17376253493680274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10077734408353643,0.04859901552235901,0.0,0.0,0.08845275454701199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15448324283631146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06550653966718079,0.0,0.12516168667382765,0.044735900231962784,0.0602029764564959,0.0,0.0,0.06819460836349846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05521674729446791,0.0,0.0,0.053878779311745464,0.0,0.276483354821393,0.14652689504052033 alcoholism,Heavydutyhoneybadger,2019/07/03,"Having trouble. Not sure about this. But I realized today when I was buying 1.5 litres of rum that there may be a problem. I need to drink to be happy now. I've got too many kids, wayyy too much debt, and too many responsibilities. I have my dream job, my wife is all over me, live in the best part of the country.... but fucked if I'm only relaxed and happy when I'm drunk. The stress and demands on me is KILLING me. I have had enough tonight to be happy and I miss being happy so bad. We are working on moving somewhere less expensive... but I just don't know what to do. Is it wrong to have to drink to be truly relaxed and happy? I think so. Maybe someone has some advice.",0.4056428571428548,2.615240207142861,2.2353571428571435,94.62089285714286,86.21428571428572,4.357142857142857,18.75,5.602791699666715,-0.3864285714285711,519,14,115,3,16,171,91,140,0.213,0.575,0.212,0.1981,2,0,2,0,0,0,24.0,1,0,0,2,11,17,2,1,4,0,19,4,0,0,2,21,27,13,1,3,6,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,6,3,0,3,7,3,1,2,8,0,0,3,0,14,9,14,18,7,10,0,1,0,1,3,4,1,3,5,82,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12973412578786284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1108512678869968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13932621117052066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2601137089563051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1371793079311569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12273693132100752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10618241991366817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7066415522402989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13174644526862986,0.0,0.14688220264544438,0.0,0.07296288081575814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11723185294773712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2692009799021771,0.13337792720396696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14110568708932206,0.09759582417676373,0.09844182331089772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10097197841899018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14376901314983434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12703592679201087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11248936315991584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15207916789018214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12512722716215055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08506894588767902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1258434693934829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09665279095058367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14515511717863558,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,kelsohawk,2019/07/03,"30/F Need to stop drinking Hi r/alcoholism. I just turned 30 and my alcohol intake has become increasingly problematic over the last 5 years. I've recently seen an Dr. Who specializes in addictions and they prescribed me Baclofen. The dosage is what scares me. 3x 10mg/ day plus one every 5 days. Max at 100mg. Does anyone have any experience with this? I'd love to hear any feedback.",2.4333637747336354,5.27904171232877,3.7377168949771686,82.71181126331811,83.93150684931506,7.628006088280059,24.549467275494674,8.515128840125781,2.180492846270929,307,12,57,8,9,100,64,73,0.10300000000000001,0.8390000000000001,0.057999999999999996,-0.3182,0,0,3,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,1,3,0,3,5,0,0,0,7,8,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,4,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,2,5,2,7,7,1,10,0,0,1,1,5,3,0,0,6,25,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2303175566048726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.451570819799512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2873442745190936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14772622524608844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333332154701801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2725057956532072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1848854639890732,0.0,0.0,0.20696603057771695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.178005688374248,0.0,0.0,0.20666445872833156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2381187867989161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17221479710915286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19068113893620345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1566554373103956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1431633076355928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2086055138531478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21152002922489932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.176632769067192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298031596462976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13605217719286386 alcoholism,atlfordays,2019/07/03,"Dating an alcoholic I date an alcoholic who has ... “slowed down” he ‘used’ to drink a 30 pack a day. Now he drinks an 18 pk a day. I tired of it. He’s such a good man but was brought up around alcoholics and made his own decisions he’s OBVIOUSLY not happy about. He’s explosive when he’s drunk and he is ‘functioning’. As in he gets up and goes to work and ‘pays’ his bills on time with my help at the end of the month but then when I make him pay me back and he’s broke the next week he comes home in a pissy mood that at some point subsides. He has no saving account. Is always broke. But I’m a way he’s not functioning. Our house is constantly a MESS. Tbh it’s almost gross. His side of the bed has dip all in my new rug because he gets drunk and pissed and puts it in my mouth all sloppy like. It’s gets in the bed and I can’t stay w him anymore. For the past 4 months we have not lived together because he was a horrible sleeper and I always had class but now that it’s summer my excuse doesn’t hold up. I said earlier he’s broke some weeks and would rather have dip than beer. On those weeks this he’s such a good person I just love him. We’ve been together for about 2 years and he asked my dad to marry me but he told him NO. Because he’s not ready. He has no savings he was going to give me his moms ring (which may be shallow but I don’t want it because I know too much about her). He wants kids but I can’t give them to him knowing this is what I’d bring them into. I love him I need help. He needs help. I’ve tried talking to him and he’s told me he has a problem but claims he drinks because he’s trying to control it. I told him once I can’t take him seriously drinking like this and he told me to leave. He told me he’d never stop. I don’t know what to do but I’m on the ledge of really just leaving. Tl;dr my bf of 2 years knows he’s got a problem but won’t stop drinking. He’s explosive drunk but claims he can keep on because “he’s functioning” but only because he keeps a job. Help. Should I leave? Should I help him? Is there any helping him? He likes to say “anything I did when we met I won’t stop” and “you can’t teach an old dog new tricks”",-0.8012853262864255,1.1889794895397507,1.3813631358731548,100.09521214123177,89.87866108786609,4.776980107171696,16.754165749100785,6.24893746202806,-0.5725528591352864,1668,40,420,17,57,555,213,478,0.145,0.7390000000000001,0.11599999999999999,-0.9289,2,0,9,0,0,0,38.0,3,1,2,2,17,21,2,0,23,0,35,17,2,4,4,73,71,31,0,10,19,2,0,3,1,6,4,3,4,3,17,20,12,7,5,9,4,5,17,10,0,0,16,3,54,10,40,47,6,58,0,3,0,2,86,19,1,4,35,222,71,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2309339600090012,0.07212747387093695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11986918383614005,0.0,0.0,0.04898275699779802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07143424014397817,0.0,0.0,0.0592744158845264,0.0641218233008423,0.06733817129780156,0.0,0.0,0.055386496062177576,0.0,0.30736102692896183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062047323868371376,0.0,0.07783866127936044,0.08078758343693915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09290656785357798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35280907543934753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06379705316667388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1128978457290265,0.13819516003672347,0.04093621448134956,0.12083041433193545,0.05760883814693035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07667709747810493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2896804756672668,0.0,0.07225179626325445,0.0,0.0,0.08311275730401041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0714784956689138,0.12804685171928565,0.0,0.0,0.15834285167229334,0.0,0.0,0.22880758114763636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10557041529367897,0.0,0.0636036629003365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13001947448867346,0.06815637035780303,0.04808047338777365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08436047080066868,0.1149870522819502,0.0,0.05295021570789914,0.10681841816408287,0.055553848331254985,0.13913372467645282,0.07660454541562774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07558319385943049,0.07670942220622473,0.0,0.05478193439972809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06876062671547131,0.0,0.06289367256107953,0.0,0.0,0.0680914750485173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13784564622574022,0.0,0.07240987775079484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04614415596681426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06851686661753256,0.05728101491008609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07677421896515488,0.0,0.18066049903823364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054157470800315466,0.05789485197338873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04200117534211825,0.08278769794587801,0.0,0.3441379648720625,0.0,0.09780705798654536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06221064957687353,0.0,0.0,0.08497012441739275,0.05717392936412785,0.17333396372492665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05243857688352168,0.0,0.0,0.0511679273004248,0.0,0.0,0.09276970276317904 alcoholism,RenoTrailerTrash,2019/08/07,"Working Out as a positive and Great Way to get THAT Alcohol eradicated from your Body 100%. So I am 53 this Friday and after drinking for say 30+ yrs and heavy over last 10 years? Done. Sick of Booze and the way it makes you feel and the Toxic relationships it brings. No AA no Court Ordered yada yada bullshit. I just grew TIRED of feeling like shit. So 6 months in no booze? Lost 26 lbs and started Working out to be in the Best looking shape I may have ever been in. In case you are unaware? Alcohol negates postive gains in Overall Fitness and Muscle Growth. The reasons why? I will not go into. Too numerous to mention. But for me? The Process of working out and looking good without Alcohol in my life is one of the best motivators I know. Imagine seeing people who ""used"" to know the sloppy, drunk reckless you. Now they see you say a year later and their head spins like: ""WhaawhaaWhat??? Dayum you look Good!"" That's one of my strongest albeit selfish reasons...yet quitting drinking? Is such a Big Change that Use that to find that ONE BIG Positive in your life you have NOT been doing as a result of your drinking. Now REWARD yourself w something positive and get your TRIFECTA going of Mind, Body and Spirit.",2.9805821981713017,5.428852510729616,3.7059339428997937,86.53629968277663,77.54077253218884,5.940585930210861,27.72700130621385,7.079830092131019,1.5305254338495995,957,41,177,11,23,303,144,233,0.121,0.696,0.183,0.9575,0,0,7,0,0,0,35.0,0,10,2,10,8,11,1,0,11,0,13,17,4,6,1,35,32,16,0,0,5,0,2,2,0,2,7,2,0,0,9,15,9,0,8,4,0,5,7,3,1,3,4,9,20,8,31,25,2,34,1,1,5,0,17,16,1,1,12,115,29,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3463101737883412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.226713179651996,0.0,0.0,0.2399638288301856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11426707118299036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11053832075445848,0.0,0.31744496710161324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09770705415060672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10923271531576537,0.07716696640772143,0.0,0.0,0.09872506939107907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11286826350189633,0.0,0.12277646432530245,0.18119813034245305,0.0,0.11908850656890665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11085603031157278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1187260212370586,0.08804781546376775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15259041217130082,0.10554275304748396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2721198152071793,0.0,0.1179127042159022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07210181254457597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1090658125000772,0.0,0.08621769197050777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21958420594762032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07488499904421342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1148887800789402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11105889056079007,0.0,0.11596923266957974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17179801729906924,0.0,0.0,0.17215023568732246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11087732354995088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08315633281371812,0.0,0.0,0.07645459227776001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1241490080629814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18658304621470945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17147684483894626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0974680363299468,0.0,0.0,0.10412399370446228,0.0,0.235911764640911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13911809196428734 alcoholism,pinkie7_,2019/08/07,"I am an alcoholic. Hey, Yes, I am an alcoholic. I love to drink and I am currently close to snapping out of it. I just don’t wanna do this anymore. So many disadvantages just for a little bout of dopamine. I am wasting so much of my potential, it’s starting to annoy me. Soon I will stop drinking just because I can’t stand it anymore, the smell disgusts me",0.15671232876712082,2.5379052876712365,2.6131643835616463,89.32960958904111,92.013698630137,5.6597260273972605,26.47808219178082,7.1686216300943375,1.6050120547945212,278,14,57,5,10,95,48,73,0.18600000000000005,0.722,0.092,-0.7165,1,0,4,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,6,3,2,0,4,1,8,5,0,0,0,8,10,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,3,4,1,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,11,1,9,9,1,8,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,4,44,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5138774326143524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.476869368946609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14655942769879451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4710453721472978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2409666759664875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2169908457947325,0.0,0.0,0.24375085086680226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1767383253417392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17017240279786608,0.0,0.0,0.2010041169713121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,epitch1,2019/08/07,Hello Hello everyone I am new here I have never done anything like this before. I have recently become fed up with my alcoholism. This is the first time I joined something to help me with my addiction I am a 50-year-old male and always partied and drank but really started drinking heavier when I was 40. I am recovering from eye surgery right now and I haven’t had a drink in three weeks. I’m afraid when I’m back to normal and back to work I’m going to fall back to my old ways.I have realized this past few weeks that I need help. I’m possibly joining AA when I’m better if I have any urges. I have to say though that I am a little different I am a weekend binge drinker The past 10 years.i used to drink A few beers a week and never getting drunk.Then I discovered I like drinking rum on the weekends and it got out of hand so in the past five years or so I stop drinking during the week.Friday and Saturday night only and Sometimes Sunday. But I drink around 8 beer and a 40 of Rum every weekend. I would like to go back to the way I was.just a few beers on the weekend. Is this a stupid thing to do.I can’t really get drunk on beer I can only drink a few.my problem is hard liquor right?,1.2290438247011934,3.2724148844621515,2.852293227091636,92.49539601593628,81.43027888446215,5.928350597609563,22.390597609561752,7.087006719466742,0.646915091633466,940,31,206,12,25,309,132,251,0.106,0.8290000000000001,0.065,-0.8625,1,0,14,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,3,13,7,1,1,17,0,20,19,2,1,2,26,35,19,0,5,4,0,2,3,0,1,2,1,0,1,8,13,16,1,1,19,0,3,4,3,1,3,6,4,24,4,23,28,3,46,0,0,1,0,6,11,0,2,34,125,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09739597905025034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09547943880880676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07433970995018388,0.0,0.0,0.060755630951059986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07352086238187501,0.07953333113834701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27479396593191113,0.0,0.0,0.09867123158417712,0.07602347076440345,0.0,0.0,0.07901574817172573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09334338571455104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09142789584016738,0.0,0.6126481034613424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.075274497312711,0.08537011990140038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0759942686697511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09335502628119778,0.0,0.1015502471481594,0.0,0.07145496751298808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0800328930370789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11976813306064114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13094398078126218,0.08954416572003877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06624596889314299,0.1378121328399958,0.08628707066926593,0.0,0.08384142485778417,0.0875362013910572,0.0,0.0,0.18749882259311848,0.0,0.0,0.13589725010067027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25586117544648856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10071969319202533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08548823834760806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11446955958783413,0.0,0.0882144572758899,0.0,0.0,0.15259517798020053,0.0,0.07104835284252786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06877984470047467,0.08836153306173558,0.0,0.06323673502152027,0.0,0.0,0.07469392142419065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0593548620462246,0.0,0.08777807190865558,0.0,0.052096044914564765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07716281194805255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07091552957350028,0.2866590878590052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06504204785527383,0.0,0.0,0.0634660010610474,0.0,0.0,0.11506665140903788 alcoholism,shlong69provider,2019/08/07,"After 11 days i drank two beers After 11 days of absolute sobriety i drunk two beers. I feel really bad about it I got depressed right away but fortunately i didnt lead my self to more alcohol. I think that i need to start counting from the start the days and this fucks me up i feel that i need to climb the same huge mountain and that puts me in fucking tears.",2.7808,4.254045413333333,3.7596666666666683,90.3715,74.86666666666667,7.666666666666668,23.166666666666664,8.344100000000001,1.0980666666666659,286,8,64,5,6,92,50,75,0.184,0.777,0.039,-0.8757,0,0,3,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,1,4,2,0,3,0,1,7,0,1,0,10,12,3,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,5,2,5,0,3,3,0,3,1,4,0,2,3,2,12,0,11,9,2,15,0,1,0,2,1,5,2,0,7,39,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21834052067671805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19195180802494835,0.0,0.17058661681789514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3952805719605239,0.0,0.17596808777745113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20660606943259416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.377754414031687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1634018277271729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30297998231485995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2053835270866591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13088337946817188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17447584018413978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21313526654590306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2892170675226226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13091075954166884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39915370959759455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,GiantFuckFace,2019/08/07,"Problematic Drinking Hey all, I’m new to this space but I’m currently a nurse that has worked with and seen many cases of alcohol withdrawal and am beginning to worry that I’m headed down this path. I am getting pretty close to getting drunk every night of the week, and on nights that I don’t get drunk I still either drink a few beers or try to argue with myself to not drink that night. Any tips or tricks to talk myself out of not drinking? And then keeping up that progress?",4.169017857142858,5.438697270833337,4.6314880952380975,86.28375000000004,71.08333333333334,7.569047619047621,25.17261904761905,7.957251820313856,1.2891744047619054,382,11,77,5,7,121,63,96,0.165,0.747,0.08800000000000001,-0.7941,1,0,6,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,1,2,2,0,3,0,4,9,1,0,1,16,13,8,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,8,8,1,0,7,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,1,5,0,15,12,3,15,0,0,1,0,3,6,0,2,9,48,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17607368874902898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11203949444287163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6455912712117602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13881374436142369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2582340875532603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16908683302757105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14644239535429826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1670363737496171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15912203730594662,0.0,0.4638360613192972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16761573086088793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13157407812059246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13242435386466625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11185827423158104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13215704774364345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11994407835388968,0.16731736408283227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,neonorangehat,2019/08/07,I relapsed after 2 years I had 2+ years and relapsed a week ago. It went downhill so fast. You really do pick up where you left off. Now I have 3 days. Thinking about anything in the future makes my thoughts go to wanting to die. I’m 25 yr old female btw. Does anyone have advice? 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It's been 4 months and in the last week of relapsed a couple of times and I don't know what should I do because we're just winning off the benzos at the end of the stage so to speak episode of the panic and stone to drink more....,6.576717948717949,4.2724705692307685,6.475384615384615,87.22794871794872,66.38461538461539,8.666666666666668,30.89743589743589,3.1291,1.1779743589743583,237,6,55,0,3,75,46,65,0.054000000000000006,0.89,0.055999999999999994,0.0258,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,7,0,5,1,0,0,0,7,6,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,3,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,5,1,10,3,1,10,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,6,36,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17064899303014833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6194971783943551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2742348946450922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2479439925410569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1538478538005318,0.22818868685709426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2234456563285837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.328449595636884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446801387895781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3264708505747032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22455120247557825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ashmalteezy,2019/08/07,"Need help I drink a pint of rum and about 6 cheap high alcohol volume beers a day. I’m what you consider “functional” I suppose I work, take care of my kids and house etc. But I’m going on two years without a break from a day without a drink. I already can barely sleep for who knows how long. I want to stop drinking but I cannot go to rehab as where would my children go? I have no one reliable! I know you’ll say well how are you?, well I wait til end of night when everyone is asleep to destroy myself.",0.12194444444444485,2.198958787037036,2.123703703703704,95.86666666666667,86.12962962962963,5.4518518518518535,20.11111111111111,6.816661863887847,0.2114666666666669,391,12,91,5,12,130,77,108,0.09,0.8,0.109,-0.3404,0,0,5,0,0,0,10.0,0,3,0,1,7,4,1,0,5,0,7,8,2,2,0,15,19,9,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,2,2,2,5,2,2,5,1,3,4,1,2,2,0,1,15,3,14,17,1,16,0,0,0,0,8,3,0,0,9,56,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17129018600772236,0.0,0.0,0.17687256318156666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1634157702867785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20673421035639147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4710390705583241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14196018337759655,0.0,0.1787541613903126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1531540601814224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2732718311945185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10743206100548744,0.16934423467851595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18494117960386247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17617099179490414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418424335524827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1188453186941188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15041158010783875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10860962896260183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12746079916021008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16039538735607822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13400095197475856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12051033871413608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1565699141660398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09453708161407194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28822128192665936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30900769771329256,0.0,0.11668548343442307,0.0,0.0,0.11385805428414808,0.0,0.0,0.10321483017201116 alcoholism,bridgin,2019/08/07,"You can do it!! I am on this sub as an ally and to support. I am the child of an alcoholic and the wife of an alcoholic. I want you all to know how much you matter. You are good. You are important. You are worth it!! I lost my dad to liver failure and it will haunt me forever. I should have done the intervention but I was so afraid of him. I am so hopeful the love of my life can hold on to his sobriety but it is up to him. Sixty days in but at least it is a start! I follow your stories for reassurance and to remind me that it is possible. I was the lucky one who did the opposite of my upbringing and I know I was just lucky. I could just as easily turned to booze. We are all in this alcohol fueled reality together whether we are the addicted or the codependent. I am just an anonymous person out here pulling for you everyday. Not everyone judges you.",0.4904189944134103,2.6717971899441366,3.128432960893857,88.57421368715086,85.4804469273743,7.602346368715082,22.357821229050284,8.548686976883017,1.6025573184357542,663,24,148,18,20,231,100,179,0.03,0.7829999999999999,0.187,0.9837,0,0,3,0,0,0,19.0,2,9,0,1,7,9,0,1,13,0,24,8,1,1,2,30,34,15,0,4,9,2,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,2,10,8,4,1,2,0,1,2,1,2,0,1,6,0,32,7,23,25,4,12,0,1,0,1,21,7,0,4,3,125,42,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21282775497046416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6259193081379858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1558739784665291,0.0,0.0,0.12590615661317148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1997864183212012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18654908690635194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1637483056578672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1939058355925624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21458482798167605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13789558096136725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2131148427900478,0.0,0.17620123846930733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14351532524862748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13229180531166038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17046589429356138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22009066896194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13818365478259131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22154285620523645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21235242016980468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11515075886989525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,godman666,2019/08/07,"I have a question about alcohol withdrawals I have been drinking about a 6 pack of beer a day sometimes that equivalent of wine, maybe whiskey but just to get to the same level that a 6 pack of beer get me too. Maybe a little more on occasion for about 4 to 5 years. In that whole time maybe 10 days of not drinking and not even 2 days in a row. I always would start drink after 7:00pm at least. At this point I did not drink this past Saturday, drank 4 beers on Sunday and 2 yesterday which was a Monday. Starting today (Tuesday) I want to take a long break from drinking but I am just wondering if have alcohol withdrawals could happen. Any info could help ease the bit of worries I’m having. Thank you",3.4850483558994227,4.9933617730496485,4.054480980012894,88.82454545454546,73.11347517730495,7.113088330109607,25.58413926499033,7.686295010490155,1.2407531914893621,554,18,114,7,11,175,90,141,0.028999999999999998,0.882,0.08900000000000001,0.7783,0,0,12,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,0,7,1,0,0,10,0,11,13,0,0,0,18,22,5,0,5,8,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,6,2,13,0,3,10,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,0,8,1,21,15,5,26,0,0,0,0,3,9,0,3,16,72,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26666444161382274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10381165563454714,0.0,0.0,0.08484217442303152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13620736733791353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19922399048635187,0.0,0.0,0.2413827554224691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6110944126276769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08240386807612769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303655858564973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11032628146662814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08362507866667528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12504391128295614,0.0,0.11041010060761247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37601942508565134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11909907573175665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1179400498638226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13976155848458482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1233924244215168,0.0,0.1766138222467179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09380520545540463,0.0,0.0,0.1148637300852429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07274949926784481,0.0,0.11825942019066407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07358763122389378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.139291884312281,0.0,0.0,0.1352986462480134,0.0,0.12670147306631924,0.0,0.08862706958456408,0.0,0.0,0.08034238766266515 alcoholism,cmf521,2019/08/07,"23F can’t remember the last day I didn’t drink Alcoholism and drug addiction has plagued my life since I was a child. My father is an addict and left me and my mother for a woman he met in rehab. Then, I spent 3 years in a relationship with a recovering heroin addict with a new addiction to alcohol. He was functioning but still had 10+ drinks a night. Multiple times I woke to him peeing on me or around our house. Our relationship at times was tragic and embarrassing and everything was based on drinking or doing coke together. So, I always blamed my drinking on him, because I couldn’t not drink when he was around. Now, he’s out of my life. I tell myself I’m going to get sober everyday but when nighttime falls I can’t stick with it. I have come to the realization that I am very dependent on alcohol and the thought of quitting makes me depressed and anxious... I resent myself more for manifesting this illness because the trauma of my father has caused heartache for my entire life. Not sure what to do. I don’t have any person in my life I feel comfortable discussing this information with.",4.64117957746479,6.2138096056338075,5.612203638497653,78.53689700704227,70.31455399061034,9.08086854460094,28.805457746478872,9.516144504307137,2.6594415492957757,878,33,164,20,16,289,125,213,0.147,0.8320000000000001,0.021,-0.9787,0,0,9,0,0,0,20.0,2,0,0,1,7,7,1,1,11,0,19,21,1,3,1,30,29,15,0,1,6,3,1,0,0,0,14,0,0,3,5,15,9,0,4,5,1,3,7,5,0,0,11,1,30,2,26,17,1,28,0,2,0,0,20,12,0,3,13,111,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4507271928706915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3313933992769783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08600696125088562,0.0,0.0,0.0702909279641062,0.0,0.0,0.11677167178088485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18403139140450053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1260192252306756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10618309466603217,0.0,0.0890387605702415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06666109942200442,0.0,0.08902708880620741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5062858611226174,0.11986919125878387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0928967178011013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052263842619405886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05400331890804295,0.0,0.05874402911541088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11926794640850988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0842552921453687,0.0,0.0,0.11230507028900744,0.0,0.2920356328741791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06899613861122703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09982940138557304,0.0,0.09699992351052544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09025328254976868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1099401237701292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22194807507678635,0.11709103494582672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08550360284535291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08254646357614535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09741915750286972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09034451646060793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08205931073086613,0.12054452510761472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08528595948781731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0665628977812672 alcoholism,Claraoswald84,2019/08/07,"Please tell me I’m not dying I messed up and had way too much on my birthday. It’s always the binging that brings me here. I am now suffering the worst hangover of my life. I know my anxiety is high because of it, but I’m so paranoid that I’m gonna get DTs. I always end up here and say “I never want to feel like this again, I’m done.” And yet...here I am",0.11386243386243675,1.3143646543209897,2.616684303350969,96.91222222222223,81.46913580246914,5.616225749559083,20.213403880070548,6.1826913282559595,-0.1675410934744268,271,7,70,2,7,94,55,81,0.139,0.778,0.083,-0.5089,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,0,2,0,5,1,0,0,1,9,15,5,1,1,2,0,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,5,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,2,2,11,1,6,12,2,10,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,0,5,43,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4363612071358502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20059073984826128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15984142575266244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2721336779497268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2683329476362016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23224116691721916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325817882836037,0.1873236305292114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13699445420072467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.277040376651476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1441043387587975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18520742308859706,0.12810307698531226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19275529627353927,0.0,0.20223333089517245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2878289985717017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20852075581243634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2291840200344808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1546588742605509,0.2081309310334088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Stromboli34,2019/04/11,"Lost but not without direction Hello all! Quick bio - sober since 2010, met my wife 5 years ago, and had our first born 16 months ago. For the past 6 it 7 years I've consistently made a weekly meeting (Sundays, at one point my home group meeting was on Sundays). Typically I'd hit sporadic meetings between. If I became busy with work, I'd attend every other week, or when I could. In between my only social group was other alcoholics (I lost all other friends years ago). Basically, I've always relied on a good support system. When I met my wife, my pattern remained. She had the standpoint that I needed to make meetings, and that I shouldn't stop doing so. She's always been pretty supportive, or so I though. When our son was born, things started taking a different road. Going off my sponsor's observations - I seem to pick up the parenting duties quite frequently. I don't mind it. I do it for my son. But, I've always had the thought that if I needed to step away for myself, I could. Until tonight. Tonight my sponsor said something to me about it in front of my wife (premeditated, we spoke about things prior today). Asked me when I last went to a meeting, and that I should try to get to 2 or 3 a week. He's trying to get me out of my house, out of my slump. Out of the role of responsibility while the other parent is around. You know, get me to stay sober. &#x200B; My wife's reaction surprised me, and only angered me. ""If I need a break, then you know you should be around for that"". I spoke no words, as you will never make amends for an unkind yet unspoken word. I'll be divorced and sober before I'm drunk and married. She doesn't seem to understand how serious I was when I said it to her. &#x200B; Thanks for reading, it just helps to blow off some steam. If anyone has ever dealt with anything like this, I appreciate anything you have to offer - even just an AA famous ""I can relate.""",3.093535000000003,4.974304336000003,4.241645833333333,85.52446875000003,74.97333333333333,6.500833333333333,24.785416666666666,7.292943589461545,1.1100816666666673,1486,49,292,17,32,485,202,375,0.053,0.8440000000000001,0.10300000000000001,0.9662,3,0,2,0,1,0,70.0,3,5,0,5,19,12,1,0,14,0,24,2,0,5,4,56,57,28,0,12,13,8,0,1,1,4,1,4,1,0,18,14,2,2,6,2,0,5,7,5,1,2,19,4,51,7,47,29,3,60,0,2,0,0,42,16,0,10,37,194,69,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431585558096984,0.09771770436863482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2282472296776452,0.19814260311342655,0.2222104692293793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06393445711350734,0.0,0.15048873317207825,0.16279556387407004,0.08548069130256876,0.0,0.08590750801304167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07780564207241981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14600905083308954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09553157709993396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060392880061273475,0.08270945893193346,0.0770391108983207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07777575541108431,0.0,0.0,0.07064353607778961,0.0,0.1433152358238011,0.0,0.05196541346067456,0.07669251442685719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06128789174514687,0.0,0.09171816480019232,0.0,0.0,0.10550532949565528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1005021087067272,0.07453287012339767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0446712065706561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19962726441154954,0.0,0.0,0.08651933283268587,0.12206901447220715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09232469874640134,0.0,0.07298366238991273,0.0,0.0,0.20339679677663244,0.07052138881040224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06195967125680025,0.1390830054671714,0.0,0.0,0.20305860359786795,0.0,0.08728639036011747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08643695316906974,0.0,0.0,0.09302369111573028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09725386688080837,0.09146114431931704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17395391087918635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16648052950028966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07563713523133944,0.0,0.0,0.09320789527985172,0.0,0.07039220815300469,0.0,0.0,0.06471915477472044,0.09745903675246498,0.0,0.07644492492754229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20752188705008365,0.0,0.0,0.06874879364834767,0.0,0.0,0.08418235255679933,0.0,0.0,0.12149256289384686,0.0,0.08983579907706382,0.07259028831763853,0.0,0.0,0.08667101613594708,0.0,0.0,0.12415862756334285,0.0,0.0,0.09518851742223064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2200342949602024,0.0,0.0,0.08476245916876039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08814142700335055,0.0,0.0665667884431052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2222104692293793,0.17664613185870545 alcoholism,madeofcum,2019/04/11,Is my liver getting damaged by 6 drinks a day and how fast? Whisky mostly if that matters.,1.6483333333333334,4.104466055555555,2.9977777777777814,89.60000000000002,82.8888888888889,3.6,25.66666666666667,3.1291,0.4298000000000002,71,3,13,0,2,23,18,18,0.161,0.778,0.061,-0.4215,0,0,2,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,1,0,5,2,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,9,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5022903944535149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.762971289386125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4069142062059351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,_Americuh_,2019/04/11,Slipped after one sober week I’ve been struggling to stop drinking. I’ve realized my loneliness drives my urge to drink. I try to go on dates where everyone wants to “grab a drink” and I feel too weak to say no or that I don’t drink. With the loneliness comes boredom which is another driver for drinking. I made it one week without alcohol and did the whole “I’m going to reward myself” thing. I want to stop viewing alcohol as some sort of a reward because I always feel terrible the day after. And the week I had without it was amazing!I felt happy. Everything felt in place and I felt in control. I struggle with admitting that I do not have control of my drinking once I start. I woke up feeling ashamed today. Hoping to get through the next 24 hours without too much guilt.,3.535035425101217,5.536258019736844,4.34105263157895,84.76467611336035,74.0657894736842,7.3085020242914975,30.113360323886642,8.139509932561175,2.246664372469636,617,28,116,10,13,198,95,152,0.177,0.7090000000000001,0.113,-0.8583,0,0,8,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,4,3,10,0,4,7,0,8,9,0,3,0,30,26,6,0,3,5,0,7,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,6,7,8,4,8,6,0,4,6,6,0,2,9,9,16,4,24,17,3,23,0,0,1,0,2,6,0,4,13,76,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2159472791067099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08406761860776403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1059419967121742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061588829612494074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0870310548827814,0.0,0.0,0.22663438709663994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06515798024576297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5938437455806007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09654144043848613,0.09080202030664873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15325608733534374,0.0,0.29102281121187684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05278561585581025,0.0,0.11483885870010074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10755159550516953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1003486481117525,0.09949723514317918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09559994596712694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0742709409853915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10744982991500956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1075969359809817,0.1369252635303099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10555806788951397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08034556273461363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07151173612799724,0.0,0.0,0.16893636262005948,0.0,0.21124342987158587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06712189095655888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0957675491503823,0.0,0.0,0.06859483133880599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11918386000425868,0.0,0.2431279347679317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11279982901674016,0.0,0.29217685977586816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,chris42017,2019/04/11,Ignition interlock Anyone in ct have experience with a court ordered IID ? Like to shoot ya a few questions,3.303508771929824,6.451048473684215,4.890526315789477,71.280350877193,90.57894736842104,8.849122807017544,32.64912280701754,8.841846274778883,4.414985964912281,87,5,13,3,3,29,18,19,0.121,0.754,0.126,0.0258,0,0,0,1,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,8,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4078392706003439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.570554632167516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2849585830105475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.653401214444074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,fbtra,2019/04/11,"Looking for a sponsor. Live in SoCal but just someone to talk to daily if needed. I just live in a town of nothing and the closest jobs are 45 in either direction. And my mom can't afford to let me use her car to go up and down either hill.",1.9173076923076915,2.95502611538462,4.23,87.89000000000001,76.30769230769229,5.9692307692307685,24.538461538461537,5.985473137389443,0.6518692307692309,186,6,40,1,4,65,41,52,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,2,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,3,0,0,1,0,11,7,5,0,2,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,11,6,2,9,0,0,1,0,3,7,0,1,0,30,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17035591447679668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29745751162827416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.306516630019963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5293728447898987,0.0,0.2517161043941351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35106580642644786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22226223821450056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2876200356476945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2539788150031033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24092922553742355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2588894022844305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,stlgerg,2019/04/11,"My sister diagnosed with stage 4 liver failure. Found out today that my sister is in stage 4 liver failure and my heart is breaking. Watching her sit in pain and being helpless to save her is killing me. I knew she had a drinking problem but because we lived in different locations did not realize the extent of the damage she was doing to her body. I’m no stranger to alcoholism it’s been ravaging our family for generations taking my grandfather’s sister, my dad’s brother and almost my dad. I always expected that it would come to a point with my sister that we would have to get her help but then like a light switch her liver just quit. Maybe it’s because my Dad had so many second chances I expected to get the same with my sister. Unfortunately, I found out today that’s likely not the case. Things are bad and I am praying 🙏. I know I have it in me as well and can’t even count the negative impacts it’s had on my life. As a result, I’ve made the decision to get alcohol out of my life before it’s too late and i think I have the will power to do it. I grew up as a kid thinking alcohol equals fun. As I’ve gotten older I’ve learned it equals pain and loss. I don’t want my kids to grow up equating fun with alcohol I just want to break the cycle and avoid them having to experience the pain and heartbreak I feel right now.",3.4971454545454566,4.583259105454545,5.005227272727272,83.66784090909091,72.49090909090908,7.972727272727273,26.84090909090909,8.395991825355821,1.7496363636363634,1054,36,216,17,20,355,143,275,0.177,0.725,0.098,-0.9764,2,1,5,0,0,0,17.0,3,0,1,3,7,17,1,1,14,0,23,16,5,2,0,48,40,17,1,7,6,9,1,2,0,3,10,0,0,2,13,19,5,1,10,1,0,3,6,11,1,1,11,3,38,6,32,25,4,26,1,4,1,0,23,12,0,1,8,147,51,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4990531310415003,0.11690173784315465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971399326237302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09747593457789276,0.14233149119748092,0.0,0.0993401081713261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12967569520597175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10056417616550363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11849218103708513,0.0,0.12197209546901013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11436417174264918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07710797158489721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141975307983377,0.11005536886209318,0.0,0.059029014359626035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25600641368439225,0.0,0.0,0.1829809593510464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1383415932159741,0.07825069793638506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12915937046673695,0.0,0.06415916689614788,0.0,0.13169173739433354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16491875360166885,0.11406994080820433,0.0,0.10308663713281008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11046550935869262,0.0,0.1183595713672813,0.11728452325436955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3726699009556347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11036032926536307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1117077497177872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1241710677874338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09969829931833177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08777657269788061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07755918477385446,0.1496090240918281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22131834887371835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13771666573151325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10496641440085894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1658624460896887,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,rachey_rach,2019/04/11,"Put it into perspective for me please I am female, 24 years old, about 200 lbs, 5'6"". My usual drink is Jim Beam vanilla (70 proof) 750mL. I used to drink it in 2 or 3 days, but lately I've been drinking all of it in a day. I know this is a lot, but can someone put this in perspective for me? I don't even know what an average amount of alcohol is anymore.",2.8467532467532486,2.9719651038961103,4.821194805194806,87.92607792207794,73.28571428571428,8.237922077922079,25.78961038961039,8.238735603445708,1.334685194805194,271,8,64,4,5,94,57,77,0.0,0.976,0.024,0.1655,0,0,4,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,7,4,0,1,2,10,10,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,1,4,0,2,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,7,0,10,9,3,12,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,2,6,39,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21160952026686447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1963699746053724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2553965763940077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5819151351922925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13078191367543385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21763920004720352,0.0,0.22336078978177928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16833867349160414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20777528855705885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2173524875763275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3981039296125377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16777089074761375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17101467941664938,0.21807699911742665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12751016976617968 alcoholism,invincible64,2019/04/11,"Why should I stay sober when I still feel dead inside after two months clean? I've been in a sober living for two months, and really only went because my mom wanted me to. I wasn't even really drinking that much, just 4 beers a night. I keep hearing from the other people here how great sobriety feels and how its worth it but I feel completely numb. My life has no purpose, and it doesn't look like it will anytime soon, so why should I continue being miserable when I can at least be comfortable? With or without alcohol, I feel like I'm doomed to feel like this for the rest of my life.",4.3725420168067215,5.136613008403362,4.986039915966387,85.80914390756303,70.17647058823529,8.639075630252101,24.959033613445378,8.841846274778883,1.5553773109243705,464,12,97,8,8,149,85,119,0.212,0.7090000000000001,0.079,-0.9592,0,0,3,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,10,8,0,1,4,0,10,6,0,2,0,19,21,10,1,3,4,1,5,3,0,3,4,1,1,0,7,4,3,1,5,2,1,1,4,3,0,2,3,7,12,5,11,13,3,13,1,2,1,0,2,2,0,1,12,65,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16819444745553094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09593914967539326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16501296704548765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15417531704346524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10394991529717568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3978875929840136,0.22486873778127234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17351519311330105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1773819565764083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13988914496923344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2223283807814112,0.2306679927102862,0.0,0.1389719762816995,0.0,0.13216199067962106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18432493998960406,0.2512430444056262,0.0,0.11569453370947445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14769318194336442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1196967806711703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10910948037565396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20164702019151248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16774922151559074,0.12568618017941058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30748043206783304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09282850685573084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458955168561829,0.2840271598565942,0.0,0.0,0.15171149085578622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,b-carbonate,2019/08/02,"So they were right For some reason today I came to my sense... The toxicology ER woman person and my psychiatrist (and also my dad and friends and everyone) were right, I have a problem with alcohol.. I mean I’m drunk right now and last year I got so drunk they had to call an ambulance on me... So yeah it’s maybe the fact that I’m pretending to sleep but actually am downstairs at my grandparents’ house drinking the only alcohol I could find or the fact that anytime I get in an argument or in a difficult situation my mind always goes to ""yep tonight I’m drinking till I die"" (Obviously I can never because weirdly enough my alcohol tolerance is super high for my weight and height but I guess I got that from my mum) My psychiatrist told me that bipolar people often have a tendency for drugs and alcohol, he was right I guess... Anyways, tonight is one of those nights and I have no one to tell about my epiphany so I’m sorry guys if you have to read this. But I got some hope from what I see on sub and even thought I’m scared to hit the join button (it would make it real) I’m so proud of you all who succeeded and I’m proud of you all who still have to but still try their best! I hope I don’t kill my self tonight because y’all are great and my grandma would be sad for 5 seconds until she forgets again",2.7182088543426843,4.293346074349444,4.18086684690774,86.86595386955055,75.24535315985129,7.716187901318013,26.353666779317336,8.438071523408619,1.6696602230483273,1030,38,222,19,22,342,150,269,0.11900000000000001,0.6990000000000001,0.18100000000000002,0.9677,1,0,7,0,0,0,24.0,0,4,3,5,14,15,1,1,10,2,19,12,1,2,6,45,41,26,2,7,7,2,1,0,1,2,6,0,0,4,12,13,9,0,4,6,0,1,3,6,1,3,10,2,38,9,26,26,6,26,0,1,1,0,21,11,0,10,14,147,50,2,0.0,0.0,0.09821825765108164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4302498500870625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08048843827366448,0.0837474786734716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12270858339789033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10562421956629696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10277320464578628,0.11511488384433882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08035950680352735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10445708288332277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19719410494396467,0.11672011651786987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10399663652045776,0.0,0.06647727696985567,0.0,0.0,0.09617379864120057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09199075609162037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07776065505086936,0.0,0.05258460167375628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2414930071122549,0.11096514622541796,0.22175097952587272,0.09965767696697976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10634049340727413,0.0,0.19993301598945387,0.0,0.11613466692700508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1113524719596074,0.0,0.0,0.08204182753868339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06718354610902064,0.0,0.10111478199207773,0.1096355444347624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10162612817100336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07762620182199564,0.0,0.0,0.09445164562702714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13640383511833012,0.07654759523689242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06977688366780667,0.08788224517663362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09630686510139194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10067557329152776,0.11455984157362015,0.0,0.1034832527988759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34381251748588065,0.0,0.0,0.10076654300296572,0.0,0.08020369314452172,0.0,0.10499816547499323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1131329471386433,0.10072102344716023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11266757242408587,0.0,0.0,0.16075578295919735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0879710822880858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07990353659102478,0.0,0.0,0.09540285442725238,0.09617379864120057,0.0,0.06833361370041821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12256255894265093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14299538090509986,0.0,0.0,0.06481422877062458 alcoholism,kys9128,2019/08/02,"How often drinking is ok as a ""new"" drinker I am 18 years old i like to get drunk every weekend pretty much i get some money from being student in my country , from being student and now when i were working summer for some money it was still like once i week just for fun is it some kind of problem or is it just normal for my age?",2.8624285714285733,3.673271814285717,4.367142857142859,88.68785714285715,73.71428571428571,5.6000000000000005,25.42857142857143,3.1291,0.4255142857142857,257,8,54,0,5,86,50,70,0.071,0.7490000000000001,0.18,0.8078,0,0,2,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,7,6,0,0,1,1,8,2,0,1,0,11,10,5,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,7,5,9,6,4,11,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,12,41,10,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26519411177717833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280860307748316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2828710673271134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2819042656340069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2645118324397906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19900402796583286,0.0,0.0,0.2614547577034022,0.0,0.0,0.2652396952111039,0.0,0.0,0.28406607647313503,0.2882988066787631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2754108170149376,0.0,0.2590342500945016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21619047428939886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21714835657977055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19708112386518667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17432926642744134 alcoholism,00htina,2019/08/02,"Sorry if I’m in the wrong place My father in law has just been admitted to a rehabilitation centre for alcoholism. We’re going through his favourite things to make sure we find alcohol-free alternatives. He’s in his 60s so naturally he loves Old Spice. The old spice after shave has alcohol in it, does anyone know of any alcohol free smell alikes? Such a specific request but if I figured if I could find an answer it would be on Reddit!",4.090957983193277,6.042922364705883,5.5268907563025245,77.06529411764707,72.41176470588233,9.092436974789916,27.43697478991597,9.606745405546679,2.648697478991597,351,13,66,9,7,118,64,85,0.039,0.866,0.095,0.5535,0,0,4,0,0,0,7.0,1,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,5,0,6,4,0,1,1,17,12,5,0,5,5,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,1,3,0,6,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,3,6,4,11,8,0,10,0,0,0,1,9,6,0,3,3,38,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7161156744588394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11391997109140314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11713452330060785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13375182443908562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14659868722358227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3062221745304459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09520600015463533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09206511735266808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15119417201991067,0.0,0.11182151585796576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35157005392119184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17502370785583665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18752595637113625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1578864858939253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11129345646804052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11900205615485165,0.18315782967967933,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,NonsenseHuman,2019/08/02,Sitting in detox I’m currently sitting in detox for the second time after a long relapse. I’m so ready to be done. I’m hoping I can stay sober for longer than 3 months this time around. Any words of encouragement would be much appreciated :),3.685851063829787,5.700946468085108,4.558457446808512,83.30875,73.68085106382978,7.253191489361702,24.51595744680851,8.07648339933343,1.3366212765957446,192,6,38,3,4,62,36,47,0.0,0.71,0.29,0.9342,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,5,2,0,0,0,4,9,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,9,5,1,12,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,6,21,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2367562326705714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3099303152200671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3562817773640088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3457948559601368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3081047798032505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2778927011539223,0.0,0.25593278856598195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3710851728748696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4060220637308366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24731816752892954,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Megonia87,2019/08/02,"Why am I not feeling better I quit drinking 7 months ago and I’ll admit I messed up a couple of times and drank but I’ve been consistently sober for over a few months now. When I first started my journey to sobriety I was so proud of myself, it had been a real problem my drinking I would get the shakes and withdrawals, but I felt so accomplished the longer I could go without caving for a drink. But now I’m not feeling proud of myself for not drinking anymore I feel like “good job your being normal”. I have a very small desire to drink not crazy like it was before but I don’t feel good or accomplished anymore. I do have some things going on in my personal life that aren’t too great but nothing crazy. I’m working two jobs and still always broke and my boyfriend keeps breaking up with me and we’re kinda not in the best place. But when I first quit drinking my body felt amazing not anymore my brain and mind felt clear and amazing not anymore. I keep overthinking everything and stressing myself out and getting anxiety and spiraling in and out of depression. This is just a venting post I guess. Hopefully I can continue my sobriety and be happy cause right now I’m not happy.",2.5064102564102555,4.9604104316239335,3.391132478632482,88.11567307692309,79.2991452991453,6.122222222222222,25.56196581196581,7.333567415737692,1.3516529914529911,947,37,181,13,24,301,131,234,0.10099999999999999,0.619,0.281,0.9957,3,0,6,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,11,10,20,0,2,9,0,17,10,2,1,1,56,38,24,0,6,17,0,7,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,5,16,7,2,8,6,0,4,11,6,0,3,9,7,28,14,20,25,3,32,0,2,0,0,3,12,0,5,16,123,33,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08001750311573165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0751105522529166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06905509014293955,0.0,0.35808804600296285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07681177229672093,0.0,0.09473113207193123,0.07983507718597205,0.0,0.1002678591350191,0.0,0.10076940432286577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09273052743980388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07207198390196913,0.0998802838937458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07774805327905747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5305720849618553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08112743055960739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18256969086732727,0.06448777347290653,0.2600155021674611,0.0,0.0,0.15356453480021695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0943230419417175,0.0,0.10260324058070333,0.15142572692956194,0.0,0.09952124584327247,0.099440835704165,0.0,0.0,0.19218481188973568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08965690360130206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1791549458195662,0.16046942907411674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06375925083181487,0.08820117554280353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09114536617885892,0.0,0.14410277474882305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08844388057218361,0.08661497842333607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07881889787010515,0.09431128067186643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08645218875422601,0.0,0.0,0.08637468181838018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1920231407092848,0.0,0.10274521815934873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07708873290537105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06389244850861826,0.0,0.07208847255565258,0.0,0.10340216401321677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05997032366920853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05263623851031756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0881791246137071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07448089577149045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08145320388110652,0.0,0.0,0.08701553050083131,0.0,0.06571648096749352,0.0,0.0,0.06412409185042388,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Junderhose,2019/08/02,"Subbing in NA beers Long story short, because I think I just deleted my post lol. I'm curious if other have tried to sub NA beers into their nightly drinking habit. I get off work and drink between 8 and 10 beers before sleep, and on the weekends it's worse. I'd like to see if anyone has had success in cutting back by using NA beers in between regular beers for lessening the amount of alcohol they're consuming. I don't go to bars or anything, and my partner doesn't drink, so I don't have any outside influences right now. It's just me getting off work and wanting to drink beer. Family is full of alcoholics, so the condition is not foreign to me. Just want to see if this is effective or maybe counter productive. Thank you and God bless",5.600397897897898,5.879644790540542,6.131441441441443,80.39253753753756,67.31081081081078,9.55075075075075,34.687687687687685,9.444778638647367,3.1379570570570565,591,27,115,11,9,192,99,148,0.031,0.816,0.153,0.9477,0,0,12,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,1,4,7,5,1,0,3,1,10,14,1,3,0,22,21,13,0,5,9,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,1,4,7,13,0,2,12,0,1,4,1,0,0,1,2,11,4,19,20,2,17,1,0,2,0,3,10,0,5,6,67,15,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33520982957235057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10665063049567773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10966005910234304,0.0,0.12905875891452864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12059355348746816,0.0,0.09560287660657628,0.0,0.13345184573960706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6145396894159314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1478465483736905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16387571418442495,0.0,0.08913081566108026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07661982871011493,0.0,0.0,0.1387907243416491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15755807390496965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14717550756639236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15020098889155406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13393303375696908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2499484083920815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15694451536586626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14438914747275736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10049113480892474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10647812659525577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1354518489275214,0.0,0.0,0.18500627359171512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283500411042633,0.0,0.15982444599938328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Dubzyfish,2019/08/02,"I lost my old boyfriend to alcohol We were together for 5 years. 5 very long years. In 2015, I had to leave him because his depressive drinking was getting so bad he was self-destructing. I waited until he finally worked up the courage to tell his family about the alcoholism. I needed to make sure he had a support network in place before leaving him. I had already been through so much pain with him that I needed out. I tried my best to watch over him but it wasn’t enough. That was 4 years ago. We exchanged emails afterwards but eventually lost touch; the breakup was just too painful. Today I find myself traveling across the country to go to his funeral. I thought he had won his war with alcohol... but he died from a bad withdrawal seizure that lead to heart failure. He was only 32. I am fucking wrecked.",2.8284615384615392,5.362451525641029,3.5676282051282047,86.85028846153847,78.61538461538461,7.233333333333332,29.621794871794872,8.278499904357787,2.3458410256410263,642,31,124,13,16,203,101,156,0.231,0.688,0.08199999999999999,-0.9821,0,0,4,0,0,0,19.0,2,0,0,6,5,14,2,0,6,0,13,8,1,2,1,17,25,6,3,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,4,5,4,1,2,2,1,3,1,9,0,0,16,2,23,5,21,9,3,20,0,3,1,1,18,7,1,0,10,77,27,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11602173805269665,0.4196290801059596,0.0,0.0,0.14443495511668894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2185671716571242,0.07978633804201991,0.0,0.1113735742526743,0.0,0.13735583044610378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11273113906845293,0.0,0.1358380627504721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12821756295512102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352392891660906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1233868174849217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1433782220934771,0.11962660408959155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12100115969830108,0.06838205916440264,0.0,0.07438501476854865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15509946574348366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27717683097081075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11582918885369492,0.0,0.0,0.28575308118534354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08736681611480669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09621560340476468,0.1940992764806904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13734188817212933,0.0,0.0,0.09954401136016074,0.2785419347053451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367470650227573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13654169728641466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1485268528143178,0.12335765147047913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11439934053513387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10390814407061304,0.0,0.0,0.12406376445280097,0.0,0.0,0.08886238682514375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1079939093654516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09528590675377564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2528571265397612 alcoholism,ktbug719,2019/08/02,"I think I have a problem... I always thought I had my life together, I made some stupid decisions but that was normal for my age, my lifestyle. I embarrassed myself a time or two or three, and while it was painful I never really felt the consequences for my behavior. Today at 30 yrs old, I thought I was drinking a “normal” amount. As I go to pay my tab the bartender goes “there is no way you had 9 glasses and are still standing”. I’m not a tiny or larger person but I think at 5’10’ 170 lbs I can hold my own. Those 9 glasses were 6 Rosé and 3 Pinot noir, he’s really questioning me? If he is concerned he really should be more worried he served me that much without thinking...I realize at this point I’m totally justifying and defending my drinking behavior. Granted he’s asshole but how DARE he criticize my drinking habits. That was what I was feeling/thinking until now I’m home and realize I really may be an alcoholic. I shouldn’t defend my drinking habits. I shouldn’t have to. If I managed them it wouldn’t be an issue. It’s never just one. So I guess I should never have even one. TLDR: Learning you have a problem really, really sucks.",1.4641954988243209,3.9228500131004367,3.5611572052401748,85.21833641249582,83.80349344978166,7.016526704736314,25.401578770574414,8.139509932561175,1.9552007389989927,899,38,174,20,26,305,128,229,0.142,0.846,0.012,-0.9789,0,0,5,0,0,0,29.0,0,2,1,0,7,6,2,1,9,0,25,7,0,2,4,45,37,18,0,11,11,0,1,0,0,6,3,0,1,1,9,5,5,1,10,4,1,1,9,6,0,4,12,1,34,0,10,16,6,18,0,0,0,0,11,4,1,9,11,122,43,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12740414528916458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.099196092115845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4671396657800364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07874011485913779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11446470538387687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06775240095264004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13132831543258858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11958195773589984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1244290629936394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08420479318875443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1128037311330372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08763644344312342,0.0,0.2758369322338904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2336099805198928,0.0,0.0,0.1250956621301255,0.0,0.1615657881010153,0.0,0.12685273304711367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1040935849767864,0.0,0.0,0.11269632469425485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22814453195023976,0.0,0.0,0.1335476285870663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4582315286787145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09520492859701216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2291636940802641,0.0,0.18928614214091716,0.06951498833771791,0.0,0.11300149551699908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11645533557551775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09462699556846284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11491861423152315,0.0,0.0,0.12106820680853585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,girlinterrupted4321,2019/07/18,"Sober but miserable? hey everyone. I have been on the road for recovery the last 7 months or so, sometime of that was spent in a rehab. i still feel miserable almost daily.. i realize i was self mediating my depression with alcohol for the last 8 years or so.. i dont know what to do. i am on new antidepressants but nothing seems to truly work. sometime i think going back to the booze is better than this daily misery..",2.5924390243902407,4.903741597560977,4.668475609756096,79.84832317073172,78.14634146341461,8.490243902439023,24.88414634146341,9.188382445141503,2.3881902439024394,329,12,62,9,8,113,60,82,0.19399999999999998,0.762,0.044000000000000004,-0.9314,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,2,4,4,0,2,5,0,8,3,0,0,0,11,14,6,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,1,2,0,5,0,1,1,1,3,0,0,4,1,8,1,11,10,0,12,0,3,0,0,2,4,0,4,7,43,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23662154677628155,0.2217116239431616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17025176853469354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19582046967743946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1907013914967038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25949261674508256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21156816662900976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1119523017784055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12583325193096329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12168196423624199,0.3609598307332902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17672853855582585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21384059629257868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2124502957071005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2015647044361857,0.2309804716337488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43796324924907054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17681950154934534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14187154228816762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16119020137760026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14258173999794374 alcoholism,coronado_dutroux,2019/07/18,"I wish films and series stopped romanticizing drinking Alcoholics are always portrayed extremely wrong by films or tv, it surely influence on young audience and make them think drinking is ""cool"". I have never seen a real alcoholic character which is wrong, the truth about addictions should be told even on fiction.",15.029423076923079,12.347404634615385,12.476923076923079,51.918076923076924,50.73076923076921,16.553846153846155,51.0,14.554592549557764,7.49066153846154,259,13,35,8,2,79,45,52,0.14300000000000002,0.691,0.166,0.1063,0,0,4,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,2,6,0,0,2,1,6,5,0,2,3,13,11,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,2,4,1,1,5,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,2,3,4,4,7,0,5,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,1,3,22,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2320255524442467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4549195922195126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1770988128866922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4170017109409687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14057792570930966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14207145635770446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16415429347048466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422569881330929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17794264765009765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2005979155088713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13637841744460255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20337645789395745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2447539517986605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4654113192126746,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,msullivant,2019/07/18,"Twin brother is an alcoholic Hey y’all. My twin brother is an alcoholic. No, we aren’t identical. I’m his twin sister and four minutes older. 🙂 He just recently finished a self-started detox from alcohol. He thought he could do it at home, alone but alas the withdrawal symptoms were too great. (Violent shaking, DTs, hallucinations, very severe.) He lives in Colorado while the rest of our family is located in Texas. My mom flew up there to be with him as he admitted to the hospital by a friend who witnessed him having a seizure. He has been discharged and is now at home in his apartment with my mom. She tells me that he is now “dragging his feet” regarding getting in an intensive out patient rehab. Unfortunately, we do not have the money to pay for a residential treatment facility. We all think he needs to be home in Texas, where he has ample family support, accountability and love. He is adamant about going through this in Colorado. He recently got dumped by his girlfriend of six years, did not have a place to live and lost his job and his friends up there don’t want anything to do with him. How do we get him to come home? He needs family. My parents have already agreed to remove the alcohol from the house and not to drink around him. Please help. Thank you all and keep up the wonderful work in the recovery process.",3.4999637681159435,5.934484284584983,4.332317193675891,82.77789608036892,75.71936758893281,8.011133069828723,29.513998682476945,8.841846274778883,2.6117959156785244,1056,48,199,24,24,339,151,253,0.067,0.775,0.158,0.9836,3,1,5,0,0,0,32.0,5,2,0,2,10,10,2,1,16,0,24,10,1,1,2,34,43,11,0,4,5,6,0,0,3,0,7,0,4,0,4,17,5,1,4,1,3,5,6,4,0,2,7,0,24,6,36,33,3,30,0,1,0,1,46,17,0,1,8,130,28,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4532308340618099,0.0,0.10980917615340056,0.11700042658868028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08724894645905489,0.09438408535195082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09133052696234813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08465175824230595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10386342800321716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2998507584848636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16382818745325106,0.0,0.11078661791785367,0.0,0.06025604018566185,0.0,0.0847973001512446,0.11689214014917135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07106583825576138,0.0,0.42540397975571537,0.0,0.0,0.1223377810455157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1052127355205008,0.09423924928818182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18724275882539387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11573802328772935,0.0,0.0956910498316534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2483487045907653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1572313165497079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1177274129426188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11077280378206676,0.1163828181092636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2093723661673517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11060644438007693,0.11977725486878528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0750445292586536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12031509356658066,0.0,0.11019982020547496,0.0,0.0,0.09266989167034263,0.09761290983328218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0679360758951675,0.0,0.08417143324119772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08748113262837952,0.06253586581396953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11497880616423782,0.07718693670153529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06827615851310312 alcoholism,heatmizuh,2019/07/18,"If anyone needs some sober company, I’m good for it. I need to be around people who get it. I’m an engineer in Alabama (seriously, we put men on the moon), and would like to be around like minded folks. AA is great for an hour or so, but I need more.",1.805,2.587024129629629,4.097222222222225,89.73250000000004,76.22222222222223,8.362962962962964,20.907407407407405,8.841846274778883,0.9301629629629627,189,4,47,4,4,66,42,54,0.0,0.852,0.14800000000000002,0.7184,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,13,10,5,0,5,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,4,8,7,2,6,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,3,3,28,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17624954508272964,0.0,0.0,0.4487821648872568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1316934365690817,0.0,0.0,0.2114199664663851,0.0,0.277902294220651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2482330197855403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24629222462612896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25451355792486263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5607084899387094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17474997072917978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2533947104385945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17905957757112595,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,JakNomad,2019/07/18,"I was amazed there was no ""I want to get sober"" song. I have a candidate. As I got sober 11.5 years ago, I wanted there to be a song for me to sing that expressed my desire to stop drinking and change my life. I had requirements : it couldn't say ""Jesus"" or ""God"", it should be a melody I know, and something I could enjoy singing. I looked around, did word searches and found my candidate: It's a forgotten verse from ""The Naval Hymn"" which is an easy melody to find: &#x200B; Most Holy Spirit, who didst brood upon the chaos, dark and rude. And bid the angry tumult CEASE! And give for wild confusion, peace. And hear us when we cry to thee, For those in peril on the sea. &#x200B; I don't know about you, but I had some dark and rude chaos in my life and was ready to trade some wild confusion for some peace. I also like ""Most Holy Spirit"". Anyway, use it if you need it. Another arrow in your quiver. Don't drink. That stuff will kill you.",2.5686309523809534,4.280547037037039,2.8771924603174632,95.47388392857144,75.98412698412699,6.206481481481483,19.219907407407405,6.9077264865688965,-0.0427013227513231,726,14,163,7,16,222,116,189,0.171,0.7120000000000001,0.11699999999999999,-0.9043,0,0,3,0,0,0,46.0,2,5,0,1,7,8,3,2,9,0,16,4,0,1,0,36,28,15,1,8,3,0,0,1,0,2,2,4,0,0,11,11,2,2,4,6,1,0,4,5,0,0,8,5,24,3,20,14,5,10,4,0,1,0,12,6,0,9,5,103,35,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13225630915639874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193147452783596,0.0,0.32331508081828003,0.3625873219018811,0.0,0.15644863097659087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13281914152675176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15783323365942326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11912361937446925,0.0,0.16388858860920094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2923173179455462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1363655932013114,0.0,0.0,0.16358949460474187,0.0,0.0,0.07795055400299772,0.14312570646278372,0.0,0.0,0.1193284288116674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16815862225122233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16506708432835082,0.0,0.16399223028437748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2107679660385459,0.07289131431453913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12528996012675492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11062950076477868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.118649390090546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1148610248899254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12473741988211964,0.0,0.0,0.17079767318808886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17946856642861894,0.1288604198270417,0.0,0.0,0.17600340101980766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3625873219018811,0.09607955331282284 alcoholism,CompetitiveBison5,2019/07/18,"0 days sober I'm still drunk because I'm mitigating my hangover with alcohol. This has been my first relapse after a few months of sobriety. I have been drinking over the last 5 days. I don't want to go to AA drunk, I feel like that's not appropriate. I just want to be sober, badly. My wife asked me why I started drinking again. I had to tell her the truth, and the truth is I'm not quite sure. I hope I can join all of you in sobriety soon.",0.3255789473684203,2.3141022421052675,2.399210526315791,94.78197368421051,84.47368421052632,5.905263157894738,21.07894736842105,7.1686216300943375,0.41108421052631616,343,11,82,5,10,115,66,95,0.16399999999999998,0.736,0.10099999999999999,-0.5906,0,0,3,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,2,4,6,0,0,4,0,9,5,0,0,4,13,19,1,0,3,3,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,5,0,1,4,0,1,3,1,1,1,3,1,14,5,10,15,2,13,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,11,49,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2448248734083877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2141658930920426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.191278498091718,0.13964961703267048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29548497820771064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4488370817097763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1158335260845448,0.16366015969510395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.194861715139435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301957086929663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2275355834284209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1867368928754908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11192058352499762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1828554612589342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24366276102585796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16214931549194914,0.0,0.18294957780781435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21591226278400488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2002325772378192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27024349237988604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2067158414216364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,chris25tx,2019/07/18,"Knee pain related to my alcoholism? 27m big beer drinker for maybe 8 years lately noticed I’ve been dealing with knee pain day after drinking. And no I don’t fall, feels swollen kinda but looks normal. Any ideas?",2.1992682926829303,4.970861121951219,2.573853658536585,91.21443902439024,84.12195121951221,5.231219512195122,25.27317073170732,6.742157984588678,1.1021375609756103,170,7,32,2,5,52,38,41,0.159,0.841,0.0,-0.644,0,0,4,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,8,2,0,0,7,4,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,2,2,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,2,2,0,4,3,0,6,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,4,11,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2692019968521281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1712990501000695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16245315491419762,0.259695431766634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2467638132012897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1273670280730316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28436180263121763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28415153794542625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21153059650386435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2530650617823741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2468062287055364,0.0,0.28678716110381275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5360737512099967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16221383743378046 alcoholism,Damienn93,2019/07/18,"How do I get my Dad into rehab? My father has been a depressed alcoholic for as long as I can remember. He's never been abusive and he's never done anything but love and support me and my brother. He invited me and Grant to the Outer Banks and welcomed our friends and SO's. We planned the trip three months in advance. As the trip got closer, it started to get tricky to get ahold of him, and every time he did answer the phone he wouldn't remember our previous conversations, plane arrivals, dates of the trip, number of people attending, nothing. His actions leading up to my seeing him are clearly indicative that he was ashamed and didn't want to see anyone but me and my brother. I started sobbing the second I saw him. He'd lost a lot of weight since the divorce, but my dad was now skin and bones. He claimed his vertigo was too much to walk and he'd fallen multiple times. Eyes were yellow and he could barely see anything within three/four feet. Severe twitching of the arms, hands, and mouth. He's in the hospital now, going through a medically induced withdrawal; my family called 911 when they were carrying him to the bathroom and he shit himself and passed out. When he's lucid, and before he's discharged, I'm staging an intervention. I know I can't save a man who doesn't want to be saved, but how can I better my chances? TL;DR: My dad is a good man who is deeply sick, and his alcoholism has caught up with him. How do I get him to agree to rehab?",5.416831417624521,5.821322093103447,5.9926436781609205,80.79394636015327,67.72413793103448,8.78927203065134,31.97318007662836,8.680891452615391,2.4846053639846737,1157,46,224,17,18,376,162,290,0.11599999999999999,0.741,0.14300000000000002,0.8582,0,0,2,0,1,0,35.0,3,0,1,5,9,13,1,1,16,0,26,18,8,5,3,44,46,30,0,4,4,6,3,0,1,1,8,0,0,2,4,21,3,0,5,0,1,12,6,5,0,2,14,9,36,8,28,27,2,35,0,3,6,1,45,9,2,1,13,144,40,1,0.0,0.16191163178723128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2920813074320192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09555105671139537,0.0,0.22490779036760428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11628176188200805,0.0,0.0,0.1208586022375536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13953814034261935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10910641715281004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11769915402109506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13984361285485172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1151361689264385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12882442380460765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10557788126797596,0.0,0.2855825135939918,0.0,0.0776631317881794,0.11461817502149327,0.10929400399754426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07510099500494924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12093373358670027,0.0,0.0,0.14917305099708764,0.11617761758259312,0.12333479915252266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13766366750003778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10907523702974507,0.0,0.10045578549058662,0.0,0.21079066049238404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311223787094884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09473808488765682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3096027499355312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32668459337923844,0.0,0.0,0.15437915769835692,0.14027249014705215,0.11304089413234908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19344759953819665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15507237015538133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1593670962096162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16120313161082545,0.0,0.0,0.16640671670630222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Bokkepootje,2019/01/04,"How to help my friend who confided in me? Last year my friend told me that her drinking habit got out of hand and that it turned into alcoholism, drinking every day and needing it. She told me after others helped her and she quit for a while and got it to ""normal behavior"" , only drinking with friends. So I was shocked to hear because I never noticed, but yes of course we had wine when we saw each other. But I didn't know she drank daily at home. A couple weeks ago she heard her dad is dying, horrible news of course. Now she told me that her drinking has turned to daily again and she badly wants to quit. She couldn't leave a supermarket without buying beer and drinking it all. She postponed it to first of January but still hasn't been able to do it. Friends keep coming over, and she gets gifted alcohol with the holidays and she buys it for them. But what stays left in her fridge, she drinks. I'm the only one who knows. But how do I help? I told her to tell the weekly coach she has for her autism and she says shes done that. But I hear nothing about it. I also don't know if I should tell others, I mean it's a secret she told me. But her brother contacted me an hour ago telling me she's not well and if I know some thing, I told nothing but I wonder if I should confide in him. I did tell him to look out for her 2 years ago when she was suicidal. He never told her anything but just spoke with her. So maybe I can? It's a difficult subject but I know others here know this and hope can help me out. 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Wondering if theres anything I can do to aid this like drinking water or eating ect. Any advice would be appreciated,4.10409090909091,7.3394544848484875,5.50628787878788,70.27943181818182,79.9090909090909,8.148484848484847,29.46212121212121,8.841846274778883,3.4210666666666665,150,7,22,4,4,50,33,33,0.047,0.74,0.213,0.7243,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,1,0,5,3,0,0,0,6,6,3,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,4,2,15,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3523764844150651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2452219924267902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2967450436444639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3532530618045032,0.0,0.36898627192899547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17617211420475593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23101112633458815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3079524728264927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3910579123085116,0.2625228364336593,0.0,0.0,0.2561615933852679,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,xperiaGIRL,2019/01/04,"500ml of beer daily for years with dinner, dangerous to stop cold turkey? Woke up on day 3 white as a ghost with ( according to apple watch ) low heart rate. The rest I cant tell if anxiety or real symptoms. Will see a doctor of course but in the meantime, curious if this ""small"" amount, but taken daily with no breaks for years, can be dangerous to suddenly stop. thank you!",2.10625,4.6761182361111135,3.3255555555555567,87.25000000000004,81.91666666666667,6.933333333333335,20.11111111111111,8.07648339933343,1.140077777777778,291,8,56,6,8,94,58,72,0.20800000000000002,0.701,0.092,-0.8143,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,0,0,4,2,0,4,0,4,5,1,0,0,11,8,6,1,2,5,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,3,2,2,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,4,2,1,14,4,2,12,0,1,3,0,2,5,0,3,6,32,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21611374314077916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18219082922894012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2891534183995957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3347669836162812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3215498472345865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.225118024990436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4723697063134642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2936284069201327,0.0,0.0,0.2469197554940485,0.2600904716154992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3638448704807035 alcoholism,Uhhhh-idk-tbh,2019/01/04,"I’m terrified and embarrassed I’m using a “perma-throwaway” to post this. I’m also using mobile so sorry for formatting I’m 18, and my depression is getting worse and worse. Last night I turned to alcohol to help me and it’s made me feel so awful. I’ve embarrassed myself online. Told my friends things I shouldn’t have. Ruined my chances with people. I can’t describe this feeling of regret concern anxiety embarrassment at all. I just needed to get this off my chest, or as much as I can because it’s weighing on me so heavily I don’t know if this is the best place to put this so I’ll happily delete if it’s the wrong place ",1.3964451827242534,3.7327132790697695,3.553959025470654,85.99412790697676,82.87596899224806,6.786489479512737,23.942967884828352,7.957251820313856,1.566403765227021,499,19,99,10,14,170,82,129,0.262,0.619,0.11900000000000001,-0.9628,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,6,9,0,3,3,1,7,3,1,3,1,19,22,14,0,5,4,0,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,9,5,2,0,3,0,0,1,3,7,0,0,2,2,14,2,13,19,3,9,0,3,0,0,3,5,0,3,2,62,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1935939359167847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448653479650561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13857902306689493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11042717447066433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1901054319004674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15602396936218152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18318946039784456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13995580723822662,0.0,0.1892864809520116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12142082403230492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09955513649334667,0.1476611815186533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17140822417181345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13316587130972946,0.13432020565522548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16999672006443203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12558639165150048,0.0,0.3785257571206361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17349133618907264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1821054802743157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2027822558576557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12034780998593934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17309629934560855,0.0,0.0,0.19703885287269865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3129103534289381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36921403642863054,0.0,0.19805875730040745,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,JustAnotherAdict,2019/01/04,"I found out what my problem is. For the past 5 years since my partner killed himself, I've thought I was addicted to alcohol. I would go to sleep drunk, wake up drunk, drink all day long. I didn't, and still don't, want to feel anything. I ended up getting arrested and jailed because of something I did while drunk. I've been on probation for the past 3 years, which stopped me drinking for a while. But I ended up getting off probation around the middle of December, and I ended up smoking some weed, because I could. And I haven't stopped. I've been drinking every now and again, but I've mostly been high. I've found out that I just hate being sober. I utterly hate it. If I don't have any weed, I'll end up getting drunk, and vice versa. I don't know what I'm asking here, if I'm asking anything, but I'd like to think that I'm happy that I'm not going to be the son that turns out like my dad, since it's not just booze I'm addicted to, but it's not being sober. I don't know. 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He’s a great guy but he told me only recently that he is a functioning alcoholic and how it has affected his life up till now. Apparently he’s been addicted for a while (he’s in his 40s), has had two DUIs in the last 6 years, is estranged from his young kids because of it, etc. He told me that in the new year he really wants to clean up his act and work on getting sober. I commend him for wanting that, but I’m unsure he will be able to. I’m seeing no concrete plan or follow through- plus he works in the bar industry and all his close friends party and drink and do drugs on the regular. I’m torn because while I really like him and we have something really good blossoming between us, I ultimately do not want to get involved long term with someone with substance abuse issues. I feel like such an asshole even writing that down. But I have a lot going for me in my life, my life is really stable and going in a good direction, and I don’t want to be “dragged” down with him, for lack of a better phrase. Is that harsh? I already spent too much of last year dating someone who had addiction issues and it tore my life up emotionally and physically, and I do not ever want to go back voluntarily. I really care about this person and I want to be supportive and for him to get better, but if I’m being honest, I don’t want to be in a relationship with him anymore. I feel like I’m being selfish to put myself and my needs first, and not sticking around to help him. And I’m kind of afraid that if I break up with him, he’ll undo whatever progress he’s trying to make right now and drink to deal with it. But even thinking about things in his best interest, I feel strongly that if he wants to prioritize getting sober, dating should be the last thing on his mind. Pretty unsure how to handle this situation and I want to be as loving and kind about it as possible. Any suggestions or stories of similar situations would really be helpful.",6.171170542635658,5.821083632558143,7.204011627906978,75.32493217054264,66.16279069767441,10.608527131782948,32.56782945736434,10.222266870305534,3.153573643410853,1702,63,333,37,24,576,206,430,0.079,0.721,0.2,0.9968,1,0,6,0,1,0,37.0,4,0,0,9,14,21,0,1,16,0,30,13,0,4,2,74,70,39,0,17,14,0,3,3,1,4,9,0,1,3,17,32,5,0,5,4,1,6,7,2,0,2,7,5,43,19,63,49,8,58,0,0,2,1,49,21,0,6,33,225,60,2,0.07373307609810703,0.08736163825442878,0.0,0.1607598727154654,0.0,0.0,0.13071984632346428,0.15759646937712454,0.0,0.0,0.08136628296334683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05014102016162796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07312339882074828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06563807004722934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056696184248273676,0.0,0.08989399764747277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07737831439566673,0.13042182790780465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07517578513394353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047551734298085,0.07601556384864151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444606882018086,0.08550695957142422,0.0,0.0,0.08293978640964468,0.0,0.0,0.08223187030782936,0.09740000273919462,0.0666957886290094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1118449761187658,0.1053498485941058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06271731686249048,0.0,0.0,0.0569659916905941,0.0,0.15408995616308974,0.07073148522399683,0.12571261897787914,0.12368761197798225,0.0,0.08129097669878807,0.0,0.07300733763483658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09884345336404372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15391634998370135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15356330480946473,0.0,0.18030689412759296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2083194087768392,0.1080667697400078,0.0,0.0,0.06525145210223217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06268522457885743,0.0665469799100316,0.0,0.049217400842205584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07444938792181516,0.0,0.0588530378869305,0.0,0.054202294768578935,0.05467214165833152,0.0,0.14242372871086104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056077326912268896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06438087803154244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08312296470235596,0.0,0.07501304591111986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07412210669086748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2834117795505897,0.0,0.0728025174223015,0.158323459791888,0.0,0.06296764411710018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11751143079329562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16575813365811726,0.0,0.0,0.2498951844202014,0.056763324252498325,0.0,0.0,0.05218865076430013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08367142097964872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09796995893097446,0.04724517795254268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14091022794660096,0.0,0.10011983740877116,0.0,0.07202650151286216,0.0,0.08869181203181367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.391407107767132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1073571151122399,0.0,0.0,0.052377861754793614,0.0,0.0,0.14244505071996766 alcoholism,Bath_Crayon,2019/10/07,"Being Unemployed. I would say I mostly fall under the category of a binge drinker. I go weeks without even thinking about alcohol sometimes , but once I start drinking I keep going until the inevitable black-out. Most of the time I have a reasonable grasp on my problem because for the most part I never let drinking interfere with my responsibilities. I love to exercise and doing outdoor activities as well and I try not to let my problem interfere, but I was laid off a couple months ago and having all this free time has me on a downward spiral. I keep waking up with bruises and stomach pains from hard liquor. I have a broken lamp I haven’t cleaned up yet, broken glasses and dishes, alcohol saturated towels from spills that I don’t even remember and the worst hangovers / alcohol withdrawal ever. Im a pretty upbeat and positive person and I find my current situation to be somewhat comical. I do laugh sometimes when I wake up to assess the damage from the night before. It’s really not funny though. Im actually ashamed of myself! I can’t wait to get back to work (which should be soon thankfully!). In the meantime does anyone have any tips for people in my situation?",4.869883838383839,6.98159805909091,6.125757575757575,72.91308080808079,70.68181818181819,8.707070707070708,31.313131313131308,9.2995712137729,3.2026919191919188,943,42,154,21,18,316,140,220,0.162,0.718,0.11900000000000001,-0.8832,4,0,6,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,1,10,11,0,1,14,0,18,13,3,1,3,36,28,14,0,4,5,0,1,0,0,2,5,1,1,1,4,10,7,5,5,5,1,3,7,6,1,0,1,2,25,6,29,20,7,28,0,1,0,1,3,10,0,4,15,119,29,2,0.0,0.0,0.11591276943701645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10529186973813376,0.3808211390591442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08077490774172688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08305418463797133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09133497956762683,0.0,0.07240757510620494,0.0,0.10107357525670503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13142851790735915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10394573771478716,0.0,0.0,0.23271961208993086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15690698374189102,0.10744388837530656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1085633522340068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06205798143356025,0.0,0.13501154898958426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10640412172792613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2566069461507704,0.0,0.0,0.21115537932478645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2429225022046365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10720416428297952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09480957288689558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09161095145903556,0.0,0.0,0.1114675833632222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1264975040483638,0.0,0.0,0.12639097464770868,0.0,0.0,0.12862785704386687,0.0,0.08234753926660518,0.10371467246908857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12084261236339194,0.0,0.22731405986362566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07609391895206785,0.12212627987029348,0.0,0.0,0.13455530918530728,0.0,0.0,0.09445913170879054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26702883009791034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23495417854284384,0.0,0.08407354770730452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1093572537903678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0761098373757978,0.11670137482202575,0.0,0.1385238917219873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08064425697504211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09527866393894614,0.0,0.10679805952168288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11450029738414642,0.0,0.0864737199268781,0.0,0.0,0.0843783580253149,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,matildathecatlover,2019/10/07,"I think I have a problem. I’m 18F and struggle with my mental health, particularly ptsd. For the last two years I have inconsistently used alcohol as a way to cope. It happens every few months, I binge drink alone in my room. It happened again the night before last and I drunk so much that I was vomiting the whole next day. I do it because I want to avoid the pain, I don’t want to deal with the flashbacks at night. I feel so ill and so angry with myself, I can’t believe I would do something so stupid yet again. I want to stop because I don’t want to be this person. I don’t want to tell my therapist tomorrow because I’m scared she will report it because I’m a danger to myself. I don’t know any advice would be helpful here.",3.163957219251337,4.092624385620916,4.565264408793823,87.1055080213904,73.11764705882355,7.132263814616755,25.673796791443852,7.348242739294969,1.063737254901961,573,18,125,6,11,191,86,153,0.23,0.7090000000000001,0.061,-0.9812,0,2,3,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,8,7,2,3,8,0,15,7,0,1,0,20,29,8,0,8,0,0,1,0,0,3,5,0,1,1,6,6,3,2,3,2,0,0,5,7,0,1,1,1,22,0,14,23,3,17,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,13,80,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1326322933445378,0.0,0.14505246040044764,0.0,0.14057376487694745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.092300016239936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33095527039492584,0.0,0.1154949339892966,0.15291951052467126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08753363680679976,0.13993009625853015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329622315628844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1143570927608814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0686283943355529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24004848155558786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14427302027505526,0.0,0.0,0.09097593468685003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0745928193746192,0.22127364251868345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367823775099476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1083371725430184,0.0,0.09977604506759204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14434877126726875,0.2547439555746344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14442466526691508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11851286768194408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12987381851344396,0.15865932209089392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13588787989741313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10449040991686599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1134750812814498,0.0,0.141892870209129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11863266822656625,0.0,0.0,0.15759121888902106,0.0,0.08696932527941552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325869963936351,0.0,0.0,0.11722582227252995,0.0,0.0,0.40028085107517,0.10773494454481572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15153599340830565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1928352265269749,0.0,0.0,0.08740468683704744 alcoholism,sybmo,2019/10/07,"Weight loss... Did anyone else experience massive weight loss when quitting alcohol? I am sober for about 2 weeks now. I used to drink beer almost daily with biweekly highs of >30 beers per night/day. Maybe since beer is really calorie dense this is the cause?",4.214468085106383,7.198184489361707,3.641957446808512,85.69400000000002,76.44680851063829,7.164255319148936,22.16595744680852,8.238735603445708,1.4249778723404254,209,6,37,4,5,62,42,47,0.06,0.94,0.0,-0.3939,0,0,5,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,0,1,0,4,7,0,2,0,4,5,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,7,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,2,0,5,4,0,5,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,15,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2370656226289757,0.22212771782723995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.155106610219592,0.227287996441654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2278774547525192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1430600767011779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21730602931224707,0.0,0.0,0.18530801110853895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21698939096846004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23437242593034405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22285505731234498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20816963143040368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359403411504483,0.0,0.0,0.1421080693095334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1834976033600412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19158732274178786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17793625515968453,0.5402510999757117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,fulltimekiller0,2019/10/07,Withdrawal help How do you guys cope with withdrawal symptoms? I'm trying to quit but the anxiety and panic attacks are too hard to deal with. They send me straight back to the store for more vodka just to make it stop. Any advice?,3.453666666666667,5.61127297777778,3.744166666666669,88.25625000000002,74.7777777777778,7.166666666666668,24.583333333333336,8.07648339933343,1.409333333333333,184,6,36,3,4,57,39,45,0.268,0.62,0.11199999999999999,-0.8959,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,1,1,4,2,1,1,2,0,2,1,0,2,0,8,4,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,0,7,4,1,4,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,2,22,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2777630324715477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932978142915716,0.0,0.21744829740268207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32337217680990543,0.0,0.2185685185210981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2930463380425713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2814493751138413,0.0,0.0,0.2546296212109141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1905248779413766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897371847888946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33350279475339745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3023318405835057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2376433513429021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2954416328454075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19298516141035224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,El_MotorHead,2019/10/07,1 month sober Quit a 15-25 drink a day habit that i kept up for 2 years. Im finding that my ability to concentrate and process has been slowed pretty hard. Im no doctor but im sure getting blackout every night for 2 years had a role in it. Are there any exercises i can do to sharpen my mind back up or have i killed some serious brain cells?,1.7945045045045056,3.0948228648648666,3.5713513513513497,91.4247747747748,77.1081081081081,7.095495495495496,24.495495495495497,7.793537801064563,1.0265927927927931,268,9,63,4,6,90,58,74,0.147,0.758,0.094,-0.5859,1,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,3,0,7,4,1,0,1,8,9,3,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,1,1,1,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,1,5,1,7,6,1,10,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,2,7,32,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13255399830821862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14988338663040307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2175979979381452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12570890036507326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1995114595923977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1909498625853738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16423063069624855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17815565267340072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10183897197701393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.174612291933637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6316493139436024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21565288906857347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1968161798229314,0.0,0.15558529641700106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1829215813380252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19830627954407526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20732409433650814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18371216902155005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25104742519244433 alcoholism,DesktopWebsite,2019/10/07,"Thinking an app for open discussion about options and needs other than aa. What do you guys think. Something we can help spread at aa meeting where you can halve local or group discussions for people to always have in there pocket. I want it to have a board like reddit's and an open discussion like a chat room for people who need someone to talk to now. All working from people who want to share what they did to get sober. I want an aa alternative for people to have and to be more modern. I want it also to have the option of being anonymous completely and for the community to respect people privacy if they dont care about being anonymous. Spread through word of mouth. But it will have no sayings or any one thing the help. You just pick a direction you want to go, but start in the new people area of the app. It will also have a general questionnaire to help send you to the program that would most likely help you. Well I guess I would want it to be all inclusive so it would have aa, but with a warning. Any ideas, suggestions, how to go about it, if there is an app like this. I mainly want to create it because I want to go to aa and want tell them that they have options other than aa in a short concise manner and give them the app name and a quick about it and get out. Also a website too. Any help would be nice or like I said any app that's already out there similar would be great",5.200949906464351,5.276412749116613,5.537688630222409,85.01032009977136,68.15194346289752,8.496279359800461,27.60112242776969,8.124751697461798,1.5604023695697355,1100,31,230,13,17,351,133,283,0.022000000000000002,0.7959999999999999,0.182,0.9896,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,1,6,5,1,18,11,0,0,19,0,27,1,1,2,2,54,50,21,0,18,9,0,0,5,0,7,0,2,1,1,20,14,0,0,3,1,0,4,2,0,7,1,2,2,20,11,41,35,5,22,0,0,0,0,35,13,0,10,10,164,40,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10262772735956102,0.22311601390307406,0.07738338580806033,0.0,0.0,0.2529725463308121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05669188972280896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09481961937775546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09750864962039227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.108995216852028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971772424277756,0.08921400015993282,0.15856199787238598,0.0,0.0,0.10253274316578773,0.10244989982845634,0.09208454496330644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31167943937208537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1049855928109577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22717532327450665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13791652866340431,0.0,0.08981990492459077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06301915452174911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3868466199730808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08846422331650816,0.07395727132544368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07879853276171074,0.07159588410880183,0.0,0.0,0.06582582400027619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07474981514317364,0.0812860316331882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061785016277102575,0.11918119066964572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4936838759196437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08361809940648582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0677050513958661,0.0,0.0,0.3303223841667444,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,mommabear62729,2019/10/07,"Don’t know what to do anymore 36 weeks pregnant with our first little boy. Three big sisters at home. Many blessings in our lives together. However, my husband is an alcoholic. The signs have always been there but have gotten worse with time. I just can’t deny it any more. I feel so alone. I am so unhappy most of the time. I can no longer act like this problem will all just go away. It won’t, it doesn’t. I don’t know where to start. I know I can’t force him to want to stop- it has to start with him. But I can’t live this way anymore.",-0.5177971014492755,1.6608365826086988,1.1495652173913058,100.47594202898551,91.86956521739133,4.457971014492753,17.231884057971016,6.079149491110277,-0.5229594202898551,417,11,100,4,15,134,76,115,0.20600000000000002,0.737,0.057,-0.9645,1,1,1,0,0,0,16.0,2,0,0,1,6,3,0,0,3,0,16,1,0,0,1,17,25,4,0,2,4,2,1,1,0,2,1,0,1,1,7,3,1,1,4,0,0,2,8,1,0,2,2,1,13,2,12,21,3,16,1,0,0,0,7,6,0,1,8,65,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20862181725190684,0.0,0.2021803298310723,0.0,0.0,0.1624316771995577,0.0,0.0,0.1327505722219141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.387194875771367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18340771053782676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09870484307427392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16604687489167344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11094324268522608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1958131368236247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3218495464795635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09537052015107418,0.19565329258195555,0.3447508128547753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1979139080143001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1867911234109298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2763435299129558,0.0,0.0,0.16320562646361594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22765889069534395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11514085087823048,0.15494987020849946,0.15658695889665092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1989372830039519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,smashingyngman,2019/10/07,"Alcohol-induced Mood Disorder - Can someone elaborate on this? What it is, exactly? The last psychiatrist that I saw knew about my drinking habits, and diagnosed me with this, along with Social Anxiety Disorder and Avoidant Personality Disorder. The definition of those anxiety/mood disorders make complete sense to me, by comparison.",9.7975,12.792469134615386,9.903076923076924,47.216923076923116,59.57692307692307,15.96923076923077,49.53846153846154,13.816669648895859,9.172061538461538,273,19,33,14,4,90,43,52,0.184,0.816,0.0,-0.8466,0,1,2,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,2,2,0,1,1,9,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,6,5,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,4,0,8,3,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,24,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1968891473236598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14093781171077027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19316489260160088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18699271109850912,0.0,0.0,0.8445883421433265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18047829265629284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15017455988140366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12297702002599822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16086523041637205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18780243707171493,0.15610010165596985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ABigFatSorry,2019/10/07,"What motivates you? Hey friends! To keep this post short, I'd like to know what motivates you to look your addiction in the eye and wanting to quit? It's so incredibly difficult and can almost feel impossible, but I'd love to know how you keep yourselves afloat and willing to change. &#x200B; To the long version: My parents have been alcoholics for quite the amount of time now, with my mom starting to excessively drink around 2012 and my dad shortly following, I think he caved around 2014.. It's been strange and painful to observe this change over the years, especially as it started in my teenage years. You don't think something like that will happen when you're 14, but there it was. I don't live with my parents anymore since I now study at university in a city an hour away (1 hour and 40 min by public transportation) . This Friday I received a phone call from my mom saying that my dad has been admitted to the hospital due to internal bleeding in the stomach. Turns out it all comes from (surprise, surprise) excessive drinking. We know that they hide alcohol around the house and my sister found like 12 bag-in-box wine cartons in my dad's car. Yikes. &#x200B; My dad was inches away from death, and now he's extremely weak, eyes and skin yellow like turmeric and can barely speak. My parents are only 57 years old and I myself am 21. It's way too early to part ways. I want my parents to meet my grandchildren (and I say parents because it could easily have been my mother in that hospital bed). &#x200B; This is a huge health scare and my sister and I have come to the conclusion that we have to stop enabling them and playing nice. It's a matter of life and death now. &#x200B; The problem is my mom. She has been lying for years about how she will seek help, but never does - or ends up quitting in the beginning of the program. She has really bad anxiety and rarely gets a full night of sleep. She has lost jobs, her driver's license and has ruined her relationship with her family because of her drinking. Yet she can't stop, because she obviously doesn't want to. Something is still holding her back. We are hoping that my dad's near death experience will help her realize, but with her it's impossible to rely on that. She does love him immensely though, I witnessed her love and care at the hospital yesterday. &#x200B; If she continues like this, my dad will probably also relapse and die. His liver can't take anymore - doctor's orders. But when that urge kicks in, the bigger picture gets lost in the fog. &#x200B; How can we motivate her? I'm so lost in what to do.. My sister and ready to put in work to make this happen!!",4.801376279598799,6.376109204322201,5.050450315375869,82.7108548754007,69.92337917485266,8.26555681935684,29.70122014269465,8.766177420268882,2.3228121807465625,2111,83,399,37,38,665,252,509,0.131,0.742,0.127,-0.8125,6,0,8,0,0,0,86.0,4,5,2,12,22,25,0,1,20,0,37,22,6,7,3,75,73,38,4,7,7,18,2,5,1,5,9,3,1,0,26,35,6,5,13,5,0,7,6,10,0,0,11,9,59,15,60,56,5,71,0,4,4,3,67,29,0,4,36,252,85,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058537471852115275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11477116439976735,0.053769619858369255,0.0,0.0,0.04294133643285632,0.0,0.3490829643941416,0.39148516320642096,0.0,0.0,0.04107792881902658,0.0,0.10650565537027236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14340469221261914,0.0,0.0,0.100899880825525,0.04128954861055177,0.044834611052785765,0.09819926953307716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054830468221688564,0.0,0.054747498015598264,0.0,0.11360825472229676,0.09251013070556917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04287255028474997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05572883304849968,0.0,0.0,0.054960981963370285,0.09398091750940953,0.0,0.0,0.1578073556512039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047559454293302925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05252580443268913,0.05062059346822512,0.0,0.027150731214875337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05887580372664341,0.0414860385093498,0.0,0.05610875599258172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09496786081556832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057077220485355636,0.0,0.0,0.07198370801530186,0.0,0.0,0.053333069244355616,0.10576112446684033,0.06195893361819591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05328581931266328,0.0954564214092242,0.0,0.0,0.08853112224210316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03792765981193262,0.1311677967258505,0.0,0.04741528563540876,0.04752000578533185,0.04509181423394399,0.0,0.17584930282455427,0.0,0.14539045960386612,0.0,0.03584305172391095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1886672388170008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041414306451188605,0.0,0.0,0.05039083846697227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0563457914632525,0.0,0.0,0.04083885972563366,0.057137214201570787,0.0,0.2981198817411863,0.05814843536644634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05142672102149507,0.0,0.057894265908963724,0.051380615450029365,0.0,0.05398014642268037,0.0,0.1713395686545581,0.0,0.0,0.03439956499045866,0.0,0.0,0.05765030112645494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08540375065202324,0.05375989542192458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04441857357605858,0.0,0.05373561031213688,0.0,0.0,0.08267688794564355,0.0,0.0,0.07601378686140743,0.0,0.04288235868179829,0.08978591037391358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04037333433629468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06881352237545252,0.052756863924893926,0.0,0.03131105403457648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05840673280674126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09501534666423077,0.08524409029544945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03909193256908115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39148516320642096,0.13831599484201504 alcoholism,Epicgamesisjoke,2019/10/07,"I have a question I’ve read that studies suggest alcoholics can never drink normally again. This is very interesting to me. Obviously anyone could physically restrain themselves to only drink a certain amount. But how I interpret it: once you have a drink, your mental state becomes so overwhelmed by the urge that it’s almost impossible to overcome Am I on the right track? I’m trying to learn about alcoholism in depth so I can understand my dad’s problem with it more And finally, I’ve read that euphoric feelings cease to happen for very heavy drinkers. If any of you have experienced this concept, can you try and break it down please? Thanks in advance",5.529499999999999,7.898926283333335,5.6099999999999985,76.215,69.5,8.466666666666667,33.66666666666667,9.120678840339163,3.3173166666666667,534,26,88,11,10,168,86,120,0.022000000000000002,0.84,0.13699999999999998,0.9148,0,0,6,0,0,0,10.0,0,4,0,1,5,5,0,1,5,0,9,5,0,1,3,19,14,7,0,4,2,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,9,3,5,1,5,5,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,2,10,3,14,13,2,12,0,1,0,0,7,6,0,3,3,57,19,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3460820813499891,0.16213743278899645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11010975491476828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11321679183309985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17882564886247032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12927830359590228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4758538295026422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08187057801634731,0.0,0.0,0.1773731941188702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14318350390664236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631752049222618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12488110100870152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15864520753809974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17243732685688948,0.0,0.12314589337595146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17773728042138542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15493360574483825,0.0,0.0,0.181385154917318,0.0,0.3239235243315939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13827704021467482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490722892746703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2198633119878731,0.0,0.0,0.16856229095307754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2671985238740853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Busted_Doe,2019/10/07,"Drinking on Vivitrol? (Naltrexone) Hey guys, I’ve got a question, can you drink on Vivitrol? I have a friend who was given a Vivitrol shot 2-4 weeks ago and apparently she experimented with a steel reserve and felt no ill affects and got buzzed. She now drinks a fifth of vodka at night and still gets very intoxicated while still on Vivitrol and does not feel ANY Negative side effects. How is this possible?",4.201992481203007,6.695517921052634,5.412706766917295,75.59394736842106,73.73684210526315,9.606015037593986,30.59398496240601,9.957137785484203,3.507682706766917,326,15,59,10,7,108,59,76,0.066,0.845,0.08900000000000001,0.4094,1,0,4,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,5,0,4,5,0,3,0,13,10,7,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,2,6,3,0,4,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,5,2,4,1,6,5,0,12,0,0,0,0,8,5,0,1,7,34,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17917543580499148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1374548607858012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17688471960312288,0.0,0.0,0.5940293113839569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19772124884978814,0.0,0.0,0.1022026514580929,0.0,0.1940758338398638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1561646019988256,0.0,0.10560422087850097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3233225450284083,0.0,0.0,0.20013979369766036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18968466299351092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.227870424343884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22643108448538496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3228414530254395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667778478378846,0.0,0.0,0.16213593866873036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,shatterpoint911,2019/10/07,"Rinse, repeat, rinse, repeat. Drunk. Sober. Drunk. Sober. Drunk. Sober. It’s the same pattern for two years once I “sobered up” in ‘17 after five years of getting blackout drunk every night. I just don’t get why I keep making decisions that I know are going to lead to dependence. I’ll quit drinking for a few weeks and then out of nowhere come up with an excuse to buy a fifth of vodka. Maybe I had a hard day at work or someone said something nice to me or the sky was blue. Then I begin a cycle of dependence, usually a couple weeks long, and decide to quit. Over and over. I just don’t know why I make decisions when I know the result. I almost *wish* it had a negative impact on my family or social life so that I had more motivation to quit.",0.7310669610007352,3.1013359735099364,2.529348785871964,91.86994665195,86.61589403973507,5.4747608535688,18.322663723325974,6.937597516519254,0.22086725533480545,576,15,121,8,18,190,94,151,0.10300000000000001,0.8490000000000001,0.048,-0.785,0,0,3,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,6,4,1,0,0,10,0,7,6,0,7,0,28,20,10,0,1,5,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,6,5,1,7,6,1,3,3,0,0,2,5,3,13,1,22,15,3,27,0,0,1,0,3,9,0,6,15,74,17,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15323634919316595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318208565547217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16932357915190074,0.0,0.0986909877047972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14991007387637376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12893345743797294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14426203788485356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1599025797229089,0.0,0.08696985656443497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1370838461420264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13601912717927764,0.0,0.0,0.2523020619838397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1080888453057622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13542577052549054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20429597250570944,0.0,0.1537381093895599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14360726632995702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16297079568643366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4882952500336419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14556553744573011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1559937031829084,0.12966089952945908,0.11780913185562475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14948700988833769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16853972549259272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2455011233760578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27616957975831424,0.0,0.17597569522138318,0.0,0.0,0.11140686963326232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19709120261998786 alcoholism,BigNuttz,2019/10/07,"I never know how much I can drink. So I will explain this really quick. When I say that, I don't mean I don't know how much I can drink til I black out, or something like that. What I mean is, I never know how much I can drink at all. I always try to be vigilant about drinking because my father was an addict and an alcoholic. I know that that beast is in me too. Thing is, how much I drink really varys. I may want to drink a lot, but sometimes I have a beer and can't even finish it. Another night, I may be able to down a 12 pack no problem. I've even tested this to an extent. One night I wanted just get as hammered as I could. I had two beers and didn't want anymore. I wasn't drunk, I wasn't even that tipsy because I took forever to finish them and they were far apart from each other in time. Thing is, I don't know what to do with this. I don't know what this might say about me. Is my body just moving away from alcohol as I get older? Or could this somehow be masking a problem.",1.49516339869281,2.5589321111111154,3.3504793028322446,93.67186274509804,77.42592592592592,6.378649237472768,20.576252723311544,6.794906146795322,0.12687723311546772,760,17,183,7,17,256,107,216,0.053,0.9,0.047,-0.6272,0,0,11,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,2,0,16,3,0,0,7,0,30,13,1,4,3,40,45,17,0,7,5,1,0,1,0,4,3,2,0,0,17,7,11,0,9,9,0,2,11,2,0,2,7,3,32,1,21,29,8,21,0,0,1,0,6,8,0,7,12,140,49,1,0.09695283531271978,0.0,0.0,0.10569290126684716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20722619141857168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.080672525709886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10166350129882487,0.0,0.0,0.09615116062621924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09109038026847664,0.0,0.0,0.11820309704590233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10769274358025986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15481789974639215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5698612096594062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19210930002025287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10130770974037658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31969645651308265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04736625805692096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0824258335166739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21122012070632964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10285163693727682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10304552043436052,0.2850859579642271,0.0,0.14955200709175334,0.0,0.0,0.18196733635160867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06569775036699853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18554153925571554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12422093784112265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15420157208508736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07463902931070404,0.0958888332018596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12882231145748366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0565339779448952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10771816738988167,0.06582461102608249,0.0,0.09470883230256504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17155588268636354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,razi3l23,2019/04/23,"So, what motivates you to stop? Are you happier when sober? I tried to stop for many years now, always having excuses like ""it feels so great while drinking, that dopamine rush or it's much easier to socialise and talk with people then"", always ignoring what was coming next. Most of the time but not always I drink till i blackout, then continue for few next days. On top of that I obsessively fap to porn and snort drugs which makes it even worse. It takes me a week or more to recover physically and mentally after. What my drinking does to me: 1. I stop going to gym and making progress, very often have to spend another week or two to get back on track 2. Making me to seek drugs and porn which leads to the next point 3. Making my depression and anxiety much worse 4. Damaging my health, so far I didn't develop anything permanent 5. I lost my job many times 6. Depriving me from ambitions and goals or having any hobbies 7. Making stupid decisions, calling people while drunk not even remembering 8. Losing stuff, like mobile phones 9. Falling down the stairs few months ago breaking my wrist and so on... All that just for few hours of happiness? Why do we tend to forget the consequences? Every time i tell myself that i have it under control this time, knowing subconsciously that I don't. When considering pros and cons it's simple math, better not to drink. Still it's so hard to resist.",3.474264150943398,5.881436200000002,4.262490566037736,83.38241509433966,75.67924528301887,7.8626415094339634,24.18490566037736,8.726425361277474,1.86977283018868,1103,36,206,24,25,353,163,265,0.18100000000000002,0.731,0.08800000000000001,-0.9798,1,0,7,0,0,0,37.0,1,2,0,9,14,13,1,1,5,0,9,11,1,8,1,41,22,26,0,0,9,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,19,12,5,5,5,6,1,5,5,8,0,1,3,3,23,5,29,19,8,44,0,5,0,2,8,9,0,6,31,129,42,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08482454419115486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2388684266835229,0.0,0.0,0.06507335037657777,0.10034064837108343,0.07320356568714709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07874576829952977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07358068604727681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08463115904743042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09771149367843232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08242956283977723,0.0,0.0,0.10732590497724094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06171295791387325,0.0,0.08241875745119433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08374008215637975,0.0,0.0,0.3749640892305545,0.22194300482483453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12640637315508227,0.0,0.08062402877515251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04838438531549361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04999474319923118,0.0,0.05438355844599252,0.0,0.0,0.10549997172220893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10186514471359864,0.08572058933020013,0.0,0.0,0.10171535369875352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0942366332071358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09495882792516197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05258942379948537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0934998496731578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10705406310699607,0.10445833371223773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3193733553191963,0.19403187293359656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09643430131050136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07637986508445807,0.0,0.14068819929553536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3053062789724373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1326805669027493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09045918778498643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10839956397896426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07641917815313093,0.2400065793285352,0.0,0.0,0.1095436192760905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07194793206631138,0.07691302446764668,0.08363839466233453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22319341472662368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0649680963644701,0.0,0.09347647403736856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0789553258819881,0.0,0.0,0.15351554227052094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08634649449297417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19503517466184694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06162204561607984 alcoholism,Tinyfishy,2019/04/23,"Helping friend in detox Hi, I know reddit is full of ‘a friend’ posts, but I mean it. A friend came by yesterday, looking for work and money and in a bad way from drink. He’d recently come back in contact like this. He’d been sober before, but suffered some family tragedies and is now homeless and back to drinking. I was too ill with the flu to do anything, but told my partner what was going on and he spent 6+ hours getting him into detox (guy was not not resistant, just a mess and it was quite the process). Reading about the difficulties of detox, I worry and feel for him. Is there anything else we can do or arrange for him in detox for his aid and comfort? Or is that all that can be done for now? How long do people typically stay in such facilities? Thanks for your help, and good luck to all of you who are struggling.",2.753806672369546,4.463638071856291,3.5471727972626184,90.87720059880242,75.46706586826349,6.448075278015399,25.10222412318221,7.1686216300943375,0.9174212147134306,646,22,139,7,14,205,109,167,0.15,0.687,0.163,0.1543,0,0,2,0,0,0,21.0,1,2,0,2,10,12,0,1,6,0,19,8,0,1,2,30,30,15,0,0,8,0,1,1,4,0,6,0,0,2,7,14,2,0,3,3,2,3,2,4,0,0,9,2,14,8,23,18,4,22,0,1,1,0,21,8,0,4,9,96,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26156093542999204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24440466437383415,0.13269445217290626,0.0,0.0,0.13523216052940495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18176610234199064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13689849009693505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1626338782326738,0.0,0.3113689790883165,0.0,0.0,0.1327601595279353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14981889574162302,0.0,0.08035647728514987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3683516165451524,0.0,0.08303094934595505,0.0,0.0903198656024186,0.1332974594917304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1573592128646006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2130460926541578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1565075969522205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08734017827088633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07764197578862413,0.0,0.0,0.14064226245910855,0.13345568182159748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17311423965814926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11017751792216618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15220474568100806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1690346636544609,0.1589664685149778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15691774563038244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16939126459342416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1661413080150964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14631537137252745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15185817804475127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12614604651543634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11569817279171217,0.1613944895519852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Gty2k2000,2019/04/23,Every day is another day to try Everyday is another day to try and fight the Demons Inside of my head and fight the temptations to drink every morning I wake up hung over and tired constantly telling myself that this is the last day. And I wish it was! I make good money and have little debt but always living paycheck to paycheck. Hoping I can muster the strength to quit for my health and finances. I want to be the best version of myself that I can be,4.9623333333333335,5.8114463444444455,5.337777777777777,83.51000000000002,68.8888888888889,8.222222222222221,28.333333333333336,8.344100000000001,1.8940000000000008,361,12,70,5,6,115,55,90,0.071,0.736,0.192,0.9347,1,0,1,0,2,0,4.0,0,0,0,3,0,6,2,0,5,0,9,5,2,1,0,11,13,7,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,6,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,10,4,11,10,2,10,1,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,7,47,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14870142217901594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3747870069470484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18754560632560616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1931225234431249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4610138595248541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17506821885835608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3011425471450324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14989385827637033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18340849395299505,0.18996086626993652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17749981425762795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14567288026346573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17911483377223372,0.1578046137696855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11929062237673616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19008057628575864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15620082244946867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20540138890588244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2426653482787761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10540806184904364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.205508213878773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,AnonNotInvisible,2019/04/23,"Crawling I am a newcomer to Alcoholics Anonymous and I am podcasting my experience as a newcomer. I am working on Step 4 - ""A searching and fearless moral inventory"" - with my sponsor. I am working on fears and these are my thoughts for today on the fear of being forgotten. &#x200B; [http://anonymousnotinvisible.org/crawling/](http://anonymousnotinvisible.org/crawling/) &#x200B; May you find God now.",11.817931034482761,15.913907000000005,9.075379310344829,50.657551724137925,56.58620689655172,10.157241379310344,42.634482758620685,10.355215969177356,5.559864827586209,338,18,39,8,5,99,41,58,0.134,0.7809999999999999,0.085,-0.4404,0,0,1,0,0,0,32.0,0,1,0,2,1,3,0,2,4,0,7,1,0,0,0,7,8,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,8,1,8,5,0,6,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,2,32,9,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2014046370715059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4083890358078481,0.4579949887054168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1843484055246911,0.0,0.4241360234391834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17224749610782805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496148601524317,0.0,0.0,0.17863645756174784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2743998122760365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4579949887054168,0.0 alcoholism,iruinfun,2019/04/23,"More than one month sober! Hey, y'all! I posted in here quite awhile ago. I was 15 days then relapsed... Felt hopeless. But I fucked up again (surprised eh?), and eventually my roommate called me out on it again. Gave me locations of meetings and I went to one. Which almost didn't happen. Almost skipped and went to a bar. And that was 36 days ago or something. I'm honestly trying not to count tbh. Y'all have been helpful as well, so thanks! I feel love in this sub...",0.06710144927536278,2.383295565217395,1.0389565217391343,98.5379275362319,98.78260869565216,3.75768115942029,18.08985507246377,5.6839178017228535,-0.4046153623188404,360,11,77,3,15,111,73,92,0.07400000000000001,0.757,0.16899999999999998,0.8618,0,0,1,0,0,1,23.0,0,2,0,1,5,7,1,0,1,0,5,3,0,0,0,12,15,9,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,5,1,0,2,1,0,2,2,2,1,2,8,2,10,5,11,7,1,16,0,1,0,2,8,5,1,3,8,47,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35739064133718146,0.0,0.4037218968001824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20584356641547571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600147612694572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1019287911505967,0.0,0.19355579187642447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18636456750663813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17826332511047704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13511997674149798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18194075726074052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16090536782765485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27320206653356305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19306527935012155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2144133181411994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15519204948292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1855948572487815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368648063338191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1812515395583156,0.3737476093666413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,pat4242,2019/04/23,"The road to recovery has relapses in it This is something one of my counsellors told me and it really helped to me to relapsing in a different light. Hoping it helps someone else out too. I’m from Canada so I hope you’ll understand my geography ahah. If you’re driving from Ontario to BC and you get a flat in Manitoba, you’re not going to drive back to Ontario, change it, and then continue your journey. You’re going to stop where you are, fix it, and keep going. This helped me in dealing with my relapses. The time you’ve had sober and the things you’ve learned aren’t lost. You aren’t restarting anything. Figure out why you got the flat and try to avoid doing it again.",2.895444444444444,4.914401748148149,4.093796296296297,85.74958333333336,75.96296296296295,7.7592592592592595,26.064814814814817,8.59863814320734,1.888148148148148,536,20,108,11,12,175,82,135,0.05,0.8809999999999999,0.069,0.5332,3,1,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,6,0,1,5,4,0,1,6,0,8,0,0,0,0,19,20,9,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,9,9,0,3,3,0,0,6,3,2,0,1,4,1,13,2,18,15,0,20,0,1,0,0,11,8,0,3,6,68,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1615017641838962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15090856135017938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2076125660679318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20233106570960246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2050454929309199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1639465002053858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10253553176196384,0.0,0.33461000462465235,0.0,0.1569636554738717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3946382867866165,0.0,0.0,0.3898524940521334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1744411323356192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2142363398381788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13298797863871067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1257264619854787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662868642272809,0.15108726828753194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1640785988222308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13038360300463853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11443830891161985,0.0,0.0,0.18753078413380933,0.0,0.13324477499058127,0.0,0.0,0.20430916215051406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1770902931401544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,AnonNontobedtobed,2019/04/23,"Currently Not Sober But Thinking Of Being Sober I've been following r/stopdrinking for awhile now and it helped me start trying to become sober. I'm not sober right now, so I won't post in r/stopdrinking but I wanted to write about how I felt when I recently tried to be sober. I don't drink every day, I drink every other day. It's how I've been, ""coping"" for far longer than I ever wanted. Being drunk is a lot more fun than being anxious or manic or depressed. I've been wanting to stop for awhile. I have all the reasons to. I Will Not Drink With You Today, (IWNDWYT) through my brain, all day, every day. Something about that phrase gets through. I did five days sober. I was excited for Friday, for the first time in a long time . A part of me knew that it might be better if I didn't drink because, here I am again, on the one day drunk, one day hung over schedule. So easy to backslide. On the bright side, I know that I can abstain now, even if I didn't keep going, I know that I can. It was challenging but I did do it. I liked it. I talked with my parent who has recovered more than once, and I told them that I like being hydrated but I don't like having to go to the bathroom all the time. I felt like I was floating most of the time and not in a good way but also not bad? My family seemed to like it and I did too, until I really saw my spouse and then I rethought things. I think I'd rather be drunk than divorce my spouse and I know that sounds horrid. I know. It is horrid. Even if my spouse and I are total shit, it doesn't mean that I can't be sober. I drank today, I will not drink to tomorrow. I hope that I Will Not Drink With You again soon. Thanks for being a place I can come to write things out. I appreciate it.",0.8259960641840749,2.7175031035422386,2.404361943687558,95.98191681804424,81.99727520435968,5.494671510747804,17.823872237359986,6.56203326957186,-0.2754752649106869,1337,28,312,13,36,436,164,367,0.098,0.758,0.14400000000000002,0.9520000000000001,2,0,9,0,1,0,50.0,0,2,1,3,20,16,1,0,12,0,40,12,2,3,5,61,67,25,0,8,18,4,2,5,0,5,0,1,0,0,22,12,10,3,12,9,0,4,14,3,0,4,17,5,51,13,39,36,9,48,0,1,2,0,14,11,1,10,36,220,73,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06995199981219648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0988194128362192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07303616898016878,0.053322632336454935,0.0966068811381385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07736261997657169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09764862021408774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07535010765047814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3948892246213738,0.0,0.07534023028166924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5141405009663302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1155499737813204,0.07912419312802835,0.22109892512343002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08246161016249072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16797529098928685,0.0,0.0,0.07440435436640176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04570094941959613,0.0,0.09942566336999104,0.07336806940036518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058631201865841226,0.0,0.0,0.08688026874986733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0777498807347534,0.0,0.0,0.19229114449000276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2136740598718855,0.0,0.0,0.07741071219263865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07436628185687308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09528356802793003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0927948617028065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09315572148295984,0.11854772254541712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09712823886689803,0.09472456327001676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09139050181069301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08377480251138557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05603734218926228,0.08993664973023803,0.08636887826262724,0.0,0.0,0.07470132876982505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07963198972851393,0.0,0.0,0.08978961486815762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0673408669882652,0.0,0.0,0.061913727493876976,0.0,0.0,0.07313121233935617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0703073566534118,0.0,0.08053324018426454,0.0,0.0,0.11622613826966245,0.11209812977784037,0.0,0.0,0.20402446946392613,0.0,0.16582805178273038,0.0835840487004295,0.0,0.1187766351357418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1547812449294548,0.06943187012427947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,hagstyshsb,2019/04/23,"How can i helo my dad? He's been an alcoholic for almost 40 years. He has had (suprisingly) only one DUI and has had to ""spend the night in the drunk tank"" a time or two. My mom thought that his love for her and his kids could get him to change, and that didnt work the divorced after 13 years, and my dad has been completely single since. He ended up getting full custody of me but i was also drinking too so we enabled eachother. Im watching my dad drink himself into a grave and nothing I can think of can help. I know the ""if you love me and your grandkids"" speech wont work. He has developed some mild health issues die to his drinking, but he wont acknowledge theybare due to drinking. He lives in a shit ass house thats falling apart, but makes enough money to comfortably buy a new place... Im just so sad. Sometimes his bosses wife calls me and says he didnt go to work so I drive 50 mins to go check on him, bawling the whole time thinking the worst. I came to terms that my dad wouldn't stop drinking on my behalf almost 20 years ago, but now i would love to help him stop on his behalf.",3.3368421052631585,4.146548078947369,4.044692982456141,91.44493421052631,72.59649122807018,6.752631578947369,25.214912280701753,6.6274283507984215,0.7139596491228071,854,25,190,6,16,272,134,228,0.13,0.754,0.11599999999999999,-0.6676,1,0,6,0,1,0,26.0,1,2,0,4,8,8,1,0,11,0,19,13,2,3,0,33,32,18,2,4,7,7,0,0,0,4,2,2,0,1,4,10,7,2,5,6,4,5,5,4,0,2,9,3,29,4,21,18,7,31,0,2,1,4,36,10,2,5,16,113,33,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09493688807182787,0.11445636446625546,0.21448855171618325,0.0,0.0,0.0856471096922505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10936015309172452,0.12249283617983522,0.0,0.0,0.11329664447402556,0.0,0.11229136623437,0.0,0.0,0.08550991473602497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11115195458783912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5245817131951656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09485801181645118,0.11066199725988583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11190971633373348,0.0,0.12173377058177648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11384133261622513,0.0,0.0,0.14357253519767554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12357797928133825,0.0,0.0,0.2313708075063864,0.11178363272145328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058858863181893525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09457046536628066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2899833511555838,0.0,0.07148947931564442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12543316875694527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10343697588151404,0.0,0.10050524804726424,0.0,0.10276447266827288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07257312031016121,0.08145368982860789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11189576215726013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08516950108970914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10993568467641142,0.0885934803028425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1059237460869768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17907928242143073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13724955459679175,0.0,0.0850247204442209,0.12490069020895525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10462025629086924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.119572317790506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2339082558872829,0.0,0.0,0.07608012614323174,0.0,0.0,0.20690492250311004 alcoholism,RDGunslinger,2019/04/23,My aunt died tonight from alcoholism I think this is a big wake up call for me. I always thought she would go this way and I have been just as bad. I don’t want to be her so I’m going to stop. At least try to stop. It’s hard My activities are all centered on drinking. What should I do instead.,-1.7312307692307662,0.18155564615384634,0.560384615384617,102.6221153846154,100.23076923076924,3.830769230769232,17.26923076923077,5.6839178017228535,-0.7138923076923072,227,7,58,2,10,75,54,65,0.201,0.779,0.02,-0.8909999999999999,0,0,2,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,9,3,1,0,1,10,15,3,1,3,1,1,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,1,2,2,2,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,2,1,10,0,9,10,2,11,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,3,39,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2910160817813331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2265833500947204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22736709007019906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2780584845951785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28261430858243203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2667596781709847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3095195719380106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2439358592368157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4553259343988889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1744849567398558,0.0,0.2161833561079549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18488030161108385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16061522096268258,0.21614663650520696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19344088303766147,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ellen-7,2019/04/23,"Am I an alcoholic? So I’ve always loved drinking (have drank since I was 14, sounds bad but in the UK it’s not that uncommon) however I’ve always Just drank on nights out or whatever. Last few months I have been drinking 4/5 days a week... even at work (I work at a pub which makes it harder) I find myself sneaking drinks and before I know it I’m drinking 7+ double vodkas a day, I’m starting to worry about myself but I’m too ashamed to tell anyone. I definitely seek out alcohol and the fact I’m hiding it makes me worry. I need help but don’t what to do. Help",-0.1992499999999993,2.0112409083333347,2.2800000000000007,92.965,89.91666666666666,5.2,18.0,6.742157984588678,0.08385000000000042,439,12,97,6,15,150,79,120,0.138,0.753,0.10800000000000001,-0.5673,1,0,7,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,2,5,3,0,1,6,0,7,9,0,2,1,16,19,7,0,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,7,4,8,0,2,6,0,0,2,2,0,0,4,1,11,1,10,15,2,13,0,0,0,1,4,6,0,1,7,54,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3229449404676887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2514429651427002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10564774100947334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12615634661421302,0.0,0.0,0.12856901730078452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19488497505971986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5920544861904904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0997955037015812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13809626775500106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2025489104447238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08303676320191228,0.12316096382127335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13636733456205902,0.0,0.20171150594656115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1206009937396237,0.0,0.0,0.11203354747015502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14179054829617346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12498569369928747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1069444054221452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13206194459640228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1211976934747776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21999501185359424,0.3068845582031282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,MoreNoiseThnHvyMetal,2018/12/15,Jaundice Does anyone know how long Jaundice takes to occur? Do you wake up one day and you're yellow or is it a slow process? I feel like the whites of my eyes and skin around them have been slightly yellow (more bloodshot/veiny) for a couple months at this point. ,4.000576923076924,5.555729442307693,3.3223076923076924,94.39769230769234,71.88461538461539,5.2,22.615384615384606,3.1291,-0.15832307692307698,209,5,43,0,4,61,47,52,0.0,0.941,0.059000000000000004,0.4329,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,4,3,3,1,0,7,7,4,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,6,4,1,6,6,1,8,0,0,4,0,2,4,0,1,5,25,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422291448982609,0.0,0.0,0.3083926259077835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3833138287578883,0.0,0.22341613938532692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30315976578692977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17516341687601403,0.24748683518228384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19038669405827607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16924626653156538,0.0,0.0,0.30657614770854696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2765139633682281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23474725311370895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3274845865443556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2604692719711544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,bad96bitch,2018/12/15,"I think my brother might be an alcoholic I’ve never really been around an alcoholic so I’m not sure what the signs are but my brother has been isolating himself, he’s very angry and short tempered, he doesn’t really seem like himself. I don’t really know how to explain it I just know that he’s been acting really differently lately and he’s been sneaking tons of alcohol from my parents because he’s not old enough to buy yet. And I know for sure he’s at least dabbled in some drugs. What do I know what to look for and how should I approach him about it if I even do?",3.150354808590105,4.393875277310927,4.738095238095241,84.64301587301587,73.53781512605042,8.314098972922503,26.66760037348273,8.841846274778883,1.9325622782446312,454,16,95,9,9,153,72,119,0.083,0.884,0.033,-0.6882,2,0,4,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,8,4,1,0,3,0,13,4,0,2,3,26,22,9,0,2,5,3,0,1,0,2,4,0,0,0,6,5,3,0,7,0,1,2,5,1,0,0,4,1,13,3,11,15,4,10,0,0,1,0,13,4,0,4,5,65,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5165320080554954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14342184297395136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0982110138645127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16832540793899348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18683617175228734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16646944864574098,0.0,0.10641147651410007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3541668411711089,0.0,0.18173882586716786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07871009039520957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.135291621229857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1709119945869454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1242577784256378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1690575907412565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17889332157878254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.412844148875038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14666827395051593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3036880828514896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10323262839249166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13293242414995268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,PM_ME_UR_FAV_THINGS,2018/12/15,"I'm messing up Hi, I have been struggling with alcohol for a number of years. I'm pushing the people that I care about away from me, I'm forgetting a lot, I am depressed. I want to stop so badly. I hate myself. I don't know why I keep doing this to myself. I know at some point I'm not going to wake up. I don't want to be this way. How do I stop this?",-1.4044444444444435,0.2934515185185198,1.905185185185185,97.43333333333337,89.37037037037037,4.587654320987656,16.407407407407412,5.82211442006289,-0.6768666666666667,267,6,68,2,9,96,51,81,0.235,0.675,0.09,-0.9242,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,4,6,1,1,3,0,8,2,1,1,0,13,20,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,1,3,2,0,0,2,3,5,0,0,1,0,13,1,13,18,2,11,0,1,0,0,1,5,0,2,3,46,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.258925719983616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2276318657708335,0.0,0.20229530662584225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24702259343844565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2086770869681043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13769441455350298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2392032640638849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21535132774598684,0.0,0.0,0.2663036450241625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2059794482778084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16796779674176696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2290347534983149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40511711473055534,0.0,0.2532856973126333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28580834071801275,0.192312133187196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21862177370692945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1560216311170903 alcoholism,snackarydaquiri,2018/12/15,"Heart Rate Change in Sobriety https://imgur.com/a/M0n5w08 Alcohol was destroying my health. My BP was sky high and my heart rate was in the 90s at rest. My sobriety date is 5/28/18 and you can clearly see the change in my resting heart rate. 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Do I try to help or just leave? Ill just start with a disclosure that I do not drink and im am not sure if i am biased or having the wrong outlook on things. My grandfather died from drinking, and the rest of the family dosent drink. I dont like that people use it as a crutch for so many things such as being more social or letting loose or forgetting the pain etc. its obviously not healthy and addicting. I have had alcohol and may drink it very rarely (a couple times a year at most) but i still consider myself a non drinker. Usually im fine with people who drink moderately. But i also dont know if it is rational or controlling to want my significant other to drink less. My bf started drinking a lot during his college years to party, be social, and relieve stress from long days. and while most people including myself saw this as normal, i felt uncomfortable when he would get drunk. I didnt like how i couldnt have any conversation with him or if i did he might forget the next day. Or that he NEEDED to drink in the first place and that he never stopped himself from getting drunk and throwing up. MOST of the time it was the result of having a good time and letting loose. It then really started to alarmed me when he would say he was depressed sometimes ( not clinically diagnosed) and he drank so he could feel better. He would occasionally go a few weeks to a month without a drink because he felt he was doing too much and his body needed a break from the bingeing. Then he would proceed to go back to the same thing. I couldn’t understand it. The people hes around are all the same way so it’s completely normal and not alarming at all to them. Sometimes he would joke he has a problem or is an alcoholic but never was serious. He views it as just learning how to live a little and get lit and have fun. I understand a lot of people at this age do this but im thinking of our future and potential family and if this gets worse. I dont want to seem like one of those uptight people who try to push an agenda but I would at least like him to drink a little bit more responsibly. I understand using it as a crutch is a different issue for him altogether. By the way im sorry if i indirectly insulted or offended anyone here. 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Solid program Sponsor Praying morning and night Reading big book Temp sponser 4 to 5 meetings a week This event scares me a bit. 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But I miss weed. I’ve been completely sober since May 2017, regularly attend meetings and work a program in AA. For me, drinking was very destructive and chaotic at least half the time. I have mental health issues which are obviously exacerbated by alcohol use. Weed, however, didn’t really have any negative aspects for me. I wasn’t a couch potato smoker, and I really feel like it balanced out the alcohol use. Fast forward to now, and I have no desire to drink, but I have times where I really want to just chill tf out and smoke and ride my bike or something. Has anyone else experienced this? Advice? It could either be fine, it could make me want to drink, it would definitely complicate my relationship with AA...I’ve just pushed the feelings aside because I didn’t want to risk drinking. Idk. Just searching for some answers. ♥️",3.70525,6.376831025000001,4.682500000000001,79.30250000000002,76.25,8.0,26.25,8.841846274778883,2.3666875,684,26,121,16,16,222,108,160,0.09,0.812,0.098,0.2822,1,0,9,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,1,6,5,1,1,5,0,16,7,0,3,1,33,25,9,0,7,7,0,2,1,0,2,3,0,1,0,6,9,6,0,3,5,0,4,5,3,1,1,5,3,13,2,15,15,3,14,0,1,0,0,2,6,0,4,7,75,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384993666289713,0.0,0.3029378952416839,0.14192463370941327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09638296576737407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09910266515431143,0.14522170378852348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08639882146414096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14860383823776915,0.0,0.0,0.2263237497820792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5553755994913587,0.0,0.0,0.11839932385409893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1433284294277613,0.10125373215296447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15065502846910395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479319152631756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06924334430417042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0946075497714686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14283303238918754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2723924219974243,0.0,0.0,0.15216767185933455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11724259537787125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10911260920969004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1652907305879431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2448227611526012,0.0,0.11694416266562192,0.2507925164361177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.103182953970547,0.0,0.0,0.10068270729648864,0.0,0.0,0.0912710883758024 alcoholism,DB___Cooper456,2019/04/02,"My Husband is an Alcoholic and I Feel like I Made a Mistake Marrying Him This is a throwaway account. My husband knows my real account and I often post to subs pertaining to my career, so I'd prefer they stay separate. My husband is an alcoholic. He drinks the equivalent of 6-10 beers a night. He has anxiety and insomnia and for a long time he has used alcohol as a way to 'wind down' at the end of the night and eventually be able to go to sleep. He is considered a very high functioning alcoholic. He has a great job, manages to get up every morning, go to work and seem completely normal. He has trouble getting up and getting into the office on time, but luckily he works in a field that is very flexible. As long as he gets his 8-9 hours a day in, they don't really care when he gets in and leaves. We got married about a year and a half ago. It's been the worst year of my life. When we got married, I was having a lot of second thoughts but pushed them down to avoid making a scene or disappointing everyone. Im ashamed to say I was extremely irritable and grumpy on our wedding day. At the time, I chalked it up to stress but I know now it was because I knew I was making a mistake. I hate looking at the pictures because I look happy, but I know I wasn't. The thing is, I really, truly love him. When he's not drinking he's the best guy in the world. He makes me laugh, I love spending time with him. He's my best friend. But the alcoholism is always there, peeking up from under the surface. We have a therapist we see together and he has a psychiatrist he sees monthly to help him with his medications. The psychiatrist has put him on a sleeping medication and naltrexone, which is supposed to help with the alcohol cravings. It hasn't helped. He refuses to buy less beer nightly and I guess just hopes the medicine with make him not want to drink. I can't get through to him that he actually has to make an effort. There isn't going to be a magic pill that will make quitting drinking easy. He has to actively buy less beer, which will make drinking less earlier. He says his anxiety keeps him from buying less because he knows he will never be able to get to sleep, and then he can't relax or wind down. In reality, he doesn't sleep. He passes out. And lately he's been passing out on the couch and I wake up at 3-4am and have to wake up him up to get to bed and it makes me irrationally angry. I think because at that point, I can't ignore the problem. I saw our therapist alone the other day. She asked me what I thought he would be like if he didn't have to work. Like, if we came into enough money to where we wouldn't have to work (won the lottery or something). I told her I thought he would destroy himself. If he didn't have a job to go to or any kind of structure in his life, he would drink himself to death. And then I cried because I knew the extent of the problem. I'm married to a high functioning alcoholic who would not function at all if he didn't have to. I don't know what to do. I feel like we are at a stand still. I refuse to have kids with an active alcoholic, and he refuses to see the problem. I apologize for the length of this post. Thanks for reading if you've made it this far. I don't know why I'm posting here. Maybe it's just to vent, maybe I need some guidance. I don't know. 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I've been sober from drinking for 3 years. I Smoke weed all day every day if I have it. I HATE myself every time I do it. Just moved to a new city. Hadn't smoked since January and was feeling pretty good; joined a gym, fitter, meeting people, connecting with my kids, lost some weight... On Friday the thought popped into my head to see if I could find any weed. A few hours later I've scored a quarter ounce. Easier than I thought. Since then I've smoked as often as possible. I've been stoned all day today. I feel horrible. It was hard, but i just threw 80 bucks worth of weed in the rubbish. The truck should take it away at 7am. I don't want to be a stoner or a drunk anymore. I'm thinking I need a meeting, but I've always felt off talking about pot at an aa meeting. I don't think na fits either as it's just weed I'm into, not meth or crack or anything. The binges I have take their toll tho. I get depressed for a couple of weeks after stopping. I hope this last one was my final binge. 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Throwaway account for obvious reasons. I have a great life and love my job and my girlfriend. I also love drinking, and work in an industry where relationships developed over alcohol are exceptionally important. I genuinely believe that to stop drinking altogether would be extremely damaging to my career. I handle myself well in social situations and have not had a history of being inappropriate in work situations regardless of alcohol. My girlfriend also drinks a lot, and we're great together in those circumstances. However... I have a good deal of difficulty with impulse control and struggle to stop once I start. I'll have a few drinks in a work situation and then polish off a 6 pack alone afterwards. Drinking alone makes me... Dark. Not anything I'd ever act on, but thoughts of self-harm dark. I've had therapy over several years and am comfortable in saying I'd never hurt myself or others but I'm increasingly worried about the impact on my mental health. I exercise regularly and take days or weeks at a time off drinking without consistently fixating on when my next drink is. Would be greatly appreciative of opinions and advice from struggling and recovering alcoholics. Do I need to stop drinking altogether or is this something I can manage?",7.1988053899974105,9.38817660792952,8.071391552215598,60.97779994817313,64.8590308370044,11.684788805390001,39.34413060378336,11.442366930564873,5.607787976159628,1058,59,152,36,17,355,139,227,0.091,0.7829999999999999,0.126,0.9004,2,2,13,0,0,2,25.0,0,0,0,5,7,12,0,2,10,0,18,17,0,3,3,38,27,20,0,5,9,0,0,0,2,2,6,1,0,0,4,12,12,4,2,10,1,2,4,4,1,0,3,1,19,8,30,19,3,31,0,2,0,2,8,15,0,5,14,109,23,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07468735446098529,0.0,0.2450440443766727,0.0,0.15831864684728628,0.0,0.12224346658823075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06289608767737365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.086111409209278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0857237115755251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04929158347934005,0.07879686338433534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6738583312872161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06913609106912492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0641065814020001,0.0,0.2527958878816393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08124243299065093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08182081930993451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07584583776239934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05398537866001589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06497878628107921,0.13796367530870005,0.0,0.05101819435316405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07702433287920284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11334503249251544,0.05894819313386556,0.0,0.08128508957950689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08139637435082474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08129363055112591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07858365640633821,0.0,0.08205814309683407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06078088973584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07973405875653282,0.08634511968024347,0.0,0.0,0.25773447603522204,0.0,0.07791163936560708,0.0,0.05884021218695167,0.0,0.0,0.054098158012424416,0.0,0.0,0.19169887071486252,0.0,0.15980426524430955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057466496818413336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0874053525226724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0606775675801773,0.04456745068592456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06130822782602721,0.0,0.06872052455236569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07367662420910266,0.0,0.16692773501646616,0.07761925112264029,0.0,0.10858858391878738,0.0,0.0,0.0492189696998768 alcoholism,Karnosiris,2019/04/02,"I don't want to stop but I need to t's been about 11 years since I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder. I'm finishing my university education quite late compared to literally anyone else in my graduating class. It's taken me almost 8 years to finish my post highschool education (highschool graduation was 2011 at 19 years old), including switching majors 3 times. I started drinking pretty regularly about three years ago because I joined a touring band, and that seemed to just be a part of ""the life"". A year and a half ago, it started to be a problem. I would go home between classes and drink. I would use https://www.autoevolution.com/bac/ to figure when I would be sober so I could go to my girlfriend's house/practice/class and pretty effectively pretend nothing was amiss. I'd aim for 0.9. By this time I had already crashed my car once, but luckily it was only into a tree at my neighbor's house less than 300ft from where I was staying at my parent's house. I had to replace my driver's side mirror.",5.449851961509992,7.004253248704663,6.233060695780902,74.92851036269431,68.32642487046633,8.623094004441155,32.43856402664693,9.04235418022936,2.9133393042190967,819,36,144,15,14,269,125,193,0.07200000000000001,0.8270000000000001,0.1,0.7983,1,0,2,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,0,2,6,2,0,0,7,0,16,4,0,2,0,22,26,8,0,7,3,1,0,0,2,3,2,0,2,0,5,6,2,1,3,4,0,3,1,2,0,2,9,0,21,0,23,10,4,29,0,1,0,0,4,7,0,2,17,86,26,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261843288542077,0.0,0.12775315818265226,0.0,0.1407879417015706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08920705396149586,0.1307210088252565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07777171599331065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10186242180339428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10988465376887936,0.12949123449087044,0.0,0.0,0.14621798146335474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2499600843003585,0.0,0.0,0.10657690038518333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14501355456847906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12797335968700274,0.0,0.0,0.2944208818363736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14391604153275425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09011368010810786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0945991141805082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12241665885943095,0.0,0.1338739762098431,0.13586876710457546,0.0,0.0970305038471636,0.0,0.0,0.1416627326352477,0.1381569421731197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12218658124754392,0.2595898927655175,0.0,0.12207703737537087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.135697264706538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11614423778014014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10553567369933216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806038681795939,0.1359835360012117,0.0,0.1066627738933758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14878610075656715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11018834473894257,0.0,0.0,0.07525011734723193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2718879766392422,0.0,0.0,0.4107873836282216 alcoholism,Winb23_,2019/04/02,How to stop buying more and relapsing Everytime I try to put it down or put it away I found myself going back to it. So I ended up pouring it all down the drain. But the next thing I knew next time I was depressed I bought more from one of my friends then promised I’d never do it again. How do I stop this cycle ,1.0679901960784337,2.6003741323529432,2.712352941176473,95.8022549019608,79.73529411764707,5.7098039215686285,20.15686274509804,6.42735559955562,-0.05565490196078393,243,6,58,2,6,80,47,68,0.113,0.805,0.08199999999999999,-0.2732,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,2,2,11,7,7,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,7,1,0,2,2,0,2,3,1,1,0,1,4,0,9,2,9,3,3,17,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,1,10,44,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21679566685885704,0.17743123484564713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19874321230999864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2043745448379481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2530036512697225,0.17827559974067822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311396026420984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17796734963657546,0.0,0.4908069675548961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15636105107872947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4639316417461327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3858318990029567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15329894790432408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345512161945489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1566629802297902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Sequoiiathrone,2019/04/02,"Dealing with being sober I used to drink 5-6 a day and about 10-12 on weekends for the last 5 years or so. I just quit about a month ago and am having a hard time being sober. I don't have cravings really, just trying to get used to being sober is weird. I feel a lot more bored now and thinking about a hobby perhaps. I'm just not sure what to do. 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Last year I was inpatient twice for alcoholism and withdrawal symptoms. My longest sober streak was 100 days and I felt amazing being sober. I started drinking again on and off about 8 months ago and even though I’m in a new location with wonderful people I’m still struggling with drinking and I am developing tendencies to hide alcohol and hide my drinking. I don’t really know where to go from here as I’ve been through therapy and AA and hospitalization. Any help or advice would be greatly appreciated. Also I have had anorexia for the last 10 years and idk if that had anything to do with it",5.296444444444447,6.764286040000004,6.063466666666669,76.32817777777778,68.6,9.715555555555557,33.08888888888889,9.994966539143718,3.4385022222222226,525,24,96,13,9,172,87,125,0.086,0.777,0.13699999999999998,0.8173,0,0,5,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,8,4,0,1,2,0,14,6,0,0,0,19,21,15,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,13,5,0,3,3,0,1,1,2,1,1,6,1,10,2,15,12,0,18,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,3,13,63,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1544071660698645,0.14006780332529584,0.3377328217301272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263618679672529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10745334772120126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13003013328338034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319331365262404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10190444916772118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.46437381543163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10436521164352022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15171597380156926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08980166815134294,0.0,0.0,0.17420841374295926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2118237708378147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08683907635433016,0.25760118599859266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12612340004507902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15260864652919442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16580665747380147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10954539000022673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10122631595902892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11184146671926436,0.0,0.12618831634051553,0.0,0.0,0.1651880957648615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16423461704316475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1807001048539387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15524565436074725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17135690569416825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11224695017948576,0.0,0.0,0.30526298660932305 alcoholism,comphypotato,2019/04/02,"Thinking about quitting, but forever is a long time Hey guys, first post here. I am 21 and I've been drinking since I entered college. My freshman year I went crazy, drinking 2-3 nights a week and blacking out for about half of them. I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression by my sophomore year, and after starting medication, I began to drink less. I haven't blacked out in over a year. However, with the medication, new issues have surfaced. If I drink too much, I start getting EXTREMELY depressed and tend to run away from my friends. I started drinking less and less often, but my meds stopped working recently and I relapsed into the binge-drinking and running away phase. I will be quitting for a month while I wait for my meds to kick in again, but I'm thinking about quitting forever. This is a super hard decision because a lot of my friends drink and it was one of my main social activities. I don't know if I could just go to the bar and not drink, or maybe just go and only have one beer type thing for the next forever. Advice is appreciated!",4.717941176470589,6.177166284313724,5.2738039215686285,81.47511764705884,69.98039215686275,8.185098039215687,33.69803921568627,8.648137234880735,2.8009298039215684,838,41,158,14,15,269,121,204,0.099,0.813,0.08800000000000001,-0.0852,1,0,9,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,1,6,9,5,0,0,10,0,14,12,0,0,0,34,28,18,0,3,9,0,1,0,2,1,3,0,0,1,3,16,9,2,4,9,0,6,3,2,0,4,5,3,22,3,27,20,6,36,0,2,2,0,6,9,0,5,20,111,25,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08754727144234913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06853685657157887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16834735487017385,0.0,0.0,0.05461383152230225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07153110962991686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15432916430277233,0.09093296160145953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7021204435018215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07620604414749142,0.0,0.0,0.13843554204326525,0.0,0.04680759074800424,0.0,0.10183324022751787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0887091583826764,0.0,0.0,0.08025592306887673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09350970950810633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04923686110497952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07928520045736485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07616704971811085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09000618400464064,0.0,0.19903076995631733,0.1805069793137829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07151066767187775,0.0,0.06585968078140209,0.0,0.0,0.08652752940297921,0.09528102652705576,0.08407506823792968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1214183370692625,0.06813797949487051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0858033962258648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2858731143346851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08846028711490565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07411058672671879,0.0,0.0,0.09132672444064548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19023887610795692,0.0,0.0,0.07490207318577477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059520267997042735,0.11481256842353338,0.0,0.0,0.052241222504839466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07186448230588162,0.0,0.0,0.08305173856972815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06522330245511239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17308096657830233 alcoholism,Smudgeisbest,2019/10/29,"I need some help Today I decided to quit drinking, I started drinking heavily this year and it has not stopped. It has gotten to the point where I am hiding it from the people who love me. I feel so sick and I’m shaking after 12 hours with no booze but I’m going to try and stick with it this time. I didn’t even feel any joy or better when I had my last beers, i still felt sick and I’ve just made it worse. Is there anyone here that can help talk me through the next few days and my withdrawal? I can’t talk to anyone else about this.",1.3422413793103445,2.8363073620689683,2.666758620689656,96.60410344827585,78.82758620689657,5.67448275862069,19.35862068965517,6.2581,-0.2477213793103452,418,9,100,3,10,135,78,116,0.13699999999999998,0.708,0.155,0.3293,0,0,3,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,9,4,0,1,3,0,8,7,0,1,0,19,19,9,0,1,4,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,10,7,4,1,4,3,0,2,4,1,0,0,5,3,13,3,10,14,2,16,0,0,0,1,6,2,0,2,12,63,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12669812009435286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2605464829064571,0.19089801522929592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16477726581871316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12015542012055308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3650284251039729,0.0,0.0,0.15563924219724182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12305690235721076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18840925281758145,0.0,0.1788881321670563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10588504478829906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24976116729356096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1834791693108007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1518686327241241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1681532849826229,0.1762923225651898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13814751968177466,0.0,0.0,0.1981442550340484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12916484476633006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17612446525797834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1981650748974141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318721462144829,0.0,0.14878850028662552,0.15576464730558695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29950004278031683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10863965778485868,0.0,0.17660139339307046,0.0,0.0,0.12649319003636042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18986720246406727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11997841344797165 alcoholism,Epic-Mom,2019/10/29,Wow- 30 days today. I give thanks to God for this. I am also grateful for AA and CR and the support from my fellow teammates in Recovery. 😃,-0.2643103448275852,2.0155679999999982,2.2926724137931025,91.53831896551728,93.13793103448276,4.279310344827587,21.04310344827585,5.985473137389443,0.3127172413793109,108,4,22,1,4,37,26,29,0.0,0.5920000000000001,0.408,0.9259999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,5,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,14,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3572962469846784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2881413342837215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4285998151098465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5070097913013843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41134241412118255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4235028355573903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,iluvreddit,2019/10/29,"I quit hard alcohol (but still allowed beer and wine) and it's working for me so far Every time I've gotten in trouble with drinking, in terms of multiple day hangovers, multiple day DT withdrawal, falling down, blacking out, getting in trouble with work, etc, involved hard liquor. (Usually vodka, but sometimes whisky or tequila.) I've NEVER gotten in trouble from beer or wine alone. I have a very high tolerance so it's hard to get very drunk from beer and wine. So I have decided to completely quit hard alcohol. It's been about a week now and going great. Since then, the max I've had in one night was 3 beers (spread over a few hours), but usually only 1 beer, and sometimes 0. I feel amazing. I feel it's unrealistic for me to quit even beer and wine. It would really limit limit my social life and I enjoy the flavor of craft beer so much and good wine with a good meal. So hopefully I never touch hard alcohol again. Anyone else had success with this compromise approach? If I can stick to this approach, it will dramatically change my life.",4.230205223880598,6.036212402985075,5.101414800995029,80.86316697761197,71.73631840796021,8.20907960199005,28.980410447761198,8.841846274778883,2.406047014925373,827,33,153,16,16,269,114,201,0.1,0.731,0.16899999999999998,0.9755,1,1,19,0,0,0,31.0,0,0,0,8,10,10,0,0,6,0,9,21,0,1,2,29,17,20,0,3,6,0,8,0,0,2,5,0,0,0,8,13,19,2,3,17,0,4,2,3,0,1,6,10,12,7,23,9,4,29,0,0,1,0,2,10,0,4,15,88,20,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34712890420319603,0.0,0.11213693957514308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07570616529874752,0.11093726182702376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11453721608104662,0.0,0.11352093028113135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1396527175606193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10606515191220024,0.0,0.0,0.09044720209089553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12075168580174425,0.07151250776508522,0.0,0.0912236676035624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10949095822369924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11313510140385565,0.0,0.06153336336753591,0.18162651053932494,0.0,0.11937005008038082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4849513641676028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11439510923377695,0.0,0.1075383349781766,0.10662592076291746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15295115933068468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0795922364787295,0.0,0.1670117854883486,0.0,0.0,0.10160575687224213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07336777890669494,0.08234558857245496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34548118437680553,0.0,0.0,0.06936169238823629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08956355807293996,0.0,0.0,0.11036947282866667,0.0,0.0,0.21416717238186894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08646600538680965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06313416169361802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2384921990279895,0.17867116077457035,0.0,0.0,0.08684911317891499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15764633084577445,0.0,0.0,0.07691318562870939,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,northern_spaces,2019/10/29,"Weed as a substitute for drinking? 20F Hi! Alcoholism runs in my family and ever since I started uni my binge drinking has gotten out of control. I black out every weekend and it leaves me extremely depressed afterwards, to the point I don’t leave bed for days. My dad is an alcoholic and I’ve seen the effects it’s had on us all so I want to quit while I’m ahead now before it’s too late. The problem is that at my age socialising and clubbing is synonymous with binge drinking, especially in my country (Scotland). I love to go out at night and have fun and I can’t do it sober - I can’t dance, talk to strangers, or have fun without drinking. But I really don’t want to do it anymore. I asked my friends for advice but they said that it was weird I couldn’t have fun with them sober or they just suggested drugs. I am into MDMA but I’m really careful about usage so regular consumption is a no (and I don’t like coke). Has anyone ever tried to replace alcohol with weed, specifically for usage in social settings? Did it work for you? Why/why not? I think it will rely on which strain - does anyone have any recommendations? I’m going out on Thursday night for Halloween and I really don’t want to drink but I don’t want to be sober either.",1.7677995709469805,4.0681396215139465,3.594920318725101,86.48335810603739,81.07171314741035,6.730064357952805,23.996475635917875,7.882392219407189,1.4205174992338336,979,36,197,18,26,328,139,251,0.047,0.84,0.113,0.9414,1,0,9,0,0,0,27.0,1,1,3,5,8,11,0,1,6,0,26,11,0,2,3,38,43,18,0,6,10,1,0,1,1,1,4,1,1,0,11,16,9,1,2,8,0,4,11,4,0,0,6,3,27,7,35,34,2,33,0,1,2,1,14,14,0,2,15,131,38,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10696960508591703,0.0,0.3509598759361761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0744411186569918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10856156477613084,0.1530833420042666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10233659979469567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09314811021299366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11160860954263273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12277622684470707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07059697397099314,0.0,0.0942835195587918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09579505828538126,0.0,0.0,0.5361785219485439,0.12694663377284435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19803781810778914,0.0922304270169573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10319547478867093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08457371096924729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12442491139121464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12348322037048826,0.2318188867781393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05347990662576727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09879798240599402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2054541894639211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10348142661394368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10474486059963237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11643132386750844,0.0,0.0,0.21038153833236306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10412791174882843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0905519962442589,0.0,0.0,0.1115875285004094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07748110292870905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08798519743536991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07014184965920194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07432071258662519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13167497753499025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2582652141993084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09877668208213768,0.0,0.0,0.10552200506483513,0.0,0.07969307085278003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,shabzaam,2019/10/29,"Withdrawal? Hey, I'm about 6-7 days sober, and I'm having headaches and finding it harder to focus. I also feel really stressed, physically and medically. I think it might be withdrawal. Any advice?",2.7108333333333365,5.732535083333333,4.918000000000003,72.62700000000002,87.05555555555556,8.435555555555556,26.644444444444442,8.841846274778883,3.267451111111111,157,7,25,5,5,54,28,36,0.092,0.8420000000000001,0.066,-0.4316,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,7,7,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3490588093398085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2856585241558413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2429131922424373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2303691376397593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806147282053124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3264809727300958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35984874364865665,0.0,0.3789404636670211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288361234900611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4091797200371014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288839947316609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,hadleyty,2019/10/29,"Lying about my drinking Yesterday I lied to the most wonderful, caring person in the world so I could go home by myself and drink beers in the dark. Why do I keep finding excuses to drink? I've only had one sober day in the last month or so. I really want to change but I'm scared I'm not strong enough.",1.4186458333333327,3.2910844062500004,3.135625000000001,91.58020833333336,79.9375,6.766666666666668,18.479166666666664,7.793537801064563,0.4231541666666665,238,5,53,4,6,79,48,64,0.16899999999999998,0.74,0.091,-0.7377,0,0,4,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,1,4,0,3,4,0,0,0,10,10,5,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,4,1,2,4,0,1,1,1,0,1,1,0,6,2,8,8,2,9,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,3,4,30,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21388349350981026,0.0,0.2219181815818702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16749132221466562,0.0,0.0,0.13528998780662507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6165101557446171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21675760404150304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19173404594160587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11922214082344627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2104252661850107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18646105876046232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17099774149881264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16744345701869226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1421515612021994,0.15954624970417786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18317077878309826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13438968723795955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21002520042627806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12373298639633006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.189292760904484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2274961875687007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,tiny_t_willy,2019/10/29,"Substituting Tea for beer tonight. Day one. I’ve tried to be sober in the past but always went back. This last weekend I went to a costume party and drank way too much and absolutely blacked out. Not sure what I said or did but I don’t like the feeling at all, and pretty sure I said some mean things to the cab driver. I hate the feeling. Furtherest I made it sober was 71 days. Hopefully tonight is a new start.",0.8810714285714276,3.286327821428575,2.0145714285714327,95.58042857142858,86.26190476190477,5.2647619047619045,21.495238095238093,6.742157984588678,0.34650380952381,323,11,72,4,10,102,63,84,0.107,0.698,0.195,0.8028,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,2,5,1,0,6,0,5,3,0,1,3,17,17,6,0,1,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,4,4,3,0,3,2,0,2,2,1,0,1,8,5,6,4,7,8,3,16,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,3,11,41,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1649767871645407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15245763556929515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.255735904432621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20050285964809605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1957508903826471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19692716215769002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616167714518522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09686486205153924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18760816828114246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21597450056262768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14575149654977235,0.0,0.0,0.191490708026632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1343530983331693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1892714526937257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20171219224172987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3772009505493564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14033675113363828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3737348553965872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1317219888205449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1346125306959109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15737774921301145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3675971411940581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ChronoPsyche,2019/10/29,"How frequently and how much does one have to drink to experience alcohol withdrawals upon cessation? I usually go long stretches of time without drinking, but for the past 3 weeks I've been drinking a lot more. Have been having about 4 drinks a day, 3 times a week, with one additional day on the weekend of 6-7 drinks. The reason I was wondering is I haven't had anything to drink since Saturday night and was noticing today that I was feeling a lot of anxiety and had high blood pressure. Is it possible for that amount of drinking to cause withdrawal or is this probably due to something else? I don't crave alcohol and have no problem not drinking any more. I've just had lots of festivities and social events lately.",8.261480709071954,7.537318401459856,8.235557872784153,70.8765693430657,62.065693430656935,11.916162669447345,40.00938477580814,11.20814326018867,4.5670508863399375,579,28,103,14,7,188,88,137,0.08800000000000001,0.8590000000000001,0.054000000000000006,-0.6715,0,0,11,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,7,0,17,11,1,4,0,22,20,9,0,1,5,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,7,10,0,3,9,0,1,5,2,0,2,8,1,5,1,17,12,7,22,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,5,17,70,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21015082974537566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06686175796255,0.0,0.07521541556789689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08090993425341278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010029114838284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12681802400866105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08604150658453259,0.0,0.0,0.7705384165314221,0.0,0.0,0.0821347099192714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0961769573594683,0.0,0.0,0.04971413092164542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05587817902283596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10388169999617293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11091054704445047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08701112947245468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2507673936495098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07227736296847315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0922677448711227,0.0,0.0,0.1119392882872862,0.0,0.0,0.1332499203649598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09385866910287977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11084233087287196,0.0,0.0,0.10600683614126337,0.09408006816103738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10109052419673656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08133227663876215,0.0,0.0,0.10022603712622694,0.0,0.0756924297727943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11466371400832245,0.0,0.09319695992413428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1082868631220205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15773460212793464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09477808621976308,0.10662510007098082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,leavedeealone,2019/10/29,"Please help someone who loves an addict Please help me. My boyfriend has been an alcoholic for a long long time and has been to rehab and detox and seemingly has tried everything under the sun to help. This is the second time in a month that I found him unconscious and had to call paramedics and he ended up in hospital. I feel such pain in my chest as if my heart physically hurts over this. He is such a good man. I was celebrating his sobriety and he was lying to me every single time, he drank every day secretly. Please help me - how does he get better. I am in such desperate need of some good stories of recovery. Please",4.3582113821138195,5.6970880731707325,4.993658536585368,83.60235772357723,70.70731707317074,9.043902439024393,25.861788617886177,9.444778638647367,2.0637252032520332,495,15,100,11,9,159,77,123,0.08199999999999999,0.6729999999999999,0.245,0.9682,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,4,6,0,0,7,0,11,9,2,1,0,14,18,9,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,4,6,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,7,1,12,4,15,11,2,15,0,1,0,1,16,7,0,3,8,63,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14744438260586734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14454299904368612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11961919084267215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13810716929083375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08722619627634101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11835972685936134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11979291475148705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279108827791217,0.0,0.12155556104842702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06838735385410205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14829657407873648,0.0,0.0,0.07066346243146243,0.0,0.0,0.2268855190793298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1602739871338926,0.3626256157017032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14478980671438016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2393871034316736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12206999422655973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10795666467187234,0.0,0.0,0.10028746647269172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14391740888730192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5938632697483109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.123128122850564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1145983775697259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23659916724095384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09182706706582223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,throwawaypppft1,2019/10/18,"Help/advice/ 24/f In short I like having a drink, I enjoy having a drink in my house or out with my friends. However it goes further than that, I seem to end up drinking every day, each day I think to myself that I will stop and get better but the other part of me ignores that and has a drink or more. My grandmother was an alcoholic so I know how it affects a family (which was very bad in my family’s case) One half of me really wants to get better and not repeat the cycle of my family yet the other half of me doesn’t care and wants to drink every day because it helps me feel better and drowns out my anxiety and depression. I’d love some help if somebody can give me some",3.209580419580419,3.9637280349650372,4.9226643356643365,85.23938111888114,72.84615384615384,8.237482517482517,23.39090909090909,8.548686976883017,1.30602993006993,531,13,114,9,10,181,86,143,0.126,0.677,0.19699999999999998,0.8948,1,0,6,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,3,3,11,0,0,8,0,8,7,0,2,0,27,19,12,1,3,5,0,1,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,9,10,6,2,4,5,0,0,2,3,0,3,2,1,18,8,16,16,5,15,0,1,0,1,5,8,0,6,8,81,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11887198505769105,0.0,0.1300035871393114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09305957862596327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10157011641976132,0.07415484752071867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3227605073189854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1240271659898666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2353566443923314,0.0,0.10477433397250854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5958384645631767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10774308499618283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2049855925600237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3440337353937345,0.0,0.061508349590225525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0939841265987194,0.0,0.12711101411418188,0.11669483255753076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446121455642481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403642398823353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06685397866926011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05943055184880624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10979111569929062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08243111699564226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13173178513455508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07793014679566261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11074280839755657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10170229154877458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07794644934802307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1003714680819638,0.14350103778808568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,SycNasty,2019/10/18,I love to drink. So I’ve been a pretty heavy drinker for several years now. I drink almost every night and always at night. For a couple hours really heavily. I’ve never had withdrawal symptoms. I’ve never had any bad happen because of alcohol. I’ve been promoted from $10 an hour to a salary manager making 90k a year. I’ve bought a nice home. A nice new truck. Everything is wonderful in my life. I don’t drink when I have my daughter. I don’t drink around her. Never had any urges to drink or withdrawals. I drink the same amount every time I drink with no increase. I drink about a half a Fifth sometimes less with a couple beers. Usually 1 or 2. But i drink it so fast I blackout and then just wake up. I don’t drink during the day. I only drink at night and when I play video games. However that’s the problem I’m a huge gamer and play video games at night. I absolutely love drinking and playing video games. Usually I won’t even drink if I don’t play video games. I don’t get drunk and just sit alone in sadness or anything. But I feel guilty and like I have a huge problem. Which I know I do drinking until I blackout every night. But it has no negative side effects. Short term that is. No hangovers. No loss of motivation or anything. I’m perfectly fine the next day. I am in good health. I just feel so guilty. And I have a beer gut. But I don’t want to quit because I enjoy it. Not because I need it. But because I just want to drink and game.,0.14328493802003806,2.4764376059602675,2.0432450331125835,94.20571998641536,90.158940397351,5.216641195449142,19.995245372728817,6.788186056548923,0.34863548989641696,1135,37,248,16,39,374,145,302,0.113,0.682,0.205,0.9801,2,1,19,0,0,0,37.0,0,0,0,6,13,18,0,0,17,0,20,26,2,3,4,45,35,26,0,6,15,1,2,1,0,1,4,0,1,0,7,12,19,0,6,31,1,1,16,5,0,1,6,2,32,13,22,28,5,40,0,2,0,2,9,12,0,7,27,141,39,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060784799341880434,0.05695464659391033,0.05890798451255753,0.0,0.0,0.04732667481952905,0.0,0.0,0.07735736368632462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09361074851462313,0.050633074875067664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047490375316264745,0.13868809702748944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1258678461264542,0.0,0.07336262389865597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8357751268009821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03756708285280859,0.0,0.1437653573941625,0.0,0.05111787105638505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057517992694857516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029716170365337205,0.0,0.0,0.04770618723168755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05029662628057865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060458171916946114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05705281636942225,0.0,0.11202585183324257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03125841192568539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04017429296343535,0.02778749608682561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10266841222082773,0.0,0.03796620376264102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04217397982869936,0.13160241010103824,0.05493268856484112,0.06048991566571766,0.2668786206799369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04325793690002637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057864912351805874,0.0,0.10884826050257228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06049627159957479,0.0,0.0,0.036437212540770265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0642554376777241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05625334756579152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059117548545142326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03316575459747389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12528516312229368,0.0,0.06709570081287984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061681272640943335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07325454992300746 alcoholism,peanuts1369,2019/10/18,"Seizures and withdrawal I’m wondering if some people who have had seizures during alcohol withdrawal can share how much they were drinking, what, and for how long? I know everyone is different I’m just genuinely curious",5.754473684210527,9.091404184210523,5.815000000000001,70.2925,72.94736842105263,12.221052631578946,38.44736842105263,11.20814326018867,6.218136842105265,181,11,27,8,4,57,31,38,0.0,0.8220000000000001,0.17800000000000002,0.5719,1,0,2,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,2,0,9,9,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,1,7,2,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,1,18,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3931612820897789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38436553105032095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3603910012037298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35153354702684786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20218208239317864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3255700418686813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2704406232912198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25504779641422715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3989597480785608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,gott_modus,2019/10/18,"I can feel it getting worse At 27 years old I'm hitting a real rock end. So, far, things are OK: I'm in school doing decent academically. My professional track record is just fine. Life is OK at the moment. But I continue to have 3-4 beers a night. It's been this way pretty consistently for a while now. Getting on a real schedule is difficult: I just bang things out, go hard. Get loaded. Repeat. Entire cycle daily. Doesn't help that I'm only an undergrad, you know? I get good grades and I do good work as a programmer for my employers. I have a solid opportunity for success. But, damn, I'm fighting some real ingrained issues here. My problem is that 35% of me just *doesn't fucking care*. I know I should. I should probably think harder about what's at stake, but I'm losing myself. Advise?",0.7843731163351428,3.3023282088607617,3.1771971066907803,85.68440928270046,89.69620253164558,5.541169379144063,19.549125979505728,7.07126945348624,0.6838037371910786,619,19,120,10,21,212,108,158,0.10400000000000001,0.78,0.11599999999999999,0.1935,1,0,1,0,2,0,31.0,0,1,0,4,7,14,3,0,8,2,15,3,0,0,0,19,32,7,0,3,6,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,8,2,1,0,4,2,0,1,2,6,0,0,1,2,15,8,13,28,1,19,0,1,0,1,4,7,2,1,10,71,23,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16350217591538427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1420352444250108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08108505031702229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14825428775329286,0.33513508471487435,0.0,0.09113877430204652,0.2690120715885497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14365498814797067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10748886540537676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1673787515916887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1762641417109828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.113270106057863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17940672465033464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1504911098074877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16827544347855794,0.0,0.0,0.12196433935924934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16314822926898692,0.17289992770888785,0.15344705658618238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5475893273219204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1622973167648755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2130779403369682,0.1027550212210873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12728978266059282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11674718055537794,0.0,0.16342500631067233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10326940472296668 alcoholism,Full_Nefariousness,2019/10/18,"How do you go to your first AA meeting? How do you just START sobriety? I drive by the triangle unfolded real-estate-ish sign outside a church by my house. I see the fancy cars, I see the work trucks, I see the mini-vans and the compact cars. I don't see people going in or out. I don't see people smoking outside or drinking coffee as shown in film or television. I am intimidated. I have analysis paralysis. I wonder will a business associate see my car. Will someone inside tell others what I have said if I have the courage to go and speak. How do I find a buddy, a sponsor, a fellow human to help me take the step to get myself in the door? When I am too afraid to tell anyone the truth? Well, I just did, didn't I, in my own way? TYIA",1.1364502164502142,3.080402948051951,3.5088051948051984,88.19225541125543,81.20779220779221,6.184588744588745,21.954978354978362,7.3011,0.7934697835497837,570,18,121,8,15,197,90,154,0.021,0.898,0.081,0.8105,0,0,1,0,0,0,23.0,0,3,0,2,8,4,0,1,14,0,14,1,0,3,1,16,28,11,0,1,6,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,1,1,2,3,1,0,2,2,0,8,3,1,2,1,3,8,23,3,13,23,1,17,1,0,6,0,11,5,0,5,3,82,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1067105573161726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14950263862542568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13948551625063293,0.12981253897047182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07973399309809491,0.0,0.26020045286577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1022932762727122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17609491061009136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.211605275448996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1737070040773665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451699100556222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7296768078954858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12930849878832207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10802026617323043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11474598231131007,0.0,0.2667809755984454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12113709504037792,0.0,0.0,0.1372174141678856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16550228735972847,0.11110408086988807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,death_2_bugz,2019/10/18,"For me, the hardest part of getting sober is trying to sleep. Does anyone have any suggestions for me? I’m not getting much exercise at this point and I think I’m a little too depressed for that at the moment anyway. I’m at a stage where I’m completely exhausted but I can’t sleep a wink. I was drinking every night and most of the reason was so I could I could bypass all the anxiety and crash out at least semi-happily. Now I’m just fucking sad as shit and exhausted on top of it all. This is why I keep going back to drinking.",1.8143243243243248,3.6228452522522563,3.834495495495496,87.34147297297298,78.45945945945947,6.962522522522522,23.71261261261261,7.908726449838941,1.2740731531531535,417,14,87,7,10,142,71,111,0.20600000000000002,0.775,0.02,-0.9678,0,0,2,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,7,6,2,0,7,0,8,9,3,1,2,16,19,7,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,5,2,1,2,3,0,1,2,6,0,0,2,0,8,0,15,15,6,16,0,2,0,1,1,10,2,1,4,61,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13042185634225098,0.0,0.14671666469513855,0.0,0.0,0.1341020527329012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14747250002785076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2010852051319013,0.0,0.0,0.3062529083423337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16518601365998695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16783425014825584,0.0,0.0,0.3757568366783561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16158896749276985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1773041537942843,0.20040176747207367,0.0,0.10899707185780004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17046925411692251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19222113465059595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14098564167503416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17997927265605634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20768682208374328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1813008724133048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1971891590366852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19686678010785388,0.0,0.0,0.3838513648089641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12288947835381547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13021090326288573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17305809575271305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,liquidgang,2019/10/18,"Looking for support anywhere! Would this be weird? So I’m looking into going to a local AA meeting for the first time. I’m doing better with my drinking than I have in the past, but I’m still struggling. I have some personal problems with AA (not the recovery bit, more with the organization itself) so I’m very nervous about attending a meeting. I’m also nervous going because I’m young (under 25), female, queer, and honestly fairly successful aside from my drinking. I worry I won’t fit in, that I’ll be too different from anyone else there. Anyway, I was looking at my town’s AA group’s Facebook and noticed a girl I went to high school with likes the page. I don’t really know her, but I know we’ve had some similar struggles with addiction and mental illness. Would it be weird/inappropriate for me to ask her about her experience with AA and what meeting she recommends? And if I did, what is an appropriate way to go about it??",4.246428571428574,5.8626447417582455,5.6887912087912085,77.4312087912088,71.36263736263736,8.276923076923078,30.582417582417587,8.841846274778883,2.6599186813186817,741,32,134,14,14,250,111,182,0.14300000000000002,0.74,0.11599999999999999,-0.7329,1,0,2,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,3,10,11,0,4,9,0,14,5,0,0,0,23,31,11,0,4,4,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,2,7,12,2,0,2,2,0,5,3,6,4,1,4,3,17,5,24,21,5,20,0,0,3,1,11,9,1,3,6,91,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1645249716924442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12069059249602893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10552670575843608,0.15463527627201842,0.0,0.0,0.1410897373086184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09199937253277196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13347639048325846,0.1647654469730878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15767917774552048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2956880997180225,0.0,0.0,0.12607421395675472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14762862511799374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12837239302485007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2573137777401196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15945516438033938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16588326439948006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07373184170918723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38020412698088746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1520917662310037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17182331069981527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14407012506409636,0.0,0.13177743869481462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14440996570218256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09668315486165112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1527389998152784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12052483007896007,0.0,0.0,0.3155485032291315,0.0,0.0,0.17126211828381188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08800260953724699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12452472619748604,0.0,0.11979319484652624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13990426276996565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1532664880757141,0.0,0.21441833902843485,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,weeblecast33,2019/10/18,"Damage control When I drink socially, I binge. And I'm a different person. Not even my wife recognizes that person. I'm so angry and I'm rampant. But I hardly ever drink, except on rare ""celebratory"" occasions. Am I am alcoholic?",0.973779069767442,3.3079155348837226,4.617877906976748,71.52821220930234,102.95348837209299,7.73139534883721,23.9796511627907,8.07648339933343,3.0074209302325587,180,8,28,6,8,66,31,43,0.184,0.816,0.0,-0.8147,1,0,3,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,1,1,7,5,5,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,2,3,1,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,5,0,2,5,0,3,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,19,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2911214707368091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3055289067036875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2846085405590683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.533712565759631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17992301578374947,0.2464087698711723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2440241984971437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4757125835102063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27768580661482045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,tryingmybest222,2019/06/07,"How do you deal with people liking you more when you’re drunk? I’m not a mean drunk. I’m not a violent drunk. I’m a really calm drunk. I love talking to people and I love cracking jokes. I get along with everybody. People really like being with me when I’m drunk. I have a ton of friends that I made when I’m not drunk. Roommates, college classes, clubs, etc but I guess I like myself when I’m drunk more. It’s probably a deep rooted issue but for those of you that are sober that were in the same spot, how did you justify getting sober? I guess not being comfortable sober is enough to justify getting sober but fuck I haven’t any really bad experiences while drunk. All I know is that it’s fucked up my sober personality too much for my liking. I don’t want to be that boring sober guy at the party but I guess that’s where I’m headed.",1.8021785714285696,3.669511314285717,3.509910714285713,89.3791517857143,78.71428571428571,6.889285714285713,20.080357142857142,7.865858978985527,0.6651214285714282,660,16,144,11,16,220,88,175,0.215,0.632,0.152,-0.9434,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,4,0,0,8,15,3,0,7,0,12,13,1,4,1,25,33,12,0,1,8,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,2,9,5,8,0,2,10,0,0,6,5,0,0,3,0,20,10,14,27,8,10,0,0,0,4,11,5,2,3,9,88,29,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09924848041294372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12185905412939715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15046421423799408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1508015291954725,0.16276869005174524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1427634743617451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11275773991600173,0.26984998264105936,0.22875273498803955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4823288704128033,0.14450977056101827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14978299678405305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15233000642335953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08020826294768242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2852079367420948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2634444457193466,0.13809790634646882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15897829303054434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10728731432538224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3035423388196762,0.1274346690929832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15735478277877846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2804907873917793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11730609778354152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08608290188018716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Seemoree,2019/06/07,"Working nights Hey everyone. So I've started a job working the night shift and its messing with my drinking over my days off. I sleep all day and when I wake up nothing is open. I'm not into video games, and TV gets very boring after a couple hours. I've ended up waking up and drinking until I fall asleep because I dont know what else to do with myself. Does anyone who works or has worked night shift before have any advice? Thanks",2.4818181818181806,4.494315363636368,3.315909090909092,90.88136363636366,77.18181818181819,4.854545454545455,21.227272727272727,5.148860815047168,-0.016254545454545518,344,9,68,1,8,109,68,88,0.032,0.9329999999999999,0.036000000000000004,0.079,1,0,2,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,4,2,3,0,0,3,0,5,6,4,0,1,12,10,8,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,8,2,0,1,5,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,7,1,11,10,1,19,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,1,11,38,10,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16032345031815518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11157054360485212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11471880052583908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10001314444752016,0.0,0.13960812894436894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18153596949921585,0.0,0.2116180655235628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14357531053242215,0.0,0.1922841948012338,0.3214445470046762,0.0,0.0,0.13705613662824573,0.0,0.14531382752737734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15677214664568415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08571774226843723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16157201578782665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16281024398435326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09016641324320727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4618946360143994,0.0,0.1574258048561529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16418454174895306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11612679831817163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15104998066401096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13537167793226712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4777681688290722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,MrMarkusHarber,2019/06/07,"Does it get easier or harder overtime? 2 months sober today. Stopped because I got badly sick, vomiting, weakness and diarrhea for a week and now I'm still at the stage where the smell of alcohol or the idea of having a drink makes me feel like vomiting. Does it get easier or harder from here onward? Will that repulsion feeling disappear or stay with me?",4.11810945273632,6.473136358208954,5.144104477611943,78.07098258706469,73.47761194029852,9.242786069651741,27.58457711442786,9.725611199111238,3.0404248756218912,284,11,49,8,6,93,51,67,0.17800000000000002,0.696,0.126,-0.6046,0,0,2,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,5,0,2,6,0,1,0,12,9,6,0,0,4,0,2,1,0,1,5,0,0,0,3,3,2,1,3,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,3,3,1,6,7,0,11,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,4,7,29,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662706771465844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2080338263894655,0.15188243568913615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4360740378467135,0.0,0.0,0.2440768211406425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519602767269447,0.17799621802006202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2603461684845901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19927183090455688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28126540897402386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12172443570360275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1663127442060728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1988729609517664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2655658345414654,0.19897532178157964,0.20830454477407886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23616958978529454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19985692832591084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,thedeathcruise,2019/06/07,"my dry skin is killing me the skin around my lips and nose has gotten so dry and crusty and tender, and i guess it could be being caused by a lot of things, but i recently went on a pretty bad bender that is honestly essentially still happening and i’m worried that the aforementioned bender is the primary reason for the dryness. have any of ya’ll ever experienced something like this, and if so, what is the quickest, easiest remedy ... besides not drinking, because duh.",13.425862068965525,8.590714804597702,12.267126436781616,58.76551724137933,56.12643678160919,15.737931034482761,47.39080459770115,13.023866798666859,5.992880459770117,376,16,63,9,3,122,65,87,0.10099999999999999,0.7490000000000001,0.15,0.7184,0,0,2,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,5,5,1,0,7,1,9,6,4,2,1,16,14,10,1,2,3,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,7,1,0,1,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,4,5,3,6,9,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,4,47,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16688331697296685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21846182654194185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20490231257636374,0.14959616353050345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25209778214011824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1959353386393631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24040275548446904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22198220934991836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2703404674523536,0.0,0.21701018303281466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2715034619995723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1198921291099422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2086339322413864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2496643641780799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25231645871376296,0.242307108077424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18892419426516535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19598016479466315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.163035690711957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2274922143028197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24921994555727064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,xxxtenplates,2019/01/09,"Just looking for advice.. Hi, I use to have a really good career job. I was a firefighter for 7 years. I suffered from depression and PTSD. In result of that I struggled with substance abuse. I have now lost my job, fiancee, license, had a heart attack from a overdose, lost a lot of other things. Since then I have went to rehab and I am almost 2 years clean. However, I am still struggling big time. But since I got a criminal record I can't even get a second job at Walmart that I applied here the other day. Most of my friends have vanished, I do not have any support and I am barely living. Is there anyway that I can some how start elevate my self that would not cost any money. I love to read and learn things. I am just having such a hard time. Literally struggling everyday but trying my hardest and trying to keep my head up high. It seems like when you make a simple mistake the world wont let you forget. the consequences that i take full responsibility for keep dragging on. I am at the point where I am trying so hard and nothing changes. No one wants to give me a chance, nobody wants to even talk to me. I was assistant captain in a fire hall who was once respected, now I am struggling every single day just trying to keep my head from going under water. My dream is to go to university and be able to work in mental health and addictions. But I exhausted all resources. Its sad but I have accepted the fact that my life isn't going to get better. But I am slighty optimistic sometimes and can't give up. Do anyone got any advice? I am not looking for any pity or handouts. I just want to not have to live everyday struggling. thanks and I love you all.",2.285391566265062,4.477185295180725,3.6682981927710863,87.2417243975904,78.57831325301207,6.318674698795181,23.62801204819277,7.413659706084162,1.076718072289157,1306,44,259,18,32,428,178,332,0.14,0.728,0.132,0.3697,4,0,0,0,2,0,37.0,0,3,0,4,17,24,1,5,16,0,33,11,3,4,3,48,62,20,0,5,14,0,3,1,2,2,5,0,1,1,13,11,1,3,3,2,2,4,9,14,0,2,9,5,40,10,34,49,7,34,0,6,2,2,14,16,0,6,15,184,53,7,0.08379100976931138,0.09927864496932086,0.0,0.0913445686661148,0.0,0.16375920997173418,0.0,0.0,0.08390459269768104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279230398371549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05858862226871935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09532437007551477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0741063389367724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08863977804452534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10807653888783926,0.0,0.07216907393413853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11068634340159224,0.0,0.07059753960726299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06473672629518334,0.0,0.08755468851614676,0.16075994338052513,0.14286108544943266,0.07027992355696644,0.13403064993386635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1501205730433999,0.0,0.17198749946043432,0.08906592514051567,0.0,0.09929275001461646,0.0,0.08852980226694332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2494489440933999,0.22343189834191798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08568198450372044,0.059184068194617995,0.040936054925899516,0.0,0.14797799349752871,0.0,0.14072668980231512,0.0,0.1829355705387708,0.07123612011100358,0.15124931547248385,0.0,0.05593114966886939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08444162999164109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08039973372968462,0.0,0.0,0.08923469076159017,0.05677895674806261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07920958787983044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09794720646487907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08381368480654844,0.0,0.05367866644964928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07628018832374016,0.08741229732959936,0.0,0.0,0.1386255783071554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08287145119242098,0.0,0.05930770798467905,0.0,0.06691560863903184,0.0,0.0,0.4379827819479102,0.0,0.0,0.0950850449178249,0.0,0.0,0.06300041142669226,0.06734803970553384,0.0,0.07714350411838365,0.0,0.0,0.11133404735429267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09771842325187304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2275543817881101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07236852941149498,0.0,0.0,0.1482663255364334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07767510552235635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061000853058168575,0.0,0.0,0.05952272925860237,0.0,0.0,0.10791732619053887 alcoholism,bagelpizzaman,2019/01/09,"How do I get that confident, in control,I don't care what you think attitude without alcohol? Title says it all really. Alcohol is the only thing that relaxes me, settles my mind, stops me worrying about perfomance. It levels me. With it I'm confident and without fear. What exists that does the same?",3.3382738095238125,6.123494375,5.3285714285714265,73.48309523809526,78.46428571428572,10.161904761904765,30.76190476190476,10.125756701596842,4.297319047619048,239,12,39,9,6,82,42,56,0.10400000000000001,0.708,0.187,0.7399,0,0,2,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,1,2,0,3,2,0,1,1,10,7,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,9,2,2,1,1,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,6,2,5,7,2,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,29,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5022438253542122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23957753653305225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2635497932714794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2056323806030854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2644175699973948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12276723161674853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2372625829304245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17871270400518738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15053405793767316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1868653448424733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19645360977620355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1561101182588734,0.1505655488235815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4530242268416512,0.0,0.0,0.2386333630600687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,throwawayeet937474,2019/01/09,Alcoholism and seizures One of my niggas who's been an alcoholic for many many years hit me saying that if he doesn't have any he will get seizures. He wants me to run to the liquor store for him to pick up some so he doesn't have a seizure. I believe him cause hes had multiple seizures when hes dry. Should I help him out?,4.5451428571428565,4.011949371428571,4.552142857142859,93.59535714285715,69.57142857142857,8.714285714285714,28.92857142857143,8.07648339933343,1.3728571428571423,256,8,64,3,4,79,51,70,0.037000000000000005,0.922,0.040999999999999995,0.0772,0,0,2,0,1,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,10,3,0,2,0,8,13,4,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,1,1,1,2,0,0,1,2,1,10,0,8,8,1,5,0,0,0,0,12,2,0,2,2,37,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5703573413572319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18146535303332487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3006455913388684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2741257416544835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13941673007394986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17886215818825513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5410826723666851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1808226748557336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2122077283896698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15739348466421432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17184094867785496 alcoholism,nickslumlord,2019/01/09,"How do I know when I have a problem...? I'm sure this is asked a lot here but maybe someone can point me in the right direction. &#x200B; I usually have a beer or two every other day with a whiskey on the rocks or two on the weekends. &#x200B; That being said during times of high stress I'll have a few more whiskeys on the rocks. I'm able to cut back when that stress goes away, but I've noticed I've been drinking more and more. &#x200B; I don't usually get drunk. &#x200B; That being said I drank almost everyday through the holidays and I haven't slowed down since. I had a pretty messed up childhood and sometimes a drink or two takes whatever is on my mind off of it. 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Hey guys , first post on reddit. I feel like I needed to post this. I’m a 20 year old male that works full time , but not at a “career” type job (40 hours / week) . For me it’s just money for now until I find what’s next. I’ve been having trouble with alcohol, I think? I’ve been drinking consistently for the past 2 or 3 months for the most part by myself in order to get to sleep (or that’s just what I tell myself). Once I start drinking it’s hard to stop. I get a feeling of euphoria , and I don’t care what happens to me anymore and I don’t care what happens in the future. On my way home from work 4/5 p.m , I get severe anxiety knowing that if I don’t stop to get more drinks, I won’t be able to fall asleep that night. It’s almost as if I have no control over it and I stop to buy more drinks almost every time whether or not I want to. I don’t want it to get any worse than it is. Backstory: I dropped out of college because I felt like it was a waist of time. I landed a job with a small company with the skills that I have acquired since I was 14 in the programming field (boosted my spirit). After the company went under after a few months, and I wasn’t getting payed anymore, i felt worthless. I lost my girlfriend of 3 years because of my self esteem due to me having almost no money to my name, and no hope. I’ve been severely depressed in the past and drinking is a way for me to not hear myself think. Any tips? 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I don't always get like this when I drink, there have been many occasions where I've been a happy/silly drunk. Any ideas on why this happens, why its inconsistent, or how I can control/fix it? I originally thought it was caused by a previous unhealthy relationship, but now that I am in a happy and healthy relationship, this drunken behavior hasn't changed. Any thoughts?",5.359230769230769,7.251840307692312,5.6887912087912085,77.4312087912088,69.0,8.716483516483517,32.78021978021978,9.23628265651192,3.0857428571428573,392,18,69,8,7,125,67,91,0.16,0.7440000000000001,0.096,-0.2059,0,0,2,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,8,2,0,0,4,0,8,4,0,3,0,12,12,7,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,3,4,0,3,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,1,7,2,6,7,1,10,0,0,1,0,2,5,0,2,6,45,14,0,0.0,0.2081158631777933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14615440449215664,0.0,0.0,0.2388952840184023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19399100564633576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18044035903998895,0.18581381650933096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19700578196522867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34413916017484186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09176958237812136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15532621909387034,0.1869820943374222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1982868368618643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08581344365275954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3561619243887763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291225483790437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16604549506756786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3771635257104745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27889206916453124,0.10242260059915696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3169925969159433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ehdubs83,2019/01/09,"Drinking to deal with PTSD, can't stop, and keep making things worse It's been about 4.5 years since I relapsed due to a series of shocking events in my life. I wasn't able to afford treatment for my PTSD at first, and now that I've found a good EMDR therapist, her efforts are all towards keeping me from drinking so we can commence treatment. Problem is, I can't go more than two days without a drink. My anxiety gets so unbearable, I cave in. I did a medical detox 1 month ago, but when I got out I received word that I have to move out of my house (due to lease terms, not due to my drinking.) I relapsed, and I made things worse. When I drink, I tend to rage against people. My doctor says the rage is a symptom of PTSD. In any case, the repercussions of lashing out at people make me so ashamed that I want to drink even more. Can anyone here relate? 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Graduated a month ago and all I do is drink nowadays to kill time and feel better. Can afford it because I worked the entire time I was studying and now reality is hitting me in the face (can't find job). How do I focus on finding a job/hobbies and become productive with all said free-time? This post is skewed towards graduates, but even ppl in their mid twenties can comment regardless of education... tl;dr would be how to make effective use of free time without alcohol especially if live very close to a liquor store.",7.761944444444445,7.762597231481488,8.146666666666668,68.715,62.79629629629629,11.274074074074075,37.444444444444436,10.864195022040775,4.265711111111111,463,21,78,11,6,153,81,108,0.026000000000000002,0.872,0.10099999999999999,0.8426,3,0,2,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,3,4,3,1,0,5,0,11,4,1,5,3,22,16,8,1,3,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,6,3,0,4,2,2,0,2,1,0,0,2,2,6,3,12,11,3,15,0,0,0,0,4,6,0,1,8,49,8,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17867857764013495,0.16208519661592666,0.19541068509030166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12434404323441725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1114634593987192,0.20194309060800006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16171567068045525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1791230613331836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12077048006397754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09245428527537326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33424256470887104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3629001591799365,0.0,0.20229606427727875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16145960526277184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1220535720749515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14594885911574726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17511943595439444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3610839725539065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1739319047590617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31986333249095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15792340355557544,0.0,0.15087012422509513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1762605532625466,0.0,0.13311673476135802,0.0,0.0,0.12989115669306972,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Althaaz64,2019/01/09,"Trying to get home I am 22 years old. I joined the Air Force in May of last year. In Tech School, I started drinking a lot, had a couple of humiliating experiences (I was basically the “class drunk”, and I’d drink in class, after work, etc), then made it to my first duty station: Hawaii! I learned from Tech School not to drink socially, cuz I always overdid it, so drinking alone every day became the norm, at work, in my room, everywhere. I started neglecting my PT, and went down a bitter and dark road because I was simply incompetant at life in general; no friends, and too self righteous to make any. I enrolled myself in ADAPT after planning to drink until I died, and they put me in an outpatient program, where everyone else cared WAY more about getting sober, until the last week where I started getting serious. Eventually, I let them push me up to an inpatient program, but even there I just wanted to drink again. They caught me drinking when I came back, and called me a treatment failure, so now I’m getting administratively separated and going back home. The only trouble is my Commander gave me a direct order not to drink anymore, for my safety. I, being the idiot I am, violated it and they got me (turns out they can test back up to 3 weeks). I was lucky and got off with an LoR, but now if I drink again, it could effect my discharge and delay my return home. But all I want to do is get drunk still, and even now I have booze lying in wait for when I can get away with it again, and for when I get back home. My parents know about this all, and they will not let me drink. But I KNOW I can get away with it; I know them too well, and am already planning backup plan after backup plan to make sure I can keep alcohol in secret. Even worse is I’m so starved for a high of ANY sort, I’m experimenting now, and thinking about getting drugs that won’t show up on a drug test. Every bone in my body wants to drink or use NOW, and I’m not sure how much longer I can “white-knuckle it”. I am probably 3 weeks sober or so, occasionally suicidal, and DYING to drink. Please help...",5.267373493975904,5.3836694240963885,6.0107469879518085,81.53491566265062,68.01204819277109,8.760481927710844,29.3710843373494,8.488131031819089,1.95095373493976,1621,53,334,22,25,532,208,415,0.136,0.807,0.057,-0.9884,1,1,15,0,0,0,62.0,0,0,7,8,35,12,3,0,16,0,25,21,2,7,4,65,63,36,3,5,12,1,0,0,1,3,4,0,5,1,9,22,16,5,7,15,0,6,6,6,1,1,11,1,52,6,53,45,6,72,0,1,0,0,15,27,0,7,37,224,61,12,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06291211642677567,0.0,0.060969617737428025,0.06496243332399262,0.0,0.04898299095456477,0.0,0.0,0.08006467938357313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05838135585542776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11061707151166772,0.18106379963860067,0.0,0.03588545903609565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06538920950156507,0.0,0.0,0.06011093149638703,0.06732944565493129,0.06001997082185165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04700140299408606,0.06513645414338882,0.0,0.03796506680993526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1221916271882892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6920201452099416,0.13653665763245518,0.0,0.04917675975280658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06565351393016174,0.11664551248860502,0.0,0.09919785868007178,0.05625101057997955,0.0,0.1151686328586586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050073192071150616,0.0,0.0,0.04548136282202265,0.0,0.2768054630468316,0.0,0.0334561087259112,0.0,0.094164425169075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03945805937557323,0.062197399959725126,0.2361980932581956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05232468912193635,0.0,0.0,0.09705713624178572,0.09597074825122506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12039328052381228,0.04158029348856693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05004756975242351,0.0,0.05570243770568975,0.07858985329420251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0432748410234908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06177218835817875,0.0,0.0,0.04477185730810679,0.0,0.0,0.06536607973727633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06461951705578546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06346978905992208,0.0,0.0,0.059178719223396674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11915535878536382,0.0,0.0,0.06141228692699328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060008634030323464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12500147316815066,0.0,0.04701215599150125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.064392167661242,0.0,0.11096501123541908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03772031375704834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039967588693993535,0.06403160922279068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050843153978042815,0.0,0.0,0.10416582567463532,0.046726772891159805,0.141661362921487,0.0,0.052929508887412414,0.054571336220998176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08571338370559158,0.0,0.059991642651922326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07581827732335696 alcoholism,Whisky-Icarus-Photo,2019/09/26,"Day 5 boi and gals! I’m tired as hell, the meds I’m on make me shit like a monster, but I’m the happiest I’ve been in years! This is my longest stint of sobriety. I’m going to keep this on!",-3.545499999999997,-2.245241688888888,0.2393055555555552,103.36562500000002,110.33333333333334,4.02777777777778,14.513888888888893,5.985473137389443,-0.8282777777777777,144,4,40,2,8,52,35,45,0.145,0.6809999999999999,0.174,0.5229,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,3,0,2,2,1,1,0,4,9,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,6,8,0,6,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,3,17,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25824798518556696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22757691205629055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3559257674653953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19563272130745066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26729402809776986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4447939388911327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4110416283646616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4602420837753706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2578675477778105 alcoholism,jessieraquel96,2019/09/26,"Anyone willing to talk to me? I’m not sure if this is allowed. I’ve had a very rough last few days and really need someone to speak with who understands and who isn’t my friends or family. I’m going to a rehab place tomorrow for assessment, but I could use some comfort if anyone can give that. I’d prefer to talk on the phone as typing right now just sucks for me.",3.8866233766233766,4.270114025974031,5.280935064935068,84.62997402597405,71.07792207792208,8.757402597402598,25.78961038961039,8.841846274778883,1.6709189610389608,288,8,62,5,5,97,59,77,0.063,0.866,0.071,0.1454,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,3,0,6,1,0,2,1,17,14,7,0,5,6,0,1,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,4,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,2,4,3,10,11,2,8,0,0,0,0,8,3,1,4,4,38,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3508832252263571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20033065494557026,0.0,0.0,0.1618157377141195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23653495245488484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19385189848693096,0.0,0.0,0.2406950583419061,0.14259753424456945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2045245633965804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1860460625767342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2621468093822557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16073891892623346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21427516651772333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21259463095854586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2364790406323733,0.0,0.0,0.4033427732122538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26120542431704785,0.0,0.21670507021250776,0.0,0.20702644527075065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ejd0626,2019/09/26,Celebrate Recovery A friend has invited me to a Celebrate Recovery meeting. I don’t know much about it - just that it’s Jesusy and 12 Step based. She claims it’s more positive and less gossipy than AA. Does anyone have any thoughts on that??,3.979130434782608,6.168375826086957,4.799347826086958,81.1364130434783,73.34782608695652,9.817391304347826,31.06521739130435,10.125756701596842,3.5501913043478264,192,9,36,6,4,62,38,46,0.039,0.675,0.28600000000000003,0.9306,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,5,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,3,1,4,4,3,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,23,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3494594317734248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3593203506068166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.449704239257388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3970262875073962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28241776475174124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37776461407418394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4079673000528728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,lalpal,2019/09/26,Advice Needed How do you convince somebody to seek help for drugs and alcoholism? I have a friend at work who has a major problem but refuses to talk to our employee assistance guy.,7.295294117647058,7.707539705882354,7.698823529411764,70.14470588235297,63.70588235294118,11.505882352941176,37.588235294117645,11.20814326018867,4.6059294117647065,146,7,24,4,2,48,31,34,0.054000000000000006,0.787,0.159,0.3818,1,0,2,0,0,0,2.0,1,1,0,1,1,3,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,1,0,6,4,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,5,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,8,1,0,0,0,17,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3431395386531452,0.0,0.37527236457427227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4072223068543281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27129747876383103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3476935280819712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2353683214682197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2603731410678381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33600295255439605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28224092284934044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25564125009446764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,DudleyTheDino,2019/09/26,My first meeting Tonight I attended my first meeting. I didn’t talk but for the first time in a very long time I have hope. Thank you strangers who take the time to share their stories not only in AA but here and everywhere so you can help people like me who are hanging on by a thread.,3.9866949152542372,4.71609779661017,3.9625000000000017,92.92476694915257,71.03389830508475,7.255932203389831,28.309322033898304,7.1686216300943375,1.179166101694915,226,8,51,2,4,69,45,59,0.0,0.737,0.263,0.9524,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,1,3,2,4,0,0,4,0,4,0,0,0,0,5,7,4,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,3,1,0,9,4,6,6,0,13,0,0,0,0,10,3,0,1,9,34,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6414011756150032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16847634848215576,0.0,0.0,0.24964984459330564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12279818331183134,0.0,0.0,0.22243914005824086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19116497753317024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17425624354900904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18898587284729065,0.20202769759868144,0.0,0.23141170240254005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4396971645099099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20739221752749387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,CushedNuts69420,2019/09/26,"3 years I am a junior in college. I haven't been sober in 3 years. The doctor said if I don't stop I won't live more than 10 years. I still love school and I am near the top of my class, president of multiple clubs, and I'm not gonna stop. If I die I die. What's the point of fucking living anyway. I have no one and nothing to live for. Stay drunk kids!",-0.6674999999999969,0.8764988395061764,1.7612191358024702,100.46923611111113,85.2962962962963,5.037654320987656,16.297839506172842,5.985473137389443,-0.8103716049382714,270,5,72,2,8,92,54,81,0.16399999999999998,0.71,0.126,-0.6015,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,0,4,0,7,4,0,0,0,8,12,5,2,2,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,1,3,1,2,0,2,0,0,5,1,0,1,2,1,10,1,9,8,1,12,0,0,0,2,3,5,1,2,6,42,11,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.402856416435352,0.0,0.0,0.19865286088318207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1794272260423925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.514138310738959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1751680902443227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1862285164013593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13151611811998629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1834718020984891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1846180154491196,0.0,0.0,0.19642303627470165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20686736920009915,0.1549954700451937,0.32452527821766675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3749505617400838 alcoholism,Abe-Lincoln-BBC,2019/09/26,have yall tried mixing pills w alcohol? i tried it its heavenly lmao.,0.5735714285714302,3.07185635714286,3.1542857142857166,84.91571428571432,92.57142857142857,8.514285714285714,21.285714285714285,8.841846274778883,2.3432571428571443,55,2,11,2,2,19,13,14,0.0,0.5329999999999999,0.467,0.836,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6184650644565527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7858122956831054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,crazed404,2019/09/26,"2 months sober 1 in rehab, 1 in real life. Inpatient treatment was the only way this was ever going to work for me.",2.036249999999999,3.5380367916666664,4.823333333333334,81.855,76.91666666666666,6.466666666666668,20.333333333333336,7.1686216300943375,0.7022333333333335,89,2,17,1,2,32,21,24,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,4,1,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,10,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3924985344964823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2466023704084912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3064851032307879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34634467327130336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33000987144745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4938872145330299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3444194018766718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3158933361123536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,tryingtolivealifeany,2019/09/26,"I messed up. So I posted the other night about going sober. How my husband buys me beer. He bought me one last night. I drank some of it and then gave the rest to him and then told him not to buy me alcohol anymore. He agreed. I was satisfied with not drinking. I was happy. He didn’t buy me any tonight. I was fine. I was fine until a friend of mine called me to tell me she was out of the hospital. She asked to come see me. I said yes. But we are newish friends and she talks a lot. I can only get a word in if I’ve had a drink in me. So I asked my husband for a sip of his drink, he gave me the last of his. It’s not much, but I can feel the burn in my stomach. I realize how easily I can slip and I’m mad. I’m not drunk and I don’t plan on getting drunk, but god I wish I was. I guess tomorrow will be day one? I really do want to quit and I’m so ashamed. I know I haven’t gotten drunk or black out drunk but.. I still feel like shit. Is this going to get easier?",-2.3501897533206844,-0.5821350045248845,0.5921325353962921,103.51486936213692,98.14027149321268,4.299576704130784,13.463873887023787,6.0311780096671335,-1.105423996496862,728,14,199,8,31,251,117,221,0.08199999999999999,0.736,0.183,0.9388,0,0,5,0,0,0,28.0,1,0,0,2,7,10,2,1,10,1,18,12,2,2,0,33,43,20,0,3,10,2,2,1,2,1,1,1,0,0,4,11,10,0,4,8,4,3,7,4,0,2,15,5,42,6,22,26,4,22,0,0,2,0,25,7,1,5,12,126,46,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15585140527277494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09917161830954772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14462740833697132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2726688259670122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14891206460795853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12562244138441686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09405038885458536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4285832294068905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1474753571126197,0.10418331079089964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253408313733456,0.0,0.22857557946590346,0.0,0.16576080590011213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16065177836890934,0.0,0.0,0.15524221808348693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0801461463714462,0.2377471436276033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07124676499770333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12398222344786232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10720422661852318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2737092728482226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19764078368404656,0.11091276648214683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13966795199277793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551116240349428,0.0,0.0,0.09342452126495986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13872082668326716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1162102279139505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14969574672708405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1164626306079891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11721525111889428,0.1274646979673857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1393499304240917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0860162357420517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16770105304886507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,NoHacksReq,2019/05/29,"Just found out my friend is a full-blown alcoholic, what do I do? I just got a call from a friend about another friend, basically one of my good friends has been hiding his drinking for years, has experienced health problems from it and is now in an induced coma in the hospital before going to rehab. He's got a wife, kids, a good job, and a lot to live for. Right now I'm thinking that when he gets out I will not drink around him, try to support him as best as I can with non-drinking activities since I am an outdoorsy guy. But Ill also tell him that if he starts drinking again, Ill never speak to him again. Other than that I really don't know how to handle this situation, any advice is appreciated.",8.745798122065729,5.847322218309857,8.930140845070426,73.19079812206573,62.73239436619718,12.0018779342723,35.63849765258215,10.125756701596842,3.212982159624413,553,17,115,9,6,184,97,142,0.069,0.741,0.19,0.9595,1,0,5,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,1,11,9,0,0,9,0,12,9,0,2,1,19,22,9,0,2,5,1,0,0,4,1,6,1,0,2,7,6,4,0,4,3,0,1,3,1,0,1,4,2,13,8,20,17,2,15,0,0,0,0,18,6,0,2,8,79,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13318781791166134,0.0,0.1456600062947559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10899663461335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09268661082617292,0.14291925299367955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1213331965372421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11597867947534272,0.0,0.14303525715388155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13917444138663385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5340765522472934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14944258841115454,0.4212107918932033,0.0,0.07120953938049394,0.0,0.07746070684629203,0.22863885733611905,0.218018269641807,0.0,0.0,0.13495542509910122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14487730151844527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13525370796916816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.074905248140259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12035271821526088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11587480662266544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10512062276132683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09235835167842284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13041778932923126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08731532661974509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11639686440582245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11274625888009004,0.15320350060807228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09647169418055747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15466818203169538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1191295559754049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0873335924994158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09253669327003568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08777077754991469 alcoholism,catbasket14,2019/05/29,"Best friend is slipping and I need to say something. My best friend has always been a high functioning alcoholic and weed smoker. More so weed than booze. However in the last year or so, I’ve started to see it spiral to the point that she’s putting alcohol above everything else in her life. She’s spending time with people who are serious alcoholics, and claiming their behaviour as acceptable. She has a 16 year old daughter that basically takes care of herself because her mother is constantly out getting wasted all the time. I now see that I need to have a serious conversation with her about my concerns. When I’ve touched on it in the past, it doesn’t go far. She’s very intelligent and says that the reason she abuses drugs and alcohol is because she’s so smart and informed and that normal people don’t because they’re ignorant and stupid. She has also scoffed at the idea of counselling because she’s “way smarter than any therapist”. She also owns and runs a successful multimillion dollar business that I know she would have a hard time stepping away from. I’m not sure how to go about this. She lives 3 hours away, so do I make an impromptu trip there? I’m assuming this isn’t a phone call kind of conversation? And how do I get around all of her road blocks about being too smart for sobriety?",6.1645,7.0009842800000035,6.174150000000001,78.62682500000003,66.2,9.93,33.225,9.978442167317967,3.23674,1050,44,196,23,16,332,147,250,0.077,0.778,0.145,0.9711,1,0,7,0,1,0,19.0,0,0,1,3,16,15,1,0,13,0,17,7,0,4,3,34,32,21,0,4,2,2,2,0,2,1,6,2,0,0,12,14,5,2,6,0,2,6,4,4,0,0,1,6,25,11,28,29,6,33,0,0,2,0,29,13,0,2,13,125,37,1,0.0,0.1305020069533237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4708395115617044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1761633941555957,0.09164819452037576,0.0,0.0,0.0749013399075972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0980510444270661,0.0,0.0,0.20696684072598234,0.0,0.0,0.26856975991880144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23117756317459745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1124688026440016,0.0,0.11229861333071008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11902596717248468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1277314626363692,0.0,0.09201073997068764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0989898531411272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17019315095849907,0.0,0.11509083925411312,0.0,0.12519415007757542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09866691912042486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11637262852033507,0.0,0.0,0.10846913605566907,0.0,0.0,0.1243385764438005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11469747976597837,0.060531973300205676,0.08978163269115995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07779759364611379,0.0,0.0,0.0972587062520898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07352162476884895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.163339982019785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10791721972063674,0.0,0.0,0.11557704877292872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10514440977886264,0.15271923426725142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10412118529073283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11072461409886868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11324583655933787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17518102413979572,0.0,0.0,0.17554017833112529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08479382809556885,0.0,0.0,0.07796011843427181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10380892159170656,0.0,0.08281418559458699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1278850636577884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19267663788055128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0908799019441683,0.0,0.08742676361291801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07824276439296035,0.0,0.0,0.141857573270202 alcoholism,ricosalsa,2019/05/29,My uncle is an alcoholic. His wife (my aunt) died today. He wants me to come to his place for support (he is 3 away hours). What is the best way to give him support that does not involve alcohol? I hope this is the correct post to ask this question. I'm hoping to get some insight from people who were in my uncles shoes and used alcohol to help cope with death of a loved one. My uncle and I would have drinks together when he visits me and I get the impression he will want me to come over to drink with him. I just don't think this is a good way for him to address his pain.,1.8885245901639325,3.2692021147541013,3.289311475409839,93.20937704918032,77.03278688524591,6.519344262295082,22.036065573770493,7.1686216300943375,0.4728727868852456,446,12,103,5,10,146,79,122,0.095,0.723,0.18100000000000002,0.8718,0,0,5,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,2,9,0,0,6,0,10,8,1,1,1,20,26,4,2,5,2,2,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,0,6,7,5,0,3,2,0,3,2,1,0,1,1,0,17,8,18,23,2,13,0,0,0,1,20,4,0,4,3,66,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4645036810409623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1354449057261935,0.0,0.13612120055057367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1520444885243485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2496056477312899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15036441267877565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12678702111002904,0.0,0.0,0.2838579726253304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15138949946464775,0.13898380415033135,0.0,0.12151996232321358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09711120246086634,0.0,0.0,0.28780059422040605,0.14267936806485368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13076146207479902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09817564299402268,0.0,0.15416442773965258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1004427832144651,0.0,0.15137062249970715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13875669522207107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16230075018932513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3288202516768333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09283439388850856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13733098587346096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1251313393979855,0.0,0.0,0.1709100539775488,0.2300008248953789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10291985891272667,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,sophie2685,2019/05/29,"First Day I am sitting in bed after phoning in sick to work yet again with a fake excuse. I am, of course, hungover again. I do this most weeks. Once I start drinking I can’t stop. I can’t remember what I did the night before and I have gone so fat it’s unreal!! I’m 51 and I have 2 beautiful teenage children - they get upset about my drinking and have tried to tell me I have a problem. My husband drinks heavily and he will not contemplate giving up. But he functions - he doesn’t black out, fall over or miss work. That’s my story in a nutshell. Today is my first stop day",0.07549999999999812,2.35423221666667,1.9850000000000032,95.08,89.33333333333334,4.866666666666667,20.5,6.42735559955562,0.21960000000000024,446,15,98,5,15,147,83,120,0.17600000000000002,0.779,0.045,-0.9204,0,0,3,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,4,5,4,0,1,4,0,13,5,1,0,0,14,19,7,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,4,6,4,2,1,3,0,2,4,4,0,2,2,1,16,0,12,16,1,23,0,1,1,0,10,6,0,2,14,63,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1622379874864159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24592041542217166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5603239237090077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32435133743605143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09961220813332487,0.18289886253857407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17892190267231878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20304714092420367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18243628716000526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2159811059655629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13495043730504047,0.0,0.0,0.31880132194657146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16664562399771973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18072379915855907,0.0,0.0,0.12944592016992346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15293630059676486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27760613505101084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,SpecialKayte,2019/05/29,"I need help getting sober while married to a delightful drunk. My husband has a lengthy history of addiction and addiction related issues, we're kinda two peas in a pod. I never get tired of his company. We separated for a year, a miserable year (suck it 2018) I don't want to lose him again but my need for sobriety is dire. Health issues, financial issues, emotional issues... I'm a wreck. I feel like he's in a pretty hard downward spiral and I'm being pulled in. He and I have never been sober together. It almost seems impossible, we have too much fun, then take it too far.",2.5880450522928413,4.890456380530979,4.706629123089304,79.61526146419953,78.11504424778761,8.710860820595334,26.201930812550287,9.339509955726095,2.6749893805309743,453,18,85,13,11,156,77,113,0.122,0.696,0.182,0.7976,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,2,0,0,1,3,5,1,1,7,0,7,5,0,0,2,15,18,6,0,3,1,1,2,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,5,1,0,2,1,0,1,3,3,0,1,1,2,11,2,9,16,1,13,0,2,0,0,8,5,1,3,8,50,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33637965205548903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1544908367823591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17354614695056853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0780094632561574,0.11021887743375464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16121164120080594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1382060993448044,0.0,0.0,0.16399423275114136,0.0,0.0,0.10341177151032097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6441200453648722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07537424563704033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17260175876809875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11341480151041215,0.2287958515705985,0.2379831166840325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15695995435294638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14045226542618394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11600063793899552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17732411859910518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15071080306559564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09099934406571256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19870471318016344 alcoholism,kduxban,2019/05/29,"At what point does alcohol become a problem? I’m in my late twenties and drinking is a huge part of my social life, but I wanna know where the line is when it becomes a problem. I don’t drink all the time, it’s not like I need to drink to get through the day, but sometimes I worry about how much I drink. Once I have one, then I’m drinking for the rest of the night, I can’t just have a quiet one at the pub with friends. I’ve bought alcohol for the walk home before and I’ve hidden it from my partner. It’s super embarrassing when I think back, but then the rest of the week I’m just normal. When did you guys think, yeah, I need to stop this! Not sure if I should be considering being sober or just keeping myself in check.",2.1970430107526866,3.341573129032259,3.531370967741936,92.75038978494624,75.7741935483871,6.198924731182796,22.594086021505376,6.42735559955562,0.275505376344086,565,15,131,4,12,185,93,155,0.134,0.777,0.09,-0.7096,0,0,7,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,1,10,7,0,1,13,1,10,8,0,1,2,28,21,13,0,8,10,0,0,1,2,1,3,1,1,2,6,3,7,2,3,6,2,1,4,3,0,2,2,1,15,4,17,16,5,20,0,0,0,0,5,7,0,2,13,88,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2704998890771637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09731380157735033,0.0,0.0,0.2795424599433776,0.10768988939184744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08161819172660859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11075006468138993,0.0,0.0,0.6198838128963821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0977769013124416,0.0,0.06612032016764031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1253104007348331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12694605120490535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11248884481540768,0.0,0.0,0.06955190319103728,0.0,0.14276075288097487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08939029089527101,0.06182890040437795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09303326895949172,0.18767943612747304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1187642931663844,0.12399807257943996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13477807809523767,0.17151532888037846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13704788479662966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1196363872620108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2421941234566323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1290079699334837,0.0,0.0,0.1251671835846765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1058065365279374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11927759283683917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1621840317375621,0.0,0.0,0.07379585880771275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10151564100635144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12852382643496796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Bionic36,2019/05/29,"Think I’ve done some damage? Hello. I was debating whether to post in here. I have a problem when it comes to drinking at home, either with my partner or friends. I absolutely over do it. To the point of me falling over, not remembering, and being violently sick a number of times through the night. I don’t drink in the week and it doesn’t happen every weekend. Maybe once a month. I recently drank so much wine on Saturday night and I’ve been so poorly this week. We are now on Weds and I still don’t feel right. My question is: have I done some irreversible damage? I feel sick, dizzy and zero energy. I have had to go back to bed multiple times and thankfully I’m off work this week. I still feel strange today. Any help would be much appreciated thank you",1.3861000735835205,3.9190635960264895,2.920077262693159,89.06862214863871,85.2251655629139,6.269462840323768,21.63392200147167,7.594959193182576,0.991463281824871,597,20,123,11,18,195,98,151,0.16899999999999998,0.72,0.111,-0.8466,0,0,3,0,0,0,19.0,1,1,0,1,8,7,1,0,6,0,17,6,0,0,0,23,28,11,0,2,4,0,3,0,2,1,2,0,2,1,5,9,4,0,6,4,1,3,4,4,0,1,6,3,15,3,17,19,5,31,0,2,0,0,8,10,0,4,17,83,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0993399622089428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11232712821676864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12583568557660268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29898277988163746,0.0,0.2862071665152893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1230793854213346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2215885449694362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11286167380513927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08302109249867771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12917878055436588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09791488974629886,0.0,0.1465309662059771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14675781131990426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11660031129648506,0.0,0.21477241175356998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27417389455226737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15557129835257671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13809358583827688,0.0,0.1399050384501714,0.0,0.0,0.13977960945877255,0.0,0.0,0.16364394279777714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14423717958139998,0.0,0.16548108445038845,0.12475221618577848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23332065202848185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26898317218868184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0936026865275488,0.0,0.0,0.17036179369833238,0.0,0.13846753000478187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3515316503465605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10634857172563728,0.0,0.0,0.10377161833831924,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,DrunkOrchid,2019/05/29,Withdrawal Does anything help? With withdrawal. Kinda feel like the flu but like crazy as hell.,3.9035416666666687,6.948363937500003,2.715,85.09666666666669,97.125,7.133333333333333,24.08333333333333,7.793537801064563,2.4148583333333336,77,3,12,2,3,22,14,16,0.408,0.289,0.303,-0.7849,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,2,4,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4329316285916148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4603895666933709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2660096051557089,0.37584260733321134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3526306086427479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5140472061698467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,BrugmansiaFreak,2019/05/29,"Alcohol Withdrawal Hallucinations Hi, I'm alcoholic like most of you but I never had DT. I've reading about withdrawal bringing psychosis in many places in web but I never meet someone who has hallucinations from withdrawal, I know people who have seizures but not hallucinations. Anyone can explain me how it is with details? I had (and I have sometimes) alcoholic hallucinosis but the hallucinations are different from what I've read. So, they're more common auditory, visual? Are real hallucinations?",4.902197802197801,8.459481380952386,6.315714285714287,61.29082417582421,86.38095238095238,9.251282051282052,32.65201465201465,9.057496981413335,4.647273992673993,412,22,56,14,13,138,59,84,0.0,0.9259999999999999,0.07400000000000001,0.3899,1,0,3,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,9,3,0,1,2,14,13,7,0,0,5,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,2,3,0,2,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,0,7,1,7,11,2,7,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,1,4,40,11,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6494067585733279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14163065885719908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21162610612787155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1113185324104706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09895778746217596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20535824292520816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31244468825345906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14042563047769924,0.0,0.21162610612787155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4052181785724911,0.23055110997774705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17162358008273454,0.0,0.20033135749466666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,CarlCarbonite,2019/05/01,"I feel the need to talk about this as I have nowhere else to turn So quick back story my father is divorced and it is just me and him here in America. We also work together for income. Sometimes he goes on these drunken binges and it usually lasts about a week. In that time he drops all communication with others cancels work and as a result everyone around him suffers. He also gets aggressive verbally never physically. I don’t know what to do unfortunately, I have no family to ask for help or guidance and I am quite afraid to go to his apartment to speak to him. I love my dad but I am slowly hating what he has become.",5.122016129032256,5.762325072580644,6.3469354838709675,77.16540322580649,68.43548387096774,9.425806451612903,29.20967741935484,9.516144504307137,2.5236161290322583,495,17,96,10,8,167,88,124,0.102,0.862,0.036000000000000004,-0.7269,1,0,0,0,1,0,8.0,1,0,0,3,10,5,2,1,3,0,9,1,0,1,2,17,18,12,0,1,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,8,8,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,0,2,15,1,19,18,1,14,0,1,0,1,17,5,0,1,7,71,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3410586028064481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18983031279739845,0.1993521934130428,0.0,0.0,0.1639696959786378,0.0,0.0,0.2355086916093953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17813606832457446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20376157181502227,0.0,0.0,0.2010252860725612,0.0,0.107821404997465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11140998111434974,0.0,0.12119016583912234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21053202001812132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14293140898696724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11719205535203744,0.1738204372713381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19245894955402829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15811601018794486,0.16446513625077838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22680878436001375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21090148269018605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17139559191734796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12434294351932365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2319457234022524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23485559353308302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17104962012667074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3104849781250243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,huntyyas,2019/05/01,"Me and my friends only hang out when there's alcohol or drugs involved So my one best friend of many many years literally always have to have some type of alcohol or drug when we are chillin. And sometimes I am the one who suggests that I bring something, so I really cant blame it all on her. I didn't see it as a problem but now I am starting to realize it. We'll link up and I will bring over some tequila and we will get shitfaced all evening. Or I'll say can I come over and we snort a bunch of snow and watch some netflix. I use these substances to get away from the real world. I honestly hate being sober.",3.335271317829456,4.104642992248063,4.36124031007752,89.3238759689923,72.56589147286822,7.593798449612403,28.286821705426355,7.793537801064563,1.4936263565891466,482,18,108,6,9,157,86,129,0.055,0.8440000000000001,0.10099999999999999,0.5819,0,0,7,0,0,0,8.0,4,0,0,1,7,6,1,0,4,0,12,4,0,1,2,25,21,15,0,1,4,0,0,0,2,3,4,1,0,0,6,11,2,0,2,3,0,4,2,2,0,2,1,4,17,4,14,16,7,16,0,0,2,0,11,7,0,6,5,78,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3784040184118265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14731153284765933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16633498736957342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1857926463770392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15250435676010987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41062058346722186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11693330623301375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27356146052932395,0.0,0.18499227438111293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17479043090954205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35898171667141515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23993388643884825,0.1346469621385841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1694034512627399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20151037538448,0.11341641162294185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407893812142624,0.0,0.0,0.1410780260409843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13629410659041485,0.17509717066176414,0.0,0.1253098831639761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529057903847147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11400801005325095 alcoholism,25joenino25,2019/05/01,Places in Vegas that don’t ID? I’ll be in Vegas this weekend and I won’t be 21 for another month. Anyone know of any places that don’t ID?,-0.2004166666666656,1.2698856250000006,2.5825,95.54583333333336,83.375,5.5166666666666675,16.916666666666664,6.42735559955562,-0.4352833333333339,108,2,27,1,3,38,22,32,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,2,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,3,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,14,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25072605577621715,0.3866101077402849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25780095220376226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20262578656984032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2942897853348994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7704181017183284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,doesitreallymatter4,2019/05/01,"Anyone able to quit by themselves after a month of heavy drinking? I got some 10mg Valium and Gatorade for the electrolytes. Ate very lightly today, some bell peppers. Also drank 2 cups of laxative to purge. For various reasons I can't go to friends/families this time. Day 1 went well, but I need to be clean by the 4th. Any suggestions/advice on what I can be missing to clean out the system? Thanks",2.5869230769230747,5.060920705128208,3.4919871794871824,87.39259615384617,79.12820512820512,6.464102564102564,26.41666666666667,7.645422480735847,1.6418666666666668,317,13,60,5,8,101,63,78,0.036000000000000004,0.7979999999999999,0.166,0.8767,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,4,0,4,3,0,1,0,7,12,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,2,3,0,1,1,0,2,1,1,1,0,4,1,4,2,14,6,3,10,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,2,5,35,6,0,0.26186691235461984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2558933160191843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20941487520007995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1780784802001954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18310343382733468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16888249475958705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2565298803327851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2468648194095626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14882500101649382,0.0,0.20943889180769426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2090196710853844,0.0,0.0,0.1941709974073524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2785276951245175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2692427997732137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2410918699668876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15269670247190406,0.0,0.2482192136178077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21606762761421264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2354498031586945,0.2427532512850621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,alex_is_a,2019/05/01,"Feeling like a failure since January 4th, 2019 I have been taking Naltrexone/Vivitrol to stop drinking, last night I drank, I would give an excuse why I drank but there's no point, its just an excuse. I'm so disappointed in myself. I feel like such a failure and I wish I knew how I could get past the urge to drink. I get this thought in my head every time I chose to drink that says ""come on this is the last time"" Its never the last time though. I wish I knew how to get it to stop, I thought I had enough will power to do this on my own, but I don't. I have made an appointment to see an addiction counselor to help me. I don't have the support at home to talk to someone and right now it's difficult for me to go to face to face meetings. How do you guys deal with the thoughts about drinking?",1.8571344040574795,3.2844377100591733,3.0823541842772606,94.46415680473372,77.22485207100594,6.4853761622992385,23.31403212172443,7.1686216300943375,0.5780174133558744,619,19,146,7,14,200,96,169,0.14300000000000002,0.7440000000000001,0.113,-0.7921,1,0,4,0,0,1,17.0,0,1,0,1,10,5,0,0,11,0,13,10,3,4,1,25,35,9,0,4,3,0,2,2,0,2,1,1,1,1,8,4,6,2,7,4,0,2,4,2,0,0,10,4,23,3,21,22,2,21,0,1,1,0,10,7,0,0,14,93,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330572475989717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10513900735071934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09745045964487116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12583266619383318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4782671504699878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12611476144592698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10283604646202048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12342868427517352,0.17439129121121275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1913050667127194,0.11708564560945887,0.06936629473973488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1208529869566842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1252629665551431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08181045198433863,0.0,0.12243045573633984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29847173489866435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11925917162978684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11549076861476396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09413583219884768,0.0,0.0,0.1145397308506659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1165146792312054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11538080370452072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10423374032949108,0.0,0.0970625108741903,0.0,0.0,0.09726150735667242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10096461215875348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10341624705700167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20408578863299853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13850581976948642,0.0,0.0,0.0917696745898381,0.09810265596808078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11991777033920895,0.2906925394807557,0.21351260333492925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11013505842378182,0.0,0.28071293719364365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08670390194383162,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,yabaquan643,2019/05/01,"My roommate is an alcoholic Just as the title says, he's an alcoholic. He has 9 scotch and cokes a night. Every night. He has it ""under control"" because that's all he does. He has a system down. Should I be concerned? Should I get him help? He comes home from work everyday and starts on the drinks. If we go out to a comedy club, he has to bring a coke and scotch with him for the ride there(I drive sober 100%) and while there he'll have 3 or 4 scotch and cokes. He pays all of his bills on time so I'm not worried on that front. I just know that he needs help and I don't know where to start. We've been friends for about 6 years now and just became roommates and now I have the full on details of his addiction. Before we'd only hang out maybe every other Saturday and watch sports, but now I'm around it all the time so I have first hand experience with it.",0.6726055523423929,2.72371247802198,1.9556795835743201,98.10247831116254,83.56043956043956,5.3700404858299615,17.8207056101793,6.5966054737557815,-0.31697142857142824,669,15,159,7,19,213,109,182,0.0,0.9159999999999999,0.084,0.9028,0,0,3,0,0,0,21.0,2,0,0,3,12,1,0,0,11,0,14,8,1,1,3,32,26,16,0,4,7,0,1,0,1,3,3,1,1,0,7,16,6,1,2,3,2,7,2,0,0,1,1,3,13,1,21,20,4,33,0,0,1,0,20,11,0,2,14,94,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1905595824218286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3736195717051009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15561051409032958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10655745345264447,0.0,0.1487433155289544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15057612943703705,0.0,0.0,0.19605489587774025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529700876171871,0.0,0.0,0.17123905334778453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29455583104765554,0.0,0.0,0.17098953956109714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14868618032668982,0.0,0.0,0.1350513085814438,0.0,0.09132663893622084,0.0,0.09934379673622168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2343317008159293,0.0,0.17534029105387414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19213281284634573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17561173598684635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1296131964841554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32807898367770266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13294451929117895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1390092751410773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2474509920620744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2038564766544697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12725767121009005,0.17751954409428752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11256652100530434 alcoholism,TacticalConcavity,2019/05/01,"I had a drinking dream last night I’ve been sober 5.5 years. Had a rough day at work, went to bed, and had a dream where I was dealing with the aftermath of a blackout drinking night. It was so exhausting and terrible, I feel like shit this morning. How does this happen! I must be really stressed.",1.3847941888619886,3.9092692711864414,2.297142857142859,93.60542372881358,85.10169491525423,6.083292978208232,23.682808716707026,7.447530270364453,1.1088334140435836,233,9,49,4,7,73,44,59,0.21,0.6859999999999999,0.10400000000000001,-0.8267,0,0,2,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,3,5,1,1,5,0,8,4,1,1,1,6,11,4,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,3,3,2,0,1,4,0,1,0,4,0,0,7,2,4,1,4,2,0,9,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,7,29,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15811142327664604,0.2527547978785181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21454592394560987,0.0,0.0,0.4803375808741343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1239630101230098,0.17514623545354102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2167989841317969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19984255098103645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11977544755355245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4601423047911026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570592552145723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25165879547903264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28083617698901264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2272708140672207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17848335628375356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15787850180790802 alcoholism,QueenaDisney,2019/05/01,"Mom is drinking again after three years. What do I do? Backstory: My mom started drinking when I was around 15. Binge drinker. Went through it for a good nine or ten years, off and on. She'd get drunk, get violent. She lost marriages and friends. Eventually she got on pills to sleep. Jail time, hospital visits, etc. I'd need several days to explain everything, so I'm just keeping it brief. Over the course of this time, I always took care of her, blamed myself, family blamed me... I stopped living my life for several years because I was so consumed with the fallout from her addiction. Eventually, she got her 4th DUI and she went to prison for a while. I had limited contact with her in that time and she stopped drinking. Once she got out, we really repaired our relationship and she didn't drink for three years. Up until recently... Recently, my mom was supposed to come down and visit me (I live in another city four hours away from her) and she never showed up. I was worried and had an awful feeling. A friend of hers contacts me and tells me that my mom was arrested for a DUI and for evading arrest. Friend is concerned and lets me know that my mom is not only drinking again, but that she picked my mom up on another occasion a few weeks before for running down a fence when she was drinking. Luckily, the cops had not come that time. But this last time, the cops did come and arrest my mom. My mom contacts me a day later, and is mad that I know about what happened. She says her friend is lying and tries to explain why she got arrested. She insists the cops have it out for her and she hasn't been drinking. Cut to today, another friend contacts me and says she's worried about my mom, that she's on the phone having a freakout. I try to console my mom when I do call, but she's drunk (again), and is crying that she's suicidal, doesn't have anyone, and that the only person she has is me and I'm the ""only thing she ever did right"". I tell her that I love her but that she needs to pull herself out of it. She starts getting more belligerent and angry. She still insists she isn't drinking and that she's just loopy from her sleeping meds. What I think set her off: A few months ago she got fired from her job unjustly. She found another one and started dating this new guy. He's no good for her, but she doesn't see it that way. He keeps going back to his ex-wife, and it's been back and forth between my mom and that other lady. I don't know if he's caused her relapse or what, but she was fine before this guy. Not that it's his fault; my mom is a grown ass woman who is responsible for her decisions. She will more than likely go back to prison for getting, yet again, another DUI. Until then, I'm just not sure how to handle this. It's been three years since I've dealt with any of this. I also have diagnosed PTSD over everything that happened in the past, so I can't have her here while she's still lying and in denial that she's drinking again. She says she isn't, but I'm certain she is. I can tell by her voice. I'm not going to enable her as I did in the past or put my life on hold for her. I know I can't make her stop. I know she's in control. But ultimately, how can I interact with her? If I try to talk to her about drinking, she tends to start drinking more and freaks out that I don't believe her. if I don't mention it, then she still calls me, drunk and messed up off her ass, and treats me like I'm stupid. I just care about her and love her (obviously) but I don't know how to interact with her in a way that doesn't harm me. Thank you <3",3.0769960474308284,4.229365543478266,4.010159090909092,90.14620454545457,73.59239130434783,7.254901185770753,24.93073122529644,7.686295010490155,1.043662826086956,2784,85,616,35,55,897,272,736,0.147,0.775,0.078,-0.9943,3,0,12,0,0,0,101.0,2,1,0,4,33,27,4,0,22,1,53,25,4,7,5,102,107,62,1,5,24,12,2,2,5,1,5,4,0,4,41,44,14,9,12,15,0,16,20,9,0,7,27,7,126,18,83,77,6,105,0,1,1,4,123,30,2,6,58,421,167,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045580066630822806,0.0,0.0,0.037062851598172665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03343617197495083,0.03479002897129061,0.0,0.0,0.028432854558792763,0.21921193890893212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02923516248215616,0.0,0.0,0.037220576947912865,0.0,0.0,0.03928272904139199,0.09645003365946736,0.0,0.025487544455418464,0.0,0.07115601479112628,0.0471065811152968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08538723371099834,0.0,0.08525802459409207,0.0429513249388812,0.0,0.10804919792842746,0.0,0.0,0.0468944941200857,0.0,0.0,0.045927324579077805,0.053929159835901935,0.0,0.0,0.042437196524723136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4505465481407701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04663022014756129,0.0,0.03782036447722404,0.0,0.0,0.07515390514055265,0.0,0.03941560764705488,0.0,0.02114085386153997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045843507959879216,0.161515038117991,0.0,0.08737790532448624,0.0,0.07128631607576205,0.07013802014315021,0.16720003290202073,0.0,0.0,0.08279875463262171,0.07394650446633344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041175327082178484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041490879566597014,0.07432692103895701,0.0,0.0,0.1378691058230512,0.03408147447706447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04275449126062215,0.05906456861500418,0.0408534002266888,0.0,0.07383960428087162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045641550538066664,0.0,0.0754719626768519,0.0,0.02790910905676317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0464424986844794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5876212309310046,0.033373071812025236,0.0,0.0,0.062004524326717825,0.03224715362295374,0.04038124026100181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04452725772411429,0.028332156685363395,0.095397250095997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07982649481572973,0.0,0.03650767646006325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04887471977989948,0.042031515759736966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.026785141461140284,0.0,0.08256646485092445,0.044889273203824936,0.0,0.03570629120269585,0.0,0.09974914841921204,0.0,0.0,0.03331788433872319,0.0,0.0,0.09446886124560504,0.0,0.03458641924881311,0.0,0.08368221656933833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11837591752363713,0.0,0.10017074725781376,0.10486738616823738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04573435257427956,0.0,0.039406290637301895,0.0,0.0,0.03360602805465192,0.10963374240928993,0.038493871164947034,0.0,0.0,0.027777312711589397,0.02679074476344508,0.0,0.0,0.1219013978586879,0.0,0.039631856648590674,0.0,0.0464534627030907,0.0851605960444367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0663751131132948,0.03353819236778534,0.0,0.0,0.07751827036824263,0.03772784565990327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08492202328801964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134624285554531 alcoholism,gemumu,2019/05/01,"“We’ll talk tomorrow” I don’t know what the fuck I’m doing. I’ve just woken up in bed, on my own, fully dressed and I have no recollection of how I got here (for context I live with my SO and he’s asleep in the other room on a pull out mattress). This definitely isn’t the first time. It’s happened twice last week. I’ve been trying to piece together what happened. The last thing I remember is leaving work (I work in a pub) and all there was when I woke up was a text from my SO saying “we’ll talk tomorrow”. I don’t know what that means but I’m terrified. The texts before that from him say “don’t do this again” (talking about staying out at the pub and getting back smashed). It always starts out with the best of intentions. I work a lot and do fairly long hours so once I finish it’s easy to convince myself that I deserve a drink after work. And I get on well with the people I work with and it’s fun. But I can never just have one, I get smashed. And then I come home. That look of disappointment breaks my heart every time. But I don’t know how to stop. I do it to cope. Sometimes I’m good. It depends on the day. If I wake up anxious and sad (which is becoming more often now) the only way I can face getting out the house is by swigging something or buying a can on my way to work. And usually on my day off I’ll start drinking as soon as I possibly can. For a long time I’ve not accepted that I have a problem. My problem is too much work and long hours so it’s fine if I drink. My problem is having a hard time with my mental health so it’s fine if I drink. My problem is my SO so it’s fine. I don’t know what I’m doing anymore. I’m not sure if this is the right place to post or if this is the sort of thing people post. This is my first post on reddit so I don’t know what I’m doing with this either, ha! I’m just lost and could use some advice.",0.11141857962697443,1.906322727941177,2.3179363940698217,96.1683357245337,83.97549019607844,5.254997608799617,19.2649450023912,6.345904618129536,-0.167724725011956,1435,38,347,13,41,485,176,408,0.11599999999999999,0.795,0.08900000000000001,-0.8766,0,0,5,0,0,0,40.0,2,0,0,11,24,19,1,0,22,1,36,10,4,5,3,66,65,36,0,10,16,0,1,0,0,2,1,2,4,0,29,23,4,1,9,6,1,2,11,8,1,4,7,4,42,11,44,55,9,62,0,3,1,1,9,22,1,12,31,234,71,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07737688431706538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06588674665300186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08945445162783752,0.0785284346166871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06088697557221458,0.0,0.0,0.08745159809855126,0.06737905167094015,0.0,0.08309785924564321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06820929579032634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06322132379134354,0.0,0.0,0.10213319725170382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31027747317780546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06671524192384061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13470634013179014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07320357137016048,0.16547976766375302,0.0,0.0,0.06641509220541827,0.06333002031863696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14004284416287568,0.0,0.0709325735999562,0.0,0.0,0.08416801457920595,0.0,0.09383244622064793,0.0,0.0,0.07942718292182283,0.0,0.15595895858877973,0.09136675513879262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21758501681941106,0.1290897156932027,0.0,0.08384355149453802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0699201961606073,0.21022386018796904,0.06649392604566659,0.0,0.08643779169121574,0.06731870562855191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08625369330223538,0.0,0.0,0.07979801852409313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05820874616677446,0.0,0.06107094773589562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08432749944654054,0.05365657013974142,0.06022237438256474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10979128994155744,0.0,0.08272956688194402,0.0,0.0,0.08926713478917242,0.2275067864845583,0.0,0.0,0.3030704265913729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08969910391682433,0.06762200066955151,0.0,0.12593928136081298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06095907833982313,0.07831418694814289,0.0,0.11209252073536266,0.08439873122610123,0.0,0.0662006817176545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07462920740586412,0.0,0.0,0.1909333152563095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10521156891475876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18468938957170866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05376017959081224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06838884151231461,0.08720908275825405,0.0,0.0,0.12570384075761695,0.06351596848509145,0.0,0.07119518580985634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4035240724228269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,jl_3087,2019/05/01,"Just looking to talk to someone. I'm an alcoholic, I'm currently living out of a hotel away from my family, I also have insomnia(diagnosed) to top it all off. I'm sitting here watching reruns of friends and trying to stay busy so I don't go to the store and buy a case of beer. I'm sober at the moment but I'm not currently on a program or on consecutive days of sobriety or anything.",3.1346666666666683,4.323583800000005,5.982500000000003,75.9191666666667,73.5,8.833333333333334,29.583333333333336,9.2995712137729,2.6617083333333342,304,13,61,7,6,111,56,80,0.0,0.951,0.049,0.3506,2,0,2,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,6,0,2,2,0,0,1,9,9,7,0,0,5,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,2,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,16,9,1,14,0,0,2,0,2,7,0,2,4,39,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3216089063210355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24065829284489776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2476445655463283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2827391400089838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19407872932330308,0.0,0.0,0.3054435560510457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2836955395160326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23250229345257736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1710287802767122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2657318715176202,0.0,0.2527103238109071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25498197159466346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3207575784099415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2418808393194408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2043156901759159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,hotkev,2018/12/12,Help Trying to quit once again ,1.1950000000000005,3.7673618333333367,0.5166666666666693,102.04500000000002,97.33333333333334,2.4000000000000004,6.0,3.1291,-2.5968,25,0,5,0,1,7,6,6,0.0,0.649,0.35100000000000003,0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3761296057540171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.597610550015526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5968562070962202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.380986637870913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,XCMGaming,2018/12/12,Recommendations on how to cut back old job made it easy to consume about 14-16 units every single night (3-5 hour period) for about 7 months. I want to cut down to maybe just a night or two a week. What is the best way for me to do this ,3.63108974358974,2.9586419807692277,5.012307692307694,89.999358974359,71.5,8.471794871794872,21.179487179487182,7.793537801064563,0.31063333333333265,181,2,47,2,3,61,43,52,0.078,0.765,0.157,0.6369,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,5,3,2,0,3,0,2,0,0,2,0,5,4,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,2,1,11,3,2,11,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,8,28,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20479106030069225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27949653507504624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22439421573167126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2622810559452647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2642910809938639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25200755317960416,0.0,0.0,0.26756392925502964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21258178465772665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4998646672758699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2794681648394744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2601653675664705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15708812716537335,0.21140007851177808,0.2136335794288184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,marypatsy,2018/12/12,"Day 3 of Detox and I’m hurting but optimistic Hi everyone, just looking for some encouragement on my early journey into sobriety. It’s my third day of detoxing and I’m exhausted and scared. I know it gets better but it’s hard to see through the fog right now. I’d like to hear other people’s experience with detoxing and how they got through it. Thanks ",2.0541428571428604,4.673188057142858,3.668214285714289,84.34803571428574,82.71428571428572,6.928571428571428,27.32142857142857,8.07648339933343,2.132714285714286,284,13,54,6,8,94,51,70,0.13,0.653,0.217,0.8422,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,1,3,7,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,1,0,12,9,7,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,5,6,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,1,1,4,4,4,10,8,1,8,0,1,2,0,4,3,0,1,5,31,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2417130894724596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35251389407266026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2611514274996849,0.0,0.2673414447502424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14278882591334796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21858428674473893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2448245860226313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3080308093453041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2925750563810727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1501994329656537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13352137548443332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22950454341275786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18947294412597693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333981058309616,0.0,0.0,0.27362261781515473,0.0,0.2177860212590753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2516194293324248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,throwaway654682112,2018/12/12,"Ex-boyfriend in denial? Please tell me if this is not the sub to ask this question. Throwaway because I have friends on this site. Until about 5 months ago I was in a relationship with this guy, it ended for reasons unrelated to what I'll describe here. Very early on I started suspecting he was some sort of alcoholic, but he kept denying it. I'll list my arguments and his down below. I know I won't change him, especially now that the relationship is over, but after finding this sub I was hoping to get a somewhat conclusive answer to this. Maybe it will help me recognize warning signs in the future, or I'll manage to not make assumptions so quickly. &#x200B; Red flags: He would need at least 2-3l of beer to even get drunk. He would drink at least .5l, more often 1.5l of beer every day after work / after soccer practice. He would not experience hangovers, ever. He reported feeling ""antsy"" if he couldn't have his daily beer for some reason. If he slept over at my place, he would bring his own beer and eventually even stash a whole crate in my basement. In his friends group he was known as ""the beer guy"", it was a common joke to tell me that I was only no.2 for him, beer would always be his one great love. &#x200B; But: It was only beer, he refused to drink any other alcohol. He was fully functioning, went to work, played soccer, lots of friends. He never drank before work, and on his days off he didn't feel the desire to drink before 4-5pm. He obviously didn't get any effect from his daily beers, but didn't increase intake - he didn't drink to drink alcohol if that makes sense? &#x200B; Now my question is: Is this a form of alcoholism? And, more importantly, was it dangerous to not intervene? With most mental health issues AFAIK there is some degree of ""suffering"" needed to diagnose a disorder. Does the fact that he was suffering no negative effects in his day to day life make his behavior less of an issue? This behavior was stable over the 2 years we dated, could he just go on like this forever, without ever having to adress it?",6.199597046413501,6.620519688607594,6.512294303797468,77.68675369198313,66.03797468354429,9.520042194092827,30.635548523206747,9.408791572840183,2.6361497890295364,1627,56,302,29,24,525,206,395,0.09699999999999999,0.79,0.113,0.828,0,0,17,0,0,0,72.0,1,0,0,6,13,12,1,0,14,0,33,24,1,7,5,66,54,16,0,15,15,0,2,1,3,7,7,0,0,2,22,7,19,2,14,18,0,4,14,3,0,1,19,3,26,9,54,25,15,48,0,2,1,1,46,21,0,16,24,196,48,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06535239741530087,0.3151566464512714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0613447617056458,0.2396416751696501,0.2687503255212561,0.10027049353478718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06892253604737006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044941823485400136,0.0,0.1254683856367918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07799083671127552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05886308308893784,0.0,0.0,0.1901850361693655,0.0,0.0,0.07482890314386036,0.0,0.0,0.08449476303033886,0.0,0.06451688224036854,0.0,0.0,0.36111013636334977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06529810079264238,0.0,0.0,0.0973887877975674,0.13337621813368164,0.06211614362303696,0.0,0.0,0.07211679198226897,0.0,0.0,0.07455473195841612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06738293619041452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17087829734323262,0.0,0.11555416032189295,0.0,0.04189938134428965,0.0,0.0,0.08128161660091479,0.0,0.14599786268226236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07836578765668145,0.0,0.0,0.04941603610949343,0.0,0.0,0.07322514908648356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1538986275726952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04051710453333659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0520738555567777,0.03601810886446395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06267800680560516,0.06653931748216536,0.0,0.1476352013891845,0.0,0.07406625613658256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07429704272278215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058846261363666386,0.0,0.0,0.10933169307312936,0.05686094588532516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04995768764391923,0.1121417399861344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07702650114312361,0.08092745661444052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16517681850733035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15160230693567206,0.0,0.15830522993244392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05218264159945963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.128877075833922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06083050471177578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06834343006005922,0.0,0.08231086768087009,0.0,0.07106787026794327,0.0,0.16101713051622346,0.0,0.0,0.2618591540180328,0.0,0.2687503255212561,0.04747621638343896 alcoholism,Fourwindsleveling,2018/12/12,"First Day of My Life So as of 7 o’clock this morning I’ve decided to give up alcohol and smoking at the same time. I don’t know if I can do it and I’m terrified because I’ve been using alcohol to combat loneliness and depression for years knowing that it actually contributes to them. I was extremely functional alcoholic though I did not like to be called an alcoholic and did not think of myself as an alcoholic until more recently when I got cancer and my marriage started to fall apart with my spouse’s cheating. I began to use alcohol even more heavily to numb myself from the situation. Needless to say it didn’t help, and I needed more and more alcohol and developed a higher and higher tolerance trying to protect myself. My behaviors have become more erratic and ridiculous and I’m ashamed now when I look at myself in the mirror and realize this is who I’ve become. I left high school and college with amazing possibilities and ideals and I’m determined that despite being 40 years of age, I can still reach some of those possibilities. What I’m also determined is I am not going to let my spouse’s infidelities design the rest of my life because those are on him and not me. Here we go!",6.467179802955662,6.896239732758622,7.657339901477831,69.6787931034483,65.4655172413793,11.45615763546798,35.536945812807886,11.20814326018867,4.308889408866995,966,44,169,28,14,330,133,232,0.132,0.789,0.079,-0.9416,0,0,7,0,0,0,11.0,1,0,1,2,9,8,2,1,7,0,17,11,0,2,0,35,34,25,0,3,5,2,0,1,0,0,11,1,0,0,11,19,7,1,5,0,0,3,6,5,0,1,7,2,25,3,28,24,8,26,0,1,1,0,11,8,0,2,16,127,36,2,0.0,0.0,0.09982759758767956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7652743732856376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08180726902108386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1247192057459992,0.2259590901124636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10445717895569703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06597342079233562,0.0,0.0881086817147479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06756653001977163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08701419616785591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09813307772746233,0.11627604661404438,0.0,0.08181665103407698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06856785391333532,0.10808291897061303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11244005482258576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11114652658794584,0.10460611851851916,0.14451149066710767,0.04997738833970771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08590413070755061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0758522956204469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2306501080881013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010064340983725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08135107317775324,0.0,0.1035305253664314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11498666939282988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07240669280060474,0.0,0.08169491087977156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06554810358614828,0.10050676849708454,0.0,0.059650491426726925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06945328346620462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1767043797707807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13175246440748606 alcoholism,lcwj,2018/12/12,"Should I try to work it out with my alcoholic boyfriend? My boyfriend has a drinking problem (he very rarely stops drinking until he’s tipsy/drunk, so 5+ pints even on weeknights); he’s vowed to drink less but it doesn’t seem to be changing anything except for cutting out spirits (which he’s replaced with beer, so he’s not actually drinking any less). The day after he comes home drunk he’s really remorseful and apologizes but it always happens again..usually within 2-3 days. I’ve told him that this is really affecting our relationship and finally managed to make him to get help (therapy) after many many months of convincing. At this point, I’m already tired out and I feel like I’ve already done all that I can and I feel like I’m running out of energy to deal with this.. Would really appreciate some perspective and maybe advice on what to do; whether it’s about patience or encouraging him to drink less..or if I should even try to work it out with him..? Thank you! 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I’m looking for advice/literature/professional help on how to go about it. I would really appreciate anyone that can point me in the right direction. So I just moved back to my hometown on Monday. I just went to meet up with my buddy I hadn’t seen in a few months, and he was in the worst shape I’ve ever seen him in. He’s had drinking issues for years, and he knows it. Tonight he was sent home from work early for being drunk. A few days ago I guess he got in a fight with his girlfriend(who is also an addict, as well as a mean nasty human being), it got physical and her ribs are cracked right now. I would never have thought him capable of that. He is one of the sweetest, most gentle and genuine humans I know. When I left his place I immediately called our other close friend to formulate a plan to help. He immediate bought a flight home, and will be here on Friday. There are two other very close friends of ours that are still living nearby who want to help. So we need some help formulating a plan of action. I don’t think he will resist very much. He definitely knows it’s bad right now, and I think when we all let him know how much we love and care about him, he’d do just about anything we’d ask him to. I just don’t really know what his options are. I assume he doesn’t have insurance that would cover rehab. He also just moved in with this girl, who we are going to strongly urge him to leave. So I’d like to help him find options for getting help immediately, and a safe place for him to continue recovering. I would really appreciate any advice you may have, or if you can point me toward any helpful resources. Thanks for reading.",3.9066279069767447,5.089769104651165,4.903725581395349,84.41336744186049,71.61627906976744,7.829581395348836,24.51581395348837,8.238735603445708,1.2935789767441852,1348,37,279,20,25,441,178,344,0.053,0.7609999999999999,0.18600000000000005,0.9925,0,0,2,0,1,0,37.0,7,2,0,4,26,14,2,0,13,0,33,7,1,2,3,53,62,21,0,7,7,0,0,1,3,7,3,0,2,3,14,17,3,1,11,3,1,7,5,4,1,2,12,3,41,10,43,37,8,45,0,0,3,1,55,22,0,9,17,185,55,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10087561470410092,0.0,0.090423060782839,0.08202572339208193,0.09889060282942158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14799866040758833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12585245671716305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06470185772759443,0.0,0.07614751921658708,0.0,0.08650670979024777,0.0,0.0,0.07115286098222155,0.07726194532956432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0944874626692071,0.0,0.09434448296276148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0596767134302905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09064799863786528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08370221452008979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0845743125562397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21447439582842728,0.0,0.09669029208048316,0.0,0.10517830103785604,0.0,0.14801563353688996,0.0,0.10193652845615564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4341646808003709,0.0,0.1856381024524056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09658135550466716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2542710704229973,0.0,0.0,0.09798004429816047,0.10053835827066243,0.09462218697942508,0.0,0.04520739179693355,0.0,0.0817091332014802,0.0,0.07770517473770708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08351546180939581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10079654952573804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07385967995328874,0.19669779316731945,0.13604613417007938,0.06861271788557859,0.07136785188403554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06270336866063818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19335647126991176,0.0,0.1749488991960282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09255894574728793,0.0,0.17783876656303496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23707034720128184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07389769587105642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08519278717944251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11858397962786868,0.0,0.07346158424078705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09039217924681586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15270032472047101,0.05457889449736674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08319909325310391,0.08577985676865173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0673657847376753,0.0,0.0,0.2629337240520433,0.0,0.0,0.059588800821235535 alcoholism,thisgirlscores,2018/12/12,"I’m not in denial... but Single mom here. Work my ass off. Support my kid. Support my mom. Get up at 6, kid to school, 8 hour work day, come home and cook for all three of us. Sometimes it feels like I’m in a marriage. The same expectations. I’m tired. I want more. But my only reprieve is that glorious slight buzz that I get a few times a week. I’ve been reading continuously. I know the dangers. I know why I drink. But I have not stopped. I’m disappointed in myself. But I have this awful “ you can’t tell me what to do because I’m functioning” attitude. It makes me angry most days. Some days I want to say fuck you, I’m my own person. I know it’s not what’s best for my future. It never directly affects anything going on in my life- kind of like “the day is done, all is well, now it’s my turn”. Help. Life is not what it used to be. 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My professional ethics code (in combination with provincial law) says that if I see a client/patient outside of the therapy setting I should leave immediately, and that clients should not know about my own difficulties. We are also required to inform our licensing body if we have any condition that may interfere with our work. I do not believe alcohol has (yet) crossed this line, but I am working to prevent that and I'm afraid of it being called into question. \[I have a wonderful colleague, one of three people who knows about my problem, who is keeping an eye out to make sure I'm not missing something. \] Given the size of our community and the even smaller size of the ""sub-community"" I am in, I think the odds that I will see a client in AA are very high. This has kept me from attending for 16 years. I know the legal and ethical issues are things I will have to sort out on my own, but in reality my biggest concern is how it would affect a client/patient. If you were to be (or are) in therapy and you saw your psychologist/therapist at a meeting, how would you feel? Thanks so much for hearing me out.",7.401746031746033,6.619989259259263,7.839576719576719,73.20666666666669,63.814814814814824,11.121693121693122,37.43386243386243,10.451354775682146,3.8083862433862414,1100,49,210,23,14,364,148,270,0.034,0.88,0.087,0.9323,0,0,2,0,0,0,41.0,5,6,0,4,9,5,0,1,16,0,31,3,2,4,1,55,52,20,0,11,12,0,2,0,0,8,1,2,0,0,14,14,1,5,9,0,0,3,3,3,3,3,7,9,32,2,33,35,4,26,0,1,5,0,23,16,0,11,6,158,46,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13951677518806346,0.0,0.0,0.14406365133625734,0.20879937265461626,0.0,0.14144937804447022,0.1586308657178216,0.0887775400710267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14708359246606356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1450100896283358,0.0,0.0,0.13330473988564126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13687774700462355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08622613399392208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13201861226755934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14713778565509816,0.0,0.0,0.13793178739365727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13625884439743885,0.0,0.1160376141137658,0.0,0.0,0.2152383265185991,0.0,0.0,0.138232141600374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08714221931217335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09596825872804267,0.0,0.0,0.2521693464140914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08846312529867391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09050597730630346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12491740085161353,0.0,0.0,0.14624433476785267,0.13885452968269674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10381750452956026,0.0,0.0,0.20806070005011976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10050270770612174,0.0,0.14613849482755426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12304053182102065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12019163192948587,0.2985874547367696,0.3031540257456342,0.0867307039896198,0.0836502860397419,0.0,0.0,0.1522479033645552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1077162858027996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415744123783089,0.1900819041587936,0.0,0.0,0.1854759917441581,0.0,0.1586308657178216,0.08406903274968372 alcoholism,_-_-AA_-_,2019/07/20,"I wish drugs didn't exist It's currently 10pm and I'm at Burger King and hope I'll be able to be here for another 2 hours without being kicked out. My mom is drunk once again and I couldn't stand being at home. Earlier I had to go to the shops with her so she could buy more alcohol and I was beyond embarrassed. She stank of wine. It was so obvious. I know I shouldn't be angry. It's not her fault. She's depressed. I feel sorry for her. I tried suggesting a counselor, gave her addresses and offered to make appointments. No use. My whole family consists of mentally ill people and addicts. Drugs ruin everything. I had periods of drinking myself, but I decided I won't drink. I prefer being sober. I hate drugs. I don't want to end up like that. And yet it feels like my very existence is fueled by the urge to self-destruct. Guess I'll order a second ice cream.",0.2451310861423224,2.6392190842696657,2.6159831460674177,89.51719569288393,91.30337078651688,6.3374531835206005,19.77621722846442,7.645422480735847,1.026808239700375,679,22,140,15,24,231,116,178,0.126,0.792,0.083,-0.6373,1,0,7,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,1,6,9,1,1,4,0,18,10,0,2,1,27,31,10,0,7,3,1,2,2,0,2,6,0,2,0,5,9,5,0,5,5,2,1,8,6,0,1,6,4,25,3,19,15,2,14,0,2,1,0,11,5,0,2,8,89,30,0,0.14903984868345446,0.0,0.0,0.1624754341728832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15927827233032205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15628127636839895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11899619169087515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1283678032808297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29200462329358856,0.5185167223574373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13200506856277155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13394740585176876,0.0,0.14050150513190796,0.0,0.15071805128149612,0.10647409767902972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08470278063146787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16418419622593933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14714599475973356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1494991201959863,0.1480301985562432,0.14677422916190805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08190840310765563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14562668354638172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09948525630959758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15019711292640106,0.0,0.0,0.17455366947649478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15872257471341786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1033254652100696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15548106656005614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1668379085289954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10118827402345693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12872257659417366,0.0,0.1229734838794998,0.08790756424282929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16639766853523505,0.17138847064515347,0.14366909563144709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,capriciousVelpecula,2019/07/20,"Having incredibly difficult time understanding alcoholic brother - resentment, confusion, disgust, depression TL;DR I guesssss Which is my brother? Which is the alcoholism? Life ended when I started living with him but I don’t want to entirely blame him. I’m just confused. Get ready for an awful summation of everything. My mum died this year, my brother has been living with us since 2013 and has been an alcoholic since 2012 I suppose. Has grand mal seizures when he stops drinking booze. Usually binges for two weeks at a time, “tapers for a week” before he would lie and sneak around and then it would start all over. Anyhow, skip to the morning my mum passed. I freak out when it starts, scream for my non-alcoholic brother. We’re watching her die, alcoholic bro is still directly downstairs in his room, doesn’t stir. EMS shows up really late (since were the house with the “drunk” and he got EMS called on him a bunch for all sorts of things), I go downstairs and tell him somethings happened and that we’re going to the hospital. He declines to join, he wasn’t drunk but his face was still a bit red from the night before (I know him well to know when he’s drank). I tell him “I don’t think she’s alright at all” and he says “I’m sure she’ll be fine”. So my oldest brother and I go to the hospital, get told the news etc, have to call up a taxi for my brother. He arrives drunk. I had to tell him mum is dead while he was drunk. A bit later, I bring him into the room to see her, he shook her hand. I was appalled by this, it made her hand flop off the gurney and I panicked to put it back in place as it had been about 2 hours since she passed by then and she was changing colour. Later, we’re outside the hospital walking in silence to the car and he mentions money stuff. My other brother and I stayed silent (I’m the youngest and a girl anyhow so I don’t usually chime in). If it helps at all, his personality type (confirmed) is ISFJ-T. We had to finally kick him out of the house the day after she passed because my grandparents (90) had flown in, and he was already shitfaced and decided to scream at us (he did this before but not in front of strangers just at my mum and I because my brother intimidated him). We actually called the police on him for the first time, and he hasn’t been back since. He would go to rehab only to complain to my mum the whole time that “they didn’t have good counselling services” and there was always big problems. How much of this behaviour is truly alcoholism or him? I can’t tell anymore because I feel like I don’t know him anymore. He doesn’t care about anything, not even himself. He romanticises his “struggle” (because when he’s drunk he talks about it as though he’s fighting a noble “battle” in a soldiers “suit”) and a week before my mum passed he shouted “you’ll be putting me in a coffin then!!” Because my mum had told him “you need to finally get out of here by December” and she died in January. After he refused to leave, pretended he was going to stop drinking but still did. Does alcohol just exacerbate preexisting issues? Does it make you more selfish? Why would he do this to us and himself? After all these years I feel so empty especially when I remember the scariest moments he put us through; and then to read his AA books he left around... does alcoholism make someone selfish? So focused on the self? I don’t want to hate him, I don’t. But this resentment and confusion kills me. My older brother has written him off but I’m just confused. I don’t even know what I’m asking. Any written affirmations or advice would be appreciated. Sorry for how all over the place this is.",3.2128471248246835,5.211766126227211,4.087706872370268,86.23851683029457,74.97475455820476,7.068443197755961,27.068022440392703,7.941651935203635,1.6606751753155682,2860,111,567,44,62,918,299,713,0.182,0.735,0.083,-0.9976,1,0,11,0,2,0,88.0,6,3,1,1,32,30,7,6,34,2,57,21,3,5,7,91,99,52,6,10,15,17,4,1,0,7,9,4,2,3,24,34,16,3,10,11,1,17,15,22,2,2,28,12,85,8,81,61,13,101,0,1,4,0,106,35,0,10,49,358,109,4,0.0,0.0,0.05335984687716158,0.0,0.0,0.05343271779396325,0.0,0.467490804023941,0.0,0.0,0.060340801404551975,0.0,0.045498186846685384,0.0,0.0,0.037184313079133176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10845584499063933,0.0,0.0,0.04499702697281936,0.09735368521337263,0.051118471012693616,0.0,0.0,0.08409117559572121,0.0,0.1666622728099456,0.0,0.18611480081857906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11939291809104255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16750335204853706,0.0,0.05574996123691638,0.0,0.05784424883815902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035264112495040606,0.0,0.04709585203348373,0.0,0.1702477955073263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14355265623280086,0.0,0.0,0.10713127575800577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04843029963753058,0.0,0.060982716361822925,0.07223132245989491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0491429084632936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05529575844185526,0.039063442869082234,0.0,0.1197986570230268,0.0,0.04651082762537726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08570421713372563,0.0,0.15537967938569444,0.045863036621254766,0.04373263583094898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048353392859271364,0.0,0.0,0.053985234766100385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0366508888716632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05384884061477239,0.1261868860750842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05707177204754309,0.0,0.0,0.0604953803422784,0.0,0.12020291488880434,0.0,0.061681484764261614,0.05789828403394656,0.05941004074000791,0.0,0.03862214057197202,0.026713913322265213,0.0,0.09656698231061513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051739591012319466,0.07299872383762626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040196132663146505,0.04054456861023136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05131352834478421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041586646498717864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047744515714229836,0.11425804074266133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052321428804872894,0.0,0.16490567677285015,0.0,0.0,0.054694853111632434,0.0,0.03502944398004193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06194184410837019,0.0,0.0,0.043483775157917036,0.0,0.0,0.043572925111112513,0.0,0.057043223593233966,0.0,0.0,0.22615953649232015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046330233930699086,0.04209537846684134,0.0,0.06120984587130403,0.11610847503352467,0.0582816641891876,0.13100268985315064,0.09142995030641916,0.0,0.05716346675213456,0.06259558193041255,0.0,0.0,0.05153530558512319,0.0,0.0,0.043949757698312775,0.19117111595223846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03632699946566959,0.03503677194448348,0.053722877307673965,0.0,0.12753752131045645,0.0,0.0,0.10449827337235236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05341446930309065,0.05692386660007456,0.2630934987374229,0.0,0.12044471289378235,0.0,0.0645034273765208,0.0,0.13158312780729206,0.0,0.04916393707555669,0.0,0.049340245521891216,0.06104832968830912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1942157143619798,0.0,0.0,0.07042432650247205 alcoholism,v1114,2019/07/20,"to my son.. Asher, I love you more than you can understand right now. I’m sorry that I am away from you and it makes my heart ache knowing you’re wondering where dadda is right now. I’m right here, son and we will be together again soon. I love and miss you more and more each day.",-0.6455000000000021,1.5196864500000018,1.1016666666666666,100.5225,92.83333333333334,5.0,14.166666666666668,6.6274283507984215,-0.6773333333333329,217,4,53,3,8,70,40,60,0.087,0.779,0.134,0.7096,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,4,0,0,6,3,0,0,0,0,5,3,1,1,0,10,14,4,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,10,2,4,12,4,10,0,1,0,2,9,5,0,1,5,35,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2293219494577383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15741192590203967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28923692725080824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341404262927833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4405849092668857,0.0,0.16292583159845453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6253310174463698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2732284762341325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2540967243275637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2646952195142944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,NikolaMendeleev,2019/07/20,Drinking is just borrowing happiness from tomorow. Saw this over on r/self by u/KarmaKausesKancer and thought it was good.,6.248571428571428,9.380650285714283,4.800238095238097,79.3489285714286,69.95238095238095,9.914285714285716,39.07142857142857,10.125756701596842,4.859171428571429,100,6,16,3,2,29,21,21,0.0,0.723,0.27699999999999997,0.7579,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,4,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,10,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4610331905155825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39473780090124616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5009889108689082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4909643646900588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37362356667311936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,reddit_sage,2019/07/20,Help I can't stop drinking I have been boozing a lot. I don't know how to stop,-3.141754385964912,-1.5950634210526289,-0.07789473684210435,106.90140350877192,104.26315789473685,2.533333333333333,16.859649122807017,3.1291,-1.3765929824561405,61,2,17,0,3,21,15,19,0.0,0.607,0.39299999999999996,0.6679,0,0,1,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,4,2,0,1,0,5,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,1,4,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,11,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4283730936980051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.293103102556172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2403205513894351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3717643037182098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7311801412294641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,adamo22771,2019/07/20,"I don't know is this good place for that I drink once week every Friday sometime I can do 0,7L or more I can't sleep when im drunk I have a rule never drink when i have to do something next day i just want some advice is that start of some problem I'm sorry if that's wrong sub",-0.7415401785714266,1.0832023906250008,1.2507142857142846,102.38,87.59375,3.6571428571428566,13.830357142857142,3.1291,-1.599595535714286,219,3,56,0,7,72,46,64,0.161,0.76,0.079,-0.5893,0,0,3,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,9,4,1,0,1,9,13,4,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,3,0,1,3,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,7,1,3,13,3,8,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,7,33,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22144901353679053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14615020997789155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4439997873031376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1909358930939074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1900768786783669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2447869100680306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12454362245345055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.174782187874787,0.0,0.2410113871690882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413413480173183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2367681399687982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2168433363309764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267822002092877,0.0,0.0,0.1744620229104845,0.224131529702562,0.253680900889355,0.16040176831095065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13366548579236176,0.0,0.18177972257478503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24777179723388806,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,SpiderConstantine42,2019/07/20,"Missing My Party Animal TL;DR I feel a sense of loss that I wont be drinking at my sis’ wedding party So we are celebrating my sister’s marriage and I am very happy. Ive decided in advance Im not going to the after party. Being at a bar with drinking people is just too much of a risk. My family is Irish and doesn’t really respect alcoholism and some will tease and pressure, not understanding, especially when drunk. Im mostly ok with that. Im older, Ive had my fun. but.. this was unexpected, but I suddenly felt this nostalgia and a bit sorry that I cant be the life of the party at the bar, sorta “leading” festivities (getting everyone shots and all that) lile I used to. I know its all in my head but I kinda wanted to talk about it with someone who got it- and most of my friends and fam either wouldnt get it or would get too concerned. Anyone relate? thanks",1.5815819209039574,3.7795781468926566,4.245000000000001,82.14230225988702,81.09039548022601,6.871186440677969,22.82768361581921,7.984000788550335,1.4370429378531069,680,23,132,13,18,240,112,177,0.063,0.758,0.179,0.9713,0,0,3,0,0,0,20.0,1,0,0,3,6,12,1,2,8,1,17,8,1,2,2,37,30,14,0,3,8,2,2,0,1,4,2,0,0,0,11,12,6,0,5,5,0,3,6,5,0,0,4,2,18,7,17,19,8,12,0,2,0,0,9,5,0,6,4,95,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17960756824114812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1175131205053242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18348058613318569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3292742917010513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16059080182330815,0.0,0.0,0.1584342503328317,0.0,0.08497738669771095,0.0,0.16136623605751746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12984457431605614,0.0,0.26341696384019553,0.0,0.09551372092315943,0.0,0.13441483437556892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17890552369121168,0.0,0.0,0.17248048312866715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5446086151521687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09236268629391142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1187074259205224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12354518340354953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11651329005678215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10766506114670277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1423987052701083,0.0,0.0,0.18813206976019808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13508217123479307,0.0,0.1547292553507718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17495885980078985,0.0,0.14515193203419216,0.0,0.13866906059813067,0.0991275433407079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193866895195182,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,porklad,2019/07/20,"I need help and I'm very anxious about asking for it. Hi! I am (22,m) trying to figure out alcoholism. I recently quit smoking the devil's lettuce, and in response I've drank quite a bit. It hasn't gotten to liquor yet, but I'm at about at least a 6pack a day of 4.% beer. I started drinking and smoking a lot when my father went missing about 3 years ago and as soon as my father went missing. This company basically threw me out after about 2 months of investigation (I was the last person to See my father alive so I was basically treated like I was the one who did it). I really need help to stop drinking. I don't want to continue this.",2.4465909090909084,4.05029653787879,4.555151515151518,83.77772727272728,76.04545454545455,7.2242424242424255,25.63636363636364,8.00094639256281,1.5211727272727271,501,18,103,8,11,173,84,132,0.09,0.813,0.09699999999999999,0.452,0,0,4,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,2,8,5,0,0,7,0,7,6,0,0,0,13,22,9,0,3,1,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,6,6,6,1,1,4,0,3,2,3,0,1,9,1,13,2,20,13,3,21,1,2,1,0,9,5,0,1,14,65,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16159169220121122,0.1948157138172424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20593913434539105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1704192909698205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19901667679810736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11756386544880225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3571553627032012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2443742299479784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14859307624707346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08905912241152908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15497893855605452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14550448536786595,0.0,0.0,0.2703358100643151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1235264137831061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1591711636620752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3877819607058468,0.0,0.0,0.11678152510984563,0.0,0.17999228606293374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14526387146972686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12902788104314838,0.0,0.0,0.15240506020570074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1237649400976186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15041076659152802,0.1075210989379976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3379747630086005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1173906765188478 alcoholism,jollycarrot9,2019/07/20,"Chest feels weird? 24 y/o alcoholic here, seeing if anyone feels similar or if anyone older and wiser can offer some help. After not drinking, and especially after drinking heavy the night prior, my chest always feels...weird. Hard to explain, almost empty, kind of buzzy, and I get palpitations. Might just be being a hypochondriac but would like any assistance. Thanks!",4.562261904761908,7.974716714285713,4.90029761904762,73.95616071428573,80.26984126984127,6.9595238095238106,22.160714285714285,8.07648339933343,2.009319047619048,295,9,41,6,8,93,53,63,0.057,0.78,0.163,0.8417,0,0,3,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,2,0,5,5,2,0,0,16,11,7,0,3,6,0,3,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,3,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,2,3,4,7,1,5,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,6,6,24,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2595204898207413,0.2431676659568217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20206107388247505,0.0,0.0,0.1651384978849807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3395966316180952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4757785337469822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24557287017957696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12687308623712787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21753558527239614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16276951846697682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2528789143573847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11863861809898707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25761325838308075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2278874689442988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1935108330760541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22357305168965166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17250549320161582,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,309han47,2019/03/12,"17 and suffering from alcoholism.HELP? hello,im 17 and feel im suffering alcoholism and that its destroying my opportunities that ive been given. im drunk whilst typing this. how bad will this fuck me up",2.396923076923077,5.28224766666667,4.3955897435897455,77.44107692307695,85.15384615384616,9.273846153846154,23.18461538461539,9.3871,2.8860830769230765,165,6,30,6,5,56,29,39,0.39299999999999996,0.5529999999999999,0.053,-0.9485,0,0,2,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,1,6,2,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,0,5,6,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,3,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,0,0,2,1,3,1,2,3,0,2,0,2,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,16,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2866485367929824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22395478382006487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13562147628815632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2479676005939375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17978404840128456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8691797577740186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,lisek46,2019/03/12,"My father's alcohol problem is very damaging to my mother, in what ways could I help her? To cut the story short, my mother was brought up by an alcoholic herself and growing up in that environment has influenced the way she is a lot. My father has problems with alcohol misuse. Not a completely severe one but still. He's had periods of that for a few years but over the past 2 years it got more frequent and with some more messed up incidents. I can mostly handle that, but I'm really worried about mum. Now after a period has ended she's a bundle of broken nerves. She's mostly very tough and reserved on the surface like a lot adult children of alcoholics, but recently she can tear up over a smallest thing from stress. She feels worthless for not being able to deal with the situation and feels like she's failing at everything. At times she has to relieve the tension with fury at my father (I know it may bring him even more down but I really can't blame her for that either). I'm really sorry for her. She's not good with feelings and I'm not either. It's difficult to talk about it. The easiest way for me to cope is to isolate but maybe I'm not giving her the support she might need. I know I can't replace a therapist (she was getting some help but I'm don't know whether she's still getting that or not, she works a lot) but I'd like to do the least I can. I try to appreciate everything she does and assure her it's not her fault things are like this, but I'm really awkward at doing so. Do you think there are any words of support she might want to hear? And what shouldn't I say to not worsen her state?",2.877184292726461,4.462306602409639,4.346519410977244,85.80124721106651,74.8433734939759,7.689602855867918,24.946898705934853,8.401726058763845,1.56199495760821,1280,42,264,23,27,426,161,332,0.14800000000000002,0.698,0.153,0.4329,0,0,4,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,0,2,8,22,1,3,19,0,27,4,0,1,1,59,51,19,0,6,21,6,3,4,0,4,4,2,0,2,15,12,4,0,7,0,0,3,12,13,0,1,5,5,39,9,44,40,14,36,0,3,0,0,40,16,0,11,17,191,54,2,0.10048528901217664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4295528577049445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06833344231566536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10535691371663967,0.0,0.0,0.0802293267138388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10359592067732017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08793535357296885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08900014045085951,0.0,0.0,0.06636958569321127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806193968706106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1524251441090047,0.0717867105482091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10499883226300943,0.09639464553922622,0.0,0.08428229293116793,0.08036726512888473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11325422376507965,0.0,0.13470634217175334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1656722607712703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19636814601338856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2562869979906373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10095097895355544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2131980241667426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07450856855805514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06809143241437081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09592457850957392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19230170149989065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2574937968563196,0.0,0.09921710026393167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07990993500666152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11351977458339375,0.0,0.0,0.11294967501825502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11248505419734987,0.0,0.0,0.16049536321452734,0.0,0.11510555905909585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22805903033293776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08076626899289048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11667116544611107,0.1335159220075288,0.06438691578086551,0.0,0.0,0.05859378010428866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06822291521166303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1658217742116856,0.059268826943447005,0.2392816356379769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07315448717488067,0.10204768866386857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1294184631684593 alcoholism,armadillofdestruct,2019/03/12,I need to find an inpatient treatment center in southern Wisconsin. Anybody have any ideas. My nephew is up here from Nevada and he's really really in bad shape and I need to find him an inpatient treatment center.,2.9407500000000013,5.9311415750000025,4.3450000000000015,78.16000000000003,83.25,8.200000000000001,25.5,8.841846274778883,2.8621000000000003,173,7,28,5,5,57,29,40,0.10099999999999999,0.899,0.0,-0.6177,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,7,4,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,6,4,0,6,0,0,0,0,3,6,0,0,0,17,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21929473713952088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2692539888992764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.589474440930702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3640361503703861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4782237335886385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4131727641922028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,TubeOfPuddingJr,2019/03/12,"A friend of mine is in the hospital with poor liver function. Need advice. He’s being kept in the hospital detoxing while he waits for admittance into a recovery program. His brother has encouraged everyone to visit if they can. I have a bad history with a father who was an alcoholic and I don’t think I would be able to see him in the hospital because of my own trauma and issues. What can I send him that would be encouraging? For those who have gone through/are going through recovery programs, what is something you needed? 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Well I went to my GP, got a referral to a treatment center and now have a script for Naltrexone. Just took my first half tablet so let's see how this goes. I'm feeling positive about this. Thank you, and wish me luck =) ",1.8341208791208807,3.6310598846153854,2.8249450549450583,94.65576923076924,78.35897435897436,6.508424908424907,21.399267399267398,7.447530270364453,0.4598805860805859,293,8,68,4,7,93,61,78,0.0,0.6990000000000001,0.301,0.9715,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,1,8,4,0,0,4,0,4,0,0,1,0,13,13,6,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,3,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,5,2,7,4,9,7,3,13,0,0,1,0,3,4,0,2,6,44,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23649139298848226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18609234262942506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1223685737893197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22119464674507386,0.2058553423501012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2029882413817196,0.19355915988775707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16221558852664136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2474737374807795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5147651621237396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1928522856696991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22281219788637532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2688843135562213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1941274838942947,0.0,0.21759791460785607,0.2243476126769308,0.0,0.0,0.2783019358127137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,goalofkaizen,2019/03/12,"Please fill out this survey I made for my community health promotion class Hey alcoholism, I doing a mini-study on alcohol abuse, specifically how age of first use is correlated to alcohol addition/dependency in later life. It's 13 short questions and takes just a couple minutes. Every response is greatly appreciated and will help me immensely. I'll share the results with all after my study concludes in a week. [https://qtrial2019q1az1.qualtrics.com/jfe/form/SV\_bBCdiIZKnyyX4gd](https://qtrial2019q1az1.qualtrics.com/jfe/form/SV_bBCdiIZKnyyX4gd) Thank you, u/goalofkaizen",13.85065934065934,18.63221820512821,9.481355311355317,46.93269230769232,52.84615384615384,10.61098901098901,35.50183150183151,10.608840637214634,4.902444688644689,492,19,53,12,7,137,68,78,0.053,0.78,0.16699999999999998,0.7959999999999999,0,0,3,0,1,0,31.0,0,1,0,3,2,3,0,0,4,0,4,5,0,5,1,12,8,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,2,4,3,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,6,3,9,6,1,11,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,1,5,31,8,2,0.0,0.2429106603135997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6572998721933073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268465144463693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17273498210833882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.174386666236682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2260310729285004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2179226226748963,0.0,0.0,0.13741803040832495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448089978428129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19399127578982966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22504621109775996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2296650526369321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15414666008400252,0.0,0.0,0.18875136269327808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17706816275245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16445162100124913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,passthemilk1,2019/03/12,"Father's side of the family is addicts. Dealing with recent deaths. Just looking to quickly vent and see if anyone has any advice or insight. Hi:) I hope whoever is reading this is well. My father is an alcoholic, I am 20 years old and I have never once seen him without a beer in his hand. He and my mother are divorced and while he visited quite a few times while I was growing up and we are on good terms, he is still an alcoholic who has had little to no effect on my life. His brother is even more of an alcoholic than he is. He currently is homeless. Actually, he in hospice at the moment as a result of his seizures from his addiction. His daughter (my cousin) overdosed on heroin in July of 2018. This past weekend, there was a remembrance for her at my (alcoholic) grandmother's (father's mom, of course) house, and at this remembrance, her brother overdosed on heroin and died. I also have a half brother who I have met once when I was young, but have heard about occasionally from my father. For a long time, I had heard he was on heroin as well. Recently, I got some mixed messages from my father about his condition. He said he is ""doing better."" But then again, my dad is a habitual liar, so who knows how my half brother is actually doing. I can only assume that it's not good. I live with my amazing mother who very much has limited my interaction with this side of the family my entire life- however, I cannot help but know that it is a part of me. Addiction obviously runs in the blood and I am fearful for my future? This post stems from a conversation I had with a friend today regarding the inner-city gang problem (unrelated) and he told me that a father in the home is the single most important indicator of future success. I told him it was debatable. He does not know my circumstances; really no one does. I feel as though I am on a pretty good path in life. I have never really opened up about my father's side of the family as I have not found it to truly affect me. However, perhaps I am wrong. Idk. Just thought I would throw some things out there and see if anyone had anything to say. Thanks :)",3.2541932168550867,5.0942515347721775,4.931391572456324,80.92761151079141,74.41966426858514,8.123028434395339,25.82315861596437,8.841846274778883,2.051481041452552,1658,58,318,35,35,561,200,417,0.087,0.794,0.11900000000000001,0.9443,3,0,5,0,1,0,58.0,1,0,0,5,18,15,1,1,23,0,42,13,2,4,3,51,61,28,2,5,12,17,2,0,1,1,10,4,1,0,17,17,5,1,9,3,0,4,9,4,2,3,19,10,50,11,51,41,9,53,0,0,4,0,59,23,0,8,25,235,67,2,0.0,0.0,0.1777993516740549,0.29793471705091656,0.0,0.08902108174916451,0.0,0.3894293496586812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07285199556865246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06195057842964561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12739735452936865,0.0,0.0749668776359579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0805698373576716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09391927278102877,0.0,0.0,0.09454658460953301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15944304380556454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060170160970915765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2576406481989219,0.10251192461131038,0.04606249163308128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09988556827757243,0.07038301424013367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22922905483128425,0.07286035055198314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061061871997693674,0.0,0.09137992316950916,0.0904820587111379,0.0,0.10511624305054253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15019720998563524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19303817259171974,0.0,0.09130532881511726,0.0804422606734278,0.08061992332978396,0.07650038223403467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10669427943661056,0.0,0.0,0.06696839239217021,0.0,0.14052263486388744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09559328355817644,0.19403534500490266,0.06173117409608899,0.06928504501513913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09865155366704184,0.08696449239065669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08724784934969193,0.09268063491695336,0.0,0.08716962908066603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0968952104838376,0.0911238505382421,0.0,0.11672095767988053,0.0,0.17989893507980415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08665619861564415,0.07244573854584199,0.0,0.0,0.145188531989844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07275193704193553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08387190177242543,0.0,0.0,0.0605222590699024,0.0,0.0895044993041154,0.07232258717527695,0.1062413496768328,0.0,0.08635138756624497,0.17409837493944033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0751663788660695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16381823879482232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08781637579822339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06471425635453454,0.09960267180431998,0.0,0.058664896579663665 alcoholism,Sevemir,2019/06/13,"My dad is an alcoholic and im out of ideas how to help him. Hi everyone! I want to share my story with you. Mostly because alcoholism of my dad sort of shaped me. Made me who I am today. But instead of talking about my life, im just curious if anyone every happened to deal with something similar or has any advice. Im gonna turn 18 in 5 days, and in about 2 years move from my home to a different country so i already gave up on my dad but if any of you dealt with something like this/can provide advice, i would gladly read it. Let's get to my story. Im after 7 years of depression proven my psychiatrist. Demons of the past, still haunt me sometimes but with time i learnt to deal with them. My dad is an alcoholic, he's a profesional soldier. He's a colonel in my country and is just one step under, the Ministry of National Defense. So yea, he earns quite a lot, wouldn't call him rich, but he definietely lives better than an average person. He enjoys cheep bears and vodka, also the most expensive cigarretes avaliable in local superemarkets. One i calculated how much money, he's wasting... well a lot. To put it into perspective, without giving any specific numbers (theese things everywhere cost different amounts), he smokes over 1 package of cigarettes a day, and also drinks enough beer that when i was younger the money from selling cans to the local junkyard was enough to satisfy my needs. I rememmber him as a ridicolously intelligent person, he worked hard, was sort of a workoholic. He's also a perfectionist. I loved him, he was still drinking when i was younger but not that much. I can quite confidentially say that he's has alcoholic genes. Eveyrone in his family drunk a lot. For example, his brother drunk himself to death and his other one, is on a good way to do so, his sister thoe is clean. Im sometimes scared that i will become an alcoholic like him too, especially because my future choice of job is crazy stressfull. Im always '' the sober one'' on parties. He's not really, aggresive. I mean he was, he once even hit my mother, and destroyed her plants with an axe but when we were away from home. Right now im big enough ( im taller and i weight more) that i can easly put him down. I once had to, i hit him really hard in the head. He fell over on the grass (it happened outside). Then the next day, he said that I failed him, becasue he never hit his father. I have to be honest i was kinda stunned when he said that. He was the aggresive one. He especially enjoys saying that my mother is ''the dumb one'' (that's the best way that i can translate it). He's also ill. He's pancreas is on the verge of shutting down but he doesn't stop. Also im 100% sure that he has lung cancer, the way he always caughs like he's close to puking almost, is so characteristic. My mother says that his father also coughed like that (he died of a lung cancer). At the same time, he gets mad when someone prepares something heavy or with a decent amount of fat in it, and says that he won't eat it becuase he's pancreas is in bad condition. When i was 12 we had to live in another house, because he was too aggresive to deal with. After that he stopped. Usually when he starts drinking he's totally drunk and stays like that for about a week. Then, the first day of ''soberness'' is always the worst for him, he's angry, and likes to point out everything to the point of dellusion, when he just starts making up things on the go. He also in 2002 got put in military jail for dirnking too much. Stayed in it for about 4 months. That was the momment when something snapped in him. He changed, of course he made quite a career, but he's drinking problem started to strengthen every day. He had been drinking since he was 15, but just more than average. Nothing too big, just that kind of a person everyone said. They were wrong. I feel sad for that poor idiot. I watched him, everyday he became more and more stupid. I sometimes like to joke that when he drinks if you be quiet enough you can hear he's grey cells dying. He's a shadow of former himslef. To give you an example how big of a drinker he is. Im 2 cm taller than him, and i weight more (around 80kg), and i wear S clothes. He's smaller and 6 kg lighter, but wears clothes XXL. He kinda looks like a skeleton with swollen liver. He also, has a sad story. He's father died when i was around 1 year old (2002 after the mission in Irac). He promised my mother that he won't do the same. He's on a good way to repeat his father mistakes. It is also hard for my mother. I support her as much as i can but she also snapped. There is something wrong with her mind, i won't go for the details i just want to let you know about it. To close this chaotic essay. I just feel sad for him. I want to help him, not because he's my father but becuase he was once a wonderful man, able to work really hard, wise, and brilliant. He refuses any treatment. He says that ''is it wrong that i want to drink from time to time?''. He just doesn't see the problem. Even after i came back from the asylum because i was really close to suicide i never even heard him talking about it. We can't just leave him. My mom stubbornly it's not possible. He's alone, everyone left him becuase he's sainter and smarter than Pope and Einstein combined (in is opponion). Should i give up or try this one last time? Thank you for reading this chaotic mess, i was never good at expressing my emotions in a organized manner. Maybe im just chaotic by nature. If this made it harder to understand to you, i'm sorry.",2.7076033197831957,4.5684983830171655,3.9050194783197862,87.60395198170733,76.00993676603433,6.816655374887082,25.53305668473352,7.682902978006402,1.335861495031618,4318,155,880,61,96,1407,422,1107,0.149,0.728,0.12300000000000001,-0.9926,3,1,22,0,0,1,153.0,3,8,2,10,60,50,7,1,54,1,66,33,7,7,5,122,112,70,5,15,34,17,8,8,0,8,12,11,3,4,44,40,20,5,7,15,7,9,15,22,1,8,32,23,105,28,134,65,25,127,2,5,4,1,153,57,1,18,63,532,149,8,0.03723748552404532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07277607976727055,0.0,0.19897773691358275,0.03728796280869183,0.038566804764865285,0.04109249124452017,0.2977880372004607,0.09295371296632736,0.0,0.0,0.10129106833655734,0.03904675036813583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.026037315693076244,0.0,0.0,0.06629851384357814,0.0,0.0,0.0349858434329065,0.028633327835184387,0.031091745001768395,0.11349812774806604,0.04112587716065348,0.0,0.0,0.039078443687196734,0.0329335298738546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038023636120523036,0.04258976326017363,0.0,0.0,0.039392322170062916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12007548791346635,0.11517063744836498,0.03207259171723818,0.0,0.11593989279956615,0.07781049355568632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25534991548335817,0.0,0.038103244039550746,0.0,0.04188715918602296,0.0,0.15390510701465454,0.0,0.07378502398062534,0.0,0.06274837518717914,0.1067460395868291,0.03346665090208446,0.0,0.035104187300727036,0.0,0.037656783084416036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03167418616397465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038910098531554034,0.10716476769333212,0.04232584232301122,0.0936991084111048,0.02978221888261982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06585797094045759,0.0,0.13342989136794914,0.0,0.038216403162504284,0.0,0.041969352523612655,0.0,0.04991900322852149,0.0,0.07470446827920812,0.0,0.0,0.04296705869423945,0.0,0.04203658859433105,0.4424516178562371,0.0,0.03695245854433908,0.0,0.0,0.038777110914634746,0.020464748199637672,0.03035352072308377,0.0,0.039429120501508805,0.0404586369772874,0.07615570373033796,0.026301937268911744,0.1455388359120127,0.0,0.065762763880185,0.0,0.031270109339819635,0.0,0.0,0.09497393570237853,0.03360828453395226,0.10570502750275393,0.024856310741114163,0.0,0.03741005926714005,0.040562538278636415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03759924516541091,0.04361209299202377,0.02972260567895836,0.03957755400464083,0.10949534584068776,0.027611123681613788,0.08615953336292688,0.0,0.039602488304884886,0.0,0.0,0.035730371660859794,0.0,0.03907447703819019,0.11897012034915412,0.17663158733355208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035547393442014776,0.0,0.09754300812846882,0.0,0.0,0.07040292007845134,0.041979669893348934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07126248922848523,0.0,0.11230187404254173,0.0,0.11881994852254897,0.07449512503294407,0.0,0.09542114698806067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0318006091753705,0.10626412809524884,0.14806371545975136,0.03728121914144181,0.0,0.029673454809160883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030803232827048038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031551200644315665,0.14333617807675889,0.11048647602996058,0.04168431636632596,0.07907065174261631,0.07938040992705768,0.059475808082247165,0.062264410564656814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04073176527483923,0.042256657288518594,0.035095889418873226,0.0,0.0,0.05986016066669144,0.0,0.03428327365657966,0.0,0.0,0.049477861504507815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10856738632498464,0.0,0.03529678221189734,0.0,0.0,0.02528180833808046,0.04050369123701333,0.0,0.038765535680991774,0.0,0.0,0.04101182943240731,0.0,0.08785453500825623,0.11822953098682695,0.029869664756887758,0.09069045106255888,0.033480971528347135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03589560722240995,0.0403824646060431,0.05421866591563421,0.0,0.0,0.026452441320627976,0.1221400343464006,0.0,0.07193915939569588 alcoholism,smith_dt,2019/06/13,"Can my husband's drinking be causing a Hypoglycemic Rage? My husband is a type Ii diabetic it who for years and was a drinking alcoholic. Thankfully he is now clean and sober for almost 8 months. I was watching Doctor Oz and saw a segment about hypoglycemic rage being used as a defense in a murder case. It made me curious if that could help explain why my diabetic husband, who was drinking about a liter a day was always angry and hating me by the end of the night. Have any of you experienced something like this?",5.290216450216448,6.636241484848488,6.255007215007215,75.40727272727275,68.49494949494951,8.889466089466088,34.34487734487736,9.23628265651192,3.295342279942279,413,20,72,8,7,137,69,99,0.171,0.698,0.131,-0.8105,0,0,5,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,3,7,5,0,10,0,11,7,0,3,0,12,17,6,1,2,1,3,0,1,0,0,4,0,1,0,6,4,4,1,1,3,0,0,0,5,0,0,6,3,7,2,9,8,1,8,0,0,2,0,9,2,0,2,7,49,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22107563902121774,0.2071452900610468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17212814703277238,0.0,0.0,0.14067520823555546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21250720947755108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16516476939550165,0.0,0.0,0.133410730431531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2117349644805092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6079464676566304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18322087789872865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2042362360225576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386571647314565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10106372844373226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1957405458638148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16511756907520758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19412867113725016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15925468675393012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1904533831003245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1786648326897824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1866633732997625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13321419672995807 alcoholism,I_bought_you_flours,2019/06/13,"To have an intervention or not? I'm writing this post as a 28 year old daughter of an alcoholic. He's struggled for most of his life with this but for the most part has been tolerable to us children and my mom. My parents have been married for 26 years as of today. He was doing okay when I graduated high school in 2009. At that point I moved out of state. I visited in 2014 and during those few months my dad was arrested for DUI and spent the night in jail. He lost his license and for the next 6 months my mom and two little brothers had to adjust their lives to help drive him to work and whatnot. There were clearly other things that happened that escalated this into being more serious. That was the last major thing until I moved back to my home state in 2017. I don't live with them or visit enough to know the daily occurrences but my first Christmas home my mom and brothers pulled me aside and said we needed to have an intervention for my dad. He had turned into an angry person and was also smoking marijuana more and the relationship between all of them was very strained. We were planning the intervention for the following month however my older brother then got into some legal troubles and that had to be our priority. By the time everything cool down enough we started to try to plan it a second time and right on cue my older brother got into legal trouble for the second time and this resulted in my niece and nephew living with my parents temporarily. These circumstances made it very difficult to try to plan or have an intervention for my dad. I woke up this morning to messages from my mom saying that this is the third night in a row she's had to pick up my Dad drunk and this time he was falling down and could barely walk was slurring his speech terribly and ended up pissing himself. My mom had just learned about the death of an employee and had a lot of phone calls to make and really needed his support. She is breaking down, and I can see it happening. She told me that she's not sure what she will do when my younger brother's move out in the next year or two and that the only option she sees is to divorce him before things get worse. I can see all 3 of them living with him struggling and it's breaking my heart. Obviously no child wants their parents to get a divorce though I do understand that sometimes it's necessary. I told her that maybe now is the time that we have to make his intervention a priority to see if there is a chance at repairing their relationships. My question is this: is there anything family members can say or do that will show that this is truly the last straw and he needs to change? Or is this 100% his decision? If we have an intervention, I just want to be sure it's effective. I've done research, but maybe someone who has actually held one, or had one for themselves can help answer?",6.445964285714287,6.384889239285716,6.659285714285716,78.48821428571429,65.53571428571429,9.714285714285717,32.14285714285714,9.354420925462401,2.676410714285714,2274,82,443,38,32,732,261,560,0.109,0.8320000000000001,0.059000000000000004,-0.9865,5,0,1,0,2,0,32.0,7,0,6,7,12,15,1,3,30,2,51,5,2,6,6,86,83,43,1,8,16,19,0,0,0,2,2,4,2,3,37,38,2,1,8,2,1,10,4,10,0,8,29,9,62,5,73,48,13,71,0,1,4,0,77,26,1,15,30,323,99,7,0.0,0.0,0.06764788326538121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0740837099173405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055436459643709975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05704577141973265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05330403255694857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05898757706669714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07078510571207146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07333306263013764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05534765801711165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07094006624126734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06139836315364961,0.1432554902841067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062301785511102624,0.0,0.06535023639354509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05896491879035835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07243535124029275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11088563467545072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12260172646893865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08214643150260226,0.09292961644625386,0.07324207796430095,0.139070436807954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03809733924684819,0.11301271484435199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048963897195705125,0.0,0.06947845610275769,0.2448489764851483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07567271685213907,0.058934746598802885,0.0,0.06559377542925471,0.0925454145334726,0.0,0.1392857322495827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4059431090414386,0.16599552276020013,0.22103367509334207,0.0,0.15420326733906484,0.0,0.0,0.14744861918186222,0.13010725399545756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07274135958552706,0.0,0.09394822241517828,0.05272220166261444,0.0,0.0,0.2309203042943146,0.0750685390422643,0.0,0.0,0.06052894853753346,0.0,0.0,0.06553132010304892,0.0,0.06639093193976799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07765605863088341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044409192977413185,0.0,0.0,0.1488509141694575,0.0,0.059200268881489264,0.06594071747707282,0.11025463969537276,0.0,0.07015716158290387,0.22096136506788508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05873596796139183,0.0,0.0685608363943726,0.0,0.049066186310909934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14493997836219427,0.0,0.0,0.07866533184058408,0.13066957798037854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13816257521647726,0.0,0.06810812147111703,0.0,0.20210991640932074,0.0,0.06570877262357802,0.1324795218172264,0.0,0.0941296340061198,0.07540199619135354,0.13543426361083946,0.07216623187920239,0.08338535121475144,0.0,0.0,0.11439516230261453,0.08177535320573594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05046695148040016,0.0,0.07064463419956113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13392251563004506 alcoholism,savgasm,2019/06/13,"3 Months Sober and Tempted I mean the title basically says it all I'm 3 months sober and I'm hella tempted to drink since my parents are away until tomorrow afternoon and I have access to the liquor cabinet. I used to rely on alcohol when I got sad or felt angry about something and wanted to just be happy for a bit but my (now ex) boyfriend made me stop I want him back and I know if I start drinking again I'll never get that chance so I really need help",1.6639583333333334,3.5973266458333337,3.6887500000000015,87.61458333333336,79.41666666666666,6.766666666666668,22.125,7.793537801064563,1.0152375000000005,362,11,76,6,9,123,72,96,0.099,0.813,0.08800000000000001,0.0137,1,0,4,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,0,3,0,3,4,0,2,2,20,16,11,0,4,4,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,5,4,1,3,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,2,12,1,9,12,2,14,0,1,0,0,5,2,0,2,12,45,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21800675835245226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19165838433339136,0.15685822642818176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22270780789035646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3996714706708013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1958655215642326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10657805968165524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631520464513819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21715462022681845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13673238326609854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11210936169808357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19302335648937885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22220846457092108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3256509504212567,0.0,0.0,0.15125841869715093,0.15733217914197584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22651037604683974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13068330693558072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16222362932501935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16874533401485736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570439789990945,0.0,0.0,0.14438748051756498,0.0,0.0,0.17054750092245635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17618468130966006,0.0,0.0,0.24064102196556525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,elmato14,2019/06/13,"True or not!? , I mean is alcoholism really hereditary? Or is it a learned behavior? I'm sure this has been many times on here.",-0.030200000000000667,2.2790530800000006,2.4235000000000007,88.81925000000004,98.2,8.9,22.25,8.841846274778883,2.5944000000000007,97,4,21,4,4,33,22,25,0.0,0.7709999999999999,0.22899999999999998,0.7124,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,2,7,6,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,13,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4781625902884336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4536199912205468,0.0,0.4873783538007096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2866327127838457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4216939455968679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2608978445088347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,porsupuestoquesi9,2019/06/13,"Managed to control it yesterday I've a propensity to overdrink (10+ drinks worth). I was at a work function yesterday. Has 4 drinks equivalent. Realized what was happening. Sipped diet Coke the rest of the night. Really proud of myself. Not trying to get fired. Small steps toward becoming a normal sociable human who sometimes drinks.",3.71808429118774,6.979786517241379,4.6233333333333375,73.39388888888891,89.0,8.784674329501916,28.858237547892717,8.841846274778883,3.969752490421456,270,13,38,9,9,87,47,58,0.062,0.8290000000000001,0.109,0.4005,0,0,4,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,5,0,3,5,0,1,0,4,5,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,5,1,1,3,1,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,2,1,7,3,1,7,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,3,22,5,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.272803163821408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2770427444930358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7259273545524234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12905254205940922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21843014758362544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23180217367598102,0.24201737735497925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15824094579261336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442992287857176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1677035914592809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1798262386256411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,xmc1080,2019/06/13,"Should I be worried? So this is pretty much a throwaway account for obvious reasons, and I hope I'm posting this in the right sub, but I don't know where else to ask. Is having a couple drinks of hard liquor before bed every night something to be worried about? I'm in college which certainly doesn't help, and my friends and I usually get drunk at least twice a week. I have trouble sleeping and alcohol usually helps for some reason, but I feel off if I try to sleep without it. Then again, I feel the same way if I don't take melatonin. Alcoholism does somewhat run in my family, not extreme, but my uncle was reaaalllyyyy bad and my half brother had some issues a while back. I never drink during the day, nor do I desire to, but once I'm in my room before I go to sleep, I just want to drink at least a little. My tolerance is also really high, which I hate. One time I finished a fifth of whiskey in 2 hours without even realizing it. Sorry for the long post, but what are your opinions?",4.560657692307694,5.1192439350000045,5.5139999999999985,82.9316153846154,69.65,8.353846153846153,29.884615384615394,8.384062270229773,2.0916076923076927,777,29,156,11,13,256,126,200,0.15,0.759,0.091,-0.9177,0,0,7,0,0,0,23.0,0,1,0,0,8,6,1,0,10,0,15,11,3,2,3,34,28,17,0,6,11,1,3,0,1,1,2,0,2,0,7,5,8,0,6,6,1,2,8,3,0,3,2,3,22,3,22,23,7,32,0,0,0,0,6,13,0,7,14,110,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446837649928701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.091547802334905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10702122771530896,0.0,0.0,0.08802631097908785,0.09558412595846076,0.0,0.0,0.19482423950677696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1266674350134134,0.0,0.07382866777398056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10018023627254097,0.0,0.0,0.33643379089376674,0.0,0.0,0.095631457101524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07561146348879212,0.0,0.09645242808402926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10791941913942908,0.0,0.1157667637286532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08844521313515126,0.0,0.05980989099975965,0.0,0.06506033424097858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10254956373799858,0.1130230616978464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534640237157619,0.12095201099001485,0.0,0.11370221997469628,0.11273750797843478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11948501180521648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06291396862772074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11473676361566372,0.0,0.10130919198081724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0841543062966251,0.0,0.08829228561059957,0.0,0.0,0.1074295982072594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12191505031426615,0.07757307510848868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21927604876339307,0.11646501073062755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07333736762192691,0.23540435310705346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0977633591424834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.343681224655851,0.0,0.0,0.08813055233094208,0.0,0.12814845052359106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08607300886406731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06675288716588905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07772286671292658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25216210090692354,0.0,0.06752193339239677,0.09086709656543764,0.0918271328385386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22070490041051855,0.0,0.0,0.2325153910464433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,V8Worthy,2019/06/13,Vodka Ramen? Anyone tried it? Thoughts?,3.9049999999999976,-0.21521383333333155,2.890000000000001,77.90500000000002,187.33333333333331,0.8,18.666666666666668,3.1291,-0.013933333333332907,31,1,3,0,3,9,6,6,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5562503853953704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.631558906975012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5401100404251248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,firehatz,2019/08/22,"What is the least you can drink while still being an Alcoholic? I drink a couple of beers, maybe a couple of nips, every couple of days. I drink while driving. It's self-destructive, and with weed I'll smoke til it's all gone. I don't get pukey or black out, sometimes I'll be too drunk to drive if I haven't eaten anything. I think my behavior, because it's so dumb and risky, is bad and addictive, but is it something other than Alcoholism?",4.229666666666667,4.896802855555556,4.944444444444446,86.33000000000004,70.44444444444444,8.222222222222221,26.11111111111111,8.344100000000001,1.4967777777777775,347,10,73,5,6,112,65,90,0.106,0.894,0.0,-0.7552,0,0,8,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,0,3,2,1,0,4,0,8,9,0,0,1,10,12,10,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,6,5,8,0,1,5,0,3,2,2,0,0,2,1,7,0,8,8,2,9,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,2,5,46,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18898758312963207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3705374401491497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14266020247086506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1447480479653972,0.10567842003287647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5754573923794654,0.0,0.11180261823823874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5094793095940925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14606296334972438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0905732503637762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17416304722942855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18085190011147292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1334607110553065,0.17145710467524236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13844522268821222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11108184953074372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,LJane-,2019/08/22,"Help I’m 24 years old and I have been struggling with drinking. At first the only reason I began was to be more prone to talk to people in social settings.Now, I feel it might have just become something I turn too like anyone would to a close friend when you don’t feel alright. I have been severely sick the past couple days and I know it’s because my body is freaking out telling to have more alcohol. I can’t do that or I know I will loose my life. I can’t even eat well at the moment. So my question is does anyone have a safe and useful remedy I can try to relieve my symptoms and/or sleep? I don’t have Valium and so I have a sleep aid but that doesn’t work as well. I’m thinking I might need to go to the hospital if I can’t get relief. Thoughts?",0.81527777777778,2.7275630432098765,2.562453703703703,94.72479166666668,82.14814814814815,5.284567901234569,20.001543209876548,6.322622252153567,-0.008704938271605123,591,16,134,5,16,195,98,162,0.064,0.792,0.14400000000000002,0.8738,0,0,3,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,2,8,10,0,1,7,1,25,9,3,2,0,25,39,11,0,3,4,0,2,1,1,4,4,0,0,0,4,7,3,1,8,1,0,1,6,2,2,1,5,2,20,8,14,29,2,14,0,0,0,0,7,5,0,5,9,88,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15904409923393828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20811782690409705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0907197346418176,0.16436080210979714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16530627986264204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16466730520162448,0.0,0.09597705809452932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13023402218347968,0.0,0.0,0.1457876570495457,0.0,0.15228075814313874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09829468745247703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15049646353928156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265868354308723,0.0,0.0,0.11497852548610007,0.0,0.07775268816559194,0.0,0.08457824944386404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09975139714480162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16357596050428058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10511648152020132,0.07270629060135424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31575054947343384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1103486843024638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15616231996535346,0.0,0.0,0.11318486995881227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14206622453835227,0.10317355469666728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16671327487226525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1530124947061781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1681250627950159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29785640961562154,0.151703991022465,0.0,0.11456946733570635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15557973761925514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15468171909885112,0.0,0.11961646414452305,0.13007587603632714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09535831354988404,0.0,0.1181470347999333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10103950563779376,0.16187421739644398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12853332689994645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26761541470922273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10834326261790493,0.0,0.0,0.10571797547896168,0.0,0.0,0.09583566971870387 alcoholism,bloodynosedork,2019/08/22,"Bloody nose problems Hi all, I ran this by a couple doctors but they had no idea, but maybe someone here has experience or knowledge. After I drink, about one drink or more, the following sleep I -always- wake up with either dried blood or fresh blood in my left nostril. This began after last Christmas, when I went through a few weeks of hard drinking (about 750ml of Smirnoff a day). One afternoon I woke up with blood all over my pillow and went to doctor. It scared me for a month or two to stay off, but then I thought I was better and started drinking hard again. Next time, I went two weeks being constantly drunk, then for the first time in my life I vomited bile after blacking out. I experienced alcohol withdrawal and slept 0 hours for 6 days straight. This withdrawal lasted about 2 weeks. The deepness of my breath is still affected (can't breath in as deep as I used to). Anyway, have mostly stayed sober since this last event, since about March. But now, even if I have one glass of beer, or one glass of wine, I always wake up the next morning with a bloody nose. I went to doctor but they don't know, they just tell me to stop drinking. For the time being, I will, but I would like to be able to just have a glass of wine with friends now and again. &#x200B; Previous to these episodes I have been a relatively light to moderate drinker, sometimes going many months without drinking. I am 35. &#x200B; Thank you all! Any help at all is very appreciated.",4.9610638297872365,6.245727411347518,4.596234042553191,87.22350000000002,69.21276595744679,7.625815602836879,28.28439716312057,7.908726449838941,1.592661843971631,1158,40,232,14,20,351,161,282,0.08800000000000001,0.805,0.107,0.8192,0,0,11,0,0,0,48.0,0,1,3,2,15,6,0,1,12,0,18,28,12,2,4,39,33,21,0,3,16,0,2,1,1,2,6,0,1,0,6,9,11,1,4,10,0,7,4,2,0,7,12,8,28,4,45,16,8,58,0,0,1,0,8,14,0,7,36,154,34,3,0.0817731758027788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08739065612240005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13608366596089067,0.1772024036356777,0.19872671824098787,0.0556085636675715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07232172877091232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08836775258988447,0.0,0.0,0.09048046367511324,0.0,0.10547386693349038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2510949313808684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.480639485481341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05401041139654675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07998985697733109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06955622156399742,0.0,0.0,0.06317775277809386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04647358027229508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14650540726133945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05481083603603528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08053010621384553,0.0,0.0,0.09231196201616912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04494039886790869,0.1999681571989537,0.0,0.0,0.08884679477480241,0.0,0.057758812389616124,0.0399502431745823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08290516545656218,0.08215214615575596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13054113752834798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17393340032541682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2216464809215465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07824588553464032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08186921442443992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352872320894822,0.0,0.0818322314123837,0.0,0.06928614649370902,0.0,0.08087576180363935,0.0,0.05787947471743288,0.17431865027702764,0.06530416382681654,0.0683660365315525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07147335995025032,0.07528575370654375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06491876743503207,0.14304778923918146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15976102130429362,0.0,0.0,0.0706257687363753,0.0,0.06747143401706147,0.0,0.0,0.19678052744118546,0.0,0.0,0.3032182128782689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07882642339129528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05808931790326245,0.0,0.19872671824098787,0.0 alcoholism,Trundle_69,2019/08/22,"Alcoholic from 18-27(present) I’ve drank at least a pint of rum or whiskey every day since I’ve been 18. We’ve all had fucked up pasts. Started getting shooting pain in my feet about a month ago, I think it’s gout. Went 2 weeks sober and then have been drinking twice as much as before since then. I need help",1.0983035714285734,3.3800191875000043,1.619464285714287,99.73625,83.6875,4.9071428571428575,20.080357142857142,6.1826913282559595,-0.1842830357142855,244,7,56,2,7,74,53,64,0.125,0.831,0.044000000000000004,-0.7184,0,0,3,1,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,2,0,4,7,1,0,1,5,11,6,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,4,0,1,3,0,1,0,2,0,1,5,0,3,0,8,6,3,12,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,1,8,26,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270937113853271,0.2737852601472275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21799568556541946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1652189797995915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2509650581431149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21584802012170431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23684012064476384,0.13384677620293828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17171628717370965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2044854729552304,0.0,0.18832641914433795,0.18995890689547476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2726003022810951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24455882633002016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42383993524821695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1813299927683623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16415384668911245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20549720945732455,0.0,0.0,0.23748728118593265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,SpookyNectar,2019/08/22,"New here. Depressed- prone to drinking when upset Hello everyone. I am 21. I dont know if im an alcoholic because i only want to drink when im sad. Im sad a lot now. My boyfriend says its a problem when i drink at all now. I feel happy again when i drink. Does that mame me an alcoholic? I drank for a month every day last year because the pain was so bad. Maybe that makes me an alcoholic. I wouldnt be here if i wasnt i suppose. I want to be a mom some day. I didnt start drinking until it happened. I cant be a mom if im unhealthy and have bad habits. I feel like my life is falling apart. Apparently its unhealthy to sneak beers in the bathroom when hes not around. Or to tske shots in the kitchen when hes not around. I suppose i am an alcoholic or maybe was. But i havent drank in a while now. Im just real sad tonight.",-0.9017287630402356,1.0771472349726778,1.5819597615499283,98.53630774962744,90.31147540983606,4.638748137108793,20.340039741679085,6.1124844417494595,-0.09594863387978192,636,22,157,6,22,216,94,183,0.21,0.74,0.05,-0.9824,1,0,10,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,0,16,11,0,1,13,0,17,15,0,1,1,24,27,16,0,7,9,2,2,1,0,1,6,1,1,0,5,3,13,0,3,6,0,1,8,9,0,0,6,3,23,2,13,17,3,28,0,4,0,0,6,7,0,7,21,96,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40884468578206606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702815820041206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597125250397346,0.1166037645612685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12336110031101236,0.0,0.08237547631111157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08369610713978842,0.0,0.11209057121097288,0.4684589771360577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08058169011352538,0.09138909979392852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09671795376785024,0.06832596871598659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08457504421427373,0.10181165155580003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5165436055872427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052561807146568884,0.07796020194836105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06755408572943833,0.04672537472070377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08131058090138038,0.0,0.0,0.0638411281098862,0.0,0.1921685330656491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22402722953078572,0.07633975519027311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0923706997416312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07273931069509308,0.10176879579846436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0915155461252731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10886042707959652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07605758332797558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06769521109023455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11282311125961487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06158968559912525 alcoholism,bahamut_x3,2019/02/05,"I wrote a poem to my wife (this ended up being really long by the time I contextualized the poem) I started drinking in 2007. It got progressively worse (as it does). Back then it was for fun, with friends, and I thought it made playing video games and entertaining myself really fun. I then started to use it as a coping mechanism to deal with my ex-wife. We divorced but I didnt stop drinking. In the meantime (2013) I met and manage to woo the girl of my dreams. Beautiful, smart, argumentative about religion, politics etc and never takes losing or winning a debate too far (we’ve only ever had 1 real argument in which we ended up upset)... I have, however, hurt her in drunken tirades. She has always been stone cold when I get hostile, patiently waits out my fits, and then holds me while I sob myself to sleep. A perfect angel whose love I’ve basically been abusing because I won’t stop drinking. The awful things I have said in my angry drunkenness should have left me out in the streets alone. But she never gave up on me. I hit the lowest point in my life last February when I lost my job (actually for reasons not related to alcohol). I could barely hold myself together, and my wife was there to glue me back together again. Every hangover, every drunken fit, outrage, tantrum. I was killing 15-20 beers a night, rapidly drinking right through our savings. Didnt get another job until August. In June she went into the hospital with chest pains caused by stress. I was doing this to her, and even after a hospital visit, I didn’t see it. I found Reddit in December of last year. I started off on the typical funny subs or entertaining subs. Then I don’t know how, but I stumbled onto some of the many support subs for alcoholics. And it scared me shitless. The consequences of drinking are all over the place. I kind of had a wakeup call when I realized that thanks to my wife, I have probably been saved from DUIs and PI citations or worse. I have been tapering down my drinking. Around 6 a night. I dont have insurance and live in the US, otherwise I would have checked into rehab already. I looked at TSM and other alternatives... but right now I think my best bet is to taper out and then quit cold once I go a few days and make sure I dont get hit by DTs. Regardless, I’m determined to quit and this is my first (semi) public acknowledgement of my intent to quit. I am looking into my local AA resources, but I’m an agnostic bordering on atheism so I hope they’ll be open-minded about me clinging to an unconventional higher power on my journey through the steps. Anyway, I wrote this poem for my wife to thank her for not giving up on me. When we were dating I wrote her all kinds of poetry and I kept writing after we got married, but the worse my drinking got, even the poems stopped. Here it is: ——————————— How all of it hurts you Sick. Sad. Can’t focus, blurry vision I passed out in the floor again Never bad enough to see How all of it hurts me Quiet. Sober. Can’t stop shaking, still can’t focus Your worry and concern showing again Never bad enough to see How all of it hurts me Angry. Confused. Can’t laugh, can’t cry I diagnosed all of humanities problems again Don’t care enough to see How all of it hurts me Awake. Anxious. Can’t sleep, can’t rest I drank a few beers less again Starting to care and see How all of it hurts me Trapped. Concerned. Can’t help, can’t stop it The fear is in your eyes again That’s when I knew How all of it hurts you Improving. Striving. Can help, can stop The color of our laughter painting happiness again I’ll do what I need to do So none of it hurts you Clean. Sober. You helped, I stopped. Our lives are much better again Thanks to you I could finally see How all of it was hurting me ———————————— I’m in the next to last stanza for now. I’ll be counting days soon. Then hopefully months and years. Thank you all for these subreddits that helped open my eyes to how awful I was and the direction alcohol was taking me. 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My mom is a heavy drinker, daughter of an alcoholic, married to reformed alcoholic (after a run in with the law). I'm at a place now where I don't trust her with my children because she is unsteady and can't remember doing things. She seems aware that we think she drinks too much. On the weekend, she presumably got drunk and fell down the stairs, resulting in an ambulance ride to the hospital for broken bones, a concussion, and a head laceration requiring staples. She's going to be OK, but I want to tell her that I'm worried about her drinking and wish she would stop. I'd appreciate some advice about the right time and approach to telling her how I feel. I don't want a confrontation, I don't want to hurt her feelings. I don't know how to do that.",6.141676300578034,6.110315335260117,6.435612716763008,79.73561560693645,66.16763005780346,10.15699421965318,35.21907514450867,9.888512548439397,3.2991206936416178,695,31,138,14,10,224,102,173,0.105,0.7809999999999999,0.114,0.5381,0,0,6,0,0,0,20.0,1,1,0,1,7,4,1,0,15,1,11,10,2,3,1,30,27,9,0,5,1,3,2,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,4,9,7,2,7,5,0,6,5,2,0,0,3,3,22,2,23,22,4,22,0,1,1,0,20,11,0,2,5,90,26,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2710696009922569,0.0,0.4446803064192862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08454946268175538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15142309807745044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2717439180755556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14026049765235188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07882568851503098,0.0,0.33279015089817304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14234491868409396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484798665267311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07622519853532425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11647200685768765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3248845687646323,0.0,0.0,0.1019595305300188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14491065957798516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15711863124691608,0.11844796350730513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262661209473316,0.0,0.15669009371311113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11595835459778432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24245761895473145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09214527780877264,0.08887255021979099,0.0,0.0,0.0808763488937501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2454243258176819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1594967024863334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14085529995658602,0.0,0.09852760325898276,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,supernatural1717,2019/02/05,"Addiction Every time I watch my 600 pound life I get so mad and angry at them , then I realize it’s just like me with my drinking. Every time they slip and eat fast food it’s like when I slip and go to the liquor store. 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So I have a history of mental health problems (who doesn't!) -Alcoholism runs in my family and has been a major issue for my mother and my grandparents, and also my extended family. I remember my mum would be very cautious about my alcohol consumption as a teen/young adult. (I live in the UK, so alcohol is treated differently in the UK than in places like America. It's pretty much accepted that young people in their teens drink/get drunk- and drinking culture is huge here) As it's so normal here for teens to drink, I always wondered why she was so strict with me, but now I understand. After a horrible experience at 14 which included a copious amount of alcohol, which put me off it for many, many years, I feel that now in my mid twenties, I have really 'discovered' drinking. Over the course of about a year, I've gone from drinking every month or two, to drinking 5/6 nights a week until I fall asleep. I am incredibly antisocial, and incredibly depressed, so I tend to drink alone in secret. I also have horrendous sleeping problems which Doctors won't even attempt to treat (sometimes not sleeping for 3 days at a time, sometimes sleeping for 20+ hours, and constantly exhausted) Without going into detail, my mental health issues have been treated by various doctors/therapists/psychologists/psychaitrists/months of hospitalisations (I feel like everyone goes through this shit at some point though so whatever) -but I feel that now there's nothing that can be done for me. I've tried it all. I know I'm not an 'alcoholic,' (I feel like people throw that term around far too much) but I do feel like I may be beginning to develop a psychological dependency. I find myself thinking that drinking non-alcoholic liquid is almost kind of pointless (does that make sense?) Is this a normal phase that everyone goes through? Is it the beginning of an 'issue?' If anyone has any thoughts or advice that'd be great. Thanks",6.110201976794157,7.8363378715083805,6.655977653631287,71.86705199828106,66.93296089385476,10.312161581435326,33.60163300386764,10.475803106731721,3.9487796304254412,1570,71,260,43,26,512,202,358,0.091,0.825,0.084,-0.6851,2,1,14,0,0,0,58.0,0,0,1,1,20,16,1,0,17,0,27,22,5,3,1,44,46,24,0,6,9,2,5,4,0,3,9,0,0,1,20,9,13,0,14,8,0,6,5,5,0,1,6,5,32,11,44,32,8,43,0,1,0,0,8,19,1,9,22,176,52,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06627236013317361,0.0,0.4348700599886262,0.06791136065016133,0.07024047414305531,0.0,0.10847034414500176,0.0564311970006253,0.0,0.0,0.04611953667015987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04742092094080375,0.0,0.0,0.060373669477478575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07328870837937924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04373792050143692,0.0,0.058412773963264775,0.0,0.0,0.07085686763498268,0.0,0.06941605831755737,0.05934923847356484,0.06940282125080276,0.0,0.5314977625460047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04479409257653715,0.0,0.0571407931215116,0.12960873959156494,0.0,0.06634041411607587,0.12786824189573492,0.0,0.17145770272374325,0.14535063875156012,0.0,0.0,0.06198572854333685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03543285198854743,0.0,0.038543343834137433,0.0,0.0,0.07477115879828049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1441777611781435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06678847540072624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21235758838756744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07062349793164939,0.037271783999858886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13253258732495626,0.0,0.05988579743725784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04526999481931481,0.13751651063231174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13669206425712874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10826564079578843,0.0,0.09971016597302228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06364393896792489,0.13289728003231038,0.06507457027014991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09403490423157083,0.0,0.07085686763498268,0.0,0.06411128064038006,0.0,0.0,0.0689967398047841,0.0,0.1297880667724706,0.0,0.06817725699596086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04344686219521567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07682619132142644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0696156682549774,0.0,0.0,0.2036052191521704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13415029686894095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06243901747878398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04345595103663275,0.06663224367611545,0.05384105033174102,0.039546053858661265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04604493983070115,0.0,0.06624972661182328,0.07060241633299595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05595813072857296,0.0,0.0,0.05440065434016085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0611964851365919,0.0,0.0,0.06537550845414877,0.07354727668748122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048176975819758376,0.0,0.0,0.08734697617487319 alcoholism,ahNatahilation,2019/02/05,"Alcohol is my crutch for confrontation I've never learned to argue properly or stand up for myself. My older sibling was a bully, so I quickly learned to avoid disagreements and hide from confrontation. My parents divorced early. I never saw them argue. Furthermore, my mom is a doormat and I've only witnessed her lose an argument to said older sibling. As a young adult I was in an abusive relationship, and I learned that confrontation can be physically dangerous. Fast-forward 20 years, and no surprize, I've developed an alcohol problem and an avoidance problem. When I've had any problems at work, I ghost that job. I don't even pick up my last paycheck, or show up to the last few scheduled shifts. I've left friends and cities behind. Left classes without properly dropping the class and getting fails on my college record. I got sent home from work yesterday for acting funny. I told the supervisor I skipped my mental medication and blurted out that I have PTSD. I do have PTSD and I've been out of 1 medication for about 6 weeks. But truthfully, I was drinking on the job. I could possibly salvage my job with lies. I just don't have the courage to have a sober conversation. I've tried it a couple times in the last 10 years. I just start shaking and crying uncontrollably. I mean I become a blubbering mess. Last night I tried a couple of times to call my boss. Sitting there staring at my phone, thinking what I could possibly say. Instead I induced a panic attack. So I start doing shots right away to calm myself down. Alcohol alleviates boredom and loneliness, yes, but for me, I need it the most for uncomfortable conversations. How do I get past that part? I feel like I missed the normal part of growing up by not learning how to argue, admit wrong, or stand up for myself. 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I noticed a lot of people here are alcoholics and posting about their experiences. I was looking for a sub geared more towards support for partners of alcoholics. Anyone know of one? ,4.893235294117648,6.781523372549017,5.578578431372549,77.77610294117648,70.17647058823529,9.02156862745098,36.27941176470589,9.516144504307137,3.769152941176471,216,12,38,5,4,70,40,51,0.0,0.935,0.065,0.4549,0,0,3,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,4,0,3,3,0,0,0,3,7,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,5,1,10,6,2,6,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,1,2,27,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6932963301677012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2342999842863465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15120263953003252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19152775466304192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2115278556987064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2284733666963267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1188418952851399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18159026553688631,0.0,0.0,0.18384268094341066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461949126894263,0.0,0.0,0.1465323436125967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14991617039150593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20710171202104366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24539081505391214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13925386823564964 alcoholism,CuckBoi5000,2019/02/05,"am i becoming an alcoholic i woke up today and i have the shakes, im more anxious and depressed than i have been in years. my family tree is full of alcoholics all the way up and as for alcoholism warning signs that apply are those below this Experiencing temporary blackouts or short-term memory loss. Choosing drinking over other responsibilities and obligations Becoming isolated and distant from friends and family members Drinking alone or in secrecy Feeling hungover when not drinking that is my recent alcohol consumption https://imgur.com/a/gFEbYMI",8.530000000000001,11.948445722222226,8.070833333333333,57.23625000000004,64.0,12.055555555555555,41.25,11.45678717892309,6.517333333333332,465,27,56,17,8,147,69,90,0.156,0.7959999999999999,0.048,-0.8503,0,1,7,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,1,4,0,1,3,0,7,7,0,0,1,13,9,10,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,5,6,7,0,2,3,0,1,1,3,0,0,2,2,6,1,11,7,3,13,0,2,0,0,1,7,0,2,4,45,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6490914337573801,0.0,0.1572624592867111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17153817492412754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33539499173131154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13078124257123935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4462418904295284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2862861395872213,0.0,0.07677584846329404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11731270810824995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16401535409832996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14992559986133658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1439284070690579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12052506628862132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09778123263050637 alcoholism,Cesacesa,2019/02/05,"Honestly, r/askreddit My pa, (WWII VEST) and countless others from my moms side most definitely have PTSD.",9.55,9.994762888888893,8.474444444444442,66.36500000000001,59.0,11.644444444444444,40.22222222222222,11.20814326018867,4.805155555555556,84,4,13,2,1,26,17,18,0.0,0.715,0.285,0.7178,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,7,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7077837375339558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7064291761262869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,TRNEYN,2019/02/05,Please help. My brother has been hardcore alcoholic for many years and now trying to quit but he is hearing voices in his head. I don’t know if this is right but I read something called DTs? I think it sounds like what my brother is going through. He hears voices in his head and I don’t know how to help him. Does it eventually stop and if so roughly how long does it take? He has been an alcoholic for 10+ years and just got out of jail where he was sober for 30 days after he was drunk and was arrested for trespassing and now he said he is hearing voices in his head and he tells me that the voices are talking to him about me and my mom and I’m desperate for help. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. Thanks in advance ,2.875,4.371642433333335,3.838333333333335,89.80750000000002,74.66666666666666,6.866666666666667,24.5,7.492282038375204,0.9494000000000008,575,18,125,7,12,185,88,150,0.078,0.7829999999999999,0.14,0.8851,0,0,3,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,8,3,0,0,2,0,16,6,3,2,0,22,28,16,0,3,5,3,1,1,0,1,2,9,0,0,6,10,3,1,3,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,7,10,14,3,17,19,0,17,0,0,0,0,26,7,0,2,9,75,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13249935467683482,0.0,0.28981414575137426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09220750301500047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13845503260267308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08744590097140964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23731570091986534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0770603034937668,0.0,0.10844565399539577,0.14949113430249095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4174708591032543,0.0,0.4584675742386579,0.0,0.272654245806101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14903610849868154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06624361294407034,0.0,0.0,0.11999503494454596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13746944336656186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15880421688083418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1488397720349005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14421924119681975,0.13562912463820676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11579519555165108,0.12897945261632635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1043856781390176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11336134407806862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1019486337269537,0.10898406020978416,0.11851376152245673,0.12483529341598397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08688215505908588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09205836040004983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09632097293007294,0.0,0.0,0.17463416049899086 alcoholism,midnight_wandering,2019/02/05,"I need help before my mom kills herself or someone else Hello reddit! I have been a long time lurker and signed up today because i need help and maybe the community can help. I don’t know where else to turn too. Since as long as i can remember, my mom has had a drinking problem. From what I know she drank when pregnant with me and my sibling. Her parents did the same. She has gone through some trauma in her life, and she seems to be in a never ending cycle. Recently I’ve begun to notice not only is her memory failing. But she has regressed her personality into a child’s. It always seemed i was the parent but it’s even more so. My paw tried to intervene several times for her. But the times between when she was not drinking and was drinking have decreased. My sibling also has seen it as a problem but they have a very codependent relationship. I’ve told her many times she needs help and she lashes out at me and attacks me. I don’t know what else to do anymore. She will either kill someone driving drunk, die in her sleep from this (and mixing pills) or.. god i don’t know. She is a class a narcissist. Has an eating disorder. Body dysmorphia. And severe untreated depression. She says at her age (50+) i don’t need to parent her and she doesn’t need help. Not only is she hurting the rest of us, she’s really hurting herself and she flies into these drunken rages. I’m in Canada and i don’t think i can check her into a hospital without her consent. Her side of the family enables this behaviour. And she’s hanging around people in their twenties and I think it’s because mentally that’s how she functions. She’s violently assaulted others. She is extremely mentally abusive to others. And if you tell her she’s wrong in any way she shuts you out. I told her recently I had to distance myself away from her because I couldn’t do it anymore and she always tries and guilts her way back in. But no matter what I do. She won’t accept help. Or listen. And thinks it’s fine. I don’t want to abandon her (she had abandonment issues, which maybe that’s why she tends to abandon others) but I can’t keep getting sucked down and watching her destroy her life and others. What can I do? She’s currently seeing a therapist for childhood traumas from having alcoholic parents but refuses to admit she is one. (The last time I saw her I couldn’t drink water out of her water jug in the fridge and found out later it when I went and poured myself a glass anyways that the water she was drinking was straight vodka. I knew she was drinking long before that as she was drunk when i got there but couldn’t find any wine.) Is there a way to check her into a hospital or rehab? Is there a way I can help her? I don’t know what to do. 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Stay at home mom to a wonderful 2 year old son. I was a secret alcoholic for many years. I sobered up when I was pregnant with my first no problem. I was even sober for months after. This time is different. There’s more stress. I’m more alone with husband traveling. Long story short - I just took a large shot of liqueur. I drank alcohol while I felt my child kicking me. Is this my low? I feel like I’ve had many but never while I actively feel this child inside of me. I’m terrified of hurting her/him. I don’t know what I’m doing. I’m so ashamed. I really don’t need people making me feel worse but I know I deserve it. 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Just checking in. Having a more difficult time today. Not about wanting to drink today, more about wanting to drink eventually. My addiction keeps telling me if I can make it Monday to Friday then I can continue to have some drinks on the weekend. Logically, I know I can't do that or I will end up in the exact same situation (drinking every night). This addiction is sneaky and strong. But for today, I will not drink with you. 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My alcohol abuse has ramped up recently. I used to just binge too much, maybe a bit too often. Now, every few weeks I go out and get absolutely wasted, and spend hundreds of dollars on drugs and hotel rooms. I’m not a daily drinker, and there are times (if I’m with my girlfriend, or at home alone) where I can have a drink or two and stop. If those aren’t the situation I’m in, I’m going to drink all I can. It’s taking a huge financial and emotional toll on me and is ruining my life. Today is the day it all changes. Aside from AA, which I’ve tried and didn’t especially enjoy, but will try again, does anyone have suggestions for how I can fix this problem? I find I have a hard time not being so mad at myself that I can’t feel confident or okay.",2.9466962524654825,3.738959088757397,4.6350443786982245,86.91556459566078,73.49704142011834,8.236883629191325,24.142504930966467,8.59863814320734,1.3156504930966473,622,17,141,11,12,211,114,169,0.11699999999999999,0.8109999999999999,0.07200000000000001,-0.8206,1,1,6,0,1,0,21.0,0,0,0,1,10,5,1,0,8,1,16,6,0,2,2,29,27,17,0,3,9,0,2,0,1,1,4,0,2,0,6,11,4,1,2,3,2,2,5,3,1,2,1,2,14,2,13,24,5,24,0,1,0,0,2,10,0,6,12,90,20,0,0.0,0.1868042374083413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33698644929828026,0.0,0.1632907630783891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11024125991138968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1721265752932346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16678598047716142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20335849099184036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13797148377347426,0.0,0.0,0.30889838187821506,0.18283840247279268,0.0,0.0,0.1773490500022639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1328374249398274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07971887848139117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14410063481628835,0.13410761042133848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08237212959966296,0.0,0.17920642202530726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14123459871627692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1581483053243524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11136166019626237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15839313528260338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11590005112470765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15086168423765556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15567266159630508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17721921412494096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318128786623171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11854255078332085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1838685000379749,0.0,0.2988911597282829,0.0,0.0,0.21408492617919156,0.0,0.15401331702497995,0.0,0.0,0.13616974680964886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12646731770455769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,rdei,2019/04/03,"Feeling helpless My father was always a drinker, but in the last few years really turned the worse for him. Due to a related ""hobby"" he started to drink really strong drinks. Because of a car accident he lost his job and with his expertise he could't find any decent ones. My mother told him that he doesn't need to work (she had a decent salary), but with the agreement that he will stop drinking. As expected he didn't stop. Our money was kept away from him, but that didn't stop him. He started to sell my mother's jewelry just to get his daily dose of alcohol. After 30 years of marriage my mother sent him on his way. The divorce got him a good amount of money, so the last 3 months was the worst for him. With noone to watch over him, he started drinking immensly. His liver is about to give up. He's all skinny with a water filled belly and legs, making him almost unable to walk. He still believes up to this day that he can stop. We tried every possible way to force him to the hospital, but the procedure would take weeks, making him unable to drink so he decided that he would rather die like this. Our laws prevent us from forcing him to a ward. We spent so much time on convincing him, but we are all out of options. Currently I'm living my life knowing that the call could come any time that he met his end. I'm about to visit him tomorrow. I don't want him to die. I don't want him to die without trying to convice him. 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I am an alcoholic at 27 years of age. I have been drinking for roughly a year straight, daily (6-10) drinks a day. I have two parents who struggle with alcoholism. My father is 60 and has been sober nearly 2 years for the first time since the the early 00s. My mother still drinks 8 or so shots a night and is agoraphobic. My other issue is that I have been an opiod addict for 8 years. I have been on Mdone for over 2 years (I go through a clinic) and have maintained my sobriety off of street drugs. Unfortunately, I lost a job, drank my issues away at a gas station afterwards, and received a DUI that afternoon around 5pm. I am currently on probation and still drinking. I only receive random drug tests through the clinic. My main concern is seizures if I quit drinking cold turkey, but I am fortunately perscribed 3mgs of Clonazepam a day for my anxiety. I have been so concerned about this lately. What are my chances of experiencing severe withdrawl if I quit drinking cold turkey while taking my normal 3mg of clonazepam a day? I understand with the booze, Ive been hitting my gaba receptors extra hard. My main question is - Can I quit cold turkey with my normal dose of clonazepam as a crutch? Any advice would be greatly appreciated. I feel trapped. Thanks so much, guys. 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I never drink alone but im looking forward to every weekend because i can party. Im 18 years old and recently i have noticed i can drink alot more alcohol than my friends when we party together, some of them can drink 6-8 beers and become drunk while i drink 7dl (20% alcohol) and 4-6 beers and be on their same ""level"" mabye a litte more intoxicated but can handle myself when i consume the devils sweat",5.08942857142857,5.970108990476192,6.4428571428571475,75.58714285714288,68.6190476190476,8.666666666666668,33.09523809523809,8.841846274778883,2.934238095238095,424,19,75,7,7,144,72,105,0.094,0.77,0.136,0.5377,0,1,9,0,0,0,10.0,1,0,2,0,4,3,0,0,5,0,7,12,1,0,1,18,8,12,0,2,5,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,7,10,0,1,10,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,13,1,7,7,6,14,1,0,1,0,5,4,0,4,11,50,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2803775576473041,0.0,0.1358602562020495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1167757237282127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07996454364481266,0.2897503301943513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6425197070428625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1462975093845959,0.0,0.0,0.22104528444002308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10134735684303192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4250824029448192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11015600312951766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10117212067306333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14934637323485234,0.13764864612807814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12551908439402198,0.0,0.0,0.14694874271102484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12952188653791674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08447396395291756 alcoholism,sloxdirekt,2019/04/03,I drank a 6 pack... Of a high ABV beer tonight and I can’t fall asleep. I’m so sick of this. I am tired of being so dependent on a chemical. What do I do.,-3.962072072072072,-2.6413585135135134,0.20959459459459487,104.54340090090092,107.1081081081081,4.628828828828829,14.274774774774775,6.42735559955562,-0.75123063063063,113,3,34,2,6,42,27,37,0.222,0.778,0.0,-0.7987,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,5,5,1,1,0,2,7,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,4,5,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,21,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6767616859685736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7362021600110759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,piccolo4,2019/04/03,What is it like to attend your first AA meeting? I'm just nervous and I want to know. Thanks!,-1.1406666666666678,0.9285676000000008,0.5800000000000018,102.77833333333334,98.0,2.666666666666667,16.666666666666668,3.1291,-1.242833333333333,72,2,17,0,3,23,18,20,0.091,0.606,0.303,0.5983,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,1,1,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,5,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,2,2,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,10,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5423498376468942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3504131978671584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3115035206412589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5870246454129195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3760782720004385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ntild1994,2019/04/03,My dad almost died hes diabetic and now has DTs My dads a heavy type 1 diabetic with alcoholism. He didnt monitor his blood sugar and it went through the roof. He turned into a vegetable for a few days in hospital and is now suffering with DTs in hospital and had pancreatitis so is basically going to die if he doesnt get treatment. Hes always said he doesnt want treatment and wont stop. I hope this is the wake up call he needs. Has anyone been through something similar. How did you deal with it? What can I do ,3.3240566037735846,4.598073056603777,5.1624056603773605,81.65040094339625,73.15094339622641,9.073584905660377,28.34433962264151,9.516144504307137,2.4705886792452842,408,16,86,10,8,140,72,106,0.134,0.848,0.018000000000000002,-0.9011,0,0,2,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,4,2,0,0,5,0,16,7,2,1,0,16,24,8,2,4,1,2,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,4,9,3,1,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,6,2,8,1,11,17,1,10,0,1,0,0,14,4,0,3,4,53,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2601542048934041,0.24376144957370496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20255448058113765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17021294107472615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2485707440322068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15699315697254268,0.25096715238263606,0.0,0.0,0.5052868576246347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12718289370982205,0.0,0.13834771199514684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24178237271274605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18050134751314825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315590693890605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18740543549459332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20351960569638766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2647835318779788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1435821857251235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256634077963099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,AbsurdPigment,2019/04/03,I'm not going to drink tonight. I don't want to ruin my three week streak. I just need to say it aloud. It has been a very stressful and emotional day.,-0.6059090909090905,1.4596034848484862,1.215378787878791,101.0430681818182,89.9090909090909,4.512121212121213,17.340909090909093,5.985473137389443,-0.603781818181818,117,3,29,1,4,38,28,33,0.14300000000000002,0.711,0.146,0.0311,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,5,7,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,2,2,0,1,1,1,3,0,3,6,0,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.241517000248688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.366860563377674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4212542131345772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2128329988177836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2776818100412233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2978118600632728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4289804596156231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3089959403224227,0.22088567077829224,0.0,0.3003956909055558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,CoffeeBananaGnome,2019/04/03,"How to help Fiance's Family with Father's Alcoholism Hi guys. I've been learning more and more about a situation and I just don't know what to do or how to help or support at this point. So my fiance and I have been dating for almost ten years now, ever since we were in 8th grade. I've known her family for a long time and we kinda grew up together, so we're all pretty close, except for her father. Her father is in the military and was out of the picture for long stints early on in her life, so I've always noticed that they aren't too close, but still definitely care about each other. I know him well, but not nearly as well as the rest of the family. He would regularly miss invitations over to my home when we all got together, and I just am not nearly on the same level of family as I am with the rest of them. My fiance and her mother are extremely close, essentially each other's best friends (calling each other to talk at least once a day, easily) so they tell each other everything, and I've learned more about his problems over the last couple years. Growing up dating her, I always knew that her father would not make the best choices at times, and it's caused her parents to get into some rough times (almost split up once several years back, but stayed together), but she never really wanted to go into the details. I knew it usually involved alcohol, but didn't know the extent. I've learned more and more about the severity of the issues, at least of the past half year or so, and it's gotten to the point that the fiance, her mother, and myself all know he's really just a full blown alcoholic. He hasn't been violent with the mother, but he was thrown objects around the house (not at her) in frustration just arguing with her, and one night decided to leave home in the middle of the night, fully drunk, for his hometown 2000 miles away. about 3 hours into the trip, he ""got ran off the road by a semi"" and was arrested for a DUI. He is still not willing to get help, and has been telling his wife these last few months that they are done because he says he isn't good enough for them, and he wants to separate after our wedding here in a month. Essentially, he doesn't want to give up alcohol, so he's giving up his family. It's to the point now that the fiance is helping her mother and soon-to-be high school graduate brother look around town for rentals for after the wedding, but the problem is her mother just doesn't make enough to support herself and son without the financial assistance of the father. The home is in the father's name, so he can't be asked to move out, either. Regardless, the mother alone wouldn't be able to support that home anyway. I feel so sad and helpless for my fiance's family and this whole situation. I just don't know what to do for them. Her mother is an absolute saint and I love their family, I just feel that their father is about to cause so much hardship in their lives due to his addiction and I can't stand to not do something anymore. As the soon-to-be son in law, I have no idea what I can/should even do. I appreciate all advice. Thank you.",7.821409151193635,5.91009957371795,7.986660035366935,76.12673076923079,63.67948717948718,11.363306808134393,32.09416445623342,10.085429814115964,2.828692374005305,2450,66,496,43,29,803,260,624,0.076,0.8140000000000001,0.111,0.975,2,1,5,0,0,0,71.0,4,1,9,2,39,20,3,0,39,0,43,8,0,6,6,112,75,48,0,9,26,19,3,0,1,4,6,1,4,1,21,43,5,0,15,1,0,6,20,8,2,3,16,5,56,12,92,53,29,88,1,3,1,1,88,47,0,7,33,353,77,6,0.06401480721906304,0.0,0.0,0.06978558880921171,0.0,0.0625545287349315,0.0,0.2736494430846241,0.12820316502029422,0.0663000344232128,0.0,0.0,0.10653089545109433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0634854874694837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11397350070445834,0.05984520338605302,0.0,0.06014401862090419,0.04922343535322672,0.0,0.039022832316781726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13435918155330626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0653662754551816,0.0,0.06526736232308973,0.13152168140836676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07083116660680047,0.0,0.04128425484342661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06550937325145106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13228881618779714,0.0,0.042281176430165435,0.057905058046520665,0.0,0.0,0.057532381029896176,0.0,0.4224322415193136,0.0,0.06473561991940563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049457681261852966,0.0,0.06689018931645592,0.1228176723539249,0.036381090164404786,0.053692583133392965,0.10239697839403053,0.0,0.0,0.06338472354052639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17163110361885878,0.06763515848374198,0.25684828435626345,0.0,0.06304169030982909,0.07386449273825993,0.0,0.07226492544120716,0.0,0.06681482716765043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17590431957879352,0.10436122365208267,0.0,0.06778243783650327,0.0,0.0,0.04521555148158573,0.0,0.0,0.05652624758006849,0.11330217992073045,0.053756315522834885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05777586282014484,0.0,0.08546076180369823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1021920167707418,0.06803760925729405,0.04705824894413279,0.0,0.049372165715026464,0.0,0.0,0.1201471201862457,0.0,0.0,0.07288128230618872,0.0,0.1363473609420102,0.043378090087869546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07108086777508985,0.0,0.061109376917014624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18154405270883453,0.0,0.0,0.06512607268040377,0.0,0.12250705024017572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08201904939470515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050907144066823715,0.0,0.06478640249314077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14463702213419208,0.0,0.052953710042373967,0.14391065085901758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049281726077750526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0682312670543975,0.10224461547288252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21792973386721848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0514526772048827,0.11190352615260653,0.0589362338267225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11198264664863586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07050326620795531,0.0,0.11327277559280365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11511399911844768,0.0,0.0,0.07147024615952349,0.0,0.061707989785454005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09094856474775308,0.0,0.0,0.16489374816471705 alcoholism,Niccijean1,2019/06/05,"Intoxalock suggestions. I just got an intoxalock installed in my car. My duis aren't even for alcohol, there for heroin. However, I used to drink prior to my heroin addiction ( recovered) and am an active AA Member all the same. I no longer drink and haven't since my twenties. I'm 33, and 5 months sober from substances besides prescriptions. Any ideas or tips on easy operation. The thing is DUMB. It goes off every 5 minutes and I have to suck and blow... Suck and blow. I can hardly ever breathe hard enough due to asthma and have trouble with it. How am I supposed to drive distracted and operate that thing? I dont even drink! My duis have nothing to do with it....DUMB. they expect us not to text and drive, but to do this?!?!?! I'm definitely writing letters. I live in Wisconsin. Im on prescriptions and the cops harass me cause I'm notorious around here for my addiction. It gives you 10 seconds to blow or else the horn starts going off, lights flashing, etc.... any tips on operation? Someone suggested zip tying it to my steering wheel column so I just lean over and blow suck blow while driving....so unsafe, but I see no other way! Please help me. How do I not attract cops? My prescriptions don't impair me at all. I'm just being harassed and given duis cause it's in my BLOOD. STUPID. That was my third. That's how it went down. Hadn't even taken meds that day. What do I do?",0.9678817193577344,3.548827062730627,2.5063388850104715,90.13881819088465,90.18081180811808,5.734157774010173,20.97746085568964,7.2228458231874715,0.882800458761344,1078,37,215,19,37,350,150,271,0.166,0.785,0.049,-0.9849,1,0,4,0,0,0,57.0,1,1,1,0,14,10,7,1,6,0,19,9,2,6,3,37,35,21,0,1,9,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,15,15,4,0,1,3,0,5,9,9,1,2,6,5,28,1,28,28,5,25,0,0,2,0,9,12,4,2,7,137,43,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3012118511835274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14764232976562028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18789601220754865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12298445036737073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.283840043508775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0890965243563265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16191295769630026,0.4060087002575152,0.0,0.0,0.11540815653021685,0.0,0.0,0.14274780758725916,0.15407584904937646,0.2737440130561674,0.12496627186714936,0.11639890529142365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325278581116393,0.07851488898699867,0.0,0.11049266741156408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24751387174653405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0926002834608243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15595664046981814,0.1492277219326978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1219906284705828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15345557868141324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11027150115422564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13256044111336782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15164926230942835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11008915037872008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11428065092712787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11705562748591393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0977846016045842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18356392171448935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16617968424376595,0.11931885513162555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10965852055079936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1280681635860853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,realvibes__,2019/06/05,"I can’t always be the one that’s wrong, right? Every time we get into a fight, my boyfriend gets really mad and tells me that when I get upset, my memory goes to shit. He says I twist things and exaggerate and make things up to fit the version of the story that I want, to help me win the argument and make him think he is wrong. He says he doesn’t think I do it intentionally, but the fact that I do it at all is unsettling and the biggest flaw about me. It’s the one thing preventing him from seeing a future with me. My boyfriend has drank heavily every day for the past 4-5 years. There was a period of time when he would black out around 3 days a week, if not more. Is memory impairment like what he accuses me of a symptom of alcoholism? There’s no way I’m always wrong, right? There’s no way my memory is always the one that fails? Does prolonged alcohol abuse do this to a person and affect them when they are sober as well? I’m not saying my memory is infallible. I know I must be wrong at least some of the time. Maybe even most of the time. But it can’t be all the time. Or maybe it can? He’s actually cut back on his drinking a lot in the past couple months. I can’t remember when the last time he’s blacked out is, and he actually goes a day or two without drinking at all sometimes. But it seems like in that time, his temper has gotten worse. When he gets mad, he seems to hold so much contempt for me. He’s actually said before (while mad) that he doesn’t/can’t give a shit about my feelings in the moment because he’s so mad at me. I know I’ve been a lot to deal with in the past, and I’ve put him through a lot too. I can’t help but feel like I did this to him. Maybe I did with my period of emotional instability. I know I have faults too, and I know I must contribute to our problems too. I have very clear memories of certain things that happened while we were fighting or he was mad. I have clear memories of him screaming at me and saying certain hurtful things and reacting in certain ways. And again, I’m not saying I’m never mistaken or that my memory is perfect. But there’s no way I’m misremembering every single thing that I think happened. There’s no way every fight is my fault, is there? I mean he also has very clear memories of what happened, and he’s not always drunk anymore when we fight. So maybe he’s right and I’m just crazy and manipulative and I need some intense therapy to help with my memory when I’m feeling emotional. But please someone tell me alcohol abuse can do this to a person. Because if not, I have to come to terms with the fact that I may be quite literally crazy. And I really don’t think that I am, but I’m really doubting myself.",2.9609873072663766,4.117658602862257,4.588191924354714,85.87323941562316,73.88372093023256,8.186063548854248,24.40075815657211,8.704169506293173,1.4709248317573893,2105,62,462,40,42,710,211,559,0.20800000000000002,0.6859999999999999,0.106,-0.9969,0,0,5,0,7,0,56.0,4,0,2,4,28,35,14,2,29,0,44,10,2,6,15,101,83,44,0,8,20,0,3,3,0,4,4,7,0,2,29,30,7,2,15,3,0,2,17,26,1,4,9,13,59,9,51,66,15,62,0,2,3,0,50,21,2,17,37,296,88,1,0.0,0.14408675980552227,0.17800923839146454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1949445295703541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04862533008649719,0.2023768323377627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06030171716425225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05412888896067452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046754900920465005,0.0,0.07413170761099462,0.0,0.05174014401903255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05237768564721968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06727901360433625,0.0,0.11764160085099222,0.06268676108065831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05321042048694022,0.0,0.0,0.11913050681154802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367937383216593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040160793341773485,0.0,0.2049216271111669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09223373400201787,0.04343874105737005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12707134931154426,0.0583292090544171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16130763374072174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12226790735427268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06509246600957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336662339695748,0.04956377624577719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08911800995042479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15508141349657847,0.0,0.0,0.08117494079895507,0.0,0.24434513857862836,0.06623391696615209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04853356520823697,0.0,0.04469829769265133,0.045085760183636164,0.04689617251762012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12360809173253265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17413430264852958,0.0,0.10618427371958324,0.0,0.06674507269817498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05818168678125767,0.0,0.06112530852467672,0.0,0.06467306155172182,0.0,0.0,0.11685874321413403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06887963602842287,0.15578011117986806,0.05783899574522935,0.24177086177632615,0.0,0.0,0.048453307542737405,0.11070825126913432,0.0,0.0,0.12482987400003903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05151944854394501,0.0,0.06013719711015063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06319914855502873,0.0,0.0,0.10629161171646688,0.0,0.0695352354831008,0.0,0.2423748150108995,0.15584425254919193,0.0,0.0,0.2481891168239803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05939715320408238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10034014731484016,0.035864064625742896,0.2413188766854413,0.04877369561353325,0.0,0.05467054041148618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05861336023615912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0619649717689587,0.043193766374952376,0.26592066592976593,0.0,0.03915609913510472 alcoholism,SoberasshitBrandy,2019/06/05,"Summertime tips [https://youtu.be/O75qH6tHYAg](https://youtu.be/O75qH6tHYAg) &#x200B; Summertime tips and survival",45.56625,59.143793125000016,14.080000000000002,8.365000000000009,-7.25,18.2,70.5,13.023866798666859,14.59885,107,5,3,3,1,18,6,8,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.533352051341659,0.5981369363823156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5981369363823156,0.0 alcoholism,waitingonday1,2019/06/05,"Day 3 after my final bout of alcoholism Not sure where to begin, I just want to speak my mind on the past year of drinking. I have only been to the ER twice in my life and the first time was for a broken arm. The second was this past weekend after what I only feel was more horrific than the thought of death. About a year ago I experienced the most agonizing feeling of dread and anxiety after a 3 day bender. I woke up in the middle of the night with a ""strange"" hangover. My entire body felt numb and my head was foggy (way more than normal). I felt a panic overcome me, so some dumb logic in my head said to ""drink water and run a mile"". I did this, got off the treadmill, and walked to the shower. Every step felt as if I was distant in my mind controlling my own legs. This caused more panic. I sat in the shower, water running, and began shaking. I started drinking water by the gallon. I felt massive hopelessness, like I was out of my own body. I was confused and my mind felt as if it was melting. I had my SO take me to the nearest ER, but didn't go in. We waited outside, the symptoms of whatever I went through lessened, then we went home. Over the next few days, I stayed sober. However, there were aftershocks. My confusion felt strong for weeks after, the brain fog stayed heavy, and anxiety worsened. I moderated my drinking several days after, and was ""fine"" up until this weekend, where I went overboard like a year ago. I woke up Sunday morning to that same hell I experienced almost a year ago. This time however, I made it all the way into the ER. After Ativan and a IV bag, I began to feel better. The semi norm returned and my conciousness pulled closer from the void back into my head. This was decidedly the day I will truly go sober. I have made many disappointing and terrible decisions during this alcoholic life I've lead over several years. But sitting here, typing this out, and starting my new and true story with give me the faith and hope I need to regain my life, as well as the motivation to make everyday a challenge that is winnable. I pray that I can regain my cognitive faculties, a clear mind free of this ""fog"", lessened anxiety.",4.048394549763032,5.530747971563983,5.1559686018957365,81.5852325236967,71.65402843601895,7.929028436018957,27.405509478672986,8.472884824447931,1.9705424170616108,1692,60,321,28,32,558,210,422,0.121,0.762,0.11699999999999999,0.5463,4,0,6,0,0,1,61.0,2,0,0,7,10,24,2,6,34,0,20,23,8,7,4,68,54,27,1,6,6,0,9,2,0,1,8,2,3,0,15,23,9,2,14,6,1,12,2,12,4,3,34,13,50,13,56,19,10,82,3,2,0,0,5,23,2,8,44,218,65,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19384110892755105,0.15579717615607974,0.07299006663155176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1672848405559375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056048878757356174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06446639501969566,0.0,0.16193151287923158,0.0,0.08137075147863396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07487940167445004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08175374488527942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23504415911874474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2856227347777445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061414029366954524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11056803185641152,0.0,0.4199222363103672,0.07984881118869007,0.0,0.06200126755301795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06992393742561676,0.08285156438401646,0.0,0.05829779845658839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2244223821688016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07311587583035008,0.07239746697232352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15445575535834274,0.07122197440228678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379429431476397,0.04865548130147709,0.07390029575240949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2943975699610685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05404794484570854,0.0,0.07039883202482625,0.07752068073493684,0.06840350865436852,0.07141795740686052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11087417394365788,0.0,0.17104437395514727,0.0,0.0,0.1391659088066802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06933627910978274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1646927496882429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10318561638607372,0.15538476691639627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06869914884650143,0.07576192752401875,0.05480515523647295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05786751750521986,0.08500695843889748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04299315302525634,0.11571537695449075,0.058468971127571184,0.0,0.06553799560681553,0.20271278169900345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23469790437240395 alcoholism,6425df,2019/06/05,"After almost a year of being sober, my cousin relapsed I tried to stop him in many ways by talking to him, suggesting that we go hiking, go to strip clubs, climbing, etc., but nothing worked. He’s already drinking again and is only willing to see me at a bar, but I refused. I don’t wanna feel guilty by drinking with him. I told him that I’m ready to see him anywhere, except at a place where alcohol is served. I honestly don’t know what to do to help him.",5.757765957446807,4.831224776595747,6.429234042553194,82.45300000000003,67.19148936170212,8.796595744680852,32.629787234042546,7.554174236665415,2.1053812765957445,355,13,74,3,5,117,65,94,0.085,0.8009999999999999,0.114,0.5719,0,0,3,0,0,0,14.0,1,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,3,0,7,4,0,0,0,12,15,3,0,1,3,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,3,4,2,2,4,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,3,14,1,17,12,1,13,0,0,2,0,14,5,0,1,4,50,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2321261701101781,0.2174995085443036,0.0,0.2396912026650295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4255565675589154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24224107546312826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10982541277785716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2468853005247243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14558798404902498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11937022944215578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2202118555195246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2084141286080348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16519424803879326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269330748206838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3461686480924977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18159316945114587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1745812126179441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2075487583692305,0.0,0.1474679889822785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1724072793745133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15812788232868255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13987294768493774 alcoholism,TwigMay,2019/03/30,"Just looking to talk to someone, anyone. This is the first time I’ve visited this forum and I just want to say it’s so wonderful seeing so many good news stories from all of you doing so well and achieving all these sober coins. Well done! I came here because I don’t really know where else to go, and as I use Reddit so much generally (different user) I thought I’ll give it a try. My mum is an alcoholic, has been for as long as I can remember. She is a middle class, well presented, well spoken lady now in her 60s who’s battled with binge drinking since her mum died 15 odd years ago. She’s been to rehab about 12 years ago, was dry for a number of years then it all came back again and she’s been on/off ever since. She’s been running in the same circles for years; she’ll be dry for weeks, maybe even months, then she’ll binge drink herself into oblivion and be completely out of it for 4 or 5 days, sometimes longer. She’s lost two jobs because of it. Generally, I have been a supportive daughter and I’ve taken her to support services, accompanied her to the doctors, etc. For a long while my auntie and my dad would call me when she was in a state (sometimes suicidal) because I would be the only one she would listen to for some reason. However, I had my first child 18 months ago. She’s had blips throughout that time, including ruining my daughters first Christmas by getting hammered at 9am and ruining dinner, putting us through a general awful atmosphere all day. Then she was dry for months, and it’s the best she’s ever been because she wanted to look after my daughter 2 days a week whilst I was at work. We genuinely believed that this was the ‘reason’ that would keep her sober and on the right track, so she’s been having her 2 days since last July. Everything has generally been fine, bar a few slip ups on a couple of weekends where we had to threaten her and say she wouldn’t be able to look after her if she continued. However, on Monday, I had a phone call from my cousin. He had stopped by her house to see my daughter mid afternoon, and the front door was locked which was unusual - but the car was there and so was the pram so she was clearly in. He looked through the window and there she was in the lounge... asleep in the chair, my daughter sat on the floor crying, clothes everywhere, baby wipes everywhere, toys etc. A complete mess. He said he tried to bang on the window and even that didn’t wake her up, so he had to get a spare key from a neighbour to get in. She was passed out from drink. I have NEVER been so angry in all my life. Until that point, I was understanding that it’s a horrible disease that never goes away and she’s trying, she’s just bound to have slip ups. However, when she put my daughters life in danger like that, I snapped. She made a conscious decision to have a drink whilst she was the sole carer of an 18 MONTH old BABY. I could have driven to her house and happily punched her, shook her and screamed at her. I cried and screamed and shouted at my dad about how much I hate her. She’s tried to apologise since BY TEXT but is apparently too scared to face me. Tomorrow is Mother’s Day (uk) and my parents, my Nan and my husband’s parents are supposed to be coming over for a big family roast dinner. Now, it’s just my in laws and my Nan. My mum will be sat at home on her own on Mother’s Day... and that makes me cry thinking about it. The trouble is, I don’t want her here and my husband doesn’t want her here... I doubt my in laws do either since they’ve been told about it. So I don’t know what to do. She knows she’s royally F’d up this time. It also means I have no childcare so I’m likely going to have to quit my job, which means we’re going to struggle to pay the mortgage. Just wanted to rant, I don’t really have anyone else to talk to. Also, sorry about the length and format - I’m on mobile.",3.5132199319591777,4.560153172370086,4.435037022213333,87.91986391835104,72.40937896070976,7.5140284170502305,25.75592021879795,7.85451343220497,1.2678917617237015,3019,94,645,39,57,978,335,789,0.10300000000000001,0.845,0.051,-0.9922,10,0,5,0,0,0,94.0,3,1,0,9,46,25,3,4,39,1,74,15,3,6,10,97,121,54,2,12,10,18,0,2,1,8,5,7,4,1,29,35,8,3,14,7,2,15,10,14,4,5,43,13,96,11,98,63,15,112,0,3,6,0,88,41,0,5,57,432,125,8,0.05870281817072906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15610951914894353,0.06273545995751371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09388924496477596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08209275074696179,0.06014797439401521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05515323005000776,0.0451388436645736,0.0,0.14313877238806852,0.0,0.0,0.0661379738251824,0.06160498599410728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11988428144170485,0.13428077075622935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05056727995133383,0.12309757596831175,0.0,0.0,0.0468694236175385,0.06495355176046537,0.19344686786568754,0.2271507681428445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06092425728147801,0.06133195073046281,0.0,0.0600848218491306,0.0,0.06007336417180013,0.0,0.2300256536441145,0.0,0.0,0.09807734400108103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13093831929910246,0.07754531552460542,0.10620011967038044,0.0,0.0,0.05275830779228472,0.0,0.05533979255433702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14979776144302073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09200939887420853,0.05631309224811376,0.10008649312020282,0.0492371387452638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05795687966161105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0588837129604736,0.0,0.0,0.1354703411555685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11650697808201987,0.052177762021712835,0.0,0.0,0.09678460096592822,0.04785063176991527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08292707304513589,0.057358463528677586,0.0,0.0,0.10390029362227328,0.1971823303234501,0.0,0.06408106050912611,0.0,0.0,0.055546025927907264,0.039184586963815216,0.05951544385347689,0.058974871047537576,0.12788915661754136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18742411762528952,0.0,0.08630665157662762,0.0,0.09055046457442796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0615987327932775,0.0,0.039778548833361335,0.044646138469136315,0.0,0.0,0.13036506513687215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05549313759900623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11802509217751413,0.0,0.06243767299728638,0.0,0.0,0.07521305698347291,0.12071254804013913,0.0,0.0,0.06649884955694159,0.05013188597105343,0.05583982289046159,0.09336567433591972,0.0587717617783289,0.0,0.09355709160516283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2427978890450596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04973870733821351,0.0,0.11611717639604995,0.06571299887162059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04907818452892675,0.0,0.06136893130034789,0.0,0.06421135522584415,0.13323052480054995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09436620324480152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03761439556789429,0.0,0.046603480459138924,0.1026902560527322,0.0,0.0,0.05609305841613775,0.0,0.15942144073495232,0.0,0.057344123499708965,0.06111170398180401,0.07061226237202524,0.0507003870107551,0.0,0.0,0.17312221547334986,0.0,0.09417571967430363,0.0,0.2111235338421318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06366070221158482,0.042736350775480825,0.0,0.0,0.16680319104940586,0.0,0.0,0.15121076101781708 alcoholism,daliciasunicorn,2019/03/30,"Last night I ordered $50 worth of wine while I was drunk and it’s being delivered this afternoon. I regret doing this and I am worried about the temptation. So I’m(25F) hung over right now. For the past 3 years I’ve been struggling with drinking. I go on massive drinking binges and it’s had horrible consequences. My last drinking binge sent me to the hospital with acute alcohol withdrawal. I’ve ended 2 jobs from drinking on the clock, done some really fucked up things being under the influence, it’s put a strain on my relationship, and it tanks my bank account as you can tell from the title. I barely even remember ordering the wine but got the confirmation email today. Why the fuck did I do that! That’s so much money. I want to cancel the order and get a refund but my addiction is not giving me much strength right now. What if it’s too late to cancel? I’m worried I’ll drink the wine so I’m not “wasting money” on it. 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I'm ruining my own life and I don't know how to stop this binge drinking life of mine. Plz help. ,-2.4793999999999983,-0.7784694399999985,0.06350000000000122,105.73925,103.4,4.1000000000000005,14.25,5.985473137389443,-1.0267999999999995,84,2,23,1,4,28,21,25,0.156,0.595,0.249,0.3612,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,5,4,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,2,4,1,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,11,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3901917963840509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5339570939194309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2189005542928804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5626757379055644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29534154144449937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3330046832817656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,neb872,2019/03/30,120 days today And I fucking hate it. My last friend was booze and now it’s just loneliness. I live in a town where single females to single males is 1 to 7. Im a solid 6. I cannot get a god damn look from a 5. The booze was worth the pain. But fuck it. If I’m gonna be alone and miserable. Might as well not risk my history of detoxes and benzos. Trading one pain for another is like choosing to have a toe or finger cut off. ,-0.8995023923444947,1.0123664947368418,1.9381818181818176,96.5490909090909,89.31578947368422,5.138755980861244,18.110047846889948,6.574015621080383,-0.14121052631579012,327,9,80,4,11,114,72,95,0.244,0.611,0.145,-0.9124,0,1,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,4,12,5,2,7,0,8,9,2,0,0,11,15,8,0,1,5,0,1,1,1,2,3,0,0,1,3,4,2,0,1,0,2,0,2,9,1,1,2,2,5,3,9,10,2,8,0,1,1,2,2,4,3,3,5,47,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23620080116934755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23914020817237425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14707947219832446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17619815795959598,0.4216745555755512,0.119151644824671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22516148214469728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2463433308738381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185898882648279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11141832287266902,0.0,0.20138066415293532,0.0,0.19151249173349288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2419350263744471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15453897906821654,0.0,0.4853426480328176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2161736832485881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20505282579510406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,lionmike95,2019/09/18,"Coming home naked one day, a year later a broken ankle.... Im only 24 and ive been drinking since i was 19. I never considered myself an alcoholic but now i know im an abuser. I have had a blackout about 10 times. Last year i showed up home completely naked, no shoes, socks. It was horrible. I started drinking a month later. 1 year later i come home with a broken ankle. Today im here sitting at home after a month of recovering. My ankle was so bad i had to have surgery and i can't go back to work for another month. I don't remember what happened that night. Now in my mind i never want to drink again. Its easy thinking that when im hurt but in a few months it'll get more difficult. Im considering joining AA. This is my story. Anybody else have similar stories? What caused you to stop drinking, if you have?",0.5446428571428577,2.8663384642857146,2.99790476190476,88.53042857142857,86.9761904761905,5.7409523809523835,21.495238095238093,7.1686216300943375,0.8493609523809522,634,22,130,10,20,218,105,168,0.223,0.755,0.023,-0.9884,1,0,5,0,1,0,24.0,0,2,0,1,8,3,0,0,9,0,15,6,1,1,2,17,24,7,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,4,0,8,5,5,1,3,5,0,3,5,3,1,1,6,0,18,0,13,17,2,33,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,1,25,79,26,1,0.0,0.11835300232291865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10675174870206286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10474309708180417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0768090406740557,0.08340375663682675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10261427411885447,0.0,0.17209232435906047,0.10473248705358736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06442061564195495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3914156489722727,0.0,0.0,0.08344505633065985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05218826393398157,0.0,0.056769638570565065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08833216309667921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4007901963487891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10693402768211717,0.0,0.5394902768206714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0548967862170309,0.08142346643184445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10086015736093153,0.0,0.31892413507433715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15408224384822808,0.0,0.0,0.09373974992839523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06768786985330992,0.07597064495267032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11315559783392795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0826298213300188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07070246882445659,0.0,0.0,0.08351229153549818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06400530905429219,0.0,0.0,0.05824650798615748,0.0,0.09468378933047092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05891755397496521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07272091703028845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19297714369377625 alcoholism,hamiltkr01,2019/09/18,"How can I help my Dad? [Ask] I am looking for ways to help my Dad, over the last 4 years his depression has taken him over in many ways and has increased his alcohol intake to the point where he has shakes if he does not have it. He is still working in an office with a good job and I can tell he gets embarrassed about it. He also has had a few spills well drinking, causing his to fall and scrape his face or break his glasses and it has happened 2-3 times over the last 6 months.  He does not drink a large quantity, a single beer will get him to a state you would think he had 20. Part of this may be his overall health, but that is probably another issue to discuss.  I guess I am looking for ideas to help him out and encourage him. He has tried and still tried the AA meetings locally, and the book because he does enjoy reading. If you have any suggestions please shout them out. I am working on getting him involved in a YMCA thinking some group exercise or mingling would improve his depression and how he interacts with others as well as help with the alcohol. But honestly I have no clue.  So if you have been there in my Dad's shoes or mine please share, I need some encouragement and help from anyone to see what I can do to help.  Thank you. Please refrain from any negativity. ",5.608372093023256,5.497026658914732,5.8908682170542646,83.46304651162792,67.29457364341084,9.36062015503876,31.153488372093026,9.029198982220553,2.3236306976744183,1010,36,212,16,15,323,144,258,0.055999999999999994,0.735,0.209,0.9914,1,0,5,0,0,0,23.0,0,4,1,2,11,13,0,2,13,0,27,10,2,3,0,38,41,23,0,6,10,3,0,0,0,4,5,1,0,0,7,14,5,1,3,6,0,3,4,4,3,0,4,4,30,9,29,32,6,27,0,2,3,0,47,13,0,10,7,142,37,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2226556659253472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08330604563598362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14168061351105418,0.10923307728157962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07283925270328374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0973864478740332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06350208221033575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10701299892119782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17944581081085687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2734839872249538,0.0,0.0,0.20409715305637716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16327619173910407,0.0,0.0,0.08737425311785264,0.0,0.0,0.11475683723292456,0.0,0.09211866239216668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11072961229241036,0.0,0.0,0.4189444411689339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1175971338789224,0.0,0.10872815722924514,0.10337430700025922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1698276268141559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17495593041245125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10561372143451866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08314883191378312,0.0,0.0,0.07724197221303783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11280776549357173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3430476294318408,0.09847589795915583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11231467761640636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10419985879881312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08301133261593052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16638325800177642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09105062979133503,0.09590727641833964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.133497997770651,0.0,0.0,0.060743337608826165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414514497608612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1653732432723511,0.0,0.0,0.18732568093055954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15167643064350014,0.0,0.0,0.1480011288939718,0.0,0.0,0.06708313908972195 alcoholism,Chezboy24,2019/09/18,"Not Sure If I’m In The Right Place Hey all! I’m a college student and believe I MAY have an alcohol problem. I have a very low tolerance and get “drunk” from only a few canned beers. My drinking led me to miss my now ex-gfs sorority inauguration and other important events. It led to us often cancelling plans, and my roommate switching rooms. I show up to class drunk sometimes, but nobody seems to care. I don’t like being drunk, but in a way it makes me feel good too. Would you guys say I should try to quit, or moderate?",1.5616723842195557,3.8161675000000064,3.085162950257292,90.10692109777015,81.54716981132076,6.118696397941681,23.78730703259005,7.348242739294969,1.0138415094339623,409,15,86,6,11,134,79,106,0.13,0.7340000000000001,0.136,0.6812,0,0,3,0,0,0,13.0,1,1,0,2,3,7,0,0,6,0,8,6,0,3,2,21,16,8,0,4,5,0,1,1,0,3,1,1,1,1,3,4,6,0,2,6,0,2,2,3,0,0,0,2,12,4,9,12,2,12,0,2,0,0,5,7,0,5,3,52,15,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24644627951882464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2598125142490081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2351168478506048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2259048015782032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11660065886959335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12048143133441412,0.0,0.0,0.19342027086659028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22833489619142155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11266180199469285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15393041954668107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17538525624985268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2409328166780121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.220657542044992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2452764707936324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19693514307849366,0.0,0.183386103253538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20993384654684716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280739324332492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21734218882592413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15656544548835433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2773890453943901,0.0,0.0,0.1902730180216892,0.0,0.1830432671320258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16381495359176984,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Tfamily1,2019/09/18,"Rehab that has helped I have struggled with alcoholism for many years. I want to suggest to anyone who is interested for themselves or a loved on a rehab facility that has locations through out the US. It is called Narconon. Just google Narconon and you will be directed to website(s) Dow information. It was more of a holistic approach to rehab. But I came out of it feeling on top of the world.",4.8496396396396415,6.908780270270274,5.484864864864863,77.70585585585587,70.62162162162161,8.176576576576577,33.954954954954964,8.841846274778883,3.1299711711711717,316,16,55,6,6,102,53,74,0.032,0.82,0.14800000000000002,0.7783,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,1,1,0,1,1,3,0,1,5,0,8,5,0,0,0,11,12,3,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,6,5,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,2,1,5,2,15,8,1,9,0,0,0,1,8,6,0,1,1,44,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3408331729298392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22299934303960026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.325657451590074,0.3647645302298333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612577499884622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.213768290410062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28784170611536025,0.0,0.0,0.32333926587364953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3334090096506219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38362676305092097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881098633671789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20537684546244275 alcoholism,bigmcjak99,2019/09/18,"Withdrawal or just a bad hangover? I went through a period about 6-8 months ago where I was getting hammered 3-4 times a week and this went on for a few months. I stopped binging, and actually stayed sober for about 3 months, but I started drinking regularly with friends where I just have 2-3 drinks a couple times a week. I get cravings if I don't drink for a few days, but I can resist those without much issue. I ended up going on a binge last night, not sure how many drinks I had exactly but I'm fairly sure it's around 20 (2 5ths of vodka split between my buddy and I, I drank more than he did). My hangovers are usually pretty brutal (headaches, nausea etc) but today was the first time I presented with worsening withdrawal symptoms (I'm having panic attacks, I have the shakes and cold sweats). I havent binged in 6-8 months like I said and I'm wondering am I starting to show signs of physical addiction or is this just a particularly bad hangover from not being used to binging anymore?",5.541060606060609,5.776950429292931,6.2803535353535365,79.42386363636366,67.43434343434343,9.226262626262626,32.66161616161617,9.075114841892004,2.7070828282828288,787,32,154,13,12,259,126,198,0.16399999999999998,0.765,0.07200000000000001,-0.9625,0,0,5,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,1,9,10,2,2,11,0,14,8,1,2,3,29,28,13,0,1,13,0,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,4,8,5,1,1,6,0,4,5,6,0,1,8,2,19,4,21,19,5,34,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,4,23,95,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.11581147116979927,0.12937526700501653,0.0,0.0,0.10519985326740036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11769553044487467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10564754368877194,0.0,0.13501203203097106,0.0,0.0,0.19818039940891705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313136601467207,0.0,0.0765367403873854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.465032468417461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10511245024987534,0.0,0.13235604131420595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10094645483185108,0.0,0.0,0.09168942797336713,0.0,0.12400749568068803,0.0,0.06744677997661533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12386778204797165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09673745973449613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057979506756759364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12031968315570225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3789068683404347,0.0,0.08724112851695358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1113701698245722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13924169497777528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12073700581721188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11288884636719998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16800014862448548,0.12649371516212013,0.0,0.09921914767056857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2237030241386544,0.1233506716332458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2076042497786204,0.0,0.11249176262389764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10249868111584552,0.13070576670660625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1903907963799968,0.0,0.0,0.22002922917792603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11440023350182182,0.12869996464152933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Syn1134,2019/09/18,"Alcoholic neuropathy or something else? Hello everyone! I wonder if anyone else has woken up from a heavy night of drinking with a vibrating sensation all over their body? It's not the shakes because it feels more like a humming and my body isn't physically moving. Ive been trying to do research online but only found alcoholic neuropathy. It says you have to drink long term. This has happened to me about three times but only after very heavy binges. Tl;dr: Body tingling after heavy binge, not the shakes?",4.722524154589372,7.572383402173912,4.814057971014496,78.7550966183575,73.67391304347827,7.567149758454105,26.52657004830918,8.515128840125781,2.3211120772946856,411,15,65,8,9,128,71,92,0.0,0.9690000000000001,0.031,0.4076,0,0,5,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,1,0,1,3,0,2,5,0,7,8,3,0,1,12,12,5,0,1,6,0,1,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,2,4,0,3,2,0,3,3,2,0,1,3,2,6,1,11,9,3,11,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,3,7,42,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3508866099709418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11478853838123874,0.16820725348971707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10007394269657416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5470535571010942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32163995397576783,0.0,0.0,0.2742789068160128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15686744883890236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08300715675442907,0.11728007416739575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17999931678830586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14517126715599726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08020311333634005,0.0,0.0,0.14528155937963486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17448225579203372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15405847431922606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2497109638845046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13055122644182562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12638284662315885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09572639314297827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11145779622492256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.135453970725232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17803079791333615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Depressed_l0ner,2019/09/18,"How to get rid of the guilt and the trying to remember things? Binged this weekend not meaning to, but wound up going off with a guy I didn't even know. A first meet... Then we wound up having sex... I vaguely even remember and I feel so guilty and tainted... I've been praying for forgiveness... And help from the Lord... I'm so scared I got an STD from him or pregnant... But I know that's just my OCD talking. It's horrible... Anyone, please help me.",0.3559240759240758,2.655999417582418,1.9000999000998997,96.17444555444557,87.7912087912088,5.067332667332668,20.36063936063936,6.574015621080383,0.1955626373626376,341,11,76,4,11,110,67,91,0.12,0.743,0.13699999999999998,0.1812,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,1,0,0,1,6,3,0,2,6,0,3,4,0,1,0,19,11,11,0,0,5,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,4,6,0,0,7,1,0,1,2,2,0,1,3,1,9,1,11,8,0,7,2,0,0,2,8,3,0,1,3,49,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1625242230085376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.307042754418966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11752631269557495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19770941660843494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12143789332147001,0.0,0.13209838367782492,0.0,0.1858998078152545,0.0,0.0,0.23014757094226565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3115930731382394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25548081372273906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531902710210052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551442496508808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.526607952924689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23270836537827386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1868227550067168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1544197391915192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1578083664549922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,CodyMac85,2019/09/18,"Relapsed after 3.5 years I had over 3 years sober. And I relapsed. I had 3 years, 7 months, 6 days. Then one day I got the thought in my head that I wanted to drink, and I couldn't shake it. No matter how hard I tried. And I tried. So I gave in. Nothing caused it. No trigger, no anniversary, nothing. And that's what scares me the most. That nothing happened and I caved. I feel like a failure. I'm afraid to tell anyone. I haven't been able to stop since that night. That's probably another reason why I haven't told them. I don't want to admit that my slip turned into a relapse. That one night turned into 5 months. I'm ashamed of myself. I'm ashamed to tell anyone. I feel like a comlete and utter failure. Like I should just give up and stop trying. If anyone has any advice (and I mean any) it would be greatly appreciated. Thank you for taking the time to read this.",-0.043666666666666736,2.2710007444444464,1.560555555555556,97.23250000000002,91.55555555555556,3.888888888888889,18.055555555555557,5.46131890053228,-0.5287777777777771,674,19,149,4,24,217,103,180,0.151,0.731,0.11800000000000001,-0.6955,0,0,1,0,0,0,31.0,0,1,1,0,3,10,0,5,6,0,11,2,1,4,0,30,30,12,0,6,2,0,3,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,12,10,1,2,6,2,0,1,7,5,0,2,7,3,23,5,15,19,1,21,0,0,0,0,8,6,0,2,17,86,35,1,0.11921041264904292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11649103555117675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16213433700116864,0.12500251180987812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2500640769130931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12246193181003885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15376170825451002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1167808205179741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12055273301496165,0.17032788523168602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11435749038346192,0.0,0.0,0.09534345707388496,0.13142990079529654,0.0,0.0,0.105417374207115,0.0,0.10678911442220686,0.0,0.12234427558279992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17472055820937293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12985508710480567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19030522808557726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22374179347260936,0.0,0.34315681817809585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16156012160144018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12852898741446556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11924267267972287,0.0,0.0,0.12256815866940587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11935041948632265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09861208522970172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1993304857270559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08963139439317425,0.0,0.2083903101337879,0.10975293154318597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09463975171103037,0.06951255028040076,0.0,0.0,0.11391065793616233,0.0,0.2428081350350941,0.2593333936608532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14062678003139042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10756885542220697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08468365683204923,0.0,0.0,0.2303027918372328 alcoholism,summer_1996,2019/08/25,"How do I approach boyfriend about his potential alcohol Issue ? My boyfriend had mentioned a few times, that he thinks he could have an alcohol problem and that it runs in his family , however he only says it after performing in some kind of risky and stupid behavior. I was wondering if anyone has any experience with loved ones with alcoholism and what behavioral things you noticed about them. I’m just worried and I try to talk about it with him he denies it , yet he has brought it up more than once. I just want to approach him without sounding overbearing or like a mother , and without sounding like I’m accusing him ! Thank you !",7.377399267399267,7.9586263247863265,7.065323565323562,74.17769230769231,63.52991452991454,11.130158730158731,38.08180708180709,10.914260884657429,4.381508913308913,508,25,88,13,7,160,79,117,0.12300000000000001,0.777,0.10099999999999999,-0.41700000000000004,1,0,3,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,1,1,7,7,1,0,3,0,7,4,0,1,0,21,15,8,0,4,6,1,0,2,0,0,3,3,0,0,9,8,3,0,2,0,0,4,2,2,0,1,3,3,13,5,16,11,3,10,0,0,0,1,18,3,0,4,5,63,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5659556599691211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12004327368185835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12343061101101345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14094110727702486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17267563949870685,0.1664123651857859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18424657561461014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18382396057470535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1724827134083974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15932099698590746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2009752514606281,0.0,0.1879937089758548,0.11961812810408083,0.13425546349430265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1689108948734045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403800229116378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418843688305378,0.0,0.16252080148241482,0.0,0.0,0.1172755814963613,0.11311029988666753,0.0,0.0,0.1029333360468109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1198491076198923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10411920975249687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3403282261736053,0.19143418389246505,0.0,0.1792700353406537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ChJT93,2019/08/25,"Do you ever wonder if at some point the governments idea of alcohol was that it was good to have legal because it keeps people poor and happy to fill low skilled positions? Sorry if this sounds bad, I'm not trying to label anyone, I'm just speaking off of what I've seen where I leave in that people who habitually drink work low skilled jobs and are poor are less than middle class. It makes me think that if alcohol were illegal there would be too few people to work the low skilled positions we need worked. The people I've known to quit drinking get bored and go after more in life whereas those who habitually drink are okay with just getting by so is long as they have their drink. Of course this is by no means all drinkers, but just a sound demographic. It kind of blows my mind now that I'm sober how alcohol is basically the only mind altering drug you don't need a prescription for -- besides marijuana in a few states. Just curious as to if anyone else sees it this way? I mean alcohol kills more people and destroys more families than any other drug, why is it still such a fond thought of thing?",8.607281105990786,6.788668276497695,8.2619400921659,74.47862442396315,62.087557603686626,11.813640552995393,35.06405529953917,10.577609850970193,3.3653598156682034,884,29,175,17,10,283,135,217,0.127,0.813,0.06,-0.9097,1,0,11,0,0,0,14.0,1,2,2,7,13,12,2,0,8,1,16,11,0,2,2,34,33,13,1,7,10,0,0,0,0,1,7,3,0,0,19,6,8,1,7,4,2,2,3,7,0,0,5,5,9,5,25,26,8,20,0,3,2,0,8,11,0,6,5,109,28,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4376316641007936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06961862210420115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1431661899997822,0.10489545364045816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08547898571456089,0.06240694975373395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4011547442958133,0.23744537651979486,0.0,0.08552131301589035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09260419691376948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09651019344940108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1069735956068626,0.0,0.058182164929624476,0.08586743039440617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10898026572116294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11556909899200975,0.0,0.0,0.10159155350881108,0.09099574960509438,0.11326295080767368,0.10660797937637406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10840051685405486,0.0,0.0,0.07231060591635206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09059879856876432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06833621691659758,0.0,0.0,0.22303313177621167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2067394634935822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15181977380873285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07786092541265603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35487024236185705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09677762054376543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.108888588506758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0815797511393994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11460061450380972,0.0,0.0,0.08175693820233013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06801350996044603,0.06559787135406009,0.0,0.08127444478782007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06950601626399971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08126064000016253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09237766205891472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11102149831031964,0.2235910159916136,0.0,0.0,0.07272437920845592,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Alex_0333,2019/08/25,"Not sure if it counts I’m 15 I’ve been getting drunk on vodka for about 6months at least 2-3 times a week,I know you might say I’m a teenager and that young people drink but I don’t party drink, I alone drink I’ve been depressed for almost a year I’ve been on and off abusing otc and prescription medication,Then to get of those I started drinking alcohol, It’s been a tough year, I’m not sure if this counts as alcoholism or whatever but I was wondering if anyone could give me tips on how to stop drinking, any help would be much appreciated.",2.2010526315789463,3.9885164736842142,3.6577543859649104,89.14294736842106,77.2456140350877,7.016140350877192,24.55789473684211,7.908726449838941,1.2008168421052634,434,15,95,7,10,143,77,114,0.18100000000000002,0.72,0.099,-0.7632,0,1,8,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,0,4,0,10,8,0,1,2,21,19,11,0,5,8,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,5,3,8,1,2,7,0,0,3,2,0,0,5,1,6,2,12,10,2,11,0,1,0,0,4,5,0,7,6,51,11,0,0.0,0.16928328700917425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30537944217006324,0.1430684841782301,0.14797521456497598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09715977031283934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09990138928721884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11407391010482308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1230578646571415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6998146048723471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14929238276426804,0.13705853682468022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0957659735962832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0785202591794272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1515675952888675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1050294248734519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09905140376703613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11361978363530005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1011275260226328,0.0,0.0,0.11944973882643907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2693156354937446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08331145078854893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11460555465593045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15494163701592426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10149416587793993,0.0,0.0,0.1840133868509289 alcoholism,CamillaAbernathy,2019/08/25,"Starting an IOP soon My problem has always truly been very problematic binge drinking. Along with waves of heavy drinking and sobriety, my biggest problem has been just days where i drink non stop and end up truly psychotic and disgusting. I have an in take meeting for an intensive outpatient program and im worried ... idk i will be seen as too well off? I dont know what ill gain? I dont know. But if anyone has experience with IOPs, Id love to hear.",2.1311363636363647,4.757308022727276,3.530636363636365,85.42345454545458,82.4090909090909,6.701818181818182,26.981818181818184,7.908726449838941,1.9669281818181816,358,16,68,7,10,117,66,88,0.17300000000000001,0.6509999999999999,0.177,0.3397,0,0,3,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,5,5,1,0,3,0,10,5,0,0,0,15,17,7,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,7,3,1,2,3,0,0,2,3,1,0,3,2,7,2,10,12,0,10,0,0,1,1,3,5,0,1,5,42,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15222713910140934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12792128312097792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1179861293409184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4288266754901722,0.5376572808894297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1620373573234467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17895795206295342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061953501606477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19761490617508776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20108653897387052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651174388234392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3501124758005215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1294913211914694,0.0,0.0,0.15295246610848373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13755389962727915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15095100942443124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16449195026590233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1857922662626475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,JefferyTheCat,2019/08/25,"My roommate (big rant) Hi. I am 19 years old and I am in my first two weeks of my sophomore year oh college. I’m posting on this sub because I am at a loss for what to do about my roommate. My roommate Erik is someone who I consider a close friend and I trust him and reside in him when he is sober. However, when he gets drunk me and my other roommates jokingly call him “Derrick” because he blacks out so easily, and turns into a complete asshole and acts as if he was his evil alter ego. Throughout our freshman year I became increasingly more aware of how belligerent and irresponsible he becomes when he’s drunk, but shrugged it off as just acting stupid off the alcohol as most boys my age do. I can recall plenty of nights where I had to drag him back into his room because he was running around the halls being an asshole. Last night things took a turn for the worst. As I had envisioned plenty of times, he got his ass kicked at a party because he was blacked out and acting outside of his character. One of my other friends called me at 3am and told me I needed to come get him because he was beaten to shit and sprawled out on a neighbors lawn. I walked him back to our apartment and put him to bed. Unfortunately my other two roommates are away at a camping trip and I’m alone in the apartment with him at a complete loss. Any advice would be appreciated",5.1978733031674205,5.574637824175824,5.801146304675715,82.07375565610863,68.1941391941392,8.181771170006465,31.80973928032752,7.928766900206844,2.1282037922861456,1078,43,215,12,17,350,154,273,0.151,0.7859999999999999,0.063,-0.977,2,1,1,0,0,0,18.0,2,0,0,4,11,11,4,0,13,0,18,5,2,1,0,28,29,23,0,3,3,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,4,1,8,21,3,0,0,3,0,10,0,7,0,4,9,2,37,4,39,17,4,53,0,2,2,1,33,26,2,2,16,145,45,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12755472167161738,0.0,0.13949940657438215,0.0,0.13519216927533328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08876648804667342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11620148416351896,0.0,0.0,0.12263945889369357,0.20074267117595795,0.0,0.3978566073207217,0.14416274774634028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2665762892316383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11244207901032316,0.2737214138535657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11103076761597618,0.0,0.0,0.20169797120880284,0.0,0.1363955520626891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10439866100191382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10640130383411636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09678809871352156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2449915743101907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13697176487134333,0.0,0.08845211241619952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12501392840411765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13122108557744028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13398960245875371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1105996538824553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08671990677838931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0761144749185918,0.0,0.0,0.12472927379974025,0.14502626647050146,0.0,0.2839634714555678,0.25502231765432043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10470519397783798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09272645080574772,0.0,0.0,0.2521757006794668 alcoholism,lucilleball88,2019/08/25,"I’m surrounded by alcoholism. I’ve lost 2 brothers related to alcohol abuse and my middle brother has alcohol addiction as well, but is still with us. Yet, I’m unaffected by it as I rarely drink. My sister is around, but has a DUI record. My significant other has alcohol addiction... None of my parents drink much either. My friend invited me to a bar to help get my mind off my brother’s death today and I said no, alcohol is a no go right now.",2.6020505617977534,4.596609022471913,5.189199438202248,77.67346207865171,76.75280898876404,9.843258426966292,29.10252808988764,10.125756701596842,3.4273471910112363,349,16,68,12,8,124,59,89,0.157,0.723,0.12,-0.5574,1,0,7,0,1,0,13.0,1,0,0,1,5,3,0,0,3,0,6,10,0,0,0,8,12,6,1,0,3,5,0,0,1,0,7,1,0,0,2,4,8,0,0,3,0,1,3,1,1,0,2,1,11,2,11,10,3,10,0,1,0,0,9,5,0,0,4,46,13,0,0.0,0.16690529693220485,0.0,0.3071333691364011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7527241373453367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254021992969471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2759936116254232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10883410554259064,0.0,0.07359760645962686,0.0,0.08005841167004582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09442071064122884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.153773833887797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14223631156414965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1035540345112283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15641701082860712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12030032344263213,0.13399752721412855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1124971995009414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.133526194204609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1694466074401337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12665706124753162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,TheDrunkenGiraffe,2019/08/25,How to host someone in recovery? I have a friend who is recently sober. I really like hanging out with him and I don’t want him to feel left out of our friend group because he doesn’t drink. How do I invite him to social gatherings where there will be alcohol without making him feel uncomfortable?,3.7784482758620714,5.877609603448278,4.802965517241383,81.28858620689657,73.65517241379311,8.777931034482759,27.11724137931035,9.3871,2.5417613793103446,239,9,45,6,5,78,44,58,0.043,0.7490000000000001,0.207,0.8340000000000001,0,0,2,0,0,0,4.0,1,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,1,0,7,2,0,3,0,11,11,3,0,1,1,0,2,1,2,1,1,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,2,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,9,3,9,9,0,7,0,0,0,0,12,5,0,0,2,32,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3063706570040114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1747557113990201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2808344383003288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2899051309252916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4429720632730281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3114755294860375,0.0,0.0,0.14005596012145674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.191359203561511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18365270374133053,0.0,0.2830590708328907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29223122155144643,0.2429005933176972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16908959281554695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.276346513405766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,forcedfan,2019/08/25,"A moral question I’m at my best friend’s wedding. I’m in the wedding party. Her father is an alcoholic, he’s nearly died from the disease, and basically destroyed his marriage to her mom. Last night I spoke with her mother, and she told me she is still with him because he finally stopped drinking. Seemed like it was not peaches and cream, but stable and on the right track. I was proud of him, I’ve known the family for 15 years, and I have seen the chaos firsthand. Tonight, just after the ceremony, her father was with myself and the rest of the bridesmaids and groomsmen. Glasses of champagne were passed around. I was helping hand them out, and her father took one. He said “Well, I’m not supposed to have much.” We did a cheers, he drank it, fast, in two slugs, and left the group quickly. I certainly didn’t feel it my place to say anything in the moment, or tell the bride, just minutes after her big moment. Do I keep this to myself? Or should I say something?",3.3411706349206334,5.244967042328046,3.7512665343915375,89.20721726190477,74.34391534391534,5.994841269841268,26.098214285714285,6.6274283507984215,0.9719547619047622,757,27,150,6,16,236,119,189,0.054000000000000006,0.7809999999999999,0.165,0.9698,0,0,3,0,0,0,30.0,1,0,1,2,6,8,1,0,14,0,13,4,1,0,1,30,25,12,1,1,7,5,2,1,1,1,1,4,0,0,4,15,3,2,4,1,0,2,3,1,1,2,13,8,25,7,22,11,3,27,1,0,2,0,35,12,0,4,14,102,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19513321177397355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15025603614717006,0.1625438370996913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11130518690858147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19161697047350731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18949962280231686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17886871562104412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17212962919768754,0.0,0.09232300485366936,0.0,0.0,0.2000184517846879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14106860343266825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1223862475726024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16229440723587854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1488352435608308,0.0,0.0,0.1983846007054576,0.0,0.0,0.08920426516639153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21384723511592707,0.0,0.0,0.13422468035629326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1713483731818569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12372772908365345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19076771794617145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2045426201152678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15593088706838504,0.17368493022741593,0.2904058392964542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16622310475424198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14056672482746935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458166329806758,0.15265344004253564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15959173328365447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17447259738557375,0.20286424052196664,0.0,0.0,0.17836392691533018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16417036420704625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11758199219458935 alcoholism,gfh415,2019/08/25,"I think I'm starting to become dependent on alcohol Hello I'm 18 years old and I think I have a problem. I get drunk usually every other day and eventually I get this feeling of stress when I haven't had a drink for two days. I love alcohol, but alcoholism runs in my family(my dad is one and I haven't seen him in almost two years). I'm going through a rough time right now in my life and I guess I use this as a way to help deal with my problems. What should I do?",-0.2470132013201329,1.87462574257426,2.4132920792079235,92.75148927392742,88.6039603960396,6.138943894389437,20.297854785478552,7.492282038375204,0.6947419141914195,364,12,84,7,12,126,66,101,0.099,0.818,0.08199999999999999,-0.1375,0,0,4,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,4,0,7,7,0,2,0,16,21,7,0,3,1,1,2,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,4,5,5,0,3,2,0,2,2,3,0,3,2,3,15,1,11,18,0,18,0,0,1,1,6,5,0,3,10,51,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5110545940171758,0.15961739397340866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17604623161992294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20560132565209915,0.1643357590230088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1561526064050546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13430248489076166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08059809558643058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16656121866243356,0.0,0.09059144212289394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17559852225642672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10684334306444658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11258986458592887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14386591245944433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1672648684968082,0.0,0.10801445805606204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30505106640091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13612785416521356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11282507293920785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1825936706008297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2042758557831042,0.0,0.0,0.09294819008808324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3114238505013636,0.0,0.0,0.13767155883792356,0.17555803114448704,0.0,0.0,0.12652534628693055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20529844454614904 alcoholism,belbert09,2019/05/28,"What is it like to attend an AA meeting? Just looking for general info on what I can expect for someone who is struggling with alcohol and has never attended an AA meeting before. The only real reference point I have is AA meetings in movies and tv shows. Thank you for any insight you may have ❤️",4.864830508474576,5.812341203389836,6.3625000000000025,75.71798728813562,69.16949152542372,8.611864406779661,33.39406779661017,8.841846274778883,3.0488271186440667,237,11,41,4,4,81,46,59,0.046,0.872,0.08199999999999999,0.29600000000000004,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,1,3,0,8,1,0,0,1,12,10,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,3,2,0,2,1,1,3,0,0,1,4,2,7,9,0,6,0,0,1,0,6,3,0,1,2,30,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.350564046111565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22307148089668166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27912915956681683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1602587680633365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27546237640845095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25299676817537625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24948140900851215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31009414550093656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3733696741632476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27793854551559344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3429279210953798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3020057246962332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,undine22334455,2019/05/28,"I got a kind of problem So I’m drinking pretty often, like 2/3 times a week- it’s like that for 10 months by now. I’m kinda fine with that but I’m the last couple of times I drank it just “turned me off” like I was buzzed but after that when I god drunk it didn’t feel that good and I was just calm/tired.. Thinking about quitting. Does anyone knows why does it happen?",-1.455951923076924,0.4852284625000038,0.2325,104.3563461538462,101.875,2.4615384615384617,11.153846153846152,3.1291,-2.0179519230769234,287,4,69,0,13,91,56,80,0.064,0.727,0.21,0.8638,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,7,7,0,0,3,0,3,3,0,0,0,12,13,5,0,1,4,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,2,3,0,3,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,1,6,6,8,8,0,9,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,11,37,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15463506436309085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2447011841045573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3870643222098746,0.0,0.0,0.2166453884951353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11182141708859164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18549233762178646,0.17687596479134066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19556454465673484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23029643734333846,0.1215397044890818,0.18026891427631336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3241320196541222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17652192324213706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2249917354805253,0.0,0.2116132042645854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2352230494109573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14170567867919465,0.0,0.0,0.25791175972200303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.240550561171858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17739530397956982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1995558548874405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,princess_peach133,2019/05/28,"Husband relapsed I don't know what to feel My husband went to rehab two years ago and has been (mostly) sober since. He's admitted to relapsing a few times before. Once he showed Up in an uber completely plastered after a company party. He relapsed this weekend and doesn't seem to feel that bad about it. I'm extremely angry and don't even want to speak to him. My trust is broken. I don't know if I can live with this uncertainty anymore. Just when I thought I could trust him again he stays out until 5 am drinking. Thanks for reading my ramble.",3.4223445463812405,5.2216699908256885,4.289296636085627,85.88167176350662,73.86238532110092,7.046279306829766,26.790010193679922,7.793537801064563,1.5689686034658514,435,16,85,6,9,140,79,109,0.126,0.754,0.121,-0.1444,1,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,3,0,10,2,0,0,0,17,21,6,0,3,2,2,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,5,1,0,7,4,0,1,4,1,0,1,3,3,10,3,14,17,2,13,0,0,0,0,10,3,0,3,8,53,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20602843474390176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23050056783135275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19406299637773936,0.0,0.0,0.1977743443620036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24369046521745802,0.0,0.0,0.18557037465583026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2276854686517711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15351280370045806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350394987123657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554665462174446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2052332380820794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475222714053089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2324852976023896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21158862451332625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19226221172848584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.247731354468234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21398331972217896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18451742440101004,0.13552737099785034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22704291328577805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13708875384853356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21545789408188765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14967240584738814 alcoholism,Logical007,2019/05/28,"Hello! Could someone please comment on if my current drinking habits are harmful to my body? Hi Guys, 33/male here. Once a week I like to get together with my best friends to play video games/watch movies, etc - just have fun together. It usually lasts about 5-6 hours and in that timespan I will have 5 drinks (whiskey). Since I want to be honest, we don't measure the pours, so I bet it's closer to 7-8 typical 1.5 oz amounts. The next day I don't feel horrible ( I can work fine ) but obviously I don't feel as well as the mornings when I don't drink prior. I really don't mind it though, because the memories with my best buds are so much fun :) I suppose my question is more of a technical one - is this frequency of drinking (once a week) harmful to my body long term? (Liver, stomach, etc etc) I just want to be pro-active, as I've seen how alcohol can negatively impact people's lives. Thanks for reading!",2.408094262295084,4.232084655737708,3.8301878415300585,87.97347848360658,76.75956284153007,7.1979508196721325,27.284494535519126,8.07648339933343,1.716967486338798,704,29,148,12,16,232,121,183,0.012,0.7709999999999999,0.217,0.9863,1,0,6,0,0,0,36.0,1,0,0,3,10,13,0,0,7,0,17,10,4,1,1,18,24,11,0,4,4,0,2,1,2,1,1,0,0,1,5,4,6,0,3,8,1,0,6,2,1,1,1,3,18,11,18,19,9,15,0,0,1,0,8,3,0,3,13,86,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.131017184102301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07473300947679927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2573125883535645,0.0,0.0,0.2723516736093871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09788244012280196,0.0,0.0,0.07906388197069869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4803872233048573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41017878638192096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1239758215818406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0947168911891888,0.0,0.06405102929883724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12138870665729068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12073176034769305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09993160225901147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05989391311589338,0.0,0.10825397197713073,0.10849305884591777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12378639194403065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09012171478878167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13038158393076335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2611201702300264,0.08307380641430492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08499220452246485,0.0,0.0,0.13457291923335046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13733488970319607,0.0,0.12262856215170514,0.0,0.07853774356937912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10141217024696958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10387467280473336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1128693603105064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12044934439162808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13502149764251048,0.0,0.1446198701163967,0.0,0.19667724777806708,0.0,0.11022797521710877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0892509011841728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,SnakeJake131,2019/05/28,"Traveling abroad I’m an alcoholic have been sober from alcohol for 1.5 years. I’m going to Mexico City this summer, and am wondering if anyone has any advice about traveling there as an ex drinker. I am sad that I won’t be able to try the tequila in the land that it is from but i have enough painful memories associated with my behavior under its influence to say not. I’m more worried about coming off as disrespectful for refusing a drink or being unable to culturally participate in some of the norms associated with alcohol. Also really wish I could try the indigenous drink of pulque but alas that is the burden to bear of the alcoholic!",5.423187613843349,7.078187803278687,7.009781420765027,68.9498816029144,68.50819672131146,11.651730418943536,30.76867030965392,11.429527900616536,4.198456102003642,520,21,91,19,9,179,84,122,0.126,0.8220000000000001,0.052000000000000005,-0.8623,0,0,8,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,9,0,12,7,0,1,0,15,19,8,0,3,5,1,0,0,0,1,5,1,0,0,6,4,6,1,1,5,0,4,2,3,0,0,1,1,5,0,22,14,3,11,0,1,0,0,4,5,0,4,2,65,11,0,0.1657674473117523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16198603099270614,0.0,0.70861995230554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13256416772507915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11272754857997255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11590845344550513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14279397780618094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1323518180584825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3247779800784356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17128208550485516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09420946041959123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17638825141374356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10619487146598798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13182492752045655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2250904309273185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19062438353553074,0.0,0.17976772544371666,0.0,0.16834488928846153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10674880116952168 alcoholism,sonnyboy0,2019/05/28,"My cause for drinking I started drinking at age 13. I have had stages in life where it has been worse. I am 38 now. I suffer depression, social anxiety (unless drinking). The last 5 years my drinking has increased a lot. I drink alone, go to bars alone. I am spending money I can't afford to spend especially since I just quit my job. Because I'm single I frequent strip bars and prostitutes for company. I have had 2 x DUI's in last 3 years. My main causes have been the way I look. From say 16 to say early 30's I have suffered from bad acne. This had slowly eaten away any self confidence I've had. I seem to have outgrown it now but it has fucked me mentally. Then low and behold I started going bald in my late twenties. To me that's a double whammy. Family, friends (don't have many) say get over yourself. But I don't think they understand the turmoil I'm in. It sounds simple stop drinking and you will come right mentally. For me I have tried it doesn't work. I rely on booze to calm and relax me at night. Suicide has been on my agenda for a long time but I couldn't put my family thru that so I just fantasize about it. Maybe I should be doing a 30 day treatment program. Problem is they are expensive I'd have to sell everything I own. Thanks for reading my rant. I wish you all well.",0.9048746867167948,3.2101394624060178,2.7732631578947355,90.97217543859652,84.82706766917293,5.651929824561403,21.64862155388472,7.0316486544052195,0.6898750877192983,1011,34,211,14,30,336,157,266,0.16,0.748,0.092,-0.9464,2,2,6,0,0,1,32.0,0,2,2,2,8,13,1,1,7,0,32,13,1,2,1,23,48,10,1,4,6,0,0,0,1,2,1,4,0,1,9,5,10,1,3,10,5,5,5,8,1,0,8,5,38,5,27,36,7,38,0,4,1,1,10,13,1,2,18,134,47,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21021825588402204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06901411671306869,0.0,0.0776366883971596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09534965408642353,0.0,0.08473676321530421,0.0618650640279033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2085086283674744,0.0,0.08742140119589135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0654502227951941,0.0,0.08740994144555618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5965072168778635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0912092799210171,0.0,0.1913443717615856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0784080097799653,0.09382238458222686,0.05302236664048481,0.0,0.11535392685773385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10070942398752182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16544964575751464,0.114480888204036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07168272576315017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08981212022740087,0.08522287348922558,0.0,0.0,0.08627996381655048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10289110862742994,0.10195655900979002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20454850064648467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09523795226793122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09710861637942587,0.0,0.10202169213335707,0.0,0.10794309810784407,0.10151369391219486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08666868616227673,0.0,0.2421177710735283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09238925250612218,0.10587227152415354,0.0,0.0,0.08395045843142603,0.0,0.0,0.10345243132542337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14366495230192186,0.0,0.0,0.08484703278085105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1110094640631812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09343488575240268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06502827853992782,0.0,0.0,0.05917743701681225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06890248864053082,0.0,0.0,0.10565074484329504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08055504581455154,0.0,0.0,0.09124830904326957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11670415634333395,0.0,0.0,0.07388318435136837,0.0,0.1034231388838344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13070760990898378 alcoholism,ShitPostPerfected,2019/05/28,"I think I'm an alcoholic I have a regular 9-5 job, which I maintain, but my side-gig is a creative writing job. I feel like I can't write well if I don't have a few drinks in me, and the demand has gotten worse and worse in the last year. I drink a box of wine every day or two, or a fifth of whiskey a night, depending. I don't feel like I can perform, creatively, if I don't have some drinks in me. It's not every night, but it's more often than naught. I'm tired of feeling like shit, being bloated, being hungover, but I don't think I can keep doing it without alcohol. I don't know how to handle it except to keep drinking to fuel the writing. if I quit drinking I don't think I can keep writing. I've tried a few times and I'm just shit without the booze. With the drink I write well and I get great reviews. What do I do? I feel like if I want to keep producing I need to kill myself with liquor, and if I quit I'll be a boring sober piece of shit that can't write. I don't know what to do.",0.6171654472504144,1.875463022421528,2.8510455510974784,95.52658956809064,80.21076233183857,5.770970025961766,21.153882464007552,6.339386263674448,0.04331928251121076,766,21,190,6,19,262,103,223,0.19,0.682,0.129,-0.9485,2,0,10,0,0,1,27.0,0,0,0,4,5,12,4,0,14,0,24,16,3,3,0,48,44,16,1,7,15,0,4,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,8,7,12,4,9,9,0,0,12,5,2,1,1,4,28,7,19,40,5,9,0,0,0,0,6,3,3,10,10,120,36,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19816936749780867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0597938338753366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5449554166231707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15623363215452335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18751899085780335,0.2649439158681331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048440027354821114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10221917724012314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18401167514537134,0.3296392217191549,0.10257597502050314,0.0,0.10190803930204108,0.07557551533563715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811844600457543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06874737597233749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17401445108462074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1972287152160319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2855134163926638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17822506562198,0.0,0.0,0.0540631595590426,0.1065628398995203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06294774537683755,0.0,0.09056958131294073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05468601005461207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667247565959169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17874888642200587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18897005147368096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059705748730575416 alcoholism,k94ever,2019/05/28,"I just relapsed i was able to get sober for 2 days I live alone and don't have friends. Im thinking about just sleeping this night thru and getting help tomorrow. Thank you for accepting this post cuz i really don't have anyone. Im able to wirte this post so i think im ok to sleep this night thru. I would appreciate any advice",1.3146583850931677,3.4387634057971037,2.619503105590063,93.83869565217393,81.6086956521739,6.2616977225672885,21.45134575569358,7.447530270364453,0.6025345755693587,261,8,59,4,7,84,44,69,0.067,0.741,0.192,0.8131,0,1,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,4,4,0,0,0,1,6,2,2,1,0,9,11,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,7,4,8,9,0,6,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,31,11,0,0.3360712351299545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16420246071334152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17403422290657453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11426998213103763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174944108241452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10836907208960944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1298239013003296,0.0,0.1755833495266977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11263073241500444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5445219060807645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14837852886510086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31538008807964096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.321863344584684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10764791941002254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3363139417567478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1547046203566177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21534087750955969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193676815407638,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,OutlawOW,2019/05/28,"Getting to the point where alcohol is effecting my job and energy levels . I feel like I’ve wasted 8 years of my life I mean... they were great years I will always cherish,but I’m ready to move on and all my friends rather stay boozed up so I don’t have any guidance . I feel like this is my first step to get to where I want to be. any tips to help me stay away from the booze ?",1.1418989547038336,2.539753085365856,2.5054006968641107,97.96451219512196,79.12195121951221,6.149128919860628,19.031358885017426,6.868970318607317,-0.17051777003484325,291,6,73,3,7,94,58,82,0.037000000000000005,0.721,0.242,0.9393,1,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,2,4,4,0,0,2,0,7,4,0,1,1,9,14,3,0,2,1,0,2,2,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,4,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,2,12,4,11,11,1,14,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,0,5,41,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2185690513933156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1701765331612654,0.0,0.0,0.2781604246829884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1921527184382064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20682231803800416,0.2922174153095009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17396410600754605,0.0,0.0,0.15801118914279358,0.0,0.21370590141337728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2254833719830686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13708504970704846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2029539569593848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14445810792313085,0.19983570649408525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22278159484538326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2173717665464001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19333694934360396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4359809586261599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1206308471691928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2634075897308161 alcoholism,shanabear,2019/03/16,"Help me help my dad My dad (60M) has been drinking for my (21F) entire life. Since his retirement, my dad has far too much time to drink and chain smoke cigarettes with his friends. It is hard to estimate how much he drinks, but my dad is drunk every single day. He’s a fun guy to be around, but that doesn’t change the fact that he is killing himself between that and his multiple packs a day. It is hard to address this issue, between him seeming to not want help & me becoming too emotional in the moment (it makes me cry immediately, then it is hard to speak clearly). Any advice on how to move forward in addressing this situation will help me. My dad can’t get better until *he* wants to. I need help in how to move forward with this issue in the correct way. Slight background info: my dad is married to my step mom who only drinks occasionally. She is an amazing woman who also wants to help him, but does not know how.",3.169315315315316,4.811103697297297,4.272972972972976,86.39450450450451,74.18918918918921,7.095495495495496,25.84684684684685,7.793537801064563,1.3521063063063052,724,25,149,10,15,236,107,185,0.08900000000000001,0.746,0.165,0.9536,0,0,6,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,1,8,5,1,0,6,0,14,6,0,5,3,25,22,12,1,4,5,7,3,0,1,1,1,1,2,2,12,5,5,0,3,5,0,5,4,1,0,0,1,4,20,4,23,19,3,19,0,0,0,0,30,9,0,1,8,93,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1119130689818114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09158606304639452,0.0,0.12408841550384545,0.0,0.07788132003153418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10195204491496633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1264845026645032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10128856658324142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1211528755731254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12580096930961038,0.14771904620152815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100222104750202,0.0,0.0,0.4487658629024369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288258601020634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09649273859317599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08848217717684406,0.0,0.059834887437963474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11339832753024642,0.0,0.0,0.30777726729681204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4605844835018913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23906989671382603,0.0,0.0,0.12670558326140785,0.0,0.06294026235778233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08089280239727298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07644671236756223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13413097234876192,0.0,0.2434451289828717,0.16837895406626638,0.08491926465749122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0871018625007884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10425978458608574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09473674128258183,0.12873154767936915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06678078530098139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20265045880842505,0.0909050727885354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ubersalad,2019/03/16,"help - two-day hangover i drank a shit ton of vodka thursday night, woke up at like 4 am, puked, blah blah blah. fast forward two days and i STILL feel like puking, ive been coughing non-stop, my eyes hurt, & i'm just miserable. what can i even do?",2.279615384615384,3.4073223461538475,3.0953846153846136,96.0246153846154,75.53846153846153,5.9692307692307685,22.615384615384606,5.985473137389443,0.08802307692307698,190,5,45,1,4,60,44,52,0.335,0.536,0.129,-0.8834,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,3,5,1,1,1,0,5,4,2,0,0,3,9,1,0,0,1,0,1,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,3,0,1,3,2,5,2,3,6,1,8,0,2,1,0,1,3,1,0,8,20,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2929664147895858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3487571276180713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17858941259836336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13671682426685408,0.19316598612555072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18123607576013764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28945706252113323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2641968567625685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2537417999104931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2775504667285317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21593303876970887,0.2260573469105041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5282616112913489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,pineapple0234,2019/03/16,"Dont judge me So I'm new to Reddit. I discovered this page while exploring and I think I'm an alcoholic. I don't want to admit this. I'm drunk now. I'm out of weed, I'm out of alcohol and I feel like talking. I was in an abusive relationship for 8 years. He used to call me a slut and judge everything I wore. He beat the shit out of me and mentally fucked me up. I have scars on my body. I've done too many drugs in my life. Seriously,too many. We used to hold parties and my ex sold acid/x/weed if that gives you an idea. Fast forward 5 years: I have a 2yo and a 10mo.. I wanna stop drinking. Yet, when things get too intense I drink. I was pulled over by the police tonight. I didn't even get out of the car and got away with a $10 ticket. I was drunk. There was a pint of vodka under the passenger side. I got pulled over for no seatbelt. I'm a functional alcoholic and idk how to stop. 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I thought I was managing my drinking until I missed my boyfriend's mom's funeral and ending up getting mad at him because I can't stand the guilt. It doesn't make much sense but even when I'm in the wrong I feel angry and misunderstood. I drank 30 units of alcohol just in this past week. I just feel like the pain is too much to bear. I'm not a nice drunk. I feel like an irredeemable monster. I've gone to outpatient treatment and have tried different meds. I've talked to an AD counsellor and overburdened all my close friends with my problems. My S.O has seen the worst of it and I think we have an unhealthy codependent relationship but I don't know how to break free from these chains of addiction. Forgive the stream of consciousness and lack of decent grammar...I've failed to even care about that anymore.,3.3779047619047624,5.350543171428576,3.7268571428571455,89.1224761904762,74.42857142857143,7.6380952380952385,27.095238095238088,8.447377352677275,1.7860666666666667,705,27,146,13,15,219,114,175,0.23600000000000002,0.627,0.13699999999999998,-0.968,1,0,2,0,0,0,15.0,1,0,0,1,8,16,1,1,12,0,8,6,0,2,1,28,24,11,1,2,5,1,4,3,1,0,3,0,0,0,6,9,4,0,9,2,1,1,4,8,0,1,5,5,19,9,20,19,5,15,0,2,1,0,7,6,0,0,9,87,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18417177703680745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18054767853221612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16754512275118047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10298550883391523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17224768475353053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10895364942669444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17650849028183596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16549889726012296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14963251631752705,0.0,0.0,0.2231692683611049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3416887171571019,0.3620767141401546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13052421282878282,0.0,0.08826525105649043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09284613536427026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24760966384778724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11277013375452676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18765653815358974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19786289330099224,0.0,0.0,0.24838369870248575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17976625811618044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16127430795472536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16165473077797102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18138054256920555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357892246210242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10825124744084104,0.0,0.13412112087991926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11470056588590298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1355151263162121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1847116164781887,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,CocaineDude,2019/05/19,"Am I an alcoholic or just a heavy drinker with some problems? On average I'd say that I'd drink around 14 to 18 beers in one night. Standard Friday and Saturday night for me is to go to the store at the beginning of the evening, get about 24 beers and sneak them into my room because I still live with my parents and don't want them to worry about me drinking so much. Throughout the workweek I pretty much drink every day too, and I feel kinda proud when I haven't drunk one day, but during workdays I usually just drink a couple, maybe 4, and when I do drink much I try to drink not more than 10 (i do this maybe max 1 workday). I can't go through a weekend without getting fucked up as possible on friday and saturday, and if I wouldn't drink I would feel like I missed out on something. I'm always hungover on sat and sunday, waking up at 4pm feeling like shit. I almost always wake up with blackouts, not remembering how I ended my night or not remembering encounters with my parents or someone else. It also had an impact on my life. When I was 17 I was in the army and I made the most money I ever made in my life. Every weekend I'd buy 2/3 crates of beer (24 beers per crate) and pretty much wasted huge parts of my income on alcohol, to a point where I didn't have money to travel to my base and had to borrow cash. I was drunk every weekend, and did a lot of stupid shit which got me a criminal record and made me force to resign from the army because I'd be dishonorably discharged otherwise. So I lost my job, went back to school and got into some more trouble, couple of times in jail, huge fines, one DUI on a moped, basically just stupid pointless shit that I'd never do sober, so it's pretty safe to say that alcohol has ruined my career. I also believe I have somewhat anxiety and alcohol helps with that which is also a shitty combo to make a habit of. At school I'm sometimes hungover as shit, making me skip classes and even did an exam still drunk from the night before last week. &#x200B; Alcohol hasn't really affected relationships with my family, but then again they know I drink a lot but not as much as I really do. I'm not sure what to think of all this, I'm convincing my self I'm not an alcoholic but at the same time I can argue that I can't even go a couple of days, or let's say one week without alcohol, and I convince my self that it's maybe just for a small period of my life, just being young, but then again I've been drinking a whole lot compared to my peers the last couple of years. I feel like my life will be 10 times more boring than it already is without alcohol, like a light in a dark tunnel after a workweek for example.",8.512596816345923,5.4401792586520985,8.743174150629606,74.89263720598719,63.33515482695811,11.733618436683305,35.89142314088857,9.653516015845867,3.147576003801377,2099,66,434,30,23,699,240,549,0.135,0.765,0.10099999999999999,-0.9743,4,0,23,0,0,0,50.0,0,0,3,2,29,25,8,0,30,0,33,35,6,7,4,86,63,43,0,5,24,2,4,4,0,3,12,3,1,2,15,27,24,1,8,20,6,5,17,15,0,4,17,8,54,10,72,39,19,73,0,4,0,1,13,29,5,14,43,289,69,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4340913355112298,0.05084231352082103,0.0,0.056029806024116884,0.12181061884051132,0.08449521796627972,0.055013052498337,0.06169534475328381,0.0,0.0,0.03884157896790196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04519916848358857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03904167783072216,0.0,0.06190209344070965,0.0,0.043204498222389656,0.05720433349262001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22471959278686413,0.0,0.09823409716401488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4476481927737521,0.0,0.0,0.04241473369850987,0.0,0.0449702395595958,0.0,0.0,0.1006062289219458,0.045927526284963584,0.12833655919565345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04786472529470439,0.0,0.10269040341979456,0.10881776885500913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04693927104496071,0.053054103245516286,0.0,0.08656722907309461,0.0,0.08121639240762776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034032398415176475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0503848518707086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02790378089113791,0.08277433792677097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05191933098251823,0.14345126309976522,0.0992214453073988,0.0,0.044833919680008806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055425259407161816,0.12949741019804534,0.0,0.1441293045853735,0.06778339434387637,0.0,0.1530263778569102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18662177694128768,0.0,0.039159643649795205,0.0,0.0,0.19058991413093115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13762171664531164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11275589847352264,0.054982739127286163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04799735713337976,0.05723947830479765,0.0,0.15496467057140367,0.0,0.04858337043267243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06505359244984629,0.0,0.0,0.05451172413272586,0.11503292728579025,0.0,0.0,0.12113134548676753,0.0,0.1027709600436448,0.0,0.0,0.10593564150701247,0.0,0.2084730211555625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043020211196485726,0.039087911249236065,0.050216277416801465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08109554541598403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04785341109357908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032533600649403,0.0,0.0,0.08881928662057606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034471865156397614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0559198232620754,0.0,0.029947518425936338,0.0,0.08145485813333356,0.0,0.0,0.04706753159460419,0.0,0.05668678557315712,0.0,0.1468314902950345,0.0,0.0,0.051562941164694516,0.0,0.03606802876077186,0.0,0.06169534475328381,0.032696461278809895 alcoholism,throwaway173-,2019/05/19,"479 days This is my first post here, or anywhere - I recently told my sponsor that I still feel uncomfortable at meetings, and she suggested an online forum, so apologies for any breaches of etiquette. I’ve been clean and sober for 479 days today - the counter app I use says “479 days of freedom,” and in many ways that’s been true for me. Alcohol was my prison for 3 long years. I don’t miss anything about who I was when I was drinking: constantly broke, sick, irritable and cruel. I don’t miss the shaking, the bargaining with myself, the constant shame and humiliation, the lying and blaming and justifying. One of the hardest parts of recovery has been learning how to live with all this regret. That and my mother, who has already lost a son to drug abuse, are the main things that keep me going. I’m wondering though if anyone else still feels like they’re waiting to drink again. I remember my first few attempts at sobriety: “I’ve been so good this week, I can have a beer,” and all the shitty addict logic you use when you’re not ready to say goodbye to the poison. When I finally quit after my brother’s death, I grieved for alcohol, and thought I had finally accepted that I couldn’t control my addiction and drinking could not play any role in my life. 479 days later, I still feel...dry. I’m always restless, always bored, always looking for the next thing to obsess over. I feel like I’m always waiting for sobriety to really sink in and feel permanent. It’s this constant sensation of waiting for some reward I can never have. I know drinking won’t relieve this feeling, and I’m barely tempted. Does this ever go away? Hobbies, music, weed, and friendships definitely make my life feel more full, but every night I’m overwhelmed by what I can only describe as a thirst. I don’t want it to last my whole life.",7.201517116573669,6.865978151862464,7.228125471271301,75.95666867742428,64.04297994269339,9.983471572915096,35.27386517870608,9.414487439383343,3.1904693409742126,1441,59,264,23,19,463,197,349,0.14,0.785,0.075,-0.9482,0,0,8,0,1,0,48.0,0,1,0,7,14,22,2,5,14,0,23,16,1,5,5,53,52,25,2,5,5,3,6,2,0,1,10,2,1,0,18,16,8,5,13,6,1,3,8,14,0,3,11,9,34,8,34,38,9,43,0,7,1,0,14,8,0,4,32,168,52,1,0.0,0.10253325156616193,0.0,0.1886781521069217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18496537797886906,0.0,0.0,0.09549671602754567,0.0,0.2880258351184814,0.0,0.0,0.11769746851686515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06050930638557578,0.08866829721171036,0.07121331183683921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08130519844649195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28055015520260423,0.0970596046538398,0.06909346532998077,0.0,0.0,0.2232391256671824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07572989269926794,0.0,0.0,0.3390967564431183,0.10035648107766593,0.0,0.07229130469677388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07827847795144917,0.07291190659119542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3062931095522277,0.12364537506608538,0.0,0.1895960620991404,0.0,0.14721817392407766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09836295689388967,0.07258387827859535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07691885483085313,0.0,0.0,0.047558962433474766,0.07053993226353976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18337281763211685,0.08455608593651799,0.0,0.07641454432736591,0.07658331147557622,0.07267003438671486,0.0,0.0944663320105116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05776471507195743,0.08773584010855784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06674335741506465,0.0,0.09203403018647896,0.08120994966340651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058640315424453714,0.0658159666226507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09371210427883736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08287937951750858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09204370059520796,0.0,0.0,0.055438389721362405,0.0,0.08544572861340892,0.0,0.0980305623947729,0.0,0.0,0.1376368106290345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20732781767143085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11498386071631295,0.0,0.08502303978426437,0.06870142009075254,0.0,0.0,0.08202780326746882,0.08269066456959223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14948190789499574,0.0,0.0,0.05104229098384445,0.06868975088133991,0.06941547729859003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09661646627982384,0.0,0.0,0.09384665271395476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055727565369478115 alcoholism,Toffy-y,2019/05/19,"What can I do to help? I'm posting here for the first time, although I've wanted to for the past few months. I'm sorry if it's not the right subreddit, and I'm sorry for any mistakes, I'm from Poland. It's also pretty long. My father is an alcoholic. I was too small to remember his worst times, but from family's stories I know he started drinking in his 20s, lost his job as a policeman because of it, trashed the car and nearly died. I only remember him sleeping drunk or my mom crying and not wanting to tell me why. At the beginning of 2000s he didn't drink as badly as before, to the point he'd pass out, but I remember my mom being really irritable when he would drink, and whenever I got angry at him for that she'd tell me that when I was small I told her not to yell at him bc he has a headache, and that hurt as hell too. He drank mostly on family parties, sometimes too much, but never too the point he'd pass out. A few years ago my mom was diagnosed with cancer, and bc my dad had to be available to go with her to various doctors and chemo, he was drinking even less. He also had a work related accident prior to mom's diagnose, that left his shoulders in a pretty bad state, and was on pension as he was going through rehabilitation. Unfortunately a year and a half ago mom died, right after her own mom. It left only us two at home, as my for older siblings arrested their own families. He didn't drink much after her death, what I was afraid of, until he went to sanatorium for a month, where he stayed at a hotel and had everyday treatments. As it was over half the country away from home, I can't be sure if he drank every day, I'm afraid he did, but usually to the point of being tipsy (I can recognize quite well how drunk he is by his voice, or I want to think so). But since he came back, a year ago, I noticed he has been drinking nearly every day. When we go to my sister's house, usually to help her on her farm, or to repair, help paint the house, he and my neither in law would drink, at least one beer. I tell him he shouldn't, and he'd get offended, or say that I'm overreacting and it's just a one beer after a day of hard work. He always gets really defensive when me or my sister tell him he drinks too often, that we're concerned about his health, says he's not drinking that much. I try not to get angry, though it's hard, and I explain him over and over again that even he drinks I feel anxious, left alone, that I don't want to lose him, but he tells me not to get dramatic. I decided to post it all here today, after we were at a christening and we had a lift home. I was ready not to drink, drive home whenever I want to, but in the end I decided to drink as I haven't in a long time. My cousin was filling up the glasses in a record time, and even though I asked my dad before the party to be careful, he ignored me. When, after I don't know how many glasses of vodka and noticing my dad was pretty tipsy, I gently nudged him and let me tell you, that was a mistake. He immediately got defensive, said that he's an adult, that I'm not his mother, and he'll drink as much as he wants to. He also didn't want to go home when his father and step mother wanted to, so I got angry, called my brother and uncle to get us home, and left my father with the rest of the family as they said they'll get him home. And they did. He could barely walk, sat on the sofa and threw up on himself, and refused to get himself ready to sleep. I started to cry, because I felt so helpless, so overwhelmed, like I was left alone with overgrown toddler. In the end I called my brother again to help me, and he convinced dad to go to bed. Right now he's sleeping, and I'm afraid he'll choke in his sleep or sth, and I know he'll feel like shit tomorrow, drink a beer, ignore my concerns, say it was a one time thing (again), and then drink every day, at least a beer or a glass of whisky. I have no idea what to do. He says that as long as he's not laying in a ditch, it's not a problem, others say I'm overreacting, but I can't stand him after he drinks. It's there anything I can do to help? I know he has to help himself, has to want to change, but is there really nothing I can do?",6.101932746700188,4.246474833333334,7.001340875759483,81.6483940917662,66.99549549549549,10.107311963125918,30.6736853132202,8.70740988407696,2.068302346532579,3244,89,734,41,43,1094,307,888,0.145,0.764,0.091,-0.9959,1,2,23,0,0,0,112.0,5,1,4,6,39,27,5,4,42,0,61,36,6,2,3,113,121,81,3,18,29,20,5,2,0,7,6,9,9,1,29,40,25,5,15,24,0,15,22,21,1,7,39,14,102,6,115,64,17,120,1,5,0,0,126,46,2,11,56,468,131,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971629979597062,0.0390467243835232,0.0,0.07568220542486466,0.0,0.08765538994691682,0.030401541959085624,0.0,0.0,0.024846274821991053,0.0,0.0,0.04127618076080545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030066670747956083,0.0,0.03415697303748543,0.0,0.034327523446582714,0.02809454156796141,0.06101339861022225,0.044544984589400274,0.0,0.06218024627397984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07461630947698708,0.04178836219003109,0.03725169953415376,0.0,0.038651086560237184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02917165933346172,0.0,0.08026791161407769,0.09425284566002398,0.0,0.0,0.07416815960900719,0.07583885362287243,0.0,0.0,0.037396959868708265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5726744208180962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06472151479279173,0.0,0.0,0.07239662938408008,0.0,0.09235148173304657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13777456186813195,0.0,0.03694820468547957,0.02610189503710443,0.035081054801013166,0.0,0.0,0.03107818081563217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13362277881746354,0.0,0.10382351847011233,0.0,0.08766544264782274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06545958700684297,0.0,0.0,0.03883690661369266,0.0,0.0,0.14693906897314007,0.0,0.25654570454129794,0.0,0.0,0.08431711629795438,0.0391133968004309,0.04124559647543047,0.0,0.0,0.036257133246545656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.080318672322271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19848668392374827,0.03736135031884525,0.0,0.035700066883759284,0.0,0.0,0.09700174664815243,0.0,0.04087533002948913,0.03988422990121143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03704257742405274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25674872997289944,0.0583266454784573,0.0,0.10743499892595364,0.0,0.02817943022520396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03505804207051477,0.0831947709697319,0.0,0.0,0.07427483756672856,0.05557576097389201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034878506907680636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10361724854521327,0.0,0.06998430353743898,0.1115131731225911,0.0,0.03496078027308325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03886138095304738,0.0,0.0,0.07021922310121248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12416720554355094,0.09360667486921767,0.06950972147188236,0.1452776370471088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03750449701501156,0.030223615992818517,0.0,0.14625273352669196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03613582642097517,0.08179990573409766,0.051721865861478866,0.03894336416665376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03443549872437527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1916086257207832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.024273424394354558,0.02341130419043782,0.07179443497982138,0.0,0.10652450059556846,0.0,0.03463261136726495,0.03491247522991142,0.0,0.024806086786553952,0.0,0.03569114160993217,0.0,0.08789853613266682,0.0,0.08048023990778233,0.0,0.193953145259402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032850968345462105,0.03386997681348074,0.03296877630662421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053198446652590735,0.0,0.0,0.05190938451403072,0.0,0.0,0.07058549797774717 alcoholism,Frelsi_8899,2019/05/19,"Always conceal your past. Here's my random tip of the day, but firstly a bit of backstory. I haven't had a drink in what feels like a lifetime. In reality, it's been about 4 years, and in these 4 years, I've progressed by leaps and bounds. Now I need to add in one more thing. Some people really embrace their ex alcohol addiction and turn it into a badge they wear on their sleeve. My brother did this. He quit drinking and then his whole life became obsessed with it. He not only joined AA, but he also leads AA meetings, even at his house. I'm sure he helped many people on the way, and I'm sure he was also mostly also doing it to reinforce his own quit, but he also didn't care about any publicity he got. Hell, he was almost happy to be associated as an ex-alcoholic, and it became his identity. He is also larger than life type of character, and if this is you, then this advice does not apply. I'm coming from a different place. The day I realized I found the solution was the day I stopped thinking about alcohol. It simply stopped being a thing in my life and frankly I didn't want any association with it. I still don't. But your past can at times even catch up with you. You know if you live in a small town but even if you don't. People LOVE to gossip, and word gets around. And someone who knows someone who knows someone will eventually know someone you work with, and then BOOM. If you work in any type of professional setting you'll know where I'm coming from. Some of this is unavoidable. But there are 2 things you can and should do to protect yourself. 1. NEVER volunteer up any information that you've had a drinking problem EVER. To anyone. Why hand it out on a silver platter. In addition, if you ever get confronted about past events, you can either deny it or play it down. 2. Be careful how you turn down offers to drink. Always drive yourself to venues, and you're golden. On the rare occasions you don't or find yourself in situations where you're expected to drink, just say you're on medication. Don't come out with the whole ""Oh I never drink"". People will not respect you, they'll just gossip about you saying yeah he's an ex-alcoholic. Now having said all that, I would also like to make another point. These same assholes who believe they have the moral high ground actually don't. You're the one after all who has woken up from Candy land while they still continue to drink and get up to all kinds of shit. The same kind of shit you used to get up to, remember? All the cringe, all the regrets, the broken relationships, the fights, the regrets, the guilt. With alcohol to some degree, all of this is unavoidable. Another thing I would like to say is drinking isn't inherently immoral. It's not like you were stealing, murdering or raping. Most people who end up with drinking problems have problems. I'll even say originating from childhood, or other forms of trauma. This NEVER made you a bad person. How you behaved on alcohol, others will not understand nor ever be able to attribute to the alcohol. But you're not a bad person, never were. Lastly, you have fuck all to be ashamed of neither should you be apologetic to people who hardly know you, who weren't there for the long haul who've made some basic assumptions. They're most likely self projecting and judge you because they're terrified of making the same mistakes. So be smart about it.",3.69245647969052,5.6208087264437685,4.641775628626694,83.09190909090911,73.43768996960486,7.581807129041171,25.48947222989776,8.353573213984005,1.7028275987841943,2674,89,509,46,55,868,285,658,0.161,0.757,0.08199999999999999,-0.9962,2,2,16,0,1,0,87.0,0,25,6,7,34,39,8,3,32,1,51,26,4,10,16,125,88,46,1,18,25,2,3,5,0,9,10,6,0,3,36,31,14,4,14,10,0,6,22,23,2,3,18,9,48,16,82,54,25,81,2,2,0,3,72,38,4,18,40,347,84,7,0.050718379047112634,0.0,0.049493821735847536,0.055290519475274386,0.0,0.04956141301237823,0.0,0.3794176593015233,0.05078713036100888,0.0,0.0,0.24335681639958195,0.08440350866366339,0.0,0.0,0.13796094783744695,0.10636528529566283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03546346989079175,0.0,0.0,0.0451501102727189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08469545599246191,0.030917453116145157,0.0,0.0,0.05714224513238484,0.0,0.0,0.055371333974441134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10342153528260373,0.0,0.0,0.1310681779106836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0981274759757288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052989911247523606,0.0,0.0,0.044383995289253284,0.0,0.0,0.4471623249984523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04492142982328449,0.0,0.0,0.13399604409677152,0.1376330325903376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.025644736362999583,0.03623322012526857,0.0,0.0,0.04635567960815226,0.04314102730797805,0.0,0.05561008478115168,0.0,0.046888324163983724,0.10599303891287393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040564120936076885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05399065760007759,0.04543370552131423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03399546037773319,0.053586752095512585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058522199840448076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1056307740462449,0.16724096834455354,0.041342248215273915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1074716731249198,0.1238921905906909,0.0,0.04478525790237956,0.04488416944238257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04577531726774413,0.09598191314695984,0.06770982369723072,0.051420475789404535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05109343104586857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037607035413186614,0.15646856244008986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06873617248858033,0.03857361272301945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14524929511404006,0.2109704279507362,0.08857066456972422,0.052989911247523606,0.0,0.047945261828390005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14559191724413925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10789047833056394,0.0,0.0,0.03249149233589925,0.0,0.0,0.05445255827310738,0.05745403650326988,0.0,0.048244792865740765,0.1613331628197584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05291033061359856,0.0,0.10412337449833987,0.0,0.057009583065734726,0.0,0.0,0.1718940719170304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08100752604525041,0.08480567180413211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09560294404908516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1347801495676046,0.032498289375002286,0.0,0.0,0.029574294688771437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11033406450817132,0.0,0.052799621267749834,0.0,0.04380439519561223,0.0,0.0,0.02991501402987657,0.04025788854137441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04576544835080185,0.1132505178967315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07384716799855412,0.0,0.0,0.07205776258736847,0.0,0.0,0.06532194647792973 alcoholism,Fluffy_Simple,2019/05/19,"Is it possible to overcome alcoholism and drink moderately, or not? I know that generally the story behind battling alcoholism is getting sober. But is it possible to learn to drink moderately with past issues with alcohol? Have you seen people try and in that case is it generally a bad decision? &#x200B; I'm the type of person who when I drink, I usually do until I pass out. I've lived several blackouts already and also puked (although less often than blackouts). I am 23, started drinking around 17 yo.The only notable exception is with my parents, I am very careful not to overdue it. Anyway, I had not had a blackout since Fall and avoid drinking as much as possible because I'm scared. However, I bought a beer after exams to celebrate for example (and drank only one). I'm just unsure if trying to drink moderately is too dangerous a path to take, or if I should just avoid drinking completely to avoid more trouble in the future. Also, idk if it's important to note but I am not publicly identified as alcoolic (maybe behind my back who knows) and even internally I have trouble concluding to alcoolism or accepting it, I don't want to downplay the struggles of those who had it way worst than me... &#x200B; Anyway, thank you for reading, just asking the question propped even more reflections",6.672097280334729,7.976633309623432,7.269097803347282,69.55209858786614,65.27615062761507,10.326464435146443,37.950052301255226,10.411451182825502,4.454767573221758,1047,55,165,26,16,345,137,239,0.14,0.8109999999999999,0.049,-0.9525,2,3,11,0,0,0,39.0,0,2,0,1,14,14,2,5,9,0,17,12,0,1,0,43,32,22,0,5,16,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,13,11,12,3,8,9,1,2,5,11,0,1,6,1,17,3,32,25,5,15,0,0,1,0,10,4,0,8,8,126,30,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2923882588186425,0.0,0.0,0.10063908113435276,0.14586175492902642,0.0,0.19762563702060607,0.2216307086112372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0811854101773476,0.08525766698422473,0.0,0.0,0.07012550750463246,0.07614638473053993,0.05559335509286244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09298227304842847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0956191971986956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6253741275763305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12047062273413198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047647105888048616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0951868481007726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10023989259751116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08052936107444927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.091620485295564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06704090370381524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061798014709148384,0.13872012945371284,0.0,0.0,0.10126440568051696,0.0,0.08705865486319841,0.06322509743983275,0.07963043378343798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3084355761677126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10216244927590024,0.0,0.091222516635615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09130494463422154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1030275976101097,0.0,0.07543979334898666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06455029856687412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09533978062072876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06856942386779542,0.0,0.0,0.08396271568314419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12383469015880275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10044153334866693,0.07524776670484674,0.05379084723839779,0.0723885982639618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2216307086112372,0.0 alcoholism,treywheresmycar,2019/05/19,"Dont know if this counts My moms been an alcoholic for years and always binges for a couple weeks at a time. This time it was a week and 2 days and she ended up in the hospital for the withdrawals. All they did was literally tell her why she felt like that (she already knew, not her first rodeo) and sent her home. No detox like usual. Now shes having serious tremors and wont stop throwing up. Is there anything anyone suggests here? Anything someones tried to get over these symptoms.",3.644973684210527,5.598398589473685,3.6980921052631612,89.69976973684211,73.63157894736842,6.434210526315789,25.559210526315788,7.1686216300943375,1.0496578947368418,386,13,77,4,8,118,74,95,0.037000000000000005,0.889,0.07400000000000001,0.5248,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,1,3,3,0,0,6,0,9,3,0,0,1,12,14,6,0,1,2,1,1,2,0,1,3,0,1,0,5,5,1,1,3,0,0,2,4,1,0,1,7,1,9,2,9,6,1,18,0,0,0,0,12,5,0,1,13,50,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21081259639006875,0.0,0.0,0.21768301584301814,0.0,0.1641374045030245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13792985610920858,0.0,0.3246588811355772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2182661432729392,0.0,0.12721737498118166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2311890570633669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1747151751034481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1894020142141452,0.0,0.0,0.16779056610413376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10306101356445732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19786940946462686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10840978416364988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19274404985018945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2310303328469017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16713906365165204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16491948116202176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2050302713170368,0.0,0.0,0.17241528159178238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23004958192276345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13392763783170286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2172557186412105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31646261930475283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1779978587892936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1270299650065224 alcoholism,greasy_e94,2019/05/19,"Why cant i be sober and alone? I do not know what is wrong with me and i do not know why i need to drink this much. For me it comes down to sobriety, if i don't have weed i drink, if i have weed i don't drink. I spend a lot of my life alone, i work alone and knock off to come home to a lonely house. I have a girlfriend of 4 years plus with a good, mostly healthy relationship. My girlfriend works in hospo though so come weekends when i have all the time in the world, she is working. I do not live with my girlfriend and that wont be happening anytime soon. I have a problem with addiction and anti sobriety. I hate being sober and putting up with my own 'straight"" thoughts, i don't know why but i just need to be slightly ""off center"", if that makes sense. I need that twist in reality that sits behind my eyes. If i could buy weed as easy as milk (you lucky Muricans!) i doubt i would have an alcoholism problem, but i cant, so the months i am dry i drink and drink. I opened up to my gf and said i have a real problem etc, she thinks i have stopped, and generally throughout the week i have (massive improvement), unless there is beers near by and i am not with her. On weekends though its almost like i just need to drink to make up for it! this weekend i have almost consumed two slabs of beer (30, 4.5% cans a slab) and to me it feels like it is because of boredom and habit, but i know it is deeper than that. What is wrong with my brain and why do i not like being alone and sober? i cant even imagine spending a whole weekend like this totally sober, i am also addicted to nicotine (i stopped smoking for the most part a couple years ago but i am still addicted to nicotine through nicorette quickmist spray) i am so sick of this and so is my bank account. I just wish i could live life normally without needing all these stimulants.",2.779831658973663,3.9695798766404233,3.594685491899721,92.69055118110235,74.3805774278215,6.724988686758982,26.261290614535252,7.0983637204850245,0.9454153498054128,1427,50,325,14,29,454,172,381,0.12300000000000001,0.8059999999999999,0.071,-0.9474,0,6,9,0,0,0,46.0,0,1,0,3,15,14,1,1,15,0,42,18,2,3,3,83,63,35,0,17,18,0,1,4,4,2,7,1,1,0,18,27,10,2,8,12,5,4,13,8,0,1,2,3,55,6,46,52,11,35,0,1,1,0,10,15,0,11,19,231,73,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24883227750917955,0.0,0.0,0.0674449341262518,0.08131193383878772,0.15237666343548398,0.3152052612575575,0.0,0.06084530248060487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04638082831490403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08493623984576855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1966219738212596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12149567325504125,0.08418682045079481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4472071475127683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08485510397963955,0.05025355333104123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03847096039783887,0.05435527808882268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06381665123324884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06728188614127492,0.0,0.0,0.07511837751311617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07631965360047946,0.0,0.0,0.0877920989550368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16725773219132412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10748244583616562,0.14868553110782634,0.0,0.13436924121827226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06468491145481782,0.0,0.0,0.10157491615936944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060730476282717764,0.0,0.05593137236579345,0.2820810379139341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07454733610512089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08239285109762455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21840976656035996,0.0,0.0764866352534445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08660160840712686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0816870247068783,0.0,0.0,0.07237444321781904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060761734538830124,0.12722125879196505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04875232039222977,0.1495066344037753,0.060403145562606,0.04436588872121527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07432417932712003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061030953567274025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27462021463918085,0.0849464023994804,0.08749421865229967,0.0733434123044463,0.0,0.16617278310163705,0.0,0.0,0.05404873911777038,0.1663744320661541,0.0,0.09799274129750683 alcoholism,Kirtypamyupamyu,2019/05/19,"10 days sober, ranting. I've been drinking alcohol heavily since I was 21 years old and I quit 10 days ago as of today. I didn't expect to quit but I ended up in the hospital being told I have hepatitis of the liver at the age of 29. My husband was there with me when I found out and looked just as mortified as I did. Right before the hospital I was waking up at 8am and taking shots of vodka and continuing around 15-20 shots a day, sometimes more. A little backstory- I have anxiety issues, panic disorder, hypochondria and almost my entire family is alcoholics and most deaths were alcohol-based. The fact that I've been scared of death or being sick my entire life, yet drinking myself to illness is a demon that is hard to battle with. The second day of detox I had full DTs. My entire body was trembling, rocking back in forth, I was making no sense, I had hallucinated harder than the last time I had done psychedelics...like 8 years ago, the vomiting was intense and every couple of minutes and I couldn't stay hydrated. I was sure I wanted to kill myself. Yet, I pushed through, somehow. I tested myself almost sadistically by going to four of my favorite drinking spots this past week. Didn't touch a drop of alcohol. Thought about it, of course, but got over it pretty quickly. My body and mind were so dependent on alcohol and every event was a drinking event, hell going to the grocery store was a ""drinking event"". But here I am ten days later, going places I love to drink, alcohol currently sitting in my house & I'm stone cold sober. I can't describe this feeling. I feel like a new person and my body feels like a fucking athletes body (it's not, haha), my skin gained its color and moisture back, I can make art again without trembling or muscle spasms, i can cook and clean again. Everything has a purpose now and although that trip to the hospital wasn't the greatest news, in a weird way, I'm glad it happened.",5.5365,6.217004146666671,6.142683333333334,78.85242500000003,67.53333333333333,8.81,30.55833333333333,8.841846274778883,2.4624333333333337,1525,56,281,24,24,497,209,375,0.152,0.747,0.10099999999999999,-0.9738,1,0,13,0,0,1,53.0,0,0,0,3,17,15,4,4,21,1,34,26,7,3,2,45,54,25,3,3,8,1,6,2,0,0,10,0,1,1,10,18,12,0,5,10,1,5,8,9,0,3,25,9,37,6,40,26,4,58,2,0,2,2,4,16,2,7,35,185,47,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13408105446850915,0.4849462737810609,0.1514629969952811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08194396781181626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057855962397325475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06732582612920822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11630803404616415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06435469131199716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33602698806231984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08368202745415694,0.0,0.2438721761008203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08667736282251642,0.0,0.0,0.0773947039636394,0.0,0.44452564659728017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0669848280655319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12744135434799198,0.0,0.06797045029023367,0.0,0.07129627117108707,0.0,0.11472085346475427,0.10805871629195736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08292327253226191,0.0,0.06991777298186923,0.0,0.0,0.12894507595153398,0.0,0.060487403834241615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06687845690208002,0.0,0.06774871068658074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08726568833072129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07893700568883846,0.0,0.0,0.08367226057478712,0.0,0.0,0.061647712448975316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05341898491438413,0.0738969985419111,0.07580010601675442,0.0,0.0,0.06350929522858231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0682581068520588,0.0,0.10096586231891352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07636371000919888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07304293978297513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07935989193874672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08873431240035788,0.0,0.0,0.07219641863677949,0.0,0.06603630785119881,0.07901618688644929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07694186137405408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16088145834429288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06458673535866241,0.0,0.0,0.07571780217347197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06256107346310404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07479899466396643,0.0,0.0,0.08061042951013342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07127941825181203,0.0,0.05686358052535001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06004096197268503,0.044099866203721874,0.0,0.07168742960741084,0.07226673102769271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04460793165427213,0.060030763776524436,0.06066500557477444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07290363751924167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09740516655286806 alcoholism,averagewhiteguy-94,2019/05/19,"How do you know? I went to rehab last July because my life was beginning to fall apart. I was living paycheck to paycheck but was broke a few days after being paid every time. Now almost a year later I’m doing really well for myself and about to purchase my first house. I still think about it once a week though, am I actually an alcoholic? Like I don’t crave, don’t feel a need to drink, don’t really think about drinking whatsoever, even when I have a stressful week. I’ve been questioning if all I had was just a bad habit and rehab helped me break it or if I truly am doomed with this disease. Anyone else feel this way? What are your thoughts?",3.49259541984733,4.876532343511453,4.561748091603054,85.68964503816795,72.89312977099237,7.377404580152671,23.023664122137408,7.908726449838941,1.0403581679389309,511,13,104,7,10,167,91,131,0.157,0.768,0.075,-0.9197,0,0,3,0,0,0,13.0,0,2,0,1,11,6,0,1,7,0,16,6,0,1,1,19,27,9,0,3,5,0,2,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,5,3,3,0,7,2,2,2,3,4,1,1,9,2,14,2,11,17,2,18,1,2,0,0,4,1,0,5,14,70,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.1693412245000935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18545186556239646,0.1737662306636957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1213369104608716,0.17780301712498103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14489113715954272,0.10578288734814342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11191313956665687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3399886334172125,0.0,0.0,0.14496288404295798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11461558932860234,0.0,0.14620735238994972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17548497591759304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14760538051628547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11631417186844906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20023147604790534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0953680997371025,0.14145092641513726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12257007769023025,0.08477848153492283,0.0,0.15323105282145727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12867103818889095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18480485226776613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19439443517864732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22233680508092465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1385820812892518,0.0,0.19877917496034586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22238331670133768,0.17049332708718085,0.13776423092619536,0.10118732198640967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1377408311237149,0.2783922030078163,0.0,0.156025209832146,0.1608649761480544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11174827499015287 alcoholism,apdunshiz,2019/05/19,"Naltrexone and Alcohol - How should you take it? Hi Guys, First off, thanks for reading my post! I'm a social drinker and really don't care for alcohol unless I'm with people who are drinking. I have previously been prescribed Naltrexone a few years ago and have tried it and then stopped it because I didn't want to ""miss out"" on the fun of my weekend drinking. I know this sounds dumb, right? The last time I had some drinks was last Friday night. The reason I want to quit drinking is because on Tuesday and Wednesday, after I drink on a Friday and/or Saturday, I get completely brain-fogged, stupid, and super anxious. This hinders my job performance and the ability of being who I really am. Anyways, I can't handle the fact I feel so dumb and can't think clearly so I decided that was it and started taking Naltrexone again on Tuesday (50mg a day since). I have read online and seen some videos that people actually drink while taking Naltrexone to retrain their brain to not like alcohol. I guess that's what it does and also supposed to stop the cravings. My question is, for those who have tried Naltrexone, did you have more success with drinking or without? I am not trying to make an excuse to drink; however, I am traveling with work tomorrow through the middle of the week and would like to retrain my brain into not liking alcohol, if that's what Naltrexone is intended for. Thanks!",6.685365969581749,7.237667410646387,6.748381653992396,75.95702115019013,65.00760456273764,10.073098859315593,34.688450570342205,9.978442167317967,3.4957454372623573,1111,48,196,23,16,355,145,263,0.11800000000000001,0.799,0.083,-0.7616,2,0,13,0,0,0,34.0,0,2,1,6,6,13,3,0,13,0,24,14,2,4,2,44,43,21,0,5,7,0,1,3,0,2,4,1,0,1,17,17,12,2,6,13,0,1,8,4,0,1,7,3,23,9,29,33,4,33,0,1,1,0,11,9,2,6,25,136,40,5,0.0,0.0,0.0808453094904369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07343758446243967,0.3541468065140289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06625155911187834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09359189427745844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10100376079952056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2774491087463818,0.0,0.0,0.0844665630441951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08686198652309081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053428528292635794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07249870205482388,0.0,0.0,0.6492568214972383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041889201022553856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07046838538885265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04328338232030689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09126371714546136,0.08203012281194481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08221142845746683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045529749542803435,0.13506036651736236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12142245808225526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055300050191727235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07774493974149611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11486935098038605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07934313951809692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09280597988842193,0.08811644368723504,0.16573594513954593,0.0,0.10614596576200128,0.08517902678871346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07074964993162391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06853069786360669,0.0,0.0,0.08445060869094863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05863850909065984,0.0,0.0,0.13852518441879974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18686863767086087,0.0,0.0,0.1525461098142511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05308408545321333,0.0,0.0,0.048307908405937294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16874007787337586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09772890768321747,0.0,0.0664537057598725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07986015711408102,0.0,0.060312549551121884,0.0,0.0,0.05885110417069386,0.0,0.0,0.05334982018271853 alcoholism,DrPhilDemented,2019/02/16,What To Do Instead of Drinking? I was an every week drinker. Whenever I went out I always drank. It was the only thing I've done. I stopped drinking after what happened on Thursday now I don't know what to do. I have a girlfriend and I don't know where to take her I don't know how can I have fun going out without going to a bar. I feel bored and uninterested. Please help me! ,-0.4843863636363643,1.7393974250000035,1.8488636363636388,94.76068181818184,93.5,3.9090909090909096,21.022727272727273,5.565023196281405,-0.048749999999999634,294,11,65,2,11,99,50,80,0.055999999999999994,0.8240000000000001,0.12,0.68,0,0,3,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,4,0,11,4,0,1,0,11,21,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,4,4,1,4,3,0,3,4,1,0,0,5,1,12,1,10,16,0,12,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,5,48,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1977431227619721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431975809847277,0.0,0.4656113678825717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.200229650787282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12016254611012835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2701229666053791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2101523502980061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1592912096015246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3918172580475372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18074288040455824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26086739182248186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19868532287326066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17868257802746304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15788352927381144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19062780591733394,0.0,0.0,0.22030313436031745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22908529113305603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,truddie26,2019/02/16,"Alcohol neuropathy symptoms I wondering if any one has dealt with this and can give me some personal accounts of dealing with it, I have drank pretty heavily over the last couple of years, and in the past month and a half have gone to multiple dr visits and tests to figure out what’s going on but on a side note I have been struggling with a bad sinus infection which led me to quit drinking a lot more than usual but now I have started to feel odd body wise and was wondering if this could be a possible cause of my drinking. I would just like to know if anyone could give me any insight on it? Talk to my dr today about my drinking and the rain a bunch of urine and blood glucose test all came back ok any insight could help",7.589591836734692,5.909692040816327,7.450340136054425,79.05061224489799,63.96598639455782,10.848979591836736,34.605442176870746,9.606745405546679,2.9606217687074827,578,20,118,9,7,185,96,147,0.07400000000000001,0.823,0.10300000000000001,0.5346,0,0,4,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,4,5,0,1,9,1,13,13,3,2,1,34,24,12,0,7,6,0,1,1,0,1,6,0,0,1,6,12,5,0,7,3,1,5,0,2,0,2,5,1,11,3,21,14,5,21,0,0,0,0,7,7,0,7,10,82,17,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14929755040331608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2850037763323498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09768196966031394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10742120631175747,0.11664423966548032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551759717502997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15978037105132592,0.0,0.1435110895009004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3346188968560714,0.15457615476797087,0.0,0.0,0.14402527569283688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4105604706123797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0706368656837981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26802726030774593,0.07939512072557921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09363842679332356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0767758449568036,0.11387470679799835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06825069988750337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11876852968970884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11150775680495886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09466480206635113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13336011471526166,0.0,0.12198125276427213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1574915359636146,0.0,0.1421258235934475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14858887840610585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0988808664148301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1460454919787989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14520250587646055,0.0,0.11228612171530712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13241991800430133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15386057170999676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30299887507260576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09923936096108116,0.0,0.0,0.08996266318071966 alcoholism,_hecking,2019/02/16,"Am I becoming an alcoholic? I've only drunken for the past two days, but today when I was expecting someone to bring me alcohol and they didn't have any, I almost went into a panic attack. I legit needed to calm myself down. Clearly I'm becoming too dependent on alcohol, what do I do?",1.912105263157894,4.294683631578952,5.297456140350878,74.00302631578948,81.10526315789474,8.712280701754386,27.043859649122812,9.2995712137729,3.1851543859649123,225,10,38,7,6,83,47,57,0.145,0.745,0.11,-0.4704,0,0,3,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,0,2,3,1,1,3,0,6,3,0,1,1,8,10,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,1,3,0,8,1,6,7,0,9,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,2,4,29,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6389291580546675,0.19955638465287454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13552147846327847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267168703163031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4401919946103999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12852313963291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14776822339089649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1515661673201292,0.0,0.2338194665173017,0.0,0.0,0.1902412678192284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1688545862465145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1889000556084077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1946737011352368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18474034301581646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,carolionel,2019/03/21,"Advice on how to express concern? Hiya, I'm starting to get quite concerned about my friend. He is quite frequently drinking alone. If we have a drink together he'll always wants to carry on drinking longer than everybody else and sometimes will go home and drink alone once we part ways. He will often try to deny how drunk he was and try to deny when he is drinking. I am worried that if it's not addressed it's going to get worse but I'm not sure how to approach the subject in a non-confrontational way. He's very reluctant to talk about his feelings generally but I do worry that he is self medicating. I know that every person is different but I would really appreciate it if anyone has any advice/experiences that helped them or friends and loves ones. Thanks",4.3404504504504535,6.2731207027027045,5.165945945945946,79.99234234234235,71.70270270270271,7.906306306306307,28.54954954954956,8.59863814320734,2.2539576576576583,616,24,112,11,12,200,95,148,0.133,0.747,0.12,0.5985,1,2,5,0,0,0,11.0,2,0,1,2,7,5,0,0,3,0,12,8,0,3,1,25,25,15,0,5,9,0,1,0,2,4,1,0,2,2,7,6,6,0,2,6,0,3,2,0,0,1,1,1,9,5,14,20,1,11,0,0,0,1,19,3,0,5,3,65,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.119005350761087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2522617949993648,0.0,0.0,0.1013335631842967,0.0,0.0,0.08281690326619066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0851538004476359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12723775597833414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5965069518934613,0.0,0.0,0.10173442238821906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10260778572737632,0.0,0.0,0.11912755537383506,0.0,0.0,0.061577357475505176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881791398776909,0.0,0.12725362340768773,0.0,0.13842465073733454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08162886085443838,0.0,0.12215870213698772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06692898396075682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1099142933291145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12268398565800355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1296953701226715,0.08252359870102058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13187957859636654,0.0,0.0,0.10633658690915547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25906332037594393,0.0,0.0,0.07801757874052423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12704666939144296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12044691860612453,0.0,0.08619893308927289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1147794342295328,0.0,0.0,0.09788490173605584,0.0,0.1121218130953638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16536589927730205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1004840775537005,0.07183101774679344,0.19333202407164835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2473539536197637,0.12410771152862395,0.08651144903422348,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,HopefulInOhio,2019/03/21,"Day 3... A different kind of Day 1 It's easier yet, harder than I had imagined. Today is the day I decided to start the process to seek medical treatment for my drinking. Today is my third day without alcohol. Today is ending yet, emerging into a new beginning. The office I walked into and requested help from was at first the wrong place; embarrassing. BUT! They willfully and kindly directed me to the exact place that can help me. I got help today. I spoke with an intake counselor. There were various questions, most of which I expected and seemingly customary- how much and how often I drank; last time I had a drink; how long ago did I start drinking? Then there were a few that made me shudder- have I ever been a victim of domestic violence of any form; a victim of sexual abuse? All of the above are for another thread/post at another time. I spoke with a nurse and a nurse practitioner. Vitals were good, normal; as I expected they would be. Physically I'm not in any real pain or agony, nor do I appear to be. My shaking is minimal, lack of appetite normal, even my fatigue- all things I generally experience on any given day until I've had a drink. The difference is today, I didn't want the drink I just craved the drink on my tongue and the rush I felt as its effects surged through my nervous system and into my brain. (I don't know scientifically, or medically if that how it really works but, that's how it feels.) Like sudden little bursts of lightning all throughout me. As though a city ever so cleverly has each of its residents flip on Christmas lights through out the town, east to west, north to south. Each participant knows the routine. Thank God they gave me this medicine to curb my cravings! Not only has it done that but I feel like absolute shit! I guess it's working. I definitely dont want a drink now, today. I did something I normally would have opted out of so I could enjoy a drink in peace and quiet- I went to a local Dairy Queen and had ice cream with my husband and kids. I participated in a mostly normal evening with my family and I wasn't intoxicated. Kind of like a different kind of day 1.",3.3332118316864086,5.495031404358354,4.906100386100388,79.7693279235652,75.1501210653753,8.242104574307964,26.174268699692426,8.994212911058018,2.2715556442641183,1682,62,315,39,37,565,219,413,0.07200000000000001,0.8079999999999999,0.12,0.9783,2,0,10,0,2,0,56.0,0,0,3,5,19,21,3,3,28,0,34,17,2,7,6,74,57,31,0,13,10,1,3,3,0,3,6,3,0,1,15,22,10,1,10,8,0,5,8,9,0,2,23,8,45,12,48,28,12,59,0,1,1,0,13,22,1,10,34,224,60,2,0.0,0.07894989453411493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05906664691140925,0.07121103086480926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13593935505414276,0.13974223391853316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07438511066763777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053201490418731096,0.0,0.0,0.2578388740935325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2088537219344731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06818928550277778,0.0780940577558445,0.5222043141930328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05901757266829201,0.0,0.0,0.08802170034273701,0.1205477732181373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06518042576664393,0.06281620758511793,0.0,0.06738387882204137,0.09520608360693124,0.06397868491266266,0.0,0.0,0.05667848784309256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0558890842477029,0.05329295982981834,0.0,0.07340439906776597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1339892493044569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2775544726784647,0.07324014426387156,0.054315259953074575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09766140200768933,0.06678435093886541,0.0,0.05896862014727525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06305030312120884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342526402870157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04898334716461638,0.0,0.0,0.0643551253476399,0.0,0.0,0.26114703717641746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050677839082925766,0.07090282555407311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1392358146229821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06381654899277199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07464485774502089,0.0,0.0,0.07584360029425638,0.042687176645504685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060660707295740475,0.0,0.0,0.06839841079299655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05129778416115411,0.0,0.0,0.09432717966481988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061347246590850724,0.0,0.0,0.044268388732510384,0.0,0.06546715257153528,0.0,0.07770915096755633,0.0,0.3789650470210408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07860442204651659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061769994854495976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06423239186141369,0.0,0.09702007751861838,0.0,0.0,0.09466916472926314,0.07285335778920055,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,polymanwhore,2019/03/21,"Non-alcoholic drinks suggestions when on disulfram Does anyone have any suggestions for drinks to have in lieu of alcohol when on disulfram? I'm planning on going out with a few friends tomorrow night and my go to non-alcoholic drink had always been lemon lime and bitters. However, I'm worried about the alcohol in the bitters and was hoping for some alternative suggestions (or other drinks to watch out for)",7.4843835616438374,9.15554784931507,7.076602739726031,70.33106849315071,63.65753424657535,11.31945205479452,37.88767123287671,11.20814326018867,4.907900821917809,335,17,52,10,5,105,49,73,0.068,0.853,0.08,0.4404,1,0,8,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,3,4,2,0,3,0,5,6,0,0,0,9,10,6,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,6,6,0,0,4,0,2,0,2,0,0,3,3,1,2,16,7,2,13,0,0,1,0,4,7,0,3,4,34,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6690373205868622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13022709647956165,0.0,0.0,0.10643072751887647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10943395098351867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1369611033521015,0.0,0.0,0.6132725697895681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1209176023926226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17789407359470027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15544764197752445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14687204632968268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15894135255096697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,thebassthatgotaway10,2019/03/21,"I dont feel a 6 pack of beer in an hour of drinking is that normal? I've always struggled with alcohol as a binge drinker starting at 15 at partys, stayed that way until I'm 21. Been in the army for a year and lately gone through a lot of stress and started drinking almost every night, liquor to beer I changed it up. I've always had a good alcohol tolerance but, but 4 beers used to get me a lil buzzed. Now I drink 6 beers in an hour and feel nothing, do I need help? Or a tolerance break? 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TL;DR I think I have an alcohol problem and I’m not sure if I’m overreacting or if I should go sober I’m 20 and have always had a problem with knowing my limits since I was about 16, in the past it’s caused me issues such as sleeping with people I don’t know going home with men much older than me, putting me and my friends into dangerous situations and getting arrested for being drunk and disorderly. I got my shit together when I was 19 and shrugged it off as childishness with alcohol. Recently I’ve started to experience the same issues again and I feel like it’s slipped into a problem out of the blue. I drink most days of the week, and when I do I don’t just have one, I almost always get blackout drunk. I feel anxious in social situations where I’m not drinking, and therefore drink heavily and end up embarrassing myself. I also suffer from Borderline Personality Disorder and feel like alcohol abuse is beginning to coincide with my severe mood swings. Recently it’s started to cause issues with my partner, we live together and sometimes fight because I will get so drunk I can’t get home and have to ring him for help, I get upset and angry too and have cried and pleaded with strangers to help me get home, which has caused further ruptures in the relationship. The most recent incident happened the other night, I got so drunk I decided to go clubbing even though I’d promised to go home, when I rang him he was telling me I was too drunk and it wasn’t safe and I went anyway because I chose booze over him. I feel these situations are so out of my control and I regret them so much I get crazy depressed and can’t get out of bed, but still manage to pick up a drink that same night to make it feel better. The thing is my partner doesn’t think I have a problem which has started doubts in my mind that I’m just being a hypochondriac and over reacting. He says I just need to control my drink and I feel like drink is controlling me. Is this a problem? What do I do? What’s the first step to going sober?",3.4802948803437768,5.173224447432767,4.678844187597246,83.59255982810994,73.47432762836186,7.793761576646662,28.286359931836706,8.484438967287268,2.0560930725346376,1625,65,322,29,33,535,186,409,0.151,0.7979999999999999,0.051,-0.9814,0,0,9,0,2,0,27.0,1,0,1,6,21,24,3,3,17,0,33,17,2,10,1,84,71,37,0,11,9,0,6,3,3,2,3,3,5,4,16,35,15,5,11,12,0,8,8,15,0,2,9,10,52,8,43,58,6,44,0,3,1,0,19,16,1,7,23,217,68,1,0.0,0.07581415532492614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20514799367464207,0.0640737575056789,0.0,0.0,0.051170396681544536,0.1064846528697749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07228711928525887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07801178682771037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0565913192353729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19719688636309868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2153006511722853,0.0,0.0,0.07028673674109844,0.041266334309634736,0.0,0.05511192646303385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14666933671977175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37609751622723575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05667350726150234,0.0,0.0,0.04226282315592443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06259158359080333,0.0,0.0,0.19412255908218165,0.13713701936615333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0544273264236138,0.0,0.0,0.0494362128339576,0.0,0.26744461537080483,0.0,0.18182648990119,0.0,0.10235253024985416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05658351036103398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08577830127646226,0.0,0.2567367924963123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20035747322054945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07033118544372231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09378247741498412,0.0,0.056501710852114265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04271183263840594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06460864943159461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09407564410787944,0.04744556446571657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12009496711880005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043359260668949566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061082850759325825,0.04436054286882482,0.055870997666313135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3673616183461222,0.0,0.06432462831461719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1895383880448304,0.06869811287927283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05088504646087304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07228711928525887,0.06568175639041057,0.05293072406978423,0.21577227389430206,0.06403323054223911,0.06522670869399888,0.0,0.0,0.06328479880689107,0.0,0.13587102603501353,0.0,0.05110011673295135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06030700898325363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0559274757186962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04251013277668815,0.08200059731517832,0.06286692215395312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051326527711581714,0.0,0.0,0.05931660848888232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Drunkinthrow,2019/09/17,"Who’s in denial? I’m not sure why I’m writing. I have a problem but my husband is the one on denial. He’s found stashes throughout the years but we always “resolve” it. I gaslight and guilt him and deflect. I’m not sure if he actually believes it or just uses it to avoid the issue. The only time I’ve been sober in 15+ years (I’m in my 30’s) has been while I’m pregnant. I don’t secretly drink while he’s home. He travels for work once in a while and I binge. I’m exhausted from it. And I know that he knows. While he’s away and I talk to him on the phone I can tell that he knows. I don’t know who needs more help. Me for the booze or him for pretending. Anyway. I’m just venting. One day it will all come full circle.",-1.1686645962732882,0.7928090745341619,1.401673913043478,99.35120652173914,91.79503105590065,4.213788819875776,17.987888198757766,5.6839178017228535,-0.562207701863354,555,16,138,4,20,189,88,161,0.09699999999999999,0.843,0.06,-0.5399,0,1,1,0,0,0,20.0,1,0,0,2,3,7,0,2,8,0,9,3,0,1,3,31,24,14,0,3,9,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,9,7,2,1,7,3,0,2,4,4,0,2,3,0,15,3,13,20,3,18,0,0,0,0,20,8,0,3,8,78,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.1826003687203218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15569733011859013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758037061873088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21081813173305974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16118575864360338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12067575754130146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1833045969933536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20516544549341148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254213835601853,0.0,0.18769480886495196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.195302783446778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4113410713205685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13874577254462409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19927477355273324,0.2535922666838182,0.14231182113376226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17904684422610295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35271337354551746,0.0,0.0,0.15039851930901207,0.163549552259374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10911012577761377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16161004411781288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16884506894836493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13622427641025062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2409959686697619 alcoholism,barelyTK,2019/09/17,"My dad, the ""functioning"" alcoholic Hey reddit. My dad has been drinking for 30 years now probably hes about 55. Its been worse for the past 10 years but I can see its not getting any better. Tonight he had a very strange moment, sat down stairs drinking alone while my step mum slept and I played video games in my room (im 21 btw). I came downstairs to brush my teeth uae the bathroom, I walk by him and say hey and he says hey back. Perfectly normal although pretty slurred. I lock the door and go about my business when I hear his ring tone, a polular football song. The weird part was it played for a long time and I know he had his phone in his hand and it was very loud. I carry on about my business, finish up and walk out. I say good night and he reciprocated. But an advert waa playing vwry loudly out of his phone. Please bare in mind his wife is asleep upstairs and tbis could potentially wake her up. I say nothing as its best not to arguw witb a drunk person. I gwt upstairs and his phone rings again, same football song, extremely loud this time, for a long time. It clicked for me then, his phone wasn't ringing he was just playing the song from YouTube loudly for no reason. Or so I thought. He answers the phone, I am in my room at this point and can not see him. I can however hear him, extremely loudly and very clearly from my room. He proceeds to have the most general conversation of all time. ""sure"" ""no problem"" ""okay"" ""good night"" he's clearly faking it. Tgen his wife wakes up, goes down and confronts him and he admits he's just talking to himself. WTF reddit, whats fucking wrong with him? Im concerned for his mind at this point if im honest. Idk what to do",1.7071640525646463,4.000174816023744,2.4511962696057665,94.63826112759644,81.25519287833828,5.157066553624418,22.684951250529885,6.3317336037704965,0.3332947689699024,1311,44,281,11,35,408,181,337,0.126,0.74,0.134,0.7343,1,1,3,0,0,0,48.0,0,0,0,3,10,18,2,0,14,1,18,11,6,1,5,45,31,24,0,4,9,5,1,0,0,0,1,17,4,1,12,18,4,0,5,12,0,5,6,6,0,0,12,22,41,12,36,18,5,46,0,0,3,1,51,20,1,3,21,158,53,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11538922755140894,0.0,0.11182642540749547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07342465992997282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08302380036021623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11330994866363495,0.09549245638309206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12349119957885454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08620685320024975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21154290180527613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09981837064451826,0.056410911631977985,0.0,0.06136297365312943,0.1811235754230597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2433845737543846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3498848519338408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059338585397014885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19110363790363505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2180418736010186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2026488084104004,0.10578963164545743,0.10360204236974427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1169231500847416,0.10307148765395642,0.0,0.09427698240325516,0.0,0.11852082843995225,0.20413687207489628,0.0,0.0,0.10984633676341596,0.1164120736742257,0.10331461842181844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11101319479881933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3434546602108039,0.0,0.0,0.17207940357155527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10176232861750392,0.0,0.0,0.08678380063484951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08571770438965537,0.25183735707590554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26726461380871824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1100326884281909,0.0,0.11805042811108295,0.0,0.13906085109699498 alcoholism,Broketeef,2019/09/17,"Here we go.. Last drink about 13 hours ago. Decided maybe today is ""Day 1"" about 4 hours ago. Constant cravings so far, every few minutes. Can't remember being sober for about 22 years. Maybe a handful of stretches of a few weeks? Vague memory of maybe a day without a drink maybe a year ago?",1.3161654135338379,3.878763824561407,2.4909774436090224,91.70684210526319,86.19298245614037,5.3624060150375925,22.177944862155385,6.868970318607317,0.7436786967418549,226,8,45,3,7,72,40,57,0.035,0.965,0.0,-0.1926,0,0,2,0,0,0,11.0,1,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,5,0,3,3,1,0,0,4,4,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,8,3,2,16,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,13,21,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4159224762141366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1690148640499574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20173254109245964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30642858929427075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1317753252130765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08888678982355236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30804868415811154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12748840277424348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6285068209606925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17717283560860714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14825068987278753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12545615007888464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15076582624948676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20143535927732092 alcoholism,glouns1,2019/09/17,"I'm fucking tired of my dad's alcoholism I have nothing left to do except rant here. My dad has had addiction problems for 25 years (I am 30 years old). He has long period where he is sober (up to an entire year sometimes), and then he starts drinking again and he is not like himself at all. He hides his drinking in this period, but it always starts because he thinks he can have one or two drinks at social events and be fine. He cannot. The only way to sobriety is total abstinence. He is convinced he can keep on drinking ""in moderation"". He had a huge crisis last week and left my mom to be with his friends (friends who have addiction problems too). They've been living in this mental paradise of theirs where they think they can have control on their drinking problems. He just called me and says everything is under control, that they have only been drinking ""a little"". I broke down and told him I can't go any further like that. When he gets home I will tell him I don't want to have any further conversation with him about alcohol. I will tell him that it hurts too much to see him like that. That when he drinks I'm more like his mother than his daughter, and that I want to keep on being his daughter. I will tell him alcohol is only digging a fucking gap between us, despite all the things that we have in common. Quite frankly, if my mom wasn't married to my dad, he would be out of my life already.",4.925992907801419,5.433890039007096,5.2072340425531936,85.63333333333334,68.822695035461,7.9687943262411345,29.85106382978724,7.793537801064563,1.7753531914893617,1109,40,227,12,18,351,147,282,0.132,0.807,0.062,-0.9447,0,0,10,0,0,0,33.0,2,0,5,3,10,15,2,0,6,0,36,16,0,2,3,32,52,13,0,7,6,8,0,4,2,4,7,1,1,0,13,11,10,4,2,7,0,1,5,7,0,2,6,2,35,8,31,38,5,40,0,2,1,2,53,21,2,2,21,149,48,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1798632733538202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2644859351936503,0.0,0.0,0.09103519272078174,0.0,0.06864237980971999,0.0,0.0,0.11219874541120732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050288135959004186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08423653415362824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1850501291063564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5656952903862394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0741411124592419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274707370968338,0.1525304436682051,0.04310018949115176,0.0,0.046883762656499635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08274912838009231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08831251528086029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466505460013673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0672443681337685,0.0,0.0,0.17926193827144354,0.0,0.05826859982660688,0.16121139865638015,0.08268157943067421,0.07284452344419805,0.07300540593839641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08313547373103315,0.0,0.0,0.1932341004521104,0.0,0.0,0.060643256278389526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0791560981488386,0.0,0.08656453867614472,0.0,0.05590069101782255,0.18822330614602384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23680948431945825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08774349915866986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0656032694227607,0.0,0.0,0.06573776851759018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08409317946290262,0.0,0.0,0.08158958270159057,0.0,0.11678065427434668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21631258176386364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05480595750051625,0.10571882414672464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09481577206267773,0.0,0.07882742882101823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0805855473228487,0.0,0.09923122830507873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09731527930833124,0.06548062561252428,0.06617244672434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05860202242860287,0.0,0.0,0.15937206631714115 alcoholism,Brucewayne1818,2019/09/17,"Chip Meetings In Atlanta Hey everyone. Recently moved back to Atlanta and haven’t been able to find a meeting that gives our chips on a consistent basis. Was attending a meeting a week before I moved, and am looking to get back in that routine. I really enjoy watching others get their chips and the opportunity to celebrate everyone’s accomplishments. Any recommendations for a meeting like that in the ATL area? Thanks!",4.512597597597598,7.854646986486486,5.476126126126128,70.4462012012012,79.13513513513513,8.694294294294295,32.546546546546544,9.150863307647796,4.015836636636636,343,18,51,10,9,112,51,74,0.0,0.7929999999999999,0.207,0.9401,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,1,0,1,2,2,4,0,0,7,0,4,0,0,0,0,4,9,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,2,2,4,4,9,7,0,12,0,0,2,0,8,5,0,0,5,33,8,1,0.2270965479462861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15443344007592788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34924645507472896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19324243585118625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.434000967142871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2075621306220499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23729714647515315,0.21785170205174453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11094790223683618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19070390454775535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.482735381518061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14548386375384367,0.0,0.224230443965276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20907998996547966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1821631525099052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ABeezy2,2019/09/17,"He wants to stop, but has no plan My Q wants to quit drinking for good. He’s finally at a stage where he can admit he has no control over his drinking. Attempts to moderate his alcohol intake have failed on every occasion. He says he wants to come up with a plan, but doesn’t know where to start. In the past I’ve given him suggestions like meetings, outpatient rehab (he works full time and refuses to entertain an inpatient option), therapy, books, etc. Even after all these suggestions he says he doesn’t know what he needs. I believe him to a certain extent, but he’s not even attempting to reach out. If he really wanted to make a change he’d take some action, right? Is it possible that he’s just too overwhelmed? I know his lifestyle has to be exhausting, but it must not be bad enough yet. I’ve tried to really distance myself from his drinking. If he wants to get better he will. I want to support him in a healthy way. I’m not sure doing all the leg work again is going to be helpful. He’s got to put in the effort. So where is my place in all this? Do I sit back and wait for him to find something and just support him in the background to keep up the good work? Or do I take a more active role if he asks me to?",3.4439752102700325,4.42551796812749,4.657098273572377,86.51007414785305,72.50597609561753,8.127578574590526,26.2950420540062,8.515128840125781,1.6471884019477638,954,31,203,16,18,315,142,251,0.063,0.7559999999999999,0.18100000000000002,0.9852,0,0,5,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,0,12,12,13,0,1,12,0,19,7,1,2,6,45,45,12,0,11,13,0,0,1,0,2,3,2,0,0,6,6,4,5,5,5,0,4,7,4,0,0,2,2,19,9,34,37,9,33,0,2,0,0,37,17,0,6,10,125,25,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12457272104516505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10897270234891758,0.0,0.0,0.08963142350333207,0.09732705118148084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13132903416021108,0.0,0.10309242364612106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12331049787604505,0.10041057583153687,0.0,0.0,0.130737754139892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3425684804580134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12044298435689765,0.13000098138450214,0.15398039586779202,0.0,0.09821118633016568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12769145022284248,0.10653845708502972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060900492253516625,0.0,0.0662466745085665,0.19553867475044226,0.09322781790864232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07813117890093471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10360848230799262,0.0,0.0,0.19218351321184785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0569478559779129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07780815864614914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0864315993710156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11127464800391328,0.0,0.0,0.12178579697472493,0.0,0.0,0.13140971920550798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11718019517284528,0.0,0.12398141061319545,0.0,0.0,0.1493492702994697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09954602151270436,0.0,0.1853946095576406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08973756564027592,0.0,0.0,0.08250542996400874,0.0,0.0,0.09745370472880206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2645535557070873,0.10986129680196426,0.0,0.17528500794572807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13330243498092187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06797009022742463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07914010146232689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.412518957594086,0.09252400928978824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2545825044040986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Guilty-Of-Everything,2019/09/17,"Last drink was Friday Felt like I deserved something today, watching Monday night football and all. Now i feel guilty because i had two days and it was a start. Fuck it, I'll just start again tomorrow. Don't beat yourselves up, we've all been there. Just think about breaking this fucking bullshit and push. I failed. But I'm going to try again, and you should too.",2.3905714285714303,5.093177414285716,2.1510714285714307,95.22517857142859,82.0,4.071428571428572,23.035714285714285,5.148860815047168,0.10128571428571442,289,10,56,1,8,85,56,70,0.19,0.7759999999999999,0.035,-0.9041,0,0,2,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,2,9,4,2,0,1,0,6,3,0,0,2,13,15,5,0,1,3,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,3,1,0,2,1,3,0,1,5,3,5,1,3,9,2,15,0,1,1,2,1,1,2,0,12,33,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16426864509602898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1737882210054854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2639816021266703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13625398186485702,0.0,0.2587369776337624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4982481223344271,0.0,0.0,0.15314809391355105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21965700324779894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13165122113945502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2528827800730486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20745399270529835,0.0,0.0,0.3814696942975451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17266784374236027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554295258098119,0.0,0.0,0.18295492990388693,0.0,0.2632366147720782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,tiernan83,2019/09/17,"When does it get better I’ve been on and off the booze here and there the past 12 months. When I’m off I love who I am. After a period of time I’m convinced I’m better this time. And then bam, bad things begin to happen. I start hiding the booze and getting lit right after work. When I went to AA I felt comfortable and great. The anxiety is crippling the days after I stop. I’m convinced my behavior is catching up to me and I find myself hiding from people and interactions.",-0.2890909090909091,1.9884376666666657,2.002181818181821,92.46327272727274,96.57575757575758,4.6602020202020205,15.690909090909093,6.42735559955562,-0.19147999999999987,375,9,78,5,15,126,62,99,0.109,0.6809999999999999,0.21,0.9186,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,3,5,8,0,0,6,0,4,3,0,0,0,10,16,11,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,7,2,1,2,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,3,2,10,7,12,13,0,23,0,0,1,1,3,5,0,0,16,49,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17832566156133214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1946340019248929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4123271123249439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15033426232173727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2039928712428639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22381857897434695,0.0,0.21305491134933716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24357681410475746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2570004900098459,0.0,0.0,0.20613510824280706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21038751335126304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18606320393410475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22252631504679188,0.16160653956655274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1990714843152031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16499382052052294,0.0,0.0,0.1948872828624521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15486545047182515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27185228590747545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21609185137923514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1697041437460083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Moonchild16,2019/09/17,"Alcoholic cousin makes me irrational I don't see him much. He's 5 years older than me but we've always been close. He's been living on the other side of the country for years and about a month ago came home to stay with my grandma. He's had health problems his whole life, hydrocephalus, seizures, etc. He's leaving to go back home in a few weeks. I know he drinks too much but usually it's not too bad. Tonight I went to dinner with him and we just had a couple of drinks. I was telling him how my 9 year old son was called to the principal's office today and commended for being kind and respectful towards the staff (my son is with his dad tonight). My cousin then proceeds to tell me he saw my son punch our grandma when he was 4. Idk if this even really happened, but then kept saying you need to watch him, he's gonna shoot up a school one day. I let it slide at first until he noticed I was acting distant and asked if he was being an asshole. I said yes, you told me my son would shoot up a school one day because of something you supposedly saw him do at age 4. He then continued to say over and over that my son is a bad kid to the point I was screaming at him saying you're not around anymore, you don't know anything about my son. He kept saying I can see 10 years in the future and I know. Wtf. I know I lost my cool but he crossed a line. He then kept saying I love you and please don't hate me while continuing to state his opinion. I know it was the alcohol but jesus. It hurt so much. He's leaving soon and I don't want anything to do with him now. I love him but that was the limit for me. I shouldn't have had a drink with him. We were having a perfectly pleasant night and then it all went to shit so fast. I'm not looking for sympathy or judgement, but say what you must. I just had to get this off my chest. I hate that he's suffering from this and that everyone else around him has to suffer too. This is why I rarely drink. Tonight was a mistake and I won't make it again. Alcohol ruins relationships and I'm afraid this one is done for. I will always love him but I don't know if I can get past this. Sorry for the wall of text. Love you Reddit.",1.1509241920869826,2.9284935064935063,2.622310480217457,95.39848233162192,80.38528138528139,5.856115977046209,20.700896003221587,6.8252276405021135,0.16385214940098702,1688,46,396,18,43,549,211,462,0.111,0.746,0.142,0.9732,0,0,8,2,0,0,42.0,3,7,0,4,18,23,3,1,20,2,41,16,2,3,3,64,79,36,0,10,17,9,0,0,0,6,5,8,2,1,18,24,8,4,6,4,0,7,10,14,0,4,28,15,64,9,47,42,7,64,1,5,6,4,67,18,1,5,37,249,82,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0676188869297336,0.2445649565017312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12694452444171034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07565068313411027,0.0,0.0,0.12554623791061034,0.1358132942055898,0.07131284170466337,0.0,0.0,0.058655712653530014,0.12738361892253386,0.04650045294227905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07789187087039201,0.08724563662840927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08440395363690217,0.0,0.09839042609822224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07806238930656176,0.0,0.29890705095041675,0.0,0.0,0.06372334823525623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08507396079102537,0.050383166423560416,0.0,0.0,0.07289017726647894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06488494710997497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07970779966354112,0.0,0.043352495724693636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06745541841422383,0.0,0.0,0.15062424305719255,0.0,0.08108359515937216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15303299185278796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08166085067021964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07943537294844201,0.25153368064674264,0.0,0.0,0.16154204468514696,0.0,0.07800293246817605,0.05387983134746672,0.0,0.0,0.06735790201651272,0.0,0.06405719092934467,0.0,0.08327019406362715,0.0,0.27538788250511936,0.0,0.10183689642012964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06088711127306986,0.0,0.16822688877185785,0.056561715286189224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07158495650722188,0.0,0.0,0.08684691594757572,0.08004453098960862,0.0,0.15507081755232827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0728192582894502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08373410547661975,0.07211060959908308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0729910284131385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04886783865133201,0.0,0.0,0.08189771046319097,0.0,0.0,0.07256111012559016,0.36397233874084667,0.0,0.15440176335618155,0.12157285026331555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07830179377749202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05872517314452377,0.0,0.08539081789639658,0.0,0.08130585696852746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.133346667655812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07230587820362401,0.07289017726647894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0840132204132736,0.0,0.04499276499064141,0.0,0.06118836354342318,0.0,0.0,0.1414273034316969,0.06883212758257434,0.08516549468616604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054188140687599085,0.0,0.0,0.19649096495007565 alcoholism,dingus182,2019/09/17,"Reclaiming yourself to a new environment? What did you do to start a new life? I'm not wanting to involve co-workers. I'm in a new town. Down and dirty, get out there???",-0.5702857142857134,1.6438925428571451,1.9742857142857169,93.37571428571432,95.0,5.085714285714286,24.142857142857146,6.742157984588678,0.9151142857142855,129,6,29,2,5,44,27,35,0.121,0.879,0.0,-0.594,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,7,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,6,6,0,8,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,4,16,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16088388937780795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21750435623091893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8922197391155506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2179587385294342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18162867513872805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22418112979871804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,jassasson,2019/07/04,"I think my dad was/is an enabler or maybe even addict So I just want to say before I say anything else; I haven't spoken to my father in years this is honestly just for my own peace of mind. So my dad got visitation only on a Monday and every second weekend. The weekends were usually hell. He would have parties with his friends and they'd all get shitfaced. I mean blackout drunk. This happened from when I was very little until I stopped seeing him at 11. I had bad social anxiety and general anxiety so I'd want to just hide in my room but they'd all storm in and laugh at me and joke about giving me drink. I have a distinct memory of one of my dads friends who was absolutely hammered trying to kill my hamster(my dad actually stepped in for once) when I was like 11. I was in hysterics for like a week afterwards. My dads friends were all obviously alcoholics. I only ever seen them when they were drunk because my dad kinda just dropped them when they started to sober up. At least 3 immediately come to mind. He would constantly talk about getting a carry out with his friends when I left. I didn't really know what it meant as a child but I wanted to join in bc I just wanted to spend Time with my daddy. He had a friend who's daughter is my age so we'd play together and they'd get drunk. She decided to get her act together. Didn't see her for years. Then she went through a hard time, they're all of a sudden best buddies getting fucked and then when she started sobering up it was bye bye. He had a girlfriend who was an addict, they would constantly have drunk fights while I was hiding somewhere with the dog I tried to steal from her more than once bc her drunkenness terrified the dog. I was 6 and already knew this was so bad I tried to kidnap a fully grown staffie. Then came around girlfriend no. godknowswhat. She was absolutely lovely, I really hoped he would stay with her but he admitted only being with her bc she drove. He then broke up with her bc ""she doesn't drink so she cant have a good time"" By the time I was 9 I had my dads hangover cure memorised(2 aspirin, a can of iron bru and a cup of coffee with 6 teaspoons of coffee) One of the last things my father ever said to me was ""being with you is so depressing, I could be down the pub with my pals and having a good time getting drunk"" I dont really know is this is the right place for this but I was hoping someone could help answer someone questions about my dads drinking habits Ie: was he an enabler? Was he, himself, and addict?",2.378487602613504,4.437192210629924,3.561145920589716,88.78207823756073,77.68110236220473,6.5281286647679675,23.99748701625063,7.53845456269673,1.0830294354163177,1985,67,408,28,47,643,232,508,0.149,0.713,0.138,-0.7140000000000001,0,0,4,0,1,0,43.0,1,1,8,3,25,26,4,0,24,0,52,15,0,0,8,70,86,36,1,12,10,11,1,2,8,4,5,3,1,1,12,25,9,1,10,13,1,8,7,9,0,3,32,7,72,17,61,41,8,66,1,2,3,2,74,21,2,5,39,271,84,0,0.0,0.0,0.07663678023976886,0.25683735313373074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0839277849095315,0.0,0.0,0.0866630061247689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12015490450001208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06462588386914697,0.069910929433553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13114337952811894,0.04787292589125819,0.0,0.06682571223703496,0.0,0.08241543167723102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08982071425910658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0676491381124769,0.0,0.16973232749082226,0.0,0.12540425803430685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06764027023547478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.092039971931989,0.2307970276593801,0.0,0.0,0.06560415941315655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05187023866963265,0.1420750052219021,0.0661673539188376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3033716121092441,0.0726023990215257,0.24618118823388,0.07533591205023506,0.0,0.1317393382617045,0.06280993289200681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06944638261301372,0.0,0.07035005144881458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05263894633198494,0.0,0.0,0.1560017757949836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08688501635855966,0.0,0.08631925419238534,0.0640147937656055,0.0,0.0,0.08532622379350224,0.0,0.0,0.07673441452467583,0.07871059543514694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07087900685012095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0788968518872281,0.08554534896314941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15859168015233058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1672699473184679,0.1064318486789,0.1791834239686667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08205016385429025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08797481920069476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1509305568136163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06706666605675872,0.07470277014165252,0.1249050256251438,0.0,0.0,0.12516110452233986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08005439994176175,0.13308133977137598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11117197925502803,0.0837056204594635,0.0,0.06565701945412664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06312176888495323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05217376806252207,0.05032071021495987,0.0,0.0,0.2289658227349988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15995604874458502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08649289243962932,0.06479786573281153,0.1852829525521783,0.0,0.06299435398957846,0.0,0.0,0.07280078351699468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22315007095028616,0.0,0.0,0.10114522341355664 alcoholism,i_like_dolphins_,2019/07/04,"Anyone managed to drink just occasionally after being a drunk for years? Title \^ Or it's all or nothing?",1.9208333333333345,4.750470750000002,4.710000000000001,73.16833333333331,91.5,4.666666666666667,21.66666666666667,6.42735559955562,1.0271666666666666,85,3,13,1,3,30,19,20,0.128,0.872,0.0,-0.3604,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,4,1,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,10,1,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41906840561495706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5871193439497763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5750773259598361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3859515727940577 alcoholism,WhyThisSoHard,2019/07/04,Are all alcoholics unfaithful or is it just me? I can’t seem to stay loyal to anyone no matter how much I want to. I think I just ruined my best relationship. And I don’t understand why I keep doing this...,1.4705813953488374,3.3254062325581444,4.24436046511628,83.77956395348839,79.69767441860466,8.020930232558143,20.05232558139535,8.841846274778883,1.3433302325581402,160,4,34,4,4,57,34,43,0.12,0.659,0.22,0.5267,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,1,1,12,10,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,1,3,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,8,2,3,10,3,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,27,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3407442886798555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2229411881094843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3346041799312643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28340071814307194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23438497637328554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3423161375463606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2902610635920244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33984230767809354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2043005737199476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33192494511709897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880608070972853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28770460028617384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,timeformakingcoffee,2019/07/04,"Celebrating 500 days today! It’s not an official milestone, but it feels pretty great to have been sober for this long. Golfed this morning, pool party with my sober buds in an hour! My life is so fulfilling and wonderful. Life doesn’t really get easier in sobriety, but it is a hell of a lot more fun ❤️ I didn’t think I’d make it this far. One day at a time.",0.20682748538011708,2.4354145657894715,2.6085964912280737,91.40073099415207,87.55263157894737,7.061988304093567,17.654970760233926,8.167268648758528,0.7600690058479529,281,7,64,7,9,96,60,76,0.066,0.613,0.321,0.9788,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,5,0,6,2,0,1,0,10,11,4,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,7,2,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,1,0,1,2,1,3,2,7,9,2,10,1,0,0,0,1,4,1,2,6,36,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3569885243198113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13994362689603204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14460131390355282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3051407718412618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2725634758297662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3909827865595551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2449334387015071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23530062729976475,0.0,0.0,0.18474665074648167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18754704943821968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2815753931988908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17730645448594987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17734354600799826,0.0,0.0,0.16138727273523965,0.0,0.2623463459116591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3001461143030589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,suchislife33,2019/07/04,"Just something So my brief story, obviously the short version. Maybe this can inspire some people to do better. I had everything, a beautiful wife, good job, but that's all gone to booze. However, on March 15th, due to alcohol, I became homeless, I've been in the shelter system in NYC until this day. Problem with the shelter system is that you are mostly surrounded by people who do the same as you, and for 3 months I've been drinking not stop, I mean a lot everyday. They tried to help me, the shelter, but hanging out with my new ""friends"" was more fun. This last Monday they put me in a detox system, Tuesday I developed pneumonia and was in hospital till Wednesday, I got back to the detox place and felt so depressed, no phone, no books, noTV, just that drug they give you and sleep all the time, so I checked out early and tried to go back to my shelter for some real healing. They dont want me anymore. So now I'm back on the street, going to lose all my benifets and with no saving life plan. This message is just to let you guys know that you should not let it get this bad. I've got no options, all I have is depression and the beer next to me. Dont let this happen to you, STOP before it's to late. God bless you all and there is always tomorrow. I'm not sure what I'm going to do. Be safe all.",3.9135505430242254,4.6112180827067695,4.7237092731829575,87.51675856307438,71.18045112781955,7.7156223893066,27.18379281537177,7.793537801064563,1.4102053467000832,1014,33,217,12,18,328,146,266,0.149,0.7509999999999999,0.1,-0.9557,2,0,5,0,0,0,39.0,0,7,4,3,12,14,0,0,12,0,22,10,1,0,8,47,38,17,0,3,8,1,1,0,1,1,6,0,0,1,14,13,4,3,4,3,1,7,9,5,0,0,9,1,26,9,30,24,13,45,1,3,0,0,19,12,0,5,23,145,40,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301009050817477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10129577287734792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1207313895651757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2808270355751741,0.10164614966592396,0.0,0.0,0.10359007632743213,0.0,0.0,0.10766737300832112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07851094247020776,0.0,0.2097055316566532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2853520717830958,0.11925689933327595,0.1411774372230378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10941026971040144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11688757643291932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0940544811329559,0.0,0.06360308336874045,0.11678218784708347,0.20755954208696226,0.10210806326649394,0.19473000809403915,0.0,0.0,0.1205397651538973,0.10765251629535552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08159841901847965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12080618606347465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06690402414716529,0.09923272270922118,0.1373257728373284,0.0,0.0,0.3734560761472579,0.08598715356720849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13619368887690134,0.0,0.10349729895847197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12230218931303224,0.13260837680437496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09717011461186263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11757532439422726,0.129469750030189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16879560966035884,0.0,0.12719030522556482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1164868302707505,0.0,0.12238031987850455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13856450220013947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1218259233195211,0.0,0.0,0.09371986428232376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20355684747690012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11473662955638562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07098641004935499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16530422940311448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07180422981865005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Sanchez126,2019/07/04,"Need a video editor for a raw footage of my alcoholism I recorded a video of my self after drinking 8 Budweiser tall cans. I usually drink 9. I act pretty normal but I need someone to put subtitles, expressions, burps, *drops phone,and to blur out my face and my bros who is passed out in the back with his head tilted sideways. I’m Christian and been struggling with this for a long time but I would like to post it for anyone else struggling with alcoholism and binge drinking. I need help too but I feel that this raw video of myself will help others see themselves through me. Thank you and snap chat me at Sanchez126 if you can edit my video so I can post it in YouTube.",3.5262816131237185,5.359950541353385,3.675830485304171,90.24393028024609,73.66165413533834,6.941626794258375,26.376623376623375,7.686295010490155,1.3379533834586463,534,19,109,7,11,164,86,133,0.055,0.828,0.11699999999999999,0.8074,0,0,5,0,0,0,11.0,0,2,0,0,3,4,0,2,5,0,7,8,2,0,0,20,14,9,0,6,4,1,1,1,0,2,3,0,0,1,7,9,5,0,1,8,0,3,0,2,0,0,1,2,19,2,19,11,0,17,1,0,1,0,10,6,0,2,6,68,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3317799925278474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10853802716941474,0.15904796512631164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11935965101626893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4561888306406511,0.0,0.0,0.12967188126885054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07848721799336553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15930724402101867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2080901961075862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07583586146431935,0.0,0.0,0.13737063004313846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3452956050838201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1520890811978792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2973282915700368,0.1579212269808307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15604557704396094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236954792979501,0.0,0.16193516650700376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315229693078931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32455302921283197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1429117706086657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0905138614560564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17096013696933107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11026850189165777,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,AnxietyAfflicted,2019/07/04,"Just joined and I have so many stories Snuck downstairs tonight to drink some more. I was raised in a fundamental religion that I left 5 years ago. (I suppose my liver appreciates that.) Have been trying many things that a 40 something should have already experienced. I have become an alcoholic. Struggle with anxiety and the alcohol brings such a relief. I have made one bad decision after another when drunk and still can't stop. AA just seems too social for me so thank you for letting me admit I'm an alcoholic. Maybe some day I can share all the stupid shit I've done when drinking like blacking out last Thanksgiving and missing dinner with my family. I would say you can't imagine the pain I felt when waking up to a silent house after Thanksgiving dinner was done and cleaned up but I'm guessing many of you on this sub get it.",5.071792452830188,6.779904559748433,5.236619496855346,81.11832547169814,69.44025157232704,8.570440251572327,29.602201257861644,9.075114841892004,2.5137333333333336,671,26,123,13,12,211,108,159,0.085,0.821,0.094,0.0812,0,0,6,0,0,0,12.0,0,3,0,0,10,10,2,1,9,0,16,12,3,1,1,24,27,11,0,2,3,0,1,1,0,2,4,1,1,0,6,8,8,1,5,3,0,1,2,6,1,1,7,4,16,4,14,17,4,19,0,1,1,0,7,6,1,4,13,82,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1205421842887066,0.4359786946482252,0.0,0.0,0.1500624388982968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14259175858744774,0.10402788237523668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11354149975493352,0.0,0.15018435830128474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08769884727103562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2783190124849752,0.0,0.2664263673720376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12819422240777872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13056658589166684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07104636524314742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14980241917743384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15690802442657134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11084563653617274,0.0,0.0,0.14774771632085446,0.1390535143000683,0.0,0.06643522943588896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12867196050073254,0.0,0.4136012637863973,0.13661485499995066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09214671578675744,0.0,0.14469725151908375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10814044893029794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12379531495826328,0.0,0.0,0.13958628549255725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13861922216851175,0.0,0.10468762449357397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10859751436290972,0.11368925347332492,0.0,0.14216067796640008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12519639239468422,0.0,0.0,0.09034215672953043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09232464871492972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09659959129192164,0.0,0.0,0.0875696539218792 alcoholism,BLU3SKU1L,2019/07/04,"For a year, I’ve reduced my drinking to no more than two drinks in a single day. My son was born last year. Two years ago I joined this sub with worries I was becoming like other family members that couldn’t control themselves around alcohol. I’m proud to say that this year, I’ve curbed my drinking to no more than one drink a day during the week, even going weeks without drinking, and if I’m left to my own devices on the weekends I haven’t had more than two drinks. I’ve really come a long way from occasional binge drinking, and I feel like I’ve found an equilibrium that is fully acceptable in my life. Alcohol is no longer a constant worry or even a common consideration in my life.",8.807608695652174,6.3043736739130445,8.771304347826089,73.14217391304352,62.26086956521739,11.808695652173913,37.492753623188406,10.125756701596842,3.529440579710145,549,20,109,9,6,180,83,138,0.092,0.828,0.08,-0.1548,0,0,9,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,3,4,0,0,9,0,7,11,0,1,0,15,13,4,0,2,3,1,1,2,0,0,4,1,0,0,6,5,9,2,4,8,0,2,6,0,0,4,4,2,10,4,16,8,5,24,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,2,17,66,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09108692765131624,0.2196296676900284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09147455884808234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11348584613486318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08851513083048598,0.0,0.11104265030718914,0.11524950749801242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13253814179023565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7046318089677005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13573863881066267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09686914112828188,0.0,0.05195648319375629,0.07340885341330107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11266656807998927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05839856023780194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08375979359601166,0.0,0.0,0.11164461326611047,0.0,0.14515909748445652,0.10040270918987083,0.0,0.0,0.09093576016104107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06963007418276174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06582807682616214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08171563594951177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3011328233684674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08156287043893706,0.1648492099248514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0990530449295144,0.0,0.0,0.20870725963300185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2646857870811061 alcoholism,Aunt_Jenny,2019/07/04,"Just need to share this right now... I drink every single day. I've had a good life. No excuses. In my mid twenties. Daily consumption of mostly beer since summer 2016. I lie to the ones I love every damn day. i hate this.",-0.9288333333333334,1.0213421999999994,1.2881944444444464,95.84562500000004,104.77777777777777,4.02777777777778,12.291666666666668,5.985473137389443,-0.8258333333333332,169,3,36,2,8,56,37,45,0.16899999999999998,0.648,0.183,0.1779,0,0,2,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,2,5,2,0,2,0,1,4,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,5,3,4,3,2,7,0,0,0,1,3,3,1,1,4,20,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3910899730878452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2970297902645171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5109340130465491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.254317668712858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29935652024114395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21416577432668654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27365833198579825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22482593669220616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2054625443696024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2589391807330301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25081795849188065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,TergiversationNation,2019/07/04,"My neighbor who’s been drinking himself to death finally did so today. The medical examiners just removed his body from the apartment. This is one horrible, chronic, progressive, and (way too often) fatal disease. My neighbor’s life should have held far more purpose than merely to remind me of that — and maybe it did; other than “the drunk with the sweet dog,” I knew next to nothing about him. But I can at least take that one lesson to heart. Requiescat in pace, Jerry.",5.086345514950164,7.2247031162790725,5.2549169435215966,79.26965116279072,70.16279069767442,7.70498338870432,30.890365448504987,8.418075326091056,2.5847528239202666,372,16,62,6,7,117,71,86,0.14300000000000002,0.825,0.032,-0.8834,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,2,5,2,0,0,4,0,7,7,2,0,0,11,10,4,2,1,2,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,2,0,6,3,2,1,3,2,0,1,0,1,0,2,5,1,8,1,12,4,2,9,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,1,3,48,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30454408315335624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26858488611637804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.300342812365139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3248959922752989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19365629978169405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2754433476978621,0.0,0.0,0.27620017010416537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29158579723086464,0.0,0.0,0.2630761184973773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3715730602748446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20614376358006167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2598836795735076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21762554276654408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,MaddDreamer,2019/07/04,My doctor wants me sober 2 weeks before starting meds I decided to go on medication for alcohol dependency and my doctor told me I have to wait 2 weeks before starting the medicine. What can I do? I don’t think I can make it that long I fail after 1 week and nothing is helping and my life is crazy.,2.6983870967741908,4.194493354838713,4.662129032258068,83.72319354838713,75.12903225806451,7.540645161290323,26.916129032258066,8.238735603445708,1.7450541935483872,236,9,49,4,5,81,43,62,0.13699999999999998,0.863,0.0,-0.7775,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,7,5,0,2,0,9,15,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,3,3,1,1,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,11,0,5,14,0,9,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,7,30,14,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2210931589670156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3520814432224787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4235034883809312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11757539223092295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386681531244849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14612635785131942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18308341207752304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13809485290320309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22979845079419406,0.2084111125779742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1985081563420316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2928632527190437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13256116308659707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19768391735302632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12202393202279214,0.0,0.4978430231057102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Gem-In-I678,2019/10/01,"Looking for advice on how to continue helping/supporting a friend with alcoholism Before I move forward, is this where I belong or is there another subreddit more suitable as a friend/family member looking for help/advice?",10.75236842105263,10.958095289473679,10.451578947368422,53.97105263157897,56.631578947368425,13.915789473684216,45.31578947368421,13.023866798666859,6.877063157894738,183,10,22,6,2,60,31,38,0.0,0.904,0.096,0.4939,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,1,0,3,4,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,6,4,1,5,0,0,2,0,1,3,0,1,2,18,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4924723033957596,0.0,0.26929459442078074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2642275202979963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21442008856960065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375483817500163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38936490617404224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1688997716130509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4232067136142691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2678194435007356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2859488092135585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Harleyquinnito,2019/10/01,"I dont know how to deal I've drank almost every night for the last 2 years. Before that it wasnt everynight but a few times a week for 3 years. It's literally killing me. I have to stop. My fiance has been helping me taper off and it's been okay so far. But today it's only been about 2 days since my last drink and I'm not handling it well. I cant sleep, my chest is tight, I'm anxious, I feel like my head is under water, I'm throwing up and my stomach feels like its eating itself. Last time i ate was 2 days ago and i threw it up. When i stand, my body is so sore and i feel like I'm gonna fall over. I'm exhausted but i cant sleep. When i finally start to doze off, I jump awake like when you fall in a dream. Idk what to do. I go back to work tomorrow but I'm so sick...",-1.3777932960893864,0.3395657877094997,1.4144664804469258,100.86248184357542,89.44692737430168,4.473854748603352,15.095251396648045,5.6839178017228535,-1.035487374301676,592,11,158,4,20,205,101,179,0.131,0.7509999999999999,0.11800000000000001,-0.491,0,0,1,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,0,1,10,8,1,0,4,1,14,14,6,1,0,18,30,16,1,0,5,0,4,4,0,1,3,0,0,0,10,5,5,2,4,2,0,6,5,2,1,0,8,4,21,6,15,21,1,36,0,0,0,0,3,8,0,1,25,84,31,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12940575796254195,0.0,0.14618160639582342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1649200488657011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11225246819946463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12422139191380425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16215500116120932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18829484251535694,0.1505028032612939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1710918304101931,0.14300846717863602,0.0,0.1493777885150445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12299757874478902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22144126260884864,0.31287239218806034,0.0,0.15991802757601287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08296591120542336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14982141109792887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09784980905315882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16150935481586146,0.0,0.08022883367636632,0.3569886433727353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2852810830099431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13699583025019108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.111027195910845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12075924018549022,0.0,0.2921782916367591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1033280270615556,0.0,0.0,0.12204892506904337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17024856001500602,0.0,0.13837549535250934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1170993330761625,0.0,0.13125689453234893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10627788545125867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880174564140521 alcoholism,just_the_tip_0_0,2019/10/01,"I'm so tired of it Hi all. I don't know what to do. I'm doing much better than I was a year ago. I don't drink on work nights, but on my days off I feel like I'm drinking to die. I'm so tired of the shakes, the anxiety and the pain.",-2.466666666666669,-1.2220041034482725,0.9972413793103456,105.13022988505749,90.0344827586207,4.55632183908046,13.114942528735632,5.46131890053228,-1.5223540229885058,174,2,54,1,6,63,38,58,0.287,0.631,0.08199999999999999,-0.9329,0,0,2,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,2,4,0,1,4,0,5,5,0,0,1,5,11,4,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,2,2,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,1,5,2,8,10,2,8,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,5,30,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21145527615620066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18248586356221616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21097319506327306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15384144627628668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24757149438994103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4673655236992891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1206152494669412,0.17041621417115965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13109780003480676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11654077673937248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1753576297852842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22385782189218667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25382813045538666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.548343544708298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1736632122961487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15361481511405395 alcoholism,Venmo-MeATaco,2019/10/01,"4 years sober today. My father passed away from acute liver failure due to a liftime of hard drinking. He died a horrible death to say the least. I fell hard into drinking in my early 30s to deal with depression but when I started seeing how it was destroying my young daughters relationship with me I gave it up cold turkey and never looked back. I still deal with depression but instead of using alcohol as an escape, I use it as a validation that I'm on the right path to beating this depression.",6.145937499999999,6.788121718750002,6.875,74.27000000000002,66.1875,9.733333333333334,32.66666666666667,9.725611199111238,3.189991666666667,399,16,70,8,6,132,71,96,0.302,0.679,0.019,-0.9832,0,0,3,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,5,4,1,0,6,0,1,4,1,3,1,11,8,7,2,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,5,3,0,0,2,0,2,1,4,0,0,2,6,9,0,17,6,1,18,0,3,2,0,8,6,0,0,10,48,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19024861099823198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1672550964986305,0.13688593843206456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3670603914823649,0.4599835730342034,0.0,0.18475604278265773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.348782499796687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3189408510237268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1494914697478758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13729954416685736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19112622530751447,0.0,0.15202760415200206,0.0,0.14156818065374366,0.0,0.0,0.14185842216643232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12600305523368668,0.0,0.1421665314315943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1687415861865242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30750322743792097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11463866396734634 alcoholism,shock1918,2019/10/01,"Working on day one I was 7 years sober and the wheels came off the bus to the tune of a case of beer a day for the last month. Today is day one. I absolutely loathe myself, and have been doing what we do best: lying to our friends and family about how low we have gotten. I’m gonna get back at it today, our lives are worth it",2.189583333333335,2.6423376805555563,3.7926666666666686,93.51899999999999,74.9722222222222,6.871111111111111,18.566666666666666,6.742157984588678,-0.2506533333333332,251,3,63,2,5,84,54,72,0.11699999999999999,0.764,0.11900000000000001,0.0534,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,4,0,0,2,3,3,0,0,6,0,8,1,0,1,0,7,13,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,6,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,2,4,0,7,2,9,8,1,14,0,1,0,0,5,4,0,0,9,41,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18671936623207325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2548324903276877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27772998128921284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4698109657165183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2289161651978668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876079317555335,0.0,0.12686735156421095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19793683028914355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21442114000959864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19382260165796708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32909241020837604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4603441725371874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17678131923729531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15637295493501538 alcoholism,nolatravis,2019/10/01,"Sober October! I’m on day 1 and I’m feeling optimistic. After several months of drinking an average of a fifth of vodka a night, plus several weekend benders, I really really need to make a change. So I’m starting with sober October (I love a good rhyme). Reading about your successes on this sub are only adding to my positivity and the feeling that I can do this!",2.8131187122736416,5.215618239436619,5.484024144869217,73.8104225352113,77.8732394366197,9.690945674044269,31.269617706237426,9.957137785484203,3.937505432595573,289,15,51,10,7,103,50,71,0.0,0.731,0.26899999999999996,0.9577,0,0,2,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,1,2,3,0,0,6,0,3,2,0,1,0,8,12,4,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,3,11,12,0,8,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,6,31,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26142019989813364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15937196044289034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24208352676821865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.249902600789807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20727253689487848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.223035454045311,0.0,0.16495452323474466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19724883149924455,0.0,0.0,0.1832363535487413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23190538570055305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18794590057181293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2471868806499152,0.0,0.31662280802381265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5583505347879175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1749128124967425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,missyou_stobe,2019/10/01,Woke up without a hangover today Makes yesterdays pain of not drinking worth it.. maybe I can do 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alcoholism,Leon_Depisa,2019/10/01,"I think I have a problem I’d really like to dm rather than have it all laid out in comments even though it’s not that different, but if anyone has a minute or two to chat hit me up.",5.017804878048782,2.9768650487804926,6.2196341463414635,86.98359756097562,69.2439024390244,10.151219512195123,27.81707317073171,8.841846274778883,1.5743073170731698,141,3,36,2,2,48,35,41,0.05,0.898,0.052000000000000005,0.012,1,0,0,0,1,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,1,9,5,4,0,3,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,3,1,6,4,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,2,1,26,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2875848452043902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4297124751312152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27165440746660074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2009364372001738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3935507825621045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2634841097798341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26353922918705275,0.4040921834297063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40177240328752345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Wubbalubbadubdubzz,2019/01/30,"Today I'm going to try to quit. (aside from the occasional social situation) I'm going to try to change the issue I've had that has defined me for probably 8 years. Maybe, probably, even longer. I don't know what I'm going to do, and I'm not sure how I'm going to cope with the plethora of other issues I have as an individual, but I have hit an ultimatum. I have a choice between making a change or committing suicide. I'm going to try to change. I'm at a new college. I feel completely alone here. I am completely alone here. I've made many amazing friendships elsewhere, but those are scattered miles and miles away from me. I used to drink to party.....in earlier years of college and in high school. Now it just fills the voids. My inadequacies. My lack of any friendship at all at this new place. I started using it to beat my social anxiety, now that I have to quit I have to figure out how I'm going to not act like a total weirdo in public. I'll have to come to terms with the many things in my life I'm not particularly fond of.....My past, my mistakes, my somewhat toxic family. It stops the pain when I drink it, but sometimes not even during that anymore, because it's typically solitary drinking. Eventually the pain goes away, but when I wake up it's always in immense panic and anxiety. I'm so frightened that the anxiety is physically hurting my body. I'm afraid I may go through withdrawl. I'm too busy as a student to detox or go to rehab. If I feel like I'm going to die I might try to ween, but I don't think I'm even capable of that. I'm just going to hope stopping doesn't kill me. It filled a void for so long, without it a lot of me is going to feel empty. I hope I can find something to fill that void back up. I hope I can do this, because I'm so lonely and I think about suicide constantly now. I'm so fucking scared. I'm too scared to leave my apartment to get food. I don't know what to think, or what to do, or anything. I don't have the energy to make superficial friends anymore, I don't like a lot of the people that flag me down and (literally) pretend to like me. (They just take my number and never call, I wish they would just save the effort and let me attempt to pursue others that are actually interested) I don't know ANYTHING, except one thing.....If I don't change, I WILL die. If you believe in God, pray for me. If you don't, wish me luck. I don't know if I'm going to beat this, but for the first time in years I'm going to try. I'm out of other choices. I can't emphasize enough how much the thought of all of this scares the shit out of me. Here we go.",1.8869254658385088,3.4059448736263747,3.9944417900939655,87.5654132823698,77.36996336996337,6.725848064978499,23.957477305303392,7.505811317475913,0.9811297658862874,2015,66,443,27,46,692,226,546,0.207,0.7,0.09300000000000001,-0.9965,0,4,4,0,0,3,81.0,1,2,2,7,26,27,3,5,24,0,35,13,3,8,6,83,97,33,5,12,24,0,3,4,1,4,5,0,0,0,28,15,4,2,13,4,0,19,17,13,0,2,3,3,54,14,74,88,10,63,1,2,0,1,10,22,2,17,26,278,82,4,0.0,0.0,0.059967663007040005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12729015263734214,0.0,0.0,0.05113245438155771,0.0,0.0,0.041789032135175104,0.0,0.1410303668647744,0.0,0.12188647352221173,0.0,0.0,0.10113846675896823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11547115136636542,0.0472523027624014,0.0,0.07492035751048483,0.0,0.0,0.06923463938293199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06825860787035734,0.0,0.0,0.06274870935143491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600295633686873,0.0529349054638462,0.1288611638391938,0.06640708928875584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12755361976178492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1805968144069036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06349568198286767,0.0,0.12176413138326725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0579308732854914,0.0,0.09321496224286724,0.04390086394476722,0.0,0.0,0.05616542985991722,0.05227049552143534,0.07430722857548577,0.0,0.04747716838821223,0.05681079221235606,0.03210579934876824,0.0,0.4889391374076015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06492673587535938,0.0,0.1831051987721451,0.0,0.0,0.06578495197044112,0.0,0.0,0.1282785087910928,0.0,0.0,0.06798682519085666,0.0,0.13508824170934666,0.0,0.0,0.06506811748591514,0.0,0.06283817917468583,0.04340491298189696,0.12008812209650715,0.0,0.0,0.05438251994030602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10448749769679558,0.0,0.05814676277260514,0.08203852010887946,0.12460406796864085,0.06173615085977303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06519018200417359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04517382036869265,0.0,0.04739507727692464,0.11870021305359085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041641031987670316,0.0,0.13077715961093547,0.07209993065983736,0.0,0.0,0.05866227659616595,0.0426026356559623,0.0,0.06420359206496502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13250991948302482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13072217135961314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18457059525489472,0.062192057167988965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06307893807834422,0.0,0.06907390348039551,0.0,0.12528384577010646,0.0,0.0473082592584012,0.06077696646101216,0.0,0.04349558897786016,0.0,0.0,0.10275217733191162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13443562801308434,0.0,0.05791717966147745,0.0,0.04620377509040437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08165110619710518,0.11812665079370235,0.0,0.04878551574782996,0.03583278226184383,0.0,0.05824870407014556,0.0,0.0,0.20860719872456435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10614848953622408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1413320628304606,0.059236918254026424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043653283100089264,0.0,0.0,0.11871798345636425 alcoholism,alphamucho,2019/01/30,"No single drink from today I am sick of failing again and again but from today no more promises just action, not even a single drink ever no matter what",12.723999999999995,7.124347400000005,11.450000000000005,66.40500000000003,58.33333333333334,12.0,36.66666666666666,3.1291,2.7166666666666663,122,2,21,0,1,39,23,30,0.307,0.56,0.133,-0.6716,0,0,2,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,1,6,1,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,3,6,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,21,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6647402822681477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22409454821135205,0.3069027145807918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6432050329210385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,2planks,2019/01/30,"I might have to evict my friend today. Took in an old friend when his marriage was on the fritz. At the time I had no idea that he had alcohol and drug addictions. He checked himself into a detox facility in the fall, and I was so proud of him for his brave efforts. The holidays hit him hard, and he fell off the wagon, but got back on quickly and vowed to attend more AA meetings more frequently. Just discovered that he's been drinking again, including while he was watching my kids. The thought of him driving my kids in his car while he was drinking has kept me up at night. He was just released from the hospital (he blacked out in a coffee shop, doctor says he had the equivalent of 30 drinks in his system) and he's headed back to my place. I plan to present him with a contract he must adhere to if he is to stay here anymore. This includes a strict shcedule, submitting to breatalyzer tests and madatory AA meetings. If he does not comply, I am prepared to evict him. I just can't have a ""drunk uncle"" around my kids. 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Hi guys, doing dry Jan and feel fantastic. Literally had a two week bender (which I have never done nor am proud) but had some personal circumstances and in between a holiday also Christmas spirit and stopped New Year’s Day. I also suffer with PAWS from porn addiction (Yes, porn can be crippling if abused, believe me. and can give you paws.) I probably shouldn’t be drinking based on that but there you go. Anyway, I find that I try and keep up with people when I’m drinking and never really drink how I would like to I suppose you could say easily led but I know I can moderate or not touch it at all myself indoors. I’m literally drinking a green tea right now and sitting behind me less than a few yards is a cabitnet full with wine, whisky, vodka and god knows what else. My question is it seems that bender I had really gave me the worst insomnia I’ve ever had in my life is that usual for a non-alcoholic? Literally probably three days I’ve had refreshing sleep this month and the rest I’ve either stared at the ceiling or had broken sleep, tossing and turning. It’s definteky made me ‘grow up’ in a sense from this experience. And I’ll never do something like that EVER again. Would I be able read a book once every two weeks on a sat perhaps and have a glass or two of red? Or has that bender fucked up my sleeping pattern for good? Sorry for the rambling. 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One of the biggest reasons I quit drinking completely is I want my self esteem back, my self worth, I’m looking forward to meeting myself again, I haven’t been sober for 17+ years. So I’m very excited to be me again. Im looking forward to seeing myself in the mirror as well. Not this puffy, tired, poisoned looking person. So for those that have long term sobriety, when did you start to see positive physical improvements? I have a gut, I want it gone! (The mental improvements were nearly instant, Ive never felt so happy and at peace in a long time). 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How do I get him help? Hello all, I just stumbled upon this sub Reddit because I was looking for somewhere, anywhere where I could possibly have my voice heard. I am 18 years old, and my brother is 30. He is a bona fide alcoholic; half gallon of vodka a day on his worst days. He lives in my house with my mom and my grandfather, and my grandmother suffered this same type of condition before she passed away last August. Her death took a devastating toll on my family and has caused even more tension between us and him, regarding his alcohol abuse. Every time we try to get him treatment, it just doesn’t work. We have drained his bank account so that he cannot buy it, but still steals it. We have taken his drivers license so that he can’t show proof of age, but I suppose that he just gets past the carding requirement. He doesn’t have his own car, and we have no idea how he is getting his booze. He is my brother and I love him but I am so very fucking angry at him. Our single mother has gone through HELL and back to get his life on track and to help me solve my own demons that I won’t get into in this sub; is there ANYTHING I can do for him? My family seems to have given up on him and are about ready to kick him out of the house, and leave him likely homeless. I don’t want that to happen to him. I just want my brother to be a functioning member of society again. Is there anything I can possibly do? I have looked into a state law called Casey’s Law to force him into involuntary treatment, but my family can’t afford the costs of this. Please tell me there is still hope for my brother. TL;DR brother is in a catatonic state 24/7 and hasn’t been sober in weeks, mom has given up and I desperately want him to have a normal life again",4.367279279279277,4.861827218918922,5.124662162162164,85.78005630630629,70.05405405405406,8.112612612612612,27.30855855855856,8.07648339933343,1.5350450450450457,1421,44,300,18,24,461,188,370,0.114,0.804,0.08199999999999999,-0.9349,1,0,3,0,1,0,35.0,6,0,0,2,21,11,2,2,10,0,41,7,0,3,2,48,63,23,1,6,8,9,0,1,0,1,4,2,0,0,12,23,3,1,2,2,4,4,9,7,1,1,8,4,59,4,41,51,8,41,2,1,2,2,51,18,2,2,18,210,71,3,0.0,0.1287351317602743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23223239233599946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17882306358899305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1020823515779213,0.08354686216219498,0.0,0.06623339410086286,0.0,0.0924550495350988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11094608018154377,0.0,0.0,0.11161577518019204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08674996868981058,0.0,0.0,0.14014340625035598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07176377662220433,0.0,0.09154419428368188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3072829726196753,0.1222639717130603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10044724063834383,0.34059785060036857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09608081275280833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1456546059198429,0.0,0.0,0.10791618544617054,0.0,0.25074018297178113,0.0,0.12265514833885033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0885660733040141,0.0,0.11504702892649007,0.0,0.0,0.15348857389215287,0.053081993879549934,0.0,0.09594191427779963,0.09615380906051453,0.1824810255970621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0980628843293463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2545043693686312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10645612143656626,0.0,0.0,0.11401224356318362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10372085274963977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11926752658948095,0.0,0.24497813976651125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09891291422832964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17353963075597448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09496684260094553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06335599209993016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12071663113507355,0.07376773557690235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13069526094188366,0.0,0.0,0.08964947301789633,0.1922577101998398,0.0,0.08715426927107664,0.0,0.09769140804856012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07910012126333096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06996847716167291 alcoholism,Liabletolibel,2019/01/30,"Writing this from my hospital bed. Detoxing from 50 paracetamol and my years of denial. I hope this doesn’t break any rules or anything, just want to share. M/26, was functioning, not now, obviously. Mobile too. I guess today is day one for me. I’ve known for years but always caveated it with ‘it’s too depressing to have to give up drinking at 23/24/25/26 and now here I am. Fully od’d on otc drugs and merlot last night. Hoped I wouldn’t wake up. Spent all day in bed. Drank some water - started to metabolise it obviously. Paternal side it runs. Now I’ve got IVs all over the place. 00:31 on Jan 30th, as good a time as any to start I guess. 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I am a teenage girl who everyone sees as having her life together. I am in no way trying to brag, I am just trying to explain my situation. I am relatively popular (as popular as you can be at a small school) and I party a lot on the weekends. I drink and smoke and fuck around. People mostly think I’m having a good time. Anyways, I don’t have any close friends (plenty of people I call my best friend but none I really mean) and I think I really need help. I am very open and loving with my parents but this is something I don’t want to share because I don’t want them to think I’m a disappointment. I also have a therapist who I consistently lie to and conceal things from (probably not helpful but it’s hard for me to open up). I drink alone ALOT stress on a lot. When I’m around people I don’t feel the urge to drink it’s just when I’m alone with my brain and all my thoughts that I feel the urge to drink and it is a really strong urge. I mean it is 5 pm and I’m drunk, I started drinking once I got home from school. I just want to escape from my brain and feel different for a while you know? I have struggled with depression, suicidal thoughts and self harm, anxiety and ADHD and I also think I could possibly (I’m not a psychologist so of course I can’t diagnose) be bipolar. So I guess these things along with family history could contribute to alcoholism even though I hate to call myself an alcoholic- I guess that is what it is at this point. I guess this post is too long, I don’t really know how to do this sort of thing but if anyone has any advice please help me. I am happy to answer any questions I just need help so please talk to me if you have the time... Thanks and I’m sorry I’m such a mess :(",1.3545094562647757,3.2907093563829832,3.2647163120567377,90.25888888888888,80.43617021276594,6.943735224586287,21.08274231678487,7.984000788550335,0.8757260047281314,1402,40,312,26,36,471,172,376,0.156,0.662,0.182,0.9168,2,3,10,0,0,0,39.0,0,3,1,3,20,19,2,2,17,0,32,16,2,1,1,70,69,34,1,9,13,1,4,0,2,0,5,0,1,2,20,24,9,0,16,8,0,0,10,8,0,1,3,5,50,11,39,62,7,27,0,2,1,2,24,14,1,11,10,208,70,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08747202029112201,0.07112351685472157,0.0,0.15556755978441264,0.0,0.22614629401570985,0.0,0.11641040600533445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14848650193386367,0.0,0.05567943116020803,0.0,0.0,0.050892146635825,0.0,0.0,0.12958608053294352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044368347554215454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07638213976709961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16250165192562105,0.14864085744349498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1162239324557484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06268860661003825,0.07387405593068723,0.0,0.07604361168641742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4278026691299909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04807303364415027,0.0,0.0,0.0695480691825065,0.0,0.0,0.068614117856824,0.0,0.11040507492148087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06190988909260205,0.0,0.0,0.11246521388493996,0.06728747852959409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061047623868180925,0.0582118782281988,0.0,0.2405387852499841,0.0,0.0,0.07747974104082862,0.06520001598038756,0.07185896419490449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19514186962795815,0.0,0.07300811648237182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08000017962820544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05140937199803868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0644113996719217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12375641993520735,0.065690248750767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1585658575815912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10793657623917448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07751240413901972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08081783045112688,0.0,0.0,0.15137743131389775,0.0,0.0,0.15978957876129093,0.06880424569218517,0.08205283298477482,0.139413580734639,0.0,0.07847327959134699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08153454758921372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18650874237263776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1473222445397332,0.05799928960191985,0.0,0.0759294088375829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08181207507226931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05603254866123481,0.0,0.08147553941181797,0.05151676988660738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08337363199545543,0.07608946276506062,0.0,0.07961369733879091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0585008860015358,0.0,0.06700957236351081,0.0,0.08450763709327809,0.14506302872749896,0.18654775896202247,0.07150974398139588,0.1155644628635656,0.12732251073459075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09883088658809436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060054282751281614,0.12878936708473768,0.05777241688998708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,_bala,2019/05/20,"Help on controlling myself Hey, so I can't say I'm an alcoholic as in someone who gets drunk by itself on a daily basis or someone that physically can't go without alcohol for any amount of time. However, I drink twice a week on average to the point where I'm at least 35% drunk (100% being my limit before I start getting sick/pass out or something like that). But, last saturday I went to a party and drank to the point where I lost all control of my actions and my sense of reason (on whats acceptable behaviour) and embarassed myself in front of people and did stuff I shouldn't have - fortunately, didn't offend or hurt anyone but it could've easily been the case. It wasn't the first time I got this drunk and did (seriously) regrettable stuff, but it also isn't something very frequent. However, I don't want this to happen again, as it really makes me feel like shit afterwards and could potentially hurt myself physically, socially and professionally, or, even worse, hurt someone else. Quitting drinking altogether is not an option as I really enjoy it and don't know if I could do it, but I need advice on how to keep the amount of alcohol I ingest ""responsible"". Has anyone been there?",8.518392219134576,7.1703679213973865,9.018173878523225,67.48620484319176,61.92576419213974,12.519412465263994,35.66534339023422,11.567385478589935,4.11763406113537,950,34,171,24,11,320,135,229,0.098,0.778,0.12300000000000001,0.5949,2,0,7,0,0,2,31.0,0,0,0,6,8,11,2,0,10,0,19,11,1,5,1,37,36,23,0,6,11,0,1,2,0,1,4,1,0,0,15,9,10,4,4,5,0,4,10,7,0,2,10,2,19,4,25,22,4,27,0,4,0,0,5,13,1,6,12,118,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10805117731556248,0.0,0.3545084396167422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08842561488031928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07519379458412527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15463117132830825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09408993297815588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24803524040829994,0.2648519074163517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21663993431152967,0.0,0.0,0.09236999884680967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07303277610682793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0559093009571229,0.07899375450597823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09405379120376654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1155402151158391,0.0,0.06284148731972497,0.0,0.08843575591396652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0977798105983008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0741151087900019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3551137640032713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09828283722123632,0.0,0.0,0.06076832232537607,0.09013218794663666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10804128647570888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12070407382290198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07380869230350344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08198887410106702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07665776570020906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20905545957564084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1176085637615401,0.0,0.0,0.14167247405785874,0.1136880085490509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08793251202485103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11350214326824105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127157926638966,0.281065788614052,0.1702498166170489,0.0,0.0,0.07826451620935718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531604829989748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12895263331580306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09123474542705892,0.06521913498576877,0.0,0.08869541897073613,0.0,0.0,0.10250277344706067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10658894057612328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11268387731178298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,PeachyKeenD,2019/05/20,Has anyone ever had to be intubated and sedated for withdrawals? How did you feel? My husband was having chest and back pain on Wednesday morning and went to the ER they found out he had a aorta aneurism and admitted him to the ICU to monitor his blood pressure. After 2 days of not drinking he went from 0- DTs real quick. They had to intubate him and sedated him heavily. It’s been a few days now and he can open his eyes a bit sometimes and when I was talking to him earlier he had a tear in his eye. Ive read about people’s experiences in the nicu under sedation but I’m wondering if anyone can give me insight on how the detoxing mind works under sedation. Thank you!! I want to know how best to help him and I’m having trouble finding the right words. I just keep telling him how much I love him.,2.711305872042068,4.528052527607361,4.297953549517967,84.98559815950922,75.87116564417178,7.601928133216478,27.59377738825592,8.418075326091056,1.997207186678352,634,26,128,12,14,212,104,163,0.043,0.8270000000000001,0.13,0.9493,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,2,2,11,6,0,1,9,0,15,8,4,4,1,31,29,15,0,2,4,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,10,1,1,7,2,0,2,1,3,1,0,11,3,21,3,20,17,4,20,0,0,2,1,25,9,0,2,9,89,22,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.256463005916194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14101663574997375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19245791794908892,0.0,0.20021586715012796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2365445111942172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17965371495847407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16588798445356814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1793919401014226,0.0,0.0,0.09272818189867717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1676163806052387,0.0,0.0,0.2010791604170088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17592570329264642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12292336286926822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16300666707240954,0.0,0.0,0.10078709534548423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16551786245684572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18517299457765132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13481375086412686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19514133706882056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12714047788303734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1834409882844792,0.2087395171331668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1566152193878102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18137874432313397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14740302840903394,0.16029213192213068,0.16884212486143355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10816897562129636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3400112560379636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19888010694443664,0.13351109424450994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,jaybeags,2019/05/20,"I want to self detox so badly, I cant afford to have anyone find out by getting into a clinic Ive had heavy alcoholism, up to 6 drinks a day or more, with one day off every week, for about 2 months. I work fulltime and go to school fulltime and i can tell its affecting my performance. If anyone at work found out or family, itd really hurt. Plus I'm petite so 6 drinks in I am completely blacked out. I just dont want this to be my life anymore.",2.402767857142859,3.2337531458333366,4.508571428571429,87.16500000000002,74.83333333333334,7.985714285714287,23.089285714285715,8.418075326091056,1.1864660714285713,346,9,78,6,7,120,70,96,0.08900000000000001,0.8809999999999999,0.03,-0.7955,1,0,3,0,0,1,10.0,0,0,0,3,4,2,0,0,2,0,9,6,0,1,0,17,15,8,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,3,8,3,0,2,2,0,1,2,2,0,1,2,1,9,0,18,11,1,13,0,1,1,0,2,8,0,3,4,49,12,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20503055623246064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19026480977755045,0.26829359918140594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16018771423455785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.201152302770578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2474562678082359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22484814368897565,0.37588221833655017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616428861196915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18086020979026507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17534849470272196,0.0,0.0,0.21035490664990328,0.0,0.0,0.10023431853143908,0.0,0.10903344174458277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20538064661621935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13551015585674156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15313377440013826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13000331868049636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.122904772832691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1941636275921234,0.0,0.0,0.2001426126365374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16768637971864955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2263175828071417,0.0,0.15389143716720427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2793398749854211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,sick_confusion_ache,2019/05/20,"I hate this... And I genuinely want to stop, but I can't deal with the WD anxiety. I relief drink, but its inevitably leading me further down the hole I'm currently in. I'm being selfish and reckless. I need to pull my head out of my ass and wise up.",0.9326415094339636,2.708535471698113,3.2383396226415115,90.72505660377364,81.0754716981132,6.504150943396226,25.69433962264151,7.554174236665415,1.2973199999999996,192,8,43,3,5,66,40,53,0.267,0.507,0.226,-0.2145,1,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,2,0,2,3,2,1,0,11,7,5,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,1,1,0,1,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,8,2,8,6,0,9,0,0,0,1,1,5,1,0,2,27,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30642993452073264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4129633170299452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3923996742235156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3954734672057663,0.4110936510710135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2970127145713348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.334888971130637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23626269462170105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Yiene5,2019/05/20,"Spouse worse than ever, don’t know what to do My spouse, a long-term alcoholic and depressive, is in a new bad place. He slept all day yesterday then got up early today and started drinking. He’s always been a functioning addict but this isn’t functional. I’m worried about his mental state too. I don’t have anyone nearby I can call. What should I do?",3.1760476190476155,5.09854955714286,4.300000000000002,85.01333333333334,74.85714285714286,7.523809523809526,23.095238095238088,8.344100000000001,1.41752380952381,279,8,54,5,6,91,55,70,0.141,0.8590000000000001,0.0,-0.7845,0,0,2,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,0,10,4,1,0,2,7,15,4,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,0,5,0,5,11,1,12,0,1,0,0,6,3,0,0,8,33,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2690171228351505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2637234531520836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2053334755522094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17254821850675767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20604371332134366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519810702103254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15914706239328508,0.0,0.2125437440993828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2417419101321401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22321875302743224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19736553767487172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13561904328624205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21838481965492906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2486874116281033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2383332424569899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2578234677189753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17466598394376384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23391032168893805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2506082160357549,0.25148101922219235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,t_oken23,2019/05/20,"Do we abuse alcohol or does it abuse us? I had an entire post written out asking for advice for my binge-drinking boyfriend, when I came to the realization that I still don’t have my own drinking problems under control. Ironic and unnerving, but I’m glad to be addressing this. To give a little history, I started binge drinking at 19. My father died about four months into it. I ended up with two DUIs by 21. To say that I am lucky to not have killed someone else or myself is an understatement. $30,000 later, relationships lost, and a permanent ban from Canada (cruel and unusual punishment, if you ask me), I still haven’t been able to shake alcohol for good. I’m 29 now and though I can go months without drinking or having a 1-2 drink “chill” night, I feel like at any moment this reckless beast is going to come breaking out at any moment. I feel I’ve made a lot of progress, but how long is it going to take before I have a moment of weakness and make a horrible, drunken decision that I can never take back? Which leads me to this question... what good has ever come out of alcohol? Drunken hookup? One-night stand? Making “friends?” Helping you “forget?” What bad has come out of it? For me... depression, depression, DEPRESSION, apathy, memory loss, financial burdens, guilty conscience, criminal record, and the list goes on... So why am I still drinking?! FUCK! I don’t know what I’m looking for out of this. Maybe I just need to get all my thoughts out there, but I’m tired of turning back to alcohol and being stuck in this relentless cycle. Thoughts anyone? Advice? Or just anyone that can relate?",3.382226890756304,5.645368767973863,4.366914098972924,83.21897058823531,75.37254901960785,7.37796451914099,26.614845938375353,8.306716005460428,1.9726492997198883,1257,48,231,23,28,407,179,306,0.257,0.647,0.096,-0.9961,0,0,10,0,2,0,59.0,2,2,0,5,15,20,4,1,10,0,22,12,0,6,3,54,55,19,2,3,12,1,2,1,1,0,6,1,1,0,17,20,9,2,7,5,0,9,6,14,0,2,9,4,27,6,41,44,3,46,0,5,1,1,13,15,1,8,20,153,44,1,0.08261417946307867,0.19576858698630176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16145924006147724,0.0,0.3531577330788619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11236094999163952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11553151031186785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15446621140702366,0.0,0.0,0.12705040907628445,0.06897938905508919,0.0,0.0,0.07029858190124659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0944886126372311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21349440134420808,0.0,0.0,0.09265882709410772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21346641514741996,0.0,0.08574047518584904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07229622517527116,0.0,0.0,0.4855826659632798,0.0,0.0,0.06901354612143303,0.0,0.07317164181669945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07472925507538948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08354442282976704,0.05901958631551697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06382751011984175,0.07637547768646373,0.04316249899494645,0.07925104882658474,0.14085462610014135,0.1385857082608683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05537454306193796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09140034926688513,0.0,0.04540259248546368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04036111508226907,0.08280111134568689,0.0,0.07311094910820742,0.06937510383620843,0.0,0.09018313597293516,0.07023562106849453,0.0,0.07817153413525732,0.11029121260244394,0.0,0.08299704737110207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318836997243648,0.0,0.0,0.06125736727140585,0.06371714820453936,0.0,0.0,0.15505562197620354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05598150607595162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07912154725715699,0.0,0.0,0.07905061245752205,0.0,0.0,0.09254678814182447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08869671124977213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.065698111399404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06999872616592108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05847474143681521,0.0,0.19792737130890214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12423116298948787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08116801186737503,0.1311728608005794,0.0,0.09495284625606032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08986050399700113,0.08070204902564844,0.0,0.09937468587845892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07454644715181695,0.0,0.0,0.07963712090853875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,queen_morganna,2019/05/20,"My bestfriend of 10 years... How do i know if my best friend is becoming an alcoholic? Shes 23, lives alone, and works nights. It seens like every story she tells me now alcohol is involved. She brags about being able to drink alot without getting tipsy. She cant go get her nails done without sneaking in a drink. Her ""bae"" just wants to drink and fool around with her. Im house sitting for her and can barely fit anything in the fridge because of all the alcohol. Now that summer's starting to come to Canada, its becoming more ""acceptable"" to drink and im worried shes just gonna spend all of her time getting smashed. I dont know how to bring it up with her, especially considering im pretty sure shes using it as a coping mechanism for the anxiety and depression she says she doesnt have. Im sorry, thwt was long and rambly, i just want some advice. Thanks!!",1.6898623011015914,4.142571052325582,3.1021542227662198,88.94541615667076,82.66279069767441,6.179192166462669,23.006119951040397,7.475848149327749,1.1002860465116284,679,24,136,11,19,221,111,172,0.07,0.795,0.135,0.8854,0,1,7,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,2,9,8,0,0,7,0,14,7,0,3,3,29,29,10,0,3,6,0,0,1,1,1,3,1,0,0,5,10,7,0,3,4,1,3,5,2,0,0,3,2,20,6,21,24,6,17,0,1,1,0,18,5,0,3,9,83,25,1,0.10973723735599768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10723395829322363,0.0,0.3518272005258587,0.0,0.11365468288162425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0839486862133111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09030439612539258,0.09768940689221198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06689480134800367,0.24239231408565626,0.0,0.0,0.1151624603555946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09452891318314346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09451652173517174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11229929377021332,0.1286112249009316,0.4300028608251605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09245835540066598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08478271736625684,0.0,0.17199953184319652,0.0,0.06236620088504075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12662203830530314,0.0,0.0,0.4741401893958098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12061743154833712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053612071130176006,0.0,0.09689999106473382,0.0971140018305841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10298096345427536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11164222164001436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08726745567568342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12284185290009013,0.07767258141503612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1034260475211686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09591518231366952,0.10103130449458986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06398866558576839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0947777394137852,0.0,0.0,0.12945173157269715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2115655616574693,0.0,0.07989001575935534,0.11144349130727874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07066718298060866 alcoholism,Whatsgud77,2019/05/20,"I can’t stop drinking I am 41 years old. My 2 uncles, 2 cousins, grandfather. All alcoholics. I have just been through a horrible relationship with a suicidal woman with Borderline Personality Disorder. I have always enjoyed drinks with friends. I work in the entertainment industry. After every show, or opening night of our performances I have always had a lot of drinks with the cast and crew. It’s certainly an industry that revolves around alcohol, and occasional long nights of debauchery. But I didn’t do it every night. And I could go for long periods of time when in work mode without a drink. For certain periods during touring I went dry. Mostly because I didn’t want to spend half of my pay on booze. I don’t feel that I had that unhealthy a relationship with it that I ever let it affect my work. But something changed after my gf’s first suicide attempt, and several thereafter. I remember sitting in my backyard crying into my drinks while she was in the psych ward. And now, after four years of it. And particularly after I finally had no choice but to end this relationship, which ended with her assaulting me, and a restraining order. I can’t get through the night without at least four drinks, often more. I’m writing this drunk right now. I’m waking up every morning feeling like garbage and I am so directionless now that she is gone. I think I need help, but I’m afraid of AA. I am an atheist. And I can’t accept any christian related doctrine. Maybe that’s just an excuse. But A member of the church molested my uncle and I know it is at least partially responsible for his alcoholism. Along with several close friends in Indigenous residential schools. I can’t and won’t accept the idea of a Christian god. I need something else. But maybe I have an inflated idea of how much of AA is fueled by this. I don’t know. My mother is also a paranoid schizophrenic. It’s been a long hard life. I had my first therapy session with victims services and they were very supportive, But I mentioned the alcohol problem. And she said, one thing at a time. But I think I may have understated the problem. Anyway, I guess I just need support or advice. I think I need to get more help",3.2794722985348024,5.876297526442308,4.554587912087914,80.04993589743594,77.34134615384616,7.9042124542124546,29.375915750915752,8.77342768361299,2.761076190476191,1745,81,312,41,42,574,208,416,0.11199999999999999,0.7759999999999999,0.11199999999999999,0.2749,0,0,12,0,0,1,49.0,1,0,1,7,14,17,3,1,23,0,33,15,1,2,4,75,57,28,2,8,15,2,3,1,3,2,6,1,1,2,18,26,12,2,12,9,2,3,12,6,2,6,13,4,51,11,47,40,8,50,3,0,0,0,23,15,0,7,31,224,69,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07127839570074597,0.0,0.3118126486113629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05833195087836751,0.12138771522832442,0.0,0.0,0.0496032822387021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0649341338421365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04446496423985044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07716330794920805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058238511070812266,0.0,0.08012371880754293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08359822377521413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4287342538807332,0.0,0.0,0.06093395270883425,0.0,0.12921049888499608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06598050890933763,0.18437116414377472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0737636622937551,0.052110011491320815,0.0,0.07990475154784271,0.0,0.1240894086141872,0.0,0.0,0.112710118570685,0.0,0.07621870836561387,0.0,0.0414548042037264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08035419448041041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06534199578794464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09778340565987917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16468601250949572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08017438832949718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07458846921569202,0.051521321245798175,0.035635935492597665,0.0,0.0,0.19365498655664484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0620129561975098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14656073897680766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05362100166140404,0.21634323869205227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2738057227232561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07654069977482908,0.0,0.04942760712221931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06369042459606727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1395919077282451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2349382771556031,0.08262943486825865,0.062292346924304375,0.06938485461514053,0.0,0.0,0.07382152701528047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16480812988527085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11230913071283713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060983049767092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15957412886950192,0.16554817180776013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08341590552291804,0.0,0.04845963951373858,0.14021548956384006,0.0,0.0,0.08506651248503484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060185057190210736,0.04302327310325792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06761826597081604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1406275965234477,0.0,0.15930864382334398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09394493146985043 alcoholism,WyfeBeater2K15,2019/01/27,"Reason for drinking Just wondering... What are your reasons for drinking? Mine is confidence. I always wonder why really self confident people drink. I suck at small talk but when I have that magic number of drinks I become a pro at it. Cheers guys",2.0018333333333342,4.679916155555553,3.1237500000000047,82.68562500000003,98.55555555555556,5.805555555555558,18.958333333333336,7.1686216300943375,1.262166666666667,197,6,31,4,8,63,39,45,0.042,0.746,0.213,0.7929,0,0,4,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,0,3,4,0,2,0,6,6,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,4,0,4,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,1,5,6,0,4,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,2,1,21,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15037226209780535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19958937568134044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7081412862204511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17893971924057558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12528744752034154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11577289330357125,0.3716174160484959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.188528800015036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14525467808234627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1630703297383906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3919629904893631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,RedditToComment,2019/01/27,"Advice Hello, I’m hoping this isn’t very long but I have no one else i can really talk to about my drinking habits. As others often mention when I get to drinking I can not stop, sometimes I can be fine but the other times I can get out of hand, etc, say and do things to people I do care about or, and i know this bad but i’ll take sleepy medicine. I’m seriously scared at this point. I go on random streaks where I won’t drink at all however this past week I was drinking everyday at all times of the day. Yesterday I pretty much had 3 too many and now I’m in a bind with someone I love. I really, really hope someone can reach out to me and offer any advice. At the moment I’m going to get rid of all the alcohol at home, which is not the hard part, it’s when I want to drink.. on a side note I’m limited on time and money, I really wish I could seek professional but I feel that is out of the picture. Any tips on what I can do to get rid of that feeling that always takes over would be so very much appreciated. Thank you in advance. 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Could anyone guide me to where I could order some info pamphlets or something about addiction and/or getting sober for some one by mail? Internet or email things really isn’t right for the person who needs this. I’m in Canada if that helps. I’ve looked online but I guess not in the right places. Thanks in advance. 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They were supposed to get haircuts and go shopping for a birthday present for my son (6) today. Instead he went on a bender last night and is uncontactable today. I assume he is still at the casino. My kids were so excited to see him. I don’t know what to do and how much more breaking of their hearts I can take. 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I have never drunk more than a beer or wine with food or in social occasions. I got drunk once in my teens (long ago) and maybe a couple of times latest in my life. I had a bout of paralyZing anxiety that lasted a couple of years that I'm coming out of, but I'm still very sensitive to things, events but mostly about how people react to me. When.my 'demons' engulf me, it's very hard to get rid of them easily, even if I understand the situation that brought them up and I'm at peace with it. I've noticed that a shot of something in the 40% alcohol range helps to subside those emotions. These situations are far from being more than sporadic (once a week at most) and I do have a purpose and motivation to do things and keep going (that is, I'm not depressed) What are my risks of getting hooked up on alcohol if I use it only in those occasions and how fast so you think I will need to up the dose for it to be effective? I'm looking more for personal experiences on how it was for you in the beginning and how it changed so I can weigh my risk than for cautionary takes on why not to do it. 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Does anyone know how I can recover my list memories? I really want to remember. Or maybe tips to prevent memory loss?",3.2231395348837215,5.513257767441863,5.616453488372091,73.9423546511628,75.97674418604652,9.881395348837213,24.703488372093023,10.125756701596842,3.150772093023257,176,6,30,6,4,62,36,43,0.175,0.765,0.061,-0.7242,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,9,5,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,3,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,6,0,5,5,0,3,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,2,1,17,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2486734671812856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21742947199495327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18955746651902367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2721219522648742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16246302573419866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17089470543002722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34788311523460097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3123996931802439,0.33872505847614104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2918135660576733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33074273060331,0.0,0.0,0.19920803138208992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3522554577810333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18341142943055835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ApprehensiveMention7,2019/01/27,"Doctor won't give me meds to safe withdrawal So I am a cardiac patient and that is the driving force behind my drinking. At 47 (and a female) I had a blood clot go to my heart. Two stents and now Atrial Fibrillation later, I self-medicated quitting smoking cold turkey and the intense anxiety that I could drop dead with alcohol. Now almost 4 years later, I want off the alcohol. I went to the dr about a week or so ago after having 5 days of cold turkey. I was uncomfortable, but my vitals were stable, I wasn't shaky, etc. I couldn't sleep or shit, ate anything and everything, irritated one minute, crying the next and of course, anxiety, but I thought I was pass the dangerous period. She (the doc) says ""Oh we don't do cold turkey here"" and proceeds to give me a drug called Hydroxine, an antihistimine that treats anxiety and I guess alcohol withdrawal symptoms. I look it up in my drug book (I'm a nurse) and its to be used in caution with people with cardiac issues. WTF. So I go back a week later...now having drank again.....because she said the other alternative was to 'taper.' Yeah k except my taper was a 16 beer binge. I go back and see someone else in the physician's group, and I asked for Ativan. Typically that's prescribed for the withdrawal and any potential seizures/DT's. (I know, I used to detox folks at the jail.) He wouldn't prescribe it. Refused. Basically told me I'd have to go either to A)inpatient rehab or ICU detox, even as he sat there looking at me saying ""You don't seem to be in real withdrawal."" SO after that, feeling discouraged and scared shitless, I just said ""fuck it"" and decided to taper myself. I can't afford to go thru the ER (plus I know everyone there, nursing world is small and I don't need my employers knowing) and there is a waiting list for a local rehab. I'm in a small town, not a lot of resources, hardly any A.A......I left a message for the health dept counseling but WTF, do I potentially die trying to quit or do I die from NOT quitting? TV and media makes it seem like help is just a phone call away and its just so easy to get help and I'm telling you right now that's total bullshit. Anyone taper before cold turkey? I don't have a baseline. For example my neighbor, she's been drinking 12 beers a day for 20 years, from 3pm til 9 or 10pm. Me, it varies. Most I really drank was 3 days in a row, I can marathon (12 beers in 12 hours) or I can binge (go out and get wasted in a few hours.) I stopped wine, never really drank hard liquor and now drink an average of 6-8 beers in a 'normal' night out of drinking, up to 16 beers if 'out on the town.' Thanks in advance. &#x200B;",3.3507169811320763,4.6313552320754745,4.850707547169812,83.88511792452832,73.09433962264151,7.866037735849058,26.45754716981132,8.395991825355821,1.7219283018867926,2043,70,417,34,40,686,268,530,0.134,0.7759999999999999,0.09,-0.9864,2,0,15,0,0,0,98.0,1,2,0,4,20,11,3,2,35,1,34,34,4,3,2,76,76,39,3,7,17,0,3,1,1,2,14,4,1,0,14,29,18,5,8,14,0,10,12,6,1,2,19,14,48,5,61,51,6,67,0,1,3,1,26,29,2,14,28,253,62,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06952152959566832,0.25144646168409546,0.07853413198453897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08497650926147314,0.09529838459655884,0.1066672128269754,0.0,0.17999120090614512,0.0,0.0,0.05483855467390968,0.0,0.06453941266141529,0.0,0.07331942390997738,0.0,0.07368551775936209,0.1206123037025114,0.0,0.04780887060146365,0.0,0.06673629759852315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16016714417689598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06261823184625452,0.0,0.08614927662855945,0.1517383655033995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1627913882040953,0.0,0.0,0.08027419615166488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3073176198625902,0.18190274201426532,0.0,0.06551637924587615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08746774978860626,0.05180083486554424,0.0,0.0,0.07494114212987371,0.07048586677983222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03965546184485207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07250525501742479,0.08195059701400956,0.15047022106123767,0.2674340218911599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0863970848031364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14051184229526487,0.0,0.0,0.08336510428592601,0.0,0.09293734328527692,0.1051370279518596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15447120752554994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08185826698549592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12930563498894612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08521205496236413,0.0,0.0,0.038315870885167684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13171923103784688,0.0,0.0,0.06667652721969111,0.0,0.0,0.05235117827183484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17423125353630434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058153234130233274,0.06048836903539215,0.0,0.08340887538986215,0.07359919540812622,0.07684261094552895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053144719970972684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05437197480196654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25025291855018783,0.0,0.08926802820562177,0.1004857383886046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06697692901541771,0.1492056315666017,0.12473789927002217,0.07851992879364357,0.0,0.062496817763309974,0.14279548198766634,0.0818173198252621,0.0,0.08050502929976693,0.0,0.0,0.07848445876386932,0.0,0.0664516366416717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06556916855865948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08151653355255843,0.0,0.0,0.06854937076641557,0.0722057987458702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06226292791748255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07494114212987371,0.0,0.05324734105258794,0.0,0.07661258328300324,0.0,0.0,0.1354729093509184,0.0,0.0,0.04625875971809863,0.0,0.12582013162727956,0.0,0.0,0.07270337406898969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09529838459655884,0.10100988832641768 alcoholism,Mybassy85,2019/01/27,"Going to detox in a facility for two weeks on Monday. Terrified. My first ever post on reddit. Lurked for a while. I'm 33 F, always drank heavily. I'm probably what they'd call a functioning alcoholic. I work full time, I socialise, I'm a good actress pretending to be a normal person, but over the last couple of years it's escalated badly. I realised that it was bad, and finally spoke openly about it to my family and friends after years of playing it down 'I've had a bad week in work' etc. They seem releaved now I've admitted I have a problem. They knew for years, I was just very defensive. So I sought help, was referred to a service in my area, turned out that my liver isn't doing great (not a surprise) and I need a hospital detox. I got a place, on Monday in a great facility, and I feel so lucky for that. Its far from my home, but it offers a lot of additional therapy etc. I cried when I found out I had a place because alcoholism is exhausting. And I'm ready. If anyone has any advice it would be appreciated. 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I’m not sure if I have a problem with alcoholism or if I just like to drink. I don’t drink everyday but most the time it is at least once a week. There has been multiple occasions where I plan to go out and not drink but can not help myself. I have a LO and I feel like I’ve failed as a mother and am riddled with guilt as soon as I start to sober up. It’s not just on weekends that I tend to drink it’s literally whenever the opportunity arises. LO is never with me when I drink, he will be at home with his father relaxing and watching shows while I’m out on a weeknight getting pissed. I use any excuse to have a drink and can not stop once I start. I don’t like myself when I drink and have no idea why I can’t say no.",1.4154265734265756,2.465373200000002,3.52,92.4323076923077,77.60606060606061,7.016317016317017,21.78321678321679,7.61054688173877,0.5304265734265736,578,15,143,8,13,198,89,165,0.16,0.7190000000000001,0.121,-0.7605,0,0,8,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,3,7,11,1,1,9,0,17,9,1,1,2,33,27,17,0,4,12,2,1,3,0,1,1,1,1,0,4,12,8,1,2,10,0,1,11,5,0,0,2,3,19,6,19,23,2,21,0,1,1,0,7,8,1,4,15,97,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1267699585560762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08066646509241658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8134251274850329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05997842905711408,0.08474298943972552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061974666799032636,0.0,0.06741514604055279,0.0,0.09487218801512012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0795092715974136,0.0,0.11898670794288314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13390886529824644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17385693950347275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09148796110770244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25265535498281744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270088841653023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09433231759311488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1679213530769156,0.0,0.0,0.09917261183632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.111799051394666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06916895969591419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10245060711251967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09515074957755412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10703715796961777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Michelle1900,2019/10/25,"ETG Drug Test Anxiety I'm on probation for a DUI and as a result have to do random ETG test. I ended up drinking 3 glasses of wine last Friday and tested Wednesday afternoon; roughly 110 hours after drinking. I'm highly active, drink 1 gallon of water a day and take creatinine. Prior to this I have not drank for 2 months. I've read the 80 hour test is really not 80 hours, and you're usually clean within 60 hours. Being I tested at 110 hours, I should be 100% clean correct? It was dumb to drink I know but these test being ultra sensitive (100 NG cutoff) I'm always paranoid about accidental exposure, even though I do my best to avoid alcohol products. Anyone that had to take these have advice? Has anyone ever failed a ETG test after 80+ hours clean?",3.2039907072792966,5.216083637583896,4.877315436241613,80.50892101187405,75.04026845637584,7.2691791430046475,22.870934434692828,8.139509932561175,1.4496242643262771,598,17,108,10,13,202,98,149,0.098,0.789,0.11199999999999999,0.4743,0,1,7,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,2,4,4,1,1,5,0,13,9,0,1,2,14,20,7,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,3,0,5,4,8,1,1,6,0,0,2,3,0,0,3,1,7,1,17,13,1,22,0,1,0,0,0,5,1,1,17,58,12,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11758007819933555,0.0,0.1285907014559893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10011993752572412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0920482023306637,0.0,0.0,0.16826790478865672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12627353601190688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07759959208486096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4714902891443052,0.13953865786607986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1065721275971002,0.0,0.0,0.07947344711179362,0.1088407408853996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271298399072104,0.0,0.0,0.7109746034079318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06612740618450476,0.09808083512215804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09604216965782876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12035743962650315,0.0,0.07708319794502211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.180938667288866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11821858171779667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13252085375252465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,GigaTehHurtz,2019/10/25,"I'm new to the group and having problems stopping I've been depressed and anxious for years, and as soon as I turned 21 and tried alcohol I was hooked. I drank most of my money away to the point where I can't buy anymore. Part of me wants to save what I have now but it's extremely hard not to just drink it all. I'm so anxious about going to an AA meeting, I don't even know how to start.",3.819302325581397,3.2635948837209336,4.838930232558138,91.0049069767442,71.09302325581395,7.810232558139535,27.66511627906977,6.742157984588678,0.9944446511627903,304,9,74,2,5,100,63,86,0.141,0.833,0.026000000000000002,-0.7383,0,0,2,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,8,3,0,0,3,0,6,3,0,1,1,15,14,9,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,4,3,1,1,1,2,1,3,2,1,0,3,1,8,1,13,11,3,10,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,1,6,49,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2438958634797496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5156432405915692,0.2263311426512099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21441852304667508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19656401194035536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22356696458438036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.150735976921917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.129701669405381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20443869169725745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12542276112060768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22041457166668693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2471380843414113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2157399773760513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2183740077369343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1615340253789931,0.0,0.0,0.19080064451280804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15494518559188494,0.2482358805965038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1346090146114976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14696504636630764 alcoholism,wtf_am_i_doing_ffs,2019/10/25,"So my internet at home stopped working 5 days ago.. .. and it is the best thing that could have happened. I (28 m) used to binge drink 4 days a week (especially at the weekend) for the last 5 years while playing games/watching twitch streams / animes etc., getting wasted with 5 liters of beer a day. I didn't realize the obvious before my internet stopped working (typing this on mobile btw) : I got so used to do all these things on my computer while drinking that I can't even imagine drinking doing something else. Another huge positive impact: the last few days, instead of wasting time on my computer after work, I spent my time productively, cleaning my appartment , visited my parents, cooked something healthy, did my laundry.. So here I am, my first sober Friday in years! Now the scary part is when my internet starts working again.. Should I just throw away my router or somehow limit the amount of time I can use the internet? Thanks for reading, I hope that I can stay strong :)",6.964399799095932,7.577231607734808,6.538874937217482,77.48943746860877,64.41436464088397,9.675740833751883,37.449020592667,9.573946990214177,3.620785635359116,775,38,137,14,11,241,120,181,0.068,0.79,0.142,0.9336,1,0,6,0,0,0,35.0,0,0,0,8,11,5,0,0,10,0,13,6,0,3,2,18,23,8,0,3,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,8,2,5,3,2,8,1,2,2,0,0,1,4,0,21,5,16,17,6,35,0,0,0,0,2,8,0,3,24,89,29,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11137401334001604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13174654596484378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1180447536989824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1069120507306028,0.0,0.13185348150434625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1003148784201592,0.0,0.0,0.3241146705115229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3692438539535243,0.0,0.0,0.10495773235366793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.140123993077166,0.08298532709065362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10687098373124697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06564273641664282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10048734995770753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11110476689935846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12602912625422388,0.124790811871169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20482992696887584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13951052360016494,0.13605799480938366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256759566644843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19345063233559234,0.0,0.0,0.08893002325045209,0.13391760807959058,0.0,0.21008460245963606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1156742327092027,0.0,0.0,0.16694186567354596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21978850508010275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3255429296725385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10078239863103013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3658753619115904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16181860087613664 alcoholism,ryanhedden1,2019/10/25,Trying to quit What the hell do I do with myself? I've been coming home from work and drinking until I fall asleep for the last 10 years. I don't know who I am outside of being a hard worker and a hard drinker. Anyone have any tips on something I can do to help pass the time instead of watching TV and timing how long it will take to get to the store for 6 pack?,5.31753164556962,3.76436958227848,5.854272151898737,88.26723101265827,68.36708860759494,7.9,27.34493670886076,3.1291,0.6803645569620249,283,6,66,0,4,92,59,79,0.10300000000000001,0.861,0.036000000000000004,-0.6199,0,0,3,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,3,2,1,1,0,6,0,10,2,1,1,0,7,14,5,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,5,1,0,1,2,1,3,1,1,0,0,1,3,6,0,12,11,0,10,1,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,6,42,9,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17923005393647168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842875022514391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270338765137669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25818877293131376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1376993879719382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4721965523584859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1766589253728647,0.0,0.2643724880951924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14484585793606747,0.2148368358909548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23324258744671816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28032884020487964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20290160899387635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1981645584596185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3073682815486057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1789401551966969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19187505030817087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1697242034647262 alcoholism,cute_but_lethal,2019/10/25,"Day 14 I drank 2-3 per night with the occasional binge. First two days I needed a lorazepam. Been fine on the anxiety since day 4. Definitely have been drinking lots of water with added electrolytes and I take a healthy dose of vitamins already, but upped my Bs. Started a half dose of melatonin in the evenings, herbal tea, no problems sleeping. But I've been really headachy during the day, kinda feels like inflammation in my noggin. Flu-like, aches and pains. In the morning, I kinda feel hungover, hard to get out of bed. Is this typical? How long does it generally last? Or maybe it's just my luck to come down with something the week I try to get healthy?",3.772748917748917,5.928896722222222,4.142352092352096,85.76577922077924,73.84126984126985,7.121500721500722,28.914862914862915,8.00094639256281,1.9121841269841275,521,22,101,8,11,163,91,126,0.113,0.7659999999999999,0.12,0.2306,0,0,2,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,1,3,5,0,0,9,0,5,9,1,1,0,21,14,6,0,2,4,0,3,1,0,0,4,0,1,0,3,7,4,0,2,1,0,1,1,2,0,3,4,3,8,3,17,10,1,18,0,0,0,0,0,7,0,5,11,55,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2077223440526378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14399949602619386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16214805105691008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4855848074867071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16472598724556334,0.0,0.0,0.1843989407151272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12432764618750525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19035485595728466,0.13447534223368685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16011285752400892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1966903594673475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16862186352193534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15343690012199213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09196226375775828,0.0,0.0,0.16658232488781444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16003092820218826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1891076682569036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13957409637063453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17664608591999842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20029564016275175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18011576880898897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12058835887197808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1557101926276335,0.0,0.1883712501109256,0.0,0.0,0.14491273707636868,0.0,0.0,0.1332339204260855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14152952606097896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.127799418600008,0.0,0.1838785450590427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15099101055827546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,pickTheNick,2019/10/25,"i ate a king sized candy bar instead of drinking.... I don't feel good but... at least I made it tonight, I'm alone and I don't like it, still can't drink thanks to you friends who post about drinking, you help us all",-0.9782269503546104,1.0641265319148945,0.2692553191489377,107.0841666666667,92.19148936170214,3.1333333333333333,18.471631205673766,3.1291,-1.1771815602836877,165,5,43,0,6,51,37,47,0.191,0.685,0.124,-0.2783,0,1,3,0,0,0,10.0,1,2,0,1,3,4,0,0,1,0,3,5,0,1,1,5,8,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,5,0,1,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,7,4,4,6,2,4,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,3,24,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25345161850590137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7191845395746922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12373558917649463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18906670972974424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20525588282585486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16402774665424474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11955570905555307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23155587184474896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2343699539673385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1954302399731684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253012985886957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2943628045993045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,liquidshadowman,2019/10/25,Allen Carr's quit drinking without willpower. Even if recommending this book only helps one other person stop it will be worth it.,6.231739130434782,8.980478478260874,5.312391304347828,77.45815217391308,68.56521739130434,6.339130434782609,28.89130434782609,7.1686216300943375,1.869973913043478,107,4,16,1,2,32,22,23,0.086,0.7390000000000001,0.175,0.3182,1,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,10,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3870868958036177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2609863290898173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26485409982089725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.267757178271971,0.3005218744231771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3450211200922284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4202801668219815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33035484173207075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3809009845366445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,halfhalfnhalf,2019/10/25,"Question about DTs I haven't drank in five days. My normal intake has been a pint of whiskey and six pack of tall boys everyday for the past several years, so i was a pretty heavy drinker. Are DTs a constant thing or do they come and go in spurts? I have felt good pretty much all day but I had a brief period where my anxiety spiked, my heart rate went way up, I started sweating and shaking uncontrollably. No hallucinations. INCREDIBLY strong urge to drink. It went away after fifteen minutes and now i feel fine again. Is that DTs or something else? Should i be worried?",2.592787878787877,5.239241400000001,3.2177272727272737,88.31992424242426,80.45454545454545,6.212121212121213,24.62121212121212,7.492282038375204,1.2477575757575758,454,17,89,7,12,142,88,110,0.11199999999999999,0.758,0.131,0.4952,0,0,4,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,1,5,5,0,2,5,0,11,5,2,0,1,14,19,8,0,2,3,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,5,3,0,3,2,0,6,2,2,0,2,7,2,11,3,10,10,2,24,0,0,0,0,3,6,0,3,11,56,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14877854770515372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18272267084083754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16752941652712422,0.0,0.2101664454545635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2508501919771215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1905187681557924,0.0,0.0,0.16246513784055885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0983361740821542,0.0,0.1867336581716918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11052886247662297,0.1631226582366633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2304626485952861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1429669837388677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1905515158650896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1856555118818642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3957171540713047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21786486185924311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21970981980275592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14972209737650136,0.0,0.0,0.13765568445080728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12920550306203746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15437112239127365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36057437317357854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1975063760468931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12524032630545476 alcoholism,hope1075,2019/10/25,"My story from the last month I drink to cope With feelings that are awful. 11 to 13 shots Vodka 5 nights a week maybe 6. Since 2004. Never before 10pm. Drink till 2am. Mid September. Argument so bad with hubby. Police called. Teen v upset. Never called police before. Even only one time in extreme bad violent marriage with ex. This made me give up booze for a week. I hated most of this time. My self loathe etc was crippling. Had a drink after a week. Feelings incredible. Release of tension etc. Managed to get up mid morning. (3 or 4 days consecutive drinking and I'm ill all day). Ive moderated slightly since then. Less days per week. Affected more quickly with less shots eg. 10. Went 3 days sober last week. Couldn't have done that before last month. I am Wondering if, finally, I am now able to moderate. This is me pondering. Not necessarily looking for answers as it's only me that knows. Guess I just putting my thoughts out there 🤔",0.3193826761473808,2.4820677967033014,2.1229217840982564,89.37648998060764,104.54945054945057,4.7785391079508726,20.737556561085974,6.522977012572876,0.7758359405300581,737,28,140,12,34,241,127,182,0.18899999999999997,0.8109999999999999,0.0,-0.9873,0,0,5,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,0,0,6,6,2,2,5,1,10,6,0,2,3,25,23,7,0,2,4,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,7,6,5,0,7,5,0,2,4,6,0,1,6,3,12,0,20,16,7,33,0,0,1,0,6,6,0,5,25,74,19,1,0.10484655793305983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17508499286090876,0.0,0.0,0.2676500954614577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2141201163951692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27046942450999323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10729443071292023,0.0,0.4108388450916527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2338632540625832,0.06925016268334783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10602713995507128,0.0,0.0,0.11485427935640298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05477799913792968,0.10057837209126744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1155003040687254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10351426950896273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057620926265638424,0.25639181519736026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08804470238339407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0992083481999761,0.0,0.0,0.10533245977896784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16737504449531684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16172825812649286,0.0,0.0,0.09839139211955822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07104674110568808,0.15948106374987606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10539974953634136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10937782610881422,0.0,0.0,0.17346031235332304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08323645552468112,0.12227374216890252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4205079226350902,0.0,0.0,0.09719380961666148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11370161962367853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,welphereweareagainb,2019/10/25,"Alcohol, weight loss, emotional hell So the past three months I’ve gone from alcoholic to complete drunk- drinking since I woke up until I fell asleep 95% of the days. I can’t seem to stop. Rehab is debatable for me due to living conditions considering I just started a job and it’s likely I’d lose it if I suddenly went in. The weight gain has brought me down A LOT, if anyone had recommendations to lose weight from alcohol or about the situation in general literally anything would help. Much love, thanks in advance <3",4.786893939393941,6.812519545454547,5.684734848484848,76.3471022727273,70.71717171717171,9.798484848484847,30.556818181818183,10.125756701596842,3.3544030303030308,421,18,77,12,8,138,76,99,0.155,0.708,0.136,-0.2732,1,0,4,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,5,3,7,1,0,6,0,5,11,1,0,0,10,13,6,0,3,4,0,3,1,0,1,4,0,0,0,2,1,8,1,1,2,0,5,1,4,0,1,5,3,7,3,15,7,2,18,1,3,0,1,2,5,1,5,9,44,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4737215883172294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1033150637601074,0.0,0.12159134342259315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1549203040970274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09529098034560173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14474551562996327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662066310155199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0990383390935944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14662592932405544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07218656047856258,0.0,0.1304720544815784,0.0,0.0,0.33060436473268745,0.0,0.12561763711621535,0.13335637591921334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11793815219034608,0.0,0.10861832658093336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1410506852265105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345123372956979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12222603900716865,0.16608495241755442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10458309812781473,0.0,0.0,0.12353138901303147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13603470670659834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.539784314428353,0.0,0.13697213159934454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10496226622846193,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,RunninAgainstTheWind,2019/10/25,"A week before I fly out to detox and I'm terrified. Not scared of the treatment, but of who I'll be totally sober. It's been more than five years, I have bearly any memory of that time. Anyone else feel this way?",0.33999999999999986,2.471174111111111,2.3422222222222224,94.3,85.66666666666667,6.266666666666668,15.666666666666668,7.554174236665415,0.02313333333333345,165,3,38,3,5,55,40,45,0.061,0.898,0.040999999999999995,-0.2016,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,3,1,0,0,1,6,5,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,1,2,0,6,3,2,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,23,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2625376866604865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26994587938182085,0.3955695891071988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32851319020067543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3225080732817937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19520624829840436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3865187795928996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2251178187425608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30644071654078114,0.3096783483630144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24861343713993936 alcoholism,Burkeawesome,2018/11/12,"Tough Decision between Alcoholic Father (56) and Terminally Ill Friend (50s) X-Post from /r/relationships Hi Reddit, I wanted to ask for advice on a situation that my brother and I are struggling with. Our father (56) has been battling alcoholism since he was 16. He has been through hell and back and then some. Anyone who is remotely associated with him in any way is aware of how bad his alcoholism has been. Recently he just did a 5 month stint in Texas and is now back in our home state in sober living. I have seen him twice since he’s been back and he looks and sounds great, relatively. It’s hard to come by these days and we would love to make sure that nothing triggers him to drink again. In the last couple of months, we found out that one of his best friends, who resides in Florida, is terminal. As of today, he has an estimated one month to live. At the request of this friend, who knows about his alcoholism, we have not told our father. His friend, as well as us, fear that by telling him, it will trigger him to drink, thus, potentially losing two lives. I mean no hyperbole when I say “losing two lives.” Our father has already attempted suicide once in a drunken stupor. So we know the stakes here. That said, our family is torn on whether to tell him because I’m sure if our father knew, he would want to fly down and say goodbye. But as I stated above, our father might go with him as a result. If anyone has been in a similar situation, we would love to hear your anecdotes and advice on what to do. If there’s any more information you need, we’ll do our best at providing it. Any and all help is greatly appreciated. Thanks in advance. 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On Friday I was sentenced to court-ordered probation with the condition that I refrain from drinking for a minimum of 9 months & be supervised by random drug tests. Back in July, I was pulled over for an expired license plate and seeing the concert wristband I was wearing the cop asked if I had been drinking that day. After playing the card of ""I only had a beer"" I was asked to take a breathalyzer and upon my refusal, I was arrested and taken to give a blood sample as evidence. I had felt fine when I left the show and my house was only 2 miles away but when the tests came back at .157 I knew my long 10-year relationship needed to end. Since I was roughly 18-19 years old I had consumed alcohol to excess roughly 5-6x a week, almost always alone. I never labeled myself an alcoholic since i had a good job, i own my house and was in a stable loving relationship. I don't think there is a single person I know besides my old college dormmate that would even know that I drank the way that I did. I was never a sloppy drunk or combative. People always commented that I was always able to handle my alcohol in a way that they wish they could. These comments gave me a sense that I was the one in control with alcohol and that everything I was doing was OK. Because I felt like I was the one in control I never really found a good enough reason to stop. Looking back, the number of times that I had driven my car after a happy hour or a night out makes me thankful I am here today, along with the countless people I shared the road with those nights. It was in the final weeks/days before sentencing that I really saw how real my problem was. I stopped seeing people I care about, I shunned work responsibilities and avoided doing anything so that I could ""treasure"" my last days of drinking. In my eyes, I ""became"" the alcoholic I never wanted to admit that I was all along. I have currently been sober for 4 days which is the longest I can remember ever going without drinking and definitely my first weekend sober since college. Understandable I am in a position where if I drink I go to jail but that won't stop me from using this opportunity as a gift to get clean and change myself forever. 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My friend drinks and blacks/browns out probably once-twice a week. Hangovers are a norm and I’m concerned. I want to talk to them about it but I have a feeling they may be defensive. How should I do it? Have you had a friend bring up alcoholism with you? ,0.2959426229508217,2.681608983606558,1.3116188524590164,99.239887295082,90.31147540983606,5.67295081967213,19.100409836065573,7.1686216300943375,0.26235901639344306,232,7,54,4,8,72,40,61,0.0,0.7709999999999999,0.22899999999999998,0.8776,0,0,3,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,2,0,3,4,1,0,4,0,9,3,0,2,0,12,14,5,0,2,1,0,1,0,3,2,2,0,0,0,2,4,3,1,1,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,10,3,8,10,0,6,0,0,0,0,8,3,0,1,1,38,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5721473704458743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2622292339864542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13534949785963074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6204379288336874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2886095316444743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2151549342351146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15788745378757352,0.0,0.21472063171287556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,LivingTurd34,2018/11/12,"Alcohol is controlling my life. I am a 19 year old male and currently a sophomore in college. I am struggling to control myself while I go out. I cannot drink without blacking out and waking up full of regret and uncertainties. I play lacrosse at school and feel pressure from my friends and teammates to go out with the team. I experience extreme levels of stress and anxiety on a daily basis and am not sure if i can continue my studies at school. There are many days I struggle getting out of bed to go to classes. &#x200B; I have decided that I no longer want to continue living this way and have decided to give up drinking and quitting the lacrosse team and I even started applying to schools closer to home. I do not think I can remain friends with my teammates because they will not understand my decision. I began binge drinking every weekend from 7th grade and do not know how else to have fun on weekends without drinking. If anyone has any suggestions of other healthier outlets I can use to fill my time on weekends it would be greatly appreciated.",7.098098827470688,7.6777148190954785,7.184032663316586,73.0933689279732,64.12562814070354,9.849413735343383,40.70393634840871,9.725611199111238,4.232155443886096,855,48,143,16,12,275,120,199,0.10400000000000001,0.813,0.083,-0.3333,1,0,5,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,5,3,11,0,4,5,0,18,7,1,4,1,40,31,15,0,5,8,0,1,0,2,2,2,0,2,1,4,17,5,2,7,10,0,4,8,5,0,0,1,2,23,6,32,27,1,33,0,1,1,0,8,15,0,2,13,105,27,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12858875896312938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13036998564744004,0.14620568837263878,0.08182380710953753,0.0,0.09204681184928544,0.0,0.0,0.0841326814657157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07334782080721447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2699050869793605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07759841986438272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4714831668056772,0.0,0.0,0.10051447742664124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07947224658483625,0.0,0.10137736785820027,0.0,0.0,0.11769904123327388,0.0,0.0,0.06083895462978148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18592259594517802,0.0,0.06286383289551918,0.11542484346915036,0.2051471041738533,0.0,0.0,0.13265659884275444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1206938401002602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06612640726302052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08498773591952963,0.0,0.0,0.10624746673306153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12198869777062678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12625881134773287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12797838556860944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3653200825277407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08516528143384441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13782965913203798,0.2515755752854777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11340306043987547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07709815865699199,0.0,0.0,0.07016134411792789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12526054927251934,0.0,0.10392049168171492,0.0,0.0,0.07096965847302855,0.09550684474936813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23197427292895076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08547404985417645,0.0,0.14620568837263878,0.07748410593593913 alcoholism,tombgrrrl,2018/11/12,If I drink a little brandy in my coffee every morning... Am I an alcoholic?,0.218,2.597659133333337,3.855,80.7825,91.0,5.666666666666668,20.833333333333336,7.1686216300943375,1.2183333333333333,57,2,10,1,2,21,14,15,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5470663892031609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5014680048907136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4312985911700761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5130591887198303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,randodontmatter,2018/11/12,"Alcoholism isn’t the problem, I am the problem. So I’m not someone who needs to drink every day, but when I do drink, I drink to regret it. Next morning shakes, vomiting, regret. Sometimes I will just continue to drink the next day so I don’t have to feel any sort of regret. Which is where I believe I have a problem. Currently it’s the middle of the day and I’m already blowing off my responsibilities. I’m drinking as well. I’m very depressed and I know I self medicate with alcohol. I just don’t want to do this anymore. I’m tired. I’m ashamed of the person I have become. I just want it all to stop, but I don’t care enough to. I drink to get through my part time job because I deal with crippling anxiety. I’m thinking about getting SSI. I barely leave my house (my parents house). I’m a failure at 23. I just want to cease existing. But I couldn’t do that to my family. Cheers. 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All information is kept anonymous. 📷 [**https://goo.gl/forms/ORUvuEs6krARxsjF3**](https://goo.gl/forms/ORUvuEs6krARxsjF3)",14.97653846153846,18.515855692307685,7.462115384615393,47.35163461538463,107.46153846153848,5.915384615384616,22.48076923076923,6.6274283507984215,2.2572461538461543,192,5,17,3,8,48,24,26,0.0,0.772,0.228,0.7574,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,3,2,1,5,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,9,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5874399969977642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.66766261266739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4573192381405155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,bogglemymind29,2018/11/12,"I feel like I am going to die an alcoholic And the worst part about it, I don’t care. I love drinking, I love the way it makes me feel. The warmth, the buzz, the relaxation in my bones. I black out often and I’m more than just a casual drinker, been in an out of AA numerous times. Nothing good comes from my drinking. I’ve almost died 2 times because of it. But I love it, and I don’t know what to do, I feel bad because I know I am going to die if I keep drinking this way. 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Or are they impacted by the woman's previous drinking? Sorry if this is a stupid question, I've googled it a few times but I cant figure it out.",4.083809523809524,5.8370580158730165,5.806539682539682,75.87457142857146,72.01587301587301,8.84952380952381,31.647619047619052,9.3871,3.26124380952381,257,12,44,6,5,88,49,63,0.10400000000000001,0.862,0.034,-0.4784,0,0,5,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,7,0,6,4,0,1,0,13,6,8,0,2,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,3,3,4,1,3,2,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,4,6,1,4,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,6,2,33,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6073121421992711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5566922302394925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3182984989176081,0.3022147041529585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3180681399489957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16568258586295498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,MarinersJustus,2018/11/20,"Question about alcoholism. To preface this, my biggest question is about Alcohol withdrawal, and what is it like for someone maybe that has quit with similar usage. I'll try to make this short. My Dad has been an alcoholic, daily drinker for over 20 years now. He doesn't really start drinking till he gets off work though, but he will drink a good amount in this time, i'd say 8-12 beers on a regular night. He wakes up and goes to work every day though, he doesn't show any signs of craving it and has a good attitude, works his butt off as well. The past few years he has saw me struggle with opiates and he has tried quitting alcohol a few times, he does damn good when hes quitting, he shows no signs of withdrawal, just boredom, but he sleeps hard (i can hear him snoring) and he wakes up at his usual time, drinks coffee, eats good. I am just confused, is it possible he has avoided a physical dependency by limiting his drinking till after work? He will start early on the weekends for football games but he never breaks his after work rule during the week. Thanks for any information you guys have. 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I woke up today desperate for a drink. My hangover wasn't even that bad, I just wanted to start the comfort as soon as possible. So called in sick (again) and started on the wine at nine. I don't think this can be going anywhere good. But I am unsure if I will stop it either...",0.8404545454545449,2.445276378787881,2.8242424242424238,94.40636363636366,80.66666666666666,5.612121212121212,20.090909090909093,6.42735559955562,0.004654545454545911,235,6,55,2,6,79,53,66,0.147,0.732,0.121,-0.2056,0,0,2,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,0,3,0,8,3,0,0,0,8,14,7,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,1,2,1,1,2,0,1,2,1,0,1,2,0,7,2,9,10,1,12,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,6,43,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668127409551799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32629852630729184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3130395031538954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21106121564415892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18160888047288867,0.2680252259755925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3602470941402939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4523613865858391,0.0,0.0,0.2671599494619851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20475614808120748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3028981232259149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884801680443026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,kiddokush,2018/11/20,"Drunk after 2 years of sobriety. I’be been drunk for the past few weeks after not being a drunk for about 2 years. I’ve done a lot of thinking in between drinking and I feel so hopeless. I just downed 2 four locos and am just contemplating life. I haven’t browsed this sub much so idk if people post this kind of stuff here. But after attending so many meetings and being around a lot of sober people I feel like I’ve heard a lot of what people are going to tell me. “Go to a meeting; It’s not too late to stop; just go a day without a drink, etc.” But what really sucks is that my entire friend group from the past 2 years has been sober people that are religious about their 12 step programs. So now that I’ve chosen to take back my old ways, I’ve lost all of my friends. I’ve been seeing this girl off and on since I’ve started drinking (I put a lot of security into relationships and women in general), but I know it can’t work out because I don’t want to keep my horrible past a secret from her. And she has a large friend group, and wants to meet my friends. But I have none as of now and I’m just going about my life on my own. Trying to get everything together. I just couldn’t keep going the sober route, I had demons I wasn’t willing to let go of, even after 2 years of sobriety. I always felt awkward and that people knew I was hiding shit. I feel lonely and have had the worst thoughts ever. Btw I’m 21 and have had problems with alcohol since about 15. I haven’t felt right for as long as I can remember. I guess I’m just looking for someone who can relate and give me even the slightest bit of direction. I’ll probably delete this once I sober up and see this next morning but idk. Thank you",3.0786538461538484,4.08776848595506,4.201685393258426,89.32607173725155,73.41011235955057,7.274675885911843,24.08556611927398,7.61054688173877,0.9223313742437343,1335,37,295,16,26,436,180,356,0.125,0.816,0.06,-0.966,0,2,4,0,0,1,30.0,0,1,1,2,23,16,2,1,15,0,29,10,1,0,2,58,63,26,0,5,15,0,5,1,4,1,3,1,0,2,15,17,7,4,11,6,0,9,10,8,0,1,15,9,31,8,49,43,12,45,1,3,3,0,21,11,2,6,24,190,46,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09385566093000727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0730754463763772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07818074187576989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0675301656929579,0.0,0.05353584757444276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09587954365171347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05663831770539241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08987302081552748,0.0,0.2580981685028628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979454243836282,0.11601201052031362,0.07944057817747484,0.0,0.0,0.07892929852984337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13321725032060072,0.06274048973149911,0.16864695497275956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.271406120798799,0.0,0.04588368868770437,0.08424744945742882,0.2994696769044154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0967465055063508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15612154095030156,0.0,0.09145373322418174,0.048265009388395966,0.0,0.09906772873157904,0.0,0.0,0.08980456831591363,0.12406341254074192,0.04290569088087949,0.0,0.0,0.07772024573777228,0.07374887323994947,0.0,0.09586875255641587,0.2986545679175517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0890383416682323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06455972293712395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.093400341464888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0921550552539074,0.09352821283336037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25150985413671856,0.3044256974385009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08410978343172239,0.0,0.09468762679825862,0.08403437653130275,0.0,0.08828597925437627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056261412433501135,0.0,0.0,0.09428861584414386,0.09948589650061801,0.07500002860690673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13996649858371088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09014864654502892,0.14529554012462684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07441181198310673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062161294981900164,0.0,0.0,0.07342363392771449,0.0,0.0,0.10053587643322154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06603167264004467,0.0,0.07676083158848844,0.0808552594323668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05627318200740527,0.0,0.06972134201444229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05962578698205945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10360010090575468,0.0697094995672349,0.07044599991437725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08465786154273151,0.0,0.06393590563432197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2262195244072145 alcoholism,anxiouscharlie,2018/11/20,"I’m frustrated I’m frustrated bc the things that always work are bad for you and dangerous I have done therapy I have done medication I’ve gotten out of my comfort zone I’ve spent thousands of dollars on doctors and made it day by day I’ve exercised I’ve eaten healthy I’ve done clinical trials Yet the only thing that’s ever freed me from this unexplainable horrific social anxiety is alcohol. I kind of want to stop and don’t at the same time. I feel like I’m living a new life and never blackout or forget (or regret) the things I did drunk. I’m 21 and drinking a 6 pack a night. I’m not the least bit ashamed. I’m pissed. I have three anxiety disorders diagnosed. Why am I guilty when I’ve done everything right and am hurting no one but myself? I’m sick and tired of feeling guilty when I’ve done everything I could/can do. I’m pissed at the Harvard grads who turn their nose up at the fact I drink. The same ones who are so damn smart but have failed to offer an alternative drug since the 90’s. Sorry needed to vent. Thanks ",1.377054500918554,3.6955813615023487,3.2010818534394803,88.60704837721985,82.80281690140845,6.896836088997755,22.406409471320682,8.04050195162591,1.282196734027352,822,28,172,17,23,274,130,213,0.247,0.6679999999999999,0.085,-0.988,0,0,4,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,1,2,5,17,6,1,13,0,17,17,3,1,3,26,35,14,0,3,5,0,2,1,0,0,10,0,0,0,9,8,5,1,2,4,2,0,4,11,0,4,10,3,14,6,16,25,4,18,0,3,0,0,6,7,3,2,12,95,23,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1235644349616402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09620651702405507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17690056872605134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09653929034240262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262289511182389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09231451957475087,0.0,0.0,0.14913286327318673,0.0,0.0,0.11735359212486135,0.0,0.0,0.13251248569400925,0.11834370970718347,0.0,0.5916057127149742,0.0,0.2265304975723924,0.13408446504531232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10458644751163143,0.0,0.0,0.2078266580431817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11692361156765398,0.0826001658937833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12377542166162067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1204022086574605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08166702635785515,0.056486922555351725,0.0,0.10209607977273316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10940404856830008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1164766991694487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08573202583604407,0.08917458322797507,0.111668158765503,0.0,0.1085031334303921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15669651305711416,0.08793551329493765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09874030042610198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09564346540234014,0.0,0.0,0.11786176301042298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1294290275500595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09666491876152464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10644892749610364,0.13222349097967054,0.0,0.23044176052356616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06741994332931367,0.13289013601193994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12576320846728478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06819667457211254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10433060083840902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08417397496521077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Hungjury21,2018/11/20,"I broke my sobriety after almost 2 years. Next month I would have been 2 years sober. Today I bought a six pack and drank the whole thing. I've felt like shit lately, and thought about doing it for a little while, a few days. It didn't feel that bad. I kind of fell right back into it. I just want to make sure I don't end up drinking every night again. Part of me thinks I can control this, when a larger part of me knows I can't. Oh, well. It did feel kind of good. I don't plan on doing it again....hopefully this was just a one time relapse and not the start of a larger trend. 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I am really after any advice and help. I think part of me is in denial but part of me knows there's a problem. I am a massive binge drinker, have been since about 14 years old I am now almost 33. I have been to AA in the past but felt like I didn't fit with the binge drinking so much... Can people learn to drink better or am I best to get support to stop drinking all together? I think I know the answer to that question myself but if anybody could offer advice that would be great. Thanks ",1.0551842751842777,3.038463396396395,2.6968058968058948,93.7008353808354,81.70270270270271,5.117444717444719,20.000819000819,6.1124844417494595,-0.030863063063062857,411,11,90,3,11,135,74,111,0.08900000000000001,0.685,0.22699999999999998,0.9635,0,0,4,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,4,8,0,0,6,0,15,3,0,0,1,23,24,7,0,5,5,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,1,9,3,0,0,1,2,1,0,4,1,14,6,12,17,5,9,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,4,7,63,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2985712139156629,0.0,0.0,0.1529776316041701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10388920826998584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16032326015544046,0.13511313091347213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12197484789119073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4489709166779718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14597880110264105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14668367933077495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07981630358007294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16843006347912254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1023988750085332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16791739076861129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07463597079061213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11230392743850456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16030698657746198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3308712223474108,0.1458367700686893,0.10591185922171983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2923615559348872,0.0,0.0,0.1711379718434146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09786872204630258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263733722276514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12772301493487026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1733622022922591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14065059103734898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2936675869124292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10852381086463332,0.0,0.0,0.09837922120167558 alcoholism,Youngalcoholicmom,2018/11/20,"I need help I’m using a throwaway out of shame. I’m a 27 year old SAHM of two, full time student, husband in the military. We’re 2000+ miles from any family and have been for 2 years. I worked until we moved to my husbands current duty station and this was never an issue until now. Alcoholism runs heavily in my family. My mom is 4 years sober, sister is 3 years sober, dad was an alcoholic that left us (me, mom and 4 sisters) 26 years ago. Etc etc, on and on. I know I’m depressed, I have horrible anxiety. I suffered a miscarriage 2 and a half years ago that really put everything into full swing. I’m failing my classes, grumpy with my kids, annoyed with my husband, my house is a mess, you get the idea. My day is based on when it’s acceptable to start drinking. I don’t drink and drive with my kids in the car and I don’t get wasted enough to vomit. But I drink a lot. Every day. I can’t get help right now. We’re waiting to move out of this horrible place that we’re stationed. We have orders, my getting help would fuck them up. I haven’t even opened up to my husband about feeling like I need help. I don’t want the judgement. He knows I have anxiety. He knows I’m depressed. But he agrees that I need to wait until our next station so that we can get out of here. He doesn’t know that I consider myself an alcoholic. He was drinking just as much as me up until about 2 months ago. He took up tobacco again and (while also unhealthy) has totally curbed his drinking from it. I’m so lost. I want to stop. But I physically feel like I can’t. I need help but need to wait another 5 months. I don’t feel like I have the willpower to just do it on my own. 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Diagnosed at 3. My whole life I've been addicted to food although I have escaped complications with damage control. I started drinking at 18 which continued for about 20 years. being diabetic has been the worst part of being sober. Anytime you overeat (replacing alcohol with a ""safer"" choice - FOOD), you can get as sick as you were when you got drunk. How do people deal with being Type 1 diabetic and sober?",5.420840336134454,7.703115588235295,5.804537815126048,75.07470588235296,69.58823529411765,9.092436974789916,32.14285714285714,9.606745405546679,3.3744621848739507,375,17,63,9,7,120,64,85,0.151,0.8490000000000001,0.0,-0.924,0,0,2,0,0,0,13.0,0,4,0,1,4,2,0,0,2,0,10,13,0,2,0,8,13,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,0,2,6,6,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,4,0,7,0,12,6,3,6,0,1,0,0,6,2,0,0,4,42,9,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266124619193419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2221532233890024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14534976875644362,0.21299064996094447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23314746003088255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4286162654138603,0.0,0.21098691362858255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20363658947351826,0.0,0.0,0.17365137775372808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5027221764692208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10860516288466183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662551807824679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14682698266393882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22510640924906933,0.0,0.14411309727783492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14713371482794235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2320829946777368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13386351990549533 alcoholism,Five_Decades,2018/11/20,"What can I do other than binge drink on the weekend I'm not sure if this is the right place to post this, but here goes. I don't think I'm an alcoholic. I only drink 1 day a week (usually saturday) and I really don't even enjoy it that much. However I want to quit because when I drink I end up overeating. I'm already obese, so this isn't good for my health. But I think I drink more just because its a habit. I've been binge drinking on saturday for years and years. But again, normally when I sober up I look back at the day I spent drunk and think 'that wasn't that fun'. It wasn't miserable, but it wasn't a great time either. I know smokers sometimes start carrying mints to keep their hands busy, because they're addicted to the physical actions around the habit more than the nicotine itself. Has anyone else faced this? What do you do to occupy your time, break your old ritual or create a new ritual instead of binge drinking on a weekend day? 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I had been planning to pop the question to my girlfriend of several years over the thanksgiving holiday. I was supposed to call her on friday we had been planning to meet up, but I snuck out with the boys instead and got shithammered. I tried to feed her some excuse but she saw right through my lies and on Saturday we got into a big fight. I was wasted and I chose the STUPIDEST hill to die on because I was going though alcoholic psychosis. I said a bunch of terrible shit and she left, blocked my number, haven't been able to get ahold of her at all. It's over for good now. I start AA tonight and I was so hungover this morning I had to leave work. I uncontrollably dry heaved for hours and learned a new definition of living hell. I hope this group therapy can help me conquer the sauce. Alcohol has ruined all of my relationships, don't let it ruin yours.",3.496236842105265,5.412719084210528,4.319144736842105,85.24713815789475,73.94736842105263,7.486842105263157,28.717105263157894,8.278499904357787,2.0200789473684213,766,32,151,13,16,246,118,190,0.23199999999999998,0.677,0.091,-0.9881,0,0,2,0,1,0,16.0,2,1,0,5,4,9,3,1,9,0,17,5,1,0,2,20,25,10,1,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,1,4,11,4,1,2,2,0,1,2,7,1,0,15,2,31,2,29,8,4,23,1,2,1,0,21,13,2,3,9,106,35,2,0.16996530005919128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3632824320297116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10360926935520327,0.0,0.14462795181450502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.173553574620205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1096135576597278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17639714740123147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08879985422186787,0.0,0.09659519687551534,0.14255882974060735,0.2718735541659679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1139241579149149,0.0,0.0,0.16881389331567848,0.16738158365581882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1799687117107182,0.36933559165213503,0.17380103481191772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.150082473860914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16415354591798878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19040003445255332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18247912452569165,0.0,0.1451494375759275,0.161675922018371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19201241036765296,0.17446693804376806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12030231418849405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19437013324046412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16699004434719208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11539528192487898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12373676272004508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10945208070686377 alcoholism,LongTrucPhuc,2019/02/03,"What changes did you notice after you stopped or cut down on drinking? Hi all, Posting from a dummy account. I'm a 25-year old guy who's been dependent on alcohol for the past four or five years. I get drunk several times per week, often to the point of passing out and waking up to ridiculous mounds of texts and electronic messages. I've broken bones, lost friends and struggled with ever-more-severe hangovers. I've tried to stop several times before; I'm often successful for a few days or weeks. It's a strange feeling: I used to smoke, and I never psychological nicotine urges the same as I do for booze. Staying away from drinks doesn't seem to impact my body. I've never had withdrawal symptoms, just intense cravings. But whenever I manage to go four or five or six days without drinking at all, it's as if my mind goes into over-drive. I start thinking faster and better; I'll get organized and clean my room and read through school assignments and start going to the gym. For a few days or weeks, I'll feel like me on super-powers. Does anyone else feel the same way? But the difficult part is that any return to sobriety seems to invite a wave of confusion. I've never been in touch with my emotions, though I know I have them. Being alcohol-free makes me think about a lot of things I'd rather not think about, from a troubled past (I'm a graduate student and former juvenile delinquent, in the legal sense) to friends who died from addiction. Sometimes it gets so intense that I can't fall asleep for hours, a problem I've always had and which drinking always seemed to alleviate. I drank with friends last night after staying away for a week. I felt under control until my friend suggested we do shots. On the way home, I convinced my driver to stop at a liquor store so I got more booze to have by myself. I don't know if I want to abandon drinking entirely, but I know that I need to take a long break. I don't like the person I am when I drink, the choices I make when I do or the way I feel the morning after. What kinds of struggles did you all have when you stopped? 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What now? I’ve recently come to the realization (or acceptance) that I’m an alcoholic. I’m a 24 year old female living in Toronto. I drink heavily to the point of blackout every weekend and sometimes throughout the week. It’s driving me into debt. I don’t like myself when I drink. I don’t like myself when I’m hungover. But I fear that I’ll lose my social life if I stop. What are the next steps when you’ve come to accept that you’re an alcoholic? Going to meetings? Seeing a therapist? How do you stop drinking? 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And I hate that feeling: a stack of checks to write and a list of people and places I owe. It’s just always on my mind, lingering in the back row like somebody murmuring behind you at the movies. When I stopped drinking my conscious woke up and I start hearing the voices of remorse. And then there was that one time when I was in high school that I stole a whole bunch of books from the public library. It was way back when shoplifting was easy. Go in with a nearly empty backpack, load it up with Hobbit adventures, and walk out. Just be careful and it was really that easy. I didn’t feel any guilt at the time because for whatever reason in my head, the world owed me. And then some time later when writing my 8th Step list my sponsor and I came up with a dollar amount that I owed them based on how many books I stole. That particular public library was in a different state so I wrote them a check and stuffed it in an envelope along with a letter saying, “I stole some books from you guys several years ago and here’s a check that I hope is compensation.” Or something like that. It was short and sweet because the best amends are. If I get wordy I tend to want to justify, and my goal was to “pay the money back.” In the days after mailing the letter I was kind of nervous because I didn’t know if I’d have charges pressed against me or I’d go to jail or whatever. When I put myself out into the unknown I never know what’s going to happen. My mind goes to all kinds of silly places and because I’m me, I assumed jail was in my future for most of my amends. 💰 There's more to the story ... 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When I was in rehab, other people there downplayed my addiction all the time because it wasn’t heroin or crack. “You never robbed someone or sucked dick for beer”. No, I didn’t, but I almost died more times than I can count, my life was in total ruin, and I did ALOT of shameful things that I won’t go into detail about here, but they did include stealing and sexual misconduct. I’m tired of people underestimating how powerful alcohol is. In my mind, it’s a hard drug. Other people just don’t see that because it’s so ingrained in our culture. 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My cycle of abuse. I’m sure many of you have been in this position. A lot is required of me right now. I own my own company, am constantly stressed about performance, money, I travel frequently and every night when I lay down, my heart is pounding, my mind is racing. Whiskey shuts this all the fuck up. The downside? Now, I lay here at 7:45 AM, having got about 90 min of drunk sleep last night. Here’s how it goes: 10 PM: I don’t want to drink anything tonight. Midnight: fuck this, I can’t sleep. I’m gonna watch a documentary and pour some whiskey. Pour a finger whiskey. Try to sleep, pour another finger. Try to sleep. Finally fall asleep, wake up 45 min later, heart pounding, more whiskey, fall asleep, wake up another 30 min later. More whiskey, fall asleep for 30 min. Wake up, Now it’s 5, and I’m hammered and I can’t sleep, but it’s too early to continue drinking. So I sit here and hit my head Repeatedly in anger and call myself a piece of shit. Fuck you you piece of shit. I say this over and over. It activates my nervous system and wakes me up more. I’m so angry at myself. I am hopeless. Shattered. It’s been weeks since I’ve slept a full night. I exercise, I eat well, I go to therapy, I do breathing exercises and meditation, but every once in a while something deep down is yelling out and I crush it with whiskey. This cycle occurs every few months. Why do I drink? Because sometimes it’s effective. Sometimes if I drink enough, it’s all fine and I can deal with the hangover. Without alcohol I will get absolute zero sleep. None. This happens often. I know this is not sustainable, it’s not always like this. I’ll go weeks without drinking no problem. It’s just that sometimes when I’m in my hole, and not sleeping well (for a week now - maybe 1-3 hours a night) my anxiety worsens and I’m helpless. I feel like hell. I’m making myself actually sick. And I just want some relief. I have so much to do this week. So many people to perform in front of. And I look like shit, feel like shit and tonight will be no different than last night. I’ll do it all over again until the cycle ends. I just want a little support. I just want to hear that I’m not alone. I know I can beat this, but i just need some company right now. 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My brother is an alcoholic, and barely survived an alcohol related incident a couple weeks ago. We are seeking professional help and he seems to be open to it. But it won’t start until next week. He is still drinking and I don’t know what to do. He is trying to hide it, I’m not sure how I should confront him. 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I have a life long friend that is deep in the middle of alcohol abuse. He had a horrible 2018 and has since kind of gone into a tailspin. He gets very angry when he’s drunk(which is all the time) but he will sometimes open up with me and be vulnerable. I know he’s going through a lot of pain and I want to help in some way. He’s lost a lot of weight and looked pretty rough the last time I saw him. He’s very against AA or the like. He doesn’t like it when people close to him suggest quitting drinking. He shuts the conversation down or leaves the room. I’m very worried about my friend’s health. I want to help him overcome this but I’m not sure what to do. I welcome any advice. Or a point in the right direction if this is the wrong subreddit for this post. Thanks in advance. Peace and love. Edit: on mobile, so, formatting. 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I’ve been drinking heavily for about a year now but the last couple of months i feel like I’ve lost control. I went from eating healthy and going to the gym 6 days a week to eating garbage and drinking all day long. I will start my morning with a couple of tall boys before work. I work as a line cook in a what is basically a brew pub. Drinks are easy to come by and I’m often fed shots or beers throughout the day and have no desire to resist. The moment I get a few beers in my system I feel content. I like how it makes me feel. I love it. I love being completely numb. Lately it has gotten to about 20 drinks a day that are spaced out to the point where I am able to function but I have this constant haze over me. As my shift comes to an end, I will often have 3-5 shots all for free and it feels like water every time I down them but with the taste comes an instant wave of relief that washes over me. I have recently been mixing Xanax with my alcohol at the end of the night. Nothing major but what is considered to be light doses. Usually .25mg but can be up to 2mg. I know what I am doing is dangerous. I don’t mind. The feeling of complete numbness is what I look forward to at the end of my day. I didn’t have a troubled childhood, I have a support system and I have people who love me. I still have aspirations and I am earning money. I have found away to balance this with my life but as of recently I feel like I’m wasting away. I feel nothing. I want to be in the gym again. I want to be eating right. I want to feel okay again but it feels so far away that i will never reach it. I am drunk and want to give up. Maybe someone will see this. Maybe not. I can’t fix it. 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Scared I'm too far in. I'll just keep it brief and say that in the past 2 weeks, I've gone from using alcohol occasionally to deal with problems or to just have fun, to being drunk the past 15 days every single night for 4+ hours. I'm scared to stop now, I don't know what physical dependency I've developed already. I tried to not drink last week and I just felt anxious and terrible.",2.7371428571428567,4.413014619047623,4.542380952380952,83.86928571428571,75.42857142857143,8.609523809523811,25.095238095238088,9.23628265651192,1.986638095238096,324,11,69,8,7,110,63,84,0.21,0.7509999999999999,0.038,-0.9169,0,0,3,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,2,3,0,3,4,0,2,0,16,10,4,0,1,5,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,4,4,2,2,2,0,2,2,4,0,0,2,2,3,1,10,7,1,15,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,2,10,33,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3925849021102996,0.0,0.0,0.2026896564275511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20750018905946585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2028543332253221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11845502014335345,0.1893606043988563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17993133145889356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1547539005653796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1763565661706746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18088263246710548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1632585591107576,0.0,0.0,0.10094284030574696,0.14971943779507013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17236631248164214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35067666843478523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17575193204938516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1460655351234066,0.3677809385668128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15356031725987454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1247031000242916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15863601291081075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29466561426776816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Thisisnotfun666,2019/02/03,"Will there ever be the same feeling after alcohol and nicotine. The feeling of comfort and calm. I don't want to die one day out of this. Too much money is already spent on this alcohol shit. Yet, I can't think of another way to enjoy life like this. Drinking, and calm after a few cigs. I tell myself I don't smoke or drink that much, but yet do it every weekend, and wait for it. Yeah, do physical excercise and so on. But what's the point, if life will be just this shit without the lovely comfort of letting go of stuff, and sad comfort of giving up.",2.770786627335301,4.217341221238943,4.239410029498527,87.03093411996069,74.84070796460179,6.792133726647003,26.714847590953788,7.3871296695380915,1.370395083579154,430,16,88,5,9,143,73,113,0.128,0.672,0.2,0.5113,0,0,5,0,0,1,16.0,0,0,0,0,7,11,2,0,5,1,11,9,2,0,1,20,20,11,1,2,6,0,2,1,0,2,4,0,0,0,9,7,4,1,3,3,2,1,4,3,0,1,1,2,5,8,16,14,4,14,0,1,0,1,3,5,2,2,8,68,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3765072004042437,0.0,0.0,0.1943888180167313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18471140156216445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11360387974235404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18281862890055894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34512504942720634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1593401473694848,0.14841619619171587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1781361346659222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16898166302440468,0.10011160447506186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18012800860968625,0.2488436374825913,0.08605928185310459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15898463461974166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25898491685075065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193655874009306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16652118190572798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3616363061596513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2016526280939392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15396517117724154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11287149866882824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1038993907429613,0.13982176601586913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1698048584700402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Sorta__Rican,2019/02/04,"Heartbroken from my partner’s alcoholism TL;DR: my boyfriend is a stubborn alcoholic and I couldn’t handle him when he drank anymore, so I left. It was the hardest decisions I’ve ever had to make, and just need to vent. A few weeks ago I made the decision to start moving of the house I shared with my boyfriend for three years. We began dating 3.5 years ago. When the relationship began I noticed he enjoyed drinking quite a bit, but didn’t fully realize how bad it was until about a year and a half in. He seemed to function well, and it was more of an inconvenience than a potentially serious problem at the time. However, throughout the years I learned more and more about what it was really doing to him. It was affecting his finances, his work, and he only ever went to bars. It began to get worse around October 2017. He began to show extreme amounts of anger when he drank. Anger he had never shown before. He would be within an inch or so of my face screaming at me, would break mirrors, throw glassware, threw my art in the trash, etc. if I ever had anything to say about his drinking. If I ever got upset, or frustrated or sad about anything, a tantrum would no doubt ensue. It was terrible. I’m no doctor, but I worry if maybe alcohol has taken its toll on his physical and mental health as well? Where could all of this insane and sudden rage be coming from? I could never figure it out. His anger, constant broken promises, and neglect began to be too overwhelming, and now, within a little over a year, I feel I have no other choice. He was not the same person he was when I had first met him, and it breaks my heart knowing things have only gotten worse. I tried my best to get him to make better decisions, to help steer him onto the right path, help him have hobbies that didn’t involve drinking. I myself chose not to drink for 3 years because I wanted to help lead by example. How an you ask someone to curb their drinking when you, too, indulge in it? But when he has friends who are also heavy drinkers, and parents who enabled his drinking, it made things significantly more difficult to do. His mother claimed it was ‘my job to to get him to stop’ yet in the same breath would gift him wine almost every time we saw them. I felt like I was in an episode of the Twilight Zone. Nothing made sense, and it felt like everyone rejected reality. I don’t know if he’ll ever get the help that he needs, or will ever choose to accept that help when it’s offered to him again, but I’ll always hold out hope. He was everything I could have ever asked for when he was sober, and there was no doubt in my mind he was the person I could have spent the rest of my life with, if only he just didn’t drink. I’m not sure if this is the best place to post this, but I just had to vent. I’m still wondering if I made the right decision or not, but hindsight, I’m sure, will let me know eventually. Also I’m sorry if the format is strange. I’m on mobile. 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He is a great guy. The type who would gladly give you the shirt off his back. But alcoholism sunk in its claws and his life has slowly spiraled out of control since. One of my best friends from college is also fully an alcoholic. He has been able to maintain his professional life but his personal life is in shambles. His girlfriend even died of alcohol poisoning a few years back. The other brother one of groomsman in his wedding is also suffering from alcoholism. He had so much potential (had a full ride)but now his personal and professional life are a wreck. It seems so strange. In college all of us were hard boozing. All 3 of us brothers and all our friends had atrocious drinking habits. Yet the lot of us are doing well to very well. In our early to late 30s virtually all of all three groups are middle to upper middle class. Most have a spouse. Many have kids. Basically life is going pretty well for everyone except the 3 unlucky guys who turned into alcoholics. Looking back there wasn’t any obvious sign that these 3 were destined for alcoholism. The one guy I would have predicted would end up an alcoholic went to rehab in his mid 20s and is doing well now. I guess it kind of blows my mind that the same decision that just leaves me and almost everyone else in the groups with great memories has left a few of the people in the groups lives in shambles.",4.7936855923859545,6.727229256317695,5.039588119461765,81.35703232687891,70.51624548736463,8.50206760748277,30.64145060715457,9.095868883498916,2.733412996389892,1172,50,213,24,22,369,153,277,0.075,0.8,0.125,0.91,0,0,8,0,0,0,22.0,5,1,0,3,17,15,1,0,19,0,28,17,1,1,6,33,36,11,1,3,4,4,1,0,4,3,14,0,0,6,10,9,9,1,3,1,0,2,1,2,4,6,9,2,21,13,36,24,14,33,0,1,1,0,38,20,0,5,11,158,31,6,0.0750837304660439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5616917141336495,0.07518551023934812,0.0,0.0,0.1200888642533813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05105951144773682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17320426225889554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15759148565212788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0842127882168581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07792505803149581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0735534711819942,0.0,0.0,0.06272282227052048,0.0,0.0665018991610067,0.0,0.0,0.049592095841294884,0.0,0.0,0.14349144420577095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08232543498725138,0.1740285117144573,0.0,0.0,0.07202715596668137,0.04267181432910035,0.0,0.0,0.16556015581533448,0.08271319412296899,0.2230340934260139,0.0,0.0,0.06726027454992517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07818815108464468,0.0,0.0,0.08469771838279815,0.07950282932870915,0.08157869284338704,0.0,0.26516929658939353,0.0,0.0,0.06630030959922728,0.0,0.06305142327074283,0.0,0.0,0.06383350262262008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07612311783507565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07581316380515182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055195181137295914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.254393394730045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052053604781824483,0.13112043465691464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07638714697232192,0.0809529606823214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06835340826858549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062110037735373276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0816695379110924,0.0,0.0,0.2709494488042671,0.0,0.0,0.06195194103886518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27003716353000523,0.06960337037372898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16001198359682692,0.0,0.0,0.04835146070333097 alcoholism,AnonymousAuditor,2019/02/04,"Substitute Drinks for Beer Does anyone have any tips on what to drink in place of beer? The non alcoholic drinks I looked up were pretty expensive. If there's a way I can make seltzer water bitter, I think that may help me.",3.0170454545454533,5.162480250000005,3.1818181818181834,91.8427272727273,76.04545454545455,7.127272727272729,20.090909090909093,8.07648339933343,0.7128363636363628,177,4,37,3,4,54,40,44,0.063,0.805,0.132,0.4767,0,0,6,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,0,4,7,0,1,0,4,7,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,7,0,1,5,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,4,0,6,5,0,5,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,2,0,20,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26500155099492073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1686262155975393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17338444866840247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2169977888973104,0.0,0.0,0.7287404327503865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16620720343984915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2082300161658763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1655200476339652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25907297212969754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2522718128123925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1588873847737626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19682484062600453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,drkjfoster,2019/02/04,"Nutrition and Addiction Recovery Check out my latest video on Nutrition in Early Recovery. Let me know what you think and what other video topics on addiction recovery you would like to see. My channel is dedicated to providing people with information on addiction recovery. Thanks! [https://youtu.be/\_VV\_W-K\_EY8](https://youtu.be/_VV_W-K_EY8) Link to my channel: [https://youtube/drkjfoster](https://youtube/drkjfoster)",15.45722222222222,20.767525833333334,10.255333333333333,40.773000000000025,49.92592592592593,16.171851851851848,44.13333333333334,13.348371206891418,9.110204444444443,361,18,31,16,5,99,37,54,0.0,0.8490000000000001,0.151,0.8268,0,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,9,7,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,4,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,2,9,5,0,7,0,0,1,0,3,5,0,0,3,23,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8399399144208998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1411457213964454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2626236012437923,0.0,0.12547298277021815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17805190642686933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20465832975350207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23645232987403006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16456474307903698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18244294415326745,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,mtdunca,2019/02/04,"Don't know if this is appropriate, I want to know if Im an alcoholic *Trigger Warning* I drink daily, normally 2-3 Rum and Cokes a night. I go on military deployments and don't seem to have any problem not drinking while gone for months. Do I have a problem?",-0.16617924528301842,2.1431896226415112,2.5786556603773607,88.37477594339623,96.16981132075472,6.423584905660378,25.49292452830189,7.645422480735847,1.9140207547169816,202,10,42,5,8,70,39,53,0.11599999999999999,0.857,0.027999999999999997,-0.6249,0,0,3,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,6,4,0,1,0,13,12,5,0,6,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,4,0,3,3,0,2,3,2,0,0,1,0,4,0,4,11,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,3,24,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2718190885740325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17296436213797844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4983255368218651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1445509942698489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2747378982038421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27956440201842797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20301697343177288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2386869882554135,0.2492055962645167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4867505574258389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315475280885545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15002017313255445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,VoodooMamaJuju69,2019/02/04,Resources? I posted something similar on r/stopdrinking but I didn't get much help. I am drinking about 1 liter of vodka daily. I know that I need treatment. Wondering what the gateway is. ,1.6723809523809552,4.326452285714286,3.2049999999999983,82.4741666666667,97.57142857142858,5.761904761904763,28.690476190476193,7.1686216300943375,2.481190476190477,150,8,24,3,6,49,31,35,0.1,0.9,0.0,-0.43799999999999994,0,0,4,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,4,7,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,5,0,3,6,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,16,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4081722484830309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2176898250265728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2792812017555113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2289877241600533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3062960976307172,0.3089511931286033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3990490861119703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.320768424682384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4518545049225396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,MangoCulture,2019/02/04,"Can I Help My Dad? Hi👋 This is my first time doing this so I really don't know how to introduce the situation. Anyways, my father had a beer issue. To be quite honest I am very concerned not only for him but for the well-being of my family. And I have noticed patterns. Whenever my dad is in a stressful situation he will start drinking excessively. After the stressful situation is done, he will still countiue to drink and it will progressively worse. It will stop until my mother will threaten to leave him after he has done something violent like throwing things or breaking my brother's Xbox for an example. He will go sober until the next stressful situation or family party ( my father side of the family are all alcoholics) So we are always caught in a needless cycle. And with every cycle his violent behavior is getting worse, so worse that he shoved my mother and somewhat slapped me from the last cycle. Right now, I see my father going back to his abusive drinking. Is there anyway I could stop this or at least help him drink less? I understand this is how he copes but I just want this to stop. 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I love my wife and daughter, but I’m starting to question if I can survive staying with my wife. She’s going through a tough time deciding what she wants to do out of college and I fear the stress has turned her to drinking, nearly daily. It all started around Christmas. A few days in a row she got very drunk and that resulted in her berating me, at one point hitting and biting me, and throwing things, breaking a few appliances. More than once she has said she will get better, and in a way she has. She hasn’t drank to that point since, but I’m scarred from it. She drinks until she’s goofy and acting funny but it causes my anxiety to go haywire. I’ll start acting distant and irritated with her and when she notices she knows why I’m acting like that. She denies her drinking problem, but it’s gotten to the point that she hides her alcohol throughout the house, denies drinking when I can clearly smell it on her, and has been running errands after drinking. I’m worried about my wife, but mostly I’m worried about my daughter. My wife stays home with her 5 days out of the week and I’m afraid of what might happen if she drinks too much around her. I also don’t want my daughter to grow up thinking that this is her mom. Last of all, I love my wife and want to help her all I can, but I’m hurting. I find myself thinking about leaving and sharing custody of our daughter but then I go back to worrying about what might happen if I’m not there. I’ve discussed it with her but she just says “I know I’m getting better it’s not a problem” or “I think you’re just projecting your insecurities (I’ve dealt with alcoholism before) on me.” If I stay what can I do? How do I survive this?",3.6132139577594096,4.869975757575759,4.41146005509642,87.38062442607901,72.4159779614325,6.58989898989899,28.595959595959602,6.775458762138228,1.3480626262626263,1412,55,286,11,27,454,167,363,0.146,0.758,0.096,-0.9520000000000001,0,0,9,0,0,0,34.0,1,1,0,4,15,16,0,5,11,0,20,13,0,3,4,66,56,34,0,10,17,13,0,1,0,4,2,2,1,0,19,24,11,0,8,8,0,9,4,10,0,1,5,3,56,6,42,46,8,46,0,1,0,2,49,16,0,10,17,197,75,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17024336605234144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06369611823098592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06093207217320646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14181086708585475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061245973890776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06777632819894641,0.0,0.0,0.14088799753877446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08182254456443333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10273538919403764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5461870987097893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08962845312829802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07279870502950027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08322773002384874,0.0,0.13580088116590833,0.0,0.06370342317852916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14086855680681226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05338775125940407,0.0,0.07989549695530912,0.0,0.0,0.09190546659816437,0.08526702859428707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08754717168265486,0.06492542356235502,0.0,0.08433790506894177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03891299238630596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14377456430690538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2534883562207779,0.0,0.09328517886870978,0.0,0.0,0.05855195326160965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09068211272171,0.08357933154860313,0.08482470644730365,0.05397293695347968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2258851344373321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22864302988822002,0.0,0.0,0.08922628760378208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07576543963395463,0.0633409186903952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06588734653324761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16913015141062926,0.25468907465888146,0.0,0.0,0.09123886606298556,0.08326752878421212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052915955688407366,0.15310961259802594,0.0,0.0,0.046444586158645385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08663638506362935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06571963496506324,0.1409389939306179,0.06322250429305773,0.06389046772197511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07187178363461931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2426654839474724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0512920223993795 alcoholism,Redditburner28,2019/02/04,"Any advice for my dad..end of the road possibly My dad is 60yrs old, he’s been drinking since at least the mid to late 90s.. So fast forward to the few years.. He missed 24 weeks of work the past year, yet somehow kept his job.. What he would usually do is check in at the the hospital, Get placed in detox for a few days Be released and eventually start drinking again after a few days-couple of weeks This past December, his insurance finally approved for him to go to one of In patient treatment facilities.. The ones where you don’t leave and have group, and all sorts of therapy sessions all day long So the insurance ended up only covering him for 3 weeks in there.. The facility suggested he do the program where go goes somewhere for after that and they described it as he’d be there for 6 hours a day and it would help him adjust Well the insurance denied that, so after 3 weeks of in patient he came back home .. He was approved for some shot that was suppose to make him pretty sick if he did drink.. Well it’s about 2 weeks after he came back from the inpatient program and yesterday I had a feeling he started drinking again He was sleeping all day When he drinks he snores a lot Then when he got up he was yelling & complaining which is another thing he does when drinking So today yup sure enough he’s drinking again.. My question is, is there any hope for him? I felt like this in patient program was it, this was what he needed but it seems to not matter, all that time there and 2 weeks later it’s all gone- drinking again .. I know there’s nothing I can do but I live at home currently and I have to deal with his constant yelling, complaining, and general negative attitude when he drinks ( so does my mom).. Any tips on anything I can do possibly ? My mom told me that his work made him sign some agreement that if he were to miss two more days of work he would be fired so maybe that’ll keep him going to work? I thought this shot was suppose to keep him from drinking, maybe my parents lied and he didn’t get it.. But yeah impatient seemed like the last chance and now I just don’t know ... 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I even stopped going to meetings because I know I want to drink and I'm just wasting my time.",-1.6318750000000009,0.2227862291666689,1.0508333333333333,101.7775,92.95833333333334,3.2,18.416666666666664,3.1291,-0.979483333333334,161,5,41,0,6,55,33,48,0.133,0.809,0.057999999999999996,-0.6486,0,0,2,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,12,12,3,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,2,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,6,12,2,8,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,25,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2134604337536095,0.0,0.16922489567946333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17903169258369764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5438927076444644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1833549039320428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4733064584701289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15256396505840955,0.0,0.3131495403428725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23208947564614926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1778775117273135,0.0,0.0,0.1618731955281137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3274762063639691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,_____dnomyar,2019/07/17,"Remember when you were young? When summer meant sunshine and long bike rides? Staying out until sun down and your mom forcing you to stop playing with the neighbors and come take a bath? When you looked at the stars at night and dreamt of being an astronaut and not caring how foolish or ridiculous that dream really was? Having hopes? Dreams? Ambitions? Remember wishing on a star, and Walt Disney movies being real and full of magic? Long walks through the woods, fishing with your dad, camping in the back yard and waking up with the sun? Remember being happy? No debt, no bills, no bullshit pointless office job. Not sinking into a dark glass every night. Sinking into a dark barstool every night. Just to not be alone. Knowing No one wants you around anyway. I can’t see a light at the end of this tunnel...",3.2464469009080155,6.1581260805369125,3.2711883142518765,87.22070272404264,80.14093959731544,5.1166206079747365,23.52980655349388,6.522977012572876,0.8925393604421639,642,22,109,6,17,195,103,149,0.138,0.732,0.129,-0.3549,2,1,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,6,0,0,8,6,1,0,12,0,8,1,1,1,0,32,18,14,0,3,5,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,2,16,0,1,5,6,2,3,8,1,0,1,3,4,7,5,21,11,1,30,0,0,3,0,9,12,0,2,14,75,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1582670393572608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13603498609468134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11750291607120407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15580191309699296,0.0,0.0,0.13163391814429606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1353459835303237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25750122743900944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16267110559654832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1517766933794408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15164222824371407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08398142206738242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27046743979516524,0.1283235065949693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17897144656145467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4302108399627126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.103549296028359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1739333932624097,0.0978952140185622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5193182702941143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12177129707218486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16287714964614358,0.0,0.12775758813147306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11489552866702794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09013241591206853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17572613974436674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,inamo1337,2019/07/17,"A whole lot of symptoms after a month long binge So I’ve recently moved to the states after living in a dry country (alcohol is illegal over there) and have hit the liquor and beer fairly heavy. It wasn’t very consistent but I drank more than my fair share for some time. Then for just about the last month and a half prior to this week I just went really hard. I was sober about 3-4 days, none of which were in a row. Then for about the last week of that month, I was on a cruise and drank extremely heavily. I had a drink package and was with my family who are strong drinkers as well. I never got too sick or anything but I’ve stopped any drinking or nicotine since I’ve gotten back this week and feel like shit. What I’m wondering is if these are symptoms of minor withdrawal: extremely stiff left shoulder and neck, restless sleep, lack of appetite, runny inconsistent bowel movements, dry mouth and fatigue. I’m a 20 year old male and can’t say for sure whether these are the symptoms, as it doesn’t feel drastic or too intense for what I’ve been drinking. All replies appreciated and thank you very much for reading",6.080497737556559,6.191017049773759,5.830045248868783,83.54289592760182,66.28506787330318,9.15294117647059,31.47963800904977,8.841846274778883,2.305499547511312,892,32,181,13,13,277,139,221,0.085,0.772,0.14400000000000002,0.9275,1,0,6,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,0,1,11,9,1,1,13,0,15,20,6,0,3,31,27,22,0,2,9,0,3,1,0,0,7,1,0,1,11,11,8,2,3,7,0,4,5,3,1,1,12,4,9,6,26,14,8,32,0,1,0,0,5,5,1,7,23,111,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13515169611983102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08599994589734515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10406920458550678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09724311077477568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0815589025468178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3716601097146112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1192191279334434,0.0,0.12788812917511816,0.09034600064160762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10114491848769644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1132870215230102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20617029184098512,0.0,0.0,0.13740364864416252,0.0,0.0,0.061783986584127926,0.0,0.11167014483377924,0.11191677657188256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10751528199799673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3028273891030919,0.13441135764662232,0.09296568762629652,0.0,0.09753693429489936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13270283220178444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1264983542509825,0.0,0.08101616078496927,0.0,0.12486807287379245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1005693530773263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1298136134010479,0.1046124362233968,0.0,0.12655546214418825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1057296764231674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1191909470720028,0.3943339638937069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1164311810732724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07374225193590993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2086923053712092,0.0,0.0,0.3043256936963797,0.0,0.11370644173526627,0.11723351666888872,0.0,0.14119268625844586,0.0,0.0,0.13714495575392202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08143875424269036 alcoholism,M1ssgn0mer,2019/07/17,"Friend on day 4 or 5 of bender. How can I help him? His spouse is out of town until tomorrow, so he’s completely unsupervised. He’s missed work all week. I’m worried he’s drinking so much, he won’t be able to come down without medical assistance. I’m worried he is going to drink himself to death. Do I drive him to a clinic somewhere? Call his wife? He’s also my boss, so that adds an extra layer of complications. I’m not worried about him firing me for intervening, but he also might not be super happy with me about it.",1.3596464646464668,3.507333314814815,3.863164983164985,84.8528787878788,81.5925925925926,6.519865319865321,22.781144781144786,7.686295010490155,1.189007407407408,410,14,83,7,11,143,75,108,0.179,0.784,0.036000000000000004,-0.9258,0,0,2,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,2,8,4,0,0,2,0,8,4,0,2,1,13,14,9,1,0,5,2,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,2,0,3,4,1,0,0,0,1,11,3,16,10,3,11,0,1,0,0,18,4,0,2,4,52,13,2,0.19151492326023264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3063088298775441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19555814930078244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16497314849847053,0.2007997533144591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12351128186855236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3752234286045208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479639546375479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10884234435192867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2038711970160452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12836841610001135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19293113679287768,0.0,0.2031670687267424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14078550458576894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1536217194372684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18461355179689032,0.0,0.13942514506517678,0.5834781027791032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,jumpinoutofmyflesh,2019/07/17,"Pretty certain I’m not the first There are people who are physically addicted to alcohol and other substances. What led them there? There are people who are addicted to avoiding life’s problems with intoxication of some form or the other. How did they reach that form of comfort? Choice or prescription? There are people who are going through traumatic moments In their life and then become addicted to a substance...so on and so on. I am certain there are as many substance abuse/addiction stories as there are people reading this sub and more. My experience with recovery programs is that they are based on curing the substance addiction instead of how we got there to begin with. Am I wrong? Why aren’t we dealing with the path that led us there? I literally had an aa sponsor tell me that I wasnt an alcoholic. I was simply someone going through the divorce of a 20yr marriage. What qualifications did he have to write me off? Did he enable me to actually become/continue to be an alcoholic? Did he provide me with an excuse to drink everyday until I got over it? I also went to therapy and they agreed that she was f’d up. Further encouragement in my opinion. What about my “pain management provider” after my two back surgeries? Copious co-pay drugs. Stupid quantities. Am I am just looking for excuses? I honestly feel cheated by genuinely looking for proper assistance. I went to what I feel were the trusted sources of healing. At what point do we finally make a decision about whether it is us or the hand that the world has dealt? The options available to us or ourselves alone? I can’t be the first to ask these questions.",4.002935982339956,6.726436754966887,4.8638145695364265,78.12130684326712,75.49006622516556,8.0001766004415,32.252097130242824,8.841846274778883,3.2256632229580573,1308,67,220,30,30,423,167,302,0.077,0.835,0.08800000000000001,-0.3313,1,2,5,0,2,0,32.0,6,0,5,3,17,12,2,1,17,0,31,15,1,5,2,37,45,18,0,1,7,0,3,0,0,0,13,0,0,0,20,13,4,1,4,2,0,6,4,6,1,3,13,5,32,6,42,30,4,28,0,0,2,0,28,12,0,8,10,176,52,3,0.0,0.0,0.09707459506837314,0.5422196751978452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3189299854295207,0.0,0.10302752686902916,0.0,0.07955122336682664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09299698489568768,0.0,0.0,0.07649119419860981,0.0,0.0,0.10986384379038976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10255577749291486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09744897916693412,0.11536101655923407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09730698548427004,0.0,0.0,0.10059649106750228,0.0,0.0,0.1089715094855596,0.0,0.16922911223573486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11306943584709385,0.0,0.15912069329340714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14052621497692744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1670702071300825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06640125461153233,0.10085343362895298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10584987955869814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2758575804204653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09403733060417682,0.0,0.0,0.10120323860051324,0.0,0.0951854589523876,0.0,0.0,0.1114363093465282,0.0,0.09950329749556244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08428601207569385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08694673877416738,0.0,0.11375990743797787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09717396660313267,0.0,0.35897350277987844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18443119761717866,0.0897619583811385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10876180303354104,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,DazzlingWizard,2019/07/17,I think my liver is messed up So i have been paranoid my liver sis messed up and have read alcohol tolerance cannot.build with a messed up liver. Well been drinking eeveryday for weeks to test that out and nope no tolerance and now i cannot stop drinking. Should i feel worried?,3.7764150943396224,6.258634188679245,3.9062641509433966,85.9363773584906,75.0377358490566,7.258867924528303,27.581132075471697,8.238735603445708,2.030527547169812,224,9,41,4,5,69,37,53,0.198,0.628,0.174,-0.3373,0,0,3,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,1,0,7,6,3,0,0,9,9,4,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,5,3,1,2,3,0,0,3,3,1,0,2,1,6,1,7,6,0,7,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,3,30,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3408669891574449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6249109517945899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.161273749395826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31904233823801303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.266661518143299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20437414143274574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2558472834889186,0.0,0.28677977084165884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32391532507715226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Gia_anna,2019/07/17,"Alcohol seems to be the only thing that makes me feel satisfaction I started drinking a few months back, now i drink a few glasses nearly every night, so i guess you could call me an alcoholic- not a path i ever wanted to go down. Its been two nights since my last drink- im determined to quit, but the problem is, whenever im sober, life just doesn't feel the same... when im sober, i dont get a rush of endorphins and that happy buzz that keeps me going once the day is over. No amount of healthy eating and exercise seems to replace the feeling alcohol gives. How do you cope in such a situation??",5.546824085005902,5.375219644628104,6.267131050767414,80.91809917355373,67.4297520661157,9.889492325855961,30.508854781582052,9.606745405546679,2.5210391971664694,471,16,98,9,7,155,87,121,0.053,0.8270000000000001,0.12,0.7912,0,0,6,0,0,0,16.0,0,2,0,1,8,2,0,0,11,0,8,9,0,2,1,19,22,6,0,3,3,0,3,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,5,2,7,1,5,4,0,3,4,1,0,1,1,3,11,1,10,19,4,17,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,3,10,62,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4104598947023473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0984434482512978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13072800606003265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10221767559549846,0.0,0.0,0.0825656392348049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15004453820362398,0.3762477617823449,0.0,0.13100170383286255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1158060900135321,0.10786672197427292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19420010825597334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06688786391320396,0.122813402660303,0.14551930157758108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1410341513392957,0.0,0.0,0.13628516722147682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4148674376000624,0.0,0.0,0.11379464776773518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104357595587469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09042795917208553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08545779080398294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10218846411749696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24028588666601064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13634262089567795,0.0,0.09736890591763486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1225027913451729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13617052036855445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.233098601221382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10590373826740536,0.14390564787877605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0906168697054223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08505422992815266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12506198200841648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07551255848176026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Mercanix98,2019/07/17,"Sick and Tired My first post here. Just joined this community. After reading some posts I feel comfort in knowing that I’m not alone. 25(m) and I’m an alcoholic. I have nobody to blame but myself for continuing this self destruction. I have lied and stolen because of my drinking. I have caused serious harm to my body and health over the years and I hate myself for it. I’m so afraid of losing everything and I want out of this nightmare. I have not been able to hold down a steady job and secure income for the past year and I am terrified that I have dug myself into a hole in which there is no escape. I have financial obligations that I honestly don’t know if I can meet. Rent, car, insurance, fucking groceries. All seem like normal bills to everyone else but for the life of me they are fucking strangling me. I have had to borrow money that I know I can’t pay back until I get sober and stay sober. I have lied to my family, friends and Gf over the kind of shit that is insane to lie about. I have to make a change and get out of this fucking nightmare. I have started to go to AA and it helps, it really does but I’m still scared to death that the worst is yet to come. I have had thoughts about ending it all as a last effort to rid myself of this agony. I never dwell on those thoughts for more than a fleeting moment and they pass because I have people that love me and I love them and would never do that to them by making my pain their anguish. I need help, I want help, I have to get better so that the people who depend on me can do so with faith and security. If anyone feels they are suffering the same please reach out. Together we are stronger I know it.",2.5572575589038347,4.288502571847508,3.5641905147133173,90.45249266862172,76.0674486803519,6.697583173222772,22.0225503084235,7.503015589744147,0.6923023763777931,1311,35,281,17,29,421,180,341,0.21899999999999997,0.627,0.153,-0.9864,3,1,2,0,0,0,30.0,1,0,6,4,11,27,6,4,13,0,30,14,2,4,4,56,60,26,1,7,8,0,2,1,2,1,6,0,1,1,22,23,2,3,9,2,5,4,7,16,1,1,5,2,47,11,46,54,6,34,1,2,0,5,17,11,4,5,17,200,69,3,0.11331873694679954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12110326736760962,0.0,0.11736403633393262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07923509566507249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08713511396389914,0.0,0.13815610051255828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10022121407996364,0.0,0.12587157086729928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11640955792707013,0.11987619816140585,0.09761405795297276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09916599034363684,0.0,0.0,0.11100922131414133,0.0,0.0,0.09466326397631997,0.0,0.10036676615178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10828090932045337,0.10184357393344456,0.0,0.10682682008412152,0.0,0.11459471649475808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0963888597580441,0.0,0.0,0.08754977506581649,0.31428403894054785,0.17761308898894554,0.0,0.0644016496381839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11187879228439183,0.0,0.12045251835141338,0.0,0.0,0.22786548215694635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11245136105174304,0.0,0.0,0.11800402657303267,0.2491080571398689,0.09236989506198788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08004037513871437,0.055361810921709685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.126774680833134,0.0,0.0,0.20454916870672712,0.0,0.15128227369280392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0840244075895497,0.17479679162382292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11102830236187272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12057912567640093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1081755566980736,0.15712188807858604,0.0,0.0,0.12438994418954205,0.0,0.0,0.21705605160587574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11334940260636135,0.0,0.0725948845802147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11345182429724067,0.0,0.0,0.10316112216225032,0.11821615653373102,0.0,0.1163200550418832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08020758525928291,0.12078269604757345,0.09049648970549404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17992483862002254,0.0,0.13024321826072427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13367665407691645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08049837945360952,0.0,0.0,0.14594710258601692 alcoholism,oncophd,2019/07/17,"ADVICE: friend has been drunk 5 days in a row, can he stop cold turkey? Friend has been drinking for 5 days straight, 10-15 drink a day, can he stop cold turkey or will he get withdrawal?",2.751754385964912,4.144898736842109,3.0131578947368425,96.02043859649126,74.78947368421053,6.119298245614036,20.561403508771924,6.42735559955562,-0.06371228070175405,144,3,33,1,3,44,26,38,0.16,0.611,0.22899999999999998,0.4515,0,0,2,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,7,3,0,0,0,3,8,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,2,5,0,7,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,5,12,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2612275560729573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5172088359616651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5237547798551935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4130703073414592,0.0,0.1396666319271437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4469924693427478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,bobmonk2019,2019/02/07,"At risk drinking for 1.5 years Hi, I am 20 years old and started binge drinking on weekends with friends when i turned 18. Around 1.5 years ago i started to drink around 25-35 units weekly spread over 3-5 nights a week with over the last 6 months its increased to between 35-45 units/week sometimes more than that if i have a F*** it week and don’t take any days off. I haven’t gone much more than about a week at a time without a drink in the last year although never experienced any withdrawals when i do stop for 3-6 days. I have recently thought alot more about my relationship with booze and the potential damage i might have already done and could do if i carry on with this bad habit and have scared myself silly reading about alcoholic liver disease and hepatitis, Although I have never experienced any symptoms of these i do worry. So I have taken the last 3 weeks off drink with some cravings on Friday and Saturday night. I know no one on here is a medical professional, but I would like to know if anyone has developed liver or other problems from this type of drinking over a year and a half as I plan on cleaning up my act and joining the military however I worry about damage i might have done affecting my medical checks. I must stress I have never experienced any withdrawal or symptoms relating to my alcohol use. Am I being paranoid? Any anecdotes or advice is very much welcome. Sorry for the wall of text ",5.6398188405797125,6.4920204456521775,5.9523188405797125,79.69775362318842,67.3695652173913,8.886956521739132,32.0,8.998388855275968,2.6707260869565217,1137,46,212,19,18,364,150,276,0.128,0.826,0.046,-0.9575,1,0,8,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,1,10,11,0,3,15,0,26,15,2,2,4,41,36,22,0,7,8,0,0,1,1,4,6,0,1,0,7,16,9,1,3,8,1,3,7,7,0,2,5,3,25,4,41,25,8,52,0,2,0,0,4,17,0,10,33,148,32,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07896215570415678,0.07162916059418438,0.17271291439797573,0.0,0.0,0.08917082926966774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2747524026784905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05650105316059071,0.0,0.0,0.14386797392252976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06746917992270557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06451658085092968,0.0,0.0,0.10422566758963883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16538407163714258,0.0,0.474951499368295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062430094312008064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0888171299665353,0.19760169307031486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03947746381447155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16280599008328706,0.0,0.17144363696921733,0.0,0.0,0.06449814348507019,0.0,0.11880261446895395,0.0,0.186966445858508,0.0,0.0,0.15166089175977804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0847917323883023,0.0,0.054755867767485734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07731990769934388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08082732239580445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0797856386580969,0.08675481838616879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08090035737295186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07991866147393918,0.09045509155934048,0.11438903431816055,0.0,0.0,0.06755697885289336,0.09256237602386193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16797561580927106,0.060755646016600426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0641505054449113,0.04711831080102873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08789313148709846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0697899689239787,0.0,0.06667296324778624,0.0,0.0,0.3889035727519446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0778935753521007,0.0,0.0,0.16412372447835433,0.0,0.057401877017669835,0.0,0.0,0.26018031948567805 alcoholism,Mamao4_1984,2019/02/07,I think I need some help. I’ve been going through a lot lately. I can go days without drinking but lately I’ve been going to the store every day. I’m in a rough spot. I really hate myself after I’ve drank. And I feel like shit the next day. But I keep doing it. 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My understanding is that there is a religious component to AA, and I'm not religious. Not interested in finding religion or participating in religious groups, so I'm looking into what else is out there. I'm in central Illinois, so if anyone knows anything specifically in that area, that would be great. Basically what I'm looking for is just someone or some group I can talk to about my alcoholism on the DL because most of my friends and family have no idea how bad my drinking has been over the years, and I'd rather just confide in someone else and remain a closeted alcoholic. I'm thinking about just seeing a psychiatrist about it, but even with health insurance I assume it would be expensive. Is this the best route? Where do I go to find a support group? The hospital? I dont even know where to begin.",6.362061960385983,6.918685480446925,7.039045200609452,73.57963433214832,65.70391061452514,10.754900964956832,35.8257998984256,10.637119530657019,3.9330067039106162,747,35,137,19,11,247,105,179,0.031,0.848,0.121,0.9445,0,0,4,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,2,17,9,0,0,8,0,16,5,0,1,0,34,35,11,0,6,10,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,1,0,10,8,4,0,8,2,1,1,4,1,2,0,1,3,10,8,25,30,4,17,0,0,3,0,7,14,0,7,2,98,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2882427676314967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09429532234964053,0.0,0.1109760232988056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11260016784810853,0.08220772577513047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14152436018534625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1580516885498598,0.2642175217872242,0.0,0.0,0.2253118499168038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17814387890681982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12713141002566716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24651416033727466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10419037412873088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07664248098028223,0.0,0.0,0.1486805903694142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14334694683506602,0.0,0.0,0.09039196966947484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15223741643366573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14043306985195755,0.14822803172465332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22649224481238564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1999898790400967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14343728157406055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10746376544496744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285282146857457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4591032156397043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10839314644611996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08641107826911865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14039114961714907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19159743736001572,0.0,0.0,0.08684364528640927 alcoholism,Doctor_Diseased,2019/02/07,"RUQ Abdominal Pain - Kind of scared - blood levels normal LONG TL;DR: Should I be worried about my liver-area pain if ALT, AST, bilirubin, total protein, albumin, creatine, and urea nitrogen are all within normal ranges? My doctor suspects gallstones or liver sludge. The pain I have in my liver / gallbladder area is more of a dull ache with pain level of a 2-3/10 most of the day. It kind of feels like I was punched in the lower ribs near my sternum with a phantom bruise. It's still alarming because this is new to me. I also have a recent change to slightly lighter / yellow stool, but from what I understand this can also be related to gallbladder function. I've been having on and off upper-right abdominal pain for the past 3 weeks intermittently, but it's been consistent the past few days. The pain isn't worsened with alcohol, but instead just generally when I eat. I have an ultrasound scan due tomorrow. I'm awaiting lipase + amylase levels that should come back in a couple days, however: All of these are within normal range: ALT AST Bilirubin Total protein Albumin Creatine Urea nitrogen (lowest of normal ref range, but I'm on a low protein vegan diet) The only three things that are on the low end: WBC (has been all over the place the past few years) B12 is borderline low High vitamin D and borderline high calcium (stupidly took too much D3 for a long time) I'm obviously on a pretty rapid taper now. I was previously drinking a daily 2-4 beers equivalent for about 3 years on and off until I had a bout of sciatica 4 months ago, and my intake increased to 10 beers equivalent per day (170ish ml). I'm able to tolerate a drop to 3 beers equivalent without major symptoms, so I figure I can be back off permanently in less than a week. Thoughts? Am I going to die? Should I be seriously worried? I've been unable to do anything the past few days because I'm afraid of finding out I've totally irreversibly ruined my body because of chronic pain aversion. 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For three years I’ve been drinking every Monday nearly two liters of beer. At first I thought it was okay, just to wind down, and stuff like that. But today, after puking at the kiddy park in the McDonalds, I realized I kind of reached a point where I don’t want to keep going like this. So, I told my father about it, I cried a lot, he hugged me a lot, and he asked me to tell him the next time I was drinking. I’m going to try and stop drinking, because I’m 20 years old and I know this is just not correct. Sorry for my English, it’s not my main language!)",2.759571303587052,3.492153811023627,4.1290813648294,90.59253718285214,73.88188976377954,6.589326334208224,23.559930008748907,6.42735559955562,0.4891809273840764,462,12,104,3,9,153,82,127,0.063,0.8240000000000001,0.114,0.4961,0,0,4,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,1,5,5,0,0,6,1,5,5,0,0,1,18,16,6,0,1,5,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,4,4,2,3,4,0,2,3,0,0,3,6,0,16,5,15,10,3,20,0,0,0,1,10,7,0,2,13,66,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14867170759646872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09694329348939383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17468713448013834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4673669631074013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13398974662507054,0.1519601079157119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13527095055469818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1807609797587784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14135328989903487,0.0,0.16560541211801033,0.08739880252949034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15538818088745285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27040346554073097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16913035143507735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16687537365665475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15033487950623795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17802121478053792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329563127400683,0.0,0.0,0.18205145555465085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13899934646267198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12625216238487535,0.09273174989495568,0.0,0.3014839438404291,0.3039202158314238,0.0,0.1079710218260803,0.0,0.1553493327231502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09380009323352838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2048203842961942 alcoholism,Miss_cheeks,2018/11/19,"In need of help I’m basically a stay at home wife right now, waiting for next semester to start. I’m sitting at a bar right now, like I often do most days. If not, I’m at home with wine, tequila, or beer. I have a family history of alcoholism and never thought I’d end up like this. I was raised by a single mom who would rarely touch a drink to stay away from this. I always thought I’d be better than this. Well... I’ve been drinking *heavily* for about 3 years. It’s on and off, but I’ve been on a long streak. I get drunk every night, and think about it all day until I pour one. Right now I’m on my first double whisky coke, I’ll probably have a few more and head home to drink more. I’m not dependent on alcohol, I just need a slap of reality from some of you. Any advice you would give me, or your past self, in the beginning stages of feeling like I need a drink? I would really appreciate your wisdom, or warnings. 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I've come notice myself shaking most of the time, and not just when I'm going into withdrawal. I've been drinking a fifth to a fifth and a half a day for nearly a couple years now. I try to eat as healthy as I can, and I work a manual labor job, so I guess I'd qualify as high functioning. I intend to quit, but can't get the time off of work to get through the fallout.",2.602758620689656,3.1098871494252904,4.7132758620689685,87.09681034482759,74.0574712643678,7.639080459770115,23.69540229885057,7.793537801064563,1.0006643678160922,310,8,70,4,6,108,59,87,0.019,0.941,0.04,0.1406,1,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,1,9,0,4,2,0,1,0,11,10,9,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,1,0,3,2,1,0,1,1,0,6,0,14,9,1,13,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,2,6,44,6,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19174920592180175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611329267812431,0.2361187575245096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.198508485677134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2549836813791527,0.0,0.14861835244658184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257489636368193,0.0,0.2358033871204862,0.1925077348003212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407966370897084,0.0,0.13096754927394033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25386181715543943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2434784364993248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22868170694705084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2623638513428227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24510726951941705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26874937367198065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15645744053871932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3355342934787908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1483994156726543 alcoholism,Chugger04,2018/11/19,"Treatment options in for European in Bangkok Family member is high functioning, also professionally employed in white collar job in Bangkok, but on a downward trend. Family wants to know whether there are legit treatment options in person in Bangkok - anyone with experience? Also general question - revealing treatment to employer would be bad. Do people generally have success getting help discretely regardless of location?",12.548593750000002,14.781044171875,11.3,42.545000000000016,52.59375,14.525,55.0625,13.427899808715575,9.11098125,353,25,33,13,4,112,51,64,0.064,0.8140000000000001,0.122,0.6381,3,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,1,0,6,0,0,0,0,13,9,4,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,12,7,0,9,0,0,1,0,3,9,0,3,0,24,0,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41670776748658267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1821757481564202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21754016327773726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2548582847998569,0.4912281788428465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361214879902314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17463458728959744,0.2752749994384341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25854592158761525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14318606641517706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18062575221375893,0.22749363122657226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2918646233170327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15367334552385786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18508026499178087,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Usagi-skywalker,2018/11/19,"Bartender humiliated my dad over a drink I don't really know why I'm posting this. I think I just need to vent. My dad and I were travelling, he's an alcoholic and I'm proud that he was able to hold off a little more because I was around. He at least tried. We went into a typical trendy restaurant that was relatively empty with some people having drinks at the bar. My dad asked for a triple gin and tonic. The bar tender informed him that they don't do triples. Dad stared at him in quiet confusion and I guess the bartender saw through it and started on ""do you really need that man? This isn't a bar."" He proceeded to be super condescending, a little loud and shaming my dad. I don't drink and didn't want anything. It was so embarrassing. Bartenders, I get it. You don't want the alcoholic getting drunk at your bar. There's no need to be a total jerk, especially when they're accompanied by a non drinker. I sat there fighting back tears because I just wanted him to have his drink so we could call it a night. Anyways I don't really expect a response but thanks for reading providing a place to vent. 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Then something inside me broke, I went into a fugue state on my way to get smokes. Next thing I knew I was drowning myself in whiskey. Ended up trying to kill myself. Never been more thankful to be alive. Under doctor's orders I'm tapering off and coming back to sobriety. I should be right as rain here in the next couple of days. But if anyone has any hope or kind words, I could really use some right now.",3.0822807017543847,4.557519859649126,3.944736842105264,89.3414912280702,74.08771929824562,6.470175438596491,20.561403508771924,6.937597516519254,0.33549824561403563,440,9,91,4,9,141,87,114,0.125,0.7290000000000001,0.146,0.1494,0,0,3,0,0,1,13.0,0,0,0,0,3,8,2,0,5,0,9,2,0,1,1,16,17,8,3,4,3,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,5,1,0,1,1,0,3,1,3,0,1,5,0,13,5,16,7,2,28,0,1,0,0,3,9,0,4,13,58,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11452590690660387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11775755719171856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12949840067567214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14507199007749702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13446324509693544,0.1863446288896912,0.0,0.2172235617829611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17237677580234032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14916300795830262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301146614123363,0.0,0.08798829739548185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16727107470736366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3726457596575765,0.350750277800255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13442481857135385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12988968470220885,0.0,0.35821605702134257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1848657573266688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10788901308223114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2876457848299606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12965175355618305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15505110457325502,0.0,0.0,0.111885421955965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11434066500462045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14545385965842347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13367757376611544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15611957282370126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21690355940738024 alcoholism,yunka19,2019/04/28,"My father is alcoholic and i want to help him Hello, first of all I'm really happy that there are people like the ones in this subreddit who acknowledged that they have a problem and work on how to fix it you are the real MVP's. But not my dad, I'm gonna be 17 soon in may but for all these years there are rarely nights he doesn't drink. It wasn't a big problem till i really saw what's happening. He had picked many fights with my mother over dumb stuff all when intoxicated it was usually just arguments between them but it started getting physical lately the verbal harrassment i can get over but trying to hit my mother was too much for me and i jumped to stop him (just remembered that he usually broke other stuff to let his anger out instead of hitting his family) then stuff became real we didnt talk to each other for a long time. Now we are on good terms as any father son even tho we weren't never *that* close. Now i see his drinking as problematic when he is sober i love hanging with him maybe we just silently watch tv but that is fine by me. He is my father and i want to help him so i would like all of your advice",1.4039184397163105,3.5709914255319184,3.0917287234042554,90.33645833333334,81.55319148936171,6.469858156028369,19.153368794326237,7.645422480735847,0.5398262411347514,895,22,192,15,24,296,143,235,0.127,0.767,0.107,-0.8403,0,0,3,0,1,0,12.0,4,2,2,2,16,12,3,0,6,0,21,5,0,2,5,40,35,18,0,5,9,7,0,2,0,3,2,0,0,0,18,13,3,1,2,3,0,2,6,6,0,2,7,3,30,6,27,21,7,30,0,1,3,1,34,9,1,1,21,138,48,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12791898949526956,0.0,0.13989778575288442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08901998532995907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25647440564686075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0864616115411279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12340571739840207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11134784671385567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13678506732527285,0.0,0.0,0.10979702216154667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11575898454344735,0.13935095758190152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17548591432855246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14766670173950308,0.0,0.0,0.13385937655118252,0.0,0.12790727998621315,0.0,0.0,0.11584693111897465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11814700132243487,0.0,0.0,0.1327172673770176,0.13151180975161167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09623034133720254,0.0,0.100962115376507,0.0,0.0,0.12284560779057466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08870471191283155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09075314280655722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2505170830903977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2979974202265525,0.16772237166698514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1482900071894045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10431444964224316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09265533310755668,0.0,0.0,0.10944256006121783,0.0,0.0,0.4495652056263943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10521659435345587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07633184087544287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08887599842042508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.288347039033848,0.0,0.15442248849857787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09530050227889134,0.0,0.0,0.09299125685908192,0.0,0.0,0.08429861940411101 alcoholism,chorussaurus,2019/04/28,"Sitting in ER for dad with curbside head injury from getting too drunk My dad fell down hard onto a curb at a considerable speed at a festival this weekend after drinking 7 drinks, went unconscious, and now has a head injury. He won't remember it in the morning. He is almost two years out from the start of stage 2/3 cancer treatment, probably brought on by heavy alcohol use. Our family is slightly dysfunctional and we do not communicate problems well. My mom has been trying to get him to go to therapy for it for a long time, he won't, and now she has resorted to unfriendly ways to try to combat it (they been married like 30 + years). What do we need to do to ""trick"" him to do something about this problem, as I do not think he will go if we ask nicely (heard this method from a Savvy Psychologist podcast)? Thank you for just reading or your help.",7.988517964071858,6.477288712574854,8.096160179640716,74.19777320359283,63.07185628742515,11.463772455089819,37.04266467065868,10.411451182825502,3.6534437125748505,673,27,131,13,8,220,116,167,0.131,0.78,0.08900000000000001,-0.7637,0,0,5,0,0,0,21.0,4,2,1,0,6,8,1,0,8,0,15,7,2,1,0,22,28,6,0,4,5,3,1,1,0,3,2,1,0,0,7,8,4,1,3,5,0,5,4,3,2,1,5,2,13,5,30,20,0,26,0,0,0,0,20,8,0,3,11,86,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17534474611515002,0.1642959778631121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15338663767266553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.321459266143214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1546739576322038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17144333467050002,0.0,0.18649357941641295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1469776894955227,0.0,0.3367736317593076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10997505403365744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08015805759455896,0.0,0.0,0.14519994448773518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19216097971196466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1216584716211054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17689905666498246,0.3139924917009491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1641179685266873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18586336818775415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12631184847026755,0.0,0.0,0.11613211583389345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15105689733319153,0.18763242403436475,0.0,0.0,0.10513171730300383,0.0,0.0,0.0956726168807901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2227903650496284,0.0,0.16027603500574966,0.0,0.0,0.14170688306679033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13023396119437478,0.0,0.0,0.14752184197562473,0.15209784121589168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2113159967146477 alcoholism,im-done-with-drinkin,2019/04/28,In 1 hour I will have been 30 days sober I always thought I'd be able to abstain from drinking for a month. Im more worried about being able to resist drinking from this point forward. I can totally see myself falling back to drinking and then being pissed at myself for having all this work be meaningless.,5.459499999999999,6.4320972833333325,5.600000000000001,81.63000000000002,67.83333333333334,7.333333333333332,31.66666666666667,7.1686216300943375,2.0416666666666683,247,10,44,2,4,78,45,60,0.19,0.81,0.0,-0.8874,0,0,3,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,1,0,9,4,1,0,2,5,11,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,1,1,3,0,2,0,1,0,0,2,1,5,0,10,4,3,10,0,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,6,33,7,1,0.43820919446381423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1823125770002754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16847791075168395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14130433914350224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6439172738877633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21577389301330926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2366705635481153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17488719913071862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2071246652486574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17459799642599733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17394457598112742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1595107563079869,0.2225113540792477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,laurend_,2019/04/28,"Growing Up with a Alcoholic Mom When I was 12-15, my mom was an alcoholic. Those were some of the worst painful years of my life. My mom also had a alcoholic boyfriend that my twin brother and I I had lived with for 5 years. This lead to my mom getting arrested for battery when I was 12. Fast forward a year in 2013 when grandpa(mom’s father) died. This took a tole on my mom and this is when her drinking problem starting getting worse. Sometime’s she would drive with in the car while intoxicated. I’ve seen her yell at my stepdad, she’s defiantly a mean drunk. One day after walking home from school in my freshman year, I came home to mom, who had locked herself in the bathroom, banging on the door repeatedly, and mumbling words mixed with crying, I could tell she was on the ground. She did this for hours and I didn’t see her until the next day. Her and my dad also had a pill problem and took (fentanyl, oxytocin, Xanax, vicodin). Why I had to grow through this and had the parents I had, I don’t know. But they also made me stronger. I’m now 18 and my mom has been sober for a few years now and I’m so grateful and proud of her for overcoming this demon named “alcohol”. Has anyone else had a similar childhood and experienced similar things?",3.073752151462997,4.892693196787153,3.867217441193347,88.455421686747,74.86345381526105,6.8312105565117625,28.323006310958124,7.62386473244151,1.5874741250717157,982,41,203,13,21,313,137,249,0.11199999999999999,0.841,0.047,-0.9448,1,0,5,0,0,0,31.0,0,0,1,2,10,5,0,0,16,0,22,12,0,2,0,28,35,22,1,4,1,11,0,0,0,1,10,1,3,0,10,16,6,0,2,2,0,10,2,4,0,1,21,4,32,1,28,12,3,42,1,0,2,0,25,11,0,1,23,135,42,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33765696247942634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1895002281351096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05523030531212335,0.0809326270458828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09034132610897154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0630655582288598,0.0,0.08676470193109648,0.10188156008303777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08197716119763272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07737825182362626,0.0,0.0,0.06598440914811629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08253602817413283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15846297828380432,0.0,0.0777873523864724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04340978557564111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055791620103473216,0.0,0.0,0.06974792582473334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07474043549422606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08604118027264643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7400791201807959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08400472406532349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05352437034815924,0.0,0.08404889108138143,0.0,0.0877069203313396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15116185876402566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07994015858105942,0.06294327679912311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07812123538292899,0.0,0.05590817282462237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06903906747535647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052476173605937135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17551733666354585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07127446053487592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08049560634149162,0.056110869016263776,0.0,0.0,0.25432868376022955 alcoholism,mykidsonprobation,2019/04/28,"My brother is an alcoholic and I don’t know how to help him. Ok so I am new to this posting thing and I would never post on here my personal business like this but I need advice. This will be a sort of long post I guess. My brother had his first major episode when he was 13. He drank too much and got rushed to the hospital when he was found choking on his vomit in the woods. What happened next was years of uncontrollable drinking and parents that said not my kid and did everything to possibly coddle him from having any repercussions of out of control drinking. The parents divorced about 11 years ago and my brother lives with my step dad his dad. My mom purchased a car for him thinking that would motivate him to get a job. Instead he trashed it in a dui with a .320 blood alcohol level. He has never worked and my step dad fills the keg weekly for him. He has had a seizure when his Dad will get in a mood and cut him off. He has been in a mental institution a few years ago from running away from a voluntary rehab when he thought they were bugging his phone. He was told he has alcoholic hepatitis and extremely high liver levels. That was several years ago. I got him insurance and he told me he would go to rehab. I asked his dad to take him to Intake and then we would come up and take him to the rehab near us I actually got him a bed. His dad said he wouldn’t go to intake. He will never stop drinking beer and if you question him he blocks you. Which has made my mom never see him, because she is afraid he won’t answer the door which is common. He also will block her. I talked to his dad and he said he is allowed to have a beermeister if wants one and that my brother shouldn’t control what he has. He also said he wants no blame and he isn’t burying him when he dies. He also has told my brother why don’t you just die already. My mother, sister and I are worried so is my other younger brother. I don’t know what I can do? I don’t have any control of the situation and I can’t even get him to go to the Doctor. Tonight my sister finally saw him and said he looks horrible has a big round belly and is yellow but not dark yellow. His ankles are swollen which they have been. All this kid does is sit and play video games and drink, and watch sports I guess. He is at a point now where he won’t FaceTime, lost his funny personality, hasn’t had a haircut since December and doesn’t leave the house. I’m talking months now. I don’t know what to do? My mom was supposed to go and sneak over and see him tomorrow but she said now she isn’t because he finally started talking to her again. What can I do? I can’t sit back and watch my brother die. It’s also not fair that we always wind up getting into fights over him when he doesn’t care.",2.4493546347269732,3.9819859493007006,3.679459901800328,90.35915711947628,75.87062937062937,6.616336854634727,24.58280017854485,7.295548434001253,0.92288404999256,2161,71,471,25,47,704,245,572,0.08900000000000001,0.872,0.039,-0.9847,4,0,9,0,2,0,42.0,3,3,2,7,25,10,2,2,25,1,66,17,2,7,5,78,112,46,3,11,9,22,1,1,0,12,9,6,2,4,21,34,9,6,9,10,1,11,24,5,0,2,31,15,75,4,46,68,4,74,0,1,9,0,115,22,0,6,37,303,96,4,0.0,0.0,0.06261050985619351,0.0,0.0,0.06269601394815884,0.17062083013033094,0.20570128551250935,0.0,0.0,0.07080170881613446,0.2052336206470018,0.053385922987394835,0.0,0.0,0.0872614498274848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059980560674053524,0.0,0.06028005176624185,0.04933476843154378,0.0,0.07822218754446156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06541498339644475,0.0,0.0,0.05526781025119703,0.0,0.0,0.2158813251084392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19976259120730225,0.0,0.0,0.06567006443950787,0.056146494189643986,0.0,0.0,0.25140791022862113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04237680757604255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05766250719920975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14056740105656682,0.0,0.05457411896556223,0.0,0.07034768460347572,0.0,0.0,0.13408296176764728,0.0,0.1458535062145246,0.0,0.15394286829763504,0.0,0.141358055225818,0.0,0.05673611821198029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043004824287074264,0.0677881350149902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0740315587159973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06366849832316915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10578130693544743,0.0,0.0,0.06793574748273215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031345137425367285,0.0,0.0566540980867152,0.056779222834270615,0.05387790102460236,0.0,0.07003777732008383,0.0,0.0,0.060709360363977276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06465778154004284,0.0,0.0,0.2254288276543868,0.05121157683081638,0.0,0.04716468482528504,0.04757352693364846,0.19793534076080815,0.06196573692101059,0.06823445745044099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043476202222188134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14248327555493806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11204336768756433,0.0,0.0,0.060651555749431686,0.07233030351701285,0.18434147077166307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07187343032195417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3661828050400099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10225378132785268,0.0,0.0,0.07248208035880903,0.0,0.05307348021901892,0.07211807327154555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04541249176376193,0.0,0.0,0.05364029452698317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09648006177434333,0.15470715708098956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042624784200134665,0.04111087800175443,0.0,0.05093555195256492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18392172835493628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07717609335405612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07568598322279793,0.0,0.051464957283035004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057894055349652564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04670894949779812,0.06515718338333684,0.0,0.1823085426205441,0.0,0.0,0.1652667032103509 alcoholism,vorfreude84,2019/04/28,"When to leave an alcoholic boss? For the past 9 years I have worked for an alcoholic. I play an huge role in his 6 million dollar operation. He always had a problem, but it seemed “under control” until his divorce 3 years ago. It then exploded into drinking a over a liter a day of vodka starting at 7am and is already drunk by the time I get to my office. Over the past few years he has nearly destroyed everything. I live in constant fear and anxiety when he gets behind the wheel multiple times a day. He has overleveraged the finances and fired our best employee. Every type of intervetion, taking his keys, heart to hearts etc. nothing works. At this point dealing with the consequences of his addiction have taken an intense toll on my own mental heath. Ive been saying I would leave for years, but am now at the jumping point. Have you left an alcoholic employer or business partner. If so, how did you know when and how did you do it?",4.368705603788482,6.0473030331491735,5.163745067087612,81.06830110497239,71.15469613259668,8.265351223362273,29.503157063930544,8.841846274778883,2.4579831097079725,743,30,137,14,14,241,120,181,0.124,0.82,0.055999999999999994,-0.9129,2,0,5,0,1,0,19.0,1,3,0,4,7,5,1,1,17,0,14,8,2,4,0,18,21,16,0,3,4,0,1,0,1,1,4,1,0,1,4,6,5,1,2,4,2,1,0,3,0,1,5,2,16,2,24,15,4,35,0,0,0,0,17,15,0,3,19,95,20,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13771337026856595,0.0,0.0,0.11197987591129427,0.4050104153558984,0.0,0.0,0.13940325858481886,0.0,0.10511288147476304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09663861185552698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325707501646066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13651291708795055,0.14168471680007005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16293890960949156,0.1302359763495223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12375083351054228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14088625242472425,0.0,0.0,0.106434627191921,0.0,0.1135331552888822,0.0,0.0,0.14215123471355728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13199965158788815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29939249694699194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06942515527159075,0.0,0.0,0.2675207910046972,0.13725295453548905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11154767331932376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1273063262209471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1212126617082323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24118384307859664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2388367357535538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12087638048278655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10045905608615176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11500193139211827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0894137929462236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09498100557668422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14732275383043875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839328421288885,0.0,0.0,0.08973796442947463,0.0,0.0,0.3253977530813909 alcoholism,Greentealeaf420,2019/04/28,"All of these poasts are depressing as fuck, where the functional drinkers at? Seriously, i am of european stock with much drinking in my genetics and full of fully functional alcoholics that were good people and lived good lives. Why all the negativity and no calls to rise above?",8.556462585034012,9.627039612244896,7.877959183673473,67.67299319727894,61.04081632653062,13.063945578231294,36.74149659863946,12.45797560212912,5.126137414965985,227,10,38,8,3,71,41,49,0.226,0.6779999999999999,0.096,-0.782,0,0,3,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,5,1,0,2,0,3,3,0,0,2,6,4,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,1,0,1,2,3,0,0,1,0,2,2,8,3,4,5,0,1,0,1,1,4,1,0,0,27,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30216290761968945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28870899394740274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2435234141895177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2769774079097221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2613884306866495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4742975349576953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4993289263254089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20784631853320668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1960162082514508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551287327363215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Mottandtomm,2019/04/28,"Alcoholic Bf don't know whether i should involve family. Me [28F] dating bf [30M] for 2 years. I knew of his drinking and it had quieted down but since i have been busier i have been unable to monitor. On a good night its 8 cans on a bad night its 24 plus. His drinking results in angry outburst even if it has been hours since his last drink. And due to these outburst i have decided to move out (outburst were occuring at 3am in the morning and he was yelling at me, breaking chairs ect) His family are aware he is a drinker but just make passive agressive jokes about it, i am worried that if it is just me fighting for him, i may lose him. His alcoholic behaviour is not reflective to who he is as a person, he is gentle, funny sweet, loyal and possibly abused when younger. Please help, I can't talk to my friends or family as it makes them stress for me. Thank you TLDR; alcoholic bf getting more agressive, don't know whether to involve family or not.",4.386258558195732,5.243037670157072,5.1525654450261795,84.28984695932341,70.2041884816754,8.808860249697947,31.44623439387837,9.057496981413335,2.5534386629077725,749,32,153,14,13,243,118,191,0.12300000000000001,0.7020000000000001,0.175,0.8847,0,0,7,0,4,0,24.0,0,1,1,1,5,10,1,1,5,0,23,6,0,3,0,28,30,16,0,3,12,0,0,0,4,2,3,2,0,1,10,6,6,0,5,4,0,1,5,4,0,0,7,3,22,6,22,21,1,18,0,1,0,0,24,8,0,5,8,101,32,0,0.0,0.1549755799912424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4193534725475538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10921180962502436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3844000533988561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08639159141964732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4932231137634953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10105508296805052,0.0,0.06833714661363208,0.0,0.0,0.10970810407763726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08767189935711532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288107950507513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1437675617290551,0.10661874804614896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14633076875651024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17461886918760014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13901877469833598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24549224486507004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11420875469649194,0.0,0.14357816591779402,0.0,0.14745636554825176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21639678307869395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14982996088493958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10513138568585084,0.0,0.12042226499966588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13283286511866946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08423035096143326 alcoholism,yogi-girl,2019/05/27,"Decided to quit drinking today I woke up this morning not remembering how I got into my bed. My husband in bed next to me started crying when he told me about my actions last night. I’m so embarrassed. It’s like a switch flips when I’m drinking, one second I’m fine and the next I’m blacked out. I try so hard to drink in moderation but it never works. I’ve decided to take control over it by not doing it at all. That’s the only way I can be sure not to have another black out. Posting this only to get it off my chest and put it out there to other people that are going through the same thing.",1.6621760916249144,3.257702590551183,3.7788690050107365,88.53368647100932,78.21259842519684,6.507945597709378,24.14387974230494,7.348242739294969,0.977289763779528,467,16,102,6,11,160,83,127,0.046,0.902,0.052000000000000005,0.1601,0,0,3,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,3,7,4,0,1,4,0,5,4,1,2,3,19,16,8,0,0,4,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,12,6,3,1,3,3,0,3,4,1,0,2,3,3,10,3,20,12,2,24,0,0,2,0,3,10,0,0,10,68,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17835209429384338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1907681506489977,0.0,0.0,0.186833677142798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4998644493899252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08886395790756528,0.0,0.09666492793751587,0.0,0.13603490842012636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1523654359358272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386444182707546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08309640348194593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311823482857473,0.0,0.36178102719593214,0.15961606238598414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11525602815809913,0.2587191711847245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11791760051063856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16289728372457404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17098541483199114,0.0,0.18090952053700965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1926765430564956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12038915917044796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16030592353900966,0.0,0.12788500545344092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11299890691686006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16122353255964733,0.16252636935971318,0.0,0.11547858457158144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13500793446365195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1238260869944611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Boogie_ToadSquad,2019/05/27,"Need alcohol for sleep Yo whats up I am 22 and I've been drinking a lot lately, this year just for sleep. Usually I drink cheap vodka because I'm on a budget and I have been noticing my hand has started shaking when I reach out to grab something or I feel very stiff. Is this the effects of alcoholic ? I started drinking out of control this year. Melatonin doesn't work. It used too but I usually take 2-3 or more and it's still not helping me.",-0.3827649769585229,1.873668365591396,1.7189938556067617,94.56991935483872,96.52688172043013,4.3775729646697386,23.847158218125962,6.1826913282559595,0.6974061443932413,350,16,74,4,14,116,69,93,0.046,0.915,0.039,-0.1361,0,0,7,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,1,3,0,7,9,3,3,0,17,14,7,0,1,5,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,6,5,5,2,2,4,2,1,2,1,0,0,2,3,9,0,9,12,2,14,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,3,9,47,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35795608735731244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10209017943731777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18783556523916187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4921802778644923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08467954094039433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11225383400693677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1889171958768545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14237982496719082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12417934229624142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19066948108379253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33518852787954745,0.0,0.0,0.12892914121189095,0.0,0.0,0.2370769511002473,0.0,0.13374440706136562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259190918569959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14464317448347475,0.3688963958155227,0.13818302551308909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12192256916487768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21569465027002147 alcoholism,grlinmotion,2019/05/27,"advice for getting started quitting hey everyone, just wanted a space to share what i've been going through with alcohol. I'm a few years out of college, and since moving to new york a couple years ago i've just found that i definitely am abusing alcohol. I drink probably five days of the week, usually amounts under three drinks but one or two days of the week i'll have more. A lot more. I'm finding that I don't like the decisions I make when I do drink. I don't typically black out but i get into a headspace where i'll abandon what is a healthy choice for me and do something self destructive. (hook up with people i don't want to, etc.) I woke up today with an absolutely awful hangover, i drank somewhere between ten and twelve drinks last night, and i'm worried. I go to therapy and my therapist is also a resource for me, but they've also said that I seem to abuse alcohol. I want to go a week without drinking, and was wondering if anyone has any advice on how to stick to it. I've tried before but haven't been able to. Thanks!",4.989650018228218,5.226888796208531,5.951374407582942,81.302949325556,68.62085308056871,9.14633612832665,31.870579657309516,9.057496981413335,2.5630500182282168,820,33,167,14,13,272,124,211,0.147,0.8009999999999999,0.053,-0.9646,0,0,9,0,1,0,22.0,0,0,0,1,7,5,1,0,12,1,14,9,0,2,0,33,34,16,0,4,9,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,1,6,12,9,1,5,5,0,4,5,2,0,5,7,2,16,3,28,27,6,28,0,1,1,0,4,9,0,5,16,105,22,1,0.10292273967890858,0.2438932329371348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011498200624089,0.09123479872259294,0.32997932373867084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16461455547252307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06999099235278794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07196597265638688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08757967084877959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1138820538329168,0.0,0.13275330501416796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5041255089455179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11478606113952405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09834708842030808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09406951946387884,0.0,0.0,0.1128494716705334,0.0,0.0,0.10754576700561176,0.0,0.17548009444497126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08389576975338485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05028285177872354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08750123272300721,0.0,0.0,0.06870172794384298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1093905839941116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0994034233340753,0.0,0.09658601901105986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06974311206786743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07135366851186761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1109681211472508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10947100265896338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09790309450487428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09369699669591358,0.1073708641005634,0.0,0.0,0.0851387538366383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07923495335493473,0.0,0.0,0.07284924488516539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09475743059016324,0.11770112262853763,0.11950123353668055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09755872277553247,0.0,0.0,0.06987778421591012,0.0,0.10054056140729964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11335485694118108,0.0,0.18211949549656395,0.0,0.2476752406993983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09921384824393743,0.11161532079164388,0.0,0.1045230381326058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13255773979729155 alcoholism,TitosTriumph,2019/05/27,"Looking for answers So this is new to me. I’m going to be brief. And if this isn’t the right forum for it please redirect me where I should go. I’m not an alcoholic, in my own eyes anyway. I don’t drink everyday. I don’t crave alcohol. I have no issues being sober. The problem is when I do drink I binge. Sometimes I can sit and have a few drinks and just be fine. But most times I drink way past the point I ever should. I don’t know what I should do. I’ve debated giving up drinking completely. I’ve debated giving myself a one drink limit. I was just wondering if anyone had any similar experiences? Any help is welcome!",0.03791402714932346,2.3569165923076945,2.641583710407243,89.74400452488692,90.76923076923076,6.135746606334842,19.95475113122172,7.510576382923642,0.8975113122171949,487,16,103,10,17,168,82,130,0.040999999999999995,0.835,0.124,0.8398,0,0,8,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,1,7,3,0,0,6,0,20,9,1,0,1,19,29,8,0,6,6,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,4,3,8,1,3,6,0,3,6,1,0,1,2,2,16,2,6,21,3,16,0,0,2,0,4,5,0,4,6,71,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2736226292689137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17411199407036587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0895125114190343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13422346156340426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7524479480029481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11579876832242167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12522525835214315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2456112758817243,0.14551010130688175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08580714308633694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13361656049931714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0703548333668992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10750209631246184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12363968328152435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0867476792842308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1222067781065996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14052429931737415,0.12101750928824676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12249504626373298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10932587773245553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12661215495306224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07464778261097099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10161399092821634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13882905084330174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,traveller17,2019/05/27,"Husband drinks at least 3 beers a day (every day) and threatens with leaving when asked to drink less Hi, I would love some help or guidance. My husband drinks every night and gets very frisky if I make any comment related to the subject. In general, we don't have any major problem in our relationship, but once I make any comment related to alcohol consumption he seems to fall in a dark void and start feeding thoughts about how he could be better without me. We have a very good relationship, but it seems that in order to keep it that way, I need to accept that he drinks every night (and say nothing about it). am I being wrong to let him know that it could be great if he drinks less? If I mention anything he threatens with leaving and says very hurtful things (which have deeply affected my mental health). How can I find a way to just accept his drinking without saying anything? which seems like the only option for him to stay with me. I ask him to get professional help several times but he doesn't want to go. I am feeling quite desperate because without the drinking argument we have an amazing relationship. but I really don't know how to look to a different direction every night and say nothing to not get hurt with his reaction.",7.399814995131449,7.187286936708863,7.203544303797468,75.8877312560857,63.59915611814346,10.16150600454398,36.37422914638104,9.661875296680813,3.430821746186301,992,43,180,17,13,315,127,237,0.08800000000000001,0.736,0.17600000000000002,0.9769,1,0,9,0,0,0,22.0,4,0,0,2,7,12,0,0,9,0,17,12,0,6,0,52,38,18,0,9,13,2,1,1,0,1,2,4,0,0,11,13,10,1,10,8,0,2,7,4,0,0,1,6,23,8,29,30,5,19,0,2,1,1,33,5,0,9,9,113,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08211089637385828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15674681521140396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12645369490374528,0.0,0.14365659182971754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046836561470170235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0679523674518394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12268947699972164,0.0,0.0,0.09910159898325864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08027392250325657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5268682510554835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2589397895735508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03884897202042549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07022378684630289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12042589982599275,0.0,0.0436658505975273,0.06444370695609168,0.0,0.08470843274884668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08166967305927929,0.0,0.0,0.10299881194657468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1645022020267091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06829252249503223,0.0,0.0,0.08445059456412203,0.0,0.0,0.16270968188857493,0.0,0.07856674312257156,0.0,0.03753662488612148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06452020078799771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06934460134776313,0.0,0.10257298063383104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0774293906803294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05697054732237259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21630713274675692,0.0,0.14744628672294585,0.0,0.0,0.08182442397075364,0.0,0.058434806277261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07351861267429947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08172113985897381,0.0,0.0,0.04922105880879395,0.0,0.0,0.24746901853645364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2444021041836298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.209837085219908,0.0,0.08679919390598899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05438265097861311,0.08189354139234467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051044297993011085,0.0,0.0,0.0609966605366886,0.04480182329133185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19018531863444252,0.045317975844512665,0.12197260002265264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.222192230947634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05457981636048504,0.08400460489433598,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,jaybo1988,2019/05/27,"So am I an alcoholic? Need to share plz. Hi all... so I just wanted to share some thoughts I have had on myself as I think I may be borderline dependent on alcohol. So for a while now I have had a (relationship) with booze. I went though a trauma around 4 years ago and stated to binge drink stupid amounts of alcohol alone to help me feel better as I couldn’t deal with my own feelings being sober. I started to drink eventually I would say 4 days out of the week? For a long time. and would always aim to get drunk as possible. I did slow down on the drinking but I always would find time to get pissed alone At least once a week. Anyway fast forward to today and I have dealt with the trauma I had, I had counselling, meds, support and all the good stuff and generally feel much better in myself. The problem is though that now I have an awful impulse to still drink and I prefer to drink alone... The longest I can last is around 2 weeks and that’s only because I live with other people who would not approve of me drinking myself into a stupor alone whilst they watch tv.. I have never really considered I have an alcohol “problem” because I always blamed it on my trauma and saw it as justified but now the traumas delt with and I am still drinking alone o guess I’m just trying to share n get some support as it’s the first time I have actually started to wake up to my drinking. Sorry if the post is a little wonky but I guess I would just like some feedback on what I should do. :/ Ty, Jay",2.1522984441301247,4.150027613861391,3.5069247996228192,89.19382425742576,78.14191419141915,6.1767562470532775,22.372583686940125,7.1686216300943375,0.7149039132484676,1169,35,242,14,28,382,155,303,0.16399999999999998,0.723,0.113,-0.9553,0,5,12,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,1,4,16,17,2,0,19,1,29,16,2,1,3,55,48,24,0,13,8,0,3,1,0,7,4,1,0,0,9,18,14,0,7,10,0,2,3,8,0,1,8,6,36,9,41,30,9,43,0,0,2,0,10,15,1,8,27,173,45,1,0.0,0.0,0.07000585404357862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06359133079697914,0.30666404523756874,0.0,0.3714942103742017,0.0,0.0,0.17907506940390736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1277239024568655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08746153092802703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12689270734161148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046265018675695824,0.07395863753475294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5622067448193748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10881853175912116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06556715216010044,0.06102023151760226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11244029484182658,0.0,0.0,0.06017035721811749,0.0,0.0,0.15805479630739389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04808441041488906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05847597322022205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03504752030635491,0.07190023430625121,0.0633458908215046,0.06348579488608933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07968464836171994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05273561977811739,0.053192752950019316,0.05532870043381551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07639853528043435,0.0,0.054559914904800916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04973403571276285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08087371724922715,0.06870508975069509,0.0,0.0,0.13728698722458782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0459571435454047,0.0,0.0,0.07701967059871738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057048867174913816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08030471950118145,0.10155292705557324,0.0,0.11457997879052012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08212274638795641,0.0,0.16281466539071535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04596675752368901,0.14096426911643956,0.05695188912868506,0.1254928606124012,0.0,0.06799915272475268,0.0,0.0,0.04870533342157165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04231287931378986,0.0,0.17263147814274313,0.0,0.0,0.06650176337267617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25480277302694826,0.0,0.0,0.04619686347300512 alcoholism,seaweedscalp,2019/05/27,"Booze is a tricky bitch Spent a solid 53 days sober. Dealt with some emotional crap, and started drinking. Been a week of drunkenness. Functional drunkenness. Nonetheless cradling a fifth of Jose Cuervo between my Indian crossed legs while I zone out to TV is not the plan.",4.957500000000003,8.066504750000004,4.133166666666663,82.52850000000002,74.41666666666666,8.840000000000002,30.43333333333333,9.3871,3.3303283333333336,220,10,37,6,5,65,42,48,0.163,0.772,0.065,-0.7003,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,5,0,3,4,2,0,0,5,5,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,1,1,1,2,0,0,2,0,2,0,6,3,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,4,20,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3314768831152784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5035082249329446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5781623381594123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3638002176933992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4122866184165234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,bigbootybirds,2019/05/27,"I had thought day drinking was normal I wasn't sure if this is the appropriate place for this post, sorry if it's not. My dad has been a heavy drinker, even before I was born. I've only seen him completely sober for a year, but not as a permanent soution. I had a family member that didn't drink while in service in Afganistan. My dad didn't drink since he did not. He continued to drink shortly after that. He took me out to a bar. It was about 1 pm, my first time drinking before 9 pm. I am not a heavy nor frequent drinker. I saw my dad doing it all my life, so it should be fine, right? I guess I'm here to seek advice? I held many grudges against him as I grew up because of his drinking. I don't want to be part of it. I've decided I don't want to drink with my dad anymore. I've already rejected his offer one time. I'm not sure if this is the best choice.",0.2657050379960637,2.1340753903743352,2.3200788066422757,95.95863214185198,83.8663101604278,5.6480720517872225,21.60681114551084,6.8360192770164,0.3264288770053483,666,22,160,8,19,223,105,187,0.07400000000000001,0.879,0.047,-0.1406,0,1,9,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,2,4,5,0,0,8,0,20,9,0,0,3,22,30,9,0,7,9,4,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,10,2,8,1,2,8,0,2,11,1,0,2,15,2,22,4,19,12,3,20,0,1,2,0,12,7,0,4,10,98,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11115731539776756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255283610866154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1128115980815589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06934227412904277,0.0,0.19358945669352398,0.0,0.11937589669800212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11926699824242527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07336074668611457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7800368248178717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07513224316262929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10723543318210173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09675754760783216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12531085263047034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08034652995660722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1153268580901551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1114529861496691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07708142222095457,0.08651366002040997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12318252766626347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11884681891473875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10894314602093268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09714374160443667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09409698014997828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12733625433767434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2144201700214871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0903065259943356,0.13265962379100218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12638285930742846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13418796791839355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07325267547587727 alcoholism,wavvaj,2019/05/27,"How far along am I if I can't keep food down? 27. 5 years drinking almost every day. Been throwing up food every day for about 3 weeks now. I have slowed down on my drinking, typically just using it to fight off shakes *most* days, at least 45% of the days since this started. It's safe to assume I'm really not enjoying drinking right now lol. Anyone got any experience with this? New to the sub, don't plan on joining based off what I see here, so spare me your pity please. Just posting while praying to the porcelain gods.",0.99989010989011,3.4954271428571464,2.1695238095238096,93.89406593406595,87.09523809523809,4.754578754578755,19.505494505494504,6.297961479604792,0.016604395604395528,410,12,86,4,13,130,82,105,0.07400000000000001,0.825,0.102,0.4599,1,0,3,0,1,0,16.0,0,1,0,1,8,5,1,1,3,1,5,5,0,2,0,13,11,4,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,5,2,1,3,0,2,3,3,0,0,2,1,7,2,17,9,2,25,1,1,1,0,2,10,0,4,12,49,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16657032199083924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1131201907850244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11631217508514237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42911462420341134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4888638251968689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28030539273371224,0.0,0.0,0.16271716594289926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40228966519136383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13304115900167293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14785493083370613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16065687646715074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18259667444034844,0.0,0.0,0.15931236824896705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10656475965235286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1420575786621296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325552953241628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1376021649851079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11773972911282235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1436685270556042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13343179142930947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10712061875276407 alcoholism,Manc-Canuck,2019/05/27,"HELP! ADVICE NEEDED. Apologies in advance for long post. So my mother in law has had a drinking problem for a long time. It is one of those secrets that was never talked about. She was what I would call a high functioning alcoholic. It’s been getting a lot worse and my father in law came to my wife and I in a lot of distress last week. We decided to stage a mini intervention with just the three of us and my mother in law. That was today. So she immediately left after accusing us of ambushing her. Once she came back she threw me and my wife out. She refused to talk to us and in the end my father in law left too. Father in law tried to discuss a few times over the rest of the day but didn’t go well. In the end she drove (drunk) to a hotel for the night. The drunk driving has never happened before as far as we know and is of great concern. We went and picked up the car from the hotel and she was very upset about that. She threatened to hire a car and go to a hotel out of town if we didn’t return the car right away. We told her we would not bring it back and think it’s best for everyone to take some time and connect in the morning. I have no idea what to do. She is a very stubborn and intelligent woman but the alcohol is making her irrational and combative. This is probably not enough information but it’s late and I’m at my wits end. Hope someone can help. 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My life crashed. I'm am alcoholic.,0.09969696969696784,0.7184056363636415,3.003636363636364,80.05878787878791,129.0,8.73939393939394,40.03030303030303,7.793537801064563,5.594430303030304,46,4,8,2,3,16,11,11,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5614610057134232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5755174123324269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4645831635743992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3710845338850189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,innofuel,2019/05/27,"Should flumazenil be provided to the public OTC just like Naloxone? With the epidemic of opioid overdoes, Narcan(naloxone) have been sold over the counter in many states and Canada. &#x200B; Flumazenil is an effective antidote to benzos and alcohol (in larger doses), should we push flumazenil to be sold OTC, to prevent deaths from alcoholism?",11.97175757575758,12.839850418181818,9.367272727272725,60.55757575757579,53.90909090909091,12.424242424242426,45.60606060606061,11.855464076750405,6.109424242424242,283,15,35,7,3,83,42,55,0.0,0.88,0.12,0.7236,0,0,3,0,0,0,14.0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,4,0,7,3,0,1,0,9,9,2,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,1,10,2,0,5,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,25,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6771920316500468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3432862878476482,0.3849843794520566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15478763714977026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3212169350873089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3849843794520566,0.0 alcoholism,Leciram89,2019/05/27,"Check liver light came on. Is there any way to make the pain go away (on top of drinking water instead of alcohol)? Had a weekend of heavy binge drinking, killed a couple half gallons with the boyfriend, along with having been drinking heavily just in general the week leading up. I’ve gotten random pains before, I figure they’re usually related to the drinking and it just makes me slow down for a couple days. I woke up this morning to a pain just under my right ribs/in my back. It hurts to move and even lightly touch it and my self diagnosing makes me think it’s a liver thing. I haven’t had anything but water today (and tacos) but it hasn’t improved. If it doesn’t clear up by tomorrow, I should probably go see a doctor, just wondering if anyone else has had this pain before, seen a doctor about it or found a remedy for it. And yes, I have been reading all day about AA and it’s made me consider getting help. I know that if I go see my doctor for this they will highly recommend it (they’ve already suggested some sort of out patient treatment for drugs/alcohol before but I never followed through).",4.373738532110092,5.735859068807343,5.204483944954131,82.01663417431195,70.69724770642202,8.018807339449541,28.762614678899087,8.472884824447931,2.1341091743119267,879,33,165,14,16,286,129,218,0.07200000000000001,0.836,0.092,0.7422,1,0,7,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,1,2,10,6,1,0,12,1,14,17,2,5,3,40,33,13,1,4,11,0,1,0,0,2,9,0,0,1,15,11,7,0,5,6,1,7,4,6,1,1,11,6,16,0,29,20,2,31,0,1,3,0,4,13,0,8,10,111,31,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21750088324841985,0.0,0.0,0.11229463757097076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06920025692982876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07115292454956358,0.10426509636783822,0.08373977007376579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09560682473679108,0.07824712190287564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25977067280389715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11638627604921425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2251909030011209,0.0,0.13125350143572326,0.0,0.0,0.10328420935787902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31246686875796154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3987440505837712,0.0,0.0,0.08500738243308023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06721148864534247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1115745351149501,0.0,0.0,0.05316537498848157,0.0,0.17349757752333006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0682075508892208,0.10751497640951936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10893613337934023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11258231001455858,0.0,0.055924608425047616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09628772713582774,0.20377667463009289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10815472482431528,0.0,0.0,0.07848354836654871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4331190546053568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10971443947678564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1017874897946734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08690244309197312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16217901384685002,0.0,0.10615782306793872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0676047905245501,0.06520366842303363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09645653611802044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1120742107075048,0.0,0.0,0.08077231344620693,0.08162569551410206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11035432727050556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,aaxt,2019/02/17,"Should I go to AA? I have never posted here before but I've been toying with the idea of going to an AA meeting for a while and I figured this might be a good place to ask if it was a good idea. I have never been able to control how much alcohol I drink and it kept getting worse and worse until recently when I started organizing my whole life around alcohol, how I would get it and when I would be drinking. After about a month like this I realized this was a problem and I went cold turkey. It was a very rough time but I told myself that I would take a one month break and I almost made it but missed the mark by a few hours. Over the course of the month I realized that I have had problems with alcohol consumption for a while now but I don't know if I can really be considered an alcoholic. I've been through what my psychiatrist said is protracted withdrawal and it is starting to get better but I don't think I will ever be able to really control my drinking. I'm on meds for the protracted withdrawal now but I can't really grapple with the fact that I might not be able to drink indefinitely. I just feel weird going to an AA meeting because I feel like I caught myself before I things were out of control for too long and I was able to make it almost a month. I don't know if I really belong there. The reason I want to go is to meet other people who understand all of this but I don't know if it is a good idea. 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We’ve been buddies since we were 7. we’re 22 now and these past months he’s started drinking almost daily and usually to the point of blacking out, he mixes it with Xanax and some prescribed pills because he says it makes it better. It’s not just Health I’m worried about for the guy he’s been getting more and more aggressive with our friends and well he usually treats me the same the others are starting to not want him around. I’ve tried talking to him about but no matter what he says he’s fine and just having fun and that he’ll drink less next time. We play on a football team together and he’s started skipping games to go to the club, we also had a trip booked to Europe come May but the other people we’re going with don’t want him coming now. I’m hoping this is the right place to ask for advice wether you guys have been on the other end of this and come out alright or had a similar situation I could use the assistance as I’ve never had to deal with this before. TLDR friend is hitting it hard and I don’t know what to do.",4.52464761904762,4.727776160000005,5.100079365079367,87.1225,69.62222222222222,7.673015873015872,26.293650793650798,7.1686216300943375,1.08036507936508,856,23,183,7,14,275,132,225,0.044000000000000004,0.82,0.136,0.9682,0,0,2,0,0,0,10.0,4,1,0,2,9,13,1,0,13,1,18,5,0,2,1,43,39,15,0,4,7,0,1,0,3,2,3,2,0,2,15,23,2,0,1,7,0,7,6,1,1,0,7,4,12,12,26,28,5,29,0,0,1,0,29,9,0,5,13,112,27,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12438552080548712,0.0,0.0,0.1274617343656547,0.0,0.0,0.10179311723103077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11331436372273493,0.11899820750672074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07759430722587479,0.0,0.10831372324488003,0.0,0.0,0.11257694227065974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.328945092150114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.101630058578932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13122956303157388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2493898884406233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127404386654766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2950299314533282,0.0,0.06650334678533737,0.0,0.2170241358581549,0.10676413125480977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2520726159446728,0.0,0.0,0.11402610982823197,0.0,0.0,0.13530245396931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1264268842300737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0699548085333906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08496652105262098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1016010150284582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09817326850596256,0.0,0.13537349493814507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12151193251140395,0.08824629538795574,0.0,0.1329901087830886,0.0,0.12032942566004458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10870427060263636,0.0,0.20245094177924394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10529493124492728,0.14307837992359165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2702878261342627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10231022725924717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07422334884598694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08642100281007169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1099369888549138,0.28038211343337444,0.0,0.15015692143726056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1144482663519356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12926834863945905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,lajoyofmylife,2019/02/17,"Alcoholic brother Hello, I am a (21/F) and looking for advice about my (27/M) brother. He is generally a good guy. Currently is on workman’s comp due to an unrelated injury but got a DUI during this time. He’s always had a drinking problem and occasionally takes Xanax when things get bad. He is a pretty big asshole when he drinks and my mom takes things personally and gets very upset when he’s drunk, but my brother makes her feel guilty when she yells at him and stands up for herself. All of his actions just piss me off and when things get bad I just run away from everything. I have this mentality that I shouldn’t have to babysit my older brother because it’s his choice and he’s going to do what he wants anyway. But I feel really guilty for having this mentality. I guess I’m looking for advice on how to understand where he’s coming from so I can help him out? Everything that my family does seems to be counterproductive, but they’re always there for him when he gets bad and I choose not to be bc I don’t feel like it helps. Any thoughts? Open to constructive criticism.",3.3822222222222216,5.2415253953488365,4.6004263565891526,83.35417958656333,74.11627906976744,7.75452196382429,25.43281653746769,8.515128840125781,1.695552971576228,860,29,172,16,18,283,126,215,0.18,0.747,0.073,-0.9797,1,0,3,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,0,14,8,1,1,6,0,14,6,1,2,1,33,35,20,0,3,7,5,3,1,0,1,2,1,0,2,11,11,4,0,7,3,0,4,3,6,0,0,3,6,23,2,23,29,1,25,0,0,2,0,27,10,1,2,11,104,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2518230099614444,0.0,0.13770231313676615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2144283658506879,0.0,0.0,0.08762295864345811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12105956280536782,0.0,0.32275509355562504,0.07854624828901652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11099355010784637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11275819845030285,0.0,0.0,0.25244944891646964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2316055712383112,0.0,0.1214690614909298,0.0,0.19545249947732588,0.09205103323286863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2692768877204336,0.0,0.0732288757997079,0.1080739330205019,0.10305375098982428,0.0,0.14194367674911385,0.12758254430455068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17273194279605542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06294998961686711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2164044307129128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0860089057748254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2597025893592914,0.0,0.0,0.15090849305280926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11250754362402278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13108758055584951,0.0,0.12329280851792165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08254511827701347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11730092388346085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19375952335160146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25680822703761724,0.0,0.0,0.10229313794453036,0.07513393437908167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13413822109095508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10631539968976828,0.07599953691958779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Nuggetswoo,2019/02/17,"Sixth months sober, problems with friends in college This is my first post here and I’m on mobile, forgive me. My problem is pretty much what the title says, I’m coming up on my six months and I’m realizing that the college environment doesn’t welcome sobriety. I have noticed that as soon as my friends find out that I don’t drink they stop hanging out with me and generally stop talking to me. Usually this wouldn’t be an issue but I go to one of the biggest party schools in America, and the only thing any of my friends seem to do is drink. I guess I was just looking to vent, but if anyone has any advice as how to keep friendships together like this I would love some advice. 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Mixed emotions. All the alcohol in the house is gone. It’s a good thing. I was just waiting for myself to finish it off, to sleep it off for a couple of hours, and then wake up, ready to start my life, alcohol free. But I’ve done this before. When the alcohol is gone, I panic. I don’t want to drink, but when it’s not even an option, it’s hard to do anything. My entire mind is focused on if I’m going to get more or if I can make myself do something else. Doing something else is always too hard. I’m just so tired. Not just physically, but mentally. I need to pull it together. 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Hey everyone, So, I’ve been drinking heavily for a few years. I’m a former IV heroin/opiate addict that stopped that nonsense some years ago (3-4, can’t remember exactly.) I typically have been drinking every evening/night. I don’t drink during the day, I would just nurse my hangovers. Drinking rarely started before 4:00-6-00 pm and would continue for a good eight hours or so. The last night I drank was on Valentine’s Day. I slept 9 hours the night before last, had a 3 hour nap, and ten hours last night. Very odd for me. I’ve been anxious and clammy and a bit shakey. Last night I slept from about 10-4 and woke up for an hour and went back to bed and kept falling asleep and waking up for hours and had just crazy dreams the whole time. I’ve been to detox and rehab lots of times and have seen people in really bad alcohol withdrawal. Could I be experiencing a milder version? A little shakey, exhausted, anxious, gut a bit messed up... if it’s been over 48 hours then what should I expect? I’m 29 and back in school and trying to not fuck this up this time and have a test coming up... Thanks",3.7027667881311817,5.050718464601771,4.318599687662676,87.77863872982824,72.31858407079645,7.6185320145757425,24.356064549713693,8.124751697461798,1.2043251431546067,887,25,186,13,17,282,134,226,0.113,0.8240000000000001,0.063,-0.8624,0,0,6,0,0,0,38.0,0,0,0,0,7,6,1,0,14,0,19,18,5,0,1,31,32,19,0,6,5,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,1,0,7,15,7,2,1,6,0,3,3,4,0,2,15,3,10,2,20,12,7,43,0,0,1,1,1,10,1,4,30,100,17,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0917809521463225,0.0,0.0,0.07463051417827052,0.17994980675223876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1902244264697324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12947583710967422,0.07029622498782404,0.0,0.0,0.1432812031926923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18383020459986374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07252335649879171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06721990823273406,0.0,0.0,0.10859285657215684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32990171706199656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07093480760773413,0.08044840213941154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07783350703080892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07061567419959766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5803803510432178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2745086095104814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08438180784335086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07157643882359349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3950391934959457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058367651862072385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05393510734832853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09537233914537224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0852060978264677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059591040692812985,0.0,0.0,0.07038770280565494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07751204437528329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14727788514296106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057160371247469935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06946664581429163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07804618541652329,0.0,0.0939965880432214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11961417839020065,0.0,0.0,0.10843288326268262 alcoholism,Reddog74b,2019/02/17,"Been sober two months but don't feel much better How long does it take to feel better? Worth noting: Saw my doctor and all tests were great for the first time in years. But I still don't wake up feeling refreshed. Still always tired.",2.112391304347824,4.630414152173916,1.5936521739130465,100.02308695652177,81.3913043478261,3.68,13.54782608695652,3.1291,-1.5452382608695654,185,2,39,0,5,53,40,46,0.205,0.653,0.141,-0.3865,0,0,0,0,0,1,5.0,0,0,0,3,3,3,0,0,1,0,4,3,1,1,1,8,9,4,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,3,4,2,3,4,6,2,9,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,7,22,3,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19622351463723647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4171323194114363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413746944829745,0.20637017790349804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3577173779217184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2005908080709172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25999554063570457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20869581416700528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18823156056008147,0.0,0.1733569395317967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3766568884241118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17730944558408554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375102087253966,0.2710436917944267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23036467221108164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15186219297969752 alcoholism,cityboem,2019/02/17,"I think im an alcoholic, need some advice on how to continue with life I feel like i have to award myself with alcohol everytime i go sober for some periods of time. Started to ruin my relationships with people ive known since my childhood. I feel like time just goes by and my mind is sometimes cloudy. Recent insomnia and night sweats left me with anxiety and racy heart. Everytime i walk out of my apartment my senses become hightend and i start to feel like everyone is judging me or has seen me drunk and blackout. I always assume ive done something terribly wrong when i have blackouts. The only thing im proud off is going to gym atleast 4 times a week. 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Not the rapey or aggressive kind, but to the point where everyone stares at me. Anyways, I had to sit out front at this party because I was fucked up and couldn’t stand up, when two cholos tried to rob me. They aimed a gun at my right lung, and told me to hand over my airpods and wallet. I was so drunk I didn’t even care and told them to kill me. Obviously they didn’t, but it got me punched in the face and my airpods stolen. I told my friends and someone snitched, and the campus cop found a gun in the thief’s car. I can’t help to feel this is all my fault.",2.361614100185527,3.3446405850340133,3.1878045763760063,96.00968460111318,75.12244897959185,6.705998763141621,22.88744588744589,6.980632752743323,0.338719727891156,534,14,131,5,11,169,90,147,0.217,0.645,0.138,-0.9454,0,0,1,3,0,1,16.0,0,1,3,0,6,8,3,0,8,0,9,6,3,0,3,20,20,13,1,2,4,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,4,8,2,0,3,1,0,2,5,5,0,1,11,3,22,3,18,7,2,22,0,0,1,1,11,15,1,2,2,81,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19073224440112466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10879484798902883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18196405388882397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14249533463872416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11787904386783687,0.0,0.0,0.17053760240665894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09024078354223518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19568528810230595,0.13788699064929613,0.16499444765769064,0.09324423096156943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28548065420980634,0.0,0.0,0.176715295969242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1196259902204284,0.18856542052659075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19745277672656047,0.185851078388528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3374273717061104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17621952574050612,0.0,0.0,0.1524140754494473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1512187093336507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5116128072199768,0.0,0.12117074305994853,0.0,0.17434116822801446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14166273165401605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,kiloreno,2019/01/15,Runs in my family. I thought I was ok until recently. I just keep getting fucked up on beer and hating myself the next day. Its like its not even my fucking decision anymore to go out and buy it. 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Just landed my dream job with my dream company with awesome benefits/pay. I already know I’ve starting my road into alcoholism and I want to ensure I don’t fall into a vicious cycle. For reference, I am 21 years old. Started “drinking” (not often at all) at around 14. At 16-17 I was drinking regularly-ish (1-2 days a week). For about 8 months this past year I would absolutely demolish a case of beer between Friday and Sunday, then continue to drink when I could and as much as I could the rest of the week, (at the expense of my fathers liquor cabinet) until Friday rolled around again. I have slowed down quite a bit since being laid off from my last job, and I would like some opinions on how to deal with this issue. I feel I can slow down but the temptations are extremely real. 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Hello, I am looking for advice for my father. He has been drinking since the 80’s he’s 62 YOA now. He started of drinking casually to weekly to daily. From the past 5 years he has been drinking daily and needs it as early as the afternoon. Last week he was hospitalized due to his sodium levels being down, spent 3 days in the hospital. My family and I talked to him and our family doctors advised him that due to his drinking habits it’s affecting his liver. He promised us that this he won’t drink again (the 9838729th...promise he made). I have taken him to AA meetings in which he went once but never returned. My family and I requested him to go to inpatient rehab but he says he will stop on his own but continues after a few days. I would like to ask if anyone can please recommend a option we have? We live in New Jersey, my father is covered under my mothers insurance. From speaking to him he has told us he wants to quit but his actions always speak louder than his words. My family and o are frustrated. I want to help him before this gets any worse. I don’t want to lose my father!! Thank you in advance for reading and or providing suggestions. 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I now work in production at a brewery. I’ve always been sensitive and aware of my drinking habits. Never too bad, mostly on the weekends etc etc. some of my boyfriends have done terrible things to me while drunk, so I’m pretty aware. I’m recently going through relationship issues/breakup/anxiety problems and I had to WORK HARD to not start drinking until 4pm. I’m justifying 4-5pm a reasonable hour to start drinking. It’s also my day off. And on days I do work, I have one beer at work before I go home. The difference is that it was difficult for me to get through my day without just wanting to pour 4oz of whiskey into a cup. When I go to my local bar, it’s a shot and a beer. I sip it, and At about 2 beers and 3 bullet bourbons later, I’m done. I CRAVED it today. When I woke up. This is easily the first time I have craved alcohol. I sleep at night with Advil pms. Yes, I’m working on insurance paperwork to see a better therapist. But I just want the warm feeling of even a little whiskey to get me through my day. It’s astonishing how much better I feel after some whiskey. At dinner, I had 3 cocktails. Not bad. But I left my group to go have more at the bar. I can’t stand going home and being alone. I’m scared. 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My husband drinks often and can never have just one (or five). Recently he had an emotional breakdown about how he thinks he is an alcoholic so we started paying for expensive counseling. He and the counselor agreed he wouldn’t drink while under his care. He was scheduled to go on a vacation and I asked if it was too tempting and if he should cancel and he said no. I asked him multiple times to tell his family that he was going on vacation with about this new situation so they could be aware before hand, supportive and help him be accountable. He kept putting it off and giving excuses and of course, has been drinking the whole time he is on vacation. His siblings are posting multiple pictures of it on social media. My initial reaction was to blow up. I immediately cleaned out our liquor cabinet at home and all the alcohol. Now that I feel a little more calm, what’s the best way to handle this? I haven’t spoken to him yet and don’t want to be reactionary. I want him to feel I’m supportive but I still need to hold him accountable. The way I feel, right or wrong, is deceived and mislead. He originally told me he hides his drinking from me and I am not comfortable in a marriage where things are hidden, that’s a very slippery slope in my opinion. 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Long story short, we got our buddy to commit to rehab. We offered “let’s go now” option but got the “let’s go tomorrow” line. How can I and friends best support our buddy through these difficult times? I’m worried tomorrow is going to be another excuse compounded by more lies and excuses. Thanks in advance for help. It’s been an emotional day but getting the commitment is the first step toward recovery. 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My boyfriend wants me to go to rehab. This weekend I made a complete ass of myself and fell asleep at the table at his union crab feed. They to drag me out. I’m mortified and sad for him. I usually binge drink at home 2-3 a weeks, never in public. I called rehab yesterday, they should be calling me today. I live by myself and have bills, so I need to do out patient, however they told me I need a 7 day detox first. That’ll be tough too, as I have pets and bills to pay. So I inquired to my doctor about Naltrexone. Hes approved me for it. Long story short I started drinking when my daughter died 2 years ago. I’ve come to terms with it now years later but for 2 years I binged drank every night. I kept my job, still had a normal life, but secretly drank at night. I’ve calmed down a bit as my current bf hates it but when I do it’s to black out. I understand his concern, I’m honestly still glad he’s stuck by me. It’s just that some days that wicked devils talk me into going to the liquor store, I want to stop. Any one have any success on Naltrexone?",1.156737967914438,2.908399815126053,2.858502673796792,93.83689839572195,80.26050420168067,5.839877769289534,20.06187929717341,6.782984794422108,0.14401008403361315,868,22,198,9,22,287,141,238,0.161,0.753,0.087,-0.9538,3,0,2,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,3,3,12,8,1,0,8,0,11,13,2,1,2,34,32,14,1,8,5,1,2,0,1,2,5,0,2,0,9,10,6,3,4,4,4,4,1,4,0,2,8,3,36,4,33,20,3,46,1,1,1,1,16,12,1,1,29,118,45,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1117048909373848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17138934434743086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13757598471567162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2573512619196934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10855095556167776,0.1321245626771546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16253878636017402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13078390514883725,0.0,0.0,0.12898191939043105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24689388603459506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11398798276354832,0.10617325948684678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1209943749000222,0.0,0.0,0.1071884834177984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1432347093149474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11288488695724508,0.12441394266600453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12640354227141612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12505066332001818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08900827797783402,0.0,0.0,0.11127374968985236,0.11151950596009033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11923864993195105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3737547613784757,0.09719070776169693,0.0,0.0,0.23651349859414664,0.12346816194833875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08539117569451819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12068774880567855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08919422269469073,0.0,0.2012718380633564,0.21070873628063613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012862620335633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2388953916754297,0.1204129448392083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13118629021793435,0.0,0.0,0.13878796368410098,0.0,0.14865408569867994,0.0,0.10108180992919616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2434490140979925 alcoholism,zaxyepomme,2019/07/09,I'm not able to sleep. So I dont know If I am a alcoholic of not. But for the past 3 months I was drinking 5-6 shots of vodka before bed time and It made me sleep like a baby. I stopped that bad habits like 1 week ago and I can not sleep. I slept 2 hours a night now (instead of 6-8 hrs) when will my natural sleep schedule will readjust?,-0.2096103896103898,1.1344005064935097,2.185714285714287,98.98428571428572,82.89610389610391,5.43896103896104,20.090909090909093,6.1826913282559595,-0.2419038961038961,257,7,68,2,7,88,58,77,0.078,0.813,0.109,0.2732,0,0,3,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,4,0,6,7,5,1,0,10,10,6,0,1,5,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,1,0,2,2,2,1,1,2,0,0,4,1,0,0,3,0,8,2,5,5,0,11,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,13,36,10,0,0.18276057034394946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16200621846809873,0.19531546865908864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15259744232307462,0.0,0.0,0.1555157844106473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21419402731340534,0.1790357812612663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17998234747538205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10044042985920656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.178575166154132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17293247062516726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14587774361099284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17150841472722864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17446564418288413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7315702313685647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15279602028416306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10656915828913124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14659950558225368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,archenemy_43,2019/07/09,Books? What are some books that helped you change the way you think about alcohol?,3.0440000000000005,6.125569733333336,0.7083333333333357,103.34250000000002,85.0,5.666666666666668,14.166666666666668,7.1686216300943375,-0.5183333333333331,66,1,14,1,2,17,13,15,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,8,4,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5517923152696946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5462013236060922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3460804559680987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3308389614411793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4098332032543212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Dankasaur,2019/07/09,"Need to rant. So I've been trying to restart my life. I'm an alcoholic and addict. Been clean and sober a few months. I've enrolled in school in the fall for trades, left my job as a bartender to serve days, going to meetings, etc. While applying for OSAP, there was a question asking if I self identified as someone with a disability. I sat on that question for a while, not sure if I should check yes or no. The government of Canada website has alcoholism and addiction listed as disabilities, and although I felt weird checking it, I didn't want to falsify my claim and it was only ""self Identify"" so I checked yes. Fast forward a couple weeks and my OSAP has all been sorted out except I have disability forms needing to be filled out by doctors and psychiatrists. I made an appointment with my school's financial aid to talk to them about it because thus far, I've been dealing with it myself and have not had professional help. At the meeting, she immediately asked me what my disability was. I told her alcoholism and addiction. She said ""these forms are for life long illnesses only. Why did you check yes?"" I told her that although I was managing the condition and not using, it was something I'd be doing for the rest of my life. She then said, ""Well, why are you even going to school then?"" Put on the spot and feeling defensive, I told her that I was going to school to restart my life. That my positions managing and bartending and the general restaurant industry scene has been making it hard for me to stay clean. That I've taken steps back professionally to manage it and want to pursue a different career. She said ""well I'm not sure this condition even qualifies."" Being stressed enough about school and this whole situation in general, I told her to change my form to say NO on the disability line and washed my hands of it. I've been dealing with it on my own so far, I can keep doing it. A little disappointed in my choice of school at the moment.",5.259681697612733,6.426726175066317,5.996564986737404,77.89627984084883,68.41644562334218,9.619628647214855,30.415119363395227,9.851270322608157,2.9112567639257305,1556,60,294,36,26,509,181,377,0.076,0.875,0.049,-0.7933,2,0,4,0,0,0,46.0,0,2,1,0,11,8,1,1,19,3,29,14,1,4,3,51,55,31,0,7,8,0,4,0,0,1,13,4,2,2,19,22,3,2,4,0,5,8,7,4,2,0,26,8,42,4,49,25,10,36,0,1,0,0,31,17,0,6,12,208,61,17,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26351032712050954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2583250191551585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15065029318078574,0.0,0.0,0.061955884078900576,0.0,0.04911672779641574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08523585382793512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08915280934727675,0.0,0.05196310434264435,0.16613504151796948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08418193558581691,0.0,0.08247017325141957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08325374389100691,0.0898605134002151,0.1064357920908563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04074027477685531,0.0,0.07736299093400159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1373749671502034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0721778387918887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05400657574911994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07995655451512794,0.07161723945203413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08754311189337158,0.0,0.2276451812884734,0.0,0.08075560076406077,0.0,0.07130482334971111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07624039217765673,0.05378329461981948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06431282883247709,0.0,0.0,0.1194881424857778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12255923080879752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08099840775374782,0.18052104262164825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2299309406126625,0.06407511166091882,0.0,0.4892668072372853,0.0,0.0,0.16811102108597642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0905677502835644,0.0,0.0,0.06826948445955118,0.06202925265518047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08588040314219246,0.0,0.0,0.09229642783327524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15187873858027373,0.0,0.0,0.06476175589085201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.307964913827755,0.0,0.054703972787067005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06958944991448779,0.0,0.0,0.09504842430660107,0.0,0.06463103058804627,0.0,0.1448901226430489,0.0,0.14540971797922295,0.08995719730601168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,battlefieldman1942,2019/07/09,"Is my best friend alcoholic? As the titles states , I’m pretty sure I can answer my own question but I wanted to see if others would agree . We are almost 30 and his life still revolves around alcohol and partying every day of the weekend is like a college house party playing beer pong . Week days are filled with drinking with dinner . He’s put on a ton of weight in the last 3 years He looks terrible his face is red and looks aged , he has excessive sweating where walking 5 feet looks like he just went in the ocean. And he gets nose bleeds . Are these all signs of an alcoholic ?",2.6744497607655475,4.966842298245614,3.253572567783096,90.19485645933014,77.77192982456141,6.250717703349283,22.64433811802233,7.348242739294969,0.858764912280702,458,14,91,6,11,143,87,114,0.033,0.7490000000000001,0.218,0.9664,0,0,5,0,0,0,9.0,1,0,0,1,4,7,0,0,7,0,9,13,4,0,2,19,17,7,0,3,3,0,1,2,1,1,5,0,0,0,2,8,7,0,2,4,0,4,0,1,0,0,1,7,7,6,11,15,4,18,0,0,5,0,10,5,0,3,10,49,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5278694360152345,0.1648691641193484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14656982758518866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17278579628628374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21236607025258555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16129037727146384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13872133776836426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12720507434636416,0.0,0.08602072810482747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1899793530671236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342084472506399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11629432357281275,0.16087541673182618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4147834636523735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16750415114157938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1655146836297023,0.18444117660228704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13120152785014128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1314864908838243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15517688596186707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09711246378099862,0.0,0.1320690724312062,0.20049444558024268,0.0,0.15262847132213078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11695977899955028,0.0,0.0,0.10602661183957424 alcoholism,ashblairxoxo,2018/11/28,"Rehab I’m currently in a rehab program for all women. I’ve been here since last night and it’s ok. It’s a small house that holds 14 women and it’s entirely free. I’m not supposed to have a cell phone but with it not being as strict as a mental institution, it was fairly lax and easy to get around.. although, I’m going against rules, I just HAVE to have the advice I’m seeking because I’m feeling as though this is NOT going to work for me. I’m fairly agnostic and the teaching about being sober is only religion based. I feel as though I can’t connect with anyone or truly feel what they’re saying because it’s all about God. I want to leave but, if I don’t stick it out, I’m afraid that my family will say I didn’t try. But I just know in my heart that essentially being in church for 14 days is not going to fix me. 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I’ve(29) been with my boyfriend (34) for almost 3 years. We have an amazing life together and are happy in almost every way. I’m really worried about his drinking. He’s struggled with addiction problems for a majority of his adult life which ruined his past relationship of 9 years. He was sober when I met him, which is where a lot of my attraction for him came from. Shortly after we started dating he picked up drinking again. I have struggled for the past 2 years to understand WHY he drinks so much. He’s a career bartender(and a mighty good one I might add) that works 5 nights a week at a family restaurant that closes at 9pm and he consistently does not get home until 1-2am. I reached my boiling point about 5 months ago. For these past months I’ve explained to him multiple times how his drinking is effecting me and our relationship. I’m mostly worried about his drinking and driving. He WILL eventually hurt someone, himself, or get a DUI. All we do is get in screaming matches 3 nights a week. The only time we don’t is when I chose to ignore him or pretend to be asleep when he gets home. Last night he pulled up at 1am and hit the sidewall of our driveway hard enough to dent and crack his front bumper pretty bad. This is not the first time this has happened ( he hit my car last year), and I can’t help but to feel like next time it will be major. I don’t know what to do, I feel as though I’ve done everything I could to get my point across. I’ve been nice, mean, understanding, empathetic to his reasons, I’ve walked out at times and spent a couple days away from him. It seems to stop for a week or so but then picks up again. He will not go to meetings, but will admit he has a problem. I’m at a loss. Our sex life is struggling, my happiness is wavering. Our lease will be up in July and as of now I do not intend on resigning with him in this condition. My sanity is being pushed to its limit. Summery- my boyfriend is an alcoholic, I’ve tried everything. Where do I go from here? Do I stay or go? How do I help him? 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Last week I got a DUI after hitting a tree. I could have killed me or someone else. I've been sober since, and today marks 7 days of sobriety. Before that, I smoked pot nightly, and drank 4-5 nights a week, 2-3 drinks a night. More with friends or on weekends. I have depression and anxiety, and I've been isolating myself more and more, and the depression has been getting worse and worse. After a chemical dependency evaluation, I'm convinced that a sober life is the only life I'm capable of living without letting booze/drugs destroy me. I'm enrolled in an outpatient treatment program, and they want me to start going to AA meetings. Here's a couple of things I'm really curious about: 1) I'm an atheist. I'm not agnostic or spiritual in any way. I do not believe in any sort of higher power. Is AA still a place that I would be welcomed? 2) Assuming that the answer to 1 is yes, can I just show up at a meeting? I've looked up meetings around me, and it looks like they fall into a bunch of different categories. Is there a type of meeting that is best for newcomers? 3) I'm a very anxious person. What should I expect to happen at the meeting? Should I be ready to share my story with folks? Should I mention my atheism? Should I just go and plan to remain silent? Thank you all.",2.4262222222222216,4.499938066666669,4.180518518518522,84.32633333333334,77.5925925925926,7.134814814814818,26.72592592592593,8.109356740369918,1.8631303703703712,1058,43,206,19,25,356,156,270,0.08199999999999999,0.7759999999999999,0.142,0.9184,2,0,4,0,0,0,42.0,0,1,2,3,7,11,2,0,19,1,22,4,0,1,1,36,43,13,1,8,8,0,0,1,1,5,2,0,0,1,8,14,2,0,3,3,0,3,3,4,3,0,5,3,21,7,31,28,6,29,1,2,3,0,15,12,0,6,14,127,29,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13967869689624224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13693012507546995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17426319737439408,0.0,0.09801775490293732,0.14474844390787842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1140613006979479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10902769737981448,0.14435665306755638,0.13446268574676112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10229997584318466,0.14177146342243888,0.0,0.08263211670574919,0.0,0.2207133352432916,0.0,0.0,0.13386674283303784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12551689883754066,0.14858808341600802,0.0,0.10703470565317393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.098991562413434,0.0,0.06694171847148057,0.0,0.145636465996486,0.0,0.10247586036203868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11330338180007132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08588166020167495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14175491668207593,0.0,0.0,0.10444161878516696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13101980903439664,0.18100153393157825,0.06259698733728604,0.0,0.11313958565290667,0.0,0.3227863616383937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3607190281649335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09744730219330118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1118766393202879,0.13386674283303784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08208223313441977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10598900633713523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10856264418123647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09068982959986184,0.0,0.10232338006743633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11796327123347547,0.0,0.0,0.08512271108025346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12145059236289865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1057192188377383,0.07557335718638998,0.1017022351140685,0.2055534953088412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12351105362001465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2611472510663916,0.0910186273793594,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,lbarnes921,2018/11/28,"My best friend has a drinking problem and I don’t know how to help her. My best friend started having a noticeable drinking problem last year, which has only since become worse. She often drinks alone and is drinking more frequently (I think she may have drank everyday last week and did not make it to her family for thanksgiving because she got drunk that morning and could not drive). It seems like every time she drinks she blacks out. Usually I have an idea when she is drinking more often because she doesn’t respond to my texts and it is difficult to call her because I moved away from her in May (5 hour time difference now) . It doesn’t help that my work schedule is also all over the place and I work longer hours. She called me last week drunk and basically mentioned how her drunk-self will do anything and doesn’t have any limits. She mentioned her drunk-self wants to try cocaine. This really worried me as she isn’t the type that has ever gotten into any other drugs and I didn’t know where this came from. I was finally able to talk to her again this today when I thought she was sober, but she later admitted she started drinking while talking to me. She also forgot some things she already told me in the same conversation today that made me think she was really drunk but she denies it. And I feel bad for asking accusatory questions about her drinking, but she has lied about this before? Not sure how to approach that. She also mentioned today that she does not care if she dies. She says she’s not trying to do anything suicidal but also that she just does not really see anything worth living for. And just for background information, she has gone to inpatient rehab two times in the past year, and was sober (I think?) for the majority of the spring last year until things started to go downhill when she got anxiety at work. Things have just continued to go downhill and now she is drinking- what seems like everyday unless somebody is with her. She is seeing a therapist, she is on some sort of medications for her drinking/mental issues, and she sometimes goes to AA meetings. She says she should get a sponsor but was informed she should take her time to pick one. Well, I feel like the idea of picking one right now is out the window since her drinking has become more frequent but I’m not entirely sure. I am so worried about her and I also feel like I don’t know what to do. I know I don’t understand what she is going through and I’m sure I’m handling this wrong. I guess my approach is to let her know I am here for her but I’m also trying not to enable her- and honestly that’s what I think sounds like a good idea? But I also don’t even know if I’m doing that or if that’s the right approach. Basically I’ve just been telling her I’m here but then I think I maybe get upset when she tells me things like she wants to try cocaine, and then I just tell her I’m worried and then I feel stumped and helpless. If anyone has any advice or information that could be helpful, I would greatly appreciate it. Please and thank you.",3.90335,5.6554099016666655,4.310333333333337,86.42350000000002,72.48333333333333,7.066666666666667,26.166666666666664,7.720077496677588,1.3985666666666663,2431,82,475,31,48,764,237,600,0.107,0.7979999999999999,0.095,-0.807,0,1,14,0,0,0,49.0,0,1,0,7,35,26,0,1,15,0,55,17,0,7,5,114,109,58,2,13,29,0,4,6,2,6,3,3,1,0,32,26,14,2,27,13,1,10,17,7,2,3,18,10,91,19,49,81,10,70,0,1,3,0,82,14,0,17,52,334,123,4,0.0511222680458017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04995608866746158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05294725202609107,0.05641469402426784,0.28617721500382626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10429468598524264,0.0,0.039108395127237336,0.0,0.0,0.03574587846956212,0.0,0.12620781210647794,0.0,0.047792419623912466,0.0,0.04803105367118773,0.0,0.04268495843968159,0.09349098030295158,0.11292105716794601,0.0435012847740187,0.0,0.10729933264154558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10440310297397516,0.05847025551679363,0.052122559393256086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08163394235552335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05305684306632027,0.053411889287762325,0.0,0.0,0.08947488254753205,0.0,0.0,0.5008036023417339,0.05928560068720778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033765775898659145,0.046243018252508365,0.04307271571392905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04819352454823963,0.0,0.1033958191049734,0.07304351701326578,0.0,0.05600194580745513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07899387495583493,0.0,0.053418550120259714,0.0,0.08716188913067563,0.042878932957239366,0.0817742957285815,0.056362480997956835,0.05631694182791243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10279853597981932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10069027245683156,0.0,0.0,0.17313245399957045,0.0,0.05335836585760062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16857276933097168,0.16668588662220826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05227598271646205,0.0,0.14985454729005793,0.0,0.04514189928781148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048373126109666965,0.034124510891489795,0.0,0.05135918955185933,0.0,0.0,0.051500306720770085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05433488045576927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05820304100625641,0.0,0.0,0.06928354376506264,0.03888078850645781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048801989454921535,0.0,0.0,0.053411889287762325,0.056116898585319784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09783421261344896,0.0,0.0,0.0572686400919688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09825070191188504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08731627516757533,0.0,0.08130895889522909,0.0,0.0,0.08147565762029511,0.09307958562157632,0.1066633498482977,0.0,0.0,0.08457773682085695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050561230290307034,0.0,0.10855381334306413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055919463762245915,0.0,0.14454639787793122,0.0,0.0384375833256845,0.08218028515623872,0.1340493467316185,0.04706651592324912,0.0,0.059356893449641165,0.13585345318406006,0.16378542568519633,0.0,0.04058537041561242,0.11923922244758528,0.0,0.14537379761254673,0.048849517914430866,0.0,0.13883465699716516,0.0,0.049939027524668986,0.05322008395929573,0.0,0.0,0.056303955752822765,0.0,0.060306476451413016,0.0,0.08201439955733965,0.0,0.04596505851075184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1116528600018524,0.15575143420336776,0.05209795863621764,0.03631579245021147,0.055894174799997684,0.0,0.09876319353629896 alcoholism,Wi_Tozzi,2018/11/28,"How to help mom with her drinking? I’ve always known my mom was a drinker but recently she’s been in a bad place and keeps drinking nightly after we fall asleep and gets absolutely wasted or drinks when she’s having a rough day. The day after she’s volatile and angry towards everyone and I don’t want to see it get worse because it definitely could. How do I help her address this problem/help her with it? She’s not very emotionally stable in general, I know she won’t take it well but I want to lessen the anger and sadness she’ll have when her only son brings up this problem. ",2.0472598870056515,4.360919347457628,3.245000000000001,89.31179378531073,80.10169491525423,5.967231638418079,24.240112994350284,7.1686216300943375,0.9889638418079092,465,17,95,6,12,150,75,118,0.25,0.644,0.106,-0.9768,0,0,4,0,0,0,7.0,1,0,0,0,5,5,1,0,5,0,9,4,1,2,0,22,18,12,0,4,4,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,6,8,3,1,2,3,0,2,3,4,1,0,2,2,16,1,11,13,0,15,0,1,1,0,16,5,0,1,8,60,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13341190234924075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13387336715251094,0.09773897557872824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12801477542154793,0.0,0.0,0.20680614585694154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4712029739164612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18035575167515305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15320735186431045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16753726451695902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3224083296089913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14251347619963195,0.0,0.0,0.08811614623939433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3755657803753744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15046391751384874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1219423015781899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675163740649811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3068386603628791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15831187083953893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1277665602276197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12055227164590344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13229350198479226,0.18913995371608225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1441607858864869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16339547698654666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,nannygal3,2019/08/24,"Worried about a loved one My ex boyfriend and I broke up in June instead of doing a long distance relationship this year. Since then, he has been drinking every day after work. He recently told me that he has two rum and cokes (half rum, half coke, not sure how many ounces that would be) each day when he gets home, then makes dinner and eats and sobers up for bed. My worry is that he is an addict (one year clean from opiates) and I don’t think it is possible for this drinking to remain harmless and responsible. How worrisome does this sound? We are 4000km from each other and I have no way of doing anything about his drinking but I am afraid for what may happen. I am moving across the country to be with him in April once I graduate and have no idea what I’ll be walking into.",4.899999999999999,5.384644509554138,5.113891719745227,86.36192038216564,68.87261146496813,7.808662420382165,27.16496815286624,7.554174236665415,1.3105495541401275,616,18,128,6,10,194,106,157,0.085,0.867,0.048,-0.5763,0,0,3,0,0,0,15.0,1,0,0,1,6,5,0,1,4,0,19,9,0,3,1,23,25,14,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,3,0,10,13,7,0,2,5,0,2,4,2,0,5,2,1,12,3,19,18,2,21,0,1,0,1,12,6,0,1,12,89,22,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17259670065809968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13028729112218115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20421196687425625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13855053672222234,0.0,0.0,0.4652921976847023,0.0,0.16200513828463473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1333949307411117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08271783744620362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14000552916543849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15881203843813074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1787287019753501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401118967782294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1428937330842679,0.0,0.10568260420766863,0.16051584524341045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16827352292718414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16861006006818727,0.2145690924951493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17848669838074752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15632600467323254,0.1699808934610232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13096737875073994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1492186442872186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10144772695915667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1512855168504023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1546596959935226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12567034644718822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11526187193081705,0.3215717333508844,0.0,0.1124689385939499,0.0,0.0,0.20391113249889928 alcoholism,Bousmcswaggy,2019/08/24,"I was a heavy binge drinker on weekends and quit for a year. When do the benefits start? I was never an alcoholic but most weekends I would get pretty drunk even occasionally blacking out a bit. I also used kratom 2 times a week because I have bad GAD. I quit all substances and hoped it might be good for me but the only positive thing is no Sunday hangover. Before i would have 2 good days from kratom a week and 1 good night from drinking but now its just 7 bad days. I am not sure if there is any point in keeping this up. I do meditation everyday which helps slightly. I also tried 6 different medications non of which helped except benzodiazepines which I don’t take anymore because of the risks. CBT did nothing. Therapy did nothing. Diet and exercise help mildly.",3.7706185031185058,5.954020479729731,4.636486486486486,82.09853430353432,73.93243243243244,7.526819126819128,28.276507276507274,8.384062270229773,2.138777962577964,613,25,114,11,13,198,103,148,0.125,0.675,0.2,0.9247,1,0,3,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,2,7,9,0,1,9,0,16,6,0,1,3,22,22,11,0,4,7,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,7,5,4,1,0,5,0,0,4,3,0,0,4,1,12,6,11,14,3,20,0,0,1,0,3,5,0,4,15,75,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14749239182428447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22073559858824973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0938525973504028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368703884423278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23046778536300286,0.1682611390480412,0.0,0.1174376774488455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15067288515242694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17801208503559146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14419271197838265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13519879291508846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09115533758131823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07210534690408534,0.0,0.0,0.3472726603921234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2775187301553415,0.0,0.0,0.13707662525372338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12267102091596326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1390321329728322,0.0,0.14640846150842646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10644302767467756,0.0,0.0,0.12951450532708833,0.0,0.2648516391217988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10496401481698936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1304655389448735,0.0,0.0,0.14040737845440426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29358457677839506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09768529660254173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13007426745029124,0.0,0.10376752171721773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15782825329960493,0.0,0.091688751827798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08047565386743538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09370079384926616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11919768105147265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22140910668293845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19607891317335746,0.0,0.0,0.08887492347705739 alcoholism,Yeetmaster69420ohboi,2019/08/24,"Am I an alcoholic? Info: I am a 17 year old male, I've gotten comments about me drinking too much before. I personally don't think I'm alcoholic (but I know I might be biased). I used to drink always after work but I cut that out a little back. I just find drinking, smoking and reading to be a great combo. This is something new that I do by myself.",0.04610350076103487,2.2988432602739732,2.9294977168949785,88.50633181126335,89.0,4.888280060882801,20.439878234398783,6.42735559955562,0.4117257229832574,270,9,55,3,9,95,53,73,0.040999999999999995,0.871,0.08800000000000001,0.6124,0,0,6,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,4,2,1,0,4,0,8,5,0,1,0,11,13,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,3,2,5,0,4,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,11,1,6,9,1,7,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,5,39,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4134370501670267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1609497855010512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14873622019564686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1645952253617302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5684651537370381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17679209804934504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2132579603107645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10630441952086056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19386831446031455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20519933840943444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14219377470811334,0.0,0.0,0.1868165146869536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20297291513704266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1688961713782378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19348298221185195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14891235463193564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12394254188889035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1670619651330277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14081980758158094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1245629884419738 alcoholism,adrenaline1979,2019/08/24,"Am I on my way to alcoholism? I enjoy drinking, as well as many other substances... Drinking has always been the casual and ""go-to"" to not feel sober, but I don't think I've ever had a problem with it. I have been enjoying time to myself and some personal space from society. This morning, for fun, woke up and cracked a beer. Through my morning ""routine"" (shit, shower, shave, brush teeth, clean up etc.) i finished a six pack whilst being occupied with what i was doing. It feels great, but am i doing something wrong? &#x200B; I dont do this every weekend, this is maybe a once every 3 months situation",4.057461685823752,5.67647702586207,5.000459770114944,82.16829501915711,71.84482758620689,7.569348659003833,29.26819923371648,8.167268648758528,2.119591187739464,469,19,87,7,9,153,84,116,0.063,0.742,0.195,0.9429,1,0,5,0,0,0,31.0,0,0,0,0,2,9,1,0,5,0,15,6,2,0,1,14,19,7,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,7,5,4,0,3,5,0,0,3,3,1,1,5,3,11,6,13,13,2,11,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,1,6,62,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1937741924479177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15087140689269135,0.1964583754597309,0.2203216628276456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2125037763510032,0.355245943102823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20221790913666807,0.0,0.16401284409914885,0.3055370896743924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1833600292563941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10304740674809043,0.0,0.0,0.19990414030679546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.183828365627622,0.1821586710242647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14472659108062486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930981438231716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15832020474769393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17349719014137013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18612069864984312,0.0,0.20380944204031706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13958773773498925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11618148859546687,0.0,0.0,0.1057281982277331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1439220804663334,0.0,0.0,0.1630269878658551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19824317105480735,0.2203216628276456,0.0 alcoholism,octagonsunnies,2019/08/24,"Can’t stop the compulsion to drink I need help. I am a pretty attractive 35 y/o woman who is literally squandering her life away thanks to alcohol. I don’t want to go into too much detail but it’s been an issue since I was 22 or so. I have blacked out so many times and made so many bad decisions. I got sober thanks to AA and my life improved dramatically until I met my ex. Then we moved to Los Angeles, then Phoenix. I got addicted to opiates. I realized rather quickly that wasn’t the life for me and BEGGED my family to find me into rehab because i couldn’t stop doing opiates and alcohol. They spent tons of Money on me and I not only Graduated the program but I worked for a rehab for 2 years and did great then moved to another city, got a DUI, got kicked out of where i was living and moved in with my alcoholic, pot smoking father who is ex military and doesn’t really seem to care what I do. Long story (there’s a lot more to the story) I am very lonely and can’t seem to fight the compulsion to drink. I can go about 2-3 days and then I’m back at it again. Sometimes blackout, sometimes not. I went crazy the other night on my mother and father thanks to alcohol and a combo of antidepressants/ADHD meds and swore to my mom I’d get sober again. But I failed again tonight. There’s a lot more to the story but I feel like a total failure and my dad says I have 30 days to move out. I have a DUI from last year and will have to get an FR44 ontop of my insurance so it’ll be like $570 a month JUST FOR INSURANCE not to Mention $400 a month for my car payment, $100 for cell and at least $550 for rent. I’m a total failure And I have no idea what to do. I’m going to be homeless! This is crazy! But I STILL want to drink!!! Which is even crazier. I am so much smarter than this, please help me.",1.5257905479667144,3.02606351813472,3.584253414978804,90.19884518762758,78.32642487046633,6.958580624901869,22.059663997487828,7.793537801064563,0.8082721934369603,1402,40,321,22,33,478,192,386,0.087,0.769,0.14400000000000002,0.9656,1,2,7,0,1,0,40.0,1,0,1,2,19,12,1,0,20,0,30,13,0,1,2,53,56,33,0,5,11,7,1,2,0,2,10,1,1,1,12,24,7,2,7,3,3,9,10,4,1,0,13,3,40,8,48,38,10,45,1,2,1,0,20,12,0,5,26,208,52,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09594078295290236,0.10576749093729716,0.0,0.0,0.3762115111751981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0922831694033752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08268561367589711,0.06767206536483031,0.07348229350696978,0.05364834128930738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08972915396138967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11351466114684895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586405045840142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05812789202037105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08296530781430733,0.0,0.04449905894603165,0.06287232496120213,0.0,0.0,0.08043693996958866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09196020617428018,0.0,0.15004947301923724,0.0,0.2815494272318282,0.0970281926671068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11797867397294537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09934935916091822,0.0,0.09185659877216767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07173757274211115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18648615644629976,0.08599169535628315,0.0,0.07771192509456214,0.07788355760373418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14964106214039166,0.0,0.08327449248107377,0.0,0.17845087200717602,0.0,0.0,0.09775610295104252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10307290946554708,0.1404929336818452,0.3741506871990045,0.1293907617641749,0.0652561859848712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08258874774073202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06693340270791798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09660542175235833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08953490986065585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056379633318663636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06998681737887072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16023680659820774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07280042324520321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17408264175850266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07028262302124433,0.14715583483301922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24307547650374084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051317676423522376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07261511493049094,0.10381779354982897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08158350899880765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06407025276552293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11334743729262205 alcoholism,IkarusFlies,2019/08/24,"I'm at my wit's end and need advice Some backstory, my husband and I rent a bedroom to his his younger brother (29M) and rent our basement to his younger sister and her husband. It made sense financially and I feel more comfortable having family as roommates rather than strangers. The problem is, his brother is an alcoholic. For a long time he was a ""functional"" alcoholic. He'd been to treatment before but it never really stuck long term, and no amount of talks from us really made a difference so we kind of stopped trying. Recently however he lost his job due to his drinking habits. We staged an intervention, told him if he wanted to continue living with us he needed to get treatment and another job. He half assed going to treatment, and got a new job only to lose it after one day due to his drinking. Then he pretended to have a job for days, lying to us all the whole time. All of this occurred over about two weeks. I found out he'd lost the job because I got suspicious and called the employment agency. They hadn't heard from him in days as he basically did a no call no show. When confronted about it he continued to lie, saying he just missed a day but still had a job. My husband keeps believing him every time he lies. Now he's saying he'll go to therapy. (He did go to one appointment today and there are more scheduled). But I'm just so tired of it all. Maybe I'm being selfish, but the stress is really getting to me and I hate being lied to. He's completely lost my trust. Although I of course hope the therapy works and everything is hunky dory I'm not optimistic. I'm tired of dealing with it all. My husband wants him to continue living with us. I feel like my brother in law is manipulating my husband's kind heart. I'm 27, we've been seriously considering children. I don't want to have a baby in a house with an unstable alcoholic. Any advice please?",3.419261803321451,5.278044803234504,4.884966524650032,81.35566646378577,74.01347708894879,8.560681679853928,28.140248674028346,9.19923166143015,2.519429632205896,1486,60,287,35,31,497,189,371,0.2,0.752,0.049,-0.9958,10,0,5,0,0,0,41.0,7,0,1,5,11,17,2,1,20,0,21,9,2,3,5,50,55,24,0,9,9,9,2,1,0,1,5,3,3,1,7,19,5,2,3,4,2,3,7,11,0,4,18,5,38,6,44,32,10,38,0,5,0,1,54,6,1,3,29,173,45,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14526016695391614,0.0,0.2382942805653417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0505439340253044,0.07793683715338193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045308175538896066,0.0,0.063245582846237,0.08373946144330803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1517894272053419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07792894248476545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1917353666442177,0.07662639554753936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07765439771426645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1456215184730142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06583039101719322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0626224955021266,0.0,0.06679902672651948,0.0,0.07006752939141449,0.0,0.07516247942019139,0.05309819963526851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08149414744908523,0.0,0.0,0.07766408175545572,0.0,0.1267227970089999,0.0,0.1188898907713089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07338110935521296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0880761542934055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07382205819374515,0.0,0.0857617247233324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4425399374085859,0.06606397865414611,0.0,0.1547972801905052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03631171751498573,0.0,0.1312616740436569,0.13155157511671384,0.0,0.08315129729002503,0.24340540775867006,0.0,0.0,0.14065729648185665,0.0,0.0,0.07467002169227273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11022293172708694,0.05732445899345653,0.07178409538133625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10072985498789797,0.056527942643222036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08158715258615681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07111952935624337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14284458355079094,0.0,0.07338753032162894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11821334755199756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059356493502908565,0.06213950176234152,0.08513968542888663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05974007503659441,0.0,0.0,0.16999552590581604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13001950679742466,0.1708526101653034,0.07045194648341142,0.07102126404554153,0.0,0.05046218086808898,0.0,0.07260527864819162,0.0,0.35761802065218623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315174346821986,0.0,0.059619486283380915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08298184079814278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0541098977034045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,IAmTrash4564566,2019/08/24,"Day 3 - Longest time sober in 8 month It's Friday and I want to drink so bad. I live a block away from the bar strip in my city. I can literally hear people partying from my bedroom. This is the longest Ive gone without a drink in 8 months. The last 2-3 months have been bad. Ive been drinking at least 6 pack of pounders everyday, usually getting black out drunk 2-3 times a week. Ive ruined several relationships with close friends and family members, I've embarrassed myself publically, lost my job, lost my girlfriend, lost a love interest, and have been in a constant state of intense anger, guilt, and self-loathing. I'm craving alcohol so bad right now, but also feel the best I've felt in a long time. The withdrawal is giving me some serious brain fog, but I simultaneously have an overwhelming sense of clarity that I haven't had in months. I know I fucked up my life in the last few months, but its only now I know what a truly horrible mindset I've been in. I felt constantly sick, and confused. Im just beginning to dig myself out of this hole. It feels good. To be clear. I don't plan on quitting completely. Im trying to quit for 9 days. Afterwards, I'm only going to allow myself to drink on weekends.",2.6226038159371505,4.652765530864201,4.256821922933035,84.21645622895623,76.81893004115227,7.874971941638608,26.683314627759074,8.710501217029153,2.0750921810699583,956,38,193,21,22,320,146,243,0.17300000000000001,0.679,0.14800000000000002,-0.6776,1,0,5,0,0,0,34.0,0,0,0,7,6,19,2,4,14,0,17,12,1,1,1,26,37,11,0,1,5,0,4,0,2,0,3,1,1,0,7,9,7,1,6,7,0,2,3,14,0,0,11,6,22,5,30,25,4,43,0,5,1,2,7,17,1,2,23,105,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1058776257342726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07922768355875741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09308121839268628,0.0,0.2481624470997258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10396974302677438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11059689505720367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.103874898550163,0.2141228422083538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1277862314283294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3882105922600487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09339607692760096,0.0,0.10018735883753847,0.0,0.19024893120881226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07654262778394297,0.09159028370994723,0.05176092704527998,0.09503869915073862,0.05630478768473856,0.0830967263462795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1116611201768442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21402909202327436,0.0,0.09831347557787216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1088945418837688,0.16151348169327634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06997734302942656,0.0,0.0,0.08748221546490849,0.08767542637983436,0.0,0.0,0.3244457223634941,0.0,0.08941616852849624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3953908322531156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15069713819001265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06868391259068621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2107501109516876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10636603781197296,0.0,0.08460677683388397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10335349532088857,0.11192293559397457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17330869183506492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06726324971389731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.109113592170568,0.0,0.05843511516003513,0.0,0.07946942293628208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09550168089029408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,duffelbagdan,2019/08/24,"I could only go one day Last time I was able to go for over a month on a ""break"". My first real try at sobriety this time and it lasted less than 36 hours. I'm feeling really hopeless. I lost one of the most important people in my life that was also a huge support crutch for me (because of my drinking partly) but when I got home i couldn't bare it and went back out and bought three steel reserves.",3.0082142857142853,3.855267202380953,4.19857142857143,89.89642857142859,73.40476190476191,7.028571428571429,23.523809523809533,7.1686216300943375,0.7060380952380951,311,8,69,3,6,102,65,84,0.05,0.8690000000000001,0.08,0.0928,0,0,1,0,0,1,8.0,0,0,0,2,3,3,0,0,4,0,4,2,0,0,0,10,13,6,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,4,4,1,0,1,1,1,3,1,2,0,4,6,1,9,1,11,5,3,20,0,2,0,0,0,6,0,1,10,46,13,0,0.2031524232146854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.162460919447835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15621167360137814,0.0,0.123839831599052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16220067927379886,0.0,0.0,0.13101650659282402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1990120338151196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10271996922468117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1728013474059479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23091240752467174,0.0,0.16247955117182936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20377844452045368,0.0,0.20006421492710053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33119267862540397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14349256444745018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2217648680295748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1621543260227898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27532267919261605,0.1545065722535614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2199942772823828,0.0,0.1408403109814791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312319333438758,0.13014464432642567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23053496239889135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2369196233699884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379271600874818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18832433161704776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,yaboiRaindrop,2019/02/19,"My first time being blackout drunk I have no recollection of last night, I just woke up at 3 pm with a huge bruise on the left side of my face. Apparently according to my mom I passed out smoking in the garage, she thought I was dead. This has never happened before, I guess this is a huge wake up call. Im just kinda scared right now, I feel like I didn't drink that much last night but I can't remember it fully so who knows. This is kinda a weird first post but I just wanted to share my experience because it really scared me",1.8395454545454548,3.692517500000005,3.2890909090909126,91.0736363636364,78.54545454545455,6.581818181818183,20.090909090909093,7.554174236665415,0.4341090909090908,415,10,93,6,10,136,78,110,0.122,0.8029999999999999,0.075,-0.6026,1,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,5,5,0,2,5,0,8,4,2,0,1,17,15,3,1,1,5,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,2,2,0,5,2,0,1,4,3,0,2,4,1,15,2,11,10,1,22,0,0,0,0,5,11,0,3,10,58,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11138181187943744,0.0,0.15547762687414945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18657318712556667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17899185283056845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17873104237808807,0.0,0.0,0.09238656206742313,0.1305321525876738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3108358097836745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20128197393937464,0.0,0.16157491483767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19736434041051584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10041578567673504,0.2978754101179197,0.0,0.0,0.19852117308514208,0.0,0.0,0.08926567537025036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21399445231769007,0.0,0.0,0.13431708361714845,0.0,0.14092163349677156,0.0,0.0,0.34293266644014403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17499116012659555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11705237405695247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20698130151541466,0.15603823336561531,0.0,0.0,0.3658606374781288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14505587848284587,0.10654301035461528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1077704703724924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,victory-toyota,2019/02/19,"Do I have a problem? Female, Turned 21. Drank occasionally before then about once every 3-5 months. After turning 21 in beginning of the year that following September started drinking about every couple days. Gradually became almost every day. I usually drink a strong 90% liquor. I rarely if even ever get to the point where I am nauseous and very rarely have a hang over. When I do drink which is now at this point a year later, I admit I drink 5-6 days a week of strong liquor. Still rarely needing the throw up or have hang overs. I drink up to 4-5 shots of the liquor every time depending on what I’ve ate that day. I work early usually so I start drinking around 6 or earliest 4 in the afternoon. I take about 45 mins to an hour between shots. I only eat once I feel the liquor a good bit and decide it’s enough for the night. It does not influence my work what so ever. My husband has only told me once before he doesn’t like that I drink so much but he himself does drink about every weekend. If I don’t drink liquor I usually go for a tequila cocktail or vodka, I have noticed that I sometimes look forward to drinking after a stressful day or look forward to it to relax at the end of the day. I have tried to cut back since my husband does not like it but I still find myself at least having a shot or two of vodka. I have went online to see the symptoms of alcohol dependence however I can only relate to some of those such as drinking more then 3 times a week and looking forward to it. To me I don’t think I have a problem but I also think I do since I do drink quite often. Then again when I look at it I know how to control it and only drink enough to feel it and then stop. I do not drink and black out or throw up. I stop in enough time. I’m just on the fence I suppose. if any one wants to comment please don’t say I need to go get help if anything I would like advice on what you or someone you know has down to cut back or stop completely. But the main point of this post is just to see what people think. Am I an alcoholic, or just enjoy relaxing with alcohol?",2.624621654666484,3.955940124711319,4.0654483086537185,88.59828386088846,75.00461893764435,6.849313951908709,24.05169134628447,7.39963492309942,0.935519005569896,1626,49,349,19,34,539,192,433,0.057,0.858,0.085,0.8924,1,0,20,0,0,0,34.0,0,2,0,6,27,14,2,1,25,0,25,26,0,5,2,62,58,35,0,10,23,2,2,3,0,1,4,1,0,0,20,9,26,5,10,26,0,11,7,5,0,2,4,10,44,9,54,53,9,81,0,0,7,0,12,25,0,18,53,230,64,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04983437602752458,0.0,0.1635031410458052,0.05106684410182796,0.0,0.0,0.040782853568928405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03468019439804873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04196677344638998,0.045398777723567284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07842818853783291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08679059713979936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055676295543445706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05347013299861058,0.0,0.05719827282624335,0.0,0.05642800069853971,0.0,0.1973358400893461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13388532992165336,0.0,0.0,0.6994168274789199,0.0,0.0521833931535695,0.0,0.0,0.045168837800256136,0.15808281374975935,0.0,0.03368350921538248,0.09226070421899113,0.21483886836127647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051571953153202864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04661098681805444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05328840156519521,0.0,0.05796635237160051,0.04277446304642134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034182692799126765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05022247571591774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056054019966489316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07474472139720739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17130094308412627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04070588887611913,0.0,0.03748918776154446,0.07562831768307746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04785790003595743,0.0,0.0,0.05806123555346389,0.0,0.1629327035058558,0.0345573709292064,0.1551442385792314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03535539377028034,0.0,0.0,0.05598017579428301,0.14462797132705008,0.0,0.04884171307125428,0.0,0.0,0.09759585007124502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05424234641546607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040555429178651896,0.0,0.0,0.08127715093884573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08437167225689783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04321019769289156,0.0,0.05043804328785653,0.0,0.0721928890973342,0.0,0.08145368076955851,0.1279091176304366,0.058417709238546424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05300615166243205,0.038343934285814514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09803182806111788,0.0,0.0,0.089211531674912,0.0,0.0,0.04873050131518122,0.0,0.03462410031990544,0.11094173723360352,0.04981735645237239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16850033165131606,0.04207845507420202,0.030079773102135082,0.0,0.08181458028907349,0.0,0.0,0.047275391927536735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0742538865404946,0.0,0.0,0.03622731292572463,0.0,0.0,0.06568171175462575 alcoholism,notdead3,2019/02/19,"I do not know how to help my mom.. To start off my mom started drinking heavily when my brother was still living off my parents; not working and had his child and fiancé sucking off my dads money. Well now that that problem is solved and they moved out she stopped drinking for awhile because she had a surgery and all was good in the house, well now she is taking at least 5-7 shots of gin a night; I’m not at all educated on alcohol but I assume thats a lot. She will not admit she has a problem and every time me or my sister bring the subject up she gets defensive and tells us if we do not like it we can move out & thats shes a grown woman and does not need to be lectured by her kids. My dad will not intervene at all with the subject and at this point I can not stand being around my own mother, it makes me so sad but every time I’m around her she either picks me apart, judges me for my views or anything in general that she knows will anger me enough to start arguing and then she’ll turn it around on me and tell me how ungrateful I am... Not sure where to start or what to even do honestly ",4.905184942716859,4.155267374468089,5.569787234042554,87.32692307692308,68.87234042553192,8.762684124386253,28.71522094926351,7.882392219407189,1.499248772504092,863,25,199,9,13,281,133,235,0.131,0.815,0.055,-0.9712,1,0,3,0,0,0,16.0,3,0,1,1,14,13,4,0,8,0,20,3,0,4,4,53,36,21,0,4,16,8,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,3,10,18,3,2,4,2,1,4,9,7,2,0,4,1,37,6,28,26,8,38,0,1,1,0,33,20,1,6,14,146,47,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1331328184290449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13497698996204255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10251463293404003,0.3326945570355196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07593978033875383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10901644582949466,0.0,0.0,0.24407220096388635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12871930413742458,0.0,0.08228063059354221,0.0,0.20991966664442574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06508531008556283,0.0,0.0,0.10448762242244157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08350001482663352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14374285566567352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13692635409969334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060861065779257435,0.0,0.11000203136865573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10590923330992197,0.0,0.0,0.08315479802018938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2918015325573529,0.0,0.264807078062907,0.0,0.09237080421018852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11690522411610818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1383258252837527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11776366694417865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2384029536776297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3526993818438384,0.0,0.09948577766985872,0.10415030086878656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11741048888393847,0.0,0.09366491692716396,0.0,0.21776812933966372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14528140037292278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13550185701190615,0.0,0.0,0.14984841924495998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22401582068688147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0906921035083704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,BlueAlpineMoon,2019/02/19,"I'm sitting at work drinking in my truck I stumbled across a subreddit about crippling alcoholism this morning and decided it was time to join Reddit. I've been tired of being drunk 16hrs a day for a while but always feel helpless. Counseling worked for about 4 months until I convinced myself I could control it. AA worked for the first few meetings until I had a major life event. Leaving the country for work (military) worked for two weeks u until I got home and had freedom. I'm currently 50 minutes away from walking into an interview for an important position and writing this post whilst sipping a Blue Moon in the parking lot. At 32 years old, I am a shell of my former self, but I'm not willing to give up and Amit that alcohol is more powerful than the smidgen if willpower I have remaining. Gotta pop some Big Red fun and walk inside, I'll post more later.",7.360119047619044,6.9035476309523816,7.353095238095237,75.59190476190479,63.76190476190475,10.323809523809524,37.714285714285715,9.725611199111238,3.665650000000001,694,32,125,12,9,223,119,168,0.046,0.8240000000000001,0.13,0.9441,3,0,3,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,8,2,3,0,0,12,0,10,6,0,1,0,17,17,12,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,1,1,5,6,4,1,2,2,0,2,1,1,1,2,5,3,10,2,25,8,6,30,0,1,2,0,5,9,0,3,16,79,15,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3434851664351195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13371773003457466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15098571378922696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1802420259561211,0.1283082309661156,0.0,0.0,0.10364010966877103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1574277130904196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08125624131243504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13669384920880465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15416091534531698,0.0,0.0,0.1285288315213208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16119816416619484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17016122290773014,0.0,0.0,0.1135092478248193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13662390333102867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12827156340305035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16863071538823782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30781801198344383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16764822735562754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09370718387821224,0.18470440341436964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1569834334339213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12890621495555435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.584968316518558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10348743248666772 alcoholism,lezendgender,2019/02/19,"Need objective advice. Worried about my tendencies Hi, I'm 22F. In reality, I don't actually drink that much, but I'm concerned about the way I drink and the feelings around drinking when I do. I'm a huge stoner. I smoke almost every night. It helps me sleep and unwind. But when I can't smoke, I drink instead. I recently started feeling that I can't stand sobriety at night. I have a sleep disorder that means I don't naturally fall asleep until 5-7 am, and sleep medications either don't work or work so well that I'm passed out for 20hrs and not lucid when I'm awake. So I use weed instead. But then, I've started to drink if I can't smoke. I toss and turn and feel emotionally destructive if I go to bed without SOMETHING. I know I have a dependency on weed, but honestly I don't really care about that. In terms of just weed, I don't think that dependency is inherently worse than how I was before it. I'm fine and don't even think about it during the day. But I'm concerned about this attitude when I'm now drinking to get drunk on off days, even if it's not alcohol itself I want. Am I making a bigger deal than I have to be or not making it a big enough deal? Any help or advice? I know harm reduction type advice is controversial but I'm open to that as well.",2.1321986166007925,3.8714070189393937,4.172885375494072,85.58911067193678,77.29545454545455,7.621607378129117,23.599472990777336,8.456263369488248,1.4191273386034258,999,32,215,20,23,342,132,264,0.12,0.7809999999999999,0.099,-0.7381,1,0,11,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,0,2,21,7,1,0,8,0,19,13,4,6,0,45,47,29,0,5,18,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,14,10,8,0,8,8,0,3,13,2,2,0,1,3,25,5,25,45,4,32,0,0,0,0,5,12,0,9,15,132,39,3,0.0,0.0,0.09678109490358336,0.0,0.0,0.2907397922455784,0.0,0.10598857220989892,0.09931005347662288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06744281971649417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08828732463887262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08439114453631355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10111615015991417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12792013537557248,0.20449141049646846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11366384804052088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5829260824237045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11155921926038023,0.0,0.10247492258002852,0.0,0.13100911796271406,0.0,0.08355973383932608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15043851394045132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05181516600644859,0.0,0.0563637880420963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13295064966565015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1090086497092245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324009875034632,0.0,0.0,0.10803132008756336,0.0,0.09990899925633356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07290548900907838,0.07353746257040193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18613919443984905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06353443910843044,0.0,0.09792395610603766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29774171815350803,0.0,0.0,0.07635023443340032,0.0,0.0,0.14039402283391805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1270954603179565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10787459114850834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0856558895622737,0.0,0.0,0.05849634783346224,0.0787209876888267,0.0,0.0,0.17834157848679175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09560175467677813,0.0,0.14440205916150686,0.10071765208679437,0.1010684254535355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,yrexi,2019/02/19,"Today I am 33 days sober. I’m a 25 year old woman. It’s never too early or too late to quit drinking. I’m so glad I went through the first few days, weeks and the first month. If you’re struggling in the early days, it will get better! The cravings will become fewer and less powerful and time will keep on ticking, even without alcohol. I’m so grateful to not be drinking ethanol that ruins lives, families and relationships, and I’m excited for the future. You can do this. 🌷",1.3320738636363636,3.7771548020833294,3.0553030303030297,88.7018181818182,84.3125,5.5742424242424224,23.310606060606066,6.980632752743323,0.9628458333333336,375,14,74,5,11,124,68,96,0.057,0.7859999999999999,0.157,0.8788,1,0,3,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,5,5,5,0,1,6,0,7,3,0,0,1,11,14,9,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,4,5,3,1,0,2,0,1,3,2,0,2,1,0,3,3,7,9,2,19,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,2,16,45,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20248848496902508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2092574950457811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675730328497802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36658227206705984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3712218428138577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12514480221916158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17861781455681752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32233043095447284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09899156337615418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1684118676742971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21373323783995904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16730769271008564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15123514536397314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1461328760268481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19881952069482972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20152733109431367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20342256165395498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1980778005228816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11048294103144124,0.0,0.1795977797624866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15198341424954698,0.0,0.0,0.1756429098516585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18264473292973768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12201408075371885 alcoholism,4lphawaves,2019/02/19,"Looking for support to stop drinking Hello! I seeked help for the first time a little over a year ago. I go to counseling as well as get visits by helpers. Im 34, I got a job but alchohol is ever present in my life and while I drink less than before it is still a daily struggle not to drink. 7 months ago I discovered cycling. It has been an huge positive impact and I now train / work out to block out the urge to drink. Yet somehow I keep buying the wine , keep making excuses to drink every day of the week. 15th of june im participating in a 300km race. Its been my major goal for some time now. My counselor asked if I wouldnt consider not drinking until atleast then and see it as part of my training. I want to do this ! I really do! But im scared , scared of how hard it will be. And scared of failing. Looking for any words of support or inspiration. Love to all of you!",0.5011355311355317,2.7539531428571458,2.4427472527472527,92.98558608058613,86.25274725274723,5.224908424908425,21.30402930402931,6.655083550727371,0.3865941391941394,680,23,149,8,21,226,115,182,0.13,0.7140000000000001,0.156,0.6391,1,0,7,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,0,4,8,11,0,4,10,0,10,9,0,2,2,26,24,15,0,3,6,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,6,6,7,4,1,7,1,2,3,5,1,1,3,4,15,6,30,18,5,29,0,1,3,1,8,7,0,4,20,96,21,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1882448665494572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07220624805221355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09926425130235288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09035161847346347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06847751224391918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6240976501357209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09604616424357763,0.08946148595420793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09031691265842866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05547482660505131,0.0,0.06034471390191085,0.0,0.08492208916341873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09511669678200868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07117041983724386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3440788480674175,0.0,0.10536756820161593,0.1887558664360886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07499828910412894,0.0,0.10642055954974547,0.0,0.0,0.1783294269625904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09583187025354298,0.0,0.0708761776733291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08475210593226297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.114982922442092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06802182188417047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31891502394719906,0.0,0.08461195537585707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0847957282318965,0.08877148889610144,0.0,0.111002708347606,0.0,0.0,0.2409843022205292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12382917871992548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06262789455670614,0.0,0.08517143547172512,0.0,0.09546884537429297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07730052618571168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06837663475893521 alcoholism,CornWarrior,2019/02/19,"Looking for help never ask for it So I’ve been soberish since June when my step mom died. I have bad anxiety and I’ve been going through depression or whatever for a while now. I used to smoke weed a lot and drank. I stoped smoking weed because of the pannack attacks I would have after I got high. Anyway. I’m drunk again tonight. It’s 2:24 am and I smiled a lot of cigarettes again. ( I haven’t had a cigarette since June 2018) I just need to vent. If anyone reads this I’m not suicidal tonight but I do get weird thoughts sometimes. And I did get into another altercation with my brother and his friend. I just want to know if anyone out there has gone through some shit and I’m not the only one who feels crazy all the time and I need to hear that I will be okay. I’m 30 and afraid I’m too old to start over. I didn’t know where else to post this, I’m sorry if this isn’t the wrong place to post this. 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I know this is a silly question but, I really need some advice, so, here goes nothing! - How can I work on gaining peoples trust back? I am new in my recovery and I have lied to my family about my alcohol abuse for quite some time. I have had a few lapses over the past 6 months but I am determined not to give up this battle. I'm 31, f, and struggling with wanting to be independent but also needing my family to lean on during this time in my life. The problem is that they dont trust me as far as they can throw me. My parents still think that I'm hiding my drinking from them and I dont know how to prove them wrong without feeling that I am under a microscope. Sorry if this post is all over the place, I'm not very eloquent with my words lol. Any advice would be much appreciated. 😊",1.6787500000000009,3.6757948511904783,3.606190476190477,87.90964285714287,79.65476190476191,6.5809523809523816,23.0,7.645422480735847,1.0454214285714287,637,21,134,10,16,215,105,168,0.171,0.687,0.142,-0.6702,1,0,2,0,1,0,17.0,0,0,4,3,8,9,1,1,6,1,16,3,0,3,2,31,27,13,0,7,7,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,7,5,2,0,6,1,0,1,5,5,0,0,1,1,23,4,21,23,5,19,0,0,0,0,8,10,0,4,7,94,30,1,0.0,0.17259007546414254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2846857389693814,0.0,0.1556723699678416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11648883492729843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09905769427470368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11200795810903222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3414383109925052,0.1426969638878548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13918985129460126,0.0,0.0,0.2746413803707378,0.0,0.07365297192346107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13973584534836306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16010815593989428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10288801583805456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11626899922157133,0.0,0.10708107507318293,0.21601859221359965,0.0,0.14068487368851482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1397702004896548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16174455933385026,0.0,0.13905442561398446,0.10098627899430818,0.0,0.15218968875701258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13950750753396354,0.0,0.0,0.2787648698815008,0.0,0.0,0.16317895935448656,0.15493343855846795,0.0,0.0,0.09331719924483656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16306086348880086,0.0,0.0,0.11632884341147487,0.0,0.0,0.15228145269658794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0933367206828086,0.0,0.0,0.16987772192589348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12018948597723775,0.08591742403760574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14041656957266058,0.0,0.10604638929086713,0.0,0.0,0.10347675814621046,0.15926261324163096,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Serrata7,2019/02/19,"Im a child of Alcoholic Parents, and I need some help, please. After almost 18 years of seeing my Dad and Step Mother destroy their lives by drinking away all their problems, I have finally decided tomorrow I'm going to confront them about it, but I need help. How do I get them to listen to me? What programs or groups are most useful for people who are likely to not be willing to admit they have a problem. Also is their any advice at all you can give that might make the process easier. Honestly anything at this point will help man, I'm just tired of coming home and not knowing if they're gonna be my parents or two sloppy drunks I can barely look at. I know I can get them to try rehabilitation but I want them to truly change for the better. I have 2 younger brothers and I'm afraid of leaving home now because I want to be there to protect them and I can't do that if I'm not there. 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My dad told me today that he’s decided he’s an alcoholic and he wants to quit drinking. He’s incredibly high-functioning, but I can’t remember many times in my 29 years of life that he didn’t have a drink in his hand. He told me that he doesn’t know what his road to recovery is going to look like, but warned me to be careful, since it’s hereditary. He told me his grandfather died of illnesses caused by alcoholism and that he couldn’t ever stop drinking. He told me he is scared because he knows this is going to be really hard. I told him that I’m proud of him for taking this first step and I’ll give him whatever support he needs. I guess what I’m looking for is advice on how to best support him moving forward. Any insight y’all can give is much appreciated.",3.4912962962962983,4.692155969135803,4.898456790123458,83.98805555555559,72.64197530864197,8.609876543209879,27.08024691358025,9.075114841892004,2.052076543209876,625,22,131,13,12,209,94,162,0.11199999999999999,0.7090000000000001,0.179,0.9226,0,0,5,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,4,2,8,0,1,2,0,13,8,1,2,1,18,36,6,1,3,2,1,2,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,10,3,5,1,5,3,0,5,4,1,0,1,6,4,18,7,16,27,2,15,0,0,2,0,29,5,0,1,8,69,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21584256088712586,0.0,0.23605483797585566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0751033981724163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06732356737922025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11590060069052033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1126015566823135,0.11345292299960308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11461991106081144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3245692414506747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09989984953798706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09394072169744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.211889382425032,0.1255318811884125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12166277694780114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09893308881107543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11668656217519716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12139053583115687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07800746501555295,0.05395570074713536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854845850645148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11196943853928824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11738088445170708,0.08118655170439779,0.08189030878647179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11746717719887108,0.0,0.0,0.07075107918203795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12510767569390074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1105703115393946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09135760923443577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09233329049448866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3759800673319048,0.0,0.0,0.08303759001784954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06439880457464625,0.0,0.10468477950522072,0.5276536517369451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06514072990181094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07112012830630332 alcoholism,extrathrowaway222,2019/02/19,"I don’t remember.. My boyfriend and I had a friend over at the house last night and we were all drinking and bullshitting. My bf went to bed and me and our friend stayed up talking and we went for a walk around the neighborhood, too. He was telling me about his shitty marriage and I was giving him advice (I’m divorced so I wanted to help). Then he left and after that, nothing. Based on what I saw around the apartment this morning, I ate some of the pizza we ordered and played games on my computer. I woke up at 4:30 in the morning to see my bf sleeping on the couch. And I had a text from him at some point telling me to call him. I didn’t. I don’t know what happened. I didn’t do anything crazy but I think I pissed off my boyfriend anyway. I feel horrible. This is not a rare occurrence, either. I blackout all the time. I set limits for myself but I never stick to them. I don’t think there’s a single night in the past 2-3 weeks that I haven’t gotten drunk. I hate it even more because I love the feeling of being buzzed. But I always push it more than I KNOW I can handle. My bf drinks with me too but he knows his limit and he usually goes to sleep after he feels like he’s had enough. I just want to cry right now. I hate not remembering. I hate waking up and feeling crushing anxiety all day. My heart is racing, my boyfriend won’t answer my messages.. I don’t know who I am or why I’m like this. I’m a girl in my early 20s, too. Sometimes I think that because I’m young, I can’t have a problem, but I think I’m wrong about that. Sorry for the long post. I’m just spitting out what I’m feeling right now. 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Day 2 of sobriety...craving a drink so bad. Why are we like this? Will we ever be able to enjoy a glass of wine during dinner like my wife can? ,-1.6066666666666656,0.3426716666666678,1.9680000000000002,93.77700000000004,96.22222222222223,3.991111111111112,12.755555555555556,5.6839178017228535,-0.9564377777777776,124,2,28,1,5,45,29,36,0.11199999999999999,0.6709999999999999,0.217,0.5021,0,0,2,0,0,0,7.0,2,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,2,0,6,3,0,0,2,5,6,1,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,3,3,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,5,19,5,0,0.3319612113477709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771737454463274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21408751885349453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32519560816774457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6005558416041524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3243589597121087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3252515050819651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2995433599779234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,SuspiciousFrame2,2018/12/13,"Quit cold turkey, 2 weeks ago feel better. I just quit hard liquor cold turkey a couple weeks ago, been getting shakes but its been better feeling.",5.73,7.486899962962966,4.534259259259262,86.5991666666667,67.8888888888889,5.4,20.907407407407405,3.1291,-0.07928148148148217,117,2,20,0,2,34,20,27,0.042,0.696,0.263,0.7469,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,4,1,3,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,5,1,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,5,1,2,0,3,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43392035949462493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.432931096871572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2708163027213893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24751055334541616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12787417338172968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21925204133387013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5206532758673293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3926547435369711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,CalifWeird,2018/12/13,"Feel stupid This is my first post and I’m not quite sure how this works yet. I started drinking about 8 years ago. My drinking really spiked around 21-23. I would drink at least a pint of hard liquor at night(whisky at first but it started hurting my stomach and I since have drank mostly vodka). Usually this was a pregame for the bar though. I was in the service industry and basically lived at the bar after work and after my pint was finished I would spend 50+ on drinks at the bar most nights. I would drink to the point of blacking out I would say at least 4 times a week. My drink of choice is Tito’s on the rocks, and all too often I can drink a fifth in about two hours and still be coherent. It’s almost like I go into autopilot. My self control is almost nonexistent when it comes to my alcohol intake. I will drink until there is nothing left to drink. Fast forward to now, I’m 24 and have a great job and an even better girlfriend who I live with. I started seeing her a little over a year ago. Over the past year or so I’ve cut back quite a bit, or so I thought. I’ve stayed out of the bars and only go out probably 1-2 times a week. I’ve still been drinking at home about 5 nights a week I would say though. I thought I had this under control since I don’t get shit faced every night like I did years ago, but I think I’ve just been lying to myself. Last night my girlfriend and I went to a concert and I blacked out. I don’t remember the bar after the concert or the next bar back near or home, or kicking her out of our bed when we got home and asking her to leave me over and over again. I’m so embarrassed. I just feel like if I don’t take control it’s going to get worse. And I would go to AA but I feel like I’m not that bad. Not that they are, I would just feel stupid like my problems aren’t as bad as others there and they would judge me. I’ve had no legal issues because of my drinking problem. Really only by luck I’m sure. I never considered myself a mean drunk but I am. I take everything out on the people closest to me when get that intoxicated. The problem is I don’t want to stop drinking. I just want to stop drinking this much. I’m thinking of trying to limit myself to only Friday and Saturday’s drinking and completely swear off hard liquor all together. Any tips or steps that have helped any of you tone down the amount of alcohol you consume? I’ve thought about just limiting myself to a six pack a night on the weekends. 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trudging through even when you're sure you can't take another step. i'll be proud of myself tomorrow for not relapsing, but right now sobriety is so god damn hard. i cut out all of my friends in an effort to keep myself on the up & up. i know it was the right decision. i just feel incredibly alone at the moment. sobriety is fucking hard, y'all. this post was mostly to get these things out of my head before they can do any real damage.",3.396007866273352,4.997852415929206,4.970383480825959,81.79022615535892,73.51327433628319,8.916027531956734,25.829891838741396,9.444778638647367,2.2251738446411005,445,15,90,11,9,150,82,113,0.191,0.7170000000000001,0.091,-0.8894,0,2,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,2,1,2,6,7,3,0,6,0,10,2,1,0,2,15,18,3,0,0,4,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,1,4,0,0,1,2,4,0,1,2,4,11,3,15,15,3,18,0,1,0,1,4,9,2,1,7,60,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1925241016360867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4028195476768857,0.0,0.12641034209438015,0.19491997281772086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15817715652186282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11988250299705967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12277739490108733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09399065307630633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14361675279324462,0.1718506342761601,0.09711890588332517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33303860824915266,0.0,0.1907749094456085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16522596237968926,0.0,0.0,0.2043185732582805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2012987927361342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17802949968931533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2115814538412628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3174949934429647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17519741712291187,0.0,0.13976478316935168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12349585213380272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35240053343391753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,aporiar,2019/06/25,"Help. How to find the desire for sobriety once again I (23f) have always struggled with some kind of substance over use. First it was weed and downers. Then it became alcohol. I started drinking daily. Enjoying being drunk a lot. Putting myself in dangerous situations, injuring myself and destroying relationships. I was scared to see how much I enjoyed to be drunk. Alcoholism is common in my family, I have grown up seeing the affect it has on my father. I tried to stop multiple times but always fell back into old patterns. Then I met my boyfriend. He isn’t a drinker, or smoker. He challenged me to stick to my word, if I really wanted to stop then I could. He would act really disappointed with me if I drank. Didn’t want to be around me when I was drunk. It helped. I cut my drinking down a lot. The desire for it was still there. Whenever I’d have a small amount it always led on to more and more and more. So I cut it out completely for a while. Recently he ended the relationship. Since that happened I have found myself drinking more again. Drinking whiskey alone in my room. It makes me feel great. I feel like I’ve lost control over the desire to be sober. It’s not there any more. I don’t have that urge to stop like I used to. It feels as though, the reason I stopped drinking during the relationship was more to do with the control he was exerting over my behaviour. Because that control is gone I feel I’ve been let loose. I’m really conflicted because I don’t want to fall down this hole again. Realistically it seems I have to admit that I never had the control I thought I did. He had the control the whole time. The looks he would give me when I picked up my first drink. The way he treated me with disdain when I’d had a few. I’m ranting. I don’t really have anyone to talk to about it. I guess I’m asking if anyone else has been through a similar experience? Feeling as though you had control when really it was maybe someone else that was controlling you all along. How do I reflect on this in a healthy way and learn to take control myself? How do I challenge myself like he always challenged me?",2.2591971736953376,4.66086581100479,3.5863302548125087,86.66442806275734,79.88516746411483,6.663491710248136,24.31423166796484,7.8205782467293705,1.4117988650272617,1671,61,329,29,43,545,192,418,0.11800000000000001,0.782,0.1,-0.7031,0,1,11,0,0,0,47.0,0,2,0,14,20,19,4,2,21,0,42,14,0,19,2,71,73,27,0,12,6,1,5,3,0,2,3,0,1,0,20,13,13,13,13,10,0,7,7,8,0,2,22,8,51,11,48,43,14,55,0,2,3,0,22,19,0,9,30,231,71,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375812192766661,0.0,0.06666660433297321,0.0,0.0,0.21423979996574144,0.0,0.0,0.04377295200125847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09001624240255318,0.06595338314052797,0.0,0.057301827533046475,0.060176084825190525,0.0,0.0,0.049495589514419916,0.0,0.07847717560472367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06748940154097803,0.0,0.5775601421931841,0.05139320292273724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3783411715802568,0.0,0.0,0.1075436490002943,0.0,0.05701159994346763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06296498127496329,0.06068112148456141,0.0,0.1627338506292596,0.04598504229655382,0.0,0.0,0.058831864242167714,0.10950403848266574,0.0,0.07057700342213923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06174836287150666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07096676552852849,0.07090942654086002,0.0,0.05692106615557304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08629002213748413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06703013968315198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06582140002579115,0.0,0.09434194815965284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054053531774706974,0.0,0.0702660859054678,0.1094480055584631,0.0,0.0,0.04296663525688056,0.0,0.06466705329728434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04731843188700762,0.0,0.049645142199703764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06754416696184322,0.06855060968553264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06470836468729238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061813225789584,0.06618178759111172,0.06355636742979501,0.20732381941384329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06444434017042558,0.0,0.10258710738499516,0.05859888538741269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0532464887246263,0.07235316318900535,0.0,0.0,0.05453942639036224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04556052704058065,0.0,0.05140496067767609,0.21526060291732188,0.0,0.06729218531055492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048397283353371394,0.05173715674405655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12648392480741932,0.05110159125673782,0.07506786244513071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04370215068561592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11118785241173797,0.0,0.0,0.1138990556767975,0.10218582289648646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07186540193754339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09145141527358554,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,lookingforanswerstia,2019/06/25,"Alcoholics can smell My alcoholic husband who is now 2 and a half months sober (Happy dance there) had his friend visit after he knocked off work. My husband said later he couldn't wait for him to leave because after an hour he was so drunk (friend also alcoholic) slurring , swaying and smelt excessive like booze more then usall. I had to explain to my husband no this guy is always like that when visits. Then my husband asked if he would smell that bad when drinking, unfortunately yes , he looked at me in embarrassment but he is glad he's giving up and might help with staying on track. I guess people get use to a smell ect and don't realise how others can smell it. And when you drunk you don't probably realise how drunk others are either until your sober and I think that was like looking in a mirror for my husband's old self. Scary ect this guy was another 20 years older.",3.2770833333333336,5.603516309941519,3.828417397660818,86.65034539473686,75.95906432748536,6.146345029239766,24.137792397660817,7.1686216300943375,1.0375055555555552,703,23,132,8,16,221,110,171,0.125,0.7609999999999999,0.114,-0.2399,0,0,4,0,0,0,14.0,0,3,0,1,9,9,0,1,4,1,16,8,0,3,0,20,27,18,0,3,3,5,0,3,2,2,3,1,0,3,9,7,8,1,2,5,0,3,4,2,0,1,6,7,14,7,16,18,2,25,0,0,2,0,30,6,0,3,18,82,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4877181853314309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12165233773522993,0.1265781369172451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15951374366492932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14221403689444692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12701596408275476,0.09273248649561697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14902217242975574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23505898918295384,0.0,0.07947774686269972,0.14592979887425472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16758012475455214,0.3012504562475095,0.0,0.16193726915281295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10196452982552404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14981005601694938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16107580173288458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22295816245350733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554892357791074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16137797184170746,0.0,0.0,0.12142275755669983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1596270126283651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1054626130178659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16401382384320887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1447033682269865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15869698259660234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16214238370339207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0974739791559454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13138502937696858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11074701857620706,0.0,0.0,0.108063485548687,0.0,0.0,0.09796192617930764 alcoholism,ImFinallyClean,2019/06/25,"Day 7!!! “Rain came pouring down when I was drowning. That's when I could finally breathe, and by morning, gone was any trace of you, I think I am finally clean. Just because you're clean don't mean you don't miss it“ Clean by Taylor Swift — I did it guys 7 days 😅 ! Was offered a job today too! Life feels really good right now. I see my potential. I do miss my sweet sweet poison, wanted to go a pick her up at the gas station. Not today Satan. Not today. Keep the light on, hold up those broken and forgotten dreams high! I appreciate everyone’s vulnerability on here and r/stopdrinking - I’ve learned to be confident making mistakes and admitting to my flaws.",0.8037264957264973,3.3505219538461546,2.8389743589743617,87.57213675213677,91.0,6.273504273504274,21.83760683760684,7.594959193182576,1.274632478632479,514,19,103,11,18,172,92,130,0.11,0.68,0.21,0.9168,1,0,1,0,0,0,21.0,0,2,0,0,6,7,1,0,4,0,10,3,1,2,0,20,23,6,1,3,3,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,4,5,0,2,5,1,0,3,4,4,0,0,6,5,14,3,12,15,0,21,1,2,1,0,6,8,0,0,10,56,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12837542726786005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11507723935024584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21591159597982088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1507237707815673,0.0,0.0,0.2434922220635656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18038534777260032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09545176484727236,0.0,0.0,0.4135938654754195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1072868157463708,0.15833792356269466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1869197741160751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.199454187695602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18733291028051355,0.16779444754923226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13333939468976316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12601069626754352,0.0,0.0,0.2056344460811464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12093593952706365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16121527227659893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15043152381342673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1209612386515677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5368180518239282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11134608069913653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Cjv2c,2019/06/25,I have been a heavy drinker for years. Heavy drinker for years. I am to the point where I get the shakes/tremors every day if I dont drink in the morning. I am in Ohio and no insurance. I am 45. I am scared I am going to die with the tremors. So I drank again but less. No insurance Central Ohio help. I want to quit.,-1.1457971014492792,0.8768564492753654,0.5681159420289852,104.64463768115944,93.20289855072464,4.22608695652174,19.26086956521739,5.82211442006289,-0.5141478260869561,241,8,63,2,9,77,42,69,0.132,0.789,0.079,-0.3314,0,0,3,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,5,0,8,2,0,0,0,5,12,4,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,2,0,10,0,8,10,1,9,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,4,40,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19794184996550576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3185406844801836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3597149340148935,0.3006705884869028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25859835514120216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16035614386231758,0.0,0.1744330936386216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20572599826969865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2901442352111283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32645353396785753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30728642515050786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18103288074837845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3953005047960463 alcoholism,ORV_has_Bullet_Holes,2019/06/25,"100 days without booze and a question I had the stark realization I had a problem with alcohol this January. after a weekend of heavy drinking I had suicidal ideations and severe depression. I finally realized how much of my life was wasted with booze, hangovers, etc. 23 years since I took my first drink at 13. I am now 100 days free of any alcohol and feel great, have lost 40 lbs, have energy to work out, etc. The tricky part is my SO likes to drink and we have our annual friends weekend coming up. It’s always a ton of fun but so much drinking is involved. I’m incredibly anxious about it: any tips on how to make it thru 2 days without falling into the same old routines? Am planning on having tons of other beverages available to replace booze.",3.506647214854109,5.714758455172415,4.62896551724138,81.74143236074272,74.79310344827586,7.771883289124668,30.464190981432363,8.617729084823388,2.637716180371353,596,28,109,12,13,195,97,145,0.113,0.789,0.098,-0.2983,0,0,6,0,0,0,15.0,2,0,0,4,6,8,0,0,7,0,12,10,0,3,0,21,18,9,1,1,3,0,1,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,5,10,9,0,3,6,1,3,2,3,0,1,6,1,11,6,22,12,8,21,0,2,0,0,5,6,0,1,13,76,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2857001644329717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11122220460049427,0.0,0.0,0.18179719078266868,0.0,0.0,0.151006413684004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11514285706048998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586137562928392,0.0,0.11512776340634187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5237736928559359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2981495583172982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06758638733982407,0.0,0.0,0.1464263926294265,0.0,0.11369764697919812,0.0,0.0,0.10327130587008196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14736907179172984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09441342432567434,0.0653032689680755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14591404555649415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08922420387434553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19652222653504656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14026172837355833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1447490546305499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1279019025337207,0.0,0.0,0.1497383753109454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.151006413684004,0.0,0.110571273201997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1462107296169625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14850969332127334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2577017169091099,0.0,0.09731165159296552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08607759335008076 alcoholism,Aeriss1,2019/06/25,"I want to stop drinking. Hi, &#x200B; (English is not my main language, sorry for all the mistakes) It is my first post here. I am looking for some advices. Long story short, I am a 26 years old girl who wants to stop drinking. I have a long story of alcoholism in my family and I came to the conclusion that I may have an issue to. I don't drink every day, but when I drink, I COMPLETELY lose my mind. I do things that I would never do when I am sober, hurt the people that I love the most, etc.. These episodes would reoccurs every months or sometimes, multiple times in a month, sometimes twice a week. I want this to stop. That is when I found this subreddit. I would like to have some advices from people who has a similar story than mine. I am a girl who love to hang out with friends and I think that I will have a hard time to stop drinking, but I have to do it, for the sake of my mental health.",2.837373271889401,3.9742195268817215,3.8656221198156686,91.01129032258066,74.16129032258064,7.034715821812598,24.57603686635945,7.447530270364453,0.9179843317972356,696,21,155,8,14,225,98,186,0.114,0.7709999999999999,0.11599999999999999,0.5205,0,0,6,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,0,3,4,7,0,0,13,0,22,9,0,0,2,30,31,8,0,7,4,0,1,1,1,5,2,0,0,2,14,5,6,4,3,5,0,2,3,3,0,2,2,2,26,4,20,24,6,26,0,2,1,2,9,4,0,5,20,114,40,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20313664158015746,0.0,0.11107954524371944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1126182322305496,0.12629767568667766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11887891601240785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1089784212024942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06703227606884643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5091049188625049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11591984001210195,0.0,0.0,0.17514675482517147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09798476005405134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08841075010786906,0.0,0.11396412222558736,0.08030327679748364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09310923350628214,0.0,0.0,0.11048265874876258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11126921395133406,0.0,0.0,0.10848566740952872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050779511690508365,0.0,0.0,0.18396609149063506,0.08728286840193332,0.11628153559735087,0.0,0.0,0.1876186261015872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10474640863873863,0.0,0.10494910433861362,0.0,0.16592678022622107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08016442721027918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10906685359285637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14411690332536745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09954515690972424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2055973313624073,0.11635158228223735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3475917717063046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0690526794706108,0.06660013263836219,0.0,0.0,0.12121573084848247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839183483732,0.0,0.08337386959070789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22150657641847105,0.0,0.12629767568667766,0.06693352763011097 alcoholism,Blacknumbah1,2019/06/25,Day one 12 hours I destroyed a 9 year relationship with the sweetest person in the world. She is the love of my life. But alcohol always came first. I am going to die if I don't stop.,0.5942307692307693,2.5732914358974384,3.0381410256410284,90.64644230769231,83.35897435897436,5.951282051282053,20.006410256410245,7.1686216300943375,0.3946871794871796,142,4,32,2,4,49,35,39,0.168,0.687,0.14400000000000002,-0.2528,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,4,0,3,3,0,0,0,5,6,2,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,2,1,0,5,1,4,5,0,9,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,1,5,20,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31578207416650905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2458660010351931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3379544864961258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19056245798160767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3066652949452868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2513381737962989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16793012232079413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2909917959357121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2087087840631529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2666854584821944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20022731428827534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25800485609625584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3172387726698481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2470374954988275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1902817313479492 alcoholism,aylakunori,2019/06/25,"How do I forgive myself and get rid of this anxiety, self hate, and humiliation? I got very blacked out 2 days ago and was falling down and being a terrible drunk. I feel so much guilt as a mother, as a friend, and as a spouse. I was talking bad about a loved one. I was being completely irresponsible. I was being my usual alcoholic self when I drink. Drinking to get as drunk as I possibly can. Worrying about not getting drunk enough. I just feel so disgusted with myself. Its been so hard to get any sleep cause I just feel so ashamed, embarrassed and disappointed with myself. To the point I thought about death. I just want to be sober for now on. I want to be a better mom. I want to be a nice loveable person. I can’t believe I was talking bad about someone I actually love. Only because I was mad at them cause they didn’t want me to get too drunk. They knew best. But drunk me is so awful and careless. I never want to be drunk again. I never want to fall back into that dark place ever again. I want to quit!! I can’t sleep cause of how bad I feel. I hate myself and it’s so hard to get through these days with feeling this way.",1.253437052932764,3.4092125751072966,2.9842328326180265,90.95872407010016,82.04721030042919,5.943419170243205,21.725500715307582,7.1686216300943375,0.6088341917024325,882,28,192,12,24,292,120,233,0.306,0.569,0.125,-0.9942,0,0,3,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,3,3,22,20,4,3,8,1,20,13,2,5,3,41,45,23,1,7,5,3,7,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,6,13,9,0,8,8,0,2,6,13,0,1,11,8,34,7,32,27,3,22,0,1,1,2,15,7,0,0,12,134,40,0,0.0,0.0,0.0959226592132787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0871334210016258,0.10504846739665984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06684461070101344,0.0,0.07519612594043831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07558351130655849,0.24621901513600244,0.059920293381881214,0.0,0.0,0.11074586512573584,0.10315552587095654,0.08693477202208484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3029310253068885,0.0,0.0,0.10306142414889802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12678550045720965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.192585201364536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1015659833807816,0.0,0.0,0.08891430632907298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24850690656817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07594320030746053,0.0,0.3081334334479826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0786162436516663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17610771197977504,0.1940937832501124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17743184925537014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11512301827923667,0.0,0.0,0.0722588268293742,0.0,0.15162377915203185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06660787364973048,0.07475849263778471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08582822437069773,0.10269833728876523,0.0,0.09292143645325067,0.11081390442261524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10454983291141373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20508820835850586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.196733858628538,0.0,0.08328583196343556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1580131082424756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07803599751875875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10825909204301347,0.08110444584166962,0.4058424499979491,0.07802274279424844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09982429964765194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,dasturtlemaster,2019/06/25,"How do I get rid of the ""fuck it"" attitude? I have every intention of being sober until I just give up. This happens daily and it's almost as exhausting as drinking itself. I feel like I have no control anymore over when I do and don't. The love of my life doesn't either. I type this as she breathes heavily. I rub her back. She grabs my arm in her sleep and the breathing slows. I mantra the phrase ""it's okay"". 1 AM. God damnit, I can't lose this girl. I'm done with this shit. This alcoholism. I'm 22 years old. 1 upvote and I'll take a 2 week break. I'll pull her out of this nightmare with 1 upvote too. Oops, I upvoted my own fucking post. Goodnight.",-0.6941196516470995,1.4746390503597162,1.5250283983339656,97.1591139719803,93.74820143884891,4.6529344945096565,18.10715638015904,6.339386263674448,-0.1458287769784179,504,15,116,6,19,168,90,139,0.145,0.8029999999999999,0.052000000000000005,-0.9198,0,0,2,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,2,5,8,3,0,5,1,10,12,5,3,0,14,20,10,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,10,7,2,1,1,1,0,1,4,5,0,0,1,3,19,3,14,18,2,14,0,1,0,3,8,4,3,1,8,70,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2260309981063996,0.2117884036107858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20975285659267634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16263175393600246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.237217143612966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21643967339295714,0.0,0.20719114882742276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.178199306278078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10694161565601913,0.15109685846515686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3910598315788709,0.11050091010087708,0.20289170520020133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18703025695029074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14938990726399726,0.10332904843621653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2366163049618727,0.0,0.0,0.1908885440071197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22193545826846786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20256016644284314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2171034581676387,0.0,0.0,0.21165444641482545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1590229585042802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16965390809111205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13620016199941792 alcoholism,samsamattack,2019/06/25,"I'm having an alcohol withdrawal and it's the worst, coffee doesn't help! I have to take a blood test on Thursday, so i stopped drinking/smoking and i have the worst mood and headache it's like my brain is rinsed in co2 and my stomach hurt. I actually think coffee make it worse for me, i have had this hangover over two days now and i don't even drink that much.",1.7850187969924818,3.678225960526316,2.7732330827067675,94.51763157894736,78.86842105263158,5.9218045112781965,24.01503759398497,6.868970318607317,0.6139984962406015,287,10,65,3,7,91,56,76,0.252,0.7020000000000001,0.046,-0.9527,0,0,3,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,4,0,8,5,3,1,0,8,12,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,5,2,1,1,1,0,0,2,3,0,1,1,0,9,1,5,11,3,7,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,5,43,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.2860285058023839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31324044196366096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3272024665010318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1890286797228565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28713162165089345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19359329575003564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19646231377732706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31377530110149343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1431964512434217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19565007329222472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2154661311368024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2450491671381122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22037871894367966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18781005032660197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2863213021986659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29869935595452785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,AllegedlyAFK,2018/11/01,"How to get a referral? I realized I am an alcoholic, and want to know to to get one to get into any treatment program place, I've been skipping my college classes because of the drinking.",6.66,6.119287567567568,7.889864864864865,71.4466891891892,65.21621621621622,10.643243243243244,45.52702702702703,10.125756701596842,4.994686486486488,148,10,26,3,2,51,29,37,0.0,0.961,0.039,0.0772,0,0,2,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,2,2,0,1,0,6,7,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,0,7,6,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,18,3,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3878312144187571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24678538571755876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2212213155178513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3555051985778127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5688029852254282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1994411100998345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2459113699382489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3791547069325011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2140486388889654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Toastybazza,2018/11/01,"Alcoholism in the family I am not sure how to put this forward. But I recently had a really bad experience with my girlfriend's mother. I've known their family to be heavy drinkers maybe because they can't tackle issues when they are sober. So what happened, we went to a gin festival which was really fun for the first half. And all of a sudden the mother bellowed out into a rant infront of the crowd. Talking about her dark past and making my partner's sister bursting into tears. I tried to support her but she just said no. What I'm struggling with, I have brought this up to my partner who has forgotten pretty much already what happened. That just makes me think all of them have now forgotten and I've told her I don't want to see the mother a while. I would like to know if it's easy to identify alcoholism and is it not hard to feel resentment. Because I am feeling it and we all have our issues and my partner and I have been through a lot recently. We aren't breaking up or anything but it shows me that booze might harm people's empathy levels.. I don't know. I for one talked to her completely sober when we got back home, I understand how difficult it is to not drink booze and then talk. But I have all so done that and it ended up in chaos. So from an experienced drinking point of view that's what I can identify. We love each other very much, I've decided to excercise much more to be happier with myself. I almost let paranoia take over my life but instead of drinking I just talked and talked and talked to my family which helped it go away. I wish I could help more sometimes but you just can't. When the minds made up you just have no idea. I don't really expect this to be read I just need to upload my thoughts and see if there are others feeling the same as I. Thanks for listening anyway. 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The only thing is how much do you need to drink before you can smell it the next day? I haven't drank much only about 1.25l since I stopped myself, however the cider is 7.6%alc, is this enough to be smellable the next day? (just under 10units). Im meeting the girl I'm talking to's dad and because we know eachother beforehand I don't want it to be noticeable if he hugs me. Any help or advice would be appreciated ",1.8354725274725288,4.260899800000002,3.2806593406593407,88.08076923076923,81.76923076923076,6.175824175824177,23.9010989010989,7.447530270364453,1.1731098901098909,514,19,103,8,14,168,85,130,0.047,0.805,0.14800000000000002,0.9449,1,0,2,0,0,0,15.0,1,2,0,0,6,4,0,0,8,1,15,5,0,1,1,19,24,8,0,6,5,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,5,2,4,1,3,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,4,2,9,4,8,15,4,9,0,0,0,1,12,2,0,5,7,59,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17063096275283934,0.0,0.18660946247459112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11874363502266615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14369259791339092,0.0,0.16324069378208692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10644318776294864,0.0,0.14858381230336246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3378351156788633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17105542707013194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1804231326176735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11704020892281396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18861328604320735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09596339069005548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2567230378099325,0.2589484144541841,0.0,0.0,0.3714083379308139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987994093802852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2656039154549581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19560785191742328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11186231952600573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13886021010448488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14444266000551567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14598527914474824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16457180489413228,0.0,0.0,0.14034826934564745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11600590702966974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16551383229636196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10299197166569238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12404090860996438,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Mad_dix_storyteller,2018/11/01,"Relapsed I was sober since January 15th, my birthday, and I relapsed a couple days ago. Today, I did a big thing, and called to get on the waiting list for a residential treatment program for alcohol and mental health. I’m tired of struggling and using bad coping mechanisms. Im ready to make this leap and come out of it stronger and with the skills to be a productive person in society. 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When I was younger it affected me less, but the combination of work stress, future uncertainty, and age has made these drinking nights extremely regrettable. I feel like when I drink I have an opportunity to vent about all the terrible things I have had to encounter when the more productive thing is to lift myself out of my situation. The drinking is a method of detoxing myself mentally but it introduces a whole series of regrettable decisions as well.",10.508387096774193,10.869701344086023,9.808086021505376,57.8721290322581,57.064516129032256,13.891612903225806,44.406451612903226,13.023866798666859,6.452661935483871,447,24,64,15,5,143,65,93,0.204,0.7040000000000001,0.09300000000000001,-0.9191,0,0,6,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,5,5,0,1,7,0,8,6,0,2,1,9,10,7,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,2,5,0,2,5,0,0,0,2,1,0,4,1,9,3,12,6,4,11,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,7,52,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7856320622410219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08110072512528589,0.1145864938593454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07836108238384637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15176998985183096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616408209432717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15052020172125466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1802911311029172,0.0,0.3270057883615438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18373236962075354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21311913110945865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14421471227433252,0.0,0.0,0.17907571737588313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11676974932315165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,bugger_allz,2018/11/01,Headed to Detox today I've been drinking for 22 years and have had enough. My biggest worry are cravings after detox and functioning without meds. I do look foward to recovering a binch of free time every evening where I would just be a drunken blob!,6.646312056737585,7.5814951914893625,6.0859574468085125,79.33333333333334,65.17021276595744,7.9687943262411345,32.687943262411345,7.793537801064563,2.340424113475177,202,8,35,2,3,62,41,47,0.062,0.86,0.077,0.1759,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,7,4,1,0,0,5,8,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,3,2,6,4,1,6,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,4,24,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3054743735317459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.322203418804258,0.0,0.20596056400604432,0.0,0.26272995616443445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3200272165676288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618583965433582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34637247969999796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1818303952251404,0.0,0.2955780772207839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.300592685751852,0.0,0.0,0.3166781786144768,0.0,0.22151485924151448,0.0,0.0,0.20080809145157744 alcoholism,Dan35oz,2018/11/01,"Taking Antabuse, info on reactions with other drugs It's hard to find info about taking drugs while on Antabuse , has any one got experience taking ecstasy or lsd , mushrooms ,while on Antabuse ? Thanks",6.678431372549023,9.604314294117652,5.488823529411764,75.89637254901962,67.82352941176471,8.062745098039215,31.92156862745098,8.841846274778883,3.0893450980392165,162,7,24,3,3,48,25,34,0.037000000000000005,0.785,0.17800000000000002,0.7506,0,0,2,0,3,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,5,6,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,6,5,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,2,13,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17289121474558491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5896729688327573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24869449286281714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2323698085128754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20333812585829594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22774817543957426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17227890275898852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5734681848126276,0.0,0.0,0.23406908132302254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ratta606adamson,2018/11/01,"Losing your kids I'm a 33 yr old schizophrenic and alcoholic who is losing my son because of the aforementioned reasons. I'm just wondering if there are any other parents losing or having lost their kids as a result of their alcoholism? On the bright side I have almost 7 months sober, but of course that doesn't take away the guilt, shame and sadness. I'm just wondering if I'm as alone as I feel. 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I’ve been thinking for the past 3-4 minutes about how to start this post but the matter of fact is that I need to stop drinking. I’m a Father of one at the moment with a little boy due in August. My wife admits that she thinks I drink too much but doesn’t think that I have a problem. Although this would play into my hands to allow me to keep drinking, I think there comes a point where I need to admit what my wife can’t in that I have a drinking problem. Tomorrow will be my first day sober.",3.8969610389610416,4.125270981818183,4.69857142857143,89.36500000000002,71.0,7.012987012987013,24.80519480519481,6.1826913282559595,0.6078831168831162,408,10,90,2,7,132,73,110,0.092,0.8,0.10800000000000001,-0.0772,0,0,4,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,5,3,0,0,8,0,9,5,1,2,1,22,21,4,0,5,2,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,7,3,4,2,6,5,0,1,2,2,0,3,1,1,12,1,14,17,1,20,0,0,0,0,8,7,0,0,11,61,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341721041296921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2009026162486412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6103358927539969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14883386415101052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26497609872195105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13844525800021573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15611087593275375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11450037508017955,0.230985819070693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10554594989752893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14868905526470153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472420712283299,0.0,0.14917352975979045,0.0,0.0,0.29807958258539113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11024662540496223,0.0,0.0,0.13022103010976194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3992148760042467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11064632673630427,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,GatoTuxedo,2019/06/03,"Mommy Drinker Hi, I am a stay at home mom of 8 years. I’ve been drinking for many of those. For the last year I’ve drank nearly everyday. I’ve tried AA, but it’s just not for me (I have reasons and can share if you’d like). I just am looking for a community that knows what I am going through.",0.2905128205128236,1.8213928461538489,2.4319230769230766,96.9222435897436,82.07692307692308,5.564102564102565,21.602564102564106,6.42735559955562,0.060948717948718034,225,7,57,2,6,76,49,65,0.0,0.95,0.05,0.4215,0,0,2,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,7,2,0,1,0,8,11,3,0,1,5,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,2,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,1,6,2,9,8,0,8,0,0,1,0,4,2,0,1,5,34,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2965599097844945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17204829635391247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3036626276537208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16637235645256107,0.2467651553817067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14789846697498624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2542167500251551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30692045657269845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3545534306178115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3112566080305632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3226696396872521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20553363215399464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38989607407239696 alcoholism,YC19916,2019/06/03,"alcohol relates tremors Hello, I drink quite a lot. I don't think it's a problematic level, just a heavy binge every couple of weeks or so. last year I was on a holiday and drank pretty much the whole week. since then I have developed a bit of a tremor. It used to be just when hungover but I over did it and now I feel like the tremor is constantly there a little and gets worse when I am nervous or stressed. &#x200B; does anybody know much about these? will it always be there? would stopping drinking forever stop it? &#x200B; Thanks for reading this",2.0435683760683787,4.756041861111116,2.6185185185185205,91.08602564102566,84.0925925925926,5.545299145299146,24.04843304843305,7.010146845296331,1.0267313390313388,443,17,86,6,13,137,80,108,0.135,0.7490000000000001,0.11599999999999999,-0.4573,0,0,3,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,1,9,4,0,2,9,0,10,4,0,1,0,16,17,10,0,1,5,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,7,3,4,2,3,4,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,1,7,2,7,10,5,15,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,3,12,59,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15249201214742447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11872935256207047,0.3092086990389158,0.34676747465516417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1557803161828469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1541969931259418,0.0,0.0,0.1578835607610614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12486881430036292,0.0,0.0,0.27956338244330065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12022231908575512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07214825528490708,0.10193762877452874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07454953642009919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07841858791490013,0.11631123970496887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06971103362513187,0.14301267557776706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12130977382581724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20978685689942647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14516683468232794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15176817697052314,0.1427284238887149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11803448534752906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23859014077292304,0.16345069525606545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13136960606711354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09142986868577804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1232381819972169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22891431733013626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1593080771177327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14541310672116184,0.10136274705310708,0.0,0.34676747465516417,0.09188755937059402 alcoholism,kjey_2000,2019/06/03,"How to make my dad quit? Help.. My dad has been drinking regularly since he got out of residential school, where he spent most of his childhood being molested and abused by the nuns and priests. (6 yrs old - 18yrs old).. he often talks about the experience when he’s drunk.. but not only that years later he lost his first son (my brother was only 13) and after that it only got worse as my mom says.. my whole childhood I’ve seen him drunk, up until now, it’s still happening (he’s drunk right now) and I’m sick of it, I’m beginning to hate him, I have these very angry thoughts of beating him up and other horrible things, I’m sad, angry and confused on how to handle this situation, he’s talked about quitting to me and often promised me not to drink ever again when I was a kid but you know.. someone anyone help me please",3.77118181818182,4.9253595272727315,4.647651515151517,86.23147727272728,71.9090909090909,7.4393939393939394,25.26515151515152,7.793537801064563,1.2000606060606058,642,19,134,8,12,208,104,165,0.264,0.687,0.049,-0.9927,0,0,2,0,1,0,27.0,0,1,0,5,14,6,2,1,3,0,6,6,0,3,1,22,20,15,0,0,4,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,9,8,5,0,2,5,1,0,2,5,0,1,9,2,16,1,19,10,2,23,2,2,1,0,24,6,0,4,17,79,25,1,0.0,0.17522986835532373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10341072413347333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28975907368402753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13377833216999385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14466843171649346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12579831831228505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2365682282503713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1307819236282672,0.0,0.0,0.14601442489842706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19826007921605007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08127851793479919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1614434602371977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09872020308563377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17321133140006548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3103791506995107,0.0,0.0,0.3374395035016591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16234288727227608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3146063407113865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263004244168347,0.0,0.11761101807938665,0.0,0.14967633511157633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12233920922747275,0.16623873201155065,0.0,0.0,0.12530986467152633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.118108111732965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23774273178762015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0982540125693032,0.0,0.0,0.1174110897142301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12202780344609675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16511805105727656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15071633036056148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09523870348688954 alcoholism,MaskedByAPaperBag,2019/06/03,"Any way to help my mom get the help she needs? I posted on r/relationship_advice but figured I could post here as well, maybe getting more answers to this unfortunate question. I'm 15 and have been dealing with my parents alcoholism with my 9yo brother for about a year or so now (though apparently its been going on for 10+ years) My dad has seen what it's been doing to our family and has decided to/has quit (I haven't seen him drunk in a while now) My mom on the other hand seems to be guiltless. No matter what we say or do she refuses to talk to us about it when shes sober, and yells and locks herself in her room/passes out when shes drunk. She'll start to drink the moment she wakes up some days, drinking all throughout the day no matter what happens. I've had to cancel plans with friends too many times because of this. Occasionally she'll drink while she works from home too. I'm tired of throwing this under the rug. The moment shes finally sober, we all act like nothing ever happened and I'm sick of it. Don't get me wrong, I understand that she's been through a hell of a lot, and because of recent personal events, old feelings have resurfaced. I painfully understand that if she doesn't want help, then she won't get it. There's no arguing with an addict. But enough is enough. I'm tired and sad and I want to go to sleep without wondering which mother I'm going to wake up to; wondering if today is finally the day that the empty promises of the night before might be full, real, true promises. That I might be able to hear 'I love you' without thinking of it as an apology and an excuse. I want to be able to cry again. I want this numbness to go away. I used to talk to my friends about this (not super comfortable talking about this kind of thing with my dad, and obviously not my mom) but due to unfortunate events that involved my mom getting drunk in front of my friends, I cant do that anymore without feeling immense guilt and sorrow. It's been six months since then, and they have no idea that she continues to drink. I can't get in contact with my therapist any time soon. I feel empty and numb and so alone. I want to be able to walk out of my room and socialize with my own family without my anxiety clinging to me. Is there any way that we can get through to her? We are desperate at this point and I want to be free of this burden. I don't want my brother growing up thinking that this is what a family is, that this is *okay.* It's probably already too late for that. Anything you can give to help is appreciated.",4.007499462712232,4.930490630560929,4.869247259832368,85.73119949494951,71.12765957446808,7.988158177519879,28.28761014399312,8.256446698504663,1.748711626907372,2004,72,422,29,36,651,235,517,0.159,0.6859999999999999,0.155,-0.2633,2,1,5,0,0,0,54.0,6,2,1,4,21,24,2,1,17,1,45,20,4,1,5,80,88,34,0,11,13,10,4,1,3,5,8,3,3,1,36,29,8,1,15,7,1,9,17,10,1,1,8,9,60,15,75,68,9,64,1,2,2,1,60,18,1,12,34,288,96,1,0.19932126835484484,0.0,0.0,0.07242986781033138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07100460613428908,0.0,0.06881224062209021,0.07331865868896371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1355452974988265,0.0,0.05082674157505119,0.0,0.06589104632849616,0.0,0.0,0.05467480686110608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06242296429143514,0.0,0.0,0.08100293010399133,0.0,0.05653590622162528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053047271287374784,0.0,0.0729816846273605,0.12854572865176053,0.06849715850210722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2603452807844854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13730143476273987,0.0,0.0,0.060099166194975774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18790235266634156,0.0,0.10078282221422227,0.0,0.0,0.14556447115740367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15399511749316905,0.0,0.24298665074468756,0.06373570765224483,0.15103849355532012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11750609289172785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07488318522148256,0.0,0.17813445955498342,0.0,0.0666451612742533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07500315016815019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06918747620280456,0.0,0.0,0.07494769084253912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0324594345373406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05648527151976024,0.05996507557071079,0.0,0.0,0.06736016046722866,0.06674833488726763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14096557816376,0.0,0.3112568806565063,0.05303211158833816,0.0,0.0,0.0492647316314989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06234983598600141,0.0,0.06375137757026954,0.0,0.06971804723070567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07069729424129231,0.0,0.07377422680875644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05801321444924343,0.0,0.0,0.06280767497427786,0.0,0.12726311839759027,0.0,0.0716340131216461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07442847912421445,0.07066756794508652,0.0,0.07562374678894562,0.0,0.0,0.06560190206780829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05283609092189569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06048486557564998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05496020430409389,0.0,0.06648840526369455,0.0677276439895187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04702687321416575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16020688534816996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07714245174846372,0.044140064649798826,0.08514468034781042,0.06527737804975989,0.0,0.07748388965125995,0.1527269844205445,0.06297775212540549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13833364653297836,0.07991964801680297,0.057383193061670223,0.0,0.0,0.274317979393915,0.10547463011913877,0.0,0.0,0.059737919257673376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2561847865306962,0.1441036087031819,0.048369419089058605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07264217232303766,0.0,0.08557090787735831 alcoholism,svuv,2018/12/01,"Do Women’s Only NA groups exist? A friend tried a women’s only AA group for the first time today and loved it, but she mainly has a substance abuse problem and wants to seek out an NA sponsor. Any idea if something like this exists or any other alternative similar to that in Los Angeles?",7.075263157894735,6.367685298245611,7.760350877192984,73.26578947368422,64.43859649122807,9.705263157894738,31.280701754385966,8.841846274778883,2.560922807017545,230,7,41,3,3,77,48,57,0.151,0.7290000000000001,0.121,-0.6007,0,0,1,0,1,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,5,0,2,1,0,0,0,9,4,5,0,3,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,4,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,3,5,4,1,5,1,0,0,1,7,2,0,2,4,24,5,0,0.0,0.3315477789992972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38058223731865454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2380196562934733,0.0,0.0,0.21619269511067604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3158892328653683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13670873626316446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525536817890812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4256402137476568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2677554697849405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2154235481450429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631686562930202,0.0,0.26524210998976905,0.0,0.0,0.18998332900977874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16504848868281088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,MellyMalarkey,2018/12/01,Alcoholism For Generations My father is an alcoholic as his father was and now so am I as a 21 year old. I cannot stop drinking as it is the only thing that takes the edge off my emotional distress although it makes me feel much worse when I'm sober. I have dealt with various mental health issues and find that of course the symptoms are only exacerbated after the alcohol has worn off. I was recently given a permanent STD then broken up with so my drinking has increased tenfold. I cannot deal with the loneliness and the further deterioration of my mental state. I don't know how to help myself but I know I can live a decent life if I could just stop abusing alcohol because I work to be a decent person. How do I help myself when I am alone and have only alcohol to keep me company? ,5.289999999999999,5.871511152866244,6.8425541401273895,73.96828980891723,68.04458598726114,9.846878980891722,30.98662420382165,9.888512548439397,3.0213138853503185,629,24,117,14,10,217,96,157,0.107,0.8140000000000001,0.079,-0.6456,0,1,7,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,8,1,0,1,11,0,18,11,0,3,0,21,27,17,0,2,3,2,1,0,0,0,9,0,0,1,5,7,7,3,4,2,0,1,3,1,0,0,4,1,21,0,16,21,3,16,0,0,0,1,7,4,0,1,10,89,26,1,0.0,0.1452414945975351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6550228227453102,0.0,0.1269596172576877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07472581120583761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09787301210255596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12637828601492998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24017047624396545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13789002565009062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0619819401257304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1120391692583563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13030061086267025,0.0,0.0,0.1643303764057754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12794540693893638,0.0,0.10895791626343848,0.0,0.0,0.1347374569680677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08658440617924525,0.0,0.0,0.10824354497267284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08182549001323856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24707082877748696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0901130342803006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12863084405250866,0.0,0.0,0.2796910040784274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1070352518066338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12103649441741225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20497071982654735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12741127367723934,0.09216759474003734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08143908210233519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08924230455231234,0.0,0.12492313831701142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07893980499898641 alcoholism,ebolahash,2018/12/01,"Actuality At the moment I am drunk. I have basically been drinking for the past forever. I'm 33. I was in a almost successful metal band. I only partied. I had the meanest, most brutal realization that I am an alcoholic. This shit kills me. I have to make a change. I will. Ive cried more tonight than I have at funerals. Because I'm disappointed in myself. I'm proud of myself. I don't know what else to say but I needed to say it ",-0.7346816479400786,1.3445992022471922,2.8992808988764054,84.84412734082399,101.92134831460676,5.968838951310862,20.54007490636704,7.3011,1.215705018726592,335,13,69,8,15,122,61,89,0.179,0.748,0.07400000000000001,-0.7645,0,0,2,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,2,0,6,3,0,6,0,11,4,1,1,0,6,17,1,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,4,0,3,0,1,3,0,0,1,4,0,0,3,2,15,2,10,13,2,7,0,1,0,0,3,4,1,2,3,48,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.25157662995171554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2755109129166628,0.2581505055182879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15715312313448634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27271932054626946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2831823405914226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525468764900312,0.0,0.0,0.2153596913171521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2852186579394328,0.0,0.1416807112833065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17208419821858822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19115620697505828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19606931034164315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461002665657703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4100274739164998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2646290661822155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Yukos,2018/12/01,"Dealing with loneliness? How do you deal with loneliness? I recently lost my long term girlfriend (alcohol was a problem, but not why she left). All my friends have long term relationships or are married, so they don't usually want to go out much on the weekend anymore. For the past few months, I have been going to bars by myself just to be around people. I would drink to shove down all the anxieties and loneliness I have been feeling. I was drinking too much, spending too much and realizing that I was spending most of my days looking forward to being able to go to the bar, by myself and fumbling on my phone while I drank for hours. I know that isn't healthy behavior. I have stopped, but I can't help feeling isolated and alone. Have any of you experienced this? How have you dealt with it?",4.369901960784311,6.1282065947712425,4.730212418300656,83.85845588235297,71.2875816993464,8.237254901960785,31.70424836601307,8.841846274778883,2.625362091503268,631,29,122,12,12,199,95,153,0.161,0.775,0.063,-0.914,0,1,3,0,0,0,19.0,0,3,1,1,7,3,0,0,5,0,19,6,0,2,2,27,29,11,0,3,5,0,2,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,4,9,6,1,4,5,2,4,4,2,0,0,7,4,21,1,21,19,9,23,0,1,1,0,12,7,0,2,14,92,25,0,0.15710281244246468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1678951284848447,0.0,0.16271113396116246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10683529974586688,0.0,0.1201832215091782,0.0,0.15580377515792387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1398548108042378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10131831723399036,0.3239322025336719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3078018930565242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1588718047645152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12137724318267212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2678554462403585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10530270359502558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15471462430416713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0863395971248886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1706926653953632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.278062090548766,0.13192679509729052,0.0,0.17149627810031326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12539796604331666,0.0,0.3464659308794735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14997241103009526,0.10891530905875134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1503261743091728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15512007426242094,0.16866962647694042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313449858001748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17302655258721378,0.0,0.09266330917208113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14176085245000833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11160133045923387,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,AngryMatt14,2018/12/01,I dont know how to word this. Stay away from 99's 99's are little minis or 1/4 pints(?) Just dont. They are cheap 99 proof fucking traps. Im currently weening myself of them. Just dont. I dont care if I reach one person. Stay away.,-2.5089957264957263,-0.9075711730769208,0.27871794871794897,103.35517094017095,106.8846153846154,3.0803418803418805,11.547008547008549,5.033348758259628,-1.6183786324786325,177,3,45,1,9,60,36,52,0.025,0.924,0.051,0.2803,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,2,0,3,2,1,0,0,0,6,1,0,1,1,8,9,3,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,4,1,0,1,0,0,6,1,5,9,0,6,0,0,0,1,3,3,1,2,1,24,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31474941177740984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17078060603947995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7852496903720227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15485394594113466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18093212567700948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09205534047451784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16788214239167196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11350445690404028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14625727350888912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3570721023076877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Applemartini03,2019/08/12,"In need of a change I officially fucked up. I’m only 22 years old and I’ve already jeopardized my relationships, my job, and my mental health (all from over drinking). Last weekend I got so intoxicated that I had to be carried into an uber. I’ve disappointed my friends, my family, and myself. Today marks day two of sobriety. I’m already sweating and jittering just after 48 hours of no nicotine or alcohol. How can I ensure my success of sobriety? Thank you.",3.109540229885056,5.739198804597702,5.405287356321839,73.52678160919542,78.19540229885058,8.464367816091954,30.356321839080447,9.150863307647796,3.3185080459770115,364,18,62,10,9,127,65,87,0.107,0.764,0.128,0.2315,1,0,2,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,1,3,5,1,0,2,0,3,6,1,1,1,10,9,7,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,12,3,11,6,1,12,0,1,0,1,3,4,1,1,8,40,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2240629298074437,0.0,0.0,0.4627303598961278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22179263002615104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13521344667637036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20538712046296115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1976489223647723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16198290542965327,0.19382742262705266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16768436817392626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22285892652737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2064730068018548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2080553395938118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17090099849057147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21128811028986916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15546033851176447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22000305013201027,0.0,0.0,0.1594559854467982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22509652911913908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19302688979269486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19873329945972246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2048074936771991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13501425730763075 alcoholism,baketwice,2019/08/12,"Scared of withdrawals I've been on a 5th or more a day for over 5 years. Small stints of sobriety here and there, think I got 2 weeks once. I've never had withdrawal symptoms before but am worried this might be the turning point. I've wanted to quit for a long time but finally overextending myself financially has forced me to stop for at least the next few days. This was the first day, no real symptoms not even a hangover(I try to drink lots of water when getting smashed). I came here because after reading about alcohol and dependencey and quiting etc etc for years I really think I should expect some symptoms and am a bit scared. Do you know anyone that went cold Turkey after drinking so much for so long without issues? I'm early 30s 260lb Male if that helps. Live alone and work from home, dont really see others much. My work would notice if something happens but I'm not sure how quickly they'd respond or what they would do. I'll have new insurace starting next month and plan to look into counseling. Thanks",4.652272727272724,6.278937257575759,4.754969696969699,84.48245454545456,70.36363636363636,7.502222222222222,27.34141414141414,8.021203637495839,1.7143632323232325,819,28,153,11,15,255,139,198,0.122,0.8420000000000001,0.037000000000000005,-0.9316,0,1,4,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,2,6,10,4,0,2,8,0,16,7,0,1,2,34,32,17,0,7,10,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,1,6,8,4,1,3,3,0,2,6,2,0,1,6,3,10,2,21,20,10,31,0,0,2,0,6,6,0,7,23,96,16,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11566813522953052,0.0,0.11209672142493908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07567901312267701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06597781737945617,0.0,0.09209829055032308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11816237732450227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12378969055997875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20940394622779407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12684824139499534,0.21205422284292946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2414167559092247,0.07148685965314587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11856393444818195,0.0,0.09206291380455063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05654726263040185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08656379790484972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09571006293020284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07254628213089606,0.0,0.10856649936322306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11296710677793068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05948201288524142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09557170042677364,0.19156555512987294,0.09088844038193404,0.0,0.0,0.09201580545729182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11481808325869107,0.0,0.0,0.08639052856805014,0.0,0.15912738111004632,0.0,0.08347594317938299,0.10453208233364814,0.2302139949789847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1232239601508986,0.0,0.1152645867344445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1023151459869711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2302381845469311,0.1082622650391492,0.12319282151363653,0.13867363134154842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21672018005948526,0.0,0.08624766862948192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08332303244692728,0.0,0.0,0.07660785724338096,0.0,0.0,0.09048761400261086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10200829867378412,0.3374865101272036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09964638242776104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13870264109231778,0.0,0.0,0.06311151849319169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07348308587322523,0.1177263976354482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06383861326327622,0.0,0.0868179645610541,0.0,0.0,0.10033305277550812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10433272623235876,0.0,0.1575897906562786,0.1099158405351939,0.0,0.15377120110449674,0.0,0.0,0.13939697553356592 alcoholism,zialls,2019/08/12,"Can problem drinkers return to drinking in moderation? My partner was a problem drinker for about 5 years and slowly cut down and then went cold turkey when he saw how it was affecting our relationship. It's been about three months and he hasn't had a drink - our relationship feels stronger than ever and he says he made the right decision for our relationship and that he was ready to move on from that phase of his life. I looked up the definitions for ""problem drinker"" vs. ""alcoholic"" and I do feel that he fits into the problem drinker category, based on how he was able to cut down & stop drinking on his own without medical intervention/AA and how well it's gone. I do know he has said that he would like to give drinking a break, let his body reset, and then introduce drinking back into his life in a more ""normal"" way. He thinks that he has the control and ability to do that, but it makes me very nervous that things might go back to the way they were, or escalate. Does anyone have any experiences with this, or feedback to share? I want to share my fears with him but don't want to put him on the defense, and I don't want to assume that I know better than he does how his body has been responding to & handling being sober.",8.649281705948376,6.6212272839506205,8.078952487841379,76.48680134680137,62.16872427983539,11.470108492330716,36.9057239057239,10.018931242160765,3.3227975308641966,982,36,200,16,11,310,130,243,0.076,0.826,0.098,0.5455,0,0,10,0,0,0,28.0,3,0,1,2,11,14,3,2,10,0,23,11,2,8,1,48,40,21,0,9,6,0,2,1,1,2,4,2,0,1,14,14,6,3,7,5,0,5,4,9,1,1,13,7,20,5,34,23,2,31,0,0,2,0,33,13,0,4,11,129,34,1,0.09970499317772327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10655431548232183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21606063690351407,0.0,0.06780281439075278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06971604948642544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15333397066346444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08818096402536844,0.0,0.22149954107740052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11182762793646916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17450502285983574,0.0,0.0,0.4883646761341454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09018887454783647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09753061521600877,0.0,0.11219583696305577,0.10082768070100416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09564611467349173,0.056664645325369585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1095905134792804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10195511074418513,0.14084917061676305,0.04871082337289824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08372708292508457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09434327531064174,0.06655385716809073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10044229112927093,0.0,0.10577124151214452,0.0,0.0,0.07958357431333782,0.10597062869552756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09768972393966813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3816168520705109,0.0,0.10023105684751367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3211375473624585,0.0,0.08514751939494845,0.09484228072571264,0.07928941244032267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08335783879063663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06623956712342709,0.06388693371711268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08226706132322817,0.17642576473055532,0.15828236539810275,0.0,0.0,0.08964676295508231,0.09242752757733146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0961120554423465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07082756647744827,0.0,0.0,0.06420674664984552 alcoholism,12Dougydoo,2019/08/12,"I'm going to rehab in one week I'm going to a residential treatment facility for 5 weeks. I have never been more afraid in my life. I'm trying to pack but not sure what to bring. No books, hobbies phone... nothing. Sounds worse than jail. Anyone been? I could use some advice.",-0.048262626262626895,2.235606800000003,2.0260606060606072,91.42131313131313,99.1818181818182,3.8989898989898992,15.202020202020204,5.82211442006289,-0.5270404040404046,214,5,43,2,9,71,43,55,0.098,0.84,0.062,-0.2292,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,4,2,0,1,2,7,11,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,3,1,0,1,2,1,3,1,8,8,2,8,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,3,24,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2874794145053703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2057047396527492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23488706360048464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3343903218853537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.207795351181426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22689774153301295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2822835843307609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1993510013265964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27727093226091465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1997359429612196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2540860140620148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.471963522258508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2998051097507165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,MrsDermotBrown,2019/08/12,"Alcoholic scale So simple, (I know it’s not a simple question), question at what point is alcohol consumption considered a problem or something that someone should think about?",9.20758620689655,11.355195448275865,7.968448275862072,63.75887931034484,60.03448275862069,11.317241379310346,45.53448275862069,11.20814326018867,6.21388275862069,144,9,18,4,2,44,26,29,0.09699999999999999,0.903,0.0,-0.4019,0,0,3,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,8,4,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,0,2,0,4,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,3,0,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5834447204648056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1500174024230896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2580452759579188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2611958236664263,0.0,0.0,0.6115786786440245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23128694855252355,0.21014596318081724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17490842118974756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,throwaway4646887,2019/08/12,"Can an alcoholic man use marijuana? My father (37) is an alcoholic and he has been using marijuana over a year now behind our backs. He says he only uses it once or twice a month to help him sleep and it's completely safe. I am worried because he has been sober for more than 6 years and I'm really scared that he may lose control again.",2.409130434782611,4.208425492753626,4.45731884057971,83.58858695652177,76.68115942028986,8.078260869565218,23.09420289855073,8.841846274778883,1.6276550724637682,265,8,55,6,6,91,55,69,0.132,0.787,0.081,-0.3947,0,0,2,0,0,0,6.0,1,0,0,2,3,3,0,1,4,0,8,3,1,4,0,10,12,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,3,3,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,1,4,1,5,9,1,7,0,1,0,0,11,1,0,2,6,33,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4327970496906669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15570108498212992,0.0,0.12343505257603578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21230524068540466,0.0,0.2271079647301529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13572370994817673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22653273124954215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16162431343461167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21564354337297825,0.0,0.15400155687556194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12971925758856412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16102690735961528,0.20272621831424856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2026346402256015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.52465490644263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20563680482745694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2607917886244559 alcoholism,Auroraskies_,2019/08/12,"How do I talk to my child about her grandmothers addiction? My child is 5 and my mother recently crossed the line with my child and is now unsafe for my kid to be around. My mother is an alcoholic. Also smokes weed. Shit is about to hit the fan in my family because I am refusing to allow her near my children anymore. However, my 5 year old absolutely loves her grandma and usually spends one day a week with her and looks forward to it. She has already been asking about when she can go see grandma next. Now, my kids not dumb. Saying “grandmas sick we can’t see her for awhile” probably isn’t going to cut it. She’s very smart and she knows when something is wrong. However, I have no idea on how to talk about this with her. I don’t want her to view her grandma negatively. I don’t want any of this to weigh on my kid at all. I don’t feel like she needs to know details but I also know that she’s going to keep asking to see her until I give her a solid answer she can understand. She is very attached to my mother and this is going to be painful for her. I don’t intend on resuming contact between my kids and my mother until she decides to get help in some form. And I don’t believe she will be ready for that any time soon. If anyone could point to me to any resources on how to help a child through something like this or if anyone has any suggestions it would be much appreciated. Thank you.",2.787744565217391,4.253254881944444,4.166394927536235,87.4941847826087,74.83333333333333,7.230917874396138,25.02173913043478,7.893859768569023,1.2693639492753617,1098,36,233,16,23,363,143,288,0.052000000000000005,0.823,0.125,0.9604,2,0,4,0,0,0,22.0,1,1,0,0,15,10,3,0,6,0,29,7,1,5,1,40,53,21,0,7,5,4,1,2,0,2,4,1,0,9,9,13,2,2,8,0,1,6,10,5,0,1,1,7,48,5,43,44,4,31,0,0,5,1,48,11,2,4,18,165,57,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12923529961975685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12669223105828686,0.0,0.0,0.13082115306629555,0.1896062916414601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3224680216211627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11756819903111625,0.16578365334195305,0.0,0.0,0.10553324664582436,0.22165357983999534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07226602959900973,0.0,0.0,0.13356349769749915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09465128414684924,0.0,0.0,0.07645393748636485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11175692008570373,0.0,0.0599416539941177,0.0846910302800053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0619366677665214,0.11372246731810515,0.2694952449706701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15892104285953146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13382676066438834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10537130175878172,0.0,0.0,0.1954533693825399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11583356078754944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09955083365479488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10699459687536207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08714674484588336,0.08790216723515161,0.0,0.0,0.1260776124161226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12439664733834314,0.0,0.08033149200424364,0.0,0.12614390002070774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11206659544066297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12781527053154473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11705228417039633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09427447885047664,0.0,0.0,0.28340327802194565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12168827159175755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18252876400739548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1905694934520324,0.0,0.10914347742884033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06912654956796987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12341310841542735,0.0,0.0,0.13056435989193602,0.19562975923538006,0.13984588453755492,0.0,0.09509240902304353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0842134115060388,0.12961411071164053,0.0,0.0763413095494259 alcoholism,Hi158372,2019/08/12,"Worried about withdrawals Hello, overall I've been a light to moderate drinker talking max 2 times a week and sometimes none, and on those days I do drink its 4 to 5 drinks usually not going past 14 drinks in a week unless it's a special occasion. However, this summer, for the past 2 and half or so months I've drank 3 to 4 days a week and sometimes 2 days. Most days I'll consume anywhere from 3-6 beers usually light beers and sometimes ipa's. So far I've made sure to not heavily drink the most I've had this summer is probably 8-10 drinks and I'm a 168lb dude. Those days I heavily drinked talking 7-10 beers is probably 4 or 5 days max. I dont consider myself an alcoholic but I find it a habit that is costly and can lead me to eventual dependence and I want to cut it off. It's been 2 days since my last drink which was a mixed drink and 3 and half beers. I feel nothing when I dont think about withdrawals but the idea terrifies me since I have health anxiety. I'm worried to go to a doctor because my parents think a couple of beers make me an alcoholic. This is the only summer I've really drank consistently and most I've taken off is around 4 days but usually I allow two days between drinks. I've never even vomited or blacked out from alcohol. Even before summer I took almost 3 months or so without a drop. The only time I've drank this much was last christmas break but that was only 3 weeks. Should I be worried about withdrawals with my levels of drinking.",2.9920355191256824,4.4265105901639386,4.454774590163937,85.75899248633881,74.24590163934427,7.837431693989072,27.46243169398907,8.472884824447931,1.9011775956284147,1170,45,242,21,24,390,144,305,0.069,0.893,0.037000000000000005,-0.8577,2,0,19,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,1,10,3,1,0,18,0,18,24,0,5,2,44,33,24,0,2,12,1,1,0,0,1,6,0,0,0,14,14,21,0,5,15,1,4,7,1,0,3,12,4,18,2,26,19,5,44,0,0,1,0,4,8,0,9,30,130,32,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20984402480263176,0.06554046626721392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05007040435067115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058265927967491075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039898775115330735,0.0,0.05569461266110195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0724211088692787,0.0,0.3798986367230343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06699263252876697,0.0,0.0,0.1534179109953402,0.6411779053561664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08646051810408004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0330943679350144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059821707469111016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07439546792178464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06957214229336821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07388705118836071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10670381276923634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06193202191337607,0.04368954678520645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1044859138521445,0.0,0.04811456217994098,0.0,0.05048041927939543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06280271278343283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14933700007306788,0.0,0.0,0.07267641506229762,0.0,0.12496218968715962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14113609848335004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04193006264136839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10828471656551224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1942003426783352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06168749331726306,0.0,0.0,0.10521526373145768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08387766835354557,0.0,0.0,0.07633087554457227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0727192949073991,0.0,0.0,0.0639368425348143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21625754433907005,0.0,0.03860513389852036,0.0,0.21000576142555652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06309314473337559,0.0,0.0,0.1994082667771817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,shmabo,2019/03/26,"Concerned a close friend is spiraling towards alcoholism and seeking advice TL;DR: friend is developing an unhealthy relationship with alcohol and has tried to stop drinking but has admitted she feels she’s losing control. How do we approach this topic with her and what are some things we can say as friends that won’t make her feel cornered or attacked? So over the last few months a close friend of mine (21F if that’s relevant) has begun to develop an unhealthy relationship with alcohol. Obviously being in college it’s always around and we often go out to bars, etc. on Fridays and Saturdays. In September, however, I noticed her behavior change. She’d mention not wanting to drink for a week and then proceed to blackout 4 nights in a row. Around this time she also started serving at a restaurant and I think it’s contributed a lot to this behavior. Often times she’ll have a drink with coworkers after work, then go across the street to another bar, and one thing leads to a next before she’s stumbling home very drunk at 4am on a Monday or Tuesday. Last week she acknowledged this was becoming a problem and even mentioned she wanted to get control over the situation. She decided she’d moderate her drinking by having a max of 7 drinks per week (go out 2 nights with 2-3 drinks per night), which I thought sounded like a smart first step to take. However, after saying this on Monday she proceeded to drink pretty heavily for the next 6 nights in a row. I brought this to the attention of my other friends and we decided that this is starting to become a serious and very real problem. As her friends and roommates we want to help her get through this, but don’t want to corner her or make her feel attacked. I suggested we should first try only doing activities that don’t involve alcohol (i.e. making dinner at home, going to a paint night, etc.). That being said, I feel we should also directly address our concern over the situation and offer support, but I’m not sure how to phrase it. Any suggestions are greatly appreciated. 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I am 5 days sober today. I was prescribed a low dose of diazepam for withdrawal. It worked really well, had no cravings, better sleep, low anxiety and a sense of well being. I followed the doctors instructions in order to taper off the diazepam. Tonight was my last dose. Now I am concerned about what the next few weeks is going to look like. My goal is abstinence, although I question it sometimes. I wish I could drink socially and in moderation, but from what I've read and experienced that seems to be nearly impossible for an alcoholic. Also, I cant help but feel like the benzos just mask the alcohol cravings. My main reason for drinking was to reduce anxiety, but obviously just made things worse in the long run. With these pills I feel like I function better, almost like the anti anxiety and well being effects of alcohol but without the impulsiveness and recklessness (at least in my case). I have a few left over, but I really do not want to go against the doctors order and just keep on taking them; developing a dependence. My current plan is to immediately start going to the gym and eating healthier, to enhance well being and reduce anxiety. Im also in between jobs right now, so I have a lot of time on my hands (a dangerous thing), I am in communication with a workplace that I will potentially start next week. I have been looking into CBD oil/products for anxiety and it is something I feel could help in the long run. It is legal where I am located however it seems to be less regulated than THC products and the herb itself. I am also adamant towards vaporizing or smoking herb with high THC because in the past when I have smoked I tend to almost always become anxious and paranoid. I also have the thought that maybe it is not a good idea to replace one substance with another. Given, the impulsive and addictive nature of the alcoholic mind. But, to my knowledge, CBD has little to no potential for dependence and no health risks. I would strictly be using it for medicinal purposes. Any advice/insight/suggestions on this topic? Thanks in advance. P.S. I am also attending group therapy for alcoholics in hopes to stay sober",5.916240102171134,7.501882372839508,6.78445295870583,71.29555555555554,67.24691358024691,10.030651340996167,34.21243082162623,10.245366335075165,3.918799914857386,1751,82,287,45,29,581,215,405,0.11800000000000001,0.787,0.095,-0.8111,4,0,10,0,0,0,50.0,0,0,1,7,18,17,1,1,25,0,35,18,2,6,2,60,59,29,0,6,13,0,4,4,0,2,13,0,0,0,17,19,9,1,11,4,0,8,7,4,4,1,8,7,32,13,55,41,7,55,0,2,2,0,7,26,0,10,22,216,49,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08134062856175138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4784401354038233,0.1494309384544471,0.0,0.0,0.2983452467467597,0.06208509625768475,0.0,0.0,0.0507403001480718,0.07823962629767177,0.2853987748732749,0.08429294998039885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04548420043548966,0.08240566064722435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13198061532394867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11914693538582807,0.0,0.0,0.04812006742321247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1527418481811347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14618726654002714,0.0,0.07634908273483984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1131817350350425,0.10660897845691723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272151224441835,0.06258295639110202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07931153915504695,0.0,0.0,0.10002481950300786,0.0788341317715592,0.0,0.07410886118250655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08423049169114387,0.08059627569864825,0.0,0.07404320513311201,0.0663206410527716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06082063413222497,0.0,0.0,0.08106868325204643,0.0,0.0,0.1458111625960857,0.07478315629383124,0.0,0.13206266063563452,0.1253144830731597,0.0,0.0,0.06343443152388475,0.0,0.07060187912888474,0.0,0.0,0.07496011906853411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07533919885985987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15870636384433334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050560598165933016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07122781672067542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08358512113693578,0.0,0.07463451745183143,0.0,0.0955996953761034,0.0767159538751784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06372022650954567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13585215969963807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07466821132933157,0.07605990870423998,0.0,0.057441753292810864,0.07379547605567267,0.0,0.10562480761530277,0.07952894350354486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05610068710080925,0.0,0.0,0.06869484640495238,0.08532798420451479,0.0,0.09914088516005402,0.0,0.0,0.059235440148894064,0.04350821338061221,0.0,0.07072565639220955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06444282080894262,0.0,0.0,0.04400946252118198,0.0,0.1197022229088104,0.0,0.2683489586983452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0858027922896959,0.07192554740998909,0.0,0.054320117802418535,0.0,0.0760383724251556,0.053003876227199404,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Moodbocaj,2019/03/26,"Already know I'm an alcoholic... I live in the hardcore thumping bible belt, and AA here is synonymous with church. Be sober for God and jesus doesnt want you this way, blah blah blah. As a stoic science supporting staunch atheist, where can I go for help? Legitimately.",3.634599999999999,6.288633260000001,4.122,83.32100000000001,76.4,7.2,30.0,8.238735603445708,2.3884,213,10,39,4,5,67,44,50,0.106,0.743,0.151,0.6459999999999999,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,4,1,0,0,0,5,9,3,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,5,8,0,4,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,20,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4198370298741148,0.0,0.0,0.4335195922376012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22326563015854806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26331898199798265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21590001058734065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3468936260411966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4458013686256016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2317130273653237,0.31182593529594704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,cuz_im_batman,2019/03/26,"Is it possible to be less of an angry drunk? Not sure if this is the right place to post this but it deals with my relationship to someone who struggles with alcoholism. I’m not an alcoholic but I have a streak of getting angry when I’m drunk, and I’ve damaged several relationships and friendships because of it. I try to keep it in check by monitoring myself and limiting the buzz I get, but on occasion I slip up and the anger comes out again. As kind of mentioned previously my girlfriend is an alcoholic, and unfortunately also is an angry drunk. However, they’re different kinds of angry. I’ll get in someone’s face and try to fight whereas she’ll run off and disappear with no regards to her own safety. I’ve gotten angry while I was drunk with her twice. The first time was three and a half months ago, we went out drinking and I picked a fight in the bar. I scared her, and she told me her concerns that if she was drunk that night and I had directed my anger toward her she would’ve ran. We were in a different city that night so things could’ve gone very poorly. The second time was two weeks ago, and this time I directed my anger toward her. We were drinking at her house with her friend and a small, meaningless comment she made set me off. We ended up fighting and I brought up some things from her past to use as an attack. This time I scared her much worse, she’s a tough girl and managed to talk some sense into me and get me to bed but our relationship is pretty far on the rocks now that I’m not sure if it’ll come back. She has lost trust in me because she knows that there’s a chance I’ll slip up again and she’s scared of what will happen since she struggles so much to control her own drinking. Is there anything I can do to be less angry? I’m working to be more in control of my drinking, and normally I do a good job. I’m not an angry person at all when I’m sober or even when I’m mildly drunk and i scare myself how much I change when I’m like that. It’s like after a certain number of drinks a switch gets flipped. I know I can’t promise her that I won’t slip up again, but I don’t want to go back to being that person. Not only for her sake but for other relationships in my life with family members who also struggle with alcoholism and for my own sake too.",3.69751438434983,4.542298670886076,4.674687380130422,87.13059263521289,71.78481012658227,7.770771001150749,25.756041426927503,8.00094639256281,1.2865367088607602,1806,54,391,24,33,589,208,474,0.23600000000000002,0.687,0.077,-0.998,4,0,9,0,4,0,33.0,5,0,0,6,19,28,7,7,23,0,28,18,1,6,4,69,58,42,0,5,15,0,0,2,2,4,5,0,1,3,24,36,16,4,2,13,2,9,9,17,0,6,15,0,61,11,60,35,12,63,0,2,0,0,47,27,0,6,27,268,85,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13126618670545515,0.31651027988800257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11842150843557865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06092963317655205,0.0,0.0,0.08423260134694621,0.0,0.1138662891112179,0.0,0.0902697073992413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07832581617472577,0.12755994728827005,0.0,0.0,0.16608709678800154,0.0591159066874736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07633326902775832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15471467735250902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3626611452360107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06557856351993449,0.0,0.0,0.04890354182729785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06979949315020283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06297944234546655,0.0,0.0,0.05720407965149728,0.0,0.19341746418031114,0.0,0.042079343925452435,0.06210228065475984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0654744254889718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08543365192649867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07347450761223948,0.06581125759102675,0.0,0.15420511886424704,0.0813822601585567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05229751865528723,0.07234562143045703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08082476166987262,0.0,0.0,0.0700596131159892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05909901271098977,0.0,0.16328649577855106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13896537924298386,0.07254469639818552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05631170072059227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07068074312069568,0.0,0.12929991265500168,0.07735733867625451,0.0,0.0,0.08347037508849828,0.07091104263584794,0.07532656109117883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3179703375946384,0.0,0.06323081583667882,0.0,0.0,0.2965127980661593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08364552809212827,0.0,0.061247680235318035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12546980759802268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2322119456299732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1395659880747151,0.0,0.0,0.05951154542663682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09837942196425813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17269617378025426,0.0,0.0,0.07074957938895078,0.0,0.1005382858062656,0.0,0.07232753450407782,0.0,0.0,0.06394786016581283,0.0,0.06109177860867208,0.04367144268282228,0.0,0.05939141797349234,0.0,0.0,0.06863697282094304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053902905766929216,0.0,0.07545435078790168,0.052596773739498434,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Munkeylord,2019/03/26,"Moore. Trying to keep this as least worded as possible beyond my story or short writing below this. I am a recovering and struggling alcoholic. I know at least one of you will recognize my writing. Please. read beyond this sober if you are also struggling with alcoholism, it is very raw and absolutely fucked. I am not sorry. Also thank you for letting me join and share my words. I hope they help someone somewhere, because they don't help me :( Feeding Moore,      More, a simplistic word. Moore, a significant name. Moore was a special friend, a safe place, confidence, hope, who shared and created dreams, desires, inspirations that were motivating. Moore is a creation of more than just one. Inside a place you only know about. A place that you never talk about.  Often referred to as a closet or a hole with secrets but that is sugar coating this dark emplacement. This place is pitch black, with an unknown presence. If you are lucky you may be able to see a few feet within when you squint at the entrance. Some have barriers, others are holes, nothing defines what or how this emplacement goes, or if the door can close. It feels safe, secure, but you have never seen the back wall or how far it goes. This place is not what it seems, it is violence, hate, has extremes, and thoughts that make no sense but they appear as dreams. Everything to much to show outside or let ponder around during the day dreams. It is shoved into this place with good reason. Perhaps it all starts at an early age, you learn how to manage your secrets. Is it natural? is it normal? does everyone do this? So it began when you least expected it, the creation of Moore. It starts off with the table scrap feedings and ever so slightly evolved into a being. A subtle bug at first or something so small because when you are a child you have no cares, none at all. But as you grow moore comes with you, your companion, your strength, your something that coddles you. A relationship far beyond anything physical your one true love, the one who could never wrong you. As you grow, moore comes with you, frolicking gracefully throughout life with you. But one day Moore shared substance, Moore shared pain, Moore shared distain, Moore, shared more that what was understood or contained. It's mentality changed, it was fun, exciting, and a experience. We experimented with it until euphoria was with us. But when we were finished moore wasn't the same, my friend that i cared about started to change. Over time of age, Moore began to go insane. It's hugs were not friendly, it's coddles pain, it seemed to take pleasure in whispering mind games. The realization that there is a problem came late, Moore is creative, smart, and knowing when trying to move beyond. The realization that circles aren't gaining ground is ever so quaint. Moore, knows the secrets and knows control. Moore gets angry when you ignore it and fucks with your soul. Once Moore is calmed from it's addiction, the outlandish demeanor falls inconsistent. The confusion, the scratching, the all knowing fuck of a being. The first time you see it, is a bit abrasive and puzzling how it kept the secrets. It's flesh can be grey, rotted with decay, open wounds and scars from fighting you. It's face distorted and claws pointed. It's teeth sharp, clearly predatory at heart. It smells emotion and devours the ones that mean anything. It wants what you have for no particular reason and fills the voids with abscessed sensations. The sad truth is, we feed this beast within us the best parts first. The faceless, hideous creature that manifest itself of your insecurities, your pain, the anguish. The all knowing being of destruction and all understanding feeling of human anatomy. If you have never seen Moore before, heed the warning. You may not know what you are challenging. Moore, the disillusion. Moore, the master of trickery, Moore, the sadistic feral being. Moore will tear you open, destroy your meaning. Moore, the evil fuck of upbringing. Moore, the murderer of humanity! Moore, the simplistic thought stuck in your very being. &#x200B;",4.945381907921352,7.684837411279229,4.469792661218545,82.05855904603935,72.41127922971114,7.082522857836393,28.710433692046283,8.07648339933343,2.1557146371065627,3246,131,545,51,68,979,340,727,0.15,0.67,0.18,0.9199,0,0,4,0,2,0,132.0,5,38,3,10,30,57,10,5,52,0,55,23,5,9,14,144,105,57,1,12,23,0,4,0,4,4,8,1,2,3,57,41,6,9,29,6,0,10,15,23,0,9,18,13,57,34,69,73,19,78,1,1,6,6,75,36,4,24,32,384,114,5,0.06323100215083174,0.0,0.0,0.06893112559086624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13514942304711852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10113161915057656,0.0,0.06851076441279254,0.07683258859133504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10406745427917732,0.056288997665178864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04862073763715634,0.0,0.0770900640444071,0.0,0.05380492564699131,0.0,0.06635703571447425,0.0,0.06903187766273122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07231942152937555,0.12893644163631696,0.0,0.13378003228779306,0.10893581899476258,0.0,0.0,0.07091894555340217,0.05048481006396656,0.0,0.0,0.08155753083398576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055333876088397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07112636675946858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11439212297723687,0.0,0.060419932260187215,0.05682794757461245,0.12370410636311548,0.0,0.0,0.0639429891329957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16135277438377518,0.0,0.0,0.14655634623135005,0.2338241703905981,0.033035588860438295,0.0,0.03593563568133406,0.05303516462954014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06242752386913746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07492904199414101,0.084764815778762,0.0,0.0,0.12560530470180178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056202620000714285,0.0,0.0,0.2780008411882574,0.0,0.07132732457473258,0.0,0.0,0.12931596746138138,0.04466192678202425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0570684481442731,0.0,0.04220718493245863,0.0,0.0,0.1377541962914484,0.0,0.0,0.06372197807761394,0.0,0.06384528703981818,0.0,0.0,0.06720454851271171,0.04648206203321576,0.0,0.19507058770542696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06195295689487518,0.06067185191328155,0.0,0.0,0.0673389536539689,0.2570817809316085,0.04809002643378934,0.20184673321683846,0.0,0.0,0.06847301351317313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.396377635289032,0.06940865244803553,0.05977373509861233,0.0712834542924097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06050352952497717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06324811335801557,0.0,0.0,0.13002400263918407,0.0,0.06788643276802744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10077384433753404,0.1151262591355188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05357542293004208,0.0973566292859502,0.0,0.07078193010946278,0.13426568631162214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13220554474099966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047541844422114315,0.05082268438104669,0.0,0.05821461142742715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1003967054725632,0.07374101168879912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08585939973684975,0.0,0.0,0.06582570320007605,0.1521182203190015,0.0,0.0,0.10434439772137452,0.037295283327336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06913317468292295,0.07683258859133504,0.0 alcoholism,Neuroticmuffin,2019/06/21,"Is there a good tip? Or a golden way/rule? I'm struggling. Hey y'all. I'm from Denmark, alcohol is a big part of our traditions, but I'm really struggling... Btw im drunk as I'm tuyæping this.i hate it. I can rally eaisly go without alkohol for weeks.. but once I fet that sip.. it's like... I can't stop again.. I openly stop when I wake up extremely hammered, almost in my own puke and have no fuck ing clue of what I did last night.. Again sorry, english isntmy first language. Thank you all, I've been a lurker for a long time and this is prettty new to me.",-0.9155982053838444,1.213709703389835,1.517058823529414,96.54902791625128,96.03389830508472,4.471385842472583,17.95812562313061,6.2272716619740125,-0.1536725822532401,427,13,97,5,17,144,89,118,0.2,0.7170000000000001,0.08199999999999999,-0.9446,0,0,1,0,0,0,28.0,1,2,0,1,4,7,2,2,5,0,8,4,1,0,1,11,16,7,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,3,2,2,0,1,0,1,3,4,0,1,2,0,11,3,10,14,3,17,0,0,0,1,4,4,1,2,13,53,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21408670277657826,0.20059673847922785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17039650224592434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851974079494942,0.0,0.0,0.11384942061520985,0.16802326300413065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19777964931437755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21638557859489027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1632917649497589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09786876785076064,0.0,0.0,0.17728148716989472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1934753145001607,0.0,0.18799161817274596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21333978689908115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2169326566359155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12833344480333314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22424764666607536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3349616536221792,0.0,0.4188467627052212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18443251821463566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11681122786858032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1590088095558145,0.16068878207266776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19310633223621446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,cocuriosity,2019/06/21,"My mom is depressed My mother has been struggling with chronic back pain for years now. With little to help the pain, she went to alcohol. (She drank before the pain too, but it became much worse as pain increased) Fortunately, she has found a procedure that worked and her back pain has lessened. However, she still drinks often. She is not an angry drunk. She just gets really goofy/giggly and over the top. Let’s just say eccentric. I love my mom and I love her personality. But the forced crazinesss that comes out when she drinks is not it. She hates it too. More recently, (past week or so) she has fallen into a deep depression. Depression and anxiety runs in the family. She takes meds (not sure exactly what... it changes) but this episode is really bad. She doesn’t want to get up from bed. She barely talks to me. Drinking is the only thing to bring her out of her shell. But she hates the way she acts when she’s drunk. It’s a bad cycle. She finally saw a therapist for the first time this morning. Besides listening to her, being there for her and helping around the house... what do I do? Any advice? Parents who have been through this... what did u want your kids to do?",1.5727798875892418,4.249556352422907,2.4856661096764405,91.1833920704846,86.79735682819384,6.126629196415008,20.16238796901109,7.503015589744147,0.8177371715023543,920,28,185,17,29,289,135,227,0.193,0.667,0.14,-0.9573,2,0,4,0,0,0,44.0,0,1,0,3,14,16,2,1,14,0,19,15,0,0,2,28,35,14,0,2,10,4,0,0,0,0,7,2,1,2,15,12,7,0,1,5,0,7,4,13,0,1,7,3,30,3,23,26,3,31,0,3,1,2,37,10,0,2,13,130,45,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09861027015194314,0.0,0.1078444920584738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06862378163668889,0.0,0.07719758515077059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08983328563031197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15519056273468096,0.16851500569551486,0.0,0.0,0.08586888121040252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1067517663365332,0.0869269568569904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2607466857646417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2965667239205863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09513107615191717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1105444231606661,0.0,0.08583589730199129,0.0,0.11064505933420904,0.0,0.0,0.10544495774175644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19925988436630387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13527869074074594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1164391728442302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10318959941886442,0.0,0.0,0.10114057214155582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18215446766765028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11209074635104968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2363743848576593,0.0,0.0,0.07418210535837727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.076748303572446,0.5368886754290966,0.0,0.1120510971098092,0.0,0.0963321487423932,0.0,0.08811267304441349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292939261470451,0.0,0.0996386599651316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08024946123988848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08058864287896335,0.0,0.0,0.10549538058283944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.095108589192633,0.0,0.0758734435949221,0.08110943367048237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11716688505002285,0.06704160632315591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05884273695111476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11904130394137626,0.08009943670936616,0.08094570964646358,0.0,0.0,0.09354665476173628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07346531044700652,0.0,0.1028381907494766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0649841721364022 alcoholism,callico_,2019/06/21,"A little worried for myself First time posting, feel free to delete it this isn’t the right for the sub. Recently I’ve been feeling...weird about my drinking habits. Here’s why, my dad died of alcoholism. It was so discreet. He was never a bad father, always a drinker, never let it get in the way of family until it did and he quietly drank himself to death while hiding it. It’s been really hard to deal with because it just ...really came out of left field. Fast forward to now, I know I self medicate with booze. Wine is my favorite, strong beers are a second. I find when I’m sad I’ll go through periods where I drink nightly, 2 glasses of wine or a couple beers. I know alcoholism is a slipper slope but I never seem to let myself slip more than a drink or two a night except for the weekends but I just worry because it’s hereditary. I assume for social drinkers this seems problematic but as someone who grew up with alcoholics it seems like a middle ground? Just looking for insight",2.5657327935222654,4.865889902564106,3.782887989203779,86.22097165991907,78.1794871794872,6.566801619433199,25.134952766531715,7.669130373188453,1.4620256410256416,781,29,149,12,19,254,126,195,0.10099999999999999,0.8370000000000001,0.062,-0.7525,0,0,12,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,2,9,5,0,0,13,0,11,13,0,0,3,27,23,11,2,0,9,2,2,1,0,0,4,1,0,1,12,6,12,0,9,8,1,4,4,2,0,3,7,4,14,4,26,14,1,30,0,1,1,0,9,10,0,6,17,98,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.382089810598895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0991642670199084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09950727104103377,0.1452975889238037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1363059910616955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13186636025138615,0.0,0.0,0.12286557987113365,0.0,0.0,0.1236862317915216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3502423449723997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11234885273277467,0.0,0.06025914146506214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1089250213251174,0.10137133915910868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062264722044267036,0.0,0.06773066394048301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10675859753586554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13099240623336064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12948544880387852,0.2437317767781895,0.0,0.058223542902101036,0.11944600759792028,0.0,0.0,0.10007811544135642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12005763076475115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2757484354328173,0.0,0.0,0.22367785528079884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11413799623270238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15269483806468928,0.0,0.11767226428761456,0.0,0.0,0.10177594844881166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3254810087699265,0.12432692043612473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12148527667497212,0.10097773135619724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06949268583440663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11641797319411774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09459663637640274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10753811571102437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2420587289580419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Sylviamarie1983,2019/01/10,9 months on the 20th I miss the excitement and high energy I had around month 4 and 5 for real for real ♥️🍀,-1.8797435897435903,-0.21827923076923209,2.313076923076924,93.91525641025645,91.30769230769228,6.5435897435897425,12.512820512820511,7.793537801064563,-0.2055487179487181,84,1,22,2,3,32,21,26,0.07,0.6990000000000001,0.231,0.5719,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,4,1,0,5,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,11,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28672709922959183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34030424051401376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5141760207765631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7332145757647915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Embo22000,2019/01/10,Day one of many.... I don't drink because I'm depressed or lonely I drink because I like it but over the years it has lead to legal and relationships troubles. I just got my license back after 8 years. I realise i need help. I could go a day or two without drinking but when I have a day off I end up drinking all day end up not even being able to do anything except cook because I love to cook but I do feel ashamed of being around people and having them notice I'm drunk. I just need to quit all together.,0.8210195412064571,2.8635050186915905,2.7606457094307584,92.59546304163128,82.92523364485982,4.63857264231096,22.811384876805445,5.565023196281405,0.2124280373831775,395,14,85,2,11,132,66,107,0.14,0.741,0.11900000000000001,-0.3182,0,2,4,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,2,6,6,0,1,3,0,9,8,0,1,2,20,17,8,0,3,10,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,7,0,1,7,0,2,3,4,0,2,1,1,14,2,14,13,2,18,0,2,0,1,4,5,0,2,12,59,16,2,0.14528180411616048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11955454597564093,0.1293316071945249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11171273965474644,0.0,0.2656873179967739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1159956988987605,0.0,0.0,0.3747789791645735,0.0,0.12513100500173607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5692834346934212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2573531130457453,0.0,0.0,0.09595726143339657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07345884539091922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0825669972997037,0.0,0.11619513049707506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09737933089006516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07097735102377438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13112250039517184,0.0,0.0,0.14729294649296035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21544923378615466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16540429690756292,0.0,0.0,0.09844671039175344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10072011028904752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15452508176828444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15597828742335895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1419192123497018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14004647477470886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18711343719951107 alcoholism,Rxevan87,2019/01/10,"My drinking has done it again I've always ran from my problems and emotions through drinking or substance abuse. I had to leave home to move across the country. I did good for a little while. No drinking, no drugs. Until one day I just started a spiral. A 40oz after work turned to 4. Then whiskey. Wine. Anything. Depression was at it's highest so I had no motivation to go out and meet people. No motivation to do anything other than drink away the pain. The pain of how I missed home. My mom. My friends. I started working up to 60 hours of overtime on top of my 80 hour work week. Anything to get me out of my head. I started going to the bar with coworkers every morning after work (3rd shift) from 8am to sometimes 6pm when I had work in 3 hours. I was broken, and I was continuously breaking myself. I downloaded tinder, genuinely in hopes to have company. I went to the bar down the road from my apartment to make friends. I had a good time that night, then got a DUI. Breathalyzer on my car, 9 days house arrest, fines on fines, AA. During my house arrest I matched with her. The most caring, loving, just all around the most amazing girl I've ever met. We share so many similar interests. We never had a dull moment. Eventually, after a fairly short time, we were in love. I was and still am, absolutely infatuated with this woman. She wasn't doing well in her life when we met, just as I wasn't. She got better, I got worse. She started telling me of things I did to her while I was drunk, and I still can't remember a fucking thing. We started having alcohol fueled arguments, that ultimately were purely miscommunication or lack of. I love her with every ounce of my being. I can't imagine doing anything other than loving her. Then it happened. Christmas night. My friends from home came to visit for a week that day. We all drank together, and my friends went to sleep. She later had her friends show up, and we played gamecube together. One thing led to the other, and we were yelling at each other over something so miniscule. Her friends left maybe an hour later, and the arguement struck back up. Until my dumb, dumb, drunk ass told her to just leave. After I realized what I said, I dropped down. Crying uncontrollably, having a panic attack (oh yeah I've got anxiety too). I begged her not to go. She insisted she needed to so we could heal. She came back the next day, and we talked about things. I said I was done drinking, and I'm going to go to the doctor to finally get help for my mental health. She spent the week with my friends and I then that Saturday, she left again. She said she needed her space so we could heal. I've never loved anyone like her. She's the only woman I've ever been able to actually visualize having a life with. We even picked out a name for a baby girl. Daisy. This passed Sunday I came home from work to all of her stuff gone. After I was sent a post she put on Instagram by someone that I've been nothing but an abusive alcoholic. She removed me from her followers so I couldn't see. Monday we spoke at a park near where I work. We laughed, we cried, we smiled. We stared into each others eyes as if we were the only ones on earth. It was so wonderful. I pleaded for her. She said we need time to ourselves to be better for each other in the future, yet she doesn't want to make any promises. I'm heartbroken. I'm lost. My apartment is torturous. I've been blindly driving around town just to stay out. I still haven't drank since the 26th. I'm medicated for my mental health now for the first time in my life, but the pills aren't fully saturated in my system to do much. I've been seeing a therapist since early December. I've cried every day. Panic attacks every day. I feel so alone, despite my mom and my few work friends being there for me as much as possible. She's everything I could have ever wanted or asked for. She took care of me at the lowest state I've ever been with my drinking. I'm forever grateful for that. But it drove her away. I have her birthday gifts (it was yesterday) in my car as I sit in this coffee shop she once brought me to, hoping that she'll respond and let me give them to her this evening. I know I need to focus on myself. I want to be better for myself, but I can't help but worry as to if we'll ever be able to be together again. The best love I've ever felt in my life. Gone in an instant. All cause I was too far up my own ass to do something when it really mattered. I can't imagine life without her. I can't help but have a tiny sliver of hope that we'll be together again one day. I feel like I'm rambling at this point. I don't want to drink anymore. I played pool with a friend at a bar Tuesday and didn't even think of getting a drink. I live 2 blocks away from one of the biggest liquor stores in the states, and I don't even look at it anymore. I have no desire to drink after my panic attacks, or when I cry over my lost love. I feel like I can finally say I'm done with drinking for good, but it's too late. I'm doing my best to get my head back on straight, but it's hard without her love. Idk why I'm posting this. Maybe it's cause of me feeling lost. Alone. I just hope that maybe someone reads this and stops while they're ahead. That drink isn't going to fix anything. It's just going to make everything worse, as I've proven to myself time and time again. It may be way too late, but I guess I can finally say lesson learned. 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My mother drinks more than she should at get togethers. She doesn’t think she has a problem and that I’m ruining her fun or that I’m ridiculous. She is very light and can’t have over two servings of wine before she starts getting in that drinking haze. She doesn’t drink in the morning but sometimes will start at 5ish if she’s home early enough and she will have more than a serving size in each glass she pours. I talk to a therapist and she says that my mom is an alcoholic and that I keep making excuses for her drinking and I didn’t want to think of her that way but I kinda have learned to accept it. Also my younger sister doesn’t see this side of her and when I mention some of it to her she acts like I’m overthinking it. (She doesn’t live with us she got married and moved out a few years ago) I don’t tell my sister directly that oh moms an alcoholic or anything I say that she’s had too much or she is having too much. There was only one time that my sister saw anything of it at a party at her place where my mom really had too much and wouldn’t let me take her drink away (I tried my best not to draw attention to me doing that) and she really needed to get out of there to not embarrass herself and my sister tried to take the drink away from her but my mom clutched onto it for dear life. I did eventually get her out and she had to vomit half the way home. Since I live with my mom I’ve seen more of her drinking problems as my sister has not. I think my mom uses wine as a crutch. She had a toxic relationship with my father and that’s where I was making excuses for her and was wondering why she doesn’t think to drink responsibly! I don’t drink hardly at all because of her. The only alcoholic drink I maybe will try is a cooler maybe twice a year but that’s it. She did admit to me one time that she had a drinking problem. It was after a night with friends at our place where she was NOT making sense and it embarrassed me and I was mad the next day. That was the first tome she ever said something because before she always denied it. I said to my therapist but it comes and goes like there will be bad weeks, a good week, a bad weekend. Sometimes a month where I don’t see her overdrinking. But she says that’s how alcoholics are and that they still can be considered a alcoholic even if they don’t drink everyday or in morning hours. You see I would know that she drank too much BUT I did not have it in my head that she is an alcoholic because I didn’t want to have that fact added onto my life as another issue. I had alcoholic and my mom drinks too much separated if that makes sense. Sometimes we go out with friends to a restaurant and she gets wine there with another bit you know they give you a small container of more wine to refill your glass) then she comes home and pours herself another large glass. Sorry this was so long this is my first time posting in this subject. I don’t tell my mom that she’s having too much anymore because my therapist gave me things to do. Like go downstairs when she starts drinking and don’t acknowledge it. Because when I mention it she says I’m crazy and as long as I talk to her about it she has a reason to put blame on me that I overthink everything hence “she doesn’t have a drinking problem” I do better now around her drinking and try not to let it upset me. I used to tell her when she stopped making sense “you aren’t making sense you’ve had too much to drink” but now I just notice it and go down to my room downstairs. It would upset me because we don’t live with my father anymore so she shouldn’t have a reason to drink too much anymore...but she needs to help herself get better... does anyone think this is enough to be considered one? I gave way more I could say but I’m gonna stop here..sorry it’s so long.",3.1546287025448483,4.356129780976222,4.002749061326657,90.08328921568628,73.46808510638297,7.229044639132249,24.33043387567793,7.675431598112923,0.9787181309970799,3041,88,665,38,60,975,261,799,0.07200000000000001,0.858,0.07,-0.2192,1,0,32,0,0,0,46.0,4,5,3,5,33,25,2,4,30,0,75,35,1,11,3,112,132,56,0,17,23,16,1,3,2,10,11,7,4,0,48,42,31,4,15,23,0,8,25,13,0,8,28,14,128,12,81,87,21,81,0,1,5,0,108,33,0,10,39,469,176,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031229163842596105,0.3012002294442399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02817332309439573,0.029314083185295613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11082480588370702,0.0,0.0,0.06987715076867383,0.024633551919280475,0.0,0.057982380538239474,0.03136206324393117,0.0,0.0,0.0661992657617539,0.0,0.058830958136422376,0.12885485073409064,0.0,0.05995606782743707,0.0,0.03697158658137794,0.06231593360820231,0.03846190557493589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06069484600108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02812819328391465,0.0,0.0,0.02272035873909889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06165981251748918,0.0,0.0,0.6212136817472386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07280376919376641,0.0,0.023269004128760425,0.031867444298435035,0.0,0.0,0.03166234539223852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059933037534948774,0.0,0.0,0.05443703731289348,0.0,0.11043695252535972,0.03379571202102715,0.06006585970775185,0.029549152698678707,0.028176554133476906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03155905350748539,0.0,0.036156021710104284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02361384660930133,0.0,0.10601532928646697,0.0,0.03469433624975675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03677084273646803,0.0,0.03131393693349454,0.0,0.0,0.03872284249522925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0720498804064306,0.049767813620179416,0.05163462095571675,0.0,0.09332589104963096,0.09353200815240602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14109731472645434,0.0,0.07078630133178494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33008648654613354,0.02812015488845566,0.03744378809643186,0.2071841290001641,0.05224502070630682,0.0,0.0,0.03746737810036596,0.03306085676553972,0.0,0.0,0.04010945300193068,0.0,0.0,0.07161803733296185,0.053587824014561115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07361545465988774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0337404875437306,0.0,0.0,0.13484095280788555,0.0,0.03541576094695862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04513832774153328,0.07244437035910765,0.0,0.03782370776150492,0.0,0.0,0.06702336875398318,0.14008107691029162,0.0,0.0,0.08422096174763466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029142521605195582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02985016383213654,0.02712168355744898,0.10452975935557404,0.07887393489664951,0.07480767326222626,0.0,0.02813462846181166,0.058907515983904986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07946545826069194,0.056632887700920974,0.09237740639863494,0.0,0.0,0.1227138214944683,0.023405167502546453,0.11286942607028788,0.0,0.0,0.061628480738241176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09567510655101988,0.0,0.0344144746190757,0.0,0.04237720908246005,0.060854611613962585,0.0,0.029068341383098037,0.04155899315776266,0.08389151912645053,0.05651857098279583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031789487930264586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03820530312062825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05005259331219657,0.0,0.0,0.04537377659286395 alcoholism,floraldayz,2019/01/10,"Friends concern One of my friends has expressed a concern in my drinking but I truly don’t think it’s an issue. He said he’s worried about it becoming an issue in my future more so than a problem in the present. What are some signs of alcoholism developing?",4.062058823529412,5.743902607843139,5.115833333333335,81.09375000000003,71.94117647058823,7.452941176470588,36.27941176470589,8.07648339933343,3.010329411764705,207,12,38,3,4,68,38,51,0.13,0.726,0.14400000000000002,-0.0549,0,0,2,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,5,0,3,2,0,0,0,5,5,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,1,4,2,7,4,2,5,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,1,2,27,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28780602847326603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2974271281974537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26381718515778035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4161300285802152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5621706321339744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18248859840850545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2576893063779888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2561715123733547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17256030017392907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2734931402495593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Weekendthrowaway30,2019/01/10,"About to go 2-3 nights without alcohol for the first time in a year.. terrified Not sure if this is the right sub, I don't use reddit much. Not sure where else to turn. I know I have a problem and I'm not looking for an immediate solution, I just want to know what I'm in for. Me and my friend are renting a place for the weekend to get away from our jobs and spend some time together. I know this is bad of me, but he's a recovering alcoholic and doesn't know how much I drink. I drink about five shots of vodka a night (a shitty ""night cap"", I know) and have been doing so for about a year now. Prior to that, I drank maybe twice a year. I've spent the night at his place a couple times and didn't drink and felt fine the next day. But I know I have a problem and I know I drink too much, and I'm worried that I'll start to experience withdrawal symptoms, which I've heard can be life threatening. I'm trying to cut down but I know quitting drinking cold turkey is a terrible thing to do. Is it likely I'll experience that within a weekend? What do I do? I'm terrified of DTS and I'd hate myself if I put my friend through that.",1.624259259259258,2.9605288230452658,3.4736028806584365,91.79904629629631,77.64197530864197,6.999917695473252,22.4380658436214,7.734863291789972,0.7270149794238683,876,25,208,13,20,295,126,243,0.18100000000000002,0.7659999999999999,0.053,-0.9868,2,0,8,0,0,0,27.0,1,0,0,2,9,12,2,0,18,0,18,10,0,2,2,37,43,17,0,5,10,0,1,1,2,0,4,1,1,0,11,10,8,0,9,8,3,2,7,6,0,3,6,4,23,6,28,36,4,30,0,0,1,0,6,10,0,3,19,129,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20131192332088504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0884906464880115,0.0,0.07864119728664534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10421478092515253,0.0,0.06074204026667545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4613310675852303,0.0,0.0,0.07868013866652526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18426354336686945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09043312500110026,0.0,0.0,0.08011438157856335,0.0,0.0,0.1455354094725633,0.0,0.049208185884849986,0.0,0.05352795277746635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09298896447286364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09346485964189756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4140963591455393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06652620615754483,0.046014417601739306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07909233906388533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0946222816109204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20771216991207556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10016765207772617,0.3535479199009952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19680820019384374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.180246154541535,0.0,0.09468272936259244,0.0,0.1001781771208548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08043414674388899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0666651842037283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17753797759391887,0.09789509489618904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06257285121301502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16476146796636126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06394596627384726,0.10244708919445232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08134627871669807,0.0,0.0,0.055553216936825266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09079173681441542,0.0,0.0,0.09565023771526307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1819576748217436 alcoholism,chickenTendiiesss,2019/01/10,Newbie question What's your response to someone when you turn down even 1 beer?,2.7300000000000004,5.733579666666667,2.2816666666666663,92.0625,85.66666666666666,3.0,27.5,3.1291,0.5750000000000006,65,3,11,0,2,19,15,15,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1.0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,1,7,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34848723894280137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5910538032224442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4470496940173815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5738977409515327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,uhhmayenduhcruce,2019/01/10,"Help maybe? I’m 23. Have been drinking since I was about 15. A few years ago it became pretty heavy. I periodically get pretty bad with it. Going weeks at a time without stop. Now it is a glass of wine maybe two at night and I still can’t even shake that and feel guilty. Am I doing wrong? Why do I feel so bad about it even if my body is okay now? 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I've started going to meetings, haven't shared anything yet but I'm starting to feel more comfortable. I feel like I'm putting off getting a sponsor waiting for the perfect person that I click with but I know I can waffle and hope for perfect when good enough is right in front of me. So beyond the basics what should I look for? Someone kind? Someone tough? I'm not sure what I'd respond to the best. 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AA begins and ends with shame and condemnation. We are told that this organization is the premiere way for people suffering from substance addiction to receive help. Nothing is further from the truth. While some recent articles have finally questioned the actual results of the organization, I want to go one step farther by acknowledging how, far from being a benign failure, AA is actually dangerous and harmful to overwhelming majority of addicts and non-addicts alike. This is because AA has almost singularly defined what it means to be a substance user. In short, AA invented the Addict. And they still control the very definition of that dirty word. The articles that have come out recently, that are critical of AA, have mainly focused on the ineffective success rate of the AA program. Most authors site - at most - a 5% to 7% success rate for AA participants. This number is shockingly low and researchers from our best institutions have noted that the ""AA success rate"" is actually far lower than the rate of those people who just decide to quit on their own - so-called spontaneous remission. &#x200B; Well, you may ask, what about the people who do claim that AA has saved their lives, isn't the program helping them stay sober? And, almost every author, who is critical of AA's abysmal success rate, eventually cedes the point that AA does, in fact, help ""some"" people? They do? They help ""some"" people? Really? Who are these lucky ones?While it is true that some people, usually the proverbial old-timers, seem to stay sober (mostly) from AA, they do not do so in spite of all the other people failed by the program. Rather, they stay sober by exploiting and demonizing the very people whom they and the program have failed. &#x200B; After attending countless AA meetings, I believe that old-timers, even those who diligently work their programs, actually survive by wielding power over and exploiting other substance abusers, controlling new members, and ultimately by demonizing those people who choose use drugs and alcohol - usually by turning other users into scapegoats and pariahs. Their rigid definition of the drug user - The Addict - serves not to help the user, but rather to create a boogieman or enemy out there. And this is how the old tiers stay sober: they construct an external enemy and they try to stay sober by rallying, one day at a time, against that enemy. Their boogieman - The Addict - assumes a contradictory, tripartite identity: one part blameless victim, one part perpetually diseased person, and one part morally flawed, condemned soul. But users and people with substance issues are not boogie-men, they are not our enemies, Rather, they are our loved ones, people in our families, our neighbors, our coworkers, our friends, and sometime our selves.  Am I overreacting? No. Most people who have attended more than a couple of meetings and then decided at AA wasn't for them are left with a couple of inescapable observations.  The first is how AA always tends to facilitate an ""us versus them"" mentality in their members. People who believe in AA, especially those pesky old-timers, believe that they have found the one and only route to true sobriety and salvation - irrespective of any actual medical or psychological research. No other methods of recovery or harm reduction are ever acknowledged as valid within the program or at a meeting. Far from it, those brave enough to mention alternatives are quickly given the cold shoulder by more established members. The message is always the same: without AA your disease will progress and you will die. Even those folks who achieve abstinence apart from AA are still derided as ""dry drunks"" and as being in ""denial"" and simply bidding their time till relapse. &#x200B; And, why do adherents to the program cultivate such as an ""us versus them,"" you're in or you're out, with us or against us, you're among the chosen people or you're among the condemned people kind of attitude? One reason: Control. Most of these old-timers achieve sobriety, and the appearance of control in other areas of their life, mainly by exerting interpersonal control over others - usually the most vulnerable and/or newcomers to their AA meeting. &#x200B; But you may ask, isn't their need for control - to give unchallenged directions - benign or even beneficial if it helps other addicts stay sober? After all, aren't these sorry people just in need of some Good Orderly Direction (another one of their crazy acronyms for god)? But the fact is that power and control are never just neutral, never simply benign. And covering up the need for power and control with talk of spirituality and a higher power makes it only more dangerous - especially for the vulnerable newcomer. &#x200B; AA seeks to control its members in numerous ways. You're forced to ""share"" to the group, revealing your inmost conflicts and foibles for others to judge. This is one of the first steps of many into lifelong shame and condemnation. &#x200B; You are told to get a sponsor. This sponsor chimes in on almost every aspect of your life, even those areas that have seemingly nothing to do with your substance use. Sponsors receive no special training or qualifications and are usually ill-equipped to advise people on their most pressing problems. These relationships always involve the sponsor exerting their power over the newcomer in countless ways. &#x200B; Newcomers are told how many meeting they need to attend (often 90 meetings in 90 days), what book to read (always read the Big Book) and how to think (think like the Home Group). However, the advice of the sponsor almost never stops there. Newcomers are advised on who to associate with, and who not to associate with. They are frequently given career advice, and are given directions on how to deal with spouses, families, and loved ones. Unsurprisingly, much of this advice is hogwash! And frequently, the demands of a sponsor lead to frayed social relationships with non-AA members and isolation outside of the AA organization.There has not yet been a formal study as to how many people get divorced as a result of following the directions of their AA group or sponsor, but the anecdotal evidence suggests a staggeringly large number. Newcomers are often encouraged to drop their relationships with non-AA members and are encouraged to only have romantic connections with those in the program. &#x200B; But the need of AAers to perpetuate their beliefs harms far more than just the unwitting newcomer. AA has ingrained in our collective consciousness the very idea of what it means to be a substance user: The Addict - and this is where their harm is most insidious and pervasive. Without any medical backup, they contend that someone with a substance problem is once and forever an addict. This idea is found in the very preface of their organization's holy text, the Big Book, under the disingenuous title ""The Doctor's Opinion.""  &#x200B; The problem with this idea is that it leads people into accepting the idea that they are terminally ill or at least terminally deficient and powerless - but this simply is not usually the case. The truth is that for most people substance abuse is not a lifelong condition that needs to be managed with constant meetings and sponsorship. Their rigid disease model actually serves to keep people away from other helpful alternatives, such as behavioral therapy, membership in positive social groups, or harm reduction.  &#x200B; They also perpetuate the idea that the addict is a person of uniquely flawed character - one of the condemned who needs AA's saving. At its face this is contradictory: is the addict somebody who has a disease or is the addict somebody who has deeply-seated character flaws? And it is this contradiction is at the heart of AA's religiosity and thinly-veiled religious ideology. &#x200B; AA has its roots in the Oxford Group, a radical christian cult from the early twentieth century. In fact, the 12 Steps themselves are almost directly taken from the Oxford Group's cult methodology. Central to the Oxford Group's ideology is the old-line protestant idea of Total Depravity - the idea that all human beings are inexorably into sin, brokenness, moral failure, and rebellion. This radical and detrimental belief is the underpinning of virtually all AA thought: e.g. the addict is hopeless and powerless and needs the intervention of a higher power to get right.  &#x200B; The doctrine of Total Depravity is much more than just a dusty old theological formulation. It has real consequences for those belonging to a group operating on such a notions - and what a shame it is! I believe that telling people over and over again that they are powerless and morally flawed only leads to greater and greater problems and dysfunctions with one's self-image and ultimately one's behavior in the world. &#x200B; So, let me conclude with my original point: AA is not a harmless organization. It's an organization run by power-seeking individuals who often mess up the lives of those whom they purport to help. Their most harmful invention is the identity of the modern addict - a caste or class of person they claim to be inexorably diseased as well as morally flawed. And this classification of the addict is not just limited to AA meetings and their written propaganda. That would be bad enough! Rather, their model of the addict has been perpetuated for almost a hundred years by television, media, the courts, the prison industry, religious authorities, celebrities, and by a multi-billion dollar recovery industry. In fact, over 95% of private recovery programs are still based on the 12 Steps and their assumptions about the drug user - virtually without any empirical evidence of its effectiveness. &#x200B; The damage is not limited to the people who weave in and out of their meeting rooms - that would be bad enough. The deepest harm from AA stems from their need to demonize and scapegoat the substance user - to cast the unrepentant user as inevitably among the condemned!  But we are not condemned. Their organization only thrives so long as they are able to label non-adherents as depraved addicts who are, at best, in ""denial"" or ""dry-drunks.""  So long as AA propaganda dominates are collective conscious, we are doing all doing a disservice for people who struggle with substance issues. &#x200B; AA can only thrive so long as they cast the unrepentant user as outsider, condemned to a long and painful road to death. But that is not the truth. Drug users are not all suffering from ""character flaws."" Drug use does not make you condemned for life and most users do learn to quit or moderate without AA and then go on to live happy, normal lifespans. We need to cut through the fear and labeling that AA and the 12-Step industry thrives on. What we need is a new model for understanding the substance user, not as somebody who is inherently flawed and diseased, not as somebody who is morally disordered, but as someone who could benefit from harm reduction, psychological therapy, and real medical treatment - as full human beings!",10.767863597807649,10.679917949894511,9.826447213884908,59.42610857366568,56.7373417721519,12.818556701030927,43.33331158380096,12.058725423621393,5.6980986841532895,9027,451,1275,237,97,2859,626,1896,0.13699999999999998,0.7859999999999999,0.077,-0.9992,15,1,8,0,3,1,332.0,18,9,51,40,47,75,6,8,139,0,125,37,3,31,21,308,177,133,2,25,60,1,1,1,2,6,31,0,3,5,108,102,2,16,34,6,1,18,31,41,37,16,14,2,84,34,257,145,48,164,14,8,0,2,163,87,0,51,49,944,192,35,0.01986369068557231,0.04707045065533039,0.11630458042373495,0.36812403224838014,0.0,0.058231705932673634,0.0,0.0212282444087928,0.1193437015045555,0.0,0.0,0.015884986264698392,0.06611272758992001,0.3228345083828293,0.36204837558391495,0.040523972463500375,0.02082881163091883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03713973877974044,0.0,0.01866259127180776,0.0,0.03317070403107729,0.012108721473813613,0.0,0.0,0.0895183090401593,0.041691435764361136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.017110810674246073,0.0,0.021465592925706045,0.20050936332994285,0.015859540689207762,0.04395759186030135,0.0,0.025620874420128247,0.020478592885093967,0.0,0.0,0.0206153748593102,0.0,0.022765510435121303,0.020331329113326357,0.034765699155987366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1151778744542378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.017593334091661292,0.061573507132247074,0.0,0.0524791214355677,0.017967845442853642,0.03347203223309805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03745143951031664,0.0223521744560028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02175970221651434,0.0,0.033792090299553434,0.0,0.043559023133020826,0.015346638149657966,0.0,0.03113387561883768,0.01905506210470814,0.022577986351084448,0.016660721320636746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02114526809861916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.023538569102344947,0.106513705263278,0.0,0.01992490134397148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15696582277089702,0.0,0.041465064653758925,0.0,0.017655760962793202,0.0,0.02068497714194632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02158195805024885,0.02031196953221644,0.0420909365110294,0.009704395915198543,0.0,0.05262000838513163,0.07031496473135493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035855512747983626,0.0,0.026518335553411054,0.06041599387690836,0.0,0.0432747647941074,0.0,0.06003173579839762,0.020017928221147025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029204196398877943,0.16201542446585204,0.04596030844320292,0.038368952485233934,0.0,0.0,0.01946219941099268,0.03811949387901392,0.0,0.14590521359454886,0.021154182299401247,0.1884421123885905,0.09064339115136627,0.021136367383773804,0.0,0.0,0.06453132392984504,0.0,0.3305035691872975,0.0520326255851252,0.0,0.021804367418396725,0.03755521642019567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07602747734427481,0.0,0.0,0.02225187958701401,0.04225496022824431,0.03973813216474886,0.045218457431007365,0.01272518889204698,0.020423182317780297,0.0392259963570057,0.06397851005275865,0.0,0.01696348331211676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036166315944193964,0.020722161495019653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040497062320775434,0.033660881315545475,0.0,0.019645698001286675,0.022235775458189083,0.0,0.12703230793605785,0.04758950712141999,0.016606934850329585,0.0,0.02076584237419257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.01596568214983287,0.017361741186797574,0.0,0.045431722873521534,0.0,0.0,0.025455701861276915,0.0,0.015769551608563803,0.023165355556652518,0.0,0.0,0.05694182306948317,0.0,0.013486142088602479,0.02160599146353304,0.0,0.020678802534357717,0.09557429657206973,0.05146755317392659,0.10938524484537883,0.0655585004382998,0.011716119416830078,0.0473006192625333,0.0,0.0,0.03571968691935953,0.0,0.017923891244284867,0.0,0.0,0.07659155593374632,0.0,0.014461003394510903,0.0,0.0,0.02822119189180548,0.0,0.36204837558391495,0.012791565544827615 alcoholism,Blomsterhagens,2019/02/12,"What's a clear sign someone is becoming an alcoholic? I've gotten to a point where I can never just ""drink one beer"". I always keep drinking until I'm barely able to get a cab home. It's tuesday and I catch myself looking forward to friday evening to go out drinking. I drink every weekend. &#x200B; Is this a sign I should stop drinking alcohol for good? Or is it ok to just take a break for a couple months?",1.5671352074966514,3.9436080963855455,3.2187148594377533,88.41179384203484,82.49397590361446,5.13467202141901,24.88487282463186,6.42735559955562,0.9551483266398928,324,13,62,3,9,107,58,83,0.03,0.86,0.111,0.7219,0,0,8,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,7,1,5,8,0,0,2,12,12,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,4,2,8,2,0,7,0,3,1,0,0,1,1,1,6,2,9,10,0,13,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,1,7,39,10,0,0.14690466335415947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3139928171292579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12223644819787707,0.15917114136811172,0.17850524549198907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16224465896144066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1625472158300238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7195532144881488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09702914465454493,0.0,0.12377351482205608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07675162333616868,0.0,0.08348930560346432,0.12321666177692447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14735735521833293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1305756146507331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12336291833259423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11725790073704903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11330193276395364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09954640181134873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13887239065317966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12447184453632795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1228188765194637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1104540243313961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17850524549198907,0.0 alcoholism,batterycityking,2019/02/12,Sober and frustrated I hit 8 months sober beginning of February. Before my main concern was how in the world can I have any sort of a happy/successful when my only concern was vodka. Now that I’m clean all I can think is how am I going to gather the courage to start a life without it. 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Was a fancy party with bartenders etc. Older crowd in some antique-filled mansion. I’m 35 years old but most people were 60 plus. I have an interesting job so I was invited as local color. Everyone had wine and I kept wondering how so many older people were able to drink - and it never became a problem. Here I am, 35 and I’m done drinking for life?! Anyway I ordered my sparkling water “in a wine glass please” and the young bartender asked me “You don’t like drinking?” And this was the first time anyone had questioned me about that. I responded “Not anymore.” With a laugh. Not my best comedy work, but then I’d be funnier if I was drinking. At least, the addict in me *thinks* I would. Anyway. Today I’m sober. 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Sorry if this gets long, I just want to give some background. So I’ve (25F) been sober about 2 1/2 years. In that time I’ve lost basically every friend I had. Since I’ve gotten sober and have finally been able to work again I’ve started forming friendships with my coworkers. However, most of them are just slightly younger than me and are at their peak drinking stage of life so on the weekends that’s basically all they do, which is why I’ve never hung out with them outside of work except for one time. For one of my coworker’s birthday about 3 months ago she invited me out to the bar they all go to. This girl is very nice to me and I wanted to make an effort to be her friend so I went. I was able to stay sober despite everyone constantly offering me drinks. After a while everyone stopped offering. While I was fairly uncomfortable the whole time, I was glad I went. It had been a really long time since I hung out/got invited out with friends. So fast forward a little bit. I’ve since confided in the girl who’s birthday it was that I really can’t drink. She sent me a message the other day saying “hey, I know you are sober, but I just want you to know that the invite is always there.” That meant a lot to me. So this Friday, all the girls at work are once again trying to get me to go out with them and I’ve decided that I want to go. Just for a short time, I get out of work late anyway. So I really just want to make an appearance but I want to be more comfortable than I was last time. Does anyone have any tips on how to still have a good time at a bar while sober? Or does anyone think that all of this is just a horrible idea and a recipe for disaster? 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I don't want to go back to drinking. I was miserable. But I'm restless, things feel boring and like I need to do *something* to shake things up. I'm worried I'll eventually decide drinking is that thing. Any advice, wisdom, etc.?",-0.06341880341880213,2.1454283846153857,1.867179487179488,91.96670940170941,101.69230769230768,3.8495726495726497,21.16239316239316,5.82211442006289,0.31527521367521416,204,8,40,2,9,67,36,52,0.271,0.621,0.10800000000000001,-0.7115,0,0,3,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,1,7,0,4,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,7,11,3,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,2,0,2,2,0,2,1,5,0,0,1,1,3,2,5,10,1,5,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,21,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25197740803338603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17535336430595105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19827810880587532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5052084621430584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2875816061413847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13038155705597546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1465475479785128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259771712030231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2058210654636149,0.0,0.0,0.19119961944724628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1985129110811852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5139313633054864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15209226772142356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618689315283235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,w00dbutcher,2019/02/12,"Just venting Here I sit, 8 beers into another night I swore I wouldn't drink. It's crazy what a crutch alcohol can be. Even though you know deep down inside, it's so much more harm than good. I sure miss those good old days of a few beers here and there. Back when I didn't feel empty without it. Tonight, I'll go to bed at least an hour or 2 later than I wanted. Swearing I won't repeat tomorrow, and continue the perpetual cycle. I can't wait to get of this ride again.",2.1056999999999992,3.411266770000001,3.5630000000000024,91.78150000000002,76.3,7.0,21.5,7.645422480735847,0.5703,367,9,85,5,8,121,78,100,0.08199999999999999,0.7859999999999999,0.132,0.5572,0,0,4,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,0,10,5,0,0,4,0,6,4,0,0,1,12,13,6,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,6,3,4,1,2,3,0,2,5,2,0,0,1,1,9,3,10,9,4,19,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,1,12,52,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2737989463146546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26864711785444856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19700131060794052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16522723888051666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25097760355846066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16921710382495966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12954197401730533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13385346702839654,0.0,0.14560386515695672,0.4297753365363531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523045278098844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14080033727816085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1883358333359638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24042552061442604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2688378812323885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24146464051494534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25171433659395465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15111288005973944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2469668111435248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,nannybobanny,2019/08/30,"17 days sober - first time posting I have been an alcoholic/alcohol-dependent for about 7 and a half years now and as of today I am 17 days sober. This is my first serious time trying to quit and by far the longest I’ve gone without alcohol since developing a problem. It’s obviously still early days but so far I’ve felt pretty good. My main issues have been boredom, insomnia and feeling isolated and disoriented. I’m not looking for any specific advise but I just wanted to post and hopefully get more involved with this group. Best!",3.5258823529411742,6.086089431372553,5.0468235294117685,77.04670588235294,76.25490196078431,8.785882352941178,29.807843137254906,9.3871,3.2456360784313727,430,20,75,12,10,144,75,102,0.109,0.716,0.175,0.8858,0,0,3,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,4,5,5,0,0,4,0,6,2,0,0,1,18,14,10,0,3,5,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,7,1,0,2,0,0,1,2,2,0,3,4,3,5,3,10,10,3,17,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,1,12,47,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38901009516199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12376776650952942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910001256087905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35212917061263965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09202580272538978,0.0,0.1747506952501729,0.0,0.0,0.309622030206769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0950886602146355,0.0,0.0,0.15265484657138606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18076929384250315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1899630562499036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15283604586492186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3486156778676276,0.18516171233789785,0.0,0.17415156681757998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19358178875883533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15055413634731266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14534722653393906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21225394328468628,0.0,0.17251684560476224,0.0,0.0,0.1235675762024475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10734963856414098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17544366769473885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11720347745297133 alcoholism,TJ0280,2019/08/30,"Just starting out in Sobriety Hey All, I'm on day 5 of sobriety after deciding it was time to quit. I had a rough Saturday night of not being able to control my drinking. This has been consistently happening to me every couple of months, and I'd promise my partner that I'd do better only to slip back into the same habits. I'm also going to therapy and taking antidepressants, and I think that alcohol has been a barrier to me getting better from a mental health standpoint, in addition to causing problems with my marriage. I'm headed into the weekend with a rehearsal dinner tonight and wedding tomorrow, so although I'm not worried about being able to not drink, I know it's going to feel weird and kind of awkward around my friends. Particularly because most of them were there on Saturday to see how out of control I got and a few know I'm giving up alcohol as a result. I guess I'm just embarrassed, although I have to say I feel relieved, hopeful and even physically better. Anyway, thanks for reading this. It's helpful to read about folks on here going through similar situations.",6.463712374581938,7.223905352657003,7.493429951690826,69.69916387959869,65.52173913043478,10.040728353771833,37.66220735785953,10.035473477838034,4.124005128205129,876,45,143,19,13,296,125,207,0.05,0.8059999999999999,0.145,0.9623,0,0,4,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,1,6,13,13,0,2,8,0,11,7,1,5,1,38,35,13,0,2,5,0,3,0,2,0,3,1,0,1,7,15,5,3,6,5,0,3,3,4,0,0,6,5,14,9,38,27,4,26,0,0,1,0,9,11,0,3,12,104,21,2,0.25466486555850154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2721592927509117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.101827700489626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11335286121696415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09791078104523386,0.0,0.07762066916531928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33784556769856294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308054837971753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2856283013169085,0.0,0.14089091496866252,0.0,0.08211888519327826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2494746163204405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08410187094992054,0.0,0.10728306641931268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12876620784942655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09837672170349278,0.0,0.06652594067480541,0.12214887217885062,0.2170978677765394,0.0,0.10183937853267136,0.0,0.14027103029175042,0.0,0.1125996497848744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306798114392575,0.1353484217113487,0.0,0.0,0.08534824563944393,0.0,0.0,0.1264698365803863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325971342969154,0.13995715004935014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12832114333367306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10163553302212856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11949286242777205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09684205294779323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12183994154907175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13543371591969125,0.2547337814878525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.101259861295687,0.0,0.0,0.1014674631394162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14312698946367533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0901265512975885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0957381427332137,0.0,0.0,0.11723059645126258,0.1456157340146267,0.0,0.0,0.08158948146665382,0.0,0.0,0.07424856553388066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.129312266350703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,pastryalchemist,2019/08/30,"My Boyfriend is an Alcoholic The hardest thing I had to do recently was to break up with my boyfriend of almost 5 years. He drank for the first four years heavily...daily. We fought, he hid secrets, excluded me from everything, called me ugly names. Basically, felt unwanted. I would ask him when he was sober why he’d say/do those things and his only reply is “I don’t remember that. I never said that.” When he finally got sober, I was happy, but weary. He was sober for a year before he relapsed. When I asked him why? He said “I’m at the point where I can have one.” Long story short, one turned to two, two turned to six, so I just said “I’m done.” Finally. After being on and off for 5 years, I just couldn’t handle the disrespect anymore. But why do I still find myself wondering how he’s doing? If he’s good or if he ate or showered for the day? I saw him for the first time in three months last week when he came and got the rest of his stuff. He stunk of alcohol... just like the nights when he’d drink for 12+ straight. I’m at a loss, what do I do? I love him, but I can’t let him disrespect me anymore.",0.4326180257510721,2.499930768240344,2.3263450643776835,94.98378369098715,84.66523605150215,6.13143347639485,19.191244635193133,7.404127859558343,0.3334327553648069,851,23,199,14,25,282,131,233,0.111,0.813,0.076,-0.6007,1,0,3,0,0,0,39.0,1,0,0,3,12,7,1,0,11,0,23,6,0,1,1,28,43,17,0,5,10,0,1,1,0,1,2,3,1,0,7,6,5,0,5,1,0,1,4,3,0,9,17,6,30,4,22,20,1,36,0,1,1,1,32,10,0,6,25,124,37,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359696019613047,0.11055037963539018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21897570906235406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20641955142489715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09394288634182096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11273148468336044,0.12626901933875773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07119933498026418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11297827290734964,0.0,0.10815068138507712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09922105375754392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1060020100081806,0.2418771977536037,0.1009042633933127,0.1878136021018128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09259889095658018,0.1765950915983235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11752362561195855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08999132659576146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11289222210909684,0.0,0.05393621811787249,0.0,0.0,0.09770116831180622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09964096545538743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08812080612770616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08514784580167838,0.0,0.0,0.10360360250533407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14962077812394178,0.0839647268929413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1043643706421338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10900739798181687,0.0,0.1250625011075321,0.0,0.31504911552355275,0.08779508839504853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08816616231286012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263824180113648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14669067336646202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06437555109045225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401685748218295,0.2156909346996121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08855680304653316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.298858450166497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11972487785710145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07842550812662373,0.0,0.0,0.2843777913942496 alcoholism,optusgirl,2019/08/30,"Suicidal when drunk...why?? Please help! I have this problem where when I’m at a social event and I’m a bit uncomfortable I’ll drink to excess. I’m having fun but then all of a sudden it’s not fun, I’m bawling my eyes out in the bathroom and thinking that I’m a piece of shit that deserves to die. It’s horrible for me and for my poor friends who find me. Does anybody else experience this? It has been happening to me for 3 years occasionally but has become a regular thing recently. I used to be able to drink a lot and be euphoric, but now I get uncontrollably depressed. Please share advice xx",1.837021857923496,3.9890522377049216,3.753688524590164,86.25845628415303,79.90163934426229,7.017486338797814,24.92076502732241,8.07648339933343,1.512407650273223,471,18,99,9,12,159,79,122,0.23399999999999999,0.59,0.177,-0.8829,0,0,2,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,4,8,1,1,7,0,7,4,2,1,1,15,16,10,2,1,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,9,5,2,0,2,2,1,0,1,4,0,0,1,1,8,4,13,13,4,12,0,1,1,0,5,4,1,1,8,60,17,0,0.1859190264929273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1816779209429374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20533295784537095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20297542432458535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16013178508854006,0.0,0.19295459667088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16269899297017096,0.0,0.0,0.3642597317009007,0.0,0.0,0.1553114900264291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18186448297423854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16992662200737965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14364057867634994,0.0,0.0971350178177192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16440758112068155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12461760445332795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1580617077969828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4081665213068257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17789939944075162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1835726092232868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19084320896678889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1895210341744468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2033652391041965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12351633997856805,0.11912940509540675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16057434531404502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16776300355517415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11972575746672234 alcoholism,ronjisbonjis,2019/08/30,"My mother is an alcoholic My mother is an alcoholic and I really don’t know what to do. I’m 20 and I have a few more months at home before I move out. But I can’t stand it. She drinks between 4-8 glasses of wine every night, sometimes even more. She gets clingy, sad, grumpy or just very loving. And I get so angry that I don’t know what to do. I can’t show her though because if she notices my anger while she’s drunk she will explode and we’ll start fighting. And those fights are big. This has been going on for the last 10 years but it’s not until this past year I’ve realized that a parent should not behave like that. I feel like her life is my responsibility, not that I’m the cause but that my actions effects her a lot. And that is why I can’t live at my dads only (they’re divorced), because if I leave her she’ll only get worse. I’m afraid she might hurt herself in other ways too. I’ve been talking to her a couple of times about it and she knows she has problems. But she keeps telling me alcohol is the only happiness in her life. And every time I tell her she keeps making me the bad guy. She says that I don’t want her to be happy or that she is a horrible person who doesn’t have the right to make her own choices. This is despite the fact that I’ve been VERY clear about that alcohol is the problem, and that I feel bad about myself and my life when she drinks. I’ve told her she causes ME harm, not only herself. But it’s like talking to a brick wall. She won’t quit and it’s like she’s not capable of understanding. What do I do? What can I tell her to make her understand?",1.2184097340124502,2.904836245614036,2.8932823995472567,93.96883701188456,79.81871345029239,5.816411997736277,20.096585549896243,6.6834051587181325,0.06093857762686339,1244,31,289,12,31,411,162,342,0.17600000000000002,0.77,0.054000000000000006,-0.9908,1,0,7,0,4,0,32.0,1,0,0,2,9,18,3,1,15,0,35,12,0,6,2,51,58,25,0,6,15,4,2,4,0,6,7,1,1,2,26,12,8,2,9,5,0,3,13,11,0,0,4,3,58,7,22,47,5,26,0,2,0,1,50,9,0,6,16,191,84,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3908318039534854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15267590957148688,0.11146643514290508,0.0,0.07779787615099669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18784199019155912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1011625395945166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.179127843388318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06038685213902285,0.0,0.15406284297151232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09245675353091952,0.06531566274135933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14330093127170826,0.0,0.05196022669906054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09052737533537053,0.0,0.19465206629711534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0917090102447907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09787478765255624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16252952374153498,0.0,0.0,0.15073811611506946,0.07452543086324376,0.0,0.0968082820026542,0.0,0.0,0.19373336214137668,0.1786669914279345,0.0,0.08073195787797617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07772819879853332,0.08251668425279206,0.0,0.18308524581566324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09698988947437244,0.0,0.0,0.072976377758976,0.09717272311234867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08579830310066705,0.0,0.0,0.10409055730971252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27813824668324266,0.0,0.0,0.10151916797625846,0.0,0.08727767814811345,0.0,0.0798307690541111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17496710719627415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09724415979700088,0.0,0.0,0.05857065278873904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07807839235946577,0.0,0.07270663782642506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09042391167528596,0.0,0.06471269503919015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14697155911259807,0.23973440162339946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08982683240397903,0.0,0.10662395729813988,0.0,0.0,0.0873626782400823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19035803296935316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15087415201050036,0.05392617494451765,0.07257071443158558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08249889409093518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09317220295343882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1177523336598546 alcoholism,winowrites,2019/01/14,"Wife needing perspective My husband is an alcoholic. He won't say that, but it's true from my perspective. He has ruined us financially because he won't go to work, he has completely checked out of our 15 year marriage and 3 kids for a long period of time, and he is psychologically abusive (in my opinion). In October I had finally had enough after he told me on a Wednesday he would stop drinking and got black out drunk and pooped his pants the following Saturday. We have 3 kids. I can't live this way any longer. I told him he either had to leave or stop drinking. He chose to leave. He came back after a week with promises of going to AA and therapy and church, and no alcohol. I believed him. I even made him sign a contract promising to uphold it, because in the past, all the times we've had the same conversation, it didn't work. In the next two weeks he stayed sober. Traded his truck in, got himself a new used car, made a lot of big decisions financially (took out a large loan, when he only needed a couple of hundred dollars), and then suddenly one morning decided I was ""too quiet"", not affectionate enough, a nag, etc. etc. and he took his belongings and left again. Again! He was only gone a day, but in that day he went to his mothers and got drunk. I asked if he was serious about his sobriety, then why would his first instinct be to drink? I try to be understanding. I know everyone has issues, we all have trauma. I know things aren't an easy straight line. But why? He said it's because he doesn't have a drinking problem, he's only sober to please me. Another month goes by. He was ok for most of it, but he never did any of the things he promised other than staying sober, but then he started getting mad at little stuff again. On a Sunday morning, he woke up, left for 4 hours, came home with his bumper popped off, and in a GREAT mood. I thought, either he's cheating or was drinking. Because he's lied about being drunk a million times. (Which he now says never happened.) He told me he didn't tell me where he was going because I was ""short"" with him, and I deserved it. He took his stuff and left again, under the guise on my unreasonable behavior. He went to his mothers and drank again. His Mom knows this problem and says she's never ""seen"" it as a problem there for she believes her loved ones when they say it's ok. Even though her brother OD'd and died from drugs that she claimed weren't a problem. He came home again the next day. Establishing again, that I deserved it, because I shouldn't have been mistrustful. Today, it's been 2 weeks. And he's gone again. Because this time I asked him to take out left overs to the trash. I keep begging him to help with the kids or the house, because he barely works now, and he still refuses. So this morning he started the day with, ""You're being unreasonable. We can't communicate. To build better communication skills, I think I should live at my mothers for a while."" So I'm telling him I need him and his response is to leave. To build better communication, his solution is to do it less. And to build trust in the perspective of alcoholism, he needs to go live where he's had some of his worst moments? I think he's finding some way to turn me into a bad person so he can justify (to himself) that he should leave and in turn, drink. All the times he leaves, the first thing he does is drink. He blames me for everything in his life, down to once he tripped at work, and he told me it was my fault he tripped because I took up to much of his time thinking. If it weren't for ME he wouldn't have tripped. I feel like he is turning that same perspective into finding faults so he can find excuses to leave, and then drink. He is completely all over the place. Him saying he couldn't live with me and needed to leave, an hour later after me literally sobbing and saying ""If you'll just tell me how to talk to you I will"" because he says I'm \*too loud, then I try and talk calmly and I'm \*condescending, which then I try and \*email which he ignores, and then I \*text and he won't respond. So I'm out of ideas. I'm out of hope. I'm exhausted. &#x200B; This is never going to stop, is it? And am I at all justified in thinking all his issues with leaving me FOUR times in 2 months stems from him finding ways to fault me so he can go drink? Because he says that's insane. Even though that's exactly what he does. I never knew he had so much anger or hostility toward me, nor thought I was such a bad wife, until I gave him the ultimatum in October. And he has made my life hell ever since. And I feel so incredibly stupid because I keep thinking it'll stop or get better, and it just keeps repeating that same sick cycle. 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For some context im 20 started drinking a little at 18 like every couple of months just in a social setting. I got this job almost a year ago, its part time and really not anything special but the pays pretty nice and it has a ton of oppurtunity to move up to higher positions with pretty good benefits and such due to all hard liqour stores being run through the state where I live. To a guy who was not really sure what I wanted to do in life and having no current motivation for college it really appealed to me. The job itself is fine, typical clerk and stocking type stuff, managers have all been very nice etc. The depressing part is seeing the effect alcohol has on people. Seeing the same people every day sometimes 2 or more times a day coming in to buy a pint of some cheap vodka or a 5th of some cheaper vodka just so theyre not sick. At times I feel somewhat guilty because im the one selling it to them (I know if it wasnt me someone else would be) now when I drink in a social setting it just kinda sucks. I think of how terrible this shit is for people that are addicted to it and I know occasinal social drinking probably wont lead to addiction but it still just kinda ruins the whole thing for me. Idk it wasnt even that bad until the other day. A girl probably in her mid 20s or 30s young comes in just about everyday for a pint of vodka. Through interactions with her and my manager who knows a little more about her than I, I know that shes had 2 duis within 6 months and on probation where shes not allowed to drink. She still drink almost everyday id say with her coming in the other day literally holding back tears. My manager asked what was wrong and she just brought up about how her family hates her because of her drinking, she wants to quit so bad and just cant etc. It was really heartbreaking to listen to. This was literally as she was checking out buying a pint (legally we cant refuse a sale unless someones underage, already visibly drunk or attemped to steal or something like that) my manager went outside with her to console her and shit. I never personally have dealt with a loved one being an alcoholic so these type of things are the closest I have to experience with the subject. Its just so sadening to watch everyday, I havent even gotten into the customers who've went to rehab for an extended period then their 1st day out come to the liquor store. 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Fuck. Thats the last one I had to give.",-1.214057971014494,0.7916412173913088,1.2521739130434817,99.74028985507248,93.34782608695652,3.066666666666667,20.71014492753623,3.1291,-0.6026985507246372,80,3,19,0,3,27,22,23,0.264,0.736,0.0,-0.7783,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,3,0,4,3,0,3,0,0,0,1,3,1,1,0,2,12,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4987304716148827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4706606805762189,0.0,0.4883812672206748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4149896808745016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3449836851764649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,PM_ME_UR_JON_SNOW,2019/01/14,"Likely how bad will withdrawal be? Am a lightweight, have been taking 3-6 shots of vodka throughout the day for about a week and a half. How bad is my withdrawal likely to be?",2.8396190476190446,4.6785602,4.131428571428572,86.22190476190477,75.57142857142857,6.9523809523809526,23.095238095238088,7.793537801064563,1.1410952380952386,137,4,27,2,3,45,28,35,0.201,0.7390000000000001,0.06,-0.7998,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,4,0,7,0,0,2,0,3,8,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,1,2,4,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,20,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7207559319172842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2783540138598545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4217276133180734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3245184861747127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3462130873754916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,semantics88,2019/01/14,"Eh, I just want to put this out there/vent I’ve been struggling for a while, now. I don’t drink everyday, maybe twice a week, but I get knockdown stupid drunk when I do. I’m tired of it. I use it to “time travel”. I’m medically retired from the military, and I do nothing with my life except for embarrass myself at the bar. I’m married with a kid on the way, and I keep getting these feelings of needing a reason to live my life, a reason to be better, but I keep forgetting it, and just shrug it off as I go down the hole, again. Fuck, man. I hate this way of living. 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I’m a 21 year old Anglo student in Montreal. I moved here to escape my abusive family but I never spent time processing things properly. I don’t have many friends here, I’m very lonely. I drink heavily to sleep and not dream of terrible things. But it’s getting out of hand, it’s not just two tall cans anymore it’s tons of alcohol. The only person I don’t force myself to drink heavily with is the person I’m dating, but it’s not his burden and I don’t see him that frequently. I know long term i need a therapist but taking those steps feels so heavy right now. Kind of wondering if there was someone or something to start off with in mtl for me (Total anglophone and very socially anxious) I don’t know what this post even is I need help ",2.8381987577639727,4.7440640931677045,4.3595962732919284,84.28920807453419,75.77018633540372,8.078260869565218,25.785714285714285,8.841846274778883,2.0444459627329192,633,23,125,14,14,211,103,161,0.053,0.809,0.138,0.9223,0,2,4,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,7,5,0,0,4,0,9,5,2,0,2,25,25,10,0,3,10,0,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,10,6,3,0,5,3,1,2,8,3,0,1,2,5,17,2,17,23,3,20,0,1,2,0,8,7,0,3,10,80,27,1,0.0,0.1816573976312217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16385089081972234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17320630844383308,0.15205079255772408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3003875980705472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10126544888813943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14453507336915228,0.0,0.15504491983609028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11845352274481324,0.0,0.08010260852759621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20553236946749856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15965766485567975,0.16851971858380535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13568208217465408,0.12874895832152305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1554409340351926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16295334293962915,0.0,0.22736750763884706,0.11824870890169314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16088201550414774,0.0,0.0,0.11660565754651038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2677436685965583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14683677900067366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1309331944070022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12217502519619547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534292636034794,0.15628894243587174,0.12990630037791992,0.11803210162537588,0.0,0.0,0.10851965088059487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11527646044127401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17801464055863936,0.2037160490695844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08940127292252546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1497699343412267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2530077026334615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662674151849899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09873211223396032 alcoholism,Bambibeybey,2019/03/29,"Husband wants to start drinking again... Hello, my husband (we’ve been together for 15 yrs) was a alcoholic for many years. He stopped drinking in Feb 2018. A little over a year ago. He and I have been great, but lately he’s been calling me boring. Or that life is boring...and says he would like a drink. I get a little triggered with him mentioning drinking, as obviously it was a big problem before for him ...blacking our, mental and emotional abuse, acting like a drunk jerk, him sitting on the couch drinking all day on a Sunday to oblivion...it makes me want to throw up when I think about him during that time. But, our marriage survived, and we’ve gotten stronger, communication has been awesome. So why is he bored? He thinks drinking is a solution to this? He knows I get triggered when he mentions drinking...I clam up and get on the defense, I get bitchy about it, So he starts throwing out things about my personality he doesn’t like...that I’m scared of everything, I’m bad at handling stress, I’m worried about our daughter moving out, I’m insecure...etc. like he brings up my weaknesses all at once when I get clammy about him drinking again..,it makes me feel horrible. Like I’m a basket case. I’m pathetic for not giving him a chance at trying to drink again with possibly no bad effects, like I live in the past or I can’t move on from the bad times. Am I supposed to give that a chance? Why does he have to put me down when I get defensive about him trying drinking? Help please.... I’m not sure what to do. 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I’m basically looking to get outside opinion on my situation. I had various addictions in my family, alcoholism was super present there so I know what it looks like from the outside. I noticed that I have a tendency to regulate my emotions with stuff, whatever it is. I stopped smoking weed about 6 months ago and it’s just the best. Before that I wasn’t really a huge drinker but now I notice I think about it more often. I had a few incidents within those 6 months without pot that I’ve gone too far in my opinion with booze. I’m worried I might be substituting one thing with another. I guess I’m just really anxious about stopping drinking or just admitting it’s becoming a problem. Do you have any advice? With weed it was an easy decision because I could clearly see the negative impact and how I was thinking about it wasn’t healthy. Haven’t really experienced this with alcohol. I’m just v anxious about being dependent on anything. Any advice appreciated. Lots of respect for everyone in this community. Thanks :)",3.798658536585368,6.4095570975609775,5.387987804878048,74.68978658536588,75.58536585365854,9.173170731707318,33.17682926829268,9.642632912329526,3.9057756097560974,875,47,148,26,20,295,124,205,0.098,0.726,0.177,0.9511,0,0,4,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,0,2,15,7,0,0,9,0,16,5,0,2,1,33,34,6,0,3,7,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,17,7,4,2,5,1,0,1,5,1,0,1,8,5,18,6,24,22,5,18,0,0,4,0,4,10,0,9,8,105,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282171522635579,0.0,0.34479454880760874,0.10425814699162868,0.2513882372386577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1599637697671579,0.12332904546510498,0.0,0.2657417871851411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09678670206396704,0.0,0.10995366931374648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07169670011089224,0.12989596128536174,0.10008126641013118,0.0,0.12342914871955125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09390559813847156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11521742175084325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1323004683092081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22477136672158973,0.0,0.0,0.11087647168610254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06144871552186538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12956561829754154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1168177245040916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06463784661590356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05746049780681145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2962996433846542,0.0,0.0,0.09999163160234922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12477038510323768,0.0,0.0,0.18775752412487628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26780974783098643,0.0,0.0,0.07969862082706307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12288210679399544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11254118065082913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2260405577468963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10044212995527046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09372351918566216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13220361215253326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19666195647494888,0.0,0.0,0.1346404495230116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10828361837084698,0.0,0.0,0.0781378395573887,0.15072522944781594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11337616916625115,0.0,0.0,0.1194432215143612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,WhiteKnightKeith,2019/03/29,Im 15 and think im going to become an alcoholic I'm 15 doing my GCSEs in about a month. I'm sometimes allowed to have a few beers over the weekend (don't judge my parents their fucking perfect) and I'm allowed to drink when my friend comes over. During the week when stress is high I always seem to think about alcohol and how being drunk seems to just make my stress dissapear and am starting to crave the feeling of the relaxation it gives me. I'm not addicted (at least not yet). Does anyone have any advice or maybe some experience in the matter and can help me feel a bit more secure and safe about my mental health. ,4.911190476190473,5.373387698412703,5.630277777777781,82.74875,68.84126984126982,8.204761904761906,27.654761904761905,8.07648339933343,1.6545904761904766,494,15,99,6,8,161,84,126,0.061,0.8029999999999999,0.136,0.8297,3,0,4,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,1,8,8,1,2,9,0,8,8,0,4,1,25,24,10,0,0,4,1,2,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,1,7,5,2,6,5,0,2,3,3,0,0,0,2,9,5,15,23,5,15,0,0,0,1,5,6,1,4,7,60,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16833262581901298,0.0,0.15089029495201398,0.0,0.33004041446351484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284837290057109,0.0,0.0,0.10500592520360867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10796894411599947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1705366860863007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1685786664961144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.133012861025752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.135127586831949,0.0,0.0,0.15126565206774245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15104524168293082,0.0,0.0,0.1561513927301954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11929886235521107,0.14275204504645844,0.0,0.14812672384865208,0.08775629097685768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16413347031835449,0.0,0.0,0.10349957218016613,0.16314548633213696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3335844081727723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1030716705582256,0.0,0.15512830300952038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15561167470051665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12325073710984352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17145702031384916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2811430298705278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15271810013841888,0.0,0.10929409774608438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3537584326352048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19788283550371244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12386054702857227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,kingJoffi,2019/03/29,"How much do you drink a day and how old are you? Just curious I drink a pint or more of cheap whiskey every day. Used to be more. Been trying to quit for the longest. 35 yrs old.",-1.2261538461538457,0.7592853589743598,0.7648205128205134,103.47184615384614,92.84615384615385,4.1456410256410265,15.492307692307696,5.6839178017228535,-1.0116092307692308,135,3,35,1,5,44,31,39,0.0,0.938,0.062,0.3182,0,0,3,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,0,4,3,0,3,0,6,5,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,4,3,3,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,4,22,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3511117291966053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5333332504500401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22935249836466626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2001090151972257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5712867563036309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28953368081022696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18481581039249448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23510596992243665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Joleney14,2019/03/29,"Looking for perspective: Long Term relationship with my SO who abuses alcohol Ok so, long story short, I’ve been with my bf (26m) for 10 yrs now, I’m 26f. I don’t know how to best describe his challenges with alcohol but basically he can stop after one drink but he struggles with cravings and is not fun for me to be around when he gets wasted. Tbh I’m nervous posting this even but I would love some perspective and objective support. The bad: He has been going through cycles throughout our time together, each time getting better and better, but still it’s VERY hard for me as I think his past episodes have really effected me. Currently looking for a therapist for myself to process through these times. When he is “blacked out” He has cut himself (more of a release of energy, not suicidal), talks in circles, gets argumentative, emotional abuse, punched furniture on 3 occasions, and attempted suicide once (3 yrs ago). Resistant to the idea of AA and I don’t want to push him because I want him to get help for his own reasons, not mine. The good: No physical abuse. We are able to speak openly about how I feel after episodes, he recognizes that he is creating an issue for me and us. Is stuck between feeling really bad, working on it, and managing himself. He explained never wanting to attempt suicide again, apologized to me for it. Just a very sweet, caring, and honest guy. I can tell he is really sorry and is trying his best. He acknowledges and supports that I don’t enable him and supports me in getting help for what we’ve been through (he knows it’s because of him). Where I’m at now: He mentioned a ring recently and basically is giving clear hints of engagement that may occur in an upcoming trip. I was definitely ready for this and very happy as he hadn’t had an episode in a longg time, months. However, 3/4 weeks ago he had a pretty bad one and it made me feel horrible. Before this I felt so happy and was starting to feel 100% that I would be happy with him for the rest of my life. But since this episode, I’m just worried about the fact of this cycle that I will have to keep living with him and what that will look like if I want to have a family and be happy. I’ve talked to him about this concern specifically, and he agrees that he doesn’t want that either and that it will keep getting better but he can’t give me a solid answer on if episodes like this one wont happen again, and I get it. It’s just really hard. It would be easier if he was a horrible person so I could leave him. I honestly cannot think about what I would say if he dropped down on one knee and asked the question. I want to say “yes” but I’m also afraid. Has anyone else experienced this? Thanks for reading my long post.",3.7853152434158015,5.382612175046559,4.800152966214419,83.42062849162014,72.50093109869646,8.242777334397447,28.24195264698057,8.841846274778883,2.205043309390796,2146,83,423,42,42,701,250,537,0.142,0.634,0.22399999999999998,0.9940000000000001,2,0,3,0,3,2,63.0,3,0,0,11,25,32,1,3,18,2,45,6,1,5,3,88,92,43,3,15,18,0,7,2,1,9,3,4,0,2,31,32,3,3,16,2,0,3,13,7,1,4,12,17,49,25,64,66,9,48,0,0,4,1,58,15,0,7,29,275,80,4,0.06658532952607203,0.23667818212420874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11804775419194567,0.1423189347431927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05324826396538285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046558010590654585,0.06822453878965971,0.0,0.05927506018784383,0.062248294748101674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667879066495934,0.08117959771281791,0.0,0.0566592111854358,0.0,0.13975439069847098,0.17666793889920415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06788818113141662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053162967528993264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06522827363585011,0.0,0.0,0.05562349877616447,0.07489953357649218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04397898217077161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06277072273460896,0.0,0.13467017309472,0.0,0.06393235831908298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24351660528471145,0.12774943080475207,0.03784197722918782,0.055848615286907315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0659299447614067,0.0588811869984778,0.2835252857187006,0.11929475312754305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0892614856456362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07516673224076975,0.0,0.06949778461350603,0.0,0.11836820058772204,0.0,0.0,0.0731871115014498,0.0,0.0,0.07050424980550497,0.0,0.0,0.04703118740640218,0.06506045730306287,0.0,0.058796065871309235,0.17677776393734554,0.16774472057440898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06009585956211187,0.06300464876348393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05314777476661218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051354710985865415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07091120283519707,0.1804797701149561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06356323131971646,0.0,0.058139741426279125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12754067960173748,0.0677412179860826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07459080783773868,0.0,0.06660334846188153,0.0,0.1706250684368321,0.0684608085237745,0.06574497999298848,0.07148772504705879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.105902653157136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0550800726577764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07453682498321725,0.04712943895136405,0.0,0.05317513017129768,0.0556683169774875,0.0,0.06960944364565576,0.0,0.21850062979567847,0.22668072862299746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10703753133120424,0.05819851287298609,0.061302825406452724,0.0,0.0773106996435945,0.0,0.0853303811250791,0.0,0.0,0.1553057644467535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04520706797238135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08009395298447841,0.0,0.0,0.16481961071652534,0.23564251512526965,0.0,0.05341073498065258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048474912922427664,0.0676206342625367,0.0,0.18920123067555106,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,noidea192939,2019/03/29,"Please advice for getting antabuse I am an extremely closet alcoholic. Please do not give advice about AA, reparations, honesty. My culture will not forgive or not excommunicate if they know this. And for gods sake I cannot leave this culture. That is my largest goal from it is not attainable in the short term. AA is not even available here. Asking antabuse for my family doctor is not possible. If I schedule a doctor for a different area and pay out of pocket and request for an antabuse prescription, how informatuon can help? Thank you for any advice. 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I'm kinda nervous and was hoping for some words of encouragement to make it through that week sober. I've got the tools to use, but I'm worried about the fact that I'm still craving...",6.6769230769230745,5.598241948717952,6.689358974358977,81.83480769230772,65.41025641025641,9.338461538461539,31.038461538461537,8.07648339933343,1.985015384615384,304,9,63,3,4,97,54,78,0.057,0.892,0.051,-0.1036,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,1,3,0,5,3,1,2,1,12,13,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,2,15,7,1,15,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,3,11,36,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2002810585939491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16797800080326647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20831718755925688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2673116350672416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586999355956676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29381520657112664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17386202039195955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27683245406314505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2080072192797269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.224957627561168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6267865312537809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26451425795425426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Trahsay,2019/05/23,"When did you decide to say goodbye to friends? I know I drink too much..nothing intense just 4 to 5 IPAs per work day and a few more per day on weekends. I say nothing intense because i dont drink anything but beer and I dont drink on days I'm hungover. My biggest concern about changing my lifestyle is how I plan to say no to friends when they want to drink, considering I'm the biggest beer fan as of now. I dont want to explain my issue but I'm so scared of losing them because I can't trust myself to go to a bar without drinking at least 4 pints. How do I tread the line of communicating my desire to change and wanting to stay relevant to my crew?",2.9707194244604302,3.855674165467629,4.432438848920864,88.04160791366907,73.53237410071942,6.423309352517986,31.16618705035971,6.2581,1.471310215827338,515,24,112,3,10,172,81,139,0.11,0.758,0.132,-0.406,0,0,7,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,2,3,9,5,0,1,4,0,7,8,0,2,0,16,16,11,0,4,4,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,8,0,3,9,0,1,6,2,0,0,1,3,18,3,21,15,3,14,0,1,0,0,9,5,0,0,7,67,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0992589554077568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1470561431979983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25519729201176894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23336734925312155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42409283662068414,0.5908022839855255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18637949697865056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0685504163496509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12589463921984528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06628891157652103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13494153026404546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08866866119811885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23147389105573285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28776261831483674,0.12076041273626295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12856354066100562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2134321949363801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1162721725153692,0.0,0.08781188792594195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,tevintervin,2019/05/23,"Fourth day of no drinking Hello fine people of r/alcoholism. I am entering my fourth day of no drinking after close to 10 years of extremely heavy daily drinking (about a fifth a day). I recently had a medical scare that opened my eyes on some changes I need to make in my life, first and foremost starting with cutting out alcohol. The scare I had has been enough for me to lose my desire to drink at all, which is something I don’t think I could’ve ever done. I hate that that is what it took, but it is and I’m grateful enough that I caught my medical issue when I did. So craving alcohol isn’t a problem at this point and outside of some anxiety, I can’t say I’ve experienced any withdrawal symptoms. It seems like the main issue I have is what to do with my time. My normal day used to end by drinking until I passed out once nighttime hit. But now that I have cut out the alcohol, it’s a very weird feeling because everything I used to do in the late evenings was tied to alcohol. Watching sports, playing video games, even just watching my favorite TV shows all seems tied to alcohol. Not that I don’t enjoy those things still but it’s just a weird feeling doing it without the booze. I’ve tried going to bed early, but all my life (even before alcohol) I’ve always been a person who doesn’t sleep much. Does anyone have any tips or advice on how to deal with something like this? Thank you if you took the time to read and good luck to all of you in your fight. TL;DR: Just quit a habit of heavy daily drinking, no clue how to spend my time in the evenings",4.079655864640092,4.99748076971609,4.7330154860911975,86.7933689417838,70.95583596214509,7.782563808431316,27.97375967880701,8.00094639256281,1.6294365930599368,1232,43,256,16,22,395,166,317,0.11,0.777,0.114,0.6571,0,0,15,0,1,0,30.0,0,4,0,3,15,18,4,2,15,0,24,20,2,5,5,45,42,15,0,5,11,0,2,2,0,0,11,1,1,1,20,12,13,0,5,13,1,6,10,10,0,1,10,7,30,8,41,31,10,40,0,1,3,0,11,14,0,7,22,169,50,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07339435187520049,0.0,0.561870848748521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062495603311544766,0.0,0.0,0.10215159067487496,0.0,0.05745716667991261,0.0,0.0,0.05251703350811003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045784942259911664,0.0,0.063911100466262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07945396244965372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05996736784262696,0.0,0.0,0.19375295046811744,0.0774327161489302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06572723354503858,0.0768612295348645,0.0,0.441461573046386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06652310793406616,0.15521261403123787,0.0,0.19843164697235524,0.06793919307791106,0.0,0.0,0.06750193635730113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07595339559437729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06388655096876622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04268542321602777,0.06299675529935098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07415328061295291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15678580063811942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08472473016307054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1061015457324548,0.0733876334682512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08402627781805634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0501349570542024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15132616399597792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05521278397398906,0.05569139018310845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07358957576241487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07998722385582227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052070205707582584,0.06558112578052544,0.0,0.0,0.07100103091295254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07186790256721587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07988625877756353,0.07512800135895549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0741597691456098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0597286386799294,0.15039177294262562,0.0,0.0,0.13675041504915628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07516191802058933,0.0,0.0,0.11564311706653055,0.0,0.0,0.05316159975967765,0.0,0.0599810871980149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07806563374073466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06914905716909486,0.0,0.0,0.04989820266366456,0.04812596616515541,0.0,0.0,0.13138766989793746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16689478355627238,0.05099318191197609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12973783430525454,0.0,0.06197169874014383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07240111958985647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048366880942002165 alcoholism,woertz,2019/05/23,"What should I do? I need help I really need help quitting drinking. I started off with a six pack a night, a few times a week about 6 years ago. It has progressed to me justifying two four packs of strong (8.5%+) every other day. The days I don't drink are recovery days. Just enough rest in between work shifts to be ""ok"" enough to drink again. I need help. I have a three year old and a husband. My husband knows I have a drinking problem but he doesn't know how bad it really is. I'm really good at hiding it. I think? My father had an addiction and killed himself over it. My mother is still struggling with her addiction. She has six children and we are all struggling with addictions. I have a great job and just got a promotion. My addiction is enough of a problem for me that I've been considering some kind of rehabilitation program. But I don't want to lose my job. I really need some advice. This is my first post so I'm not sure how this works. I really don't know what to do. I'm scared. More than wanting to be a better person, I want to be a better mother to my boy. I don't know what to do.",0.6209203896540139,2.8701255982532783,2.6851746724890826,91.49868575747401,85.5938864628821,5.9684917702384945,19.7247228753779,7.321109707123232,0.4977334900906954,858,25,189,14,26,288,121,229,0.134,0.7290000000000001,0.13699999999999998,0.1929,2,0,4,0,0,0,32.0,1,0,0,10,8,16,1,3,14,1,25,8,0,2,2,34,42,9,1,10,5,5,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,3,11,8,4,0,5,4,0,0,6,8,0,6,3,0,28,8,23,35,9,19,0,1,0,0,16,4,0,2,14,130,39,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4017213083895685,0.0,0.09002391309540847,0.08166364343683254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07692089376000133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16295492918937254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17823986106498818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3609914320970048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28557061653637983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07761965597478021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07836185163344878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07727044764977009,0.07368112965280034,0.10156862209483908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18524922018985432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18284056669693466,0.0,0.1019231491013964,0.09593446841966433,0.20251892867382956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10306480183769168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27323938378973217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08645348406461803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09667015141193548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0804403801808073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0882307050564646,0.0,0.0,0.1763032072566456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09798674467399604,0.0,0.0,0.2950895772136872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09223363618410828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06520686012618372,0.0,0.07357149485377154,0.0,0.0,0.1926190235342224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08682713631056595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05903026166170752,0.0,0.0,0.05371908452761452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08999316787741729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16301391301742704,0.0,0.07389747051124787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341368340846838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11865152495719553 alcoholism,r3xabroad,2019/05/23,"What now? Last night went out, got drunk, came home, knocked over a bike stand at my building, neighbour I couldn't see shouted at me about trying to steal bikes, I swore at her, probably everybody heard. I put bikes all back but probably woke everyone up. So deeply ashamed. Dont want to leave my apartment even to go to work. What now?",1.6898846153846172,4.348466353846156,1.7387500000000031,97.06812500000004,85.46153846153845,5.711538461538463,23.509615384615394,7.1686216300943375,0.8524230769230763,263,10,56,4,8,78,53,65,0.165,0.8170000000000001,0.018000000000000002,-0.8649,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,6,2,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,6,10,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,4,0,4,2,2,0,0,5,3,7,0,11,4,1,17,0,0,1,0,3,7,0,0,5,30,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18250751059462386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2714651860995816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27817244958708914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15676744623586564,0.0,0.0,0.22679811049751716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13489148311118065,0.0,0.1898304891257548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2380814171236467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1934719406992977,0.0,0.2513193949752253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.222736910304528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5118069198774399,0.0,0.0,0.2386023213297858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1891372319394654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16114507994574342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1399951882217345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22002584157398447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17279363755729268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,tangtomato,2019/05/23,Just wanted to share a hooray! Today I’m 10 day in a row sober. I had my second AA meeting today! Feeling pretty good despite all the things that I’m facing because of my failure to stop drinking before. I’m optimistic and feel like I can’t wait to see what happens next! This is my first time posting on here. I’ve been following this sub for a while. I’ve read a lot of your posts thinking I wonder what it feels like to be sober for a couple of days. I know now and I like it! Thank you all for you constant honesty and sharing your struggle/ heart!,1.5724031620553338,3.559154730434788,2.955098814229249,92.49667984189723,79.95652173913044,4.877470355731226,23.49802371541502,5.565023196281405,0.3136956521739127,434,15,91,2,11,141,78,115,0.045,0.691,0.265,0.9752,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,4,0,1,3,8,0,1,6,0,5,3,2,0,2,16,20,4,0,1,1,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,3,1,2,6,2,0,1,1,1,1,2,2,4,12,7,12,17,3,16,0,0,1,0,7,2,0,2,14,55,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10507127289089624,0.0,0.14666875934291193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18626385757896324,0.0,0.0,0.1907170852004791,0.0,0.2223205723017456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16885074409064987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26145670044257946,0.2462732324811029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466124210180524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14457044042391878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1524205943750346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20425173896041127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09472654683346733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2526244988751867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14653739983355635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18331068266947648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3301534358061641,0.1753557840026972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17241028038701006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1373515021670543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1441037179122396,0.0,0.18019189685935874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.158689278556189,0.0,0.0,0.1145107410876805,0.1104436584275129,0.0,0.0,0.10050662246098764,0.0,0.32676114659697475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10166453850064257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18692101106931308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,FtheT32,2019/05/23,"Alcohol withdrawal Wondering if anyone has had simmilar symptoms that im having. I went to the hospital the other day because I thought I was having a stroke or a seizure. Doctors said I was fine sent me home with some vertigo medication. I've been getting internal vibrations in my legs and torso. The best way to explain it would be a non visable tremor. When I walk I feel extremely unsteady almost like the Earth is moving below me. It feels like it's moving side to side and up and down. I really feel like I'm going crazy here.",3.6406623931623936,5.723532596153845,5.255128205128205,77.96764957264958,74.0,8.852991452991454,29.824786324786324,9.444778638647367,3.0836273504273497,426,19,76,11,9,144,76,104,0.024,0.831,0.145,0.8782,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,2,5,0,0,7,0,10,7,1,0,0,15,22,6,0,2,2,0,4,3,0,1,6,1,1,0,5,4,1,0,6,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,8,5,10,5,8,12,2,15,0,0,0,0,3,6,0,5,5,49,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20737143351303688,0.19430460966036328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.135678382010388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11828594403194058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20363466316817094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12514076421126033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19860977583758604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29433975419180824,0.27724668210761555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10137871497310047,0.0,0.11027829963939108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19463952245593014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20959820036837648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2843967386411709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19547647415806796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41247097470238414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12430800265211475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18457797436650888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20168349522108428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15404733712087773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15402117156805584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17987848547492094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2104298125016264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13784156865148414,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,caraptors,2019/05/23,"Should I tell my doctor I need help with drinking Should I be worried about my doctor cutting me off if I do so? Located in Canada hoping I can get help with using benzos for shaking and anxiety when trying to cease drinking, does this seem realistic to get that sort of help?",6.7588888888888885,6.510406740740741,7.381851851851858,74.19833333333334,64.92592592592592,9.422222222222222,32.814814814814824,8.841846274778883,2.7694148148148146,220,8,39,3,3,73,41,54,0.12,0.691,0.19,0.7319,0,0,2,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,1,0,0,5,4,0,1,0,11,11,4,0,5,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,8,1,9,8,0,4,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,4,1,28,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17156214651785898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4590895554596553,0.1962558532425809,0.0,0.0,0.43938873340156703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2343384609030104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4509603995308976,0.0,0.0,0.2227457932520971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662896901200321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20416247527258907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19601753527830326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15226124523910453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19369299448739924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2277520405207898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ihavenosister,2019/05/23,"Alcoholic father wants to get lunch with me a couple times a week but it is so insufferable. He wakes up at noon and meets me at work at 1. He has no job, quits every thing he lands, and always shows up miserably depressed (assuming from being hungover). I am 23 years old and I feel like I shouldn’t have to see my father multiple times a week. Maybe just once a month. He texts me multiple times daily just annoying shit. Everything is miserable around him. He hates everyone and is a huge racist when he drinks and when he is hungover. He lies to me all the time and says oh I haven’t drank since _____ when I know that is a complete lie. I’ve told him straight up I don’t want to see him unless he hasn’t drank and has a job, but he will just make excuses. What do I do? I just want to be alone.",1.2355722891566288,3.1666160963855465,2.744201807228915,93.86702560240968,80.80722891566266,6.800602409638555,20.01355421686747,7.865858978985527,0.5751216867469884,616,16,143,11,16,201,96,166,0.217,0.721,0.063,-0.9864,2,1,2,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,2,9,7,3,2,8,0,18,7,2,1,1,25,31,14,0,4,7,2,1,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,4,9,5,0,3,2,0,0,5,6,0,0,3,4,16,1,15,24,1,23,0,3,2,0,19,10,1,1,14,80,20,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16800851578596315,0.0,0.16282102027238698,0.0,0.0,0.13081040785859094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13994926118935996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1648305523645796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17394867007738454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13540380485286674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15400488291476655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13245528804759318,0.1502198516879117,0.14128923249408906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07948954910008864,0.11231007757043568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0821351675415217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15521125274489572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31201117325869765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08639790622525376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07680433308166291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10493816897070696,0.0,0.15793748161048846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12548265305635695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16496430691515465,0.16742235968019972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1672110282846028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1250188360869326,0.0,0.0,0.2505502966341484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16137268819020534,0.13004483589361113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10444261509575388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3666791214364609,0.0,0.0,0.1502198516879117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.278177666897985,0.0,0.2522070117325994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11444995969997482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10123738451377508 alcoholism,dperry1973,2019/07/26,"10 days sober and coping with mild to moderate withdrawal I decided to get sober after a mental health crisis 12 days ago. I went inpatient and detoxed. I feel much better and back to the self I was before I was deep into the disease. Today I'm feeling irritable, a flu-like ache, and I can't think clearly despite being on all my psych meds. Any tips to cope with the withdrawal?",3.7228,5.430015613333335,5.175666666666668,80.21950000000002,72.86666666666667,8.200000000000001,27.166666666666664,8.841846274778883,2.2236666666666665,301,11,56,6,6,101,55,75,0.162,0.75,0.08800000000000001,-0.8155,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,5,0,4,2,0,0,2,13,10,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,7,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,2,7,1,9,6,2,10,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,6,32,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2414244760917389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18520935976733088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2094226234732529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2317523187094793,0.0,0.0,0.2408740704579357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35129027039279953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2754196910151374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14229318647460554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2894984725396041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3025227533718567,0.0,0.2744677368226682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20021077113407326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2841235468915068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17451278678570753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25815877125872977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2524739328491585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,randomlyweirdperson,2019/07/26,"Rehab? Not sure where to look for help I’m concerned about my sibling and to make a very long story short he’s willing to go to rehab but his insurance won’t cover all of it. There is 7k out of pocket and at the very least 5k must be paid upfront. Our family is basically nonexistent and our mother has severe mental health issues. I can’t even reach out to her without making it all worse. I can help some but not nearly enough to get him in the door and doing much at all will be a hardship. I’m happy to help all I can but I’m a single parent with a fluctuating income so there’s only so much I can do without risking bills. Are there organizations that help? I’m really lost here and obviously worried. I don’t want to miss this window of him being willing to go. The thought of him hurting himself or someone else is just... it’s hard to even go there. Thank you for any suggestions. I’m at a total loss and just don’t know what to do from here.",1.5107617032531058,3.4754283015075416,3.61533985718064,87.79717535043638,80.05527638190955,5.998518910341178,21.0264480296218,7.0608816371341465,0.5401698492462312,748,21,157,9,19,255,117,199,0.134,0.7440000000000001,0.122,-0.3994,2,0,0,0,1,0,16.0,2,1,0,2,14,8,0,1,8,0,22,3,0,2,8,33,41,12,0,2,10,2,1,0,0,5,3,0,2,0,6,9,0,0,2,0,2,3,8,5,0,0,3,2,15,3,29,30,11,13,0,4,1,0,17,9,0,2,1,116,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10262139841270038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1260627755982452,0.0,0.0,0.1559264559459671,0.0,0.1993442585387651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14226094561357475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0788422669295295,0.0,0.2572904323854522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16064246791547074,0.13518232423748394,0.0,0.0,0.16040624581649926,0.0,0.0,0.4045970096125529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1615482202095923,0.0,0.0,0.1575068778316737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08293410713894693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335472481733605,0.12672321071026432,0.0,0.16473195585252584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20146213556822726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15207796737322066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22186685745120535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11477097371439575,0.0,0.0,0.16756348899516474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0966743830711919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1704810649144151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12786234304336153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14222731815742545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1389341643870778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11980267530802788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2490268568392776,0.08900839321279906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2909364049984853,0.0,0.0,0.15325258263872515,0.15378632149442878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,PurryJinx,2019/07/26,"What happens to passed out drunks in public I live in Melbourne, Australia and was on the way home from work when I saw a guy passed out from alcohol, choking on his own vomit, lying flat on his back in the street. He was alone. Myself and a few strangers managed to rouse him, put him in the recovery position (thank God a bystander knew how to do that!) and call the ambulance and police. He was in and out of consciousness and able to talk to us a few times but he couldn’t stay awake and was in no state to be left alone. We waited until the paramedics and police took over and left them to deal with it. What do the police and ambulance do when this happens? If the police put him in a lockup until he sobers up, he could choke on his own vomit if he’s not monitored by someone. I’m really worried about this stranger and want to know what the protocol is in Australia for helping people who are alone and too intoxicated to look after themselves.",7.785396825396828,6.154130291005296,7.459259259259259,78.9866666666667,63.55026455026455,10.516402116402118,33.698412698412696,9.150863307647796,2.6771523809523807,751,24,152,10,9,238,109,189,0.111,0.8590000000000001,0.03,-0.9431,0,3,1,0,0,0,16.0,2,0,1,1,6,1,0,0,13,0,12,5,0,1,0,29,23,20,0,5,4,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,1,8,17,2,1,3,1,0,5,3,0,0,0,7,2,12,1,36,13,4,35,0,0,2,0,22,20,0,2,7,107,20,2,0.1560887010381795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1668113518046356,0.0,0.4849824611589612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12002257631784237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15938401552297093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1246241267257868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16092059693850025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15455235425841676,0.27605744567442153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046229660972842,0.0,0.1565696938360667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08578226801839789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3391816607747149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13782918269428118,0.0,0.13107519692817465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10821225189955393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3138245130637615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09999441876467463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1322534498626694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16636978704418445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12545818535957845,0.0,0.14370550473759872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09101657680744556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17342029010155158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18775548865407488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09206515999111324,0.12389594555310765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1136344333632518,0.15851565263012393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,politicalpug007,2019/07/26,"Friend is alcoholic, need advice Hello everyone. I have a close friend that is clearly an alcoholic. It’s kind of ironic because I actually was in denial of him being an alcoholic, I guess I didn’t want to think of him that way. Either way, it is what it is. My friend gets drunk every single night, typically blacking out. He’s spending himself into debt and getting into very dangerous situations that put lives in danger (driving). I am having a very difficult time figuring out what I should do, seeing that if I challenge it head on I know he will get mad at me and I hate confrontation. That being said, something has to be done. I’ve spoken to his sister and we think the two of us should talk to him in person and tell him we really want him to get treatment. Any tips or ideas? The trouble is he doesn’t deny he has a problem, at least superficially, but he says he is happy with his drinking, like he doesn’t want to change, and that he’s “happier than he has been in a long time” which I think is complete BS. Any guidance would be greatly appreciated.",4.376666666666665,5.595111004784691,5.709071770334929,78.94816905901118,70.5311004784689,8.44414673046252,28.287400318979262,8.841846274778883,2.2174284529505583,836,30,159,15,15,281,124,209,0.10400000000000001,0.754,0.142,0.9042,1,0,5,0,0,0,24.0,3,0,0,1,0,16,5,0,8,0,28,6,1,0,1,33,44,8,0,9,4,1,0,1,3,4,3,2,0,1,13,13,5,0,6,2,2,2,3,8,0,1,5,4,23,8,23,31,3,20,0,0,2,0,30,12,0,3,5,107,36,1,0.0,0.0,0.1198011604515923,0.0,0.0,0.1199647670004662,0.0,0.3935961033919802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16696913946288447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07483654790875004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12986934074633058,0.0,0.1287170133949179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12563145878306978,0.0,0.1202631932772831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10343500547240457,0.11730744321676242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2845443485364311,0.0,0.2565590737632626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13534910520110716,0.13523974724155716,0.0,0.0,0.13068587567464224,0.0,0.12120525358926035,0.12599254908059884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1385870074986182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12784110083152558,0.06746856267454099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05997689280439824,0.0,0.10840395183997076,0.10864336995032924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09102886634395264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.115206856884778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10719386809582764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174697502738143,0.0,0.12341296935579173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.078646553248998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11677785162579693,0.09762784246227378,0.0,0.0,0.0978279979813031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13799326802015266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09451067581933106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09867404578474777,0.10730222665662544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359890170087867,0.0,0.0,0.14317079178737255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11992379629850633,0.0,0.14767146225406022,0.0,0.0,0.20258835210169585,0.21723034936555446,0.1948906588918487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08720890077538332,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,G-Toke,2019/07/26,"I need some advice please My mother is a heavy drinker and has a big problem, she wants to quit drinking but never actually does, the longest she has gone without drinking is one year but that was when she went to her AA meetings and they helped her out a lot, she stopped going to them and within a few weeks she was back on the alcohol, i fear for my mums health, she knows i dont like her drinking and she was supposed to be stopping but to no suprise she hasnt, nothing i say will make her stop theres nothing i can do to stop her. When she's sober shes the nicest most down to earth person i have ever met and it breaks my heart when she drinks and becomes somewhat agressive, she will snap really quick and shout, she hasnt ever been agressive in a way where shes violent,its always verbal. I should also include that she gets very emotional when intoxicated and majority of the time i have to comfort her and i hate seeing her in a state like that. I wish i could make her understand that what shes doing is slowly killing her and is no good for her mental health either. I really wish alcohol wasnt a thing, it destroys people and families. What can i do to help her understand that shes causing real bad harm to herself as she keeps drinking excessively",5.614470588235296,5.609239937254902,6.079215686274513,81.75647058823532,67.27450980392156,8.839215686274509,31.117647058823533,8.447377352677275,2.1817529411764705,1004,36,203,13,15,325,137,255,0.171,0.722,0.107,-0.9562,0,0,8,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,2,1,11,11,3,1,11,0,30,11,1,3,3,43,47,20,1,7,5,2,0,2,0,3,5,2,0,1,10,12,7,5,3,5,0,3,8,7,1,1,8,3,48,4,21,34,7,30,0,0,1,0,40,8,0,4,18,151,58,0,0.0,0.0,0.09676664544197597,0.0,0.0,0.09689879488733348,0.0,0.21194549613546104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07929886311234402,0.08250973667486987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07624854127114154,0.08279513354525457,0.0,0.10951532284496653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10186546592037488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07917183717892344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08677629216785229,0.0,0.11621572960877645,0.4856992094114562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1115425634180666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1793932575646024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09347998561663284,0.11158347844397414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05180742997853285,0.0,0.056355372902836175,0.08317138191640544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09790076953817063,0.0,0.2108066059461592,0.0,0.11750603607731497,0.1329308000730212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08813868318188241,0.10970674323588182,0.0,0.054496187334054036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09688992491954554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08430297376736286,0.0,0.0,0.13238121997564573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09993077257669293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07352648339370244,0.07647892895230562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19029494118867932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0671939304640874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06874561943376413,0.08658339358719479,0.0,0.10884879082364918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09488350223032052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10546972629128386,0.0,0.11286670967860893,0.12704990677539169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07885665532120786,0.0,0.0,0.07901832636070492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3316115057243721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0658780353204096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05782146514404445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2064597984756721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08181805236527834,0.058487614302052675,0.07870923460946302,0.0795408196728053,0.0,0.0,0.0919230633704441,0.0,0.0,0.22806007317464924,0.09558748129120444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06385630986575618 alcoholism,Skaught,2019/07/26,"Harm reduction What is the key to harm reduction in drinking? I am plagued by nausea and stomach upset. I get that stopping is the key, but how do I reduce the harm in the meantime?",1.6483333333333334,4.104466055555555,3.3255555555555567,87.25000000000004,82.8888888888889,5.822222222222222,28.44444444444445,7.1686216300943375,1.7742444444444438,142,7,27,2,4,47,25,36,0.312,0.688,0.0,-0.8936,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,4,0,4,2,1,1,0,4,5,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,0,4,5,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,20,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7048554899852286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3759194037668209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6015507793272994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,skyrahdetroit,2019/07/26,"Alcohol and breaking point in my marriage My wife (26/f) and I (33/f) just celebrated our third wedding anniversary. I’ve been what you would call a functioning alcoholic most of our relationship. Please be kind to me because this is super humiliating to talk about. By functioning I mean I drink in the evenings but don’t miss work due to drinking. I’m by no means minimizing my problem just saying I’m at a point where I have yet to lose everything and everyone I love but, I still could if I don’t get better. My doctor is fully aware of my habits and has warned me thoroughly about the consequences of continuing to drink. My father was a closet alcoholic and I’ve adapted the same secrecy to protect myself from the shame. My wife has become understandably fed up with my addiction. AA was not a good experience when I went in my twenties. I found it very cult like and was often approached by men with less than encouraging my sobriety intentions. I did outpatient treatment and the focus became apparent that me being a lesbian was despicable (to put it in context I at the time was in a relationship with a man and had not come out. I opened up to the group that I had cheated with a woman and was struggling). The moderator also shamed me. The focus turned to shaming my infidelity while another member was allowed to talk for 15 minutes straight about how funny it was to kill neighborhood cats as a child. He was not shamed. So fast forward to now. I’m out and proud. But my experiences in previous treatment options left me terrified and confused about where to turn for help while also feeling safe. I need help but I’m so scared.",4.124219618980003,6.312256073482431,5.330472133475329,77.49343864631405,72.92971246006391,8.85428943320317,30.122944030292274,9.444778638647367,3.020310235475092,1313,58,238,33,27,435,179,313,0.161,0.693,0.146,-0.8431,2,0,6,0,0,0,28.0,2,1,0,5,19,21,2,7,18,0,24,11,0,3,0,47,42,25,1,5,10,3,1,1,0,1,5,1,1,4,7,19,7,2,5,3,0,5,6,12,1,1,16,2,35,9,44,22,3,35,0,2,0,2,24,20,0,5,12,169,42,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12430822686618395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3655863370204677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1823775855820375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11956914260077148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0695109001065739,0.1259358544422388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1008492100548056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11643615734037642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09822571723135214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09104272081637564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11671331197819736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3351144480069234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07531494913970509,0.0,0.0,0.10895940813759217,0.1024817357745363,0.2230841000527968,0.0,0.0,0.05765638912401281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12502669717390674,0.0,0.0,0.059575343352082,0.0,0.0,0.095641950137078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15286220643831822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12615597606413925,0.11874345139823865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12389262841493355,0.0,0.0,0.055708713468620115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12756906343971025,0.0,0.0,0.10291544694809623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2484215909370733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08455091278347614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12516938380199294,0.21558815294500416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1091101648192483,0.0,0.11463044227008078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2448485212834561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09068028115473764,0.11416272457570165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09106354960188512,0.0,0.0,0.11920766350295345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18330406549533385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.066491112191905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2480611875618821,0.0,0.1187080056633428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09408570477400316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10570584305260082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0830143268693164,0.0,0.0,0.0810027902087799,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,upyouralli1,2019/05/09,"I am in trouble Before I start, let me just say that I realize I have a serious problem and I know I will be told to see a doctor. However I need support too. I had a severe sleepwalking accident (unrelated to alcohol) last summer. They kept me in a coma for 4 days and I am damn lucky to be alive, bc I sustained a severe traumatic brain injury and had bruising on 80% of my body which led to rhabdomyolysis. In total, I was in the hospital for a week, but before I was released, no one told me about the effects or the recovery after sustaining a brain injury. It has been hell. And I have made some poor choices since getting out of the hospital. I am prescribed Klonopin, but am supposed to be tapering my dose as of this month. For a couple of months now, I have been abusing alcohol, phenibut and found a source for extra Klonopin. I am nearing the end of my phenibut taper, which has been tough. But I have stuck with it. However my alcohol use has increased to almost daily and last night, for the first time in years, I blacked out. And I am still taking far too much Klonopin. This morning when I woke up, I didn't feel hungover, but I noticed my legs felt like they were shaking even though there was no noticeable movement. My anxiety was through the roof. I had leftover hard liquor from last night and and even though it sounded disgusting, I drank some a bit ago to see if it would curb the symptoms I felt. When it did, I realized I was in BIG trouble. At this point, I don't know if cold turkey is an option. I feel like I need to see a doctor but my pcp is only available on Tuesdays and Thursdays so getting into him will take weeks. I know I have to face this head on, but inpatient detox isn't an option for me. I live alone with a cat who relies on me for everything and I don't have a friend I can call and ask to stop in to feed her. If I leave her and go into the hospital, I don't know what will happen to her and she has kidney and stomach issues. I am not trying to use this an as excuse. I know I need help and that I've likely permanently fucked up my GABA receptors. Should I go into a walk in clinic? The ER will keep me there, I am thinking and I don't know how my cat will survive without a caretaker. Please keep any judgment to yourselves. I am asking for advice... In the last year I moved back to Canada after being gone 17 years bc my father has Lewy body dementia. My ex and I divorced after a 17 year relationship and I don't know what's up or down anymore. I think about suicide all the time but my cat keeps me here. I am sure that sounds pathetic, but it's true. I don't know what to do. But what I am doing currently is killing me. I need some support and some real talk regarding this and I don't have a support network here in Canada. Part of me thinks drinking myself to death is the best option. Surely with Klonopin in the mix, it can't be that difficult. I am TERRIFIED to post this but I am going to anyway bc I know I can't manage this alone. Thanks in advance for any words of wisdom and advice.",2.5879149803921564,4.118899990400003,4.123491764705887,87.32651450980394,75.49600000000002,7.077960784313726,25.69490196078432,7.793537801064563,1.3642916078431369,2374,84,498,34,51,791,277,625,0.168,0.748,0.084,-0.9948,3,2,4,0,1,1,65.0,0,0,2,5,21,26,5,1,34,0,69,24,9,6,5,102,122,45,3,10,18,2,5,3,1,7,10,3,0,0,26,30,7,6,20,2,1,11,15,12,1,2,25,13,86,14,75,84,12,76,1,0,4,1,22,30,3,14,37,361,112,3,0.0,0.08105476319251287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13369908492358734,0.06064141195161789,0.21932872529478972,0.06850281743849736,0.14170443151042306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09304240617822288,0.0,0.052333527111655315,0.0,0.06784442111749157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12790838795518295,0.0,0.0,0.052603131992318544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11642388590512155,0.0,0.07179216272605356,0.0,0.07468609381185477,0.1519763630344538,0.0,0.15273655692114815,0.06985434460111832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07569445690757108,0.0,0.0441188448378162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14004123977794053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06701583845488061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06059102934910535,0.0,0.0,0.09036843075198744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06148257250699196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06918038805680053,0.0488721777703696,0.1313688177942644,0.0,0.0,0.058189582612380227,0.0,0.07500812624032889,0.052853461299115286,0.06324402043137324,0.07148289087007115,0.0,0.11663708196367338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06049481146704546,0.0,0.061281998269201124,0.0,0.07020848262557275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04585383736863817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07140235433229411,0.0,0.18241807808068086,0.07568562229096258,0.0,0.33836753842879125,0.22305339654805365,0.0,0.07243640145569352,0.0,0.06995394594637895,0.0,0.10026513473506317,0.0,0.06040735761629246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06473127568900594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10920855296216496,0.07270909302693808,0.05028928319959961,0.2029008422409674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12839645945678074,0.0,0.0,0.15577066839852582,0.0,0.0,0.0463564434723532,0.0520289516561654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0740814545971154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07509372921036822,0.06466964159472767,0.0,0.0655179503012178,0.0,0.0,0.0654592115272906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0778656526116342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07344682859470217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05440244467869231,0.0,0.0,0.16354193990085372,0.0,0.0,0.15456784581781652,0.0,0.05658952852138476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04842100965091113,0.0,0.05463238155391493,0.057193893532205685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07482952863060764,0.23289285831848525,0.12895138938200998,0.07110427116287983,0.10287173904920703,0.054985434294544465,0.0,0.06298281428084042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13150325889420955,0.13442512063853235,0.0,0.07978094038928436,0.0,0.0,0.13073753406903105,0.0,0.04644595656738066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1181686961148953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10974888611041207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06594487988031286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048596560983673515,0.0,0.0,0.17621540506412758 alcoholism,Albstout,2019/05/09,"BAC and liver damage I have a family member who has been struggling mightily with alcoholism over the past decade. She received the cirrhosis of liver diagnosis about a year and a half ago and also has kidney damage and other issues. Unfortunately, the alcohol is winning this war and she continues drinking daily. She chooses to go out to bars and drink rather than stay home which often leads to her falling on sidewalks or getting taken directly from bars to the hospital for various reasons. Her blood alcohol content is consistently .4+ (over 5x the legal limit) which leads me to wonder if she is drinking enough to get to that high of a BAC or does the liver damage cause a lesser amount of alcohol intake cause a higher BAC than would occur for someone who drank the same amount with a healthy liver? Additionally, I struggle with what to do in this situation as I watch this train wreck unfold before my eyes. Are there any places where a person in this situation can live and receive care and live? Thank you.",7.773850267379679,8.304957721925135,7.951229946524062,68.33508021390377,62.6898395721925,10.436363636363636,33.57754010695187,10.230975488527342,3.585849197860963,822,31,131,17,11,268,121,187,0.132,0.8009999999999999,0.066,-0.9229,0,0,7,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,4,6,9,1,2,15,0,11,17,7,5,0,28,19,13,1,3,4,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,1,11,13,10,1,3,5,0,6,0,6,0,1,3,2,12,3,27,15,5,20,0,3,2,0,12,9,0,5,4,96,23,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1114196497543114,0.5373122418478049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10051699774654207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08547584872320403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10695585881916846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12815283807636868,0.2582435713829269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10999517549112887,0.0,0.0,0.3693951546473729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1298749224482733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11849258784784765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13133926813121474,0.0,0.07143447798305362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13280201933900054,0.12608076772108442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311912941223196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22197921887309136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11998861002267674,0.0,0.10975066270196326,0.13132289125720034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12923378949188646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2825693835412751,0.0,0.0,0.10649964296351083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1339724819164982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2628041468025021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1157216311736102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13630917285884742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08928901273580055,0.0,0.0,0.08094245368669795 alcoholism,always_worrie,2019/05/09,"I need some advice on what’s happening. Okay so, I’m really afraid at this point. I’m only 21 years old and last Friday until Tuesday I was drunk all day and all night every day. I had at the minimum 12 beers every day I drank (I was never a heavy drinker so I was messed up) Obviously I had a hangover when I stopped, but now it’s Thursday and I have these awful symptoms still and I don’t know if it’s normal after an awful binge (honestly I never want to drink again) So far every day I’ve had nausea, extreme fatigue (I’ve been sleeping literally all day and all night with a few short hours awake in between. And just an overall feeling of pure exhaustion. Would this be normal for recovering after something like that?",1.6176369863013704,4.033155883561649,3.4865582191780864,86.31833047945206,82.63013698630138,5.8417808219178085,22.823630136986303,7.1686216300943375,1.0015904109589044,573,20,111,8,16,192,97,146,0.14300000000000002,0.8109999999999999,0.046,-0.9122,0,0,4,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,8,7,0,1,6,3,11,8,1,0,8,27,19,13,0,6,3,0,1,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,7,7,4,1,2,3,0,0,3,4,0,0,8,1,11,3,13,9,6,31,0,1,0,0,0,8,0,2,24,72,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1536115684725438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5068968840442755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15399369507189012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3973369970914995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07948377450016156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13900922177911254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1548078632114375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08639162976062871,0.12813693570325246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0767987535520111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11655994743288065,0.2424807913271499,0.0,0.0,0.2950383921438176,0.3080403291881446,0.0,0.0,0.1649523229136668,0.0,0.0,0.11955577518654685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1486024393300961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10070473774596726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15731101674117673,0.0,0.0,0.12101830823337607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12553811904821474,0.13142414097381486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16338838257074842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09271915279856514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11166858710125292,0.0,0.0,0.10123003002001016 alcoholism,throwaway7382892288,2019/05/09,"When should I apologize to my kids? I’ve struggled with addiction since I was a young teen. I started smoking weed when I was 14, I became addicted to meth when I was 16, etc. I got pregnant with my son at 17, so I cleaned up and I had 2 children and I was good when pregnant /breastfeeding. I fell into drinking when my kids were young, maybe 1&3 and I was a high functioning alcoholic for 12 years. I struggled with my addiction pretty much by myself out of embarrassment, I was a complete closet drinker, I tried to be the best Mom I could, while catering to my alcohol addiction. Like I would be incredibly hung over at baseball games at 9am it was awful. I never let myself sleep in or be hungover, god it makes me sick just thinking how awful I felt all the time. I quit drinking 4 months ago and I haven’t had a drink since. This is the longest I’ve been sober since I was 13 (20 years) there are no words I could use to describe how happy I actually feel. I’m not even going to say I’m never going to drink again, I know I won’t drink again, but I’m not going to say it. I actually fee terrified of alcohol. The guilt I have for what my kids have had to see and experience is heart breaking. They deserved a better Mom, sometimes I was an embarrassment to them, and they lost to alcohol. None of my friends or family knew how bad it was, I think they thought I liked to party but they had no idea I was drinking from the time I got home from work until I went to bed, and my kids kept it a secret too. I’ve never said anything to my kids or addressed it with them, I often wonder if they’re waiting for me to start drinking again, and I think they resent me. They’re such such good kids, so kind, smart, and loving. Whenever anyone says I did such a good job at raising them I know deep down they’re who they are because of themselves, if I did anything it was make their life harder. I wish I could go back to when they were little and got a chance to enjoy them more. Alcohol has stolen so much from me and I’ll never be able to get that time back or fix it. I’m just not sure of what to say to them or how to say. Maybe I shouldn’t say anything and just keep doing it.",2.6678021978021995,3.8919254505494583,4.0549450549450565,89.14505494505497,74.71428571428571,7.046153846153848,24.868131868131872,7.554174236665415,1.0359186813186811,1700,54,375,21,35,562,209,455,0.105,0.7709999999999999,0.124,0.8883,1,0,14,0,0,0,47.0,0,0,13,5,28,22,1,5,14,2,42,21,2,7,6,70,78,36,0,9,15,3,2,2,1,4,11,7,5,7,14,18,12,3,12,8,1,6,13,8,0,0,31,10,70,14,48,35,7,48,0,1,1,1,36,13,0,9,30,254,84,2,0.06474169742508602,0.0,0.12635711516950804,0.2823120257072037,0.0,0.0,0.05738960847684435,0.3459459266998348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07014760211128522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04526890015906367,0.0,0.15983070189216145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09956473810680737,0.054056613087438775,0.03946593783962237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06794241720231234,0.05725877019425279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06788043798786332,0.0,0.0,0.15507293194219599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4439555123846859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07220410632379791,0.0427612805557788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06332980303947415,0.06103271046885447,0.0,0.032735347488474974,0.0,0.0621621823820149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05001927483189721,0.0,0.033824864789588106,0.0,0.14717679447871612,0.16290679245339842,0.15533954909236766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06891874077597593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07671922316784649,0.0,0.0684031578954469,0.06494120123271166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07308549600642715,0.0,0.0,0.06424614488660403,0.0575453953727265,0.0,0.06741851514740928,0.07116068752633553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06620277200135201,0.045728975530797036,0.06325904626488832,0.06488818907411742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07067321057899642,0.0,0.058431909610769,0.0,0.08643117151752883,0.0,0.1300834738781579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15164938710703696,0.051676205212881375,0.0,0.09518519376523747,0.0,0.19973115301308464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06586558134167535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06886076442463537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06158417995078955,0.30891117800333856,0.0,0.0,0.05159075071197117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16066500339681694,0.0,0.06478845310469318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06403119419432672,0.0,0.0916490133223276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13536415815652042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06101828363662645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1244515966644876,0.0,0.05139767603773987,0.11325421322252045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043955362795001326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05591603976556245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06001620213236573,0.0,0.0,0.07444975693865273,0.0,0.07020960916159269,0.04713272679535749,0.0,0.0,0.04599064432073642,0.0,0.0,0.08338306100365303 alcoholism,reasonableadult69,2019/05/09,"It’s time I just admit it I love drinking, but I’m a shitty drunk. I’m a fucken asshole. Ashes from burnt bridges look more like confetti to me and I’m just pounding beers holding a flamethrower on some moral high ground. I’m not the worst. I don’t get belligerent. It just sucks because I think I’m wonderful when I’m drunk. But I’m awful. I’m a jerk.",-0.7467703349282324,1.4247025526315829,1.5440191387559814,96.29858851674645,95.84210526315788,4.342583732057416,20.06698564593301,6.1124844417494595,0.08296315789473674,278,10,62,3,11,93,49,76,0.25,0.5489999999999999,0.201,-0.6451,2,0,3,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,4,5,2,0,5,1,1,5,0,0,0,12,16,4,0,0,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,4,1,3,4,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,5,2,3,16,3,5,1,0,1,1,2,3,1,2,3,28,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24085661090628915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3870593441169089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2064297149276009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41745752635946376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19303176772893507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3317945726371857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3566040106489741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531718188335319,0.0,0.0,0.23039298747934786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4284821149933217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,blinkface321,2019/05/09,"Can't stop I honestly feel like i can't stop drinking. It has become almost like breathing for me. I'm scared to quit because i know I'll just be in a shitty mood and not motivated to do anything at all. I wake up in the morning hungover almost every day for years now, I'm only 33 but i feel like it's really taking a toll on my health, i just don't know how to stop. I'm insanely depressed but i hide it very well and drinking is the only thing that really numbs me. I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't drive so AA meetings would be almost impossible to get to.",1.7759999999999998,2.9996772000000007,4.200199999999999,87.21310000000004,77.0,6.920000000000001,23.7,7.554174236665415,0.9804399999999992,450,14,100,6,10,158,73,125,0.13699999999999998,0.7390000000000001,0.124,-0.3939,0,0,2,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,7,9,0,1,4,0,12,6,2,2,1,23,22,6,0,1,6,0,2,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,6,2,2,3,6,2,0,1,6,3,2,0,0,2,12,5,13,19,1,12,0,1,0,0,1,5,0,3,9,60,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4575256512189276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15104275568042672,0.0,0.0,0.12533164905935168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09284194486834674,0.16820570064764134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09822225308991347,0.0,0.1311775731933851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.298396146587498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12832108567107375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15401703307401993,0.2176092974175928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07957155977733812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1618900074125777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25110374881858794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2232213349248951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2316652159121991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16199202766406076,0.0,0.0,0.19513724683645486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15248096866573518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3819941188194495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11451222290423517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10118274594365463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12566518059951634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1369378761768367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10819104012774196,0.0,0.0,0.09807755721039801 alcoholism,lebowski_2020,2019/05/09,"Angry, tired, unmotivated And sober. The last time I felt good about myself and my life and had a good belly laugh, I also had a few drinks. Objectively, yes, I get more done at a higher quality. But I feel like a grumpy old man, I shrink away from everyone, and I keep gaining weight. When does it get better?",3.046721311475409,4.715067114754099,4.4499672131147525,84.88806557377049,74.57377049180329,7.50295081967213,20.39672131147541,8.238735603445708,0.8164793442622957,238,5,50,4,5,79,47,61,0.12300000000000001,0.5870000000000001,0.29,0.8934,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,2,3,5,0,0,5,1,3,4,0,0,0,8,8,7,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,4,2,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,8,5,4,4,2,6,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,5,30,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18838075974742244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22132050126173095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2083375624194337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061439875056629,0.2410641599581065,0.0,0.2307634245601431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22509187212982493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1191084348749521,0.16828724922386232,0.2261787584365748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24614534526405324,0.0,0.0,0.3951604726655042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20938045577548486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1920164204237149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1663860970416099,0.1150848634636572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2471852039587604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13735949175100634,0.2707466165042829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28685396891045506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,anonymous714445,2019/05/09,39 days since 21 So much I want to say but I dont know how,-4.477499999999999,-3.3296237499999957,-0.6699999999999982,114.115,99.0,3.2,8.0,3.1291,-2.8074000000000003,44,0,16,0,2,16,15,16,0.0,0.903,0.09699999999999999,0.0745,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,3,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,8,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3111337802201333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5654158897736542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.265136314632137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35464878656661464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3836555179157777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3990792142101107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28455551234465626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Rav3Rhinos,2019/05/09,"First time posting.. I am 26. I've never admitted this to anyone but my issues have gotten out of my own hands. I've tried to stop drinking but it seems as if I can not handle this alone. I find myself constantly going back to alcohol, nicotine, and pornography on the daily. I desperately wish to be someone who is free from these vices. I live alone and as far as everyone else knows I am a health conscious person with solid drive in life. Despite the fact that nightly I am secretly getting drunk, smoking cigarettes, etc. I feel doubtful anyone in my life would actually care to help rather than gossip about what a fake I am. Not sure how to beat these issues without destroying my image and the example I try to set for those important to me.",4.511496212121216,6.152609631944448,5.4946212121212135,78.9852272727273,70.7361111111111,8.56969696969697,29.06313131313132,9.095868883498916,2.5681055555555563,593,23,107,12,11,195,103,144,0.17,0.6859999999999999,0.145,-0.2744,0,2,3,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,2,4,7,1,1,5,0,9,7,1,1,3,27,18,10,0,4,7,0,2,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,9,5,3,1,7,2,1,2,4,4,0,1,1,2,16,4,22,15,2,16,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,3,7,76,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.15912885798317994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17426792362528395,0.0,0.3377743204584609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280390265258203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12538766059257078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662566177271789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17621637647053573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15974256452513474,0.0,0.0,0.13622068846969573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18186165402064705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15581651631457152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08245105081000816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14903933659535448,0.1387038253860994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08519523571240117,0.0,0.09267414500404372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17333149406133608,0.0,0.0,0.10929967815766793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3403970003852829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0896167890836454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2303566251317051,0.0,0.0,0.14399023341788433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1257665238716437,0.0,0.0,0.1530263605026934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14238290971965256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1561721175896836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14844912898591167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13816526183925756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13633044722947396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15368774094224086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0950850747513332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22142217078703347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18751781065720352,0.15718976994483838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1158373819923274,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,teeny-trex,2019/05/09,"Heart thumping? Hey all, I’m writing this on a quick throwaway because my friends don’t yet know about my alcohol problem. I’m 24 hours without alcohol; no shaking, no extra anxiety, slight craving... but I can feel my heart so loudly. It just feels like it’s thumping, but it’s not racing it’s my normal heartbeat, and I’ve had no heart palpitations. Is this common?",2.2455281690140865,4.881710788732395,3.6599823943662,84.62969190140845,81.95774647887325,5.803521126760564,30.00176056338028,7.1686216300943375,2.0442521126760567,290,15,52,4,8,95,51,71,0.046,0.779,0.175,0.7869,0,0,2,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,1,1,0,4,5,3,0,1,13,9,4,0,2,5,0,2,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,6,1,2,0,3,0,0,1,6,2,0,0,1,3,5,2,3,8,2,6,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,5,32,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4308639719097901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15421120506493094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12288373283463128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2038538504453828,0.14401164691301166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15574329514232232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7166340170109823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19851962990767075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11078529224175364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09848375797095332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1975095155972333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1928886595143236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19431977845690265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,PunkRockMaestro,2019/05/09,"Ready to join the party For years I was stubborn, even though I had bipolar and a screw loose I said that really justified it, if only in the short term as a treatment and the long-term as a great loss. And then I tried honestly about 30 times and then recently with really everything I had and I got 50 days and the physical level really hit me and took out all of my well made plans. So I really I now know what a lot of you know. There are a lot of elements that go into this that need to be learned in moments of sanity that will applied after moments of insanity. And that I can't let go of the reality that this is a brain condition, and the best and most healthy way to do that is to relect on and connect with other addicts in whatever way that works for you.",6.340330188679245,4.972605194968558,7.375086477987419,77.58640330188679,66.23270440251572,11.723584905660374,32.45361635220126,10.9516,3.2314333333333334,602,20,130,15,8,205,97,159,0.07400000000000001,0.7659999999999999,0.16,0.937,0,0,0,0,1,0,9.0,0,2,0,4,7,7,2,0,12,0,11,4,1,1,1,26,21,18,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,13,15,0,1,3,0,0,3,1,3,1,0,7,1,13,4,24,10,6,24,0,1,0,1,3,8,1,4,11,98,26,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19266834760150325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854735478820581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19729584698229705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11398011105686065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11673247351568225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1588389376052236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20088630462316656,0.0,0.14135193929868015,0.19485208455208072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19425898766502486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18072455335456972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.156405814993237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30050928592146675,0.0,0.1672318941941355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1310475184536855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134415706253004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4528864766600059,0.0,0.17450549687621245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16811642592679651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17364224103708653,0.0,0.10305619377863924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1963602197395686,0.11999215544180625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2805696505224816,0.0,0.0,0.15890690595580825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286659265309916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11381220152620113 alcoholism,c3ntrifuge,2019/02/13,Replace Alcohol with GHB Who here has replaced alcohol with GHB? Anyone care to share their experience?,6.370000000000001,10.117594529411768,6.466176470588237,63.8427941176471,74.29411764705883,10.458823529411768,37.911764705882355,10.125756701596842,5.659729411764706,85,5,11,3,2,27,14,17,0.0,0.723,0.27699999999999997,0.6966,0,0,2,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8047753157852803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2632730335077261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3838894136378249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3683108999570188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,enew89,2019/02/13,"Misc stuff sober blah Pretty pissed off at nothing today for most of work. Got paid but didn’t drink. Go to aa meetings sometimes and talk to an old sponsor, have worked some steps but too many relapses to count. Kinda progressing in a Buddhist direction, meditate a couple times a day, every now and then do inventory tenth step style. Dunno, doin ok I suppose. Glad I made it through another day. Hope yous all are doing ok. If you feel you’re white knuckling it sometimes I’m right there with ya lol. 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Love you ",0.6857142857142868,3.211852809523812,1.7495238095238117,94.98714285714287,92.33333333333331,4.704761904761905,16.523809523809526,6.42735559955562,-0.19507619047619013,83,2,17,1,3,26,20,21,0.132,0.312,0.556,0.9601,0,0,0,0,0,1,1.0,0,1,0,1,1,6,2,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,5,6,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,5,2,6,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,0,1,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3176495461457117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18160306687271374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3320394231459917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3545980550995168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2536866976672166,0.0,0.0,0.3171465703773864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6483153412243922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21184301591043556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,mommadontloveme,2019/02/13,"I fell off the wagon So, I just woke up...I don't remember shit. All I have is messages from my SO saying we need to talk, I have glimpses of him being uncomfortable. I don't remember much. I went to a strip club and we took someone's car... I fucked up. I'm still drunk and I don't know if I should keep drinking or sober up. 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The people the process. I guess I'm just going to die like the rest. I Get pats on the back for being sober, I get some fucking sleep and relief otherwise. This is a shit life but it's a life. I think I've dug my hole too deep ",-0.3644930875576051,1.6278477580645188,1.5675115207373267,99.59983870967743,87.54838709677419,4.833179723502305,16.921658986175114,6.1826913282559595,-0.5719889400921656,219,5,54,2,7,72,48,62,0.085,0.8440000000000001,0.071,-0.2067,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,4,4,2,0,7,0,3,5,2,0,0,6,10,2,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,5,2,3,9,2,5,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,2,3,29,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285128393010056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3084256016204047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2747378365169263,0.3105282468076083,0.0,0.16889406744320326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3273769350163465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4198136101421307,0.1451869863601335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2060269799844872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3050506831985389,0.0,0.0,0.29739431156824897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1904207470107748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2017655034459392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21635035513179016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,jewlzes,2019/02/13,"Why does drunk me feel worse? When I’m depressed i go straight to drinking, but i always end up feeling more lonely once i’m drunk. why hasn’t my brain caught on and made me leas alcoholic",3.185384615384617,4.538062923076922,3.3979487179487187,93.85538461538464,73.61538461538461,6.225641025641028,25.82051282051281,6.42735559955562,0.6906512820512818,150,5,33,1,3,46,32,39,0.29600000000000004,0.63,0.075,-0.8587,0,2,2,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,5,1,1,0,5,8,3,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,2,3,0,2,1,2,0,0,2,2,5,0,3,6,1,7,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,13,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2855903451305874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22235890456053364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2983199255811604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2301670196836281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2338570215573759,0.0,0.0,0.2617861806448893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2366887368770881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2702416321645258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15187442706494128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2528619177435975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2845939639426324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4822716554382773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27233281763545114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,newhappyrainbow,2019/02/13,"Advice about weening off heavy drinking. I know the best choice is to talk to a doctor. Let’s assume I’m too poor for a doctor and that my problem is in the early stages of needing to make a change. My question is if anyone knows of an effective way to ween off/lower intake. I have trouble sleeping if I don’t drink. I also feel like I might be too heavy a drinker to quit cold without some Ill effects. I’m a highly functioning alcoholic. I drink daily, but I’m capable of not drinking when necessary. I don’t drink before or during work, I don’t have withdrawals, I don’t drive after drinking. I DO choose to go home and drink rather than socialize. I DO maintain a functioning relationship (no kids). I DO think that alcohol is effecting my daily life and my friendships, in that I’d rather drink at home than engage publicly. Not because engaging means not drinking (quite the opposite, it would be hard not to drink in any of my circles) it means drinking in public and worrying about driving or alternative transportation as, once I start, I have a hard time realizing when I have had enough that I shouldn’t drive. (Far easier to just go home and not drive ever). 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To sum this long story up, he has feelings for me and since I don't reciprocate them our friendship is ending. He said he can't be friends with me and I told him I respected that. I have a strong feeling that he's going to reach out to me again, what should I do or say if that happens? 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The second I have a chance to (off work or the weekends) it all goes out the window, ill do it tommorow no doubt is always my justification. I have been drinking every single day for the last 4 or 5 years easily...before that it was when I drink I won't stop drinking until I pass out and wake up covered in my own piss. I have a very good handle on that kind of thing now, which I thought was a positive thing, but it isn't...I recently tried to stop for a while 100%, (I work in QC and check peoples work through a computer) My hands were shaking so bad I couldn't even type in my password to get started...I had to go home ""sick"" because I simply could not type. Maybe it was a mix of anxiety once I had trouble doing it that just amplified it but regardless that is ridiculous. So what? AA? Tried it, I don't like it...is that something i have to get over? What is a better way to look at it? I don't want this anymore, its ridiculous...but how, its so easy to hate it up until you crave it, and I really do. No excuses, I know its as simple as just stop doing it, but I can't...it conquers my thought process, I don't feel like I need it (most of the time) but I want it, badly.",0.7015849056603791,2.4200899509433995,2.8375849056603784,93.59826415094341,81.56603773584905,5.749433962264153,21.543396226415094,6.742157984588678,0.31981056603773617,947,29,221,10,25,321,140,265,0.195,0.7070000000000001,0.099,-0.9773,0,0,4,0,0,0,51.0,0,1,0,5,10,13,3,2,12,0,25,9,3,2,1,34,39,21,0,6,10,0,2,2,0,1,3,0,2,0,30,5,3,3,6,4,1,3,9,8,1,1,9,3,27,5,30,27,4,29,0,0,1,0,2,11,1,5,16,153,57,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11313962866939613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10401823741351174,0.0,0.13484772558755773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270619454733083,0.08288729272862677,0.0,0.1157021900974208,0.0,0.0,0.12025621855633098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14384038766780516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1085626087354304,0.0,0.0,0.08769071625840771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39960249841326817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08980824916111227,0.0,0.11456230700849693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06875154825603673,0.09713845159695872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14207955633609934,0.0,0.07727604305510033,0.114046894889784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342442378121215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13639104127205848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14159395433756508,0.07472667647902716,0.11083535946528217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13285813976596772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11418226705285725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13660218873185556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10082154378107078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448057835401654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0942658911400042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08710716973738228,0.0,0.13425598440126554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12378383725587007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046779183637532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3410361382681079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18066756128408795,0.0,0.0,0.2158932209655573,0.07928638920877926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1846321776407646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11219117204963977,0.1603996626475366,0.10792827532170857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2969677907207616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08756153488743326 alcoholism,Autistic_Weeb002,2019/10/10,"So I was wondering if I'm an alcoholic.... I started drinking when I was 15 which is normal in my country, actually it is expected, I'm now 18 which is a legal drinking age here and wonder if my drinking has grown into a problem. Personally I think about myself as a social drinker, someone who will get drunk on weekends or parties. I've never considered myself an alcoholic since I can go for a few weeks without drinking, but I'll always get almost shitfaced drunk when I go out. So, should I be worried? I've never gotten drunk by myself when I was alone, only when I go out with my friends on some party...",5.85822904368359,5.763970123966942,7.242337662337666,73.92636363636367,66.76859504132231,9.228335301062572,35.467532467532465,8.841846274778883,3.168642502951593,479,22,86,7,7,165,76,121,0.132,0.8059999999999999,0.062,-0.8018,0,1,7,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,9,2,0,0,6,0,11,9,0,0,2,21,23,12,0,6,5,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,4,5,9,0,3,8,0,4,3,1,0,0,4,0,15,1,12,16,2,21,0,0,0,0,4,6,0,7,11,65,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.1462944037272784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3204248720021178,0.15011718013689007,0.1552656552436276,0.0,0.0,0.12474042758651567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5874344483648855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11582315687702728,0.0,0.156647717666246,0.0,0.25559868190095925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312457822150577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14688385518502842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11401632516960973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308990911038475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14344741743335548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12401038036914848,0.0,0.0,0.15281840740939287,0.12702161539256435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1061098754763183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09605881501021844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12025193942461848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14451171181369812,0.3251505985853366,0.0,0.15224490766019955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,loneeagle_308,2019/10/10,Struggling here. I started drinking with my grandpa at 17. Went in the Navy at 18. Continued drinking. Drinking and more drinking. I did self refered. Intensive outpatient. Then I got shitty shore duty. I was drunk alot in Japan. And got flown to San Diego for inpatient. I was sober 45 days. My escort from Japan picked me up. We ordered a beer before flying back to Japan. And the Navy processed me out. I have 2 dd214s. Benefits. But I'm lost.,0.3601190476190439,2.1484490595238093,1.5419047619047603,92.3197619047619,111.9761904761905,4.2476190476190485,22.523809523809533,6.139981653823899,0.8816952380952388,347,15,64,5,18,109,62,84,0.133,0.836,0.031,-0.8176,0,0,5,0,0,0,17.0,1,0,0,1,2,3,0,1,4,0,4,6,0,1,0,11,10,5,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,6,1,1,6,0,1,0,2,0,0,7,0,11,1,11,3,2,13,0,1,0,0,3,6,0,1,5,38,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15573864984537664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17234428934063767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306197761909407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7936376260442478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.323975095376742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22109334298662428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21129053226579514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14335691396253822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21173591805301148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1877540676884038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Zoeyz93,2019/10/10,"Need advice for my mom Over the past few years my brother and I have noticed a change in my mothers alcohol intake. We have tried to inform our dad on this but he doesn’t want to answer any of our questions and doesn’t force her to get any help, but he berates her when she has more than enough to drink. She’s a stay at home wife, her excuse is that she’s a grown woman and she can have as many drinks as she wants. At food stores she makes us feel guilty by saying she isn’t going to buy alcohol because we’re going to yell at her but then buys it later in the week. Whenever I come to visit she has like 6 drinks a night after just coming from dinner in which she had drinks there too. She acts very miserable and thinks everything is her fault which is not, but whenever she drinks its like she’s this whole new person who talks to everybody. One time she was visiting her father in the hospital and got drunk and got into a huge fight. She promised she would go to AA but never did, we had to get rid of all the alcohol in the house , but by the next week there’s already more purchased. Over time , I think everybody in the family just gave up and let her do anything she wants, but it makes me angry to see her this way",4.857176470588231,4.6638521294117625,5.246274509803921,87.72823529411768,68.88235294117646,8.682352941176473,25.235294117647058,8.238735603445708,1.1890470588235291,963,21,215,12,15,307,146,255,0.086,0.8420000000000001,0.07200000000000001,-0.7776,0,0,8,0,1,0,15.0,5,0,0,0,6,6,1,1,12,0,19,11,0,2,2,37,39,18,0,5,10,6,1,2,0,1,3,2,1,2,10,12,11,0,6,6,4,9,5,3,1,1,7,4,36,3,35,30,6,40,0,1,1,0,50,15,0,1,16,142,46,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1033778508835258,0.0,0.33917557881502663,0.0,0.0,0.1167431234519193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14388316864298678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08705707170904284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06448928034277374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11191296976356224,0.1822593522941191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5181750764100304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10931049909567526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0950782305831931,0.0,0.09973044582140247,0.0,0.05349116521394127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1279230333205082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1105429799659886,0.0,0.180370581797497,0.0,0.16922163394751202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07090955281618737,0.0,0.10611711164983932,0.0,0.0,0.12206874019049342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10817858023324682,0.0,0.1033683878328409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1412327783264357,0.10725558363699952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12390127251881748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07844276954220204,0.08159262787690984,0.10217371580599724,0.11251004845798693,0.09927779271849038,0.0,0.0,0.12044388291014395,0.0,0.0,0.07168679581486158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10098958752101657,0.0,0.09237271899670124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11851025758119438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08412933890919877,0.0,0.0,0.0843018199460656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11275925011013123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08503088903736387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13557334663317927,0.0,0.0,0.1233752970504565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07182522116601728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12725368277998755,0.0,0.0,0.08728874726288154,0.18719501755045487,0.08397206103620128,0.1697184986634659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11811199923503335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07515097111836794,0.0,0.0,0.06812600803704401 alcoholism,Zigzagx3,2019/10/10,"Has anyone you love ever addressed your alcoholism in a way that has helped? What worked or made things ""click"" for you? I'm 6 months in to a serious relationship and I need to either address his drinking or break it off. I've since started drinking again (recovering alcoholic) and.. you know. I really don't know how to go about this conversation. Any help is very appreciated.",3.1980000000000004,6.101151871428577,4.51107142857143,78.30517857142857,80.28571428571428,8.071428571428571,25.892857142857146,8.841846274778883,2.500285714285715,301,12,54,8,8,99,56,70,0.019,0.8270000000000001,0.155,0.8898,0,0,4,0,0,0,12.0,0,4,0,1,4,2,0,0,2,0,4,5,0,2,1,11,12,5,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,5,2,4,0,2,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,1,7,1,8,11,1,10,0,0,1,1,10,3,0,2,4,34,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4616899382634479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14689164417441272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15103657903325066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42320774368229136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19539000243002244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1227613188802778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2895688466991466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2374227508922571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1949540568244548,0.20439031848019404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1724141126766724,0.0,0.0,0.16016588319985184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1383791226637282,0.0,0.0,0.2319098539005161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17868258633892956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15289032200184433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14350494166933284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17822776248671965,0.0,0.1714556918179599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15725510870964496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,pupusaconqueso,2019/10/10,"I don’t know what I am. As I type this, I can’t stop myself from crying. I don’t know if I can be considered an alcoholic because I don’t drink regularly, but when I do I get violent. I black out and don’t remember anything. I become a different person and it is now starting to effect my family. Last night I had whiskey after whiskey after whiskey and I ended up slapping my sister. I woke up with a feeling I’ve had a few times before - shame, regret, embarrassment and self loathing. I don’t know what to do. I’m not looking for a pity party, I’m looking for help.",2.053865546218489,3.60172703361345,4.5199075630252095,83.85229831932776,76.98319327731093,7.449075630252103,27.026050420168072,8.238735603445708,1.8493018487394959,443,18,92,8,10,156,72,119,0.22,0.684,0.096,-0.9483,1,0,5,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,1,2,5,1,2,5,0,14,5,0,1,0,17,25,8,0,2,3,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,4,6,5,1,6,4,0,0,7,5,0,0,3,4,18,0,12,21,1,13,0,2,3,0,4,3,0,1,10,63,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288808305834065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17624230155843515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13055503671710342,0.2365321133160141,0.18224148936645224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.235253873013456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2237603395909688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.209803445679728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18968958723515045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2018988574042177,0.0,0.10828995146833392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11189412202748222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14355252876609406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35310396818270395,0.17457578777386856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3596949442258579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20098248584360032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18700354006391606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2426109879443209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22342429468633107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15158945858585565,0.0,0.0,0.1790543282238434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1248832856467964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,CompulsiveAddict,2019/10/10,"Common cold when trying to stop drinking So usually whenever I try to take a break from drinking (2-4 drinks an evening.. more on weekends) I begin to get a cold, it always starts the same, with a sore throat. I can usually stop it in its tracks by having a drink to ‘kill the germs’. This time I have been more strict with myself and decided to see it though for sober October. Lo and behold I now have a full blown cold, runny nose etc. Does anyone else get this? I don’t get any other withdrawal symptoms other than insomnia.",3.68355769230769,5.1599702403846175,4.570384615384615,85.4496153846154,72.55769230769229,7.892307692307693,24.538461538461537,8.472884824447931,1.5192730769230771,411,12,82,7,8,133,75,104,0.073,0.9159999999999999,0.012,-0.7003,0,0,4,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,5,1,1,0,8,0,6,9,2,0,0,8,13,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,8,4,4,2,1,5,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,5,7,0,13,12,5,15,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,11,54,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13418724277190558,0.0,0.0,0.10966723714221352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11276178725538046,0.16523732073166106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14112602770576918,0.0,0.0,0.6319219074397365,0.0,0.0,0.1347180658242466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17985557518827458,0.10651547538940916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2527663933038064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1784182810607861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12850909201874872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141457657034404,0.0,0.0,0.2696532277150408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16761838580371802,0.12125287667143153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584442211726361,0.0,0.0940362106751737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21897970795875965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35522611008943705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,boredlawyer22,2019/10/10,"What makes an alcoholic an alcoholic? We all know there are various types of drinkers (social, daily, bingers, etc.), but I’m curious as to your thoughts on what actually makes someone an alcoholic? I’ll elaborate and give a little context to my question. I’m in my late 20s and I am (and always have been) a binge drinker. For quite awhile, my drinking “routine” has been one night a week (Friday). Usually, my one night consists of 12-18 beers (sometimes more, rarely less than 8 though). But it’s also pretty rare that I drink more than that one night per week. Over the last couple months, I’ve taken steps to analyze my relationship with alcohol and I’ve made a diligent effort to cut back (e.g. I’ve only drank one of the last 3 weekends). While I like the idea of drinking consciously on occasion instead of out of “routine”, I’m not sure this is a feasible approach based on my track record. I guess I’m torn between wondering if I have a problem I’m subconsciously minimizing, or if I’m over-analyzing an excessive but not necessarily problematic routine. Thoughts? Last, and for context, I feel like my confusion is partially due to my demographic. As a late 20s single male, I don’t feel like my behavior is particularly novel. As an example, I don’t know of any of my friends (who drink) who don’t drink excessively on fairly regular occasion. Are we all alcoholics? Am I just an alcoholic? Is this the natural progression of growing up and maturing (ie, you get to the point where you’re like “I’m too old for this, I’m going to stop drinking)?",4.513093419506465,6.253891560810814,5.853454759106934,76.01833725029378,70.89189189189189,9.877555816686252,33.13983548766157,10.176274734539398,3.68611562867215,1226,60,227,35,23,412,163,296,0.057,0.818,0.126,0.9699,0,0,15,0,0,0,52.0,2,2,0,3,8,9,1,1,18,0,16,14,0,3,3,39,40,18,0,3,9,0,2,4,1,0,6,0,0,1,10,10,14,1,10,9,0,4,5,3,0,4,7,2,23,6,34,33,8,33,0,0,0,0,12,11,0,7,22,136,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0808572206123156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5312984756432737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06626132010358222,0.06894429325840841,0.0,0.0,0.056346117575606085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0637125023273107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09168053458475406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4870143584773723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.092408303977286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08379074530613115,0.11838719946903956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0640156992271495,0.0,0.04328975935869524,0.07948471271389408,0.04708997401616332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0912771632348495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09353632466560527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09107291508708744,0.2026203978988977,0.18693432283493772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16192046336933374,0.0830452422415808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07840201518015741,0.11061639534581856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06613627289131961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23326918223671064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08694528011428082,0.0,0.2245862480621449,0.06301705959190865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07832736444689463,0.0,0.0,0.08429612901747283,0.0,0.07928368537800069,0.0,0.0,0.0928196532028602,0.08812942608172261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08895822473948664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08446305098969406,0.07020511049401268,0.0,0.08194844252490628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06927279682340456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07809245747297887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08140732773081047,0.1315596110205193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09125611571242967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13292699306859634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08985570538655813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,HarmlessButterfly,2019/10/10,"I think I have a problem (21F) I drink regularly. At least 6 beers a week. Often more, sometimes everyday of the week, sometimes every other day. I try to keep my limit to 6 beers at a time, and then.. I head out to buy a few more. I can go all my daily chores and go to work and school. But I still think I might be drinking to often. What should I do?",-0.3189473684210533,1.5094910526315817,2.2439473684210505,95.89513157894736,85.84210526315789,4.852631578947369,17.394736842105264,5.985473137389443,-0.5071263157894741,264,6,64,2,8,91,49,76,0.043,0.9570000000000001,0.0,-0.4019,0,0,4,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,5,0,6,5,1,0,1,15,11,5,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,4,4,2,2,4,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,11,0,9,8,5,12,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,7,46,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1398615850477081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4248951405711689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18272020720773027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465015757438293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22256860305169146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1927617826766856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23006212737602355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20751289191354166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21948147003244736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4289749704514249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17319065145858714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.277919851792651,0.0,0.0,0.12645717289811909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14723878488774156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34791602602128346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15788210995231589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ChefRobH,2019/10/10,"Evening 5pm to 10pm Why is it i cant cope at that time, i can go with out a drink any other time in the day but the anxiety, desire and dread ramp right up then, if those times didnt exist i would be fine.",-1.4387755102040811,0.019608387755104317,1.236081632653061,103.65534693877552,87.57142857142857,4.736326530612245,13.881632653061226,5.6839178017228535,-1.3152155102040817,157,2,45,1,5,54,43,49,0.124,0.758,0.11800000000000001,-0.0772,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,3,0,6,1,0,0,0,7,7,4,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,6,4,0,11,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,1,5,27,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2361746602209814,0.0,0.2656821441200777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22397858389333544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3402199819765649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.229387161233469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19737754953851566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2965907336215828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6075370552796304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31338257335972564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24671065054449584,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,maxypooeffyou,2019/10/10,"Valium for WD Last post didn't go so bullet points. Don't want to rewrite my novel. - drinking daily for about three years, usually just a few a night, binging on weekends. - would stop for a couple days to make sure I didn't have shakes, never had them. (Obviously I knew it was a problem, not good for liver, heart or brain, regardless of not having shakes or anything) - over the last few months it's been a crutch for deaths in the family and general stress. Was hitting it pretty hard. About a liter of liquor plus some beers a week. Probably about 30 normal shitty beers every two weeks. Actually I went through two last week, which was like... Fuck this is just not good I don't want fatty liver. -Got by today with probably...oh idk six standard drinks and a little bud. - going on a week vacay to a dry county. - have 30, 10mg Valium. My plan is to take three/day the first two days, then two for two, then cut it down and be done with it by the end of the week. Horrible idea? Obviously I have more than I'd need for that but you get the idea. I'm assuming I'm probably worring about it too much. Not like I was drinking a fifth a day or anything too crazy but I expect if I don't take some Valium it'll be a bit uncomfortable. Also I know Valium has a long half life and those initial doses would build up fast but when I do take benzos (without tolorence) they still don't hit me like other people. Think I'm just a ball of stress. Drinking this much and being hungover constantly has not helped at all. Leaves me much more emotional and I end up having panic attacks. Tldr: Is a week or so Valium taper for a liter + a half case of beer per week lush a viable idea?",1.9427157079646025,3.971742286135697,3.474305862831862,89.02216675884958,78.9410029498525,6.597382005899704,20.033278023598818,7.645422480735847,0.6288118731563421,1301,32,273,20,32,429,185,339,0.142,0.826,0.032,-0.9826,0,0,7,0,1,0,51.0,0,1,2,2,14,15,3,5,25,0,30,15,4,1,5,53,51,21,1,10,17,0,1,3,1,3,2,0,0,0,13,9,8,1,7,11,0,5,13,9,0,10,12,1,18,6,37,31,11,47,0,0,0,1,5,10,1,8,34,174,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.07544079306248606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06182263624851968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272346754704234,0.0,0.0,0.08794823748038468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08439957153145239,0.0,0.0,0.08630053670907104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08354174949800748,0.0,0.0,0.08553907968997222,0.0,0.19942730490924546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07911222936794053,0.0,0.3029269714204907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08696033024651435,0.13694267981390762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06513475173234079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07287846156263911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06575756729828333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07146937205982339,0.04038988420295419,0.0,0.0878710635406167,0.12968342517647605,0.06182972633701051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06925217443479167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09160954697574278,0.05181746734184775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618116647896001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04248608156855101,0.18904735275801826,0.0,0.08185729008055859,0.0,0.0,0.054604446696181724,0.11330535551237338,0.07748224447152073,0.0,0.06841454589536881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05160323671409377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06170596564332319,0.0,0.17048932691656066,0.057322398570101324,0.05962417139065855,0.0,0.0,0.07254768331844208,0.07574476016110045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0907034837774124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05359516211363168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07308040577724331,0.0,0.07403904329193955,0.07864933740014285,0.16670073358156368,0.07397266510694266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061737725988306486,0.06463238150456684,0.17711054880563806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07286123464726989,0.0,0.17437645193335158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049535409423609233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07327830049668539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3775900945249609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08514309160039447,0.0,0.09119572115219038,0.0,0.4340788856205973,0.0,0.0,0.07166466058346252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07452149821374197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10983380481128102,0.0,0.0,0.04978337976183262 alcoholism,chair_puddles,2019/10/10,"Dreading Halloween My best friend committed suicide on Halloween 9 years ago. She was 26 and a raging alcoholic and her suicide was a direct result of her drinking problem. I didn’t used to have drinking issues before that but I am now a drunk. I’m drunk now writing this. You would think the consequences of her actions would have kept me from going down that road, but they didn’t. Her death drove me to drink, and 9 years later I am still spiraling out of control. I am so ashamed... her family would be so sad to see the person I have become, and as much as I hate to say it I partly blame her for it. I blame myself too obviously, but I wasn’t like this before she died. Nine years should be long enough to get over it, right? You would think it would be... sorry, guess I just needed to vent and have nowhere else to do it. Everyone else has forgotten about her and I feel like they expected me to do the same but I can’t. I miss her so much and I fucking hate Halloween. :(",1.8831020733652293,3.958833833333337,3.0156246677299308,92.00308612440192,79.35353535353536,5.986602870813397,22.037214247740565,7.0608816371341465,0.578107070707071,761,23,162,9,19,244,107,198,0.264,0.679,0.057,-0.9933,3,0,4,0,0,2,26.0,0,2,2,2,9,13,4,2,6,0,25,7,0,3,2,34,41,16,4,9,5,0,1,2,1,6,1,1,0,1,9,8,6,2,3,5,0,3,4,9,0,1,7,3,33,4,20,25,6,18,0,2,1,1,18,6,1,1,11,119,42,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1078915140371284,0.1300745232359702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344227989349474,0.207138140688598,0.0,0.1277306197733933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365118373911282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12631920965847185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3576981493010129,0.0,0.0,0.20335172117699496,0.0,0.0,0.1257623951367396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11630229275863754,0.0,0.0,0.11474048548233773,0.0,0.06154191145053928,0.0869520198201155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0940354087766616,0.11252200267995068,0.06359018594319715,0.0,0.06917248439605098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13408094358708356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2403334093775352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1270370835176636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11892595992909345,0.0,0.0,0.10771245772444417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1789465887956446,0.09024888423711276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13180366421765552,0.0,0.0,0.10627537594673524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11646320908541455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10394250988230468,0.0,0.0967913169368187,0.0,0.0,0.09698975742050044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13624809644211694,0.0,0.0,0.09720041423192337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662692334763656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15597796122373225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10512122925008212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4323082504831329,0.0,0.0,0.2351381618249988 alcoholism,hp987,2019/10/10,"Rehab options I’m out of control. My alcoholism has gotten to the point where I’m physically addicted to it. The problem is I also work in the beer industry. One thing that separates myself from other alcoholics is my size. I’m 6’8 and obese. I can consume so much alcohol in a day that, if I told you, you wouldn’t believe me. Alcoholism has been in EVERY single person on my dad’s side of the family for generations. I wish I had been more proactive about controlling myself in my adolescence and early 20’s. But I didn’t, and here we are I’m getting so tired of this shit. I’m not enjoying it anymore. What I’m getting at is, I don’t even know where to begin to do research for rehabilitation. Any advice as to what to google, or even other subreddits are appreciated. Cheers",2.515892473118281,4.779445793548391,4.960000000000004,77.9066666666667,78.16129032258064,8.262365591397849,26.46236559139785,9.029198982220553,2.494862365591398,618,25,116,16,15,217,99,155,0.084,0.8370000000000001,0.08,-0.1591,0,0,5,0,0,0,17.0,1,2,0,3,9,4,1,0,5,0,15,10,1,2,0,16,28,10,0,4,4,1,0,0,0,1,8,0,0,1,10,5,6,2,1,1,0,0,4,2,0,1,6,0,17,2,21,21,3,14,0,0,0,0,6,11,1,3,3,87,27,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16603401226469652,0.0,0.1488298596947132,0.0,0.6510673014962425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12179757947127146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10357204961483203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510447985751911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17159462995071806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34164412592656607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09822358157286973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011909188060108,0.0,0.12832282124900926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14357880466690834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15914527200908732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08370238168859094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11196107986859792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10320523856807737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13298611540481406,0.0,0.0,0.14397665758971395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1457345092960239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15633802867623678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10118411446809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17505122383237154,0.0,0.14553314903723727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17514226431822202,0.0,0.0,0.11087924036116313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,nut-coco-nut,2019/10/10,"Should I text my dad after his relapse? Hello. About 30 minutes ago I found out from my mom that my step dad is an alcoholic. They had been keeping this from me for a while now. My step dad was sober for more than a year and just relapsed yesterday. Long story short, my mom said she couldn’t handle it anymore and told him she was done. He broke some stuff and left. I love my step dad, and he is one of the most important men in my life. I wouldn’t be where I am without him. I’m debating whether I should text him or not. What would I even say? I know that relapse is very tricky... I just don’t want him to feel like he’s alone... but would it trigger him even more to get a message from his step son whom he let down? I don’t know. Any feedback is appreciated. Thanks guys.",0.2998238482384821,2.391756109756102,1.6340650406504054,99.57502710027106,85.46341463414635,4.863956639566396,18.86720867208672,6.139981653823899,-0.3874758807588083,598,16,145,5,18,190,104,164,0.012,0.8859999999999999,0.102,0.9183,0,1,1,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,1,0,7,4,0,0,5,0,20,3,0,1,0,27,32,8,0,7,7,7,1,1,0,5,2,2,0,2,8,5,1,1,4,0,0,4,6,1,0,1,8,3,28,3,15,16,4,17,0,1,0,1,30,6,0,3,8,96,36,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1567865738058278,0.18902264019185236,0.0,0.1831863044955788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12027919217128775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17540974058021516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18100171591394051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2336449001074967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08943192175865873,0.12635756755068692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1939312879159044,0.0,0.0,0.09240844815912412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1751313308941158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15721217861996525,0.0,0.0,0.19440872107400625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1921722122945837,0.18086385452042916,0.12493009775484078,0.08641084500600825,0.0,0.0,0.15652637145317194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15963410714852191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4143012725702671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11985321106395976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16824600884011418,0.1406559087812547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20247640482315965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16284020015266604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16900901030190466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14593812612612134,0.10432383301819098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17049853299458462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2512899370303286,0.0,0.0,0.11389992713994505 alcoholism,Aphm13,2019/10/10,"Sugar/food cravings Hi everyone. I just got through the first 72 hours of detox. I haven't been sober this long in at least 3 years. I work full time and I have no family or friends that can support me so I cannot go to in patient treatment. I have rent to pay for and cats to take care of, however I'm starting IOP in less than a week. My detox was so terrible that so far I don't feel tempted to drink atm but I'm sure I will soon. My problem is right now I can't stop eating food especially sugar. I understand why I'm craving sugar but I'm wondering if anyone has any tips on curbing that. For the last few months of drinking I was only eating once a day if that and it's great to have an appetite back but I'm having a really hard time controlling it. Thanks for letting me vent. Any tips would be appreciated.",0.8270584457289658,2.9067882023121387,2.8912813102119483,91.45197655748235,83.16184971098265,6.156583172768142,22.32787411689145,7.3871296695380915,0.7968910725754652,641,22,143,10,18,216,113,173,0.064,0.7879999999999999,0.14800000000000002,0.9464,2,0,2,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,3,7,8,0,0,6,0,18,9,0,1,1,19,33,12,0,4,7,0,2,0,1,2,2,0,1,0,7,3,7,3,3,2,3,1,5,2,0,1,4,4,15,6,18,25,4,24,0,0,0,0,2,8,0,4,15,86,22,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20260942053519304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1041632896463804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11454873674359548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15188484613165826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16708252525814976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09607332779151873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2918677784410414,0.0,0.3048670064260007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14234722159478214,0.0,0.0,0.14043566059994278,0.0,0.07532370943706747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12671380823595427,0.3602702372851265,0.0,0.11509385458691428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08466308557665983,0.0,0.11914491986618875,0.1642399539398061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1334478617715247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14670544498472332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12143043500089908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.152331920836151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13183376461923907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11890643493660022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15864819107151665,0.0,0.11329839993515295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14254417379136072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09543399835519767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272195683883918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10544173468931968,0.0,0.0,0.12454559273235953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16904939374385086,0.14040246460227626,0.0,0.11200690252078736,0.0,0.0,0.1371515637791354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1737312131745906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15508302656982406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11949475047227437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344222566782397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16155161334516965,0.10845193622459952,0.0,0.0,0.10582401579388434,0.0,0.0,0.09593179759621716 alcoholism,ayyruffin,2019/10/10,Hives Can excessive drinking cause hives?,9.044999999999998,13.567113500000005,4.449999999999998,73.84500000000001,80.66666666666666,9.066666666666668,39.333333333333336,8.841846274778883,5.496533333333336,35,2,4,1,1,9,5,6,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7236938845603346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6901211208548637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,bloopinganon,2019/06/28,"How do I provide support to somebody who has a loved one dying from essentially alcoholism? My fiancé’s dad has stage 3 lived disease, alcoholic hepatitis and cirrhosis. He won’t be put on the donor list for a new liver since he’s refusing to quit. He can’t even receive a donation for any of his children for some reason. I just know that the doctor won’t allow it. He’s not willing to do a rehab course or anything. We’ve been informed that he has about 1-3 years left. The entire family is upset but my partner is incredibly pissed off at his father. The fact that he wouldn’t quit for his life and would put alcohol on top of his family and all of that. Does anyone advice for me to help him through this and for him on how to get through this?",3.7796434937611423,4.861232359477125,5.1822578728461135,82.68197860962569,71.81045751633988,8.439453357100417,27.63458110516934,8.841846274778883,2.0572666666666666,593,21,120,11,11,199,99,153,0.066,0.856,0.079,-0.19,0,0,3,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,3,5,4,1,1,8,0,15,9,2,4,2,20,19,8,1,2,4,2,0,0,1,5,6,0,0,2,8,4,3,1,3,0,1,3,5,2,0,1,1,0,11,2,23,12,2,13,0,0,0,1,22,7,1,2,2,79,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15862538080241073,0.0,0.5204389033878193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11038884162317404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11350375370848875,0.0,0.1335823973255993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1684711946043643,0.0,0.0,0.1661499403717945,0.14205462932487056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10721634144873153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3060574351432022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08480986082741518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10880526845803158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08921141360111831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17637022268283709,0.0,0.1146573112611812,0.0,0.0,0.14333890333846716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14650766981025287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15677772790986114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10999788820768774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32636964584681155,0.0,0.34531235430809026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16690057523476454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13427968510426044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842082831409324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11531339943169375,0.0,0.0,0.10453413255417476 alcoholism,rek3435,2019/06/28,"Binge Drinkig I believe the effects of chronic alcoholism are more well known, but what are the major long term effects of binge drinking? For example, would blacking out one night be cause to worry about liver health, brain damage, and increased cancer risk, or even warrant a visit to the doc, or is excessive binge drinking once every few years less dangerous than drinking consistently over a long period of time?",18.68083333333333,10.979960972222226,15.166666666666668,50.445000000000036,50.38888888888889,17.733333333333334,58.22222222222222,13.023866798666859,7.413505555555558,338,16,49,6,2,102,58,72,0.24,0.71,0.05,-0.9619,0,0,5,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,3,4,1,1,5,0,5,9,2,3,0,10,5,4,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,2,4,0,3,3,0,2,0,3,1,1,0,1,1,1,10,3,6,11,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,2,7,32,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2166550608680932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2284055421685176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2263119980663136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2082579636910998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5957901084797866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1339002301600779,0.0,0.1708074638955278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2154908638090173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3588165999610293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19024691841983712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21589918438065267,0.13737404530982686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182125902997125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18227722450043052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20588058305136656,0.0,0.14401247529816238,0.0,0.0,0.13055047597647434 alcoholism,pimporro,2019/06/28,"My wife started to drink heavily in 6th month of pregnancy She was sober for years, currently she is drinking HEAVILY since monday. I am terrified, her AA friends did want to help, and made her sober for 1 day, I am searching for any suggestions, what normally did help her was 'giving her opportunity to drink till she had to ask for help'. &#x200B; I am absolutely exhausted",7.741521739130434,8.133776159420293,7.896920289855075,69.1697282608696,62.76811594202898,12.697101449275365,38.98913043478261,12.161744961471696,5.121373913043478,301,15,53,10,4,98,47,69,0.086,0.723,0.19,0.7357,1,0,3,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,9,4,0,1,0,4,14,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,6,0,11,2,11,8,0,8,0,0,0,0,15,1,0,0,7,33,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21882374114247055,0.2454036912493842,0.13733982938871686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1888054802183553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13024759078664408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5935321880286466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15603391304217212,0.0,0.0,0.1937385813404015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4061088997825629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19109957973814465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16120266712451933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1978780695087886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16706352536557664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1429484356100423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11912133070773633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2454036912493842,0.1300557168567476 alcoholism,honey_y_y,2019/06/28,What things or activities can I replace alcohol with? What worked for you?,3.55846153846154,6.78508061538462,4.191153846153849,76.59134615384617,89.0,8.753846153846155,29.57692307692308,8.841846274778883,3.6664153846153855,60,3,10,2,2,19,12,13,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,9,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7351145322900181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4569844795550305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5007712150891321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,always_in_love,2019/06/28,"Here I am again in the hospital well, I fucked up again. in the hospital right now. I'm so tired of this. this have me on a 72 hold for trying to escape here. and then they want to take me to generals for further help. I don't want there help. I just wanna go home and drink some leftover vodka. but I'm also here due to my suicidal ideations and auditory hallucinations. that's the main reason I drink.a few days ago I was so drunk that as I was trying to exit my room my drunk ass missed and I ran straight into the wall. It left me with a gnarly black eye and apparently a fractured part of my neck. I've been to hospitals, treatments and whatnot soooo many times now. I'm tired. I just wanna drink",0.9342844827586204,3.1967250965517238,2.592650862068965,92.61587284482759,84.24137931034483,5.831896551724138,20.09698275862069,7.1686216300943375,0.3876982758620695,549,16,122,8,16,180,91,145,0.20800000000000002,0.72,0.07200000000000001,-0.9819,1,0,4,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,0,14,3,1,0,7,0,6,10,3,1,0,19,16,12,1,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,5,8,4,1,1,5,0,2,1,2,1,0,4,2,17,1,19,12,4,23,0,1,2,2,3,12,2,1,9,80,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15906522224142053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1435003486445208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11572576616060724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5273569114465344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1658919843981128,0.0,0.0,0.1019814829891314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2405534632829337,0.0,0.1799957671931847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19496513582291947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18192684254541475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1943190743787337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18449709267581355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1532431774853968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19628130709332509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13491865960573968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10463454432571526,0.41248622114892575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24365977525391916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21168003460126103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16134063451450345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,teddykgb123,2019/06/28,Going sober Hi i’m going sober for a long time from today. My problem has been that I like it and I usually go 5 days and slip. What happens is I feel like it’s easy which makes me think i don’t have a problem which makes me drink again. Any tips or views on feeling like you don’t have a problem but the past kinda states it?,-0.24875000000000114,1.7361927361111142,1.5227777777777796,100.17500000000004,86.91666666666669,4.155555555555557,17.333333333333336,5.148860815047168,-0.8364499999999997,255,6,62,1,8,83,51,72,0.084,0.7879999999999999,0.128,0.2263,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,1,6,0,0,4,0,7,1,0,2,0,13,17,4,0,3,2,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,2,1,0,3,1,0,3,2,3,0,0,1,3,8,3,3,16,0,12,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,2,10,34,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351493255903934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281702047609697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1946885456445073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2009768056094544,0.2839583427430843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3388438372074564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17574422905246814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.291281489726678,0.0,0.0,0.1758777487371372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2653196328951668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897188500064725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5704991082010216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1273439175569609,0.0,0.0,0.11588630100478667,0.0,0.1883813208721875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2188829155440017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,mlucia11,2019/06/28,"Boyfriend is an Alcoholic Just need some advice. I’ve been dating my boyfriend for almost 2 years he’s 22, we’ve had our ups and downs but for the most part everything has been good. He’s always been a big drinker when i am not at all. He’s gone to see someone to get help for drinking but it hasn’t worked. The only time we get into arguments 95% of the time is when he drinks. He’s made promises to me that he won’t drink if I come over and then he does anyways making it seem like he doesn’t care about my feelings. He drinks almost everyday to the point of getting drunk with beer and hard alcohol. I’ve given him so many chances to change and nothing seems to happen. I stay with him because i love him and know who he can be but I’m getting to the point where I’ve realized I can’t help him. He’s ruined a lot of events for me because he’s been drunk, I also hate having him around my friends because I feel like they all think that he’s a drunk and it makes me embarrassed. I hate getting on his case about calling someone to talk to about it, i just don’t know what to do anymore. Has anyone ever been in a similar situation before?",2.4549499782514133,3.743442198347112,3.6153849499782527,91.82776642018273,75.36363636363636,6.582340147890387,24.720313179643327,7.0608816371341465,0.7989801652892563,900,29,202,9,19,292,132,242,0.122,0.7340000000000001,0.14400000000000002,0.7762,0,0,8,0,0,0,16.0,2,0,1,1,13,11,2,1,10,0,20,11,0,3,3,39,46,15,0,2,7,0,3,2,1,1,2,0,0,0,8,12,10,0,8,8,0,2,6,4,0,0,9,4,24,7,30,35,6,25,0,1,1,1,29,12,0,8,12,119,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1075123032600539,0.0,0.2351602874072166,0.22034244099202546,0.0,0.0,0.0879846176521055,0.0915471842721068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10911233957742254,0.07692999649950126,0.0,0.0,0.09794297726445103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2012053163993513,0.0,0.09362068659855934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11234484491917096,0.0,0.11217484318038516,0.0,0.11638877226718165,0.09477427992725372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09628106366215212,0.0,0.0,0.4311190103540813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0995212702723492,0.0,0.0,0.09888075126853474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11126093891610137,0.0785997959586672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0850027861115377,0.0,0.2874099791154435,0.0,0.0,0.0922813007690277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09729216201923824,0.0,0.09855817317023516,0.21724805218101506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14749096215974142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12093051571978655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10750246174790884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09353683801681492,0.0992992227781266,0.10410555234935306,0.1468811855142896,0.11154512050465527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08157997825938272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1055691531030888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08367674964951807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11914319110176425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20801285581947135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08767335317917907,0.20031993904248868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12366942770097568,0.0,0.0,0.18644270275278094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11726889841108705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08843158036780101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07049770638794332,0.0,0.0,0.12830951928215906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08009738462030704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07085061232534047 alcoholism,hahahanottodaysatan,2018/12/21,"How much drinking is acceptable? I'm trying to gauge if my partners relationship with alcohol is something I should be concerned about. They currently drink between 1-5x/week. Usually only getting drunk maybe 1-2 of those times and even then its not black out or out of control. What concerns me is their history.. There have been times throughout our relationship that they were drinking until drunk or blackout almost daily. And there have been a few instances that I know of where I have been lied to about if/how much they were drinking. If I explicitly ask them not to drink they wont.. But I also suspect that if they didnt have me to police them/the fear of losing our relationship that they would still be drinking in excess regularly. im very worried that those motivations to keep it under control will only make a difference for so long. I want to add that I am likely hypersensitive because my father is an alcoholic and I watched his drinking gradually go from a few drinks a day to a 24 pack or more (or equivalent) daily. There was also a period of him lying and hiding his drinking. My partner also has history of alcoholism in his parents. If you read all that, thanks!",5.582651345291481,7.098667385650224,6.249212443946187,75.08305633408074,67.96860986547085,8.983071748878926,32.32315022421525,9.354420925462401,3.083780493273544,949,41,164,19,16,310,132,223,0.109,0.86,0.031,-0.9433,2,0,13,0,0,0,24.0,2,1,8,4,13,5,0,1,7,0,23,14,0,5,2,34,32,20,0,7,11,2,0,1,2,4,3,0,0,2,12,8,14,3,4,12,0,1,4,2,0,0,7,2,28,3,25,19,6,17,0,1,2,0,23,6,0,9,11,128,40,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2746746530145859,0.08578897992112558,0.0,0.0,0.2055376321458897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08009254609040377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05222537177705247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19217876355269056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05525189817678385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08950988960632672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7553409583902705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05658610682871744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09640577029662467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044760526054729965,0.0,0.04868985275252324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09254137528871367,0.0,0.0,0.07614996201562134,0.0,0.0,0.047083555661033984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041855425086702654,0.0,0.0,0.07581777280381992,0.0,0.09584600048588894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057187290011607675,0.0,0.0860698890894809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259587990094465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13031612000354229,0.0,0.0,0.09512955686184617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08569603035786212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27594172353151625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06595514250047252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06841844553882756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07887604615045336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09991305101121932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05816623876753488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09435653617647588,0.07068907039320027,0.05053206431839615,0.0,0.06872158941013745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0870049338419784,0.0,0.060859531773377676,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,GAC44,2018/12/21,"My dad is starting to become an alcoholic not sure what to tell him My dad has started to drink a lot and he isn’t a fun drunk, he’s completely negative and verbally abusive to my mom. I think the main reasons he’s drinking is because his mom disowned him a few years ago and the rest of his family stopped talking to him. He also had to stop working at 55 because of knee and back problems so now he doesn’t have anything to do except spend the whole day watching tv. My mom pleaded with me to talk to him but I don’t know what to tell him, I’m also not sure the best time to talk to him. I really want him to stop drinking, I’d appreciate some suggestions.",4.8437589928057525,4.4505947697841775,6.042365107913668,82.68858363309354,68.92805755395683,9.252158273381296,33.20233812949641,8.841846274778883,2.5617546762589933,519,22,112,8,8,175,82,139,0.16,0.787,0.053,-0.9078,0,0,4,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,5,5,0,0,8,0,9,6,1,1,2,21,15,8,0,2,4,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,5,5,3,3,5,1,0,6,1,0,0,1,1,17,4,18,14,7,12,0,0,1,0,25,1,0,2,11,74,19,1,0.0,0.1507576641260349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127898874174368,0.1359800255153814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2035063094233525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10470703292066352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09783910275624584,0.0,0.15512768962522572,0.14052571690663246,0.0,0.0,0.13352970669262013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13340789668545225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.082058767797406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3739379723154411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11994980842813432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0699273452778582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10817423095022348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4470630943307625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12175074525784205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08151269963294144,0.1308231052553149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18012114333756638,0.0,0.0,0.319133044804883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2398429096987892,0.0,0.0,0.306810185189714,0.22242536538672145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08152975163538786,0.0,0.0,0.07419420982268657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07504898599066058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14205804019644522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09263166433815496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08193788311796849 alcoholism,retsnomtidder,2018/12/21,"Christmas My mil abused my husband as a child...physically, emotionally, sexually....He was also raped as a child by a neighbor and when he told her she said he probably liked it... he has ptsd, and hes a recovering alcoholic. He was sober for a couple years until we had our daughter...and subsequently around that time MIL re-entered our lives (she had previously been cut out because of the effects of the trauma on him and us). Apparently he felt so guilty not having her in our daughters life and i was willing (yet, very hesitant) to give it a try. Fast forward through 2 years of heavy, intensifying drinking. He got sober a few months ago and she was again cut out of our lives. Now....its Christmas, and christmases have definitely been difficult since we have gotten together. He decided he wanted our daughter to see his mom for christmas this year. I dont feel good about this, but agree that if its just one visit in a neutral location that we can make it happen. Ive been having such a difficult time deciding where i have the right to draw boundaries when its coming back to affect me....He'll have these episodes where it seems he is completely out of touch with reality. Likes hes sucked back into a delusional mindset (the addiction, or ptsd talking?) But the other day it came to a head when he was in this state and i decided to take our kid and go to avoid engaging with him in this state. Well, it triggered him really badly that i left apparently (although, this is the solution we had come to in counseling was walking away to de-escelate the situation because we have a tendency to get too fired up). Well. He ended up tearing down my christmas lights and breaking them and another christmas figurine and punching a couple holes in a door :( now, i want to say no more of this lady in our lives when its causing these outbursts like this, but he is very resistant and i dont know that thats my boundary to place. Any ideas on how i can protect myself and my kid without infringing on him or our marriage? I had suggested we put a halt on everything and all communication until January and then him and his mom begin therapy together with no other contact until some of these things are worked through... am i wrong to insist on this? At this point my issue really isnt her, its the effect its having on him and therefore me and our daughter. Ive tried to explain this to him, and he acted like he understood and agreed yesterday, but woke up again this morning in that mindset im talking about where he doesn't seem to be talking sense. The holidays are always hard with drinking and emotions for him, but this is a new level having her around. Thanks in advance for your replies!",5.898952633127394,6.679005019417481,6.4206354810238295,76.82591644601355,66.76699029126215,9.659899970579582,33.47013827596352,9.725611199111238,3.2027993527508087,2135,92,394,44,33,695,255,515,0.096,0.823,0.081,-0.7895,2,1,3,0,1,0,72.0,16,1,1,4,25,19,4,1,25,0,42,7,1,8,1,76,69,43,0,3,11,6,5,4,1,1,3,2,2,3,36,40,3,3,13,3,0,10,8,10,2,1,21,9,57,9,69,46,4,76,1,0,1,1,74,36,1,6,33,285,93,1,0.0,0.10707914251085104,0.0,0.09852167189443092,0.0,0.0,0.08011164472844112,0.09658298047532668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07227254824797094,0.07519892077536801,0.0,0.0,0.06145783836939703,0.09476566541885276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16090513862057038,0.0,0.0,0.08490992725132815,0.13898500335493874,0.07545902991533733,0.11018305491170056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10336448532412022,0.0,0.0928396260877329,0.0,0.15569945978040484,0.09475606606183458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1999955886426172,0.0,0.058284151205058685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2118367551732525,0.17706543659502513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20331855918069766,0.08004508570510903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08122287801610713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04569612160913936,0.0,0.08677380457372945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047217007101632,0.08669556727229248,0.051361977300764215,0.07580194061405314,0.0722808367777657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07991797499749136,0.0,0.08095790509475767,0.0,0.0927504297147678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10202194171147164,0.09762009429601523,0.09432761967361154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04966752578597545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09819228537443817,0.0,0.06383426440340527,0.176609890700945,0.0,0.23940732660717026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06032575835457207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21169131739427416,0.07213615675037632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08728436787747595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06124017912535005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.094422239096129,0.0,0.08543322434982026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09743912215514906,0.0,0.21128618108826072,0.0908514513251306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11579258714360258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07717942878258363,0.08596695597079494,0.07186952249619895,0.0,0.0,0.07201686859352947,0.16454731344885726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0747588167615911,0.10158485561258596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0679504644275281,0.21791908049360967,0.0,0.0832048047576745,0.10335125031432857,0.0,0.06004087951967992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10539633143216692,0.0,0.0,0.08635681908566815,0.0,0.1227168646589976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10870953624337212,0.0,0.0,0.14913704699012556,0.10661058079900307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1625152677669529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0871179053819904,0.0,0.06579379724529492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09881045601312252,0.0,0.1745948701372433 alcoholism,stoppera,2018/12/21,"Alcohol + Post Depression Hi, I haven't really searched much about it but need to get this off my chest. I have never been a depressed or suicidal person but recently... with the alcohol.. I need some advice. To put this in perspective, I had a crap childhood. I have an addictive personality. Always have. I hate any drugs, any alcohol, anything that makes my mind not my own (honestly, because I know I would be addicted to it), I am suspicious of anything a doctor wants to prescribe me and I will always deny it. I was diagnosed with ADD as a young child but also I deny it because I don't want to take any medication. So, as of right now, I don't take any meds for anything. I am also very anxious and introverted and not good at expressing any emotions. **Anyway, the story now:** I am 28 years old. I was recently married a few months ago and I love my husband. He is amazing and I don't know what I would do without him. However, he is an alcoholic, and has been before me. So, of course, I follow his ways and we drink rum/coke every day while playing video games - dont get me wrong, I tell him NO everyday he brings home rum and I want him to stop - but its become a habit and most of the time now I just cant tell him no because now I want it too after 2 years of this. 1. I feel horrible about myself, as I've gained a lot of weight due to this alcohol assumption. 2. My job sucks and makes me more depressed every time I drink.. (Short story short, I moved to his city when I met him, I work as an IT help desk person and I make minimum wage). 3. I feel like I don't contribute enough money-wise to our relationship 4. I feel old and useless as a women as I don't have a child yet (sorry but I feel old for this at 28, no offense anyone) 5. I am making minimum wage at 28..... no career in sight because I STILL DON'T KNOW WHAT I WANT TO DO WITH MY LIFE. I'm sorry if my points seem inferior to anyone elses on this thread but they are important to me and recently, for the past 6 months, I've been feeling really inferior to everyone in my life and sometimes when I'm drunk the urge to end it is so strong... its scaring me. I've literally been depressed for days, and these suicidal thoughts are taking over, as i think everyone would just be better off without me.",1.0812205398288377,3.2604474709677436,3.4129558920342333,87.4957603686636,82.89247311827957,6.97871406627167,22.823129251700678,8.093282712189389,1.3647046302391923,1754,62,372,37,49,603,219,465,0.16699999999999998,0.727,0.106,-0.9827,5,0,8,0,0,0,77.0,2,0,1,4,19,21,4,1,17,0,38,20,2,4,1,65,73,38,2,11,14,1,6,1,0,4,13,0,1,6,19,20,9,1,11,7,2,4,18,13,0,0,9,7,66,8,49,58,8,53,0,7,1,1,29,14,2,6,34,245,85,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1470303671399108,0.0,0.06589766944079302,0.059777936722522323,0.3603428262456442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10785707447618688,0.11222429255945676,0.0,0.0,0.2292939300898253,0.0,0.0,0.0761834743723139,0.0,0.09430562504354924,0.06909614148288153,0.16648222278569755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16443341555981072,0.07447775332944526,0.05738306101925152,0.0,0.0,0.059641653468720426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08698127006310231,0.0,0.23233007920743576,0.06844611084003095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06902359378330704,0.0,0.0,0.07903447862777112,0.1321231950785985,0.07820433946881665,0.0,0.0563341168646091,0.07585641267519297,0.059728271519685135,0.06967940496200456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11363546097164758,0.12887595765534673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17048831510545945,0.04817628508682957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07046504343571898,0.0,0.0,0.056562109351658015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06657907930152138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04520092294180417,0.0,0.06764379686507119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0669198150262166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11118317032420988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0952640688172218,0.03294581863435582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0573316675884038,0.06086361430219602,0.0,0.18005618922850716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07490618308855425,0.06793466580171327,0.0,0.0,0.06809112656403009,0.0,0.10765352847883934,0.0716737856563106,0.0495732123012757,0.10000586495334267,0.0520107931697686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21228818422224446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06437528347266619,0.0,0.17664751732893466,0.0,0.0,0.06374880825997474,0.0,0.06458503786851667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06779179639704612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08640244462176228,0.0,0.1997547152377344,0.07240101658099525,0.0,0.05758996742214905,0.0,0.0,0.06751519079315306,0.0,0.0,0.0613911930316091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06669591893731754,0.15097814059552822,0.0,0.0,0.05385446912311699,0.05637950764092746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14752805660348067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15211041702802724,0.0,0.11788405611544055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04321025976580351,0.0,0.05353664378296625,0.07864493673166738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05564175462992672,0.19887747201286832,0.053527550371116416,0.0,0.08211886906616024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1300117767641954,0.0,0.04909420424203837,0.0,0.0,0.1437137784521883,0.07373066933150894,0.0,0.08685313381111028 alcoholism,muskeh,2018/12/21,"Does alcohol cause social anxiety/dead inside? alcoholics help Someone confident with no social anxiety to someone with tons of social anxiety in a few years. So I am 20, I started drinking heavy and smoking pot very heavily+nicotine around age 18-19 till now.. Before that I had no anxiety I would be excited to talk to people and make friends I remember I could literally walk up to the most attractive girl I've never met before and get her number and have them wanting to date me by the end of the day. I just knew what to say. Which is how I got my first girlfriend and got laid many times by girls most guys would dream of. I used to get a rush of adrenaline talking to people and was known as an outgoing funny popular guy and loved the attention. Now at 20 I'm dead inside. I drink like every other day, sometimes everyday, sometimes every second day, and I mean easily 15+ beers at one time no exaggeration and that's the only time I feel confident and like myself. (I'm not falling over or crazy I'm calm and feel normal after that many drinks) the days I don't drink I sit in my room with a cloudy conscience playing scenarios in my head of what I am going to say next time I talk to someone, all the while puffing on cigarettes or nicotine vapor every 3 minutes. Even at work or talking to close friends I just act like a pussy because I have 0 stimulation or interest in talking unless I'm on something. It's like I really don't care what anyone is talking about just let me get home and get drunk so we can cut the bullshit and actually talk. The only thing that hasn't changed is my anger and ability to stand up to people if someone disrespects me or my friends you bet that adrenaline and confidence comes back and I can think of 100 things to say to them in their face. No one f\*cks with me because of that, but just having a conversation sober is impossible now a days. I have no desire to talk to people sober so I come off as boring and shy which is the opposite of who I really am, I can't keep a conversation for more than 30 seconds because I don't even know what to say anymore unless I have some liquor in me, I sit there and think wtf is wrong with me, what should I be saying? Also I feel like everything is a waste of time and not worth my time when I'm sober. I'm texting this girl right now and I literally can't think of anything to say my mind is so un-stimulated when I am sober, I am supposed to take her out tomorrow and I don't even want to unless I have a few beers before hand because I won't know what to say or be able to elaborate/focus on what were talking about, then when I have some drinks its like complete clarity again we hit it off. I've been on SSRIs and they just make feel fatigued and emotionless with no sex drive. So I quit them cold turkey last year, I don't want prescription unless its really helped other people. \-----------------MY QUESTION IS: have any alcoholics become anxious and ""dead inside""without booze, and quit drinking to end up feeling normal and confident again? Or have I done the damage already and will just have to drink to feel like myself? Cause this is ridiculous already like I'm trying to get a girlfriend after being single for a little bit, I'm always having to feed myself with something to feel like myself and to be able to have eye contact and a good convo, and its driving me insane because I'm going to end up getting a DUI or some shit just taking a girl out to eat if I have to drink constantly.",6.472749208264212,5.9562017793696285,7.02526014175841,77.41110993816923,65.59025787965615,10.098084753430856,32.265269190167395,9.549672527348893,2.785426361031518,2774,97,543,48,38,914,299,698,0.114,0.768,0.11800000000000001,-0.7319,0,0,16,0,0,0,69.0,2,1,5,4,31,29,4,0,26,0,55,26,5,7,2,114,104,60,2,12,24,0,8,9,5,5,4,7,2,6,27,45,18,1,18,14,2,10,18,8,0,5,9,17,69,21,90,82,12,81,0,2,1,2,49,27,1,17,50,363,96,1,0.09875326075682772,0.0,0.0481844685847699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.158305804447044,0.0,0.0,0.10897667890054988,0.039486473474332366,0.04108531195422952,0.0,0.0,0.033577801854124234,0.0,0.11331896126911818,0.055781537828545835,0.048968349439012855,0.03452528802442713,0.0,0.04063275963986783,0.043955669490340014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03796758092349997,0.0,0.1504976779068364,0.05453260892812932,0.1260476270740832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05390649193808054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050342765450702334,0.10144680163489657,0.052233927832818175,0.085067189930714,0.05177045752206145,0.05335859606975882,0.0,0.03942322154418227,0.0,0.0,0.15921920883681726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04320982198739028,0.05052943607702075,0.0,0.38696239913067293,0.0,0.05052461976640496,0.0,0.0,0.13119911626476455,0.0,0.0,0.09783839604855127,0.0,0.1248058220712587,0.0,0.044376531560612165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17476415544748192,0.10582402382476837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041999736575815516,0.0,0.0,0.11444478643900526,0.0,0.15478350856474465,0.0,0.056123753857892415,0.04141477490305262,0.07898200390928993,0.0,0.0,0.0977812541147985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05067466792646168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.066192229055905,0.0,0.04952878619390845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04388821779945831,0.0,0.0,0.05427220949106908,0.04024854396947517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05049094993098755,0.0,0.2171063474365957,0.04948835534540471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04456433670887795,0.0,0.06591856838681957,0.10012030647024983,0.0,0.05378562573730177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049856320987115205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03808230132054033,0.0,0.05251260657310164,0.0,0.09675722823911688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06691776524330281,0.07510630479792686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17115769203413206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05531312639654646,0.10503624859402533,0.0,0.0,0.0948958013438778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05593409681990531,0.042167372553840635,0.0,0.2748639481681949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05068440152219714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15099976957531658,0.1673466347456326,0.07602508477840712,0.09766950000284176,0.0,0.034949033121963166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0742501620941941,0.3571835863018737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06560727839276062,0.09491565301661048,0.0,0.0,0.17275146149997733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03352349085980088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04264555514509976,0.0,0.040740891201253474,0.08737084770470625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04759730967562691,0.0,0.03594677498831485,0.0,0.0,0.07015148307218125,0.05398559404550105,0.0,0.06359386217456194 alcoholism,Worker__8,2018/12/21,"Trying to find my way So I’m reaching out in hope of guidance and support and I’m not really sure to start, so anonymously on Reddit seems about right. About 10-12 years ago, I was almost kicked out of college, wasted my scholarship, and accumulated about $120k worth of private student loan debt due to not being able to handle personal stresses at home at turned to alcohol. I was fortunate enough that my high school sweetheart gave me an ultimatum and I forced myself to get on track. I went to anger management, my personal situation improved and I’ve been able to handle pretty well. I still would drink and told myself I had it under control, would overdue it from time to time but felt I “earned” it. Got everything together really well a few years ago when I lost a friend to an opiate addiction. Fast forward to 18 months ago. Started a new career, crazy stress, and the way up the corporate ladder (at least at my company) is the 2-3 happy hours a week. Nothing too bad happened except for a night about 6-8 months ago when I was sick and taking a lot of cold medicine and overdid it. Blacked out, was texting ex girlfriends, someone on the train I didn’t know drove me home and my wife was (very reasonably unhappy). It led to a horrible fight in which she said over the almost 20 years we’ve been together, was the first time she was ever afraid of me. As bad as this day was, it opened up a line of communication between us that we had neglected for careers/children/sleep and led to the best place we’ve been in in years. I felt like things were under control until last weekend when we had a party among friends and my stress and anxiety got the best of me and I blacked out way too early. Had a good time at the party. Had great sex with my wife but then woke up in the middle of the night in a fit. As she was trying to wake me/rationalize with me she said it was the second time she had no idea what was going on and was scared. Said there will not be a third. I love my wife, I love my children, they’re my life and I’m ashamed of putting her in that place. While I know I need to talk to someone to deal with stress and the drinking, I don’t know where to start, and if I’m honest, I’m still too scared and proud. Tonight we had a holiday party and I’m on the train after controlling myself and for the first time realized it was much harder an effort than it should have been. I’m not sure what I’m looking for from this post. It’s taken me about 30 minutes to construct and I’ve even struggled looking at the screen while I write it. I guess I’m just hoping to talk to someone to start getting my head on straight. Sorry if I broke any sub rules and thanks for listening. 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Even one beer a night would satisfy me, just I get really impatient and ADD-like when I don't have a drink in the evenings. I drink probably 28/30 days a month on average. I wouldn't call myself an alcoholic because I rarely get drunk (probably get ""drunk"" once or twice a month), but I rely on having a drink..",0.4532222222222231,1.8655901185185224,3.307129629629632,91.38958333333336,81.14814814814815,7.7592592592592595,20.13888888888889,8.59863814320734,0.9499999999999992,466,12,115,11,12,166,75,135,0.044000000000000004,0.878,0.078,0.5645,0,0,12,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,11,0,9,14,0,0,0,18,21,8,0,5,8,0,1,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,4,14,0,1,12,1,1,6,0,0,3,1,1,17,1,7,18,1,16,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,3,11,63,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2304367906272571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10078980207135227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06572128295897166,0.11907004386058133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1100882542376762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13905982898879968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7393040035991799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14241781003733536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05451305994027055,0.07702101798042238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253095840690908,0.0,0.061272126575560124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052671568279766816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17210925121520734,0.0,0.0,0.07994133948722443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1011743947538896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11313071029687075,0.11481641589256525,0.1461125994003581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10291889166851716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23247945425235514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20720166246020366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06359039647908281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945673836397986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07658665457669665,0.0,0.0,0.06942748666553304 alcoholism,DagonFelix,2019/03/18,"Will this stop? I’ve given up alcohol. I am 80 days sober however, I still get hit with these waives of desire for alcohol. I’ll be fine and not missing or thinking about it at all and then BAM! I’m suddenly having to fight myself off the idea of drinking. Is this something that will go away or will I be fighting for the rest of my life? 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My dad has been an alcoholic for about 30 years, and he drinks around 8-12 beers a night (weekday) and would occasionally drink around 20 beers on the weekend (20 each day i mean). He’s overweight, never been in the best health, but recently he has declined. I no longer live with him so I do not see the physical effects. He has gone to the hospital recently for “high blood pressure”, but stayed 2 days and tells everyone he is fine. He is in denial he has a drinking problem at all, and after losing family due to it he still doesn’t see any issue. He is 52 right now, and I’m not sure how long he will live, which is why I am here. I don’t know too much about it, if course I know enough to know he’s in trouble health wise, but i’m not sure how long he will be around at this point. 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Looking for support, advice, commiserations. [Here](https://www.reddit.com/r/AlAnon/comments/b2lhem/asking_for_some_support_advice_has_anyone_been/?st=JTEMLOPG&sh=0336fae4) is my original post. 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So I started drinking when i got to my second semester in college around January, it was never really super excessive. Typically it was a couple beers and maybe a mixy before a party on Fridays and Saturdays. However this weekend in particular has me worried in terms of how much I drank given it was St. Paddy’s day weekend. Does the feeling of your mind being slowed eventually wear off after a bit or is it possibly a more permanent result of binge drinking?",6.0365714285714285,8.16129757777778,7.779841269841268,62.185,67.66666666666667,10.476190476190476,37.3015873015873,10.608840637214634,5.026825396825396,402,22,55,12,7,140,70,90,0.068,0.884,0.048,-0.4064,2,0,4,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,6,0,6,6,1,2,1,9,11,6,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,5,0,1,6,0,0,1,0,0,1,6,1,6,1,11,4,4,16,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,1,10,44,11,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20843539571084369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.189883228283503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18150355137207771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23286958959619256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23601364343913345,0.0,0.13756158297315582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1866612563897884,0.0,0.0,0.6268617088241274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10785146037678688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17059639919592332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2142896548384636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2153733361165732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15680087338988166,0.0,0.16451098115565008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24046497514052464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1366461658503878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15097563776258405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2166176515326721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,idoubtit2,2019/03/18,"Did You Ever Realize the Psychosocial Causes of Your Addiction? I know they say that there are genetic and familial reasons behind alcoholism. But individual factors have got to play a big part too. What exactly did trigger your downward spiral? Have you ever discovered what inside you made addiction run your life? I'm not an addict but I deal with people with this issue and I always find that they a) don't realize there's a problem or b) if they do , they don't know what is causing it. &#x200B;",3.4628723404255304,6.259910393617022,5.022808510638299,75.79400000000003,78.04255319148936,8.440851063829786,28.54893617021277,9.120678840339163,3.1487012765957454,403,18,66,11,10,135,66,94,0.0,0.9420000000000001,0.057999999999999996,0.6282,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,6,4,0,5,2,0,0,5,0,9,5,0,5,3,23,14,6,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,7,4,1,0,6,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,4,1,13,1,5,10,1,5,0,0,0,0,12,2,0,2,2,52,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.548681912126937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1792950166433259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13959800873430386,0.18177863240091,0.20385880959966016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3446918333362589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17296341522448205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.303514985571466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15815854436689594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1533386625575042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13418092679769508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1751082028745841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18440391502940245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11850085224432293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587479497234794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18167846847829824,0.0,0.1163105345975808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16053315047269864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1724954142726649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13341736989982128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20385880959966016,0.0 alcoholism,ynagrxox,2019/03/18,No less then a six pack every night. That's how much I have drank for the last two years. The only exception is when i work night shift and i dont drink all day and night until i get off in the morning. Would I experience withdrawal if I just stopped? If so how bad would it be? I feel like this might be the wrong sub but I dont know where else to ask. I'm not out of control I work and take care of my kids and give my wife a break when she needs it. But I feel like it's starting to effect other parts of my life. I just dont really know where to start if I'm going to quit. ,0.027951653944018773,1.4624504656488568,2.0888740458015285,99.53015585241732,82.51145038167941,5.588040712468194,16.260178117048344,6.42735559955562,-0.7113363867684477,445,7,118,4,12,149,82,131,0.062,0.85,0.08800000000000001,0.6394,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,5,9,5,0,0,6,0,10,3,0,4,1,28,26,16,0,6,9,1,2,2,0,3,1,0,0,1,6,5,2,2,5,1,0,1,5,2,0,2,1,2,15,3,13,20,4,20,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,4,15,77,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13054593050939098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11659480022381714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14237379212160886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15661979008516086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09005720022630892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4909763121232532,0.1367954851096208,0.0,0.0,0.11665253538762692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11765396681502055,0.0,0.0,0.13659615932018118,0.0,0.0,0.1412138527621844,0.1995197977255016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07295690809115972,0.1339568287287099,0.07936146925294146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534866073185512,0.11382644121763368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09863290468880773,0.13644354391336738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1481375394288988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1026525527355142,0.1035423855891576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3931321989556246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10620363552329494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1512181113135161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.148525899289376,0.0,0.0,0.08945790570429257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19767791189103967,0.0,0.0,0.11674652726032238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10499301188913003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13640943204474448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20332131633254116,0.0,0.0,0.19839459708906304,0.1526760334952656,0.0,0.08992453267508181 alcoholism,annmarmul,2019/03/18,"Can you be sober on your own? Hi, I haven’t really had more than one drink for the past month or so, and have been relatively sober for the past few months because I’m studying for important exams. I’m wondering if it’s possible to keep this up for the rest of my life? I’m 23, female, and recently moved to a city where I only know a handful of people. I’d like to still be able to socialize and go to clubs and dance, but not necessarily tell anyone I’m sober. Is this an unrealistic fantasy? Also, I don’t think I’ve shown signs of alcohol dependence, but I think I have been at risk for abusing alcohol. ",5.400714285714287,4.8148941507936565,7.069682539682543,76.43642857142858,67.80952380952381,11.326984126984124,30.698412698412696,10.914260884657429,3.1049174603174605,477,16,103,13,7,167,85,126,0.062,0.9109999999999999,0.027000000000000003,-0.7219,0,0,3,0,0,0,14.0,0,2,0,0,4,2,0,1,6,0,11,5,1,1,0,16,21,10,0,1,5,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,4,3,1,4,4,0,3,3,1,0,1,3,1,8,1,17,16,4,13,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,4,7,63,11,1,0.18784028135489506,0.22256001753543764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4014882697820493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1502158051346851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313422922274249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1145056920434862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18401196418581364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10675396067496937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1669610728078197,0.0,0.0,0.10323210618490264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13267714581804715,0.09176927329089994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2998646409533194,0.19964449196683196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12728543599076794,0.14286099837765273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35862960624822665,0.1302247997943622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21176169370674616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12033529416124318,0.0,0.1854696166175664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1914795115568929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15000949133320232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16418068529972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407209352681689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20370477239944354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,NotFineButTrying,2019/03/28,"It’s about time that I see somebody So today was the day I said to my doctor I’m taking the piss I’ve always thought of myself as a binge drinker who drinks about 3-4 days a week, not an alcoholic. I knew during this time that this was totally more than the allowed amount I should have considering what I drank. I’m going through a bad bit of depression at the moment and have upped the amount I drink and also to 5-6 times a week. It’s really getting to the point where if I don’t do something I can see my whole life spiralling downwards pretty quickly. I went to my doctor to ask for advice and I shall be attending a drop in centre on Monday. I’m nothing but enthusiastic knowing I can tell this person the absolute truth of my drinking habits over the last 5 years. Ive been so ashamed to tell anyone even though I think some people know. The only question I may not know the answer to is “ are you an alcoholic? “ . I don’t know. I’ve tried to stop over the last few weeks however I don’t know if I’m too feeble to stop drinking because of low will power or I have a serious problem. If I make over 2 weeks sober it will be the longest I’ve not drank since I was 16. Is this my target? Do I have a problem? Will I ever be able to drink again? Enthusiastic but bloody scared. Monday is the day it begins.",1.4931358787198228,3.4303554781021885,3.3345985401459863,89.92532285233017,79.98540145985402,5.9672094329028615,21.852330151600228,7.010146845296331,0.5644030320044924,1027,31,221,12,26,344,149,274,0.17,0.795,0.035,-0.9871,3,0,9,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,0,1,12,10,1,2,22,0,29,13,1,2,3,34,53,14,0,6,9,0,0,0,0,6,5,1,0,1,12,3,9,2,10,5,0,3,6,9,0,0,10,3,28,1,27,34,8,38,0,2,2,0,8,11,1,7,23,144,40,2,0.10074323503447193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09844512331729977,0.0,0.2153277605553503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08056432865953887,0.08382644192097465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07044201233298966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09418132542015267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08411639320604544,0.061412141012113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1099855203885293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19491315695202865,0.0,0.08677000071468229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20622993982832705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4934500849181986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06653995660819043,0.09112802374773367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052634182281824544,0.0,0.057254702098852826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27682923655869496,0.16423836514711826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07115792623626258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06724689166955057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09666585107564987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07661976990775053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06984267441664263,0.08796510698437908,0.0,0.0,0.09523492019884984,0.0,0.0,0.10249208787682186,0.0,0.1927953405138213,0.0,0.0,0.11285547941106255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06453869604104764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09582988648647346,0.0,0.1008615530689546,0.0,0.16055863010372887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08333584507238075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07755706419868452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16845171094454275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07574637509562798,0.0,0.17610805571591348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06455219717654845,0.09897971692002618,0.07997887548881784,0.176232571512708,0.0,0.09549280721539552,0.0,0.0,0.0683980436287799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32324058562557023,0.0,0.0,0.0933899881802375,0.0,0.1124762241676532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06487534036549526 alcoholism,-tjt-,2019/03/28,"I think i'm becoming an alcoholic My life has been shit for the last 2 years. All my college friends have being working for the last year and a half and i'm just finishing now. Although i've had some interviews i can't get any job. I've started comparing myself to my friends and getting depressed and drinking helps me pass through the day. Today and old friend told me he's moving to london because he's getting promoted. My reaction was lyung to my friends and family saying i'm going to write my thesis but instead wandering the city, mixing alcohol with coffee so people won't judge me. Sorry for my english, i'm writting this while hammered in a park",4.3711627906976736,6.06313576744186,5.357279069767447,79.62987209302327,71.1705426356589,8.26077519379845,33.05503875968992,8.841846274778883,3.0131978294573636,530,26,94,10,10,174,89,129,0.036000000000000004,0.856,0.10800000000000001,0.7034,1,0,3,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,4,6,1,0,7,0,8,5,1,0,1,13,19,10,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,1,3,1,0,0,1,7,3,0,1,1,0,3,2,2,0,1,4,1,13,4,10,13,2,15,0,1,0,0,11,1,1,1,11,55,14,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3508561591108575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11162867935645776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10006525801741988,0.1812924843310302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10586416637902052,0.0,0.14138348487107485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1608060206085897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15474746718008928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5072923047958587,0.0,0.2572872209191262,0.0,0.09329110569687164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11002732021100528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16289507906355344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26761083580466666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1159450905222748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17446711376436058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17224943284533056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11380201245140617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13053989686407244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16849920165933602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1837542149477104,0.1161873081846978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10518168166110048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1555964705892854,0.15685383547036494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11950427953867004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2114164256660837 alcoholism,generalsam101,2019/03/28,Do I need to taper? (have had 8-10 drinks throughout the day over the past 2 weeks) I have been drinking pretty much all day every day over the past 2 weeks. Not staying drunk but maintaining a buzz. Roughly half a fifth each day (\~8-10 standard drinks). Do I need to taper or can I stop drinking cold turkey? I'm somewhat worried about withdrawals.,1.7985294117647044,4.410680323529416,2.301470588235297,93.70161764705885,84.0,3.9882352941176467,23.20588235294117,5.148860815047168,0.1894352941176476,274,10,53,1,8,84,46,68,0.08900000000000001,0.853,0.057999999999999996,-0.4409,0,0,4,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,0,7,5,0,0,1,10,10,2,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,1,0,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,2,4,0,5,8,4,12,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,9,29,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4324816890902349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6569329527395598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14125241004733602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12324208748694288,0.2486207971128408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3200819131719213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17056038690449482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1786926622290192,0.0,0.1401629608129135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2689575385262525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702567784493501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,PatterPat1,2019/03/28,"Trying to not panic. Asking for help I know I’m crazy for even trying this but what do I have to lose at this point?? Im trying to not do what I usually do when I’m in a situation which is to be in deep denial and drink the time away until shit hits the fan. Before I start, a little about me- I’m 34 year old deaf male, a newly recovering alcoholic living in Washington, D.C. I’m 5 months sober and I know I have a long road ahead of me. More importantly, I’m excited there’s a road ahead of me because for the longest time I felt I was at the end. Which is why at this point I’m trying to NOT revert back being in deep denial and also relapse because the situation in front of me is scaring me. So here goes- I got a notice from the rental agency that the owners are reclaiming the house I’m living in. My lease became month to month two years ago and all the paperwork checks out so it’s happening. I really lucked out with this house, was able to find 4 other people who needed to find an affordable place and moved in together. From that point it was all about finding new roommates for the house though the years. My current roommates have their gfs/bfs places to move in so they’re not interested moving in another house. Crap! Now the reality is that I need to move and soon. The problem is because I was in recovery and took a lot of time off- I’ve used up all my savings to pay rent and bills. I’ve had to reduce my clientele list by 75% because as much as I love taking care of senior dogs, too many of them passed away and obviously I do not have the coping skills to deal with it. I want to be sober so I had to remove myself from that. So now I’m living paycheck to paycheck and also a reduced income. So this obviously is the worst absolute time for me to move and even just thinking about it puts me in a panic mode. I don’t have anyone to rely on. Everyone that I’ve known moved out of DC and because I spent the last few years being reclusive and drinking- I’ve become alone. I don’t have a relationship with my family and I know for sure if I ever move back with them, I’ll relapse. So... I don’t even have enough for a security deposit and moving... jeez it costs money that I don’t have. I’ve been looking for places in my neighborhood and nearby.. I don’t know what to do, I’m stuck and frozen in fear. I just want to ignore this until the last day. 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I need some resources? I have been to A.A. The first group told me not to come back, because I was gay. The second group was super aggressive! Screaming everyone's names! That's not my scene. I have a problem. Are the other resources? I just want to talk to someone. Someone who gets it. I'm just really disappointed in myself. 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When I don't drink for a couple days I get horrible constipation, even diuretics don't work all that well to counteract it. Anyone else have this problem?",5.0790000000000015,8.091787566666671,6.0100000000000025,69.78500000000001,73.33333333333334,10.666666666666668,30.0,10.504223727775694,4.218000000000001,137,6,22,5,3,45,26,30,0.225,0.708,0.068,-0.7082,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,1,2,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,2,4,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,15,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2503670036234534,0.3668793647679571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3961915268034909,0.0,0.23092196194028555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3507668651335493,0.0,0.0,0.2991169197946035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2364982061908707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1870739075961856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3426193412024591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32194296135463313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2606751995054564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Wiggleworm2019,2019/08/31,Feeling low again. Blacked out last night ended up in the hospital feeling really low right now been dealing with alcoholism for years tried to quit several times. I'm so tired of this. I'm going to try quitting again need to put more effort in it thinking about doing smart recovery. I've been to AA but it's too religious for me and everyone around here that goes are much older than me I don't feel like I fit in. Idk I'm trying not to feel like a huge disappointment right now.,3.326829896907217,5.096560896907217,4.344935567010307,85.507506443299,74.05154639175258,8.148969072164949,25.527061855670105,8.841846274778883,1.8569391752577324,385,13,78,8,8,125,73,97,0.19,0.7390000000000001,0.071,-0.9045,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,3,9,6,0,0,2,0,5,2,0,0,0,12,15,3,0,1,2,0,4,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,4,1,0,5,0,0,2,2,3,1,0,2,5,4,3,17,13,2,24,0,3,1,0,1,12,0,0,12,44,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19037000058601386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15857613413222335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18364729859249707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15777296307895486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17021371279947894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36027758326355364,0.25451649796296105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012370875357607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14520216802824115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17405356943205794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13094824938198033,0.13208336050510452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16716575106049347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17907286311612267,0.0,0.3789327392556768,0.0,0.0,0.11411655953201275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3042492130654858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20123958359330985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11414043208023016,0.0,0.0,0.10387078332932066,0.20473767616322744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.362821836964565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1147118100475718 alcoholism,MeatyClangars,2019/08/31,"First time posting here. Just detoxed 3 days ago I’m 24 and have been a social drinker since I was 21. At first I didn’t have a problem with it, but as the years went on, I realized all me and my friends ever do is drink together. Usually hard liquor and IPA’s and we would just pound it down. I started drinking a lot more when my girlfriend broke up with me. I started drinking by myself at night. Almost every night. I started to notice I had a problem when I would get sick when I DIDN’T drink anything for a day or 2. I got bad tremors, I would sweat, and eventually I would just start puking. I should have stopped at that stage but I went another 2 months of binge drinking just to not feel the withdrawals. Finally about 5 days ago I said enough was enough and told my friends and family that I’m an alcoholic and need help. I thought I could just fight through all the withdrawals on my own, but by day 3 I was puking multiple times an hour, completely drenched in sweat, and was shaking so bad I couldn’t even drink a glass of water without spilling everywhere. I ended up being hospitalized where they gave me a full detox, and put me on anti seizure pills and anti nausea pills. It feels good to be clean but right now I can’t sleep, am seeing hallucinations, and keep hearing this echo in my head that won’t go away. I’m also still kinda shaky. Does anyone know how long these effects will last? Also I’m going to start going to meetings because I never wanna touch liquor ever again.",3.730207178290051,5.237707550335571,4.193244820542748,88.07607674350746,72.48993288590604,6.927575138605198,27.050481470674058,7.423996415210882,1.3189143274000577,1182,42,241,13,23,372,176,298,0.157,0.779,0.064,-0.9786,0,0,8,0,1,0,27.0,1,0,1,3,21,11,1,2,12,0,26,19,4,2,5,56,53,25,0,11,12,0,4,0,3,7,6,2,1,0,8,15,10,2,6,8,0,7,8,8,0,2,15,7,34,3,29,27,8,59,0,1,1,0,13,15,0,5,35,158,42,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15198119373859836,0.09161462554681916,0.08584183344103627,0.0,0.0,0.13710950754400775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08989079555544725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059941352345903184,0.0,0.07054488758027166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08054204945896573,0.0,0.14315463730353414,0.05225754717684858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08988169000191823,0.0,0.0,0.06844493843233161,0.0,0.0,0.22114375272689904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0750190747928711,0.0,0.0,0.5038708763522161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07592746172924321,0.17715497934090993,0.0,0.05662096882295831,0.15508747689454058,0.07222753893996466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08081449273086934,0.0,0.08669090660818217,0.0,0.0,0.09390823528254344,0.0,0.14583635083622726,0.0,0.0,0.13246281514462724,0.0,0.04478810245623542,0.0,0.1461595498895114,0.07190258957532147,0.06856261592897753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07679332449474256,0.0,0.08797922621362632,0.0,0.09661901315027854,0.0,0.05746008145672184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08442247550692053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07619687705689229,0.0,0.0,0.04711256325208922,0.06987782849999608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0758644831874631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07288086338238588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06842537843156185,0.0,0.0,0.06356446696638658,0.06611688916200542,0.0,0.0,0.16089538940501585,0.0,0.0,0.0975991957095076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08210145491029895,0.0,0.0,0.1640556970712094,0.0,0.08617793375783431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07320921794953418,0.08154470323760869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06831222661363379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07091312537912514,0.0,0.08578753806363218,0.08738648210417478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.303385203771518,0.0,0.06846059728928397,0.07167046358120796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06805657301841712,0.09997460619506482,0.0,0.0,0.08191451128357959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09441466806087516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15893703208332993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08263644630466943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24358810628558406,0.0,0.0,0.055204493832828376 alcoholism,ghetto-muffins,2019/08/31,"Falling my back into it So I've realized recently that I've been kind of falling back into alcoholism. I've gone hard for a while and didn't drink for a couple months due to some personal shit. Anywho I've kinda been falling back into alcoholism and I like the person I am when I drink more than the one I am while I'm sober. Pretty sure my wife prefers alcoholic me too. I'm an asshole while sober and very care free, super lovey when I drink regularly. Not sure how to go about being sober if everyone agrees I'm better as a drunk.",4.624870129870132,5.03397522727273,5.771298701298702,81.67409090909094,69.45454545454545,9.194805194805195,27.532467532467532,9.23628265651192,2.1062467532467526,425,13,87,8,7,142,69,110,0.10800000000000001,0.669,0.222,0.9377,0,0,6,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,9,9,1,0,6,0,6,8,1,1,2,15,12,12,0,2,2,1,1,1,0,0,3,0,0,2,2,6,7,0,2,4,1,5,2,1,0,1,4,1,8,9,11,7,2,19,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,3,12,52,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4941904731625003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35557540382601543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1363254415940016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15715731438460162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17055440150237208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4529993351881193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14728860466141544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08760204520474693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380803161113318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16051442980528716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07530564652034627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12303410414943568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1044501248203677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2691804514214868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15681710298330484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15219592450070746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15822381534084334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2905526763446301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12718270419796568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,YoureMyAngelDust,2019/08/31,Am I going to choke to death on my vomit ? I got drunk about 5 hours ago then about an hour ago (after the affects had worn off) started vomiting. I still feel nauseous and I’m afraid to sleep because I might choke on my vomit. Can this still happen even though I’m not technically drunk anymore?,4.545508474576273,5.41370723728814,4.962500000000002,85.75527542372883,69.84745762711864,7.255932203389831,26.614406779661017,7.1686216300943375,1.1810305084745758,233,7,47,2,4,74,43,59,0.284,0.716,0.0,-0.9536,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,1,2,0,4,6,1,1,0,5,12,3,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,1,6,0,9,8,0,13,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,9,29,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4305151864610612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2408259691499513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14802928647562652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16038949524470714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12278411198392065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13800809676047687,0.0,0.19421644648804634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21473720845616767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4782849363175618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2576083843685224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24300926342915175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1718790784021206,0.0,0.3878549191806544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23858306565701756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,anonymous108wtf,2019/08/31,"Advice So I'm looking for some advice. I've gotten into a regular drinking routine that I know I need to change. I work 8:30am-5:30pm, come home & start drinking around 9pm and go to bed around 12am. Rinse and repeat.. this has been going on for years. I get drunk pretty much every night.. but not wasted. (If it's the weekend then I stay up a lot later and drink a lot more). Every now and then during the week I will skip a night or two of drinking and I never have any withdrawals or anything so that's good. However, I know I'm not on a good path, I know it's affecting my health especially mentally and I need to cut back. Even though I don't have withdrawals, on nights I don't drink I can't stop thinking about it. My dilemma is.... I know I need to cut back.. but i don't want to. I get home after a long stressful day at work and just want to have a drink but in the back of my head I want to cut back because I know that's what's best. This may sound contradictory so I hope it makes sense to someone. When you need to cut back, how do you overcome your 'want' to have a drink?",0.10528846153846416,2.1978400129310347,1.9279310344827607,97.13324933687004,86.3706896551724,4.6037135278514585,18.405835543766575,5.8734145424116955,-0.42939774535809017,841,22,197,6,26,276,120,232,0.124,0.765,0.111,0.6254,1,0,7,0,0,0,35.0,0,3,0,3,17,9,4,1,11,0,14,10,1,3,1,44,40,21,0,10,9,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,3,0,10,11,8,1,6,9,0,3,7,5,0,1,2,2,26,4,25,36,6,36,0,0,1,0,3,9,0,8,23,125,36,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16621665865712226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0921499248959833,0.0,0.05783584037692471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06998760105902226,0.15142224588426498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3269849168997647,0.0,0.051844725955153735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08925306716132787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08996994876326664,0.07326168102844433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05484919344769644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5832054965828258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05617367768922146,0.0,0.1433139198089505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08886857586471608,0.0,0.0966699512845028,0.14266915511296452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08728421288806086,0.09040249082550653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1706209944783435,0.0844722686574411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23370193042006365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07526517322508179,0.07141925076108875,0.0,0.0,0.14461024650268167,0.0,0.0,0.05677047913467305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0857088013015833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0625203727046939,0.2522492959116701,0.0655945826927379,0.0,0.0,0.23943653563344974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0865248161189705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07206124820805639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06019770769245417,0.09065029706946412,0.0,0.07110428529819551,0.09742267496909614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05449559186938457,0.08355963844063495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08307994594003433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20065504082723146,0.0,0.06822071052707504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1238325218143516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054768392488270624 alcoholism,SoberGoddess,2019/08/31,"A New Subreddit for non-AA'ers! r/HolisticSoberLiving Welcome to HSL! This is a group of people who work a ""Sober Living Program"" outside of AA. (HSL members have either minimal involvement in AA or graduated from AA.) In HSL, we are a group of pro-active individuals with our own Custom Made Design for Sober Living. r/HolisticSoberLiving empowers people to live recovered as their new selves! We don't identify as our disease, but rather live out our new identity as happy, contributing members of the world. \*Min. 2 yrs sobriety required to join.\* **Plz contact** u/SoberGoddess **if you would like to join this new community.** We'll add you to the list once we are approved to launch! We appreciate your patience.",2.502142857142857,5.162849571428573,3.8765476190476207,76.62053571428575,100.90476190476193,7.1793650793650805,25.88492063492064,7.793537801064563,2.7746253968253973,570,26,91,16,24,186,86,126,0.0,0.8340000000000001,0.166,0.9702,1,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,8,3,1,3,1,3,0,0,6,0,7,0,0,2,0,16,8,6,0,3,5,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,1,0,12,3,20,5,2,9,0,0,0,0,18,4,0,2,6,53,15,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18321508830301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08408461629515017,0.0,0.6079077637495385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1628553482620187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6649025195509528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18329232620209104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2386398394615491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12529867209621526,0.0,0.0,0.1222625350588717,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,xerxes7777,2019/08/31,"2nd days no drinking. First time posting here. Last time I quit I was able to for about 30 days, but then the urge for Fireball got too much. That Louisiana based company made that Fireball Whiskey very popular. But I vow never to go back to it as it made me do things I would normally think twice about doing. Alcohol has this effect loosing filters that normally give us logic to avoid bad stuff. Let's just put it this way, I got my negative HIV test yesterday and an happy.",3.4757258064516137,5.489578655913982,4.296438172043016,84.96465725806455,74.26881720430106,8.090860215053763,27.75403225806452,8.841846274778883,2.2232161290322585,377,15,74,8,8,121,72,93,0.136,0.7759999999999999,0.08800000000000001,-0.6137,0,1,3,0,0,0,9.0,1,0,0,3,6,4,0,1,2,0,6,4,0,3,1,14,13,5,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,10,1,3,1,3,2,0,2,3,2,0,2,5,0,8,2,9,6,1,14,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,10,49,18,1,0.1772674468279741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18944499018604688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1363077245442348,0.14801091363515775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286456764681256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17365461146957414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15078359971475758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1700510877821682,0.10074517516225293,0.0,0.28355394183556365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1887044934231582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14449662873575592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1812679746185781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3354694886723624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13031197007240986,0.0,0.13671958318518668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3473689208974081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1697732128129817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17820274565946262,0.0,0.18854574998288254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20292881575295516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1177686148779922,0.11358582218158053,0.0,0.0,0.2067321475848737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2132309121690074,0.0,0.0,0.14626420858195613,0.0,0.14070664817157374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12592570817507534,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,ChaosBlaze9,2019/08/31,How to drink in moderation I’m 18 and a male and I’ve been in college for roughly 3 weeks. There’s been numerous parties and events where people are drunk and I want to partake but don’t know how much and how to do so in a safe manner. I cannot get addicted under any circumstances and just want to get a little tipsy not pass out or anything. If you would like information about me or my family history or anything else please do ask. I’d love to hear your insight.,3.5131075110456536,4.552946113402066,5.020471281296022,83.74938144329897,72.40206185567008,8.429455081001473,27.259204712812963,8.841846274778883,1.9470689248895443,371,13,78,7,7,125,69,97,0.017,0.775,0.20800000000000002,0.9585,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,0,8,3,0,0,3,0,8,4,0,3,0,24,17,15,0,4,7,0,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,7,2,1,3,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,2,6,3,12,14,1,10,0,0,0,1,7,7,0,4,3,49,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2623446767903865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16365066115130208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3960698802354492,0.0,0.22497582678125388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23574597264267655,0.0,0.0,0.20103269778350502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268639695596828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2514600133940121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2712307176289269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13225527692284786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11756972806848985,0.2411951236936408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21719656330872505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1769058815756593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1668368262115782,0.0,0.0,0.2641620942187101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28388391938901736,0.0,0.19303539655009103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17095128256730646,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Telepathicsloth,2019/08/31,"How to cope with an alcoholic father? Tldr; suffer from anxiety and depression, abusive and self destructive alcoholic father. Yet I can't see past what he used to be, my dad y'know. I want to be apart of his life but can't be brought down by him so I can be the best I can be for my wife and daughter. How do I cope with my family being torn apart? I'm 20 years old with a wife and baby girl. I've recently been diagnosed with general anxiety disorder as well as depression. My dad has been a fan of alcohol his whole life. I never really considered it a problem considering how he was never aggressive. Only thing I would say the alcohol could've caused was a tab bit of laziness and ignorance. He mainly took out any frustrations had while intoxicated on people's political or religious Facebook posts. He's always been a bit lazy and I get some of it from him, however he's also been very hard-working at his jobs. The career paths he's taken have never been very easy ones. So as a result I usually chalked his lack of help in domestic at home issues up to just being tired after a long day of work and wanted to relax by drinking and watching TV. Reasonable as a kid. But as I got older I noticed the toll it has taken on my mother and how hard she's worked as well without relying on booze to help her relax. Recently it's become a problem where he gets very intoxicated and has become aggressive and just all around ugly. He has drove drunk very very very many times and that doesn't sit well with me. He could literally be the drunk driver that hits me and my girls on the road killing all of us, or worse everyone except me. My wife and I after the birth of my daughter had stayed with my mom and dad to help out with the newborn since it's our first time ever having a baby. Ever since the first night of being there he would always sit in his truck somewhere on the land drinking until he couldn't even make sense in a conversation anymore. When bringing up things about his well being and how the habit is unhealthy he would usually retort with his lack of care for himself. Yet when bringing up the danger to those around him he would find another way to justify the addiction. He pinned my mom against the wall choking her, as well as on my last day of staying with him, he pursued me down our street trying to assault me, assaulted my wife, and my mother right in front of me. If I hadn't stayed away from him I may have killed him with the bat I had in my hand. Had to call the police on him multiple times that week for threats, and for the subsequent situations that occurred. As a father I feel lost. As a son I feel lost. Seeing the happiness in his eyes fade over the years has shredded my soul in pieces. My family will never be the same. I'll never be the same. I don't know how to forgive and I don't know how to help. He texts me he loves me all the time, and I love him, but I can't keep setting myself up for disappointment and heartache. I've already got so much depression to handle already I can't add to the pile, yet being distant makes me feel like a piece of shit feeling like just telling him I love him would help him. Yet I know that's irrational because I've given him so much love and support previously and he still struggles. I don't know what to do. My life as I knew it has been destroyed and I'm so confused.",4.6680887669032005,5.229777487481591,5.6693516535011375,81.90189600348107,69.41237113402062,9.000415048868659,28.53932922747356,9.095868883498916,2.172549042709868,2650,89,540,48,44,877,289,679,0.185,0.6859999999999999,0.129,-0.9933,2,0,6,0,0,0,51.0,3,0,0,7,36,42,12,2,38,0,57,24,3,13,10,105,97,58,2,14,11,17,6,2,0,7,12,1,1,5,16,39,9,2,12,7,0,6,16,24,5,3,24,11,80,18,95,50,17,91,1,7,4,4,81,36,1,6,43,373,96,5,0.0,0.06844847749246544,0.0,0.06297826339525123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24695595464077216,0.0,0.0,0.12750214623590536,0.04619896812839209,0.09613920163077257,0.0,0.0,0.039285853133694634,0.060577301651659435,0.0883883959810114,0.0,0.05729271357958796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10285580833985528,0.0,0.0,0.054277192626570096,0.0,0.0,0.03521629972620649,0.12760573635254538,0.0,0.0,0.06062647080737645,0.0,0.12614062912352372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058990037671496624,0.0,0.058900773148657076,0.05934611454355946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09224992739967704,0.0,0.0,0.07451425774207397,0.0,0.14927268299318974,0.05863574009527085,0.0,0.0,0.06620988356509076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11318599745267813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03815680445370917,0.1045132687076996,0.0,0.05520209303980247,0.0,0.0,0.10892158365567048,0.0,0.11684180048935955,0.08254237082101343,0.0,0.0,0.05280109913840887,0.09827894571178956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06036529938648184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09240853285350316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061497665196310475,0.10350186254347568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19361140736515767,0.0,0.057948421661349975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0602972885358393,0.057328208030279125,0.05134898604321076,0.1278287767390511,0.0,0.15874550548083055,0.047090586635159366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12241482629976598,0.05644739883570411,0.0,0.0,0.051124986204616,0.0,0.0,0.12612643218955924,0.0,0.20856016657093449,0.0,0.0771243813897818,0.0585701183296431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1353199888815319,0.0,0.0,0.08493578251593675,0.0,0.22278047014088465,0.0,0.0,0.05421360706690409,0.0,0.0,0.06577198347084727,0.06062031693051988,0.0,0.039146718251608086,0.04393699254829938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05514838380057376,0.04005072149253365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055328074130498776,0.0,0.0,0.11055694176191637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037009197631976035,0.05939759300115376,0.11408260135100212,0.0,0.0,0.04933560607632502,0.0,0.04594134093366317,0.0,0.0,0.09207105872187034,0.0,0.060267126612966175,0.0,0.05930048557141261,0.0955765439744825,0.06493635025391442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18472667989195315,0.04613551618516545,0.0,0.0,0.06039416553582722,0.0,0.0,0.06555716548044184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05049387606489585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07676017371943702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1347455396197638,0.06639857660369433,0.0,0.0,0.06418504021576751,0.03922230955345071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06949067829915398,0.04989507721540997,0.127251868049984,0.2859997819788828,0.06814895757630618,0.045855454648588485,0.046339930343819696,0.0,0.25971263840670483,0.0,0.0,0.06449858866797682,0.0,0.05568860420343415,0.0,0.12617261805487573,0.0,0.0588729732166032,0.20519217376539448,0.0,0.0,0.0744044872397565 alcoholism,patchmo,2018/11/17,"I made it 64 days. Had a seizure and cold turkey’d booze in the beginning a September. Went through a depressive & anxious episode this whole last week and just smashed a Heineken. Instant relief from all my stress but I’m really disappointed in myself I was doing really well. I’ve got the case next to me and I think I’m gonna keep going. Didn’t really have anyone to stop me or help me stop myself. I don’t really have an outlet that helped well enough to keep the stress at bay. Thought I’d share this here, if that even does anything. Here’s to 64 days of strength, and here’s to failure. Cheers.",1.7548486759142534,4.1320975491803305,2.5781967213114747,93.29322194199244,81.70491803278689,6.376796973518286,22.499369482976046,7.61054688173877,0.9032060529634292,479,16,103,8,13,150,82,122,0.172,0.659,0.16899999999999998,0.1254,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,7,10,0,2,8,0,7,1,0,1,1,16,19,7,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,4,1,4,2,0,0,2,2,4,2,0,7,1,10,6,11,11,3,13,0,2,0,0,3,3,0,2,8,58,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17453783145568205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1819825983921528,0.0,0.11263586250050353,0.0,0.13256097746596862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20777573703419108,0.0,0.1387441037809538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14096842768116724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16644606030219192,0.0,0.10639652609412498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09154952477264038,0.0,0.12883608858015633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.215946607172916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28636327447605475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13130750599919133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15242453156795244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17131798377253524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4127861457948052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2693520971864435,0.3690495123661024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10321812458895316,0.0,0.12788518277869368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12921437417558346,0.0,0.2896733403630387,0.14932937772799193,0.0,0.17984802109337913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,PM_ME_SUICIDE_TIPSS,2018/11/17,"The Sober Space Rule Is Garbage Seriously the only time I realize my life is a fucking mess is when I am drunk off my ass. I've seriously been waiting over 3 weeks for an opportunity to post but I never think to until I drink, how the fuck does that help?",3.05745283018868,4.265251301886797,5.1624056603773605,81.65040094339625,73.71698113207545,8.318867924528304,26.45754716981132,8.841846274778883,1.7990792452830189,201,7,44,4,4,70,42,53,0.23399999999999999,0.67,0.096,-0.7047,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,2,6,2,0,5,0,5,6,1,1,1,6,9,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,2,2,0,0,1,5,0,0,1,0,6,1,6,8,0,9,0,0,0,3,1,3,3,0,5,27,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.282780698268459,0.0,0.0,0.3165527315228901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5974727133651986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2165929398857156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2282422944899012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24922434908977176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2457614072249526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30947738041947925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20705411719027333,0.0,0.0,0.18842467083879014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25920223100122525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,autarky1,2018/12/31,"How to support isolating alcoholic? My boyfriend is a struggling alcoholic and for the past 2 months hes just started to isolate himself from me and from others unless it is absolutely necessary for him to interact (he is still okay at work I think). I would ask him to do something together only to find out he booked the same thing to do by himself without me. These are all activities where alcohol is not present in any way. He doesn't respond to messages from days...not just from me but just social media in general. He is struggling to get help and there are days where is responsive and it seems like he is okay but I would say he is somewhere in the beginning of the journey. I asked him few weeks ago why he disappeared and he said that it was because he knew he needed to get help and he wanted a ""clean slate"" without any support. We talked about it and it seemed like we were okay if I gave him some space. I guess my question is...how do I best support him? Do I leave him alone? Do I continue to try to reach out? I've kind of been doing my own thing and trying to leave him alone but try to reach out every few days. I don't know if that is too much.",2.639430379746834,4.3534506962025326,3.7192637130801702,89.50345253164558,75.79324894514768,7.102869198312236,26.19599156118144,7.908726449838941,1.4195267510548517,913,34,195,14,20,295,123,237,0.066,0.76,0.174,0.9828,0,2,4,0,0,0,23.0,2,0,0,2,10,12,0,2,6,3,25,3,0,1,1,42,44,15,0,6,12,0,0,2,0,2,3,2,1,0,11,13,3,0,7,1,0,2,5,2,0,0,6,2,28,10,33,36,8,24,0,0,0,0,36,10,0,7,13,133,39,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09908280063291053,0.3583640891935773,0.0,0.23153273455026435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15202321128535634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20899119751947406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06813769521239922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11730215899435788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.144172721793066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09417621568762263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10216136357151934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11679683564086928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12313401587394307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1498423760276401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11639764536837495,0.061429241305223536,0.0,0.0,0.2367095782573864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10921634831889417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08921864557830557,0.0,0.08216832129854401,0.08288058874705605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08501078847240855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10670296982006884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12521485381275746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10632470208726696,0.08888886994159116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20351359291648652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11394169464455753,0.0,0.0860507306022129,0.0,0.0,0.07911572457305661,0.0,0.08926456682648584,0.0,0.0,0.2337053736980255,0.0,0.0,0.380526704556448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08984142434327004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1485181964604213,0.07162163481059558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22766597808320754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06592846120232171,0.08872269423429534,0.08966007429739475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10086057733382073,0.0,0.0,0.21549641328125266,0.0,0.08137435846481028,0.0,0.0,0.15880512040953346,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,theouter_banks,2018/12/31,"Have I got a problem? My parter of 6 years seems to think so as does my doctor and insurance company, to the point where they won’t insure me because of my “hazardous drinking”. I’m 31 and I can’t remember the last time I didn’t have a drink. My partner keeps asking me to take at least a night off a week from drinking but the very thought of one night scares me. Growing up from the age of 15 I smoked a lot ore weed than I did drink, I eventually stopped the weed when I was about 19 and the drinking took over. In my family, drinking a lot every day is pretty normal. I’ve been fighting chronic depression for 10 years or so which I’ve only just been put on medication for. When I told the doctor about how much I drink, she started asking me about my “support network” and I felt myself tear up as I’d always in the back of my mind felt like I’d had a problem with drinking but never really wanted to admit it to myself. It’s having an effect on my mental health and now on my physical health as well. I apologise if this comes across as rambling but I’m not the best at writing down my thoughts in a clear way. 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I fucking hate being drunk. I am drunk as shit right now and the only thing helping me is autocorrect. I'm legally drunk in Austria (16 years old) with two girls. They are obnoxious as fuck, screaming... And I just wanna go to sleep and be sober again. Ive be been drunk a few times and it's just bad. I can't concentrate and I'm feeling just bad overall. Please just relate to me so I can feel better. I don't ever want to drink again... Its not because I'm feeling dizzy or nauseous I just can't stand being drunk and helpless.. :( help",-0.044473434535103,2.2871529112903244,2.0047058823529404,93.6814705882353,92.46774193548387,4.853130929791272,21.003795066413666,6.522977012572876,0.4219151802656551,467,17,100,6,17,155,77,124,0.32899999999999996,0.568,0.102,-0.987,0,0,3,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,1,1,10,11,6,0,2,0,13,12,2,0,1,22,26,11,0,2,7,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,4,8,8,0,4,6,0,1,4,10,0,1,1,4,14,1,8,21,1,14,0,1,0,2,4,2,3,1,10,61,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35022664190028857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2736275327002703,0.09988571776861356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14491821739148014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16051749736364296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14821805445737968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2485530961087576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3029663469686786,0.0,0.0,0.09312371984627686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4853246477985081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21965981143065905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1582541297735533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17194037746844426,0.0,0.0,0.1246206464450108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17986580125632293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1399329987192307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1681968750657813,0.0,0.0,0.16397535433665394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10885932235384448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0955463453406458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16006449796988484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09664711505204754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21103709563268472 alcoholism,lame818,2018/12/31,"I need to ask, does anyone here have wetbrain and work a fulltime job/go to school? I'm asking for me... i feel like my life came to a hault and ive seriously considered ending my life already a couple times but have hope that i can continue fixing my life... if you have wetbrain please tell me how things are for you .. and i know this might sound dumb but i was never properly diagnosed but i used to drink heavily, and there was this one night where i drank a ton of vodka, blacked out, and eversince then my head hasnt felt the same",1.5867472894078392,3.7617431376146833,2.7809674728940803,92.77360300250209,80.92660550458716,6.165471226021682,20.91826522101752,7.348242739294969,0.5448275229357802,418,12,91,6,11,134,76,109,0.055999999999999994,0.862,0.08199999999999999,0.4118,1,0,2,0,0,0,14.0,0,2,0,1,4,4,1,0,5,0,10,7,1,2,1,21,21,11,0,3,4,0,2,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,4,7,2,0,3,2,0,1,2,2,0,1,5,4,16,2,8,15,2,9,0,0,1,0,5,2,1,3,7,60,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2014693825735988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12765645882463944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3413546573233571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2088102484934439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20200907705923865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1853036470756056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597673235180726,0.0,0.0,0.1788480719420736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16170190548864025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09231234962831501,0.13042729849191806,0.17529482818925074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10375814487594157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18736841978058974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18133216729495344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.181171517764752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1003351235088476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38686155802956973,0.08919396988246499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1936768109552041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1353725673918546,0.14080843372062596,0.0,0.0,0.17132859744412768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12371344936173513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20040588902363315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18476953014594572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15957331440868905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1212907018591204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1064574262989756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15768095983971586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13291237419736296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,lanka2x,2018/12/31,"Thanks in advance to those who don't drink today. It's early hours but drunks have already racked up a pretty impressive body count. 3 young kids in the same family gone and their parents seriously injured. 8th grade girl gone, 30 year old pedestrian is no more. Lots more to come before the joyous celebrations end.",5.077758620689653,7.499637465517246,5.0064137931034525,79.82996551724139,70.89655172413794,8.088275862068969,25.393103448275863,8.841846274778883,2.040899310344828,255,8,44,5,5,79,53,58,0.11699999999999999,0.655,0.228,0.8735,1,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,1,0,3,0,0,3,0,3,4,1,0,0,5,7,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,3,2,2,0,0,2,0,4,2,1,0,0,2,0,1,2,5,5,4,14,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,1,7,22,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.297349996018186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2292861297586078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29930346186311385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2321113915598362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2639630538422306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2386569132191359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2540179394814573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2653586324622231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2290807764601817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28274741296606004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2991975909009708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27413233209917315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.248077713872696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554115784246121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17352001231055722 alcoholism,unparalIel,2018/12/31,"My father is an alcoholic and I’m just about ready to give up on him. Hello all! Well, I don’t think my story is any different than the others I’ve read but maybe the right person will see my story and offer the right advice! :) My father is an alcoholic and has been since I could remember. He doesn’t drink whiskey, or any hard liquor but about at least a 6 pack of Budweiser/Corona on a good day. He drinks every weeknight. On his days off he gets totally blacked out wasted starting Saturday night. He leaves the house and gets lost until he turns up at the house drunk Monday, before he has to go to work again Tuesday. He’s probably gone 5 months sober in total since I was 11. I’m now 22 and I’m exhausted of this cycle that never seems to end I can’t imagine what it feels like on his end. He isn’t physically abusive or violent. However, he is very very manipulative and emotionally abusive. When under the influence he’s beyond depressed and spends most of his time (when he isn’t lost) crying on the sofa listening to sad songs and remembering his childhood traumas. When sober he has the worst attitude toward me and my Mom. He’s the kindest soul with other people and his friends. I don’t know why but he seems to blame is for his trauma and twists our own words against us. I didn’t even realize he did this to us until a couple years ago! My mother and I have done just about everything to help him and support him. I’ve offered limitless love, patience, and understanding to no avail. I’ve done my own research on alcoholism as a disease and mental disorder so I could approach his situation better. It didn’t seem to work at all. There’s times when he tells us he doesn’t want to chance and others where he insists that wants the help. I’ve begged and pleaded for him to seek professional help (or an type of help) but he’s usually says something along the lines of, “If you don’t want to deal with me, there’s nothing stopping you from leaving.” He doesn’t see how much my Mom and I care for him and shows very little emotional care for us. On the flip side, he’s supports us financially with a place to live, food, clothes, and some basic luxuries. All I am grateful for and have expressed to him before. He uses this again is a lot by calling us spoiled, ungrateful, and other names. This is only the very surface but he’ll end up telling us that he’s sorry. Only until he does it again the next week. There are times where my mom and I have actually gotten him to stop drinking and he says he feels great. He falls off the wagon after about a week and his alcoholism usually gets worse for a month. I know this next part is probably REALLY stupid of me but I even put off going to University, after being accepted at my top choice. I couldn’t leave my home and Mom in good conscious with my father. I still can’t do it even though I want nothing more than for us to move on. We aren’t a family anymore. It’s just me and my Mom with a stranger in the living room. A few weeks ago my mom and I had sort of an intervention with him but he literally laughed and mocked us (while sober). I couldn’t believe his reaction to us spilling our guts out to him. I haven’t spoken to him since but he tries to act as if nothing happened. I’m ready to just take the leap and let him go, but I wanted to ask if anyone had advice or anything at all really. This is sort of my last attempt but I don’t expect much. **thank you in advance to anyone who reads and/or replies to this. I am very grateful for your time and words.**",2.4557696678321683,4.395895521678323,3.73570257867133,88.17778463723776,77.0,6.874344405594406,23.619427447552447,7.811722812724723,1.1230773601398605,2778,89,579,43,64,907,313,715,0.11699999999999999,0.7609999999999999,0.122,-0.5881,3,0,9,0,0,0,73.0,13,4,0,8,30,26,3,0,32,0,48,14,1,4,7,108,93,61,0,13,21,10,3,1,1,2,5,4,3,1,21,41,11,2,15,10,1,10,19,11,1,0,13,10,78,15,93,72,18,94,1,4,3,1,99,38,0,15,47,366,99,7,0.0,0.10901857227204663,0.04489497172135517,0.0,0.0,0.0899125651495024,0.08156263606402192,0.19666460508183586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06257096981589022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04562533795383185,0.06433657462887221,0.0,0.03785880904306749,0.0,0.04300916222336565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07829500278468775,0.05183272152643421,0.0,0.040688343750520925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046977010452341414,0.0,0.09381184840953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07346368937438952,0.05090448294427695,0.05053515175586519,0.059339800464125736,0.04742990405639163,0.0396246816469285,0.0,0.0,0.048066212782506494,0.05272657070684431,0.0,0.04025993838234092,0.09415970209499834,0.0,0.1352043496311158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1035005441701361,0.12224230727399067,0.0,0.0,0.09115908409646377,0.0,0.038761825245909785,0.0,0.04134699806848606,0.0,0.04337012295510366,0.0,0.046523775026432984,0.0328665141596731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05563033072002608,0.0,0.03554392526433082,0.0,0.0721083104581834,0.04413290368562076,0.07843837702330064,0.07717487409237622,0.0,0.05072149741796318,0.0,0.0,0.04068272928230037,0.0,0.04121211199777745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1233467272305919,0.0,0.04614751435219517,0.0,0.0,0.10616890814901307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0505671097330967,0.03750082332352315,0.0,0.1461403270367081,0.0,0.04704399230528259,0.0,0.022476083672630404,0.046109843670053004,0.08124783322620896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10044141277347196,0.03911244009777485,0.0415219819806918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04621895548454915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04636297133617152,0.0,0.0,0.3232882423723243,0.07344269512918125,0.048896827285557984,0.0676390336491834,0.0,0.03548246750634885,0.0,0.09785526566372553,0.04317327613899232,0.0,0.1324312623067858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06997888591562043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04981973972850975,0.0,0.03189459163691416,0.04017044291327559,0.048066212782506494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09920395075744497,0.0,0.0,0.04624848163733376,0.0,0.0,0.09203639168617617,0.0,0.058944917908746175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10423108394653607,0.07857731148525703,0.0,0.07317123156468462,0.0,0.0,0.07332124641149948,0.12564571000541144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141692855908466,0.0517123861083584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03541747093501245,0.0,0.05149966614010045,0.03256310383373578,0.0,0.03674024821146883,0.07692572737213868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10441355081516283,0.0,0.0,0.0345905955324629,0.0,0.08042209963958014,0.04235590988196817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029478624428519513,0.04520041189530028,0.0,0.1073052819253002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03123488166117452,0.050041040803369935,0.0,0.04789360410204541,0.5533924794180975,0.03973419337213365,0.101337659229069,0.1897977929511928,0.13567690489563822,0.0,0.11070910333598163,0.0,0.04136469075330699,0.0,0.04151303006040145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06698546207831002,0.0,0.04688378559034435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02962619208880448 alcoholism,GreenTinkertoy,2018/12/31,"Mark my words, on December 30th 2018, I will begin my lifelong journey of sobriety Last night, I got so drunk it took 4 people to get me home. I’m only 17, and it’s weird to think you are an alcoholic when your 4 years below the legal drinking age. However, I’m still an alcoholic. I’m done with it. I have jeopardized my relationships with my friends and forever changed my relationships with my parents. I have to prove to them all that I am better than alcohol because I am. Therefore, mark my words, on December 30th 2018, I will begin my lifelong journey of sobriety. I look forward to joining all of you in staying sober.",3.187093889716841,5.3400674262295125,4.791192250372578,80.46625186289124,75.55737704918033,8.370789865871833,31.582712369597612,9.095868883498916,3.0745639344262305,494,25,92,12,11,166,73,122,0.042,0.893,0.065,0.3987,2,0,4,0,0,0,16.0,0,3,1,1,3,3,0,0,3,0,8,5,0,1,3,12,18,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,3,0,1,0,4,5,5,0,2,2,0,4,0,1,0,0,3,1,21,2,16,13,2,17,0,0,1,0,8,5,0,0,9,59,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5847550730819773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11118263281687683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.161308236178848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1929433629671856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18664725648700686,0.0,0.17867176978602822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14091327792590702,0.0,0.09529071720691852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458731334250841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18295102375837974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14867136648919696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15316081215850713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17115970772228925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13871504239669422,0.0,0.0,0.20252138435231234,0.0,0.0,0.126445557777942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3916350269652052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1944023911426064,0.1456560795913261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11686749750000093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20264087408750805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174525269409524 alcoholism,Tlanextic,2019/05/17,"I have become significantly more easily affected by alcohol compared to a few years ago I am 30 years old (might or might not be relevant). Something that has happened to me during the past year or so is that I seem much less tolerant of alcohol compared to previously. For example, it used to be that drinking 5 beers during an evening would be a good evening. Nowadays, if I drink 5 beers in an evening, I will get a pretty bad hangover the following day. &#x200B; It also seems to me that my memory function is more affected by alcohol compared to a few years ago. Not that I get blackouts (it has happened of course, but not on a regular basis), but more like that memories of some episodes are more patchy. Though I have not done anything stupid during these patchy memory episodes either, as I checked with others. &#x200B; Is this normal evolution as I have aged over the years, or is it something dangerous that I should be concerned about?",6.855113636363638,7.6734401931818175,6.807954545454546,74.75068181818183,64.68181818181819,10.490909090909092,37.02272727272727,10.436869588844218,4.053324999999999,758,37,132,18,11,241,99,176,0.054000000000000006,0.862,0.085,0.657,0,0,9,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,0,7,5,2,0,10,0,21,7,0,3,0,23,29,11,0,4,11,0,0,1,0,5,3,0,0,0,14,1,7,0,2,4,1,1,4,3,0,0,1,0,13,2,19,19,10,15,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,9,12,103,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20488975448857166,0.3705240959246985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0924204260003985,0.0,0.25043775965717363,0.2808577822827851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09510337655069304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09649522342043733,0.0,0.12763679570744602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07453239458170613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11826713294196302,0.0,0.22642709405944056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2289965511323925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12075998471298363,0.0,0.0,0.09693372951471077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20439443394234302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0564611381850764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.245200728277854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0849564559643908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11323300697249927,0.0,0.0,0.12127014394407445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11032361393695683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11757514250849058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21041921413904816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1779412062843274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11354588011036035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09981444344721252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08209684709252649,0.0,0.2808577822827851,0.3721129868057315 alcoholism,frootbeer,2019/05/17,"Detoxing without medical guidance? I have a question about my loved one planning a time to detox and would like input from others who are familiar with how this works better than I am. My alcoholic partner is in AA and has a sponsor and wants to get sober. He says he is a “maintenance drinker” and has 4-5 drinks a day (probably actually more than that). He says he can’t stop drinking without detoxing first due to his very physically and emotionally draining job. He wants to plan a trip with his paid time off to his sister’s place in the mountains to detox. He says being in that environment with loved ones and time to be in nature will help him have a better experience than if he were just at home. He would go to meetings every day and be in touch with his AA friends. He said he has talked to lots of (long-term sober) people in AA about whether he should go to rehab, and almost everyone says it’s a big waste of money and doesn’t work. I’d love to save money, we don’t have the money for it anyway! But my immediate reaction is wow what an irresponsible plan, plus roping others into taking care of him who are already dealing with their own issues, especially me whose life has been wrapped around his alcoholism for years now, as well as our 5yo. He doesn’t have a doctor and says that he doesn’t drink enough for unsupervised detox to be a real threat to his health. And if he needs to go to the hospital he will be able to. I told him he needs to consult a doctor about this if he wants me to be there with him. I’m not his babysitter and neither is his family. We all have issues with codependency and he doesn’t need to add this burden onto us. But apparently his sister is all for it. I want to support him in recovery and taking steps toward sobriety, but I’m worried if we go forward with this and we all go together it’s going to be a hellish week and I do NOT want our “vacation time” to be yet another time centered around his problem with alcohol. We really need to work this out because it has to happen within the next month due to his work responsibilities. But I’m having a hard time being patient with him because I think it’s a very poorly thought-out plan. Any input is greatly appreciated.",5.475486999414763,5.742765636568851,6.338008527715076,78.84558983362597,67.57787810383746,9.271766574701113,30.17715910040967,9.150863307647796,2.3811176155839817,1759,61,350,30,27,583,211,443,0.054000000000000006,0.867,0.079,0.7387,2,0,7,0,0,0,34.0,8,0,1,11,12,17,2,0,19,0,43,20,0,1,3,75,74,29,0,17,14,2,2,1,2,5,14,6,1,1,20,37,6,1,2,3,5,9,11,4,4,3,5,8,37,13,70,55,8,46,1,0,0,3,67,20,0,7,20,234,57,8,0.07772536706345247,0.0,0.07584874623493777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2491943387919148,0.07783072770803688,0.0,0.08577187531820922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05285591491955341,0.08150182436562793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13838411084244678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0947613246822118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13748354176533253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07924619184535828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10025286339348333,0.0801314405330046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15911041339049306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22842380809769566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08743057639798482,0.0,0.08031108147681945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0654869740185521,0.07426991907655872,0.0,0.07603032331666942,0.07327255868689989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06611315751815049,0.0,0.0,0.06005042578711404,0.0,0.0406082962944324,0.0,0.26503870370368143,0.0,0.0,0.0856924915821066,0.0,0.0,0.06873228540224435,0.0,0.06962666207089663,0.0,0.0,0.08261843058642795,0.0,0.0,0.052097675162211074,0.0,0.0779648805037079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16225017905983086,0.07713043358959183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05489972536910377,0.03797268828726445,0.0,0.0,0.06878450397649268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06607932759191815,0.2104505351271053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07830013019308853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06203964644679168,0.0,0.0,0.230529499292,0.0,0.0,0.08266180964704589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10533744054101106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05388498298540075,0.0,0.08120646558021284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08380109172588622,0.07437267923961607,0.0,0.0,0.08707019939696457,0.0,0.0,0.0884684839666009,0.049792860412617865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07393462300730629,0.3090516577832977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06498188717659838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08820182545633433,0.0,0.0,0.11687960598087023,0.0624727058610265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04980327680149215,0.0,0.0617052594406307,0.2719337195132621,0.0,0.0,0.07426991907655872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09349404650530274,0.0,0.0,0.1282631357725844,0.2292221764442269,0.0,0.0623466011364335,0.0,0.06988443943137322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14984896042595278,0.0,0.2263399717073893,0.07893388313203686,0.0,0.11042774142430273,0.0,0.0,0.05005258806260415 alcoholism,bribeekins,2019/05/17,"Alcoholism/anxiety - what comes next? So in the past few months I kept having severe daily (all day long!) panic attacks and didn’t know they were withdrawal symptoms from drinking heavily the night before. Have been a heavy drinker for quite some time and was first placed on Librium for four days, now 900mg gabapentin daily for 14 days. I still have some breakthrough anxiety that gabapentin seems to help within a 30-60 minutes of taking but I don’t know if that’s a placebo effect. I also don’t know if the anxiety is still from withdrawal symptoms or something else. I’m afraid of how I’ll feel when I stop the gabapentin. Has anyone transitioned from gabapentin to a long term anxiety med/SSRI successfully? Or know what I should expect? Also what the hell do you do with yourself when you’re not going to the bar or chugging wine on the sofa? I am at a loss.",4.161402753872636,6.250490114457836,4.317418244406198,85.2277108433735,72.55421686746988,7.393459552495698,27.5197934595525,8.192908349453996,1.8800444061962136,693,26,129,11,14,215,108,166,0.152,0.797,0.051,-0.9469,0,0,5,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,1,5,9,6,2,2,12,0,15,5,0,2,1,26,26,14,0,4,7,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,5,4,3,2,7,3,0,2,4,5,0,2,5,1,9,1,17,20,5,26,1,1,0,0,3,6,1,8,18,82,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2265157207051105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43337247624158826,0.0,0.0,0.09902784183156106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611194507908951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.120512868406336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1219978269776344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2740101913371408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13873907159283402,0.0,0.0,0.11830993139620323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0716101076456314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1204665770682184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0804890348213837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09492858661727822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31133468161241284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25066821977481424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1573140021642156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130441220859198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506203248530434,0.13290593680204407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16616700811425547,0.0,0.0,0.13519756401909686,0.0,0.0,0.1479685029650964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506361511740387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12893053517385855,0.0,0.15999650173224395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10903022829730673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2262046128333897,0.11840525870283612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2944062417144802,0.10648474970910292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0825829673672197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,mrthrowaway_trash,2019/05/17,"I don't think you actually stop I just killed a six pack and I know that I have a problem because it literally did nothing and all want is more. I want to be under control of my issues, but at the same time, I have these feelings of complete isolation and there is nothing to do but drink my problems away. I tell myself that being afraid of alcoholism will only make me afraid alcohol, so I shouldn't quit completely, but I should limit the amount that I take in. But here I sit. Drunk, mad, depressed, and confused. What do I do?",3.6350943396226434,4.986365103773586,4.7171226415094365,84.84285377358493,72.49056603773585,7.564150943396226,28.34433962264151,8.07648339933343,1.8020981132075475,415,16,84,6,8,136,71,106,0.27699999999999997,0.723,0.0,-0.9805,0,1,3,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,3,4,8,2,3,4,0,14,4,0,2,1,25,21,9,1,6,5,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,6,4,4,3,3,2,0,0,2,8,0,1,1,1,17,0,9,15,4,7,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,1,2,66,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.17619869256235293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3859234671510888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1696403101204278,0.0,0.0,0.11006656235796408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.378623535618915,0.0,0.2025112999936835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15551445588876994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1768782317212453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09129561750924628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.188455780994712,0.0,0.0,0.1997608229069702,0.0,0.09923002821929078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12052395622985912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.346500797723535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13732259685818307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3455394978788301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1920458004155648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1509546845413371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13575724572455874,0.0,0.15781576718170567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11569436138816196,0.0,0.0,0.10528489970781668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21299573058554136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Cameronrd1,2019/05/17,"Day 64, how do you stay away from sugar/nicotine? A little background: I’m 32, I started drinking at 18 and REALLY started drinking at 21, I was pretty much drunk every night until I turned 32. Before I started drinking I was fit and a comfortable 175 lbs. Now I slap my stomach and the Mexican wave stops in the middle of my back. I have love handles that would make Beyoncé blush. Just before I stopped drinking in March I was 190 lbs. When I was drinking I never ate sugar, never drank soda, never ate dessert. I just ate lunch and dinner, and drank my dessert ( actually I just drank all day most days). I heard all these stories of people losing 20-30 lbs by giving up booze... this was not the case for me. 64 days later I’m 200 lbs. Sodas, ice cream, peanut m&ms... I can eat the SHIT out of some peanut m&ms. When I buy a bag of m&ms on my way home they sit there in the grocery bag glowing like the one ring. 3 months ago if someone offered me a donut at work I would have told them to get the hell away from me , now I eat 1-4 of them. I don’t crave sugar, but I can’t seem to stop buying sodas when I’m in the chilled beverage isle (coincidentally right next to the beer). The fucked up thing is I hate sugar, I know how terrible it is for my health and physique, but for some reason I eat it anyway. I guess it’s just like drinking a fifth a night knowing it’s terrible for my health, but saying fuck it I’ll stop starting tomorrow. I’m the heaviest I’ve ever been and I haven’t drank a drop in 64 days. I also have started using those tobacco free nicotine pouch things ( I used chew in high school but quit and didn’t use anything with nicotine again till recently). Am I just replacing booze with sugar and nicotine? Am I subconsciously just trying to search for other ways to alter my reality and run away from anxiety? Damn I wish I could smoke weed... stupid drug tests. How do you deal with it? Any support is welcome!",2.2176332199546493,4.206420961734697,3.587278911564628,88.73787981859414,77.90306122448979,6.090249433106576,23.89909297052155,7.054809383877858,0.8695507936507942,1515,51,312,17,36,496,209,392,0.14,0.779,0.081,-0.9787,0,0,10,0,0,0,61.0,0,2,3,3,20,17,7,0,18,0,24,40,2,8,6,55,59,24,0,5,12,0,0,2,0,2,3,3,1,0,13,14,32,4,4,8,3,1,8,10,0,1,16,9,46,8,40,40,6,63,1,1,2,3,13,21,5,6,38,187,59,3,0.0,0.0,0.07496773697081605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06809856441211964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0614349736392966,0.0,0.24971163565221965,0.0,0.05224197529603585,0.0,0.05876904828287705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06321842134091367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21653197246492775,0.05907180682264052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1307406809680602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06133656321366233,0.0,0.0,0.2477209797962317,0.07920068630223158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.451541174070252,0.08908978028707992,0.23582597358325286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06949040387839628,0.06472632030107417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14204243801128635,0.04013661697194525,0.07369519989447286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08462871111587758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07584637357692604,0.0,0.16331757822232734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0811672527059487,0.0770592916125329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08443934000835931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07506324491579155,0.07699638733434618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08594479441754653,0.0,0.0,0.06933535993641796,0.0,0.051279655472612484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061319034624242076,0.0,0.0564734210664416,0.0,0.17775088316802665,0.0,0.08170166430907894,0.14418553729556452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052056954977193697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05325909038250743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0781561619356149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08171024905198443,0.0,0.0,0.049214499220268576,0.07898638666825461,0.07585301025797095,0.0,0.0,0.06560604666222092,0.0,0.06109238330539669,0.0,0.0777485322864158,0.0,0.06993637355544212,0.0,0.0,0.07885725407876154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06509150596156628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2718770175769684,0.08188262760976016,0.0,0.2569084008657493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08717733093009934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10207499085035447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07340724843267825,0.0,0.0521574756127013,0.08356088534762242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19905007910180345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12195634498696505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08834215292476014,0.0,0.0,0.055927738780227665,0.0,0.0,0.10914508524288734,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Wince18180,2019/04/16,"I need support with alcohol I really don't know how I got to where I am today.. drinking used to be fun - these days it's needed, it's a crutch, a dummy, as well as a guilty pleasure and something that I know for sure will ruin my life if I don't make a change with my relationship with it! Hit me how do I get through tomorrow as day 1 with no alcohol? Please help me I'm so scared for my future 😔",2.3348106060606058,2.6945434659090917,4.611818181818184,88.12106060606064,74.56818181818181,8.139393939393939,24.89393939393939,8.344100000000001,1.25340303030303,307,9,74,5,6,108,59,88,0.138,0.649,0.213,0.7051,0,0,4,0,1,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,5,7,0,1,4,0,6,4,0,4,1,15,17,8,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,5,5,3,0,2,1,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,0,12,5,12,13,0,6,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,5,47,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4455175132456176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22050167127238332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2688528556347752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20419165106868264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10890119296014923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667083501568325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1397128048534503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22910612685930914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14722719570728884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.139135185694807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3091109425445989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22880430814415845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13353187389385074,0.0,0.0,0.22378633980096915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20868460336687888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1604671422175811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2365350159931383,0.1964520456103881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19757655907311708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18002506363163046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18741241366659545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,dirtydan7676,2019/04/16,Question. Anyone else find the same satisfaction of drinking sparkling water/mineral water instead of beer??,9.06375,13.574947875000005,7.442500000000003,55.95250000000002,70.25,8.200000000000001,45.5,8.841846274778883,6.110100000000001,90,6,8,2,2,27,14,16,0.0,0.7040000000000001,0.29600000000000004,0.6662,0,0,2,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3041098392047429,0.4456323038275562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42606115586440174,0.0,0.0,0.3633242282955279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3975137885625278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4872158043247626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,andyx1234,2019/04/16,"Relative wants to keep doing therapy and thinks AA will lead to finding a drinking buddy. How can I help? My relative has been doing therapy on and off for a few years. They insist that working thru their childhood issues will solve alcohol abuse, which has not improved during the time they have gone to therapy. Not sure about the type of therapy, or if alcohol abuse was discussed, but I know meds are involved. Since the family members have not noticed an improvement in alcohol abuse (with meds, the alcohol is probably affecting negatively their mind/health). They believe AA is for loners, that it's depressing to attend AA meetings and that they will only find a drinking buddy. How can family members help? Or convince them to attend a few mtgs? Or do anything else to help. They are aware they have a problem which seems like a positive, but they seem stuck on avoiding AA.",6.6256022727272725,8.1099130375,6.7502272727272725,72.57386363636367,65.5,10.31818181818182,35.17045454545455,10.436869588844218,4.099499999999999,706,33,113,18,11,226,96,160,0.177,0.71,0.113,-0.8983,0,1,6,0,3,0,20.0,0,0,10,2,3,6,0,1,11,0,19,6,0,4,1,28,27,11,0,3,9,0,0,1,0,3,4,0,0,0,6,4,6,2,6,2,0,4,4,3,4,0,4,0,13,3,16,20,2,11,0,1,0,0,16,4,0,6,4,82,19,3,0.0,0.3738776602701746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4496389980383068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08655750208821231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11850639296810113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09059485892694268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20608062907662394,0.0,0.0,0.08786776791939084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19831630223665608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19227261271306706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11180571515530802,0.0,0.0,0.2115079330881214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10978480936456553,0.0,0.09349240705022628,0.0,0.0,0.05780639720254045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051387608554072726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23367151125031324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10620589510043046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11975272590548527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07999720166687663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11340618460921754,0.10064692020145427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1915111978966632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08700932425614685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09913471224433347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.48114846330728495,0.0,0.0,0.06739768524219962,0.0,0.0,0.06133365918721478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06204027160741795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0765752333509406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0677350727191469 alcoholism,Paranoiadestroyer,2019/04/16,"New subreddit for people experiencing mental health issues (mostly) in the UK! Hello all! I'd like to introduce [my new subreddit](https://www.reddit.com/r/MentalHealthUK/). As someone from the UK who has dealt with mental health issues for years, I've noticed a lack of active UK spaces and would like to try and change that if there is the demand for it. Anyone is welcome to participate but I would prefer it if people who are not from the UK only talk about their specific healthcare processes/systems if relevant to a comments discussion rather than promoting it - just so we dont get swamped out/conflicting information due to uneven population. I'm hoping it can be a sub where people can either ask questions, talk with like minded people, give support, vent or promote their own blogs or work if related to mental health/therapy. Thanks for reading if you got this far 🙂",9.816923076923079,9.518142615384617,9.185512820512825,63.938653846153876,58.74358974358975,11.902564102564106,36.80769230769232,11.20814326018867,4.3300153846153835,712,27,109,16,8,227,109,156,0.018000000000000002,0.8029999999999999,0.179,0.9777,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,1,1,2,3,6,7,0,0,7,0,10,2,0,0,1,27,18,12,0,11,12,0,0,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,8,5,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,6,7,19,14,5,8,0,0,0,0,16,4,0,10,7,71,14,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09085427795352152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12147262740457332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13745506756002765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15228403365850648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06788620126699108,0.12464645876717136,0.0,0.0,0.10392169547468698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4143477012544962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12905577423200695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27123886782640444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1904405105568082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3928348043544123,0.0,0.13119832748385918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2509860124102452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14793300631359213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0988221892217795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3603250699012302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14555806620800765,0.0,0.1299711705251785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11009435791678976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14744984206258538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20887528267747815,0.0,0.11962761870955085,0.14859314917889366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0882180202057626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09459496135152784,0.0,0.0,0.18460562406843145,0.0,0.0,0.08367452903010872 alcoholism,yeronyms,2019/04/16,"memory lost lately after drinking Hey.. I like alcohol. I am trying to drink only Friday/Saturday. I am drunk almost every wknd for almost two years but I still like it. &#x200B; Recently (4-6 months?) I suffer with lost memory the next day.. I dont remember half of the night, how I get home and when and what I did before I felt asleep. &#x200B; Its so weird. My GF told me that I was very ugly on her and she was afraid of me. Thats the reason she broke up with me. The worst part on this that I dont feel shame because I dont remember it. I dont believe it that it happend. &#x200B; Today I heard that three weeks ago I was in one club (I came there maybe in 2 a.m.? I was drunk but not that much atm) and I was kissing with one girl. I remember that I met her but I dont remember kissing etc. and home coming (in my mind - I was in club and then nothing - and morning opening my eyes) &#x200B; Its so weird. &#x200B; How can I overcome this memory leaking?",0.7308545454545481,2.9352379400000044,2.705454545454547,91.85772727272727,84.6,5.636363636363638,20.590909090909093,6.980632752743323,0.4880499999999999,748,23,160,10,22,250,109,200,0.16699999999999998,0.7440000000000001,0.08900000000000001,-0.9453,0,0,3,0,0,0,52.0,0,0,0,2,7,13,0,2,4,0,15,9,2,3,0,29,25,16,0,0,4,0,2,2,1,0,1,1,2,1,16,13,5,0,7,6,1,2,6,9,0,5,14,4,33,4,15,11,4,24,0,4,1,2,10,8,0,2,16,111,49,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061996662518214736,0.07474347163673152,0.14006751879952192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3788941351908739,0.42491741930344495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0426341369830939,0.0,0.05951289829199291,0.07879725077430236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07999153100315007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06024621573427245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045104839186228686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4098396638824498,0.13702709703980048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07800042082517332,0.0,0.0,0.058926584875809776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035363236385875164,0.0,0.06715236337756944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03654021664793986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14030894592969276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07889418602130148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0683372799814588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1526932593419807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07026307935586573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07061840581200135,0.0,0.0558246055311158,0.0,0.05141317819736753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07438087062588601,0.06563297018732513,0.0,0.06710831227222203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0947848900283894,0.0531917258057468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07573707128026852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07190889264816112,0.06905627921162415,0.0,0.31690880271544103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05585333871293608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06629395029426399,0.06682966736170358,0.0,0.047483958601441084,0.0,0.0683201951693093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05770696134470602,0.0,0.0,0.05610080994952553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42491741930344495,0.0450383930992052 alcoholism,loala_f,2019/04/16,"Need help or advice ASAP please. Hey ya, I am only 22 and I’ve been drinking heaps lately. I don’t know when to stop and I WANT TO drink whenever I’m bored. This is awful. I don’t want to be like this but I am lore social and loving when I am drunk? What should I do?",-2.2896357012750457,-0.5023763934426224,0.7877595628415328,101.48670309653922,99.81967213114756,3.3668488160291434,10.05646630236794,5.033348758259628,-1.7868375227686704,204,2,52,1,9,71,41,61,0.133,0.6459999999999999,0.22,0.6571,0,0,2,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,10,4,0,0,0,11,16,7,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,3,1,1,3,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,8,2,3,13,0,4,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,1,5,31,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2676133269135976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5365580922282235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1835629312944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15050657764660455,0.0,0.3089265908274526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13379441499905428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24716980812243866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20306410270762007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2082832632174094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.300616608046658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2791663082244281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2289596542271529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.323060055902876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,undercovermf,2019/04/16,"I get sick every time I drink, dull pain upper right abdomen Anybody experience this? I'm 29, and I was an on and off heavy drinker for years, mostly vodka. For a while I drank everyday, then cut down to only on weekends. About a month ago, I just had enough and stopped. I get this dull ache in my upper right abdomen every time I drink even a little bit, and get extremely tired for a whole day. Those symptoms get better the longer I go without drinking, but I tried having pne a couple nights ago, and they came back almost instantly. I think I'm done with alcohol. Just hope I didnt do too much damage.",3.0707438016528923,4.787432148760331,3.9521404958677695,88.27911983471077,74.6198347107438,6.4928925619834725,23.670247933884298,7.1686216300943375,0.8539877685950409,474,14,96,5,10,152,84,121,0.165,0.785,0.05,-0.8554,0,0,6,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,1,1,6,7,1,0,7,0,6,11,2,0,0,16,17,8,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,3,7,5,1,1,5,0,2,2,5,0,0,6,0,13,2,12,11,5,26,0,3,0,0,1,10,0,3,14,58,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25839273275430424,0.1557597546971552,0.14594506979343422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11207083236926443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12890182122965074,0.15911852361045342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16669631439460098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.161266838495656,0.0,0.09399508122190343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14915029671527555,0.0,0.4283311951078902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15059613004376776,0.0,0.09626485031117896,0.0,0.24559711248110255,0.0,0.0,0.14256902343883496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3045882165776748,0.0,0.08283166398216113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14476015515207338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1460772859698478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11633426536370454,0.0,0.10714118368951484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13677415716129968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11084754269495106,0.1550856177971044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2489351402427017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1218514375822599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15148746001278926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09338911407846108,0.0,0.0,0.16997308065108002,0.16751531290793512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09895298655321813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16272188073132865,0.0,0.14049539065006686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0938566125906139 alcoholism,381jm,2019/04/16,"Yesterday, I almost made the decision to drink at work Yesterday, I was sad. I read something I shouldn't have read. Then on lunch, I went to go get alcohol. Not unusual I don't think - I live in a blue law state so it was impossible for me to get it before work or after work, so I had to get it on lunch. On the way there I went back and forth with myself. ""I could definitely get a shot, drink it before I go back and no one would notice. I could totally get away with it. I would even work better, because I'd feel better. Just this once"" I ultimately decided it was a fucking slippery slope of an idea and it would not be just that one time.",0.6963174603174593,2.733893600000002,3.0299735449735468,90.5141666666667,83.37037037037038,6.8201058201058204,20.01322751322752,7.957251820313856,0.7785449735449732,496,14,113,10,14,170,78,135,0.042,0.889,0.068,0.4939,0,0,4,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,6,8,4,1,0,6,0,13,6,0,1,1,25,26,7,0,6,5,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,9,5,5,0,5,4,0,4,5,2,0,2,7,2,16,2,15,12,1,19,0,1,1,1,0,6,1,2,7,78,25,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14094593304215536,0.13206469203121934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12391115766030104,0.2028242541317441,0.0,0.08039642907857854,0.0,0.22445039798460825,0.0,0.0,0.23328474674823124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2106003414144348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2583959725365682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08710940237838181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06668548086744222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1219264023495712,0.34452473348022805,0.0,0.14990760852313054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1488831437436247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11645767836013245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12479364073356056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15015298726959747,0.0,0.14045419416303548,0.1787386171768892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2638432084846871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10153221999152323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08450716839764892,0.0,0.0,0.07690373707571571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10468489978172793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24451912724882274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3840580647019267,0.0,0.0,0.2810639080289188,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,KyleReese35,2019/07/02,"How can people feel AA is a safe way to stop drinking especially considering the detox phase? First off I am not trying to bash AA or say anyone who goes to AA is foolish. I am just asking an honest question that I'd like to get some feedback on. Second, I've heard that if you are a hard core drinker who's been abusing alcohol for years, stopping cold turkey without medical supervision is super dangerous due to the possibility of having a seizure. Yet AA offers nor promotes any kind of medical treatment when going about their style of becoming sober. Why is that? Do they not know about the dangers involved?",6.87321428571429,7.403123439655175,7.250443349753696,72.59603448275865,64.60344827586206,9.732019704433498,35.536945812807886,9.606745405546679,3.460742857142857,493,22,85,9,7,161,90,116,0.15,0.7509999999999999,0.099,-0.5538,0,0,3,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,2,3,6,7,2,0,7,0,11,5,0,1,0,14,17,5,0,1,6,0,2,1,0,0,4,2,0,0,5,0,2,3,3,1,0,1,4,2,4,2,2,5,5,5,14,15,1,11,0,0,0,0,11,2,0,4,8,54,10,3,0.0,0.2403726723673865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21681074929890068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13796136670853373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418543102538054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1896599275601349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2240585399422935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19873941451264032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10257925689777364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17256463316362697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10599336072437274,0.0,0.11529804453380485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18173537386069505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21126218951570144,0.11149431740958486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0991140533974584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40874868938834336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14064737899337426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2287101015941895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22726545792788785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16133365265255747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3392237171498385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13773821871818284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16103204308256552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18306234920753864,0.0,0.0,0.19556342380679864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306442896112194 alcoholism,roast1365,2019/07/02,"Does Lyft and Uber create more alcoholics? I apologize if a thread like this has been created but I couldn't find anything close to this topic. I was just wondering if anybody has a friend or has noticed the quantity of drinks people are consuming? I bring this up because I have a friend who lives downtown and he is a frequent user of these ride apps, I've noticed ever since he started using these apps his drinking is becoming more of a problem because he feels it's okay as long as he doesn't get behind the wheel. I get this is alcoholism but I feel these companies helped escalate it.",5.211847826086956,6.4272915217391375,5.71538043478261,79.68959239130437,68.56521739130434,9.228260869565217,32.63586956521739,9.516144504307137,3.1057173913043474,475,21,87,10,8,153,76,115,0.035,0.8079999999999999,0.156,0.8917,0,0,4,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,7,1,12,4,0,1,1,17,20,9,0,4,6,0,2,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,10,3,4,0,4,2,0,2,2,1,0,0,2,2,8,4,8,17,2,8,0,0,0,0,10,2,0,4,5,56,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3860660219907785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14863884427483615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22021443887527672,0.1994859329814184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15806600532308784,0.0,0.0,0.35388713623185875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16338549906167488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18265868171829802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16508782167863334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2791005901042055,0.0,0.188738036580826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12106901566675073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.088244167879762,0.0,0.1594950334655302,0.15984728999193665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4112851306455762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12522251384442012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17283356771686614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14941472531621722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12784718384410654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1560018587565233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19587992242832464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,RoyaLxRoyal,2019/07/02,"I'm 21 and need advice on how to quit Hi, I'm 21 and have been for the last 8 months. Since I turned 21 I've been drinking daily. I go through about a gallon of whiskey a week. My dad is a heavy alcoholic and has attempted to quit multiple times but to no success. I know the addiction can be passed down through genes and I'm sure I have it. I need help. I know this will kill me but it's the only thing that makes me feel happy. All I can think about all day while I'm at work is having a drink when I get home. I need to escape this if I want to have any hope of a fulfilling happy life. I drink so frequently and such a large amount that I'm worried how my body will react to quitting. My dad has had seizures when he tried before. How can I quit safely?",1.1538123924268504,2.495886463855424,2.7535628227194486,96.4397590361446,78.93975903614458,6.1886402753872645,20.290877796901885,6.868970318607317,0.044441996557659465,587,14,145,6,14,193,97,166,0.07,0.738,0.192,0.9688,0,0,5,0,0,1,13.0,0,0,0,7,9,7,1,0,9,0,17,8,1,5,3,26,35,15,1,6,3,2,1,0,0,2,3,0,1,0,7,5,5,1,4,4,0,2,1,1,0,0,3,1,17,6,16,29,3,14,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,2,9,85,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14332673391760428,0.0,0.1284754696251725,0.0,0.14050637669232252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08940724490100349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1118752116052004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14603865556698736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0847902483864879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3863852017866661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06647751440878484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06869005857404438,0.0,0.0747200520709473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2799143393595108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08812466133809359,0.0,0.13187975604020402,0.1305839555884185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14545717905641953,0.0,0.14451001725387178,0.10716935680367302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09286440691725648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08776032470630647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1049417812913121,0.0,0.0,0.292460277598195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09999236721704696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5593577353471246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10875715801356776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12391326626611365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08734589047897122,0.08424362292546797,0.0,0.0,0.07666390379193168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08926263161180187,0.14300662442575085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07754713279405735,0.0,0.10546100365558464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09571508369559284,0.13351885084033344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Instanteternity,2019/07/02,"Does someone else’s denial of their drunken behavior ever make you feel crazy? Has anyone else ever been called a liar because they reminded another person of something they did or said while drunk that they refuse to admit or have no recollection of? I am struggling with a friend that has said things to me or others on several occasions that she later completely denies. What makes it worse is that her boyfriend will often back her up even if he was not present for the situation because “she would never say something like that.” I feel like a crazy person because when I try to get her to confirm with the people I tell her she said something offensive to she just calls me a liar and refuses to ask them. Yet, she has been baffled by why certain people affected by her behavior become standoffish towards her later. I have absolutely no reason to lie to her about something she said as it often times doesn’t affect me but instead affects other acquaintances. I am trying to be empathetic, and realize that alcohol is the problem...but I am hurt that my friend would rather assume that I am lying than admit that she may have said something inappropriate while intoxicated. Just wondering if anyone has dealt with similar situations and how they coped with or resolved the problem...",10.179953379953377,8.991267205128207,9.54909867909868,64.48933566433568,58.572649572649574,12.440714840714842,40.50349650349651,11.389717465364855,4.758210256410257,1042,45,166,23,11,334,134,234,0.146,0.785,0.069,-0.9188,0,0,6,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,6,1,14,12,3,1,8,0,23,3,0,7,4,46,37,15,0,6,11,0,2,2,2,4,2,6,0,2,15,7,2,2,10,1,0,0,5,6,0,0,9,8,33,6,25,23,0,15,0,1,0,0,40,3,0,11,14,133,48,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10860855294345663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1065649635081895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14212018006743785,0.1041290597986869,0.0,0.0,0.09500769842029,0.0,0.0,0.07814503145860963,0.0,0.18585296437253185,0.11223924033493278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2075454350198036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10655416893268768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08893463361094926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16979294350768911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06712379659266735,0.18385521246888548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10277151561635027,0.07260248058754347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15703382059147716,0.0,0.053096009155973616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10879400242317387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09929981747369963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356738689955934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0783811494523719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409109867214296,0.17747387432906409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19448698015938964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10448967118146384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4833536220870237,0.08081801576876603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11480979094254888,0.0,0.0,0.22846642575648105,0.0,0.0,0.08610838324832369,0.3911878566626645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10624279839075138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08882663825445034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06751658532375397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05925962828057925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13799637396545836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09170272650296732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11021034597095428,0.0,0.0,0.1035667827946918,0.14438607143787388,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,idk2103,2019/07/02,"What kind of harm have I been doing to my body? I got into a really shitty situation this past weekend and finally realized that drinking should not be a thing for me. I’m 20 years old and been drinking since 17 but when I drink it’s always more than everyone else and the goal has always just been to blackout. Throughout the past year it had gotten pretty bad, passing out drunk and waking up and passing out again. Then throughout the past few months my weekends have consisted of starting drinking at 9 am and blacking out by 11, waking up a few hours later and blacking out again, then waking up again and drinking and passing out during the night life. Theres no way this has been good for my body at all and I’ve gotten curious as to what kind of harm I could have caused so far especially having a brain that’s not fully developed yet. I got in trouble and I’m going to mandated alcohol courses but I’ve definitely realized that’s probably the best for me and now I’m really looking for information on what kinda damage I could’ve done to myself so far",6.429142857142858,6.363889771428571,7.136904761904763,75.06392857142859,65.57142857142857,10.047619047619053,32.73809523809524,9.725611199111238,3.0569523809523798,852,32,157,16,12,283,117,210,0.125,0.784,0.091,-0.7679,0,0,6,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,10,9,0,0,9,0,17,14,6,1,1,31,27,20,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,11,18,7,0,3,8,0,4,3,5,0,0,10,3,12,4,28,14,5,42,0,1,3,0,1,15,0,1,22,111,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12484109557574702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19440103441638987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09753672872127134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12259149689252873,0.0,0.0,0.2595131436250049,0.0,0.13040562111649134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12000251572890877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18653661573151525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11954362976229585,0.0,0.572177494014277,0.0,0.0,0.09758502674999456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1116229780033088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12796654361989898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06638939371727197,0.0979799677588496,0.18685732844563047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11504052186639704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2432923946636163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0825108053631544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.098096268690902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09324165391273444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10962418154590173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12257905326905047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3345431210797168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11884417044405335,0.12594772600639925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14967102244530947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09663164816960457,0.131306412435875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08268317639076478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07760755716669056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09272333934658056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15045173081612068 alcoholism,Anonymoussincara,2019/07/02,No withdrawal symptoms from going cold turkey? Is it possible that a person not have any withdrawal symptoms after not drinking? Every time I binge drink and I stop it’s usually nothing happens but the last time I drank I would get buzzed often. I’m keeping an eye on it but I’m just concerned because I don’t want to die. It has been about 3 days since I’ve had anything to drink. So far I feel good but I just want to know that I’m making the right decision to do it cold turkey. I’ve looked up alcohol withdrawals last night and I hate the fact that I did because I’m scared. I love you all and wish you the best.,2.251310782241013,3.919406914728686,3.619295278365048,90.00158562367866,76.75193798449612,6.551374207188162,24.905567300916143,7.348242739294969,1.058745736434108,488,17,104,6,11,160,81,129,0.126,0.695,0.179,0.7435,0,0,4,0,0,1,8.0,0,2,0,1,5,5,1,1,6,0,9,9,1,1,2,23,27,7,1,4,7,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,8,3,5,2,3,3,0,1,4,2,0,0,4,5,12,3,9,22,2,14,0,0,2,1,4,4,0,1,9,59,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16529980316806994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10518383814207953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272837820591562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1885760534591656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16232115084346335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0997521372254136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1605275189439814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4545658304338071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13031978135400232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07820798105795229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08081094558972537,0.0,0.08790497763017481,0.1297334768671968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13677798584866435,0.0,0.0,0.15270886364406758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13748163794097645,0.0,0.0,0.08500495838771653,0.2521604215029735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12988746879660004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1395996080881039,0.0,0.10324630626327323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14515136661071304,0.0,0.1484141767384564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13505564570656825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17437204980989612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1320910198007844,0.0,0.0,0.15485597236997575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12794819164775853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12931465311598747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32153167384260506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18038367375527956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17035190564268146,0.0,0.1824618368058208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1778678287278678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10987619548396424,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,KillCreatures,2019/07/02,"Im 25, an alcoholic, and no one knows how bad it is. I think my parents have an idea. I think they dont yell at me when I take too much of their beer because they know I'm broken mentally and can't get over my ex girlfriend who I wanted to marry and dated for almost 4 years. I shat blood today mixed with feces. I think I'm killing myself. I have to stop this. The alcoholism began about 2 years ago. Now its matured. I need hobbies, I need help, I need to stop this. I miss you so much.",0.4883018867924527,2.1538325471698165,2.5704150943396264,95.51373584905664,82.01886792452831,5.372075471698114,19.090566037735847,6.2581,-0.1993781132075472,374,9,89,3,10,126,76,106,0.19,0.784,0.026000000000000002,-0.9398,1,0,3,0,0,1,14.0,0,1,3,0,6,3,1,0,3,0,5,4,1,1,0,18,20,6,1,4,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,5,4,3,2,6,1,0,0,3,3,0,1,1,1,19,0,9,19,2,12,0,1,0,0,9,2,0,1,10,53,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15163608146333782,0.3656263641814656,0.1712938150889313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1428295679881892,0.1042777660295526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20048331034312494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08937279916781196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1146592072128023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19310809953844835,0.1847762409735428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18925468286378885,0.0,0.1880223283817021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1723901932962472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2515004053689058,0.380520765259948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11591599226503213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18994403171091184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2860308696563464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286172839707817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32882873661131423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16214670982319448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1008967595765273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2203165514905712 alcoholism,GDitChar1ie,2019/07/02,"Naltrexone, anyone? What’s it like for you? I (27m) am curious to hear about others’ experiences with Naltrexone. My doc explained that I would not feel the euphoria/reward of drinking while taking it, but that hasn’t been the effect so far. However, my aversion to the alcohol itself has become extreme. The all-too-familiar smell inside the liquor store makes me gag, and when I get home just the thought of the first shot makes me dry heave a few times. This might seem like a positive, but I can still fight through it for a couple of shots until I feel just fine and can continue getting drunk. I still crave that drunken feeling. I know I’m not using Naltrexone quite as is intended, but I also know it works differently for different folks. Anyone have a similar experience, or other weird ones with Naltrexone?",5.651525119617226,7.240794164473684,6.1017224880382805,75.92796650717703,67.8815789473684,10.000956937799042,30.92344497607656,10.230975488527342,3.3655973684210534,651,26,114,17,11,210,106,152,0.10099999999999999,0.797,0.10099999999999999,-0.3695,3,0,2,0,1,0,22.0,0,1,0,4,8,5,1,0,11,0,10,4,0,5,0,27,26,12,0,1,8,0,3,2,0,2,1,1,1,0,12,4,4,0,9,3,1,0,3,2,0,2,2,5,13,3,14,22,1,9,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,3,10,79,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1804249512528939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13501106437581675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.236095830998408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18645639700802352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18680410437766612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3527770172812229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1653863993894403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3302908271027765,0.0,0.0,0.2560923406960349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1436043444672454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17641050550921478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1902805434579105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16934746390124167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18556604641281987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16496090079057554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253869565186601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17909899760890385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11440169146811995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17956852654796382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15369395757769666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26965126703160824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1269370563179112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1340299520518343,0.09844450785892073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458125095617913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12290822464065165,0.0,0.0,0.11993001101090882,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,gingahoe,2019/07/02,"My dads gonna die (maybe) (18F) my dad is 58 (I'm the youngest kid) and he has been drinking since he was 13. He's been arrested/robbed/blacked out/been cruel while intoxicated many times. When I was a kid he would come home every might and yell at me. I hadn't seen him for awhile but when he recently came to see me for my graduation he looked different. His skin was blotchy and swollen. His eyes were swollen. I know what this means. His liver is failing. Hes an older man and he doesnt look or act like himself anymore... he retired so now hes getting drunk every night.",0.6264043583535113,2.9625136016949187,1.8971428571428568,96.47322033898304,86.71186440677965,5.06634382566586,21.987893462469735,6.5431188927421005,0.2862062953995155,447,16,102,5,14,142,87,118,0.10800000000000001,0.863,0.027999999999999997,-0.8462,1,0,1,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,1,4,3,1,0,3,0,15,8,3,0,0,12,26,10,1,1,2,2,1,1,0,3,3,1,1,3,2,6,2,0,2,2,0,3,2,2,0,0,9,7,15,1,4,14,0,12,0,1,5,0,20,1,0,2,9,48,17,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21138634035275225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2437854501053392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18360882253078267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22121480834603566,0.22269513543093425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20880468288049306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3591741234844987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11136145352829706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21380563109817746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11714100922947372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1041337398492752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3579826275944425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2160994338404306,0.2141366243619259,0.2321815360011493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261171991046386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20002571495021484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21045873105670165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1698520015864074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1763188946030984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1242887826368666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1514147959532019,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Therese19,2019/08/11,Non Drinker Being Pressured by BF's family I need some advice here and would appreciate any positive input. Me and my boyfriend have been together a little over a year he HAD a very big problem with alcohol. He ended up with 2 DUIs and caused an accident for a cop who ended up in a wheelchair for life. He has cleaned up his act and has not had a drink in at least seven months he's doing very well. He does have a breathalyzer to start his engine. We recently moved out of state and in together and I'm finding that his cousin and his cousin's wife like to pressure us into drinking. They know his situation and the trouble that he had with it in the past and I think it's very selfish of them to do this in addition to me where alcohol has negatively affected every aspect of my life. My father was an alcoholic who died young of pancreatic cancer and I was left to take care of his mother. My first boyfriend was an alcoholic who used to beat me and my recent ex husband started showing signs of alcoholism so I left him.Let's just say I'm totally against it. What should I do when dealing with these people? I don't want to avoid them entirely but I think what they're doing is very wrong I need some sound advice. Thank you kindly.,3.4458433734939784,5.105973052208835,4.714495983935746,83.43680421686747,73.49799196787149,8.192851405622491,26.907831325301203,8.841846274778883,2.0489291566265058,986,36,197,20,20,326,146,249,0.094,0.83,0.076,-0.3497,0,1,8,0,0,0,13.0,2,1,3,2,6,12,0,3,12,0,21,10,0,3,1,40,35,14,1,6,3,7,0,1,1,2,8,2,1,0,12,19,7,1,4,3,0,2,3,7,1,2,7,2,28,5,33,25,4,32,0,0,0,0,31,17,0,2,13,132,40,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20392743024654889,0.0,0.5575598286527852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07095747441624119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10638562664197396,0.10718999508798276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10757404635245063,0.0,0.0,0.10829256204916272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09131210707361984,0.0,0.0,0.2044347233899522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18483556440521884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08791429096612681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09836620397833347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09536849380648058,0.0887549234614729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10865818283280476,0.05734471442183477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22674004690664196,0.10669877389665144,0.14740245682118494,0.050977190760209325,0.10458006523414204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0832863574917012,0.11090112176171582,0.0,0.15473945605801642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09960812151155764,0.07233896731190045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0998430826983963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2060541548926948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08297850915581335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11728698868128355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14771039119223772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07845367603408822,0.0,0.0,0.0960659040660456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1337187993005312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12551294255464068,0.0901196838709424,0.0,0.3443787961662219,0.061544774110642825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09381775588583303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07412295907548036,0.11408374571305405,0.0,0.06719409251215172 alcoholism,cyrusol,2019/08/11,"No to Alcohol, Yes to Consciousness While I am not an alcoholic according to medical criteria I know that alcohol does impact my life negatively. When I'm drunk at best I'm tired. At worst I begin to do stupid shit that I regret later and over time ruin relationships with my friends and family that way until they are sick of me. That eerie feeling of not being in control has to stop now. 1 day sober.",4.291434599156118,5.843607278481013,5.975379746835443,75.67336497890295,71.15189873417722,10.329957805907174,28.356540084388186,10.504223727775694,3.2624160337552737,321,12,60,10,6,110,60,79,0.326,0.56,0.113,-0.9670000000000001,0,0,3,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,2,2,7,2,0,1,1,5,9,1,1,0,11,10,5,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,0,7,0,0,0,4,3,4,2,3,1,0,0,4,5,0,0,0,1,8,2,13,9,2,14,0,2,0,0,3,4,1,0,9,42,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6748022542831992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22088084076672493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2360659446502096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13573915552062116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18418835232299136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1984173798599244,0.0,0.10642263513402292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1626126937243458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11567171980025055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1486649280164215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21203172038785675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22597170269896305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2160498695776792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17596677423302615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12272983931120655,0.2419103937706589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16706549534610712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,deer-li,2019/08/11,"Incredibly quick mood swings/personality switches/memory loss Hi, new here. My mother is an alcoholic. When she's drunk, she's a verbally aggressive drunk. Complains about things that weren't an issue before, gets insulting, irrational, impulsive. So whenever that starts, I usually know the evening will continue like that and eventually get worse. However, sometimes like today I notice something way more unsettling to me than dealing with anger. She changes rapidly. Was insulting me moments ago, and then switches to talking normally again, rationally, even laughing about something naturally, calm. As if sober. Can drunkenness subside that easily? It's as if there are two personalities within her, neither knowing about the other. She can insult me and right after compliment my shoes. It's like a very noticeable switch in her brain. It also seems that she doesn't remember what she did while in rage. Right after she switched to calm, even though I still firmly believe still intoxicated, she says that poor me I had to make that bed alone (bunk bed usually needs two people) and I just said mom you did that part just moments ago by yourself. It wasn't me. She didn't remember. She made the bed while she was angry. Is that short memory loss to every action connected to anger outbursts normal for alcoholism, does something like temporary alcoholic amnesia exist or idk, did some of you experience this before. Because I came to the point not knowing if she's showing normal emotions or if she's intoxicated, because she goes back to normal so quickly, even contentness that it's quite eerie. I would choose anger every time over this weird behaviour. At least then I know what to expect.",5.719025096525093,8.694031925675679,5.794343629343633,72.34891891891895,70.95945945945945,9.363706563706565,31.85521235521235,9.784248007369934,3.817238803088802,1374,63,210,38,28,433,175,296,0.179,0.7490000000000001,0.07200000000000001,-0.9857,1,1,6,0,0,0,44.0,0,2,0,3,22,21,8,0,8,0,17,9,2,2,0,34,30,21,0,11,9,2,0,4,0,2,5,2,3,1,21,6,5,0,8,3,1,2,6,12,0,2,12,2,33,8,26,16,5,36,0,2,0,0,30,9,0,9,28,146,54,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16473829416309574,0.29791390819575003,0.0,0.09623846795075952,0.0,0.0743091491477262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07145076238466053,0.0,0.11328795316436804,0.0,0.15813840531245174,0.104690511956885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10373092839431826,0.0,0.10627724001337738,0.0,0.0,0.09829843975364223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09579780477467764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08131607672675238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10452398251422818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2454946322845485,0.0,0.15658044609168614,0.0,0.0,0.09089488497396936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.097095113098435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09698572042910056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20426851804175614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1815866608720081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0879244034135934,0.06202570524618855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10882833149564088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06889998426673465,0.0,0.08974399364774657,0.0,0.0,0.36417267341003984,0.0,0.2115830862669562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10062473866197652,0.0,0.06441994610337863,0.1622706317661092,0.0,0.0,0.08784068590746252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09883326587476476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2105234920882728,0.15870860578663307,0.0883894577937365,0.07389476635059493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0845920833936561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21460612457983128,0.09190156532480427,0.0,0.06577019131670367,0.0,0.14841417858871614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07468664035005677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06173279868146636,0.0,0.09129472894005296,0.0,0.05418317121699079,0.0,0.08807855004776632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18154126289903208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20467942089039345,0.07666982372212001,0.0,0.07375662177668102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09469476754036144,0.06600864245237646,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,B1VCKM0CH1,2019/08/11,"My experience with alcohol pt2 If you haven’t read my first part of this story please do. So I’ve been staying in this hotel for the past 2 days and missed a day of school. I missed Thursday the 25th of April which would be the last day my best friend would be alive. On April 26th of this year(2019) at 2:10 AM a drunk driver drove through my best friends bedroom wall and killed her instantly. I woke up in a hotel room homeless at 6 am with my mother rubbing my back and telling me she was killed. The last text I would get from my bsf was her asking me if I was okay. I was broken. I went to school that day for my friends (I was a freshman at the time) and watched as all my friends crumbled in front of me. I would never wish anything like this to happen to ANYONE. This would be one of the worst weeks of my life all surrounded by alcohol. My bsf was literally the light of my life, we drove to school together every morning listening to music and we went straight to 1st period together where we shared coffee and monsters. We were total opposites but we fit so easily together, she was girly and sassy and I was on the more edgier side of things and wore a lot of black. Every time we argued we could solve it and we shared everything. We would go to movies together (she ended up being obsessed with bohemian rhapsody) and listen to music and play hours of cards against humanity with are friends. She meant so much to me and was taken away by someone who decided to drink and drive. My neighbor happened to be him ex girlfriend and he drunk called her and she told him he was gonna hurt someone if he drove but he did just to spite her. He killed my best friend. The girl who cured my panic attacks and was there for me and calmed me down when I was about to lose my shit. She was so so smart and was going to go places I couldn’t imagine. That was all taken away in a spit second. I had to see my best friends body surrounded by my favorite flowers and her lip stick not her usual dark maroon but a light pink. The last time I saw her was in the back of my mothers care handing me handfuls of pastel colored m&ms and laughing at my jokes and my teasing. I gave her the last hug ever that day on the 24th and her last text was her checking on me.",3.554575163398692,4.771151788671029,4.045806100217867,90.10112745098043,72.50762527233115,7.055773420479302,25.91830065359477,7.39963492309942,1.0795202614379087,1777,57,381,19,34,559,218,459,0.113,0.72,0.16699999999999998,0.9837,1,0,3,0,0,0,34.0,9,1,0,6,13,37,8,2,20,1,39,14,6,0,6,63,67,36,3,12,8,3,3,1,9,7,4,2,3,2,13,36,5,0,3,8,1,10,4,15,0,3,34,13,71,22,61,19,13,66,0,4,6,1,60,27,1,4,29,263,84,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1602106546513936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08121495578574657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05241108197904118,0.0,0.06168252369141891,0.0,0.07007388068581147,0.0852734401521449,0.14084753819346738,0.11527330314635105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3146474144794653,0.0,0.0,0.08325938353684298,0.0,0.0,0.07653860840900349,0.0,0.07642278915158107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05984638548904106,0.0,0.0,0.2417025746774481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07342848960917782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06638889957283152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06780212780766504,0.1263075762015438,0.0,0.06736575323928361,0.07332149637290998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0637576617815841,0.0,0.0,0.40537654177032384,0.0,0.03916149398787943,0.0,0.12779791999141482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325669494744228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0738167076900997,0.0,0.08024210744910812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2487836185335989,0.0,0.0,0.3054963272179983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10588748906824534,0.036619788067031284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08385675734018297,0.0,0.06372503715623286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05510139384976796,0.0,0.057810802767213273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05079222623051774,0.0,0.0,0.08794489027945886,0.0,0.08117020460438494,0.07155412538651558,0.0,0.0,0.07831322177464657,0.08227934234905275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07497643288510711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2275788725663509,0.059730345898055176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07694140947814991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1270202030807756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07989328126714762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06551497777820907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04979753454673472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311225992418744,0.0,0.0,0.07162381224537408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08255360805353427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060125301191321125,0.0,0.0,0.13897020157227466,0.0,0.0,0.0861958717910262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31948018458059624,0.0,0.0,0.04826930222039929 alcoholism,decent694201,2019/08/11,"It seems drinking & weed are the only ways to treat my social anxiety How much alcohol intake / per day would you consider alcoholism, for a young dude 120-150 pounds? Does it matter if I space drinks drinks out across the day, so I'm never actually drunk? I actually prefer drinking lightly and spacing drinks out across the afternoon. It takes the edge off of my (severe) social anxiety. It somehow feels much easier, almost natural to have conversations and I actually somewhat enjoy myself around others whilst drinking or smoking pot. When sober, I have no idea what to say to anyone and am an anxious mess. I definitely see why this kind of logic could raise some ""dependency"" red flags; that's why I'm on this forum. Since a young age, I've never really craved social interaction. In principle I'm fine with being a lone wolf, outcast, weirdo, whatever. But I hate how often I seem to make people uncomfortable, despite trying my best to act normally, make normal eye contact, and mind my own business. It's upsetting to have constant eyes on me as if I'm about to shoot a place up. Maybe I'm a paranoid schizophrenic, or maybe I just have severe difficulty with normal eye contact. I've tried socializing more, antidepressants & medications, therapy/talking to someone, sex, changing locations/schools, weed..everything I can think to try. Nothing seems to make any noticable difference toward my ability or will to socialize besides alcohol and weed, so I wind up feeling like a hopeless mess. And like I'm wasting all this time & energy trying to conform, despite not really understanding why I've gotten bullied and outcasted in the first place",7.991212121212122,8.835660797979799,8.366212121212122,64.4693181818182,62.232323232323246,11.717845117845116,37.375420875420865,11.429527900616536,4.8100289562289555,1335,62,205,38,18,441,185,297,0.159,0.747,0.094,-0.9657,0,0,9,1,0,1,50.0,0,1,0,2,10,13,1,1,12,0,11,16,3,6,3,51,31,19,0,8,8,0,2,2,0,2,5,1,0,0,11,12,10,0,10,7,0,1,4,6,0,1,1,9,18,7,33,26,8,32,0,2,5,1,11,17,0,14,15,119,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.21888293973238046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397068382668339,0.07486750200404513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2430272857163272,0.0,0.050843547692496785,0.0,0.11439180437879955,0.08446447123810559,0.0,0.05227823238380157,0.0,0.0,0.06655772726865469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07846246457809124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07909267594323273,0.0,0.0,0.08079564993157033,0.0,0.05969468917237367,0.0,0.0,0.09643596651413336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07811471643146682,0.0,0.0,0.06542836408841138,0.0,0.0,0.4394541953835524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06719499711838481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07560802657691018,0.053412954444541416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0635960513121705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07381609692989513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08440188585726904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07785744273580357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0730539312727559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14972096253457026,0.0,0.15022529932910084,0.0,0.0,0.07531903307056861,0.0,0.0,0.0754925008162639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10992344991089772,0.0,0.11532853233471002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2197648659347141,0.07174013999233943,0.08512176042225204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056863028237978036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051833436361804056,0.0,0.15622943286293364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09579422386266252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05945704553923956,0.0,0.07566733813041647,0.05957894371408096,0.204192892257055,0.0,0.16892894247621118,0.0,0.061847334144854965,0.0,0.0,0.3810733858890992,0.06334911857715418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056214842085442966,0.06009420146749514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04790713174018936,0.0,0.0,0.04359674490645573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20304523967996613,0.0,0.0,0.07783420175499674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0593458919538391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2023944711050387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053111729748946304,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,InDetox,2019/08/11,"I lost everything. Just another shitty post. I couldn't stop the booze. After losing my kids and my wife. My drinking has destroyed everything that I am. It's taken away everything that I've ever actually cared about. I lost my daughter, son and my wife. The last few months I've given up on trying. But yet half of me wants to prove them all wrong. I want to quit drinking. But it's still fun for me. It's still that safe Haven that everyone has when they get depressed to me. As a former opiate addict, I can't escape pain like this unless I'm 24/7 drunk or high. How do y'all cope? I really need to get out of the shit pit. I want to better myself, not only for me but for my children as well.",0.7069051724137942,2.9128702206896584,2.6740301724137936,92.03242456896551,84.72413793103449,5.556034482758621,17.338362068965516,6.9077264865688965,0.009215517241379256,542,12,117,7,16,181,95,145,0.127,0.7440000000000001,0.13,0.1232,0,0,2,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,2,5,9,14,2,0,4,0,6,7,1,1,3,21,18,11,0,5,7,4,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,2,8,3,4,2,1,3,0,0,3,8,1,1,4,0,22,6,19,13,2,16,0,4,0,0,9,5,1,1,11,77,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.14726416438366274,0.16451168778844932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1582399005485432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14178276894324648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1334656134714862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.153860476303016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12997659666478667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2956642255772846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13650467085353016,0.0,0.144198791866301,0.4068783799299421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15768610867529873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15944228981744885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12300993181851387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07372588852957834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16882713610459815,0.32946720210459723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12045310102220627,0.0,0.0,0.11189616099212113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1147721199472496,0.16057645208145255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14452787940766126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16050893403526034,0.0,0.0,0.09667534857100787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1549046042568916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24103019757719096,0.12616560971877036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10245643489886604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2670278464540893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13568416206122294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1649939000962486,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,officialkevsters,2019/08/11,"17 years old and I have a drinking problem. I have came to my football coach and my mother for help and haven’t gotten any. I’m not sure what’s the next step on finding professional help or anything. Without getting into an insane amount of detail, I became addicted to drinking at my house for the past month or so. I recognized it is a problem and turned to my coach for help (I am a football player and knew it would impact my health) my coach was very supportive and told me he would talk to some counselors and get me some help. 2 weeks passed by with no update and I confessed to my mom about my issues. She also told me she will find me some help. A week has passed by since that as well and nothing to be heard from either of them. I need to find help myself but dont know where to even start. It would be a great help if someone can lead me in a direction. Thank you:)",2.4544935543278115,4.032171613259671,3.3933480662983437,92.22600736648252,75.96132596685081,5.9316390423572765,22.563904235727442,6.42735559955562,0.3466903130755066,686,19,149,5,15,219,113,181,0.047,0.807,0.146,0.9532,0,0,2,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,1,1,6,7,0,0,9,0,15,4,0,1,1,36,30,16,0,7,7,2,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,0,5,12,2,0,6,5,0,5,5,2,1,0,7,1,25,5,24,17,5,19,1,0,0,0,19,5,0,6,9,102,30,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12483622143253052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0915761137939737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07787285956401231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09423455409261848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13097252137588644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342085429929237,0.22435855610032251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07563484658264136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31398879622427445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11965677481065745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12625113713044542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12172210910071525,0.0,0.0,0.5372901903949999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13213278455935004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11952196293822866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06293342497950882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341164013228115,0.09140329294280623,0.0,0.0,0.08491003963818848,0.0,0.0,0.1217860196677854,0.0,0.0,0.1098784427969898,0.0,0.1201622734522588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10931574611016856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2191472123655708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09472644976309524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09702660884914413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08105298732860239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299481501267083,0.10792727583478896,0.0,0.0,0.09204132134509403,0.0,0.10542831065747132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2188444183354714,0.0,0.0,0.12455740911109273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09448533030277076,0.0,0.0,0.18371106136296916,0.0,0.1029610620841947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1103865770635501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2440405396347961,0.0,0.0,0.073742705370759 alcoholism,KiwisAreVegetables,2019/08/11,"Discord server oriented towards fitness for the sober Like it says in the title. A new, sober safe space server for people who want to improve on their fitness. Join us! Still in early stages of development. https://discord.gg/AjGGJs6",5.534561403508771,9.236241052631575,4.890526315789477,71.280350877193,85.84210526315789,5.691228070175438,27.385964912280702,7.1686216300943375,2.290775438596492,192,8,25,3,6,58,32,38,0.055999999999999994,0.604,0.33899999999999997,0.8908,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,8,1,0,11,0,0,0,0,4,7,0,0,4,16,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22494296966090985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4446864178990109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3192043713409906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3661526260900417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3677002034313717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5538409160662844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2715736989250491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,TheRealCLJoe,2019/09/22,"I have work and travel oppurtunities for people here This is a post I made that was not welcome in /r/stopdrinking. It should be noted that this is a 420 friendly endeavor. Although there is work involved as a priority, the main focus is to travel and give back to communities and individuals in need. Mods, if this post violates any guidelines I will happily comply with any suggestions to make it more appropriate for the sub. Here was my original post: Okay r/stopdrinking, thanks to your help I went from being a loser with no prospects, money, or plans of productivity to having way too much work than I can handle. For the last 3 years or so I have been traveling all around the United States. I have driven over 250k miles across the lower 48 and I want to keep it going. When I started I was only running a gypsy cab, sleeping mostly in my car, and barely getting by. Now I have developed several side hustles that could easily turn into full time gigs for me. I want to keep all of them going but this is just impossible for me to do alone. I am starting to bring people into this project with a quality over quantity approach. Most of the work can be done from home with a flexible schedule. This is an excellent opportunity for someone having trouble finding a normal job to fit their schedule. Nothing I do can not be taught to anyone so what I am really looking for is someone needing an opportunity to excel. As I travel running a gypsy cab, giving tours, and transporting pets and possessions, I also buy and sell things from garage sales and random peoples closets. Along with this I have quite a few tools to provide handyman services. Currently I am in the midwest resting up and doing mostly handyman work. So what is the work? 1.) I have a couple thousand pictures of my travels, work, and items to sell. I would like 1 or 2 social media accounts started from scratch. Having one established platform like Instagram and then another new up and coming platform is my current idea. I would like the page to be an easy reference for people when I market my handyman work, to show off and sell my items from, and lastly to document my travels. Something easy to digest at first, and then quite a bit of depth if people want to really look and see what I do. This is a one time project of starting these pages. The pay will ultimately be decided by experience and quality of work. As an idea for this project I was budgeting about $500 for. I would like it to be completed about 60 days from now. I am not worried about followers right now either, as long as the page is up with the story and pictures I am good with that. 2.) Managing my social media accounts. This will be continuing to show my story through social media. I would like someone who can spend a little time throughout the week uploading photos, commenting on similar pages, sending me messages that need my attention, answering questions about my items for sale, and just general page maintenance. For this position some experience would probably be helpful. We can pay base pay, commissions, or most likely a combination. I am not sure what the exact work load will look like yet but we will offer a fair amount of compensation for your work. I am willing to combine the starting up of these pages with the maintenance. 3.) Online Sales Manager Most of the stuff I buy is not ""sexy"" enough to put up on social media. Even the stuff that is will eventually hit Ebay so I need someone to manage that store. I have enough inventory to keep 2 people busy working over 40 hours a week for a year. This is repetitive and very detail oriented work. It will also be the most lucrative with no ceiling on earnings. As an ebay store manager you will have the most responsibility of any of my jobs. There is no experience neccessary for this but attention to detail is absolutely paramount. If you can input data with a consistent and high degree of accuracy I can teach you how to do this. Eventually you will be able to have your own staff.and really just make sure the stuff isnt getting stolen. This requires a lot of work upfront, but really pays off once the system is going. The stuff I have is mostly mens vintage clothes. This requires accurate measurements, detailed photos, and answering a lot of questions from fashion focused buyers. The pay for the Ebay store will be per item listed, commission, or a combination. The pay will also depend on how much of the workload you are taking on. What zi mean by this is that you dont necessarily have to be hands on through the whole process. We could set it up where you just take photos, make listings, and then pass on the inventory to someone else to store and ship. Some of these items can take up to a year to sell and not everyone has the space to store so much stuff. Right now it all fits in a 10×20 locker. This position leaves me the most exposed as well. You will be in control of a large amount of inventory once things really get going. We will have to sign contracts and ideally you will own your own home or other assets. I am also looking at how much time you have clean, relevant experience with inventory management, retail or fashion experience, and motivation to earn a good living. This position will need to be filled within 3 months, hopefully a lot sooner. 4.) Drivers- Travel required. I need excellent drivers who can travel. This is perfect for someone who is single and wants to see the country. A vehicle isnt neccessary but if you have a van or good gas mileage vehicle we can compensate you for that as well. 5.) Skilled Carpenter- Travelnis required. My handyman stuff now is really basic. I limit myself to minor repairs because my skills are limited and I have a high focus on quality of work. I turn down work all the time because I dont know how to do it or get anyone besides tweakers and junkies that show up on jobs. If you can frame a wall, fix a leaking roof, build a retaining wall, and not afraid of a long days work then this is definitely the job for you. Just my handyman stuff keeps me working at least 60-70 hours a week right now. The pay for this can be hourly, daily, or by the project. You will be traveling with me and sometimes be expected to do different work like mowing and cleaning gutters. Experience on ladders highly desired. This position I would like to fill in the next couple of weeks. 6.) Laborers/skullery maids. This job sucks and pays not good either. If you dont have a high desire to travel, are not capable of hard work, or have a bad attitude this is not the one for you. The upside is all you have to do is what you are told and not get wasted. The amount of clean time is not important for this but the desire to build your time up is. If the past is an indicator of the future I expect this to be a position I expect to have to keep filling often. This is open for immediate hire. Big plus if you can cook. 7.) Volunteer Coordinator. This position is going to be filled last but could be combined with the social media manager position. A portion of my profits will be going to support individuals and communities in need. This will require a pretty diverse skillset but most of all a really big heart. We will be finding people that are in very bad positions that need help and give that to them. Lots of chance for creativity and doing some real good. Although this position will focus on the most important part of the project(to me), it has to be done last. You will have a lot of freedom on how you operate so someone who is honest and disciplined is a must. That really about does it. If you take the time to reply to me I will take the time to read and consider what you are saying. Having said that, replies that only say ""I'm interested"" will just be deleted. If you have general questions or comments ease reply to this post so everyone can see. If you want to apply or have questions involving personal information please PM. I have to get back to work now but I will add edits, answer comments, and provide further input at least once a day. This is my dream and motivation to quit drinking. It's my program and it works better than AA for me. Anyone who wants to improve themselves and be apart of my dream is welcome to apply.",5.06292064729967,6.619932502882772,5.941109879397267,76.64440971506559,69.26265214606022,9.068258362810909,30.870517784029197,9.477147793031232,2.951406435116843,6531,270,1168,142,115,2148,537,1561,0.043,0.823,0.134,0.9994,10,1,4,0,0,0,171.0,6,31,3,51,50,43,2,1,98,1,175,6,3,14,11,240,248,111,0,45,53,0,3,9,1,33,1,3,8,2,86,72,3,15,20,18,29,33,20,7,3,5,13,13,117,36,206,172,62,173,0,1,7,0,79,70,1,51,71,881,203,66,0.031382921760557306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032503242349940765,0.0,0.10038764477432137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06402438889026475,0.032907729793300415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06583100575277298,0.0,0.0,0.027937453932687102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04826305936343253,0.05240685760909535,0.038261475638974286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.027755643991127225,0.03426202245705449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.027033608262919936,0.03290439638087148,0.0,0.03519861529846665,0.07517012812265941,0.06944921203068974,0.0,0.060718164873657963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03278847372537592,0.0,0.0,0.027463406318441425,0.06423124975751589,0.11034165172670382,0.030743315722250288,0.0,0.0,0.026216404162380986,0.0,0.0,0.0648538947248766,0.0,0.020728123843463838,0.0,0.0,0.05997545325555735,0.0,0.18419111635425406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05736684387916865,0.026694297217557037,0.0,0.0,0.024246367503503216,0.0,0.0983776880253766,0.09031607458662756,0.10701382593744298,0.1316125291005878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028112933663418757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03718891338913737,0.06310593279750706,0.13263111952798826,0.06295925866574821,0.031170322437438662,0.09271756897789224,0.0,0.0,0.07085499745060721,0.0,0.0,0.15571353691542816,0.1394729140946842,0.0,0.0,0.017247233065294375,0.10232507943049836,0.0,0.03322998280824873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13798899323639754,0.03145393219344637,0.027711694876352173,0.0555457963902764,0.105415001152207,0.0,0.0,0.13340318908461704,0.0,0.029695279377142576,0.06284503190265972,0.0,0.0,0.034185202016018594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.025049548738738603,0.0,0.09228023383707153,0.1861603106711641,0.0,0.030309821395709688,0.033376093323837605,0.0,0.030748600100140463,0.030112759831335174,0.0,0.0,0.1002653623416833,0.0637976399440577,0.04773625233503883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03398464602328352,0.029958549872067343,0.15229876529286535,0.027402356785596663,0.0,0.0344490239785605,0.0,0.0,0.12022465602313748,0.031927713794517865,0.033836097588780645,0.0,0.0,0.03154850439051322,0.14062421876349973,0.10013880087764604,0.031391414424883565,0.035720635559461464,0.16083762628361414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08040253113043402,0.029852345211060737,0.049913918004482936,0.0,0.0,0.07502437644775993,0.0,0.0,0.03545376879589846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031405586131331195,0.15995468295179655,0.1861345343640285,0.02416010640211217,0.031038512080422742,0.0,0.1110649677456715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2514815598231305,0.0,0.03561296770943187,0.05915606471540385,0.0,0.11798025755568195,0.0,0.0,0.028893177928608238,0.0,0.0,0.041698837465086014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16469670648017204,0.0,0.0,0.029987726627778682,0.0,0.0,0.06827121408528825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051788394275818016,0.11106276214705292,0.024910302538762127,0.10069394739063997,0.0,0.056434031200258035,0.029092282884075518,0.0,0.035037911396914555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5026370978305587,0.031870880411119865,0.0,0.13376116319211928,0.0,0.0,0.06062871805287572 alcoholism,spirited_skeptic,2019/09/22,"Moderation - your opinions please I am watching my ex from afar. We are no longer together, but I am hoping that he recovers and maybe we can resume our relationship. He feels that he's doing better with his drinking. He resents any term about alcohol misuse being used in association with him, and says that ""by any online definitions [he could find] and tests, [he's] not an alcoholic"", and says that he's moderated his drinking. He was heavily under the influence and physically addicted for 3 of the 5 years we were together, I'm talking drinking every minute outside of work. Had been the same for possibly a decade prior to that. But he slowed the intake down to accommodate a zero b.a.c. job in the last 3 years. During the off-work times (2 weeks at a time) he still chooses to drink most of the time, but to what extent Idk. He doesn't drink the rare times we've caught up. I have really appreciated hearing from you all on here, and as you know the truth of how a user's mind works, can you please help me to understand his process and whether he's still in some kind of denial? He says he wants to keep drinking, believes he can moderate it, and it won't influence anything negatively anymore. I am not saying anything to him about how this affects my decisions regarding us. I am just watching and curious.",6.508499335989377,6.8640382031872536,7.20213545816733,73.23074634794159,65.37450199203187,10.677397078353255,33.864807436919,10.504223727775694,3.570701779548473,1043,43,192,25,15,346,151,251,0.024,0.87,0.106,0.9701,2,0,8,0,0,0,36.0,5,4,0,3,8,5,1,0,14,0,18,9,0,6,2,44,28,16,0,3,7,1,1,0,0,1,3,5,0,0,9,14,8,1,6,6,0,1,6,1,0,1,5,8,22,4,30,20,6,22,0,0,2,0,38,8,0,4,13,121,31,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11126081836488334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2181428967084312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1388090409030576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10121641746778423,0.0,0.0,0.16797390190572462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11498703605921146,0.0,0.09026406316798703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08148686438187075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5998815793790276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08599022520936311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051604766632279066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.093281287606093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11502940321979817,0.0,0.06840888416700465,0.0,0.0,0.1013689307428396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10127912389089604,0.0907159057962432,0.0,0.10628012249149664,0.05608968523217827,0.0831927862702123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10253331379118408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10305183360783972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22406317630175088,0.0,0.11505768101805333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06538245727289843,0.0,0.0,0.10957459349313448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3246498657468475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16301101395040626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08203222284947992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2380487838323464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1062483971457856,0.1227660040063553,0.08814735154771115,0.0,0.0,0.060197823676615324,0.0,0.0818666361228029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22290339528612416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13144700558604225 alcoholism,X-X_qwerty_X-X,2019/09/22,"Is it possible to drink moderately? I have this problem that I am sure most of you can relate to. Every time I have managed not to drink for some time and I decide to drink few beers at friday night. I just can't keep drinking only on fridays. First comes saturday and at this point it usually isn't moderate drinking anymore. And you probably can guess what happens next. I am drinking allmost every day. It affects my life in so many ways. I am unproductive, anxious, can't see my friends, I often have arguments with my gf and our sexlife is not the same while I drink heavily. I am so grateful that she understands me and loves me even at my worst moments. I guess it would be best for me not to drink at all but I just enjoy it too much. It is so relaxing to drink beer and listen to music or watch movies. So I would like to do that sometimes without it ruining my life. I could go on and on about this subject but maybe I will write soon again when I have sorted my thoughts.",3.097954545454545,4.704088126262629,4.194835858585858,87.02892045454549,74.30303030303031,7.374242424242425,28.031565656565647,8.07648339933343,1.7715747474747476,771,31,159,12,16,251,114,198,0.049,0.828,0.124,0.9520000000000001,0,1,11,0,0,0,17.0,1,2,0,2,13,10,0,0,1,0,22,14,0,1,2,37,33,16,0,4,9,0,0,1,2,3,2,1,0,0,14,9,11,1,3,12,0,2,7,3,0,1,1,3,29,7,22,27,8,25,0,1,2,1,9,9,0,7,14,123,43,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10441573193365794,0.0916623357350517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09699599782191044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07961731825551707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07379510664211199,0.0,0.0,0.05960750053070956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8148857878883378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06104688715003888,0.0,0.15574676698238407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07861800528095847,0.0,0.0,0.07140854965759329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0525281577566814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20363660546242016,0.0,0.0817325231402313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08215299475750751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1305672595596857,0.045154960379569856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08341860079042529,0.0,0.0,0.09370604942486407,0.0928549267785171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06794417410584029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09829672082415523,0.08673608809733871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07029458216455538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0873729969551336,0.10419708630499673,0.0,0.0,0.09965149025059176,0.08843975857020507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07365202107526388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09141225508820816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0871109617588569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07337638368330238,0.10778936901173328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09621933372209987,0.0,0.0,0.10179482453651677,0.0,0.0,0.07336392041273225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08909592889191101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13131438709574156,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,paddy_20,2019/09/22,"That was the turning point Im a 21yo guy that drank 3-6 times a week and couldnt quit. A month a go i was drinking in my room and decided to do skating. (Im not the best at it but im ok) First i was going to take my normal track so i had no worries, but then i wasnt carefully ao i fall right on my right hand and broke my arm. It was my first operation and i acted hysterically. That thing was really traumatizing for me. Since then i never drank again",-1.5010749646393189,0.473710158415841,1.8275318246110324,94.80952970297031,95.93069306930693,5.261951909476663,16.125176803394627,6.868970318607317,-0.18025657708628007,350,9,87,6,14,125,64,101,0.195,0.763,0.043,-0.9365,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,4,2,4,0,0,6,1,9,5,2,0,1,11,16,9,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,6,4,3,0,1,1,0,4,5,1,0,2,9,1,13,3,6,6,1,20,0,1,0,0,1,7,0,0,9,56,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18787586674699466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1825280881437296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17537650709216046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30455742949722786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20348825495416745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17726306064123226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5801337004736532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14289617950530065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380752445742863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17540665204285175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16923664792198473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19041530068934134,0.0,0.0,0.11468810554402792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3057730271823805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14809146731417006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13460464487878265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11893636539564542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10439101397963316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19472797224265326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14360318953748502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18180874616620685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,2scared2write,2019/09/22,"Making one comfortable during detox? Someone close to me is going to be detoxing off of alcohol in a few weeks. I’ve been there twice for his detoxing now, only to be sober around me during visits, but now he’s going to try and remain sober. Are there any tips for helping him be more comfortable or aids to withdrawal pain/discomfort? Ways to help someone sleep? Melatonin works a bit for him but makes him groggy the next day. We’re going to be trying pure CBD oil (no THC in this one) this time instead and I’ll just have melatonin for backup. Is there anything else I can do? Thanks.",2.8010988142292486,5.093028904347829,3.4681422924901213,88.81841897233204,77.34782608695652,5.920948616600791,22.62845849802372,6.980632752743323,0.7625652173913041,464,14,89,5,11,146,80,115,0.0,0.8420000000000001,0.158,0.9578,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,8,3,0,0,3,0,11,5,1,2,1,11,17,5,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,3,1,1,7,3,16,12,3,16,0,0,0,0,8,5,0,1,6,57,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21266739593243172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13532486139206346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1637576691330308,0.17714962125923106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21725330863959255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1283366758813001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662365539585169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3392839372549064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2667671416115004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2656642376074405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21163568826552315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26969118900510536,0.15134627231712533,0.21174695958920234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19914082729207272,0.0,0.3372192177701987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18320980642548548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11603681744029673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27021195572535384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15795464650525984,0.1596234814948392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448722690043486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,rhodatoyota,2019/09/22,"Someone on here about 2-3 months ago mentioned THIS NAKED MIND...... thank you A few months ago i randomly joined this group. The same day I was accepted to this Subreddit I read a post from a desperate person in the lows of an alcoholic situation. Some Random Person said ‘read This Naked Mind” by Annie Grace. Well, I’m a 30 year drinker, but an avid book worm. I hadn’t read nor heard of this book before so i wrote it down, and after work went to the bookstore near my work and bought 2 of her books. Ultimately, within one month, I had also purchased the audible version of her book, listened to that... then went even further... and purchased myself into the conference in Denver Colorado in September.. then even further than THAT I purchased a 1 year long intensive training coaching whatever course thing from them. It begins October 1 2019. SO I’d like to give a SHOUTOUT to the person that mentioned This Naked Mind by Annie Grace a few months ago on this SubRed- you cost me about 8 grand.... and thank you.",6.12140625,6.7574974947916635,5.953125,80.87937500000002,66.23958333333334,9.108333333333333,31.625,9.075114841892004,2.5822312499999995,797,30,150,13,12,249,113,192,0.017,0.868,0.115,0.9529,0,0,2,0,0,0,34.0,0,3,1,2,9,9,0,0,15,0,3,1,0,0,0,15,15,11,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,3,13,5,1,0,1,8,5,2,2,1,1,1,9,4,16,8,26,6,5,30,0,1,0,0,17,12,0,3,16,93,29,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3297571653032505,0.1325189364003323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09916323950273513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10551538229434224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07997013230155653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1638024610500703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11895267995464907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06058043238644682,0.0,0.0,0.1097366338895936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37561578918798105,0.0,0.3959044014389094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08402601951935437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3248176376658567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11875830323699235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3721024857920284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11795297178403223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1393818761225766,0.0,0.0,0.10506531073257916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283261952700065,0.0,0.0,0.08238049245665055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11149143631363463,0.2298996074108786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1805478354421451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15970464898110626 alcoholism,shancanned,2019/06/09,"1 week without a drink after almost 10 years of heavy drinking. So I just got out of the hospital from which I was committed. I did a week of detox and am still suffering some withdrawal symptoms such as tremors and profuse sweating but I feel better than I have in years. I've tried several times over the years to do it myself but the withdrawals were just too overwhelming especially knowing the dangers. Up until last Saturday I was drinking a handle of whiskey a day. Waking up dry heaving, shaking uncontrollably until I had my morning whiskey. I was a very high functioning alcoholic as in holding the same job for the past 10 years without anyone knowing except close friends. I called my dying father drunk Sunday morning and he I promised I would get treatment but he convinced me to do it right then, so I did, and I'm ever so thankful I did. I'm also thankful to the nurses and staff at the hospital that made sure I was as comfortable as could be in that situation. I really couldn't have done it without them and I am forever greatful. If you feel like it's time to quit, don't wait, do it now. It's not that simple for some, I understand but the longer you wait the less simple it will get. I feel very fortunate and would love all the support I can get in the days ahead as the struggle isn't over yet, but I'm optimistic.",4.2178136882129245,5.759255752851715,5.062454372623575,82.18889068441065,71.31939163498099,8.149733840304183,31.02072243346008,8.697196308434329,2.5278625095057032,1065,47,202,19,20,346,146,263,0.064,0.733,0.204,0.9922,1,0,6,0,0,0,20.0,0,2,1,3,12,18,1,4,18,0,26,12,2,1,4,44,46,25,1,5,13,1,3,1,1,3,3,0,0,0,11,9,7,3,6,6,0,1,7,6,0,0,12,3,26,12,35,28,5,37,0,2,0,1,9,13,0,4,24,148,37,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1260005070958861,0.11806100258613893,0.0,0.0,0.09428553233229918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0824392475166233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1042740139909574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1203902885601748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09413449980443557,0.0,0.0,0.15207301682653646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12236281230910245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12065384319695407,0.0,0.34649481757027195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10664836873096896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1788431398595446,0.08422862769576055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09109016044082464,0.0,0.184795503589026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09429634540673608,0.12998646894628854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12456907158881705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11699873029133342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295908120547103,0.09610519906845336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057600561913061066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10641041956718884,0.11156094876513796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11255001863791654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254024193792965,0.0,0.0,0.07553051596790225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10068696488881544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13319477597556348,0.0,0.0,0.13252586798890573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0941560359282233,0.0,0.0,0.12325591410365233,0.0,0.0,0.13379286369215307,0.11112046835872184,0.122544471242852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2170951349955371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1374982542591099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0800471630723851,0.0,0.0,0.1227392880583919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945616448680552,0.0,0.0,0.1891464323863793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3409575952587133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16750723332283388,0.0,0.0,0.3036979816439187 alcoholism,gregu-,2019/06/09,"331 sober days! Just wanted to share, 331 days without alcohol and smokes. You can do it ! So happy, i dont even have words for this, how much i am happy nowadays. I thought its not possible to quit drinking. What help me the most was kudzu, hawthorn, and i think some pills cital - antidepressants. I stop taking cital after 6 months, kudzu after 10 months. I also quit smoking using desmoxan. I had to quit smoking as well, sine those two things were really connected I also quit drinking coffe. Still lots of more to do in regain health, but i know for sure that i can do it. We all can. Dont ever give up! If it did not work out today, try tomorrow, untill it sill work.next week, next month, next year... but keep trying.",2.7273296703296666,4.887211842857145,3.2757142857142867,90.75851648351649,77.0,6.021978021978023,21.48351648351648,7.010146845296331,0.5051868131868139,558,15,113,6,13,174,100,140,0.012,0.8859999999999999,0.102,0.8812,0,0,4,0,0,0,30.0,1,1,0,5,9,5,0,0,1,0,14,5,0,2,3,26,22,11,0,2,7,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,10,4,3,2,3,2,0,0,5,0,1,1,5,0,13,5,15,17,6,20,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,4,17,76,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12339181641929885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1846669249940309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14892452583789315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2706369370313173,0.22621403625163336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07626035852665107,0.10444034106827076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1107599234211094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24581901254923866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12272876987326485,0.0,0.0,0.07739052340417438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10262631113110934,0.0,0.0,0.06345389419152885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09816011429707353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27647763717159496,0.0,0.08487651572427939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3683796269719922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13016400229420044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4912244455908635,0.0,0.0,0.07396674644550386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09220664716200627,0.09652987863143107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1088198511908496,0.0,0.08681168453265509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07670661173309094,0.07398221987660136,0.0,0.09166248417097524,0.0,0.0,0.1094427481797614,0.0,0.0,0.15677976348455366,0.0,0.1127878167210956,0.0,0.0,0.09972052250282776,0.0,0.0,0.06810140435491112,0.0,0.09261519020564107,0.0,0.10381256608018974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1112994912232444,0.0,0.1681127691704224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07435256901267966 alcoholism,LEGALinSCCCA,2019/06/09,I quite literally can't stop. What are my options? I know my situation isn't abnormal. But I feel numb even without alcohol. I am not happy. My kids are gone. Wife is gone. I have chronic pain. Depression. What can I do?,-1.139318181818183,0.058787340909091775,2.2169090909090907,87.00536363636364,118.77272727272728,6.3054545454545465,22.581818181818186,7.1686216300943375,1.816589090909091,169,8,35,5,10,60,32,44,0.278,0.675,0.047,-0.8911,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,0,0,9,4,0,0,0,7,13,1,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,4,3,0,0,2,1,9,1,1,11,0,3,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,24,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3529857839323061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2844833071693584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.218157275082292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16700749168730278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35160604393447925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18152194557735066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35145804178476103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35131026320332986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3712663423471297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27614209653758554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3183933854024951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,lbmark13,2019/06/09,"Alcoholic musician looking for an out. To make things short...im a pianist and my hands shake if I haven't had a drink to ""even out"". I'll even not drink on my days off, eat healthy, etc...but when it comes to playing a 3 hour gig, my hands still aren't good enough to do the job. I try not to get drunk, but drink enough for the shakes to stop. Any suggestions?",1.0413345864661636,2.749828434210528,1.8416541353383489,101.19657894736844,80.44736842105263,5.9218045112781965,20.06766917293233,6.868970318607317,-0.11310676691729338,275,7,70,3,7,85,54,76,0.084,0.847,0.068,-0.2698,1,0,4,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,2,6,0,4,8,2,1,0,10,8,4,0,1,4,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,6,1,0,5,0,3,4,2,0,0,1,3,5,2,12,7,2,12,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,1,5,40,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20493787614660192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13040640085861635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16518809239232846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12367220500120665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5635684621064059,0.0,0.196222904855748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3962878743238149,0.21386805071275952,0.2533172193125429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10018900955204504,0.0,0.0,0.1608429211935888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18884935375940654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2071385113173968,0.0,0.1902966253898341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1610338396239243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12800425844465854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1531433362790271,0.16032366558403846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12739977861710933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13019547277798946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,kimkilluhx,2019/06/09,"20 days sober but is it really necessary? I recently got arrested for domestic violence and the root of this incident was my drinking. I never felt I had a problem, and saw my drinking as social. I would only drink heavy during these social events. Until recently drinking heavy started to make my anger issues ten times worst. I would explode and try to start fights. Until I finally landed to jail it made me realize my drinking and anger problems. It’s hard being around family parties, or with friends and there is always alcohol or someone always asking me what I want to drink. Part of me always tells myself one drink, or I can handle.... it’s been 20 days but I feel like I can still handle one drink and it won’t affect me. Sometimes I feel like it’s not necessary this whole sober life because I dont see myself as an alcoholic... it’s hard to even compare myself or recognize myself as one... that’s why I question if this is necessary",3.332281835811248,5.665704186813188,4.7292501616031055,80.22457336780867,75.8131868131868,7.798836457659987,26.63994828700711,8.671277953709913,2.3290894634776995,750,29,131,16,17,249,105,182,0.179,0.7290000000000001,0.09300000000000001,-0.9653,0,0,10,0,2,0,22.0,0,0,0,0,4,9,3,0,3,0,13,11,0,4,1,31,25,18,0,6,8,0,5,2,1,3,3,0,0,0,13,8,10,0,5,8,0,0,4,6,0,4,7,7,25,3,15,14,3,15,0,0,2,0,7,2,0,6,15,94,38,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1927523954220052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22511376292075566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08028032152297232,0.08430717912048961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0549735772923526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11631873136057735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10569160787210416,0.706745368224646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059563783111040686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08501473954466282,0.0,0.09119657374734866,0.12885082866461076,0.08658802311314119,0.09878901535930568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06967371413427027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0721260845516177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16156915078167775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0941256656041448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06369759616654852,0.08811588573962602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08533156177565106,0.0601966017784226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06955324375208471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18332719436266665,0.06858680993250511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09765737121812187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17258231643888636,0.0,0.0,0.1010234998816579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057772338444614525,0.0,0.1780859645062299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07186268151944618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18385660207140034,0.07641017529103547,0.0,0.08919143939940744,0.0,0.12766133008461247,0.0,0.0720187636022537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07882227889429194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052585339705455585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0612270648133045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053191164543707266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08137443931040275,0.10068400646726967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12812416877385385,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,drunkpriateriots,2019/06/09,I can't do it I can't do it without this substance. I can't focous or control my depression or anxiety. Nothing will work. But a few hours seeing the room spin and finally falling asleep at 3 am,0.3612195121951203,2.6762851219512207,3.1494634146341483,87.08760975609756,88.02439024390246,6.206829268292682,27.71219512195122,7.554174236665415,1.9701863414634144,154,8,31,3,5,54,32,41,0.18899999999999997,0.8109999999999999,0.0,-0.7184,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,2,0,7,1,1,1,0,6,8,4,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,2,7,1,5,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,2,2,23,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27444523910380675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40237225300465096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3089936314304858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3929966278954072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3532996663496004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3442333999442903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28587987648166835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34582531171291103,0.0,0.26117662426986993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,bottomrock7777,2019/02/21,"Greetings from rehab I just want to express how thankful I am for this sub. It’s my first full day in inpatient rehab and being able to read the posts here have made this entire thing so much easier. Im still scared to death right now and I’m having a hard time not crying all the time. Can’t really eat either but i think it is getting better. Please keep posting! You all have no idea how much you’ve helped me and you don’t even know me. 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All this led me to me living on the streets of Los Angeles with no belongings, except my precious puppy. I think if I can be brave enough to share my story now (link below) then maybe I can actually help someone. I hope so anyway. [https://www.lovewhatmatters.com/i-love-you-cindy-ill-always-love-you-please-forgive-me-i-was-no-longer-going-be-her-momma-and-watch-her-grow-up-do-it-now-the-voice-says/](https://www.lovewhatmatters.com/i-love-you-cindy-ill-always-love-you-please-forgive-me-i-was-no-longer-going-be-her-momma-and-watch-her-grow-up-do-it-now-the-voice-says/)",29.40530266343825,38.88939979661017,12.497142857142858,20.47661016949152,25.610169491525426,8.11719128329298,27.072639225181604,8.841846274778883,3.031206295399516,584,11,40,7,7,124,50,59,0.11,0.6729999999999999,0.218,0.8126,0,0,2,0,0,0,90.0,0,0,0,0,3,5,1,0,2,0,3,5,0,1,1,8,5,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,9,4,7,4,2,6,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,2,2,30,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.17308757167846198,0.19335952280857094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18955462952506325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3843607253052985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20328143078524985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20569293344497394,0.1814938299041203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18327066381079768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11888739803278088,0.0,0.0,0.17616846940465242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1566209935997335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6403335390806085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17819204386602214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17874728096908207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1410517737583218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15028505806661271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11365155880757095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,kohlio412,2019/02/21,"Wake up call Hi guys, just looking for some feedback / advice. 35 y/o m. 6-1 205 lbs. I have for the most part been partaking in binge drinking 1-2 times a week for about 15 years. I always thought of myself as in “good shape” but had a scare recently. After a recent two week period of traveling and heavy drinking I felt like my heart was beating very hard and felt very short of breath at times. I went to the ER and was diagnosed with hypertension and some slight heart thickening. I now realize that I have been very reliant on getting wasted for the greater part of my adult life and I need to make a lifestyle change. How does one adapt to a non alcohol lifestyle. It seems very daunting and scary at the moment. Thanks for reading",4.00090909090909,5.474047724137932,4.361943573667713,87.267868338558,71.75862068965517,7.755485893416928,27.66457680250784,8.296473431620573,1.7473448275862071,580,21,118,9,11,182,100,145,0.126,0.78,0.094,-0.7811,0,0,3,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,1,4,4,0,1,9,0,7,9,4,2,0,20,17,9,0,1,2,0,3,1,0,0,3,0,0,2,2,7,3,0,5,4,0,2,0,1,1,2,9,4,10,3,22,8,6,21,0,0,1,0,4,8,0,4,12,68,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311672111525638,0.0,0.14345018261970638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11168943912211453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1370630109167242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14199668507547722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13623980255011098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11746486889802507,0.0,0.0,0.2629870096179436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2577621450787207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07012921177365618,0.0,0.0,0.11258507627844336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13290800178060375,0.0,0.0,0.1202429891187572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31812447334922883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09481004666658001,0.06557760215312733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11271871328206637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08959902676482788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09952924372094467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09095717315784443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2907142648936593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13426551452455748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2650702635834405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1343868358611343,0.0,0.0,0.1221972134616961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12358020407513265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10656298347226373,0.15654024049562038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311224145606193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44301255813000173,0.0,0.0,0.2153411195960016,0.0,0.0,0.12443180409953335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08643919761152846 alcoholism,LMCGraff,2019/02/21,I would do anything to stop these cravings But I will not drink. Congratulations to anybody who has been successful with this journey,4.9294202898550745,8.461012086956522,4.330434782608695,77.67072463768119,80.30434782608695,6.544927536231885,33.7536231884058,7.793537801064563,3.055997101449276,110,6,17,2,3,33,21,23,0.19699999999999998,0.6629999999999999,0.14,-0.1396,0,0,1,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,0,5,5,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,3,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,15,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4882721846889192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5812519802082714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4960627910937449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42149509659705053,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Tnubls5361,2019/02/21,"Want to quit/cut back on drinking So I’ll just start off by saying I’m 23 and have been drinking heavily since I was 19, I never noticed a problem until I’d spend $100 on a single night out alone and have no recollection of how or when I got home. I’ve made some not so smart decisions when drinking, thankfully I’ve stayed out of legal trouble, but I just don’t like the person it makes me sometimes, mostly with hard liquor. I realise admitting you have a problem is the first step, and I’m not comfortable talking to my family about this (even though they obviously know I have a problem) when I started hiding my alcohol/acting sober when stumbling in the door after driving myself home, I just feel so bad about it and wonder why I do this to myself. I just want to be a social drinker, you know go out with friends every here and there on the weekends and have a few beers. I just take it very overboard and I don’t like a lot of things about it. Aside from the blackouts and money, I’m tired of being hungover almost everyday, feeling like shit because of my weakened immune system, and especially the weight gain! I just thought I’d come to reddit to see if anyone has been though a similar situation and found a happy medium? Or quit all together? I’m open to any tips or advice! But please don’t bag me for having a problem, I hear it enough and am well aware. Just looking for some understanding. TIA :)",5.553798498122653,5.7473148262411335,6.1943053817271565,80.1979411764706,67.40425531914894,8.762953692115145,30.772632457238217,8.4952907291091,2.239652231956613,1119,40,218,15,17,366,165,282,0.10800000000000001,0.7040000000000001,0.18899999999999997,0.9737,0,1,6,0,0,0,29.0,0,2,1,3,25,16,1,0,16,0,18,9,1,3,3,61,45,28,0,7,15,0,4,3,1,0,2,2,3,1,8,18,6,0,11,6,2,4,7,7,1,1,7,8,24,9,31,36,8,29,0,0,2,0,10,9,1,10,17,149,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10492882400130643,0.0,0.11475473811477944,0.10752384847967816,0.11121152671060038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07302092058530196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07508139829905862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08256727833094858,0.08965638846216767,0.06545681003449999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09249689046548633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3155695398761062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11095047946032408,0.0,0.0709223490278105,0.0,0.09047084203269387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10122669708965093,0.0,0.1085873813856367,0.076711073120037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09133592015433067,0.0,0.1177347546011621,0.08296020188446815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06102555776596836,0.0,0.08588022914936416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1143061883166735,0.09618985821050954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12102313887974625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2154183635405289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11802460198118855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15737882846536436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09017072120158807,0.0,0.0,0.09128918380778216,0.0,0.10160393600350613,0.07167584358532887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.082816758301025,0.0,0.0,0.1007672528531614,0.0,0.0,0.12225089691747924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09375858262953693,0.0,0.11786911930503992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4109860940057701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22842006157768485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0853915274916625,0.0,0.0,0.08556659625355185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11022227346937938,0.08882443259699119,0.12069769896185795,0.0,0.10945864602712016,0.0,0.0,0.10619987625005407,0.0,0.15200581522393533,0.1144509719268186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08073511204337525,0.08630660353472296,0.0,0.0988595043647207,0.0,0.0,0.07133736577141582,0.0,0.2109972530162996,0.0852463694208591,0.0,0.12341555044395895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11178458866690633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08859833630282017,0.12666899716331986,0.0,0.0,0.13075783153714152,0.096545979946302,0.0,0.09689220672830316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11644717701027113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,cellistakeniota,2019/02/21,"Alcoholic depression Hi guys, I hope you're all well. I have a sister who is battling alcoholism and depression and keeps lapsing back into drinking. I honestly don't know how to help her anymore because we've had counselling, she's gone to rehab but she's still drinking so much and it's really affecting the entire family especially my mum. I know alcoholism is a disease and I don't know if I'll ever fully understand how to deal with it but I really would like to try because at this rate there's nothing left to lose. 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I’m a daily drinker, 6-8 oz of wild turkey or makers mark per night. Occasionally, if i drank particularly quickly and I’m feeling more inebriated I end up trying to figure out my BAC. Tonight, I ended up drinking 7oz of bourbon in right at one hour and I’m feeling pretty drunk; however every calculator I pull up shows a BAC of sub .06. That said I wouldn’t feel at all comfortable driving right now. Am I just a lightweight or are these calcs giving wrong info to people? For the record, I’m 26, ~300lbs, ~220 lean body mass. 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When I was 18 and started college, I became a little too enthralled with the party scene. Although I didn’t drink every night, 2-3 times on the weekends I would drink heavily (10-20 drinks) and consistently blackout. On the weekdays, when I wasn’t drinking, I’d often binge Adderall to get my homework done and get pumped up to work out. My sleep schedule was erratic, but my ego was thriving, and wasn’t feeling any immediate negative effects. My hangovers were very typical and mild: wake up after 5 hours of sleep very thirsty with a throbbing headache, chug water, take an electrolyte supplement, go for a run, and I’d be good as new. I also frequently experienced alcohol poisoning while drinking heavily and would vomit during the night (which I found made hangovers much better). Around 19 and 20 I started experimenting more with with Xanax. I’d drink a lot, still 2-3 nights a week, but not quite as much as before, supplementing with .5mg Xanax to get that “perfect” feeling. I did this religiously every time I drank. Cocaine was around sometimes too, but not always. Around this time my symptoms started to get a little strange. My overall mood shifted to persistent grogginess and I felt physically weaker and less driven, and my thoughts were always tainted with fog. I started forgetting things left and right, and began balding. Hangovers themselves became strange too. I stopped getting headaches and feeling thirsty in the morning, but instead would just be incredibly groggy until I could finally pull myself out of bed in the evening. I noticed that I’d also never vomit when I’d drink, no matter how much anymore. There was no energy to work out or do anything productive once I was awake like there used to be. I started trying a bunch of crazy things like supplements, exercise routines, mindfulness meditation, etc. in attempts to compensate for these symptoms because I didn’t want to give up the lifestyle, but nothing truly helped. Eventually I tossed the Xanax habit, but when I turned 21 is when the really concerning stuff started to happen. There was a period of about 4 months where I was going out getting hammered upwards of 5 nights a week, and weird things started to happen when I drank: On random occasions after having only a few sips of alcohol I would break out in hives on my forehead. Taking an Advil or Benadryl would relieve it. My hangovers became feverish. Id have no headache whatsoever, but wake up with a flushed face and a very warm sensation throughout my body. Small tremors and shakiness would occur for the first few hours of the day, and I’d feel generally uneasy, like I have the flu. No amount of pedialyte or Advil in the world relieves it, and the feeling sometimes lingers for up to 3 days after drinking. Palpitations are common too, and I have even had a few episodes where I went to the doctor because I thought I was having a heart attack. They told me it was a panic disorder, and all blood tests show that I am a perfectly healthy 22 year old. Now, whenever I start drinking, even a little bit, my extremities get very sweaty and bring “buzzed” feels like I’m lightheaded. I also sometimes get palpitations. It’s a very different experience than I used to have 4 years ago, and my tolerance in general is much lower. Similarly, I used to drink a ton of coffee every day, up to 6 cups, and wouldn’t notice a thing. But find now that I’m extremely sensitive to caffeine, and it’s a very different, less organic experience. Drinking coffee especially after a night of drinking used to cure my hangovers, but now it accentuates it and induces a feeling akin to a panic attack. Sometimes after as little as 4 drinks I will sporadically black out and exhibit extremely concerning behavior. I will remember having fun, being slightly buzzed, and then the next moment have no recollection of the night. My friends say that within minutes, my level of intoxication changes dramatically and the expression on my face becomes as if my soul left my body. I’ll be awake, standing straight, but it looks like “lights on but nobody’s home”. Some of my friends have expressed concern that I look like a zombie. I stop being communicative, and my personality changes entirely in a way that’s not typically associate with being drunk. I go from loud and fun-loving to reserved, bank-faced, and zombie-like in a matter of minutes. Sometimes they say I look like a confused animal. I stop communicating with words and only answer in yes/no nods, but am somehow still able to do complex habitual tasks, like order an Uber home, microwave food, and get into bed on my own. It’s like the higher-level parts of my brain shut down in one instant and I’m left functioning off of low-level habits and impulses. Sorry for making it so verbose, but I am trying to paint the best picture I can. I’ve toned down my drinking significantly (4-8 drinks a night), typically drinking only once a week, and have kicked hard drugs completely for the past 6 months, but the symptoms described above still persist. I have gone to doctors who keep taking blood and urinalysis and say that I’m very well and healthy, and my peers insist that it takes years and years and years to develop serious issues from alcoholism, but yet, nobody can relate or give advice to what might be behind the things I describe. I’m hoping somebody has been through the same thing and can tell me what’s going on with my body and mind. 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I have read so many inspirational stories about people when they slow down/quit drinking. But the signature of ""I won't drink with you today"" is an immodest and pretentious way of trying to imply that you are better, even though you ARE them. I'm convinced by being so condescending that you aren't getting better, you're just coherent enough now to be the asshole you always were.",6.6179518072289145,7.069698987951809,6.664722891566267,76.84624096385545,65.144578313253,9.531566265060242,29.853012048192767,9.3871,2.5361826506024103,348,11,63,6,5,111,58,83,0.043,0.816,0.141,0.8115,1,0,3,0,0,0,11.0,0,6,2,2,9,5,1,0,4,0,10,3,0,0,0,6,13,6,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,3,3,0,1,4,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,12,4,8,8,1,6,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,0,5,47,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16810490668520225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35735772932045284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5937366199355996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2087507009734524,0.0,0.13343872100646118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1055521873310493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19946251667818235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20482642063452272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400619660861082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21488346964643926,0.2020843865597173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19849316868601827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3830010931678448,0.0,0.0,0.13716491453264762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16036178362107634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Drenwick,2019/02/22,"Should we be boozing with out friend with the problem? For some time now, we’ve known that one of our friends drinks every day when he gets home from work at midnight all the way until when he goes to bed at around 6 AM. We’ve approached him a couple times, and also gotten his company involved in the discussions because he was drinking at work. He has not sought professional help and will likely continue down this path. Should we be engaging him when he invites us over for drinks, or vice versa, out with drinks for us?",8.116237623762371,7.010695673267327,7.12562376237624,79.95378217821784,62.56435643564357,10.06019801980198,34.061386138613855,8.841846274778883,2.6357073267326734,417,14,81,5,5,127,74,101,0.047,0.868,0.085,0.6251,0,0,4,0,0,0,9.0,5,0,0,2,6,5,0,0,4,0,8,5,0,0,1,18,10,8,0,3,2,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,2,0,2,10,5,0,1,4,0,1,1,1,0,1,2,0,8,4,19,3,2,20,0,0,0,0,18,9,0,2,10,53,10,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1349131925565714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15018306726626512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10284089923583728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18666868690190247,0.0,0.10880065951936553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6610660318907097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14214109646287007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26068186818418265,0.0,0.08814131126511539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11307929220588595,0.0,0.16922470104137366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08242065891249574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11431875973418765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16142773937005458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19674628751814302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4058622797031208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13391004244036694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2456382527519831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,svelda,2019/02/22,Whats the relapse rate after 1 yr sobriety? I'm a year sober what are my scientific odds of relapse?,1.7628571428571431,3.7807921904761934,4.800238095238097,79.3489285714286,79.47619047619048,8.009523809523811,29.54761904761905,8.841846274778883,2.7025047619047617,80,4,16,2,2,29,19,21,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0 alcoholism,saddymcfatty,2019/02/22,I’ve been drinking too much and I need help to quit. I find myself drinking when I’m bored or when there’s nothing to do. Other times I just want to get a buzz. This has been going on for a year now and I need the courage to stop. My dad was a really bad alcoholic back in the day and I don’t want to be a spitting image of him. Any tips on how to get started? What’s the best feeling after not touching alcohol for so long? How do I avoid it if I go to a bar with friends? I know the first step is for me to want change and be willing to make it. I look forward to reading your responses and in advance thank you. ,0.2165045248868757,1.8640102205882376,2.372352941176469,96.68712669683259,82.82352941176471,5.361085972850678,22.226244343891395,6.297961479604792,0.18005158371040775,474,16,116,4,13,160,89,136,0.076,0.765,0.159,0.8536,0,1,4,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,0,4,10,7,0,1,9,0,11,6,1,3,0,23,27,12,0,6,4,1,2,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,5,6,5,2,3,4,0,5,2,3,0,1,3,3,15,4,20,21,2,21,0,0,1,0,6,5,0,2,13,81,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3754399497849205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11945027808077767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1350665573365832,0.14666318156059807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1843373178724758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1858179172057699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1132818571863913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.344146754928855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08881559420649507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16054394831619884,0.1494106205967848,0.0,0.0,0.1357093159783011,0.0,0.18354321525374315,0.0,0.19965565448230616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1177367148967084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09653446857436504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1554476569017042,0.14750454576495708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11724995219609985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291253979646357,0.26048941578404994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16854409380452193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18682892283458044,0.17570084997584912,0.0,0.11252801189378793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12432832093087272,0.0,0.0,0.1468540371550148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16171797332380766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10242486094772216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.310814629850422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11311497628676738 alcoholism,TRoberts309,2019/02/22,"How can I confront my father? Long post, my dad and I never had the best relationship, as far as I can remember I never seen him actually hit my mom, but throw things, scream, shove, etc I have.... Growing up we had the best life, me and my siblings. From going to Summer vacation in Florida for weeks at a time to being spoiled, my dad Owned a huge steel building erecting company. When I hit around 7-8 years old is when it got bad, him coming home late every night, a DUI on a four wheeler, him cheating on my mother.... It got to the point where he even cut the main breaker to the house one night when it was 22°F because my mother wouldn’t let him in. Then came the drugs, mainly marijuana, possession charges, etc. I’m not sure of the full extent. I do remember we sent him to a Alcohol and Drug rehab type facility, and he left there drinking a beer. My father hasn’t had the brotherly relationship with my uncle (more like my father, to me.) since they were kids. Years ago, my uncle told him he had a problem... my father looked in his eyes and told him, he didn’t have a problem, you (uncle) have a problem for thinking that. My dad uses his mom, her SSI Checks, uses her house as a place to sleep, even if it’s only for a few hours then he’s back on the roads. I’m not sure exactly where the crossing line was between him and my mother, but when they crossed it, our relationship with him began to fizzle out. I remember as a kid, he picked me up from his brothers (my uncle) I was probably 9-10, he just pulled into the store, got a beer, cracked it open, and we set out, him taking me to my moms, we ran through a roadblock, and I seen him get arrested, for yet another DUI. We’d go to his house (different houses for a little while) he settled down with another woman, they were together for several years, moved to Maine for work, Arizona for work, basically thought they were gonna get married. My best friend’s mom (To this day I still claim him as my brother).... we traveled up to Maine for Summer Break to hang out with them for the break, there in his roommates room I found A spoon, needle. I found a ton of marijuana, seeing that as a kid, knowing what it is will scar you. The woman that he was with eventually gotten strung out, on meth. They split, and it was hard on him, right back to where he was, coming home at 5-6 am, passing out in his vehicle, etc. When I was roughly 12 I came across a mirror and a razor blade. I put two and two together and that’s when me and him kinda fell off... It was an off and on relationship for the next 6 years, not the strongest but he was my dad, I loved him.. When I was 18, my dad came to my high school graduation. He came with his best friend who’s niece was graduating. His friend (known user - molested my best friend from above in this story - as a child) this was the first time since he was molested that my best friend seen him. It wasn’t good, exactly as you would think there was a fight. And my dad jumped in protecting his “bestfriend” that was pretty much the last straw between me and my dad, embarrassing when your family gets in a brawl, infront of a couple thousand people and your whole graduating class. Since then, not exactly sure if the count, but I’m pretty sure he’s had 6-7+ DUI’s and that’s since 2012. Just last year (2018) he passed out behind the wheel, unresponsive in the middle of the road with his truck still running, when the Sheriffs officers got there they actually thought he was diabetic and in a coma - he wasn’t moving. They called the EMS to the scene, turns out he was just drunk. Somehow, he got out of it, he was dating the lead detectives daughter or something, not sure. Well fast forward to around 3:34am this morning. I wake up to 6 missed calls from my deputy friend, and 2 from his number. Turns out he passed out behind the wheel again, truck in the middle of the road, still running. Covered in urine, beer in his lap. The deputy who found him is one of my good friends, noticed the name, knew it was my father and called me. He told me the same thing, thought he was dead. Wasn’t moving, anything. They saved him. Wrote him an open container ticket, took him to his moms and parked his truck in town. He’s my dad, I love him, but he has a problem. A major problem. I have to get through to him before he kills himself or kills innocent people. Reddit, I’ve never asked for help before, not to this extent, and I’m not sure it’s even possible. He may be too far gone. Help me.",3.9390480111703847,4.762473084350724,4.7719202678027965,86.73381466828972,71.20865704772476,7.899473703053952,25.853012781497263,8.103011114424296,1.3322741255236117,3463,102,744,47,62,1122,360,901,0.128,0.7959999999999999,0.076,-0.9933,1,0,9,0,1,0,161.0,7,5,9,10,35,43,8,1,60,0,53,18,4,5,12,121,111,54,3,9,19,25,2,1,7,5,7,1,3,6,30,56,6,2,14,7,2,32,16,17,1,7,61,9,119,26,111,39,24,149,0,1,6,2,146,66,0,7,50,479,149,9,0.0,0.0,0.09102523250475072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0413423687930316,0.04984255674036296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.097809428378203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03837965325924205,0.08303661226897566,0.04360086264798995,0.0,0.0,0.07172452001051836,0.038941343098112,0.028430501622725923,0.0,0.07937214969940938,0.0,0.29366645389832385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14286989616595994,0.21336886475653988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08035017267386148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0516048035879803,0.0,0.03007808517820755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048727485800701666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0456881431221686,0.10817210565640388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1560433432760295,0.09241320917074708,0.0,0.03929509274686934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04396678931273389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039670830656003866,0.0,0.15341069004013588,0.25223045656188176,0.0,0.09746712491128492,0.0,0.053011664276907705,0.0782366107877722,0.18650603297840065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041779089425566115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06252183760438831,0.04927631770588856,0.09356478158614798,0.0,0.045929697365462666,0.21525906306435086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10319756115110006,0.0,0.025631394475068348,0.07603348507110352,0.05261045355724429,0.0,0.05067305369077546,0.0476912020806903,0.032942273367913444,0.0227852993737854,0.04674420185487969,0.0,0.04127375716792118,0.03916473830748755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08418644491656345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2731132453859648,0.0,0.14870858255698902,0.03428479030194459,0.0,0.10791185730064784,0.0,0.049600756873947625,0.0875344687359335,0.0,0.0,0.053098437295679375,0.04893944089136582,0.0,0.06320714245560101,0.03547081174495335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06466676574412941,0.0,0.048727485800701666,0.0,0.044088620077901694,0.05257809519438052,0.044666955744327726,0.09489659284550303,0.050284376717799235,0.22313455250856112,0.0,0.046884747140040366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.200289919163714,0.1584975714431063,0.03982917113711816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04720082607688378,0.037164983328022684,0.0,0.0,0.05268842429364089,0.0,0.15431996602067585,0.0,0.04667235398312549,0.0,0.0,0.035904728335715334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1117371113346896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26373837900368896,0.0,0.035066477158760816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06196932274140034,0.059768355778913415,0.0,0.11107768815225652,0.05439076951011966,0.0,0.0,0.1336957495206181,0.05181728075341085,0.0,0.10145896520834187,0.0911184115393835,0.0,0.0,0.08056167653997612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03741072955079856,0.0,0.04193376728997777,0.0,0.0,0.052070411827619255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0679070174936317,0.0,0.0,0.03313077452522078,0.0,0.0,0.15016887859131234 alcoholism,mcrhaegar,2019/02/22,"New to Sobriety and mostly alone in this Hello everyone, I am new to sobriety (105 days) and noticed that I have not talked about it much to anyone except my girlfriend and even with her I am trying to not make it a big deal; don't want to tell her everytime I am craving or struggling. My bad experience with AA and support groups in general made me afraid to try finding a good one, but also there aren't many around here. Alcoholism seems to be a taboo, sobriety is considered weird, at least where I live; was surprised to find that out when I got sober. I'm here to find some sort of connection to people who know what I am talking about. regards ",8.086976744186046,6.2512869612403135,7.979496124031009,76.14738372093026,63.10852713178295,11.70077519379845,36.22868217054263,10.504223727775694,3.5191798449612404,514,19,103,10,6,166,91,129,0.07200000000000001,0.878,0.05,-0.1682,0,1,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,10,7,0,2,3,0,10,1,0,2,0,26,18,8,0,1,5,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,7,8,1,1,5,0,0,0,4,4,1,1,3,0,12,3,21,14,4,11,0,0,0,0,10,7,0,5,4,73,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17765640752320006,0.0,0.17217101999582773,0.0,0.13293937732188454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1162365207115692,0.0,0.0,0.1479858497774132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13880064690454638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10720887746133406,0.17138267173846108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10979772990972113,0.0,0.0,0.15884622910151325,0.0,0.16261132779439924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4558118195538671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1394314027844675,0.1329546233871824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09135930738808004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14678999471212453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15729712391087108,0.1109642450216558,0.1685378564900611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12220305449935408,0.0,0.0,0.3211047568366797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1892615112861404,0.0,0.0,0.1126462464291658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1152475518871497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513355895161354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17378662523143082,0.0,0.0,0.1886433639326612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26722942131019944,0.14529814657289605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22572752684307265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09805067464008946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Piper1123,2019/02/22,"New(ish) relationship Hi. My boyfriend and I just started dating after being friends for a year. Just recently, he went through a bender and is now just recently sober because his binge landed him in the hospital for a week with several complications and was told that if he keep it up that he won’t be around much longer. So he’s been sober and recovering from GI issues but since he’s been distant from the relationship and it has me a little concerned/paranoid. I’ve been giving him space and not hovering, just being supportive, watching some movies here and there with each other. His friends who have been bad influences on him have disappeared which is a relief. And we’re considering relocating closer to his family to avoid some of his “friends”. I’m in no way trying to make this about me, but I won’t lie that I feel a little lonely in this situation. I want him be healthy and well and continue on together. But can someone give me some advice? I feel a little lost and don’t know what to expect/think/feel. 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A former alcoholic turned substance abuse worker mentioned that there was a difference to me once but we really didn't get to discuss what the difference. I'd really like more input on this.,4.774565217391307,7.953808195652172,5.4414782608695695,72.43613043478264,75.73913043478261,9.76695652173913,33.11304347826087,9.888512548439397,4.505631304347826,211,11,31,7,5,68,37,46,0.096,0.8240000000000001,0.08,0.0617,0,0,3,0,1,0,3.0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,6,0,3,2,0,0,0,4,5,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,2,1,4,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,23,6,1,0.0,0.2574356061439561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4644022643221293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6810190794921128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11351733454795207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10614969731151952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23139101780022606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2079030415178622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27838413867826245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23633304679762596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,pinotgrisplease,2019/02/22,Sick & tired of being sick & tired.. again I'm ready to do this again. New sober date: 2/22/19. ,1.4680000000000002,3.583901800000003,0.6999999999999993,107.855,81.0,4.0,15.0,3.1291,-1.661,76,1,19,0,2,21,16,20,0.35200000000000004,0.556,0.09300000000000001,-0.7906,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,7,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.655982615661928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.292363794272868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6958521536560099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,neonmaze,2019/02/22,"How the fuck am I supposed to stop drinking and taking Klonopin when I just got hit with a DUI and HSV-2 I just need to vent. I’m a 21 year old female and I’ve been a sugar baby in multiple sugar relationships for over a year now. It’s been great for my life but also harmful in some ways as you can imagine. I’ve been able to do things I never thought I’d be able to do, or at least at my age because of financial income. I’ve basically been living my dreams. But it’s also taken a toll on my sexuality. Sometimes a simple hug is even too much. I find vanilla dating hard now. Last week I found out I have HSV-2 and I’m not taking it well. This has caused me to feel even weaker in my sexuality and a stronger urge to drink, take pills and numb the pain. I usually drink daily, sometimes I can go a day or two without it, but I often wake up and have a beer on my bedside table readily available and drink it. I sometimes stay in bed and drink all day as I don’t have a job therefore I can do this. Even when I was working I would drink before going into work. Sometimes while I’m driving. It’s almost like I can’t function without it. And to top it off I’ve also been addicted to klonopin for a long time now and heavily rely on this medication to function in society or even just to sit with myself as I struggle with crippling anxiety. I’m not sure if I’ve contracted the STI from sugaring or another partner. And prior to finding this out I was charged with an aggravated DUI. This is honestly just too much for me to handle at once. All of this is embarrassing and few people in my life know about this. I appear to be fine on the outside, actually better than fine. People in my life see me as doing the best I ever have. I appear to live a healthy lifestyle; I am very into holistic healing and health and promote these things, travel the world, those sorts of things... my appearance also gives a false perceptive; I’m in shape and am often complimented on beauty. But really, I feel like like a disgusting, mentally ill addict. 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All they care about is getting drunk, complaining about things they can fix but are to irresponsible, or they just LOVEEEE going downtown.",10.646829268292683,10.004004048780494,8.234268292682929,72.53969512195124,57.29268292682927,12.102439024390245,40.012195121951216,11.20814326018867,4.339185365853658,190,8,33,4,2,55,33,41,0.22699999999999998,0.728,0.045,-0.7579,0,0,2,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,4,0,4,3,1,0,0,0,5,5,0,0,1,6,10,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,2,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,5,1,6,9,2,2,0,0,0,0,5,1,1,2,0,22,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6909287193539302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28776804364868946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3295829478560716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33777779571412303,0.0,0.1837149000023268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22832659718143675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21475816852646032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2916899528941574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,civildoshard,2019/05/04,"Anyone else the youngest in the group? I'm the youngest in my home group, by atleast 15 years. And almost everywhere I go. It's a superficial problem and I identify with everything about alcohol and addiction but it kinda stops there. It's been three years and I'm tired of ""back in my day..."" And ""when I was your age (insert story about how they were in the middle of their alcoholism)"" I just feel like it pushes me away from my fellowship some. I can't hold a conversation with them about near on anything outside of the confines of what happened. Even then, it's dicey. I sound like a spoiled brat, I know but has anyone had a similar situation? Solutions? Ideas?",2.155026041666666,4.848512992187501,3.2255000000000003,87.13616666666668,83.140625,7.163333333333332,24.93958333333333,8.238735603445708,1.8623983333333336,525,21,103,12,15,168,85,128,0.059000000000000004,0.863,0.078,0.5187,0,0,2,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,3,0,10,3,0,0,9,0,6,4,0,1,0,21,12,10,0,1,3,0,1,2,0,0,4,1,1,0,6,7,2,3,3,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,4,2,15,2,18,8,1,18,0,0,0,0,7,8,0,3,10,70,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21571185197411105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4229342273004972,0.19814221408288654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2767161835399938,0.20274528226341768,0.16283343047401966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18590912340583596,0.15215288115718925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12761235122617734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16529832461925806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13069390152069912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17783637957642254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10005103274032888,0.14136121509407334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11245634621864736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1749793122796573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19848374155850493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22337564482419586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10874636782194412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19334246906035127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1893386810809964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2224186507938489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16543151245810575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2274270384011221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2548487187863965 alcoholism,SeanDHeavenmount,2019/05/04,"Multiple day “hangover”. Should I be worried? I’ve been drinking for only a year. From Thursday to Saturday of last week, I drank enough each night to blackout. The Sunday thereafter, I woke up with a twitching thumb that lasted the entirety of the day, a mental fog, a slight inability to focus my eyes, and a slight loss of balance. For the past 6 days, the latter symptoms have slightly improved, but have not gone away. I’ve had plenty of water each day and have not experienced any other symptoms typical of a hangover such as headaches or nausea. Typically, after a head or two of heavy drinking, the mental fog will clear up - I’ve never had these symptoms last quite this long. Should I be worried about this, or will the symptoms continue to dissipate gradually?",6.813333333333333,7.790000546099293,6.8391489361702105,73.93333333333334,64.81560283687944,9.10354609929078,35.52482269503546,9.150863307647796,3.3500695035460986,611,28,101,10,9,195,87,141,0.062,0.898,0.04,-0.2398,0,0,2,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,14,0,12,11,2,0,2,15,15,7,0,2,6,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,0,5,5,4,0,0,2,0,1,3,1,0,1,6,2,5,0,20,3,3,22,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,3,18,70,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09402915588769574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12991034175233346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35669393423843343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27090626650167154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14287110933916825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14190613997649842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3381284425585813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12236565873294135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2786896908910323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10664327173612967,0.0,0.0,0.12975815219743966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10516147651168588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13199550381893285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14706843878306586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5748668695991042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13507086846193078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11091281432264018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2808422260078121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08904211785349585 alcoholism,frubbys,2019/05/04,"Anyone used turning point? Hello, I'm from the UK (SE ENGLAND) and the only help offered to me was turning point, has anyone here used their service? What shall I expect from a first meeting? I have wanted to go for a long time, but i live in a pretty small area and the only turning point facility I can access has very, very bad reviews. Almost all reviews said staff were very rude and unwelcoming. I have severe social anxiety as well as bpd and ptsd so going to a friendly meeting would be hard enough, let alone one were you're being looked down upon. All other services around me cost a fair bit of money and I can't afford it. Just a bit at a loss right now on where to get the right help. I know i can't do it alone.",3.982567567567572,4.6865126621621656,5.011729729729733,85.49137837837841,71.02702702702703,6.730810810810813,24.93513513513513,6.2581,0.765438378378378,566,15,115,3,10,186,99,148,0.159,0.716,0.125,-0.6799,1,2,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,1,2,7,6,1,0,11,0,16,0,0,2,2,17,29,9,0,3,2,0,1,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,4,6,0,0,1,0,2,2,2,4,1,2,4,3,11,2,16,20,5,20,0,1,1,0,10,14,0,1,4,75,15,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12237109535611178,0.25313596066780936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0934868269068162,0.0,0.0,0.17089776976241305,0.0,0.0,0.10878875042256064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1020364376546854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668333785199848,0.0,0.15391347334289654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12627088682016155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10394788461051246,0.0,0.0,0.09441561959610507,0.0,0.06384729841838667,0.0,0.1389043352545295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10947207040858298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16382346054945993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06716091373039364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12496334180161572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10790964219407176,0.10814796858517696,0.10262179115151712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08280956866655224,0.18588548741404307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3465709225174134,0.0,0.0,0.1243268658598436,0.0,0.0,0.14285161940259025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20872555563022627,0.11624535795276912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13805736250587494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12457305611663595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07125897466000297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3987732787711088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2110925261339214,0.0,0.3024968585128637,0.0720799345898843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10987736660570784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08681123814288852,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Sabrevert,2019/05/04,"No title Hi everyone, I do drink a lot lately and I know why ,some times I can be sober for weeks but I relapse every time! I need some advice guys please help. We all drink for different reasons I think. I’ll try to take it one day at the time.",-0.9371159029649584,1.1482719999999986,1.3892722371967672,98.58773584905664,93.15094339622641,4.538005390835579,15.118598382749324,6.1826913282559595,-0.6764156334231801,188,4,45,2,7,63,43,53,0.032,0.833,0.135,0.7345,1,0,2,0,0,0,6.0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,1,1,11,7,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,2,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,7,0,4,6,4,7,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,3,6,25,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21386922849649573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1411477619762782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286640099178609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4288025060330845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18440051502644952,0.2091318393305258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21670760209094386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14669845836625198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12028072748155695,0.0,0.24688565552511296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1860684849646469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16228325951582198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14830642718220308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2402445452835385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22502639287935414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16455684402867055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1402378111042094,0.0,0.0,0.38286024574213706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14859280306255854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1755577430780356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1974887424645793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,HouseGizmo,2019/05/04,Should I be concerned My girlfriend has been out of rehab for a month but bonded with a Male while at rehab. Not sure if it's a good thing or not to let them hang out and go do activities together. Like dinner or working out. I'm ok with it in a group setting but not sure about alone time for them.,3.790937500000002,3.8481962187500014,4.846875000000002,88.810625,71.1875,7.65,25.375,7.1686216300943375,0.8617624999999998,234,6,54,2,4,77,48,64,0.07200000000000001,0.7509999999999999,0.177,0.7978,0,1,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,2,1,1,5,0,0,4,1,6,3,0,0,2,17,8,7,0,2,8,0,0,1,1,1,2,0,0,1,3,6,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,0,4,5,12,4,0,11,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,3,4,39,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3474574394490765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906617476576193,0.2813857883368405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3430523474645196,0.0,0.163899211947601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2677779641307945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6323742890818258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2228788614014751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1956218374332293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442343738902813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,sjturner15,2019/05/04,"making everyone around me proud and happy isn’t making me happy so i’ve tried AA several times, been an alcoholic for about 5 years now, lost jobs girlfriends friend etc you name it, and no matter what being drunk and just being with drunks is what makes me happy. every time i try AA i get people telling me how proud and happy they are for me, especially my dad and some close friends. but as good as that feels that’s not what i want. i just wanna drink. even most of my drinking buddies (minus a few who are also alcoholics) are like oh that’s great but just have a few and hang. they just don’t get it. i don’t want to be sober and i don’t want to just casually drink. i have a good job, i do good at it, i don’t mess with anyone. i just wanna fucking drink. and it sucks that other people manipulate their problems to me to make me feel bad",1.3652043868394834,3.3155674745762767,2.9372549019607885,92.54841475573284,80.46892655367232,5.7466267863077425,18.321369225656365,6.794906146795322,-0.05878570953805218,661,14,147,7,17,217,100,177,0.122,0.667,0.21100000000000002,0.9549,2,0,6,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,3,3,13,20,2,0,4,0,16,9,0,6,0,39,30,15,0,6,9,1,2,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,13,12,8,0,2,7,0,1,7,6,2,0,2,2,23,14,16,25,5,8,0,1,0,1,11,3,2,2,5,100,36,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2374801414187168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08885258507322495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07768891018748729,0.0,0.0,0.09890918380897597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09277007712653572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4353719953143865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12391417312210096,0.07338542073977702,0.0,0.09361281596366366,0.10616792683351726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11235852702637973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17168267558541375,0.10271704421578233,0.11609811033662035,0.0,0.0,0.2795749647853932,0.0,0.12249635235353795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4731037726621241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22051399360045387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054281486258232335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12128690315074345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2966603340408389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1540558277738849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1063148212102518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12551978941973588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09711280577229604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12957529147653016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.150869326201448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1966021524725044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07154955294593758 alcoholism,EAWE1414,2019/05/04,"What level of consumption produces dangerous withdrawl? I realize this is difficult if not impossible to answer. I’m looking for general information and personal stories. For months I’ve been drinking when I wake up and maintaining a buzz all day, and then going hard when I get home. Somewhere in the range of 15 to 20 units a day. A few days ago I didn’t drink for a day. On the second day I had strong feelings of depression, I was tearful, had racing thoughts, depersonalization, and an uncomfortable “thrumming” sensation in my body. That was yesterday. I lapsed, but I did not drink today. I’ve quit drinking CT before. Same thing. Drunk almost all day, every day. Back then though I didn’t drink during my shift. I loaded up before, and got drinks after I finished. That went on for two years. When I quit tmy symptoms were insomnia, anxiety, DP/DR, elevated heart rate, and an enhanced sense of smell (which I’ve read is a symptom of GABAergic drug withdrawl.) Im wondering if you all think this is a safe level of alcohol to CT?",3.818579610538372,6.246345886597942,4.975189003436427,78.58936998854527,74.67010309278348,8.228636884306988,29.33447880870561,8.998388855275968,2.784879495990836,818,36,145,19,18,269,121,194,0.08199999999999999,0.885,0.033,-0.6868,0,0,8,0,0,0,32.0,0,1,0,4,5,5,1,0,10,0,12,15,3,1,3,26,22,15,0,2,5,0,2,0,0,0,5,1,1,1,7,6,8,1,7,8,0,2,4,3,0,2,12,5,15,2,20,10,5,30,0,1,1,0,3,8,0,4,20,89,22,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09316284439275646,0.11231756895657713,0.10524024946153757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08039951719325307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08081370869599704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17886094695210164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1167399455676604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4744556336823197,0.0,0.09052056746885086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6177349038116098,0.12188006325127385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08854941595878195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0531405974906086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054909254456229364,0.0,0.0597294926997874,0.0,0.08405629883310282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09414697127081713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.124541380218739,0.0,0.0,0.10542164663072943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1135236417294169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08825566911488851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08388804860026708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09176733129076503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22356886032589,0.10512622508178414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21847367786531235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06982229780523222,0.06734241640721315,0.10325803929595824,0.08343590106186696,0.0,0.0,0.0996204105927652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10266526378853204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09742669881704777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11397406371637565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06767952721274771 alcoholism,kommadantubel,2019/05/04,"My sister.. Hi, I’m going to read the sidebar and start trying to engage in this community to see if there’s anything I can do to help my sister. She got her 1st DWI about a month ago, and then I just picked her up from the hospital today where she was brought from a festival.. the hospital said her blood alcohol was a 0.3.. our dad and grandpa on our mothers side dealt with alcoholism.. I don’t really know what to do.. I’ve been going back and forth in my head about whether she’s an addict or not.. my moms absolutely convinced that she is and gives her shit all the time. I try not to get angry but maybe that’s what she needs? I don’t know. It sucked getting called that she we went to jail a month ago and then to get called today that she was in the hospital.. how do I know if she’s an addict? What can I do to help?",1.6015619047619047,3.1329993657142907,3.254857142857144,92.5064761904762,78.2,6.723809523809526,20.80952380952381,7.554174236665415,0.4724666666666671,639,16,149,9,15,212,95,175,0.038,0.893,0.069,0.4918,0,0,2,0,0,0,23.0,3,0,0,0,7,5,2,0,11,0,13,7,3,2,1,23,31,14,0,3,8,6,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,9,8,2,0,3,1,0,4,4,2,0,0,8,2,26,3,19,23,1,22,0,0,1,0,28,7,2,3,11,99,35,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3235725008506637,0.0,0.0,0.26310886461425204,0.3172053004287153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12212685542863608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141163265187076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30308161873006323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.232610624293855,0.1423661463288075,0.16868698149632935,0.0,0.11869515950166455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15230907028221868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19894904653431436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446828990100808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14909543742126002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1738132526086091,0.2369151496585002,0.0,0.0,0.11004239618028903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14844781684553798,0.0,0.09507374438938493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14116966551174304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11826168713017532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15233832582502996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10504370250227224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08653769745841933,0.0,0.2813462093639769,0.0,0.0,0.20151811287171645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375753835982127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,N0G1TSUNE,2019/05/04,"I need help with letting my sponsor know I’ve decided to drink again Hello fellow alcoholics. As my title has stated, I’ve decided to drink again. Tonight in fact... well currently I’ve started drinking a vodka tonic. Anyways, I’m on my 3rd step with my sponsor - I was previously sober for 40 days, today being my 41st day. I’ve had a REALLY low week this week. My depression has been super intense since I found out I need an exemption to work at my job. A little bit of background- I had a wet and reckless back in 2015 and had to take classes and complete 3 years of “probation”... I didnt have a probation officer or anything, it was just a condition for maintaining my license. I must always be insured when driving. That lasted for 3 years and ended in July of 2018. Anyways, I had no idea that would effect me being hired when I accepted the job offer working in the office of a care home - so now I’m in the process of obtaining an exemption. Well with that exception I had to obtain 3 character references and I asked my sponsor to complete one of them for me. She did. Well, what I haven’t been telling her is that for the past week - I’ve been really thinking that I want to drink again.. idk if it’s just for tonight or if I want to continue more after.. but I’ve been reconsidering because I’m not 100% willing to give my will and life over to my higher power... just yet.. so, now I was thinking of telling my sponsor before I drank.. but I didn’t want to be talked out of it, because I felt like that would lead to a resentment.. So here I am.. drinking.. asking for advice on how to tell my sponsor (and friends) that I failed.. once again.",3.0072929292929302,4.656384254545458,4.5881818181818215,83.93671717171719,74.63636363636364,7.6767676767676765,28.58585858585859,8.401726058763845,2.1127373737373736,1284,54,255,23,27,431,167,330,0.03,0.898,0.071,0.8098,4,0,7,0,0,0,53.0,0,0,1,9,23,12,1,0,14,0,31,8,0,3,2,45,51,20,0,10,11,0,2,1,2,5,2,0,1,0,12,12,7,0,11,6,0,3,5,4,3,1,18,2,38,8,45,23,2,44,0,3,0,0,15,13,0,4,28,180,50,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0988159489493418,0.0,0.1080694313614336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08414220152652656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08321538008535707,0.0,0.18907218013639687,0.0,0.0,0.07775712763478151,0.0,0.12328693970067522,0.0,0.08604798434229853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11039981668619443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10310134971531076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.212050490199252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13043157390910293,0.0,0.08709684819349138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4953088254373323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08956471267355649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09709366672264512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11087583998927568,0.07812716050396816,0.0,0.0,0.09700612479097208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06778042579933008,0.0,0.10143433044721163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11415523907925634,0.0,0.0,0.20069738676483412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05557440081475756,0.08242851123052533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10340482966496167,0.07142596574987375,0.049403451744098575,0.10135152857859056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1499624270436923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10769239358604138,0.06852337028716582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09653307589200584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295636041349453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08364975668505778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07157517974748512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07603169849686134,0.0812786096675598,0.2651571361300755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12959070811879844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09585251198692576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17893439590534854,0.0,0.2433436324563878,0.0,0.27276440148188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14723708505195476,0.0,0.0,0.14366935396815306,0.0,0.0,0.13023942894490534 alcoholism,BigAleLover,2019/05/04,"I'm new here I've been an alcoholic for most my life and I really need people around me who at least understand what I'm going through. I know you guys have probably heard this story a thousand times before and really I'm completely new to Reddit, so I have no real idea how all this stuff works, I just got referred to it by a friend. But I hope I can fit into this community and see what advice and support people have to offer. Well I won't go on too much.",2.210025773195877,3.702369422680413,4.344935567010307,85.507506443299,76.42268041237114,7.73659793814433,21.403350515463927,8.472884824447931,1.156320618556701,362,9,77,7,8,125,71,97,0.027000000000000003,0.8290000000000001,0.14400000000000002,0.8727,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,1,7,4,0,0,3,0,6,2,0,1,1,18,19,7,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,1,8,6,1,0,4,0,0,2,2,0,1,1,3,2,10,4,10,15,4,10,0,0,1,0,6,5,0,2,3,54,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842687178854737,0.0,0.20152430626145615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16786754910042145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16045943918944958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19771237523627827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1456889485064721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21433769785966336,0.0,0.15081689771789486,0.0,0.0,0.18671424717833085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18729285942985094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21287291949023385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10363330711562237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1331927818575957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386208700510689,0.1398224904792514,0.0,0.3642447478305277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2614618100881732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20331068060234536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2146342883687186,0.241605929735156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15026611739467954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2158678821483302,0.0,0.21398734544596956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10995686025549786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1963083359511341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16954734898658758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1372814266127577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,riseaboveitx,2019/05/04,"Vision and sense of hearing I’ve always had poor vision, I could see things up close very clearly (reading, writing, computer screens) but wouldn’t dare drive or go to class without my glasses. After about a year of regular, heavy drinking I find myself squinting at work just 1.5 feet away from a computer screen. I know it causes nerve damage, I thought maybe that was the cause but I’ve noticed my sense of hearing has significantly improved. Just curious if this is a common occurrence.",5.778154093097914,7.902008741573034,5.5438523274478335,77.96146067415731,68.32584269662922,7.782343499197433,34.06260032102729,8.418075326091056,2.972738683788122,394,19,64,6,7,122,72,89,0.07,0.7959999999999999,0.134,0.5785,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,4,0,6,2,1,2,1,18,12,5,0,3,7,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,4,2,1,0,3,2,1,2,2,1,0,0,3,5,7,0,11,7,0,9,0,1,3,0,3,4,0,2,3,39,11,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1794413278691919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20261394629277168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4430719380621466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1721820983287229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21125873040957896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19710376582358133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12256108616728108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4861152571307446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1185177484878492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21665333733336314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2455234046133723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2157122678983576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1718482445779594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14327087458646853,0.0,0.0,0.17120511488162388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1779370599369299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20788267254026255,0.0,0.1569986140960588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13887404683267873 alcoholism,jeb3166,2019/07/12,"I think it's happening So I don't drink when I have company much, I'm okay there. But almost every time I'm alone I do. I think I'm reliant, if not yet addicted. I just can't seem to cope with being alone or lonely, and the person who's kept me from being alone most of the past few months is leaving across the world in 5 days. How do I keep from needing it to feel okay? I really don't want to be relying on drinking until I feel okay again because I think that will make me properly addicted",2.3367523364485976,3.3083917757009367,4.293539719626172,88.10236565420561,75.16822429906544,7.966822429906544,23.655373831775687,8.472884824447931,1.271206542056075,388,11,88,7,8,133,71,107,0.10400000000000001,0.821,0.075,-0.4215,0,5,2,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,7,4,0,0,3,3,11,4,0,2,0,21,26,8,0,3,5,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,4,2,2,2,6,2,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,2,12,3,11,21,3,12,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,5,8,56,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3742969824571202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1719053268280735,0.5334031691540885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10465003328290023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1107146351744014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3363476143908026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14464158312730627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1736056656308254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15180952733778905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15259050894737594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18177651273497286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11459280421443035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13702744420867827,0.0,0.12619912563652286,0.12729306948009958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1638809370972458,0.0,0.1498979065366478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10997787371390384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15628430199938226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.330002641416346,0.0,0.0,0.10010368292212404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10125695677857116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,My_DadsThrowaway,2019/07/12,"Reaching out to a struggling employee? My family runs some restaurants and we have an employee whose family works with us. One of them has struggled with alcohol for years. She has been sober for 8 months but started drinking yesterday. She has called in, but i had a feeling of what happened. From what her husband us saying, it sounds like she was white knuckling it and in the past few weeks got stressed out. She has requested off for next month for a couple to visit her parents who she hadnt seen in 8 years. Her family was looking forward to seeing her sober. Lately she has been sober (according to her husband, who has worked with us for decades) for 8 months but yesterday started drinking again. I am not very close to their family outside of work, but ww have worked together for most of my life and i hate to see her go back down this path. I am less concerned about my staffing issues (when sober she is unstoppable and helps everyone) and far more concerned about if there is any way to help her out. Is there anything a concerned boss might do that might help?",5.573067226890757,6.783366754901966,5.074229691876752,84.63617647058827,67.72549019607844,8.573669467787116,31.23809523809524,8.841846274778883,2.4381565826330536,854,34,163,14,14,259,117,204,0.066,0.853,0.081,0.5122,3,0,3,0,0,0,20.0,4,0,2,4,7,5,1,3,6,0,22,4,0,1,0,25,33,11,0,1,6,3,1,1,0,2,2,2,0,0,9,13,3,0,1,2,0,4,2,4,0,1,8,8,27,1,32,23,5,31,0,0,5,0,33,11,0,5,18,118,36,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11599862590703475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07381243327739187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08932100060700268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0834622690846453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11083374477933068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12009990453721135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2126601109177733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10371674494140236,0.0,0.0,0.4092957889289924,0.0,0.054882208954972665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06168704632467813,0.0,0.08681113074340673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09598352876830084,0.0,0.0,0.1071629730165238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21826069103168774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11328987999097374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12244035459048093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07666658162897523,0.05302824716652524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0911481297266228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.230292290281297,0.0,0.0,0.2599120990078295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11543588486638565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07355101896711533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1205232928267317,0.0,0.10361583305275236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08631713178786746,0.0,0.0,0.17298819642682292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1536534873027976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1243347489894952,0.22694379571121565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3916887871495201,0.0,0.0,0.08955870090956068,0.0,0.08615576388617155,0.08706602361267092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3160801224439309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1397952650088368 alcoholism,bokeraham123123123,2019/07/12,"Advice: Rehab for 29M in the bay area / other advice dealing with an alcoholic So my brother is having issues with drinking. We recently checked him into a hospital for 3 days because he was in severe paint from the drinking and a degenerative back disease. He is 29 years old and the doctors were pretty up-front with him that this is a ""wake up call"". He had a fatty liver due to the alcohol and he had a 360 / 80 alcohol level when he was admitted through emergency. &#x200B; Some totally irrelevant facts - my brother tends to lie about things, and in-fact while in the hospital lied to the doctors often about how much he had been drinking - his liver sonogram disagreed. &#x200B; Now, we're located in the bay area and are looking for a rehab around us (east bay, south bay, SF whatever) for him and was wondering if people had any recommendations for a rehab, what are the things we should look for? A psychologist at the hospital recommended a double diagnosis facility since he's also dealing with stress from his marriage and other things. Really hoping to nail something down in the next few days before things get worse and he relapses back into routine. &#x200B; Also open to any other advice dealing with a person of this behavior. He's also somewhat afraid to mention to his HR @ work that he needs to go to rehab for substance abuse. Thanks in advance reddit",6.526670541734482,7.822168498023718,7.144552429667519,70.34680306905372,65.60079051383399,9.589304812834227,34.249941873982785,9.773937934552695,3.622538897930714,1102,49,175,23,17,363,141,253,0.079,0.873,0.048,-0.8319,0,0,7,0,1,0,39.0,3,0,0,2,13,4,0,2,21,0,16,15,3,1,2,31,26,16,0,4,1,2,0,0,0,1,9,0,0,1,12,19,6,0,2,3,1,2,0,2,0,0,9,2,11,2,39,16,6,32,0,0,2,0,29,18,0,6,12,125,23,3,0.0,0.10673026872317852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26407589202460946,0.0,0.2888049124741313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21611123272769436,0.0,0.29280547224939457,0.3283717906149738,0.12251520605232168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08019044737014712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13853217731045306,0.0,0.05491203414462733,0.0,0.0766515880068483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0919819228026263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11618851205850665,0.2786060925190405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1844017373578276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26473281144540656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047063169708804205,0.0,0.05119463521020301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08946993190404615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09402029153121136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1512893072197541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06621928802680269,0.06679330295834504,0.0,0.0,0.09580128030116772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09452398290072753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06245024614208305,0.07865452789391071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09164391497010507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0577076620721743,0.0,0.08894329826526823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10176494921659482,0.0,0.07451524559587236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06934811402512746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.103186527767385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0829337157789276,0.0,0.0,0.239381043039714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10835535048155112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09768809932325197,0.0655794349454848,0.0,0.09179938666469564,0.0,0.0,0.3283717906149738,0.05800867461357091 alcoholism,Imastupidalcoholic,2019/07/12,"Yesterday I managed to humiliate myself, lose the respect of my mentors, and jeopardize my job and education. I'm freaking out Hi. I also posted this on r/stopdrinking for more support. I’m sorry if this is long or irrelevant, but I have been having a panic attack over this for the last 8 hours and I Really need to hear/talk to people who have also been close to destroying their lives with stupid alcohol. For background, I am a graduate teaching assistant for the summer and also work in a research lab. Unfortunately, one thing that is really freaking me out is that this is my second strike. My boss for my lab pulled me aside about 4 months ago to comment that he feels alcohol has been heavily affecting my productivity and that he can smell it on me sometimes (note that he is a very strict man who is also a Mormon. I’m kind of afraid of him). He told me that I needed to see the school substance abuse counselor. I complied, and the councilor recommended me for intensive outpatient therapy and gave me a number. Honestly, I completely blew it off. I didn’t understand how my health insurance worked and didn’t feel like figuring it out. However, the topic never came up again, and I ceased having a morning beer before I went in. Currently I am TAing a late morning lab. Tuesday night I had WAY WAY too much to drink (first time I’ve vomited from alcohol in almost a decade). I woke up in time for my class (Definitely still probably kind of drunk), and went in. I was admittedly pretty useless as again, really hungover and probably still kind of drunk, but I thought I made it through pretty okay. Today, the chair of my department pulled me aside and asked to speak with me after my lab. When I did, she mentioned that she had concerns- someone (no idea who) had raised concerns that I might have a neurological issue because I was stumbling. She then told me that she had called my lab boss to express concern, and he told her about our previously conversation. She expressed to me that she is concerned about me, and that I need to be more responsible and to please just call in next time. Needless to say I was pretty frazzled by all of this, which is where I maybe fucked up and could have saved things? The thing is, I did/do have a neurological disease. In my early 20s I went about a year where I couldn’t walk without heavy assistance, and then spent the next several years with a pretty severe limp. I’m basically recovered, but I never regained all of my balance. Stone cold sober and not tired it isn’t a huge deal and isn’t really noticeable- I kind of sway a bit, I definitely trip, crash into things more than normal people, and don’t always walk in a straight line (I was in addiction treatment for a DUI right around the time that I was diagnosed with this disease, and it took a crazy amount of convincing, including being breathalyzed and drug tested, to convince the councilors I wasn’t inebriated). I also lean on things and stand in a certain way to minimize falling over. When I’m drunk, hungover, sick, whatever it gets way way worse. I thought I was doing pretty okay yesterday, but I Wasn’t concentrating on it nearly as much as I would, so I was stumbling more. I SHOULD have disclosed this to the chair. I really should have, but a mixture of me hating talking about it (I was told I would never walk again) and being totally blindsided, it didn’t really cross my mind. Anyway, I apologized profusely for my unprofessionalism and assured her it wouldn’t happen again. Within two hours of our meeting I had figured out my healthcare insurance and had an appointment with a therapist for their earliest possible appointment. I then emailed the chair to apologize again and let her know that I was taking appropriate action to remedy the situation. I’m kind of considering telling her about my disease tomorrow, but at this point I worry it may look like I’m making excuses, PLUS I want to talk about this as little as possible. What I’m now super concerned about is my boss. Again, this is my second strike with him and he is also very image conscious (he likes that his is the most prestigious lab). He is on vacation until next week, so I have like a week to stew over this. I don’t THINK he will fire me, but I have definitely lost a lot of his trust so that doesn’t bode well. Either way it is going to be a very uncomfortable and painful talk as he really is the ‘lecturing’ type. So, there you go. I’m freaking out. In 1 hour I managed to apparently humiliate myself, lose the respect of three of my mentors, and put my job and education at risk. This is all still very fresh, but I don’t know what else I can do. Thank you for listening. It helped a lot just to type it out.",6.124493355481729,6.697662785160578,6.797974806201553,75.04486918604654,66.22037652270211,10.43671096345515,32.29332779623478,10.371327730470783,3.326304872646734,3737,146,696,90,56,1232,381,903,0.121,0.7559999999999999,0.12300000000000001,-0.4426,5,0,7,0,1,0,108.0,2,2,2,7,40,40,5,3,43,2,80,19,0,7,9,112,130,65,0,13,15,0,4,4,0,8,13,3,0,1,53,48,8,0,13,5,1,18,19,16,1,6,40,11,110,24,113,75,16,118,1,4,2,1,63,43,1,8,53,499,163,20,0.0,0.06322803407887126,0.0,0.05817502346376365,0.0,0.0,0.047304280593122985,0.17109079801364885,0.053436692735906906,0.0,0.0,0.256052730892564,0.04440341801390019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04750558955557549,0.049888467957123324,0.06070965736432143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032530415296168284,0.0,0.04540913535284754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05826005405182566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10898194521909868,0.061034605315000275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055951510571074295,0.0,0.0,0.042607094906108256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05501630644275223,0.0,0.054163696678158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052276751553580816,0.06188570935468464,0.0,0.04457907076149095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053965242280159635,0.03812350563821053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045391692820228036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04933448598970271,0.027880672782019708,0.0,0.06065638508081701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047189922595277635,0.0,0.0,0.052686252179131116,0.0,0.05672381358338401,0.060145506115085325,0.0,0.035769002062288204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15765941975482156,0.0,0.0,0.060241860889685965,0.0,0.05569852177979042,0.1059117755078806,0.0,0.0,0.2778538172979119,0.05865530745524297,0.04349907150074511,0.06019731645427216,0.0,0.0,0.05456866819466235,0.0,0.10428451261433554,0.053485102697296685,0.04712170285299543,0.04722577460372452,0.044812617765770016,0.11940212560258714,0.05825349697227177,0.0907369320243435,0.0,0.05049464268389027,0.03562112112253897,0.0,0.053611666921751115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05661114720473096,0.05388278574815989,0.0,0.04259491877112663,0.0,0.0784578817260675,0.11870697842926338,0.12347364038645282,0.0,0.1702607897875441,0.05007883185629761,0.05228573725026284,0.0,0.06075567148717743,0.0,0.0,0.03616106780404437,0.0,0.056783435834534726,0.06261157221149699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07399224865716111,0.0,0.0,0.05857803641157602,0.05044656404594285,0.1203205834952606,0.0511083005027624,0.27145366765073103,0.11507160015997965,0.0,0.0,0.05364591577597063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23930600451334946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045572867309415566,0.0,0.04243747672112131,0.0,0.05400757591191661,0.042524481564874685,0.0,0.0,0.1205730624325526,0.0,0.0,0.05998377052672901,0.0,0.0,0.045215444537137314,0.0,0.052778711290621616,0.059737026047839537,0.0,0.0,0.12785052771654665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0605572372821273,0.0,0.0,0.04012335343517992,0.1715689875083434,0.046642798109818716,0.04913072805201959,0.06102679031358621,0.06196012882794465,0.1772645301119695,0.0341937237136721,0.0,0.08473067350179528,0.1244687374089824,0.06133447547827571,0.050583168495966266,0.20396771106149755,0.05928976156647155,0.0,0.0,0.0521292203675708,0.05555417520543991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17612472547692126,0.031475679006509306,0.25414884497983803,0.08561133285438156,0.0,0.047980963648754,0.148407874238165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05144133358944463,0.0,0.07769977153080568,0.05419409253375243,0.0543828364520396,0.07581701291739705,0.0,0.0,0.06872978957543817 alcoholism,LymeSoda,2019/07/12,"I am so stupid. Less than 12 hours after getting off of Soberlink, he is drunk and lying. Throwaway for obvious reasons. &#x200B; My partner (42M) and I (30F) have been together for four years; we have a cute house, a wonderful dog... the works. Discussions of marriage and children - as recently as yesterday - have been making their rounds with good outlooks. &#x200B; But, he is a binge drinker. A lying one. &#x200B; Due to his ex-wife wanting to change the custody agreement with their children in her favor, he has been using Soberlink three times a day, every day, for two years. He has never had a positive test. Even more recently, his ex (and the court) have ordered my partner to get hair follicle testing done. He had three (yes, three) tests done in the span of a month. The first and second came back at 16% and 14%, respectively. The results were deemed inadmissible because the first was before the court order was in place, the second collection was done at a clinic his ex didn't approve of. Between the second and mandated third test, my partner went overseas for a week-long conference. And there - thinking he was in the clear - he drank. He never shared the results of the third test with me; he mumbled something on the phone that I didn't quite catch. &#x200B; For the past 5 months, he hasn't had a drop to drink (as far as I know). There was supposed to be a surprise follicle test done to show he wasn't drinking to the degree his ex was accusing him of. This is why he completely stopped. His ex recently dropped the custody modifications with the court; she could no longer afford a lawyer who charges her $4,000 every appearance made in court and managed to convince the kids that they would be better off with her. &#x200B; So today, my partner officially stopped Soberlink. He just came home drunk. &#x200B; I didn't catch it at first but it quickly became evident he was drinking. To be blunt, he is an asshole when he is drunk. He was rough playing with the dog (something he never does), was slow to respond and react, is bracing himself against doorways and on furniture, and in a bad mood that he blamed on me. It wasn't too difficult to tell. So I said, ""Please don't take this the wrong way, but have you been drinking?"". Immediately, he turns it around on me. His mood was my fault because \*I am acting weird\*. No, of course he hasn't had anything to drink. He refuses dinner, takes his backpack (guess what must have been in it?) up to the guest room and shuts the door. &#x200B; This isn't the first time this has happened. The other time was about a year ago, he was stressed and decided vodka would be a better ear than I could be. Deny, deny, deny. ""No, I haven't had anything to drink"". I was worried he hit his head outside doing yard work and was ready to take him to the ER. I put him to bed with a big glass of water and kept waking up throughout the night to check on him, thinking I would find him dead from head trauma. &#x200B; It came out that yes, he had been drinking. His story changed 3 or 4 times. &#x200B; I'm just... lost. My mother is an abusive alcoholic; a nightly drinker who used liquor as an excuse to scream and beat my brother and I. My partner can handle a beer or two at dinner and leave it at that. He has been to therapy with an addiction counselor his ex chose (another stipulation of their custody agreement). We have been to couples counseling where I explained to him how hurtful his lies were. And yet, he does this.",4.427508964719493,6.183093726315793,4.533439849624063,85.33771905725855,71.13533834586467,7.100347021399652,30.081694621168303,7.680030821947732,1.914313475997686,2748,115,519,33,52,853,303,665,0.13,0.812,0.057999999999999996,-0.9947,1,0,14,0,0,0,156.0,2,1,4,12,17,25,1,1,49,2,77,24,5,9,6,76,106,35,1,7,7,7,3,0,6,4,3,3,5,8,21,35,17,4,8,16,1,9,16,11,1,16,48,6,54,12,79,46,2,81,0,2,1,0,84,30,0,5,37,344,75,10,0.0,0.05065027997845152,0.0,0.046602448883940016,0.0,0.0,0.0378941887269838,0.04568541442823824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41686428768731615,0.4674997073645116,0.0,0.04482579308405227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07035715980198286,0.03805545193022797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032871151036815136,0.03569342172988428,0.05211848404177491,0.0,0.03637603877311929,0.0,0.0,0.07561559319197912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14667954931460225,0.0,0.0,0.09044502121418753,0.0,0.04482125242273221,0.0,0.0,0.06826279885187803,0.0473006802336751,0.0,0.05513881616195178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07481944070565077,0.1749872585708821,0.0,0.2931425116705228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0282351470692118,0.0,0.07203533343958676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039071584241223936,0.14544826411477518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04466891634287869,0.0,0.0,0.035855624400640634,0.0,0.0,0.047092569108192685,0.0,0.03780257960623497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08774510372453938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042880483087148674,0.0,0.04209890896318101,0.04932631945807323,0.04576342243135376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02349359574523757,0.0,0.0,0.04526475520813431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037831299687320505,0.0,0.0,0.0466653119040344,0.0,0.0,0.04044990211399862,0.0285351234509732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06824329090244201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09891141716870727,0.0,0.0,0.08023361445498077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028967660236120907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0408085202503684,0.0,0.0,0.044663346514253056,0.046925291732670314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0429743023539828,0.0,0.04546855906926701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043952836144320606,0.1266277040216355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04066385186428565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0658201545516671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07147974052021053,0.048968550196175915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09642522251907287,0.0,0.03736429287511516,0.0,0.048886922717122944,0.0,0.0,0.05478334744499231,0.0,0.0,0.09970856266802762,0.0,0.04052081776450542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046498365815669324,0.0835186367927318,0.0,0.0,0.07384239133106088,0.0,0.0,0.02521432110640796,0.033931969001733536,0.03429046973842147,0.0,0.0,0.03962852074863515,0.038574098917131865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04635919725938959,0.06224320018218224,0.04341343203219948,0.0,0.09110245923364768,0.0467390487494421,0.4674997073645116,0.08258638281826558 alcoholism,littlebluefleur,2018/11/27,"Would you want to know and would it help to know If someone could share with you an outcome of someone that died from end-stage alcoholism, would you want to know? And do you think knowing might be helpful some how? 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Seriously tho, legal or not. Load a bowl/roll a joint, it will stop your drinking or reduce it greatly.",1.100200000000001,3.6902173200000057,2.4235000000000007,88.81925000000004,95.8,4.1000000000000005,18.25,5.985473137389443,0.015200000000000102,103,3,19,1,4,33,21,25,0.244,0.698,0.057999999999999996,-0.5859,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,2,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,11,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5294124016768142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5958223201683533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4007195338806357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4518209013607866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Wintermuteson,2018/11/27,Am I an alcoholic Top start off my girlfriend thinks i am but i don't think so. I know that sounds bad but let me get into it before you make a judgement. In reality i haven't really drank in over a year. I stopped when i met my current girlfriend not because i wanted to but because she said it was bad. Before that i was drunk pretty much 24/7. I still want to all the time but I'm underage (20) and i don't hang out with my old drinking friends so i don't have a way of getting it. What happened that started this was a few weeks ago i was feeling really down and my gf wasn't home so i took a few zoloft and walked to my parents house (about 1 mile) and took some of their whiskey. Only about 1.5 shots but my gfs brother could smell it when i got back and she confronted me about it today. I also told her about how i overtook my prescription meds a lot (seroquel) a few months ago. She's worried I'm gonna slip back into it when i turn 21 in a few months. Is this something i should really be worried about our is she being paranoid? She also wants to tell my parents about it tomorrow since they don't know any of this.,1.3440775960441231,3.125341271966529,2.9154374286801072,93.50966432103462,79.7949790794979,5.851730696082162,22.99752757702549,6.782984794422108,0.5211071129707112,880,29,199,9,22,289,132,239,0.11199999999999999,0.831,0.057999999999999996,-0.9217,3,0,4,0,0,0,20.0,1,1,2,1,18,4,1,0,10,0,20,6,0,2,1,31,45,19,0,5,6,3,1,0,4,2,2,2,1,0,14,9,5,1,5,3,0,4,7,3,0,0,12,4,39,1,23,27,8,36,0,0,0,0,21,11,0,2,20,137,53,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2144056708169086,0.12924424900090148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19342561548049655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08224090959069816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1859852770394232,0.2019537107624416,0.14744343273115024,0.0,0.20581596431589053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09655788704914677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11847164616434125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06114908538296592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0934351745789949,0.0,0.12636857120969933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0967238991851734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10694367278158544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12130908524644644,0.0,0.0,0.13954438619247242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329269823389056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236656784879082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10281581568632853,0.0,0.0,0.08072599639786747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134333094398896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930605860189916,0.0,0.08890218047622471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1269024243173791,0.0,0.0,0.09197759355142317,0.0,0.0,0.26857115498920764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12303581193628033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23242489346872275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11503822525105582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1000398525806124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09310276103017427,0.0,0.0,0.17119883462012012,0.0,0.09657997759631587,0.10110825848833363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10570375758940484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15498234364066654,0.0,0.0,0.07051899639233228,0.0,0.11463358112034196,0.11555992757632018,0.2687296147799773,0.0,0.13154409224097566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2139942935562604,0.09599369745544492,0.09700789769986387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24563360056049624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07787908649206418 alcoholism,ComoSeDiceDepressed,2018/11/27,"Does going on a drinking bender once make me an alcoholic? I (20f) have only drank a few times in my life but my father is an alcoholic so I guess I'm paranoid about ending up one. Background: I began drinking for the first time in late July/early August with my then boyfriend and best friend. I only ever drank on days I was off work (1-3 times every two weeks) and when I did so it was always in my apartment and I never drank enough to pass out, throw up or black out on those occasions. In mid August I was assaulted and that triggered a two month depressive episode (I've dealt with depression off and on for a decade but not to this extent before). During these two months I began drinking a lot to cope. I still never drank enough to pass out or blackout but I did puke once. Id say I drank 3-4 times a week to numb my pain because I felt very suicidal when I was sober. My best friend was very concerned with me getting drunk 3-4 times a week and so once my depression started getting better I stopped drink and haven't had a sip of alcohol since September. I dont feel like I'm an alcoholic and now that I'm not trying to cope from depression I feel like it would be okay to have a drink once in awhile (like 1 every month or two months). Do you guys think I'm an alcoholic and in denial? 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First post + not sure if this is the suitable subreddit - if not please inform me (additionaly not a native speaker). I turned 22 last week. I drink at least 5/7 days since about a year. Although it actually slowly started when i moved out from my parents house 3 years ago. I only started realising it in the last 6 months when i began to work besides studying for my bachelor. I always felt the need to buy alcohol everyday before coming home after work. ""Then I'd have something to drink if I'd want to."" Well i did. Every time. I was never that close to any family member to talk about something like that - even though they'd probably want to help me. I only told one friend once about it but she isn't any help and i avoid talking about it to her since i told her. I feel like slowly killing myself. I hate myself because of that. I'd love to have some stranger(s) to talk to who actually know what I'm talking about and maybe went through the same. PMs are welcome. tl:dr - alcoholic looking for strangers to chat to and maybe help.",2.4548571428571435,4.8158705809523825,3.5938095238095267,87.10785714285716,78.90476190476191,6.476190476190476,24.761904761904763,7.62386473244151,1.3401904761904766,842,31,165,13,21,272,131,210,0.079,0.7829999999999999,0.138,0.8686,1,1,7,0,0,1,30.0,0,0,1,3,10,10,2,1,7,0,8,7,0,0,2,25,27,12,1,6,7,1,2,2,1,0,4,1,1,0,10,6,5,1,4,3,1,3,5,3,1,2,7,4,23,7,27,19,3,27,0,0,1,1,21,4,0,4,21,97,33,2,0.0,0.0,0.20480817996171768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0930209687447379,0.33643956899861605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08731660026198597,0.0,0.0,0.14272251384820814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06396906805423715,0.0,0.08929428177366429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0903945651777623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06767615651803685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2055980563014426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06931038297062082,0.0,0.08841456599952294,0.1002725009116067,0.0,0.0,0.0989259554753827,0.0,0.05305967084271356,0.0749675374394632,0.10075668013653014,0.0,0.0,0.08925998210223322,0.0,0.0,0.08107463222457252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1036042860346305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.211012651359312,0.0,0.10526110232222956,0.0,0.0,0.12108405469926528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1160980537717482,0.0,0.0576710337108515,0.17107651653343933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1025345514911878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08812126649624155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09471040109625027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21084811482394727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08376029733490209,0.11153220303170397,0.0,0.07780999937565962,0.08093444891367821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1117552608728018,0.07110852370652843,0.15961974927928824,0.0,0.0,0.1165209339790421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1151901186498859,0.0,0.0,0.10050134076777996,0.0,0.11314062477724883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17361115430712673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16157238735037513,0.0,0.0,0.1485509350910121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09890257148749036,0.0,0.0,0.3373798993341018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10310078989751266,0.0,0.061190036012835784,0.0,0.0,0.2005450018232134,0.0,0.0,0.11414211990084848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12378998756021913,0.0,0.08417471968488748,0.0,0.09435162450313236,0.09727832983884543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15279183888679834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351529190966852 alcoholism,throwawayy8970,2018/11/27,"My dad has at least one drink a day and it affects his mood. I'm worried and sad. For the record, I've never really seen my dad drunk. He's never been violent or anything. He's ben verbally mean and has had outbursts and I can tell her has anxiety over things (OCD-like) and obsessions such as researching new light fixtures or sprinklers systems or new foods obsessively. He used to have to go to Costco every other day. My mom would joke that Costco is his other wife, but it was actually an issue financially. I think he's now obsessed with beer. I remember years ago when I was young my mom would tell my dad semi-jokingly that he's an alcoholic because he would drink several cans a day. I was young and would just go ""eh every adult drinks after work."" I think he stopped at some point to lose weight and I moved to college and didn't think about it. I do remember my neighbors asking us if we had a party recently, because we had so many beer cans in our recycling. Now he has a beer (strong IPA 6%+) sometimes during lunch when he comes home. He for sure has one with dinner or more often, BEFORE dinner the second he steps into the house. The past few weeks any time I've had an argument or when he would just pick at things angrily, I've realized it's always after he's had his beer. He'd get angry that some sugar was spilled on the counter and keep asking and asking how this happened. My mom was busy washing the dishes and got upset that he kept asking her to clean it when she said she will and was clearly busy at the moment. Just now he had a beer and my mom and I said, oh you're drinking again? He said ""well I didn't have one yesterday."" I said well, if you can count the day you don't drink and not the ones you drink it sounds like you have an issue. He opened the fridge and kept going on and on about how it's not organized and how I shouldn't put my stuf on all the differently shelves. I could tell it was giving him anxiety (he likes things packed neatly) and the tone he was using was the kind he had after a beer. We had just literally talked about it 10 minutes ago and sure thing it happened. I said ""oof it's not a big deal c'mon"" and my mom tried to calm him and I was like ""maybe the beer is giving you anxiety over this and you're acting like you have OCD"" and he went off on ""what now everything is a label you're gonna call me racist next!!! everything is racist this racist that your generation is OUT OF CONTROL"" What? Granted, English is not his main language and I think he was referring to me calling him *something* (like OCD), but basically I said ""see this is what we're talking about. you get grumpy and pick on things and don't act like a dad when you drink"" He was silent the rest of the day. Also, I suspect he's going through a midlife crisis because he's doing progressively risky things. We were on a family road trip and he kept speeding around tight curves when he repeatedly told him not to. He laughed at us and kept doing it. He would look at the scenery on the side and he had to keep reminding him to keep his eyes on the road. He ended up swerving into the side gravel and we all got really upset. Luckily we were on a flat area and not up on a mountain road because we would have fell. He was SO defensive and we were really mad that we kept telling him to and he kept putting us in danger. He was acting like it was no big deal. During hikes he would also venture onto the side of the cliff and cause us a lot of stress. We've stopped trusting him. He's a 60 year old man acting like a teenager trying to piss off his parents. I'm sad. I don't know what to do.",2.711048387096774,4.210299405913978,3.8532580645161296,89.5223870967742,75.10215053763442,7.003010752688173,23.28709677419355,7.675431598112923,0.9000138709677423,2834,81,614,38,60,921,299,744,0.124,0.7809999999999999,0.095,-0.9711,2,0,16,0,0,0,78.0,14,9,0,5,31,34,5,6,42,0,70,26,2,10,7,126,118,58,0,12,19,11,2,8,1,11,2,7,3,2,35,52,23,14,11,16,0,16,15,14,2,5,47,15,72,19,61,58,10,100,0,3,4,0,114,41,1,11,50,373,107,3,0.0,0.0,0.04953425851986548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08999102896049249,0.054246806581666175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08118521351644084,0.04223623344791617,0.0,0.0,0.034518415714077766,0.0,0.1164933616074232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0417710038004434,0.045186998215364114,0.18981430468585392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12377085153007973,0.0,0.04319286503643712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10366289546541056,0.0,0.0,0.0521443137777471,0.0,0.043725087163442936,0.0,0.0,0.05693145017822029,0.04052758295382952,0.0,0.0,0.16367941130192745,0.10466228350397552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053033204360100006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3480770685889977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044958130932470114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08553466897583277,0.0,0.09123929976196203,0.0,0.04785183730218439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061378971358626064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053039817967964316,0.09738688216417812,0.11539189346090888,0.0,0.0811945241894064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08977347583914852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05091623445401377,0.0,0.0,0.058570012869876925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10596012081135907,0.0,0.13535297100744673,0.0,0.052858537548238015,0.02789626755606306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19838945814497472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04262546150782347,0.05678725058451099,0.0,0.0431541806323127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0514624866626948,0.050995058059047714,0.05529232070365395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2972464168425336,0.0,0.05394965161347762,0.0,0.0,0.07829819915205223,0.09804829377908922,0.05398364049543923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05326388848947065,0.0,0.13758466080421375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0563627689848413,0.0,0.048455988253822864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0479844334285866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10205527067902072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09755411430859276,0.0,0.05011919488900962,0.0,0.11500195367218892,0.0,0.2897052551088123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04044900169764873,0.0,0.0,0.05734414421472321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039077386490038134,0.05020275624847249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08487495860628172,0.058145198075179275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09568105229501178,0.0,0.0,0.08159763519281961,0.1774652671119711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2023353987794514,0.13009936278077516,0.0,0.0,0.029598457085710492,0.0,0.0,0.048503179741330435,0.0,0.06892516661531026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442312364830504,0.08768036736004353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040716462853073405,0.06181178148250997,0.0912783417299254,0.04705485825340373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03695375081483064,0.051549057395468896,0.0,0.2884665370490553,0.0,0.0,0.06537531494592674 alcoholism,waycooldud,2019/09/24,"26m looking for some advice on withdrawal. I have been drinking about half a handle for months and want to stop, I'm 400 lbs and had a 4th of a handle last night and have not had any for 26 hours now and only have a head ache. Should I be worried about worse symptoms? Should I try to taper more?",3.715,3.8800922063492114,4.412817460317459,91.47732142857143,71.38095238095238,6.934920634920636,23.686507936507937,5.985473137389443,0.3439555555555551,231,5,53,1,4,74,44,63,0.172,0.789,0.039,-0.8426,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,0,9,3,1,0,0,10,12,4,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,3,0,9,6,2,7,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,6,34,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27612662369661706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19215902257884065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27681352071063353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29000095660104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2782770400388328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2303343412113764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2372897727451275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255467120472097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2651751944649673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21490915608737868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2362433030284049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2937010726413869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1918482116559041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16666861011092815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2869661390610698,0.2879655674299164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,AlcoholicThroAway,2019/09/24,"I told my boyfriend I’d stop drinking for a week, I lasted one day and I don’t have the heart to tell him He used to call me an alcoholic jokingly. But now, he calls me an alcoholic in a very serious context. I know he’s getting frustrated with me and it’s not his responsibility to take care of me. He doesn’t have to feel bad that I’m the one drinking most nights away. I thought I could prove to him that I didn’t need to drink all the time and I lasted one. fucking. day.",0.2169638128861422,2.218270184466021,2.3822065313327454,94.66100617828778,85.01941747572816,6.0755516328331876,21.984995586937334,7.348242739294969,0.5974932038834949,371,13,90,6,11,125,65,103,0.113,0.8540000000000001,0.034,-0.7574,0,0,5,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,1,6,2,0,7,0,6,7,1,1,2,16,17,4,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,4,5,1,4,4,0,0,4,4,0,3,3,1,16,2,11,13,2,11,0,0,0,1,11,2,1,1,9,54,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33970243554006857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14932293943949473,0.0,0.13270255338765105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32457706069500664,0.0,0.16204295314844344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12689519903113528,0.0,0.0,0.20499748527435466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4670819830155913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08036138318036977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.146931149203148,0.08303601852209694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18833656470157206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08734551053254785,0.2591034825500529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11784692735142364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1491480080877471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3230916756670081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13287524175045565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11949795993304906,0.0,0.1389145906933444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12617517929520972,0.09267520609814328,0.0,0.0,0.15186744923650758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1372672246448939,0.0,0.13113650521672812,0.0,0.0,0.12748659754692732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,dont_shoot_to_kill,2019/05/10,"It's the weekend; Who was I kidding? First, start with positive energy on Monday with no drinks and promises. Up to the weekend and can't I hold back the glasses. it's way harder than I thought",1.9226923076923088,4.23171094871795,3.3407051282051263,88.47721153846153,80.53846153846153,5.951282051282053,27.698717948717945,7.1686216300943375,1.5600717948717948,153,7,30,2,4,50,30,39,0.055,0.7020000000000001,0.243,0.7579,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,6,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,4,1,1,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,3,1,6,2,0,9,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,6,22,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3827633810829559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4876365330650851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4234128376191186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3523324309309113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3951830464096136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39511592299762605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,There4IM,2019/05/10,"Day 24: Getting my liver back Just over three weeks without a drink after 2+ decades of nightly abuse. I just got my liver tests back and I'm nominal in all except one, which my doctors and I will continue to watch. I feel like I dodged a bullet, and I'm more motivated than ever to stay healthy and sober. If you have health concerns, PLEASE don't wait to get help. Start now. YOU CAN DO THIS.",2.2653439153439163,4.00022251851852,3.3450793650793638,91.69,76.90123456790123,6.110052910052911,23.917107583774253,6.868970318607317,0.6728292768959432,308,10,67,3,7,99,62,81,0.05,0.779,0.171,0.8412,0,0,1,0,1,0,11.0,0,2,0,1,6,1,0,0,2,0,5,5,2,1,2,14,13,5,0,1,5,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,4,1,1,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,2,9,1,10,11,2,13,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,1,11,43,11,3,0.0,0.28668959106034025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3721131197077862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15604775199412935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2476619768055123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2370341058867007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21887167811357136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12234504414190812,0.17286022569627024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.252834009306496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19352194135489026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2571980476147305,0.0,0.0,0.16218439689398192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11821213766521901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270682622798669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16396210782253354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2656054952302299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17126445021593475,0.2579030644959098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19409015608121752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332461400264321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,katalina0azul,2019/05/10,"My father’s (60) alcoholism has been steadily getting worse over the last 10+ years - he’s to a point now where he’s got sorosis and he’s had to check into the hospital more than a handful of times over the past year, give or take... what can I do if he doesn’t really want to change/get better? I feel a little helpless in the situation, to be honest. I don’t want this for him and I want him to not want it for himself but there doesn’t seem to be much I can really do here and that’s frustrating. I really appreciate any kind of advice y’all can give me :) thank you.",2.4504826958105674,3.3671343032786893,4.3983060109289625,87.67283242258655,74.81967213114754,8.045173041894353,22.571948998178506,8.515128840125781,1.095833151183971,443,11,102,8,9,152,80,122,0.065,0.763,0.172,0.8681,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,2,0,1,4,6,1,0,7,0,13,2,1,0,0,14,25,6,0,5,4,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,4,1,0,2,0,1,0,4,2,0,0,3,2,13,4,15,20,2,13,0,1,0,0,12,7,0,3,6,65,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17867490445000067,0.0,0.1954066679293745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12434148702807793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1617123462057815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09245238464367453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910588797719812,0.3508049107938508,0.0,0.0,0.146238575371966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19040587538311954,0.0,0.14904381858054325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1832596344738316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13441278039685767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17454710797860226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17284848343364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3514073107906424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1664560468082966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2055264607661705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13747736684755532,0.0,0.0,0.16833994533400062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1066189189636834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4313890140358724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18633560051768705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23549353894565436 alcoholism,455_V8,2018/12/25,"Alcoholic father ruined my life, am being suicidal because of this, while his excuse is ""my father was even worse than I am"" I'm 27, he's been an alcoholic since about 2000, so he essentially ruined my whole teenager life, and many years of my adulthood. I literally have no positive memories with him, just drunk episodes, lot of them. I even got a lethal threat from him a few weeks ago ""give me a glass of moonshine or I'll kill you"" Next day, his excuse was ""I was drunk, I don't even remember any of it"" I just cannot comprehend how an adult, who was supposed to love me because I'm HIS SON, has caused me more pain/anguish than any other people in my life combined. When he comes up with the ""I gave exactly what I received"" shit, I just fucking lose it. Excuse, nothing else.",8.116783410138247,5.927185987096777,8.119262672811061,76.2903225806452,63.32258064516129,11.43778801843318,36.33640552995392,9.957137785484203,3.3005760368663584,608,22,124,10,7,198,104,155,0.209,0.72,0.071,-0.9765,0,0,2,0,0,0,27.0,0,1,1,1,10,8,4,0,6,0,13,10,1,2,1,13,21,6,3,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,6,4,4,0,1,2,0,2,3,7,0,0,7,0,24,1,14,13,4,11,0,3,0,2,22,2,2,2,7,80,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14249544042928,0.3435863634420736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21863143057328024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1959837797701876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16513483718259694,0.0,0.13847214828266502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10367064393902127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342862473002111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3185221680981272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14861106059135018,0.0,0.15420633396814767,0.0,0.0,0.1285666984638507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17784638806100736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3406280691705632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17983846559550434,0.0,0.1366641552296448,0.1450834204326365,0.0,0.0,0.16297557183852232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17095976603958213,0.0,0.0,0.15424424679129162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17104965125515714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11144401657265428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820987517093563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16500787128189334,0.13297430799885732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758347356397491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12894419308214033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17947196745923347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16381828736982135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10351792177543004 alcoholism,infamybrian,2018/12/25,"Gonna attempt to taper,advice? I have a very random drinking pattern. I can go days without drinking provided i have drugs. But i think i finally over did it with 20 days in a row some days with 500ml of vodka other days wine. Now im shakey, slight eye bluring. No headache, minor sweaty palms. Its been my 1st day and I'll most like stick with beer and taper over 3 days. Any serious things i need to look out ? Wish me luck guys. Im scared but hell yeah im never gonn abuse this substance to that level again. Hopefully guiness will reduce the chances of deadly WD.",0.5180263157894736,2.9986452543859703,1.7834868421052654,94.96628289473686,92.0701754385965,4.253508771929825,19.40570175438597,5.985473137389443,-0.022208771929824508,445,14,91,4,16,141,87,114,0.09,0.705,0.205,0.9355,0,0,6,0,1,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,2,6,1,1,3,1,6,7,2,0,1,18,13,4,1,3,3,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,6,6,4,0,1,5,0,1,3,3,0,0,2,2,8,3,13,9,2,16,1,0,2,0,1,5,1,5,11,46,14,0,0.0,0.1789387663611563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14757892304873252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1027015114538186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5843879883881271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2958920854852998,0.17513991457489936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1654394303347621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0858304300964785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14953752233495698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1500009269427603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4893955676835542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07378270694968274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12682213921783966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11198239614248852,0.1164790334474756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15120138892977705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10033364724975842,0.0967700930094762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12461063182521545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1736701680793012,0.1455817645854008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Babyj81,2018/12/25,On a 3 day binge. Please help. I need to stop this. I want to stop so badly but I'm scared to. I have medication to get me through the withdrawals. I wake up shaking and scared so I reach for more booze to keep it at bay. I need to stop. I have to. Please help. What was everyone's symptoms like when they quit? Sometimes just hearing other people experience just helps to. Knowing I'm not alone. 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I don't know if I did the right thing, dumping my alcoholic boyfriend. I still love him and I'm broken from it all. I don't know if this is the right place to post. I had been dating my boyfriend (27m) for a year and a half, and it's been a real struggle most of the way through. He was very open to me at the start of the relationship about his history of drug abuse. It frightened me, but he reassured me he didn't do drugs anymore, or hung out with anyone he had taken drugs with. He said he'd been drug free for about 3 years (he took the really hard stuff. Crack. Heroin.) A few months into the relationship I became aware that he binged on alcohol every weekend. He often got blackout drunk - He was sort of known for it in his friendship group. He was ""that guy"" at the party who ended up making an ass out of himself. His friends, and his family, didn't really seem to care about his behavior. They all think it's normal, that he is just being himself. Some find it funny. He also has a real problem binge eating. He has no self control. I tried to help him. He started going to therapy. He even admitted he was an alcoholic. He tried to drink less, tried to ""control"" how much he had on a night out when I was around, which he could manage from time to time - but when I wasn't around he would go right back to getting hammered. He had no real control. I've tried breaking up with him so many times, but each time he begs for me back. Promises he will change, tells me he is close to getting a handle on things. Tells me that I am the love of his life. That he wants to marry me. His good behavior lasts for a few weeks, maybe a month. A few nights ago we went out with his family, who all enjoy getting VERY drunk. It got to to 2 AM, he had burned through all his money buying drinks, and I wanted to go home. He said he was choosing to stay out. I left. I didn't hear from him all night - he didn't check to see if I got home safe and that's when I sort of cracked. I broke up with him the next night. I feel like when he drinks, I get forgotten about. It's the loneliest feeling. When he's out and I'm at home i just wont hear from him, and he never comes home when he says he will. I've grown so anxious, so angry. I never feel safe in the relationship. I've become controlling, I need so much reassurance. I've stopped enjoying nights out. Despite all of this I still feel like I made a mistake. That I am the asshole. That I should've been more patient. More kind. That I could've cured him had I played it more cool. That he will find someone less upright to have fun with and remember me as a crazy girlfriend. I miss him. Tdlr: boyfriend binged every weekend. Drank less when we were together, but it was still a struggle. Broke up with him, but think it's all my fault still. 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He is a chronic alcoholic and a diabetic. Tonight he consumed far more vodka than I have ever seen him drink. He is currently lying in bed, yelling and screaming incoherently. It’s like he is having night terrors or a bad dream. I can’t wake him up. Is it time to call an ambulance? 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You buy wine at the same supermarket every night but switch up the cashiers in the hopes they don't detect your pattern(they do, and know).",4.051818181818181,6.454265696969702,3.3606060606060595,90.5609090909091,73.84848484848484,6.824242424242425,23.12121212121212,7.793537801064563,0.9345030303030306,140,4,28,2,3,41,27,33,0.0,0.893,0.107,0.5719,0,0,2,0,0,0,7.0,0,4,1,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,3,2,0,0,0,6,6,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,3,6,1,5,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,1,2,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4814498488317617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3795675362594276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44745033754281466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4951684585383909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42276579991687696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,GuinnessLover12,2019/10/26,"I need to be better, if not for my sake then for my mother’s. I ended up in the ER yesterday. A friend of mine and I had been watching the new season of Bojack Horseman. I drank too much. Fell down the stairs of his apartment, which gave me some nasty bruises on my knees and a cut across my neck because I fell on a necklace I was wearing. Even after I left the apartment building, I couldn’t walk. I fell on my ass, only to try standing up again and falling back down. A guy who happened to be passing by talked to me, asking if I was okay and if he should call an ambulance. He did and spoke with me while I waited, but I don’t remember what we talked about. Paramedics came and had to lift me onto the stretcher. Guy who called them helped too, I think. In the ambulance, I thought to myself, “Really? Is this what I’ve come to? Me, the guy who didn’t drink in high school and not until sophomore year of college?” Doctor who saw me was very patient. Sat me on a bed and talked to me. I felt so bad that she had to deal with this bullshit. Hell, it was my own bullshit and even I didn’t want to deal with it. Eventually, when she was gone and nobody was paying attention, I left. For about thirty minutes, I walked around, thinking I was ten or fifteen blocks over to the west than I actual was. Almost accidentally walked through the security gate of some power plant place, thinking it was a construction-site that had somehow started seven hours before when I left my dorm. I took an Uber when I became slightly more sober and realized I was in no condition to walk all the way my dorm. I know I should have thought about my safety this morning when I woke up sober. But I didn’t. All I could think about was my mom. I thought about how mad she’d be because of the ER costs -fortunately since they just sat me on a bed there was no charge, as they told me when I just got off the phone with them now- and even madder about me putting myself in such stupid danger despite being about to turn 23. But, what I mostly thought about was the shame she’d feel when I told her what happened. Luckily, I didn’t have to since there was no ER bill. But I can’t do this to her, not after all she’s done for me, like helping with my grad school applications and just being a good parent. She’s the kind of mom that makes me look at most of my friend’s shitty relationships with their folks and think, “Wow. I’m so lucky to have such a supportive and caring parent.” That’s why I have to be better. I have to be. For her. She’s had enough crap to deal with in her life, like my dad cheating on her, her father dying when she was thirty or my brother having special needs. She doesn’t need more stress from me.",2.92037722360066,4.269636260397835,3.6794692796164696,91.58849951638001,74.28028933092223,6.446175196602045,23.16787922116153,6.8252276405021135,0.5041666933008111,2104,57,463,18,43,668,252,553,0.14300000000000002,0.763,0.094,-0.9873,3,0,1,0,0,0,63.0,1,0,5,3,35,26,8,2,25,1,51,9,5,2,3,78,92,38,1,11,15,8,2,2,2,2,2,1,5,3,20,26,2,3,15,1,3,14,14,11,3,2,45,6,90,15,78,34,12,70,1,0,3,1,58,32,3,12,24,334,110,8,0.0,0.0,0.08222148634078713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0843699920275304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07500550664457233,0.0787677797465915,0.0,0.0,0.06478749331441216,0.07035005616637595,0.10272308178779703,0.0,0.07169546226655665,0.0,0.0,0.14903477924773376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17206914160504622,0.09636616527298343,0.08590438212637476,0.0,0.0,0.07257889316172841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06727138364102159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.260592025720942,0.0,0.0,0.08744419641407689,0.0,0.0,0.08623936011243781,0.0,0.08622291498152213,0.0,0.08253858698925609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07462561182558004,0.0870587427800951,0.0,0.16695044234343084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042602253506244636,0.0,0.08089876098832839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13019161182493869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07066975000476446,0.06738704344296018,0.0,0.0,0.2502794038946648,0.14901421436465628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11294974536476643,0.08902085656232843,0.0,0.0,0.08297497036052683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08773942828423384,0.04630477270392402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27463245150170545,0.0,0.05951234850431189,0.08232623547035334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07075363406781797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056241386793401855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19735870028186445,0.0,0.0,0.061937692218714514,0.18742377776234206,0.0,0.081374756467403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06408031670190133,0.0,0.0,0.18711214334045334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08802935621118442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08470032957872191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05397640957180337,0.0,0.0,0.09045917488789264,0.0954453730162286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17054269326263216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13939450226196906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05963667409563349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0965147102667017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09561245962494233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2031648110193163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2699385056792223,0.0,0.26755870851379043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16102001522793266,0.09361127073113364,0.05720414330139247,0.09164609298408212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06951984172082687,0.04969624149392498,0.06687831565078202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0760277354724872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054257959293924365 alcoholism,LordBeaverBasher,2019/10/26,"Please Help, I'm scared. Every time I go out, I drink. Not always excessively. Hardly ever in fact. I'm 22 and alcoholism runs in the family. I struggle to say no to a beer. Today I said I wouldn't drink but I did. I had 2 beers. What advice can you give me regarding this problem.",-1.3164406779661029,0.6109784576271196,1.9110000000000007,91.87022881355936,103.40677966101694,5.071864406779661,14.374576271186442,6.742157984588678,-0.08241830508474601,215,5,47,4,10,76,47,59,0.174,0.7609999999999999,0.065,-0.7084,0,0,5,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,2,2,0,4,5,0,0,2,8,9,2,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,2,5,0,0,4,0,2,3,3,0,0,3,3,9,0,5,5,0,8,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,3,27,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22699987044761524,0.0,0.24825695830709604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19329135679798468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4551291179259938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21012772281476325,0.1957219059317055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2189908001342382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22284234472579575,0.1320208611762942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20809425398580933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15570510670519255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2549945171565578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2222787470054932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22096952174386106,0.18473346921042424,0.2325717994786089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24284932683205435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13545540078233873,0.0,0.22019226688057392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Piratesinacube,2019/10/26,"My alcoholic father and my future Hi everyone, I'm 22 and in my final year of college. My father has been an alcoholic for as long as I can remember. He would always have a case of 12 pack Heinekens. Sometimes he would drink them all in a day. He would drive drunk with myself and my brother in the truck. He would insult and scream at my mother constantly. My mother doesn't want to leave him. She hasn't done anything about her alcoholic husband, but that is her story and not mine. My story is about being afraid of my dad. I still avoid him and hide in my room when he is around. I'm moving out in May after graduation. I revert back to a childlike state when he is drinking. I'm fearful, I cover up and wear unappealing clothing, I have my pepper spray in my pocket (never had to use it, but it makes me feel safer). He goes through phases of being an alcoholic and then stopping for a short period of time. This is the shortest amount of time he stopped. My mom threatened to leave him, but it never ends up happening. He has been ""sober"" for only 3 months this time around. My fiancé currently lives with me alongside my parents. I often have to call him and have him around when my parents are drinking and smoking weed. My questions: When I move after graduation, should I cut all ties with my addict parents? I want to start over and feel safe consistently for once in my life. I already decided to not have them at my wedding, but I agreed to send a postcard after the wedding to them. What is your advice?",3.322583892617448,5.177252506711412,4.26416912751678,85.72143489932887,74.26845637583892,6.781422818791947,25.342818791946307,7.554174236665415,1.2981582281879196,1189,40,231,15,25,384,154,298,0.096,0.8740000000000001,0.03,-0.9498,4,1,7,0,0,0,36.0,0,1,3,0,12,7,2,3,10,0,29,11,1,2,4,48,40,22,0,7,6,11,2,0,0,6,6,1,1,0,7,18,8,4,5,4,0,4,6,6,0,0,4,3,47,1,46,28,3,51,0,0,0,0,39,18,0,3,28,168,54,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10964587793783076,0.0,0.09828456475276537,0.0,0.4299531457166906,0.0,0.0,0.11099134851698428,0.0,0.08368972561922877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08276788817378186,0.2686097106786625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07733898755480839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10270233127077093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10869009025610353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06486508811571616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1029271639872481,0.0,0.2955871770331417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08908307713403407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0961074762790514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11317925703015284,0.10171145649165916,0.0,0.0,0.11017929977730102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0889416141963469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21299712539987356,0.0,0.0,0.07104187158462773,0.0,0.0,0.08881303644785858,0.08900918657892515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0671372156995072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11779682531363547,0.0802811410511912,0.213798967010288,0.0,0.0,0.15514534011645587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10711327617987806,0.0,0.07649480729043842,0.0,0.0,0.33504299174533075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.112671418350814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11393631916029195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09947513196092003,0.0,0.07119028318180595,0.0,0.08032246212458916,0.16817697549812105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1759451459119996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08686790094107293,0.0,0.0,0.11864811573330088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2857935398729977,0.0,0.0,0.06476953226478123 alcoholism,help123burnerquestio,2019/10/26,"Unable to swallow food without pain after binge drinking So I two nights ago I went out and didn’t really intend to get drunk, but I guess I did because after half a beer and one shot I have no memory of what happened, my next memory is standing outside my apartment missing my coat, keys, phone, and glasses. Anyway, yesterday I still felt drunk and wasn’t very lucid, I only ate an apple but didn’t feel great so I stopped halfway though. Today I tried to eat a sandwich and my throat feels like it’s closing up. It feels raw, like I have a sore throat, but that only started after I took my first bite. I can drink water without pain. Has this happened to anyone? Any suggestions on how to fix it.",4.9289128697042335,5.549070316546763,5.544124700239808,82.82219824140688,68.85611510791368,7.616626698641088,29.11350919264589,7.3871296695380915,1.7060880895283774,550,19,105,5,9,178,93,139,0.11800000000000001,0.76,0.122,0.3954,0,0,3,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,1,6,6,0,0,4,0,9,16,2,2,0,20,22,12,0,0,5,0,4,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,6,7,11,1,4,5,0,2,6,3,0,4,8,4,17,3,14,14,0,20,0,1,0,0,2,5,0,1,14,69,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1383877823712815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10616451565940788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10916022725486006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09516711756331007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3058693051184981,0.0,0.15974606704986852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368114505909824,0.11152959806893227,0.1498962407223449,0.0,0.0,0.1327925428461752,0.18877658870374087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08156438336965162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17211889867593086,0.17197983184182633,0.0,0.2761064604027524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15254118924774304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16603157845371652,0.14650467986072335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10578852312800532,0.2374671369638927,0.3322377451695404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1000121730377332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1105000020631814,0.0,0.12467477068212099,0.13052031336961567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15338358509033825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14798010720592805,0.0,0.17345108133192622,0.10599279803380604,0.0,0.1525030528518539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12881239220793292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14472148076765132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3009813060638525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,johhan14,2019/10/26,"Had almost 7 months, but I just relapsed Just like the title said, I nearly had 7 months but I relapsed. Lately I’ve felt like I’m only sober for other people and not myself, so what’s the point of being sober.",0.6325000000000003,2.8864463409090924,2.5919999999999987,92.15300000000002,85.5909090909091,3.5200000000000005,13.345454545454547,3.1291,-1.2665945454545455,165,2,33,0,5,55,31,44,0.0,0.84,0.16,0.7579,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,8,6,4,0,0,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,2,4,2,3,1,0,5,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,5,21,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3238991204219938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.310572952511344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3648777058053509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3160530730855151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5163664148377817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2460064024817732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22424688945987026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30577486903139195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3076851529723701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,WTFOMGBBQ,2019/09/06,27 days sober - really want a margarita or ice cold beer It’s 102 degrees here today and I am dying for a cold one. Does anyone have any recommendations of things I can do instead?,1.6483333333333334,4.104466055555555,3.9811111111111153,82.55000000000003,82.8888888888889,6.933333333333335,20.11111111111111,8.07648339933343,1.140077777777778,142,4,28,3,4,49,33,36,0.0,0.95,0.05,0.1513,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,4,1,0,0,0,3,5,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,2,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,17,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2831626087352804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2911527879879052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2685400713892352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4321518575561009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3643897230108195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2821597592860492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.266753044995776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27663407185533323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3946933957838277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24560032518863614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Maximus_Aurilius97,2019/09/06,"4 days sober, having a girl over tonight and want to drink... So long story short Im 22 and I was away for the weekend and my dad found a grave yard of empty 1/5's in my dressers (like 10 of them). I promise I'd stop and I do want to. I haven't had a drink in 4 days. It's been easy til now. I'm having a girl over for a ""play date"" and I haven't had sex sober in well over a year. Maybe a quick shag here and there but %99 of the time I had a good buzz. I'm not worried about my performance, it's just that I associate sex with alcohol... any tips?",-1.4916666666666671,0.1845653888888883,0.9374603174603172,104.37142857142858,89.55555555555556,4.552380952380953,15.349206349206348,5.773587663045528,-1.0964698412698413,413,8,116,3,14,139,77,126,0.044000000000000004,0.816,0.14,0.8192,0,0,3,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,1,1,8,6,0,0,10,0,10,5,0,0,0,14,15,9,1,2,3,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,2,3,7,3,1,1,5,0,0,3,1,1,0,6,0,11,5,17,9,0,20,0,1,0,2,4,8,0,0,13,66,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2534604857074779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612823862649218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22282716164475924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3059075046303036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4646687370850666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600424921541255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1989252826020983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25618215956173224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11586831462827325,0.0,0.0,0.20988623423248606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23826715338291665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1982830841882296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1382945795683315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2797756857148825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2132425324853974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2408556364612623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15272842885717555 alcoholism,Hugh_Bromont,2019/09/06,"8 years ago today... I woke extremely hungover. My head felt like it had been cleaved in half and I was barely able to make it to the bathroom. I was sick, threw up a few times. I go to the sink, cupped some water into my mouth to drink it. More, to rinse out my mouth, splashed water in my face and looked in the mirror like I always did to ask myself what happened last night. When I opened my mouth I realized that my one of my front teeth was broken. I started to cry. *This was the moment.* 8 years later I STILL couldn’t tell you exactly what happened that night. I remember I went on a blind date. I asked the person who set me up prior if this person drank and they told me no. I was on the verge of cleaning up, I thought was ready, but apparently I was still too weak. Talking to this person prior I was making plans to have coffee or tea. No bars. However, we eventually settled on a dive bar near my house. Things started off tame enough. I was drinking whiskey sours, weak enough that I could have a few and that would be that I told myself. But then the whiskey shots started happening. The bartender was very generous and would buy ever other shot for us. We listened to music, danced and was having a great time. Then that moment happened. That moment where you know you’ve overdone it and then some. I went outside to have a smoke and got into an altercation with a fellow that happened to walk past us and said something that I perceived to be extremely disrespectful. It was something silly but the drunk mind desires some sort of satisfaction to at the end of a conflict. Agreeing to let it go isn’t ever enough, I needed more. My date attempted to pull me away and the last thing I remember was wrenching her hands away from my waist (She was holding me by the waist an in attempt to pull me away from the guy), extremely hard like in my mind Terminator grip hard. – I never saw her again. *<Unknown # of hours later>* I’m walking home, I drove to the bar, but I’m walking home now. I get to my apartment building and try to use my key on my neighbor’s door. They come out pissed obviously, it was at least 1-2 in the morning but I’ll never be able to tell you exactly what time it was. Apparently I pass out in my hallway right at my door. My landlord comes and gets me at some point and helps my in and I pass out…. I wake up at the beginning of this post. I still can’t piece together that entire night. I know that my car was towed, impounded and eventually repossessed because I couldn’t afford to get it out of the tow yard. And I was missing half of my front tooth. **Ladies and gentlemen that are in this struggle. You can overcome this. You’re much stronger than I am and together we are unstoppable. This isn’t a yay me post, this is a you can do it post. Whether It’s been 8 years or 8 hours since your last drink, the struggle is the same. There is always going to be a dark figure right behind you trying to put their hand on your shoulder. 8 years later they are right there for me. They will always be there. We don’t have to outrun it, we just have to make sure that that hand never touches us. At least, that’s how I see it.** Keep fighting yall.",1.5690111067129282,3.846314360374421,2.7393219549677528,92.46317391203114,81.6833073322933,5.574135562437422,21.891657158823662,6.8221615863531175,0.4850198663468923,2479,79,526,28,67,793,281,641,0.08,0.843,0.077,0.3391,5,0,8,0,2,0,85.0,8,9,5,3,15,14,2,2,32,1,54,32,15,5,9,84,100,32,0,8,10,0,8,3,2,3,4,2,8,4,43,33,15,3,9,11,1,21,11,7,0,3,35,15,90,7,77,53,16,114,0,1,4,0,43,43,1,8,49,365,133,0,0.13509151969073568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059875240624979086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16861044950805046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12629233489616054,0.0,0.19038439453551104,0.0,0.0,0.04117526826465974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11636938239293593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053929792988024604,0.0,0.07419584548560157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19850738912735605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05982549457930394,0.2093784781200129,0.0,0.0,0.12219801369573245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06485452204119369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10586961501233087,0.0,0.11516343573830705,0.0,0.05402251457093227,0.07446943868699789,0.0,0.06688092177614924,0.2986524617898061,0.0,0.12101546696424093,0.0,0.06932143655353458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04527449902083983,0.0,0.13550780893905856,0.0,0.13303793478099285,0.07793873799424132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060037774890758684,0.0,0.0,0.07424276627357422,0.16517642845934688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06907011580713157,0.0,0.09899833917699022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056721426435787835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13526195759461218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13640392462428835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04965390540108311,0.05008432505612497,0.15628636217027222,0.0,0.0,0.1901613598188576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04577075496922591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06448007073444016,0.0,0.17693505640669152,0.0,0.0,0.06385257577288601,0.0,0.19407049967787776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06790214490864843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15303235729170234,0.17305112953254756,0.06425148543631069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05382522541775038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05587455054271096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1040000518324348,0.0,0.0,0.143427709424008,0.0,0.16182639319477718,0.0,0.0,0.14122698789432564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0636610792830264,0.0,0.0,0.0542907231757982,0.11807594260946105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0897488029552322,0.0,0.0,0.053623788382631855,0.11815942726333738,0.0,0.06402548241501313,0.12908573628439055,0.0,0.09171827422976256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2437476972117752,0.058337849388009025,0.0,0.055732325836660816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12523119217733247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0959651396232469,0.0,0.0,0.17398901906276118 alcoholism,xqqqybox,2019/09/06,"Treatment alcoholic I'm drinking few days. Can not stop, still drinking. Where I can get treatment in London?",2.7597368421052657,5.203289052631586,2.4098684210526318,86.24532894736844,105.84210526315788,4.0052631578947375,31.065789473684212,5.985473137389443,2.1134105263157896,88,5,13,1,4,26,15,19,0.0,0.894,0.106,0.2235,0,0,3,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,8,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4037461895174284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24364545225762235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7401872976858909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19738142894204155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3017062518419613,0.3158521513256899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,shroom_87,2019/09/06,"Im drunk again. So depressed but I have to try to act like im ok so that i dont worry everyone. Pretty sure the love of my life is going to leave me me this time. Feelsbadman.jpg I need help. I need someone to talk to.",-2.5592063492063493,-1.0757132244897958,0.5006802721088448,101.17011337868485,109.81632653061224,3.810430839002268,13.607709750566896,5.82211442006289,-0.9189746031746032,168,4,42,2,9,58,36,49,0.14,0.511,0.349,0.9443,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,1,1,3,3,0,0,1,4,7,3,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,7,4,6,7,0,4,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,23,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20046514087734074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2727784184696517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22240027718506825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13227580762477273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1560057899730547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5028146302778633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2464460703921325,0.0,0.0,0.16439649175983098,0.113708706102728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21006376887600808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3451587478439687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23678795281562434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19720626065315786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21936183014447802,0.0,0.0,0.18707368033714167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13571697969531507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15802032198736354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23636645503494985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,gavint09,2019/09/06,7 days off work I recently just got a new job and the way the schedule works out you get 7 days in a row off every month. I have not drank alcohol in about a month but worried I will being off so long. I was just trying to get overtime to keep me from drinking but it's not looking like it will happen during this 7 off. Any tips on how to keep from drinking?,3.217307692307692,3.334350217948721,4.5632307692307705,90.13176923076924,72.46153846153847,7.2656410256410275,25.856410256410257,6.742157984588678,0.8347302564102571,279,8,65,2,5,93,53,78,0.078,0.922,0.0,-0.6668,1,0,3,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,2,5,1,0,0,5,0,5,4,0,1,0,11,13,5,0,0,6,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,2,4,2,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,6,1,14,7,0,17,0,0,1,0,1,8,0,0,9,42,9,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21416509243595766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1362778780538719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25848095738920623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3926285501747817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16884441169924455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2093999303128481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16027701789357313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17721176565890606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1988646273357039,0.3562468573291511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09790460332898608,0.0,0.0,0.1773464002878665,0.16828430057362426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31991240283510874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1935461571251593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19786938038576124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13605745305126046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15906703197812164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2917850453445242,0.2035144432966176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,merokuma,2019/09/06,"19 and want to stop before it gets worse hi, I'm not gonna hide with a throwaway but i have some history with mental illnesses (major depressive disorder, eating disorder) & struggling with university, identity crises, financial stress, etc all that fun stuff. I have been partying a lot more often this past few months and now find myself drinking vodka very close to every single day . it's clogging my already foggy mind and I finally can empathize why so many people get addicted. I started drinking alone & to feel things but after doing it socially I have been drinking alone so much more frequently. I don't have much of a stable support system that is aware of mental disorders as much as I do, or close enough to ask & receive help from. it's always a complex & personalized situation for everyone as mental disorders go, but I would really appreciate any advice, support, hate, or anything. Thank you a lot.",7.800535714285715,8.442389410714286,8.170333333333332,66.40800000000002,62.63095238095239,11.481904761904767,36.44285714285714,11.20814326018867,4.546817142857143,743,33,115,20,10,245,116,168,0.16699999999999998,0.6729999999999999,0.16,-0.3403,0,2,4,0,0,0,27.0,0,1,0,0,4,8,1,2,5,0,12,6,0,0,1,26,25,13,0,2,6,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,9,8,4,1,3,4,0,2,2,4,0,0,2,1,11,4,15,21,14,14,0,1,0,0,7,2,0,6,9,78,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10395287664754732,0.0,0.09318146225155054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1975215633407288,0.10522848809576753,0.0,0.07934441209815066,0.4132757723588305,0.0,0.06484582496615104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07847043802764372,0.0,0.0891456409796254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0811415271529132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061497181931896815,0.0,0.08213058477363237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4371481516341291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2802397858508207,0.0,0.09757370849012904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09852896010246816,0.10634792534000978,0.0,0.0,0.08034213126824426,0.09111741193050606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048215211958605626,0.0,0.0,0.10445860231386923,0.08715429498495524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0996398786281614,0.0,0.0541934093083765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09414499810576372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06391558503629963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16213771031787802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09667672555119604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2882913721512323,0.0,0.09628308244333816,0.0,0.07611280706376122,0.0,0.2102944360523882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0910287586457158,0.06610832827874635,0.08326179113514416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061087942868739024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10718492451152746,0.0,0.09720414566692312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06749396206484191,0.0,0.0,0.0797224698169973,0.10923077606564467,0.09968752553203612,0.10916060600274298,0.0,0.2164193030786264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0877916364911659,0.0,0.0,0.06335075341806437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07867926290347665,0.0562438514390893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08604458869767187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09717662242051246,0.06773866276561867,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,brastrapsfallingoff,2019/09/06,Is there any way to hide voice recording someone... I tried... and now I’m left with what I’m pretty sure is a broke finger and a black eye...,0.2119999999999997,2.0159415333333364,1.6833333333333336,100.80500000000002,83.66666666666666,4.0,16.666666666666668,3.1291,-1.1723333333333334,106,2,26,0,3,34,24,30,0.145,0.677,0.177,0.25,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,2,2,2,0,1,4,4,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,1,2,4,0,3,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,12,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2933159026619541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4686360533205018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43881275653982144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3654604122174438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4065188630617144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2928414737998854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3423658390834115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,charris_,2019/09/06,"Struggling with extreme hangovers, liver damage? I’m not sure whether this is the right place to post but I’ve recently been dealing with 2 day hangovers, the first day of the hangover is terrible, typical hangover symptoms etc etc, the next day a lot of these have subsided however I remain quite shaky, fatigued, acid reflux, nauseous (dry heave when brushing my teeth etc) and just generally weak with low mood. Is this something to worry about? I drink once or twice a week max, I drink pretty heavily when I do, I’m 22 and I’ve been drinking since I was 12, pretty much always have binged when I drink. I wouldn’t say I’m an alcoholic by any means, have taken month long breaks a few times without much of a problem. But yeah any advice would be great, thanks",4.756089663760896,6.375426315068495,4.7808841843088405,84.42619551681197,70.0958904109589,7.5008717310087185,29.71108343711084,8.00094639256281,2.005638356164384,606,24,113,8,11,188,99,146,0.163,0.691,0.146,0.2165,1,0,6,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,2,5,12,0,2,9,1,13,10,2,0,1,20,19,9,0,3,7,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,3,5,5,0,1,4,0,0,3,8,0,2,4,3,8,3,11,12,7,18,0,3,0,0,2,3,0,3,13,64,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12133919442377472,0.0,0.13270183490272616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10332084100619922,0.0,0.0,0.16888209248952707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2402415137510199,0.1280156191791473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4865641589930999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4154529649221662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10562042488289693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368997898442737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10988808896870407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1055663791934071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13525943508506355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09911270408611024,0.0,0.1825610434080676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1320580620296832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1322388584255496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1297330473962873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11892220974272576,0.2526546152560685,0.0,0.11881559247584107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1320719379344241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1226046203403008,0.0,0.0,0.10604199379423307,0.0,0.09874635740056456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10271615258295087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09559347761096884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12981127093179373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11703040238743742,0.12906199003417956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11432066198130175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07240554445634133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09960308581883667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11969713338910196,0.0,0.0,0.12610243689803868,0.0,0.08820804667279347,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,MurderSlap,2019/06/01,"Living with recovering alcholic. 1st I am on mobile so forgive me of any common grammatical or spelling errors. I moved in with my gf about 2 months ago. Her problem with alchohol is well known and its been an on going struggle in our relationship. At its worst i was coming home every other day to her blacked out on the couch. She would come home drunk from work and she would hide day drinking from me. Arguements would come out of nowhere when she was drunk and the days after her blow out she would dry out for a few days. But when she started feeling better she would start drinking again. She has gone through treatment once. Ive been to a few aa meetings with her but it seems to be a cycle that she has been through about 5 times now in about 6 months. I personally have never struggled with any kind if substance abuse. I feel completely lost and have no idea how to help her. I dont want to seem like im hovering or monitoring her but it can get tough when we have important things to do and i can tell pretty quickly when she has started drinking at 10 am. Any and all advice welcome. I really love this woman and we have the tine of our lives when she is having good days, they make the bad days worth it but its getting harder to stand by and watch this tear her down.",3.3212537202380936,5.061836757812504,3.776004464285717,89.70307291666668,74.0,6.4386904761904775,24.690476190476193,7.07126945348624,0.8579351190476183,1014,32,210,10,21,317,150,256,0.11199999999999999,0.737,0.151,0.9348,0,0,3,0,1,0,16.0,4,0,1,3,14,15,0,2,8,0,28,6,0,2,2,47,46,22,0,8,7,0,2,1,1,5,0,0,3,2,11,22,5,0,7,5,1,6,3,7,2,0,7,4,34,8,38,33,4,44,0,1,2,1,32,13,0,5,25,150,45,1,0.0,0.12034367083931692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09925288800947547,0.09003554919781727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2072129557016157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0848065873992714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08983028387292864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2624803126683665,0.10649406183859213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39302492772911984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11903911508095738,0.2984993732526242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08557698456891231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1027135423129932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10613211550663416,0.0,0.057724489989385785,0.08519197647958973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0680801336487118,0.0,0.2037656946522758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11466000458930778,0.10971287423292764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10576937530158473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049621901275798096,0.0,0.17937608784278108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11087549639967184,0.0,0.09167076082433114,0.0,0.06779866775473206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16214418046354714,0.10795268302094506,0.0,0.0,0.07833693472879381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1081685820327177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08868688075204884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10333305883632207,0.0,0.09718863512970133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06506825076335716,0.0,0.0,0.10904801416296067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1849307648795982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21567500110869114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.212365733880899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08877653124167709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06747849928931987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059226199986887815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05990853280489936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0913234988248422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07394406504660007,0.0,0.0,0.3607615585188835,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,BlindingProgress,2019/06/01,"GF Struggles with Alc - I Don't Know Anything Having been a non-drinker for almost all my 40+ years of life (but not judgy about it, I just don't care for alcohol), it's hard for me to understand the mindset, and decisions, that happen with and around drinking. My GF of 2+ years is a self-reported alcoholic. She's been not-drinking for 6 month stretches, and generally wants to drink less or not at all. However, as is understandable, it's difficult for her to keep from finding her way back to drinking. &#x200B; I'm here today because I just don't know who to talk to about it. She and I talk, but she's in such shame about her getting drunk (and possibly driving drunk recently, I'm not sure). She doesn't like how she acts in the drunk-but-not-drinking-more-right-now stage of the day. She's generally really mean to herself, calling herself stupid, apologizing for things that aren't her fault, when she's drunk. &#x200B; I don't really know how to talk about it, because I've never drank much. I've been drunk once or twice in my life. I can't make assumptions. &#x200B; I care, and I want her to be safe. I don't mind her drinking, even being drunk, but I do want her to be safe (not drink at work, not drink/drive).",3.4425254668930383,4.835396588709678,4.250526315789475,87.83657894736844,73.03225806451613,7.80169779286927,27.16553480475382,8.371475516178862,1.6700209677419362,966,35,206,16,19,310,121,248,0.161,0.782,0.057,-0.9714,1,0,11,0,0,0,61.0,0,0,0,1,14,11,1,2,5,0,18,15,0,3,4,46,36,15,0,3,12,0,1,1,2,0,4,0,0,0,9,9,13,3,8,10,0,2,14,5,0,1,4,1,30,6,33,29,4,20,0,0,0,0,24,7,0,3,10,126,39,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17288228762179916,0.08099434151674638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26291561024879084,0.2948512848984246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06656121482845191,0.07200452998531476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06219534023197677,0.0,0.09861312260476024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08259232035428488,0.0,0.16493468107614187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052163938940564716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6338896891905436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053423580345657314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07392714884135415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042258916437509474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07152607152767268,0.0,0.07245680224905524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0718940362229636,0.0,0.0,0.13335634450503986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.114262508823019,0.039516177916065716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05399116415506855,0.0,0.0,0.08810714854500343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08167048758666162,0.0,0.06456139445000685,0.0,0.059459559918942986,0.0,0.062383265666042464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08613956383445075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09118534411618784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10363361772702033,0.0,0.07986388150913927,0.0,0.0,0.06907509035034083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08438038056136851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08455824855109302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07623287085996504,0.0,0.0,0.1950361697618072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05373619943753339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07666923633184475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16840764683953072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1431236720163815,0.06420250858998162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05888502365071036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2948512848984246,0.10417418751491296 alcoholism,mwants,2019/06/01,36 years I have not needed to drink for 36 years. It can be done!,-2.2940000000000005,-0.5382613999999961,-0.07833333333333138,108.9825,96.33333333333334,3.0,7.5,3.1291,-2.673,49,0,14,0,2,16,13,15,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,9,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4984250929041473,0.0,0.4771272566824412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3611441879600148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6272932991805998 alcoholism,DingusTardo,2019/06/01,"I did it... Ive done it! Years ago I used to smoke ciggies. I switched to vaping around 2015/2016 and have been doing that ever since I got Drunk today and I'm drunk right now. Over time I cut down on the nicotine content all the way from 50mg salt to 3mg freebase. Today, I smashed my vape against the wall and absolutely destroyed it while drunk. I may have killed my nicotine addiction, but perhaps not my alcohol addiction. One step at a time, I guess :)",2.7351923076923086,4.665224208791209,3.498997252747256,90.23662774725277,76.14285714285714,6.747802197802199,27.85851648351648,7.645422480735847,1.5329439560439564,357,15,75,5,8,113,64,91,0.14800000000000002,0.807,0.045,-0.6109,0,0,2,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,3,0,4,0,8,6,0,1,2,11,12,5,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,4,4,4,0,0,3,0,1,1,3,0,1,4,1,12,0,10,7,1,18,0,0,0,0,0,7,0,2,9,47,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.47539276028575206,0.0,0.0,0.19327978903613144,0.2330190342993248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1941023140445671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22313118156628706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19723015775148475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17438694375977334,0.0,0.2401962445476374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24122955977899674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14774991753078298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1862054357215188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18036539358605053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25428239269639336,0.0,0.4133538873478089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1883170256159606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17307043719781534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14041096348022267 alcoholism,imthesnorlax,2019/06/01,"I think I’m suffering from withdrawal symptoms from alcohol... I can’t tell if im suffering from withdrawal symptoms or not , how can i tell?",1.4827777777777769,4.206388296296296,4.086944444444448,77.78375000000003,91.96296296296295,10.107407407407408,32.675925925925924,9.516144504307137,4.777303703703703,112,7,20,5,4,39,17,27,0.244,0.669,0.087,-0.7184,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,0,5,4,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,4,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3363318394186229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33994339082532005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6542133579244402,0.0,0.0,0.5501450083594324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20165499477547716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,Tanderinez,2019/06/01,"I think I will have to taper. The past 4 days I have been getting black out drunk every night, with slower drinking in the day. My hands are so incontrolable that I cant even do my dishes. I gave up onn tthaat as there are sharp knives in the sink. IA cant even hold the beer im trying to taper withh.. as I usually do hard liquor and dont drink beer. I dont think Ill be at the point of halllucinating... but I just cannot use my damnn hands. How long should this take? Forgive typos as I can barely hit these keys.",1.7655656565656557,3.1062417181818205,3.2293939393939404,93.67853535353537,77.27272727272728,5.9797979797979774,17.676767676767675,6.42735559955562,-0.4500808080808083,399,6,96,3,9,131,76,110,0.03,0.9259999999999999,0.044000000000000004,0.3434,1,0,4,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,5,0,16,10,2,2,0,12,23,7,0,1,2,0,4,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,3,7,1,3,6,0,0,5,0,0,0,2,5,12,1,12,17,0,12,0,0,1,0,2,6,0,0,6,56,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26444663112783784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4805724634946478,0.4016903157085877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2708324204829211,0.0,0.17274129711379446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10711641331136036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1836609509003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2214607619156894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18143950940323206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19240083957833032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1957183061352849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19381365172679949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15415229552036586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2627417975602261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13919762392810697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1770746361743368,0.2258046233717056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,The_Real_Tune,2019/06/01,"NYC meetings/events for alcoholics/addicts in their early-mid 20's? Trying to fight my usual pattern of isolation... I know this is kind of a long shot. Summers are hard for me. For the first time in a while I had the thought that maybe I should start drinking again. Found myself really considering it. I mean hey, socializing would be easier.. I'd probably meet more people. Bars and clubs were never my thing, but anything is fun if you're drunk enough, right? These thoughts scare the shit out of me. I'm 22, I've got a little bit of sober time. I'm trying to remind myself that I'm a raging alcoholic, to put it nicely. Currently feeling pretty down.. trying to stop myself from saying fuck it lol. Being social helps. I need to meet new people and find new spaces where I can spend my time. So if anyone knows any meetings where a lot of young people typically go in the city, or maybe some events/organizations that host events for young addicts.. anything, really. Just trying not to isolate myself. Need to make some new friends. A sincere, big thanks to anyone who read this post. Good luck to you all.",3.265424528301889,5.620725825471698,4.017584905660378,85.13826415094344,76.12264150943396,6.504150943396226,21.92075471698113,7.554174236665415,0.9467067924528298,873,24,163,12,20,278,138,212,0.094,0.7040000000000001,0.20199999999999999,0.9818,1,1,3,0,1,0,39.0,0,1,1,1,5,13,4,1,10,1,10,7,1,1,2,29,28,8,0,6,6,0,2,0,1,2,2,1,0,0,11,3,4,1,8,5,1,2,2,5,0,1,6,3,17,8,24,18,7,33,0,0,0,1,13,11,2,7,19,93,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24511667592159495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12014665742822515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07645191540484195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15721841535896156,0.0,0.18503011698908448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1227374733857312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101323455140022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11616365011337215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056844759208630274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10275315011932576,0.0956274720325537,0.0,0.12326669435046332,0.08685820838194984,0.10393382326376537,0.0,0.0,0.06389293290827411,0.09429559686944944,0.08991543740133581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10070947947202202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07535518135202776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11707189792645795,0.12357016063383085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11267799997238145,0.0,0.09949136415817557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09557853971036416,0.0,0.0,0.07504363799351006,0.0,0.2258892700689801,0.12246227810649918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16672137645348575,0.0867080248918095,0.32573829243838565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23382114378653235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10767074927818716,0.1143752365183282,0.12121167489413287,0.0,0.0,0.11301678769383225,0.0,0.0,0.11245404141988408,0.0,0.1440428969141654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09600915549314656,0.0,0.08940377338103403,0.1125556540689462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11540122829821622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2292034414060332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07957401545608223,0.0,0.0,0.0939911786378791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10350456285780578,0.0,0.0,0.07468925630414933,0.0,0.0,0.17850358969167127,0.19666534721415802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3053130277464776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12381873212932006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07986251263049639,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,socialjusticeamazon,2019/06/01,"Alcoholism and Trump I have a question on behalf of my husband, who is an alcoholic. One of the main reasons his drinking spiraled out of control in the recent past (and one of the reasons he just fell off the wagon) is Trump. But he feels like he can't talk about Trump in meetings. Beyond anything political, my husband associates Trump with a triumph of his narcissistic mother's ""philosophy"" -- that intelligence and expertise don't matter, that empathy doesn't matter, and that narcissists have super powers to get what they want in any given situation and there's nothing anyone can do about it. But because AA is strictly apolitical, he feels like he can't bring up his feelings about Trump at meetings, and therefore stopped going two weeks ago. Anyone have any advice on how he can process and move past his feelings about Trump? Solidarity with how he feels may also help. Thank you, and my heart goes out to anyone suffering from this terrible disease of addiction.",7.679174025974022,8.748354891428576,7.471688311688311,69.83012987012987,62.94285714285715,10.020779220779222,37.051948051948045,10.018931242160765,3.9793428571428566,786,37,124,16,11,250,106,175,0.055,0.818,0.127,0.9267,1,0,3,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,1,4,10,7,0,0,7,0,14,5,1,6,0,32,25,13,0,1,3,3,5,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,7,12,3,2,8,1,0,4,4,2,1,3,1,5,10,5,26,23,1,21,0,1,0,0,22,11,0,2,8,83,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15592188839797813,0.0,0.1397655363324616,0.12678590089408087,0.3057073720582941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11437962821248678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945282095026196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3000260033905016,0.0,0.11770005097762155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08718868478855764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1604183279918047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14011321932037465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3615968667987767,0.2043587999638148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07472634974846955,0.0,0.08128624229165089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16948914765909387,0.09586881131448252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13975274240858904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1520163790046107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13723944940447708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1938392678777668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2730732694331584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16022435725033415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29411369471749393,0.1412231274492657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1607697292908576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1195780092143349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1149606778392322,0.0,0.13168118275036125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13971780321651006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08436175900058708,0.0,0.11472862314561624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,basicedge543,2019/07/31,"Friggin hard to not drink today I’m a heavy binge drinker. Can drink half a handle a night for 2-3 nights. I have a good job, might even be looking at a promotion. Have strained relationships. Tried to quit many times but I’ll take 3-4 days off and binge again. Came close to inpatient recently. I said I’d give quitting one more shot. Been listening to the 30 day naked mind audio book. It’s helped, however I’m on the 6th day and losing my mind. Wanted to drink soo bad after work. I actually drove past the liquor store and didn’t stop on my way home. The drive to drink leased after I passed the liquor store. But it’s still a long night. I almost never get to day 6. I’ve been drinking this heavy for 3-4 years now and might have gone a week once. Anyone else get that feeling after work that says “STOP AND PICK UP A LITER NOW”!!! and does it subside?",0.9502676181980404,3.147345412429382,2.043157894736844,97.00659232827832,83.57627118644069,5.308236693428487,17.790365744870652,6.5966054737557815,-0.2796033898305086,666,15,153,7,19,210,113,177,0.113,0.865,0.022000000000000002,-0.9453,2,0,6,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,6,5,4,0,1,13,0,10,7,0,1,1,22,24,8,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,2,0,4,1,0,6,8,7,2,1,8,2,5,3,3,0,2,7,7,7,1,17,14,1,36,0,1,1,0,6,6,0,3,24,71,13,5,0.0,0.0,0.10542788479149058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10818279010999814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07554152188746642,0.11069599892388622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09020583240057944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12356479336907808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27869801035673963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09454333041637622,0.0,0.0,0.529172423610094,0.0,0.0,0.0902505003317414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0713569845896444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05462642034830475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11288905870763324,0.1036383030634222,0.0,0.09061575742945174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09677934140782517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07241448234217598,0.0,0.10836925918415596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10720939857349343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09560876244692806,0.09072331714077576,0.1208650314175651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10953189322057393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2292189707998281,0.2181718142604377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08332428672847901,0.0,0.0,0.3041543635066688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11505517768228805,0.07320822094533673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10313291244751496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298198951020796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1066728535460294,0.11599059920768083,0.0,0.0,0.1027673007589691,0.08591483495448554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08627796181029831,0.18064643794025856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08122988345554231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06299685948436479,0.0,0.10240581930364698,0.0,0.0,0.07334958412912322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06372263329168926,0.08575421913750929,0.08666023643150493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15730348651355958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06957186176070873 alcoholism,pugyoulongtime,2019/07/31,"Can your brain regain cognitive function after years of alcohol dependency? Hi guys, I'm not sure if I would have been considered an alcoholic or not, but from about 17-23 I relied heavily on alcohol for self-medication. I was an anxious person because of a strict upbringing, I was taught not to trust people, so alcohol made it easier to come out of my shell and feel more confident. I drank before interviews, class, speeches, social events, etc. I didn't drink because I liked it or wanted to drink, I did it to feel more relaxed in front of people. I didn't even think about the implications of drinking and what it does to your brain, and now here I am at 25 having memory and retention issues. I used to be a lot more intelligent and could sit down for at least an hour or more to read or study, but now I'm just more impulsive and restless. My brain is fuzzy all the time and not vividly sharp like it used to be. I could sit and day dream, visualizing things as if they were right in front of me, but now if I try to visualize anything, my mind just bounces all over the place and I can't focus hard enough to see anything. Can anyone here relate and have you personally noticed any improvements in your cognitive abilities over time?",8.755416823840065,6.856097676348548,8.769483213881552,71.21221048660884,61.8630705394191,12.747038853262925,36.4319124858544,11.567385478589935,4.007204149377594,984,35,191,24,11,323,141,241,0.066,0.8240000000000001,0.111,0.9206,0,0,7,0,0,0,26.0,0,4,1,0,11,6,0,1,8,0,20,11,3,4,3,44,33,22,0,7,16,0,4,2,0,1,4,1,0,3,7,12,8,0,3,6,0,3,7,1,0,0,10,7,23,5,33,18,11,27,0,0,2,0,11,12,0,9,12,135,30,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4725033057096283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07516601695349034,0.0,0.0,0.12487047354462975,0.0,0.07728702421446561,0.0,0.18191796551936992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1347593991786779,0.0,0.09405517485191436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3701730995099695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09521412194128576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17650271163222328,0.0,0.0,0.07128443846766913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09672789857334124,0.0,0.0,0.32483985677259536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11420981210953485,0.12327316312574275,0.07300579678639119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11177729457180792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1094447372769838,0.0,0.0,0.09901557601644817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10885243080763496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11536740711498343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10800137452598428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09397093713369643,0.0,0.10458870026514208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12277689657440614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.111606503750211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12584219586144574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15325889451667798,0.19302575631689714,0.11548313141160327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11056259792962853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0943943100872407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08808024019819806,0.0,0.1153096980053374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11267415388675205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10417574865699193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0734330052539889,0.07082488221229262,0.0,0.0,0.12890499642452155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07504443838388042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1909295036615899,0.0,0.0,0.06519504213273503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07851924894941274,0.0,0.0,0.07117942596596641 alcoholism,doompoodle72,2019/07/31,"Fake beer and other aids in maintaining control I am definitely an alcoholic, or at least the potential is always there to be one. I have quit a few times, and have been way too out of control too many times. But I have managed to keep things relatively under control for several months now. Here's what I do: 1. Keep a few cold non alcoholic beers around and drink them when I am near to crossing the line of no return. Or I'll even alternate with real ones when having a long visit. 2. Have a puff of weed. I'm not sure if this is a universal effect of the green stuff, but I find it makes me more conscious of how much I'm drinking, slows me down, and I head to the fridge less often. Plus it probably almost doubles the effect of the small amount of booze I drink. Which makes me drink less. 3. Buy rations for the day. If I only put a tumbler and 2 king cans of brew in the fridge as my ration for a Friday night (on work nights I can't have more than one or two), I drink what's there and stop. I am done and I accept it. I am no professional, but by using these strategies I went from drinking 15-18 on Fridays and messing my weekends up six months ago, to being productive and alert on Saturdays while still being able to enjoy my Friday night celebration. I hope this is helpful to someone. I know some severe alcoholics can't really mess around, but if you're a potential problem drinker who doesn't necessarily want to give up drinking entirely, you might wanna try these.",4.8610419989367335,5.370469047138048,5.683420166578062,82.15682615629986,68.96632996632997,8.811554137869928,28.42619174198121,8.841846274778883,2.026546127946128,1165,38,237,19,19,382,177,297,0.066,0.8540000000000001,0.08,0.7831,0,0,13,0,0,0,32.0,0,1,1,8,14,8,0,0,17,0,24,14,1,9,1,51,36,25,0,7,11,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,14,14,13,6,6,10,1,4,6,4,0,5,3,2,25,4,40,29,11,40,0,0,1,0,6,15,0,11,20,170,39,3,0.08875688895563169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07867762677493137,0.2845623648000255,0.08887720338301855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07385284177721517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15802489744744222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2986451943455877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057240850702161165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.090829113135259,0.0,0.6086357275319119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058623088069038674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08112218853882794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08514369550159541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09109017443156174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05949187175203732,0.0,0.0,0.0881556175170431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15778240207294722,0.0,0.0,0.048778464976839284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07854705370932201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11849182517284408,0.08998555445643226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09415703304706932,0.0,0.0,0.14168980394854247,0.0,0.06524652588092257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2498769831849295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1804318950080302,0.06750361358935203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09569493813523083,0.08492835585085763,0.0,0.08922518821763505,0.0,0.09440387670572654,0.0,0.10102477098739733,0.05685993581500993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2005400417516969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0752034239851155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0708813661719149,0.07420473343731214,0.0,0.0,0.10160540295456302,0.0,0.0,0.0836523174460481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058966133152062665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10350971142804494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060260101445668166,0.0,0.08670258362927394,0.0,0.0,0.07665745461884788,0.0,0.0,0.052351112717729416,0.07045108715986033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08227852527908992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06461607224914544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,whiskeyave,2019/07/31,"I Need to Stop Drinking but Sobriety is Unbearably Boring Some background: I started going to therapy about a year ago and this led to a lot of self- reflection. My alcohol use came up quite a bit and my therapist dug a little deeper to see what was motivating me to drink so much. I tried to think of a deep and profound answer but the truth was that I drink because I'm bored. This eventually led to several conversations about displaying symptoms of depression and drinking is simply a coping mechanism. We decided to that I should try antidepressants. I stopped drinking for 2-3 months but then dove right back in but only on weekends. I ended up moving back in with my parents around May and I've drank every day since (tried to quit twice and only succeeded for 1 week and 3 days). I don't get drunk everyday but I do have at least one drink. My parents are obviously concerned about my drinking habits and I've been lying recently just to avoid a lecture. My dad goes to AA and NA 3 times a week and really thinks I would benefit from it. The real problem I'm having is replacing drinking with something fulfilling. I can't deal with the boredom that comes with sobriety. It's so hard for me to deal with. What did you all replace drinking with? TL;DR: I know I need to stop drinking so much but not sure what to do about the boredom.",4.07543513957307,5.901218371647509,5.171319102353589,80.12344827586206,72.1800766283525,8.649589490968804,30.05309250136836,9.23628265651192,2.775049480021894,1069,46,199,24,21,352,150,261,0.146,0.7879999999999999,0.067,-0.9589,2,1,12,0,0,0,22.0,1,1,0,4,11,9,0,1,12,0,17,14,0,4,4,55,32,20,0,5,8,3,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,10,20,13,4,7,12,0,6,3,5,1,2,6,2,23,4,38,23,7,35,0,1,1,0,9,10,0,3,19,132,33,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0690114718464554,0.08320055917605497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0693051583293812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11972740890068985,0.0,0.04745811184984789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08499467763927998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0890424268912358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06706296520042006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10041673900509683,0.16052485041795236,0.06705417416267162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7626573161728973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06895413516112855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06559402051634526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04067467553953898,0.0,0.04424532366655536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06974047539697284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042785653310211835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0780285761186667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0661873423643405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062141057864497036,0.08274480037524869,0.11446097114217996,0.11545316402845587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05275481375906111,0.1184205451972248,0.0,0.0,0.17289179554523268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07449425051334511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16561126069830354,0.0,0.08861309656346653,0.04987425295521365,0.0,0.076869871297246,0.0,0.0,0.06648554020591535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06203829813080593,0.0,0.08121705170343832,0.08795107334022845,0.0,0.0644003252673858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059934595453381374,0.0,0.0,0.0551043426720813,0.0,0.0,0.19526432414384148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07337498329522706,0.08091847220567387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08903102570843997,0.09039265860506676,0.0,0.09976937274190842,0.0,0.0,0.04539637142644022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15857004582555556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06723949346340928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12489702861851773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05530412456153012,0.0,0.0,0.05013440516192634 alcoholism,Nine_Sixteenths,2019/07/31,"I am scared and I need help I have been drinking a lot for a long time. I am a very heavy drinker. I have been for many years. A few months ago, I was able to quit within a few days of deciding it was time. I quit for a month. Then I was fine with only drinking a few beers at night. I relapsed into the hard stuff again, all day, every day. I have tried to slow down the past couple of days, but the withdrawals are much worse this time. I tried to quit today. I have only had a little bit to calm myself down. I know what the obvious answer is, but I am so scared. I do not have money for professional help. State funded help is terrifying to me, if it would even be available. I have been to those types of places for mental health before. Is slowing way down again a viable option? It seemed easy last time, except for the first few days and nights sober. I did it alone last time.",1.129234972677594,3.1054680710382527,2.3028688524590173,96.66009562841532,81.40437158469945,4.940983606557378,16.1775956284153,5.82211442006289,-0.7601060109289621,679,11,156,4,18,216,103,183,0.10400000000000001,0.804,0.09300000000000001,-0.4489,0,1,4,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,4,4,4,0,2,14,0,24,4,0,0,2,19,27,7,0,3,5,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,8,4,3,0,4,3,2,0,1,2,0,1,8,1,19,2,23,17,8,37,0,0,0,0,3,8,0,4,27,107,27,2,0.11329020009577688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10042492684537996,0.0,0.0,0.1173344807625371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09640161606399372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12368355660001408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1253534515919329,0.0,0.36531403398681545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22196253212846348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07482710869793659,0.0,0.09545187974695638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09636458632714226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10148576682273364,0.0,0.0,0.12042218501321958,0.0,0.0,0.2278080992078178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062261331177948284,0.1846932674392832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11354654289942875,0.0,0.10025826205007153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09631527682553567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1148584812970936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11416987555710645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.180854313729788,0.0,0.08328133240788843,0.0840032478761055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21263035660252289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17232460444954464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10814831504476048,0.0,0.0,0.118364146510143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3614942189046905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268465078621461,0.0,0.0,0.10313514328484844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12969017466676436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3303021336575156,0.0,0.1073858630153956,0.0,0.0,0.15383321860197735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09347627978858744,0.0,0.08992448761127028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.115452392550164,0.08047810769340527,0.0,0.0,0.07295517449656727 alcoholism,unotmadimmad,2019/07/31,"Otc sleeping pills for first few sleepless nights Do sleeping pills even work the first few nights after quitting? Also would xanex curb the anxiety?, (don't know if this is an inappropriate question)",6.8169607843137285,9.777251088235298,5.141764705882356,78.38460784313726,67.52941176470588,6.886274509803924,31.92156862745098,7.793537801064563,2.4240509803921584,163,7,25,2,3,47,27,34,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,3,0,4,4,2,0,0,5,5,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,4,2,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,5,17,1,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20114597007372664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1924173891011102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16613114443216345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42789730320561264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13823260556835762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4720819111960455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2817676912595474,0.2675298179018701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5034170969801631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1831145779768528,0.0,0.0,0.17867749222828122,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,frigoffdonna,2019/07/31,Hi guys Female 24. I'm gonna make this quick but my family has a very bad history with alcohol and I'm no better. So I love to party all night long so I cannot drink a couple of drinks I have to drink to a point where I am fucked up. I wake up after puking all night embarrassed of how I behaved talking non sense to people I barely know from my home town. I have gotten in trouble twice with the law due to alcohol. And little things like leaving jackets behind me at the club there are alot of stupid shit I have done in the past due to my drinking and I want to get help before something really bad happens to me due to not being able to control myself. So can anyone give me advice on how to stop drinking completely? Btw I have given up weed four months ago so I have the mindset to give up drink for good. Thanks,2.3205897009966776,3.7719999127907013,3.882823920265782,89.10686046511627,76.03488372093024,6.542192691029903,21.588039867109647,7.1686216300943375,0.5685900332225922,643,16,137,7,14,214,109,172,0.204,0.653,0.14300000000000002,-0.9383,0,0,9,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,9,12,3,1,8,0,12,12,2,4,2,18,27,10,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,1,1,2,5,8,2,1,7,0,0,3,7,0,2,3,0,19,5,29,22,3,24,0,0,0,2,7,12,2,1,13,89,21,0,0.11340058841628985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11081374255130924,0.1005227794310646,0.2423814833917467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07929232811568156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1893695091637189,0.0,0.0,0.09649554839426627,0.0,0.0,0.10029360505313872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11889835941799835,0.0,0.12718840255662214,0.0,0.1254755941689611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11604817379321387,0.0,0.6665364275583716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10690398236496276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10483701667812273,0.05924712701082905,0.21756835516496975,0.0,0.09511503330910824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11228441134724014,0.10027976582533064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07601002403362653,0.0,0.11375003630035585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06232199771199825,0.0,0.0,0.1200748493804894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05540179941522522,0.1136571809966351,0.0,0.10035595224000764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1023484585002733,0.0,0.0756957733378738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09051526776916148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2128375405243059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10825369318738892,0.07861768954217645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1072002103628356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07264732072749684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11640407439907778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08730131321434484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09480796965823808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09114709743107033,0.0,0.10440402596416974,0.0,0.0,0.07533831204268364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0935673617138108,0.06688660515586205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,FloridaGirlNikki,2019/03/31,"Daughter of alcoholic, need advice/support Hi everyone. FTP here. My mom is an alcoholic and her health is in bad shape because of it (wet brain, or fluid on brain. confirmed this week). She has little to no balance, tremors, and cognitive loss. In January she went into the hospital bc her weight was so low. Was there for a couple weeks, then skilled nursing facility for three weeks. Two weeks after she got home, my step-dad (her caretaker/enabler) suddenly passed. I've had to move in ever since (two weeks tomorrow). I can't take it with her asking for drinks (2 a day, but still). Right after 12:00 she's asking. I'm stuck between understanding her hell of losing spouse, and not wanting to enable. My aunt is coming in tomorrow to help (her bff) but mom doesn't know and I'm torn on that also bc I dont want to manipulate her but mom said no at first and I NEED HELP. Has anyone been through this? Any advice?",1.5083758937691556,4.1278109101123635,2.9452298263534225,88.35755873340145,85.96629213483145,6.157711950970378,22.13585291113381,7.520522993642371,1.1407213483146057,714,25,140,13,22,232,119,178,0.141,0.815,0.044000000000000004,-0.9314,0,0,3,0,0,0,37.0,0,0,0,5,6,5,1,0,4,0,12,7,2,1,1,21,28,12,0,4,5,6,2,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,5,8,4,0,2,1,0,4,6,5,0,4,8,3,17,0,24,20,0,31,1,3,0,0,23,12,1,1,15,85,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11196727656471056,0.0,0.2449045936023922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0916304247920795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07791904358026996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08011773474285026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21423563006896307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09567039122264126,0.06984754496138576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25582069346407005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0987014294184399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1267817531560436,0.0,0.07389529860274792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13428813798360728,0.1122458081561603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10364512018407902,0.0,0.1094871041403288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09746258313239972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09164093336724956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12179429876855455,0.0,0.0,0.15360252594524085,0.0,0.1149341361500414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06297074887307941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11484031425365172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12818688695766645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4025878250012484,0.0,0.12178152352155992,0.0,0.1699207943823341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09785159117807543,0.1089928179460185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09478262912931322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0915045750437565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13002521840841394,0.0,0.0,0.08615069028631203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22385807437599894,0.11928291462395575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351657447088456,0.0,0.4595500369660915,0.1395288513529769,0.0,0.10621778187273764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 alcoholism,sonjat1,2019/03/31,"Dealing with severe alcoholic daughter My 22 year old daughter is a really severe alcoholic. She tries to hide it from me so I can't be totally sure of how much she drinks, but it seems to be some form of hard liquor every 4-6 hours all day, every day. She can't keep a job, stopped going to school and just lies around the house drunk and so sad. I fear if she continues like that she won't live much longer. I am desperate to help her but nothing so far has worked. She has tried AA, detox (like 4 times), rehab, and she just goes right back to drinking. Is there anything I can do as a Mom? I have been told I need to kick her out of the house but not sure I can handle making my daughter homeless.",2.170662100456621,3.6355777328767123,3.2180136986301378,93.66117579908678,76.46575342465755,6.510502283105023,21.755707762557076,7.1686216300943375,0.42091050228310495,543,14,124,6,12,174,96,146,0.192,0.7509999999999999,0.055999999999999994,-0.9594,1,0,4,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,1,9,6,0,1,5,0,15,8,0,2,4,24,21,12,0,2,7,4,1,2,0,1,4,0,0,0,3,6,6,2,1,4,0,1,4,2,1,0,2,1,19,4,14,16,6,14,0,1,0,0,16,4,0,3,11,78,22,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2974873534335807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1145352708656742,0.12390186036536012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10702268818878627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17952229061252634,0.14349096143124734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2726915645902641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2345343800296414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15661891521391472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07910057558341421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12468010827393655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09329104091520043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13706664552173708,0.3211956466598569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1381170736200731,0.12371172812344608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13599499807380627,0.0,0.12290062499360355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09290534475357144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1630087657436152,0.0,0.0,0.2046301834611006,0.10320199933897536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13354928379756098,0.0,0.14604853464009473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0891638209109147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11886102445301801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14086003756424315,0.0,0.12670644597940178,0.0,0.3144730311759417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116362733585782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26235556353102496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08115838718441093,0.0,0.0,0.13299476488666032,0.0,0.18899145123398944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1013264579252062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08962891388764035 alcoholism,moonagemama666,2019/03/31,"Am I to blame? I could write so much, but I’ll try to keep it basic. One of my dearest friends is an alcoholic. He drinks every single day, all day. Over the last few months he’s tried on and off to quit drinking. During those times I’ve never told him when I was out at a bar or talked about drinking, and just generally tried to be mindful of my language when speaking to him. But when he does relapse, I have mentioned if I was out with other friends- when he asks. I’ve never asked him to come drink with me since knowing he had a serious problem (it wasn’t obvious until we became very close and he became more comfortable opening up to me) but there have been times that he’s asked if he could come by to say hi and I said yes, clearly not thinking about whether or not he could handle being in a bar. I understand that this is enabling on my part and it’s something I’ve constantly tried to be more aware of so I don’t do it as often/eventually ever. But regardless of those few times I’ve said yes to hanging out with him in a bar, he goes out and drinks on his own anyways, multiple times a week. I only go out once or twice a month for context.. What brought me here today is an argument we had. He started going on about how he’s going to distance himself while he gets sober and my response was “oh :(“ but I quickly realized that would read as “oh :( don’t abandon me” and not “oh :( I’ll miss you but I understand” so I clarified that RIGHT AWAY and said I completely understood and apologized for how my comment may have come off. He then promptly blamed me for every single relapse he’s ever had since meeting me. He said I’m the biggest compromise to his sobriety in his life. And because I “made everything about me” I am responsible for his drinking. I’m beating myself up HARD over this. I feel sick, I’m crying and shaking, I’m heartbroken. I know logically that what he said to me isn’t true and he was probably lashing out (not to mention he was drunk) but my emotional nature is telling me that if it weren’t for meeting me he would be sober now. He wouldn’t be killing him. He wouldn’t hate his life and living. He would be accomplished. He would have pride. I feel like I took away everything good he could have been by now. I feel worthless. I feel like a monster. I’d also like to point out he has been drinking this way since he was in high school, over a decade ago. I met him about three years ago. Still, I feel responsible. This was longer and messier than I intended, I just need support I suppose. 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There is no moment in my life, when I would have spirit, short drinks, shoots, or any kind of drink, eventhough I was in trouble, stress, or bad situation. Here at the dormitory parties I like to have 5-6 good quality beers maybe some wine. If I'm not drink for like 6day I don't feel anything, like depression or anything. Maybe I just endlessly love beer or something. What is your opinion? Now I'm sober - day 7 - still don't feel addiction, but a beer would be great. Thanks so much guys!! Sorry for bad english. 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Knowing you love someone with all your heart yet still, I had to leave. 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I drink very little. I drink maybe 2-3 cans of cider on fridays or saturdays but not every week. I know my limits... I get ""Asian glow"" and I don't like it. my bf (31M, not Asian) drinks heavily (by my definition maybe not by yours I dont know)... sometimes half a carton (12 cans+) of beer over a period of 10 hours, sometimes a WHOLE CASK (2 litres) of wine a day, he even ""breaks fast"" with beer after intermittent fasting. to ME that does not look healthy at all\_ and he is absolutely, eh, fine. he does not act like an alco. completely functional at work and whatnot. but I certainly don't like it :/ &#x200B; he is never ""violent"" but can be condescending when I decline his request to grab a 6pack of beer while I'm out and he's at home, commenting on facebook messenger ""well maybe one day you'll be useful"" ""what's the point of me going out, you are already out"" making me feel like a failure. I'm currently jobless so I don't always have enough money to spend on alcohol I don't consume myself. &#x200B; I don't want to point out that -I- think he's drinking a lot because he'd say something like ""oh, so you think you can dictate how much I can drink. are you a doctor? no?"" (ironic, not every Asian is a doctor you know) IF him drinking that much is in fact too much, then I want to change that. without much... repercussion. any insight? &#x200B; thanks! please excuse any typos of grammar errors I might have made, I have a flu and not feeling myself! 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My fiancé was able to ween off alcohol after years of heavy drinking a little over a month ago now. Since that time she has had very painful knees and to a lesser extent ankles/feet. Warm and swollen symptoms which makes us think of gout. We are going to the doctor soon because nothing is working and she is losing hope. Has anyone else experienced this or have some insight? Anything helps, thank you. 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I probably would have quit sooner if I had any idea this was a risk. I’m going to try quitting but now what’s the point? I guess I just want to complain. It’s painful and permanent and I’m sad. Stay strong guys. You never know when that next hinge will take everything Away. 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I have for the last 6 years drank between 5-9 cans of Bud Ice or equivalent every day. My entire day consist of me thinking about when I can get my next beer. All of my plans involve me scheduling my day around beer. Drinking affects my work and my motivation; But - I feel like a total pussy complaining about being an alcoholic because I like to drink beer everyday. I know there is something wrong in me that makes me feel this way but I don't know If I'll ever be able to get help as long as I feel like its not a problem, or I'm less of a man for it being a problem. &#x200B;",4.432206682206684,4.705164,5.377296037296038,84.80987567987569,69.83916083916084,8.313597513597513,30.574203574203572,8.167268648758528,2.003790054390054,544,21,115,7,9,179,88,143,0.083,0.7659999999999999,0.15,0.8727,0,0,10,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,3,6,9,1,1,7,0,8,10,0,3,3,26,22,11,0,3,7,0,4,3,1,0,2,1,0,1,5,2,10,0,10,7,0,0,2,6,0,0,1,5,21,3,18,18,3,14,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,3,14,73,26,2,0.1404524209601129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30020184739521144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15218013942988068,0.17066506475009918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12503243229695546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17123698437009047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27174057654117884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41276970523739503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12704725581127405,0.1183372223221393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2840678566419749,0.20067847519525067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1467611859835267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09414229715959437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23156693223463135,0.11448746901740142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20585387506588568,0.0,0.0,0.12429597276976545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.093753081621798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1493727430890554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10682039516864897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2687879966900994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1081271355395406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17999248026209305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1114845942360676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10225103523922237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1535626737294593,0.17066506475009918,0.09044675418480727 alcoholism,Civilized-Penguin,2019/03/31,"I took wellbutrin for 3 days and stopped. Last time I took it was around 33 hours ago. Would it be safe to drink? I don’t want to if it isn’t safe but I cant find an answer anywhere. Ive seen people say its incredibly dangerous and ive also seen many people say that they had no problems. Im not an epileptic and I don’t drink much but when I do its hard liquor. I stopped taking that stuff because I don’t want to deal with any of the possible side effects and my friend took it a while ago and when he got off it he felt absolutely terrible for weeks and had hallucinations.",1.1181707317073195,3.0633004308943086,2.797743902439024,93.26051829268292,81.27642276422766,6.051219512195122,21.6321138211382,7.1686216300943375,0.4409138211382113,455,14,106,6,12,150,77,123,0.168,0.746,0.087,-0.9028,0,0,2,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,1,4,6,1,0,4,0,13,3,0,1,0,24,23,13,0,5,4,0,2,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,10,8,3,4,4,3,0,3,7,3,0,0,10,6,12,3,9,11,1,18,0,0,2,0,7,3,0,1,12,62,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26669108075651343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12029739288597982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10229634774852378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1339130081009371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09169964645921044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09701375704208197,0.15508488915252802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2947247732225534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14443468113510485,0.0,0.13748866750037111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11622046932902548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12031118911358404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13475413767056918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1481414948734075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16248829080720614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12261907638148364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15251060405717826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1105820499172412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2085759736176152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16958521537198007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1439394904064119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23925311598503765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2515294546727643,0.0,0.0,0.1722043218345225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11310330013516072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08771590457509773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5013938609265209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1774529227913343,0.0,0.12066444409292985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10685989122520692,0.0,0.0,0.0